WEBVTT - Conversations with Aurora Culpo 0:00:02.160 --> 0:00:06.680 This is Conversationous with Olivia Jade in My Heart Radio podcast. 0:00:09.720 --> 0:00:13.320 Hello everybody, it's Olivia Jade. Welcome back to another episode 0:00:13.320 --> 0:00:17.119 of Conversations Today. I have a special guest and it 0:00:17.239 --> 0:00:20.640 is the lovely miss Aurora Cupo. And you guys might 0:00:20.680 --> 0:00:23.360 be familiar with her through Instagram. I know that I've 0:00:23.400 --> 0:00:25.680 seen her Instagram a bunch. She's a mom of two 0:00:26.239 --> 0:00:28.160 and I just want to hear her story. You might 0:00:28.200 --> 0:00:31.040 be familiar with some of her family members, and I 0:00:31.080 --> 0:00:33.480 want you guys to get to know her specifically. So 0:00:34.040 --> 0:00:39.880 with that all being said, please welcome Alora. Hello, thank 0:00:39.920 --> 0:00:42.159 you so much for coming on the podcast. I'm so 0:00:42.200 --> 0:00:45.879 excited to have you. Thank you for having me. Course, 0:00:45.920 --> 0:00:47.760 So do you want to like just kind of intro 0:00:47.880 --> 0:00:50.520 yourself a little bit. I know you're from Rhode Island. 0:00:50.560 --> 0:00:52.519 I did my research a little bit, and you have 0:00:52.640 --> 0:00:56.240 two babies, right have two babies. One of them is 0:00:56.280 --> 0:00:58.680 currently screaming in her crib, and I like have like 0:00:58.760 --> 0:01:01.560 that like mom guilt in my heart right now. But 0:01:01.640 --> 0:01:03.520 it's good for her to like learn how to put 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:05.120 herself to sleep. She should know how to do that. 0:01:05.120 --> 0:01:07.520 She's just eighteen months now. But anyway. Yeah, so this 0:01:07.600 --> 0:01:10.360 question is so funny because it's like I was I 0:01:10.400 --> 0:01:13.120 feel like I practiced this question of like who are 0:01:13.160 --> 0:01:14.800 you and it's like, oh my god, how much time 0:01:14.800 --> 0:01:18.400 do you have? Like so like so originally I am 0:01:18.400 --> 0:01:22.200 from Rhode Island. I was in UM the education industry 0:01:22.440 --> 0:01:25.480 for a long time. I have master's degree in early 0:01:25.560 --> 0:01:28.320 childhood education. I was a teacher that I worked with 0:01:28.440 --> 0:01:32.000 kids with autism. UM. I was a behavior analyst, so 0:01:32.160 --> 0:01:34.959 I learned a lot about how to like shape behavior, 0:01:35.160 --> 0:01:37.040 which is funny because now I'm a mom of two 0:01:37.120 --> 0:01:39.679 kids and like, I use none of that. I don't 0:01:39.920 --> 0:01:43.200 ever apply anything that I've learned, and I know to 0:01:43.280 --> 0:01:45.640 be true UM with my own kids. You know, like 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:48.320 they scream and I give them a lollipop, Like you 0:01:48.320 --> 0:01:53.080 don't do that. But sometimes it's just like survival. But um. Yeah, 0:01:53.120 --> 0:01:55.200 so I moved to UM. I moved to l A 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:59.040 because I met my husband and now we have two kids, 0:01:59.040 --> 0:02:02.000 and I kind of like fell into this UM this 0:02:02.160 --> 0:02:05.720 like influencer role that I don't know. I'm like still 0:02:05.760 --> 0:02:07.840 kind of embarrassed you, like I'm an influencer. I feel 0:02:07.840 --> 0:02:11.080 like it's gotten a bad rap even though I do 0:02:11.200 --> 0:02:16.480 feel like there's something I really enjoy connecting with people. 