WEBVTT - Stop Being Realistic

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<v Speaker 1>M h.

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<v Speaker 2>Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm Mila.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's Wednesdays. It's Wednesday, bitches, and it's raining in La.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's a special all day because it never arranged

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<v Speaker 2>in motherfucking La. Hey.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, hey, hey.

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<v Speaker 2>That was beautiful, totally necessary the Hills.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm alive with the sound of music. You know, I

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<v Speaker 1>haven't really like I don't know if you know this

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<v Speaker 1>about me super important. I really like musical theater. I

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<v Speaker 1>know you hate it, but I really love it. So

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<v Speaker 1>in this.

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<v Speaker 2>Thirty something year of life, I have come to appreciate

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<v Speaker 2>musical theater only because.

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<v Speaker 1>LASS like to. Like two years ago, you hated Hamilton.

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<v Speaker 2>I told you. In this thirty something years, I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>this has just happened.

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<v Speaker 1>It's true. I don't like Hamilton. I know the people

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<v Speaker 1>are gonna come. You can't like musical theater and not

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<v Speaker 1>like Hamilton.

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<v Speaker 2>You can choose which theatrical experiences you enjoy.

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<v Speaker 1>You never saw you never saw it live. That's why

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<v Speaker 1>I did not see it live. I did not.

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<v Speaker 2>I saw it on the television and it was annoying. However,

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<v Speaker 2>my daughter is got cast it in West Side story.

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<v Speaker 2>So now you're now you're into musical thing. Now I

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<v Speaker 2>enjoy it because we had to practice so much, and

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<v Speaker 2>I was like getting.

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<v Speaker 1>Really into it.

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<v Speaker 2>I was trying to like show her how to like

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<v Speaker 2>get theatrical and like it's so fun use your project.

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<v Speaker 1>Well that, but also like get quiet and then like

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<v Speaker 1>get loud and like use your over except face. She'll

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<v Speaker 1>expression like just use.

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<v Speaker 2>Your voice to like up the ante and exude emotion

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<v Speaker 2>and so randomly the other day I had this, I

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<v Speaker 2>had this song stuck in my head and I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>why is this song stuck in my head?

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<v Speaker 1>We're in the car and I just put it on.

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<v Speaker 1>It was Grease. Oh I love Greece.

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<v Speaker 2>I got so into it. My daughter was like, can

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<v Speaker 2>we change this? I was like, no, you, this is

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<v Speaker 2>something you need to know. I was like, I've never seen.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, I put a little on early. Yeah, we

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<v Speaker 2>gotta watch Grease now. But I was really empty.

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<v Speaker 1>You better catch up because I need a man, and

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<v Speaker 1>my heart is said on.

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<v Speaker 2>You, you better catch up.

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<v Speaker 1>You bet, I understand. Listen our our suburban white side

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<v Speaker 1>is coming through. Honey. It's a fucking classic. I realized

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<v Speaker 1>that that I got adult, like there was not one

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<v Speaker 1>single black person at the whole high school.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, ari I pee Olivia, Olivia Newton, John fucking

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<v Speaker 2>legend tragedy that she has pass.

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<v Speaker 1>We still got John though, we do have John. We

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<v Speaker 1>do have John. He's epic.

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<v Speaker 2>He's epic.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd love fucking musical theater. He was also in the

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<v Speaker 1>redo of Hairspray, which was a fucking phenomena. So fine,

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<v Speaker 1>he was fine. It was fine as fun.

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<v Speaker 2>Emphasis on was I don't know what he did his face.

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<v Speaker 2>He did a lot of stuff to his face, but

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<v Speaker 2>in the hairline. Is he married to a black woman? Now, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>he's married to uh, what's her name? She's yeah, she's

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<v Speaker 2>an actress too, I'm thinking of And I'm pretty sure

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<v Speaker 2>there's still very much deep into scientologies.

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<v Speaker 1>That's also I think made him unattractive. I think like

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<v Speaker 1>they fucked him over there. It's always interesting everyone that

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<v Speaker 1>joined scientology gets weird looking. It always interests me when

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<v Speaker 1>like top notch celebrity, Not that celebrities can't be stupid,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's like, how did you get got like? I

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<v Speaker 1>would be highly like, I would be highly suspicious if

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<v Speaker 1>I had a lot of money in a religious like

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<v Speaker 1>any religious group was trying to recruit me, get the

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<v Speaker 1>funk away from me.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, they get you when you're low, they get you

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<v Speaker 2>when you're down. They know, Like I mean, like any

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<v Speaker 2>religious have you ever said the episode of of uh,

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<v Speaker 2>what is it?

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<v Speaker 1>South Park? When they explained scientology, I mean, it's yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that's all, That's all I needed to hear. It was like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is stem Have you ever seen the documentary?

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<v Speaker 2>I saw some of it and Leah Remonie, she's like

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<v Speaker 2>a super like she was in it.

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<v Speaker 1>She was young, she was born into basically, and.

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<v Speaker 2>Then she had to get pulled out of it because

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<v Speaker 2>her friend went missing that they still can't find the wife. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>the wife of one of the leaders went missing. And

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<v Speaker 2>she was like this ain't something's not right because no

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<v Speaker 2>one everyone was just kind of acting like it just

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<v Speaker 2>didn't happen, Like this whole person that was her friend

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<v Speaker 2>just didn't disappear off the face of the planet. And

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<v Speaker 2>then she like exposed like the concentration camps they.

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<v Speaker 1>Have, oh, because what do you mean a concentration cam?

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<v Speaker 2>They basically have these these these camps where they send

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<v Speaker 2>people that have like done wrong in the church and

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<v Speaker 2>they have to do like they live there. They basically

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<v Speaker 2>it's a concentration camp. I mean, for lack of a

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<v Speaker 2>better word, but that's kind of what they call them.

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<v Speaker 2>And they have to like scrub toilets with toothbrushes.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Remember Mimi from Love and Hip Hop, she was also

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<v Speaker 2>she got into her mom was in it and she

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<v Speaker 2>got into it scientology, yes, and it fucked her up

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<v Speaker 2>pretty badly.

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<v Speaker 1>She talks about a little bit.

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<v Speaker 2>But Leah Remeny is like a current active, like proponent

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<v Speaker 2>of like exposing scientology. I'm honestly surprised that she's like

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<v Speaker 2>still with us, because they are they'll take you. They're nuts. Listen,

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<v Speaker 2>shout out to Leah Remene. I would love her to

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<v Speaker 2>come on the show. Actually, she's fucking hilarious.

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<v Speaker 1>I do like her.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, yeah, I was thinking about us the other

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<v Speaker 2>day because I was thinking, like Jessica was on talking

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<v Speaker 2>about her cult experience and like I'm always suspicious of

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<v Speaker 2>like a month of cults. Cults.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, I'm obsessed with I'm obsessed with cults.

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<v Speaker 1>Hunh Okay, I'm obsessed with cults because I'm always intrigued

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<v Speaker 1>by like how people can get got, Like I know,

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<v Speaker 1>it's possible. And I know people are always like searching

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<v Speaker 1>and seeking tribe, but I'm so anti like like any

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<v Speaker 1>structured belief system. I'm actually I feel like this is

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<v Speaker 1>my announcement that my religion and it's not only love,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's free thinking. Okay, Jess, In case everybody is wondering,

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<v Speaker 1>my religion is freethinking. Got it? Because anytime someone tries

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<v Speaker 1>to force you to think a certain way, be suspicious.

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<v Speaker 1>Guy here first, I'm gonna turn into the cult think free,

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<v Speaker 1>but even the free thinkers we try to force you

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<v Speaker 1>to do one of them I get. I like, oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, I just said this vision.

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<v Speaker 2>I had this vision of you on the boat in Mexico,

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<v Speaker 2>trying you on Mollie, trying to convince this girl to

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<v Speaker 2>like get out of her shell, and her boyfriend was

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<v Speaker 2>getting so fucking pissed. I didn't make that with him.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no her, Yeah, get my little girl crushed. You

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<v Speaker 2>would not leave her alone, and he was so pissed,

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<v Speaker 2>and you were not reading the room at all.

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<v Speaker 1>You were just like because you just come back from.

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<v Speaker 2>Your like I fucking free like acid trip and you

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<v Speaker 2>were on a motherfucking high. And I was like, bitch,

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<v Speaker 2>if you don't sit the fuck down and leave this

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<v Speaker 2>bitch alone.

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<v Speaker 1>Her boyfriend's gonna beat her after this. Guess what. Guess what,

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<v Speaker 1>they're not together anything, they aren't.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think pretty sure that hold their whole trick

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<v Speaker 2>was ruined because of it was because of us. I

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<v Speaker 2>made out with her. You were trying to like get

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<v Speaker 2>her like I don't know what, you're trying to get

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<v Speaker 2>her naked or like your molly.

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<v Speaker 1>Just half oh.

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<v Speaker 2>And then she took it, and then she was like

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<v Speaker 2>having the worst high ever because her boyfriend was not

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<v Speaker 2>happy and they.

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<v Speaker 1>Were like, bye, I goes around. I'm admit I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>pushy freethinker. If someone looks too wound up when I'm

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<v Speaker 1>on one, I'm like, can you relax? You can take

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<v Speaker 1>off your shoes. That was That was another time I

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<v Speaker 1>know because I I can feel people's energy and I

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<v Speaker 1>know and they need to get free, and sometimes that

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<v Speaker 1>is it. People need to get free and they're resisting

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<v Speaker 1>and I can feel it and it throws my energy off,

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<v Speaker 1>like you gotta get out, you seem to in your head. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I think you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Your retreat leaders has shown you how to massage gently

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<v Speaker 2>people into this space and not like.

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<v Speaker 1>It's dressing me up. Yeah, I've worked on it. I've

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<v Speaker 1>worked on it. I just want people to think for

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<v Speaker 1>themselves and not like through the lens of society and

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<v Speaker 1>like everybody around them. And I just I see, I

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<v Speaker 1>see it happen so often, and people lose themselves and

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<v Speaker 1>I can literally see people thinking in their head too much,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, can you fucking stop stop thinking? But

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<v Speaker 1>also I think about shit overly, and so I get it.

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<v Speaker 1>But you know this is all to say, you guys,

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<v Speaker 1>don't join any cults this year. It's not this year.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe next year consider it, but twenty twenty three is

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<v Speaker 1>not the year to join colts. So the only cult

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<v Speaker 1>you should consider joining is Mila's Freethinking Sanctuary. She won't

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<v Speaker 1>force it on you, but it's fine. Oh god. I yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty judge of like religious structures, but not if

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<v Speaker 1>you're not too pushy. Everyone should just be entitled to

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<v Speaker 1>believe whatever they want to believe. Amen, and no one

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<v Speaker 1>be judgy about it. Amen, including me. Amen. Remember that

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<v Speaker 1>time where you tried to go to church you were

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<v Speaker 1>trying to find Remember remember three years ago.

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<v Speaker 2>When you're on a certain they could have got me

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<v Speaker 2>then I was low. Weren't their eyes weren't peeled open,

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<v Speaker 2>They didn't see that I was struggling.

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<v Speaker 1>No, no, no, I mean it's I believe in church.

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<v Speaker 1>I've had like stints of going to church and like

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<v Speaker 1>I feel the Holy Spirit and all that good stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't know, I get uncomfortable and they start

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<v Speaker 1>asking for money and judging and pointing fingers and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>good and goddamn well everybody in the congregations doing some

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<v Speaker 1>inappropriate shit. You know. I'm like, listen, let's all be real.

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<v Speaker 1>And sometimes when people are like holier than now, they

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<v Speaker 1>are that way because they're judging other people and they're

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<v Speaker 1>judging themselves, and it's just like, just be free.

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<v Speaker 2>It make bad choices publicly like me and Erica.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's true.

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<v Speaker 2>I you know, I think it's at some point in

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<v Speaker 2>the next few years. I got to go back and

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<v Speaker 2>listen to the show from the beginning. I thought about that,

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<v Speaker 2>But honestly, I'm scared why.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I know, I've come a long fucking way.

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<v Speaker 2>We've all, we've both come a long way, and it's just,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I think it's it'll be I mean, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>actually terrified for my child at some point to listen

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<v Speaker 2>to the show.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe she'll ever do it, maybe she'll just totally reject.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm hoping it's just like too long and they're like

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<v Speaker 1>fuck that, likeugh, mom's rich because of that thing she did.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's never listen. That's my hope I am. I'm looking

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<v Speaker 1>at our discord right now. Guys.

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<v Speaker 2>If you're looking on YouTube right now, shout out to

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<v Speaker 2>our YouTube followers and subscribers. Hi, guys, I see you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd be common thing back in the comments. If you're

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<v Speaker 1>It's nice to listen to our voices, but I think

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<v Speaker 1>it's also nice to have a visual experience of good

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<v Speaker 1>mom's bad choices. I'm a visual person, Like, even if

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<v Speaker 1>I listen to someone's voice, I want to like, who

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck is talking? But did I tell you the

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<v Speaker 1>time I was in the bathroom at a restaurant and

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<v Speaker 1>I was talking and someone came out the stall and

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<v Speaker 1>was like, do you have a podcast? Like I not,

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<v Speaker 1>I recognize your voice, but I never seen you. Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god. I was like, oh, I'm in radio. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is me. I do I love that. That was cool,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm curious to see like visuals. So if you

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<v Speaker 1>guys have never seen it.

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<v Speaker 2>We put makeup on for you guys, we do and

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<v Speaker 2>we're kind of fine.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we put makeup on, not kind of like very

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<v Speaker 1>I did my hair, put foam in my hair.

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<v Speaker 2>My braids are on their last their last legs, their

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<v Speaker 2>last days.

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<v Speaker 1>So you know that Nairobi had to hit these fuzzies.

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<v Speaker 1>You know we're about to hit the retreat, so we

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<v Speaker 1>have to change our hairstyles.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, I'm going to reactivate this hair. So I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna let the curls flow for seven days and then

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<v Speaker 2>we're going to wrap this ship back up because the jungle.

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<v Speaker 2>I try to do Costa Rica with my curly hair

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<v Speaker 2>and it was annoying as fuck. So there's a reason

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<v Speaker 2>why black women we get braids on vacation. There's no

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<v Speaker 2>fucking it's just too much. It's too much.

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<v Speaker 1>One day when I stop using creamy crack. When I

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<v Speaker 1>stopped using creamy crack, one day, I'm going to do it.

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<v Speaker 1>But until is that what they call relaxer? Yeah, creamy crack,

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<v Speaker 1>creamy crack, creamy crack. I never heard that. No, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't use relaxer, so I don't know that good.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, you are black, so but I don't know's it

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<v Speaker 2>does never touch relaxer except one.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't have a lot of black friends. That's why

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<v Speaker 1>you have you Always she's always sure to publicly get it.

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<v Speaker 1>It's always like where everyone knows that that's not true.

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<v Speaker 1>Every time we're around some one who doesn't really know.

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<v Speaker 1>She's like jimalism with all the white friends like she is.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm always looking at her. We have all the same

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<v Speaker 1>friend that the wage.

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<v Speaker 2>I really need you to go to YouTube and watch

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<v Speaker 2>how Jamila just said this to me, because it was

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<v Speaker 2>just like.

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<v Speaker 1>Like she can't wait to say you always say.

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't wait. I couldn't wait. I could not wait.

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<v Speaker 2>This is why you don't know popular black terms. You

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<v Speaker 2>don't have enough black friends. Okay, one time, Creamy Crack

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<v Speaker 2>did touch my hair because my aunt my dam my

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<v Speaker 2>black side. She decided she was done dealing with my hair,

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<v Speaker 2>and she put when you were you were there visit?

