Speaker 1: What's ladies, It's time for Woman on Tap with Delhian
Speaker 1: to kill us. So we are going to give a
Speaker 1: toast today to my angel Cody. Now, she has a
Speaker 1: new documentary out is called The Third Strike, and it
Speaker 1: follows her. She works with her all women's team of
Speaker 1: attorneys and they're working to a free men who have
Speaker 1: and women who have been in card serrated because it's
Speaker 1: a third strike rule. So basically, these are non violent
Speaker 1: drug offenders who have been sentenced to life in prison.
Speaker 1: So far, she's gotten over forty people out and she's
Speaker 1: one freedom for seventeen federal prisoners who have been unfairly
Speaker 1: sentenced to life without parole for drugs. That was all
Speaker 1: during the ninety Days of Freedom campaign. You know that
Speaker 1: because after Kim kardashi ain't got behind that. She was
Speaker 1: using her own money, right, because it does cost money
Speaker 1: to actually get these things done as an attorney, and
Speaker 1: she was trying to get this funded. Nobody was really
Speaker 1: coming on board to help, and then Kim Kardashian stepped in.
Speaker 1: So I know people would say Kim Kardashi into credit,
Speaker 1: blah blah blah, but really what she did was bring
Speaker 1: more attention to the work that my angel Cody was doing.
Speaker 1: So I just want to give a toast to her
Speaker 1: and make sure that everybody checks out the Third Strike
Speaker 1: documentary as she works with the Decarceration Collective that's her
Speaker 1: organization to make sure that these people who are serving
Speaker 1: life sentences without parole for non violent drug offenses are
Speaker 1: being treated uh and getting out because it's important. You know,
Speaker 1: they haven't done anything wrong. It's the third strike. It
Speaker 1: could be just a marijuana and now you gotta go
Speaker 1: to jail for life. Meanwhile, people who've done way worse
Speaker 1: things are getting out before you, which is ridiculous. And
Speaker 1: you know, when you watch the documentary, it also shows
Speaker 1: how that tears people's families apart once they are released,
Speaker 1: or what they go through while they have a loved
Speaker 1: one that's in prison that's not there to hold it
Speaker 1: down in the household. How families suffer because of that.
Speaker 1: So we want to give a toast to you, my angel,
Speaker 1: for all the amazing work that you have been doing. Cheers, Cheers,
Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? Is list service? I'm angela Yee,
Speaker 1: I'm Jig mcguarire, I'm Laurial, and I'm a little you know,
Speaker 1: is definitely like one of the members of Live Service already.
Speaker 1: So and it's sound nice to see you. Good seeing
Speaker 1: you too. I know it's been it's been some time, ladies,
Speaker 1: but everybody looks amazing. Y'all look good. You look everybody.
Speaker 1: Remember I'm in Philly, in Atlanta, I'm in Baltimore. You
Speaker 1: know good that damn Mountain technology. So let him know.
Speaker 1: How is everything gone with you? I know you know,
Speaker 1: last time we talked to you on the Breakfast Club,
Speaker 1: you talked about a lot of different things that was
Speaker 1: going on, and then we heard your song, you know, Heartbroken,
Speaker 1: So let's get into it. I released my single broken
Speaker 1: Heart or my Daughter's Birthday February one, and I did
Speaker 1: it at a time it was just like, you know,
Speaker 1: the pandemic was going on. Everybody was on the house arrest,
Speaker 1: everybody was on punishment. Everybody knew. Here. If somebody could say, oh,
Speaker 1: I went to the pandemic and I ain't go to nothing,
Speaker 1: that I want to know what you had and are
Speaker 1: you bottling it up and selling it? Because everybody that
Speaker 1: I know that I personally know, emotionally and mentally had
Speaker 1: the light like yo, you didn't know what was going
Speaker 1: on for me. From my standpoint was we were literally
Speaker 1: on tour. I had three tours set up. It was
Speaker 1: like set it off, Feminine four, and then I was
Speaker 1: doing a little mo show, just doing shows and stuff,
Speaker 1: and it was like literally booked for the year. So
Speaker 1: when we got the cart, they was saying, yo, you
Speaker 1: gotta get back, you know, to the East Coast. I
Speaker 1: was in l A. We were shooting me and the
Speaker 1: Femine Forward Girls with Heather Lowry and am Read. It
Speaker 1: was it was like a lot of us. We were
Speaker 1: literally shooting the cover for the Femine Forward Vibe. And
Speaker 1: I've been going to l A X for over twenty
Speaker 1: years to go to the airport and nobody be there.
Speaker 1: I thought the world was coming to it. And and
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you I was scared. You know. That
Speaker 1: movie was that movie where they shot in l A
Speaker 1: where the world came to it, And I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, my luck is so bad. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be the one that just tell my kids I love them.
Speaker 1: But butet when I you from l A still had
Speaker 1: to fly to New Orleans because they was like, well,
Speaker 1: we're gonna still do the play. Set it offline and
Speaker 1: I'm just like, well, they're talking about the world's coming
Speaker 1: to and everybody needs to get around their loved ones.
Speaker 1: Everybody wear mask spray. I didn't know what was going on,
Speaker 1: so it was like, we're gonna halt for two weeks.
Speaker 1: Two weeks turn to two months, two months turned to
Speaker 1: six months, six months turned to a year. So in
Speaker 1: between that I still had to be little mo because
Speaker 1: for everything was virtual. Then I became a virtual school
Speaker 1: teacher with my kids. That was the hardest part of
Speaker 1: it all. We got a lot of kids. It was
Speaker 1: like because my older my older daughters, I have one
Speaker 1: that's eighteen in college and one of sixteen that said
Speaker 1: old honists, so I literally don't have to worry about them.
Speaker 1: But my twelve year old son, my eight year old son,
Speaker 1: and my five year old that started kindergarten. When I
Speaker 1: say I look at celebrities on social media, were like,
Speaker 1: how come their kids are so good at mins? Beyond
Speaker 1: deem it time. We was literally in therapy at the
Speaker 1: beginning of the pandemic as well as still continuously. You know, um,
Speaker 1: you know, you just have your meetings and follow ups.
Speaker 1: Because I was like we're close and were family, but
Speaker 1: we never been this compact and kid go nowhere. You
Speaker 1: know what's crazy about all of that? Right, because you
Speaker 1: talked about your kids, you talked about work, but what
Speaker 1: about you personally? Because obviously I know, like little Mo,
Speaker 1: you always have seemed so strong to me, like outward
Speaker 1: me just everything that you've done in your life and
Speaker 1: that stil woman. You know, not seriously but like we
Speaker 1: don't really hear you too much as talking about like
Speaker 1: your vulnerabilities. And like we said, you know you did
Speaker 1: have a broken heart, So what was that like during
Speaker 1: that time? Because the pandemic did also give us a
Speaker 1: lot of time to just think, Yeah, the pandemic and
Speaker 1: my broken heart. Honestly, I use this time to heal.
