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Speaker 1: All from Kay. Hello, Hey, what's up?

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Speaker 2: Who is this?

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Speaker 1: I'll go by k Okay?

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Speaker 2: What's up? Okay? How's life?

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Speaker 3: Oh? It's treating me decently, an average like sticks? How

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Speaker 3: about you?

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Speaker 2: You know, man, I'm out here trying my best. What

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Speaker 2: can I do?

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Speaker 1: What you can do?

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Speaker 3: That's how you can do?

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Speaker 2: What can I do?

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Speaker 4: For?

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Speaker 2: Okay? Would you want to talk about Well?

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Speaker 3: I am half deaf. I can't hear out of my

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Speaker 3: left ear at all. I was born like that. My mom,

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Speaker 3: I'm pretty sure I'm convinced she didn't mess with me

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Speaker 3: at the time, but she will. She will never admit

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Speaker 3: to that. She's like told me timeline stuff back in

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Speaker 3: the day because we're super close, and I'm like, so,

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Speaker 3: you did do it at that time, but she won't

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Speaker 3: admit it to me.

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Speaker 5: She just won't.

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Speaker 2: And how old are you now?

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Speaker 1: I'm twenty three and you said so?

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Speaker 6: So your death partially because your mom did meth while

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Speaker 6: she was pregnant with you.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, she didn't know. She didn't know, obviously, I would hope.

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Speaker 2: Not at least did that. Did you come out addicted

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Speaker 2: to meth?

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Speaker 5: No?

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Speaker 3: So that's crazy because I mean I live in Iowa

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Speaker 3: and meth is like the number one years drug around here,

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Speaker 3: and everyone always asks, oh my gosh, have you tried math?

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Speaker 3: Have you tried math? And I'm like, why would I

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Speaker 3: do that? Because I'm already predispositioned to be more addicted

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Speaker 3: than the regular Iowa folk, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 3: Why would I even subject myself to that?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: So no long, long as or short. No, I didn't.

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Speaker 3: I've never done that, thank God.

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Speaker 2: And what do you do over in Iowa? What's going on?

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Speaker 4: Oh?

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Speaker 3: You know, just try to get out. Basically, I'm a

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Speaker 3: janitor right now. Actually I'm at work, but I'm by myself.

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Speaker 3: It's kind of cushy job. And then I go to

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Speaker 3: school and I'm just trying to work my way through

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Speaker 3: the system.

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Speaker 2: You know, what do you go to school for.

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Speaker 3: I'm in criminal justice right now, but I'm not much

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Speaker 3: of an enforcer type. I'm not good with authority and whatnot.

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Speaker 3: So I think I'd like to go into human services

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Speaker 3: or something, help help someone.

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Speaker 2: What kind of human services?

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Speaker 3: So, since I'm at that age where a lot of

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Speaker 3: women are either getting pregnant or asking me why I'm not,

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Speaker 3: I kind of realized I really don't want kids. I mean,

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Speaker 3: maybe that had something to do with my mom not

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Speaker 3: knowing that she had me and doing messing the room

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Speaker 3: or something. But I think I'd like to go into

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Speaker 3: CPS or something. But also I'm not much for breaking

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Speaker 3: up families either or breaking up homes, but I do

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Speaker 3: want to help children in some way. I just don't

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Speaker 3: want any of my own. So I figured it might

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Speaker 6: M what's uh, what's the path to that look like?

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Speaker 6: Do you have to go to a school for a

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Speaker 6: long time?

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Speaker 7: No?

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Speaker 3: I think it's really just so Iowa. It's a lot

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Speaker 3: of worker We're known to be like worker bees. Basically,

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Speaker 3: let's just kind of work your way up the ladder

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Speaker 3: of the government centence to government job technically and all

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Speaker 3: that good stuff.

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Speaker 2: You got friends over in.

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Speaker 3: Iowa, Oh sorta. I mean, yeah, I got a couple

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Speaker 3: of friends. I got a couple of beef and friends.

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Speaker 3: But it's a it's a small pool out here, you know.

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Speaker 3: De Morn is the our capital, right of the state,

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Speaker 3: and it's one of the smallest capitals in this country,

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Speaker 3: like population wise, and when you if you ever came

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Speaker 3: but it's pretty small, like square miles or whatever. However

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Speaker 6: Are you still like like when you were when you

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Speaker 6: you grew up there? I assume yeah, yeah, Well, and

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Speaker 6: are you still friends with the people that you knew

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Speaker 6: growing up like middle school, high school?

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Speaker 3: No? No, no, no no. So I grew up in

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Speaker 3: a small town, which it's nuts, okay. I grew up

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Speaker 3: of people that live there are townies, like they just

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Speaker 3: stay there forever and never leave. They can't get out

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Speaker 3: of it. Their last name means so much to them,

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Speaker 3: and you know, blah blah blah. They just pump money

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Speaker 3: back into the city and whatnot. And I've determined for

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Speaker 3: myself the second I started schooler, I would not become

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Speaker 3: a towny. I am not going to be one of

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Speaker 3: those people. And so far, I just moved like forty

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Speaker 3: a different town.

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Speaker 2: Now.

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Speaker 3: It's new to me, so experience is a little different,

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Speaker 3: I guess.

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Speaker 2: And do you do you want to leave Iowa? At

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Speaker 2: some point? Where would you go?

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Speaker 3: Honestly, I this is this is so stupid. But I'm since,

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Speaker 3: you know, Iowa has all the seasons, and we have

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Speaker 3: a little bit of everything. We got a little bit minus,

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Speaker 3: like hurricanes and all that. But I'd like to go

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Speaker 3: to Minnesota or something. I think I could handle the

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Speaker 3: extreme colds and whatnot. And the crowd seems to be

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Speaker 3: a lot cooler. They're more people, a lot more to do,

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Speaker 3: a lot more opportunity, and not too far from my

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Speaker 3: family here.

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Speaker 2: You know, that's nice.

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Speaker 6: I doubt you will experience significant culture shock moving from

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Speaker 6: Iowa to Minnesota.

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Speaker 3: No. No, I went to California. I went to see

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Speaker 3: ex for a while, and that was a culture shock

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Speaker 3: for sure. Well, I was like, I was like, basically

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Speaker 3: I was home. Was there right, and he is all

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Speaker 3: just knew we were from out of town, you know

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Speaker 3: what I mean, the state, let's put it that, or

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Speaker 3: the region. Even they just could tell I swear. But

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Speaker 3: some people were super nice, but most people were just

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Speaker 3: they were not about it to you.

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Speaker 2: What do you mean? What do you mean by that?

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Speaker 6: They were like, who did you what kinds of interactions

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Speaker 3: Well, we went into like a local skateboard shop and

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Speaker 3: I don't know the competition for that or stacked, but

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Speaker 3: they were super nice, but random strangers. They they did

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Speaker 3: not appreciate us. But also my ex he's kind of,

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Speaker 3: for lack of a better term, he's pretty extra, like

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Speaker 3: he's just always doing way way too much. But like

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Speaker 3: local shops and stuff, they'd constantly see us and kick

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Speaker 3: us out. You can't, you can't like, So that's different

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Speaker 3: about Iowa and California is everything in California's packs Like

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Speaker 3: you can't park anywhere just to park because we lived

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Speaker 3: in our car. But in Iowa you could park anywhere.

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Speaker 3: You could park in a random person's field and that

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Speaker 3: like the farmer won't notice you for.

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Speaker 2: A while, you know, Oh yeah, No, California, you can't

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Speaker 6: California is weird because like in Los Angeles, if you

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Speaker 6: it anywhere for five minutes, you owe the city three

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Speaker 6: one hundred thousand dollars. But if you have a giant

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Speaker 6: I don't know what this is. If you have a

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Speaker 6: the street like grand theft dollars. Just get out of it,

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Speaker 6: just leave it there and it's for some reason. Fine,

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Speaker 6: it just stays there.

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Speaker 3: Right. No that San Diego.

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Speaker 2: Why did you go to San Diego to be homeless

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Speaker 2: with this guy?

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Speaker 1: Well?

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Speaker 3: So he was super manipulative. And it was my first

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Speaker 3: I'd been to Mission Beach before with my family on

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Speaker 3: We're gonna lived there. And I was eighteen at the time,

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Speaker 3: it was not a good situation.

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Speaker 6: But so, how long did you guys just hang out

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Speaker 3: Well, okay, do you want to hear kind of an

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Speaker 3: embarrassing slash funny story about when we left? Sure, it

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Speaker 3: But anyways, we went to Jack in the Box for

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Speaker 3: He bought a crap ton of food, right, like an

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Speaker 3: We were stuff on our faces and he found this

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Speaker 3: like little grave piece in one of his burgers. And

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Speaker 3: he's just very rude people. So I went in and

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Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, this burger's nasty whatever, right, not

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Speaker 3: taking anything of it. They gave us a refund, gave

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Speaker 3: Hondai accent like twenty twelve super small car. I'm like

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Speaker 3: just wake up to him freaking out and he's like,

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Speaker 3: I have to shit. But in California at the time,

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Speaker 2: Right, so you went down there, you went down to

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Speaker 6: You're a janitor, you're working in a little bit outside

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Speaker 3: I don't know. I just honestly, through that relationship, I

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Speaker 6: It's tough. It's really tough. Do you are you have

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Speaker 3: No, I dated. I mean, like I said, I was

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Speaker 3: And that's all I got to say about that. But no, now,

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Speaker 6: I mean, look, man, you sound like you've done actually

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Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you, I appreciate.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I know, we're so. The funny part is my

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Speaker 3: Uh me, and so he wasn't really around much in

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Speaker 6: You're doing pretty okay for for everything that's uh that's

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Speaker 2: I'm not thinking I'm.

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Speaker 6: Like rude, like I mean this, I'm thinking about it.

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Speaker 6: I'm like, Okay, you're not addicted to meth. You seem like, uh,

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Speaker 2: Doing very well. You're doing very well. That's that's a

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Speaker 2: great those are all those are all a good things.

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Speaker 1: Man.

