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Speaker 1: Nicky Nicky. Hello here I am. It's a Nicky Glazer podcast.

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Speaker 1: It's Tuesday. Welcome to the show. UM, got a good

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Speaker 1: one for you. I'm feeling it in my bones. We

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Speaker 1: were just talking about wicky feet. Uh noah, and I

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Speaker 1: I am reluctant to even pull up my wiki feet. Gosh,

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna look just so that I know. I can

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Speaker 1: just tell you right now I have it up. UM.

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Speaker 1: People say I'm a size ten, Yeah, I am. Probably

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Speaker 1: that's what they estimated shoes eyes, it's really a nine

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Speaker 1: and a half. If you're gonna send me shoes, let's

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Speaker 1: do a nine slash nine and a half. Ten is

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Speaker 1: always gonna be too big, but it's probably the shoes

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Speaker 1: size I should wear because um my feet though have

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Speaker 1: shaped two and nine because I've made them. Um My

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Speaker 1: bunyans have made my tos curve in to to fit

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Speaker 1: a nine, So UM, I don't wear ten now. UM

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Speaker 1: a lot of uploaded pictures I have a three star rating. UM.

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Speaker 1: I would really like to implore my besties to create

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Speaker 1: a wiki feed account and get my score up if

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Speaker 1: you want to. You know what it is. All my

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Speaker 1: scores are based off of UM I would say mostly

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Speaker 1: this image that I gave to people of my mangled

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Speaker 1: foot on Not Safe when I was doing that show,

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Speaker 1: and it is a groteste picture. I remember, uh, one

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Speaker 1: of my producers coming into my office during those days

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Speaker 1: to be like, hey, we're doing this foot segment, like

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Speaker 1: can we just get a picture of your foot? And

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Speaker 1: I just took out my you know, sweaty, pale, mangled

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Speaker 1: claw of a foot and just put it on this

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Speaker 1: sad carpet of Hollywood Center studio stages and my toneail

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Speaker 1: is like purple. It's so, I mean, it still looks

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Speaker 1: the same. It's very thin, My foot looks very um,

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Speaker 1: my phot looks into rectic. It's like really sad. It

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Speaker 1: looks like a nine eight year old woman's foot. Um,

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Speaker 1: without question. So um, it's how brave of me to

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Speaker 1: put that out there. And then there's other pictures of

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Speaker 1: my foot that are taken from Instagram that have been

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Speaker 1: uploaded where people can see and yeah, so people are

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Speaker 1: oh and people have actually stolen still images from my

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Speaker 1: Instagram story, just flashes of my feet that they've stolen

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Speaker 1: and uploaded, and yeah, my feet aren't great. Um a

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Speaker 1: three out of five. I don't think it's very good

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Speaker 1: for the site. I think most of these people are

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Speaker 1: pretty generous. And um, yeah, that's a sad rating. And

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Speaker 1: how many how many ratings do I even have? We

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Speaker 1: probably have more than reviews of our podcast. Um it

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Speaker 1: doesn't say, but it should say. I want to know.

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Speaker 1: Six hundred sixty five total votes. Oh I see yes,

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Speaker 1: and one seventy three say beautiful, thank you. Let's get

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Speaker 1: that number up. Hundred six say nice, hundred seventeen say okay,

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Speaker 1: and a hundred forty uma say bad, um, bad and ugly.

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Speaker 1: I love that those are different. Bad is slightly better

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Speaker 1: than ugly. Um, you know what, it's whatever. I don't

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Speaker 1: I really don't care. Like I can't control my foot.

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Speaker 1: There's nothing I can do for my feet other than

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Speaker 1: manicure it to change it. I could get surgery. Then

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Speaker 1: I'd be off my feet, and then I wouldn't be

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Speaker 1: able to exercise. Then the rest of me would change,

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Speaker 1: and then I'd get taken down for the rest of me.

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Speaker 1: It's like, you can't you can't win. So not doing

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Speaker 1: anything to my feet love my Bunyan's love the pain

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Speaker 1: it brings me because I like pain and I like

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Speaker 1: having the massage even though no one does it for me.

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Speaker 1: The other day, UM, Andrew and I did a uh

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Speaker 1: foot massage sixty nine or each grabbed because I was like, dude,

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Speaker 1: And I was like just for like ten seconds, He's like,

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Speaker 1: you massage of mine. I was like, great system. I

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Speaker 1: was so good. I was really he knows how good

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Speaker 1: I was, and he likes a foot massage just as

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Speaker 1: much as me. No. It. We used to go in

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Speaker 1: We used to start with a half hour and then

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Speaker 1: half hour and then we bump it up, then we

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Speaker 1: go another half hour. The dollars for an hour you

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Speaker 1: through all that. Um, but I just love a good

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Speaker 1: thinking about it. I gotta get another one of those.

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Speaker 1: That was life changing. Um I am Uh, Kirsten's gone,

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Speaker 1: she left and I'll miss her. Um. She was sleeping

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Speaker 1: in my bed the past five nights. Was so fun.

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Speaker 1: It was fun to be at home this past weekend.

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Speaker 1: I've been out on the road every single weekend um

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Speaker 1: seven or eight weeks in a row. I'm going to

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Speaker 1: Cancoon to Marrow, which we will be putting those that

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Speaker 1: episode will come out eventually. I'm thinking for Thanksgiving. Okay, Oh,

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Speaker 1: that's a good idea. A little yeah, everyone's gonna be

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Speaker 1: around their families, a little vacation in your head, in

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Speaker 1: your ears. Um, that'll be fun. We're going to Cancoon.

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Speaker 1: It's like all these comedians. It's gonna be who's on

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Speaker 1: her I want to get that itinerary because it looks

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Speaker 1: so good. It's like I'm doing goddamn comedy jam, which

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Speaker 1: is when a bunch of comedians play with a band

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Speaker 1: first time and do just an acoustic version of blank Space,

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Speaker 1: which I did last week on the UM Live podcast.

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Speaker 1: So I'm gonna do that again, and then the band's

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Speaker 1: just want to do so low and um yeah, that'll

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Speaker 1: be so fun. That's what I'm looking forward to. And

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Speaker 1: then I'm also doing an hour show and also a

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Speaker 1: live podcast, so it's a lot to do. While I'm

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Speaker 1: in Cancoon, I'm going to get a spray tand today

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Speaker 1: to prepare for it. I haven't even thought about swimsuits

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Speaker 1: around so many comedians? It's been so long? Right? Um? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: It feels a comedians all hanging out like I've been

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Speaker 1: to see Matteo and his sculpted fig um. He has

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Speaker 1: I will be I don't give a f I look fine.

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Speaker 1: the dry clothes, where I go Nikki, you should go

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Speaker 1: be like Ariel's. Um did you ever what was your

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Speaker 1: oh or catering to the male gaze kind of thing

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Speaker 1: boobs or whatever. Do you remember what age? Oh? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: butt started to grow so whenever I would put a

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Speaker 1: two mops in a bucket. Yeah, exactly. I just like

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Speaker 1: those around me who have to comfort me, or if

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00:22:58,280 --> 00:23:01,280
Speaker 1: I go off by myself and cry and the people that, like,

424
00:23:01,400 --> 00:23:02,720
Speaker 1: you know, the other day, I was crying because I

425
00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,000
Speaker 1: was depressed and like there's only so much your friends

426
00:23:06,040 --> 00:23:08,520
Speaker 1: can say or do, which is pretty much nothing when

427
00:23:08,560 --> 00:23:10,639
Speaker 1: you're super depressed. And then I just wanted to go

428
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:12,399
Speaker 1: cry in bed, but I had to wait till like

429
00:23:12,520 --> 00:23:15,000
Speaker 1: the house was cleared out because I didn't want anyone

430
00:23:15,080 --> 00:23:18,080
Speaker 1: to think that I was like I'm sad, Like I

431
00:23:18,119 --> 00:23:21,159
Speaker 1: didn't want to hear you me. I didn't want you

432
00:23:21,240 --> 00:23:23,119
Speaker 1: guys to hear me weeping through the door because I

433
00:23:23,160 --> 00:23:26,399
Speaker 1: thought you might think that I was trying to act

434
00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:29,359
Speaker 1: sadder than I was, Like it always steers stirs up

435
00:23:29,400 --> 00:23:32,040
Speaker 1: in like I'm I'm trying to get attention. I get that.

436
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: I mean because we do. Let's we do try to

437
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,359
Speaker 1: get attention in so many parts of our life, so

438
00:23:37,480 --> 00:23:40,159
Speaker 1: why wouldn't crying be another trying probably is a way

439
00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:44,199
Speaker 1: to get attention because funeral. When I'm at a funeral,

440
00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:46,480
Speaker 1: I don't cry because I don't want the attention on me.

441
00:23:46,600 --> 00:23:49,440
Speaker 1: It's about the dead guy or dead girl, like or

442
00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:53,160
Speaker 1: like I know, I know, but I just it does.

443
00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:55,359
Speaker 1: I have the same kind of thoughts though, like of

444
00:23:55,520 --> 00:23:59,560
Speaker 1: like woe me, or or like I hate when people

445
00:23:59,640 --> 00:24:02,880
Speaker 1: like come for me, like I can't handle it. Yeah,

446
00:24:02,920 --> 00:24:05,479
Speaker 1: I just don't like, I just don't like hates pity too.

447
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:12,000
Speaker 1: It's her least favorite emotion on her of likes they

448
00:24:12,119 --> 00:24:15,960
Speaker 1: glue up there or whatever. Yeah, it's well, I thought

449
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:17,320
Speaker 1: that a lot too as a kid, of like what

450
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:20,760
Speaker 1: are you crying about? That's ridiculous? And but for some

451
00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:25,639
Speaker 1: reason when I love that, when um, I want the

452
00:24:25,680 --> 00:24:27,320
Speaker 1: opposite of what I got as a kid, which was

453
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:29,800
Speaker 1: like not a ton of comfort. And sometimes but my

454
00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:31,960
Speaker 1: mom would sometimes when I was sick, my mom was

455
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:35,760
Speaker 1: really good about you, poor thing, like really good about

456
00:24:35,800 --> 00:24:40,120
Speaker 1: like being nurturing and making me feel like I deserve

457
00:24:40,240 --> 00:24:42,320
Speaker 1: to be sad when I was sick, and so sometimes

458
00:24:42,359 --> 00:24:43,760
Speaker 1: when I get it sick, I would get really like

459
00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:47,399
Speaker 1: I'm a baby, and I just because I do deserve it,

460
00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:49,359
Speaker 1: like and I give it to people too when people

461
00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:51,560
Speaker 1: are sick, I just go, oh, my god, you like

462
00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:54,800
Speaker 1: it's just the worst. And but I think that emotionally,

463
00:24:56,880 --> 00:25:00,159
Speaker 1: I don't have any I don't give myself permission to

464
00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:04,080
Speaker 1: feel sorry for myself when I'm emotionally sad. I just

465
00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:08,040
Speaker 1: think though, like the idea of like the sun clear,

466
00:25:08,240 --> 00:25:10,680
Speaker 1: like thank god our brains are like that. I just

467
00:25:10,720 --> 00:25:12,960
Speaker 1: don't think that I get high enough though, because I

468
00:25:13,080 --> 00:25:14,879
Speaker 1: just go, oh, I mean, the fact that I can

469
00:25:14,920 --> 00:25:17,399
Speaker 1: cry it all is good and better than before. I

470
00:25:17,520 --> 00:25:21,840
Speaker 1: used to just be a fucking you know, desert and

471
00:25:22,359 --> 00:25:25,840
Speaker 1: and just there was a drought. But now when it rains,

472
00:25:25,880 --> 00:25:28,200
Speaker 1: it's just like sometimes you need a little bit more.

473
00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:30,600
Speaker 1: And I just feel like I don't even That's why

474
00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:32,119
Speaker 1: I don't like to cry, because I'm like, I know

475
00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:35,720
Speaker 1: that I won't get It's like masturbating and you know

476
00:25:35,840 --> 00:25:38,240
Speaker 1: you don't get to come, but you know, I like

477
00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:40,280
Speaker 1: to do anyway. But like you just know that there's

478
00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:43,160
Speaker 1: not going to be the actual release because the person

479
00:25:43,400 --> 00:25:45,720
Speaker 1: or getting a massage, Like you don't even want a

480
00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:48,200
Speaker 1: massage for two minutes, that's not worth it to you

481
00:25:48,960 --> 00:25:51,080
Speaker 1: if the person, if you knew after two minutes the

482
00:25:51,119 --> 00:25:52,960
Speaker 1: person was going to be like, I fucking hate doing that.

483
00:25:53,040 --> 00:25:54,840
Speaker 1: So how long do you want to cry for? I mean,

484
00:25:54,880 --> 00:26:00,600
Speaker 1: there's you know, like until I I am to not

485
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:03,240
Speaker 1: because I'm done for other people. And you say the

486
00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:05,920
Speaker 1: other day you were crying and then you were flying.

487
00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:07,760
Speaker 1: You were like, whoa, what was that? Like the sun

488
00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:12,160
Speaker 1: came up? Yes, but then isn't at the end. Yeah,

489
00:26:12,200 --> 00:26:14,480
Speaker 1: but I made it. It just so happened that I

490
00:26:14,600 --> 00:26:18,000
Speaker 1: felt better afterwards. But I think that I needed more

491
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:20,719
Speaker 1: because later that day I was a little bit more weepy,

492
00:26:20,880 --> 00:26:22,600
Speaker 1: and I was just I just couldn't do it because

493
00:26:22,600 --> 00:26:25,000
Speaker 1: I had to go over to my sister's house for

494
00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:26,520
Speaker 1: trick or treating and I didn't want to get there

495
00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:29,959
Speaker 1: and and be, you know, the crying girl, even though

496
00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:32,600
Speaker 1: that's a cool costume. But if I gave you five

497
00:26:32,680 --> 00:26:35,040
Speaker 1: days to cry, I think no, I wouldn't take them.

498
00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:38,800
Speaker 1: That's too long you cry? How long does it last?