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<v Speaker 1>I was at my dad's house. Oh no. She was like,

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<v Speaker 1>don't you want your hair to be straight like mine?

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<v Speaker 1>And so easy? Is so easy? Rush?

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<v Speaker 2>And I was like, yeah, I was like eight, and

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<v Speaker 2>I had no idea what she was talking about. I

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<v Speaker 2>thought she was gonna just like straighten it. No, bitch,

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<v Speaker 2>she put relaxer the whole thing. Yes, and then you

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<v Speaker 2>washed relaxed my hair.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, your mom was burning and I was like, what

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<v Speaker 1>did your mom know? Oh? My mom?

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<v Speaker 2>When I got home, my mom first of all cried

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<v Speaker 2>and then I cried because I was so confused. I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't know what I had done wrong, and then she

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<v Speaker 2>cursed her the fuck out.

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<v Speaker 1>My mom permed my hair in the sixth grade while

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<v Speaker 1>my dad was sleeping because he refused.

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<v Speaker 2>He was so anti and bitch. When he woke up,

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<v Speaker 2>he cursed her out so bad.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like ten. I was like eleven, almost going

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<v Speaker 1>to the sixth grade, and I was like, do it,

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<v Speaker 1>do it. I didn't know what the fuck I was

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<v Speaker 1>gonna do.

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<v Speaker 2>It.

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<v Speaker 1>Is like it's gonna be better, do it, But you

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<v Speaker 1>know what, that's the thing like growing up as like

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<v Speaker 1>a black girl among in white spaces that like going

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<v Speaker 1>to the pool was a thing. And then my hair

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<v Speaker 1>fell out because I went to the pool and I

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<v Speaker 1>had like all this hair and it was gone because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm eleven, and who the fuck knows how to maintain

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<v Speaker 1>and chlorine exactly. But I just remember feeling like, what

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck, Why can't I just jump in the pool

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<v Speaker 1>and it be fine? But like those are like I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like those are the type of reasons we kind

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<v Speaker 1>of really have to reinforce like black beauty into our

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<v Speaker 1>black daughters, especially living in the fucking valley and going

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<v Speaker 1>to white schools, because I remember feeling different and just

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<v Speaker 1>wanting to fit in, you know what I mean, And

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<v Speaker 1>it's just like feeling like such a fun I remember

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<v Speaker 1>like dreaming like, please God, why do you make my

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<v Speaker 1>hair so difficult when I need to go to the pool.

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<v Speaker 2>I think growing up in white spaces for me, because I'm.

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<v Speaker 1>Mixed race is what they color.

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<v Speaker 2>After Latina, I think that it was confusing for me

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<v Speaker 2>because it's like sometimes I fit in those spaces and

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<v Speaker 2>then other times it was like you don't fit in

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<v Speaker 2>these spaces, so it was like it was like, oh.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, come in, you're accepted. Oh wait, So I was

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<v Speaker 1>like confusing.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, wait, like my hair doesn't like, my hair's

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<v Speaker 2>fine in water, you know what I'm saying. I can't

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<v Speaker 2>fit into the fucking franky jeans that everyone else is

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<v Speaker 2>wearing or I'm like, it's just like the guy the

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<v Speaker 2>boys don't like me how they like the white girls

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<v Speaker 2>at my school, you know, And I just it was confusing.

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<v Speaker 2>It was really confusing for me as someone who I

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<v Speaker 2>think I'm definitely not white passing, and so there's there's

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<v Speaker 2>just like this confusion I think for girls.

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<v Speaker 1>That are, you know, have mixed race. Yeah, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>even know.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, you see how I'm getting awkward talking about

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know why I don't call myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know why I hate the word mixed race

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<v Speaker 1>so much. Maybe because everyone's mixed in some capacity.

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<v Speaker 2>And also I think black people specifically use it as

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<v Speaker 2>a way to feel like cool sometimes.

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<v Speaker 1>Like oh I'm mixed. I'm like, bitch, you are black,

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<v Speaker 1>Like like I feel like sometimes black people think that mixed, well,

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<v Speaker 1>it's brainwashed to believe, like when.

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<v Speaker 2>You say mixed like black, Like we want to always

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<v Speaker 2>let people know, especially like we're happening to having a

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<v Speaker 2>conversation at the gym the other day and my trainer

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<v Speaker 2>was like, oh, that's because you light skin, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, see why we do that? Like stop, He's like,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't know you had that in you because you're light.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, what the fuck does that happen to mean?

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<v Speaker 1>Like, like, what were you talking like in reference to

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<v Speaker 1>what like what something you did? Like you bucked up? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>bucked up? And he was like, Oh, I didn't know

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<v Speaker 1>you had that in you. And I'm like, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's like, but I think even black people

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<v Speaker 1>doing that to each other is a like, is something

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<v Speaker 1>that we're used to doing because colorism exists in blackness.

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<v Speaker 1>But I think that's the same reason people say shit

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<v Speaker 1>like mix. I'm well, people, like I think people not

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<v Speaker 1>that people aren't mixed and can't use that word. Obviously

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<v Speaker 1>that exists. I feel like as black people because of

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<v Speaker 1>fucking slavery, like we're all mixed in some way. But

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like, because we've been brainwashed to believe that

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<v Speaker 1>like any standard of beauty that's closer to European standard

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<v Speaker 1>is more beautiful, that people use it as a like

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<v Speaker 1>one up, not realizing that it just sounds ignorant and

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<v Speaker 1>self hating. And I realized that's not reasons why all

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<v Speaker 1>people use it. But like even our friends of like

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<v Speaker 1>mixed kids, I'm like, God, just call them, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, the thing is is like, we can't win really

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<v Speaker 2>because mixed triggers people.

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<v Speaker 1>But then when we say we're black, it triggers people. Really. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>they be like, you're not.

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<v Speaker 2>All, you're not black because they want to put us

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<v Speaker 2>in a.

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<v Speaker 1>Box in our blackness. I feel like if if if

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<v Speaker 1>a mixed black person doesn't identify it with black, like

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<v Speaker 1>say I'm black, I think.

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<v Speaker 2>That's weird because if I don't know what creamy crack is,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't I'm not that black.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I'm not saying that to you, but I'm just.

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<v Speaker 2>Saying, but but to some people because I maybe I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know some person like who is mix of mixed

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<v Speaker 2>race may not know all the lingos in a particular like,

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<v Speaker 2>I just feel like you you're.

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<v Speaker 1>Damned if you do, You're damned if you don't. A

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<v Speaker 1>lot of times I think, if you're black, you're black,

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<v Speaker 1>and you think that I do. I do.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just saying I do think that, But that is

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<v Speaker 2>not the case in the general population of blackness. I

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<v Speaker 2>generally feel like black people are accepting of all black people.

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<v Speaker 1>You think that because you don't have to know. I

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<v Speaker 1>just think that black people are or are the warmer,

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<v Speaker 1>more welcoming race, I say, you're you're gonna be less

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<v Speaker 1>likely to be disowned by your black family members versus

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just.

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<v Speaker 2>Gonna tell you, Mela, because you are a dark skinned

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<v Speaker 2>black woman, you deal with your own set of things

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<v Speaker 2>being a darks and black woman. True, and as a

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<v Speaker 2>light skin black woman, I deal with my own set

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<v Speaker 2>of things, and generally I'm constantly reminded about my lack

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<v Speaker 2>of blackness.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's something you don't ever experience. Well obviously not

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm black. So that's what I'm saying. So you

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<v Speaker 1>say generally even still like talking this way or going

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<v Speaker 1>to certain being in certain areas, liking certain music. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>like if I go to Philly or I'm in Atlanta

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<v Speaker 1>and I say certain things, or like oh why do

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<v Speaker 1>you talk like this? Or like not like obviously my appearance,

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm a black woman, there's no denying that. But

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<v Speaker 1>I've I have been told and I'm sure you too,

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<v Speaker 1>not just because you're light skin, but like oh, like

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<v Speaker 1>oh you're like grease, Like what the fuck are you

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<v Speaker 1>doing singing Greece? Or blink when I need too or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>There's like there's always all these rules. It are surrounded

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<v Speaker 1>about just about race period. It's particularly blackness sensitivity because

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<v Speaker 1>our history is sensitive in this place. So I think,

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<v Speaker 1>like you, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Every every aspect of blackness comes with things, you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean, whether you're mixed, while you're light skin,

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<v Speaker 2>whether you're darkin, whether you're a woman, whether you're a man,

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<v Speaker 2>like there are all these sensitivities around being black and

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<v Speaker 2>all these things because it hasn't always been easy to

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<v Speaker 2>just be black or like you know, all just like

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<v Speaker 2>all these variations of blackness, there's these rules about how

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<v Speaker 2>you can be black or if you know this word,

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<v Speaker 2>or if you eat this food or if you listen

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<v Speaker 2>to this music, when in a word, you've had this experience, right, like,

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<v Speaker 2>just because you didn't grow up in the hood doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>mean you're not black, you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>Or if I talk like this properly, then I'm not black.

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<v Speaker 2>But like I experience that too, but in obviously a

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<v Speaker 2>different way than your experience was.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean. And it's interesting because obviously we grew up

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<v Speaker 1>in the same area and mostly white spaces, and we've

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<v Speaker 1>probably had like some similar experiences with being the only

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<v Speaker 1>black person in certain spaces and some that are very different,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, So even amongst our own people for sure.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and fucking family members too, absolutely, So I have

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<v Speaker 2>to check friends all the time, like, bit.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'm sure. I'm sure some like some white friends

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<v Speaker 1>probably think they can get away of saying certain shit

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<v Speaker 1>to you and vice versa. And I've had people say

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<v Speaker 1>shit to me. I'm like, why did you feel? And

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<v Speaker 1>I know that it's just ignorance in general, and that

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<v Speaker 1>goes on black for black folks and white folks. I

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<v Speaker 1>told you we were. I was in the sushi restaurant.

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<v Speaker 1>I met a new friend and I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, we're talking about great hairs. First, I need

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<v Speaker 1>to stop meeting new friends. And I was like, oh,

0:20:25.080 --> 0:20:27.080
<v Speaker 1>I dye my hair black because my hair is really light.

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<v Speaker 1>And she's like, that's so interesting that you have this

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<v Speaker 1>like exotic hair and you choose to diet black, like

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<v Speaker 1>like if most black girls don't have like that exotic look.

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<v Speaker 2>And I was just like exotic hair. And I literally

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<v Speaker 2>knew her for like ten minutes. I was like, why

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<v Speaker 2>the I don't there's certain words that trigger me. I

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<v Speaker 2>think you need to define what friend means. You need

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<v Speaker 2>to tighten that up a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>Just a lady I've met in the sushi rests. Tighten up,

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<v Speaker 1>You're right, I do. Everyone's my friend, not really.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, Well, that is our colourism rent for the show. Guys,

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<v Speaker 2>We're going to move on to the next segment.

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<v Speaker 1>People have been dying for us to have that argument,

0:21:05.880 --> 0:21:07.960
<v Speaker 1>but we got it out. Remember someone asked us if

0:21:07.960 --> 0:21:12.760
<v Speaker 1>we've experienced, like, do we experience prejudice because you're light

0:21:12.800 --> 0:21:15.000
<v Speaker 1>skinned and I'm dark skinned? Yeah, I was like what.

0:21:15.920 --> 0:21:17.560
<v Speaker 1>I was like, No, I don't think maybe, but we

0:21:17.560 --> 0:21:21.040
<v Speaker 1>were too for we were too dumb to notice it.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Anyway, So I was in our discord. I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>if anyone has joined our discord yet. If you don't

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<v Speaker 2>know what discord is, it's a platform where we chat.

0:21:35.880 --> 0:21:37.880
<v Speaker 2>It's like a chat room. It's like the ultimate chat

0:21:37.960 --> 0:21:40.199
<v Speaker 2>room with different channels. We have all different channels. We

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<v Speaker 2>have one for affirmations or people share affirmations. We have

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<v Speaker 2>one for horries or people share horse stories. We have

0:21:45.000 --> 0:21:47.879
<v Speaker 2>one where we pipe each other up on successes. If

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<v Speaker 2>you're joining our retreat in Costa Rica, which is happening,

0:21:53.520 --> 0:21:55.880
<v Speaker 2>we have private channels for our retreaties where we are

0:21:55.920 --> 0:22:00.359
<v Speaker 2>bonding and sharing and talking, but I went into our

0:22:00.400 --> 0:22:03.200
<v Speaker 2>discord today because I felt like I wanted to share

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<v Speaker 2>an affirmation from the tribe.

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<v Speaker 1>So today's affirmation is abundance is coming.

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<v Speaker 2>I deserve it and accept it. And this is from

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<v Speaker 2>Jess Marie, So shout out to jefs Marie.

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<v Speaker 1>Abundance is coming. I deserve it and accept it.

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<v Speaker 2>I deserve it and accept it. Yes, yes, And I

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<v Speaker 2>feel that I feel like I'm already in abundance, but

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<v Speaker 2>more and more is coming. And I've just been really

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<v Speaker 2>trying to focus on thinking positively in January because I

0:22:37.240 --> 0:22:39.359
<v Speaker 2>feel like over the last few months I've been in

0:22:39.440 --> 0:22:42.720
<v Speaker 2>and out of this space and just like worrying, worrying, stress, stressed,

0:22:42.760 --> 0:22:46.440
<v Speaker 2>and just like thankfully, like I think I'm in such

0:22:46.440 --> 0:22:47.960
<v Speaker 2>flow of my life that I haven't like a lot

0:22:47.960 --> 0:22:51.000
<v Speaker 2>of bad things haven't been invited into my space. But

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<v Speaker 2>this year, I really really want to fight hard to

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<v Speaker 2>be a positive thinker because I can be sited in

0:23:00.560 --> 0:23:02.280
<v Speaker 2>my car all day just talking shit and I'm just

0:23:02.320 --> 0:23:03.359
<v Speaker 2>worrying what if this hasn't happened?

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<v Speaker 1>With this has happening? Do this? Do we do this?

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<v Speaker 1>Do we do that? Do we do that?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>My god, we didn't do this. She didn't do this.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't do this, We didn't do this, didn't do this.

0:23:09.040 --> 0:23:12.199
<v Speaker 1>I'm just like, bitch, stop. Well. I think, like what

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<v Speaker 1>like when you.

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<v Speaker 2>When you like achieve a lot of things, like like

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<v Speaker 2>we have in a short period of time and manifested

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of things, you don't think about the like

0:23:22.359 --> 0:23:25.840
<v Speaker 2>maintenance that it requires and the anxiety that comes with

0:23:25.920 --> 0:23:28.080
<v Speaker 2>the maintenance, you know, because sometimes I'm like, this is what.

0:23:28.000 --> 0:23:34.080
<v Speaker 1>We dreamed of, and I'm like, is it you know?

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<v Speaker 1>And of course it is. But like it when you

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<v Speaker 1>when you manifest things, it doesn't come with necessarily like

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<v Speaker 1>a manual, you know. And like we've worked so hard

0:23:45.320 --> 0:23:50.679
<v Speaker 1>on like working on all of these things that you

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<v Speaker 1>don't really learn how to like mentally your mental capacity

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<v Speaker 1>to keep up with it. And I do. I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like this year is really going to be dedicated to

0:23:58.320 --> 0:24:02.520
<v Speaker 1>us dedicating the time to have the mental capacity to

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<v Speaker 1>be present in it and without the anxiety of it

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<v Speaker 1>like disappearing or like upkeeping it, because it does come

0:24:08.920 --> 0:24:10.960
<v Speaker 1>with a lot of anxiety. So I think it requires

0:24:10.960 --> 0:24:13.080
<v Speaker 1>that we like do a lot of like spiritual and

0:24:13.119 --> 0:24:18.359
<v Speaker 1>mental exercise to just maintain it all without it being

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<v Speaker 1>super stressful.

