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Speaker 1: Loka to A Radio is a radiophonic novella.

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Speaker 2: Which is just a very extra way of saying a podcast.

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Speaker 1: I'm fosa m and I am Mala. Munos Lokatra Radio

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Speaker 1: is yr Brima's favorite podcast, hosted by us Mala and Viosa.

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Speaker 2: We're two ig friends turned podcast partners, breaking down pop culture, feminism,

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Speaker 2: sexual wellness, and offering fresh takes on trending topics through

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Speaker 2: nuanced interviews with up and coming LATINX creatives.

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Speaker 1: Known as Las Lokatas, Las Mammis of Myth and Bullshit

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Speaker 1: and Las borgas Prosas. We were podcasting independently since twenty sixteen,

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Speaker 1: but joined iHeartMedia's Microtura network in twenty twenty two.

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Speaker 2: This year, we're continuing to share stories from the LATINX community.

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Speaker 2: Barto el Mundo.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to season eight.

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Speaker 2: Are you listening?

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Speaker 1: O Lao la lokamot Is. Welcome to season eight of

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Speaker 1: Look at Tora Radio. I'm Viosa and I'm Mala. You're

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Speaker 1: tuning into capitolov one ninety one.

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Speaker 3: Last time on look at Thota Radio, we discussed the Girls.

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Speaker 3: Make sure you go back and tune into that episode.

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Speaker 1: So, Mala, how are you doing today?

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Speaker 3: I'm doing really good today. I got up this bus

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Speaker 3: passed through school. So I've just been taking the bus

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Speaker 3: and the metro for free. I love that and I'm

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Speaker 3: just like so into it right now. Like someone offered

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Speaker 3: me a ride, I'm like, no thanks, I'm just gonna

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Speaker 3: take the train. Yes, you know, so it's been I'm

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Speaker 3: just in a good mood because of that.

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Speaker 1: It is a lot faster, it really is. I mean,

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Speaker 1: depending where you're going and where you know, what you

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Speaker 3: One hundred percent. So I'm feeling real chipper. How about you?

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Speaker 3: How are you doing on this gloomy day?

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Speaker 1: You know, when it's gloomy, I'm sad, poor baby. So

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Speaker 1: I'm doing okay. I have been doing like a sleepy

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Speaker 1: the rage right now on on TikTok and I cause

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Speaker 1: I have there were months. There was a period at

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Speaker 1: and it was like you when you once you're not

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Speaker 1: Like you're not in a good mood. You can't be productive,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you're in a sleepy mood.

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Speaker 1: I am, I am, I am. But I'm super pumped

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Speaker 1: for today's episode. We have an incredible guest, multiple guests,

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Speaker 3: It's been a long time coming. You guys are gonna

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Speaker 3: freak out over this interview. It is so fun. This

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Speaker 3: is the crossover episode that I think the podcast world

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Speaker 3: something really iconic here with these guests. So I'm so

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Speaker 1: I agree. Just know there's lots of laughter, there's a

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Speaker 1: with lots of feelings. Also, lots of feelings, lots of laughs.

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Speaker 3: Well well, well, here we are. We are in studio

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Speaker 3: with our Michael podcast counterparts, the hosts of the Super

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Speaker 3: Secret Bestie Club, Curly and Maya. We're like siblings.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yes, Wow, welcome the universe crossover that we've all

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Speaker 3: Yes, we've been talking about this, plotting on this, wishing

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Speaker 5: I know they'll please.

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Speaker 3: Our dreams are coming true.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, babies are being born right now. Butterflies, coccoons, flowers are.

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Speaker 6: Yes, exactly, and here we are.

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Speaker 3: Here we are. How are you going good?

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Speaker 4: Can we do a special mention about how you guys

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Speaker 4: had us on your podcast and your first live show? Yes,

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Speaker 4: and then on our first live show. We were together

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Speaker 4: I know, I remember when I first heard you guys,

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Speaker 4: I was like, they're so fucking cool. Like you guys

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Speaker 4: Yes, you can get goneria and your whatever, you know,

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Speaker 3: I love it because I think we did literally have

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Speaker 3: this conversation about yes, you can get goneria in your throat.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, and you were telling me that you could get

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Speaker 4: stuff in your throat and I literally started texting this

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Speaker 3: Yes, that's right, Yes it was fun.

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Speaker 4: It's I still that's the one thing that I choose

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Speaker 5: I'm like, come on, but it's not a way of

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Speaker 6: I don't believe in.

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Speaker 5: It's not my reality.

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Speaker 3: No, it's so true because it's like, oh, yeah, I'm

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Speaker 3: like all the other things. Your mouth you're yeah, oral cavity.

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Speaker 4: Right, That's why I always just spit between your thighs

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Speaker 4: The day, because if you're laying down next to him

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Speaker 3: Absolutely absolutely, I'm still soft. It's meaty, it's wet, it's.

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Speaker 5: I'm like, this is not how do you think I

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Speaker 1: Nuggets of this has not been clinically studied, all.

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Speaker 5: Right, I like, take what you will.

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Speaker 3: That's a hot tip, that's a bad hot tip, hot tip,

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Speaker 3: that's free, free game advice. Totally. But this reminds me

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Speaker 3: when we did our live show, our Michael did our

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Speaker 5: Literally bring up this thing and I was like, yeah,

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Speaker 5: And they're like no, no, And we were like, what

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Speaker 5: about y'all because you guys talk about like all of

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Speaker 1: We were kindly advised to not talk about politics, so

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Speaker 6: Like who was driving the car?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, driving the bus, driving the ship?

440
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Speaker 6: Where was driving the ship? Ye?

441
00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:06,520
Speaker 3: Steering?

442
00:22:06,560 --> 00:22:08,480
Speaker 6: I like driving the ship, driving the ship?

443
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Speaker 4: We like, they don't always know what they're doing, and

444
00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:15,040
Speaker 4: so it's unfortunate when, especially when I think people of

445
00:22:15,040 --> 00:22:17,679
Speaker 4: color get kind of caught in the in the cracks

446
00:22:17,720 --> 00:22:19,720
Speaker 4: or in the crevices of it all because it's like

447
00:22:20,560 --> 00:22:22,560
Speaker 4: we don't have as many opportunities as a lot of

448
00:22:22,560 --> 00:22:26,360
Speaker 4: our you know, as a lot of white folk might have,

449
00:22:27,280 --> 00:22:30,600
Speaker 4: and so we have like one shot sometimes not one shot,

450
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Speaker 4: Like I'm I don't want to say that we don't

451
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Speaker 4: have more, but that could have been a really cool.

452
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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I can totally see it, like like the Office,

453
00:22:39,440 --> 00:22:42,000
Speaker 3: but it's you guys, the Federal like team kind of

454
00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:43,399
Speaker 3: a vibe, right, it was supposed to be that.

455
00:22:43,520 --> 00:22:46,000
Speaker 5: It was supposed to be that, and we had built

456
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:50,000
Speaker 5: out this like it was based on our lives, and

457
00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:53,000
Speaker 5: we were the main characters very much like a bestie vibe,

458
00:22:53,119 --> 00:22:58,480
Speaker 5: and you know, like Curly gotta yell, Claudia and we

459
00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:01,560
Speaker 5: it was gonna be great and then yeah and me,

460
00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:05,680
Speaker 5: and then they gave us another treatment and put us

461
00:23:05,720 --> 00:23:10,520
Speaker 5: as secondary characters and put two white Latinas as the

462
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:14,879
Speaker 5: main characters and took out like most of the people

463
00:23:14,920 --> 00:23:18,280
Speaker 5: of the brown and black people of latinos of the

464
00:23:18,760 --> 00:23:24,600
Speaker 5: our cast that we wanted. And we were like, so, no, like,

465
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,240
Speaker 5: how can you want us to do a TV show

466
00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:31,399
Speaker 5: about our lives and then change it, replace the characters

467
00:23:31,480 --> 00:23:34,040
Speaker 5: and still expect us to be excited about the project.

468
00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 5: I told everyone, I'm like, I'm out, like we can

469
00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:39,640
Speaker 5: do this on our own or not even we can't

470
00:23:39,680 --> 00:23:42,560
Speaker 5: do anything with the IP, but you know, in the

471
00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:46,080
Speaker 5: future something or I don't know. It just was weird.

472
00:23:46,560 --> 00:23:48,560
Speaker 5: It was so weird.

473
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Speaker 6: Good time.

474
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Speaker 5: Now we're here Sleep a Secret bestI Clubs Radio.

475
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Speaker 1: Well, let's talk about that trajectory, right, I mean, we

476
00:23:56,320 --> 00:23:59,240
Speaker 1: talked about the trajectory of Better Light and y'all's experience there,

477
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Speaker 1: so now let's talk about Super Secret Bestie Club. How

478
00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:04,000
Speaker 1: did that come to be? Y'all are with a network

479
00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:06,600
Speaker 1: like tell us more about that journey getting to there.

480
00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:10,080
Speaker 5: To that point, I think we manifested the podcast for sure,

481
00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:12,320
Speaker 5: because we were thinking when did we.

482
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Speaker 4: Start, Like, well, we like min I just talk like

483
00:24:15,840 --> 00:24:17,919
Speaker 4: every day and we talk for hours, and we just

484
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:21,520
Speaker 4: like cover like a wide range we go through like

485
00:24:21,560 --> 00:24:29,639
Speaker 4: we literally will cackle like sing, cry, cry like argue.

486
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:33,840
Speaker 5: Are you yeah, there's like little fights in the U

487
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:34,359
Speaker 5: keep it.

488
00:24:34,400 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 4: Spicy again, and then we'd be like, oh, this would

489
00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:40,760
Speaker 4: be really you can actually hear we have some episodes

490
00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:45,200
Speaker 4: where you can hear us get mad at each other.

491
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Speaker 3: So y'all have that to do you guys, ever, we

492
00:24:48,119 --> 00:24:50,680
Speaker 3: don't get mad at each other, but you know we don't.

493
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Speaker 3: We don't agree on everything. No, we don't have the

494
00:24:52,880 --> 00:24:55,439
Speaker 3: same point of view on every single thing, or we will.

495
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Speaker 6: Activate each other.

496
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Speaker 5: We will activate each other.

497
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Speaker 4: There was one where my I think it was like

498
00:25:00,520 --> 00:25:02,840
Speaker 4: you made like a like an age joke or something

499
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:06,080
Speaker 4: like remember, and I was like, it just makes me

500
00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:07,040
Speaker 4: feel really uncomfortable.

501
00:25:07,720 --> 00:25:10,120
Speaker 5: It was like I was asked for now.

502
00:25:10,520 --> 00:25:11,719
Speaker 3: I asked a good question.

503
00:25:12,320 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 5: I was like, do you know X Y Z like something?

504
00:25:16,119 --> 00:25:18,280
Speaker 5: And you go, are you testing me? I'm like, I

505
00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:20,360
Speaker 5: just want you to explain it, like I just want

506
00:25:20,359 --> 00:25:22,560
Speaker 5: to know if you know, like in my mind, like

507
00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:25,400
Speaker 5: do you know the right definition? Because you had said

508
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Speaker 5: it very I wrote it down. I said it because

509
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:30,800
Speaker 5: I wrote it down for me to say and me

510
00:25:30,880 --> 00:25:32,399
Speaker 5: to talk about. And he was like yeah. And then this,

511
00:25:32,480 --> 00:25:34,040
Speaker 5: and I was like, okay, well do you know what

512
00:25:34,080 --> 00:25:34,560
Speaker 5: that means?

