Speaker 1: M h.
Speaker 2: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 2: I'm Mila.
Speaker 1: And it's Wednesdays. It's Wednesday, bitches, and it's raining in La.
Speaker 2: So it's a special all day because it never arranged
Speaker 2: in motherfucking La. Hey.
Speaker 1: Hey, hey, hey.
Speaker 2: That was beautiful, totally necessary the Hills.
Speaker 1: I'm alive with the sound of music. You know, I
Speaker 1: haven't really like I don't know if you know this
Speaker 1: about me super important. I really like musical theater. I
Speaker 1: know you hate it, but I really love it. So
Speaker 1: in this.
Speaker 2: Thirty something year of life, I have come to appreciate
Speaker 2: musical theater only because.
Speaker 1: LASS like to. Like two years ago, you hated Hamilton.
Speaker 2: I told you. In this thirty something years, I was like,
Speaker 2: this has just happened.
Speaker 1: It's true. I don't like Hamilton. I know the people
Speaker 1: are gonna come. You can't like musical theater and not
Speaker 1: like Hamilton.
Speaker 2: You can choose which theatrical experiences you enjoy.
Speaker 1: You never saw you never saw it live. That's why
Speaker 1: I did not see it live. I did not.
Speaker 2: I saw it on the television and it was annoying. However,
Speaker 2: my daughter is got cast it in West Side story.
Speaker 2: So now you're now you're into musical thing. Now I
Speaker 2: enjoy it because we had to practice so much, and
Speaker 2: I was like getting.
Speaker 1: Really into it.
Speaker 2: I was trying to like show her how to like
Speaker 2: get theatrical and like it's so fun use your project.
Speaker 1: Well that, but also like get quiet and then like
Speaker 1: get loud and like use your over except face. She'll
Speaker 1: expression like just use.
Speaker 2: Your voice to like up the ante and exude emotion
Speaker 2: and so randomly the other day I had this, I
Speaker 2: had this song stuck in my head and I was like,
Speaker 2: why is this song stuck in my head?
Speaker 1: We're in the car and I just put it on.
Speaker 1: It was Grease. Oh I love Greece.
Speaker 2: I got so into it. My daughter was like, can
Speaker 2: we change this? I was like, no, you, this is
Speaker 2: something you need to know. I was like, I've never seen.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I put a little on early. Yeah, we
Speaker 2: gotta watch Grease now. But I was really empty.
Speaker 1: You better catch up because I need a man, and
Speaker 1: my heart is said on.
Speaker 2: You, you better catch up.
Speaker 1: You bet, I understand. Listen our our suburban white side
Speaker 1: is coming through. Honey. It's a fucking classic. I realized
Speaker 1: that that I got adult, like there was not one
Speaker 1: single black person at the whole high school.
Speaker 2: I know, ari I pee Olivia, Olivia Newton, John fucking
Speaker 2: legend tragedy that she has pass.
Speaker 1: We still got John though, we do have John. We
Speaker 1: do have John. He's epic.
Speaker 2: He's epic.
Speaker 1: I'd love fucking musical theater. He was also in the
Speaker 1: redo of Hairspray, which was a fucking phenomena. So fine,
Speaker 1: he was fine. It was fine as fun.
Speaker 2: Emphasis on was I don't know what he did his face.
Speaker 2: He did a lot of stuff to his face, but
Speaker 2: in the hairline. Is he married to a black woman? Now, okay,
Speaker 2: he's married to uh, what's her name? She's yeah, she's
Speaker 2: an actress too, I'm thinking of And I'm pretty sure
Speaker 2: there's still very much deep into scientologies.
Speaker 1: That's also I think made him unattractive. I think like
Speaker 1: they fucked him over there. It's always interesting everyone that
Speaker 1: joined scientology gets weird looking. It always interests me when
Speaker 1: like top notch celebrity, Not that celebrities can't be stupid,
Speaker 1: but it's like, how did you get got like? I
Speaker 1: would be highly like, I would be highly suspicious if
Speaker 1: I had a lot of money in a religious like
Speaker 1: any religious group was trying to recruit me, get the
Speaker 1: funk away from me.
Speaker 2: Well, they get you when you're low, they get you
Speaker 2: when you're down. They know, Like I mean, like any
Speaker 2: religious have you ever said the episode of of uh,
Speaker 2: what is it?
Speaker 1: South Park? When they explained scientology, I mean, it's yeah,
Speaker 1: that's all, That's all I needed to hear. It was like,
Speaker 1: this is stem Have you ever seen the documentary?
Speaker 2: I saw some of it and Leah Remonie, she's like
Speaker 2: a super like she was in it.
Speaker 1: She was young, she was born into basically, and.
Speaker 2: Then she had to get pulled out of it because
Speaker 2: her friend went missing that they still can't find the wife. Yeah,
Speaker 2: the wife of one of the leaders went missing. And
Speaker 2: she was like this ain't something's not right because no
Speaker 2: one everyone was just kind of acting like it just
Speaker 2: didn't happen, Like this whole person that was her friend
Speaker 2: just didn't disappear off the face of the planet. And
Speaker 2: then she like exposed like the concentration camps they.
Speaker 1: Have, oh, because what do you mean a concentration cam?
Speaker 2: They basically have these these these camps where they send
Speaker 2: people that have like done wrong in the church and
Speaker 2: they have to do like they live there. They basically
Speaker 2: it's a concentration camp. I mean, for lack of a
Speaker 2: better word, but that's kind of what they call them.
Speaker 2: And they have to like scrub toilets with toothbrushes.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Remember Mimi from Love and Hip Hop, she was also
Speaker 2: she got into her mom was in it and she
Speaker 2: got into it scientology, yes, and it fucked her up
Speaker 2: pretty badly.
Speaker 1: She talks about a little bit.
Speaker 2: But Leah Remeny is like a current active, like proponent
Speaker 2: of like exposing scientology. I'm honestly surprised that she's like
Speaker 2: still with us, because they are they'll take you. They're nuts. Listen,
Speaker 2: shout out to Leah Remene. I would love her to
Speaker 2: come on the show. Actually, she's fucking hilarious.
Speaker 1: I do like her.
Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I was thinking about us the other
Speaker 2: day because I was thinking, like Jessica was on talking
Speaker 2: about her cult experience and like I'm always suspicious of
Speaker 2: like a month of cults. Cults.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm obsessed with I'm obsessed with cults.
Speaker 1: Hunh Okay, I'm obsessed with cults because I'm always intrigued
Speaker 1: by like how people can get got, Like I know,
Speaker 1: it's possible. And I know people are always like searching
Speaker 1: and seeking tribe, but I'm so anti like like any
Speaker 1: structured belief system. I'm actually I feel like this is
Speaker 1: my announcement that my religion and it's not only love,
Speaker 1: but it's free thinking. Okay, Jess, In case everybody is wondering,
Speaker 1: my religion is freethinking. Got it? Because anytime someone tries
Speaker 1: to force you to think a certain way, be suspicious.
Speaker 1: Guy here first, I'm gonna turn into the cult think free,
Speaker 1: but even the free thinkers we try to force you
Speaker 1: to do one of them I get. I like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, I just said this vision.
Speaker 2: I had this vision of you on the boat in Mexico,
Speaker 2: trying you on Mollie, trying to convince this girl to
Speaker 2: like get out of her shell, and her boyfriend was
Speaker 2: getting so fucking pissed. I didn't make that with him.
Speaker 2: Oh no her, Yeah, get my little girl crushed. You
Speaker 2: would not leave her alone, and he was so pissed,
Speaker 2: and you were not reading the room at all.
Speaker 1: You were just like because you just come back from.
Speaker 2: Your like I fucking free like acid trip and you
Speaker 2: were on a motherfucking high. And I was like, bitch,
Speaker 2: if you don't sit the fuck down and leave this
Speaker 2: bitch alone.
Speaker 1: Her boyfriend's gonna beat her after this. Guess what. Guess what,
Speaker 1: they're not together anything, they aren't.
Speaker 2: But I think pretty sure that hold their whole trick
Speaker 2: was ruined because of it was because of us. I
Speaker 2: made out with her. You were trying to like get
Speaker 2: her like I don't know what, you're trying to get
Speaker 2: her naked or like your molly.
Speaker 1: Just half oh.
Speaker 2: And then she took it, and then she was like
Speaker 2: having the worst high ever because her boyfriend was not
Speaker 2: happy and they.
Speaker 1: Were like, bye, I goes around. I'm admit I'm a
Speaker 1: pushy freethinker. If someone looks too wound up when I'm
Speaker 1: on one, I'm like, can you relax? You can take
Speaker 1: off your shoes. That was That was another time I
Speaker 1: know because I I can feel people's energy and I
Speaker 1: know and they need to get free, and sometimes that
Speaker 1: is it. People need to get free and they're resisting
Speaker 1: and I can feel it and it throws my energy off,
Speaker 1: like you gotta get out, you seem to in your head. Well,
Speaker 1: I think you know.
Speaker 2: Your retreat leaders has shown you how to massage gently
Speaker 2: people into this space and not like.
Speaker 1: It's dressing me up. Yeah, I've worked on it. I've
Speaker 1: worked on it. I just want people to think for
Speaker 1: themselves and not like through the lens of society and
Speaker 1: like everybody around them. And I just I see, I
Speaker 1: see it happen so often, and people lose themselves and
Speaker 1: I can literally see people thinking in their head too much,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, can you fucking stop stop thinking? But
Speaker 1: also I think about shit overly, and so I get it.
Speaker 1: But you know this is all to say, you guys,
Speaker 1: don't join any cults this year. It's not this year.
Speaker 1: Maybe next year consider it, but twenty twenty three is
Speaker 1: not the year to join colts. So the only cult
Speaker 1: you should consider joining is Mila's Freethinking Sanctuary. She won't
Speaker 1: force it on you, but it's fine. Oh god. I yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm pretty judge of like religious structures, but not if
Speaker 1: you're not too pushy. Everyone should just be entitled to
Speaker 1: believe whatever they want to believe. Amen, and no one
Speaker 1: be judgy about it. Amen, including me. Amen. Remember that
Speaker 1: time where you tried to go to church you were
Speaker 1: trying to find Remember remember three years ago.
Speaker 2: When you're on a certain they could have got me
Speaker 2: then I was low. Weren't their eyes weren't peeled open,
Speaker 2: They didn't see that I was struggling.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, I mean it's I believe in church.
Speaker 1: I've had like stints of going to church and like
Speaker 1: I feel the Holy Spirit and all that good stuff.
