1 00:00:01,120 --> 00:00:04,280 Speaker 1: Welcome to season two of the Good Stuff. I'm Ashley Shick, 2 00:00:04,320 --> 00:00:06,800 Speaker 1: and I'm joined by my husband and co hosts Jacob Shick, 3 00:00:06,920 --> 00:00:10,840 Speaker 1: a third generation combat marine and CEO of One Tribe Foundation. 4 00:00:11,119 --> 00:00:14,160 Speaker 2: Ashley also comes from a family rich in military history, 5 00:00:14,200 --> 00:00:17,520 Speaker 2: and we've dedicated our lives to One Tribe's mission, serving veterans, 6 00:00:17,560 --> 00:00:21,160 Speaker 2: first responders, and their families. We're coming to you from Dallas, 7 00:00:21,160 --> 00:00:21,880 Speaker 2: so welcome. 8 00:00:21,640 --> 00:00:24,720 Speaker 1: To Texas and joining us all season long from Los Angeles, 9 00:00:24,720 --> 00:00:28,000 Speaker 1: California is our West Coast long haired friend and producer 10 00:00:28,040 --> 00:00:30,360 Speaker 1: of the Good Stuff, Nick Cassolini. 11 00:00:29,920 --> 00:00:33,000 Speaker 3: And it is so good to be here. This episode 12 00:00:33,040 --> 00:00:35,440 Speaker 3: is kind of a throwback to season one. Today we 13 00:00:35,520 --> 00:00:37,800 Speaker 3: focus on a single guest and his story. 14 00:00:38,159 --> 00:00:41,400 Speaker 1: That guest is Cody Turner, a Purple Heart recipient, a 15 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:44,720 Speaker 1: dad of four boys, an avid runner, and a dear friend. 16 00:00:44,920 --> 00:00:47,199 Speaker 2: Cody is joining us today at a vulnerable time in 17 00:00:47,280 --> 00:00:49,879 Speaker 2: his story. The very act of his being on the 18 00:00:49,960 --> 00:00:52,320 Speaker 2: show right now is the epitome of courage. 19 00:00:52,640 --> 00:00:55,000 Speaker 3: Just a quick heads up, this show can explore some 20 00:00:55,040 --> 00:00:58,600 Speaker 3: heavy subject matter, including talks of suicide, so listener discretion 21 00:00:58,840 --> 00:00:59,440 Speaker 3: is advised. 22 00:01:00,200 --> 00:01:01,680 Speaker 1: Be happier you're here again. 23 00:01:02,000 --> 00:01:04,880 Speaker 2: Welcome to the good stuff. 24 00:01:09,520 --> 00:01:12,280 Speaker 3: So I'm kind of gonna ask you some questions about yourself, absolutely, 25 00:01:12,280 --> 00:01:15,160 Speaker 3: and and we'll just see how this unfolds. And I 26 00:01:15,200 --> 00:01:18,480 Speaker 3: don't have like a huge agenda with this thing. Okay, yeah, this, 27 00:01:18,760 --> 00:01:20,319 Speaker 3: would you mind just check check check for me? 28 00:01:20,560 --> 00:01:21,280 Speaker 4: Check check check. 29 00:01:21,360 --> 00:01:23,840 Speaker 3: Okay, it's really nothing to it, but to do it. Yeah, 30 00:01:23,920 --> 00:01:30,800 Speaker 3: let's just start. Would you mind telling us what your 31 00:01:30,880 --> 00:01:31,240 Speaker 3: name is? 32 00:01:31,600 --> 00:01:32,640 Speaker 4: My name's Cody Turner. 33 00:01:32,760 --> 00:01:33,640 Speaker 3: Where did you grow up? 34 00:01:34,120 --> 00:01:34,280 Speaker 4: So? 35 00:01:34,440 --> 00:01:36,880 Speaker 5: I grew up in I'd say the south side of 36 00:01:36,920 --> 00:01:39,120 Speaker 5: Fort Worth, the Riverside. 37 00:01:38,600 --> 00:01:40,880 Speaker 4: Area, which is where we are now see pretty much. 38 00:01:40,959 --> 00:01:44,120 Speaker 5: Yeah, my home that I grew up in is probably 39 00:01:44,720 --> 00:01:45,920 Speaker 5: three to four miles from here. 40 00:01:45,920 --> 00:01:46,680 Speaker 3: Oh that's amazing. 41 00:01:46,760 --> 00:01:48,160 Speaker 4: Yeah, so it's close. 42 00:01:48,440 --> 00:01:50,920 Speaker 3: Would you tell us a little bit about your military service. 43 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:51,680 Speaker 4: Yeah. 44 00:01:51,720 --> 00:01:54,760 Speaker 5: So whenever I got out of high school, I worked 45 00:01:54,760 --> 00:01:57,000 Speaker 5: for a company just kind of did the thing, you know, 46 00:01:57,040 --> 00:01:59,080 Speaker 5: and I was kind of getting in trouble and things 47 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:02,600 Speaker 5: of that nature and really didn't have a clear path direction. 48 00:02:02,360 --> 00:02:05,160 Speaker 4: On where I was heading in life. 49 00:02:05,320 --> 00:02:09,360 Speaker 5: And you know, I had talked to a few instrumental 50 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:13,040 Speaker 5: people in my life, you know, not all by my choice. 51 00:02:14,120 --> 00:02:16,560 Speaker 5: Who are the people that would be maybe a few 52 00:02:16,639 --> 00:02:19,680 Speaker 5: judges or whatnot, you know, saying hey, you know, what's 53 00:02:19,680 --> 00:02:21,799 Speaker 5: your plan for your life? And what it really got 54 00:02:21,840 --> 00:02:24,440 Speaker 5: me thinking, you know, what what I was going to do. 55 00:02:24,680 --> 00:02:27,560 Speaker 5: And I just kind of felt stagnant at the time 56 00:02:27,600 --> 00:02:29,280 Speaker 5: in my life, and I decided, Hey, you know, I'm 57 00:02:29,280 --> 00:02:31,760 Speaker 5: going to join the military. And I just went down 58 00:02:31,800 --> 00:02:33,919 Speaker 5: to her recruiter's office I believe it is over off 59 00:02:34,000 --> 00:02:36,519 Speaker 5: in Halsham City, and I was like, just I want 60 00:02:36,520 --> 00:02:38,400 Speaker 5: to do something that's one of the hardest things in 61 00:02:38,440 --> 00:02:41,600 Speaker 5: the military, and and for me at my time, with 62 00:02:41,680 --> 00:02:46,000 Speaker 5: that knowledge, that was to join the infantry. So I 63 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:50,359 Speaker 5: signed up for the infantry as eleven bravo. In that time, 64 00:02:51,040 --> 00:02:53,720 Speaker 5: you were able to choose where you wanted to go. 65 00:02:54,720 --> 00:02:58,360 Speaker 5: So I chose Korea because I always heard Korea was 66 00:02:58,400 --> 00:03:01,960 Speaker 5: a hard place to golitary career. Lo and behold, I 67 00:03:01,960 --> 00:03:05,920 Speaker 5: got Korea and you kind of go through like a 68 00:03:05,960 --> 00:03:08,320 Speaker 5: filtering process and they kind of tell you where you're 69 00:03:08,360 --> 00:03:11,040 Speaker 5: going to go, what unit and everything. I ended up 70 00:03:11,080 --> 00:03:14,239 Speaker 5: in a unit called Tango Security Force and what that 71 00:03:14,360 --> 00:03:18,079 Speaker 5: stands for. The acronym is Tactical Air Naval Ground Operations 72 00:03:18,120 --> 00:03:20,639 Speaker 5: And you know, to dumb it down, what we did 73 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:24,600 Speaker 5: was we guarded a tunnel. If Korea was North Korea 74 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:26,679 Speaker 5: was to attack, all the generals would fly in there 75 00:03:26,960 --> 00:03:29,320 Speaker 5: and do their thing, lo and behold. It was one 76 00:03:29,320 --> 00:03:33,280 Speaker 5: of the easiest jobs that you could get in Korea. 77 00:03:33,919 --> 00:03:35,520 Speaker 5: So it kind of backfired on me there. 78 00:03:36,280 --> 00:03:38,800 Speaker 3: What do you think, why were you specifically going after 79 00:03:38,840 --> 00:03:41,000 Speaker 3: something as difficult as it could potentially be. 80 00:03:41,400 --> 00:03:44,920 Speaker 5: You know, I just always wanted to challenge myself. I 81 00:03:45,040 --> 00:03:48,600 Speaker 5: kind of had that mentality, you know, from a young 82 00:03:48,640 --> 00:03:52,400 Speaker 5: man growing up. I just felt the need to do 83 00:03:52,480 --> 00:03:55,080 Speaker 5: something difficult, you know, I just wanted to challenge as 84 00:03:55,080 --> 00:03:56,920 Speaker 5: simple as that. Yeah, as simple as that. 85 00:03:57,040 --> 00:03:59,800 Speaker 3: Are you comfortable talking a little bit more specifically about 86 00:03:59,800 --> 00:04:01,800 Speaker 3: the things that got you in front of those judges? 87 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:05,600 Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean time is kind of lapsed, you know, 88 00:04:05,720 --> 00:04:08,560 Speaker 5: from there as far as like dates and stuff like that. 89 00:04:08,680 --> 00:04:12,000 Speaker 5: But you know, I grew up working hard, and at 90 00:04:12,040 --> 00:04:15,120 Speaker 5: a young age I worked hard. You know, I did roofing, 91 00:04:15,280 --> 00:04:17,920 Speaker 5: you know, at fourteen, and just kind of worked up 92 00:04:17,920 --> 00:04:21,880 Speaker 5: through that. But along with that, outside of that hard work, 93 00:04:21,920 --> 00:04:24,680 Speaker 5: construction work, there's a lot of drinking that took place. 94 00:04:25,880 --> 00:04:28,720 Speaker 5: So I found myself drinking a lot at a young age, 95 00:04:29,200 --> 00:04:31,840 Speaker 5: and that kind of continued. You know, I ran into 96 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:36,520 Speaker 5: multiple you know, minor possessions, public intoxications, things of that nature. 97 00:04:37,000 --> 00:04:39,400 Speaker 5: So that's kind of how I was going, how I was. 98 00:04:39,880 --> 00:04:42,800 Speaker 5: I was tracking in that in that trend to you know, 99 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:46,640 Speaker 5: with alcohol, you know, it was just as a bad thing, 100 00:04:46,880 --> 00:04:49,440 Speaker 5: and at the time it felt like a great thing, 101 00:04:49,520 --> 00:04:53,520 Speaker 5: you know. So I joined the military, right and like 102 00:04:53,600 --> 00:04:54,839 Speaker 5: that was going to change things. 103 00:04:54,920 --> 00:04:57,000 Speaker 3: Did you think, did you have this sense of like 104 00:04:57,520 --> 00:04:59,920 Speaker 3: alcohol is a part of the problem, yet. 105 00:05:00,320 --> 00:05:03,800 Speaker 5: Not at all, Not at all. I didn't think it 106 00:05:03,880 --> 00:05:06,599 Speaker 5: was a problem whatsoever. I felt like I was just 107 00:05:07,200 --> 00:05:09,440 Speaker 5: in the wrong place at the wrong time at that 108 00:05:09,520 --> 00:05:11,640 Speaker 5: time of my life, you know, I would say. And 109 00:05:11,800 --> 00:05:14,919 Speaker 5: I wasn't in Korea three days, man, and I found 110 00:05:14,920 --> 00:05:17,280 Speaker 5: myself sitting on the side of a curb in Soul, 111 00:05:17,360 --> 00:05:21,400 Speaker 5: Korea with a busted up head where I got hit 112 00:05:21,440 --> 00:05:24,279 Speaker 5: with a whiskey bottle and ended up having to go 113 00:05:24,320 --> 00:05:27,240 Speaker 5: get stitches. I was there less than a week and 114 00:05:27,279 --> 00:05:31,040 Speaker 5: that was all alcohol induced. So joining the military, you know, 115 00:05:31,240 --> 00:05:34,560 Speaker 5: I just didn't solve any problems to do with my drinking. 