513
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:38,040
Speaker 4: No, because this one little sister over here will be

514
00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:41,680
Speaker 4: like she'll be like okay, like something new, So it's

515
00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:43,879
Speaker 4: like a new like I don't know.

516
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Speaker 6: Let's say like.

517
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Speaker 4: Oh that's that's peaches, and you'll be like, oh, I

518
00:25:47,800 --> 00:25:50,240
Speaker 4: don't Oh yeah, Yeah, that's Peaches, Like, do you even know.

519
00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:54,680
Speaker 3: What that that?

520
00:25:54,880 --> 00:25:57,000
Speaker 6: Do you know it all the time? Do you even know?

521
00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:59,320
Speaker 6: Even yesterday in our lives you were like, do you

522
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Speaker 6: know that marath the vine one yelling?

523
00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:08,680
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, because you were laughing at it, and I'm like, oh,

524
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:10,640
Speaker 5: do you know it? And then you were like no,

525
00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:13,359
Speaker 5: and then everybody, I'm like, it pains me to have

526
00:26:13,440 --> 00:26:14,840
Speaker 5: to explain vine references.

527
00:26:14,840 --> 00:26:15,880
Speaker 3: I get triggered for vine.

528
00:26:15,920 --> 00:26:17,600
Speaker 5: Okay, I'll admit that, But.

529
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Speaker 4: My whole thing is like, if I'm just laughing, just

530
00:26:18,960 --> 00:26:20,520
Speaker 4: keep it moving, you know, Like, who cares if they

531
00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:20,879
Speaker 4: get it right?

532
00:26:21,080 --> 00:26:23,440
Speaker 3: Why call it out?

533
00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:27,600
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's your perspective of that.

534
00:26:27,680 --> 00:26:29,760
Speaker 3: So that's not how that's how you're hearing. That's how

535
00:26:29,800 --> 00:26:31,399
Speaker 3: you're hearing. But I'm sorry.

536
00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:35,480
Speaker 6: I'm sorry I stuck you in the neck and you're

537
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:36,040
Speaker 6: receiving that.

538
00:26:37,119 --> 00:26:38,040
Speaker 3: I'm sorry at her.

539
00:26:39,440 --> 00:26:41,439
Speaker 5: I didn't mean for it to hurt that hard.

540
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:42,840
Speaker 6: I can't breathe, but it's fine.

541
00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:44,320
Speaker 5: Sorry, you're drawing blood.

542
00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,560
Speaker 6: Like the dynamic is real, Like there's no and then.

543
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:50,399
Speaker 4: And the beauty about our friendship is that we always

544
00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:53,200
Speaker 4: make up, we always have a talk, we always have conversations.

545
00:26:53,240 --> 00:26:58,520
Speaker 5: Really siblings, like I feel comfortable, like we can be

546
00:26:58,600 --> 00:27:00,399
Speaker 5: a little bit like like this morning, I have like

547
00:27:00,440 --> 00:27:03,400
Speaker 5: a huge breakdown. And we had like a big conversation

548
00:27:03,920 --> 00:27:06,280
Speaker 5: just about like certain life things that I was going through,

549
00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:08,560
Speaker 5: and it was like right, we were like I had

550
00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:11,000
Speaker 5: this breakdown. It took thirty minutes of our meeting because

551
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:14,520
Speaker 5: we were writing outlines for our podcast tomorrow, and I

552
00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:16,439
Speaker 5: was like, I'm so sorry, Like I'm like, let me,

553
00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:18,800
Speaker 5: let me stop crying so I can do work, and

554
00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 5: then we did work later.

555
00:27:19,960 --> 00:27:23,159
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know, but I also like that's my strength

556
00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:24,800
Speaker 4: is I actually I think it's my scorpio moon, my

557
00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:28,280
Speaker 4: scorpio rising as I do well with Like let's unpack that,

558
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:29,479
Speaker 4: let's process together.

559
00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:30,880
Speaker 6: What does that mean to you?

560
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:34,960
Speaker 4: And I'm very like I'm like asking a lot of questions.

561
00:27:35,040 --> 00:27:37,119
Speaker 4: Usually what I'm talking to min is I don't actually

562
00:27:37,560 --> 00:27:41,240
Speaker 4: I have no space for like people who shut down or.

563
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:43,280
Speaker 5: People who are reacting to yeah, people.

564
00:27:43,040 --> 00:27:43,880
Speaker 6: Who don't do that.

565
00:27:44,240 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 4: But if you literally want to call me to carry

566
00:27:47,160 --> 00:27:49,600
Speaker 4: we can. I will process with you for hours. I

567
00:27:49,640 --> 00:27:51,480
Speaker 4: will be like let's go through everything.

568
00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:55,680
Speaker 5: Right, But conversations like we were like we should have

569
00:27:55,680 --> 00:28:04,199
Speaker 5: a podcast, like joking oh, yeah, we totally on podcast.

570
00:27:59,200 --> 00:28:12,000
Speaker 5: Like we yeah, we definitely were like we we are

571
00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:14,840
Speaker 5: thinking about a podcast. Like it just was like something

572
00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,640
Speaker 5: that we were like, hmm, maybe this is possible. And

573
00:28:17,680 --> 00:28:21,199
Speaker 5: then I think so because we're also partnered up with

574
00:28:22,240 --> 00:28:25,320
Speaker 5: I think they reached out to us about a podcast,

575
00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:30,320
Speaker 5: and they're connected with Michael Tura as well. So yeah,

576
00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:32,520
Speaker 5: we just kind of like, at first it was going

577
00:28:32,600 --> 00:28:33,359
Speaker 5: to be called.

578
00:28:34,640 --> 00:28:37,880
Speaker 6: What something in Beauty and the Prude, Beauty and.

579
00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:39,360
Speaker 3: The Prude, and I was the prude.

580
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:44,760
Speaker 6: It was supposed to be like and then we were

581
00:28:44,920 --> 00:28:45,400
Speaker 6: but you're not.

582
00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 4: We didn't like that you were going to be the

583
00:28:47,040 --> 00:28:48,280
Speaker 4: prude in every episode?

584
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:50,320
Speaker 3: Do you identify as a prude?

585
00:28:50,960 --> 00:28:53,959
Speaker 5: No, I mean I think compared to like the conversations

586
00:28:54,000 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 5: we were having, I'm not talking about my experiences are different.

587
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 5: You know, I had that experience. I'm very much like

588
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:07,720
Speaker 5: I would say, I'm shy, you know. But yeah, and

589
00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:10,160
Speaker 5: then you came up with We were talking about like

590
00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:13,000
Speaker 5: it needs to be like the you know, right right,

591
00:29:13,400 --> 00:29:15,480
Speaker 5: so we're like something with Bestie, but we didn't want

592
00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:18,120
Speaker 5: to really just do like the Besties because Bestie at

593
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:20,160
Speaker 5: the time was like really popular.

594
00:29:21,720 --> 00:29:23,440
Speaker 4: It was you know what it was like those old

595
00:29:23,480 --> 00:29:26,800
Speaker 4: books like the Babysitters Club, Yes, and the Breast Club.

596
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:27,160
Speaker 6: And all those things.

597
00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:29,440
Speaker 4: And I remember thinking, like, what is what is the

598
00:29:29,480 --> 00:29:32,200
Speaker 4: way to make you feel like this is an exclusive club.

599
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:33,280
Speaker 6: We're twelve years old?

600
00:29:33,400 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, when I was twelve years twelve year

601
00:29:36,560 --> 00:29:37,680
Speaker 5: olds like talking.

602
00:29:38,680 --> 00:29:40,160
Speaker 4: But when I was twelve years old, I had a

603
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Speaker 4: Selena Club and I would make like little I was

604
00:29:43,240 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 4: maybe younger, maybe like ten, and I would make little

605
00:29:45,320 --> 00:29:47,040
Speaker 4: Selena member cards and I would give it to all

606
00:29:47,040 --> 00:29:50,320
Speaker 4: my cousins and they would come over to look at

607
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:52,160
Speaker 4: all my Selena stuff in my closet. And then I

608
00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:56,360
Speaker 4: had a stapler that I would scan. I would open

609
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Speaker 4: my closet, don't.

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Speaker 6: Touch, don't touch anything just and then I'd close it again.

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Speaker 3: It's very like hellgata, yeah the oh got I mean

612
00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:10,320
Speaker 3: not far from the far probably what I look like

613
00:30:10,320 --> 00:30:14,480
Speaker 3: on the inside. Yeah.

614
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Speaker 5: So we came up with the Super Secret Bestie Club,

615
00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:18,760
Speaker 5: which I think is really cute.

616
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Speaker 3: And I think cute.

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Speaker 6: Yeah.

618
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,560
Speaker 5: Yes, we wanted it to be something that's like a

619
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:26,520
Speaker 5: safe space that we talk about everything, mostly love and

620
00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:29,440
Speaker 5: mostly love, maybe a little opportunity to vent and.

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Speaker 4: Absolutely we talked about like heavy. We don't really go

622
00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:34,160
Speaker 4: too heavy, but like, you know, we talk. I think

623
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Speaker 4: our episodes that we did last week was about goodbyes,

624
00:30:36,560 --> 00:30:38,640
Speaker 4: like when is a good time to say goodbye to somebody?

625
00:30:39,160 --> 00:30:39,320
Speaker 6: When?

626
00:30:39,440 --> 00:30:41,680
Speaker 4: Why is it so hard for some people to say goodbyes?

627
00:30:41,720 --> 00:30:43,720
Speaker 4: What are the different ways of saying goodbye to a friendship,

628
00:30:43,760 --> 00:30:48,480
Speaker 4: a relationship, a job, a personality, you know? And then

629
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Speaker 4: we'll do ones where like our agenda for dating in

630
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Speaker 4: twenty more.

631
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Speaker 5: Strategy strategy should you stop talking to him after twenty

632
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Speaker 5: four hours and he hasn't?

633
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Speaker 3: You know?

634
00:30:58,680 --> 00:30:59,680
Speaker 6: Like like that? Yeah?

635
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:02,920
Speaker 2: No, I love the strategy episode. I thought you guys

636
00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:03,520
Speaker 2: talked about.

637
00:31:03,360 --> 00:31:06,040
Speaker 3: Some really like actually like very good steps, you know,

638
00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:09,280
Speaker 3: and things to keep in mind. I also wanted to

639
00:31:09,320 --> 00:31:13,000
Speaker 3: ask you guys, we have questions about the secrets part

640
00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:19,280
Speaker 3: of the podcast. Okay, you know so secretly? Do you

641
00:31:19,320 --> 00:31:20,400
Speaker 3: want to be famous?

642
00:31:21,320 --> 00:31:24,640
Speaker 5: You know what I've been I I think I have

643
00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:30,080
Speaker 5: a threshold because we have a lot of we all

644
00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:32,000
Speaker 5: have a lot of friends who are in the industry,

645
00:31:32,120 --> 00:31:35,600
Speaker 5: who are of a certain status, and we kind of

646
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:39,400
Speaker 5: see how the public and fans can lie and turn

647
00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 5: things into very like they can the parasocial relationships. Stuff

648
00:31:43,360 --> 00:31:47,200
Speaker 5: freaks me the fuck out, it really does. And I

649
00:31:47,240 --> 00:31:51,640
Speaker 5: also I think I think yes, but no, I think

650
00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:54,440
Speaker 5: in my own way, like I think I would definitely

651
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:56,400
Speaker 5: if I get to a certain status, I would love

652
00:31:56,440 --> 00:32:00,479
Speaker 5: to disappear and be just on like an island myself.