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Speaker 2: You got goals to you got goals. It's good. It's

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Speaker 2: I hope, I hope you're Are you happy or you

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Speaker 3: I mean for the most part, i'd say, yeah, I

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Speaker 2: Well it's so, I don't know if that's a I

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Speaker 6: I have all these things that I like know in

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm probably just pro just in my own fucking

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Speaker 3: But it's it's kind of like it's kind of like

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Speaker 6: But I've just been thinking, I'm like, Okay, once I

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Speaker 2: You know, yeah, it is, it is, it is, but

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Speaker 6: You know, external versus internal in in in all of this.

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Speaker 6: But anyway, that's cool, man, Meth is probably really good.

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Speaker 6: I'm just gonna put that out there. It probably feels

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Speaker 2: And that's why you should make people why you shouldn't

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Speaker 6: I have this fantasy that I'm coming up with just

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Speaker 3: you know. And that's when you know it's like real

439
00:22:38,320 --> 00:22:42,520
Speaker 3: bad is when you're trying to rationalize it to the

440
00:22:42,560 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 3: general public.

441
00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:46,159
Speaker 2: Just like no, no, what I mean, like just a total

442
00:22:46,359 --> 00:22:48,720
Speaker 2: just like you know what, fuck it, what's the point

443
00:22:48,760 --> 00:22:49,360
Speaker 2: of anything.

444
00:22:49,800 --> 00:22:52,640
Speaker 6: Who gives a ship. Let's just let's just meth. Let's

445
00:22:52,680 --> 00:22:55,480
Speaker 6: just ride it out meth meth style, you know what

446
00:22:55,520 --> 00:22:58,040
Speaker 6: I mean. Like that's that's if I were if I

447
00:22:58,040 --> 00:22:59,600
Speaker 6: were gonna make like a like if I were gonna

448
00:22:59,640 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 6: like come admit to being addicted to meth, like I'm

449
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:05,520
Speaker 6: just gonna ride it the funk out, like just do

450
00:23:05,720 --> 00:23:08,359
Speaker 6: meth until I die. But that's I don't that's probably

451
00:23:08,359 --> 00:23:11,879
Speaker 6: it's not a good idea. It would it's not the

452
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:13,840
Speaker 6: best way to do it, do you know.

453
00:23:14,040 --> 00:23:16,080
Speaker 1: Shank Dillers, Yeah.

454
00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:18,520
Speaker 3: He has a he has a little bit where he

455
00:23:18,600 --> 00:23:21,640
Speaker 3: says his sister's a heroin addict or whatever, and he said,

456
00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:24,439
Speaker 3: it must be nice, nice just having like side quests

457
00:23:24,440 --> 00:23:28,240
Speaker 3: all day, you know what I mean. That'd be exactly

458
00:23:28,359 --> 00:23:28,680
Speaker 3: like that.

459
00:23:29,080 --> 00:23:32,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I've I know, I.

460
00:23:32,280 --> 00:23:34,879
Speaker 3: Know, a regular quest, just side quest.

461
00:23:38,680 --> 00:23:42,800
Speaker 2: Well I'm probably not gonna do meth.

462
00:23:43,840 --> 00:23:47,680
Speaker 6: Uh no, But I don't know what's the I really

463
00:23:47,880 --> 00:23:50,320
Speaker 6: I really mean, I really mean this, And I know

464
00:23:50,359 --> 00:23:53,840
Speaker 6: it's a fucking weird thing to say, but like when

465
00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 6: I think about like, like look at a person who

466
00:23:58,760 --> 00:24:04,160
Speaker 6: like maybe they have a family and a career and

467
00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:12,399
Speaker 6: friends and they sorry, I just sneeze, like somebody was

468
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,960
Speaker 6: somebody was a real like life, you know, and somebody

469
00:24:16,119 --> 00:24:18,520
Speaker 6: and somebody who likes and it took a long time,

470
00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:21,240
Speaker 6: and then you know they work out, they eat right,

471
00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:22,560
Speaker 6: they're in really good shape.

472
00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:28,159
Speaker 2: They do crossfits no no, no, no, no, like they do

473
00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:33,680
Speaker 2: like CrossFit and whatnot, and here's the thing that person

474
00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:38,000
Speaker 2: will die at some point, and then there's another person

475
00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:40,960
Speaker 2: who's like, I'm just gonna smoke meth and play video

476
00:24:40,960 --> 00:24:44,320
Speaker 2: games all day until I die. I do have a hard.

477
00:24:44,160 --> 00:24:50,560
Speaker 6: Time, like really mentally being like, show me at the

478
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:53,360
Speaker 6: end of the day of the difference between those two lives.

479
00:24:53,600 --> 00:25:00,760
Speaker 2: I know that's insane noice. I'm eighty percent joking.

480
00:25:02,160 --> 00:25:05,680
Speaker 3: No, No, I think that's a valid point because meth

481
00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:09,920
Speaker 3: isn't super common like everywhere, Like obviously there is meth,

482
00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:12,240
Speaker 3: but I feel like it's more by.

483
00:25:12,119 --> 00:25:14,000
Speaker 2: The way, I'm not even talking about like I'm not

484
00:25:14,240 --> 00:25:16,680
Speaker 2: like like like we're getting too specific with it with me.

485
00:25:16,840 --> 00:25:18,640
Speaker 2: I'm like, like a person who.

486
00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:21,320
Speaker 6: Just smokes weed and plays video games and jacksaw and

487
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:24,760
Speaker 6: like doesn't do it like doing like quote doing something

488
00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:28,080
Speaker 6: with your life versus not. I don't maybe this is

489
00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:31,359
Speaker 6: just like depression or whatever, but I don't like, what

490
00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 6: is the difference between these No, I have no.

491
00:25:34,440 --> 00:25:36,800
Speaker 3: Problem with people do in their own lives, you know.

492
00:25:37,320 --> 00:25:39,520
Speaker 3: I think the main problem with meths, I should say,

493
00:25:39,560 --> 00:25:42,639
Speaker 3: is just what we were getting specific was it just

494
00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:46,760
Speaker 3: makes people into something different. Man, they steal, they hurt others,

495
00:25:47,240 --> 00:25:50,760
Speaker 3: they're not. They really aren't themselves. I swear it's and

496
00:25:50,840 --> 00:25:52,760
Speaker 3: I mean maybe that's just because there's a lot of

497
00:25:52,760 --> 00:25:55,360
Speaker 3: people on your podcast are like, oh, I'm a very

498
00:25:55,400 --> 00:26:00,600
Speaker 3: functional nine to five. You know. However, sixty can hear

499
00:26:00,800 --> 00:26:03,199
Speaker 3: average dude and I do some mess here in there,

500
00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:06,600
Speaker 3: and I'm like, wow, that's not in Iowa. That's like

501
00:26:06,720 --> 00:26:08,800
Speaker 3: not a saying. In Iowa, it's either you do mess

502
00:26:08,880 --> 00:26:12,399
Speaker 3: fully or you don't, you know. And that's I mean,

503
00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:15,680
Speaker 3: I have mad respect for everybody, obviously humans in general,

504
00:26:15,680 --> 00:26:18,640
Speaker 3: because we all go through our own thing, but especially

505
00:26:18,680 --> 00:26:20,920
Speaker 3: those people that can just do a little and don't

506
00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:23,359
Speaker 3: have clearly don't have that addiction gene in their brain,

507
00:26:23,480 --> 00:26:26,800
Speaker 3: you know, and just do it for the fun of it,

508
00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:30,960
Speaker 3: I guess in lack of a better turn. But here

509
00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:35,240
Speaker 3: in Iowa, no, there, it's it's bad. Like they they'll

510
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:38,480
Speaker 3: have billboards, you know how, you know how they have

511
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:41,280
Speaker 3: like the suicide hotline. They'll have like a meth hotline

512
00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:44,679
Speaker 3: basically here in Iowa and there's a billboard like in

513
00:26:44,760 --> 00:26:45,880
Speaker 3: all these small towns.

514
00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:49,080
Speaker 6: I wonder how many people have called the meth hotline

515
00:26:49,119 --> 00:26:51,720
Speaker 6: thinking it was a hotline you could buy meth from.

516
00:26:53,280 --> 00:27:00,440
Speaker 3: Honestly, I didn't think about that, but Ny, you got

517
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:02,800
Speaker 3: to be on mess to think in that way, not

518
00:27:02,880 --> 00:27:04,720
Speaker 3: insinuating anything that's not bad.

519
00:27:05,560 --> 00:27:09,680
Speaker 2: What's your what's your name? Again? I'm for the hundredth time.

520
00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:17,680
Speaker 6: Okay, okay, well okay, Like I said, you're doing great.

521
00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:19,200
Speaker 2: You're doing great.

522
00:27:19,560 --> 00:27:21,119
Speaker 6: Is there anything else you want to say to the

523
00:27:21,119 --> 00:27:22,680
Speaker 6: people of the computer before we go?

524
00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:27,200
Speaker 3: Just peace and love and all that good stuff.

525
00:27:29,160 --> 00:27:32,199
Speaker 6: Take care, k Thanks for calling, and I'll talk to

526
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:36,920
Speaker 6: you again, maybe never, probably never. I'll probably never talk

527
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:38,200
Speaker 6: to you again, but.

528
00:27:38,560 --> 00:27:40,919
Speaker 3: Okay, I've already made piece of it.

529
00:27:41,119 --> 00:27:42,840
Speaker 2: Was great sharing this.

530
00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:46,200
Speaker 6: It was great that our lives intersected at this very

531
00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:48,159
Speaker 6: moment on the phone together.

532
00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:52,080
Speaker 3: And I wish you lots of luck you two gig bye.

533
00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:54,800
Speaker 2: By k That was nice. I like to that.

534
00:27:54,920 --> 00:27:58,479
Speaker 5: Cool all from Kyle.

535
00:27:59,160 --> 00:28:00,600
Speaker 2: Kyle, you haven't been it. What's up?

536
00:28:00,920 --> 00:28:01,320
Speaker 7: Oh? Hi?

537
00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:01,760
Speaker 1: Wow?

538
00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:02,120
Speaker 2: Oh?

539
00:28:02,200 --> 00:28:06,320
Speaker 7: I didn't expect to actually get on a call. Okay.

540
00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:08,800
Speaker 7: So I have to head into work soon. But I

541
00:28:08,840 --> 00:28:11,640
Speaker 7: hate my job. I hate it like absolutely. I want

542
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:13,720
Speaker 7: to quit, but I can't because I have no money

543
00:28:13,760 --> 00:28:16,960
Speaker 7: at all. My friends hate my boyfriend, and I don't

544
00:28:17,000 --> 00:28:18,080
Speaker 7: know what to do with that either.

