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Speaker 1: So let's begin this week's episode. Yuess, how are you feeling?

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Speaker 1: I am good. I am good, I am good. I'm

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Speaker 1: actually doing great good. I'm like, why are you hesitating? No? No, no,

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Speaker 1: it was good. I wanted to make sure I heard you.

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Speaker 1: It was like some kind of static situation happening, but

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Speaker 1: it's cool now Okay, yeah, no, but I've been great. Good. Well,

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Speaker 1: I'm just gonna say thank you so much for sharing

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Speaker 1: your story on being a survivor from one of the

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Speaker 1: most deadly students in the United States history, the post

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Speaker 1: nightclub shooting that occur in Atlanta, Florida, on June eleven. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: is that you June twelve? The shooting happened at pm mmm,

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Speaker 1: because I was like, it was from like two o'clock

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Speaker 1: the hospital went on't like a lockdown. So like what

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Speaker 1: happened was it's like, let's start from the beginning. Yes,

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Speaker 1: so so you're up from Philly. Yes, So what made

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Speaker 1: you your cousin and your best friend go to Florida?

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Speaker 1: So it was actually, um, it was a vacation. So

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Speaker 1: like my family does, like, um, we haven't done one since,

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Speaker 1: but like our my family does this like annual vacation

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Speaker 1: you know, my aunt was like, we're going to Orlando.

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Speaker 1: It's an easy vacation. And my cousin was actually she

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Speaker 1: was graduated from high school that same year, so and

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Speaker 1: that with all in that same breath, we were like,

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Speaker 1: June three, So we were like, oh yeah, we're going

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Speaker 1: going to go to Inlando. We went a few years prior,

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Speaker 1: So you know, we were really excited. So, um, I

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Speaker 1: was just as excited as we were year every year. Um,

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Speaker 1: so you know, she was like, no, we gotta do something.

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Speaker 1: her mom decided to go and google some places to go,

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Speaker 1: and what ended up happening was, um, they end up

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Speaker 1: coming across the club. My cousin was like, you listen,

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Speaker 1: go to the clubs here. So um, we were like,

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Speaker 1: posts before we got there. We didn't know that it

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Speaker 1: was lgbt Q plus Positive club. We didn't know that.

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Speaker 1: So what happened was and we didn't care like that.

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Speaker 1: But don't best though, they are the best clubs. I

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Speaker 1: tell people that all the time because I hate going

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Speaker 1: but just want to sit there. I'm not I didn't

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Speaker 1: That's just not what it is for me. So you know,

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Speaker 1: we're like to dance, I'll sweat my hair, are all

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Speaker 1: So um my cousin's like, let's go here, and they

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Speaker 1: gotta get ratings on social media, I mean on like

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Speaker 1: We were able to get there. The cover charge was

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Speaker 1: So it was like we ran in there, but they,

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Speaker 1: So we couldn't get no drinks. So what they did

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Speaker 1: hands with like these big, huge like markers, and it

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Speaker 1: we told him he was like, we actually are. We're

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Speaker 1: coming off a vacation. Um, my old friend. She actually

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Speaker 1: she like a plus one ticket from because it wasn't

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Speaker 1: a bit that night. We didn't know it was like

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Speaker 1: So when she got the plus one ticket, we actually

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Speaker 1: then like the girl was like, I can't end up

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Speaker 1: coming by myself when our friends like you know, flaked

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Speaker 1: So that's how we got there. We did for her

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Speaker 1: when y'all was there, I was having fun, Like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: we had a freaking blaged because I think I saw pictures.

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Speaker 1: It was like mad people there. Yeah, so that night

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Speaker 1: we had so much fun. It was and it had

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Speaker 1: and yeah, girl, yes, we had so much fun. So

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Speaker 1: I mean it was fabulous, Like we loved it. So

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Speaker 1: actually still got something. I got their numbers to this day,

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Speaker 1: like we had a ball. So then like that was

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Speaker 1: like the Island and Caribbean music. On the patio area,

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Speaker 1: all the other stuff. Like they had all of that playing.

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Speaker 1: know how will we get home? I said, well, I

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Speaker 1: We were in the house, it was like thirty minutes.

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Speaker 1: she wasn't This wasn't nothing new for us, but we

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Speaker 1: the police officers. They were trying to negotiate with him.

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00:20:55,400 --> 00:20:58,000
Speaker 1: He didn't have him on speaker, but he was talking,

430
00:20:58,040 --> 00:20:59,760
Speaker 1: you know, you gotta stop bothering my country. And I

431
00:20:59,760 --> 00:21:02,680
Speaker 1: read back and all this other stuff and like we

432
00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:05,679
Speaker 1: were like, oh wow, like this man show you specifically

433
00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:07,600
Speaker 1: come to a gate club to prove that point, Like

434
00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:10,320
Speaker 1: you know, it's like none of that you think about

435
00:21:10,359 --> 00:21:12,159
Speaker 1: it in hindsight, like you you came always to a

436
00:21:12,240 --> 00:21:14,240
Speaker 1: gate club to do that. So it was then we

437
00:21:14,320 --> 00:21:16,680
Speaker 1: found out later than the down line and I heard

438
00:21:16,720 --> 00:21:19,480
Speaker 1: he was yeah, because I heard doing some research that

439
00:21:19,640 --> 00:21:22,760
Speaker 1: he was going to the club frequently. Yeah, he was

440
00:21:22,760 --> 00:21:24,879
Speaker 1: a frequent visitor. We heard that too. We don't even

441
00:21:24,920 --> 00:21:28,000
Speaker 1: how true that is. We don't live there, so we

442
00:21:28,040 --> 00:21:31,600
Speaker 1: don't so yeah, so like when we heard that, I

443
00:21:31,680 --> 00:21:35,199
Speaker 1: was like, I'm not surprised because specifically he came on

444
00:21:35,320 --> 00:21:37,880
Speaker 1: this night. So but he's also but they said there's

445
00:21:37,920 --> 00:21:40,760
Speaker 1: all people some of the like the clubgoers would say,

446
00:21:40,840 --> 00:21:43,320
Speaker 1: like you know, they they've seen him visit the club before.

447
00:21:43,480 --> 00:21:48,280
Speaker 1: This isn't his first rodeo there. Yeah, so like you know,

448
00:21:48,800 --> 00:21:51,159
Speaker 1: again we don't know because we don't live there. But

449
00:21:51,200 --> 00:21:53,720
Speaker 1: we also as we was doing research as like you know,

450
00:21:53,800 --> 00:21:55,960
Speaker 1: we got better than an't grow like him through the story.

451
00:21:56,440 --> 00:21:58,280
Speaker 1: You know, we started to look into like why, like

452
00:21:58,359 --> 00:22:00,480
Speaker 1: what made him do this? And he was you know,

453
00:22:00,520 --> 00:22:02,600
Speaker 1: they were saying like his his family had a problem

454
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:07,720
Speaker 1: with good people. Um, they were saying that we um,

455
00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:11,199
Speaker 1: he was gating himself. It was under cover and like

456
00:22:11,280 --> 00:22:13,720
Speaker 1: a whole it was like a whole thing. But again

457
00:22:14,080 --> 00:22:16,720
Speaker 1: we don't know that to be true. We don't notice. Man,

458
00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:19,480
Speaker 1: we was just there on a whim and got hurt.

459
00:22:19,760 --> 00:22:22,720
Speaker 1: Like that's what that was for us. We just wanted

460
00:22:22,760 --> 00:22:25,320
Speaker 1: trying to understand how they this declared. The sad thing

461
00:22:25,359 --> 00:22:28,320
Speaker 1: about this entire process is my cousin even though she

462
00:22:28,400 --> 00:22:32,560
Speaker 1: was a basketball like phenomenon, like she was amazing, like

463
00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:35,920
Speaker 1: you know, even though that was her thing, she also

464
00:22:36,040 --> 00:22:38,080
Speaker 1: was going to school for criminology and she wanted to

465
00:22:38,080 --> 00:22:42,120
Speaker 1: study war criminals do the things that they do. God

466
00:22:42,480 --> 00:22:46,159
Speaker 1: doing that like not being able to do that. Well,

467
00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:49,080
Speaker 1: I want to touch on this part because I noticed

468
00:22:49,119 --> 00:22:50,760
Speaker 1: you said that your cousin was on top of you

469
00:22:50,800 --> 00:22:52,480
Speaker 1: and you were saying how like you felt her weight

470
00:22:52,520 --> 00:22:59,760
Speaker 1: getting heavy? Yeah, so that was a um so what

471
00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:02,199
Speaker 1: in't that pappen? It was My cousin was saying her

472
00:23:02,240 --> 00:23:05,439
Speaker 1: back was total. She wanted to move. I told her

473
00:23:05,480 --> 00:23:08,840
Speaker 1: now she wanted to get up, and I kept telling

474
00:23:08,880 --> 00:23:11,280
Speaker 1: her now when she was like my back room, and

475
00:23:11,320 --> 00:23:14,040
Speaker 1: I said, if you move, you gotta be crazy quiet

476
00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:16,840
Speaker 1: like you. It's it's gotta be you gotta I don't

477
00:23:16,880 --> 00:23:19,479
Speaker 1: even want to hear you. You gotta be crazy quiet.

478
00:23:19,640 --> 00:23:21,320
Speaker 1: We was laying by this point, we was laying in

479
00:23:21,400 --> 00:23:25,160
Speaker 1: like a blood everywhere. The bathroom was completely black and red.

480
00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:27,560
Speaker 1: Bad to y'all. Body hurting because y'all was in the

481
00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,000
Speaker 1: bathroom for a couple of hours. Believe it or not,

482
00:23:30,080 --> 00:23:33,160
Speaker 1: we didn't feel anything at this point. If he came

483
00:23:33,200 --> 00:23:35,840
Speaker 1: and shot us again, like you know, for me, if

484
00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:37,639
Speaker 1: he came and shot me again, I wouldn't felt it.

485
00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:40,840
Speaker 1: That's how That's how long we've been sitting there. So

486
00:23:41,240 --> 00:23:43,359
Speaker 1: what ended up occurring at that point, So my cousin

487
00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:45,480
Speaker 1: she got on my back. I let her get switched

488
00:23:45,480 --> 00:23:48,520
Speaker 1: positions on my back and she laying on top of me.

489
00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,040
Speaker 1: So I told her to be really quiet, and I

490
00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:53,480
Speaker 1: remember reaching back and grabbed her and she kept tapping

491
00:23:53,560 --> 00:23:55,760
Speaker 1: me like you know, I'm sorry, I'm good. So like

492
00:23:56,240 --> 00:23:58,639
Speaker 1: my hand stayed back there most of the time to

493
00:23:58,720 --> 00:24:01,080
Speaker 1: hold her because I just wanted to make sure she

494
00:24:01,160 --> 00:24:04,200
Speaker 1: was sitting where she was at. So and I'm just like,

495
00:24:04,240 --> 00:24:06,480
Speaker 1: you know, not being able to move because we don't

496
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:09,399
Speaker 1: stay in this one position. And there was actually and

497
00:24:09,480 --> 00:24:11,320
Speaker 1: part of the reason why my legs fell asleep was

498
00:24:11,359 --> 00:24:13,920
Speaker 1: that there was a lady that was behind me who

499
00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:15,920
Speaker 1: was laying on my legs, and that was part of

500
00:24:15,960 --> 00:24:18,000
Speaker 1: me the while they were sleeping. On top of the

501
00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:20,879
Speaker 1: fact that the bullet didn't probably paralyzed me for that moment,

502
00:24:21,359 --> 00:24:24,480
Speaker 1: so um, but there's somebody else that was laying on

503
00:24:24,520 --> 00:24:26,359
Speaker 1: top of me. And I remember reaching back and grabbing

504
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:28,159
Speaker 1: my cousin and I just kept tapping her bridge to you.

