WEBVTT - EP 368: Catching Trans Chasers (Ft. TS Madison)

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<v Speaker 1>Guess what decision We're about to make? Horrible decision? How

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<v Speaker 1>do everybody?

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<v Speaker 2>We are the Horrible Decisions Podcast and we're going to

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<v Speaker 2>be in Dallas, Texas. Memorial Day weekend, bitch is a Sunday.

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<v Speaker 2>We're gonna be headlining the two Togetherland Festival.

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<v Speaker 1>And you bitches better now how no motherfucker work on Sunday?

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<v Speaker 1>Call out? Ho?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean you could do that, but also it's a

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<v Speaker 2>three day weekend. They have Monday off. We will see

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<v Speaker 2>you guys in Dallas, Texas at the together Land Festival.

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<v Speaker 2>Make sure you get your tickets now. We will be

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<v Speaker 2>that Horrible Decisions today Maybe is the motherfucking Florida y'all

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<v Speaker 2>know we some Florida bitches here and we are joined

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<v Speaker 2>by being Florida bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, the big dig.

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<v Speaker 3>Bitch, the big dig bitches Day County.

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<v Speaker 1>Now hold on, now you know we some fall seven

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<v Speaker 1>Chapa City girls.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, you are from the real city of Florida, though

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<v Speaker 2>not be in the real city of US are technically Jacksonville.

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<v Speaker 1>Is the capital. Technically wait what's teas, it is not.

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<v Speaker 3>More for the record, I just want to let it

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<v Speaker 3>be known that day County is its own thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, you can't fear your tells us every count

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<v Speaker 1>We're not even in Florida. We just in DA.

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<v Speaker 2>We have to tell y'all who we have in ability

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<v Speaker 2>because it's years overdue.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, yes, overdue.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes we are with the one and only everybody's favorite

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<v Speaker 2>Internet personality, everybody's favorite.

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<v Speaker 1>Comedian and just all of it.

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<v Speaker 2>We just love who you are, and I think seeing

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<v Speaker 2>you over the years, even though you're a common section,

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<v Speaker 2>they're like, oh my god, bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>Where are you now? This is what Gatala is.

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<v Speaker 2>This just your growth and everything, and it's like you've

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<v Speaker 2>always been beautiful, but now just glowing and shining. Gods,

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<v Speaker 2>t asked ass.

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<v Speaker 3>Tea ass. Let me tell y'all something I have watched you, ladies.

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<v Speaker 3>I have watched the way that you have had guests

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<v Speaker 3>on your show, certain guests, not certain guests, certain, yes,

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<v Speaker 3>not certain guests. And I love the way that you

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<v Speaker 3>you your ladies, hold your own I love the way

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<v Speaker 3>that you you stand and who you are, and I

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<v Speaker 3>love the way that you get on social media and you

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<v Speaker 3>don't give a fuck who called and you call it, oh, hello, Andrew,

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<v Speaker 3>and and and that's what's something. That's the type of

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<v Speaker 3>energy that I've I've always been on. Your energy is

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<v Speaker 3>as always well.

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<v Speaker 2>And at this point, it probably is something in the

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<v Speaker 2>water in Florida.

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<v Speaker 1>It's Florida. You know, it's the Florida's Florida water.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just I did want to start there because you

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<v Speaker 2>do have and we're gonna go through all types of

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<v Speaker 2>topics today, y'all. I do have an outline. We're gonna

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<v Speaker 2>get into it. But I know we can talk. We've

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<v Speaker 2>been needing to talk. Yes, So let's start with Florida

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<v Speaker 2>because you have an experience in Orlando.

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<v Speaker 1>You brought up, you brought up somewhere that I.

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<v Speaker 2>Listen to give the line text, y'all listen. In Orlando, Florida,

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<v Speaker 2>there's a place called Orange Blossom Trail.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's what y'all call it. No, I called obt. Oh,

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<v Speaker 1>it's just obt damn what I do, my little news

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<v Speaker 1>banker Bob. And there's the trail.

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<v Speaker 2>There's a street, there's a road. There's a section called

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<v Speaker 2>Orange Blossom Trail. And when you're looking for a certain

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<v Speaker 2>type of lady, you go find them hose on the trail.

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<v Speaker 1>The hose on the trail.

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<v Speaker 2>And when Maby just said, oh, I used to be

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<v Speaker 2>on ALBT Okay, So wait, I grew up Oakridge, well,

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<v Speaker 2>Oakridge and OBT. And what's crazy is my mom didn't

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<v Speaker 2>talk to me about sex with boys, didn't talk to

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<v Speaker 2>me about drugs. But baby, I was five years old

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<v Speaker 2>and knew what the women on the trail were and

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<v Speaker 2>what they were doing there.

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<v Speaker 1>And was getting to the money. So my mom.

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<v Speaker 2>Literally, now that I think about it, we should have

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<v Speaker 2>to talk. She talked to me about prostitution before anything

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<v Speaker 2>else in life. Look at us now taking this money, right,

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<v Speaker 2>so what was Let's start there because it like who

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<v Speaker 2>you are now and we're gonna get into that.

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<v Speaker 3>But where you listen, here's the thing. Here's the thing, ladies,

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<v Speaker 3>I want to tell y'all that I am. I'm never

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<v Speaker 3>going to shy away from talking about my beginnings because

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<v Speaker 3>you have to be able to talk to people about

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<v Speaker 3>where it began, because they look at you now and

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<v Speaker 3>they say, uh, you know, like you up at e

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<v Speaker 3>or you just because I say because I tell a

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<v Speaker 3>bit I'm rich or h I say stuff like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't go past roll six on the plane, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>or I'm always a black car. I must be black cart,

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<v Speaker 3>you know. But I used to be broke, I was homeless,

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<v Speaker 3>I was I was a hooker on the on the sidewalk.

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<v Speaker 3>And I have no shame or anything about any of

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<v Speaker 3>that stuff, because it's never where you start. It's where

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<v Speaker 3>your trajectory goes. And for me when I was back then,

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<v Speaker 3>I transitioned around about seventeen years old, okay, seventeen eighteen,

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<v Speaker 3>like kind of right out of high school.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>I've only known being a boy up until about eighteen,

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm kind of glad that I have the opportunity

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<v Speaker 3>to transition later on because I've had the experienced life

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<v Speaker 3>as a gay male and now as a trans woman,

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<v Speaker 3>you know. And so because I know we might get

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<v Speaker 3>into questions where people ask, like, well, how when did

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<v Speaker 3>you know?

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<v Speaker 1>I've always known.

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<v Speaker 3>I've always known, But I'm glad that I have the

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<v Speaker 3>opportunity to experience life, you know, in all of its phases.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm going to be forty seven this year, so that'll

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<v Speaker 3>be me thirty years into transition. I do and do

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<v Speaker 3>beautiful hello and is passable you know, you know, but

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't want that life for me. That's not what

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<v Speaker 3>I wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>I used to look down on strippers and hookers. I

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<v Speaker 3>used to because I'm from a Christian house and so,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, your mama raised you up into, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>being an upstanding you know.

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<v Speaker 1>But when you're growing up.

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<v Speaker 3>And you're having like a lot of battles with on

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<v Speaker 3>on the inside, and you're trying to figure out, like

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<v Speaker 3>what's going on?

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<v Speaker 1>Like why am I not I have brothers? Like why

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<v Speaker 1>am I not like my brother?

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<v Speaker 4>So?

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<v Speaker 1>Why am I not like my cousins? Like what's what's wrong?

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<v Speaker 1>Like what's why? Do why not? Why? When? Why? When

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<v Speaker 1>men are having conversations about women around me, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't see that boy over there?

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<v Speaker 3>You know what I'm saying, Or like you know you

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<v Speaker 3>don't like I don't. I don't look at women. I've

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<v Speaker 3>always found women to be extremely attractive. Like I can

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<v Speaker 3>sit here and look at how gorgeous both of you

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<v Speaker 3>ladies are, and everywhere I go when I see gorgeous ladies,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm like, damn. Like even my friend and I when

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<v Speaker 3>we be in the car, we be out somewhere or whatever,

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<v Speaker 3>and both of us be looking at girls liked yang.

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<v Speaker 3>He's bad, you know, because you ain't ever, but I

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<v Speaker 3>don't have any sexual attraction and you but you knew

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<v Speaker 3>that early on there.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, and I knew that, Okay, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know that I knew when you said, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>always look down on strippers and sex workers, like people

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<v Speaker 2>many people that ended up falling into this life. Do

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<v Speaker 2>you think that when you started a prostitution and it

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<v Speaker 2>was because of being trans.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, and it was. And because I'm from you got

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<v Speaker 3>to remember, we're in twenty twenty four, thirty years ago,

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<v Speaker 3>and I was seventeen, what was thirty years from nineteen

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<v Speaker 3>ninety something, so we were still in a ninety four.

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<v Speaker 3>We were still in a time.

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<v Speaker 1>Of and it was bourbage then transsexual, oh honey, cross

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<v Speaker 1>dressed rode. You know, the language around it was completely

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<v Speaker 1>completely different.

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<v Speaker 3>Like all of the new age terms that we have now,

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<v Speaker 3>like the new age of blossoming and understanding things. We

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<v Speaker 3>didn't have any of that because there was nobody that

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<v Speaker 3>was willing or even wanted to understand that. Because we've

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<v Speaker 3>been in the shadows for so long, you know, and

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<v Speaker 3>so and so.

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<v Speaker 2>Going into that was was it because it seventeen eighteen

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<v Speaker 2>years old.

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<v Speaker 1>You're transitioning.

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<v Speaker 2>Were you going to the mall in different places and

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<v Speaker 2>they just wouldn't hire you because of how you were presenting?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, it was it was definitely because of how it

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<v Speaker 3>was presenting. And then I actually found lace that let

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<v Speaker 3>that allowed me to come to work. I remember my

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<v Speaker 3>first job in transition. I worked at publics.

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<v Speaker 1>Y'all.

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<v Speaker 3>Publics, y'all don't like the Okay, I mean, I still

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<v Speaker 3>eat their son. But here's the thing, here's the thing.

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<v Speaker 3>I worked at publics and I remember me being the

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<v Speaker 3>first male cashier that they would hire. They was the

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<v Speaker 3>first male they had. It was always women at the

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<v Speaker 3>counter and the men did and the men did the stocking.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like stocking, I wear them stocking. Are you

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<v Speaker 3>crazy girl now? And so, uh girl, this is crazy.

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<v Speaker 3>I remember having an altercation with a customer at the counter

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<v Speaker 3>and she was so irate. She told my manager that

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<v Speaker 3>was standing up there to the front, she said.

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<v Speaker 1>Why don't you reprimand this lady, this lady is so

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<v Speaker 1>rude and ness.

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<v Speaker 3>Because I was just paying that whole dust that was

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<v Speaker 3>over her with all those fucking coupons, and so she said,

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<v Speaker 3>why don't.

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<v Speaker 1>You reprimand her she's so rude and da da da.

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<v Speaker 3>And so my manager was like, who are you talking about?

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<v Speaker 3>And she was like the lady, this lady right here,

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<v Speaker 3>and he turned he was flushed, turn red. I read it, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>and was like, ma'am, that is not a lady.

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<v Speaker 1>Did that at the time make you feel good or worse?

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<v Speaker 3>At the time, I was said, fuck that puss sass

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<v Speaker 3>puss sass as pussayss cust some way, and the mother

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<v Speaker 3>fucking the fuck you pussa ass old you know. But

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<v Speaker 3>I wasn't thinking about it because I didn't know anything

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<v Speaker 3>except for I knew who I was, so I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>know how to feel, like the validation or whatever. I

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<v Speaker 3>just like, girluck because I knew I was was real

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<v Speaker 3>as clocky as I was.

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<v Speaker 1>I knew I was still real. I knew that girl.

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<v Speaker 3>So they took me to the office in the back

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<v Speaker 3>or whatever, and they was like, uh, because my name,

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<v Speaker 3>my former name was Timothy, and I'm open about all

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<v Speaker 3>this stuff. So you know I'm open about that because

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<v Speaker 3>I've lived my life in the public, y'all. Somebody could

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<v Speaker 3>google it. Oh listen, I'm gonna tell you, like my

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<v Speaker 3>name was Timothy, and so they the uh, the manager

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<v Speaker 3>was like, Timothy, you're gonna have to come in here.

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<v Speaker 1>You gotta You're gonna have to. You're gonna have to.

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<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have to. You're gonna have to. That's what

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<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have to, like be more Timothy. Yeah, you're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna have to be more Timothy.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, You're gonna have to. So I'm like, bitch, how

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<v Speaker 3>do I do that? Like my hair with like my

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<v Speaker 3>hair with my hair was permed. I had my hair

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<v Speaker 3>back in the poem you wear little ear rings or whatever,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Had did your makeup? Were you doing makeup?

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<v Speaker 3>It was a little bit. I didn't know too much,

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<v Speaker 3>you know. I just knew that I was in the

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<v Speaker 3>in the in the position to change, right, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>And so you know, I was like, how do I

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<v Speaker 1>do that? Like what the fuck do I do? Like?

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<v Speaker 3>You know, and so, you know, we kept having these problems,

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<v Speaker 3>and I took my h I took a yellow sticky

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<v Speaker 3>tab and I covered up Timothy and put Chanell on that. Wow,

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<v Speaker 3>because that was my name, Chanelle. So I put Chanel

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<v Speaker 3>on top of the the Timothy thing over there. And

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<v Speaker 3>so they were they it was just stuff and that

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<v Speaker 3>was irritating them, and they was like, well, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>we can't we go.

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<v Speaker 1>They let me go because you wouldn't be more Timothy,

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<v Speaker 1>because I wann't be more Timothy.

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<v Speaker 3>That was my first time being let go because of

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<v Speaker 3>that that Publics. Yeah, wow, that was my first time. Well,

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know if it was Public's policy, but you know,

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<v Speaker 3>because here's the thing where we have to here's the

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<v Speaker 3>thing because I'm gonna tell y'all a story.

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<v Speaker 1>But here's the thing.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know if it was public publics is policy,

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<v Speaker 3>but you know, the people that worked there wor they

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<v Speaker 3>felt some type of way because Publics hired me.

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<v Speaker 1>But I did put Timothy on the application, girl, But

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<v Speaker 1>I did come in, but I didn't come in. I

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<v Speaker 1>did come inmoth, but I did come in.

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<v Speaker 3>It's who I was, So it wasn't I didn't do

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<v Speaker 3>anything that was different. I just came in who it

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<v Speaker 3>was so fast forward were uh, and then it didn't

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<v Speaker 3>help any of that boys used to come up there

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<v Speaker 3>to the job.

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<v Speaker 1>Now while you was having men come up to the job, girl.

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<v Speaker 3>But see, this is what y'all gotta understand. I want

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<v Speaker 3>y'all ladies to understand this. I really want ladies and

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<v Speaker 3>the and the people out there that are watching to

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<v Speaker 3>understand this.

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<v Speaker 1>And this is real ship. Trans women have an aura.

