WEBVTT - An Update From Jennie 0:00:01.680 --> 0:00:10.200 You're listening to I Choose Me with Jenny Garland. Hy, everybody, 0:00:11.160 --> 0:00:15.480 welcome to I Choose Me. I wanted to hop on 0:00:15.840 --> 0:00:20.560 and just give you guys an update because we've been 0:00:20.880 --> 0:00:25.360 flooded with you know, text messages and dms, people worrying 0:00:25.400 --> 0:00:30.080 about us, wondering how we're managing. So I just want 0:00:30.080 --> 0:00:33.320 to give you an update on these horrific fires that 0:00:33.360 --> 0:00:37.120 are happening here in southern California, and an update also 0:00:37.360 --> 0:00:42.040 on the I Choose Me Live event. So I'm gonna 0:00:42.040 --> 0:00:44.800 have my husband join me now because I don't know, 0:00:44.880 --> 0:00:48.680 I just need them buy me right now. Hey baby, Hi. 0:00:49.560 --> 0:00:52.479 Yeah, it's been a it's been a weird week, a 0:00:52.520 --> 0:00:55.640 weird start to twenty five, right, let's say the least. 0:00:55.760 --> 0:00:57.440 I thought this was going to be a good year. 0:00:57.840 --> 0:01:01.680 Yeah, we are jumping into it, all the resolutions and 0:01:02.000 --> 0:01:03.279 new beginnings and all that. 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:05.759 We thought this was going to be a great year. 0:01:05.840 --> 0:01:09.720 We were going in strong and so excited for what 0:01:09.920 --> 0:01:13.000 was to come, and then this just came out of nowhere. 0:01:13.160 --> 0:01:20.840 Yeah, mother Nature, has you pivot on your normally scheduled program? Yeah? 0:01:21.000 --> 0:01:23.240 Have you ever been in a situation like this, like 0:01:23.520 --> 0:01:27.240 a natural disaster? No, no, make you've been in hurricanes before. 0:01:27.240 --> 0:01:29.479 I grew up in Virginia Beach, Virginia and we went 0:01:29.520 --> 0:01:33.800 through some hurricanes, but you know, I was you sleep 0:01:33.840 --> 0:01:38.520 through them or you know nothing? Nothing this like, I mean, 0:01:38.560 --> 0:01:44.240 it's catastrophic. It's almost like biblical like what's happening? And 0:01:44.280 --> 0:01:47.520 it's still happening right now. It's you know, I mean, 0:01:47.520 --> 0:01:50.160 it's not over. We have another windstorm coming next week, 0:01:50.160 --> 0:01:52.320 and I think everyone's on edge. 0:01:52.440 --> 0:01:55.680 Yeah hopefully. Why don't we start like, how did this 0:01:55.720 --> 0:01:59.280 whole thing come into our life? Like on our radar? 0:01:59.360 --> 0:02:02.640 I don't even remember what was the how it started? 0:02:02.960 --> 0:02:06.920 Well, so, I you know, I know the news and 0:02:07.160 --> 0:02:09.520 this was being predicted on Monday, and they were telling 0:02:09.600 --> 0:02:12.240 us that it's going to be extreme winds and especially. 0:02:11.800 --> 0:02:14.040 Where we live, and we were getting prepared for all 0:02:14.120 --> 0:02:16.160 the strong wind warnings that we. 0:02:16.240 --> 0:02:19.560 Were just we are remodeling, so we have some stuff 0:02:19.560 --> 0:02:22.400 outside that we needed to tie down and kind of 0:02:22.400 --> 0:02:25.440 get a hold of. And Tuesday afternoon, the winds were 0:02:25.440 --> 0:02:29.160 picking up strong, and obviously the Palisades Fire had started, 0:02:30.040 --> 0:02:33.840 and we were all kind of glued to that watching that, 0:02:34.919 --> 0:02:37.480 not knowing I mean, I was reaching out to friends 0:02:37.480 --> 0:02:40.800 that I know. I know you were as well and 0:02:40.880 --> 0:02:45.160 giving us updates on Oh my children in school just 0:02:45.240 --> 0:02:48.200 burned down. And then it was so far away but 0:02:48.360 --> 0:02:52.720 so close, and it was about six o'clock. We had, 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:55.680 I think, we just ate kind of sitting around