Speaker 1: All from Kay. Hello, Hey, what's up?
Speaker 2: Who is this?
Speaker 1: I'll go by k Okay?
Speaker 2: What's up? Okay? How's life?
Speaker 3: Oh? It's treating me decently, an average like sticks? How
Speaker 3: about you?
Speaker 2: You know, man, I'm out here trying my best. What
Speaker 2: can I do?
Speaker 1: What you can do?
Speaker 3: That's how you can do?
Speaker 2: What can I do?
Speaker 4: For?
Speaker 2: Okay? Would you want to talk about Well?
Speaker 3: I am half deaf. I can't hear out of my
Speaker 3: left ear at all. I was born like that. My mom,
Speaker 3: I'm pretty sure I'm convinced she didn't mess with me
Speaker 3: at the time, but she will. She will never admit
Speaker 3: to that. She's like told me timeline stuff back in
Speaker 3: the day because we're super close, and I'm like, so,
Speaker 3: you did do it at that time, but she won't
Speaker 3: admit it to me.
Speaker 5: She just won't.
Speaker 2: And how old are you now?
Speaker 1: I'm twenty three and you said so?
Speaker 6: So your death partially because your mom did meth while
Speaker 6: she was pregnant with you.
Speaker 3: Yeah, she didn't know. She didn't know, obviously, I would hope.
Speaker 2: Not at least did that. Did you come out addicted
Speaker 2: to meth?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 3: So that's crazy because I mean I live in Iowa
Speaker 3: and meth is like the number one years drug around here,
Speaker 3: and everyone always asks, oh my gosh, have you tried math?
Speaker 3: Have you tried math? And I'm like, why would I
Speaker 3: do that? Because I'm already predispositioned to be more addicted
Speaker 3: than the regular Iowa folk, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Why would I even subject myself to that?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: So no long, long as or short. No, I didn't.
Speaker 3: I've never done that, thank God.
Speaker 2: And what do you do over in Iowa? What's going on?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 3: You know, just try to get out. Basically, I'm a
Speaker 3: janitor right now. Actually I'm at work, but I'm by myself.
Speaker 3: It's kind of cushy job. And then I go to
Speaker 3: school and I'm just trying to work my way through
Speaker 3: the system.
Speaker 2: You know, what do you go to school for.
Speaker 3: I'm in criminal justice right now, but I'm not much
Speaker 3: of an enforcer type. I'm not good with authority and whatnot.
Speaker 3: So I think I'd like to go into human services
Speaker 3: or something, help help someone.
Speaker 2: What kind of human services?
Speaker 3: So, since I'm at that age where a lot of
Speaker 3: women are either getting pregnant or asking me why I'm not,
Speaker 3: I kind of realized I really don't want kids. I mean,
Speaker 3: maybe that had something to do with my mom not
Speaker 3: knowing that she had me and doing messing the room
Speaker 3: or something. But I think I'd like to go into
Speaker 3: CPS or something. But also I'm not much for breaking
Speaker 3: up families either or breaking up homes, but I do
Speaker 3: want to help children in some way. I just don't
Speaker 3: want any of my own. So I figured it might
Speaker 3: as well still that hole somewhere, you know.
Speaker 6: M what's uh, what's the path to that look like?
Speaker 6: Do you have to go to a school for a
Speaker 6: long time?
Speaker 7: No?
Speaker 3: I think it's really just so Iowa. It's a lot
Speaker 3: of worker We're known to be like worker bees. Basically,
Speaker 3: let's just kind of work your way up the ladder
Speaker 3: of the government centence to government job technically and all
Speaker 3: that good stuff.
Speaker 2: You got friends over in.
Speaker 3: Iowa, Oh sorta. I mean, yeah, I got a couple
Speaker 3: of friends. I got a couple of beef and friends.
Speaker 3: But it's a it's a small pool out here, you know.
Speaker 3: De Morn is the our capital, right of the state,
Speaker 3: and it's one of the smallest capitals in this country,
Speaker 3: like population wise, and when you if you ever came
Speaker 3: here or if you have, I don't know if you have,
Speaker 3: but it's pretty small, like square miles or whatever. However
Speaker 3: you measure a city.
Speaker 6: Are you still like like when you were when you
Speaker 6: you grew up there? I assume yeah, yeah, Well, and
Speaker 6: are you still friends with the people that you knew
Speaker 6: growing up like middle school, high school?
Speaker 3: No? No, no, no no. So I grew up in
Speaker 3: a small town, which it's nuts, okay. I grew up
Speaker 3: in a town that's like fifteen thousand population, which isn't
Speaker 3: super small, but small enough. And uh, it's a lot
Speaker 3: of people that live there are townies, like they just
Speaker 3: stay there forever and never leave. They can't get out
Speaker 3: of it. Their last name means so much to them,
Speaker 3: and you know, blah blah blah. They just pump money
Speaker 3: back into the city and whatnot. And I've determined for
Speaker 3: myself the second I started schooler, I would not become
Speaker 3: a towny. I am not going to be one of
Speaker 3: those people. And so far, I just moved like forty
Speaker 3: five minutes away. I'm still technically a towny, just in
Speaker 3: a different town.
Speaker 2: Now.
Speaker 3: It's new to me, so experience is a little different,
Speaker 3: I guess.
Speaker 2: And do you do you want to leave Iowa? At
Speaker 2: some point? Where would you go?
Speaker 3: Honestly, I this is this is so stupid. But I'm since,
Speaker 3: you know, Iowa has all the seasons, and we have
Speaker 3: a little bit of everything. We got a little bit minus,
Speaker 3: like hurricanes and all that. But I'd like to go
Speaker 3: to Minnesota or something. I think I could handle the
Speaker 3: extreme colds and whatnot. And the crowd seems to be
Speaker 3: a lot cooler. They're more people, a lot more to do,
Speaker 3: a lot more opportunity, and not too far from my
Speaker 3: family here.
Speaker 2: You know, that's nice.
Speaker 6: I doubt you will experience significant culture shock moving from
Speaker 6: Iowa to Minnesota.
Speaker 3: No. No, I went to California. I went to see
Speaker 3: Diego and I lived in my car with my shitty
Speaker 3: ex for a while, and that was a culture shock
Speaker 3: for sure. Well, I was like, I was like, basically
Speaker 3: I was home. Was there right, and he is all
Speaker 3: tatted up and scary white guy and stuff, And everybody
Speaker 3: just knew we were from out of town, you know
Speaker 3: what I mean, the state, let's put it that, or
Speaker 3: the region. Even they just could tell I swear. But
Speaker 3: some people were super nice, but most people were just
Speaker 3: they were not about it to you.
Speaker 2: What do you mean? What do you mean by that?
Speaker 6: They were like, who did you what kinds of interactions
Speaker 6: did you have while you were down there?
Speaker 3: Well, we went into like a local skateboard shop and
Speaker 3: bought some words there, and the owners there they were
Speaker 3: super cool. Apparently they were like multi award winning skaters.
Speaker 3: I don't know the competition for that or stacked, but
Speaker 3: they were super nice, but random strangers. They they did
Speaker 3: not appreciate us. But also my ex he's kind of,
Speaker 3: for lack of a better term, he's pretty extra, like
Speaker 3: he's just always doing way way too much. But like
Speaker 3: local shops and stuff, they'd constantly see us and kick
Speaker 3: us out. You can't, you can't like, So that's different
Speaker 3: about Iowa and California is everything in California's packs Like
Speaker 3: you can't park anywhere just to park because we lived
Speaker 3: in our car. But in Iowa you could park anywhere.
Speaker 3: You could park in a random person's field and that
Speaker 3: like the farmer won't notice you for.
Speaker 2: A while, you know, Oh yeah, No, California, you can't
Speaker 2: park anywhere or else. It's weird.