116 00:05:34,839 --> 00:05:36,840 Speaker 5: I didn't know I had a problem at that time. 117 00:05:37,120 --> 00:05:38,760 Speaker 5: It took a long time for me to realize I 118 00:05:38,760 --> 00:05:41,520 Speaker 5: did have a problem, you know, and it just kind 119 00:05:41,520 --> 00:05:43,640 Speaker 5: of I won't say it escalated from there, you know, 120 00:05:43,680 --> 00:05:46,359 Speaker 5: it just you know, I didn't stop anything because of 121 00:05:46,400 --> 00:05:47,000 Speaker 5: that incident. 122 00:05:47,120 --> 00:05:49,640 Speaker 4: You know, I just learned to surround. 123 00:05:49,200 --> 00:05:51,880 Speaker 5: Myself with people that I can make it back to 124 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:52,360 Speaker 5: base with. 125 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:53,120 Speaker 4: You know what I mean. 126 00:05:54,120 --> 00:05:56,680 Speaker 3: That was your safety, that that was my safety. Was 127 00:05:56,800 --> 00:05:59,760 Speaker 3: absolutely relying on someone to put you on their shoulder 128 00:05:59,760 --> 00:06:01,040 Speaker 3: and get you back to bed. 129 00:06:01,240 --> 00:06:03,080 Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, pretty much that's what we did. 130 00:06:03,520 --> 00:06:05,720 Speaker 3: So what year was that? What year did you enlist? 131 00:06:06,160 --> 00:06:10,080 Speaker 5: So when I was home on leave from basic training 132 00:06:10,279 --> 00:06:13,520 Speaker 5: before I deployed to Korea, whenever I was home on leave, 133 00:06:13,560 --> 00:06:17,640 Speaker 5: that's when nine to eleven happened. Wow, So it was 134 00:06:17,680 --> 00:06:19,960 Speaker 5: that time timeframe that I joined. 135 00:06:20,120 --> 00:06:22,440 Speaker 3: And did you deploy to the Middle East or did 136 00:06:22,480 --> 00:06:23,240 Speaker 3: you stay in Korea? 137 00:06:23,520 --> 00:06:25,560 Speaker 5: No, I stayed in Korea. I stayed in Korea. 138 00:06:25,800 --> 00:06:26,240 Speaker 4: I did not. 139 00:06:26,480 --> 00:06:30,120 Speaker 5: I didn't deploy until later in my military career because 140 00:06:30,120 --> 00:06:33,200 Speaker 5: once I left Korea, I went to Fort Hood. Fort 141 00:06:33,200 --> 00:06:35,599 Speaker 5: Hood is where I stayed the rest of my time 142 00:06:35,600 --> 00:06:39,119 Speaker 5: of service. I signed for three years. I was stop 143 00:06:39,200 --> 00:06:43,200 Speaker 5: lost to go to Iraq, and so that's when I 144 00:06:43,279 --> 00:06:44,720 Speaker 5: deployed Diract. 145 00:06:44,440 --> 00:06:48,000 Speaker 3: Comfortable talking a bit, a little bit about your time there. Yeah, yeah, 146 00:06:48,279 --> 00:06:50,559 Speaker 3: I'd love to hear whatever you feel good sharing. 147 00:06:50,720 --> 00:06:51,320 Speaker 4: Absolutely. 148 00:06:51,520 --> 00:06:56,040 Speaker 5: You know, we deployed Diract, we flew into Kuwait, and 149 00:06:56,080 --> 00:06:58,120 Speaker 5: then from Kuwait, you know, we did kind of got 150 00:06:58,120 --> 00:07:00,800 Speaker 5: everything ready from there, and then there was our unit 151 00:07:00,880 --> 00:07:04,880 Speaker 5: was tasked to travel via convoy or take I believe 152 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:08,359 Speaker 5: black hawks into actual Baghdad. I was picked to beyond 153 00:07:08,480 --> 00:07:11,760 Speaker 5: the transport team to pull security for the convoy and 154 00:07:11,800 --> 00:07:14,920 Speaker 5: things of that nature. So we rolled into Baghdad that way, 155 00:07:14,960 --> 00:07:17,960 Speaker 5: and what I remember is just getting to our fob. 156 00:07:18,560 --> 00:07:21,240 Speaker 5: We were stationed at Fob Headhunter there in Baghdad, and 157 00:07:21,960 --> 00:07:23,840 Speaker 5: I just remember getting there and just it was I 158 00:07:23,840 --> 00:07:26,400 Speaker 5: think it was at night and they had some like 159 00:07:26,480 --> 00:07:30,800 Speaker 5: tents out, and you know, we didn't really know what 160 00:07:30,840 --> 00:07:33,320 Speaker 5: to expect at that time, and I just remember they're like, 161 00:07:33,320 --> 00:07:35,840 Speaker 5: all right, y'are going in the tents, and I was like, 162 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:39,120 Speaker 5: in the tents, you know what I mean, Like there's 163 00:07:39,200 --> 00:07:40,960 Speaker 5: buildings here, you know what I mean. But we were 164 00:07:40,960 --> 00:07:45,600 Speaker 5: relieving another unit, and I stinctly remember, you know, like 165 00:07:45,640 --> 00:07:47,640 Speaker 5: an order, you know, hearing the sounds of orders being 166 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:50,600 Speaker 5: fired off and whizzing in and and that was like 167 00:07:52,000 --> 00:07:55,120 Speaker 5: day one in Baghdad. I was like eye opening experience, 168 00:07:55,240 --> 00:07:57,240 Speaker 5: like this is real, you know. When I spent my 169 00:07:57,280 --> 00:07:59,960 Speaker 5: time there, you know, we went on you know, just 170 00:08:00,080 --> 00:08:04,440 Speaker 5: presence controls, uh, gate guard, different different missions that we 171 00:08:04,440 --> 00:08:09,120 Speaker 5: were at tasked to do. And it wasn't until you know, 172 00:08:09,280 --> 00:08:11,200 Speaker 5: and we just did the you know the war. 173 00:08:11,080 --> 00:08:12,200 Speaker 4: Games, the war things. 174 00:08:12,280 --> 00:08:15,560 Speaker 5: Right, seen a lot of a lot of wild stuff 175 00:08:15,600 --> 00:08:18,000 Speaker 5: and was involved in a lot of it. I want 176 00:08:18,040 --> 00:08:20,800 Speaker 5: to say about six months in where they drew some 177 00:08:20,840 --> 00:08:22,920 Speaker 5: hats out of a or some names out of a 178 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:26,640 Speaker 5: hat or whatnot to go home on leave prior to deploying. 179 00:08:26,840 --> 00:08:28,480 Speaker 4: Yeah, I knew I was deploying. 180 00:08:28,960 --> 00:08:31,280 Speaker 5: We would come to Fort Worth to party, right because 181 00:08:31,680 --> 00:08:35,360 Speaker 5: I stationed at Fort Hood and you know, out doing 182 00:08:35,400 --> 00:08:37,120 Speaker 5: what we do at the bars. 183 00:08:36,800 --> 00:08:38,280 Speaker 4: And I chased this one. 184 00:08:38,160 --> 00:08:41,679 Speaker 5: Old gal down and uh and you know, all my 185 00:08:41,720 --> 00:08:43,080 Speaker 5: intentions were on one thing. 186 00:08:43,400 --> 00:08:43,600 Speaker 4: Uh. 187 00:08:43,640 --> 00:08:47,200 Speaker 5: Those those intentions didn't didn't bear true. But little did 188 00:08:47,240 --> 00:08:49,800 Speaker 5: I know that was my wife. Wow, you know she 189 00:08:50,320 --> 00:08:52,440 Speaker 5: questioned me about you know who I was, you know 190 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:55,240 Speaker 5: all that stuff. Well I totally lied to her and 191 00:08:55,280 --> 00:08:58,160 Speaker 5: said I was a cop for Worth. Yeah, and I 192 00:08:58,240 --> 00:09:01,680 Speaker 5: played that very well, very well. And I never even 193 00:09:01,720 --> 00:09:02,920 Speaker 5: told her that I was deploying. 194 00:09:03,720 --> 00:09:04,520 Speaker 4: But whenever I was. 195 00:09:04,520 --> 00:09:07,440 Speaker 5: In Kuwait, one of my good buddies said, brother, you 196 00:09:07,480 --> 00:09:09,559 Speaker 5: better call her and let her know, you know, spill 197 00:09:09,600 --> 00:09:12,520 Speaker 5: the beans if you really like her that much. And 198 00:09:12,559 --> 00:09:20,040 Speaker 5: so I did, and she took it well. And man, 199 00:09:20,080 --> 00:09:23,520 Speaker 5: from that point forward, she wrote me letters. When we 200 00:09:23,559 --> 00:09:26,920 Speaker 5: got to make phone calls, I'd call her. And then 201 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:29,040 Speaker 5: fast forward to that six month mark, I'd get to 202 00:09:29,040 --> 00:09:29,560 Speaker 5: go home. 203 00:09:29,880 --> 00:09:32,920 Speaker 3: Yeah, and your name got pulled from the hat. 204 00:09:32,760 --> 00:09:35,120 Speaker 5: Got pulled from the hat. And so I find myself 205 00:09:35,160 --> 00:09:38,200 Speaker 5: on her on her doorstep. I think I was home 206 00:09:38,240 --> 00:09:41,160 Speaker 5: for I can't remember if it was two weeks or 207 00:09:41,200 --> 00:09:45,600 Speaker 5: thirty days or whatnot, but during that time period I proposed. 208 00:09:45,160 --> 00:09:49,720 Speaker 4: Her, Wow, yep, and how old are you, oh, man? 209 00:09:49,760 --> 00:09:52,120 Speaker 4: I was. 210 00:09:52,120 --> 00:09:55,160 Speaker 5: Was I twenty maybe somewhere in that area? Wow, maybe 211 00:09:55,200 --> 00:09:55,680 Speaker 5: twenty one? 212 00:09:55,800 --> 00:09:56,319 Speaker 4: Yeah? 213 00:09:56,440 --> 00:09:59,560 Speaker 5: And then she said yes, So now I'm going back 214 00:09:59,600 --> 00:10:03,000 Speaker 5: to Iraq. So I get deployed back Iraq, get back 215 00:10:03,000 --> 00:10:08,400 Speaker 5: in country. My first mission, like real mission from getting back, 216 00:10:08,559 --> 00:10:11,760 Speaker 5: was just a simple presence patrol in the morning. And 217 00:10:13,920 --> 00:10:16,120 Speaker 5: so we're going through and we were just a small 218 00:10:16,120 --> 00:10:18,400 Speaker 5: group of us were down there. I can't really remember 219 00:10:18,400 --> 00:10:23,439 Speaker 5: how many. But our observation posts, you know, the guys 220 00:10:23,480 --> 00:10:25,680 Speaker 5: sitting up watching all your movements and stuff, they didn't 221 00:10:25,679 --> 00:10:27,960 Speaker 5: really have good eyes on us. And I distinctly remember 222 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:30,640 Speaker 5: the lieutenant. We were knocking on the door and people 223 00:10:30,640 --> 00:10:32,920 Speaker 5: were wrapping up wanting. 224 00:10:32,720 --> 00:10:33,280 Speaker 4: To go to lunch. 