1 00:00:00,240 --> 00:00:03,920 Speaker 1: I got to I get to I get to do 2 00:00:04,000 --> 00:00:07,600 Speaker 1: this thing that makes me feel so empowered, so strong, 3 00:00:07,760 --> 00:00:30,960 Speaker 1: so capable, and how awesome of an opportunity is that. Hey, everyone, 4 00:00:32,040 --> 00:00:37,560 Speaker 1: Emily Abadi here you are listening to Hurdle Moment from Hurdle. 5 00:00:38,360 --> 00:00:41,280 Speaker 1: I'm not even gonna I'm not even gonna bring you 6 00:00:41,320 --> 00:00:43,400 Speaker 1: in with a real intro today. I'm just gonna get 7 00:00:43,440 --> 00:00:50,040 Speaker 1: right to the fact that, man, here we are. What 8 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:52,639 Speaker 1: is this Tuesday? I'm recording this on Tuesday. It's coming 9 00:00:52,680 --> 00:00:59,000 Speaker 1: out on Wednesday. I am two days removed from the 10 00:00:59,040 --> 00:01:03,360 Speaker 1: London Marathon, and if I'm honest, I was originally planning 11 00:01:03,360 --> 00:01:08,959 Speaker 1: on releasing this episode next Wednesday, but upon getting so 12 00:01:09,200 --> 00:01:13,920 Speaker 1: many messages and wonderful emails from all of you telling 13 00:01:13,959 --> 00:01:17,920 Speaker 1: me that you were looking forward to the London Marathon recap, 14 00:01:17,959 --> 00:01:20,319 Speaker 1: I figured that now was as good of a time 15 00:01:20,400 --> 00:01:23,560 Speaker 1: as any to sit down record it. Well, it's still 16 00:01:23,560 --> 00:01:26,240 Speaker 1: fresh in my mind and give you my feedback and 17 00:01:26,360 --> 00:01:31,520 Speaker 1: what was truly an incredible, incredible day. Now, I say 18 00:01:31,520 --> 00:01:34,640 Speaker 1: this into the microphone under the assumption that maybe you've 19 00:01:34,640 --> 00:01:37,080 Speaker 1: been here for a little while or a long while, 20 00:01:37,120 --> 00:01:41,760 Speaker 1: but you're in the loop that on Sunday, October second, 21 00:01:41,840 --> 00:01:45,479 Speaker 1: does some math in my head. I ran my eleventh 22 00:01:45,600 --> 00:01:50,520 Speaker 1: marathon in London and it was a journey, a journey 23 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:53,920 Speaker 1: understatement to get there. And so today on the pod, 24 00:01:54,560 --> 00:01:58,720 Speaker 1: I'm giving you the full recap. No big edits here, 25 00:01:59,200 --> 00:02:02,240 Speaker 1: just kind of stream of consciousness, talking you through what 26 00:02:02,440 --> 00:02:05,280 Speaker 1: was going on. Maybe a little bit of behind the 27 00:02:05,320 --> 00:02:09,959 Speaker 1: scenes depending on if you follow along on social or whatever, 28 00:02:10,000 --> 00:02:15,440 Speaker 1: but it was it was a day and a lot. 29 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:17,359 Speaker 2: Of thoughts and feelings went into the day. 30 00:02:17,400 --> 00:02:19,639 Speaker 1: A lot of thoughts and feelings happened during the day, 31 00:02:19,680 --> 00:02:25,040 Speaker 1: and I certainly have many, many of them now as well. Again, 32 00:02:25,080 --> 00:02:27,880 Speaker 1: I'm recording this in my Paris hotel room. I'm staring 33 00:02:28,000 --> 00:02:33,720 Speaker 1: at the Eiffel Tower right now, and overwhelmingly I feel grateful. 34 00:02:34,080 --> 00:02:37,320 Speaker 1: That's the sentiment I'm walking away from Sunday with. For me, 35 00:02:37,760 --> 00:02:41,760 Speaker 1: Sunday had nothing to do with time, but of course 36 00:02:41,800 --> 00:02:44,840 Speaker 1: that's a question that's going to come through. So ultimately 37 00:02:45,200 --> 00:02:49,320 Speaker 1: I ran what was according to my garment, something like 38 00:02:49,480 --> 00:02:54,119 Speaker 1: twenty six point five something miles in four hours, three 39 00:02:54,240 --> 00:02:59,760 Speaker 1: minutes and eleven seconds, and we're going to get into it. 40 00:03:00,400 --> 00:03:03,120 Speaker 1: So without further ado, make sure you're following along on 41 00:03:03,240 --> 00:03:06,560 Speaker 1: the Social at Hurdle podcast, I'm over at emilya body. 42 00:03:07,040 --> 00:03:10,359 Speaker 1: If you have questions about what you listen to in 43 00:03:10,880 --> 00:03:13,680 Speaker 1: this episode, I would love to answer them, and I 44 00:03:13,680 --> 00:03:17,480 Speaker 1: would love to answer them in an upcoming episode, which 45 00:03:17,520 --> 00:03:19,000 Speaker 1: means you know that I'm going to tell you I 46 00:03:19,040 --> 00:03:21,760 Speaker 1: would love for you to leave me a voice message. 47 00:03:21,800 --> 00:03:24,640 Speaker 1: The link to do that is in the show notes. 48 00:03:25,560 --> 00:03:28,520 Speaker 1: Oh man, with that, Let's get into it. Let's get 49 00:03:28,720 --> 00:03:40,920 Speaker 1: to hurdling. It has been a year and a half 50 00:03:41,040 --> 00:03:43,880 Speaker 1: about since I first signed up for the London Marathon. 51 00:03:44,040 --> 00:03:49,080 Speaker 1: I registered for the twenty twenty one London Marathon, I 52 00:03:49,160 --> 00:03:53,680 Speaker 1: believe in March of twenty twenty one, and I trained 53 00:03:53,680 --> 00:03:55,680 Speaker 1: for it. I'm going to link in the show notes 54 00:03:56,040 --> 00:03:59,200 Speaker 1: kind of the journey that happened throughout last year. But 55 00:04:00,360 --> 00:04:04,000 Speaker 1: the spoiler here is that I trained for this marathon, 56 00:04:04,520 --> 00:04:08,360 Speaker 1: I developed some sort of strain we think it was 57 00:04:08,560 --> 00:04:13,040 Speaker 1: my so as and ultimately had to withdraw from London 58 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:16,599 Speaker 1: last year. And so going in to this training cycle 59 00:04:16,839 --> 00:04:19,400 Speaker 1: kind of like my redemption moment in twenty twenty two, 60 00:04:19,480 --> 00:04:24,120 Speaker 1: I was so excited simply for the opportunity to show up, 61 00:04:24,520 --> 00:04:29,840 Speaker 1: and so I registered for the twenty twenty two London Marathon. 62 00:04:30,480 --> 00:04:34,680 Speaker 1: I think in April of this year and I started training. 