WEBVTT - Snow Tha Product: Behind the Music 0:00:03.560 --> 0:00:06.400 Tell me a little bit about the name snow the product. 0:00:06.440 --> 0:00:08.360 My friend from high school, she was like, I'm Belle, 0:00:08.400 --> 0:00:09.760 which princess do you want to be? And I was like, 0:00:09.760 --> 0:00:11.600 which one can I be? She's like snow White and 0:00:11.640 --> 0:00:14.400 I was like, Okay, snow White, that's cool. I always 0:00:14.440 --> 0:00:17.200 had anxiety. I have ways of coping, but definitely I 0:00:17.239 --> 0:00:20.279 think it's physically painful for me sometimes to talk to 0:00:20.280 --> 0:00:22.880 people or like sometimes I feel like I can't. It's 0:00:22.880 --> 0:00:25.880 just a lot there's a lot of like rapper artists 0:00:25.920 --> 0:00:28.280 that they try to do is like I'm Mexican, like 0:00:28.360 --> 0:00:30.000 I should be the best of the Mexicans in the 0:00:30.040 --> 0:00:32.120 Mexican American community, and to me, it's like no bro 0:00:32.240 --> 0:00:43.760 like duty. Yeah, welcome back to the Cheekies and Chill podcasts. Guys, 0:00:43.920 --> 0:00:46.720 You're not going to believe who I have on today's show. 0:00:46.960 --> 0:00:49.560 I'm really excited to be speaking with a super raw 0:00:49.720 --> 0:00:52.840 and real Latina artist. She's probably already your favorite rapper, 0:00:53.040 --> 0:00:54.920 and if she isn't, I'm sure by the end of 0:00:54.920 --> 0:00:57.040 the show she will be. Before we're bring her in. 0:00:57.160 --> 0:00:59.480 I just want to say this conversation is probably going 0:00:59.520 --> 0:01:02.720 to get a little spicy, so just keep that in mind. Okay, 0:01:02.760 --> 0:01:04.920 So now that that's out of the way, let's go 0:01:04.959 --> 0:01:07.679 ahead and bring her in. This is cheekys and chill. 0:01:17.200 --> 0:01:19.520 Sitting in front of me is none other than the 0:01:19.640 --> 0:01:23.560 Latin Grammy nominated rapper and podcaster Snow, the product Hi, 0:01:23.760 --> 0:01:27.160 how are you doing. I'm good, Welcome to my podcast. 0:01:27.160 --> 0:01:30.120 I was on yours recently and we got a little wild, 0:01:30.440 --> 0:01:33.360 but it was fun. Yours a lot more zen's a 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:35.520 lot more calm. Yes, it's a little bit more zen. 0:01:35.640 --> 0:01:38.560 But look, it's probably better that I don't have tequila 0:01:38.720 --> 0:01:40.560 right now. But whenever you want, I'll go back on 0:01:40.600 --> 0:01:42.839 your podcast so we can actually finish a conversation, because 0:01:42.880 --> 0:01:48.200 that's what everyone's saying, Like, you guys didn't finish any topic. Yeah, 0:01:48.280 --> 0:01:50.520 it's because we left a lot of things unsaid, so 0:01:50.560 --> 0:01:53.240 we can just keep going exactly, which is good. So 0:01:53.320 --> 0:01:55.360 that means I have to go back. Yeah, but they 0:01:55.400 --> 0:01:57.400 did say that the chemistry was undeniable and that we 0:01:57.400 --> 0:01:59.640 should podcast together more. So here we Yes, I think 0:01:59.640 --> 0:02:01.600 we should. People did say that, and I didn't know. 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:05.040 Here's the thing I've known about Snow. I've seen her. 0:02:05.200 --> 0:02:06.960 We've always said hi when we see each other. But 0:02:07.000 --> 0:02:09.079 we've never really sat down and had a conversation. That 0:02:09.160 --> 0:02:11.440 was the first time, so it was super raw. And 0:02:11.480 --> 0:02:13.720 I didn't know she was a cancer. So yeah, so 0:02:13.760 --> 0:02:16.959 I think the chemistry was undeniable. And yeah, people saw 0:02:16.960 --> 0:02:20.440 it and felt it. That's right, that's tight. Like so 0:02:20.919 --> 0:02:23.760 I didn't know this either, that you started as a 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:26.840 mariachi singer? Are you saying mariachi? When I was a 0:02:26.840 --> 0:02:28.680 little kid, when as soon as I could talk, my 0:02:28.760 --> 0:02:33.720 dad right away had me singing, the singing, the rapping. 