Speaker 1: But I don't know, I get uncomfortable and they start
Speaker 1: asking for money and judging and pointing fingers and you know,
Speaker 1: good and goddamn well everybody in the congregations doing some
Speaker 1: inappropriate shit. You know. I'm like, listen, let's all be real.
Speaker 1: And sometimes when people are like holier than now, they
Speaker 1: are that way because they're judging other people and they're
Speaker 1: judging themselves, and it's just like, just be free.
Speaker 2: It make bad choices publicly like me and Erica.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's true.
Speaker 2: I you know, I think it's at some point in
Speaker 2: the next few years. I got to go back and
Speaker 2: listen to the show from the beginning. I thought about that,
Speaker 2: But honestly, I'm scared why.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I know, I've come a long fucking way.
Speaker 2: We've all, we've both come a long way, and it's just,
Speaker 2: you know, I think it's it'll be I mean, I'm
Speaker 2: actually terrified for my child at some point to listen
Speaker 2: to the show.
Speaker 1: Maybe she'll ever do it, maybe she'll just totally reject.
Speaker 1: I'm hoping it's just like too long and they're like
Speaker 1: fuck that, likeugh, mom's rich because of that thing she did.
Speaker 1: Let's never listen. That's my hope I am. I'm looking
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Speaker 1: It's nice to listen to our voices, but I think
Speaker 1: it's also nice to have a visual experience of good
Speaker 1: mom's bad choices. I'm a visual person, Like, even if
Speaker 1: I listen to someone's voice, I want to like, who
Speaker 1: the fuck is talking? But did I tell you the
Speaker 1: time I was in the bathroom at a restaurant and
Speaker 1: I was talking and someone came out the stall and
Speaker 1: was like, do you have a podcast? Like I not,
Speaker 1: I recognize your voice, but I never seen you. Oh
Speaker 1: my god. I was like, oh, I'm in radio. I'm like,
Speaker 1: this is me. I do I love that. That was cool,
Speaker 1: but I'm curious to see like visuals. So if you
Speaker 1: guys have never seen it.
Speaker 2: We put makeup on for you guys, we do and
Speaker 2: we're kind of fine.
Speaker 1: Yeah, we put makeup on, not kind of like very
Speaker 1: I did my hair, put foam in my hair.
Speaker 2: My braids are on their last their last legs, their
Speaker 2: last days.
Speaker 1: So you know that Nairobi had to hit these fuzzies.
Speaker 1: You know we're about to hit the retreat, so we
Speaker 1: have to change our hairstyles.
Speaker 2: Well, yeah, I'm going to reactivate this hair. So I'm
Speaker 2: gonna let the curls flow for seven days and then
Speaker 2: we're going to wrap this ship back up because the jungle.
Speaker 2: I try to do Costa Rica with my curly hair
Speaker 2: and it was annoying as fuck. So there's a reason
Speaker 2: why black women we get braids on vacation. There's no
Speaker 2: fucking it's just too much. It's too much.
Speaker 1: One day when I stop using creamy crack. When I
Speaker 1: stopped using creamy crack, one day, I'm going to do it.
Speaker 1: But until is that what they call relaxer? Yeah, creamy crack,
Speaker 1: creamy crack, creamy crack. I never heard that. No, I
Speaker 1: don't use relaxer, so I don't know that good.
Speaker 2: Well, you are black, so but I don't know's it
Speaker 2: does never touch relaxer except one.
Speaker 1: You don't have a lot of black friends. That's why
Speaker 1: you have you Always she's always sure to publicly get it.
Speaker 1: It's always like where everyone knows that that's not true.
Speaker 1: Every time we're around some one who doesn't really know.
Speaker 1: She's like jimalism with all the white friends like she is.
Speaker 1: I'm always looking at her. We have all the same
Speaker 1: friend that the wage.
Speaker 2: I really need you to go to YouTube and watch
Speaker 2: how Jamila just said this to me, because it was
Speaker 2: just like.
Speaker 1: Like she can't wait to say you always say.
Speaker 2: I couldn't wait. I couldn't wait. I could not wait.
Speaker 2: This is why you don't know popular black terms. You
Speaker 2: don't have enough black friends. Okay, one time, Creamy Crack
Speaker 2: did touch my hair because my aunt my dam my
Speaker 2: black side. She decided she was done dealing with my hair,
Speaker 2: and she put when you were you were there visit?
Speaker 1: I was at my dad's house. Oh no. She was like,
Speaker 1: don't you want your hair to be straight like mine?
Speaker 1: And so easy? Is so easy? Rush?
Speaker 2: And I was like, yeah, I was like eight, and
Speaker 2: I had no idea what she was talking about. I
Speaker 2: thought she was gonna just like straighten it. No, bitch,
Speaker 2: she put relaxer the whole thing. Yes, and then you
Speaker 2: washed relaxed my hair.
Speaker 1: Oh, your mom was burning and I was like, what
Speaker 1: did your mom know? Oh? My mom?
Speaker 2: When I got home, my mom first of all cried
Speaker 2: and then I cried because I was so confused. I
Speaker 2: didn't know what I had done wrong, and then she
Speaker 2: cursed her the fuck out.
Speaker 1: My mom permed my hair in the sixth grade while
Speaker 1: my dad was sleeping because he refused.
Speaker 2: He was so anti and bitch. When he woke up,
Speaker 2: he cursed her out so bad.
Speaker 1: I was like ten. I was like eleven, almost going
Speaker 1: to the sixth grade, and I was like, do it,
Speaker 1: do it. I didn't know what the fuck I was
Speaker 1: gonna do.
Speaker 2: It.
Speaker 1: Is like it's gonna be better, do it, But you
Speaker 1: know what, that's the thing like growing up as like
Speaker 1: a black girl among in white spaces that like going
Speaker 1: to the pool was a thing. And then my hair
Speaker 1: fell out because I went to the pool and I
Speaker 1: had like all this hair and it was gone because
Speaker 1: I'm eleven, and who the fuck knows how to maintain
Speaker 1: and chlorine exactly. But I just remember feeling like, what
Speaker 1: the fuck, Why can't I just jump in the pool
Speaker 1: and it be fine? But like those are like I
Speaker 1: feel like those are the type of reasons we kind
Speaker 1: of really have to reinforce like black beauty into our
Speaker 1: black daughters, especially living in the fucking valley and going
Speaker 1: to white schools, because I remember feeling different and just
Speaker 1: wanting to fit in, you know what I mean, And
Speaker 1: it's just like feeling like such a fun I remember
Speaker 1: like dreaming like, please God, why do you make my
Speaker 1: hair so difficult when I need to go to the pool.
Speaker 2: I think growing up in white spaces for me, because I'm.
Speaker 1: Mixed race is what they color.
Speaker 2: After Latina, I think that it was confusing for me
Speaker 2: because it's like sometimes I fit in those spaces and
Speaker 2: then other times it was like you don't fit in
Speaker 2: these spaces, so it was like it was like, oh.
Speaker 1: Yeah, come in, you're accepted. Oh wait, So I was
Speaker 1: like confusing.
Speaker 2: I'm like, wait, like my hair doesn't like, my hair's
Speaker 2: fine in water, you know what I'm saying. I can't
Speaker 2: fit into the fucking franky jeans that everyone else is
Speaker 2: wearing or I'm like, it's just like the guy the
Speaker 2: boys don't like me how they like the white girls
Speaker 2: at my school, you know, And I just it was confusing.
Speaker 2: It was really confusing for me as someone who I
Speaker 2: think I'm definitely not white passing, and so there's there's
Speaker 2: just like this confusion I think for girls.
Speaker 1: That are, you know, have mixed race. Yeah, I don't
Speaker 1: even know.
Speaker 2: I'm like, you see how I'm getting awkward talking about
Speaker 2: I don't know why I don't call myself.
Speaker 1: I don't know why I hate the word mixed race
Speaker 1: so much. Maybe because everyone's mixed in some capacity.
Speaker 2: And also I think black people specifically use it as
Speaker 2: a way to feel like cool sometimes.
Speaker 1: Like oh I'm mixed. I'm like, bitch, you are black,
Speaker 1: Like like I feel like sometimes black people think that mixed, well,
Speaker 1: it's brainwashed to believe, like when.
Speaker 2: You say mixed like black, Like we want to always
Speaker 2: let people know, especially like we're happening to having a
Speaker 2: conversation at the gym the other day and my trainer
Speaker 2: was like, oh, that's because you light skin, and I
Speaker 2: was like, see why we do that? Like stop, He's like,
Speaker 2: I didn't know you had that in you because you're light.
Speaker 2: I was like, what the fuck does that happen to mean?
Speaker 1: Like, like, what were you talking like in reference to
Speaker 1: what like what something you did? Like you bucked up? Yeah,
Speaker 1: bucked up? And he was like, Oh, I didn't know
Speaker 1: you had that in you. And I'm like, I mean,
Speaker 1: I think that's like, but I think even black people
Speaker 1: doing that to each other is a like, is something
Speaker 1: that we're used to doing because colorism exists in blackness.
Speaker 1: But I think that's the same reason people say shit
Speaker 1: like mix. I'm well, people, like I think people not
Speaker 1: that people aren't mixed and can't use that word. Obviously
Speaker 1: that exists. I feel like as black people because of
Speaker 1: fucking slavery, like we're all mixed in some way. But
Speaker 1: I feel like, because we've been brainwashed to believe that
Speaker 1: like any standard of beauty that's closer to European standard
Speaker 1: is more beautiful, that people use it as a like
Speaker 1: one up, not realizing that it just sounds ignorant and
Speaker 1: self hating. And I realized that's not reasons why all
Speaker 1: people use it. But like even our friends of like
Speaker 1: mixed kids, I'm like, God, just call them, like.
Speaker 2: Well, the thing is is like, we can't win really
Speaker 2: because mixed triggers people.
Speaker 1: But then when we say we're black, it triggers people. Really. Yeah,
Speaker 1: they be like, you're not.
Speaker 2: All, you're not black because they want to put us
Speaker 2: in a.
Speaker 1: Box in our blackness. I feel like if if if
Speaker 1: a mixed black person doesn't identify it with black, like
Speaker 1: say I'm black, I think.
Speaker 2: That's weird because if I don't know what creamy crack is,
Speaker 2: I don't I'm not that black.
Speaker 1: No, I'm not saying that to you, but I'm just.