499
00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:46,760
Speaker 1: On ap uh. I mean I don't like, no, no

500
00:26:46,880 --> 00:26:52,280
Speaker 1: more than five minutes. I don't even think that's maybe

501
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:55,560
Speaker 1: that's long enough, but I think that is us being

502
00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:58,600
Speaker 1: like I gotta this is just too indulgent. I gotta

503
00:26:58,680 --> 00:27:00,639
Speaker 1: wrap this up. It's like a quickie and sometimes you

504
00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:05,800
Speaker 1: need like really like you need Kama Sutra for like

505
00:27:06,040 --> 00:27:08,840
Speaker 1: it doesn't it's it doesn't you know, like do you

506
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:10,920
Speaker 1: when you finish up crying, does it is it because

507
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,359
Speaker 1: you feel like, okay, this is a little too much

508
00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:14,720
Speaker 1: or is it just like you get it out? Do

509
00:27:14,800 --> 00:27:18,359
Speaker 1: you feel complete thinking about like the last things that

510
00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:20,680
Speaker 1: like what made me cry? And I think it was

511
00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:26,440
Speaker 1: like mourning the loss of my dog. And um, I

512
00:27:26,480 --> 00:27:28,239
Speaker 1: mean I guess I just like lose track of time,

513
00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:31,320
Speaker 1: so I can't tell you how long. But um, when

514
00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 1: he first passed away, I didn't cry at all, and

515
00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:44,520
Speaker 1: then like it just came yeah that's wish. When when

516
00:27:44,600 --> 00:27:46,639
Speaker 1: he died, like I didn't really cry. I was like

517
00:27:46,720 --> 00:27:50,200
Speaker 1: in this weird like mode. And then maybe like a

518
00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:53,399
Speaker 1: month later is when it hit me and I just

519
00:27:53,520 --> 00:27:56,520
Speaker 1: let myself cry as much as possible. Um. It was

520
00:27:56,560 --> 00:28:00,320
Speaker 1: also helpful that I wasn't like like at actual work.

521
00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:04,359
Speaker 1: I was at home, you know, I was um. But

522
00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:06,480
Speaker 1: now but then like you know, like even like a

523
00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:08,840
Speaker 1: year later, I would start thinking about him more if

524
00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 1: I would see his photo and like I would tear

525
00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:14,119
Speaker 1: up and stuff. But it doesn't. I guess I just

526
00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:17,879
Speaker 1: kind of like say, okay, you can let it out now.

527
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:20,160
Speaker 1: And then I just I'm like, Okay, I don't want

528
00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:22,359
Speaker 1: to go into this sad place. Let's think of something

529
00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:27,680
Speaker 1: happier him. And I'm realizing what it is that makes

530
00:28:27,720 --> 00:28:30,320
Speaker 1: me feel so uncomfortable about crying. What is it? It's

531
00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:35,840
Speaker 1: not crying, it's it's that when after you cry, you're happy,

532
00:28:36,800 --> 00:28:42,400
Speaker 1: and it feels like the change, the sudden change is

533
00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:45,960
Speaker 1: like so abrupt that it seems like whatever you were

534
00:28:46,040 --> 00:28:49,120
Speaker 1: upset about was fake and that you tricked everyone around

535
00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:51,280
Speaker 1: you to get the attention and then suddenly got out

536
00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:54,080
Speaker 1: and now you get the attention, and so you're suddenly

537
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:57,000
Speaker 1: happy because you got Like I feel like people think like, oh,

538
00:28:57,120 --> 00:28:58,920
Speaker 1: Nicky just wanted us to get around her and like

539
00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:01,320
Speaker 1: stop down and make everything about her for a second,

540
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:04,000
Speaker 1: and now she's happy, and she's so happy that it

541
00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:06,640
Speaker 1: no one could be that sad and that happy right away.

542
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:09,240
Speaker 1: But the fact of the matter is because I cried,

543
00:29:09,320 --> 00:29:11,120
Speaker 1: I'm able to get it out of the way and

544
00:29:11,240 --> 00:29:14,040
Speaker 1: be happy. But it feels like it feels fake, you know.

545
00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:18,000
Speaker 1: It feels like someone pretending they're drunk or something, or

546
00:29:18,200 --> 00:29:22,200
Speaker 1: someone pretending there. It feels embarrassing. It feels like coming

547
00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:24,880
Speaker 1: a little bit of like it feels out of control,

548
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:28,760
Speaker 1: and you're just like like making weird noises, making weird faces,

549
00:29:28,760 --> 00:29:31,400
Speaker 1: and then afterwards you're just like, okay, like let's go

550
00:29:31,480 --> 00:29:33,960
Speaker 1: back to north, like it's so embarrassing. You're like picking

551
00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:37,440
Speaker 1: up your clothes, like the tissues. It's like where's my underwear?

552
00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:40,760
Speaker 1: Like it's the naked state afterwards where you're like and

553
00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:43,320
Speaker 1: I feel that I feel like a phony because I

554
00:29:43,360 --> 00:29:46,520
Speaker 1: feel so much better after I cry. That it's embarrassing

555
00:29:47,160 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 1: of how and then I feel like everyone's like she

556
00:29:50,160 --> 00:29:53,840
Speaker 1: was just faking it. Everyone used to fake crying. I

557
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:55,800
Speaker 1: think maybe as a kid to get attention, and maybe

558
00:29:55,840 --> 00:29:58,240
Speaker 1: that's what's but everyone wants you to be happy, like

559
00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:01,520
Speaker 1: it would be a weird friend to be like, man,

560
00:30:02,640 --> 00:30:05,160
Speaker 1: she didn't earn it. She's not really sad enough to

561
00:30:05,240 --> 00:30:09,360
Speaker 1: get attention, but she's she's come up with she can

562
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:12,040
Speaker 1: switch on a dime so fast that it makes you

563
00:30:12,280 --> 00:30:16,200
Speaker 1: think like this person's there could be an unstable person

564
00:30:16,360 --> 00:30:20,560
Speaker 1: that like that uses tears for her advantage or whatever.

565
00:30:20,720 --> 00:30:24,200
Speaker 1: But I feel like if it's like being like, oh

566
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:26,440
Speaker 1: my gosh, and we'll be right back with them, and

567
00:30:26,520 --> 00:30:28,600
Speaker 1: we'll be right back with a fun trip to the

568
00:30:28,680 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 1: county fair. Okay, John, get over it? Like that kind

569
00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:36,800
Speaker 1: of like fakeness of like you you can like show

570
00:30:36,840 --> 00:30:39,600
Speaker 1: biz people where they're like, so on, were such a

571
00:30:39,680 --> 00:30:42,800
Speaker 1: good day to day and I don't want to kill myself. Yeah,

572
00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:44,960
Speaker 1: but if it was like if you were crying over

573
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:48,920
Speaker 1: like a Starbucks order. If no, but you had your

574
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:53,400
Speaker 1: heart hurt, you had lack of sleep, you're overworked. There

575
00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:56,200
Speaker 1: were a lot of reasons of why this happened. But

576
00:30:56,320 --> 00:31:00,480
Speaker 1: then suddenly the sun comes out and it's like fake,

577
00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:03,120
Speaker 1: why was she doing? No, that's in your head because

578
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:06,400
Speaker 1: maybe that's what I think of other people sometimes. Then okay, yeah,

579
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:10,400
Speaker 1: I think like kids do that. They're like when I

580
00:31:10,520 --> 00:31:14,520
Speaker 1: asked you later in the day and I was like,

581
00:31:14,760 --> 00:31:16,920
Speaker 1: how are you feeling, You're like but better, and it

582
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:19,640
Speaker 1: made me happy, like I was happy that you got

583
00:31:19,720 --> 00:31:21,720
Speaker 1: through it. It wasn't like, dude, that was kind of

584
00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:24,320
Speaker 1: fake earlier, like she was just acting to get you know,

585
00:31:24,520 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 1: candy of of attention. Like there were no thoughts like that.

586
00:31:28,120 --> 00:31:30,320
Speaker 1: It was literally like, oh, I'm glad she got some

587
00:31:30,480 --> 00:31:33,360
Speaker 1: rest finally, and now she can you know, kind of

588
00:31:33,680 --> 00:31:36,560
Speaker 1: you can view things easier, you can you can understand

589
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:39,120
Speaker 1: things when you're in that state. Dude, you can't control

590
00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:41,240
Speaker 1: it and you don't think that you're in that state

591
00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:44,240
Speaker 1: because you're drawn, like drunk people don't know that. They're like,

592
00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:47,560
Speaker 1: I'm fine, I can drive like they don't know that

593
00:31:47,720 --> 00:31:51,600
Speaker 1: they're impaired, like you don't when you're when you're depressed,

594
00:31:52,000 --> 00:31:55,360
Speaker 1: you don't know that you're not. You think you're off,

595
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 1: but like you can't explain it and you think you're right.

596
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:01,280
Speaker 1: You're like when I get depressed, just like I'm seeing

597
00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:04,040
Speaker 1: things the right way, Like I I'm like a drunk

598
00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 1: person who's like I could drash, shut up, like I

599
00:32:06,800 --> 00:32:09,040
Speaker 1: know what I'm doing, get out of here, like and

600
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:11,200
Speaker 1: it's like, no, we have to take your keys. You're

601
00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:14,280
Speaker 1: you're drunk, And people say, like you're depressed, you're not

602
00:32:14,440 --> 00:32:17,240
Speaker 1: looking at yourself the right way you like, and I

603
00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:18,760
Speaker 1: just don't believe it, and I'm just and then I

604
00:32:18,800 --> 00:32:20,640
Speaker 1: get in the car and I slam into a tree

605
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:24,920
Speaker 1: and that that's what happens. And also as as the

606
00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:28,920
Speaker 1: friend in the scenario, Andrew, I'm sure that you're the same.

607
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:32,560
Speaker 1: But if my friends are feeling sad or emotional over something,

608
00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 1: I never go, oh, don't be sad. It's nothing, because

609
00:32:37,240 --> 00:32:41,760
Speaker 1: who wants to hear that. There's there's versions of that

610
00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:45,720
Speaker 1: that everyone can't help but do because they go, they go,

611
00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:49,440
Speaker 1: but come on, look at your life. You've done that.

612
00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:51,600
Speaker 1: Like I get that all the time for my parents.

613
00:32:51,760 --> 00:32:54,600
Speaker 1: Of like last summer when I was depressed, I remember

614
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:58,360
Speaker 1: my mom saying, you just hosted Jimmy Kimmel. And she

615
00:32:58,480 --> 00:33:01,000
Speaker 1: had a good point because I was like, I want

616
00:33:01,040 --> 00:33:05,080
Speaker 1: to kill myself. And she's like, but everything you've dreamed

617
00:33:05,120 --> 00:33:07,280
Speaker 1: of is coming true. And I'm like, yeah, you're right, mom.

618
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:10,120
Speaker 1: Back in second grade, I said I wanted to guest

619
00:33:10,160 --> 00:33:13,360
Speaker 1: host Jimmy Kimmel from an abandoned mansion in Hollywood during

620
00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:16,440
Speaker 1: a pandemic, and it is coming true. It's crazy that

621
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:19,840
Speaker 1: I predicted that. No, but it's like people will try

622
00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:21,840
Speaker 1: to I think that's it. I just was raised by

623
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 1: parents that are like but starving kids in Africa and also, look,

624
00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:28,040
Speaker 1: you have food and clothes and parents who love you.

625
00:33:28,200 --> 00:33:29,920
Speaker 1: What are you crying about? And then I feel like

626
00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:33,120
Speaker 1: on your end, like you almost you feel like you

627
00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:37,240
Speaker 1: need to justify your sadness, like your depression, Like you

628
00:33:37,360 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 1: need to find a reason. Sometimes I feel like your

629
00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:45,160
Speaker 1: brain like searches for something to be negative to match

630
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 1: how you're feeling emotionally. Yeah, and like you almost like

631
00:33:49,920 --> 00:33:53,760
Speaker 1: out hard is it to feel depressed when there's nothing wrong?

632
00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:56,800
Speaker 1: It's embarrassing? No, I know, I know you have to

633
00:33:56,880 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 1: find something, Like it's like a survival mechanism of like

634
00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:03,760
Speaker 1: you're drowning and you're grasping for something to justify into,

635
00:34:03,840 --> 00:34:06,480
Speaker 1: like almost hold you up and like give you a

636
00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:09,600
Speaker 1: because if you find that thing that you can go

637
00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:11,920
Speaker 1: that's what's wrong. At least it gives you hope that

638
00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:15,279
Speaker 1: if I fix that, or if that wasn't there, I

639
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:18,200
Speaker 1: wouldn't be drowning. But if you're just drowning with nothing

640
00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:20,480
Speaker 1: to point to, it feels like I'm going to just

641
00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:22,800
Speaker 1: die out here, I guess, And I guess you just

642
00:34:22,880 --> 00:34:25,479
Speaker 1: gotta figure out how to not get in the water.

643
00:34:26,239 --> 00:34:28,560
Speaker 1: Without being able to swim. Before you start looking for

644
00:34:28,680 --> 00:34:31,160
Speaker 1: something to justify the water is gonna come. I'm gonna

645
00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:33,760
Speaker 1: fall off the boat sometimes. And I think that everyone

646
00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:36,560
Speaker 1: listening that has depression, you're gonna I'm gonna be depressed again.

647
00:34:36,640 --> 00:34:40,160
Speaker 1: It's gonna come up. I just have coping mechanisms of

648
00:34:41,160 --> 00:34:44,480
Speaker 1: knowing that it's okay to ask for to spend a

649
00:34:44,680 --> 00:34:48,160
Speaker 1: great beautiful day outside in bed and get a nap

650
00:34:48,239 --> 00:34:52,200
Speaker 1: in It's okay. It's okay too. I can journal about it.

651
00:34:52,600 --> 00:34:55,360
Speaker 1: I can ask my friends, like, do you mind if

652
00:34:55,400 --> 00:34:57,560
Speaker 1: I just sing a bunch of songs really loud to

653
00:34:57,600 --> 00:35:01,120
Speaker 1: get my feelings out? I can, you know, I can,

654
00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:04,120
Speaker 1: just I can. I can treat myself like I'm sick

655
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:08,120
Speaker 1: and like give myself the same kind of leeway and

656
00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:11,360
Speaker 1: um softness and gentleness and ask for it for my

657
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:13,080
Speaker 1: friends that I do. If I had the flu, like

658
00:35:13,200 --> 00:35:15,680
Speaker 1: I just got to start treating the depression depression like

659
00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:19,279
Speaker 1: the flu. And that's why I mean when I get sick,

660
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:23,800
Speaker 1: I I had a commitment on Sunday that I just

661
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:26,080
Speaker 1: said I have the flu of the brain like I

662
00:35:26,200 --> 00:35:31,279
Speaker 1: have legit uh contagious because I'm going to bring everyone down.

