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Speaker 1: What's up. It is lip service that I'm Angela Ye,

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Speaker 1: I'm Stephanie Santiago.

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Speaker 2: I'm Jazz and the Brands, I'm Laura Mora, and I'm

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Speaker 2: Keanu La Day, Keanna La Day.

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Speaker 1: I like your eyebrows, Thank you so much.

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Speaker 3: I take prid in my eyebrows.

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Speaker 1: It looks really good.

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Speaker 4: Thank you.

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Speaker 1: That's the look now too, because I feel like it's a.

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Speaker 4: I did minds fluffy today to.

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Speaker 5: Hers are Stephanie's are a little but not all the

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Speaker 5: way hers a little.

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Speaker 1: Up and then yeah, through a lot of phases, remember

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Speaker 1: when really thin narrows.

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Speaker 3: Yes, that was not my era. That wasn't for me.

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Speaker 1: You are their eyebrows on.

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Speaker 4: I'm like my mom.

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Speaker 5: My mom had really thin. Now they're feeling a little bit,

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Speaker 5: but her eye are thin.

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Speaker 3: In Miami, they used to call it the chunga eyebrows

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Speaker 3: A tongua.

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Speaker 4: What does tongue mean?

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Speaker 5: It's like a little something offensive, a bit offensive.

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Speaker 1: Sorry I said it then, Kiana La Day, this is

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Speaker 1: your first time up here, so a toast to you. Cheers.

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Speaker 3: I don't drink water. Cheers.

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Speaker 1: You've never drank never in my life. I'm sorry.

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Speaker 3: My parents gave me one sip of non alcoholic beer

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Speaker 3: and non alcoholic wine when I was like twelve, and

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Speaker 3: I was like, this shit is disgusting, never tasting it again,

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Speaker 3: and you meant it, I really meant it. Also, just

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Speaker 3: like trauma when it comes to like alcoholism and shit. Okay,

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Speaker 3: I was just like, I've seen what all the shit does, right,

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Speaker 3: I'm good, understandable. What about smoking or anything? Nothing, just mushrooms.

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Speaker 1: Okay, that's enough. You just microdosed for the first time,

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Speaker 1: Jasmine a second time, both times with me.

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Speaker 5: Anything. Do you smoke weed occasionally?

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Speaker 1: Okay?

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Speaker 4: So not a lot?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, not a lot? Okay, not a lot.

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Speaker 3: I feel like I've well, Christine she smokes a lot

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Speaker 3: of weed, and I always call her out my interviews.

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Speaker 3: It's so funny. No one even knows she's there. I'm like, Christine,

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Speaker 3: she smokes, Yeah, she smokes a lot, so she never

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Speaker 3: feels it. Is that.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So that's the thing because I don't really smoke,

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Speaker 1: and I did it too, and I mean I've done

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Speaker 1: shrooms plenty.

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Speaker 5: Of The thing is I think for me, if I

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Speaker 5: would have, we did like half of a like kind

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Speaker 5: of like a gummy and then we did other half.

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Speaker 5: I think if I did it together, like then I

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Speaker 5: probably would have felt it.

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Speaker 1: Right, we're being cautious. It was a microdose of a

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Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, I think you could also. I feel like

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Speaker 3: the sugar might.

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Speaker 1: Like cancel it out because it was a gummy.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, because when I went to they were saying, like,

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Speaker 3: as soon as you eat something sugary, like if you're

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Speaker 3: having a bad trip, drink juice, because as soon as

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Speaker 4: Okay, So what do you think is the best form

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Speaker 4: of mushrooms, like the chocolate or just the regular straight

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Speaker 3: Like the first time I did it, it was tea,

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Speaker 3: which I really loved because it hits you like kind

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Speaker 3: I loved that. I feel like also my body was

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Speaker 3: really sententive to it because I had never done nothing.

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Speaker 3: But then I like just eating it too.

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Speaker 1: I like, I like eating it. They taste a little fun.

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Speaker 3: They do you like mushrooms? I do.

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Speaker 1: I've been doing them. And when people acted like there

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Speaker 3: Before it was cool.

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Speaker 5: She was doing it before, it was cool.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, when people were acting like, oh my god, this

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Speaker 2: We are, I'm ready to try it. I tried it

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Speaker 2: with in Miami. It was a little I was nervous.

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Speaker 2: I think she gave me a micro yeah.

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Speaker 1: And I think anything you try, like try a little

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Speaker 5: Yeah, And that's what that's my biggest fear. I'm like,

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Speaker 4: But I feel like mushrooms does not.

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Speaker 5: What you're right.

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Speaker 1: It made me cry when same time.

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Speaker 3: Was it therapeutic or was it like you were scared?

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Speaker 1: No, I was laughing so hard.

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Speaker 3: I was.

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Speaker 2: Because they say, whatever emotions you feel in at that

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Speaker 4: That's like lsc But like mushrooms just makes you see

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Speaker 4: like purple lights and stuff.

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Speaker 3: Do you ever write, perform, or record while you're Oh

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Speaker 3: my god, I actually have the best story for that.

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Speaker 3: So there's a song at the very end of my

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Speaker 3: it's very like mystical and like hopeful. And it was

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Speaker 3: So we were high as fuck watching the dolphin swimming

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Speaker 3: was so beautiful. And then right after that, I went

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Speaker 3: to the studio and saying the songs magical. Oh my god,

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Speaker 1: Have you ever had sex sunchrooms?

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Speaker 3: You know what's funny. Every time I've tried to do that,

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Speaker 3: I fall asleep. But yeah, because I'm like in bed

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Speaker 3: and then if I'm really high, I just start like meditating.

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Speaker 1: Man, he's like, yes, he's about to go down.

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Speaker 3: I know, right, I'll be Sad'd be really sad.

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Speaker 1: Well, let's talk about the new album that you have out.

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Speaker 1: And now that's how you post. Sometimes you got to

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Speaker 1: face yourself. And then this album you are taking some accountability.

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Speaker 1: I mean we got it right before this started, but

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Speaker 1: bitter bitch, Okay, that's accountability right there.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean I.

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Speaker 3: Else, you know. I just like I really wanted to

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Speaker 3: I really wanted to just say, like you, I don't

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Speaker 3: give a fuck about you. I give a fuck about

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Speaker 3: And I went to brunch with my ex oh after

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Speaker 1: You know, I think it's very telling when you're with somebody,

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Speaker 1: if you feel like you're not acting like yourself, that

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Speaker 1: when you're like, why am I a bitter bitch right now?

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Speaker 1: I've had has everybody here had an experience where they

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Speaker 1: You're like, this is not even me? Why am I

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Speaker 5: I feel like I don't know if it's not me,

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Speaker 5: But it's like I feel like sometimes people or we

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Speaker 3: Right, I've never been through nobody's phone. Good for you,

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Speaker 3: I have never told me to do it. Did you

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Speaker 3: find something for me? It's like, as soon as I'm

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Speaker 3: going through your phone, I don't I already don't trust you. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I haven't done that in so long, but I definitely

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Speaker 5: That when you can take your time, look at me email,

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Speaker 2: What happened?

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Speaker 1: Then I just started forwarding him.

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Speaker 5: His own and then what did he say?

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Speaker 1: I mean, what could he say? You know, first people

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Speaker 5: It is, definitely.

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Speaker 1: But that's why I say, if you do that, because

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Speaker 1: we already I think we're on the brink of about

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Speaker 1: he was in He did a lot of dumb ship,

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Speaker 1: to to Gmail. It was just open and so he

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Speaker 5: Look, but he stayed with more signs do you need right?

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Speaker 1: Like, do you need me to put the girl here?

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Speaker 3: I never I've never been through a guy phone.

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Speaker 2: But when I was dating, when I was living in Toronto,

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Speaker 2: and he was planning like, well, he played basketball, so

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Speaker 3: Two weeks off before right out. After all, start.

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Speaker 1: Know what sidekick is?

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Speaker 4: Almost every time I got caught cheating was through my phone.

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Speaker 4: He's like, I'm not a cheater anymore.

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Speaker 1: So is this the same person like from fair Play

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Speaker 1: Yes, okay, this is fair Play?

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Speaker 1: Now? And this album is that the same person from

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Speaker 1: Okay, another bad ex?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah exactly, And like I feel like they can

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Speaker 1: Right, Yeah, it's hard to get it back too. Now,

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Speaker 3: I don't know, man, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I have, Uh my best friend that passed away in August,

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Speaker 1: And you I remember you put out that project that unfinished.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's amazing.

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Speaker 1: So you have him tattoo? Yeah, Strawberry Shortcake.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's my mom's favorite character.

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Speaker 1: You want to hear something so funny. I was talking

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Speaker 4: Outside the real sour greep.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I was so sad in my little Sour Grapes costume.

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Speaker 1: If you were in character, I just want to say,

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Speaker 5: I knew, but I didn't know who.

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Speaker 3: You neither. Yeah, my mom gave me a lunch box

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Speaker 3: and it was like a vintage lunchbox. My mom grew

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Speaker 3: it every single fucking time. So she was like, don't

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Speaker 1: Not gonna who's gonna steal your lunch?

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Speaker 5: I mean it sounds like it was a nice lunch box.

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Speaker 3: It was very cute. So I told her, now, since

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Speaker 1: And what's her name be?

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Speaker 4: Cower? Just remember, honey, Yeah, I want I'm interested.

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Speaker 1: I love how meaningful everything is that you have. Like

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Speaker 1: I don't have any tattoos because I don't I don't

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Speaker 3: But to me, it's like it's a story either. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: and you can make up ship.

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Speaker 1: After like, yeah, that's what I do.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: How many tatoes do you have?

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Speaker 4: I don't even know. I have a bunch. But like,

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Speaker 3: Now remberes or something.

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Speaker 4: Well, I got the big one on my stomach to

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Speaker 3: Well, is it.

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Speaker 4: It's earlier. I have flowers on my beautiful all on

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Speaker 5: Why is gorilla?

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Speaker 3: Well, change the reason.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, the first tattoo that was there was my ex

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Speaker 1: Definitely.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: I had to cover it, so I had to pick

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Speaker 3: I like that. I feel like as soon as you

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Speaker 4: If she makes plans, they make plans for other movements.

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Speaker 5: Also, if I want to get over somebody, I should

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Speaker 1: I need to definitely get I think you I would

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Speaker 4: But I didn't feel any of my tats for like,

445
00:19:47,720 --> 00:19:49,920
Speaker 4: the only tattoo that hurt was the first one. I

446
00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:52,439
Speaker 4: have a tramp stamp that I don't even look at.

447
00:19:53,040 --> 00:19:56,879
Speaker 5: You can't ye, So I don't care about it.

448
00:19:57,280 --> 00:19:59,399
Speaker 4: But that's the only one that hurt. But all the

449
00:19:59,480 --> 00:20:01,600
Speaker 4: rest of them, like I took a bunch of percocet,

450
00:20:02,119 --> 00:20:06,679
Speaker 4: so I didn't feel like I didn't feel with one

451
00:20:06,720 --> 00:20:08,560
Speaker 4: on my ribs, I didn't feel the one in my stomach.

452
00:20:08,760 --> 00:20:11,680
Speaker 4: I didn't feel not even after no and I was

453
00:20:11,760 --> 00:20:13,640
Speaker 4: on ecstasy when I did this one on my finger.

454
00:20:15,520 --> 00:20:17,679
Speaker 4: I was, I don't know. We were like laughing.

455
00:20:17,920 --> 00:20:18,720
Speaker 1: Maybe it felt good.

456
00:20:18,800 --> 00:20:21,399
Speaker 2: What is that your only I have seven of them,

457
00:20:21,440 --> 00:20:23,359
Speaker 2: but you really can see them, like I have a rosary.

458
00:20:23,359 --> 00:20:25,919
Speaker 2: All of them are butterfly themed, but more because butterfly

459
00:20:26,040 --> 00:20:26,200
Speaker 2: to me.

460
00:20:26,560 --> 00:20:27,560
Speaker 4: But you did one on your foot.

461
00:20:28,040 --> 00:20:29,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, I have to hear yo.

462
00:20:30,200 --> 00:20:33,680
Speaker 2: Three people left the the guy was so Ian. People

463
00:20:33,720 --> 00:20:37,080
Speaker 2: who get people the office? That mean three people left

464
00:20:37,440 --> 00:20:39,240
Speaker 2: hearing me scream like that was the worst one.

465
00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:40,840
Speaker 1: They're like, I'm not going to hear.

466
00:20:42,440 --> 00:20:43,960
Speaker 3: I have the one in the back of my neck,

467
00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:45,119
Speaker 3: and then I have William here.

468
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:47,480
Speaker 2: But I didn't want to put William's name because he's

469
00:20:47,560 --> 00:20:50,840
Speaker 2: named after his father, my son's name, so I put

470
00:20:50,920 --> 00:20:53,600
Speaker 2: his nickname. Oh okay, but the one on your neck

471
00:20:53,640 --> 00:20:56,280
Speaker 2: didn't hurt too bad, right, Yeah, that one wasn't bad.

472
00:20:56,359 --> 00:20:57,360
Speaker 3: The one in the back of the neck.

473
00:20:57,440 --> 00:20:59,280
Speaker 4: Wasn't bad. I have one here on the side of

474
00:20:59,359 --> 00:21:01,720
Speaker 4: my head. It was just weird, like to have the

475
00:21:01,800 --> 00:21:03,000
Speaker 4: buzzing in my head like this.

476
00:21:03,480 --> 00:21:06,520
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, yeah, that's one of my sideburns. Tickled and

477
00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:09,960
Speaker 3: it was my third test ever. It's a lotus, okay,

478
00:21:10,040 --> 00:21:14,119
Speaker 3: I thought. And he was yelling at me because he

479
00:21:14,240 --> 00:21:15,879
Speaker 3: was like, I was on your fucking face.

480
00:21:16,320 --> 00:21:17,000
Speaker 4: He was so mad.

481
00:21:17,080 --> 00:21:20,680
Speaker 3: He was like, stop sucking laughing and he was done

482
00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:23,359
Speaker 3: with me. But it was it was so tickled. Is

483
00:21:24,480 --> 00:21:28,200
Speaker 3: the one. I think the foot one is the worst

484
00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:30,920
Speaker 3: I've heard. Oh my god, I have an angle.

485
00:21:31,119 --> 00:21:35,440
Speaker 4: Yeah wrap, No, I need people who get tattoos all

486
00:21:35,480 --> 00:21:38,560
Speaker 4: over their body and the leg and the foot their

487
00:21:39,560 --> 00:21:40,359
Speaker 4: rying man.

488
00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:43,119
Speaker 5: I ever use like dumbing cream and then no what

489
00:21:43,280 --> 00:21:49,600
Speaker 5: I'm not a spray if I give I have a

490
00:21:49,680 --> 00:21:52,560
Speaker 5: really small tattoo. It was too painful, so I didn't

491
00:21:52,560 --> 00:21:52,960
Speaker 5: finish it.