Speaker 2: Saying, but but to some people because I maybe I
Speaker 2: don't know some person like who is mix of mixed
Speaker 2: race may not know all the lingos in a particular like,
Speaker 2: I just feel like you you're.
Speaker 1: Damned if you do, You're damned if you don't. A
Speaker 1: lot of times I think, if you're black, you're black,
Speaker 1: and you think that I do. I do.
Speaker 2: I'm just saying I do think that, But that is
Speaker 2: not the case in the general population of blackness. I
Speaker 2: generally feel like black people are accepting of all black people.
Speaker 1: You think that because you don't have to know. I
Speaker 1: just think that black people are or are the warmer,
Speaker 1: more welcoming race, I say, you're you're gonna be less
Speaker 1: likely to be disowned by your black family members versus
Speaker 1: I'm just.
Speaker 2: Gonna tell you, Mela, because you are a dark skinned
Speaker 2: black woman, you deal with your own set of things
Speaker 2: being a darks and black woman. True, and as a
Speaker 2: light skin black woman, I deal with my own set
Speaker 2: of things, and generally I'm constantly reminded about my lack
Speaker 2: of blackness.
Speaker 1: So that's something you don't ever experience. Well obviously not
Speaker 1: because I'm black. So that's what I'm saying. So you
Speaker 1: say generally even still like talking this way or going
Speaker 1: to certain being in certain areas, liking certain music. Yeah,
Speaker 1: like if I go to Philly or I'm in Atlanta
Speaker 1: and I say certain things, or like oh why do
Speaker 1: you talk like this? Or like not like obviously my appearance,
Speaker 1: like I'm a black woman, there's no denying that. But
Speaker 1: I've I have been told and I'm sure you too,
Speaker 1: not just because you're light skin, but like oh, like
Speaker 1: oh you're like grease, Like what the fuck are you
Speaker 1: doing singing Greece? Or blink when I need too or whatever.
Speaker 1: There's like there's always all these rules. It are surrounded
Speaker 1: about just about race period. It's particularly blackness sensitivity because
Speaker 1: our history is sensitive in this place. So I think,
Speaker 1: like you, like.
Speaker 2: Every every aspect of blackness comes with things, you know
Speaker 2: what I mean, whether you're mixed, while you're light skin,
Speaker 2: whether you're darkin, whether you're a woman, whether you're a man,
Speaker 2: like there are all these sensitivities around being black and
Speaker 2: all these things because it hasn't always been easy to
Speaker 2: just be black or like you know, all just like
Speaker 2: all these variations of blackness, there's these rules about how
Speaker 2: you can be black or if you know this word,
Speaker 2: or if you eat this food or if you listen
Speaker 2: to this music, when in a word, you've had this experience, right, like,
Speaker 2: just because you didn't grow up in the hood doesn't
Speaker 2: mean you're not black, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Or if I talk like this properly, then I'm not black.
Speaker 2: But like I experience that too, but in obviously a
Speaker 2: different way than your experience was.
Speaker 1: I mean. And it's interesting because obviously we grew up
Speaker 1: in the same area and mostly white spaces, and we've
Speaker 1: probably had like some similar experiences with being the only
Speaker 1: black person in certain spaces and some that are very different,
Speaker 1: you know, So even amongst our own people for sure.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and fucking family members too, absolutely, So I have
Speaker 2: to check friends all the time, like, bit.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm sure. I'm sure some like some white friends
Speaker 1: probably think they can get away of saying certain shit
Speaker 1: to you and vice versa. And I've had people say
Speaker 1: shit to me. I'm like, why did you feel? And
Speaker 1: I know that it's just ignorance in general, and that
Speaker 1: goes on black for black folks and white folks. I
Speaker 1: told you we were. I was in the sushi restaurant.
Speaker 1: I met a new friend and I was like, I
Speaker 1: don't know, we're talking about great hairs. First, I need
Speaker 1: to stop meeting new friends. And I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I dye my hair black because my hair is really light.
Speaker 1: And she's like, that's so interesting that you have this
Speaker 1: like exotic hair and you choose to diet black, like
Speaker 1: like if most black girls don't have like that exotic look.
Speaker 2: And I was just like exotic hair. And I literally
Speaker 2: knew her for like ten minutes. I was like, why
Speaker 2: the I don't there's certain words that trigger me. I
Speaker 2: think you need to define what friend means. You need
Speaker 2: to tighten that up a little bit.
Speaker 1: Just a lady I've met in the sushi rests. Tighten up,
Speaker 1: You're right, I do. Everyone's my friend, not really.
Speaker 2: Anyway, Well, that is our colourism rent for the show. Guys,
Speaker 2: We're going to move on to the next segment.
Speaker 1: People have been dying for us to have that argument,
Speaker 1: but we got it out. Remember someone asked us if
Speaker 1: we've experienced, like, do we experience prejudice because you're light
Speaker 1: skinned and I'm dark skinned? Yeah, I was like what.
Speaker 1: I was like, No, I don't think maybe, but we
Speaker 1: were too for we were too dumb to notice it.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: Anyway, So I was in our discord. I don't know
Speaker 2: if anyone has joined our discord yet. If you don't
Speaker 2: know what discord is, it's a platform where we chat.
Speaker 2: It's like a chat room. It's like the ultimate chat
Speaker 2: room with different channels. We have all different channels. We
Speaker 2: have one for affirmations or people share affirmations. We have
Speaker 2: one for horries or people share horse stories. We have
Speaker 2: one where we pipe each other up on successes. If
Speaker 2: you're joining our retreat in Costa Rica, which is happening,
Speaker 2: we have private channels for our retreaties where we are
Speaker 2: bonding and sharing and talking, but I went into our
Speaker 2: discord today because I felt like I wanted to share
Speaker 2: an affirmation from the tribe.
Speaker 1: So today's affirmation is abundance is coming.
Speaker 2: I deserve it and accept it. And this is from
Speaker 2: Jess Marie, So shout out to jefs Marie.
Speaker 1: Abundance is coming. I deserve it and accept it.
Speaker 2: I deserve it and accept it. Yes, yes, And I
Speaker 2: feel that I feel like I'm already in abundance, but
Speaker 2: more and more is coming. And I've just been really
Speaker 2: trying to focus on thinking positively in January because I
Speaker 2: feel like over the last few months I've been in
Speaker 2: and out of this space and just like worrying, worrying, stress, stressed,
Speaker 2: and just like thankfully, like I think I'm in such
Speaker 2: flow of my life that I haven't like a lot
Speaker 2: of bad things haven't been invited into my space. But
Speaker 2: this year, I really really want to fight hard to
Speaker 2: be a positive thinker because I can be sited in
Speaker 2: my car all day just talking shit and I'm just
Speaker 2: worrying what if this hasn't happened?
Speaker 1: With this has happening? Do this? Do we do this?
Speaker 1: Do we do that? Do we do that?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 1: My god, we didn't do this. She didn't do this.
Speaker 1: I didn't do this, We didn't do this, didn't do this.
Speaker 1: I'm just like, bitch, stop. Well. I think, like what
Speaker 1: like when you.
Speaker 2: When you like achieve a lot of things, like like
Speaker 2: we have in a short period of time and manifested
Speaker 2: a lot of things, you don't think about the like
Speaker 2: maintenance that it requires and the anxiety that comes with
Speaker 2: the maintenance, you know, because sometimes I'm like, this is what.
Speaker 1: We dreamed of, and I'm like, is it you know?
Speaker 1: And of course it is. But like it when you
Speaker 1: when you manifest things, it doesn't come with necessarily like
Speaker 1: a manual, you know. And like we've worked so hard
Speaker 1: on like working on all of these things that you
Speaker 1: don't really learn how to like mentally your mental capacity
Speaker 1: to keep up with it. And I do. I feel
Speaker 1: like this year is really going to be dedicated to
Speaker 1: us dedicating the time to have the mental capacity to
Speaker 1: be present in it and without the anxiety of it
Speaker 1: like disappearing or like upkeeping it, because it does come
Speaker 1: with a lot of anxiety. So I think it requires
Speaker 1: that we like do a lot of like spiritual and
Speaker 1: mental exercise to just maintain it all without it being
Speaker 1: super stressful.
Speaker 2: I love that you said the maintenance of it. I've
Speaker 2: never really like viewed it as that, but it really is.
Speaker 1: There is like a maintenance.
Speaker 2: There's spiritual maintenance, there's which you know, there's maintenance of
Speaker 2: your life in general, personal physical maintenance. But I think,
Speaker 2: like the spiritual maintenance is so important to keep inviting
Speaker 2: in the things that you're asking.
Speaker 1: Well, your mental health, Yeah, and like your mental health
Speaker 1: is a direct reflection of how you manifest and like
Speaker 1: how open you are and how like optimistic you are,
Speaker 1: and how inviting you are of the things. If you're
Speaker 1: constantly in a state of anxiety or like worry, then
Speaker 1: it's not going to flow easily. So like I think
Speaker 1: in the beginning of this proble, we were just like.
Speaker 2: La la la la, la la la, I'm fucking nep
Speaker 2: and I'm healing, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: Like it was just like a it was like a
Speaker 1: it wasn't that intentional, It wasn't that intentional. It was
Speaker 1: a hobby and there wasn't a lot of pressure. But
Speaker 1: now as the pressure, like as it's less of a hobby,
Speaker 1: it's it's more to maintain, and it's like it's scary
Speaker 1: because you know, like, obviously you come from a background
Speaker 1: where your mom's like a super professional like mogul, but
Speaker 1: like that doesn't necessarily mean we've been given the tools
Speaker 1: to like know how to run our own business or
Speaker 1: like be a business professional. And obviously we are and
Speaker 1: we've grown and we were like maturing into this role,
Speaker 1: but like it's scary when you don't you like, I
Speaker 1: didn't go to fucking business school, which I dropped out,
Speaker 1: you know, and it's just like and it's all on
Speaker 1: you and you don't necessarily feel like you've been given
Speaker 1: like the lesson plan to know how to keep up
Speaker 1: with everything, And so there are self doubting thoughts that
Speaker 1: obviously are untrue because we're here. But it's just like
Speaker 1: how do you eliminate those the higher you get in
Speaker 1: your you know, your life. No, it's true. I think
Speaker 1: I think there is a level of.
Speaker 2: Faking it till you make it that has that has
Speaker 2: that has happened, and even in our business of like
Speaker 2: it's faking it. But I knew that if we just
Speaker 2: set it and wrote it down, eventually it would be true.
Speaker 2: And I believed that and then it was and I've
Speaker 2: just kept doing that over and over and over again.