0:02:16.720 --> 0:02:18.880 And I tend to be a little like t M 0:02:18.919 --> 0:02:22.720 I about mom life and mental health and I'm a 0:02:22.760 --> 0:02:25.639 wellness guru, but I'm also like a complete yo yo 0:02:25.760 --> 0:02:28.360 where I'll just like party hard and then be like 0:02:28.400 --> 0:02:32.760 I'm only drinking green juice, you know that last three days. 0:02:33.040 --> 0:02:36.440 But but so yeah, there's a lot of there's a 0:02:36.480 --> 0:02:39.400 lot of characters I've played. I was a yoga instructor, 0:02:39.480 --> 0:02:42.799 I'm into meditation. I read that online. I was like, 0:02:42.840 --> 0:02:44.560 because you know, you never know what you're reading if 0:02:44.560 --> 0:02:46.480 it's true or not. And I saw that said something 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:48.320 about fitness and how you're really into yoga, and I 0:02:48.360 --> 0:02:49.960 was like writing it down, I was like, I wonder 0:02:50.000 --> 0:02:51.480 if this is even true. If I'm gonna ask this 0:02:51.560 --> 0:02:56.600 question just because like is it true now? Now? I 0:02:56.639 --> 0:02:58.520 do you. I still do yoga all the time, and 0:02:58.520 --> 0:03:00.080 I find it to be one of the things that 0:03:00.280 --> 0:03:04.160 really grounds me in my life, um you know, crazy times, 0:03:04.200 --> 0:03:07.880 and especially you know, like just making yourself vulnerable to 0:03:07.960 --> 0:03:11.040 all the opinions of other people on the internet, like 0:03:11.160 --> 0:03:14.360 that you need to really have not even have thick skin, 0:03:14.480 --> 0:03:18.799 but just like have a heightened sense of like awareness 0:03:18.960 --> 0:03:21.480 of like your own worth. And so for me, like 0:03:21.560 --> 0:03:25.000 my grounding is is really like physical, like I I 0:03:25.040 --> 0:03:28.640 go to yoga, I do my workouts. Um, but I 0:03:28.680 --> 0:03:30.840 also have two sisters and I'm super close with and 0:03:30.840 --> 0:03:34.280 we do a lot of um work together. Like we 0:03:34.360 --> 0:03:36.360 have a lot of exciting things coming up that I've 0:03:36.400 --> 0:03:38.480 been I'm not allowed to talk about right now, which 0:03:38.520 --> 0:03:40.840 is like my management is like always nervous getting me 0:03:40.840 --> 0:03:45.880 on podcasts because well, I'm just like I am, I'm 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:50.080 like t M I but but yeah, so so we're creating. 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:52.600 We have a lot of things going on together as sisters. 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:56.080 But then individually, I'm I'm starting a website. Um, I'm 0:03:56.080 --> 0:03:58.640 a writer, so I'm writing a lot about just like 0:03:58.960 --> 0:04:04.560 basically mom acts, personal struggles with like postpartum anxiety and 0:04:04.560 --> 0:04:08.000 depression and things. Just I don't like to call myself 0:04:08.000 --> 0:04:11.360 an expert in anything, but I'm I'm an expert in 0:04:11.920 --> 0:04:15.800 being honest and sharing personal experiences, which I feel like 0:04:15.920 --> 0:04:18.560 helps so much more than you even realize. Because for 0:04:18.640 --> 0:04:20.679 me too, it's like all like be on this podcast 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:23.200 and have certain guests and then I walk away, or 0:04:23.200 --> 0:04:25.240 if a YouTube video goes up and I'm like, is 0:04:25.279 --> 0:04:26.919 that boring to people? Even like that? And then the 0:04:26.960 --> 0:04:29.720 response of you just being like open and honest can help, 0:04:29.760 --> 0:04:32.760 even if it's just a few young girls or moms 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:35.080 going through something similar or something like that. It's like 0:04:35.520 --> 0:04:38.080 it's crazy how much of an impact it can actually 0:04:38.080 --> 0:04:41.360 have and you don't even realize it. I know. It's 0:04:41.400 --> 0:04:45.560 like I think I'm a little like hard on myself 0:04:45.600 --> 0:04:48.279 and like just like that question like who are you 0:04:48.320 --> 0:04:50.719 and what do you do? I'm like, what do I say? 0:04:50.880 --> 0:04:52.760 Like what do you am? I what do I do? 0:04:52.920 --> 0:04:54.960 Like a lot of people, it's easy for them because 0:04:54.960 --> 0:04:58.000 it's like I'm like, I'm a talent manager. I mean this, 0:04:58.080 --> 0:04:59.440 I mean that. But it's like when you kind of 0:04:59.480 --> 0:05:01.920 wear a lot of different hats and you and your 0:05:01.960 --> 0:05:06.359 thing is just being