225 00:10:33,320 --> 00:10:35,000 Speaker 5: It was in the morning time, so I knew, you know, 226 00:10:35,679 --> 00:10:38,320 Speaker 5: I've been through this before, and I was like, you know, 227 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:39,840 Speaker 5: we need to get out of here. We're not in 228 00:10:39,840 --> 00:10:44,560 Speaker 5: a good spot. We don't have very good overwatch QR 229 00:10:44,600 --> 00:10:47,080 Speaker 5: if it's X minutes out. And it was just moments 230 00:10:47,120 --> 00:10:52,199 Speaker 5: after that that hell broke loose and so we were 231 00:10:52,200 --> 00:10:56,760 Speaker 5: engaged by you know, small arms, fire, grenades, everything of 232 00:10:56,800 --> 00:10:59,800 Speaker 5: that nature. One of our guys was pinned down pretty 233 00:10:59,800 --> 00:11:02,360 Speaker 5: good it and we had called q r F to 234 00:11:02,400 --> 00:11:05,480 Speaker 5: collapse to come get us, and I remember, you know, 235 00:11:05,480 --> 00:11:07,760 Speaker 5: a humby pulling up and we're and these guys are 236 00:11:07,760 --> 00:11:10,320 Speaker 5: being pulled back and I'm helping load the wounded in 237 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:13,120 Speaker 5: the back of a humbee when a grenade was hurled 238 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:18,080 Speaker 5: into very close proximity of that, uh humphy. So I 239 00:11:18,160 --> 00:11:21,160 Speaker 5: just remember just kind of coming to making sure I 240 00:11:21,200 --> 00:11:23,360 Speaker 5: had all my stuff at that time. 241 00:11:23,400 --> 00:11:25,080 Speaker 4: I realized I was wounded. 242 00:11:25,640 --> 00:11:29,240 Speaker 5: Yeah, I stepped off into a nearby building to to 243 00:11:29,280 --> 00:11:30,640 Speaker 5: see what was going on. 244 00:11:31,600 --> 00:11:33,800 Speaker 3: I do want to let the listeners know that when 245 00:11:33,800 --> 00:11:36,160 Speaker 3: you said check to see if you had all your stuff, 246 00:11:36,240 --> 00:11:37,440 Speaker 3: you pointed to your head. 247 00:11:37,800 --> 00:11:39,440 Speaker 4: Yes, my head. 248 00:11:39,559 --> 00:11:41,160 Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I have. 249 00:11:41,200 --> 00:11:43,040 Speaker 4: My kevlar and I had my weapon. 250 00:11:43,360 --> 00:11:45,439 Speaker 5: Uh, you know, that was the main thing I was 251 00:11:45,480 --> 00:11:47,720 Speaker 5: making sure I had my kevlar. My weapon was number one, 252 00:11:47,800 --> 00:11:51,520 Speaker 5: right and that way I had a source of uh 253 00:11:51,960 --> 00:11:55,520 Speaker 5: protect fire. And so I stepped off in there and 254 00:11:55,559 --> 00:11:58,880 Speaker 5: I realized, you know, I'm pretty had a pretty good 255 00:11:58,920 --> 00:12:02,680 Speaker 5: wound to my left arm. You know, my whole body 256 00:12:02,720 --> 00:12:05,800 Speaker 5: was riddled with trapnel. So I apply a first aid 257 00:12:06,480 --> 00:12:08,840 Speaker 5: on my arm, and I step back out into the 258 00:12:08,880 --> 00:12:12,679 Speaker 5: fight and we fight until QRF gets there, and then 259 00:12:12,679 --> 00:12:14,959 Speaker 5: we load up and then we roll at that point 260 00:12:15,040 --> 00:12:16,760 Speaker 5: and we just get out of dodge and head to 261 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:17,320 Speaker 5: the hospital. 262 00:12:17,360 --> 00:12:18,960 Speaker 3: At that point. Did everyone make it? 263 00:12:19,240 --> 00:12:21,439 Speaker 4: Everybody made it out of that? Yeah. 264 00:12:21,600 --> 00:12:24,440 Speaker 5: We had some people that were a lot worse off 265 00:12:24,440 --> 00:12:26,560 Speaker 5: than I was, to say the least. 266 00:12:28,120 --> 00:12:30,160 Speaker 4: Long story short, I. 267 00:12:30,080 --> 00:12:32,680 Speaker 5: Was in country a very short period of time before 268 00:12:32,720 --> 00:12:35,880 Speaker 5: I was reintroduced back to my fiance. You know, I 269 00:12:35,920 --> 00:12:37,880 Speaker 5: figured it was going to be another six months or 270 00:12:37,920 --> 00:12:41,800 Speaker 5: so before getting back, and and. 271 00:12:42,080 --> 00:12:45,240 Speaker 3: It sounds like you got that dose dose of difficulty 272 00:12:45,360 --> 00:12:46,559 Speaker 3: you were asking for. 273 00:12:46,880 --> 00:12:49,120 Speaker 4: I did, I did? I did. 274 00:12:49,200 --> 00:12:54,480 Speaker 5: I just wish that, you know, at that time that 275 00:12:54,840 --> 00:12:58,800 Speaker 5: I was able to go back. But with the way 276 00:12:59,280 --> 00:13:01,600 Speaker 5: that how far we were in the deployment and the 277 00:13:01,679 --> 00:13:03,920 Speaker 5: nature of you know, getting held up and all that stuff, 278 00:13:03,960 --> 00:13:06,520 Speaker 5: I wasn't granted access to go back to Iraq. So 279 00:13:06,760 --> 00:13:09,079 Speaker 5: the boys were coming in and so at that point 280 00:13:09,120 --> 00:13:11,920 Speaker 5: I decided that, you know, it was time for me 281 00:13:11,960 --> 00:13:12,400 Speaker 5: to get out. 282 00:13:12,720 --> 00:13:14,400 Speaker 4: Yeah, so that's what I did. 283 00:13:17,120 --> 00:13:19,240 Speaker 3: We have to fit in a quick commercial break, but 284 00:13:19,360 --> 00:13:29,600 Speaker 3: stick around and we'll be right back with Cody. All right, 285 00:13:29,679 --> 00:13:35,240 Speaker 3: let's pick right back up with Cody. Here we go. Okay, 286 00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:39,480 Speaker 3: so your fiance is Angie. Yes, why did you lie 287 00:13:39,559 --> 00:13:42,120 Speaker 3: to her? I mean, I'm sort of making up my 288 00:13:42,200 --> 00:13:44,360 Speaker 3: own narrative of why you did, but I actually like 289 00:13:44,400 --> 00:13:46,800 Speaker 3: to hear it from from you, Like why not tell 290 00:13:46,800 --> 00:13:48,160 Speaker 3: her what you were doing? 291 00:13:48,400 --> 00:13:52,400 Speaker 5: You know, just because I think I did that because 292 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:55,960 Speaker 5: of the because I really liked her, and anybody knowing 293 00:13:55,960 --> 00:13:58,480 Speaker 5: me growing up, you know, I was not one of 294 00:13:58,480 --> 00:14:02,760 Speaker 5: those guys that had long term reallylationships, and there's some 295 00:14:02,800 --> 00:14:06,720 Speaker 5: stigma wrapped around you know, military guys, and I didn't 296 00:14:06,720 --> 00:14:11,600 Speaker 5: want that to scare her away per se, So I 297 00:14:11,640 --> 00:14:15,440 Speaker 5: thought lying was a better option. Yeah, so that I 298 00:14:15,480 --> 00:14:18,920 Speaker 5: believe that was my basis of lying to her about 299 00:14:19,360 --> 00:14:20,160 Speaker 5: who I really was. 300 00:14:20,320 --> 00:14:23,680 Speaker 3: Yeah, And it sounds like when you told her the truth, 301 00:14:24,040 --> 00:14:26,880 Speaker 3: a part of that was explaining yourself explaining the lie. 302 00:14:26,920 --> 00:14:31,200 Speaker 3: So she obviously had sympathy empathy for you like that. 303 00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:33,920 Speaker 3: That made sense to her and she was willing to 304 00:14:33,920 --> 00:14:37,680 Speaker 3: look past it. Basically, probably learned something about you by 305 00:14:37,840 --> 00:14:39,000 Speaker 3: understanding why you lied. 306 00:14:39,280 --> 00:14:41,320 Speaker 5: Correct, Yeah, correct, Yeah, I think that was a lot 307 00:14:41,400 --> 00:14:43,440 Speaker 5: to it because when I did, I do remember, you know, 308 00:14:43,520 --> 00:14:45,640 Speaker 5: telling her the reasons behind it. You know, my whole 309 00:14:45,680 --> 00:14:48,440 Speaker 5: thought process, you know, wrong, right and indifferent. That was 310 00:14:48,640 --> 00:14:51,560 Speaker 5: my thought process wrapped around situation. 311 00:14:52,040 --> 00:14:55,320 Speaker 3: So there was rather quick time in Iraq. But I 312 00:14:55,080 --> 00:14:58,360 Speaker 3: was drinking still a part of that. Were you drinking 313 00:14:58,360 --> 00:14:58,880 Speaker 3: over there? 314 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:02,560 Speaker 5: Well you weren't supposed to be drinking over there, but 315 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:08,000 Speaker 5: you know, where there's a we will find ways put 316 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:12,640 Speaker 5: it that way, right, you'll figure something. Yeah, we have 317 00:15:12,760 --> 00:15:17,400 Speaker 5: interpreters and we kept it to a to a very minimum, 318 00:15:17,480 --> 00:15:19,960 Speaker 5: you know, but there to say there was no drinking, 319 00:15:20,040 --> 00:15:22,080 Speaker 5: it would be a pretty good lie. 320 00:15:22,200 --> 00:15:24,880 Speaker 3: So when you came back, did you pick right back up? 321 00:15:25,080 --> 00:15:28,240 Speaker 4: I picked right back up. Yeah. Yeah. 322 00:15:28,480 --> 00:15:30,400 Speaker 5: When I got back and I got healed up, I 323 00:15:30,440 --> 00:15:33,520 Speaker 5: was granted access to to room with somebody off post. 324 00:15:34,120 --> 00:15:36,000 Speaker 5: So I teamed up with a couple of guys that 325 00:15:36,480 --> 00:15:39,560 Speaker 5: had been injured, and we're back, and so we had 326 00:15:39,560 --> 00:15:43,480 Speaker 5: a little apartment and and we just pretty much drank. Man, 327 00:15:43,600 --> 00:15:45,440 Speaker 5: we drank a lot, and then we did just a 328 00:15:45,480 --> 00:15:47,720 Speaker 5: little bit of stuff that we had to do on ardy. 329 00:15:48,440 --> 00:15:51,520 Speaker 5: I guess that's what we were classified as. But drinking 330 00:15:51,640 --> 00:15:56,480 Speaker 5: was huge, and that it was almost right out the gate. Yeah, 331 00:15:56,520 --> 00:15:58,680 Speaker 5: to be honest with you, even whenever I got back 332 00:15:58,720 --> 00:16:01,160 Speaker 5: and was you know, I when I got back and 333 00:16:01,360 --> 00:16:03,320 Speaker 5: I was able to go on leave for a little bit, 334 00:16:03,560 --> 00:16:05,440 Speaker 5: you know, but that the drinking continued. 335 00:16:06,160 --> 00:16:10,600 Speaker 3: And how is your relationship with Angie progressing really quickly? 336 00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:15,040 Speaker 4: You know we got married pretty quickly. Yeah seven. 