WEBVTT - “I’M A FEMALE TRUCK DRIVER” 0:00:03.200 --> 0:00:06.240 Hello, Hello, Hi, Oh my god, gek. 0:00:06.440 --> 0:00:10.240 What is your name? Sydney, Sydney? What's going on? Sydney? 0:00:10.240 --> 0:00:10.760 How's life? 0:00:10.880 --> 0:00:13.440 And life is good. I'm just at home, just came 0:00:13.480 --> 0:00:14.600 back from walking the dog. 0:00:16.480 --> 0:00:18.680 You texted me and you said you want to talk 0:00:18.720 --> 0:00:21.919 about what it's like being a female truck driver. I 0:00:21.920 --> 0:00:22.840 thought that was interesting. 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:27.840 Yeah, yeah for sure. So I work for a trucking 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:31.400 company and I basically just like move trucks around all day. 0:00:31.800 --> 0:00:32.480 It's pretty fun. 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:36.839 You move. How long of a distance do you move 0:00:36.880 --> 0:00:37.479 these trucks? 0:00:38.680 --> 0:00:42.120 Well, I do just like like around like my city 0:00:42.200 --> 0:00:44.479 and everything. Like you can choose to do lognissance or 0:00:44.520 --> 0:00:46.320 like around the city, but I want to come home. 0:00:46.200 --> 0:00:46.839 Every day, so. 0:00:48.479 --> 0:00:50.440 I choose, like I chose like to be able to 0:00:50.479 --> 0:00:51.639 like work during the day. 0:00:51.680 --> 0:00:51.839 You know. 0:00:51.960 --> 0:00:54.760 I just worked like seven to two every day and 0:00:54.800 --> 0:00:55.480 it's pretty chill. 0:00:56.120 --> 0:01:02.360 Okay, So it's not like a crazy like long haul trucking. 0:01:01.080 --> 0:01:03.680 No, it's because like I wanted to do that, but 0:01:03.840 --> 0:01:06.640 I have a kid, so I like don't want to 0:01:06.640 --> 0:01:08.440 do that obviously. I like being home everyday. 0:01:09.560 --> 0:01:10.880 How's your kid doing? How old are they? 0:01:12.280 --> 0:01:14.520 She's too she just turned two. 0:01:14.720 --> 0:01:16.000 Yeah, how's that? Gone. 0:01:16.040 --> 0:01:21.080 Yeah's it's fun. It's good. She's crazy, but you know 0:01:21.080 --> 0:01:21.839 it keeps me busy. 0:01:22.440 --> 0:01:24.640 Yeah, hesitated? Why did you hesitate? I'm curious? 0:01:26.040 --> 0:01:27.880 Well because right now, like she's not with me. She 0:01:27.959 --> 0:01:31.440 stays with her dad half the time, so unfortunately she's 0:01:31.440 --> 0:01:32.160 not here today. 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:36.200 Is her dad in the same city as you? 0:01:37.560 --> 0:01:37.800 Yeah? 0:01:37.880 --> 0:01:39.959 Yeah, so he lives not far from me, like ten 0:01:39.959 --> 0:01:42.640 minutes for me. So I moved out like in October, 0:01:42.880 --> 0:01:45.240 so be cause things aren't really great between us. But 0:01:45.360 --> 0:01:48.720 you know, how long were you too? 0:01:49.040 --> 0:01:50.760 How long? How long were you two together? 0:01:50.800 --> 0:01:56.040 For like four or five years something like that? 0:01:56.280 --> 0:01:59.080 We met in twenty twenty, Okay, it's a long time. 0:02:00.160 --> 0:02:01.880 Yeah, And that's when like I started listening to you 0:02:01.920 --> 0:02:03.960 in twenty twenty, when I was working at a different job, 0:02:04.360 --> 0:02:05.680 doing like different kind of trucking. 0:02:07.480 --> 0:02:13.480 Why did uh do? Why did things like deteriorate? Ah? 0:02:13.639 --> 0:02:16.480 Well, he was like addicted to porn. 0:02:17.200 --> 0:02:21.240 Ah how how addicted to porn? 0:02:21.400 --> 0:02:21.560 Was he? 0:02:22.120 --> 0:02:22.960 Like everybody he. 0:02:22.919 --> 0:02:25.079 Used to spend Yeah, no, he used to send pictures 0:02:25.080 --> 0:02:27.400 of his ass, so like random guys on like snapsdown 0:02:27.440 --> 0:02:30.400 and like talked random people in ome goal and shit, 0:02:30.520 --> 0:02:32.240 and like the thing is he never wanted to have 0:02:32.320 --> 0:02:34.960 sex with me. That was like the main issue. And 0:02:35.000 --> 0:02:37.040 I'm like not like that, Like I like having an 0:02:37.080 --> 0:02:41.000 intimate relationship, you know, Like but he like just never communicated, 0:02:41.120 --> 0:02:43.040 like always shut down every time I talked to him, 0:02:43.080 --> 0:02:45.880 you know, Like so like things kind of just got worse. 0:02:45.880 --> 0:02:47.800 So we're kind but we were stuck living together, you know, 0:02:47.840 --> 0:02:49.959 because like we both moved out pretty young, so I 0:02:50.040 --> 0:02:51.520 was like he was my only way out of like 0:02:51.919 --> 0:02:53.880 living at like my mom, So you know, I didn't 0:02:53.880 --> 0:02:57.400 really have a choice. And like obviously things are always 0:02:57.400 --> 0:02:59.680 good at first, but then like you find out who 0:02:59.760 --> 0:03:00.560 someone really is. 0:03:01.320 --> 0:03:01.920 Mm hmmmm. 0:03:02.639 --> 0:03:02.679 No. 0:03:02.960 --> 0:03:05.480 This the thing about like the like porn and jack 0:03:05.520 --> 0:03:08.000 and off addiction thing is like that is the point yeah, 0:03:08.040 --> 0:03:11.560 when like, uh, like I I do believe that stuff 0:03:11.600 --> 0:03:14.799 can co exist alongside a healthy relationship, but like when 0:03:14.800 --> 0:03:16.400 it gets to a point where like you're not even 0:03:16.480 --> 0:03:20.400 attracted to your like partner anymore, like you didn't want 0:03:20.400 --> 0:03:22.000 to have sex with them anymore. I mean that's just 0:03:22.160 --> 0:03:25.160 like yeahah, it makes it like a relationship. 0:03:26.160 --> 0:03:28.359 It was not fun. Like it made me feel very unwanted, 0:03:28.400 --> 0:03:31.120 you know, and then it made me like very anxious, 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:33.720 like I got, like, you know, I had like an 0:03:33.720 --> 0:03:36.840 interesting childhood, so I was like pretty anxious already, and 0:03:36.840 --> 0:03:39.160 then like him always like seeking around and like lying 0:03:39.160 --> 0:03:41.080 about his phone and shit and hiding his phone all 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:43.280 the time, you know, and I would find shit like 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:44.960 on his phone and he would just lie straight up 0:03:45.000 --> 0:03:47.120 to me about it, you know or see who would 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:48.480 change and then like never. 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:52.640 Do was there? Like what did you guys have like 0:03:52.680 --> 0:03:55.160 a good sex life, like at the beginning of the relationship, 0:03:55.200 --> 0:03:57.280 and then it just like from I was like always 0:03:57.320 --> 0:03:57.880 always there. 0:03:58.480 --> 0:04:00.640 It was always me who in this she did like 0:04:01.480 --> 0:04:03.080 she'd have seen the red flag, but like it was 0:04:03.120 --> 0:04:05.920 always me, you know. But like his Lafe relationship, he 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:07.840 told me that his girlfriend never want to have sex, 0:04:07.880 --> 0:04:10.400 so he like never did, you know, and he respected 0:04:10.440 --> 0:04:12.760 her obviously, you know, but like so I think he 0:04:12.840 --> 0:04:15.040 never learned. So like we did it for the first 0:04:15.080 --> 0:04:18.000 time together great, but then he never really like initiated, 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:21.600 you know. M But like, you know, we've got along 0:04:21.680 --> 0:04:23.919 really well, like we had friends like together, you know, 0:04:24.080 --> 0:04:25.760 like we got along really well. You know, I had 0:04:25.760 --> 0:04:27.159 a lot of stuff in common, you know, So I 0:04:27.240 --> 0:04:28.560 tried not to think about it too much. 0:04:29.160 --> 0:04:29.680 Mm hmmm. 0:04:30.160 --> 0:04:32.320 Hmm, and yeah, I just never got better. 0:04:32.360 --> 0:04:36.400 You know, how are you guys lying? It was the 0:04:36.480 --> 0:04:37.200 lying you said. 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:40.600 Yeah, there's a lot of lying, you know, like even 0:04:40.600 --> 0:04:42.440 to this day, always like a little white live. 0:04:43.839 --> 0:04:49.240 How how is the co parenting going? Selright to co 0:04:49.360 --> 0:04:49.719 parent with? 0:04:51.000 --> 0:04:54.040 Uh, it's a lot better now for sure, Like I 0:04:54.160 --> 0:04:56.520 moved out in October. So ever since moving out, like 0:04:56.560 --> 0:04:59.600 it's been way like ten times better. But I had 0:04:59.600 --> 0:05:02.080 to fight to like get to mediation at to fight him, 0:05:02.240 --> 0:05:04.680 you know, to like get child support. And even like 0:05:04.720 --> 0:05:06.960 today he's still like late on child support, hasn't paid 0:05:06.960 --> 0:05:09.040 me yet, you know, like he's supposed to do it 0:05:09.080 --> 0:05:09.559 every month. 0:05:09.600 --> 0:05:11.760 But like whatever, did you guys? 0:05:11.839 --> 0:05:13.240 I feel like the kid is happy? 0:05:13.760 --> 0:05:15.440 Did you guys have a lot of disagreements in terms 0:05:15.480 --> 0:05:19.719 of like how to raise the child? No, I mean. 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:23.000 Not really, Like but I'm the one who's more in 0:05:23.000 --> 0:05:25.280 control of everything, you know, like I have to tell 0:05:25.360 --> 0:05:26.720 him like what to do a lot, you know what 0:05:26.800 --> 0:05:30.760 I mean, Like yeah, like what to feed her, how 0:05:30.760 --> 0:05:32.240 to put her to bed? How like you know, how 0:05:32.240 --> 0:05:33.680 to give her a back, like simple things you know 0:05:33.720 --> 0:05:35.599 that he should just do as a parent, you know, 0:05:35.640 --> 0:05:39.560 I have to like tell him mmmmmmm. But like I mean, 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:41.479 he has gone a lot better though, because I think 0:05:41.560 --> 0:05:44.080 like having her more you know, like on his own, 0:05:44.200 --> 0:05:46.720 like has made him like show up more for her, 0:05:46.720 --> 0:05:48.440 because he wasn't really there for the first like year 0:05:48.440 --> 0:05:48.960 of her life. 0:05:49.080 --> 0:05:52.320 You know, where was he Well. 0:05:52.320 --> 0:05:53.760 Like he was just working all the time where he 0:05:53.800 --> 0:05:55.560 would come home and just like line the couch and 0:05:55.600 --> 0:05:57.200 if I ever asked, like if I want to go out, 0:05:57.279 --> 0:05:58.760 he would just be like, call my mom, you know, 0:05:58.880 --> 0:05:59.479 to watch her. 0:06:01.839 --> 0:06:05.200 If he ever say that again, if you ever wanted 0:06:05.200 --> 0:06:07.279 to go out, he would call his mom to watch her. 0:06:08.160 --> 0:06:10.039 Yeah, Or he would tell me to call her and 0:06:10.080 --> 0:06:11.400 be like, if you want to go out, like call 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:13.000 my mom. You know, Like he wouldn't stay home and 0:06:13.040 --> 0:06:15.000 watch her. You know he can deal with the. 0:06:14.960 --> 0:06:18.880 Baby, does he like being a dead. 0:06:19.880 --> 0:06:21.800 I mean yeah, like you know, he's the one who 0:06:21.800 --> 0:06:23.760 wanted the baby. You know, he's the one who can 0:06:23.800 --> 0:06:26.279 think me like not to get an abortion, like was 0:06:26.320 --> 0:06:29.040 super into it, like will be you know, nice happy 0:06:29.040 --> 0:06:34.320 family and then yeah really yeah, yeah, so that's the thing. 