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Speaker 1: Nicky. Here's Nikki. Hello everyone, thank you for listening to

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Speaker 1: the show today or every day that you do listen.

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Speaker 1: You're new. Welcome. It's the Nikki Glaser Podcast, your daily

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Speaker 1: Monday through Thursday dose of whatever the hell is on

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Speaker 1: my mind. Good lord. Uh yeah, We're gonna have some

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Speaker 1: fun this week. I'm so excited to just you know,

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Speaker 1: usually when I get home from l A or some

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Speaker 1: kind of like big thing. I think the last big

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Speaker 1: thing I did was um, the I Heart Awards. I

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Speaker 1: went out there for that, and then on top of that,

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Speaker 1: it is just a bunch of running around l A,

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Speaker 1: trying to fit in comedy sets and podcasts and please

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Speaker 1: remember me, industry. I'm someone who should be working and

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Speaker 1: and am I important? And please don't forget me even

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Speaker 1: though I live in St. Louis that kind of just

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Speaker 1: like HYSTERI of like trying to get on everything, Say

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Speaker 1: yes to everything, Say us to the dress, which is

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Speaker 1: what I did with my stylist that led me to

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Speaker 1: wearing that green dress. I said, yes, that's a news,

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Speaker 1: say yes to the dress. It's just getting women who

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Speaker 1: are scared of being perceived as trying to look hot

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Speaker 1: to just admit that It's okay to want to look hot.

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Speaker 1: That's my news. Say yes to the dress. It's empowering

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Speaker 1: women who think that they have to pick a lane

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Speaker 1: to to uh lean into their sexual side and not

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Speaker 1: feel guilt about it or shame because other women who

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Speaker 1: wish they could do the same thing are going to

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Speaker 1: make you feel bad about it because either they don't

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Speaker 1: have they can't do it because I used to do

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Speaker 1: the same thing. Of like hate on. I don't even

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Speaker 1: know how I got on this topic. There's no plan.

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Speaker 1: Let me is this news to anyone? That I have

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Speaker 1: no plan when I do these things? My biggest fear,

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Speaker 1: let me just say before I continue, is that people

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Speaker 1: skip over the part with me just me alone. Sometimes

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Speaker 1: Noah comes in if I can shut up for three seconds, which, uh, Noah,

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Speaker 1: how are you today? Never mind, I don't there. That

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Speaker 1: was just just people like nicky hear the worst. No

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Speaker 1: I love when I get to talk to you, know,

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Speaker 1: but I did you know? It's here and there. But

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Speaker 1: my biggest fear Noah is seriously, like I remember people

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Speaker 1: and I am even reluctant to say this because it's

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Speaker 1: so rude, and I remember thinking it was funny at

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Speaker 1: the time. But when W t F first came onto

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Speaker 1: the scene or gained an immense popularity with Mark Marin,

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Speaker 1: people used to make a joke. I heard some joke

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Speaker 1: remember Mark hearing that or like hearing that kind of

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Speaker 1: a lot of comics were making that joke of like

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Speaker 1: used to even make it, but it wasn't true for me.

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Speaker 1: I always liked his monologizing at the beginning because it

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Speaker 1: always was like very vulnerable and lead to things that

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Speaker 1: he'd probably didn't want to admit. And I just got

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Speaker 1: a lot more when he was just it was like

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Speaker 1: biggest fear is that people are like, I always skip

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Speaker 1: Nikki's first ten minutes, and so if you do, just

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Speaker 1: never tell me please, because I won't think it's funny. Um.

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Speaker 1: So that being said, uh yeah, I used to judge.

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Speaker 1: I still do when girls are like hot, because I

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Speaker 1: and then I would eventually get to a place of like,

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Speaker 1: let's be honest, you're just like kind of jealous that

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Speaker 1: that you don't in terms of like not caring what

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Speaker 1: people think, and that's what you wish. So if anyone

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Speaker 1: put that on anything, you know, when people get mad

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Speaker 1: much like I realized my a lot of my resentment

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Speaker 1: that like, I'm right to not take those chances because

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Speaker 1: of that thought. Anyway, This weekend so fun, um, so fun,

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Speaker 1: say that yesterday I had a really sad day. No

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Speaker 1: I asked you how you were today, and you answered

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Speaker 1: me honestly, you were like, I'm okay, because some days

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Speaker 1: you're like good and then the other things you're like,

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Speaker 1: I'm okay. So why the I'm okay? I mean you

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Speaker 1: kind of got into it. But your boyfriend's ad a

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Speaker 1: And then this morning, um, a good friend of mine

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Speaker 1: like a lot of death. Yeah, well that's and that

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Speaker 1: brings up feelings of you lost your dog last year

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Speaker 1: and know how hard that is. So it's probably reminded,

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Speaker 1: not if you weren't reminded of it. Now I just

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Speaker 1: not as tragic as like if you were to say

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Speaker 1: I don't know that. But grandparents, you go, Okay, this

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Speaker 1: guess it's time to lose. That's when grandparents go. I'm

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Speaker 1: I can't even believe he still has grandparents right. Um,

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Speaker 1: but it's still sad because it's death and it sucks

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Speaker 1: going to feel like when I die? What's that going

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Speaker 1: don't want to. Your brain literally can't think about death

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Speaker 1: that I like, trust. I don't read science journals, but

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Speaker 1: doesn't matter. But because there was a time when you

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Speaker 1: don't remember when you before you were born, you were

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Speaker 1: or Sweden, those are like two places I know that

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Speaker 1: Some people say it's like a who. It's such, it's

427
00:21:15,680 --> 00:21:19,119
Speaker 1: it's it's it's vape. But it makes it like cool

428
00:21:19,359 --> 00:21:25,240
Speaker 1: and like, well, here's the thing in alcohol. Honestly it's

429
00:21:25,240 --> 00:21:28,800
Speaker 1: it's just as dumb as anything. But drinking doesn't funk

430
00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:31,400
Speaker 1: with me. You could drink, Yes, it does help people

431
00:21:31,480 --> 00:21:33,680
Speaker 1: get too drunk. They get loud and annoying at a

432
00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:36,119
Speaker 1: table next to you. However, you put the plug in.

433
00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:38,600
Speaker 1: Huka is the last to go in St. Louis. St.

434
00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:41,679
Speaker 1: Louis was the last two. Uh. I liked it. I

435
00:21:41,680 --> 00:21:43,760
Speaker 1: mean actually I didn't get it, but I didn't mean

436
00:21:43,800 --> 00:21:46,080
Speaker 1: to like scoot over. Whatever. Joke just made you laugh

437
00:21:46,080 --> 00:21:48,280
Speaker 1: that you said, no, it was good. People will call

438
00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:50,320
Speaker 1: why would you put the plug in? That was the

439
00:21:50,400 --> 00:21:53,160
Speaker 1: joke about what because people get too drunk and loud.

440
00:21:53,240 --> 00:21:56,360
Speaker 1: Instead of your plugs, you're putting the left turn call

441
00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:58,440
Speaker 1: back to I don't know what it would accomplish it

442
00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:00,080
Speaker 1: with the butt plug in that would make you You

443
00:22:00,080 --> 00:22:02,840
Speaker 1: don't but you want to funk a guy that's an

444
00:22:02,840 --> 00:22:06,359
Speaker 1: annoying the left turn. Obviously it's the ear plugs. I

445
00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:08,360
Speaker 1: won with bulug, got it, got it, um, It would

446
00:22:08,359 --> 00:22:10,200
Speaker 1: have made more sense of a bubblug would really actually

447
00:22:10,200 --> 00:22:12,280
Speaker 1: help you with that circumstance. But instead it doesn't. But

448
00:22:12,320 --> 00:22:15,560
Speaker 1: it's still a good joke. I'll let it slide. Slide, Yeah,

449
00:22:15,840 --> 00:22:19,520
Speaker 1: right up my ass, I'll put the little bit my

450
00:22:19,560 --> 00:22:26,480
Speaker 1: bucking Uh what what? Okay? So kuca is annoying, but

451
00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:29,240
Speaker 1: it's the last vest. It's the last thing that St.

452
00:22:29,240 --> 00:22:31,760
Speaker 1: Louis is clinging onto in a lot of places are

453
00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:34,639
Speaker 1: it's it's tobacco essentially, but it's flavored and has a

454
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:37,160
Speaker 1: good smell. People like it, I believe because it gives

455
00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:39,000
Speaker 1: you this high. I mean, tobacco gives you a high

456
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:40,400
Speaker 1: when I have a sick, when I have my one

457
00:22:40,440 --> 00:22:43,160
Speaker 1: cigarette in the ten I think it's open. Over something

458
00:22:43,200 --> 00:22:45,600
Speaker 1: like twelve years since I quit smoking, and I had

459
00:22:45,640 --> 00:22:48,760
Speaker 1: one cigarette one time and like since then. And it

460
00:22:48,880 --> 00:22:51,199
Speaker 1: gets you high the first thing, and then it tastes terrible,

461
00:22:51,440 --> 00:22:53,960
Speaker 1: but yeah, tobacco gets you high. And when I smoke um,

462
00:22:53,960 --> 00:22:57,399
Speaker 1: when Sharads Small used to roll joints or blunts and

463
00:22:57,440 --> 00:22:59,399
Speaker 1: I would smoke them outside, the comedy star would be

464
00:22:59,480 --> 00:23:01,720
Speaker 1: like shrudge of the best weed. I'd get so excited

465
00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:04,000
Speaker 1: when I saw him because my body was like, whatever

466
00:23:04,040 --> 00:23:06,119
Speaker 1: he has, it makes you feel good. And then I

467
00:23:06,200 --> 00:23:08,800
Speaker 1: realized it's tobacco. It's tobacco and wheat, and I was

468
00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:11,159
Speaker 1: wanting that. So it's tobacco, but you don't blow that

469
00:23:11,280 --> 00:23:13,119
Speaker 1: smoke while I'm trying to off. But the thing is,

470
00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:15,760
Speaker 1: back in the eighties, smoking was everywhere, and now suddenly

471
00:23:15,760 --> 00:23:18,400
Speaker 1: we're like, I can't stand it. Let me just tell

472
00:23:18,440 --> 00:23:20,159
Speaker 1: you a quick story that I did over the weekend

473
00:23:20,160 --> 00:23:22,679
Speaker 1: that I want. I first of all, I have to

474
00:23:22,720 --> 00:23:24,840
Speaker 1: share this thing that I got from this girl, and

475
00:23:24,840 --> 00:23:26,400
Speaker 1: I will get to everything else. Can I just tell

476
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:29,200
Speaker 1: you why hooka is worse than cigarettes? Please you don't

477
00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,800
Speaker 1: The amount of smoke that comes out of a hookah

478
00:23:32,200 --> 00:23:35,280
Speaker 1: is almost three times to sick of a cloud. I

479
00:23:35,320 --> 00:23:38,199
Speaker 1: don't want to have to fly through a cloud. To

480
00:23:38,280 --> 00:23:40,280
Speaker 1: get to a bite of a gyro. I just don't

481
00:23:40,320 --> 00:23:43,679
Speaker 1: want it, but I will sea smells better than cigarettes,

482
00:23:43,880 --> 00:23:45,919
Speaker 1: for sure. I don't agree. I think it has like

483
00:23:46,000 --> 00:23:50,120
Speaker 1: that weird like like fake like like it's like you're

484
00:23:50,119 --> 00:23:58,720
Speaker 1: smelling plastic somehow. Anyways, um, I wanted to share. It

485
00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:01,840
Speaker 1: was the sweetest thing I got, but it was a girl.

486
00:24:01,920 --> 00:24:04,560
Speaker 1: I saved it and then I can't find it. Oh,

487
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:08,639
Speaker 1: here we go, it says, Hi, Nikki, this is from Emma.

488
00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:10,280
Speaker 1: I just wanted to let you know that I've been

489
00:24:10,320 --> 00:24:12,720
Speaker 1: a long time listener and you've meant to too much

490
00:24:12,760 --> 00:24:14,480
Speaker 1: to me and helped me so much to me, and

491
00:24:14,480 --> 00:24:16,480
Speaker 1: you've helped me through your throughout your podcast. I'm in

492
00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,320
Speaker 1: the car stopped for a train and it made me

493
00:24:18,359 --> 00:24:20,720
Speaker 1: think of you. Before I would get infuriated by being

494
00:24:20,720 --> 00:24:22,880
Speaker 1: stopped by a train. Now because of you, it doesn't

495
00:24:22,920 --> 00:24:24,600
Speaker 1: bother me in the slightest. Now, I just think that

496
00:24:24,640 --> 00:24:26,520
Speaker 1: this is happening for a reason, and overall this just

497
00:24:26,560 --> 00:24:28,560
Speaker 1: doesn't matter and doesn't make sense to get piste over.

498
00:24:29,160 --> 00:24:31,720
Speaker 1: I have never received a better message than that, because

499
00:24:31,760 --> 00:24:33,880
Speaker 1: I say this ship all the time and I try

500
00:24:33,880 --> 00:24:36,160
Speaker 1: to practice it. But the fact that someone didn't get

501
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:38,760
Speaker 1: annointed to train and go con I'm gonna be late

502
00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:41,960
Speaker 1: and I'm this train is so long. That is such

503
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:45,120
Speaker 1: a fucking miracle. And I did it the other day

504
00:24:46,040 --> 00:24:49,280
Speaker 1: with smoking. We were at my Breath my birthday, um

505
00:24:49,400 --> 00:24:53,040
Speaker 1: my pre birthday sushi rest. Did I tell the story

506
00:24:53,040 --> 00:24:55,199
Speaker 1: about the woman smoking next to us? We're getting sushi

507
00:24:55,200 --> 00:24:58,119
Speaker 1: outside and this almost woman came and she's a local

508
00:24:58,240 --> 00:24:59,920
Speaker 1: homeless woman. I've seen her a lot. She almost doesn't

509
00:25:00,080 --> 00:25:03,640
Speaker 1: comeless because she probably has like enough. She had a cigarette.

510
00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:05,640
Speaker 1: So she sits down next to our table. We're outside.

511
00:25:05,680 --> 00:25:07,640
Speaker 1: I'm with my dad, I'm with Andrew. Andrew and Dad

512
00:25:07,920 --> 00:25:10,040
Speaker 1: are their back start to this woman, so they don't

513
00:25:10,040 --> 00:25:11,680
Speaker 1: see her sit down. But I see her sit down

514
00:25:12,040 --> 00:25:14,119
Speaker 1: at a table. She's homeless. She's obviously not eating there.

515
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:15,639
Speaker 1: She's just kind of like in her own head, kind

516
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:17,720
Speaker 1: of swinging back and forth. She lights a cigarette. She

517
00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:20,000
Speaker 1: doesn't look like she's been having a good day. She's homeless,

518
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:23,640
Speaker 1: like clearly. She lights a cigarette and I see I

519
00:25:23,720 --> 00:25:26,120
Speaker 1: know for sure. I'm like checking, I do the wind thing.

520
00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:27,960
Speaker 1: I look at my finger. I'm like ship, it's gonna

521
00:25:27,960 --> 00:25:30,399
Speaker 1: blow cigarette smoke towards Andrew and my dad and my

522
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:34,800
Speaker 1: dad more so than Andrew's anger at hooka. My dad

523
00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:37,760
Speaker 1: hates cigarette smoke so much. Even though my dad smoked

524
00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:40,760
Speaker 1: for like twenty years, okay, and he used to smoke inside,

525
00:25:42,440 --> 00:25:44,439
Speaker 1: he just hates it. And his mom died of lung cancer.

526
00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:50,159
Speaker 1: Your mom has uh cp D, because cop D, I

527
00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:53,520
Speaker 1: call it COPD. She's got that coptic that makes her

528
00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:59,680
Speaker 1: illness sound a lot that coptic. Yeah, so yeah, the

529
00:26:00,040 --> 00:26:02,879
Speaker 1: red smoke I didn't. So, so this is what happened,

530
00:26:02,880 --> 00:26:05,280
Speaker 1: and it was you. This is an embarrassing story for anyone.

531
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:07,679
Speaker 1: So my you, I see you smell at first, and

532
00:26:07,680 --> 00:26:09,480
Speaker 1: you kind of look behind you and you don't say anything,

533
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:11,600
Speaker 1: and then my dad sees it. It's kind of like

534
00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:14,840
Speaker 1: you know, and just like does the like obnoxious wave.

535
00:26:15,119 --> 00:26:18,919
Speaker 1: So what would normally happen in the circumstances that he

536
00:26:18,920 --> 00:26:20,960
Speaker 1: would make a big stink of it, the waiter would

537
00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:22,639
Speaker 1: come over, or he would go grab someone and go,

538
00:26:22,760 --> 00:26:24,840
Speaker 1: there's a woman smoking here, she's not eating, and like

539
00:26:24,880 --> 00:26:26,919
Speaker 1: complained because she didn't look homeless, Like it wasn't a

540
00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:29,440
Speaker 1: situation where it was like that, And I said, and

541
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:33,040
Speaker 1: this wasn't me being like I'm Mother Teresa, because actually

542
00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:36,600
Speaker 1: Mother Teresa wasn't a good person. She was she was

543
00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:38,879
Speaker 1: actually like not a good person. It's crazy if you

544
00:26:38,880 --> 00:26:42,159
Speaker 1: look into it. So anyway, I don't think I'm Mother Teresa,

545
00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:45,400
Speaker 1: but I because I am a good person. Now. I

546
00:26:45,720 --> 00:26:48,399
Speaker 1: said to them, I go, listen, this woman is I go,

547
00:26:49,119 --> 00:26:51,800
Speaker 1: I know this sagarette smokes annoying. I hate sarette smokes

548
00:26:51,800 --> 00:26:55,760
Speaker 1: so much triggers me, my migraines. I said, this woman

549
00:26:55,880 --> 00:26:58,439
Speaker 1: is homeless, and I'm talking about this because she's right there.

550
00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:01,800
Speaker 1: I go, she's homeless. She probably never has a place

551
00:27:01,840 --> 00:27:04,480
Speaker 1: to sit where like she feels safe, like where she

552
00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 1: feels like a human being. She's not sitting on the sidewalk.

553
00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:09,080
Speaker 1: This is actually like a table where no one's gonna

554
00:27:09,080 --> 00:27:11,199
Speaker 1: bug her because she might be a diner and like

555
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:13,480
Speaker 1: the restaurant was so busy that they weren't really checking.

556
00:27:14,119 --> 00:27:17,200
Speaker 1: I go, let her have this moment. It'll be cigarettes

557
00:27:17,240 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 1: don't last more than three minutes when you're a homeless

558
00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:22,480
Speaker 1: woman that's smoking to feel anything other than being homeless.

559
00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,679
Speaker 1: Let's just like get through it. I go, Dad, you

560
00:27:25,760 --> 00:27:29,640
Speaker 1: went through your up until the nineties, surrounded by smoke,

561
00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:32,520
Speaker 1: constantly on airplanes, we can deal with outside this woman

562
00:27:32,520 --> 00:27:35,320
Speaker 1: next to us. And the thing was everyone calmed down,

563
00:27:35,680 --> 00:27:37,280
Speaker 1: And it wasn't because I was like yelling at someone

564
00:27:37,320 --> 00:27:38,720
Speaker 1: to I was just like, can we just be a

565
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:41,359
Speaker 1: little bit compassionate and understand that this woman, that's her

566
00:27:41,440 --> 00:27:43,919
Speaker 1: one respite of the day. She got this cigarette and

567
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:45,600
Speaker 1: it didn't even take this long. I think it took

568
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:48,320
Speaker 1: two seconds to say it. Everyone calmed down. It was

569
00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:51,040
Speaker 1: a little bit annoying, and then she magically gets up

570
00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:53,159
Speaker 1: and leaves, not because she heard me, but like it

571
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:56,280
Speaker 1: resolved itself without and before she finished the cigarette, without

572
00:27:56,359 --> 00:27:58,520
Speaker 1: having to be this thing where this woman felt sad

573
00:27:58,560 --> 00:28:02,240
Speaker 1: and shamed. So these mine are inconveniences. Yesterday Luigi tugged

574
00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:05,040
Speaker 1: on my arm and I dropped another full latte that

575
00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:07,800
Speaker 1: I just paid six dollars and eighty seven cents for

576
00:28:08,720 --> 00:28:11,240
Speaker 1: and it's spilt all of the sidewalk, burning hot. Thank god,

577
00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:14,800
Speaker 1: it didn't get on him everywhere, and I just didn't care.

