WEBVTT - Ep 378: God-Fearing Freaks (Ft. Jozzy) 0:00:02.560 --> 0:00:04.200 Guess what decision we're about to make. 0:00:04.680 --> 0:00:05.760 Horrible decision. 0:00:08.360 --> 0:00:13.320 Hey, guys, welcome to another episode of horrible Decisions. I'm 0:00:13.360 --> 0:00:15.640 your girl, Mandy b a k A. Pet Is Signing 0:00:15.720 --> 0:00:17.120 aka Dan Beach. 0:00:18.000 --> 0:00:22.200 We got to stick our tongues out, real early, real gay. 0:00:23.239 --> 0:00:25.280 You know you're not all the way gay. First off, 0:00:27.560 --> 0:00:28.840 I can't go to the sex club. 0:00:28.640 --> 0:00:30.360 It out of men because I'm not gay enough to be. 0:00:30.720 --> 0:00:33.839 No. No, no, no, no, no no. Here's the thing I 0:00:33.920 --> 0:00:41.519 need to know I want. Don't do that crazy No no, 0:00:41.440 --> 0:00:44.360 what's crazy is not shut up? 0:00:44.400 --> 0:00:47.400 This is so no, so it's crazy. I'm not gay 0:00:47.440 --> 0:00:52.280 for a nigga. I just enjoy both. What is it 0:00:52.400 --> 0:00:56.600 the reproductive systems? Okay, I like the dick and the 0:00:56.680 --> 0:00:59.800 vagina both at once. It's like a buffet. 0:00:59.840 --> 0:01:00.200 You know. 0:01:01.200 --> 0:01:03.800 I'm gonna say this though, as someone that was gay 0:01:04.600 --> 0:01:07.679 one gay and realized we didn't need to bring big in, 0:01:08.760 --> 0:01:11.160 I knew that I really liked pussy when I was 0:01:11.280 --> 0:01:15.080 just with women alone, because it's actually super different like 0:01:15.319 --> 0:01:16.160 having a threesome. 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:17.479 Do feel like you're gay for a niggas? 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:19.920 I am totally into the girl in the moment, but 0:01:19.959 --> 0:01:21.800 it does feel like a spectacle with all of us. 0:01:22.000 --> 0:01:24.160 When you're with a woman alone, for anyone listening that 0:01:24.240 --> 0:01:26.399 like wants to dabble, you'll always write us about this. 0:01:26.680 --> 0:01:28.920 It genuinely is like, oh, no, you have to like 0:01:29.000 --> 0:01:29.640 this taste and. 0:01:29.720 --> 0:01:30.880 I like pussy. 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:33.120 So don't be saying I'm fake gay. No, we just 0:01:33.120 --> 0:01:35.640 said you gave for Okay, we're not doing that anyway, y'all. 0:01:35.720 --> 0:01:37.440 Let me introduce this guest who want to sit here 0:01:37.480 --> 0:01:40.280 and call me out y'all. We have jazz finally in 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:43.360 the motherfucking building, singer songwriter extraordinaire. 0:01:43.400 --> 0:01:46.880 All the things I'm tired of you people saying, Josie yeah, 0:01:47.000 --> 0:01:50.560 not you get that a lot, don't you, Josie, Yeah, 0:01:50.560 --> 0:01:51.120 I get that a lot. 0:01:51.240 --> 0:01:54.840 Jazzy Jazzy is crazy. There's no a that's Nigga's vow. 0:01:55.000 --> 0:01:55.840 Sounds just crazy. 0:01:56.080 --> 0:01:58.160 The last time I saw you was at the Roots 0:01:58.160 --> 0:02:01.960 Brunch and I gave out flowers. You did passed off 0:02:01.960 --> 0:02:06.080 flowers at the No no waiting I had by the 0:02:06.080 --> 0:02:09.200 time you was there, I probably didn't have, God damn it, but. 0:02:09.160 --> 0:02:12.600 I wanted to tell you h quest of before he 0:02:12.680 --> 0:02:13.480 walked up to you. 0:02:16.240 --> 0:02:19.960 John like practice saying it and I realized, like, oh 0:02:20.040 --> 0:02:21.639 my god, everybodys because. 