watching 0:02:55.720 --> 0:02:59.040 the news, and then a chair flew by outside and 0:02:59.120 --> 0:03:01.720 I thought to myself, wow, I didn't really tie down 0:03:01.720 --> 0:03:06.919 everything sufficiently, and I walked outside. I looked up and 0:03:07.320 --> 0:03:10.359 there was a fire and this was the Eating Canyon fire, 0:03:11.120 --> 0:03:16.000 and which at the time, you know, probably five miles away. 0:03:16.880 --> 0:03:19.840 We could see the flames though from our house it 0:03:19.880 --> 0:03:23.640 was like one range, one hill over. 0:03:23.960 --> 0:03:26.679 It felt like it felt like it was right next door. 0:03:26.840 --> 0:03:29.720 Yeah, it was really scary, and so I think that's 0:03:29.720 --> 0:03:31.760 when panic like set in. 0:03:32.040 --> 0:03:34.000 Definitely panic set in. Came back in. 0:03:34.160 --> 0:03:36.200 I was like, wait, I thought the fire was in 0:03:36.240 --> 0:03:39.640 the Palisads. We're not close to the Palistads, so we're fine. 0:03:39.680 --> 0:03:41.120 And then all of a sudden, and all of. 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:44.360 A sudden, Eating Kenyon broke out, which if anyone doesn't know, 0:03:44.400 --> 0:03:48.400 it's close to Altadena. My business partner has a house 0:03:48.400 --> 0:03:52.640 in Altadena. So I saw on the news that it 0:03:52.680 --> 0:03:55.360 was Eating Canyon I immediately called him. He did not answer. 0:03:56.000 --> 0:03:59.240 He sent me a text him and his wife or 0:03:59.600 --> 0:04:02.800 literally down the street we are getting bags and we 0:04:02.840 --> 0:04:05.760 will call you when we're safe. And so then that 0:04:06.040 --> 0:04:09.640 caused us to kind of go into heightened right. 0:04:09.800 --> 0:04:14.640 You know, what is wild is that all of our 0:04:14.760 --> 0:04:19.960 daughters were here with us under this roof, because well 0:04:20.000 --> 0:04:21.960 two of them live with us, but Luca had flown 0:04:22.000 --> 0:04:25.320 in to help me with the I Choose Me Live event. 0:04:26.320 --> 0:04:28.760 So it just happened that we were all here, which 0:04:29.880 --> 0:04:32.600 is never I know, but that's it was such a 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:36.360 good thing. I think I felt a little secure, more 0:04:36.400 --> 0:04:39.719 secure just knowing that they were all near me and 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:40.960 I could protect them. 0:04:41.200 --> 0:04:43.960 We could protect them, and we hadn't been like that 0:04:44.000 --> 0:04:45.039 since COVID. 0:04:45.920 --> 0:04:49.600 When did we realize everything is such a blur, like 0:04:49.680 --> 0:04:50.359 a timeline. 0:04:50.360 --> 0:04:53.760 I can't, I think everybody because this is so fresh. 0:04:53.800 --> 0:04:56.240 I think for everybody. I think we're all as a 0:04:56.279 --> 0:05:02.200 city in a state of trauma, shock, shock, drama. 0:05:02.480 --> 0:05:05.599 I feel numb. Everybody I have talked to you says 0:05:05.960 --> 0:05:08.560 they just feel numb. And I can so relate because 0:05:09.880 --> 0:05:15.320 you're so shocked, and then you just feel immobilized, and 0:05:15.440 --> 0:05:17.000 like with fear. 0:05:16.800 --> 0:05:19.480 And you want to help, and how can I help? 0:05:20.240 --> 0:05:26.359 And so after I called my business partner, he told me, 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:32.200 we have a friend that lives another like probably on 0:05:32.279 --> 0:05:36.880 another ridge that we are close to, and he was 0:05:36.920 --> 0:05:40.360 given us updates. So basically he was a little closer. 0:05:40.440 --> 0:05:42.240 He was a little closer. He could see it. He 0:05:42.400 --> 0:05:45.360 saw that the wind direction was moving away from us. 0:05:47.480 --> 0:05:50.719 But then later on at night, we know that it switched. 