578
00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:16,920
Speaker 1: I mean this, I don't even recognize the person that

579
00:28:16,960 --> 00:28:21,080
Speaker 1: doesn't go and that I just don't even recognize her.

580
00:28:21,359 --> 00:28:24,480
Speaker 1: And that is what I got from that message from

581
00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:27,440
Speaker 1: that girl, is that you can really take these things

582
00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:30,000
Speaker 1: in life that you feel so victimized by and by

583
00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:32,280
Speaker 1: all means, I am not always like this, you've heard

584
00:28:32,280 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: me on the podcast not be this like gentle with life.

585
00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,080
Speaker 1: But when you can let it in, and you can

586
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:39,920
Speaker 1: let these little minor inconveniences that seem like the end

587
00:28:39,960 --> 00:28:43,640
Speaker 1: of the world, you can literally just they kind of

588
00:28:43,720 --> 00:28:45,800
Speaker 1: disappear on their own faster than they would if you

589
00:28:45,800 --> 00:28:48,120
Speaker 1: made them a big thing. So thank you to Emma

590
00:28:48,160 --> 00:28:49,920
Speaker 1: for writing that in because it reminded me not to

591
00:28:49,920 --> 00:28:52,840
Speaker 1: get mad at trains in traffic and all the things,

592
00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:55,720
Speaker 1: and um, you know when I'm not mad at hooka anymore.

593
00:28:56,240 --> 00:28:57,680
Speaker 1: But well, who can you can be mad at because

594
00:28:57,680 --> 00:29:00,920
Speaker 1: I definitely But they learned and it was interesting because

595
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:02,640
Speaker 1: you you were like, I'm not going to eat at

596
00:29:02,680 --> 00:29:04,360
Speaker 1: this restaurant that was very busy and in like a

597
00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:06,520
Speaker 1: really cool section because the guy next to us was

598
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:09,280
Speaker 1: just puffing out the hookah like a you know, like

599
00:29:09,320 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 1: the pope they just announced a new Pope. The other thing, too,

600
00:29:12,200 --> 00:29:14,920
Speaker 1: is I can handle it once one cigarette, Like I

601
00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:17,960
Speaker 1: know she's not gonna hookah. It's it's an hour of

602
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:20,320
Speaker 1: just you smoke. And it was right nice to us.

603
00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:22,400
Speaker 1: But we went to this other restaurant that had the

604
00:29:22,440 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: same kind of food. Lost, crowded and uh there was

605
00:29:27,600 --> 00:29:32,640
Speaker 1: women incident and I took that very remember, I go, oh, yeah,

606
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:36,440
Speaker 1: we went so we had a waiter. We went to

607
00:29:36,480 --> 00:29:38,840
Speaker 1: another place for We went to another place it wasn't

608
00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:41,240
Speaker 1: and they came out to we was sat there for

609
00:29:41,360 --> 00:29:43,480
Speaker 1: fifteen minutes and they never They didn't come out to

610
00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 1: help us, so we would and Andrew had gone in

611
00:29:45,360 --> 00:29:46,920
Speaker 1: to talk to the girl. She was very busy. We

612
00:29:46,960 --> 00:29:48,800
Speaker 1: didn't make a sting about it. By the way, I try.

613
00:29:48,840 --> 00:29:51,040
Speaker 1: I called them yesterday to get take out. The girl

614
00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:52,760
Speaker 1: into the phone, she was like, can you hold please.

615
00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:54,560
Speaker 1: I listened to her being like, yeah, I need to

616
00:29:54,560 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 1: block of law and I need to get this okay,

617
00:29:56,160 --> 00:29:57,160
Speaker 1: do you want to also? Do you want to ring

618
00:29:57,160 --> 00:29:58,520
Speaker 1: that as credit? And I just hung up the phone,

619
00:29:58,560 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 1: being like, this girl doesn't need another order. They don't

620
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:03,120
Speaker 1: have enough people in there. It's a Friday night taste

621
00:30:03,120 --> 00:30:06,000
Speaker 1: of Lebanon. Get on it. One more guy in there,

622
00:30:06,240 --> 00:30:08,000
Speaker 1: we'll never get So we went to this other place,

623
00:30:08,280 --> 00:30:11,200
Speaker 1: King Side Diner, and I love Kings Diner, a big fan.

624
00:30:11,920 --> 00:30:15,040
Speaker 1: And we got a waiter who was very like distracted

625
00:30:15,120 --> 00:30:17,000
Speaker 1: and like he had he had a lot on his plate.

626
00:30:17,080 --> 00:30:19,360
Speaker 1: I get it. I empathize for him. But he's a

627
00:30:19,400 --> 00:30:22,480
Speaker 1: waiter that decides not to write down your order. And

628
00:30:22,520 --> 00:30:25,080
Speaker 1: I said to Nikki, I go, look, just I don't

629
00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:27,479
Speaker 1: like these waiters not writing down the order. I just

630
00:30:27,520 --> 00:30:30,120
Speaker 1: feel like they don't get it right, especially when it's

631
00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:33,360
Speaker 1: like a little bit like switched up whatever you substitute

632
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,760
Speaker 1: some things. I get the ego, I get the time management.

633
00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:38,920
Speaker 1: I get all of that. And and then you said

634
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:40,640
Speaker 1: to me, you go, well, I worked at a restaurant.

635
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:42,680
Speaker 1: I didn't write things down and I was able to

636
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:44,400
Speaker 1: do it unless it was like, can I sell you this?

637
00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:48,760
Speaker 1: So anyway, the guy so the guy, So I I

638
00:30:48,840 --> 00:30:51,280
Speaker 1: complain about this. Nikki goes, you know, I did this

639
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:53,960
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. Next thing, I know my salmon. I

640
00:30:54,120 --> 00:30:56,760
Speaker 1: ordered a salmon walk on the plank. It's the Pirates

641
00:30:56,800 --> 00:30:58,680
Speaker 1: special ordered like the walk on the plank. I go,

642
00:30:58,760 --> 00:31:00,480
Speaker 1: what is that? And he couldn't tell me because I

643
00:31:00,520 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 1: had meat in it. I think you were avoiding telling salon. Okay,

644
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:05,600
Speaker 1: I don't mind. So anyway, so I get my food.

645
00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:09,520
Speaker 1: Andrews is delayed, literally the one that has to substitute,

646
00:31:09,520 --> 00:31:10,960
Speaker 1: and you take out this and you put in this.

647
00:31:11,200 --> 00:31:13,360
Speaker 1: He nailed it perfect. I wonder why he nailed it.

648
00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:16,280
Speaker 1: I wanted to read that message I got the next day.

649
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:20,960
Speaker 1: Oh my god, so sorry, we royally funked up your

650
00:31:20,960 --> 00:31:23,440
Speaker 1: meal tonight. I had worked there for a total of

651
00:31:23,480 --> 00:31:27,760
Speaker 1: seven hours before, and I know now that there's going off. Men,

652
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:30,040
Speaker 1: you got writing things down after working for seven hours.

653
00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:31,840
Speaker 1: That guy has taken some risks. I did to add

654
00:31:31,840 --> 00:31:33,800
Speaker 1: empathy for him. I could tell that he've been through

655
00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:37,200
Speaker 1: some ship. But my salmon he just he forgot. He

656
00:31:37,280 --> 00:31:39,280
Speaker 1: forgot it completely. He kind of like made up an

657
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:41,960
Speaker 1: excuse of like, oh, they thought the salads were a starter.

658
00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:43,840
Speaker 1: It didn't make much sense anyway, he forgot the salmon.

659
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:45,800
Speaker 1: He brought it out later when he delivered, he said,

660
00:31:45,840 --> 00:31:48,560
Speaker 1: it's on the house. We were totally calm and fine, great,

661
00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:51,080
Speaker 1: And the whole time I was so starving. And I

662
00:31:51,120 --> 00:31:53,240
Speaker 1: don't like to eat before someone else gets their food.

663
00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:55,760
Speaker 1: Not because I'm being me hungry because I'm looking at

664
00:31:55,800 --> 00:31:57,600
Speaker 1: your food. Yeah, but I don't like to eat in

665
00:31:57,600 --> 00:31:59,400
Speaker 1: front of people that are hungry, because when I eat,

666
00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:01,520
Speaker 1: then there watching me eat. Even more, which is with

667
00:32:01,560 --> 00:32:04,760
Speaker 1: my eating disorder. I don't like when people like analyze

668
00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:06,600
Speaker 1: what I'm eating, and when people are hungry and they're like,

669
00:32:06,720 --> 00:32:08,120
Speaker 1: you can just eat, I go no, because the whole

670
00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:10,440
Speaker 1: time you're gonna be salvating watching me eat, and it's annoying.

671
00:32:10,440 --> 00:32:12,160
Speaker 1: I'd rather salvate with you and look at my food.

672
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:13,920
Speaker 1: That's something touched. So I rode back to this guy.

673
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:16,120
Speaker 1: I go, Charles, you were great, thanks so much for

674
00:32:16,160 --> 00:32:18,920
Speaker 1: being nice about us. Being hungry and annoyed. Hunger makes

675
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:20,880
Speaker 1: me the worst person, so I'm sorry if you sensed

676
00:32:20,880 --> 00:32:23,959
Speaker 1: to tute. Hope to see you again there soon. Because

677
00:32:24,000 --> 00:32:26,160
Speaker 1: I wasn't. I was touted, so I didn't even look

678
00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:28,120
Speaker 1: at him when he got called over, like I was

679
00:32:28,200 --> 00:32:29,880
Speaker 1: like not in the mood to like be the one

680
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:31,800
Speaker 1: to be like his food is late, so I wanted

681
00:32:31,840 --> 00:32:33,600
Speaker 1: Andrew hold it, handle it, So I just like dug

682
00:32:33,600 --> 00:32:35,680
Speaker 1: in my person acted like he wasn't there, like I

683
00:32:35,720 --> 00:32:37,400
Speaker 1: was being such a cunt, But it was because I

684
00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:40,680
Speaker 1: was hungry. If I'm in halt, hungry, angry, lonely, or tired,

685
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,560
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be a bit. So anytime I'm being a bit,

686
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:45,880
Speaker 1: and I don't know why. I'm hungry, angry, lonely or

687
00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:54,320
Speaker 1: tired or some combination. Let's get to the news. Oh yeah,

688
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,480
Speaker 1: I hope you had a fantastic weekend. I hope you

689
00:32:56,520 --> 00:32:59,320
Speaker 1: had a great weekend. Man, really a good weekend. I

690
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:01,160
Speaker 1: hope you had all of the swells. Yeah, there it

691
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:06,040
Speaker 1: is alright, did have all the swells? God, what a weekend. Researchers.

692
00:33:06,440 --> 00:33:09,040
Speaker 1: I liked that the music is going did like one

693
00:33:09,080 --> 00:33:14,040
Speaker 1: horned Blair It we have the morning show researchers find

694
00:33:14,080 --> 00:33:18,400
Speaker 1: a caveman and women had raves by dancing for hours

695
00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:21,720
Speaker 1: and psychedelic trances while wearing elk teeth on their clothes

696
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:25,040
Speaker 1: to active rattlers. Oh my god, that's so cool. So

697
00:33:25,080 --> 00:33:28,480
Speaker 1: they would have these teeth on for necklaces that would

698
00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:30,920
Speaker 1: actually make beats for them. It was like the first

699
00:33:31,000 --> 00:33:34,760
Speaker 1: kind of music or the purpose. That's really cool. I

700
00:33:34,800 --> 00:33:38,000
Speaker 1: love this story. God, Noah, you always picked stories, and

701
00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:40,400
Speaker 1: Andrew too. I know you picked them as well. That

702
00:33:40,680 --> 00:33:43,280
Speaker 1: we worked together totally get to what I want to

703
00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:45,920
Speaker 1: talk about, because I found the best thing over the

704
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:51,120
Speaker 1: weekend about so over the weekend, I um, Friday night

705
00:33:51,160 --> 00:33:53,120
Speaker 1: we went to the baseball game. It was so much

706
00:33:53,160 --> 00:33:55,600
Speaker 1: goddamn fun because we live in a building that has

707
00:33:55,760 --> 00:33:58,720
Speaker 1: Cardinals players in it. I met a Cardinal player in

708
00:33:58,760 --> 00:34:02,160
Speaker 1: the elevator on Friday. I assumed his day he was

709
00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:04,280
Speaker 1: he had the day off because he was in the

710
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:07,040
Speaker 1: elevator just like chilling, and he goes, I go, oh,

711
00:34:07,120 --> 00:34:08,640
Speaker 1: day off, and he goes, oh, no, we have a

712
00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:10,520
Speaker 1: game tonight, and I was like, oh cool. And I

713
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:12,399
Speaker 1: knew they were playing the Cincinnati Reds, which is where

714
00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:13,880
Speaker 1: my family is from. I didn't have anything to do.

715
00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:16,600
Speaker 1: And then later on I was like, dude, Cardinal's games.

716
00:34:16,680 --> 00:34:18,200
Speaker 1: It would be so fun. I was also listening to

717
00:34:18,239 --> 00:34:21,480
Speaker 1: my ex boyfriend's radio show that morning and they were

718
00:34:21,480 --> 00:34:23,480
Speaker 1: talking about the most fun things to do in the

719
00:34:23,480 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 1: summer in St. Louis, and one of the hosts said

720
00:34:25,680 --> 00:34:28,239
Speaker 1: baseball games. And I was like kind of like, I

721
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:30,320
Speaker 1: was like, you get drunk at a game and the

722
00:34:30,640 --> 00:34:32,120
Speaker 1: and then I was like, wait a second, I love

723
00:34:32,160 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 1: baseball games. And then it all came together and um,

724
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:36,680
Speaker 1: my parents, I was giving them a stay cation because

725
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:38,960
Speaker 1: their grease trip got canceled because they got they had

726
00:34:38,960 --> 00:34:40,600
Speaker 1: to um, they were supposed to be in Greece right now.

727
00:34:41,320 --> 00:34:44,000
Speaker 1: And I said I'll get you a really nice suite

728
00:34:44,080 --> 00:34:47,680
Speaker 1: at this new hotel downtown, and then they were going

729
00:34:47,760 --> 00:34:49,360
Speaker 1: they were headed downtown to that suite. They were going

730
00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:50,920
Speaker 1: to go to the casino. Because I was like, go

731
00:34:50,960 --> 00:34:52,560
Speaker 1: to the casino. I'll give you some cash for it.

732
00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:55,359
Speaker 1: I just was in a generous move thank you mood,

733
00:34:55,560 --> 00:34:58,520
Speaker 1: thank you a d D medicine, and I, um, then

734
00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,640
Speaker 1: I go, what's all go to the game? So Andrew

735
00:35:00,640 --> 00:35:03,000
Speaker 1: looked up tickets. We got dope seats, and we went

736
00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:05,520
Speaker 1: to the fucking Cardinals game on Friday. It was so fun.

737
00:35:05,960 --> 00:35:08,360
Speaker 1: That's all to say that. Then Saturday night, I was

738
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:12,640
Speaker 1: in a really sad mood because um, I just I

739
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:14,840
Speaker 1: had Andrew was going to hang out with his girlfriend.

740
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:17,200
Speaker 1: I felt like I didn't have really any friends. I

741
00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:20,400
Speaker 1: not any friends, but I just like I didn't Actually, no,

742
00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:22,840
Speaker 1: that's not the case. Saturday we went to a pool party.

743
00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:25,040
Speaker 1: Had so much fun at this at the pool party

744
00:35:25,080 --> 00:35:28,880
Speaker 1: that was at our apartment complex, which they have activities

745
00:35:28,880 --> 00:35:30,520
Speaker 1: for us all the time. My dad always makes fun

746
00:35:30,560 --> 00:35:32,759
Speaker 1: of us because he's been to my apartment enough, he's

747
00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:34,960
Speaker 1: seen the flyers in the elevator. He's always like, or

748
00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:38,960
Speaker 1: is uh the National waffle Day. Are you guys celebrating

749
00:35:38,960 --> 00:35:40,680
Speaker 1: that on Tuesday? Because they'll do like Donut Day, you

750
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:43,160
Speaker 1: get free donuts, sign up to learn how to make

751
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:45,560
Speaker 1: a martini class and they do fun events to get

752
00:35:45,560 --> 00:35:49,520
Speaker 1: to know each other, nursing homework. It really isn't That's

753
00:35:49,560 --> 00:35:51,600
Speaker 1: what I need it. People need these things because we

754
00:35:51,640 --> 00:35:54,080
Speaker 1: are so socially isolated, and I'm ready to jazzer size

755
00:35:54,080 --> 00:35:55,640
Speaker 1: in the pool. I want to do it down to

756
00:35:55,680 --> 00:35:57,960
Speaker 1: the pool. I would do it. We went down the

757
00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:00,280
Speaker 1: pool to the pool party. Andrew had already been into

758
00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:02,080
Speaker 1: a mixer. When I was at a town still in

759
00:36:02,080 --> 00:36:04,200
Speaker 1: the Caymans. He met a couple that he had told me.

760
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:07,359
Speaker 1: He told me I'd love them. Sometimes I don't trust him.

761
00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 1: I go, yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm sure I will. I

762
00:36:09,480 --> 00:36:11,160
Speaker 1: trust you, though I knew I would. It was just

763
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:13,680
Speaker 1: like I wasn't like dying to meet this couple, you know.

764
00:36:14,040 --> 00:36:16,280
Speaker 1: But we go down to the pool party. There's nowhere

765
00:36:16,280 --> 00:36:18,680
Speaker 1: to sit except this couple is sitting on a place

766
00:36:18,680 --> 00:36:21,600
Speaker 1: that has a couple more seats available, and he goes,

767
00:36:21,640 --> 00:36:23,440
Speaker 1: that's my couple, friend, let's go talk to them. We

768
00:36:23,560 --> 00:36:26,279
Speaker 1: walk around the pool. We sit for three hours with

769
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:28,960
Speaker 1: this couple. They're my new best friends. Shout out to

770
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:33,120
Speaker 1: Marissa and Pat who live in the building. They are amazing.

771
00:36:33,760 --> 00:36:38,000
Speaker 1: He's a doctor. He's a he's a surgeon. He's going

772
00:36:38,040 --> 00:36:41,880
Speaker 1: to he's starting. He's starting at a private practice, nurse

773
00:36:42,080 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 1: for children. He is amazing. They're both in there. The

774
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:48,400
Speaker 1: thing is, we need to find couples that don't aren't

775
00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:50,640
Speaker 1: at the kids stage of their life yet, which they

776
00:36:50,680 --> 00:36:53,279
Speaker 1: aren't probably will be soon because they just got married

777
00:36:53,360 --> 00:36:55,600
Speaker 1: last week. But I was like, we need to find

778
00:36:55,640 --> 00:36:57,680
Speaker 1: younger people to hang out with. She's twenty. I think

779
00:36:57,719 --> 00:37:01,040
Speaker 1: she's thirty, and he's thirty as well. Four okay, he's thirty. Fourth,

780
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:03,120
Speaker 1: she's thirty. Perfect age for us as a forty one

781
00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:04,800
Speaker 1: year old man and the thirty seven year old woman.