63 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:37,839 Speaker 1: And this training cycle was different than some of my 64 00:04:37,920 --> 00:04:41,240 Speaker 1: previous training cycles for many reasons. First of all, I 65 00:04:41,360 --> 00:04:44,960 Speaker 1: went into this training cycle knowing that my main priority 66 00:04:45,240 --> 00:04:48,640 Speaker 1: was simply to run the marathon and to do it 67 00:04:48,720 --> 00:04:52,480 Speaker 1: without injury. I believe that I was so impacted by 68 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:56,679 Speaker 1: having to withdraw last year that I was so focused 69 00:04:56,720 --> 00:05:00,559 Speaker 1: on taking care of myself and actually getting to show 70 00:05:00,720 --> 00:05:04,200 Speaker 1: up to the start in twenty twenty two, and so 71 00:05:04,560 --> 00:05:10,000 Speaker 1: this year I went to weekly physical therapy, something that 72 00:05:10,080 --> 00:05:12,719 Speaker 1: I didn't take lightly, not only in my responsibility to 73 00:05:13,279 --> 00:05:15,520 Speaker 1: show up for physical therapy and to go home and 74 00:05:15,560 --> 00:05:18,279 Speaker 1: do the homework that so often goes hand in hand 75 00:05:18,440 --> 00:05:23,600 Speaker 1: with such of an undertaking, but also the financial commitment. 76 00:05:23,720 --> 00:05:25,240 Speaker 1: I put a lot of energy and a lot of 77 00:05:25,240 --> 00:05:28,360 Speaker 1: thought into that. So there was that. I also made 78 00:05:28,360 --> 00:05:32,120 Speaker 1: the conscious decision to work with a run coach. I think, 79 00:05:32,440 --> 00:05:35,919 Speaker 1: and I know that a lot of us runners, and 80 00:05:36,000 --> 00:05:38,440 Speaker 1: I say that speaking to you, knowing that you may 81 00:05:38,440 --> 00:05:42,000 Speaker 1: be one as well, we lean into the opportunity to 82 00:05:42,040 --> 00:05:44,960 Speaker 1: work with a run coach. For many different reasons. I 83 00:05:44,960 --> 00:05:47,359 Speaker 1: have worked with a coach in the past because my 84 00:05:47,440 --> 00:05:51,559 Speaker 1: goal was simply to run fast and to run faster 85 00:05:51,640 --> 00:05:55,039 Speaker 1: than I had before, And this year I decided to 86 00:05:55,120 --> 00:05:58,000 Speaker 1: work with my run coach. Her name is Rebecca Stow. 87 00:05:58,200 --> 00:06:00,200 Speaker 1: I will link to an episode I did with her 88 00:06:00,800 --> 00:06:03,760 Speaker 1: in the show notes as well. I decided to work 89 00:06:03,800 --> 00:06:08,359 Speaker 1: with Stowe because I wanted help and guidance, knowing that 90 00:06:08,960 --> 00:06:11,760 Speaker 1: my schedule was a bit crazy and I didn't want 91 00:06:11,800 --> 00:06:16,159 Speaker 1: to put the extra brain work into figuring out how 92 00:06:16,240 --> 00:06:19,400 Speaker 1: to navigate marathon training when life already felt a little 93 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:23,200 Speaker 1: bit difficult to navigate on its own. So those were 94 00:06:23,240 --> 00:06:25,680 Speaker 1: the two, let's say, experts that I had in my 95 00:06:25,680 --> 00:06:28,800 Speaker 1: toolbox going into the marathon. Now that you know that, 96 00:06:29,440 --> 00:06:32,280 Speaker 1: let's talk about the weeks leading up to the marathon. 97 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:36,720 Speaker 1: I started this training cycle with a little bit of 98 00:06:36,760 --> 00:06:40,760 Speaker 1: planto fasciitis. I would say about a few weeks of 99 00:06:40,880 --> 00:06:45,560 Speaker 1: PT leader. The exercises that I received from my PT Luke, 100 00:06:45,560 --> 00:06:49,479 Speaker 1: who was also recently on the POD, in combination with 101 00:06:49,839 --> 00:06:54,440 Speaker 1: the therapy that he was helping me with, both of 102 00:06:54,480 --> 00:06:58,200 Speaker 1: those things alleviated that plantro fasciitis pain. So I was 103 00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:00,719 Speaker 1: able to really get into a groove with my training 104 00:07:00,760 --> 00:07:03,960 Speaker 1: focus in on the work that my run coach had 105 00:07:04,000 --> 00:07:08,400 Speaker 1: me do and dial in there. Two months of training 106 00:07:08,400 --> 00:07:13,800 Speaker 1: goes by, and it's feeling really good, right, It's feeling like, 107 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:15,480 Speaker 1: how do I say this? 108 00:07:16,280 --> 00:07:16,760 Speaker 2: I don't want to. 109 00:07:16,760 --> 00:07:19,240 Speaker 1: Say that it felt effortless, because God knows that if 110 00:07:19,280 --> 00:07:21,200 Speaker 1: you run in the Northeast and you run in New 111 00:07:21,280 --> 00:07:25,559 Speaker 1: York City, that you know summer running is really freaking hard. 112 00:07:25,760 --> 00:07:30,480 Speaker 1: But I felt very capable, and almost more capable than 113 00:07:30,640 --> 00:07:36,960 Speaker 1: I even expected, about maybe three weeks to a month ago. Again, 114 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:39,680 Speaker 1: I'm recording this two days after I ran the marathon. 115 00:07:40,960 --> 00:07:44,480 Speaker 1: I started to feel a twinge in my left knee 116 00:07:44,640 --> 00:07:48,240 Speaker 1: after running my longest run before the long run aka 117 00:07:48,400 --> 00:07:53,600 Speaker 1: my twenty mile long run before the marathon, again about 118 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:57,880 Speaker 1: three weeks a month ago. Typically speaking, I usually tackle 119 00:07:57,960 --> 00:08:01,240 Speaker 1: as my longest run something like twenty two. Knowing that 120 00:08:01,400 --> 00:08:04,239 Speaker 1: I had a history plant fasci itis. I was really 121 00:08:04,240 --> 00:08:06,760 Speaker 1: working to be conservative and smart with my training, and 122 00:08:06,800 --> 00:08:09,559 Speaker 1: so we decided that twenty would be my longest run. 123 00:08:10,400 --> 00:08:12,080 Speaker 1: If you're listening to this and you're like, oh my gosh, 124 00:08:12,080 --> 00:08:13,800 Speaker 1: should I be running twenty two? Should I be running 125 00:08:13,840 --> 00:08:17,560 Speaker 1: twenty I would advise you to consult one on one 126 00:08:17,800 --> 00:08:21,840 Speaker 1: with someone who can talk to and speak to your situation. 127 00:08:22,200 --> 00:08:24,520 Speaker 1: But with that said, this is just kind of what 128 00:08:24,600 --> 00:08:26,920 Speaker 1: worked for me this time around. So after that long run, 129 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:30,240 Speaker 1: I dealt with some pain in my knee and I 130 00:08:30,320 --> 00:08:34,520 Speaker 1: went to PT and threw some hands on work and 131 00:08:35,200 --> 00:08:39,120 Speaker 1: talking a lot through what I was experiencing. Luke told 132 00:08:39,120 --> 00:08:41,160 Speaker 1: me that he was pretty sure I was navigating some 133 00:08:41,280 --> 00:08:46,760 Speaker 1: tendon itis related to the IT band. We start to 134 00:08:46,920 --> 00:08:51,280 Speaker 1: incorporate different exercises in my routine to work on strengthening 135 00:08:51,440 --> 00:08:54,760 Speaker 1: both my hips, my glutes, all the things that could 136 00:08:54,800 --> 00:09:01,080 Speaker 1: be creating this wonkiness. And I make the decision a 137 00:09:01,120 --> 00:09:05,880 Speaker 1: week after that to start dialing back on my running 138 00:09:06,000 --> 00:09:08,280 Speaker 1: and subbing it in for cycling. 