1 00:00:00,760 --> 00:00:03,720 Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya Red and I 2 00:00:03,880 --> 00:00:11,920 Speaker 1: Heart Radio Podcast. Hello everybody, We're scrubbing in, scrub a 3 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:15,400 Speaker 1: dub dub and the tub tub tub. We're almost too 4 00:00:16,600 --> 00:00:22,599 Speaker 1: How are you feeling? You know? I love a new year. 5 00:00:23,079 --> 00:00:25,439 Speaker 1: I know you do. I love a new chapter. It's 6 00:00:25,440 --> 00:00:30,000 Speaker 1: like closing the chapter of one entering into two. I 7 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:32,519 Speaker 1: I love the feeling of it. I love the lead up. 8 00:00:32,600 --> 00:00:36,160 Speaker 1: I like just pondering things, thinking about the last year. 9 00:00:37,280 --> 00:00:40,279 Speaker 1: I'm gonna leave my Christmas decorations up. I think through 10 00:00:40,360 --> 00:00:45,280 Speaker 1: the month of January because it's fine. And if Taylor swept, 11 00:00:45,560 --> 00:00:49,760 Speaker 1: If Taylor Swept says it, Taff says it, then that's 12 00:00:49,760 --> 00:00:52,360 Speaker 1: how I live my life. That's great. Have you like 13 00:00:52,560 --> 00:00:55,280 Speaker 1: come up with your word for the new year or 14 00:00:55,360 --> 00:00:57,960 Speaker 1: your do you do resolutions or do you just do 15 00:00:58,080 --> 00:01:00,920 Speaker 1: like words and like vision boards? I only do I 16 00:01:00,960 --> 00:01:03,080 Speaker 1: do a word in a vision board. I don't do resolutions. 17 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:05,160 Speaker 1: And actually I should post this in the Facebook group. 18 00:01:05,240 --> 00:01:08,280 Speaker 1: Davon Franklin did this like amazing. He was a guest 19 00:01:08,319 --> 00:01:13,080 Speaker 1: preacher at my church last January, so like January, Oh 20 00:01:13,200 --> 00:01:17,360 Speaker 1: here we are again, and it was really good about 21 00:01:17,600 --> 00:01:21,160 Speaker 1: how new year's resolutions. He doesn't believe in them because 22 00:01:21,520 --> 00:01:23,959 Speaker 1: people say, like, we want to drink this much water 23 00:01:24,000 --> 00:01:25,360 Speaker 1: every day, and then you don't do it for a 24 00:01:25,480 --> 00:01:27,119 Speaker 1: day and then you feel like a failure and it's 25 00:01:27,200 --> 00:01:31,200 Speaker 1: January seven. So he says it a lot better than 26 00:01:31,240 --> 00:01:34,720 Speaker 1: I am explaining it. So I'll post the actual I'll 27 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:36,680 Speaker 1: post this actual thing in the Facebook up if you 28 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:38,240 Speaker 1: want to listen to it. But I don't really believe 29 00:01:38,240 --> 00:01:40,200 Speaker 1: in resolutions for that same purpose because I don't feel 30 00:01:40,200 --> 00:01:41,600 Speaker 1: like your failure if you don't do it. I just 31 00:01:41,640 --> 00:01:45,520 Speaker 1: want to like always been moving forward, always trying to improve. Yeah, 32 00:01:45,560 --> 00:01:50,480 Speaker 1: I think there's like, for some reason, resolution, the context 33 00:01:50,600 --> 00:01:55,040 Speaker 1: or the meaning behind it does have this um pressure 34 00:01:56,120 --> 00:01:59,040 Speaker 1: to me, which is weird because really a resolution is 35 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:00,720 Speaker 1: just a goal, and if you were like I'm doing 36 00:02:00,760 --> 00:02:03,480 Speaker 1: goal setting, it would be like, oh yeah, it sounds great, 37 00:02:03,520 --> 00:02:06,560 Speaker 1: like let's set goals. But the word resolution has like 38 00:02:06,640 --> 00:02:10,160 Speaker 1: this pressure to it that I've always felt of like, Okay, 39 00:02:10,200 --> 00:02:14,399 Speaker 1: if I set this resolution and I don't get through 40 00:02:14,440 --> 00:02:18,359 Speaker 1: the first week with like staying through the resolution, then 41 00:02:18,600 --> 00:02:21,960 Speaker 1: what's the point of keep like continuing it? And it's 42 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:23,720 Speaker 1: like drinking more water would be good for you to 43 00:02:23,720 --> 00:02:25,239 Speaker 1: do all year long, but then you feel like a 44 00:02:25,240 --> 00:02:26,880 Speaker 1: failure because you don't do your hit, your whatever you 45 00:02:26,880 --> 00:02:28,120 Speaker 1: said you would do every day, and then you just 46 00:02:28,120 --> 00:02:29,880 Speaker 1: stop it completely and then you never drink water. I 47 00:02:30,520 --> 00:02:34,160 Speaker 1: mean with her up right forever? Tany do you remember 48 00:02:34,200 --> 00:02:39,399 Speaker 1: your word? Yeah? It was level up? Oh yeah, two 49 00:02:39,400 --> 00:02:44,519 Speaker 1: words one sentiment? Cohen in there? And will you have 50 00:02:44,720 --> 00:02:48,760 Speaker 1: a vision board a New Year's Eve? Like can we 51 00:02:48,800 --> 00:02:53,359 Speaker 1: look at it that first couple of days back with Ryan? Um? Yeah, 52 00:02:53,400 --> 00:02:55,840 Speaker 1: I should, I should have it. I usually do it, 53 00:02:55,880 --> 00:02:59,040 Speaker 1: like I usually finish it by the first week of January. 54 00:02:59,160 --> 00:03:01,440 Speaker 1: But I'll definitely know like what it's gonna I'll definitely 55 00:03:01,440 --> 00:03:02,679 Speaker 1: like my word and like what's going to be on 56 00:03:02,760 --> 00:03:05,480 Speaker 1: there for sure? Okay, all right, great? Are you doing 57 00:03:05,480 --> 00:03:09,240 Speaker 1: it New Year's Eve like you normally do? No? TBD. 58 00:03:09,440 --> 00:03:11,120 Speaker 1: So I'm going to be with Red Star and his 59 00:03:11,200 --> 00:03:13,440 Speaker 1: kids on New Year's Eve this year, So I don't know. 60 00:03:13,520 --> 00:03:15,400 Speaker 1: I mean maybe we all vision board together. I don't 61 00:03:15,400 --> 00:03:17,760 Speaker 1: know if kids probably don't enjoy doing that. Do you 62 00:03:17,800 --> 00:03:19,799 Speaker 1: think that is better than the old days when you 63 00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:21,920 Speaker 1: would vision board with Hailey Steinfeld and New Year's Eve? 64 00:03:21,960 --> 00:03:24,000 Speaker 1: I think it's better than you with your your boyfriend 65 00:03:24,040 --> 00:03:29,000 Speaker 1: and his kids. Yeah, so probably not on problem. Thank you? Wow, 66 00:03:29,360 --> 00:03:36,200 Speaker 1: really taking it three. I was just trying to scroll 67 00:03:36,240 --> 00:03:39,800 Speaker 1: and figure out what my word was, but I don't 68 00:03:39,840 --> 00:03:45,840 Speaker 1: have any recollection. I thought I had an Instagram post 69 00:03:46,120 --> 00:03:49,480 Speaker 1: saying my word, but I don't. There's no New Year's 70 00:03:49,560 --> 00:03:55,040 Speaker 1: post from so just nothing. I'm gonna say it was 71 00:03:55,080 --> 00:03:59,040 Speaker 1: a growth. Yeah, I'm just gonna say, Okay, so I'm 72 00:03:59,080 --> 00:04:01,200 Speaker 1: gonna do it is I'm going to recap my year 73 00:04:01,280 --> 00:04:04,520 Speaker 1: with the word instead of having one at the beginning, 74 00:04:04,520 --> 00:04:07,920 Speaker 1: I'm gonna recap it and this year was growth, But 75 00:04:08,160 --> 00:04:10,960 Speaker 1: next year I am going to do a word. So 76 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:14,240 Speaker 1: this year you get a recap word and then next year, 77 00:04:14,480 --> 00:04:17,160 Speaker 1: which I'm gonna write down, my word is going to 78 00:04:17,240 --> 00:04:21,640 Speaker 1: be unfiltered. Oh really, because it's funny you say that? 79 00:04:21,760 --> 00:04:26,920 Speaker 1: Tell me why I feel that I have lived my 80 00:04:27,040 --> 00:04:33,400 Speaker 1: whole life like filtering everything I say or do to 81 00:04:33,520 --> 00:04:36,200 Speaker 1: make sure that other people are pleased with me. And 82 00:04:36,960 --> 00:04:40,200 Speaker 1: I've really been working on trying to let go of 83 00:04:40,240 --> 00:04:43,960 Speaker 1: the expectation of other people. But I've still found myself 84 00:04:44,000 --> 00:04:46,840 Speaker 1: to be very filtered and not in a way where 85 00:04:46,839 --> 00:04:50,799 Speaker 1: I'm like I share every single thing in my life. 86 00:04:50,800 --> 00:04:53,720 Speaker 1: But I just I watched people like the people who 87 00:04:53,800 --> 00:04:56,679 Speaker 1: I'm gravitated towards, especially like on social media and stuff 88 00:04:56,680 --> 00:04:58,880 Speaker 1: are the people who are just kind of like living 89 00:04:58,920 --> 00:05:01,279 Speaker 1: their life. They talk about things or not, they have 90 00:05:01,360 --> 00:05:04,320 Speaker 1: opinions on things, and it's kind of like if if 91 00:05:04,920 --> 00:05:07,120 Speaker 1: people disagree, like that's fine, if we can have a 92 00:05:07,120 --> 00:05:10,080 Speaker 1: conversation about it, cool, if we just have different opinions, cool. 93 00:05:10,760 --> 00:05:13,480 Speaker 1: And I kind of want that to be my mentality 94 00:05:13,520 --> 00:05:15,800 Speaker 1: going into the next year of being like this is 95 00:05:15,839 --> 00:05:18,560 Speaker 1: who I am, this is what I think about this, 96 00:05:18,560 --> 00:05:24,000 Speaker 1: this is my opinion on this, without worrying about backlash 97 00:05:24,279 --> 00:05:28,039 Speaker 1: in the t words