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:23.200 Even me, when I'm reading it, you want. 0:02:23.080 --> 0:02:25.359 To stay Josie, I didn't even know question Love knew 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:28.200 who I was. The craziest hell that you say. You 0:02:28.240 --> 0:02:31.520 said you're going to come up here being humble, bitch, 0:02:32.000 --> 0:02:34.839 like you'll be you've been working, working, But see that's 0:02:34.840 --> 0:02:37.320 the thing, Like I'm not humble at all, but I'm 0:02:37.400 --> 0:02:41.440 very like, no humble is I think nobody should be humble. 0:02:41.440 --> 0:02:42.960 I mean, I hate that way. I think humble that 0:02:43.000 --> 0:02:45.840 means you know your inferior, your inferior, you don't really 0:02:45.880 --> 0:02:48.959 know your yourself. I know who I am, you know 0:02:49.000 --> 0:02:50.840 what I'm saying. It's just that I'm just I don't 0:02:50.840 --> 0:02:54.000 have to like I'm just confident. But I'm not like 0:02:54.160 --> 0:02:56.680 over the top with it. But I'm not humble, Like 0:02:56.720 --> 0:02:58.480 I know I'm that nigga, but it's still like a 0:02:58.520 --> 0:03:00.360 respect thing. And I don't know if Quest well, he's 0:03:00.400 --> 0:03:03.919 still a llegend, right, you know me, I actually get 0:03:04.000 --> 0:03:06.320 mad when I walk out and niggas know us or 0:03:06.720 --> 0:03:09.120 for me, I'll be like I've gotten to the point 0:03:09.160 --> 0:03:11.520 where now walk in the rooms and me and celebrities 0:03:11.520 --> 0:03:13.040 embrace each other, and my friends will be like, you 0:03:13.120 --> 0:03:15.040 know them, and I'll be like, no, but they know me, 0:03:15.080 --> 0:03:16.800 And then I'll be mad because I'm like, damn, they 0:03:16.840 --> 0:03:24.560 know I. I like balls. Then that's only matter I 0:03:24.600 --> 0:03:27.880 remember in a query, so I know I know she'll 0:03:27.919 --> 0:03:29.280 be down getting with the. 0:03:29.280 --> 0:03:32.040 Guy one of those. 0:03:32.680 --> 0:03:35.240 And this is not to be disrespectful. It's like Natasha Leone, 0:03:35.400 --> 0:03:38.000 you know someone that just should have been gay. I 0:03:38.080 --> 0:03:40.160 look at Kelly Rowland, I'm like, oh my god, she 0:03:40.280 --> 0:03:40.960 could have definitely. 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:41.880 Maybe it's just in. 0:03:41.840 --> 0:03:44.280 My brain, my fantasy when I was a kid. 0:03:44.200 --> 0:03:45.640 She got that you think she would be a top 0:03:45.640 --> 0:03:48.840 of bottom. I don't think there's a top of bottom, 0:03:49.280 --> 0:03:50.360 get there. 0:03:50.680 --> 0:03:51.480 I just think that's me. 0:03:52.080 --> 0:03:58.560 You're gonna say why. 0:03:56.120 --> 0:03:57.720 I I don't say that top of bottom. 0:03:57.720 --> 0:03:59.360 I just feel like I just feel like that's like 0:03:59.440 --> 0:04:01.880 a match, Like you take control? 0:04:02.040 --> 0:04:03.760 Are you? Like? Yeah? 0:04:03.640 --> 0:04:06.080 When I say that people should have been gay, it's 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:10.520 their presence of like some women have a daintiness that 0:04:10.640 --> 0:04:13.480 puts them in the box of girly. Kelly's femininity is 0:04:13.560 --> 0:04:18.120 very powerful. Is I kind of associate with lesbian. 0:04:18.440 --> 0:04:21.040 Them legs and all power. She could definitely have been 0:04:21.040 --> 0:04:21.679 on the l word. 0:04:22.560 --> 0:04:25.760 We all watched me clearly, listen, listen. 