WEBVTT - Featuring Ellie Zeiler 0:00:03.880 --> 0:00:06.000 Hey guys, and welcome to this week's episode of The 0:00:06.440 --> 0:00:09.159 Real Podcast. As always, my name is Sammy J. And 0:00:09.520 --> 0:00:12.600 you guys, this week's episode is with Ellie's Eiler. Now, 0:00:12.720 --> 0:00:16.439 you may know her from TikTok, Instagram, social media, but 0:00:17.079 --> 0:00:19.000 when I tell you, I felt like I've known this 0:00:19.079 --> 0:00:22.640 girl for years, I am not exaggerating. We had so 0:00:22.760 --> 0:00:25.599 much in common I was shocked by it. We talk 0:00:25.720 --> 0:00:29.600 about the fakeness of social media, how to find true friends, 0:00:29.640 --> 0:00:32.800 how to deal with hate. We talk about fashion, her 0:00:32.840 --> 0:00:35.120 love of New York, and so much more. We also 0:00:35.120 --> 0:00:37.760 talk about her nonprofit Together as One, which I'm so 0:00:37.840 --> 0:00:40.120 excited for you to hear about. I hope you guys 0:00:40.200 --> 0:00:42.920 enjoy this episode. Don't forget to subscribe to the Lesbie 0:00:42.920 --> 0:00:45.520 Real Podcast if you have an already comment. I always 0:00:45.600 --> 0:00:48.000 love to read your reviews, and don't forget to follow 0:00:48.040 --> 0:00:50.680 Ellis Eisler on social media and follow me at it 0:00:50.800 --> 0:00:53.360 Sammy JA. I hope you guys enjoyed the episode and 0:00:53.400 --> 0:00:57.680 I look forward to your thoughts. So I am so 0:00:57.720 --> 0:00:59.960 excited that you're on my podcast, first of all, because 0:01:00.040 --> 0:01:02.040 I feel like we have a lot of things in common. 0:01:02.640 --> 0:01:06.160 Me too. I'm so excited to be here. We have 0:01:06.240 --> 0:01:08.640 a weird amount of things in common. We're both teenagers, 0:01:08.800 --> 0:01:13.560 we're both working, we're both dealing with the social media thing, 0:01:13.560 --> 0:01:17.600 which it's social media is crazy. We started like the 0:01:17.720 --> 0:01:21.280 same way too, and we have like like the same 0:01:21.360 --> 0:01:23.440 like tendencies, you know what I mean. I feel like 0:01:23.480 --> 0:01:26.800 I'm like our call before, where it's like things like 0:01:26.840 --> 0:01:29.560 the old soul thing like all different, you know what 0:01:29.600 --> 0:01:32.720 I'm saying. It's just like things like that are the same. 0:01:33.319 --> 0:01:36.000 I don't know about you, but I've been trying to 0:01:36.160 --> 0:01:39.080 limit my phone time just because I realized during the 0:01:39.120 --> 0:01:42.080 height of the pandemic when I was inside, my phone 0:01:42.440 --> 0:01:44.640 time was probably like twelve or thirteen hours a day, 0:01:44.680 --> 0:01:48.400 and I was like, whoa, yeah, that's a lot. I 0:01:48.440 --> 0:01:52.040 don't even turn mine on anymore. I don't. I don't 0:01:52.280 --> 0:01:56.520 want to see it because honestly, like my favorite time 0:01:56.680 --> 0:01:59.400 of the day is when I like turn it off. Um, 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:01.920 there's really and like nothing pressing, Like I don't like 0:02:02.040 --> 0:02:04.600 I don't really like snapchat people. I don't. I just 0:02:04.680 --> 0:02:09.000 like text and do take talk and take Instagram pictures 0:02:09.000 --> 0:02:11.400 and then I post it and turn it off. See 0:02:11.639 --> 0:02:16.000 that sounds lovely. I think Snapchat is terrible. I think 0:02:16.000 --> 0:02:19.240 it's interesting, but terrible, but just because like the snap 0:02:19.280 --> 0:02:21.680 maps a big thing where you live, Yeah, it is. 0:02:22.000 --> 0:02:23.800 I don't know if you've experienced this, but like in 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:26.959 the city, it can be really hard because you'll see 0:02:27.000 --> 0:02:29.880 people hanging out together like on snap maps. When they 0:02:29.919 --> 0:02:31.959 say they're not, it's like this, it was this whole thing. 