that we don't say, yeah they're 98 00:05:28,040 --> 00:05:32,240 Speaker 1: gone in two by. And I also think unfiltered in 99 00:05:32,240 --> 00:05:36,520 Speaker 1: this sense of like, even though it's so dumb to 100 00:05:36,600 --> 00:05:40,599 Speaker 1: even talk about, like Instagram filters, but like how much 101 00:05:40,720 --> 00:05:44,680 Speaker 1: that I've been trying to on social media not use 102 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:48,280 Speaker 1: like a filter on the Instagram stories and stuff, just 103 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:52,000 Speaker 1: like really try to be more just who I am, 104 00:05:52,040 --> 00:05:56,160 Speaker 1: like but deeper than what I show on surface level, 105 00:05:56,200 --> 00:05:58,120 Speaker 1: because I never feel like I'm not myself. I just 106 00:05:58,200 --> 00:06:01,520 Speaker 1: feel like I have I filter. I'm like cautious of 107 00:06:01,560 --> 00:06:03,560 Speaker 1: what I give opinions on or what I say. So 108 00:06:03,960 --> 00:06:05,680 Speaker 1: I want to be a little more just like open. 109 00:06:06,720 --> 00:06:09,960 Speaker 1: I love that. I love that for you. Yeah. Well, 110 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:12,240 Speaker 1: I mean it's not it's gonna it's not gonna be 111 00:06:13,320 --> 00:06:18,839 Speaker 1: you know. It's a slow role. It's a slow, slow unfiltering. Yeah, 112 00:06:18,839 --> 00:06:20,320 Speaker 1: I'm not just all of a sudden I'm gonna come 113 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:28,479 Speaker 1: out and start just like letting loose. Okay, I'm just 114 00:06:28,520 --> 00:06:34,400 Speaker 1: gonna come out and do that. Huh No. Well, I 115 00:06:34,440 --> 00:06:36,880 Speaker 1: appreciate that word, and I appreciate that sentiment because I 116 00:06:36,920 --> 00:06:40,680 Speaker 1: also feel I've been having this realization I'd say the 117 00:06:40,760 --> 00:06:44,680 Speaker 1: last two weeks um mostly that I was a little 118 00:06:44,680 --> 00:06:46,560 Speaker 1: bit the same way. I started to kind of clench 119 00:06:46,680 --> 00:06:48,800 Speaker 1: up in a way that I never have before, Like 120 00:06:48,880 --> 00:06:51,359 Speaker 1: I love being unfiltered and I love being able to 121 00:06:51,360 --> 00:06:54,760 Speaker 1: just be myself. And I felt like I've clenched up 122 00:06:54,800 --> 00:06:58,840 Speaker 1: in the sense that again everybody the T word, they 123 00:06:59,440 --> 00:07:01,760 Speaker 1: come um, and it's gotten to me more when I 124 00:07:01,800 --> 00:07:03,039 Speaker 1: used to not, I use like I don't care what 125 00:07:03,120 --> 00:07:06,520 Speaker 1: anybody thinks, and I don't really care what anybody thinks. 126 00:07:06,560 --> 00:07:08,960 Speaker 1: But then I've been letting it get to me. And 127 00:07:08,960 --> 00:07:12,240 Speaker 1: then the second thing that I realized that I've been 128 00:07:12,280 --> 00:07:17,600 Speaker 1: doing and I, um, I'm I'm afraid to take a risk. 129 00:07:18,280 --> 00:07:20,040 Speaker 1: I'm afraid to take a risk. I'm afraid to take 130 00:07:20,040 --> 00:07:25,040 Speaker 1: a leap because I'm afraid of either failure or a misstep. 131 00:07:25,400 --> 00:07:27,840 Speaker 1: And I think I'm really wanting to just kind of 132 00:07:27,840 --> 00:07:31,520 Speaker 1: throw caution to the wind this this year and just 133 00:07:31,640 --> 00:07:36,120 Speaker 1: kind of take some risks in ways that I haven't before. Um, 134 00:07:36,160 --> 00:07:39,480 Speaker 1: And that's something that's really interesting, you know, I really 135 00:07:39,520 --> 00:07:43,960 Speaker 1: want to. I was talking last year actually this exact 136 00:07:44,040 --> 00:07:50,840 Speaker 1: same podcast, so last December, so December twenty and we 137 00:07:50,840 --> 00:07:53,560 Speaker 1: were doing our picks and our pits and peaks, and 138 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:55,680 Speaker 1: I said that I was working on this book proposal 139 00:07:56,000 --> 00:07:58,760 Speaker 1: and it was something that was really important to me, 140 00:07:58,800 --> 00:08:01,920 Speaker 1: this book, and it just went nowhere because I let 141 00:08:01,960 --> 00:08:07,040 Speaker 1: other people's influence or opinions, people that are professionals and 142 00:08:07,120 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 1: like do this stuff, really impact the trajectory of where 143 00:08:10,680 --> 00:08:12,600 Speaker 1: it went, and it ended up being something I didn't 144 00:08:12,640 --> 00:08:15,200 Speaker 1: fully believe in and then ended up on the shopping 145 00:08:15,640 --> 00:08:18,080 Speaker 1: ground floor whatever after a lot of time and like 146 00:08:18,240 --> 00:08:21,960 Speaker 1: money and effort, and so that was really heartbreaking. And 147 00:08:22,280 --> 00:08:25,080 Speaker 1: a year later, I am like on a whole another 148 00:08:25,160 --> 00:08:28,120 Speaker 1: path with that and it's all working in a really 149 00:08:28,120 --> 00:08:32,079 Speaker 1: beautiful way. And so I think what I realized is 150 00:08:32,120 --> 00:08:36,520 Speaker 1: I need to really trust myself keep being me, because 151 00:08:36,559 --> 00:08:38,080 Speaker 1: at the end of the day, if you're true to 152 00:08:38,120 --> 00:08:41,240 Speaker 1: yourself and things that feel good to you, even if 153 00:08:41,240 --> 00:08:44,240 Speaker 1: it doesn't work out, it's okay because that really that 154 00:08:44,360 --> 00:08:47,280 Speaker 1: was you, you know, Whereas before I was like trusting 155 00:08:47,280 --> 00:08:51,160 Speaker 1: other people and like letting other people infiltrate my brain, 156 00:08:51,920 --> 00:08:54,000 Speaker 1: and then when that doesn't work out, you're really disappointed 157 00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:55,640 Speaker 1: because you're like, I didn't even trust my own gun 158 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:58,240 Speaker 1: and then it failed. So I'm going to take some 159 00:08:58,280 --> 00:09:02,840 Speaker 1: more risks and um step into my modern woman panties 160 00:09:02,880 --> 00:09:07,360 Speaker 1: again because I feel like, yeah, my pantaloon's I felt 161 00:09:07,400 --> 00:09:11,240 Speaker 1: like I took my modern woman pantaloonas off and put 162 00:09:11,360 --> 00:09:14,040 Speaker 1: briefs on. Yeah, I was wearing thongs for a minute. 163 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:17,200 Speaker 1: You need to put you need to put boxers on. Yeah, 164 00:09:17,240 --> 00:09:20,720 Speaker 1: Like thongs are not me, you know. And then all honesty, 165 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:22,480 Speaker 1: when I started getting all my U T I s, 166 00:09:22,679 --> 00:09:26,920 Speaker 1: I threw thongs out and it was never so bad. 167 00:09:26,920 --> 00:09:29,800 Speaker 1: That's how you get where if you don't need a line, 168 00:09:30,240 --> 00:09:33,920 Speaker 1: were like granny panties, No, you don't you do. They're cute. 169 00:09:34,200 --> 00:09:37,480 Speaker 1: They're not like granny panties. They're not like grantees, not 170 00:09:37,600 --> 00:09:42,120 Speaker 1: like your grandma's panties, but they're they're not my grandma's pants. 171 00:09:42,160 --> 00:09:45,800 Speaker 1: They're like full butts. Yeah, oh my god, they're cute. 172 00:09:46,120 --> 00:09:49,520 Speaker 1: A whole gear of not knowing. So your word for 173 00:09:49,600 --> 00:09:56,680 Speaker 1: this year's unclenched. Could you imagine if that's my word? 174 00:09:56,760 --> 00:10:01,800 Speaker 1: I don't hate it, not quite, but it's it's going 175 00:10:01,840 --> 00:10:06,800 Speaker 1: to be in that in that vein of unclenched, risk taking, daredevil, 176 00:10:07,200 --> 00:10:10,720 Speaker 1: not really let go let God, Let go let God, 177 00:10:11,320 --> 00:10:13,480 Speaker 1: something along those lines. But I gotta get gotta get 178 00:10:13,480 --> 00:10:16,480 Speaker 1: back to one word. Okay, let God. That's Ford's just 179 00:10:16,600 --> 00:10:20,040 Speaker 1: pushing it. Let go, let it like all one word 180 00:10:20,960 --> 00:10:28,120 Speaker 1: or like l G l G. That's cute. Well, I 181 00:10:28,280 --> 00:10:31,040 Speaker 1: love that for you. Thank you. Put the modern one 182 00:10:31,320 --> 00:10:36,079 Speaker 1: and pantaloon. He's back on and back on baby and 183 00:10:36,200 --> 00:10:41,679 Speaker 1: her pentaloons. Boil's Goals for the Year Award for the 184 00:10:41,800 --> 00:10:46,640 Speaker 1: Year Eastern Markeys. Not really a word of the year 185 00:10:46,960 --> 00:10:50,240 Speaker 1: kind of guy. Any accomplishments you want to complish me, 186 00:10:50,400 --> 00:10:54,840 Speaker 1: you know, like different strokes, different folks. Um, we've got 187 00:10:54,920 --> 00:10:56,440 Speaker 1: a big year coming up because I got a kid 188 00:10:56,440 --> 00:11:00,880 Speaker 1: who's gonna be driving for sure. That's a big one. 189 00:11:02,200 --> 00:11:04,559 Speaker 1: We celebrate our twentieth wedding anniversary and twenty two, so 190 00:11:04,640 --> 00:11:07,920 Speaker 1: that's exciting. So I have things to look forward to. 191 00:11:09,080 --> 00:11:10,640 Speaker 1: I have not come up I do. I actually do 192 00:11:10,760 --> 00:11:12,360 Speaker 1: like to do resolutions, and I have not