Speaker 2: And it's been true in my business, it's been true
Speaker 2: in my personal life, it's been true in you know,
Speaker 2: just pretty much all aspects of my life. And like
Speaker 2: approaching my problems instead of like looking up at them
Speaker 2: and trying to look down on them so that they
Speaker 2: don't feel so overbearing.
Speaker 1: That's a good way to look at it, you know,
Speaker 1: and like.
Speaker 2: Looking down and saying, okay, like I can see everything here,
Speaker 2: like what is what is my What I've been trying
Speaker 2: to do lately is think about, in my perfect scenario,
Speaker 2: what would the outcome be, not like what is the
Speaker 2: bad outcome? Because I think that's all a lot of
Speaker 2: times where my mind goes the case the worst case
Speaker 2: scenario instead of like the best case scenario. And so
Speaker 2: when you are constantly thinking about the worst case scenario,
Speaker 2: and granted, like I've always said, I'm a realist and
Speaker 2: you know, I've been pondering that idea too, and thinking
Speaker 2: like is being a realist actually negative self talk? Like
Speaker 2: when you are a realist and saying.
Speaker 1: Like, well, I'm just real about it, like realistically, is
Speaker 1: that really going to happen? Actually? It is? Being a
Speaker 1: realist is being pessimistic because realistically is not where we
Speaker 1: should be thinking. I mean shit, like we didn't realistically
Speaker 1: think to get here like we were but not really
Speaker 1: and all the shit happened. And it's like had we
Speaker 1: been thinking overly thinking to realistic and it wouldn't have
Speaker 1: probably manifested this way we were like I don't know,
Speaker 1: but that would be nice.
Speaker 2: Like so like what if like instead of you deciding
Speaker 2: that you're a realist, like you are a dreamist I mean,
Speaker 2: for lack of a better word, and like you just
Speaker 2: dream about the best possible outcome, the best possible scenario,
Speaker 2: Like what does that look like? Instead of like the
Speaker 2: worst possible outcome? And granted, I think there is some
Speaker 2: realism that has to happen in ways, but.
Speaker 1: Overall maybe not.
Speaker 2: And I think that's kind of like what I'm realizing
Speaker 2: at this like in the season of my life and
Speaker 2: just this month and over the last thirty days, I
Speaker 2: feel like lately I've just been like going through kind
Speaker 2: of a bit of a transformation personally, and it's been
Speaker 2: feeling like I'm like, Okay, the way my mind has
Speaker 2: been like moving through manifesting and inviting things in is working,
Speaker 2: but like I'm still feel anxious, i still feel worried.
Speaker 2: There's still negative self talk, So like how do I
Speaker 2: eliminate those things so that things come even more rapidly
Speaker 2: towards me? And a part of that is I think
Speaker 2: like kind of like letting the realist and me die.
Speaker 1: Well.
Speaker 2: I think like the like the realism the realist. It's
Speaker 2: the unfortunate part of like human nature and of like
Speaker 2: the society in which we live in.
Speaker 1: Is that realism only gives you space to dream as
Speaker 1: much of you as you experienced. So if I'm being realistic,
Speaker 1: that's true.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Realistically, you know, I've never had the number one,
Speaker 2: like a number one podcast in the world, so like
Speaker 2: why that realistically? Why would I think that that's something
Speaker 2: that I can do? Like realistically, I'm looking at the
Speaker 2: charts and there's forty five people in front of me,
Speaker 2: So realistically, like it's going to take this amount of months,
Speaker 2: this amount of work, this amount of guests, you know.
Speaker 1: Like all these things. Realistically, I don't know Sean King Realistically,
Speaker 1: I don't know mel Robins, So like, how is Erkama
Speaker 1: and be on my show? You know, like realistically, if
Speaker 1: I've only seen my parents struggle in a marriage, or
Speaker 1: I've only seen a house this big realistically, I can't
Speaker 1: dream that big. But that is the whole point of
Speaker 1: not thinking realistically because it caps at your human experience
Speaker 1: that you've had up to that point, and it does
Speaker 1: require that you get out of your personal experiences to
Speaker 1: actually obtain things that you've never experienced before. And if
Speaker 1: you're constantly thinking that those things are impossible because you've
Speaker 1: never seen them, it won't happen, you know, like I've
Speaker 1: never fucking climbed Mount Everest. I can't do that, but
Speaker 1: I could. And the truth is, the realism is that
Speaker 1: anything that you want to achieve, you can if you
Speaker 1: realistically understand that your experiences are limited and your mind
Speaker 1: will limit you. And in fact, you have to step
Speaker 1: out of that, like the confinement of your experiences and
Speaker 1: go beyond that, because our dreams are much larger than
Speaker 1: the experiences we've had up till now, and they will
Speaker 1: continue to expand as long as you're able to see
Speaker 1: that vision. And a lot of times our visions are
Speaker 1: limited to our real experiences, and that is really not real.
Speaker 1: It's true, you know. That's that's You're right. You have
Speaker 1: to not be so realistic.
Speaker 2: You got to be kind of like like huge, you know,
Speaker 2: you have to be huge, and you have to like
Speaker 2: cease comparison, Like I feel like comparison is often like
Speaker 2: the stealer of all joy, you know, and looking at
Speaker 2: someone else's version of whatever they're they've attained or whatever
Speaker 2: they're of accomplishing and then comparing it to yourself can
Speaker 2: feel can make that realism come in even harder, Like oh,
Speaker 2: I'm not as beautiful as her, or I don't have
Speaker 2: the husband, so that's why my life doesn't look like this,
Speaker 2: or you know, I didn't go to college, so therefore
Speaker 2: I can't get that job.
Speaker 1: Oh she has this per like she has this parent
Speaker 1: or this financial backing, so that's why she's there and
Speaker 1: I can't do that. Yeah, it's like immediately counting yourself
Speaker 1: out of an experience because you can't visualize yourself there.
Speaker 1: But like that is how you get there, by visualizing
Speaker 1: yourself in that space and believing that you were capable
Speaker 1: of doing it, not because you get this husband or
Speaker 1: you get this thing. It's just like I know I
Speaker 1: can do that too. I don't give a fuck that
Speaker 1: you came from here. I came from there. But I
Speaker 1: am capable of also being in that space. I can
Speaker 1: see myself there.
Speaker 2: Yeah that and also like not negative, not negatively self
Speaker 2: talking that person's experience too, because I think that's also
Speaker 2: to what happens.
Speaker 1: And you're like, fuck her. She got some my nerves like.
Speaker 2: Like why could your joy cause she's doing.
Speaker 1: Something you didn't do yet it's true, I mean you can,
Speaker 1: I've done it. You can absolutely get caught up and
Speaker 1: like why is this bitch succeeding in this? Because you're
Speaker 1: too focused on the wrong shit. So I was.
Speaker 2: Looking online and I was or I was on Instagram
Speaker 2: and I saw this. I saved this in my whatever
Speaker 2: saved fold or whatever they call it over there and
Speaker 2: the archives, and it was I don't even know if
Speaker 2: this is a true I don't know if this is true,
Speaker 2: but it spoke to me and it's the twelve laws
Speaker 2: of karma. And I feel like karma for me is
Speaker 2: directly in some ways linked.
Speaker 1: To how.
Speaker 2: How how you're able to call in the things you
Speaker 2: want in your life, like how you treat people, how
Speaker 2: you talk about people, acts of service, all these things. Anyway,
Speaker 2: So the first one was is the great law and
Speaker 2: it's whatever we put into the universe will come back
Speaker 2: to us, which I agree. The second was the law
Speaker 2: of creation. Life does not happen by itself. We need
Speaker 2: to make it happen, which again is for me. And
Speaker 2: manifesting is the action you put behind you know, whatever
Speaker 2: is that you're dreaming big about. The law of humility.
Speaker 2: One must accept something in order to change it. So
Speaker 2: instead of fighting against whatever is, just accepting it and
Speaker 2: moving through it so that you can have space to
Speaker 2: have whatever it is the fuck that you want.
Speaker 1: The law of growth, which is number four.
Speaker 2: When when we change ourselves, our lives follow suit and
Speaker 2: change too.
Speaker 1: We can't stay the same. We can't. It's not possible.
Speaker 1: I mean we can. People do it every day. Your
Speaker 1: circumstances won't change.
Speaker 2: They're miserable. The law of responsibility. We must take responsibility
Speaker 2: for what is in our lives. So like, hey, like
Speaker 2: my situation is fucked up because I've made these choices,
Speaker 2: and not blaming other people for your choices. Number six
Speaker 2: the law of connection. The past, present, and future are
Speaker 2: all connected. The law of focus. We cannot think of
Speaker 2: two different things at the same time.
Speaker 1: To pitch, I don't know if I'm messed with that one.
Speaker 2: That's hard because I'd be thinking of twenty two different
Speaker 2: things at one time, and that forgot the first thing.
Speaker 1: We just did that in there.
Speaker 2: Eight The law of giving and hospitality. Our behavior should
Speaker 2: match our thoughts and actions. The law of here and now.
Speaker 2: We cannot be present if we are looking backwards. Ten
Speaker 2: the law of change. History repeats itself until we learn
Speaker 2: from it and change our path. The law of patience
Speaker 2: and reward. The most valuable rewards require persistence, and then
Speaker 2: it's just the last one, the last. The law of
Speaker 2: significance and inspiration. Rewards are a results of the energy
Speaker 2: and effort we put into it.
Speaker 1: Like thinking of karma reminds me of this episode we
Speaker 1: did with the second episode we did with Beleja and
Speaker 1: her husband called Mama's an Opener Marriage, I think, and
Speaker 1: her husband like said something so profound and it's not
Speaker 1: like that profound, but most things that are profound are
Speaker 1: not that like are super simple. And he was just saying,
Speaker 1: how you know, like basically she was seeing someone and
Speaker 1: he was just like getting at him, like just like
Speaker 1: just making it up about him because he realized there
Speaker 1: were things in him that he was doing, and like
Speaker 1: things in the person he was like talking shit about
Speaker 1: that he was denying in himself and that was why
Speaker 1: he was spewing these things like oh that what he's
Speaker 1: doing is whack, Like, oh, that's stupid, but it's like
Speaker 1: because he was too scared to go on a women
Speaker 1: and try certain things or you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: And I just realized when he said that, like it
Speaker 1: always stuck with me because it's like a lot of
Speaker 1: the times, the things that bother us in people are
Speaker 1: things that we haven't given ourselves permission to explore because
Speaker 1: we were like judging ourselves like we're gonna look stupid
Speaker 1: or you don't know about this, or like that's them,
Speaker 1: you know, and like that negative self talk. But it's
Speaker 1: just like you have to like the energy that you
Speaker 1: put out. That karma is real, and it's usually it
Speaker 1: starts with how you're treating yourself and then you project
Speaker 1: that shit into other people and then it feels acceptable.