0:02:33.760 --> 0:02:35.720 Where does that come from? Does it come from any 0:02:35.760 --> 0:02:39.880 like any family member? Like I okay, like I forgot 0:02:39.880 --> 0:02:43.520 the lyrics to and after that, I was just like 0:02:44.840 --> 0:02:46.520 it was always embarrassing because my dad, I was the 0:02:46.600 --> 0:02:49.440 kid in the family that like at every gathering they 0:02:49.440 --> 0:02:51.640 would tell me to sing. So I'm just like singing 0:02:51.760 --> 0:02:54.320 for everybody. And I was embarrassing because once I started 0:02:54.400 --> 0:02:56.239 kind of you know, being eleven twelve, like the kids 0:02:56.240 --> 0:02:59.000 are laughing at me, Like I'm embarrassed. I've always been 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:01.000 very shy when it comes to like all the attention 0:03:01.000 --> 0:03:03.040 on me, So I just hated it. So I just 0:03:03.040 --> 0:03:07.560 thought I was never gonna make music ever, And like 0:03:07.600 --> 0:03:10.760 until he fucking died. My dad sing untas my whole 0:03:10.800 --> 0:03:13.040 family on my dad's side, that's what they do. Um. 0:03:13.040 --> 0:03:14.880 And my dad's a good songwriter. I think that's where 0:03:14.880 --> 0:03:18.880 I got like writing from um, but I never I 0:03:18.880 --> 0:03:21.640 don't know. I think rapping was a rebellion because my 0:03:21.720 --> 0:03:25.079 dad hated rap um, he hated cholos, he hated rap 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:27.519 he hated all that. So I was like, that was 0:03:27.560 --> 0:03:30.040 my big fuck you to everybody, like or whatever I want. 0:03:31.120 --> 0:03:34.760 So your dad's like very very like traditional. I'm assuming, like, yes, 0:03:35.200 --> 0:03:38.920 super macho Mexican man, fucking you know, don't cut my 0:03:38.920 --> 0:03:41.080 little girl's hair like all that type of shit. So 0:03:41.480 --> 0:03:45.200 when I was growing up, I didn't even cross my 0:03:45.240 --> 0:03:47.880 mind who I was going to end up being. But 0:03:47.960 --> 0:03:49.880 it's crazy that now it kind of has come full 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:52.080 circle with the pride in the Mariachi and the Mexican 0:03:52.120 --> 0:03:55.119 and all these things that were instilled in me are 0:03:55.160 --> 0:03:57.200 still there. I guess it just I had to find 0:03:57.240 --> 0:03:59.000 them on my own. I didn't want them put on me, 0:03:59.120 --> 0:04:00.960 you know what I mean? Yeah, Oh my god, See 0:04:01.000 --> 0:04:04.320 that's such a cancer thing. Like I'm you push me 0:04:04.400 --> 0:04:06.760 up against a corner, and I'm going to push back, 0:04:06.800 --> 0:04:09.280 like I don't like to feel like I'm forced to 0:04:09.320 --> 0:04:10.800 do anything. It's like, no, I need to figure out 0:04:10.840 --> 0:04:14.920 my and I'm like I am because I want to 0:04:14.960 --> 0:04:17.719 learn things myself, you know what I mean. And and 0:04:17.760 --> 0:04:19.320 I like that. I like that about you. Are you 0:04:19.360 --> 0:04:23.000 open to like singing with Mariachi? Yeah? I did. I 0:04:23.040 --> 0:04:26.240 have this little intro um called It's All my Little 0:04:26.279 --> 0:04:27.920 EP that I dropped and then now it's going to 0:04:28.000 --> 0:04:30.200 be the beginning the first song on my tour and 0:04:30.240 --> 0:04:34.279 it starts with a little it's a little coo type 0:04:34.320 --> 0:04:35.960 thing and then it goes into this rap part that 0:04:36.040 --> 0:04:37.880 just like the drums are going crazy and the lights 0:04:37.920 --> 0:04:40.159 are going crazy, and it's just like it's just very me. 0:04:40.400 --> 0:04:43.479 You know. It starts, you know, and it goes like 0:04:43.480 --> 0:04:44.520 that and then all of a sudden, it just like 0:04:44.640 --> 0:04:47.520 fucking fu Yeah, oh my. I want to go to 0:04:47.680 --> 0:04:49.960 one of your shows. I always see them on Instagram. 