0:02:32.560 --> 0:02:36.480 Oh my gosh, that's funny. Like no one. I used 0:02:36.480 --> 0:02:39.080 to live in North Carolina and like if you go 0:02:39.120 --> 0:02:42.000 on my snap map, like everyone's is turned on, like 0:02:42.080 --> 0:02:44.400 over there on the East Coast, and like no one's 0:02:44.520 --> 0:02:46.840 is where I live. Like everyone is like doing their 0:02:46.880 --> 0:02:50.760 own thing and very private about it. But it's like fun. 0:02:50.800 --> 0:02:53.040 It's like gossip Girl, like the little like maths that 0:02:53.080 --> 0:02:56.480 they use. I okay, here's a question. When you come 0:02:56.520 --> 0:02:58.560 to New York, are you into the gossip Girl vibe? 0:02:58.960 --> 0:03:02.440 Oh yeah, well actually I started it over Quarantine. I 0:03:02.480 --> 0:03:05.240 started gossip Girl for the first time ever. Quarantine. It's 0:03:05.280 --> 0:03:08.720 like completely changed my life, like literally had to get 0:03:08.760 --> 0:03:11.040 like pack of packs of head bands, like had to 0:03:11.120 --> 0:03:13.640 like change the whole style for that. But I haven't 0:03:13.639 --> 0:03:16.600 been to New York since, and so I remember going 0:03:16.720 --> 0:03:19.720 and seeing like Gossip Girl tours or like people taking 0:03:19.720 --> 0:03:21.520 pictures on the met steps and being like, oh, I 0:03:21.520 --> 0:03:24.080 wonder what that's where? And now I know. Now you 0:03:24.240 --> 0:03:28.480 get the references exactly exactly. Okay, Wait, so you start 0:03:28.480 --> 0:03:30.560 you from North Carolina, so where I know you've moved 0:03:30.560 --> 0:03:33.360 a bunch where or all the places you've lived? So 0:03:33.400 --> 0:03:36.960 I lived. I lived in California until I was in 0:03:37.200 --> 0:03:39.760 seventh grade, and then I lived in North Carolina for 0:03:39.800 --> 0:03:41.920 just one year and then I came right back, um 0:03:41.960 --> 0:03:45.280 to California. But like in here, I've moved like different 0:03:45.280 --> 0:03:49.360 schools and different houses and things like that. What about you? 0:03:49.440 --> 0:03:51.520 Have you lived in New York your whole life. I'm 0:03:51.560 --> 0:03:54.400 a city girl. I've lived here my entire life. That's 0:03:54.440 --> 0:03:57.840 so fun. Oh my gosh. I mean it's it's so 0:03:57.920 --> 0:04:00.320 interesting to me because everyone from l A one to 0:04:00.480 --> 0:04:02.760 New York and like, I want to go to California. 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:06.760 It's true. I was talking to this girl um in 0:04:06.960 --> 0:04:09.440 a story yesterday and she went to college in New 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:11.720 York and I was like, how is that? Like why 0:04:11.760 --> 0:04:14.000 are you back? And she was like I wish I 0:04:14.080 --> 0:04:16.080 wasn't back. I love it there, And I'm like, really, 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:18.680 everyone I talked to that goes like comes right back 0:04:18.720 --> 0:04:22.040 to California. But I don't know. I really like it, 0:04:22.120 --> 0:04:24.400 but I when when did you say was the last 0:04:24.440 --> 0:04:27.360 time you came here? I think it was last February. 0:04:27.640 --> 0:04:31.120 Oh wow, it's been a long time. I mean, you're 0:04:31.160 --> 0:04:34.000 not missing much. Like it's not like l A, like 0:04:34.080 --> 0:04:36.520 you go on to Melrose Girt shopping like no one's 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:40.320 out anymore, which is interesting. But like then again, like 0:04:40.400 --> 0:04:42.360 that's so crazy, Like that's all I want to do 0:04:42.400 --> 0:04:45.479 is go to New York. I had tickets for this 0:04:45.520 --> 0:04:48.040 past weekend and I had them planned and then we 0:04:48.080 --> 0:04:50.640 had to cancel them. So it was a sad moment. 