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Speaker 2: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 2: I'm Mila.

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Speaker 1: And it's Wednesdays. It's Wednesday, bitches, and it's raining in La.

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Speaker 2: So it's a special all day because it never arranged

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Speaker 2: in motherfucking La. Hey.

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Speaker 1: Hey, hey, hey.

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Speaker 2: That was beautiful, totally necessary the Hills.

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Speaker 1: I'm alive with the sound of music. You know, I

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Speaker 1: haven't really like I don't know if you know this

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Speaker 1: about me super important. I really like musical theater. I

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Speaker 1: know you hate it, but I really love it. So

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Speaker 1: in this.

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Speaker 2: Thirty something year of life, I have come to appreciate

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Speaker 2: musical theater only because.

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Speaker 1: LASS like to. Like two years ago, you hated Hamilton.

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Speaker 2: I told you. In this thirty something years, I was like,

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Speaker 2: this has just happened.

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Speaker 1: It's true. I don't like Hamilton. I know the people

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Speaker 1: are gonna come. You can't like musical theater and not

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Speaker 1: like Hamilton.

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Speaker 2: You can choose which theatrical experiences you enjoy.

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Speaker 1: You never saw you never saw it live. That's why

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Speaker 1: I did not see it live. I did not.

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Speaker 2: I saw it on the television and it was annoying. However,

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Speaker 2: my daughter is got cast it in West Side story.

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Speaker 2: So now you're now you're into musical thing. Now I

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Speaker 2: enjoy it because we had to practice so much, and

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Speaker 2: I was like getting.

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Speaker 1: Really into it.

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Speaker 2: I was trying to like show her how to like

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Speaker 2: get theatrical and like it's so fun use your project.

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Speaker 1: Well that, but also like get quiet and then like

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Speaker 1: get loud and like use your over except face. She'll

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Speaker 1: expression like just use.

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Speaker 2: Your voice to like up the ante and exude emotion

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Speaker 2: and so randomly the other day I had this, I

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Speaker 2: had this song stuck in my head and I was like,

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Speaker 2: why is this song stuck in my head?

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Speaker 1: We're in the car and I just put it on.

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Speaker 1: It was Grease. Oh I love Greece.

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Speaker 2: I got so into it. My daughter was like, can

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Speaker 2: we change this? I was like, no, you, this is

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Speaker 2: something you need to know. I was like, I've never seen.

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I put a little on early. Yeah, we

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Speaker 2: gotta watch Grease now. But I was really empty.

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Speaker 1: You better catch up because I need a man, and

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Speaker 1: my heart is said on.

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Speaker 2: You, you better catch up.

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Speaker 1: You bet, I understand. Listen our our suburban white side

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Speaker 1: is coming through. Honey. It's a fucking classic. I realized

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Speaker 1: that that I got adult, like there was not one

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Speaker 1: single black person at the whole high school.

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Speaker 2: I know, ari I pee Olivia, Olivia Newton, John fucking

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Speaker 2: legend tragedy that she has pass.

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Speaker 1: We still got John though, we do have John. We

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Speaker 1: do have John. He's epic.

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Speaker 2: He's epic.

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Speaker 1: I'd love fucking musical theater. He was also in the

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Speaker 1: redo of Hairspray, which was a fucking phenomena. So fine,

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Speaker 1: he was fine. It was fine as fun.

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Speaker 2: Emphasis on was I don't know what he did his face.

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Speaker 2: He did a lot of stuff to his face, but

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Speaker 2: in the hairline. Is he married to a black woman? Now, okay,

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Speaker 2: he's married to uh, what's her name? She's yeah, she's

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Speaker 2: an actress too, I'm thinking of And I'm pretty sure

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Speaker 2: there's still very much deep into scientologies.

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Speaker 1: That's also I think made him unattractive. I think like

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Speaker 1: they fucked him over there. It's always interesting everyone that

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Speaker 1: joined scientology gets weird looking. It always interests me when

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Speaker 1: like top notch celebrity, Not that celebrities can't be stupid,

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Speaker 1: but it's like, how did you get got like? I

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Speaker 1: would be highly like, I would be highly suspicious if

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Speaker 1: I had a lot of money in a religious like

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Speaker 1: any religious group was trying to recruit me, get the

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Speaker 1: funk away from me.

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Speaker 2: Well, they get you when you're low, they get you

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Speaker 2: when you're down. They know, Like I mean, like any

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Speaker 2: religious have you ever said the episode of of uh,

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Speaker 1: South Park? When they explained scientology, I mean, it's yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's all, That's all I needed to hear. It was like,

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Speaker 1: this is stem Have you ever seen the documentary?

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Speaker 2: I saw some of it and Leah Remonie, she's like

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Speaker 2: a super like she was in it.

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Speaker 1: She was young, she was born into basically, and.

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Speaker 2: Then she had to get pulled out of it because

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Speaker 2: her friend went missing that they still can't find the wife. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: the wife of one of the leaders went missing. And

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Speaker 2: she was like this ain't something's not right because no

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Speaker 2: just didn't disappear off the face of the planet. And

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Speaker 2: then she like exposed like the concentration camps they.

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Speaker 1: Have, oh, because what do you mean a concentration cam?

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Speaker 2: They basically have these these these camps where they send

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Speaker 2: people that have like done wrong in the church and

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Speaker 2: they have to do like they live there. They basically

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Speaker 2: it's a concentration camp. I mean, for lack of a

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Speaker 2: better word, but that's kind of what they call them.

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Speaker 2: And they have to like scrub toilets with toothbrushes.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Remember Mimi from Love and Hip Hop, she was also

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Speaker 2: she got into her mom was in it and she

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Speaker 2: got into it scientology, yes, and it fucked her up

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Speaker 2: pretty badly.

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Speaker 1: She talks about a little bit.

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Speaker 2: But Leah Remeny is like a current active, like proponent

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Speaker 2: of like exposing scientology. I'm honestly surprised that she's like

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Speaker 2: still with us, because they are they'll take you. They're nuts. Listen,

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Speaker 2: shout out to Leah Remene. I would love her to

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Speaker 2: come on the show. Actually, she's fucking hilarious.

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Speaker 1: I do like her.

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Speaker 2: I mean, yeah, I was thinking about us the other

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Speaker 2: day because I was thinking, like Jessica was on talking

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Speaker 2: about her cult experience and like I'm always suspicious of

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Speaker 2: like a month of cults. Cults.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm obsessed with I'm obsessed with cults.

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Speaker 1: Hunh Okay, I'm obsessed with cults because I'm always intrigued

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Speaker 1: by like how people can get got, Like I know,

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Speaker 1: it's possible. And I know people are always like searching

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Speaker 1: and seeking tribe, but I'm so anti like like any

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Speaker 1: my announcement that my religion and it's not only love,

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Speaker 1: but it's free thinking. Okay, Jess, In case everybody is wondering,

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Speaker 1: my religion is freethinking. Got it? Because anytime someone tries

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Speaker 1: to force you to think a certain way, be suspicious.

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Speaker 1: Guy here first, I'm gonna turn into the cult think free,

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Speaker 1: but even the free thinkers we try to force you

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Speaker 1: to do one of them I get. I like, oh

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Speaker 1: my god, I just said this vision.

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Speaker 2: I had this vision of you on the boat in Mexico,

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Speaker 2: trying you on Mollie, trying to convince this girl to

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Speaker 2: getting so fucking pissed. I didn't make that with him.

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Speaker 2: Oh no her, Yeah, get my little girl crushed. You

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Speaker 2: would not leave her alone, and he was so pissed,

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Speaker 2: and you were not reading the room at all.

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Speaker 1: You were just like because you just come back from.

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Speaker 2: Your like I fucking free like acid trip and you

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Speaker 2: were on a motherfucking high. And I was like, bitch,

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Speaker 1: Her boyfriend's gonna beat her after this. Guess what. Guess what,

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Speaker 1: they're not together anything, they aren't.

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Speaker 2: But I think pretty sure that hold their whole trick

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Speaker 2: And then she took it, and then she was like

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Speaker 1: Were like, bye, I goes around. I'm admit I'm a

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Speaker 1: pushy freethinker. If someone looks too wound up when I'm

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Speaker 1: like you gotta get out, you seem to in your head. Well,

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Speaker 1: I think you know.

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Speaker 2: Your retreat leaders has shown you how to massage gently

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Speaker 1: It's dressing me up. Yeah, I've worked on it. I've

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Speaker 1: But you know this is all to say, you guys,

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Speaker 1: Maybe next year consider it, but twenty twenty three is

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Speaker 1: not the year to join colts. So the only cult

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Speaker 2: When you're on a certain they could have got me

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, I mean it's I believe in church.

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Speaker 1: I've had like stints of going to church and like

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Speaker 1: I feel the Holy Spirit and all that good stuff.

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Speaker 1: But I don't know, I get uncomfortable and they start

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Speaker 2: It make bad choices publicly like me and Erica.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's true.

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Speaker 2: I you know, I think it's at some point in

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Speaker 2: the next few years. I got to go back and

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Speaker 2: listen to the show from the beginning. I thought about that,

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Speaker 2: But honestly, I'm scared why.

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I know, I've come a long fucking way.

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Speaker 2: We've all, we've both come a long way, and it's just,

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Speaker 1: Maybe she'll ever do it, maybe she'll just totally reject.

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Speaker 2: We put makeup on for you guys, we do and

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Speaker 1: One day when I stop using creamy crack. When I

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Speaker 2: This is why you don't know popular black terms. You

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Speaker 1: Oh, your mom was burning and I was like, what

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Speaker 2: I think growing up in white spaces for me, because I'm.

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Speaker 1: That are, you know, have mixed race. Yeah, I don't

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Speaker 2: I'm like, you see how I'm getting awkward talking about

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Speaker 1: I don't know why I hate the word mixed race

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Speaker 2: And also I think black people specifically use it as

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Speaker 1: Like like I feel like sometimes black people think that mixed, well,

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Speaker 2: You say mixed like black, Like we want to always

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Speaker 1: Like, like, what were you talking like in reference to

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Speaker 1: But I think that's the same reason people say shit

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Speaker 2: Well, the thing is is like, we can't win really

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Speaker 1: But then when we say we're black, it triggers people. Really. Yeah,

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Speaker 2: All, you're not black because they want to put us

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Speaker 1: Box in our blackness. I feel like if if if

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Speaker 2: That's weird because if I don't know what creamy crack is,

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Speaker 1: No, I'm not saying that to you, but I'm just.

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Speaker 1: Damned if you do, You're damned if you don't. A

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Speaker 2: I'm just saying I do think that, But that is

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Speaker 1: You think that because you don't have to know. I

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Speaker 2: Gonna tell you, Mela, because you are a dark skinned

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Speaker 1: So that's something you don't ever experience. Well obviously not

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Speaker 1: doing singing Greece? Or blink when I need too or whatever.

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Speaker 1: There's like there's always all these rules. It are surrounded

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Speaker 1: about just about race period. It's particularly blackness sensitivity because

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Speaker 2: Every every aspect of blackness comes with things, you know

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Speaker 2: all these variations of blackness, there's these rules about how

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Speaker 2: or if you eat this food or if you listen

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Speaker 2: to this music, when in a word, you've had this experience, right, like,

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Speaker 2: just because you didn't grow up in the hood doesn't

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Speaker 2: mean you're not black, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 1: Or if I talk like this properly, then I'm not black.

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Speaker 2: But like I experience that too, but in obviously a

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Speaker 1: I mean. And it's interesting because obviously we grew up

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Speaker 1: black person in certain spaces and some that are very different,

437
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Speaker 1: you know, So even amongst our own people for sure.

438
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Speaker 2: Yeah, and fucking family members too, absolutely, So I have

439
00:20:01,320 --> 00:20:02,679
Speaker 2: to check friends all the time, like, bit.

440
00:20:04,640 --> 00:20:06,600
Speaker 1: Well, I'm sure. I'm sure some like some white friends

441
00:20:06,600 --> 00:20:08,280
Speaker 1: probably think they can get away of saying certain shit

442
00:20:08,359 --> 00:20:10,440
Speaker 1: to you and vice versa. And I've had people say

443
00:20:10,440 --> 00:20:13,399
Speaker 1: shit to me. I'm like, why did you feel? And

444
00:20:13,480 --> 00:20:15,720
Speaker 1: I know that it's just ignorance in general, and that

445
00:20:15,760 --> 00:20:18,240
Speaker 1: goes on black for black folks and white folks. I

446
00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:19,879
Speaker 1: told you we were. I was in the sushi restaurant.

447
00:20:19,880 --> 00:20:21,159
Speaker 1: I met a new friend and I was like, I

448
00:20:21,160 --> 00:20:23,280
Speaker 1: don't know, we're talking about great hairs. First, I need

449
00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:25,080
Speaker 1: to stop meeting new friends. And I was like, oh,

450
00:20:25,080 --> 00:20:27,080
Speaker 1: I dye my hair black because my hair is really light.

451
00:20:27,200 --> 00:20:28,919
Speaker 1: And she's like, that's so interesting that you have this

452
00:20:29,080 --> 00:20:32,879
Speaker 1: like exotic hair and you choose to diet black, like

453
00:20:32,880 --> 00:20:36,359
Speaker 1: like if most black girls don't have like that exotic look.

454
00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:40,200
Speaker 2: And I was just like exotic hair. And I literally

455
00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:41,840
Speaker 2: knew her for like ten minutes. I was like, why

456
00:20:41,880 --> 00:20:44,920
Speaker 2: the I don't there's certain words that trigger me. I

457
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:48,160
Speaker 2: think you need to define what friend means. You need

458
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Speaker 2: to tighten that up a little bit.

459
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Speaker 1: Just a lady I've met in the sushi rests. Tighten up,

460
00:20:54,200 --> 00:20:57,120
Speaker 1: You're right, I do. Everyone's my friend, not really.

461
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Speaker 2: Anyway, Well, that is our colourism rent for the show. Guys,

462
00:21:01,920 --> 00:21:03,399
Speaker 2: We're going to move on to the next segment.

463
00:21:03,600 --> 00:21:05,760
Speaker 1: People have been dying for us to have that argument,

464
00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:07,960
Speaker 1: but we got it out. Remember someone asked us if

465
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Speaker 1: we've experienced, like, do we experience prejudice because you're light

466
00:21:12,800 --> 00:21:15,000
Speaker 1: skinned and I'm dark skinned? Yeah, I was like what.

467
00:21:15,920 --> 00:21:17,560
Speaker 1: I was like, No, I don't think maybe, but we

468
00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:21,040
Speaker 1: were too for we were too dumb to notice it.

469
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Speaker 1: I don't know.

470
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Speaker 2: Anyway, So I was in our discord. I don't know

471
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Speaker 2: if anyone has joined our discord yet. If you don't

472
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Speaker 2: know what discord is, it's a platform where we chat.