0:04:50.000 --> 0:04:53.039 I really really want to go really bad. I feel 0:04:53.080 --> 0:04:55.719 like they get like I'm gonna get crazy. Yeah No, 0:04:55.920 --> 0:04:58.760 straight up, Like there's a every show, there's a moment 0:05:00.040 --> 0:05:02.520 fucking you know, there's Yeah, though, there's all kinds of shit, 0:05:02.600 --> 0:05:04.440 like I try to do it in not corny way. 0:05:04.440 --> 0:05:06.479 I feel like nowadays, like there's a lot of like 0:05:06.600 --> 0:05:08.760 rapp or artists that they try to do is like 0:05:09.360 --> 0:05:12.160 I'm Mexican, like I should be the best of the Mexicans, 0:05:12.200 --> 0:05:14.599 you know, and in the Mexican American community. And to me, 0:05:14.640 --> 0:05:17.240 it's like, bro, we just rep in ways that like that. 0:05:17.279 --> 0:05:18.840 You don't got to be corny about it and that's it. 0:05:18.920 --> 0:05:21.240 Keep it pushing, you know, don't take on being the 0:05:21.240 --> 0:05:23.840 face of the Mexicans as your identity. It's like, no, bro, 0:05:23.960 --> 0:05:28.119 like fucking duity. Yeah yeah, And there's nothing nothing corny 0:05:28.120 --> 0:05:30.640 about you. And that's one thing like I've known forever, 0:05:30.880 --> 0:05:33.200 like you're just who you are. You're very raw, You're 0:05:33.279 --> 0:05:37.360 very authentic, and I think that's fucking amazing. But now 0:05:37.400 --> 0:05:40.159 in like the society that we live in, where's everyone's 0:05:40.160 --> 0:05:43.800 so just so sensitive about everything, but I feel like 0:05:43.839 --> 0:05:48.719 you're unapologetically yourself. Like it's like either you like me 0:05:48.839 --> 0:05:50.960 or you don't. And is that how you've always been 0:05:51.040 --> 0:05:53.440 or is that something that just happened, like with maturity 0:05:53.520 --> 0:05:56.080 and shit that you've gone through. I think it's been growing. 0:05:56.240 --> 0:05:58.120 Like I always I always make it a big point 0:05:58.160 --> 0:05:59.720 to let people know who Snow the Product is and 0:05:59.760 --> 0:06:03.040 who Claudia is, um because whenever I talk about it 0:06:03.080 --> 0:06:04.920 sometimes people won't won't realize. And that's also why I 0:06:04.960 --> 0:06:06.960 wear my Claudia thing because it's like I want people 0:06:07.000 --> 0:06:09.120 to understand I'm a person and there's a really like 0:06:09.360 --> 0:06:12.679 my fucking name is Snow the Product, like it literally 0:06:12.720 --> 0:06:15.560 says the product like that is what I'm selling as 0:06:15.560 --> 0:06:18.400 a fucking you know thing, as my alter ego, as 0:06:18.680 --> 0:06:20.919 the strong bitch that I wish I could be. But 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:24.839 like Claudia myself personally, I'm like, if anything, I've always 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:29.560 been a fucking cry baby, emotional, sentimental chikia Like that's 0:06:29.680 --> 0:06:32.880 you know, that's me. So it's like that Snow the 0:06:32.920 --> 0:06:35.599 Product person is who I needed to embody to be 0:06:35.680 --> 0:06:38.560 able to do what I knew I was put on 0:06:38.600 --> 0:06:40.080 this earth to do, you know what I mean? Like, 0:06:40.120 --> 0:06:41.600 I do think I have a voice. I do think 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:43.239 I know how to talk. I think if if anyone 0:06:43.360 --> 0:06:45.440 was to speak on certain issues, I think I'm always 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:47.680 gonna make sure that I do it the correct way, 0:06:47.720 --> 0:06:49.800 you know, And I don't. I don't lead people the 0:06:49.839 --> 0:06:52.359 wrong way. I know I'm a natural born leader, but 0:06:52.400 --> 0:06:53.840 as far as me, like, if you put too much 0:06:53.839 --> 0:06:56.279 attention on me, I'm like, and you know, I get 0:06:56.320 --> 0:06:58.440 nervous and I get shy, and you know that's why 0:06:58.440 --> 0:07:01.480 I drink. I feel you. I feel like we have 0:07:01.520 --> 0:07:05.160 a lot in common because I also there's cheekies and 0:07:05.200 --> 0:07:07.719 then there's Jenney, and Janet is a hippie and I'd 0:07:07.800 --> 0:07:10.360 rather not have makeup on and I'm just this is me. 0:07:10.440 --> 0:07:13.080 What you see right now is like I'm chilling. I'm 0:07:13.120 --> 0:07:15.600 a hippie at