782
00:37:04,960 --> 00:37:08,120
Speaker 1: They are so fun. They are so nice. I literally

783
00:37:08,160 --> 00:37:11,640
Speaker 1: told this girl everything about my life that like if

784
00:37:11,719 --> 00:37:14,400
Speaker 1: she called up someone, and like she could ruin my

785
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:16,719
Speaker 1: life with the stuff she knows. But I trusted her.

786
00:37:16,920 --> 00:37:19,239
Speaker 1: I um got her number. We I have friends in

787
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:21,840
Speaker 1: the building. We left that. I was like full of friendship.

788
00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:25,600
Speaker 1: We talked for three hours and I'm just talking UFC

789
00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:29,000
Speaker 1: the whole time. While Nicki's talking like relationship stuff we're having,

790
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:32,120
Speaker 1: Like it's like where a couple. Where were a couple

791
00:37:32,280 --> 00:37:35,319
Speaker 1: that found a couple of friends and we haven't even

792
00:37:35,320 --> 00:37:37,600
Speaker 1: talked about. We're gonna start walking to dinner and you're

793
00:37:37,600 --> 00:37:39,680
Speaker 1: gonna the two girls are You're gonna walk in front

794
00:37:39,719 --> 00:37:43,640
Speaker 1: like ten ft. It's the greatest thing you are, my

795
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:47,400
Speaker 1: husband that we don't like you have a girlfriend. It's amazing.

796
00:37:47,440 --> 00:37:50,680
Speaker 1: It's like all I've ever wanted. UM so much fun.

797
00:37:50,719 --> 00:37:52,799
Speaker 1: So then after that, Andrew left to go hang out

798
00:37:52,840 --> 00:37:56,120
Speaker 1: with his lady and I was like still feeling just

799
00:37:56,280 --> 00:37:58,319
Speaker 1: high off of making a new friend, and I was

800
00:37:58,440 --> 00:38:01,520
Speaker 1: listening and I decided to I wanted to write a song.

801
00:38:01,560 --> 00:38:03,720
Speaker 1: I was like, I've been talking about it a lot.

802
00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:06,239
Speaker 1: I've been talking about it to literally um a lot

803
00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:09,360
Speaker 1: of just my therapy type people that I talked to

804
00:38:09,400 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 1: you about, Like I have a song in my heart.

805
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:12,239
Speaker 1: I don't know how to get it out. I've been

806
00:38:12,239 --> 00:38:14,520
Speaker 1: talking about for months and months and months. And I

807
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:17,200
Speaker 1: remembered when I was a junior in high school, before

808
00:38:17,239 --> 00:38:18,960
Speaker 1: long before I wanted to be a comedian or anything

809
00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:22,000
Speaker 1: to do with comedy. I had Mr Harrick asked our

810
00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:24,480
Speaker 1: a p U S class which he would be embarrassed,

811
00:38:24,520 --> 00:38:26,640
Speaker 1: which out a B euro class actually, and he was like,

812
00:38:26,640 --> 00:38:27,759
Speaker 1: what do you want to be when you grow up?

813
00:38:27,760 --> 00:38:30,239
Speaker 1: And I had Dad never even considered like what I

814
00:38:30,280 --> 00:38:32,399
Speaker 1: would say to that. It was always an actress. But

815
00:38:32,520 --> 00:38:34,880
Speaker 1: obviously in high school I wasn't very good at that,

816
00:38:34,920 --> 00:38:36,200
Speaker 1: so I didn't want to say that in front of

817
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:39,160
Speaker 1: the class. And I really truly wrote singer songwriter. He

818
00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:41,880
Speaker 1: had me stay after class because he was so inspired

819
00:38:41,920 --> 00:38:44,759
Speaker 1: by it. He gave me Amy Man CDs and all

820
00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:49,959
Speaker 1: these different singer songwriter woman and I remember Amy Man

821
00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:53,840
Speaker 1: the most and um Elvis Costello, and he he was like,

822
00:38:53,880 --> 00:38:56,200
Speaker 1: you really need to know these people to understand songwriting.

823
00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:58,680
Speaker 1: And I just felt like, oh my god, like I

824
00:38:58,719 --> 00:39:00,480
Speaker 1: forgot about that moment of like I wanted to be

825
00:39:00,560 --> 00:39:02,480
Speaker 1: a songwriter, and being comedian is a lot like being

826
00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 1: a songwriter, except it's not a sincere. So what I did.

827
00:39:05,360 --> 00:39:08,120
Speaker 1: I googled how to write a song? This is Saturday night,

828
00:39:08,280 --> 00:39:10,759
Speaker 1: six o'clock, how to write a song? A Ted talk

829
00:39:10,800 --> 00:39:12,359
Speaker 1: came up, Noah, and this is where I'm getting into

830
00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:15,000
Speaker 1: the caveman thing. A Ted talk came up about how

831
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:17,439
Speaker 1: to write a song? This this kind of quirky guy

832
00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:20,160
Speaker 1: that is kind of says kiss stuff sometimes, but he's

833
00:39:20,200 --> 00:39:24,279
Speaker 1: really cute. Twenty four minute long Ted talk to a

834
00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:28,200
Speaker 1: bunch of people that are probably not songwriters in the crowd,

835
00:39:28,560 --> 00:39:31,520
Speaker 1: and he he writes a song with the crowd. He's like,

836
00:39:31,560 --> 00:39:32,920
Speaker 1: anyone can write a song, that's how you do it.

837
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:35,239
Speaker 1: We're gonna write a song together now. And I learned

838
00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:38,280
Speaker 1: how to write a song, very simple. And I promised

839
00:39:38,280 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 1: myself before Andrew left. I go, I, what did I

840
00:39:40,719 --> 00:39:42,480
Speaker 1: say to you? Are you're going to write a song

841
00:39:42,560 --> 00:39:44,200
Speaker 1: before you go to bed. I can't go to sleep

842
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:45,919
Speaker 1: tonight until I write a song. I will not allow

843
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:47,520
Speaker 1: myself to go to sleep. I also had the rule

844
00:39:47,560 --> 00:39:50,360
Speaker 1: of I will not go to sleep until I tackle

845
00:39:50,480 --> 00:39:52,600
Speaker 1: the laundry in my room to fold, because its a

846
00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:55,560
Speaker 1: big pile on my floor, like literally a mountain range

847
00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:58,160
Speaker 1: of clothing, and I need to write a song. I

848
00:39:58,200 --> 00:40:00,279
Speaker 1: got both of those done that night. What did what

849
00:40:00,360 --> 00:40:03,200
Speaker 1: I learned? What I learned from the song? I did

850
00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:06,160
Speaker 1: both at the same time. Actually, so what I learned

851
00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:09,279
Speaker 1: was that music in this anyone can write a song,

852
00:40:09,320 --> 00:40:12,080
Speaker 1: you guys. Because he asked the audience, he goes, what

853
00:40:12,080 --> 00:40:14,239
Speaker 1: are why why do we write songs? And I want

854
00:40:14,239 --> 00:40:16,840
Speaker 1: you guys to try to guess why do we write songs? Noah, Andrew,

855
00:40:17,520 --> 00:40:20,120
Speaker 1: I mean either to tell a story or to get

856
00:40:20,120 --> 00:40:24,200
Speaker 1: an emotion out Noah, Yeah, I agree with Andrew, just

857
00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:26,960
Speaker 1: to get out I am feeling. I would have said

858
00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:29,560
Speaker 1: the same thing to emote a feeling, which is a

859
00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:31,680
Speaker 1: part of it. But you hit it on the head

860
00:40:31,840 --> 00:40:36,520
Speaker 1: to tell a story. When before we had, you know, recordings,

861
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:39,080
Speaker 1: before we had writing, before we learned how to write,

862
00:40:39,120 --> 00:40:41,440
Speaker 1: before we had learned how to draw on caves, we

863
00:40:41,960 --> 00:40:45,080
Speaker 1: only before we had uh, we told stories around the campfire,

864
00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:47,840
Speaker 1: and it would you know, we would only learn lessons

865
00:40:48,200 --> 00:40:51,000
Speaker 1: and for the next generation if we would memorize stories.

866
00:40:51,280 --> 00:40:54,160
Speaker 1: What's the best way to memorize a story? A lesson

867
00:40:55,800 --> 00:40:59,560
Speaker 1: c d E. And so people put stories and lessons

868
00:40:59,680 --> 00:41:02,360
Speaker 1: and feelings into songs so that they could pass it

869
00:41:02,440 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 1: along to other generations. And to me, that was so beautiful.

870
00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:07,640
Speaker 1: It was the same way that cavemen did raves like

871
00:41:07,960 --> 00:41:11,239
Speaker 1: we they're needed. We wanted this thing that we all

872
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:15,239
Speaker 1: do now that has no matter with technological advances. We

873
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:19,200
Speaker 1: still enjoy raves right listening to music and but It

874
00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:21,640
Speaker 1: all stems from the fact that we want to be

875
00:41:22,160 --> 00:41:26,040
Speaker 1: we want to be happy, and stories pass along messages

876
00:41:26,120 --> 00:41:30,320
Speaker 1: and lessons that will improve life and make life better,

877
00:41:30,920 --> 00:41:33,640
Speaker 1: or express an emotion that will help you get through

878
00:41:33,680 --> 00:41:35,920
Speaker 1: the emotion that might be hard for you. So when

879
00:41:35,920 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 1: I looked at it that way, I was like, Okay,

880
00:41:37,880 --> 00:41:40,280
Speaker 1: what's an emotion I have? This doesn't have to be perfect.

881
00:41:40,320 --> 00:41:43,120
Speaker 1: The first joke I wrote was garbage. It was like

882
00:41:43,680 --> 00:41:46,160
Speaker 1: when Ciskel and Ebert get into a fight over if

883
00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:48,440
Speaker 1: of movies are good or not do they thumb wrestle?

884
00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:50,239
Speaker 1: Like it was literally that Like it was just like, oh,

885
00:41:50,320 --> 00:41:51,840
Speaker 1: it was good. And that wasn't my first joke, but

886
00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:53,680
Speaker 1: it was one of my first things of like intentionally

887
00:41:53,680 --> 00:41:56,280
Speaker 1: writing a joke that doesn't define me as a comedian.

888
00:41:56,320 --> 00:41:58,440
Speaker 1: You always think that, like someone's gonna ask me, what's

889
00:41:58,440 --> 00:42:00,279
Speaker 1: the first joke you wrote, and if it's not good,

890
00:42:00,360 --> 00:42:02,920
Speaker 1: people will know I'm not Chappelle. Well, I hate Chappelle,

891
00:42:02,960 --> 00:42:04,920
Speaker 1: and I bet Chappelle wrote a shitty joke at first,

892
00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:08,200
Speaker 1: And I bet most people wrote shitty songs that you love.

893
00:42:08,239 --> 00:42:11,200
Speaker 1: I bet Taylor Swiss first song was shit. So I

894
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:13,799
Speaker 1: wrote a goddamn song It was very easy and all

895
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:16,600
Speaker 1: I did was follow the Ted Talk and I'll leave

896
00:42:16,719 --> 00:42:18,680
Speaker 1: you to go watch that Ted Talk. It will be

897
00:42:18,719 --> 00:42:20,279
Speaker 1: the easiest thing to find. Just type in ted talk

898
00:42:20,280 --> 00:42:22,239
Speaker 1: how to write a song, and I wrote a song.

899
00:42:22,280 --> 00:42:25,239
Speaker 1: I wrote two songs actually this weekend, something that I've

900
00:42:25,239 --> 00:42:29,520
Speaker 1: been putting off my entire life, no joke, because it's

901
00:42:29,520 --> 00:42:31,600
Speaker 1: too vulnerable. I might be bad at it. I did it.

902
00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:35,000
Speaker 1: I was bad at it, but it is easy. And

903
00:42:35,239 --> 00:42:38,880
Speaker 1: I also want to say that it put me in

904
00:42:38,920 --> 00:42:41,960
Speaker 1: a really sad because I had to access feelings that

905
00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:44,799
Speaker 1: I didn't know that we're there, and it made me

906
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:46,959
Speaker 1: so sad. It was such a great way to feel

907
00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:53,000
Speaker 1: my feelings. I sobbed yesterday because I just wanted but

908
00:42:53,080 --> 00:42:56,160
Speaker 1: like what exactly, because I I don't know what it was,

909
00:42:56,160 --> 00:42:58,080
Speaker 1: because I'm so out of touch with my feelings and

910
00:42:58,080 --> 00:43:00,120
Speaker 1: I don't understand them, and I pushed them down when

911
00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:01,880
Speaker 1: they come up because I just feel so ridiculous that

912
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:05,320
Speaker 1: when I let myself think about the like I was

913
00:43:05,360 --> 00:43:08,880
Speaker 1: writing a love song kind of thing of like, uh

914
00:43:08,920 --> 00:43:13,239
Speaker 1: like just processing some feelings about a romance, and I

915
00:43:13,280 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 1: think just trying to write those lyrics and put the

916
00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:18,040
Speaker 1: feelings into words, brought the lyrics to the service where

917
00:43:18,200 --> 00:43:20,759
Speaker 1: the cry was like up here in my throat and

918
00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:22,800
Speaker 1: I just was like on the phone with someone and

919
00:43:22,960 --> 00:43:25,719
Speaker 1: go listen, I really need to cry, and I don't

920
00:43:25,719 --> 00:43:27,080
Speaker 1: want to do it on the phone with you, even

921
00:43:27,080 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 1: though she was like, oh, you can cry to me,

922
00:43:28,640 --> 00:43:30,160
Speaker 1: and I was like, I just really want to do

923
00:43:30,200 --> 00:43:31,719
Speaker 1: it when I get off the phone. And I hung

924
00:43:31,800 --> 00:43:33,840
Speaker 1: up the phone. And then I did a podcast to

925
00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:35,759
Speaker 1: the person that I was wanted to talk to you

926
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:37,920
Speaker 1: that I can't talk to. I did a fake podcast

927
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:40,240
Speaker 1: where I just it's like writing a letter to someone

928
00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:42,840
Speaker 1: you know. And I just cried through the podcast and

929
00:43:42,840 --> 00:43:44,920
Speaker 1: it only took five minutes. And then afterwards I was like,

930
00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:48,840
Speaker 1: I'm good, and it was like it was crime so good.

931
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:51,359
Speaker 1: It's such a release and I never let myself do it.

932
00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:54,359
Speaker 1: Next story, I mean jokes. When you write a joke

933
00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:57,759
Speaker 1: so much on that emotion you tried to you try

934
00:43:57,800 --> 00:43:59,920
Speaker 1: to throw it down, you try to make fun of

935
00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:02,200
Speaker 1: it so it doesn't hurt. But you've written songs before

936
00:44:02,200 --> 00:44:04,480
Speaker 1: you wrote Alligator Boy, and like, I'm jealous that you

937
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:05,719
Speaker 1: wrote out. I think that's why I make fun of

938
00:44:05,719 --> 00:44:08,399
Speaker 1: Alligator Boy, because you actually took the chance to write

939
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:10,760
Speaker 1: a song that I actually like. Yeah, but I should

940
00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:13,319
Speaker 1: add a couple of verses which I have in a

941
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:15,800
Speaker 1: bridge and a bridge and then jump off it because

942
00:44:15,840 --> 00:44:19,520
Speaker 1: that song sucks. Man. That well, that's a ted talk. No,

943
00:44:19,600 --> 00:44:22,600
Speaker 1: I do love that song sounds. Man, the roller coaster

944
00:44:22,680 --> 00:44:24,440
Speaker 1: in that song, I know I really put you through it.

945
00:44:24,480 --> 00:44:26,000
Speaker 1: I want you to write a song about how I

946
00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:29,359
Speaker 1: judged you for Alligator Boy. Next story story. Okay. Ryan

947
00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:32,840
Speaker 1: Reynolds was inspired by his three daughters to speak openly

948
00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:35,759
Speaker 1: about his own mental health struggles. I saw this. I

949
00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:37,799
Speaker 1: saw him put out a thing. Yeah, he put out

950
00:44:37,800 --> 00:44:39,879
Speaker 1: a thing about how he has anxiety and how he's

951
00:44:39,920 --> 00:44:44,360
Speaker 1: an over worker. And uh, when I felt the absolute

952
00:44:44,400 --> 00:44:46,759
Speaker 1: bottom it's usually been because I felt like I was

953
00:44:46,800 --> 00:44:49,040
Speaker 1: alone and something I was feeling. The actor said that

954
00:44:49,120 --> 00:44:52,760
Speaker 1: when you talk about these things, it feels set others free.

955
00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:57,000
Speaker 1: It will help set others free. Yeah. Um, interesting to

956
00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,000
Speaker 1: see a guy like Ryan Reynolds who has a beautiful

957
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:02,560
Speaker 1: white wife like Lively. He's always so funny. He always

958
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 1: plays characters that are so lighthearted. For him to admit that, Uh,

959
00:45:07,920 --> 00:45:09,919
Speaker 1: it's just it makes me so sad when I see

960
00:45:09,960 --> 00:45:13,600
Speaker 1: people that I'm like, you could be free of this

961
00:45:13,719 --> 00:45:16,279
Speaker 1: if you only knew how, if you only felt about

962
00:45:16,280 --> 00:45:18,759
Speaker 1: yourself the way others think about you. But that could

963
00:45:18,760 --> 00:45:20,960
Speaker 1: be said for everyone. And I don't know if it

964
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:23,080
Speaker 1: makes me feel better or worse that Ryan Reynolds struggles,

965
00:45:23,080 --> 00:45:25,520
Speaker 1: because to me, if Ryan Reynolds is struggling, it makes

966
00:45:25,520 --> 00:45:29,080
Speaker 1: me feel so sad for anyone that doesn't have as

967
00:45:29,120 --> 00:45:31,919
Speaker 1: many accomplishment as him, because it just makes me sad

968
00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:35,080
Speaker 1: for humanity, Like he doesn't need to struggle, like I

969
00:45:35,120 --> 00:45:37,799
Speaker 1: want him to find the path to not feeling like

970
00:45:37,920 --> 00:45:39,880
Speaker 1: we need him to work all the time, and like

971
00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:42,880
Speaker 1: because it's there, And I think that there's something about

972
00:45:42,920 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 1: posting about it and saying that you struggle, But there's

973
00:45:45,120 --> 00:45:47,640
Speaker 1: also something about saying, like, here's what I did to

974
00:45:47,719 --> 00:45:50,279
Speaker 1: not accept that that has to be the way it is,

975
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:53,040
Speaker 1: Like I don't think we have to accept. Of course,

976
00:45:53,080 --> 00:45:55,880
Speaker 1: we can accept feeling less than and feeling tired and

977
00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:59,520
Speaker 1: feeling you know, pulled in all these directions, but we

978
00:45:59,560 --> 00:46:01,960
Speaker 1: don't have to except that as like the way life is, like,

979
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:04,160
Speaker 1: we can just we can do things that don't make

980
00:46:04,280 --> 00:46:06,919
Speaker 1: us feel that way. And that's what I'm want to find.