473
00:21:35,880 --> 00:21:37,880
Speaker 2: It's like a chat room. It's like the ultimate chat

474
00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:40,199
Speaker 2: room with different channels. We have all different channels. We

475
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Speaker 2: have one for affirmations or people share affirmations. We have

476
00:21:42,520 --> 00:21:44,959
Speaker 2: one for horries or people share horse stories. We have

477
00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:47,879
Speaker 2: one where we pipe each other up on successes. If

478
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Speaker 2: you're joining our retreat in Costa Rica, which is happening,

479
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:55,880
Speaker 2: we have private channels for our retreaties where we are

480
00:21:55,920 --> 00:22:00,359
Speaker 2: bonding and sharing and talking, but I went into our

481
00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:03,200
Speaker 2: discord today because I felt like I wanted to share

482
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Speaker 2: an affirmation from the tribe.

483
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Speaker 1: So today's affirmation is abundance is coming.

484
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Speaker 2: I deserve it and accept it. And this is from

485
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Speaker 2: Jess Marie, So shout out to jefs Marie.

486
00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:21,520
Speaker 1: Abundance is coming. I deserve it and accept it.

487
00:22:21,760 --> 00:22:26,800
Speaker 2: I deserve it and accept it. Yes, yes, And I

488
00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:29,359
Speaker 2: feel that I feel like I'm already in abundance, but

489
00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:32,480
Speaker 2: more and more is coming. And I've just been really

490
00:22:32,520 --> 00:22:37,240
Speaker 2: trying to focus on thinking positively in January because I

491
00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:39,359
Speaker 2: feel like over the last few months I've been in

492
00:22:39,440 --> 00:22:42,720
Speaker 2: and out of this space and just like worrying, worrying, stress, stressed,

493
00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:46,440
Speaker 2: and just like thankfully, like I think I'm in such

494
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:47,960
Speaker 2: flow of my life that I haven't like a lot

495
00:22:47,960 --> 00:22:51,000
Speaker 2: of bad things haven't been invited into my space. But

496
00:22:51,640 --> 00:22:56,520
Speaker 2: this year, I really really want to fight hard to

497
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Speaker 2: be a positive thinker because I can be sited in

498
00:23:00,560 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 2: my car all day just talking shit and I'm just

499
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:03,359
Speaker 2: worrying what if this hasn't happened?

500
00:23:03,359 --> 00:23:04,800
Speaker 1: With this has happening? Do this? Do we do this?

501
00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:05,560
Speaker 1: Do we do that? Do we do that?

502
00:23:05,600 --> 00:23:05,679
Speaker 2: Oh?

503
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:06,879
Speaker 1: My god, we didn't do this. She didn't do this.

504
00:23:06,920 --> 00:23:08,920
Speaker 1: I didn't do this, We didn't do this, didn't do this.

505
00:23:09,040 --> 00:23:12,199
Speaker 1: I'm just like, bitch, stop. Well. I think, like what

506
00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:13,000
Speaker 1: like when you.

507
00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:17,000
Speaker 2: When you like achieve a lot of things, like like

508
00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:19,560
Speaker 2: we have in a short period of time and manifested

509
00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:22,080
Speaker 2: a lot of things, you don't think about the like

510
00:23:22,359 --> 00:23:25,840
Speaker 2: maintenance that it requires and the anxiety that comes with

511
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Speaker 2: the maintenance, you know, because sometimes I'm like, this is what.

512
00:23:28,000 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 1: We dreamed of, and I'm like, is it you know?

513
00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:38,840
Speaker 1: And of course it is. But like it when you

514
00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:42,560
Speaker 1: when you manifest things, it doesn't come with necessarily like

515
00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:45,200
Speaker 1: a manual, you know. And like we've worked so hard

516
00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:50,679
Speaker 1: on like working on all of these things that you

517
00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:54,320
Speaker 1: don't really learn how to like mentally your mental capacity

518
00:23:54,359 --> 00:23:56,040
Speaker 1: to keep up with it. And I do. I feel

519
00:23:56,080 --> 00:23:58,159
Speaker 1: like this year is really going to be dedicated to

520
00:23:58,320 --> 00:24:02,520
Speaker 1: us dedicating the time to have the mental capacity to

521
00:24:02,560 --> 00:24:05,439
Speaker 1: be present in it and without the anxiety of it

522
00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:08,920
Speaker 1: like disappearing or like upkeeping it, because it does come

523
00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:10,960
Speaker 1: with a lot of anxiety. So I think it requires

524
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:13,080
Speaker 1: that we like do a lot of like spiritual and

525
00:24:13,119 --> 00:24:18,359
Speaker 1: mental exercise to just maintain it all without it being

526
00:24:18,440 --> 00:24:19,320
Speaker 1: super stressful.

527
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Speaker 2: I love that you said the maintenance of it. I've

528
00:24:23,119 --> 00:24:26,080
Speaker 2: never really like viewed it as that, but it really is.

529
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Speaker 1: There is like a maintenance.

530
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Speaker 2: There's spiritual maintenance, there's which you know, there's maintenance of

531
00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:35,359
Speaker 2: your life in general, personal physical maintenance. But I think,

532
00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 2: like the spiritual maintenance is so important to keep inviting

533
00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:42,320
Speaker 2: in the things that you're asking.

534
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Speaker 1: Well, your mental health, Yeah, and like your mental health

535
00:24:45,560 --> 00:24:48,240
Speaker 1: is a direct reflection of how you manifest and like

536
00:24:48,280 --> 00:24:50,680
Speaker 1: how open you are and how like optimistic you are,

537
00:24:50,720 --> 00:24:52,280
Speaker 1: and how inviting you are of the things. If you're

538
00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:56,000
Speaker 1: constantly in a state of anxiety or like worry, then

539
00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:59,000
Speaker 1: it's not going to flow easily. So like I think

540
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:02,200
Speaker 1: in the beginning of this proble, we were just like.

541
00:25:02,600 --> 00:25:05,320
Speaker 2: La la la la, la la la, I'm fucking nep

542
00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:07,320
Speaker 2: and I'm healing, you know what I mean.

543
00:25:07,480 --> 00:25:10,119
Speaker 1: Like it was just like a it was like a

544
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:12,720
Speaker 1: it wasn't that intentional, It wasn't that intentional. It was

545
00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:14,879
Speaker 1: a hobby and there wasn't a lot of pressure. But

546
00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:18,840
Speaker 1: now as the pressure, like as it's less of a hobby,

547
00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:24,040
Speaker 1: it's it's more to maintain, and it's like it's scary

548
00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:26,080
Speaker 1: because you know, like, obviously you come from a background

549
00:25:26,080 --> 00:25:30,919
Speaker 1: where your mom's like a super professional like mogul, but

550
00:25:31,080 --> 00:25:34,040
Speaker 1: like that doesn't necessarily mean we've been given the tools

551
00:25:34,080 --> 00:25:36,560
Speaker 1: to like know how to run our own business or

552
00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:39,600
Speaker 1: like be a business professional. And obviously we are and

553
00:25:39,760 --> 00:25:42,560
Speaker 1: we've grown and we were like maturing into this role,

554
00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:46,560
Speaker 1: but like it's scary when you don't you like, I

555
00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:49,320
Speaker 1: didn't go to fucking business school, which I dropped out,

556
00:25:49,720 --> 00:25:53,560
Speaker 1: you know, and it's just like and it's all on

557
00:25:53,600 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: you and you don't necessarily feel like you've been given

558
00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:57,800
Speaker 1: like the lesson plan to know how to keep up

559
00:25:57,800 --> 00:26:03,560
Speaker 1: with everything, And so there are self doubting thoughts that

560
00:26:03,840 --> 00:26:08,000
Speaker 1: obviously are untrue because we're here. But it's just like

561
00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:10,520
Speaker 1: how do you eliminate those the higher you get in

562
00:26:10,560 --> 00:26:14,440
Speaker 1: your you know, your life. No, it's true. I think

563
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:18,240
Speaker 1: I think there is a level of.

564
00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:22,160
Speaker 2: Faking it till you make it that has that has

565
00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:25,760
Speaker 2: that has happened, and even in our business of like

566
00:26:27,160 --> 00:26:29,480
Speaker 2: it's faking it. But I knew that if we just

567
00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:33,200
Speaker 2: set it and wrote it down, eventually it would be true.

568
00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:36,080
Speaker 2: And I believed that and then it was and I've

569
00:26:36,119 --> 00:26:38,840
Speaker 2: just kept doing that over and over and over again.

570
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:41,680
Speaker 2: And it's been true in my business, it's been true

571
00:26:41,680 --> 00:26:43,600
Speaker 2: in my personal life, it's been true in you know,

572
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:47,119
Speaker 2: just pretty much all aspects of my life. And like

573
00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 2: approaching my problems instead of like looking up at them

574
00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:52,320
Speaker 2: and trying to look down on them so that they

575
00:26:52,320 --> 00:26:54,520
Speaker 2: don't feel so overbearing.

576
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Speaker 1: That's a good way to look at it, you know,

577
00:26:56,640 --> 00:26:56,960
Speaker 1: and like.

578
00:26:56,960 --> 00:27:00,800
Speaker 2: Looking down and saying, okay, like I can see everything here,

579
00:27:01,200 --> 00:27:04,880
Speaker 2: like what is what is my What I've been trying

580
00:27:04,880 --> 00:27:09,280
Speaker 2: to do lately is think about, in my perfect scenario,

581
00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:12,800
Speaker 2: what would the outcome be, not like what is the

582
00:27:12,840 --> 00:27:14,919
Speaker 2: bad outcome? Because I think that's all a lot of

583
00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:18,040
Speaker 2: times where my mind goes the case the worst case

584
00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:21,639
Speaker 2: scenario instead of like the best case scenario. And so

585
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,440
Speaker 2: when you are constantly thinking about the worst case scenario,

586
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:28,840
Speaker 2: and granted, like I've always said, I'm a realist and

587
00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:32,560
Speaker 2: you know, I've been pondering that idea too, and thinking

588
00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:36,439
Speaker 2: like is being a realist actually negative self talk? Like

589
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:39,000
Speaker 2: when you are a realist and saying.

590
00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:41,040
Speaker 1: Like, well, I'm just real about it, like realistically, is

591
00:27:41,080 --> 00:27:43,879
Speaker 1: that really going to happen? Actually? It is? Being a

592
00:27:43,920 --> 00:27:48,159
Speaker 1: realist is being pessimistic because realistically is not where we

593
00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:51,400
Speaker 1: should be thinking. I mean shit, like we didn't realistically

594
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:53,359
Speaker 1: think to get here like we were but not really

595
00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:55,919
Speaker 1: and all the shit happened. And it's like had we

596
00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:59,639
Speaker 1: been thinking overly thinking to realistic and it wouldn't have

597
00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:01,919
Speaker 1: probably manifested this way we were like I don't know,

598
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:03,240
Speaker 1: but that would be nice.

599
00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:05,960
Speaker 2: Like so like what if like instead of you deciding

600
00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:09,160
Speaker 2: that you're a realist, like you are a dreamist I mean,

601
00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,399
Speaker 2: for lack of a better word, and like you just

602
00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:15,639
Speaker 2: dream about the best possible outcome, the best possible scenario,

603
00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:18,520
Speaker 2: Like what does that look like? Instead of like the

604
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:21,639
Speaker 2: worst possible outcome? And granted, I think there is some

605
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:24,840
Speaker 2: realism that has to happen in ways, but.

606
00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:26,439
Speaker 1: Overall maybe not.

607
00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:28,920
Speaker 2: And I think that's kind of like what I'm realizing

608
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:31,520
Speaker 2: at this like in the season of my life and

609
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 2: just this month and over the last thirty days, I

610
00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,479
Speaker 2: feel like lately I've just been like going through kind

611
00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:43,040
Speaker 2: of a bit of a transformation personally, and it's been

612
00:28:43,040 --> 00:28:46,640
Speaker 2: feeling like I'm like, Okay, the way my mind has

613
00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:50,920
Speaker 2: been like moving through manifesting and inviting things in is working,

614
00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 2: but like I'm still feel anxious, i still feel worried.

615
00:28:59,120 --> 00:29:02,160
Speaker 2: There's still negative self talk, So like how do I

616
00:29:02,160 --> 00:29:04,840
Speaker 2: eliminate those things so that things come even more rapidly

617
00:29:04,840 --> 00:29:07,040
Speaker 2: towards me? And a part of that is I think

618
00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:11,200
Speaker 2: like kind of like letting the realist and me die.

619
00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:12,800
Speaker 1: Well.

620
00:29:12,840 --> 00:29:19,000
Speaker 2: I think like the like the realism the realist. It's

621
00:29:18,520 --> 00:29:22,400
Speaker 2: the unfortunate part of like human nature and of like

622
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:23,960
Speaker 2: the society in which we live in.

623
00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:30,280
Speaker 1: Is that realism only gives you space to dream as

624
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:33,960
Speaker 1: much of you as you experienced. So if I'm being realistic,

625
00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:34,480
Speaker 1: that's true.

626
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:38,640
Speaker 2: Yeah. Realistically, you know, I've never had the number one,

627
00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:42,120
Speaker 2: like a number one podcast in the world, so like

628
00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 2: why that realistically? Why would I think that that's something

629
00:29:44,560 --> 00:29:46,720
Speaker 2: that I can do? Like realistically, I'm looking at the

630
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:48,880
Speaker 2: charts and there's forty five people in front of me,

631
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:52,000
Speaker 2: So realistically, like it's going to take this amount of months,

632
00:29:52,040 --> 00:29:54,240
Speaker 2: this amount of work, this amount of guests, you know.

633
00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:57,560
Speaker 1: Like all these things. Realistically, I don't know Sean King Realistically,

634
00:29:57,560 --> 00:29:59,640
Speaker 1: I don't know mel Robins, So like, how is Erkama

635
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:02,560
Speaker 1: and be on my show? You know, like realistically, if

636
00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:05,720
Speaker 1: I've only seen my parents struggle in a marriage, or

637
00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:09,400
Speaker 1: I've only seen a house this big realistically, I can't

638
00:30:09,480 --> 00:30:12,000
Speaker 1: dream that big. But that is the whole point of

639
00:30:12,120 --> 00:30:17,920
Speaker 1: not thinking realistically because it caps at your human experience

640
00:30:17,960 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 1: that you've had up to that point, and it does

641
00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:23,800
Speaker 1: require that you get out of your personal experiences to

642
00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:27,239
Speaker 1: actually obtain things that you've never experienced before. And if

643
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:29,800
Speaker 1: you're constantly thinking that those things are impossible because you've

644
00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:32,040
Speaker 1: never seen them, it won't happen, you know, like I've

645
00:30:32,080 --> 00:30:34,560
Speaker 1: never fucking climbed Mount Everest. I can't do that, but

646
00:30:35,280 --> 00:30:38,480
Speaker 1: I could. And the truth is, the realism is that

647
00:30:38,560 --> 00:30:42,000
Speaker 1: anything that you want to achieve, you can if you

648
00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:46,120
Speaker 1: realistically understand that your experiences are limited and your mind

649
00:30:46,160 --> 00:30:48,560
Speaker 1: will limit you. And in fact, you have to step

650
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:54,360
Speaker 1: out of that, like the confinement of your experiences and

651
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:58,040
Speaker 1: go beyond that, because our dreams are much larger than

652
00:30:58,080 --> 00:31:00,480
Speaker 1: the experiences we've had up till now, and they will

653
00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:03,960
Speaker 1: continue to expand as long as you're able to see

654
00:31:04,000 --> 00:31:06,320
Speaker 1: that vision. And a lot of times our visions are

655
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:09,920
Speaker 1: limited to our real experiences, and that is really not real.