0:05:50.800 --> 0:05:53.960 It switched. That's the thing that's so wild about these fires. 0:05:54.040 --> 0:05:57.400 You're on one side of it, and you're a mile away, 0:05:57.480 --> 0:05:59.919 two miles away, three miles away, and then all the 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:03.280 sudden the wind will swirl or switch and the wind 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:05.040 is just insane. 0:06:05.520 --> 0:06:07.719 And on Tuesday night we had wind guts up to 0:06:07.760 --> 0:06:09.240 eighty to ninety miles an hour. 0:06:09.400 --> 0:06:13.200 So yeah, I felt like our house was going to 0:06:13.920 --> 0:06:16.240 fly away, crumble, break every wall. 0:06:16.320 --> 0:06:18.680 I thought all of our windows were going to explode. 0:06:18.880 --> 0:06:21.560 Absolutely, So the kids were terrified. 0:06:21.640 --> 0:06:25.280 Everybody was terrified. But we weren't getting We didn't get 0:06:25.320 --> 0:06:26.839 an evacuation notice yet. 0:06:26.880 --> 0:06:28.039 We were just sitting tight. 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:31.680 But we did start to prepare, so we did start 0:06:31.760 --> 0:06:34.120 making bags. I got all the cars. 0:06:34.240 --> 0:06:35.960 Well, you I think you were the first one to 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:40.160 start packing bags. Like I just was just like I 0:06:40.320 --> 0:06:43.560 couldn't function. I was so freaked out. 0:06:43.920 --> 0:06:47.599 Well, yeah, I had some people calling me and then 0:06:47.960 --> 0:06:51.400 talking to you know, Johnny, and then you got all 0:06:51.600 --> 0:06:55.880 our friend Kevin, and by that time it was you know, 0:06:56.040 --> 0:06:58.640 a thirty nine, So we had grad we could gradually 0:06:58.720 --> 0:07:02.920 start to prepare. We did, got to be around one o'clock. 0:07:02.960 --> 0:07:07.000 The family, the girls, you everybody was getting pretty nervous. Still, 0:07:07.120 --> 0:07:10.320 no evacuation we had had, like I don't know at 0:07:10.320 --> 0:07:12.640 that time if we had a warning, but we were 0:07:12.680 --> 0:07:16.520 definitely smelling smoke. You could see the fire warning. We 0:07:16.560 --> 0:07:17.080 had a warning. 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:19.600 It wasn't like evacuation mandatory. 0:07:19.640 --> 0:07:22.440 By yeah, that's right. And so you could start to 0:07:22.480 --> 0:07:24.640 smell the smoke. You could start, you could definitely you 0:07:24.640 --> 0:07:27.680 could see it the whole time. So we all made 0:07:27.680 --> 0:07:30.920 a decision. We called Peter and we all made a 0:07:30.920 --> 0:07:34.280 decision to go over there. I made a decision to 0:07:34.320 --> 0:07:37.640 stay back and stay the night here because we do 0:07:37.760 --> 0:07:40.880 have a sick dog, she's fourteen. We didn't want to 0:07:40.880 --> 0:07:45.120 move her. So you and the girls, you all drove 0:07:45.160 --> 0:07:46.680 separate and you went to Peter's. 0:07:46.880 --> 0:07:49.120 Yeah, we took all the cards that we could and 0:07:49.200 --> 0:07:52.240 left you one because you had filled up both of 0:07:52.280 --> 0:07:52.920 the trucks. 0:07:53.080 --> 0:07:54.280 I had both the trucks filled. 0:07:54.320 --> 0:07:57.360 Yeah, and I was like ripping pictures off the walls. 0:07:57.480 --> 0:07:58.760 Our walls are all still bare. 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:03.480 Hours later when we had we were fortunate to come 0:08:03.800 --> 0:08:07.800 back to the house in the morning, but you all 0:08:07.840 --> 0:08:11.040 spent the night at Peter's. I stayed here. I tried 0:08:11.040 --> 0:08:13.520 to set an alarm for every two hours to keep updated. 