Speaker 1: And this was the best thing that I could say
Speaker 1: happened to me in my twenty years plus being a
Speaker 1: little mouth. Because since I was fifteen, I've always been
Speaker 1: on tour my uncle if John p. Key, so I
Speaker 1: taught on the gospel circuit while I was in high school.
Speaker 1: I used to bray hair during the week and going
Speaker 1: toward during the weekend. Then after that I went to
Speaker 1: New York and I told with Guru and Primo and
Speaker 1: his team when they did Jasmine task. So I was
Speaker 1: seventeen eighteen nineteen on tour. Then after that I went
Speaker 1: on told missy Ellie. Then after that I was told
Speaker 1: everybody else. So I literally my ass down for twenty
Speaker 1: something years. So having to sit down for a year,
Speaker 1: you I'll have a baby and be out before the
Speaker 1: six weeks shots, so don't let nobody and I never
Speaker 1: chanced to sit my ass down. But when it got
Speaker 1: to the point where I had to sit down, I
Speaker 1: got to know myself more. What I like, I'm glad
Speaker 1: that I'm single. I'm glad that I'm no longer addicted
Speaker 1: to opious, Like this is a blessing. I'm getting my
Speaker 1: glow bank, so that healing process, like I needed to
Speaker 1: take the band aid off, so the wounds and the
Speaker 1: scars and everything that actually heal, because it's one thing
Speaker 1: to come out of something. But then you know you're
Speaker 1: just like, Okay, I'm not doing this no more. It
Speaker 1: always has to be something to replace what you're taken away.
Speaker 1: So if you take away something negative, it has to
Speaker 1: be replaced with the positive. So honestly, I'm like still
Speaker 1: healing because they're still triggers. I'd be like, nah, yo,
Speaker 1: I'm still with the ships. Right at the end of
Speaker 1: the day. I know how to conduct myself and I
Speaker 1: know how to carry myself more. And now I know
Speaker 1: what my hand calls for, so I expect more because
Speaker 1: I don't accept everything anymore. There you go, Well, what
Speaker 1: was the finest job when when it really takes you
Speaker 1: to leave? Because I remember watching Celebrity Rehab, I mean
Speaker 1: Celebrity um marriage because it's like, yeah, people marriage boot
Speaker 1: can and I lifted. I watched it religiously and I
Speaker 1: didn't even watch the show before that, and I watched
Speaker 1: it because of you mainly. And there were certain things
Speaker 1: that happened done there right now that like when we
Speaker 1: thought we were like mo running you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: and you stood and even after you even got shown
Speaker 1: certain things, you still stood. So what was the final
Speaker 1: thing that you just was like, listen, I can't take
Speaker 1: this no more. I'm leaving. And how did you stay
Speaker 1: so strong to stay away from this situation? Well, I've
Speaker 1: been whe I was leaving. But when you're filming that house,
Speaker 1: ain't no where you could run to literally in the
Speaker 1: middle of no where. Your phone, don't your work out there.
Speaker 1: You literally have to stand in that kitchen by the
Speaker 1: door with the wildfires because its office is back there
Speaker 1: and it's cameras everywhere, so I had nowhere to go.
Speaker 1: But honestly, that was a great part of my life
Speaker 1: that showed me, like I had to say to myself, buch,
Speaker 1: do you know who you are? Like, stop acting like
Speaker 1: you gotta pick up trash up the street taking home
Speaker 1: and clean it off and act like it's a treasure.
Speaker 1: You feel me, that's the only thing that come out
Speaker 1: from you. Ain't gonna go through that ship bit. Like
Speaker 1: I had to really have a heart to heart with myself,
Speaker 1: And when I looked back at some of the footage,
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, no, I know I was hot,
Speaker 1: I smoking hello week because to me now the clean,
Speaker 1: the sober, the lidi me, nah, it's not happening. I know,
Speaker 1: the alcohol everything played a fact and me just being
Speaker 1: so nauseou like okay. I basically honestly, when I look
Speaker 1: at it, I got my check, but I didn't have
Speaker 1: my respect until I stood on like okay with the show.
Speaker 1: Because after that week we did the Breakfast Club interview,
Speaker 1: Everybody's like, well, I thought everything was I was like, no,
Speaker 1: was fighting in the car for we got there, but
Speaker 1: I had to the show had an air, so I
Speaker 1: had to put on a front. But I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm tied a front tick Like I feel like he
Speaker 1: was so bold, And what I'm talking about specifically was
Speaker 1: when he was on the phone talking to another woman
Speaker 1: and tried to say it was like becausin or something
Speaker 1: like that, but he was buckled because he knew that
Speaker 1: the cameras was right there. What do you think, Like,
Speaker 1: did did y'all ever talk about that that made him
Speaker 1: think that what they wasn't film in at that particular time.
Speaker 1: I think that because you're in there and when you
Speaker 1: it's almost like a pandemic. You can't go anywhere, so
Speaker 1: you forget that. Oh shoot, you think that because y'all
Speaker 1: rerap production for the day, you'd be forgetting that them
Speaker 1: cameras is everywhere. You think that, oh they don't have
Speaker 1: it on us, because it was so much going on
Speaker 1: in the house, you honestly forget. But at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, you gotta know the blind spots because
Speaker 1: everybody was up to some ship. But don't get caught
Speaker 1: looking at my whole nigga over here. But yeah, that's
Speaker 1: all I'm just like you don't know you're on the
Speaker 1: balcony and not you not to balcony. You gotta know
Speaker 1: how to you mean. But at the same time, it
Speaker 1: was like I knew what was gonna I didn't know
Speaker 1: he was gonna play out or pan out. But when
Speaker 1: they presented me with the information, because the way they
Speaker 1: were so I would say sensitive to they knew what
Speaker 1: I was dealing with. Now, doctors would pull me to
Speaker 1: the side and dr ish literally. So he said, as
Speaker 1: soon as you realize who you are, you're gonna change
Speaker 1: the world and it's gonna start with gets. And I
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, what do you mean by that? They
Speaker 1: was trying to say MO like, oh my god, we
Speaker 1: can't tell you to leave the situation, but we can
Speaker 1: encourage you to love yourself more So, I honestly was
Speaker 1: thinking I was loving myself because I was like, well,
Speaker 1: I get my hair done, I keep these nails, did
Speaker 1: I keep these brows? Wax? I keep this COUCHI you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Together, I didn't you know. I
Speaker 1: was all living. But at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: was just like inside a broken heart and you're trying
Speaker 1: to smile through it, and you have kids and you
Speaker 1: still have to please the world, but you don't even
Speaker 1: like yourself or the image that is being put out there.
Speaker 1: It has to be everybody has a breaking point where
Speaker 1: you like, enough is enough. And I'm pi that I
Speaker 1: had my enough is enough moment before y'all be like damn,
Speaker 1: like more was like before I lost myself, before I
Speaker 1: went to fire. And that's so too, because no one
Speaker 1: can make you leave when you're not ready to leave.