0:04:25.960 --> 0:04:28.360 Well, I want to start with an icebreaker because my 0:04:28.400 --> 0:04:32.360 first time meeting you, y'all met Jossy for the first time, 0:04:32.400 --> 0:04:34.960 which is crazy because you're like really good friends with 0:04:35.040 --> 0:04:38.400 a lot of like so many mutuals, and so met 0:04:38.400 --> 0:04:40.520 you in person. I would say, probably in Brooklyn, but 0:04:40.560 --> 0:04:42.680 for real, for real. The first time was at the 0:04:42.720 --> 0:04:45.520 Revolt summit like two years ago, and. 0:04:47.279 --> 0:04:50.760 Literally she comes up to me and this is how 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:54.600 we're gonna start our icebreaker. She literally bends over and. 0:04:54.600 --> 0:04:57.240 Start wait, wait, wait, please say I consented that it 0:04:57.279 --> 0:04:57.880 was consensual. 0:04:57.920 --> 0:04:58.479 Hold On, it was. 0:04:59.040 --> 0:05:01.760 She said, Hey, every white girl is playing my song. 0:05:02.640 --> 0:05:05.640 Please understand that. I asked. 0:05:06.360 --> 0:05:09.719 Hold On walked up, very very with all the slag. 0:05:09.839 --> 0:05:13.560 It was like, may I give affirmations to your box. 0:05:14.080 --> 0:05:17.159 I have a series called Box Talks, and I'd love 0:05:17.240 --> 0:05:19.480 to breathe life into your box. 0:05:20.080 --> 0:05:23.320 And I was like, you want to do what? I said, Hell, yeah, 0:05:23.360 --> 0:05:26.160 you could bring it into my box. No, no, no. 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:29.480 I stood up and literally and she didn't have to 0:05:29.520 --> 0:05:32.000 go very far because we both kind of short, but 0:05:32.120 --> 0:05:35.239 literally just gave She gave the most. 0:05:35.080 --> 0:05:38.480 Affirmation and I was like I said, Josie, I like this. 0:05:38.600 --> 0:05:40.960 You just made made it jump a little bit. I said, 0:05:40.960 --> 0:05:42.599 we got to have you on horrible decisions. 0:05:42.880 --> 0:05:48.320 So I don't remember the exact affirmation. However, for the 0:05:48.400 --> 0:05:50.760 audience and for Wheezy. 0:05:51.000 --> 0:05:54.440 I would love to bring box talk back in our Icebreaker, 0:05:54.839 --> 0:05:57.520 and I would love for you to box talk. 0:05:57.560 --> 0:06:13.719 We to a box, all right, ready. 0:06:09.200 --> 0:06:09.920 All right, so. 0:06:11.400 --> 0:06:14.640 I mean all right, all right, so pretty much your 0:06:14.720 --> 0:06:18.880 box is powerful, so I call it pee your piece powerful. 0:06:19.560 --> 0:06:23.640 It's prestigious, so you should never let anybody just get 0:06:23.640 --> 0:06:25.560 it because it's on a plateau, like it's on the 0:06:25.760 --> 0:06:30.279 Like I said, I feel like it's like rejuvenated. I 0:06:30.279 --> 0:06:34.520 feel like it's glorious. I feel like it's like sunshine. Yeah, 0:06:34.760 --> 0:06:35.640 you got that box. 0:06:36.760 --> 0:06:45.040 You make a pilgrimage anytime when when you want it, I'll. 0:06:48.000 --> 0:06:48.800 Let me ask you this. 0:06:49.760 --> 0:06:54.760 Have you I don't know if it's fame or your look, aesthetic, whatever, Yeah, 0:06:55.680 --> 0:06:59.440 I'm sure you have been someone's first or they want 0:06:59.440 --> 0:07:01.359 to try it out because of your look or whatever 0:07:01.400 --> 0:07:01.720 it is. 0:07:02.320 --> 0:07:03.120 Are you over it? 0:07:03.279 --> 0:07:05.279 Are you just kind of like that's so crazy? 0:07:05.360 --> 0:07:06.400 Is the fantasizing? 0:07:06.720 --> 0:07:09.080 What have you've been talking about? Y'all, y'all been talking 0:07:09.080 --> 0:07:12.560 about yo, so so so okay, So this is twenty 0:07:12.600 --> 0:07:16.840 twenty four. I made a intentional decision to not have 0:07:16.960 --> 0:07:20.480 sex a straight women anymore. Oh no, seriously, and like 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:23.240 I've been a I've been a straight woman nigga like 0:07:23.880 --> 0:07:26.239 I love like I love straight tour. 0:07:26.120 --> 0:07:27.960 Manager does too. He only gets up straight white. 