Speaker 6: California is weird because like in Los Angeles, if you
Speaker 6: have a if you have a car and you park
Speaker 6: it anywhere for five minutes, you owe the city three
Speaker 6: one hundred thousand dollars. But if you have a giant
Speaker 6: I don't know what this is. If you have a
Speaker 6: giant RV, you can park it in the middle of
Speaker 6: the street like grand theft dollars. Just get out of it,
Speaker 6: just leave it there and it's for some reason. Fine,
Speaker 6: it just stays there.
Speaker 3: Right. No that San Diego.
Speaker 2: Why did you go to San Diego to be homeless
Speaker 2: with this guy?
Speaker 1: Well?
Speaker 3: So he was super manipulative. And it was my first
Speaker 3: relationship ever and I was a vergent before that, and
Speaker 3: yah YadA, yaday. And he manipulated me basically because he
Speaker 3: didn't like that talk to other guys, which I wasn't
Speaker 3: talk to other guys like that. It was very mundane
Speaker 3: human interactions. He couldn't deal with that, even you know,
Speaker 3: if I worked with another male, or if I if
Speaker 3: I you know, I worked at gas stations, if of
Speaker 3: men came in. He didn't like that. And one day
Speaker 3: he was just like, oh, well, I'm leaving, are you
Speaker 3: coming with me or not? And it was very manipulative
Speaker 3: and he's like, if you could go anywhere where would
Speaker 3: you want? He made it like my He always put
Speaker 3: planted the idea in my head that it was my choice,
Speaker 3: but really it wasn't. And I've been to San Diego.
Speaker 3: I'd been to Mission Beach before with my family on
Speaker 3: a vacation for like three days, but I felt like
Speaker 3: I didn't get enough time. I fell in love with
Speaker 3: the place, and so I said Mission Beach and He's like,
Speaker 3: let's go. And so we got rid of all of
Speaker 3: our belongings, which wasn't anything, but then we really had
Speaker 3: nothing and went to California and then and then I
Speaker 3: didn't want to go though, because he was making it.
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, if we go on vacation or something, right,
Speaker 3: and he's made it seem like, oh, we're moving there,
Speaker 3: We're gonna lived there. And I was eighteen at the time,
Speaker 3: you know, this was five years ago or whatever, and
Speaker 3: I had no idea what I wanted to do. I
Speaker 3: dropped out of the community college here in Iowa, like
Speaker 3: it was not a good situation.
Speaker 6: But so, how long did you guys just hang out
Speaker 6: in your car in San Diego?
Speaker 3: Well, okay, do you want to hear kind of an
Speaker 3: embarrassing slash funny story about when we left? Sure, it
Speaker 3: was only like a week or maybe two right. I
Speaker 3: don't remember because we went to the dispensaries and you know,
Speaker 3: spent most of our moneys there because I was not legal.
Speaker 3: But anyways, we went to Jack in the Box for
Speaker 3: the first time because we also don't have that in Iowa.
Speaker 3: He bought a crap ton of food, right, like an
Speaker 3: abnormal amount of fast food from Jack in the Box.
Speaker 3: We were stuff on our faces and he found this
Speaker 3: like little grave piece in one of his burgers. And
Speaker 3: he's not much of a people person, like I said, plus,
Speaker 3: he's just very rude people. So I went in and
Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, this burger's nasty whatever, right, not
Speaker 3: taking anything of it. They gave us a refund, gave
Speaker 3: us new food whatever. We were sleeping in our car
Speaker 3: that night, went to bed I. We were in a
Speaker 3: Hondai accent like twenty twelve super small car. I'm like
Speaker 3: five eight, he's above six foot, super small car. He
Speaker 3: took the seats. I was on the floor and I
Speaker 3: just wake up to him freaking out and he's like,
Speaker 3: I have to shit. But in California at the time,
Speaker 3: it was like right before COVID, right around like George
Speaker 3: Floyd riots and stuff, So all the gas stations were closed.
Speaker 3: All the quart of potties, even on the beach were closed,
Speaker 3: like the beach was closed, appier and stuff. He was
Speaker 3: freaking out and just saying, oh, no, I have this shit.
Speaker 3: It's so mad. And eventually I was just like, okay,
Speaker 3: you know, let's get a hotel with the very little
Speaker 3: money I had. And he was like, we're going back tonight.
Speaker 3: And I was like, that's crazy. We're going to go
Speaker 3: back because you couldn't find somewhere to ship, you know
Speaker 3: what I mean, Like, that's wild. Actually, now we're gonna
Speaker 3: look extra stupid. Not just coming back, but the reason
Speaker 3: we came back is because you couldn't find a place
Speaker 3: to ship.
Speaker 6: Well, you know what, you know, I don't think that
Speaker 6: that's an embarrassing story.
Speaker 2: I think that that is a truthfully, I mean.
Speaker 6: Here not having the ship hey first, I mean, that's
Speaker 6: a great reason to leave a place.
Speaker 2: Is because you can't take a shit there.
Speaker 3: That's a no exc reason some hours away from home.
Speaker 5: That's wild.
Speaker 2: That's a great reason to leave a place.
Speaker 6: By the way, you guys, leaving because he didn't have
Speaker 6: a place to take a shit is is is a
Speaker 6: microcosm of the actual issue I mean that was your
Speaker 6: issue is.
Speaker 2: You didn't have a place to live.
Speaker 6: You didn't you That really was the legitimate reason to leave,
Speaker 6: is hey, we don't have a place to ship. So
Speaker 6: I don't think that's particularly embarrassing, And I think that's
Speaker 6: it sounds like you were fed up with living in
Speaker 6: your car and you were like, let's go someplace where
Speaker 6: we don't have to do that.
Speaker 3: I mean I was more. I was willing to follow
Speaker 3: this man wherever. He had a problem with not being
Speaker 3: able to ship free will, you know, But he also
Speaker 3: dragged us too there, so that's also on him. We
Speaker 3: should be saying, well, if he wanted a place of
Speaker 3: shit and so, all.
Speaker 2: Right, so you went down there, you went down to
Speaker 2: San Diego to hang out with this guy, You go
Speaker 2: back to Iowa, do you break up with him?
Speaker 3: We were, uh, we went, we came back, We went
Speaker 3: to Texas because he did the same. Now he knows
Speaker 3: I'm willing to follow him wherever, right, so he just
Speaker 3: used that against me for a couple more times. We
Speaker 3: went to Texas like twice, went back to San Diego
Speaker 3: with his shitty friends another time about we haven't been
Speaker 3: together for three years now, so I don't know, it
Speaker 3: was mass but we were together like on and off
Speaker 3: for a couple of years after that.
Speaker 2: So what's up with you now?
Speaker 6: You're a janitor, you're working in a little bit outside
Speaker 6: of Iowa, You're gonna try to.
Speaker 2: Go to Minnesota. What's what's the goal? What's the dream?
Speaker 3: I don't know. I just honestly, through that relationship, I
Speaker 3: just don't want anyone to take advantage of me ever again.
Speaker 3: I mean, growing up in with my dad at least
Speaker 3: he only had girls and he wanted boys, and I'm
Speaker 3: the oldest and he just always instilled, you know, don't
Speaker 3: ever depend on a man besides him. I guess, which
Speaker 3: kind of fucked. But uh, and that's my goal, I guess,
Speaker 3: just try to build enough of a life where I
Speaker 3: don't have to depend on anyone, just not even a man,
Speaker 3: anyone in general, you know.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmmm hmm.
Speaker 6: It's tough. It's really tough. Do you are you have
Speaker 6: you gone? Have you tried dating anyone again? Or are
Speaker 6: you staying single for the time being?
Speaker 8: Oh?
Speaker 3: No, I dated. I mean, like I said, I was
Speaker 3: full of mess and I dated this white guy who
Speaker 3: thought he was like in the gang and stuff and yeah,
Speaker 3: not for me. I'm I'm honestly, I'm I'm a pretty
Speaker 3: like I want to consider myself a hippie, but like
Speaker 3: a rocker chic. I don't like guns and stuff if
Speaker 3: you don't know how to use them, don't you know.