0:06:34.400 --> 0:06:36.760 Like you know, like I found out pretty early, and 0:06:36.800 --> 0:06:38.640 you know, like I was like for sure fifty to fifty, 0:06:38.680 --> 0:06:40.400 like definitely had to think about it, and in the end, 0:06:40.400 --> 0:06:43.279 like I did like keep her obviously my decision, but 0:06:43.400 --> 0:06:45.400 like he definitely like play a part in it too, 0:06:45.480 --> 0:06:49.080 you know. Was like I'm very happy now, Like I'm 0:06:49.080 --> 0:06:50.919 living my best life right now, so I'm like super 0:06:50.920 --> 0:06:55.240 happy and everything now. So everything worked out well, you know, 0:06:55.400 --> 0:06:58.440 but still like I have a boyfriend now and that's 0:06:58.440 --> 0:07:02.120 been great. He's like the best guy ever. So it's 0:07:02.160 --> 0:07:03.200 like a one to eighty, you know. 0:07:04.000 --> 0:07:11.680 That's awesome. Was was the baby planned? Like was it 0:07:11.720 --> 0:07:14.400 like a planned story? Like he became pregnant and then 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:17.200 it was like fifty to fifty on keeping it. 0:07:18.280 --> 0:07:21.520 Yeah, Like like we weren't even together when I got 0:07:21.520 --> 0:07:24.960 pregnant really like we had we had broken up, Like 0:07:25.000 --> 0:07:27.080 it was like August twenty twenty three and we had 0:07:27.120 --> 0:07:30.400 broken up. But then like like we had two cats, 0:07:30.400 --> 0:07:33.160 and I like was bored on a Friday night and 0:07:33.200 --> 0:07:35.400 like I want to go see if they were there, 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:37.080 and then he weren't. They weren't there, like he brought 0:07:37.080 --> 0:07:40.040 them to his mom's and shit, and then like whatever, 0:07:40.120 --> 0:07:43.120 one thing led to another, so fucking stupid. So we 0:07:43.120 --> 0:07:45.120 got back to bed together. Obviously when I found out 0:07:45.120 --> 0:07:47.880 I was pregnant and then Yeah, so it's already be 0:07:48.040 --> 0:07:51.360 like not stable to begin with, I guess, but like 0:07:51.520 --> 0:07:53.320 we're chilled now, you know, like he has a girlfriend. 0:07:53.320 --> 0:07:55.360 I have a boyfriend now, Like you know, he's living 0:07:55.360 --> 0:07:57.880 his life. I'm living mine. I mean we definitely do 0:07:58.040 --> 0:08:01.760 disagree every once in a while, and you know it's 0:08:01.800 --> 0:08:02.840 not too bad. 0:08:03.880 --> 0:08:05.280 But you're living your best life now. 0:08:06.200 --> 0:08:09.280 Yeah, definitely, like like having an amazing boyfriend. We have 0:08:09.360 --> 0:08:10.720 like a little like townhouse together. 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:11.760 We just got a dog. 0:08:11.920 --> 0:08:15.800 You know, Like I work like part time, you know, 0:08:15.960 --> 0:08:18.200 like at a super chill like truck driving job. You know, 0:08:19.080 --> 0:08:22.679 everyone's like very nice, you know, so I'm pretty lucky. 0:08:23.280 --> 0:08:25.200 That's awesome. Yeah, tell you about Yeah what is that? 0:08:25.240 --> 0:08:27.520 What does your best life look like? Is it? Is 0:08:27.560 --> 0:08:28.600 that what you always wanted to be? 0:08:28.720 --> 0:08:31.880 Like yeah, definitely. I think it's like I don't really 0:08:31.960 --> 0:08:36.199 have like like a normal upbringing. You know, I had 0:08:36.240 --> 0:08:39.080 like divorced parents, but like not messy divorced parents. 0:08:39.120 --> 0:08:39.280 You know. 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:41.719 So when I, like me and her dad didn't work out, 0:08:41.720 --> 0:08:43.520 I wanted to make it like as easy as possible. 0:08:43.559 --> 0:08:45.360 Like I didn't want any fighting, I didn't want lawyers. 0:08:45.400 --> 0:08:48.160 I didn't want court, you know, I just wanted to 0:08:48.160 --> 0:08:49.520 make it like easy as possible. 0:08:50.360 --> 0:08:50.760 Mm hmm. 0:08:53.000 --> 0:08:54.760 But yeah, but yeah, I love my life. Like I 0:08:54.800 --> 0:08:56.560 love that I get to drive around all day and 0:08:56.640 --> 0:08:58.760 you know, get to hang out my dog and go 0:08:58.840 --> 0:09:01.480 to pool and like my me and my boyfriend golf together. 0:09:01.600 --> 0:09:04.480 We go to dinner even though we can't. We shouldn't 0:09:04.480 --> 0:09:06.920 go out to eat as much. That's our main issue 0:09:07.000 --> 0:09:08.839 in life, spending money on food. 0:09:08.880 --> 0:09:09.199 But like. 0:09:11.520 --> 0:09:13.360 Everything's so expensive. 0:09:14.240 --> 0:09:17.800 And what's making your You said your boyfriend's the best. 0:09:17.800 --> 0:09:19.120 Why is he the best? 0:09:20.000 --> 0:09:22.000 Well, I know, like he tells me he loves me. 0:09:22.120 --> 0:09:24.240 He actually like treats me right, he like cares about 0:09:24.240 --> 0:09:27.760 me and like shows it, you know, like took in 0:09:28.200 --> 0:09:30.640 like me and my daughter. You know it didn't have 0:09:30.760 --> 0:09:32.640 to do that. You know, he liked me and he 0:09:32.720 --> 0:09:33.440 knew he had a kid. 0:09:33.440 --> 0:09:34.080 I had a kid. 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:35.560 But like he didn't have to do what he did. 0:09:35.640 --> 0:09:39.200 You know, he didn't have to help us and like 0:09:39.280 --> 0:09:40.959 you know, help me, you know, like he didn't have 0:09:41.000 --> 0:09:42.040 to do all that, but he did. 0:09:42.679 --> 0:09:45.000 Mm hmmm hm. No, he sounds like a good dude. 0:09:46.480 --> 0:09:52.840 No, definitely, he does like like car wrapping, so like 0:09:52.920 --> 0:09:54.600 you know, like you put like let's say you get 0:09:54.640 --> 0:09:56.679 a new car whatever, and you want to protect your paint, 0:09:56.720 --> 0:09:58.360 like he does that, so he like wrapped the car 0:09:58.360 --> 0:10:00.679 and like a clear film or like you can make 0:10:00.679 --> 0:10:03.240 a mat or whatever. He has his own business. 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:07.000 Nice. What uh? And you're Canadian? 0:10:08.120 --> 0:10:08.360 Yeah? 0:10:08.440 --> 0:10:08.840 Yeah? 0:10:09.640 --> 0:10:11.600 Where in Canada? Do you? What city is it? 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:14.720 I'm in Montreal and I'm actually here in Montreal. 0:10:15.480 --> 0:10:18.000 Oh, Montreal. You go to the show. Oh cool, that'll 0:10:18.040 --> 0:10:20.679 be my first dude, that that's gonna be my first 0:10:20.720 --> 0:10:26.000 time in uh Montreal. I've heard only incredible things about Montreal. 0:10:26.080 --> 0:10:28.120 I've heard it's like an amazing place. 0:10:29.000 --> 0:10:30.960 No, honestly, I love living here like I was born 0:10:31.000 --> 0:10:33.360 and raised, you know, like I love it other than 0:10:33.440 --> 0:10:36.360 the friends, like everything is great other. 0:10:36.200 --> 0:10:37.640 Than okay, tell me about this. What do you mean 0:10:37.640 --> 0:10:38.400 other than the French? 0:10:38.880 --> 0:10:41.080 Well, just because like I'm like born here, but like 0:10:41.120 --> 0:10:43.559 I don't speak very good French, so like sometimes it's 0:10:43.600 --> 0:10:44.000 hard for me. 0:10:44.160 --> 0:10:44.360 You know. 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:46.480 That's why I like, I like truck driving. I don't 0:10:46.480 --> 0:10:50.920 really have to speak French to anyone, but everyone. 0:10:50.120 --> 0:10:53.640 Speak Well what's the deal there? Okay, So I'm very 0:10:53.679 --> 0:10:54.960 that's been a thing and I guess I'll get a 0:10:54.960 --> 0:10:58.040 handle on it when I go there. I'll probably stay 0:10:58.040 --> 0:10:59.920 a few days. Actually, most of these places I'm kind 0:10:59.920 --> 0:11:01.400 of going in and out. But Montreal, I want to 0:11:01.400 --> 0:11:02.120 stay a few days. 0:11:02.160 --> 0:11:04.040 I've yeah, I do for sure. 0:11:04.520 --> 0:11:08.680 I've heard that. It's like, yeah, I don't know what's 0:11:08.679 --> 0:11:11.320 the deal with it, because it's like it's frenchy, but 0:11:11.360 --> 0:11:14.400 not everyone speaks French. But sometimes I meet a guy 0:11:14.400 --> 0:11:16.320 from Montreal and he has like a French accent, and 0:11:16.320 --> 0:11:18.040 I'm like, what is this? But then I talk to 0:11:18.120 --> 0:11:20.040 you and You're just like, uh, you have a fully 0:11:20.040 --> 0:11:22.079 Canadian accent. So I don't know what's going on. 0:11:23.200 --> 0:11:25.160 So, like, it all depends, I guess on where you're 0:11:25.200 --> 0:11:27.280 like born or raised, Like I'm in like the west 0:11:27.320 --> 0:11:30.160 part of Montreal, so it's all like English here, like 0:11:30.320 --> 0:11:32.720 very English like suburbs, you know. And then if you're 0:11:32.800 --> 0:11:34.600 in the city or like the outskirts of Montreal, it's 0:11:34.600 --> 0:11:37.720 more like French, you know, like Laval and like Lunge, 0:11:38.000 --> 0:11:40.240 like downtown, you know, French. But let's say I are 0:11:40.320 --> 0:11:42.080 to go to a restaurant downtown and spoke English, like 0:11:42.160 --> 0:11:43.920 the waiter would speak English to me. You know what, 0:11:43.920 --> 0:11:48.680 I mean like people are pretty bilingual mm hm, so 0:11:48.760 --> 0:11:50.760 like you'll have no problem you know, talking to people 0:11:50.800 --> 0:11:52.600 like maybe like they'll have an accent, but like they'll 0:11:52.600 --> 0:11:58.559 still speak like English to you. And people love tourists, 0:11:58.600 --> 0:11:58.760 you know. 0:11:59.640 --> 0:12:00.840 Do you guys get a lot of tourists. 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:04.040 Yeah, I would, I think so, Like I don't go 0:12:04.440 --> 0:12:06.600 downtown too often, but I love going to the Old 0:12:06.600 --> 0:12:09.720 Port during the summer. It's so nice, like going on 0:12:09.760 --> 0:12:13.360 the terraces and everything like that the best. 0:12:13.559 --> 0:12:16.480 Well I I was gonna h I also wanted to 0:12:16.480 --> 0:12:18.160 ask you wanted to talk about what it's like being 0:12:18.160 --> 0:12:20.720 a female truck driver. I didn't know if you wanted 0:12:20.720 --> 0:12:21.800 to elaborate on that at all. 0:12:22.800 --> 0:12:25.760 I mean, it doesn't really matter, like I mean, it's 0:12:25.800 --> 0:12:29.320 pretty fun, you know, like like I don't know, like 0:12:30.360 --> 0:12:32.600 it just sometimes like obviously men like it always seems 0:12:32.600 --> 0:12:34.360 like they're very surprised, you know, because I'm like not 0:12:34.480 --> 0:12:36.719 a tall girl, Like I'm pretty petite, you know, So 0:12:36.880 --> 0:12:38.840 like there was like, oh, like how do you do 0:12:38.880 --> 0:12:41.040 this drive these big trucks, you know, And I'm like 0:12:41.040 --> 0:12:43.560 I don't know, like you like normally, like I just 0:12:43.600 --> 0:12:45.560 got to bring the seat up a little more than you, 0:12:45.640 --> 0:12:49.040 Like I don't know, like I think it's the only thing, 0:12:49.120 --> 0:12:51.280 or like they'll call me like, you know, like in French, 0:12:51.400 --> 0:12:53.520 like pretty is like Jali, So they'll call me like 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:55.680 Jelly a lot, you know a lot of people I 0:12:55.720 --> 0:12:57.760 work with, but like sometimes I'll go like today, like 0:12:57.760 --> 0:13:00.520 a construction worker called me that and I was like okay, 0:13:00.679 --> 0:13:01.840 like but like move along. 