Speaker 1: Anybody could tell you leave him, and we've all done
Speaker 1: that with our girlfriends where we're like, why is she
Speaker 1: still with him? She need to leave him. But until
Speaker 1: a person is ready to leave, it no matter what
Speaker 1: you say, and even even in work relationships, like I'm
Speaker 1: watching a lot of things play out right on social
Speaker 1: media with people in work situations where it might be
Speaker 1: you know, harassment, it could be abusive situations, and it's
Speaker 1: really hard when you don't have support and you feel
Speaker 1: like you're by yourself if you try to do something.
Speaker 1: This person has so much power that nothing's gonna happen,
Speaker 1: and you can speak out and say whatever, but nobody
Speaker 1: is gonna be there to be like, you know what,
Speaker 1: she's right, and then you do speak out and you
Speaker 1: get attacked and people act like something's wrong with you,
Speaker 1: as I just feel like and I remember you said
Speaker 1: it was just a breaking place where he's actually spent
Speaker 1: on you. Yeah. The day we got back from the
Speaker 1: West Coast August twenty six or seven, twenty eighteen, because
Speaker 1: the show came out in twenty nineteen, like we were
Speaker 1: like as soon as we get back, because the kids
Speaker 1: haven't seen us for like thirty days. My daughter said
Speaker 1: came down, my niece that came down, and my nieces,
Speaker 1: my twins. So I was so excited for me to
Speaker 1: be there. And it's like as soon as we land,
Speaker 1: we're having a family day. Everybody was hyped up lending kids.
Speaker 1: We still went out, but that person ain't show up,
Speaker 1: and so I'm just like, Yo, what the hell going on?
Speaker 1: Like this this weird? Like bro, we all have the
Speaker 1: details because they give you a couple of days before
Speaker 1: you fly back home to like kind of get back
Speaker 1: to yourself because it's honestly, it's so intense. You're just like, yo,
Speaker 1: I really need to breathe. So when the family day
Speaker 1: was just with me and the kids, I was like, Nah,
Speaker 1: that's unacceptable. And I was like I still have the
Speaker 1: audio because I had to play that in the municipal
Speaker 1: court in Philadelphia, because when I got my order protection
Speaker 1: and I had to do it in Maryland, like the
Speaker 1: case worker was like turn it off, like she could?
Speaker 1: Is that bad? Like somebody to like not even like
Speaker 1: talking this spitflyer. You'd be like, I'm like, but like
Speaker 1: one of those like a huge yeah, I'm so sorry
Speaker 1: you had to go through that, and I'm I'm glad
Speaker 1: that you're on the other end of this now and
Speaker 1: that you made it through. And let me ask you
Speaker 1: this when it comes to filing or because I held
Speaker 1: sometimes we are so reluctant to actually like go and
Speaker 1: do things like that because we don't want to involve
Speaker 1: the system, right so and it needs to be embarrassed,
Speaker 1: you know, because life changed for everyone With me, I
Speaker 1: could push through. I didn't bid divorce through this my
Speaker 1: third final. I'm done with all that. I don't push through.
Speaker 1: But I always like, damn, like what effect doesn't have
Speaker 1: on my kids. I see all of these shows that
Speaker 1: come out and I'm just like, oh lord, I hope
Speaker 1: I'm not damaging my children by bringing I'm thinking I'm
Speaker 1: bringing structure. But I'm bringing bullshit around. So I was like, no,
Speaker 1: we cut all of that out because I'm glad I
Speaker 1: did it when I did, because wherever you're around, you
Speaker 1: will become kid used to act a certain way, very smart,
Speaker 1: very great kids. But they were just like so, I
Speaker 1: don't know. It was just like I don't know if
Speaker 1: it's the North Philly grip. I don't know what it was.
Speaker 1: But my son was getting it a lot of fights
Speaker 1: at school, and I'm like, yo, that's with No, that's
Speaker 1: not how that you are. And he goes to a
Speaker 1: great school. He went to a great school. Hard for that,
Speaker 1: Like going out like that, they're gonna automatically label you
Speaker 1: as a problem child, and that's not That's not how
Speaker 1: I'm raising you. So I'm glad I pulled my children
Speaker 1: out of it. And some of the things that I
Speaker 1: found out after the fact, all I gotta say is
Speaker 1: to God be the glory that we made it out
Speaker 1: a lie. Thank God? Did he every time I apologize.
Speaker 1: I mean, like, after all, once I got my protection
Speaker 1: from abuse, that's what it's called if BEAUSEI he's not
Speaker 1: allowed to contact me once my divorces final, lot, he's
Speaker 1: not allowed to call me contact. I don't want no apology.
Speaker 1: That's between him and God. At this point, when you
Speaker 1: break a vow, that's between you and God, you ain't
Speaker 1: gotta say sorry to me. A lot of people will
Speaker 1: try to, you know, smooth it over. I don't have.
Speaker 1: If y'all know the trauma and stuff that I went through,
Speaker 1: I don't even want an apology. I don't want anything
Speaker 1: like when I say I purged that whole situation. I
Speaker 1: don't remember what he looks like. I don't remember anything
Speaker 1: from that stag. I totally let that ship go. If
Speaker 1: that man died today, it's not like I've been, oh, yes,
Speaker 1: doing the cabbage patch. I would be like, I hope
Speaker 1: that his affairs are accepted and the law takes him
Speaker 1: and you know, accept whatever the case may be. Because
Speaker 1: I used to think that I was saving a lot
Speaker 1: of females because the people used to be contact with
Speaker 1: me all the time, and I'm like, damn, call me.
Speaker 1: Is this a booking or is you just trying to
Speaker 1: get emails at all types of stuff? And I'm just like, y'all,
Speaker 1: but this is weird because I'm trying to say, if
Speaker 1: y'all from what they when I say leopers don't change
Speaker 1: their spots. If you beat my ask beat yours. Two
Speaker 1: SIPs and that's not that's what you get, But that's
Speaker 1: what you get for thinking that you were so right.
Speaker 1: This is what I got. What happened, man, good, thank you.
Speaker 1: I don't want them. What what about thousand rumors like
Speaker 1: with because there was like other men that there was
Speaker 1: rummors around that with that ever panned out to be
Speaker 1: true because I know you said you found a lot
Speaker 1: of stuff out. After all I gotta say is I'm
Speaker 1: so this is what I'm gonna saying, because I really
Speaker 1: don't speak on that. All I'm gonna say is I
Speaker 1: have a clean bill of health at the level up
Speaker 1: and the glow is lit. God, I let that go
Speaker 1: because trust me, it could have been a different outcome.
Speaker 1: You're like, man, I didn't even know this person. Now,
Speaker 1: you don't know who you laying by at night or
Speaker 1: you know what. I was fighting my own demons and
Speaker 1: fighting everybody else's. I really not saying I didn't care,
Speaker 1: but it was like it didn't resonate to me how
Speaker 1: much it was honestly deteriorating me and bringing my stock down.