open and being like like a 0:05:06.520 --> 0:05:09.360 source for other people to kind of like to learn 0:05:09.400 --> 0:05:12.320 from your mistakes and things you've done. Like doesn't really 0:05:12.360 --> 0:05:16.279 have a title, like not traditional, especially now with social media, 0:05:16.320 --> 0:05:18.440 it's like so normal, Like to me, I think of 0:05:18.520 --> 0:05:21.960 it like influencers, like a category. Obviously, I agree, I 0:05:22.000 --> 0:05:24.520 think that word has been I think not even just 0:05:24.600 --> 0:05:26.520 like I don't think it's bad. I just think it's 0:05:26.560 --> 0:05:30.080 overused to the point where it's like what are you influencing? 0:05:30.320 --> 0:05:33.159 I guess, and like what's your purpose? And then it 0:05:33.200 --> 0:05:35.560 is it just to like I was talking about this 0:05:35.560 --> 0:05:38.279 with somebody recently, I'm like, I love I love what 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:40.120 I do and I started my YouTube when I was 0:05:40.160 --> 0:05:42.400 so young and I enjoy it so much. But also 0:05:42.440 --> 0:05:45.800 it's like there's a level of embarrassment now where I'm like, 0:05:45.880 --> 0:05:48.000 am I just do people just think I'm doing this 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:50.280 because I want like followers in an easy job? Or 0:05:50.360 --> 0:05:53.080 do people see that this is something I'm passionate about, right, 0:05:53.640 --> 0:05:57.560 But like like, oh you it sounds it seems like 0:05:57.600 --> 0:06:00.520 you're doing this for attention, Like that's something like I've 0:06:00.520 --> 0:06:02.279 heard before two or like you know I've gotten in 0:06:02.320 --> 0:06:05.680 my d M s And it's like, yeah, you do. 0:06:06.360 --> 0:06:09.280 Like as a human being, like we seek connection with 0:06:09.320 --> 0:06:12.400 other people who seek to be seen and to be 0:06:12.520 --> 0:06:16.080 like heard and validated, and especially if like you feel 0:06:16.080 --> 0:06:18.440 like earlier in your life and your childhood, maybe weren't 0:06:18.440 --> 0:06:21.640 always seen for who you were. Like to have a platform, 0:06:21.720 --> 0:06:25.039 to be able to to be to see yourself, to 0:06:25.160 --> 0:06:27.400 have other people see themselves in you, and to feel 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:29.840 like you've made a positive impact on people. I feel 0:06:29.839 --> 0:06:34.160 like that's like it's been hugely like healing for me 0:06:34.200 --> 0:06:36.359 in a lot of ways. And also it's been a 0:06:36.440 --> 0:06:38.960 huge growth experience. Like what I've learned is like you 0:06:39.000 --> 0:06:41.240 don't need to be an expert in order to like 0:06:41.800 --> 0:06:45.280 speak on a topic. You know, so and do you 0:06:45.360 --> 0:06:48.080 think like because you're both your sisters. I know Olivia 0:06:48.200 --> 0:06:50.680 just from like years of just like going out and 0:06:50.680 --> 0:06:52.760 seeing her around and she's lovelier. And then you have 0:06:52.800 --> 0:06:57.280 another sister too, So yeah, is that correct? Do they? 0:06:57.640 --> 0:07:00.560 I know Olivia influences or whatever we're want to call it, 0:07:00.600 --> 0:07:05.400 but not like you to call her that. Wait, yeah, 0:07:05.440 --> 0:07:08.360 I take it back, Olivia. I'm so sorry. But does 0:07:08.360 --> 0:07:15.200 Sophia also do Instagram and that whole vibe? She's funny, 0:07:15.240 --> 0:07:16.920 Like we we make fun of her all the time 0:07:16.960 --> 0:07:20.120 because she kind of like she went to she has 0:07:20.160 --> 0:07:24.600 a degree for Boston University in nutrition and public health, 0:07:24.720 --> 0:07:26.960 and then she kind of was like, you know, I 0:07:27.000 --> 0:07:29.920 don't know, I don't know what your experience was like 0:07:30.000 --> 0:07:33.640 after you after college or whatever, but when for me 0:07:33.760 --> 0:07:36.840 it was like you you think you're going to graduate 0:07:36.880 --> 0:07:38.680 and get like a great jobs, like no, you're living 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:42.200 in Squalor. For a lot of that was my experience. 