0:13:01.960 --> 0:13:04.760 You know, it is the horniest language, is it not? 0:13:05.960 --> 0:13:09.240 Yeah, I feel like it. 0:13:08.400 --> 0:13:12.120 Like pepe lepeu, like the the most famously horned do 0:13:12.120 --> 0:13:12.920 you know pepe Lepu? 0:13:13.760 --> 0:13:15.600 Yeah, of course I love Mooney Tunes. 0:13:17.800 --> 0:13:20.880 I feel like Jalie. I will say, like, but it 0:13:20.960 --> 0:13:23.520 makes sense that it's like the hornious language because like 0:13:24.120 --> 0:13:27.680 I don't know, if like some French guy called me Jalie, 0:13:28.440 --> 0:13:30.360 you know, I would I would blush a little bit. 0:13:30.440 --> 0:13:33.960 I think, yeah, for sure, I mean I'll take the comment, 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:35.560 you know, like I'm not like they're not being like 0:13:35.640 --> 0:13:39.000 rude or anything or like overly like sexually, you know, 0:13:39.120 --> 0:13:41.240 like they're just old men, you know see a pretty girl, 0:13:42.440 --> 0:13:44.040 Like I don't really let it bother me too much. 0:13:45.640 --> 0:13:48.400 So you speak a little bit so everyone like when 0:13:48.400 --> 0:13:50.280 you go to you went to school there right, Like 0:13:50.280 --> 0:13:53.240 what do they teach in school? Is it French or English? 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:56.280 So well, there's two school boards. There's an English school 0:13:56.280 --> 0:13:57.679 board and the French school board. I went to the 0:13:57.679 --> 0:14:00.599 English one because do you need, like your parents to 0:14:00.679 --> 0:14:02.719 be born both your parents be born in Quebec to 0:14:02.760 --> 0:14:04.560 be able to be able to go to English school? 0:14:04.920 --> 0:14:06.600 Because both my parents were born here, I was able 0:14:06.679 --> 0:14:08.320 to go to English school. But if they weren't, I 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:10.920 was an immigrant. Like immigrants when they come here, they're 0:14:10.960 --> 0:14:12.839 forced to go to French school, like, so they have 0:14:12.960 --> 0:14:15.240 no choice but to learn French. So they're like stuck 0:14:15.280 --> 0:14:17.640 in quebecause they only know French when they come here. 0:14:18.679 --> 0:14:22.400 That's stupid. Yeah, that's kind of wild, is it? Why 0:14:22.400 --> 0:14:23.680 do they do it? Why did they do it? 0:14:23.760 --> 0:14:24.120 Like that? 0:14:24.920 --> 0:14:26.800 Be could they want to protect their language? 0:14:27.440 --> 0:14:30.320 Oh yeah, but then it fox everyone who goes there, 0:14:30.320 --> 0:14:34.800 because yeah, they can't really leave Quebec exactly exactly. 0:14:35.600 --> 0:14:37.520 But that's why I like you if you're never coming 0:14:37.520 --> 0:14:40.920 from you know, wherever, you know, India or whatever, like 0:14:41.440 --> 0:14:43.120 they want you to stay here, but they want you 0:14:43.160 --> 0:14:46.920 to like only learn their language, you know, m And 0:14:46.960 --> 0:14:48.280 they make you pay a bunch of money to come 0:14:48.320 --> 0:14:48.600 here too. 0:14:49.720 --> 0:14:51.760 How big is this truck you're driving? How many wheels? 0:14:51.840 --> 0:14:52.240 We talking? 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:53.320 Uh? 0:14:53.480 --> 0:14:56.440 Some eyes like eighteen wheelers and stuff and or like 0:14:56.480 --> 0:15:00.400 straight bodies like the long ones. Yeah. Yeah, I have to, 0:15:00.840 --> 0:15:03.120 you know, be careful, especially driving around the city. But 0:15:03.160 --> 0:15:05.320 that's why, like it's kind of safer than highway driving. 0:15:05.360 --> 0:15:07.520 You know, more accidents can happen that way, So I 0:15:07.600 --> 0:15:09.520 don't mind being in traffic all day, you know, like 0:15:09.640 --> 0:15:10.680 just going around the city. 0:15:11.400 --> 0:15:13.360 Wall, I feel like it was okay. So I actually 0:15:13.520 --> 0:15:15.320 was feeling like it's the opposite because if you're on 0:15:15.320 --> 0:15:17.400 a highway, you just got to move forward. You just 0:15:17.720 --> 0:15:20.280 like like I love when I'm doing a long drive 0:15:20.720 --> 0:15:22.440 and I look at my Google Maps and it says 0:15:22.480 --> 0:15:26.440 like one hundred miles or kilometers or whatever until the 0:15:26.480 --> 0:15:29.360 next thing, because I'm like, all right, I just go forward, right, 0:15:29.360 --> 0:15:32.760 But yeah, driving an eighteen wheeler at like like taking 0:15:32.800 --> 0:15:36.080 an eighteen wheeler to like a traffic stop, that sounds 0:15:36.160 --> 0:15:37.120 that sounds like a nightmare. 0:15:38.200 --> 0:15:40.640 Yeah, I mean it's honestly, like I'm going pretty slow, 0:15:40.720 --> 0:15:42.360 you know, it's not a big deal. And I'm like 0:15:42.480 --> 0:15:44.760 just like kind of cruising around the city, you know, 0:15:44.840 --> 0:15:47.840 like I'm not really rushing anywhere. It's more annoying like 0:15:48.040 --> 0:15:50.400 when I'm trying to get home and like there's traffic, 0:15:50.480 --> 0:15:53.560 which tends to be often but you know, it is. 0:15:53.520 --> 0:15:54.000 What it is. 0:15:54.400 --> 0:15:55.920 But like the thing is, it's like when you're on 0:15:55.920 --> 0:15:57.720 the highway, like it's more dangerou because like that can 0:15:57.800 --> 0:15:59.600 cause like a statal axit. You know, I'd rather get 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:02.360 into a little fender bender, you know, like in the 0:16:02.400 --> 0:16:04.920 city then like get into like a five car pile 0:16:05.040 --> 0:16:08.320 up on the highway, you know what I mean. Like 0:16:08.360 --> 0:16:10.760 I feel like that's like what the danger is. I 0:16:11.200 --> 0:16:14.200 don't get paid like crazy, so like the highway guys 0:16:14.240 --> 0:16:17.000 they get paid more because like of the risk and 0:16:17.040 --> 0:16:17.800 obviously they're. 0:16:17.600 --> 0:16:20.720 Going further, you know. Yeah, yeah, I've talked about this 0:16:20.720 --> 0:16:23.360 a billion times something here, But like I fucking that's 0:16:23.400 --> 0:16:26.680 the thing that's the most, Like that's so dangerous to me, 0:16:26.760 --> 0:16:28.880 just be the highway. I hate the highway. Like I'd 0:16:28.960 --> 0:16:32.720 rather go to like the walk around you know in 0:16:32.760 --> 0:16:35.000 Iraq than like be on like the highway of a 0:16:35.080 --> 0:16:35.840 nice suburb. 0:16:36.000 --> 0:16:36.160 You know. 0:16:36.240 --> 0:16:37.600 Like that shit fucking scares me. 0:16:38.680 --> 0:16:41.600 Yeah, exactly, for sure. Like I MO, it's like I 0:16:41.600 --> 0:16:44.080 always hear about accidents and shit, you know, people dying 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:46.680 all the time. Like I always see like people dying, 0:16:46.720 --> 0:16:50.080 you know, and it's like, fuck, man, it's messed up. 0:16:51.080 --> 0:16:53.320 Well, I hope you live long enough to be a 0:16:53.320 --> 0:16:57.360 little old lady walking around Montreal. That sounds like one 0:16:57.400 --> 0:16:59.320 of the best lives available to a human being. 0:17:00.200 --> 0:17:03.280 Thank you me too, honestly, Like, I want to live 0:17:03.280 --> 0:17:06.080 a long time. I don't want like I want my 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:08.240 daughter see me when I'm like old and shit, you know, 0:17:08.320 --> 0:17:10.560 and be there and watch her and everything. We just 0:17:10.600 --> 0:17:12.320 had a loss in the family. My aunt just passed. 0:17:12.359 --> 0:17:14.680 It's like, why can my cousin be without a mom? 0:17:14.800 --> 0:17:16.720 I'm like, oh, I don't want that to ever happen, 0:17:16.800 --> 0:17:19.639 you know, like only when I'm really old. 0:17:20.960 --> 0:17:22.600 Sydney, is there anything else you want to say to 0:17:22.600 --> 0:17:24.119 the people of the computer before we go? 0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:28.720 Uh No, everyone, have a nice. 0:17:28.680 --> 0:17:31.680 Night, beautiful. I'll see in Montreal. 0:17:31.720 --> 0:17:34.880 Dog, Yeah, I see you in Montreal. Have a good one, 0:17:35.280 --> 0:17:37.520 by Sydney. Thanks by. 0:17:40.119 --> 0:17:44.280 Montreal. Yeah, Canada's cool. I was just in Vancouver. You 0:17:44.320 --> 0:17:45.720 want some funny aout Vancouver? 0:17:45.760 --> 0:17:46.000 I was. 0:17:46.040 --> 0:17:49.639 I was in uh. I was on a leg of 0:17:49.640 --> 0:17:52.040 the tour that took me through the Pacific Northwest, and 0:17:52.359 --> 0:17:58.080 I forgot my passport. I was like, oh fuck, So 0:17:58.119 --> 0:17:59.760 I like looked it up online and it's like, you 0:17:59.800 --> 0:18:04.280 can so like legally if you have a like a 0:18:04.640 --> 0:18:09.280 like a true notarized copy of your birth certificate and 0:18:09.320 --> 0:18:13.199 your driver's license, sometimes they'll let you in. But I 0:18:13.200 --> 0:18:15.760 didn't have that. I just had I like printed out 0:18:15.880 --> 0:18:19.080 like just a piece of paper from like an email. 0:18:19.119 --> 0:18:21.320 My mom sent me with a copy of my birth 0:18:21.320 --> 0:18:26.800 certificate and my my driver's license, and they they let 0:18:26.800 --> 0:18:30.440 me in. And then I came back to America with 0:18:30.560 --> 0:18:32.800 just that like piece of paper and my driver's license 0:18:32.800 --> 0:18:35.639 and they let me in again. The Canadian border is 0:18:35.800 --> 0:18:39.119 very chill, so I mean you probably I wouldn't risk it. 0:18:39.160 --> 0:18:40.760 If I were you, I wouldn't go out of my 0:18:40.840 --> 0:18:45.320 way to I wouldn't go to I wouldn't go to 0:18:45.359 --> 0:18:51.920 the border of Vancouver and fucking Washington, Oregon, whatever one 0:18:51.920 --> 0:18:54.199 of those states. Why do I not? Why is it 0:18:54.240 --> 0:18:56.480 that I wouldn't. I wouldn't bet my life that I 0:18:56.560 --> 0:19:00.200 know whether Oregon or Washington is this north or in 0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:04.000 most state, It's got to be Washington. It's Washington. Washington 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:09.320 is above Oregon. Yes, Washington. I wouldn't go to the 0:19:09.400 --> 0:19:12.280 border of Washington in Canada just to see if you 0:19:12.320 --> 0:19:13.760 can do it. But if you if you have to, 0:19:13.800 --> 0:19:17.280 if you're there for whatever reason, and you get a 0:19:17.400 --> 0:19:22.560 nice Canadian guy, he might let you in without a passport. 