Speaker 1: You ain't working up my bag. No, No, now, let's
Speaker 1: let's move on to some fun things. Yeah, since you
Speaker 1: know we got and obviously you know, we want to
Speaker 1: make sure that you're good. And I know that was
Speaker 1: part of the conversation because I know that helps a
Speaker 1: lot of women, right, A lot of them men have
Speaker 1: been going through a lot. So I appreciate you being
Speaker 1: really open to discuss it and talk about it because
Speaker 1: I know people look to you and they're like, Okay,
Speaker 1: she went through it. Maybe I need to get my
Speaker 1: affairs in order to Ever since, like before pre pandemic,
Speaker 1: even up until now, people have been going back and
Speaker 1: watching the old interviews that I did with y'all, and
Speaker 1: they were like, at first, I'm not gonna say I
Speaker 1: was ashamed or embarrassed. I would say that I was
Speaker 1: slightly afraid to put it out there because I was like,
Speaker 1: I was receiving so many so much black lash of stuff.
Speaker 1: I was like, damn, I don't even mean it like that,
Speaker 1: Like I was getting a lot of backlash for stuff,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, my heart is pure. I never intend
Speaker 1: to offend. Now, I know that I'm not for everybody,
Speaker 1: but so many people there was like I hadn't followed
Speaker 1: you because I didn't like the way he was taking
Speaker 1: I saw on the theead of the have come back
Speaker 1: because they were like, I did not know that that's
Speaker 1: when you were going through. And now I see so
Speaker 1: the doors that it's opened for me to discuss my
Speaker 1: healing process and the brokenness that I'm letting golf because
Speaker 1: I can't fix. Once your heartest broke, it's just like, uh,
Speaker 1: you just know what you'll never deal with again. So
Speaker 1: I literally had to get down to the broken down
Speaker 1: part where I couldn't call nobody. I was out of favor,
Speaker 1: cart like I need you to come get me, like
Speaker 1: I was out of that because it was just like this,
Speaker 1: all you're gonna do is go back. I had to
Speaker 1: get to the brokenness, place of brokenness where I had
Speaker 1: to ask God, Okay, what's going on here because it's
Speaker 1: obvious I can't do this by myself. Get me out
Speaker 1: of here, and I promise who you got I? Oh
Speaker 1: my god, y'all have no idea. Man, it's not real.
Speaker 1: I want to give you a hug. I want to
Speaker 1: give good again. Plug. Well, we love you, We love
Speaker 1: you so much. I've been there, Like I just want
Speaker 1: to say, I've been there, so I know how you feeling.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean, I've definitely been at a
Speaker 1: place like that. And then it's also you don't want
Speaker 1: to talk to anybody about certain things because you do
Speaker 1: feel ashame to do feel embarrassed about. And I think
Speaker 1: it's because you know yourself great deep down inside and
Speaker 1: to to let somebody that's not great come. And I
Speaker 1: have daughters, and I'm like, if somebody just like I
Speaker 1: would be calling the lawyer right, I'm going in. Isn't
Speaker 1: it crazy what we deal with but don't want others
Speaker 1: to go through. It's it's just it's crazy. And that's
Speaker 1: why I like, like I said, even seeing you, I'm like,
Speaker 1: it's not Mode and Mode that I know what a
Speaker 1: damn they're knocked him upside the head. So that's why
Speaker 1: I had to ask you, because yeah, look at all
Speaker 1: of us on here well, because we all know each other,
Speaker 1: like we all know all this stuff that we've been through,
Speaker 1: and that they were like, man, I gotta take a
Speaker 1: drink on that shout out telling that it's five o'clock
Speaker 1: somewhere and it's gonna be right here today, and you
Speaker 1: feel like, wait all done, didn't I'm sorry, didn't you
Speaker 1: tell us when you came on lip service last time?
Speaker 1: I feel like you said something about cause you've been
Speaker 1: married before three times and you said three all total
Speaker 1: three strikes. I'm out. But wasn't it then they all
Speaker 1: last the same amount of time or something something? You
Speaker 1: talk but this one I did that five years because
Speaker 1: I didn't want it to be six six no more?
Speaker 1: How do how do you guys be trying to holler
Speaker 1: at you now? Because I know that some of them
Speaker 1: DM sppen I'm focused. When I say I'm focused on
Speaker 1: my glow, I don't even I don't even want to
Speaker 1: be in a relationship right I'm not. I'm not you know,
Speaker 1: some people are irreparably damaged. I'm not damaged and I'm
Speaker 1: not broken. I'm not bitter. I'm past that stage. Like
Speaker 1: I'm still at the place I'm like, no, I want
Speaker 1: to really get what's due to me because since I
Speaker 1: came out as little more, I was always attached to
Speaker 1: some nigger like yeah, like it's time for me to
Speaker 1: shine by myself. I don't want to be attached like.
Speaker 1: I don't want that. I don't want that for me
Speaker 1: right now? So them about that, that's so and it's
Speaker 1: coming Savage Heart. That's that's my new lass, so broken
Speaker 1: the thing. I love that Shanna Start. I'm just waiting
Speaker 1: for this one feature to send their vocals, and they
Speaker 1: just had a Saul drop on Friday. I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: say who it is, so I'm just waiting for them
Speaker 1: to send Ja Cole. I can't tell you. I can't
Speaker 1: tell it J Cole or me Goes because they all
Speaker 1: dropped Friday. There's a couple of people that dropped Friday.
Speaker 1: We're messing. Somebody already have one feature on it. It's
Speaker 1: called Shining Star, and it's like, but we're gonna do
Speaker 1: like different, not part like how just super Woman Part one,
Speaker 1: Part two, Part three, well part one, Part two. This
Speaker 1: is gonna be part one in part two, so to
Speaker 1: be Shining Star Part one, and then they'll be Shining
Speaker 1: Star Part two because I just think if all three
Speaker 1: of us was on this record, it might be lit.
Speaker 1: So we'll see. I'm just waiting, but I'll tell you
Speaker 1: talking about this Fatman school point that's gonna be upbeing Okay.
Speaker 1: I love that it's right here is a ladies anthem.
Speaker 1: It's Superwoman and Forever on steroids. It's like a blend
Speaker 1: of the time. I'm not playing with this gun, you know,
Speaker 1: I just selling it right now? Yeah, yeahs what's this all?
Speaker 1: Six come back and was like literally it's like I
Speaker 1: knew you. That's a large actually sell a bit because
Speaker 1: it's like, what's PARSTI you always like you stay with
Speaker 1: you a man, like you said, but you know it's
Speaker 1: dope about you in a good way though, Like mostly
Speaker 1: you always see like guys putting on, like in the industry,
Speaker 1: putting on women. So it's like we know Karuci because
Speaker 1: of Chris Brown, whatever the case. But in your case,
Speaker 1: it's like you put the guys on. And that's rare
Speaker 1: because we've seen a lot of artists date a lot
Speaker 1: of guys that we didn't know and we didn't give
Speaker 1: a funk with that. But that like, oh that's the
Speaker 1: most Yeah, that's what was man and that's what we
Speaker 1: called them too, That's what and that's that's an identity
Speaker 1: crisis that a lot of these men will suffer with
Speaker 1: for the rest of their life because identity outside of
Speaker 1: being little most that yeah, like because I always try
Speaker 1: to push them to a position where like get your
Speaker 1: mon identity but it's like I get it. But at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, one thing I have learned
Speaker 1: to is, whoever you loving, humping or doing anything, we
Speaker 1: do not post it on social media because soon as
Speaker 1: you do. But this is sure everybody, guys, you are
Speaker 1: an absolutely coming even if you I see, like, it's
Speaker 1: so devious and so strategic. Now I saw somebody post
Speaker 1: a hand and somebody zoom and they can fight. They
Speaker 1: can fight. They zoom in and you can see the reflection.