come up 193 00:11:12,360 --> 00:11:14,199 Speaker 1: with one yet for this year, but I will and 194 00:11:14,240 --> 00:11:17,199 Speaker 1: I'll keep what was a resolution last year? Yeah, I 195 00:11:17,240 --> 00:11:19,319 Speaker 1: don't remember, but I am actually pretty good at that 196 00:11:19,520 --> 00:11:24,719 Speaker 1: because it'll be well, I'm a rule center, and so 197 00:11:24,800 --> 00:11:26,559 Speaker 1: when I add a rule to my life, it just 198 00:11:26,640 --> 00:11:28,360 Speaker 1: becomes part of my life. I don't remember when it 199 00:11:28,480 --> 00:11:33,640 Speaker 1: was implemented. That's so fascinating. But I've been very good 200 00:11:33,679 --> 00:11:35,800 Speaker 1: about my steps. I've been very good about the water 201 00:11:35,880 --> 00:11:37,719 Speaker 1: I drink. I've been very good about sleep I get. 202 00:11:37,760 --> 00:11:40,120 Speaker 1: I've been very disciplined because I like a very disciplined life, 203 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:44,280 Speaker 1: and I have been doing that, all right, A disciplined man. 204 00:11:45,280 --> 00:11:47,400 Speaker 1: All right, Well, then we will wait till the new 205 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:53,800 Speaker 1: year to hear your resolution. Yeah, that you ponder throughout 206 00:11:54,080 --> 00:12:00,959 Speaker 1: the end of this year. My word for anyone was sliving, 207 00:12:01,400 --> 00:12:04,240 Speaker 1: and I felt like I held it up very well. Uh, 208 00:12:05,880 --> 00:12:09,360 Speaker 1: it's a it's a combination of uh, slaying it and 209 00:12:09,480 --> 00:12:11,719 Speaker 1: living your best life. And I didn't come up with 210 00:12:11,760 --> 00:12:17,480 Speaker 1: the word slang slag and um wait, he said, there's 211 00:12:17,520 --> 00:12:19,319 Speaker 1: this song and I don't know what it was like. 212 00:12:19,480 --> 00:12:22,480 Speaker 1: I don't walk, I slay. Hey, I don't know. I 213 00:12:22,480 --> 00:12:25,600 Speaker 1: should be like your theme song, it should be uh. 214 00:12:26,960 --> 00:12:28,960 Speaker 1: So sliving is a word that was coined by one 215 00:12:29,000 --> 00:12:31,360 Speaker 1: Paris Hilton, and it came into my life and the 216 00:12:31,520 --> 00:12:36,480 Speaker 1: end of twenty ninety for a number of reasons. Okay, 217 00:12:36,520 --> 00:12:38,120 Speaker 1: it's like a year ago. Yeah, so that was my 218 00:12:38,160 --> 00:12:40,880 Speaker 1: word for one and and it guided me very well. 219 00:12:40,960 --> 00:12:45,920 Speaker 1: But my my word for two is energy. And that 220 00:12:46,120 --> 00:12:51,360 Speaker 1: is because in one I overworked myself a lot, and 221 00:12:52,080 --> 00:12:54,199 Speaker 1: I did. I got really poor sleep all year long, 222 00:12:54,800 --> 00:12:57,839 Speaker 1: and I didn't have a lot of energy to do 223 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:00,800 Speaker 1: the things I want to be doing, the things I 224 00:13:01,840 --> 00:13:04,719 Speaker 1: need to do in certain areas of my life. And 225 00:13:04,800 --> 00:13:06,160 Speaker 1: I want to change that. And the next year I 226 00:13:06,200 --> 00:13:08,600 Speaker 1: want to redirect because I have a lot of energy. 227 00:13:08,720 --> 00:13:10,920 Speaker 1: I wake up every day jumping around. I got a 228 00:13:10,960 --> 00:13:12,079 Speaker 1: lot of it to move and I just want to 229 00:13:12,120 --> 00:13:15,200 Speaker 1: make sure it's directed into the right place that will 230 00:13:15,240 --> 00:13:17,360 Speaker 1: make me a happier and more balanced person. So that's 231 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:20,480 Speaker 1: what many balance might be a better word. I actually 232 00:13:20,559 --> 00:13:24,079 Speaker 1: really like energy, and I might add unfiltered energy to 233 00:13:24,240 --> 00:13:28,120 Speaker 1: my to my New Year because I also I don't 234 00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:31,079 Speaker 1: have the energy, so I differ from you in the 235 00:13:31,160 --> 00:13:33,079 Speaker 1: fact that I have it and need to redirect it. 236 00:13:33,160 --> 00:13:37,079 Speaker 1: I just need energy, So I think that probably will 237 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:41,800 Speaker 1: come with a healthier lifestyle, which we'll get there. We'll 238 00:13:41,880 --> 00:13:44,199 Speaker 1: get to that at a later date. But I like 239 00:13:44,480 --> 00:13:51,480 Speaker 1: unfiltered energy as my asthma motto, my motto like that. Yeah, yeah, 240 00:13:51,640 --> 00:14:00,160 Speaker 1: So thanks for the inspo. East absolutely pure source energy. Ye. 241 00:14:10,880 --> 00:14:13,160 Speaker 1: Also we should talk about so I would ask them, 242 00:14:13,520 --> 00:14:15,360 Speaker 1: not the last podcast, but the podcast A couple of 243 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:17,760 Speaker 1: podcasts ago for you guys to send us your peak 244 00:14:17,880 --> 00:14:21,360 Speaker 1: and your pit of this year. And I really went 245 00:14:21,440 --> 00:14:25,520 Speaker 1: through them, and you know, we want your feedback. And 246 00:14:25,760 --> 00:14:30,760 Speaker 1: we listen here at scrubbing In And the the most 247 00:14:30,800 --> 00:14:33,560 Speaker 1: feedback I got was they enjoy host chat. They just 248 00:14:33,680 --> 00:14:36,040 Speaker 1: like they literally they're like you guys could talk about whatever. 249 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:40,440 Speaker 1: They don't enjoy the guests as much and they enjoy 250 00:14:40,600 --> 00:14:43,520 Speaker 1: they want more advice. So what we're gonna try and 251 00:14:43,600 --> 00:14:46,240 Speaker 1: do is we're gonna try and do, and they want 252 00:14:46,320 --> 00:14:50,080 Speaker 1: more episodes, so we're gonna try and do two podcasts 253 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:54,080 Speaker 1: a week, a little bit shorter ones and keep them 254 00:14:54,560 --> 00:14:58,200 Speaker 1: fun and light and bright and add some more advice. 255 00:15:00,600 --> 00:15:02,400 Speaker 1: That's what I saw. Did you look through I sent 256 00:15:02,440 --> 00:15:04,480 Speaker 1: you the ones that I saw. Yeah, yeah, I kind 257 00:15:04,480 --> 00:15:07,200 Speaker 1: of got the same reviews. A lot of people were 258 00:15:07,280 --> 00:15:09,800 Speaker 1: just messaging me to say hey, to make me feel included, 259 00:15:09,920 --> 00:15:14,200 Speaker 1: so it was nice. Did I feel pitied a little bit, 260 00:15:14,320 --> 00:15:16,520 Speaker 1: but I asked for it, so I can't feel too pitied, 261 00:15:16,920 --> 00:15:23,080 Speaker 1: too complicated navigating? Yeah? Really, Now, I just I love 262 00:15:23,120 --> 00:15:26,440 Speaker 1: our listeners because like they just really I don't know, 263 00:15:26,560 --> 00:15:30,560 Speaker 1: there's something really um when I read the messages. I 264 00:15:30,720 --> 00:15:34,000 Speaker 1: feel like I'm reading people's messages that I know in 265 00:15:34,080 --> 00:15:37,000 Speaker 1: a weird way, like they're not you know what I'm saying. 266 00:15:37,120 --> 00:15:40,120 Speaker 1: Like I feel like there because there's such a well, 267 00:15:40,160 --> 00:15:42,720 Speaker 1: it's different from people who aren't like podcast listeners and 268 00:15:42,760 --> 00:15:45,760 Speaker 1: they just follow me on Instagram like there are people 269 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:47,800 Speaker 1: have something really nice messages. But for some reason, when 270 00:15:47,840 --> 00:15:50,080 Speaker 1: it's from the podcast, because it feels like this community 271 00:15:50,160 --> 00:15:52,880 Speaker 1: that we've built, there's this feeling of like, oh, there's 272 00:15:53,320 --> 00:15:55,560 Speaker 1: Katie writing in to say, you know, like I feel 273 00:15:55,560 --> 00:15:58,560 Speaker 1: like I cry reading the d M sometimes because I 274 00:15:58,600 --> 00:16:01,240 Speaker 1: get so like emotionally moved by pop. Well that literally 275 00:16:01,400 --> 00:16:03,520 Speaker 1: Like just the other day, somebody was saying that they're 276 00:16:03,520 --> 00:16:05,440 Speaker 1: a nurse and they're working crazy hours and they just 277 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:07,000 Speaker 1: get in their car to drive home and they listen 278 00:16:07,000 --> 00:16:08,600 Speaker 1: to this podcast and it makes them like laugh and 279 00:16:08,680 --> 00:16:11,000 Speaker 1: that's the only time to laugh all day. And I 280 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:12,960 Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, like you know what I mean, 281 00:16:13,040 --> 00:16:15,600 Speaker 1: Like it's weird because even though we're not seeing everybody, 282 00:16:16,360 --> 00:16:20,080 Speaker 1: we're like still seeing everybody in a weird in a way. Yeah, 283 00:16:20,200 --> 00:16:24,320 Speaker 1: like when we're talking like I see. Also, we obviously 284 00:16:24,480 --> 00:16:26,880 Speaker 1: want to tour next year, so that's gonna be one 285 00:16:26,920 --> 00:16:30,240 Speaker 1: of my goals on my vision board because we had 286 00:16:30,320 --> 00:16:37,000 Speaker 1: to huge tour dates in and I would like an 287 00:16:37,000 --> 00:16:41,960 Speaker 1: adjacent some may say some may say at Sharon adjacent. Um, 288 00:16:42,120 --> 00:16:44,440 Speaker 1: so that would be a goal of mine for the podcast. 