0:08:14.200 --> 0:08:16.040 I woke up at four o'clock in the morning and 0:08:16.120 --> 0:08:19.960 seeing that, oh, from our window, I couldn't see any 0:08:20.240 --> 0:08:23.520 actual fire. I could just see smoke. So I was like, oh, 0:08:23.560 --> 0:08:26.480 that's a good thing because it was gone. And then 0:08:26.640 --> 0:08:28.640 six point thirty in the morning I got a notification. 0:08:30.240 --> 0:08:31.960 My friend reached out to me, who was on the 0:08:32.000 --> 0:08:37.360 other side. He was like, we are leaving, We are 0:08:37.360 --> 0:08:39.880 getting out of here. It's a little it's very close. 0:08:39.880 --> 0:08:42.199 In my then we had had a full on evacuation. 0:08:42.280 --> 0:08:47.360 Where we were that morning was a blur, just trying 0:08:47.360 --> 0:08:51.360 to get everything situated and get everything out and get 0:08:51.440 --> 0:08:57.200 to you while also, you know, it's surreal thinking that 0:08:57.360 --> 0:09:00.160 you're not going to see your place ever again. And 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:04.640 that's why it's so it's so difficult because our house 0:09:05.120 --> 0:09:06.959 did survive, and yeah. 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:09.960 Do you feel like I feel kind of like guilty, 0:09:10.320 --> 0:09:13.679 a little bit of survivor guilt like that my house, 0:09:13.720 --> 0:09:17.600 that our house survived. I feel so bad for everybody 0:09:17.880 --> 0:09:21.200 who doesn't have a home now and everything is gone, 0:09:21.840 --> 0:09:26.400 and I feel like, how can I possibly even be 0:09:26.480 --> 0:09:27.199 happy again? 0:09:27.320 --> 0:09:32.160 Like I feel terrible for you know, the Palisades, the 0:09:32.200 --> 0:09:34.440 people that lost their home, but also the people that 0:09:34.600 --> 0:09:39.319 maintained that home, and the plumbers, the pool people, the 0:09:40.200 --> 0:09:44.160 cleaning services that now don't you know, they don't have 0:09:44.200 --> 0:09:46.920 a job. So it's a trickle down effect that that 0:09:47.440 --> 0:09:51.160 has just hit everybody in the city. And like I said, 0:09:51.240 --> 0:09:56.800 it's it's still not done. It's a it's slow and 0:09:56.960 --> 0:09:59.600 luckily right now this is Friday and we don't have 0:09:59.679 --> 0:10:00.920 wind like we did. 0:10:00.880 --> 0:10:04.440 But it's still so scary because new fires keep just 0:10:04.640 --> 0:10:08.560 popping up in the most random places around the city. 0:10:09.040 --> 0:10:12.679 When when that one in Hollywood on the Hollywood Hills 0:10:12.720 --> 0:10:16.400 came up, that was terrifying because that is like Palisades, 0:10:16.480 --> 0:10:19.600 another very very like densely populated area. 0:10:19.880 --> 0:10:25.720 Because we had evacuated in the valley to Peters and so. 0:10:25.679 --> 0:10:28.280 Now we once we were yeah, we were evacuated Peters, 0:10:28.280 --> 0:10:29.239 and we thought, okay. 0:10:28.960 --> 0:10:31.000 We're the next morning, and then. 0:10:31.559 --> 0:10:35.520 And then and then it changed, like all of a sudden. 0:10:35.520 --> 0:10:39.400 We were like, wait, we need to evacuate from our evacuated. 0:10:38.880 --> 0:10:42.240 Right And then we you know, that morning, which was 0:10:42.280 --> 0:10:46.640 Wednesday morning, around eleven, when I was back at Peters, 0:10:47.200 --> 0:10:51.920 said hello, and we had watched the news and it 0:10:52.000 --> 0:10:54.080 was still over by us, but it was you know, 0:10:54.160 --> 0:10:57.200 they were getting they were switching the direction. So I said, 0:10:57.240 --> 0:10:59.680 we have time to go come over here and get 0:10:59.720 --> 0:11:02.560 some more stuff. That's when we came over here around 0:11:02.640 --> 0:11:03.720 eleven thirty twelve. 