139 00:09:08,320 --> 00:09:08,480 Speaker 2: Now. 140 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:11,920 Speaker 1: I got a question in my DMS about this decision 141 00:09:12,120 --> 00:09:14,880 Speaker 1: because I wrote something like we wanted to create a 142 00:09:14,880 --> 00:09:20,200 Speaker 1: similar training stimulus. And what that means specifically, is a 143 00:09:20,240 --> 00:09:23,320 Speaker 1: lot of the running that someone does leading up to 144 00:09:23,360 --> 00:09:27,480 Speaker 1: the marathon is focused on endurance work. Right, you're about 145 00:09:27,520 --> 00:09:29,439 Speaker 1: to go out and tackle a twenty six point two 146 00:09:29,480 --> 00:09:31,400 Speaker 1: mile long run. You want to be able to make 147 00:09:31,440 --> 00:09:34,400 Speaker 1: sure that you feel comfortable with time on feet. Depending 148 00:09:34,400 --> 00:09:36,840 Speaker 1: on your goals, you may be incorporating other types of 149 00:09:36,920 --> 00:09:39,800 Speaker 1: running into your routine, whether that be tempo work or 150 00:09:39,880 --> 00:09:43,439 Speaker 1: interval base work, something like eight hundred meter repeats, four 151 00:09:43,480 --> 00:09:48,200 Speaker 1: hundred meter repeats, mile repeats, what have you. My only 152 00:09:48,360 --> 00:09:52,080 Speaker 1: goal was to mimic a training stimulus. Knowing that I 153 00:09:52,160 --> 00:09:54,800 Speaker 1: had the training that I needed under my belt, I 154 00:09:54,840 --> 00:09:57,120 Speaker 1: put in the work and I just wanted to make 155 00:09:57,120 --> 00:10:00,640 Speaker 1: sure that I kept up my endurance efforts. Well, I 156 00:10:00,679 --> 00:10:04,520 Speaker 1: think like three weeks before the marathon, I cycled something 157 00:10:04,559 --> 00:10:07,440 Speaker 1: like seventy miles. Two weeks it was forty miles, and 158 00:10:07,559 --> 00:10:12,079 Speaker 1: the week before was a mix of light running and cycling. 159 00:10:12,800 --> 00:10:13,920 Speaker 2: So there's that. Okay. 160 00:10:13,960 --> 00:10:15,600 Speaker 1: I feel like I've given you a lot of the 161 00:10:15,640 --> 00:10:17,640 Speaker 1: necessary info you need to know. 162 00:10:17,679 --> 00:10:21,199 Speaker 2: How I showed up to London. I showed up to London. 163 00:10:22,400 --> 00:10:26,079 Speaker 1: As a result of the wonkiness in my left knee, 164 00:10:26,840 --> 00:10:32,960 Speaker 1: I started to rejigger stress out the planter fasci itis 165 00:10:32,960 --> 00:10:35,760 Speaker 1: in my right foot once again. So what that meant 166 00:10:36,000 --> 00:10:39,920 Speaker 1: is for me, the way that plant fasciitis presents in 167 00:10:40,160 --> 00:10:42,680 Speaker 1: my foot is that I feel a lot of pain 168 00:10:42,880 --> 00:10:45,640 Speaker 1: in my heel. If you are new to the term 169 00:10:45,679 --> 00:10:48,200 Speaker 1: plant fasciitis, essentially what this means is there is a 170 00:10:48,280 --> 00:10:51,360 Speaker 1: tendon that runs basically the length of your foot from 171 00:10:51,400 --> 00:10:54,079 Speaker 1: the ball to the heel. When you have planter fasci itis, 172 00:10:54,160 --> 00:10:57,120 Speaker 1: it gets angry, it gets inflamed, and it causes pain 173 00:10:57,200 --> 00:11:01,960 Speaker 1: traditionally again in that heel area. So I got to London, 174 00:11:02,520 --> 00:11:05,720 Speaker 1: and I would say in the week and a half 175 00:11:05,840 --> 00:11:13,040 Speaker 1: leading up to London that pain was real. It felt frustrating, 176 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:19,840 Speaker 1: I felt frustrated. I was both accepting and I don't 177 00:11:19,840 --> 00:11:22,720 Speaker 1: even think I was angry. I was just frustrated and accepting. 178 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:26,360 Speaker 1: I could be both. I was ready to surrender to 179 00:11:26,679 --> 00:11:28,880 Speaker 1: the fact that there was absolutely nothing I could change 180 00:11:28,880 --> 00:11:30,760 Speaker 1: about the pain that I was feeling in my heel, 181 00:11:30,960 --> 00:11:33,920 Speaker 1: while knowing that I was capable of tackling the effort 182 00:11:33,960 --> 00:11:35,520 Speaker 1: that was ahead of me, and that there were going 183 00:11:35,559 --> 00:11:37,400 Speaker 1: to be things that were out of my control that 184 00:11:37,440 --> 00:11:39,920 Speaker 1: I needed to accept if I wanted to show up 185 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:41,960 Speaker 1: and do the thing that I couldn't do the year before. 186 00:11:43,120 --> 00:11:43,560 Speaker 2: Period. 187 00:11:45,280 --> 00:11:49,840 Speaker 1: About forty eight hours before the race, I flew in. 188 00:11:50,760 --> 00:11:54,320 Speaker 1: I felt surprisingly good on that flight. I got off 189 00:11:54,320 --> 00:11:58,200 Speaker 1: of the flight and was pleasantly surprised at how my 190 00:11:58,280 --> 00:12:01,160 Speaker 1: knee felt. It wasn't really presenting any pain whatsoever, something 191 00:12:01,200 --> 00:12:03,600 Speaker 1: that was not the case the week before, when I 192 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:05,079 Speaker 1: was on a flight coming back to New York from 193 00:12:05,120 --> 00:12:09,240 Speaker 1: Los Angeles and my heel really didn't feel any sort 194 00:12:09,240 --> 00:12:11,480 Speaker 1: of way. I wouldn't say it felt normal, but it 195 00:12:11,520 --> 00:12:15,720 Speaker 1: didn't feel nearly as bad as it had previously in 196 00:12:16,920 --> 00:12:20,680 Speaker 1: the I would say twenty four hours leading up to 197 00:12:20,760 --> 00:12:25,719 Speaker 1: the marathon, the pain in my heel as I had 198 00:12:25,760 --> 00:12:28,040 Speaker 1: to stop by the expo and I just grabbed some 199 00:12:28,360 --> 00:12:32,400 Speaker 1: like last minute things that I'd forgotten whatnot. It was 200 00:12:32,559 --> 00:12:38,080 Speaker 1: at a place where I really felt like again I 201 00:12:38,160 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: keep coming back to the word surrender, like I was, 202 00:12:40,679 --> 00:12:44,040 Speaker 1: I had to surrender. There was absolutely nothing I could 203 00:12:44,080 --> 00:12:48,320 Speaker 1: do besides utilize the tools in my toolbox to navigate 204 00:12:48,360 --> 00:12:51,400 Speaker 1: the pain. And I even called The night before I 205 00:12:51,480 --> 00:12:54,439 Speaker 1: went to dinner. I was traveling with my good friend 206 00:12:54,480 --> 00:12:55,760 Speaker 1: that was also running the race, and I went to 207 00:12:55,760 --> 00:12:59,600 Speaker 1: dinner with her, and after