337 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:16,880 Speaker 3: How would you describe her? 338 00:16:17,680 --> 00:16:17,880 Speaker 4: Man? 339 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:36,720 Speaker 6: What was she like back then? 340 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:37,600 Speaker 4: She was everything? 341 00:16:37,920 --> 00:16:50,560 Speaker 7: Yeah. 342 00:16:50,640 --> 00:16:52,320 Speaker 5: If we need to take a break, man, no, I'm 343 00:16:52,360 --> 00:16:57,480 Speaker 5: good man. I knew from day one she was gonna. 344 00:16:57,280 --> 00:16:57,760 Speaker 4: Be my wife. 345 00:16:57,880 --> 00:17:03,120 Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, A little bar in Prs and downtown Fort Worth. 346 00:17:03,160 --> 00:17:07,160 Speaker 4: I knew. I knew at that point. 347 00:17:07,400 --> 00:17:20,080 Speaker 5: Yeah, I wish I would have realized how things would 348 00:17:20,080 --> 00:17:24,879 Speaker 5: play out over the years, but you don't, you know 349 00:17:24,880 --> 00:17:29,879 Speaker 5: what I'm saying. So, you know, she was my everything, dude, 350 00:17:30,480 --> 00:17:35,840 Speaker 5: and I think God put us together for a reason 351 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:41,520 Speaker 5: because I drug that woman through some shit. 352 00:17:43,080 --> 00:17:46,000 Speaker 3: Well maybe we should talk about that a little bit. Yeah, So, okay, 353 00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:47,600 Speaker 3: you guys got married pretty quick. 354 00:17:47,640 --> 00:17:51,240 Speaker 5: Got married pretty quick. Didn't realize, you know, during our 355 00:17:51,280 --> 00:17:58,000 Speaker 5: marriage that she was pregnant, right, So she was pregnant, 356 00:17:58,200 --> 00:18:01,080 Speaker 5: and so you know, we got married. We rented a 357 00:18:01,119 --> 00:18:03,840 Speaker 5: little house from her parents. It was actually a big 358 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:05,560 Speaker 5: house on a fish farm. 359 00:18:05,800 --> 00:18:06,000 Speaker 4: You know. 360 00:18:06,080 --> 00:18:07,919 Speaker 5: We just lived there, you know, and we ended up 361 00:18:07,960 --> 00:18:10,440 Speaker 5: having Barrett. You know, life took off from there, man. 362 00:18:10,800 --> 00:18:13,960 Speaker 5: And you know, I worked at the company that I 363 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:16,399 Speaker 5: worked at in high school, cleaning the shop, you know 364 00:18:16,440 --> 00:18:19,080 Speaker 5: what I mean. I just went back to work for them, right, 365 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:21,639 Speaker 5: That's what I knew. Yeah, you know, I just worked 366 00:18:21,680 --> 00:18:23,800 Speaker 5: all the time. You know, I worked a lot of hours. 367 00:18:24,040 --> 00:18:26,040 Speaker 5: I went out of town quite a bit, just whatever 368 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,919 Speaker 5: I had to do to fend, you know, make for 369 00:18:27,960 --> 00:18:31,160 Speaker 5: the family, you know, And I and I treated myself. 370 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:32,560 Speaker 5: I don't know if you want to call it that. 371 00:18:33,320 --> 00:18:37,520 Speaker 5: It kind of drinking after work was, you know, just 372 00:18:37,640 --> 00:18:40,520 Speaker 5: a release for me. It felt like that was something 373 00:18:40,520 --> 00:18:42,520 Speaker 5: I was obligate or not obligated, but I had the 374 00:18:42,600 --> 00:18:45,199 Speaker 5: rights to do for being, you know, because you know 375 00:18:45,520 --> 00:18:47,639 Speaker 5: Angie she worked a little bit but pretty much she. 376 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:48,800 Speaker 4: Has a stay at home mom. 377 00:18:48,960 --> 00:18:52,439 Speaker 5: Yeah, and did. And man, her job was way harder 378 00:18:52,480 --> 00:18:55,200 Speaker 5: than my job. I didn't learn that until years down 379 00:18:55,240 --> 00:18:57,240 Speaker 5: the road. But you know, so, I mean I drank 380 00:18:57,240 --> 00:18:58,840 Speaker 5: a lot, I worked a lot, of drink a lot. 381 00:18:58,960 --> 00:19:03,639 Speaker 5: I was always there from my family, but I was there, 382 00:19:03,680 --> 00:19:06,439 Speaker 5: but I don't know that I was present, and you know, 383 00:19:06,640 --> 00:19:08,719 Speaker 5: from as long as I can remember, I mean, drinking 384 00:19:08,760 --> 00:19:09,920 Speaker 5: was a huge part of my life. 385 00:19:10,040 --> 00:19:10,280 Speaker 4: Yeah. 386 00:19:10,880 --> 00:19:11,680 Speaker 3: Was she drinking too. 387 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:15,000 Speaker 5: She would drink, She would drink, but nothing like like 388 00:19:15,119 --> 00:19:18,040 Speaker 5: I would. You know, mine was an everyday deal. Hers 389 00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:20,400 Speaker 5: was you know, every couple of weeks, or a beer 390 00:19:20,440 --> 00:19:22,560 Speaker 5: after work or something of that nature. 391 00:19:22,760 --> 00:19:24,679 Speaker 4: Nothing nothing like me. 392 00:19:25,280 --> 00:19:27,560 Speaker 3: So, how was fatherhood for you in those first few 393 00:19:27,640 --> 00:19:28,879 Speaker 3: years of working and drinking? 394 00:19:29,240 --> 00:19:30,159 Speaker 4: Man? Fatherhood? 395 00:19:30,240 --> 00:19:32,480 Speaker 5: You know, at that time I could kind of keep 396 00:19:32,480 --> 00:19:36,480 Speaker 5: it at bay, you know, it was it was there. 397 00:19:36,520 --> 00:19:39,400 Speaker 5: But I would like to say it didn't affect my fatherhood, 398 00:19:39,440 --> 00:19:41,800 Speaker 5: but knowing what I know now, it did just because 399 00:19:41,880 --> 00:19:44,440 Speaker 5: you know, I wasn't there a lot present for my 400 00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:47,320 Speaker 5: for my son like I should have been, you know, 401 00:19:47,359 --> 00:19:50,480 Speaker 5: and he you know, at that time, didn't know any difference, right, 402 00:19:50,680 --> 00:19:54,520 Speaker 5: but the late nights, the long nights that she would 403 00:19:54,560 --> 00:19:57,879 Speaker 5: have maybe I would be sleeping or whatnot, and didn't 404 00:19:57,880 --> 00:20:01,159 Speaker 5: have that support for her that you know I should have. Yeah, 405 00:20:01,400 --> 00:20:04,840 Speaker 5: looking back at it now, during the moment, I thought 406 00:20:04,880 --> 00:20:07,000 Speaker 5: I was doing everything the right way. 407 00:20:07,160 --> 00:20:07,920 Speaker 4: Sure, you know what I mean. 408 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:11,280 Speaker 3: Sure. So it sounds like you weren't violent in the house. 409 00:20:11,119 --> 00:20:13,920 Speaker 5: No, no, no, no, yeah, yeah, violence and things of 410 00:20:13,960 --> 00:20:14,480 Speaker 5: that nature. 411 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:16,000 Speaker 4: Physical violence was never. 412 00:20:15,880 --> 00:20:21,879 Speaker 5: An issue ever in my in our lives. Yeah, you know, 413 00:20:21,920 --> 00:20:26,360 Speaker 5: we would bicker things of that nature, but nothing nothing crazy, 414 00:20:26,720 --> 00:20:26,919 Speaker 5: you know. 415 00:20:27,800 --> 00:20:30,199 Speaker 3: In regarding to that, well, I happened to know that 416 00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:34,840 Speaker 3: you're sober. Yeah, so what led up to that? How 417 00:20:34,840 --> 00:20:37,360 Speaker 3: did it? What's that part of the roller coaster ride 418 00:20:37,359 --> 00:20:37,679 Speaker 3: look like? 419 00:20:37,920 --> 00:20:38,280 Speaker 4: Yeah? 420 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:41,080 Speaker 5: So you know my drinking, you know, from there all 421 00:20:41,119 --> 00:20:44,480 Speaker 5: the way up to within say ten years of now, 422 00:20:44,840 --> 00:20:47,879 Speaker 5: was just drinking, you know, just drinking, and then it 423 00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:49,080 Speaker 5: like it turned. 424 00:20:48,760 --> 00:20:49,600 Speaker 4: A little bit, right. 425 00:20:51,800 --> 00:20:55,080 Speaker 5: You know, I had another kid, and you know, I 426 00:20:55,119 --> 00:20:58,480 Speaker 5: got I got a d w I. And several times 427 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:01,240 Speaker 5: before that, you know, I went to jail for public 428 00:21:01,280 --> 00:21:04,280 Speaker 5: intoxication or something of that nature, because hey, I want 429 00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:06,760 Speaker 5: to stop home at a bar or something on the 430 00:21:06,760 --> 00:21:09,879 Speaker 5: way home, and then I find myself in a confrontation 431 00:21:10,040 --> 00:21:12,120 Speaker 5: or something at the bar, and then you know, get 432 00:21:12,160 --> 00:21:16,119 Speaker 5: hauled off because I'm publicly drunk. And Angie was maybe 433 00:21:16,160 --> 00:21:18,000 Speaker 5: the first time she got me out of jail. She 434 00:21:18,160 --> 00:21:22,560 Speaker 5: was not She didn't bring the kids right, but I 435 00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,800 Speaker 5: distinctly remember, you know, her picking me up from that 436 00:21:24,840 --> 00:21:29,600 Speaker 5: first dw I, and she brought the kids right, like, hey, 437 00:21:29,640 --> 00:21:32,479 Speaker 5: this is this is the deal, you know, And I 438 00:21:32,520 --> 00:21:37,280 Speaker 5: remember just just feeling so helpless on that ride home, 439 00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:41,359 Speaker 5: you know, like I let my family down, I let 440 00:21:41,440 --> 00:21:44,919 Speaker 5: my work down, I let everybody down around me. And 441 00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:48,760 Speaker 5: one would think that would turn your life around, right, 442 00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:51,920 Speaker 5: But you know, alcohol is a rear, it's evil head. 443 00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:55,200 Speaker 5: And rock bottoms can be slippery, they can be slippery, 444 00:21:55,280 --> 00:21:58,320 Speaker 5: and there's always a lower one, yeah, And so I'd 445 00:21:58,320 --> 00:22:00,040 Speaker 5: clean it up for a little bit and then I 446 00:22:00,040 --> 00:22:01,080 Speaker 5: get right back at it, you. 447 00:22:01,119 --> 00:22:01,640 Speaker 4: Know what I mean. 448 00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:06,399 Speaker 5: And then I think she had enough, you know, my 449 00:22:06,520 --> 00:22:09,800 Speaker 5: job had enough. And I remember laying coming off of 450 00:22:09,840 --> 00:22:12,439 Speaker 5: a couple of days drunk and her waking me up 451 00:22:12,480 --> 00:22:15,800 Speaker 5: in bed and saying, hey, you know you're going You're 452 00:22:15,840 --> 00:22:17,800 Speaker 5: going to rehab and I'm like no, no, no, no, no, 453 00:22:17,840 --> 00:22:21,840 Speaker 5: you know I can't my my work. She's like, dude, 454 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,880 Speaker 5: that's already been taken care of. You're going where I'm going. 