545
00:28:19,359 --> 00:28:20,760
Speaker 2: Why do they hate your boyfriends?

546
00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:24,840
Speaker 7: I have no idea, Like, I don't know what he's

547
00:28:24,880 --> 00:28:27,560
Speaker 7: done to them, but literally every time they're like you

548
00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:30,680
Speaker 7: should always they want me to tell them about him.

549
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:32,960
Speaker 7: But every time I do, they're like, oh, he's disgusting.

550
00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:34,480
Speaker 7: Why would you tell me about him? And I'm just

551
00:28:34,520 --> 00:28:36,280
Speaker 7: like pick a side.

552
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:41,400
Speaker 2: Uh, what do you do? What's your job? I work?

553
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:42,840
Speaker 7: I'm a cashier at five below?

554
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:48,360
Speaker 2: Or can you work at five below? Yeah? Damn it,

555
00:28:48,400 --> 00:28:49,200
Speaker 2: you know what I was this.

556
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:53,480
Speaker 6: I was gonna make this a one minute call, but uh,

557
00:28:53,640 --> 00:28:55,560
Speaker 6: I kind of want to hear more about five Below.

558
00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:57,200
Speaker 2: I'm a huge fan of five below.

559
00:28:57,960 --> 00:29:00,000
Speaker 7: Okay, cool because I have like five minutes before I

560
00:29:00,080 --> 00:29:03,440
Speaker 7: have to head in. Okay, So the place I work,

561
00:29:03,920 --> 00:29:07,080
Speaker 7: it's awful because of the kids that live around us,

562
00:29:07,120 --> 00:29:09,520
Speaker 7: Like they always come in on their e bikes. They're

563
00:29:09,520 --> 00:29:11,880
Speaker 7: destroying the store, like twenty four to seven. We have

564
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:13,200
Speaker 7: to kick them out all the time.

565
00:29:14,360 --> 00:29:19,040
Speaker 6: Yeah, it seems as though the like it's just teenagers

566
00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:19,640
Speaker 6: fucking around.

567
00:29:19,680 --> 00:29:26,120
Speaker 2: That's really what five below is exactly. Yeah, do you

568
00:29:26,160 --> 00:29:28,920
Speaker 2: ever do you ever have to do you ever have

569
00:29:29,000 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 2: to beat them up?

570
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:34,400
Speaker 7: Well, we're not allowed to beat them up. I wish

571
00:29:34,440 --> 00:29:36,960
Speaker 7: I could. All we have, Like the only thing we

572
00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:39,000
Speaker 7: are allowed to do, like is say, oh, you have

573
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:40,520
Speaker 7: to get out of the store. Like we can't even

574
00:29:40,520 --> 00:29:42,560
Speaker 7: accuse them if we saw them steal, Like we can't

575
00:29:42,560 --> 00:29:44,600
Speaker 7: say you still give it back. We have to literally

576
00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:46,280
Speaker 7: just escort them out.

577
00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:54,080
Speaker 2: Do people ever, Like, well do people go into five below?

578
00:29:54,120 --> 00:29:57,280
Speaker 2: How many? How much revenue does it make?

579
00:29:59,240 --> 00:30:03,520
Speaker 7: Honestly, like it depends on the day because usually we're

580
00:30:03,560 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 7: quite slow during the week, but on weekends it's like

581
00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:12,560
Speaker 7: crowded as can I sear. Yeah, okay, it's kind as

582
00:30:12,560 --> 00:30:14,000
Speaker 7: a fuck. I literally hate it.

583
00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:19,120
Speaker 6: Why why did you pick five below as all of

584
00:30:19,160 --> 00:30:22,040
Speaker 6: all places to work at?

585
00:30:22,240 --> 00:30:24,719
Speaker 7: It was the only place that hired me and I

586
00:30:24,800 --> 00:30:26,160
Speaker 7: was in desperate need of money.

587
00:30:27,320 --> 00:30:27,880
Speaker 2: I'm surprised.

588
00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:31,760
Speaker 6: I'm surprised five below is not in desperate need of money.

589
00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:34,600
Speaker 7: They are. We actually are suffering, like really bad.

590
00:30:35,120 --> 00:30:37,440
Speaker 2: Who the fuck would buy anything? I mean, also, everything

591
00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:38,320
Speaker 2: is five dollars?

592
00:30:38,480 --> 00:30:38,680
Speaker 3: Right?

593
00:30:38,760 --> 00:30:42,360
Speaker 6: Do they sell any Do they actually only sell any

594
00:30:42,480 --> 00:30:45,200
Speaker 6: anything above five dollars?

595
00:30:45,520 --> 00:30:47,560
Speaker 2: I mean that might be their new business plan. They

596
00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:51,480
Speaker 2: got to do that. Inflation. Five below is not.

597
00:30:51,360 --> 00:30:55,400
Speaker 7: Prepared for inflation, definitely, we literally have a section in

598
00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:57,840
Speaker 7: the back called like five and beyond, and it's stuff

599
00:30:57,880 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 7: that's sixteen to twenty dollars. And every time someone comes in,

600
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:02,719
Speaker 7: they're like, why do you have a section that's more

601
00:31:02,760 --> 00:31:06,200
Speaker 7: than five dollars? I thought this was five below. I'm like, okay,

602
00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:07,960
Speaker 7: so what deal with it? If you don't want to

603
00:31:07,960 --> 00:31:08,800
Speaker 7: buy it, don't buy it?

604
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:11,960
Speaker 6: Did you still do you still have the part of

605
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:14,320
Speaker 6: the store where it's one dollar pranks?

606
00:31:14,480 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 5: I used to love that, Yeah, we do.

607
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:17,120
Speaker 7: I hate it.

608
00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:18,440
Speaker 2: Why do you hate it?

609
00:31:19,440 --> 00:31:21,520
Speaker 7: Because they take the stuff out of the package and

610
00:31:21,600 --> 00:31:24,160
Speaker 7: put it like like they'll literally just spread it around

611
00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:26,840
Speaker 7: the store so we can't sell the items.

612
00:31:27,880 --> 00:31:29,000
Speaker 2: Why do you give a shit.

613
00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:32,080
Speaker 7: Because I have to clean it up?

614
00:31:32,640 --> 00:31:36,480
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, that makes sense. Dare you you ever felt

615
00:31:36,480 --> 00:31:38,000
Speaker 6: you ever fell for any of those? You ever fell

616
00:31:38,000 --> 00:31:41,800
Speaker 6: for the fucking uh the buzzer prank?

617
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:46,600
Speaker 7: No? No, but one time a kid he turned on

618
00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,920
Speaker 7: one of these like annoying little it's like a little part,

619
00:31:49,160 --> 00:31:52,320
Speaker 7: not like an electric part bomb, and it wouldn't stop

620
00:31:52,440 --> 00:31:54,600
Speaker 7: making noise, like we couldn't figure out how to turn

621
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:57,400
Speaker 7: it off, so and we couldn't destroy it, obviously, because

622
00:31:57,440 --> 00:31:59,880
Speaker 7: if we did, then we'd be responsible for it, so

623
00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:02,560
Speaker 7: he's just to let it Like who fortnoys is the

624
00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:03,040
Speaker 7: whole night?

625
00:32:04,720 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 2: That's why couldn't you destroy it?

626
00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:10,280
Speaker 7: Because if we destroy it, then we have to pay

627
00:32:10,320 --> 00:32:13,120
Speaker 7: for it. But if like a customer destroys it, then

628
00:32:13,240 --> 00:32:15,680
Speaker 7: it's like, oh, no big deal.

629
00:32:15,720 --> 00:32:17,720
Speaker 2: Wait, hold on when you say you have to who? Who?

630
00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 2: Who makes you? I mean it's broken, it's defective merchandise

631
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:23,320
Speaker 2: that the customer fucked up.

632
00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:28,640
Speaker 7: It's yeah, I know, it's weird.

633
00:32:29,040 --> 00:32:30,440
Speaker 2: Wait what do you mean that you have to pay

634
00:32:30,440 --> 00:32:31,920
Speaker 2: for it? Who makes you pay for it?

635
00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:35,120
Speaker 7: Oh? My manager, he's an apple. I don't like him.

636
00:32:35,840 --> 00:32:40,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, he's probably His life is probably awful.

637
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:46,520
Speaker 7: Yeah, he doesn't really talk about much about his life,

638
00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:50,160
Speaker 7: but literally, like the one time he did, he was like, yeah,

639
00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:53,280
Speaker 7: I live alone most of the time. Occasionally I'll get

640
00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:55,480
Speaker 7: to see my kids. And I'm like, you're just miserable

641
00:32:55,520 --> 00:32:57,440
Speaker 7: and you're working at a like low rate job at

642
00:32:57,480 --> 00:32:59,920
Speaker 7: by below both like, find something better to do with

643
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:01,120
Speaker 7: your life.

644
00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:06,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, life's fucking crazy, man, life is fucking crazy. How come?

645
00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:07,640
Speaker 3: I so?

646
00:33:07,960 --> 00:33:10,160
Speaker 2: I mean, can you just how much is it? How

647
00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:14,000
Speaker 2: much is a broken fart toy?

648
00:33:16,640 --> 00:33:19,280
Speaker 7: Usually it's three dollars, but I don't. Am I willing

649
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:21,080
Speaker 7: to pay three dollars out of my minimum?

650
00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:21,360
Speaker 9: Ways?

651
00:33:21,560 --> 00:33:22,040
Speaker 7: Not really?

652
00:33:22,080 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 2: No, No, that's fuck to know. I don't think you

653
00:33:23,680 --> 00:33:27,240
Speaker 2: should have to file a complaint with the labor board

654
00:33:27,320 --> 00:33:33,640
Speaker 2: about the farts. I might.

655
00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:37,000
Speaker 7: I just might, honestly, but it's okay. I just recently

656
00:33:37,040 --> 00:33:39,600
Speaker 7: applied to Baston Robbins, which is like two stores down,

657
00:33:39,880 --> 00:33:41,480
Speaker 7: and hopefully I'll get a job there.