289 00:16:45,720 --> 00:16:50,359 Speaker 1: And then um yeah, I just really want the podcast 290 00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:52,680 Speaker 1: to be I know, like we talked about on the 291 00:16:52,800 --> 00:16:54,560 Speaker 1: Chicks in the Office podcast, how we feel like we've 292 00:16:54,640 --> 00:16:56,680 Speaker 1: kind of been in like a valley of the podcast, 293 00:16:57,240 --> 00:16:59,080 Speaker 1: like kind of in a kind of stuck of like 294 00:17:00,680 --> 00:17:03,600 Speaker 1: the dynamic, but it also goes to like you're filtering, 295 00:17:03,680 --> 00:17:06,520 Speaker 1: you know, like we've let people infiltrate our brains that 296 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:09,320 Speaker 1: do not deserve space or energy in there, and it 297 00:17:09,480 --> 00:17:11,840 Speaker 1: is time to kick them out and let this podcast 298 00:17:11,920 --> 00:17:14,040 Speaker 1: be what we wanted to be, not what other people 299 00:17:15,560 --> 00:17:18,879 Speaker 1: project exactly. So I feel like we've been in that 300 00:17:18,960 --> 00:17:21,000 Speaker 1: and a lot of people wrote me after that and 301 00:17:21,040 --> 00:17:22,680 Speaker 1: they were like, hey, I just listened to that episode, 302 00:17:22,680 --> 00:17:25,280 Speaker 1: like I don't feel bad at all. I love the podcast. 303 00:17:25,359 --> 00:17:27,040 Speaker 1: It's like one of the highlights of my week. And 304 00:17:27,119 --> 00:17:29,040 Speaker 1: I was like, you know, I think we need to 305 00:17:29,520 --> 00:17:32,720 Speaker 1: to take the pressure and the weight off of ourselves 306 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:36,840 Speaker 1: and know that we have created an amazing podcast and 307 00:17:37,359 --> 00:17:40,520 Speaker 1: people love it. We've created this amazing community and kind 308 00:17:40,560 --> 00:17:43,119 Speaker 1: of just like go off of that instead of feeling 309 00:17:43,240 --> 00:17:45,280 Speaker 1: like we have to do all these things because we 310 00:17:45,400 --> 00:17:49,520 Speaker 1: really just need to be ourselves, which yea. And I 311 00:17:49,600 --> 00:17:51,680 Speaker 1: think to like, there's all this pressure of like you 312 00:17:51,800 --> 00:17:53,960 Speaker 1: need to get more listeners and more listeners because that 313 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:56,600 Speaker 1: means more advertisers and more money, and it's like that's 314 00:17:56,640 --> 00:17:58,399 Speaker 1: not what it's about, you know what I mean. I mean, 315 00:17:58,760 --> 00:18:00,320 Speaker 1: I get it that it's a business us and that 316 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:03,879 Speaker 1: you know, that is a part of everything, but I 317 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:07,840 Speaker 1: think that it will naturally grow. I'm gonna say community, 318 00:18:08,000 --> 00:18:11,120 Speaker 1: and I think the community is what helps things grow. 319 00:18:11,680 --> 00:18:15,760 Speaker 1: We want quality over quantity, which is why we're going 320 00:18:15,840 --> 00:18:23,280 Speaker 1: to two podcasts. But as far as I think that's 321 00:18:23,320 --> 00:18:25,520 Speaker 1: going to help the quality, I do, I do. I 322 00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:27,720 Speaker 1: think there's just gonna be something about like kind of 323 00:18:28,040 --> 00:18:35,240 Speaker 1: almost being like reinvigorated with like unfiltered energy. So, um, 324 00:18:36,520 --> 00:18:38,800 Speaker 1: what's something that you accomplished want all of us to 325 00:18:38,800 --> 00:18:42,639 Speaker 1: talk about. What's something you accomplish that you're proud of. 326 00:18:43,440 --> 00:18:46,640 Speaker 1: I realized I've been very goal focused and when they say, 327 00:18:46,680 --> 00:18:48,520 Speaker 1: like a goal is a dream with a deadline, and 328 00:18:48,600 --> 00:18:50,359 Speaker 1: I was like, so all about that, And then I 329 00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:54,879 Speaker 1: realized that, like that is internal pressure that I was constantly. 330 00:18:54,880 --> 00:18:57,560 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm constantly putting pressure on myself, and 331 00:18:58,280 --> 00:19:00,680 Speaker 1: so I'm proud of that. I'm this year, I really 332 00:19:00,720 --> 00:19:02,400 Speaker 1: put in a lot of work in therapy and kind 333 00:19:02,440 --> 00:19:06,600 Speaker 1: of dissecting you know, what really makes me happy and 334 00:19:07,040 --> 00:19:10,160 Speaker 1: things that you know, why I am, why I packed 335 00:19:10,200 --> 00:19:12,120 Speaker 1: my schedule, like why I was in such a hamster whill, 336 00:19:12,119 --> 00:19:14,520 Speaker 1: why I couldn't just sit on the couch and watch TV. 337 00:19:15,280 --> 00:19:17,520 Speaker 1: You know, like there's like a lot of deep rooted 338 00:19:17,640 --> 00:19:19,119 Speaker 1: stuff in there. So I feel like I've been doing 339 00:19:19,160 --> 00:19:20,960 Speaker 1: a lot of work to kind of figure out why 340 00:19:21,080 --> 00:19:24,280 Speaker 1: that is. I'm proud of that. I'm proud of you 341 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:32,399 Speaker 1: for that. Thanks for overcoming and growing UM. Yeah, I 342 00:19:32,560 --> 00:19:35,640 Speaker 1: actually would say mine kind of goes back to therapy too, 343 00:19:35,920 --> 00:19:39,320 Speaker 1: but more so in the sense of like doing a 344 00:19:39,440 --> 00:19:42,280 Speaker 1: couple of therapy and individual therapy and just kind of 345 00:19:42,400 --> 00:19:45,680 Speaker 1: being able to make the decision to change the things 346 00:19:45,760 --> 00:19:48,480 Speaker 1: that are like unhealthy patterns that I never even realize 347 00:19:48,520 --> 00:19:53,399 Speaker 1: we're unhealthy patterns. And also having very hard conversations with 348 00:19:54,080 --> 00:19:56,120 Speaker 1: people that mean a lot to me in my life 349 00:19:56,160 --> 00:19:59,520 Speaker 1: that I've as someone who's non confrontational and always likes 350 00:19:59,600 --> 00:20:03,240 Speaker 1: to us be the one to not say anything to 351 00:20:03,359 --> 00:20:06,159 Speaker 1: keep the peace, like having hard conversations with people that 352 00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:11,520 Speaker 1: wouldn't have happened without the um growth in other areas. 353 00:20:11,640 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna feel really proud of that every year. 354 00:20:15,920 --> 00:20:17,439 Speaker 1: I think at the end of every year, as long 355 00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:19,679 Speaker 1: as I'm doing that, because I think there's always going 356 00:20:19,720 --> 00:20:21,920 Speaker 1: to be room to grow, and I think as long 357 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:26,040 Speaker 1: as you like, as soon as you feel like you 358 00:20:26,119 --> 00:20:30,560 Speaker 1: have no more room to grow. Then that's not good 359 00:20:30,880 --> 00:20:33,840 Speaker 1: because like we're always gonna have things where we can 360 00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:37,560 Speaker 1: improve on in life. So let's say that's mine too. Yeah, 361 00:20:38,119 --> 00:20:48,000 Speaker 1: proud of us, so proud of us, Eastern Mark. I guess, 362 00:20:48,160 --> 00:20:51,720 Speaker 1: uh what I'm most proud of in Uh one, I 363 00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:54,399 Speaker 1: started going. I started going back to therapy and like April, 364 00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:58,280 Speaker 1: and I've gone every week since then, and I've I've 365 00:20:58,600 --> 00:21:02,840 Speaker 1: confronted a lot of difficult things things personally, and I've 366 00:21:03,480 --> 00:21:06,000 Speaker 1: I feel like I made a lot of productive changes 367 00:21:06,440 --> 00:21:08,159 Speaker 1: and it's really helped me. I didn't go for I 368 00:21:08,240 --> 00:21:10,040 Speaker 1: was going for a while, and then I stopped for years, 369 00:21:10,400 --> 00:21:13,399 Speaker 1: and then then things started bubbling up, so I started 370 00:21:13,440 --> 00:21:19,120 Speaker 1: going again. You know how it is, everybody, Uh yeah, 371 00:21:20,160 --> 00:21:22,119 Speaker 1: but you know it's been It's been really great. And 372 00:21:22,240 --> 00:21:25,879 Speaker 1: I'm I'm setting some great goals for my personal mental 373 00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:28,680 Speaker 1: health in two and I'm looking forward to tackling those guys. 374 00:21:28,800 --> 00:21:32,280 Speaker 1: And I think, just uh, confronting these things I didn't 375 00:21:32,320 --> 00:21:36,119 Speaker 1: want to confront. That was my biggest accomplishment. It's so 376 00:21:36,280 --> 00:21:38,920 Speaker 1: easy to not confront things that we need to. It's 377 00:21:38,920 --> 00:21:42,240 Speaker 1: so easy to just like put it in the back 378 00:21:42,240 --> 00:21:44,359 Speaker 1: of your mind and leave it and do things that 379 00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:46,960 Speaker 1: are more difficult. Yeah, And I think that's why I 380 00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:49,040 