WEBVTT - “I’M GIVING UP THE PARTY LIFE” 0:00:02.560 --> 0:00:02.960 It was this. 0:00:03.520 --> 0:00:04.440 Hey, what's up? 0:00:04.440 --> 0:00:04.600 Man? 0:00:04.640 --> 0:00:05.240 What's your name? 0:00:08.200 --> 0:00:08.600 Ellis? 0:00:08.600 --> 0:00:12.160 Who is this Ellie? Ellis Islands? 0:00:13.680 --> 0:00:14.600 Yeah? How you. 0:00:17.320 --> 0:00:17.760 Have you been? 0:00:17.800 --> 0:00:18.279 Have you ever? 0:00:18.680 --> 0:00:20.160 Have you been to Ellis Islands? 0:00:21.680 --> 0:00:21.919 Yeah? 0:00:21.960 --> 0:00:22.200 Bro? 0:00:22.280 --> 0:00:22.799 Who is this? 0:00:23.239 --> 0:00:24.560 It's what you know? 0:00:26.160 --> 0:00:28.160 Have you imagined what your life might be like if 0:00:28.200 --> 0:00:30.720 you asked less questions and went with the flow more often? 0:00:33.600 --> 0:00:35.920 You know? I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I think I know 0:00:35.960 --> 0:00:36.880 who what it is? Actually? 0:00:38.400 --> 0:00:39.200 What do you want? Bro? 0:00:40.360 --> 0:00:41.760 Wait? You think you know who this is? 0:00:42.800 --> 0:00:44.400 Yeah? I got a pretty good guess. 0:00:44.600 --> 0:00:46.280 Okay, go ahead. 0:00:46.960 --> 0:00:54.680 Uh you're probably my friend Vinnie. Bro, he's in a 0:00:54.680 --> 0:00:59.680 different fucking number. Where'd that take with? 0:01:00.040 --> 0:01:00.160 Bro? 0:01:02.200 --> 0:01:06.280 Vinnie? Tell me more about your friend Vinnie. 0:01:07.800 --> 0:01:07.920 Uh. 0:01:09.520 --> 0:01:10.440 He's a good dude. 0:01:10.720 --> 0:01:11.640 He's funny as fuck. 0:01:11.760 --> 0:01:11.960 Bro. 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:22.039 Where'd you and Vinnie meet? I'm calling him back? 0:01:25.240 --> 0:01:26.600 Yo, what's up? 0:01:26.640 --> 0:01:26.840 Man? 0:01:28.720 --> 0:01:29.160 What's up? 0:01:29.240 --> 0:01:30.600 Dude? Who the fuck is this? 0:01:30.720 --> 0:01:30.959 Bro? 0:01:31.040 --> 0:01:34.040 It's it's the Gecko guy. 0:01:34.640 --> 0:01:36.400 Oh ship, it's Kyle. 0:01:37.319 --> 0:01:39.759 H Lyle, But either way it is. 0:01:41.880 --> 0:01:42.440 Yo Lyle. 0:01:42.480 --> 0:01:45.360 I'm so sorry, Bro, I thought it was somebody cranking. Bro. 0:01:46.319 --> 0:01:48.080 Who's Vinnie? Tell me about Vinnie? 0:01:48.880 --> 0:01:49.080 Oh? 0:01:49.120 --> 0:01:51.120 Bro, my friend Vinnie. He's a cool dude. Bro, He's 0:01:51.120 --> 0:01:54.640 from South Florida like me, Dude. He likes to do 0:01:54.680 --> 0:01:58.280 these things bro, where he like uses AI to like 0:01:58.720 --> 0:02:04.400 uh train like where models and then he'll like he'll 0:02:04.440 --> 0:02:06.840 like create ais for like different people and then he'll 0:02:06.840 --> 0:02:10.359 do like crazy shit to them, bro. Like this one 0:02:10.400 --> 0:02:16.160 that he had was of President Biden, and he like 0:02:16.280 --> 0:02:19.960 kept Biden in like this like underground bunker and shit. Bro, 0:02:20.040 --> 0:02:20.800 it was super weird. 0:02:22.080 --> 0:02:25.760 He he AI trained a Joe Biden voice to like 0:02:25.800 --> 0:02:27.160 pretend he was in a bunker. 0:02:28.480 --> 0:02:30.840 Yeah. But he like he like kept him in a basement. 0:02:32.080 --> 0:02:32.320 Wow. 0:02:33.520 --> 0:02:35.520 Yeah bro, and he would like fuck with him and 0:02:35.560 --> 0:02:37.280 be like, bro, do you want to get out of 0:02:37.280 --> 0:02:39.440 the basement? And I and like all this stupid shit. 0:02:40.280 --> 0:02:43.079 So wait, how do you know Vinnie H? 0:02:43.200 --> 0:02:45.519 I know Vinnie from partying Delray. 