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<v Speaker 3>About them as beautiful as women are. This is why

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<v Speaker 3>I have I don't feel any competition with any women.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't feel any way about any woman.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't have any deep rooted, any feeling towards any

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<v Speaker 3>woman because especially when it comes down to men, because

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<v Speaker 3>trans women have this thing. And I figured this out

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<v Speaker 3>the older that I got, we have this thing that

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<v Speaker 3>it just draws men. We're not real. Hold on, let

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<v Speaker 3>me get somebody gonna fuck me up. You already know

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<v Speaker 3>that it's right, Ye, we're real people. But I want

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<v Speaker 3>to use this in a way because this is how

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<v Speaker 3>women like to say.

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<v Speaker 1>You ain't real. You're not a real woman.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, right, We're not you know, according to you know,

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<v Speaker 3>the way that women like to say you're not real.

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<v Speaker 1>Gotta get that in there. And it don't matter. That's

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<v Speaker 1>the thing that it don't matter. It does not matter

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<v Speaker 1>if we're real or not to men. To men, it

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<v Speaker 1>does not matter. Is it the fantasy.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know if it's the fantasy, it's just the drawing. Listen,

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<v Speaker 3>those people, the boys would come through my line and

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<v Speaker 3>it would be.

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's the intrigue, the intriguing of what are you?

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<v Speaker 1>And I was younger then, you know, very young, just

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<v Speaker 1>like what are you? Do you find that? And again

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<v Speaker 1>today I really want to clear that real thing up.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 3>No, I mean I don't want the trans community. No,

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<v Speaker 3>even though I am a part of the trades community,

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<v Speaker 3>I may say things that and I want to say

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<v Speaker 3>this too, I may say things that may not align

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<v Speaker 3>with with the with the whole ideology of every everybody

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<v Speaker 3>in the community.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not and that's listen, Flaming Road right, he'll be

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<v Speaker 2>like Blaming Road came on and said the things she said.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, you don't be a flame counting the same.

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<v Speaker 3>We different with stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>But we also just had Danielle and Dominikon who have

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<v Speaker 2>who did a wonderful, wonderful Cocomo City documentary their experience

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<v Speaker 2>and sex work, and people disagreed with the things they said.

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<v Speaker 2>So at the end of the day, you're never gonna

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<v Speaker 2>please I know, but I just.

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<v Speaker 3>Want to make sure that I don't say like I

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<v Speaker 3>don't want to, I don't want to say that we're

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<v Speaker 3>not real, Like now, we're not real people, We're not real.

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<v Speaker 3>I just want to say it in the in the

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<v Speaker 3>in the aspect of women. This this is the this

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<v Speaker 3>is what I'm when I'm having an altercation with women,

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<v Speaker 3>a verbal alter the first thing, because you're not real.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, you're not a real woman. You'll never be a

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<v Speaker 1>real one.

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<v Speaker 2>They want to go straight to calling bitch is back single,

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<v Speaker 2>you ain't got kids. It's crazy though, because what you

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<v Speaker 2>said is when when you said that, men are like,

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<v Speaker 2>what are you like?

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<v Speaker 1>The fascination? Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I was talking to a few friends of mine actually

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<v Speaker 2>who have played ball overseas, specifically in Asia, which one

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<v Speaker 2>girl will talk about it out there, but there's a

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<v Speaker 2>few of them that let me know that when you

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<v Speaker 2>make a certain caliber of money, especially like the politicians,

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<v Speaker 2>the really rich and wealthy people even in to buy

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<v Speaker 2>all over their Middle East and in Asia, they go

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<v Speaker 2>to trans women like going to even the strip clubs

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<v Speaker 2>and things in Thailand there's the lady boys.

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<v Speaker 1>Are regular girls really don't They may not do it

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<v Speaker 1>in time.

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<v Speaker 2>The lady boys are like what is what the men

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<v Speaker 2>are drawing the lady girls. I think having that experience

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<v Speaker 2>over there and having people talk about trans women. And

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<v Speaker 2>this is when I studied abroad. I was what twenty five,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm thirty three now, but having those conversations and hearing

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<v Speaker 2>men speak about them and dat men who were into

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<v Speaker 2>trans women Like I hat a friend that was drinking

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<v Speaker 2>himself to death because he didn't feel like he would

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<v Speaker 2>be accepted by his parents by it. Took him to

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<v Speaker 2>the club, took him to the show that got bleaked

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<v Speaker 2>out last time.

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<v Speaker 1>Apparently I can't, you know, promote it. But yeah, like

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<v Speaker 1>you're talking about no, no, no, no, no no, wait, I

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<v Speaker 1>just passed that. Is that?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you're telling me something I don't know? Gird that's

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<v Speaker 2>right down the street for our nights.

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<v Speaker 1>I heard that Thursday night.

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<v Speaker 2>That's what I heard on next Thursday. Okay, even always

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<v Speaker 2>tea girl Thursday?

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<v Speaker 4>Is?

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<v Speaker 1>Why is it always Thursdays? Is that a thing? Is

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<v Speaker 1>it the team? Because white? Why? I don't? I have

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<v Speaker 1>no idea, but that night is always on Thursday. That's

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<v Speaker 1>what I heard. The country. I would I wouldn't set

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<v Speaker 1>foot in their honey. Okay, I've graduated from that that life,

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<v Speaker 1>but then I'm not looking watching have you have you

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<v Speaker 1>worked in those environments before, and how did difference I've

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<v Speaker 1>hosted like I've hosted that, I've hosted like I've like

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<v Speaker 1>I hosted an event in the in the clubs, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>but but I'm never gonna work in there because I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like that I'm more listen. I paved the way

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<v Speaker 1>for those girls to be who.

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<v Speaker 2>They are, and so I want to take a step back, then,

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<v Speaker 2>because navigating them from going to the streets to having

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<v Speaker 2>your own production company and shooting your own Yes, Like,

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<v Speaker 2>how'd you go from from OBT to.

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<v Speaker 1>Can we start at OBT?

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<v Speaker 3>It was no, it was seventy ninth Street then ob

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<v Speaker 3>because baby, we listen when Miami would listen when Miami

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<v Speaker 3>wasn't having a good week off of seventy nine.

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<v Speaker 2>We want to hear about the culture of this because

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<v Speaker 2>today street walking is the most low.

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<v Speaker 1>Brown ship to anybody.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they don't want to either talk about it or

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<v Speaker 2>it's something that men won't even engage it. Yeah, right,

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<v Speaker 2>because it's so because it's so easy tone the website,

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<v Speaker 2>find them on websites now, So.

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<v Speaker 3>Tell us what it was like to then. And this

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<v Speaker 3>is what I tell you, This is what I tell

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<v Speaker 3>my daughters now. Because I call my daughters. I tell

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<v Speaker 3>my daughters. Now I'll be like, girl, y'all don't know anything.

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<v Speaker 3>The street walk, that street walk in life was. I

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<v Speaker 3>tell you that I've had some of the best sex

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<v Speaker 3>on the hood of a cargo. Stop it behind the

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<v Speaker 3>dumpster the KFC. Girl, Honey, I could see it well

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<v Speaker 3>because I and that's what made me have these fantasies

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<v Speaker 3>about men having their pants around their ankles. Girl, you

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<v Speaker 3>got to hear it and go listen. Even when I'm

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<v Speaker 3>in a relationship with a man, I love him to

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<v Speaker 3>to fuck me like a horror.

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<v Speaker 1>I need that. I know a horror. Give details. What

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<v Speaker 1>is being fun like a baby pulling the pants around

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<v Speaker 1>their ankle. Let me tell they did. Let me so

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<v Speaker 1>you're not getting all the way.

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<v Speaker 3>They just come fuck. Just trash me out. We could

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<v Speaker 3>we could cuddle after it's done, because you're my husband.

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<v Speaker 3>But don't trash me out. Trash me out.

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<v Speaker 2>Tell me about a time that you felt like it

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<v Speaker 2>was getting too crazy, like someone had too wild.

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<v Speaker 1>Request.

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<v Speaker 3>Here's the thing, right, So I'm gonna take you from

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<v Speaker 3>publics down this lane.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to go. So we so I got fired

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<v Speaker 1>from the publics, you know, and and because boys used

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<v Speaker 1>to come up there to the to the fucking job

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<v Speaker 1>like it was a boy used to ride his bicycle

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<v Speaker 1>up there and just buy eggs or some ship. And

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<v Speaker 1>I used to be like what you is? What what

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<v Speaker 1>you is? And I'm like what what you is? You know?

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<v Speaker 3>And so we ended up, you know, getting into some things.

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<v Speaker 3>And uh, he came to my house on the bike

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<v Speaker 3>when one night he gave me fifty dollars and I

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<v Speaker 3>was like, well, why did you give me fifty dollars?

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<v Speaker 1>Now I'm young, so I don't know. You know, I've

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<v Speaker 1>moved out. I'm older, yes, a little bit, a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit older, but I've moved out because my mom was like,

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<v Speaker 1>you can't be in my house. You know, I have

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<v Speaker 1>sons in here. I got other sons, So you can't

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<v Speaker 1>be in here with this stuff. On one Wow, I

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<v Speaker 1>can't do it. And I was like, because I ain't him,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not here.

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<v Speaker 3>To great, I'm not there. I'm not I'm not that boy,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm that girl. And so you know, like I'm fast

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<v Speaker 3>forwarding because I know. So he came, he gave me

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<v Speaker 3>fifty dollars off like from a bike.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, what you give me fifty dollars for I

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<v Speaker 1>just felt like this, I want to give you some money.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh, because I know they let you

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<v Speaker 1>go from the job. But they did fire me because

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<v Speaker 1>of course you because you were you were coming up

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<v Speaker 1>there to the place. And uh, you know, then my

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<v Speaker 1>gay mama, you know, we we have our family. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>my gay mama.

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<v Speaker 3>Was uh, she was in the business. And I didn't

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<v Speaker 3>know what none of this stuff was was. And so

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<v Speaker 3>my next encounter was was with a threesome with her

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<v Speaker 3>and the guy. Because you know, I'm I'm a well

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<v Speaker 3>endowed girl. And yah, we're not saying big big just

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<v Speaker 3>because I'm a well and dowed girl. And so the

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<v Speaker 3>guy was requesting at the time that she, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>have another well and down girl. And so they knew

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<v Speaker 3>that I was a welling dow girl. And so I

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<v Speaker 3>went down there whatever, and we we had a three

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<v Speaker 3>and then that she gave me money.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, how much? How much? Back then? What she

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<v Speaker 1>gave me? One hundred dollars?

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't know what, Like, yeah, I didn't know, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>but she gave me a hundred. So I'm like, you know, so,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, so I'm slowly introduced into prostitution. But I'm

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<v Speaker 3>still trying to be in and out of drag because

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<v Speaker 3>now I'm out on my own, so I have to work,

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<v Speaker 3>you know. So I'm trying to, you know, work at

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<v Speaker 3>different places to pay my rent, you know. And we

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<v Speaker 3>used to ride out on the beat and I would

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<v Speaker 3>see other trends, Like I'm from down south. I used

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<v Speaker 3>to drive up north and I would see all these

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<v Speaker 3>other trans women and they were having like these bathing

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<v Speaker 3>suits and ship like that. I was like, they were

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<v Speaker 3>so much more advanced, and I was.

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<v Speaker 1>Like, these are man. Excuse me, right, I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>keep doing this.

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<v Speaker 2>And I feel like it's so important because PC language,

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<v Speaker 2>we get it, we know it.

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<v Speaker 1>But I love learning where you started.

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<v Speaker 3>And so I'm just gonna make this. I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 3>keep doing this. I'm just gonna tell my motherfucker please please.

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<v Speaker 2>See the men were gay if they wanted anal sex,

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<v Speaker 2>and now I'll be asking for it once a quarter,

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<v Speaker 2>you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So here we go.

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<v Speaker 3>I love advanced I love advanced women. So let's get

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<v Speaker 3>into and so, you know, bitch, let.

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<v Speaker 1>Me get these checks. I was like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>these are man, these are man, like, how did this happen.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to do. I want more, like you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. I want to be passed. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to be you know. But I'm like, why are they

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<v Speaker 1>selling their bodies on the street? Like why are you walking?

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<v Speaker 1>You didn'tstand, I didn't really like why are y'all prostitutes

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<v Speaker 1>on the street? Like what's what's going on here? Looks

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<v Speaker 1>so good?

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<v Speaker 3>That's yeah, Like what's like why y'all ain't got no

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<v Speaker 3>man taking care of you? Like, you know what I'm saying,

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<v Speaker 3>Like you there's no way possible that you are am

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<v Speaker 3>in you know, because you so you know, child, going

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<v Speaker 3>through the life, getting involved, getting work, getting the things,

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<v Speaker 3>advancing more, and it's just like you get to the

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<v Speaker 3>job and you've advanced more, your titties are big, your

0:23:19.520 --> 0:23:22.080
<v Speaker 3>hips is big, and you guming that bitch and at

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<v Speaker 3>the time, and I'm a floorda bitch, right, So I

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<v Speaker 3>didn't change my name at the time. I just celebrated

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<v Speaker 3>my one year anniversary on the eighteenth of April for

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<v Speaker 3>changing my name really legally, you just said that at

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<v Speaker 3>forty six.

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<v Speaker 1>Really what took you? Song? My mom?

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<v Speaker 2>Can you explain a little bit more about it? I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't want to.

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<v Speaker 1>I felt I didn't want to disrespect her. Okay, I

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<v Speaker 1>have a very close relationship with my mom. I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want to disrespect her because I felt that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>she gave me that and I was hers and she

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<v Speaker 1>gave me that name. And then you know, and you know,

0:24:02.640 --> 0:24:05.359
<v Speaker 1>she said that that Timothy means honor God, and you

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<v Speaker 1>know all this stuff, you know. So I struggled with

0:24:07.600 --> 0:24:09.040
<v Speaker 1>that for a very long time. I even did it

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<v Speaker 1>even on my television show. I talked to her about it,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, because did you go and finally what was

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<v Speaker 1>the conversation?

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<v Speaker 3>Then to ask on the television on the television show,

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<v Speaker 3>I talked to her, I said, Mommy, I've been living

0:24:20.440 --> 0:24:23.040
<v Speaker 3>this life and which television show on my own television show,

0:24:23.640 --> 0:24:27.040
<v Speaker 3>my own television show, the TS Madison Experience, the experience

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<v Speaker 3>I have the first black transgender woman to executive produce

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<v Speaker 3>and start in her own reality on Earth.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's go on we TV, Let's go, Let's go on Earth.

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<v Speaker 2>So you have this conversation life, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>On TV.

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<v Speaker 3>And so I'm telling her, like, you know, I need to,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, and then even after the show wrapped and

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<v Speaker 3>then and we we were finished or whatever, I still

0:24:47.440 --> 0:24:50.760
<v Speaker 3>didn't go do it. Wow, it was only to right

0:24:50.880 --> 0:24:54.439
<v Speaker 3>up until recently where the where where the legislations are

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<v Speaker 3>changing everything. It's anti trans and anti d you know,

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<v Speaker 3>so yeah, anti trans lost and I'm and I say

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<v Speaker 3>this with with with humility, I'm a passable trans woman

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<v Speaker 3>and so you know, I when I pull out my ID,

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<v Speaker 3>I used to do it for shock value, like hey, Timothy,

0:25:11.080 --> 0:25:13.200
<v Speaker 3>but now it's just like you know, and cause you

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<v Speaker 3>be like you know, but now when I pull out

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<v Speaker 3>my ID, like no one's paying it any attention. And

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<v Speaker 3>the only reason why people know a lot about me

0:25:20.080 --> 0:25:22.359
<v Speaker 3>is because one day know big dig bitch dot com, right,

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<v Speaker 3>or two because I'm famous for other for other things

0:25:25.840 --> 0:25:28.000
<v Speaker 3>and big dig bitch dot com. But if I was

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<v Speaker 3>just strolling through, you ain't. Just you're not thinking twice

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<v Speaker 3>about me being born male?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, seeing you.