653
00:32:00,520 --> 00:32:02,760
Speaker 5: I mean whatever, you guys can come, but you know,

654
00:32:03,000 --> 00:32:05,320
Speaker 5: like something to where it's I don't, I just because

655
00:32:05,320 --> 00:32:09,320
Speaker 5: I just the energy of it and spiritual part of it.

656
00:32:09,360 --> 00:32:13,120
Speaker 5: I'm just not into like I feel like you they

657
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:15,760
Speaker 5: feel like they own you a little bit. Like I

658
00:32:15,760 --> 00:32:18,320
Speaker 5: got a little taste of, like, you know, the bad

659
00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:21,040
Speaker 5: parts of fame, and I did not like it. And

660
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:22,560
Speaker 5: I was like, I don't like this, and I was

661
00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:24,520
Speaker 5: even thinking, I'm like, do I really I think about

662
00:32:24,520 --> 00:32:26,840
Speaker 5: it every day, I'm like, do I really want to

663
00:32:26,880 --> 00:32:30,200
Speaker 5: do this like publicly all the time, because there's times

664
00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:33,440
Speaker 5: when I don't feel like making videos because I'm sad

665
00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:36,600
Speaker 5: or just want to enjoy the moment. And more and

666
00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:39,600
Speaker 5: more as I get older, I feel myself becoming more

667
00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:44,520
Speaker 5: private totally because people can People like to take energy,

668
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:46,920
Speaker 5: you know, That's what it is. We're all putting out energy.

669
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:50,400
Speaker 5: And I think I think maybe yes, and no, but

670
00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:52,360
Speaker 5: I think I need to work on my spiritual hygiene

671
00:32:52,360 --> 00:32:53,600
Speaker 5: and protection for sure.

672
00:32:53,880 --> 00:32:55,760
Speaker 2: Spiritual hygiene love that.

673
00:32:56,240 --> 00:32:57,480
Speaker 5: Yes, yeah, it's a thing.

674
00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:00,320
Speaker 3: How about you? Curly, secretly I feel like I have.

675
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:03,640
Speaker 4: It's weird because my whole life, like, well, just to

676
00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:05,600
Speaker 4: tell you about my placements in my chart really fast.

677
00:33:05,640 --> 00:33:08,640
Speaker 4: I'm a Scorpio moon Scorpio rising, which means and then

678
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 4: a lot of us have a mid heaven and Leo,

679
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,600
Speaker 4: which means that like naturally your life will kind of

680
00:33:13,640 --> 00:33:16,320
Speaker 4: be like in the spotlight. But as a Scorpio, we

681
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:18,760
Speaker 4: kind of secretly hate it. I remember being eight years

682
00:33:18,800 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 4: old and like reading a magazine about Selena and it

683
00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:23,400
Speaker 4: had said that Selena started singing when she I think

684
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:25,240
Speaker 4: I was nine, And then the magazine said she had

685
00:33:25,280 --> 00:33:27,480
Speaker 4: started singing when she was eight, and I remember thinking

686
00:33:27,480 --> 00:33:29,920
Speaker 4: that I was late, Like I.

687
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:32,000
Speaker 6: Like my vision in life, I was late.

688
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:35,120
Speaker 4: And as I got older, somebody just asked me the

689
00:33:35,160 --> 00:33:37,840
Speaker 4: other day, like, why did you have an addiction with

690
00:33:37,880 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 4: alcohol and drugs? And I was, you know, working for

691
00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:45,640
Speaker 4: David la Chapelle, doing jobs with Naomi Campbell, Lady Gaga,

692
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:47,720
Speaker 4: like Chris Rock, any famous person you could think of

693
00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:50,040
Speaker 4: that came into our studio, and then I would go

694
00:33:50,040 --> 00:33:51,640
Speaker 4: home and get really fucked up. And then I worked

695
00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:54,560
Speaker 4: for Jeremy Scott, same thing, big designer. I would get

696
00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:56,080
Speaker 4: really fucked up. And part of that was that I

697
00:33:56,120 --> 00:33:58,120
Speaker 4: was always trying to run away from what I felt

698
00:33:58,160 --> 00:34:02,800
Speaker 4: like was this deny of mine. And to this day,

699
00:34:02,800 --> 00:34:05,320
Speaker 4: like Maya knows, like I actually will shy away from

700
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:07,320
Speaker 4: a lot of things, like I don't want to do things.

701
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:08,320
Speaker 6: I don't want to be on stage.

702
00:34:08,360 --> 00:34:10,120
Speaker 4: I don't want to do that because I get very

703
00:34:10,360 --> 00:34:12,640
Speaker 4: don't want to take up space A lot of times.

704
00:34:13,719 --> 00:34:16,200
Speaker 1: I remember that because we asked you to host something

705
00:34:16,239 --> 00:34:18,759
Speaker 1: for us and you were like you respectfully declined. You

706
00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:20,360
Speaker 1: were like, I don't like to be on stage.

707
00:34:20,560 --> 00:34:24,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I get crazy anxiety, I get really depressed.

708
00:34:24,040 --> 00:34:26,920
Speaker 4: I actually get like I would much rather And I

709
00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:28,640
Speaker 4: need to stop saying this because I'm ware that it's

710
00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 4: going to happen. But I'm always like, I'd much rather

711
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:34,640
Speaker 4: get hit by a bus all the time. But that's

712
00:34:34,719 --> 00:34:38,279
Speaker 4: that's what happens to me. I become terribly depressed, terribly

713
00:34:38,360 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 4: depressed leading up to doing it, so I'm okay once

714
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:45,040
Speaker 4: I'm up there, but like by I mean okay in performance,

715
00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:46,520
Speaker 4: I don't mean like okay, like I'm fine because I'm

716
00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:47,960
Speaker 4: shitting myself while I'm up there.

717
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:50,360
Speaker 3: But you're performing, You're having a spectacular performance.

718
00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:53,319
Speaker 4: But I appreciate that a performance. I feel like, I'm like,

719
00:34:53,480 --> 00:34:57,040
Speaker 4: but I feel like part of why I'm meant to

720
00:34:57,120 --> 00:34:59,759
Speaker 4: kind of do the work that I do is and

721
00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:02,239
Speaker 4: this very virgo as well, that it's not just about me.

722
00:35:02,320 --> 00:35:05,440
Speaker 4: It's about whatever people are gonna come with me or

723
00:35:05,480 --> 00:35:08,520
Speaker 4: whatever this movement is about. Right, So, like even at Betto,

724
00:35:08,600 --> 00:35:11,360
Speaker 4: like a lot of my videos were about other people.

725
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:13,360
Speaker 4: So it was like, Okay, how can I make videos

726
00:35:13,400 --> 00:35:16,240
Speaker 4: about being black and Latine? How can I make videos

727
00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:20,160
Speaker 4: about being non binary and trans within the community. I

728
00:35:20,239 --> 00:35:23,400
Speaker 4: just I understand that it might seem that way, but

729
00:35:23,440 --> 00:35:25,840
Speaker 4: I actually am like, if you can just let me

730
00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:27,840
Speaker 4: sit in the corner, let me talk to one or

731
00:35:27,840 --> 00:35:30,319
Speaker 4: two three people, I am happy.

732
00:35:30,120 --> 00:35:33,000
Speaker 5: Because I think at our core, we're all artists.

733
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:33,760
Speaker 3: First.

734
00:35:33,920 --> 00:35:37,239
Speaker 5: My parents are artists, Like my dad is a musician

735
00:35:37,520 --> 00:35:41,440
Speaker 5: and a painter, and my mom is an author, a

736
00:35:41,480 --> 00:35:44,319
Speaker 5: painter like all these things. So I was grown up

737
00:35:44,360 --> 00:35:53,880
Speaker 5: with like art art, you know, art art.

738
00:35:55,520 --> 00:35:56,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, So I think.

739
00:35:56,440 --> 00:36:00,239
Speaker 5: At our core. We're like, you know, for me, I'm

740
00:36:00,280 --> 00:36:03,400
Speaker 5: like still a twelve year old girl standing on my

741
00:36:03,520 --> 00:36:08,560
Speaker 5: parents like little window seal, singing, you know, and like

742
00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:12,200
Speaker 5: performing staring at the moon, staring.

743
00:36:11,880 --> 00:36:15,480
Speaker 6: At the moon, and wait, what about what about y'all?

744
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:17,839
Speaker 6: Like I like, do you want to be famous? Yeah?

745
00:36:17,880 --> 00:36:19,200
Speaker 6: What's it? Like, what's it for y'all?

746
00:36:19,239 --> 00:36:23,120
Speaker 3: Like what's the I I hear you on the like

747
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:25,719
Speaker 3: kind of the level or the scale? Like I love

748
00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:31,520
Speaker 3: that statement Adrian bailon Queen. Yes, she made on the view, right,

749
00:36:31,600 --> 00:36:35,280
Speaker 3: that's or it's the what's the show? She's on the

750
00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 3: she's on the reel, and she's like happy with her

751
00:36:39,560 --> 00:36:42,239
Speaker 3: level of fame. She can go to the market, she

752
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:45,680
Speaker 3: can be un published and carries her kids. But she's iconic,

753
00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 3: so talented, very accomplished. Super Dope continues to work in

754
00:36:50,320 --> 00:36:53,480
Speaker 3: the industry, and she's like, I'm comfortable with this, Like

755
00:36:53,520 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 3: I want to be able to live my life and

756
00:36:55,040 --> 00:36:57,279
Speaker 3: do my job. And for me, it's like, yeah, like

757
00:36:57,360 --> 00:37:00,920
Speaker 3: let it be a job, but not so consumingly. I

758
00:37:00,960 --> 00:37:03,160
Speaker 3: don't want Tom cruise, you know what I mean, Like

759
00:37:03,160 --> 00:37:07,240
Speaker 3: that's that's nuts. Yeah, but I like I like that idea,

760
00:37:07,320 --> 00:37:09,600
Speaker 3: Like I would just like to work consistently, yes.

761
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:13,200
Speaker 4: Side barbly past Adrian Adrian Bylon she we had a

762
00:37:13,239 --> 00:37:15,239
Speaker 4: conversation once we r on a panel together and she

763
00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:17,400
Speaker 4: was talking about how she pushed really hard to make

764
00:37:17,440 --> 00:37:20,880
Speaker 4: sure her character spoke Spanish and it was because of

765
00:37:20,920 --> 00:37:24,120
Speaker 4: her that Disney started to do more like Latino stuff

766
00:37:24,200 --> 00:37:27,480
Speaker 4: because at the time they were like what And it's

767
00:37:27,520 --> 00:37:29,959
Speaker 4: crazy how people don't when you're the first, people don't

768
00:37:29,960 --> 00:37:31,359
Speaker 4: get credit for that's right.

769
00:37:31,560 --> 00:37:33,400
Speaker 6: So just since to other topic like.

770
00:37:34,920 --> 00:37:36,880
Speaker 1: Sodra, Like we were talking, we had a whole episode

771
00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:39,440
Speaker 1: on America Fredda and how she's like finally getting her flowers.

772
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:42,000
Speaker 1: And I feel like Adrian Bylone is definitely like overdue.

773
00:37:42,080 --> 00:37:43,480
Speaker 3: Like yes, clearly she's.

