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Speaker 1: What's ladies, It's time for Woman on Tap with Delhian

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Speaker 1: to kill us. So we are going to give a

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Speaker 1: toast today to my angel Cody. Now, she has a

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Speaker 1: new documentary out is called The Third Strike, and it

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Speaker 1: follows her. She works with her all women's team of

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Speaker 1: attorneys and they're working to a free men who have

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Speaker 1: and women who have been in card serrated because it's

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Speaker 1: a third strike rule. So basically, these are non violent

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Speaker 1: drug offenders who have been sentenced to life in prison.

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Speaker 1: So far, she's gotten over forty people out and she's

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Speaker 1: one freedom for seventeen federal prisoners who have been unfairly

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Speaker 1: sentenced to life without parole for drugs. That was all

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Speaker 1: during the ninety Days of Freedom campaign. You know that

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Speaker 1: because after Kim kardashi ain't got behind that. She was

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Speaker 1: using her own money, right, because it does cost money

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Speaker 1: to actually get these things done as an attorney, and

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Speaker 1: she was trying to get this funded. Nobody was really

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Speaker 1: coming on board to help, and then Kim Kardashian stepped in.

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Speaker 1: So I know people would say Kim Kardashi into credit,

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Speaker 1: blah blah blah, but really what she did was bring

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Speaker 1: more attention to the work that my angel Cody was doing.

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Speaker 1: So I just want to give a toast to her

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Speaker 1: and make sure that everybody checks out the Third Strike

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Speaker 1: documentary as she works with the Decarceration Collective that's her

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Speaker 1: organization to make sure that these people who are serving

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Speaker 1: life sentences without parole for non violent drug offenses are

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Speaker 1: being treated uh and getting out because it's important. You know,

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Speaker 1: they haven't done anything wrong. It's the third strike. It

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Speaker 1: could be just a marijuana and now you gotta go

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Speaker 1: to jail for life. Meanwhile, people who've done way worse

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Speaker 1: things are getting out before you, which is ridiculous. And

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Speaker 1: you know, when you watch the documentary, it also shows

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Speaker 1: how that tears people's families apart once they are released,

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Speaker 1: or what they go through while they have a loved

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Speaker 1: one that's in prison that's not there to hold it

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Speaker 1: down in the household. How families suffer because of that.

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Speaker 1: So we want to give a toast to you, my angel,

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Speaker 1: for all the amazing work that you have been doing. Cheers, Cheers,

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Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? Is list service? I'm angela Yee,

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Speaker 1: I'm Jig mcguarire, I'm Laurial, and I'm a little you know,

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Speaker 1: is definitely like one of the members of Live Service already.

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Speaker 1: So and it's sound nice to see you. Good seeing

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Speaker 1: you too. I know it's been it's been some time, ladies,

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Speaker 1: but everybody looks amazing. Y'all look good. You look everybody.

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Speaker 1: Remember I'm in Philly, in Atlanta, I'm in Baltimore. You

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Speaker 1: know good that damn Mountain technology. So let him know.

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Speaker 1: How is everything gone with you? I know you know,

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Speaker 1: last time we talked to you on the Breakfast Club,

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Speaker 1: you talked about a lot of different things that was

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Speaker 1: going on, and then we heard your song, you know, Heartbroken,

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Speaker 1: So let's get into it. I released my single broken

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Speaker 1: Heart or my Daughter's Birthday February one, and I did

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Speaker 1: it at a time it was just like, you know,

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Speaker 1: the pandemic was going on. Everybody was on the house arrest,

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Speaker 1: everybody was on punishment. Everybody knew. Here. If somebody could say, oh,

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Speaker 1: that I want to know what you had and are

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Speaker 1: you bottling it up and selling it? Because everybody that

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Speaker 1: I know that I personally know, emotionally and mentally had

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Speaker 1: the light like yo, you didn't know what was going

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Speaker 1: on for me. From my standpoint was we were literally

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Speaker 1: Femine Forward Girls with Heather Lowry and am Read. It

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Speaker 1: was it was like a lot of us. We were

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Speaker 1: literally shooting the cover for the Femine Forward Vibe. And

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Speaker 1: I've been going to l A X for over twenty

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Speaker 1: years to go to the airport and nobody be there.

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Speaker 1: I thought the world was coming to it. And and

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you I was scared. You know. That

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Speaker 1: But butet when I you from l A still had

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Speaker 1: I'm just like, well, they're talking about the world's coming

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Speaker 1: Everybody wear mask spray. I didn't know what was going on,

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Speaker 1: it all. We got a lot of kids. It was

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Speaker 1: like because my older my older daughters, I have one

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Speaker 1: But my twelve year old son, my eight year old son,

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Speaker 1: how come their kids are so good at mins? Beyond

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Speaker 1: beginning of the pandemic as well as still continuously. You know, um,

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Speaker 1: Because I was like we're close and were family, but

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Speaker 1: know what's crazy about all of that? Right, because you

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Speaker 1: talked about your kids, you talked about work, but what

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Speaker 1: about you personally? Because obviously I know, like little Mo,

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Speaker 1: you always have seemed so strong to me, like outward

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Speaker 1: me just everything that you've done in your life and

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Speaker 1: your vulnerabilities. And like we said, you know you did

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Speaker 1: have a broken heart, So what was that like during

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Speaker 1: lot of time to just think, Yeah, the pandemic and

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Speaker 1: my broken heart. Honestly, I use this time to heal.

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Speaker 1: And this was the best thing that I could say

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Speaker 1: happened to me in my twenty years plus being a

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Speaker 1: got to know myself more. What I like, I'm glad

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Speaker 1: always has to be something to replace what you're taken away.

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Speaker 1: healing because they're still triggers. I'd be like, nah, yo,

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Speaker 1: I don't accept everything anymore. There you go, Well, what

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Speaker 1: was the finest job when when it really takes you

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Speaker 1: looking at my whole nigga over here. But yeah, that's

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Speaker 1: talk but this one I did that five years because

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00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:55,760
Speaker 1: I didn't want it to be six six no more?