656
00:31:10,680 --> 00:31:14,240
Speaker 1: It's true, you know. That's that's You're right. You have

657
00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:15,520
Speaker 1: to not be so realistic.

658
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:20,320
Speaker 2: You got to be kind of like like huge, you know,

659
00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:25,120
Speaker 2: you have to be huge, and you have to like

660
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:30,400
Speaker 2: cease comparison, Like I feel like comparison is often like

661
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:36,960
Speaker 2: the stealer of all joy, you know, and looking at

662
00:31:37,000 --> 00:31:40,320
Speaker 2: someone else's version of whatever they're they've attained or whatever

663
00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:44,360
Speaker 2: they're of accomplishing and then comparing it to yourself can

664
00:31:44,440 --> 00:31:48,440
Speaker 2: feel can make that realism come in even harder, Like oh,

665
00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:50,920
Speaker 2: I'm not as beautiful as her, or I don't have

666
00:31:51,120 --> 00:31:53,560
Speaker 2: the husband, so that's why my life doesn't look like this,

667
00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 2: or you know, I didn't go to college, so therefore

668
00:31:56,600 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 2: I can't get that job.

669
00:31:58,360 --> 00:32:00,440
Speaker 1: Oh she has this per like she has this parent

670
00:32:00,560 --> 00:32:03,440
Speaker 1: or this financial backing, so that's why she's there and

671
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:06,520
Speaker 1: I can't do that. Yeah, it's like immediately counting yourself

672
00:32:06,520 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 1: out of an experience because you can't visualize yourself there.

673
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:14,160
Speaker 1: But like that is how you get there, by visualizing

674
00:32:14,160 --> 00:32:16,840
Speaker 1: yourself in that space and believing that you were capable

675
00:32:16,840 --> 00:32:19,480
Speaker 1: of doing it, not because you get this husband or

676
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:21,240
Speaker 1: you get this thing. It's just like I know I

677
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:23,080
Speaker 1: can do that too. I don't give a fuck that

678
00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:25,280
Speaker 1: you came from here. I came from there. But I

679
00:32:25,320 --> 00:32:28,080
Speaker 1: am capable of also being in that space. I can

680
00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:29,000
Speaker 1: see myself there.

681
00:32:29,800 --> 00:32:33,160
Speaker 2: Yeah that and also like not negative, not negatively self

682
00:32:33,240 --> 00:32:37,040
Speaker 2: talking that person's experience too, because I think that's also

683
00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:37,719
Speaker 2: to what happens.

684
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:41,320
Speaker 1: And you're like, fuck her. She got some my nerves like.

685
00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:43,040
Speaker 2: Like why could your joy cause she's doing.

686
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:47,000
Speaker 1: Something you didn't do yet it's true, I mean you can,

687
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:48,800
Speaker 1: I've done it. You can absolutely get caught up and

688
00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:52,440
Speaker 1: like why is this bitch succeeding in this? Because you're

689
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:55,080
Speaker 1: too focused on the wrong shit. So I was.

690
00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:57,320
Speaker 2: Looking online and I was or I was on Instagram

691
00:32:57,320 --> 00:33:00,640
Speaker 2: and I saw this. I saved this in my whatever

692
00:33:00,720 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 2: saved fold or whatever they call it over there and

693
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:06,800
Speaker 2: the archives, and it was I don't even know if

694
00:33:06,840 --> 00:33:09,560
Speaker 2: this is a true I don't know if this is true,

695
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:12,840
Speaker 2: but it spoke to me and it's the twelve laws

696
00:33:12,880 --> 00:33:17,440
Speaker 2: of karma. And I feel like karma for me is

697
00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:20,040
Speaker 2: directly in some ways linked.

698
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 1: To how.

699
00:33:23,600 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 2: How how you're able to call in the things you

700
00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:29,239
Speaker 2: want in your life, like how you treat people, how

701
00:33:29,320 --> 00:33:33,280
Speaker 2: you talk about people, acts of service, all these things. Anyway,

702
00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:36,640
Speaker 2: So the first one was is the great law and

703
00:33:36,680 --> 00:33:38,520
Speaker 2: it's whatever we put into the universe will come back

704
00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:42,800
Speaker 2: to us, which I agree. The second was the law

705
00:33:42,840 --> 00:33:45,880
Speaker 2: of creation. Life does not happen by itself. We need

706
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:49,480
Speaker 2: to make it happen, which again is for me. And

707
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:52,880
Speaker 2: manifesting is the action you put behind you know, whatever

708
00:33:53,040 --> 00:33:55,840
Speaker 2: is that you're dreaming big about. The law of humility.

709
00:33:55,840 --> 00:33:58,600
Speaker 2: One must accept something in order to change it. So

710
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:02,800
Speaker 2: instead of fighting against whatever is, just accepting it and

711
00:34:02,840 --> 00:34:05,720
Speaker 2: moving through it so that you can have space to

712
00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:08,439
Speaker 2: have whatever it is the fuck that you want.

713
00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:11,359
Speaker 1: The law of growth, which is number four.

714
00:34:11,360 --> 00:34:14,200
Speaker 2: When when we change ourselves, our lives follow suit and

715
00:34:14,280 --> 00:34:14,919
Speaker 2: change too.

716
00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:18,920
Speaker 1: We can't stay the same. We can't. It's not possible.

717
00:34:18,960 --> 00:34:22,080
Speaker 1: I mean we can. People do it every day. Your

718
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:23,239
Speaker 1: circumstances won't change.

719
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:27,320
Speaker 2: They're miserable. The law of responsibility. We must take responsibility

720
00:34:27,360 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 2: for what is in our lives. So like, hey, like

721
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:33,560
Speaker 2: my situation is fucked up because I've made these choices,

722
00:34:34,160 --> 00:34:38,319
Speaker 2: and not blaming other people for your choices. Number six

723
00:34:38,400 --> 00:34:40,839
Speaker 2: the law of connection. The past, present, and future are

724
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:44,279
Speaker 2: all connected. The law of focus. We cannot think of

725
00:34:44,320 --> 00:34:46,240
Speaker 2: two different things at the same time.

726
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:49,960
Speaker 1: To pitch, I don't know if I'm messed with that one.

727
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:53,800
Speaker 2: That's hard because I'd be thinking of twenty two different

728
00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:55,600
Speaker 2: things at one time, and that forgot the first thing.

729
00:34:56,160 --> 00:34:57,040
Speaker 1: We just did that in there.

730
00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:03,080
Speaker 2: Eight The law of giving and hospitality. Our behavior should

731
00:35:03,120 --> 00:35:06,680
Speaker 2: match our thoughts and actions. The law of here and now.

732
00:35:06,719 --> 00:35:10,799
Speaker 2: We cannot be present if we are looking backwards. Ten

733
00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:15,719
Speaker 2: the law of change. History repeats itself until we learn

734
00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:19,280
Speaker 2: from it and change our path. The law of patience

735
00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:23,839
Speaker 2: and reward. The most valuable rewards require persistence, and then

736
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:25,960
Speaker 2: it's just the last one, the last. The law of

737
00:35:26,000 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 2: significance and inspiration. Rewards are a results of the energy

738
00:35:30,120 --> 00:35:31,640
Speaker 2: and effort we put into it.

739
00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:37,200
Speaker 1: Like thinking of karma reminds me of this episode we

740
00:35:37,239 --> 00:35:39,920
Speaker 1: did with the second episode we did with Beleja and

741
00:35:39,960 --> 00:35:44,120
Speaker 1: her husband called Mama's an Opener Marriage, I think, and

742
00:35:44,239 --> 00:35:46,400
Speaker 1: her husband like said something so profound and it's not

743
00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:48,440
Speaker 1: like that profound, but most things that are profound are

744
00:35:48,480 --> 00:35:51,320
Speaker 1: not that like are super simple. And he was just saying,

745
00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:55,160
Speaker 1: how you know, like basically she was seeing someone and

746
00:35:55,200 --> 00:35:58,279
Speaker 1: he was just like getting at him, like just like

747
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:01,480
Speaker 1: just making it up about him because he realized there

748
00:36:01,480 --> 00:36:03,759
Speaker 1: were things in him that he was doing, and like

749
00:36:03,840 --> 00:36:06,320
Speaker 1: things in the person he was like talking shit about

750
00:36:06,360 --> 00:36:09,399
Speaker 1: that he was denying in himself and that was why

751
00:36:09,440 --> 00:36:11,640
Speaker 1: he was spewing these things like oh that what he's

752
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:13,640
Speaker 1: doing is whack, Like, oh, that's stupid, but it's like

753
00:36:13,640 --> 00:36:15,600
Speaker 1: because he was too scared to go on a women

754
00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:17,920
Speaker 1: and try certain things or you know what I mean.

755
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:19,400
Speaker 1: And I just realized when he said that, like it

756
00:36:19,400 --> 00:36:21,319
Speaker 1: always stuck with me because it's like a lot of

757
00:36:21,360 --> 00:36:24,120
Speaker 1: the times, the things that bother us in people are

758
00:36:24,120 --> 00:36:27,160
Speaker 1: things that we haven't given ourselves permission to explore because

759
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:29,360
Speaker 1: we were like judging ourselves like we're gonna look stupid

760
00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:31,080
Speaker 1: or you don't know about this, or like that's them,

761
00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:33,719
Speaker 1: you know, and like that negative self talk. But it's

762
00:36:33,760 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 1: just like you have to like the energy that you

763
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:38,960
Speaker 1: put out. That karma is real, and it's usually it

764
00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:41,960
Speaker 1: starts with how you're treating yourself and then you project

765
00:36:41,960 --> 00:36:44,920
Speaker 1: that shit into other people and then it feels acceptable.

766
00:36:45,239 --> 00:36:47,680
Speaker 1: So like even if someone's talking, I'm like this is

767
00:36:47,719 --> 00:36:49,560
Speaker 1: so dumb, like what are you talking about? And I'm

768
00:36:49,560 --> 00:36:53,400
Speaker 1: like why are you such a bit Like maybe it's you,

769
00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:55,120
Speaker 1: And then I'm like, damn, maybe it is me.

770
00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:58,400
Speaker 2: Well I think about too, like in the journey of

771
00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:02,879
Speaker 2: healing and like you different modalities for healing and exploring

772
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:05,680
Speaker 2: and like trying things on and stuff. Like a lot

773
00:37:05,680 --> 00:37:07,920
Speaker 2: of times people that haven't begun that journey at all

774
00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 2: and don't even know where to start, they look at

775
00:37:09,600 --> 00:37:10,239
Speaker 2: you and are like.

776
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:11,600
Speaker 1: What the fuck you're weird?

777
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:15,640
Speaker 2: Like why are you? Why are you like chanting? Why

778
00:37:15,680 --> 00:37:19,799
Speaker 2: are you screaming? Why are you lighting candles on full moon?

779
00:37:20,120 --> 00:37:22,759
Speaker 1: Like why are you? Like whatever it is?

780
00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:24,560
Speaker 2: You know, And a lot of it is because they

781
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:26,680
Speaker 2: haven't even begun to do the work, to even.

782
00:37:26,520 --> 00:37:29,960
Speaker 1: Start to like like uncoding what works for them. Well,

783
00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:32,440
Speaker 1: it's just so easy to be like that's stupid, Like

784
00:37:32,560 --> 00:37:33,160
Speaker 1: that's the white people.

785
00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:35,719
Speaker 2: Shit, Oh that's silly. Oh, Like why the fuck would

786
00:37:35,719 --> 00:37:36,120
Speaker 2: I do that?

787
00:37:36,200 --> 00:37:37,560
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, why would you be

788
00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:39,840
Speaker 1: doing Cartwell's bitch, you're thirty four, you know what I mean? Like,

789
00:37:40,320 --> 00:37:42,560
Speaker 1: there's a lot and that's the same shit, the same

790
00:37:42,560 --> 00:37:45,640
Speaker 1: shit that doesn't allow you to try the modalities because

791
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:48,920
Speaker 1: you're so busy thinking judging what it is you haven't

792
00:37:48,960 --> 00:37:51,720
Speaker 1: tried it. And I'm like, I'm a tryer of things,

793
00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:54,319
Speaker 1: you know a bit, You'll try some shit. You know,

794
00:37:54,440 --> 00:37:56,160
Speaker 1: because I'm like, fuck it, I'm not gonna knock it

795
00:37:56,200 --> 00:37:58,000
Speaker 1: till I try it. But I too have had times

796
00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:00,520
Speaker 1: where I'm like, this is ridiculous. You guys, remember that

797
00:38:00,560 --> 00:38:02,959
Speaker 1: time we went to the conference and the white women

798
00:38:03,000 --> 00:38:05,040
Speaker 1: were like jumping up and down and making weird noises,

799
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:07,000
Speaker 1: and we were like, where the fuck are we at?

800
00:38:07,480 --> 00:38:09,400
Speaker 1: And then like two years later, we're doing same thing.

801
00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:11,920
Speaker 1: We totally we judge them. We're like, this is strange.

802
00:38:11,920 --> 00:38:13,600
Speaker 2: But you know, I think too white was strange because

803
00:38:13,600 --> 00:38:15,720
Speaker 2: we didn't see one person in that room that looked

804
00:38:15,719 --> 00:38:18,160
Speaker 2: like us. I think if that was a room full

805
00:38:18,200 --> 00:38:21,160
Speaker 2: of like brown and black people mixed with some other races,

806
00:38:21,200 --> 00:38:23,520
Speaker 2: we would have been like, this is interesting. We probably

807
00:38:23,560 --> 00:38:26,080
Speaker 2: still would have judged, but maybe been more open to it.