981
00:46:07,120 --> 00:46:11,120
Speaker 1: I feel like I found a kind of comic Caldough

982
00:46:11,160 --> 00:46:13,200
Speaker 1: that like that he had to like, I do it

983
00:46:13,200 --> 00:46:14,960
Speaker 1: for my daughter. It's like that bit that I've been

984
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:17,799
Speaker 1: working on about, like you can't be vulnerable as a

985
00:46:17,840 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 1: man without an excuse, and like children always give you

986
00:46:21,400 --> 00:46:24,440
Speaker 1: the excuse. Because because of my daughters, I can admit

987
00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:26,800
Speaker 1: that I have, Like I feel like the next step

988
00:46:26,880 --> 00:46:29,000
Speaker 1: is no just for you, Ryan, it's just for you,

989
00:46:29,080 --> 00:46:31,759
Speaker 1: but like you can just admit it. Yeah, people without

990
00:46:31,840 --> 00:46:35,759
Speaker 1: daughters can't go. I cried, Um, I'm doing this for

991
00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:38,120
Speaker 1: my son, Spike. Listen to whatever it gives you an

992
00:46:38,120 --> 00:46:42,239
Speaker 1: excuse to do it, but right through because there are

993
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:44,160
Speaker 1: people out there that are like maybe you guys out

994
00:46:44,200 --> 00:46:46,400
Speaker 1: there that doesn't have kids or a wife. And he's like,

995
00:46:46,480 --> 00:46:48,879
Speaker 1: I want to dress up in a tea party hat,

996
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:51,320
Speaker 1: and like because you have a joke about guys dressing

997
00:46:51,360 --> 00:46:54,399
Speaker 1: and like a little like is that the one you have? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

998
00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:58,120
Speaker 1: the one about you gotta that? Do you have to blame?

999
00:46:58,160 --> 00:47:00,200
Speaker 1: He blames his daughter, like the toughest guy a no

1000
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:03,319
Speaker 1: can only be soft if he has his daughter as

1001
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:07,640
Speaker 1: a scapegoat. Like sports always having their children on the

1002
00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:09,960
Speaker 1: like next to them when they're doing the reporting, suddenly

1003
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:13,239
Speaker 1: like they can cry. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, there's so

1004
00:47:13,360 --> 00:47:15,799
Speaker 1: much love there. I could fly so fucked up if

1005
00:47:15,840 --> 00:47:18,080
Speaker 1: they only had kids and a wife said that they

1006
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:20,880
Speaker 1: could like finally cry, which I'm sure it happens. Of like,

1007
00:47:20,960 --> 00:47:22,840
Speaker 1: I want to just be more vulnerable, So I'm going

1008
00:47:22,880 --> 00:47:25,879
Speaker 1: to let in this like feminine energy when really it's

1009
00:47:25,920 --> 00:47:28,040
Speaker 1: there for you at all times. Is all you have

1010
00:47:28,080 --> 00:47:32,239
Speaker 1: to do is put in a fucking tamp on. You pussy,

1011
00:47:32,280 --> 00:47:35,719
Speaker 1: you cry, and then you put out a little when

1012
00:47:37,200 --> 00:47:44,120
Speaker 1: it is the pressure too much, you know, all the time.

1013
00:47:44,120 --> 00:47:47,560
Speaker 1: Because when I walked dogs for you. I also had

1014
00:47:47,560 --> 00:47:49,759
Speaker 1: one other client, who is this rich real estate guy

1015
00:47:49,800 --> 00:47:53,080
Speaker 1: who had two toy poodles. Uh. He was so o

1016
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:56,760
Speaker 1: c d about his dogs. He would make me dude,

1017
00:47:56,840 --> 00:48:00,360
Speaker 1: he wanted his dog to drink out of the same ball, right,

1018
00:48:00,400 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 1: but he didn't want me to give the dog too

1019
00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:04,799
Speaker 1: much water, So he goes fill it up half. I go,

1020
00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:06,839
Speaker 1: why why don't you just grabbed the smaller ball. He's like, well,

1021
00:48:06,840 --> 00:48:08,960
Speaker 1: he likes that ball, Like that's kind of the idea

1022
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:11,759
Speaker 1: of his control about the dogs. Yeah, he had nothing

1023
00:48:11,760 --> 00:48:13,600
Speaker 1: to do with the dog I remember I came I

1024
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,480
Speaker 1: was taking a ship and I heard him talking to

1025
00:48:15,520 --> 00:48:20,920
Speaker 1: his toy poodles and I was taking a ship and

1026
00:48:20,960 --> 00:48:27,320
Speaker 1: I came out and he's like, yeah, um, but anyways,

1027
00:48:27,400 --> 00:48:30,520
Speaker 1: Ryan Reynolds and Blake Lively lived in this building, and

1028
00:48:30,560 --> 00:48:36,359
Speaker 1: so did Jake Killenhall, justin Timberlake and The Weekend. Yeah,

1029
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:38,080
Speaker 1: give me the one thing that's not going to get

1030
00:48:38,080 --> 00:48:40,560
Speaker 1: you in trouble that you can tell us about celebrities

1031
00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:42,759
Speaker 1: that might blow the lid off something. Can I give

1032
00:48:42,760 --> 00:48:46,719
Speaker 1: you a hint the Blake Lively story? No? Um, the paparazzi.

1033
00:48:47,520 --> 00:48:51,160
Speaker 1: Oh yes, The Weekend lived there for a while and

1034
00:48:51,280 --> 00:48:56,200
Speaker 1: headed they were in the same Uh it's Bella. Maybe

1035
00:48:56,200 --> 00:49:00,879
Speaker 1: it's it's Bella and married. Okay, they called the paparazzi

1036
00:49:00,960 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 1: on themselves. This happened apparently a lot I never saw.

1037
00:49:04,280 --> 00:49:06,040
Speaker 1: I know. I'll tell you. I was in the lot.

1038
00:49:06,160 --> 00:49:09,160
Speaker 1: I was in the lobby and I see them waiting together,

1039
00:49:09,239 --> 00:49:12,239
Speaker 1: holding hands, looking out the door, waiting for the paparazzi

1040
00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:15,360
Speaker 1: to get in the perfect spot to take a photo

1041
00:49:15,440 --> 00:49:18,719
Speaker 1: before they came out, and just so organized. So and

1042
00:49:19,160 --> 00:49:22,120
Speaker 1: I was like, man, I should maybe get involved in this,

1043
00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:24,480
Speaker 1: and so when they walked down, I was I'm in

1044
00:49:24,520 --> 00:49:26,400
Speaker 1: the background in on I think it's still on your

1045
00:49:26,440 --> 00:49:28,400
Speaker 1: Instagram unless you took it down, and it's kind of

1046
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:31,279
Speaker 1: weird feverish, like I kept waking my Instagram so you

1047
00:49:31,320 --> 00:49:33,560
Speaker 1: can see Andrew in the background of the Weekend and

1048
00:49:33,760 --> 00:49:38,480
Speaker 1: fell shot. Look at like risiness celebrities even when they're like,

1049
00:49:38,680 --> 00:49:42,080
Speaker 1: no paparazzi, No, they've called them and it's all set up,

1050
00:49:42,160 --> 00:49:45,839
Speaker 1: so just don't unless honestly, unless it's Princess Diana, it's

1051
00:49:45,840 --> 00:49:49,040
Speaker 1: pretty much that or Brittany back in the day. They're

1052
00:49:49,080 --> 00:49:51,560
Speaker 1: all they all set it up, and they all thrive

1053
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:54,000
Speaker 1: on the paparazzi to exist, even myself and what I

1054
00:49:54,040 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: got from Blake Lively though, and I think Ryan might

1055
00:49:57,239 --> 00:50:01,040
Speaker 1: feel alone because she's a little what do you mean,

1056
00:50:01,640 --> 00:50:05,000
Speaker 1: I mean, like, for an example, one of the stories

1057
00:50:05,160 --> 00:50:11,600
Speaker 1: was she brought all anecdotal anecdotal, yeahah on the roof.

1058
00:50:11,640 --> 00:50:17,040
Speaker 1: They were supposed to build like a like a gate

1059
00:50:17,120 --> 00:50:20,799
Speaker 1: or whatever, so you can't fall whatever offense, and she

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00:50:20,920 --> 00:50:24,480
Speaker 1: was showing that it was not safe by using her

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00:50:24,520 --> 00:50:27,680
Speaker 1: own kids, by showing how they could fall off. Okay,

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00:50:27,680 --> 00:50:30,439
Speaker 1: I have support all this, but by bringing the kid

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00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:35,560
Speaker 1: up and showing that you want to use your own kids.

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00:50:35,640 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 1: If it's definitely a safe you could just tell them

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00:50:37,760 --> 00:50:39,759
Speaker 1: without using your own kids. No, I think you bring

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00:50:39,800 --> 00:50:41,440
Speaker 1: up the kid and you go look at exactly how

1067
00:50:41,440 --> 00:50:42,920
Speaker 1: this could happen. I don't think it's wild at all.

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00:50:42,960 --> 00:50:45,840
Speaker 1: I support Blake and the nose job that made her career.

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00:50:46,200 --> 00:50:50,839
Speaker 1: Uh take a different turn, um it did her nose

1070
00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:53,440
Speaker 1: job like that you have to defend her in this

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00:50:54,680 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 1: just I almost feel like it's like a contrariantian. I

1072
00:50:58,560 --> 00:51:01,280
Speaker 1: swear to God that story. I would the same Luigi

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00:51:01,360 --> 00:51:05,000
Speaker 1: and I held him out on the roof, out like

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00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:08,279
Speaker 1: like like a foot away from like like she was

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00:51:08,400 --> 00:51:10,880
Speaker 1: using them. They swear to God, I would do the

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00:51:10,880 --> 00:51:13,280
Speaker 1: same thing because if it's safe enough, you would go, okay,

1077
00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:14,680
Speaker 1: so it's safe for me to bring this up here.

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00:51:14,680 --> 00:51:18,280
Speaker 1: But here's how it could for Marian and use a dummy.

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00:51:18,360 --> 00:51:20,279
Speaker 1: Don't use your actual kids. Who has a dummy of

1080
00:51:20,320 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: their kid laying around? Let's get to why do I care?

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00:51:23,280 --> 00:51:28,480
Speaker 1: Even though I feel like we're already in it? Why

1082
00:51:28,480 --> 00:51:30,560
Speaker 1: do I care? Why do I care? If you're new?

1083
00:51:30,680 --> 00:51:33,480
Speaker 1: Is our celebrity news segment Sometimes celebrity news will be

1084
00:51:33,520 --> 00:51:35,520
Speaker 1: in the before it, but most of the time it's

1085
00:51:35,560 --> 00:51:37,960
Speaker 1: a celebrity news story that's like why do I care?

1086
00:51:37,960 --> 00:51:39,640
Speaker 1: And I try to find some reason why I care?

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00:51:39,840 --> 00:51:41,759
Speaker 1: All right? When asked about her new season and the

1088
00:51:41,840 --> 00:51:45,480
Speaker 1: Bachelor at Katie Thurston reveals that she did have sex

1089
00:51:45,520 --> 00:51:48,600
Speaker 1: in the fantasy suits. Told reporters, so you heard it

1090
00:51:48,640 --> 00:51:51,920
Speaker 1: here first. We all know it happens, but no one's

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00:51:51,960 --> 00:51:55,000
Speaker 1: talking about. Okay. Katie Thurston is um the woman that

1092
00:51:55,040 --> 00:51:58,480
Speaker 1: showed up to Matt James's Bachelor season with a vibrator

1093
00:51:59,160 --> 00:52:00,920
Speaker 1: right out of the gate. She was carrying vibrated and

1094
00:52:00,960 --> 00:52:03,520
Speaker 1: she said, you know, I'm gonna need this, and it

1095
00:52:03,600 --> 00:52:05,560
Speaker 1: was like a joke thing and she she at one

1096
00:52:05,600 --> 00:52:08,240
Speaker 1: point started she kind of ganged up on other girls

1097
00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:11,319
Speaker 1: at one point, but she is one of the two bachelorettes. Uh.

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00:52:11,840 --> 00:52:15,320
Speaker 1: Leading into tonight's UM opener, I if you never watched

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00:52:15,320 --> 00:52:18,399
Speaker 1: The Bachelor or bachelorrette before in your listener to the show,

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00:52:18,840 --> 00:52:21,880
Speaker 1: stop stop it. Just stop trying to be cool. Just

1101
00:52:22,040 --> 00:52:24,400
Speaker 1: I said it in the UM I could this was

1102
00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 1: where the coup was in my MTV monologue that they

1103
00:52:26,840 --> 00:52:29,640
Speaker 1: took out. When guys say I've never seen an episode

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00:52:29,640 --> 00:52:33,880
Speaker 1: of The Bachelor Bachelorette. Kay, wow, are you a doctor?

1105
00:52:33,920 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 1: Are you a science rocket scientist? Doctor? It does. What

1106
00:52:38,560 --> 00:52:41,400
Speaker 1: it says about you is that you're scared to like

1107
00:52:41,560 --> 00:52:46,200
Speaker 1: something that's a little big gay to be gay. It's

1108
00:52:46,239 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 1: not gay. It's actually entertaining as fun, and it's really

1109
00:52:49,200 --> 00:52:51,720
Speaker 1: fun to watch with other people. I might invite Marissa

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00:52:51,800 --> 00:52:54,400
Speaker 1: and Pat over tonight to watch the premiere. I'm doing

1111
00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:57,520
Speaker 1: Caitlin Bristow's podcast Off the Vine tomorrow where we're gonna

1112
00:52:57,600 --> 00:52:59,280
Speaker 1: recap it. So if you want to hear a recap

1113
00:52:59,280 --> 00:53:02,600
Speaker 1: of the Bachelorette tonight, me and Pattern are gonna watch.

1114
00:53:02,600 --> 00:53:04,359
Speaker 1: We're gonna lay in bed and watch you have seed

1115
00:53:04,360 --> 00:53:06,719
Speaker 1: together like real men and hug the whole time so

1116
00:53:06,760 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: that you don't have to point each other. That's the

1117
00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:11,160
Speaker 1: thing I learned. Will both be spoons. Um, that's why

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00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:13,840
Speaker 1: I care. Is that? So she had sex in the

1119
00:53:13,840 --> 00:53:16,960
Speaker 1: fancy suite something to look forward to. That means that, uh,

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00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:20,000
Speaker 1: this bitch got some got dick down in the fancy suite,

1121
00:53:20,040 --> 00:53:23,560
Speaker 1: which is when you which is the final stage of

1122
00:53:23,600 --> 00:53:26,400
Speaker 1: the Bachelor series, which has already been shot at this point,

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00:53:26,880 --> 00:53:29,000
Speaker 1: and that is the night before. It's pretty much the

1124
00:53:29,040 --> 00:53:31,520
Speaker 1: weekend before they decide who they're gonna pick. It's down

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00:53:31,520 --> 00:53:33,440
Speaker 1: to two guys, and she slept with one of them,

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00:53:33,480 --> 00:53:35,200
Speaker 1: at least one of them. That's kind of what The

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00:53:35,239 --> 00:53:38,040
Speaker 1: Bachelor does, though I feel like it keeps it uh

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00:53:38,280 --> 00:53:41,080
Speaker 1: it's it's we're watching the morning show right now, the

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00:53:41,120 --> 00:53:44,359
Speaker 1: TV show. I feel like The Bachelor doesn't doesn't let

1130
00:53:44,360 --> 00:53:46,480
Speaker 1: it get that dirty. Like they like to keep it

1131
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:49,120
Speaker 1: on the surface because they know Middle America. They don't

1132
00:53:49,160 --> 00:53:51,040
Speaker 1: want to talk about, you know, doing anal in the

1133
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:53,759
Speaker 1: shower or whatever. Like, yeah, they don't. That's why I'm

1134
00:53:53,880 --> 00:53:56,400
Speaker 1: very excited about a new show that I might be

1135
00:53:56,719 --> 00:54:00,960
Speaker 1: hosting coming out this summer. I can't tell you anything,

1136
00:54:00,960 --> 00:54:04,399
Speaker 1: but hopefully this week it gets announced. Um let's get

1137
00:54:04,400 --> 00:54:07,839
Speaker 1: to Top one Bottom one. It's our Monday morning afternoon

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00:54:08,000 --> 00:54:10,120
Speaker 1: night segment. Whenever you listen to the podcast Top one,

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00:54:10,160 --> 00:54:12,560
Speaker 1: Bottom one, we take a category. We list our top

1140
00:54:13,040 --> 00:54:15,439
Speaker 1: one of this category. In bottom one, it's pretty much

1141
00:54:15,600 --> 00:54:17,480
Speaker 1: most favorite and least favorite, but we say top one,

1142
00:54:17,480 --> 00:54:21,160
Speaker 1: Bottom one. We go around the horn. Noah included producer Noah,

1143
00:54:21,200 --> 00:54:24,920
Speaker 1: who is in Arizona, just got approved to purchase a

1144
00:54:24,960 --> 00:54:30,480
Speaker 1: house down there in uh tucks in uh Arizona and um,

1145
00:54:30,520 --> 00:54:35,640
Speaker 1: but today's uh subject category. That was on purpose. And

1146
00:54:35,640 --> 00:54:38,719
Speaker 1: I say tucks in as a joke. It should be that.

1147
00:54:38,719 --> 00:54:41,040
Speaker 1: That's how my dad says it to. Yeah, your dad's right.

1148
00:54:41,160 --> 00:54:42,880
Speaker 1: I love your dad, and I still use the brush

1149
00:54:42,920 --> 00:54:46,839
Speaker 1: that your dad gave me. I still use that brush.

1150
00:54:47,040 --> 00:54:50,759
Speaker 1: It's like, I don't know how your da yeah hair brush.

1151
00:54:50,800 --> 00:54:53,520
Speaker 1: It was by Moroccan oil. You guys give you gave

1152
00:54:53,560 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 1: me a basket of Moroccan oil stuff, which is great products.

1153
00:54:56,920 --> 00:54:59,680
Speaker 1: Did your dad work for Moroccan oil? Yes? Okay, I

1154
00:54:59,680 --> 00:55:04,640
Speaker 1: bought yesterday. No Way texted me, Dude, I need a

1155
00:55:04,680 --> 00:55:06,840
Speaker 1: new brush. The round brush he gave me was amazing

1156
00:55:06,840 --> 00:55:08,279
Speaker 1: and I use it all the time, but I have

1157
00:55:08,400 --> 00:55:11,000
Speaker 1: to um what I do. Girls, this is a cool

1158
00:55:11,040 --> 00:55:13,319
Speaker 1: hack for your round brushes if you get too much

1159
00:55:13,320 --> 00:55:15,400
Speaker 1: hair in it, which mine gets so much hair in

1160
00:55:15,440 --> 00:55:18,319
Speaker 1: it almost immediately, and the bristles are so hard on

1161
00:55:18,320 --> 00:55:20,680
Speaker 1: the thing that they can sometimes hurt my hangnails that

1162
00:55:20,680 --> 00:55:22,759
Speaker 1: I've been picking at and like puncture them and make

1163
00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:24,520
Speaker 1: them bleed if I'm trying to get the hair out.

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00:55:24,520 --> 00:55:26,200
Speaker 1: Does anyone know what I'm talking about Yes, you do,

1165
00:55:26,360 --> 00:55:28,200
Speaker 1: I do, okay, so it can make my like I

1166
00:55:28,239 --> 00:55:30,880
Speaker 1: just picked my nail yesterday because I was having anxiety

1167
00:55:30,920 --> 00:55:32,719
Speaker 1: and it's like an open wound, and if I were

1168
00:55:32,760 --> 00:55:34,280
Speaker 1: to clean out my brush right now, it would stab

1169
00:55:34,280 --> 00:55:36,040
Speaker 1: it and make it bleed again and give me a

1170
00:55:36,040 --> 00:55:38,719
Speaker 1: whole ring of issues. So what I do now is

1171
00:55:38,719 --> 00:55:40,960
Speaker 1: I use a scissors that I used to cut my brows,

1172
00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:43,400
Speaker 1: like a tiny scissors or any scissors, and I cut

1173
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:47,680
Speaker 1: through one of the tracks of the brush, cutting all

1174
00:55:47,680 --> 00:55:49,759
Speaker 1: the hair, which feels very gratifying because you cut through

1175
00:55:49,800 --> 00:55:51,960
Speaker 1: the hair and then you can peel it off very gently.

