Speaker 1: This is Let's Be Clear with Shannon Doherty. Hi, everyone,
Speaker 1: welcome to a new episode of Let's Be Clear with
Speaker 1: Me Shannon Doherty. So, I've talked to you guys a
Speaker 1: lot about my cancer journey, my divorce, life in general,
Speaker 1: and I've broached the subject about obviously funeralists and trying
Speaker 1: to make things clean for the people that you leave behind.
Speaker 1: But I had an experienced very very very recently when
Speaker 1: I was in Tennessee where I had decided that I
Speaker 1: was going to get rid of a place there because
Speaker 1: I just felt that even though I have a lot
Speaker 1: of hopes and dreams and I'm a fighter, and I
Speaker 1: believe in science, and I think that something will come
Speaker 1: along that will keep on prolonging my life, like these
Speaker 1: amazing protocols and the meds that I'm on, or chemo
Speaker 1: or cart cell therapy. Just there's more options out there,
Speaker 1: and I know that I still felt that I needed
Speaker 1: to make things clean just in case. And listen, it
Speaker 1: doesn't matter if you have a terminal disease or whatever.
Speaker 1: I believe, yes, obviously you should live life to its
Speaker 1: fullest and embrace life while you're alive. But I guess
Speaker 1: it's the cancer for me. That has really made me
Speaker 1: take stock of my life and shift my priorities. And
Speaker 1: my priority at the moment is my mom and about
Speaker 1: making things. I know it's going to be hard on
Speaker 1: her if I pass away before her, but so sorry,
Speaker 1: this is a hard one for me. But because it's
Speaker 1: going to be so hard on her, I want other
Speaker 1: things to be a lot easier, meaning that I don't
Speaker 1: want her to have a bunch of stuff to deal with.
Speaker 1: I don't want her to have four storage units filled
Speaker 1: with furniture, because yeah, I have a furniture obsession. Some girls,
Speaker 1: you know, obsess over buying purses or shoes or clothes.
Speaker 1: I buy furniture. It's my thing. I love furniture and
Speaker 1: I love rugs. So I have storage units filled with stuff.
Speaker 1: And I have a really good friend Julie who's starting
Speaker 1: to like help me go through my storage and get
Speaker 1: rid of stuff and donate stuff and sell stuff. But
Speaker 1: there's bigger things, like houses that I have to worry about.
Speaker 1: And so we were in Tennessee and I was packing
Speaker 1: up one of the places there and it was really hard,
Speaker 1: and it was really emotional because to certain extent I
Speaker 1: felt like I was giving up on this dream. I
Speaker 1: was giving up on this stream of you know, building
Speaker 1: this property out and putting a house for me and
Speaker 1: a house for my mom, and then extending the barn
Speaker 1: and rescuing horses and having a sanctuary for you know,
Speaker 1: hopefully enough land eventually that I would keep buying to
Speaker 1: help rescue all these horses that are abandoned by their
Speaker 1: owners because they're too old, or they get broken down
Speaker 1: because they work them too hard, and or what BLM
Speaker 1: is doing with the wild horse roundups in California and
Speaker 1: Arizona and Wyoming and Colorado. Oh, and it's horrifying to me.
Speaker 1: And I see these bands, these families of horses just
Speaker 1: being rounded up, and lots of dusts in the roundups
Speaker 1: because of helicopters and everything else. So I thought, you know,
Speaker 1: that was one of my dreams of starting to help
Speaker 1: rescue and take some relief off of all these other
Speaker 1: amazing rescues like Return to Freedom and all seated in
Speaker 1: the barn. And so I was packing up, and I
Speaker 1: started crying because again I felt like I was giving
Speaker 1: up on a dream. And what did that mean for me?