heart. But in order to do what 0:07:15.680 --> 0:07:18.320 I do, I had to that I had to And 0:07:18.360 --> 0:07:21.280 I learned this in twenty eighteen after going like on 0:07:21.320 --> 0:07:23.840 a drinking binge and I was like, I can't get 0:07:23.840 --> 0:07:26.000 on stage unless I'm fucking drunk. And it's like it's cool, 0:07:26.000 --> 0:07:28.240 it's fun, don't get me wrong, but it was causing 0:07:28.280 --> 0:07:31.880 me depression. So I had to learn to separate. I said, Okay, 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:34.120 I have to separate cheekies from Janey. And I feel 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:35.360 like that's kind of like what you do when you're 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:37.360 at home, when you get home to your son, are 0:07:37.400 --> 0:07:40.320 you like, Okay, I'm Claudia and snow the product she's 0:07:40.400 --> 0:07:43.120 kind of on hold or put away or how do 0:07:43.120 --> 0:07:45.960 you work through that. No. Absolutely. I've always made sure 0:07:46.000 --> 0:07:48.640 that I hold space for the people that I love 0:07:48.720 --> 0:07:51.720 the most, which is my brother, my son, like my 0:07:51.800 --> 0:07:55.480 real core, and I always show up for them as 0:07:55.800 --> 0:07:57.920 as Claudia, you know what I mean. I've never snow 0:07:57.960 --> 0:08:01.040 the product. So even with fans, there's some fans that 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:03.680 I am very personal with and that I you know, 0:08:03.720 --> 0:08:05.520 they really get to see me and we really talk, 0:08:05.600 --> 0:08:08.520 and I value that so much. Anywhere where I feel 0:08:08.560 --> 0:08:12.880 safe to be Claudia is so important for me because 0:08:12.920 --> 0:08:14.840 there's a lot of times when when I do like 0:08:14.920 --> 0:08:16.760 that that you need to put that shell on, you know, 0:08:16.760 --> 0:08:18.400 and you should know, being a cancer, like we have 0:08:18.440 --> 0:08:21.160 to have that shell because we're like softies on the inside. 0:08:21.360 --> 0:08:24.560 So it's very important to have comfort. And every time 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:27.480 I'm always finding comfort, I'm always looking for a place 0:08:27.480 --> 0:08:30.679 to sit by myself. I every time that I'm around 0:08:30.680 --> 0:08:32.120 people for like more than an hour, like I have 0:08:32.160 --> 0:08:33.640 to go and be by myself for a little bit. 0:08:33.679 --> 0:08:36.319 And like just I don't know why I get overstimulated 0:08:36.360 --> 0:08:38.840 really quickly. That might be me being on the spectrum 0:08:38.920 --> 0:08:42.400 or something, but realistically I just m I need to 0:08:42.400 --> 0:08:44.680 calm down. I need to get grounded as much as possible. 0:08:44.760 --> 0:08:47.120 You know, dude, that's crazy. On the same way, that's 0:08:47.120 --> 0:08:50.600 so crazy. I've learned to love that alone time and 0:08:50.679 --> 0:08:55.480 the silence and just hearing my own thoughts, and it's 0:08:55.480 --> 0:08:57.920 an everyday thing because I feel like, yes, we're very 0:08:57.960 --> 0:09:00.160 emotional and we can go into a dark place. It's 0:09:00.240 --> 0:09:03.000 real quick if we're not intentional about saying hold up, 0:09:03.400 --> 0:09:06.280 let me have my time, let me decompress, you know, 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:09.679 and being in the industry and giving so much of 0:09:09.720 --> 0:09:12.160 yourself on stage and it's just like give, gift, give. 0:09:12.520 --> 0:09:14.360 Sometimes I feel depleted when I get off stage. I 0:09:14.400 --> 0:09:16.280 don't know if if you do. Sometimes you're like, hold on, 0:09:16.360 --> 0:09:18.640 I just need to like I need five minutes before 0:09:18.640 --> 0:09:20.520 I do my meeting great or whatever, because I need 0:09:20.559 --> 0:09:23.440 to replenish myself. No. Absolutely, there's a lot of times 0:09:23.440 --> 0:09:25.040 when fans want to be like, oh, you know, I 0:09:25.040 --> 0:09:26.800 want to go backstage, or I want this, or can 0:09:26.840 --> 0:09:28.680 we go on the bus, and I'm like, the thing 0:09:28.760 --> 0:09:31.120 is that those are the small moments where I get 0:09:31.120 --> 0:09:33.120 to be by myself, and you're gonna be You're gonna 0:09:33.120 --> 0:09:35.559 be disappointed, because that's Claudia time. Like you know, I 0:09:36.040 --> 0:09:38.079 finish a show. I do my meeting great before my shows. 