774
00:37:43,360 --> 00:37:45,840
Speaker 1: Been in the industry for so long, like Mala mentioned,

775
00:37:45,880 --> 00:37:48,799
Speaker 1: she's been working, but like a Sora, she's been in

776
00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 1: it for decadeses and like deserves her flowers.

777
00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:54,120
Speaker 5: Shed that like when she was on the Real talking

778
00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:57,920
Speaker 5: about her voice because remember she was like she was

779
00:37:57,960 --> 00:38:02,200
Speaker 5: in three w shout Out. We were just talking about

780
00:38:02,239 --> 00:38:03,879
Speaker 5: this yesterday when I saw them on the Cheetah Girls.

781
00:38:03,880 --> 00:38:09,000
Speaker 5: I was like, yeah, like freaking out and her voice

782
00:38:09,080 --> 00:38:13,680
Speaker 5: was it is iconic and she was. She hated her voice.

783
00:38:13,680 --> 00:38:16,040
Speaker 5: She hated it, like she talked on the reel about

784
00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:17,680
Speaker 5: how like crying. I was like, oh my god, and

785
00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:20,000
Speaker 5: I can identify with that, like as a singer, like

786
00:38:20,640 --> 00:38:24,160
Speaker 5: it's and she wasn't performing and she wasn't like doing

787
00:38:24,200 --> 00:38:26,839
Speaker 5: anything yet she One time I was at another tiny

788
00:38:26,880 --> 00:38:29,000
Speaker 5: little side bar I was at like a super Bowl

789
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:34,200
Speaker 5: party and her and Kiki Palmers were singing a Selena

790
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:36,240
Speaker 5: song viral.

791
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:38,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, and I party.

792
00:38:40,880 --> 00:38:44,520
Speaker 5: Slate that ship. Oh my god, like yeah.

793
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:45,680
Speaker 3: That she can sing. Girl can sing.

794
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:46,479
Speaker 1: She can sing.

795
00:38:46,840 --> 00:38:49,080
Speaker 5: We should compile like a bunch of like Latinas and

796
00:38:49,120 --> 00:38:52,759
Speaker 5: Latinos and Latine people who like were the first, don't

797
00:38:52,760 --> 00:38:53,879
Speaker 5: get their people.

798
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:58,160
Speaker 4: Kalise another one Afro Asian latina who never gets Kalise

799
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:02,800
Speaker 4: yes shake like yeah something. I love her, Like just

800
00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 4: people who deserve their flowers, the community and never get it.

801
00:39:05,560 --> 00:39:08,359
Speaker 3: Even she lives on a farm now she does, she's

802
00:39:08,360 --> 00:39:09,000
Speaker 3: a farmer.

803
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:12,360
Speaker 4: Now, even like Angels and Sadie Lopez like big I

804
00:39:12,520 --> 00:39:17,680
Speaker 4: just never I'm like, there were like so many Christy Turlington,

805
00:39:17,960 --> 00:39:19,640
Speaker 4: the Supermodels, half Salvadorian.

806
00:39:19,800 --> 00:39:20,600
Speaker 1: Oh I didn't know that.

807
00:39:20,840 --> 00:39:23,520
Speaker 6: Yeah, like all these people that you're like, hello.

808
00:39:24,600 --> 00:39:25,680
Speaker 3: You also you want to be famous.

809
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:28,719
Speaker 1: I resonate with what you both said, you know, I think, yeah,

810
00:39:28,719 --> 00:39:33,439
Speaker 1: there's like a threshold, especially now like being married and

811
00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:34,600
Speaker 1: like my.

812
00:39:34,160 --> 00:39:42,240
Speaker 6: My and you're beautiful.

813
00:39:45,560 --> 00:39:49,160
Speaker 1: Now are social relationships too, and like yeah, I think

814
00:39:49,280 --> 00:39:52,520
Speaker 1: very early on before even being together, I recognize like

815
00:39:52,560 --> 00:39:55,480
Speaker 1: I did, I never wanted my relationship to be like

816
00:39:55,520 --> 00:39:57,360
Speaker 1: a part of my brand, and I didn't even know

817
00:39:57,360 --> 00:40:00,000
Speaker 1: what a brand was, right, But like as we start

818
00:40:00,040 --> 00:40:02,120
Speaker 1: arted like dating, and you see other people and the

819
00:40:02,160 --> 00:40:04,720
Speaker 1: content they make, like I knew, like I never want

820
00:40:04,719 --> 00:40:08,719
Speaker 1: to be that person because then you know, people make

821
00:40:08,760 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 1: assumptions about everything, and well, the reason I said, like

822
00:40:12,840 --> 00:40:15,920
Speaker 1: how I'm relating like fame and marriage is like my

823
00:40:15,960 --> 00:40:18,160
Speaker 1: partner works for the city. When we were dating, he

824
00:40:18,239 --> 00:40:21,160
Speaker 1: was working for an elected official. People listen to the

825
00:40:21,200 --> 00:40:24,520
Speaker 1: podcast that he works with like constantly people are like,

826
00:40:24,600 --> 00:40:27,439
Speaker 1: is that the alsa's husband is that? Like are you?

827
00:40:27,480 --> 00:40:29,920
Speaker 1: Are you Yoursa's husband all the time, And so in

828
00:40:29,960 --> 00:40:32,200
Speaker 1: that way, it's made me like a little more protective,

829
00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:34,440
Speaker 1: Like I definitely talk about him on the show a

830
00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:37,320
Speaker 1: lot less. I'm definitely not talking about our sex life anymore.

831
00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:39,879
Speaker 1: Like I've gotten in trouble, not by him, but like

832
00:40:40,239 --> 00:40:42,759
Speaker 1: people listen and they know it's him and.

833
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:55,680
Speaker 5: With you, the one with you.

834
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:58,280
Speaker 6: You don't understand I get some people in trouble because

835
00:41:01,600 --> 00:41:08,239
Speaker 6: it's a gift. Yes, there we go.

836
00:41:09,480 --> 00:41:11,480
Speaker 1: Yeah no, But I like that. I mean, like like

837
00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,759
Speaker 1: Mala said, like I want to keep working like we're

838
00:41:13,760 --> 00:41:18,000
Speaker 1: in this field, we continue to like create things and

839
00:41:18,200 --> 00:41:20,719
Speaker 1: set up set ourselves up so that we have longevity

840
00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:24,800
Speaker 1: in this industry. And so I don't necessarily see myself

841
00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 1: always being talent front facing, like I really I love producing,

842
00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:32,040
Speaker 1: I love writing. I want to write a book, Like,

843
00:41:32,239 --> 00:41:34,960
Speaker 1: There's tons of things I want to do that's maybe

844
00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:37,080
Speaker 1: not as public facing. And I think for me that's

845
00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:39,920
Speaker 1: where the longevity is. It's not being in front of

846
00:41:39,920 --> 00:41:42,480
Speaker 1: the camera or in front of the mic, but you know,

847
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:45,840
Speaker 1: cultivating new talent. And that's really where I see myself

848
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 1: in like ten years is like I mean, I see

849
00:41:47,960 --> 00:41:50,840
Speaker 1: the show going on forever, but you know, not that

850
00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:53,439
Speaker 1: not being the only thing. There's other things that we're

851
00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:59,480
Speaker 1: both working on together, you know, so that there is longevity.

852
00:41:59,120 --> 00:42:02,000
Speaker 3: Especially as that dark side of the creative stuff, the

853
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:06,600
Speaker 3: way people treat women of color in the industry, especially

854
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:09,319
Speaker 3: when they're front facing the older they get. It is

855
00:42:09,400 --> 00:42:13,080
Speaker 3: so horrifying to watch so almost and we see it

856
00:42:13,120 --> 00:42:15,080
Speaker 3: all when it's all happening, We're watching all of it,

857
00:42:15,280 --> 00:42:17,799
Speaker 3: and we're like terrified, you know what I mean, and

858
00:42:17,840 --> 00:42:19,040
Speaker 3: like hiding under our blankets.

859
00:42:19,160 --> 00:42:22,799
Speaker 1: I mean, if Jlo isn't even safe from the quatiques

860
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:26,400
Speaker 1: and the hate. This woman is beautiful in her fifties, yes,

861
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:29,200
Speaker 1: and like what does that say? What does that look

862
00:42:29,239 --> 00:42:30,960
Speaker 1: like for us? You know when we're in our fifties.

863
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:32,680
Speaker 1: That's what I That's what I was telling Mall the

864
00:42:32,719 --> 00:42:35,080
Speaker 1: other day. I'm like, you get to your fifties and

865
00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:36,120
Speaker 1: see how people treat you.

866
00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:38,040
Speaker 3: Like That's what my mom says.

867
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:41,640
Speaker 5: Also, like because she's in the public eye and she

868
00:42:41,640 --> 00:42:46,080
Speaker 5: she gets insecure about showing her hands, and she's she's

869
00:42:46,080 --> 00:42:48,880
Speaker 5: an artist, she's a crafter, so when she's making everything

870
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:51,360
Speaker 5: with her hands, doing like top down videos, she's like,

871
00:42:51,400 --> 00:42:53,400
Speaker 5: my hands looks so old. I shed just get Some'm like,

872
00:42:53,680 --> 00:42:57,600
Speaker 5: there needs to be representation for people who look like you,

873
00:42:57,640 --> 00:43:00,359
Speaker 5: for your age, for your hands, because you're hands are

874
00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:02,640
Speaker 5: my hands, and our hands look the same. My hands

875
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:05,000
Speaker 5: will probably look like yours and I would feel more

876
00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:07,880
Speaker 5: comfortable seeing somebody's hands like that versus like, you know,

877
00:43:08,080 --> 00:43:10,400
Speaker 5: just like the sleek cancel we always see, Like, you know,

878
00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:13,040
Speaker 5: there's a lot of like agism. For sure, there's a

879
00:43:13,080 --> 00:43:15,919
Speaker 5: lot of agism. I just want to point that out.

880
00:43:16,080 --> 00:43:18,120
Speaker 5: You have to fight, I'm an ally, we have to

881
00:43:18,120 --> 00:43:19,760
Speaker 5: fight against it.

882
00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:23,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, like Dolly Parton wears those skin gloves.

883
00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:24,160
Speaker 6: Yeah.

884
00:43:24,719 --> 00:43:28,160
Speaker 5: Oh, it's too much pressure. You know, we already have

885
00:43:28,440 --> 00:43:31,359
Speaker 5: a level of insecurity that we have concocted within our

886
00:43:31,400 --> 00:43:35,360
Speaker 5: own brain, which is like already intense, and then to

887
00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:38,000
Speaker 5: have somebody like last night, people were being I mean,

888
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:42,080
Speaker 5: there was like a couple of people who were just like, dang,

889
00:43:42,120 --> 00:43:45,919
Speaker 5: you guys are still around. You guys are old old

890
00:43:46,520 --> 00:43:48,319
Speaker 5: are like well, like I get that all the time,

891
00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:49,319
Speaker 5: like who's THEA is this?

892
00:43:49,560 --> 00:43:50,279
Speaker 3: And before I used to.

893
00:43:50,280 --> 00:43:54,240
Speaker 5: Be like, Now I'm like it's Giermo and Theo's that's

894
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:57,040
Speaker 5: who bitch. Like, you know, it's just a lot of pressure.

