WEBVTT - “MY MOM RAN AWAY TO DISNEY WORLD”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hey there. What's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>My name is Logan.

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<v Speaker 1>Logan. How you doing, Logan? What's up?

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<v Speaker 2>This is This is Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>Right, yep, this is Lyle. This is me. It's weird

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<v Speaker 1>to it's weird to have a name, it's weird to

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<v Speaker 1>be alive. It's uh, it's too psychedelic. I've been I've

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<v Speaker 1>been having too many psychedelic thoughts lately. I need to

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<v Speaker 1>return back to reality. I need to stop at stop

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<v Speaker 1>signs and use a coupon at the grocery store and

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<v Speaker 1>uh put put a new roll of paper towel on

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<v Speaker 1>the on the paper towel holder, and uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>wash my hands when I go to the bathroom and

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<v Speaker 1>get mad at a cashier. That was rude to me,

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<v Speaker 1>Like it's just like grounding human things. You know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean? You know what I'm talking about? Logan?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, yeah, he definitely stop. Yeah, got hit by a

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<v Speaker 2>car to day.

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<v Speaker 1>You almost got hit by a car today? What was

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<v Speaker 1>that like? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>It was it was pretty sensational. I thought I was

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<v Speaker 2>about to die live flash before my eyes.

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<v Speaker 1>What did you see when your life flashed before you?

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<v Speaker 1>Your eyes.

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<v Speaker 2>Probably probably say, uh, it's all the ocean. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 2>think that's all the ocean. It was something big and blue.

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<v Speaker 1>So you saw the ocean. Mm hmm, pretty good. Pretty good. Well, logan,

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<v Speaker 1>it's okay. If not, man, we can just shoot the

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<v Speaker 1>ship and talk. But did you have something in particular

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<v Speaker 1>that you wanted to talk about.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I wanted to call and tell you about my

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<v Speaker 2>my girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>Churse girlfriend, curse.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, or it's more of a curse for them but

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<v Speaker 2>not for me.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, sure, what is it?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>So basically I've dated like these five girls, and like

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<v Speaker 2>they've cheated on me, but like almost every time something bad,

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<v Speaker 2>like really like karma bites them in the butt.

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<v Speaker 4>Basically.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, hold on one second. You dated five different women

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<v Speaker 1>and they all cheated on you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, not all at once, not all at once, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>they all cheated on me.

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<v Speaker 1>There's gotta be hold on. How old are you? I'm eighteen,

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<v Speaker 1>you're eighteen?

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you've dated and how long over the over the

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<v Speaker 1>course of how long did you date these five different women?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Most of the time all their all those relationships last

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<v Speaker 2>maybe five months and then they cheated. It's that's a

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<v Speaker 2>wom them.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, this is a bizarre situation. You're eighteen. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>mean these aren't even real. I guess these are. This

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<v Speaker 1>is like high school stuff. None of this this is

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<v Speaker 1>all a precursory to anything.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, this is high school.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah okay, I mean what I I almost sure? I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>what's the curse?

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<v Speaker 2>So they okay, the churses all the time, Like when

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<v Speaker 2>the girls would like date me, when I found out

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<v Speaker 2>like they cheated on me or something like that, like

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<v Speaker 2>something like bad Hamilton, like something either embarrassing or it

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<v Speaker 2>was just something that they really like cared about, kind

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<v Speaker 2>of like either like broke or like something bad happened.

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<v Speaker 2>It was just it is crazy.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, I oh my god, you'reus You're I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>these aren't even this is this isn't even anything. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>where I want to talk I don't know why. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like you're my son or something. Do you

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<v Speaker 1>want to talk about? Like where are you gonna go

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<v Speaker 1>to college? What are you gonna do with your life? Man?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm going to college to go become a traveling nurse.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to spoil the world.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh that's so wonderful. A traveling nurse.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>What does the traveling nurse do.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, they basically so they basically just they signed contracts

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<v Speaker 2>with different hospitals and like I'm pretty sure they like

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<v Speaker 2>either teach other nurses stuff or like they do special things.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not really sure exactly, but they just they make

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of money and they get to travel, and

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<v Speaker 2>that's what I look for in life.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool man. Where Whereas on your list of places to travel.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to go to Japan, Egypt, the Bahamas. Cool,

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<v Speaker 2>There'll probably be some other places.

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<v Speaker 1>Those are all great places. I've never been to Egypt

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<v Speaker 1>or the Bahamas. But uh, actually I've heard varying things

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<v Speaker 1>about Egypt. U. But you know whatever, you got to

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<v Speaker 1>go to these places to figure it out. Don't be

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<v Speaker 1>too sore about the first of all, you have a

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<v Speaker 1>great life plan. I'm excited for you. Don't be too

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<v Speaker 1>sore about. Uh, these girls cheating on you, that's not

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<v Speaker 1>even I don't did they even cheat on you? I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. This is it's like just so not real,

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<v Speaker 1>Like what did they just snap? I don't. I can't

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<v Speaker 1>even begin to dissect this situation or even desire to

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<v Speaker 1>call it a situation. Not to downplay your but also

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit to downplay your situation because I think

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<v Speaker 1>it's worth being downplayed. You have a much brighter future

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<v Speaker 1>ahead of you, so I don't. I'm not worried about

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<v Speaker 1>you at all. I'm I'm so excited for you to

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<v Speaker 1>traveling nurse. That'll be good, man, that'll be good.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean I'm not. I'm not said at all.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm living my best life right now, June, getting my

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<v Speaker 2>life on truck.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool Man, what are you? What are you benching these days?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm benching about like one Tini is not not really

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<v Speaker 2>doing the best, but my leg's on the other hand,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing it on the legs. I'm squatting like two.

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's like two forty two sit cool something

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<v Speaker 2>like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool Man. Cool. Well, Uh, well, all right, man, look

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<v Speaker 1>you I'm gonna I'm gonna let the lines clear for

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<v Speaker 1>you know, there's people out there who you know are

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<v Speaker 1>in deep pain and suffering. We want to talk to them. No,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just kidding, but uh, you're gonna be okay. You're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be okay. Is there anything else you want to

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<v Speaker 1>say to the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you guys, don't let don't let your girlfriend or

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<v Speaker 2>your boyfriends day chewing you something like that. Don't let

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<v Speaker 2>him bring you down. You got a whole whole life

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<v Speaker 2>ahead you experience.

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<v Speaker 1>This beautiful love y'all. All right, take care man, thank you. Hey.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name?

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<v Speaker 3>Hey, let's say my name is Corn.

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<v Speaker 1>Corn? What's up? Corn? How are you doing? What's going

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<v Speaker 1>on doing?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay? Okay? Today? It's a beautiful day outside.

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<v Speaker 1>It is. It's a nice day outside. Uh, it's a

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<v Speaker 1>nice day outside. What did you go out? Did you

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<v Speaker 1>do anything?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>Today? Not really? I mean everyone else is going out.

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<v Speaker 3>The windows are open now and the sun is shining,

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<v Speaker 3>so it's a good day, I think, Corn.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything in particular that you wanted to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about today?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes?

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<v Speaker 3>My mother is a wanna be Disney influencer.

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<v Speaker 6>Ooh, continue, Yes, so she kind of like prior resizes

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<v Speaker 6>her own happiness and like Disney above like anything else,

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<v Speaker 6>including her her children.

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<v Speaker 3>One of which is still a child, is still a minor.

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<v Speaker 4>But she.

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<v Speaker 3>The first time she kind of ran away to Disney,

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<v Speaker 3>she wouldn't answer our phone calls or text and like

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<v Speaker 3>locked not me, my dad and my sister, So she

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<v Speaker 3>would stop getting calls from us.

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<v Speaker 1>She's just at Disney alone.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh, she wants. She wants to be like a blogger,

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<v Speaker 3>a blogger, a Disney blogger, to like make like content

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<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean. Yeah, she wants to like

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<v Speaker 3>live stream I guess and be famous.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, why how how old are you? How old are you?

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<v Speaker 1>And as like the you and how old is your

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<v Speaker 1>brother or sister?

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<v Speaker 3>I am twenty two. My middle sister she takes with

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<v Speaker 3>her is nineteen, and then my our youngest sister is seventeen.

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<v Speaker 1>So you had so, oh it's what you said. Your

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<v Speaker 1>mom takes your sister with you with her?

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<v Speaker 3>She takes the middle sister with her.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh but just her? Are you? Are you? Why don't you?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you not want to go with her?

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<v Speaker 3>No? She never asks or invites that. She never really

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<v Speaker 3>tells me anything or anyone anything anymore. She kind of

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<v Speaker 3>just does whatever she wants without any like consequence because

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<v Speaker 3>yeah she can.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, your mom's off, your mom's gone off the deep end.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, she also see here she had we had

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<v Speaker 3>a gambling issue.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh man.

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<v Speaker 3>She uh decided to adopt or not adopt buy a

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<v Speaker 3>bunch of dogs after her mom died, and uh so,

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<v Speaker 3>right now, her like entire life is Disney and these

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<v Speaker 3>dogs which kind of sucks because like you know, like

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<v Speaker 3>I don't live at home anymore, but she really doesn't

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<v Speaker 3>really reach out or anything like that. It's all about

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<v Speaker 3>the dogs.

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<v Speaker 1>And Yeah, that fucking sucks, man, because it's it's weird.

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<v Speaker 1>It's hard with you when when when you have a

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<v Speaker 1>thing like this with your parents, like have you have

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<v Speaker 1>you had a have you like sat her down for

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<v Speaker 1>a conversation and been like, uh, listen, I'm trying to

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<v Speaker 1>have you in my life. Uh, and you just keep

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<v Speaker 1>running away to Disney World.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, basically we have I remember, you know, like calling

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<v Speaker 3>her and like basically like crying, dang, like why why

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<v Speaker 3>are you doing this? Like we my my sister, who's

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<v Speaker 3>who's still Who's seventeen? She was like sixteen at the

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<v Speaker 3>first time she did. She was like fifteen or fourteen,

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<v Speaker 3>and she was just and she was were just like

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<v Speaker 3>upset because she's not answering the calls and ignoring all

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<v Speaker 3>of us. And I remember I was crying. I'm like, mom,

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<v Speaker 3>why aren't you answering? Why do you care more about

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<v Speaker 3>Disney and then us? You just left all your responsibilities

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<v Speaker 3>at home? What about your your dogs? Just abandoned them

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<v Speaker 3>and forced our father to take care of them when

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<v Speaker 3>she's when he has a full time job, he has

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<v Speaker 3>still on top of everything.

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<v Speaker 1>M why are you guys? Are you guys in Florida?

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<v Speaker 1>Or is she like taking no plane trips?

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<v Speaker 3>No, she's driving.

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<v Speaker 1>Where what state are you in?

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<v Speaker 3>We're in New Jersey.

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<v Speaker 1>She fucking is driving. How often is she driving down

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<v Speaker 1>to Florida to become a Disney blog person?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, well right now she has a stupid thing called

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<v Speaker 3>a job. That so she can't like take as much

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<v Speaker 3>time off as she wants to spend in Disney. But

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<v Speaker 3>she needs a job to pay for Disney, so she

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<v Speaker 3>has to work unfortunately, so fad Okay, but she goes.

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<v Speaker 3>She used to. The longest she was there was maybe

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<v Speaker 3>six weeks once and then she went. She goes maybe

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<v Speaker 3>about three times a year at least.