492
00:21:53,480 --> 00:21:54,000
Speaker 3: Where was it.

493
00:21:54,240 --> 00:21:56,480
Speaker 5: It's a tiny stars.

494
00:21:56,640 --> 00:21:58,840
Speaker 4: Telling you take purpose, you don't feel anything.

495
00:21:58,960 --> 00:21:59,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, I just couldn't finish it.

496
00:22:00,280 --> 00:22:01,359
Speaker 1: It's just the tiny stuff.

497
00:22:01,400 --> 00:22:02,960
Speaker 3: You have to get another one with rain.

498
00:22:03,280 --> 00:22:05,200
Speaker 5: Okay, don't have a C section. So I was thinking

499
00:22:05,200 --> 00:22:06,359
Speaker 5: about getting something cut.

500
00:22:06,320 --> 00:22:09,480
Speaker 4: Like yeah, do it. It's nice. That's something like a

501
00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:12,399
Speaker 4: nice flower and take purpose. You'll never feel with that

502
00:22:12,800 --> 00:22:13,119
Speaker 4: what I I.

503
00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:14,639
Speaker 1: Do You have lazer hair removal?

504
00:22:15,000 --> 00:22:15,240
Speaker 3: Yeah?

505
00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:16,400
Speaker 1: Was that painful?

506
00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:20,600
Speaker 3: I would say I like the feeling of tattoos more

507
00:22:20,640 --> 00:22:23,160
Speaker 3: than I like the feeling of laser hair removal.

508
00:22:23,240 --> 00:22:23,600
Speaker 1: For sure.

509
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:27,639
Speaker 3: It's like rare. I I really I think it's hit

510
00:22:27,720 --> 00:22:29,640
Speaker 3: or miss for me when it comes to the pain

511
00:22:29,960 --> 00:22:32,200
Speaker 3: of blazer hair removal. Sometimes they say when you're on

512
00:22:32,280 --> 00:22:35,400
Speaker 3: your period, don't yeah, And I think I pretty much

513
00:22:35,440 --> 00:22:35,639
Speaker 3: do it.

514
00:22:35,640 --> 00:22:37,679
Speaker 1: On my period the other time because I was going

515
00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:39,480
Speaker 1: to say with the numbing cream, that's a good idea.

516
00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:42,720
Speaker 5: So I got my under arms lasered and that it

517
00:22:42,800 --> 00:22:43,160
Speaker 5: was okay.

518
00:22:43,320 --> 00:22:45,080
Speaker 3: The under arms aren't that bad. It's when they go

519
00:22:45,240 --> 00:22:48,240
Speaker 3: on the inner lip of your pussy word.

520
00:22:48,359 --> 00:22:49,400
Speaker 5: But I get waxes.

521
00:22:49,760 --> 00:22:52,359
Speaker 1: So the only time, yeah, I have lazer hair.

522
00:22:54,200 --> 00:22:56,080
Speaker 5: The only time that really hurt was when I was pregnant.

523
00:22:56,119 --> 00:23:00,720
Speaker 5: It feltxes don't hurt, so it's bearable. It's bearable. It's not.

524
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:02,480
Speaker 5: It's like, okay, I mean the.

525
00:23:02,680 --> 00:23:06,280
Speaker 3: Ingrown hairs from that, Yeah, I just I got way more.

526
00:23:07,160 --> 00:23:09,600
Speaker 1: I think laser hair was amazing because there's no more ingrown.

527
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:13,520
Speaker 1: It definitely hurts. I think the first few sessions hurt

528
00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:16,440
Speaker 1: the most, and then as you progress and there's less

529
00:23:16,480 --> 00:23:18,040
Speaker 1: and less hair, it doesn't hurt so bad.

530
00:23:18,240 --> 00:23:20,719
Speaker 5: So do you are you? Is it a little patchy

531
00:23:20,840 --> 00:23:22,880
Speaker 5: when it grows? Like how long do you have before?

532
00:23:22,920 --> 00:23:23,919
Speaker 1: It's like grand hairs?

533
00:23:24,359 --> 00:23:27,600
Speaker 5: But no, but some under arms are it's random now yeah.

534
00:23:27,480 --> 00:23:29,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, but then it's done and then you can get

535
00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:31,399
Speaker 1: it like touched up every now and then.

536
00:23:31,480 --> 00:23:31,680
Speaker 4: Yeah.

537
00:23:31,960 --> 00:23:34,399
Speaker 3: This is also it's like when you wax, you have

538
00:23:34,600 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 3: to keep going back with laser. It's like less and

539
00:23:37,119 --> 00:23:38,879
Speaker 3: less every test is the problem with laser though.

540
00:23:39,119 --> 00:23:40,960
Speaker 5: Every time I think about getting done, they're like, okay,

541
00:23:41,000 --> 00:23:42,600
Speaker 5: well you can't have you have to you know, you

542
00:23:42,680 --> 00:23:45,160
Speaker 5: can't have gotten waxed the last in the last few weeks.

543
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:47,359
Speaker 1: Shave the bush.

544
00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:48,199
Speaker 3: That's so annoying.

545
00:23:48,200 --> 00:23:49,960
Speaker 5: That's kind of hard when you let your hair grow

546
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,680
Speaker 5: on your legs. It's a spring, it's the summer, so

547
00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:57,200
Speaker 5: I've been shaving my legs. I don't shave my legs

548
00:23:57,240 --> 00:23:58,800
Speaker 5: properly when it's cold out at all.

549
00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:00,000
Speaker 1: What's proper?

550
00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:02,720
Speaker 3: Really? Do you get hard hair? I don't really get

551
00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:03,120
Speaker 3: hard hair.

552
00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:04,080
Speaker 1: Soft hairs.

553
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:05,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's just like you do.

554
00:24:06,200 --> 00:24:07,920
Speaker 4: And it's just like I shave my legs every time,

555
00:24:08,840 --> 00:24:10,840
Speaker 4: shave every.

556
00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:12,680
Speaker 1: Time I do, every time I say I will not.

557
00:24:13,480 --> 00:24:16,000
Speaker 5: I would not leave any hair down here at all.

558
00:24:16,040 --> 00:24:17,800
Speaker 5: I don't play that but my legs legs.

559
00:24:17,920 --> 00:24:20,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, I told her that's like very misleading, misleading to

560
00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:25,200
Speaker 1: people advertising. All right, now let's get into some of

561
00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,119
Speaker 1: the music, all right, because you have the song with

562
00:24:27,280 --> 00:24:30,040
Speaker 1: LM A Jealous. We had a whole conversation with this

563
00:24:30,240 --> 00:24:33,760
Speaker 1: at work with with Ma No. All right, so we

564
00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:36,080
Speaker 1: were talking about because you said that it's okay you

565
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:39,160
Speaker 1: could be with a guy and he's seeing other women,

566
00:24:39,240 --> 00:24:41,239
Speaker 1: but you are going to be jealous of course, right,

567
00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:44,920
Speaker 1: even though you can pretend I'm okay with us not

568
00:24:45,080 --> 00:24:47,560
Speaker 1: being committed, but truthfully, I don't want you to be

569
00:24:47,640 --> 00:24:50,360
Speaker 1: with other women. And so is this a real life

570
00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:50,920
Speaker 1: story for you?

571
00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:53,480
Speaker 3: I just want my person to be obsessed with me,

572
00:24:54,080 --> 00:24:56,560
Speaker 3: same like I don't. I just want to be like

573
00:24:57,080 --> 00:25:00,840
Speaker 3: number one. You don't see nobody else one, no, number two,

574
00:25:01,160 --> 00:25:03,400
Speaker 3: yeah exactly, because I am number one. So like it's

575
00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 3: like it should be very simple, but I think, like

576
00:25:08,720 --> 00:25:12,560
Speaker 3: I don't get jealous. It's really hard for me to

577
00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:14,399
Speaker 3: get jealous. The only thing.

578
00:25:15,880 --> 00:25:16,680
Speaker 5: I love the song.

579
00:25:16,960 --> 00:25:20,280
Speaker 3: That's why I love the song because it's like, okay, cool, Like,

580
00:25:20,760 --> 00:25:22,680
Speaker 3: so I found out I have a very anxious, avoidant

581
00:25:22,680 --> 00:25:25,920
Speaker 3: attachment style. So I'm like, okay, I should be number one,

582
00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:28,040
Speaker 3: but like, also, you couldn't do what you're gonna do

583
00:25:28,040 --> 00:25:29,879
Speaker 3: Because'm probably gonna do what I'm gonna do. But like

584
00:25:30,680 --> 00:25:34,480
Speaker 3: we're here, you know, And so with that song, I

585
00:25:34,600 --> 00:25:36,840
Speaker 3: love that. It's like this internal conversation in my head.

586
00:25:37,200 --> 00:25:40,600
Speaker 3: The only thing that I get jealous over is Instagram.

587
00:25:41,920 --> 00:25:44,240
Speaker 1: Okay, that's so interesting, but I know it's the only thing.

588
00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:48,520
Speaker 3: So okay, I only get jealous when the person that

589
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:52,920
Speaker 3: I'm seeing or talking to is liking other bitch just

590
00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:59,520
Speaker 3: pictures that bothers me so much because because you want attention,

591
00:26:00,240 --> 00:26:02,960
Speaker 3: So like, I don't care. I don't care if you're

592
00:26:03,200 --> 00:26:05,720
Speaker 3: like already following people and you're just like looking at

593
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:07,920
Speaker 3: their ship. We all are attracted to other people as normal,

594
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:11,359
Speaker 3: cool science whatever. So if you're like looking at other shit, cool,

595
00:26:11,600 --> 00:26:14,920
Speaker 3: I get it. Look, her ass is really nice, she's beautiful. Cool.

596
00:26:15,119 --> 00:26:19,040
Speaker 3: Keep scrolling because you really think Emily Rodakowski is like

597
00:26:19,160 --> 00:26:22,240
Speaker 3: looking for your think Harvey is looking for your fucking life.

598
00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:24,880
Speaker 3: Don't know, why are you even going out of your way,

599
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:26,320
Speaker 3: you know, because you.

600
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:28,040
Speaker 5: Feel like you want you want them to see that

601
00:26:28,160 --> 00:26:29,800
Speaker 5: you liked their pictures exactly.

602
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:33,480
Speaker 1: Okay, that's so funny. My ex used to like, I

603
00:26:33,520 --> 00:26:36,000
Speaker 1: would say he liked pictures, but he was like, I

604
00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 1: just go and I just like everything, Like I scrolled

605
00:26:38,320 --> 00:26:40,600
Speaker 1: down my timeline and just like everybody.

606
00:26:41,280 --> 00:26:42,280
Speaker 5: A guy told me that too.

607
00:26:43,119 --> 00:26:45,960
Speaker 3: Hmm, that's just the excuse. Also for me, it's like,

608
00:26:46,400 --> 00:26:50,439
Speaker 3: if you're liking someone like I don't know, like Georgia, right,

609
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:53,200
Speaker 3: Georgia's fucking gorgeous. Everyone Georgia Smith.

610
00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:54,280
Speaker 1: Everybody knows she's.

611
00:26:54,240 --> 00:26:57,920
Speaker 3: Fucking gorgeous, beautiful. If you're liking her photo, she's my peer,

612
00:26:58,280 --> 00:27:01,520
Speaker 3: you know, like I'm gonna see her right, She's gonna

613
00:27:01,520 --> 00:27:03,840
Speaker 3: be right next to me talking to me, and you're

614
00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:05,520
Speaker 3: gonna be right next to me. So now I know,

615
00:27:05,760 --> 00:27:07,359
Speaker 3: like you're attracted to her. That's weird.

616
00:27:07,720 --> 00:27:08,480
Speaker 2: It's weird.

617
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:13,000
Speaker 1: Does that mean I'm attracted to somebody? What if it's

618
00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,800
Speaker 1: a song and the song is dope, and what.

619
00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:20,120
Speaker 3: It's also the type of pictures too?

620
00:27:20,320 --> 00:27:22,720
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, okay, of fair enough, because what if it's

621
00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:26,480
Speaker 1: like somebody previewing some new music and their picture.

622
00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:27,480
Speaker 4: You're a fan.

623
00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:33,760
Speaker 1: As a person in this business, what happens if you

624
00:27:33,960 --> 00:27:36,960
Speaker 1: like guys pictures, but like other artists male male artists.

625
00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:39,600
Speaker 3: I mean, like, I'm not gonna go like a shirtless

626
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:43,600
Speaker 3: picture of male I honestly don't really be on Instagram

627
00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:46,600
Speaker 3: like that either, though, Like, okay, I'm not. I don't

628
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:49,400
Speaker 3: like to scroll. It makes me feel shitty. I don't

629
00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:51,640
Speaker 3: like scrolling on Twitter. The only reason I'm on Twitter

630
00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:54,800
Speaker 3: is to like see the updates or like see like

631
00:27:54,920 --> 00:27:57,600
Speaker 3: talk to my fans, you know. But I really don't

632
00:27:57,680 --> 00:27:59,360
Speaker 3: be on social media like that. It's just not good

633
00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:00,000
Speaker 3: for me mental.

634
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:03,560
Speaker 1: Health, fair enough, you know. I was just saying I'm

635
00:28:03,600 --> 00:28:06,040
Speaker 1: trying to post more on Instagram because I barely do it.

636
00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:08,240
Speaker 1: Like I look at stuff for work. I'm always like

637
00:28:08,359 --> 00:28:10,440
Speaker 1: being nosy to see what's going on so I can

638
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:13,200
Speaker 1: report on things and have the full story. But I

639
00:28:13,320 --> 00:28:16,680
Speaker 1: haven't been good at posting things, you know, myself, and

640
00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:19,680
Speaker 1: I know I need to same. I'm just trying to

641
00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:21,720
Speaker 1: get better at it, all right, So are you a

642
00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:25,000
Speaker 1: jealous person? Yes? Or no? Because I'm I'm not sure.

643
00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:27,359
Speaker 5: No, Instagram. I would say it sounds like it.

644
00:28:27,840 --> 00:28:31,960
Speaker 3: I would say no, I would say, I'm ninety six

645
00:28:32,080 --> 00:28:33,000
Speaker 3: percent not jealous.

646
00:28:33,600 --> 00:28:35,399
Speaker 1: So if you're with somebody, you would like to be

647
00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,840
Speaker 1: number one, but it's okay for them to have some

648
00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:41,720
Speaker 1: number two, three, four. If we're talking, if you're just talking, yeah,

649
00:28:41,960 --> 00:28:44,760
Speaker 1: do you want to know about it? Do you want

650
00:28:44,840 --> 00:28:47,120
Speaker 1: him to be honest like or if you call him

651
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:48,600
Speaker 1: and he doesn't answer, do you want him to be

652
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:50,200
Speaker 1: like I was a sleeperor do you want him be like, yeah,

653
00:28:50,200 --> 00:28:50,760
Speaker 1: I was on a date.