455 00:22:26,800 --> 00:22:30,040 Speaker 5: And I just remember getting the shakes. Man, it felt 456 00:22:30,040 --> 00:22:34,480 Speaker 5: like I was about to die just from just I 457 00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:36,679 Speaker 5: want to say is mainly probably my ego and my 458 00:22:36,720 --> 00:22:39,480 Speaker 5: pride had just been smashed. You know, I've been I've 459 00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:42,760 Speaker 5: been revealed, you know, like nobody else around me knew 460 00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:46,120 Speaker 5: what was going on when the whole world did. And 461 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:48,560 Speaker 5: so I ended up going into a sixty day inpatient 462 00:22:49,040 --> 00:22:54,760 Speaker 5: treatment facility in Fort Worth, and man, when I got 463 00:22:54,800 --> 00:22:57,000 Speaker 5: there is like, and I realized, you know, all those 464 00:22:57,040 --> 00:22:59,240 Speaker 5: things had been taking place. It was almost like a 465 00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:04,000 Speaker 5: fresher breath air, you know, and like, I want to 466 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:05,679 Speaker 5: get some help. And I did get some help. The 467 00:23:05,720 --> 00:23:09,120 Speaker 5: place was great, right, and they showed me the things 468 00:23:09,160 --> 00:23:14,960 Speaker 5: to do to stay sober and be sober. Unfortunately, man, 469 00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:16,120 Speaker 5: I thought just going. 470 00:23:15,920 --> 00:23:17,040 Speaker 4: To that I was healed. 471 00:23:17,280 --> 00:23:17,399 Speaker 2: Yea. 472 00:23:17,720 --> 00:23:21,280 Speaker 5: When I got out, you know, I stopped doing the work, man, 473 00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:23,159 Speaker 5: I stopped going to the meetings I was supposed to 474 00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:26,680 Speaker 5: go to and started lying again about my drinking. And 475 00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:29,400 Speaker 5: it didn't take long, man, and I was back right 476 00:23:29,480 --> 00:23:33,040 Speaker 5: back in the game, right back in the game. And 477 00:23:33,400 --> 00:23:38,280 Speaker 5: April nineteenth, three and a half years ago, Man, I 478 00:23:38,320 --> 00:23:42,520 Speaker 5: found myself on the side of Camp Booy, with what 479 00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:45,160 Speaker 5: looks to be like the whole fourth Police Department behind 480 00:23:45,160 --> 00:23:48,200 Speaker 5: me at gunpoint, asking me to get out of the vehicle, 481 00:23:48,600 --> 00:23:51,280 Speaker 5: and me not wanting to get out of the vehicle. 482 00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:54,200 Speaker 5: I had a gun right there into my truck. Thank 483 00:23:54,240 --> 00:23:56,080 Speaker 5: god I didn't try to hide it or something like that, 484 00:23:56,119 --> 00:23:57,760 Speaker 5: because they'd have thought I was going for a weapon 485 00:23:57,880 --> 00:24:00,160 Speaker 5: or something. You know, I probably wouldn't be here today. 486 00:24:00,320 --> 00:24:00,520 Speaker 4: Yeah. 487 00:24:01,680 --> 00:24:03,680 Speaker 5: I ended up getting out of the vehicle and sitting down, 488 00:24:03,760 --> 00:24:06,679 Speaker 5: and I had a leatherman on my in my blue jeans. 489 00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:11,199 Speaker 5: And the after the reports read that they noticed that 490 00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:12,800 Speaker 5: I had a knife in my pocket and I had 491 00:24:12,800 --> 00:24:16,040 Speaker 5: purple heart license plates, so they deemed me as a 492 00:24:16,160 --> 00:24:19,520 Speaker 5: risk to the police officers, so they made a decision 493 00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:23,680 Speaker 5: to tase me. Luckily, with the the mid grade level one. 494 00:24:25,119 --> 00:24:28,520 Speaker 5: But I ended up getting tased three to four times 495 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,679 Speaker 5: before it came to a stop. You know, I had 496 00:24:31,720 --> 00:24:33,919 Speaker 5: to go to the hospital and then ended you know, 497 00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:36,560 Speaker 5: ultimately ended up back in jail. So that was my 498 00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:39,000 Speaker 5: second d w I at that point. With that came 499 00:24:39,040 --> 00:24:42,600 Speaker 5: some other some other charges, you know, evading to rest. 500 00:24:43,240 --> 00:24:45,959 Speaker 5: Those were dropped, so no felony charges. I was hit 501 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:49,920 Speaker 5: with felonies, but they were ultimately dropped. At that point, man, 502 00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:53,200 Speaker 5: that was thank god, that was my my rock bottle, man, 503 00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:58,240 Speaker 5: because since that day, I've had a drink of alcohol since. 504 00:24:58,520 --> 00:25:03,000 Speaker 5: And and I thank God for that day because that's 505 00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:04,040 Speaker 5: what turned me around. 506 00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:04,240 Speaker 6: Man. 507 00:25:04,320 --> 00:25:06,520 Speaker 5: And you know, we all have choices to make, dude. 508 00:25:06,520 --> 00:25:09,320 Speaker 5: And I remember that day, man. I remember the morning 509 00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:12,600 Speaker 5: of that day, sitting at seven to eleven parking lot 510 00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:14,760 Speaker 5: with a fifth of vodka is probably about six o'clock 511 00:25:14,760 --> 00:25:17,600 Speaker 5: in the morning, and staring at a picture of my 512 00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:20,880 Speaker 5: kids and my family and then staring at the vodka, 513 00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:21,640 Speaker 5: and I chose. 514 00:25:22,359 --> 00:25:24,560 Speaker 4: I chose the vodka over my family on that day. 515 00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:27,879 Speaker 5: Man. That's the power of alcoholism and the power of 516 00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:31,919 Speaker 5: alcohol what it can do to one. And you know, 517 00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:36,399 Speaker 5: that's tough saying that that you choose what's in a 518 00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:39,360 Speaker 5: bottle over your family, you know that you would die for. 519 00:25:39,560 --> 00:25:42,280 Speaker 5: But luckily that that day was it for me and 520 00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:44,880 Speaker 5: it ended the way that it did because it could 521 00:25:44,880 --> 00:25:47,720 Speaker 5: have been different. Ye could have been so different. And 522 00:25:47,800 --> 00:25:50,000 Speaker 5: from that day, that was the end of it, man. 523 00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:54,960 Speaker 5: And I'm lucky to cap Angie through that situation, because 524 00:25:55,840 --> 00:25:58,560 Speaker 5: she had all rights to leave, man, and she was 525 00:25:58,600 --> 00:25:59,800 Speaker 5: probably real close to it. 526 00:26:00,080 --> 00:26:00,720 Speaker 4: I know she was. 527 00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:04,000 Speaker 5: Yeah, she verbalized it as she should. I just you know, 528 00:26:04,359 --> 00:26:08,320 Speaker 5: something clicked in me that that, man, I got connected, 529 00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 5: you know, back into uh, getting with the right people. 530 00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:15,040 Speaker 5: And you know, at that day and that timeframe is 531 00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:19,360 Speaker 5: when I decided to start running to help with my 532 00:26:19,520 --> 00:26:22,400 Speaker 5: uh my disease. And I haven't stopped. 