1176
00:55:52,080 --> 00:55:54,839
Speaker 1: You cut four times like quadrants, and then it comes

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00:55:54,880 --> 00:55:56,480
Speaker 1: off very easily and you don't have to and then

1178
00:55:56,520 --> 00:55:58,320
Speaker 1: you make a ball. So that's what I do. And

1179
00:55:58,520 --> 00:56:02,440
Speaker 1: I've been using your dad's brush for like three years now. Um,

1180
00:56:02,600 --> 00:56:07,200
Speaker 1: great brush. So top one, bottom one? Speaking of things, Wait, no,

1181
00:56:07,320 --> 00:56:11,560
Speaker 1: what what's the category? The categories things in our bathroom? Okay,

1182
00:56:11,640 --> 00:56:14,440
Speaker 1: so things currently in our bathroom top one, bottom one.

1183
00:56:14,480 --> 00:56:16,359
Speaker 1: We're always going to start with bottom one. No, I'll

1184
00:56:16,400 --> 00:56:19,560
Speaker 1: kick us off. What's the bottom one thing in your bathroom? Okay,

1185
00:56:19,600 --> 00:56:21,640
Speaker 1: the bottom one thing in my bathroom that I hate

1186
00:56:21,640 --> 00:56:25,760
Speaker 1: looking at is this two hundred dollar micro derm abrasion

1187
00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:30,240
Speaker 1: one that I bought that totally doesn't work? Two micro

1188
00:56:30,400 --> 00:56:34,800
Speaker 1: derm abrasion wand yeah, so it sucks your skin? Oh yeah,

1189
00:56:35,440 --> 00:56:36,920
Speaker 1: I don't like. I don't want to see the company

1190
00:56:36,920 --> 00:56:39,000
Speaker 1: because I'm not very happy with it. Right, you don't

1191
00:56:39,920 --> 00:56:41,960
Speaker 1: Maybe you're just doing but I want people to not

1192
00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:44,839
Speaker 1: buy this. It is interesting though, like the more you

1193
00:56:44,920 --> 00:56:48,320
Speaker 1: pay and a thing doesn't work, the anger, Yeah, because

1194
00:56:48,320 --> 00:56:51,719
Speaker 1: you throw it out. It's a whole box with a kid.

1195
00:56:51,920 --> 00:56:55,319
Speaker 1: Here we go. Can I buy it from you? When

1196
00:56:55,320 --> 00:56:57,560
Speaker 1: you send it to my mom? My mom will love

1197
00:56:57,600 --> 00:56:59,200
Speaker 1: it and not use it, but you'll just love having

1198
00:56:59,239 --> 00:57:02,560
Speaker 1: something expensive of it has my skin cells. She don'tcur

1199
00:57:02,800 --> 00:57:05,920
Speaker 1: she like buys everything from good wealth. So uh. I

1200
00:57:05,960 --> 00:57:07,920
Speaker 1: did read though the other night on Reddit. It was

1201
00:57:08,239 --> 00:57:11,040
Speaker 1: a question and ask women. It said what Instagram? What

1202
00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:13,279
Speaker 1: have you bought on Instagram that you deeply regret? And

1203
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:14,399
Speaker 1: then there was one that was what have you bought

1204
00:57:14,440 --> 00:57:16,960
Speaker 1: on Instagram that you are so excited about? I'll do

1205
00:57:17,000 --> 00:57:18,880
Speaker 1: that for Reddit dump tomorrow because I saved it. There's

1206
00:57:18,920 --> 00:57:20,720
Speaker 1: so many good products I want to tell girls about

1207
00:57:20,720 --> 00:57:22,920
Speaker 1: and bad ones to avoid, but one of them was

1208
00:57:23,320 --> 00:57:26,760
Speaker 1: the ones that suck the dirt out of your pores.

1209
00:57:27,080 --> 00:57:31,080
Speaker 1: There was like, it has that functions. If that works, girls,

1210
00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:32,840
Speaker 1: we'd all have one. It doesn't work, And I want

1211
00:57:32,840 --> 00:57:35,840
Speaker 1: to say, and I think I was targeted because I've

1212
00:57:35,840 --> 00:57:39,200
Speaker 1: been looking for micro demigration around Tucson and I just

1213
00:57:39,360 --> 00:57:41,440
Speaker 1: like everything is like med spa, med spot. I just

1214
00:57:41,440 --> 00:57:43,720
Speaker 1: want like a regular facial and I think because I

1215
00:57:43,760 --> 00:57:46,480
Speaker 1: was searching for it, I was targeted, Like, Oh, this

1216
00:57:46,560 --> 00:57:49,040
Speaker 1: is someone knows of a nice facial place that isn't

1217
00:57:49,040 --> 00:57:50,640
Speaker 1: a med spa that no one can go to and

1218
00:57:50,680 --> 00:57:54,400
Speaker 1: get a nice Please let her know. Noah Injection n

1219
00:57:54,440 --> 00:57:57,080
Speaker 1: o a injection is her Instagram and you can d

1220
00:57:57,240 --> 00:57:58,760
Speaker 1: m her that, or you can write into the show

1221
00:57:58,800 --> 00:58:02,160
Speaker 1: at Nikki the Nick Glazer Podcast at gmail dot com,

1222
00:58:02,280 --> 00:58:04,080
Speaker 1: or you can leave us a voice memo at the

1223
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:06,479
Speaker 1: link in our Instagram bio. And by the way, our

1224
00:58:06,520 --> 00:58:09,040
Speaker 1: our instagram is private, so anything we post there is

1225
00:58:09,080 --> 00:58:12,200
Speaker 1: only for fans that have like requested access, So that's

1226
00:58:12,200 --> 00:58:15,120
Speaker 1: just for you guys, busties. Okay, that is a great answer. No, uh,

1227
00:58:15,280 --> 00:58:20,240
Speaker 1: bottom object in your bathroom, Andrew, Oh where you're not ready?

1228
00:58:20,280 --> 00:58:23,919
Speaker 1: I'll go Okay, my bottom one. I have it with

1229
00:58:24,000 --> 00:58:27,680
Speaker 1: me in my uh Fannie pack. I grabbed a couple

1230
00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:30,400
Speaker 1: objects so that I could talk about them. Let me

1231
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:32,560
Speaker 1: see the one that I brought that was bottom because

1232
00:58:32,600 --> 00:58:35,280
Speaker 1: I have a couple of tops. Oh ship okay, Oh no,

1233
00:58:35,360 --> 00:58:38,760
Speaker 1: I brought all tops. Fuck okay, So I'll say the

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00:58:38,800 --> 00:58:43,360
Speaker 1: bottom one is because I brought all tops, and I'm

1235
00:58:43,400 --> 00:58:45,360
Speaker 1: only going to do one, even though the other day

1236
00:58:45,440 --> 00:58:47,240
Speaker 1: I'd said what object from andrew room and I did

1237
00:58:47,240 --> 00:58:49,640
Speaker 1: four corners, but it led to fund So the rule.

1238
00:58:49,960 --> 00:58:51,640
Speaker 1: I make the rules, and I can break the rules.

1239
00:58:52,000 --> 00:58:54,960
Speaker 1: But the number one thing I hate in my bathroom

1240
00:58:55,160 --> 00:58:58,840
Speaker 1: right now is fun. Why didn't I Why did I

1241
00:58:59,040 --> 00:59:01,520
Speaker 1: have all things I like? This doesn't even make god

1242
00:59:01,600 --> 00:59:04,440
Speaker 1: damn sense. I was just so, okay, can I do

1243
00:59:04,520 --> 00:59:06,880
Speaker 1: one that I changed my mind on? Okay, this one's good.

1244
00:59:06,880 --> 00:59:09,760
Speaker 1: Actually I hated this at first. So my nephew and

1245
00:59:09,840 --> 00:59:12,240
Speaker 1: niece came over to my place probably a month ago

1246
00:59:13,040 --> 00:59:16,120
Speaker 1: with my uh sister and brother in law, and they

1247
00:59:16,120 --> 00:59:17,840
Speaker 1: always like to take a bath when they're over to

1248
00:59:17,840 --> 00:59:19,240
Speaker 1: get ready for bed, so they can stay a little

1249
00:59:19,240 --> 00:59:21,440
Speaker 1: bit longer and the kids can just like take a beat.

1250
00:59:21,560 --> 00:59:23,400
Speaker 1: I have no toys in my bathroom. They went in

1251
00:59:23,400 --> 00:59:25,480
Speaker 1: the bathroom, took a bath quicker than the showers I take,

1252
00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:27,800
Speaker 1: which I literally take ninety second showers. It was so fast,

1253
00:59:27,800 --> 00:59:29,680
Speaker 1: and I go what happened? And my brother in law,

1254
00:59:29,720 --> 00:59:31,200
Speaker 1: Matt said, there's no toys in there. They were like

1255
00:59:31,240 --> 00:59:33,320
Speaker 1: picking up your razor and being like toy and they

1256
00:59:33,360 --> 00:59:36,160
Speaker 1: were like there's nothing hammer head shark with sharp teeth

1257
00:59:36,200 --> 00:59:39,919
Speaker 1: and they're like it was dangerous. So they left and

1258
00:59:40,160 --> 00:59:42,960
Speaker 1: in my bathroom are they left all their baby clothes

1259
00:59:43,360 --> 00:59:45,040
Speaker 1: because they changed the new clothes and he forgot to

1260
00:59:45,080 --> 00:59:47,120
Speaker 1: take the old clothes. So I've just had baby clothes

1261
00:59:47,120 --> 00:59:49,200
Speaker 1: in my bathroom that I moved all the clothes. But

1262
00:59:49,240 --> 00:59:51,479
Speaker 1: it just made me feel like, I don't know, maybe

1263
00:59:51,480 --> 00:59:53,440
Speaker 1: I'm a dark person, and made me feel like I

1264
00:59:54,120 --> 00:59:56,240
Speaker 1: because kids don't live here, that they like I had

1265
00:59:56,360 --> 00:59:58,960
Speaker 1: murdered kids, and like they left like there. I don't

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Speaker 1: know what it is, but it made feel like a

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Speaker 1: serial killer that had like these little artifacts of kids

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01:00:03,200 --> 01:00:06,200
Speaker 1: that were once here. I hated it, and I literally

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01:00:06,280 --> 01:00:08,280
Speaker 1: kept having this thought. I couldn't even pick them up

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01:00:08,280 --> 01:00:09,680
Speaker 1: and get him out of the room because I was like,

1271
01:00:09,680 --> 01:00:11,200
Speaker 1: it's just too I don't know what to do with them.

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01:00:11,240 --> 01:00:13,000
Speaker 1: This weekend, I washed the clothes because I was like,

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01:00:13,320 --> 01:00:16,040
Speaker 1: I'll just be a nice and I'll give them back washed, right.

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01:00:16,320 --> 01:00:19,080
Speaker 1: But then there's a barrette that my little um niece had,

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01:00:19,160 --> 01:00:21,920
Speaker 1: a cute little pink barrette that is so cute and

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01:00:21,920 --> 01:00:24,680
Speaker 1: it does nothing. It's like an inch long and it

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01:00:24,720 --> 01:00:27,360
Speaker 1: looks like like it's a little barrette, and it was

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01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:29,560
Speaker 1: sitting in my bathtub and I felt like it was

1279
01:00:30,520 --> 01:00:33,560
Speaker 1: like I felt that lovely bones, like scariness of like

1280
01:00:33,600 --> 01:00:35,280
Speaker 1: I read a lot about kidnappings. I think a lot

1281
01:00:35,320 --> 01:00:37,680
Speaker 1: about kidnappings and terrible things that happened to children. I

1282
01:00:37,720 --> 01:00:39,640
Speaker 1: don't know why, because nothing happened to me, and I

1283
01:00:39,680 --> 01:00:41,960
Speaker 1: don't have any dreams of doing anything to kids other

1284
01:00:42,000 --> 01:00:45,840
Speaker 1: than loving them in a very responsible way. But it

1285
01:00:45,920 --> 01:00:48,000
Speaker 1: made me think that I had murdered a child, a

1286
01:00:48,080 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 1: chiny child, and that this was like my artifact, and

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01:00:51,480 --> 01:00:53,000
Speaker 1: it was in my bathroom for so long and I

1288
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:54,320
Speaker 1: didn't want to touch it. I didn't want to do

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01:00:54,360 --> 01:00:56,080
Speaker 1: anything with it. And then I was like, what are

1290
01:00:56,120 --> 01:00:58,360
Speaker 1: you thinking? Why does this cause you so much consternation

1291
01:00:58,360 --> 01:01:00,400
Speaker 1: every time you see it? Nikki? Why don't you just

1292
01:01:00,440 --> 01:01:02,880
Speaker 1: embrace it and be like and keep it pinned up

1293
01:01:02,960 --> 01:01:05,120
Speaker 1: on the side of a rat like. So now every

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01:01:05,160 --> 01:01:06,560
Speaker 1: time I go in, it's pinned up, and I go

1295
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:09,000
Speaker 1: it reminds me of Poppy and her cute little hair,

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01:01:09,360 --> 01:01:11,040
Speaker 1: and it's not a sad thing and it's not a

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01:01:11,040 --> 01:01:13,040
Speaker 1: creepy thing. And so it went from being the thing

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01:01:13,040 --> 01:01:14,560
Speaker 1: I hate the most because it makes me feel like

1299
01:01:14,560 --> 01:01:17,440
Speaker 1: a serial killer of children, which I don't even understand.

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01:01:17,800 --> 01:01:19,360
Speaker 1: I don't know why I'm admitting this to you all,

1301
01:01:19,640 --> 01:01:21,760
Speaker 1: but now it's my favorite thing because it's just a

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01:01:21,800 --> 01:01:24,720
Speaker 1: cute little barrette that like makes me think of Poppy,

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01:01:24,800 --> 01:01:27,919
Speaker 1: who is just the light of my life. Okay, that's

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01:01:27,960 --> 01:01:29,800
Speaker 1: my bottom thing. Andrew, what's your bottom thing? But is

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01:01:29,840 --> 01:01:31,320
Speaker 1: that your top thing? What was the bottom thing that

1306
01:01:31,360 --> 01:01:36,360
Speaker 1: became a top? I make the rules all day? Uh so, um,

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01:01:37,440 --> 01:01:40,680
Speaker 1: you know it's so hard because no, I'm just as guys.

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01:01:40,720 --> 01:01:42,640
Speaker 1: We don't have as many different things. He probably had

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01:01:42,680 --> 01:01:44,800
Speaker 1: nothing in his bathroom, you know. That's the thing. He

1310
01:01:44,840 --> 01:01:47,160
Speaker 1: has so much stuff. No, there's so much time. You

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01:01:47,160 --> 01:01:49,760
Speaker 1: know what I hate, But I love what. I love

1312
01:01:49,840 --> 01:01:52,200
Speaker 1: fucking wet wipes. But I did not know that you

1313
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:55,240
Speaker 1: can't flush them down the toilet, and I fucking hate

1314
01:01:55,480 --> 01:01:57,960
Speaker 1: that you can't flush them down. But you don't have

1315
01:01:58,000 --> 01:02:00,880
Speaker 1: a trash spin in your room or your bathroom, so

1316
01:02:00,960 --> 01:02:02,800
Speaker 1: I know they get flushed. I know they get flushed.

1317
01:02:02,840 --> 01:02:06,240
Speaker 1: Can I finish? But why are some things flushable like

1318
01:02:06,480 --> 01:02:09,760
Speaker 1: toilet paper? And then a wet wipe is the same there,

1319
01:02:10,160 --> 01:02:12,120
Speaker 1: it's not at the side. That's about what it's made

1320
01:02:12,160 --> 01:02:15,560
Speaker 1: out of. So you got it, I got I just bought.

1321
01:02:15,800 --> 01:02:17,400
Speaker 1: I just bought a trash bin for you because I

1322
01:02:17,440 --> 01:02:21,120
Speaker 1: don't want you flushing those anymore anymore. Okay, So that's

1323
01:02:21,160 --> 01:02:23,080
Speaker 1: a great thing. If you flush wet wipes, just know

1324
01:02:23,200 --> 01:02:25,280
Speaker 1: you're a bad person that's doing something bad for the

1325
01:02:25,320 --> 01:02:27,200
Speaker 1: world when you really could just hold onto it. I

1326
01:02:27,200 --> 01:02:29,000
Speaker 1: know it's gross as poop on it, hold onto it,

1327
01:02:29,040 --> 01:02:31,120
Speaker 1: walk out of the bathroom and find a trash bin

1328
01:02:31,440 --> 01:02:33,800
Speaker 1: and wrap something around it so that it's just goes

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01:02:33,840 --> 01:02:36,520
Speaker 1: in the trash. It's the least you can do for

1330
01:02:36,680 --> 01:02:39,600
Speaker 1: the environment. But we wipe set. Why don't they make

1331
01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:42,320
Speaker 1: a toilet paper wet white? And I know if anyone

1332
01:02:42,360 --> 01:02:44,840
Speaker 1: knows of it, please write to Andrew. Andrew, I think

1333
01:02:44,840 --> 01:02:49,960
Speaker 1: they have a biodegradable one there as thick, thick, regular baby,

1334
01:02:50,280 --> 01:02:52,560
Speaker 1: or we can get a bidet for you. Well, if

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01:02:52,600 --> 01:02:56,160
Speaker 1: you have a biodegradable wet wipes, that's great one. I

1336
01:02:56,160 --> 01:02:57,800
Speaker 1: do hate that as well. I don't I want to

1337
01:02:57,800 --> 01:02:59,680
Speaker 1: see wet wipes. And then there's no trash bin and

1338
01:02:59,680 --> 01:03:02,040
Speaker 1: a boy bathroom, I go, what the or a girl's

1339
01:03:02,120 --> 01:03:04,160
Speaker 1: I get really mad because I just know that's not

1340
01:03:04,560 --> 01:03:09,040
Speaker 1: the same with a tampon. Uh, cartridges, girls or pads

1341
01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:12,000
Speaker 1: don't flush stuff. It's really is like this. I know

1342
01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:14,640
Speaker 1: that it's so easy to just do it. Or it's

1343
01:03:14,640 --> 01:03:17,440
Speaker 1: the example that I said an example for myself. This

1344
01:03:17,480 --> 01:03:19,600
Speaker 1: is years ago before I would like I wanted to

1345
01:03:19,600 --> 01:03:22,439
Speaker 1: be a better person. I started feeling really bad about

1346
01:03:22,480 --> 01:03:24,280
Speaker 1: every time I went to a public restroom and you

1347
01:03:24,520 --> 01:03:26,560
Speaker 1: do the paper towels or whatever, and you throw it

1348
01:03:26,560 --> 01:03:28,440
Speaker 1: and there's let's say, there's it's a it's a trashy

1349
01:03:28,560 --> 01:03:31,480
Speaker 1: night out at a bar, and there's paper towels everywhere

1350
01:03:31,480 --> 01:03:33,680
Speaker 1: on the floor, right, and like toilet paper, and like

1351
01:03:33,880 --> 01:03:35,920
Speaker 1: you drop a piece of toilet paper or you know,

1352
01:03:35,920 --> 01:03:38,480
Speaker 1: you're pulling it off in apart falls on the ground

1353
01:03:38,520 --> 01:03:40,840
Speaker 1: that hasn't used. You know, a little piece or you're

1354
01:03:41,480 --> 01:03:43,240
Speaker 1: the tresh bands overflowed and you kind of throw it

1355
01:03:43,280 --> 01:03:45,240
Speaker 1: and it falls out and falls on the floor, and