0:11:04.480 --> 0:11:05.840 Oh, that's when I read that's. 0:11:05.720 --> 0:11:08.120 When you ripped off everything on the walls. And then 0:11:08.200 --> 0:11:10.600 we got pictures in big chests and we loaded up 0:11:10.640 --> 0:11:12.839 the truck and basically took I. 0:11:12.800 --> 0:11:15.480 Mean what I want. There were some strange things like 0:11:15.600 --> 0:11:17.840 what I was thinking in those moments because I was 0:11:18.559 --> 0:11:20.400 I didn't know what to take when we. 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:23.320 First initially shocked, because we were trying to get everything 0:11:23.880 --> 0:11:26.720 kind of going. I was doing sprinklers and stuff just 0:11:26.760 --> 0:11:30.200 to kind of you know, embers were flying five miles 0:11:30.200 --> 0:11:33.200 and we were a mile away from where this flame 0:11:33.360 --> 0:11:37.080 was so you know, tried to saturate that, and you 0:11:37.160 --> 0:11:39.679 were inside watering the plants. 0:11:40.520 --> 0:11:43.360 I thought, if the plants they they're going to feel 0:11:43.400 --> 0:11:45.440 sad from the fire and it's going to dry them out. 0:11:45.480 --> 0:11:47.319 And I don't know, I wasn't even thinking. 0:11:47.559 --> 0:11:50.960 I just think that that is another It's it's so 0:11:51.000 --> 0:11:53.000 surreal what's happening, and you just. 0:11:53.120 --> 0:11:56.079 In the in the panic moment, you know, you're. 0:11:55.480 --> 0:11:59.280 In a house where you look outside and it's a 0:11:59.440 --> 0:12:04.800 ominous glow of like fire and smoke, and it feels 0:12:04.840 --> 0:12:07.520 like the fire's like right next to you. 0:12:07.600 --> 0:12:10.720 Yeah, and that's when I think I just start shaking 0:12:10.840 --> 0:12:15.120 like uncontrollably. I could barely rip things off the walls. 0:12:15.200 --> 0:12:18.560 My hands were trembling like so much, and I and 0:12:18.600 --> 0:12:20.839 it was full blown sweating and panicking. 0:12:21.040 --> 0:12:23.000 Also, it's just so odd that, you know, when we're 0:12:23.040 --> 0:12:26.400 loading up the car, it's so quiet outside and. 0:12:26.280 --> 0:12:32.120 It's just still, and it's just eerie, ash falling, so eery, soery. 0:12:32.320 --> 0:12:34.720 I think I even went to the to the orange 0:12:34.760 --> 0:12:37.680 tree and tried to take off oranges to save them. 0:12:37.720 --> 0:12:38.240 I don't know. 0:12:38.360 --> 0:12:41.160 Some the girls were like when we were loading the 0:12:41.200 --> 0:12:43.920 truck and everybody was helping it was like, what are 0:12:43.920 --> 0:12:46.600 those oranges in the back of the truck. I was like, 0:12:47.000 --> 0:12:50.160 I don't My mom just picked like four oranges and 0:12:50.200 --> 0:12:51.439 threw them in the back of the truck. 0:12:51.880 --> 0:12:55.559 What did you think to take because it was kind 0:12:55.640 --> 0:12:58.880 of like every man for himself. And I saw that 0:12:58.920 --> 0:13:01.199 you had packed up some inches items as well. 0:13:01.720 --> 0:13:03.760 What like what was interesting, like. 0:13:03.760 --> 0:13:07.679 Your vintage Eagles sweatshirts and hats. 0:13:09.520 --> 0:13:13.160 Yeah, well, like you throw oranges in the back of 0:13:13.200 --> 0:13:17.400 the truck. I your brain is like, I don't know, 0:13:17.559 --> 0:13:19.520 but I know that I don't want to lose this. 0:13:19.600 --> 0:13:21.079 I don't want to lose this, and I don't want 0:13:21.080 --> 0:13:21.559 to lose that. 0:13:22.440 --> 0:13:26.079 And I took all our family pictures and memories, and 0:13:26.200 --> 0:13:29.160 you took your your sweatshirts in. 0:13:29.120 --> 0:13:33.880 Your head some vintage Eagle stuff that I couldn't get back. Well, 0:13:33.880 --> 0:13:35.080 I helped you with the pictures. 