663
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:32,960
Speaker 1: I can't be around people and look and I go.

664
00:35:33,239 --> 00:35:36,680
Speaker 1: Unless I can take some cold ease and get rid

665
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:38,440
Speaker 1: of this, I'm not going out tonight because I can

666
00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:43,400
Speaker 1: infect everyone. Yeah, And the reaction was was, I'm that

667
00:35:43,680 --> 00:35:46,759
Speaker 1: totally staying Like I just I hope that we can

668
00:35:46,880 --> 00:35:50,320
Speaker 1: just as a culture like embrace calling and depressed and

669
00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:53,600
Speaker 1: not have it be like did And that it's because

670
00:35:53,920 --> 00:35:56,320
Speaker 1: because I don't get physically sick, and it's like a

671
00:35:56,440 --> 00:35:59,080
Speaker 1: bummer to me because I don't get to ever call

672
00:35:59,239 --> 00:36:01,759
Speaker 1: in sick, and if I do, it's a lot, it's

673
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:04,040
Speaker 1: a if I if I say I'm feeling sick, I

674
00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:07,600
Speaker 1: rarely get physically sick. I get mentally sick, and people

675
00:36:07,719 --> 00:36:10,840
Speaker 1: just it creeps people out. It makes them worried in

676
00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:13,800
Speaker 1: a way that you know, being physically sick doesn't. And

677
00:36:14,440 --> 00:36:16,879
Speaker 1: but it's the honest truth that sometimes I just can't work.

678
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:20,680
Speaker 1: You know, I've had depression where you can't pinpoint it

679
00:36:21,320 --> 00:36:23,879
Speaker 1: and you're just like stuck in bed and you can't

680
00:36:23,880 --> 00:36:25,120
Speaker 1: call your friends and say I can't come to that

681
00:36:25,120 --> 00:36:27,480
Speaker 1: because I'm depressed. You just have to say I'm not

682
00:36:27,600 --> 00:36:31,200
Speaker 1: feeling it, which you know is the same thing. Yeah, Like, yeah,

683
00:36:31,400 --> 00:36:33,799
Speaker 1: it's hard. It's hard. I mean I've I've gone through

684
00:36:33,880 --> 00:36:37,239
Speaker 1: months of depression in the past, but I've don't your

685
00:36:37,280 --> 00:36:39,919
Speaker 1: depression look like though you don't have the voice saying

686
00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:44,799
Speaker 1: killed myself. I say kill Nikki, kill Nikki, And people

687
00:36:44,840 --> 00:36:47,120
Speaker 1: do get homicidal depression for sure. Oh I don't think

688
00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:49,399
Speaker 1: I have that. I I mean, I I don't even

689
00:36:49,480 --> 00:36:52,600
Speaker 1: know if we have a weapon. But um, I've looked.

690
00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:56,080
Speaker 1: But oh shit. But then I gotta go down to

691
00:36:56,160 --> 00:36:58,640
Speaker 1: my car and you're gonna blood all over them. You

692
00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:00,160
Speaker 1: just got them. You have to trade them in a again,

693
00:37:00,160 --> 00:37:04,640
Speaker 1: and they'll be like, well these have pieces of and

694
00:37:04,760 --> 00:37:08,640
Speaker 1: they'll be like that, sir, step right up. All right,

695
00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:11,719
Speaker 1: that's pretty dark. But no, my depression is going. I

696
00:37:11,840 --> 00:37:13,920
Speaker 1: still go to my room and I just lay down

697
00:37:14,000 --> 00:37:16,160
Speaker 1: and I just recoup. And that's why when you're like

698
00:37:16,239 --> 00:37:17,839
Speaker 1: you go to your layer a lot, I go, Yeah,

699
00:37:17,880 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 1: I go there to just met alone time. I just

700
00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:23,200
Speaker 1: worry that sometimes I guess I'm projecting, Like that's why

701
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:25,480
Speaker 1: I feel bad when I take a nap when I'm depressed,

702
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:27,480
Speaker 1: because that's also the thing I want to do. That's

703
00:37:27,480 --> 00:37:29,160
Speaker 1: like my cutting when I'm depressed, because they go in

704
00:37:29,200 --> 00:37:31,480
Speaker 1: there and I think about killing myself. But I don't

705
00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:33,120
Speaker 1: know the difference between I need a nap and I

706
00:37:33,239 --> 00:37:36,000
Speaker 1: want to just check out from the day, And I

707
00:37:36,200 --> 00:37:39,359
Speaker 1: know that checking out from the day is not what's

708
00:37:39,400 --> 00:37:41,000
Speaker 1: good for me. That's why I had to stop and

709
00:37:41,040 --> 00:37:43,719
Speaker 1: stay out in the kitchen so long until I realized, like,

710
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:45,880
Speaker 1: are you wanting to go to bed to escape from

711
00:37:45,920 --> 00:37:47,920
Speaker 1: the day or because you're really tired, And it was like,

712
00:37:48,120 --> 00:37:50,600
Speaker 1: I'm tired for you, yeah, But for me, it's just

713
00:37:50,719 --> 00:37:53,520
Speaker 1: like it's a balance. Like we talk here for an

714
00:37:53,560 --> 00:37:56,480
Speaker 1: hour and a half, then we might shoot some stuff

715
00:37:56,560 --> 00:37:59,759
Speaker 1: for a cup three hours, and then I hit golf

716
00:37:59,800 --> 00:38:01,920
Speaker 1: ball us for two hours, and then I just go

717
00:38:02,040 --> 00:38:03,919
Speaker 1: in bed, I put on a show I want to watch.

718
00:38:04,239 --> 00:38:06,520
Speaker 1: I'm not like overthinking it, like oh no, but I'm

719
00:38:06,520 --> 00:38:09,560
Speaker 1: talking about when you're depressed, but when I'm depressed, when

720
00:38:09,560 --> 00:38:11,960
Speaker 1: I'm depressident could almost look a lot like that too.

721
00:38:12,239 --> 00:38:15,320
Speaker 1: That's why that's why I'm saying when you do usually depressed,

722
00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:17,920
Speaker 1: Hey are you okay? Yeah, I'm good. I'm just I

723
00:38:18,040 --> 00:38:20,600
Speaker 1: call Brenna a lot of times, like we check in

724
00:38:20,719 --> 00:38:22,880
Speaker 1: and I hear you talking sometimes and then I go, oh,

725
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:24,960
Speaker 1: you're just like hanging out with your girlfriend. And I

726
00:38:25,080 --> 00:38:27,200
Speaker 1: get it. Like if I had a TV in my room,

727
00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:30,560
Speaker 1: I definitely wouldn't use it, but if there was something

728
00:38:30,640 --> 00:38:32,840
Speaker 1: in my room, but if there was a friend in

729
00:38:32,920 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 1: my room, I might hang out in there. Let's get

730
00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:39,640
Speaker 1: to the news. Someone to whisper, nothing, just to yes,

731
00:38:40,400 --> 00:38:49,040
Speaker 1: I do Luigi first. I think Luigi's interactic. Well, they

732
00:38:49,080 --> 00:38:57,480
Speaker 1: say the dogs take on the Yeah, thank you. Oh

733
00:38:57,520 --> 00:39:04,239
Speaker 1: my god, have you noticed it's back? Baby. It's like

734
00:39:04,360 --> 00:39:07,640
Speaker 1: a dog knows a storm is is coming before the

735
00:39:07,719 --> 00:39:10,959
Speaker 1: storm comes. You're gonna look great at two months next.

736
00:39:11,120 --> 00:39:13,280
Speaker 1: But I think he's not eating to get my attention

737
00:39:13,400 --> 00:39:15,680
Speaker 1: to be like, hey, I'm I'm distressed. And that's what

738
00:39:15,719 --> 00:39:18,239
Speaker 1: anorexia is. It's not really about like, oh I want

739
00:39:18,239 --> 00:39:21,360
Speaker 1: to be thin and beautiful. It's about I am suffering

740
00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:23,560
Speaker 1: and I don't know how to show it. And it's

741
00:39:23,600 --> 00:39:25,960
Speaker 1: like cutting yourself slowly. And I think that he's not

742
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:29,399
Speaker 1: eating right now to tell me something like I'm stressed, mom.

743
00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,560
Speaker 1: He could get sad. I mean, you know, when we

744
00:39:32,680 --> 00:39:35,359
Speaker 1: have big highs. He had a huge high the other day,

745
00:39:36,080 --> 00:39:38,560
Speaker 1: hanging out with the fam, hanging out with Marion, running

746
00:39:38,640 --> 00:39:41,800
Speaker 1: around and right after he got a tooth removed, and

747
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:44,279
Speaker 1: he was on anesthesia the day before and he was

748
00:39:44,320 --> 00:39:47,080
Speaker 1: on pain meds and so he had this this high

749
00:39:47,160 --> 00:39:49,680
Speaker 1: euphoria day and now he's coming down and I made

750
00:39:49,719 --> 00:39:52,040
Speaker 1: him say goodbye, and he like it really made him

751
00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:54,560
Speaker 1: wallow in it. So maybe that's it. But apparently I

752
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:56,560
Speaker 1: hope you're having a good time out there. It's all

753
00:39:56,600 --> 00:40:00,520
Speaker 1: the swells and it's Wednesday, so or it's Tuesday. You

754
00:40:00,600 --> 00:40:02,360
Speaker 1: know what that means. God, I just got hit by

755
00:40:02,400 --> 00:40:06,840
Speaker 1: a really good mood. Really yeah, like the coffee. No,

756
00:40:06,960 --> 00:40:09,520
Speaker 1: I think it was just like the conversation. Yeah, I'm glad.

757
00:40:09,560 --> 00:40:11,839
Speaker 1: I'm glad that we process some stuff. It's good. Thank

758
00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:14,520
Speaker 1: you guys. Yeah, of course, I like talking about this

759
00:40:14,560 --> 00:40:17,439
Speaker 1: ship is so much more interesting than like, I don't

760
00:40:17,480 --> 00:40:21,279
Speaker 1: know the first headline Dave Chappelle's comedy special Interesting you

761
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:27,760
Speaker 1: say that, No way, okay, Dave Chappelle. A new study

762
00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:31,400
Speaker 1: finds at the height of your heels can boost your

763
00:40:31,560 --> 00:40:34,560
Speaker 1: orgasm because when a woman is standing in them, their

764
00:40:34,640 --> 00:40:39,200
Speaker 1: pelvis tilts enough so that the muscles repeated contract. Strong

765
00:40:39,280 --> 00:40:43,719
Speaker 1: pelvic floor muscles can also mean increase sensitivity during sex.

766
00:40:44,400 --> 00:40:48,120
Speaker 1: This is like, this is the shoe lobby, this is

767
00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:57,520
Speaker 1: getting it there into the you know, yeah, they paid

768
00:40:57,600 --> 00:41:00,520
Speaker 1: someone to do a study. I mean this is ridiculous.

769
00:41:00,960 --> 00:41:04,399
Speaker 1: Like was like, how can I get women to keep

770
00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:07,239
Speaker 1: wearing heels? Oh? I know it makes you come like,

771
00:41:07,680 --> 00:41:09,319
Speaker 1: I mean, women are going to keep wearing wearing heels

772
00:41:09,360 --> 00:41:11,400
Speaker 1: because they make your legs look fucking fantastic and they

773
00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:13,400
Speaker 1: make your feet look really cute. And as someone who

774
00:41:13,440 --> 00:41:16,280
Speaker 1: has a three out of five stars on Wiki feet, listen,

775
00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:19,120
Speaker 1: the only pictures that are pulling that up to a

776
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:21,759
Speaker 1: three and not a one are the ones of my

777
00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:24,960
Speaker 1: feet and heels. Two heels is the optimal, So that's

778
00:41:25,000 --> 00:41:27,120
Speaker 1: not that high right now, It's not too bad. I've

779
00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:30,920
Speaker 1: been wearing only heels on stage, not heels. Not like, um,

780
00:41:32,239 --> 00:41:34,040
Speaker 1: you've seen what I hate. I brought it on the show.

781
00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,960
Speaker 1: I just hate a pump like a tall stiletto. But

782
00:41:38,080 --> 00:41:42,080
Speaker 1: I love boots. I love boots. Um, I love wearing

783
00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:44,839
Speaker 1: them on stage. Tall the higher the better. It's hard

784
00:41:44,880 --> 00:41:46,319
Speaker 1: to dance on them at the end of our set,

785
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:49,239
Speaker 1: but it just makes me feel I kind of go

786
00:41:49,400 --> 00:41:53,759
Speaker 1: numb during when I'm performing the Analine. The second I

787
00:41:53,800 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 1: walk off stage, It's like when mab later in the day,

788
00:41:57,640 --> 00:42:02,720
Speaker 1: Do you think you're pelvic muscle? Is the question I wonder,

789
00:42:03,080 --> 00:42:06,560
Speaker 1: let's try to pay attention to it. I don't. I

790
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:09,640
Speaker 1: don't think that's all get together and pay attention to

791
00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:13,040
Speaker 1: your I mean, my sister just had a she has

792
00:42:13,040 --> 00:42:16,600
Speaker 1: a tilted pelvis from pregnancy. That's a real thing. Yeah,

793
00:42:16,880 --> 00:42:19,360
Speaker 1: what does that mean a lot of pain and she

794
00:42:19,440 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 1: has to go do physical therapy for it. They have

795
00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:25,000
Speaker 1: her walking and heels. Um they ever walking in heels

796
00:42:25,040 --> 00:42:27,680
Speaker 1: that actually the top of her feet go up so

797
00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:33,920
Speaker 1: that she can tilt back. She's wearing yeah. Yeah, remember

798
00:42:34,040 --> 00:42:37,920
Speaker 1: those those fit flops or those fit shoes that had

799
00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:40,640
Speaker 1: like the heel where if you wore them, you would

800
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:45,800
Speaker 1: it would work work you out fit fit flops. No,

801
00:42:46,160 --> 00:42:48,200
Speaker 1: you got to remember these. They were all the rage

802
00:42:48,200 --> 00:42:52,359
Speaker 1: about eight years ago. Look at fit flops everyone they

803
00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:55,239
Speaker 1: were My mom had a pair, and they're supposed to

804
00:42:55,280 --> 00:42:57,279
Speaker 1: work your cab muscles because they had a little bit

805
00:42:57,400 --> 00:43:02,040
Speaker 1: more um, Like, the the sole of the shoe came

806
00:43:02,120 --> 00:43:04,640
Speaker 1: at an inclined by your toes, so you're constantly like

807
00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:08,440
Speaker 1: kind of working uphill. Yeah, yeah, you would walk more

808
00:43:08,520 --> 00:43:12,000
Speaker 1: like I don't do keegels or any kind of vagina exercises.