808
00:38:26,280 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 2: I think oftentimes it's really hard to accept or be

809
00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:32,360
Speaker 2: open yourself up to spaces where you don't you physically

810
00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 2: don't see yourself in them. It feels foreign, it feels unnerving,

811
00:38:37,640 --> 00:38:40,759
Speaker 2: it feels like you're not invited. So I think when

812
00:38:40,760 --> 00:38:43,760
Speaker 2: you don't have those kind of spaces, like that's what happens.

813
00:38:43,840 --> 00:38:46,080
Speaker 2: And that's why I'm so grateful that we have the

814
00:38:46,120 --> 00:38:47,600
Speaker 2: space that we have and I'm so glad that we

815
00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:51,880
Speaker 2: have our retreat because obviously the retreat is for all women,

816
00:38:52,040 --> 00:38:55,960
Speaker 2: all races, all ages. However, I find that a lot

817
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:57,960
Speaker 2: of the women that come are women of color, and

818
00:38:58,360 --> 00:39:00,680
Speaker 2: I'm so happy that they come because they're able to

819
00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:05,360
Speaker 2: see themselves in these spaces doing different shit, shit that

820
00:39:05,400 --> 00:39:08,279
Speaker 2: they would never try in their town, especially like in

821
00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:11,239
Speaker 2: certain towns where they are they're I mean generally we're

822
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:13,080
Speaker 2: most of the minority and everywhere we go, but they're

823
00:39:13,160 --> 00:39:17,640
Speaker 2: really the minority in the yoga studio, in the meditation lounge,

824
00:39:18,040 --> 00:39:20,080
Speaker 2: in whatever space that they're trying to go to to

825
00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:23,080
Speaker 2: do the healing. And unfortunately it gets in the way

826
00:39:23,120 --> 00:39:25,239
Speaker 2: sometimes even though it shouldn't, and even though, like I

827
00:39:25,360 --> 00:39:27,239
Speaker 2: always want to, I want to encourage you right now,

828
00:39:27,280 --> 00:39:29,880
Speaker 2: if you're listening, still go go.

829
00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:32,200
Speaker 1: And do that shit. You You'll make a friend there.

830
00:39:32,320 --> 00:39:32,720
Speaker 1: You will.

831
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 2: There's someone there waiting to be your friend, probably all

832
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,440
Speaker 2: of them. But a lot of times we don't feel

833
00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:39,920
Speaker 2: like we have we're invited and we have a seat

834
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:42,480
Speaker 2: at that table because we don't see ourselves there.

835
00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:44,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, or that it's relatable, or that they're going to

836
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:48,440
Speaker 1: understand where I'm coming from because maybe I'm experiencing, you know,

837
00:39:48,880 --> 00:39:51,440
Speaker 1: a different struggle or a different obstacle than you.

838
00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:57,040
Speaker 2: H it's true, and you know, manifesting like I just

839
00:39:57,040 --> 00:40:00,080
Speaker 2: feel like at its core, like it doesn't have to

840
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:04,359
Speaker 2: be that complicated, and I think people have made I mean,

841
00:40:04,400 --> 00:40:07,160
Speaker 2: there's different ways to manifest and everyone has their own

842
00:40:07,400 --> 00:40:09,800
Speaker 2: things that they do. But at the core, it's really

843
00:40:10,160 --> 00:40:13,359
Speaker 2: just the start. The start is a positive self talk,

844
00:40:13,520 --> 00:40:17,799
Speaker 2: be believing in yourself and see action like there's things

845
00:40:17,840 --> 00:40:21,680
Speaker 2: in between there and and actually me and Mila have

846
00:40:21,800 --> 00:40:24,719
Speaker 2: created a document, a document. We can't call it a

847
00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:28,240
Speaker 2: a PDF, can't call it a PF don't let the PDF.

848
00:40:28,280 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 1: No, it's a digital asset.

849
00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:34,880
Speaker 2: Well, I don't know a beautiful pamphlet.

850
00:40:35,000 --> 00:40:37,280
Speaker 1: No one uses pamphlet anymore. This is not a hotel

851
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:38,600
Speaker 1: if you.

852
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:43,279
Speaker 2: Check the pamphlet, the experience in which we know, we

853
00:40:43,320 --> 00:40:46,279
Speaker 2: talk about these like we've created a handbook, these actual

854
00:40:46,840 --> 00:40:50,040
Speaker 2: tools and steps that can help you at least just

855
00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 2: start the process of manifesting and believing in yourself and.

856
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:59,920
Speaker 1: Like creating real uh just real.

857
00:41:00,520 --> 00:41:03,839
Speaker 2: Things and writing things down where you're like, Okay, this

858
00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:05,160
Speaker 2: is what I want to invite in because a lot

859
00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:07,680
Speaker 2: of times we don't even know what we want, Like,

860
00:41:07,760 --> 00:41:09,279
Speaker 2: we have a lot of things what we want, and

861
00:41:09,320 --> 00:41:10,799
Speaker 2: so we're trying to focus on all of them, and

862
00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:14,080
Speaker 2: it's like we have to hone it in and like decide, Okay,

863
00:41:14,080 --> 00:41:16,319
Speaker 2: this is what I'm focusing on right now. So I'm

864
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:19,399
Speaker 2: just really excited for you guys to read through it

865
00:41:19,719 --> 00:41:22,759
Speaker 2: and apply it to your life. And you know, we

866
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:24,920
Speaker 2: get to share the tools that have worked for us.

867
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 2: And you know, if you've been following us from the

868
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Speaker 2: beginning of Good Moms, then you know, like you saw

869
00:41:30,880 --> 00:41:33,720
Speaker 2: us in my dining room. We were in my dining

870
00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:38,240
Speaker 2: room recording this show. We are now in our studio

871
00:41:38,520 --> 00:41:43,279
Speaker 2: in the Hollywood Hills recording our show. So this is

872
00:41:43,520 --> 00:41:48,759
Speaker 2: literally the power of manifestation. And you know, obviously me

873
00:41:48,760 --> 00:41:51,440
Speaker 2: and Mila together have manifested a lot, but you don't necessarily,

874
00:41:51,440 --> 00:41:53,399
Speaker 2: you don't need Amla or an Erica to do your

875
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 2: own manifesting. However, I am really excited to do a

876
00:41:57,600 --> 00:41:59,520
Speaker 2: lot of manifesting in the jungle with a group of

877
00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:04,440
Speaker 2: women because there is power in numbers, and just like

878
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:07,680
Speaker 2: bringing that element, being able to bring that element live

879
00:42:07,800 --> 00:42:11,560
Speaker 2: to people is super special, Like being able to like

880
00:42:12,080 --> 00:42:16,040
Speaker 2: do it in groups and really like hone all of

881
00:42:16,080 --> 00:42:19,439
Speaker 2: our energy, hone all of our divine feminine energy as

882
00:42:19,560 --> 00:42:24,239
Speaker 2: one to really put intention behind each woman's dreams.

883
00:42:24,560 --> 00:42:28,359
Speaker 1: Like it's just that's excites me when we do that absolutely,

884
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:31,640
Speaker 1: Like the collective is powerful and like you know, it's

885
00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,759
Speaker 1: one thing to put your own energy all the time,

886
00:42:33,800 --> 00:42:37,440
Speaker 1: and that's powerful. We're all like superhuman, you know, we

887
00:42:37,520 --> 00:42:42,840
Speaker 1: have superpower powers. But like when you collectively have a

888
00:42:42,960 --> 00:42:46,160
Speaker 1: like a community of people where you trust and you

889
00:42:46,160 --> 00:42:49,520
Speaker 1: can collectively harness that power, it is super powerful.

890
00:42:50,800 --> 00:42:54,719
Speaker 2: We also manifested a studio in which we can smoke

891
00:42:54,760 --> 00:42:56,400
Speaker 2: Weedn't how that was.

892
00:42:56,680 --> 00:42:58,839
Speaker 1: That's like, that's how we know we manifested the ship

893
00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:01,759
Speaker 1: because this is very rare. This is you don't just go.

894
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:04,560
Speaker 2: Into studio places where you can just be smoking in

895
00:43:04,680 --> 00:43:05,480
Speaker 2: the office place.

896
00:43:05,680 --> 00:43:09,040
Speaker 1: You know. They told we told everyone that guy approved

897
00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:11,359
Speaker 1: us was gonna give us the keys and then told

898
00:43:11,440 --> 00:43:14,160
Speaker 1: us he checked our stuff and that we smoke weed

899
00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:15,920
Speaker 1: and that we curse and that he's not gonna be

900
00:43:15,920 --> 00:43:17,879
Speaker 1: able to give us the space. That was like eight

901
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:20,560
Speaker 1: months ago, and fuck that guy. Yeah, And we were

902
00:43:20,560 --> 00:43:22,759
Speaker 1: patient and we wrote it down and we and we

903
00:43:22,800 --> 00:43:25,520
Speaker 1: literally wrote down like office that we can smoke in,

904
00:43:26,600 --> 00:43:29,520
Speaker 1: like that was super important, and here we are. We

905
00:43:29,600 --> 00:43:31,200
Speaker 1: are smoking the weeds.

906
00:43:31,640 --> 00:43:34,760
Speaker 2: So if you're interested in just you know, getting started

907
00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:37,920
Speaker 2: and manifesting, click the link in this episode description, or

908
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:41,040
Speaker 2: go to our website at Good mom'spad Choices dot com

909
00:43:41,680 --> 00:43:42,600
Speaker 2: and check it out.

910
00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:45,239
Speaker 1: Let us know, give us your feedback, and we're going

911
00:43:45,320 --> 00:43:50,560
Speaker 1: to continue to make you know, continue to create how

912
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:52,680
Speaker 1: to's on things that we like, you know, like the

913
00:43:52,680 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 1: tools that we've learned because.

914
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:56,960
Speaker 2: People ask us all the time, and like it's one

915
00:43:56,960 --> 00:44:00,479
Speaker 2: thing to listen to an episode, but I know, even

916
00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:04,200
Speaker 2: like I'm diving into audibles lately and sometimes I'm like

917
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 2: sometimes I'm like, damn it, now I know why it's

918
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:09,120
Speaker 2: better to read books sometimes because then I can like

919
00:44:09,520 --> 00:44:11,719
Speaker 2: highlight and write down, Like when I'm listening, it's hard

920
00:44:11,760 --> 00:44:16,319
Speaker 2: for me to capture, so we've highlighted it for you.

921
00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:22,400
Speaker 1: It's true, I mean, and even to just like business partnerships,

922
00:44:22,760 --> 00:44:27,000
Speaker 1: you know, like obviously like uh, physical things like houses

923
00:44:27,040 --> 00:44:28,680
Speaker 1: and not that any of us are living in a

924
00:44:28,680 --> 00:44:32,920
Speaker 1: mansion right now but soon, and like cars, and like

925
00:44:33,000 --> 00:44:35,520
Speaker 1: businesses and like book deals those are things too. But

926
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:38,920
Speaker 1: even like love and your hopes of like where your

927
00:44:38,920 --> 00:44:41,160
Speaker 1: mental health will be and your spiritual practice will be.

928
00:44:41,160 --> 00:44:43,479
Speaker 1: Those those are all things that are like manifestival too.

929
00:44:43,920 --> 00:44:46,799
Speaker 1: And even if you don't I feel like, even if

930
00:44:46,840 --> 00:44:49,200
Speaker 1: you don't see it or you don't know how it's

931
00:44:49,239 --> 00:44:51,200
Speaker 1: going to get there. Like even in my relationship I

932
00:44:51,560 --> 00:44:53,600
Speaker 1: had probably was like, no one's gonna want to fuck

933
00:44:53,640 --> 00:44:55,680
Speaker 1: with me, Like I've talked way too much on the internet.

934
00:44:56,600 --> 00:44:59,040
Speaker 1: My titties are always out, like I just had probably

935
00:44:59,080 --> 00:45:00,920
Speaker 1: like let it go. But in my mind, I was like,

936
00:45:00,960 --> 00:45:05,800
Speaker 1: there's gotta be someone. There's gotta be someone with the shits.

937
00:45:06,160 --> 00:45:07,440
Speaker 1: I was like, see it online.

938
00:45:07,440 --> 00:45:10,840
Speaker 2: I'm like, look at Pamela Anderson and Tolmily that.

939
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:14,279
Speaker 1: From twenty years ago. She figured it out, Billie. They

940
00:45:14,320 --> 00:45:17,239
Speaker 1: didn't last, but fuck it, someone is gonna meet me

941
00:45:17,600 --> 00:45:20,520
Speaker 1: as rockstar as I am. And I was adamant about

942
00:45:20,520 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: that shit. And even when I had so many friends

943
00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:25,920
Speaker 1: like girl, you need to calm down. Oh you're not

944
00:45:25,960 --> 00:45:28,120
Speaker 1: gonna find anyone. You need to be less honest, and

945
00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:31,600
Speaker 1: I was like I can't physically, I can't do it.

946
00:45:32,600 --> 00:45:36,440
Speaker 1: And and it's true, like even without like necessarily knowing

947
00:45:36,480 --> 00:45:38,880
Speaker 1: how it's gonna come. It will come as long as

948
00:45:38,880 --> 00:45:41,919
Speaker 1: you're secure in what you want and who you are

949
00:45:42,040 --> 00:45:43,960
Speaker 1: and that you're going to get there. And it doesn't

950
00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,040
Speaker 1: matter like what it is that you're manifesting, because like

951
00:45:46,280 --> 00:45:47,560
Speaker 1: a bit, you didn't know I was going to be

952
00:45:47,600 --> 00:45:51,160
Speaker 1: fucking podcasting, you know, five years ago to this extent

953
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:55,160
Speaker 1: for five years, and it didn't matter because I was like,

954
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:57,160
Speaker 1: I will if I want to, and here we are.

955
00:45:57,280 --> 00:45:57,440
Speaker 2: You know.

956
00:45:57,520 --> 00:46:01,879
Speaker 1: It's just like the consistency of no knowing, just expecting

957
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:04,840
Speaker 1: your blessings, you know, like I expect this to happen,

958
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:06,319
Speaker 1: and so I'm gonna put in the work and it's

959
00:46:06,320 --> 00:46:08,840
Speaker 1: gonna come, and I'm gonna work on myself. Doesn't mean

960
00:46:08,840 --> 00:46:10,879
Speaker 1: I'm going to necessarily try and change myself or water

961
00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 1: down for a nigga, because that's impossible, but I'm going

962
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Speaker 1: to work on myself so when whoever comes, they're going

963
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Speaker 1: to recognize the good that I have to offer, you know.

964
00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:22,520
Speaker 1: And sometimes so often we're so busy telling ourselves like, realistically,

965
00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 1: no one's gonna want a date a bitch for their

966
00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:28,600
Speaker 1: titties out. Realistically, no one, you know, Realistically, two moms

967
00:46:28,960 --> 00:46:32,719
Speaker 1: can't talk about spoken pot on a podcast and become successful.