0:19:23.240 --> 0:19:26.639 You can. You can. You can tell them that you 0:19:26.760 --> 0:19:29.000 heard that on the Therapy Gecko podcast and they'll let 0:19:29.000 --> 0:19:29.199 you in. 0:19:33.960 --> 0:19:35.880 Hell. Hello, Hey, what's up? 0:19:36.000 --> 0:19:38.160 What's up? How you doing? How's life? 0:19:38.520 --> 0:19:40.240 That's all right? How about you? 0:19:40.240 --> 0:19:45.360 You know? Uh, just another day, just another day. What's 0:19:45.400 --> 0:19:45.760 your name? 0:19:46.040 --> 0:19:46.760 I'm Jackson? 0:19:47.560 --> 0:19:53.160 Jackson. What brings you to the Therapy Get Go program today? Uh? 0:19:53.200 --> 0:19:54.600 I don't know, man. I was just having a bit 0:19:54.640 --> 0:19:58.000 of a of a hard day, but I just got 0:19:58.000 --> 0:20:01.439 that com I'm feeling a bit better. But you're just 0:20:01.480 --> 0:20:03.280 having a weird day with my girlfriend. 0:20:03.400 --> 0:20:04.959 I guess what's been weird about it? 0:20:06.359 --> 0:20:12.960 Well, basically, we're hanging out today. I'm like about to 0:20:13.119 --> 0:20:17.479 leave to work at a summer camp job, and her 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:21.320 birthdays on the weekend, so we just like went to 0:20:21.359 --> 0:20:23.919 hang out. We went to like a ceramic place to 0:20:24.000 --> 0:20:30.360 make some pottery and like go for lunch, and basically 0:20:30.400 --> 0:20:33.120 she was just like very upset at me this morning, 0:20:33.200 --> 0:20:36.239 because like right when she woke up, she was just 0:20:36.280 --> 0:20:39.160 like really stressed, and I was like, why are you, 0:20:39.320 --> 0:20:43.199 why are you stressed? Like what's going on? And she 0:20:43.400 --> 0:20:45.560 just like wasn't able to tell me, So I didn't 0:20:45.560 --> 0:20:47.600 really know what to do. And then she was just 0:20:47.640 --> 0:20:50.440 like kind of upset all day that I like wasn't 0:20:50.480 --> 0:20:53.200 able to help with that. And then yeah, she's at 0:20:53.200 --> 0:20:59.040 work now and we had like a really not great 0:20:59.080 --> 0:21:02.040 conversation about and I just feel kind of weird about 0:21:02.040 --> 0:21:02.680 the situation. 0:21:03.560 --> 0:21:07.560 Okay, so she her birthdays this weekend. You guys, you 0:21:07.600 --> 0:21:09.760 did a bunch of birthday stuff with her earlier because 0:21:09.800 --> 0:21:11.600 you're going to be out of town for the summer 0:21:11.640 --> 0:21:16.280 camp job. Uh, she wakes up, she's stressed out, and 0:21:16.280 --> 0:21:19.639 then she's upset at you for you don't really know 0:21:19.680 --> 0:21:20.600 why she's upset at you. 0:21:21.880 --> 0:21:24.399 Yeah, like she she was just she had like a 0:21:24.480 --> 0:21:30.600 rough day at work yesterday and I was like really 0:21:30.680 --> 0:21:32.919 trying to just be there for her last night, but 0:21:33.000 --> 0:21:36.399 I guess this morning, I like didn't quite have the 0:21:36.640 --> 0:21:38.800 energy to give and I was just kind of like 0:21:38.880 --> 0:21:42.920 hoping that she would figure it out and like be okay. 0:21:43.240 --> 0:21:46.399 And because she just didn't really know like why she 0:21:46.520 --> 0:21:50.760 was stressed, but she was stressed. And then when you 0:21:50.920 --> 0:21:53.320 like kind of ruined the whole birthday day. 0:21:53.640 --> 0:21:56.080 I guess when when you when you say you didn't 0:21:56.119 --> 0:21:58.040 have the energy, you were hoping she would figure it out? 0:21:58.080 --> 0:22:01.119 What was there? What was there too figure out that 0:22:01.240 --> 0:22:02.080 she needed from you. 0:22:03.160 --> 0:22:05.040 I was trying to figure out why she was stressed. 0:22:05.200 --> 0:22:08.159 She was telling me she didn't know, but she like 0:22:08.200 --> 0:22:11.000 wanted me to help. So I was saying, how can 0:22:11.040 --> 0:22:12.840 I help you, and she was saying, I don't know. 0:22:13.640 --> 0:22:15.840 So then I just was kind of like going back 0:22:16.119 --> 0:22:22.359 to bed. And then we had talked about it later 0:22:23.400 --> 0:22:25.680 because she was just like kind of in a bad 0:22:25.760 --> 0:22:29.200 mood after that, and she was saying, it's like because 0:22:29.359 --> 0:22:33.119 I couldn't like figure out why she was stressed and 0:22:33.240 --> 0:22:38.119 like help her not be stressed. So I think she 0:22:38.240 --> 0:22:44.119 wanted me to solve it for her basically, But I 0:22:44.160 --> 0:22:45.960 don't know. That's where I'm like, I don't know what's 0:22:46.000 --> 0:22:49.280 what's going on. Maybe I'm being weird now. 0:22:49.280 --> 0:22:53.320 I have multiple thoughts about this. Okay, tell me how 0:22:53.400 --> 0:22:54.440 long you been with this lady. 0:22:55.800 --> 0:22:59.040 We've been together for like a year and two months. 0:22:59.200 --> 0:23:01.399 Okay, has anything like this happened before? Or has she 0:23:01.440 --> 0:23:03.320 ever complained about the anything like this before? 0:23:04.400 --> 0:23:06.960 Yeah, like quite a lot actually at testing. 0:23:07.200 --> 0:23:08.480 Okay, many many. 0:23:08.320 --> 0:23:12.400 Times it has And what give me like the last 0:23:12.440 --> 0:23:14.840 time it happened? Give me like the recurring situation? What 0:23:14.880 --> 0:23:15.520 does that look like? 0:23:16.880 --> 0:23:19.920 So I guess last night, like she comes home from work, 0:23:20.640 --> 0:23:23.159 she had a rough day, like the just the person 0:23:23.280 --> 0:23:26.160 she was working with was like in a really bad mood. 0:23:26.320 --> 0:23:28.080 So she came home and was like, I had a 0:23:28.119 --> 0:23:32.280 really tough day at work. So I'm like, okay, like 0:23:32.400 --> 0:23:36.520 I'm totally down to like help you feel better or 0:23:36.640 --> 0:23:39.719 just like be here with you sad, And it was 0:23:39.760 --> 0:23:44.840 like working last night, like she felt better and like 0:23:44.880 --> 0:23:47.640 everything was cool. But I think a lot of the time, 0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:50.320 maybe if she has like a bad day or whatever, 0:23:51.160 --> 0:23:53.360 I will like try to come in and be there. 0:23:53.920 --> 0:23:56.679 But if like I'm not able to make her feel better, 0:23:57.000 --> 0:24:02.600 it's like she gets mad. It's me. So it's like 0:24:02.760 --> 0:24:05.399 it's almost like I guess to me, I don't know 0:24:05.400 --> 0:24:07.320 if it's actually what's going on, Like I might be 0:24:07.359 --> 0:24:11.040 having some weird process about it, but it feels like 0:24:12.240 --> 0:24:15.040 her whatever is going on in her day just kind 0:24:15.080 --> 0:24:18.800 of like translates into like that I have done something wrong, 0:24:19.320 --> 0:24:21.240 and she's. 0:24:20.880 --> 0:24:24.399 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, Okay, it's you knows 0:24:24.440 --> 0:24:30.000 the thing. It's hard to assess. Yeah, so I have 0:24:30.119 --> 0:24:32.920 so many thoughts about this actually, because it's hard to 0:24:33.200 --> 0:24:37.919 assess this without like having been in this situation. But 0:24:38.720 --> 0:24:42.920 I might think multiple things. I think, like on your end, right, like, well, 0:24:42.920 --> 0:24:45.119 i'll talk about your end first, I'll talk about her end, 0:24:45.440 --> 0:24:47.600 So on your because you're because your ends more import 0:24:47.640 --> 0:24:49.520 because your ends like what you can control. Right, So 0:24:49.720 --> 0:24:53.200 on your end, it's like if your girlfriend's having a 0:24:53.280 --> 0:24:58.760 bad day, you the whole like, how can I help you? 0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:03.439 And she says, I don't. No, obviously you can't be 0:25:03.480 --> 0:25:07.240 a mind reader, but really all you have to do 0:25:08.280 --> 0:25:11.040 is like all she wants from you in that moment 0:25:11.240 --> 0:25:15.119 is just like your presence. Yeah, there is, there's no 0:25:15.320 --> 0:25:19.159 specific thing. I mean, there's sure there's specific things you 0:25:19.200 --> 0:25:22.680 can do to show your presence, but all she wants 0:25:22.720 --> 0:25:24.560 and you said the way you said, yeah, just now, 0:25:24.680 --> 0:25:26.720 it's like you're not stupid, you know this. She just 0:25:26.800 --> 0:25:30.040 wants your presence, right, She wants your your she wants 0:25:30.040 --> 0:25:33.720 your attention, she wants your presence, and life's hard. Sometimes 0:25:33.720 --> 0:25:35.840 you you don't have it. Sometimes you don't have that 0:25:35.920 --> 0:25:38.080 presence and you sometimes you reach into your brain and 0:25:38.080 --> 0:25:42.439 it's fucking insufficient funds and that sucks. I've been a 0:25:42.440 --> 0:25:46.439 billion situations, you know, personal and professional where uh, you know, 0:25:46.560 --> 0:25:48.679 my presence was required and it just was I just 0:25:48.720 --> 0:25:52.479 had insufficient funds for that presence in my brain. And 0:25:52.520 --> 0:25:56.159 that sucks, you know. I think it's it's what you 0:25:56.200 --> 0:25:59.679 want to do is just try to Again, You're not stupid. 0:25:59.680 --> 0:26:02.120 You know this that that all she wants is your presence, right, 0:26:02.200 --> 0:26:04.560 So I'm sure you tried as hard as you can 0:26:05.119 --> 0:26:11.600 to uh give her that presence. So but then on 0:26:11.640 --> 0:26:13.600 her side and it's I you know, I'm not talking 0:26:13.600 --> 0:26:15.040 to her, I'm talking to you. But on her side, 0:26:15.040 --> 0:26:19.560 it's like you gotta communicate and you can't just like 0:26:19.680 --> 0:26:22.840 go A to B you really can't. Just like it's 0:26:22.880 --> 0:26:28.640 not fair for her to take out her stress on you, 0:26:29.000 --> 0:26:30.639 Like you're trying to help as far as I know, 0:26:30.960 --> 0:26:32.399 you know, I don't know what the situation is. I 0:26:32.400 --> 0:26:33.480 don't know what you're doing. I don't know what it 0:26:33.520 --> 0:26:35.679 looks like. But you sound like a nice guy. You 0:26:35.720 --> 0:26:37.359 sound like, you care about this lady. You sound like 0:26:37.359 --> 0:26:39.359 you're trying to give her your best presence, And in 0:26:39.400 --> 0:26:42.720 that moment, it's like it's she can't just take out 0:26:42.760 --> 0:26:46.520 her stress on you because like you're trying to you're 0:26:46.600 --> 0:26:48.000 trying to help her. As far as I know, you're 0:26:48.000 --> 0:26:51.280 trying to help her, You're trying to be there. 0:26:51.359 --> 0:26:53.560 So I just want it's like it's. 0:26:55.240 --> 0:26:57.360 Yeah, and so it sucks that she's like taken out 0:26:57.400 --> 0:26:58.520 on you. It's like, why are you taking it out 0:26:58.480 --> 0:27:05.120 on me? I'm trying to help you. So yeah, I mean, 0:27:05.320 --> 0:27:07.800 what when you bring this up to her? Like what 0:27:07.840 --> 0:27:09.760 does she say? How do these conversations go. 0:27:12.240 --> 0:27:15.440 Like when I bring up the dynamic. 