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<v Speaker 2>Get emotional just now, like I could see you tearing

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<v Speaker 2>up there thinking me want to tear up and talking

0:25:38.119 --> 0:25:40.800
<v Speaker 2>about the respect that you have for your mom. I've

0:25:40.840 --> 0:25:44.160
<v Speaker 2>been loving watching throw out a Carmichael show, not because

0:25:44.160 --> 0:25:46.399
<v Speaker 2>I'm enjoying him so much, but just kind of this

0:25:46.480 --> 0:25:48.640
<v Speaker 2>like mental breakdown to get to see. Yeah, but one

0:25:48.640 --> 0:25:51.600
<v Speaker 2>of the things that's so difficult to watch is his

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<v Speaker 2>respect with his mom. Yeah, and so just to know

0:25:56.080 --> 0:25:58.080
<v Speaker 2>how much you've been through and how important you are

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<v Speaker 2>in the community for.

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<v Speaker 1>People to respect your mom this many years and hold that.

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<v Speaker 2>It just really shows me that a lot of people

0:26:06.160 --> 0:26:09.639
<v Speaker 2>can be selfish with their queerness. They're coming out, and

0:26:09.680 --> 0:26:11.800
<v Speaker 2>I think we've got to give parents a little more grace.

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<v Speaker 2>So that's why when you were saying, I'm not saying

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<v Speaker 2>this to anybody, I almost feel like I'm even going

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<v Speaker 2>in the reverse because I understand that, like other people

0:26:19.720 --> 0:26:22.359
<v Speaker 2>are moving slower, and I don't want to shit on

0:26:22.400 --> 0:26:24.639
<v Speaker 2>them because they're not where weird at. And I feel

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<v Speaker 2>like we shunned so many people away because we're forcing

0:26:27.600 --> 0:26:31.760
<v Speaker 2>them to be here with us. I'm weird with the

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<v Speaker 2>word grace, and I want to dig into do you

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<v Speaker 2>not feel or was there a conversation because you were

0:26:39.680 --> 0:26:43.840
<v Speaker 2>pushed out of the home because of your transition. Is

0:26:43.880 --> 0:26:48.159
<v Speaker 2>there not any blame or anger that you have for

0:26:48.359 --> 0:26:50.919
<v Speaker 2>that experience with having to go on the trail and

0:26:51.040 --> 0:26:53.520
<v Speaker 2>having to go through sex work and having to have

0:26:53.600 --> 0:26:58.760
<v Speaker 2>that experience because she judged you in that moment when

0:26:58.800 --> 0:27:02.040
<v Speaker 2>I was younger, made okay because you get over that too.

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<v Speaker 1>Well. I the way it helped me get past it

0:27:06.080 --> 0:27:11.159
<v Speaker 1>was I had to put myself in her shoes and this, like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, my mother is a devout Christian and me

0:27:16.000 --> 0:27:20.320
<v Speaker 1>was a huge challenge me. Okay, that's a challenge to

0:27:20.359 --> 0:27:23.160
<v Speaker 1>a Christian. Yes, how can you love God? How can

0:27:23.200 --> 0:27:25.800
<v Speaker 1>you win souls? How can you just you can't even

0:27:25.840 --> 0:27:26.800
<v Speaker 1>save your own child?

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<v Speaker 3>Right, I'm on now, this is this is me now

0:27:32.720 --> 0:27:35.520
<v Speaker 3>thinking then, I was, you know, mad, and I was

0:27:35.560 --> 0:27:39.160
<v Speaker 3>just like, well, I'm gonna it's me and fuck y'all.

0:27:40.040 --> 0:27:42.080
<v Speaker 3>You know what I'm saying, Fuck all, y'all, I'm gonna

0:27:42.080 --> 0:27:43.200
<v Speaker 3>get out here, I'm gonna work.

0:27:43.320 --> 0:27:46.560
<v Speaker 1>You know, I'm a whatever. You know now, I'm a

0:27:46.600 --> 0:27:48.680
<v Speaker 1>whore hooker. I didn't want to do I didn't want

0:27:48.680 --> 0:27:49.960
<v Speaker 1>to do any of that. None of that.

0:27:50.600 --> 0:27:52.679
<v Speaker 3>I didn't want to do any of that. So I

0:27:52.720 --> 0:27:54.159
<v Speaker 3>wanted the people that are out there to watch it

0:27:54.200 --> 0:27:56.720
<v Speaker 3>to know that was not my life choice. I did

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<v Speaker 3>not want to do that. However, at forty and now

0:28:01.600 --> 0:28:05.879
<v Speaker 3>looking that was a path that was carved out for

0:28:06.000 --> 0:28:12.320
<v Speaker 3>me from the creator. And when I think about it

0:28:12.400 --> 0:28:19.000
<v Speaker 3>in this space, I think about how many people have

0:28:19.080 --> 0:28:22.639
<v Speaker 3>watched me, from you ladies, to other trans women to

0:28:23.560 --> 0:28:27.840
<v Speaker 3>hetero so many heterosexual people to superstars. It is whose

0:28:28.200 --> 0:28:33.640
<v Speaker 3>lives that I've changed just by me existing. And so

0:28:35.160 --> 0:28:38.760
<v Speaker 3>when I get to the space that I am now

0:28:38.760 --> 0:28:43.160
<v Speaker 3>to occupy lots of public, big platforms, television and all

0:28:43.200 --> 0:28:46.520
<v Speaker 3>that type of stuff. If I didn't have any of that,

0:28:47.400 --> 0:28:53.040
<v Speaker 3>yeah testimony, I wouldn't have no story to tell or

0:28:53.080 --> 0:28:56.200
<v Speaker 3>to I wouldn't have a place to help deliver other people.

0:28:57.120 --> 0:28:59.840
<v Speaker 1>So I've gotten to a place in my life now

0:29:02.400 --> 0:29:06.480
<v Speaker 1>just recently, and I still have my struggle moments where

0:29:06.520 --> 0:29:09.680
<v Speaker 1>I understand that the journey has really nothing to do

0:29:09.760 --> 0:29:14.120
<v Speaker 1>with me. And when you're called on a journey to

0:29:14.200 --> 0:29:21.360
<v Speaker 1>do something from the Creator, it has it's it has

0:29:21.360 --> 0:29:24.920
<v Speaker 1>its role. Right, So I'm not mad at my mother. Okay,

0:29:25.080 --> 0:29:28.040
<v Speaker 1>she only did what was supposed to do with what

0:29:28.280 --> 0:29:30.160
<v Speaker 1>she knew, what she knew to do, and she had

0:29:30.200 --> 0:29:33.280
<v Speaker 1>to say goodbye it. Yes, she did what was she

0:29:33.280 --> 0:29:37.240
<v Speaker 1>had to do and what the Creator put me inside

0:29:37.240 --> 0:29:40.880
<v Speaker 1>of her to do for the world. She didn't know

0:29:40.920 --> 0:29:43.840
<v Speaker 1>that she had to have that difficult journey. I didn't

0:29:43.880 --> 0:29:47.120
<v Speaker 1>know that, you know, I didn't start realizing that there

0:29:47.200 --> 0:29:52.480
<v Speaker 1>was purpose behind me until twenty fourteen. I know that

0:29:52.600 --> 0:29:55.000
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know that Big Dig Bitch dot com or

0:29:55.120 --> 0:29:58.000
<v Speaker 1>do what it did. Like I was a millionaire when

0:29:58.040 --> 0:30:00.600
<v Speaker 1>I was in my twenty foot did Big Dig Bitch

0:30:00.600 --> 0:30:01.600
<v Speaker 1>for nobody?

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<v Speaker 3>Dot Com was an adult pace site that I created

0:30:04.880 --> 0:30:06.800
<v Speaker 3>when I was home little girl girl.

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<v Speaker 1>I listened, y'all, but what was that your So I

0:30:09.640 --> 0:30:13.320
<v Speaker 1>want to tell you the one scene what I did.

0:30:13.520 --> 0:30:15.600
<v Speaker 2>I was in the back of like a really big house.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if it was your house mine, Okay,

0:30:18.280 --> 0:30:20.880
<v Speaker 2>and it was and and it was weird because you

0:30:20.920 --> 0:30:22.560
<v Speaker 2>shot at it at night time.

0:30:23.080 --> 0:30:24.920
<v Speaker 1>But I remember you laid something out.

0:30:25.040 --> 0:30:26.840
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, but you was sucking this fine, light

0:30:26.880 --> 0:30:29.080
<v Speaker 2>skinned man and I think he out of head brains.

0:30:29.080 --> 0:30:32.400
<v Speaker 2>Do you know the scene I'm talking about? Oh my god,

0:30:33.120 --> 0:30:34.719
<v Speaker 2>he do you remember?

0:30:34.840 --> 0:30:35.000
<v Speaker 1>You?

0:30:35.000 --> 0:30:37.880
<v Speaker 2>You know exactly the se and I was like, this

0:30:38.040 --> 0:30:42.160
<v Speaker 2>is shot so but you got up on top rolled him.

0:30:43.880 --> 0:30:48.200
<v Speaker 3>I laid it was like a with mosquitos and ship outside.

0:30:48.640 --> 0:30:52.960
<v Speaker 1>It was so homemade. But the man was dick was big.

0:30:53.080 --> 0:30:56.200
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I paved the way for these only

0:30:56.320 --> 0:31:00.600
<v Speaker 1>fan girls talk ship. I did well in you and

0:31:00.640 --> 0:31:03.320
<v Speaker 1>this was a time where we still had the porn

0:31:03.440 --> 0:31:04.000
<v Speaker 1>star era.

0:31:04.800 --> 0:31:08.560
<v Speaker 2>You said, no, I'm going own my own. Yes, I

0:31:08.880 --> 0:31:11.760
<v Speaker 2>at the time was not finding any other trends. Women

0:31:11.920 --> 0:31:19.720
<v Speaker 2>on the no black wearing a wig, but they weren't living.

0:31:19.960 --> 0:31:22.080
<v Speaker 2>They weren't living as a trans not the black ones.

0:31:22.520 --> 0:31:24.680
<v Speaker 2>And here's the thing. All that is part of my journey.

0:31:24.760 --> 0:31:25.560
<v Speaker 2>Let me tell you why.

0:31:26.680 --> 0:31:29.200
<v Speaker 3>After the firings and after the jobs, and after all

0:31:29.200 --> 0:31:31.040
<v Speaker 3>the stuff or whatever, and after the the you know,

0:31:31.200 --> 0:31:37.520
<v Speaker 3>the being homeless and stuff, I threw myself into All right, well,

0:31:38.480 --> 0:31:39.840
<v Speaker 3>if I'm if this is what I'm gonna do, this

0:31:39.880 --> 0:31:41.600
<v Speaker 3>is what I'm gonna do. So I need more ass,

0:31:41.680 --> 0:31:46.680
<v Speaker 3>more tits, more bodies. I ended up getting sick from silicon.

0:31:46.960 --> 0:31:50.680
<v Speaker 3>I got silicone poison. No, I ended up getting sick.

0:31:51.880 --> 0:31:56.640
<v Speaker 3>I ended up, you know, having to move back home.

0:31:58.920 --> 0:32:01.560
<v Speaker 3>But with with everything, with.

0:32:01.520 --> 0:32:04.400
<v Speaker 1>Everything, I came back home with everything, I was skinny.

0:32:04.920 --> 0:32:06.960
<v Speaker 1>I was like one hundred and thirty seven pounds. Wow.

0:32:07.920 --> 0:32:10.560
<v Speaker 3>And and this is how me and my mother reunited.

0:32:12.160 --> 0:32:14.120
<v Speaker 3>As I had been out of the world, I came

0:32:14.120 --> 0:32:19.800
<v Speaker 3>back home. I was about twenty two. And I remember

0:32:20.080 --> 0:32:23.080
<v Speaker 3>me because you know, I'm from the time where AIDS

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:25.600
<v Speaker 3>HIV was like h it was no HIV, it was

0:32:25.640 --> 0:32:25.880
<v Speaker 3>just AID.

0:32:26.000 --> 0:32:28.080
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you just said it and then you would and

0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:29.280
<v Speaker 1>then you would die and you would die.

0:32:29.320 --> 0:32:31.840
<v Speaker 3>And so you know, everybody talked about, you know, don't

0:32:31.880 --> 0:32:33.520
<v Speaker 3>be a because you go out there and be a

0:32:33.800 --> 0:32:37.200
<v Speaker 3>you're gonna die of AIDS. So me coming home sick

0:32:37.320 --> 0:32:39.880
<v Speaker 3>and skinny, so you know, your parents is thinking like,

0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:44.120
<v Speaker 3>oh God, my child has AIDS, like because because you

0:32:44.120 --> 0:32:47.320
<v Speaker 3>were sick. Yeah, but this was not the case. I

0:32:47.440 --> 0:32:50.280
<v Speaker 3>was silicone points, did you know what's wrong with you?

0:32:50.720 --> 0:32:50.840
<v Speaker 2>Well?

0:32:50.880 --> 0:32:53.680
<v Speaker 3>I went to the hospital because I had like like

0:32:53.880 --> 0:32:55.760
<v Speaker 3>like if you see the stories now, like the stories

0:32:55.760 --> 0:32:57.520
<v Speaker 3>are people tell the stories or whatever?

0:32:57.600 --> 0:32:59.719
<v Speaker 1>Well, I want to well, you go into the hospital

0:32:59.800 --> 0:33:02.960
<v Speaker 1>or transitioning in the nineties.

0:33:02.680 --> 0:33:05.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, how did they Well you go into the hospital

0:33:05.840 --> 0:33:08.840
<v Speaker 3>with open wounds from where this stuff is open and

0:33:08.960 --> 0:33:11.000
<v Speaker 3>it is leaking on you and stuff like that or whatever,

0:33:11.040 --> 0:33:13.680
<v Speaker 3>and then you're hearing like during that time, like so

0:33:13.800 --> 0:33:18.760
<v Speaker 3>many people were dying like of back right doors, object

0:33:18.760 --> 0:33:20.280
<v Speaker 3>shacks or whatever, you know.

0:33:20.440 --> 0:33:23.160
<v Speaker 1>And and then I come home poisoned.

0:33:23.200 --> 0:33:25.120
<v Speaker 3>I tried to do everything I could not to come home,

0:33:26.080 --> 0:33:28.200
<v Speaker 3>but I just I went back to my apartment.

0:33:28.200 --> 0:33:32.400
<v Speaker 1>I was so sick, like I was so sick. I

0:33:32.480 --> 0:33:34.560
<v Speaker 1>was so small, I couldn't move.