Speaker 1: So like even if someone's talking, I'm like this is
Speaker 1: so dumb, like what are you talking about? And I'm
Speaker 1: like why are you such a bit Like maybe it's you,
Speaker 1: And then I'm like, damn, maybe it is me.
Speaker 2: Well I think about too, like in the journey of
Speaker 2: healing and like you different modalities for healing and exploring
Speaker 2: and like trying things on and stuff. Like a lot
Speaker 2: of times people that haven't begun that journey at all
Speaker 2: and don't even know where to start, they look at
Speaker 2: you and are like.
Speaker 1: What the fuck you're weird?
Speaker 2: Like why are you? Why are you like chanting? Why
Speaker 2: are you screaming? Why are you lighting candles on full moon?
Speaker 1: Like why are you? Like whatever it is?
Speaker 2: You know, And a lot of it is because they
Speaker 2: haven't even begun to do the work, to even.
Speaker 1: Start to like like uncoding what works for them. Well,
Speaker 1: it's just so easy to be like that's stupid, Like
Speaker 1: that's the white people.
Speaker 2: Shit, Oh that's silly. Oh, Like why the fuck would
Speaker 2: I do that?
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, why would you be
Speaker 1: doing Cartwell's bitch, you're thirty four, you know what I mean? Like,
Speaker 1: there's a lot and that's the same shit, the same
Speaker 1: shit that doesn't allow you to try the modalities because
Speaker 1: you're so busy thinking judging what it is you haven't
Speaker 1: tried it. And I'm like, I'm a tryer of things,
Speaker 1: you know a bit, You'll try some shit. You know,
Speaker 1: because I'm like, fuck it, I'm not gonna knock it
Speaker 1: till I try it. But I too have had times
Speaker 1: where I'm like, this is ridiculous. You guys, remember that
Speaker 1: time we went to the conference and the white women
Speaker 1: were like jumping up and down and making weird noises,
Speaker 1: and we were like, where the fuck are we at?
Speaker 1: And then like two years later, we're doing same thing.
Speaker 1: We totally we judge them. We're like, this is strange.
Speaker 2: But you know, I think too white was strange because
Speaker 2: we didn't see one person in that room that looked
Speaker 2: like us. I think if that was a room full
Speaker 2: of like brown and black people mixed with some other races,
Speaker 2: we would have been like, this is interesting. We probably
Speaker 2: still would have judged, but maybe been more open to it.
Speaker 2: I think oftentimes it's really hard to accept or be
Speaker 2: open yourself up to spaces where you don't you physically
Speaker 2: don't see yourself in them. It feels foreign, it feels unnerving,
Speaker 2: it feels like you're not invited. So I think when
Speaker 2: you don't have those kind of spaces, like that's what happens.
Speaker 2: And that's why I'm so grateful that we have the
Speaker 2: space that we have and I'm so glad that we
Speaker 2: have our retreat because obviously the retreat is for all women,
Speaker 2: all races, all ages. However, I find that a lot
Speaker 2: of the women that come are women of color, and
Speaker 2: I'm so happy that they come because they're able to
Speaker 2: see themselves in these spaces doing different shit, shit that
Speaker 2: they would never try in their town, especially like in
Speaker 2: certain towns where they are they're I mean generally we're
Speaker 2: most of the minority and everywhere we go, but they're
Speaker 2: really the minority in the yoga studio, in the meditation lounge,
Speaker 2: in whatever space that they're trying to go to to
Speaker 2: do the healing. And unfortunately it gets in the way
Speaker 2: sometimes even though it shouldn't, and even though, like I
Speaker 2: always want to, I want to encourage you right now,
Speaker 2: if you're listening, still go go.
Speaker 1: And do that shit. You You'll make a friend there.
Speaker 1: You will.
Speaker 2: There's someone there waiting to be your friend, probably all
Speaker 2: of them. But a lot of times we don't feel
Speaker 2: like we have we're invited and we have a seat
Speaker 2: at that table because we don't see ourselves there.
Speaker 1: Yeah, or that it's relatable, or that they're going to
Speaker 1: understand where I'm coming from because maybe I'm experiencing, you know,
Speaker 1: a different struggle or a different obstacle than you.
Speaker 2: H it's true, and you know, manifesting like I just
Speaker 2: feel like at its core, like it doesn't have to
Speaker 2: be that complicated, and I think people have made I mean,
Speaker 2: there's different ways to manifest and everyone has their own
Speaker 2: things that they do. But at the core, it's really
Speaker 2: just the start. The start is a positive self talk,
Speaker 2: be believing in yourself and see action like there's things
Speaker 2: in between there and and actually me and Mila have
Speaker 2: created a document, a document. We can't call it a
Speaker 2: a PDF, can't call it a PF don't let the PDF.
Speaker 1: No, it's a digital asset.
Speaker 2: Well, I don't know a beautiful pamphlet.
Speaker 1: No one uses pamphlet anymore. This is not a hotel
Speaker 1: if you.
Speaker 2: Check the pamphlet, the experience in which we know, we
Speaker 2: talk about these like we've created a handbook, these actual
Speaker 2: tools and steps that can help you at least just
Speaker 2: start the process of manifesting and believing in yourself and.
Speaker 1: Like creating real uh just real.
Speaker 2: Things and writing things down where you're like, Okay, this
Speaker 2: is what I want to invite in because a lot
Speaker 2: of times we don't even know what we want, Like,
Speaker 2: we have a lot of things what we want, and
Speaker 2: so we're trying to focus on all of them, and
Speaker 2: it's like we have to hone it in and like decide, Okay,
Speaker 2: this is what I'm focusing on right now. So I'm
Speaker 2: just really excited for you guys to read through it
Speaker 2: and apply it to your life. And you know, we
Speaker 2: get to share the tools that have worked for us.
Speaker 2: And you know, if you've been following us from the
Speaker 2: beginning of Good Moms, then you know, like you saw
Speaker 2: us in my dining room. We were in my dining
Speaker 2: room recording this show. We are now in our studio
Speaker 2: in the Hollywood Hills recording our show. So this is
Speaker 2: literally the power of manifestation. And you know, obviously me
Speaker 2: and Mila together have manifested a lot, but you don't necessarily,
Speaker 2: you don't need Amla or an Erica to do your
Speaker 2: own manifesting. However, I am really excited to do a
Speaker 2: lot of manifesting in the jungle with a group of
Speaker 2: women because there is power in numbers, and just like
Speaker 2: bringing that element, being able to bring that element live
Speaker 2: to people is super special, Like being able to like
Speaker 2: do it in groups and really like hone all of
Speaker 2: our energy, hone all of our divine feminine energy as
Speaker 2: one to really put intention behind each woman's dreams.
Speaker 1: Like it's just that's excites me when we do that absolutely,
Speaker 1: Like the collective is powerful and like you know, it's
Speaker 1: one thing to put your own energy all the time,
Speaker 1: and that's powerful. We're all like superhuman, you know, we
Speaker 1: have superpower powers. But like when you collectively have a
Speaker 1: like a community of people where you trust and you
Speaker 1: can collectively harness that power, it is super powerful.
Speaker 2: We also manifested a studio in which we can smoke
Speaker 2: Weedn't how that was.
Speaker 1: That's like, that's how we know we manifested the ship
Speaker 1: because this is very rare. This is you don't just go.
Speaker 2: Into studio places where you can just be smoking in
Speaker 2: the office place.
Speaker 1: You know. They told we told everyone that guy approved
Speaker 1: us was gonna give us the keys and then told
Speaker 1: us he checked our stuff and that we smoke weed
Speaker 1: and that we curse and that he's not gonna be
Speaker 1: able to give us the space. That was like eight
Speaker 1: months ago, and fuck that guy. Yeah, And we were
Speaker 1: patient and we wrote it down and we and we
Speaker 1: literally wrote down like office that we can smoke in,
Speaker 1: like that was super important, and here we are. We
Speaker 1: are smoking the weeds.
Speaker 2: So if you're interested in just you know, getting started
Speaker 2: and manifesting, click the link in this episode description, or
Speaker 2: go to our website at Good mom'spad Choices dot com
Speaker 2: and check it out.
Speaker 1: Let us know, give us your feedback, and we're going
Speaker 1: to continue to make you know, continue to create how
Speaker 1: to's on things that we like, you know, like the
Speaker 1: tools that we've learned because.
Speaker 2: People ask us all the time, and like it's one
Speaker 2: thing to listen to an episode, but I know, even
Speaker 2: like I'm diving into audibles lately and sometimes I'm like
Speaker 2: sometimes I'm like, damn it, now I know why it's
Speaker 2: better to read books sometimes because then I can like
Speaker 2: highlight and write down, Like when I'm listening, it's hard
Speaker 2: for me to capture, so we've highlighted it for you.
Speaker 1: It's true, I mean, and even to just like business partnerships,
Speaker 1: you know, like obviously like uh, physical things like houses
Speaker 1: and not that any of us are living in a
Speaker 1: mansion right now but soon, and like cars, and like
Speaker 1: businesses and like book deals those are things too. But
Speaker 1: even like love and your hopes of like where your
Speaker 1: mental health will be and your spiritual practice will be.
Speaker 1: Those those are all things that are like manifestival too.
Speaker 1: And even if you don't I feel like, even if
Speaker 1: you don't see it or you don't know how it's
Speaker 1: going to get there. Like even in my relationship I
Speaker 1: had probably was like, no one's gonna want to fuck
Speaker 1: with me, Like I've talked way too much on the internet.
Speaker 1: My titties are always out, like I just had probably
Speaker 1: like let it go. But in my mind, I was like,
Speaker 1: there's gotta be someone. There's gotta be someone with the shits.
Speaker 1: I was like, see it online.
Speaker 2: I'm like, look at Pamela Anderson and Tolmily that.
Speaker 1: From twenty years ago. She figured it out, Billie. They
Speaker 1: didn't last, but fuck it, someone is gonna meet me
Speaker 1: as rockstar as I am. And I was adamant about
Speaker 1: that shit. And even when I had so many friends
Speaker 1: like girl, you need to calm down. Oh you're not
Speaker 1: gonna find anyone. You need to be less honest, and
Speaker 1: I was like I can't physically, I can't do it.