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<v Speaker 2>I love that you said the maintenance of it. I've

0:24:23.119 --> 0:24:26.080
<v Speaker 2>never really like viewed it as that, but it really is.

0:24:26.200 --> 0:24:27.560
<v Speaker 1>There is like a maintenance.

0:24:27.600 --> 0:24:31.040
<v Speaker 2>There's spiritual maintenance, there's which you know, there's maintenance of

0:24:31.160 --> 0:24:35.359
<v Speaker 2>your life in general, personal physical maintenance. But I think,

0:24:35.400 --> 0:24:41.200
<v Speaker 2>like the spiritual maintenance is so important to keep inviting

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<v Speaker 2>in the things that you're asking.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, your mental health, Yeah, and like your mental health

0:24:45.560 --> 0:24:48.240
<v Speaker 1>is a direct reflection of how you manifest and like

0:24:48.280 --> 0:24:50.680
<v Speaker 1>how open you are and how like optimistic you are,

0:24:50.720 --> 0:24:52.280
<v Speaker 1>and how inviting you are of the things. If you're

0:24:52.280 --> 0:24:56.000
<v Speaker 1>constantly in a state of anxiety or like worry, then

0:24:56.080 --> 0:24:59.000
<v Speaker 1>it's not going to flow easily. So like I think

0:24:59.040 --> 0:25:02.200
<v Speaker 1>in the beginning of this proble, we were just like.

0:25:02.600 --> 0:25:05.320
<v Speaker 2>La la la la, la la la, I'm fucking nep

0:25:05.359 --> 0:25:07.320
<v Speaker 2>and I'm healing, you know what I mean.

0:25:07.480 --> 0:25:10.119
<v Speaker 1>Like it was just like a it was like a

0:25:10.320 --> 0:25:12.720
<v Speaker 1>it wasn't that intentional, It wasn't that intentional. It was

0:25:12.720 --> 0:25:14.879
<v Speaker 1>a hobby and there wasn't a lot of pressure. But

0:25:15.040 --> 0:25:18.840
<v Speaker 1>now as the pressure, like as it's less of a hobby,

0:25:19.720 --> 0:25:24.040
<v Speaker 1>it's it's more to maintain, and it's like it's scary

0:25:24.119 --> 0:25:26.080
<v Speaker 1>because you know, like, obviously you come from a background

0:25:26.080 --> 0:25:30.919
<v Speaker 1>where your mom's like a super professional like mogul, but

0:25:31.080 --> 0:25:34.040
<v Speaker 1>like that doesn't necessarily mean we've been given the tools

0:25:34.080 --> 0:25:36.560
<v Speaker 1>to like know how to run our own business or

0:25:36.640 --> 0:25:39.600
<v Speaker 1>like be a business professional. And obviously we are and

0:25:39.760 --> 0:25:42.560
<v Speaker 1>we've grown and we were like maturing into this role,

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<v Speaker 1>but like it's scary when you don't you like, I

0:25:46.560 --> 0:25:49.320
<v Speaker 1>didn't go to fucking business school, which I dropped out,

0:25:49.720 --> 0:25:53.560
<v Speaker 1>you know, and it's just like and it's all on

0:25:53.600 --> 0:25:55.760
<v Speaker 1>you and you don't necessarily feel like you've been given

0:25:55.880 --> 0:25:57.800
<v Speaker 1>like the lesson plan to know how to keep up

0:25:57.800 --> 0:26:03.560
<v Speaker 1>with everything, And so there are self doubting thoughts that

0:26:03.840 --> 0:26:08.000
<v Speaker 1>obviously are untrue because we're here. But it's just like

0:26:08.040 --> 0:26:10.520
<v Speaker 1>how do you eliminate those the higher you get in

0:26:10.560 --> 0:26:14.440
<v Speaker 1>your you know, your life. No, it's true. I think

0:26:16.280 --> 0:26:18.240
<v Speaker 1>I think there is a level of.

0:26:20.200 --> 0:26:22.160
<v Speaker 2>Faking it till you make it that has that has

0:26:22.240 --> 0:26:25.760
<v Speaker 2>that has happened, and even in our business of like

0:26:27.160 --> 0:26:29.480
<v Speaker 2>it's faking it. But I knew that if we just

0:26:30.040 --> 0:26:33.200
<v Speaker 2>set it and wrote it down, eventually it would be true.

0:26:33.280 --> 0:26:36.080
<v Speaker 2>And I believed that and then it was and I've

0:26:36.119 --> 0:26:38.840
<v Speaker 2>just kept doing that over and over and over again.

0:26:39.080 --> 0:26:41.680
<v Speaker 2>And it's been true in my business, it's been true

0:26:41.680 --> 0:26:43.600
<v Speaker 2>in my personal life, it's been true in you know,

0:26:43.760 --> 0:26:47.119
<v Speaker 2>just pretty much all aspects of my life. And like

0:26:47.160 --> 0:26:49.840
<v Speaker 2>approaching my problems instead of like looking up at them

0:26:49.840 --> 0:26:52.320
<v Speaker 2>and trying to look down on them so that they

0:26:52.320 --> 0:26:54.520
<v Speaker 2>don't feel so overbearing.

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<v Speaker 1>That's a good way to look at it, you know,

0:26:56.640 --> 0:26:56.960
<v Speaker 1>and like.

0:26:56.960 --> 0:27:00.800
<v Speaker 2>Looking down and saying, okay, like I can see everything here,

0:27:01.200 --> 0:27:04.880
<v Speaker 2>like what is what is my What I've been trying

0:27:04.880 --> 0:27:09.280
<v Speaker 2>to do lately is think about, in my perfect scenario,

0:27:09.600 --> 0:27:12.800
<v Speaker 2>what would the outcome be, not like what is the

0:27:12.840 --> 0:27:14.919
<v Speaker 2>bad outcome? Because I think that's all a lot of

0:27:14.960 --> 0:27:18.040
<v Speaker 2>times where my mind goes the case the worst case

0:27:18.080 --> 0:27:21.639
<v Speaker 2>scenario instead of like the best case scenario. And so

0:27:21.720 --> 0:27:24.440
<v Speaker 2>when you are constantly thinking about the worst case scenario,

0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:28.840
<v Speaker 2>and granted, like I've always said, I'm a realist and

0:27:29.200 --> 0:27:32.560
<v Speaker 2>you know, I've been pondering that idea too, and thinking

0:27:32.640 --> 0:27:36.439
<v Speaker 2>like is being a realist actually negative self talk? Like

0:27:36.520 --> 0:27:39.000
<v Speaker 2>when you are a realist and saying.

0:27:38.680 --> 0:27:41.040
<v Speaker 1>Like, well, I'm just real about it, like realistically, is

0:27:41.080 --> 0:27:43.879
<v Speaker 1>that really going to happen? Actually? It is? Being a

0:27:43.920 --> 0:27:48.159
<v Speaker 1>realist is being pessimistic because realistically is not where we

0:27:48.160 --> 0:27:51.400
<v Speaker 1>should be thinking. I mean shit, like we didn't realistically

0:27:51.440 --> 0:27:53.359
<v Speaker 1>think to get here like we were but not really

0:27:53.720 --> 0:27:55.919
<v Speaker 1>and all the shit happened. And it's like had we

0:27:56.000 --> 0:27:59.639
<v Speaker 1>been thinking overly thinking to realistic and it wouldn't have

0:27:59.720 --> 0:28:01.919
<v Speaker 1>probably manifested this way we were like I don't know,

0:28:02.040 --> 0:28:03.240
<v Speaker 1>but that would be nice.

0:28:03.400 --> 0:28:05.960
<v Speaker 2>Like so like what if like instead of you deciding

0:28:05.960 --> 0:28:09.160
<v Speaker 2>that you're a realist, like you are a dreamist I mean,

0:28:09.160 --> 0:28:11.399
<v Speaker 2>for lack of a better word, and like you just

0:28:11.560 --> 0:28:15.639
<v Speaker 2>dream about the best possible outcome, the best possible scenario,

0:28:15.920 --> 0:28:18.520
<v Speaker 2>Like what does that look like? Instead of like the

0:28:18.560 --> 0:28:21.639
<v Speaker 2>worst possible outcome? And granted, I think there is some

0:28:21.680 --> 0:28:24.840
<v Speaker 2>realism that has to happen in ways, but.

0:28:25.400 --> 0:28:26.439
<v Speaker 1>Overall maybe not.

0:28:26.760 --> 0:28:28.920
<v Speaker 2>And I think that's kind of like what I'm realizing

0:28:29.200 --> 0:28:31.520
<v Speaker 2>at this like in the season of my life and

0:28:31.640 --> 0:28:35.520
<v Speaker 2>just this month and over the last thirty days, I

0:28:35.520 --> 0:28:37.479
<v Speaker 2>feel like lately I've just been like going through kind

0:28:37.520 --> 0:28:43.040
<v Speaker 2>of a bit of a transformation personally, and it's been

0:28:43.040 --> 0:28:46.640
<v Speaker 2>feeling like I'm like, Okay, the way my mind has

0:28:46.680 --> 0:28:50.920
<v Speaker 2>been like moving through manifesting and inviting things in is working,

0:28:51.080 --> 0:28:58.520
<v Speaker 2>but like I'm still feel anxious, i still feel worried.

0:28:59.120 --> 0:29:02.160
<v Speaker 2>There's still negative self talk, So like how do I

0:29:02.160 --> 0:29:04.840
<v Speaker 2>eliminate those things so that things come even more rapidly

0:29:04.840 --> 0:29:07.040
<v Speaker 2>towards me? And a part of that is I think

0:29:07.160 --> 0:29:11.200
<v Speaker 2>like kind of like letting the realist and me die.

0:29:12.640 --> 0:29:12.800
<v Speaker 1>Well.

0:29:12.840 --> 0:29:19.000
<v Speaker 2>I think like the like the realism the realist. It's

0:29:18.520 --> 0:29:22.400
<v Speaker 2>the unfortunate part of like human nature and of like

0:29:22.440 --> 0:29:23.960
<v Speaker 2>the society in which we live in.

0:29:24.000 --> 0:29:30.280
<v Speaker 1>Is that realism only gives you space to dream as

0:29:30.360 --> 0:29:33.960
<v Speaker 1>much of you as you experienced. So if I'm being realistic,

0:29:34.080 --> 0:29:34.480
<v Speaker 1>that's true.

0:29:34.560 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Realistically, you know, I've never had the number one,

0:29:38.880 --> 0:29:42.120
<v Speaker 2>like a number one podcast in the world, so like

0:29:42.240 --> 0:29:44.520
<v Speaker 2>why that realistically? Why would I think that that's something

0:29:44.560 --> 0:29:46.720
<v Speaker 2>that I can do? Like realistically, I'm looking at the

0:29:46.800 --> 0:29:48.880
<v Speaker 2>charts and there's forty five people in front of me,

0:29:49.000 --> 0:29:52.000
<v Speaker 2>So realistically, like it's going to take this amount of months,

0:29:52.040 --> 0:29:54.240
<v Speaker 2>this amount of work, this amount of guests, you know.

0:29:54.240 --> 0:29:57.560
<v Speaker 1>Like all these things. Realistically, I don't know Sean King Realistically,

0:29:57.560 --> 0:29:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't know mel Robins, So like, how is Erkama

0:30:00.080 --> 0:30:02.560
<v Speaker 1>and be on my show? You know, like realistically, if

0:30:02.600 --> 0:30:05.720
<v Speaker 1>I've only seen my parents struggle in a marriage, or

0:30:05.720 --> 0:30:09.400
<v Speaker 1>I've only seen a house this big realistically, I can't

0:30:09.480 --> 0:30:12.000
<v Speaker 1>dream that big. But that is the whole point of

0:30:12.120 --> 0:30:17.920
<v Speaker 1>not thinking realistically because it caps at your human experience

0:30:17.960 --> 0:30:20.040
<v Speaker 1>that you've had up to that point, and it does

0:30:20.160 --> 0:30:23.800
<v Speaker 1>require that you get out of your personal experiences to

0:30:23.880 --> 0:30:27.239
<v Speaker 1>actually obtain things that you've never experienced before. And if

0:30:27.240 --> 0:30:29.800
<v Speaker 1>you're constantly thinking that those things are impossible because you've

0:30:29.800 --> 0:30:32.040
<v Speaker 1>never seen them, it won't happen, you know, like I've

0:30:32.080 --> 0:30:34.560
<v Speaker 1>never fucking climbed Mount Everest. I can't do that, but

0:30:35.280 --> 0:30:38.480
<v Speaker 1>I could. And the truth is, the realism is that

0:30:38.560 --> 0:30:42.000
<v Speaker 1>anything that you want to achieve, you can if you

0:30:42.080 --> 0:30:46.120
<v Speaker 1>realistically understand that your experiences are limited and your mind

0:30:46.160 --> 0:30:48.560
<v Speaker 1>will limit you. And in fact, you have to step

0:30:48.600 --> 0:30:54.360
<v Speaker 1>out of that, like the confinement of your experiences and

0:30:54.400 --> 0:30:58.040
<v Speaker 1>go beyond that, because our dreams are much larger than

0:30:58.080 --> 0:31:00.480
<v Speaker 1>the experiences we've had up till now, and they will

0:31:00.520 --> 0:31:03.960
<v Speaker 1>continue to expand as long as you're able to see

0:31:04.000 --> 0:31:06.320
<v Speaker 1>that vision. And a lot of times our visions are

0:31:06.360 --> 0:31:09.920
<v Speaker 1>limited to our real experiences, and that is really not real.

0:31:10.680 --> 0:31:14.240
<v Speaker 1>It's true, you know. That's that's You're right. You have

0:31:14.320 --> 0:31:15.520
<v Speaker 1>to not be so realistic.

0:31:15.880 --> 0:31:20.320
<v Speaker 2>You got to be kind of like like huge, you know,

0:31:23.000 --> 0:31:25.120
<v Speaker 2>you have to be huge, and you have to like

0:31:25.360 --> 0:31:30.400
<v Speaker 2>cease comparison, Like I feel like comparison is often like

0:31:30.640 --> 0:31:36.960
<v Speaker 2>the stealer of all joy, you know, and looking at

0:31:37.000 --> 0:31:40.320
<v Speaker 2>someone else's version of whatever they're they've attained or whatever

0:31:40.320 --> 0:31:44.360
<v Speaker 2>they're of accomplishing and then comparing it to yourself can

0:31:44.440 --> 0:31:48.440
<v Speaker 2>feel can make that realism come in even harder, Like oh,

0:31:48.600 --> 0:31:50.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm not as beautiful as her, or I don't have

0:31:51.120 --> 0:31:53.560
<v Speaker 2>the husband, so that's why my life doesn't look like this,

0:31:54.000 --> 0:31:56.440
<v Speaker 2>or you know, I didn't go to college, so therefore

0:31:56.600 --> 0:31:58.040
<v Speaker 2>I can't get that job.