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<v Speaker 1>So what I mean, what's up with? What's up with you?

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<v Speaker 1>What are you doing? Are you like in school or something?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh? No, I've worked. I've worked like ever since I

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<v Speaker 3>was like legally able to. Actually I was. I was

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<v Speaker 3>kind of thinking about that recently. I look, it's kind

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<v Speaker 3>of liked that. Like my sister who's seventeen right now,

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<v Speaker 3>she has two jobs right now, and then my other

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<v Speaker 3>sister who's nineteen, she's a job too, And I'm just like,

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<v Speaker 3>I think about the fact that like as soon as

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<v Speaker 3>all of us were legally able to work, even though

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<v Speaker 3>we're not, we're not like struggling. We were never like

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<v Speaker 3>my dad had a good job, but just my mom

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<v Speaker 3>was so irresponsible with money. It just like never, you

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<v Speaker 3>never felt like we had any money. So now I'm

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<v Speaker 3>trying to picture my sister who's seventeen, doesn't fall on

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<v Speaker 3>the same trap I did, where I gave up most

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<v Speaker 3>of my my last high school years to working and

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<v Speaker 3>didn't do anything fun socially.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, what do you I mean, what do you do

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<v Speaker 1>you have? Do you have dreams for the future moving forward?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean like I want to do things, like

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<v Speaker 3>I have goals and aspirations. But like, bottom line is

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<v Speaker 3>I really missed my family. I miss having They don't

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<v Speaker 3>they don't even live that My family home is twenty

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<v Speaker 3>minutes fifteen minutes away. But I can't do that. I

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<v Speaker 3>can't even go see them.

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<v Speaker 1>And you can't and you can't you can't get You

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<v Speaker 1>can't rally your mom or your dad or your siblings too. Oh,

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<v Speaker 1>we cried, get to go to therapy or something like that.

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<v Speaker 3>Can you she claims that this is good for her

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<v Speaker 3>anxiety or something like this is we all stress her

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<v Speaker 3>out and we and this is for her mental health.

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<v Speaker 3>And I'm like, I always tell her, what about my

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<v Speaker 3>mental health? And your other daughter's mental health and our

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<v Speaker 3>father's mental health? Who you know, we're all miserable because like,

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<v Speaker 3>first of all, I have when she's not my dad,

0:14:39.560 --> 0:14:42.960
<v Speaker 3>he works in the city and you know someone he has.

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<v Speaker 3>He gets to work from home most of the time.

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<v Speaker 3>But it's a hybrid schedule. So there were times when

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<v Speaker 3>like I had to literally take off of my job

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<v Speaker 3>that I need to support myself so she can go

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<v Speaker 3>take to take my sister to school because my dad

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<v Speaker 3>had to go into the office. And like the like

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<v Speaker 3>I don't want to know how much money, but I

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<v Speaker 3>bet it's tens of thousands of dollars in the past

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<v Speaker 3>couple of years.

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<v Speaker 5>M M.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, uh, you know, let's stay. Here's the thing, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm just gonna give it to you straight. Is

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<v Speaker 1>that this this is this is this what's your name again?

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<v Speaker 3>Let's go with the corn corn?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, corn corn. Look, I'm gonna tell you something.

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<v Speaker 1>I I'm I fucking I don't know. I'm not a

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<v Speaker 1>family therapist. I'm fucking h a dumb little boy, and uh,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I can only tell you things that are

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<v Speaker 1>how uh I would operate if I was in your situation.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a weird uh natural I guess unraveling of of

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<v Speaker 1>of things as you get older. I suppose of like

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<v Speaker 1>friend groups and and family, you know, and and sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>it's like, I don't know at this point, if you've

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<v Speaker 1>rallied everyone together, if you can still if you can

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<v Speaker 1>keep a good it sounds like your mom is going

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<v Speaker 1>off the fucking deep end, but like if you can

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<v Speaker 1>keep a good relationship going with your sisters, like I

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<v Speaker 1>would just focus on that. I would just focus on

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<v Speaker 1>like rallying the troops that want to stay on board,

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<v Speaker 1>because if your mom is going to Disney World and

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<v Speaker 1>she doesn't give a fuck, like A, first of all,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really really sorry to hear that, because that's just sucks.

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<v Speaker 1>But like, you know, who's left, Like who can you

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<v Speaker 1>rally that's left? How can you stay in touch with

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<v Speaker 1>your siblings? How can you you know, let your siblings

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<v Speaker 1>know that you're still there for them? How can you

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you know, keep doing fucking dinners, keep going

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<v Speaker 1>to their house, like just if you want your family back, like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, stay, try to have a positive relationship because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure sure that you're maybe not the one, the

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<v Speaker 1>one that is being dragged along to Disney. I actually

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<v Speaker 1>can't tell if she likes your mom more or hates

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<v Speaker 1>her more than the people who are quiant.

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<v Speaker 3>But like, the thing is is like she has like

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<v Speaker 3>she she has like some mental developmental disabilities, okay, and

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<v Speaker 3>she's like and she like is clung to my mom

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<v Speaker 3>her dear life.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>I told her like I told her, like listen mom,

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<v Speaker 3>Like I don't mean like because she's always that issue.

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<v Speaker 3>She was physically violent to me with as children, okay,

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<v Speaker 3>and I always was like, mom, you have to do

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<v Speaker 3>something before it's too late. When she turns eighteen, you

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<v Speaker 3>cannot force her anymore. You have to do this. She's like,

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<v Speaker 3>oh no, And then next thing, you know, she after

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<v Speaker 3>she turns eighteen, she's calm and complaining your sister's a monster.

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<v Speaker 3>She's doing all this stuff. I'm like, you made her

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<v Speaker 3>a monster, you made her that way, and she won't

0:17:56.000 --> 0:17:58.880
<v Speaker 3>she doesn't want to she'sn't great denial about it. She's

0:17:58.880 --> 0:18:02.760
<v Speaker 3>in denial about briefing. There's never a problem. It's always

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<v Speaker 3>us being a problem. We stress her out because of

0:18:05.920 --> 0:18:08.000
<v Speaker 3>me trying to her. That stresses her out because she

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<v Speaker 3>needs to stay longer in Florida.

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<v Speaker 1>What about what about your what about your your younger sister?

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<v Speaker 3>Like her track, He's he's good. I mean right now,

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<v Speaker 3>she's doing really good in school. I'm really proud of

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<v Speaker 3>her actually, But like the issue is that my mom

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<v Speaker 3>also is she's also a horder. So all that's there's

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<v Speaker 3>no I can't really go to the house really and

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<v Speaker 3>hang out with them.

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<v Speaker 1>Here's the thing, is I I I. Here's what I'll say,

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<v Speaker 1>and you should. You should really go talk to a

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<v Speaker 1>real therapist about this because I'm not I yeah, I know,

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<v Speaker 1>I look is here. Here are just two things I

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<v Speaker 1>will say from just my perspective on this situation is

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<v Speaker 1>a try your fucking best to Uh. It sounds like

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<v Speaker 1>the younger sister, I mean, I don't know what's up

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<v Speaker 1>with your dad. I don't know if your dad is

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of.

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<v Speaker 3>In my dad's okay, Yeah, he's miserable. There's no love

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<v Speaker 3>in their relationship. But she won't leave and he can't

0:19:06.240 --> 0:19:10.359
<v Speaker 3>legally kick her out. And my dad's basically just trying

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<v Speaker 3>to hope at least until my sister graduates high school

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<v Speaker 3>and she can go off to college, and then hope

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<v Speaker 3>do something because right now there's no real option.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so here's what I'll say, is, like the the

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<v Speaker 1>family members that have not jumped ship into whatever, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>whoever's left that you can have a relationship with, try

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<v Speaker 1>your best to have a relationship with them. Like it

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<v Speaker 1>sounds like you're the sister that's still in high school.

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<v Speaker 1>It sounds like you can continue to have a good

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<v Speaker 1>relationship with her, It sounds like you can continue to

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<v Speaker 1>have a good relationship with your dad. Try your best

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<v Speaker 1>to do those things, and then for the remainder of time,

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<v Speaker 1>like if you need to, like chill on hanging on

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<v Speaker 1>the scene, if you because this situation you sound like

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<v Speaker 1>it's driving you fucking me add and you have a life, dude,

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<v Speaker 1>You're only you're twenty two. You can fucking go. You're

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<v Speaker 1>twenty two. You're a hard working person. Okay, corn, you're

0:20:08.880 --> 0:20:11.360
<v Speaker 1>a hard working person, but work in your entire fucking life.

0:20:11.400 --> 0:20:14.919
<v Speaker 1>You're a young person. You you have, so you hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>You have so much potential to fucking go out on you.

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<v Speaker 1>You you live with, you live alone, you live You

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<v Speaker 1>left the.

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<v Speaker 3>House right, Yeah, I left the house.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. Do you live by yourself? You live with roommates?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you live by yourself? Do you live with roommates

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<v Speaker 1>with ms? Sorry, you live with roommate? You fucking you.

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<v Speaker 1>Look you you had enough initiative coming from this crazy

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<v Speaker 1>situation to work your way so that you're out of

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<v Speaker 1>the house independent on your own. I assume, pen your

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<v Speaker 1>own bills and shit you and for the rest of

0:20:45.520 --> 0:20:47.959
<v Speaker 1>your fucking life, you just have the work ethic you have,

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<v Speaker 1>the like you you just for whatever fucking craziness you

0:20:52.800 --> 0:20:57.800
<v Speaker 1>came from, right, like, just a hold hold tight on

0:20:57.880 --> 0:21:00.119
<v Speaker 1>the fact that the rest you have the potential to

0:21:00.280 --> 0:21:03.399
<v Speaker 1>just make a fucking great life for yourself beyond this.

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<v Speaker 1>So just do me, So, just do me, do me

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<v Speaker 1>a favorite. And I know that you're trying really hard

0:21:08.600 --> 0:21:11.840
<v Speaker 1>to keep your family together, and you should keep your

0:21:11.880 --> 0:21:14.760
<v Speaker 1>relationship going with the people who you really desire to

0:21:14.840 --> 0:21:17.280
<v Speaker 1>keep a relationship going. And I also know and I'm

0:21:17.320 --> 0:21:19.639
<v Speaker 1>talking out of my ass, and I have no idea

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm doing. But you just I know it's painful.