895
00:43:57,040 --> 00:43:58,719
Speaker 5: And I think that's why with the whole fame thing,

896
00:43:58,760 --> 00:44:00,800
Speaker 5: I'm like, I don't want people to be like I

897
00:44:00,840 --> 00:44:02,920
Speaker 5: don't think I would show my kids or my or

898
00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:05,080
Speaker 5: my future spouse whenever that happened.

899
00:44:05,360 --> 00:44:07,120
Speaker 6: We did.

900
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:11,520
Speaker 3: If you're listening, you're listening.

901
00:44:10,600 --> 00:44:11,359
Speaker 6: Yeah, me too.

902
00:44:11,640 --> 00:44:13,400
Speaker 4: We did get a funny comment last night, or somebody

903
00:44:13,480 --> 00:44:15,840
Speaker 4: was like telling it was me my gadiad and somebody

904
00:44:15,920 --> 00:44:17,000
Speaker 4: was like the.

905
00:44:17,080 --> 00:44:20,200
Speaker 6: Full comment was yeah, tell.

906
00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:24,840
Speaker 4: Old and it was like, Maya is cute. But I

907
00:44:24,880 --> 00:44:26,520
Speaker 4: kept I never said the my s cute part. I

908
00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:28,160
Speaker 4: just kept repeating like the first part and.

909
00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:31,360
Speaker 6: You might finish it. Finish, like finish the statement. Finish

910
00:44:31,480 --> 00:44:35,440
Speaker 6: what she said, finish it thumbs up that wild.

911
00:44:35,400 --> 00:44:38,880
Speaker 1: I think too, Like when we started, we were the

912
00:44:38,920 --> 00:44:39,799
Speaker 1: young ones.

913
00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:42,160
Speaker 3: And all the girls say say.

914
00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:44,920
Speaker 1: You everywhere, and now we're like, oh, we're just in

915
00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:47,480
Speaker 1: the middle. Yeah you know, and we're still young, right,

916
00:44:47,600 --> 00:44:50,239
Speaker 1: but we're at that point where like, yeah, we've been

917
00:44:50,280 --> 00:44:52,440
Speaker 1: in it for a while and there's people younger than us.

918
00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:52,839
Speaker 6: Yeah.

919
00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:53,440
Speaker 7: I know.

920
00:44:54,040 --> 00:44:56,239
Speaker 5: When I got to BUZZFEEDO was twenty three, and I

921
00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:58,840
Speaker 5: would like, I was I'm a brat, sorry, and I

922
00:44:58,880 --> 00:45:01,520
Speaker 5: would like I'd be like, yeah, you said, you know

923
00:45:01,680 --> 00:45:03,600
Speaker 5: exactly what I would do now whatever. Back then it

924
00:45:03,640 --> 00:45:06,240
Speaker 5: was worse and Curly would tell me, just wait.

925
00:45:06,520 --> 00:45:09,000
Speaker 6: You might here. I was twenty six years old.

926
00:45:08,880 --> 00:45:13,120
Speaker 5: Wow, nothing about appearances.

927
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:15,280
Speaker 1: Maybe twenty age three years.

928
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:17,799
Speaker 4: No, I was. I was six when I started. I

929
00:45:17,800 --> 00:45:19,279
Speaker 4: think I was twenty eight when you came.

930
00:45:20,520 --> 00:45:20,920
Speaker 3: Twenty eight.

931
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:23,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, so imagine I was still young and they

932
00:45:23,719 --> 00:45:24,840
Speaker 4: were like yes, but.

933
00:45:24,760 --> 00:45:27,480
Speaker 5: Now you were like on your way out of your

934
00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:30,000
Speaker 5: twenties and I was in my twenties.

935
00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:30,600
Speaker 6: Yeah.

936
00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:33,120
Speaker 5: And then now that I'm thirty, I'm like you little bit.

937
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:36,560
Speaker 4: Well, my favorite thing to always say is that it

938
00:45:37,280 --> 00:45:39,000
Speaker 4: is inevitable that you two.

939
00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:41,279
Speaker 6: Will age will be here too.

940
00:45:41,320 --> 00:45:43,759
Speaker 4: You will be here too, that's just and I remember, yeah,

941
00:45:43,840 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 4: I always say that, and you and I guarantee that

942
00:45:45,680 --> 00:45:47,399
Speaker 4: you will not look as good as I do.

943
00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:48,160
Speaker 6: At this age.

944
00:45:48,239 --> 00:45:50,959
Speaker 3: You look good, good, good.

945
00:45:52,920 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 4: And then for all the things that are not aging, well,

946
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:56,480
Speaker 4: I had enough money to pay.

947
00:45:56,280 --> 00:45:57,360
Speaker 6: For it period.

948
00:45:58,200 --> 00:46:01,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, but I totally feel that pressure sure now as

949
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:04,799
Speaker 5: like you know gen z all that stuff, and it

950
00:46:04,920 --> 00:46:07,560
Speaker 5: just feels very much like oh man, And I was

951
00:46:07,719 --> 00:46:09,839
Speaker 5: my friend was like I was talking to my friend

952
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:11,400
Speaker 5: and we were like, man, I wish I knew what

953
00:46:11,480 --> 00:46:12,960
Speaker 5: I know now. Like back then when I was like

954
00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:16,200
Speaker 5: twenty five and I was telling Curly this morning, I'm like, no,

955
00:46:16,320 --> 00:46:19,040
Speaker 5: because I earned that, This thirty year old version of

956
00:46:19,080 --> 00:46:24,080
Speaker 5: me earned that wisdom and lived those experiences and you know,

957
00:46:24,400 --> 00:46:28,000
Speaker 5: so like age is just so weird in the public guy.

958
00:46:28,040 --> 00:46:30,120
Speaker 5: I'm like, no, no, no, no, public guy. Age.

959
00:46:30,160 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 4: Shit we were talking about I was telling my how,

960
00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:34,520
Speaker 4: and I think I got a longishal talking to me

961
00:46:34,560 --> 00:46:39,040
Speaker 4: about that too, how I was bashing like a photo

962
00:46:39,080 --> 00:46:42,360
Speaker 4: of myself around that time, like my late twenties.

963
00:46:42,080 --> 00:46:42,919
Speaker 6: And my hair.

964
00:46:43,000 --> 00:46:45,000
Speaker 4: I really wanted a pompador, but my hair is super

965
00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:47,279
Speaker 4: curly and super course and I couldn't. So if you

966
00:46:47,320 --> 00:46:50,280
Speaker 4: look at old photos, it's kind of trying to do something.

967
00:46:51,040 --> 00:46:55,920
Speaker 4: And I was thicker, and I just was kind of

968
00:46:55,920 --> 00:46:57,360
Speaker 4: trying to figure out where I was and I was

969
00:46:57,400 --> 00:47:00,200
Speaker 4: going sober, and I was being so mean to myself,

970
00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:02,399
Speaker 4: like oh he's so ugly, Like how ugly I used

971
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:04,879
Speaker 4: to be, Like how gross? And a friend of mine was.

972
00:47:04,880 --> 00:47:08,560
Speaker 6: Like, hey, like stop that, Like you are here.

973
00:47:08,360 --> 00:47:11,080
Speaker 4: Because you're standing on his shoulders right like you were

974
00:47:11,120 --> 00:47:13,839
Speaker 4: here because of what he did and all the hard

975
00:47:13,880 --> 00:47:15,760
Speaker 4: work and all the heart that he put into stuff.

976
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:17,600
Speaker 6: So you need to be nicer to him.

977
00:47:17,640 --> 00:47:19,640
Speaker 4: And so even just that aspect of like looking back

978
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:24,080
Speaker 4: and being kinder to me, sally nicer, Yeah, like honoring

979
00:47:24,520 --> 00:47:26,960
Speaker 4: all aspects of Yeah, And.

980
00:47:26,920 --> 00:47:29,560
Speaker 3: I do want to say, like I feel like, do

981
00:47:29,640 --> 00:47:31,799
Speaker 3: you ever wonder how much of that, like the being

982
00:47:31,880 --> 00:47:34,279
Speaker 3: mean to your past self or your current self, is

983
00:47:34,320 --> 00:47:37,840
Speaker 3: like genuine and from within or like influenced by like

984
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:40,960
Speaker 3: negativity over the years from like the public.

985
00:47:41,200 --> 00:47:44,080
Speaker 6: I think it's a bit of both. Actually, I think

986
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:46,719
Speaker 6: it's more outwardly. I think I.

987
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:49,160
Speaker 5: Think it's a lot of comparison because you see someone

988
00:47:49,200 --> 00:47:52,760
Speaker 5: who is like twenty five now and you compare yourself

989
00:47:52,800 --> 00:47:54,480
Speaker 5: to who you were and what you were doing when

990
00:47:54,480 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 5: you were twenty five, and you're like, dang, they're doing

991
00:47:57,080 --> 00:47:59,440
Speaker 5: stuff that I'm doing now, except for they have a

992
00:47:59,480 --> 00:48:02,680
Speaker 5: million falls back then. I wasn't now I still don't have,

993
00:48:03,239 --> 00:48:05,640
Speaker 5: so like what did she she should have been, like,

994
00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:07,920
Speaker 5: you know, twenty five year old me, like should should

995
00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:09,399
Speaker 5: have been doing X, Y and.

996
00:48:09,360 --> 00:48:12,960
Speaker 1: Z or But like the journeys are different.

997
00:48:13,239 --> 00:48:16,319
Speaker 5: Yeah, And like I said before, I'm like, I that

998
00:48:16,480 --> 00:48:20,080
Speaker 5: was meant for me to be at that place, to

999
00:48:20,120 --> 00:48:22,160
Speaker 5: be at that status or be at that level whatever

1000
00:48:22,160 --> 00:48:24,719
Speaker 5: when I was twenty five, And that's that other person's

1001
00:48:24,880 --> 00:48:27,840
Speaker 5: journey is to be at that place. Like we're on

1002
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:33,240
Speaker 5: completely separate paths, And I think it is doing ourselves

1003
00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:38,080
Speaker 5: the disservice to not honor those past versions. Even last year,

1004
00:48:38,239 --> 00:48:41,440
Speaker 5: even a month ago version of me. You know, we

1005
00:48:41,440 --> 00:48:43,360
Speaker 5: were talking about like the New Year and stuff, how

1006
00:48:43,880 --> 00:48:47,560
Speaker 5: it's Christmas and then the next couple of days is

1007
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:49,640
Speaker 5: the New Year, and you're you're expected to be like

1008
00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:52,400
Speaker 5: a brand new person, work out, do these things, and

1009
00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:54,399
Speaker 5: it's like, well, a couple of days ago, like I

1010
00:48:54,440 --> 00:48:57,279
Speaker 5: was just eating like a full ham, crying on the

1011
00:48:57,320 --> 00:49:01,720
Speaker 5: floor likeir like over or whatever, and now I'm supposed

1012
00:49:01,760 --> 00:49:04,880
Speaker 5: to like have this new routine, like you know, and

1013
00:49:04,920 --> 00:49:06,799
Speaker 5: then New Year knew me. I'm like, I'm the same

1014
00:49:06,920 --> 00:49:09,359
Speaker 5: me as I was like last year, and that I

1015
00:49:09,520 --> 00:49:11,200
Speaker 5: like that, Like what's wrong with that?

1016
00:49:11,719 --> 00:49:12,120
Speaker 3: Totally?

1017
00:49:12,200 --> 00:49:12,399
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1018
00:49:13,440 --> 00:49:15,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I think everyone's New Year is their birthday, right,

1019
00:49:16,040 --> 00:49:16,960
Speaker 1: Like of course.