Speaker 1: Mulatto posted a picture. I can do that, but we're
Speaker 1: not Wait, that's hilarious, glasses, Like what's that. I'm looking
Speaker 1: at your reflection right now? They're looking at the background
Speaker 1: and be like one little thing in the background and
Speaker 1: that's the same slipper together. That's hip. But I peeked too.
Speaker 1: I was like zooming, and I was like, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I'm just like, people are really
Speaker 1: so here. You won't see you ain't gonna see me out.
Speaker 1: But I've really been falling back and just getting a
Speaker 1: tune in and touching myself. Like I realized. I was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I really loved myself. Speaking speaking of loving and touching yourself, right, whoa.
Speaker 1: So now that you I singing, it's probably the longest
Speaker 1: you've ever been saying. Oh, how frequently do you masturbate? Um? Honestly,
Speaker 1: not a lot, because I'm to the point I had
Speaker 1: enough sex and kids, like I'm I'm still fertile. Then
Speaker 1: when it comes to me, I know I'm a swampio
Speaker 1: so I'm a sexual that it's like it's it's like
Speaker 1: it's leg So I don't even honestly for this year.
Speaker 1: Probably once that's it. Yeah, it's not even I'm not
Speaker 1: even on that tight time because I know one thing
Speaker 1: I know about myself is once I get in that zone,
Speaker 1: I'm in my bag and I'm like, no, I don't
Speaker 1: need any distractions. And one thing I know with me
Speaker 1: or distraction distraction distractions that one time was that in
Speaker 1: the bathtub, are you like using toys? Are you watching?
Speaker 1: I don't use no toys because I just be like,
Speaker 1: what if I'm a person that I feel that my
Speaker 1: luck is so bad that I joy and I'll be
Speaker 1: the got rigg of mortis or something like, because I've
Speaker 1: heard of stories where people stuff don't done tightened up
Speaker 1: and they had to go get it search fully removed
Speaker 1: so I'm the person I'll be on like I'm just
Speaker 1: now bo started going back outside. So and I don't
Speaker 1: even do it in the house because I'm like one
Speaker 1: of my kids beat a bust and they wait till
Speaker 1: I'm like when the road and hit a couple of
Speaker 1: what do I have cossa? Me gooes daddy on because
Speaker 1: YEA need him deadly on too. We got you said
Speaker 1: in particular day, that's what I had. I had one
Speaker 1: shot because I had to drink the whole penny, the
Speaker 1: whole panthemony. I had a letter called it and I'm like,
Speaker 1: that's now sexual this and I just put on what's
Speaker 1: the name of this? I put on one of them
Speaker 1: sites and I was like, oh, ship pin high what
Speaker 1: you know? You know what they like? You know what
Speaker 1: kind of point I hate? That will make me be like, okay,
Speaker 1: this's just ruin everything. It might sound bad. I hate
Speaker 1: when like and plint fucking people are women are lactating?
Speaker 1: You ever see that nips? I've never seen that because
Speaker 1: now they have it itemized where you could type in
Speaker 1: certain things or they'll say oh this is what's like
Speaker 1: their shows, And I'm like, people have fetishes? What is
Speaker 1: angela logic that you see, I don't you have like
Speaker 1: a homepage and the most copy of the videos, so
Speaker 1: you'll be like, what's that and you put it out
Speaker 1: in that milk square and you're like, okay, just my favorite.
Speaker 1: Yeah I'm Carus and now where are you going? Because
Speaker 1: you said point hubbits now for you, so put me
Speaker 1: on and yeah that But it's this, it's the specific
Speaker 1: couple that they just lit the teams as te something
Speaker 1: like that, like the girl, like the way that they
Speaker 1: roll play and they black and I used it one
Speaker 1: of those I usually don't watch black peorn because I'm
Speaker 1: just like black people were so sexual, Like I'm like like,
Speaker 1: I'm like they're really having sex, like nobody let me
Speaker 1: see what it's giving. But teams see like he'll be
Speaker 1: it'll just be like we're just watching the movie and
Speaker 1: she gave me some bomb match sloppy. If you don't
Speaker 1: come in thirty seconds, then you ain't real. So I
Speaker 1: love you gotta learn some new tracks? Are you learning
Speaker 1: new tracks? Yeah? The way the world is going, old
Speaker 1: school humping is not the way. You gotta do something real.
Speaker 1: And you got you a new boot and you've been
Speaker 1: getting it back in child. You go ahead. Oh no,
Speaker 1: I'm about to start taking yoga and take a swimming
Speaker 1: classes because I haven't been flexible, so I haven't been
Speaker 1: doing anything to open endemic, just you know, just watching
Speaker 1: my way that started this cleanse because like everything is
Speaker 1: opening back up. So I got a gang of shows
Speaker 1: coming up. But I was like, wait, I'll be seeing
Speaker 1: people that be twerking and they'd be school and I
Speaker 1: was like, who's knee scooting? Yeah? I don't. I can't
Speaker 1: get fun. I can't funk with it either. I'm like, damn,
Speaker 1: my wash because I can't do this ship on the
Speaker 1: ground and they've been doing or what they boot booty cheeks.
Speaker 1: I'm like, my what don't need move like that? Somebody?
Speaker 1: Does anybody do that during sex? For real? I think
Speaker 1: you're supposed to working. Ain't nobody's working in school ground
Speaker 1: that this can do? Right? Yeah? Yeah? Yeah yeah the
Speaker 1: crime baby, that hurts my knees. I'm looking at a lie.
Speaker 1: I'm really good at like doing stuff like that during sex,
Speaker 1: but I can't do it for too long because and
Speaker 1: then you'd be a boy because they don't want you
Speaker 1: to stop, and you'd be like, man, I gotta stopped
Speaker 1: riding to pick up on my tippycod that's what they removed.
Speaker 1: But you're gonna be getting just two minutes out of
Speaker 1: me and then right that that, don't you feel like
Speaker 1: a failure like me, I'll be like, damn, I gotta
Speaker 1: quit Like this baby, you can't quit. You can't be
Speaker 1: a quitner likes to make it. See then I started
Speaker 1: one need damn pep one foot up. I have my
Speaker 1: feet a foot So when I try to do like this,
Speaker 1: my one time my foot fell asleep. I was like,
Speaker 1: you're that cramp in the art of your foot. Yeah,
Speaker 1: get a childly horse to that motherfucker. I'll be the
Speaker 1: first to say, I'm warr crazy. But what if okay, yeah, okay, cool.