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<v Speaker 1>I know it's so fucking painful to like be a

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<v Speaker 1>part of this, and I know it's gonna take a

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<v Speaker 1>while to get over that pain and to to fucking

0:21:34.160 --> 0:21:37.280
<v Speaker 1>feel that pain. But just on the other side of

0:21:37.280 --> 0:21:40.840
<v Speaker 1>that pain is a great life. One day, You'll you'll

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<v Speaker 1>fucking meet some someone right, and you'll eventually have kids,

0:21:45.240 --> 0:21:47.920
<v Speaker 1>and you'll you'll be able to have the agency to

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<v Speaker 1>make a household it's not as fucking crazy as the

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<v Speaker 1>one that you grew up in, and you'll be able

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<v Speaker 1>to have you have have friends like you just just don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I just the worst thing from my perspective that could

0:21:59.480 --> 0:22:02.040
<v Speaker 1>happen in this situation is that you spend so much

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<v Speaker 1>time trying to fix this thing with your mom that

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<v Speaker 1>is unfortunately a lot of it is out of your control,

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<v Speaker 1>because if your mom is crazy, your mom is crazy

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<v Speaker 1>and that's her own battle. And you've done it sounds

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<v Speaker 1>to me like everything that you've fucking done everything you

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<v Speaker 1>can to get the family back together. But I would

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<v Speaker 1>just hate if you after spending so much time doing that,

0:22:29.840 --> 0:22:36.080
<v Speaker 1>we're doing it. We're now in active neglect of your

0:22:36.119 --> 0:22:41.600
<v Speaker 1>own life's potential. So again, if I were you, just

0:22:42.200 --> 0:22:45.080
<v Speaker 1>salvage the relationships that you if salvage and invest in

0:22:45.119 --> 0:22:48.600
<v Speaker 1>the relationships that you can with your sister, with your dad,

0:22:48.760 --> 0:22:50.920
<v Speaker 1>with your mom if she comes around, with your other sister,

0:22:50.960 --> 0:22:54.680
<v Speaker 1>if she comes around. But don't but focus, take your

0:22:54.680 --> 0:22:58.959
<v Speaker 1>focus away from my mom is crazy and this is

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<v Speaker 1>the it's your focal point in my life, and just

0:23:01.880 --> 0:23:04.679
<v Speaker 1>and just move it good and just like bring it

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<v Speaker 1>forward to like what what's going on?

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<v Speaker 7>You know?

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<v Speaker 3>Always yeah, my dad always tells me that you need

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<v Speaker 3>like as much as you care about me and your sisters,

0:23:14.600 --> 0:23:16.680
<v Speaker 3>you have to live your own life. You can't let

0:23:16.920 --> 0:23:20.560
<v Speaker 3>us hold you back from living. And I know it's

0:23:20.600 --> 0:23:22.760
<v Speaker 3>the truth, and it's I hate to have to come

0:23:22.800 --> 0:23:25.240
<v Speaker 3>to terms with it, but it's the truth. And I

0:23:25.520 --> 0:23:29.520
<v Speaker 3>can't keep I can't grow if I'm from stuck worrying

0:23:29.520 --> 0:23:30.960
<v Speaker 3>about them. That's an issue I have.

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<v Speaker 5>I worry about a lot of people.

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<v Speaker 1>And here's and here's yeah, go ahead, go ahead, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I have.

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<v Speaker 3>I have a good support system. I think it's just

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<v Speaker 3>like you know, it's just like as an adult, I've

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<v Speaker 3>come to realize these patterns that my mom in behavior,

0:23:45.160 --> 0:23:48.040
<v Speaker 3>they're not new they've always been like this. They're just

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<v Speaker 3>like I notice it more because I'm more self aware.

0:23:51.040 --> 0:23:54.159
<v Speaker 3>You know, my mom had me be a I was

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<v Speaker 3>a child model, and like, I never saw penny of that,

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<v Speaker 3>and like, and I didn't realize that at the time,

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<v Speaker 3>but one time my mom tried told me that five

0:24:08.560 --> 0:24:10.959
<v Speaker 3>hundred dollars is more than eight hundred dollars. You can

0:24:11.000 --> 0:24:12.440
<v Speaker 3>spend three hundred on jewelry.

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<v Speaker 1>Listen again, I I would corn, Listen Corn again. I'm

0:24:18.520 --> 0:24:20.560
<v Speaker 1>sorry that you should probably go talk to a real

0:24:20.600 --> 0:24:22.840
<v Speaker 1>therapist about all this stuff too. But again, what I

0:24:22.880 --> 0:24:27.320
<v Speaker 1>really have to say is like, hold down site on

0:24:27.400 --> 0:24:30.760
<v Speaker 1>your own fucking life, Okay, try to have something within

0:24:30.840 --> 0:24:33.640
<v Speaker 1>the craziness. Hold on tight to the market you're gonna

0:24:33.640 --> 0:24:35.920
<v Speaker 1>have You're gonna have a great life. You're gonna raise

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<v Speaker 1>you if if it's what you want. I don't know

0:24:38.200 --> 0:24:40.840
<v Speaker 1>if it's what you want, but if if, if one

0:24:40.880 --> 0:24:43.200
<v Speaker 1>day it's what you want to have your own family

0:24:43.600 --> 0:24:48.400
<v Speaker 1>and whatnot, you know you can do that. You can

0:24:48.440 --> 0:24:50.679
<v Speaker 1>live a great life. And if you do decide that

0:24:50.760 --> 0:24:52.639
<v Speaker 1>you want to have a family in the future, you

0:24:52.640 --> 0:24:56.159
<v Speaker 1>can take their asses to UH Universal Studios because it's

0:24:56.240 --> 0:24:57.360
<v Speaker 1>it's much better anyway.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Corn, Yeah, I mean, you're right.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm trying to think here, I don't know. I mean,

0:25:14.440 --> 0:25:16.679
<v Speaker 3>is is there any like anyone any I don't want

0:25:16.720 --> 0:25:20.040
<v Speaker 3>to have a question or anything like that in the

0:25:20.119 --> 0:25:25.720
<v Speaker 3>chat or I can answer. I just you know, it's

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<v Speaker 3>it's just really I I know I have to love

0:25:29.200 --> 0:25:32.640
<v Speaker 3>I love myself more and put the bug good.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what you should do.

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<v Speaker 3>But I just have to accept that part. That's the

0:25:35.760 --> 0:25:39.199
<v Speaker 3>hard part I can't accept is that, you know, I

0:25:39.240 --> 0:25:42.360
<v Speaker 3>need to stop loving others more than myself.

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<v Speaker 1>Good luck, good luck Corn, just again, I'll say it

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<v Speaker 1>for the five hundred, for the you know, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know how long I've been a ranting, but just try

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<v Speaker 1>try try, try beyond the craziness to find a u

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<v Speaker 1>a good path forward for your own life, Okay, and

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<v Speaker 1>just try to focus on that shit.

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<v Speaker 3>I will, I will. I really appreciate all.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, take care of Corn, Bye.

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<v Speaker 3>Bye, thank you, bye bye.

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<v Speaker 1>I truly do believe that the rides at Universal Studios

0:26:15.920 --> 0:26:19.000
<v Speaker 1>are a lot better. What does Universal Studios have? Well,

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<v Speaker 1>first of all, Universe Studios have the Mario Ride, which

0:26:22.080 --> 0:26:25.520
<v Speaker 1>is good. Actually I didn't like the Mario Ride that much.

0:26:25.760 --> 0:26:29.000
<v Speaker 1>Here's the problem with the Mario Ride is that it

0:26:29.040 --> 0:26:31.680
<v Speaker 1>was a shooting ride, and it was a three D ride,

0:26:31.760 --> 0:26:36.679
<v Speaker 1>but it also had like physical sets, you know, so

0:26:36.960 --> 0:26:40.800
<v Speaker 1>like there was too much going on, and I like,

0:26:40.800 --> 0:26:43.400
<v Speaker 1>occasionally I would like take my three D glasses off

0:26:43.440 --> 0:26:46.240
<v Speaker 1>and have to look around at the physical sets. You

0:26:46.240 --> 0:26:48.840
<v Speaker 1>know what, Maybe I'll have a family and abandon them

0:26:48.880 --> 0:26:53.560
<v Speaker 1>and become a Universal Studios blogger. That actually that sounds

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<v Speaker 1>kind of fun. Hello. Hello, Hey, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 5>Anthony?

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<v Speaker 1>Anthony? Up? Anthony? How you doing. I'm all right, man,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm hanging in there. I'm trying, no, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>figuring it out.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, what's wrong?

0:27:14.080 --> 0:27:14.840
<v Speaker 5>What's wrong? Derek?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh God, I don't want to look. Man. Here's the thing.

0:27:18.000 --> 0:27:28.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm I'm just not interested in forwarding out diarrhea

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<v Speaker 1>of my life any and in this very moment, in

0:27:32.480 --> 0:27:35.639
<v Speaker 1>this very moment, I would prefer actually for you to

0:27:35.720 --> 0:27:41.560
<v Speaker 1>diarrhea the what's going on in your life? So please

0:27:42.359 --> 0:27:44.479
<v Speaker 1>diarrhea into my ears.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, I honestly didn't expect to get on here.

0:27:49.080 --> 0:27:52.040
<v Speaker 5>So yeah, I had a topic to talk about, not

0:27:52.119 --> 0:27:54.879
<v Speaker 5>really necessarily about my life. I don't know. If you

0:27:54.880 --> 0:27:58.560
<v Speaker 5>want to hear about it? Yeah, go ahead, I mean yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm kinda ive been interested in bitcoin for a while.

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<v Speaker 5>That interests you?

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<v Speaker 1>Sure, man, we can talk about.

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<v Speaker 5>What's your what's your opinion on it? I'm sorry? Do

0:28:08.760 --> 0:28:11.000
<v Speaker 5>you care opinion at all?

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<v Speaker 1>Do I care at all about bitcoin?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

0:28:15.800 --> 0:28:18.080
<v Speaker 1>Do I care at all about big?

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<v Speaker 5>What do you think?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:28:19.240 --> 0:28:20.159
<v Speaker 5>What do you think about it?

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<v Speaker 1>Do I care it all about bitcoin? Uh? It's a

0:28:29.359 --> 0:28:31.959
<v Speaker 1>thing I don't know. Does it do it? Does it

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<v Speaker 1>do anything? Can you use it?

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<v Speaker 5>Like? Can you like are you saying can you spend

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<v Speaker 5>it at a store?

0:28:38.840 --> 0:28:39.080
<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

0:28:39.520 --> 0:28:40.560
<v Speaker 5>On Amazon or something?

0:28:41.000 --> 0:28:41.360
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:28:42.360 --> 0:28:45.800
<v Speaker 5>Oh no, I can't spend on Amazon quite yet.

0:28:46.280 --> 0:28:50.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay do you I Do you care about bitcoin?

0:28:52.080 --> 0:28:52.920
<v Speaker 5>I do I do?

0:28:53.160 --> 0:28:53.360
<v Speaker 7>Yeah?

0:28:53.480 --> 0:28:55.920
<v Speaker 1>Tell me tell me why you care about it me?

0:28:56.120 --> 0:28:57.880
<v Speaker 5>I mean, I'll tell you my story.

0:28:58.200 --> 0:28:59.960
<v Speaker 1>Tell me your story, Tell me your story.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay. Well, you know, so since I was eighteen, like

0:29:07.320 --> 0:29:12.240
<v Speaker 5>in in high school, I was always interested in, like

0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:15.520
<v Speaker 5>I got interested in like the stock market and stuff,

0:29:16.040 --> 0:29:19.760
<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean? So like that interested me.

0:29:19.880 --> 0:29:24.120
<v Speaker 5>I started learning about investing and then kind of go

0:29:24.200 --> 0:29:28.200
<v Speaker 5>into like this is pre COVID, So like pre COVID

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<v Speaker 5>investing was different, i'd say, right, Like, you learn about

0:29:31.800 --> 0:29:34.800
<v Speaker 5>investing and you're like, oh, dividend stocks, Oh, you could

0:29:34.800 --> 0:29:40.120
<v Speaker 5>make three cents per share if you buy I don't know,

0:29:40.320 --> 0:29:45.320
<v Speaker 5>coke or pepsi or something. This is sounding boring. Sorry,

0:29:45.840 --> 0:29:47.920
<v Speaker 5>this isn't this isn't very entertaining.