0:33:34.600 --> 0:33:37.920
<v Speaker 3>I had like open wounds on my body, you know,

0:33:38.080 --> 0:33:40.120
<v Speaker 3>from it, you know, and I and I still have

0:33:40.200 --> 0:33:42.800
<v Speaker 3>those scars. I kept those scars on me, and I

0:33:42.880 --> 0:33:47.200
<v Speaker 3>kept those scars to remind older me where younger me was.

0:33:48.200 --> 0:33:49.960
<v Speaker 3>I and I because I could have had skin grafts

0:33:50.000 --> 0:33:52.600
<v Speaker 3>and had that shit, you know. But I decided to

0:33:52.680 --> 0:33:55.160
<v Speaker 3>keep those things because those are those are my those

0:33:55.160 --> 0:33:58.640
<v Speaker 3>are my war wounds and the reminders of bitch. Don't

0:33:58.680 --> 0:34:01.600
<v Speaker 3>you ever even when you because it's it gets addicted

0:34:01.680 --> 0:34:04.840
<v Speaker 3>like tattoos. That's why there's so many big bodies and

0:34:04.880 --> 0:34:08.520
<v Speaker 3>so many big because it gets addicted. So I came home.

0:34:09.840 --> 0:34:11.920
<v Speaker 3>I remember my aunt. I moved in the house with

0:34:11.960 --> 0:34:14.640
<v Speaker 3>my aunt, and I was laying in the bed back there,

0:34:14.640 --> 0:34:17.439
<v Speaker 3>and my mother came in and she just broke into

0:34:17.560 --> 0:34:19.160
<v Speaker 3>tears because I was laying in the bed like I

0:34:19.239 --> 0:34:25.000
<v Speaker 3>was a patient. I was skinny. I've had big pads

0:34:25.080 --> 0:34:27.440
<v Speaker 3>laying on me. What I was just leaking. And the

0:34:27.480 --> 0:34:29.080
<v Speaker 3>doctors at the time don't know how to how do

0:34:29.160 --> 0:34:30.440
<v Speaker 3>you know how to get how do you know how

0:34:30.480 --> 0:34:35.000
<v Speaker 3>to do this? And you're a man, how do you

0:34:35.080 --> 0:34:35.839
<v Speaker 3>know how to do this?

0:34:36.480 --> 0:34:38.600
<v Speaker 1>Like what the fuck? What are you anyway? Like, what's

0:34:38.640 --> 0:34:41.120
<v Speaker 1>going on here? You know? You who did this to you?

0:34:41.280 --> 0:34:44.479
<v Speaker 1>That treatment was even coming from the doctors? Yeah, who

0:34:44.520 --> 0:34:45.120
<v Speaker 1>did this to you?

0:34:45.200 --> 0:34:45.239
<v Speaker 2>Like?

0:34:45.280 --> 0:34:47.080
<v Speaker 3>Why would you even lay down and let somebody do

0:34:47.120 --> 0:34:49.680
<v Speaker 3>this to you? Like, you know, it's like I don't

0:34:49.680 --> 0:34:53.480
<v Speaker 3>want to explain nothing. You don't understand. Some home, you know,

0:34:54.320 --> 0:34:57.640
<v Speaker 3>and my aunt is washing my wounds whatever. My mother

0:34:57.680 --> 0:35:01.440
<v Speaker 3>comes in and then she just burst into tears and

0:35:01.480 --> 0:35:04.600
<v Speaker 3>we had a moment and and she said to me

0:35:07.560 --> 0:35:10.640
<v Speaker 3>that I would never have to walk in the world

0:35:10.640 --> 0:35:11.280
<v Speaker 3>alone again.

0:35:11.960 --> 0:35:16.560
<v Speaker 1>Wow, wow, Tis, you can't be coming here like y'all.

0:35:16.680 --> 0:35:22.400
<v Speaker 1>But you know, you know, these are these things happen. Yeah,

0:35:22.480 --> 0:35:29.120
<v Speaker 1>and uh, you know, I'm still young, I still am

0:35:29.200 --> 0:35:33.359
<v Speaker 1>trans I still want things, you know. So I heal up.

0:35:34.560 --> 0:35:38.000
<v Speaker 1>And when I heal up, I told my aunt, I said,

0:35:38.040 --> 0:35:40.160
<v Speaker 1>I can't. I can't live here in Miami. I can't

0:35:40.200 --> 0:35:42.120
<v Speaker 1>live here. I can't.

0:35:42.120 --> 0:35:44.200
<v Speaker 3>It's nothing from me because I'm going to get back

0:35:44.239 --> 0:35:46.360
<v Speaker 3>into the same ship I'm gonna be, you know, I

0:35:46.360 --> 0:35:49.000
<v Speaker 3>can't live I moved to Atlanta. I never walked the

0:35:49.000 --> 0:35:52.560
<v Speaker 3>streets again. Wow, what was it about Atlanta that felt

0:35:52.600 --> 0:35:53.600
<v Speaker 3>like you.

0:35:53.960 --> 0:35:56.880
<v Speaker 1>I met a girl here. I met like everybody. Oh

0:35:56.960 --> 0:35:58.920
<v Speaker 1>my god, when I think about people that are placed

0:35:58.960 --> 0:36:04.440
<v Speaker 1>divinely in your mm hmmm. I met a queen here. Ironically,

0:36:04.480 --> 0:36:06.160
<v Speaker 1>I met a queen here through a friend that was

0:36:06.239 --> 0:36:08.880
<v Speaker 1>dating and a guy. She was from Florida and she

0:36:08.920 --> 0:36:11.359
<v Speaker 1>moved up here and she was dating a guy and

0:36:11.400 --> 0:36:15.480
<v Speaker 1>the guy was a trans chaser. Girl, Honey, I don't

0:36:15.480 --> 0:36:18.640
<v Speaker 1>know how he found my number. I heard chase. Wait,

0:36:18.680 --> 0:36:21.440
<v Speaker 1>I've heard chubby chaser. This trans chasers. It was another

0:36:21.480 --> 0:36:25.279
<v Speaker 1>word for it was a training chasers. Okay, chaser, you

0:36:25.280 --> 0:36:26.839
<v Speaker 1>know things done.

0:36:26.920 --> 0:36:29.560
<v Speaker 3>So you got my number through the girl and it's

0:36:29.719 --> 0:36:31.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, vegetar.

0:36:33.360 --> 0:36:36.160
<v Speaker 1>He was calling me in Florida, So I'm like, who

0:36:36.239 --> 0:36:36.920
<v Speaker 1>is this calling?

0:36:37.040 --> 0:36:37.080
<v Speaker 2>Like?

0:36:37.360 --> 0:36:41.399
<v Speaker 3>What is anyway? So my so my girlfriends like, come

0:36:41.400 --> 0:36:44.000
<v Speaker 3>on up here. You know this is my boyfriend. You know,

0:36:44.080 --> 0:36:44.879
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, what the fuck?

0:36:45.520 --> 0:36:47.839
<v Speaker 1>I come up here to Atlanta.

0:36:48.760 --> 0:36:51.680
<v Speaker 3>And I meet who she was living with and my

0:36:52.280 --> 0:36:55.560
<v Speaker 3>it was ts Eve this who introduced me to all

0:36:55.600 --> 0:36:59.800
<v Speaker 3>the porn self she was living with her. My friend

0:36:59.880 --> 0:37:03.120
<v Speaker 3>ironically went back to Florida, got.

0:37:02.920 --> 0:37:09.919
<v Speaker 1>Pumped and died the wow got pumped like injection. Yeah, pump.

0:37:10.360 --> 0:37:12.800
<v Speaker 1>I just healed up from it. She went back to Florida,

0:37:12.840 --> 0:37:14.920
<v Speaker 1>went down there and got pumped died. Wow.

0:37:16.680 --> 0:37:20.719
<v Speaker 3>So me and missus Eve become with friends, right and

0:37:20.840 --> 0:37:24.959
<v Speaker 3>she says to me, Uh, I said, girl, I can't

0:37:24.960 --> 0:37:26.800
<v Speaker 3>live down there in Florida no more, girl, whatever.

0:37:26.880 --> 0:37:27.919
<v Speaker 1>I'm on tour right now.

0:37:28.040 --> 0:37:30.799
<v Speaker 3>Like as soon as I healed up whatever scab came

0:37:30.800 --> 0:37:34.239
<v Speaker 3>over those those those pump sores, I was up the cell.

0:37:34.320 --> 0:37:36.920
<v Speaker 1>I was, I walked. I was back walking the sidewalk again,

0:37:37.320 --> 0:37:39.439
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, I can't keep fucking doing this.

0:37:39.640 --> 0:37:39.880
<v Speaker 1>You know.

0:37:41.239 --> 0:37:43.720
<v Speaker 3>I went to Georgia. I came up here to Georgia.

0:37:44.440 --> 0:37:49.719
<v Speaker 3>She introduced me to Creative Loafing, and and uh, what

0:37:49.719 --> 0:37:53.920
<v Speaker 3>do you say? Creative Loafing created the Excitement magazine? Like

0:37:53.960 --> 0:37:59.880
<v Speaker 3>all these all these publications where men by transactuals. So sheed,

0:38:00.040 --> 0:38:02.160
<v Speaker 3>but is it is it like a classified as they

0:38:02.160 --> 0:38:05.160
<v Speaker 3>were classified. She started introducing me to these things. You know,

0:38:05.239 --> 0:38:07.319
<v Speaker 3>she was an advanced whoor. I was just you know,

0:38:07.360 --> 0:38:09.600
<v Speaker 3>I was a street walk right now. It was just

0:38:09.800 --> 0:38:12.359
<v Speaker 3>like this is safer for you. Yeah, and being on

0:38:12.400 --> 0:38:14.160
<v Speaker 3>the street. Yeah, you know, I don't walk, ob t,

0:38:14.360 --> 0:38:15.399
<v Speaker 3>I don't walk so.

0:38:15.400 --> 0:38:18.759
<v Speaker 1>Real quick the classified for trans women.

0:38:18.840 --> 0:38:21.040
<v Speaker 2>I know, like I'm familiar with heroes we knew about

0:38:21.600 --> 0:38:25.799
<v Speaker 2>back in the day, but these were specific for trans women.

0:38:25.880 --> 0:38:28.000
<v Speaker 2>And were was it men looking for transit?

0:38:28.080 --> 0:38:30.480
<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Or you can go into truck stops like it's

0:38:30.520 --> 0:38:31.800
<v Speaker 1>like a lot of the truckers, like a lot of

0:38:31.800 --> 0:38:33.759
<v Speaker 1>the truck drivers that would come and they would call

0:38:33.840 --> 0:38:36.960
<v Speaker 1>it was a magazine called hot Chocolate. It was just

0:38:37.120 --> 0:38:37.680
<v Speaker 1>a bunch off.

0:38:37.800 --> 0:38:41.000
<v Speaker 2>Were these magazines they were in certain there were some

0:38:41.040 --> 0:38:44.960
<v Speaker 2>of the random gay clubs too, magazine.

0:38:44.520 --> 0:38:47.160
<v Speaker 3>When some of them were in the game, listen some

0:38:47.160 --> 0:38:49.960
<v Speaker 3>of them. But here's the thing. This is where this

0:38:50.000 --> 0:38:52.800
<v Speaker 3>is the I didn't know about it. This is where

0:38:52.080 --> 0:38:56.040
<v Speaker 3>the the not the consumer, but this is where the

0:38:56.640 --> 0:39:00.960
<v Speaker 3>seller started to understand the consumer. Ain't no straight man

0:39:01.000 --> 0:39:03.800
<v Speaker 3>going to no gay Bob. Put that ship in the

0:39:03.880 --> 0:39:08.120
<v Speaker 3>sex store. Oh he's going in the sex store.

0:39:08.320 --> 0:39:09.520
<v Speaker 1>That's exactly where he's going.

0:39:09.560 --> 0:39:11.080
<v Speaker 3>He ain't going in the gay look because ain't no

0:39:11.080 --> 0:39:14.640
<v Speaker 3>straight ain't no gay man, want no transsexual. Sorry, ladies,

0:39:16.320 --> 0:39:18.160
<v Speaker 3>say it again, there's no gay man again. So there

0:39:18.160 --> 0:39:20.680
<v Speaker 3>ain't no gay man, want no transsexual. And if he does,

0:39:20.800 --> 0:39:21.680
<v Speaker 3>he's not a gay man.

0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:22.320
<v Speaker 1>He's fluid.

0:39:23.360 --> 0:39:31.560
<v Speaker 2>Okay, do you believe that we should have their by

0:39:31.840 --> 0:39:34.800
<v Speaker 2>gay and then there should be something for trans attracting.

0:39:35.080 --> 0:39:35.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm in fluid.

0:39:35.880 --> 0:39:35.920
<v Speaker 2>No.

0:39:36.640 --> 0:39:39.719
<v Speaker 3>I think that he still should have his the ability

0:39:39.760 --> 0:39:44.759
<v Speaker 3>to consider himself straight because we're female presenting regardless of

0:39:44.800 --> 0:39:47.120
<v Speaker 3>wherever he goes presenting.

0:39:47.239 --> 0:39:52.560
<v Speaker 2>Yes, but what about needing intrinsically likes not no longer

0:39:52.600 --> 0:39:55.439
<v Speaker 2>attracted to trans women that are postop that wants dick.

0:39:56.440 --> 0:39:58.640
<v Speaker 2>So that's and that's what's gonna be my question too,

0:39:59.080 --> 0:40:02.120
<v Speaker 2>because you can be attracted and date and have sex

0:40:02.200 --> 0:40:06.239
<v Speaker 2>with trans women, right because there are women. However, even

0:40:06.280 --> 0:40:09.719
<v Speaker 2>to me, when I peg men when I'm penetrating a man,

0:40:10.480 --> 0:40:14.799
<v Speaker 2>oh I love baby peg the stallion. Hello, when I'm

0:40:14.840 --> 0:40:17.279
<v Speaker 2>penetrating a man, that's the question I get. Even though

0:40:17.400 --> 0:40:20.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm a woman with a vagina and I'm using a

0:40:20.080 --> 0:40:24.400
<v Speaker 2>plastic strap. The number one question is, well, aren't they gathing?

0:40:25.120 --> 0:40:28.399
<v Speaker 2>And so then what do you differentiate between men who

0:40:28.400 --> 0:40:30.360
<v Speaker 2>are tops and bottoms who deal with trans women?

0:40:30.560 --> 0:40:34.600
<v Speaker 3>I think that sexuality and and and and sexual pleasure

0:40:35.080 --> 0:40:36.080
<v Speaker 3>is different, like like.

0:40:36.040 --> 0:40:38.520
<v Speaker 1>Whatever, sexuality and sexual pleasure different.

0:40:38.280 --> 0:40:40.360
<v Speaker 3>Because here's the thing, like I talked to you earlier

0:40:40.360 --> 0:40:42.959
<v Speaker 3>about me, I have I like feed, I will, Yeah,

0:40:43.000 --> 0:40:43.319
<v Speaker 3>I like.

0:40:43.400 --> 0:40:46.120
<v Speaker 1>I like I get a I can put the soul

0:40:46.200 --> 0:40:48.480
<v Speaker 1>of a foot under my nose and I can have

0:40:48.560 --> 0:40:49.160
<v Speaker 1>an erection.