dinner I called my pet 208 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:04,360 Speaker 1: and I said, listen, Luke, how will I know, like, 209 00:13:04,800 --> 00:13:07,760 Speaker 1: what is the likelihood that I could actually like rupture 210 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:10,400 Speaker 1: my planter if it hurts during the marathon. And he 211 00:13:10,480 --> 00:13:16,000 Speaker 1: told me it's very unlikely. It's extremely unlikely that that's 212 00:13:16,040 --> 00:13:18,320 Speaker 1: going to happen, and I said, I'm just trying to envision, 213 00:13:18,400 --> 00:13:21,400 Speaker 1: like all scenarios, And as I got off the phone 214 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:23,240 Speaker 1: with him, and in probably like the hour and a 215 00:13:23,240 --> 00:13:25,559 Speaker 1: half to two hours between the end of that phone 216 00:13:25,559 --> 00:13:27,640 Speaker 1: call and when I went to bed and when I 217 00:13:27,679 --> 00:13:31,480 Speaker 1: hobbled back to the hotel after eating pasta, I just 218 00:13:31,600 --> 00:13:34,800 Speaker 1: like sat there and I thought about what it would 219 00:13:34,840 --> 00:13:35,760 Speaker 1: feel like if I had. 220 00:13:35,679 --> 00:13:36,760 Speaker 2: To pull out. 221 00:13:37,000 --> 00:13:40,120 Speaker 1: And I knew that there was a fine line between 222 00:13:41,679 --> 00:13:46,360 Speaker 1: what would be manageable pain or discomfort and the moment 223 00:13:46,520 --> 00:13:49,080 Speaker 1: that I would know in my gut that I could 224 00:13:49,080 --> 00:13:56,120 Speaker 1: be doing something that had long term debilitating effects. I 225 00:13:56,240 --> 00:14:00,439 Speaker 1: envisioned all of the possibilities. I envisioned what it could 226 00:14:00,520 --> 00:14:04,320 Speaker 1: feel like to walk off of the course, hobble off 227 00:14:04,360 --> 00:14:05,320 Speaker 1: of the course. 228 00:14:05,679 --> 00:14:08,760 Speaker 2: And walk into a med tent and talk to. 229 00:14:08,800 --> 00:14:12,160 Speaker 1: A group of people with tears streaming down my face 230 00:14:12,200 --> 00:14:14,720 Speaker 1: about the fact that I couldn't keep going. And I 231 00:14:14,960 --> 00:14:17,440 Speaker 1: thought about what it could feel like to maybe be 232 00:14:17,520 --> 00:14:20,240 Speaker 1: in pain but also know that the pain was manageable 233 00:14:20,240 --> 00:14:21,000 Speaker 1: and that I could finish. 234 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:21,880 Speaker 2: And I thought about what. 235 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:24,840 Speaker 1: It might feel like in the miraculous situation that the 236 00:14:24,840 --> 00:14:26,520 Speaker 1: pain was gone, when I would wake up in the 237 00:14:26,600 --> 00:14:30,040 Speaker 1: morning and it would just be excellent. I thought about 238 00:14:30,080 --> 00:14:34,560 Speaker 1: all of it, and I also thought about how grateful 239 00:14:34,680 --> 00:14:37,800 Speaker 1: I was to even have the opportunity to start, and 240 00:14:37,840 --> 00:14:43,240 Speaker 1: how so many people would have killed to have that 241 00:14:43,280 --> 00:14:47,720 Speaker 1: same chance, right, And I think what's important to stress 242 00:14:47,720 --> 00:14:52,000 Speaker 1: here is that you can be both grateful and frustrated. 243 00:14:52,080 --> 00:14:55,880 Speaker 1: You can feel both thankful and angry, you can feel 244 00:14:55,920 --> 00:14:59,440 Speaker 1: both right. And that's exactly how I felt when I 245 00:14:59,520 --> 00:15:02,640 Speaker 1: got in to my bed and I saw the light 246 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:06,280 Speaker 1: like sneaking in off of Piccadilly Circus, and I thought 247 00:15:06,360 --> 00:15:09,240 Speaker 1: to myself, like, this is just how it is now. 248 00:15:09,960 --> 00:15:13,760 Speaker 1: And I knew that, despite laying there with like literally 249 00:15:13,920 --> 00:15:17,240 Speaker 1: tears in my eyes, that there was nothing I could 250 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:20,080 Speaker 1: do accept the things that were within my control. I 251 00:15:20,160 --> 00:15:23,200 Speaker 1: was done being mad about the things that I had 252 00:15:23,320 --> 00:15:27,960 Speaker 1: absolutely no power over, absolutely done with it, right, because 253 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:30,920 Speaker 1: wasting that energy it just didn't do me any good. 254 00:15:31,360 --> 00:15:33,400 Speaker 1: It's like if I was to tell you, like tomorrow, 255 00:15:34,000 --> 00:15:36,760 Speaker 1: and this was a situation for the marathon, it's going 256 00:15:36,840 --> 00:15:40,480 Speaker 1: to rain tomorrow, right, you know that, right, It's gonna 257 00:15:40,520 --> 00:15:42,520 Speaker 1: rain tomorrow. There's absolutely nothing you can do about the 258 00:15:42,560 --> 00:15:45,120 Speaker 1: fact that it's going to rain tomorrow. So what do 259 00:15:45,160 --> 00:15:47,200 Speaker 1: you have the chance to do in that moment. You 260 00:15:47,240 --> 00:15:49,480 Speaker 1: can accept that it's going to rain tomorrow and envision 261 00:15:49,480 --> 00:15:52,080 Speaker 1: how you want to feel if it's going to rain tomorrow, 262 00:15:53,080 --> 00:15:55,600 Speaker 1: and think about the things that are within your power 263 00:15:55,640 --> 00:15:58,440 Speaker 1: to do. Or you can sit there and you can 264 00:15:58,520 --> 00:16:00,400 Speaker 1: be angry, and you can decide that you're just going 265 00:16:00,440 --> 00:16:02,280 Speaker 1: to sulk in the fact that it's going to rain tomorrow. 266 00:16:03,080 --> 00:16:06,160 Speaker 1: And I wasn't going to do that anymore, And so 267 00:16:06,240 --> 00:16:11,640 Speaker 1: that was it. I woke up on Sunday, and I 268 00:16:11,680 --> 00:16:16,280 Speaker 1: got dressed, and I took my ibuprofen, and I uber 269 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:19,680 Speaker 1: eate some coffee, and I ate a peanut butter and 270 00:16:19,760 --> 00:16:22,240 Speaker 1: jelly sandwich, and I put on my clothes and I 271 00:16:22,280 --> 00:16:24,280 Speaker 1: did the best I could with what I had, and 272 00:16:24,320 --> 00:16:28,840 Speaker 1: I grabbed my poncho, thinking that it may rain, and 273 00:16:28,920 --> 00:16:33,440 Speaker 1: I hopped on the tube and transferred to another train 274 00:16:33,880 --> 00:16:36,760 Speaker 1: and got to the start. And up until I got 275 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:38,440 Speaker 1: to the start, I was thankful that I was with 276 00:16:38,600 --> 00:16:41,280 Speaker 1: some friends of mine, but each of us happened to 277 00:16:41,280 --> 00:16:44,760 Speaker 1: be in different corrals. So once I got to the 278 00:16:44,800 --> 00:16:47,680 Speaker 1: starting village, I had an hour with me and myself 279 00:16:47,680 --> 00:16:50,600 Speaker 1: and my thoughts and so I sat there and I 280 00:16:50,680 --> 00:16:53,400 Speaker 1: just tried to do some breathing and a lot of 281 00:16:53,440 --> 00:16:59,880 Speaker 1: stretching and a lot of warming up, and I radically 282 00:17:00,440 --> 00:17:05,280 Speaker 1: accepted what was about to happen. It is such a 283 00:17:05,320 --> 00:17:07,880 Speaker 1: bizarre feeling to accept the unknown, right. 