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:40.079 So once I got finish the show and I go 0:09:40.160 --> 0:09:42.360 to the back of my bus, I'm like eating a soup, 0:09:42.600 --> 0:09:44.240 you know what I mean. Like I'm like just sitting 0:09:44.280 --> 0:09:47.560 there by myself, just like like not thinking about anything, 0:09:47.640 --> 0:09:49.720 just kind of like letting everything and you know, after 0:09:49.760 --> 0:09:51.640 like thirty minutes, then I'll come back out and if 0:09:51.679 --> 0:09:54.000 I after party, I do. But people think that that 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:56.640 snow the product, you know, bitches, that's shaken all that 0:09:56.760 --> 0:09:58.640 is like always and it's like, bro, nobody can live 0:09:58.679 --> 0:10:01.960 like that forever, Like you know what I mean, it's unrealistic. Yeah, 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:04.319 it's like it's fun, it's dope whenever it happens. But 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:09.560 I value my personal time more because you know, that's 0:10:09.600 --> 0:10:13.280 just few and far between, you know. Yeah. I feel 0:10:13.440 --> 0:10:16.199 like I kind of met Claudia that night after the podcast, 0:10:16.240 --> 0:10:18.439 after we were done, like we were having serious conversations, 0:10:18.480 --> 0:10:21.679 and I was like, dude, I feel like you have 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:24.040 a beautiful heart, you know, I mean, you're a beautiful person. 0:10:24.240 --> 0:10:26.280 And I was like, shit, like I don't know, I 0:10:26.280 --> 0:10:28.600 felt really connected to you. So I wanted to just, 0:10:28.679 --> 0:10:30.720 you know, thank you for that that you felt comfortable 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:32.640 enough to like we were talking about some deep shit. 0:10:32.800 --> 0:10:36.880 So I feel like I know Claudia, and I'm so excited. Right, Yeah, 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:38.840 I think we're developing a nice friendship here. A lot 0:10:38.840 --> 0:10:41.000 of people couldn't even believe that we had never talked. 0:10:41.400 --> 0:10:43.040 Yeah you know what I mean, like that we had 0:10:43.080 --> 0:10:45.000 never like because they were like, wait, that was way 0:10:45.000 --> 0:10:46.880 too like you guys. I thought y'all were friends. And 0:10:46.920 --> 0:10:49.199 I'm like, we've seen each other, you know, we said hi, 0:10:49.280 --> 0:10:52.160 but we've never really sat down and talked. So I 0:10:52.160 --> 0:10:54.880 thought it was effortless. I thought it was great me too, 0:10:54.960 --> 0:10:57.000 and I love it. I love it. Now, tell me 0:10:57.000 --> 0:11:00.480 a little bit about where the name Snow the Products from. 0:11:00.640 --> 0:11:04.520 Is it from snow white from or no? Yeah? Yeah, 0:11:04.520 --> 0:11:06.520 basically does it have to do with like because you 0:11:06.559 --> 0:11:08.080 have a bunch of like you have like goats and 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:10.760 stuff at your house? No? You No, It's like what 0:11:10.880 --> 0:11:13.120 are they? Are they I've manifested in my life? I 0:11:13.160 --> 0:11:15.000 don't know, because I did was not thinking I was 0:11:15.000 --> 0:11:17.079 gonna have a farm when I named myself Snow the Product. 