0:07:42.240 --> 0:07:44.400 You're just like trying to figure out what you want 0:07:44.400 --> 0:07:47.480 to do, and you're just like still heavily relying on 0:07:48.440 --> 0:07:51.320 my parents. At least I was. But for Sophie, we 0:07:51.360 --> 0:07:53.560 make fun of her because she like she literally walked 0:07:53.560 --> 0:07:55.080 out of college and then was like, oh, I'm gonna 0:07:55.080 --> 0:07:57.560 go live with Olivia. Actually, like she's got a good 0:07:57.600 --> 0:08:00.720 thing going on over there. She's just like completely writing 0:08:00.720 --> 0:08:04.880 out her coattails. But it's like work smart, you have 0:08:04.960 --> 0:08:07.560 to do you do you You take advantage of the 0:08:07.560 --> 0:08:10.120 cards that you have that you're dealt and if you don't, 0:08:10.160 --> 0:08:12.640 then you're stupid, you know. And it's not like it's 0:08:12.680 --> 0:08:15.600 been easy for her. It's like just as hard to 0:08:15.800 --> 0:08:19.160 try to make something for yourself when you feel like 0:08:19.320 --> 0:08:23.240 you have something already set in stone, like for for 0:08:23.240 --> 0:08:25.320 for me and Sophie, it's been a little bit like 0:08:25.360 --> 0:08:30.000 of a an interesting situation because Olivia has been established 0:08:30.080 --> 0:08:32.760 and she's done a lot, you know, like cover Sports, 0:08:32.800 --> 0:08:35.680 Illustrated all that, and it's like I hate when people 0:08:35.679 --> 0:08:38.160 are like, oh, you're Olivia's sister, right, It's like, no, actually, 0:08:38.160 --> 0:08:41.520 she's my sister. I'm older and she is the way 0:08:41.559 --> 0:08:44.880 she is. That's how my sister feels to like exactly, 0:08:45.040 --> 0:08:47.000 if anybody ever says to my sister if we're out 0:08:47.000 --> 0:08:48.640 of like an event or a party, like oh you're 0:08:48.679 --> 0:08:51.520 Olivia's ironically same name, but like, oh you're Olivia's sister, 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:54.320 She's like, my name is Bella and it's really nice 0:08:54.360 --> 0:08:56.720 to meet you. But I relate to that too, just 0:08:56.760 --> 0:08:59.000 having like a mom that's an actress, like growing up 0:08:59.040 --> 0:09:01.760 and every every thing that's ever written about me or whatever. 0:09:01.800 --> 0:09:04.160 It's like Lorie Laughlin's daughter, which I get, which is 0:09:04.160 --> 0:09:06.760 a fact, sure, but also it's like you do want 0:09:06.800 --> 0:09:10.440 to be recognized for your own, your own thing and 0:09:10.480 --> 0:09:13.040 like being your own person. I thought it was so 0:09:13.120 --> 0:09:16.280 interesting too. I was justin, this is so random. But 0:09:16.280 --> 0:09:18.240 I was just in Paris for fashion week and I 0:09:18.280 --> 0:09:21.679 was at a party and somebody introduced their friend and 0:09:21.800 --> 0:09:23.640 the person they were introducing me to has a very 0:09:23.679 --> 0:09:26.200 famous dad, and they were like, this is so and 0:09:26.280 --> 0:09:28.800 so son, and I literally looked at them and I 0:09:28.880 --> 0:09:33.440 was like, what's his name? Like why do you like that? 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:37.760 If somebody did that to me, I know, And the 0:09:37.760 --> 0:09:42.520 thing is it's like, yes, we've all gotten. Everybody who's 0:09:42.600 --> 0:09:46.000 created any success for themselves has had certain strikes of 0:09:46.120 --> 0:09:48.480 luck or like a leg up in one way, and 0:09:48.520 --> 0:09:52.000 it's like you either hop on that opportunity and create 0:09:52.080 --> 0:09:56.040 something for yourself out of it, or you can be like, oh, 0:09:56.120 --> 0:09:58.760 you know that's you can shy away from it and 0:09:58.800 --> 0:10:01.400 like either you there is fine. But I just I 0:10:01.440 --> 0:10:05.720 have a problem with people being like, oh, she's only 0:10:05.960 --> 0:10:08.640 she's only she only