Speaker 3: And that's all I got to say about that. But no, now,
Speaker 3: I'm I'm pretty cool with being single and figuring myself out,
Speaker 3: which is why I'm like a janitor and going to
Speaker 3: school again at twenty three with a bunch of like
Speaker 3: eighteen year olds and stuff who just graduated. Uh.
Speaker 6: I mean, look, man, you sound like you've done actually
Speaker 6: pretty well for yourself considering the circumstances that you're coming from.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you, I appreciate.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 6: So your so your mom was on math? Where did
Speaker 6: you do you self? Have a relationship with her? What's
Speaker 6: what's her deal?
Speaker 4: Oh?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, we're so. The funny part is my
Speaker 3: dad was the mess dealer and that's how they met,
Speaker 3: and you know, all that good stuff. But no, I'm
Speaker 3: pretty close with her. She's she had never really been
Speaker 3: a mother to me, just because of some trauma. She
Speaker 3: went doing her life and whatnot, and that's all right
Speaker 3: with me. I've kind of come to terms with that,
Speaker 3: but we're no, we're sure close. She's she's still one
Speaker 3: of my best friends. You know.
Speaker 6: Wow, Okay, great, so you so you still have a
Speaker 6: good relationship about your dad. He still got a good
Speaker 6: relationship with him.
Speaker 3: Uh me, and so he wasn't really around much in
Speaker 3: my childhood because he was an iron worker and when
Speaker 3: you're in a union, you can travel a lot. He
Speaker 3: chose to travel so he could cheat, be away from
Speaker 3: his family and whatnot. But then when I was like sixteen,
Speaker 3: he came back in and tried to control me and
Speaker 3: that didn't go too well. So we had a lot
Speaker 3: of beef then. But and then it keeps me out
Speaker 3: and whatnot. But I deserted. I was being a shithead
Speaker 3: right obviously. Anyways, now we're decent though. It's been a
Speaker 3: couple of years obviously since that, and he's helped me
Speaker 3: out a lot. He's a pretty smart dude.
Speaker 2: M hm hm hmm. You sound like what's your name again?
Speaker 1: I'll go back, k Okay, Okay, you sound like.
Speaker 6: You're doing pretty okay for for everything that's uh that's
Speaker 6: been going on with you, ver re all. I mean
Speaker 6: the fact that I mean, you know, you got a
Speaker 6: lot going for you. You're not addicted to meth. You
Speaker 6: have a job, like really, like really genuinely.
Speaker 2: I'm not thinking I'm.
Speaker 6: Like rude, like I mean this, I'm thinking about it.
Speaker 6: I'm like, Okay, you're not addicted to meth. You seem like, uh,
Speaker 6: it was a journey to get there. But you got
Speaker 6: good self esteem, you got a job, you're going to school, you're.
Speaker 2: Doing very well. You're doing very well. That's that's a
Speaker 2: great those are all those are all a good things.
Speaker 1: Man.
Speaker 2: You got goals to you got goals. It's good. It's
Speaker 2: all good stuff.
Speaker 4: Man.
Speaker 2: I hope, I hope you're Are you happy or you
Speaker 2: do you feel happy?
Speaker 3: I mean for the most part, i'd say, yeah, I
Speaker 3: got I got a lot more than people in life,
Speaker 3: but also in my outlook. Like how you always say,
Speaker 3: you know, it's perspective on everything, right, And I believe
Speaker 3: that too, like wholeheartedly. So I are me and you
Speaker 3: gek are morals A line I swear to God.
Speaker 2: Well it's so, I don't know if that's a I
Speaker 2: don't know if that's a moral. I don't know if
Speaker 2: that's a moral. And by the way, that that's not
Speaker 2: like people have been saying. People have been saying like, oh,
Speaker 2: you preach this every day, and I appreach it as
Speaker 2: an observation. It's one of those things.
Speaker 6: I have all these things that I like know in
Speaker 6: my soul that I try to that I I are
Speaker 6: like beacons that I attempt to practice because my perspective
Speaker 6: is shitty. Well, I don't, I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 6: my perspective is shitty all the time. I actually will
Speaker 6: notice all the time that there's a saying that like
Speaker 6: the mind can make hell of heaven and heaven of hell,
Speaker 6: and I'll notice all the time that I make hell
Speaker 6: of heaven, and I have to remind myself. I'm like,
Speaker 6: you know, I talk on the podcast. I guess what
Speaker 6: I mean is I don't mean this from some place
Speaker 6: of like I am enlightened and as part of my enlightenment,
Speaker 6: this is what I'm sharing with you, you know.
Speaker 3: I really I don't think people take it like that though.
Speaker 3: I really don't.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm probably just pro just in my own fucking
Speaker 6: head about it. I don't think they do either.
Speaker 3: But it's it's kind of like it's kind of like
Speaker 3: fake it till you make it you know what I mean.
Speaker 3: So you're you're like perspective, perspective, and then one day
Speaker 3: you know, you'll have a good perspective too.
Speaker 6: I was like, I caught myself the other day. I
Speaker 6: was like, I'm in this situation right now. I've been
Speaker 6: like living out of airbnbs for for months and months.
Speaker 6: I've been living on Airbnb's for like seven months or something,
Speaker 6: and I'm you know, tired, and I'm like.
Speaker 2: The opposite of cabin fever, I guess.
Speaker 6: But I've just been thinking, I'm like, Okay, once I
Speaker 6: finally settle down, I can get my perspective right.
Speaker 2: And it's like, what the fuck does that mean.
Speaker 6: It's as if it's like something that's like, Okay, once
Speaker 6: this is an it's like you're delaying it. It's like, well,
Speaker 6: once this is an order, and this is an order,
Speaker 6: and once my life looks pretty much perfectly exactly like this,
Speaker 6: which it never ever ever will, then I'll be able
Speaker 6: to have good perspective. Like that's like it's just it's
Speaker 6: like a hilarious thing. It's like, once once the external well,
Speaker 6: it's like, once the external circumstances of my life a
Speaker 6: line in some way, I will be able to have
Speaker 6: a good perspective about them, And it's like that completely
Speaker 6: misses the point. The whole point of perspective is to
Speaker 6: be able to have it regardless of any kind of
Speaker 6: external circumstances. So for me to be sitting there like, okay, hey,
Speaker 6: once my circumstances hit some sort of point, I'll be
Speaker 6: able to get my mind ready.
Speaker 2: But also I.
Speaker 3: Feel like that's a normal human thing, like justification though too.
Speaker 2: You know, yeah, it is, it is, it is, but
Speaker 2: it's it's it feels like a race to the bottom.
Speaker 2: But I don't know, I've been wrestling with.
Speaker 6: You know, external versus internal in in in all of this.
Speaker 6: But anyway, that's cool, man, Meth is probably really good.
Speaker 6: I'm just gonna put that out there. It probably feels
Speaker 6: it's not good for you, but it probably feels really good.
Speaker 2: And that's why you should make people why you shouldn't
Speaker 2: do it. Then, yeah, it's why you shouldn't do it.
Speaker 2: That's why you should.
Speaker 3: Like, if I have it runningto my vans already, I
Speaker 3: definitely shouldn't because I'll be you know, walking down the
Speaker 3: street with no shoes and no time if I tried,
Speaker 3: you know, like a progression. I feel like you beat
Speaker 3: up for me.
Speaker 2: You know, I've thought about it, like, uh, if you
Speaker 2: you ever.
Speaker 6: I have this fantasy that I'm coming up with just
Speaker 6: now where I get addicted to meth. But I just go,
Speaker 6: like I make it a like a lifestyle choice.
Speaker 2: You know what I mean.
Speaker 3: Like, so I was addicted to coke before, and like
Speaker 3: badly did not just like a party thing or whatever.
Speaker 3: And I respect people who come from all walks of life.