0:11:17.520 --> 0:11:19.640 It wasn't gonna be. I wasn't gonna be the Disney 0:11:19.679 --> 0:11:21.240 start with all the animals. I mean, I grew up 0:11:21.240 --> 0:11:23.680 in a ranch, but like, I didn't think that it 0:11:23.760 --> 0:11:26.760 came from snow White. Because my friend Crystal from high school, 0:11:26.760 --> 0:11:28.839 she was a really great singer. We always were like, 0:11:28.880 --> 0:11:31.160 we're gonna sing, We're gonna live the fairytale life and 0:11:31.240 --> 0:11:33.040 running at these mansions and you're gonna sing and I'm 0:11:33.040 --> 0:11:34.680 gonna wrap, and we were pretty much we thought we 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:36.200 weren't in a guy, you know, like we're gonna be 0:11:36.240 --> 0:11:38.360 so fucking dope. And she was like, I'm Belle because 0:11:38.360 --> 0:11:40.520 my name's Crystal and I want to be a princess. 0:11:40.600 --> 0:11:41.920 She's like, which princess do you want to be? And 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:44.440 I was like I don't fucking know. I was like, 0:11:45.000 --> 0:11:46.840 I guess which one can I be. She's like, you're 0:11:46.840 --> 0:11:49.160 really like white because at the time I was very pale. 0:11:49.440 --> 0:11:52.360 She's like snow white. And I was like, okay, snow white, 0:11:52.440 --> 0:11:54.719 that's cool. So I just kept snow white. And then 0:11:54.720 --> 0:11:56.800 we added the product at some point, just kind of 0:11:56.800 --> 0:12:00.559 a reference, like a drug reference obviously, and being dope. Yeah, 0:12:00.600 --> 0:12:02.280 and then you know, Disney wasn't gonna be cool with 0:12:02.320 --> 0:12:04.080 me being snow white, so I just will snow the 0:12:04.080 --> 0:12:06.280 product and is it it's stuck. By the way, where 0:12:06.280 --> 0:12:08.880 did this ring come from? I put it on you? 0:12:11.040 --> 0:12:12.839 She has my ring on you? Guys, I sure did 0:12:12.880 --> 0:12:15.040 put a ring on. I want you to know. It 0:12:15.080 --> 0:12:18.000 does not come off. So that's it. We locked in. Baby, 0:12:18.160 --> 0:12:19.880 you have you didn't take it off? And no, it 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:21.880 doesn't come off, all right? He stay. If I don't 0:12:21.880 --> 0:12:23.640 see it, I'm gonna be real sad. And I'm just kidding. 0:12:23.600 --> 0:12:27.360 I'm gonna look it doesn't you guys. Oh my god, 0:12:27.400 --> 0:12:29.800 I love her. I'm so red right now. I'm blushing 0:12:29.840 --> 0:12:34.760 you guys. Oh my god, that's funny. Oh my god. No, 0:12:34.800 --> 0:12:36.400 I'm gonna have it all tour, all tour. I'm gonna 0:12:36.400 --> 0:12:38.559 be you're gonna see see my hand, like, did she 0:12:38.600 --> 0:12:41.120 still got the ring on? Yeah? He's stay. Yeah, And 0:12:41.160 --> 0:12:42.280 if you have to put it away, put on a 0:12:42.360 --> 0:12:44.800 necklace or something. But you know you guys, there there's 0:12:44.880 --> 0:12:47.839 there's something here. But anyways, okay, let me let me 0:12:47.920 --> 0:12:49.400 drink a little bit of coffee. Hold on me, hear 0:12:49.440 --> 0:12:59.000 my girl. One thing I absolutely apparently I love a 0:12:59.000 --> 0:13:01.120 lot of shit about you, but I absolutely love about 0:13:01.160 --> 0:13:05.760 you is that you really do represent Mexicans and I 0:13:05.800 --> 0:13:09.360 think that in everything that you do, I fucking love it. 0:13:09.440 --> 0:13:11.360 I mean obviously something that comes naturally, but did you 0:13:11.400 --> 0:13:13.880 feel that pressure or it is just something that this 0:13:14.000 --> 0:13:15.719 is this I'm proud of being who I am, where 0:13:15.760 --> 0:13:18.760 I come from. It's weird because a lot of these 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:21.800 things just like have happened. But also so like like 0:13:21.840 --> 0:13:23.959 I told you before, so I was married early, right, 0:13:24.000 --> 0:13:26.439 and he didn't speak English. I mean he didn't speak Spanish. Sorry, 0:13:26.440 --> 0:13:29.280 he don't speak Spanish, so my like Spanish side of 0:13:29.280 --> 0:13:31.800 me wasn't really always like unless I talked to my 0:13:31.840 --> 0:13:33.560 mom and we moved to Texas, so like I wasn't 0:13:33.559 --> 0:13:36.240 near my mom or my dad, nobody really that spoke Spanish. 