505
00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:31,600
Speaker 1: She was okay, yeah. So then I remember because now

506
00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:33,359
Speaker 1: at this point, it's just me laying in front of

507
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:35,560
Speaker 1: the stall. So you know, how like we're go into something.

508
00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:37,920
Speaker 1: Most public platforms, like they had the stall, you could

509
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:41,280
Speaker 1: just see people's feet. You could see him pacing back

510
00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:44,120
Speaker 1: and forth in the bathroom, just casing, trying to get

511
00:24:44,119 --> 00:24:45,879
Speaker 1: that gun and jam. But he would stop doing that

512
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:47,600
Speaker 1: for a minute. I think he would do it a game.

513
00:24:47,920 --> 00:24:51,600
Speaker 1: And it was just a bunch of weird stuff. Um

514
00:24:51,640 --> 00:24:57,119
Speaker 1: so uh and what asked he was doing that? He um.

515
00:24:57,160 --> 00:24:59,480
Speaker 1: I remember him looking down and he just looked under

516
00:24:59,480 --> 00:25:01,480
Speaker 1: the stall and he laughed like you know, he kind

517
00:25:01,480 --> 00:25:04,000
Speaker 1: of chuckled a little bit. He was like oh yeah,

518
00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:06,600
Speaker 1: like as if this was something that he was used

519
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:12,480
Speaker 1: to doing. So yeah, so like him looking didn't me

520
00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:16,280
Speaker 1: dead in my face? My mom mos reaction was to

521
00:25:16,320 --> 00:25:18,159
Speaker 1: sit there and play dead like I died with my

522
00:25:18,240 --> 00:25:21,280
Speaker 1: eyes open like that. I just getting moved. I didn't blank.

523
00:25:21,320 --> 00:25:24,840
Speaker 1: I don't even breathe, um because like the fear was

524
00:25:24,880 --> 00:25:27,160
Speaker 1: he was gonna shoot me in my face, like yeah,

525
00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:29,679
Speaker 1: you know, I just had to sit there and you know,

526
00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:32,600
Speaker 1: he just was like old gear and it just it's

527
00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:36,240
Speaker 1: definitely a situation that again, like I said, naturally everyday person,

528
00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:38,199
Speaker 1: but this is something you were seeing a movie, like

529
00:25:38,280 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 1: a scary movie or like something like that. This is

530
00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:46,080
Speaker 1: this was never something to um no, but I couldn't

531
00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:48,240
Speaker 1: even imagine, like you even you're telling the story and

532
00:25:48,320 --> 00:25:50,159
Speaker 1: just thinking about when I was in my research, I

533
00:25:50,160 --> 00:25:52,119
Speaker 1: was thinking about when it actually happened, and when I

534
00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:54,480
Speaker 1: first heard about it, I was like, yo, like this

535
00:25:54,560 --> 00:25:58,800
Speaker 1: is fucking bucked, Like this is scary. Yeah, and so

536
00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:01,240
Speaker 1: like I never thought I would every like, so it's

537
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:04,119
Speaker 1: crazy they save your history repeats itself. My father was

538
00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 1: shot at twenty one, twenty one the stomach and you

539
00:26:10,840 --> 00:26:13,200
Speaker 1: were showing your stomach and I was shoting my stomach

540
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:14,720
Speaker 1: it twenty today, was saying, like, you know, my dad

541
00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:17,080
Speaker 1: was like, it's crazy how history repeats itself, and like

542
00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:19,600
Speaker 1: you know you always think, like you know, this would

543
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:21,280
Speaker 1: never happened to me. I would never have to be

544
00:26:21,320 --> 00:26:25,680
Speaker 1: a person telling this story. Um, and you know, having

545
00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:27,600
Speaker 1: to share my story and just understand. I clicked, like

546
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:29,920
Speaker 1: you don't understand that this is something that's a part

547
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:32,520
Speaker 1: of my life and it doesn't make my life. So

548
00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:35,679
Speaker 1: it was either sit in one space or don't or

549
00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:37,720
Speaker 1: do or you sit in on stage of that and

550
00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,800
Speaker 1: I chose not to because, like I went through, it

551
00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:43,240
Speaker 1: was a whirlwin after that situation, it wasn't just post

552
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:47,920
Speaker 1: itself m hm. So it ended up being a situation

553
00:26:47,960 --> 00:26:51,560
Speaker 1: where I was being blamed for my cousin's dad, and yeah,

554
00:26:51,600 --> 00:26:54,160
Speaker 1: that was that was kind of messed up. But before

555
00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:55,800
Speaker 1: we go, I don't ask you one my question about

556
00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:57,960
Speaker 1: to standoff because I know that the shooter and the police.

557
00:26:58,680 --> 00:27:01,880
Speaker 1: We're standing off for like three three hours and then

558
00:27:01,920 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 1: eventually they killed them. Yes, so it wasn't three hours.

559
00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:09,680
Speaker 1: It was a few minutes, like they keep saying, yeah,

560
00:27:09,800 --> 00:27:12,000
Speaker 1: three out three because that's how how long it was

561
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:16,719
Speaker 1: before the police came in. Um. So what happened was

562
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 1: we as we're laying there, it's like crazy quiet, like

563
00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:23,760
Speaker 1: you can hear a pen, mice, everything, um, anything that

564
00:27:23,800 --> 00:27:25,159
Speaker 1: would hit that floor, you can hear it and it

565
00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:27,560
Speaker 1: would vibrate through the whole floor because that's how quiet

566
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:31,440
Speaker 1: it was. So what happened was we hear these bombs

567
00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:36,399
Speaker 1: go off. Now you hear these like explosions, so you're like, whoa,

568
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:40,480
Speaker 1: Like at this point you hear people like, oh my god,

569
00:27:40,520 --> 00:27:43,320
Speaker 1: like you're here to heavy breathing. Now you hear it

570
00:27:43,359 --> 00:27:47,720
Speaker 1: like it's a lot. So you hear this this explosion,

571
00:27:48,200 --> 00:27:49,960
Speaker 1: and then you hear a second one and it gets

572
00:27:50,040 --> 00:27:54,080
Speaker 1: much closer. So now we are extremely scared because we

573
00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:57,000
Speaker 1: don't know where is this coming from. Right now, this

574
00:27:57,040 --> 00:27:58,840
Speaker 1: man was definitely in the bathroom when he was on

575
00:27:58,880 --> 00:28:00,760
Speaker 1: the phone with the police officers talking about how he

576
00:28:00,800 --> 00:28:05,560
Speaker 1: had enough explosives to light a city block. So we

577
00:28:05,560 --> 00:28:09,240
Speaker 1: were thinking he now detonated these bombs, but we were

578
00:28:09,359 --> 00:28:12,040
Speaker 1: I quickly realized it wasn't him because he started to

579
00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:16,840
Speaker 1: run around like he was in frantic inside of the bathroom.

580
00:28:16,920 --> 00:28:20,960
Speaker 1: So what happened was he before before they let off

581
00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:24,120
Speaker 1: that third explosion? You hear them say after the second one,

582
00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:26,920
Speaker 1: you know, anybody who can hear this or hear us,

583
00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:31,680
Speaker 1: please get close to the wall. And you anybody who

584
00:28:31,680 --> 00:28:35,480
Speaker 1: could hear move, see, breathe anything you heard the move,

585
00:28:36,200 --> 00:28:38,600
Speaker 1: get it because close to the wall as you possibly can,

586
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 1: because that's how they were coming into the building. Well,

587
00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:45,240
Speaker 1: that third explosion just so happened to be our bathrooms,

588
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:50,960
Speaker 1: thore and the third explosion. When that third explosion came,

589
00:28:51,440 --> 00:28:54,320
Speaker 1: you see him run straight into the bathroom with us.

590
00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:58,200
Speaker 1: What he ran straight into the bathroom with us? And

591
00:28:58,520 --> 00:29:03,920
Speaker 1: what happened was he I don't like this this part.

592
00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:06,160
Speaker 1: This part is where it gets really touchy because it's like,

593
00:29:06,360 --> 00:29:09,800
Speaker 1: you know, I was in disbelief for a long time.

594
00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:14,800
Speaker 1: So somebody must have moved in the stall and you

595
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:18,160
Speaker 1: heard him say hey you and he shoot three more times.

596
00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:20,720
Speaker 1: This is the part where you're asking me about my

597
00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:25,640
Speaker 1: cousin's body getting heavy. That was that moment, So in

598
00:29:25,760 --> 00:29:29,200
Speaker 1: my mind he didn't shoot her. I think she passed out,

599
00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:33,600
Speaker 1: but I know he shot three more times, but my

600
00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:35,800
Speaker 1: mind is done doing something else. He didn't shoot her

601
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:39,160
Speaker 1: like she was alive with me the whole time. When

602
00:29:39,200 --> 00:29:41,920
Speaker 1: he after he shot killed her, that explosion happened and

603
00:29:41,960 --> 00:29:44,240
Speaker 1: he came running out of the stall with him and

604
00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:49,280
Speaker 1: the cops started getting engaging into the fire like the

605
00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:54,200
Speaker 1: whole like, you know, back and forth, And at that moment,

606
00:29:54,400 --> 00:29:59,960
Speaker 1: it was just like wow, you know what I mean,

607
00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:04,760
Speaker 1: because now it's bullets ricocheting off her places and we're

608
00:30:04,840 --> 00:30:07,400
Speaker 1: right there, so I get burnt up. The bullets is

609
00:30:07,440 --> 00:30:10,280
Speaker 1: flying skinned my skin and it hurt, like you know,

610
00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:12,880
Speaker 1: I'm trying to hide my arms and stuff, trying from

611
00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:18,880
Speaker 1: getting burnt because I'm feeling that they're hot. So um.

612
00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:22,080
Speaker 1: After that, after you hear him that, you hear him

613
00:30:22,120 --> 00:30:24,560
Speaker 1: yell like he's down, he's dying, He's down, they come

614
00:30:24,760 --> 00:30:27,360
Speaker 1: and and they start pulling people out the store. I

615
00:30:27,400 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 1: remember hearing my old friends screaming to the top of

616
00:30:29,480 --> 00:30:32,040
Speaker 1: her loans because they had to snatch her up. And

617
00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:34,600
Speaker 1: because obviously she can't walk, she does no longer has

618
00:30:34,640 --> 00:30:38,520
Speaker 1: a knee, so you know, they snatched her right up

619
00:30:39,360 --> 00:30:42,080
Speaker 1: and they put her they pull her out of the store.