0:07:28.000 --> 0:07:31.680 He only wants Yeah, he loves the ego thing. I think, Yeah, 0:07:32.440 --> 0:07:34.080 but and I do only the ego thing. 0:07:34.080 --> 0:07:36.680 I just think it's just the it's just the thing 0:07:36.680 --> 0:07:38.800 where you feel like I do feel like if you're 0:07:38.840 --> 0:07:41.120 not with the proper god, I don't think girls really 0:07:41.160 --> 0:07:44.680 be getting what they like really could get like orgasm wise. 0:07:44.880 --> 0:07:45.360 I don't know. 0:07:45.480 --> 0:07:47.520 I just feel like, only with the right guy, I'll 0:07:47.520 --> 0:07:49.040 be saying, you got to get a nigga that's kind 0:07:49.040 --> 0:07:51.400 of like darn there, like a Lenny Kravits. 0:07:51.600 --> 0:07:53.280 Oh my god, that's what I love. 0:07:53.520 --> 0:07:54.520 You gotta get a nigga like a. 0:07:54.560 --> 0:07:56.720 Lenny Kravitz, who just I feel like it's just not 0:07:56.920 --> 0:07:59.320 scared of anything and he's just willing to like, please 0:07:59.360 --> 0:07:59.960 you please. 0:08:00.120 --> 0:08:02.080 That's why I feel like, as a woman, the best 0:08:02.120 --> 0:08:03.960 type of nigga is one that's a little game. Yes, 0:08:11.040 --> 0:08:14.160 I was just literally gives Lenny Kravitz and all my 0:08:14.160 --> 0:08:15.280 friends is like, bruh he gave. 0:08:15.360 --> 0:08:17.880 I'm like, no, he's not. He's the most masculine, sure 0:08:17.920 --> 0:08:19.640 of him something, but yes he do. 0:08:19.720 --> 0:08:23.000 You know why you say that, Jazz, because the thing 0:08:23.080 --> 0:08:25.600 with Lenny and a man like prince or Lenny or 0:08:25.600 --> 0:08:29.000 whatever is that confidence saying you don't care about whatever 0:08:29.160 --> 0:08:30.000 for some reason. 0:08:30.160 --> 0:08:31.560 And this is the patriarchy. 0:08:31.760 --> 0:08:37.000 Women's pleasure seems like you're demasculated thinking about you're a munch. 0:08:37.200 --> 0:08:38.520 Even though it's a great fucking bar. 0:08:39.240 --> 0:08:42.640 Like seriously, like the fact that it's so diminished to 0:08:42.720 --> 0:08:46.320 please women, the way that porn ends with cumshots but 0:08:46.400 --> 0:08:49.400 never women orgasms, Like it is all boiled down to 0:08:49.400 --> 0:08:51.480 the fact that we have to be in service. 0:08:51.600 --> 0:08:53.920 I think it's crazy. Why man can't he pussy well, 0:08:54.000 --> 0:08:57.080 I mean us even bringing up Lenny Kravitz. My heart 0:08:57.160 --> 0:08:59.080 sunk when it came out that he been celibate for 0:08:59.160 --> 0:08:59.600 nine years. 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:03.240 Now, God, you gotta respect that and that and that 0:09:03.320 --> 0:09:07.000 makes me respect him even more, only because like it's. 0:09:06.880 --> 0:09:08.280 Hard to give over that ship. 0:09:08.360 --> 0:09:10.640 It is so like they going to get that ship 0:09:10.679 --> 0:09:13.120 away for nine years, you know what I mean, joints. 0:09:13.840 --> 0:09:16.400 It's crazy that you that so many joints like, but 0:09:16.520 --> 0:09:20.000 women too be celibated for that, not nine years. 0:09:20.000 --> 0:09:20.360 I don't know. 0:09:20.480 --> 0:09:26.319 No, no, no, Lenny Gravita them me and my friends 0:09:26.440 --> 0:09:28.559 always talking about this is hilarious. 