0:02:46.160 --> 0:02:47.160 Partying in del Rey. 0:02:48.040 --> 0:02:50.320 Yeah, Bro, we have a good bar scene out here, bro. 0:02:50.400 --> 0:02:52.400 And I just met him one night do him Ustual? 0:02:52.440 --> 0:02:53.880 I think that's cool. 0:02:53.919 --> 0:02:55.920 You seem like you've got an interesting life. Ellis. I'm 0:02:55.960 --> 0:02:56.920 excited to talk to you. 0:02:58.160 --> 0:02:59.919 Yeah, bro, I need to talk to you, man. 0:03:00.160 --> 0:03:01.000 B bro. 0:03:01.760 --> 0:03:03.680 Uh, it's just been crazy in my life and I 0:03:03.680 --> 0:03:05.080 need to get it off my chest. 0:03:05.280 --> 0:03:07.080 Wait, I have I actually have a few more questions 0:03:07.120 --> 0:03:09.440 about that. He like, okay, so did you think I 0:03:09.560 --> 0:03:12.080 was like an ai voice of some kind? 0:03:12.680 --> 0:03:14.960 Well, I thought that maybe he was messing with me, 0:03:15.000 --> 0:03:17.800 because I remember I texted you earlier, but I didn't 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:19.600 realize that you could get back to me so quickly. 0:03:19.600 --> 0:03:21.440 This is like the second time I try to get on. 0:03:24.000 --> 0:03:26.920 So, like, have you ever have you been the victim 0:03:26.960 --> 0:03:28.280 of many prank calls? 0:03:29.639 --> 0:03:29.880 Oh? 0:03:30.000 --> 0:03:31.960 Yeah, actually a couple of times? 0:03:32.880 --> 0:03:37.680 And what what was the uh prank behind? 0:03:38.280 --> 0:03:40.000 What was the prank behind the call? 0:03:40.880 --> 0:03:43.840 Well, I mean this time, bro, Okay, so I knew 0:03:43.880 --> 0:03:47.040 these two chicks, bro, and I guess they didn't want 0:03:47.120 --> 0:03:49.160 something who they were, but I must have known them 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:52.120 in real life. And so they called me and like sorry, 0:03:52.240 --> 0:03:56.560 messing with me a ship And I seriously, like to 0:03:56.560 --> 0:03:59.520 this day don't know who those two people were, because 0:03:59.760 --> 0:04:01.360 I mean, there's like messing with me. 0:04:02.480 --> 0:04:05.680 So let's get into it. Why do you what kind 0:04:05.720 --> 0:04:08.080 of wait? Real quid? Hold on, man? Where are you 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:08.600 right now? 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:14.520 What I'm hearing like the whizzing of of cars and nots? 0:04:15.080 --> 0:04:17.320 Yeah, I'm I'm actually back on my way to back 0:04:17.360 --> 0:04:18.279 to my crib right now. 0:04:19.160 --> 0:04:27.120 I went yeah, So so what is your life problem? 0:04:27.200 --> 0:04:30.080 You seem like you have a good life. I'm curious 0:04:30.120 --> 0:04:30.840 what's going wrong? 0:04:32.320 --> 0:04:35.200 I mean I do bro I thinks are pretty good. 0:04:36.680 --> 0:04:39.279 Things have been like kind of weird recently for me, 0:04:39.440 --> 0:04:43.080 So like, are you live right now? 0:04:43.120 --> 0:04:43.920 Can I call you back? 0:04:44.839 --> 0:04:48.760 I I mean, we can talk now if you want. 0:04:48.040 --> 0:04:50.840 Okay, because yeah, I'm going I'm like two minutes away 0:04:50.839 --> 0:04:51.400 from my crib. 0:04:52.000 --> 0:04:56.920 That's fine, Okay, So okay. 0:04:59.160 --> 0:05:02.560 I started into therapy right probably like two years ago. 0:05:04.120 --> 0:05:06.400 This girl that I was seeing I really liked because 0:05:06.440 --> 0:05:10.680 I thought she was really hot, and we ended up 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:14.760 hooking up and she got pregnant. So after that, I 0:05:14.800 --> 0:05:19.400 got like really really upset by my life because I 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:23.440 kind of felt like, I don't know, like I thought 0:05:23.480 --> 0:05:25.120 it was a good opportunity for me to be like 0:05:25.120 --> 0:05:27.880 I could definitely mature out of the situation, but she 0:05:28.000 --> 0:05:31.400 definitely didn't want to have kids. So like that ended 0:05:31.480 --> 0:05:34.760 up me leading to like drinking, and then eventually I 0:05:34.839 --> 0:05:35.039 had to. 0:05:35.040 --> 0:05:35.719 Go to therapy. 