654
00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:53,280
Speaker 3: The thing is I wouldn't know because I'm always number one.

655
00:28:54,520 --> 00:28:55,560
Speaker 3: There is no two or three.

656
00:28:56,440 --> 00:29:01,000
Speaker 1: Okay, you're out of town. He doesn't answer, wet.

657
00:29:01,120 --> 00:29:03,880
Speaker 3: Okay, No, I'm not worried. I'm not really pressed like that.

658
00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:08,640
Speaker 5: Listen, but let that nigga like somebody's Instagram picture.

659
00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:13,240
Speaker 3: Then you're fucked. Yeah, then we're gonna have a conversation. Yes,

660
00:29:13,800 --> 00:29:16,160
Speaker 3: don't answer the phone, but don't like the picture exact.

661
00:29:16,200 --> 00:29:16,520
Speaker 3: How was it?

662
00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:17,280
Speaker 1: Recommend LMA?

663
00:29:17,720 --> 00:29:19,640
Speaker 3: It was great. That was my girl. I mean, she's

664
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:22,240
Speaker 3: always been so supportive with me since day one. I

665
00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:24,120
Speaker 3: think there was there was a time where we both

666
00:29:24,720 --> 00:29:27,040
Speaker 3: fair Play was on the radio, and boot Up was

667
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:29,680
Speaker 3: on the radio and boot Up one, you know, boot

668
00:29:29,760 --> 00:29:34,520
Speaker 3: Up did boom, and it was so dope because people

669
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:36,520
Speaker 3: were kind of comparing us at the same time at

670
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:38,880
Speaker 3: that time, because people had like curly hair with light skin,

671
00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:41,480
Speaker 3: just like it was stupid, but people were comparing us.

672
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:44,640
Speaker 3: And she kind of was just like fuck that and

673
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:47,120
Speaker 3: like posted my music on her story and was really

674
00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:49,840
Speaker 3: supportive and then took me on her tour. So I'm

675
00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:50,640
Speaker 3: really grateful for her.

676
00:29:50,720 --> 00:29:53,320
Speaker 1: She's still that's amazing. So people have embraced you like

677
00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:55,400
Speaker 1: other women because you've worked with a lot of other

678
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:56,680
Speaker 1: women artists.

679
00:29:56,920 --> 00:29:59,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think like the energy that you put out

680
00:29:59,280 --> 00:30:00,960
Speaker 3: is the energy that you're and I get. And I'm like,

681
00:30:01,440 --> 00:30:04,000
Speaker 3: I'm not a competitive person either. I compete with myself.

682
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:07,040
Speaker 3: So if that's the energy that I'm putting out, and

683
00:30:07,120 --> 00:30:09,960
Speaker 3: I'm just like really comfortable with myself and really comfortable

684
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:12,000
Speaker 3: with you, and I'm I'm down to like give you

685
00:30:12,080 --> 00:30:15,600
Speaker 3: your props and like give you your flowers. There's that

686
00:30:15,880 --> 00:30:17,320
Speaker 3: energy is just it's different.

687
00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 1: You know, Listen, it's amazing to me how you even

688
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,680
Speaker 1: came into this game and like starting off as young

689
00:30:22,760 --> 00:30:25,760
Speaker 1: as you did. Sometimes people will look at you as

690
00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:27,720
Speaker 1: a kid. I look at like Chloe and Bailey and

691
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:30,959
Speaker 1: the criticism that they get as they've grown up before us.

692
00:30:31,360 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 1: But I don't feel like that's happened to you. I

693
00:30:34,080 --> 00:30:36,800
Speaker 1: feel like you came in as a you know, young

694
00:30:37,160 --> 00:30:39,560
Speaker 1: but now people have allowed you the space to be

695
00:30:39,760 --> 00:30:40,239
Speaker 1: who you are.

696
00:30:40,480 --> 00:30:41,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, what do you think?

697
00:30:41,680 --> 00:30:45,480
Speaker 3: Yeah? I think I'm not. I'm also like very kept

698
00:30:45,520 --> 00:30:48,040
Speaker 3: to myself, Like I have a lot of friends that

699
00:30:48,280 --> 00:30:50,880
Speaker 3: aren't in the industry, and I really like to be

700
00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:54,000
Speaker 3: in my little space, in my little circle and with

701
00:30:54,120 --> 00:30:56,520
Speaker 3: people that I trust. So and I'm also like not

702
00:30:56,600 --> 00:30:58,360
Speaker 3: really on social media like that either, Like I don't

703
00:30:58,360 --> 00:31:00,560
Speaker 3: really be posting a lot of my personal shit. So

704
00:31:00,720 --> 00:31:04,440
Speaker 3: I think that's also where I kinda again, I put

705
00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:08,040
Speaker 3: that energy out there and people don't really give a fuck.

706
00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:10,320
Speaker 3: So I haven't really gotten a lot of criticism.

707
00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:12,120
Speaker 1: And you don't care because you won't see it anyway.

708
00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:14,440
Speaker 3: Exactly, I'm not scrolling by it.

709
00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:17,720
Speaker 1: And for your mom you talked about, you know, your

710
00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:20,240
Speaker 1: mom growing up in fastic care and having you, you

711
00:31:20,320 --> 00:31:23,000
Speaker 1: feel like she like overloved you just because of everything

712
00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:26,080
Speaker 1: that she's been through. You know, sometimes I find that

713
00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:29,440
Speaker 1: people who've our parents have had a rough childhood and

714
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:31,200
Speaker 1: it can make them go either way. But it feels

715
00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:33,800
Speaker 1: like with your mom, she's like, oh yeah, she.

716
00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:38,320
Speaker 3: Loves me so much. I mean, she sacrificed so much

717
00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:41,440
Speaker 3: for me to be where I am today, and I

718
00:31:41,520 --> 00:31:45,120
Speaker 3: think for her, she always seen an opportunity for me

719
00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:48,160
Speaker 3: to thrive and love what I do, and she really

720
00:31:48,200 --> 00:31:51,280
Speaker 3: wanted that for me, so she always gave me, tried

721
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:56,960
Speaker 3: her best to give me stability and also drive, and

722
00:31:57,320 --> 00:31:59,960
Speaker 3: she's just Man, the amount of shit that that will

723
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:03,080
Speaker 3: has been through. I don't know how she is so.

724
00:32:05,120 --> 00:32:08,400
Speaker 1: Wonderful. Was she open with you about things or was

725
00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:10,840
Speaker 1: it like as you've been going through therapy, asking questions.

726
00:32:11,040 --> 00:32:13,320
Speaker 3: You know what's beautiful is like she's told me more

727
00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:15,200
Speaker 3: as I get older, because there's a lot of fucked

728
00:32:15,280 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 3: up shit like a twelve year old couldn't understand or

729
00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:21,440
Speaker 3: comprehend at all, but she has really so since I've

730
00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:24,800
Speaker 3: been on my mental health journey and like getting diagnosed

731
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:31,160
Speaker 3: and going to therapy, she was really reluctant to believe

732
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:35,320
Speaker 3: me and what was going on because she was in

733
00:32:35,440 --> 00:32:38,280
Speaker 3: denial because mental health is she's running my family. You know,

734
00:32:38,600 --> 00:32:43,120
Speaker 3: it's genetic mostly, and so I think from her traumas,

735
00:32:43,360 --> 00:32:44,920
Speaker 3: she really didn't want that to be true for me

736
00:32:45,360 --> 00:32:47,360
Speaker 3: and also really didn't want it to be true for

737
00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:52,080
Speaker 3: her either. You know. So once once she's seen how

738
00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:56,400
Speaker 3: much it changed my perspective on life and really helped

739
00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:59,360
Speaker 3: me and healed me and the amount of growth that

740
00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:01,800
Speaker 3: I was doing, it opened her eyes to what was

741
00:33:01,840 --> 00:33:02,600
Speaker 3: possible for her.

742
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:03,400
Speaker 1: That's great.

743
00:33:03,520 --> 00:33:05,920
Speaker 3: And now she's been like in therapy.

744
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:06,880
Speaker 4: She goes everything.

745
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:07,760
Speaker 1: That's amazing.

746
00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:11,440
Speaker 3: Her life is completely changed, like her perspective, she's she's

747
00:33:11,520 --> 00:33:15,400
Speaker 3: treating her body right, like she's just so she's different,

748
00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:18,120
Speaker 3: not different, she still has her core, but the whether

749
00:33:18,200 --> 00:33:21,360
Speaker 3: she handles things is just very different because she's she's

750
00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 3: healing through her trauma, and you know, it's a lot

751
00:33:23,760 --> 00:33:25,920
Speaker 3: she's very guarded about what she went through as a kid,

752
00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:29,200
Speaker 3: so she's kind of starting from like present and going

753
00:33:29,280 --> 00:33:32,400
Speaker 3: backwards and seeing like how that shit affects her now,

754
00:33:32,560 --> 00:33:35,120
Speaker 3: and it's just really it's really beautiful to see she

755
00:33:35,240 --> 00:33:35,720
Speaker 3: is so strong.

756
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:39,200
Speaker 1: See how people could learn from their kids too, I think,

757
00:33:39,360 --> 00:33:41,760
Speaker 1: and even just when it comes to like therapy and

758
00:33:41,920 --> 00:33:45,120
Speaker 1: mental health, you know, I feel like the previous generation,

759
00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:47,280
Speaker 1: it was a lot more taboo than it has been.

760
00:33:47,360 --> 00:33:49,840
Speaker 1: People are having like way more open discussions about it,

761
00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:53,000
Speaker 1: just even being able to find therapists. Now, I feel

762
00:33:53,000 --> 00:33:53,880
Speaker 1: like it's a lot easier.

763
00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:56,240
Speaker 5: Yeah, I feel like it used to really be hard.

764
00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:56,600
Speaker 1: Yeah.

765
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:59,440
Speaker 3: Yeah. I also think it's a privilege. And I always

766
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:02,840
Speaker 3: say that because you know, like a single mom, a

767
00:34:02,960 --> 00:34:07,560
Speaker 3: black single mother that has two jobs trying to afford

768
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:10,560
Speaker 3: a living for herself and her two kids, yeah, doesn't

769
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:14,120
Speaker 3: have time and probably the money to be able to

770
00:34:14,200 --> 00:34:17,680
Speaker 3: afford therapy and heal. And it really is a privilege.

771
00:34:17,719 --> 00:34:20,920
Speaker 3: And I want to just take that and I call

772
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,560
Speaker 3: it secondhand therapy or hand me down therapy, and that's

773
00:34:23,560 --> 00:34:25,360
Speaker 3: also what my music is, Like, I really want to

774
00:34:25,440 --> 00:34:27,200
Speaker 3: take that and be able to share it with people

775
00:34:27,600 --> 00:34:29,399
Speaker 3: so that even if they can't afford it, like they're

776
00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:32,000
Speaker 3: feeling some sort of healing and feeling less alone.

777
00:34:32,560 --> 00:34:35,520
Speaker 1: And it's interesting because you also are you write your

778
00:34:35,520 --> 00:34:38,040
Speaker 1: own music, right, And I feel like there's a different

779
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:40,840
Speaker 1: connection to an artist, you know, not saying that everybody

780
00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:43,040
Speaker 1: has to write their own music or people can't have

781
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:46,400
Speaker 1: help or co writers or even just you know, be

782
00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:48,959
Speaker 1: given a song, but for you, that's really important, right.

783
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:52,920
Speaker 3: Really important. I definitely have co writers that are really

784
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,279
Speaker 3: really grey. It always comes from me, and I do

785
00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:58,680
Speaker 3: take songs sometimes, and the only times I take songs

786
00:34:58,760 --> 00:35:01,799
Speaker 3: is when I feel like they said it better than

787
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:04,640
Speaker 3: I could. Okay, you know right, And that's like therapy

788
00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:06,600
Speaker 3: for me because now I get to sing that story

789
00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,239
Speaker 3: and I'll always add my own shit to it for sure,

790
00:35:09,640 --> 00:35:12,080
Speaker 3: but they definitely have said it better than I could.

791
00:35:12,120 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 3: Maybe I couldn't have processed what I wanted to say

792
00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:17,560
Speaker 3: about that specific thing. Yet with co writers, I love

793
00:35:17,640 --> 00:35:20,200
Speaker 3: it because I always say, like I love a group project.

794
00:35:20,360 --> 00:35:22,960
Speaker 3: I always did in school. So being able to go

795
00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:25,400
Speaker 3: back and forth with somebody and have them help you

796
00:35:25,520 --> 00:35:29,680
Speaker 3: kind of sort out what your thoughts are and organize

797
00:35:29,880 --> 00:35:33,719
Speaker 3: those thoughts, and also just like validating. Sometimes I don't

798
00:35:33,719 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 3: have the confidence to talk about what I want to

799
00:35:35,280 --> 00:35:37,320
Speaker 3: talk about. So for them to be like, yeah, no,

800
00:35:37,560 --> 00:35:39,759
Speaker 3: that's good, that makes sense, or like, I think we

801
00:35:39,760 --> 00:35:42,520
Speaker 3: could say it a different way, that's really helpful. When

802
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:44,920
Speaker 3: I write by myself, that is definitely the most therapeutic

803
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:50,960
Speaker 3: because I started out everything writing poetry and so to

804
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:53,320
Speaker 3: be able to just put it all on paper and

805
00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:58,319
Speaker 3: really like get the idea out and it's completely my own.

806
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:02,000
Speaker 3: It's so satisfying, and I have a different connection to

807
00:36:02,080 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 3: singing those songs too, Like when I go on tour,

808
00:36:04,520 --> 00:36:09,120
Speaker 3: it just feels so much more heartfelt.

809
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:12,080
Speaker 1: Like which one like for the new album, what would

810
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:13,560
Speaker 1: you say was the most therapeutic song for you?

811
00:36:13,680 --> 00:36:16,919
Speaker 3: I mean Bitter Bitch actually intro lude. That was good.

812
00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:20,799
Speaker 3: That was really good. That was that was like really therapeutic.

813
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:23,920
Speaker 3: And I just remember being in the studio and like

814
00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:26,120
Speaker 3: sitting in the chair and just being like.

815
00:36:27,640 --> 00:36:27,920
Speaker 1: Fuck.

816
00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:29,839
Speaker 3: Like literally at the end of the song, I say

817
00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:35,040
Speaker 3: like I'm traumatized. Fuck, because that's really where I really

818
00:36:35,120 --> 00:36:38,120
Speaker 3: had that reaction when you wrote that, I was in

819
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:41,440
Speaker 3: the studio at my manager at the time, they had

820
00:36:41,440 --> 00:36:43,480
Speaker 3: a studio in their house, and I was just in

821
00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:45,560
Speaker 3: the booth. And this was during COVID, so my engineer

822
00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:48,080
Speaker 3: was there was the control room and then there was

823
00:36:48,120 --> 00:36:51,400
Speaker 3: the booth, and we had to figure out a system

824
00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:54,279
Speaker 3: where we would still stay separate. So I was in

825
00:36:54,320 --> 00:36:55,600
Speaker 3: the booth and he would just talk to me from

826
00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:57,040
Speaker 3: the talk back and he would go through the separate

827
00:36:57,080 --> 00:36:59,480
Speaker 3: door and go into the control room. And I just

828
00:36:59,560 --> 00:37:03,759
Speaker 3: remember sitting there and so also let me say with

829
00:37:03,840 --> 00:37:10,040
Speaker 3: Bitter Bitch Introlude. It's also a response to reviews from YouTube.