809
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:14,000
Speaker 1: And I know I have those like balls that you're

810
00:43:14,000 --> 00:43:15,759
Speaker 1: supposed to put up your vaginat's supposed to like you're

811
00:43:15,760 --> 00:43:17,600
Speaker 1: supposed to. I don't know what you're supposed to do

812
00:43:17,640 --> 00:43:22,160
Speaker 1: with them, but they're like yeah, and what does that

813
00:43:22,280 --> 00:43:24,600
Speaker 1: do tighten your vagina? But right now I'm doing some

814
00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:29,759
Speaker 1: kind of pelvic floor thrust and um, it doesn't make

815
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:31,920
Speaker 1: me a little bit like horny, like it gets that

816
00:43:32,040 --> 00:43:37,080
Speaker 1: vagina muscle like cranking. Um, you can do keegels, uh, guy,

817
00:43:37,200 --> 00:43:39,120
Speaker 1: Like I could feel it right now. It's like on

818
00:43:39,280 --> 00:43:43,919
Speaker 1: the basis basically eagles, uh strong enough for a woman

819
00:43:44,280 --> 00:43:46,960
Speaker 1: like your penis would be going like yeah, well it

820
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 1: doesn't like shoot up, but you could feel it in

821
00:43:49,040 --> 00:43:52,560
Speaker 1: the the head not the head, the base of your penuts.

822
00:43:53,160 --> 00:43:57,080
Speaker 1: And it was apparently allows you to get harder, easier

823
00:43:57,160 --> 00:43:59,840
Speaker 1: or longer, and like it helps your erection. But now

824
00:44:00,360 --> 00:44:03,080
Speaker 1: it's hard whenever it takes do it for like to

825
00:44:03,400 --> 00:44:06,480
Speaker 1: two times, and then I'm like that's hard. Yeah, it's

826
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:09,439
Speaker 1: not like if I can't see the results right away,

827
00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:11,440
Speaker 1: I'm not going to be doing it. And no, none,

828
00:44:12,040 --> 00:44:15,480
Speaker 1: none of my partner will truly ever be are honest

829
00:44:15,560 --> 00:44:18,000
Speaker 1: with me about like I don't want I would never

830
00:44:18,160 --> 00:44:20,520
Speaker 1: want him to be. But I don't want anyone to

831
00:44:20,600 --> 00:44:22,919
Speaker 1: be like, oh, you're feeling looser than before, you're feeling

832
00:44:23,000 --> 00:44:25,440
Speaker 1: tighter than like. I don't want to know. I don't

833
00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:27,280
Speaker 1: want to know what it is based on other women's

834
00:44:27,480 --> 00:44:29,560
Speaker 1: Like I have a friend who's like, oh, my vagina

835
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:33,000
Speaker 1: is so huge, like inside it's just like massive. And

836
00:44:33,480 --> 00:44:35,360
Speaker 1: she's just like, I just have a really wide vagina.

837
00:44:35,440 --> 00:44:38,280
Speaker 1: I'm just like I that is to me, the worst

838
00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:40,799
Speaker 1: thing anyone could say about me. I don't know why.

839
00:44:41,239 --> 00:44:43,799
Speaker 1: I mean, I do know why. But and she's someone

840
00:44:43,880 --> 00:44:48,080
Speaker 1: who like cares very much about looks and like body image,

841
00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:50,040
Speaker 1: but she's just like, yeah, I have a really fucking

842
00:44:50,080 --> 00:44:53,000
Speaker 1: wine pussy. And it's like she's very nonchalant about it.

843
00:44:53,400 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 1: Know what, do you worry about your tightness and your

844
00:44:56,200 --> 00:44:59,440
Speaker 1: keygels and your pelvic floor and all that stuff? Uh?

845
00:45:00,200 --> 00:45:03,279
Speaker 1: I mean I wouldn't say that I worry about it. Um,

846
00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:06,919
Speaker 1: you are reminding me of a story. Um, a friend

847
00:45:06,960 --> 00:45:11,280
Speaker 1: of mine she hooked up with UM like a couple,

848
00:45:11,960 --> 00:45:14,440
Speaker 1: and she was she was telling me about hooking up

849
00:45:14,520 --> 00:45:18,120
Speaker 1: with the woman and she goes, you know, like it

850
00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:21,160
Speaker 1: just felt like a hole in there and I've never

851
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 1: felt anything like that before. Mmmm, that's what they say,

852
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:27,880
Speaker 1: what your asshole feels like? Well, I wonder, I wonder,

853
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:31,440
Speaker 1: Like we say all of this, but it's like, what

854
00:45:31,760 --> 00:45:34,960
Speaker 1: how much bigger could have vagina? B you know what

855
00:45:35,040 --> 00:45:39,160
Speaker 1: I mean? Like wider wise? Like are we talking centimeters?

856
00:45:39,200 --> 00:45:44,200
Speaker 1: Are we talking inches? I'm I don't know. I guess

857
00:45:44,239 --> 00:45:46,600
Speaker 1: you would know if like if someone hands you a

858
00:45:46,680 --> 00:45:49,000
Speaker 1: super tampon and you go, oh my god, yeah right,

859
00:45:49,200 --> 00:45:51,440
Speaker 1: never gonna do that. And then if for me a

860
00:45:51,480 --> 00:45:54,960
Speaker 1: super tampon, no probab, let's get it up there. Like

861
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:56,560
Speaker 1: I can take it. I can take like a lot.

862
00:45:56,719 --> 00:45:59,880
Speaker 1: But how wide super tampon is not wider than penis? No? No, no,

863
00:46:00,080 --> 00:46:01,840
Speaker 1: it's not. But I mean there are some girls that

864
00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:04,160
Speaker 1: are like how we like, And there are times when

865
00:46:04,200 --> 00:46:05,759
Speaker 1: I haven't had sex in a really long time or

866
00:46:05,800 --> 00:46:08,200
Speaker 1: had anything up there, and putting in a super tampon

867
00:46:08,280 --> 00:46:11,239
Speaker 1: when you're not like gushing, like you're just kind of

868
00:46:11,719 --> 00:46:15,279
Speaker 1: like menstruating, it hurts a little bit and I'm like, oh,

869
00:46:15,680 --> 00:46:18,480
Speaker 1: goun it back, you know. But then there's times that

870
00:46:19,200 --> 00:46:21,360
Speaker 1: there's times you leave the plastic on too. Yeah, I

871
00:46:21,440 --> 00:46:26,160
Speaker 1: use magnum tampons sometimes and uh, it's just throwing a

872
00:46:26,200 --> 00:46:28,719
Speaker 1: hot dog down the hallway. So wait, so tampons though,

873
00:46:28,840 --> 00:46:31,520
Speaker 1: just for guys out there, I know there's like there's

874
00:46:31,600 --> 00:46:34,880
Speaker 1: different kinds. Right. That's the width of it or how

875
00:46:34,960 --> 00:46:38,800
Speaker 1: much it's pretty much the girth of it. Okay, So

876
00:46:38,880 --> 00:46:41,520
Speaker 1: it's not about blood flow. It's not. It is because

877
00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:43,759
Speaker 1: I mean a girthier tampon is going to have more

878
00:46:43,840 --> 00:46:47,799
Speaker 1: cotton to absorb more. So it's it's the more blood flow.

879
00:46:48,200 --> 00:46:51,160
Speaker 1: You'll pick up, bigger tampon that's going to have more

880
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:53,880
Speaker 1: of It's gonna be a tree that's been in the

881
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:55,799
Speaker 1: ground a little bit longer, more rings on that tree,

882
00:46:56,080 --> 00:47:01,000
Speaker 1: you know. So what's the biggest one? Super super super plus?

883
00:47:01,160 --> 00:47:02,880
Speaker 1: I believe I think you can go up to a

884
00:47:02,920 --> 00:47:10,000
Speaker 1: superplus with tamp box brand now suppository, I don't know,

885
00:47:10,800 --> 00:47:14,279
Speaker 1: just a little needle. It's you get the vaccine. It's

886
00:47:14,360 --> 00:47:17,480
Speaker 1: a cotton vaccine up your pus. Um. Yeah you um.

887
00:47:18,000 --> 00:47:20,680
Speaker 1: Diva cups are the ones that everyone uses. But good lord,

888
00:47:20,800 --> 00:47:24,239
Speaker 1: that is just so scary to take out. Um. That's

889
00:47:24,760 --> 00:47:28,000
Speaker 1: that collects all the blood and like a goblet, like

890
00:47:28,120 --> 00:47:30,759
Speaker 1: a king's goblet, and then you take it out or

891
00:47:31,239 --> 00:47:33,520
Speaker 1: sometimes it looks like a Lance Armstrong bracelet and and

892
00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:37,480
Speaker 1: like it's like a very taut The thing is you

893
00:47:37,520 --> 00:47:39,000
Speaker 1: can have sex with those, and you put it in

894
00:47:39,080 --> 00:47:43,000
Speaker 1: and it completely blocks your vaginal hole from having any

895
00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:49,399
Speaker 1: blood flow and it stays up there like you put this, um. Yeah,

896
00:47:49,440 --> 00:47:51,120
Speaker 1: but then you you take it out and you take

897
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:53,239
Speaker 1: it out like like a cup, and then you go

898
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:54,879
Speaker 1: with this and it's just like a little bit. It's

899
00:47:54,880 --> 00:47:56,879
Speaker 1: almost like a baggy. It looks like a dental damn

900
00:47:56,920 --> 00:47:59,360
Speaker 1: kind of baggy and has blood in it. And I

901
00:47:59,440 --> 00:48:02,399
Speaker 1: mean I've said this before, but I remember using those

902
00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: and taking them out when I had like white just

903
00:48:04,719 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 1: like a light color jean on at a restaurant and

904
00:48:07,120 --> 00:48:09,959
Speaker 1: I'm like, if there was an earthquake or god forbid,

905
00:48:10,040 --> 00:48:11,400
Speaker 1: someone walked in the stall and I was like, oh

906
00:48:11,800 --> 00:48:15,160
Speaker 1: and like spilled it slashed everywhere, or I poured out

907
00:48:15,200 --> 00:48:19,200
Speaker 1: some for my homies, it would be a nightmare the

908
00:48:19,280 --> 00:48:22,319
Speaker 1: other night like, can can hardly not, can hardly wait?

909
00:48:22,800 --> 00:48:26,440
Speaker 1: What's the movie with Patrick Dempsey where he dances oh

910
00:48:26,560 --> 00:48:34,920
Speaker 1: the American? Like oh, oh yeah, yes, it would be

911
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:37,239
Speaker 1: like that. I love when I come up with things.

912
00:48:37,680 --> 00:48:40,960
Speaker 1: All right, let's get to the next story. Apparently apparently.

913
00:48:42,280 --> 00:48:45,400
Speaker 1: I mean watching that video thoday was so fun I

914
00:48:45,480 --> 00:48:48,120
Speaker 1: can't believe Kurston never saw it. There's some video today.

915
00:48:48,200 --> 00:48:52,359
Speaker 1: I watched Pete Davidson's Okay for the first time. Yeah,

916
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:56,520
Speaker 1: Kirsten was doing I gotta say that Kirsten's rendition of

917
00:48:56,640 --> 00:48:58,399
Speaker 1: it and telling me what it was was like, I'm

918
00:48:58,560 --> 00:49:01,040
Speaker 1: staring at you through the window. I'm going to stick

919
00:49:01,080 --> 00:49:04,280
Speaker 1: a knife in your flesh in your face. He's like, Okay,

920
00:49:04,680 --> 00:49:09,160
Speaker 1: that was funnier than the sketch itself. Person is so

921
00:49:09,600 --> 00:49:12,760
Speaker 1: funny unny. I said to her today, I go, honestly,

922
00:49:13,160 --> 00:49:15,160
Speaker 1: the way you described and let's be honest. She was

923
00:49:15,840 --> 00:49:18,719
Speaker 1: she stole an idea, like it was their idea there.

924
00:49:19,640 --> 00:49:22,359
Speaker 1: But she is so funny. And I've said this before.

925
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:24,279
Speaker 1: I remembered as a kid, like I remember where I

926
00:49:24,400 --> 00:49:25,799
Speaker 1: was when I go, She's going to be on SNL

927
00:49:25,880 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 1: and it's like my dream, like to be on TV

928
00:49:28,239 --> 00:49:30,440
Speaker 1: in that way, and I just I can't be It's

929
00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 1: just undeniable that this person is funnier than me. And

930
00:49:33,040 --> 00:49:36,800
Speaker 1: everyone says that everyone knows it. She's just insanely funny

931
00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:39,560
Speaker 1: um in a different way than I am, obviously, But

932
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:42,040
Speaker 1: I said to her this morning, I was like god,

933
00:49:42,160 --> 00:49:44,719
Speaker 1: I was like you, honestly, if you tried right now,

934
00:49:44,840 --> 00:49:46,759
Speaker 1: you could get on SNL. You could Leslie Jones, you know,

935
00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:49,120
Speaker 1: Leslie Jones didn't get on SNL until she's in her forties.