0:04:50.680 --> 0:04:54.400 But have you seen any Broadway shows? Because that's the 0:04:54.440 --> 0:04:58.120 one thing that if you're here that I recommend. Really, 0:04:58.200 --> 0:05:00.800 I mean, when I was younger, show those I like 0:05:00.960 --> 0:05:04.120 saw completely forgot, but I will do that. Maybe we 0:05:04.120 --> 0:05:06.440 should go to a show when I come. Yes, we 0:05:06.520 --> 0:05:11.560 have to go together. Okay, I recommend mean girls on Broadway. Okay, 0:05:11.640 --> 0:05:15.320 let's do it. Incredible, Uh, Hamilton's of course, and dear 0:05:15.440 --> 0:05:18.000 Van Hanson, those are like my go to three. We're 0:05:18.000 --> 0:05:20.360 going all three. We're going to go to all of them. 0:05:20.640 --> 0:05:22.560 I am down for that, and I think one of 0:05:22.560 --> 0:05:25.240 the I think one of the other reasons why we 0:05:25.279 --> 0:05:27.839 have so much in comedies. We were the same age. 0:05:28.160 --> 0:05:31.400 We're both in high school, and it's really I don't 0:05:31.400 --> 0:05:33.800 know about you, but I'm finding it really difficult, as 0:05:34.279 --> 0:05:37.960 you know, school has gotten really weird because of COVID 0:05:38.200 --> 0:05:41.400 to just like have a healthy work life balance with 0:05:41.440 --> 0:05:44.000 school and that it's also finding a balance with friends 0:05:44.680 --> 0:05:48.479 who are there for the right reasons. I know you 0:05:48.480 --> 0:05:52.240 started social media and like March, how in the time 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:54.960 that you've been on social media, have you noticed any 0:05:55.120 --> 0:05:57.320 people coming back into your life out of the blue 0:05:57.360 --> 0:06:02.640 when you go viral? Oh? Yes, I think from like 0:06:02.760 --> 0:06:05.360 all different years of my life, like all years in 0:06:05.400 --> 0:06:07.919 all grades, like people have come back, Like the people 0:06:07.960 --> 0:06:10.440 that have hurt my feelings have been like will you 0:06:10.800 --> 0:06:14.159 unblock me? Or will you like, I'm so sorry? Can 0:06:14.160 --> 0:06:16.480 we be friends? Like I'd love to hang out And 0:06:16.600 --> 0:06:19.640 I'm never like I'm not necessarily a mean person, and 0:06:19.640 --> 0:06:22.360 so I don't like to like be mean back, of course, 0:06:22.680 --> 0:06:25.000 but it's like I have no response for them. I'm like, 0:06:25.040 --> 0:06:28.839 oh my gosh, that's so crazy, or even like hanging 0:06:28.880 --> 0:06:32.159 out with new people. They'll be like, oh my god, 0:06:32.200 --> 0:06:34.479 I had a situation with a boy. It was like 0:06:34.560 --> 0:06:37.120 the first like I had. I was talking like zero boys, 0:06:37.120 --> 0:06:38.880 and then I talked to this one for like a 0:06:39.040 --> 0:06:42.560 good two weeks in quarantine, and he would say things 0:06:42.640 --> 0:06:45.479 like you'd be like, um, like you can meet my 0:06:45.560 --> 0:06:47.720 family if you post me on your TikTok and like 0:06:47.800 --> 0:06:50.840 no one knows about this, so you know whatever. But 0:06:51.920 --> 0:06:55.880 I was like, oh my gosh, like who says that? Who? 0:06:56.000 --> 0:06:58.200 Who does that? And so then I just find myself 0:06:58.240 --> 0:07:00.760 in my house all day and my mom's like on 0:07:00.839 --> 0:07:03.200 Friday nights, She's like, I think you should go hang 0:07:03.200 --> 0:07:06.760 out with your friends, and I'm like, like, what who 0:07:06.760 --> 0:07:09.680 am I going out with? I will say I've had 0:07:09.720 --> 0:07:14.000 some I try not to let people know about, like 0:07:14.160 --> 0:07:16.200 if it's in that like when I'm talking to someone, 0:07:16.320 --> 0:07:19.240 because then the first question is can I be on 0:07:19.280 --> 0:07:22.200 your podcast? Why can't I be on your pod? I'm 0:07:22.240 --> 0:07:26.360 like what, yeah, you know right? And I'm like who, 0:07:26.680 --> 0:07:29.920 Like I would never think to like say that to someone, right, 0:07:30.720 --> 0:07:34.080 Like who thinks to say that? What? It's ballsy though 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:37.840 it is, oh the whole like me, your family, if 0:07:37.880 --> 0:07:41.320 you post me on TikTok. That was that was like, okay, wow, 0:07:41.480 --> 0:07:45.360 like that's ridiculous. I also feel like, I don't know 0:07:45.400 --> 0:07:49.040 about you, but it's so hard to find a nice 0:07:49.160 --> 0:07:54.680 guy nowadays because of COVID, because of social media and 0:07:54.720 --> 0:07:57.160 everything's like over Snapchat and it's like just text me, 0:07:57.280 --> 0:08:01.160 like that's so much call me, I just me FaceTime. 