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Speaker 1: Disgraceland as a production of Double Elvis.

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Speaker 2: The stories about soul singer Marvin Gay aren s. He

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Speaker 2: than John Belushi and Richard Pryor combined. He ate acid

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Speaker 2: with Bootsy Collins and George Clinton. He could dunk on

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Speaker 2: Jesse Jackson. And he was born into a god fearing

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Speaker 2: home to his sweet, wholesome mother and cross dressing, philandering

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Speaker 2: But despite his strict upbringing, Marvin Gay was able to

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Speaker 2: find his calling music and use it as a ticket

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Speaker 2: out of the repressive inner city blues he was raised in.

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Speaker 2: Marvin Gay was immensely talented. He was also paranoid, dangerous,

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Speaker 2: and borderline suicidal. He barricaded himself in his Hollywood Hills

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Speaker 2: home behind his Ak forty sevens and his attack dogs.

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Speaker 2: He took a knife to his wife's throat. He did

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Speaker 2: enough drugs to put a thoroughbread in the ground. But

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Speaker 2: through it all he made great music. That music I

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Speaker 2: played you at the top of the show, and that

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Speaker 2: wasn't great music. That was a preset loop from my

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Speaker 2: mellotron called Fox Trot Moving Piano low MK one. I

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Speaker 2: played you that loop because I can't afford the license

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Speaker 2: for Footloose by Kenny Loggins. And why would I play

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Speaker 2: you that specific slice of bacon esque sounds Messina cheese?

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Speaker 2: Could I afford it? Because that was the number one

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Speaker 2: song in America on April first, nineteen eighty four, And

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Speaker 2: that was the day that Marvin Gay rose his hand

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Speaker 2: to his father and consequently brought about his own demise.

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Speaker 2: On this episode, Fox Trot Moving Pianos, bacon Esque cheese,

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Speaker 2: cross dressing dads, shame and trail, and Marvin Gay, I'm

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Speaker 2: Jake Brennan and miss his disgraceland. The sound of his

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Speaker 2: feet in women's pumps putting pressure on the old wooden

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Speaker 2: stairs pumped out the sound of shame the trail. How

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Speaker 2: could his old man do this? His father? For God's sake.

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Speaker 2: The rest of the family stood by, pretending not to

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Speaker 2: his second floor bedroom in their home in Washington, DC's

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Speaker 2: Simple City neighborhood. But how could they not there he

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Speaker 2: was the man of the house, Marvin Gay, wearing a

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Speaker 2: in a crooked wig from Crowns that he had no

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Speaker 2: doubt picked up from one of the church ladies he'd

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Speaker 2: preached to on Sundays. Young Marvin couldn't stand it, but

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Speaker 2: there was nothing he could do about it. His father

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Speaker 2: was going to do whatever the hell he wanted to do,

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Speaker 2: and if that meant wearing ladies clothes at the breakfast

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Speaker 2: table on a Saturday morning or retreating behind his bedroom

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Speaker 2: door with fat bottomed women from church while his wife,

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Speaker 2: Marvin's mother busied herself with making their home downstairs, and

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Speaker 2: so be it. There was nothing anyone could do about it.

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Speaker 2: Marvin Gay Senior was going to do whatever the hell

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Speaker 2: Marvin Gay Senior wanted to do, because Poka Dot dress

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Speaker 2: or no Poka dot dress, he was still the man

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Speaker 2: of the house. But it was bad, real bad, bad enough.

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Speaker 2: Marvin's last name was Gay. But now with the rumors

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Speaker 2: spreading around the neighborhood that his preacher dad was some

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Speaker 2: starting something. So for young Marvin Gay. This meant one

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Speaker 2: fistfight after another, but Marvin could hold his own, and

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Speaker 2: in some way this helped. It made him feel like

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Speaker 2: he was proving something to himself, to his father, that he,

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Speaker 2: while even just a boy at the time, wasn't betraying

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Speaker 2: his manhood like he believed his father was betrayal. It

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Speaker 2: was a constant, unspoken theme in the Gay household, and

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Speaker 2: their father, a one time Pentecostal preacher, preached strict adherence

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Speaker 2: path was seen as a betrayal. It met with strict,

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Speaker 2: oftentimes violent discipline. But somehow, in nineteen fifties America, to

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Speaker 2: Marvin's dad, dressing in women's clothing was not a deviation

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Speaker 2: from the heavenly path progressive nah, more likely extreme hypocrisy.