0:09:28.679 --> 0:09:31.120 He's the only guy what ever in my life ever 0:09:31.200 --> 0:09:37.560 think about ever. Really, it's just because I just think 0:09:37.559 --> 0:09:41.240 he's a He's just a I like people who just 0:09:41.440 --> 0:09:43.640 know who they are, Like they ain't got a nipples 0:09:43.679 --> 0:09:44.959 purious does he? 0:09:45.600 --> 0:09:45.680 Like? 0:09:45.720 --> 0:09:47.839 I just want to know that. I just think that 0:09:47.840 --> 0:09:50.880 that's like you, I don't know, I know who you are. 0:09:51.080 --> 0:09:54.160 You can do things to your body, like even your part, 0:09:54.200 --> 0:09:56.840 like this isn't a common piercing anymore. When people do 0:09:56.920 --> 0:09:59.559 things like that, they don't give a about ship. That 0:09:59.600 --> 0:10:02.200 ship is hot to me. It's like big dick wet 0:10:02.240 --> 0:10:04.680 pussy raight like it's weird. 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:08.040 Piercings are one of the things that I find turmy 0:10:08.200 --> 0:10:12.199 off sometimes No no, no, no, not like face is fine, 0:10:12.240 --> 0:10:13.880 but like I watched I watch a lot of gay 0:10:13.920 --> 0:10:15.360 porn and there's this one. 0:10:15.880 --> 0:10:19.000 There's two point stigns that I really enjoy watching. But 0:10:19.040 --> 0:10:21.480 they have their goops like right under their balls pierced, 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:23.959 and I hate seeing that ship. I mean, like, I 0:10:23.960 --> 0:10:25.720 don't know why that bothers me, and nipple pierce things 0:10:25.720 --> 0:10:26.240 would bother me. 0:10:26.240 --> 0:10:27.439 Do pussy pierces bother you? 0:10:27.480 --> 0:10:28.240 Because I don't know what to do? 0:10:28.240 --> 0:10:31.520 One? I never seen you? Never seen a pierce pussy? 0:10:31.960 --> 0:10:33.679 How have I been out here? I was about to say, 0:10:33.800 --> 0:10:36.600 I definitely ain't pussy with in the dark. 0:10:36.800 --> 0:10:39.200 A lot of nipples, A lot of those are my favorites, 0:10:39.240 --> 0:10:40.640 but I ain't never never seen it. 0:10:40.920 --> 0:10:45.280 Really, have you ever had your one one one? Did 0:10:45.280 --> 0:10:49.080 you like it? Mm? It's cool? It wasn't I don't 0:10:49.200 --> 0:10:49.920 like it's cool. 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:52.679 It's pussy like I love it regardless, So like, I 0:10:52.679 --> 0:10:55.880 don't think it was something that was just like, oh no, piercing. 0:10:56.640 --> 0:11:00.360 It's so scary for me because of the the I'm 0:11:00.400 --> 0:11:01.160 scared it's gonna rip. 0:11:01.200 --> 0:11:01.520 Oh yeah. 0:11:01.559 --> 0:11:03.920 I feel like I wasn't doing my best job. I 0:11:03.960 --> 0:11:07.320 was really being gentle. I was like, I don't what 0:11:07.320 --> 0:11:08.040 I didn't want to pull. 0:11:07.960 --> 0:11:09.520 The rink like you're a good dick girl. I don't 0:11:09.520 --> 0:11:10.520 know if you, but first. 0:11:10.400 --> 0:11:12.680 Off, bitch, I'm gun at both. Don't do me. 0:11:13.440 --> 0:11:16.240 She'd be trying to hate all my bisexuality and you did, 0:11:16.360 --> 0:11:20.240 so what about you? Like she swears she og you 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:22.520 straighten out or no, no, she always joking when. 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:24.280 I said I used to be gay, it's just good. 0:11:25.559 --> 0:11:26.360 No, no, no, I don't. 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:28.600 I'm not in a relationship with a woman, are the okay? 0:11:28.640 --> 0:11:31.000 So you so no titles fuck gay for all of it? 0:11:31.040 --> 0:11:31.640 Do you like women? 