936
00:49:49,480 --> 00:49:51,680
Speaker 1: But Kirsen really could get on SNL. She started doing

937
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:54,600
Speaker 1: characters on Instagram without question. I believe if she committed

938
00:49:54,640 --> 00:49:57,239
Speaker 1: to it um and especially with like my help putting

939
00:49:57,280 --> 00:50:00,640
Speaker 1: her out there, it would happen. She's that good um.

940
00:50:01,280 --> 00:50:03,600
Speaker 1: But she just goes yeah, like I just feel like

941
00:50:04,320 --> 00:50:06,680
Speaker 1: I probably could, but like this is just my life,

942
00:50:06,760 --> 00:50:08,520
Speaker 1: and like you just like there's just some life, Like

943
00:50:08,680 --> 00:50:10,320
Speaker 1: you can't have every life you want. I was like,

944
00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:13,160
Speaker 1: I love the idea of like she knows, she knows

945
00:50:13,200 --> 00:50:17,000
Speaker 1: she's funny enough and she is and just being like no, thanks,

946
00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:19,520
Speaker 1: like I would. And I guess I'm passing up like

947
00:50:19,760 --> 00:50:22,839
Speaker 1: motherhood or like being a teacher. Many lives I could

948
00:50:22,840 --> 00:50:25,000
Speaker 1: have that would be gratifying. But to turn down a

949
00:50:25,080 --> 00:50:28,160
Speaker 1: life that could be s and now with I would

950
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:31,040
Speaker 1: say I would be eighty percent sure. I could get

951
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:35,759
Speaker 1: her on s I now if I if I'm not

952
00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:37,680
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be I'm not joking. I think

953
00:50:37,719 --> 00:50:41,520
Speaker 1: she's very funny. But then I think, you know, her

954
00:50:41,600 --> 00:50:46,239
Speaker 1: character work is she's never had any training, a little

955
00:50:46,239 --> 00:50:49,720
Speaker 1: bit of training. Honestly, I could get her. There should

956
00:50:49,760 --> 00:50:54,600
Speaker 1: be like of like, uh, you know, like comedians. I

957
00:50:54,640 --> 00:50:58,840
Speaker 1: could train comedians, not stand ups for some reason, but like,

958
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:01,560
Speaker 1: I don't know, I'm good at sketching impressions, but I

959
00:51:01,920 --> 00:51:05,359
Speaker 1: think I could train someone to begin at it. I mean,

960
00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:07,520
Speaker 1: try to do try to make videos with her. I

961
00:51:07,560 --> 00:51:10,120
Speaker 1: mean that's where it starts. I mean, oh, speaking of

962
00:51:10,400 --> 00:51:16,120
Speaker 1: check out the Lisa Gilroy. The Lisa Gilroy. She I

963
00:51:16,239 --> 00:51:18,640
Speaker 1: wrote to her and was like, I don't think I

964
00:51:18,680 --> 00:51:19,960
Speaker 1: don't know if she wrote me back yet, but I

965
00:51:20,040 --> 00:51:22,359
Speaker 1: discovered her the other night someone sent me Bestie sent

966
00:51:22,440 --> 00:51:25,040
Speaker 1: me a TikTok of hers doing impressions And that's not

967
00:51:25,160 --> 00:51:27,799
Speaker 1: even what I love the most about her. Impressions are great,

968
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:31,840
Speaker 1: she does a great ellen, but like her ship is

969
00:51:31,960 --> 00:51:35,439
Speaker 1: so funny, women will really really like her. Girls. I'm

970
00:51:35,440 --> 00:51:39,359
Speaker 1: not I g I l O R Y this girl,

971
00:51:39,719 --> 00:51:42,040
Speaker 1: the Lisa Gilroy. Just go look at her Instagram now

972
00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:43,960
Speaker 1: and go to her reels and watch five reels and

973
00:51:44,000 --> 00:51:45,759
Speaker 1: if you don't love four to five of them, then

974
00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:48,960
Speaker 1: you know we don't have a lot in common. But UM,

975
00:51:49,239 --> 00:51:51,920
Speaker 1: it's rare that I turn you onto someone so emphatically.

976
00:51:52,600 --> 00:51:56,719
Speaker 1: So check out an American woman who was hit I

977
00:51:56,920 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 1: love these stories, who was hit by a well that

978
00:51:59,400 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 1: sounds bad, but who was hit by an SUV and

979
00:52:03,160 --> 00:52:05,719
Speaker 1: was in a two week coma now speaks and a

980
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:08,800
Speaker 1: Keywi accent and she has now never been to New Zealand.

981
00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:12,560
Speaker 1: Whoa I mean, I was just listening to a podcast

982
00:52:12,600 --> 00:52:15,520
Speaker 1: about this. There's some people that can speak like French

983
00:52:16,120 --> 00:52:20,360
Speaker 1: like she was speaking French, she was speaking English like British.

984
00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:25,319
Speaker 1: She probably spent some time in her boyfriend's British. Okay, yeah,

985
00:52:25,440 --> 00:52:27,120
Speaker 1: so this is the thing. I was listening to, UM

986
00:52:27,520 --> 00:52:29,760
Speaker 1: the Sam Harris. But she's never been a New Zealand.

987
00:52:30,160 --> 00:52:32,920
Speaker 1: She's probably watched the show or something. She's had exposure.

988
00:52:33,000 --> 00:52:36,920
Speaker 1: This isn't This isn't something that UM is humanly like.

989
00:52:36,960 --> 00:52:40,440
Speaker 1: I was listening to the new Sam Harris Ricky Gervas podcast.

990
00:52:40,480 --> 00:52:42,520
Speaker 1: It's called absolutely Mental and you gotta pay for it.

991
00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:44,680
Speaker 1: But god damn is it worth it. It's you know.

992
00:52:44,760 --> 00:52:46,879
Speaker 1: Sam Harris is I think the smartest person I've ever

993
00:52:46,960 --> 00:52:49,520
Speaker 1: heard talk about human nature. And if if you're a

994
00:52:49,560 --> 00:52:52,440
Speaker 1: fan of anything that, I say, God, you're gonna love him.

995
00:52:52,719 --> 00:52:54,919
Speaker 1: And then Ricky Gervase, obviously, no matter how you feel

996
00:52:54,920 --> 00:52:57,000
Speaker 1: about him, I think he's a really good person. He's

997
00:52:57,040 --> 00:52:59,160
Speaker 1: a vegan, he's super funny. And these two just get

998
00:52:59,200 --> 00:53:01,800
Speaker 1: on the phone and talk about just He'll be like,

999
00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:05,040
Speaker 1: you know, Sam, what is anxiety? Like what is it?

1000
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,520
Speaker 1: And Sam's like, well, I mean, it's fear. It's a

1001
00:53:07,560 --> 00:53:09,560
Speaker 1: manifestation of fear. It's a fight or flip, you know.

1002
00:53:09,760 --> 00:53:11,480
Speaker 1: And they just break it down and they and they're

1003
00:53:11,560 --> 00:53:14,759
Speaker 1: so funny. Sam is so funny because he's smart. But

1004
00:53:15,239 --> 00:53:19,200
Speaker 1: um he uh. They were talking about this about people

1005
00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:22,880
Speaker 1: that if if you just your body, because Ricky was

1006
00:53:22,920 --> 00:53:26,320
Speaker 1: talking about how if you eat. They did some experiment

1007
00:53:26,360 --> 00:53:28,719
Speaker 1: when where people were eating fish, like raw fish, or

1008
00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 1: some guy was on an island or something eating fish

1009
00:53:31,560 --> 00:53:36,279
Speaker 1: and eventually he just started eating the fish's eyes and

1010
00:53:36,360 --> 00:53:38,320
Speaker 1: he didn't know why, like, why would that be the

1011
00:53:38,440 --> 00:53:41,319
Speaker 1: thing you go to? Like something in him even though

1012
00:53:41,320 --> 00:53:43,000
Speaker 1: it's the most disgusting part of the fish. He was

1013
00:53:43,120 --> 00:53:46,480
Speaker 1: just drawn to the eyes. And then they realized it's

1014
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:49,040
Speaker 1: because eyes have water in them, and his body knew that,

1015
00:53:49,239 --> 00:53:51,960
Speaker 1: but he didn't cognitively know it. But his body was like,

1016
00:53:52,280 --> 00:53:55,080
Speaker 1: eat the eyes, we need water. He didn't know that

1017
00:53:55,120 --> 00:53:56,560
Speaker 1: there was water in those eyes. He didn't go, I

1018
00:53:56,719 --> 00:54:01,640
Speaker 1: need water equals eyes. His brain knew something he didn't know, right,

1019
00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:06,320
Speaker 1: So is it possible they were talking about two? Like

1020
00:54:06,800 --> 00:54:09,600
Speaker 1: you know, if you watch someone play piano and saw

1021
00:54:09,719 --> 00:54:12,440
Speaker 1: where the keys were all pushed, is your brain putting

1022
00:54:12,480 --> 00:54:15,800
Speaker 1: that somewhere and you just haven't found a weight on

1023
00:54:15,920 --> 00:54:18,839
Speaker 1: the head? It unlocks that part of your book? Yeah,

1024
00:54:18,840 --> 00:54:21,080
Speaker 1: Like when if you if you listen to subliminal tapes

1025
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:27,239
Speaker 1: or if you watch someone do like, can you is

1026
00:54:27,320 --> 00:54:30,320
Speaker 1: there way to know to unlock an accent or a

1027
00:54:30,440 --> 00:54:32,920
Speaker 1: language that you've heard spoken a lot, like can you

1028
00:54:33,000 --> 00:54:35,640
Speaker 1: unlock it? And the truth is no, unless it's like

1029
00:54:35,719 --> 00:54:38,640
Speaker 1: kind of practice. But I think that this accent thing

1030
00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:42,600
Speaker 1: is probably she's probably heard that before. But I don't

1031
00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:45,279
Speaker 1: mind when people have like take on the accents of

1032
00:54:45,360 --> 00:54:50,919
Speaker 1: places they've been because I do it. French at one point,

1033
00:54:51,120 --> 00:54:54,960
Speaker 1: Russian at one point, and then she set on New Zealand.

1034
00:54:56,160 --> 00:55:00,320
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, because I would I have my

1035
00:55:00,480 --> 00:55:03,040
Speaker 1: voice a little lower. Whose voice would you take if

1036
00:55:03,080 --> 00:55:11,040
Speaker 1: you had to comics? Who was a good voice? I mean,

1037
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:13,440
Speaker 1: you think about the biggest actors, they probably have the

1038
00:55:13,480 --> 00:55:18,200
Speaker 1: best voices, Like thank God, I wish I had that,

1039
00:55:18,320 --> 00:55:20,800
Speaker 1: not singing wise, just speaking wise. No, what does anyone

1040
00:55:21,120 --> 00:55:24,800
Speaker 1: I mean honestly, Noah, I might take your voice. I

1041
00:55:25,040 --> 00:55:27,080
Speaker 1: heard you when you left me a voice memo. I

1042
00:55:27,160 --> 00:55:31,680
Speaker 1: guess it was yesterday, two days ago. I almost drove

1043
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:34,520
Speaker 1: my car off a bridge because I was like sleeping

1044
00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:37,960
Speaker 1: and listen, it's just so soothing and like pleasant. It's

1045
00:55:38,000 --> 00:55:43,080
Speaker 1: just a dream. Um. I think I would take a

1046
00:55:43,160 --> 00:55:46,320
Speaker 1: New Zealand or I would take an Australian accident because

1047
00:55:46,360 --> 00:55:48,479
Speaker 1: it's it just sounds so crisp and cute. It sounds

1048
00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:52,439
Speaker 1: like they're like a chip English roles or like whatever.

1049
00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:54,439
Speaker 1: Then you're gonna have to I don't care about rules.

1050
00:55:54,520 --> 00:55:56,360
Speaker 1: I mean, I can be a comedian than any language.

1051
00:55:56,400 --> 00:56:01,960
Speaker 1: I would. I would truly take a crisp Australian. Australian

1052
00:56:02,000 --> 00:56:05,080
Speaker 1: accents I just think are adorable on women. They're so cute,

1053
00:56:05,080 --> 00:56:07,120
Speaker 1: you know. It's probably one of the hottest. I mean,

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00:56:07,160 --> 00:56:09,160
Speaker 1: there's so many hot accents out there. French, it is

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00:56:09,320 --> 00:56:13,400
Speaker 1: very sexy. Nor it is the only thing I can say. No, No,

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00:56:13,880 --> 00:56:17,680
Speaker 1: that's that's Australian. NOI and went to New Zealand. New Zealand,

1057
00:56:19,719 --> 00:56:23,960
Speaker 1: if I watch Oh my God, how funny is Jamaist?

1058
00:56:24,480 --> 00:56:29,080
Speaker 1: I mean recommending another podcast or just a show amazing? Yeah,

1059
00:56:29,120 --> 00:56:32,400
Speaker 1: if you watch Summer Heights High. I stopped talking like

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00:56:32,680 --> 00:56:35,560
Speaker 1: an No, you're good at that accent. I have to

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00:56:35,640 --> 00:56:37,080
Speaker 1: hear it a bunch. I'm only good at things if

1062
00:56:37,080 --> 00:56:39,719
Speaker 1: I hear about or if you get hit by an suv. Yeah,

1063
00:56:40,360 --> 00:56:43,520
Speaker 1: fingers crossed and so wild. Man, it's so wild that

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00:56:43,640 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 1: it just your brain. I mean it sounds cheesy, but

1065
00:56:46,680 --> 00:56:48,640
Speaker 1: we you know, they say what you use eight percent?

1066
00:56:49,320 --> 00:56:51,680
Speaker 1: What is going on in that other time? Ever? Test

1067
00:56:51,760 --> 00:56:54,360
Speaker 1: your brain to just like think of something. So just

1068
00:56:54,520 --> 00:56:56,400
Speaker 1: let your mind go and think of the weirdest thing

1069
00:56:56,520 --> 00:56:59,520
Speaker 1: from your past, and you're just like, I'll imagine like

1070
00:56:59,600 --> 00:57:03,600
Speaker 1: a thin post from my middle school. Why didn't just

1071
00:57:04,000 --> 00:57:06,920
Speaker 1: pick that? I had a weird thought. OK. So we

1072
00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:12,000
Speaker 1: had this kid who was kind of crazy, uh, in

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00:57:12,080 --> 00:57:15,440
Speaker 1: our neighborhood, and I remember him just like having a

1074
00:57:15,520 --> 00:57:18,840
Speaker 1: machete and like he was just nuts with That's why

1075
00:57:18,880 --> 00:57:21,400
Speaker 1: there's no free will. You did not choose to pick that.