Speaker 1: like people just kind of go go go in their 381 00:21:49,160 --> 00:21:50,359 Speaker 1: in their lives, you know what I mean, Just like 382 00:21:50,440 --> 00:21:51,879 Speaker 1: it's like this hampst whel that we just kind of 383 00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:53,440 Speaker 1: keep going so that we don't have to think about 384 00:21:53,480 --> 00:21:56,280 Speaker 1: that stuff. And then when the pandemic hit and there 385 00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:58,439 Speaker 1: was a little bit of stillness, it was like, oh, 386 00:21:58,560 --> 00:22:01,480 Speaker 1: maybe I should really kind of tackle these things. I 387 00:22:01,640 --> 00:22:06,439 Speaker 1: also think that they're like working on yourself and growing, 388 00:22:06,480 --> 00:22:10,720 Speaker 1: and like confronting things is really uncomfortable, like growth is. 389 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:14,800 Speaker 1: So I have found it, like probably the most uncomfortable 390 00:22:14,840 --> 00:22:17,400 Speaker 1: I've ever been in my own skin has been during 391 00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:19,920 Speaker 1: the time of having therapy and having to recognize things 392 00:22:20,000 --> 00:22:22,720 Speaker 1: that I've always done that aren't healthy for the other 393 00:22:22,840 --> 00:22:26,639 Speaker 1: people in my life. And it's so to to make 394 00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:29,920 Speaker 1: the decision to work on those things is actually a 395 00:22:30,040 --> 00:22:33,119 Speaker 1: really incredible thing that you can do for yourself because 396 00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:37,000 Speaker 1: it's way easier to avoid them. I mean, eventually they'll 397 00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:40,080 Speaker 1: bubble up, like you said, but in a way you 398 00:22:40,119 --> 00:22:42,360 Speaker 1: can always sweep it under the rug and run, run 399 00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:46,280 Speaker 1: and distract yourself from it. So yeah, well, and and 400 00:22:46,480 --> 00:22:48,560 Speaker 1: to My point is, and I've been saying this for 401 00:22:48,600 --> 00:22:51,120 Speaker 1: a long time, is that you can run from those 402 00:22:51,200 --> 00:22:54,760 Speaker 1: things until you have kids. And then when you have kids, 403 00:22:55,359 --> 00:22:59,879 Speaker 1: there's a giant, bright light that's shined shown on all 404 00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:03,200 Speaker 1: of the things that you don't like about yourself because 405 00:23:03,280 --> 00:23:05,960 Speaker 1: you see it reflected back in you. Your kids really 406 00:23:06,040 --> 00:23:08,000 Speaker 1: to point it out to you because they're blunt, or 407 00:23:08,080 --> 00:23:11,120 Speaker 1: you'll see behavior that they're doing that you realize, oh man, 408 00:23:11,320 --> 00:23:13,760 Speaker 1: they got that from me, and that's not good. And 409 00:23:13,880 --> 00:23:16,000 Speaker 1: so that's when you really do have to address it 410 00:23:16,119 --> 00:23:18,159 Speaker 1: and face it. And that's been this year for me 411 00:23:18,280 --> 00:23:21,920 Speaker 1: as I've really realized I've kind of uncracked a couple 412 00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:23,639 Speaker 1: of things, or cracked the code on a couple of 413 00:23:23,720 --> 00:23:25,320 Speaker 1: things as to why I am the way I am, 414 00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:28,000 Speaker 1: why I was the way I was, and I don't 415 00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:30,919 Speaker 1: like a lot of the I don't really like who 416 00:23:31,000 --> 00:23:33,119 Speaker 1: I was when I was in my twenties, and uh, 417 00:23:33,240 --> 00:23:35,000 Speaker 1: and I kind of figured out why I was that way, 418 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:38,080 Speaker 1: and I'm glad I'm not that way anymore. But that's 419 00:23:38,119 --> 00:23:39,760 Speaker 1: been kind of painful to kind of look at all 420 00:23:39,800 --> 00:23:41,800 Speaker 1: that stuff. It's so funny. My d m s are 421 00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:44,879 Speaker 1: literally flooded with girls who are going through like the 422 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:47,600 Speaker 1: big one is they just got broken up with, but 423 00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:49,119 Speaker 1: they still think that that person is the one, Like 424 00:23:49,200 --> 00:23:51,320 Speaker 1: how did I handle my time when Red Star and 425 00:23:51,359 --> 00:23:54,719 Speaker 1: I ever broken up? That's like the biggest thing right now. Um, 426 00:23:55,080 --> 00:23:57,080 Speaker 1: And then the other thing was how did you find 427 00:23:57,240 --> 00:24:00,400 Speaker 1: peace in your season of being single when you knew 428 00:24:00,520 --> 00:24:03,680 Speaker 1: that you wanted a relationship? And what's so interesting and 429 00:24:03,720 --> 00:24:08,560 Speaker 1: when I'm realizing now through therapy, is that even though 430 00:24:08,600 --> 00:24:10,600 Speaker 1: I said I wanted to be in a relationship, all 431 00:24:10,640 --> 00:24:12,760 Speaker 1: I was single for like seven years and like dating 432 00:24:12,800 --> 00:24:15,399 Speaker 1: and doing all the things like being proactive, and but 433 00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:17,639 Speaker 1: I had had this like shield up, like I just 434 00:24:17,800 --> 00:24:20,159 Speaker 1: didn't want to let anybody in because I get so 435 00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:23,919 Speaker 1: engross in a relationship and I also get so scared 436 00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:26,399 Speaker 1: of being hurt that I don't know, like I'm always 437 00:24:26,440 --> 00:24:29,200 Speaker 1: waiting for the shoe to drop, and I can't just 438 00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:32,720 Speaker 1: like sit in a healthy, loving relationship. And what's actually 439 00:24:32,760 --> 00:24:37,000 Speaker 1: been really a blessing about this relationship is because he 440 00:24:37,119 --> 00:24:39,600 Speaker 1: has kids, it's been a built in I can't be 441 00:24:39,720 --> 00:24:42,000 Speaker 1: with him seven Like I can't throw myself all in 442 00:24:42,119 --> 00:24:45,920 Speaker 1: because there are other people involved, you know. And that's 443 00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,200 Speaker 1: been like a really good thing for me because I've 444 00:24:48,240 --> 00:24:52,200 Speaker 1: had to slowly. It's it's moved at a slower pace 445 00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:54,600 Speaker 1: than I just always throw myself and I throw, you know, 446 00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:58,240 Speaker 1: just it's just all in and I've had to kind 447 00:24:58,240 --> 00:25:00,680 Speaker 1: of slow my role and be more in penstional and 448 00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:03,080 Speaker 1: I don't know, I've just been like learning a lot 449 00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:06,560 Speaker 1: about when at the time that I was single and 450 00:25:06,720 --> 00:25:09,880 Speaker 1: why I was the way that I was. Yeah, I mean, 451 00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:13,199 Speaker 1: I think once you're in a healthy situation, a healthy relationship, 452 00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:15,040 Speaker 1: you're able to look back at a time, like Mark 453 00:25:15,119 --> 00:25:18,040 Speaker 1: was saying, when you see the things that you did 454 00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:21,480 Speaker 1: before you were in had some stability in your life 455 00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:25,159 Speaker 1: where you're like, I don't like how I did? You know, 456 00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:28,879 Speaker 1: like that wasn't that wasn't what worked for me. But 457 00:25:29,000 --> 00:25:32,200 Speaker 1: I thought that that's because you you did date people 458 00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:35,159 Speaker 1: who were like who were either out of town or 459 00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:37,560 Speaker 1: like no one who could really get too close to 460 00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:42,679 Speaker 1: you and got really invested and it was a pattern. 