0:31:58.360 --> 0:32:00.440
<v Speaker 1>Oh she has this per like she has this parent

0:32:00.560 --> 0:32:03.440
<v Speaker 1>or this financial backing, so that's why she's there and

0:32:03.480 --> 0:32:06.520
<v Speaker 1>I can't do that. Yeah, it's like immediately counting yourself

0:32:06.520 --> 0:32:10.760
<v Speaker 1>out of an experience because you can't visualize yourself there.

0:32:10.800 --> 0:32:14.160
<v Speaker 1>But like that is how you get there, by visualizing

0:32:14.160 --> 0:32:16.840
<v Speaker 1>yourself in that space and believing that you were capable

0:32:16.840 --> 0:32:19.480
<v Speaker 1>of doing it, not because you get this husband or

0:32:19.480 --> 0:32:21.240
<v Speaker 1>you get this thing. It's just like I know I

0:32:21.240 --> 0:32:23.080
<v Speaker 1>can do that too. I don't give a fuck that

0:32:23.120 --> 0:32:25.280
<v Speaker 1>you came from here. I came from there. But I

0:32:25.320 --> 0:32:28.080
<v Speaker 1>am capable of also being in that space. I can

0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:29.000
<v Speaker 1>see myself there.

0:32:29.800 --> 0:32:33.160
<v Speaker 2>Yeah that and also like not negative, not negatively self

0:32:33.240 --> 0:32:37.040
<v Speaker 2>talking that person's experience too, because I think that's also

0:32:37.080 --> 0:32:37.719
<v Speaker 2>to what happens.

0:32:37.760 --> 0:32:41.320
<v Speaker 1>And you're like, fuck her. She got some my nerves like.

0:32:41.040 --> 0:32:43.040
<v Speaker 2>Like why could your joy cause she's doing.

0:32:42.880 --> 0:32:47.000
<v Speaker 1>Something you didn't do yet it's true, I mean you can,

0:32:47.040 --> 0:32:48.800
<v Speaker 1>I've done it. You can absolutely get caught up and

0:32:48.920 --> 0:32:52.440
<v Speaker 1>like why is this bitch succeeding in this? Because you're

0:32:52.440 --> 0:32:55.080
<v Speaker 1>too focused on the wrong shit. So I was.

0:32:55.000 --> 0:32:57.320
<v Speaker 2>Looking online and I was or I was on Instagram

0:32:57.320 --> 0:33:00.640
<v Speaker 2>and I saw this. I saved this in my whatever

0:33:00.720 --> 0:33:02.920
<v Speaker 2>saved fold or whatever they call it over there and

0:33:03.320 --> 0:33:06.800
<v Speaker 2>the archives, and it was I don't even know if

0:33:06.840 --> 0:33:09.560
<v Speaker 2>this is a true I don't know if this is true,

0:33:09.600 --> 0:33:12.840
<v Speaker 2>but it spoke to me and it's the twelve laws

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<v Speaker 2>of karma. And I feel like karma for me is

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<v Speaker 2>directly in some ways linked.

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<v Speaker 1>To how.

0:33:23.600 --> 0:33:26.920
<v Speaker 2>How how you're able to call in the things you

0:33:26.960 --> 0:33:29.239
<v Speaker 2>want in your life, like how you treat people, how

0:33:29.320 --> 0:33:33.280
<v Speaker 2>you talk about people, acts of service, all these things. Anyway,

0:33:33.720 --> 0:33:36.640
<v Speaker 2>So the first one was is the great law and

0:33:36.680 --> 0:33:38.520
<v Speaker 2>it's whatever we put into the universe will come back

0:33:38.520 --> 0:33:42.800
<v Speaker 2>to us, which I agree. The second was the law

0:33:42.840 --> 0:33:45.880
<v Speaker 2>of creation. Life does not happen by itself. We need

0:33:45.920 --> 0:33:49.480
<v Speaker 2>to make it happen, which again is for me. And

0:33:49.560 --> 0:33:52.880
<v Speaker 2>manifesting is the action you put behind you know, whatever

0:33:53.040 --> 0:33:55.840
<v Speaker 2>is that you're dreaming big about. The law of humility.

0:33:55.840 --> 0:33:58.600
<v Speaker 2>One must accept something in order to change it. So

0:33:58.640 --> 0:34:02.800
<v Speaker 2>instead of fighting against whatever is, just accepting it and

0:34:02.840 --> 0:34:05.720
<v Speaker 2>moving through it so that you can have space to

0:34:07.000 --> 0:34:08.439
<v Speaker 2>have whatever it is the fuck that you want.

0:34:09.719 --> 0:34:11.359
<v Speaker 1>The law of growth, which is number four.

0:34:11.360 --> 0:34:14.200
<v Speaker 2>When when we change ourselves, our lives follow suit and

0:34:14.280 --> 0:34:14.919
<v Speaker 2>change too.

0:34:15.760 --> 0:34:18.920
<v Speaker 1>We can't stay the same. We can't. It's not possible.

0:34:18.960 --> 0:34:22.080
<v Speaker 1>I mean we can. People do it every day. Your

0:34:22.120 --> 0:34:23.239
<v Speaker 1>circumstances won't change.

0:34:23.280 --> 0:34:27.320
<v Speaker 2>They're miserable. The law of responsibility. We must take responsibility

0:34:27.360 --> 0:34:30.000
<v Speaker 2>for what is in our lives. So like, hey, like

0:34:30.200 --> 0:34:33.560
<v Speaker 2>my situation is fucked up because I've made these choices,

0:34:34.160 --> 0:34:38.319
<v Speaker 2>and not blaming other people for your choices. Number six

0:34:38.400 --> 0:34:40.839
<v Speaker 2>the law of connection. The past, present, and future are

0:34:40.880 --> 0:34:44.279
<v Speaker 2>all connected. The law of focus. We cannot think of

0:34:44.320 --> 0:34:46.240
<v Speaker 2>two different things at the same time.

0:34:47.400 --> 0:34:49.960
<v Speaker 1>To pitch, I don't know if I'm messed with that one.

0:34:50.520 --> 0:34:53.800
<v Speaker 2>That's hard because I'd be thinking of twenty two different

0:34:53.800 --> 0:34:55.600
<v Speaker 2>things at one time, and that forgot the first thing.

0:34:56.160 --> 0:34:57.040
<v Speaker 1>We just did that in there.

0:34:59.440 --> 0:35:03.080
<v Speaker 2>Eight The law of giving and hospitality. Our behavior should

0:35:03.120 --> 0:35:06.680
<v Speaker 2>match our thoughts and actions. The law of here and now.

0:35:06.719 --> 0:35:10.799
<v Speaker 2>We cannot be present if we are looking backwards. Ten

0:35:11.000 --> 0:35:15.719
<v Speaker 2>the law of change. History repeats itself until we learn

0:35:15.760 --> 0:35:19.280
<v Speaker 2>from it and change our path. The law of patience

0:35:19.320 --> 0:35:23.839
<v Speaker 2>and reward. The most valuable rewards require persistence, and then

0:35:23.920 --> 0:35:25.960
<v Speaker 2>it's just the last one, the last. The law of

0:35:26.000 --> 0:35:30.080
<v Speaker 2>significance and inspiration. Rewards are a results of the energy

0:35:30.120 --> 0:35:31.640
<v Speaker 2>and effort we put into it.

0:35:33.160 --> 0:35:37.200
<v Speaker 1>Like thinking of karma reminds me of this episode we

0:35:37.239 --> 0:35:39.920
<v Speaker 1>did with the second episode we did with Beleja and

0:35:39.960 --> 0:35:44.120
<v Speaker 1>her husband called Mama's an Opener Marriage, I think, and

0:35:44.239 --> 0:35:46.400
<v Speaker 1>her husband like said something so profound and it's not

0:35:46.520 --> 0:35:48.440
<v Speaker 1>like that profound, but most things that are profound are

0:35:48.480 --> 0:35:51.320
<v Speaker 1>not that like are super simple. And he was just saying,

0:35:51.440 --> 0:35:55.160
<v Speaker 1>how you know, like basically she was seeing someone and

0:35:55.200 --> 0:35:58.279
<v Speaker 1>he was just like getting at him, like just like

0:35:58.560 --> 0:36:01.480
<v Speaker 1>just making it up about him because he realized there

0:36:01.480 --> 0:36:03.759
<v Speaker 1>were things in him that he was doing, and like

0:36:03.840 --> 0:36:06.320
<v Speaker 1>things in the person he was like talking shit about

0:36:06.360 --> 0:36:09.399
<v Speaker 1>that he was denying in himself and that was why

0:36:09.440 --> 0:36:11.640
<v Speaker 1>he was spewing these things like oh that what he's

0:36:11.640 --> 0:36:13.640
<v Speaker 1>doing is whack, Like, oh, that's stupid, but it's like

0:36:13.640 --> 0:36:15.600
<v Speaker 1>because he was too scared to go on a women

0:36:15.600 --> 0:36:17.920
<v Speaker 1>and try certain things or you know what I mean.

0:36:17.960 --> 0:36:19.400
<v Speaker 1>And I just realized when he said that, like it

0:36:19.400 --> 0:36:21.319
<v Speaker 1>always stuck with me because it's like a lot of

0:36:21.360 --> 0:36:24.120
<v Speaker 1>the times, the things that bother us in people are

0:36:24.120 --> 0:36:27.160
<v Speaker 1>things that we haven't given ourselves permission to explore because

0:36:27.160 --> 0:36:29.360
<v Speaker 1>we were like judging ourselves like we're gonna look stupid

0:36:29.440 --> 0:36:31.080
<v Speaker 1>or you don't know about this, or like that's them,

0:36:31.280 --> 0:36:33.719
<v Speaker 1>you know, and like that negative self talk. But it's

0:36:33.760 --> 0:36:36.600
<v Speaker 1>just like you have to like the energy that you

0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:38.960
<v Speaker 1>put out. That karma is real, and it's usually it

0:36:39.000 --> 0:36:41.960
<v Speaker 1>starts with how you're treating yourself and then you project

0:36:41.960 --> 0:36:44.920
<v Speaker 1>that shit into other people and then it feels acceptable.

0:36:45.239 --> 0:36:47.680
<v Speaker 1>So like even if someone's talking, I'm like this is

0:36:47.719 --> 0:36:49.560
<v Speaker 1>so dumb, like what are you talking about? And I'm

0:36:49.560 --> 0:36:53.400
<v Speaker 1>like why are you such a bit Like maybe it's you,

0:36:53.560 --> 0:36:55.120
<v Speaker 1>And then I'm like, damn, maybe it is me.

0:36:55.480 --> 0:36:58.400
<v Speaker 2>Well I think about too, like in the journey of

0:36:58.440 --> 0:37:02.879
<v Speaker 2>healing and like you different modalities for healing and exploring

0:37:03.000 --> 0:37:05.680
<v Speaker 2>and like trying things on and stuff. Like a lot

0:37:05.680 --> 0:37:07.920
<v Speaker 2>of times people that haven't begun that journey at all

0:37:07.960 --> 0:37:09.600
<v Speaker 2>and don't even know where to start, they look at

0:37:09.600 --> 0:37:10.239
<v Speaker 2>you and are like.

0:37:10.200 --> 0:37:11.600
<v Speaker 1>What the fuck you're weird?

0:37:11.920 --> 0:37:15.640
<v Speaker 2>Like why are you? Why are you like chanting? Why

0:37:15.680 --> 0:37:19.799
<v Speaker 2>are you screaming? Why are you lighting candles on full moon?

0:37:20.120 --> 0:37:22.759
<v Speaker 1>Like why are you? Like whatever it is?

0:37:22.960 --> 0:37:24.560
<v Speaker 2>You know, And a lot of it is because they

0:37:24.600 --> 0:37:26.680
<v Speaker 2>haven't even begun to do the work, to even.

0:37:26.520 --> 0:37:29.960
<v Speaker 1>Start to like like uncoding what works for them. Well,

0:37:30.000 --> 0:37:32.440
<v Speaker 1>it's just so easy to be like that's stupid, Like

0:37:32.560 --> 0:37:33.160
<v Speaker 1>that's the white people.

0:37:33.200 --> 0:37:35.719
<v Speaker 2>Shit, Oh that's silly. Oh, Like why the fuck would

0:37:35.719 --> 0:37:36.120
<v Speaker 2>I do that?

0:37:36.200 --> 0:37:37.560
<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying, Like, why would you be

0:37:37.560 --> 0:37:39.840
<v Speaker 1>doing Cartwell's bitch, you're thirty four, you know what I mean? Like,

0:37:40.320 --> 0:37:42.560
<v Speaker 1>there's a lot and that's the same shit, the same

0:37:42.560 --> 0:37:45.640
<v Speaker 1>shit that doesn't allow you to try the modalities because

0:37:45.640 --> 0:37:48.920
<v Speaker 1>you're so busy thinking judging what it is you haven't

0:37:48.960 --> 0:37:51.720
<v Speaker 1>tried it. And I'm like, I'm a tryer of things,

0:37:51.840 --> 0:37:54.319
<v Speaker 1>you know a bit, You'll try some shit. You know,

0:37:54.440 --> 0:37:56.160
<v Speaker 1>because I'm like, fuck it, I'm not gonna knock it

0:37:56.200 --> 0:37:58.000
<v Speaker 1>till I try it. But I too have had times

0:37:58.000 --> 0:38:00.520
<v Speaker 1>where I'm like, this is ridiculous. You guys, remember that

0:38:00.560 --> 0:38:02.959
<v Speaker 1>time we went to the conference and the white women

0:38:03.000 --> 0:38:05.040
<v Speaker 1>were like jumping up and down and making weird noises,

0:38:05.040 --> 0:38:07.000
<v Speaker 1>and we were like, where the fuck are we at?

0:38:07.480 --> 0:38:09.400
<v Speaker 1>And then like two years later, we're doing same thing.

0:38:09.680 --> 0:38:11.920
<v Speaker 1>We totally we judge them. We're like, this is strange.

0:38:11.920 --> 0:38:13.600
<v Speaker 2>But you know, I think too white was strange because

0:38:13.600 --> 0:38:15.720
<v Speaker 2>we didn't see one person in that room that looked

0:38:15.719 --> 0:38:18.160
<v Speaker 2>like us. I think if that was a room full

0:38:18.200 --> 0:38:21.160
<v Speaker 2>of like brown and black people mixed with some other races,

0:38:21.200 --> 0:38:23.520
<v Speaker 2>we would have been like, this is interesting. We probably

0:38:23.560 --> 0:38:26.080
<v Speaker 2>still would have judged, but maybe been more open to it.

0:38:26.280 --> 0:38:29.040
<v Speaker 2>I think oftentimes it's really hard to accept or be

0:38:29.120 --> 0:38:32.360
<v Speaker 2>open yourself up to spaces where you don't you physically

0:38:32.400 --> 0:38:37.560
<v Speaker 2>don't see yourself in them. It feels foreign, it feels unnerving,

0:38:37.640 --> 0:38:40.759
<v Speaker 2>it feels like you're not invited. So I think when

0:38:40.760 --> 0:38:43.760
<v Speaker 2>you don't have those kind of spaces, like that's what happens.