428
00:21:55,840 --> 00:21:57,480
Speaker 1: How do how do you guys be trying to holler

429
00:21:57,560 --> 00:21:59,399
Speaker 1: at you now? Because I know that some of them

430
00:21:59,480 --> 00:22:04,680
Speaker 1: DM sppen I'm focused. When I say I'm focused on

431
00:22:04,800 --> 00:22:07,240
Speaker 1: my glow, I don't even I don't even want to

432
00:22:07,240 --> 00:22:10,560
Speaker 1: be in a relationship right I'm not. I'm not you know,

433
00:22:10,720 --> 00:22:14,120
Speaker 1: some people are irreparably damaged. I'm not damaged and I'm

434
00:22:14,160 --> 00:22:17,000
Speaker 1: not broken. I'm not bitter. I'm past that stage. Like

435
00:22:17,160 --> 00:22:20,320
Speaker 1: I'm still at the place I'm like, no, I want

436
00:22:20,359 --> 00:22:25,080
Speaker 1: to really get what's due to me because since I

437
00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:28,000
Speaker 1: came out as little more, I was always attached to

438
00:22:28,119 --> 00:22:31,600
Speaker 1: some nigger like yeah, like it's time for me to

439
00:22:31,720 --> 00:22:34,520
Speaker 1: shine by myself. I don't want to be attached like.

440
00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:36,200
Speaker 1: I don't want that. I don't want that for me

441
00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:40,560
Speaker 1: right now? So them about that, that's so and it's

442
00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:43,320
Speaker 1: coming Savage Heart. That's that's my new lass, so broken

443
00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:48,400
Speaker 1: the thing. I love that Shanna Start. I'm just waiting

444
00:22:48,440 --> 00:22:50,280
Speaker 1: for this one feature to send their vocals, and they

445
00:22:50,359 --> 00:22:52,280
Speaker 1: just had a Saul drop on Friday. I'm not gonna

446
00:22:52,320 --> 00:22:54,280
Speaker 1: say who it is, so I'm just waiting for them

447
00:22:54,320 --> 00:23:00,600
Speaker 1: to send Ja Cole. I can't tell you. I can't

448
00:23:00,720 --> 00:23:04,520
Speaker 1: tell it J Cole or me Goes because they all

449
00:23:04,680 --> 00:23:07,800
Speaker 1: dropped Friday. There's a couple of people that dropped Friday.

450
00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:13,680
Speaker 1: We're messing. Somebody already have one feature on it. It's

451
00:23:13,720 --> 00:23:15,879
Speaker 1: called Shining Star, and it's like, but we're gonna do

452
00:23:16,040 --> 00:23:19,159
Speaker 1: like different, not part like how just super Woman Part one,

453
00:23:19,200 --> 00:23:21,879
Speaker 1: Part two, Part three, well part one, Part two. This

454
00:23:22,119 --> 00:23:24,680
Speaker 1: is gonna be part one in part two, so to

455
00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:28,200
Speaker 1: be Shining Star Part one, and then they'll be Shining

456
00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:30,400
Speaker 1: Star Part two because I just think if all three

457
00:23:30,480 --> 00:23:33,200
Speaker 1: of us was on this record, it might be lit.

458
00:23:33,280 --> 00:23:35,760
Speaker 1: So we'll see. I'm just waiting, but I'll tell you

459
00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:41,399
Speaker 1: talking about this Fatman school point that's gonna be upbeing Okay.

460
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:44,760
Speaker 1: I love that it's right here is a ladies anthem.

461
00:23:44,920 --> 00:23:47,840
Speaker 1: It's Superwoman and Forever on steroids. It's like a blend

462
00:23:47,880 --> 00:23:50,840
Speaker 1: of the time. I'm not playing with this gun, you know,

463
00:23:52,000 --> 00:23:58,359
Speaker 1: I just selling it right now? Yeah, yeahs what's this all?

464
00:23:59,240 --> 00:24:03,680
Speaker 1: Six come back and was like literally it's like I

465
00:24:04,960 --> 00:24:11,680
Speaker 1: knew you. That's a large actually sell a bit because

466
00:24:11,720 --> 00:24:16,600
Speaker 1: it's like, what's PARSTI you always like you stay with

467
00:24:16,760 --> 00:24:18,800
Speaker 1: you a man, like you said, but you know it's

468
00:24:18,840 --> 00:24:22,199
Speaker 1: dope about you in a good way though, Like mostly

469
00:24:22,320 --> 00:24:25,879
Speaker 1: you always see like guys putting on, like in the industry,

470
00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:28,680
Speaker 1: putting on women. So it's like we know Karuci because

471
00:24:28,720 --> 00:24:31,280
Speaker 1: of Chris Brown, whatever the case. But in your case,

472
00:24:31,359 --> 00:24:34,120
Speaker 1: it's like you put the guys on. And that's rare

473
00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:36,840
Speaker 1: because we've seen a lot of artists date a lot

474
00:24:36,920 --> 00:24:38,800
Speaker 1: of guys that we didn't know and we didn't give

475
00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:42,159
Speaker 1: a funk with that. But that like, oh that's the

476
00:24:42,359 --> 00:24:44,639
Speaker 1: most Yeah, that's what was man and that's what we

477
00:24:44,760 --> 00:24:47,840
Speaker 1: called them too, That's what and that's that's an identity

478
00:24:47,880 --> 00:24:49,920
Speaker 1: crisis that a lot of these men will suffer with

479
00:24:50,040 --> 00:24:52,840
Speaker 1: for the rest of their life because identity outside of

480
00:24:52,880 --> 00:24:56,800
Speaker 1: being little most that yeah, like because I always try

481
00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:58,959
Speaker 1: to push them to a position where like get your

482
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:02,040
Speaker 1: mon identity but it's like I get it. But at

483
00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:03,680
Speaker 1: the end of the day, one thing I have learned

484
00:25:03,720 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 1: to is, whoever you loving, humping or doing anything, we

485
00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:10,360
Speaker 1: do not post it on social media because soon as

486
00:25:10,480 --> 00:25:15,879
Speaker 1: you do. But this is sure everybody, guys, you are

487
00:25:15,920 --> 00:25:20,640
Speaker 1: an absolutely coming even if you I see, like, it's

488
00:25:20,720 --> 00:25:25,520
Speaker 1: so devious and so strategic. Now I saw somebody post

489
00:25:25,640 --> 00:25:28,639
Speaker 1: a hand and somebody zoom and they can fight. They

490
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:32,320
Speaker 1: can fight. They zoom in and you can see the reflection.