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:35.360 Of course? So for me, when when I was dating 0:11:35.360 --> 0:11:36.400 a woman, I was really in it. 0:11:36.440 --> 0:11:37.920 So I make a lot of jokes about not being 0:11:37.960 --> 0:11:42.760 gay because being with a woman was a very deep 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:47.200 experience for me. Because liking pussy when you're not sure 0:11:47.200 --> 0:11:49.200 how to navigate it, WU is why we have so 0:11:49.600 --> 0:11:52.880 many women writing and like what do I do? It's 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:55.800 difficult when you like men and women because one being 0:11:55.800 --> 0:11:58.240 a byegirl, nobody takes you serious. And she was also 0:11:58.360 --> 0:12:01.280 film so they was like used to think we were prostitutes. 0:12:02.040 --> 0:12:04.320 I want to I want to actually ask you that, 0:12:04.440 --> 0:12:06.319 because that brings up a good point. You said you 0:12:06.320 --> 0:12:07.559 wouldn't deal with straight women. 0:12:08.040 --> 0:12:10.800 When I was going through my lesbian phase, especially when 0:12:10.840 --> 0:12:12.720 I wanted to study, like I wanted a bitch to 0:12:12.720 --> 0:12:14.120 look like Brittay grinding, I. 0:12:14.080 --> 0:12:14.800 Was in the lesbian. 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:17.680 I was in the lesbian clubs and when I tell you, 0:12:17.960 --> 0:12:19.560 as soon as the bitches were new. 0:12:19.520 --> 0:12:21.360 I liked real dick. They didn't want to talk to me. 0:12:21.440 --> 0:12:23.439 They actually don't like bisexual women. 0:12:23.880 --> 0:12:26.680 I want to know for you, do you distinguish between 0:12:26.840 --> 0:12:29.200 straight by and lesbian. 0:12:28.720 --> 0:12:31.920 No, I just I just like I mean, in the 0:12:31.920 --> 0:12:35.440 industry that I'm in, like I'm always around just women 0:12:35.480 --> 0:12:39.240 who around with this straight I haven't be playing around 0:12:39.240 --> 0:12:41.360 of course I hate them playing Yeah, they play around 0:12:41.400 --> 0:12:43.719 this stuff. Like I don't know, I'm gonna tracted to 0:12:44.400 --> 0:12:46.680 just straight women just because it's a challenge like the 0:12:46.840 --> 0:12:49.559 energy bisexual too. It's just that now that I'm really 0:12:49.600 --> 0:12:51.040 trying to be in a relationship and I'm trying to 0:12:51.080 --> 0:12:54.760 do different things, Like I'm so I just want somebody 0:12:54.760 --> 0:12:55.280 who's like. 0:12:55.840 --> 0:12:58.400 And it could be a new girl, it could be whatever. 0:12:58.440 --> 0:13:00.480 But I'm just kind of trying to stop away from 0:13:00.520 --> 0:13:02.040 straight women because it's only a sex thing. 0:13:03.120 --> 0:13:07.240 Thirty two, So I feel like at this age I'm 0:13:07.320 --> 0:13:10.840 thirty three, I don't think if I mean, if I 0:13:10.880 --> 0:13:12.400 was really just looking for women, I don't think I 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:14.400 would want to date someone that's never been in a relationship. 0:13:14.480 --> 0:13:16.640 Exactly exactly because it's so hard. 0:13:16.760 --> 0:13:19.160 I mean, I don't, I don't. I think all relationships 0:13:19.200 --> 0:13:21.319 are hard, So I don't even think. I don't even 0:13:21.320 --> 0:13:24.040 think that I think they're supposed to be. I think 0:13:24.080 --> 0:13:26.520 that anything that you want is going to be hard. 0:13:26.640 --> 0:13:29.920 Anything to maintain is hard, like really, I mean not 0:13:30.000 --> 0:13:31.199 in a bad way, but like. 0:13:31.320 --> 0:13:32.959 Love, falling in love shit feel easy. 0:13:33.040 --> 0:13:35.880 No, falling in love is easy, but maintaining the maintenance 0:13:35.920 --> 0:13:38.800 of it is not gonna I mean I'm hard in 0:13:38.840 --> 0:13:41.680 the way of like difficulty, it's gonna have You're gonna 0:13:41.679 --> 0:13:46.439 have difficulty. Nothing but anything but hard about what about 0:13:46.559 --> 0:13:50.960 especially in a lesbian relationship with two women, because I 0:13:51.040 --> 0:13:52.640 understand emotions, like the things. 