830
00:37:10,640 --> 00:37:13,239
Speaker 3: So for Keiky for the anniversary, I put together like

831
00:37:13,239 --> 00:37:16,360
Speaker 3: a compilation of all the reviews, and every time I

832
00:37:16,440 --> 00:37:21,960
Speaker 3: watched a review of skitter Lude, everyone would say like, damn,

833
00:37:22,040 --> 00:37:25,440
Speaker 3: she's bitter some form of damn She's bitter, and so

834
00:37:25,600 --> 00:37:27,560
Speaker 3: it's also a response to that. So I called the

835
00:37:27,800 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 3: guys who introduced a lot of the album and I

836
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:31,759
Speaker 3: was like, we need a track that's like Skitterlude. I

837
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:34,239
Speaker 3: have something to say, and they were like, okay, cool.

838
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:36,040
Speaker 3: So I got in the studio and I was just

839
00:37:36,080 --> 00:37:38,280
Speaker 3: sitting there and I was like, it just was flowing

840
00:37:38,360 --> 00:37:40,040
Speaker 3: so easily, like line by line.

841
00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:42,920
Speaker 1: It just felt so good. And the album is called Grudges,

842
00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:45,080
Speaker 1: and that's also a song on there, So why Grudges?

843
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:48,560
Speaker 4: I like it? So thank you I.

844
00:37:50,080 --> 00:37:53,840
Speaker 3: Obviously, so I have another song on the album called Closure.

845
00:37:54,840 --> 00:37:58,000
Speaker 3: Originally the album was going to be called Closure because

846
00:37:58,600 --> 00:38:00,960
Speaker 3: obviously when you get it out in music or you

847
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:03,640
Speaker 3: talk about it, you feel a little sense of closure,

848
00:38:03,719 --> 00:38:09,799
Speaker 3: hopefully for yourself. And I realized me and my team

849
00:38:09,840 --> 00:38:11,319
Speaker 3: were talking about it when we were like going through

850
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:13,440
Speaker 3: all the songs and we were just like, this is

851
00:38:13,520 --> 00:38:16,120
Speaker 3: not about closure, this is about grudges. Like I am

852
00:38:16,200 --> 00:38:20,400
Speaker 3: talking shit this whole album. So I think that was

853
00:38:20,480 --> 00:38:23,799
Speaker 3: more the therapy was like getting everything out. And then

854
00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:26,320
Speaker 3: I think there's a there's a double meaning to it

855
00:38:26,440 --> 00:38:31,439
Speaker 3: because grudges. The actual song is about trying to release

856
00:38:31,480 --> 00:38:33,920
Speaker 3: those grudges and how it's hard and you might not

857
00:38:34,040 --> 00:38:35,520
Speaker 3: be doing it the right way all the time and

858
00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:37,360
Speaker 3: you might be going through a hard time, but you

859
00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:40,440
Speaker 3: really just have to try to let shit go.

860
00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:45,040
Speaker 1: And who is high Sometimes it is fucking hard, at

861
00:38:45,120 --> 00:38:48,040
Speaker 1: least for me because you know I will, yeah, and

862
00:38:49,160 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 1: you know we are stebbing goats and aries.

863
00:38:52,960 --> 00:38:53,160
Speaker 4: Ram.

864
00:38:53,840 --> 00:38:57,000
Speaker 3: I am ready at all times to protect myself and

865
00:38:57,080 --> 00:38:59,279
Speaker 3: protect my people. As soon as you fuck with with

866
00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:01,279
Speaker 3: my people too, I'll hold a grudges even if they're

867
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:03,000
Speaker 3: over it and they forgive you, I'm still.

868
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:04,799
Speaker 1: Passed and you're like, dare you have made me mad?

869
00:39:04,920 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 1: And then you went and forgave them. Yeah, now I'm

870
00:39:07,080 --> 00:39:07,960
Speaker 1: over here, still mad.

871
00:39:09,120 --> 00:39:11,520
Speaker 3: I'm like, good for you and love that. Don't fuck

872
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:14,400
Speaker 3: that nigga, like I will. We will have a problem forever.

873
00:39:15,120 --> 00:39:18,320
Speaker 3: I have grudges still from people in like third grade. Wow, you.

874
00:39:18,480 --> 00:39:22,360
Speaker 1: Actually, I know third grade. You gotta let that go.

875
00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 2: An eight year old you, you know, it's so crazy.

876
00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:32,080
Speaker 2: Sometimes I want to hold grudges, but I can't, like

877
00:39:32,200 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 2: I want to. Sometimes I'm like, I'm supposed to be

878
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:36,400
Speaker 2: be mad. I'm supposed to be hurt about this, like

879
00:39:36,520 --> 00:39:39,120
Speaker 2: I was so hurt, but I don't. It's crazy, like

880
00:39:39,400 --> 00:39:41,680
Speaker 2: I don't know how to hold grudges, like I always

881
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:43,960
Speaker 2: tend to look back and be like.

882
00:39:44,000 --> 00:39:46,000
Speaker 3: It's not about you. This is probably about THEMB and

883
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:47,840
Speaker 3: this has nothing to do with you, so let it go.

884
00:39:48,080 --> 00:39:48,720
Speaker 3: That's so mature.

885
00:39:49,040 --> 00:39:53,800
Speaker 5: I'm not mature. I can hold grudges. I'm okay. But

886
00:39:53,880 --> 00:39:57,440
Speaker 5: it also sometimes it's something really bothered me for some reason.

887
00:39:57,560 --> 00:39:59,960
Speaker 5: I I can't remember it sometime.

888
00:40:00,239 --> 00:40:03,000
Speaker 3: Oh you like compartmentalize, yeah, and it'll come out later.

889
00:40:03,040 --> 00:40:04,839
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, ship, that's why I was mad.

890
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:08,239
Speaker 5: Yeah, like it if it's really really for some reason,

891
00:40:08,280 --> 00:40:11,120
Speaker 5: I won't remember it and then I just repressed it

892
00:40:11,160 --> 00:40:13,080
Speaker 5: and then it'll come out later from.

893
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 3: People that you really care about and love though, because

894
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:17,680
Speaker 3: I feel like it hurts the worst, So you want to,

895
00:40:17,760 --> 00:40:21,000
Speaker 3: like you would compartmentalize it so that you can you

896
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:24,399
Speaker 3: can remember that like I don't feel that right fee

897
00:40:25,600 --> 00:40:27,480
Speaker 3: I forget that I'm mad at the person or that

898
00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 3: even something happened, and I just like I forget.

899
00:40:30,239 --> 00:40:33,160
Speaker 4: And I'm just like me, I always remember what people

900
00:40:33,320 --> 00:40:37,879
Speaker 4: do me. I used to say God forgives and I don't. Yeah,

901
00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:42,719
Speaker 4: but I have been on a faith journey for a

902
00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:45,759
Speaker 4: couple of years, and with a faith journey comes a

903
00:40:45,840 --> 00:40:46,680
Speaker 4: lot of forgiveness.

904
00:40:47,520 --> 00:40:52,399
Speaker 1: So there we go. God, do you fall in love

905
00:40:52,520 --> 00:40:53,120
Speaker 1: really easily?

906
00:40:57,680 --> 00:40:59,920
Speaker 3: It's kind of a hard question for me because I

907
00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:04,080
Speaker 3: I feel like I don't ever go seeking shit, but

908
00:41:05,080 --> 00:41:06,239
Speaker 3: like I'll fuck around.

909
00:41:06,320 --> 00:41:09,080
Speaker 5: And find out and I'll find out later.

910
00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:14,000
Speaker 3: I really I think it's easy for me to like

911
00:41:14,120 --> 00:41:16,680
Speaker 3: separate sex from like love.

912
00:41:17,200 --> 00:41:19,360
Speaker 5: Oh nice, it is really easy.

913
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:20,880
Speaker 1: People act like women can't do that.

914
00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:25,000
Speaker 3: I know it's crazy and I've done it successfully. But

915
00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:32,480
Speaker 3: there's times where like people have fallen or they get feelings,

916
00:41:33,280 --> 00:41:39,000
Speaker 3: and then I feel kind of like convinced after a

917
00:41:39,040 --> 00:41:42,799
Speaker 3: little bit to like go on a day or do whatever.

918
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:44,600
Speaker 3: Like I'm kind of just like go with the flow,

919
00:41:44,680 --> 00:41:48,840
Speaker 3: like fuck it. And then eventually I'm like okay, like

920
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 3: you're kind of cool whatever, and then you know, everything

921
00:41:52,640 --> 00:41:53,840
Speaker 3: goes from there. So I don't think I fall in

922
00:41:53,920 --> 00:42:02,040
Speaker 3: love easily, but I think I am. I think once

923
00:42:02,120 --> 00:42:03,799
Speaker 3: I hit that point, I fall in love fast.

924
00:42:03,880 --> 00:42:06,720
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, because sometimes we try to prevent that from happening.

925
00:42:07,280 --> 00:42:09,240
Speaker 1: You know, sometimes you're like, I really like this person,

926
00:42:09,280 --> 00:42:10,640
Speaker 1: but I will not allow myself.

927
00:42:10,840 --> 00:42:14,280
Speaker 4: I will not. I feel like as I've gotten older,

928
00:42:14,440 --> 00:42:17,560
Speaker 4: I've become more selective. So now everything I touched I'm

929
00:42:17,600 --> 00:42:21,760
Speaker 4: totally obsessed with. You know, like when I was drunk

930
00:42:21,880 --> 00:42:25,160
Speaker 4: and having fun. When I was younger, it was so

931
00:42:25,280 --> 00:42:28,760
Speaker 4: easy for me to like not care. But now anything

932
00:42:28,800 --> 00:42:31,160
Speaker 4: I get involved with, I'm totally obsessed with and they

933
00:42:31,239 --> 00:42:32,560
Speaker 4: have to be totally obsessed with me.

934
00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:35,240
Speaker 1: But can you separate sex from feelings?

935
00:42:35,280 --> 00:42:35,440
Speaker 5: Though?

936
00:42:35,640 --> 00:42:36,040
Speaker 3: Not now?

937
00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,440
Speaker 5: When I was younger, her vagina has feelings now that she's.

938
00:42:39,320 --> 00:42:45,040
Speaker 4: Got I swear, am I crazy? Now?

939
00:42:45,120 --> 00:42:48,359
Speaker 1: Like Keanna like, look, okay, so your ex right? Can

940
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:50,320
Speaker 1: you have sex with your ex and not care anymore?

941
00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:54,399
Speaker 3: Yeah? I've done it before, Okay, but they cared?

942
00:42:54,880 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 1: Okay? Is that like a revenge get back kind of

943
00:42:57,560 --> 00:42:58,200
Speaker 1: a little bit too?

944
00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:02,919
Speaker 3: No. I think it was like I was just like, oh, okay,

945
00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:04,400
Speaker 3: this is like one of the last times we're ever

946
00:43:04,440 --> 00:43:08,320
Speaker 3: gonna fuck and then it's like, oh, you're gonna miss it.

947
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:10,719
Speaker 3: I'm gonna miss it. Cool, there's something hot about it,

948
00:43:10,920 --> 00:43:13,680
Speaker 3: you know, it's like hiding something, like hiding some sort

949
00:43:13,719 --> 00:43:16,239
Speaker 3: of like rendezvous thing. And then like that's kind of

950
00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:17,239
Speaker 3: on the same level for me.

951
00:43:18,360 --> 00:43:21,960
Speaker 1: Okay, because yeah, she's definitely talked about that. Wanted to

952
00:43:22,120 --> 00:43:24,200
Speaker 1: be like, Okay, we broke up, but let's you know,

953
00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:26,879
Speaker 1: every now and then, let's link up. Do you still

954
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:28,320
Speaker 1: ever go back if you're single?

955
00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:28,880
Speaker 5: No?

956
00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:30,759
Speaker 1: No, you feel like you can get with any of

957
00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:31,759
Speaker 1: your ex'es if you wanted to.

958
00:43:34,160 --> 00:43:39,960
Speaker 3: Mmm, if they were single.

959
00:43:41,680 --> 00:43:46,600
Speaker 1: Probably Okay, you're so respectful, right, I'd be like, fuck

960
00:43:46,640 --> 00:43:52,200
Speaker 1: that bitch. How about that?

961
00:43:53,680 --> 00:43:54,280
Speaker 5: You're welcome?

962
00:43:55,880 --> 00:43:58,080
Speaker 1: When's the last time, like when you end up in

963
00:43:58,120 --> 00:44:00,279
Speaker 1: a relationship do they ask you like, hey, you be

964
00:44:00,400 --> 00:44:04,120
Speaker 1: my or are we monogamous? How does that even happen nowadays?

965
00:44:04,280 --> 00:44:07,920
Speaker 3: Yeah? I think it's like very casual. It happens very casually.

966
00:44:08,040 --> 00:44:09,799
Speaker 3: I think one when I get to that point where

967
00:44:09,800 --> 00:44:12,000
Speaker 3: I'm like, okay, I caught feelings. We're spending every day together,

968
00:44:12,440 --> 00:44:14,640
Speaker 3: like we're spending every single day obsessed with each other,

969
00:44:15,239 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 3: And then I think when it starts to when it

970
00:44:23,200 --> 00:44:25,280
Speaker 3: starts to feel like real, it gets kind of scary

971
00:44:25,360 --> 00:44:27,480
Speaker 3: for me. And I've always told people that I've talked to,

972
00:44:27,600 --> 00:44:28,920
Speaker 3: like I could be in a talking pace for the

973
00:44:28,960 --> 00:44:30,440
Speaker 3: rest of my life, or like I could be in

974
00:44:30,440 --> 00:44:32,000
Speaker 3: an exclusive phase for the rest of my life.

975
00:44:32,040 --> 00:44:32,520
Speaker 4: I don't care.

976
00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:33,560
Speaker 1: But my thing is.

977
00:44:35,680 --> 00:44:37,640
Speaker 3: I don't I don't care about Like I don't want

978
00:44:37,640 --> 00:44:39,759
Speaker 3: to get married, right, Like that's my I don't want

979
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:41,239
Speaker 3: to get married, But I want you to propose to

980
00:44:41,320 --> 00:44:42,719
Speaker 3: me with you like I want to.

981
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:45,560
Speaker 5: Do you want me? Do you want to be engaged from.