533 00:26:22,320 --> 00:26:25,800 Speaker 3: Since physically running literally going for runs. 534 00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:26,840 Speaker 4: Literally for runs. 535 00:26:26,880 --> 00:26:27,120 Speaker 6: Yeah. 536 00:26:27,160 --> 00:26:30,560 Speaker 4: So yeah, thank you, man. I appreciate that. 537 00:26:31,600 --> 00:26:34,600 Speaker 5: Today will be you know, on Memorial Day three and 538 00:26:34,640 --> 00:26:38,160 Speaker 5: a half years ago, I decided to honor a hero 539 00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:41,119 Speaker 5: every day run a minimum of a five k and 540 00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:43,679 Speaker 5: then share it to the world man, with pictures of 541 00:26:43,720 --> 00:26:47,040 Speaker 5: my life and what's going on, just to to reach 542 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:49,680 Speaker 5: out to people and let them know that hey, there's 543 00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:52,119 Speaker 5: a way and you know, with everything going on in 544 00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:55,600 Speaker 5: the world and the obesity and the craziness, right, we 545 00:26:55,680 --> 00:26:57,360 Speaker 5: need to get out of self, man, and do things 546 00:26:57,400 --> 00:27:00,280 Speaker 5: for ourselves. And then also, you know, recognize those people 547 00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:02,959 Speaker 5: that we love and let them know it, right, because 548 00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:05,760 Speaker 5: you know, that's something that I never did, you know, 549 00:27:05,880 --> 00:27:09,200 Speaker 5: back in the day, was express my feelings to another 550 00:27:09,320 --> 00:27:12,040 Speaker 5: person on you know, how I felt about them and 551 00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:15,080 Speaker 5: what they mean to me. And that's so important to do, man, 552 00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:17,119 Speaker 5: because you don't know when those days are going to 553 00:27:17,160 --> 00:27:19,159 Speaker 5: be gone. So it's just that's kind of been a 554 00:27:19,200 --> 00:27:21,120 Speaker 5: staple in my life and I don't. 555 00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:21,520 Speaker 4: Plan to quit. 556 00:27:23,119 --> 00:27:25,919 Speaker 3: In the intro of this episode, Jake said that Cody 557 00:27:26,040 --> 00:27:29,199 Speaker 3: was joining us today during a particularly vulnerable part of 558 00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:32,400 Speaker 3: his story. We do have to take our final commercial 559 00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:34,960 Speaker 3: break of the episode, but stick around because when we 560 00:27:35,040 --> 00:27:37,600 Speaker 3: come back, we see what Jake meant and why he 561 00:27:37,720 --> 00:27:49,040 Speaker 3: called Cody's being here the epitome of courage. Welcome back 562 00:27:49,080 --> 00:27:51,440 Speaker 3: to the good stuff. There are two things that I 563 00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:53,639 Speaker 3: would like to clarify a little bit for the coming 564 00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:57,320 Speaker 3: up portion with Cody. Number One, when he says Cook's Children's, 565 00:27:57,359 --> 00:28:00,720 Speaker 3: what he means is a children's hospital. Number Two, when 566 00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:03,800 Speaker 3: he says Polaris Ranger. He's talking about a four wheeler, 567 00:28:03,840 --> 00:28:07,359 Speaker 3: a UTV or utility task vehicle, the kind of thing 568 00:28:07,400 --> 00:28:10,520 Speaker 3: you might see on a farm. Without further ado, here's 569 00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:16,560 Speaker 3: our third and final act with Cody Turner. Well, I 570 00:28:16,600 --> 00:28:20,359 Speaker 3: know you and Angie were blessed with another set of 571 00:28:20,640 --> 00:28:24,480 Speaker 3: surprises or guess he'd be our miracles. Yeah, you talk 572 00:28:24,520 --> 00:28:25,400 Speaker 3: a little bit about that. 573 00:28:25,480 --> 00:28:30,359 Speaker 5: Absolutely, man, Absolutely, so, you know is I believe it 574 00:28:30,400 --> 00:28:34,040 Speaker 5: is right around the COVID timeframe. You know, Angie wasn't 575 00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:36,119 Speaker 5: feeling real great, so she went to the doctor and 576 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:38,520 Speaker 5: ended up taking it. Well, she ended up taking a 577 00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:41,840 Speaker 5: pregnancy test and found out she was pregnant. I wasn't 578 00:28:41,840 --> 00:28:43,800 Speaker 5: able to go to the doctor at that time because 579 00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:47,160 Speaker 5: of the COVID and they're doing the whole sonogram and everything, 580 00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:49,880 Speaker 5: and and the doctor said, hey. 581 00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:51,680 Speaker 4: Does twins run in y'all's family. 582 00:28:51,720 --> 00:28:55,480 Speaker 5: I'm like, uh no, they like they do now, brother, 583 00:28:55,720 --> 00:28:59,320 Speaker 5: they do now. So we were blessed with two more 584 00:28:59,600 --> 00:29:01,680 Speaker 5: beautiful boys, River and Riggs. 585 00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:03,600 Speaker 3: And what's the age gap between them? 586 00:29:03,640 --> 00:29:08,280 Speaker 5: And they're so so Barret's nineteen and Gunners about to 587 00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:10,440 Speaker 5: be sixteen at the end of this month. They're four 588 00:29:10,600 --> 00:29:15,600 Speaker 5: so twelve years from my youngest roughly. Yeah, surprises, they 589 00:29:15,640 --> 00:29:17,240 Speaker 5: were surprising. 590 00:29:17,080 --> 00:29:19,400 Speaker 3: And sorry for not keeping the math straight. But was 591 00:29:19,480 --> 00:29:22,160 Speaker 3: this before your sobriety? 592 00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:26,360 Speaker 5: April nineteenth of twenty twenty six will be four years 593 00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:29,640 Speaker 5: so and they're four years now, so they're young enough 594 00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:32,040 Speaker 5: to not know anything about my drinking career. 595 00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:36,000 Speaker 4: Yeah, but they were born, they were born. 596 00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:37,760 Speaker 3: Well, that's got to be a pretty big difference between 597 00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:40,480 Speaker 3: the older ones who remember drunk Dad. 598 00:29:40,720 --> 00:29:44,120 Speaker 5: It's huge, Yeah, it's huge. So yeah, or Barrett, you know, 599 00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:48,240 Speaker 5: he's seen it from the beginning. Gunner, he come along 600 00:29:48,280 --> 00:29:50,360 Speaker 5: and caught it most of it. He caught all the 601 00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:50,960 Speaker 5: bad days. 602 00:29:51,200 --> 00:29:51,720 Speaker 4: And so. 603 00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:55,720 Speaker 5: You know, River and Riggs, they won't get to God willing, 604 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:58,880 Speaker 5: they won't get to see that part of me. Yeah, 605 00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:02,640 Speaker 5: only through through stories and through me talking to them 606 00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:05,040 Speaker 5: about it, right, because we are an open family and 607 00:30:05,080 --> 00:30:06,320 Speaker 5: we don't keep no secrets. 608 00:30:06,560 --> 00:30:08,120 Speaker 4: It's important to us. 609 00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:13,120 Speaker 3: When your family's been through the unthinkable recently. Would you 610 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:15,200 Speaker 3: like to tell our listeners where you and I are 611 00:30:15,240 --> 00:30:17,960 Speaker 3: currently recording this interview. 612 00:30:18,240 --> 00:30:22,760 Speaker 5: Yes, So we're currently at Cooks Children's fifth floor. We've 613 00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:27,200 Speaker 5: been here for roughly forty five days since August third 614 00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:34,760 Speaker 5: is whenever. That morning I woke up and went on 615 00:30:34,800 --> 00:30:35,360 Speaker 5: a run and. 616 00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:39,040 Speaker 4: In the morning and. 617 00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:43,480 Speaker 5: Told Angie, I'll be back in a little bit, just 618 00:30:43,480 --> 00:30:45,560 Speaker 5: gonna go hit my five k, my daily five k, 619 00:30:45,680 --> 00:30:49,280 Speaker 5: and that that I'll be back, and then she was 620 00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:53,400 Speaker 5: gonna go check the cows with the with the twins 621 00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:56,200 Speaker 5: on the Polaris and uh, you know, I didn't realize 622 00:30:56,200 --> 00:31:03,720 Speaker 5: that day was going to be the the last day 623 00:31:03,720 --> 00:31:08,840 Speaker 5: that I speak to her. Coming in from that run, 624 00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:15,280 Speaker 5: I ran up on a. I seen that, you know, 625 00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:18,280 Speaker 5: I'll never forget, you know, the I ran up. I 626 00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:22,600 Speaker 5: remember stinkly running up the driveway and just seeing uh, 627 00:31:23,760 --> 00:31:29,200 Speaker 5: our Polaris Ranger on its side, and my son Gunner 628 00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:36,400 Speaker 5: in a frantic state and my son River sitting down. 629 00:31:37,760 --> 00:31:43,400 Speaker 5: And I didn't really I figured there was just a wreck, 630 00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:47,640 Speaker 5: but based off of the the body language of Gunner 631 00:31:47,680 --> 00:31:48,640 Speaker 5: and stuff, I knew. 632 00:31:48,400 --> 00:31:49,680 Speaker 4: Something wasn't good. 633 00:31:51,800 --> 00:31:57,320 Speaker 5: And uh, running up on that, I Gunner was the 634 00:31:57,360 --> 00:32:01,120 Speaker 5: same mom, and Mom's dead and uh, A didn't register 635 00:32:02,560 --> 00:32:06,120 Speaker 5: uh completely until you know, I came around the side 636 00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:08,360 Speaker 5: of the buggy and I saw, you know, my wife 637 00:32:08,840 --> 00:32:12,760 Speaker 5: trapped under the vehicle and she was and she was 638 00:32:12,800 --> 00:32:21,520 Speaker 5: dead and so I checked her pulse to confirm based 639 00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:25,440 Speaker 5: off the vision of the the injuries there was there 640 00:32:25,480 --> 00:32:27,360 Speaker 5: was you know, she was gone at that point. 