0:29:47.960 --> 0:29:52.960
<v Speaker 1>I guess. I'm here to I am here to listen

0:29:53.000 --> 0:29:57.600
<v Speaker 1>to you talk. So dear guys, just go ahead, all right.

0:29:58.120 --> 0:30:01.920
<v Speaker 5>Uh yeah, So, you know, start investing in the like

0:30:01.960 --> 0:30:07.200
<v Speaker 5>dividend stocks, and I'm like, okay, this is going you know,

0:30:07.240 --> 0:30:09.760
<v Speaker 5>I start to build up a little bit of a position,

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<v Speaker 5>get a couple like a thousand or two thousand dollars.

0:30:12.680 --> 0:30:14.920
<v Speaker 5>I'm eighteen at the time, so like I'm you know,

0:30:14.960 --> 0:30:18.040
<v Speaker 5>I'm young. You know, a couple thousands pretty good for me,

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<v Speaker 5>I guess. And then COVID hit and like I start

0:30:23.280 --> 0:30:26.080
<v Speaker 5>learning about real estate too. I start learning about all

0:30:26.160 --> 0:30:29.360
<v Speaker 5>that kind of stuff, like how the market works and

0:30:29.400 --> 0:30:33.080
<v Speaker 5>how all of this happens and all of this stuff.

0:30:33.720 --> 0:30:36.520
<v Speaker 5>But then COVID kind of changed everything for me and

0:30:36.640 --> 0:30:41.200
<v Speaker 5>my like life perspective, I'd say, I as it did

0:30:41.200 --> 0:30:46.680
<v Speaker 5>for everybody, because like when you're working hard for your

0:30:46.720 --> 0:30:52.720
<v Speaker 5>money and then the government can just print twelve, like

0:30:53.000 --> 0:30:57.400
<v Speaker 5>twelve hundred dollars to everybody, that really changed my mindset

0:30:57.400 --> 0:31:00.080
<v Speaker 5>and like, I don't know, I'm on more of like

0:31:00.120 --> 0:31:04.640
<v Speaker 5>a investing side of the internet. So like you see

0:31:04.640 --> 0:31:07.360
<v Speaker 5>the FED chairman go out and say, oh, yeah, we

0:31:07.400 --> 0:31:11.719
<v Speaker 5>have unlimited cash to hand out to people that need money.

0:31:12.240 --> 0:31:15.480
<v Speaker 5>Well it's like, well, I work for my money. I don't.

0:31:15.520 --> 0:31:15.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't.

0:31:16.120 --> 0:31:20.200
<v Speaker 5>We don't have money printers, we can't just print money.

0:31:20.280 --> 0:31:25.880
<v Speaker 5>So yeah, I started looking into money like this this

0:31:25.920 --> 0:31:29.960
<v Speaker 5>whole and then I started doing research and then you

0:31:30.040 --> 0:31:35.760
<v Speaker 5>find out like, okay, well they say the stimulus check

0:31:35.840 --> 0:31:39.320
<v Speaker 5>isn't going to cause inflation, but you know for a

0:31:39.360 --> 0:31:44.360
<v Speaker 5>fact it is. And then Drone Pale and all of

0:31:44.360 --> 0:31:47.280
<v Speaker 5>these people say, oh, no, inflation, that's not gonna happen,

0:31:47.600 --> 0:31:50.120
<v Speaker 5>and then inflation happens, and then they're like, okay, well

0:31:50.160 --> 0:31:54.960
<v Speaker 5>inflation is transitory, and then well you're like, well you're

0:31:55.000 --> 0:31:59.800
<v Speaker 5>lying because this is a lot of money and slation

0:31:59.880 --> 0:32:02.080
<v Speaker 5>is in transitory. It's going to keep happening for years.

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<v Speaker 1>It's okay, you know what, you know what, you know

0:32:04.760 --> 0:32:07.960
<v Speaker 1>what you are You're right, this is getting a little boring.

0:32:12.200 --> 0:32:14.400
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I kind of figured that's okay.

0:32:14.600 --> 0:32:20.080
<v Speaker 1>But but what do you want to do with all

0:32:20.120 --> 0:32:21.640
<v Speaker 1>your money? Man? What do you want to do with it?

0:32:21.680 --> 0:32:23.000
<v Speaker 1>What's the point? What's the goal?

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<v Speaker 5>What do I want to So basically a lot of people.

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<v Speaker 5>So my perspective is that bitcoin is the new revolution,

0:32:34.400 --> 0:32:36.479
<v Speaker 5>the new money of the world. I think it is

0:32:36.720 --> 0:32:40.120
<v Speaker 5>the best invention to ever you know, one of the

0:32:40.120 --> 0:32:43.840
<v Speaker 5>best inventions ever created. I think the story of bitcoin

0:32:43.960 --> 0:32:47.000
<v Speaker 5>is very interesting. I think, yeah, and I think a

0:32:47.000 --> 0:32:49.200
<v Speaker 5>lot when I talk to people about it, it's either

0:32:49.240 --> 0:32:52.000
<v Speaker 5>something like this, you know, it's boring, my story's boring

0:32:52.040 --> 0:32:56.640
<v Speaker 5>about it, whatever, or it's a scam or you know,

0:32:57.920 --> 0:33:01.520
<v Speaker 5>and it's like, how do I go about talking to

0:33:01.560 --> 0:33:05.760
<v Speaker 5>people about bitcoin? You know? In in a better fact?

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<v Speaker 1>Listen, listen man, how old are you?

0:33:10.240 --> 0:33:10.760
<v Speaker 5>Twenty four?

0:33:11.400 --> 0:33:14.360
<v Speaker 1>Twenty four? And you wanna what do you want to

0:33:14.400 --> 0:33:16.440
<v Speaker 1>do with all your Because here's here's let me tell

0:33:16.440 --> 0:33:19.480
<v Speaker 1>you something. One day, one day, you're gonna have a

0:33:19.520 --> 0:33:21.920
<v Speaker 1>million dollars, right do you think?

0:33:22.000 --> 0:33:22.080
<v Speaker 3>So?

0:33:22.600 --> 0:33:24.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, one day you're gonna have a million dollars. What

0:33:24.720 --> 0:33:26.400
<v Speaker 1>are you gonna do with it? You know what are

0:33:26.440 --> 0:33:30.080
<v Speaker 1>you gonna, is it gonna? What are you gonna do?

0:33:30.200 --> 0:33:34.240
<v Speaker 1>What do you want to Lambeau? You wanna fucking do nothing?

0:33:34.280 --> 0:33:36.640
<v Speaker 1>What do you wanna? What do you wanna do?

0:33:36.680 --> 0:33:36.840
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:33:36.880 --> 0:33:40.080
<v Speaker 5>I just want to take care of my future family

0:33:40.120 --> 0:33:41.320
<v Speaker 5>and stuff. Nothing crazy.

0:33:41.360 --> 0:33:46.280
<v Speaker 1>Probably that's pretty good. That's pretty good. All right?

0:33:46.320 --> 0:33:47.360
<v Speaker 7>Well, very boring.

0:33:47.440 --> 0:33:48.880
<v Speaker 5>I'm not I'm not really interesting.

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<v Speaker 8>I mean, it's not the hold on, hold on, hold

0:33:52.080 --> 0:33:56.560
<v Speaker 8>on man? Why why don't we don't need to We're

0:33:56.600 --> 0:33:59.400
<v Speaker 8>just talking. We don't need to be talking, and also

0:33:59.600 --> 0:34:04.200
<v Speaker 8>having hitting ourselves with with judgment calls as to whether

0:34:04.280 --> 0:34:05.880
<v Speaker 8>or not we're interesting.

0:34:05.440 --> 0:34:09.920
<v Speaker 1>Or boring or you know, we don't have time. That

0:34:10.000 --> 0:34:12.520
<v Speaker 1>was being funny. I mean, also it is kind of boring.

0:34:12.760 --> 0:34:16.720
<v Speaker 1>But but we we but we can withhold our judgment

0:34:16.760 --> 0:34:22.080
<v Speaker 1>calls on ourselves. Okay, And I'm not saying hold on. Sure,

0:34:22.520 --> 0:34:25.600
<v Speaker 1>the conversation that we were having was boring, but we don't.

0:34:25.640 --> 0:34:29.040
<v Speaker 1>But you, I'm not going I would never say that

0:34:29.239 --> 0:34:32.640
<v Speaker 1>you are a boring person. You are not an interesting

0:34:33.280 --> 0:34:35.719
<v Speaker 1>person as you as a human being, your essence. I

0:34:35.719 --> 0:34:38.319
<v Speaker 1>would never say that, and I wouldn't want you to

0:34:38.360 --> 0:34:41.480
<v Speaker 1>say that about yourself. You know, we're just talking. I mean,

0:34:41.520 --> 0:34:43.719
<v Speaker 1>we could talk about a billion different things. I'm not

0:34:44.080 --> 0:34:46.000
<v Speaker 1>but I don't want you to walk away from this

0:34:46.480 --> 0:34:52.279
<v Speaker 1>conversation thinking that you yourself are not are are inherently

0:34:52.360 --> 0:34:56.160
<v Speaker 1>not interesting, even if I look, I like talking about

0:34:56.200 --> 0:35:02.120
<v Speaker 1>stocks and uh things. You know, maybe it's maybe, but

0:35:02.120 --> 0:35:06.920
<v Speaker 1>but in this very moment, perhaps I am not that interesting.

0:35:07.239 --> 0:35:10.440
<v Speaker 1>Perhaps you are not that interesting in this very moment.

0:35:10.600 --> 0:35:13.800
<v Speaker 1>But we've lived long lives. We're gonna keep living long lives,

0:35:13.840 --> 0:35:17.279
<v Speaker 1>will be will be more things at more moments. We

0:35:17.280 --> 0:35:22.280
<v Speaker 1>don't have to fucking say that we're one thing forever

0:35:22.440 --> 0:35:25.480
<v Speaker 1>and in the future and forever in the past, you

0:35:25.520 --> 0:35:28.879
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. So yeah, that's that's that's that's

0:35:28.960 --> 0:35:34.400
<v Speaker 1>my takeaway from this conversation about bitcoin is don't beat you.

0:35:34.480 --> 0:35:35.960
<v Speaker 1>Don't beat yourself up about it.

0:35:36.320 --> 0:35:36.520
<v Speaker 4>Man.

0:35:36.680 --> 0:35:40.520
<v Speaker 1>You're You're plenty interesting. You're a human being alive on

0:35:40.560 --> 0:35:43.560
<v Speaker 1>the ear. You're the fact that you are our conscious

0:35:43.680 --> 0:35:49.280
<v Speaker 1>being is is an insane thing. So just keep being

0:35:49.360 --> 0:35:51.920
<v Speaker 1>that and you're inherently interesting and whatever you do on

0:35:51.960 --> 0:35:53.160
<v Speaker 1>top of that is interesting.

0:35:54.560 --> 0:35:57.160
<v Speaker 5>You know what, I think You're just I really, to

0:35:57.239 --> 0:35:59.120
<v Speaker 5>be honest, I think you're just saying a bunch of

0:35:59.120 --> 0:36:01.759
<v Speaker 5>words to get me off the call. I think that's

0:36:01.800 --> 0:36:02.600
<v Speaker 5>where this is geting.