982
00:44:47,120 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 1: You'll say no, no, I say yes.

983
00:44:49,719 --> 00:44:51,440
Speaker 3: But we're not getting married. We're gonna have a celebration

984
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:51,839
Speaker 3: of love.

985
00:44:52,080 --> 00:44:52,680
Speaker 1: That's what I say.

986
00:44:53,120 --> 00:44:54,680
Speaker 3: I want to because then we could do it every

987
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 3: year if we want to. Everybody. I want all of

988
00:44:56,840 --> 00:44:59,279
Speaker 3: our friends, the family to gather around and celebrate how

989
00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:03,600
Speaker 3: amazing are together every fucking year every year.

990
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:08,560
Speaker 2: Did they do that?

991
00:45:08,880 --> 00:45:10,279
Speaker 1: Basketball wives? Your every year?

992
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:11,680
Speaker 3: Still doing it?

993
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:13,880
Speaker 1: Probably? I think that's their tradition.

994
00:45:14,239 --> 00:45:17,839
Speaker 3: It wasn't ridiculous. That's great, Yeah, see that, but they

995
00:45:17,880 --> 00:45:20,239
Speaker 3: get married. See what I'm extra as fuck, that's what

996
00:45:20,320 --> 00:45:22,359
Speaker 3: I want. I'm a little much all the time.

997
00:45:23,920 --> 00:45:26,759
Speaker 1: But yeah, no, what about is being obsessed with you

998
00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:32,399
Speaker 1: ever too much? Though? If we broke up, okay, as

999
00:45:32,440 --> 00:45:34,640
Speaker 1: long as you're together, it's fine. And look, we had

1000
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:37,239
Speaker 1: that conversation. I was telling you, you want a guy

1001
00:45:37,360 --> 00:45:39,640
Speaker 1: to be obsessed with you if you like him like that.

1002
00:45:40,680 --> 00:45:42,600
Speaker 1: If you don't like him like that, it's annoying. But

1003
00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:45,880
Speaker 1: if you're like, I really like you and I you

1004
00:45:45,960 --> 00:45:47,040
Speaker 1: know that's true.

1005
00:45:47,239 --> 00:45:47,719
Speaker 3: That's true.

1006
00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:49,120
Speaker 1: What's the best gift you ever got?

1007
00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:55,680
Speaker 3: M I think like so like my love languages, gifts

1008
00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:58,680
Speaker 3: is like the last thing for me. If you're gonna

1009
00:45:58,719 --> 00:46:00,600
Speaker 3: give me something, it's something like thoughtful.

1010
00:46:00,680 --> 00:46:03,000
Speaker 1: Ye, let's say best thoughtful gift.

1011
00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:12,600
Speaker 3: I would say the best thoughtful gift. Uh for my birthday.

1012
00:46:13,920 --> 00:46:16,279
Speaker 3: So my birthday is in April, so Easter is like

1013
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:18,560
Speaker 3: right around my birthday, and I don't really celebrate Easter

1014
00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:20,719
Speaker 3: like that, but I love Easter egg hunts. Look, that's

1015
00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:22,120
Speaker 3: the same thing. I'm like, I don't really care to

1016
00:46:22,160 --> 00:46:24,160
Speaker 3: get married, but like I don't want to.

1017
00:46:24,960 --> 00:46:26,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, we had a host Gabbins your hunt in

1018
00:46:27,040 --> 00:46:27,399
Speaker 1: New York.

1019
00:46:27,560 --> 00:46:31,120
Speaker 3: So yeah, exactly, So I don't really I don't really

1020
00:46:31,160 --> 00:46:33,080
Speaker 3: fuck withut Easter like that, but I love. I love

1021
00:46:33,239 --> 00:46:35,839
Speaker 3: Easter egg hunts. So I was like, oh, I really

1022
00:46:35,880 --> 00:46:38,000
Speaker 3: want to have an Easter egg hunt. And so on

1023
00:46:38,080 --> 00:46:40,640
Speaker 3: my birthday they did an Easter egg hunt for me,

1024
00:46:40,800 --> 00:46:42,600
Speaker 3: and it was like there was like notes in every

1025
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:47,160
Speaker 3: single Easter eggs with the Rieses, you know, like Rieses

1026
00:46:47,320 --> 00:46:50,680
Speaker 3: they come out with the Ries's eggs. Those are the best.

1027
00:46:50,760 --> 00:46:52,640
Speaker 3: They have way more peanut butter than the regular ones. No,

1028
00:46:52,719 --> 00:46:58,319
Speaker 3: they're They're so fucking good. So I love They're so good.

1029
00:46:58,480 --> 00:46:59,880
Speaker 1: They're half off right now at them?

1030
00:47:00,160 --> 00:47:05,440
Speaker 3: Wait are they the up right now?

1031
00:47:05,840 --> 00:47:07,680
Speaker 5: I like them cold though, put them on.

1032
00:47:08,680 --> 00:47:12,279
Speaker 3: I like it to melt in my mouth, even when

1033
00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:14,399
Speaker 3: it's cold. It molts and it's like in the roof

1034
00:47:14,440 --> 00:47:14,879
Speaker 3: of your mouth.

1035
00:47:15,480 --> 00:47:16,680
Speaker 5: But your story.

1036
00:47:16,840 --> 00:47:17,520
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah.

1037
00:47:17,640 --> 00:47:20,200
Speaker 3: So there was one of those in every single Easter

1038
00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:22,080
Speaker 3: egg too. And then at the end there was like

1039
00:47:22,160 --> 00:47:25,239
Speaker 3: a really big gold Easter eggs and it was like

1040
00:47:25,280 --> 00:47:26,880
Speaker 3: a really big note. It was really sweet.

1041
00:47:26,960 --> 00:47:31,040
Speaker 1: That's so cute's time exactly, preparation.

1042
00:47:31,480 --> 00:47:34,080
Speaker 3: That's like acts of service to me, And that's not

1043
00:47:34,200 --> 00:47:37,359
Speaker 3: really expensive. No, I like that. Yeah.

1044
00:47:37,440 --> 00:47:39,279
Speaker 5: The thing is like people think that you got to

1045
00:47:39,280 --> 00:47:41,640
Speaker 5: spend all this money, yeah, and like you really don't

1046
00:47:41,680 --> 00:47:42,080
Speaker 5: you could.

1047
00:47:41,960 --> 00:47:44,160
Speaker 3: Take me on a surprise picnic and fucking put a

1048
00:47:44,239 --> 00:47:46,439
Speaker 3: bag of ship on it, on a blanket, and I'd

1049
00:47:46,480 --> 00:47:49,200
Speaker 3: be like totally. Like if they were like, oh, like,

1050
00:47:49,320 --> 00:47:52,120
Speaker 3: I know you said, and so here's a bag of

1051
00:47:52,160 --> 00:47:53,680
Speaker 3: ship because it reminded me of you, I'm.

1052
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:59,720
Speaker 1: Like problem, Yeah, exactly exactly.

1053
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:01,520
Speaker 3: That hit too hard right now?

1054
00:48:03,440 --> 00:48:05,200
Speaker 5: Indeed, that's what she said.

1055
00:48:05,800 --> 00:48:08,759
Speaker 3: Yes, I'm so glad you said that hard.

1056
00:48:08,800 --> 00:48:10,319
Speaker 5: You say early I had a return with.

1057
00:48:10,440 --> 00:48:12,160
Speaker 3: I'm so happy. I think everyone should say.

1058
00:48:12,160 --> 00:48:12,719
Speaker 4: That's what she said.

1059
00:48:12,719 --> 00:48:13,919
Speaker 3: That's what he said at some point.

1060
00:48:14,920 --> 00:48:17,000
Speaker 1: All right, So now, how important is sex to you

1061
00:48:17,120 --> 00:48:17,800
Speaker 1: in a relationship?

1062
00:48:17,800 --> 00:48:21,120
Speaker 3: Oh? So important. Physical touch is my number one lovelingth okay,

1063
00:48:21,320 --> 00:48:23,799
Speaker 3: number one, Yeah, number one. I think once the sex

1064
00:48:23,840 --> 00:48:27,160
Speaker 3: starts going downhill, the whole relationship starts going downhill. But

1065
00:48:27,200 --> 00:48:30,440
Speaker 3: it's also like it's kind of symbiotic, like once a

1066
00:48:30,520 --> 00:48:33,240
Speaker 3: relationship starts going downhill, then the sex goes downhill.

1067
00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:35,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, but you can't do have great sex with somebody

1068
00:48:35,600 --> 00:48:38,160
Speaker 1: but not really care about them, because you said you

1069
00:48:38,239 --> 00:48:41,439
Speaker 1: can separate the two. Yeah, okay, So what's great sex

1070
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:41,640
Speaker 1: to you?

1071
00:48:43,880 --> 00:48:50,320
Speaker 3: I really just first now at this point, because of

1072
00:48:50,680 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 3: everything I've been through in my life, feeling safe is

1073
00:48:53,480 --> 00:48:56,319
Speaker 3: actually like the number one thing, okay, because I'm sure

1074
00:48:56,680 --> 00:48:59,560
Speaker 3: ever all the women, especially in this room have been

1075
00:48:59,600 --> 00:49:03,800
Speaker 3: through some or sexual harassment or assault unfortunately, and so

1076
00:49:04,160 --> 00:49:07,800
Speaker 3: now I think processing through a lot of my sexual trauma,

1077
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:11,600
Speaker 3: I've had to try to connect back to my body,

1078
00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:14,200
Speaker 3: and so that's like the number one thing. If I

1079
00:49:14,239 --> 00:49:17,560
Speaker 3: don't care, it's still it's it's cool, but I still

1080
00:49:17,600 --> 00:49:20,239
Speaker 3: need to feel safe with that person. Okay, so you

1081
00:49:20,440 --> 00:49:23,600
Speaker 3: like cuddling, It's not like I just need to like

1082
00:49:24,320 --> 00:49:26,440
Speaker 3: know that you're a good person and they're not going

1083
00:49:26,520 --> 00:49:28,600
Speaker 3: to fuck me over and like do some fucked up shit,

1084
00:49:28,640 --> 00:49:31,360
Speaker 3: because I've also had that, Like I've I've been assaulted

1085
00:49:31,360 --> 00:49:33,400
Speaker 3: by people that I knew and that I trusted. So

1086
00:49:33,480 --> 00:49:35,359
Speaker 3: I really have to like feel it in my gut

1087
00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:37,560
Speaker 3: that you're a good person and my body is.

1088
00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:40,000
Speaker 1: Safe with you, you know, and then I'm free. I'll

1089
00:49:40,040 --> 00:49:41,000
Speaker 1: do whatever you do.

1090
00:49:41,080 --> 00:49:43,960
Speaker 3: Whatever I always say, I'll try anything once and then

1091
00:49:44,000 --> 00:49:45,080
Speaker 3: if I like it, I like it, which I.

1092
00:49:45,120 --> 00:49:48,080
Speaker 1: Like a lot. I don't believe anything there's not that

1093
00:49:48,120 --> 00:49:54,200
Speaker 1: I don't like. Really, Yeah, okay, let's name some Is

1094
00:49:54,239 --> 00:49:56,160
Speaker 1: there anything I haven't tried that you're like, I would

1095
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:56,560
Speaker 1: try this.

1096
00:49:58,400 --> 00:50:02,080
Speaker 3: Not really, I've tried a lot. That's okay, No, that's

1097
00:50:02,080 --> 00:50:04,279
Speaker 3: actually one that I'm going to try. But there's no no, no,

1098
00:50:04,640 --> 00:50:06,759
Speaker 3: So I'm gonna try that. I am going to try that,

1099
00:50:07,800 --> 00:50:11,360
Speaker 3: but I have my my My only thing is because

1100
00:50:11,440 --> 00:50:13,280
Speaker 3: I want the person to be obsessed with me, right.

1101
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:13,879
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

1102
00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:17,239
Speaker 3: It has to be the I know I have to

1103
00:50:17,280 --> 00:50:19,360
Speaker 3: be to me. I need to be the star in

1104
00:50:19,440 --> 00:50:19,920
Speaker 3: the bedroom.

1105
00:50:20,040 --> 00:50:23,839
Speaker 4: Okay, that's and your enjoy If you're the star. That's

1106
00:50:23,880 --> 00:50:26,160
Speaker 4: the only way I can have a threesome. If all

1107
00:50:26,239 --> 00:50:29,279
Speaker 4: the attention is on me, it's two people all over me.

1108
00:50:30,040 --> 00:50:31,000
Speaker 1: That's doable. Yeah.

1109
00:50:31,080 --> 00:50:33,680
Speaker 3: Also I like women too, so it would be. It's

1110
00:50:33,800 --> 00:50:37,040
Speaker 3: it's a little bit more level. You know. It's cool.

1111
00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:39,719
Speaker 3: So it's a good experience for all of us. I know.

1112
00:50:39,920 --> 00:50:43,760
Speaker 3: But it's because the ground rules is what I'm struggling.

1113
00:50:45,040 --> 00:50:48,640
Speaker 3: That's my problem. I don't know. It's like, who's gonna

1114
00:50:48,640 --> 00:50:49,239
Speaker 3: put what where?

1115
00:50:51,200 --> 00:50:54,600
Speaker 2: That you have that conversation when you get I've never

1116
00:50:54,680 --> 00:50:56,720
Speaker 2: done it, but I would think you would have that conversation.

1117
00:50:56,840 --> 00:50:59,200
Speaker 3: Yes, you have to have it before because you know

1118
00:50:59,239 --> 00:51:00,680
Speaker 3: what you're getting into. An I want to be able

1119
00:51:00,719 --> 00:51:02,279
Speaker 3: to look at you in the face after you know

1120
00:51:02,360 --> 00:51:02,680
Speaker 3: you want to.

1121
00:51:03,040 --> 00:51:04,920
Speaker 5: Would you like to have it with a girl and

1122
00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:08,320
Speaker 5: a guy to girls? Which one with combination? Are you

1123
00:51:08,400 --> 00:51:09,320
Speaker 5: thinking about both?

1124
00:51:09,400 --> 00:51:09,879
Speaker 3: That's cool?

1125
00:51:10,360 --> 00:51:10,640
Speaker 1: Okay?

1126
00:51:10,960 --> 00:51:11,160
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1127
00:51:11,320 --> 00:51:12,400
Speaker 1: Have you ever filmed yourself?

1128
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:13,080
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1129
00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 1: Okay, I like that. Are you scared about that ever

1130
00:51:16,200 --> 00:51:17,400
Speaker 1: leaking or getting hacked?

1131
00:51:17,480 --> 00:51:21,520
Speaker 3: You know what that if it leaks your fucking welcome world.

1132
00:51:22,680 --> 00:51:25,840
Speaker 3: That's how I feel about that. I can't control that.

1133
00:51:25,920 --> 00:51:26,160
Speaker 4: Ship.