0:13:36.320 --> 0:13:38.920 So whatever. But eventually, like the more that I've been 0:13:38.920 --> 0:13:40.960 just kind of growing and being more around Spanish speakers 0:13:40.960 --> 0:13:43.000 and just being back to my real like Claudia, like 0:13:43.240 --> 0:13:45.959 the Jigita, I've just been more like yo, I love 0:13:46.040 --> 0:13:48.640 myself like I love myself in Spanish, like like all 0:13:49.040 --> 0:13:51.320 everything that I grew up around, everything that I was, 0:13:51.360 --> 0:13:55.040 it's like this healing my my inner child with doing 0:13:55.080 --> 0:13:58.400 everything that I know from childhood has been making has 0:13:58.400 --> 0:14:00.839 been really healing. You know, So those things are like, 0:14:01.120 --> 0:14:02.800 you know, the chickens, the goats. I wanted my son 0:14:02.840 --> 0:14:05.160 to grow up how I did in Scatecas. You know 0:14:05.520 --> 0:14:09.679 um so yeah ATVs fucking um A bunch of animals. Trees. 0:14:09.720 --> 0:14:11.400 I really want to plant, you know, more tree. We 0:14:11.440 --> 0:14:13.199 have a lot of like citrus and avocado and stuff, 0:14:13.240 --> 0:14:15.160 but I want to like plant more stuff and just 0:14:15.600 --> 0:14:17.719 be a hippie in a a in a weird way 0:14:17.720 --> 0:14:21.360 like still fucking shit, but like you know, hippie viby, 0:14:21.720 --> 0:14:26.280 like self sufficient. Yeah, self sufficiency, yes, oh my god. 0:14:26.480 --> 0:14:28.000 That that was one of my biggest dreams, is like 0:14:28.040 --> 0:14:31.600 one day having a farm and like having my own animals, 0:14:31.640 --> 0:14:33.760 growing my own food, like kind of like prints did 0:14:33.880 --> 0:14:36.080 oh I love that one day. One day it don't happen. 0:14:36.560 --> 0:14:38.520 But I was gonna tell you, let me plant a 0:14:38.560 --> 0:14:42.000 tree at your house. Absolutely, yeah, I really want lemon trees. 0:14:42.960 --> 0:14:45.640 I have a bunch lime. Yeah. I have the little 0:14:45.640 --> 0:14:48.760 Mexican lemons and the little ones. You know, Mexicans never 0:14:48.760 --> 0:14:51.160 know the difference between lemon and lime lit a little bit, 0:14:51.200 --> 0:14:55.200 little ones a little their juicy. Yeah. No, honestly, I 0:14:55.240 --> 0:14:56.720 really liked your place. I was like, do this is 0:14:56.760 --> 0:14:58.400 fucking vibi. I feel like I could sit out here 0:14:58.400 --> 0:15:01.240 and just fucking meditate and go to another world. It needed, 0:15:01.240 --> 0:15:03.240 It needed a lot of love. It needs a lot 0:15:03.280 --> 0:15:05.280 of work. But it's like that's when I become me, 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:07.280 you know. It's like I get to that's the beautiful 0:15:07.400 --> 0:15:11.040 this place. Yeah, you're doing good, You're doing good. That's seu. 0:15:11.320 --> 0:15:14.000 I mean talking about being Mexican and the whole thing. 0:15:14.480 --> 0:15:17.240 I don't know about you, but sometimes it makes me 0:15:17.360 --> 0:15:21.000 sad that we're so proud we're representing, you know. I 0:15:21.000 --> 0:15:23.800 feel like I can honestly say I I'm proud of 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:25.760 the things that I've accomplished, you know, And and I 0:15:25.800 --> 0:15:30.480 didn't even really sometimes even sometimes even in English something 0:15:30.520 --> 0:15:33.120 I'm like, that's worries. I just don't say, right. But anyways, 0:15:33.440 --> 0:15:36.080 I've gotten a lot of criticism from my own people, 0:15:36.480 --> 0:15:39.040 you know what. I'm like, dude, why is it? Why 0:15:39.160 --> 0:15:41.680 is it that? And I'm sure it happens a lot 0:15:41.720 --> 0:15:43.640 in different cultures, but I do see like the Asian 0:15:43.680 --> 0:15:47.080 cultures like they really support each other and they're like, 0:15:47.120 --> 0:15:50.680 come on, like let me help you. I I've noticed, 0:15:50.720 --> 0:15:52.440 and that's something that I talk about frequently. It is 0:15:52.440 --> 0:15:55.640 like dude, you see someone rising, someone doing their thing, 0:15:57.600 --> 0:16:01.560 that's tight, it's I can come thron you know. I 0:16:01.600 --> 0:16:04.760 don't know have you ever experienced