0:05:36.760 --> 0:05:40.760 And when I went to therapy, they got me to 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:42.960 quit smoking weed because I spoke sweet for like a 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:45.159 long time, man, Like I spoke sweet since I was 0:05:45.160 --> 0:05:48.679 like thirteen years old fifteen, I started like chronically using 0:05:48.720 --> 0:05:52.720 like every single day. So I quit at twenty six, 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:59.760 and like it's just been like a hell but a 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:02.799 transition because when I quit smoking weed, I got really 0:06:02.800 --> 0:06:08.640 into night stocks like man, like real bad, and like 0:06:08.720 --> 0:06:11.360 that shit has just ruined like my parts of my life. 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:14.920 Like it's been social weird experience because like it's ruined 0:06:14.920 --> 0:06:18.520 parts of my life, but also it's like really enhanced 0:06:18.560 --> 0:06:21.000 them because for a while there I was putting drugs 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:25.560 and like things were like going pretty well, and I 0:06:25.600 --> 0:06:28.080 got to be, you know, be able to like reconnect 0:06:28.120 --> 0:06:31.240 with a lot of old friends of mine, people that 0:06:31.320 --> 0:06:34.840 I just really didn't even like consider were my friends 0:06:35.640 --> 0:06:38.279 and I didn't consider like reconnecting with them because like 0:06:38.400 --> 0:06:40.279 I would just smoke weed every day, and like I 0:06:40.320 --> 0:06:42.640 feel like when I smoke weed every day, it's just 0:06:42.640 --> 0:06:44.400 like I don't really guilt fuck about anything, you know 0:06:44.440 --> 0:06:46.880 what I mean, Like things just kind of have happened 0:06:46.880 --> 0:06:52.800 to you, and like, you know, you really just don't 0:06:52.800 --> 0:06:54.760 guilt fuck, Like you don't have like any ambition or 0:06:54.839 --> 0:06:56.400 you're not like like trying to move forward. 0:06:56.400 --> 0:07:01.840 And like, so all right, I got multiple questions. 0:07:02.240 --> 0:07:06.279 One, So okay, So this all started when this girl 0:07:06.320 --> 0:07:09.479 got pregnant and am I am I under to understand 0:07:09.480 --> 0:07:14.440 correctly that she she terminated the pregnancy. Yeah, okay, and 0:07:14.560 --> 0:07:17.680 so you and so it was this roller coaster where 0:07:17.720 --> 0:07:22.120 you thought, but you got you guys got pregnant on accident, 0:07:22.920 --> 0:07:26.239 and then you wanted to take it to like you Basically, 0:07:26.280 --> 0:07:28.360 it was basically an emotional roller coaster, I'm sure for 0:07:28.440 --> 0:07:33.960 both of you. Yeah, and then it was that like 0:07:34.160 --> 0:07:39.600 the catalyst for the the the drugs stuff. 