1356
01:03:45,280 --> 01:03:47,280
Speaker 1: you go, who cares, I'm gonna leave it because there's

1357
01:03:47,280 --> 01:03:49,960
Speaker 1: already shipped on the floor. Just pick it up. I

1358
01:03:50,080 --> 01:03:52,000
Speaker 1: made a rule for myself, almost like break your mother's

1359
01:03:52,040 --> 01:03:54,680
Speaker 1: backstep on a crack, that if I ever leave a

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01:03:54,680 --> 01:03:57,720
Speaker 1: piece of paper on a public restroom, toilet floor or

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01:03:57,760 --> 01:04:00,680
Speaker 1: any toilet floor where I'm not cleaning it myself, that

1362
01:04:00,800 --> 01:04:03,120
Speaker 1: I that that will be bad karma for me. It

1363
01:04:03,160 --> 01:04:05,400
Speaker 1: will come back in some way because it's the least

1364
01:04:05,440 --> 01:04:07,560
Speaker 1: you can do, And it just makes you feel good

1365
01:04:07,560 --> 01:04:10,280
Speaker 1: that you don't contribute and you're not careless. And think

1366
01:04:10,320 --> 01:04:13,760
Speaker 1: that some woman who probably doesn't have the greatest life

1367
01:04:13,800 --> 01:04:15,680
Speaker 1: has to bend over, is going to have to bend

1368
01:04:15,720 --> 01:04:18,439
Speaker 1: over or reach in a direction. Maybe she's already picking

1369
01:04:18,520 --> 01:04:20,040
Speaker 1: up trash, but she's gonna have to reach a little

1370
01:04:20,080 --> 01:04:22,280
Speaker 1: bit further to pick up your little trash. So save

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01:04:22,360 --> 01:04:24,560
Speaker 1: her that time and just create a rule for yourself

1372
01:04:24,560 --> 01:04:26,800
Speaker 1: that it's the smallest rule, and maybe you can teach

1373
01:04:26,840 --> 01:04:28,840
Speaker 1: me other rules you have like this that makes you

1374
01:04:28,880 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 1: like superstitious. But I've created a superstitious rule around never

1375
01:04:32,400 --> 01:04:35,160
Speaker 1: ever letting a piece of toilet paper or paper touch

1376
01:04:35,200 --> 01:04:37,280
Speaker 1: the ground in a public qustroom. And I've probably kept

1377
01:04:37,280 --> 01:04:39,520
Speaker 1: this for about eight years now, where I do not

1378
01:04:39,760 --> 01:04:42,680
Speaker 1: litter in bathrooms anymore. And sometimes it's gross and you

1379
01:04:42,720 --> 01:04:44,160
Speaker 1: have to touch the bathroom floor to pick it up,

1380
01:04:44,200 --> 01:04:47,560
Speaker 1: But better me than a woman who didn't do it

1381
01:04:47,600 --> 01:04:50,640
Speaker 1: in the first place, who's getting paid minimum wage. It

1382
01:04:50,800 --> 01:04:52,440
Speaker 1: is wild to me that so man, these people they

1383
01:04:52,440 --> 01:04:54,760
Speaker 1: go into a public bathroom and they treat it like

1384
01:04:55,160 --> 01:04:59,720
Speaker 1: they're mad at like everyone in their life. And it's

1385
01:04:59,720 --> 01:05:02,400
Speaker 1: funny together because they are. That's where it's coming out

1386
01:05:02,440 --> 01:05:06,480
Speaker 1: of it. If they get away their life, they wouldn't

1387
01:05:06,520 --> 01:05:08,520
Speaker 1: do that, and they if they had respect for themselves,

1388
01:05:08,680 --> 01:05:10,400
Speaker 1: they would have respect for the person who has to

1389
01:05:10,400 --> 01:05:12,640
Speaker 1: pick that up. And it's very hard to do one

1390
01:05:12,680 --> 01:05:16,520
Speaker 1: pace where they don't. They know they'll get no no cameras,

1391
01:05:16,560 --> 01:05:20,000
Speaker 1: there's no no accountability. So it really is a good

1392
01:05:20,000 --> 01:05:22,240
Speaker 1: thing to do because it's making you accountable to yourself

1393
01:05:22,360 --> 01:05:24,840
Speaker 1: or to God or whatever might be watching you in

1394
01:05:24,880 --> 01:05:27,360
Speaker 1: that bathroom. And it's in the top thing. No, what's

1395
01:05:27,360 --> 01:05:31,320
Speaker 1: your top thing in the bathroom? Tumbleweeds? Yeah, I don't

1396
01:05:31,320 --> 01:05:34,600
Speaker 1: know what that means, but meaning like one person and

1397
01:05:34,640 --> 01:05:37,439
Speaker 1: then it creates an environment where oh I can throw

1398
01:05:37,440 --> 01:05:41,240
Speaker 1: it out to If you do if this, if you

1399
01:05:41,360 --> 01:05:43,240
Speaker 1: are someone who has done this before, because I was

1400
01:05:43,280 --> 01:05:45,120
Speaker 1: someone as an adult who was throwing paper on the

1401
01:05:45,120 --> 01:05:47,280
Speaker 1: ground for a while and then because it just seemed

1402
01:05:47,320 --> 01:05:50,560
Speaker 1: like everyone else does, why not if you adopt this,

1403
01:05:50,680 --> 01:05:52,480
Speaker 1: let me know and see if if it changes the

1404
01:05:52,520 --> 01:05:54,360
Speaker 1: way you think about the world a little bit, because

1405
01:05:54,360 --> 01:05:56,160
Speaker 1: I think it might help. No, I'm not perfect, by

1406
01:05:56,160 --> 01:05:58,600
Speaker 1: the way, so don't ever think that I'm prostlytizing. I

1407
01:05:58,600 --> 01:06:00,680
Speaker 1: don't know what I'm doing. Noah, your top I want

1408
01:06:00,680 --> 01:06:02,720
Speaker 1: to say, wait before I go to my top one,

1409
01:06:02,760 --> 01:06:04,760
Speaker 1: I want to say I am a person who does that.

1410
01:06:04,880 --> 01:06:07,440
Speaker 1: Like I'll just pick up garbage in the street, and

1411
01:06:07,440 --> 01:06:09,480
Speaker 1: there's something that I really like about, Like if someone

1412
01:06:09,520 --> 01:06:13,439
Speaker 1: sees me, they probably think, oh, this ordinary woman is crazy,

1413
01:06:13,600 --> 01:06:15,760
Speaker 1: and then I just like, I just like picking up

1414
01:06:15,800 --> 01:06:17,760
Speaker 1: Like if I see every seat floating around or something

1415
01:06:17,760 --> 01:06:19,440
Speaker 1: at the top, like near the taco truck, I just

1416
01:06:19,480 --> 01:06:23,600
Speaker 1: pick it up that if it's a clean piece of trash,

1417
01:06:23,680 --> 01:06:25,680
Speaker 1: Because the thing is I think of how many pieces

1418
01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:27,320
Speaker 1: of trash you haven't picked up in your life, even

1419
01:06:27,320 --> 01:06:29,280
Speaker 1: as a kid when you were less aware of the world,

1420
01:06:29,320 --> 01:06:32,960
Speaker 1: even if you're fucking Greta. Greta her last name is

1421
01:06:32,960 --> 01:06:37,920
Speaker 1: hard from Thornburgh. She probably has contributed to trash as

1422
01:06:37,960 --> 01:06:40,600
Speaker 1: a baby that she didn't know. I would still remember

1423
01:06:40,640 --> 01:06:42,760
Speaker 1: a piece of gum wrapper that flew out the window

1424
01:06:42,760 --> 01:06:44,640
Speaker 1: when I was four years old, out of our van,

1425
01:06:44,720 --> 01:06:46,800
Speaker 1: and I remember being like, where is that going to go?

1426
01:06:47,280 --> 01:06:48,919
Speaker 1: What bird is going to choke on it? And having

1427
01:06:48,920 --> 01:06:52,720
Speaker 1: that awareness and I still to this day. I picked

1428
01:06:52,760 --> 01:06:54,920
Speaker 1: up trash when I was in Cayman Islands on the beach,

1429
01:06:55,080 --> 01:06:58,120
Speaker 1: which I really recommend because although it seems like you

1430
01:06:58,200 --> 01:07:00,440
Speaker 1: aren't even making a dent in the world terms of

1431
01:07:00,520 --> 01:07:02,440
Speaker 1: how much trash is an ocean and truly you're not

1432
01:07:02,960 --> 01:07:05,480
Speaker 1: what it does do. The best thing about trash on

1433
01:07:05,520 --> 01:07:07,760
Speaker 1: the beach is that it's all clean from the ocean,

1434
01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:09,680
Speaker 1: so you're never I picked up trash for an hour,

1435
01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:13,200
Speaker 1: the grossest stuff went after everything. Not once did I

1436
01:07:13,240 --> 01:07:15,479
Speaker 1: pick up the thing and go you because it's all

1437
01:07:15,520 --> 01:07:18,240
Speaker 1: clean from the salt water. So it's actually the best

1438
01:07:18,280 --> 01:07:20,120
Speaker 1: place to pick up trash is that you'll never get

1439
01:07:20,160 --> 01:07:23,280
Speaker 1: something that's rotted or soggy or making like smells because

1440
01:07:23,320 --> 01:07:27,200
Speaker 1: it's all washed. So I recommend trash clean up anytime

1441
01:07:27,280 --> 01:07:29,959
Speaker 1: and just and if someone thinks you're like a weird

1442
01:07:30,000 --> 01:07:33,920
Speaker 1: homeless person because you're picking up trash, could could them

1443
01:07:34,040 --> 01:07:36,640
Speaker 1: because you're coulder than them because you have UM you

1444
01:07:36,640 --> 01:07:39,000
Speaker 1: don't care. So no, what's your top thing? You're aout? Okay,

1445
01:07:39,080 --> 01:07:41,480
Speaker 1: So the top thing in my bathroom is I had

1446
01:07:41,520 --> 01:07:44,160
Speaker 1: to bring a hair brush and it's filled with my hair. Yes,

1447
01:07:44,440 --> 01:07:47,360
Speaker 1: it's called um, I just bought it a month ago.

1448
01:07:47,440 --> 01:07:50,400
Speaker 1: It's called a wet brush, yes, and I like it

1449
01:07:50,440 --> 01:07:52,560
Speaker 1: better than the bristles because the bristles make my hair

1450
01:07:52,600 --> 01:07:56,040
Speaker 1: look like poof like bristles like on the one you're

1451
01:07:56,080 --> 01:07:59,080
Speaker 1: dad like the round brush like that the water go

1452
01:07:59,160 --> 01:08:01,360
Speaker 1: through the brush. Um, I had no idea. It's called

1453
01:08:01,360 --> 01:08:03,360
Speaker 1: a wet brush because it's a really great brush to

1454
01:08:03,920 --> 01:08:07,520
Speaker 1: use through your hair when you're detangling. There's many wet brushes.

1455
01:08:07,520 --> 01:08:10,080
Speaker 1: I've been using wet brush for a while. It is

1456
01:08:10,200 --> 01:08:14,800
Speaker 1: a brush that is very soft and well not tangle

1457
01:08:14,840 --> 01:08:16,559
Speaker 1: your hair as much. And it's called the wet brush.

1458
01:08:16,600 --> 01:08:19,639
Speaker 1: And I think pretty much every woman has probably seen

1459
01:08:19,680 --> 01:08:21,000
Speaker 1: these or heard about these. I don't want to say

1460
01:08:21,000 --> 01:08:23,400
Speaker 1: every woman. And if you haven't and you have tangly hair,

1461
01:08:23,760 --> 01:08:25,519
Speaker 1: it's a really gentle brush on your hair. And what

1462
01:08:25,560 --> 01:08:28,320
Speaker 1: a great product to showcase. I love that you got one.

1463
01:08:28,400 --> 01:08:31,519
Speaker 1: And it's a pretty pink color. It's glitterally so cute.

1464
01:08:32,160 --> 01:08:34,599
Speaker 1: Um okay my number one thing. And I have three

1465
01:08:34,600 --> 01:08:37,040
Speaker 1: things in here and it's I'm reluctant to show you

1466
01:08:37,080 --> 01:08:40,559
Speaker 1: which ones um is? Wait? I had this, this, and

1467
01:08:40,600 --> 01:08:45,080
Speaker 1: then the clip, but I thought, I, oh, I have okay,

1468
01:08:45,160 --> 01:08:48,519
Speaker 1: let me see which one. Okay. So from one of

1469
01:08:48,520 --> 01:08:52,439
Speaker 1: our sponsors, Unique Vintage, I would I got to pick

1470
01:08:52,479 --> 01:08:55,120
Speaker 1: out a couple of things from there, which, by the way,

1471
01:08:55,160 --> 01:08:58,720
Speaker 1: everything I picked out fits perfectly, get so much compliments on.

1472
01:08:59,160 --> 01:09:01,559
Speaker 1: I didn't really want new clothes because I'm on this

1473
01:09:01,640 --> 01:09:03,840
Speaker 1: thing of like I don't. I only want secondhand. But

1474
01:09:03,840 --> 01:09:06,160
Speaker 1: I picked out Unique Vintage because they make vintage styles

1475
01:09:06,160 --> 01:09:08,920
Speaker 1: and new stuff and they were a sponsor and they um,

1476
01:09:08,960 --> 01:09:10,760
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'll pick out some stuff. I

1477
01:09:10,800 --> 01:09:15,040
Speaker 1: picked up this choker that is a heart on it, okay,

1478
01:09:15,320 --> 01:09:18,600
Speaker 1: and it is not something i'd wear out because it

1479
01:09:18,600 --> 01:09:21,200
Speaker 1: doesn't match many things I have. Maybe I would put

1480
01:09:21,240 --> 01:09:22,720
Speaker 1: it with I almost work for my birthday with my

1481
01:09:22,760 --> 01:09:25,040
Speaker 1: tailor swift shirt in my like badass outfit I put together.

1482
01:09:25,560 --> 01:09:29,960
Speaker 1: But I sometimes I this is in my bathroom. I

1483
01:09:29,960 --> 01:09:31,240
Speaker 1: don't know why I was in my bathroom, but it

1484
01:09:31,320 --> 01:09:34,439
Speaker 1: was so it counted. I sometimes wear this when I

1485
01:09:34,560 --> 01:09:38,240
Speaker 1: masturbate because it's like bondage. It's hot. It like it

1486
01:09:38,439 --> 01:09:41,360
Speaker 1: chokes me a little bit, so it looks like almost

1487
01:09:41,439 --> 01:09:43,679
Speaker 1: like it has a heart on it, so it's like love.

1488
01:09:44,280 --> 01:09:49,439
Speaker 1: And I am now starting to dress up for myself, uh, sexually,

1489
01:09:49,560 --> 01:09:52,120
Speaker 1: so that I can make myself like sometimes I'm wearing

1490
01:09:52,200 --> 01:09:54,240
Speaker 1: underwearth I'm like, this isn't that hot. I try to

1491
01:09:54,320 --> 01:09:55,760
Speaker 1: dress up the way I would if I was hooking

1492
01:09:55,800 --> 01:09:58,400
Speaker 1: up with the guy. Sometimes when I really get into myself.

1493
01:09:58,640 --> 01:10:00,360
Speaker 1: And the other night, I felt ridiculous, And I feel

1494
01:10:00,439 --> 01:10:02,960
Speaker 1: ridiculous admitting this in front of Andrew and you know, uh,

1495
01:10:03,040 --> 01:10:06,519
Speaker 1: and my room and my listeners. Not as much the listeners,

1496
01:10:06,560 --> 01:10:09,000
Speaker 1: because you guys are just like not here. And if

1497
01:10:09,080 --> 01:10:10,760
Speaker 1: I run into on the street in the central west

1498
01:10:10,880 --> 01:10:12,640
Speaker 1: end of St. Louis, I will be embarrassed that you

1499
01:10:12,640 --> 01:10:15,600
Speaker 1: know this about me. But I like kinky stuff. I

1500
01:10:15,640 --> 01:10:18,479
Speaker 1: like bondage not for every sexual encounter I have, but

1501
01:10:18,680 --> 01:10:21,719
Speaker 1: I'm entering into it by wearing Uh. What I would

1502
01:10:21,720 --> 01:10:24,160
Speaker 1: say is like a caller, like I realized, like I

1503
01:10:24,200 --> 01:10:27,160
Speaker 1: want to be kind of like a slave sometimes, like

1504
01:10:27,240 --> 01:10:30,200
Speaker 1: a like a doggie, like like good girl. You know,

1505
01:10:30,240 --> 01:10:33,080
Speaker 1: there's no that's not a coincidence that when Carla Forster

1506
01:10:33,520 --> 01:10:36,400
Speaker 1: had a joke that I like, I haven't bought from her,

1507
01:10:36,400 --> 01:10:38,120
Speaker 1: but she gave it to me where I I like

1508
01:10:38,240 --> 01:10:40,080
Speaker 1: when guys say a good girl so much that when

1509
01:10:40,120 --> 01:10:41,840
Speaker 1: I heard a guy say it to his dog after

1510
01:10:41,920 --> 01:10:45,120
Speaker 1: she's ship, I like got wet and um and I realized,

1511
01:10:45,160 --> 01:10:47,000
Speaker 1: like the way that dogs get talked to sometimes, and

1512
01:10:47,000 --> 01:10:48,800
Speaker 1: there is porn where girls act like dogs. I do

1513
01:10:48,880 --> 01:10:51,080
Speaker 1: not like that porn. Don't recommend it to me, but

1514
01:10:51,160 --> 01:10:53,640
Speaker 1: I like being an ant like uh, like I have

1515
01:10:53,720 --> 01:10:55,559
Speaker 1: to do what you say, but you're nice to me.

1516
01:10:56,040 --> 01:10:58,839
Speaker 1: And this collar with a heart on it from Unique Vintage.