658
00:33:42,240 --> 00:33:44,320
Speaker 2: That sounds marginally less awful.

659
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:47,880
Speaker 7: Definitely. I just give off the vibe that I should

660
00:33:47,880 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 7: work in an ice cream shop.

661
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:51,800
Speaker 2: Anyways, do you have to go into work now?

662
00:33:52,800 --> 00:33:55,200
Speaker 7: I do, unfortunately. Thank you so much for picking up

663
00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:57,440
Speaker 7: the call. This is my first time ever watching your stream.

664
00:33:57,480 --> 00:33:59,680
Speaker 7: Actually cool, super cool.

665
00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:03,480
Speaker 6: Well, good talking to you, man, and good good luck.

666
00:34:04,680 --> 00:34:07,640
Speaker 6: Well at least at least this job has given you

667
00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:11,759
Speaker 6: the skill of deciphering real vomit from fake vomit, which

668
00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:13,279
Speaker 6: is this is a good skill to have.

669
00:34:14,280 --> 00:34:16,080
Speaker 7: Yeah, definitely, thank you so much.

670
00:34:16,440 --> 00:34:16,960
Speaker 2: Take care of it.

671
00:34:17,960 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 10: Bye howl from Hello, what's up?

672
00:34:23,520 --> 00:34:23,759
Speaker 4: Man?

673
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:26,000
Speaker 2: Who is this?

674
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:29,880
Speaker 5: This is hot hand Sandwich. But I'm pretty surprised that

675
00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 5: you actually.

676
00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:33,200
Speaker 2: Answered triple ah hot ham hot Hay. I'm just going

677
00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:34,800
Speaker 2: to call you. I'm just going to call you, Ham,

678
00:34:34,960 --> 00:34:36,720
Speaker 2: hot Ham. What's going on? How's life?

679
00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:40,520
Speaker 5: That's the thing, man, I really don't know how to

680
00:34:40,640 --> 00:34:44,280
Speaker 5: answer that question. I've thought about it more than once,

681
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:50,440
Speaker 5: but I keep trying to read you because you're the

682
00:34:50,440 --> 00:34:53,200
Speaker 5: only therapist that I would think would be able to

683
00:34:53,280 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 5: really level with me.

684
00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:58,200
Speaker 6: I'm gonna I'm gonna stop you right there. I'm gonna

685
00:34:58,239 --> 00:35:00,640
Speaker 6: stop you right there, and you know what I'm gonna say.

686
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:05,319
Speaker 6: Do you know what I'm gonna say. No, you don't

687
00:35:05,320 --> 00:35:06,280
Speaker 6: know what I'm gonna say.

688
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:11,319
Speaker 5: No, I really don't, hot ham Uh.

689
00:35:11,600 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 2: I am not a real therapist. I'm not even a

690
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:16,759
Speaker 2: fake therapist.

691
00:35:17,360 --> 00:35:19,480
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know, I know that I am.

692
00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:25,279
Speaker 2: I am. I am a crazy person talking to strangers

693
00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:28,759
Speaker 2: on the phone. I'm not hold hold hold on, let

694
00:35:28,800 --> 00:35:30,520
Speaker 2: me speak my piece real quick. I just want you

695
00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:34,160
Speaker 2: to know. I just want you to know. Yeah, not

696
00:35:34,239 --> 00:35:35,200
Speaker 2: a real therapist.

697
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:40,480
Speaker 6: Yeah, okay, but but I am a person on the

698
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:43,000
Speaker 6: phone with you, and I am happy to talk to

699
00:35:43,040 --> 00:35:45,880
Speaker 6: you about whatever it is that you want to talk about.

700
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:47,840
Speaker 6: So what is it that you wanted to talk about?

701
00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:53,399
Speaker 5: Well, honestly, I want to talk about your shoulders right now,

702
00:35:53,680 --> 00:35:56,800
Speaker 5: because you're not in full costume.

703
00:35:58,960 --> 00:36:00,640
Speaker 2: I don't want to talk about me. I want to

704
00:36:00,680 --> 00:36:01,440
Speaker 2: talk about you.

705
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:06,200
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, all right, fair enough, yeah, man, So hear

706
00:36:06,239 --> 00:36:14,120
Speaker 5: me out, Okay, hear me out. My kids just walked

707
00:36:14,120 --> 00:36:20,520
Speaker 5: in the room side home the I love you, get out.

708
00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:25,240
Speaker 5: I got kids, all right. I'm probably around your age.

709
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:27,839
Speaker 5: You don't need to talk about ages. You know how

710
00:36:27,880 --> 00:36:33,000
Speaker 5: old babies are, right, we don't need to talk about age.

711
00:36:33,400 --> 00:36:34,040
Speaker 5: Got a job.

712
00:36:35,800 --> 00:36:37,040
Speaker 4: Everything's expensive.

713
00:36:39,120 --> 00:36:42,400
Speaker 5: I've got most of my stuff in order, you know,

714
00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:47,319
Speaker 5: trying to every day. But like, I'm just just not happy. Man.

715
00:36:47,960 --> 00:36:53,080
Speaker 5: I don't really have like a cool story for one

716
00:36:53,120 --> 00:36:56,680
Speaker 5: of your clips or anything. Like there's just going to

717
00:36:56,760 --> 00:37:00,680
Speaker 5: be the chat in either enjoying or hating our conversation

718
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:01,120
Speaker 5: right now.

719
00:37:01,160 --> 00:37:04,520
Speaker 2: But like, what's your hot hand? Hot hand? Don't don't

720
00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:07,759
Speaker 2: worry about me, don't worry about what clips don't work,

721
00:37:07,760 --> 00:37:09,879
Speaker 2: don't worry about any of that stuff. Man, Just what's up?

722
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:22,280
Speaker 5: I don't know, man, I'm diabetic. I like chocolate shit,

723
00:37:23,960 --> 00:37:29,360
Speaker 5: you know. Uh. I've got a good family that supports me,

724
00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:38,840
Speaker 5: and I'm just not happy. I hate the I hate

725
00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:43,040
Speaker 5: the state of the things around me. But I try

726
00:37:43,040 --> 00:37:45,640
Speaker 5: to stay away from the news and stuff because it's

727
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:49,480
Speaker 5: all bullshit, and like most I feel like most of

728
00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:52,520
Speaker 5: most days are just kind of like get through it,

729
00:37:54,719 --> 00:37:59,480
Speaker 5: you know, grind it out and deal with it. And

730
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:02,200
Speaker 5: it's a lot of the stuff that you hear is

731
00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:02,839
Speaker 5: just kind of.

732
00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:07,440
Speaker 4: Bullshit.

733
00:38:08,719 --> 00:38:11,319
Speaker 5: I mean mostly, really it should be easy, like it

734
00:38:11,360 --> 00:38:15,440
Speaker 5: should be kind of easy overall, but it's not.

735
00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:17,719
Speaker 2: Let me ask you this, have you ever talked to

736
00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:18,840
Speaker 2: a real therapist about this?

737
00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:20,920
Speaker 7: Not?

738
00:38:21,239 --> 00:38:26,200
Speaker 5: Probably in this context, because you know, I'm pretty close

739
00:38:26,239 --> 00:38:28,200
Speaker 5: to the heart. And then like here comes to my

740
00:38:28,320 --> 00:38:31,080
Speaker 5: one and a half year old, come say hi, and I'm.

741
00:38:30,920 --> 00:38:33,800
Speaker 2: Like, does having does having a kid make you happy?

742
00:38:35,160 --> 00:38:36,160
Speaker 5: I have three kids?

743
00:38:36,239 --> 00:38:41,440
Speaker 2: By the way, just having three kids make you happy.

744
00:38:41,520 --> 00:38:44,239
Speaker 5: It's it's kind of hard to say this sometimes that

745
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:47,120
Speaker 5: like I would have stopped it too, but but yes,

746
00:38:47,600 --> 00:38:50,120
Speaker 5: I love all three of them, like scarely. And actually

747
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 5: before before.

748
00:38:51,760 --> 00:38:55,359
Speaker 11: We even uh had kids, uh, when my wife and

749
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:59,200
Speaker 11: I were first kind of dating, there was some crazy

750
00:38:59,239 --> 00:39:02,800
Speaker 11: stuff going on in her family's life, and we adopted kids,

751
00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:06,120
Speaker 11: her niece and nephew, and I kind of learned at

752
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:06,839
Speaker 11: an early age.

753
00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:09,279
Speaker 5: I was like twenty five at the time, like it's

754
00:39:09,320 --> 00:39:12,480
Speaker 5: way more important one of my life goals is certainly

755
00:39:12,560 --> 00:39:18,239
Speaker 5: to make other people's lives better, especially if I can

756
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:22,759
Speaker 5: help in a way that makes if there's something that

757
00:39:22,840 --> 00:39:27,279
Speaker 5: I can do to help other people, That's where I'm at.

758
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:31,120
Speaker 10: And that's what drives me crazy too sometimes because I'm like, damn,

759
00:39:31,160 --> 00:39:34,560
Speaker 10: I really do try pretty hard to make people happy,

760
00:39:35,280 --> 00:39:39,719
Speaker 10: and then you know, at the end of the day, I'm.

761
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:44,520
Speaker 5: Still psychotic and not happy. But then I'm like, you know,

762
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:47,040
Speaker 5: it'd be kind of weird to take it away from them.

763
00:39:47,200 --> 00:39:53,520
Speaker 6: So dude, it's well, dude, I really don't know. I

764
00:39:53,640 --> 00:39:58,720
Speaker 6: really really fucking don't know. I'm like in pain talking

765
00:39:58,719 --> 00:39:59,879
Speaker 6: to you right now. I really don't know.

766
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:08,919
Speaker 2: Because well because because look, dude, I'm I'm I'm I'm

767
00:40:08,960 --> 00:40:12,640
Speaker 2: like pretty unhappy a fair amount of the time. And

768
00:40:12,719 --> 00:40:15,760
Speaker 2: I have a lot of things that I think people

769
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:22,120
Speaker 2: would think would make them happy happy, you know. I mean,

770
00:40:23,080 --> 00:40:24,920
Speaker 2: I have a lot of people on the internet who

771
00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:27,839
Speaker 2: are very very nice to me all the time. I

772
00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:32,239
Speaker 2: have this dream job. Uh you know.