0:07:41.160 --> 0:07:44.680 I mean, I was always kind of like into doing drugs, 0:07:45.040 --> 0:07:48.280 but like not like this, Like my night's problem was. 0:07:48.400 --> 0:07:49.760 So fucking bad. 0:07:50.040 --> 0:07:52.000 I mean, I'm about like two months removed from it 0:07:52.120 --> 0:07:55.440 right now, but like even now, it's like I still 0:07:55.440 --> 0:07:57.240 feel like going back to it and shit, and it's 0:07:57.280 --> 0:07:59.800 just so fucking hard to like you all to quit. 0:08:00.920 --> 0:08:04.200 I mean, I don't know. I think it's kind of 0:08:04.240 --> 0:08:07.960 like a dissociation thing. Like even the girl I'm seeing now, 0:08:08.840 --> 0:08:11.840 she's a stripper and I like her a lot as 0:08:11.840 --> 0:08:13.880 a person, but like we kind of just do ketamine 0:08:13.880 --> 0:08:19.240 together and it's not really like like I like it 0:08:19.280 --> 0:08:20.880 and I enjoy and it's a good time, but I 0:08:20.880 --> 0:08:23.360 don't know, if I'm necessarily like living like a facility life, 0:08:23.400 --> 0:08:23.960 you know what I mean. 0:08:24.840 --> 0:08:29.800 Okay, so you're your two months clean off of nitrous yeah, 0:08:30.480 --> 0:08:35.760 and what are you are you like into anything now ketamine? 0:08:36.040 --> 0:08:38.800 Yeah? I do care with her right now. Technically I'm 0:08:38.840 --> 0:08:42.320 on probation, so I got like a dui last year, 0:08:46.280 --> 0:08:48.600 but I can't really like drink or do anything like that. 0:08:49.280 --> 0:08:51.600 So you're kind of in this is what you're seeing 0:08:51.640 --> 0:08:54.520 this girl. But it's like it's like we you know, 0:08:54.800 --> 0:08:56.880 we we hook up and we do drugs together, but 0:08:56.920 --> 0:09:01.680 there's not really a connection or any anything kind of 0:09:01.800 --> 0:09:04.160 meaningful being built. 0:09:04.280 --> 0:09:04.960 That's what I'm hearing. 0:09:05.120 --> 0:09:08.400 Yeah, Yeah, I mean I don't. I don't really think so. 0:09:08.960 --> 0:09:10.520 I mean it could be, but like that's one of 0:09:10.520 --> 0:09:12.560 those things I feel like you never really know, right. 0:09:12.840 --> 0:09:13.280 I agree. 0:09:13.320 --> 0:09:15.840 I agree with that sentiment. You never really know. It's 0:09:15.840 --> 0:09:17.840 something that kind of unfolds naturally over time. 0:09:17.960 --> 0:09:19.880 I agree. Something's something a. 0:09:19.920 --> 0:09:24.800 Relationship that is begins with just hooking up and doing 0:09:24.880 --> 0:09:27.319 ketamine can evolve into something deeper. 0:09:28.720 --> 0:09:32.480 Yeah, I think so. I think it's necessarily always a 0:09:32.480 --> 0:09:35.200 bad thing. I feel like when I was in therapy, 0:09:35.280 --> 0:09:37.400 the kind of told me like you know people, you 0:09:37.480 --> 0:09:40.160 have good connections and bad connections. EF, I want to 0:09:40.240 --> 0:09:44.000 like pursuing like more bad connections. Like it's you know, 0:09:45.360 --> 0:09:48.000 I think everything's good in moderation, but not like if 0:09:48.040 --> 0:09:49.560 you're getting like super adictous to it. 0:09:49.600 --> 0:09:52.840 You know, So are you trying to do less drugs? 0:09:55.280 --> 0:09:55.480 Well? 0:09:55.520 --> 0:09:57.280 I have to right now. I don't know if I 0:09:57.320 --> 0:09:59.880 am in the future. I guess like I like the party, 0:10:00.040 --> 0:10:02.920 have a good time, but like you know, I'm trying 0:10:02.960 --> 0:10:06.680 to go to school right now, so I'm trying to 0:10:06.720 --> 0:10:09.040 like really prioritize that over everything else. 0:10:09.679 --> 0:10:10.640 What are you going to school for? 0:10:12.000 --> 0:10:13.360 I got to school for musical theater. 