that? Absolutely my whole career, 0:16:04.840 --> 0:16:10.560 I think, you know, like they say, straight up, um, 0:16:10.600 --> 0:16:13.360 I feel like it's never enough. I feel like people 0:16:13.360 --> 0:16:16.560 always want to find things in nitpick and and all that. 0:16:16.640 --> 0:16:18.800 Like every other culture, I feel like they support each other, 0:16:18.840 --> 0:16:21.240 they help each other, They collaborate a lot, you know, 0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:23.200 they try to really, you know, they come from a 0:16:23.240 --> 0:16:25.480 small island, so everybody's just so proud to be from 0:16:25.480 --> 0:16:27.880 this one little place from there to the world, you know. 0:16:27.920 --> 0:16:30.080 And with Mexico, you know, it's in some ways it's 0:16:30.120 --> 0:16:32.400 like the second US, where it's like everybody from every 0:16:32.440 --> 0:16:36.840 other country shows up there, makes a career. You know, 0:16:36.880 --> 0:16:38.920 it's one of the biggest fucking streaming countries in the 0:16:38.920 --> 0:16:42.600 whole world. But Mexicans don't show that same love for 0:16:42.680 --> 0:16:45.080 to Mexicans, you know, and Mexican Americans same thing they 0:16:45.080 --> 0:16:47.120 beat with Mexicans. It's just this whole fucking thing. And 0:16:47.120 --> 0:16:49.760 it's like, dude, at some point we will, I think, 0:16:49.840 --> 0:16:52.520 grow out of that, but unfortunately we do take all 0:16:52.560 --> 0:16:55.880 the fucking hit for that because like fucking I don't 0:16:55.880 --> 0:16:59.280 know why. Everybody's just like yah, she's not as good 0:16:59.280 --> 0:17:03.160 as hers, like another person from another ethnicity, and it's like, bro, 0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:07.399 you guys, like you know, I don't know how that 0:17:07.440 --> 0:17:10.760 can cuss, but yes, like they're always yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:17:11.440 --> 0:17:15.560 either fucking the like second dick, you know, but everybody else, 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:19.240 it's like everybody else is cool. Yeah, but we were like, okay, 0:17:19.240 --> 0:17:22.520 I'm not cool enough, like fuck you. Yeah. Lately I've 0:17:22.560 --> 0:17:24.440 been more like I'm gonna get over there, like fuck that. 0:17:24.640 --> 0:17:26.720 I think that's why I start with this don't give 0:17:26.720 --> 0:17:28.480 a fuck attitude, because I'm like, now I'm starting to 0:17:28.520 --> 0:17:31.240 really realize. Sometimes I'll look at a hater's page and 0:17:31.240 --> 0:17:34.639 their picture and I'll be like, oh, okay, you just 0:17:34.680 --> 0:17:36.240 don't know better, you know what I mean, Like you're 0:17:36.240 --> 0:17:38.080 just a hater, Like you're just you're not happy with 0:17:38.080 --> 0:17:42.360 your life. Yeah. The comparison situation, like everyone it's like, oh, 0:17:42.400 --> 0:17:49.600 they're always, especially in my genre, it's it's no and yeah, 0:17:49.640 --> 0:17:52.200 you're absolutely right. Jenny Rivera is a queen, she's a beast. 0:17:52.240 --> 0:17:54.480 There's never going to be another Jen Rivera, Like there's 0:17:54.480 --> 0:17:56.080 never gonna be a Selena, like there's never gonna be 0:17:56.119 --> 0:17:59.439 another Michael Jackson, another Prince, like they are one of 0:17:59.440 --> 0:18:02.280 a kind. And that's where I'm like, but there's room 0:18:02.359 --> 0:18:03.800 for so many of us, you know what I mean. 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:07.160 It doesn't just have to be one woman and all 0:18:07.160 --> 0:18:09.639 the type of music that I say, because sometimes here 0:18:09.680 --> 0:18:12.600 and there it's like, ah, no, you're fucking not good 0:18:12.680 --> 0:18:15.200 enough or whatever, and I hate that. Like I'm learning 0:18:15.200 --> 0:18:17.520 to now what you said, not give a fuck, you 0:18:17.560 --> 0:18:21.320 know what I mean, Like now I really believe just 0:18:21.359 --> 0:18:23.560 saying it and pretending. Now it's like I don't give 0:18:23.600 --> 0:18:24.920