1020
00:49:16,719 --> 00:49:18,520
Speaker 5: Like the calendar year, I say, March.

1021
00:49:18,680 --> 00:49:22,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, the calendar year is like where where a uh

1022
00:49:23,040 --> 00:49:25,680
Speaker 1: you know, socialized condition, like there's a reset with the

1023
00:49:25,719 --> 00:49:27,720
Speaker 1: calendar year, but like your new year's your birthday.

1024
00:49:27,800 --> 00:49:29,239
Speaker 6: Yes, Oh I love that.

1025
00:49:29,320 --> 00:49:31,839
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's the energy I carry and and what I've

1026
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:33,960
Speaker 1: we've been I've been saying this for the last couple episodes,

1027
00:49:34,000 --> 00:49:36,960
Speaker 1: like we are still in winter, like the expectation to

1028
00:49:37,040 --> 00:49:38,880
Speaker 1: hit the ground running because it's January.

1029
00:49:39,080 --> 00:49:41,080
Speaker 6: Absolutely no, like.

1030
00:49:41,239 --> 00:49:43,200
Speaker 1: It's gloomy out. I couldn't get tot of bed today,

1031
00:49:43,360 --> 00:49:47,120
Speaker 1: like it's winter, like wait for spring equinox, you know,

1032
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:49,360
Speaker 1: and then and then we'll be good. Talk to me.

1033
00:49:49,400 --> 00:49:52,839
Speaker 4: Then I am bragging out on you so hard right now.

1034
00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:56,040
Speaker 4: There's something about acrylic nails and gold that my gay

1035
00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:56,520
Speaker 4: brain goes.

1036
00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:05,440
Speaker 6: I was like, it is when you look at your

1037
00:50:05,480 --> 00:50:08,160
Speaker 6: nails in the gold, your classic.

1038
00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:12,240
Speaker 4: There's just something so poetic whenever people have long crylic nails,

1039
00:50:12,280 --> 00:50:14,279
Speaker 4: everything is like so beautifully like.

1040
00:50:14,239 --> 00:50:17,440
Speaker 3: The I agree, Yes, really I.

1041
00:50:17,360 --> 00:50:18,359
Speaker 6: Didn't hear anything you said.

1042
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:23,120
Speaker 3: That's why. That's why she's the song. Yes, that's why.

1043
00:50:23,440 --> 00:50:26,879
Speaker 6: Right, perfect name, it's perfect name.

1044
00:50:28,400 --> 00:50:30,319
Speaker 2: Little angel devil thing going on here?

1045
00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:32,360
Speaker 6: Did you know far that I wanted to name my

1046
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:33,320
Speaker 6: daughter Mala.

1047
00:50:33,560 --> 00:50:35,200
Speaker 3: We had this conversation once before.

1048
00:50:36,480 --> 00:50:37,280
Speaker 6: It'd be so.

1049
00:50:38,920 --> 00:50:40,759
Speaker 1: I wonder how many people are actually going to name

1050
00:50:40,800 --> 00:50:44,040
Speaker 1: their kids Mala because of you, Mala, like in a trademarket.

1051
00:50:44,200 --> 00:50:48,640
Speaker 3: Better not imagine I will, but I would.

1052
00:50:48,719 --> 00:50:50,120
Speaker 6: I mean, I love that you can do it.

1053
00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:52,440
Speaker 3: You're the only one reserve.

1054
00:50:52,960 --> 00:50:56,040
Speaker 6: I literally would be like this is who you're named after. Yeah,

1055
00:50:56,080 --> 00:50:57,000
Speaker 6: that'd be really dope.

1056
00:50:57,600 --> 00:50:58,920
Speaker 3: I love that idea.

1057
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:00,480
Speaker 6: Yeah, so now we got to send the man so

1058
00:51:00,520 --> 00:51:02,160
Speaker 6: you can have another partner and have a kid.

1059
00:51:02,320 --> 00:51:05,400
Speaker 3: Let's talk about this now, let's transition. Yeah, you had

1060
00:51:05,480 --> 00:51:08,920
Speaker 3: your most recent episode is twenty twenty four Dating Goals,

1061
00:51:09,239 --> 00:51:13,359
Speaker 3: and we're talking about men. Can't live with them, can't

1062
00:51:13,360 --> 00:51:15,600
Speaker 3: live without them, but we have to because we're single. Right,

1063
00:51:16,080 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 3: So what are your what are the things that you

1064
00:51:19,600 --> 00:51:22,719
Speaker 3: think our listeners need to hear, like as far as

1065
00:51:22,719 --> 00:51:26,440
Speaker 3: approaching dating this year, Like what are the best tips

1066
00:51:26,760 --> 00:51:29,560
Speaker 3: and pieces of advice that you can give our listeners

1067
00:51:29,600 --> 00:51:32,480
Speaker 3: based on like what you've what you've like learned to

1068
00:51:32,520 --> 00:51:33,760
Speaker 3: craft your own dating goals?

1069
00:51:35,640 --> 00:51:37,040
Speaker 4: Why I date a lot? I'm actually kind of like

1070
00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:39,279
Speaker 4: a serial dater. I go on like several dates, Like

1071
00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:42,560
Speaker 4: I think between the week of January, the end of

1072
00:51:42,560 --> 00:51:44,120
Speaker 4: December and the first week of January when I like

1073
00:51:44,160 --> 00:51:46,360
Speaker 4: three dates hot like like one week.

1074
00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:47,920
Speaker 5: And what was like, which guy is this?

1075
00:51:48,120 --> 00:51:50,120
Speaker 3: Oh okay, yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah.

1076
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:52,120
Speaker 4: I was like, Maya, I'm such an introish, Like you

1077
00:51:52,200 --> 00:51:53,320
Speaker 4: just went on three days?

1078
00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:55,560
Speaker 6: What are you talking about?

1079
00:51:56,560 --> 00:52:00,560
Speaker 5: Yea, culture, I'm just like I'm like, you know, you're not.

1080
00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:04,560
Speaker 3: I'm like, I am narcissist every week.

1081
00:52:05,239 --> 00:52:08,760
Speaker 5: Every week we're always like amish.

1082
00:52:08,280 --> 00:52:10,000
Speaker 6: My therapists like stop trying to make it happen.

1083
00:52:10,040 --> 00:52:15,120
Speaker 5: You're not because we've dated narcissist. Yeah, like super like

1084
00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:18,400
Speaker 5: aware of like I mean for dating, I mean, what

1085
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:19,960
Speaker 5: would you say the past couple of dates.

1086
00:52:20,120 --> 00:52:22,879
Speaker 4: My number one thing is like always shoot your shot,

1087
00:52:23,040 --> 00:52:25,040
Speaker 4: Like shoot your shot, you'll get hurt. I mean, the

1088
00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:26,560
Speaker 4: two out of the three dates that I went on

1089
00:52:26,640 --> 00:52:30,000
Speaker 4: ghosted me, like no, and actually they go to me

1090
00:52:30,040 --> 00:52:32,400
Speaker 4: and they friend zoned me, so they didn't ghost me entirely,

1091
00:52:32,560 --> 00:52:35,640
Speaker 4: but they friend zoned me, which is fine. Yeah, but

1092
00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:38,320
Speaker 4: it was like uh and it hurts.

1093
00:52:38,680 --> 00:52:41,000
Speaker 6: But then you're kind of like I still believe in love.

1094
00:52:41,040 --> 00:52:44,200
Speaker 4: I still believe in that there's somebody out there that

1095
00:52:44,320 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 4: won't do those things. And so I'm always like we

1096
00:52:47,719 --> 00:52:49,480
Speaker 4: are we all inevitably will die.

1097
00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:56,440
Speaker 5: Bad news, good news, and.

1098
00:52:56,640 --> 00:53:00,520
Speaker 6: So just shoot your shot, have fun, have fun people

1099
00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:03,799
Speaker 6: like put stuff in your mouth, pout in their mouth.

1100
00:53:04,719 --> 00:53:13,920
Speaker 5: Eventually your legs just do it spread.

1101
00:53:15,840 --> 00:53:18,400
Speaker 3: Okay, like that, shoot your shot.

1102
00:53:18,880 --> 00:53:23,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, I would say, I think like take it easy,

1103
00:53:23,760 --> 00:53:27,759
Speaker 5: go slow, because the love, the love. I don't want

1104
00:53:27,760 --> 00:53:31,040
Speaker 5: to say love bombing, Like what's another word for the love?

1105
00:53:31,080 --> 00:53:32,440
Speaker 5: Bombing is real for.

1106
00:53:32,320 --> 00:53:35,320
Speaker 1: Sure, like like the over going, over the top.

1107
00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:38,359
Speaker 5: Over the top when you're like texting them constantly. I've

1108
00:53:38,360 --> 00:53:40,960
Speaker 5: been really watching a lot of like I'm on the

1109
00:53:40,960 --> 00:53:47,279
Speaker 5: TikTok dating algorithm, I get fed everything, and a lot

1110
00:53:47,280 --> 00:53:51,600
Speaker 5: of it is like, don't be super attached to the

1111
00:53:51,640 --> 00:53:55,480
Speaker 5: text the texting part of it in the beginning, like

1112
00:53:55,960 --> 00:53:59,799
Speaker 5: hang out with them immediately, go out with them immediately,

1113
00:54:00,320 --> 00:54:04,759
Speaker 5: because you I'm trying to not create more delusion in

1114
00:54:04,840 --> 00:54:09,520
Speaker 5: my head, right, So that's my biggest advice is like, yes,

1115
00:54:09,840 --> 00:54:13,280
Speaker 5: use the delusion and stuff for good for your career

1116
00:54:13,320 --> 00:54:16,880
Speaker 5: and stuff, but when it comes to dating, like let's

1117
00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 5: be just a little bit realistic and like you know,

1118
00:54:21,200 --> 00:54:23,560
Speaker 5: and I think I think that part is.

1119
00:54:23,520 --> 00:54:24,360
Speaker 1: To go slow.

1120
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:29,239
Speaker 4: My friend Chanti says, uh, you need to see it move,

1121
00:54:29,400 --> 00:54:31,160
Speaker 4: like you can see a photo, but like wait to

1122
00:54:31,160 --> 00:54:31,600
Speaker 4: see it.

1123
00:54:31,520 --> 00:54:34,800
Speaker 6: Move because then when you watch things move, you're like true.

1124
00:54:34,680 --> 00:54:36,839
Speaker 5: And do you know what, I'm not doing shit this year?

1125
00:54:37,200 --> 00:54:37,680
Speaker 6: No, I'm not.

1126
00:54:37,800 --> 00:54:41,200
Speaker 5: I'm not double texting. I'm not like I'm not asking

1127
00:54:41,239 --> 00:54:43,880
Speaker 5: to hang out. I'm not giving out my number. I'm like,

1128
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:46,680
Speaker 5: if you ask me cool, I'm not because last year

1129
00:54:47,120 --> 00:54:48,840
Speaker 5: I was. I mean, you know, they call it like

1130
00:54:48,880 --> 00:54:51,120
Speaker 5: being in your masculine, being your feminine. I was in

1131
00:54:51,120 --> 00:54:53,080
Speaker 5: my masculine, like you want to hang out, I want

1132
00:54:53,080 --> 00:54:54,840
Speaker 5: to do this one blah blah blah. And it did not.