Speaker 1: So when he can't come back to back before, what yeah,
Speaker 1: what if he can't come back to back? So like
Speaker 1: theay you make him colm and you think like all right,
Speaker 1: it's about to go down, and he's like, oh no,
Speaker 1: I need like another hour. No, let's get let's get
Speaker 1: us a nap after that, let's go to sleep. You
Speaker 1: know people like I do me all night. No ch'll
Speaker 1: I taket my melotonin. I love him? Melaton another flighty
Speaker 1: I popped me a MELI I call him my y
Speaker 1: w melly. Oh no, I don't call it that, y'all.
Speaker 1: I love him because I feel I feel so bad.
Speaker 1: That's another thing. It's just like damn, like I'm so
Speaker 1: glad to just still be alive. I'm in the four
Speaker 1: point old club, so you feel me. It's like so
Speaker 1: many people that are younger losing their lives and like
Speaker 1: they won't have to get the these conversations and experienced
Speaker 1: these kind of things, because like the life is really
Speaker 1: just what happens when you kill your two best friends
Speaker 1: and drive around with them for a few that's deep.
Speaker 1: Well that's what happened allegedly. Okay, well let's move on
Speaker 1: from there. Not wearing it on that. Yeah, I don't
Speaker 1: want to talk about this Bill Gates situation. I am
Speaker 1: fascinated right with Bill Gates and his divorce from Melinda Gates.
Speaker 1: And they're saying now that he had like a relationship
Speaker 1: with one of the employees in the office and she
Speaker 1: wanted it. She wanted his wife to know. I wrote
Speaker 1: a letter allegedly that she wanted the wife to read. Now,
Speaker 1: have you ever been well, you know, you've been in
Speaker 1: relationships your whole day of life. But can you imagine
Speaker 1: being like the side piece, knowing this man is married
Speaker 1: and then wanting to write a letter to the wife.
Speaker 1: Whose fault is that? Because I feel like that's a
Speaker 1: man's fault if he feels like he gives you that
Speaker 1: much power to make you feel like you have the
Speaker 1: right to want to like send a letter of the
Speaker 1: wife to read. So I want to know what I
Speaker 1: would do. See, they paid for so long and the
Speaker 1: bitch wrote the letter. Okay, since I'm still getting the billions,
Speaker 1: like you ain't getting no check, So she weird for
Speaker 1: that and don't sleep. Melinda probably had her side do,
Speaker 1: but niggas ain't writing no letters too much, Like if
Speaker 1: you would be aside, that's what you're supposed to do,
Speaker 1: say sit aside. These people be empowering these people on
Speaker 1: social media. I don't know she wrote the letter on
Speaker 1: loosely if she like, that's the audacity for me. So
Speaker 1: I'm just like I would be like if she really
Speaker 1: tried it. So that's between her and God. You knew
Speaker 1: that man was married, so you gotta give an account
Speaker 1: for that. But he's just factful. How you cheated at work?
Speaker 1: Like where how are you? Like do we go to work?
Speaker 1: Like from being like he had to because he tried
Speaker 1: to message too many people at the company, Like he
Speaker 1: was asking women on dates and he was like if
Speaker 1: this makes you uncomfortable, just don't respond, and bitches was
Speaker 1: ghost to him like something, you are a billionaire, girls
Speaker 1: just ghosting you super whacked Like bitches like I don't
Speaker 1: even want the money fun this nigger Like that's like
Speaker 1: that's crazy to me. So it's like no matter how
Speaker 1: how you go up on the financial letter, these niggass
Speaker 1: just have audacity. Bill Gates have the audacity like you
Speaker 1: messed with somebody that's at your company, Like do you
Speaker 1: know that these chicks is did turn around time? As
Speaker 1: soon as soon as you send a d M, they're like,
Speaker 1: oh this they got slid you feel me? Like that
Speaker 1: mean Harvey Weinstein, you got sucking Donald Trump. Like it's
Speaker 1: a lot of guys in power, white men especially I'm
Speaker 1: saying just white because there's black man Like yeah, majority,
Speaker 1: They use their power and they get over on certain
Speaker 1: things and then people are scared to say. Women are
Speaker 1: scared to speak out because they know these people are
Speaker 1: so powerful, you know, and she obviously wasn't scared because,
Speaker 1: like you said, he must have gave her the bag
Speaker 1: some kind of thing. Melinda, you get what I'm bad,
Speaker 1: Like like as a woman, betch if you don't get
Speaker 1: the funk out of here, you and that nigga, And
Speaker 1: it's just like running my money at this point, like
Speaker 1: now she just about the cash out. But when I
Speaker 1: was reading some of the things that Melinda said, like
Speaker 1: I have empathy for the white side because it's just
Speaker 1: like you saw this man at his lowest. Now he
Speaker 1: gets a heavy bag. You know, popped out three kids
Speaker 1: for this man and then all of a sudden he
Speaker 1: talks like, yeah, we're going several places. And you said,
Speaker 1: and y'all like seventy like that, you know what. I
Speaker 1: was just looking at Jeff Bezos right and his ex
Speaker 1: wife now m Cantie, she's married to like a school
Speaker 1: teacher in Seattle. Now that's how Yeah, because Milenda gonna
Speaker 1: have so much money she does, I think Melinda gonna
Speaker 1: get a black man, like how Chris Jenna did she
Speaker 1: gotta do that man didn't go and live her best
Speaker 1: life and boot is going to be gagging. Jam. She
Speaker 1: got a whole private island that she read it out
Speaker 1: for all of them to go and her significant other.
Speaker 1: They said, so supposedly they've been divorced for a few
Speaker 1: months now, right, uh, and just finalized already. It was
Speaker 1: probably I think it was for their kids and their
Speaker 1: kids significant others to go to kind of stay away
Speaker 1: from the press. And I have to deal with you know, well,
Speaker 1: if you watch, I need to write home no bit.
Speaker 1: If you need some friends, club, Melnda, you welcome right
Speaker 1: up here on lip service. Girl, listen the idea like
Speaker 1: everybody else was doing last week or two weeks ago,
Speaker 1: they were slidding and now. One thing I also want
Speaker 1: to address is a lot of times like women decided
Speaker 1: to come forward and talk about the truth of things
Speaker 1: that have happened to them, but it might not happen
Speaker 1: right away. You might wait, if you much, you might
Speaker 1: even wait some years before you feel like you're in
Speaker 1: a space to be able to do that. And I
Speaker 1: see a lot of people chiming in like why now,
Speaker 1: why did she wait until now? Why didn't she say
Speaker 1: it right away when at first happened, And just as
Speaker 1: women to explain what it's like when we've all been
Speaker 1: in situations, I'm sure we have right where things that
Speaker 1: were inappropriate, with some things we might not ever talk about,
Speaker 1: but if we decided we wanted to, we have every
Speaker 1: right to do that whenever we should want to do that.
Speaker 1: Am I right? You're absolutely right? And so I just
Speaker 1: wanted to clear that because I hate when a woman
Speaker 1: speaks out about something that happened to her and experience
Speaker 1: that she had, and that people being in the comments
Speaker 1: like why are she talking about this now? Why is
Speaker 1: she saying this? Why didn't she say it before? And
Speaker 1: they'd we kind of don't believe you or they shame you.