491
00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: Mulatto posted a picture. I can do that, but we're

492
00:25:40,560 --> 00:25:50,640
Speaker 1: not Wait, that's hilarious, glasses, Like what's that. I'm looking

493
00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:53,760
Speaker 1: at your reflection right now? They're looking at the background

494
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:55,960
Speaker 1: and be like one little thing in the background and

495
00:25:56,119 --> 00:26:03,360
Speaker 1: that's the same slipper together. That's hip. But I peeked too.

496
00:26:03,440 --> 00:26:05,680
Speaker 1: I was like zooming, and I was like, you know

497
00:26:05,720 --> 00:26:07,920
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I'm just like, people are really

498
00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:10,880
Speaker 1: so here. You won't see you ain't gonna see me out.

499
00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:14,040
Speaker 1: But I've really been falling back and just getting a

500
00:26:14,119 --> 00:26:16,800
Speaker 1: tune in and touching myself. Like I realized. I was like, yeah,

501
00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:20,879
Speaker 1: I really loved myself. Speaking speaking of loving and touching yourself, right, whoa.

502
00:26:22,840 --> 00:26:26,040
Speaker 1: So now that you I singing, it's probably the longest

503
00:26:26,080 --> 00:26:33,040
Speaker 1: you've ever been saying. Oh, how frequently do you masturbate? Um? Honestly,

504
00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:37,240
Speaker 1: not a lot, because I'm to the point I had

505
00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:44,399
Speaker 1: enough sex and kids, like I'm I'm still fertile. Then

506
00:26:44,440 --> 00:26:47,280
Speaker 1: when it comes to me, I know I'm a swampio

507
00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:52,639
Speaker 1: so I'm a sexual that it's like it's it's like

508
00:26:53,359 --> 00:26:56,600
Speaker 1: it's leg So I don't even honestly for this year.

509
00:26:56,720 --> 00:27:00,280
Speaker 1: Probably once that's it. Yeah, it's not even I'm not

510
00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:03,199
Speaker 1: even on that tight time because I know one thing

511
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:06,000
Speaker 1: I know about myself is once I get in that zone,

512
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:08,520
Speaker 1: I'm in my bag and I'm like, no, I don't

513
00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:12,240
Speaker 1: need any distractions. And one thing I know with me

514
00:27:13,080 --> 00:27:21,000
Speaker 1: or distraction distraction distractions that one time was that in

515
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:24,639
Speaker 1: the bathtub, are you like using toys? Are you watching?

516
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:27,600
Speaker 1: I don't use no toys because I just be like,

517
00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:31,399
Speaker 1: what if I'm a person that I feel that my

518
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:34,800
Speaker 1: luck is so bad that I joy and I'll be

519
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,400
Speaker 1: the got rigg of mortis or something like, because I've

520
00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:40,080
Speaker 1: heard of stories where people stuff don't done tightened up

521
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:42,280
Speaker 1: and they had to go get it search fully removed

522
00:27:42,880 --> 00:27:45,639
Speaker 1: so I'm the person I'll be on like I'm just

523
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:49,640
Speaker 1: now bo started going back outside. So and I don't

524
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:51,239
Speaker 1: even do it in the house because I'm like one

525
00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:55,360
Speaker 1: of my kids beat a bust and they wait till

526
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,320
Speaker 1: I'm like when the road and hit a couple of

527
00:27:57,720 --> 00:28:01,040
Speaker 1: what do I have cossa? Me gooes daddy on because

528
00:28:03,480 --> 00:28:06,960
Speaker 1: YEA need him deadly on too. We got you said

529
00:28:06,960 --> 00:28:09,439
Speaker 1: in particular day, that's what I had. I had one

530
00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:11,760
Speaker 1: shot because I had to drink the whole penny, the

531
00:28:11,840 --> 00:28:16,119
Speaker 1: whole panthemony. I had a letter called it and I'm like,

532
00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:22,480
Speaker 1: that's now sexual this and I just put on what's

533
00:28:22,480 --> 00:28:23,959
Speaker 1: the name of this? I put on one of them

534
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 1: sites and I was like, oh, ship pin high what

535
00:28:27,600 --> 00:28:31,080
Speaker 1: you know? You know what they like? You know what

536
00:28:31,160 --> 00:28:33,240
Speaker 1: kind of point I hate? That will make me be like, okay,

537
00:28:33,320 --> 00:28:36,600
Speaker 1: this's just ruin everything. It might sound bad. I hate

538
00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:40,840
Speaker 1: when like and plint fucking people are women are lactating?

539
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:47,920
Speaker 1: You ever see that nips? I've never seen that because

540
00:28:47,960 --> 00:28:50,120
Speaker 1: now they have it itemized where you could type in

541
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:52,880
Speaker 1: certain things or they'll say oh this is what's like

542
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 1: their shows, And I'm like, people have fetishes? What is

543
00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:02,840
Speaker 1: angela logic that you see, I don't you have like

544
00:29:02,920 --> 00:29:04,960
Speaker 1: a homepage and the most copy of the videos, so

545
00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:06,479
Speaker 1: you'll be like, what's that and you put it out

546
00:29:06,520 --> 00:29:09,880
Speaker 1: in that milk square and you're like, okay, just my favorite.

547
00:29:11,680 --> 00:29:14,880
Speaker 1: Yeah I'm Carus and now where are you going? Because

548
00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:18,240
Speaker 1: you said point hubbits now for you, so put me

549
00:29:18,360 --> 00:29:23,120
Speaker 1: on and yeah that But it's this, it's the specific

550
00:29:23,240 --> 00:29:30,720
Speaker 1: couple that they just lit the teams as te something

551
00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,840
Speaker 1: like that, like the girl, like the way that they

552
00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:35,239
Speaker 1: roll play and they black and I used it one

553
00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:37,880
Speaker 1: of those I usually don't watch black peorn because I'm

554
00:29:37,920 --> 00:29:41,920
Speaker 1: just like black people were so sexual, Like I'm like like,

555
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:46,720
Speaker 1: I'm like they're really having sex, like nobody let me

556
00:29:46,760 --> 00:29:50,560
Speaker 1: see what it's giving. But teams see like he'll be

557
00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:52,680
Speaker 1: it'll just be like we're just watching the movie and

558
00:29:52,760 --> 00:29:55,080
Speaker 1: she gave me some bomb match sloppy. If you don't

559
00:29:55,120 --> 00:30:03,680
Speaker 1: come in thirty seconds, then you ain't real. So I

560
00:30:03,840 --> 00:30:07,760
Speaker 1: love you gotta learn some new tracks? Are you learning

561
00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:12,440
Speaker 1: new tracks? Yeah? The way the world is going, old

562
00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:18,160
Speaker 1: school humping is not the way. You gotta do something real.