0:40:49.719 --> 0:40:53.000
<v Speaker 2>Wow, seriously, because I need to be a certain type

0:40:53.000 --> 0:40:53.879
<v Speaker 2>of Do you like scent?

0:40:54.000 --> 0:40:55.799
<v Speaker 1>Do you like I like the way I like the

0:40:55.800 --> 0:40:57.920
<v Speaker 1>way of foot smells after being in the nice you.

0:40:58.360 --> 0:41:01.800
<v Speaker 2>Okay, the size matter, just blink of the toes matter.

0:41:01.880 --> 0:41:03.520
<v Speaker 2>I need to know your foot, pettig.

0:41:06.360 --> 0:41:07.640
<v Speaker 1>You are crazy.

0:41:08.480 --> 0:41:11.160
<v Speaker 3>I like all types of feet. I like men's feet.

0:41:11.239 --> 0:41:13.799
<v Speaker 3>Like I follow up. I follow up a website.

0:41:14.239 --> 0:41:17.440
<v Speaker 1>I mean a page it's called trapped trapped feet and

0:41:17.520 --> 0:41:21.880
<v Speaker 1>slides feet and slide. Yeah, I follow that because they

0:41:21.880 --> 0:41:27.040
<v Speaker 1>have it's like trap a trap like boy like, I

0:41:27.120 --> 0:41:31.600
<v Speaker 1>like it's like that. Ain't the nice got the stuff

0:41:31.680 --> 0:41:31.960
<v Speaker 1>you said?

0:41:31.960 --> 0:41:32.080
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:41:32.160 --> 0:41:34.320
<v Speaker 3>They they be on their they be in their shoes

0:41:34.400 --> 0:41:38.200
<v Speaker 3>and some of the trap trap feet, trapped feet and slide.

0:41:38.239 --> 0:41:40.160
<v Speaker 1>You see it, I do when you see it, says

0:41:40.200 --> 0:41:43.080
<v Speaker 1>followed by me, hold on, wait, you gotta find the

0:41:43.120 --> 0:41:46.279
<v Speaker 1>other one. But not the niggas in jail. It's a

0:41:46.320 --> 0:41:49.480
<v Speaker 1>lot of niggas in jail, and they feed. It's it's

0:41:49.520 --> 0:41:53.640
<v Speaker 1>a lot of uh. Okay, they should come they this.

0:41:53.840 --> 0:41:56.320
<v Speaker 1>I like seat toes. Do you like toe jo? Like

0:41:56.360 --> 0:41:57.000
<v Speaker 1>for jobs?

0:41:57.880 --> 0:42:00.239
<v Speaker 3>I have had a foot job done by me that

0:42:00.360 --> 0:42:02.280
<v Speaker 3>knew how to do it like that was into trans

0:42:02.360 --> 0:42:03.920
<v Speaker 3>girls that like that knew how to give me a

0:42:03.920 --> 0:42:06.360
<v Speaker 3>foot job. You know I've given men foot jobs, you know.

0:42:06.800 --> 0:42:09.080
<v Speaker 3>I mean I got into a I got into that

0:42:09.160 --> 0:42:12.279
<v Speaker 3>footship like a guy did that to me by like

0:42:12.400 --> 0:42:13.879
<v Speaker 3>in my feet. I was like, get off on my feet,

0:42:14.080 --> 0:42:17.799
<v Speaker 3>and then you said it. Then I was like, he's right,

0:42:18.000 --> 0:42:21.280
<v Speaker 3>you see look it's a cute feet.

0:42:21.560 --> 0:42:23.120
<v Speaker 1>I ain't go okay, it's crazy.

0:42:23.200 --> 0:42:26.719
<v Speaker 2>Is men do not have very nice feat A lot

0:42:27.200 --> 0:42:29.840
<v Speaker 2>like they be having a little black toenails and ship.

0:42:29.719 --> 0:42:31.840
<v Speaker 1>They be ashy. Can I tell you something?

0:42:32.000 --> 0:42:32.400
<v Speaker 4>You like it?

0:42:32.520 --> 0:42:32.719
<v Speaker 1>Like that?

0:42:33.160 --> 0:42:36.560
<v Speaker 3>Sometimes a little bit a little like a little dark

0:42:36.600 --> 0:42:39.960
<v Speaker 3>skin toe you like a little bit a little on

0:42:40.040 --> 0:42:40.520
<v Speaker 3>the dark skids.

0:42:40.520 --> 0:42:45.120
<v Speaker 1>Because I know he can't help that. I know he

0:42:45.239 --> 0:42:48.000
<v Speaker 1>can't help that. It's like tiger stripes on a woman.

0:42:48.400 --> 0:42:50.919
<v Speaker 3>He can't help that he got a little He can't

0:42:50.960 --> 0:42:53.239
<v Speaker 3>help that. He ain't mean that that's the one you

0:42:53.320 --> 0:42:55.800
<v Speaker 3>still put it? No, I just rub it on my

0:42:55.880 --> 0:42:58.239
<v Speaker 3>titties and stuff like that. Have you ever have you

0:42:58.280 --> 0:43:03.480
<v Speaker 3>ever put a toe. Have you to about you never

0:43:03.560 --> 0:43:03.799
<v Speaker 3>put it.

0:43:03.800 --> 0:43:05.239
<v Speaker 1>To on your button because I don't want it to

0:43:05.280 --> 0:43:07.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to toe to penetrate me. I put

0:43:07.239 --> 0:43:10.319
<v Speaker 1>my toe and he sat on my foot. Yeah he's yeah,

0:43:10.320 --> 0:43:13.080
<v Speaker 1>he was, but it was it was a little weird.

0:43:13.120 --> 0:43:15.040
<v Speaker 2>I said, niggas kind of raised my pussy when I

0:43:15.600 --> 0:43:17.719
<v Speaker 2>like when I'm sucking dick, and I'm just like, I

0:43:17.719 --> 0:43:18.520
<v Speaker 2>don't want.

0:43:19.760 --> 0:43:22.200
<v Speaker 1>Your pussy, but I definitely like fee on me. I

0:43:22.200 --> 0:43:22.560
<v Speaker 1>don't care.

0:43:22.640 --> 0:43:26.960
<v Speaker 2>I've noticed men, especially like in missionary, they love them

0:43:26.960 --> 0:43:28.840
<v Speaker 2>feet on their face. So that's why I told you

0:43:29.200 --> 0:43:32.239
<v Speaker 2>hearing that that's a fetish for men right now, and

0:43:32.320 --> 0:43:33.320
<v Speaker 2>why I called it vanilla.

0:43:33.400 --> 0:43:34.200
<v Speaker 1>That's how it started.

0:43:34.480 --> 0:43:36.560
<v Speaker 2>I'm telling her how I just went out with a

0:43:36.560 --> 0:43:39.000
<v Speaker 2>guy who likes feet and I was like, oh, that's

0:43:39.080 --> 0:43:42.120
<v Speaker 2>vanilla because a lot of men now are like putting

0:43:42.200 --> 0:43:44.960
<v Speaker 2>toes and mouths and yeah, totally like like faces.

0:43:45.160 --> 0:43:48.399
<v Speaker 3>But my man got me into it. Oh a man

0:43:48.520 --> 0:43:51.080
<v Speaker 3>did that to me? Made you like yes, because he

0:43:51.160 --> 0:43:54.000
<v Speaker 3>started sucking my toes and I got any rection and

0:43:54.080 --> 0:43:57.560
<v Speaker 3>I was like, I mean, she saw my first foot experience.

0:43:57.920 --> 0:43:59.240
<v Speaker 3>I sucked my friend's toes.

0:43:59.080 --> 0:44:00.839
<v Speaker 1>In a pool and then I was like, oh my god,

0:44:00.920 --> 0:44:01.400
<v Speaker 1>this wasn't that.

0:44:01.560 --> 0:44:03.640
<v Speaker 2>We were at a sex resort, were in make resort,

0:44:04.120 --> 0:44:07.120
<v Speaker 2>and I don't know why. I don't We was in

0:44:07.200 --> 0:44:08.759
<v Speaker 2>a pool, so I don't even know how her foot

0:44:08.840 --> 0:44:09.640
<v Speaker 2>got even near.

0:44:09.560 --> 0:44:13.320
<v Speaker 1>My mouth because you were drunk, bitch, I don't know

0:44:13.400 --> 0:44:15.879
<v Speaker 1>how that happened. I don't know. Wait, wasn't there.

0:44:15.880 --> 0:44:20.000
<v Speaker 2>Guy my toes at the pool first? I think that's

0:44:20.000 --> 0:44:20.759
<v Speaker 2>how I'm gonna tell you this.

0:44:20.840 --> 0:44:21.600
<v Speaker 1>Man, I know, I know.

0:44:21.760 --> 0:44:23.279
<v Speaker 2>After I saw the foot in the foot, I said,

0:44:23.480 --> 0:44:27.399
<v Speaker 2>let me get let me get it. I just thought

0:44:27.440 --> 0:44:27.799
<v Speaker 2>I was neck.

0:44:27.880 --> 0:44:28.680
<v Speaker 1>She was like time to go.

0:44:28.960 --> 0:44:30.840
<v Speaker 2>You thought I was gonna suck your tone, No, not you.

0:44:31.080 --> 0:44:33.120
<v Speaker 2>I just thought there was abody suck man.

0:44:33.160 --> 0:44:36.760
<v Speaker 1>Then we started girl. So I'm looking at other people like, okay,

0:44:36.800 --> 0:44:37.800
<v Speaker 1>well somebody's.

0:44:37.400 --> 0:44:39.520
<v Speaker 2>Foot in and side by the way, this is crazy

0:44:39.600 --> 0:44:42.040
<v Speaker 2>that this is what happened that sex uh sex resorts?

0:44:42.120 --> 0:44:45.200
<v Speaker 1>Well, ship, you know you have a COMEANX side. Can

0:44:45.280 --> 0:44:48.160
<v Speaker 1>I tell y'all that I'm so reserved now, Oh my god,

0:44:48.480 --> 0:44:50.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm being honest. You are a little too lip for

0:44:50.239 --> 0:44:53.120
<v Speaker 1>a sex resort. I'm reserved now. I want to tell

0:44:53.160 --> 0:44:56.080
<v Speaker 1>you I've done I've done it. So reserve means now

0:44:56.280 --> 0:44:59.880
<v Speaker 1>that you've got it out of your system, you just

0:45:00.080 --> 0:45:02.560
<v Speaker 1>want one. Oh I don't want to do all it.

0:45:03.200 --> 0:45:03.880
<v Speaker 1>It's exhausted.

0:45:04.000 --> 0:45:06.600
<v Speaker 3>Let me tell you why, because even through all of that,

0:45:07.120 --> 0:45:09.359
<v Speaker 3>I had to I had to teach you myself how

0:45:09.400 --> 0:45:13.680
<v Speaker 3>to not have feelings emotions so much so the majority

0:45:13.719 --> 0:45:19.160
<v Speaker 3>of my life I have been detached emotions, detached emotionally,

0:45:20.080 --> 0:45:22.560
<v Speaker 3>there's no feeling, there's no connection I had.

0:45:22.640 --> 0:45:25.120
<v Speaker 1>I've had to detach myself. I have not one trans

0:45:25.200 --> 0:45:26.560
<v Speaker 1>woman friend that doesn't say this.

0:45:26.880 --> 0:45:29.800
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I had to detach myself from that. And so

0:45:30.640 --> 0:45:34.400
<v Speaker 3>majority of my life I've lived my life in detachment

0:45:34.480 --> 0:45:38.920
<v Speaker 3>from emotion and love from a partner. So I'm learning

0:45:39.040 --> 0:45:40.800
<v Speaker 3>this stuff now. I'm learning.

0:45:40.880 --> 0:45:42.359
<v Speaker 1>Maddy, we got to talk because this is what I'm

0:45:42.400 --> 0:45:44.000
<v Speaker 1>doing dealing with with the book right now.

0:45:44.840 --> 0:45:49.040
<v Speaker 2>The podcast being in your twenties and maybe I mean

0:45:49.120 --> 0:45:51.240
<v Speaker 2>they just went through my first relationship as an adult,

0:45:51.640 --> 0:45:55.759
<v Speaker 2>but having sex and it being transactional, the disconnect that

0:45:55.840 --> 0:45:59.319
<v Speaker 2>you have with how you feel like men should show

0:45:59.400 --> 0:46:02.200
<v Speaker 2>up for you, the treatment sometimes the value of yourself.

0:46:02.680 --> 0:46:05.759
<v Speaker 2>Once you really get that, now you can't go back.

0:46:06.400 --> 0:46:09.239
<v Speaker 1>I haven't had it. Wow, I thought I thought I

0:46:09.400 --> 0:46:13.440
<v Speaker 1>had it from a couple of gentlemen, but I haven't

0:46:13.520 --> 0:46:16.000
<v Speaker 1>had it still to this day. Like a true love,

0:46:17.600 --> 0:46:20.760
<v Speaker 1>I think it comes in the form of friends, okay,

0:46:21.320 --> 0:46:26.200
<v Speaker 1>but not in the form of partners. What makes you

0:46:26.400 --> 0:46:28.759
<v Speaker 1>What makes you say that? Because we we a lot

0:46:28.800 --> 0:46:30.719
<v Speaker 1>of Like what makes he say that? Like that's my

0:46:30.840 --> 0:46:34.719
<v Speaker 1>friend right there, but we're not sexual and he is

0:46:34.840 --> 0:46:37.160
<v Speaker 1>my also my bodyguard, but we're not sexual. We don't

0:46:37.160 --> 0:46:42.719
<v Speaker 1>have a sexual but we talk every day. Yes, And

0:46:43.239 --> 0:46:46.759
<v Speaker 1>but with partners, romantic partners, it doesn't have to get there.

0:46:46.840 --> 0:46:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't have it interesting, I don't have it. Is

0:46:50.160 --> 0:46:53.400
<v Speaker 1>it because of how they are not prepared to be

0:46:53.640 --> 0:46:54.960
<v Speaker 1>with you? Is that what you find?

0:46:55.320 --> 0:47:00.080
<v Speaker 3>I think it's because you know, they are all so

0:47:00.200 --> 0:47:02.560
<v Speaker 3>emotionally damaged, because I do feel like it's an emotional

0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:06.000
<v Speaker 3>damage thing that's with me, you know, because I had

0:47:06.080 --> 0:47:09.600
<v Speaker 3>to be emotionally disconnected like that. I was seeing too

0:47:09.680 --> 0:47:12.000
<v Speaker 3>many men when I moved he to Atlanta. When I

0:47:12.120 --> 0:47:14.360
<v Speaker 3>came from Florida to Atlanta, and I and all that

0:47:14.440 --> 0:47:16.800
<v Speaker 3>books and my friend introduced me to all that ship,

0:47:17.360 --> 0:47:19.600
<v Speaker 3>and my phone was blowing up. I never walked the

0:47:19.640 --> 0:47:22.680
<v Speaker 3>streets again. And then I became the premier prostitute here

0:47:23.280 --> 0:47:27.200
<v Speaker 3>because I was from Florida, well and down hood.