Speaker 1: And and it's true, like even without like necessarily knowing
Speaker 1: how it's gonna come. It will come as long as
Speaker 1: you're secure in what you want and who you are
Speaker 1: and that you're going to get there. And it doesn't
Speaker 1: matter like what it is that you're manifesting, because like
Speaker 1: a bit, you didn't know I was going to be
Speaker 1: fucking podcasting, you know, five years ago to this extent
Speaker 1: for five years, and it didn't matter because I was like,
Speaker 1: I will if I want to, and here we are.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: It's just like the consistency of no knowing, just expecting
Speaker 1: your blessings, you know, like I expect this to happen,
Speaker 1: and so I'm gonna put in the work and it's
Speaker 1: gonna come, and I'm gonna work on myself. Doesn't mean
Speaker 1: I'm going to necessarily try and change myself or water
Speaker 1: down for a nigga, because that's impossible, but I'm going
Speaker 1: to work on myself so when whoever comes, they're going
Speaker 1: to recognize the good that I have to offer, you know.
Speaker 1: And sometimes so often we're so busy telling ourselves like, realistically,
Speaker 1: no one's gonna want a date a bitch for their
Speaker 1: titties out. Realistically, no one, you know, Realistically, two moms
Speaker 1: can't talk about spoken pot on a podcast and become successful.
Speaker 1: That's not realize.
Speaker 2: Never, I mean honestly, like I never thought that when
Speaker 2: that became apparent to me that that was a thing
Speaker 2: that people thought about like us.
Speaker 1: And me and you.
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, okay, well this is a life.
Speaker 2: This is not what I I didn't this is not
Speaker 2: something I anticipated. But having a show about like two
Speaker 2: moms smoking weed, well that and then people saying like,
Speaker 2: now you're unlovable, Now you're not worthy, Like I had
Speaker 2: other reasons why I thought I wasn't worthy.
Speaker 1: It wasn't that this is actually my main thing. Are
Speaker 1: you sure this is the best thing about me here?
Speaker 1: You know what that's really?
Speaker 2: And then I had to remember, like this is the
Speaker 2: happiest I've ever been. This is the most purposeful I've
Speaker 2: ever felt. Like fuck what you said, funk what you think? Okay, well,
Speaker 2: there was a morning that happened, like I there was
Speaker 2: like I was sad about it for a while, but
Speaker 2: then like I feel very much empowered in knowing that
Speaker 2: like the person that is for me will show up
Speaker 2: and be perfect for me, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: And like it it's like even then when you show
Speaker 2: up as yourself and your mooth, authentic self.
Speaker 1: You can't lose.
Speaker 2: You can can't lose in love, you can't lose in
Speaker 2: whatever that you're passionate about, you can't lose in Like
Speaker 2: there's just the level of I feel like karmic blessing
Speaker 2: you get just from showing up.
Speaker 1: Well, well, you have to think about it, like we're
Speaker 1: all like, uh, like divine creatures. We're all created like
Speaker 1: exactly how we're supposed to be fucking pandas panda kangaroos,
Speaker 1: can aroo in Australia, Like we're all of a certain
Speaker 1: like we're all like spiritual beings that were planted here
Speaker 1: specifically with purpose. I know if we veer outside of
Speaker 1: exactly who we are. If I'm a fucking kangaroo in China,
Speaker 1: bitch is not gonna work. My food is not there,
Speaker 1: my alignment is not there. If I'm a kangaroo acting
Speaker 1: like I'm a fucking polar bear, bitch, I'm gonna die.
Speaker 1: But it's just about like honing in on exactly who
Speaker 1: you are without all of the noise of social standards.
Speaker 1: Your mama, your daddy, your cousin, your auntie, your teacher.
Speaker 1: It's just like we forget that we're divine beings. God
Speaker 1: Spirit has placed us here and our only job is
Speaker 1: to show up as ourselves for sure. But the world
Speaker 1: tells you like that's not good enough, and then you
Speaker 1: start telling yourself that's not good enough or it's too much,
Speaker 1: or it's to this, or it's too weird. But bitch,
Speaker 1: you're supposed to be weird. Look at weird Out. Do
Speaker 1: you think he would have been weird out without being weird?
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I don't know. It's the
Speaker 1: best I could come up, you know, you know my SiO.
Speaker 1: So that's that white side, not my best. But you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, I'm kidding. But that's the thing, Like,
Speaker 1: our divine purpose is in being exactly who we are,
Speaker 1: and the things that are meant for us cannot find
Speaker 1: us if we're not comfortable in being exactly who we are.
Speaker 1: Even if it's smoking pop moms. There were more than that,
Speaker 1: But you know what I mean, Like.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I totally agree. I also think that we are
Speaker 2: also we are also I guess what I guess I'm
Speaker 2: trying to say is like we are still extensions of
Speaker 2: our ancestors and the people were influenced by the people
Speaker 2: that we are from, but we have to I guess
Speaker 2: in this lifetime being yourself, you kind of find discernment
Speaker 2: and the pieces that you want to take from those people.
Speaker 1: Like I am not like my mother.
Speaker 2: I have pieces of her because I am of her,
Speaker 2: but I have my own spiritual divine reasoning for being
Speaker 2: here and having I guess autonomy over my spirit in ways.
Speaker 2: And so I think that you take what you need
Speaker 2: from the people that you come from, but hopefully like
Speaker 2: you're able to like have the discernment.
Speaker 1: And that's the hardest part, is knowing what is of
Speaker 1: you and what is of other people. I'm still figuring
Speaker 1: that out, you know, Like it's that's enlightenment, I guess,
Speaker 1: because I mean I'm not there yet, and even parts
Speaker 1: of you that are in spite of people, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like, and I'm this way in spite
Speaker 1: because like I hated that my mom was this way.
Speaker 1: So I've done like the complete like the complete opposite,
Speaker 1: because sometimes there's that too. But I also feel like
Speaker 1: sometimes like it's about taking things from people, but also
Speaker 1: kind of like we are living in a in a
Speaker 1: generation that's so different than the like where our parents
Speaker 1: were able to like completely be themselves, especially as women.
Speaker 1: But I think sometimes we are actually breaking generational curses
Speaker 1: in a major way because we are we could be
Speaker 1: more clear about who we are without just like the
Speaker 1: I just feel like in general, as time evolves, there's
Speaker 1: a lot of fucked up shit that happens too, like
Speaker 1: eating plastic, but.
Speaker 2: We we do have.
Speaker 1: The freedom to show up more as ourselves, you know,
Speaker 1: obviously look like the like evolution of women, like look,
Speaker 1: my whole thigh is out. That probably couldn't happen in
Speaker 1: a certain time. I don't know what era, but you know,
Speaker 1: I feel like it started there naked, and then it
Speaker 1: went well, and then it went back. So you know,
Speaker 1: it's true. It's true, but it's we're all influenced by
Speaker 1: this outside world, and it's important that you know you
Speaker 1: just like who the fuck you are. Yeah, because then
Speaker 1: your mom tell you it's not likely that like your
Speaker 1: job is not what did she say about this job
Speaker 1: is not likely going to find you a us?
Speaker 2: She said, Oh yeah, it's gonna be much harder for
Speaker 2: me to find someone I don't know. Essentially, like I
Speaker 2: don't know, I felt like she was trying to say,
Speaker 2: like a sustainable man like one that's.
Speaker 1: Like serious serious, But then then you tell a guy
Speaker 1: you're dating and he was like, that's true. Yeah, but
Speaker 1: that's the thing. That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: Like there's been a level of like okay, like mourning
Speaker 2: that I've had to say like, wow, okay, someone that
Speaker 2: I love thinks that of me or of what I
Speaker 2: do that brings me happiness and joy.
Speaker 1: And then and then and then be able to make
Speaker 1: it not hurt your feelings and then be like that
Speaker 1: doesn't hurt my feelings at all, or.
Speaker 2: Make you self dumb? I like, is this too much?
Speaker 2: Am I doing the most? Can't I shut the fuck up?
Speaker 2: Could I spin this? Could I like, loo hold more?
Speaker 2: Could I be stressed out about this shit? Could I
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, like, and yeah, if anything,
Speaker 2: I just try to listen to my body. If it
Speaker 2: makes my body feel uncomfortable, then it's probably not for me.
Speaker 2: And whenever when I felt that, I was like, oh damn,
Speaker 2: like this is yeah, no, this is not of me.
Speaker 1: This is a view. Be your own people, This is
Speaker 1: a view. So I feel secure in that. So and
Speaker 1: you have to and then that's a part of the
Speaker 1: growing process. If you're not willing to like say, hey,
Speaker 1: is this me or is this someone else and sit
Speaker 1: on it, you know, deeply, and like decide that's important.
Speaker 1: Most people just immediately if someone doesn't like it, they're like,
Speaker 1: oh no, this is the wrong decision. And me and
Speaker 1: Erka would have been nowhere if we would have listened
Speaker 1: to everybody's fucking opinion, we would have never I don't
Speaker 1: know where the fuck would be. But like stressed out
Speaker 1: worried about people's opinion. Even now that I'm in a relationship,
Speaker 1: like a serious relationship and my person knows me, like
Speaker 1: you know, like there's no there's no fucking surprises. It's
Speaker 1: not gonna be like someone date people, I'd be like,
Speaker 1: this would be the test. Like, so, if you're out
Speaker 1: in public and someone randomly comes up to you and
Speaker 1: just discloses some random information about me, how are you
Speaker 1: going to feel if it's sexual? You know what I mean,
Speaker 1: because that can happen, but like it's bound to it's
Speaker 1: bound to actually like you.
Speaker 2: I just mean in general, And that's a question that
Speaker 2: most people don't really ask the person, and it's a
Speaker 2: defining question because sex really matters to people. And then
Speaker 2: imagine then amplifying that to like millions of people. Yeah,
Speaker 2: you know, like that's a hard pill to swallow. But
Speaker 2: it's actually now like on this part of my journey
Speaker 2: because I do have a partner that I know is
Speaker 2: going to be in my life forever.