0:08:01.520 --> 0:08:05.320 Yeah what I want? I want Chuck Bass or something 0:08:05.440 --> 0:08:07.480 like that all time. I don't get the hype with him, 0:08:07.640 --> 0:08:14.400 can somebody, No, I don't get our first difference. Okay, No, 0:08:16.040 --> 0:08:19.440 he's okay, I'm here's my reasoning. I the first episode, 0:08:19.440 --> 0:08:24.120 he like tries to assault the little sister. Am I wrong? Okay, 0:08:24.720 --> 0:08:27.960 he's grown, he grew up. He grew so much like okay, 0:08:28.000 --> 0:08:30.080 he does. The first and second season, I was like, 0:08:30.160 --> 0:08:32.760 you know, who is this like trying to get with everyone? 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:36.559 And then by the end I was like, oh my gosh, 0:08:36.600 --> 0:08:39.600 Like I know it's a controversial opinion, but I found 0:08:39.679 --> 0:08:42.040 him attractive when I found out he's British in real life, 0:08:42.160 --> 0:08:44.320 because for some reason, someone gets like ten points when 0:08:44.320 --> 0:08:48.040 they're British. So true, Okay, okay, thank you for saying that. Yeah, 0:08:48.040 --> 0:08:50.440 I know. I followed him on Instagram. And the thing is, 0:08:50.440 --> 0:08:53.920 it's like he seems obviously we don't know him. Maybe 0:08:54.000 --> 0:08:56.040 we should find out, we should maybe we should ask 0:08:56.080 --> 0:08:59.280 him to come on. Yes, we need a group FaceTime call. 0:08:59.480 --> 0:09:02.520 His name is Edwin. Okay, he looks like an Edwin, 0:09:02.840 --> 0:09:06.680 he does, and he has the accent. And he also 0:09:06.920 --> 0:09:10.160 in all of his Instagram posts he's like in Greece 0:09:10.320 --> 0:09:13.920 in Paris, like just like living the life of bass. 0:09:13.960 --> 0:09:19.720 And I was like, wow, how amazing, Like maybe it 0:09:19.760 --> 0:09:24.560 really does happen. Maybe I'm just like we're living in 0:09:24.640 --> 0:09:26.560 such a weird time that I feel like for me, 0:09:26.800 --> 0:09:29.240 I'm always that are fron all the way ever since 0:09:29.280 --> 0:09:33.200 like two thousand six. Yeah, I've never been. I've never been. 0:09:33.440 --> 0:09:39.040 Uh I know a banana, I've never or like musical 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:45.920 like never like whoa, I know our second difference. No, 0:09:46.080 --> 0:09:47.920 I count this in the same boat. This is like 0:09:47.960 --> 0:09:51.600 the boys. Okay. I think that's fair because that means like, 0:09:51.760 --> 0:09:53.720 if there's a boy that's like my type, like you're 0:09:53.760 --> 0:09:55.240 not gonna like him too, So it's just not going 0:09:55.320 --> 0:09:58.720 to create a conflict with us. It's a good thing, exactly, 0:09:58.760 --> 0:10:01.600 it's good. Did be not too similar, but I feel 0:10:01.600 --> 0:10:04.520 like something. I don't know if you've experienced this at 0:10:04.520 --> 0:10:06.240 win l A, but it's really hard to find people 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:08.840 that are there for the right reasons where it's not 0:10:09.080 --> 0:10:13.080 for followers or to get on your TikTok. Have you 0:10:13.120 --> 0:10:17.640 come up with a circle of privacy when you realize 0:10:17.679 --> 0:10:19.960 someone's not there for the right reasons? How how have 0:10:20.000 --> 0:10:22.240 you dealt with that? Because I'm still learning because it's weird. 