641 00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:30,240 Speaker 4: And she was and. 642 00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:36,560 Speaker 5: So I had to focus my attention to River and Riggs. 643 00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:39,200 Speaker 5: Riggs was running around with some scrapes on his face, 644 00:32:39,280 --> 00:32:45,680 Speaker 5: but he was okay. And and uh, River he had 645 00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:50,360 Speaker 5: he had a bad leg injury and uh he was 646 00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:52,520 Speaker 5: sitting in a pile of fire ant. So I had 647 00:32:52,560 --> 00:32:53,240 Speaker 5: to pick him up. 648 00:32:53,200 --> 00:32:56,280 Speaker 4: And move him and uh. 649 00:32:56,480 --> 00:33:00,960 Speaker 5: And you know, prior to me even getting there, you know, 650 00:33:01,120 --> 00:33:06,840 Speaker 5: what what had happened was the track tragic accident happened, 651 00:33:06,920 --> 00:33:12,120 Speaker 5: however it may have done. And through that, Riggs had 652 00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:17,240 Speaker 5: ran inside our house to wake up Gunner because Gunner 653 00:33:17,280 --> 00:33:18,840 Speaker 5: was in their sleep and it was still, you know, 654 00:33:18,880 --> 00:33:23,560 Speaker 5: pretty early in the morning. And Gunner came out and 655 00:33:23,600 --> 00:33:27,240 Speaker 5: he was the first one on the scene and was 656 00:33:27,280 --> 00:33:34,240 Speaker 5: able to make the call, you know, for help and 657 00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:38,960 Speaker 5: uh and then assess the situation and and and ultimately 658 00:33:39,040 --> 00:33:41,360 Speaker 5: make the decision to turn his attention to his brother 659 00:33:42,280 --> 00:33:45,560 Speaker 5: and apply a field dressing with his pants that he 660 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:52,280 Speaker 5: took off to keep the to keep it. 661 00:33:50,760 --> 00:33:53,000 Speaker 4: This best that he could. The wound. 662 00:33:55,120 --> 00:33:59,240 Speaker 5: And you know, it was probably it was about forty 663 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:06,160 Speaker 5: minutes before any uh first responders made it. When they did, 664 00:34:06,200 --> 00:34:08,600 Speaker 5: they did, you know, pretty much ran the same checkpoints 665 00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:12,120 Speaker 5: that I did. And they were able to eventually get 666 00:34:12,160 --> 00:34:16,120 Speaker 5: her out from underneath the vehicle and care for care 667 00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:16,960 Speaker 5: for river at. 668 00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:21,400 Speaker 4: That point and uh river was uh. 669 00:34:21,560 --> 00:34:23,480 Speaker 5: They landed a chopper in the pasture and he was 670 00:34:23,520 --> 00:34:31,200 Speaker 5: met of bac to cooks and so. 671 00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:29,920 Speaker 4: That day. 672 00:34:32,920 --> 00:34:38,719 Speaker 5: It will be forever burned in my head. But I 673 00:34:38,880 --> 00:34:41,479 Speaker 5: just I go back and I think, you know, like, man, 674 00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:43,920 Speaker 5: how you know, how does a three year old run 675 00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:45,960 Speaker 5: in there and wake up his brother? And you know, 676 00:34:46,120 --> 00:34:50,239 Speaker 5: and and you know, through through talks and everything, you know, 677 00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:53,400 Speaker 5: you know, Angie had had said, hey, go get your brother. 678 00:34:55,280 --> 00:34:57,080 Speaker 4: And so man, I think. 679 00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:02,719 Speaker 5: I think that was God Man speaking through her through 680 00:35:02,800 --> 00:35:10,279 Speaker 5: him two to make this situation as horrible as it 681 00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:12,759 Speaker 5: is turn out with the best of outcome, and it 682 00:35:12,760 --> 00:35:13,480 Speaker 5: could have been. 683 00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:16,360 Speaker 4: Worse. 684 00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:21,920 Speaker 5: I think that Angie did what she had to do 685 00:35:22,000 --> 00:35:26,000 Speaker 5: to save to her voice in that situation, however unfolded. 686 00:35:28,520 --> 00:35:32,640 Speaker 5: And I believe that to my my my soul, my core. 687 00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:43,600 Speaker 5: And and so here we are now we're we're the 688 00:35:43,600 --> 00:35:45,640 Speaker 5: the light at the end of the tunnel is coming 689 00:35:45,719 --> 00:35:47,759 Speaker 5: upon us for River being able to get out of 690 00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:50,520 Speaker 5: the hospital and move on to our next phase of. 691 00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:52,480 Speaker 4: Healing at home. 692 00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:58,960 Speaker 5: And and we're still working on scheduling a time for 693 00:35:58,960 --> 00:36:03,480 Speaker 5: for burial of Angie. It's extremely important to me that 694 00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:08,479 Speaker 5: River was able to attend and however long that took, 695 00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:15,680 Speaker 5: you know, Angie's and Angie's in heaven, heaven now, and 696 00:36:16,719 --> 00:36:19,560 Speaker 5: so it's important for me too that all my boys 697 00:36:19,719 --> 00:36:23,520 Speaker 5: can attend the funeral and be there for their mama 698 00:36:24,840 --> 00:36:26,280 Speaker 5: because I know that's what she wants. 699 00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:30,920 Speaker 3: Well, I mean I almost feel silly asking, but like, 700 00:36:32,040 --> 00:36:36,960 Speaker 3: I mean, how are you able to function currently? Like 701 00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:38,840 Speaker 3: what's what? 702 00:36:39,000 --> 00:36:42,200 Speaker 5: And that's a it's a good question. 703 00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:43,520 Speaker 4: That's a good question. Man. 704 00:36:46,160 --> 00:36:50,719 Speaker 5: Since getting sober three and a half years ago, Man, 705 00:36:50,800 --> 00:36:55,920 Speaker 5: I made an effort to really reach out and. 706 00:36:59,280 --> 00:37:00,560 Speaker 4: Get to know my God. 707 00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:06,520 Speaker 5: Man, and and I thought I was connected with him, 708 00:37:07,640 --> 00:37:09,800 Speaker 5: you know, about as good as one could be connected. 709 00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:14,840 Speaker 5: And uh, since this accident, man, something's changed inside of me. 710 00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:20,120 Speaker 5: And I don't really have words for it. But that's 711 00:37:20,160 --> 00:37:23,200 Speaker 5: what's keeping me where I need to be is my 712 00:37:23,320 --> 00:37:27,200 Speaker 5: higher power and that I choose God for that. And 713 00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:36,680 Speaker 5: if I was to carry all the worries and the fears, 714 00:37:36,719 --> 00:37:41,480 Speaker 5: and the the questions and the wis and the what 715 00:37:41,560 --> 00:37:44,000 Speaker 5: if and all that on my shoulders. Man, I wouldn't 716 00:37:44,040 --> 00:37:46,680 Speaker 5: be sitting here today, Brother, I'd be buried in a 717 00:37:46,719 --> 00:37:50,359 Speaker 5: barstool drinking myself to death. 718 00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:50,600 Speaker 4: Man. 719 00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:52,600 Speaker 5: And I and I don't have to do that today, Brother, 720 00:37:52,640 --> 00:37:55,480 Speaker 5: I can. I can offload that onto God man and 721 00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:57,759 Speaker 5: let him carry that weight, so I don't have to 722 00:37:57,760 --> 00:38:03,160 Speaker 5: carry it, man. And the support that I have been 723 00:38:04,120 --> 00:38:11,520 Speaker 5: blessed with through one try foundation, through all my people 724 00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:19,960 Speaker 5: that I'm connected with have I've always been on the 725 00:38:20,120 --> 00:38:23,319 Speaker 5: giving side of that, connected reaching out to people and 726 00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:25,080 Speaker 5: being there for them. And I'm on the other end 727 00:38:25,120 --> 00:38:25,600 Speaker 5: of this now. 728 00:38:25,719 --> 00:38:26,319 Speaker 4: Yeah. 729 00:38:26,400 --> 00:38:32,280 Speaker 5: And I have no words for it. Brother, It's something 730 00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:40,680 Speaker 5: that it really shows me what life's about and about 731 00:38:40,760 --> 00:38:43,920 Speaker 5: being there for others and taking self out of the situation. 