0:47:28.560 --> 0:47:35.080
<v Speaker 1>Fun FUNQ. I went pretty in I'm gorgeous now because

0:47:35.120 --> 0:47:37.560
<v Speaker 1>I was skiing my money. Of course, you know what

0:47:37.600 --> 0:47:48.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. Changed, Okay, it's special. Yeah. I want to

0:47:48.960 --> 0:47:51.120
<v Speaker 1>ask you something that you asked Mandy and I off camera.

0:47:51.800 --> 0:47:57.319
<v Speaker 1>Do you want kids to when you.

0:48:00.080 --> 0:48:05.360
<v Speaker 3>Grow and you start being a business woman and stuff

0:48:05.440 --> 0:48:09.240
<v Speaker 3>and you start obtaining assets and homes and all this stuff,

0:48:09.239 --> 0:48:11.160
<v Speaker 3>and you're like, damn when I die, ain't nobody gonna

0:48:11.160 --> 0:48:11.400
<v Speaker 3>get this.

0:48:13.160 --> 0:48:15.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't have nobody to take that on.

0:48:16.400 --> 0:48:24.000
<v Speaker 2>Maybe only because of that, I ask you because but

0:48:24.480 --> 0:48:27.200
<v Speaker 2>that's the thing, the idea of those material things. When

0:48:27.280 --> 0:48:30.359
<v Speaker 2>when I get asked that same question and it's like, well,

0:48:30.480 --> 0:48:33.960
<v Speaker 2>what are you what are you leaving behind, Maddie, everything

0:48:34.080 --> 0:48:36.759
<v Speaker 2>you've done, like you've left things that are gonna transcend

0:48:37.080 --> 0:48:38.960
<v Speaker 2>a home, you know what I mean?

0:48:39.280 --> 0:48:44.200
<v Speaker 1>The content that you released isn't going anywhere you Somebody's

0:48:44.239 --> 0:48:46.279
<v Speaker 1>gonna watch this and be like this and it's you

0:48:46.400 --> 0:48:46.799
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean?

0:48:46.880 --> 0:48:49.839
<v Speaker 2>And this all exists beyond us. Like whenever that's asked,

0:48:50.239 --> 0:48:54.399
<v Speaker 2>the businesses that you have the lives you've changed. Those

0:48:54.440 --> 0:48:56.879
<v Speaker 2>things are what you're leaving behind to care about, where

0:48:56.880 --> 0:48:59.719
<v Speaker 2>you're gonna leave a house, what all you've done, and

0:48:59.760 --> 0:49:01.840
<v Speaker 2>how you've navigated your life. When you said that this

0:49:01.960 --> 0:49:05.120
<v Speaker 2>is your path that God has given you, I relate

0:49:05.200 --> 0:49:07.239
<v Speaker 2>so much in that because I do believe that you

0:49:07.360 --> 0:49:10.279
<v Speaker 2>were here to change so much more than just raise

0:49:10.360 --> 0:49:13.239
<v Speaker 2>one life. And you also give know how many you

0:49:13.360 --> 0:49:15.800
<v Speaker 2>know how impactful you are. But this is just a

0:49:16.000 --> 0:49:18.160
<v Speaker 2>small little thing to tell you. I went to go

0:49:18.239 --> 0:49:22.279
<v Speaker 2>see Was It Bros. With Billy Aikner, and it was

0:49:22.320 --> 0:49:24.879
<v Speaker 2>one of the first gay feature films of all time.

0:49:25.440 --> 0:49:27.960
<v Speaker 2>Like in a theater I would see by myself in

0:49:27.960 --> 0:49:29.560
<v Speaker 2>New York. I'm in a West village, imime, this would

0:49:29.560 --> 0:49:31.839
<v Speaker 2>be fun. Where in the West village? You know it's

0:49:32.280 --> 0:49:34.200
<v Speaker 2>it's pretty white. But there was a black dude next

0:49:34.239 --> 0:49:37.640
<v Speaker 2>to me when you came up on the screen. Him

0:49:37.640 --> 0:49:40.640
<v Speaker 2>and I both man at the same time, and he

0:49:40.760 --> 0:49:41.600
<v Speaker 2>turned to me, goes.

0:49:41.920 --> 0:49:42.640
<v Speaker 1>Can you leave this bitch?

0:49:42.719 --> 0:49:46.919
<v Speaker 2>Used to do por right, and I'm laughing. And after

0:49:47.000 --> 0:49:49.759
<v Speaker 2>the movie he was like, I really wasn't ready to

0:49:49.760 --> 0:49:51.920
<v Speaker 2>see that. He's like, I knew it was a white movie.

0:49:51.920 --> 0:49:55.840
<v Speaker 2>I knew black people, but like this bitch really was

0:49:56.000 --> 0:49:58.920
<v Speaker 2>just in the movie theater and you see TV and

0:49:59.000 --> 0:50:00.479
<v Speaker 2>now streaming, it's like it's nothing.

0:50:01.120 --> 0:50:04.200
<v Speaker 1>But when that moment happened, I was like, can there

0:50:04.320 --> 0:50:05.839
<v Speaker 1>be another one of you? Yeah?

0:50:06.680 --> 0:50:09.719
<v Speaker 3>Special, I think because there's no because there's no one

0:50:10.239 --> 0:50:14.600
<v Speaker 3>like right now, like coming from pornographic movies.

0:50:15.640 --> 0:50:16.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm the only one.

0:50:16.800 --> 0:50:19.680
<v Speaker 2>And I love that you literally like even when you're

0:50:19.760 --> 0:50:22.080
<v Speaker 2>searched now, and I think this is so fascinating because

0:50:22.120 --> 0:50:25.080
<v Speaker 2>there are so many people who have tried to navigate

0:50:25.160 --> 0:50:28.919
<v Speaker 2>and change uh mainstream and go from porn to mainstream media.

0:50:29.480 --> 0:50:32.120
<v Speaker 2>When you search you now it's actress. It's not adult action.

0:50:33.160 --> 0:50:37.360
<v Speaker 1>It is actress, and that's it. Nothing before No, I

0:50:37.440 --> 0:50:38.799
<v Speaker 1>did the work. Let me tell you why I did

0:50:38.840 --> 0:50:40.480
<v Speaker 1>the work. I did the work at the same amount

0:50:40.520 --> 0:50:42.880
<v Speaker 1>of energy I put into making myself infamous for being

0:50:42.920 --> 0:50:45.480
<v Speaker 1>Big Day Bitch dot Com. I put that same energy,

0:50:45.760 --> 0:50:47.759
<v Speaker 1>and I'm gonna tell you very Kim Kardashian of you.

0:50:49.360 --> 0:50:53.120
<v Speaker 3>I went to my mother and I said, Mommy, after like,

0:50:53.239 --> 0:50:55.040
<v Speaker 3>after all this stuff in the Big Day Bitch dot Com,

0:50:55.120 --> 0:50:57.160
<v Speaker 3>and then my life changed with Vine.

0:50:57.520 --> 0:50:59.400
<v Speaker 1>You know, I don't know how much time we got right,

0:51:00.120 --> 0:51:02.600
<v Speaker 1>my life changed through vine ourself. I went to my

0:51:02.680 --> 0:51:05.279
<v Speaker 1>mommy and I said, Mommy, listen to me. I don't

0:51:05.280 --> 0:51:08.840
<v Speaker 1>want to do no more. I don't want to do

0:51:08.840 --> 0:51:11.520
<v Speaker 1>it no more. I'm tired of it and I'm tired

0:51:11.560 --> 0:51:14.719
<v Speaker 1>of men touching me. I'm tired of men being having

0:51:14.800 --> 0:51:18.880
<v Speaker 1>the ability to touch me and touch because I I

0:51:18.880 --> 0:51:21.000
<v Speaker 1>don't think I'm above no bitch, but I know I am.

0:51:21.680 --> 0:51:23.239
<v Speaker 1>And them put the assholes that used to tell they

0:51:23.320 --> 0:51:24.920
<v Speaker 1>used to think that we were the same. I told

0:51:25.000 --> 0:51:27.799
<v Speaker 1>you we was never the same. And the only thing

0:51:27.840 --> 0:51:29.839
<v Speaker 1>that kept me the same with them was niggas being

0:51:29.840 --> 0:51:31.719
<v Speaker 1>able to call my soul. I said, I want to

0:51:31.719 --> 0:51:35.239
<v Speaker 1>do this, bitch. I see that I don't want to

0:51:35.239 --> 0:51:38.120
<v Speaker 1>do this. Please, I called. I told my mommy. Me

0:51:38.160 --> 0:51:42.240
<v Speaker 1>and my mother held hands like two grand high priests

0:51:42.840 --> 0:51:46.440
<v Speaker 1>and pray and she said, if you serious about you

0:51:46.640 --> 0:51:49.080
<v Speaker 1>not want to do this no more, I'm going to

0:51:49.160 --> 0:51:52.640
<v Speaker 1>go to God. And I went right there with God too.

0:51:53.800 --> 0:51:59.840
<v Speaker 3>I haven't done porn in over a decade, maybe twenty thirteen,

0:52:00.360 --> 0:52:04.840
<v Speaker 3>maybe somewhere, maybe like because I had stopped when I

0:52:05.000 --> 0:52:06.920
<v Speaker 3>when I started getting mainstream.

0:52:06.480 --> 0:52:07.440
<v Speaker 1>Like, what did you want?

0:52:07.520 --> 0:52:09.120
<v Speaker 2>Did you want to be a personality? Did you want

0:52:09.120 --> 0:52:10.959
<v Speaker 2>to be an actress. I just didn't want to do porn.

0:52:11.040 --> 0:52:12.640
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know what it was. I mean, I mean,

0:52:13.000 --> 0:52:14.080
<v Speaker 1>and then I do want to lean.

0:52:14.040 --> 0:52:17.560
<v Speaker 2>Into the advocacy because you speak out a lot about

0:52:17.640 --> 0:52:18.840
<v Speaker 2>people who.

0:52:19.520 --> 0:52:22.279
<v Speaker 1>That happened to twenty fourteen. I'll tell you why. Okay,

0:52:22.440 --> 0:52:27.359
<v Speaker 1>twenty fourteen. It happened because the world was changing. I'm

0:52:27.400 --> 0:52:29.120
<v Speaker 1>trying to see where I was. Laverne was on the

0:52:29.239 --> 0:52:34.760
<v Speaker 1>cover of Laverne Cox was on the cover of Time magazine,

0:52:35.680 --> 0:52:38.520
<v Speaker 1>and that's the time when I was doing a vine

0:52:38.640 --> 0:52:40.719
<v Speaker 1>and then my shit was popping up and I.

0:52:40.960 --> 0:52:45.480
<v Speaker 3>Was New Weave twenty two inches. Yes, this is how

0:52:45.480 --> 0:52:48.160
<v Speaker 3>a lot of people from mainstream found me. From New

0:52:48.239 --> 0:52:51.080
<v Speaker 3>Weave nor Wave twenty two inches. Yes, but I was

0:52:51.120 --> 0:52:55.160
<v Speaker 3>still promoting the little second video. Yeah, I was still

0:52:55.239 --> 0:52:59.680
<v Speaker 3>promoting poorn at the time. And so the conversation became

0:53:00.120 --> 0:53:06.800
<v Speaker 3>because that's funny that that ship here. I mean, I

0:53:06.960 --> 0:53:09.279
<v Speaker 3>was world wide overnight. How you feel you see that?

0:53:10.320 --> 0:53:12.040
<v Speaker 1>Who was it? Who owns Twitter?

0:53:12.160 --> 0:53:12.279
<v Speaker 2>Now?

0:53:12.400 --> 0:53:12.799
<v Speaker 1>No, it's not.

0:53:15.040 --> 0:53:17.440
<v Speaker 2>Okay, Well, Jack, I think just tweeted something. I don't

0:53:17.440 --> 0:53:21.200
<v Speaker 2>know what he's still involved with. Oh Facebook, Mark just

0:53:21.320 --> 0:53:24.600
<v Speaker 2>tweeted making the quote making a poll.

0:53:24.440 --> 0:53:27.279
<v Speaker 1>About bringing vine back, I would would you? Would you?

0:53:28.360 --> 0:53:31.640
<v Speaker 2>Knowing that we are still so short form content. Now,

0:53:31.680 --> 0:53:34.440
<v Speaker 2>I know you have your show, we know TikTok going

0:53:34.520 --> 0:53:38.080
<v Speaker 2>over there. Okay, I'm gonna be honest. I want TikTok

0:53:38.120 --> 0:53:38.239
<v Speaker 2>to go.

0:53:38.960 --> 0:53:39.920
<v Speaker 1>You want TikTok to go.

0:53:40.400 --> 0:53:43.120
<v Speaker 2>I've made a lot of comments. I had my best

0:53:43.400 --> 0:53:46.680
<v Speaker 2>seller and I learned it from TikTok. Just sell it

0:53:46.760 --> 0:53:50.160
<v Speaker 2>out eat every week, giving me the It's not that

0:53:50.239 --> 0:53:51.560
<v Speaker 2>I don't enjoy using it.

0:53:51.960 --> 0:53:53.399
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to stop anybody's money.

0:53:54.160 --> 0:53:56.799
<v Speaker 2>But I just feel like we're all losing ourselves so much,

0:53:57.200 --> 0:53:58.719
<v Speaker 2>and I feel like if we could just remove one

0:53:58.760 --> 0:53:59.200
<v Speaker 2>more piece.

0:53:59.520 --> 0:54:01.759
<v Speaker 1>I think too, But I don't want nobody's income to go.

0:54:01.880 --> 0:54:03.239
<v Speaker 1>I don't want the income to go. A wait, that's it.

0:54:03.360 --> 0:54:05.800
<v Speaker 1>But I think I just want people to just go

0:54:05.960 --> 0:54:09.200
<v Speaker 1>back outside, learn what it's like to connect. Motherfuckers. It's weird.

0:54:09.520 --> 0:54:12.120
<v Speaker 2>The reason that we've had so much trouble dating is

0:54:12.320 --> 0:54:16.000
<v Speaker 2>ship like this. I really believe the podcast. No no, no,

0:54:16.400 --> 0:54:18.319
<v Speaker 2>I don't believe this the podcast. I believe social media

0:54:18.400 --> 0:54:20.200
<v Speaker 2>makes it very difficult for people to date.

0:54:20.680 --> 0:54:21.239
<v Speaker 1>You know what I mean?

0:54:21.320 --> 0:54:23.640
<v Speaker 2>The way, the way that you interact and if we

0:54:23.760 --> 0:54:25.759
<v Speaker 2>just had a little bit less. I actually thought to

0:54:25.840 --> 0:54:29.400
<v Speaker 2>myself recently, the last three men I dated had no Instagram,

0:54:29.440 --> 0:54:31.160
<v Speaker 2>and the man I'm with now is no Instagram. That

0:54:31.280 --> 0:54:34.480
<v Speaker 2>must mean something like, yeah, a nigga, How am I

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:36.399
<v Speaker 2>get an attracted instagramm he was his other phone.

0:54:36.440 --> 0:54:37.600
<v Speaker 1>He was using three different names.

