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Speaker 1: I relate so deeply to the Kim and Kry situation

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Speaker 1: on a cellular level, and watching this video of them

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Speaker 1: cry out for help and fight really took me down

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Speaker 1: to the sticks. Because as adults we push away experiences

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Speaker 1: we had as children. It's just our survival mechanism. We

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Speaker 1: just we brush it off. We think it didn't happen.

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Speaker 1: It's the only thing we knew. We can sometimes just

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Speaker 1: say that we didn't have a great childhood, or an

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Speaker 1: ideal childhood or a functional childhood. But it's just like

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Speaker 1: an anecdotal thing. But you really don't remember or even

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Speaker 1: know what it felt like, because it's just something you

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Speaker 1: can describe. It's not something you can feel now because

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Speaker 1: you've pushed it down and because you're not a child.

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Speaker 1: And so I watch Kim and Croy in desperation. Imagine

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Speaker 1: people who cared so deeply about what other people think. Financially,

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Speaker 1: the cars, the stuff, the chanel bags, the show, the show,

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Speaker 1: the show. We'll get into that, but that to be

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Speaker 1: able to be on camera, awsome hidden camera, or not

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Speaker 1: even be in front of your neighbors, just like be

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Speaker 1: and someone calling the police and actually talking to the

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Speaker 1: police because you feel like they're the only ones who

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Speaker 1: can help you. That means you are close to rock bottom.

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Speaker 1: And I lived in that house. I know that there's

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Speaker 1: been discussion about finances and gambling and foreclosures and mortgages

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Speaker 1: and fronting and stunting. It's a fact. And I know

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Speaker 1: that I was the kid in that house. I was

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Speaker 1: at the kid in the house where in the neighborhood

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Speaker 1: things were smashing, glass was smashing. There was one time

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Speaker 1: that my mother took every single framed beautiful glass and

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Speaker 1: I don't mean like eight x ten like a giant,

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Speaker 1: like giant poster size horse winter circle pictures that my

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Speaker 1: stepfather won that were all over the house and smashed

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Speaker 1: them all. I remember watching suicide attempts. I remember knife fights.

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Speaker 1: I remember my mother being beaten with the phone and

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Speaker 1: dragged down the hall. And I remember hearing the word

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Speaker 1: see the sea word that my stepfather was calling her

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Speaker 1: that because she had been out to Studio fifty four

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Speaker 1: till all hours of the night, I wasted and got

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Speaker 1: into a car accident. He would lock her out. She

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Speaker 1: would punch the glass to get in, bleeding everywhere, and

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Speaker 1: I remember he would come in and say everything to

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Speaker 1: me about her, like everything she was to me, you know.

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Speaker 1: And I remember hiding in the closet. I remember lighting paper.

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Speaker 1: I remember lighting fire, like not that I wanted to

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Speaker 1: set the house on fire, but I remember lighting paper

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Speaker 1: and then blowing it out, lighting paper and then blowing

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Speaker 1: it out, like watching the flame get a little bigger.

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Speaker 1: I could have set the house on fire. I was

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Speaker 1: a child, and I remember eating off of a card table.

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Speaker 1: We had a parakeet and we had a cat. We

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Speaker 1: ate off of a card table. Fifty three Greenway Terrace

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Speaker 1: and Forest Hills. The house cost one hundred thousand dollars.

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Speaker 1: I kept trying to ask, like how much one hundred

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Speaker 1: thousand dollars was, Like, it's one hundred thousand dollars. And

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Speaker 1: I remember having different cars, Mercedes, Jaguar, all of it,

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Speaker 1: and then I remember having none of it. I remember

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Speaker 1: my stepfather coming in and asking me to break open

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Speaker 1: my piggy bank to pay back bookies, football bookies. I

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Speaker 1: remember calling the cops and them coming and us being

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Speaker 1: at the hospital and be looking at me, looking myself

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Speaker 1: and the ads for like little apartments and begging why

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Speaker 1: we can leave them? Why we couldn't find an apartment.

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Speaker 1: And I remember, I remember all of it. I remember

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Speaker 1: going to that groom's house, my father, my stepfather's groom,

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Speaker 1: his horse groom who worked for me, a young guy

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Speaker 1: in his twenties, and his mother, Pat Wilson, and she

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Speaker 1: and her husband. She her husband used to was a

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Speaker 1: raging irish alcoholic. I don't remember. I remember there being

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Speaker 1: an abusive household too, and I remember someone in that

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Speaker 1: house being violated in that house. Let's just leave it

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Speaker 1: at that. These I know that I didn't realize we

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Speaker 1: couldn't leave because of money. Money, money, money, money, money, money, money.