0:13:35.240 --> 0:13:37.720 You did you can. This is the thing. You were 0:13:37.800 --> 0:13:44.120 so amazing because you don't ever ask or like judge 0:13:44.320 --> 0:13:47.959 anything I do. Usually when the shit hits the fan 0:13:48.080 --> 0:13:49.960 and stuff, you're like, tell me what to do, I'll 0:13:49.960 --> 0:13:53.640 do it. You you were like a Sherpa from heaven, 0:13:54.280 --> 0:13:58.640 schlipping everything, loading heavy things into the back of the truck, well, 0:13:59.000 --> 0:14:01.560 organizing us and trying to keep us all calm. 0:14:01.920 --> 0:14:05.679 Yeah. Well, in those situations, you know, your brain is 0:14:06.280 --> 0:14:10.600 trying to rationalize it while also trying to be really 0:14:10.679 --> 0:14:15.960 quick and aware of what's going on and the unknown 0:14:16.080 --> 0:14:17.760 is it's crazy. 0:14:17.679 --> 0:14:20.680 When you're in that feeling of adrenaline rushing through you 0:14:20.760 --> 0:14:24.880 and you're scared and you just kind of pick random things. 0:14:24.920 --> 0:14:29.480 But I went straight for the pictures and uh things 0:14:29.520 --> 0:14:33.600 like that, and I didn't take clothes. I took one clothes, 0:14:33.720 --> 0:14:36.400 one outfit. I don't even know, no underwear. 0:14:37.080 --> 0:14:39.080 Well, look, there's the sound, Yeah I did you hear us? 0:14:39.080 --> 0:14:42.440 Hear that sound, the fire sound, And there's an app 0:14:42.480 --> 0:14:46.560 that everybody's been on and that like sound is seared 0:14:46.800 --> 0:14:50.080 like a notification warning and where another fire is popped 0:14:50.120 --> 0:14:54.120 up or what's going on here? But in true reflection 0:14:54.320 --> 0:14:59.400 of grabbing things, yeah, just when you when you're in 0:14:59.480 --> 0:15:03.720 that and you're trying to save what you need to save, right, 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:07.400 I guess there was really nothing we really needed to 0:15:07.440 --> 0:15:10.920 save because we were already all saved. The girls were fine. Yeah, 0:15:11.040 --> 0:15:17.360 you know, we were just getting convenient things. 0:15:17.880 --> 0:15:20.800 Oh yeah, you know, random, We had all the dog stuff. 0:15:20.800 --> 0:15:22.840 That was the most important thing to us, I think, 0:15:22.880 --> 0:15:25.840 and then the girls packed a bag. 0:15:26.760 --> 0:15:29.840 I just you know, just also thinking about the people 0:15:29.880 --> 0:15:33.080 who didn't have any time or the luxury. And it 0:15:33.120 --> 0:15:38.160 was so quick and it was literally the perfect storm 0:15:38.200 --> 0:15:40.840 in the Palisades. How that hit and then how it 0:15:40.960 --> 0:15:45.080 hit an in canyon and even it when. 0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:48.440 We were at Peter's house and we got that evacuation 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:52.200 warning for running his house. Yeah, when the running canyon 0:15:52.280 --> 0:15:56.840 came up, that was terrifying, Like. 0:15:57.040 --> 0:16:00.120 Well, everybody were right because it was close and you 0:16:00.160 --> 0:16:01.520 were close to that because. 0:16:01.320 --> 0:16:03.120 We were also like, where are we going to go? Now? 0:16:03.600 --> 0:16:04.560 It's the next plan. 0:16:04.520 --> 0:16:06.840 We had all gotten settled in. We all had a 0:16:06.840 --> 0:16:09.480 family dinner together, which was really nice. 0:16:09.600 --> 0:16:12.760 Yeah, I mean that was like a. 0:16:12.240 --> 0:16:14.200 We have we had all never done that before. 0:16:14.280 --> 0:16:17.120 Well we've done it, but this was not in his. 0:16:17.080 --> 0:16:18.760 Home or not in our home. 0:16:19.520 --> 0:16:21.119 I don't remember, but I feel. 0:16:20.840 --> 0:16:27.280 Like it was nice. Lily, the Jack, the girls, we 0:16:27.440 --> 0:16:30.400 ordered Chinese food. It was it was enjoyable in it 0:16:30.520 --> 0:16:34.800 for that brief moment we were not thinking about Yeah, we. 0:16:34.760 --> 0:16:36.520 Turned off the news for a minute and just sat 0:16:36.560 --> 0:16:37.960 as a family and tried to. 0:16:38.960 --> 0:16:52.960 Have you know, some sort of you know, normalcy. 