773
00:40:32,440 --> 00:40:36,759
Speaker 6: I I've got good family, I've got some good friends,

774
00:40:37,160 --> 00:40:38,680
Speaker 6: and and so I think to myself, I'm like, well,

775
00:40:38,760 --> 00:40:40,080
Speaker 6: if I have all these things, why am I still

776
00:40:40,080 --> 00:40:41,759
Speaker 6: not happy. And then I'm like, well, okay, maybe I

777
00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:44,080
Speaker 6: maybe if I had a if I had a like

778
00:40:44,120 --> 00:40:45,960
Speaker 6: a real family, if I had like a wife, if

779
00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:48,160
Speaker 6: I had kids, if I had a girlfriend, like.

780
00:40:48,360 --> 00:40:49,240
Speaker 2: Maybe that would be happy.

781
00:40:49,239 --> 00:40:51,800
Speaker 6: And then I talked to people who have those things

782
00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,480
Speaker 6: and and and they're not happy. Well maybe this thing

783
00:40:54,520 --> 00:40:58,279
Speaker 6: I'd be happy, And and I do. I don't know,

784
00:40:58,360 --> 00:41:00,160
Speaker 6: I wish, I wish I knew.

785
00:41:00,600 --> 00:41:03,160
Speaker 1: And I'm and I literally spend every.

786
00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:11,759
Speaker 6: Day trying to answer these questions and I don't know how.

787
00:41:11,920 --> 00:41:14,239
Speaker 6: And this, this podcast I do, This is not a

788
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:17,680
Speaker 6: you know, here's here's life of advice from a guy

789
00:41:17,719 --> 00:41:19,319
Speaker 6: who's got it figured out.

790
00:41:19,360 --> 00:41:20,719
Speaker 2: It's really quite the opposite.

791
00:41:21,480 --> 00:41:26,279
Speaker 6: And again, every day I'm trying to figure out the

792
00:41:26,320 --> 00:41:27,240
Speaker 6: answer to these questions.

793
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:30,000
Speaker 2: And and I'll share notes with you.

794
00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:36,600
Speaker 6: I think for a long time I wanted to take

795
00:41:36,640 --> 00:41:41,080
Speaker 6: a stoic approach to my happiness, which was like, if

796
00:41:41,120 --> 00:41:49,280
Speaker 6: you limit your attachment to external things and the external universe,

797
00:41:50,440 --> 00:41:55,040
Speaker 6: and you you try to find your happiness completely from within,

798
00:41:55,160 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 6: you just like surmise it out of your out of

799
00:41:57,960 --> 00:42:00,880
Speaker 6: your gut, it's through your balls.

800
00:42:01,520 --> 00:42:03,240
Speaker 2: You just you just make happy.

801
00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:04,200
Speaker 5: You know.

802
00:42:05,760 --> 00:42:08,160
Speaker 2: I used to think that that was the way to

803
00:42:08,239 --> 00:42:08,560
Speaker 2: do it.

804
00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:14,400
Speaker 6: And then I decided, well, actually recently even I've decided

805
00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:21,960
Speaker 6: that that wasn't the and now now I now I

806
00:42:22,000 --> 00:42:24,480
Speaker 6: have a new theory, which is that a lot of

807
00:42:24,520 --> 00:42:27,240
Speaker 6: this ship is probably it's probably a little bit of both.

808
00:42:27,760 --> 00:42:29,280
Speaker 2: It's probably a little bit of both.

809
00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:31,800
Speaker 6: Because you know, I'm reading I'll read the Stomic books

810
00:42:31,840 --> 00:42:34,960
Speaker 6: and it's like, you know, you can't find and this

811
00:42:35,040 --> 00:42:37,279
Speaker 6: is this is common ship of people telling you that

812
00:42:37,320 --> 00:42:41,960
Speaker 6: you can't find your happiness in things outside of yourself.

813
00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:46,319
Speaker 2: And I used to really want to believe that, and

814
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:48,800
Speaker 2: now I think it's it's got to be a combination

815
00:42:48,880 --> 00:42:49,160
Speaker 2: of both.

816
00:42:49,160 --> 00:42:53,360
Speaker 6: It's got to be a combination of getting your external

817
00:42:53,440 --> 00:42:58,319
Speaker 6: circumstances right. What you know, whatever you're, what you what

818
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:02,800
Speaker 6: you do for money, who you hang out with, where

819
00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:08,120
Speaker 6: you are, and a lot of these things can be

820
00:43:08,160 --> 00:43:12,600
Speaker 6: in your control, but a lot of them you you

821
00:43:12,680 --> 00:43:18,479
Speaker 6: got to figure out. And then there's the other side

822
00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:22,120
Speaker 6: of the coin. There's internal, which is like, hey, listen,

823
00:43:22,160 --> 00:43:24,800
Speaker 6: you could have the greatest life of the fucking world.

824
00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:29,120
Speaker 6: And if your perspective is shit and you're pissed off

825
00:43:29,160 --> 00:43:31,360
Speaker 6: all the time, or if you just or if you

826
00:43:31,440 --> 00:43:34,480
Speaker 6: just your brain chemicals just work against you.

827
00:43:34,520 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 2: Just have anxiety, you have.

828
00:43:35,680 --> 00:43:40,480
Speaker 6: Depression, it'll it'll just fuck you. And so you gotta

829
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:47,120
Speaker 6: you gotta figure that out in addition to the external stuff.

830
00:43:47,160 --> 00:43:50,520
Speaker 6: And it's a giant balancing act. And I'm hoping it

831
00:43:50,520 --> 00:43:53,480
Speaker 6: gets a little bit easier with age. And I've been

832
00:43:53,520 --> 00:43:55,360
Speaker 6: told that it gets easier with age.

833
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:56,160
Speaker 2: How old are you?

834
00:43:57,200 --> 00:43:59,600
Speaker 5: I will be thirty seven in a month.

835
00:44:00,400 --> 00:44:04,480
Speaker 6: Okay, do you feel do you feel like it's gotten

836
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:06,279
Speaker 6: easier or harder as you've as.

837
00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:07,000
Speaker 2: You've gotten older.

838
00:44:08,440 --> 00:44:09,600
Speaker 5: Do you want the truth?

839
00:44:10,200 --> 00:44:11,320
Speaker 2: Of course I want the truth.

840
00:44:13,320 --> 00:44:18,399
Speaker 5: Uh, it's gotten harder over the last.

841
00:44:20,080 --> 00:44:20,840
Speaker 4: Ten years.

842
00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:25,080
Speaker 5: But you know, you do kind of solve some of

843
00:44:25,160 --> 00:44:28,480
Speaker 5: those problems as you get older and you learn, and

844
00:44:29,880 --> 00:44:33,359
Speaker 5: but then there's new ones, and you know, maybe that's

845
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:37,240
Speaker 5: on me for introducing three lovely children to this world

846
00:44:37,280 --> 00:44:41,680
Speaker 5: who are absolutely immaculate, and it's like, holy shit, man,

847
00:44:41,719 --> 00:44:47,680
Speaker 5: I'm like, I can't keep sucking up. I can't being

848
00:44:47,760 --> 00:44:51,319
Speaker 5: a parent of any matrio. It doesn't matter if you're

849
00:44:51,320 --> 00:45:01,680
Speaker 5: adopting or uncle lord father. It kind of waves on

850
00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:04,960
Speaker 5: you too when you start to look back and you're like, man,

851
00:45:05,800 --> 00:45:07,880
Speaker 5: I only have so much time left in this world

852
00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:10,759
Speaker 5: and there's only so much that I can do.

853
00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:13,759
Speaker 4: But I'm still struggling with some of.

854
00:45:13,680 --> 00:45:17,759
Speaker 5: My problems at the same time, so I know I'm

855
00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:22,800
Speaker 5: kind of like random, randomly saying words at this point.

856
00:45:22,880 --> 00:45:30,919
Speaker 4: But yeah, good luck to everyone out there.

857
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:31,960
Speaker 5: I'm gonna.

858
00:45:34,840 --> 00:45:37,920
Speaker 4: This. This was I'm trying not to.

859
00:45:37,880 --> 00:45:39,560
Speaker 5: Take up too much more of your time because I

860
00:45:39,560 --> 00:45:41,719
Speaker 5: know you're busy fucking get go and ship.

861
00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:45,759
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm busy doing this.

862
00:45:46,840 --> 00:45:48,759
Speaker 5: Yeah, I know. I don't know. It's it's cool man

863
00:45:48,840 --> 00:45:52,200
Speaker 5: that you actually actually got through this time, because I've

864
00:45:52,239 --> 00:45:54,680
Speaker 5: called a handful of times and I don't know if

865
00:45:54,680 --> 00:45:58,000
Speaker 5: I ever really would have talked about this but those

866
00:45:58,040 --> 00:46:01,480
Speaker 5: same times. But that's what I'm personally going through as

867
00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:03,080
Speaker 5: a hot hand Sandwich.

868
00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:05,600
Speaker 2: Is well, well I'll tell all right, Well, hot hand Sandwich.

869
00:46:05,680 --> 00:46:10,680
Speaker 2: Look are you do you feel like you're a good dad?

870
00:46:11,760 --> 00:46:15,160
Speaker 5: I feel like I am a pretty good dad. I

871
00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:15,920
Speaker 5: could be better.

872
00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:19,600
Speaker 2: Do you do you show up for your kids? Do

873
00:46:19,640 --> 00:46:23,480
Speaker 2: you feed them everything of them? Spend time with them

874
00:46:24,160 --> 00:46:24,719
Speaker 2: every day?

875
00:46:24,880 --> 00:46:28,520
Speaker 4: Good night? Kisses you?

876
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:31,160
Speaker 2: Then you're a great Then you're a great dad. What

877
00:46:31,200 --> 00:46:31,920
Speaker 2: are you talking about?

878
00:46:32,680 --> 00:46:32,879
Speaker 8: Yeah?

879
00:46:33,040 --> 00:46:36,480
Speaker 5: No, man, but it's because you know, I know, we

880
00:46:36,480 --> 00:46:37,960
Speaker 5: were probably trying to close up.

881
00:46:38,000 --> 00:46:40,640
Speaker 4: But I've had diabetes for.