732 00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:48,000 Speaker 5: And so through this, I'm continuing to try to do 733 00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:51,399 Speaker 5: that myself, right, be there for my boys and still 734 00:38:51,400 --> 00:38:54,960 Speaker 5: be there for myself, right, but getting out of self, man, 735 00:38:55,160 --> 00:38:58,239 Speaker 5: just being there for other people and just you know, 736 00:38:58,400 --> 00:39:00,680 Speaker 5: leaning on my higher power, Man, get me through these 737 00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:05,719 Speaker 5: situations and and and offloading those worries, man, because you can. 738 00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:08,200 Speaker 5: You can chase the wis and the what ifs until 739 00:39:08,239 --> 00:39:11,600 Speaker 5: you're just till you just run yourself in the ground, 740 00:39:11,760 --> 00:39:15,640 Speaker 5: and and that doesn't get you anywhere. I'm not a 741 00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:17,680 Speaker 5: I'm not a service to my kids. I'm not a 742 00:39:17,680 --> 00:39:20,680 Speaker 5: service to my family. If I'm in that, in that mindset, 743 00:39:20,719 --> 00:39:24,160 Speaker 5: or in that, in that situation, and I choose not to, 744 00:39:25,280 --> 00:39:25,880 Speaker 5: I choose not. 745 00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:26,319 Speaker 4: To do that. 746 00:39:26,560 --> 00:39:34,360 Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, do I uh do? I have bad days? No, 747 00:39:34,640 --> 00:39:39,960 Speaker 5: I have bad moments that you know. I can quickly 748 00:39:40,000 --> 00:39:43,120 Speaker 5: offload that and some sometimes it's easier, it's easier said 749 00:39:43,160 --> 00:39:45,640 Speaker 5: than done, right, And I'm still going to be going 750 00:39:45,680 --> 00:39:49,640 Speaker 5: through the grieving process for a long time. I realize that. Yeah, 751 00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:53,960 Speaker 5: it's because I love her so much. Do you know too, 752 00:39:55,960 --> 00:40:07,719 Speaker 5: She she was always the one that I could no 753 00:40:07,800 --> 00:40:13,320 Speaker 5: matter the situation or the day that I had, I 754 00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:20,960 Speaker 5: always knew she'd be there. And she's not physically anymore, 755 00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:27,879 Speaker 5: but she's still here and that's what's keeping me where 756 00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:30,440 Speaker 5: I need to be, and that's what's going to continue 757 00:40:30,520 --> 00:40:34,759 Speaker 5: keeping me driving through this man to come out of 758 00:40:34,800 --> 00:40:40,280 Speaker 5: the other end of this stronger, to be a better 759 00:40:40,320 --> 00:40:44,640 Speaker 5: service to others, to let them know that no matter 760 00:40:44,719 --> 00:40:55,759 Speaker 5: the situation or the whatever you're going through, you can 761 00:40:55,760 --> 00:40:59,480 Speaker 5: get through it. Can't get through it alone, but you 762 00:40:59,520 --> 00:41:04,319 Speaker 5: can get through it. Yeah, And that's important to me 763 00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:07,840 Speaker 5: to carry that on and carry that to other people 764 00:41:07,880 --> 00:41:12,000 Speaker 5: and carry that message to them, because there's so many 765 00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:16,160 Speaker 5: people man that I've seen it, you know, and I 766 00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:22,239 Speaker 5: still see it today, that that it just it runs them, 767 00:41:22,239 --> 00:41:24,440 Speaker 5: and it runs everybody's lives around them. You know, they 768 00:41:24,520 --> 00:41:26,719 Speaker 5: just drag you know, they just burn the house down 769 00:41:28,280 --> 00:41:31,920 Speaker 5: because of a situation that they've been through. And and 770 00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:34,040 Speaker 5: it doesn't have to be that way, man, it can be. 771 00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:39,080 Speaker 5: Does it hurt? Yes, it hurts. Does it do I cry? 772 00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:42,879 Speaker 4: Hell? Yeah? I cry? Do I get angry? Fuck? 773 00:41:42,960 --> 00:41:49,120 Speaker 5: Yeah, I get angry. But but I can overcome that, 774 00:41:49,920 --> 00:41:54,160 Speaker 5: you know. I can reach out to people, I can pray, 775 00:41:54,480 --> 00:41:56,440 Speaker 5: I can, you know. And I always say, you know, 776 00:41:56,800 --> 00:41:59,640 Speaker 5: faith over fear, worship over worry, man, and that that 777 00:41:59,800 --> 00:42:04,000 Speaker 5: room really that really resonates uh in this situation, man, 778 00:42:04,040 --> 00:42:07,480 Speaker 5: because the fears and the worries they're always there, right, 779 00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:10,200 Speaker 5: But I ain't gotta I ain't gotta deal with that. 780 00:42:10,200 --> 00:42:15,080 Speaker 5: That's not for me to carry, man. And and so 781 00:42:15,280 --> 00:42:19,759 Speaker 5: it's just you know, knowing that believe in that and 782 00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:24,040 Speaker 5: living it is, uh is what's getting me through today. 783 00:42:25,200 --> 00:42:28,920 Speaker 3: Well, I really really have moved and appreciative of you 784 00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:32,080 Speaker 3: talking to me today. And I guess just imparting like, 785 00:42:32,200 --> 00:42:36,280 Speaker 3: is there just anything you want our listeners and whoever 786 00:42:36,400 --> 00:42:38,960 Speaker 3: happens to be coming across this to know about Angie. 787 00:42:41,560 --> 00:42:52,800 Speaker 5: Angie was one of the toughest, most selfless human beings 788 00:42:53,239 --> 00:43:00,080 Speaker 5: that I know to day. She put others before her 789 00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:15,120 Speaker 5: self in every situation, and I'm luckily I got to 790 00:43:15,160 --> 00:43:22,400 Speaker 5: realize some of that before her passing. And just the 791 00:43:23,040 --> 00:43:25,520 Speaker 5: just the strength and the love that she beholded for 792 00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:29,799 Speaker 5: her kids and for me and for her family was 793 00:43:30,560 --> 00:43:44,640 Speaker 5: beyond anything I've ever seen. So it's important to me 794 00:43:44,719 --> 00:43:48,040 Speaker 5: that people recognize those people in their lives that way 795 00:43:48,080 --> 00:43:50,239 Speaker 5: they can be there for them and just let them 796 00:43:50,360 --> 00:43:53,279 Speaker 5: people know how much you love them. If you're going 797 00:43:53,320 --> 00:43:56,680 Speaker 5: through a bad day with that person or whatnot, smash it, 798 00:43:56,719 --> 00:43:58,759 Speaker 5: get over it, don't let it go to the next day, 799 00:43:58,920 --> 00:44:02,160 Speaker 5: because man, you don't know when when you're when your 800 00:44:02,200 --> 00:44:04,520 Speaker 5: time cards gonna get punched. Man, you know, you don't 801 00:44:04,560 --> 00:44:07,080 Speaker 5: want to have regrets, You don't want to have what IF's, 802 00:44:07,760 --> 00:44:11,120 Speaker 5: and you know that's you know, and that's easier said 803 00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:14,560 Speaker 5: than done. But Angie, she just she she was just 804 00:44:14,640 --> 00:44:19,120 Speaker 5: that person, man, that just filled everybody's soul. And I 805 00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:28,680 Speaker 5: strive to carry her passion, her mindset towards those things 806 00:44:28,760 --> 00:44:31,319 Speaker 5: through my life and let that help me have a 807 00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:33,640 Speaker 5: driving force to continue fighting the good fight. 808 00:44:33,719 --> 00:44:33,919 Speaker 6: Man. 809 00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:39,080 Speaker 5: And just uh, I just pray that everybody could find 810 00:44:39,120 --> 00:44:43,440 Speaker 5: somebody like her in their life, man, because if you do, 811 00:44:43,719 --> 00:44:46,919 Speaker 5: you're lucky. You're lucky because most people don't. 812 00:44:47,120 --> 00:44:47,319 Speaker 4: Yeah. 813 00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:54,960 Speaker 5: And and I love her, I always will. And uh, 814 00:44:57,160 --> 00:45:02,120 Speaker 5: she'll always be here with us, man when where a Yeah, and. 815 00:45:03,680 --> 00:45:04,440 Speaker 4: It's beautiful. 816 00:45:04,440 --> 00:45:08,239 Speaker 3: So may she rest in peace. Absolutely, thank you for 817 00:45:08,239 --> 00:45:09,880 Speaker 3: being on the show, man, I really appreciate it. 818 00:45:09,880 --> 00:45:11,520 Speaker 4: Hey, thanks brother, thanks for having me. 819 00:45:16,480 --> 00:45:19,640 Speaker 3: Hey, what's up everybody. I'm back here with Jake and 820 00:45:19,680 --> 00:45:22,000 Speaker 3: Ashley And We're not gonna do our standard outro for 821 00:45:22,040 --> 00:45:25,360 Speaker 3: this episode. We just wanted the memory of Angie to 822 00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:29,040 Speaker 3: stay with you guys, and doing our normal outro just 823 00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:30,239 Speaker 3: did not feel appropriate. 824 00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:37,160 Speaker 1: Angie was one of the sweetest, kindest, most patient, and 825 00:45:37,239 --> 00:45:39,160 Speaker 1: beautiful Texas ladies. 826 00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:41,799 Speaker 3: Cannt miss her. 827 00:45:44,000 --> 00:45:47,200 Speaker 1: I miss her, but I know she's still here with 828 00:45:47,280 --> 00:45:51,120 Speaker 1: us and we will continue to speak her name and. 829 00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:53,520 Speaker 4: Honor her absolutely. 830 00:45:53,960 --> 00:45:58,120 Speaker 2: It's all we can do, and it's my hope in 831 00:45:58,160 --> 00:46:02,200 Speaker 2: my prayer that everybody that listens to this episode just 832 00:46:02,239 --> 00:46:04,200 Speaker 2: go love on the people that you love the most, 833 00:46:04,400 --> 00:46:07,839 Speaker 2: and love on them hard, because tomorrow is not guaranteed. 834 00:46:08,960 --> 00:46:12,160 Speaker 2: And I think that the one thing we spend way 835 00:46:12,200 --> 00:46:16,279 Speaker 2: too frivolously without ever knowing how much we have in 836 00:46:16,320 --> 00:46:20,480 Speaker 2: the bank is time. And so be intentional with your 837 00:46:20,480 --> 00:46:22,720 Speaker 2: time and with the people that you love the most, 838 00:46:23,320 --> 00:46:26,239 Speaker 2: because it's only for a short wall that we have them. 839 00:46:26,719 --> 00:46:28,719 Speaker 3: So with that, we're going to end this episode with 840 00:46:28,800 --> 00:46:31,759 Speaker 3: just a moment of silence and take care. We'll be 841 00:46:31,800 --> 00:46:39,160 Speaker 3: back next week.