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Speaker 1: Hey guys, and welcome back to another week of geodiaries.

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Speaker 1: This weekend was actually jam packed, but it was a

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Speaker 1: really good weekend. On Friday, Christian and I kind of

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Speaker 1: So we got to kind of see my new neighborhood

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Speaker 1: and I am just so excited to move in. I

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Speaker 1: This is my last week home, which is kind of crazy,

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Speaker 1: and I was kind of saying that this weekend that

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Speaker 1: I really haven't had time to process that I'm really moving.

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Speaker 1: Of course, I know all the things are happening and

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Speaker 1: and I am not going to be with Audriana all

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Speaker 1: I grew up, in the way that I was raised,

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Speaker 1: I was always raised to be there for my family

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Speaker 1: So that was my role not only as the oldest child,

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Speaker 1: So that's kind of weird because I feel like I'm

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Speaker 1: but she's also just so mature. She's so happy for me,

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Speaker 1: So it's kind of funny because we kind of always

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Speaker 1: it's going to be like college again. It's going to

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Speaker 1: be like when I was at Rutgers. We know that

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Speaker 1: weekends are going to be really dedicated to us, but

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Speaker 1: I if we want to see each other during the week,

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Speaker 1: we're going to see each other. Obviously, there's going to

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Speaker 1: I still want to see you at least once a week,

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Speaker 1: I'm really excited. But this week I kind of had

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Speaker 1: And this past week, every event that I've been at

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Speaker 1: it's a lot financially, it costs a lot to move

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Speaker 1: so funny because I have these two feather lamps in

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Speaker 1: And I went into home Sense and I saw my

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Speaker 1: was a really fun weekend. Lots of things coming up,

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Speaker 1: And I actually saw this really funny TikTok. Well, it

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Speaker 1: much and after watching Special Forces, like she is my favorite,

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Speaker 1: And I commented and I said, well, thank you. I

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Speaker 1: but basically, season one of Next Gen it was not

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Speaker 1: That show shows you as your real, raw, true self.

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Speaker 1: And Season one and Next Gen just wasn't it for me,

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Speaker 1: Like that just wasn't it. That wasn't me. And when

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Speaker 1: sent me and she's so cute for this. She goes, Hi,

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Speaker 1: I'm actually so obsessed with Special Forces and cannot believe

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Speaker 1: you actually did that what I said. I love you

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Speaker 1: so much and I'm so happy you like it. She goes,

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Speaker 1: I love you, No, I genuinely love it, and I

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Speaker 1: actually like am seeing you like the GA I know

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Speaker 1: makes my heart so warm. Like when she sent that

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Speaker 1: to me, I was like, I love you because it's true,

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Speaker 1: Like that's who I am, that is that is me,

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Speaker 1: and I you know, you have your Everyone has their

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Speaker 1: highs and lows on reality TV, and I definitely would

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Speaker 1: not say Next Gen was a low because I freaking

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Speaker 1: love Next Gen and I am so grateful to be

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Speaker 1: a part of it. But last season it just it

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Speaker 1: wasn't it. You know, that wasn't it for me? You

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Speaker 1: really didn't get to see me for who I am.

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Speaker 1: So then this TikTok and her recaption of the video

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Speaker 1: was am I in a twilight Zone? So yeah, because

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Speaker 1: she really loved me. She I'm her favorite on Special Forces,

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Speaker 1: but on Next Gen, I wasn't. And I commented and said, well,

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Speaker 1: thank you with like the teary eyes and I hope

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Speaker 1: you like me this season on Next Gen. Last season

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Speaker 1: was not at lmao, and she said, ha ha ha,

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Speaker 1: I hope I do too, with two paint cards. So again,

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Speaker 1: I think everyone goes through their highs and lows on

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Speaker 1: reality TV. And this is why I am just so

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Speaker 1: grateful and I am so proud to have been on

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Speaker 1: Special Forces and have had that and had that experience,

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Speaker 1: because it's hard when you're in this world and you

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Speaker 1: definitely have moments that you're super proud of in moments

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Speaker 1: that you're not, and then you sit back and you're like,

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Speaker 1: that just wasn't me. And it's hard because no matter what,

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Speaker 1: you had to have said something to those links on

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Speaker 1: camera to have made them edit it a certain way,

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Speaker 1: which is true, which is valid, but it's hard because

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Speaker 1: you sit back in your like, but that's just not me,

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Speaker 1: like that, this is not Gea in her true self,

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Speaker 1: you know, like, this is not me for truly who

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Speaker 1: I am in my true self. So seeing that video,

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Speaker 1: it was like very rewarding in a way because Special

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Speaker 1: Forces is something that I'm so proud of and I

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Speaker 1: hope that when you guys see me on this season

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Speaker 1: of Next Gen you get that same feeling. And sometimes

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Speaker 1: when you sit back and realize, Okay, that wasn't me,

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Speaker 1: it's kind of hard to like defend yourself and say

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Speaker 1: that wasn't me, because yeah, I did say those things.

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Speaker 1: You know, maybe it got chopped up a certain way,

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Speaker 1: but yeah that did happen. So it's all about self

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Speaker 1: reflecting and just growing and evolving. And I'm definitely a

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Speaker 1: changed person after Special Forces. And that was it for

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Speaker 1: this week. Geodiaries, Love you guys. Bye h