882
00:46:40,600 --> 00:46:43,319
Speaker 5: About twenty years, so I feel like I only have

883
00:46:43,440 --> 00:46:45,319
Speaker 5: about another twenty.

884
00:46:45,080 --> 00:46:46,040
Speaker 4: Good years left in me.

885
00:46:46,920 --> 00:46:50,160
Speaker 5: Thirty six, thirty seven, I'll probably yeah, yeah, I don't know,

886
00:46:50,200 --> 00:46:57,839
Speaker 5: maybe maybe thirty years maybe, but uh, like what can

887
00:46:57,880 --> 00:47:03,480
Speaker 5: I do now to make sure that I'm setting them

888
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:06,760
Speaker 5: up for the best future? And then like with everything,

889
00:47:06,840 --> 00:47:10,760
Speaker 5: how everything is so fucking expensive now, dude, it's crazy

890
00:47:11,280 --> 00:47:13,360
Speaker 5: give up to all those parents. That's kind of what

891
00:47:13,440 --> 00:47:15,280
Speaker 5: I was everything.

892
00:47:15,400 --> 00:47:18,640
Speaker 2: I mean, dude, everything you're doing is what you could

893
00:47:18,640 --> 00:47:23,320
Speaker 2: be doing now. Yeah, yeah, you're spending You're spending time

894
00:47:23,360 --> 00:47:26,400
Speaker 2: with your children. You did not abandon your children.

895
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:31,720
Speaker 6: You did not uh move to a foreign country and say,

896
00:47:31,880 --> 00:47:34,680
Speaker 6: hey god you you prioritize.

897
00:47:33,920 --> 00:47:36,640
Speaker 2: You know, it's really tough.

898
00:47:36,680 --> 00:47:38,160
Speaker 6: It's tough because when you have kids, you got to

899
00:47:38,200 --> 00:47:41,719
Speaker 6: prioritize their life over yours. And that's what you and

900
00:47:41,719 --> 00:47:46,040
Speaker 6: that's what it sounds like you did. So, uh, you're

901
00:47:46,040 --> 00:47:50,840
Speaker 6: you're a great dad from what you're telling me and.

902
00:47:56,040 --> 00:47:59,719
Speaker 5: From you from your Yeah, I mean.

903
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:10,279
Speaker 6: It's it's just literally just be literally just being there is.

904
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 10: And so you go back to that when you start

905
00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:16,640
Speaker 10: thinking about a lot of this, and so I I like, I.

906
00:48:16,800 --> 00:48:20,240
Speaker 6: Like I've been saying, you know, happiness is is a crazy,

907
00:48:20,280 --> 00:48:23,840
Speaker 6: fucked up thing to figure out, and I'm in the

908
00:48:23,880 --> 00:48:25,160
Speaker 6: process of trying to figure it out.

909
00:48:25,160 --> 00:48:27,960
Speaker 2: But I just hope that you.

910
00:48:29,400 --> 00:48:33,320
Speaker 6: Have some self esteem and some confidence in the idea

911
00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:38,840
Speaker 6: that you're you're doing a good job, you're making a

912
00:48:38,880 --> 00:48:46,840
Speaker 6: good impact. And you know, I don't like stupid bullshit

913
00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:50,560
Speaker 6: that they put on T shirts and like to you know,

914
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:55,839
Speaker 6: positivity will will wholesome bullshit stuff. I hate it more

915
00:48:55,880 --> 00:48:59,600
Speaker 6: than anything. Makes me want to kill myself. But but

916
00:48:59,600 --> 00:49:02,359
Speaker 6: I'm gonna use one. I'm gonna use one that I

917
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:07,000
Speaker 6: feel in this moment, which is I think you're enough.

918
00:49:06,760 --> 00:49:09,480
Speaker 5: Man, cool man.

919
00:49:09,880 --> 00:49:10,680
Speaker 4: I appreciate that.

920
00:49:12,520 --> 00:49:17,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, for real, that means a lot. Actually, thank you.

921
00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:18,760
Speaker 2: What's your name again?

922
00:49:19,840 --> 00:49:23,000
Speaker 5: My name is my name. My real name is Kegan,

923
00:49:23,160 --> 00:49:27,360
Speaker 5: but hot hand Sandwich in the twitch chat.

924
00:49:27,200 --> 00:49:30,720
Speaker 2: My well, Kegan, thanks for calling.

925
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:34,799
Speaker 6: I love your Comedy Central show and I'll talk to

926
00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:35,399
Speaker 6: you again soon.

927
00:49:36,080 --> 00:49:38,400
Speaker 5: All right, man, I appreciate taking the call. Everyone, have

928
00:49:38,440 --> 00:49:39,040
Speaker 5: a great night.

929
00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:41,160
Speaker 4: I'll be uh a lurking.

930
00:49:42,000 --> 00:49:45,680
Speaker 2: Leader, Kegan. Life is fucking crazy, that's all.

931
00:49:45,719 --> 00:49:48,200
Speaker 6: I I I've got I've gotten to such a point

932
00:49:48,239 --> 00:49:50,000
Speaker 6: with the show where that's all I have to say.

933
00:49:50,120 --> 00:49:51,719
Speaker 6: That's I've gotten such a point with my life. That's

934
00:49:51,719 --> 00:49:53,120
Speaker 6: all I have to say is that life is just

935
00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:56,120
Speaker 6: fucking crazy. I wish there was more. I wish there

936
00:49:56,200 --> 00:50:02,040
Speaker 6: was like more to say, more thought my brain. Then

937
00:50:02,160 --> 00:50:06,200
Speaker 6: life is crazy. That's all I got. Every thought that

938
00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:11,680
Speaker 6: I could surmise out of my brain is contained.

939
00:50:11,239 --> 00:50:14,680
Speaker 2: Within just life is crazy. I don't like tattoos.

940
00:50:14,680 --> 00:50:16,080
Speaker 6: I don't have any, but if I were to get

941
00:50:16,080 --> 00:50:22,040
Speaker 6: something tattooed, I would I'd probably get Betty Boop on

942
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:26,680
Speaker 6: my ankle. That's how I'm ending this. I'm just saying,

943
00:50:26,680 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 6: I'm just gonna say a random thing. All right, I'm

944
00:50:30,239 --> 00:50:33,920
Speaker 6: gonna take a couple of one minute calls. I'm gonna talk.

945
00:50:33,960 --> 00:50:35,719
Speaker 6: I'm gonna take some calls. I'm gonna just talk to

946
00:50:35,760 --> 00:50:36,359
Speaker 6: them for a minute.

947
00:50:36,400 --> 00:50:38,200
Speaker 2: Let's see. This is a little segment we're gonna do.

948
00:50:40,680 --> 00:50:41,920
Speaker 2: Hey man, you got a minute.

949
00:50:42,160 --> 00:50:42,680
Speaker 5: Okay.

950
00:50:42,920 --> 00:50:46,640
Speaker 9: So I'm thirty four and last week I just want

951
00:50:46,640 --> 00:50:50,279
Speaker 9: an ssdiks from an injury at work. And I kind

952
00:50:50,280 --> 00:50:53,640
Speaker 9: of won like this five year goal, and now I'm

953
00:50:53,719 --> 00:50:56,239
Speaker 9: kind of lost like what is an SSDI?

954
00:50:56,440 --> 00:50:56,680
Speaker 2: Man?

955
00:50:57,920 --> 00:51:00,000
Speaker 9: Like social Security disability?

956
00:50:59,640 --> 00:51:02,600
Speaker 6: Okay, so like what do you what are you gonna

957
00:51:02,600 --> 00:51:05,240
Speaker 6: do with the money?

958
00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 3: Uh?

959
00:51:06,840 --> 00:51:09,359
Speaker 9: Pay for my West nursing school mostly, and like make

960
00:51:09,360 --> 00:51:10,920
Speaker 9: sure responsible things happen.

961
00:51:12,080 --> 00:51:16,480
Speaker 2: That's boring. You should? You should? Uh? Uh? Actually, no,

962
00:51:16,600 --> 00:51:17,319
Speaker 2: that's nice. You should.

963
00:51:17,400 --> 00:51:19,840
Speaker 6: That's all good stuff. I was gonna I should. I

964
00:51:19,880 --> 00:51:22,840
Speaker 6: was gonna say, you should gamble it away?

965
00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:24,120
Speaker 5: Oh no, I don't.

966
00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:27,160
Speaker 2: I don't gambling saying okay, wait we have we only

967
00:51:27,160 --> 00:51:29,040
Speaker 2: have ten seconds? Any is there anything else you want

968
00:51:29,040 --> 00:51:30,080
Speaker 2: to say?

969
00:51:30,280 --> 00:51:30,520
Speaker 4: Yeah?

970
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:32,719
Speaker 9: So what should I do at thirty four? What would

971
00:51:32,760 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 9: you do if you had basically infinite time? Which your

972
00:51:35,160 --> 00:51:37,000
Speaker 9: glass is broken? You can't read it, you know what

973
00:51:37,040 --> 00:51:38,680
Speaker 9: I mean? Like that's Wilight Ground episode.

974
00:51:40,560 --> 00:51:42,759
Speaker 2: What would I do? I hung up on him?

975
00:51:42,800 --> 00:51:45,719
Speaker 6: By the way, what would I do with my infinite time?

976
00:51:47,080 --> 00:51:49,279
Speaker 6: You don't have infinite time? By the way, you're gonna die?

977
00:51:52,440 --> 00:51:55,520
Speaker 2: I don't know. You have a wife. Why don't you?

978
00:51:55,520 --> 00:51:59,440
Speaker 2: You could make some babies, you could knit? What do

979
00:51:59,480 --> 00:52:01,400
Speaker 2: I do with it? This is the general question of

980
00:52:01,400 --> 00:52:07,600
Speaker 2: what do I do with my time? Uh? Play video games?

981
00:52:08,680 --> 00:52:10,879
Speaker 2: Do whatever? You just walk honestly, just walk around, go

982
00:52:11,280 --> 00:52:17,560
Speaker 2: wake up, walk around, spend time with your wife, and

983
00:52:17,560 --> 00:52:19,719
Speaker 2: and and jack off. You don't even need to jack

984
00:52:19,800 --> 00:52:24,359
Speaker 2: I just have you have sex with your wife, read

985
00:52:24,400 --> 00:52:27,280
Speaker 2: a book. You're gonna be okay.