Speaker 1: You know, I've been a victim of that as well.
Speaker 1: You know I wouldn't say victim. I've been a part
Speaker 1: of that because you know, you'd be like, what that
Speaker 1: happened to me there? Well, why are you saying there?
Speaker 1: You cloud us will be like, no, I had said
Speaker 1: it before, but nobody was paying attention. And they're always
Speaker 1: signed yourself, but they're awesome people who you're just like, wait,
Speaker 1: why are you saying in there you had? They're are
Speaker 1: some situation where people had amful enough time. This is
Speaker 1: what I always see on social media, be like why
Speaker 1: are you telling us? Go tell the cops. And then
Speaker 1: let it come up like they have a lot of
Speaker 1: people who haven't even filed a protection from a boose
Speaker 1: or restraint in order, but they'll go right on social
Speaker 1: media be like, y'all like this person, well, this is
Speaker 1: who they really are, be like, yeah, he was the
Speaker 1: devil himself, he was the spawn of saying. But there
Speaker 1: was a lot of people I told people about and
Speaker 1: they don't want to listen. They thought I was hating,
Speaker 1: they thought I was camping. But I'm just like, okay,
Speaker 1: but we now heard it is to go to the
Speaker 1: police too, Like a lot of times, I think id issue. No,
Speaker 1: I do think that's an issue because in a way,
Speaker 1: like in our community, I felt like we always been
Speaker 1: talking going to the police as former snitching regardless, right,
Speaker 1: so you're gonna be called a Snitcherlly'll be looked at
Speaker 1: a certain way now, I know saying people that have
Speaker 1: come out and been like this person has done something
Speaker 1: to me, and people are like, oh, that bitch, that
Speaker 1: la la la, and they'll turn against the girl like
Speaker 1: as if she's not the victim, and you just automatically
Speaker 1: make her the issue. And that's why we need to
Speaker 1: change that narrative. But the people is deciphering between the
Speaker 1: real people and the and the capitalized the cloud chases,
Speaker 1: and that's the that's the thin sketchy line because I've
Speaker 1: personally seen being in this music industry and I'm just like,
Speaker 1: that's wrong. But I knew. But being quiet though, because yeah,
Speaker 1: that ly is none of your business too. It could
Speaker 1: get you wrapped up in do some style, some bullshit
Speaker 1: that you ain't gotta know you're kind of quiet about it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: So it's just like I realized I pay attention to
Speaker 1: my own stuff. So whatever happened to me, like when
Speaker 1: I first started talking, Oh, when I came out about
Speaker 1: the opio Oh, you're just trying to cloud chase because
Speaker 1: so I was like, no, I'm not. That ship is real.
Speaker 1: If I can show you the receipts of how much
Speaker 1: you was spent, I want my money back. I wouldn't
Speaker 1: have never in my life if I wasn't going through
Speaker 1: depression and anxiety and so many things like I wish
Speaker 1: I would have what it was then then I want
Speaker 1: to spend so much personal money and I could have
Speaker 1: got help, but the police, I said, don't make us
Speaker 1: feel safe. You know what I mean? This is a
Speaker 1: community of where when I think of the police, I
Speaker 1: think about getting shot, killed, beat up, all kinds of
Speaker 1: things that's negative. So I've had things happen and a
Speaker 1: certain particular incident that I could think of that maybe
Speaker 1: I should have went to the cops, But I didn't.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I felt like I told
Speaker 1: who then does it feels like it's out of your hands?
Speaker 1: But I felt like it happen right. But I feel
Speaker 1: like I told who I needed to tell that can
Speaker 1: handle the situation best for me. You get what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: And the police wasn't it at the time. I feel
Speaker 1: you because everybody don't want to snitch into me. Snitching is.
Speaker 1: People are blowing that word out of proportion. They're giving
Speaker 1: it too much. Snitching is, if you like, remember the
Speaker 1: lady that peek out the window and know everybody's business.
Speaker 1: So the media is the biggest snitch because people do
Speaker 1: stuffing just like, oh you that. But when me, even
Speaker 1: when I went to file for my protecial views, I
Speaker 1: didn't just go to the police. I didn't just go
Speaker 1: I called my lawyer first and I told him what
Speaker 1: and he told me exactly where it goes. Anything happened
Speaker 1: to me in the interroom, so I covered my basis.
Speaker 1: So when I went to the police, thank god I
Speaker 1: am who I am, because when I got to the
Speaker 1: front counter, I was walked right in like the lady
Speaker 1: was just like And what was crazy was the lady
Speaker 1: who actually had to do like give me all the
Speaker 1: information because you it's so many it's you don't just
Speaker 1: go to the police, and it just first day I
Speaker 1: after trying to find a person, people give up. Then
Speaker 1: you have to show up the three court days. But
Speaker 1: just donna be showing up. I went to every every
Speaker 1: single Yeah, I listen, I've had to do that too,
Speaker 1: So I understand you. I had to get every standing
Speaker 1: all that it's not a game, and then you got
Speaker 1: a sitting court and watch all these other things and
Speaker 1: see what everybody else is gonna through family court. It's
Speaker 1: serious and I'm going to go through that. In Philadelphia.
Speaker 1: In Maryland, I had to go a reinstatement because it
Speaker 1: had lapsed in the In Philly it's three years. Now
Speaker 1: here is I go every year. A matter of fact,
Speaker 1: I gotta go next week to get it updated, which
Speaker 1: I'm not playing. It shouldn't even have to be like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean you just have to. But now they have it, Well,
Speaker 1: you don't the blessing in disguise and you don't have
Speaker 1: to actually go to port. Now you can do it virtually,
Speaker 1: So that's the blessing. So really, honestly, if under the
Speaker 1: set of my voice, if anybody's going through anything like
Speaker 1: because not only the police part, that's honestly the least
Speaker 1: I would say mentally draining when you put yourself out
Speaker 1: a situation, whether you were sexually assaulted, verbally abused, Like
Speaker 1: I'm seeing what people are doing. I'm just like, oh, y'all,
Speaker 1: y'all just now knowing that person is is is off.
Speaker 1: They made right, but I see what people are spiraling. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and they don't want to get help. So after you
Speaker 1: do the police report, or after whatever steps you take
Speaker 1: or you come clean about a situation, you still have
Speaker 1: to go. I suggest everyone see therapy or do yoga.
Speaker 1: I'm doing yoga and everything. I am not playing with
Speaker 1: my mental health. No, that's good. G's been doing that
Speaker 1: yoga all the time. I always feel like she'd been
Speaker 1: on the almost everyday basis. At least you want to
Speaker 1: know what's crazy is I was saying, because I'm a beginner.
Speaker 1: So I told the lady, I said, please don't be
Speaker 1: having me to do I don't know how to do.