0:10:15.320 --> 0:10:18.120 I'm sorry, hold on, I'm literally I'm only laughing because 0:10:18.120 --> 0:10:20.560 that's the last thing I would have ever guessed you 0:10:20.559 --> 0:10:27.880 would have said, really, yeah, that's I'm like, I'm still 0:10:28.160 --> 0:10:29.760 like in shock that you said that you're going to 0:10:29.760 --> 0:10:30.199 school for. 0:10:30.120 --> 0:10:30.800 A musical theater. 0:10:31.679 --> 0:10:31.880 Yeah. 0:10:31.960 --> 0:10:34.480 Yeah, yeah, what tell me about that? 0:10:36.080 --> 0:10:36.240 Bro? 0:10:36.400 --> 0:10:38.640 I love it, man, It's like my biggest passion in life. 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:41.440 I started when I was really young, when I was 0:10:41.480 --> 0:10:45.640 like eight, and then I just I lost it for 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:48.120 like ten years. After high school, I started to go 0:10:48.160 --> 0:10:51.560 to school for like finance, and that's because my mom 0:10:51.559 --> 0:10:53.440 wanted me to go for it, and I just didn't 0:10:53.480 --> 0:10:55.599 like it. So then I tried to do an engineering 0:10:55.640 --> 0:10:58.000 something that would make her happy, and I just couldn't 0:10:58.040 --> 0:11:01.440 cut it. And so like down twenty eight, still going 0:11:01.440 --> 0:11:04.000 to college, and I've been in college for like ten years. 0:11:04.320 --> 0:11:07.280 So I'm like, I need to get something under my belt. 0:11:07.320 --> 0:11:09.400 I need a degree. I don't want to leave here 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:12.080 with nothing, you know what I mean. So I was like, 0:11:12.080 --> 0:11:12.640 all right, let. 0:11:12.600 --> 0:11:13.480 Me just go to school. 0:11:13.600 --> 0:11:15.199 I had the grades to get into the school for 0:11:15.320 --> 0:11:20.640 five a musical theater, and I was always deeply passionate 0:11:20.679 --> 0:11:22.079 about it. So I was like, this is what I 0:11:22.160 --> 0:11:23.880 want to do. I want to end up going to 0:11:23.880 --> 0:11:24.360 school for this. 0:11:25.800 --> 0:11:33.320 Okay, so wait, why did it take? Why have you 0:11:33.360 --> 0:11:34.600 been in school for so long? 0:11:36.000 --> 0:11:40.760 Well, I started in finance and I didn't really like it. 0:11:40.880 --> 0:11:42.719 I say, that's what it is. But then also I 0:11:42.760 --> 0:11:46.760 went to school for engineering, and so I didn't have 0:11:46.800 --> 0:11:50.360 all the like correct math prerequisites to really be able 0:11:50.440 --> 0:11:55.920 to transfer my school. So like you have the transfer 0:11:55.920 --> 0:11:59.760 process where you go from community college to like a 0:11:59.840 --> 0:12:04.640 you university, university, and I just didn't have to prerequisites 0:12:07.240 --> 0:12:09.600 to like transfer spara, like engineering or something that was 0:12:09.640 --> 0:12:12.880 like not musical theater. My GPA was like a two 0:12:12.880 --> 0:12:15.480 point three six when I transferred in, and I got 0:12:15.559 --> 0:12:17.960 lucky because the transfer councilor told me that I only 0:12:18.000 --> 0:12:20.040 needed a two point two five to be able to 0:12:20.040 --> 0:12:23.040 get in. So once you're in Florida, how it works 0:12:23.120 --> 0:12:25.640 is that if you get an AA in anything, you 0:12:25.679 --> 0:12:28.400 automatically get accepted to whatever state school that you want 0:12:28.400 --> 0:12:28.679 to go to. 0:12:30.400 --> 0:12:33.640 So tell me about So tell me about you and 0:12:33.800 --> 0:12:37.880 musical theater, because again this is not it's it's very 0:12:37.960 --> 0:12:40.360 interesting to me that you're into musical theater. What tell 0:12:40.360 --> 0:12:43.160 me about you and your history with tell me about 0:12:43.160 --> 0:12:44.360 your love for musical theater. 