Speaker 1: I do. I do feel like I'm embarking on this
Speaker 1: different chapter of my life because now I like not
Speaker 1: that I needed a relationship to do this, because I
Speaker 1: was always I was already like obviously actively trying to
Speaker 1: grow and evolve and get out of like bad habits
Speaker 1: and like learn my trauma so that I could better
Speaker 1: at it. But it's also given me, like I realize
Speaker 1: now like this year there's gonna be a different level
Speaker 1: of work that I have to unlock because it's not
Speaker 1: about like fighting the world about who I am or
Speaker 1: a partner or like convincing people that I'm worthy because
Speaker 1: like I know my people who love me. But now
Speaker 1: like really digging deep into so like the parts of
Speaker 1: myself that do I love or don't love, and like
Speaker 1: just reflecting deeply on the things. Like it's just a
Speaker 1: different level of I'm like, damn, it's a different like
Speaker 1: validating yourself. It's like that kind of love and then
Speaker 1: when someone else loves you truly, it's like it makes
Speaker 1: it reflects how you love yourself and if I've actually
Speaker 1: been doing the work or how I've been avoiding it,
Speaker 1: or have I been meditating and breathing and why or
Speaker 1: why not? You know. So it's just like I think
Speaker 1: I'm about to embark on this different level of like
Speaker 1: self reflection that is scary, but I'm also like really
Speaker 1: excited about. So I'm just I'm excited for you. Thinks
Speaker 1: I'm excited for us. I feel the same way. I
Speaker 1: feel like it's that new January energy. Maybe it's just
Speaker 1: because like we're.
Speaker 2: Going at we're about to leave too, and I'm like
Speaker 2: I'm about to be in nature, and I feel like
Speaker 2: I'm really tapping into like I feel like this year,
Speaker 2: I'm really stepping into that space of like wanting to
Speaker 2: be in that element more like just prioritizing like just
Speaker 2: even just taking like really being in nature, like taking
Speaker 2: my shoes off, even if it's in my backyard, like
Speaker 2: actually doing that and realizing that like I.
Speaker 1: Can really retreat here if I want to.
Speaker 2: And because I think escapism is something that I think
Speaker 2: I struggle with, Like I'm like let me just get
Speaker 2: out of here real quick, oh I'm queen of it,
Speaker 2: or just let me just go missing for two days
Speaker 2: an escapism, But I need that too. I think that
Speaker 2: that's important also, But what am I doing with my
Speaker 2: time during that time?
Speaker 1: And yeah, I'm just well just like being clear about
Speaker 1: what makes you feel good and honoring that I prefer
Speaker 1: to be in the jungle half naked, you know, Like
Speaker 1: that's my preference. But like and then saying how can
Speaker 1: I make my life more aligned with being in the jungle,
Speaker 1: you know? And like last year respect like three months
Speaker 1: out of the country, which I think, Wow, that's so
Speaker 1: dope that that's like our life and that's like we
Speaker 1: can bring our kids and it's we're still working and facilitating,
Speaker 1: facilitating healing for other people, and like that is ideal
Speaker 1: for me, you know, and I do. I think this
Speaker 1: is this is our second retreat in like we've been
Speaker 1: doing this for one year now. We've been retreating this
Speaker 1: for one year, wow, And we've taken like a hundred
Speaker 1: women to healing and too the jungle and to themselves
Speaker 1: and we're continuing to embark on that journey. And I
Speaker 1: think we're like more confident in it. We're more confident
Speaker 1: in ourselves in this space and it's so exciting. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I'm really grateful, and I'm also just I don't know.
Speaker 2: I just feel like actively trying to find the joy
Speaker 2: and everything is the goal for me right now, and
Speaker 2: I'm really dedicated to that. And I realize there are
Speaker 2: certain elements that I'm learning in school that just it's
Speaker 2: just true, Like breathing, moving, like being still, sex, like
Speaker 2: all these things really make pleasure pleasure. Food is a
Speaker 2: way of life. Guess what breaking news.
Speaker 1: Striking news.
Speaker 2: And that's even in alignment, you know, Like we're in
Speaker 2: school and we're learning about like Tibetan tantra, but then
Speaker 2: we're talking to you know and studying Queen of Fua,
Speaker 2: the Sacred Woman, and then like this ancient African studies,
Speaker 2: and it's like, oh, it's.
Speaker 1: All the same. It's all the same. The elements. It's
Speaker 1: the breathing, it's the moving of your body, it's the quietness.
Speaker 1: It's it's literally the most basic shit, breathe, move, drink, eat,
Speaker 1: be quiet, like like that is the medicine and it's
Speaker 1: and it's in every like ancient healing remedy and method
Speaker 1: and it's so simple and yet it's so hard. And
Speaker 1: that's when I noticed that, like with our tantra, like
Speaker 1: taking time to do that, I was like, this is crazy,
Speaker 1: how much I'm avoiding it? Yeah, I'm like, why am
Speaker 1: I avoiding? Why am I avoiding sitting on breathing for
Speaker 1: twenty minutes? Why I will do anything and everything by
Speaker 1: fucking sitting breathe? I rather stress, I gotta, I got,
Speaker 1: I got to stressed, super important stress. No, but literally
Speaker 1: that's what I choose. That's literally the choice that you're making. Sorry,
Speaker 1: and I'd rather stress.
Speaker 2: I'm stressed, so I can't stop that to do that,
Speaker 2: No way, God, don't want to do stress.
Speaker 1: Who wants to do that? It's true, it's true. So,
Speaker 1: oh my god, don't choose stress. It's like, don't choose violent.
Speaker 1: It's violence to yourself. Shirt. Don't choose stress for real?
Speaker 1: You heard it here? First, ah my goodness. Do we
Speaker 1: have a hoary? We do, But first we have a
Speaker 1: tarot card that you picked.
Speaker 2: Oh yes, okay, so you guys today I picked the
Speaker 2: High Priestress priestess. Priestess bitch is hot, okay, and I
Speaker 2: am the High Priestess literally, I am the High priest
Speaker 2: Like that backup? Actually, Okay, intuition say cret knowledge, divine, feminine,
Speaker 2: the subconscious mind.
Speaker 1: Yep, wow, say that again. You want to you want
Speaker 1: to hear that again, intuition, sacred knowledge, divine, feminine, the
Speaker 1: subconscious mind.
Speaker 2: You know. But before I start telling this, I was
Speaker 2: just thinking about, like how Queen of Fuis talks about
Speaker 2: just remembering.
Speaker 1: It's like a lot of these practices are just remembering,
Speaker 1: and it's true, it's not. It's like it's in our
Speaker 1: sacred knowledge, like especially as women, as goddesses that like
Speaker 1: create all things. The healing is like in our we
Speaker 1: know on a cellular level, and like we do ourselves
Speaker 1: such a disservice when we like totally ignore ourselves anyway.
Speaker 1: While the magician is the guardian of the conscious mind
Speaker 1: and the tangible world, the High Priestess is the guardian
Speaker 1: of the subconscious mind and the teacher of sacred knowledge,
Speaker 1: hidden mysteries. Sitting at the threshold of the conscious and
Speaker 1: subconscious mind, the High Priestess has an innate ability to
Speaker 1: travel between these realms effortlessly. She teaches you that the
Speaker 1: world is not always as it seems, and more profound
Speaker 1: influences are often at play. She ushers you through the
Speaker 1: thin veil of awareness, offering you a deep, intuitive understanding
Speaker 1: of the universe and a heightened awareness of secret or
Speaker 1: hidden information. The High Priestess signifies spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination,
Speaker 1: divine knowledge, and wisdom. She shows up in your trail
Speaker 1: readings when the veil between you and the underworld is
Speaker 1: thin and you have the opportunity to access the knowledge
Speaker 1: deep within your soul. Now is the time to be
Speaker 1: still so you can tune into your intuition the answers
Speaker 1: are seeking. The answers you are seeking will come from within,
Speaker 1: from your deepest truth and knowing. Allow the High Priests
Speaker 1: to become your guide as you venture deep into your
Speaker 1: subconscious mind and access this inner with wis. Connect with
Speaker 1: your intuition and your higher self through meditation, visualizations, shamatic journeying,
Speaker 1: and being part of spiritual communities.
Speaker 2: Wow heavy, I've been like intuition has been a theme
Speaker 2: since the beginning of the year for me.
Speaker 1: Like not doubting it.
Speaker 2: I've gotten multiple messages about intuition and I'm pulling that
Speaker 2: really really like it's just a confirmation that I'm definitely
Speaker 2: focusing on the right thing right now in my life,
Speaker 2: and that's honing that shit like a razor.
Speaker 1: Like that's really my.
Speaker 2: Goal is to be able to really and that comes
Speaker 2: with knowing thyself.
Speaker 1: That comes with like Queen of Fu's teachings of.
Speaker 2: You know, the sacred woman and her intuition like the
Speaker 2: know or the healer of all things.
Speaker 1: So I'm really I'm dedicated to to that. Well, that's
Speaker 1: our that's our femininity, is our intuition, Like we're fucking
Speaker 1: super women, you know, Like our intuition is our superpower
Speaker 1: and we forget to be in tune with it. But
Speaker 1: that is often going to save us time and time
Speaker 1: and time. Again, thank you Mahogany Taro for that reminder.
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Speaker 2: In that video, they were like sticking out the side
Speaker 2: all I see our hips.
Speaker 1: Why is that the only visual ad? Blonde hair and
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Speaker 1: really I love that shit. I was like, oh yeah,
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Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna tell you guys about this. This is
Speaker 1: from a male. This is front of our active males
Speaker 1: and Discord, and I love to see the fellows in
Speaker 1: Discord because there's men over there too. We have some
Speaker 1: private channels just for women, but you know, they just
Speaker 1: love a little testosterone and we bitches, and it's nice
Speaker 1: to have some male perspective on there too. So if
Speaker 1: you're a guy and you're listening and you're like, is
Speaker 1: it dis Chord for me, yes, sir, Yes, sir, it is,
Speaker 1: as long as ado don't be a weirdo and if
Speaker 1: you like love and praise women and free women, it's
Speaker 1: the place for you. And if you're mature, okay, I'm
Speaker 1: with the shits. Okay. Anyway, I'll tell you a funny
Speaker 1: story how I got into loving to be dominated by
Speaker 1: a woman. So back in Germany, I met this German
Speaker 1: female female at the barber shop. Nice tits, of course,
Speaker 1: so I holler at her. Nice tits, of course, so
Speaker 1: I holler at her and we hang out after she
Speaker 1: gets off that Friday. We go out, come back home,
Speaker 1: and of course have sex a few times after showering dah.
Speaker 1: Next morning, she has to go to work and leaves
Speaker 1: me there at her place. I came prepared and had
Speaker 1: my DVD book of movies and TV shows.