0:16:49.080 --> 0:16:52.080 When we had Peter on the podcast and we really 0:16:52.120 --> 0:16:55.360 opened up some new channels of communication and you know, 0:16:55.440 --> 0:16:59.120 sort of had a kind of restart to what our 0:16:59.160 --> 0:17:04.119 relationship should be. I think that was amazing and that 0:17:04.280 --> 0:17:07.439 probably was the opening the door opening for us to 0:17:07.680 --> 0:17:10.600 be comfortable enough to even ask him, can we come 0:17:10.640 --> 0:17:14.800 and stay at your house? And without hesitation, he was 0:17:14.800 --> 0:17:18.159 like absolutely, And we went there and all our family 0:17:18.240 --> 0:17:20.680 was together. The girls, Luca, Lola, and Fiona were there, 0:17:21.000 --> 0:17:24.280 He was there, lily Is Beyonce was there, and Jack 0:17:24.520 --> 0:17:27.320 there almost their almost two year old son, and all 0:17:27.359 --> 0:17:32.359 of our dogs. So we all just sort of they 0:17:32.440 --> 0:17:36.600 we all just sort of really hunkered down and watched 0:17:36.640 --> 0:17:39.960 the news together and it was together. 0:17:40.119 --> 0:17:41.719 It was an enjoyable experience. 0:17:41.920 --> 0:17:45.520 I told, uh, I don't know enjoyable, Like could anything 0:17:45.760 --> 0:17:47.040 be enjoyable right now? 0:17:47.280 --> 0:17:50.159 I mean, I think that with everything going on in 0:17:50.200 --> 0:17:54.560 my brain, I was I was so grateful to be 0:17:55.920 --> 0:17:58.960 in his place and be safe, be safe, and the 0:17:59.000 --> 0:18:01.199 girls were safe and every but he was safe. It 0:18:01.280 --> 0:18:06.159 was like, oh, okay, yeah, let's make the best of this. 0:18:06.520 --> 0:18:08.600 I did ask you in bed, I was like, do 0:18:08.640 --> 0:18:11.119 you feel weird? Sleeping in your ex husband's house. 0:18:12.119 --> 0:18:15.920 I said, no, I really didn't at all. I didn't, 0:18:15.960 --> 0:18:17.760 but I do. I have a confession to make. 0:18:18.359 --> 0:18:18.760 I have a. 0:18:18.720 --> 0:18:23.080 Confession to make. So he I guess Lily had made 0:18:23.119 --> 0:18:27.679 some banana bread with chocolate chips in it, and it 0:18:27.760 --> 0:18:30.040 wasn't just sitting there on the counter and nobody was 0:18:30.040 --> 0:18:32.080 in the kitchen. So I kind of ate it all. 0:18:32.359 --> 0:18:35.280 Sorry, guys, Well, she had me go back in there. 0:18:35.480 --> 0:18:36.600 I had some and then I was. 0:18:36.600 --> 0:18:42.240 Like, we stayed in the guest house was private, it's 0:18:42.280 --> 0:18:44.080 like a back house. It was like a back house. 0:18:44.080 --> 0:18:48.160 It was a garage converted into a bed. It might 0:18:48.200 --> 0:18:50.880 smell like a campfire too, because all of our clothes 0:18:51.560 --> 0:18:55.440 when we got back where we smelled like a campfire. 0:18:56.800 --> 0:18:57.720 But they're all right. 0:18:58.359 --> 0:19:02.600 So going back to the banana bat first second, I 0:19:02.680 --> 0:19:05.399 know who eats the sweets and the banana breads in 0:19:05.440 --> 0:19:08.000 that house. And his name's Peter. So I went back 0:19:08.080 --> 0:19:10.119 later and I was like, hey, is there more banana bread? 0:19:10.720 --> 0:19:13.720 And he's like no, I think I think he got eaten. 0:19:13.880 --> 0:19:16.720 I've said who ate it all? And he was like, 0:19:16.760 --> 0:19:18.359 I don't know, I don't know. I said, oh, I 0:19:18.400 --> 0:19:20.560 know who ate it all and he gets up and 0:19:20.600 --> 0:19:22.160 he walks out and he leaves the room. He goes 0:19:22.160 --> 0:19:25.159 into the kitchen and I'm like, oh, okay, bye, and 0:19:25.200 --> 0:19:28.720 he comes back in with the tiniest little saran wrap 0:19:28.840 --> 0:19:33.639 back like wad, and it had literally one bite of 0:19:33.680 --> 0:19:36.159 banana bread left in it, and he gave it to me. 0:19:36.280 --> 0:19:38.840 You guys, he let me have the last bite that 0:19:38.880 --> 0:19:40.880 he was hiding for himself. 