0:10:23.080 --> 0:10:26.000 I yeah, I'm still learning with that too. I wish 0:10:26.000 --> 0:10:28.080 I had I wish you had an exact answer you 0:10:28.120 --> 0:10:30.679 could tell me with that, because when this boy did 0:10:30.720 --> 0:10:33.120 that to me, I just remember texting him and being 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:35.720 like sorry, like with school and everything, like I just 0:10:35.760 --> 0:10:38.200 don't have time, like I need to stop talking with you, 0:10:38.280 --> 0:10:40.120 like it's distracting me and all this stuff, and that 0:10:40.240 --> 0:10:43.000 was it. And I would you say l O L Yeah, no, 0:10:43.160 --> 0:10:45.760 he has like no idea that, like I guess I 0:10:45.800 --> 0:10:48.719 mean now he does, like sorry, actually blocked him. I 0:10:48.800 --> 0:10:52.040 don't want him say any of my stuff anymore. That's fair. Well, 0:10:52.400 --> 0:10:55.600 blocking is such a great answer to a bunch of things, 0:10:55.679 --> 0:10:57.920 like everyone is like blocking is so many but it's 0:10:57.960 --> 0:11:01.280 so like you're just like on like they don't follow, 0:11:01.400 --> 0:11:04.200 you know, you don't follow them. Something you can do 0:11:04.240 --> 0:11:07.720 that I didn't realize is that you can have the 0:11:07.760 --> 0:11:11.800 person unfollow you. But like I'm a public account, so 0:11:11.920 --> 0:11:14.520 like if he were to go, like he can still 0:11:14.600 --> 0:11:17.040 see everything, but that means he would be looking you up. 0:11:17.160 --> 0:11:18.959 Like I'm saying, if they don't really look you up, 0:11:19.360 --> 0:11:21.280 they would have no idea. They would just stop seeing 0:11:21.280 --> 0:11:24.840 your feet. Okay, you're right, Okay, maybe I need to 0:11:24.880 --> 0:11:27.000 retract a little bit and do the like remove the 0:11:27.000 --> 0:11:29.840 follower type thing. I don't know. It's so interesting to 0:11:29.880 --> 0:11:33.960 me because I've had the way people have treated me. 0:11:34.920 --> 0:11:37.160 When I'm starting on my podcast. It wasn't to like 0:11:37.440 --> 0:11:39.880 get a podcast. It was like a way to distract 0:11:39.880 --> 0:11:41.800 from my anxiety and what was going on with my 0:11:41.840 --> 0:11:45.400 friends at the time. And it's so interesting because I 0:11:45.440 --> 0:11:47.280 haven't heard a thing from them. But then I think 0:11:47.320 --> 0:11:50.280 when Dixie came on, I got a bunch of d 0:11:50.440 --> 0:11:52.600 M from people I haven't heard from in a year 0:11:52.640 --> 0:11:56.600 and a half to two years. So crazy, it's so weird, 0:11:56.920 --> 0:12:00.080 you know, it's just weird. It's like it's kind of 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:03.960 like I compare it to when someone is like mean 0:12:04.120 --> 0:12:07.000 in school, Like I would like I don't I don't 0:12:07.040 --> 0:12:09.640 think to be mean to someone, and so it's just 0:12:09.720 --> 0:12:11.720 like that way where it's like I wouldn't think to 0:12:12.040 --> 0:12:15.280 ask someone to post me or things like that. Well, 0:12:15.320 --> 0:12:19.040 first of all, that's so aggressive, right, it's so aggressive, 0:12:19.200 --> 0:12:22.439 but like something else that I've been trying to find 0:12:22.520 --> 0:12:25.520 interesting balance with this, making sure the positive comments are 0:12:25.600 --> 0:12:28.679 what my priority priority are. But then you know, the 0:12:28.800 --> 0:12:33.440 hate can get pretty, you know, shitty sometimes. Something that 0:12:33.559 --> 0:12:35.960 I don't understand is they hate you get is so 0:12:36.080 --> 0:12:39.760 unjustified because you're just yourself. And I think you've had 0:12:39.800 --> 0:12:41.880 to prove you had to work harder than a lot 0:12:41.920 --> 0:12:44.200 of people because you can't just do like the regular dances. 