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Speaker 1: Money makes the world go go round. And it's why

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Speaker 1: Kim and Croy probably are staying together in some way.

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Speaker 1: They probably love each other, they probably hate each other.

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Speaker 1: They probably look at each other and their mirrors of

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Speaker 1: each other. They reflect all their mistakes. They're the only

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Speaker 1: ones who know how much a fraud it's all been.

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Speaker 1: And I bring up the show because that's what The

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Speaker 1: Housewives is. It's a place where you have to show

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Speaker 1: everybody else how rich you are, how much money you have,

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Speaker 1: how many air meaz bags you have, how many letters

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Speaker 1: you can fit on your body, how many logos you

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Speaker 1: can wear. I'm not saying this is a situation with

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Speaker 1: p K and Dori. I'm just saying so many people

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Speaker 1: have said there have been financial issues. I'm not saying

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Speaker 1: that was the situation with Alex and Simon. I'm saying

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Speaker 1: that they were going to Kevali and went into foreclosure.

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Speaker 1: I'm not saying that it's the situation with Charat, but

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Speaker 1: she felt like she had to build some palace to

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Speaker 1: prove something to somebody. I'm not saying that Nini is

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Speaker 1: or isn't a rich bitch, but she came on the

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Speaker 1: show as a woman who was just like a normal

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Speaker 1: married woman and felt the need that she had to

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Speaker 1: prove that she was rich bitch. It goes on and

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Speaker 1: on and on in every single city. Everybody has to

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Speaker 1: prove how much money they have, and then you find out, oh,

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Speaker 1: they're not really a housewife. They're being helicoptered in to

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Speaker 1: prove they're a housewife. Oh they don't really own their house,

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Speaker 1: they rent their house. Or oh that person in Salt

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Speaker 1: Lake City, jen Shaw who's stealing to look rich with

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Speaker 1: logos everywhere, but they're all fake. Oh that's not really

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Speaker 1: her house. Every season she rents a new house. First

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Speaker 1: season I was on with Chill. They had money. It's

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Speaker 1: some money. Bobby rented a yellow Lamborghini to film. Everybody

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Speaker 1: has to appear rich and it's a pressure cooker because

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Speaker 1: they can't sustain it. They can't sustain it. And I

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Speaker 1: know how much money people have that were on the

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Speaker 1: Real Housewives of New York. It wasn't a lot compared

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Speaker 1: to what people think. It's not a lot on Beverly Hills.

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Speaker 1: It's a lot, but it's not what you think it

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Speaker 1: is because everything is designed to show you how rich

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Speaker 1: people are. Was Erica that rich? Was Erica that rich?

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Speaker 1: I knew she was, and I knew her husband owed money.

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Speaker 1: It doesn't matter. Everybody has to prove it. That's what

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Speaker 1: that show is about. And they don't hire people that

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Speaker 1: don't look rich. You don't have to be rich, you

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Speaker 1: just have to look rich. They would never hire someone

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Speaker 1: in a studio apartment like mine. Now, that's not what

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Speaker 1: the brand is, and they would say she doesn't have

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Speaker 1: enough money. She doesn't like she has enough money when casting.

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Speaker 1: That's what it is, and that, I bet you is

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Speaker 1: a lot of the pressure here because we hear about

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Speaker 1: all the bags that him selling, all the money that

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Speaker 1: these two were trying to prove that they had, and

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Speaker 1: now we hear about gambling debts. There are children in

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Speaker 1: that house, and they probably can't afford to break up,

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Speaker 1: and somebody's going to have to just be a grown

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Speaker 1: up out of the two of them and take their

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Speaker 1: kids and themselves out of that misery. People want to

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Speaker 1: blame Kim, people want to blame everyone. They're both in there,

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Speaker 1: and their children are going to be the product of

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Speaker 1: their unresolved issues. All the issues that their children have

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Speaker 1: in the future that they're talking to their therapists about

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Speaker 1: are going to be a result of being in that house.

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Speaker 1: So somebody has to get out of there. Somebody wants

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Speaker 1: to stay in my house, in my guest room, in

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Speaker 1: my guest house, no problem. But somebody's got to get

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Speaker 1: the hell out of there and find a small, tiny

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Speaker 1: place to stay with no heirs and no show and

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Speaker 1: no go. And they have to call this fight now

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Speaker 1: because this is irresponsible, it's unhealthy, it's bad for their children,

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Speaker 1: they're doing damage, it's bad for themselves. Somebody has got

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Speaker 1: to call this fight. It's time someone has to get

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Speaker 1: out of this house, get a studio apartment that is

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Speaker 1: six hundred dollars a month and take those kids into

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Speaker 1: a calm environment. Living in a nice, big house is

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Speaker 1: not worth this, and it's doing damage. It's enough now