284 00:17:08,240 --> 00:17:12,880 Speaker 2: It was truly it was. 285 00:17:13,680 --> 00:17:15,960 Speaker 1: I'm trying to put this into words because I don't 286 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:18,320 Speaker 1: know if I still I think I'm still trying to 287 00:17:18,600 --> 00:17:23,240 Speaker 1: comprehend the growth that occurred for me, not only the 288 00:17:23,320 --> 00:17:26,359 Speaker 1: morning before I crossed the starting line, but over the 289 00:17:26,359 --> 00:17:29,560 Speaker 1: course of the race. Because the growth that happened for 290 00:17:29,640 --> 00:17:34,080 Speaker 1: me was truly something that I don't think how I 291 00:17:34,160 --> 00:17:36,360 Speaker 1: respond to this situation. It was something that I wasn't 292 00:17:36,400 --> 00:17:39,159 Speaker 1: capable a few years ago. And so that place of 293 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:43,000 Speaker 1: radical acceptance, me being okay with knowing that I couldn't 294 00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:48,480 Speaker 1: control what happened next, that that was good for me, 295 00:17:48,760 --> 00:17:50,920 Speaker 1: that was special for me. And so yeah, I started. 296 00:17:50,960 --> 00:17:54,120 Speaker 1: I ran into a teammate from New York in literally 297 00:17:54,200 --> 00:17:56,720 Speaker 1: like one hundred yards out from the start. We walked 298 00:17:56,720 --> 00:17:59,720 Speaker 1: there together and we were off and it began, and 299 00:18:00,119 --> 00:18:03,000 Speaker 1: you know, it began almost like any other marathon, and 300 00:18:03,040 --> 00:18:06,160 Speaker 1: that was kind of serendipitous. It began with me going 301 00:18:06,200 --> 00:18:09,440 Speaker 1: out a little too fast and being excited and going 302 00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:12,800 Speaker 1: on my way, and literally there wasn't a single point 303 00:18:12,880 --> 00:18:15,840 Speaker 1: during that entire marathon if I'm going to speak to 304 00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:18,919 Speaker 1: like what I feel about the London Marathon as a whole. 305 00:18:19,400 --> 00:18:22,840 Speaker 1: There were spectators and people cheering along the entire course. 306 00:18:22,960 --> 00:18:27,320 Speaker 1: I felt so supported, especially in the second half. There 307 00:18:27,400 --> 00:18:29,640 Speaker 1: were moments if I had to pick out, like one 308 00:18:29,640 --> 00:18:31,840 Speaker 1: thing that rubbed me the wrong way, that the course 309 00:18:31,920 --> 00:18:35,760 Speaker 1: got pretty skinny, so to speak, and the field would 310 00:18:35,800 --> 00:18:38,800 Speaker 1: have to narrow into like four or five people wide, 311 00:18:38,840 --> 00:18:41,440 Speaker 1: and then it opened back up again. That would probably 312 00:18:41,480 --> 00:18:43,800 Speaker 1: be my only critique of the entire course. But other 313 00:18:43,880 --> 00:18:47,199 Speaker 1: than that, the marathon itself was beautiful. The crowd's energy 314 00:18:47,320 --> 00:18:51,399 Speaker 1: was electric, and I really loved how it took me 315 00:18:51,560 --> 00:18:53,920 Speaker 1: through so many different parts of London that I had 316 00:18:53,960 --> 00:19:01,680 Speaker 1: never been to. I would say that maybe around mile 317 00:19:01,800 --> 00:19:05,400 Speaker 1: sixteen was the first time that I like really started 318 00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:10,400 Speaker 1: to think about the pain in my heel. And at 319 00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:14,200 Speaker 1: this point I had been like running something like eight 320 00:19:14,520 --> 00:19:16,680 Speaker 1: eight thirty eight forty five miles. 321 00:19:16,680 --> 00:19:17,640 Speaker 2: I'm not entirely sure. 322 00:19:17,640 --> 00:19:20,159 Speaker 1: I'm not staring at my splits right now as I 323 00:19:20,359 --> 00:19:24,160 Speaker 1: talking to this microphone. But my only goal, as I said, 324 00:19:24,320 --> 00:19:29,800 Speaker 1: was to go out and complete this marathon. 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And I 381 00:22:55,119 --> 00:22:57,280 Speaker 1: noticed that so many times when I would go to 382 00:22:57,320 --> 00:23:00,080 Speaker 1: do that gut check with myself, I was literally running 383 00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:04,320 Speaker 1: and smiling and I laughed thinking about Kipchogi and how 384 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,399 Speaker 1: he's so known for that right and like, no wonder 385 00:23:06,440 --> 00:23:08,520 Speaker 1: why he looks like he's having such a good time, 386 00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:11,560 Speaker 1: because he genuinely is, and he's like exhibiting that to 387 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:13,399 Speaker 1: the crowd. And I felt like I was doing that 388 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:15,639 Speaker 1: as well, Like I mean, let's not compare myself to 389 00:23:15,680 --> 00:23:19,680 Speaker 1: Kipchoki here, but just looking around and truly being happy 390 00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:23,199 Speaker 1: with the fact that, like I was so aware, Like 391 00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:26,440 Speaker 1: I was so aware of my surroundings, and I high 392 00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:31,960 Speaker 1: fived a zillion small children, and I like randomly took 393 00:23:32,119 --> 00:23:35,520 Speaker 1: candy from strangers. Yeah, saying that out loud makes me 394 00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:39,400 Speaker 1: feel some kind of way. But gummies and small chocolates 395 00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:44,720 Speaker 1: and the water and yeah, everything right, And again sixteen 396 00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:46,879 Speaker 1: comes and the pain starts to hit. And when the 397 00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:51,000 