Speaker 1: Didn't mean that I was giving up on life. Didn't
Speaker 1: mean that I was like throwing in the towel, and
Speaker 1: you know, my mom was there and she was like,
Speaker 1: don't you know, don't get rid of this place like
Speaker 1: it's and you don't have to and you can keep going,
Speaker 1: and so yeah, absolutely I can. The funny thing is
Speaker 1: is that a week and a half later, when I
Speaker 1: went back to throw it all in a uh and
Speaker 1: have my friend Zach drive it back to California, I
Speaker 1: started noticing all the things wrong with the place and
Speaker 1: like how much money it would cost me, and how
Speaker 1: it was kind of a stupid idea anyway. So you know,
Speaker 1: I think somehow the brain works in mysterious ways where
Speaker 1: even though you're incredibly sad about something and it feels
Speaker 1: like you're giving up on something that was very special
Speaker 1: and important to you, you know that it is the
Speaker 1: right thing to do, and you know that it's it's
Speaker 1: going to give you a sense of peace and a
Speaker 1: sense of calm, and because you are helping the people
Speaker 1: that you leave behind just have a cleaner, easier transition,
Speaker 1: which brought me into a whole other area about like
Speaker 1: possessions I have. I've accumulated so much crap and it's
Speaker 1: sitting in a storage and I'm not enjoying it and
Speaker 1: others aren't enjoying it, And do I really need any
Speaker 1: of it? Do I need? Do I need to have,
Speaker 1: you know, three dining room tables? I know it's so
Speaker 1: sad in storage just because they were you know, antiques
Speaker 1: that I found. It's an amazing price at you know,
Speaker 1: some antique mart or or flea market. And the answer
Speaker 1: is no, Like, none of us really need all the
Speaker 1: stuff that we have, and we can all, you know,
Speaker 1: do with a little bit of downsizing and not be
Speaker 1: a hoarder, which I was becoming with all of my furniture.
Speaker 1: And you can still I gut still live my dream
Speaker 1: of helping horses buy and dogs and cows and sheeps
Speaker 1: and pigs and goats. I guess to live that dream
Speaker 1: by really participating with rescues that are far more capable
Speaker 1: than me of doing it. But it was Listen, it
Speaker 1: was hard. And I talked to you guys at some
Speaker 1: point or at least touched on a will and what
Speaker 1: you leave behind and how you do it and trying
Speaker 1: to make it as easy as possible, to keep on
Speaker 1: saying that word easy. And again, I know it's never
Speaker 1: going to be easy. For the people in my life.
Speaker 1: But maybe it's more about ease for myself. Maybe it's
Speaker 1: and I'm talking this out with you guys because I
Speaker 1: have so many thoughts and so many emotions about it,
Speaker 1: and I have found this podcast to be really cathartic,
Speaker 1: So I guess I'm using it as a therapy session.
Speaker 1: So thank you for digging in with me and listening.
Speaker 1: And again, I'd love to hear your comments and everything else,
Speaker 1: So feel free after you listen to this to let
Speaker 1: me know your thoughts on it. But I think it's
Speaker 1: easy for myself. It's again that peace of mind. It's
Speaker 1: the looking at what you've accumulated over a lifetime. I'm
Speaker 1: fifty two years old. I think I'm fifty two and
Speaker 1: I've accumulated a lot of stuff, and some of it
Speaker 1: is gorgeous and valuable, and it's time to start selling
Speaker 1: that stuff off. It allows me to take more trips
Speaker 1: because I'm making money. I'm selling it, so then I
Speaker 1: get to build different memories, and I get to build
Speaker 1: memories with the people that I love. I get to
Speaker 1: take my mom on vacations because I have all this
Speaker 1: extra sort of play money laying around and I'm not
Speaker 1: digging into the money that's in my state that's going
Speaker 1: to make sure that everybody in my life is taken
Speaker 1: care of once I'm dead. So, yeah, do I need
Speaker 1: an armchair that I can sell for money? Do I
Speaker 1: need any of this stuff that doesn't bring that much enjoyment.
Speaker 1: After a while, you walk into your house or you
Speaker 1: walk into your storage unit, and it's just stuff. Especially
Speaker 1: when it's been years and years and years since you've
Speaker 1: looked at it, You're like, Yeah, I don't need this.
Speaker 1: It doesn't really bring me any great joy. What does
Speaker 1: bring me a lot of joy is, you know, taking
Speaker 1: my mom to the places that she's always wanted to
Speaker 1: go to and building those memories with her. I took her.