0:12:44.200 --> 0:12:46.440 You have to you know, be yourself to prove that 0:12:46.480 --> 0:12:49.560 you're not just like every other TikToker. What has that 0:12:49.640 --> 0:12:53.160 experience been like on your mental health? Just keeping a 0:12:53.160 --> 0:12:55.760 healthy balance with it, but also not letting that hate 0:12:55.800 --> 0:12:58.400 get to you. I mean, it's it's been hard. I 0:12:58.760 --> 0:13:00.880 I think, like in the beginn inning it was a 0:13:00.920 --> 0:13:04.000 lot of talking and a lot of crying and therapy 0:13:04.280 --> 0:13:08.560 and just getting through it. I've always had very thick 0:13:08.679 --> 0:13:13.600 skin because of things that happened to me in person, 0:13:13.720 --> 0:13:16.000 and like things that went on in school and bullying 0:13:16.040 --> 0:13:19.160 and all that type of stuff, and so I guess 0:13:19.520 --> 0:13:22.920 I'm lucky. I was talking about this yesterday actually actually 0:13:22.960 --> 0:13:25.040 with my mom, where it's like if I was like 0:13:25.280 --> 0:13:29.160 mentally unstable at the beginning of quarantine from school and everything, 0:13:29.200 --> 0:13:31.040 and I started this like I don't know how I 0:13:31.040 --> 0:13:35.439 could have gotten through it. But so like when someone's 0:13:35.480 --> 0:13:37.920 mean to me online, it doesn't like resonnate as much 0:13:37.960 --> 0:13:40.480 as if like I've been in like Target or like 0:13:40.559 --> 0:13:43.160 walking down the street or like walking my dogs and 0:13:43.160 --> 0:13:45.400 people like call me names. They're like, oh my god, 0:13:45.440 --> 0:13:47.280 it's Charlie and like all this stuff, and like I 0:13:47.320 --> 0:13:49.959 don't know how to react to it when it's in person. 0:13:51.000 --> 0:13:55.160 Wine I can, definitely I can. I can sometimes handle it, 0:13:55.200 --> 0:13:59.600 but it's also like I've had it's been harder and 0:13:59.640 --> 0:14:01.400 like a lot more work than a lot of people 0:14:01.440 --> 0:14:04.520 I guess would see. Where it's like I post now, 0:14:04.559 --> 0:14:08.120 I post like vlogs, and I post like dancing videos 0:14:08.160 --> 0:14:10.040 as well, and I post fashion videos and I post 0:14:10.040 --> 0:14:13.400 cooking videos just so people can see like how I 0:14:13.440 --> 0:14:16.880 actually am on camera. I wish it was like a 0:14:16.880 --> 0:14:19.840 FaceTime call with every single follower of mine that like 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:22.440 I could talk to them because that's how I've always 0:14:22.520 --> 0:14:25.000 been in person. I'm like way more of a talk 0:14:25.160 --> 0:14:27.640 in person, just like you said, like I'm not a snapchatter, 0:14:27.760 --> 0:14:30.840 Like we like to call and talk with people, and 0:14:30.880 --> 0:14:33.920 I feel like my personality is so much more than 0:14:34.320 --> 0:14:37.520 I mean, anyone's looks. But it's it was just interesting 0:14:37.560 --> 0:14:40.680 how it got off that way, and like in person too, 0:14:40.840 --> 0:14:44.160 like that. Yeah, I get people do things online because 0:14:44.160 --> 0:14:46.880 they're behind a screen, but like the fact that they 0:14:46.880 --> 0:14:49.880 did that in person is that people are balls. The 0:14:50.040 --> 0:14:52.720 I I could never like, I could never I know, 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:55.960 I want to go in their minds. It's rough, like 0:14:56.120 --> 0:14:58.920 what makes them think that, Like the psychology behind that 0:14:59.360 --> 0:15:02.000 or is there like rainbow and like sunshine and we 0:15:02.120 --> 0:15:07.120 go and there's something cleaning hate coming out somehow on 0:15:07.320 --> 0:15:11.520 my YouTube. The fact that paparazzi are coming to you 0:15:12.480 --> 0:15:17.680 as a teenage girl, like grown men, grown men asking 0:15:17.760 --> 0:15:24.480 you questions about petty TikTok drama. Yeah, that's odd. Yeah, 0:15:24.560 --> 0:15:27.160 I feel like that's like the difference between I guess 0:15:27.160 --> 0:15:30.200 like New York and like l A, where that's like 0:15:30.360 --> 0:15:34.320 very normal. Here, it's just a difference between different I 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:39.760 guess paparazzi experiences would be it's like an astronomical difference, 0:15:39.800 --> 0:15:41.880 like Hollywood Fix and like Fletcher, I don't know if 0:15:41.880 --> 