461 00:25:43,200 --> 00:25:47,119 Speaker 1: So Mark, so basically what we're saying is therapy or 462 00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:52,000 Speaker 1: having kids is how you become a better person. Yeah, 463 00:25:53,480 --> 00:25:58,600 Speaker 1: I mean, honestly, it's like I think I had there 464 00:25:58,680 --> 00:26:02,200 Speaker 1: was such a I had such a negative like stigma 465 00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:06,320 Speaker 1: thought process about therapy before I started it, that it 466 00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:10,280 Speaker 1: was like for people who I don't even know what 467 00:26:10,400 --> 00:26:12,720 Speaker 1: I thought, like people who were like dramatic or something 468 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:15,080 Speaker 1: right or like I never thought it was like for 469 00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:17,080 Speaker 1: people like I always thought it was if you had 470 00:26:17,080 --> 00:26:21,760 Speaker 1: a chemical imbalance. Yeah, like like people who like really 471 00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:25,359 Speaker 1: like were like I almost had I'm better than needing 472 00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:31,600 Speaker 1: therapy mentality. Yeah, I can do this myself. And um 473 00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:36,119 Speaker 1: so I totally relate if you think about that. But 474 00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:39,600 Speaker 1: you just had three people basically say that their proudest 475 00:26:39,640 --> 00:26:41,640 Speaker 1: moment was the growth they've had in therapy, and then 476 00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:45,560 Speaker 1: Mark saying like, listen, whether you do therapy or not, 477 00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:48,640 Speaker 1: when you have kids, you're gonna see the things about yourself. 478 00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:53,119 Speaker 1: So I have kids, are going therapy to reach this 479 00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:58,160 Speaker 1: point twenty years ago. Right, Yeah, it's unfortunate I didn't 480 00:26:58,200 --> 00:27:01,800 Speaker 1: do that sooner. Well, I'm proud of all of us. 481 00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:06,080 Speaker 1: I'm proud, proud to do the podcast with y'all. Proud. 482 00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:09,840 Speaker 1: I mean, we have really been a team from Well 483 00:27:09,920 --> 00:27:12,159 Speaker 1: Eastern and I were talking about this about like that 484 00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:14,720 Speaker 1: was it was just me here before Tony got here, 485 00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:16,240 Speaker 1: and I was like, it's just me today. It's like 486 00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:18,920 Speaker 1: the old days when I would talk to Mark see 487 00:27:18,920 --> 00:27:20,480 Speaker 1: and if he was going to answer me, or I 488 00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:26,320 Speaker 1: was doing a monologue by myself, having a one person conversation. Um, 489 00:27:26,680 --> 00:27:30,160 Speaker 1: but like ever since, you know, basically Tanny joined. We've 490 00:27:30,200 --> 00:27:38,280 Speaker 1: been a quad a quad before for um, a quartet 491 00:27:38,359 --> 00:27:40,680 Speaker 1: is what I was looking for. Or what's a tricycle 492 00:27:40,800 --> 00:27:47,600 Speaker 1: with four wheels? A four wheeler a carr? We've been 493 00:27:47,640 --> 00:27:52,800 Speaker 1: a golf cart. We've been a golf cart for four years? 494 00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:57,080 Speaker 1: Three years? Four years? How many? What year was it? 495 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:05,600 Speaker 1: So yeah, it was September, I think August. So crazy, 496 00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:08,159 Speaker 1: but that means our fifth anniversary is coming up in 497 00:28:08,200 --> 00:28:10,840 Speaker 1: twenty two. Somebody mentioned to me that they just started 498 00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:12,639 Speaker 1: the podcast from all the way they've been like binging 499 00:28:12,680 --> 00:28:14,760 Speaker 1: from the beginning. I'm like, that's a lot of episodes, 500 00:28:16,119 --> 00:28:21,639 Speaker 1: a out of growth. They're beautiful, beautiful wrap around. Thank you, 501 00:28:22,600 --> 00:28:24,560 Speaker 1: wait before we take a break, and I did. I 502 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:27,040 Speaker 1: was asking people to send the picks. Why do can't 503 00:28:27,080 --> 00:28:29,920 Speaker 1: I say peak and pit? You didn't make it easy. 504 00:28:29,960 --> 00:28:33,119 Speaker 1: It's normally like peaks and valleys, but high low, I'm 505 00:28:33,119 --> 00:28:35,200 Speaker 1: just gonna stay with hil No, you've done pits and 506 00:28:35,320 --> 00:28:37,480 Speaker 1: pizza this whole time. You can't switch it up now. 507 00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:40,719 Speaker 1: But somebody wrote me this and it really like kind 508 00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:42,680 Speaker 1: of brought me back because I think I don't even 509 00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:44,600 Speaker 1: give myself credit for how much has happened in this 510 00:28:44,720 --> 00:28:46,240 Speaker 1: last year. But she wrote me, and she was like, 511 00:28:46,360 --> 00:28:48,400 Speaker 1: this week, I listened back to the first three podcasts 512 00:28:48,480 --> 00:28:50,920 Speaker 1: of the year, and I'm so incredibly happy to see 513 00:28:50,960 --> 00:28:52,760 Speaker 1: how much has changed in the past twelve months for you. 514 00:28:52,880 --> 00:28:55,240 Speaker 1: What started as a sanzy year really flourished into a 515 00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:57,240 Speaker 1: beautiful life you have now. I'm so proud of you. 516 00:28:57,400 --> 00:28:59,880 Speaker 1: You deserve it all. And I was like, wow, jan 517 00:29:00,000 --> 00:29:05,080 Speaker 1: you were was a valley that was a pit for me. 518 00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:11,800 Speaker 1: I was low and I really have been able to 519 00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:14,680 Speaker 1: come out of that and and kind of come back 520 00:29:14,720 --> 00:29:17,000 Speaker 1: to a relationship that felt right to me and work 521 00:29:17,080 --> 00:29:19,760 Speaker 1: on it and really kind of build this beautiful foundation. 522 00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:21,960 Speaker 1: And I'm like so proud of that. And a lot 523 00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:26,280 Speaker 1: has changed in the last yeah, like year, So thank you, 524 00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:29,360 Speaker 1: Natalie for that message that really blessed my heart and 525 00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:32,680 Speaker 1: really put things into perspective for me. So thank you. 526 00:29:33,240 --> 00:29:34,560 Speaker 1: And now we're gonna take a break and we're gonna 527 00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:54,720 Speaker 1: come back with some stellar advice exactly. All right, we 528 00:29:54,920 --> 00:30:01,640 Speaker 1: are back and this will be the final email. All right, Mark, 529 00:30:02,640 --> 00:30:06,240 Speaker 1: it's anonymous. I just had the most beautiful baby girl. Yea, 530 00:30:06,640 --> 00:30:09,120 Speaker 1: but this sparked me wanted to look into my ancestry 531 00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:11,400 Speaker 1: so I could write in her baby book information about 532 00:30:11,440 --> 00:30:14,440 Speaker 1: our families. Well, when I started telling my parents, who 533 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:17,240 Speaker 1: are divorced, about this, I learned my mom doesn't want 534 00:30:17,280 --> 00:30:20,280 Speaker 1: me to take a DNA test because she was unfaithful 535 00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:23,880 Speaker 1: a few times during her marriage to my dad. Heart 536 00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:27,120 Speaker 1: sinking moment, she assured me that my dad was in 537 00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:29,440 Speaker 1: fact my dad and I didn't need a DNA test 538 00:30:29,520 --> 00:30:31,400 Speaker 1: to prove it. So then why can I not take 539 00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:34,680 Speaker 1: a the DNA test? Why even bring up the unfaithfulness. 