Speaker 1: She had always wanted to go to Italy, So years
Speaker 1: ago I did this amazing trip to Italy with my
Speaker 1: mother and took her to you know, Positano and Rome
Speaker 1: and Tuscany and Florence, and we wanted to go to Venice,
Speaker 1: but it was kind of flooded at the moment. And
Speaker 1: that's something that she still talks about all the time.
Speaker 1: She talks about that experience and what it was like
Speaker 1: to be with me, And I just remember getting out
Speaker 1: of the car with my mom as we were driving
Speaker 1: to Positano, and she looked out from the cliff over
Speaker 1: and she started crying. She had tears pouring down her
Speaker 1: face because she never really thought that she would see that,
Speaker 1: and she certainly didn't think that she was going to
Speaker 1: be able to see it with me. And those are
Speaker 1: the memories, and that those are the things that matter
Speaker 1: the most, not your possessions, not what you have. It's
Speaker 1: all about building memories. And I have, you know, a handful,
Speaker 1: maybe more than a handful, but not more than two
Speaker 1: handsful of really really really good friends, friends that like
Speaker 1: I cherish and I love, And I was with two
Speaker 1: of them, actually four of them last night and we
Speaker 1: were talking about, you know, another trip that we're planning
Speaker 1: and to keep building those memories. And I took my
Speaker 1: mom with my best friend Chris and my best friend
Speaker 1: Julie and her husband Honors and Hona, Ray and Kirby
Speaker 1: and we all went to Croatia on we rented a
Speaker 1: boat and we went to Croatia and we traveled all
Speaker 1: throughout Croatia. Again, my mom still talks about that trip,
Speaker 1: we all do, and so as I was so sad
Speaker 1: about giving something up. I'm also now reminded of the
Speaker 1: freedom giving that up has given me to then provide
Speaker 1: memories not only for myself, not only treasured moments for myself,
Speaker 1: but for the people that I love. And you know,
Speaker 1: I'll touch on this in a different episode. I'll get
Speaker 1: into it a lot more in another episode. But in life,
Speaker 1: you know, well, we all go we want to find
Speaker 1: our person. We just want to find our person. And
Speaker 1: I've had a couple of moments where I thought I'd
Speaker 1: found my person as far as a partner goes, and
Speaker 1: recently I lost my person. And as hard as that was,
Speaker 1: it gave me a couple of realizations. So one is, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's really hard to lose your person, and it's really traumatic,
Speaker 1: and particularly when you're facing cancer or any disease, any
Speaker 1: life altering event, you are so used to going to
Speaker 1: your person and being able to have a conversation and
Speaker 1: being able to say, you know, that's it's your person.
Speaker 1: So all of your fears you get to share with them,
Speaker 1: and because they're your person, they're comforting, they know how
Speaker 1: to help you through it, or you cry together, you
Speaker 1: laugh through it together. And I had to feel sorry
Speaker 1: for me a moment, you know, self pity moment where
Speaker 1: I was like, wow, like I don't sure it would
Speaker 1: be nice to have my person, Like I don't have
Speaker 1: a person anymore. And then I kind of like slapped
Speaker 1: myself in the face and said, what are you talking about, Shannon?
Speaker 1: You lost one person, But because you lost that one person,
Speaker 1: you put your trust and love and faith in so
Speaker 1: many others that I gained like six persons. I know
Speaker 1: that's incorrect grammar, because now instead of only turning to
Speaker 1: one person, I turned to a lot of others. And
Speaker 1: what ends up happening is I get a completely different
Speaker 1: love and support and caring and advice from each one
Speaker 1: of them. And I love. Yes, it's a different kind
Speaker 1: of a love, but my love for these people in
Speaker 1: my life is so deep and so rich, and I
Speaker 1: know how much they love my mother, and I know
Speaker 1: how much they're going to take care of her when
Speaker 1: I'm gone, and how important that is to me. It
Speaker 1: also really bonded my brother and I together a lot more.