563
00:30:18,240 --> 00:30:19,760
Speaker 1: And you got you a new boot and you've been

564
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:22,480
Speaker 1: getting it back in child. You go ahead. Oh no,

565
00:30:22,520 --> 00:30:24,560
Speaker 1: I'm about to start taking yoga and take a swimming

566
00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:28,080
Speaker 1: classes because I haven't been flexible, so I haven't been

567
00:30:28,120 --> 00:30:31,000
Speaker 1: doing anything to open endemic, just you know, just watching

568
00:30:31,040 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 1: my way that started this cleanse because like everything is

569
00:30:34,040 --> 00:30:36,200
Speaker 1: opening back up. So I got a gang of shows

570
00:30:36,240 --> 00:30:38,960
Speaker 1: coming up. But I was like, wait, I'll be seeing

571
00:30:38,960 --> 00:30:40,720
Speaker 1: people that be twerking and they'd be school and I

572
00:30:40,840 --> 00:30:44,520
Speaker 1: was like, who's knee scooting? Yeah? I don't. I can't

573
00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:47,040
Speaker 1: get fun. I can't funk with it either. I'm like, damn,

574
00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:49,880
Speaker 1: my wash because I can't do this ship on the

575
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:54,040
Speaker 1: ground and they've been doing or what they boot booty cheeks.

576
00:30:54,080 --> 00:30:57,120
Speaker 1: I'm like, my what don't need move like that? Somebody?

577
00:30:57,120 --> 00:31:00,520
Speaker 1: Does anybody do that during sex? For real? I think

578
00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:05,640
Speaker 1: you're supposed to working. Ain't nobody's working in school ground

579
00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:10,160
Speaker 1: that this can do? Right? Yeah? Yeah? Yeah yeah the

580
00:31:10,280 --> 00:31:14,440
Speaker 1: crime baby, that hurts my knees. I'm looking at a lie.

581
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,160
Speaker 1: I'm really good at like doing stuff like that during sex,

582
00:31:17,280 --> 00:31:19,080
Speaker 1: but I can't do it for too long because and

583
00:31:19,120 --> 00:31:20,640
Speaker 1: then you'd be a boy because they don't want you

584
00:31:20,680 --> 00:31:24,240
Speaker 1: to stop, and you'd be like, man, I gotta stopped

585
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 1: riding to pick up on my tippycod that's what they removed.

586
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:29,800
Speaker 1: But you're gonna be getting just two minutes out of

587
00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:32,520
Speaker 1: me and then right that that, don't you feel like

588
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 1: a failure like me, I'll be like, damn, I gotta

589
00:31:34,720 --> 00:31:39,840
Speaker 1: quit Like this baby, you can't quit. You can't be

590
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:44,480
Speaker 1: a quitner likes to make it. See then I started

591
00:31:44,600 --> 00:31:47,920
Speaker 1: one need damn pep one foot up. I have my

592
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:50,160
Speaker 1: feet a foot So when I try to do like this,

593
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:53,480
Speaker 1: my one time my foot fell asleep. I was like,

594
00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:57,440
Speaker 1: you're that cramp in the art of your foot. Yeah,

595
00:31:57,720 --> 00:32:01,960
Speaker 1: get a childly horse to that motherfucker. I'll be the

596
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:09,680
Speaker 1: first to say, I'm warr crazy. But what if okay, yeah, okay, cool.

597
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:13,760
Speaker 1: So when he can't come back to back before, what yeah,

598
00:32:13,840 --> 00:32:15,400
Speaker 1: what if he can't come back to back? So like

599
00:32:15,520 --> 00:32:17,640
Speaker 1: theay you make him colm and you think like all right,

600
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:19,360
Speaker 1: it's about to go down, and he's like, oh no,

601
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 1: I need like another hour. No, let's get let's get

602
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:24,960
Speaker 1: us a nap after that, let's go to sleep. You

603
00:32:25,040 --> 00:32:28,440
Speaker 1: know people like I do me all night. No ch'll

604
00:32:29,960 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 1: I taket my melotonin. I love him? Melaton another flighty

605
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:38,800
Speaker 1: I popped me a MELI I call him my y

606
00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:42,680
Speaker 1: w melly. Oh no, I don't call it that, y'all.

607
00:32:44,320 --> 00:32:46,560
Speaker 1: I love him because I feel I feel so bad.

608
00:32:46,760 --> 00:32:50,440
Speaker 1: That's another thing. It's just like damn, like I'm so

609
00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:53,480
Speaker 1: glad to just still be alive. I'm in the four

610
00:32:53,520 --> 00:32:55,800
Speaker 1: point old club, so you feel me. It's like so

611
00:32:55,920 --> 00:32:58,600
Speaker 1: many people that are younger losing their lives and like

612
00:32:58,760 --> 00:33:01,640
Speaker 1: they won't have to get the these conversations and experienced

613
00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:04,240
Speaker 1: these kind of things, because like the life is really

614
00:33:06,520 --> 00:33:08,680
Speaker 1: just what happens when you kill your two best friends

615
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:12,560
Speaker 1: and drive around with them for a few that's deep.

616
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:17,080
Speaker 1: Well that's what happened allegedly. Okay, well let's move on

617
00:33:17,280 --> 00:33:21,880
Speaker 1: from there. Not wearing it on that. Yeah, I don't

618
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:23,920
Speaker 1: want to talk about this Bill Gates situation. I am

619
00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:27,960
Speaker 1: fascinated right with Bill Gates and his divorce from Melinda Gates.

620
00:33:28,040 --> 00:33:30,360
Speaker 1: And they're saying now that he had like a relationship

621
00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 1: with one of the employees in the office and she

622
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,560
Speaker 1: wanted it. She wanted his wife to know. I wrote

623
00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:38,680
Speaker 1: a letter allegedly that she wanted the wife to read. Now,

624
00:33:38,760 --> 00:33:41,120
Speaker 1: have you ever been well, you know, you've been in

625
00:33:41,200 --> 00:33:44,480
Speaker 1: relationships your whole day of life. But can you imagine

626
00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:47,160
Speaker 1: being like the side piece, knowing this man is married

627
00:33:47,240 --> 00:33:49,760
Speaker 1: and then wanting to write a letter to the wife.