0:54:42.560 --> 0:54:45.319
<v Speaker 2>It's like, I don't know, like I think I must

0:54:45.360 --> 0:54:47.920
<v Speaker 2>be attracted to people that are completely the opposite. I'm

0:54:47.960 --> 0:54:51.239
<v Speaker 2>traumatized with his other phone. Give me the Instagram, I

0:54:51.320 --> 0:54:52.600
<v Speaker 2>go hold you. My home girl just went on a

0:54:52.680 --> 0:54:54.440
<v Speaker 2>date with a nigga. He said he had all this,

0:54:54.600 --> 0:54:57.239
<v Speaker 2>all this, We couldn't find a LinkedIn his name. He

0:54:57.400 --> 0:55:01.120
<v Speaker 2>was attached to some use. I said, girl here SyRI Killer. Nope,

0:55:01.160 --> 0:55:03.160
<v Speaker 2>don't date him. Oh you know I had the FBI

0:55:03.239 --> 0:55:05.600
<v Speaker 2>my nigga. Yeah, I told Mandy, I think, I said

0:55:05.640 --> 0:55:08.359
<v Speaker 2>on the podcast. Because he has no profile anywhere, right,

0:55:08.440 --> 0:55:11.120
<v Speaker 2>He's just We go to his mother's house.

0:55:11.000 --> 0:55:13.920
<v Speaker 1>One day and I knew what house it was. He

0:55:14.080 --> 0:55:15.680
<v Speaker 1>was like, how did you know the street? And It's like, oh,

0:55:15.719 --> 0:55:17.160
<v Speaker 1>because I google the ship up this nigga.

0:55:17.320 --> 0:55:20.040
<v Speaker 2>I found everything, the family tree or grandfather, that what

0:55:20.160 --> 0:55:21.040
<v Speaker 2>his nieces look like.

0:55:21.400 --> 0:55:23.520
<v Speaker 1>But it's because when you don't have social media.

0:55:24.719 --> 0:55:29.200
<v Speaker 3>What oh god, I know you're gonna watch this baby,

0:55:29.239 --> 0:55:32.800
<v Speaker 3>but or whatever. So I was dating this NFL guy here, okay.

0:55:32.719 --> 0:55:35.759
<v Speaker 1>And that's how I found him. What you mean, that's

0:55:35.760 --> 0:55:36.400
<v Speaker 1>how you found him.

0:55:36.600 --> 0:55:38.479
<v Speaker 3>That's how I found out who he was like, because

0:55:38.520 --> 0:55:40.920
<v Speaker 3>he had sent me some money okay, and then he

0:55:41.000 --> 0:55:42.680
<v Speaker 3>sent me some money again. Then he sent me some

0:55:42.760 --> 0:55:45.279
<v Speaker 3>money again, and he had mixed all the names up

0:55:46.480 --> 0:55:49.160
<v Speaker 3>because I had been out of the business and all

0:55:49.239 --> 0:55:51.520
<v Speaker 3>this stuff happened like right after I got out of

0:55:51.600 --> 0:55:53.960
<v Speaker 3>the business, like out of because I just didn't want

0:55:54.000 --> 0:55:55.480
<v Speaker 3>to be and I just didn't want men touching me

0:55:55.560 --> 0:55:59.120
<v Speaker 3>no more. Right, And so you know, we started sucking around,

0:55:59.160 --> 0:56:01.200
<v Speaker 3>it started sexual well, and then we became friends and

0:56:01.280 --> 0:56:03.360
<v Speaker 3>then you know, we got into a little situation and

0:56:03.960 --> 0:56:06.040
<v Speaker 3>which which we both confirmed.

0:56:05.680 --> 0:56:08.520
<v Speaker 1>Just recently that we was in a relationship. How did

0:56:08.520 --> 0:56:11.040
<v Speaker 1>you meet him? Well, you know, he emailed me.

0:56:11.719 --> 0:56:15.120
<v Speaker 2>Wait, this isn't who was confused? They was confused about

0:56:15.160 --> 0:56:17.560
<v Speaker 2>you being with right, Okay.

0:56:17.760 --> 0:56:20.000
<v Speaker 1>I no, I don't know. Yeah, you cleared that up.

0:56:20.320 --> 0:56:21.080
<v Speaker 1>Oh wait that was you?

0:56:22.080 --> 0:56:27.239
<v Speaker 2>Oh they confused okay, okay, okay, always okay, I know

0:56:27.360 --> 0:56:27.920
<v Speaker 2>the tea is.

0:56:28.120 --> 0:56:31.719
<v Speaker 1>They thought that Martell Hope and and me and me

0:56:31.840 --> 0:56:34.520
<v Speaker 1>and got out and about and then and.

0:56:34.560 --> 0:56:38.080
<v Speaker 2>Then the headline was so yucky because you're an advocate

0:56:38.120 --> 0:56:42.319
<v Speaker 2>of the community. The tagline of it was that he's

0:56:42.360 --> 0:56:46.479
<v Speaker 2>trying to rebrand himself by aligning with a trans woman

0:56:46.880 --> 0:56:47.320
<v Speaker 2>to like.

0:56:47.800 --> 0:56:51.000
<v Speaker 1>And I was just like, Okay, I did too, and

0:56:51.080 --> 0:56:53.279
<v Speaker 1>I jumped ahead. I saw you jumped up because I

0:56:53.320 --> 0:56:54.839
<v Speaker 1>didn't like. Let me tell you how I jumped.

0:56:54.960 --> 0:56:57.160
<v Speaker 3>I jumped ahead of that ship because I don't want

0:56:57.160 --> 0:56:59.799
<v Speaker 3>to be I never And here's another reason why it's talk.

0:57:00.000 --> 0:57:02.359
<v Speaker 3>I don't want to be attached to no man. That's

0:57:02.360 --> 0:57:05.080
<v Speaker 3>why I know I don't. I don't like d o niggas.

0:57:05.640 --> 0:57:07.640
<v Speaker 3>But I'm also not gonna be said, yeah, girl, I'm

0:57:07.640 --> 0:57:08.319
<v Speaker 3>fucking such and such.

0:57:08.719 --> 0:57:09.520
<v Speaker 1>That's not my swag.

0:57:09.640 --> 0:57:11.279
<v Speaker 3>I want all you os out there to think that

0:57:11.320 --> 0:57:15.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm fat, I'm old, that don't know men want me

0:57:15.440 --> 0:57:17.640
<v Speaker 3>because you know I've been a point. I want all

0:57:17.720 --> 0:57:19.479
<v Speaker 3>y'all to think that they only won't sit and start,

0:57:19.600 --> 0:57:22.240
<v Speaker 3>they only want to. I want y'all to only I

0:57:22.320 --> 0:57:23.760
<v Speaker 3>want you to think that that's the only that them,

0:57:23.840 --> 0:57:27.520
<v Speaker 3>the only ones they won't because I don't don't attach me.

0:57:27.520 --> 0:57:29.120
<v Speaker 1>To none of them niggas. I don't want to just

0:57:29.280 --> 0:57:31.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be attached to none of them niggas. Right,

0:57:32.080 --> 0:57:36.080
<v Speaker 1>but please know that ain't the only Please but please

0:57:36.200 --> 0:57:38.280
<v Speaker 1>know that, bitch, I was rich while while a lot

0:57:38.360 --> 0:57:41.320
<v Speaker 1>of those girls when they were young transitioning.

0:57:41.360 --> 0:57:46.920
<v Speaker 3>I was rich from niggas, m from from them with

0:57:47.080 --> 0:57:50.480
<v Speaker 3>they ain't brand tags. But that's enough that, ain't That

0:57:50.520 --> 0:57:54.240
<v Speaker 3>ain't a story that I'm ever gonna tell. No, I

0:57:54.400 --> 0:57:57.000
<v Speaker 3>never want to be linked to no man and they

0:57:57.120 --> 0:58:00.680
<v Speaker 3>and and then my talents are submerged and so great.

0:58:01.520 --> 0:58:04.080
<v Speaker 2>Well and right now that's like the new the new thing,

0:58:04.240 --> 0:58:07.920
<v Speaker 2>like the maybe Mama exposing whoever. Like women are now

0:58:08.080 --> 0:58:11.320
<v Speaker 2>leaning into getting there starting from who they're fucking, who

0:58:11.360 --> 0:58:13.760
<v Speaker 2>they're attached to and not doing which again is why

0:58:13.800 --> 0:58:15.080
<v Speaker 2>you said I'm different than you.

0:58:15.120 --> 0:58:17.080
<v Speaker 1>Bitch. Yeah, that's not what I want to do. And

0:58:17.160 --> 0:58:18.800
<v Speaker 1>if it takes me longer to go to where I

0:58:18.840 --> 0:58:20.600
<v Speaker 1>need to go, I'm fine with that. This is not

0:58:20.640 --> 0:58:23.480
<v Speaker 1>a racist the marathon, honey, tuck your ship boom. But

0:58:23.600 --> 0:58:28.440
<v Speaker 1>I wanted to say this, right, I gotta go back.

0:58:28.640 --> 0:58:32.080
<v Speaker 1>I want to get back Hot Chocolate magazine.

0:58:32.360 --> 0:58:34.120
<v Speaker 3>Being in the back of the sword the straight men

0:58:34.200 --> 0:58:37.200
<v Speaker 3>in there finding me put me in this situation to

0:58:37.320 --> 0:58:40.040
<v Speaker 3>where you know they're they're they're looking for trans women

0:58:40.360 --> 0:58:43.120
<v Speaker 3>in the straight bars or whatever and stuff. My girlfriend,

0:58:43.200 --> 0:58:47.480
<v Speaker 3>Miss Eve, teaches me how to do uh, read colds

0:58:47.520 --> 0:58:50.160
<v Speaker 3>and ship like that. So I started reading colds and

0:58:50.280 --> 0:58:55.320
<v Speaker 3>things and learning how to do web web okay HTML

0:58:55.360 --> 0:58:58.400
<v Speaker 3>and all this time. So I come from Florida, I'm

0:58:58.480 --> 0:58:59.840
<v Speaker 3>learning how to do all this stuff. I'm like, oh,

0:59:00.240 --> 0:59:01.880
<v Speaker 3>I don't need to work for no company. And all

0:59:01.880 --> 0:59:02.840
<v Speaker 3>the stuff she done.

0:59:02.720 --> 0:59:03.680
<v Speaker 1>Taught me how to do this shit.

0:59:04.000 --> 0:59:07.680
<v Speaker 3>Fast forward boom, I'm coming a big name here in Atlanta, right,

0:59:07.960 --> 0:59:10.560
<v Speaker 3>big name. You walk in the porn stores there, I

0:59:10.680 --> 0:59:13.120
<v Speaker 3>go on the poster cock hanging out. I didn't have

0:59:13.320 --> 0:59:17.320
<v Speaker 3>I earned my own distribution, my own like I didn't

0:59:17.320 --> 0:59:18.480
<v Speaker 3>have any distribution company.

0:59:18.960 --> 0:59:20.600
<v Speaker 1>I got my own distribution.

0:59:21.040 --> 0:59:23.320
<v Speaker 2>Can I ask you real quick with the men that

0:59:23.440 --> 0:59:26.840
<v Speaker 2>were in these magazines only because you said it quickly,

0:59:26.920 --> 0:59:29.520
<v Speaker 2>You said you don't like DM men. Then you referred

0:59:29.520 --> 0:59:33.120
<v Speaker 2>to the men getting these magazines as straight. Would you consider, however,

0:59:33.240 --> 0:59:37.160
<v Speaker 2>a man d L if they don't disclose to a

0:59:37.280 --> 0:59:39.720
<v Speaker 2>woman that he dates trans women.

0:59:40.200 --> 0:59:44.320
<v Speaker 1>I think that that. I think that men who date

0:59:44.480 --> 0:59:48.560
<v Speaker 1>trans women don't have a safe space. I don't think

0:59:48.560 --> 0:59:50.520
<v Speaker 1>they have a safe space to even tell a tell

0:59:50.560 --> 0:59:52.440
<v Speaker 1>a person like that. But I mean, don't you think

0:59:52.480 --> 0:59:54.760
<v Speaker 1>that DM men don't have a safe space either. That's

0:59:54.800 --> 0:59:57.200
<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. No, No, because you're DMN.

0:59:58.200 --> 1:00:00.400
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's what I'm saying, Well all the well, No,

1:00:00.960 --> 1:00:03.080
<v Speaker 3>that just men in general who they transform just I

1:00:03.120 --> 1:00:04.920
<v Speaker 3>don't think they have a safe space to even just

1:00:05.040 --> 1:00:06.920
<v Speaker 3>be open up, even just have an experienced because I

1:00:06.920 --> 1:00:07.440
<v Speaker 3>think that they're mean.

1:00:07.520 --> 1:00:09.760
<v Speaker 2>But you wouldn't consider them DL for not disclosing to

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<v Speaker 2>a woman, like because that's it all.

1:00:12.800 --> 1:00:16.439
<v Speaker 3>Depends on how they're doing it. Like if you're dating

1:00:16.480 --> 1:00:18.320
<v Speaker 3>a woman, if you're in an active relationship with a

1:00:18.360 --> 1:00:22.920
<v Speaker 3>woman and all you're doing is having sex with trains, okay,

1:00:24.040 --> 1:00:27.040
<v Speaker 3>then that you need to tell this lady what you're doing.

1:00:27.360 --> 1:00:29.600
<v Speaker 2>But if but if a man has dealt with a

1:00:29.720 --> 1:00:31.480
<v Speaker 2>trans woman in his past, you don't feel like he

1:00:31.560 --> 1:00:35.280
<v Speaker 2>has to disclose that to his next partner. Why I

1:00:35.360 --> 1:00:38.680
<v Speaker 2>don't think you need to disclose it unless I'm outside

1:00:38.720 --> 1:00:41.280
<v Speaker 2>of your type. I don't ever want to be outside

1:00:41.280 --> 1:00:42.959
<v Speaker 2>of someone's type and feel like I'm out the loop.

1:00:43.360 --> 1:00:45.400
<v Speaker 2>And that's the thing with bisexuality that a lot of

1:00:45.480 --> 1:00:48.800
<v Speaker 2>women there's this dicey thing. I don't give a fuck

1:00:48.800 --> 1:00:51.240
<v Speaker 2>if you kissed the nigga, fuck whatever happened. But if

1:00:51.280 --> 1:00:53.640
<v Speaker 2>you really like to be actible men, I want to

1:00:53.640 --> 1:00:54.240
<v Speaker 2>be included in that.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, here's the thing we're talking about. A man here,

1:00:59.520 --> 1:01:04.560
<v Speaker 1>what type do me? And God? We say they chicken sandwich?

1:01:04.600 --> 1:01:07.200
<v Speaker 1>Bit what that's true? They got So it's you're still

1:01:07.280 --> 1:01:11.880
<v Speaker 1>his type? True, But he just had some some he

1:01:11.960 --> 1:01:15.680
<v Speaker 1>probably had an experience. An experience to me isn't worth

1:01:16.080 --> 1:01:19.920
<v Speaker 1>doing the whole confessional. But you that's what I mean. Yeah,

1:01:21.840 --> 1:01:25.840
<v Speaker 1>explor or jail or jail or because it's one of

1:01:25.960 --> 1:01:30.080
<v Speaker 1>us in your neighborhood. Experiment's one of us in the neighborhood,

1:01:30.360 --> 1:01:31.880
<v Speaker 1>one or two of us in the neighborhood.