0:13:53.000 --> 0:13:54.800 Dealing with women is way different than dealing with men. 0:13:54.920 --> 0:13:56.480 And that's why I'm like, that's why I think she 0:13:56.520 --> 0:13:59.400 calls me fake. Ay, I can only see myself in 0:13:59.440 --> 0:14:02.280 a head sexual relationship. But I love sex with women. 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:04.400 But once them bitches want me to start taking them 0:14:04.440 --> 0:14:06.280 to the movies and all that shit, I'd be like, hey, 0:14:06.520 --> 0:14:09.600 calm down. So to me, what do you find difficult 0:14:09.640 --> 0:14:12.160 about being in a relationship? You like to be, you 0:14:12.320 --> 0:14:14.640 like to have the masculine energy around you. So even 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:16.160 if it was with a girl, she has to have 0:14:16.160 --> 0:14:17.960 a masculine energy to kind of like take care of you. 0:14:18.080 --> 0:14:19.360 Right. No, that's the thing. 0:14:19.400 --> 0:14:23.040 I like masculinity with men and I love femininity with women. 0:14:23.320 --> 0:14:26.480 And so for me, I think my brain not wanting 0:14:26.520 --> 0:14:29.800 to show up masculine with a woman, especially because patriarchy. 0:14:30.160 --> 0:14:31.920 I think that's where my difficulty license. 0:14:32.120 --> 0:14:35.480 I love just women, the human the body of a woman, 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:38.640 the touch of a woman, and they could be masculine 0:14:38.680 --> 0:14:40.200 or feminine, but I prefer feminine. 0:14:40.240 --> 0:14:43.240 But relationship wise, I think giving to. 0:14:43.240 --> 0:14:45.080 A woman in the way that they need and the 0:14:45.120 --> 0:14:47.440 way that they require is a lot and I don't 0:14:47.440 --> 0:14:48.160 think I have that. 0:14:48.560 --> 0:14:49.720 I love that as a woman. 0:14:50.600 --> 0:14:54.480 Men don't require as much emotional labor as I think 0:14:54.520 --> 0:14:57.200 women do. On even when I used to hear of 0:14:57.240 --> 0:14:59.680 you and with your relationship with scissors, being with a 0:14:59.720 --> 0:15:02.240 woman to me just sounds like more work. 0:15:02.800 --> 0:15:03.200 It is. 0:15:03.240 --> 0:15:06.120 But I mean that's all I know really, So Okay, 0:15:06.200 --> 0:15:09.200 there's more depth, I'll say this, there's okay, there was 0:15:09.240 --> 0:15:11.080 a lot more depth early on. 0:15:11.560 --> 0:15:13.760 Man, you gotta work too hard to get them. 0:15:13.600 --> 0:15:15.000 To open them to open up. 0:15:15.080 --> 0:15:19.920 And with her, very simple, very passionate and very passionate. 0:15:20.320 --> 0:15:21.080 She was very. 0:15:20.880 --> 0:15:23.760 Intentional too, like I didn't really have to teach this 0:15:23.800 --> 0:15:25.240 bitch how to treat me, which I feel like I 0:15:25.280 --> 0:15:27.360 do with a lot of men. But you know what's 0:15:27.360 --> 0:15:31.080 crazy to your point, I was recently thinking like, damn, 0:15:31.120 --> 0:15:33.200 I've really never been with a masculine woman, and I 0:15:33.240 --> 0:15:35.960 wonder if it's because I like men too, so I 0:15:35.960 --> 0:15:36.480 feel like. 0:15:36.600 --> 0:15:38.600 It's cheatless, like yo, I might as well go to 0:15:38.600 --> 0:15:38.960 a nigga. 0:15:39.040 --> 0:15:43.680 But then you feel like, you know, make me change 0:15:43.680 --> 0:15:44.040 my mind. 0:15:44.400 --> 0:15:47.320 Just the one bitch I could take my pussy Punky. 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:50.320 I hate this Punky for resting now and I we 0:15:50.480 --> 0:15:53.480 are okay, okay, okay, Punky. 