0:12:44.520 --> 0:12:45.280 Let's get into that. 0:12:46.600 --> 0:12:50.160 Oh yeah, I mean it's just one of those things, right. 0:12:50.880 --> 0:12:53.560 I started when I was really young, like I said, 0:12:53.559 --> 0:12:56.480 when I was like eight, and then I did that 0:12:56.520 --> 0:12:59.040 for five years at summer camp down here in South Florida, 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:03.920 and then I went to Arizona. I had a pretty 0:13:03.920 --> 0:13:07.040 abrupt move because my mom moved for her job and 0:13:09.240 --> 0:13:12.240 moved to Arizona for a couple of years, about four 0:13:12.360 --> 0:13:16.640 or five. There, like musical theater out there in Arizona 0:13:16.760 --> 0:13:21.360 doing community theater and doing high school theater. And then 0:13:21.400 --> 0:13:24.719 I moved back to Florida for my senior year and 0:13:26.280 --> 0:13:30.079 I did musical theater here as well. And yeah, I've 0:13:30.080 --> 0:13:31.640 just always been really passionate about it. I mean, I 0:13:31.640 --> 0:13:32.000 love it. 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:35.360 Give me your roles throughout the years. I want to 0:13:35.400 --> 0:13:37.480 hear some of the roles that you've undertaken. 0:13:38.520 --> 0:13:41.440 Yeah, I mean, I played the mad Hatter in Shrek once. 0:13:44.640 --> 0:13:46.720 Dude, I would absolutely pay money to see you be 0:13:46.800 --> 0:13:48.920 the mad Hatter. What you said in Shrek? 0:13:50.000 --> 0:13:51.040 Yeah, Shrek the musical. 0:13:51.880 --> 0:13:53.520 I did the Mad Hatters. I didn't know he was 0:13:53.520 --> 0:13:54.040 in Shrek. 0:13:54.960 --> 0:13:57.360 Yeah, he's part of the fairytale creatures. 0:13:57.480 --> 0:13:59.200 Yeah, I got Okay, that makes sense. He's a fairy 0:13:59.240 --> 0:14:02.920 tale guy. Do you do you have a crazy mad 0:14:02.960 --> 0:14:04.080 Hatter voice that you do? 0:14:05.679 --> 0:14:11.800 No? Mean, I would have to build up to you 0:14:11.880 --> 0:14:12.280 know what I mean. 0:14:13.559 --> 0:14:15.720 I like to imagine that you play the mad Hatter, 0:14:15.960 --> 0:14:19.880 just like exactly like yourself. You're like, hey man, you 0:14:19.880 --> 0:14:25.040 want a cup of tea? You don't do any put on? 0:14:27.840 --> 0:14:33.120 What do you mean what you don't do any put on? 0:14:33.960 --> 0:14:36.600 Never mind? So what's your dream? 0:14:36.640 --> 0:14:39.160 What's your what's your what? Do you ultimately want to 0:14:39.200 --> 0:14:41.680 do with musical theater. 0:14:42.680 --> 0:14:45.640 Well, I've been acting here in South Florida for like 0:14:45.640 --> 0:14:49.680 five years, and I do like a lot of movies, 0:14:49.760 --> 0:14:54.479 a lot of like, uh, smaller things, like like student films. 0:14:55.640 --> 0:15:00.880 I do like some backstage stuff, and like really, I mean, 0:15:00.920 --> 0:15:03.440 I just didn't think that the movie career was really 0:15:03.480 --> 0:15:05.200 going well for me, So I thought like, well, I 0:15:05.200 --> 0:15:07.720 should go back to school and pursue what I really 0:15:07.760 --> 0:15:11.240 am passionate about, which the musical theater. I've had any 0:15:11.240 --> 0:15:12.840 hard time getting like an agent and stuff. 