0:38:43.840 --> 0:38:46.080
<v Speaker 2>And that's why I'm so grateful that we have the

0:38:46.120 --> 0:38:47.600
<v Speaker 2>space that we have and I'm so glad that we

0:38:47.640 --> 0:38:51.880
<v Speaker 2>have our retreat because obviously the retreat is for all women,

0:38:52.040 --> 0:38:55.960
<v Speaker 2>all races, all ages. However, I find that a lot

0:38:56.000 --> 0:38:57.960
<v Speaker 2>of the women that come are women of color, and

0:38:58.360 --> 0:39:00.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm so happy that they come because they're able to

0:39:00.719 --> 0:39:05.360
<v Speaker 2>see themselves in these spaces doing different shit, shit that

0:39:05.400 --> 0:39:08.279
<v Speaker 2>they would never try in their town, especially like in

0:39:08.280 --> 0:39:11.239
<v Speaker 2>certain towns where they are they're I mean generally we're

0:39:11.280 --> 0:39:13.080
<v Speaker 2>most of the minority and everywhere we go, but they're

0:39:13.160 --> 0:39:17.640
<v Speaker 2>really the minority in the yoga studio, in the meditation lounge,

0:39:18.040 --> 0:39:20.080
<v Speaker 2>in whatever space that they're trying to go to to

0:39:20.120 --> 0:39:23.080
<v Speaker 2>do the healing. And unfortunately it gets in the way

0:39:23.120 --> 0:39:25.239
<v Speaker 2>sometimes even though it shouldn't, and even though, like I

0:39:25.360 --> 0:39:27.239
<v Speaker 2>always want to, I want to encourage you right now,

0:39:27.280 --> 0:39:29.880
<v Speaker 2>if you're listening, still go go.

0:39:29.800 --> 0:39:32.200
<v Speaker 1>And do that shit. You You'll make a friend there.

0:39:32.320 --> 0:39:32.720
<v Speaker 1>You will.

0:39:32.920 --> 0:39:34.960
<v Speaker 2>There's someone there waiting to be your friend, probably all

0:39:35.000 --> 0:39:37.440
<v Speaker 2>of them. But a lot of times we don't feel

0:39:37.440 --> 0:39:39.920
<v Speaker 2>like we have we're invited and we have a seat

0:39:39.920 --> 0:39:42.480
<v Speaker 2>at that table because we don't see ourselves there.

0:39:42.400 --> 0:39:44.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, or that it's relatable, or that they're going to

0:39:44.560 --> 0:39:48.440
<v Speaker 1>understand where I'm coming from because maybe I'm experiencing, you know,

0:39:48.880 --> 0:39:51.440
<v Speaker 1>a different struggle or a different obstacle than you.

0:39:53.320 --> 0:39:57.040
<v Speaker 2>H it's true, and you know, manifesting like I just

0:39:57.040 --> 0:40:00.080
<v Speaker 2>feel like at its core, like it doesn't have to

0:40:00.080 --> 0:40:04.359
<v Speaker 2>be that complicated, and I think people have made I mean,

0:40:04.400 --> 0:40:07.160
<v Speaker 2>there's different ways to manifest and everyone has their own

0:40:07.400 --> 0:40:09.800
<v Speaker 2>things that they do. But at the core, it's really

0:40:10.160 --> 0:40:13.359
<v Speaker 2>just the start. The start is a positive self talk,

0:40:13.520 --> 0:40:17.799
<v Speaker 2>be believing in yourself and see action like there's things

0:40:17.840 --> 0:40:21.680
<v Speaker 2>in between there and and actually me and Mila have

0:40:21.800 --> 0:40:24.719
<v Speaker 2>created a document, a document. We can't call it a

0:40:24.960 --> 0:40:28.240
<v Speaker 2>a PDF, can't call it a PF don't let the PDF.

0:40:28.280 --> 0:40:30.400
<v Speaker 1>No, it's a digital asset.

0:40:30.960 --> 0:40:34.880
<v Speaker 2>Well, I don't know a beautiful pamphlet.

0:40:35.000 --> 0:40:37.280
<v Speaker 1>No one uses pamphlet anymore. This is not a hotel

0:40:38.360 --> 0:40:38.600
<v Speaker 1>if you.

0:40:38.640 --> 0:40:43.279
<v Speaker 2>Check the pamphlet, the experience in which we know, we

0:40:43.320 --> 0:40:46.279
<v Speaker 2>talk about these like we've created a handbook, these actual

0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:50.040
<v Speaker 2>tools and steps that can help you at least just

0:40:50.160 --> 0:40:55.560
<v Speaker 2>start the process of manifesting and believing in yourself and.

0:40:55.440 --> 0:40:59.920
<v Speaker 1>Like creating real uh just real.

0:41:00.520 --> 0:41:03.839
<v Speaker 2>Things and writing things down where you're like, Okay, this

0:41:03.920 --> 0:41:05.160
<v Speaker 2>is what I want to invite in because a lot

0:41:05.160 --> 0:41:07.680
<v Speaker 2>of times we don't even know what we want, Like,

0:41:07.760 --> 0:41:09.279
<v Speaker 2>we have a lot of things what we want, and

0:41:09.320 --> 0:41:10.799
<v Speaker 2>so we're trying to focus on all of them, and

0:41:10.840 --> 0:41:14.080
<v Speaker 2>it's like we have to hone it in and like decide, Okay,

0:41:14.080 --> 0:41:16.319
<v Speaker 2>this is what I'm focusing on right now. So I'm

0:41:16.360 --> 0:41:19.399
<v Speaker 2>just really excited for you guys to read through it

0:41:19.719 --> 0:41:22.759
<v Speaker 2>and apply it to your life. And you know, we

0:41:22.800 --> 0:41:24.920
<v Speaker 2>get to share the tools that have worked for us.

0:41:25.520 --> 0:41:27.560
<v Speaker 2>And you know, if you've been following us from the

0:41:27.600 --> 0:41:30.759
<v Speaker 2>beginning of Good Moms, then you know, like you saw

0:41:30.880 --> 0:41:33.720
<v Speaker 2>us in my dining room. We were in my dining

0:41:33.800 --> 0:41:38.240
<v Speaker 2>room recording this show. We are now in our studio

0:41:38.520 --> 0:41:43.279
<v Speaker 2>in the Hollywood Hills recording our show. So this is

0:41:43.520 --> 0:41:48.759
<v Speaker 2>literally the power of manifestation. And you know, obviously me

0:41:48.760 --> 0:41:51.440
<v Speaker 2>and Mila together have manifested a lot, but you don't necessarily,

0:41:51.440 --> 0:41:53.399
<v Speaker 2>you don't need Amla or an Erica to do your

0:41:53.440 --> 0:41:57.600
<v Speaker 2>own manifesting. However, I am really excited to do a

0:41:57.600 --> 0:41:59.520
<v Speaker 2>lot of manifesting in the jungle with a group of

0:41:59.560 --> 0:42:04.440
<v Speaker 2>women because there is power in numbers, and just like

0:42:04.520 --> 0:42:07.680
<v Speaker 2>bringing that element, being able to bring that element live

0:42:07.800 --> 0:42:11.560
<v Speaker 2>to people is super special, Like being able to like

0:42:12.080 --> 0:42:16.040
<v Speaker 2>do it in groups and really like hone all of

0:42:16.080 --> 0:42:19.439
<v Speaker 2>our energy, hone all of our divine feminine energy as

0:42:19.560 --> 0:42:24.239
<v Speaker 2>one to really put intention behind each woman's dreams.

0:42:24.560 --> 0:42:28.359
<v Speaker 1>Like it's just that's excites me when we do that absolutely,

0:42:28.400 --> 0:42:31.640
<v Speaker 1>Like the collective is powerful and like you know, it's

0:42:31.640 --> 0:42:33.759
<v Speaker 1>one thing to put your own energy all the time,

0:42:33.800 --> 0:42:37.440
<v Speaker 1>and that's powerful. We're all like superhuman, you know, we

0:42:37.520 --> 0:42:42.840
<v Speaker 1>have superpower powers. But like when you collectively have a

0:42:42.960 --> 0:42:46.160
<v Speaker 1>like a community of people where you trust and you

0:42:46.160 --> 0:42:49.520
<v Speaker 1>can collectively harness that power, it is super powerful.

0:42:50.800 --> 0:42:54.719
<v Speaker 2>We also manifested a studio in which we can smoke

0:42:54.760 --> 0:42:56.400
<v Speaker 2>Weedn't how that was.

0:42:56.680 --> 0:42:58.839
<v Speaker 1>That's like, that's how we know we manifested the ship

0:42:58.880 --> 0:43:01.759
<v Speaker 1>because this is very rare. This is you don't just go.

0:43:01.719 --> 0:43:04.560
<v Speaker 2>Into studio places where you can just be smoking in

0:43:04.680 --> 0:43:05.480
<v Speaker 2>the office place.

0:43:05.680 --> 0:43:09.040
<v Speaker 1>You know. They told we told everyone that guy approved

0:43:09.120 --> 0:43:11.359
<v Speaker 1>us was gonna give us the keys and then told

0:43:11.440 --> 0:43:14.160
<v Speaker 1>us he checked our stuff and that we smoke weed

0:43:14.280 --> 0:43:15.920
<v Speaker 1>and that we curse and that he's not gonna be

0:43:15.920 --> 0:43:17.879
<v Speaker 1>able to give us the space. That was like eight

0:43:17.920 --> 0:43:20.560
<v Speaker 1>months ago, and fuck that guy. Yeah, And we were

0:43:20.560 --> 0:43:22.759
<v Speaker 1>patient and we wrote it down and we and we

0:43:22.800 --> 0:43:25.520
<v Speaker 1>literally wrote down like office that we can smoke in,

0:43:26.600 --> 0:43:29.520
<v Speaker 1>like that was super important, and here we are. We

0:43:29.600 --> 0:43:31.200
<v Speaker 1>are smoking the weeds.

0:43:31.640 --> 0:43:34.760
<v Speaker 2>So if you're interested in just you know, getting started

0:43:34.760 --> 0:43:37.920
<v Speaker 2>and manifesting, click the link in this episode description, or

0:43:37.960 --> 0:43:41.040
<v Speaker 2>go to our website at Good mom'spad Choices dot com

0:43:41.680 --> 0:43:42.600
<v Speaker 2>and check it out.

0:43:42.920 --> 0:43:45.239
<v Speaker 1>Let us know, give us your feedback, and we're going

0:43:45.320 --> 0:43:50.560
<v Speaker 1>to continue to make you know, continue to create how

0:43:50.640 --> 0:43:52.680
<v Speaker 1>to's on things that we like, you know, like the

0:43:52.680 --> 0:43:54.640
<v Speaker 1>tools that we've learned because.

0:43:54.719 --> 0:43:56.960
<v Speaker 2>People ask us all the time, and like it's one

0:43:56.960 --> 0:44:00.479
<v Speaker 2>thing to listen to an episode, but I know, even

0:44:00.760 --> 0:44:04.200
<v Speaker 2>like I'm diving into audibles lately and sometimes I'm like

0:44:04.520 --> 0:44:07.160
<v Speaker 2>sometimes I'm like, damn it, now I know why it's

0:44:07.200 --> 0:44:09.120
<v Speaker 2>better to read books sometimes because then I can like

0:44:09.520 --> 0:44:11.719
<v Speaker 2>highlight and write down, Like when I'm listening, it's hard

0:44:11.760 --> 0:44:16.319
<v Speaker 2>for me to capture, so we've highlighted it for you.

0:44:17.280 --> 0:44:22.400
<v Speaker 1>It's true, I mean, and even to just like business partnerships,

0:44:22.760 --> 0:44:27.000
<v Speaker 1>you know, like obviously like uh, physical things like houses

0:44:27.040 --> 0:44:28.680
<v Speaker 1>and not that any of us are living in a

0:44:28.680 --> 0:44:32.920
<v Speaker 1>mansion right now but soon, and like cars, and like

0:44:33.000 --> 0:44:35.520
<v Speaker 1>businesses and like book deals those are things too. But

0:44:35.600 --> 0:44:38.920
<v Speaker 1>even like love and your hopes of like where your

0:44:38.920 --> 0:44:41.160
<v Speaker 1>mental health will be and your spiritual practice will be.

0:44:41.160 --> 0:44:43.479
<v Speaker 1>Those those are all things that are like manifestival too.

0:44:43.920 --> 0:44:46.799
<v Speaker 1>And even if you don't I feel like, even if

0:44:46.840 --> 0:44:49.200
<v Speaker 1>you don't see it or you don't know how it's

0:44:49.239 --> 0:44:51.200
<v Speaker 1>going to get there. Like even in my relationship I

0:44:51.560 --> 0:44:53.600
<v Speaker 1>had probably was like, no one's gonna want to fuck

0:44:53.640 --> 0:44:55.680
<v Speaker 1>with me, Like I've talked way too much on the internet.

0:44:56.600 --> 0:44:59.040
<v Speaker 1>My titties are always out, like I just had probably

0:44:59.080 --> 0:45:00.920
<v Speaker 1>like let it go. But in my mind, I was like,

0:45:00.960 --> 0:45:05.800
<v Speaker 1>there's gotta be someone. There's gotta be someone with the shits.

0:45:06.160 --> 0:45:07.440
<v Speaker 1>I was like, see it online.

0:45:07.440 --> 0:45:10.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, look at Pamela Anderson and Tolmily that.

0:45:11.120 --> 0:45:14.279
<v Speaker 1>From twenty years ago. She figured it out, Billie. They

0:45:14.320 --> 0:45:17.239
<v Speaker 1>didn't last, but fuck it, someone is gonna meet me

0:45:17.600 --> 0:45:20.520
<v Speaker 1>as rockstar as I am. And I was adamant about

0:45:20.520 --> 0:45:22.480
<v Speaker 1>that shit. And even when I had so many friends

0:45:22.520 --> 0:45:25.920
<v Speaker 1>like girl, you need to calm down. Oh you're not

0:45:25.960 --> 0:45:28.120
<v Speaker 1>gonna find anyone. You need to be less honest, and

0:45:28.160 --> 0:45:31.600
<v Speaker 1>I was like I can't physically, I can't do it.

0:45:32.600 --> 0:45:36.440
<v Speaker 1>And and it's true, like even without like necessarily knowing

0:45:36.480 --> 0:45:38.880
<v Speaker 1>how it's gonna come. It will come as long as

0:45:38.880 --> 0:45:41.919
<v Speaker 1>you're secure in what you want and who you are

0:45:42.040 --> 0:45:43.960
<v Speaker 1>and that you're going to get there. And it doesn't

0:45:43.960 --> 0:45:46.040
<v Speaker 1>matter like what it is that you're manifesting, because like

0:45:46.280 --> 0:45:47.560
<v Speaker 1>a bit, you didn't know I was going to be

0:45:47.600 --> 0:45:51.160
<v Speaker 1>fucking podcasting, you know, five years ago to this extent

0:45:51.560 --> 0:45:55.160
<v Speaker 1>for five years, and it didn't matter because I was like,

0:45:55.239 --> 0:45:57.160
<v Speaker 1>I will if I want to, and here we are.

0:45:57.280 --> 0:45:57.440
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:45:57.520 --> 0:46:01.879
<v Speaker 1>It's just like the consistency of no knowing, just expecting

0:46:02.040 --> 0:46:04.840
<v Speaker 1>your blessings, you know, like I expect this to happen,

0:46:04.960 --> 0:46:06.319
<v Speaker 1>and so I'm gonna put in the work and it's

0:46:06.320 --> 0:46:08.840
<v Speaker 1>gonna come, and I'm gonna work on myself. Doesn't mean

0:46:08.840 --> 0:46:10.879
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to necessarily try and change myself or water

0:46:11.000 --> 0:46:14.080
<v Speaker 1>down for a nigga, because that's impossible, but I'm going

0:46:14.120 --> 0:46:16.080
<v Speaker 1>to work on myself so when whoever comes, they're going

0:46:16.120 --> 0:46:19.279
<v Speaker 1>to recognize the good that I have to offer, you know.