0:15:44.240 you've heard of him, um, but he's like he's like 0:15:44.280 --> 0:15:48.040 gotten very respectful and asks me questions other like I 0:15:48.120 --> 0:15:50.760 was on the sidewalk with my brother and he was 0:15:50.800 --> 0:15:53.160 actually he was like doing like suffilon or something. There 0:15:53.240 --> 0:15:55.000 was like I don't know, it was the whole thing, 0:15:55.400 --> 0:15:57.560 and he like comes up to me and he was like, oh, 0:15:57.720 --> 0:15:59.800 is this a coult? Like are you joining a coal? 0:16:00.040 --> 0:16:01.600 And then I was like I don't know how to 0:16:01.640 --> 0:16:03.840 ad like I didn't know how to answer. That's like 0:16:04.200 --> 0:16:08.160 so like are you always copying people? I'm like, who, 0:16:08.280 --> 0:16:12.000 like nice to meet you? Like him out like great, 0:16:12.000 --> 0:16:15.520 happy Sunday, Like what are you doing? Also, you're a 0:16:15.520 --> 0:16:18.960 grown ass man, you're a six girl? What are you doing? 0:16:19.000 --> 0:16:22.800 Like I'm sixteen? Like okay, calm down, please, thank you 0:16:22.920 --> 0:16:25.840 very much. Like I don't know how we'd handle myself 0:16:25.920 --> 0:16:29.240 in that type of situation. That's overwhelming. Just like I said, 0:16:29.280 --> 0:16:31.760 like the in person things are really hard like that, 0:16:32.000 --> 0:16:34.960 like like it like stumps you like full on you 0:16:34.960 --> 0:16:37.200 can be like you're on camera and then it goes 0:16:37.240 --> 0:16:40.400 on YouTube, I know, and then like let's say you're quiet, 0:16:40.440 --> 0:16:42.840 Like I know, I've watched Hollywood fixed videos where like 0:16:42.880 --> 0:16:44.960 people are quiet and they just like walk by and 0:16:45.000 --> 0:16:47.040 don't answer, and then all the comments are like, oh 0:16:47.040 --> 0:16:50.880 my god, she's so rude or it's so hard. It's 0:16:50.920 --> 0:16:54.080 so it's like I can never win. So hard I know, 0:16:54.160 --> 0:16:57.640 you can never win. You can never win. I remember 0:16:57.680 --> 0:17:00.880 that one Sunday we were walking like and like it's 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:03.320 like the guy like completely ruined my day. Like it 0:17:03.480 --> 0:17:05.640 just like really hurt my feelings to like here because 0:17:05.640 --> 0:17:07.880 I feel like I've come so far from the beginning 0:17:07.880 --> 0:17:10.679 and like my reputation and everything like that, and like 0:17:10.760 --> 0:17:12.960 here it be brought up again and here I am. 0:17:13.040 --> 0:17:15.080 He was like walking backwards and like I was like, 0:17:15.119 --> 0:17:17.000 oh my god, you're about to trip and like being 0:17:17.040 --> 0:17:19.560 like so nice, and then he walks away and I 0:17:19.600 --> 0:17:22.000 was like wow, like is that really what people think 0:17:22.000 --> 0:17:24.399 of me? Still? And then I was like, why is 0:17:24.400 --> 0:17:28.000 he like thirty years old follows me? Like, but I 0:17:28.040 --> 0:17:31.760 think that's more telling on their part that it's Yeah, honestly, 0:17:32.080 --> 0:17:39.080 kudos to you for just handling yourself against all of that. Okay, 0:17:39.359 --> 0:17:41.920 enough about the crazy paparazzi. We have to take a 0:17:42.000 --> 0:17:43.960 quick break. But when we come back, I want to 0:17:43.960 --> 0:17:46.879 talk to you about how you balance social media with school, 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:50.200 our mutual love a fashion and design. You might throw 0:17:50.240 --> 0:17:53.160 in a little Harry Styles talk and much more. We'll 0:17:53.200 --> 0:17:59.960 be right back and we're back. I found it's hard 0:18:00.000 --> 0:18:02.480 to find a balance between everything going on in the world, 0:18:02.800 --> 0:18:06.520 be work and also school. I mean, we're students. How 0:18:06.560 --> 0:18:09.280 have you been doing with that? Um? I have a 0:18:09.400 --> 0:18:12.960 very i'd say, like strict schedule where it's like wake up, 0:18:13.600 --> 