620
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:45,560
Speaker 1: I pulled get I pulled myself off the floor because

621
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:47,600
Speaker 1: they wanted us to put our hands up. I pulled

622
00:30:47,640 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 1: myself off the floor and I flipped my cousin around

623
00:30:50,480 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 1: because I just kept saying, God, you're gonna give me

624
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:54,600
Speaker 1: the strength to get off this floor. And I got

625
00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:56,880
Speaker 1: up and I pulled my cousin up because now the

626
00:30:56,920 --> 00:30:59,040
Speaker 1: bear froom. The packs bus that, so now the floor

627
00:30:59,160 --> 00:31:02,600
Speaker 1: is filling up. So I flipped her up and pick

628
00:31:02,640 --> 00:31:05,160
Speaker 1: her head up, and I'm shaking there like Carri, please

629
00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:06,760
Speaker 1: get up, get up, get up there here we can

630
00:31:06,800 --> 00:31:09,600
Speaker 1: believe we can leave. Get up. And she's breathing still.

631
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:12,960
Speaker 1: And the guy that was sitting in front of me,

632
00:31:13,040 --> 00:31:19,120
Speaker 1: who was whose name is Richard e he Um, he

633
00:31:19,200 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 1: was like, calm down, calm down. He was so calm

634
00:31:21,320 --> 00:31:23,560
Speaker 1: it was freaky crazy. But he's been in that soll

635
00:31:23,640 --> 00:31:27,000
Speaker 1: the whole time with us and he was never shocked,

636
00:31:27,640 --> 00:31:29,440
Speaker 1: so he was like, calm down, calm down. He was like,

637
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 1: she's still breathing. It's okay, she's still breathing. So in

638
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:34,520
Speaker 1: my mind, I'm the happiest person because I might earn

639
00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:37,240
Speaker 1: she's breathing, but out I need heard of respond to him, right.

640
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 1: So I'm pulling her and I said that, you know.

641
00:31:39,600 --> 00:31:41,680
Speaker 1: They were like, can you get up? And I'm like no,

642
00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:43,720
Speaker 1: but can you take my Please take my sister, because

643
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:46,120
Speaker 1: that's what I kept saying at night, Please take my sister.

644
00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:47,800
Speaker 1: Please take my sister. Thinking in my mind, if I

645
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 1: tell him that this is my sibling, they move quicker,

646
00:31:50,080 --> 00:31:52,480
Speaker 1: even though it's just still my my blood relative. But

647
00:31:53,360 --> 00:31:55,000
Speaker 1: like you know, if I figure if I say that

648
00:31:55,560 --> 00:31:57,920
Speaker 1: like as much, they will understand. So I'm trying to

649
00:31:57,920 --> 00:31:59,760
Speaker 1: get them to respond to me, like, you know, please

650
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:01,760
Speaker 1: take my sister, like we're gonna get her, and I'm

651
00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:04,000
Speaker 1: pulling her because I'm not letting her go. So they

652
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:06,400
Speaker 1: had to like try me off of her in order

653
00:32:06,440 --> 00:32:08,520
Speaker 1: for me to come out the wall. So they pulled

654
00:32:08,520 --> 00:32:10,280
Speaker 1: me out of the wall. I remember them having to

655
00:32:10,320 --> 00:32:14,040
Speaker 1: lift my legs because I physically couldn't move them. I

656
00:32:14,080 --> 00:32:16,720
Speaker 1: remember them pulling me out of the wall, listing my legs,

657
00:32:16,960 --> 00:32:20,480
Speaker 1: and what happened was that they after they pulled my

658
00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 1: legs out of the wall, I kept telling that my

659
00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:25,440
Speaker 1: phone dropped out of my bra because I had my phone,

660
00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:29,200
Speaker 1: my I d um everything and my bra said please

661
00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:30,880
Speaker 1: get my phone, get my phone, and it felt it

662
00:32:30,920 --> 00:32:34,600
Speaker 1: was like we'll get it, we'll get it, um and

663
00:32:34,760 --> 00:32:36,400
Speaker 1: I at the time said please get my sister. I

664
00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:39,160
Speaker 1: kept trying to turn around, and I remember them pulling

665
00:32:39,160 --> 00:32:40,720
Speaker 1: my arms like they were kind of dragging me a

666
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:42,840
Speaker 1: bit because I couldn't walk, and I said I'm going

667
00:32:42,920 --> 00:32:45,880
Speaker 1: to pass out. I said, I'm going to pass out.

668
00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:48,120
Speaker 1: They were like you no, no, you can't pass out

669
00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:50,000
Speaker 1: on the Please don't pass out on it. And I

670
00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:53,560
Speaker 1: remember just closing my eyes for that quick moment and

671
00:32:53,720 --> 00:32:56,080
Speaker 1: falling out and like they were carrying me. They had

672
00:32:56,120 --> 00:32:59,200
Speaker 1: to sling me so that they slung me onto a

673
00:32:59,240 --> 00:33:01,760
Speaker 1: pickup trunk. And when they did that, it was like

674
00:33:01,800 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 1: I instantly like jumped back out of it. I'm just like,

675
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:07,680
Speaker 1: get my sister. And I tried to climb over the

676
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:10,400
Speaker 1: truck as it was moving, but like nobody, you can't

677
00:33:10,440 --> 00:33:12,280
Speaker 1: do that, and like you got people in the back

678
00:33:12,280 --> 00:33:13,960
Speaker 1: trying to grab me, and I'm like, get off me,

679
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:18,320
Speaker 1: Please get my sister. So like I'm trying to climb

680
00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:21,040
Speaker 1: off the truck. So then the truck gets us to

681
00:33:21,080 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 1: wherever we ended up. I don't even remember where we

682
00:33:24,440 --> 00:33:27,640
Speaker 1: were going to the club now. I still couldn't tell

683
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:30,680
Speaker 1: you what street they turned down to put us where.

684
00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:32,960
Speaker 1: I don't know where I was at. I just remember

685
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,880
Speaker 1: them pulling us out, and I remember saying, camera people outside.

686
00:33:36,200 --> 00:33:38,840
Speaker 1: They cut all my clothes off outside because they were

687
00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:41,760
Speaker 1: trying to figure out where all my bleeding was coming from.

688
00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:45,560
Speaker 1: So like they cut white pants and I was like,

689
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 1: my god, yeah, they were prestining white, like a pure

690
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:54,720
Speaker 1: white pants. They were no longer white that moment. So um,

691
00:33:54,840 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 1: they cut all my clothes off outside and I remember

692
00:33:57,120 --> 00:33:58,680
Speaker 1: seeing the camera people and I said, tell them to

693
00:33:58,720 --> 00:34:02,320
Speaker 1: stop recording. This is not a recording moment, like, and

694
00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:04,280
Speaker 1: they were like, you know, you can see the police

695
00:34:04,360 --> 00:34:06,440
Speaker 1: run over there and try to get them, like enough

696
00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:08,279
Speaker 1: was enough. You know, they were news people, so you

697
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:10,399
Speaker 1: can see them trying to stop them from a court

698
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:13,480
Speaker 1: in the chaos, and I remember them pulling me into

699
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:15,160
Speaker 1: the thing and I can't. I just kept saying, please

700
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,520
Speaker 1: get my sister, Please get my sister, Please get my sister.

701
00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:20,560
Speaker 1: That's all I kept saying, Like this it that's all

702
00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:22,560
Speaker 1: I said, Please get my sister. I was like, I

703
00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 1: hear one of my sisters. She's screaming, which they had

704
00:34:25,400 --> 00:34:28,080
Speaker 1: she was on the other side, and I remember that

705
00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:30,440
Speaker 1: I never saw her, but I knew who it was.

706
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:33,319
Speaker 1: They had my old friend at the time. I knew

707
00:34:33,320 --> 00:34:34,880
Speaker 1: who it was because I'm like, that's one of them,

708
00:34:34,880 --> 00:34:36,319
Speaker 1: where's the other? Want to need the other one? I

709
00:34:36,360 --> 00:34:38,200
Speaker 1: need the other one. They're like, we're gonna get her.

710
00:34:38,200 --> 00:34:40,200
Speaker 1: They're gonna get her, and you could just see like

711
00:34:40,280 --> 00:34:42,240
Speaker 1: the hurt and like the E M T s faces

712
00:34:42,640 --> 00:34:44,520
Speaker 1: because it was just like them looking at me and

713
00:34:44,560 --> 00:34:46,640
Speaker 1: I'm just like please, and I'm like I'm grabbing them

714
00:34:46,680 --> 00:34:49,160
Speaker 1: like please, like I can't. I don't know what to do.

715
00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:52,680
Speaker 1: And do you think at that moment that you knew

716
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:57,360
Speaker 1: that she didn't make it? No? No, you know what

717
00:34:57,640 --> 00:35:00,360
Speaker 1: what secured that for me was when they all and

718
00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:03,960
Speaker 1: said they found her and she was at the corner's

719
00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:08,600
Speaker 1: office or the where the more, Yeah, the corners off

720
00:35:08,680 --> 00:35:13,040
Speaker 1: yet that that's when I figured her. Let's figure that out.

721
00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:15,240
Speaker 1: But that's but I still didn't believe it then because

722
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:17,279
Speaker 1: it was like, we can't find her, and I told

723
00:35:17,320 --> 00:35:19,840
Speaker 1: them people in the hospital, but if y'all didn't find her,

724
00:35:19,880 --> 00:35:21,440
Speaker 1: I was gonna get up and do it myself because

725
00:35:21,440 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 1: I felt like they didn't know what they were doing.

726
00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:26,120
Speaker 1: So I want to try to get up. You had

727
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:27,880
Speaker 1: to see how they bought mushed into this room to

728
00:35:27,960 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 1: stop me from getting out of his dead So and

729
00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:34,120
Speaker 1: I'm just like, y'all not moving fast enough for me,

730
00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:36,800
Speaker 1: Like y're telling me that the girl's dead. This is bull,

731
00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:43,680
Speaker 1: this is so. Then this whole process was just you know,

732
00:35:43,960 --> 00:35:46,040
Speaker 1: I get in there, and then after sitting in this

733
00:35:46,040 --> 00:35:52,800
Speaker 1: this this room for hours, hours, I mean hours on end. Um,

734
00:35:52,840 --> 00:35:54,719
Speaker 1: I had the lay flat. They didn't allow me to

735
00:35:54,800 --> 00:36:00,560
Speaker 1: stand up. Um, they didn't allow me to do anything. Uh,

736
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:02,759
Speaker 1: they didn't want me to sit straight, like sit up

737
00:36:02,800 --> 00:36:05,879
Speaker 1: on an angle. Um, I had to stay flat. So

738
00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:09,280
Speaker 1: I've been laying there for hours, looking at the ceiling

739
00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:14,520
Speaker 1: and blackness, and I remember being poked with a bunch

740
00:36:14,560 --> 00:36:19,720
Speaker 1: of needles. Um they sent me through the MRA machine.