Speaker 3: I know I had shit on meth and stuff, but
Speaker 3: and I found myself while on coke being like everyone
Speaker 3: else has a problem. It's not me, it's everyone else,
Speaker 3: you know. And that's when you know it's like real
Speaker 3: bad is when you're trying to rationalize it to the
Speaker 3: general public.
Speaker 2: Just like no, no, what I mean, like just a total
Speaker 2: just like you know what, fuck it, what's the point
Speaker 2: of anything.
Speaker 6: Who gives a ship. Let's just let's just meth. Let's
Speaker 6: just ride it out meth meth style, you know what
Speaker 6: I mean. Like that's that's if I were if I
Speaker 6: were gonna make like a like if I were gonna
Speaker 6: like come admit to being addicted to meth, like I'm
Speaker 6: just gonna ride it the funk out, like just do
Speaker 6: meth until I die. But that's I don't that's probably
Speaker 6: it's not a good idea. It would it's not the
Speaker 6: best way to do it, do you know.
Speaker 1: Shank Dillers, Yeah.
Speaker 3: He has a he has a little bit where he
Speaker 3: says his sister's a heroin addict or whatever, and he said,
Speaker 3: it must be nice, nice just having like side quests
Speaker 3: all day, you know what I mean. That'd be exactly
Speaker 3: like that.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I've I know, I.
Speaker 3: Know, a regular quest, just side quest.
Speaker 2: Well I'm probably not gonna do meth.
Speaker 6: Uh no, But I don't know what's the I really
Speaker 6: I really mean, I really mean this, And I know
Speaker 6: it's a fucking weird thing to say, but like when
Speaker 6: I think about like, like look at a person who
Speaker 6: like maybe they have a family and a career and
Speaker 6: friends and they sorry, I just sneeze, like somebody was
Speaker 6: somebody was a real like life, you know, and somebody
Speaker 6: and somebody who likes and it took a long time,
Speaker 6: and then you know they work out, they eat right,
Speaker 6: they're in really good shape.
Speaker 2: They do crossfits no no, no, no, no, like they do
Speaker 2: like CrossFit and whatnot, and here's the thing that person
Speaker 2: will die at some point, and then there's another person
Speaker 2: who's like, I'm just gonna smoke meth and play video
Speaker 2: games all day until I die. I do have a hard.
Speaker 6: Time, like really mentally being like, show me at the
Speaker 6: end of the day of the difference between those two lives.
Speaker 2: I know that's insane noice. I'm eighty percent joking.
Speaker 3: No, No, I think that's a valid point because meth
Speaker 3: isn't super common like everywhere, Like obviously there is meth,
Speaker 3: but I feel like it's more by.
Speaker 2: The way, I'm not even talking about like I'm not
Speaker 2: like like like we're getting too specific with it with me.
Speaker 2: I'm like, like a person who.
Speaker 6: Just smokes weed and plays video games and jacksaw and
Speaker 6: like doesn't do it like doing like quote doing something
Speaker 6: with your life versus not. I don't maybe this is
Speaker 6: just like depression or whatever, but I don't like, what
Speaker 6: is the difference between these No, I have no.
Speaker 3: Problem with people do in their own lives, you know.
Speaker 3: I think the main problem with meths, I should say,
Speaker 3: is just what we were getting specific was it just
Speaker 3: makes people into something different. Man, they steal, they hurt others,
Speaker 3: they're not. They really aren't themselves. I swear it's and
Speaker 3: I mean maybe that's just because there's a lot of
Speaker 3: people on your podcast are like, oh, I'm a very
Speaker 3: functional nine to five. You know. However, sixty can hear
Speaker 3: average dude and I do some mess here in there,
Speaker 3: and I'm like, wow, that's not in Iowa. That's like
Speaker 3: not a saying. In Iowa, it's either you do mess
Speaker 3: fully or you don't, you know. And that's I mean,
Speaker 3: I have mad respect for everybody, obviously humans in general,
Speaker 3: because we all go through our own thing, but especially
Speaker 3: those people that can just do a little and don't
Speaker 3: have clearly don't have that addiction gene in their brain,
Speaker 3: you know, and just do it for the fun of it,
Speaker 3: I guess in lack of a better turn. But here
Speaker 3: in Iowa, no, there, it's it's bad. Like they they'll
Speaker 3: have billboards, you know how, you know how they have
Speaker 3: like the suicide hotline. They'll have like a meth hotline
Speaker 3: basically here in Iowa and there's a billboard like in
Speaker 3: all these small towns.
Speaker 6: I wonder how many people have called the meth hotline
Speaker 6: thinking it was a hotline you could buy meth from.
Speaker 3: Honestly, I didn't think about that, but Ny, you got
Speaker 3: to be on mess to think in that way, not
Speaker 3: insinuating anything that's not bad.
Speaker 2: What's your what's your name? Again? I'm for the hundredth time.
Speaker 6: Okay, okay, well okay, Like I said, you're doing great.
Speaker 2: You're doing great.
Speaker 6: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 6: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: Just peace and love and all that good stuff.
Speaker 6: Take care, k Thanks for calling, and I'll talk to
Speaker 6: you again, maybe never, probably never. I'll probably never talk
Speaker 6: to you again, but.
Speaker 3: Okay, I've already made piece of it.
Speaker 2: Was great sharing this.
Speaker 6: It was great that our lives intersected at this very
Speaker 6: moment on the phone together.
Speaker 3: And I wish you lots of luck you two gig bye.
Speaker 2: By k That was nice. I like to that.
Speaker 5: Cool all from Kyle.
Speaker 2: Kyle, you haven't been it. What's up?
Speaker 7: Oh? Hi?
Speaker 1: Wow?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 7: I didn't expect to actually get on a call. Okay.
Speaker 7: So I have to head into work soon. But I
Speaker 7: hate my job. I hate it like absolutely. I want
Speaker 7: to quit, but I can't because I have no money
Speaker 7: at all. My friends hate my boyfriend, and I don't
Speaker 7: know what to do with that either.
Speaker 2: Why do they hate your boyfriends?
Speaker 7: I have no idea, Like, I don't know what he's
Speaker 7: done to them, but literally every time they're like you
Speaker 7: should always they want me to tell them about him.
Speaker 7: But every time I do, they're like, oh, he's disgusting.
Speaker 7: Why would you tell me about him? And I'm just
Speaker 7: like pick a side.
Speaker 2: Uh, what do you do? What's your job? I work?
Speaker 7: I'm a cashier at five below?
Speaker 2: Or can you work at five below? Yeah? Damn it,
Speaker 2: you know what I was this.
Speaker 6: I was gonna make this a one minute call, but uh,
Speaker 6: I kind of want to hear more about five Below.
Speaker 2: I'm a huge fan of five below.
Speaker 7: Okay, cool because I have like five minutes before I
Speaker 7: have to head in. Okay, So the place I work,
Speaker 7: it's awful because of the kids that live around us,
Speaker 7: Like they always come in on their e bikes. They're
Speaker 7: destroying the store, like twenty four to seven. We have
Speaker 7: to kick them out all the time.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it seems as though the like it's just teenagers
Speaker 6: fucking around.
Speaker 2: That's really what five below is exactly. Yeah, do you
Speaker 2: ever do you ever have to do you ever have
Speaker 2: to beat them up?
Speaker 7: Well, we're not allowed to beat them up. I wish
Speaker 7: I could. All we have, Like the only thing we
Speaker 7: are allowed to do, like is say, oh, you have
Speaker 7: to get out of the store. Like we can't even
Speaker 7: accuse them if we saw them steal, Like we can't
Speaker 7: say you still give it back. We have to literally
Speaker 7: just escort them out.
Speaker 2: Do people ever, Like, well do people go into five below?
Speaker 2: How many? How much revenue does it make?
Speaker 7: Honestly, like it depends on the day because usually we're
Speaker 7: quite slow during the week, but on weekends it's like
Speaker 7: crowded as can I sear. Yeah, okay, it's kind as
Speaker 7: a fuck. I literally hate it.