0:46:19.320 --> 0:46:22.520
<v Speaker 1>And sometimes so often we're so busy telling ourselves like, realistically,

0:46:22.600 --> 0:46:23.960
<v Speaker 1>no one's gonna want a date a bitch for their

0:46:23.960 --> 0:46:28.600
<v Speaker 1>titties out. Realistically, no one, you know, Realistically, two moms

0:46:28.960 --> 0:46:32.719
<v Speaker 1>can't talk about spoken pot on a podcast and become successful.

0:46:32.800 --> 0:46:34.040
<v Speaker 1>That's not realize.

0:46:33.920 --> 0:46:36.960
<v Speaker 2>Never, I mean honestly, like I never thought that when

0:46:37.000 --> 0:46:38.759
<v Speaker 2>that became apparent to me that that was a thing

0:46:38.840 --> 0:46:41.680
<v Speaker 2>that people thought about like us.

0:46:41.480 --> 0:46:42.319
<v Speaker 1>And me and you.

0:46:42.600 --> 0:46:45.720
<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh, okay, well this is a life.

0:46:45.840 --> 0:46:47.680
<v Speaker 2>This is not what I I didn't this is not

0:46:47.719 --> 0:46:50.719
<v Speaker 2>something I anticipated. But having a show about like two

0:46:50.760 --> 0:46:52.840
<v Speaker 2>moms smoking weed, well that and then people saying like,

0:46:52.880 --> 0:46:56.719
<v Speaker 2>now you're unlovable, Now you're not worthy, Like I had

0:46:56.760 --> 0:46:58.600
<v Speaker 2>other reasons why I thought I wasn't worthy.

0:46:59.000 --> 0:47:03.799
<v Speaker 1>It wasn't that this is actually my main thing. Are

0:47:03.800 --> 0:47:05.399
<v Speaker 1>you sure this is the best thing about me here?

0:47:05.440 --> 0:47:07.520
<v Speaker 1>You know what that's really?

0:47:07.560 --> 0:47:10.440
<v Speaker 2>And then I had to remember, like this is the

0:47:10.480 --> 0:47:13.239
<v Speaker 2>happiest I've ever been. This is the most purposeful I've

0:47:13.239 --> 0:47:17.279
<v Speaker 2>ever felt. Like fuck what you said, funk what you think? Okay, well,

0:47:17.320 --> 0:47:19.879
<v Speaker 2>there was a morning that happened, like I there was

0:47:19.880 --> 0:47:21.239
<v Speaker 2>like I was sad about it for a while, but

0:47:21.280 --> 0:47:23.879
<v Speaker 2>then like I feel very much empowered in knowing that

0:47:24.000 --> 0:47:27.200
<v Speaker 2>like the person that is for me will show up

0:47:27.360 --> 0:47:30.200
<v Speaker 2>and be perfect for me, you know what I mean?

0:47:30.239 --> 0:47:34.120
<v Speaker 2>And like it it's like even then when you show

0:47:34.239 --> 0:47:36.520
<v Speaker 2>up as yourself and your mooth, authentic self.

0:47:36.560 --> 0:47:37.400
<v Speaker 1>You can't lose.

0:47:37.640 --> 0:47:39.759
<v Speaker 2>You can can't lose in love, you can't lose in

0:47:39.840 --> 0:47:42.640
<v Speaker 2>whatever that you're passionate about, you can't lose in Like

0:47:43.040 --> 0:47:46.000
<v Speaker 2>there's just the level of I feel like karmic blessing

0:47:46.080 --> 0:47:47.400
<v Speaker 2>you get just from showing up.

0:47:47.440 --> 0:47:50.480
<v Speaker 1>Well, well, you have to think about it, like we're

0:47:50.520 --> 0:47:55.440
<v Speaker 1>all like, uh, like divine creatures. We're all created like

0:47:55.680 --> 0:47:59.799
<v Speaker 1>exactly how we're supposed to be fucking pandas panda kangaroos,

0:47:59.840 --> 0:48:02.320
<v Speaker 1>can aroo in Australia, Like we're all of a certain

0:48:02.480 --> 0:48:06.520
<v Speaker 1>like we're all like spiritual beings that were planted here

0:48:06.560 --> 0:48:09.960
<v Speaker 1>specifically with purpose. I know if we veer outside of

0:48:10.160 --> 0:48:13.920
<v Speaker 1>exactly who we are. If I'm a fucking kangaroo in China,

0:48:14.160 --> 0:48:16.880
<v Speaker 1>bitch is not gonna work. My food is not there,

0:48:17.040 --> 0:48:19.440
<v Speaker 1>my alignment is not there. If I'm a kangaroo acting

0:48:19.520 --> 0:48:21.920
<v Speaker 1>like I'm a fucking polar bear, bitch, I'm gonna die.

0:48:22.520 --> 0:48:26.040
<v Speaker 1>But it's just about like honing in on exactly who

0:48:26.040 --> 0:48:29.839
<v Speaker 1>you are without all of the noise of social standards.

0:48:30.000 --> 0:48:32.760
<v Speaker 1>Your mama, your daddy, your cousin, your auntie, your teacher.

0:48:32.840 --> 0:48:37.160
<v Speaker 1>It's just like we forget that we're divine beings. God

0:48:38.200 --> 0:48:41.400
<v Speaker 1>Spirit has placed us here and our only job is

0:48:41.440 --> 0:48:44.040
<v Speaker 1>to show up as ourselves for sure. But the world

0:48:44.040 --> 0:48:45.600
<v Speaker 1>tells you like that's not good enough, and then you

0:48:45.600 --> 0:48:47.799
<v Speaker 1>start telling yourself that's not good enough or it's too much,

0:48:47.920 --> 0:48:50.239
<v Speaker 1>or it's to this, or it's too weird. But bitch,

0:48:50.280 --> 0:48:53.040
<v Speaker 1>you're supposed to be weird. Look at weird Out. Do

0:48:53.040 --> 0:48:54.920
<v Speaker 1>you think he would have been weird out without being weird?

0:48:55.600 --> 0:48:58.279
<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying. I don't know. It's the

0:48:58.280 --> 0:49:00.360
<v Speaker 1>best I could come up, you know, you know my SiO.

0:49:00.440 --> 0:49:04.239
<v Speaker 1>So that's that white side, not my best. But you

0:49:04.239 --> 0:49:08.200
<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying, I'm kidding. But that's the thing, Like,

0:49:08.320 --> 0:49:12.000
<v Speaker 1>our divine purpose is in being exactly who we are,

0:49:12.040 --> 0:49:14.360
<v Speaker 1>and the things that are meant for us cannot find

0:49:14.480 --> 0:49:17.600
<v Speaker 1>us if we're not comfortable in being exactly who we are.

0:49:18.360 --> 0:49:22.600
<v Speaker 1>Even if it's smoking pop moms. There were more than that,

0:49:22.640 --> 0:49:23.759
<v Speaker 1>But you know what I mean, Like.

0:49:24.080 --> 0:49:28.359
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I totally agree. I also think that we are

0:49:28.400 --> 0:49:34.680
<v Speaker 2>also we are also I guess what I guess I'm

0:49:34.719 --> 0:49:37.040
<v Speaker 2>trying to say is like we are still extensions of

0:49:37.040 --> 0:49:39.360
<v Speaker 2>our ancestors and the people were influenced by the people

0:49:39.360 --> 0:49:43.120
<v Speaker 2>that we are from, but we have to I guess

0:49:43.160 --> 0:49:47.200
<v Speaker 2>in this lifetime being yourself, you kind of find discernment

0:49:47.239 --> 0:49:49.320
<v Speaker 2>and the pieces that you want to take from those people.

0:49:49.680 --> 0:49:51.160
<v Speaker 1>Like I am not like my mother.

0:49:51.320 --> 0:49:54.160
<v Speaker 2>I have pieces of her because I am of her,

0:49:54.560 --> 0:49:58.879
<v Speaker 2>but I have my own spiritual divine reasoning for being

0:49:58.920 --> 0:50:03.000
<v Speaker 2>here and having I guess autonomy over my spirit in ways.

0:50:03.640 --> 0:50:07.080
<v Speaker 2>And so I think that you take what you need

0:50:07.120 --> 0:50:09.840
<v Speaker 2>from the people that you come from, but hopefully like

0:50:09.880 --> 0:50:13.440
<v Speaker 2>you're able to like have the discernment.

0:50:13.440 --> 0:50:15.480
<v Speaker 1>And that's the hardest part, is knowing what is of

0:50:15.520 --> 0:50:17.680
<v Speaker 1>you and what is of other people. I'm still figuring

0:50:17.680 --> 0:50:20.560
<v Speaker 1>that out, you know, Like it's that's enlightenment, I guess,

0:50:20.640 --> 0:50:24.760
<v Speaker 1>because I mean I'm not there yet, and even parts

0:50:24.760 --> 0:50:27.880
<v Speaker 1>of you that are in spite of people, you know

0:50:27.920 --> 0:50:30.200
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, Like, and I'm this way in spite

0:50:30.440 --> 0:50:32.479
<v Speaker 1>because like I hated that my mom was this way.

0:50:32.600 --> 0:50:35.759
<v Speaker 1>So I've done like the complete like the complete opposite,

0:50:35.840 --> 0:50:38.800
<v Speaker 1>because sometimes there's that too. But I also feel like

0:50:38.840 --> 0:50:43.080
<v Speaker 1>sometimes like it's about taking things from people, but also

0:50:44.400 --> 0:50:47.960
<v Speaker 1>kind of like we are living in a in a

0:50:48.040 --> 0:50:51.480
<v Speaker 1>generation that's so different than the like where our parents

0:50:51.560 --> 0:50:54.560
<v Speaker 1>were able to like completely be themselves, especially as women.

0:50:55.080 --> 0:51:01.080
<v Speaker 1>But I think sometimes we are actually breaking generational curses

0:51:01.120 --> 0:51:04.200
<v Speaker 1>in a major way because we are we could be

0:51:04.280 --> 0:51:07.600
<v Speaker 1>more clear about who we are without just like the

0:51:09.000 --> 0:51:11.239
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like in general, as time evolves, there's

0:51:11.280 --> 0:51:13.040
<v Speaker 1>a lot of fucked up shit that happens too, like

0:51:13.680 --> 0:51:14.640
<v Speaker 1>eating plastic, but.

0:51:15.440 --> 0:51:17.320
<v Speaker 2>We we do have.

0:51:17.239 --> 0:51:20.960
<v Speaker 1>The freedom to show up more as ourselves, you know,

0:51:20.960 --> 0:51:23.279
<v Speaker 1>obviously look like the like evolution of women, like look,

0:51:23.320 --> 0:51:25.480
<v Speaker 1>my whole thigh is out. That probably couldn't happen in

0:51:25.520 --> 0:51:27.239
<v Speaker 1>a certain time. I don't know what era, but you know,

0:51:27.440 --> 0:51:29.560
<v Speaker 1>I feel like it started there naked, and then it

0:51:29.600 --> 0:51:32.080
<v Speaker 1>went well, and then it went back. So you know,

0:51:32.760 --> 0:51:35.799
<v Speaker 1>it's true. It's true, but it's we're all influenced by

0:51:35.840 --> 0:51:39.200
<v Speaker 1>this outside world, and it's important that you know you

0:51:39.360 --> 0:51:43.680
<v Speaker 1>just like who the fuck you are. Yeah, because then

0:51:43.719 --> 0:51:46.160
<v Speaker 1>your mom tell you it's not likely that like your

0:51:46.239 --> 0:51:49.960
<v Speaker 1>job is not what did she say about this job

0:51:50.040 --> 0:51:52.600
<v Speaker 1>is not likely going to find you a us?

0:51:53.239 --> 0:51:54.960
<v Speaker 2>She said, Oh yeah, it's gonna be much harder for

0:51:54.960 --> 0:51:58.600
<v Speaker 2>me to find someone I don't know. Essentially, like I

0:51:58.640 --> 0:51:59.759
<v Speaker 2>don't know, I felt like she was trying to say,

0:51:59.760 --> 0:52:01.800
<v Speaker 2>like a sustainable man like one that's.

0:52:01.600 --> 0:52:04.920
<v Speaker 1>Like serious serious, But then then you tell a guy

0:52:04.960 --> 0:52:08.359
<v Speaker 1>you're dating and he was like, that's true. Yeah, but

0:52:08.400 --> 0:52:09.640
<v Speaker 1>that's the thing. That's what I'm saying.

0:52:09.680 --> 0:52:13.920
<v Speaker 2>Like there's been a level of like okay, like mourning

0:52:13.960 --> 0:52:17.080
<v Speaker 2>that I've had to say like, wow, okay, someone that

0:52:17.160 --> 0:52:19.920
<v Speaker 2>I love thinks that of me or of what I

0:52:19.960 --> 0:52:22.680
<v Speaker 2>do that brings me happiness and joy.

0:52:23.440 --> 0:52:26.000
<v Speaker 1>And then and then and then be able to make

0:52:26.040 --> 0:52:28.080
<v Speaker 1>it not hurt your feelings and then be like that

0:52:28.080 --> 0:52:29.879
<v Speaker 1>doesn't hurt my feelings at all, or.

0:52:29.960 --> 0:52:34.680
<v Speaker 2>Make you self dumb? I like, is this too much?

0:52:34.880 --> 0:52:37.040
<v Speaker 2>Am I doing the most? Can't I shut the fuck up?

0:52:38.280 --> 0:52:41.439
<v Speaker 2>Could I spin this? Could I like, loo hold more?

0:52:41.719 --> 0:52:45.600
<v Speaker 2>Could I be stressed out about this shit? Could I

0:52:45.680 --> 0:52:49.040
<v Speaker 2>you know what I'm saying, like, and yeah, if anything,

0:52:49.120 --> 0:52:50.799
<v Speaker 2>I just try to listen to my body. If it

0:52:50.840 --> 0:52:53.719
<v Speaker 2>makes my body feel uncomfortable, then it's probably not for me.

0:52:53.880 --> 0:52:56.320
<v Speaker 2>And whenever when I felt that, I was like, oh damn,

0:52:56.440 --> 0:52:59.880
<v Speaker 2>like this is yeah, no, this is not of me.

0:53:00.160 --> 0:53:03.120
<v Speaker 1>This is a view. Be your own people, This is

0:53:03.160 --> 0:53:07.480
<v Speaker 1>a view. So I feel secure in that. So and

0:53:07.600 --> 0:53:08.960
<v Speaker 1>you have to and then that's a part of the

0:53:08.960 --> 0:53:11.480
<v Speaker 1>growing process. If you're not willing to like say, hey,

0:53:11.520 --> 0:53:14.040
<v Speaker 1>is this me or is this someone else and sit

0:53:14.120 --> 0:53:18.040
<v Speaker 1>on it, you know, deeply, and like decide that's important.