628
00:33:50,200 --> 00:33:52,000
Speaker 1: Whose fault is that? Because I feel like that's a

629
00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:53,960
Speaker 1: man's fault if he feels like he gives you that

630
00:33:54,120 --> 00:33:56,520
Speaker 1: much power to make you feel like you have the

631
00:33:56,880 --> 00:34:00,160
Speaker 1: right to want to like send a letter of the

632
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:03,360
Speaker 1: wife to read. So I want to know what I

633
00:34:03,440 --> 00:34:09,400
Speaker 1: would do. See, they paid for so long and the

634
00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:12,600
Speaker 1: bitch wrote the letter. Okay, since I'm still getting the billions,

635
00:34:12,640 --> 00:34:15,600
Speaker 1: like you ain't getting no check, So she weird for

636
00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:20,840
Speaker 1: that and don't sleep. Melinda probably had her side do,

637
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:26,160
Speaker 1: but niggas ain't writing no letters too much, Like if

638
00:34:26,200 --> 00:34:28,640
Speaker 1: you would be aside, that's what you're supposed to do,

639
00:34:28,760 --> 00:34:31,840
Speaker 1: say sit aside. These people be empowering these people on

640
00:34:31,920 --> 00:34:33,640
Speaker 1: social media. I don't know she wrote the letter on

641
00:34:33,760 --> 00:34:37,520
Speaker 1: loosely if she like, that's the audacity for me. So

642
00:34:37,640 --> 00:34:39,839
Speaker 1: I'm just like I would be like if she really

643
00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:42,600
Speaker 1: tried it. So that's between her and God. You knew

644
00:34:42,640 --> 00:34:44,640
Speaker 1: that man was married, so you gotta give an account

645
00:34:44,680 --> 00:34:48,359
Speaker 1: for that. But he's just factful. How you cheated at work?

646
00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 1: Like where how are you? Like do we go to work?

647
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:59,279
Speaker 1: Like from being like he had to because he tried

648
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:01,920
Speaker 1: to message too many people at the company, Like he

649
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:05,080
Speaker 1: was asking women on dates and he was like if

650
00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,719
Speaker 1: this makes you uncomfortable, just don't respond, and bitches was

651
00:35:07,840 --> 00:35:12,479
Speaker 1: ghost to him like something, you are a billionaire, girls

652
00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:15,920
Speaker 1: just ghosting you super whacked Like bitches like I don't

653
00:35:15,960 --> 00:35:18,960
Speaker 1: even want the money fun this nigger Like that's like

654
00:35:19,120 --> 00:35:21,279
Speaker 1: that's crazy to me. So it's like no matter how

655
00:35:21,320 --> 00:35:24,200
Speaker 1: how you go up on the financial letter, these niggass

656
00:35:24,280 --> 00:35:27,560
Speaker 1: just have audacity. Bill Gates have the audacity like you

657
00:35:27,719 --> 00:35:29,800
Speaker 1: messed with somebody that's at your company, Like do you

658
00:35:29,960 --> 00:35:33,680
Speaker 1: know that these chicks is did turn around time? As

659
00:35:33,719 --> 00:35:36,040
Speaker 1: soon as soon as you send a d M, they're like,

660
00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:38,440
Speaker 1: oh this they got slid you feel me? Like that

661
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:43,960
Speaker 1: mean Harvey Weinstein, you got sucking Donald Trump. Like it's

662
00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:46,920
Speaker 1: a lot of guys in power, white men especially I'm

663
00:35:46,960 --> 00:35:50,440
Speaker 1: saying just white because there's black man Like yeah, majority,

664
00:35:50,719 --> 00:35:53,480
Speaker 1: They use their power and they get over on certain

665
00:35:53,520 --> 00:35:56,319
Speaker 1: things and then people are scared to say. Women are

666
00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:59,000
Speaker 1: scared to speak out because they know these people are

667
00:35:59,080 --> 00:36:02,839
Speaker 1: so powerful, you know, and she obviously wasn't scared because,

668
00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:04,920
Speaker 1: like you said, he must have gave her the bag

669
00:36:05,160 --> 00:36:08,439
Speaker 1: some kind of thing. Melinda, you get what I'm bad,

670
00:36:10,000 --> 00:36:13,160
Speaker 1: Like like as a woman, betch if you don't get

671
00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:15,239
Speaker 1: the funk out of here, you and that nigga, And

672
00:36:16,880 --> 00:36:18,880
Speaker 1: it's just like running my money at this point, like

673
00:36:19,080 --> 00:36:21,560
Speaker 1: now she just about the cash out. But when I

674
00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:23,600
Speaker 1: was reading some of the things that Melinda said, like

675
00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:26,080
Speaker 1: I have empathy for the white side because it's just

676
00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:28,000
Speaker 1: like you saw this man at his lowest. Now he

677
00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:31,399
Speaker 1: gets a heavy bag. You know, popped out three kids

678
00:36:31,480 --> 00:36:32,840
Speaker 1: for this man and then all of a sudden he

679
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,640
Speaker 1: talks like, yeah, we're going several places. And you said,

680
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:39,200
Speaker 1: and y'all like seventy like that, you know what. I

681
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:42,359
Speaker 1: was just looking at Jeff Bezos right and his ex

682
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:44,560
Speaker 1: wife now m Cantie, she's married to like a school

683
00:36:44,640 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 1: teacher in Seattle. Now that's how Yeah, because Milenda gonna

684
00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:53,040
Speaker 1: have so much money she does, I think Melinda gonna

685
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:56,320
Speaker 1: get a black man, like how Chris Jenna did she

686
00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:59,640
Speaker 1: gotta do that man didn't go and live her best

687
00:36:59,760 --> 00:37:04,120
Speaker 1: life and boot is going to be gagging. Jam. She

688
00:37:04,280 --> 00:37:06,560
Speaker 1: got a whole private island that she read it out

689
00:37:06,640 --> 00:37:09,200
Speaker 1: for all of them to go and her significant other.

