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Speaker 1: Hey guys, Amy here, appreciate y'all listening to our Bobby

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Speaker 1: Bones Show podcast. I want to recommend Real Quick, a

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Speaker 1: show from my podcast network that I think you'll like. Now.

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Speaker 1: I host a podcast with registered dietitian Lisa Hame called Outweigh,

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Speaker 1: and the whole premise is to break the stigma and

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Speaker 1: expose the truth about disordered eating. We expose the gray

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Speaker 1: share our personal experiences as well as stories from real

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Speaker 1: people who found their food freedom, and then we also

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Speaker 1: have conversations with experts who share their guidance. Our tagline

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Speaker 1: really great podcast. I'm biased, but I really do think

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Speaker 1: that you'll like it, especially this episode I'm about to share.

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Speaker 1: Go subscribe and listen on iHeartRadio or wherever you listen

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Speaker 1: to podcast. Now here's an abolwey him Amy, That's Lisa,

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Speaker 1: and We're just two girls that want to have a

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Speaker 1: conversation with you. Dear sixteen year old Andrea Hey, gorgeous,

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Speaker 1: Dear younger Lauren. Each episode is stories from people I

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Speaker 1: would deprive myself by myself obsessively because I was eating healthy.

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Speaker 1: I couldn't understand that I had a problem with food.

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Speaker 1: Losing my period scared me the most. My story starts

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Speaker 1: when I was around seven. That's when I started to

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Speaker 1: hate my body. Body image is like our inner picture

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Speaker 1: Internal dialogue can be so powerful and often it's super

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Speaker 1: negative and critical in a way that we wouldn't talk

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Speaker 1: to other people that would care about. When you start

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Speaker 1: to share your story, that gives other people the courage

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Speaker 1: found my true sense of self worth. There's one thing

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Speaker 1: I need you to take away from this. You're going

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Speaker 1: start this because Lisa and I are here. I'm Amy.

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Speaker 1: In case you're new, well is this is a brand

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Speaker 1: new podcast, but sort or not. And then Lisa is

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Speaker 1: Lisa Engage. You're new, but we are beyond excited to

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Speaker 1: say that Outweigh is now its own podcast. So Outweigh

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Speaker 1: started as a four part series, and my other podcasts

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Speaker 1: that I do called Four Things with Amy Brown, and

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Speaker 1: we co hosted Outway together, and well, wouldn't you know,

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Speaker 1: weekly resource for you to continue to learn that a

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Speaker 1: brand new, welcome, and Lisa shared with you our email.

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Speaker 1: We would love to hear from you hello at Outweigh

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Speaker 1: podcast dot com. So we look forward to this journey,

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