0:53:18.200 --> 0:53:20.920
<v Speaker 1>Most people just immediately if someone doesn't like it, they're like,

0:53:20.920 --> 0:53:22.600
<v Speaker 1>oh no, this is the wrong decision. And me and

0:53:22.719 --> 0:53:24.160
<v Speaker 1>Erka would have been nowhere if we would have listened

0:53:24.160 --> 0:53:26.359
<v Speaker 1>to everybody's fucking opinion, we would have never I don't

0:53:26.360 --> 0:53:29.359
<v Speaker 1>know where the fuck would be. But like stressed out

0:53:29.360 --> 0:53:32.520
<v Speaker 1>worried about people's opinion. Even now that I'm in a relationship,

0:53:32.560 --> 0:53:35.880
<v Speaker 1>like a serious relationship and my person knows me, like

0:53:36.200 --> 0:53:38.759
<v Speaker 1>you know, like there's no there's no fucking surprises. It's

0:53:38.800 --> 0:53:41.799
<v Speaker 1>not gonna be like someone date people, I'd be like,

0:53:41.840 --> 0:53:43.759
<v Speaker 1>this would be the test. Like, so, if you're out

0:53:43.760 --> 0:53:45.680
<v Speaker 1>in public and someone randomly comes up to you and

0:53:46.000 --> 0:53:48.560
<v Speaker 1>just discloses some random information about me, how are you

0:53:48.560 --> 0:53:51.520
<v Speaker 1>going to feel if it's sexual? You know what I mean,

0:53:51.560 --> 0:53:54.440
<v Speaker 1>because that can happen, but like it's bound to it's

0:53:54.560 --> 0:53:57.080
<v Speaker 1>bound to actually like you.

0:53:57.120 --> 0:53:58.840
<v Speaker 2>I just mean in general, And that's a question that

0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:01.640
<v Speaker 2>most people don't really ask the person, and it's a

0:54:01.680 --> 0:54:06.920
<v Speaker 2>defining question because sex really matters to people. And then

0:54:07.040 --> 0:54:11.040
<v Speaker 2>imagine then amplifying that to like millions of people. Yeah,

0:54:11.120 --> 0:54:13.279
<v Speaker 2>you know, like that's a hard pill to swallow. But

0:54:13.680 --> 0:54:16.360
<v Speaker 2>it's actually now like on this part of my journey

0:54:18.160 --> 0:54:21.200
<v Speaker 2>because I do have a partner that I know is

0:54:21.239 --> 0:54:22.360
<v Speaker 2>going to be in my life forever.

0:54:23.280 --> 0:54:25.239
<v Speaker 1>I do. I do feel like I'm embarking on this

0:54:25.320 --> 0:54:29.160
<v Speaker 1>different chapter of my life because now I like not

0:54:29.280 --> 0:54:31.400
<v Speaker 1>that I needed a relationship to do this, because I

0:54:31.440 --> 0:54:36.680
<v Speaker 1>was always I was already like obviously actively trying to

0:54:36.760 --> 0:54:39.680
<v Speaker 1>grow and evolve and get out of like bad habits

0:54:39.719 --> 0:54:41.560
<v Speaker 1>and like learn my trauma so that I could better

0:54:41.600 --> 0:54:43.520
<v Speaker 1>at it. But it's also given me, like I realize

0:54:43.560 --> 0:54:46.000
<v Speaker 1>now like this year there's gonna be a different level

0:54:46.000 --> 0:54:48.279
<v Speaker 1>of work that I have to unlock because it's not

0:54:48.400 --> 0:54:51.319
<v Speaker 1>about like fighting the world about who I am or

0:54:51.560 --> 0:54:54.080
<v Speaker 1>a partner or like convincing people that I'm worthy because

0:54:54.239 --> 0:54:57.880
<v Speaker 1>like I know my people who love me. But now

0:54:57.960 --> 0:55:01.440
<v Speaker 1>like really digging deep into so like the parts of

0:55:01.480 --> 0:55:04.520
<v Speaker 1>myself that do I love or don't love, and like

0:55:05.239 --> 0:55:07.680
<v Speaker 1>just reflecting deeply on the things. Like it's just a

0:55:07.719 --> 0:55:09.920
<v Speaker 1>different level of I'm like, damn, it's a different like

0:55:10.040 --> 0:55:12.719
<v Speaker 1>validating yourself. It's like that kind of love and then

0:55:12.719 --> 0:55:15.279
<v Speaker 1>when someone else loves you truly, it's like it makes

0:55:15.360 --> 0:55:17.680
<v Speaker 1>it reflects how you love yourself and if I've actually

0:55:17.760 --> 0:55:19.799
<v Speaker 1>been doing the work or how I've been avoiding it,

0:55:19.920 --> 0:55:22.160
<v Speaker 1>or have I been meditating and breathing and why or

0:55:22.239 --> 0:55:24.879
<v Speaker 1>why not? You know. So it's just like I think

0:55:24.920 --> 0:55:28.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm about to embark on this different level of like

0:55:29.880 --> 0:55:33.080
<v Speaker 1>self reflection that is scary, but I'm also like really

0:55:33.080 --> 0:55:37.760
<v Speaker 1>excited about. So I'm just I'm excited for you. Thinks

0:55:37.800 --> 0:55:39.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm excited for us. I feel the same way. I

0:55:39.880 --> 0:55:45.160
<v Speaker 1>feel like it's that new January energy. Maybe it's just

0:55:45.200 --> 0:55:46.480
<v Speaker 1>because like we're.

0:55:46.360 --> 0:55:48.360
<v Speaker 2>Going at we're about to leave too, and I'm like

0:55:48.440 --> 0:55:50.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm about to be in nature, and I feel like

0:55:50.360 --> 0:55:54.200
<v Speaker 2>I'm really tapping into like I feel like this year,

0:55:54.239 --> 0:55:57.839
<v Speaker 2>I'm really stepping into that space of like wanting to

0:55:57.880 --> 0:56:02.200
<v Speaker 2>be in that element more like just prioritizing like just

0:56:02.400 --> 0:56:06.680
<v Speaker 2>even just taking like really being in nature, like taking

0:56:06.680 --> 0:56:08.319
<v Speaker 2>my shoes off, even if it's in my backyard, like

0:56:08.440 --> 0:56:11.120
<v Speaker 2>actually doing that and realizing that like I.

0:56:11.040 --> 0:56:13.120
<v Speaker 1>Can really retreat here if I want to.

0:56:13.840 --> 0:56:17.719
<v Speaker 2>And because I think escapism is something that I think

0:56:17.760 --> 0:56:19.839
<v Speaker 2>I struggle with, Like I'm like let me just get

0:56:19.840 --> 0:56:21.719
<v Speaker 2>out of here real quick, oh I'm queen of it,

0:56:22.880 --> 0:56:25.040
<v Speaker 2>or just let me just go missing for two days

0:56:25.160 --> 0:56:27.600
<v Speaker 2>an escapism, But I need that too. I think that

0:56:27.600 --> 0:56:30.520
<v Speaker 2>that's important also, But what am I doing with my

0:56:30.600 --> 0:56:31.640
<v Speaker 2>time during that time?

0:56:32.360 --> 0:56:38.839
<v Speaker 1>And yeah, I'm just well just like being clear about

0:56:39.360 --> 0:56:42.640
<v Speaker 1>what makes you feel good and honoring that I prefer

0:56:42.880 --> 0:56:47.040
<v Speaker 1>to be in the jungle half naked, you know, Like

0:56:47.120 --> 0:56:51.200
<v Speaker 1>that's my preference. But like and then saying how can

0:56:51.239 --> 0:56:54.400
<v Speaker 1>I make my life more aligned with being in the jungle,

0:56:54.560 --> 0:56:56.520
<v Speaker 1>you know? And like last year respect like three months

0:56:56.560 --> 0:56:58.840
<v Speaker 1>out of the country, which I think, Wow, that's so

0:56:58.960 --> 0:57:01.319
<v Speaker 1>dope that that's like our life and that's like we

0:57:01.360 --> 0:57:04.960
<v Speaker 1>can bring our kids and it's we're still working and facilitating,

0:57:05.080 --> 0:57:09.440
<v Speaker 1>facilitating healing for other people, and like that is ideal

0:57:09.719 --> 0:57:13.440
<v Speaker 1>for me, you know, and I do. I think this

0:57:13.520 --> 0:57:16.560
<v Speaker 1>is this is our second retreat in like we've been

0:57:16.600 --> 0:57:18.920
<v Speaker 1>doing this for one year now. We've been retreating this

0:57:19.040 --> 0:57:22.160
<v Speaker 1>for one year, wow, And we've taken like a hundred

0:57:22.240 --> 0:57:25.200
<v Speaker 1>women to healing and too the jungle and to themselves

0:57:25.240 --> 0:57:27.920
<v Speaker 1>and we're continuing to embark on that journey. And I

0:57:27.920 --> 0:57:30.160
<v Speaker 1>think we're like more confident in it. We're more confident

0:57:30.160 --> 0:57:36.480
<v Speaker 1>in ourselves in this space and it's so exciting. Yeah,

0:57:36.520 --> 0:57:43.720
<v Speaker 1>and I'm really grateful, and I'm also just I don't know.

0:57:43.760 --> 0:57:48.520
<v Speaker 2>I just feel like actively trying to find the joy

0:57:48.560 --> 0:57:52.040
<v Speaker 2>and everything is the goal for me right now, and

0:57:52.160 --> 0:57:55.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm really dedicated to that. And I realize there are

0:57:55.600 --> 0:57:58.800
<v Speaker 2>certain elements that I'm learning in school that just it's

0:57:58.960 --> 0:58:04.400
<v Speaker 2>just true, Like breathing, moving, like being still, sex, like

0:58:04.480 --> 0:58:09.800
<v Speaker 2>all these things really make pleasure pleasure. Food is a

0:58:09.840 --> 0:58:12.320
<v Speaker 2>way of life. Guess what breaking news.

0:58:12.280 --> 0:58:13.080
<v Speaker 1>Striking news.

0:58:13.880 --> 0:58:16.040
<v Speaker 2>And that's even in alignment, you know, Like we're in

0:58:16.040 --> 0:58:18.840
<v Speaker 2>school and we're learning about like Tibetan tantra, but then

0:58:18.840 --> 0:58:21.160
<v Speaker 2>we're talking to you know and studying Queen of Fua,

0:58:21.680 --> 0:58:24.600
<v Speaker 2>the Sacred Woman, and then like this ancient African studies,

0:58:24.640 --> 0:58:26.280
<v Speaker 2>and it's like, oh, it's.

0:58:26.080 --> 0:58:28.760
<v Speaker 1>All the same. It's all the same. The elements. It's

0:58:28.800 --> 0:58:33.600
<v Speaker 1>the breathing, it's the moving of your body, it's the quietness.

0:58:33.760 --> 0:58:38.560
<v Speaker 1>It's it's literally the most basic shit, breathe, move, drink, eat,

0:58:38.920 --> 0:58:43.920
<v Speaker 1>be quiet, like like that is the medicine and it's

0:58:44.160 --> 0:58:47.800
<v Speaker 1>and it's in every like ancient healing remedy and method

0:58:47.880 --> 0:58:52.120
<v Speaker 1>and it's so simple and yet it's so hard. And

0:58:52.120 --> 0:58:54.280
<v Speaker 1>that's when I noticed that, like with our tantra, like

0:58:54.440 --> 0:58:57.240
<v Speaker 1>taking time to do that, I was like, this is crazy,

0:58:57.280 --> 0:58:59.480
<v Speaker 1>how much I'm avoiding it? Yeah, I'm like, why am

0:58:59.520 --> 0:59:02.000
<v Speaker 1>I avoiding? Why am I avoiding sitting on breathing for

0:59:02.040 --> 0:59:05.760
<v Speaker 1>twenty minutes? Why I will do anything and everything by

0:59:05.800 --> 0:59:09.360
<v Speaker 1>fucking sitting breathe? I rather stress, I gotta, I got,

0:59:09.680 --> 0:59:11.880
<v Speaker 1>I got to stressed, super important stress. No, but literally

0:59:11.920 --> 0:59:14.880
<v Speaker 1>that's what I choose. That's literally the choice that you're making. Sorry,

0:59:14.920 --> 0:59:16.120
<v Speaker 1>and I'd rather stress.

0:59:16.400 --> 0:59:18.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm stressed, so I can't stop that to do that,

0:59:18.720 --> 0:59:20.680
<v Speaker 2>No way, God, don't want to do stress.

0:59:20.680 --> 0:59:25.400
<v Speaker 1>Who wants to do that? It's true, it's true. So,

0:59:25.880 --> 0:59:28.360
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, don't choose stress. It's like, don't choose violent.

0:59:29.200 --> 0:59:33.280
<v Speaker 1>It's violence to yourself. Shirt. Don't choose stress for real?

0:59:33.320 --> 0:59:39.520
<v Speaker 1>You heard it here? First, ah my goodness. Do we

0:59:39.520 --> 0:59:42.080
<v Speaker 1>have a hoary? We do, But first we have a

0:59:42.120 --> 0:59:43.120
<v Speaker 1>tarot card that you picked.

0:59:43.160 --> 0:59:46.920
<v Speaker 2>Oh yes, okay, so you guys today I picked the

0:59:47.000 --> 0:59:52.720
<v Speaker 2>High Priestress priestess. Priestess bitch is hot, okay, and I

0:59:52.720 --> 0:59:56.040
<v Speaker 2>am the High Priestess literally, I am the High priest

0:59:56.160 --> 1:00:02.720
<v Speaker 2>Like that backup? Actually, Okay, intuition say cret knowledge, divine, feminine,

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<v Speaker 2>the subconscious mind.

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<v Speaker 1>Yep, wow, say that again. You want to you want

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<v Speaker 1>to hear that again, intuition, sacred knowledge, divine, feminine, the

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<v Speaker 1>subconscious mind.

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<v Speaker 2>You know. But before I start telling this, I was

1:00:20.960 --> 1:00:24.440
<v Speaker 2>just thinking about, like how Queen of Fuis talks about

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<v Speaker 2>just remembering.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like a lot of these practices are just remembering,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's true, it's not. It's like it's in our

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<v Speaker 1>sacred knowledge, like especially as women, as goddesses that like

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<v Speaker 1>create all things. The healing is like in our we

1:00:41.160 --> 1:00:44.480
<v Speaker 1>know on a cellular level, and like we do ourselves

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<v Speaker 1>such a disservice when we like totally ignore ourselves anyway.

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<v Speaker 1>While the magician is the guardian of the conscious mind

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<v Speaker 1>and the tangible world, the High Priestess is the guardian

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<v Speaker 1>of the subconscious mind and the teacher of sacred knowledge,

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<v Speaker 1>hidden mysteries. Sitting at the threshold of the conscious and

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<v Speaker 1>subconscious mind, the High Priestess has an innate ability to

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<v Speaker 1>travel between these realms effortlessly. She teaches you that the

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<v Speaker 1>world is not always as it seems, and more profound

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<v Speaker 1>influences are often at play. She ushers you through the

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<v Speaker 1>thin veil of awareness, offering you a deep, intuitive understanding

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<v Speaker 1>of the universe and a heightened awareness of secret or

1:01:24.560 --> 1:01:30.800
<v Speaker 1>hidden information. The High Priestess signifies spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination,

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<v Speaker 1>divine knowledge, and wisdom. She shows up in your trail

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<v Speaker 1>readings when the veil between you and the underworld is

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<v Speaker 1>thin and you have the opportunity to access the knowledge

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<v Speaker 1>deep within your soul. Now is the time to be

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<v Speaker 1>still so you can tune into your intuition the answers

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<v Speaker 1>are seeking. The answers you are seeking will come from within,

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<v Speaker 1>from your deepest truth and knowing. Allow the High Priests

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<v Speaker 1>to become your guide as you venture deep into your

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<v Speaker 1>subconscious mind and access this inner with wis. Connect with

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<v Speaker 1>your intuition and your higher self through meditation, visualizations, shamatic journeying,

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<v Speaker 1>and being part of spiritual communities.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow heavy, I've been like intuition has been a theme

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<v Speaker 2>since the beginning of the year for me.