540 00:30:35,120 --> 00:30:37,160 Speaker 1: I'm an adult. I can make my own decisions without 541 00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:39,800 Speaker 1: my mom's approval. But now I'm in a downhill spiral 542 00:30:39,880 --> 00:30:41,880 Speaker 1: of emotions and not knowing what to do. Do I 543 00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:44,640 Speaker 1: take the DNA test to reassure myself that my dad 544 00:30:44,760 --> 00:30:47,160 Speaker 1: is my dad? What if he isn't. I don't know 545 00:30:47,240 --> 00:30:49,400 Speaker 1: if I could handle that, But now I also don't 546 00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:51,440 Speaker 1: know if my curiosity will let me go one without 547 00:30:51,520 --> 00:30:54,040 Speaker 1: knowing for certain. I would like to know from mark 548 00:30:54,120 --> 00:30:56,960 Speaker 1: as a father. What if your daughter you raised wasn't 549 00:30:56,960 --> 00:31:01,400 Speaker 1: your daughter and you didn't find out until she was grown. Well, 550 00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:03,320 Speaker 1: I'll start with that. I don't think it would change 551 00:31:03,360 --> 00:31:05,400 Speaker 1: a thing. I think there's so much more than d 552 00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:08,760 Speaker 1: n A involved in raising a child. I mean the 553 00:31:08,840 --> 00:31:11,840 Speaker 1: fact that we've spent every day of their lives together 554 00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:13,720 Speaker 1: and now they're fifteen and twelve, and if you had 555 00:31:13,720 --> 00:31:16,280 Speaker 1: another ten years to that or something, and that's the 556 00:31:16,320 --> 00:31:18,680 Speaker 1: only thing would change much at all from my perspective, 557 00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:21,560 Speaker 1: and I hope it wouldn't from their perspective. So I 558 00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:24,560 Speaker 1: think your dad. If I don't know what your relationship 559 00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:26,080 Speaker 1: is with your dad, you didn't really hit on this, 560 00:31:26,560 --> 00:31:28,280 Speaker 1: but I think if you have a good relationship now, 561 00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,400 Speaker 1: I don't think any DNA test would change that. Having 562 00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:33,200 Speaker 1: said that, I don't know. It's a whole can of 563 00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:35,400 Speaker 1: worms if you want to do that DNA test, But 564 00:31:35,480 --> 00:31:37,760 Speaker 1: it sounds like you're hell bent on it, so go 565 00:31:38,000 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 1: for it. But maybe you have a talk with your 566 00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:41,360 Speaker 1: dad beforehand and let him know that I love you 567 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:43,000 Speaker 1: no matter what, and you're my dad no matter what. 568 00:31:43,160 --> 00:31:45,160 Speaker 1: I just need to do this because I'm curious. I 569 00:31:45,200 --> 00:31:47,960 Speaker 1: don't know, But does the dad know that she that 570 00:31:48,080 --> 00:31:51,720 Speaker 1: the mom was unfaithful or would that be they're divorced now, Yeah, 571 00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:54,800 Speaker 1: what I'm saying with yeah, but that doesn't mean that 572 00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:57,600 Speaker 1: he knows that she was unfaithful during the time. So 573 00:31:57,680 --> 00:32:00,600 Speaker 1: I'm saying, like, if she said, hey, I'm gonna do this, 574 00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:02,160 Speaker 1: but I love you no matter what, and he's like, 575 00:32:02,760 --> 00:32:05,680 Speaker 1: what do you mean my You know what I'm saying, 576 00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:09,640 Speaker 1: a lot of worms in that can. She would start 577 00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:11,040 Speaker 1: to tell him she didn't have to tell her dad. 578 00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:13,600 Speaker 1: This is just information that she can just privately have 579 00:32:13,920 --> 00:32:15,800 Speaker 1: on her own and it won't change the fact that 580 00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,040 Speaker 1: this man raised her and he was her dad, so 581 00:32:18,080 --> 00:32:21,880 Speaker 1: he's still her dad. This, Uh, I think that you 582 00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:27,680 Speaker 1: will not have like peace in your life until you 583 00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:32,720 Speaker 1: take the test because I think that you're now that 584 00:32:32,880 --> 00:32:35,280 Speaker 1: you have this information, you're just always going to think 585 00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,200 Speaker 1: about it. And this happened to one of my friends. Actually, 586 00:32:38,320 --> 00:32:39,680 Speaker 1: she I don't even know. I think she was like 587 00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,200 Speaker 1: eighteen when she found out that her dad that had 588 00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:44,480 Speaker 1: raised her wasn't her biological dad. And I mean, it 589 00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:47,240 Speaker 1: didn't change anything about their relationship, but it, you know, 590 00:32:47,360 --> 00:32:50,440 Speaker 1: it kind of made sense in some ways that of 591 00:32:50,680 --> 00:32:54,680 Speaker 1: things that she couldn't connect about herself. So I think 592 00:32:54,840 --> 00:33:00,520 Speaker 1: maybe it could. Um, I don't know. I sling would 593 00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:02,440 Speaker 1: do it. I know it's opening a can of worms 594 00:33:02,520 --> 00:33:04,720 Speaker 1: in a sense, but I would. I would have to know. 595 00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:07,080 Speaker 1: I would have to know too. But again, I don't 596 00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:09,000 Speaker 1: think it changes the fact that your dad raised you. 597 00:33:09,120 --> 00:33:11,200 Speaker 1: He will forever be your dad, even if he's not 598 00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:16,000 Speaker 1: biologically your dad. Um, but I say, you kind of 599 00:33:16,120 --> 00:33:17,520 Speaker 1: if if this is something that you want to do, 600 00:33:17,800 --> 00:33:20,360 Speaker 1: don't listen to your mom, Like, listen to what you 601 00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:22,440 Speaker 1: want to do. If you want to get a DNA task, 602 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:23,960 Speaker 1: get a DNA just and then go from there step 603 00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:27,400 Speaker 1: by step. Yeah, that's just your mom's guilt talking. And 604 00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:29,200 Speaker 1: that's why she doesn't want you to do it, because 605 00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:30,400 Speaker 1: she doesn't want it out in the open, all of 606 00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:32,840 Speaker 1: her mistakes that she's made. Right, I agree with that 607 00:33:32,920 --> 00:33:34,560 Speaker 1: when everyone said, but I just want to quote the 608 00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:37,680 Speaker 1: slogan from adopteds Kids dot Org, which is anyone can 609 00:33:37,680 --> 00:33:39,400 Speaker 1: be a father, but it takes someone special to be 610 00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:44,719 Speaker 1: a dad exactly. And and you're, like Mark said, your 611 00:33:44,800 --> 00:33:47,080 Speaker 1: mom is just like I don't even I don't even 612 00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:49,960 Speaker 1: want to open that box that I have closed for 613 00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:52,960 Speaker 1: so many years, so I think I think you do 614 00:33:53,120 --> 00:33:56,680 Speaker 1: it and and I don't think you need to have 615 00:33:56,840 --> 00:34:00,960 Speaker 1: your mom's like blessing or permission to do it. So 616 00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:04,720 Speaker 1: and I don't think it changes anything with the man 617 00:34:04,920 --> 00:34:08,640 Speaker 1: who you called ad because I agree what Eastern said 618 00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:12,239 Speaker 1: really holds true. Beautiful, beautiful. I couldn't have said it 619 00:34:12,280 --> 00:34:16,000 Speaker 1: better myself. Thank you all right, that could have made 620 00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:22,200 Speaker 1: some good analogy. They're like, you know, yeah, what not 621 00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:28,560 Speaker 1: everybody can be a papa, No, be a daddy tortilla chip. 622 00:34:28,680 --> 00:34:32,160 Speaker 1: But see it. They really knows how to like that. 623 00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:37,719 Speaker 1: But a beautiful. In the wrap up the final podcast, 624 00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:43,359 Speaker 1: I couldn't get there before we say goodbye, I really 625 00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:45,960 Speaker 1: just want to say really quick, um, those of you 626 00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:48,160 Speaker 1: who listen. Every year, I do a thing called the 627 00:34:48,239 --> 00:34:52,040 Speaker 1: East Awards. It's very exciting. I do it on Instagram 628 00:34:52,120 --> 00:34:54,520 Speaker 1: live on New Year's Day at noon Pacific time, and 629 00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:59,360 Speaker 1: I just wanted it. Thank you Mark, thank you Becky Anton. 630 00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:01,600 Speaker 1: You have both for ended in the past. It's really exciting. 631 00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:04,319 Speaker 1: I got some really fun celebrity guests this year from 632 00:35:04,680 --> 00:35:08,040 Speaker 1: some of your favorite TV shows. The Merriment Out have 633 00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:10,000 Speaker 1: been on the air in the past, and uh, you 634 00:35:10,040 --> 00:35:12,200 Speaker 1: all should check it out. It's on my Instagram. Uh. 635 00:35:12,600 --> 00:35:15,360 Speaker 1: At New Year's Day at twelve noon the East Awards. 