0:36:03.320 --> 0:36:06.040
<v Speaker 1>Event well, yeah, eventually, yeah, we'll have to end the call.

0:36:06.160 --> 0:36:08.719
<v Speaker 1>But but I you do you think I don't mean

0:36:08.760 --> 0:36:10.319
<v Speaker 1>the things I'm saying to you right now?

0:36:15.360 --> 0:36:20.920
<v Speaker 5>I mean, not necessarily, no, honestly, No, you.

0:36:20.880 --> 0:36:23.759
<v Speaker 1>Mean you know, as in you believe no isn' you

0:36:23.800 --> 0:36:26.520
<v Speaker 1>think I don't believe them? And no is in you what?

0:36:27.680 --> 0:36:29.399
<v Speaker 5>I don't think you're believe. I don't think you believe

0:36:29.480 --> 0:36:30.400
<v Speaker 5>the words that you say.

0:36:30.600 --> 0:36:32.359
<v Speaker 1>Well, you know what I do right now. And if

0:36:32.640 --> 0:36:34.239
<v Speaker 1>you if you don't want to, if you don't want

0:36:34.239 --> 0:36:36.200
<v Speaker 1>to believe them, that's on you. But I believe them.

0:36:36.920 --> 0:36:39.040
<v Speaker 5>Okay, all right man?

0:36:39.280 --> 0:36:40.720
<v Speaker 1>What's what's your name again?

0:36:41.960 --> 0:36:42.440
<v Speaker 5>Anthony?

0:36:42.880 --> 0:36:47.760
<v Speaker 1>Anthony Anthony? I sincerely, No, I'm not. I'm not religious

0:36:48.280 --> 0:36:53.840
<v Speaker 1>really why, I don't know. I grew up a little religious.

0:36:53.880 --> 0:36:55.279
<v Speaker 1>Are you religious?

0:36:56.160 --> 0:36:56.600
<v Speaker 7>Recently?

0:36:56.640 --> 0:36:58.240
<v Speaker 5>I've been getting religious?

0:36:58.280 --> 0:37:01.440
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, into Jesus.

0:37:01.600 --> 0:37:06.040
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I've actually I actually just got baptized on Sunday.

0:37:06.719 --> 0:37:09.640
<v Speaker 1>Well good actually, good man, listen. Here's the thing is

0:37:09.680 --> 0:37:12.960
<v Speaker 1>I I I say again, on here?

0:37:13.520 --> 0:37:14.640
<v Speaker 5>Do you talk about it? On here?

0:37:14.760 --> 0:37:15.560
<v Speaker 1>Do I talk about what?

0:37:15.640 --> 0:37:15.960
<v Speaker 6>On here?

0:37:16.920 --> 0:37:17.360
<v Speaker 5>Religion?

0:37:18.120 --> 0:37:24.040
<v Speaker 1>So sometimes sometimes Okay, I genuine and you know what,

0:37:24.360 --> 0:37:26.279
<v Speaker 1>this is the last thing I'm gonna say because I

0:37:27.200 --> 0:37:29.359
<v Speaker 1>believe these things I'm saying, and I'm gonna say them

0:37:29.360 --> 0:37:32.880
<v Speaker 1>to you. In finality, I genuinely believe You're gonna make

0:37:32.880 --> 0:37:36.399
<v Speaker 1>a million dollars. Jesus is gonna guide you. You think

0:37:36.440 --> 0:37:38.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm fucking lying to you. I'm being one hundred and series.

0:37:38.360 --> 0:37:40.880
<v Speaker 1>You're gonna make a million dollars, You're gonna find a

0:37:40.920 --> 0:37:44.400
<v Speaker 1>beautiful wife, You're gonna have children. You're gonna long forget

0:37:44.960 --> 0:37:47.640
<v Speaker 1>when you're like forty five years old and you have

0:37:48.200 --> 0:37:50.640
<v Speaker 1>a beautiful wife and children and you're taking them to

0:37:50.760 --> 0:37:53.440
<v Speaker 1>church and you have a bunch of money. You it'll

0:37:53.560 --> 0:37:58.120
<v Speaker 1>have been forty it'll have been twenty years since you

0:37:58.200 --> 0:38:02.000
<v Speaker 1>even ever thought about this phone call. And you're gonna

0:38:02.080 --> 0:38:03.480
<v Speaker 1>do that. I don't I don't know what I'm going

0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:06.760
<v Speaker 1>to be doing, but I just know in my gut

0:38:07.000 --> 0:38:09.960
<v Speaker 1>you're going to be living a happy and nice life.

0:38:10.560 --> 0:38:12.839
<v Speaker 1>And you think I'm just saying and you think I'm

0:38:12.840 --> 0:38:15.120
<v Speaker 1>just saying this to you to get you off the phone.

0:38:15.480 --> 0:38:17.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to get you off the phone just because

0:38:17.120 --> 0:38:20.719
<v Speaker 1>I am. But you but you think I'm fucking bullshitting you,

0:38:20.760 --> 0:38:22.840
<v Speaker 1>and I I mean what I'm saying one hundred percent.

0:38:26.840 --> 0:38:28.680
<v Speaker 5>Okay, I'm I don't.

0:38:28.880 --> 0:38:29.200
<v Speaker 1>I don't.

0:38:29.239 --> 0:38:32.320
<v Speaker 5>I don't think I'm look, I started getting into bitcoin

0:38:32.400 --> 0:38:33.160
<v Speaker 5>because of the money.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't.

0:38:34.239 --> 0:38:36.319
<v Speaker 5>I think it's bigger than just the money. I think

0:38:36.320 --> 0:38:41.480
<v Speaker 5>it's about the whole system of government. You know, people

0:38:41.840 --> 0:38:45.799
<v Speaker 5>you know on the left, they say it's because of capitalism.

0:38:46.840 --> 0:38:51.640
<v Speaker 5>You know, I don't. I think that the Fiat currency

0:38:51.680 --> 0:38:53.839
<v Speaker 5>system is the problem. So like when you say, oh,

0:38:53.880 --> 0:38:55.680
<v Speaker 5>I'm going to make a million dollars, I don't really

0:38:55.719 --> 0:38:58.080
<v Speaker 5>have that exact perspective, you know what I mean, Like,

0:38:58.760 --> 0:39:02.920
<v Speaker 5>I don't look at the world through a dollar perspective.

0:39:02.920 --> 0:39:03.760
<v Speaker 5>If that makes.

0:39:03.520 --> 0:39:09.040
<v Speaker 1>Sense, it does make sense that at the world, no,

0:39:09.480 --> 0:39:11.160
<v Speaker 1>you look at I I get it, you, I get it.

0:39:11.160 --> 0:39:13.440
<v Speaker 1>You think in terms of value, now, not in terms

0:39:13.440 --> 0:39:18.560
<v Speaker 1>of dollars because of because I understand. But but you

0:39:18.680 --> 0:39:21.000
<v Speaker 1>hold on, you're getting lost. But you're getting lost in

0:39:21.040 --> 0:39:23.759
<v Speaker 1>the semantics. You will have a million, you will have

0:39:23.840 --> 0:39:26.960
<v Speaker 1>whatever the equivalent of a million dollars is, but it's

0:39:26.960 --> 0:39:28.840
<v Speaker 1>not gonna matter. What's gonna matter is you're gonna have

0:39:28.880 --> 0:39:32.120
<v Speaker 1>a wife and children and Jesus and that's gonna guide

0:39:32.120 --> 0:39:36.319
<v Speaker 1>you through this insane experience of being alive. And that's

0:39:36.320 --> 0:39:37.759
<v Speaker 1>what that's what I have to say to you. And

0:39:37.840 --> 0:39:41.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm extremely happy for you. I think you're gonna

0:39:41.960 --> 0:39:44.560
<v Speaker 1>be I think you're gonna fucking blow it out of

0:39:44.600 --> 0:39:48.680
<v Speaker 1>the water. And you really do think I'm being facetious

0:39:48.719 --> 0:39:52.319
<v Speaker 1>right now, And I just swear on my child's life

0:39:52.320 --> 0:39:57.040
<v Speaker 1>that I'm not. No, I'm swearing on my first child's life.

0:39:57.040 --> 0:39:59.160
<v Speaker 1>I'm not being facetious about any the things I'm saying

0:39:59.160 --> 0:40:02.080
<v Speaker 1>to you. I I think you're gonna have a good

0:40:02.120 --> 0:40:07.120
<v Speaker 1>life because you're guided. But you seem sane. I mean

0:40:07.160 --> 0:40:09.200
<v Speaker 1>that in my God, that's how you feel as you

0:40:09.239 --> 0:40:09.759
<v Speaker 1>feel easy.

0:40:11.320 --> 0:40:13.720
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, we're going to end the call, but I really

0:40:14.600 --> 0:40:18.120
<v Speaker 5>last thing I'm gonna say, okay, is it's about you know,

0:40:18.239 --> 0:40:21.600
<v Speaker 5>religion and Jesus. And if you're you care about the

0:40:21.640 --> 0:40:24.680
<v Speaker 5>truth in life, you know you want truth, I would

0:40:24.719 --> 0:40:30.200
<v Speaker 5>say really historical from historical evidence. You know, ask yourself these.

0:40:30.160 --> 0:40:34.440
<v Speaker 1>Questions, there's no fucking truth, Anthony, that there's no fucking truth.

0:40:34.480 --> 0:40:38.200
<v Speaker 1>There's your truth, there's my truth, there's eight billion truths.

0:40:38.719 --> 0:40:41.600
<v Speaker 5>That's not the perspective I have, but I'm believing.

0:40:41.800 --> 0:40:45.560
<v Speaker 9>No exactly, that's what hold on what you Anthony, What

0:40:45.600 --> 0:40:47.880
<v Speaker 9>you just said proves my point.

0:40:48.280 --> 0:40:50.440
<v Speaker 1>That is not the perspective that you have. We have

0:40:50.480 --> 0:40:52.920
<v Speaker 1>two different perspectives. We have two different truths.

0:40:54.120 --> 0:40:58.000
<v Speaker 5>It's not necessarily because Okay, say you don't believe in

0:40:58.040 --> 0:41:02.360
<v Speaker 5>God and I do, and Jesus is real and God

0:41:02.440 --> 0:41:08.400
<v Speaker 5>is real, and you think that when you die you

0:41:08.440 --> 0:41:11.000
<v Speaker 5>just go into the ground and you become a fertilizer.

0:41:11.800 --> 0:41:14.600
<v Speaker 5>But that's not true. There is one truth, you know

0:41:14.640 --> 0:41:16.000
<v Speaker 5>what I mean? Do you see what I'm saying?

0:41:22.600 --> 0:41:26.600
<v Speaker 1>Look right, the sky is blue. But if I say

0:41:26.640 --> 0:41:32.960
<v Speaker 1>it's green, that's my vote in reality. And reality is reality.

0:41:33.840 --> 0:41:34.560
<v Speaker 1>What is truth?

0:41:36.960 --> 0:41:41.960
<v Speaker 5>Truth is what the truth is. It's it's the fact God.

0:41:41.800 --> 0:41:44.360
<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have such an awesome life. I really believe

0:41:44.400 --> 0:41:47.800
<v Speaker 1>that you're gonna have such an I really believe.

0:41:49.239 --> 0:41:50.200
<v Speaker 7>That's not true.