Speaker 6: Why why did you pick five below as all of
Speaker 6: all places to work at?
Speaker 7: It was the only place that hired me and I
Speaker 7: was in desperate need of money.
Speaker 2: I'm surprised.
Speaker 6: I'm surprised five below is not in desperate need of money.
Speaker 7: They are. We actually are suffering, like really bad.
Speaker 2: Who the fuck would buy anything? I mean, also, everything
Speaker 2: is five dollars?
Speaker 3: Right?
Speaker 6: Do they sell any Do they actually only sell any
Speaker 6: anything above five dollars?
Speaker 2: I mean that might be their new business plan. They
Speaker 2: got to do that. Inflation. Five below is not.
Speaker 7: Prepared for inflation, definitely, we literally have a section in
Speaker 7: the back called like five and beyond, and it's stuff
Speaker 7: that's sixteen to twenty dollars. And every time someone comes in,
Speaker 7: they're like, why do you have a section that's more
Speaker 7: than five dollars? I thought this was five below. I'm like, okay,
Speaker 7: so what deal with it? If you don't want to
Speaker 7: buy it, don't buy it?
Speaker 6: Did you still do you still have the part of
Speaker 6: the store where it's one dollar pranks?
Speaker 5: I used to love that, Yeah, we do.
Speaker 7: I hate it.
Speaker 2: Why do you hate it?
Speaker 7: Because they take the stuff out of the package and
Speaker 7: put it like like they'll literally just spread it around
Speaker 7: the store so we can't sell the items.
Speaker 2: Why do you give a shit.
Speaker 7: Because I have to clean it up?
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, that makes sense. Dare you you ever felt
Speaker 6: you ever fell for any of those? You ever fell
Speaker 6: for the fucking uh the buzzer prank?
Speaker 7: No? No, but one time a kid he turned on
Speaker 7: one of these like annoying little it's like a little part,
Speaker 7: not like an electric part bomb, and it wouldn't stop
Speaker 7: making noise, like we couldn't figure out how to turn
Speaker 7: it off, so and we couldn't destroy it, obviously, because
Speaker 7: if we did, then we'd be responsible for it, so
Speaker 7: he's just to let it Like who fortnoys is the
Speaker 7: whole night?
Speaker 2: That's why couldn't you destroy it?
Speaker 7: Because if we destroy it, then we have to pay
Speaker 7: for it. But if like a customer destroys it, then
Speaker 7: it's like, oh, no big deal.
Speaker 2: Wait, hold on when you say you have to who? Who?
Speaker 2: Who makes you? I mean it's broken, it's defective merchandise
Speaker 2: that the customer fucked up.
Speaker 7: It's yeah, I know, it's weird.
Speaker 2: Wait what do you mean that you have to pay
Speaker 2: for it? Who makes you pay for it?
Speaker 7: Oh? My manager, he's an apple. I don't like him.
Speaker 2: Yeah, he's probably His life is probably awful.
Speaker 7: Yeah, he doesn't really talk about much about his life,
Speaker 7: but literally, like the one time he did, he was like, yeah,
Speaker 7: I live alone most of the time. Occasionally I'll get
Speaker 7: to see my kids. And I'm like, you're just miserable
Speaker 7: and you're working at a like low rate job at
Speaker 7: by below both like, find something better to do with
Speaker 7: your life.
Speaker 2: Yeah, life's fucking crazy, man, life is fucking crazy. How come?
Speaker 3: I so?
Speaker 2: I mean, can you just how much is it? How
Speaker 2: much is a broken fart toy?
Speaker 7: Usually it's three dollars, but I don't. Am I willing
Speaker 7: to pay three dollars out of my minimum?
Speaker 9: Ways?
Speaker 7: Not really?
Speaker 2: No, No, that's fuck to know. I don't think you
Speaker 2: should have to file a complaint with the labor board
Speaker 2: about the farts. I might.
Speaker 7: I just might, honestly, but it's okay. I just recently
Speaker 7: applied to Baston Robbins, which is like two stores down,
Speaker 7: and hopefully I'll get a job there.
Speaker 2: That sounds marginally less awful.
Speaker 7: Definitely. I just give off the vibe that I should
Speaker 7: work in an ice cream shop.
Speaker 2: Anyways, do you have to go into work now?
Speaker 7: I do, unfortunately. Thank you so much for picking up
Speaker 7: the call. This is my first time ever watching your stream.
Speaker 7: Actually cool, super cool.
Speaker 6: Well, good talking to you, man, and good good luck.
Speaker 6: Well at least at least this job has given you
Speaker 6: the skill of deciphering real vomit from fake vomit, which
Speaker 6: is this is a good skill to have.
Speaker 7: Yeah, definitely, thank you so much.
Speaker 2: Take care of it.
Speaker 10: Bye howl from Hello, what's up?
Speaker 4: Man?
Speaker 2: Who is this?
Speaker 5: This is hot hand Sandwich. But I'm pretty surprised that
Speaker 5: you actually.
Speaker 2: Answered triple ah hot ham hot Hay. I'm just going
Speaker 2: to call you. I'm just going to call you, Ham,
Speaker 2: hot Ham. What's going on? How's life?
Speaker 5: That's the thing, man, I really don't know how to
Speaker 5: answer that question. I've thought about it more than once,
Speaker 5: but I keep trying to read you because you're the
Speaker 5: only therapist that I would think would be able to
Speaker 5: really level with me.
Speaker 6: I'm gonna I'm gonna stop you right there. I'm gonna
Speaker 6: stop you right there, and you know what I'm gonna say.
Speaker 6: Do you know what I'm gonna say. No, you don't
Speaker 6: know what I'm gonna say.
Speaker 5: No, I really don't, hot ham Uh.
Speaker 2: I am not a real therapist. I'm not even a
Speaker 2: fake therapist.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know, I know that I am.
Speaker 2: I am. I am a crazy person talking to strangers
Speaker 2: on the phone. I'm not hold hold hold on, let
Speaker 2: me speak my piece real quick. I just want you
Speaker 2: to know. I just want you to know. Yeah, not
Speaker 2: a real therapist.
Speaker 6: Yeah, okay, but but I am a person on the
Speaker 6: phone with you, and I am happy to talk to
Speaker 6: you about whatever it is that you want to talk about.
Speaker 6: So what is it that you wanted to talk about?
Speaker 5: Well, honestly, I want to talk about your shoulders right now,
Speaker 5: because you're not in full costume.
Speaker 2: I don't want to talk about me. I want to
Speaker 2: talk about you.
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, all right, fair enough, yeah, man, So hear
Speaker 5: me out, Okay, hear me out. My kids just walked
Speaker 5: in the room side home the I love you, get out.
Speaker 5: I got kids, all right. I'm probably around your age.
Speaker 5: You don't need to talk about ages. You know how
Speaker 5: old babies are, right, we don't need to talk about age.
Speaker 5: Got a job.
Speaker 4: Everything's expensive.
Speaker 5: I've got most of my stuff in order, you know,
Speaker 5: trying to every day. But like, I'm just just not happy. Man.
Speaker 5: I don't really have like a cool story for one
Speaker 5: of your clips or anything. Like there's just going to
Speaker 5: be the chat in either enjoying or hating our conversation
Speaker 5: right now.
Speaker 2: But like, what's your hot hand? Hot hand? Don't don't
Speaker 2: worry about me, don't worry about what clips don't work,
Speaker 2: don't worry about any of that stuff. Man, Just what's up?
Speaker 5: I don't know, man, I'm diabetic. I like chocolate shit,
Speaker 5: you know. Uh. I've got a good family that supports me,
Speaker 5: and I'm just not happy. I hate the I hate
Speaker 5: the state of the things around me. But I try
Speaker 5: to stay away from the news and stuff because it's
Speaker 5: all bullshit, and like most I feel like most of
Speaker 5: most days are just kind of like get through it,
Speaker 5: you know, grind it out and deal with it. And
Speaker 5: it's a lot of the stuff that you hear is
Speaker 5: just kind of.