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<v Speaker 2>That's the craziest thing to People are acting like trans women.

1:01:37.520 --> 1:01:41.480
<v Speaker 1>Just nooped out of nowhere. Come all the hood niggas

1:01:41.640 --> 1:01:42.320
<v Speaker 1>where I was from.

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<v Speaker 3>Let me not say that, not all of them, but

1:01:44.680 --> 1:01:47.600
<v Speaker 3>a good a good click of them niggas doesn't funck

1:01:47.920 --> 1:01:48.200
<v Speaker 3>out of me.

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<v Speaker 1>But exploring is so natural and that's why I don't

1:01:51.360 --> 1:01:53.200
<v Speaker 1>feel like we're a good clicking of them.

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<v Speaker 3>Niggas don't fucking shit out of me because I transitioned

1:01:56.240 --> 1:01:59.280
<v Speaker 3>in front of them, and so it was just like, Yo,

1:02:00.640 --> 1:02:02.840
<v Speaker 3>they were intragued, How did you let me see your titties?

1:02:03.560 --> 1:02:05.520
<v Speaker 1>Let me see how you how you do and they

1:02:05.880 --> 1:02:07.560
<v Speaker 1>and they often wanted to know if you still had

1:02:07.640 --> 1:02:07.960
<v Speaker 1>your dick.

1:02:08.080 --> 1:02:10.439
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, let me sip you still got it. You gotta

1:02:10.480 --> 1:02:12.320
<v Speaker 3>pussy down. Then some of them was like, until you

1:02:12.360 --> 1:02:13.720
<v Speaker 3>get that deck cut off, you ain't gonna give you

1:02:13.760 --> 1:02:16.560
<v Speaker 3>no dick. Then I got older and famous, and you

1:02:16.680 --> 1:02:19.440
<v Speaker 3>know it was and then they changed. They would tell

1:02:19.480 --> 1:02:22.720
<v Speaker 3>me that offensive to you because we were friends, we

1:02:22.800 --> 1:02:24.680
<v Speaker 3>were joking and all that. Until you get you a pussy,

1:02:24.720 --> 1:02:26.200
<v Speaker 3>I ain't gonna motherfuck you, you know, dick. Because I's

1:02:26.200 --> 1:02:27.320
<v Speaker 3>been like, let me get some of that deck. Let

1:02:27.320 --> 1:02:29.520
<v Speaker 3>me you not doing that until you get get you

1:02:29.560 --> 1:02:30.640
<v Speaker 3>a pussy, and then I'm gonna give.

1:02:30.520 --> 1:02:31.800
<v Speaker 1>You some of the stick. And I feel like that's

1:02:31.840 --> 1:02:34.240
<v Speaker 1>the most exciting thing. But it's just fun. And I've

1:02:34.320 --> 1:02:35.680
<v Speaker 1>always been a bubbly personality.

1:02:35.680 --> 1:02:38.120
<v Speaker 3>I've always been I've always you know, shared Another nigga

1:02:38.160 --> 1:02:39.480
<v Speaker 3>used to want to whoop a nigga as if they

1:02:39.520 --> 1:02:40.080
<v Speaker 3>was fucking with me.

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<v Speaker 1>I lived in the trap, in the trap, my my, my,

1:02:45.960 --> 1:02:49.640
<v Speaker 1>My duplex. Door was this way. The trap duplex though

1:02:49.720 --> 1:02:51.640
<v Speaker 1>was this way. The niggas will come over there, bad

1:02:51.720 --> 1:02:54.360
<v Speaker 1>weed the niggas and slides. Then they'll come over.

1:02:54.680 --> 1:02:56.880
<v Speaker 3>Then they'll come over here, knock on the door, and

1:02:57.000 --> 1:03:00.080
<v Speaker 3>you got all you gotta. I'm like, you know, but

1:03:00.160 --> 1:03:02.880
<v Speaker 3>you know, I don't see and they're like, what you

1:03:03.000 --> 1:03:03.400
<v Speaker 3>got to here?

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<v Speaker 1>You know?

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<v Speaker 3>Me us because it's because especially when you're a trans

1:03:07.200 --> 1:03:09.560
<v Speaker 3>girl in the neighborhood, your.

1:03:09.480 --> 1:03:14.280
<v Speaker 1>House is marked. Everybody felt with your house is smart,

1:03:14.440 --> 1:03:18.680
<v Speaker 1>like everybody knows. Don't be because either they're telling you

1:03:18.920 --> 1:03:22.560
<v Speaker 1>don't be fooled by that or either they saying, bro,

1:03:22.800 --> 1:03:25.760
<v Speaker 1>that motherfucker got what are they trying to jump out

1:03:25.760 --> 1:03:27.760
<v Speaker 1>the back doors? Some of them, Man, this came out

1:03:27.760 --> 1:03:29.360
<v Speaker 1>of the back door, you know, and then you know

1:03:29.520 --> 1:03:30.800
<v Speaker 1>someone came through the front door.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Ship, it all depends on the town.

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<v Speaker 3>But today, you know, I've had me and profess love

1:03:36.600 --> 1:03:39.240
<v Speaker 3>they love for me after I had a lot of ship,

1:03:39.320 --> 1:03:43.360
<v Speaker 3>but I've also had to be emotionally unattached because also

1:03:43.640 --> 1:03:44.840
<v Speaker 3>even in my fun times.

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<v Speaker 1>Those were those men's experience. I wasn't realizing. I got

1:03:49.800 --> 1:03:50.280
<v Speaker 1>one question.

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<v Speaker 2>I gotta ask, come on, I want to know the

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<v Speaker 2>interaction you had that is memorable to you of a

1:03:57.960 --> 1:04:01.640
<v Speaker 2>woman coming to you about out her neighbors, oh by

1:04:01.720 --> 1:04:02.280
<v Speaker 2>her man.

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<v Speaker 1>And whether she was crying, whether she was like, let

1:04:05.720 --> 1:04:07.040
<v Speaker 1>me just get I mean I had that a couple

1:04:07.080 --> 1:04:09.880
<v Speaker 1>of times. A few times I actually had that about

1:04:09.880 --> 1:04:12.320
<v Speaker 1>the boy that rode on the bicycle. Of that to

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<v Speaker 1>my because we gave you the fifty dollars, these women

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<v Speaker 1>angry with you. It was very much so like.

1:04:21.480 --> 1:04:21.760
<v Speaker 4>It was.

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<v Speaker 1>I just was shook because I didn't know that that

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<v Speaker 1>day he had a girl. I was gonna say, the relationships,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know what it was. You know what I'm saying,

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<v Speaker 1>It's just fun, you right, I don't give the fuck.

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<v Speaker 1>But he was really really liked me a lot, and

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<v Speaker 1>and a little bit of that ship got into the streets.

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<v Speaker 1>A little bit got into the streets, and that's how

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<v Speaker 1>the girl, you know. But then I found out that

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<v Speaker 1>he was a transchaser, so he had done had a few.

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<v Speaker 1>The girl. I was just a new bitch on the block.

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<v Speaker 3>Rights, So the girl was trying to figure out you.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't want to call no names.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what she called me.

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<v Speaker 3>Such as as you said, I'm saying, no, I'm I'm

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<v Speaker 3>this not because obviously he had been with this how

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<v Speaker 3>I found not? Oh, you you've been busied with the

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<v Speaker 3>other girls, so you can do this, okay, she said, oh, because.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, what happened? And it was very much

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<v Speaker 1>so like girl, what happened? And it's just like so

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<v Speaker 1>you and such and such. I'm like, well, I mean

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<v Speaker 1>I know him like I know him.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because if anybody come up to me and ask

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<v Speaker 2>me if I ain't gonna I mean, I know him

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<v Speaker 2>right here.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know who you are, period. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>who you are. I don't know who you, but I

1:05:41.320 --> 1:05:46.200
<v Speaker 1>know him. Uh, bitch, he's not mind because you're not.

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<v Speaker 3>Gonna catch him at my house because if you do,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna put in my side because he can't stay here.

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<v Speaker 1>But what he doing to you, he's not gonna do

1:05:52.520 --> 1:05:52.680
<v Speaker 1>to me.

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<v Speaker 3>And that's where I'm at too with stuff in life,

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<v Speaker 3>like all the things I've done with men, and I

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<v Speaker 3>know how men move.

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<v Speaker 1>It makes me. It gives me reservations with me and

1:06:02.360 --> 1:06:05.840
<v Speaker 1>like ship because they they listen. That's why we said this.

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<v Speaker 1>Why be telling ladies, y'all? Girl, you how you you

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<v Speaker 1>can't be thinking about no treads? The man's fucking the

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<v Speaker 1>man will fuck this. Cut hold of this pockabook and

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<v Speaker 1>right you know everything? Oh yah, y'all got y'all all.

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<v Speaker 2>We're gonna spread stubs right now by the way real

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<v Speaker 2>quick too before we get out. If you guys want

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<v Speaker 2>to catch Tys Madison on all the things she's doing,

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<v Speaker 2>can you please let them know how busy of a

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<v Speaker 2>b you is.

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<v Speaker 1>I am listen. I'm a judge on RuPaul's Drag Race.

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<v Speaker 2>It is. I'm gonna yes. I wasn't not saying I

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<v Speaker 2>thought I was gonna smell. I wasn't ready for to

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<v Speaker 2>smell this every this, what's everything?

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<v Speaker 1>Wow?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a I'm a judge on Rue Paul's Drag Race.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm on a host of television shows and series. I

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<v Speaker 3>have my own show called The Maddie in the morning

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<v Speaker 3>show when I do a segment called fag Talk. I

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<v Speaker 3>have a residency here and at Lanta. I want you

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<v Speaker 3>ladies to come out the next time if he will

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<v Speaker 3>you know me here here in two more weeks, will

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<v Speaker 3>be my guest.

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<v Speaker 2>I will.

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<v Speaker 3>I have a residency here. It's called the Somatian Morning

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<v Speaker 3>Show Live. I said, the City Winery.

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<v Speaker 1>We come out.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, we do what we do, what I do

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<v Speaker 3>in the morning time. You know, I'm always on tour,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm always in the city. I'm hosting.

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<v Speaker 1>I do everything, hosts so lot, I do everything. I

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<v Speaker 1>love it.

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<v Speaker 2>And if y'all don't know either, I know ain't no

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<v Speaker 2>no no more, big big, big bitch dot com. However,

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<v Speaker 2>I know a lot of y'all still have your cowboy

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<v Speaker 2>boots uh ready for for act two.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's Tis Battison is a graveyard ward god, honeys

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<v Speaker 1>beyond honey, yes, god, you know why?

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<v Speaker 2>Can I tell you why?

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<v Speaker 3>Because because I'm dog brown dogs, henning lights, hening beige,

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<v Speaker 3>fluorescent beige.

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<v Speaker 1>Bitch, I'm black.

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<v Speaker 3>That's motherfucking why, bitch, Because I'm black, I'm black like that.

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<v Speaker 3>That was one of the craziest And you know everybody

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<v Speaker 3>gagged about that too. Oh you know they gagged, but

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<v Speaker 3>they talk about all the things.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't got us. Get some you definitely get it up.

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<v Speaker 3>Y'all can get my perfume. You visit uh method dot com.

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<v Speaker 3>But the ladies you can put the q R whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>And everything. It smells so good. But it's also like

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<v Speaker 1>this floral give it a little like it. It's better.

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<v Speaker 1>It's very.

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<v Speaker 3>It took me to Leachy. It took me Leach almost

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<v Speaker 3>a year to get the right formula that I wanted.

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<v Speaker 3>But I do want to see the bottle because I'm

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<v Speaker 3>picky on with the bottle of the bottle is simple,

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<v Speaker 3>because listen, I like simple bottle. Me tell you the

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<v Speaker 3>bottle because it's.

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<v Speaker 1>Like Whitney Houston. You know what we did.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, Whitney came out there to pay a jeans

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<v Speaker 3>and a T shirt. But that I just want to

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<v Speaker 3>see the bottle because.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a little bit.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not a huge fan, but Nicki Minaja's perfume smells

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<v Speaker 2>good to the bottle. Looked like I should be twelve.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like a Barbie doll head girl. I'm just I'm

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<v Speaker 2>just not a fan, so I'm a I like liking

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<v Speaker 2>that very simple, simple perfume.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I love It's just this is when they asked

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<v Speaker 1>you what you got on everything is that. I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>I love it. I love it.

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<v Speaker 2>But we're gonna have to do a part two. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>sometime soon, we're gonna have emotional it was because it

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<v Speaker 2>was gonna get deeper. I'm glad we will well. No,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm love I love how deep it was, and because

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<v Speaker 2>and did, but because there are girls, and because y'all

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<v Speaker 2>did have such different conversations. If you enjoyed tes Madison,

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<v Speaker 2>go check out her interview with our girls poor mind.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my God, I love my baby, yes love like baby.

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<v Speaker 2>Yesterday, but we wanted to be sure we did also

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<v Speaker 2>give just a different interview. You did so great over

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<v Speaker 2>there on their show. But y'all can find out more

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<v Speaker 2>about Madisonova there. And also, if you want to support us,

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<v Speaker 2>head on over to our patreon y'all patreon dot com

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<v Speaker 2>backslash Horrible Decisions. We will be back with another episode

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<v Speaker 2>next week, as we always see you on Monday. This

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<v Speaker 2>has been yet another episode of Horrible Decisions by y'all

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<v Speaker 2>by Girl.

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<v Speaker 5>Fast from the Horrible Decisions podcast. We're sending our condolences

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<v Speaker 5>to the family and friends of Dallas ped and of

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<v Speaker 5>course the internet's everyone who loved him. He was one

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<v Speaker 5>of our favorite moments on Horrible Decisions. Ever, he is

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<v Speaker 5>obviously someone that will be hard to forget, and we

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<v Speaker 5>are so lucky to have some of these podcast memories

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<v Speaker 5>that will live on.

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<v Speaker 1>We wish all of you peace during this difficult time

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<v Speaker 1>of grieving.

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<v Speaker 2>Were you turned on by her wearing them first and

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<v Speaker 2>then you want to masturbate in them?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I gotta be honest with you.

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<v Speaker 4>And no one had put the shoe on yet, but

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<v Speaker 4>I imagine the person wearing the shoe, WHOA, how fi

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<v Speaker 4>are they is? They were just gonna be so fucking incredible?

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<v Speaker 1>And did you buy her this year? Well? Actually I was.

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<v Speaker 4>I was working at Marshall's at the time, okay, and

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<v Speaker 4>I'm in the back stock was doing this?

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<v Speaker 2>I wasn't.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, yeah, I was younger. I never buy marshall

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<v Speaker 1>Marshalls didn't I was, I was, I was in my thirties.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you take it? Did you do it?

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<v Speaker 4>No? I was in the I was just in a

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<v Speaker 4>backstock room, and I was like, Yo, the person that's

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<v Speaker 4>gonna wear this, she was gonna be so fucking fire,

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<v Speaker 4>and she's gonna beautiful, and she's gonna let me fuck

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<v Speaker 4>because I made her laugh and shit, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 4>like her calfs are so crazy and I just I

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<v Speaker 4>gave it up.

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<v Speaker 1>I gave it up.