Speaker 2: You know, this was a while, he said, I'm chilling.
Speaker 2: So I'm watching in my pd blue. I'm my portable
Speaker 2: DVD player and I accidentally knock it off the bed.
Speaker 2: DVD falls out and rolls under the bed. I reach
Speaker 2: undergrad my DVD in a box of sex toys skids
Speaker 2: out into the view.
Speaker 1: So nosy me. I started investigating because last night she
Speaker 1: kept trying to play with my ass and I got
Speaker 1: mad and tell her to chill you got a chill boom.
Speaker 1: I don't know how you say that in German.
Speaker 2: No, Nit, it's more direct. Anyway, now I got Now,
Speaker 2: I got so many fucking questions, Like this motherfucker is
Speaker 2: a freak.
Speaker 1: She had anal.
Speaker 2: Trading beads, prostate massage, you name it.
Speaker 1: Wow, he's discovered all this just leaning over the bed.
Speaker 1: It mistakenly fell under, so he had he had to investigate.
Speaker 1: Oh wow, Okay, hold on, damn, did I did this
Speaker 1: in order?
Speaker 2: This motherfucker could have had an ass thrashing marathon and
Speaker 2: never had to use the same tour twice.
Speaker 1: Wow. So anyways, I'm trying to figure out how to
Speaker 1: tell her I'm on to her shit and she ain't
Speaker 1: gonna get me. So later she I'm trying to tell
Speaker 1: how I'm I gonna tell her I've found out her
Speaker 1: shit and she ain't gonna get me. So later she
Speaker 1: comes home and I'm ready, right, I'm just trying to
Speaker 1: wait for the right time to tell it. But of
Speaker 1: course things don't happen as planned, because as soon as
Speaker 1: she gets in, we start going at it like cats
Speaker 1: and dogs. She's been waiting all day for that dick. Well,
Speaker 1: we're fucking. She's gripping my ass cheeks like she's trying
Speaker 1: to stick a finger in there, and I got my ship.
Speaker 1: I got my ship. My cheeks like locked like fork knocks.
Speaker 1: We finished fucking, and she's like, why don't she let
Speaker 1: me play with your ass? I'm like, nah, motherfucker, chill.
Speaker 2: Well she uh now she's obviously wait wait sorry, she persists,
Speaker 2: and finally I blow up and I'm like, damn, leave
Speaker 2: my ass alone.
Speaker 1: I don't know that I am on that gay shit.
Speaker 1: So now obviously I was a bit extra, but she
Speaker 1: got the point she had to get an extra. I
Speaker 1: apologized and I left. So of course I got to
Speaker 1: tell my boy Kobe. I don't know if I was
Speaker 1: supposed to say his boy's name whatever.
Speaker 2: So I'm talking to Okay, and I'm telling him, bro,
Speaker 2: this chick last night was trying to lick my ass
Speaker 2: and sticking a finger in it.
Speaker 1: But I told her I wasn't with it. He said, what,
Speaker 1: don't knock her till you try it, Okay.
Speaker 2: So I was confused at this reply, of course, because
Speaker 2: most men ain't open to anal play.
Speaker 1: So after he signed off, that right is that right?
Speaker 1: That's a lie right. So after he signed off on it,
Speaker 1: I was trying to figure out how to tell her
Speaker 1: it's okay if she want to lick or play with
Speaker 1: it because my boy signed off on it. Not this
Speaker 1: is this is niggas. If you were a nigga and
Speaker 1: you ain't.
Speaker 2: His boy signed off, so it's not gay. Okay, Okay,
Speaker 2: well now changes. I got one alibi that changes everything.
Speaker 2: I got one alibi, Toby said, Well, Kobe said, so
Speaker 2: you guys, it's not gay.
Speaker 1: So fast forward. So fast forward to mine and her
Speaker 1: next encounter. We're making out and my slow seff is like,
Speaker 1: you want to do that thing? It's cool? Now you
Speaker 1: want to do that thing to me? It's cool? Now
Speaker 1: I can't stand yeah, trying trying to sound like I
Speaker 1: am gay while I.
Speaker 2: Say it, Oh you want to do that thing?
Speaker 1: All right, yeah it's cool. How do you not sound gay? Niggas? Okay?
Speaker 1: So anyways, she's like, assume the position, and my pride
Speaker 1: is a little touched, but I try it. Anyways, Shit,
Speaker 1: she knows what she wants, she sure do Okay. Shit
Speaker 1: started to tingle, and I was too scared to it
Speaker 1: to enjoy it. So I stopped her and I started
Speaker 1: to sound like I was going through puberty.
Speaker 2: That ain't no play. Well have you hitten all those
Speaker 2: high notes? Anyways?
Speaker 1: I right? Anyways, I left right after because I was
Speaker 1: a little ashamed, but I was curious by then. But
Speaker 1: I was curious by then and tried the toys next
Speaker 1: time because it was something about my ass whole being way.
Speaker 1: I just couldn't get used to. I feel you. So
Speaker 1: next time she tried the training anal beads and those
Speaker 1: things started hitting the G spot and I had to
Speaker 1: stop her because I was honestly afraid because if they're
Speaker 1: doing it right, it feels like you have to shit.
Speaker 1: And the last thing I wanted or needed was a
Speaker 1: blank shit on himself story. I was scared because I
Speaker 1: didn't know if I could trust her with it, with
Speaker 1: if we ever got into it, not to hang that
Speaker 1: shit over my head like you wasn't saying.
Speaker 2: That shit last night when I got Poor baby, he's
Speaker 2: so tormented, I know, but I'm happy he wrote the
Speaker 2: story because these were literally the things that niggas feel
Speaker 2: this way, and it's like it's not real.
Speaker 1: But anyways, a few more encounters with her, I developed
Speaker 1: a trust with her, and it got to the point
Speaker 1: when I walked When I walked in, I just assumed
Speaker 1: the sub position on my knees ready. So this time
Speaker 1: she used a prostate massager and I came over. It
Speaker 1: came over and over without my dick being stroked. So
Speaker 1: from then on I was game. Shit was so intense
Speaker 1: and it was such an adrenaline rush. Because I was
Speaker 1: always in control in my everyday life, I never knew
Speaker 1: how to give up control and be totally vulnerable to
Speaker 1: a woman. So the last time of my training, she
Speaker 1: invites me in and she blindfolds me, and then she
Speaker 1: bonds my hands and feet so I can't move. She
Speaker 1: starts for play and by the time I'm pre coming
Speaker 1: so much the beds almost have become a slipping slide.
Speaker 1: She starts out with the anal beads, then proceeds with
Speaker 1: the prosatus massager, and next thing I know, I feel
Speaker 1: something with a bit more girth. All I know is
Speaker 1: she fucked me with a shrap on.
Speaker 2: I swear to you, I came so much, back to
Speaker 2: back to back. I cried like a baby. My God,
Speaker 2: she fucked me up. I left that night and was
Speaker 2: scared to ever go back. But ever since then, I've
Speaker 2: been hooked and I tried regular relationships, but I like
Speaker 2: that out of the ordinary relationships. So for me to
Speaker 2: ever settle down, I think I'm gonna have to marry
Speaker 2: a dom She doesn't have to be a total dominatrix,
Speaker 2: but she has.
Speaker 1: To be able to handle my stub be dom. It's
Speaker 1: one of my top love languages. The end, and wow,
Speaker 1: I thought it was beautiful. And he said he's dominant
Speaker 1: seventy five to eighty percent of the time sextually, but
Speaker 1: that twenty five to twenty percent. He want what he wants.
Speaker 1: And I'm not mad at that. I feel that. And
Speaker 1: you can have a man who knows thyself, you know,
Speaker 1: and ain't afraid to ask for what he wants. Yeah,
Speaker 1: he's living a pleasureful life. That would make the world
Speaker 1: a better place if we could just all figure out
Speaker 1: our pleasures, relate it to a friend, own them, own them,
Speaker 1: dance blissfully in them, date based on them, just invite
Speaker 1: more of the pleasures. Hang around people that are like
Speaker 1: that too. I mean, I don't know if all your
Speaker 1: friends had to do the same thing, but like, luckily
Speaker 1: for him with his friend's name, the other guy, Yeah,
Speaker 1: he was like, oh, he wasn't lying like most of
Speaker 1: these niggas be lying.
Speaker 2: Hey.
Speaker 1: Yeah, he's like, don't knock it till you try it,
Speaker 1: and look, and he gave him permission. It's so crazy
Speaker 1: how we need permission to try shit.
Speaker 2: Humans do humans as women do men do. Obviously, I
Speaker 2: think men probably even more.
Speaker 1: For sure, especially from another man, because and even then
Speaker 1: sometimes not enough, because it's like men kind of validate
Speaker 1: each other's masculinity for sure.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yeah, because it's about alpha mentality.
Speaker 1: Well, this was a good episode. I really thank you
Speaker 1: the Discord Tribe because there's so much more of that,
Speaker 1: so much more of that.
Speaker 2: There's some rich content over there. There's rich stories. There's
Speaker 2: really interesting stories, interesting people. It's like so cool to
Speaker 2: see all the facets of people all over the world
Speaker 2: just in one space and how they interact with one another.
Speaker 2: And it's such a safe space and it's a cool space.
Speaker 1: And I know, I would think some love affairs are
Speaker 1: happening in there. I see friendships, I see meetups. It's
Speaker 1: just like, you know what it is. It's a tribe
Speaker 1: of free thinkers. It's Jamila's first cult. Stop.
Speaker 2: Oh not, everyone's going to understand our sense of humor.
Speaker 2: We're just kidding.
Speaker 1: It's our first culture. That's the first step. Come to
Speaker 1: the discord and think free talk about sex. Oh, my god,
Speaker 1: thank you again for sharing space with me.
Speaker 2: I love you.
Speaker 1: I love you too. I appreciate you, appreciate Oh we're
Speaker 1: supposed to have new segments this year. What is it
Speaker 1: You didn't look at my notes?
Speaker 2: Hi?
Speaker 1: I probably did. What was one of them? Should we
Speaker 1: do a poll and discord? Yeah? We should. It was yeah,
Speaker 1: I had a couple options. My god, yeah, let me know.
Speaker 2: It was like, mom, shit, it was high thoughts.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I feel like this whole episode is
Speaker 1: high thoughts. It is. At some point it became high thoughts.
Speaker 2: Okay, well, now it's over. We gotta go.
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Speaker 1: And I guess that's it. Bye. Mm hmmm