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Speaker 2: And like I said, Marvin Gay Senior did whatever the

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Speaker 2: and intimidation. His family was petrified of him and thus

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Speaker 2: hypocritical and embarrassing. Now, ain't that peculiar, but the contradictions

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Speaker 2: didn't stop there. Despite his own sins, Father as he

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Speaker 2: and therefore sinful interest from his kids. Going to the

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Speaker 2: movies on a Saturday to see Disney's Lady in the

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Speaker 2: Tramp a betrayal of God, reading Charlotte's Web a betrayal

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Speaker 2: of God, and singing in a street corner dowop band

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Speaker 2: as young Marvin was at the time, definitely a betrayal

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Speaker 2: of God. But Marvin loved music and he was good

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Speaker 2: at it. He knew it. If hearing his voice bounce

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Speaker 2: And that shit wasn't hereditary? Was it? Besides? Was his

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Speaker 2: dad even gay? Despite the women's clothes and his marriage

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Speaker 2: to Marvin's mom, he was openly sleeping with other women,

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Speaker 2: so young Marvin Gay. To clear up any confusion, added

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Speaker 2: an e to the end of his name, just like

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Speaker 2: Sam Cook before him, and followed his golden voice from

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Speaker 2: the Street Corner serenades of Washington, d C. The Hitsville, USA,

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Speaker 2: and the hit factory known as Motown Records. Motown was

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Speaker 2: great for Marvin, and there was much to learn from

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Speaker 2: Motown's rich stable of musical talent, The Miracles, Martha and

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Speaker 2: the Vandellas and the Temptations. Plus Barry Gordy, Motown's founder

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Speaker 2: and leader, was a genius, modeling his studio and record

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Speaker 2: label after the neighboring General Motors Auto factory in Detroit. Gordy,

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Speaker 2: through Motown, pumped out hit hit after hit with his

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Speaker 2: assembly line approach to record making. House songwriters like the

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Speaker 2: Holland Doser Holland Team composed the lyrics, the melodies and

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Speaker 2: the music, and house studio musicians the Funk Brothers laid

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Speaker 2: the Four Tops came in and sang the vocal. Finally,

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Speaker 2: Smokey Robinson saw the track through to completion, mixing it

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Speaker 2: and ultimately the record shells of young Americans, both black

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Speaker 2: and white everywhere Motown in the early nineteen sixties was

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Speaker 2: the place for black musicians. Motown's success at the time

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Speaker 2: was unrivaled, and its unofficial title of Hitsville, USA was

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Speaker 2: no stretch. Marvin Gay couldn't have found himself in a

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Speaker 2: better place. He broke in as a studio musician, but

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Speaker 2: with the hit single Stubborn Kind of Fellow in nineteen

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Speaker 2: Pride and Joy, Can I Get a Witness? And more,

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Speaker 2: and in no time established himself as one of Motown's

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Speaker 2: biggest stars. June twenty first, nineteen sixty three, Chattanooga, Tennessee's

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Speaker 2: Memorial Auditorium, the Motown label's Motortown Review was in town

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Speaker 2: to put on a show The Temptations, Little Stevie Wonder,

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Speaker 2: Mary Wells, Martha Reeves and the Vandellas, and at the

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Speaker 2: top of the bill Marvin Gay. It was showtime, but

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Speaker 2: the headliner was nowhere to be found. Martha Reeves knew

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Speaker 2: what was up. Marvin's stage fright had probably gotten the

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Speaker 2: better of him again. She scurried about the backstage looking

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Speaker 2: for Marvin, and found him huddled in a corner near

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Speaker 2: he was shaking, hunched over, smoking a cigarette, sweating on

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Speaker 2: the verge of a panic attack. He couldn't do it again.

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Speaker 2: He told her he couldn't go on stage. The band

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Speaker 2: wasn't ready. Of course they are, Marvin, they always are.