Speaker 1: I mean, I've always loved my brother and his family,
Speaker 1: but I just felt like I could open up to
Speaker 1: him more and not protect him from what I was
Speaker 1: going through because I tend to do that. I tend
Speaker 1: to protect the people around me, and I try not
Speaker 1: to share so much stuff so that they're not perpetually
Speaker 1: in fear mode with me. And I've stopped doing that recently.
Speaker 1: I now call my brother and say, hey, I'm having
Speaker 1: a really bad day. And I woke up really scared
Speaker 1: and really contemplating not being here anymore because I don't
Speaker 1: want to die. I'm I'm so not the person who
Speaker 1: wants to die. I mean, nobody wants to die. But
Speaker 1: I have so many like hopes, and I have so
Speaker 1: much left to accomplish, and I can't imagine not being
Speaker 1: able to do that. And you know, my brother, My
Speaker 1: brother has a very very very strong belief system and
Speaker 1: he he you know, they go to church all the
Speaker 1: time and they pray all the time, and he's just,
Speaker 1: you know, a great human being. And I, you know,
Speaker 1: thoroughly believe in God and I I definitely have faith
Speaker 1: and I believe, you know, that we're walking the path
Speaker 1: that we're supposed to. But he, I think his faith
Speaker 1: gave me what I needed at that moment when I
Speaker 1: called him in a weak state, His faith renewed sort
Speaker 1: of my faith and made me stronger in my faith,
Speaker 1: which was really a great thing. And maybe that wasn't
Speaker 1: something I would have gotten from my person before, whatever
Speaker 1: person that was. And you know, then I can call
Speaker 1: Chris and we'll cry together on the phone and we'll
Speaker 1: laugh together about it. Or I'll call Julie and you know,
Speaker 1: she'll be like, let's go here, let's go there, let's
Speaker 1: do it, like everything that you want to do, let's
Speaker 1: do it, like do your bucket list, like, let's do it.
Speaker 1: So I guess my point is is that if you're
Speaker 1: going through something difficult, and if you have a disease
Speaker 1: like I do, and everybody tells you, the internet tells
Speaker 1: you when you look it up, that there's a timeline
Speaker 1: on you, and you don't have a person, like it's
Speaker 1: okay to not have a person in the romantic sense.
Speaker 1: Just your friends are your person. And I'm so glad
Speaker 1: that the last week and a half two weeks has
Speaker 1: brought a lot of different emotions to the surface, from
Speaker 1: giving up a home to what that led me to
Speaker 1: emotionally and coming to the realization that the material things
Speaker 1: don't matter, that it's the time that I spend with people,
Speaker 1: it's the memories that I build with them. It's you know,
Speaker 1: the road trip from Kentucky to Tennessee with you know,
Speaker 1: Holly and Drew. It's showing my mom leapers Fork in
Speaker 1: Tennessee for the first time and realizing that she connected
Speaker 1: with it as much as I connected with it, going
Speaker 1: on those trips with friends, planning things, downsizing, selling things off,
Speaker 1: and putting it in a you know, I now have
Speaker 1: what I call it bucket fund, and that bucket fund
Speaker 1: goes along with a list that I made that it
Speaker 1: is all about the things that I want to do
Speaker 1: with certain people, all the places I want to take
Speaker 1: my mom, all the things that I still have yet
Speaker 1: to see and do, and the impact that I still
Speaker 1: want to make. So now I'm looking at it in
Speaker 1: a very positive sense and saying, I'm cleaning stuff up
Speaker 1: so that I can have a better quality of life.
Speaker 1: It's not even yes, ease for everybody else, but it's
Speaker 1: my quality of life is going to be so much
Speaker 1: better because I get to just take a lot of
Speaker 1: adventures and live out a good majority of my dreams
Speaker 1: that way. Obviously, this comes with you know, ups and downs.