968
00:46:32,800 --> 00:46:34,040
Speaker 1: That's not realize.

969
00:46:33,920 --> 00:46:36,960
Speaker 2: Never, I mean honestly, like I never thought that when

970
00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:38,759
Speaker 2: that became apparent to me that that was a thing

971
00:46:38,840 --> 00:46:41,680
Speaker 2: that people thought about like us.

972
00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:42,319
Speaker 1: And me and you.

973
00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:45,720
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, okay, well this is a life.

974
00:46:45,840 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 2: This is not what I I didn't this is not

975
00:46:47,719 --> 00:46:50,719
Speaker 2: something I anticipated. But having a show about like two

976
00:46:50,760 --> 00:46:52,840
Speaker 2: moms smoking weed, well that and then people saying like,

977
00:46:52,880 --> 00:46:56,719
Speaker 2: now you're unlovable, Now you're not worthy, Like I had

978
00:46:56,760 --> 00:46:58,600
Speaker 2: other reasons why I thought I wasn't worthy.

979
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:03,799
Speaker 1: It wasn't that this is actually my main thing. Are

980
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:05,399
Speaker 1: you sure this is the best thing about me here?

981
00:47:05,440 --> 00:47:07,520
Speaker 1: You know what that's really?

982
00:47:07,560 --> 00:47:10,440
Speaker 2: And then I had to remember, like this is the

983
00:47:10,480 --> 00:47:13,239
Speaker 2: happiest I've ever been. This is the most purposeful I've

984
00:47:13,239 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 2: ever felt. Like fuck what you said, funk what you think? Okay, well,

985
00:47:17,320 --> 00:47:19,879
Speaker 2: there was a morning that happened, like I there was

986
00:47:19,880 --> 00:47:21,239
Speaker 2: like I was sad about it for a while, but

987
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:23,879
Speaker 2: then like I feel very much empowered in knowing that

988
00:47:24,000 --> 00:47:27,200
Speaker 2: like the person that is for me will show up

989
00:47:27,360 --> 00:47:30,200
Speaker 2: and be perfect for me, you know what I mean?

990
00:47:30,239 --> 00:47:34,120
Speaker 2: And like it it's like even then when you show

991
00:47:34,239 --> 00:47:36,520
Speaker 2: up as yourself and your mooth, authentic self.

992
00:47:36,560 --> 00:47:37,400
Speaker 1: You can't lose.

993
00:47:37,640 --> 00:47:39,759
Speaker 2: You can can't lose in love, you can't lose in

994
00:47:39,840 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 2: whatever that you're passionate about, you can't lose in Like

995
00:47:43,040 --> 00:47:46,000
Speaker 2: there's just the level of I feel like karmic blessing

996
00:47:46,080 --> 00:47:47,400
Speaker 2: you get just from showing up.

997
00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:50,480
Speaker 1: Well, well, you have to think about it, like we're

998
00:47:50,520 --> 00:47:55,440
Speaker 1: all like, uh, like divine creatures. We're all created like

999
00:47:55,680 --> 00:47:59,799
Speaker 1: exactly how we're supposed to be fucking pandas panda kangaroos,

1000
00:47:59,840 --> 00:48:02,320
Speaker 1: can aroo in Australia, Like we're all of a certain

1001
00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:06,520
Speaker 1: like we're all like spiritual beings that were planted here

1002
00:48:06,560 --> 00:48:09,960
Speaker 1: specifically with purpose. I know if we veer outside of

1003
00:48:10,160 --> 00:48:13,920
Speaker 1: exactly who we are. If I'm a fucking kangaroo in China,

1004
00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:16,880
Speaker 1: bitch is not gonna work. My food is not there,

1005
00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:19,440
Speaker 1: my alignment is not there. If I'm a kangaroo acting

1006
00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:21,920
Speaker 1: like I'm a fucking polar bear, bitch, I'm gonna die.

1007
00:48:22,520 --> 00:48:26,040
Speaker 1: But it's just about like honing in on exactly who

1008
00:48:26,040 --> 00:48:29,839
Speaker 1: you are without all of the noise of social standards.

1009
00:48:30,000 --> 00:48:32,760
Speaker 1: Your mama, your daddy, your cousin, your auntie, your teacher.

1010
00:48:32,840 --> 00:48:37,160
Speaker 1: It's just like we forget that we're divine beings. God

1011
00:48:38,200 --> 00:48:41,400
Speaker 1: Spirit has placed us here and our only job is

1012
00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:44,040
Speaker 1: to show up as ourselves for sure. But the world

1013
00:48:44,040 --> 00:48:45,600
Speaker 1: tells you like that's not good enough, and then you

1014
00:48:45,600 --> 00:48:47,799
Speaker 1: start telling yourself that's not good enough or it's too much,

1015
00:48:47,920 --> 00:48:50,239
Speaker 1: or it's to this, or it's too weird. But bitch,

1016
00:48:50,280 --> 00:48:53,040
Speaker 1: you're supposed to be weird. Look at weird Out. Do

1017
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:54,920
Speaker 1: you think he would have been weird out without being weird?

1018
00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:58,279
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I don't know. It's the

1019
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:00,360
Speaker 1: best I could come up, you know, you know my SiO.

1020
00:49:00,440 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 1: So that's that white side, not my best. But you

1021
00:49:04,239 --> 00:49:08,200
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, I'm kidding. But that's the thing, Like,

1022
00:49:08,320 --> 00:49:12,000
Speaker 1: our divine purpose is in being exactly who we are,

1023
00:49:12,040 --> 00:49:14,360
Speaker 1: and the things that are meant for us cannot find

1024
00:49:14,480 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 1: us if we're not comfortable in being exactly who we are.

1025
00:49:18,360 --> 00:49:22,600
Speaker 1: Even if it's smoking pop moms. There were more than that,

1026
00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:23,759
Speaker 1: But you know what I mean, Like.

1027
00:49:24,080 --> 00:49:28,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, I totally agree. I also think that we are

1028
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:34,680
Speaker 2: also we are also I guess what I guess I'm

1029
00:49:34,719 --> 00:49:37,040
Speaker 2: trying to say is like we are still extensions of

1030
00:49:37,040 --> 00:49:39,360
Speaker 2: our ancestors and the people were influenced by the people

1031
00:49:39,360 --> 00:49:43,120
Speaker 2: that we are from, but we have to I guess

1032
00:49:43,160 --> 00:49:47,200
Speaker 2: in this lifetime being yourself, you kind of find discernment

1033
00:49:47,239 --> 00:49:49,320
Speaker 2: and the pieces that you want to take from those people.

1034
00:49:49,680 --> 00:49:51,160
Speaker 1: Like I am not like my mother.

1035
00:49:51,320 --> 00:49:54,160
Speaker 2: I have pieces of her because I am of her,

1036
00:49:54,560 --> 00:49:58,879
Speaker 2: but I have my own spiritual divine reasoning for being

1037
00:49:58,920 --> 00:50:03,000
Speaker 2: here and having I guess autonomy over my spirit in ways.

1038
00:50:03,640 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 2: And so I think that you take what you need

1039
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:09,840
Speaker 2: from the people that you come from, but hopefully like

1040
00:50:09,880 --> 00:50:13,440
Speaker 2: you're able to like have the discernment.

1041
00:50:13,440 --> 00:50:15,480
Speaker 1: And that's the hardest part, is knowing what is of

1042
00:50:15,520 --> 00:50:17,680
Speaker 1: you and what is of other people. I'm still figuring

1043
00:50:17,680 --> 00:50:20,560
Speaker 1: that out, you know, Like it's that's enlightenment, I guess,

1044
00:50:20,640 --> 00:50:24,760
Speaker 1: because I mean I'm not there yet, and even parts

1045
00:50:24,760 --> 00:50:27,880
Speaker 1: of you that are in spite of people, you know

1046
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like, and I'm this way in spite

1047
00:50:30,440 --> 00:50:32,479
Speaker 1: because like I hated that my mom was this way.

1048
00:50:32,600 --> 00:50:35,759
Speaker 1: So I've done like the complete like the complete opposite,

1049
00:50:35,840 --> 00:50:38,800
Speaker 1: because sometimes there's that too. But I also feel like

1050
00:50:38,840 --> 00:50:43,080
Speaker 1: sometimes like it's about taking things from people, but also

1051
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:47,960
Speaker 1: kind of like we are living in a in a

1052
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:51,480
Speaker 1: generation that's so different than the like where our parents

1053
00:50:51,560 --> 00:50:54,560
Speaker 1: were able to like completely be themselves, especially as women.

1054
00:50:55,080 --> 00:51:01,080
Speaker 1: But I think sometimes we are actually breaking generational curses

1055
00:51:01,120 --> 00:51:04,200
Speaker 1: in a major way because we are we could be

1056
00:51:04,280 --> 00:51:07,600
Speaker 1: more clear about who we are without just like the

1057
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,239
Speaker 1: I just feel like in general, as time evolves, there's

1058
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:13,040
Speaker 1: a lot of fucked up shit that happens too, like

1059
00:51:13,680 --> 00:51:14,640
Speaker 1: eating plastic, but.

1060
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:17,320
Speaker 2: We we do have.

1061
00:51:17,239 --> 00:51:20,960
Speaker 1: The freedom to show up more as ourselves, you know,

1062
00:51:20,960 --> 00:51:23,279
Speaker 1: obviously look like the like evolution of women, like look,

1063
00:51:23,320 --> 00:51:25,480
Speaker 1: my whole thigh is out. That probably couldn't happen in

1064
00:51:25,520 --> 00:51:27,239
Speaker 1: a certain time. I don't know what era, but you know,

1065
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:29,560
Speaker 1: I feel like it started there naked, and then it

1066
00:51:29,600 --> 00:51:32,080
Speaker 1: went well, and then it went back. So you know,

1067
00:51:32,760 --> 00:51:35,799
Speaker 1: it's true. It's true, but it's we're all influenced by

1068
00:51:35,840 --> 00:51:39,200
Speaker 1: this outside world, and it's important that you know you

1069
00:51:39,360 --> 00:51:43,680
Speaker 1: just like who the fuck you are. Yeah, because then

1070
00:51:43,719 --> 00:51:46,160
Speaker 1: your mom tell you it's not likely that like your

1071
00:51:46,239 --> 00:51:49,960
Speaker 1: job is not what did she say about this job

1072
00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:52,600
Speaker 1: is not likely going to find you a us?

1073
00:51:53,239 --> 00:51:54,960
Speaker 2: She said, Oh yeah, it's gonna be much harder for

1074
00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:58,600
Speaker 2: me to find someone I don't know. Essentially, like I

1075
00:51:58,640 --> 00:51:59,759
Speaker 2: don't know, I felt like she was trying to say,

1076
00:51:59,760 --> 00:52:01,800
Speaker 2: like a sustainable man like one that's.

1077
00:52:01,600 --> 00:52:04,920
Speaker 1: Like serious serious, But then then you tell a guy

1078
00:52:04,960 --> 00:52:08,359
Speaker 1: you're dating and he was like, that's true. Yeah, but

1079
00:52:08,400 --> 00:52:09,640
Speaker 1: that's the thing. That's what I'm saying.

1080
00:52:09,680 --> 00:52:13,920
Speaker 2: Like there's been a level of like okay, like mourning

1081
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:17,080
Speaker 2: that I've had to say like, wow, okay, someone that

1082
00:52:17,160 --> 00:52:19,920
Speaker 2: I love thinks that of me or of what I

1083
00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:22,680
Speaker 2: do that brings me happiness and joy.

1084
00:52:23,440 --> 00:52:26,000
Speaker 1: And then and then and then be able to make

1085
00:52:26,040 --> 00:52:28,080
Speaker 1: it not hurt your feelings and then be like that

1086
00:52:28,080 --> 00:52:29,879
Speaker 1: doesn't hurt my feelings at all, or.

1087
00:52:29,960 --> 00:52:34,680
Speaker 2: Make you self dumb? I like, is this too much?

1088
00:52:34,880 --> 00:52:37,040
Speaker 2: Am I doing the most? Can't I shut the fuck up?

1089
00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:41,439
Speaker 2: Could I spin this? Could I like, loo hold more?

1090
00:52:41,719 --> 00:52:45,600
Speaker 2: Could I be stressed out about this shit? Could I

1091
00:52:45,680 --> 00:52:49,040
Speaker 2: you know what I'm saying, like, and yeah, if anything,

1092
00:52:49,120 --> 00:52:50,799
Speaker 2: I just try to listen to my body. If it

1093
00:52:50,840 --> 00:52:53,719
Speaker 2: makes my body feel uncomfortable, then it's probably not for me.

1094
00:52:53,880 --> 00:52:56,320
Speaker 2: And whenever when I felt that, I was like, oh damn,

1095
00:52:56,440 --> 00:52:59,880
Speaker 2: like this is yeah, no, this is not of me.

1096
00:53:00,160 --> 00:53:03,120
Speaker 1: This is a view. Be your own people, This is

1097
00:53:03,160 --> 00:53:07,480
Speaker 1: a view. So I feel secure in that. So and

1098
00:53:07,600 --> 00:53:08,960
Speaker 1: you have to and then that's a part of the

1099
00:53:08,960 --> 00:53:11,480
Speaker 1: growing process. If you're not willing to like say, hey,

1100
00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:14,040
Speaker 1: is this me or is this someone else and sit

1101
00:53:14,120 --> 00:53:18,040
Speaker 1: on it, you know, deeply, and like decide that's important.

1102
00:53:18,200 --> 00:53:20,920
Speaker 1: Most people just immediately if someone doesn't like it, they're like,

1103
00:53:20,920 --> 00:53:22,600
Speaker 1: oh no, this is the wrong decision. And me and

1104
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:24,160
Speaker 1: Erka would have been nowhere if we would have listened

1105
00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:26,359
Speaker 1: to everybody's fucking opinion, we would have never I don't

1106
00:53:26,360 --> 00:53:29,359
Speaker 1: know where the fuck would be. But like stressed out

1107
00:53:29,360 --> 00:53:32,520
Speaker 1: worried about people's opinion. Even now that I'm in a relationship,

1108
00:53:32,560 --> 00:53:35,880
Speaker 1: like a serious relationship and my person knows me, like

1109
00:53:36,200 --> 00:53:38,759
Speaker 1: you know, like there's no there's no fucking surprises. It's

1110
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:41,799
Speaker 1: not gonna be like someone date people, I'd be like,

1111
00:53:41,840 --> 00:53:43,759
Speaker 1: this would be the test. Like, so, if you're out

1112
00:53:43,760 --> 00:53:45,680
Speaker 1: in public and someone randomly comes up to you and

1113
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:48,560
Speaker 1: just discloses some random information about me, how are you

1114
00:53:48,560 --> 00:53:51,520
Speaker 1: going to feel if it's sexual? You know what I mean,

1115
00:53:51,560 --> 00:53:54,440
Speaker 1: because that can happen, but like it's bound to it's

1116
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:57,080
Speaker 1: bound to actually like you.