690
00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:12,279
Speaker 1: They said, so supposedly they've been divorced for a few

691
00:37:12,320 --> 00:37:15,400
Speaker 1: months now, right, uh, and just finalized already. It was

692
00:37:15,440 --> 00:37:17,400
Speaker 1: probably I think it was for their kids and their

693
00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:20,160
Speaker 1: kids significant others to go to kind of stay away

694
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:23,160
Speaker 1: from the press. And I have to deal with you know, well,

695
00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:25,239
Speaker 1: if you watch, I need to write home no bit.

696
00:37:25,360 --> 00:37:33,080
Speaker 1: If you need some friends, club, Melnda, you welcome right

697
00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:37,160
Speaker 1: up here on lip service. Girl, listen the idea like

698
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:40,080
Speaker 1: everybody else was doing last week or two weeks ago,

699
00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:43,799
Speaker 1: they were slidding and now. One thing I also want

700
00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:46,680
Speaker 1: to address is a lot of times like women decided

701
00:37:46,719 --> 00:37:48,719
Speaker 1: to come forward and talk about the truth of things

702
00:37:48,800 --> 00:37:50,399
Speaker 1: that have happened to them, but it might not happen

703
00:37:50,520 --> 00:37:52,759
Speaker 1: right away. You might wait, if you much, you might

704
00:37:52,800 --> 00:37:55,080
Speaker 1: even wait some years before you feel like you're in

705
00:37:55,120 --> 00:37:56,840
Speaker 1: a space to be able to do that. And I

706
00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:59,399
Speaker 1: see a lot of people chiming in like why now,

707
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:01,759
Speaker 1: why did she wait until now? Why didn't she say

708
00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:04,520
Speaker 1: it right away when at first happened, And just as

709
00:38:04,600 --> 00:38:08,440
Speaker 1: women to explain what it's like when we've all been

710
00:38:08,480 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 1: in situations, I'm sure we have right where things that

711
00:38:11,120 --> 00:38:14,040
Speaker 1: were inappropriate, with some things we might not ever talk about,

712
00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:16,759
Speaker 1: but if we decided we wanted to, we have every

713
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:18,880
Speaker 1: right to do that whenever we should want to do that.

714
00:38:19,080 --> 00:38:22,200
Speaker 1: Am I right? You're absolutely right? And so I just

715
00:38:22,280 --> 00:38:24,160
Speaker 1: wanted to clear that because I hate when a woman

716
00:38:24,880 --> 00:38:27,280
Speaker 1: speaks out about something that happened to her and experience

717
00:38:27,360 --> 00:38:29,000
Speaker 1: that she had, and that people being in the comments

718
00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:31,640
Speaker 1: like why are she talking about this now? Why is

719
00:38:31,719 --> 00:38:34,279
Speaker 1: she saying this? Why didn't she say it before? And

720
00:38:34,320 --> 00:38:36,719
Speaker 1: they'd we kind of don't believe you or they shame you.

721
00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:41,120
Speaker 1: You know, I've been a victim of that as well.

722
00:38:41,360 --> 00:38:43,839
Speaker 1: You know I wouldn't say victim. I've been a part

723
00:38:43,880 --> 00:38:46,120
Speaker 1: of that because you know, you'd be like, what that

724
00:38:46,200 --> 00:38:47,799
Speaker 1: happened to me there? Well, why are you saying there?

725
00:38:47,880 --> 00:38:50,160
Speaker 1: You cloud us will be like, no, I had said

726
00:38:50,200 --> 00:38:53,800
Speaker 1: it before, but nobody was paying attention. And they're always

727
00:38:53,800 --> 00:38:56,680
Speaker 1: signed yourself, but they're awesome people who you're just like, wait,

728
00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:59,239
Speaker 1: why are you saying in there you had? They're are

729
00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:02,680
Speaker 1: some situation where people had amful enough time. This is

730
00:39:02,719 --> 00:39:04,920
Speaker 1: what I always see on social media, be like why

731
00:39:04,920 --> 00:39:07,600
Speaker 1: are you telling us? Go tell the cops. And then

732
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:08,719
Speaker 1: let it come up like they have a lot of

733
00:39:08,719 --> 00:39:11,800
Speaker 1: people who haven't even filed a protection from a boose

734
00:39:12,280 --> 00:39:14,279
Speaker 1: or restraint in order, but they'll go right on social

735
00:39:14,320 --> 00:39:16,200
Speaker 1: media be like, y'all like this person, well, this is

736
00:39:16,239 --> 00:39:20,040
Speaker 1: who they really are, be like, yeah, he was the

737
00:39:20,080 --> 00:39:23,239
Speaker 1: devil himself, he was the spawn of saying. But there

738
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:24,960
Speaker 1: was a lot of people I told people about and

739
00:39:25,000 --> 00:39:26,600
Speaker 1: they don't want to listen. They thought I was hating,

740
00:39:26,640 --> 00:39:28,640
Speaker 1: they thought I was camping. But I'm just like, okay,

741
00:39:29,280 --> 00:39:30,600
Speaker 1: but we now heard it is to go to the

742
00:39:30,640 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 1: police too, Like a lot of times, I think id issue. No,

743
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:36,399
Speaker 1: I do think that's an issue because in a way,

744
00:39:36,920 --> 00:39:39,080
Speaker 1: like in our community, I felt like we always been

745
00:39:39,120 --> 00:39:42,719
Speaker 1: talking going to the police as former snitching regardless, right,

746
00:39:42,800 --> 00:39:45,680
Speaker 1: so you're gonna be called a Snitcherlly'll be looked at

747
00:39:45,719 --> 00:39:47,759
Speaker 1: a certain way now, I know saying people that have

748
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:50,520
Speaker 1: come out and been like this person has done something

749
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:53,080
Speaker 1: to me, and people are like, oh, that bitch, that

750
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:55,800
Speaker 1: la la la, and they'll turn against the girl like

751
00:39:55,920 --> 00:39:58,520
Speaker 1: as if she's not the victim, and you just automatically

752
00:39:58,680 --> 00:40:01,200
Speaker 1: make her the issue. And that's why we need to

753
00:40:01,280 --> 00:40:06,920
Speaker 1: change that narrative. But the people is deciphering between the

754
00:40:07,120 --> 00:40:12,000
Speaker 1: real people and the and the capitalized the cloud chases,

755
00:40:12,239 --> 00:40:15,959
Speaker 1: and that's the that's the thin sketchy line because I've

756
00:40:16,200 --> 00:40:20,840
Speaker 1: personally seen being in this music industry and I'm just like,

757
00:40:21,680 --> 00:40:25,000
Speaker 1: that's wrong. But I knew. But being quiet though, because yeah,

758
00:40:25,200 --> 00:40:28,480
Speaker 1: that ly is none of your business too. It could

759
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:30,840
Speaker 1: get you wrapped up in do some style, some bullshit

760
00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:33,600
Speaker 1: that you ain't gotta know you're kind of quiet about it. Yeah,

761
00:40:33,719 --> 00:40:35,960
Speaker 1: So it's just like I realized I pay attention to

762
00:40:36,080 --> 00:40:39,239
Speaker 1: my own stuff. So whatever happened to me, like when

763
00:40:39,280 --> 00:40:42,359
Speaker 1: I first started talking, Oh, when I came out about

764
00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:44,399
Speaker 1: the opio Oh, you're just trying to cloud chase because

765
00:40:44,440 --> 00:40:47,640
Speaker 1: so I was like, no, I'm not. That ship is real.