Speaker 1: There's going to be times when I feel great about
Speaker 1: the decisions that I'm now making and there's going to
Speaker 1: be times and I'm really really sad about it, But
Speaker 1: those are the moments that I think that you have
Speaker 1: to draw a lot of strength from your friends and
Speaker 1: your family, and a lot of strength from God and
Speaker 1: just try to dig deep and try to be positive
Speaker 1: and try to believe that you know, there's a lot
Speaker 1: more life in you. You know, I had talked about
Speaker 1: a protocol that I said the word it's. My statement
Speaker 1: on the podcast was that, you know, I'm a I'm
Speaker 1: on a protocol that's it's like a miracle to me
Speaker 1: because it's it's it's working. It's not a miracle protocol.
Speaker 1: It's just a protocol like that's you know, they're just
Speaker 1: if they last a really long time like some of
Speaker 1: mine have. That's a miracle to me because I watched
Speaker 1: one of my best friends blow through protocols so quickly,
Speaker 1: and you know, she didn't she didn't cancer for long
Speaker 1: before she died because she just kept on blowing through protocols.
Speaker 1: Her body wasn't responding to them, versus mine that has
Speaker 1: responded really well to protocols. And I recently switched protocols again,
Speaker 1: and I guess part of this whole emotional thing was
Speaker 1: that I switched protocols and I have had like a
Speaker 1: lot of back pain and hit pain and knee pain.
Speaker 1: And to me, traditionally in the past, that has meant
Speaker 1: that the protocol isn't working. And I think, because in
Speaker 1: my head, I said, oh my god, the protocol is
Speaker 1: not working. I need to I need to, you know,
Speaker 1: settle things off. I need to make sure my will
Speaker 1: is and I've now double checked it five times and
Speaker 1: I keep on making changes to it and just making
Speaker 1: sure that it's ironclad and that everybody is taken care of.
Speaker 1: So when these pains started coming back, I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: that's I. Yes, I'm getting rid of the place in Tennessee,
Speaker 1: as much as it hurts me to get rid of it. Yes,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm going to start selling off my furniture and
Speaker 1: my storage unit. But you're doing it with a little
Speaker 1: with a lot of fear behind it. By the way,
Speaker 1: I'm fine. It's actually the protocol causes this a little
Speaker 1: bit because it does something with your bone marrow. So
Speaker 1: once I spoke to my doctor and came clean about
Speaker 1: sort of the pain that I was in, which wasn't
Speaker 1: long by the way. It's not like I, you know,
Speaker 1: went months without speaking to him about it. I speak
Speaker 1: to my doctor basically every single day. But sure it
Speaker 1: took away the fear that I was blowing through yet
Speaker 1: another protocol. But it was through that that made me
Speaker 1: make all of the decisions recently that I've made, Like
Speaker 1: even with the Tennessee place, I'm like, thank God, thank God,
Speaker 1: because I dodged a bullet of just spending a fortune
Speaker 1: of trying to make some place great for what for me,
Speaker 1: Like my hospital, my doctor's everything is right here in
Speaker 1: Los Angeles. And and sure I love horses, and I
Speaker 1: love to ride horses, and I love to save horses.
Speaker 1: But I have a rescue an hour and a half
Speaker 1: away from me that's run by my friend Netta that
Speaker 1: it's called Return to Freedom, and I'm allowed there anytime
Speaker 1: I want, and I can walk the thousands and thousands
Speaker 1: of acres and take photos of these wild horses and
Speaker 1: pet them and feed them the burrows. So I already
Speaker 1: have that, I already. I don't know what I was
Speaker 1: thinking at the time, So when I originally looked at
Speaker 1: the property, it wasn't just for me, it was for uh.
Speaker 1: I thought it was I thought it was for you know,
Speaker 1: my relationship, and so it was a little different of
Speaker 1: a decision that I made, but also mainly to live
Speaker 1: out some sort of dream that I had. And I
Speaker 1: know that I'm rambling, and I'm so sorry and thank
Speaker 1: you for like putting up with the with the ramble,
Speaker 1: it's again, I'm sort of talking through all of this
Speaker 1: with you guys, And I think what I would really
Speaker 1: love is we did a Q and A episode. It
Speaker 1: would be cool to do an episode that is in
Speaker 1: response to this, where maybe you share your stories with
Speaker 1: me of how you're handling what you're going through in life.