0:15:12.880 --> 0:15:15.080 So yeah, Well I was gonna ask that is like, 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:19.560 is it set up so that if you get a degree, 0:15:19.680 --> 0:15:23.120 is it easy to get work because of that? 0:15:25.080 --> 0:15:27.080 I think so. I looked at a lot of my 0:15:27.120 --> 0:15:29.760 friends in the industry, and I see that like a 0:15:29.800 --> 0:15:31.960 lot of people who have degrees in this field end 0:15:32.040 --> 0:15:34.320 up doing better than people who who don't have degrees 0:15:34.360 --> 0:15:35.960 in it or just using national talent. 0:15:36.760 --> 0:15:46.000 Interesting, yeah, And is the drug stuff preventing you from 0:15:46.120 --> 0:15:46.920 doing any of this? 0:15:47.120 --> 0:15:48.480 Is it making any of it harder? 0:15:52.720 --> 0:15:59.000 Well? I would say so only because like when I 0:15:59.040 --> 0:16:01.440 was on a nice OX side, I really really was 0:16:01.440 --> 0:16:03.160 trying to fuck up my life. I mean, when I 0:16:03.160 --> 0:16:05.280 went to therapy, they told me that I was diagnosed 0:16:05.280 --> 0:16:10.680 with like BPD. So I already have like pretty hardcore 0:16:12.160 --> 0:16:18.360 time like maintaining relationships and friendships. So that's kind of 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:20.960 like a really big thing that I haven't really gone 0:16:21.000 --> 0:16:23.000 back to therapy to like really deal with that yet. 0:16:26.280 --> 0:16:28.360 I think that like if I hadn't been doing so 0:16:28.440 --> 0:16:31.000 much nice so ox size, like just messing with my 0:16:31.040 --> 0:16:33.400 friends online on like on my Instagram and stuff like that, 0:16:33.400 --> 0:16:36.320 I probably would have had better connections, so like setting 0:16:36.440 --> 0:16:38.720 it a little bit more, but I also still have 0:16:38.760 --> 0:16:40.240 like a lot of really good connections because there's a 0:16:40.280 --> 0:16:41.960 lot of people that I won't like fuck with, you 0:16:42.000 --> 0:16:43.960 know what I mean, Like the people that like are 0:16:43.960 --> 0:16:46.080 really important to me. I think I just kind of 0:16:46.080 --> 0:16:49.080 had it in my head that like there are good 0:16:49.120 --> 0:16:51.200 people and they're bad people, and I can't really tell 0:16:51.240 --> 0:16:52.760 like who's going to be a fake friend to me 0:16:52.840 --> 0:16:54.640 in the long term versus who's going to be a 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:55.920 good friend to me in the long term, you know 0:16:55.960 --> 0:16:57.560 what I mean. At the end of the day, it's 0:16:57.600 --> 0:16:58.280 kind of hard to tell. 0:16:58.840 --> 0:17:01.120 What do you mean by you were fucking with your 0:17:01.160 --> 0:17:02.480 friends on Instagram? 0:17:04.400 --> 0:17:07.280 Well, and a couple of different things to do. Like 0:17:08.240 --> 0:17:12.080 I was like posting a lot of like my feelings 0:17:12.080 --> 0:17:16.600 and my emotions because I was in therapy, and sometimes 0:17:16.680 --> 0:17:18.560 I felt like people maybe thought that, like I was 0:17:18.600 --> 0:17:21.080 trying to talk to records to them on my Instagram story, 0:17:21.680 --> 0:17:24.680 and I guess that maybe that kind of made them uncomfortable. 0:17:26.720 --> 0:17:27.080 Mmm. 0:17:27.760 --> 0:17:31.480 Oh, your friends thought that you were subtweeting them, as 0:17:31.520 --> 0:17:32.280 they say. 0:17:33.520 --> 0:17:35.439 Is that what that they call that sweet way? 0:17:35.560 --> 0:17:38.919 They thought that you were alluding to them when you 0:17:38.960 --> 0:17:42.040 were talking about your grievances. 0:17:42.480 --> 0:17:46.240 Yeah, I think, so, okay, do you have. 0:17:46.160 --> 0:17:49.440 A lot of you seem like a social guy you mentioned. 