has followers because of her sister, 0:10:08.840 --> 0:10:11.560 or she on her parents are famous, that's why she 0:10:11.760 --> 0:10:14.720 like blah blah blah, because it's like, if you haven't noticed, 0:10:14.840 --> 0:10:19.760 not all famous people have like famous siblings or not 0:10:19.840 --> 0:10:23.720 everybody whose parents are famous like they've made something out 0:10:23.720 --> 0:10:27.079 of that. A lot of people actually have. It's, if anything, 0:10:27.120 --> 0:10:29.839 it's been like a hindrance to them because they don't 0:10:29.840 --> 0:10:33.040 really even know like how to create something for themselves 0:10:33.080 --> 0:10:35.080 because they feel like they only can think of the 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:37.680 mold that was already set for them. Yeah, yeah, I 0:10:37.720 --> 0:10:39.920 really see what you're saying. It's interesting too, because it's 0:10:39.920 --> 0:10:41.760 such a touchy subject because you don't want to, like, 0:10:42.480 --> 0:10:45.480 at least for me, I get nervous talking about anything 0:10:45.520 --> 0:10:46.719 to do with that, because I'm like, I don't want 0:10:46.720 --> 0:10:49.319 people to think that I'm not recognizing that I definitely 0:10:49.440 --> 0:10:52.560 was born in a life where I'm already like a 0:10:52.679 --> 0:10:56.600 thousand steps in front. I can recognize that. But then 0:10:56.640 --> 0:10:59.400 it's like when people go on to say kind of 0:10:59.440 --> 0:11:01.480 what we're talking about just or anything in that realm, 0:11:01.520 --> 0:11:04.800 I'm like, I almost feel like it d like devalues 0:11:04.840 --> 0:11:07.120 what I've like tried to build by myself when I 0:11:07.200 --> 0:11:09.680 was like a young kid fourteen starting a YouTube. And 0:11:09.720 --> 0:11:12.840 it's like I get it, Like I definitely have immense 0:11:12.880 --> 0:11:16.000 privilege that's like taking me very far. But also it's 0:11:16.000 --> 0:11:19.000 not It's like it took work. It's not just because 0:11:19.040 --> 0:11:23.280 I was born. And there's a difference between like recognizing 0:11:23.320 --> 0:11:28.800 that and its value and and and using it as 0:11:28.840 --> 0:11:32.440 a way to like further your own ambitions. And then 0:11:32.800 --> 0:11:35.800 and then you know, on the flip side, you could 0:11:35.840 --> 0:11:38.520 be like ashamed of it or or you could like 0:11:38.760 --> 0:11:41.839 feeling shame about anything is just not productive and it's 0:11:41.840 --> 0:11:45.840 not helpful to anybody. So yeah, I'm I'm I'm on 0:11:45.880 --> 0:11:48.240 your wavelength with that. Yeah, for sure, are you the 0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:52.640 oldest of all siblings? Are just the girls I'm the 0:11:52.679 --> 0:11:56.520 oldest girl. But we have five in our family and 0:11:56.760 --> 0:12:00.320 um and where it's an Italian family, it's so like 0:12:00.360 --> 0:12:04.000 if you know any I think you're Italians. Yeah, so 0:12:04.040 --> 0:12:06.400 it's like the but you only have a sister, so 0:12:06.440 --> 0:12:11.280 you don't have brothers. You do have a brother. See 0:12:11.360 --> 0:12:14.320 this is what happens. Like I only knew about you 0:12:14.360 --> 0:12:18.400 and your sister and I also have like other siblings too, 0:12:18.440 --> 0:12:20.320 But it's like we're the only ones who have taken 0:12:20.360 --> 0:12:22.880 advantage of this kind of life because this is like 0:12:22.920 --> 0:12:25.480 what we wanted to do. Not everybody wants to do that. 0:12:25.520 --> 0:12:28.680 Like my brothers are musicians. They're super talented, but they're 0:12:28.679 --> 0:12:30.800 not really interested in like putting their life on the 0:12:30.800 --> 0:12:34.080 internet for people to be like say anything they wanted about, 0:12:34.120 --> 0:12:38.400 Like not everybody. He's super private. Yeah. Well, I don't 0:12:38.440 --> 0:12:41.040 know if you have the same dynamic in your family. 