Speaker 1: And again, you don't have to have a disease. It's
Speaker 1: any sort of hardship, right because life is hard, and
Speaker 1: losing a job is hard, losing a parent, losing a
Speaker 1: loved one, losing a friend is hard. Being diagnosed with anything,
Speaker 1: even if it's not life threatening is hard, losing friendships,
Speaker 1: all of it, like life just can be incredibly hard.
Speaker 1: So what I would find interesting is to hear how
Speaker 1: all of you deal with it. How do you deal
Speaker 1: with the hardships? And is it your faith? Is that
Speaker 1: your friends? Is it your husband, is that your wife
Speaker 1: is that your kids like, what is it that gets
Speaker 1: you through it? And what are your concerns? Because we all,
Speaker 1: I think most of us at least worry about the
Speaker 1: future in some way, shape or form. Worry about the
Speaker 1: future as far as do I have enough money to survive?
Speaker 1: Do I have enough money for my mortgage? Do I
Speaker 1: have enough money for my rent? My parents, that's sick,
Speaker 1: you know, how long do I have with them? We
Speaker 1: all go through life. It's worrying about something, and even
Speaker 1: if it's something as silly as how do others perceive us,
Speaker 1: which in the grand scheme of things, by the way,
Speaker 1: is an incredibly silly thing to worry about, because in
Speaker 1: my opinion, as long as you can look yourself in
Speaker 1: the mirror, that's all that matters. It doesn't matter what
Speaker 1: some keyboard warrior says about you, it doesn't matter what
Speaker 1: you know an ex friend is gossiping about you. All
Speaker 1: that matters is that you're happy with who you are.
Speaker 1: And I'm assuming that to be happy with who you
Speaker 1: are that means that you're living a good life and
Speaker 1: living by a karmic sort of law of you know,
Speaker 1: do unto others. And as long as you're doing that,
Speaker 1: it doesn't really matter what anybody else has to say
Speaker 1: about you own your own truth. I am nothing but
Speaker 1: raw and honest at this point in my life because
Speaker 1: what do I have to lose. I have nothing to lose.
Speaker 1: I do have a ticking time clock over me, So
Speaker 1: I'm not interested in lies. I'm not interested in anything
Speaker 1: but spreading my truth, being truthful to myself, being truthful
Speaker 1: to the people around me, being truthful to the fans,
Speaker 1: and just living like the most authentic life that I
Speaker 1: possibly can while I'm still here. So what do you
Speaker 1: guys worry about? What are your concerns? And let's use
Speaker 1: the Let's Be Clear pod instagram to and my instagram
Speaker 1: to really talk about that so that we can do
Speaker 1: an episode where we address all of it. I think
Speaker 1: that that would be a really important episode. And as
Speaker 1: far as this episode in my life, I know it
Speaker 1: seems incredibly heavy you guys, and it's felt heavy for
Speaker 1: the last two weeks for me too. But I'm turning
Speaker 1: a corner, and that corner is one of excitement, one
Speaker 1: of planning, one of saying again, Wow, I get to
Speaker 1: go do this and this and this now and have
Speaker 1: all of these experiences and all of these memories, and
Speaker 1: I remember I was watching, Uh, I was watching Afterlife.
Speaker 1: Ricky Starvas is one of my absolute favorites. I love him.
Speaker 1: Bucket list is to meet Ricky shar Face and go
Speaker 1: to one of his comedy shows because he's just phenomenal.
Speaker 1: And his wife in the show died of cancer and
Speaker 1: she leaves him a video sort of goodbye. That's an
Speaker 1: incredibly long one and he sort of watches it every
Speaker 1: single day and it's really her telling him, you know,
Speaker 1: don't forget to fe the dog, or don't forget to
Speaker 1: you know, embrace life. Still it was. It's such a
Speaker 1: beautiful show. If you haven't seen it, you should really
Speaker 1: watch it because it applies to sort of everybody. And
Speaker 1: maybe I'm not going to do the video thing. I
Speaker 1: might have contemplated it, contemplated writing letters. But what I
Speaker 1: am going to do now is I am going to
Speaker 1: focus on making solid memories with the people that I love,
Speaker 1: with the people that have supported me, cherish me, been
Speaker 1: loyal to me, that have just always always always been there.