1117
00:53:57,120 --> 00:53:58,840
Speaker 2: I just mean in general, And that's a question that

1118
00:53:58,880 --> 00:54:01,640
Speaker 2: most people don't really ask the person, and it's a

1119
00:54:01,680 --> 00:54:06,920
Speaker 2: defining question because sex really matters to people. And then

1120
00:54:07,040 --> 00:54:11,040
Speaker 2: imagine then amplifying that to like millions of people. Yeah,

1121
00:54:11,120 --> 00:54:13,279
Speaker 2: you know, like that's a hard pill to swallow. But

1122
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:16,360
Speaker 2: it's actually now like on this part of my journey

1123
00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:21,200
Speaker 2: because I do have a partner that I know is

1124
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:22,360
Speaker 2: going to be in my life forever.

1125
00:54:23,280 --> 00:54:25,239
Speaker 1: I do. I do feel like I'm embarking on this

1126
00:54:25,320 --> 00:54:29,160
Speaker 1: different chapter of my life because now I like not

1127
00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:31,400
Speaker 1: that I needed a relationship to do this, because I

1128
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:36,680
Speaker 1: was always I was already like obviously actively trying to

1129
00:54:36,760 --> 00:54:39,680
Speaker 1: grow and evolve and get out of like bad habits

1130
00:54:39,719 --> 00:54:41,560
Speaker 1: and like learn my trauma so that I could better

1131
00:54:41,600 --> 00:54:43,520
Speaker 1: at it. But it's also given me, like I realize

1132
00:54:43,560 --> 00:54:46,000
Speaker 1: now like this year there's gonna be a different level

1133
00:54:46,000 --> 00:54:48,279
Speaker 1: of work that I have to unlock because it's not

1134
00:54:48,400 --> 00:54:51,319
Speaker 1: about like fighting the world about who I am or

1135
00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:54,080
Speaker 1: a partner or like convincing people that I'm worthy because

1136
00:54:54,239 --> 00:54:57,880
Speaker 1: like I know my people who love me. But now

1137
00:54:57,960 --> 00:55:01,440
Speaker 1: like really digging deep into so like the parts of

1138
00:55:01,480 --> 00:55:04,520
Speaker 1: myself that do I love or don't love, and like

1139
00:55:05,239 --> 00:55:07,680
Speaker 1: just reflecting deeply on the things. Like it's just a

1140
00:55:07,719 --> 00:55:09,920
Speaker 1: different level of I'm like, damn, it's a different like

1141
00:55:10,040 --> 00:55:12,719
Speaker 1: validating yourself. It's like that kind of love and then

1142
00:55:12,719 --> 00:55:15,279
Speaker 1: when someone else loves you truly, it's like it makes

1143
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:17,680
Speaker 1: it reflects how you love yourself and if I've actually

1144
00:55:17,760 --> 00:55:19,799
Speaker 1: been doing the work or how I've been avoiding it,

1145
00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:22,160
Speaker 1: or have I been meditating and breathing and why or

1146
00:55:22,239 --> 00:55:24,879
Speaker 1: why not? You know. So it's just like I think

1147
00:55:24,920 --> 00:55:28,560
Speaker 1: I'm about to embark on this different level of like

1148
00:55:29,880 --> 00:55:33,080
Speaker 1: self reflection that is scary, but I'm also like really

1149
00:55:33,080 --> 00:55:37,760
Speaker 1: excited about. So I'm just I'm excited for you. Thinks

1150
00:55:37,800 --> 00:55:39,880
Speaker 1: I'm excited for us. I feel the same way. I

1151
00:55:39,880 --> 00:55:45,160
Speaker 1: feel like it's that new January energy. Maybe it's just

1152
00:55:45,200 --> 00:55:46,480
Speaker 1: because like we're.

1153
00:55:46,360 --> 00:55:48,360
Speaker 2: Going at we're about to leave too, and I'm like

1154
00:55:48,440 --> 00:55:50,320
Speaker 2: I'm about to be in nature, and I feel like

1155
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:54,200
Speaker 2: I'm really tapping into like I feel like this year,

1156
00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:57,839
Speaker 2: I'm really stepping into that space of like wanting to

1157
00:55:57,880 --> 00:56:02,200
Speaker 2: be in that element more like just prioritizing like just

1158
00:56:02,400 --> 00:56:06,680
Speaker 2: even just taking like really being in nature, like taking

1159
00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:08,319
Speaker 2: my shoes off, even if it's in my backyard, like

1160
00:56:08,440 --> 00:56:11,120
Speaker 2: actually doing that and realizing that like I.

1161
00:56:11,040 --> 00:56:13,120
Speaker 1: Can really retreat here if I want to.

1162
00:56:13,840 --> 00:56:17,719
Speaker 2: And because I think escapism is something that I think

1163
00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:19,839
Speaker 2: I struggle with, Like I'm like let me just get

1164
00:56:19,840 --> 00:56:21,719
Speaker 2: out of here real quick, oh I'm queen of it,

1165
00:56:22,880 --> 00:56:25,040
Speaker 2: or just let me just go missing for two days

1166
00:56:25,160 --> 00:56:27,600
Speaker 2: an escapism, But I need that too. I think that

1167
00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:30,520
Speaker 2: that's important also, But what am I doing with my

1168
00:56:30,600 --> 00:56:31,640
Speaker 2: time during that time?

1169
00:56:32,360 --> 00:56:38,839
Speaker 1: And yeah, I'm just well just like being clear about

1170
00:56:39,360 --> 00:56:42,640
Speaker 1: what makes you feel good and honoring that I prefer

1171
00:56:42,880 --> 00:56:47,040
Speaker 1: to be in the jungle half naked, you know, Like

1172
00:56:47,120 --> 00:56:51,200
Speaker 1: that's my preference. But like and then saying how can

1173
00:56:51,239 --> 00:56:54,400
Speaker 1: I make my life more aligned with being in the jungle,

1174
00:56:54,560 --> 00:56:56,520
Speaker 1: you know? And like last year respect like three months

1175
00:56:56,560 --> 00:56:58,840
Speaker 1: out of the country, which I think, Wow, that's so

1176
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:01,319
Speaker 1: dope that that's like our life and that's like we

1177
00:57:01,360 --> 00:57:04,960
Speaker 1: can bring our kids and it's we're still working and facilitating,

1178
00:57:05,080 --> 00:57:09,440
Speaker 1: facilitating healing for other people, and like that is ideal

1179
00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:13,440
Speaker 1: for me, you know, and I do. I think this

1180
00:57:13,520 --> 00:57:16,560
Speaker 1: is this is our second retreat in like we've been

1181
00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:18,920
Speaker 1: doing this for one year now. We've been retreating this

1182
00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:22,160
Speaker 1: for one year, wow, And we've taken like a hundred

1183
00:57:22,240 --> 00:57:25,200
Speaker 1: women to healing and too the jungle and to themselves

1184
00:57:25,240 --> 00:57:27,920
Speaker 1: and we're continuing to embark on that journey. And I

1185
00:57:27,920 --> 00:57:30,160
Speaker 1: think we're like more confident in it. We're more confident

1186
00:57:30,160 --> 00:57:36,480
Speaker 1: in ourselves in this space and it's so exciting. Yeah,

1187
00:57:36,520 --> 00:57:43,720
Speaker 1: and I'm really grateful, and I'm also just I don't know.

1188
00:57:43,760 --> 00:57:48,520
Speaker 2: I just feel like actively trying to find the joy

1189
00:57:48,560 --> 00:57:52,040
Speaker 2: and everything is the goal for me right now, and

1190
00:57:52,160 --> 00:57:55,520
Speaker 2: I'm really dedicated to that. And I realize there are

1191
00:57:55,600 --> 00:57:58,800
Speaker 2: certain elements that I'm learning in school that just it's

1192
00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:04,400
Speaker 2: just true, Like breathing, moving, like being still, sex, like

1193
00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:09,800
Speaker 2: all these things really make pleasure pleasure. Food is a

1194
00:58:09,840 --> 00:58:12,320
Speaker 2: way of life. Guess what breaking news.

1195
00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:13,080
Speaker 1: Striking news.

1196
00:58:13,880 --> 00:58:16,040
Speaker 2: And that's even in alignment, you know, Like we're in

1197
00:58:16,040 --> 00:58:18,840
Speaker 2: school and we're learning about like Tibetan tantra, but then

1198
00:58:18,840 --> 00:58:21,160
Speaker 2: we're talking to you know and studying Queen of Fua,

1199
00:58:21,680 --> 00:58:24,600
Speaker 2: the Sacred Woman, and then like this ancient African studies,

1200
00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:26,280
Speaker 2: and it's like, oh, it's.

1201
00:58:26,080 --> 00:58:28,760
Speaker 1: All the same. It's all the same. The elements. It's

1202
00:58:28,800 --> 00:58:33,600
Speaker 1: the breathing, it's the moving of your body, it's the quietness.

1203
00:58:33,760 --> 00:58:38,560
Speaker 1: It's it's literally the most basic shit, breathe, move, drink, eat,

1204
00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:43,920
Speaker 1: be quiet, like like that is the medicine and it's

1205
00:58:44,160 --> 00:58:47,800
Speaker 1: and it's in every like ancient healing remedy and method

1206
00:58:47,880 --> 00:58:52,120
Speaker 1: and it's so simple and yet it's so hard. And

1207
00:58:52,120 --> 00:58:54,280
Speaker 1: that's when I noticed that, like with our tantra, like

1208
00:58:54,440 --> 00:58:57,240
Speaker 1: taking time to do that, I was like, this is crazy,

1209
00:58:57,280 --> 00:58:59,480
Speaker 1: how much I'm avoiding it? Yeah, I'm like, why am

1210
00:58:59,520 --> 00:59:02,000
Speaker 1: I avoiding? Why am I avoiding sitting on breathing for

1211
00:59:02,040 --> 00:59:05,760
Speaker 1: twenty minutes? Why I will do anything and everything by

1212
00:59:05,800 --> 00:59:09,360
Speaker 1: fucking sitting breathe? I rather stress, I gotta, I got,

1213
00:59:09,680 --> 00:59:11,880
Speaker 1: I got to stressed, super important stress. No, but literally

1214
00:59:11,920 --> 00:59:14,880
Speaker 1: that's what I choose. That's literally the choice that you're making. Sorry,

1215
00:59:14,920 --> 00:59:16,120
Speaker 1: and I'd rather stress.

1216
00:59:16,400 --> 00:59:18,600
Speaker 2: I'm stressed, so I can't stop that to do that,

1217
00:59:18,720 --> 00:59:20,680
Speaker 2: No way, God, don't want to do stress.

1218
00:59:20,680 --> 00:59:25,400
Speaker 1: Who wants to do that? It's true, it's true. So,

1219
00:59:25,880 --> 00:59:28,360
Speaker 1: oh my god, don't choose stress. It's like, don't choose violent.

1220
00:59:29,200 --> 00:59:33,280
Speaker 1: It's violence to yourself. Shirt. Don't choose stress for real?

1221
00:59:33,320 --> 00:59:39,520
Speaker 1: You heard it here? First, ah my goodness. Do we

1222
00:59:39,520 --> 00:59:42,080
Speaker 1: have a hoary? We do, But first we have a

1223
00:59:42,120 --> 00:59:43,120
Speaker 1: tarot card that you picked.

1224
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:46,920
Speaker 2: Oh yes, okay, so you guys today I picked the

1225
00:59:47,000 --> 00:59:52,720
Speaker 2: High Priestress priestess. Priestess bitch is hot, okay, and I

1226
00:59:52,720 --> 00:59:56,040
Speaker 2: am the High Priestess literally, I am the High priest

1227
00:59:56,160 --> 01:00:02,720
Speaker 2: Like that backup? Actually, Okay, intuition say cret knowledge, divine, feminine,

1228
01:00:02,800 --> 01:00:08,400
Speaker 2: the subconscious mind.

1229
01:00:08,800 --> 01:00:11,880
Speaker 1: Yep, wow, say that again. You want to you want

1230
01:00:11,880 --> 01:00:17,200
Speaker 1: to hear that again, intuition, sacred knowledge, divine, feminine, the

1231
01:00:17,240 --> 01:00:18,280
Speaker 1: subconscious mind.

1232
01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:20,920
Speaker 2: You know. But before I start telling this, I was

1233
01:00:20,960 --> 01:00:24,440
Speaker 2: just thinking about, like how Queen of Fuis talks about

1234
01:00:24,520 --> 01:00:25,200
Speaker 2: just remembering.

1235
01:00:25,360 --> 01:00:27,600
Speaker 1: It's like a lot of these practices are just remembering,

1236
01:00:28,080 --> 01:00:31,320
Speaker 1: and it's true, it's not. It's like it's in our

1237
01:00:31,520 --> 01:00:36,200
Speaker 1: sacred knowledge, like especially as women, as goddesses that like

1238
01:00:36,320 --> 01:00:41,120
Speaker 1: create all things. The healing is like in our we

1239
01:00:41,160 --> 01:00:44,480
Speaker 1: know on a cellular level, and like we do ourselves

1240
01:00:44,520 --> 01:00:48,560
Speaker 1: such a disservice when we like totally ignore ourselves anyway.

1241
01:00:49,960 --> 01:00:52,200
Speaker 1: While the magician is the guardian of the conscious mind

1242
01:00:52,400 --> 01:00:55,680
Speaker 1: and the tangible world, the High Priestess is the guardian

1243
01:00:55,760 --> 01:00:59,960
Speaker 1: of the subconscious mind and the teacher of sacred knowledge,

1244
01:01:00,160 --> 01:01:03,120
Speaker 1: hidden mysteries. Sitting at the threshold of the conscious and

1245
01:01:03,160 --> 01:01:06,800
Speaker 1: subconscious mind, the High Priestess has an innate ability to

1246
01:01:06,840 --> 01:01:10,560
Speaker 1: travel between these realms effortlessly. She teaches you that the

1247
01:01:10,600 --> 01:01:13,640
Speaker 1: world is not always as it seems, and more profound

1248
01:01:13,680 --> 01:01:18,000
Speaker 1: influences are often at play. She ushers you through the

1249
01:01:18,080 --> 01:01:21,760
Speaker 1: thin veil of awareness, offering you a deep, intuitive understanding

1250
01:01:22,040 --> 01:01:24,480
Speaker 1: of the universe and a heightened awareness of secret or

1251
01:01:24,560 --> 01:01:30,800
Speaker 1: hidden information. The High Priestess signifies spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination,

1252
01:01:31,640 --> 01:01:35,040
Speaker 1: divine knowledge, and wisdom. She shows up in your trail

1253
01:01:35,080 --> 01:01:38,040
Speaker 1: readings when the veil between you and the underworld is

1254
01:01:38,160 --> 01:01:41,120
Speaker 1: thin and you have the opportunity to access the knowledge

1255
01:01:41,160 --> 01:01:44,520
Speaker 1: deep within your soul. Now is the time to be

1256
01:01:44,600 --> 01:01:48,080
Speaker 1: still so you can tune into your intuition the answers

1257
01:01:48,120 --> 01:01:50,960
Speaker 1: are seeking. The answers you are seeking will come from within,

1258
01:01:51,120 --> 01:01:54,680
Speaker 1: from your deepest truth and knowing. Allow the High Priests

1259
01:01:54,680 --> 01:01:57,280
Speaker 1: to become your guide as you venture deep into your

1260
01:01:57,320 --> 01:02:01,240
Speaker 1: subconscious mind and access this inner with wis. Connect with

1261
01:02:01,280 --> 01:02:07,240
Speaker 1: your intuition and your higher self through meditation, visualizations, shamatic journeying,

1262
01:02:07,720 --> 01:02:10,400
Speaker 1: and being part of spiritual communities.