Speaker 4: Bullshit.
Speaker 5: I mean mostly, really it should be easy, like it
Speaker 5: should be kind of easy overall, but it's not.
Speaker 2: Let me ask you this, have you ever talked to
Speaker 2: a real therapist about this?
Speaker 7: Not?
Speaker 5: Probably in this context, because you know, I'm pretty close
Speaker 5: to the heart. And then like here comes to my
Speaker 5: one and a half year old, come say hi, and I'm.
Speaker 2: Like, does having does having a kid make you happy?
Speaker 5: I have three kids?
Speaker 2: By the way, just having three kids make you happy.
Speaker 5: It's it's kind of hard to say this sometimes that
Speaker 5: like I would have stopped it too, but but yes,
Speaker 5: I love all three of them, like scarely. And actually
Speaker 5: before before.
Speaker 11: We even uh had kids, uh, when my wife and
Speaker 11: I were first kind of dating, there was some crazy
Speaker 11: stuff going on in her family's life, and we adopted kids,
Speaker 11: her niece and nephew, and I kind of learned at
Speaker 11: an early age.
Speaker 5: I was like twenty five at the time, like it's
Speaker 5: way more important one of my life goals is certainly
Speaker 5: to make other people's lives better, especially if I can
Speaker 5: help in a way that makes if there's something that
Speaker 5: I can do to help other people, That's where I'm at.
Speaker 10: And that's what drives me crazy too sometimes because I'm like, damn,
Speaker 10: I really do try pretty hard to make people happy,
Speaker 10: and then you know, at the end of the day, I'm.
Speaker 5: Still psychotic and not happy. But then I'm like, you know,
Speaker 5: it'd be kind of weird to take it away from them.
Speaker 6: So dude, it's well, dude, I really don't know. I
Speaker 6: really really fucking don't know. I'm like in pain talking
Speaker 6: to you right now. I really don't know.
Speaker 2: Because well because because look, dude, I'm I'm I'm I'm
Speaker 2: like pretty unhappy a fair amount of the time. And
Speaker 2: I have a lot of things that I think people
Speaker 2: would think would make them happy happy, you know. I mean,
Speaker 2: I have a lot of people on the internet who
Speaker 2: are very very nice to me all the time. I
Speaker 2: have this dream job. Uh you know.
Speaker 6: I I've got good family, I've got some good friends,
Speaker 6: and and so I think to myself, I'm like, well,
Speaker 6: if I have all these things, why am I still
Speaker 6: not happy. And then I'm like, well, okay, maybe I
Speaker 6: maybe if I had a if I had a like
Speaker 6: a real family, if I had like a wife, if
Speaker 6: I had kids, if I had a girlfriend, like.
Speaker 2: Maybe that would be happy.
Speaker 6: And then I talked to people who have those things
Speaker 6: and and and they're not happy. Well maybe this thing
Speaker 6: I'd be happy, And and I do. I don't know,
Speaker 6: I wish, I wish I knew.
Speaker 1: And I'm and I literally spend every.
Speaker 6: Day trying to answer these questions and I don't know how.
Speaker 6: And this, this podcast I do, This is not a
Speaker 6: you know, here's here's life of advice from a guy
Speaker 6: who's got it figured out.
Speaker 2: It's really quite the opposite.
Speaker 6: And again, every day I'm trying to figure out the
Speaker 6: answer to these questions.
Speaker 2: And and I'll share notes with you.
Speaker 6: I think for a long time I wanted to take
Speaker 6: a stoic approach to my happiness, which was like, if
Speaker 6: you limit your attachment to external things and the external universe,
Speaker 6: and you you try to find your happiness completely from within,
Speaker 6: you just like surmise it out of your out of
Speaker 6: your gut, it's through your balls.
Speaker 2: You just you just make happy.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 2: I used to think that that was the way to
Speaker 2: do it.
Speaker 6: And then I decided, well, actually recently even I've decided
Speaker 6: that that wasn't the and now now I now I
Speaker 6: have a new theory, which is that a lot of
Speaker 6: this ship is probably it's probably a little bit of both.
Speaker 2: It's probably a little bit of both.
Speaker 6: Because you know, I'm reading I'll read the Stomic books
Speaker 6: and it's like, you know, you can't find and this
Speaker 6: is this is common ship of people telling you that
Speaker 6: you can't find your happiness in things outside of yourself.
Speaker 2: And I used to really want to believe that, and
Speaker 2: now I think it's it's got to be a combination
Speaker 2: of both.
Speaker 6: It's got to be a combination of getting your external
Speaker 6: circumstances right. What you know, whatever you're, what you what
Speaker 6: you do for money, who you hang out with, where
Speaker 6: you are, and a lot of these things can be
Speaker 6: in your control, but a lot of them you you
Speaker 6: got to figure out. And then there's the other side
Speaker 6: of the coin. There's internal, which is like, hey, listen,
Speaker 6: you could have the greatest life of the fucking world.
Speaker 6: And if your perspective is shit and you're pissed off
Speaker 6: all the time, or if you just or if you
Speaker 6: just your brain chemicals just work against you.
Speaker 2: Just have anxiety, you have.
Speaker 6: Depression, it'll it'll just fuck you. And so you gotta
Speaker 6: you gotta figure that out in addition to the external stuff.
Speaker 6: And it's a giant balancing act. And I'm hoping it
Speaker 6: gets a little bit easier with age. And I've been
Speaker 6: told that it gets easier with age.
Speaker 2: How old are you?
Speaker 5: I will be thirty seven in a month.
Speaker 6: Okay, do you feel do you feel like it's gotten
Speaker 6: easier or harder as you've as.
Speaker 2: You've gotten older.
Speaker 5: Do you want the truth?
Speaker 2: Of course I want the truth.
Speaker 5: Uh, it's gotten harder over the last.
Speaker 4: Ten years.
Speaker 5: But you know, you do kind of solve some of
Speaker 5: those problems as you get older and you learn, and
Speaker 5: but then there's new ones, and you know, maybe that's
Speaker 5: on me for introducing three lovely children to this world
Speaker 5: who are absolutely immaculate, and it's like, holy shit, man,
Speaker 5: I'm like, I can't keep sucking up. I can't being
Speaker 5: a parent of any matrio. It doesn't matter if you're
Speaker 5: adopting or uncle lord father. It kind of waves on
Speaker 5: you too when you start to look back and you're like, man,
Speaker 5: I only have so much time left in this world
Speaker 5: and there's only so much that I can do.
Speaker 4: But I'm still struggling with some of.
Speaker 5: My problems at the same time, so I know I'm
Speaker 5: kind of like random, randomly saying words at this point.
Speaker 4: But yeah, good luck to everyone out there.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna.
Speaker 4: This. This was I'm trying not to.
Speaker 5: Take up too much more of your time because I
Speaker 5: know you're busy fucking get go and ship.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm busy doing this.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know. I don't know. It's it's cool man
Speaker 5: that you actually actually got through this time, because I've
Speaker 5: called a handful of times and I don't know if
Speaker 5: I ever really would have talked about this but those
Speaker 5: same times. But that's what I'm personally going through as
Speaker 5: a hot hand Sandwich.
Speaker 2: Is well, well I'll tell all right, Well, hot hand Sandwich.
Speaker 2: Look are you do you feel like you're a good dad?
Speaker 5: I feel like I am a pretty good dad. I
Speaker 5: could be better.
Speaker 2: Do you do you show up for your kids? Do
Speaker 2: you feed them everything of them? Spend time with them
Speaker 2: every day?
Speaker 4: Good night? Kisses you?
Speaker 2: Then you're a great Then you're a great dad. What
Speaker 2: are you talking about?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 5: No, man, but it's because you know, I know, we
Speaker 5: were probably trying to close up.
Speaker 4: But I've had diabetes for.
Speaker 5: About twenty years, so I feel like I only have
Speaker 5: about another twenty.