0:27:15.119 --> 0:27:18.000 Or yeah, when I bring up the dynamic and when 0:27:18.000 --> 0:27:19.280 you're like, well you're you know. 0:27:21.480 --> 0:27:25.000 Well, honestly, man, I think she's really great at coming 0:27:25.080 --> 0:27:28.960 back and I can tell she's really reflected and she'll 0:27:29.000 --> 0:27:31.760 come back and be like, hey, I'm really sorry about 0:27:31.760 --> 0:27:35.840 my reaction. I really want to work on you know, 0:27:35.880 --> 0:27:38.000 how I react when I'm stressed and how I deal 0:27:38.000 --> 0:27:40.320 with my stress. It's not fair to put it on you. 0:27:41.359 --> 0:27:44.760 I guess. I guess it's just like recurred. I feel 0:27:44.760 --> 0:27:47.320 like kind of the whole time we've been together. So 0:27:47.400 --> 0:27:49.919 now I'm at the point where I'm like, maybe we 0:27:50.000 --> 0:27:53.280 need to change our strategy and the like talking about 0:27:53.280 --> 0:27:54.040 it isn't. 0:27:54.400 --> 0:27:55.440 What's helping. 0:27:56.680 --> 0:27:58.520 Interesting? What do you when you say you want to 0:27:58.600 --> 0:28:01.560 change the strategy? What is what do you mean by that? 0:28:02.840 --> 0:28:05.239 I guess it feels more like you can you can 0:28:05.320 --> 0:28:09.240 only do so much talking with somebody. But I think 0:28:09.280 --> 0:28:15.399 what changes things is actually acting differently. So I guess 0:28:15.440 --> 0:28:19.880 it just feels maybe like a miss match in expectations, 0:28:19.920 --> 0:28:23.320 Like she just expects are going to act a certain way, 0:28:24.359 --> 0:28:26.959 and like as much as I want to try to 0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:30.080 act in that way, I just like can't do it 0:28:30.160 --> 0:28:35.320 exactly how she's expecting. Yeah, So that's where I'm like, 0:28:35.480 --> 0:28:38.600 do I just keep trying to like change it slightly 0:28:39.280 --> 0:28:42.080 or do I have to, Like, I just really want 0:28:42.120 --> 0:28:45.440 things to work with her? And I know the other 0:28:45.480 --> 0:28:48.760 option is just to like be like, I'll find somebody else, 0:28:48.920 --> 0:28:52.240 but I care about this person, and I just I 0:28:52.280 --> 0:28:55.200 guess I just don't want to keep doing the same 0:28:55.280 --> 0:28:58.120 thing if it's not working. Ah. 0:28:59.120 --> 0:29:02.880 I'm not an ex but you know it's I've been 0:29:02.880 --> 0:29:09.840 in little situations that remind me of this and it 0:29:14.000 --> 0:29:16.320 my you know, my my, my gut thing that I 0:29:16.360 --> 0:29:18.480 would that I my gut feeling that I have a 0:29:18.520 --> 0:29:25.720 better situation like this is that like you know, you've 0:29:25.760 --> 0:29:33.200 tried to like over the years, to like talk it through, 0:29:33.920 --> 0:29:37.440 communicate yourself. She over and over she said, And you 0:29:37.480 --> 0:29:38.960 know you've tried to do what's best on your We 0:29:39.000 --> 0:29:40.959 already talked about your end, which is like being present 0:29:41.000 --> 0:29:44.760 and shit. And then on her end, it's like she's 0:29:44.840 --> 0:29:49.520 trying to not take out her stress on you. And 0:29:49.560 --> 0:29:51.280 she's told you that she's trying to not take her 0:29:51.280 --> 0:29:53.920 stress out on you, and and then she'll get upset 0:29:53.960 --> 0:29:55.760 and then she'll come back and be like, I'm sorry, 0:29:55.760 --> 0:29:58.360 I got upset, and then you'll you know, you'll kind 0:29:58.360 --> 0:30:01.240 of break and rec and being and break and reconvene. 0:30:01.400 --> 0:30:03.840 But but you're not noticed. But what I'm hearing is 0:30:03.840 --> 0:30:10.080 you're not noticing over time that the issue is improving, 0:30:11.080 --> 0:30:18.200 but that it's just stagnant. So so this is one 0:30:18.240 --> 0:30:21.440 of those situations where if you feel like something is 0:30:21.480 --> 0:30:28.680 not uh getting better, it's probably likely I mean, if 0:30:28.720 --> 0:30:31.400 you feel like something's not getting better, there does come 0:30:31.440 --> 0:30:33.480 a point where like you should I think you should 0:30:33.480 --> 0:30:36.000 always keep trying, you should always keep letting yourself be known. 0:30:36.600 --> 0:30:41.040 But they're kind of comes a point where you have 0:30:41.120 --> 0:30:44.520 to like look at a person and and and uh 0:30:44.760 --> 0:30:49.080 be like, you know what, this is not gonna improve 0:30:49.320 --> 0:30:52.720 or not not that let's say this not necessarily that 0:30:52.960 --> 0:30:58.560 this is not going to improve, but that in order 0:30:58.600 --> 0:31:03.560 to continue, you have to accept a reality where it 0:31:03.600 --> 0:31:07.680 does not improve, you know what I mean, Not say oh, oh, 0:31:07.760 --> 0:31:10.280 this is never gonna change, this person's ever gonna change, 0:31:10.400 --> 0:31:14.840 but accept the fact that they totally might never change. 0:31:15.120 --> 0:31:17.160 And if you really love this person, if you feel 0:31:17.160 --> 0:31:19.080 really compatible with this person, if you really like this 0:31:19.200 --> 0:31:22.719 relationship to move forward, there does have to be some 0:31:22.760 --> 0:31:27.520 form of acceptance where you're like, you know, I'm willing 0:31:27.600 --> 0:31:32.280 to like, okay, I'm willing to stay, but staying involves 0:31:32.360 --> 0:31:36.280 accepting that this thing is gonna uh may not ever 0:31:36.320 --> 0:31:39.160 fucking change, and that everything else around it is so 0:31:39.360 --> 0:31:43.720 is good enough that I'm okay with this or you leave, 0:31:43.840 --> 0:31:46.280 But you sound like you want to work it out. 0:31:47.280 --> 0:31:51.960 Yeah, for sure, No, I totally get what you're saying. Yeah, 0:31:52.160 --> 0:31:55.720 at some point, you do just have to accept somebody 0:31:56.160 --> 0:31:59.360 how they are and like they're showing you how they're 0:31:59.400 --> 0:32:02.080 gonna be. And I do think after a certain point 0:32:02.200 --> 0:32:04.360 you can maybe like hope for change as much as 0:32:04.400 --> 0:32:08.520 you want, but it is I think it does add 0:32:09.320 --> 0:32:13.080 more frustration where there doesn't need to be. I think, 0:32:13.160 --> 0:32:16.719 like trying to change somebody else really doesn't work. Ever, 0:32:17.520 --> 0:32:19.720 so I don't know, I see what you're saying. Man, 0:32:19.840 --> 0:32:21.120 for sure, Yeah. 0:32:20.920 --> 0:32:27.400 It doesn't work. But there's also yeah, I mean everything 0:32:27.480 --> 0:32:29.640 I said is that it doesn't work, but you should 0:32:29.640 --> 0:32:31.680 also you should, but you should keep letting yourself be 0:32:31.800 --> 0:32:35.960 known and like keep communicating. It gets exhausting, but yeah, 0:32:36.160 --> 0:32:38.120 it's like the reality, the real it gets exhausted. But 0:32:38.160 --> 0:32:41.080 the reality is like when someone kind of shows you 0:32:41.280 --> 0:32:43.840 that they're not going to change over a long period 0:32:43.840 --> 0:32:48.520 of time, they're basically telling you, like, you know, hey, 0:32:48.600 --> 0:32:50.480 take it or take it or leave it. And by 0:32:50.520 --> 0:32:53.200 the way, for sure, like and by the way, man, 0:32:53.720 --> 0:32:57.760 you know, on your end, it's like what the fuck 0:32:58.520 --> 0:33:00.600 it's situation. There's probably a lot of things where it's 0:33:00.600 --> 0:33:02.920 like she has to look at you and accept that 0:33:02.960 --> 0:33:07.960 you're not gonna change. You know. That's yeah, it's tough, man, 0:33:10.520 --> 0:33:12.640 Sorry what I said. Yeah, it's tough man. 0:33:13.800 --> 0:33:18.200 Yeah, I just every time I've gotten in a relationship, 0:33:18.240 --> 0:33:22.480 it just feels like I'm immediately a burden with like 0:33:22.680 --> 0:33:25.920 you have to now choose if you're gonna stay our lead, 0:33:26.520 --> 0:33:29.080 whereas like if you're simply you don't have that decision, 0:33:29.280 --> 0:33:32.520 and like I want to be with one person going 0:33:32.560 --> 0:33:34.440 forward to my life. But I guess just like that 0:33:34.640 --> 0:33:38.080 pressure of like are you gonna stay, you're gonna go 0:33:39.160 --> 0:33:42.120 is just like so hard to deal with because I 0:33:42.160 --> 0:33:45.560 also just want to focus on my own life and 0:33:45.720 --> 0:33:49.240 like the ship I got going on outside of a relationship, 0:33:49.320 --> 0:33:51.440 So I don't think thinking about a relationship all the 0:33:51.480 --> 0:33:55.080 time is like beneficial, but like I'd like to be 0:33:55.120 --> 0:33:55.480 in one. 0:33:56.480 --> 0:33:59.640 You know, I'm not listen, I'll be honest, I'm not 0:33:59.800 --> 0:34:02.680 like a relationship expert. There is a part of me 0:34:02.800 --> 0:34:06.160 that there because there's another part of me that believes that, like, 0:34:08.000 --> 0:34:11.400 you know, the right relationship. I don't know if I 0:34:11.400 --> 0:34:14.120 don't know the more I get into things, I don't 0:34:14.120 --> 0:34:16.239 know if there is like such a binary of right 0:34:16.280 --> 0:34:18.200 and wrong relationship, But there is a part of it. 0:34:18.280 --> 0:34:20.640 There's a philosophy for me that goes, like you know, 0:34:20.719 --> 0:34:23.480 if you're in the right relationship, then you're not always 0:34:23.560 --> 0:34:25.799 thinking if you should stay or if you should leave. Right. 0:34:28.239 --> 0:34:33.840 Yeah, maybe it's just like kind of working out. I 0:34:33.840 --> 0:34:35.080 don't know, man, there's. 0:34:34.960 --> 0:34:36.480 A big part of me that feels that way too, 0:34:36.600 --> 0:34:38.640 that if you're in there is a big part of 0:34:38.640 --> 0:34:41.680 me that does feel like in terms of like chasing 0:34:41.719 --> 0:34:47.279 your alignment in your life, that like the things that 0:34:47.320 --> 0:34:50.799 you're because I audit my life a lot, and I think, like, 0:34:50.960 --> 0:34:53.239 what am I? What am I like sure of? Like 0:34:53.239 --> 0:34:55.520 there's certain aspects of my life, certain people in my life, 0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:58.640 certain things where I'm like, I'm one hundred percent sure 0:34:59.160 --> 0:35:02.880 about that. I don't waste time thinking about that. And 0:35:02.920 --> 0:35:04.520 there's tons of things in my life where I'm like, 0:35:04.920 --> 0:35:06.640 I'm like that takescept a lot of my time thinking 0:35:06.640 --> 0:35:08.840 should I or shouldn't I? And there's a part of 0:35:08.880 --> 0:35:10.640 it and I don't want to I'd be a hypocrite 0:35:10.640 --> 0:35:13.680 if I told you that. I'm really good at always 0:35:13.719 --> 0:35:16.719 going with this guttural response. But there's a part of 0:35:16.760 --> 0:35:22.759 me that feels like if you have to go, oh, 0:35:22.800 --> 0:35:25.320 should I or shouldn't I, then it is a sign 0:35:25.400 --> 0:35:31.040 of of misalignment. But I don't have the wisdom yet 0:35:31.520 --> 0:35:36.520 to say if if I believe that's to be true. 0:35:36.800 --> 0:35:39.719 Yeah, I think everybody kind of struggles with that, like 0:35:40.360 --> 0:35:43.319 forever pretty much. I don't know if you can really 0:35:43.360 --> 0:35:44.320 answer that question. 0:35:46.400 --> 0:35:48.160 I don't know. I want to do the science on it. 0:35:48.200 --> 0:35:50.160 I keep thinking, I'm like, i should take like in 0:35:50.200 --> 0:35:52.000 my life audit. So I'm like, I should. I want 0:35:52.000 --> 0:35:54.400 to live a life where I'm like a full body 0:35:54.480 --> 0:35:57.680 yes to everything, But I don't know if that's a fantasy. 