0:12:41.080 --> 0:12:45.000 But in my family, the girl is like the is 0:12:45.040 --> 0:12:49.760 in charge, Like she it's responsible for everybody, and like 0:12:50.000 --> 0:12:53.199 we're the connectors, Like we're the ones being the Thanksgiving plans. 0:12:53.240 --> 0:12:56.360 We're the ones like making sure everybody's doing what they 0:12:56.360 --> 0:13:00.520 should be doing, getting mom a Valentine. My brothers are 0:13:00.559 --> 0:13:02.680 just like so basically, long story short, I do feel 0:13:02.679 --> 0:13:22.200 like I'm the oldest brother and you're really you're working 0:13:22.200 --> 0:13:24.120 on stuff with your sisters. Obviously you just said you 0:13:24.160 --> 0:13:26.559 can't go into that, but I grew up with a 0:13:26.600 --> 0:13:29.240 sister that's really close in age, and I'm super super 0:13:29.280 --> 0:13:32.320 close with What was that like growing up for you guys? 0:13:32.360 --> 0:13:34.520 And then who was like the first to get into 0:13:35.360 --> 0:13:38.040 what category? Like give me a little give me a 0:13:38.080 --> 0:13:40.920 little tea on the family. It's a funny. It's a 0:13:41.000 --> 0:13:46.200 really funny story. Um we So Olivia started modeling in 0:13:46.360 --> 0:13:52.360 college and then she like randomly, um uh, tried out 0:13:52.400 --> 0:13:55.040 for MS Rhode Island. And my family is like, they're 0:13:55.360 --> 0:13:59.280 classical musicians, like they're kind of like, I mean, they're 0:13:59.280 --> 0:14:01.440 gonna be Madmie for sing this, but like elitists, like 0:14:01.480 --> 0:14:05.840 they just you know, they're like, oh no, just pageants 0:14:05.840 --> 0:14:08.760 were cheesy to them, Like like my parents. My mom 0:14:08.840 --> 0:14:11.200 was mortified. So she tried out. She ended up winning it, 0:14:11.400 --> 0:14:13.160 and then she ended up winning Miss USA, and then 0:14:13.200 --> 0:14:16.960 she ended up um winning um Miss Universe, and we 0:14:16.960 --> 0:14:21.480 were all kind of like, uh, what like just happened here? 0:14:21.560 --> 0:14:23.800 So that was a world win for my family, but 0:14:23.920 --> 0:14:26.800 for me personally. It was like, you know, I was 0:14:26.840 --> 0:14:30.640 still I was like getting my master's degree, and I 0:14:30.680 --> 0:14:33.680 was not making any money. I was living at home 0:14:33.720 --> 0:14:36.040 with my parents. I just gotten out of a bad relationship, 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:39.120 and here's my sister like crushing it at life, like 0:14:39.200 --> 0:14:42.120 three years younger than me. And and you know, it 0:14:42.200 --> 0:14:46.920 took like a few years of our relationship just like 0:14:47.000 --> 0:14:52.520 going through trials where like I was having to really learn, 0:14:52.680 --> 0:14:55.840 like not to compare where I am in life to 0:14:55.920 --> 0:14:58.400 where she is in life, and not to compare like 0:14:59.120 --> 0:15:01.520 each of our vale use based on like like there 0:15:01.560 --> 0:15:02.960 was a time I'd be like, well, that's stupid. I 0:15:03.000 --> 0:15:05.840 don't even like she's she's oh she's promoting like lipstick 0:15:05.880 --> 0:15:08.320 on Instagram. I don't care, like I'm saving, I'm doing 0:15:08.320 --> 0:15:11.120 God's work over here, you know. And then and then 0:15:11.480 --> 0:15:14.320 and and then, like our dynamic changed a lot, and 0:15:14.360 --> 0:15:16.600 I started to realize that I don't know if our 0:15:16.680 --> 0:15:19.200 dynamic change or that if I just realized that, like 0:15:19.800 --> 0:15:23.200 it doesn't feel good to feel like someone else's gain 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:26.760 is like you're lost, you know. And when it comes 0:15:26.800 --> 0:15:29.320 to shove, like there's nobody in the world that I 0:15:29.320 --> 0:15:34.280 would rather have something amazing, like that happened to and 0:15:34.880 --> 0:15:37.440 then my sister like, what would I prefer somebody else 0:15:37.480 --> 0:15:40.480 to have one? No? And yes, she did win those 0:15:40.560 --> 0:15:43.480 three competitions, and that definitely gave her a leg up, 0:15:43.600 --> 0:15:45.320 which you could say is lucky. You could be like, oh, 0:15:45.360 --> 0:15:46.960 well she was born with a pretty face, or she 0:15:47.440 --> 0:15:50.200 heard her question well or something. But what it really 0:15:50.200 --> 0:15:52.880 comes down to is that she manifested it for herself. 