1076
00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:23,880
Speaker 1: It just popped into it. My fifth thought, like I

1077
00:57:23,960 --> 00:57:26,560
Speaker 1: had to get there right, but still appeared out of

1078
00:57:27,360 --> 00:57:29,600
Speaker 1: think crazy think was the crazy. Oh my god, that

1079
00:57:29,760 --> 00:57:32,400
Speaker 1: kid that we kind of picked on to pick that,

1080
00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:35,800
Speaker 1: it just showed up. That's no free will. That's the

1081
00:57:35,800 --> 00:57:37,760
Speaker 1: perfect example. Okay, let's go to break and come back

1082
00:57:38,240 --> 00:57:40,360
Speaker 1: with why do I care? I wonder how many people

1083
00:57:40,400 --> 00:57:42,840
Speaker 1: in Florida think back and yeah, I see a guy

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00:57:42,880 --> 00:57:50,200
Speaker 1: with a machette. Oh my god, why do I care?

1085
00:57:52,520 --> 00:57:57,360
Speaker 1: Why do I care? All right? Um? Amy Schumer makes

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00:57:57,400 --> 00:58:01,400
Speaker 1: a statement wearing a tampon, oh yeah, Halloween costume after

1087
00:58:01,520 --> 00:58:06,840
Speaker 1: having a hysterectomy due to endo trisis. Let's try that again.

1088
00:58:07,080 --> 00:58:11,760
Speaker 1: Let's just listen. Nope, endo, you've definitely heard this word before.

1089
00:58:11,920 --> 00:58:19,320
Speaker 1: I'm shocked. And endometriosis. Endometrios. No, come on, you're almost

1090
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:22,680
Speaker 1: there enough. You've heard this. You've had to have heard this.

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00:58:23,280 --> 00:58:25,280
Speaker 1: It's because it's a common thing that a lot of

1092
00:58:25,320 --> 00:58:30,680
Speaker 1: women suffer with. Yeah, I'm not listening. Endometriosis. This is

1093
00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:37,960
Speaker 1: the problem. Endometriosis. Endometriosis. I guess you know her uterus removed, right,

1094
00:58:38,200 --> 00:58:40,680
Speaker 1: so then she can't have babies anymore. Um, yeah, I

1095
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:46,840
Speaker 1: think that's correct. I know what causes that I should know,

1096
00:58:47,360 --> 00:58:49,600
Speaker 1: but I know that it affects like one in nine

1097
00:58:49,760 --> 00:58:53,560
Speaker 1: women or something like that. It's insane how many women

1098
00:58:53,640 --> 00:58:55,520
Speaker 1: go through this, and it causes if you have really

1099
00:58:55,560 --> 00:59:00,360
Speaker 1: painful periods, more bleeding than most women. Like Lena Done'm

1100
00:59:00,400 --> 00:59:03,240
Speaker 1: had it. She also had the same surgery where she

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00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:07,320
Speaker 1: had her computer is completely taken out. Um yeah, they

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Speaker 1: and I love that it's called a hysterectomy and that

1103
00:59:10,240 --> 00:59:14,000
Speaker 1: women that are crazier called hysterical. It must be related

1104
00:59:15,160 --> 00:59:23,840
Speaker 1: like the disease of the uterus. She's crazy her mouth, yeah,

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00:59:23,920 --> 00:59:27,640
Speaker 1: I I yeah. She also was a spokesman for Tampax,

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00:59:28,080 --> 00:59:31,120
Speaker 1: so I think maybe that's also why the outfit was

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00:59:31,200 --> 00:59:34,600
Speaker 1: being worn. Yeah, she's done some commercials with them. Yeah,

1108
00:59:34,760 --> 00:59:39,080
Speaker 1: I guess she's bringing it's interesting that a blue color. Yeah,

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00:59:39,120 --> 00:59:44,760
Speaker 1: that's no, I mean, that's that's the she look at

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00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:46,800
Speaker 1: the top, do you see the top, So the cotton

1111
00:59:46,960 --> 00:59:48,640
Speaker 1: is sticking out the top, So that's the apple. She's

1112
00:59:48,680 --> 00:59:52,200
Speaker 1: the applicator so it's like a plastic applicator, and then

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00:59:52,240 --> 00:59:54,120
Speaker 1: the top is coming out, and then her legs are

1114
00:59:54,200 --> 00:59:57,320
Speaker 1: like the thinner part of that you pushed through, So

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00:59:57,440 --> 00:59:59,040
Speaker 1: the legs you would push through and then that cotton

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00:59:59,080 --> 01:00:01,280
Speaker 1: part would come out and then it would be only

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01:00:01,480 --> 01:00:04,480
Speaker 1: that blue top part with the leg part inside. That's

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01:00:04,520 --> 01:00:06,000
Speaker 1: how you put in a tampon. I mean it is

1119
01:00:06,080 --> 01:00:08,880
Speaker 1: wild that like. And then does she have the string? Yes,

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01:00:09,040 --> 01:00:12,320
Speaker 1: it's like, yeah, she's holding in the photo. Yeah, that's great.

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01:00:12,520 --> 01:00:14,960
Speaker 1: I love that. I liked that costume a lot, and

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01:00:15,280 --> 01:00:19,400
Speaker 1: you know, it's very Schumer and like funny, and I

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01:00:19,520 --> 01:00:22,080
Speaker 1: like I think that if Schumer wasn't being represented, like

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01:00:22,120 --> 01:00:23,640
Speaker 1: she wasn't doing it for tam backs, she would have

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01:00:23,720 --> 01:00:27,200
Speaker 1: some blood on there too. Oh my god, did you

1126
01:00:27,240 --> 01:00:30,080
Speaker 1: hear me? Just sit on my mom, And I wasn't

1127
01:00:30,120 --> 01:00:34,280
Speaker 1: just kidding. Uh yeah, Well your favorite Halloween costume? You

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01:00:34,280 --> 01:00:38,720
Speaker 1: saw celebrities, celebrities. I couldn't stand all the Megan Foxes

1129
01:00:38,840 --> 01:00:41,800
Speaker 1: machine gun kellies, even though I get it, there's too many.

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Speaker 1: You didn't see it, but I mean I saw about

1131
01:00:44,840 --> 01:00:48,200
Speaker 1: fifty ted last. I didn't only saw one. I saw

1132
01:00:48,280 --> 01:00:50,680
Speaker 1: it out in the wild. I saw like six or seven,

1133
01:00:50,800 --> 01:00:56,560
Speaker 1: just walking around, driving around. It might just be jacket

1134
01:00:57,560 --> 01:01:01,040
Speaker 1: lost national hat and they were last. And then there

1135
01:01:01,080 --> 01:01:04,640
Speaker 1: are a lot of lassoes out there, and it's an

1136
01:01:04,640 --> 01:01:07,440
Speaker 1: easy outfit. You know. Any guy likes an excuse to

1137
01:01:07,520 --> 01:01:11,600
Speaker 1: have a mustache because they're they're seen as like porny. Yes,

1138
01:01:12,240 --> 01:01:17,280
Speaker 1: oh what's wrong with that guy? We're all less less

1139
01:01:17,280 --> 01:01:20,080
Speaker 1: it inside. We're all having anxiety and are kind of

1140
01:01:20,240 --> 01:01:24,520
Speaker 1: like questioning our choices. And I like a costume where

1141
01:01:24,560 --> 01:01:27,560
Speaker 1: you can see the person's I don't like wearing a

1142
01:01:27,680 --> 01:01:31,040
Speaker 1: mask all night. It's fucking annoying. Yes, I mean, what's

1143
01:01:31,080 --> 01:01:33,840
Speaker 1: your favorite costume you ever wore? Did you ever get

1144
01:01:33,920 --> 01:01:36,040
Speaker 1: really dressed up? I think both of us. Yeah, I

1145
01:01:36,120 --> 01:01:38,520
Speaker 1: was Mary Kay and Nashley or like you know which

1146
01:01:38,560 --> 01:01:40,040
Speaker 1: one was the other one? And I was also para

1147
01:01:40,080 --> 01:01:42,400
Speaker 1: Sultan one year two and that was really good. Um

1148
01:01:42,520 --> 01:01:44,840
Speaker 1: that was that was like a really hot year and

1149
01:01:45,320 --> 01:01:48,880
Speaker 1: it was just like very Um I was living that

1150
01:01:49,000 --> 01:01:53,840
Speaker 1: night and my sister was Nicky Hilton. Yeah, there is

1151
01:01:53,880 --> 01:01:57,120
Speaker 1: one photo and I cannot find it anywhere because I've

1152
01:01:57,200 --> 01:02:00,160
Speaker 1: looked for it, but it was really good and um

1153
01:02:00,240 --> 01:02:01,880
Speaker 1: then I was, Yeah, I was, I was one of

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01:02:01,960 --> 01:02:05,080
Speaker 1: the Old Sans. I wanted, you know, as someone who

1155
01:02:05,160 --> 01:02:07,919
Speaker 1: was antarexic probably at the time, I wanted to wear

1156
01:02:07,960 --> 01:02:12,760
Speaker 1: a skeleton costume, you know, like like you know the

1157
01:02:13,200 --> 01:02:15,240
Speaker 1: way that you wear a jumpsuit with like the black

1158
01:02:15,320 --> 01:02:18,600
Speaker 1: skeleton and then have and then be holding a Starbucks

1159
01:02:18,640 --> 01:02:21,400
Speaker 1: cup with big sunglasses and like a trench coat and

1160
01:02:21,480 --> 01:02:23,760
Speaker 1: be like the ol Sans, because they were like, you

1161
01:02:23,760 --> 01:02:27,480
Speaker 1: know what I mean, it's like a joke. And my

1162
01:02:27,600 --> 01:02:30,200
Speaker 1: favorite costume that I put a Diet coke box on

1163
01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:34,720
Speaker 1: my head and I Diet, I just cocatte. You get

1164
01:02:34,800 --> 01:02:38,320
Speaker 1: twelve cokes. That that's a good one. I liked this

1165
01:02:38,440 --> 01:02:41,680
Speaker 1: guy's um, Alex Bordi you know him. Uh he was

1166
01:02:41,720 --> 01:02:43,520
Speaker 1: a bachelor guy. He's one of my friends. I liked

1167
01:02:43,600 --> 01:02:45,400
Speaker 1: his costume. I'm sure it's been done a million times,

1168
01:02:45,440 --> 01:02:47,200
Speaker 1: but it was just all white and it said like

1169
01:02:47,360 --> 01:02:49,720
Speaker 1: four or four error costume not found. He just like

1170
01:02:50,280 --> 01:02:52,920
Speaker 1: and it was like, oh, pe was kind of funny.

1171
01:02:53,040 --> 01:02:55,800
Speaker 1: Pete Petelee and his girlfriend but they do they're beer

1172
01:02:55,880 --> 01:03:00,680
Speaker 1: pong table and just they just tied nine plastic red

1173
01:03:00,720 --> 01:03:03,000
Speaker 1: cups to their back and just would bend over and

1174
01:03:03,040 --> 01:03:05,920
Speaker 1: have people player. God, I wish I would have been

1175
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:10,680
Speaker 1: invited to a party. My nephew a squid and poppy

1176
01:03:10,800 --> 01:03:12,919
Speaker 1: was a monster and they got really tired and wanted

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01:03:12,960 --> 01:03:15,080
Speaker 1: to go home early. It was awesome. Oh my god,

1178
01:03:15,120 --> 01:03:20,560
Speaker 1: it was so great. All right, let's get into reddit dump. Oh, yes, there,

1179
01:03:21,440 --> 01:03:26,360
Speaker 1: this is your reddit dump. All right. I love your

1180
01:03:26,440 --> 01:03:28,560
Speaker 1: laughing that. All right, let's get to the reddit dump.

1181
01:03:28,600 --> 01:03:30,000
Speaker 1: I saved a lot. Oh my god, there's pictures of

1182
01:03:30,080 --> 01:03:33,720
Speaker 1: words coming up. Hold on, um god, I'm I love

1183
01:03:33,800 --> 01:03:36,400
Speaker 1: reddit so much. Oh, this one is so good. Have

1184
01:03:36,480 --> 01:03:39,120
Speaker 1: you ever seen this clip? I wonder if we could

1185
01:03:39,160 --> 01:03:43,040
Speaker 1: put superimpose it Noah into the middle thing. This is

1186
01:03:43,080 --> 01:03:46,200
Speaker 1: a guy. It's a it's a it's a pretty famous

1187
01:03:46,360 --> 01:03:50,400
Speaker 1: viral video. But it looks like, you know, uh, security

1188
01:03:50,440 --> 01:03:53,800
Speaker 1: footage of a street, and there's a man walking towards

1189
01:03:53,880 --> 01:03:56,960
Speaker 1: the camera, like on a road, and then a man

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01:03:57,360 --> 01:03:59,040
Speaker 1: comes up from behind him and just taps him on

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01:03:59,080 --> 01:04:01,720
Speaker 1: the shoulder. Just a mysterious man comes up from beyond

1192
01:04:01,760 --> 01:04:04,160
Speaker 1: testing on the shoulder. The man turns around the other

1193
01:04:04,280 --> 01:04:05,960
Speaker 1: way that the man taps him on the shoulder, and

1194
01:04:06,000 --> 01:04:08,040
Speaker 1: he turns around this way and as he turns around,

1195
01:04:08,040 --> 01:04:10,120
Speaker 1: there's this huge fence and he's like who and he

1196
01:04:10,240 --> 01:04:12,240
Speaker 1: runs out of the way, and it just is watched this.

1197
01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:20,360
Speaker 1: Watch watch, just watch this. How creepy it is? All right,

1198
01:04:20,560 --> 01:04:23,960
Speaker 1: I'm watching. I mean it's like dark a night, guys

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01:04:24,040 --> 01:04:38,040
Speaker 1: walking whoa watch it again? I mean, isn't that crazy.