Speaker 1: pain starts to hit, it's familiar. It's something that I 398 00:23:51,080 --> 00:23:53,320 Speaker 1: know that I have run through before it and can 399 00:23:53,400 --> 00:23:58,040 Speaker 1: run through again. That persists for the rest. 400 00:23:58,000 --> 00:23:58,639 Speaker 2: Of the run. 401 00:23:58,840 --> 00:24:00,639 Speaker 1: So when you're at mile six and you're running a 402 00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:02,840 Speaker 1: twenty six mile race, you have ten miles left, that 403 00:24:02,960 --> 00:24:05,600 Speaker 1: means that give or take, you know, I'm so bad 404 00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:07,800 Speaker 1: at math. I knew I had at least an hour 405 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:10,920 Speaker 1: and a half of running left, and so I really 406 00:24:11,280 --> 00:24:15,280 Speaker 1: really shifted my focus into finding the fun. I thought 407 00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:18,679 Speaker 1: that if I got outside of my body and I 408 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:23,399 Speaker 1: paid attention to my surroundings and I allowed others to 409 00:24:23,520 --> 00:24:26,160 Speaker 1: lift me up on my way, that I would get 410 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:29,880 Speaker 1: to where I wanted to go and what an applicable takeaway, right, 411 00:24:30,440 --> 00:24:33,879 Speaker 1: What an applicable takeaway it is to allow others to 412 00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:37,240 Speaker 1: help you when you need help. I know I'm not 413 00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:39,280 Speaker 1: the only person that struggles with that, right. I know 414 00:24:39,400 --> 00:24:41,600 Speaker 1: that I'm not the only person who wants to be 415 00:24:41,720 --> 00:24:44,080 Speaker 1: able to take care of things for themselves. 416 00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:46,000 Speaker 2: But in this moment, it was. 417 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:50,119 Speaker 1: Such an important reminder for me to allow other people 418 00:24:50,160 --> 00:24:54,360 Speaker 1: to show up for me. I needed them period. Somewhere 419 00:24:54,400 --> 00:24:57,919 Speaker 1: around this point in time during the marathon, I spot 420 00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:00,359 Speaker 1: my good friend that I'm traveling with like up ahead 421 00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:00,600 Speaker 1: of me. 422 00:25:00,720 --> 00:25:02,800 Speaker 2: I get a burst of energy. I sprint up to 423 00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:04,600 Speaker 2: catch her. It's so good to see her. 424 00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:10,080 Speaker 1: I take a slew of paparazzi photos while running, and 425 00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:12,760 Speaker 1: then within seconds, I'm like, you think that you're going 426 00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:15,040 Speaker 1: to run seven thirties to run along with her? And 427 00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:19,399 Speaker 1: you are kidding yourself. So I release her and I continue, 428 00:25:19,840 --> 00:25:22,800 Speaker 1: And I realized that again in that moment, I fed 429 00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:24,960 Speaker 1: off of her energy and I needed to continue that. 430 00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:28,600 Speaker 1: So I would say, another two to three miles go by, 431 00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:31,440 Speaker 1: and at the end of that third mile, I take 432 00:25:31,480 --> 00:25:34,600 Speaker 1: out my AirPods and I commit. I commit to allowing 433 00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:38,320 Speaker 1: this to happen, I commit to allowing other people to 434 00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:41,120 Speaker 1: help me get to where I need to go. 435 00:25:41,800 --> 00:25:42,280 Speaker 2: The pain. 436 00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:45,840 Speaker 1: At this point I would say, like seven out of ten, 437 00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:51,840 Speaker 1: still manageable, not debilitating. But I would be remiss if 438 00:25:51,880 --> 00:25:54,240 Speaker 1: I didn't tell you that I was one hundred and 439 00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:58,639 Speaker 1: fifty percent like probably run limping a little bit. I 440 00:25:58,680 --> 00:26:00,800 Speaker 1: don't think it was super drafted, but I know that 441 00:26:00,840 --> 00:26:04,480 Speaker 1: I was definitely starting to favor my left side. In London, 442 00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:08,400 Speaker 1: a lot of the local running cruise running groups there 443 00:26:09,040 --> 00:26:11,880 Speaker 1: after mile twenty, which was great for me. In this instance, 444 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:14,440 Speaker 1: I saw a link to his episode in the show notes. 445 00:26:14,560 --> 00:26:17,720 Speaker 1: Charlie Dark the founder of Run Deem Crew, which is 446 00:26:17,760 --> 00:26:20,120 Speaker 1: a collective of runners based here in London. I saw 447 00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:22,240 Speaker 1: him at twenty one and the energy from him and 448 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:25,720 Speaker 1: his crew was electric. I think at mile twenty two, 449 00:26:26,720 --> 00:26:29,520 Speaker 1: another woman that was from New York. She runs with 450 00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:32,560 Speaker 1: a group called Rage and Release. She cheered for me, 451 00:26:32,720 --> 00:26:35,840 Speaker 1: she said, referencing my tank tops. She said, all right, 452 00:26:35,880 --> 00:26:37,520 Speaker 1: old Man. I run with a group called Old Man 453 00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:39,920 Speaker 1: Run Club in New York. And I heard her and 454 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:43,400 Speaker 1: in the string of ten minute miles, which was what 455 00:26:43,520 --> 00:26:46,119 Speaker 1: I was where I was at at that moment I 456 00:26:46,160 --> 00:26:49,320 Speaker 1: look at like now, back at the readout from my 457 00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:51,919 Speaker 1: Strava and my garment, and there's like an eight thirty 458 00:26:51,920 --> 00:26:55,719 Speaker 1: there in that eight thirties entirely because of her motivating 459 00:26:55,760 --> 00:26:59,400 Speaker 1: me to keep going, and the rest of it between 460 00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:04,400 Speaker 1: twenty two in twenty six was truly heart like. There's 461 00:27:04,560 --> 00:27:08,080 Speaker 1: no there's no other way to really put that right, 462 00:27:08,119 --> 00:27:11,359 Speaker 1: there's no other way to articulate it. Like for me, 463 00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:15,440 Speaker 1: when I think about what got me through those four miles, 464 00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:17,160 Speaker 1: it was it was. 465 00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:20,840 Speaker 2: It was knowing that I could. 