0:15:52.880 --> 0:15:56.160 She believed in it for herself, and she works really 0:15:56.200 --> 0:15:58.880 hard to this day. She's like one of those people 0:15:58.880 --> 0:16:01.400 who like does the work. She actually just recommends a 0:16:01.400 --> 0:16:03.640 book to me called do the Work. I think it's 0:16:03.680 --> 0:16:07.080 like an audible book. Um, but she's the person who's 0:16:07.160 --> 0:16:10.640 journaling every day, and it's like and looking at at 0:16:10.680 --> 0:16:13.640 old journals from years ago seeing that like what she 0:16:13.720 --> 0:16:16.640 wrote then has like come true for her, you know, 0:16:16.960 --> 0:16:20.200 big and manifesting. I think that's huge, honestly, Like I 0:16:20.240 --> 0:16:22.440 know that. I know for some people they think that's 0:16:22.480 --> 0:16:25.160 absolute craziness. And I've been trying to journal like a 0:16:25.160 --> 0:16:27.520 little bit more, just write down like goals. A friend 0:16:27.560 --> 0:16:30.480 of mine gave me this notebook recently that like is 0:16:30.520 --> 0:16:32.480 all lined out for you and then you write and 0:16:32.520 --> 0:16:33.960 like this is what I want to do this year, 0:16:34.000 --> 0:16:35.240 and then you go back at the end of the 0:16:35.320 --> 0:16:40.120 year and I probably haven't. I'm just trying to do 0:16:40.200 --> 0:16:42.600 all of it, but I'm just like I lack motivation 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:44.240 in it because I'm like does this even work? Like 0:16:44.320 --> 0:16:47.000 what's going on? And you're like fighting with yourself to 0:16:47.040 --> 0:16:48.640 try and get it done. But once you do it, 0:16:48.920 --> 0:16:51.360 it actually just feels really good to like sometimes just 0:16:51.400 --> 0:16:53.240 like vent on a piece of paper and just like 0:16:53.360 --> 0:16:56.960 let everything out. And then also I do think that like, 0:16:56.960 --> 0:17:00.560 like I remember when I was really really young, like 0:17:00.760 --> 0:17:04.080 probably seventeen or eighteen, there was a big chalkboard in 0:17:04.119 --> 0:17:09.879 my house and I had written like the letters s 0:17:09.960 --> 0:17:14.280 C on it and it was for Sephora Collection, and 0:17:14.320 --> 0:17:17.919 I like really wanted to like I had been working 0:17:17.960 --> 0:17:19.760 with them like a little bit when I was younger. 0:17:19.920 --> 0:17:22.359 And then I remember like a year later, it was 0:17:22.400 --> 0:17:24.240 like somebody had erase the chalkboard, but it was like 0:17:24.440 --> 0:17:26.320 very faded out, and I was walking down the stairs 0:17:26.359 --> 0:17:27.960 to go to school one day and I had gotten 0:17:27.960 --> 0:17:30.000 a call from my agent like Sephora p how it 0:17:30.080 --> 0:17:32.080 wants to do or Sapphora Collection wants to a pallette 0:17:32.080 --> 0:17:33.920 with you and I was walking down the stairs, I 0:17:33.960 --> 0:17:36.600 got this call like looking at the faded like sc mark, 0:17:37.000 --> 0:17:39.199 and I was like, that's so weird. So I do 0:17:39.359 --> 0:17:43.800 believe it in a sense, yeah totally. And like while 0:17:43.880 --> 0:17:47.080 you and I might not be like the journaling type, 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:48.800 even though like I don't know, I do feel like 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:50.720 I need to try that out. I'm just like, for 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:52.679 some reason, I can't get myself to do that. But 0:17:52.720 --> 0:17:54.960 even like doing something like this, like a podcast and 0:17:55.040 --> 0:17:59.240 just like speaking about things and like just like it's 0:17:59.320 --> 0:18:02.040 kind