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01:04:38,920 --> 01:04:41,480
Speaker 1: It's like this angel appears out of nowhere and taps

1201
01:04:41,520 --> 01:04:43,120
Speaker 1: this guy in the shoulder and then keeps walking and

1202
01:04:43,120 --> 01:04:45,600
Speaker 1: you just see him walk off. It comes out of nowhere.

1203
01:04:45,640 --> 01:04:47,600
Speaker 1: It seems like this guy just there was had an

1204
01:04:47,640 --> 01:04:50,280
Speaker 1: angel watching him, knew he was about to die in

1205
01:04:50,360 --> 01:04:52,960
Speaker 1: a final destination way of having this huge fence come.

1206
01:04:53,120 --> 01:04:55,000
Speaker 1: The guy would have been killed by this fence had

1207
01:04:55,000 --> 01:04:56,840
Speaker 1: he not turned around and seen it. But the only

1208
01:04:56,880 --> 01:04:58,680
Speaker 1: reason he turned around was because the guy tapped him

1209
01:04:58,680 --> 01:05:02,560
Speaker 1: on the shoulder right before. Really, that's real. I've seen

1210
01:05:02,600 --> 01:05:05,919
Speaker 1: it on read it a million times. My question, guys,

1211
01:05:05,960 --> 01:05:08,040
Speaker 1: if you want to see it, go to uh the

1212
01:05:08,120 --> 01:05:12,320
Speaker 1: subreddit next fucking level. And then search man just witnessed

1213
01:05:12,360 --> 01:05:14,720
Speaker 1: God himself and that's what it's My concern is that

1214
01:05:14,840 --> 01:05:18,560
Speaker 1: defense hit the the angel or whatever that guy was.

1215
01:05:18,720 --> 01:05:23,520
Speaker 1: Don't you think it could have been? Okay, here's one

1216
01:05:23,600 --> 01:05:25,640
Speaker 1: from ask men, which is always one I love and

1217
01:05:25,720 --> 01:05:27,640
Speaker 1: I love to ask you these two, what's the most

1218
01:05:27,680 --> 01:05:31,400
Speaker 1: superficial reason for for uh why? I think they meant

1219
01:05:31,440 --> 01:05:35,480
Speaker 1: to say, for why you have rejected a woman. Some

1220
01:05:35,600 --> 01:05:38,320
Speaker 1: of the answers include, I mean it would have to

1221
01:05:38,360 --> 01:05:43,040
Speaker 1: be leg hair, armpit hair, happy trail hair, any kind

1222
01:05:43,040 --> 01:05:44,720
Speaker 1: of hair that you don't want it to be is

1223
01:05:44,800 --> 01:05:48,360
Speaker 1: very superficial. But you've been on like Instagram and Twitter

1224
01:05:48,480 --> 01:05:51,720
Speaker 1: and seen like leg hair, just like maybe even in

1225
01:05:51,800 --> 01:05:54,200
Speaker 1: real life you just turned off by I'm just thinking,

1226
01:05:54,320 --> 01:05:56,840
Speaker 1: like what else? One person said, I feel really bad

1227
01:05:56,840 --> 01:05:58,560
Speaker 1: about this one. She appeared to be my age, like

1228
01:05:58,640 --> 01:06:00,880
Speaker 1: mid twenties at the time, but she had a cartoonishly

1229
01:06:00,920 --> 01:06:03,959
Speaker 1: thick Minnesotan accent. I couldn't hear her voice without picturing

1230
01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:06,200
Speaker 1: a middle aged hockey mom that wanted to serve me

1231
01:06:06,280 --> 01:06:08,520
Speaker 1: a salad that was three parts jello, one part vegetables,

1232
01:06:08,520 --> 01:06:11,440
Speaker 1: in five parts of mayonnaise. Andrew would have loved that. Luckily,

1233
01:06:11,480 --> 01:06:13,280
Speaker 1: the first date went poorly anyway, and neither of us

1234
01:06:13,320 --> 01:06:16,040
Speaker 1: wanted a second date. I think I laugh. If you

1235
01:06:16,160 --> 01:06:19,560
Speaker 1: hear a girl laugh or how they speak, you can maybe,

1236
01:06:19,920 --> 01:06:22,040
Speaker 1: oh man, Sometimes I hear my own voice and I

1237
01:06:22,160 --> 01:06:28,440
Speaker 1: go whoa boy? That guy sounds angry. Um uh, this

1238
01:06:28,560 --> 01:06:30,920
Speaker 1: guy said, really shitty left turn to get into her

1239
01:06:30,960 --> 01:06:35,080
Speaker 1: apartment complex. Yeah, I mean that's you're just rejecting her.

1240
01:06:35,320 --> 01:06:37,680
Speaker 1: She's not good enough to put up with that, you know.

1241
01:06:38,280 --> 01:06:41,640
Speaker 1: Uh oh No, her feet looked like she kicked walls

1242
01:06:41,760 --> 01:06:45,880
Speaker 1: for fun. You know what to the guy that wrote that,

1243
01:06:47,120 --> 01:06:49,880
Speaker 1: that wasn't the only reason you rejected me. Okay. I

1244
01:06:50,000 --> 01:06:55,840
Speaker 1: also have a grading voice and I have anxious attachment. Um.

1245
01:06:55,920 --> 01:06:57,800
Speaker 1: Someone said. When I was newly divorced, some friends had

1246
01:06:57,840 --> 01:06:59,720
Speaker 1: to get together where it was pretty obvious that they

1247
01:06:59,760 --> 01:07:01,320
Speaker 1: want me to meet a woman they thought I might

1248
01:07:01,480 --> 01:07:04,080
Speaker 1: hit off with. She was pretty funny and into many

1249
01:07:04,080 --> 01:07:07,080
Speaker 1: of the things. I was a very intuitive matchup. Then

1250
01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:09,840
Speaker 1: she started to refer to herself as the queen throughout

1251
01:07:09,880 --> 01:07:12,320
Speaker 1: the evening, and I was done with that. Not superficial

1252
01:07:12,360 --> 01:07:18,880
Speaker 1: at all, that girl needs, said gown. I would say

1253
01:07:19,040 --> 01:07:22,560
Speaker 1: for me, it's like loving meat. That's not superficial to me.

1254
01:07:23,040 --> 01:07:28,120
Speaker 1: But anyone who identifies with like loving meat or someone

1255
01:07:28,160 --> 01:07:31,240
Speaker 1: who you know, now when I'm swiping on bumble, like

1256
01:07:31,400 --> 01:07:35,560
Speaker 1: you can find me in the outdoors, someone who loves traveling, sorry,

1257
01:07:35,760 --> 01:07:38,040
Speaker 1: like I don't want to travel. I do it for

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01:07:38,080 --> 01:07:41,800
Speaker 1: a living. Um and then, but these aren't superficial. These

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01:07:41,840 --> 01:07:47,560
Speaker 1: are like things were not compatible, superficial No chin um,

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01:07:48,520 --> 01:07:53,720
Speaker 1: bad teeth, um bald. I don't care about short, don't

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01:07:53,760 --> 01:07:55,160
Speaker 1: care about Okay, you don't have to look at me

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01:07:55,240 --> 01:08:01,800
Speaker 1: while you're thinking of um, Like where's sweatpants? To a date? No? No? No?

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01:08:01,960 --> 01:08:04,000
Speaker 1: To a date? Like if I went over to your

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01:08:04,160 --> 01:08:06,600
Speaker 1: if you had me over, like watch a movie here

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01:08:06,640 --> 01:08:10,160
Speaker 1: at the apartment and you answered the door in that

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01:08:11,640 --> 01:08:13,720
Speaker 1: Actually that's like a nice ope, but those pants and

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01:08:13,760 --> 01:08:15,760
Speaker 1: like a dirt like I would just go. This guy

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01:08:15,800 --> 01:08:18,760
Speaker 1: doesn't even like me. He's not even trying. No, have

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01:08:18,840 --> 01:08:25,000
Speaker 1: you ever rejected someone for superficial reasons? Uh? Yeah? Uh?

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01:08:25,080 --> 01:08:28,280
Speaker 1: Can you think of one? I'm trying to think. Um,

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01:08:29,840 --> 01:08:33,800
Speaker 1: I remember my home coming date, like permed her hair

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01:08:34,520 --> 01:08:36,400
Speaker 1: where it looked like she you know, put her finger

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01:08:36,439 --> 01:08:40,200
Speaker 1: in electric socket and I just couldn't. It just turned

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01:08:40,200 --> 01:08:42,639
Speaker 1: me off so much because it was like a big

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01:08:42,760 --> 01:08:44,360
Speaker 1: date for me, And I was like, this is what

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01:08:44,520 --> 01:08:46,840
Speaker 1: you decided to do. Did you say it looked nice

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01:08:46,880 --> 01:08:48,400
Speaker 1: to do? At least? Like because that's a big, a

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01:08:48,479 --> 01:08:50,720
Speaker 1: big change. You want some kind of I made a

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01:08:50,840 --> 01:08:53,640
Speaker 1: ride in the back see my explorer. No, no, I

1280
01:08:54,200 --> 01:08:58,360
Speaker 1: just dude, it was like it was like it was wild.

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01:08:59,640 --> 01:09:05,160
Speaker 1: Picture was what I want. I just a picture of

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01:09:05,240 --> 01:09:10,960
Speaker 1: his prom date. You're gonna love. It's been so long

1283
01:09:11,080 --> 01:09:12,920
Speaker 1: since I've been on the date, so I completely forgot this.

1284
01:09:13,000 --> 01:09:15,519
Speaker 1: But I met a guy um on an app and

1285
01:09:15,680 --> 01:09:19,240
Speaker 1: we met a like at a bar or whatever in Manhattan.

1286
01:09:20,080 --> 01:09:23,000
Speaker 1: And I looked at his hands. I'm like, I love

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01:09:23,280 --> 01:09:26,640
Speaker 1: a good hand right, and his the ends of his

1288
01:09:26,760 --> 01:09:30,240
Speaker 1: fingers were so like bulbousie it looked like alien nodes

1289
01:09:31,000 --> 01:09:34,679
Speaker 1: and saying, I was out, I get that. Oh yeah,

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01:09:34,800 --> 01:09:37,280
Speaker 1: that's that's I don't I agree with that one. Um,

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01:09:37,920 --> 01:09:40,320
Speaker 1: hands are important. Have too big a hands? It could

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01:09:40,320 --> 01:09:44,080
Speaker 1: turn me off. Okay, yeah, that that would make sense.

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01:09:44,640 --> 01:09:49,479
Speaker 1: I think that UM like the way someone smells. Yeah,

1294
01:09:49,880 --> 01:09:52,720
Speaker 1: I have been like, God, they're perfect, except like I

1295
01:09:52,840 --> 01:09:56,040
Speaker 1: just don't. I just don't like too in their smile

1296
01:09:56,920 --> 01:10:01,439
Speaker 1: like oh yeah, gummy. Yeah. Sorry to anyone who ask

1297
01:10:01,680 --> 01:10:06,040
Speaker 1: the thing is there? Some girls would say bald and short,

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01:10:06,040 --> 01:10:08,759
Speaker 1: I wouldn't date. But for me, I'm like, if if

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01:10:08,800 --> 01:10:11,720
Speaker 1: you're someone that has bad teeth and what did I say? No? Chin.

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01:10:12,600 --> 01:10:14,640
Speaker 1: Let me be honest, I could still love you. All

1301
01:10:14,680 --> 01:10:17,360
Speaker 1: you have to do is seem disinterested in me and

1302
01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:20,320
Speaker 1: like like you're not as me and then yeah, and

1303
01:10:20,400 --> 01:10:23,439
Speaker 1: grow a beard and where. Okay, here's one last one

1304
01:10:23,680 --> 01:10:26,360
Speaker 1: life pro tips. If you need to get rid of

1305
01:10:26,439 --> 01:10:29,679
Speaker 1: an unwanted direction, bend over with your knees locked straight

1306
01:10:29,760 --> 01:10:32,400
Speaker 1: as far as you can comfortably go, and take three

1307
01:10:32,640 --> 01:10:35,080
Speaker 1: or four big deep breaths. Wait, wait, what is this?

1308
01:10:35,240 --> 01:10:36,960
Speaker 1: If you want to get rid of an unwanted direction,

1309
01:10:37,160 --> 01:10:41,960
Speaker 1: you stand with your knees straight and knees locked straight,

1310
01:10:42,280 --> 01:10:44,920
Speaker 1: bend over as far as you can go, and take

1311
01:10:45,000 --> 01:10:49,040
Speaker 1: three or four big deep breaths with your in your mouth. Yeah,

1312
01:10:49,200 --> 01:10:51,000
Speaker 1: suck your own dick until you come and then the

1313
01:10:51,120 --> 01:10:56,720
Speaker 1: direction will go away. Um will that work? You think? What?

1314
01:10:57,000 --> 01:10:59,599
Speaker 1: Blowing yourself? Or that I could try. I'll try it later.

1315
01:11:00,000 --> 01:11:03,760
Speaker 1: I'll let you know it goes. Final thought, Um, when

1316
01:11:03,840 --> 01:11:07,840
Speaker 1: was the last time you had an unwanted direction? Do

1317
01:11:07,920 --> 01:11:10,880
Speaker 1: you remember getting them? In school? No? Not really, nothing

1318
01:11:10,920 --> 01:11:14,040
Speaker 1: where it's like, oh no, but I remember we nicknamed

1319
01:11:14,080 --> 01:11:17,040
Speaker 1: his kid boner because he got a boner during this

1320
01:11:17,680 --> 01:11:23,160
Speaker 1: like a presentation in front of the whole class and

1321
01:11:23,320 --> 01:11:26,080
Speaker 1: like it just he was boner, like you're just boner now,

1322
01:11:27,240 --> 01:11:28,880
Speaker 1: and he kind of ran with it. I like that.

1323
01:11:29,000 --> 01:11:32,240
Speaker 1: He like, I guess people owning if you could see

1324
01:11:32,400 --> 01:11:35,400
Speaker 1: your dick and some pants with a boner, you probably

1325
01:11:35,400 --> 01:11:37,040
Speaker 1: got a pretty good boner. I guess you can look

1326
01:11:37,040 --> 01:11:40,719
Speaker 1: at it that way. Yeah. I never girls never noticed boners.