0:41:50.600 --> 0:41:54.239
<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have an awesome life for multiple I just

0:41:54.520 --> 0:41:56.480
<v Speaker 1>you're gonna have it. Also, life for multiple reasons is

0:41:56.560 --> 0:42:02.600
<v Speaker 1>one You're gonna find some other super Christian lady and

0:42:02.640 --> 0:42:05.840
<v Speaker 1>you guys are gonna start a Christian household. Your life

0:42:05.880 --> 0:42:09.960
<v Speaker 1>is gonna have direction, to it, guided by Jesus and God.

0:42:10.400 --> 0:42:13.200
<v Speaker 1>You're gonna raise Christian children, You're gonna get involved in

0:42:13.239 --> 0:42:17.319
<v Speaker 1>the church community. You're gonna make smart financial decisions and

0:42:17.360 --> 0:42:19.840
<v Speaker 1>be able to send your kids to You're gonna have

0:42:19.880 --> 0:42:21.760
<v Speaker 1>a great life, Anthony.

0:42:22.320 --> 0:42:23.520
<v Speaker 5>Did I appreciate that way?

0:42:23.680 --> 0:42:27.160
<v Speaker 1>I believe. I don't know what's gonna I don't know.

0:42:27.200 --> 0:42:28.880
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what's gonna happen. Then maybe I know

0:42:28.880 --> 0:42:33.480
<v Speaker 1>you're gonna have a great life. And I fully and

0:42:33.880 --> 0:42:37.480
<v Speaker 1>we I you have your own truth. That's what's exciting

0:42:37.560 --> 0:42:39.200
<v Speaker 1>to me about your life is that you have your

0:42:39.200 --> 0:42:42.759
<v Speaker 1>own truth. I have my I'm sort of searching for

0:42:42.840 --> 0:42:47.480
<v Speaker 1>a little for some version of truth right now. But

0:42:47.560 --> 0:42:49.960
<v Speaker 1>you have your own truth. That's great. I'm excited for you.

0:42:50.040 --> 0:42:56.640
<v Speaker 1>And I swear on on the future of of not

0:42:56.680 --> 0:43:00.439
<v Speaker 1>only America, but also of the the the you a e.

0:43:01.360 --> 0:43:06.280
<v Speaker 1>I swear on the future of the of of Saint Lucia.

0:43:06.520 --> 0:43:10.319
<v Speaker 1>I swear on the future of the state of Montana.

0:43:10.440 --> 0:43:16.360
<v Speaker 1>And I swear on my cousin's life that you're gonna

0:43:16.400 --> 0:43:18.600
<v Speaker 1>have a great life because I believe in it so heavily.

0:43:18.640 --> 0:43:25.560
<v Speaker 1>And you think I'm being facetious, but I'm not. I

0:43:25.600 --> 0:43:28.040
<v Speaker 1>was not you know what, Yeah, go ahead, you have

0:43:28.080 --> 0:43:29.399
<v Speaker 1>all right, go ahead, you have something else.

0:43:30.719 --> 0:43:32.920
<v Speaker 5>Well, I was just gonna go back to the three questions.

0:43:33.360 --> 0:43:35.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna I'm gonna end it before you get

0:43:35.600 --> 0:43:39.319
<v Speaker 1>into the three questions. But I because we're gonna go

0:43:39.320 --> 0:43:43.480
<v Speaker 1>in circles. But Anthony, I love you so much, Anthony.

0:43:43.560 --> 0:43:46.280
<v Speaker 1>I love you so much. You're gonna have a great life,

0:43:46.320 --> 0:43:49.920
<v Speaker 1>and I will see you hopefully, hopefully. Anthony.

0:43:50.000 --> 0:43:53.520
<v Speaker 9>If there is one truth, if there is, Anthony, Anthony,

0:43:53.560 --> 0:43:56.560
<v Speaker 9>shut the fuck up, Anthony. If there's one truth, Anthony,

0:43:56.600 --> 0:43:59.120
<v Speaker 9>shut up for a second. I hope there is one truth,

0:43:59.160 --> 0:44:01.480
<v Speaker 9>and that I see you in heaven and I will

0:44:01.480 --> 0:44:05.040
<v Speaker 9>talk to you around. I will, Actually I'll probably never

0:44:05.040 --> 0:44:06.839
<v Speaker 9>talk to you again. But I think you will have

0:44:06.880 --> 0:44:09.160
<v Speaker 9>an awesome life, and I love you very much, and

0:44:09.560 --> 0:44:11.480
<v Speaker 9>I'll see you around, hopefully we will.

0:44:11.520 --> 0:44:13.279
<v Speaker 1>I'll see you in heaven. Okay, I'm gonna hang up

0:44:13.280 --> 0:44:21.759
<v Speaker 1>on you. Bye. That was Anthony. I know we're gonna

0:44:21.800 --> 0:44:24.279
<v Speaker 1>get I've a whole lot a few things to clear up.

0:44:24.360 --> 0:44:26.240
<v Speaker 1>I know we're gonna get a ton of negative comments

0:44:27.000 --> 0:44:30.440
<v Speaker 1>about Anthony, and I will defend him against all of

0:44:30.440 --> 0:44:34.000
<v Speaker 1>those negative comments because I believed it deeply in what

0:44:34.080 --> 0:44:35.879
<v Speaker 1>I said to him just now. I believe he's gonna

0:44:35.920 --> 0:44:42.400
<v Speaker 1>have a good life, He's gonna raise nice children. He'll

0:44:42.480 --> 0:44:50.120
<v Speaker 1>never understand. I don't think can I say, can I

0:44:50.160 --> 0:44:52.480
<v Speaker 1>share something? Maybe it's a little bit depressing. But I

0:44:52.520 --> 0:44:55.160
<v Speaker 1>saw a comment on the internet, which is where I

0:44:55.320 --> 0:44:59.120
<v Speaker 1>go to receive all of my best information. I saw

0:44:59.120 --> 0:45:06.040
<v Speaker 1>a comment on Reddit. If ignorance is bliss, is clarity misery?

0:45:08.120 --> 0:45:11.520
<v Speaker 1>I think I don't want to say that Anthony is ignorant.

0:45:11.600 --> 0:45:16.040
<v Speaker 1>I actually take that back, but I don't. I think

0:45:16.160 --> 0:45:21.799
<v Speaker 1>in Anthony's belief he finds meaning and happiness.

0:45:23.200 --> 0:45:23.319
<v Speaker 3>Uh.

0:45:23.680 --> 0:45:26.680
<v Speaker 1>And I I think he's going to have a good

0:45:26.719 --> 0:45:30.719
<v Speaker 1>life because of that. And I think that because he's

0:45:30.760 --> 0:45:32.799
<v Speaker 1>gonna he I think he'll be fine. I just think

0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:37.280
<v Speaker 1>he'll be okay. I mean everything I said, I even

0:45:37.480 --> 0:45:39.880
<v Speaker 1>I and I swear that I mean everything I said

0:45:39.960 --> 0:45:43.399
<v Speaker 1>on the State of Montana and on the UAE and

0:45:43.480 --> 0:45:48.880
<v Speaker 1>on Yeah, he'll be fine. He'll be fine. You'll be fine.

0:45:48.920 --> 0:45:53.319
<v Speaker 1>Go if you're thinking about writing some fucking comment, you can,

0:45:53.480 --> 0:45:55.520
<v Speaker 1>but you'll be fine, and he'll be fine, and everything

0:45:55.560 --> 0:45:56.080
<v Speaker 1>will be fine.

0:45:57.760 --> 0:46:03.200
<v Speaker 5>Joe, Hello, Hey man, how are you hey?

0:46:03.239 --> 0:46:03.680
<v Speaker 1>What's up?

0:46:03.680 --> 0:46:03.839
<v Speaker 5>Man?

0:46:03.960 --> 0:46:04.080
<v Speaker 6>Uh?

0:46:04.239 --> 0:46:05.880
<v Speaker 1>Fuck? I'm okay, man? How are you.

0:46:07.960 --> 0:46:10.320
<v Speaker 7>Good? I'm actually working from home today.

0:46:10.960 --> 0:46:11.839
<v Speaker 1>Very nice? What do you do?

0:46:13.960 --> 0:46:18.200
<v Speaker 4>Uh? I trained as a as a physical oceanographer.

0:46:19.040 --> 0:46:20.960
<v Speaker 1>Hey, well I say that one more time.

0:46:22.400 --> 0:46:27.440
<v Speaker 4>A physical oceanographers physical oceanographer.

0:46:27.880 --> 0:46:28.320
<v Speaker 1>Wow.

0:46:28.880 --> 0:46:30.879
<v Speaker 4>So I don't I don't. I don't do like dolphins

0:46:31.000 --> 0:46:33.239
<v Speaker 4>or whales or any of that stuff. But just you

0:46:33.280 --> 0:46:36.680
<v Speaker 4>know how currents move around the ocean.

0:46:37.960 --> 0:46:43.960
<v Speaker 1>Wow, how currents move around the ocean? Is that exciting stuff?

0:46:46.560 --> 0:46:49.640
<v Speaker 4>It can be if you want to know where trash

0:46:49.760 --> 0:46:52.440
<v Speaker 4>is going, or if you're a I suppose if you're

0:46:52.440 --> 0:46:55.960
<v Speaker 4>a government and you want to sue another government, uh

0:46:56.000 --> 0:46:58.280
<v Speaker 4>for for pouting and water, it could be exciting.

0:46:59.120 --> 0:47:00.480
<v Speaker 7>But yeah, it's all.

0:47:02.120 --> 0:47:09.520
<v Speaker 1>Very nice, very nice. Josh, you said, Joe, Joe, you

0:47:09.520 --> 0:47:10.400
<v Speaker 1>call me Josh.

0:47:10.600 --> 0:47:12.320
<v Speaker 5>I'm Joe.

0:47:13.320 --> 0:47:15.680
<v Speaker 1>It's very sweet that I can call you that if

0:47:15.719 --> 0:47:19.640
<v Speaker 1>I want, Joe. Is there anything in particular that you

0:47:19.680 --> 0:47:22.040
<v Speaker 1>want to talk about today?

0:47:22.960 --> 0:47:25.879
<v Speaker 7>Not much. I actually wasn't even expecting to get through.

0:47:25.920 --> 0:47:28.080
<v Speaker 7>It's been uh, I don't know, an easy day.

0:47:28.080 --> 0:47:30.759
<v Speaker 4>I figured be fun just to shoot the ships all

0:47:30.800 --> 0:47:34.040
<v Speaker 4>you're streaming and uh so you just got back from

0:47:34.120 --> 0:47:37.160
<v Speaker 4>Japan and I did welcome back to the States.

0:47:37.200 --> 0:47:44.400
<v Speaker 1>I guess, thanks buddy. Well, uh, let's see, let's see,

0:47:44.480 --> 0:47:50.120
<v Speaker 1>let's see what get what gives you, uh a meaning

0:47:50.120 --> 0:47:53.000
<v Speaker 1>in life? Joe? Why do you wake up in the

0:47:53.040 --> 0:47:54.280
<v Speaker 1>morning and do anything?

0:47:55.760 --> 0:48:00.000
<v Speaker 4>Well, these days I just had it feels like just yesterday.

0:48:00.080 --> 0:48:01.879
<v Speaker 4>But I've got a two year old at home now,

0:48:03.120 --> 0:48:04.440
<v Speaker 4>and that's that's quite bizarre.