1263
01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:17,400
Speaker 2: Wow heavy, I've been like intuition has been a theme

1264
01:02:17,440 --> 01:02:19,840
Speaker 2: since the beginning of the year for me.

1265
01:02:20,200 --> 01:02:22,400
Speaker 1: Like not doubting it.

1266
01:02:22,480 --> 01:02:28,320
Speaker 2: I've gotten multiple messages about intuition and I'm pulling that

1267
01:02:28,480 --> 01:02:35,360
Speaker 2: really really like it's just a confirmation that I'm definitely

1268
01:02:35,360 --> 01:02:37,280
Speaker 2: focusing on the right thing right now in my life,

1269
01:02:37,480 --> 01:02:39,680
Speaker 2: and that's honing that shit like a razor.

1270
01:02:39,960 --> 01:02:40,880
Speaker 1: Like that's really my.

1271
01:02:40,880 --> 01:02:43,840
Speaker 2: Goal is to be able to really and that comes

1272
01:02:43,840 --> 01:02:44,840
Speaker 2: with knowing thyself.

1273
01:02:45,000 --> 01:02:47,520
Speaker 1: That comes with like Queen of Fu's teachings of.

1274
01:02:49,360 --> 01:02:52,640
Speaker 2: You know, the sacred woman and her intuition like the

1275
01:02:52,720 --> 01:02:54,160
Speaker 2: know or the healer of all things.

1276
01:02:55,000 --> 01:03:00,560
Speaker 1: So I'm really I'm dedicated to to that. Well, that's

1277
01:03:00,560 --> 01:03:05,200
Speaker 1: our that's our femininity, is our intuition, Like we're fucking

1278
01:03:05,680 --> 01:03:10,200
Speaker 1: super women, you know, Like our intuition is our superpower

1279
01:03:10,320 --> 01:03:13,240
Speaker 1: and we forget to be in tune with it. But

1280
01:03:13,280 --> 01:03:16,840
Speaker 1: that is often going to save us time and time

1281
01:03:17,360 --> 01:03:27,600
Speaker 1: and time. Again, thank you Mahogany Taro for that reminder.

1282
01:03:28,680 --> 01:03:32,360
Speaker 1: You ready for the hurry, ready to get raunchy, get

1283
01:03:32,800 --> 01:03:34,560
Speaker 1: we're gonna go deep, but now we're gonna get Now

1284
01:03:34,600 --> 01:03:43,480
Speaker 1: we're gonna get dirt, huge dirty by Christina Aguilere and

1285
01:03:43,520 --> 01:03:48,920
Speaker 1: then get her hips.

1286
01:03:48,920 --> 01:03:51,600
Speaker 2: In that video, they were like sticking out the side

1287
01:03:52,320 --> 01:03:53,560
Speaker 2: all I see our hips.

1288
01:03:53,560 --> 01:03:56,360
Speaker 1: Why is that the only visual ad? Blonde hair and

1289
01:03:56,440 --> 01:03:59,400
Speaker 1: hip bones to the black ends? Oh god, it was

1290
01:03:59,520 --> 01:04:01,760
Speaker 1: really I love that shit. I was like, oh yeah,

1291
01:04:01,800 --> 01:04:11,200
Speaker 1: I like this Christina, She's fucking amazing. Yeah. Hmmm, So we.

1292
01:04:11,160 --> 01:04:14,680
Speaker 2: Also found this Horry in our Discord. Guys, this fuck

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01:04:14,760 --> 01:04:17,360
Speaker 2: that I do this right. This episode's content is sponsored

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01:04:17,360 --> 01:04:19,760
Speaker 2: by Discord. Everyone in our Discord.

1295
01:04:20,800 --> 01:04:23,520
Speaker 1: Knows this story. This is like a famous person in Discord.

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01:04:24,560 --> 01:04:27,720
Speaker 1: I'm not going to say his name because it's anonymous,

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01:04:28,680 --> 01:04:30,360
Speaker 1: because so if you want to, if you want to

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01:04:30,360 --> 01:04:32,480
Speaker 1: push your business in Discord, don't worry. I'm not going

1299
01:04:32,560 --> 01:04:36,280
Speaker 1: to tell it's it's anonymous unless you're in Discord.

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01:04:36,320 --> 01:04:38,960
Speaker 2: Everyone knows the hory is a free range, right, It's

1301
01:04:39,000 --> 01:04:40,080
Speaker 2: there for this purpose.

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01:04:41,760 --> 01:04:43,600
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna tell you guys about this. This is

1303
01:04:43,600 --> 01:04:45,800
Speaker 1: from a male. This is front of our active males

1304
01:04:45,800 --> 01:04:47,520
Speaker 1: and Discord, and I love to see the fellows in

1305
01:04:47,560 --> 01:04:49,360
Speaker 1: Discord because there's men over there too. We have some

1306
01:04:49,400 --> 01:04:52,680
Speaker 1: private channels just for women, but you know, they just

1307
01:04:52,720 --> 01:04:55,680
Speaker 1: love a little testosterone and we bitches, and it's nice

1308
01:04:55,720 --> 01:04:57,680
Speaker 1: to have some male perspective on there too. So if

1309
01:04:57,680 --> 01:04:59,680
Speaker 1: you're a guy and you're listening and you're like, is

1310
01:04:59,680 --> 01:05:02,720
Speaker 1: it dis Chord for me, yes, sir, Yes, sir, it is,

1311
01:05:02,840 --> 01:05:05,480
Speaker 1: as long as ado don't be a weirdo and if

1312
01:05:05,480 --> 01:05:08,240
Speaker 1: you like love and praise women and free women, it's

1313
01:05:08,280 --> 01:05:11,680
Speaker 1: the place for you. And if you're mature, okay, I'm

1314
01:05:11,720 --> 01:05:14,680
Speaker 1: with the shits. Okay. Anyway, I'll tell you a funny

1315
01:05:14,680 --> 01:05:17,080
Speaker 1: story how I got into loving to be dominated by

1316
01:05:17,120 --> 01:05:20,080
Speaker 1: a woman. So back in Germany, I met this German

1317
01:05:20,160 --> 01:05:23,720
Speaker 1: female female at the barber shop. Nice tits, of course,

1318
01:05:23,800 --> 01:05:26,480
Speaker 1: so I holler at her. Nice tits, of course, so

1319
01:05:26,520 --> 01:05:29,160
Speaker 1: I holler at her and we hang out after she

1320
01:05:29,200 --> 01:05:31,880
Speaker 1: gets off that Friday. We go out, come back home,

1321
01:05:31,920 --> 01:05:34,520
Speaker 1: and of course have sex a few times after showering dah.

1322
01:05:35,240 --> 01:05:37,480
Speaker 1: Next morning, she has to go to work and leaves

1323
01:05:37,520 --> 01:05:40,000
Speaker 1: me there at her place. I came prepared and had

1324
01:05:40,040 --> 01:05:42,600
Speaker 1: my DVD book of movies and TV shows.

1325
01:05:43,160 --> 01:05:47,000
Speaker 2: You know, this was a while, he said, I'm chilling.

1326
01:05:50,080 --> 01:05:52,320
Speaker 2: So I'm watching in my pd blue. I'm my portable

1327
01:05:52,360 --> 01:05:54,880
Speaker 2: DVD player and I accidentally knock it off the bed.

1328
01:05:55,280 --> 01:05:57,680
Speaker 2: DVD falls out and rolls under the bed. I reach

1329
01:05:57,800 --> 01:06:01,680
Speaker 2: undergrad my DVD in a box of sex toys skids

1330
01:06:01,680 --> 01:06:02,360
Speaker 2: out into the view.

1331
01:06:03,040 --> 01:06:06,800
Speaker 1: So nosy me. I started investigating because last night she

1332
01:06:06,880 --> 01:06:08,720
Speaker 1: kept trying to play with my ass and I got

1333
01:06:08,720 --> 01:06:11,240
Speaker 1: mad and tell her to chill you got a chill boom.

1334
01:06:11,360 --> 01:06:12,640
Speaker 1: I don't know how you say that in German.

1335
01:06:14,760 --> 01:06:28,560
Speaker 2: No, Nit, it's more direct. Anyway, now I got Now,

1336
01:06:28,560 --> 01:06:31,240
Speaker 2: I got so many fucking questions, Like this motherfucker is

1337
01:06:31,240 --> 01:06:31,880
Speaker 2: a freak.

1338
01:06:32,520 --> 01:06:33,520
Speaker 1: She had anal.

1339
01:06:33,280 --> 01:06:36,240
Speaker 2: Trading beads, prostate massage, you name it.

1340
01:06:36,880 --> 01:06:39,880
Speaker 1: Wow, he's discovered all this just leaning over the bed.

1341
01:06:41,000 --> 01:06:43,680
Speaker 1: It mistakenly fell under, so he had he had to investigate.

1342
01:06:43,680 --> 01:06:48,120
Speaker 1: Oh wow, Okay, hold on, damn, did I did this

1343
01:06:48,160 --> 01:06:48,600
Speaker 1: in order?

1344
01:06:55,480 --> 01:06:59,200
Speaker 2: This motherfucker could have had an ass thrashing marathon and

1345
01:06:59,280 --> 01:07:01,040
Speaker 2: never had to use the same tour twice.

1346
01:07:01,960 --> 01:07:04,840
Speaker 1: Wow. So anyways, I'm trying to figure out how to

1347
01:07:04,880 --> 01:07:07,120
Speaker 1: tell her I'm on to her shit and she ain't

1348
01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:10,440
Speaker 1: gonna get me. So later she I'm trying to tell

1349
01:07:10,480 --> 01:07:11,840
Speaker 1: how I'm I gonna tell her I've found out her

1350
01:07:11,840 --> 01:07:14,120
Speaker 1: shit and she ain't gonna get me. So later she

1351
01:07:14,200 --> 01:07:16,280
Speaker 1: comes home and I'm ready, right, I'm just trying to

1352
01:07:16,320 --> 01:07:18,680
Speaker 1: wait for the right time to tell it. But of

1353
01:07:18,720 --> 01:07:20,920
Speaker 1: course things don't happen as planned, because as soon as

1354
01:07:20,960 --> 01:07:23,200
Speaker 1: she gets in, we start going at it like cats

1355
01:07:23,240 --> 01:07:26,840
Speaker 1: and dogs. She's been waiting all day for that dick. Well,

1356
01:07:26,840 --> 01:07:29,439
Speaker 1: we're fucking. She's gripping my ass cheeks like she's trying

1357
01:07:29,440 --> 01:07:31,480
Speaker 1: to stick a finger in there, and I got my ship.

1358
01:07:31,520 --> 01:07:34,680
Speaker 1: I got my ship. My cheeks like locked like fork knocks.

1359
01:07:39,440 --> 01:07:41,720
Speaker 1: We finished fucking, and she's like, why don't she let

1360
01:07:41,720 --> 01:07:44,439
Speaker 1: me play with your ass? I'm like, nah, motherfucker, chill.

1361
01:07:46,640 --> 01:07:54,400
Speaker 2: Well she uh now she's obviously wait wait sorry, she persists,

1362
01:07:54,440 --> 01:07:56,960
Speaker 2: and finally I blow up and I'm like, damn, leave

1363
01:07:57,000 --> 01:07:57,800
Speaker 2: my ass alone.

1364
01:07:57,840 --> 01:07:59,640
Speaker 1: I don't know that I am on that gay shit.

1365
01:08:00,120 --> 01:08:02,360
Speaker 1: So now obviously I was a bit extra, but she

1366
01:08:02,440 --> 01:08:04,680
Speaker 1: got the point she had to get an extra. I

1367
01:08:04,720 --> 01:08:07,280
Speaker 1: apologized and I left. So of course I got to

1368
01:08:07,320 --> 01:08:09,280
Speaker 1: tell my boy Kobe. I don't know if I was

1369
01:08:09,280 --> 01:08:13,080
Speaker 1: supposed to say his boy's name whatever.

1370
01:08:13,560 --> 01:08:16,760
Speaker 2: So I'm talking to Okay, and I'm telling him, bro,

1371
01:08:16,920 --> 01:08:19,280
Speaker 2: this chick last night was trying to lick my ass

1372
01:08:19,320 --> 01:08:20,479
Speaker 2: and sticking a finger in it.

1373
01:08:20,800 --> 01:08:23,160
Speaker 1: But I told her I wasn't with it. He said, what,

1374
01:08:23,720 --> 01:08:25,559
Speaker 1: don't knock her till you try it, Okay.

1375
01:08:26,160 --> 01:08:29,040
Speaker 2: So I was confused at this reply, of course, because

1376
01:08:29,080 --> 01:08:30,800
Speaker 2: most men ain't open to anal play.

1377
01:08:31,200 --> 01:08:33,479
Speaker 1: So after he signed off, that right is that right?

1378
01:08:33,760 --> 01:08:36,400
Speaker 1: That's a lie right. So after he signed off on it,

1379
01:08:36,720 --> 01:08:38,479
Speaker 1: I was trying to figure out how to tell her

1380
01:08:38,520 --> 01:08:40,240
Speaker 1: it's okay if she want to lick or play with

1381
01:08:40,280 --> 01:08:43,840
Speaker 1: it because my boy signed off on it. Not this

1382
01:08:43,880 --> 01:08:46,680
Speaker 1: is this is niggas. If you were a nigga and

1383
01:08:46,720 --> 01:08:47,120
Speaker 1: you ain't.

1384
01:08:47,600 --> 01:08:51,599
Speaker 2: His boy signed off, so it's not gay. Okay, Okay,

1385
01:08:51,640 --> 01:08:55,000
Speaker 2: well now changes. I got one alibi that changes everything.