741
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:21,400
Speaker 1: That was the first time I ever been in you know,

742
00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:24,200
Speaker 1: that was the first time I've ever been in one

743
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:29,960
Speaker 1: of those. And um, they they they kept sticking me

744
00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:32,560
Speaker 1: with these needles. I remember my there was this needle

745
00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:34,440
Speaker 1: they stick you it before they stick you inside of

746
00:36:34,440 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 1: the MRA. Before they were just they just needed to

747
00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:41,280
Speaker 1: see where the boom where the bullet wound went, because

748
00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:43,000
Speaker 1: they knew it was there. They just need to see

749
00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:46,239
Speaker 1: where they were. And so that's or at least that's

750
00:36:46,239 --> 00:36:47,960
Speaker 1: what they explained to me later down in the hospital,

751
00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:51,560
Speaker 1: like down a lot in the hospital. Um so after that,

752
00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:53,759
Speaker 1: I just I finally got to see my mom and

753
00:36:53,880 --> 00:36:55,960
Speaker 1: she just sat on the bed and I said, all

754
00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:58,520
Speaker 1: like I asked, was where was they at? There was

755
00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:00,799
Speaker 1: nothing else to talk about. I just want to know

756
00:37:00,800 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 1: where they were. I could care less. I was fine.

757
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:05,360
Speaker 1: I just want to know where my cousin was and

758
00:37:05,400 --> 00:37:07,080
Speaker 1: where my old friend at the time was. I just

759
00:37:07,160 --> 00:37:08,399
Speaker 1: wanted to know what they were. I said, they bored

760
00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:10,279
Speaker 1: her here, but I don't know where she is. And

761
00:37:10,360 --> 00:37:12,960
Speaker 1: MYLNG was like, I think they transferred her to a

762
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:16,319
Speaker 1: different hospital, but they still hanging down Care. It was

763
00:37:16,360 --> 00:37:19,879
Speaker 1: like there too. A day went by and that's when

764
00:37:19,880 --> 00:37:23,120
Speaker 1: we found out Care didn't make it. I watched a

765
00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:26,200
Speaker 1: lot of your interviews, and UM, I mean this, this

766
00:37:26,239 --> 00:37:28,719
Speaker 1: story because I touched on your cousin was really heartbreaking,

767
00:37:29,520 --> 00:37:32,400
Speaker 1: and I felt like you thought you were responsible for

768
00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:36,759
Speaker 1: her death. I did, Why why is that? Well that's

769
00:37:36,760 --> 00:37:39,880
Speaker 1: what survivor's give is, right, So what it was is there,

770
00:37:39,920 --> 00:37:42,640
Speaker 1: I'm like I shouldn't let her move, I should have

771
00:37:42,680 --> 00:37:44,880
Speaker 1: been I felt like I should have did a lot more. Again,

772
00:37:45,320 --> 00:37:47,600
Speaker 1: I'm from really and like you messed with me and

773
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:50,799
Speaker 1: mind as we have a problem. So how anybody who

774
00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:52,640
Speaker 1: knew me knew I was a fire cracker, so like

775
00:37:52,719 --> 00:37:55,200
Speaker 1: you can't there were certain things, there were certain limits

776
00:37:55,200 --> 00:37:58,080
Speaker 1: that you couldn't cross with me without me blowing up.

777
00:37:58,160 --> 00:38:01,160
Speaker 1: So she just like me and not being able to

778
00:38:01,280 --> 00:38:03,920
Speaker 1: do anything at that moment was a lot on me.

779
00:38:04,440 --> 00:38:06,920
Speaker 1: That was a lot of pressure with me, and it

780
00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:10,560
Speaker 1: was something I couldn't sleep, I didn't eat, I didn't

781
00:38:10,600 --> 00:38:14,400
Speaker 1: do anything, I didn't go anywhere, Like it was really

782
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:16,799
Speaker 1: it was a lot of pressure with me and I

783
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:19,359
Speaker 1: had I took that and I guess, you know, her

784
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:23,920
Speaker 1: family was just needed someone to blame. But yeah, you know,

785
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:25,839
Speaker 1: so it didn't make it no better when they were

786
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:28,839
Speaker 1: blaming me for because they stopped talking to you. Oh yeah,

787
00:38:29,080 --> 00:38:32,799
Speaker 1: oh yeah, what's the whole story about that? But I'm

788
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,400
Speaker 1: a digressive on that. They didn't just start speaking to me,

789
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:38,879
Speaker 1: But that was a whole another process. Oh, that type

790
00:38:38,880 --> 00:38:41,640
Speaker 1: of process. It was a whole another process. They didn't

791
00:38:41,680 --> 00:38:45,520
Speaker 1: just stopped breaking to me. Somebody just to give you

792
00:38:45,560 --> 00:38:48,040
Speaker 1: a piece of it. Somebody, I guess later down a

793
00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:51,160
Speaker 1: lot of somebody babilized her car, spring painted it, read,

794
00:38:51,239 --> 00:38:55,000
Speaker 1: bust out the windows. And the instant thing was to

795
00:38:55,040 --> 00:38:57,799
Speaker 1: blame us. But the night that that happened, I wasn't

796
00:38:57,840 --> 00:39:02,640
Speaker 1: even in Philadelphia mm hm hm. So that it was

797
00:39:02,680 --> 00:39:04,600
Speaker 1: a process, but that's just a piece of it. That's

798
00:39:04,600 --> 00:39:08,000
Speaker 1: not all left it. I went through a World winner thing.

799
00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:11,040
Speaker 1: Ain't know what's so funny? When, um, do I want

800
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:13,000
Speaker 1: to interview him? I don't want touching your family business

801
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:15,000
Speaker 1: because this is you know, it's a private situation. But

802
00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:17,239
Speaker 1: I know. I was watching one of the interviews and

803
00:39:17,360 --> 00:39:19,239
Speaker 1: I can see how her mom was looking at you,

804
00:39:19,320 --> 00:39:22,160
Speaker 1: and I can tell that she felt a way. Yeah,

805
00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:30,200
Speaker 1: everybody said, everybody said that. And she was telling one

806
00:39:30,200 --> 00:39:32,719
Speaker 1: of her aunts that, um, I don't understand how she

807
00:39:32,840 --> 00:39:35,080
Speaker 1: was with her. She didn't do anything. And then one

808
00:39:35,080 --> 00:39:37,759
Speaker 1: of the aunts was around again from Philly. There's a

809
00:39:37,800 --> 00:39:39,319
Speaker 1: lot more than I know that a lot of people

810
00:39:39,360 --> 00:39:41,560
Speaker 1: don't think I would know, but um, she was going

811
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:44,680
Speaker 1: around telling people around here that she should have pulled

812
00:39:44,680 --> 00:39:46,960
Speaker 1: her out of the wall with her and all this

813
00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:50,200
Speaker 1: other stuff. Yeah, but I think people need to also

814
00:39:50,320 --> 00:39:53,360
Speaker 1: understand and realize, like when you're any type of situation,

815
00:39:54,120 --> 00:39:56,840
Speaker 1: you don't know what you're gonna do, you know what

816
00:39:56,920 --> 00:39:58,799
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I need that it's easier for people to

817
00:39:58,840 --> 00:40:00,520
Speaker 1: be like, well, I usually you that did that, But

818
00:40:00,760 --> 00:40:02,759
Speaker 1: when you're in that extra moment, you don't know how

819
00:40:02,800 --> 00:40:04,759
Speaker 1: your body gonna respond to that ship Like, that's a

820
00:40:04,840 --> 00:40:08,080
Speaker 1: scary as situation, you know what I'm saying. And I

821
00:40:08,160 --> 00:40:12,040
Speaker 1: think it was honorable that your cousin came back to

822
00:40:12,120 --> 00:40:14,600
Speaker 1: make sure you're good, because that was something that we

823
00:40:14,640 --> 00:40:16,799
Speaker 1: would that I would have done, but see there was

824
00:40:17,480 --> 00:40:19,920
Speaker 1: we would have. I wasn't in the right state. That's

825
00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:22,360
Speaker 1: why I went through that process, that sam virus guilt.

826
00:40:22,360 --> 00:40:24,640
Speaker 1: That's why I went through that because a lot of

827
00:40:24,680 --> 00:40:28,279
Speaker 1: people didn't know that I was, like, you know, in

828
00:40:28,360 --> 00:40:30,320
Speaker 1: the type of state where I'm like, I was just

829
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:32,640
Speaker 1: completely confused. I didn't know. It wasn't like I would

830
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 1: have allowed it to happened to her, And the fact

831
00:40:35,560 --> 00:40:37,960
Speaker 1: that they thought that I did showed me how they

832
00:40:38,000 --> 00:40:40,560
Speaker 1: really felt. And like I learned down the law let

833
00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:42,640
Speaker 1: it down a line that it took something like that

834
00:40:42,680 --> 00:40:45,680
Speaker 1: for me to understand who they truly were. It took

835
00:40:45,719 --> 00:40:48,960
Speaker 1: them to lose their daughter, and like, we we don't

836
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:54,480
Speaker 1: beef now, I just don't. We're just not just because

837
00:40:54,480 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 1: I understand they lost a daughter and actually him, because

838
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:00,760
Speaker 1: I haven't been in the experience. But I just didn't

839
00:41:00,760 --> 00:41:02,799
Speaker 1: like how everything went about. When they was blaming you

840
00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:05,760
Speaker 1: for what happened to her daughter. Everybody said that. Everybody

841
00:41:05,840 --> 00:41:08,200
Speaker 1: said that, oh, you had to see it, when, um,

842
00:41:08,239 --> 00:41:13,799
Speaker 1: when I did the I'm sure you've seen me so yeah.

843
00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 1: So when I put that out there that I was

844
00:41:16,880 --> 00:41:21,520
Speaker 1: blamed for her death, yeah, I mean that started a

845
00:41:21,520 --> 00:41:26,080
Speaker 1: whole heap of trouble too, untikeaping Reil and I was like, yes,

846
00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:29,440
Speaker 1: like it was not your fault, you know, I'm just saying, Yeah,

847
00:41:29,640 --> 00:41:31,400
Speaker 1: she said, for giving them for who they may not know,

848
00:41:31,560 --> 00:41:35,320
Speaker 1: for who they may yeah, what they do, Yeah, and

849
00:41:35,480 --> 00:41:37,440
Speaker 1: for what they do. And that's what she told me.

850
00:41:37,640 --> 00:41:38,840
Speaker 1: There was a lot of stuff that I wish she

851
00:41:38,840 --> 00:41:40,520
Speaker 1: would have put out there on camera, but they had

852
00:41:40,560 --> 00:41:42,120
Speaker 1: to make sure they touched on everyone that was in

853
00:41:42,160 --> 00:41:45,359
Speaker 1: that series. Um so, but it was a lot more

854
00:41:45,400 --> 00:41:49,480
Speaker 1: than who told me too, as well as leave them

855
00:41:49,520 --> 00:41:53,520
Speaker 1: where they are many people where they yeah, and leave

856
00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:56,640
Speaker 1: them And she told me that and so ended up

857
00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:59,160
Speaker 1: turning what turned out, what what ended up happening was

858
00:41:59,239 --> 00:42:02,960
Speaker 1: that with that well, she also she said to me,

859
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:06,440
Speaker 1: you just have that. You gotta you gotta keep you,

860
00:42:06,480 --> 00:42:09,120
Speaker 1: gotta stay strong. I'm just continue to go. She said,

861
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:11,520
Speaker 1: your cousin loved you, and just know that. And like

862
00:42:11,640 --> 00:42:14,200
Speaker 1: I know that, I knew that I would. There was

863
00:42:14,239 --> 00:42:15,920
Speaker 1: no doubt in my mind that she didn't love me.