1133
00:54:55,000 --> 00:54:57,799
Speaker 5: I didn't didn't feel good. So I'm like, what happens

1134
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:01,120
Speaker 5: if I take that away? Because my mom is very

1135
00:55:01,239 --> 00:55:03,600
Speaker 5: much like the head of the house. I mean, my

1136
00:55:03,680 --> 00:55:06,360
Speaker 5: dad is also, but she was like, you know, the

1137
00:55:06,440 --> 00:55:10,080
Speaker 5: decision maker, and my dad was he's chill and he's fine,

1138
00:55:10,239 --> 00:55:13,080
Speaker 5: like and he knows he's like in his masculine fem

1139
00:55:13,200 --> 00:55:15,000
Speaker 5: But like, I grew up with the mom that was like,

1140
00:55:15,320 --> 00:55:17,120
Speaker 5: this is what we're doing. She went to go get

1141
00:55:17,160 --> 00:55:19,680
Speaker 5: my dad. She stocked my dad and she'll admit it.

1142
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:22,319
Speaker 5: He admits it too, but he's my mom's like, but

1143
00:55:22,400 --> 00:55:24,839
Speaker 5: you wanted it, so you know, she went to go

1144
00:55:24,920 --> 00:55:27,719
Speaker 5: get her man. That worked for her. I don't want

1145
00:55:27,760 --> 00:55:28,520
Speaker 5: to do that much.

1146
00:55:28,320 --> 00:55:29,839
Speaker 3: Work right right, right, right right.

1147
00:55:29,880 --> 00:55:32,319
Speaker 5: I want to see what happens when I just am like,

1148
00:55:32,920 --> 00:55:36,480
Speaker 5: sit pretty, come hither, come here.

1149
00:55:37,280 --> 00:55:39,680
Speaker 3: I want to try the stream. Yes, I want to

1150
00:55:39,719 --> 00:55:40,080
Speaker 3: try that.

1151
00:55:40,120 --> 00:55:43,880
Speaker 4: Little bit of both. I like flirting. I like being romantic.

1152
00:55:43,880 --> 00:55:45,400
Speaker 6: I like being one flirting.

1153
00:55:45,680 --> 00:55:46,920
Speaker 5: Flirting for sure.

1154
00:55:47,360 --> 00:55:50,360
Speaker 4: Let me take you out on a date. I love that.

1155
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:52,880
Speaker 4: That's like my masculine energy. But then my femin energy

1156
00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:55,120
Speaker 4: is kind of like like I don't know.

1157
00:55:55,320 --> 00:55:59,600
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think I'm in a place of like, uh,

1158
00:55:59,840 --> 00:56:01,880
Speaker 5: but I have a crush on this girl, and I'm like,

1159
00:56:01,920 --> 00:56:04,520
Speaker 5: I don't know how to flirt. It's like I've had

1160
00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:07,719
Speaker 5: crushes before, I've had like little things, but like it's

1161
00:56:07,840 --> 00:56:10,400
Speaker 5: kind of like throwing me off a little bit because

1162
00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:13,879
Speaker 5: I'm like, you know, I've spent so long dating men

1163
00:56:14,120 --> 00:56:16,960
Speaker 5: and in that energy that when I'm dating another person

1164
00:56:17,080 --> 00:56:20,360
Speaker 5: who is a girl, like it's throwing me off a

1165
00:56:20,360 --> 00:56:22,200
Speaker 5: little bit. And I think I want to explore that

1166
00:56:23,040 --> 00:56:26,200
Speaker 5: more this year, you know, because I'm like, if it

1167
00:56:26,280 --> 00:56:27,799
Speaker 5: scares me, I should probably do.

1168
00:56:30,800 --> 00:56:32,920
Speaker 6: I always say, if you can open up your heart,

1169
00:56:33,000 --> 00:56:34,520
Speaker 6: you can open right.

1170
00:56:34,520 --> 00:56:37,640
Speaker 3: Absolutely, got it? We go, And I have a question,

1171
00:56:38,719 --> 00:56:40,879
Speaker 3: when can when do you? What do you think about

1172
00:56:40,920 --> 00:56:47,560
Speaker 3: like taking delusions and thinking about them as manifestations, right,

1173
00:56:47,560 --> 00:56:50,920
Speaker 3: because I like build storylines around people, right, Like I

1174
00:56:50,920 --> 00:56:54,239
Speaker 3: have a crush on you, I'm already picturing our wedding day, yes,

1175
00:56:54,840 --> 00:56:59,480
Speaker 3: and our home and everything. Right, that's a delusion. I

1176
00:56:59,520 --> 00:57:02,560
Speaker 3: know that's illusion, right, But can I keep it and

1177
00:57:02,640 --> 00:57:03,879
Speaker 3: call it manifesting?

1178
00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:12,680
Speaker 5: There's there are practices, there are methods. It's called like

1179
00:57:13,120 --> 00:57:19,040
Speaker 5: manifesting your specific person in the three D. Like, yeah,

1180
00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:22,600
Speaker 5: it's it's a whole thing and there's different things you

1181
00:57:22,600 --> 00:57:24,320
Speaker 5: can do. But it's also like, are you is this

1182
00:57:24,360 --> 00:57:26,400
Speaker 5: the person you want to be manifesting? Because once you

1183
00:57:26,440 --> 00:57:28,240
Speaker 5: step in there, they're going to be in your life forever,

1184
00:57:28,680 --> 00:57:31,480
Speaker 5: no matter what. I've tried to hit there in my

1185
00:57:31,520 --> 00:57:32,800
Speaker 5: life forever, and I want them to get out.

1186
00:57:33,200 --> 00:57:35,400
Speaker 3: That's so true because sometimes I feel like sometimes the

1187
00:57:35,480 --> 00:57:37,280
Speaker 3: dating stuff is almost like it's the thrill of the

1188
00:57:37,320 --> 00:57:41,120
Speaker 3: get like, yes, I've gotten you, I actually want you here.

1189
00:57:41,640 --> 00:57:44,800
Speaker 5: Yes, I want them to chase men.

1190
00:57:45,880 --> 00:57:47,680
Speaker 6: That might be your attachment style. That might be a

1191
00:57:47,720 --> 00:57:49,240
Speaker 6: lot of trauma that you got to work on.

1192
00:57:49,840 --> 00:57:50,480
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1193
00:57:50,560 --> 00:57:52,240
Speaker 4: I feel like it depends on if it's hurting you

1194
00:57:52,320 --> 00:57:54,360
Speaker 4: or not, Like does it hurt you to because sometimes

1195
00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:56,280
Speaker 4: I go to bed thinking about my third grade crash

1196
00:57:56,320 --> 00:57:59,160
Speaker 4: that I talk about on every past I.

1197
00:57:59,120 --> 00:58:01,760
Speaker 6: Love him love We've been friends with the third grade

1198
00:58:01,880 --> 00:58:03,479
Speaker 6: he was. I just love him best human.

1199
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:06,760
Speaker 4: But it doesn't hurt me to think about it, Like

1200
00:58:06,760 --> 00:58:08,160
Speaker 4: if it doesn't happen, it's more like a gag, like

1201
00:58:08,200 --> 00:58:10,240
Speaker 4: a joke, you know, So it doesn't hurt me. But

1202
00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:11,680
Speaker 4: I think that I know that there's some people in

1203
00:58:11,720 --> 00:58:13,840
Speaker 4: my life who do still do that with me, and

1204
00:58:13,880 --> 00:58:15,840
Speaker 4: I'm like, that'll never happen.

1205
00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:19,800
Speaker 5: Yeah, We'll go there and feel when people are manifesting.

1206
00:58:19,240 --> 00:58:22,840
Speaker 4: You, and I know that it's hurting you. So I'm like,

1207
00:58:22,920 --> 00:58:25,200
Speaker 4: if it's fun, fun and games for you, have fun

1208
00:58:25,200 --> 00:58:28,400
Speaker 4: with it. But if you're literally gonna lose sleep over it.

1209
00:58:28,400 --> 00:58:31,200
Speaker 5: You got to go into their dreams when they're manifesting

1210
00:58:31,200 --> 00:58:35,280
Speaker 5: you and be like, is never gonna happen? You stop

1211
00:58:35,360 --> 00:58:36,200
Speaker 5: manifesting me?

1212
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:39,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, but you know, I feel like I have a

1213
00:58:39,560 --> 00:58:43,440
Speaker 4: whole ass list. I saw Viola Davis talking with Oprah

1214
00:58:43,480 --> 00:58:46,360
Speaker 4: about how she made a whole ass list of what

1215
00:58:46,440 --> 00:58:50,200
Speaker 4: she wanted to God and then sign the bottom like

1216
00:58:50,320 --> 00:58:55,200
Speaker 4: love Viola or whatever, and then she got that exact man,

1217
00:58:55,520 --> 00:59:00,080
Speaker 4: and so I did that, and I don't know I

1218
00:59:00,120 --> 00:59:06,120
Speaker 4: got somebody close enough, but I forgot the.

1219
00:59:04,440 --> 00:59:06,600
Speaker 3: Narcissistic not.

1220
00:59:08,880 --> 00:59:14,400
Speaker 5: Details being specific as like I mean that is probably

1221
00:59:14,400 --> 00:59:17,280
Speaker 5: one of the number one things that a lot of

1222
00:59:17,320 --> 00:59:22,080
Speaker 5: the like Manifesto people I watched like says there's nothing

1223
00:59:22,080 --> 00:59:23,840
Speaker 5: wrong with being too specific.

1224
00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:28,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, but oh wait till the going to be So

1225
00:59:30,280 --> 00:59:33,000
Speaker 4: I'm so happy that all the narcissists the Lord could

1226
00:59:33,040 --> 00:59:34,920
Speaker 4: have given me. He gave me talk to you. He

1227
00:59:35,040 --> 00:59:36,120
Speaker 4: gave me talk a.

1228
00:59:36,120 --> 00:59:40,800
Speaker 2: Good one narcissist like just Artisanal.

1229
00:59:44,760 --> 00:59:45,840
Speaker 6: Under tried it.

1230
00:59:46,280 --> 00:59:48,400
Speaker 5: Everyone really tried it, just.

1231
00:59:48,320 --> 00:59:52,200
Speaker 4: For Chef's Kiss of Narcissists, and I'm thankful for it.

1232
00:59:52,560 --> 00:59:56,320
Speaker 3: I am on the list the My my mom did

1233
00:59:56,320 --> 00:59:58,880
Speaker 3: this for me. She like called me and she was like,

1234
01:00:00,160 --> 01:00:01,680
Speaker 3: tell me what you're looking for in a partner, and

1235
01:00:01,720 --> 01:00:04,520
Speaker 3: I'm gonna write it. My mom did that to Oh

1236
01:00:04,600 --> 01:00:09,480
Speaker 3: my God, wrote it down and put it in her Bible,

1237
01:00:10,000 --> 01:00:12,000
Speaker 3: and she like, praise over the Bible.

1238
01:00:14,840 --> 01:00:19,040
Speaker 6: Do it around me, Jesus. We need.

1239
01:00:20,640 --> 01:00:21,120
Speaker 5: Jesus.

1240
01:00:24,840 --> 01:00:28,720
Speaker 4: Yeah, wow, I love us so hard.

1241
01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:30,920
Speaker 3: It's so great. It's so campy, it's so funny. It

1242
01:00:30,960 --> 01:00:33,040
Speaker 3: is so if the list by itself doesn't work, throw

1243
01:00:33,040 --> 01:00:35,120
Speaker 3: it in a bible.