986
00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:32,959
Speaker 1: How from thanky hanky, you have a minute? Yo, my aunt,

987
00:52:33,320 --> 00:52:33,680
Speaker 1: you're on?

988
00:52:33,719 --> 00:52:34,400
Speaker 2: You got a minute?

989
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:37,200
Speaker 5: Yo, mister gek, Holy ship?

990
00:52:37,920 --> 00:52:38,319
Speaker 2: What's up?

991
00:52:38,360 --> 00:52:39,319
Speaker 1: Holyh what's up?

992
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:44,080
Speaker 2: How you doing? You got? You got like forty five seconds?

993
00:52:44,400 --> 00:52:44,759
Speaker 3: All right?

994
00:52:44,760 --> 00:52:44,960
Speaker 5: Man?

995
00:52:45,120 --> 00:52:46,799
Speaker 4: Yo, fucking gak.

996
00:52:46,840 --> 00:52:47,719
Speaker 3: You're amazing, dude.

997
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:48,560
Speaker 4: My wife loves you.

998
00:52:48,600 --> 00:52:52,239
Speaker 2: I just had a son. Holy thanks man, thanks man,

999
00:52:52,480 --> 00:52:54,879
Speaker 2: thank you, thank you? Is that it?

1000
00:52:54,920 --> 00:52:54,960
Speaker 8: You?

1001
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:56,080
Speaker 2: Don't you have anything else?

1002
00:52:56,960 --> 00:52:58,400
Speaker 5: No, bro, I just wanted to talk to you.

1003
00:52:58,440 --> 00:52:58,879
Speaker 4: Holy shit.

1004
00:52:59,400 --> 00:53:02,680
Speaker 5: I listened fucking podcast for like months and ship, dude,

1005
00:53:02,920 --> 00:53:05,160
Speaker 5: I'll I listened to all these fucking crazy ass stories.

1006
00:53:05,200 --> 00:53:06,359
Speaker 5: I'm born as fuck, dude.

1007
00:53:06,400 --> 00:53:07,120
Speaker 4: I just wanted to talk to.

1008
00:53:07,080 --> 00:53:08,920
Speaker 2: You, hud Are you happy to you?

1009
00:53:08,960 --> 00:53:09,200
Speaker 5: Are you?

1010
00:53:09,200 --> 00:53:10,759
Speaker 2: Do you like life?

1011
00:53:11,120 --> 00:53:11,400
Speaker 4: Dude?

1012
00:53:11,480 --> 00:53:11,760
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1013
00:53:12,040 --> 00:53:12,799
Speaker 2: I'm loving life?

1014
00:53:12,840 --> 00:53:13,000
Speaker 4: Man.

1015
00:53:13,200 --> 00:53:15,400
Speaker 2: My my friend was just born recently.

1016
00:53:17,560 --> 00:53:22,960
Speaker 6: What's the secret to everlasting happiness?

1017
00:53:23,560 --> 00:53:27,000
Speaker 5: You know, eat lots of candy when you like.

1018
00:53:28,160 --> 00:53:29,960
Speaker 2: I have tried that. It does not work.

1019
00:53:30,520 --> 00:53:34,680
Speaker 1: How from yeah, hey, you got a minute?

1020
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:35,560
Speaker 4: I have one?

1021
00:53:35,640 --> 00:53:36,879
Speaker 1: Minutely you have one minute?

1022
00:53:36,920 --> 00:53:37,640
Speaker 2: You have one minute?

1023
00:53:39,080 --> 00:53:40,520
Speaker 8: Are you ending the string after a minute?

1024
00:53:41,400 --> 00:53:41,960
Speaker 7: Uh?

1025
00:53:42,080 --> 00:53:45,200
Speaker 2: All right, you got, you got forty you got, you

1026
00:53:45,239 --> 00:53:46,400
Speaker 2: got fifty seconds?

1027
00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:48,080
Speaker 3: Fifty seconds?

1028
00:53:48,200 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 5: Okay, how are you.

1029
00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:52,240
Speaker 2: That's what you want to do with your fifty seconds?

1030
00:53:52,680 --> 00:53:54,800
Speaker 9: Yeah, I mean I don't what I would want to

1031
00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:57,280
Speaker 9: talk about. Probably take like fifteen twenty.

1032
00:53:57,040 --> 00:53:59,879
Speaker 2: Minutes, so I'm you would be surprised. Chat with your god, Yo,

1033
00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:01,279
Speaker 2: go ahead, just throw it at me. Let's see if

1034
00:54:01,280 --> 00:54:01,759
Speaker 2: we can do it.

1035
00:54:04,280 --> 00:54:07,080
Speaker 9: I was in a relationship and I ended a relationship

1036
00:54:07,120 --> 00:54:09,400
Speaker 9: like a few months ago, but I still am having

1037
00:54:09,400 --> 00:54:12,200
Speaker 9: trouble getting over it emotionally.

1038
00:54:16,120 --> 00:54:22,440
Speaker 2: Uh yeah, we don't need twenty minutes for that. I

1039
00:54:22,840 --> 00:54:24,680
Speaker 2: want to say, jack off, that's what I want to say.

1040
00:54:24,760 --> 00:54:26,160
Speaker 2: That's what I want to say. That's what I would do.

1041
00:54:26,440 --> 00:54:28,080
Speaker 9: It's help, I know.

1042
00:54:28,160 --> 00:54:28,480
Speaker 2: I know.

1043
00:54:30,160 --> 00:54:36,560
Speaker 6: Oh god, I had to hang up on him. I'm

1044
00:54:36,560 --> 00:54:39,160
Speaker 6: not a I'm not a real therapist. Just just keep

1045
00:54:39,200 --> 00:54:41,920
Speaker 6: jacking off, that's all I got. Just keep jacking off, man,

1046
00:54:42,040 --> 00:54:45,320
Speaker 6: Just keep jacking off and jacking off and time.

1047
00:54:47,040 --> 00:54:50,680
Speaker 2: That's that's how we heal. That's how people heal is

1048
00:54:50,800 --> 00:54:51,640
Speaker 2: masturbation and.

1049
00:54:51,640 --> 00:54:55,080
Speaker 1: Time all from please.

1050
00:54:56,360 --> 00:54:58,239
Speaker 2: Hey, what's up? You got a minute?

1051
00:54:58,440 --> 00:55:00,759
Speaker 3: Okay, So do you have a Peo box set up?

1052
00:55:00,760 --> 00:55:02,520
Speaker 3: Because I have fan art for you that I made

1053
00:55:02,520 --> 00:55:03,360
Speaker 3: like two years ago.

1054
00:55:03,960 --> 00:55:07,160
Speaker 2: Uh no, I don't have I'm I don't have a

1055
00:55:07,200 --> 00:55:10,880
Speaker 2: Peo box set up. Unfortunately, damn. What what city are you?

1056
00:55:10,920 --> 00:55:11,719
Speaker 2: What city are you in?

1057
00:55:12,680 --> 00:55:15,600
Speaker 3: I mean for Tuna, in the middle of nowhere.

1058
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:18,640
Speaker 2: Cal Oh are you anywhere near Los Angeles?

1059
00:55:19,760 --> 00:55:21,120
Speaker 3: No, I'm on the other end of the state.

1060
00:55:21,600 --> 00:55:23,239
Speaker 6: Oh ship, Well, I was gonna say you could come

1061
00:55:23,280 --> 00:55:25,200
Speaker 6: to one of the shows. I would, I'd let you

1062
00:55:25,239 --> 00:55:26,560
Speaker 6: come to one of the shows for free, but.

1063
00:55:26,719 --> 00:55:28,400
Speaker 9: I will be there in the end of August.

1064
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:28,760
Speaker 3: Stuff.

1065
00:55:28,920 --> 00:55:29,680
Speaker 5: Well near there.

1066
00:55:30,239 --> 00:55:33,040
Speaker 2: Oh well, I'll let you know if I ever do

1067
00:55:33,080 --> 00:55:34,400
Speaker 2: open up a PO box.

1068
00:55:34,440 --> 00:55:37,040
Speaker 6: I'm just I'm I'm I'm living out of airbnbs right now,

1069
00:55:37,120 --> 00:55:41,799
Speaker 6: so I don't really have stuff but anything anything else.

1070
00:55:44,560 --> 00:55:46,480
Speaker 3: No, You're awesome.

1071
00:55:46,760 --> 00:55:47,280
Speaker 5: That's all.

1072
00:55:47,880 --> 00:55:50,040
Speaker 2: Thanks, man, take care. Let's ride it out. We have

1073
00:55:50,080 --> 00:55:51,600
Speaker 2: five seconds to just be on.

1074
00:55:53,840 --> 00:55:56,399
Speaker 3: I don't know. I'm on the spot and I have no.

1075
00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:00,279
Speaker 1: Call from Hey.

1076
00:56:00,320 --> 00:56:02,719
Speaker 2: You got a minute, well we should I made it.

1077
00:56:03,080 --> 00:56:03,520
Speaker 2: What's up?

1078
00:56:03,560 --> 00:56:03,719
Speaker 4: Man?

1079
00:56:04,040 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 2: What's going on? Brother? You got uh fifty seconds?

1080
00:56:08,920 --> 00:56:09,080
Speaker 3: Oh?

1081
00:56:09,719 --> 00:56:10,319
Speaker 4: Well, I don't know.

1082
00:56:10,400 --> 00:56:13,360
Speaker 9: Man, I'm just kind of matter at you because you know,

1083
00:56:13,480 --> 00:56:19,160
Speaker 9: if you're coming to need your on September September sixth, right.

1084
00:56:19,719 --> 00:56:21,640
Speaker 2: Yes, I am Wait. Why you're mad at me for

1085
00:56:21,680 --> 00:56:22,719
Speaker 2: coming to New York? Why?

1086
00:56:23,280 --> 00:56:23,600
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1087
00:56:23,640 --> 00:56:27,120
Speaker 7: Because my my my birthday sounds like September eighth, and

1088
00:56:27,280 --> 00:56:27,960
Speaker 7: I'm just twenty.

1089
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:29,879
Speaker 9: You know I'm not going to make it to your show.

1090
00:56:29,960 --> 00:56:30,160
Speaker 4: Man.

1091
00:56:30,719 --> 00:56:35,960
Speaker 2: Oh you I don't.