0:48:07.320 --> 0:48:07.440
<v Speaker 5>Uh.

0:48:08.040 --> 0:48:11.319
<v Speaker 7>You know, I think about a year ago, I had.

0:48:11.520 --> 0:48:14.480
<v Speaker 4>Been reaching out to you as I've been processing a lot.

0:48:14.520 --> 0:48:18.640
<v Speaker 4>You know, you have a kid, and suddenly everything feels

0:48:18.640 --> 0:48:20.440
<v Speaker 4>like it changes in terms of priorities.

0:48:20.920 --> 0:48:21.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:48:21.360 --> 0:48:21.600
<v Speaker 6>Yeah.

0:48:22.360 --> 0:48:26.799
<v Speaker 4>What you do is it's like so more often these

0:48:26.880 --> 0:48:29.319
<v Speaker 4>days it's you get up and you do this. You

0:48:29.440 --> 0:48:33.960
<v Speaker 4>do your job because well you have to, not necessarily because.

0:48:33.760 --> 0:48:34.120
<v Speaker 7>You like it.

0:48:34.200 --> 0:48:35.880
<v Speaker 4>I felt like in my twenties I could just kind

0:48:35.920 --> 0:48:36.799
<v Speaker 4>of fuck around and.

0:48:37.600 --> 0:48:38.520
<v Speaker 7>I didn't make money.

0:48:38.560 --> 0:48:41.680
<v Speaker 4>It was just me. You know, it wasn't really high

0:48:41.800 --> 0:48:45.320
<v Speaker 4>high stakes. You know, now there's a there's a being

0:48:45.360 --> 0:48:46.200
<v Speaker 4>that actually.

0:48:45.880 --> 0:48:48.360
<v Speaker 7>Depends on me. So it's you know, sometimes.

0:48:47.960 --> 0:48:50.160
<v Speaker 4>You put up with more things that than than you

0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:52.440
<v Speaker 4>probably would have when it was just you.

0:48:52.880 --> 0:48:56.319
<v Speaker 7>Mm hmm, yeah, mm hmm.

0:48:59.320 --> 0:49:01.239
<v Speaker 5>But y know, this.

0:49:02.760 --> 0:49:09.080
<v Speaker 4>Having so goddamn, let's see, like ten years ago, what

0:49:09.520 --> 0:49:12.839
<v Speaker 4>year is this, twenty twenty, fifteen years ago? Holy shit,

0:49:13.680 --> 0:49:22.920
<v Speaker 4>fifteen years ago when I started studying oceanography, my mom

0:49:23.000 --> 0:49:26.040
<v Speaker 4>had died, and you know, I kind of went into

0:49:26.040 --> 0:49:28.600
<v Speaker 4>this phase of just kind of like putting my head down.

0:49:28.400 --> 0:49:34.880
<v Speaker 7>And doing work, and then it was more trying to travel.

0:49:34.600 --> 0:49:38.160
<v Speaker 4>And you know, kind of figure out what what the

0:49:38.200 --> 0:49:45.560
<v Speaker 4>hell this whole thing is that I'm living. And I

0:49:45.560 --> 0:49:48.080
<v Speaker 4>don't know, I can't believe, well, I can't even believe fifteen.

0:49:47.800 --> 0:49:50.239
<v Speaker 7>Years is gone by to get to this point.

0:49:50.440 --> 0:49:54.799
<v Speaker 4>But I moved around a lot, like basically evorite two years,

0:49:54.800 --> 0:49:57.480
<v Speaker 4>went to another state, tried another job. You know, I

0:49:57.560 --> 0:50:01.920
<v Speaker 4>just really partner got pregnant and have we had to

0:50:01.920 --> 0:50:02.360
<v Speaker 4>figure out O.

0:50:02.480 --> 0:50:04.600
<v Speaker 1>Sorry you cut out after you said that you moved

0:50:04.920 --> 0:50:07.200
<v Speaker 1>states every two years.

0:50:07.680 --> 0:50:07.919
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:50:08.040 --> 0:50:11.000
<v Speaker 4>No, so it's just after after a while of doing that,

0:50:11.840 --> 0:50:14.480
<v Speaker 4>my partner got pregnant and we had to figure out

0:50:15.239 --> 0:50:18.000
<v Speaker 4>how we were going to accommodate, you know, another person.

0:50:18.920 --> 0:50:20.040
<v Speaker 7>We had been living like in.

0:50:20.000 --> 0:50:23.040
<v Speaker 4>A little five hundred square foot apartment with a dog

0:50:23.080 --> 0:50:25.479
<v Speaker 4>and a cat already, and it was like, you can't

0:50:25.760 --> 0:50:27.480
<v Speaker 4>it was I don't know it just didn't seem like

0:50:27.520 --> 0:50:31.840
<v Speaker 4>it was going to be a nice, comfortable space to

0:50:31.840 --> 0:50:34.319
<v Speaker 4>have a family, and so we ended up.

0:50:34.280 --> 0:50:39.200
<v Speaker 7>Moving to a very rural area. This is not like

0:50:39.280 --> 0:50:43.080
<v Speaker 7>a lot to do, but I don't know.

0:50:43.040 --> 0:50:46.160
<v Speaker 4>It just opened up some opportunities since folks were getting

0:50:46.160 --> 0:50:50.560
<v Speaker 4>more comfortable with like remote work, started working for myself

0:50:50.600 --> 0:50:54.120
<v Speaker 4>and just doing consulting and other things on the side,

0:50:54.160 --> 0:50:58.600
<v Speaker 4>and eventually became enough to keep it going. But but now,

0:50:58.840 --> 0:51:01.719
<v Speaker 4>you know, with with kid being here, it's you start

0:51:01.760 --> 0:51:04.640
<v Speaker 4>taking jobs that necessary. You know, years ago I would

0:51:04.640 --> 0:51:05.520
<v Speaker 4>have turned down.

0:51:05.360 --> 0:51:08.080
<v Speaker 7>But now you just kind of do them because.

0:51:08.160 --> 0:51:11.080
<v Speaker 4>Well it's work, not necessarily supposed to enjoy it, but

0:51:11.160 --> 0:51:14.760
<v Speaker 4>you need to keep the you know, keep the beasts fed.

0:51:14.800 --> 0:51:19.399
<v Speaker 1>I guess, right, right, right, right, yeah? I mean, how

0:51:19.680 --> 0:51:20.359
<v Speaker 1>how old are you now?

0:51:22.120 --> 0:51:23.680
<v Speaker 7>I am thirty four?

0:51:24.680 --> 0:51:27.319
<v Speaker 1>And how do you feel about life compared to when

0:51:27.360 --> 0:51:29.319
<v Speaker 1>you were in your twenties? Do you feel better about it?

0:51:29.360 --> 0:51:31.399
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel worse about it? Do feel thinking about it?

0:51:32.560 --> 0:51:33.160
<v Speaker 7>Way better?

0:51:33.320 --> 0:51:33.759
<v Speaker 1>Way better?

0:51:33.800 --> 0:51:35.640
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I was just I don't know, shoving a

0:51:35.680 --> 0:51:37.960
<v Speaker 4>lot of shit down in my twenties, and it is

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<v Speaker 4>just like I think the moving was just like running constantly,

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<v Speaker 4>just not really wanting to process deaths in my family

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<v Speaker 4>and all that.

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<v Speaker 1>M yeah, what what do you feel like you were

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<v Speaker 1>running from?

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<v Speaker 4>I suppose, well, uh, and so, I mean my mom

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<v Speaker 4>had shot herself and I was trying to understand, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>where that capacity to do something like that came from.

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<v Speaker 4>And I'd have nights, you know, I ended up, you know,

0:52:17.840 --> 0:52:22.600
<v Speaker 4>smoking weed a lot, and I sort of have problems

0:52:22.640 --> 0:52:24.520
<v Speaker 4>with alcohol a little bit and kind of kind of

0:52:24.520 --> 0:52:26.520
<v Speaker 4>went through these like sort of roller coaster phases of

0:52:26.560 --> 0:52:29.920
<v Speaker 4>like now I'm gonna be clean and sober, and sometimes

0:52:29.920 --> 0:52:34.960
<v Speaker 4>I was like, ah, fuck it all who cares? And

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<v Speaker 4>I think, but there was a lot a lot of

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<v Speaker 4>times when I was in those like those those darker phases,

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<v Speaker 4>it was just thinking about where.

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<v Speaker 7>Where that capacity comes from. Is that like a genetic thing?

0:52:46.120 --> 0:52:48.280
<v Speaker 7>Is it? Is it you know, is it really brain.

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<v Speaker 4>Chemistry or or there was there just like a certain

0:52:50.480 --> 0:52:53.960
<v Speaker 4>set of circumstances that that drove her to that. And

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<v Speaker 4>you know what, it didn't help that, you know, three

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<v Speaker 4>to four years after that, my uncle did the same

0:53:00.600 --> 0:53:03.160
<v Speaker 4>thing on my dad's side. So it's like, Okay, now

0:53:03.160 --> 0:53:05.080
<v Speaker 4>I got two sides of the family that are often

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<v Speaker 4>themselves for well, you know whatever reason, which and I

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<v Speaker 4>don't think I really ever got a straight answer from

0:53:13.360 --> 0:53:15.480
<v Speaker 4>folks about like what was really going on, because like

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of the family just doesn't want to talk

0:53:17.960 --> 0:53:21.560
<v Speaker 4>about it. But yeah, there's there was a lot of

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<v Speaker 4>processing of death in my twenties that I didn't think

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<v Speaker 4>i'd have to confront that young.

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<v Speaker 7>And uh, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>That I did start going to therapy and really digging

0:53:36.719 --> 0:53:38.319
<v Speaker 4>into that, and that was that was actually kind of

0:53:38.320 --> 0:53:40.359
<v Speaker 4>hard to talk about.

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<v Speaker 7>That first. Now mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>So what's uh, what's what's giving you life now? What's

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<v Speaker 1>what's making you feel better now?

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<v Speaker 7>Well? Uh, I like.

0:53:57.520 --> 0:54:01.040
<v Speaker 4>That I've got a house that I I can't it's

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<v Speaker 4>I know, it's a very hard thing to get to

0:54:02.840 --> 0:54:04.719
<v Speaker 4>these days, but it's something you know, I don't I

0:54:04.719 --> 0:54:07.680
<v Speaker 4>don't own it yet. I'm paying a mortgage, but I've

0:54:07.719 --> 0:54:13.640
<v Speaker 4>got something. I've got land enough to where I can

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<v Speaker 4>spend time out in the yard my partner and in

0:54:16.760 --> 0:54:21.160
<v Speaker 4>the kiddo and where you know, starting a garden and

0:54:21.360 --> 0:54:25.960
<v Speaker 4>that's growing. I can kind of I can get up

0:54:25.960 --> 0:54:28.800
<v Speaker 4>and work really flexible schedules.

0:54:29.000 --> 0:54:29.880
<v Speaker 7>I think I'm very.

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<v Speaker 4>Blessed that that situation ended up working out pretty good.

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<v Speaker 4>I like throwing pottery that that's been neat getting into it.