1244
01:00:35,760 --> 01:00:37,560
Speaker 5: My mom did that. She was I just want to

1245
01:00:37,640 --> 01:00:39,959
Speaker 5: let you know I wrote something for you this year.

1246
01:00:41,080 --> 01:00:41,680
Speaker 5: Don't tell me.

1247
01:00:42,200 --> 01:00:42,680
Speaker 3: Don't tell me.

1248
01:00:42,680 --> 01:00:46,040
Speaker 5: Because then I'm gonna like yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, And

1249
01:00:47,520 --> 01:00:49,360
Speaker 5: that's so cute because I feel like we would do

1250
01:00:49,400 --> 01:00:51,880
Speaker 5: that for our kids too. Yeah, you know, I would

1251
01:00:51,960 --> 01:00:54,680
Speaker 5: totally do that if I mean, obviously she says, like

1252
01:00:54,720 --> 01:00:57,240
Speaker 5: struggling a little bit, so she's like, let me, let

1253
01:00:57,280 --> 01:00:59,440
Speaker 5: me like put put a word in right.

1254
01:00:59,680 --> 01:01:00,000
Speaker 3: Totally.

1255
01:01:00,280 --> 01:01:01,720
Speaker 5: I feel like I would totally do that for my

1256
01:01:01,800 --> 01:01:02,440
Speaker 5: kids too.

1257
01:01:02,720 --> 01:01:05,160
Speaker 6: I love that she did that. By the way, I

1258
01:01:05,200 --> 01:01:07,840
Speaker 6: left the no, no, no, it's funny.

1259
01:01:07,920 --> 01:01:08,640
Speaker 3: It's funny.

1260
01:01:08,840 --> 01:01:09,880
Speaker 1: She told me the story.

1261
01:01:10,040 --> 01:01:12,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's her favorite story to tell right now.

1262
01:01:12,320 --> 01:01:13,800
Speaker 1: It's anecdote that.

1263
01:01:15,560 --> 01:01:18,439
Speaker 3: Part of your part you call part of your lore.

1264
01:01:19,560 --> 01:01:22,120
Speaker 1: And then when when you get married or when you

1265
01:01:22,160 --> 01:01:24,040
Speaker 1: meet the person, she's going to be like, I wrote it.

1266
01:01:24,080 --> 01:01:26,320
Speaker 5: Exactly, take a picture of it, tell her to take

1267
01:01:26,360 --> 01:01:29,280
Speaker 5: a picture of it, and then read it at your wedding.

1268
01:01:29,720 --> 01:01:31,840
Speaker 2: What I do wish, I will do that. I like

1269
01:01:31,880 --> 01:01:32,320
Speaker 2: that idea.

1270
01:01:32,360 --> 01:01:34,400
Speaker 3: And what I do wish is what our parents and

1271
01:01:34,400 --> 01:01:36,240
Speaker 3: our elders would have done for us was create a

1272
01:01:36,280 --> 01:01:39,080
Speaker 3: system of matchmaking like the pictures out you know.

1273
01:01:39,040 --> 01:01:41,880
Speaker 4: That's it's I was just watching something they were saying

1274
01:01:41,920 --> 01:01:45,560
Speaker 4: that that for years and years and years, human humans

1275
01:01:45,720 --> 01:01:49,520
Speaker 4: use certain things to find a partner, and now we

1276
01:01:49,560 --> 01:01:52,200
Speaker 4: don't do that right and look at us and we're

1277
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:54,720
Speaker 4: all kind of just like left floating around. It's great

1278
01:01:54,720 --> 01:01:57,160
Speaker 4: because we're not like tied down to some man because

1279
01:01:57,160 --> 01:02:04,200
Speaker 4: he has three goats and right, right, but you.

1280
01:02:04,080 --> 01:02:04,840
Speaker 6: Know, it's fine.

1281
01:02:04,880 --> 01:02:08,560
Speaker 4: But now we depend on a gut feeling that when

1282
01:02:08,560 --> 01:02:12,480
Speaker 4: we see somebody for the first time, somehow magically we

1283
01:02:12,600 --> 01:02:13,000
Speaker 4: will know.

1284
01:02:13,240 --> 01:02:16,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, my mom tried to set me up with people

1285
01:02:16,120 --> 01:02:18,760
Speaker 5: back in the day, would literally give random guys my number.

1286
01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:20,680
Speaker 5: I love that, and I had to tell her to

1287
01:02:20,680 --> 01:02:27,440
Speaker 5: stop because I'm like that it's dangerous. It's dangerous. And

1288
01:02:27,440 --> 01:02:29,000
Speaker 5: then she would try to set me up with like

1289
01:02:29,080 --> 01:02:32,720
Speaker 5: the weirdest guys. Ever, I'm like, they have zero swag.

1290
01:02:32,920 --> 01:02:34,880
Speaker 5: I want the guy who's like a narcissist who told

1291
01:02:34,880 --> 01:02:35,760
Speaker 5: me he would, you know.

1292
01:02:35,760 --> 01:02:38,200
Speaker 3: What I say, like the hot one want.

1293
01:02:39,720 --> 01:02:42,600
Speaker 5: I want that bad boy that my dad called a punk.

1294
01:02:45,080 --> 01:02:47,840
Speaker 4: I heard somewhere that they were saying that the statement

1295
01:02:47,880 --> 01:02:51,439
Speaker 4: was saying, how like women like men who feel dangerous, but.

1296
01:02:51,400 --> 01:02:54,720
Speaker 3: Not to them, right right right? If I'm not a

1297
01:02:54,720 --> 01:02:56,040
Speaker 3: little bit scared, what's.

1298
01:02:55,880 --> 01:02:57,480
Speaker 4: The point is that I don't know how I mean

1299
01:02:57,520 --> 01:03:01,000
Speaker 4: another woman the point you want a baddie who will

1300
01:03:01,040 --> 01:03:03,400
Speaker 4: fuck anybody up, but not in the alley, but not you.

1301
01:03:03,560 --> 01:03:06,840
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, yeah, yea yeah yeah yeah unless right in

1302
01:03:06,960 --> 01:03:07,480
Speaker 3: the alley.

1303
01:03:08,600 --> 01:03:16,640
Speaker 6: Also right, Like I like dating bad boys for sure.

1304
01:03:18,440 --> 01:03:20,720
Speaker 5: You want a nice bad boy. You don't want a

1305
01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:23,400
Speaker 5: nice boy. You don't want a nice boy who's actually

1306
01:03:23,440 --> 01:03:26,000
Speaker 5: a bad boy. Yeah, I mean there's bad boys that

1307
01:03:26,040 --> 01:03:27,600
Speaker 5: are nice and nice bad.

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Speaker 6: I dated one guy who, like he felt like a

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Speaker 6: bad boy.

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Speaker 4: He looked like a bad boy, but he was like

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Speaker 4: an executive at a really higher place, and I just

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Speaker 4: he we went to we talked about how we went

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Speaker 4: to this restaurant in Beverly Hills and we were both

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Speaker 4: in hoodies. We both didn't give a fuck, Like it

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Speaker 4: was so sexy, like just like, yeah, it was like

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Speaker 4: a little battis hanging out.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I like dream of dating a guy in house arrest. Okay,

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Speaker 3: I just want to hang out. I just want to

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Speaker 3: take an hour one of those things with an ankle bracelet.

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, it's all deep.

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Speaker 6: Yeah that's the sound of my.

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Speaker 3: I love it. Well, I'm going to pray for all

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Speaker 3: of us. Okay, thank pray for all of us.

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Speaker 5: Tell your mom to rise something for us.

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01:04:21,320 --> 01:04:23,880
Speaker 3: I will please put it in there and she will

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01:04:24,640 --> 01:04:26,760
Speaker 3: absolutely no, she's gonna try and set you up with

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Speaker 3: my brother. That's what's gonna happen.

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Speaker 6: That's going to happen.

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Speaker 3: That'd be so dope because insurance works for the county.

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Speaker 3: But it's in Bakersfield.

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Speaker 6: But okay, it's fine.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's only two hours.

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Speaker 5: Are you speaking for me?

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Speaker 3: I actually have started, like you know, now, two goats

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Speaker 3: and some land sounds great, it does, sounds real good.

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Speaker 6: Is that crazy?

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Speaker 5: How it changes where it's like, you know what, I

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Speaker 5: would like to be a housewife and just chill and

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Speaker 5: have my money for myself and everything else is taken

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Speaker 5: care of.

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Speaker 3: When I'm in Bakersfield. I sat my hinge radius to

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Speaker 3: Baker's Field.

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Speaker 5: There's farmers out there, right, and.

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Speaker 3: Like the heirs to like big farming conglomerates like the

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Speaker 3: Tyson Chicken family. Like I know they have a son

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Speaker 3: out there somewhere.

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Speaker 6: Wow, I'll find it.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, molla will that sucky?

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Speaker 3: He has a tractor?

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Speaker 6: Oh.

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Speaker 4: I feel like people who have jobs like that like

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01:05:26,360 --> 01:05:29,120
Speaker 4: sound cool. Like I knew somebody who knew the same.

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Speaker 4: The wife of the guy who owns oh and she

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Speaker 4: was like a man. I asked, all like seafood. She

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Speaker 4: hated seafood because that's all her man to eat. Seafood

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Speaker 4: sounds like enjoy your chickens.

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Speaker 3: I guess the enjoy your life? Yeah, did you get

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Speaker 3: a free supply?

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Speaker 5: Joy?

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Speaker 6: I love my chicken. You can have chicken potato chickens

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Speaker 6: you can have.

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Speaker 8: And you just have like chicken cut, chicken, chicken salad,

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01:06:07,720 --> 01:06:11,280
Speaker 8: chicken pie, chicken nugget, chicken pop pie.

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Speaker 6: Chicken soup. You can do so.

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Speaker 3: Remember the movie Chicken Run I love.

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Speaker 5: Did you see the second one? The second one is

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Speaker 5: on Netflix. I'm scared to watch because I'm like, I

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Speaker 5: don't want to be bad.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Well, on that note, this has been a whirlwind. I

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Speaker 3: need to take a nap, but I'm gonna dream happy.

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Speaker 6: Yeah. Yeah, thank you for having me to come play

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01:06:41,520 --> 01:06:42,080
Speaker 6: on ours.

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Speaker 5: Please, yes, and hopefully.

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Speaker 6: You won't get in any trouble. This episode the one

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Speaker 6: where you come and talk to us on our.

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Speaker 1: No, it'll be on your feet, it'll be YEA love

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Speaker 1: you guys, Yeah, we love y'all. Well, this has been

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Speaker 1: another episode of Look I Thought a radio. Thank you

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Speaker 1: for tuning and we hope you loved it. This was

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Speaker 1: a fun one to almost wrap up the season and

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Speaker 1: we'll catch you next time.

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Speaker 2: Bess Loka Radio, a radio phonic novela, is executive produced

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Speaker 2: and hosted by Me Mala Munos and Viosa Fem.

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Speaker 1: Story editing by Me Fiosa.

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01:07:18,080 --> 01:07:19,720
Speaker 2: Audio editing by Stephanie Franco.

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01:07:22,240 --> 01:07:37,880
Speaker 1: your support. Besifos Radio, a radio phonic.

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Speaker 3: Novela hosted by Mala Munos.

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01:08:25,520 --> 01:08:26,799
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