466 00:27:21,880 --> 00:27:25,120 Speaker 1: It didn't feel good right, but what did feel good 467 00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:27,679 Speaker 1: was paying attention to what was going on around me. 468 00:27:27,760 --> 00:27:30,359 Speaker 1: What did feel good was the smiles and the cheers 469 00:27:30,400 --> 00:27:33,359 Speaker 1: coming from the crowd. What did feel good was knowing 470 00:27:33,440 --> 00:27:36,240 Speaker 1: that once I got to twenty two, there was absolutely 471 00:27:36,240 --> 00:27:38,280 Speaker 1: nothing that was going to stop me from getting to 472 00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:42,800 Speaker 1: twenty six point two, absolutely nothing. And when I accepted that, 473 00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:44,800 Speaker 1: and when I knew that deep in my gut and 474 00:27:44,840 --> 00:27:47,520 Speaker 1: deep in my soul, then the only thing that I 475 00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:50,240 Speaker 1: had left to do was truly believe, was to believe 476 00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:52,840 Speaker 1: in myself and to know that I had the opportunity 477 00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:54,919 Speaker 1: to do this thing that I didn't think that I 478 00:27:55,000 --> 00:28:01,199 Speaker 1: was genuinely capable of not you know, mentally, but physically 479 00:28:01,640 --> 00:28:08,840 Speaker 1: less than twenty four hours before, and so that's what happened. Surprisingly, 480 00:28:08,880 --> 00:28:11,440 Speaker 1: I wasn't obscenely emotional when I crossed the finish line. 481 00:28:11,440 --> 00:28:18,000 Speaker 1: I think I was just so so grateful, but I crossed, 482 00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:23,879 Speaker 1: and oh my god, I was so proud. Proud is 483 00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:28,240 Speaker 1: really an understatement. I was so thankful, so thankful that 484 00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:32,120 Speaker 1: my body allowed me to do this thing that I love, 485 00:28:32,800 --> 00:28:35,440 Speaker 1: so thankful that again, over a year and a half 486 00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:38,360 Speaker 1: in the making, I was finally able to cross off 487 00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:42,240 Speaker 1: this major moment from my bucket list, and more than anything, 488 00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:46,360 Speaker 1: proud of myself for the growth, proud of myself for 489 00:28:46,520 --> 00:28:52,880 Speaker 1: not worrying about the time or how it looked right 490 00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:57,760 Speaker 1: like f the aesthetics, that was just something that was 491 00:28:57,800 --> 00:29:02,400 Speaker 1: so not on my radar anything. When I think about 492 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:05,120 Speaker 1: this race, I think about that I really did it 493 00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:11,360 Speaker 1: for me on my terms. I don't know if there 494 00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:15,880 Speaker 1: has been a race, a run, a marathon that I 495 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:20,560 Speaker 1: have done since maybe my first marathon where I had 496 00:29:20,640 --> 00:29:23,880 Speaker 1: the same goal that I had on Sunday, which was 497 00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:29,480 Speaker 1: simply again to have fun and finish, and that despite 498 00:29:29,520 --> 00:29:32,880 Speaker 1: the things that I could not control is exactly what 499 00:29:33,160 --> 00:29:39,000 Speaker 1: I focused on. I stopped focusing on anybody else, and 500 00:29:39,080 --> 00:29:44,080 Speaker 1: I came back to come. I came back to the 501 00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:49,680 Speaker 1: notion that I got to I get to I get 502 00:29:49,720 --> 00:29:52,880 Speaker 1: to do this thing that makes me feel so empowered, 503 00:29:53,000 --> 00:30:00,120 Speaker 1: so strong, so capable, And how awesome of an opportunity 504 00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:06,840 Speaker 1: is that sitting here and reflecting on Sunday and knowing 505 00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:10,360 Speaker 1: that there are going to be a nice handful of 506 00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:14,920 Speaker 1: people that listen to these reflections. I really do believe 507 00:30:15,040 --> 00:30:18,480 Speaker 1: that the takeaway that feels the strongest, what I want 508 00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:24,440 Speaker 1: you to walk away from this episode knowing, is that 509 00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:30,280 Speaker 1: you've got to run for you. It's a beautiful thing 510 00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:32,600 Speaker 1: to dedicate your run to other people. It's a beautiful 511 00:30:32,600 --> 00:30:36,120 Speaker 1: thing to run for a good cause. But at the 512 00:30:36,280 --> 00:30:39,320 Speaker 1: end of the day, the journey is about you. 513 00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:40,240 Speaker 2: Period. 