0:19:41.280 --> 0:19:45.400 That's so nice. I mean, that's so kind of him. 0:19:45.480 --> 0:19:48.359 The girls were making fun of him because I walked 0:19:48.359 --> 0:19:50.240 in from the guest house to get some water and 0:19:50.280 --> 0:19:54.920 then peanut butter filled pretzels with chocolate on top, and 0:19:55.119 --> 0:19:57.920 he's making a sandwich at eleven o'clock at night. 0:19:58.240 --> 0:19:59.960 Yeah. I think we were all stressed eating. 0:20:00.160 --> 0:20:03.080 Everybody was probably doing things that. 0:20:03.000 --> 0:20:05.840 They I have no plan to I have no plan 0:20:05.880 --> 0:20:06.720 to stop stress either. 0:20:06.840 --> 0:20:08.960 I didn't be in there because I was trying to 0:20:09.160 --> 0:20:11.680 go steal chocolate covered peanut butter bruds. 0:20:11.840 --> 0:20:15.119 I was not only stress eating. I was stressed vacuuming. 0:20:15.400 --> 0:20:18.000 Is that I mean, I guess that's good for my heart. 0:20:18.119 --> 0:20:22.160 Like I was exercising in some way, but I vacuumed 0:20:22.320 --> 0:20:26.160 this entire house like four times, just because I didn't 0:20:26.160 --> 0:20:26.760 know what else to do. 0:20:27.400 --> 0:20:29.200 I think at one point I was like, I have 0:20:29.280 --> 0:20:31.399 to I have to take a break from the news. 0:20:31.760 --> 0:20:33.800 I need to turn on and I had a phone, 0:20:34.600 --> 0:20:37.679 I had a phone and TV and I think you 0:20:37.760 --> 0:20:39.439 may have told me we need to take a break. 0:20:40.760 --> 0:20:43.320 Yeah, but it's almost impossible. 0:20:43.920 --> 0:20:47.240 Impossible, But we all kind of managed to keep our 0:20:47.320 --> 0:20:51.200 cool until we never got an evacuation like notice there. 0:20:51.240 --> 0:20:53.959 So I think that that was the most important, just 0:20:54.040 --> 0:20:58.600 listening to every instruction and just really adhering to it. 0:20:59.040 --> 0:21:00.840 And of course at that point we had to make 0:21:00.840 --> 0:21:05.200 the difficult decision to postpone the I Choose Me Live event. 0:21:05.359 --> 0:21:09.160 We've been working really, really always hard, and our whole team, 0:21:09.359 --> 0:21:12.600 everybody at iHeart, all my family members have been working 0:21:13.320 --> 0:21:18.639 to get us ready for the most exciting event that 0:21:18.680 --> 0:21:23.480 we were so proud to be throwing, and everything was 0:21:23.520 --> 0:21:27.200 falling into place with that, and then all of a 0:21:27.240 --> 0:21:32.400 sudden this happened and we had to make the decision. 0:21:32.640 --> 0:21:37.000 I think we made it on Wednesday that we needed 0:21:37.040 --> 0:21:40.879 to let it be known that we couldn't do the event. 0:21:41.080 --> 0:21:44.359 We had to postpone it. There was, I mean, not 0:21:44.480 --> 0:21:48.359 a question in anybody's mind that it was important to 0:21:48.440 --> 0:21:53.560 us that we kept our everybody involved safe, all the 0:21:53.640 --> 0:21:57.920 guests that were flying in, all the panelists that were 0:21:57.920 --> 0:22:02.720 flying in, and there to do it. It was not 0:22:03.560 --> 0:22:07.640 It was like, of course, this needs to be the decision, absolutely, 0:22:07.760 --> 0:22:10.480 But I still have to admit afterwards I felt like 0:22:11.280 --> 0:22:16.359 sort of like what now. I felt sort of. 0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:19.840 I think everybody in the city is in a what 0:22:20.040 --> 0:22:21.320 now place? 0:22:21.640 --> 0:22:25.240