1517
01:10:58,880 --> 01:11:01,320
Speaker 1: Thank you as you didn't know you were a sex

1518
01:11:01,439 --> 01:11:04,400
Speaker 1: supply store, but you are. And thank you also for

1519
01:11:04,439 --> 01:11:08,920
Speaker 1: the jumper. Do you do you? I've only worn it once,

1520
01:11:08,920 --> 01:11:10,479
Speaker 1: by the way, and I'm mast rated probably like ten

1521
01:11:10,479 --> 01:11:13,040
Speaker 1: times since then since the one time I worried. I'm

1522
01:11:13,080 --> 01:11:15,960
Speaker 1: just wonder are you in the moment, like, are you

1523
01:11:16,200 --> 01:11:18,400
Speaker 1: horned up and then you throw it on or is

1524
01:11:18,439 --> 01:11:20,800
Speaker 1: it a whole set up that you know that Like

1525
01:11:20,920 --> 01:11:23,240
Speaker 1: For instance, the other night, I was trying to write

1526
01:11:23,240 --> 01:11:27,360
Speaker 1: that song and I decided to clean my room, and um,

1527
01:11:27,439 --> 01:11:30,839
Speaker 1: by the way, I to get me to do anything

1528
01:11:30,840 --> 01:11:33,240
Speaker 1: that I'm scared of, I I can do it if

1529
01:11:33,280 --> 01:11:35,120
Speaker 1: I film it better. And this is not about the

1530
01:11:35,120 --> 01:11:37,439
Speaker 1: porn thing. This is not but the songwriting thing. I

1531
01:11:37,479 --> 01:11:40,640
Speaker 1: decided to just like record myself trying to write a

1532
01:11:40,640 --> 01:11:42,479
Speaker 1: song and talk about it, talk my way through it,

1533
01:11:42,520 --> 01:11:44,800
Speaker 1: and so I might turn it into like a YouTube

1534
01:11:44,920 --> 01:11:47,080
Speaker 1: video someday of just like this is my first attempt

1535
01:11:47,080 --> 01:11:49,599
Speaker 1: at writing a vulnerable song, it's still embarrassing. So I

1536
01:11:49,600 --> 01:11:52,760
Speaker 1: filmed myself cleaning my room as I was working out

1537
01:11:52,800 --> 01:11:55,120
Speaker 1: the beats of the song. And while I was cleaning

1538
01:11:55,120 --> 01:11:57,880
Speaker 1: my room, I a song came on. I was listening

1539
01:11:57,880 --> 01:11:59,719
Speaker 1: to songs that reminded me of the song I was writing,

1540
01:12:00,640 --> 01:12:02,519
Speaker 1: and that's what I said in the video. But then

1541
01:12:03,000 --> 01:12:06,200
Speaker 1: another song came on after that kind of got me

1542
01:12:06,280 --> 01:12:08,040
Speaker 1: horned up because it was a song that someone had

1543
01:12:08,040 --> 01:12:09,599
Speaker 1: put on a playlist for me that made me think

1544
01:12:09,640 --> 01:12:11,559
Speaker 1: about having sex with that person, and I just started

1545
01:12:11,560 --> 01:12:13,960
Speaker 1: getting horny. I would hung up a poster of Taylor

1546
01:12:14,000 --> 01:12:17,880
Speaker 1: Swift on my wall with tape like a teenager, and

1547
01:12:17,920 --> 01:12:19,640
Speaker 1: I was kind of horn And then I did a

1548
01:12:19,720 --> 01:12:22,360
Speaker 1: thing where I like kissed the poster. But I knew

1549
01:12:22,400 --> 01:12:24,400
Speaker 1: I was being filmed by myself, But I like kissed

1550
01:12:24,400 --> 01:12:26,040
Speaker 1: the poster. That wasn't why I got horny. But I

1551
01:12:26,080 --> 01:12:28,360
Speaker 1: was just like my room was like litting away. I

1552
01:12:28,400 --> 01:12:30,920
Speaker 1: was like alone for the night. I knew that like

1553
01:12:31,120 --> 01:12:33,200
Speaker 1: maybe I was, oh, And I was trying to fit

1554
01:12:33,280 --> 01:12:35,320
Speaker 1: the rug underneath. I put the rug that was in

1555
01:12:35,400 --> 01:12:38,320
Speaker 1: here underneath my bed. No, I was doing it as

1556
01:12:38,320 --> 01:12:40,400
Speaker 1: a joke for the camera because I knew that it

1557
01:12:40,400 --> 01:12:42,120
Speaker 1: looked like a moment I forgot the camera was on me.

1558
01:12:42,120 --> 01:12:44,200
Speaker 1: But I wanted to make if I ever do anything

1559
01:12:44,240 --> 01:12:46,800
Speaker 1: with it, I want people watching it today. Yeah, it

1560
01:12:46,880 --> 01:12:49,120
Speaker 1: was honestly, I was inspired by bogern Um. I realized

1561
01:12:49,160 --> 01:12:52,280
Speaker 1: that later on. So I was in there. The reason

1562
01:12:52,360 --> 01:12:55,000
Speaker 1: that I got horny is that I was putting the

1563
01:12:55,080 --> 01:12:59,760
Speaker 1: rug underneath my bed and I got so My bed

1564
01:12:59,840 --> 01:13:03,320
Speaker 1: is very heavy because it's a really sturdy frame made

1565
01:13:03,400 --> 01:13:06,800
Speaker 1: during the Declaration of Independence, and I was lifting one

1566
01:13:06,920 --> 01:13:08,320
Speaker 1: end to put the rug under and then I go

1567
01:13:08,360 --> 01:13:09,880
Speaker 1: to the other end and pull it up, and I

1568
01:13:09,880 --> 01:13:11,320
Speaker 1: was doing it all by myself, and I was saying,

1569
01:13:11,360 --> 01:13:13,160
Speaker 1: I don't need a fucking man. I was saying it

1570
01:13:13,160 --> 01:13:14,680
Speaker 1: to myself. I was like joking, but I was like,

1571
01:13:15,120 --> 01:13:18,000
Speaker 1: I am doing something that is so laborious for a

1572
01:13:18,640 --> 01:13:20,640
Speaker 1: gentlewoman to do. And I was like, if I had

1573
01:13:20,640 --> 01:13:22,120
Speaker 1: a boyfriend, this would be so much easier, or if

1574
01:13:22,120 --> 01:13:25,000
Speaker 1: I Andrew were here to be easier, but I didn't.

1575
01:13:25,200 --> 01:13:27,640
Speaker 1: And then I was like thinking about, like what if

1576
01:13:27,680 --> 01:13:30,880
Speaker 1: I just like called up a guy to like come

1577
01:13:30,920 --> 01:13:32,760
Speaker 1: over and be like, can you help me with this broke?

1578
01:13:32,800 --> 01:13:34,360
Speaker 1: And then like we ended up. It's kind of like

1579
01:13:34,960 --> 01:13:37,800
Speaker 1: an idea, idea of like that's a way to get

1580
01:13:37,840 --> 01:13:39,960
Speaker 1: a guy in your room. And then it just then

1581
01:13:40,000 --> 01:13:41,640
Speaker 1: I got it horny. And I didn't put on the

1582
01:13:41,720 --> 01:13:44,280
Speaker 1: necklace at night, but that what I did, put on

1583
01:13:44,280 --> 01:13:47,960
Speaker 1: a nice pair of underwear and bra and almost I

1584
01:13:48,000 --> 01:13:50,200
Speaker 1: can't even get it. I'll get into what I almost

1585
01:13:50,200 --> 01:13:55,120
Speaker 1: did later because it was wild. No, it was wild,

1586
01:13:55,200 --> 01:13:57,400
Speaker 1: but I can't say it, yeah, because I haven't done

1587
01:13:57,400 --> 01:13:59,920
Speaker 1: it once, I do it because I almost did it,

1588
01:14:00,000 --> 01:14:01,519
Speaker 1: but I just couldn't do it. But I don't have

1589
01:14:01,880 --> 01:14:04,400
Speaker 1: sexual deviant. I just want to say that is if

1590
01:14:04,439 --> 01:14:06,800
Speaker 1: no one knew that. But I like, as long as

1591
01:14:06,800 --> 01:14:10,760
Speaker 1: I'm not hurting myself for other people, I'm gonna let myself, uh,

1592
01:14:11,160 --> 01:14:13,880
Speaker 1: you know, nurture the things that I am drawn to,

1593
01:14:13,960 --> 01:14:16,320
Speaker 1: which is this necklace? Andrew, what's the top thing in

1594
01:14:16,320 --> 01:14:18,559
Speaker 1: your bed? You're gonna get some hackers out there trying

1595
01:14:18,560 --> 01:14:21,240
Speaker 1: to get into your ship? What do you mean, like

1596
01:14:21,360 --> 01:14:23,639
Speaker 1: because you're like video, Oh, I didn't video. I would

1597
01:14:23,640 --> 01:14:26,599
Speaker 1: never video myself doing anything sexual at this point unless

1598
01:14:26,600 --> 01:14:28,880
Speaker 1: it was with like a partner, or I was being

1599
01:14:28,920 --> 01:14:31,040
Speaker 1: paid a lot, or I had a It worked out,

1600
01:14:31,040 --> 01:14:33,200
Speaker 1: so it leaked accidentally because I wanted to say my

1601
01:14:33,200 --> 01:14:37,160
Speaker 1: career my my favorite thing. I mean, I've talked about

1602
01:14:37,160 --> 01:14:41,040
Speaker 1: it recticare, which is which I always put on before

1603
01:14:41,080 --> 01:14:44,040
Speaker 1: I jerk off. You know that because it really puts

1604
01:14:44,040 --> 01:14:50,120
Speaker 1: me in the mood. I am a man that has

1605
01:14:50,160 --> 01:14:53,200
Speaker 1: a horrible asshole. As many people know. I've had anal

1606
01:14:53,280 --> 01:14:57,400
Speaker 1: fisher and I've had hemorrhoids, but the fisher, especially crying

1607
01:14:57,439 --> 01:15:01,519
Speaker 1: every night taking a ship thinking preparation age didn't work.

1608
01:15:02,040 --> 01:15:05,160
Speaker 1: Nothing worked. I was literally crying every night. It's the

1609
01:15:05,200 --> 01:15:09,360
Speaker 1: worst pain on earth. And wreck the care literally saved

1610
01:15:09,400 --> 01:15:13,280
Speaker 1: my life, like literally like saved me from depression because

1611
01:15:13,479 --> 01:15:17,040
Speaker 1: it numbs your butt and it allows you to live

1612
01:15:17,200 --> 01:15:21,560
Speaker 1: another day. And now, anytime my butt hurts after I

1613
01:15:21,600 --> 01:15:25,160
Speaker 1: eat spicy food and you know hard chips, I take

1614
01:15:25,200 --> 01:15:27,200
Speaker 1: down some rectic Care. I don't take it down. I

1615
01:15:27,240 --> 01:15:30,639
Speaker 1: put it on, and uh, it really does. It changed

1616
01:15:30,680 --> 01:15:33,880
Speaker 1: my life. And uh, and thank you rectic Care for

1617
01:15:33,960 --> 01:15:35,720
Speaker 1: being over the counter too, because if I had to

1618
01:15:35,720 --> 01:15:38,200
Speaker 1: get a prescription, I'm too lazy and I probably would

1619
01:15:38,240 --> 01:15:40,680
Speaker 1: never get it and I would just live with the pain. Um.

1620
01:15:41,840 --> 01:15:44,599
Speaker 1: I love that you discovered this thing that has brought

1621
01:15:44,640 --> 01:15:47,519
Speaker 1: you so much relief for this chronic issue. And I

1622
01:15:47,560 --> 01:15:50,559
Speaker 1: love how I bet so many people have gotten turned

1623
01:15:50,600 --> 01:15:53,559
Speaker 1: onto to this and have no idea that there's just

1624
01:15:54,160 --> 01:15:56,599
Speaker 1: a simple solution to you. I had no idea that

1625
01:15:56,640 --> 01:15:59,120
Speaker 1: this was like I just saw it in CVS. I

1626
01:15:59,160 --> 01:16:02,400
Speaker 1: like stumbled on it, like literally, I but yeah, because

1627
01:16:02,400 --> 01:16:04,000
Speaker 1: I was hurting so bad, I was walking on all

1628
01:16:04,040 --> 01:16:07,000
Speaker 1: four Well, it's a similar thing too, when you had

1629
01:16:07,280 --> 01:16:11,360
Speaker 1: um scabies and you just were like dealing with this

1630
01:16:11,560 --> 01:16:14,599
Speaker 1: immense firing pain, like this is like twenty years ago,

1631
01:16:14,960 --> 01:16:17,920
Speaker 1: but you went to the doctor. You finally cracked and

1632
01:16:17,960 --> 01:16:20,640
Speaker 1: went to the doctor after a hilarious story when you

1633
01:16:20,680 --> 01:16:22,160
Speaker 1: had to pretend like you had a rash on your

1634
01:16:22,160 --> 01:16:23,639
Speaker 1: hand because the doctor was too hot and you didn't

1635
01:16:23,640 --> 01:16:25,760
Speaker 1: want to the nurse was too hot. So he made

1636
01:16:25,800 --> 01:16:27,360
Speaker 1: up another illness even though he was there to get

1637
01:16:27,360 --> 01:16:29,120
Speaker 1: a scab. He's taken care of, so he made up

1638
01:16:29,120 --> 01:16:31,879
Speaker 1: another illness on the spot, didn't get treated for the scabies,

1639
01:16:31,920 --> 01:16:34,720
Speaker 1: but then finally got treated for the scabies. It was

1640
01:16:34,720 --> 01:16:37,320
Speaker 1: a bomb and they gave you right, you put the

1641
01:16:37,320 --> 01:16:39,920
Speaker 1: bomb on? Did someone tell you put the bomb on?

1642
01:16:40,080 --> 01:16:42,160
Speaker 1: I didn't tell you put the bomb on. Do you

1643
01:16:42,160 --> 01:16:46,080
Speaker 1: know what that's from? Well, yeah, sign film. You know

1644
01:16:46,280 --> 01:16:49,480
Speaker 1: you don't know what's in a ball. Jackie Child his

1645
01:16:49,479 --> 01:16:53,280
Speaker 1: his lawyer. Yeah, he put he put a bomb. Well

1646
01:16:53,320 --> 01:16:56,800
Speaker 1: he's he's after the glove don't fit guy, but he um,

1647
01:16:56,880 --> 01:16:59,600
Speaker 1: he puts a bomb on. Cramer puts a bomb on

1648
01:16:59,640 --> 01:17:01,800
Speaker 1: a burn and that is about to secure him like

1649
01:17:01,960 --> 01:17:03,880
Speaker 1: millions of dollars because he got burned by a coffee

1650
01:17:03,880 --> 01:17:05,439
Speaker 1: company because he put coffee in his pants because he

1651
01:17:05,479 --> 01:17:08,839
Speaker 1: was trying to sneak into a movie theater and uh,

1652
01:17:08,920 --> 01:17:12,240
Speaker 1: and all of a sudden his his burned disappears and

1653
01:17:12,280 --> 01:17:14,920
Speaker 1: they're going in to get a settlement from the coffee company,

1654
01:17:15,040 --> 01:17:17,160
Speaker 1: and Jackie Child is like Grammar who told you put

1655
01:17:17,160 --> 01:17:18,320
Speaker 1: the ball on? You don't put a ball on. He

1656
01:17:18,360 --> 01:17:20,320
Speaker 1: goes a doctor told me and he's like, you just

1657
01:17:20,360 --> 01:17:21,840
Speaker 1: give you a bomb. You don't know what's in the

1658
01:17:21,840 --> 01:17:24,439
Speaker 1: bamb but it was hilarious. So the fact that you

1659
01:17:24,680 --> 01:17:27,120
Speaker 1: just needed one bomb and the itching went away immediately

1660
01:17:27,439 --> 01:17:34,760
Speaker 1: literally is an hour literally the second worst thing that

1661
01:17:34,760 --> 01:17:36,360
Speaker 1: could happen to you. I would love to hear from

1662
01:17:36,400 --> 01:17:39,479
Speaker 1: our listeners about things like this that they suffered with

1663
01:17:39,600 --> 01:17:43,880
Speaker 1: forever and then you have one thing and all of

1664
01:17:43,920 --> 01:17:45,760
Speaker 1: a sudden it goes away, and you go, why did

1665
01:17:45,840 --> 01:17:47,400
Speaker 1: it take me so long to do that? And I

1666
01:17:47,400 --> 01:17:49,799
Speaker 1: think it could help other people. I think Mark Norman

1667
01:17:49,880 --> 01:17:52,200
Speaker 1: Dell was something similar, but he had a yeast and

1668
01:17:53,840 --> 01:17:56,320
Speaker 1: he just kept putting it off. You just put things

1669
01:17:56,320 --> 01:17:58,559
Speaker 1: off because we're afraid of a doctor, because we're afraid

1670
01:17:58,560 --> 01:18:00,400
Speaker 1: what we're gonna find out. But that's the way up.

1671
01:18:00,600 --> 01:18:04,599
Speaker 1: You should be the most calm, final thought the other day,

1672
01:18:04,600 --> 01:18:07,160
Speaker 1: I my elbow has been doing this weird thing where

1673
01:18:07,240 --> 01:18:10,439
Speaker 1: I at first I felt like someone's gently touching me

1674
01:18:10,479 --> 01:18:12,280
Speaker 1: on the elbow to be like hey, um over here,

1675
01:18:12,320 --> 01:18:14,840
Speaker 1: you know, and it just feels like the gentlest touch

1676
01:18:14,880 --> 01:18:17,760
Speaker 1: on my elbow. And then I realized after a while

1677
01:18:17,760 --> 01:18:20,760
Speaker 1: it was not someone. It kept happening. It was just

1678
01:18:20,800 --> 01:18:23,719
Speaker 1: like a tingle on my elbow, on the skin, almost

1679
01:18:23,720 --> 01:18:26,679
Speaker 1: like someone outside touching me. And there's nothing on there.

1680
01:18:26,840 --> 01:18:28,320
Speaker 1: There's like a little patch of dry skin, but it's

1681
01:18:28,320 --> 01:18:30,120
Speaker 1: not that. Then it started to feel like a like

1682
01:18:30,200 --> 01:18:33,559
Speaker 1: a like almost like a little like an inch worm

1683
01:18:33,800 --> 01:18:36,200
Speaker 1: an inch No, a spasm is different. I have those

1684
01:18:36,200 --> 01:18:38,320
Speaker 1: all the time. It's felt like an inch worm crawling,

1685
01:18:38,400 --> 01:18:40,799
Speaker 1: like a very delicate like you know, like a spider

1686
01:18:40,840 --> 01:18:44,000
Speaker 1: web touch of on my elbow. And then it felt

1687
01:18:44,000 --> 01:18:46,120
Speaker 1: like maybe it was underneath the skin, there was something wiggling,

1688
01:18:46,120 --> 01:18:48,479
Speaker 1: and I would just and then I would acknowledge it

1689
01:18:48,520 --> 01:18:49,840
Speaker 1: and rub it and it kind of go away, and

1690
01:18:49,880 --> 01:18:51,080
Speaker 1: I kind of wanted to come back, and then it

1691
01:18:51,120 --> 01:18:54,080
Speaker 1: would a couple of hours later. And I told you

1692
01:18:54,240 --> 01:18:56,439
Speaker 1: Drew about this, because it's been happening for weeks and

1693
01:18:56,479 --> 01:18:59,720
Speaker 1: weeks now and He said you that you maybe go

1694
01:18:59,720 --> 01:19:02,320
Speaker 1: to the to her, and I said, absolutely not, because

1695
01:19:03,000 --> 01:19:05,560
Speaker 1: I know of a skin disease called more gallons. I

1696
01:19:05,600 --> 01:19:08,400
Speaker 1: don't know if you've ever heard of it, um, but

1697
01:19:08,600 --> 01:19:11,479
Speaker 1: I am fascinated by My mom will not allow me

1698
01:19:11,560 --> 01:19:13,400
Speaker 1: to talk about the skin disease. I told her about

1699
01:19:13,400 --> 01:19:16,840
Speaker 1: it once and she's can't handle it because she understands

1700
01:19:16,880 --> 01:19:19,160
Speaker 1: that so many things are mental and that if you

1701
01:19:19,160 --> 01:19:22,320
Speaker 1: start thinking about having something, you can actually give it

1702
01:19:22,320 --> 01:19:24,400
Speaker 1: to yourself. And I know that people don't want to

1703
01:19:24,400 --> 01:19:26,920
Speaker 1: hear that, and they want to think that their pain

1704
01:19:27,200 --> 01:19:30,439
Speaker 1: is from a thing that happened to them. I didn't.

1705
01:19:30,720 --> 01:19:32,479
Speaker 1: I'm not choosing it. But even if the pain is

1706
01:19:32,520 --> 01:19:34,760
Speaker 1: in your brain, you're still not choosing it. It's the same.

1707
01:19:34,880 --> 01:19:37,360
Speaker 1: You can still get the same sympathy from me. Maybe

1708
01:19:37,360 --> 01:19:40,920
Speaker 1: not from your dad, but from me. Everyone gets the

1709
01:19:40,960 --> 01:19:43,080
Speaker 1: same sympathy, whether or not you have as someone with

1710
01:19:43,120 --> 01:19:46,360
Speaker 1: anorexia that got judged for like why don't you just eat?