Speaker 4: Good years left in me.
Speaker 5: Thirty six, thirty seven, I'll probably yeah, yeah, I don't know,
Speaker 5: maybe maybe thirty years maybe, but uh, like what can
Speaker 5: I do now to make sure that I'm setting them
Speaker 5: up for the best future? And then like with everything,
Speaker 5: how everything is so fucking expensive now, dude, it's crazy
Speaker 5: give up to all those parents. That's kind of what
Speaker 5: I was everything.
Speaker 2: I mean, dude, everything you're doing is what you could
Speaker 2: be doing now. Yeah, yeah, you're spending You're spending time
Speaker 2: with your children. You did not abandon your children.
Speaker 6: You did not uh move to a foreign country and say,
Speaker 6: hey god you you prioritize.
Speaker 2: You know, it's really tough.
Speaker 6: It's tough because when you have kids, you got to
Speaker 6: prioritize their life over yours. And that's what you and
Speaker 6: that's what it sounds like you did. So, uh, you're
Speaker 6: you're a great dad from what you're telling me and.
Speaker 5: From you from your Yeah, I mean.
Speaker 6: It's it's just literally just be literally just being there is.
Speaker 10: And so you go back to that when you start
Speaker 10: thinking about a lot of this, and so I I like, I.
Speaker 6: Like I've been saying, you know, happiness is is a crazy,
Speaker 6: fucked up thing to figure out, and I'm in the
Speaker 6: process of trying to figure it out.
Speaker 2: But I just hope that you.
Speaker 6: Have some self esteem and some confidence in the idea
Speaker 6: that you're you're doing a good job, you're making a
Speaker 6: good impact. And you know, I don't like stupid bullshit
Speaker 6: that they put on T shirts and like to you know,
Speaker 6: positivity will will wholesome bullshit stuff. I hate it more
Speaker 6: than anything. Makes me want to kill myself. But but
Speaker 6: I'm gonna use one. I'm gonna use one that I
Speaker 6: feel in this moment, which is I think you're enough.
Speaker 5: Man, cool man.
Speaker 4: I appreciate that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, for real, that means a lot. Actually, thank you.
Speaker 2: What's your name again?
Speaker 5: My name is my name. My real name is Kegan,
Speaker 5: but hot hand Sandwich in the twitch chat.
Speaker 2: My well, Kegan, thanks for calling.
Speaker 6: I love your Comedy Central show and I'll talk to
Speaker 6: you again soon.
Speaker 5: All right, man, I appreciate taking the call. Everyone, have
Speaker 5: a great night.
Speaker 4: I'll be uh a lurking.
Speaker 2: Leader, Kegan. Life is fucking crazy, that's all.
Speaker 6: I I I've got I've gotten to such a point
Speaker 6: with the show where that's all I have to say.
Speaker 6: That's I've gotten such a point with my life. That's
Speaker 6: all I have to say is that life is just
Speaker 6: fucking crazy. I wish there was more. I wish there
Speaker 6: was like more to say, more thought my brain. Then
Speaker 6: life is crazy. That's all I got. Every thought that
Speaker 6: I could surmise out of my brain is contained.
Speaker 2: Within just life is crazy. I don't like tattoos.
Speaker 6: I don't have any, but if I were to get
Speaker 6: something tattooed, I would I'd probably get Betty Boop on
Speaker 6: my ankle. That's how I'm ending this. I'm just saying,
Speaker 6: I'm just gonna say a random thing. All right, I'm
Speaker 6: gonna take a couple of one minute calls. I'm gonna talk.
Speaker 6: I'm gonna take some calls. I'm gonna just talk to
Speaker 6: them for a minute.
Speaker 2: Let's see. This is a little segment we're gonna do.
Speaker 2: Hey man, you got a minute.
Speaker 5: Okay.
Speaker 9: So I'm thirty four and last week I just want
Speaker 9: an ssdiks from an injury at work. And I kind
Speaker 9: of won like this five year goal, and now I'm
Speaker 9: kind of lost like what is an SSDI?
Speaker 2: Man?
Speaker 9: Like social Security disability?
Speaker 6: Okay, so like what do you what are you gonna
Speaker 6: do with the money?
Speaker 3: Uh?
Speaker 9: Pay for my West nursing school mostly, and like make
Speaker 9: sure responsible things happen.
Speaker 2: That's boring. You should? You should? Uh? Uh? Actually, no,
Speaker 2: that's nice. You should.
Speaker 6: That's all good stuff. I was gonna I should. I
Speaker 6: was gonna say, you should gamble it away?
Speaker 5: Oh no, I don't.
Speaker 2: I don't gambling saying okay, wait we have we only
Speaker 2: have ten seconds? Any is there anything else you want
Speaker 2: to say?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 9: So what should I do at thirty four? What would
Speaker 9: you do if you had basically infinite time? Which your
Speaker 9: glass is broken? You can't read it, you know what
Speaker 9: I mean? Like that's Wilight Ground episode.
Speaker 2: What would I do? I hung up on him?
Speaker 6: By the way, what would I do with my infinite time?
Speaker 6: You don't have infinite time? By the way, you're gonna die?
Speaker 2: I don't know. You have a wife. Why don't you?
Speaker 2: You could make some babies, you could knit? What do
Speaker 2: I do with it? This is the general question of
Speaker 2: what do I do with my time? Uh? Play video games?
Speaker 2: Do whatever? You just walk honestly, just walk around, go
Speaker 2: wake up, walk around, spend time with your wife, and
Speaker 2: and and jack off. You don't even need to jack
Speaker 2: I just have you have sex with your wife, read
Speaker 2: a book. You're gonna be okay.
Speaker 1: How from thanky hanky, you have a minute? Yo, my aunt,
Speaker 1: you're on?
Speaker 2: You got a minute?
Speaker 5: Yo, mister gek, Holy ship?
Speaker 2: What's up?
Speaker 1: Holyh what's up?
Speaker 2: How you doing? You got? You got like forty five seconds?
Speaker 3: All right?
Speaker 5: Man?
Speaker 4: Yo, fucking gak.
Speaker 3: You're amazing, dude.
Speaker 4: My wife loves you.
Speaker 2: I just had a son. Holy thanks man, thanks man,
Speaker 2: thank you, thank you? Is that it?
Speaker 8: You?
Speaker 2: Don't you have anything else?
Speaker 5: No, bro, I just wanted to talk to you.
Speaker 4: Holy shit.
Speaker 5: I listened fucking podcast for like months and ship, dude,
Speaker 5: I'll I listened to all these fucking crazy ass stories.
Speaker 5: I'm born as fuck, dude.
Speaker 4: I just wanted to talk to.
Speaker 2: You, hud Are you happy to you?
Speaker 5: Are you?
Speaker 2: Do you like life?
Speaker 4: Dude?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I'm loving life?
Speaker 4: Man.
Speaker 2: My my friend was just born recently.
Speaker 6: What's the secret to everlasting happiness?
Speaker 5: You know, eat lots of candy when you like.
Speaker 2: I have tried that. It does not work.
Speaker 1: How from yeah, hey, you got a minute?
Speaker 4: I have one?
Speaker 1: Minutely you have one minute?
Speaker 2: You have one minute?
Speaker 8: Are you ending the string after a minute?
Speaker 7: Uh?
Speaker 2: All right, you got, you got forty you got, you
Speaker 2: got fifty seconds?
Speaker 3: Fifty seconds?
Speaker 5: Okay, how are you.
Speaker 2: That's what you want to do with your fifty seconds?
Speaker 9: Yeah, I mean I don't what I would want to
Speaker 9: talk about. Probably take like fifteen twenty.
Speaker 2: Minutes, so I'm you would be surprised. Chat with your god, Yo,
Speaker 2: go ahead, just throw it at me. Let's see if
Speaker 2: we can do it.
Speaker 9: I was in a relationship and I ended a relationship
Speaker 9: like a few months ago, but I still am having
Speaker 9: trouble getting over it emotionally.