of like your any different you know, like you're 0:18:02.240 --> 0:18:05.200 you're talking about different subjects. You're talking about what you hope, 0:18:05.320 --> 0:18:07.000 your hopes and your dreams and all that, and just 0:18:07.040 --> 0:18:09.440 like the words we speak and putting them out into 0:18:09.480 --> 0:18:11.840 the universe, I also feel or just they have a 0:18:12.000 --> 0:18:17.080 very very powerful myself being like, oh I don't know 0:18:17.200 --> 0:18:20.160 I am. It's like no, I know, yeah, everything you're 0:18:20.160 --> 0:18:22.679 just speaking into like the way you talk about yourself, 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:24.800 it does go really far. But I'm the same because 0:18:24.840 --> 0:18:26.880 even when people ask like what do you do, I'm like, 0:18:27.359 --> 0:18:28.879 what do I do? And then if I tell you 0:18:28.880 --> 0:18:30.879 what I do, it's going to sound really lame because 0:18:30.920 --> 0:18:34.280 I feel myself in my bedroom by myself talking and 0:18:34.560 --> 0:18:38.960 it's like super super lame. Um. But anyway, you're in 0:18:39.119 --> 0:18:41.800 like full mom mode on Instagram too, Like is that 0:18:41.840 --> 0:18:44.320 what the main content is that, like your main type 0:18:44.320 --> 0:18:48.520 of content you produce or yeah, I mean it definitely. 0:18:49.320 --> 0:18:52.760 That's kind of how I accidentally fell into the influencer 0:18:52.840 --> 0:18:57.600 world because I had I had my son and I 0:18:57.640 --> 0:19:01.600 was just like holy, like nobody talks about this, Like 0:19:01.920 --> 0:19:04.080 is anybody else like not able to sit down after 0:19:04.119 --> 0:19:06.600 you give birth? Like what are hemorrhoids? What are like 0:19:06.600 --> 0:19:08.560 all these things that people are like, you know, just 0:19:08.600 --> 0:19:12.320 like embarrassed to talk about. And like I've kind of 0:19:12.680 --> 0:19:17.560 marketed myself as that person that's like approachable and we'll 0:19:17.600 --> 0:19:20.040 tell the truth. And and that has been like a 0:19:20.080 --> 0:19:22.760 double edged sword for me because I'm the person who 0:19:22.920 --> 0:19:26.360 is like in my d M s responding to everybody 0:19:26.400 --> 0:19:30.440 getting myself into trouble. Like I'm like, I'm surprised to 0:19:30.560 --> 0:19:32.600 let me do a podcast without my sisters because they'll 0:19:32.680 --> 0:19:34.560 usually be like kicking me under the table to be 0:19:34.680 --> 0:19:38.200 like shut up say that word, like you're gonna get 0:19:38.440 --> 0:19:40.240 you're gonna get canceled. I'm always like on the verge 0:19:40.240 --> 0:19:42.400 of getting cans. I would never let you get canceled 0:19:42.880 --> 0:19:45.800 from me. It sucks. I won't let anybody next to 0:19:45.840 --> 0:19:48.840 me or around me get canceled. I've had a lot 0:19:48.880 --> 0:19:54.160 of experience being kind of unfiltered on Instagram and it's 0:19:54.320 --> 0:20:00.119 it's gotten me in trouble um just because uh, I'm 0:20:00.119 --> 0:20:02.200 a little impulsive with the way I talk. I respond 0:20:02.280 --> 0:20:04.359 to basically all I'm like, you know, I'm in a 0:20:04.400 --> 0:20:07.240 fight with Tim from Ohio that I've never like, why 0:20:07.240 --> 0:20:09.679 do you read? You're like just don't answer them, and 0:20:09.720 --> 0:20:12.199 I'm just like I've got to get talk to like 0:20:12.240 --> 0:20:17.119 I need to talk to this person. And because you're human, yeah, 0:20:17.560 --> 0:20:19.360 I know I need to be better about that. But 0:20:19.400 --> 0:20:22.400 what when when my manager was like, do you wanna 0:20:22.880 --> 0:20:25.879 do you want to go on Olivia Jade's podcast, And 0:20:25.880 --> 0:20:27.960 I was like, I would love too, because I feel 0:20:28.000 --> 0:20:30.439 like what i've from what I've seen from you is 0:20:30.480 --> 0:20:34.880 like such a resilient person, like not everybody like I've 0:20:35.440 --> 0:20:37.439 I was like doing my research and like you know, 0:20:37.960 --> 0:20:41.479