766
00:40:48,080 --> 00:40:49,880
Speaker 1: If I can show you the receipts of how much

767
00:40:49,880 --> 00:40:51,880
Speaker 1: you was spent, I want my money back. I wouldn't

768
00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,960
Speaker 1: have never in my life if I wasn't going through

769
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:58,880
Speaker 1: depression and anxiety and so many things like I wish

770
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:02,359
Speaker 1: I would have what it was then then I want

771
00:41:02,400 --> 00:41:04,640
Speaker 1: to spend so much personal money and I could have

772
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:07,360
Speaker 1: got help, but the police, I said, don't make us

773
00:41:07,440 --> 00:41:09,400
Speaker 1: feel safe. You know what I mean? This is a

774
00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,759
Speaker 1: community of where when I think of the police, I

775
00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:15,880
Speaker 1: think about getting shot, killed, beat up, all kinds of

776
00:41:15,960 --> 00:41:19,279
Speaker 1: things that's negative. So I've had things happen and a

777
00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:22,479
Speaker 1: certain particular incident that I could think of that maybe

778
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:24,680
Speaker 1: I should have went to the cops, But I didn't.

779
00:41:24,960 --> 00:41:26,800
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I felt like I told

780
00:41:27,080 --> 00:41:30,000
Speaker 1: who then does it feels like it's out of your hands?

781
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:33,560
Speaker 1: But I felt like it happen right. But I feel

782
00:41:33,600 --> 00:41:35,680
Speaker 1: like I told who I needed to tell that can

783
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:38,879
Speaker 1: handle the situation best for me. You get what I'm saying,

784
00:41:39,280 --> 00:41:42,200
Speaker 1: And the police wasn't it at the time. I feel

785
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:45,200
Speaker 1: you because everybody don't want to snitch into me. Snitching is.

786
00:41:46,360 --> 00:41:49,000
Speaker 1: People are blowing that word out of proportion. They're giving

787
00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:51,800
Speaker 1: it too much. Snitching is, if you like, remember the

788
00:41:51,880 --> 00:41:54,080
Speaker 1: lady that peek out the window and know everybody's business.

789
00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:56,440
Speaker 1: So the media is the biggest snitch because people do

790
00:41:56,520 --> 00:42:00,919
Speaker 1: stuffing just like, oh you that. But when me, even

791
00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:03,560
Speaker 1: when I went to file for my protecial views, I

792
00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:05,800
Speaker 1: didn't just go to the police. I didn't just go

793
00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:08,480
Speaker 1: I called my lawyer first and I told him what

794
00:42:08,640 --> 00:42:12,160
Speaker 1: and he told me exactly where it goes. Anything happened

795
00:42:12,200 --> 00:42:14,720
Speaker 1: to me in the interroom, so I covered my basis.

796
00:42:14,920 --> 00:42:17,120
Speaker 1: So when I went to the police, thank god I

797
00:42:17,239 --> 00:42:18,759
Speaker 1: am who I am, because when I got to the

798
00:42:18,840 --> 00:42:22,879
Speaker 1: front counter, I was walked right in like the lady

799
00:42:23,000 --> 00:42:25,080
Speaker 1: was just like And what was crazy was the lady

800
00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:28,239
Speaker 1: who actually had to do like give me all the

801
00:42:28,560 --> 00:42:30,840
Speaker 1: information because you it's so many it's you don't just

802
00:42:30,920 --> 00:42:32,600
Speaker 1: go to the police, and it just first day I

803
00:42:32,600 --> 00:42:36,880
Speaker 1: after trying to find a person, people give up. Then

804
00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:38,520
Speaker 1: you have to show up the three court days. But

805
00:42:38,719 --> 00:42:40,719
Speaker 1: just donna be showing up. I went to every every

806
00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:44,640
Speaker 1: single Yeah, I listen, I've had to do that too,

807
00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:46,920
Speaker 1: So I understand you. I had to get every standing

808
00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:48,200
Speaker 1: all that it's not a game, and then you got

809
00:42:48,280 --> 00:42:50,200
Speaker 1: a sitting court and watch all these other things and

810
00:42:50,560 --> 00:42:53,919
Speaker 1: see what everybody else is gonna through family court. It's

811
00:42:53,960 --> 00:42:57,360
Speaker 1: serious and I'm going to go through that. In Philadelphia.

812
00:42:57,960 --> 00:43:01,640
Speaker 1: In Maryland, I had to go a reinstatement because it

813
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:04,440
Speaker 1: had lapsed in the In Philly it's three years. Now

814
00:43:04,520 --> 00:43:06,080
Speaker 1: here is I go every year. A matter of fact,

815
00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:08,640
Speaker 1: I gotta go next week to get it updated, which

816
00:43:08,680 --> 00:43:11,120
Speaker 1: I'm not playing. It shouldn't even have to be like, yeah,

817
00:43:14,000 --> 00:43:16,799
Speaker 1: I mean you just have to. But now they have it, Well,

818
00:43:16,840 --> 00:43:19,120
Speaker 1: you don't the blessing in disguise and you don't have

819
00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:20,960
Speaker 1: to actually go to port. Now you can do it virtually,

820
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:25,200
Speaker 1: So that's the blessing. So really, honestly, if under the

821
00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:27,800
Speaker 1: set of my voice, if anybody's going through anything like

822
00:43:27,960 --> 00:43:33,000
Speaker 1: because not only the police part, that's honestly the least

823
00:43:33,480 --> 00:43:36,000
Speaker 1: I would say mentally draining when you put yourself out

824
00:43:36,040 --> 00:43:39,360
Speaker 1: a situation, whether you were sexually assaulted, verbally abused, Like

825
00:43:39,440 --> 00:43:42,280
Speaker 1: I'm seeing what people are doing. I'm just like, oh, y'all,

826
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:45,439
Speaker 1: y'all just now knowing that person is is is off.