1327
01:11:41,479 --> 01:11:45,559
Speaker 1: Uh when guys got him? Did you? Well? I remember

1328
01:11:45,680 --> 01:11:48,240
Speaker 1: like when I would take the subway every morning to work,

1329
01:11:48,720 --> 01:11:50,880
Speaker 1: there were a lot of men dressed in like those

1330
01:11:51,000 --> 01:11:55,080
Speaker 1: like khaki pants, and I would see so many morning boners.

1331
01:11:56,160 --> 01:12:02,439
Speaker 1: Oh my god, really yes, the g train bone. Uh

1332
01:12:02,800 --> 01:12:04,640
Speaker 1: would you be afraid if you're a guy that you

1333
01:12:04,680 --> 01:12:08,080
Speaker 1: would get a boner all the time? Yes? Yeah, I thought.

1334
01:12:08,120 --> 01:12:09,720
Speaker 1: I think. I mean it's the same as like if

1335
01:12:09,760 --> 01:12:11,640
Speaker 1: your period blood goes through your pants. I think it's

1336
01:12:11,680 --> 01:12:16,200
Speaker 1: probably the same amount of worry. Yeah. Yeah, I'm trying

1337
01:12:16,200 --> 01:12:18,920
Speaker 1: to think, like when I got my first boner, Well,

1338
01:12:18,960 --> 01:12:21,439
Speaker 1: you get them young, like in public? Do you remember

1339
01:12:21,640 --> 01:12:25,400
Speaker 1: having one in public at an awkward time? Not really me.

1340
01:12:25,600 --> 01:12:27,760
Speaker 1: Me and my buddy Rusty in Spanish class would get

1341
01:12:27,760 --> 01:12:30,559
Speaker 1: boners and we make a move in our pants as

1342
01:12:30,720 --> 01:12:33,160
Speaker 1: jokes like that was a joke, like look at her

1343
01:12:33,720 --> 01:12:36,280
Speaker 1: boner move and it just me just go from the

1344
01:12:36,400 --> 01:12:39,040
Speaker 1: right to the left. Hard nipples. That's something girls have

1345
01:12:39,120 --> 01:12:42,360
Speaker 1: shame about. They shouldn't and because it means it's either

1346
01:12:42,439 --> 01:12:45,760
Speaker 1: the room is cold or we're turned on right, but

1347
01:12:46,040 --> 01:12:49,400
Speaker 1: men love like the thing is they The other day,

1348
01:12:49,439 --> 01:12:51,160
Speaker 1: my mom goes, NICKI you can see your boobs and

1349
01:12:51,200 --> 01:12:53,679
Speaker 1: I go, do you mean my nipples? She's like yeah,

1350
01:12:53,760 --> 01:12:59,720
Speaker 1: and I go, so what, so what I have nipples Like,

1351
01:13:00,240 --> 01:13:03,880
Speaker 1: I don't know what. I guess it's like it's distracting

1352
01:13:03,960 --> 01:13:05,600
Speaker 1: and people don't want to see that. Stop rubbing in

1353
01:13:05,720 --> 01:13:07,559
Speaker 1: our face. My mom is very much like she doesn't

1354
01:13:07,600 --> 01:13:10,320
Speaker 1: like when women um try to like flaunt their sexiness.

1355
01:13:10,680 --> 01:13:14,800
Speaker 1: She's just like, we get it cool. She thinks she's cool.

1356
01:13:15,120 --> 01:13:17,519
Speaker 1: That's so queer. She says. Do you think she just

1357
01:13:18,320 --> 01:13:22,080
Speaker 1: isn't comfortable doing it herself? And yeah, she she hates

1358
01:13:22,120 --> 01:13:25,200
Speaker 1: she's never shown cleavage ever. I've never seen my mom's

1359
01:13:25,240 --> 01:13:31,800
Speaker 1: cleavage and my mom is okay, boobs, yeah, they're great. Okay.

1360
01:13:31,880 --> 01:13:34,080
Speaker 1: One more thing this said made this was on made

1361
01:13:34,160 --> 01:13:37,960
Speaker 1: me cry. The Supreddit says no caption needed except yes

1362
01:13:38,120 --> 01:13:41,479
Speaker 1: there is, because there's this is like a screenshot of

1363
01:13:41,520 --> 01:13:44,719
Speaker 1: a tweet and with a picture. So it's a picture

1364
01:13:44,920 --> 01:13:47,240
Speaker 1: of like a dirt like look at the dirty um.

1365
01:13:48,120 --> 01:13:51,320
Speaker 1: It's like a cement floor, and there's like a water splash,

1366
01:13:52,040 --> 01:13:54,920
Speaker 1: and the water splash is like a heart. Okay, And

1367
01:13:54,960 --> 01:13:56,640
Speaker 1: it says today is the one year anniversary of my

1368
01:13:56,680 --> 01:13:58,759
Speaker 1: wife's passing. As I walked into my shop, I spiled

1369
01:13:58,800 --> 01:14:00,599
Speaker 1: my water. She gave me a room finder that today

1370
01:14:00,640 --> 01:14:03,400
Speaker 1: will be just fine. And it's like, it looks like

1371
01:14:03,479 --> 01:14:05,519
Speaker 1: he murdered her in this cellar. I mean like it's

1372
01:14:05,520 --> 01:14:08,840
Speaker 1: a really dirty basement. It looks like Blair witchy. Look

1373
01:14:08,880 --> 01:14:11,880
Speaker 1: at the splot of water. I love little things like this.

1374
01:14:12,080 --> 01:14:14,920
Speaker 1: Why not you see a heart? It's this easy shape

1375
01:14:14,960 --> 01:14:18,720
Speaker 1: for anything to be in the shape of um. But

1376
01:14:18,800 --> 01:14:20,960
Speaker 1: I was also like, it's just a splot of water.

1377
01:14:21,640 --> 01:14:24,720
Speaker 1: Your wife also, could you know what if the water

1378
01:14:24,760 --> 01:14:26,880
Speaker 1: shape looked like a dick, he'd be like, she's thinking

1379
01:14:26,920 --> 01:14:28,760
Speaker 1: of me today, Like whatever it was, it would be.

1380
01:14:29,720 --> 01:14:31,760
Speaker 1: But it's it is sweet to see little things like that.

1381
01:14:32,000 --> 01:14:35,040
Speaker 1: I didn't make me cry, and that's for Dan. It

1382
01:14:35,120 --> 01:14:38,400
Speaker 1: did not. It's rare that things on made me cry

1383
01:14:38,640 --> 01:14:42,160
Speaker 1: even have the ability to get even a little bit um.

1384
01:14:42,800 --> 01:14:44,880
Speaker 1: Here's another. I didn't save this one, but I just

1385
01:14:44,960 --> 01:14:46,240
Speaker 1: went to made me cry and let me just see

1386
01:14:46,240 --> 01:14:48,639
Speaker 1: if this This has six thousand point six up votes,

1387
01:14:48,680 --> 01:14:50,840
Speaker 1: so this should be good. How can people say cats

1388
01:14:50,880 --> 01:14:54,040
Speaker 1: don't have feelings? Like when my cat got deadly six

1389
01:14:54,080 --> 01:14:55,559
Speaker 1: she refused to eat a single thing, and it had

1390
01:14:55,600 --> 01:14:57,720
Speaker 1: been days, but when I started crying, she just ate

1391
01:14:57,720 --> 01:14:59,880
Speaker 1: a little bit, and upon seeing how happy it made me,

1392
01:15:00,320 --> 01:15:02,920
Speaker 1: kept doing it whatever she could. Now whenever I'm sad

1393
01:15:03,040 --> 01:15:05,120
Speaker 1: or crying, she finds wherever I am with a mouthful

1394
01:15:05,120 --> 01:15:07,759
Speaker 1: of food and eats the pieces one by one, every

1395
01:15:07,800 --> 01:15:09,599
Speaker 1: time looking up at me, making sure I was watching,

1396
01:15:09,680 --> 01:15:11,679
Speaker 1: or eat it all because she knew it made me happy,

1397
01:15:11,760 --> 01:15:14,240
Speaker 1: and it does make me happy. Maybe that's what I

1398
01:15:14,320 --> 01:15:24,120
Speaker 1: need to do. Luigi, Luigia, he just won't eat, and

1399
01:15:24,200 --> 01:15:28,400
Speaker 1: I've been buying. I buy buy him one little little

1400
01:15:28,439 --> 01:15:32,160
Speaker 1: trays of food of like his lamb. I hate buying lamb.

1401
01:15:33,120 --> 01:15:36,320
Speaker 1: I pitched the lamb going bah and just being like mama.

1402
01:15:36,520 --> 01:15:38,719
Speaker 1: And I do it for you, Luigi, because you won't

1403
01:15:38,800 --> 01:15:43,120
Speaker 1: eat any food. Now It's no, he definitely doesn't because

1404
01:15:43,120 --> 01:15:45,360
Speaker 1: he had some of your eggs sandwich day and you

1405
01:15:45,640 --> 01:15:49,840
Speaker 1: loved it. He loved the eggs. Say much Jesus Christ.

1406
01:15:49,920 --> 01:15:52,719
Speaker 1: He's really I can't I can't tell whether he hates

1407
01:15:52,760 --> 01:15:55,519
Speaker 1: me or loves me. And what I will say, Luigi

1408
01:15:55,680 --> 01:16:00,160
Speaker 1: now knows the podcast every morning, and like today, for

1409
01:16:00,200 --> 01:16:02,920
Speaker 1: the first time ever, he was in the podcast room

1410
01:16:03,000 --> 01:16:05,519
Speaker 1: before we began or before I came in. Andrew was

1411
01:16:05,520 --> 01:16:07,320
Speaker 1: already in here setting up, and then he was just

1412
01:16:07,400 --> 01:16:10,000
Speaker 1: sitting by the chair waiting for this time to happen.

1413
01:16:10,120 --> 01:16:15,040
Speaker 1: He really loves this. Yeah, it's rare that he just

1414
01:16:15,240 --> 01:16:17,240
Speaker 1: we just sit down and talk, you know, we're always

1415
01:16:17,280 --> 01:16:20,519
Speaker 1: like running around, and like he just loves this time.

1416
01:16:20,560 --> 01:16:24,559
Speaker 1: It was really sweet and I'm so glad Luigi's a bestie. Well,

1417
01:16:24,640 --> 01:16:28,320
Speaker 1: we don't know, he definitely is. All right, guys, thank

1418
01:16:28,360 --> 01:16:31,160
Speaker 1: you for listening to the podcast. He's gotta be Um.

1419
01:16:31,720 --> 01:16:34,320
Speaker 1: We will be in cancunamorrow, but we've got an episode

1420
01:16:34,360 --> 01:16:37,680
Speaker 1: for you. Don't worry about that, um. And we're going

1421
01:16:37,720 --> 01:16:40,479
Speaker 1: to be in d C this weekend as well as

1422
01:16:41,000 --> 01:16:47,400
Speaker 1: New York Huntington's Tampa Tampa Tampa Friday, Yes, DC Saturday.

1423
01:16:47,560 --> 01:16:52,160
Speaker 1: That's not true. Yeah, no, it's not It's uh Tampa Friday,

1424
01:16:52,360 --> 01:16:56,000
Speaker 1: DC Saturday. Are you sure? Oh, yeah, you're right, Okay,

1425
01:16:56,040 --> 01:16:59,400
Speaker 1: Tampa Friday, DC Saturday next week is New York ext

1426
01:16:59,439 --> 01:17:01,280
Speaker 1: next week, and then I'm going to be in New

1427
01:17:01,360 --> 01:17:05,559
Speaker 1: York on Monday night performing with John Stewart, Springsteen, Jim Gaffgan,

1428
01:17:05,640 --> 01:17:08,720
Speaker 1: Brandy Carlyle. No big deal. It's not nervous at all.

1429
01:17:08,840 --> 01:17:11,479
Speaker 1: I don't know what I'm gonna wear. Uh, not thinking

1430
01:17:11,520 --> 01:17:13,880
Speaker 1: about it until it happens, because there's no point in worrying.

1431
01:17:13,960 --> 01:17:16,920
Speaker 1: Now him, I can't wait. I've met him, I think

1432
01:17:17,000 --> 01:17:19,680
Speaker 1: one time in passing. But yes, I'm definitely going to

1433
01:17:19,760 --> 01:17:22,280
Speaker 1: try to have a moment that I can uh tell

1434
01:17:22,360 --> 01:17:25,320
Speaker 1: my dad about so he likes me more. Not that

1435
01:17:25,560 --> 01:17:27,720
Speaker 1: my dad's love is infinite, but you know, i'd like

1436
01:17:27,760 --> 01:17:32,120
Speaker 1: a little. He'll just think it's cool. Maybe yeah. And

1437
01:17:32,280 --> 01:17:34,680
Speaker 1: the Boss, I mean, come on, I mean that's like

1438
01:17:34,960 --> 01:17:37,160
Speaker 1: the coolest line up ever. And Brandy Carter, I mean,

1439
01:17:37,280 --> 01:17:39,760
Speaker 1: I know, it's sick, it's crazy. And and Nate Bargatsie.

1440
01:17:39,800 --> 01:17:42,559
Speaker 1: Don't forget him, I call him the Boss. So it's

1441
01:17:42,560 --> 01:17:44,320
Speaker 1: going to be a little awkward. Guys, we gotta go.

1442
01:17:44,360 --> 01:17:47,320
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for listening. Uh, we'll see you tomorrow.

1443
01:17:47,640 --> 01:17:49,840
Speaker 1: On the pod. Make sure you subscribe on our YouTube channel.

1444
01:17:49,840 --> 01:17:51,840
Speaker 1: Go rate my feet on Wiki feet and leave us

1445
01:17:52,600 --> 01:17:56,560
Speaker 1: rate and review on on the you know where it was.

1446
01:17:56,640 --> 01:17:59,160
Speaker 1: Wherever you listen to your podcast, we really appreciate it. Uh,

1447
01:17:59,320 --> 01:18:03,040
Speaker 1: see you next time. I'm Don't be Cat and Anon

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Speaker 1: Robinson