0:15:53.760 --> 0:15:58.920 Punky got she's you've seen her face, but it's it's 0:15:58.960 --> 0:15:59.320 for me. 0:15:59.640 --> 0:16:00.160 I love. 0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:02.000 I've seen like Punky has a cooking series online, so 0:16:02.040 --> 0:16:04.640 every night before I said, now she's cooking, and I 0:16:04.640 --> 0:16:08.720 think what I've always associated with studs, masks, women, whatever? 0:16:09.040 --> 0:16:13.040 Butch why the white people say but it's like what 0:16:13.160 --> 0:16:15.680 you said, it's ugly. It sounds like you hate it. 0:16:16.080 --> 0:16:18.480 I mean, I don't like any terms don't come out, 0:16:18.560 --> 0:16:21.080 but really, if you mean whatever. 0:16:20.800 --> 0:16:22.800 But his mask preferred if someone's gonna say, so. 0:16:23.000 --> 0:16:25.600 I'm just a masculine because I have feminine energy as well, 0:16:25.680 --> 0:16:28.120 Like that's the thing, like you, you just gotta get 0:16:28.200 --> 0:16:30.040 to see me in my different energies. 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:31.720 And I think I got to see her in that 0:16:31.880 --> 0:16:35.280 energy made me kind of like bunky, and I I 0:16:35.320 --> 0:16:37.400 started to be like, oh, because that's what I want 0:16:37.720 --> 0:16:39.880 out of the woman experience. 0:16:39.960 --> 0:16:40.800 I want to have both. 0:16:41.880 --> 0:16:44.040 But I've been so used to living in a masculine 0:16:44.120 --> 0:16:47.560 energy with these fem girls and being that bitch paying 0:16:47.600 --> 0:16:49.480 for ship doing ship, that I don't know what it's 0:16:49.520 --> 0:16:50.680 like to be treated the other way around. 0:16:50.720 --> 0:16:53.880 I think my my other I wouldn't say problem, but 0:16:54.200 --> 0:16:57.800 I like strapping. No, well, I like stop it. I 0:16:57.880 --> 0:17:01.680 like strapping. I like strapping. Man, WHOA, don't do that? 0:17:02.040 --> 0:17:05.120 Don't do that? Wait, don't hold on? Did you miss 0:17:05.119 --> 0:17:09.280 pat the Stallion girl? Wait a minute, however, I realized 0:17:10.680 --> 0:17:15.960 wants to give me a minute. Let me prossess this. Right, Okay, yes, 0:17:16.240 --> 0:17:21.240 you don't like gay guys? Right? You say that you 0:17:21.320 --> 0:17:23.399 don't like Lenny Kravish type nig No, I do like 0:17:23.520 --> 0:17:25.959 Lenny Kravist type nick? Did she say she I love? 0:17:27.320 --> 0:17:30.840 I don't like Lenny is literally I like, I like Lenny, 0:17:30.880 --> 0:17:33.480 I like it. So okay, So I did have one 0:17:33.520 --> 0:17:35.920 girlfriend I like where you're going with. Well, I realized 0:17:36.119 --> 0:17:38.440 to me too, and this could just be the way. 0:17:38.560 --> 0:17:41.720 So sex is way more psychological than anything, and so 0:17:42.200 --> 0:17:45.840 I enjoy strapping men. But in the one time that 0:17:46.200 --> 0:17:48.919 I did get strapped by a girl, the reason why 0:17:49.000 --> 0:17:52.480 I realized I didn't enjoy it was because I like 0:17:53.440 --> 0:17:56.639 to know that there's a pulse. I also like to 0:17:56.760 --> 0:18:00.639 know that he feels me inside, and I like to 0:18:00.720 --> 0:18:03.679 see it come and so to not have that be 0:18:03.720 --> 0:18:06.679 a part of sex was a problem for me because 0:18:06.760 --> 0:18:08.240 I only come off penetration. 0:18:08.880 --> 0:18:11.120 So I think that's maybe why I want a man 0:18:11.200 --> 0:18:14.119 there because but if you you can tinue in a strap, 0:18:14.200 --> 0:18:17.640 I ain't gonna penetrate. Like I ain't go front man. 0:18:17.760 --> 0:18:24.359