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't realize that when I moved to where I

0:54:40.760 --> 0:54:45.640
<v Speaker 4>moved to. But there's a really cool pottery tradition in

0:54:45.680 --> 0:54:51.120
<v Speaker 4>this area. People doing wood firing and digging up their

0:54:51.120 --> 0:54:53.040
<v Speaker 4>own clay, and it's it's pretty neat.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm hmm. What part of what part of the

0:54:57.400 --> 0:54:58.239
<v Speaker 1>town are you in?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>Western North Carolina.

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<v Speaker 1>Western North Carolina.

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<v Speaker 4>Pretty yeah, so not not not Ashville, but it's uh,

0:55:08.280 --> 0:55:10.080
<v Speaker 4>you know, something a little bit more affordable.

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<v Speaker 1>I've heard Ashville is like the a crazy like a

0:55:14.800 --> 0:55:17.919
<v Speaker 1>hippie place. Now it is.

0:55:18.280 --> 0:55:20.319
<v Speaker 4>And I know, I went there like ten years ago

0:55:20.719 --> 0:55:22.680
<v Speaker 4>and it was pretty cool, and then I went there

0:55:22.680 --> 0:55:25.880
<v Speaker 4>two years ago and the street smelled like piss.

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<v Speaker 1>They got they got hit pretty hard with some natural disasters,

0:55:29.560 --> 0:55:30.040
<v Speaker 1>didn't they.

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<v Speaker 7>Uh yeah last fall Helene.

0:55:33.000 --> 0:55:37.560
<v Speaker 4>Yeah yeah, their whole water system got knocked out out there.

0:55:38.680 --> 0:55:41.440
<v Speaker 4>I actually have a cousin out there and she's still

0:55:41.480 --> 0:55:44.080
<v Speaker 4>getting you know, I don't want.

0:55:44.000 --> 0:55:45.600
<v Speaker 7>To say ration to water, but they got to go

0:55:45.680 --> 0:55:48.600
<v Speaker 7>with the drugs to a truck and get fresh water.

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<v Speaker 3>Mmmmm yeah.

0:55:51.360 --> 0:55:52.000
<v Speaker 7>It's pretty rough.

0:55:52.040 --> 0:55:54.520
<v Speaker 1>Have you been no, I don't think I've been, although

0:55:54.520 --> 0:55:56.279
<v Speaker 1>I'd like to do a show there at some point.

0:55:56.440 --> 0:56:01.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure that there's listeners of this podcast that live there. Yeah.

0:56:01.160 --> 0:56:02.520
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I mean you've been to Charlotte.

0:56:02.560 --> 0:56:06.000
<v Speaker 4>But yeah, going from Asheville to Charlotte, you know that's

0:56:06.040 --> 0:56:09.879
<v Speaker 4>a two hour drive. Yeah, for for folks coming further last.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, well, let's see, Uh, John, let me let me

0:56:18.920 --> 0:56:22.239
<v Speaker 1>let me see if the chat has any questions for you, Mabe,

0:56:22.920 --> 0:56:26.640
<v Speaker 1>let's see, is the chat of any questions for John?

0:56:26.880 --> 0:56:30.120
<v Speaker 1>Someone Well, someone said, a pottery is so fun. Get

0:56:30.160 --> 0:56:32.719
<v Speaker 1>involved if you can, and our interested best choice I

0:56:32.760 --> 0:56:34.160
<v Speaker 1>ever made.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, man, it's the ship.

0:56:36.960 --> 0:56:40.480
<v Speaker 4>It's like, I don't know, once you get some of

0:56:40.480 --> 0:56:43.000
<v Speaker 4>the frustrating parts out, it's it's a lot of fun.

0:56:44.160 --> 0:56:46.040
<v Speaker 7>Someone said.

0:56:47.040 --> 0:56:49.560
<v Speaker 1>Someone said, are there any UFOs in the sea?

0:56:51.480 --> 0:56:51.839
<v Speaker 7>Are there?

0:56:51.920 --> 0:56:56.960
<v Speaker 4>You know, so they're u s O s Unidentified submerged objects?

0:56:58.560 --> 0:57:01.279
<v Speaker 7>Man, I don't. I don't know, I don't.

0:57:01.320 --> 0:57:03.160
<v Speaker 4>I tend not to look at that kind of stuff.

0:57:03.200 --> 0:57:05.040
<v Speaker 7>I'm it's weird.

0:57:05.080 --> 0:57:07.279
<v Speaker 4>I'm an oceanographer, but I sit behind the computer most

0:57:07.320 --> 0:57:10.840
<v Speaker 4>of the time. It's all, you know, ocean forecasting and

0:57:10.920 --> 0:57:13.080
<v Speaker 4>that kind of ship. My wife used to go out

0:57:13.080 --> 0:57:15.680
<v Speaker 4>to see she she did the real she'd be able

0:57:15.719 --> 0:57:18.080
<v Speaker 4>to tell you, but she's actually doing a job interview

0:57:18.160 --> 0:57:18.480
<v Speaker 4>right now.

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<v Speaker 1>So nice. Nice see. Someone wants to know, what do

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<v Speaker 1>what do you think of the evolution of the Kelvin

0:57:29.280 --> 0:57:33.320
<v Speaker 1>waves in the Southeastern US in the past fifty years?

0:57:34.440 --> 0:57:40.160
<v Speaker 4>Evolution of Kelvin waves in the Southeastern US? And I'm well,

0:57:41.360 --> 0:57:44.400
<v Speaker 4>I mean, aren't Calvin waves.

0:57:45.280 --> 0:57:45.680
<v Speaker 7>All fuck?

0:57:45.720 --> 0:57:48.280
<v Speaker 1>They fucking got you, bro, they got you, they got well.

0:57:49.000 --> 0:57:50.480
<v Speaker 7>Kelvin waves are high frequencies.

0:57:50.520 --> 0:57:52.720
<v Speaker 4>I don't know what they mean by evolution of Kelvin

0:57:52.760 --> 0:57:55.680
<v Speaker 4>waves in the Southeast. I don't know what it was there.

0:57:56.240 --> 0:57:59.120
<v Speaker 4>Maybe ask them if there's.

0:57:58.760 --> 0:58:01.360
<v Speaker 1>Maybe they're just trolling the Someone wants to know, do

0:58:01.400 --> 0:58:02.840
<v Speaker 1>you do you do you?

0:58:02.960 --> 0:58:04.840
<v Speaker 7>Uh?

0:58:05.280 --> 0:58:06.080
<v Speaker 1>Do you scuba?

0:58:07.960 --> 0:58:08.880
<v Speaker 7>Do I scuba?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

0:58:09.640 --> 0:58:09.720
<v Speaker 5>No?

0:58:09.880 --> 0:58:13.320
<v Speaker 7>I went for my shirt in grad school and then.

0:58:13.240 --> 0:58:16.200
<v Speaker 4>Never used it and I just fell out of it.

0:58:16.480 --> 0:58:19.760
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's funny because your connection kind of sounds like

0:58:19.800 --> 0:58:22.160
<v Speaker 1>you're calling me from under the sea.

0:58:23.520 --> 0:58:26.320
<v Speaker 7>No man, I'm in I'm in rural North Carolina. The

0:58:26.360 --> 0:58:27.840
<v Speaker 7>cell services kind of this year.

0:58:29.800 --> 0:58:32.080
<v Speaker 1>Uh Okay. Then finally, what someone wants to say, do

0:58:32.160 --> 0:58:35.280
<v Speaker 1>you know doctor Jeffrey Agnew.

0:58:36.600 --> 0:58:41.920
<v Speaker 4>Agnew Agnew like Spiro Agnew, the dudes.

0:58:41.760 --> 0:58:44.480
<v Speaker 7>Who worked with Nixon. No doctor Jeffrey.

0:58:48.240 --> 0:58:50.120
<v Speaker 1>Well let's see John John. I want to keep talking

0:58:50.160 --> 0:58:52.200
<v Speaker 1>to you, but your connection has kind of been a

0:58:52.200 --> 0:58:55.800
<v Speaker 1>little shitty. But uh it's it's great. Oh wait, okay,

0:58:55.800 --> 0:58:57.080
<v Speaker 1>we have one mark. We actually we have a couple

0:58:57.120 --> 0:58:59.919
<v Speaker 1>of questions. I kind of want to ask. See here,

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<v Speaker 1>what's your favorite fish?

0:59:04.160 --> 0:59:06.400
<v Speaker 7>Favorite fish?

0:59:06.680 --> 0:59:10.720
<v Speaker 4>I like flounders because they got two heads on, two

0:59:10.800 --> 0:59:12.360
<v Speaker 4>eyes on one side of their body.

0:59:12.400 --> 0:59:13.800
<v Speaker 7>They're fucking weird.

0:59:15.720 --> 0:59:17.560
<v Speaker 4>That that or if you haven't seen them.

0:59:17.720 --> 0:59:17.880
<v Speaker 6>Uh.

0:59:18.000 --> 0:59:21.520
<v Speaker 7>Some people call them sunfish. Other people call them mullah mullahs.

0:59:23.560 --> 0:59:25.400
<v Speaker 4>They look like a fish that got cut in half

0:59:25.440 --> 0:59:26.920
<v Speaker 4>but is still living.

0:59:26.960 --> 0:59:30.120
<v Speaker 7>It's they're weird. I like weird things.

0:59:31.560 --> 0:59:36.480
<v Speaker 1>Uh. Where is the biggest trash island? And can we

0:59:36.560 --> 0:59:38.880
<v Speaker 1>live on that?

0:59:39.160 --> 0:59:41.640
<v Speaker 7>Can you live on? I mean you, no one, no

0:59:41.680 --> 0:59:45.720
<v Speaker 7>one can stop you. I think some billionaires were trying

0:59:45.760 --> 0:59:46.680
<v Speaker 7>to like do this.

0:59:47.000 --> 0:59:47.120
<v Speaker 4>Uh.

0:59:47.280 --> 0:59:49.400
<v Speaker 7>I think the biggest one is still in the Pacific.

0:59:50.720 --> 0:59:53.440
<v Speaker 7>Most of the stuff I'm looking at they are though.

0:59:54.360 --> 0:59:57.320
<v Speaker 4>And this is just to explain my potential ignorance if

0:59:57.320 --> 0:59:59.000
<v Speaker 4>there's a bigger one than in the Pacific.

0:59:59.360 --> 1:00:03.320
<v Speaker 7>But I'm and the north of Europe around English Journal

1:00:03.320 --> 1:00:06.000
<v Speaker 7>and all that near civilization.

1:00:06.200 --> 1:00:08.439
<v Speaker 4>But yeah, I think the Pacific is the biggest one

1:00:08.520 --> 1:00:10.080
<v Speaker 4>and then the most disgusting.

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<v Speaker 1>Well let's see, John, I think, yeah, your phone is bad,

1:00:18.960 --> 1:00:21.400
<v Speaker 1>but you're a good guy and that's all that matters.

1:00:22.760 --> 1:00:25.360
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else? Thanks man? Is there anything else

1:00:25.400 --> 1:00:26.600
<v Speaker 1>you want to say to the people of the computer

1:00:26.640 --> 1:00:27.160
<v Speaker 1>before we go?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh no, no, throw some pots?

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Beautiful? All right, take care? Sorry about no, It's okay, John,

1:00:37.920 --> 1:00:40.000
<v Speaker 1>Take care and good luck with your kid. All right,

1:00:40.880 --> 1:00:47.120
<v Speaker 1>thanks man, take care. Brother goes on the line making it.

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<v Speaker 2>Ohone calls every night, everything goes's teaching your life.