0:35:58.200 --> 0:35:58.440 You know. 0:36:00.840 --> 0:36:04.240 Yeah, I think I just want to feel excited about 0:36:04.719 --> 0:36:06.839 the decisions I'm making, you know. I want to wake 0:36:06.920 --> 0:36:10.640 up every day kind of being like, maybe everything's not perfect, 0:36:10.640 --> 0:36:14.520 but I'm excited about the choices I'm making and like 0:36:14.600 --> 0:36:16.800 the possibility of the choices I get to make today. 0:36:17.360 --> 0:36:20.560 But I don't know if that's like realistic. Like I 0:36:20.640 --> 0:36:22.200 feel like a lot of days I wake up and 0:36:22.239 --> 0:36:23.480 I'm like I just kind of have to do what 0:36:23.520 --> 0:36:26.000 I have to do. But I don't know if that's 0:36:26.040 --> 0:36:28.080 like the way to live life. 0:36:28.239 --> 0:36:35.080 You know. Well, I hope you figure it out, man, Thank. 0:36:34.920 --> 0:36:35.600 You, thank you. 0:36:36.120 --> 0:36:38.640 I was getting to dis respectful. I'm sorry. 0:36:39.360 --> 0:36:42.440 Well, I mean that's what this whole stupid uh I 0:36:42.440 --> 0:36:45.040 think that's what the whole thing is is. Maybe it's 0:36:45.080 --> 0:36:46.640 not what the whole thing is, but uh no, I 0:36:46.640 --> 0:36:50.040 don't think you've I don't think you've gotten too introspective. 0:36:52.080 --> 0:36:53.959 This is a comple This has nothing to do with anything. 0:36:54.000 --> 0:36:56.960 But have you ever had the new This is not 0:36:57.040 --> 0:36:59.440 an AD. This is just I'm just thinking about this 0:36:59.520 --> 0:37:02.839 right now. There's nothing to do with anything we talked about. 0:37:02.880 --> 0:37:04.960 It's not an AD. But like, have you ever ever 0:37:05.040 --> 0:37:11.759 had the dude? I just had the popped caramel Eminem's? 0:37:12.000 --> 0:37:12.839 Have you ever had those? 0:37:15.040 --> 0:37:17.120 I've had the pop Skittles and there you've had the 0:37:17.120 --> 0:37:18.040 pop Skittles. 0:37:18.440 --> 0:37:21.800 Okay, the pop Skittles? Okay, So I so, dude, freeze 0:37:21.880 --> 0:37:26.200 dried candy is a huge thing all over the place now. 0:37:26.480 --> 0:37:28.440 I keep seeing it everywhere and I've never I've only 0:37:28.480 --> 0:37:30.840 seen it with fruity candies. This eminem ship, it's the 0:37:30.880 --> 0:37:35.120 only time I've seen it with like a chocolate candy. 0:37:35.280 --> 0:37:39.279 It's up there with it might be one of the 0:37:39.320 --> 0:37:40.680 best candies I've ever had in my life. 0:37:41.080 --> 0:37:42.080 It's really period. 0:37:42.160 --> 0:37:47.719 Like well, first of all, it like, well, it is 0:37:47.719 --> 0:37:49.719 not an AD. I'm just thinking about that the like 0:37:50.640 --> 0:37:54.440 so like one caramel eminem it's so dense right when 0:37:54.480 --> 0:37:56.560 you kind of eat it and it's gone, But when 0:37:56.560 --> 0:38:00.840 they pop it, the density is is uh bigger. So 0:38:01.080 --> 0:38:04.120 it feels like you're getting more out of the same 0:38:04.920 --> 0:38:09.040 amount of the thing because it's like it's all popped 0:38:09.120 --> 0:38:12.120 and stuff, and then the texture is a lot more. 0:38:12.840 --> 0:38:18.560 It's like crunchy and still CARAMELI you know, isn't. 0:38:18.320 --> 0:38:24.640 It more intensity or like you get a longer lasting experience, You. 0:38:24.600 --> 0:38:28.520 Get a longer lasting experience, Yeah, because I could. Yeah, 0:38:28.560 --> 0:38:30.160 you get a longer last nit you get more out 0:38:30.160 --> 0:38:32.160 of less. I would say, I think a bag of 0:38:32.239 --> 0:38:36.400 popped caramel eminems will last me longer than just a 0:38:36.440 --> 0:38:42.839 bag of like the regular ones. They're better than you've 0:38:42.880 --> 0:38:44.920 never had caramel, that's not have you ever had M 0:38:45.000 --> 0:38:45.319 and ms? 0:38:46.800 --> 0:38:49.680 Yeah, but I feel like I've only seen the peanut 0:38:49.719 --> 0:38:51.960 butter eminems. I don't know if I've ever even seen 0:38:52.600 --> 0:38:54.480 a bag of caramel eminem's in my life. 0:38:54.880 --> 0:38:57.560 They only have the popped version of the caramel ones. 0:38:57.600 --> 0:39:00.000 That's the only eminem that they've popped. But I am 0:39:00.120 --> 0:39:02.680 open to them popping more. I don't know what the 0:39:02.719 --> 0:39:05.440 science is behind freeze drying shit and popping shit. I 0:39:05.440 --> 0:39:07.879 don't know if I can buy a freeze dryer off 0:39:07.920 --> 0:39:09.959 of Amazon. Let me know I can. I I'm gonna 0:39:10.239 --> 0:39:12.640 if I can buy a freeze dry I'm gonna sure. 0:39:12.960 --> 0:39:14.160 I feel like you can't for sure? 0:39:14.200 --> 0:39:16.040 Like what would be the first thing that you would 0:39:16.080 --> 0:39:17.000 freeze dry to pump? 0:39:17.480 --> 0:39:17.640 Oh? 0:39:17.640 --> 0:39:20.120 I would pop a Nerds gummy clusters. I was gonna 0:39:20.160 --> 0:39:22.719 say that I've popped oh, But I don't think. I 0:39:22.760 --> 0:39:25.120 don't think the texture of them is conducive to popping 0:39:25.640 --> 0:39:26.440 and freeze drying. 0:39:27.320 --> 0:39:31.600 I feel like if you can pop a skittle and 0:39:32.000 --> 0:39:37.480 a caramel eminem, that's such a wide range of ingredients 0:39:37.520 --> 0:39:40.960 that I feel like you could pomp anything. Like I'm 0:39:40.960 --> 0:39:45.200 no candy genius, but I'm just thinking. 0:39:51.239 --> 0:39:52.040 What's your name again? 0:39:53.360 --> 0:39:54.120 That's Jackson? 0:39:55.200 --> 0:39:56.799 Jackson. I hope you figure out all that stuff with 0:39:56.840 --> 0:39:58.040 your girlfriend too. 0:39:59.520 --> 0:40:01.279 Thank you much. I appreciate that. 0:40:01.640 --> 0:40:02.759 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:40:02.800 --> 0:40:04.120 people of the computer before we go? 0:40:06.880 --> 0:40:11.600 I love the podcast listening to a lot, and yeah, 0:40:11.800 --> 0:40:12.759 thanks for chatting with. 0:40:12.719 --> 0:40:16.000 Me, beautiful yet blessed man. Thank you very much for 0:40:16.040 --> 0:40:17.360 calling and Sharon, good. 0:40:17.280 --> 0:40:19.560 Luck, Okay, I have a good one. 0:40:19.560 --> 0:40:24.560 Man, man. I hope our caller figures it out. I'm 0:40:24.600 --> 0:40:27.320 curious in the comments when people think about his his dilemma, 0:40:27.400 --> 0:40:29.200 because I I'm Yeah, we've been talking a lot about 0:40:29.200 --> 0:40:32.719 relationships on the podcast for a bit, and uh, I 0:40:32.719 --> 0:40:35.400 mean with all things in life, it's like, yeah, everyone's 0:40:35.400 --> 0:40:38.239 trying to chase like alignment, you know, and I don't know. 0:40:38.320 --> 0:40:41.480 I don't think perfect alignment part of me things perfect 0:40:41.560 --> 0:40:45.279 alignment in life is like a myth, you know. 0:40:45.760 --> 0:40:45.920 But. 0:40:47.520 --> 0:40:50.520 It could it could be possible. Maybe it's just me 0:40:50.600 --> 0:40:58.239 being me. Hello, Hello, is this Zeus? 0:41:00.280 --> 0:41:01.000 Is this the get Go? 0:41:01.440 --> 0:41:04.560 Yes, this is the Gecko and this is Zeus. 0:41:04.920 --> 0:41:10.000 Dude, Helia, I am Zeus. You are the gek Zeus. 0:41:10.040 --> 0:41:15.040 You texted me and you said you said that you 0:41:15.640 --> 0:41:20.239 are a caver and you go deep into underground caves 0:41:21.000 --> 0:41:21.680 for fun. 0:41:23.400 --> 0:41:23.799 I do. 0:41:24.680 --> 0:41:26.680 I do those things now. 0:41:26.719 --> 0:41:31.759 That is one of those things that I think is insane. 0:41:33.400 --> 0:41:35.840 You know, as I've been doing it over the years, 0:41:35.960 --> 0:41:37.520 I also think it's insane. 0:41:38.600 --> 0:41:40.759 I mean, you've seen that photo of that fucking you know. 0:41:40.840 --> 0:41:44.239 I don't even the guy what's his name? You know, 0:41:44.280 --> 0:41:45.360 the photo I'm talking. 0:41:45.120 --> 0:41:48.720 About, Yeah, I forget his name. That was a nutty 0:41:48.719 --> 0:41:49.160 putty cave. 0:41:49.680 --> 0:41:52.040 Nutty putty cave. You've seen that photo, right, So you 0:41:52.080 --> 0:41:54.000 tell me you see that photo and you're still like, 0:41:54.040 --> 0:41:55.839 all right, I'm down to risk that shit. 0:41:57.040 --> 0:42:01.799 Well, I personally don't go ahead first down holes. That's 0:42:01.880 --> 0:42:03.919 just a personal preference of mind. 0:42:04.800 --> 0:42:09.839 But that's what caving like the cave do you Like? 0:42:10.680 --> 0:42:14.840 That's what caving is, right, It's going into unexplored caves 0:42:14.840 --> 0:42:18.000 and fucking around and trying not to get stuck. Right. 0:42:18.520 --> 0:42:21.279 Uh, yeah, certain parts of it for sure. Yeah, you 0:42:21.320 --> 0:42:23.919 definitely don't want to get stuck or have a rock 0:42:23.960 --> 0:42:26.160 fall on you that kind of tings you into place 0:42:26.320 --> 0:42:28.280 that's uh, those are not good things. 0:42:29.960 --> 0:42:32.280 So what is the process of the kind of caving 0:42:32.320 --> 0:42:32.839 that you do. 0:42:34.160 --> 0:42:36.440 Well, a lot of people when when they think of caving, 0:42:36.520 --> 0:42:38.839 they think of like what you're thinking of is just 0:42:38.880 --> 0:42:41.640 going into really tight spaces and stuff. But like, there's 0:42:41.680 --> 0:42:45.239 a whole plethora of caves across the country where you know, 0:42:45.360 --> 0:42:47.800 you may be walking the entire time, you may be swimming, 0:42:47.840 --> 0:42:51.400 you may bring a boat, you may be doing a 0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:53.319 mix of all of those things. You may you may 0:42:53.360 --> 0:42:56.520 be going into really confined spaces with water. You know, 0:42:57.080 --> 0:43:00.480 it's a kind of a broad spectrum of what you 0:43:00.480 --> 0:43:03.680 can do underground. You can even do rope access and 0:43:03.719 --> 0:43:07.760 do the SRT and ride ropes down huge pits. 0:43:10.920 --> 0:43:12.400 But do you ever get freaked out that you're going 0:43:12.480 --> 0:43:15.759 to die like all the other people that died. 0:43:16.040 --> 0:43:18.920 I have never felt that way. I've never felt like 0:43:18.960 --> 0:43:23.040 I was going to die in a cave. But you've 0:43:23.080 --> 0:43:26.680 always got the possibility of like a loose rock falling 0:43:26.719 --> 0:43:28.759 on you, especially if there's a slope into a pit 0:43:28.800 --> 0:43:32.200 and you're on ropes, your rope could adjust and a 0:43:32.280 --> 0:43:34.759 rock could fall on you. And that, to me, that's 0:43:34.840 --> 0:43:37.919 one of the most dangerous hazards that I faced rock fall. 0:43:40.120 --> 0:43:43.520 What is the coolest cave that you've seen? 0:43:45.640 --> 0:43:47.120 I'm not going to say the name of it, but 0:43:47.160 --> 0:43:53.280 there's this epic cave in Tennessee where approximately. 0:43:53.680 --> 0:43:55.360 Wait, why would I say the name? Why would you 0:43:55.400 --> 0:43:59.760 say the name to the cave? Is it a private. 