1386
01:08:55,000 --> 01:08:58,600
Speaker 2: I got one alibi, Toby said, Well, Kobe said, so

1387
01:09:00,160 --> 01:09:01,240
Speaker 2: you guys, it's not gay.

1388
01:09:02,360 --> 01:09:06,040
Speaker 1: So fast forward. So fast forward to mine and her

1389
01:09:06,080 --> 01:09:09,120
Speaker 1: next encounter. We're making out and my slow seff is like,

1390
01:09:09,280 --> 01:09:11,680
Speaker 1: you want to do that thing? It's cool? Now you

1391
01:09:11,720 --> 01:09:13,240
Speaker 1: want to do that thing to me? It's cool? Now

1392
01:09:14,040 --> 01:09:17,400
Speaker 1: I can't stand yeah, trying trying to sound like I

1393
01:09:17,439 --> 01:09:18,320
Speaker 1: am gay while I.

1394
01:09:18,280 --> 01:09:22,240
Speaker 2: Say it, Oh you want to do that thing?

1395
01:09:22,960 --> 01:09:28,000
Speaker 1: All right, yeah it's cool. How do you not sound gay? Niggas? Okay?

1396
01:09:28,040 --> 01:09:31,400
Speaker 1: So anyways, she's like, assume the position, and my pride

1397
01:09:31,439 --> 01:09:34,280
Speaker 1: is a little touched, but I try it. Anyways, Shit,

1398
01:09:34,479 --> 01:09:36,760
Speaker 1: she knows what she wants, she sure do Okay. Shit

1399
01:09:36,880 --> 01:09:38,840
Speaker 1: started to tingle, and I was too scared to it

1400
01:09:39,160 --> 01:09:41,479
Speaker 1: to enjoy it. So I stopped her and I started

1401
01:09:41,479 --> 01:09:43,240
Speaker 1: to sound like I was going through puberty.

1402
01:09:44,040 --> 01:09:46,200
Speaker 2: That ain't no play. Well have you hitten all those

1403
01:09:46,320 --> 01:09:50,160
Speaker 2: high notes? Anyways?

1404
01:09:50,280 --> 01:09:52,600
Speaker 1: I right? Anyways, I left right after because I was

1405
01:09:52,640 --> 01:09:56,320
Speaker 1: a little ashamed, but I was curious by then. But

1406
01:09:56,360 --> 01:09:58,400
Speaker 1: I was curious by then and tried the toys next

1407
01:09:58,400 --> 01:10:00,680
Speaker 1: time because it was something about my ass whole being way.

1408
01:10:00,760 --> 01:10:04,360
Speaker 1: I just couldn't get used to. I feel you. So

1409
01:10:04,479 --> 01:10:07,320
Speaker 1: next time she tried the training anal beads and those

1410
01:10:07,360 --> 01:10:09,920
Speaker 1: things started hitting the G spot and I had to

1411
01:10:09,920 --> 01:10:12,240
Speaker 1: stop her because I was honestly afraid because if they're

1412
01:10:12,280 --> 01:10:14,080
Speaker 1: doing it right, it feels like you have to shit.

1413
01:10:14,160 --> 01:10:16,080
Speaker 1: And the last thing I wanted or needed was a

1414
01:10:16,080 --> 01:10:19,880
Speaker 1: blank shit on himself story. I was scared because I

1415
01:10:19,880 --> 01:10:21,479
Speaker 1: didn't know if I could trust her with it, with

1416
01:10:21,560 --> 01:10:23,559
Speaker 1: if we ever got into it, not to hang that

1417
01:10:23,560 --> 01:10:25,880
Speaker 1: shit over my head like you wasn't saying.

1418
01:10:25,640 --> 01:10:29,519
Speaker 2: That shit last night when I got Poor baby, he's

1419
01:10:29,560 --> 01:10:31,920
Speaker 2: so tormented, I know, but I'm happy he wrote the

1420
01:10:31,920 --> 01:10:34,360
Speaker 2: story because these were literally the things that niggas feel

1421
01:10:34,400 --> 01:10:36,400
Speaker 2: this way, and it's like it's not real.

1422
01:10:37,080 --> 01:10:39,439
Speaker 1: But anyways, a few more encounters with her, I developed

1423
01:10:39,479 --> 01:10:41,160
Speaker 1: a trust with her, and it got to the point

1424
01:10:41,160 --> 01:10:43,360
Speaker 1: when I walked When I walked in, I just assumed

1425
01:10:43,360 --> 01:10:46,160
Speaker 1: the sub position on my knees ready. So this time

1426
01:10:46,200 --> 01:10:49,160
Speaker 1: she used a prostate massager and I came over. It

1427
01:10:49,200 --> 01:10:52,519
Speaker 1: came over and over without my dick being stroked. So

1428
01:10:52,640 --> 01:10:55,719
Speaker 1: from then on I was game. Shit was so intense

1429
01:10:55,760 --> 01:10:57,880
Speaker 1: and it was such an adrenaline rush. Because I was

1430
01:10:57,920 --> 01:11:00,840
Speaker 1: always in control in my everyday life, I never knew

1431
01:11:00,880 --> 01:11:03,040
Speaker 1: how to give up control and be totally vulnerable to

1432
01:11:03,080 --> 01:11:06,400
Speaker 1: a woman. So the last time of my training, she

1433
01:11:06,439 --> 01:11:08,800
Speaker 1: invites me in and she blindfolds me, and then she

1434
01:11:08,880 --> 01:11:11,519
Speaker 1: bonds my hands and feet so I can't move. She

1435
01:11:11,640 --> 01:11:14,080
Speaker 1: starts for play and by the time I'm pre coming

1436
01:11:14,280 --> 01:11:17,240
Speaker 1: so much the beds almost have become a slipping slide.

1437
01:11:18,479 --> 01:11:20,600
Speaker 1: She starts out with the anal beads, then proceeds with

1438
01:11:20,600 --> 01:11:23,519
Speaker 1: the prosatus massager, and next thing I know, I feel

1439
01:11:23,520 --> 01:11:26,160
Speaker 1: something with a bit more girth. All I know is

1440
01:11:26,160 --> 01:11:27,439
Speaker 1: she fucked me with a shrap on.

1441
01:11:27,920 --> 01:11:29,920
Speaker 2: I swear to you, I came so much, back to

1442
01:11:30,000 --> 01:11:32,840
Speaker 2: back to back. I cried like a baby. My God,

1443
01:11:33,400 --> 01:11:35,479
Speaker 2: she fucked me up. I left that night and was

1444
01:11:35,560 --> 01:11:38,160
Speaker 2: scared to ever go back. But ever since then, I've

1445
01:11:38,200 --> 01:11:41,880
Speaker 2: been hooked and I tried regular relationships, but I like

1446
01:11:41,920 --> 01:11:44,360
Speaker 2: that out of the ordinary relationships. So for me to

1447
01:11:44,400 --> 01:11:47,320
Speaker 2: ever settle down, I think I'm gonna have to marry

1448
01:11:47,320 --> 01:11:50,400
Speaker 2: a dom She doesn't have to be a total dominatrix,

1449
01:11:50,439 --> 01:11:51,320
Speaker 2: but she has.

1450
01:11:51,200 --> 01:11:53,599
Speaker 1: To be able to handle my stub be dom. It's

1451
01:11:53,600 --> 01:11:57,360
Speaker 1: one of my top love languages. The end, and wow,

1452
01:11:57,520 --> 01:12:00,599
Speaker 1: I thought it was beautiful. And he said he's dominant

1453
01:12:00,640 --> 01:12:02,840
Speaker 1: seventy five to eighty percent of the time sextually, but

1454
01:12:02,880 --> 01:12:05,599
Speaker 1: that twenty five to twenty percent. He want what he wants.

1455
01:12:06,320 --> 01:12:07,920
Speaker 1: And I'm not mad at that. I feel that. And

1456
01:12:07,960 --> 01:12:11,000
Speaker 1: you can have a man who knows thyself, you know,

1457
01:12:11,160 --> 01:12:13,920
Speaker 1: and ain't afraid to ask for what he wants. Yeah,

1458
01:12:14,560 --> 01:12:17,719
Speaker 1: he's living a pleasureful life. That would make the world

1459
01:12:17,760 --> 01:12:20,559
Speaker 1: a better place if we could just all figure out

1460
01:12:20,560 --> 01:12:25,480
Speaker 1: our pleasures, relate it to a friend, own them, own them,

1461
01:12:25,800 --> 01:12:29,439
Speaker 1: dance blissfully in them, date based on them, just invite

1462
01:12:29,479 --> 01:12:32,280
Speaker 1: more of the pleasures. Hang around people that are like

1463
01:12:32,360 --> 01:12:34,960
Speaker 1: that too. I mean, I don't know if all your

1464
01:12:35,000 --> 01:12:36,920
Speaker 1: friends had to do the same thing, but like, luckily

1465
01:12:36,960 --> 01:12:40,880
Speaker 1: for him with his friend's name, the other guy, Yeah,

1466
01:12:40,920 --> 01:12:43,560
Speaker 1: he was like, oh, he wasn't lying like most of

1467
01:12:43,560 --> 01:12:44,360
Speaker 1: these niggas be lying.

1468
01:12:44,400 --> 01:12:44,559
Speaker 2: Hey.

1469
01:12:44,640 --> 01:12:46,559
Speaker 1: Yeah, he's like, don't knock it till you try it,

1470
01:12:47,360 --> 01:12:50,479
Speaker 1: and look, and he gave him permission. It's so crazy

1471
01:12:50,479 --> 01:12:52,040
Speaker 1: how we need permission to try shit.

1472
01:12:52,160 --> 01:12:55,080
Speaker 2: Humans do humans as women do men do. Obviously, I

1473
01:12:55,080 --> 01:12:56,599
Speaker 2: think men probably even more.

1474
01:12:56,560 --> 01:12:59,479
Speaker 1: For sure, especially from another man, because and even then

1475
01:12:59,520 --> 01:13:01,920
Speaker 1: sometimes not enough, because it's like men kind of validate

1476
01:13:01,960 --> 01:13:03,679
Speaker 1: each other's masculinity for sure.

1477
01:13:03,680 --> 01:13:06,800
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, yeah, because it's about alpha mentality.

1478
01:13:08,760 --> 01:13:10,920
Speaker 1: Well, this was a good episode. I really thank you

1479
01:13:11,400 --> 01:13:14,559
Speaker 1: the Discord Tribe because there's so much more of that,

1480
01:13:16,080 --> 01:13:17,000
Speaker 1: so much more of that.

1481
01:13:17,479 --> 01:13:20,040
Speaker 2: There's some rich content over there. There's rich stories. There's

1482
01:13:20,120 --> 01:13:23,360
Speaker 2: really interesting stories, interesting people. It's like so cool to

1483
01:13:23,400 --> 01:13:27,360
Speaker 2: see all the facets of people all over the world

1484
01:13:27,760 --> 01:13:29,880
Speaker 2: just in one space and how they interact with one another.

1485
01:13:29,920 --> 01:13:31,840
Speaker 2: And it's such a safe space and it's a cool space.

1486
01:13:31,880 --> 01:13:34,439
Speaker 1: And I know, I would think some love affairs are

1487
01:13:34,479 --> 01:13:37,679
Speaker 1: happening in there. I see friendships, I see meetups. It's

1488
01:13:37,800 --> 01:13:39,759
Speaker 1: just like, you know what it is. It's a tribe

1489
01:13:39,760 --> 01:13:44,400
Speaker 1: of free thinkers. It's Jamila's first cult. Stop.

1490
01:13:45,120 --> 01:13:47,559
Speaker 2: Oh not, everyone's going to understand our sense of humor.

1491
01:13:48,160 --> 01:13:48,920
Speaker 2: We're just kidding.

1492
01:13:48,960 --> 01:13:51,960
Speaker 1: It's our first culture. That's the first step. Come to

1493
01:13:52,040 --> 01:13:56,439
Speaker 1: the discord and think free talk about sex. Oh, my god,

1494
01:13:57,840 --> 01:14:00,880
Speaker 1: thank you again for sharing space with me.

1495
01:14:01,360 --> 01:14:01,880
Speaker 2: I love you.

1496
01:14:01,960 --> 01:14:05,120
Speaker 1: I love you too. I appreciate you, appreciate Oh we're

1497
01:14:05,120 --> 01:14:07,639
Speaker 1: supposed to have new segments this year. What is it

1498
01:14:08,120 --> 01:14:09,120
Speaker 1: You didn't look at my notes?

1499
01:14:11,320 --> 01:14:11,479
Speaker 2: Hi?

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01:14:12,000 --> 01:14:15,519
Speaker 1: I probably did. What was one of them? Should we

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01:14:15,560 --> 01:14:18,880
Speaker 1: do a poll and discord? Yeah? We should. It was yeah,

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01:14:18,880 --> 01:14:22,160
Speaker 1: I had a couple options. My god, yeah, let me know.

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01:14:22,439 --> 01:14:25,400
Speaker 2: It was like, mom, shit, it was high thoughts.

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01:14:25,680 --> 01:14:27,320
Speaker 1: I don't know. I feel like this whole episode is

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01:14:27,360 --> 01:14:30,160
Speaker 1: high thoughts. It is. At some point it became high thoughts.

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01:14:31,000 --> 01:14:33,040
Speaker 2: Okay, well, now it's over. We gotta go.

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01:14:34,680 --> 01:14:35,960
Speaker 1: I love you, WE love you.

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01:14:36,280 --> 01:14:39,040
Speaker 2: Make sure you rate and review us on Apple, Spotify

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01:14:39,160 --> 01:14:41,000
Speaker 2: or wait, I don't know if you can't do Spotify,

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01:14:41,080 --> 01:14:42,639
Speaker 2: but you know the places you can do it. Please

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01:14:42,680 --> 01:14:45,720
Speaker 2: do it and check out. It's not too late to

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01:14:45,800 --> 01:14:48,040
Speaker 2: join the retreat. If you're a last minute type of bitch,

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01:14:48,439 --> 01:14:51,120
Speaker 2: jump on, Jump on the retreat, come through, Come to

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01:14:51,160 --> 01:14:55,439
Speaker 2: Costa Rica. We're going February second and February eleventh and

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01:14:55,680 --> 01:14:56,960
Speaker 2: it's a motherfucking vibe.

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01:14:57,240 --> 01:15:01,240
Speaker 1: It will change your motherfucking life. Come reset, recharge.

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Speaker 2: With a group of like minded women, us amongst a

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01:15:04,640 --> 01:15:06,519
Speaker 2: lot of other beautiful, amazing people.

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01:15:07,439 --> 01:15:27,960
Speaker 1: And I guess that's it. Bye. Mm hmmm