864
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:18,839
Speaker 1: But it was getting so bad. I was questioning her too.

865
00:42:18,880 --> 00:42:22,239
Speaker 1: And she's dead and gone and that and that's the

866
00:42:22,239 --> 00:42:25,440
Speaker 1: part where a lot of people did not understand. I

867
00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:29,880
Speaker 1: was questioning her too, and she's dead and going, so

868
00:42:30,239 --> 00:42:33,920
Speaker 1: and I can't only imagine questions like why you're not me?

869
00:42:34,200 --> 00:42:37,200
Speaker 1: Or why did you? Like? Yeah, like it's so because

870
00:42:37,200 --> 00:42:39,040
Speaker 1: I be watching a certain stuff and like doing reaching

871
00:42:39,040 --> 00:42:42,200
Speaker 1: stuff and like vinus, remorse is a real thing. It's

872
00:42:42,200 --> 00:42:44,799
Speaker 1: a real thing and when you experience something like that.

873
00:42:45,040 --> 00:42:47,920
Speaker 1: Until you experience it, you'll never understand it. It's a

874
00:42:47,960 --> 00:42:50,800
Speaker 1: real thing. But you'll never understand that process unless it

875
00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:52,920
Speaker 1: is something that you go through. And I'm definitely a

876
00:42:52,920 --> 00:42:55,120
Speaker 1: product of that, like you never understand until it shoot

877
00:42:55,600 --> 00:42:58,279
Speaker 1: and you really being mad that they're no longer here. Yeah,

878
00:42:58,360 --> 00:43:00,440
Speaker 1: I was, Oh, I was high, it said. It was

879
00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:03,400
Speaker 1: just like you know, it was like and why do

880
00:43:03,480 --> 00:43:05,000
Speaker 1: I have to go through this? Like what did I

881
00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:06,960
Speaker 1: do so bad? But it was all a part of

882
00:43:07,000 --> 00:43:08,840
Speaker 1: my journey and I learned that later than the line.

883
00:43:09,280 --> 00:43:12,359
Speaker 1: So and but it's just it was just something that

884
00:43:12,400 --> 00:43:14,880
Speaker 1: I didn't expect to happen to me, and like this

885
00:43:14,960 --> 00:43:17,520
Speaker 1: is family, This was something that was supposed to bring

886
00:43:17,640 --> 00:43:20,880
Speaker 1: us closer to more than anything. That is not what happened.

887
00:43:21,560 --> 00:43:25,760
Speaker 1: That is not what happened. And what with that whole process,

888
00:43:25,880 --> 00:43:29,040
Speaker 1: it was still like you know, we were like I said,

889
00:43:29,080 --> 00:43:32,640
Speaker 1: we don't speak today, nor being my old friend. That

890
00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:35,319
Speaker 1: was good. Oh I'd about to ask you that about

891
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:40,400
Speaker 1: you and her still speaking. No, we no longer speak.

892
00:43:43,480 --> 00:43:47,040
Speaker 1: It's not that situation post was a problem. I looked

893
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:50,360
Speaker 1: at it, and people get hurt every day, right, it

894
00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:53,280
Speaker 1: wasn't about me being shot. It's the stuff that emotionally

895
00:43:53,360 --> 00:43:57,359
Speaker 1: took place after. And so with me and her then

896
00:43:57,400 --> 00:43:59,680
Speaker 1: we had we already had our issues. But that's what happens.

897
00:43:59,719 --> 00:44:01,719
Speaker 1: Like you girl lived with me like, of course you

898
00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:04,640
Speaker 1: had rocky rolls with everyone, but I said that girl family,

899
00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:06,840
Speaker 1: I would never go anywhere. There was the stuff that

900
00:44:06,880 --> 00:44:08,680
Speaker 1: she did after the fact that made me no longer

901
00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:12,080
Speaker 1: speak to her. We have gotten into a fight. Yeah,

902
00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:15,200
Speaker 1: we we went through a lot, and that's just a

903
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:17,880
Speaker 1: piece of everything that I went through with her. Um.

904
00:44:17,920 --> 00:44:22,960
Speaker 1: She actually ended up marrying my cousin UM, which cousin's

905
00:44:23,080 --> 00:44:28,600
Speaker 1: brother UM, which was weird because the whole situation things

906
00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 1: took place, and what they put me through just to

907
00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:34,600
Speaker 1: be together. It was weird. But they won't tell that story,

908
00:44:34,719 --> 00:44:38,320
Speaker 1: and that's the part that makes me want to strangle

909
00:44:38,400 --> 00:44:41,759
Speaker 1: both of them. But you know, it's it's just like,

910
00:44:41,800 --> 00:44:44,880
Speaker 1: you know, I have to move on from this entire situation,

911
00:44:44,920 --> 00:44:47,920
Speaker 1: so I moved forward. Um, good luck to them and

912
00:44:47,960 --> 00:44:50,240
Speaker 1: whatever they decided to do. They can milk this story

913
00:44:50,719 --> 00:44:52,440
Speaker 1: and whatever they want to do with it, but I

914
00:44:52,560 --> 00:44:54,239
Speaker 1: moved on. I see where you're going with that. You

915
00:44:54,239 --> 00:44:58,319
Speaker 1: don't even have to say much on that part. Yeah,

916
00:44:58,520 --> 00:45:00,320
Speaker 1: So what would you like the listeners to know about

917
00:45:00,320 --> 00:45:05,640
Speaker 1: your cousin? She was amazing, right she Um. She definitely

918
00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:10,680
Speaker 1: embodied a role model that she was really smart. Yes,

919
00:45:10,760 --> 00:45:13,680
Speaker 1: she definitely she was acceptually smarts graduated. Topic she was

920
00:45:13,719 --> 00:45:16,880
Speaker 1: at the she was number three hour class. Um. She

921
00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:21,000
Speaker 1: putty much that all heasy bees um, very very rare

922
00:45:21,080 --> 00:45:24,640
Speaker 1: with the bees um depending on the time pragm of

923
00:45:24,680 --> 00:45:28,120
Speaker 1: what it was about. Um. She definitely got accepted from

924
00:45:28,120 --> 00:45:30,160
Speaker 1: point of kid school. She had a couple of pool rides.

925
00:45:30,840 --> 00:45:32,440
Speaker 1: She was definitely on her way to start up. When

926
00:45:32,440 --> 00:45:35,600
Speaker 1: it came to basketball, um, she was. She scored a

927
00:45:35,640 --> 00:45:38,640
Speaker 1: thousand points, but she actually because it was some kind

928
00:45:38,680 --> 00:45:42,080
Speaker 1: of limitation and scoring a thousand points back then, I'm

929
00:45:42,120 --> 00:45:44,560
Speaker 1: not sure how that works. Outn't play basketball, so it

930
00:45:44,640 --> 00:45:47,120
Speaker 1: was something about they couldn't record that she scored over

931
00:45:47,200 --> 00:45:49,480
Speaker 1: a thousand points. She was well over a thousand points,

932
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:53,279
Speaker 1: but she was a thousand point score and being put

933
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,560
Speaker 1: a thousand point score as a point guard was a lot.

934
00:45:55,719 --> 00:45:58,600
Speaker 1: So I don't I don't understand how that works. But

935
00:45:58,719 --> 00:46:02,319
Speaker 1: that was something. But that was she was awarded. She

936
00:46:02,400 --> 00:46:06,160
Speaker 1: the w n b A recognized her. They gave her

937
00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:08,600
Speaker 1: so much. The school gave her a lot um a

938
00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:11,920
Speaker 1: lot of recognition. They did articles, so many stories, articles,

939
00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:15,279
Speaker 1: and I can only like I can just that's only

940
00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:18,360
Speaker 1: a piece of what they've done for her. Um, it

941
00:46:18,719 --> 00:46:21,239
Speaker 1: was a lot. It was a lot, and she was

942
00:46:21,280 --> 00:46:25,360
Speaker 1: an amazing person. And definitely it's not too many people

943
00:46:25,400 --> 00:46:27,879
Speaker 1: who genuinely care about people. And if you do have people,

944
00:46:27,880 --> 00:46:29,480
Speaker 1: they didn't care about you and love you for who

945
00:46:29,480 --> 00:46:32,319
Speaker 1: you are, whether they blevelated than not gold onto. Yeah

946
00:46:33,280 --> 00:46:37,680
Speaker 1: these niggas, No, I'm serious, Like, I don't think people

947
00:46:37,840 --> 00:46:41,040
Speaker 1: understand the value of like relationships, Like when you find

948
00:46:41,040 --> 00:46:43,959
Speaker 1: good people, you gotta hold onto people because you don't

949
00:46:44,000 --> 00:46:46,920
Speaker 1: know when God's gonna pull that number. You don't know

950
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:50,359
Speaker 1: what can happen. Like, you really gotta value people. And

951
00:46:50,400 --> 00:46:52,520
Speaker 1: even if you all have the part rate for whatever reason,

952
00:46:52,760 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 1: make sure you leave a blace. Don't don't leave with

953
00:46:56,239 --> 00:46:58,680
Speaker 1: that whole like, oh we we hadn't gotten to a

954
00:46:58,719 --> 00:47:01,560
Speaker 1: bad falling out. Ain't nothing that bad in the wound

955
00:47:01,600 --> 00:47:06,080
Speaker 1: that you can't resolve, yea, And depending on the circumstance

956
00:47:06,600 --> 00:47:10,400
Speaker 1: and what it is, have a conversation and get it

957
00:47:10,520 --> 00:47:13,719
Speaker 1: right there. That's it. Don't go go forward, just keep

958
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:16,160
Speaker 1: just move on if that's the case. But at least

959
00:47:16,200 --> 00:47:18,160
Speaker 1: clearing the air sometimes it's a good thing. And I

960
00:47:18,200 --> 00:47:20,480
Speaker 1: had to do that with my old friend too, Like

961
00:47:20,560 --> 00:47:22,480
Speaker 1: we had to clear the air, but we could never

962
00:47:23,080 --> 00:47:24,920
Speaker 1: be friends again. I want to see her eat, just

963
00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:27,560
Speaker 1: not at my table with me, especially not writing no

964
00:47:27,680 --> 00:47:31,439
Speaker 1: book about me. Yeah I saw she had a book

965
00:47:31,440 --> 00:47:39,359
Speaker 1: out too, or she's working. Yeah, so up. So it's

966
00:47:40,040 --> 00:47:41,960
Speaker 1: the whole thing was like her talk from the momy

967
00:47:41,960 --> 00:47:44,200
Speaker 1: saying I would spread rumors about it, but not one

968
00:47:44,239 --> 00:47:46,919
Speaker 1: time did she reach out to me. I can show

969
00:47:46,960 --> 00:47:48,960
Speaker 1: you and poom it to you because I don't believe nothing.