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Speaker 2: Martha told him he wasn't ready. You're a star, Marvin,

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Speaker 2: you were born ready, baby, Martha reassured him. The crowd

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Speaker 2: It's a packed house, just like it is every night,

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Speaker 2: and everyone in there is dying to see you perform.

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Speaker 2: Marvin thought to himself that all these things may have

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Speaker 2: been true, but regardless whether the band was in tip

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Speaker 2: not the crowd was dying to see him, none of

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Speaker 2: that will keep the rumors for being whispered, the rumors

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Speaker 2: that Marvin gay was well gay. Marvin couldn't stand them.

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Speaker 2: It was just like the old neighborhood, except it wasn't

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Speaker 2: about his sexuality. It was Marvel fan's on stage vibe.

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Speaker 2: He was a star and a sex symbol, sure, but

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Speaker 2: he wasn't necessarily manly, not exactly the pro football Jim

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Speaker 2: Marvin's last name kind of said at all with or

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Speaker 2: without the E. And of course there was the way

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Speaker 2: he danced on stage at the Motortown Review. It was

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Speaker 2: queer peculiar, to say the least. To think that there

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Speaker 2: was a time when Marvin Gay, the smoothest operator of

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Speaker 2: them all, couldn't dance is almost unthinkable, but it's true.

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Speaker 2: Go back in YouTube some of the early sixties footage

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Speaker 2: and you'll find a man trying to do the hitchhike

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Speaker 2: but instead doing the Elaine benis no joke. But all

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Speaker 2: of that aside, there was what was inside Marvin. Was

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Speaker 2: he gay? He didn't know for sure. No, of course

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Speaker 2: he wasn't. He was one of the biggest sex symbols

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Speaker 2: the women off of him with a stick. Plus, being

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Speaker 2: Back at Hitsville in America in the early nineteen sixties.

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Speaker 2: Never he thought his dad betrayed his own manhood by

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Speaker 2: cross dressing. Marvin never would. He was a man's man.

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Speaker 2: So Marvin did what he thought he was supposed to do.

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Speaker 2: He jumped up on stage and played the part. And

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Speaker 2: when the show was over, he jumped into the beds

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Speaker 1: We'll be right back after this word word word.

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Speaker 2: Marvin leaned back in his chair and took a hit

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Speaker 2: off the joint and then turned to his friend Smokey Robinson. Smoke,

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Speaker 2: I'm going to do it, Marvin, you crazy man. No,

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Speaker 2: for real, I'm going to do it. Fuck Berry Gordy.

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Speaker 2: I don't need Motown. I don't even need music, Marvin.

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Speaker 2: You can't play football. You'll get killed out there. Besides,

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Speaker 2: the Detroit Lions don't need no stoned soul singer playing

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Speaker 2: wide out. You watch Smoke, I'm gonna do it. Since

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Speaker 2: the days of the Motortown Review, Marvin Gay had done

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Speaker 2: almost as much for motown as motown had done for

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Speaker 2: Marvin Gay. His single I Heard It Through the Grapevine

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Speaker 2: R and B charts, and the pop charts. The album

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Speaker 2: he'd fought tooth and nailed to make, What's Going On,

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Speaker 2: an album he had complete creative control over, a protest album,

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Speaker 2: was a massive smash commercially and critically. Think about that

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Speaker 2: for a minute. You're Marvin Gay. You're a part of one,

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Speaker 2: if not the most successful hit making machines of all time,

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Speaker 2: motown records, with a tried and true, can't beat recipe

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Speaker 2: for success. And you decide you want to do it differently.

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Speaker 2: You decide you don't want to work with house songwriters,

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Speaker 2: you want to write the songs yourself. And you decide

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Speaker 2: you don't want to be limited to house musicians. You

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Speaker 2: you want to produce the record yourself. And oh yeah,

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Speaker 2: fuck that bubblegum baby love shit, it's the same old song. No,

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Speaker 2: you're gonna make an album of protest songs, and you do,

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Speaker 2: and you nail it. What's Going On was a massive

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Speaker 2: success by any creative or financial measure. But if the

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Speaker 2: true measure of being an artist is taking risks to

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Speaker 2: express yourself, to give voice to others through what you create.

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Speaker 2: The Marvin Gaye was the early seventies pop music what

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Speaker 2: And Marvin felt the shame of it all well. However,

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