Speaker 2: Uh yeah, we don't need twenty minutes for that. I
Speaker 2: want to say, jack off, that's what I want to say.
Speaker 2: That's what I want to say. That's what I would do.
Speaker 9: It's help, I know.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 6: Oh god, I had to hang up on him. I'm
Speaker 6: not a I'm not a real therapist. Just just keep
Speaker 6: jacking off, that's all I got. Just keep jacking off, man,
Speaker 6: Just keep jacking off and jacking off and time.
Speaker 2: That's that's how we heal. That's how people heal is
Speaker 2: masturbation and.
Speaker 1: Time all from please.
Speaker 2: Hey, what's up? You got a minute?
Speaker 3: Okay, So do you have a Peo box set up?
Speaker 3: Because I have fan art for you that I made
Speaker 3: like two years ago.
Speaker 2: Uh no, I don't have I'm I don't have a
Speaker 2: Peo box set up. Unfortunately, damn. What what city are you?
Speaker 2: What city are you in?
Speaker 3: I mean for Tuna, in the middle of nowhere.
Speaker 2: Cal Oh are you anywhere near Los Angeles?
Speaker 3: No, I'm on the other end of the state.
Speaker 6: Oh ship, Well, I was gonna say you could come
Speaker 6: to one of the shows. I would, I'd let you
Speaker 6: come to one of the shows for free, but.
Speaker 9: I will be there in the end of August.
Speaker 3: Stuff.
Speaker 5: Well near there.
Speaker 2: Oh well, I'll let you know if I ever do
Speaker 2: open up a PO box.
Speaker 6: I'm just I'm I'm I'm living out of airbnbs right now,
Speaker 6: so I don't really have stuff but anything anything else.
Speaker 3: No, You're awesome.
Speaker 5: That's all.
Speaker 2: Thanks, man, take care. Let's ride it out. We have
Speaker 2: five seconds to just be on.
Speaker 3: I don't know. I'm on the spot and I have no.
Speaker 1: Call from Hey.
Speaker 2: You got a minute, well we should I made it.
Speaker 2: What's up?
Speaker 4: Man?
Speaker 2: What's going on? Brother? You got uh fifty seconds?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 4: Well, I don't know.
Speaker 9: Man, I'm just kind of matter at you because you know,
Speaker 9: if you're coming to need your on September September sixth, right.
Speaker 2: Yes, I am Wait. Why you're mad at me for
Speaker 2: coming to New York? Why?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 7: Because my my my birthday sounds like September eighth, and
Speaker 7: I'm just twenty.
Speaker 9: You know I'm not going to make it to your show.
Speaker 4: Man.
Speaker 2: Oh you I don't.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I guess I can.
Speaker 3: I guess I fake a fake ID.
Speaker 2: Don't don't ask me if you I'm not. I don't
Speaker 2: ask me if you can use a fake ID for
Speaker 2: the venue. Don't ask the venue either. By the way,
Speaker 2: I can't. By the way, I don't. I can't give
Speaker 2: you permission to use a fake ID. That's not how
Speaker 2: a fake ID works.
Speaker 4: How much we have? What? How much that time? Do
Speaker 4: I have? Uh?
Speaker 2: Were none? But yeah, I hang out. I hung up
Speaker 2: on him. It doesn't always make the noise, but I
Speaker 2: hung up on him. I can't.
Speaker 6: I don't know why he asked me if he could
Speaker 6: use a fake ID, as if I have an answer
Speaker 6: to that question. Uh, I feel it though I used
Speaker 6: to when I was doing stand up. When I was
Speaker 6: I did stand up from like sixteen to twenty one,
Speaker 6: so I never was able to get into those fucking venues.
Speaker 2: It's annoying, but I don't know, it's it's probably good.
Speaker 6: I'd rather I'm I'm pretty I'm stoked that it's mainly
Speaker 6: twenty one plus people coming to the shows and not
Speaker 6: you know, I know there's a lot of like internet
Speaker 6: people who all their fans are fourteen, and I would
Speaker 6: rather not have that all.
Speaker 2: From Levi, Levi, you have a minute?
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I actually got on.
Speaker 5: Fuck. I need to find a new job. And I'm
Speaker 5: thinking kind of moving across the country.
Speaker 4: What do you think of that?
Speaker 2: Where are you gonna go?
Speaker 5: Well, I'm in Canada, so I'm thinking of going to
Speaker 5: Alberta out west.
Speaker 2: Uh, you're in Canada when you say you move? All right?
Speaker 2: So is Alberta all the way on the east.
Speaker 5: It's on the west side. It's like almost as west
Speaker 5: as you can go if you're not counting DC.
Speaker 2: Okay, And where are you?
Speaker 5: I'm in Toronto right now.
Speaker 2: Okay. All of Canada is the same to me.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's fair.
Speaker 2: So you're not really moving anywhere.
Speaker 5: What if I tried to get American citizenship come down there?
Speaker 4: What do you think of that?
Speaker 2: Hey, good fucking luck, baby. I don't know.
Speaker 6: I've heard it's pretty hard to get American citizenship. You
Speaker 6: have five seconds, anything else?
Speaker 5: I love you, man, you're doing this.
Speaker 6: Thanks man, Thanks man. Have fun, have fun being Canadian.
Speaker 6: All right, I'll take.
Speaker 1: One more of these, all from Tinton.
Speaker 2: Hey, you got a minute?
Speaker 8: Hey, lyle U, Miss vincent I, I've got it. I've
Speaker 8: got a dilemma. I'm going to Maine, all right. I'm
Speaker 8: going to Maine on a trip with my girlfriend and
Speaker 8: my girlfriend's friends. They're gonna bring shrooms. I've never done
Speaker 8: shrooms before. I'm curious. I got junkie parents, though, so
Speaker 8: I've always been kind of weird with needs and alcohol
Speaker 8: and stuff like that.
Speaker 4: What's your look?
Speaker 2: Look? Look? I like shrooms a lot. I think that
Speaker 2: you you know, I think that doing psychedelic drugs is
Speaker 2: a good, uh human right of passage.
Speaker 6: But it's your it's your life, and you shouldn't. You
Speaker 6: should only do it if you want to do it.
Speaker 6: You shouldn't do it because I'm telling you that you
Speaker 6: should do it, or they're telling you should do it.
Speaker 6: If you want to do it, then do it. If
Speaker 6: you don't want to do it, don't do it.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 8: That's Julie.
Speaker 3: Great to speak with you.
Speaker 8: Also, second part of the reason why I'm considering doing
Speaker 8: your shrooms because I hear of but he's doing shrooms
Speaker 8: on the podcast and talking to demons and stuff, and
Speaker 8: it's very interesting to make that.
Speaker 2: Guy doesn't need shrooms. He's got it all figured out.
Speaker 2: I don't know shrooms are fun, but uh yeah, I
Speaker 2: like shrooms. I wouldn't I would only do them if
Speaker 2: you want to do them. I wouldn't do them because
Speaker 2: you like like I mean, if you're curious if I
Speaker 2: would say, if you're curious about them, if you're curious
Speaker 2: about them and you think they might be fun, then
Speaker 2: give it a shot. All right, I'm done. Should we
Speaker 2: make this a regular segment on the podcast? Let me know,
Speaker 2: let me know when the comments, let me know when
Speaker 2: the interact features. Spotify has a thing now where you
Speaker 2: can fucking make comments. I read every single one of
Speaker 2: those comments. So if you're on Spotify listening to this,
Speaker 2: give a little.
Speaker 6: You can you can throw and throw in the comments YouTube.
Speaker 6: I might start making this a regular thing.
Speaker 2: Ending the stream, ending the podcast with ale minute calls
Speaker 2: all right BYEP goes on the line, taking your phone
Speaker 2: calls every night. The beacon goes to his eye. You're
Speaker 2: just teaching you about in the mid of your life,
Speaker 2: but he's not really an expert.