Speaker 1: She was like, no, it's not like that. I was
Speaker 1: afraid at first. I walked in and I was gonna
Speaker 1: just I try to play it off, like, oh, this
Speaker 1: ifice is cute. How much come on squiding dog. I
Speaker 1: was like, I don't know. When you sit like this
Speaker 1: and stuff, I want to learn, and she was like,
Speaker 1: you don't have to, and she said, we have more
Speaker 1: intense ones. But what you be again, Me and my
Speaker 1: sons are doing yoga together. That's how. And you go
Speaker 1: at your own page. You do what you can do,
Speaker 1: and you do it. She did a little now my
Speaker 1: stand just now I saw you because I like something
Speaker 1: about peace. You can't. You just gotta wait for it.
Speaker 1: And when that thing come, you don't want to compromise
Speaker 1: it for anything. I'm at a place of piece that
Speaker 1: I'm just like, damn, I waited my life for this,
Speaker 1: So sad, I'm almost a hundred. You got plenty of
Speaker 1: time and then you know you're gonna be you know,
Speaker 1: whatever goes on, I know you learn a lot. That's
Speaker 1: all we can do. Right, It's learned from the things
Speaker 1: that didn't go the way that we wanted them to.
Speaker 1: But again, now you know what you don't want, and
Speaker 1: I feel like that's just as important as knowing what
Speaker 1: you do want. Yeah, back, we love you, Mile, how
Speaker 1: do you? And I know you know you got daughters,
Speaker 1: your daughters, but I said, what did you say to
Speaker 1: them about everything? Just out of curiosity? All right. So
Speaker 1: my oldest daughter, Heaven, she's eighteen, she was just like
Speaker 1: out time. Yeah, And with her, I was like, well,
Speaker 1: I don't want you to make mistakes. I mean she
Speaker 1: was like, my I don't even think like I'll make
Speaker 1: those same mistakes because she was like, you never like
Speaker 1: you used to really take everybody in and you really
Speaker 1: thought that you could help everybody. So that was my
Speaker 1: nurturing spirit if and I look back, I was like
Speaker 1: everybody that I was married to came from a single
Speaker 1: mother houssel. So I felt like I could be that
Speaker 1: nurturer that you know, I knew what they was missing.
Speaker 1: But I realized you can't help people or help people
Speaker 1: that don't want to be helped or healed. So I
Speaker 1: was giving so much of myself and not getting in return,
Speaker 1: not saying that every day was a bad day, and
Speaker 1: none of my relationship. But it was just like dad,
Speaker 1: when you start realizing you're giving more than you're getting
Speaker 1: in return, like, no, I gotta cut it. And I
Speaker 1: never thought i'd be divorced three times. So I told
Speaker 1: my daughter. She was like, well, I'm probably not gonna
Speaker 1: ever get married anyway, probably maybe when I'm forty or fifty.
Speaker 1: And she's just like she's just different. She was like,
Speaker 1: I'm chasing my bag. I ain't going to turnt and
Speaker 1: Cacos and Costa Rica. Like she's a total and I'm
Speaker 1: just like, yes, I love the way she thinks, super
Speaker 1: smart and she knows like she's not gonna make those mistakes. Now.
Speaker 1: My six year old she told me one day we
Speaker 1: watched something and she was like, about time she's pisces ah,
Speaker 1: but she's she yeah, it's just like she was like
Speaker 1: like the way she is, she like, oh, we were
Speaker 1: just waiting on useless. Like they're so they're so strong,
Speaker 1: and I'm glad that even though they can feel, your
Speaker 1: kids know what you're going through. I didn't do a
Speaker 1: lot of things around them, but I had enough sense
Speaker 1: in me to know that even with the pills and
Speaker 1: stuff like that. Don't do this around there, but you know,
Speaker 1: don't do anything to the point where you're gonna embarrass
Speaker 1: your kids, because you know what. I just started watching
Speaker 1: Um Soft White Underbelly, and I was looking and I
Speaker 1: looked at the girls that were thirteen years old that
Speaker 1: were prostitutes, and I looked what happened to the girl
Speaker 1: Amanda and people. I'm just like, damn like some of
Speaker 1: them come from good homes. So you really have to
Speaker 1: keep your children close because you can give them the
Speaker 1: best life that you think is possible. But the way
Speaker 1: that their chips may fall, the cars that they were dealt,
Speaker 1: you never know what's gonna happen, so you can There
Speaker 1: was what the girl man that her dad said, I
Speaker 1: spoiled her. I gave her everything, But once she got
Speaker 1: a rent in college around a certain group of friends,
Speaker 1: that's when she started to decline. She got on drugs,
Speaker 1: smoking weed that led to crack that honestly led to
Speaker 1: her dying on Mother's Day. But she was clean, So
Speaker 1: you feel me. It's just there's certain things that I've
Speaker 1: been attracted to and really been studying, maybe because my
Speaker 1: daughter's study psychology in college I'm just like, really like,
Speaker 1: I'm glad for their path and I'm staying stern with them,
Speaker 1: but I'm I'm I'm being a mom. But I'm also like,
Speaker 1: you know your friends your kids, it's not your friends. Yes,
Speaker 1: you need to know what's going on in your kids,
Speaker 1: like and your kids do have the right to know
Speaker 1: what's going on in doing And I'm just glad for
Speaker 1: that balance that in the stakes. Yes, because and I
Speaker 1: told my Didlem last night because we was watching it together.
Speaker 1: If nigga try it is a period to tell me
Speaker 1: stuff because they was like, my, we know how you get.
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, I don't play about y'all. I
Speaker 1: was molested. I'm glad my daughters have been molested. I
Speaker 1: was running the streets, I was outside and that's not
Speaker 1: not what was raised. So that rebellion, I'm so glad
Speaker 1: they didn't have to deal with that. So even they
Speaker 1: will go through things, but I want to make sure
Speaker 1: that I'm there for them like I was there for
Speaker 1: everybody else. There you go, Well, we appreciate you so
Speaker 1: much as always low And do we know when this
Speaker 1: album's coming? It will be this year. I wanted to
Speaker 1: come out on my birthday because I honestly, the single
Speaker 1: is gonna drop. See how what if I'm allowed to
Speaker 1: talk about? See you allowed? But I just believe, just
Speaker 1: know that this thing is gonna be on the tissue
Speaker 1: in a couple of weeks. So we're gonna drop them
Speaker 1: next single. Then wait a minute, that you have another
Speaker 1: reality show coming out? Oh no, no, no no, what
Speaker 1: is there nothing the to say? You are? You have
Speaker 1: a sitcom, you have a drama coming and it's a performance.
Speaker 1: That's okay, I've been That's why I'm cleansing because I
Speaker 1: want to be a certain size in ten days because
Speaker 1: we feel you filming in advance and then they edit
Speaker 1: it so it should be coming out. I think like,
Speaker 1: so my next single, Shining Star, will drop then and
Speaker 1: every month I'm gonna drop a single then release the
Speaker 1: album because this is my this is really my twenty
Speaker 1: first year being a little more. Yes, it's like artists legal,
Speaker 1: so yeah, always legal. Now okay, you're here for it.
Speaker 1: I cannot wait for I think you know about It's
Speaker 1: always good. We're just be having a conversation. They kicking.
Speaker 1: Let me know it's for the lash on. I had yeah,
Speaker 1: push it back a little best alright, but let him out.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much, and let's serve this