1092
00:56:34,000 --> 00:56:37,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, I guess I can.

1093
00:56:37,080 --> 00:56:38,239
Speaker 3: I guess I fake a fake ID.

1094
00:56:39,320 --> 00:56:41,439
Speaker 2: Don't don't ask me if you I'm not. I don't

1095
00:56:41,440 --> 00:56:43,080
Speaker 2: ask me if you can use a fake ID for

1096
00:56:43,120 --> 00:56:46,040
Speaker 2: the venue. Don't ask the venue either. By the way,

1097
00:56:46,040 --> 00:56:47,719
Speaker 2: I can't. By the way, I don't. I can't give

1098
00:56:47,760 --> 00:56:50,000
Speaker 2: you permission to use a fake ID. That's not how

1099
00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:51,279
Speaker 2: a fake ID works.

1100
00:56:51,640 --> 00:56:55,799
Speaker 4: How much we have? What? How much that time? Do

1101
00:56:55,840 --> 00:56:57,040
Speaker 4: I have? Uh?

1102
00:56:57,280 --> 00:57:02,040
Speaker 2: Were none? But yeah, I hang out. I hung up

1103
00:57:02,040 --> 00:57:03,880
Speaker 2: on him. It doesn't always make the noise, but I

1104
00:57:03,920 --> 00:57:06,799
Speaker 2: hung up on him. I can't.

1105
00:57:06,520 --> 00:57:09,160
Speaker 6: I don't know why he asked me if he could

1106
00:57:09,239 --> 00:57:12,760
Speaker 6: use a fake ID, as if I have an answer

1107
00:57:12,840 --> 00:57:16,640
Speaker 6: to that question. Uh, I feel it though I used

1108
00:57:16,640 --> 00:57:18,600
Speaker 6: to when I was doing stand up. When I was

1109
00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:21,800
Speaker 6: I did stand up from like sixteen to twenty one,

1110
00:57:21,920 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 6: so I never was able to get into those fucking venues.

1111
00:57:25,240 --> 00:57:29,000
Speaker 2: It's annoying, but I don't know, it's it's probably good.

1112
00:57:29,000 --> 00:57:33,160
Speaker 6: I'd rather I'm I'm pretty I'm stoked that it's mainly

1113
00:57:33,200 --> 00:57:35,600
Speaker 6: twenty one plus people coming to the shows and not

1114
00:57:37,120 --> 00:57:39,560
Speaker 6: you know, I know there's a lot of like internet

1115
00:57:39,600 --> 00:57:42,880
Speaker 6: people who all their fans are fourteen, and I would

1116
00:57:42,960 --> 00:57:46,760
Speaker 6: rather not have that all.

1117
00:57:46,760 --> 00:57:52,440
Speaker 2: From Levi, Levi, you have a minute?

1118
00:57:52,760 --> 00:57:54,080
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I actually got on.

1119
00:57:54,480 --> 00:57:59,720
Speaker 5: Fuck. I need to find a new job. And I'm

1120
00:57:59,760 --> 00:58:02,320
Speaker 5: thinking kind of moving across the country.

1121
00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:03,080
Speaker 4: What do you think of that?

1122
00:58:04,640 --> 00:58:05,360
Speaker 2: Where are you gonna go?

1123
00:58:07,000 --> 00:58:08,880
Speaker 5: Well, I'm in Canada, so I'm thinking of going to

1124
00:58:08,920 --> 00:58:09,960
Speaker 5: Alberta out west.

1125
00:58:11,560 --> 00:58:14,880
Speaker 2: Uh, you're in Canada when you say you move? All right?

1126
00:58:14,920 --> 00:58:18,000
Speaker 2: So is Alberta all the way on the east.

1127
00:58:18,240 --> 00:58:20,840
Speaker 5: It's on the west side. It's like almost as west

1128
00:58:20,880 --> 00:58:22,360
Speaker 5: as you can go if you're not counting DC.

1129
00:58:22,600 --> 00:58:23,400
Speaker 2: Okay, And where are you?

1130
00:58:24,600 --> 00:58:25,960
Speaker 5: I'm in Toronto right now.

1131
00:58:26,440 --> 00:58:29,000
Speaker 2: Okay. All of Canada is the same to me.

1132
00:58:30,640 --> 00:58:31,520
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's fair.

1133
00:58:31,880 --> 00:58:33,400
Speaker 2: So you're not really moving anywhere.

1134
00:58:35,560 --> 00:58:38,440
Speaker 5: What if I tried to get American citizenship come down there?

1135
00:58:38,440 --> 00:58:39,160
Speaker 4: What do you think of that?

1136
00:58:39,480 --> 00:58:43,680
Speaker 2: Hey, good fucking luck, baby. I don't know.

1137
00:58:43,720 --> 00:58:45,960
Speaker 6: I've heard it's pretty hard to get American citizenship. You

1138
00:58:46,000 --> 00:58:47,080
Speaker 6: have five seconds, anything else?

1139
00:58:47,960 --> 00:58:49,160
Speaker 5: I love you, man, you're doing this.

1140
00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:52,040
Speaker 6: Thanks man, Thanks man. Have fun, have fun being Canadian.

1141
00:58:53,680 --> 00:58:54,640
Speaker 6: All right, I'll take.

1142
00:58:56,720 --> 00:58:59,560
Speaker 1: One more of these, all from Tinton.

1143
00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 2: Hey, you got a minute?

1144
00:59:02,800 --> 00:59:07,000
Speaker 8: Hey, lyle U, Miss vincent I, I've got it. I've

1145
00:59:07,000 --> 00:59:09,720
Speaker 8: got a dilemma. I'm going to Maine, all right. I'm

1146
00:59:09,760 --> 00:59:12,000
Speaker 8: going to Maine on a trip with my girlfriend and

1147
00:59:12,080 --> 00:59:17,000
Speaker 8: my girlfriend's friends. They're gonna bring shrooms. I've never done

1148
00:59:17,000 --> 00:59:20,440
Speaker 8: shrooms before. I'm curious. I got junkie parents, though, so

1149
00:59:20,480 --> 00:59:23,320
Speaker 8: I've always been kind of weird with needs and alcohol

1150
00:59:23,440 --> 00:59:24,320
Speaker 8: and stuff like that.

1151
00:59:25,960 --> 00:59:26,800
Speaker 4: What's your look?

1152
00:59:26,840 --> 00:59:29,720
Speaker 2: Look? Look? I like shrooms a lot. I think that

1153
00:59:31,360 --> 00:59:34,760
Speaker 2: you you know, I think that doing psychedelic drugs is

1154
00:59:34,800 --> 00:59:37,320
Speaker 2: a good, uh human right of passage.

1155
00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:40,440
Speaker 6: But it's your it's your life, and you shouldn't. You

1156
00:59:40,440 --> 00:59:42,240
Speaker 6: should only do it if you want to do it.

1157
00:59:42,320 --> 00:59:44,880
Speaker 6: You shouldn't do it because I'm telling you that you

1158
00:59:44,920 --> 00:59:47,040
Speaker 6: should do it, or they're telling you should do it.

1159
00:59:47,080 --> 00:59:49,160
Speaker 6: If you want to do it, then do it. If

1160
00:59:49,200 --> 00:59:50,880
Speaker 6: you don't want to do it, don't do it.

1161
00:59:51,040 --> 00:59:51,240
Speaker 2: I know.

1162
00:59:51,320 --> 00:59:54,160
Speaker 8: That's Julie.

1163
00:59:54,160 --> 00:59:55,040
Speaker 3: Great to speak with you.

1164
00:59:55,160 --> 00:59:59,000
Speaker 8: Also, second part of the reason why I'm considering doing

1165
00:59:59,080 --> 01:00:00,680
Speaker 8: your shrooms because I hear of but he's doing shrooms

1166
01:00:00,720 --> 01:00:02,400
Speaker 8: on the podcast and talking to demons and stuff, and

1167
01:00:02,400 --> 01:00:03,480
Speaker 8: it's very interesting to make that.

1168
01:00:05,080 --> 01:00:07,760
Speaker 2: Guy doesn't need shrooms. He's got it all figured out.

1169
01:00:08,000 --> 01:00:11,120
Speaker 2: I don't know shrooms are fun, but uh yeah, I

1170
01:00:11,200 --> 01:00:18,360
Speaker 2: like shrooms. I wouldn't I would only do them if

1171
01:00:18,360 --> 01:00:20,920
Speaker 2: you want to do them. I wouldn't do them because

1172
01:00:20,960 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 2: you like like I mean, if you're curious if I

1173
01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:27,920
Speaker 2: would say, if you're curious about them, if you're curious

1174
01:00:27,920 --> 01:00:33,280
Speaker 2: about them and you think they might be fun, then

1175
01:00:33,320 --> 01:00:37,360
Speaker 2: give it a shot. All right, I'm done. Should we

1176
01:00:37,400 --> 01:00:39,840
Speaker 2: make this a regular segment on the podcast? Let me know,

1177
01:00:40,080 --> 01:00:42,840
Speaker 2: let me know when the comments, let me know when

1178
01:00:42,880 --> 01:00:46,360
Speaker 2: the interact features. Spotify has a thing now where you

1179
01:00:46,400 --> 01:00:53,960
Speaker 2: can fucking make comments. I read every single one of

1180
01:00:54,000 --> 01:00:57,800
Speaker 2: those comments. So if you're on Spotify listening to this,

1181
01:00:58,960 --> 01:00:59,920
Speaker 2: give a little.

1182
01:01:01,120 --> 01:01:03,440
Speaker 6: You can you can throw and throw in the comments YouTube.

1183
01:01:03,440 --> 01:01:05,040
Speaker 6: I might start making this a regular thing.

1184
01:01:06,160 --> 01:01:08,680
Speaker 2: Ending the stream, ending the podcast with ale minute calls

1185
01:01:09,920 --> 01:01:14,240
Speaker 2: all right BYEP goes on the line, taking your phone

1186
01:01:14,280 --> 01:01:17,720
Speaker 2: calls every night. The beacon goes to his eye. You're

1187
01:01:17,720 --> 01:01:19,720
Speaker 2: just teaching you about in the mid of your life,

1188
01:01:20,120 --> 01:01:23,000
Speaker 2: but he's not really an expert.