1134
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:28,800
Speaker 1: Hackers are on it right now, Like I do not

1135
00:51:28,920 --> 00:51:29,400
Speaker 1: control that.

1136
00:51:29,520 --> 00:51:32,239
Speaker 5: If it happens, You're welcome. Don't do it at the time.

1137
00:51:32,520 --> 00:51:39,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, my god, so it's like you're welcome.

1138
00:51:40,320 --> 00:51:43,680
Speaker 5: That was the last thing I expect that I want, though.

1139
00:51:45,080 --> 00:51:47,600
Speaker 3: She's like, I know my favorite while having sex, Like,

1140
00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:49,080
Speaker 3: what's the you have to do it?

1141
00:51:50,719 --> 00:51:51,120
Speaker 4: I don't know.

1142
00:51:51,239 --> 00:51:51,919
Speaker 3: I like it all.

1143
00:51:53,000 --> 00:51:53,640
Speaker 4: I like it all.

1144
00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:55,600
Speaker 3: I like I just like a good switch up to

1145
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:57,320
Speaker 3: you know, like I don't want to be doing the

1146
00:51:57,360 --> 00:51:58,560
Speaker 3: same thing witch.

1147
00:51:58,680 --> 00:52:02,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, I agree with that. Sometimes guys know what makes

1148
00:52:02,200 --> 00:52:04,319
Speaker 1: you orgasm, and they do that all the time every

1149
00:52:04,360 --> 00:52:07,040
Speaker 1: single time. They think that's like what you want. Yes,

1150
00:52:07,520 --> 00:52:09,880
Speaker 1: I agree with that because sometimes it's like, okay, we

1151
00:52:10,000 --> 00:52:11,520
Speaker 1: could like move it around a little.

1152
00:52:11,719 --> 00:52:14,160
Speaker 3: Yes, I've definitely said that, like this is a you know,

1153
00:52:14,280 --> 00:52:17,080
Speaker 3: I love this, but you know this is also cool.

1154
00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:17,920
Speaker 1: Do you squirt it?

1155
00:52:18,440 --> 00:52:18,640
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1156
00:52:19,960 --> 00:52:21,560
Speaker 3: I just realized that recently though.

1157
00:52:21,719 --> 00:52:23,640
Speaker 1: Oh shit, I know, isn't that amazing?

1158
00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:25,839
Speaker 3: I just want to try all the things my body

1159
00:52:25,880 --> 00:52:27,719
Speaker 3: can do, and I found out so many more things.

1160
00:52:27,880 --> 00:52:29,480
Speaker 5: How did you realize that you squired it?

1161
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:33,840
Speaker 3: Like so masturbation Okay, yeah, I have not squired it

1162
00:52:33,880 --> 00:52:36,840
Speaker 3: through masturbation. But it's also because sexual trauma. Like I

1163
00:52:36,920 --> 00:52:38,520
Speaker 3: had a really hard time connecting to my body and

1164
00:52:38,600 --> 00:52:41,480
Speaker 3: really like letting loose and letting go, and like when

1165
00:52:41,520 --> 00:52:45,560
Speaker 3: I finally allowed myself to just like feel and not

1166
00:52:45,680 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 3: be so in my head. And also the person that

1167
00:52:49,200 --> 00:52:51,600
Speaker 3: I trust the most is myself, right, so feeling the

1168
00:52:51,680 --> 00:52:55,479
Speaker 3: most comfortable I was by myself and that's what really

1169
00:52:55,920 --> 00:52:58,399
Speaker 3: led me to find out I fucked around Abo.

1170
00:52:58,800 --> 00:53:00,920
Speaker 1: Have you done it during section only by yourself?

1171
00:53:01,239 --> 00:53:04,080
Speaker 3: I've done it, okay on top or how.

1172
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:07,280
Speaker 5: Were you on top or were.

1173
00:53:07,640 --> 00:53:08,200
Speaker 3: Not on top?

1174
00:53:08,480 --> 00:53:08,520
Speaker 5: No?

1175
00:53:08,880 --> 00:53:11,120
Speaker 3: No, no, different ways but not on top?

1176
00:53:11,760 --> 00:53:13,960
Speaker 1: And what about like percentage by how many times did

1177
00:53:14,040 --> 00:53:16,640
Speaker 1: you say you orgasm every time?

1178
00:53:16,880 --> 00:53:19,439
Speaker 3: Or is it like pretty much every time okay, pretty

1179
00:53:19,520 --> 00:53:22,839
Speaker 3: much every time you know your body you know very well. Yeah,

1180
00:53:23,080 --> 00:53:25,800
Speaker 3: I mean I'm a very sexual person, so like I

1181
00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:28,719
Speaker 3: really I really do like to. Like I said, it's

1182
00:53:28,920 --> 00:53:31,040
Speaker 3: it's been a process to be able to connect back

1183
00:53:31,040 --> 00:53:33,800
Speaker 3: to my body. But I'm a very sexual person. I

1184
00:53:33,920 --> 00:53:37,239
Speaker 3: love sex, so I've definitely experimented with myself and with

1185
00:53:37,320 --> 00:53:37,759
Speaker 3: other people.

1186
00:53:37,920 --> 00:53:39,680
Speaker 1: For sure. Do you kiss a lad during sex?

1187
00:53:39,880 --> 00:53:41,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, because it's so important to me.

1188
00:53:42,080 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, I agree.

1189
00:53:43,280 --> 00:53:45,520
Speaker 3: I want to kiss for a long time before we

1190
00:53:45,600 --> 00:53:46,120
Speaker 3: start doing it.

1191
00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:51,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, like I'm kissing the neck, the arm goes whatever

1192
00:53:51,320 --> 00:53:51,600
Speaker 4: is there.

1193
00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:55,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I want your throat down, I want I want

1194
00:53:55,200 --> 00:53:56,239
Speaker 3: your tongue down my throat.

1195
00:53:56,239 --> 00:53:56,760
Speaker 5: Oh my gosh.

1196
00:53:56,960 --> 00:53:58,279
Speaker 4: Yeah, your face comes to me.

1197
00:53:59,400 --> 00:54:05,680
Speaker 3: Yeah god, yeah, it's great, she said.

1198
00:54:05,719 --> 00:54:06,600
Speaker 4: I like it all.

1199
00:54:07,120 --> 00:54:08,080
Speaker 1: I do it all baby.

1200
00:54:08,320 --> 00:54:09,000
Speaker 3: Yeah. I know.

1201
00:54:09,120 --> 00:54:11,800
Speaker 1: Guys love that. But what about this? What about the

1202
00:54:11,920 --> 00:54:14,399
Speaker 1: first time do you ever feel like the first time

1203
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:16,160
Speaker 1: I hold back a little, like the first time you're

1204
00:54:16,200 --> 00:54:17,719
Speaker 1: with somebody because you don't want to do it all.

1205
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:18,800
Speaker 3: I'm extreme.

1206
00:54:19,120 --> 00:54:21,120
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm very extreme.

1207
00:54:21,400 --> 00:54:24,240
Speaker 3: If I'm doing it, I'm fucking I was asking.

1208
00:54:24,080 --> 00:54:26,200
Speaker 5: Him earlier today. I was like, Hey, the first time

1209
00:54:26,239 --> 00:54:28,200
Speaker 5: you have sex, let's talk about a guy you give

1210
00:54:28,239 --> 00:54:30,600
Speaker 5: him head the first time. So we had mixed reviews

1211
00:54:31,040 --> 00:54:32,200
Speaker 5: and I was saying we should bring it up, but

1212
00:54:32,200 --> 00:54:33,160
Speaker 5: I don't know how open she is.

1213
00:54:33,239 --> 00:54:34,800
Speaker 1: She was like, I don't want to be you know.

1214
00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:36,759
Speaker 1: I was like, I feel like you can talk about it.

1215
00:54:37,760 --> 00:54:39,560
Speaker 5: So yes, the first time you're the first time you

1216
00:54:39,600 --> 00:54:41,480
Speaker 5: have sex with a guy, you won't give him head.

1217
00:54:41,520 --> 00:54:43,680
Speaker 5: She'll do it all, she'll do it all whatever. Yeah,

1218
00:54:44,480 --> 00:54:46,319
Speaker 5: I feel comfortable with you. Yeah, yeh, you feel safe.

1219
00:54:46,480 --> 00:54:48,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's what we said, Like since we're here and

1220
00:54:48,440 --> 00:54:49,520
Speaker 4: we might as well go there.

1221
00:54:49,880 --> 00:54:52,040
Speaker 3: Like, I don't know if.

1222
00:54:54,080 --> 00:54:55,759
Speaker 1: I don't know if the first time I have sex

1223
00:54:55,800 --> 00:54:57,719
Speaker 1: with somebody I would do I would give head because

1224
00:54:57,760 --> 00:54:59,080
Speaker 1: just in case it doesn't happen.

1225
00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:00,640
Speaker 5: Again, but you gave him, see though I don't.

1226
00:55:00,640 --> 00:55:01,840
Speaker 1: I mean, yeah, it's fine, but.

1227
00:55:03,600 --> 00:55:05,080
Speaker 3: I mean they're like the same thing.

1228
00:55:07,000 --> 00:55:08,840
Speaker 1: I like, the second time I would do it, but

1229
00:55:08,960 --> 00:55:11,279
Speaker 1: maybe the first time just in case. Is like I've

1230
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:13,320
Speaker 1: never had a one nice stand, but in case that

1231
00:55:14,560 --> 00:55:17,279
Speaker 1: it's so terrible, I've always I've always wanted to do it.

1232
00:55:17,360 --> 00:55:19,640
Speaker 1: It's never happened. There's been times that I've had sex

1233
00:55:19,719 --> 00:55:21,560
Speaker 1: with somebody and I was like this might never happen again,

1234
00:55:21,560 --> 00:55:25,279
Speaker 1: and then it did. Yeah, so that's not technically I.

1235
00:55:25,800 --> 00:55:27,560
Speaker 5: Thought I had one, but Angela is being a hater

1236
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:28,560
Speaker 5: and said I never had one.

1237
00:55:28,680 --> 00:55:31,320
Speaker 1: Yeah, she had sex with somebody like multiple times, but

1238
00:55:31,400 --> 00:55:32,880
Speaker 1: on a cruise.

1239
00:55:33,239 --> 00:55:36,160
Speaker 5: I didn't know them. And then after that they try

1240
00:55:36,160 --> 00:55:39,000
Speaker 5: to keep coming back, So then maybe, yeah.

1241
00:55:38,880 --> 00:55:41,120
Speaker 3: I've definitely had that where they try to keep coming back,

1242
00:55:41,160 --> 00:55:43,120
Speaker 3: but that's not then, but I didn't.

1243
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:44,600
Speaker 5: Then that was a one nice fan.

1244
00:55:44,760 --> 00:55:47,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, okay, I'm not mad at it. I think

1245
00:55:47,360 --> 00:55:50,240
Speaker 1: that's an amazing experience, like to go somewhere and meet somebody,

1246
00:55:51,280 --> 00:55:51,680
Speaker 1: to have that.

1247
00:55:52,160 --> 00:55:55,439
Speaker 3: Chemistry like that strong and then.

1248
00:55:57,480 --> 00:56:00,160
Speaker 4: Where I met somebody and we had sex outs time

1249
00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:02,000
Speaker 4: and then we never saw each other again. I've had

1250
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:04,959
Speaker 4: that moment like where I met somebody and we locked

1251
00:56:05,000 --> 00:56:08,600
Speaker 4: eyes and we got a crazy triathlon of sex the

1252
00:56:08,719 --> 00:56:11,320
Speaker 4: first night we met a couple of hours later, but

1253
00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:23,160
Speaker 4: then we ended up having them relationship. That's not because

1254
00:56:23,200 --> 00:56:26,520
Speaker 4: we we met and we had we went we stayed

1255
00:56:26,560 --> 00:56:30,120
Speaker 4: at this famous hotel in the city I can't remember

1256
00:56:30,239 --> 00:56:32,800
Speaker 4: right now, but whatever, we stood at this at a

1257
00:56:32,960 --> 00:56:36,160
Speaker 4: luxury hotel and we stood for three days just having

1258
00:56:36,280 --> 00:56:39,080
Speaker 4: sex and falling asleep inside of each other and ordering

1259
00:56:39,200 --> 00:56:42,520
Speaker 4: room service. I swear for three days and I'm like,

1260
00:56:42,640 --> 00:56:44,719
Speaker 4: we're leaving. We finally get to the point where we're

1261
00:56:44,760 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 4: leaving each other and I'm like hugging and them. I'm like,

1262
00:56:46,560 --> 00:56:48,160
Speaker 4: oh my god, I'm never going to see you again.

1263
00:56:48,520 --> 00:56:51,279
Speaker 4: And he's like, no, You're gonna see me again. And

1264
00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:53,400
Speaker 4: I'm like, it's okay. If I never see you again,

1265
00:56:53,680 --> 00:56:56,279
Speaker 4: it was worth it, Like we had a great sign.

1266
00:56:56,800 --> 00:56:58,879
Speaker 4: But I saw him again the next day and the day.

1267
00:57:02,680 --> 00:57:05,120
Speaker 1: Have you ever had a woman call your phone like

1268
00:57:05,200 --> 00:57:05,799
Speaker 1: another or.

1269
00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:10,239
Speaker 3: To be like you and mommy, No, I called after

1270
00:57:10,440 --> 00:57:13,240
Speaker 3: my ex cheated on me one of my exes.

1271
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:13,160
Speaker 4: I.

1272
00:57:14,840 --> 00:57:18,000
Speaker 1: Called their phone. I wrote a song about it.

1273
00:57:18,880 --> 00:57:21,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I messaged them on Twitter.

1274
00:57:21,400 --> 00:57:24,080
Speaker 4: Oh I remember this hotel Wardorf for story.

1275
00:57:26,000 --> 00:57:27,439
Speaker 3: I've never stayed at before.

1276
00:57:27,480 --> 00:57:32,520
Speaker 1: That's why I say, that's why I stay when I'm

1277
00:57:32,560 --> 00:57:35,920
Speaker 1: in Atlanta in Chicago. Those are my favorites. But it's

1278
00:57:36,000 --> 00:57:37,800
Speaker 1: not like crazy, where were we just at?

1279
00:57:38,840 --> 00:57:39,360
Speaker 5: Four seasons?

1280
00:57:39,400 --> 00:57:39,840
Speaker 1: Four season?

1281
00:57:39,920 --> 00:57:40,400
Speaker 4: Four seasons?

1282
00:57:40,440 --> 00:57:44,320
Speaker 3: Okay, that's bougie. That is is not like the biest.

1283
00:57:45,040 --> 00:57:45,320
Speaker 4: Hello.

1284
00:57:45,960 --> 00:57:48,480
Speaker 1: Well, here's the thing. If you travel a lot, you know.