0:17:49.480 --> 0:17:52.959 I mean, you got Vinnie right, you seem like, you know, 0:17:53.080 --> 0:17:55.280 you seem like you're out and about that. 0:17:55.359 --> 0:17:56.399 You have a community. 0:17:56.440 --> 0:17:56.840 Do you do? 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:59.400 Would you say you have friends? 0:18:01.160 --> 0:18:04.760 I mean that's kind of a hard thing to say, 0:18:04.840 --> 0:18:10.320 Like I mean, like do I have friends, Yes, But 0:18:10.440 --> 0:18:12.240 do I have any people know that I'm like really 0:18:12.280 --> 0:18:15.359 close with that I'm actually like my true self around? 0:18:15.920 --> 0:18:18.440 It's hard to say, Like I mean maybe this girl, 0:18:19.480 --> 0:18:23.760 I mean, my mom for sure, but like friend friends, 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:25.840 I mean there's certain people that like I couldn't beat 0:18:25.880 --> 0:18:27.919 my real self around, you know, what I mean, I 0:18:27.920 --> 0:18:29.200 have to kind of put up a front. 0:18:31.080 --> 0:18:32.879 Why do you feel like you have to put up 0:18:32.880 --> 0:18:34.080 a front around those people? 0:18:36.080 --> 0:18:38.680 I just think that some of the things that I say, 0:18:38.760 --> 0:18:40.720 like some of the jokes I might make, like I 0:18:40.760 --> 0:18:44.320 don't think they'll like really tolerate them. Like I have 0:18:44.359 --> 0:18:48.160 friends at school who are very very keeping the theater, 0:18:48.920 --> 0:18:51.119 and you know, in theater, it's kind of like this 0:18:51.160 --> 0:18:53.680 thing where it's like a lot of people have a 0:18:53.720 --> 0:18:55.399 lot of different opinions about a lot of things, but 0:18:55.440 --> 0:18:58.400 it's very progressive, and so if you say the wrong thing, 0:18:58.720 --> 0:19:01.960 you know, you might be steps pose. And then once 0:19:02.040 --> 0:19:03.960 one person gets offended, that a lot of other people 0:19:04.000 --> 0:19:06.880 are going to get depended on their behalf. And so 0:19:07.160 --> 0:19:12.000 like I don't want to necessarily, like there's some relationships 0:19:12.040 --> 0:19:12.880 that I just don't want to ruin. 0:19:12.920 --> 0:19:15.439 You know what I mean, you're you you feel like 0:19:15.520 --> 0:19:22.200 you are not woke enough for the musical theater crowd. 0:19:23.080 --> 0:19:24.040 I guess you could say that. 0:19:24.200 --> 0:19:27.600 I mean, personally, I'm very progressive as a person, Like 0:19:27.800 --> 0:19:32.480 I don't believe in hating anybody for any particular reason. Yeah, 0:19:32.600 --> 0:19:35.040 so in that way, like I'm very woke, but also 0:19:35.080 --> 0:19:40.320 at the same time, like like doing drugs and drinking 0:19:40.359 --> 0:19:42.639 a lot, like then shrinking and that kind of stuff. 0:19:42.720 --> 0:19:45.120 Like people aren't going to like really accept that kind 0:19:45.119 --> 0:19:46.919 of behavior if you're being a problem, you know what 0:19:46.920 --> 0:19:47.200 I mean? 0:19:48.000 --> 0:19:49.000 Yeah, that makes sense. 0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:51.520 Do you've you cad you want to clean up your 0:19:51.520 --> 0:19:53.920 act before you start? Well, because theater is a very 0:19:54.000 --> 0:19:57.399 it's a communal thing you're doing, Like you're you're always 0:19:57.440 --> 0:19:59.359 going to be part of a team of people that 0:19:59.440 --> 0:20:03.439 you have to play nice with and integrate with, and 0:20:03.480 --> 0:20:08.720 so you don't want to be a problem. 0:20:08.960 --> 0:20:16.879 Yeah, I mean I don't, hm, And it's hard because 0:20:16.880 --> 0:20:18.639