0:44:01.080 --> 0:44:03.000 It's on private property. You don't want to you don't 0:44:03.000 --> 0:44:05.960 want to harass private property owners, and you also don't 0:44:06.000 --> 0:44:09.160 want to increase traffic because caving is kind of a 0:44:09.160 --> 0:44:13.320 conservation minded thing, you know, like it's leave no trace, 0:44:13.400 --> 0:44:16.240 you leave nothing, but for footprints and take nothing but pictures. 0:44:16.280 --> 0:44:18.759 So if you increase traffic to the cave, then it 0:44:19.280 --> 0:44:22.799 just gets torn apart, basically. And if the public knew 0:44:22.800 --> 0:44:24.239 about it, then they're gonna want to go in there 0:44:24.239 --> 0:44:27.560 and not know what they're getting into and spray paint 0:44:27.640 --> 0:44:28.720 and leave trash and stuff. 0:44:29.200 --> 0:44:30.400 Okay, tell me about this cave. 0:44:31.560 --> 0:44:33.200 Oh yeah, Yeah, it's like a two hundred and sixty 0:44:33.200 --> 0:44:37.160 foot waterfall repel. You cave for about two hours and 0:44:37.200 --> 0:44:39.719 it's mostly walking stream passage. You're up to your waist 0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:42.239 to your chest and water most of the way, and 0:44:42.280 --> 0:44:44.840 then it breaks through this layer of limestone and drops 0:44:44.840 --> 0:44:47.800 two hundred and sixty feet up and you're about fifteen 0:44:47.880 --> 0:44:52.680 feet away from this raging waterfall. And when I did it, 0:44:52.719 --> 0:44:55.600 my buddy had one of those massive like diving lights, 0:44:55.640 --> 0:44:58.680 and that can light up a whole massive room, and 0:44:58.719 --> 0:45:00.680 so I went over the lip of this pit and 0:45:00.960 --> 0:45:03.319 the whole waterfall was lit up, and it was just 0:45:03.360 --> 0:45:06.799 the most incredible thing I've ever seen. And that ride 0:45:06.840 --> 0:45:09.200 down and climb up was one of the coolest experiences 0:45:09.239 --> 0:45:10.680 I've ever had. I love that. 0:45:12.840 --> 0:45:17.200 And and you just like broke into this guy's house 0:45:17.280 --> 0:45:19.400 and went into his cave, like this is where had 0:45:19.400 --> 0:45:20.280 you find this cave? 0:45:21.960 --> 0:45:24.359 We had permission, We had talked to him prior and 0:45:24.920 --> 0:45:27.640 gave us a day and a time to show up 0:45:27.640 --> 0:45:31.040 and go visit his cave. It's a very massive cave. 0:45:31.040 --> 0:45:32.240 We only sorry. 0:45:32.600 --> 0:45:34.080 How'd you know that he has a cave? 0:45:37.880 --> 0:45:40.160 Through the grottos in the local area. You can get 0:45:40.239 --> 0:45:43.640 property access through people in the grottos. Grottos are caving 0:45:43.640 --> 0:45:47.160 clubs that are mainly across the southeast, but they're all 0:45:47.200 --> 0:45:49.879 over the country. They're just caving clubs where people who 0:45:49.920 --> 0:45:52.719 like crawling around in caves can meet other cavers and 0:45:52.760 --> 0:45:53.360 go explore. 0:45:55.160 --> 0:45:56.760 How does it feel when you're in the cave? 0:45:58.560 --> 0:46:02.719 To me, it feels he it's you know, there's no 0:46:02.800 --> 0:46:07.799 self service, it's it's dark, it's quiet, it's some kind 0:46:07.800 --> 0:46:09.759 of relaxing. You just dress a little warm, and you 0:46:09.840 --> 0:46:12.520 dress for your environment and try to prepare because there's 0:46:12.520 --> 0:46:14.520 no help for you down there. If if something out 0:46:14.560 --> 0:46:18.880 that happens, you know, I I find peace in it. 0:46:21.080 --> 0:46:21.920 That's how I feel. 0:46:24.040 --> 0:46:26.960 What's the scariest thing you've encountered in one of the caves? 0:46:28.400 --> 0:46:32.640 Ooh, good question. I've had rocks fall on me a 0:46:32.680 --> 0:46:36.600 couple of times, nothing major, mostly just little pebbles and 0:46:36.600 --> 0:46:38.520 stuff like maybe a little bit about the size of 0:46:38.560 --> 0:46:40.040 my fist. I had one hit me in a thigh 0:46:40.120 --> 0:46:44.520 pretty bad and left a big bruise. What I think 0:46:44.560 --> 0:46:46.360 what scares me the most and what I think about 0:46:46.360 --> 0:46:50.919 the most is when you get on ropes and we're 0:46:50.960 --> 0:46:53.440 all we're all down there for fun, we're all trying 0:46:53.440 --> 0:46:56.640 to have a good time, and we're all hobbyists, and 0:46:56.680 --> 0:47:00.600 a lot of people don't really have extremely good vertical skills, 0:47:00.800 --> 0:47:05.799 and that's okay, but it's scary when something happens and 0:47:05.840 --> 0:47:09.640 they potentially become stuck on rope or can enter an 0:47:09.719 --> 0:47:12.759 uncontrolled repel on rope. So there are ways to medicate that. 0:47:12.840 --> 0:47:15.319 But I think I think that's the scariest thing to 0:47:15.360 --> 0:47:20.520 me is not necessarily knowing the skills of my partners 0:47:20.560 --> 0:47:21.360 doing the activity. 0:47:22.680 --> 0:47:25.200 M okay, So it's not being able to have a 0:47:25.239 --> 0:47:25.799 crew that you. 0:47:25.800 --> 0:47:30.239 Trust sometimes yeah, yeah, most of the time a cave 0:47:30.280 --> 0:47:32.600 with some very experienced cavers and we all know what 0:47:32.600 --> 0:47:36.000 we're doing, and even then things can still happen, for sure. 0:47:36.640 --> 0:47:40.040 How about creatures, you see any crazy creatures? Critters? 0:47:40.120 --> 0:47:43.600 Oh yeah, okay, thousands of bats. They're really cool environments 0:47:43.640 --> 0:47:46.759 because a lot of the creatures in the cave are 0:47:46.840 --> 0:47:49.640 cave adapted, so they only live down there. So tons 0:47:49.640 --> 0:47:53.200 of salamanders. In my area Tennessee, we have this salamander 0:47:53.239 --> 0:47:55.640 called the Tennessee Cave salamander, and it's it's only a 0:47:55.760 --> 0:47:59.120 very small area that they live in, but they're really 0:47:59.120 --> 0:48:01.239 cool and they're quad. They swim around. They have these 0:48:01.280 --> 0:48:06.799 huge red gills, kind of like an ax A lottel. Yeah. 0:48:07.080 --> 0:48:11.080 Tons of crayfish, like cave adapted crayfish. There's cavefish that 0:48:11.120 --> 0:48:16.040 are white. The crayfish are also white. A bunch of 0:48:16.080 --> 0:48:19.879 different baths. I'm always scared that I'm gonna turn around 0:48:19.920 --> 0:48:22.800 the corner and see like a horny female, but bigfoot 0:48:22.840 --> 0:48:24.919 that's gonna kidnap me. That's always be in my big 0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:25.720 fear of underground. 0:48:26.520 --> 0:48:27.920 A lot of people that's their fantasy. 0:48:29.800 --> 0:48:31.959 Well it's not my fantasy, it's a fear of mine. 0:48:33.560 --> 0:48:36.440 So, uh, what do you do outside of caving? 0:48:38.120 --> 0:48:40.360 Outside of caving, I do a lot of fishing, hiking. 0:48:41.000 --> 0:48:44.120 I work in rope access and work on wind turbines, 0:48:44.800 --> 0:48:49.120 repair the blades on them. We repel off those giant 0:48:49.360 --> 0:48:50.560 death machines. 0:48:52.960 --> 0:48:56.839 Wind turbines, so you're just constantly around things that can 0:48:56.920 --> 0:48:57.319 kill you. 0:48:59.560 --> 0:49:01.879 I'm more scared of the wind turbines than I am 0:49:01.960 --> 0:49:03.680 of the cave, to be fair. 0:49:04.480 --> 0:49:11.080 Right, right right, literally, sorry, go ahead, no, you go ahead. 0:49:12.640 --> 0:49:15.560 A wind turbine is literally a giant machine that is 0:49:15.600 --> 0:49:17.719 designed to kill you. That's that's we say that in 0:49:17.760 --> 0:49:20.880 safety meetings all the time and keep it in the 0:49:20.880 --> 0:49:22.960 back of your head at all times. You're around a 0:49:22.960 --> 0:49:26.040 bunch of moving parts and they're you know, they're they're generators, 0:49:26.040 --> 0:49:29.600 they're electrical machines, so you've got to be very cautious 0:49:29.640 --> 0:49:32.280 with how you approach and treat those those things. 0:49:33.160 --> 0:49:35.520 You think more people have gotten killed by wind turbines 0:49:35.600 --> 0:49:36.360 or by caves? 0:49:37.920 --> 0:49:41.840 Oh, another good question. I I don't have an answer 0:49:41.880 --> 0:49:43.960 for you. A lot of people have died in caves. 0:49:44.239 --> 0:49:46.560 There have been several people that have died on win tournaments. 0:49:46.560 --> 0:49:51.239 I would say probably caves, but I don't have a 0:49:51.680 --> 0:49:54.359 factual answer to tell you. That's my my opinion. If 0:49:54.360 --> 0:49:54.759 I had to. 0:49:54.719 --> 0:49:59.040 Guess, zeus before we go, give me, give me the 0:49:59.120 --> 0:50:01.440 dream cave. Where's the cave where you're like, I've always 0:50:01.440 --> 0:50:04.840 wanted to look and see what's inside of this particular cave. 0:50:06.000 --> 0:50:11.400 The dream cave, I think a good multi drop cave. 0:50:11.480 --> 0:50:13.160 So it's like you repel in and you do some 0:50:13.200 --> 0:50:19.200 horizontal caving and it goes the trip is down, and 0:50:19.280 --> 0:50:21.560 we'll also do it. Let's make it a pull down 0:50:21.680 --> 0:50:24.080 cave to where when you go into the cave and 0:50:24.120 --> 0:50:26.080 you repel down to your first level, you pull the 0:50:26.160 --> 0:50:28.239 rope down behind you, and once you do that, you're 0:50:28.239 --> 0:50:32.200 committed to going to the bottom. So there is going 0:50:32.239 --> 0:50:37.080 to be a second entrance, at least one, and it's 0:50:37.120 --> 0:50:41.800 going to be beautiful through the whole way. Lots of formations, 0:50:43.040 --> 0:50:47.160 lots of critters, lots of like salamanders and cave adapted 0:50:47.239 --> 0:50:53.560 life through the passages and water. Water caves are a 0:50:53.560 --> 0:50:55.920 lot of fun when when you're repelling next to the 0:50:56.040 --> 0:50:59.160 waterfall and crawling through water or even walking or waiting 0:50:59.160 --> 0:51:02.680 through it. I think that's my perfect mix of caves. 0:51:03.000 --> 0:51:05.680 Wait, well, I guess I'm looking for a specific cave 0:51:05.760 --> 0:51:09.000 like a white wolf a white whale cave where you're like, 0:51:09.000 --> 0:51:11.279 I want to go to the you know, deep in 0:51:11.600 --> 0:51:14.280 fucking China or wherever, Like, is there a specific cave 0:51:14.400 --> 0:51:15.600 that you want to go see. 0:51:16.120 --> 0:51:18.840 A specific cave, probably let you gia. It's been closed 0:51:18.840 --> 0:51:21.200 the cavers for a long time. If you're not a researcher, 0:51:21.520 --> 0:51:22.120 let your gia. 0:51:24.080 --> 0:51:26.239 How does one Because if you're not a researcher, but 0:51:26.280 --> 0:51:28.759 aren't you, I mean you're a researcher. You're what's it 0:51:28.840 --> 0:51:30.680 really take to be if you're going into the cave 0:51:30.760 --> 0:51:33.480 to look at shit? That's researching, right, You don't need 0:51:33.480 --> 0:51:36.319 a piece of paper to say you're yeah. 0:51:38.480 --> 0:51:38.719 Yeah. 0:51:38.760 --> 0:51:42.640 So like I do map caves. I I make my 0:51:42.680 --> 0:51:46.759 own maps and publish them through a caving club. But 0:51:47.320 --> 0:51:51.080 like they're looking for more people who have like who 0:51:51.120 --> 0:51:54.680 can study animals like cave adapted life, or study the geology, 0:51:54.840 --> 0:51:57.800 or study like why this cave the way it is is? 0:51:58.320 --> 0:52:00.120 Why is this cave the way it is? You know know, 0:52:00.760 --> 0:52:04.240 like so like the average caver doesn't typically get permission 0:52:04.320 --> 0:52:06.560 to go visit the bottom of letagee and see all 0:52:06.560 --> 0:52:07.200 the cool stuff. 