636 00:35:16,080 --> 00:35:18,040 Speaker 1: What are some of the categories this year? Eastern? Oh, 637 00:35:18,120 --> 00:35:20,600 Speaker 1: my goodness, you're allowed to know, You're lied to know. 638 00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:23,480 Speaker 1: Here here are some of the some of the exciting categories. 639 00:35:23,520 --> 00:35:26,640 Speaker 1: They change every year, so you can't really predict what's 640 00:35:26,680 --> 00:35:30,000 Speaker 1: gonna be. But this year we're gonna award ice of 641 00:35:30,120 --> 00:35:34,080 Speaker 1: the year Ice. Okay, Ice of the Year, best appearance 642 00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:40,759 Speaker 1: of butter so sexiest candy, mascot and herb the Year 643 00:35:42,480 --> 00:35:44,320 Speaker 1: of the year. Very excited about that. And then of 644 00:35:44,400 --> 00:35:46,960 Speaker 1: course some perennial stars, Fruit of the year, you know, 645 00:35:47,320 --> 00:35:48,960 Speaker 1: Song of the Year, stuff like that's gonna be some 646 00:35:49,040 --> 00:35:52,120 Speaker 1: musical performances by me. Is ice of the year from 647 00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:55,200 Speaker 1: specific restaurants ice or is it more like the shape 648 00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:58,759 Speaker 1: of ice? Ice? Are you talking about? Like at this 649 00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:01,160 Speaker 1: point the nominations will be yeah, so yes, it's the 650 00:36:01,280 --> 00:36:03,600 Speaker 1: it's the general shape of ice. So the nominees for 651 00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:08,680 Speaker 1: Ice of the year classic cube, the ice orb sonics, 652 00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:14,080 Speaker 1: ice nuggets, uh and uh, there's some other ones in there, 653 00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:16,320 Speaker 1: but it has to be it has to be the nugget. 654 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:19,400 Speaker 1: It has to be the nugget ice. Every time I 655 00:36:19,480 --> 00:36:21,880 Speaker 1: have an orb in your wine here, you like no 656 00:36:22,280 --> 00:36:27,680 Speaker 1: nugget ice? Is like, is I don't? I don't orgasm. No, 657 00:36:27,880 --> 00:36:30,800 Speaker 1: I've never done I've never done that reaction. I've been like, 658 00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:32,719 Speaker 1: Oh my god, that is so awesome. I love that. 659 00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:36,239 Speaker 1: I mean, it's a tight race. You gotta tune in 660 00:36:36,320 --> 00:36:38,440 Speaker 1: on January one to find it. He takes it home. 661 00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:42,080 Speaker 1: It's nugget ice. It's gotta be. What's what are the 662 00:36:42,120 --> 00:36:48,120 Speaker 1: herb categories? Is my go like cinnamon? The nominees for 663 00:36:48,680 --> 00:36:59,359 Speaker 1: the year are rosemary, oh, regan now sage. M uh. 664 00:37:01,239 --> 00:37:03,120 Speaker 1: How does every one of those make you get gag? 665 00:37:04,960 --> 00:37:07,799 Speaker 1: I know I don't like a regano. I'd rather i'd 666 00:37:07,840 --> 00:37:10,719 Speaker 1: like its songs. Oregano. You do not even know that 667 00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:16,520 Speaker 1: the oregano is there? Yes, I do. Okay, I don't 668 00:37:16,560 --> 00:37:19,000 Speaker 1: have COVID taste buds like yours. I taste that a 669 00:37:19,040 --> 00:37:29,520 Speaker 1: regular crevid. Okay, what else? Lavender and cilantro? Oh doors, cilantro, 670 00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:32,040 Speaker 1: I have the g Oh, maybe I should try cilantro 671 00:37:32,120 --> 00:37:36,520 Speaker 1: now that my taste buds are weird, you should do that. 672 00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:40,799 Speaker 1: That's a real huge risk for me because if they 673 00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:44,960 Speaker 1: haven't changed, and I'm just like basically gagging. One time 674 00:37:45,040 --> 00:37:47,279 Speaker 1: I was super sick and this I can't think. I 675 00:37:47,320 --> 00:37:50,120 Speaker 1: was like a college or something, and um, I was like, 676 00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:54,680 Speaker 1: I couldn't taste anything. I'm gonna eat a spoonful of 677 00:37:54,760 --> 00:37:57,320 Speaker 1: with sabby just to like say that. I did it, 678 00:37:57,560 --> 00:38:00,160 Speaker 1: Like who wants to eat spoonful was obviously, but I 679 00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:01,920 Speaker 1: was like, because I can't, because I can't taste anything, 680 00:38:02,440 --> 00:38:05,320 Speaker 1: I ate a spoonful of sobby and I was bawling 681 00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:09,960 Speaker 1: for like an hour. As the stupidest thing I've ever done. College. 682 00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:15,640 Speaker 1: Oh my god, college Tony was a wild, wild, wild woman. 683 00:38:15,719 --> 00:38:17,680 Speaker 1: I would have been so scared of you and you 684 00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:20,320 Speaker 1: in college. You would have been like me in college 685 00:38:20,360 --> 00:38:24,400 Speaker 1: and you in college. I would have been like imagine 686 00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:26,960 Speaker 1: the bouncing heads in the sorority houses, like at the door, 687 00:38:27,160 --> 00:38:30,400 Speaker 1: like singing the door song, like that was me. And 688 00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:33,800 Speaker 1: I was like the person who literally dropped my sorority 689 00:38:33,880 --> 00:38:36,439 Speaker 1: before I had to participate in that. Oh my god, 690 00:38:37,200 --> 00:38:40,000 Speaker 1: that was the best part of my college. Kappa one Heart, 691 00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:43,520 Speaker 1: one way I didn't drop. I went to mom. I'm 692 00:38:43,560 --> 00:38:50,640 Speaker 1: still singa Kappa for life, Loving the dove Alright, guy. 693 00:38:52,640 --> 00:38:56,120 Speaker 1: That's newon Pacific time, so three eastern on my Instagram 694 00:38:56,160 --> 00:39:00,120 Speaker 1: that's at eastern Allen on a New Year's Day. I 695 00:39:00,239 --> 00:39:01,920 Speaker 1: love New Year's Day. I love that this is I 696 00:39:02,080 --> 00:39:04,279 Speaker 1: love that it's going to be a new year. I 697 00:39:04,400 --> 00:39:06,759 Speaker 1: just I'm really really excited. I'm going to have some 698 00:39:06,880 --> 00:39:13,000 Speaker 1: exciting news in two. Are you pregnant? No? You know? 699 00:39:14,680 --> 00:39:21,480 Speaker 1: Oh does this specific news? It's specific news. Yeah, but 700 00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:23,000 Speaker 1: I'm gonna save it for because I don't like I 701 00:39:23,040 --> 00:39:25,880 Speaker 1: don't like talking about things before it happened, just you know, 702 00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:31,400 Speaker 1: just to be safe. So yes, Oh my god, Like, 703 00:39:31,840 --> 00:39:33,560 Speaker 1: this is something I've been talking to for a while about. 704 00:39:35,480 --> 00:39:40,839 Speaker 1: You don't know, is alarming? What category is it in? Um? 705 00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:46,399 Speaker 1: Perhaps a really big one that does not help. Yes, 706 00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:51,399 Speaker 1: it does, a really big thing in my life coming 707 00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:59,520 Speaker 1: up in personal or professional personal mhm wow, I mean 708 00:39:59,640 --> 00:40:02,320 Speaker 1: truly this alarming. I've talked to her about this multiple times. 709 00:40:02,400 --> 00:40:05,399 Speaker 1: I have asked her for recommendations of things. Oh my god, 710 00:40:06,640 --> 00:40:10,200 Speaker 1: I'm thinking, Okay, it's gonna change. It is a huge 711 00:40:10,360 --> 00:40:16,239 Speaker 1: change again, Yes, aluminum aluminum. She gonna start wearing aluminum again. 712 00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:20,040 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, It's very exciting, Yeah, and very life changing. 713 00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:23,960 Speaker 1: But in the best way. Yeah, so I'm excited. Why 714 00:40:24,040 --> 00:40:29,759 Speaker 1: did tease tune in for the update? I would talk 715 00:40:29,760 --> 00:40:31,279 Speaker 1: about it now, but again I just don't want to, 716 00:40:31,360 --> 00:40:34,880 Speaker 1: like just you know, let's let's get there. It's mostly 717 00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:39,319 Speaker 1: it's gonna happen, but the boundary. Thank you all right, um, 718 00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:42,560 Speaker 1: we love you all. Happy New Year, thanks for being 719 00:40:42,640 --> 00:40:46,120 Speaker 1: a part, and we'll see you next year. See you 720 00:40:46,200 --> 00:40:48,320 Speaker 1: next you see on the flip side B