970
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:51,080
Speaker 1: I'm one of them. I would pull a receipt from

971
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:53,719
Speaker 1: ninety three and I was born at ninety five, like

972
00:47:53,800 --> 00:48:00,200
Speaker 1: that's that's me so and it was just she when

973
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:02,759
Speaker 1: she did that, it was like, we can't. We can't

974
00:48:02,800 --> 00:48:05,080
Speaker 1: hang the fact that you never came to me and

975
00:48:05,200 --> 00:48:07,960
Speaker 1: talked to me as an adult about what was going on.

976
00:48:08,840 --> 00:48:12,200
Speaker 1: We could never again. Like I just said, she, I

977
00:48:12,239 --> 00:48:13,879
Speaker 1: want to see her eat, just not at my table.

978
00:48:14,640 --> 00:48:16,800
Speaker 1: And and that actually is a bar to pop setting

979
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:22,080
Speaker 1: um and um. I choose not to h I choose

980
00:48:22,160 --> 00:48:25,719
Speaker 1: not to deal with it. Um. And in the light

981
00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:30,200
Speaker 1: of being like angry, I'm gonna move more. Like I

982
00:48:30,239 --> 00:48:32,480
Speaker 1: definitely said that you are be You have to control

983
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:34,799
Speaker 1: your tongue when you are certain emotions, especially when it

984
00:48:34,800 --> 00:48:38,520
Speaker 1: comes to anger, because they're there. At one point, I'm like,

985
00:48:38,719 --> 00:48:42,520
Speaker 1: I was so mad everybody was about to catch these hands.

986
00:48:42,560 --> 00:48:45,200
Speaker 1: Everybody they were gonna catch more than these hands that

987
00:48:45,239 --> 00:48:47,920
Speaker 1: they kept playing with me. And that's and that's and

988
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:49,640
Speaker 1: that's how I felt. But it was like for what

989
00:48:49,760 --> 00:48:52,279
Speaker 1: my mom taught me very well, and she said to me,

990
00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:55,440
Speaker 1: you can either stay here you play this victim roll,

991
00:48:56,120 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 1: or you can get up and make something out of it.

992
00:48:58,880 --> 00:49:02,000
Speaker 1: And that's what I did. I can't just stay there.

993
00:49:03,200 --> 00:49:04,719
Speaker 1: Have you been back to the wh I know the

994
00:49:04,719 --> 00:49:06,120
Speaker 1: answer to this, but have you been back to the

995
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:10,120
Speaker 1: nightclub since the shot? Yes, yep, I have. Um. They

996
00:49:10,200 --> 00:49:12,360
Speaker 1: actually flewed me out there to come back to the

997
00:49:12,400 --> 00:49:16,479
Speaker 1: glove so and we when I took my guy sister

998
00:49:16,560 --> 00:49:19,879
Speaker 1: with me and she, uh, that was her first time

999
00:49:19,920 --> 00:49:21,680
Speaker 1: because it affected her a lot because she was supposed

1000
00:49:21,719 --> 00:49:23,800
Speaker 1: to be on a vacation with me, so like it.

1001
00:49:24,239 --> 00:49:26,080
Speaker 1: She couldn't make it because she had already used her

1002
00:49:26,120 --> 00:49:28,360
Speaker 1: time for her honeymoon and all this other stuff and

1003
00:49:28,560 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 1: it was like everything was just like all over the place,

1004
00:49:31,239 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 1: So she didn't go, but it was it took a

1005
00:49:32,920 --> 00:49:34,360
Speaker 1: lot out of her and never realized how much it

1006
00:49:34,400 --> 00:49:38,080
Speaker 1: affected other people around me. True, I never realized that

1007
00:49:38,160 --> 00:49:40,239
Speaker 1: until I spoke for her. She explained it to me

1008
00:49:40,320 --> 00:49:42,640
Speaker 1: for the first time. So I was just like, I

1009
00:49:42,719 --> 00:49:44,600
Speaker 1: never would have known that because it was I was

1010
00:49:44,640 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 1: too focused on trying to get myself together, like you know,

1011
00:49:47,520 --> 00:49:50,080
Speaker 1: which is fair, like you had your own healing that

1012
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:52,719
Speaker 1: you had to go. But they were a part of

1013
00:49:52,760 --> 00:49:55,759
Speaker 1: the healing process. So I understood what she meant. But

1014
00:49:55,800 --> 00:49:57,359
Speaker 1: I was just like, still, like, you know, I never

1015
00:49:57,440 --> 00:50:00,680
Speaker 1: understand how much it affected me until that moment. Is

1016
00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:03,120
Speaker 1: it hard for you to go out to clubs? Now? No?

1017
00:50:04,600 --> 00:50:09,080
Speaker 1: I went, Um, we actually went to a bar, but

1018
00:50:09,239 --> 00:50:13,600
Speaker 1: now a few months after, But no, it was like

1019
00:50:13,719 --> 00:50:17,239
Speaker 1: it was actually almost a year later, Um, because it

1020
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:18,719
Speaker 1: was Yeah, it wasn't a few months after. It was

1021
00:50:18,719 --> 00:50:21,200
Speaker 1: almost a year later. We went to a bar. But

1022
00:50:21,320 --> 00:50:23,560
Speaker 1: that's because my cousin knew the area she needed, He

1023
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:27,080
Speaker 1: knew the people that worked there, he knew what is

1024
00:50:27,120 --> 00:50:29,920
Speaker 1: what around that area. So and he said, if you

1025
00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:33,239
Speaker 1: feel uncomfortable, we can go home. I will not be

1026
00:50:33,360 --> 00:50:36,040
Speaker 1: mad at you if you want to go home. And

1027
00:50:36,080 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 1: I said, that's fine. So but he stayed, and it

1028
00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:40,440
Speaker 1: was his third thing we gave him. Definitely wanted to

1029
00:50:41,400 --> 00:50:43,799
Speaker 1: so he could have gi himself. But we definitely had

1030
00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:47,840
Speaker 1: a good time. So after the shooting, the shooter's wife

1031
00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:51,040
Speaker 1: was acquitted on her charges because she stated that she

1032
00:50:51,080 --> 00:50:54,120
Speaker 1: didn't know anything about it. What are your thoughts on that?

1033
00:50:54,520 --> 00:50:58,799
Speaker 1: She's a liar? Yea? How'd been saying, how did these

1034
00:50:58,840 --> 00:51:02,280
Speaker 1: women not are they're seeking with the devil? Yeah? She

1035
00:51:02,280 --> 00:51:05,959
Speaker 1: she she claimed she did not know, um that what

1036
00:51:06,040 --> 00:51:10,160
Speaker 1: was going on. She claimed she did, but she's lying,

1037
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:13,360
Speaker 1: she's lying. She's a life, she was a wife, a

1038
00:51:13,480 --> 00:51:17,080
Speaker 1: big time life. And she tried to pull that I've

1039
00:51:17,080 --> 00:51:20,799
Speaker 1: been abused all my life victim card, and I'm just like,

1040
00:51:20,880 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: but you stayed with him for this long and then

1041
00:51:23,040 --> 00:51:25,320
Speaker 1: now all of a sudden he's and he's a deep crap.

1042
00:51:25,800 --> 00:51:28,600
Speaker 1: Now you want to run. And I felt like, you know,

1043
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:31,840
Speaker 1: even if it was a domestic violence case, there was

1044
00:51:31,880 --> 00:51:35,400
Speaker 1: no they didn't see any reports of that, right, so,

1045
00:51:35,680 --> 00:51:38,200
Speaker 1: and that was the problem for me. And they said,

1046
00:51:38,320 --> 00:51:42,600
Speaker 1: they call they've seen her outside um getting from her.

1047
00:51:42,920 --> 00:51:44,839
Speaker 1: She was at the club, and she called like, they said,

1048
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:48,160
Speaker 1: they've seen her getting into a car and leaving. So

1049
00:51:48,280 --> 00:51:50,800
Speaker 1: she dropped him off. That's what we would feeling like.

1050
00:51:51,000 --> 00:51:53,480
Speaker 1: But you know, I'm a digressive that situation because I

1051
00:51:53,520 --> 00:51:57,040
Speaker 1: don't know. But she's reaping every part of this. I

1052
00:51:57,120 --> 00:51:59,600
Speaker 1: know she was because she's the one to blame because

1053
00:51:59,640 --> 00:52:01,960
Speaker 1: she knew he was gonna do it. That's the problem.

1054
00:52:02,000 --> 00:52:05,480
Speaker 1: And like, you know, let's be real, in the black community,

1055
00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:09,439
Speaker 1: you've got charge for going to the store the wrong way.

1056
00:52:09,840 --> 00:52:16,200
Speaker 1: So I let you know, you get killed. Some skitles

1057
00:52:16,200 --> 00:52:18,319
Speaker 1: about the Arizona iced tea, but we're gonna leave that

1058
00:52:18,360 --> 00:52:21,319
Speaker 1: alone because nobody asked me. So it was just like,

1059
00:52:21,360 --> 00:52:23,839
Speaker 1: you know, my whole thing is is that you know,

1060
00:52:24,080 --> 00:52:26,279
Speaker 1: people who get up like you know, who are accomplished

1061
00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:28,359
Speaker 1: of this and who knew this information and did not

1062
00:52:28,440 --> 00:52:31,279
Speaker 1: share it to authorities get locked up for this or

1063
00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:34,799
Speaker 1: for much much much smaller, get killed for much, much

1064
00:52:34,880 --> 00:52:37,399
Speaker 1: much smaller. And the fact that she just was this

1065
00:52:37,520 --> 00:52:40,600
Speaker 1: was just dropped. And I think it had everything to

1066
00:52:40,640 --> 00:52:42,640
Speaker 1: do with the fact that this club was a gay club,

1067
00:52:42,920 --> 00:52:44,759
Speaker 1: and that was the part that did not sit well

1068
00:52:44,800 --> 00:52:49,080
Speaker 1: with me, and nobody nobody took their time to try

1069
00:52:49,120 --> 00:52:51,840
Speaker 1: to see how or they didn't hand the right people

1070
00:52:51,840 --> 00:52:54,920
Speaker 1: in this case, they didn't had the right people on

1071
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:57,200
Speaker 1: this case, and I felt like nobody used their brains

1072
00:52:57,200 --> 00:52:59,719
Speaker 1: when it came to charging this woman when it when

1073
00:52:59,719 --> 00:53:04,920
Speaker 1: this with now, So, do you feel like justice was served? No? No,

1074
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:08,120
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't feel like anything was served, right.

1075
00:53:09,000 --> 00:53:12,600
Speaker 1: I feel like we are we we got the butt

1076
00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:16,120
Speaker 1: end of the sting. I do. I feel like we

1077
00:53:16,239 --> 00:53:19,000
Speaker 1: got the bat end of the state. Because there was

1078
00:53:19,120 --> 00:53:22,320
Speaker 1: no justice for post. We had to create our own justice.