Speaker 1: And whether that's something as silly as going to dinner
Speaker 1: with Christy at Christy's or you know, forcing Chris to
Speaker 1: go to still City with me for a convention and
Speaker 1: all of us hanging out and having a good time.
Speaker 1: Whatever it is, that's what I'm going to now do
Speaker 1: with my life. And maybe that's the video that I
Speaker 1: leave behind is a video that people can play over
Speaker 1: and over and over and over again in their heads
Speaker 1: of just really poignant, special impactful moments. What are you
Speaker 1: guys going to do? And have you already done? It?
Speaker 1: Has a loved one left you behind a video? I
Speaker 1: don't know. Bucket Lists are so interesting me. I bought
Speaker 1: this book called bucket List, and it gives you ideas
Speaker 1: for if you were to make a bucket list, all
Speaker 1: these different ideas that are on it, and I sort
Speaker 1: of went through it a little bit, and I think
Speaker 1: it's interesting because what it does is that it gets
Speaker 1: the creative juices flowing in your head where where you
Speaker 1: think of ideas that you wouldn't necessarily have thought of before.
Speaker 1: Or maybe it's not just a trip to Italy. Maybe
Speaker 1: it's maybe it's going and staying at a house there
Speaker 1: and getting one of the beautiful, wonderful nonahs to teach
Speaker 1: you how to make the perfect pizza do or the
Speaker 1: perfect bread. There's a chef chef Evan Funky, and I
Speaker 1: watched him go and learn from a Nona. By the way,
Speaker 1: his pizza is pretty much like the best pizza dough
Speaker 1: I've ever had in my entire life. He has a
Speaker 1: bunch of restaurants, and I was like, yeah, I want to.
Speaker 1: I want to learn how to make the perfect pizza
Speaker 1: do or perfect sour dough bread. And I want to,
Speaker 1: you know, see killer whales in the wild the way
Speaker 1: that you're supposed to, not not in an aquarium. So
Speaker 1: this book is really interesting because it does give you ideas,
Speaker 1: and even if you have a loved one who is
Speaker 1: facing what I'm facing or something similar, it's kind of
Speaker 1: a cool book for you to get and maybe not
Speaker 1: necessarily give it to them, but it'll give you ideas
Speaker 1: and suggestions of suggestions for them and then try to
Speaker 1: fulfill those. Obviously, the most important thing is time. Time
Speaker 1: spent with the person doesn't matter if you can afford
Speaker 1: to go somewhere, not go somewhere. Time spent is the
Speaker 1: most precious thing possible. All Right, I've rambled enough. I
Speaker 1: don't want anybody to be worried. I am looking at
Speaker 1: it from a very positive standpoint, and I really appreciate
Speaker 1: you guys being here with me and your words of
Speaker 1: encouragement when you post on my Instagram means a lot.
Speaker 1: And I'm sure that this is going to continue. I'm
Speaker 1: going to face a lot of different emotions throughout this
Speaker 1: journey with cancer and sharing them with all of you,
Speaker 1: because every day brings up something new. There's not a
Speaker 1: day I don't wake up thinking a totally different new
Speaker 1: thought that I hadn't thought of before. And we're just
Speaker 1: gonna go through it together and talk about it some more.
Speaker 1: So thank you again for listening and thank you for
Speaker 1: being patient with me today as this was kind of
Speaker 1: a hard one to talk through, but it's helped and
Speaker 1: it's going to help a lot more because probably as
Speaker 1: soon as I walk off, I'd be like, oh what
Speaker 1: about this? And oh what about that? So thanks thank
Speaker 1: you for listening to Let's Be Clear with Shannon Doherty
Speaker 1: once again, and don't forget to leave your comments on
Speaker 1: the Let's Be Clear pod or the Shando Instagram so
Speaker 1: that we can dig deep for her into this and
Speaker 1: let's just help one another get through it all, all right.
Speaker 1: I love you guys. Thank you