1711
01:19:46,400 --> 01:19:47,960
Speaker 1: And I didn't know why I couldn't eat, but I

1712
01:19:48,000 --> 01:19:51,920
Speaker 1: just couldn't. I've lived on the side of having something

1713
01:19:52,040 --> 01:19:55,400
Speaker 1: that I am everyone thinks I'm doing to myself, but

1714
01:19:55,560 --> 01:19:57,760
Speaker 1: I know that if if it were my choice, I

1715
01:19:57,800 --> 01:20:01,559
Speaker 1: would eat. I just can't. So you understand that mental

1716
01:20:01,600 --> 01:20:04,800
Speaker 1: illness or not something you choose. And I finally accepted that,

1717
01:20:04,840 --> 01:20:06,840
Speaker 1: even though it took me many years. So for me,

1718
01:20:06,920 --> 01:20:09,360
Speaker 1: I have empathy for anyone going through something that's like

1719
01:20:09,439 --> 01:20:12,439
Speaker 1: mental and it's pain that is from their brain and

1720
01:20:12,439 --> 01:20:14,960
Speaker 1: that they're imagining it and doctors can't find anything on scans.

1721
01:20:15,520 --> 01:20:17,800
Speaker 1: I will have the same sympathy for you. You if

1722
01:20:17,840 --> 01:20:21,080
Speaker 1: a doctor found a tumor. Same whereas a lot of

1723
01:20:21,080 --> 01:20:24,479
Speaker 1: people don't get that. But what I realized Moregellin's is

1724
01:20:24,520 --> 01:20:27,000
Speaker 1: a disease. And if this is triggering, turn it off,

1725
01:20:27,000 --> 01:20:28,720
Speaker 1: because I don't want anyone if if you hear about

1726
01:20:28,760 --> 01:20:30,920
Speaker 1: disease and then you start to have it, let's not

1727
01:20:31,000 --> 01:20:33,320
Speaker 1: go there. That's this is you don't need to listen.

1728
01:20:33,600 --> 01:20:36,439
Speaker 1: But it's a disease that um they think is linked

1729
01:20:36,479 --> 01:20:38,599
Speaker 1: to lime disease, which is a whole other thing, which

1730
01:20:38,680 --> 01:20:41,360
Speaker 1: is a government uh it's which is a cover up.

1731
01:20:41,640 --> 01:20:44,080
Speaker 1: People have lyme disease. So many people have lame disease.

1732
01:20:44,080 --> 01:20:47,440
Speaker 1: Anytime you see a headline that says blank and blanks,

1733
01:20:47,479 --> 01:20:53,559
Speaker 1: like US celebrities, mystery illness finally discovered was lime. It's

1734
01:20:53,640 --> 01:20:56,160
Speaker 1: always lime disease. Anytime someone is like, I have chronic pain,

1735
01:20:56,200 --> 01:20:58,639
Speaker 1: no doctors know what it is, I have a chronic thing,

1736
01:20:58,960 --> 01:21:01,800
Speaker 1: headaches or uh fiber manalga, all these things that like

1737
01:21:01,840 --> 01:21:04,320
Speaker 1: people can't really put a pen like a name for

1738
01:21:04,960 --> 01:21:09,559
Speaker 1: it's lime. It's always fucking lime, and lime is uh.

1739
01:21:09,600 --> 01:21:10,880
Speaker 1: I don't want to get into it because I don't

1740
01:21:10,880 --> 01:21:12,560
Speaker 1: want to like be mysteriously killed in the middle of

1741
01:21:12,560 --> 01:21:16,360
Speaker 1: the night by uh, you know, I'm serious, Like, I

1742
01:21:16,400 --> 01:21:17,760
Speaker 1: think it's a huge cover up. I have a friend

1743
01:21:17,800 --> 01:21:20,559
Speaker 1: who suffers with lime and can get no doctors to

1744
01:21:20,600 --> 01:21:25,280
Speaker 1: treat her because it is such a expensive illness to

1745
01:21:25,320 --> 01:21:28,080
Speaker 1: treat and so mysterious that insurance companies won't cover it.

1746
01:21:28,160 --> 01:21:30,519
Speaker 1: And so they act like lime is curable in thirty days,

1747
01:21:31,000 --> 01:21:33,719
Speaker 1: and it's not. It stays with you and does really

1748
01:21:33,760 --> 01:21:37,519
Speaker 1: weird fucking things. Yeah, And people that have they think

1749
01:21:37,520 --> 01:21:39,760
Speaker 1: that a LS is a form of advanced line. They

1750
01:21:39,760 --> 01:21:41,680
Speaker 1: think that Alzheimer's might be a form of advanced line.

1751
01:21:41,960 --> 01:21:45,679
Speaker 1: They think that um, Parkinson's, uh fiber manalga. All these

1752
01:21:45,680 --> 01:21:48,240
Speaker 1: things that come up and people go, Hi, this pain

1753
01:21:48,240 --> 01:21:50,160
Speaker 1: throughout my body. You might have been bit by a

1754
01:21:50,200 --> 01:21:52,760
Speaker 1: tick and not seeing the ring and not treated it,

1755
01:21:52,800 --> 01:21:54,479
Speaker 1: and even if you did treat it could stay in you.

1756
01:21:54,800 --> 01:21:57,000
Speaker 1: There's different forms of it. I don't know any of

1757
01:21:57,000 --> 01:21:58,240
Speaker 1: the science be on it, but I just know this.

1758
01:21:58,320 --> 01:22:00,439
Speaker 1: So here's the thing. Morgellan's might be a form of lime.

1759
01:22:00,800 --> 01:22:03,639
Speaker 1: I watched this documentary on I think it was Amazon

1760
01:22:03,720 --> 01:22:07,080
Speaker 1: Prime called Skin Deep, and it's about women and of

1761
01:22:07,120 --> 01:22:09,439
Speaker 1: men who suffer with more Gelon's and it's so sad

1762
01:22:09,479 --> 01:22:13,080
Speaker 1: because they they're they have these lesions on their skin

1763
01:22:13,400 --> 01:22:17,160
Speaker 1: that open wounds, that have fibers in them, like weird

1764
01:22:17,400 --> 01:22:20,720
Speaker 1: little pieces of like under microscope, it looks like hairs

1765
01:22:20,760 --> 01:22:23,960
Speaker 1: and like blue hairs that your body does not make.

1766
01:22:24,560 --> 01:22:26,559
Speaker 1: And people go, it's from a sweater. It got stuck

1767
01:22:26,600 --> 01:22:29,120
Speaker 1: in your skin, and it's like, I don't know a

1768
01:22:29,200 --> 01:22:31,360
Speaker 1: sweater with And then they put the fabric under all

1769
01:22:31,360 --> 01:22:33,240
Speaker 1: these tests and it's not a man made fabric. No

1770
01:22:33,240 --> 01:22:35,519
Speaker 1: one knows what the funk it is and it's fucking lime.

1771
01:22:35,840 --> 01:22:37,880
Speaker 1: But these people are ostracized from their community and the

1772
01:22:37,960 --> 01:22:41,200
Speaker 1: family because they have these itchy skin problem that it

1773
01:22:41,720 --> 01:22:44,800
Speaker 1: just it rapidly gets worse and no one believes them.

1774
01:22:44,840 --> 01:22:48,479
Speaker 1: It's so tragic, and Joni Mitchell has it of your

1775
01:22:48,600 --> 01:22:51,160
Speaker 1: other people, um and it feels like they have insects

1776
01:22:51,200 --> 01:22:53,200
Speaker 1: in their skin. It's terrible. My mom literally can't hear

1777
01:22:53,200 --> 01:22:56,600
Speaker 1: me talk about it. I feel like this could be

1778
01:22:57,000 --> 01:22:59,960
Speaker 1: a little bit of that in my elbow. And that's

1779
01:23:00,080 --> 01:23:01,960
Speaker 1: not to say so let's say that I got it

1780
01:23:02,040 --> 01:23:04,840
Speaker 1: by a lime tick early on, and I have it.

1781
01:23:05,200 --> 01:23:08,160
Speaker 1: I do believe that even if you have something, you

1782
01:23:08,160 --> 01:23:11,680
Speaker 1: can mentally not go there and stop it in its

1783
01:23:11,680 --> 01:23:13,760
Speaker 1: trucks because I have stopped at the cold sore before

1784
01:23:13,760 --> 01:23:15,920
Speaker 1: in its tracks. I have stopped back pain and its

1785
01:23:16,080 --> 01:23:18,760
Speaker 1: tracks before that let it so I couldn't put on

1786
01:23:18,760 --> 01:23:23,200
Speaker 1: a shirt by just mentally going nope, we're not going there. Yes,

1787
01:23:23,240 --> 01:23:25,439
Speaker 1: I have a little inchworm that sometimes crawls on my elbow.

1788
01:23:25,520 --> 01:23:27,400
Speaker 1: I'm not going to the doctor. I'm not going to

1789
01:23:27,600 --> 01:23:31,240
Speaker 1: give it life and and I'm not going to give it.

1790
01:23:31,280 --> 01:23:33,120
Speaker 1: I'm not going to give it the power that I'm

1791
01:23:33,120 --> 01:23:35,840
Speaker 1: going to make an appointment and focus on it. If

1792
01:23:35,880 --> 01:23:38,040
Speaker 1: it gets the point where it's my life is unman'sament,

1793
01:23:38,080 --> 01:23:40,200
Speaker 1: I'll get help. But right now, when it's just once

1794
01:23:40,200 --> 01:23:42,120
Speaker 1: in a while I feel an inchworm on my elbow.

1795
01:23:42,720 --> 01:23:45,040
Speaker 1: It makes me check in with myself and go, maybe

1796
01:23:45,040 --> 01:23:46,680
Speaker 1: something's trying to tell you something. I think of it

1797
01:23:46,680 --> 01:23:48,720
Speaker 1: now is like a ghost being like, hey, Nikky, I'm

1798
01:23:48,800 --> 01:23:51,880
Speaker 1: right here, your friend that died a couple of years ago,

1799
01:23:51,920 --> 01:23:53,240
Speaker 1: Like I just want to tap you on the shoulder

1800
01:23:53,240 --> 01:23:55,240
Speaker 1: and be like I'm here. Like I think of it

1801
01:23:55,280 --> 01:23:57,360
Speaker 1: as like a ghost friend tapping me on the shoulder

1802
01:23:57,400 --> 01:24:00,759
Speaker 1: because it doesn't hurt. I know, but I I agree,

1803
01:24:00,760 --> 01:24:04,600
Speaker 1: and I did agree. I I I had numb this

1804
01:24:04,760 --> 01:24:07,559
Speaker 1: in my hands. I have had um like my whole

1805
01:24:07,560 --> 01:24:10,800
Speaker 1: side of my body go numb before. I've had spasms

1806
01:24:10,800 --> 01:24:14,120
Speaker 1: like crazy. I've had weird itching like like things, and

1807
01:24:14,160 --> 01:24:15,519
Speaker 1: then I would just ignore and a lot of it

1808
01:24:15,560 --> 01:24:18,519
Speaker 1: was mental of course. But then like when I finally

1809
01:24:18,520 --> 01:24:21,440
Speaker 1: did go to a doctor and found out, like eliminating

1810
01:24:21,520 --> 01:24:24,040
Speaker 1: things does help if it is, if it is changing

1811
01:24:24,360 --> 01:24:26,840
Speaker 1: your life. This is not at a point where I

1812
01:24:26,880 --> 01:24:29,200
Speaker 1: would ever go the doctor because it's not hurting my life.

1813
01:24:29,240 --> 01:24:32,120
Speaker 1: I literally David is talking, but to think that it's

1814
01:24:32,160 --> 01:24:36,960
Speaker 1: the start of but it's not the That's what I

1815
01:24:37,000 --> 01:24:39,240
Speaker 1: could go to and that's what I could because it does.

1816
01:24:39,280 --> 01:24:42,639
Speaker 1: But it sounds like you are going there already without

1817
01:24:42,680 --> 01:24:45,240
Speaker 1: going there, even if I'm going there. So let's even

1818
01:24:45,280 --> 01:24:47,040
Speaker 1: if I have it, I think that I could stop

1819
01:24:47,040 --> 01:24:49,280
Speaker 1: it in its tracts, because I'm not blaming someone that

1820
01:24:49,320 --> 01:24:51,559
Speaker 1: can't stop in its tructs and goes, oh my god, Nicky,

1821
01:24:51,680 --> 01:24:54,160
Speaker 1: you think you have control over morgellons or cancer or

1822
01:24:54,160 --> 01:24:56,920
Speaker 1: anything in your body? You don't. I tend to believe

1823
01:24:56,960 --> 01:25:00,320
Speaker 1: I do, because if my mind can get to a

1824
01:25:00,360 --> 01:25:02,840
Speaker 1: place where I go thank you for I stopped. The

1825
01:25:02,880 --> 01:25:05,639
Speaker 1: fact that I stopped a cold sore in its tracks

1826
01:25:06,080 --> 01:25:07,840
Speaker 1: when it was already at the point where it was

1827
01:25:07,880 --> 01:25:10,839
Speaker 1: going headed to a blister. And everything I read online

1828
01:25:11,200 --> 01:25:13,760
Speaker 1: said this is if you've had cold sores before, you

1829
01:25:13,760 --> 01:25:15,960
Speaker 1: know the point where a point of no return. You

1830
01:25:16,040 --> 01:25:18,720
Speaker 1: know what I'm talking about, the fact that I was

1831
01:25:18,760 --> 01:25:20,920
Speaker 1: able to meditate and say thank you for coming. I

1832
01:25:20,960 --> 01:25:24,360
Speaker 1: acknowledge you, but you you already made I know you're

1833
01:25:24,360 --> 01:25:26,080
Speaker 1: a sign of me being stressed, and I'm going to

1834
01:25:26,120 --> 01:25:28,200
Speaker 1: meditate and get you away, and it was able to

1835
01:25:28,240 --> 01:25:30,479
Speaker 1: go away. I think I have mind control over things.

1836
01:25:30,560 --> 01:25:32,479
Speaker 1: And by saying mine control, I also mean I have

1837
01:25:32,479 --> 01:25:34,679
Speaker 1: no control, because no one has a control over anything

1838
01:25:34,720 --> 01:25:37,840
Speaker 1: that they do. But I believe that going to the

1839
01:25:37,840 --> 01:25:40,320
Speaker 1: doctor before it's inconveniencing my life would be giving it

1840
01:25:40,360 --> 01:25:44,040
Speaker 1: more power than it deserves. But the only problem with

1841
01:25:44,160 --> 01:25:47,720
Speaker 1: that is a lot of cancers, they start with little symptoms,

1842
01:25:48,000 --> 01:25:50,840
Speaker 1: little things, yeah, and whether you think you can stop

1843
01:25:50,880 --> 01:25:54,040
Speaker 1: it or not, genetically, you can't. And a lot of

1844
01:25:54,040 --> 01:25:56,800
Speaker 1: people die, just like Steve Jobs thinking he could stop

1845
01:25:56,840 --> 01:25:59,840
Speaker 1: his cancer by eating plums or whatever. Allie did. Yes,

1846
01:26:00,120 --> 01:26:02,240
Speaker 1: but I don't think that I would do that because

1847
01:26:02,280 --> 01:26:04,360
Speaker 1: I feel like if cancer was killing me, I would

1848
01:26:04,840 --> 01:26:07,400
Speaker 1: try to do the like if it was actually physically

1849
01:26:07,479 --> 01:26:10,840
Speaker 1: making my life. Hell. My thing is is like I think,

1850
01:26:10,880 --> 01:26:12,840
Speaker 1: like if you felt a bump in my boob and

1851
01:26:12,880 --> 01:26:14,679
Speaker 1: it didn't hurt, I would do something about it because

1852
01:26:15,000 --> 01:26:17,240
Speaker 1: there's enough thing. But if I felt a lump in

1853
01:26:17,320 --> 01:26:20,240
Speaker 1: my if I felt a tickle in my boob, that

1854
01:26:20,520 --> 01:26:25,080
Speaker 1: somehow like I try to listen to my body and

1855
01:26:25,120 --> 01:26:28,080
Speaker 1: go is this necessary or not? Of course, a little inchworm,

1856
01:26:28,120 --> 01:26:31,160
Speaker 1: feeling phantom intorim on my elbow not enough. I've been

1857
01:26:31,200 --> 01:26:34,439
Speaker 1: the king of overreacting asking my daughter my dad to

1858
01:26:34,479 --> 01:26:38,960
Speaker 1: feel my balls because he's you know, yeah, yeah, no,

1859
01:26:39,080 --> 01:26:42,280
Speaker 1: but he's a doctor and uh and you know, I

1860
01:26:42,320 --> 01:26:45,040
Speaker 1: thought maybe I have testiclear cancer because my balls were,

1861
01:26:45,080 --> 01:26:48,000
Speaker 1: you know, bigger than I even imagine. And uh, and

1862
01:26:48,080 --> 01:26:51,360
Speaker 1: he felt my balls like reluctantly. And I've gone through

1863
01:26:51,400 --> 01:26:55,280
Speaker 1: the ringer of like overreacting. That being said, if something

1864
01:26:55,360 --> 01:26:59,800
Speaker 1: does feel very awkward, that isn't it could getting something

1865
01:26:59,880 --> 01:27:03,400
Speaker 1: or early in figuring it out. Stories have you heard of,

1866
01:27:03,439 --> 01:27:04,840
Speaker 1: Like I went in for this thing that I didn't

1867
01:27:04,840 --> 01:27:06,280
Speaker 1: even want to be checked on, and then it turns

1868
01:27:06,280 --> 01:27:08,880
Speaker 1: out they found eighteen tumors in my goal bladder that

1869
01:27:08,880 --> 01:27:13,200
Speaker 1: I wouldn't have even known about. Ye who's our new

1870
01:27:13,200 --> 01:27:16,040
Speaker 1: best friend? Is an northmedic surgeon who shoulder and elbow

1871
01:27:16,280 --> 01:27:19,880
Speaker 1: and you could ask him about my phantom and here,

1872
01:27:19,920 --> 01:27:21,960
Speaker 1: I'm not going to until it starts to hurt my line.

1873
01:27:22,080 --> 01:27:25,080
Speaker 1: And if I'm going and if you have a phantom intorm,

1874
01:27:25,160 --> 01:27:27,000
Speaker 1: let me know what you did about it. But right

1875
01:27:27,040 --> 01:27:28,479
Speaker 1: now I'm not going to do anything. Thank you so

1876
01:27:28,560 --> 01:27:30,400
Speaker 1: much for listening. Today. We have a full week of shows.

1877
01:27:30,920 --> 01:27:33,240
Speaker 1: This is one of my favorite podcast for me. I

1878
01:27:33,240 --> 01:27:36,080
Speaker 1: feel really good, uh going into the week. We have

1879
01:27:36,120 --> 01:27:39,200
Speaker 1: a lot more to cover this week. Um, and we're

1880
01:27:39,240 --> 01:27:42,120
Speaker 1: gonna have so much fun. I'm in town usually I'm

1881
01:27:42,160 --> 01:27:44,599
Speaker 1: like leaving town, have to go somewhere. I'm in it again.

1882
01:27:45,360 --> 01:27:51,960
Speaker 1: We're chilling, Luigi like chilling like Christopher Columbus. Alright, guys,

1883
01:27:52,439 --> 01:27:54,960
Speaker 1: thanks for listening to the show, whether it was your

1884
01:27:54,960 --> 01:27:57,200
Speaker 1: first time, second time, or you know, I don't know

1885
01:27:57,400 --> 01:28:02,639
Speaker 1: was this number fifty three because I right forty something. Okay, Well,

1886
01:28:02,640 --> 01:28:05,120
Speaker 1: thanks for listening you guys, and right into us, and

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01:28:05,160 --> 01:28:12,639
Speaker 1: we'll read your listener mail on Thursday. Jack Podka, jack Pot,