0:18:17.400 do school, finish like a good amount, like a lot 0:18:17.440 --> 0:18:19.959 of my classes, and then do work and then at 0:18:20.080 --> 0:18:22.360 night if I have anything more to do that and 0:18:22.400 --> 0:18:26.040 like keep up with it. But last year, like the 0:18:26.280 --> 0:18:30.680 ending of last year was rough, Like I got so behind, 0:18:31.000 --> 0:18:35.479 and like obviously it's just hard because who wouldn't like 0:18:35.560 --> 0:18:38.439 when someone when my mom, because my mom usually reminds 0:18:38.480 --> 0:18:40.119 me and like it's literally right here, like she like 0:18:40.200 --> 0:18:43.000 makes lists of everything that I have to do during 0:18:43.040 --> 0:18:45.000 the day. When I like see that on the counter, 0:18:45.119 --> 0:18:48.399 and it's like make two tiktoks, make an Instagram picture, 0:18:48.440 --> 0:18:50.359 Like of course I want to do that instead of 0:18:50.359 --> 0:18:53.679 writing an English essay of course, but like that's really 0:18:53.760 --> 0:18:56.119 I mean, the only reason that I can get to 0:18:56.160 --> 0:18:57.719 go to New York is because I want to go 0:18:57.760 --> 0:18:59.480 to n y U and I want to go to 0:18:59.560 --> 0:19:03.600 college all these different things. But it's like it's a struggle, 0:19:03.800 --> 0:19:06.199 and I feel like not a lot of tick talkers 0:19:06.320 --> 0:19:08.960 or people in social media. I have to do it 0:19:09.000 --> 0:19:12.720 because it seems like everyone is just doing this one thing, 0:19:13.200 --> 0:19:16.719 whereas there's quite there's like a little group that like 0:19:16.880 --> 0:19:19.760 I can tell they're like going to college or doing 0:19:19.840 --> 0:19:23.359 like high school and this What about you? Though? What what? 0:19:23.359 --> 0:19:25.919 What's your schedule? You know what I mean? For that? 0:19:26.119 --> 0:19:29.560 So with COVID, I would have if code wasn't a thing, 0:19:29.600 --> 0:19:32.840 I'd be going to classes five days a week. UM. 0:19:32.880 --> 0:19:36.520 So now classes are only three days a week for me. Um, 0:19:36.560 --> 0:19:40.919 I'm taking five or six courses and I have my 0:19:40.920 --> 0:19:43.200 school day. I have my classes. It's with other people 0:19:43.320 --> 0:19:47.399 just virtually um, and then I do the work. I 0:19:47.520 --> 0:19:50.199 try and get dead I do in between classes. I 0:19:50.240 --> 0:19:52.960 try and get work done in some classes if it's 0:19:53.000 --> 0:19:56.399 like you know, drama or something, Oh, maybe do a 0:19:56.440 --> 0:20:01.320 little a multitask a little bit ya off a yeah, 0:20:01.320 --> 0:20:03.159 like maybe doing some extra work. But I think the 0:20:03.200 --> 0:20:05.640 hardest thing for me is, you know, I'll be doing 0:20:05.680 --> 0:20:08.320 my statistics homework and then I'll get a phone call 0:20:08.400 --> 0:20:11.159 being like, okay, we need this approval for x y z. 0:20:11.320 --> 0:20:13.520 We need you to create x y z, and it's 0:20:13.520 --> 0:20:14.840 like I do that, but then I have to go 0:20:14.880 --> 0:20:17.880 back in statistics mode. So it's like this weird thing 0:20:18.080 --> 0:20:21.160 that's like so hard to go back and forth between 0:20:21.200 --> 0:20:22.919 this creative side of things that I want to do 0:20:22.960 --> 0:20:25.679 and things that you know, it's I'm glad I'm doing it, 0:20:25.720 --> 0:20:27.480 but it's just like hard to go back and forth. 0:20:28.160 --> 0:20:32.119 So true, it's so hard with like the different minds 0:20:32.160 --> 0:20:35.840 and like even like I've seen with like binging TikTok 0:20:35.960 --> 0:20:39.439 this whole quarantine. Like my attention span is so short. 0:20:39.920 --> 0:20:42.960 It's like rough, Like how like I can be watching 0:20:43.119 --> 0:20:45.679 TV and be like looking at my phone. Like it's like, 0:20:45.800 --> 0:20:48.760 so it's so bad, but you're so right. Well, like 0:20:48.800 --> 0:20:50.639 I'll be in the middle of a quiz and like 0:20:50.680 --> 0:20:52.960