0:52:08.360 --> 0:52:12.040 Why is this cave the way it is? It's profound 0:52:12.200 --> 0:52:12.840 good question. 0:52:13.280 --> 0:52:14.560 I think that all the time. 0:52:17.480 --> 0:52:18.960 Zeus, Is there anything else you want to say to 0:52:19.000 --> 0:52:20.440 the people of the computer before we go? 0:52:23.200 --> 0:52:24.200 Uh? 0:52:24.480 --> 0:52:28.439 I love you get Thank you Zeus. I wish you 0:52:29.680 --> 0:52:34.640 good tiding. I'm gonna manifest that you have good cave 0:52:34.840 --> 0:52:36.520 experiences for the rest of your life. 0:52:37.719 --> 0:52:39.720 Thank you, Gek. I'll try to stay safe. 0:52:40.360 --> 0:52:46.799 See see Zeus, Zeus, see a Zeus, see you. 0:52:50.360 --> 0:52:50.560 Man. 0:52:50.640 --> 0:52:52.479 I hope that God is okay in the caves. Man. 0:52:54.200 --> 0:52:56.560 I don't fuck around in caves, man, but I guess 0:52:56.560 --> 0:52:58.440 someone has to. I guess someone's got to see what's 0:52:58.440 --> 0:53:02.759 going on in those caves. We thank Zeus for being 0:53:02.800 --> 0:53:06.239 that's someone who from Alexia. 0:53:07.640 --> 0:53:10.000 Hello, Oh my god, Hello, Hi. 0:53:10.120 --> 0:53:10.799 What's your name? 0:53:11.480 --> 0:53:12.920 My name is Alexia. 0:53:13.200 --> 0:53:15.680 What's up, Alexia? How's life? Life is good? 0:53:15.800 --> 0:53:18.560 I'm standing in the middle of the forest right now. 0:53:20.160 --> 0:53:23.200 You're standing in the middle of the forest. Yeah, what 0:53:23.239 --> 0:53:24.880 are you doing in the middle of the forest. 0:53:25.360 --> 0:53:27.920 I'm actually at work. I do feel botany, so I'm 0:53:27.960 --> 0:53:30.120 like hiding plants and measuring trees and shit. 0:53:30.800 --> 0:53:33.840 Oh cool. How how tall was the last tree that 0:53:33.880 --> 0:53:34.400 you measured? 0:53:34.760 --> 0:53:38.120 Well, we measure the diameter, so I don't know, is 0:53:38.160 --> 0:53:40.839 maybe like a diameter of twenty. 0:53:40.560 --> 0:53:43.520 Five a diameter of twenty five? 0:53:44.480 --> 0:53:46.719 Yeah, I mean like sometimes we measure the height, but 0:53:46.880 --> 0:53:50.560 we're usually doing uh width for it. 0:53:50.680 --> 0:53:53.640 Yeah, do you think trees are important people? 0:53:54.200 --> 0:53:56.919 I do think trees are important to people, seeing as 0:53:56.960 --> 0:53:59.120 we can't really like breathe without oxygen. 0:54:01.600 --> 0:54:04.719 That's true. I was gonna ask why you think trees 0:54:04.719 --> 0:54:07.960 are important? But that's good. But this this does make 0:54:08.040 --> 0:54:11.120 sense the whole but the whole thing of trees providing oxygen. 0:54:11.239 --> 0:54:15.959 I mean I'm in a city and there's like two 0:54:16.000 --> 0:54:19.680 trees in the whole city and everyone's breathing. Fine, you 0:54:19.719 --> 0:54:21.160 know does that How does that work? 0:54:22.320 --> 0:54:22.520 Well? 0:54:22.560 --> 0:54:24.680 I think the idea is that like all the trees 0:54:24.719 --> 0:54:29.000 on the planet like dispersed the oxygen because there's something 0:54:29.080 --> 0:54:31.840 like I don't know, this is like totally made up maybe, 0:54:31.840 --> 0:54:36.240 but like the Amazon rainforest provides like some big percent 0:54:36.520 --> 0:54:39.440 of oxygen for the whole planet. So I don't know. 0:54:39.480 --> 0:54:42.320 I think it just spreads around. 0:54:43.520 --> 0:54:46.080 Alexia is was there a particular thing that you wanted 0:54:46.080 --> 0:54:49.040 to talk about today? 0:54:49.280 --> 0:54:51.920 No, I mean I just saw the you posted on 0:54:51.960 --> 0:54:55.280 your Instagram. I probably have had like a thousand things 0:54:55.800 --> 0:54:59.640 that I've wanted to say in the past, but uh no, 0:54:59.760 --> 0:55:02.040 I'm just a chilling right now. 0:55:03.200 --> 0:55:05.960 And how long do you have? How long do you 0:55:06.040 --> 0:55:07.640 how long do you have until you have to get 0:55:07.640 --> 0:55:11.000 off the phone and go do tree stuff. 0:55:12.400 --> 0:55:17.799 Well it's lunch now, so my timeline is pretty free. 0:55:17.880 --> 0:55:20.200 I think we have like a cool schedule. So we 0:55:20.320 --> 0:55:22.280 just kind of come out here and like fallock around 0:55:22.280 --> 0:55:24.960 for a while and then go back to the office. 0:55:25.040 --> 0:55:26.120 So it's chill. 0:55:27.440 --> 0:55:30.200 Is there. So okay, So you have like an actual 0:55:30.200 --> 0:55:34.720 office that you work out of too, it's not just yeah. 0:55:36.200 --> 0:55:39.000 No, yeah, it's like fun we do. So we do like, 0:55:39.440 --> 0:55:44.200 uh like forest assessments for like military land, like soldiers 0:55:44.200 --> 0:55:47.120 come out here and train and then we come through 0:55:47.160 --> 0:55:49.319 and see like how bad they messed it up or 0:55:49.400 --> 0:55:53.000 like how like if they can go back to the spot. 0:55:53.040 --> 0:55:54.960 I'm not totally sure. I just take all the data 0:55:55.000 --> 0:55:57.080 for it. My boss does whatever else with it. 0:55:59.520 --> 0:56:03.960 And do you ever see any cool animals while you're 0:56:03.960 --> 0:56:04.879 doing it? Oh? 0:56:04.960 --> 0:56:09.080 Yeah, we see. So I'm in Alaska and it's actually 0:56:09.080 --> 0:56:11.279 interesting because I've heard recently that you've had a lot 0:56:11.320 --> 0:56:14.360 of callers in Alaska, but you don't they don't seem 0:56:14.360 --> 0:56:17.640 to be interior. I live in Fairbanks in the interior. 0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:21.560 What does that mean? Interior? Exterior? 0:56:21.840 --> 0:56:26.520 So like the exterior is anywhere like around the coast 0:56:27.080 --> 0:56:29.720 or like I don't know, maybe like one hundred miles 0:56:29.719 --> 0:56:34.360 in from the coast, and then the interior is maybe 0:56:34.400 --> 0:56:38.200 like because there's like a mountain range that borders the coast, 0:56:38.360 --> 0:56:41.480 and I think the interior is considered inside the mountain range. 0:56:42.360 --> 0:56:47.400 So I'm in, like I'm in like central eastern Alaska. 0:56:48.640 --> 0:56:50.400 I want to go. I'm going to Alaska. I have 0:56:50.440 --> 0:56:52.799 a show there in October. I'm gonna probably do. 0:56:52.760 --> 0:56:56.359 Some I know, I'm literally signed up for the I'm 0:56:56.480 --> 0:57:00.480 signed up for the thing. Hell yeah, yeah, yeah, you 0:57:00.520 --> 0:57:00.960 know the thing. 0:57:04.360 --> 0:57:07.160 Do you have anyh go ahead? Go ahead? 0:57:07.440 --> 0:57:10.319 Oh sorry, yeah, Well everyone from Fairbanks has to go 0:57:10.360 --> 0:57:12.880 to Anchorage for like events and stuff, and it's like 0:57:13.200 --> 0:57:17.360 six hour drive. So I'm pretty stoked for that. It's 0:57:17.400 --> 0:57:19.760 gonna be fun. I think if you get the chance, 0:57:19.760 --> 0:57:22.360 you should come to Fairbanks. Although it's October so there's 0:57:22.360 --> 0:57:25.080 probably not a lot happening, I you know. 0:57:25.240 --> 0:57:27.840 I to me, when people say like, oh, there's not 0:57:27.880 --> 0:57:32.000 a lot happening because it's you know, X month, I 0:57:32.080 --> 0:57:34.160 never I never like when people say that, because it's like, 0:57:34.520 --> 0:57:39.360 you know, listen, there's some The main attractions of any 0:57:39.400 --> 0:57:42.280 place to me are like, you know, just some fucking 0:57:42.320 --> 0:57:46.760 guy walking around, you know, and everywhere you know, I'm 0:57:47.120 --> 0:57:51.400 whatever the weather, whatever the time, everywhere in the world, 0:57:51.400 --> 0:57:54.600 there's always just you know, some fucking guy walking around 0:57:54.600 --> 0:57:57.200 eating something, and I want to talk to that guy. 0:57:57.240 --> 0:58:00.840 So I don't, like, I don't always people do this 0:58:00.880 --> 0:58:02.960 thing about the weather where it's like, why would you 0:58:03.000 --> 0:58:05.840 go there in that weather? And it's like, well, I 0:58:05.840 --> 0:58:07.760 don't know, it's not why do I I just the 0:58:07.800 --> 0:58:09.680 idea that like you always have to travel to a 0:58:09.720 --> 0:58:14.320 place when the weather is perfect. I resent that. 0:58:14.960 --> 0:58:15.120 No. 0:58:15.160 --> 0:58:17.200 I mean, you're totally right, honestly, And you know what, 0:58:17.280 --> 0:58:20.320 there's so many like crazy people here, but I think 0:58:20.360 --> 0:58:22.200 that you'd have a great time if you got to 0:58:22.200 --> 0:58:23.400 talk to some people on the street. 0:58:24.080 --> 0:58:24.320 Yeah. 0:58:24.360 --> 0:58:26.640 People keep telling me that about Alaska, that there's uh 0:58:27.440 --> 0:58:32.120 because it's either it's either always really dark or really sunny. 0:58:32.200 --> 0:58:36.000 Right yeah, like right now we have like twenty well 0:58:36.040 --> 0:58:39.000 it's almost twenty four hours of daylight. Solstice is next 0:58:39.040 --> 0:58:44.520 whoa really really yeah, Like it's really hard to go 0:58:44.560 --> 0:58:47.600 to bed at night because it's just like sunshine out 0:58:47.680 --> 0:58:48.320 all the time. 0:58:49.040 --> 0:58:52.000 WHOA, Okay, I know I just made that whole stink 0:58:52.000 --> 0:58:54.000 about the weather thing. But I would like to see that. 0:58:54.000 --> 0:58:55.000 That sounds very no. 0:58:55.160 --> 0:58:59.800 Yeah, yeah, that's like the highlight is like we we Alaskan, 0:59:00.040 --> 0:59:02.040 We really like to tell people to come up here 0:59:02.080 --> 0:59:03.720 during the summer so they can get to see the 0:59:04.560 --> 0:59:08.480 midnight sun. It's really cool. But you know winter is 0:59:08.520 --> 0:59:12.480 really cool too, is Yeah, I will would recommend ten 0:59:12.520 --> 0:59:13.640 out of ten in. 0:59:13.560 --> 0:59:15.680 October is it fully dark? 0:59:17.160 --> 0:59:20.280 So October it's like so like the solstice and the 0:59:20.320 --> 0:59:26.640 summer is June twentieth, and then the equinoxes December twenty 0:59:26.640 --> 0:59:28.520 fifth or something, so that's like the lightest and then 0:59:28.560 --> 0:59:30.600 the darkest day of the year. So October is like 0:59:30.680 --> 0:59:33.640 kind of in between. I feel like October would be 0:59:33.720 --> 0:59:38.440 like a typical daylight cycle for like in the lower forty. 0:59:38.200 --> 0:59:42.960 Eight Alexia, Yeah, is there anything you want to say 0:59:42.960 --> 0:59:44.480 to the people of the computer before we go? 0:59:45.960 --> 0:59:48.960 I would like to say, thanks for picking up and 0:59:50.240 --> 0:59:50.959 peace and love. 0:59:51.800 --> 0:59:54.320 Thank you, Alexia, have a good rest of your entire life. 0:59:54.800 --> 0:59:55.280 Thank you. 0:59:57.840 --> 1:00:01.040 Goes on line, thank you calls every night. 1:00:01.440 --> 1:00:04.200 Everything goes to and his eye's. 1:00:03.680 --> 1:00:06.400 Teaching you to a house of your life. But he's 1:00:06.440 --> 1:00:08.560 not really an expert.