514 00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:47,760 Speaker 1: If running a marathon, going after any other goal isn't 515 00:30:47,800 --> 00:30:51,200 Speaker 1: something that lights your soul on fire, then you have 516 00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:54,440 Speaker 1: to ask yourself why are you doing it in the 517 00:30:54,480 --> 00:30:59,400 Speaker 1: first place. I showed up on Sunday despite the pain, 518 00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:04,120 Speaker 1: to spite my doubts, despite the unknown, because I knew 519 00:31:04,280 --> 00:31:07,880 Speaker 1: how important it was to me, and I went out 520 00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:11,080 Speaker 1: there on Sunday, and I did the thing that makes 521 00:31:11,080 --> 00:31:17,360 Speaker 1: me feel like me because it felt right. But when 522 00:31:17,360 --> 00:31:21,080 Speaker 1: we do things because of others or social media or 523 00:31:21,120 --> 00:31:25,320 Speaker 1: external pressures and we seek that external validation, it's not 524 00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:32,520 Speaker 1: gonna feel the same. And so I leave this recap well, 525 00:31:32,680 --> 00:31:34,040 Speaker 1: I know I need to tell you how I'm doing 526 00:31:34,080 --> 00:31:36,840 Speaker 1: right now after the after the fact, but before. 527 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:38,960 Speaker 2: We kind of get into that, I leave. 528 00:31:39,560 --> 00:31:43,560 Speaker 1: I leave this recap with a lot of gratitude and 529 00:31:44,440 --> 00:31:49,680 Speaker 1: a resounding perspective that I can do hard things and 530 00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:53,080 Speaker 1: that there is so much beauty in letting go of 531 00:31:53,120 --> 00:31:57,720 Speaker 1: the unknown and believing in the potential of possibility while 532 00:31:57,760 --> 00:32:00,840 Speaker 1: also being realistic. I'm never gonna tell you to be 533 00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:05,360 Speaker 1: like obscenely positive just to be positive again. I went 534 00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:10,280 Speaker 1: to bed crying on Saturday night, but I woke up 535 00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:13,880 Speaker 1: on Sunday ready with my whole heart to accept whatever 536 00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:18,240 Speaker 1: was going to happen next. And so whatever your big 537 00:32:18,280 --> 00:32:24,080 Speaker 1: goal is, your big, scary, hairy, audacious goal, I encourage 538 00:32:24,080 --> 00:32:27,920 Speaker 1: you to approach it with heart, to approach it with determination, 539 00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:32,160 Speaker 1: to approach it with grit, and know that you have 540 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,640 Speaker 1: to be your own biggest hype man. You have to 541 00:32:34,680 --> 00:32:38,480 Speaker 1: believe in you to go after the things that you want, 542 00:32:38,520 --> 00:32:42,160 Speaker 1: to show up with your whole heart. And that's exactly 543 00:32:42,160 --> 00:32:45,520 Speaker 1: what I did on Sunday. I gave it every little 544 00:32:45,560 --> 00:32:49,480 Speaker 1: bit of myself because I am worth that, and so 545 00:32:49,560 --> 00:32:52,920 Speaker 1: are you. How am I doing right now? I'm okay. 546 00:32:54,720 --> 00:33:00,040 Speaker 1: I'm again in Paris. I'm kind of limping around and 547 00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:04,560 Speaker 1: I have a date with my Pete next week. I 548 00:33:04,600 --> 00:33:07,960 Speaker 1: feel tight, but nothing that some stretching hasn't been helping with. 549 00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:11,440 Speaker 1: I've been using all of my recovery tools. I traveled 550 00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,440 Speaker 1: with a pair of normal tech go I've got a 551 00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:16,320 Speaker 1: small hyper rice go with me. I've got a bunch 552 00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:19,720 Speaker 1: of muscle sprays. I went and got a like massage yesterday. 553 00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:21,920 Speaker 2: So I'm doing the best I can with what I have, 554 00:33:22,120 --> 00:33:23,640 Speaker 2: just like I did before I showed up to the 555 00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:27,800 Speaker 2: starting line. And I'm okay. Am I thinking about running 556 00:33:27,800 --> 00:33:28,520 Speaker 2: anytime soon? 557 00:33:28,760 --> 00:33:34,200 Speaker 1: Absolutely not, But I am looking forward to trying out 558 00:33:34,200 --> 00:33:36,920 Speaker 1: some new stuff once I get home and really focusing 559 00:33:36,960 --> 00:33:42,080 Speaker 1: on on what feels good starting with though now, which 560 00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:44,640 Speaker 1: means that I've got a bottle of red wine I'm 561 00:33:44,640 --> 00:33:48,440 Speaker 1: staring at and uh some exploring to do. 562 00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:51,240 Speaker 2: Thank you. I can't say that enough. 563 00:33:51,240 --> 00:33:53,520 Speaker 1: Thank you, all of you, every single person that's listened 564 00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:55,520 Speaker 1: to this up until this point and that has supported 565 00:33:55,520 --> 00:33:59,440 Speaker 1: me on this journey. I cannot imagine at this point 566 00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:05,200 Speaker 1: now doing all this without the opportunity to interact with 567 00:34:05,200 --> 00:34:07,040 Speaker 1: all of you. So I'm grateful for that, and I 568 00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:10,719 Speaker 1: hope that me sharing my story and getting vulnerable about 569 00:34:10,719 --> 00:34:13,200 Speaker 1: what I've went through and what I will continue to 570 00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:17,640 Speaker 1: go through helps you as you conquer the hurdles that 571 00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:21,200 Speaker 1: are going to show up for you inevitably. 572 00:34:22,239 --> 00:34:22,560 Speaker 2: Again. 573 00:34:22,760 --> 00:34:25,640 Speaker 1: Questions, comments, concerns, thoughts. I want to hear them, and 574 00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:27,520 Speaker 1: I'd love for you to leave me a listener question, 575 00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:30,799 Speaker 1: leave me a voice message. The link to that is 576 00:34:30,840 --> 00:34:33,480 Speaker 1: in the show notes, and I know a Let me 577 00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:34,839 Speaker 1: just say this, now, what's next? 578 00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:36,399 Speaker 2: I don't have an answer for you. Can we just. 579 00:34:36,360 --> 00:34:41,120 Speaker 1: Focus on the present. Let's focus on the present. At 580 00:34:41,120 --> 00:34:47,239 Speaker 1: Emily Abadi at Hurdle Podcast, Another Hurdle conquered. Catch you 581 00:34:47,320 --> 00:34:48,080 Speaker 1: guys next time.