1285
00:57:48,760 --> 00:57:50,320
Speaker 5: Listen because we were at the four season. I was like,

1286
00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:51,800
Speaker 5: I don't know if they have such us here. She

1287
00:57:51,920 --> 00:57:55,680
Speaker 5: was like, this is the four seasons. Fine, okay, okay,

1288
00:57:55,720 --> 00:57:56,680
Speaker 5: we'll continue with your story.

1289
00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:59,560
Speaker 3: You called. Yeah, So I d m her, I got

1290
00:57:59,600 --> 00:58:03,400
Speaker 3: her number, and well, okay, first he told me that

1291
00:58:03,440 --> 00:58:07,160
Speaker 3: he cheated on me. So then I was like with who,

1292
00:58:07,240 --> 00:58:09,400
Speaker 3: and he was like such and such. No, he didn't

1293
00:58:09,440 --> 00:58:11,120
Speaker 3: even tell me at first. I was like with who

1294
00:58:11,720 --> 00:58:13,080
Speaker 3: with because he had a guilty conscience.

1295
00:58:13,120 --> 00:58:17,880
Speaker 5: It's like he, yeah, my conscience ain't never been that guilty,

1296
00:58:17,920 --> 00:58:22,400
Speaker 5: but continue, I'm not myself. I'm gonna deny like a

1297
00:58:22,520 --> 00:58:27,360
Speaker 5: nigga on camera.

1298
00:58:27,920 --> 00:58:32,440
Speaker 3: And in the back of my head, I didn't turn

1299
00:58:32,440 --> 00:58:34,720
Speaker 3: around it with my face, it's a I.

1300
00:58:38,480 --> 00:58:39,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, okay, go ahead.

1301
00:58:41,040 --> 00:58:44,240
Speaker 3: So yeah, So I asked him like three times and

1302
00:58:44,360 --> 00:58:46,959
Speaker 3: then he finally told me. I found her on Twitter.

1303
00:58:47,120 --> 00:58:48,960
Speaker 3: I d md her and I was like hey, And

1304
00:58:49,080 --> 00:58:51,919
Speaker 3: I didn't even put blame on her too much. She knew,

1305
00:58:53,120 --> 00:58:56,840
Speaker 3: but I was like she was she was also the

1306
00:58:56,920 --> 00:58:59,680
Speaker 3: situation was just fucked up, and I was just like,

1307
00:59:00,000 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 3: I know this isn't all on you, but I just

1308
00:59:02,520 --> 00:59:04,440
Speaker 3: want you to know, like I'm a real person and

1309
00:59:04,840 --> 00:59:07,880
Speaker 3: that fucking hurt and that you were in a relationship

1310
00:59:08,040 --> 00:59:11,200
Speaker 3: three years that whatever. And then she was like, can

1311
00:59:11,240 --> 00:59:13,760
Speaker 3: you please like talk to me? And I was like, yeah,

1312
00:59:13,760 --> 00:59:15,560
Speaker 3: I would love to call you, and she was like okay.

1313
00:59:15,600 --> 00:59:16,960
Speaker 3: So we talked on the phone and she told me

1314
00:59:17,160 --> 00:59:20,080
Speaker 3: all the details. Yeah did she know he was in

1315
00:59:20,160 --> 00:59:23,880
Speaker 3: a relationship. Yeah, yeah, she knew it was dirty.

1316
00:59:23,880 --> 00:59:25,080
Speaker 1: You need to know all the details.

1317
00:59:25,560 --> 00:59:29,080
Speaker 3: Stomach. I did. Why because it was my first love,

1318
00:59:29,320 --> 00:59:32,240
Speaker 3: and like I think if it wasn't if if it was,

1319
00:59:33,080 --> 00:59:35,480
Speaker 3: if I thought that it was how he was presenting it,

1320
00:59:35,600 --> 00:59:37,360
Speaker 3: I think it would have been much harder for me

1321
00:59:37,480 --> 00:59:38,240
Speaker 3: to leave the situation.

1322
00:59:38,240 --> 00:59:39,600
Speaker 1: Okay, you know.

1323
00:59:42,480 --> 00:59:44,160
Speaker 3: Oh, like what he would say to her was what

1324
00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:46,040
Speaker 3: he said to me a lot when we were fo

1325
00:59:47,080 --> 00:59:49,640
Speaker 3: I know it was true, Like she didn't obviously didn't

1326
00:59:49,680 --> 00:59:51,520
Speaker 3: know that, and like she told me and it was

1327
00:59:51,640 --> 00:59:54,480
Speaker 3: like wow. And then just the way it happened, like

1328
00:59:54,640 --> 00:59:57,400
Speaker 3: they had a threesome. I got cheated on a threesome.

1329
00:59:57,480 --> 01:00:00,360
Speaker 5: You guys, I don't think I said that. At least

1330
01:00:00,360 --> 01:00:03,160
Speaker 5: it's something it was bad because for.

1331
01:00:03,280 --> 01:00:06,040
Speaker 3: Me, okay, and I'll open this up to everybody, but

1332
01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:08,680
Speaker 3: for me, it's like if if my person is going

1333
01:00:08,760 --> 01:00:10,320
Speaker 3: to cheat on me with a one night stand when

1334
01:00:10,320 --> 01:00:11,920
Speaker 3: they're drunk, or if my person's gonna cheat on me

1335
01:00:12,000 --> 01:00:13,680
Speaker 3: and have an affair with someone that they're in love with,

1336
01:00:13,840 --> 01:00:16,080
Speaker 3: I much rather choose. I'd much rather have them have

1337
01:00:16,160 --> 01:00:18,920
Speaker 3: an affair than cheat on me when they're drunk for

1338
01:00:19,000 --> 01:00:21,720
Speaker 3: one night, because you're throwing away years of a relationship

1339
01:00:21,800 --> 01:00:24,800
Speaker 3: for one stupid fucking mistake. You would say if you

1340
01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:26,720
Speaker 3: have an affair, I'm like, Okay, at least you were

1341
01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:30,800
Speaker 3: in love, like obviously hurt. No, obviously would hurt. But

1342
01:00:30,840 --> 01:00:34,360
Speaker 3: I'm like, there was a reason you love her, you

1343
01:00:34,760 --> 01:00:40,840
Speaker 3: know her, and I'm gonna die like.

1344
01:00:43,640 --> 01:00:46,240
Speaker 1: One night stand or like something that doesn't mean anything,

1345
01:00:46,640 --> 01:00:49,240
Speaker 1: because that's so many times you guys think that, like

1346
01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:52,400
Speaker 1: I love you, but this didn't mean anything. But it's

1347
01:00:52,440 --> 01:00:54,080
Speaker 1: way worse. If it's like I love both of.

1348
01:00:54,080 --> 01:00:58,480
Speaker 3: You, but I love both of you for me, It's

1349
01:00:58,520 --> 01:01:03,480
Speaker 3: like it's like even disrespectful. That's what I was just saying.

1350
01:01:03,480 --> 01:01:06,280
Speaker 3: It feels even more disrespectful to me if you're doing

1351
01:01:06,360 --> 01:01:09,600
Speaker 3: it just for fun, random but you're still number one

1352
01:01:09,680 --> 01:01:12,560
Speaker 3: in the other stitution in that situation, No there, number one,

1353
01:01:13,240 --> 01:01:14,960
Speaker 3: No there, number one.

1354
01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:18,200
Speaker 5: So you you you heard all the details about his

1355
01:01:18,400 --> 01:01:19,920
Speaker 5: cheating situation.

1356
01:01:20,400 --> 01:01:23,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, and then she told him that we had a

1357
01:01:23,720 --> 01:01:25,720
Speaker 3: conversation and then he called me and got mad at me.

1358
01:01:25,920 --> 01:01:28,760
Speaker 5: The oh wow, but you know, guys like to turn

1359
01:01:28,800 --> 01:01:29,160
Speaker 5: it around.

1360
01:01:30,680 --> 01:01:32,920
Speaker 3: He was just like, I can't believe you called her?

1361
01:01:33,880 --> 01:01:35,480
Speaker 3: How could you do that? And I was like, I

1362
01:01:35,560 --> 01:01:36,560
Speaker 3: don't give a fun.

1363
01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:41,400
Speaker 1: So you really broke up after that, because sometimes it

1364
01:01:41,480 --> 01:01:42,200
Speaker 1: takes a little while.

1365
01:01:42,480 --> 01:01:44,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, we broke So. Also, what was fucked up is

1366
01:01:45,040 --> 01:01:47,600
Speaker 3: I had just me and my parents, So he was

1367
01:01:47,640 --> 01:01:50,080
Speaker 3: in another country and did this, and me and my

1368
01:01:50,160 --> 01:01:53,240
Speaker 3: parents had just moved us in to our own apartment

1369
01:01:54,600 --> 01:01:56,560
Speaker 3: two days before we signed, the least two days before

1370
01:01:56,600 --> 01:02:00,480
Speaker 3: he told you lie. So I was like, this is

1371
01:02:00,760 --> 01:02:02,440
Speaker 3: so fucked up. So we had to talk about the

1372
01:02:02,480 --> 01:02:06,120
Speaker 3: apartment after and like and then also I didn't feel

1373
01:02:06,200 --> 01:02:10,160
Speaker 3: closure at all because we broke up over FaceTime, Like

1374
01:02:10,240 --> 01:02:11,640
Speaker 3: he was in another country for a while.

1375
01:02:12,320 --> 01:02:13,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, how did you know that? I don't know?

1376
01:02:14,360 --> 01:02:15,920
Speaker 1: Okay, go ahead, did you just guess or do you

1377
01:02:16,080 --> 01:02:18,400
Speaker 1: know that? Okay, whoa, that was crazy?

1378
01:02:19,560 --> 01:02:27,600
Speaker 3: I was whoa gurball? Yeah no, no, I'm kidding, that

1379
01:02:27,640 --> 01:02:30,160
Speaker 3: would be crazy. Yeah.

1380
01:02:30,360 --> 01:02:32,320
Speaker 1: So I was just like it was.

1381
01:02:32,440 --> 01:02:35,280
Speaker 3: It was hard for me to let go obviously.

1382
01:02:36,520 --> 01:02:38,360
Speaker 1: Said I need you to be here, like, yeah, I

1383
01:02:38,400 --> 01:02:38,800
Speaker 1: don't need to.

1384
01:02:39,200 --> 01:02:41,560
Speaker 3: Well, that's the person that you rely on too, So

1385
01:02:41,800 --> 01:02:43,560
Speaker 3: like that was my best friend. I was with him

1386
01:02:43,560 --> 01:02:47,760
Speaker 3: for three years. So it's like really really traumatizing and

1387
01:02:47,920 --> 01:02:51,400
Speaker 3: like really sad. And that was also like his brothers

1388
01:02:51,440 --> 01:02:53,800
Speaker 3: and everyone that was that was like my family, Like

1389
01:02:53,880 --> 01:02:56,280
Speaker 3: we all lived together. So it felt like everything, it

1390
01:02:56,320 --> 01:02:59,880
Speaker 3: felt like our whole family was breaking up, you know. Yeah, yeah,

1391
01:03:00,280 --> 01:03:02,720
Speaker 3: And so it was a lot to let go of.

1392
01:03:02,920 --> 01:03:06,480
Speaker 3: But when he came back, he came back to LA

1393
01:03:07,200 --> 01:03:10,040
Speaker 3: and I was just like, you're a pussy, Like you

1394
01:03:10,080 --> 01:03:11,480
Speaker 3: can't even come and see me. For me to have

1395
01:03:11,520 --> 01:03:14,280
Speaker 3: a conversation with you, like that's disgusting. And I kind

1396
01:03:14,280 --> 01:03:15,920
Speaker 3: of went off and said some shit I probably shouldn't

1397
01:03:15,960 --> 01:03:17,680
Speaker 3: have said, but like you did some shit that you

1398
01:03:17,760 --> 01:03:18,400
Speaker 3: shouldn't have done.

1399
01:03:19,440 --> 01:03:21,560
Speaker 1: I love it. Yeah, I was just some of those

1400
01:03:21,560 --> 01:03:23,760
Speaker 1: things you can't take back. The problem is that now

1401
01:03:23,800 --> 01:03:25,360
Speaker 1: you feel like you're in the wrong, like damn, I

1402
01:03:25,440 --> 01:03:26,439
Speaker 1: said some fucked up ship.

1403
01:03:26,800 --> 01:03:29,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, and I'm I feel guilty really easily. Yeah, Like

1404
01:03:29,760 --> 01:03:31,560
Speaker 3: I'm I'm the person that could be innocent and be

1405
01:03:31,640 --> 01:03:33,480
Speaker 3: interrogated and like I would.

1406
01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:36,960
Speaker 1: Be end up in jail. I just admit some shit

1407
01:03:37,000 --> 01:03:37,720
Speaker 1: I didn't even.

1408
01:03:37,640 --> 01:03:43,040
Speaker 3: Do because yeah, I'm like, damn, maybe I let this

1409
01:03:43,760 --> 01:03:46,800
Speaker 3: and that's why this happened and I'm an accomplice.

1410
01:03:47,160 --> 01:03:49,880
Speaker 1: Well, let me ask you this, how does your relationships

1411
01:03:49,920 --> 01:03:53,960
Speaker 1: affect work? Like have you ever been with somebody or

1412
01:03:54,080 --> 01:03:56,560
Speaker 1: been so in that like you neglected things that you

1413
01:03:56,680 --> 01:03:58,960
Speaker 1: had to do or does it feel what you have

1414
01:03:59,160 --> 01:03:59,440
Speaker 1: going on?

1415
01:04:00,240 --> 01:04:03,560
Speaker 3: I think it fuels what I have going on. I

1416
01:04:03,640 --> 01:04:06,120
Speaker 3: think either way, whatever i'm I don't want to call

1417
01:04:06,160 --> 01:04:07,760
Speaker 3: it a distraction because it's just life. Like you got

1418
01:04:07,840 --> 01:04:11,880
Speaker 3: to live life because life informs are and so whatever

1419
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:15,040
Speaker 3: I'm living on the outside, I'm going to do the

1420
01:04:15,040 --> 01:04:18,120
Speaker 3: same amount. Like if I'm going out and partying with

1421
01:04:18,240 --> 01:04:20,440
Speaker 3: my friends or doing whatever, that's the same amount that

1422
01:04:20,480 --> 01:04:22,760
Speaker 3: I'm going to do where I'm partying with my friends

1423
01:04:22,840 --> 01:04:25,640
Speaker 3: and hanging out with the person I'm with, So I

1424
01:04:25,680 --> 01:04:29,240
Speaker 3: don't neglect nothing. Work is always really important, and I

1425
01:04:29,440 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 3: make sure I'm always with people that are really driven

1426
01:04:32,720 --> 01:04:38,000
Speaker 3: so and have like really intense, beautiful goals, and so

1427
01:04:38,440 --> 01:04:41,120
Speaker 3: I think we both are kind of have the understanding

1428
01:04:41,200 --> 01:04:45,080
Speaker 3: always that work is a really important part of our lives,

1429
01:04:45,160 --> 01:04:46,600
Speaker 3: especially if we want to get to where we're going

1430
01:04:46,640 --> 01:04:47,240
Speaker 3: to go together.