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<v Speaker 1>Like not doubting it.

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<v Speaker 2>I've gotten multiple messages about intuition and I'm pulling that

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<v Speaker 2>really really like it's just a confirmation that I'm definitely

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<v Speaker 2>focusing on the right thing right now in my life,

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<v Speaker 2>and that's honing that shit like a razor.

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<v Speaker 1>Like that's really my.

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<v Speaker 2>Goal is to be able to really and that comes

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<v Speaker 2>with knowing thyself.

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<v Speaker 1>That comes with like Queen of Fu's teachings of.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, the sacred woman and her intuition like the

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<v Speaker 2>know or the healer of all things.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm really I'm dedicated to to that. Well, that's

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<v Speaker 1>our that's our femininity, is our intuition, Like we're fucking

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<v Speaker 1>super women, you know, Like our intuition is our superpower

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<v Speaker 1>and we forget to be in tune with it. But

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<v Speaker 1>that is often going to save us time and time

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<v Speaker 1>and time. Again, thank you Mahogany Taro for that reminder.

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<v Speaker 1>You ready for the hurry, ready to get raunchy, get

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna go deep, but now we're gonna get Now

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<v Speaker 1>we're gonna get dirt, huge dirty by Christina Aguilere and

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<v Speaker 1>then get her hips.

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<v Speaker 2>In that video, they were like sticking out the side

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<v Speaker 2>all I see our hips.

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<v Speaker 1>Why is that the only visual ad? Blonde hair and

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<v Speaker 1>hip bones to the black ends? Oh god, it was

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<v Speaker 1>really I love that shit. I was like, oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I like this Christina, She's fucking amazing. Yeah. Hmmm, So we.

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<v Speaker 2>Also found this Horry in our Discord. Guys, this fuck

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<v Speaker 2>that I do this right. This episode's content is sponsored

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<v Speaker 2>by Discord. Everyone in our Discord.

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<v Speaker 1>Knows this story. This is like a famous person in Discord.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to say his name because it's anonymous,

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<v Speaker 1>because so if you want to, if you want to

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<v Speaker 1>push your business in Discord, don't worry. I'm not going

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<v Speaker 1>to tell it's it's anonymous unless you're in Discord.

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<v Speaker 2>Everyone knows the hory is a free range, right, It's

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<v Speaker 2>there for this purpose.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I'm gonna tell you guys about this. This is

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<v Speaker 1>from a male. This is front of our active males

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<v Speaker 1>and Discord, and I love to see the fellows in

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<v Speaker 1>Discord because there's men over there too. We have some

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<v Speaker 1>private channels just for women, but you know, they just

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<v Speaker 1>love a little testosterone and we bitches, and it's nice

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<v Speaker 1>to have some male perspective on there too. So if

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<v Speaker 1>you're a guy and you're listening and you're like, is

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<v Speaker 1>it dis Chord for me, yes, sir, Yes, sir, it is,

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<v Speaker 1>as long as ado don't be a weirdo and if

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<v Speaker 1>you like love and praise women and free women, it's

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<v Speaker 1>the place for you. And if you're mature, okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>with the shits. Okay. Anyway, I'll tell you a funny

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<v Speaker 1>story how I got into loving to be dominated by

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<v Speaker 1>a woman. So back in Germany, I met this German

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<v Speaker 1>female female at the barber shop. Nice tits, of course,

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<v Speaker 1>so I holler at her. Nice tits, of course, so

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<v Speaker 1>I holler at her and we hang out after she

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<v Speaker 1>gets off that Friday. We go out, come back home,

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<v Speaker 1>and of course have sex a few times after showering dah.

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<v Speaker 1>Next morning, she has to go to work and leaves

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<v Speaker 1>me there at her place. I came prepared and had

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<v Speaker 1>my DVD book of movies and TV shows.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, this was a while, he said, I'm chilling.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm watching in my pd blue. I'm my portable

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<v Speaker 2>DVD player and I accidentally knock it off the bed.

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<v Speaker 2>DVD falls out and rolls under the bed. I reach

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<v Speaker 2>undergrad my DVD in a box of sex toys skids

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<v Speaker 2>out into the view.

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<v Speaker 1>So nosy me. I started investigating because last night she

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<v Speaker 1>kept trying to play with my ass and I got

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<v Speaker 1>mad and tell her to chill you got a chill boom.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know how you say that in German.

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<v Speaker 2>No, Nit, it's more direct. Anyway, now I got Now,

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<v Speaker 2>I got so many fucking questions, Like this motherfucker is

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<v Speaker 2>a freak.

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<v Speaker 1>She had anal.

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<v Speaker 2>Trading beads, prostate massage, you name it.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, he's discovered all this just leaning over the bed.

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<v Speaker 1>It mistakenly fell under, so he had he had to investigate.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, Okay, hold on, damn, did I did this

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<v Speaker 1>in order?

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<v Speaker 2>This motherfucker could have had an ass thrashing marathon and

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<v Speaker 2>never had to use the same tour twice.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow. So anyways, I'm trying to figure out how to

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<v Speaker 1>tell her I'm on to her shit and she ain't

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<v Speaker 1>gonna get me. So later she I'm trying to tell

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<v Speaker 1>how I'm I gonna tell her I've found out her

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<v Speaker 1>shit and she ain't gonna get me. So later she

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<v Speaker 1>comes home and I'm ready, right, I'm just trying to

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<v Speaker 1>wait for the right time to tell it. But of

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<v Speaker 1>course things don't happen as planned, because as soon as

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<v Speaker 1>she gets in, we start going at it like cats

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<v Speaker 1>and dogs. She's been waiting all day for that dick. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>we're fucking. She's gripping my ass cheeks like she's trying

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<v Speaker 1>to stick a finger in there, and I got my ship.

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<v Speaker 1>I got my ship. My cheeks like locked like fork knocks.

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<v Speaker 1>We finished fucking, and she's like, why don't she let

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<v Speaker 1>me play with your ass? I'm like, nah, motherfucker, chill.

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<v Speaker 2>Well she uh now she's obviously wait wait sorry, she persists,

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<v Speaker 2>and finally I blow up and I'm like, damn, leave

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<v Speaker 2>my ass alone.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know that I am on that gay shit.

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<v Speaker 1>So now obviously I was a bit extra, but she

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<v Speaker 1>got the point she had to get an extra. I

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<v Speaker 1>apologized and I left. So of course I got to

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<v Speaker 1>tell my boy Kobe. I don't know if I was

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<v Speaker 1>supposed to say his boy's name whatever.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm talking to Okay, and I'm telling him, bro,

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<v Speaker 2>this chick last night was trying to lick my ass

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<v Speaker 2>and sticking a finger in it.

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<v Speaker 1>But I told her I wasn't with it. He said, what,

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<v Speaker 1>don't knock her till you try it, Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>So I was confused at this reply, of course, because

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<v Speaker 2>most men ain't open to anal play.

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<v Speaker 1>So after he signed off, that right is that right?

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<v Speaker 1>That's a lie right. So after he signed off on it,

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<v Speaker 1>I was trying to figure out how to tell her

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<v Speaker 1>it's okay if she want to lick or play with

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<v Speaker 1>it because my boy signed off on it. Not this

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<v Speaker 1>is this is niggas. If you were a nigga and

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<v Speaker 1>you ain't.

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<v Speaker 2>His boy signed off, so it's not gay. Okay, Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>well now changes. I got one alibi that changes everything.

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<v Speaker 2>I got one alibi, Toby said, Well, Kobe said, so

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<v Speaker 2>you guys, it's not gay.

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<v Speaker 1>So fast forward. So fast forward to mine and her

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<v Speaker 1>next encounter. We're making out and my slow seff is like,

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<v Speaker 1>you want to do that thing? It's cool? Now you

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<v Speaker 1>want to do that thing to me? It's cool? Now

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<v Speaker 1>I can't stand yeah, trying trying to sound like I

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<v Speaker 1>am gay while I.

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<v Speaker 2>Say it, Oh you want to do that thing?

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<v Speaker 1>All right, yeah it's cool. How do you not sound gay? Niggas? Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>So anyways, she's like, assume the position, and my pride

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<v Speaker 1>is a little touched, but I try it. Anyways, Shit,

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<v Speaker 1>she knows what she wants, she sure do Okay. Shit

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<v Speaker 1>started to tingle, and I was too scared to it

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<v Speaker 1>to enjoy it. So I stopped her and I started

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<v Speaker 1>to sound like I was going through puberty.

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<v Speaker 2>That ain't no play. Well have you hitten all those

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<v Speaker 2>high notes? Anyways?

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<v Speaker 1>I right? Anyways, I left right after because I was

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<v Speaker 1>a little ashamed, but I was curious by then. But

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<v Speaker 1>I was curious by then and tried the toys next

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<v Speaker 1>time because it was something about my ass whole being way.

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<v Speaker 1>I just couldn't get used to. I feel you. So

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<v Speaker 1>next time she tried the training anal beads and those

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<v Speaker 1>things started hitting the G spot and I had to

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<v Speaker 1>stop her because I was honestly afraid because if they're

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<v Speaker 1>doing it right, it feels like you have to shit.

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<v Speaker 1>And the last thing I wanted or needed was a

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<v Speaker 1>blank shit on himself story. I was scared because I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know if I could trust her with it, with

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<v Speaker 1>if we ever got into it, not to hang that

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<v Speaker 1>shit over my head like you wasn't saying.

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<v Speaker 2>That shit last night when I got Poor baby, he's

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<v Speaker 2>so tormented, I know, but I'm happy he wrote the

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<v Speaker 2>story because these were literally the things that niggas feel

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<v Speaker 2>this way, and it's like it's not real.

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<v Speaker 1>But anyways, a few more encounters with her, I developed

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<v Speaker 1>a trust with her, and it got to the point

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<v Speaker 1>when I walked When I walked in, I just assumed

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<v Speaker 1>the sub position on my knees ready. So this time

1:10:46.200 --> 1:10:49.160
<v Speaker 1>she used a prostate massager and I came over. It

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<v Speaker 1>came over and over without my dick being stroked. So

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<v Speaker 1>from then on I was game. Shit was so intense

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<v Speaker 1>and it was such an adrenaline rush. Because I was

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<v Speaker 1>always in control in my everyday life, I never knew

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<v Speaker 1>how to give up control and be totally vulnerable to

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<v Speaker 1>a woman. So the last time of my training, she

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<v Speaker 1>invites me in and she blindfolds me, and then she

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<v Speaker 1>bonds my hands and feet so I can't move. She

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<v Speaker 1>starts for play and by the time I'm pre coming

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<v Speaker 1>so much the beds almost have become a slipping slide.

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<v Speaker 1>She starts out with the anal beads, then proceeds with

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<v Speaker 1>the prosatus massager, and next thing I know, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>something with a bit more girth. All I know is

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<v Speaker 1>she fucked me with a shrap on.

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<v Speaker 2>I swear to you, I came so much, back to

1:11:30.000 --> 1:11:32.840
<v Speaker 2>back to back. I cried like a baby. My God,

1:11:33.400 --> 1:11:35.479
<v Speaker 2>she fucked me up. I left that night and was

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<v Speaker 2>scared to ever go back. But ever since then, I've

1:11:38.200 --> 1:11:41.880
<v Speaker 2>been hooked and I tried regular relationships, but I like

1:11:41.920 --> 1:11:44.360
<v Speaker 2>that out of the ordinary relationships. So for me to

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<v Speaker 2>ever settle down, I think I'm gonna have to marry

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<v Speaker 2>a dom She doesn't have to be a total dominatrix,

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<v Speaker 2>but she has.

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<v Speaker 1>To be able to handle my stub be dom. It's

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<v Speaker 1>one of my top love languages. The end, and wow,

1:11:57.520 --> 1:12:00.599
<v Speaker 1>I thought it was beautiful. And he said he's dominant

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<v Speaker 1>seventy five to eighty percent of the time sextually, but

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<v Speaker 1>that twenty five to twenty percent. He want what he wants.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm not mad at that. I feel that. And

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<v Speaker 1>you can have a man who knows thyself, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and ain't afraid to ask for what he wants. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he's living a pleasureful life. That would make the world

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<v Speaker 1>a better place if we could just all figure out

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<v Speaker 1>our pleasures, relate it to a friend, own them, own them,

1:12:25.800 --> 1:12:29.439
<v Speaker 1>dance blissfully in them, date based on them, just invite

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<v Speaker 1>more of the pleasures. Hang around people that are like

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<v Speaker 1>that too. I mean, I don't know if all your

1:12:35.000 --> 1:12:36.920
<v Speaker 1>friends had to do the same thing, but like, luckily

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<v Speaker 1>for him with his friend's name, the other guy, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he was like, oh, he wasn't lying like most of

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<v Speaker 1>these niggas be lying.

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<v Speaker 2>Hey.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, he's like, don't knock it till you try it,

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<v Speaker 1>and look, and he gave him permission. It's so crazy

1:12:50.479 --> 1:12:52.040
<v Speaker 1>how we need permission to try shit.

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<v Speaker 2>Humans do humans as women do men do. Obviously, I

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<v Speaker 2>think men probably even more.

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<v Speaker 1>For sure, especially from another man, because and even then

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes not enough, because it's like men kind of validate

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<v Speaker 1>each other's masculinity for sure.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, yeah, because it's about alpha mentality.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, this was a good episode. I really thank you

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<v Speaker 1>the Discord Tribe because there's so much more of that,

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<v Speaker 1>so much more of that.

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<v Speaker 2>There's some rich content over there. There's rich stories. There's

1:13:20.120 --> 1:13:23.360
<v Speaker 2>really interesting stories, interesting people. It's like so cool to

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<v Speaker 2>see all the facets of people all over the world

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<v Speaker 2>just in one space and how they interact with one another.

1:13:29.920 --> 1:13:31.840
<v Speaker 2>And it's such a safe space and it's a cool space.

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<v Speaker 1>And I know, I would think some love affairs are

1:13:34.479 --> 1:13:37.679
<v Speaker 1>happening in there. I see friendships, I see meetups. It's

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<v Speaker 1>just like, you know what it is. It's a tribe

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<v Speaker 1>of free thinkers. It's Jamila's first cult. Stop.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh not, everyone's going to understand our sense of humor.

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<v Speaker 2>We're just kidding.

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<v Speaker 1>It's our first culture. That's the first step. Come to

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<v Speaker 1>the discord and think free talk about sex. Oh, my god,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you again for sharing space with me.

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<v Speaker 2>I love you.

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<v Speaker 1>I love you too. I appreciate you, appreciate Oh we're

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<v Speaker 1>supposed to have new segments this year. What is it

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<v Speaker 1>You didn't look at my notes?

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<v Speaker 2>Hi?

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<v Speaker 1>I probably did. What was one of them? Should we

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<v Speaker 1>do a poll and discord? Yeah? We should. It was yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I had a couple options. My god, yeah, let me know.

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<v Speaker 2>It was like, mom, shit, it was high thoughts.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I feel like this whole episode is

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<v Speaker 1>high thoughts. It is. At some point it became high thoughts.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, well, now it's over. We gotta go.

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<v Speaker 1>I love you, WE love you.

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<v Speaker 2>With a group of like minded women, us amongst a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of other beautiful, amazing people.

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<v Speaker 1>And I guess that's it. Bye. Mm hmmm