1079
00:53:23,000 --> 00:53:25,279
Speaker 1: We hadn't use That's what I had to do, turn

1080
00:53:25,360 --> 00:53:27,520
Speaker 1: my playing into a game. As my cousin would say,

1081
00:53:27,880 --> 00:53:30,160
Speaker 1: like you know, she she used to say that all

1082
00:53:30,200 --> 00:53:32,240
Speaker 1: the time. So I just had to use it because

1083
00:53:32,239 --> 00:53:35,600
Speaker 1: it was like, we've got no justice for what happened. So,

1084
00:53:35,760 --> 00:53:38,480
Speaker 1: which is how I got tied into being a gun

1085
00:53:38,600 --> 00:53:42,640
Speaker 1: violence activists because there are people out here, not just myself,

1086
00:53:43,120 --> 00:53:49,040
Speaker 1: who don't receive justice for the things that happened to them.

1087
00:53:49,080 --> 00:53:51,200
Speaker 1: What do you think it's a message that's being sent

1088
00:53:51,280 --> 00:53:54,040
Speaker 1: out to the world when um, I don't even said

1089
00:53:54,040 --> 00:53:56,200
Speaker 1: that the killers name because he don't want he doesn't

1090
00:53:57,320 --> 00:54:01,360
Speaker 1: exactly when his wife is free or when the nigga

1091
00:54:01,440 --> 00:54:04,160
Speaker 1: that shot at the church they succumbed to ask him

1092
00:54:04,160 --> 00:54:05,560
Speaker 1: if he wanted the burger, Like, what do you think

1093
00:54:05,560 --> 00:54:09,520
Speaker 1: they're sending out there to the world about gun violence? Privileges,

1094
00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:13,640
Speaker 1: keep right, privileges. Key, that's what they send it onto

1095
00:54:13,640 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 1: the world. Privilege is kick you as long as you white,

1096
00:54:18,760 --> 00:54:21,600
Speaker 1: is right, and you know, and then you can do

1097
00:54:21,680 --> 00:54:24,520
Speaker 1: things like this and get away with it. And it's like,

1098
00:54:24,600 --> 00:54:26,480
Speaker 1: you know, it's as small as that, like you know,

1099
00:54:26,520 --> 00:54:27,920
Speaker 1: you can do things and get away with it, but

1100
00:54:28,320 --> 00:54:32,279
Speaker 1: you know there are reasons. But this is why I

1101
00:54:32,280 --> 00:54:34,720
Speaker 1: feel the way I feel when it comes to fighting

1102
00:54:34,800 --> 00:54:37,560
Speaker 1: for justice for you know, for gun violence and everything else,

1103
00:54:37,600 --> 00:54:40,080
Speaker 1: because this is the type of stuff that happens. And

1104
00:54:40,160 --> 00:54:42,239
Speaker 1: like you know, they said, the message that they send

1105
00:54:42,280 --> 00:54:44,560
Speaker 1: out to the world is that you can do whatever

1106
00:54:44,600 --> 00:54:49,560
Speaker 1: you want, and especially in America, anything goes as long

1107
00:54:49,600 --> 00:54:52,040
Speaker 1: as you, you know, don't look like anybody who was

1108
00:54:52,080 --> 00:54:58,400
Speaker 1: about a few charge dartor then copper or so. And

1109
00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:01,600
Speaker 1: that's and that's something that's where they sent out and

1110
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:04,600
Speaker 1: you know, especially you know, they found upon the gay community,

1111
00:55:05,440 --> 00:55:09,800
Speaker 1: so you know, anybody who it does identify with that

1112
00:55:10,719 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 1: brown of people, you can do what you want. I

1113
00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:18,400
Speaker 1: also saw one of your interviews that another one of

1114
00:55:18,400 --> 00:55:20,680
Speaker 1: your Cousins was killed due to dun bars right after

1115
00:55:20,800 --> 00:55:27,120
Speaker 1: the nightclub shooting, right one month later. Yeah. Yeah, at

1116
00:55:27,120 --> 00:55:30,319
Speaker 1: the end of July, he was shot and killed. He

1117
00:55:30,360 --> 00:55:35,800
Speaker 1: was shot seven times. Seven seven Oh, I mean still

1118
00:55:36,080 --> 00:55:40,440
Speaker 1: damn yeah yeah, so he was shot seven times. Um.

1119
00:55:40,440 --> 00:55:44,120
Speaker 1: It was nothing but street beef. Um. And it was

1120
00:55:44,120 --> 00:55:46,359
Speaker 1: really unfortunate because it's like I had just saw him

1121
00:55:46,400 --> 00:55:49,640
Speaker 1: a few days before he was killed, and I was

1122
00:55:49,719 --> 00:55:51,759
Speaker 1: fussing at him because he was on a bike, a

1123
00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:55,120
Speaker 1: motorcycle and fell off the darn motorcycle and scratched the

1124
00:55:55,160 --> 00:55:58,080
Speaker 1: skate set. So to see him in the cascade because

1125
00:55:58,080 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 1: he was Muslim, you know, they don't do like the

1126
00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:04,799
Speaker 1: whole a bombing process or anything like that. When you

1127
00:56:04,880 --> 00:56:08,000
Speaker 1: see the gun means as is one in the space.

1128
00:56:08,080 --> 00:56:09,480
Speaker 1: He had a few in his face and the rest

1129
00:56:09,480 --> 00:56:13,000
Speaker 1: of in his chest. Mm hmm. Yeah. So, what are

1130
00:56:13,040 --> 00:56:15,480
Speaker 1: your thoughts on the n r A, especially since you

1131
00:56:15,560 --> 00:56:18,319
Speaker 1: experienced gun violence and just being from like we are,

1132
00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:20,880
Speaker 1: from neighborhoods, especially a lot of my listeners and from

1133
00:56:20,880 --> 00:56:23,920
Speaker 1: the neighborhoods that a lot of people have gun So

1134
00:56:23,920 --> 00:56:26,239
Speaker 1: what are your thoughts about that. I'm not I'm not

1135
00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:30,240
Speaker 1: I'm still progunned because I do believe at the moment

1136
00:56:30,239 --> 00:56:32,560
Speaker 1: that America decided that they wanted to bang the guns,

1137
00:56:32,600 --> 00:56:34,160
Speaker 1: let's say that were the thing. Was really not, but

1138
00:56:34,239 --> 00:56:36,719
Speaker 1: let's say it was the thing. If America decided that

1139
00:56:36,760 --> 00:56:40,160
Speaker 1: they wanted to being done like that, that we America

1140
00:56:40,200 --> 00:56:43,200
Speaker 1: would be in term more because of the the stuff

1141
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:47,800
Speaker 1: that our leaders have brought up. Um, I think it

1142
00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:51,000
Speaker 1: is definitely a protection because there are some some severely

1143
00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:55,200
Speaker 1: crazy people out there and sometimes you know, the gun

1144
00:56:55,320 --> 00:56:58,640
Speaker 1: is your only option in some cases. Um, I've seen

1145
00:56:58,680 --> 00:57:01,360
Speaker 1: people who have been you know if child hazing people

1146
00:57:01,360 --> 00:57:03,839
Speaker 1: and they still came charging at them with weapons and

1147
00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:05,759
Speaker 1: it's you know, trying not that you don't want to

1148
00:57:05,800 --> 00:57:08,120
Speaker 1: kill someone, you want to stop them in their tracks,

1149
00:57:08,120 --> 00:57:11,080
Speaker 1: and you know, just learning to shoot, but not to kill.

1150
00:57:11,160 --> 00:57:12,799
Speaker 1: You know, you want to if you're gonna shoot the kid.

1151
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:16,480
Speaker 1: That's that's all theas behavior. That's not that's not steep

1152
00:57:16,560 --> 00:57:19,760
Speaker 1: behavior here. So it's just like it's it's so weird.

1153
00:57:19,800 --> 00:57:23,360
Speaker 1: It's a weird situation. I am pro gunn. However, I

1154
00:57:23,400 --> 00:57:27,000
Speaker 1: do believe that nr A has very They have so

1155
00:57:27,080 --> 00:57:31,040
Speaker 1: many like um, mixing creamage is what I'm gonna call

1156
00:57:31,080 --> 00:57:35,080
Speaker 1: them like gout a loopose and I feel like it

1157
00:57:35,280 --> 00:57:40,360
Speaker 1: only applies to those with money or those who look

1158
00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:43,560
Speaker 1: like the inside of your pod. So it's just like,

1159
00:57:44,120 --> 00:57:45,600
Speaker 1: I feel like that when it comes down to the

1160
00:57:45,680 --> 00:57:49,400
Speaker 1: n RRA and some of their rules, then protect there

1161
00:57:49,400 --> 00:57:52,720
Speaker 1: not there they don't protect the people at the same

1162
00:57:52,800 --> 00:57:55,600
Speaker 1: time as well as it just protects their guns as

1163
00:57:55,600 --> 00:57:57,880
Speaker 1: they can have their guns. And that's like, you know,

1164
00:57:57,920 --> 00:58:02,240
Speaker 1: and they haven't been able to purchase assault rifles um

1165
00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:07,320
Speaker 1: that are used in war is beyond a mess to me. Yeah,

1166
00:58:07,320 --> 00:58:12,200
Speaker 1: that's beyond my comprehensive And you know, being being a

1167
00:58:12,240 --> 00:58:15,720
Speaker 1: part of a boarding a border visor for an organization

1168
00:58:15,760 --> 00:58:19,439
Speaker 1: in dccret pad fund where they endorse candidates to who

1169
00:58:19,480 --> 00:58:22,000
Speaker 1: fight for our people, especially when it comes to gun

1170
00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:25,240
Speaker 1: violence and how they're they're going to address then. And

1171
00:58:26,000 --> 00:58:28,280
Speaker 1: we also we fight to get the white white people

1172
00:58:28,280 --> 00:58:30,720
Speaker 1: in office for who deserves the seats to sit in.

1173
00:58:31,280 --> 00:58:33,640
Speaker 1: So it's just like, you know, being a part of

1174
00:58:33,680 --> 00:58:35,720
Speaker 1: that process of talking to the senators and sharing that

1175
00:58:35,840 --> 00:58:38,919
Speaker 1: story with them and understanding like, you know, this man

1176
00:58:39,640 --> 00:58:42,840
Speaker 1: killed forty nine people with an assault right and the

1177
00:58:44,040 --> 00:58:48,840
Speaker 1: people fifty three people with handguns and whatever else you

1178
00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:52,520
Speaker 1: may have had. So it's just like there's has got

1179
00:58:52,520 --> 00:58:55,200
Speaker 1: to be some limitations. They need to be stripped, background checks,

1180
00:58:55,440 --> 00:58:57,960
Speaker 1: they need to be psychological checks. These people need to

1181
00:58:57,960 --> 00:59:01,640
Speaker 1: see therapists before they're able to purchase a gun of

1182
00:59:01,720 --> 00:59:04,440
Speaker 1: any current. I don't care if it's a small a

1183
00:59:05,000 --> 00:59:08,920
Speaker 1: peace shooter. Like you know, this is something that that

1184
00:59:08,920 --> 00:59:12,800
Speaker 1: that's not talked about often at all. So and that

1185
00:59:12,960 --> 00:59:15,959
Speaker 1: and that's one of our biggest issues, like the psychological

1186
00:59:15,960 --> 00:59:19,400
Speaker 1: evaluations like palm example, the shooter for Post he has

1187
00:59:19,400 --> 00:59:22,960
Speaker 1: some mental issues that trust, they knew he had mental

1188
00:59:23,000 --> 00:59:25,360
Speaker 1: issues that they allowed him to purchase because he used

1189
00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:30,080
Speaker 1: to work in security as our security guard. And this

1190
00:59:30,320 --> 00:59:32,880
Speaker 1: man still was able to purchase. How him being able

1191
00:59:32,920 --> 00:59:35,280
Speaker 1: to purchase and assault right for that's using war. It's

1192
00:59:35,280 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 1: completely insane to me. Yeah, that's that's that's beyond like

1193
00:59:40,040 --> 00:59:42,960
Speaker 1: so that don't even make sense, Like, no, it doesn't.