1431
01:04:47,920 --> 01:04:50,200
Speaker 1: Oh well, listen, we're really excited if I graduate. We

1432
01:04:50,360 --> 01:04:52,920
Speaker 1: just we've heard a few of the songs, but I

1433
01:04:52,960 --> 01:04:54,400
Speaker 1: know it's about to come out. You're going on tour.

1434
01:04:54,840 --> 01:05:00,480
Speaker 3: Yeah August, No, okay, September, September, October, and I look

1435
01:05:00,520 --> 01:05:04,200
Speaker 3: at Christine for these things. September, September. It changes all

1436
01:05:04,240 --> 01:05:04,800
Speaker 3: the time, you know.

1437
01:05:05,120 --> 01:05:07,800
Speaker 1: I see why people love you so much though, Like,

1438
01:05:08,000 --> 01:05:10,960
Speaker 1: this is a really great fun conversation. Very okay, yeah,

1439
01:05:11,200 --> 01:05:12,040
Speaker 1: very open.

1440
01:05:12,000 --> 01:05:13,160
Speaker 5: And crazy, crazy girl.

1441
01:05:13,760 --> 01:05:16,240
Speaker 3: I'm I'm medicated.

1442
01:05:17,080 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 1: Say I can tell when she don't take her medication too.

1443
01:05:21,560 --> 01:05:22,520
Speaker 5: Zz did you take your medicine?

1444
01:05:22,520 --> 01:05:23,880
Speaker 4: I'm like, oh shit, okay.

1445
01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:24,320
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah.

1446
01:05:24,520 --> 01:05:26,160
Speaker 1: She's like, let me get I need a banana, so

1447
01:05:26,200 --> 01:05:29,360
Speaker 1: I mood so yes, no, you have to.

1448
01:05:29,960 --> 01:05:30,360
Speaker 4: You have to.

1449
01:05:30,480 --> 01:05:33,040
Speaker 3: But like I listen, I'd rather be alive and have

1450
01:05:33,120 --> 01:05:36,400
Speaker 3: to take medication and be nauseous without eating a banana. Sure, right,

1451
01:05:36,640 --> 01:05:37,160
Speaker 3: anything else.

1452
01:05:37,240 --> 01:05:38,560
Speaker 5: I had to wait for the kick in, so's all.

1453
01:05:38,640 --> 01:05:39,520
Speaker 5: He hasn't kicked in yet.

1454
01:05:40,080 --> 01:05:42,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, you gotta wait those like forty five minutes.

1455
01:05:42,320 --> 01:05:44,560
Speaker 1: How did you know that you were bipolar before? Did

1456
01:05:44,600 --> 01:05:46,120
Speaker 1: you know before you were diagnosed?

1457
01:05:46,840 --> 01:05:49,680
Speaker 3: So I actually so bipolar skids Aphennie runs in my family.

1458
01:05:50,280 --> 01:05:56,560
Speaker 3: And I was told by I experienced the first depressive

1459
01:05:56,560 --> 01:05:59,640
Speaker 3: episode that I can remember. I was twelve, and I've

1460
01:05:59,640 --> 01:06:02,720
Speaker 3: always dealt with anxiety and depression, and so I thought,

1461
01:06:02,760 --> 01:06:05,800
Speaker 3: that's just what I had. And you know, I've always

1462
01:06:05,840 --> 01:06:08,280
Speaker 3: been like hyper, pouncing off the walls, and then sometimes

1463
01:06:08,280 --> 01:06:11,200
Speaker 3: I would just like become some like some person that

1464
01:06:11,320 --> 01:06:14,280
Speaker 3: just like wasn't me, almost like really quiet and just

1465
01:06:14,360 --> 01:06:18,080
Speaker 3: like not acting like myself. And so that was kind

1466
01:06:18,080 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 3: of happening in my whole life. And then I was

1467
01:06:20,360 --> 01:06:23,160
Speaker 3: told by two people before I got diagnosed by my

1468
01:06:23,360 --> 01:06:27,320
Speaker 3: current therapist that I was bipolar, and I didn't believe them.

1469
01:06:27,480 --> 01:06:30,400
Speaker 3: One of them was Jennifer Lewis, who also is bipolar.

1470
01:06:30,960 --> 01:06:35,120
Speaker 3: She's fucking amazing, incredible. She she did an outro on Heavy,

1471
01:06:35,160 --> 01:06:37,560
Speaker 3: one of my songs about mental health and depression, and

1472
01:06:38,560 --> 01:06:40,400
Speaker 3: she invited me to her home and we were talking

1473
01:06:41,080 --> 01:06:43,720
Speaker 3: and I was just crying, telling her about all the

1474
01:06:43,720 --> 01:06:45,440
Speaker 3: shit that was going on, and she was like, bitcher

1475
01:06:45,480 --> 01:06:49,880
Speaker 3: bipolar and I was like, no, I'm not, and she

1476
01:06:50,120 --> 01:06:53,000
Speaker 3: was like yes, you are. I'm sorry, but you are.

1477
01:06:53,360 --> 01:06:54,600
Speaker 5: She like she recognized me.

1478
01:06:54,760 --> 01:06:56,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, she gave me some homework and she was like,

1479
01:06:56,560 --> 01:06:58,600
Speaker 3: come to me when you're ready. I wasn't ready.

1480
01:06:58,720 --> 01:06:59,040
Speaker 4: I didn't.

1481
01:06:59,040 --> 01:06:59,920
Speaker 3: I didn't come back to her.

1482
01:07:00,120 --> 01:07:01,000
Speaker 4: I was so scared.

1483
01:07:01,560 --> 01:07:04,600
Speaker 3: And then a couple months later, maybe I was going

1484
01:07:04,640 --> 01:07:08,360
Speaker 3: to this therapist and I couldn't fully trust her, like

1485
01:07:08,400 --> 01:07:10,480
Speaker 3: I wasn't really connected to her in that way, and

1486
01:07:10,600 --> 01:07:12,920
Speaker 3: she brought it up and mentioned that I was bipolar,

1487
01:07:12,960 --> 01:07:15,240
Speaker 3: and I was like, no, I'm not. I never went

1488
01:07:15,280 --> 01:07:17,440
Speaker 3: to her again after that because it's just scary, you know,

1489
01:07:17,600 --> 01:07:22,000
Speaker 3: it's scary. And then my therapist now I really really

1490
01:07:22,080 --> 01:07:22,520
Speaker 3: trust her.

1491
01:07:22,680 --> 01:07:23,120
Speaker 1: I love her.

1492
01:07:23,160 --> 01:07:25,240
Speaker 3: I think it's also important to have a therapist that

1493
01:07:25,360 --> 01:07:28,440
Speaker 3: looks like you, and so it just there's a different

1494
01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:31,320
Speaker 3: kind of connection there. And she's so dope, like she'll

1495
01:07:31,360 --> 01:07:36,080
Speaker 3: be like she'll be like that's always something. She's like, Okay,

1496
01:07:36,160 --> 01:07:37,600
Speaker 3: let me ask you a question. I'm like yeah. She's like,

1497
01:07:37,680 --> 01:07:40,360
Speaker 3: do you want doctor or do you want Monica? And

1498
01:07:40,480 --> 01:07:42,800
Speaker 3: I'm like that is she is my bitch, Like that

1499
01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:46,640
Speaker 3: is my friend. So I really trust her. And she

1500
01:07:46,920 --> 01:07:48,480
Speaker 3: mentioned it to me in like a really caring way.

1501
01:07:48,560 --> 01:07:51,360
Speaker 3: She was like, what how would you feel if I

1502
01:07:51,480 --> 01:07:55,840
Speaker 3: told you that you're bipolar? And we had that conversation,

1503
01:07:56,080 --> 01:07:58,560
Speaker 3: and because I trusted her and she kind of eased

1504
01:07:58,600 --> 01:08:01,600
Speaker 3: me into it that way, I was like, Okay, maybe

1505
01:08:02,040 --> 01:08:03,640
Speaker 3: maybe there's something there, but also like.

1506
01:08:03,720 --> 01:08:05,600
Speaker 4: What's the proper way to give it to somebody?

1507
01:08:05,840 --> 01:08:06,080
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1508
01:08:06,360 --> 01:08:08,800
Speaker 5: Yeah, just like easing someone had, you know.

1509
01:08:09,120 --> 01:08:14,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I really felt like finally, like there's there's

1510
01:08:14,160 --> 01:08:15,880
Speaker 3: somewhere to go from here. I don't have to live

1511
01:08:16,000 --> 01:08:17,560
Speaker 3: like this for the rest of my life, you know,

1512
01:08:17,720 --> 01:08:20,240
Speaker 3: I can really there's a path for.

1513
01:08:20,360 --> 01:08:22,160
Speaker 1: Me to feel you can take control of it.

1514
01:08:22,240 --> 01:08:25,479
Speaker 3: I don't have to just survive now survive myself. I

1515
01:08:25,560 --> 01:08:27,800
Speaker 3: can like actually live and enjoy my life.

1516
01:08:27,880 --> 01:08:30,240
Speaker 1: That's great. Well, I'm happy to hear that. And the

1517
01:08:30,320 --> 01:08:35,479
Speaker 1: new album, Grudges, comes out June sixteenth. Only one feature

1518
01:08:35,560 --> 01:08:38,840
Speaker 1: on this album too, and that's the song lma Right, Oh,

1519
01:08:38,840 --> 01:08:40,760
Speaker 1: there's more, because what we have here only has one.

1520
01:08:41,600 --> 01:08:42,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, there's there's more.

1521
01:08:43,680 --> 01:08:46,840
Speaker 1: Oh is that secretive or we don't have that it's.

1522
01:08:46,720 --> 01:08:49,760
Speaker 3: A secret or can I say? Okay? Christine gave me

1523
01:08:49,800 --> 01:08:54,759
Speaker 3: the go ahead, so we have Bryson Tiller, Oh yeah, okay,

1524
01:08:55,160 --> 01:09:01,240
Speaker 3: Ella Khalead and I have a those you always.

1525
01:09:01,000 --> 01:09:03,639
Speaker 1: Get the heavy hitters though you're a heavy head of yourself,

1526
01:09:03,720 --> 01:09:04,519
Speaker 1: but yes you.

1527
01:09:04,880 --> 01:09:07,840
Speaker 3: I mean, I really am so honored that I have

1528
01:09:08,040 --> 01:09:10,759
Speaker 3: people that are that fuck with me, that are really

1529
01:09:10,880 --> 01:09:13,200
Speaker 3: successful and really talented, you know, like they know what

1530
01:09:13,320 --> 01:09:17,519
Speaker 3: the fuck they're doing. And I am so grateful that

1531
01:09:17,560 --> 01:09:20,400
Speaker 3: they're so genuine, you know, like they really backed me

1532
01:09:21,040 --> 01:09:24,840
Speaker 3: and they I can't even tell you how many times

1533
01:09:24,840 --> 01:09:27,160
Speaker 3: I've had conversations with them about like the industry and

1534
01:09:27,200 --> 01:09:30,760
Speaker 3: how to get through shit, and they're just so fucking supportive.

1535
01:09:30,960 --> 01:09:35,640
Speaker 3: So I'm honored that these people want to work with me.

1536
01:09:36,439 --> 01:09:38,479
Speaker 1: Well, I'm sure they love working with you. Thank you

1537
01:09:38,760 --> 01:09:40,599
Speaker 1: as well. You know, it's a two way street here.

1538
01:09:41,240 --> 01:09:41,519
Speaker 4: Thank you.

1539
01:09:41,760 --> 01:09:43,880
Speaker 1: All right, Well, thank you so much for joining us.

1540
01:09:43,960 --> 01:09:46,639
Speaker 1: And you're not going to be a stranger, no come back,

1541
01:09:46,840 --> 01:09:49,240
Speaker 1: yes please? Then, I mean we test on a lot

1542
01:09:49,280 --> 01:09:51,000
Speaker 1: of different things, and I think it was a really

1543
01:09:51,040 --> 01:09:54,960
Speaker 1: important conversation. So besides being super talented as a writer,

1544
01:09:55,720 --> 01:09:59,679
Speaker 1: as a singer, as an actress, anymore acting roles coming up.

1545
01:09:59,560 --> 01:10:02,080
Speaker 3: To uh not coming up, but I'm definitely gonna do it.

1546
01:10:02,120 --> 01:10:05,000
Speaker 3: I'm gonna explore that this next year for sure.

1547
01:10:05,240 --> 01:10:07,400
Speaker 1: Okay anything you didn't tell us that we should know

1548
01:10:07,439 --> 01:10:08,960
Speaker 1: about to because I want to make sure we get

1549
01:10:09,000 --> 01:10:09,240
Speaker 1: it all.

1550
01:10:09,520 --> 01:10:11,880
Speaker 3: I mean, I think I said it, but I'm gonna

1551
01:10:11,920 --> 01:10:17,439
Speaker 3: say it again. I am number one. I am number one.

1552
01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:20,360
Speaker 3: I am that bit, number one, number three babies, I

1553
01:10:20,479 --> 01:10:21,080
Speaker 3: am that bitch.

1554
01:10:21,960 --> 01:10:24,080
Speaker 5: The next next time she comes, we should do like

1555
01:10:25,560 --> 01:10:25,760
Speaker 5: I have.

1556
01:10:26,000 --> 01:10:27,880
Speaker 1: Yea, Yeah, I got I got us.

1557
01:10:29,120 --> 01:10:30,479
Speaker 3: Oh my god, that's right.

1558
01:10:31,800 --> 01:10:37,200
Speaker 4: Definitely got the plug. I mean I won't I know how,

1559
01:10:37,640 --> 01:10:39,760
Speaker 4: but I won't say I'm hitting you.

1560
01:10:39,880 --> 01:10:40,800
Speaker 3: Every time I'm in New York.

1561
01:10:40,920 --> 01:10:43,920
Speaker 1: No, A thousand percent. I got you. And for sure,

1562
01:10:44,240 --> 01:10:45,960
Speaker 1: yeah because family.

1563
01:10:46,080 --> 01:10:52,040
Speaker 3: Yes, exactly, literally yeah, literally literally literally.

1564
01:10:51,880 --> 01:10:53,519
Speaker 4: Amazing And it's a good plug.

1565
01:10:53,600 --> 01:10:55,719
Speaker 1: It's yeah, it's he's official.

1566
01:10:55,840 --> 01:11:01,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, he's official. He's official. I didn't want to say.

1567
01:11:02,880 --> 01:11:06,280
Speaker 1: All right, well, Pianna to day, thank you so much, amazing.

1568
01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:06,960
Speaker 3: For having me.

1569
01:11:07,240 --> 01:11:07,560
Speaker 4: Thank you,