1194
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:45,480
Speaker 1: But this is a thing. This is this is a thing.

1195
00:59:45,800 --> 00:59:48,720
Speaker 1: So the goal is to let's fight for commissence gun

1196
00:59:48,800 --> 00:59:51,920
Speaker 1: reform because obviously we all realize that commissen is just

1197
00:59:51,960 --> 00:59:55,800
Speaker 1: say that kind absolutely not child And I learned that too,

1198
00:59:55,880 --> 00:59:59,440
Speaker 1: So you know, being knowing this information and trying to

1199
00:59:59,480 --> 01:00:02,720
Speaker 1: apply it every little thing that you do. Commersence isn't

1200
01:00:02,720 --> 01:00:05,160
Speaker 1: really common, but also knowing that you know this is

1201
01:00:05,360 --> 01:00:07,280
Speaker 1: this commisence need to be applied to some of the

1202
01:00:07,320 --> 01:00:11,640
Speaker 1: most uh some of the most biggest situations that we

1203
01:00:11,680 --> 01:00:15,400
Speaker 1: had faced in that country. Now mm hmm um, that's

1204
01:00:15,400 --> 01:00:17,120
Speaker 1: not at least there are some steps that you took

1205
01:00:17,360 --> 01:00:25,960
Speaker 1: towards your healing. Who the village, Yeah, I spent I

1206
01:00:25,960 --> 01:00:28,000
Speaker 1: spent a lot of time hitting to reevaluate myself and

1207
01:00:28,080 --> 01:00:31,000
Speaker 1: who I was because I I quickly forgot who I

1208
01:00:31,120 --> 01:00:34,400
Speaker 1: was and what I'm what I fought for all my life.

1209
01:00:34,480 --> 01:00:40,960
Speaker 1: Let's not being underdog and to not not put myself

1210
01:00:40,960 --> 01:00:43,440
Speaker 1: in situations where I feel like I'm gonna be busting

1211
01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:46,080
Speaker 1: or anything like that. So I had to remember who

1212
01:00:46,120 --> 01:00:49,000
Speaker 1: I was for a second and all and I've ever done. So.

1213
01:00:49,440 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 1: My whole thing was, let me fight to get myself

1214
01:00:53,400 --> 01:00:55,040
Speaker 1: out of this. I heard the car on that dark

1215
01:00:55,080 --> 01:00:59,000
Speaker 1: place and crawl out of it. But a doctor and

1216
01:00:59,080 --> 01:01:01,680
Speaker 1: let take a village of said my god sister, her

1217
01:01:01,760 --> 01:01:04,880
Speaker 1: husband and her family. It took other extended friends and

1218
01:01:04,960 --> 01:01:07,400
Speaker 1: family that I had. It took my fame and my

1219
01:01:07,440 --> 01:01:09,920
Speaker 1: family in this as well that I actually like um

1220
01:01:10,160 --> 01:01:16,200
Speaker 1: to help me to get me through this process. So

1221
01:01:16,800 --> 01:01:18,800
Speaker 1: it was a lot. But you know, I remember that

1222
01:01:18,880 --> 01:01:24,640
Speaker 1: makeup artistry was my thing. Like I never knew how

1223
01:01:24,720 --> 01:01:26,880
Speaker 1: much I loved it until I got right back to it.

1224
01:01:26,920 --> 01:01:28,840
Speaker 1: I got right back to it in September that same

1225
01:01:28,920 --> 01:01:32,000
Speaker 1: year I did I did a fashion show, and I

1226
01:01:32,080 --> 01:01:35,640
Speaker 1: never knew how much I loved my crash until that moment.

1227
01:01:35,680 --> 01:01:38,360
Speaker 1: It's like I when I'm in there, like when I'm

1228
01:01:38,360 --> 01:01:40,320
Speaker 1: doing makeup, I have tunnel vision. There's and I don't

1229
01:01:40,320 --> 01:01:42,520
Speaker 1: see nothing else but that. And I've seen your work.

1230
01:01:42,560 --> 01:01:45,640
Speaker 1: You can be the face chick. Thank you, thank you.

1231
01:01:45,680 --> 01:01:47,520
Speaker 1: And I've been doing it since. I was actually a

1232
01:01:47,560 --> 01:01:51,080
Speaker 1: makeup artist long before the shooting. I was actually started

1233
01:01:51,080 --> 01:01:54,480
Speaker 1: to make up September two thousand and fifteen. Mm. So

1234
01:01:55,200 --> 01:01:57,800
Speaker 1: those few years later, as you go back, I got,

1235
01:01:57,800 --> 01:02:00,840
Speaker 1: I had opportunities work on an amazing protect and things

1236
01:02:00,880 --> 01:02:03,560
Speaker 1: like that. It does since then, I realized as my

1237
01:02:03,680 --> 01:02:07,040
Speaker 1: healing process was going on, sharing my story was a

1238
01:02:07,080 --> 01:02:10,520
Speaker 1: big part of that and my system. I had to

1239
01:02:10,560 --> 01:02:12,040
Speaker 1: get it out of my system. You're not some time

1240
01:02:12,120 --> 01:02:15,440
Speaker 1: to talk something so much. You're just like Jesus Christ, right,

1241
01:02:15,480 --> 01:02:18,800
Speaker 1: and but that helped. It helped, and that um, it

1242
01:02:18,840 --> 01:02:23,320
Speaker 1: doesn't justifying him, but helped the whole lot. So sharing

1243
01:02:23,360 --> 01:02:27,080
Speaker 1: my story and that's how UM the Global Ethos Awards

1244
01:02:27,160 --> 01:02:31,360
Speaker 1: was first. UM. I was sitting here in my at

1245
01:02:31,400 --> 01:02:34,160
Speaker 1: my god sister's house and we were having a conversation

1246
01:02:34,240 --> 01:02:35,520
Speaker 1: at like ten o'clock at night, and I was like,

1247
01:02:35,560 --> 01:02:37,080
Speaker 1: you know, I want to do something that's really rememberable.

1248
01:02:37,080 --> 01:02:39,960
Speaker 1: And it started out as mere talking about my birthday

1249
01:02:40,400 --> 01:02:42,080
Speaker 1: and I want up thinking about Haim and a birthday

1250
01:02:42,080 --> 01:02:43,800
Speaker 1: on the spirit of Philadelphia and not sure if you're

1251
01:02:43,800 --> 01:02:46,240
Speaker 1: head yet, but it's a boat here in philadelph cool

1252
01:02:46,280 --> 01:02:49,680
Speaker 1: ship here in Philadelphia that's soon appeared like pens landon

1253
01:02:49,760 --> 01:02:53,640
Speaker 1: and um, and I was thinking about him a big

1254
01:02:53,680 --> 01:02:56,960
Speaker 1: all white party. I say, now, it's appreciate everybody that's there.

1255
01:02:57,200 --> 01:02:59,320
Speaker 1: Right then I was like, you know, I found to

1256
01:02:59,400 --> 01:03:04,120
Speaker 1: hold the love white baby. Okay. So I was like,

1257
01:03:04,240 --> 01:03:07,200
Speaker 1: you know, what, how about I do one thing I

1258
01:03:07,280 --> 01:03:09,000
Speaker 1: do want to do it Coast to Galla. She said, okay,

1259
01:03:09,000 --> 01:03:10,439
Speaker 1: what do you want to host the galaport? I said,

1260
01:03:10,800 --> 01:03:13,320
Speaker 1: what were the gala before? And I said, well, I

1261
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:15,520
Speaker 1: want to honor people at this stuff. She said, okay,

1262
01:03:15,560 --> 01:03:17,840
Speaker 1: for what I said. You know what, I'm gonna an

1263
01:03:17,880 --> 01:03:19,880
Speaker 1: an after this because a lot of times they they

1264
01:03:20,040 --> 01:03:22,200
Speaker 1: often are unseen and I noticed. So what happens is,

1265
01:03:22,640 --> 01:03:25,240
Speaker 1: you know, or they've seen this problem people, those people

1266
01:03:25,280 --> 01:03:28,320
Speaker 1: you see protesting outside of them buildings or outside of

1267
01:03:28,360 --> 01:03:30,960
Speaker 1: the white like the White House or on the steps

1268
01:03:31,000 --> 01:03:33,200
Speaker 1: of the the Senator's affice or something like that, like

1269
01:03:33,320 --> 01:03:35,680
Speaker 1: you know, they get and they're they not noticed all

1270
01:03:35,720 --> 01:03:38,080
Speaker 1: the time, or they're been considered like annoying or pet

1271
01:03:38,520 --> 01:03:40,880
Speaker 1: or pest and things like that. But that's not what

1272
01:03:41,000 --> 01:03:43,480
Speaker 1: it is. These people have since they're trying to tell

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Speaker 1: you something. It's crazy that they pay activists more attention now,

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Speaker 1: more than ever since the entire Black Lives movement moment

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Speaker 1: matter kind of illuminated since the killing of George Floyd,

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Speaker 1: even though this has been going on for decades since

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Speaker 1: lay yes, since long propping long before that, and it's

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Speaker 1: just like, you know, since this has been a thing

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Speaker 1: and it's been illuminated, now they're paying more attention to it.

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Speaker 1: But our goal is to make sure they think it's

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Speaker 1: a proper recognition for what they're for. So next year

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Speaker 1: and during one I could officially say that we're hosting

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Speaker 1: a gala to hono those and we already had how

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Speaker 1: people who are and lying for the awards because the

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Speaker 1: awards Galar was actually supposed to take a year. This

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Speaker 1: take place this year made their two thousand and twenty.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, but Kay posted because I would attend absolutely, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: so posted for sure. Well, I am super proud of you,

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Speaker 1: like when I met Philly because I love going to

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Speaker 1: Philly when yeah, so when I meant Philly, I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: definitely hit you up so we can meet in person.

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Speaker 1: But like, I know your story is going to like

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Speaker 1: encourage or inspire so many people to keep going. Like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I think you're doing amazing things. I know your cousin

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Speaker 1: is proud of you, and I'm just super proud all you, Like,

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Speaker 1: thank you so much. I really appreciate that absolutely, Like

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Speaker 1: you've had people cheering for you today and you don't

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Speaker 1: even know it. So like, just keep going to my listeners.

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Speaker 1: If you have any questions, comments, or y'all just want

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Speaker 1: to say, hey, girl have if you want to know

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Speaker 1: more about my guests, please email me a hello at

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Speaker 1: the PhD podcast dot com And until next time, everyone,

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Speaker 1: Later later