827
00:43:45,520 --> 00:43:51,479
Speaker 1: They made right, but I see what people are spiraling. Yeah,

828
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:55,160
Speaker 1: and they don't want to get help. So after you

829
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:57,920
Speaker 1: do the police report, or after whatever steps you take

830
00:43:58,080 --> 00:44:00,560
Speaker 1: or you come clean about a situation, you still have

831
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:05,360
Speaker 1: to go. I suggest everyone see therapy or do yoga.

832
00:44:05,480 --> 00:44:08,120
Speaker 1: I'm doing yoga and everything. I am not playing with

833
00:44:08,239 --> 00:44:11,440
Speaker 1: my mental health. No, that's good. G's been doing that

834
00:44:11,760 --> 00:44:13,839
Speaker 1: yoga all the time. I always feel like she'd been

835
00:44:16,239 --> 00:44:18,120
Speaker 1: on the almost everyday basis. At least you want to

836
00:44:18,120 --> 00:44:20,560
Speaker 1: know what's crazy is I was saying, because I'm a beginner.

837
00:44:20,760 --> 00:44:22,320
Speaker 1: So I told the lady, I said, please don't be

838
00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:24,200
Speaker 1: having me to do I don't know how to do.

839
00:44:24,320 --> 00:44:25,960
Speaker 1: She was like, no, it's not like that. I was

840
00:44:26,040 --> 00:44:28,560
Speaker 1: afraid at first. I walked in and I was gonna

841
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:29,800
Speaker 1: just I try to play it off, like, oh, this

842
00:44:29,960 --> 00:44:35,640
Speaker 1: ifice is cute. How much come on squiding dog. I

843
00:44:35,760 --> 00:44:39,719
Speaker 1: was like, I don't know. When you sit like this

844
00:44:39,840 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 1: and stuff, I want to learn, and she was like,

845
00:44:41,640 --> 00:44:44,080
Speaker 1: you don't have to, and she said, we have more

846
00:44:44,120 --> 00:44:46,680
Speaker 1: intense ones. But what you be again, Me and my

847
00:44:46,800 --> 00:44:49,520
Speaker 1: sons are doing yoga together. That's how. And you go

848
00:44:49,640 --> 00:44:51,320
Speaker 1: at your own page. You do what you can do,

849
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:53,000
Speaker 1: and you do it. She did a little now my

850
00:44:53,120 --> 00:44:58,520
Speaker 1: stand just now I saw you because I like something

851
00:44:58,560 --> 00:45:02,800
Speaker 1: about peace. You can't. You just gotta wait for it.

852
00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:05,640
Speaker 1: And when that thing come, you don't want to compromise

853
00:45:05,680 --> 00:45:08,120
Speaker 1: it for anything. I'm at a place of piece that

854
00:45:08,320 --> 00:45:10,360
Speaker 1: I'm just like, damn, I waited my life for this,

855
00:45:10,760 --> 00:45:17,200
Speaker 1: So sad, I'm almost a hundred. You got plenty of

856
00:45:17,320 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 1: time and then you know you're gonna be you know,

857
00:45:19,640 --> 00:45:21,640
Speaker 1: whatever goes on, I know you learn a lot. That's

858
00:45:21,680 --> 00:45:23,480
Speaker 1: all we can do. Right, It's learned from the things

859
00:45:23,520 --> 00:45:25,680
Speaker 1: that didn't go the way that we wanted them to.

860
00:45:25,920 --> 00:45:28,279
Speaker 1: But again, now you know what you don't want, and

861
00:45:28,320 --> 00:45:30,200
Speaker 1: I feel like that's just as important as knowing what

862
00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:34,880
Speaker 1: you do want. Yeah, back, we love you, Mile, how

863
00:45:34,920 --> 00:45:37,960
Speaker 1: do you? And I know you know you got daughters,

864
00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:39,520
Speaker 1: your daughters, but I said, what did you say to

865
00:45:39,600 --> 00:45:43,200
Speaker 1: them about everything? Just out of curiosity? All right. So

866
00:45:43,520 --> 00:45:47,520
Speaker 1: my oldest daughter, Heaven, she's eighteen, she was just like

867
00:45:47,800 --> 00:45:51,399
Speaker 1: out time. Yeah, And with her, I was like, well,

868
00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:53,800
Speaker 1: I don't want you to make mistakes. I mean she

869
00:45:53,960 --> 00:45:56,839
Speaker 1: was like, my I don't even think like I'll make

870
00:45:56,880 --> 00:45:59,120
Speaker 1: those same mistakes because she was like, you never like

871
00:45:59,239 --> 00:46:02,080
Speaker 1: you used to really take everybody in and you really

872
00:46:02,120 --> 00:46:04,360
Speaker 1: thought that you could help everybody. So that was my

873
00:46:04,560 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 1: nurturing spirit if and I look back, I was like

874
00:46:07,239 --> 00:46:10,880
Speaker 1: everybody that I was married to came from a single

875
00:46:10,960 --> 00:46:12,920
Speaker 1: mother houssel. So I felt like I could be that

876
00:46:13,160 --> 00:46:16,160
Speaker 1: nurturer that you know, I knew what they was missing.

877
00:46:16,239 --> 00:46:19,959
Speaker 1: But I realized you can't help people or help people

878
00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:22,880
Speaker 1: that don't want to be helped or healed. So I

879
00:46:23,040 --> 00:46:25,120
Speaker 1: was giving so much of myself and not getting in return,

880
00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:27,239
Speaker 1: not saying that every day was a bad day, and

881
00:46:27,360 --> 00:46:30,359
Speaker 1: none of my relationship. But it was just like dad,

882
00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:32,839
Speaker 1: when you start realizing you're giving more than you're getting

883
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:35,719
Speaker 1: in return, like, no, I gotta cut it. And I

884
00:46:35,920 --> 00:46:37,879
Speaker 1: never thought i'd be divorced three times. So I told

885
00:46:37,920 --> 00:46:39,680
Speaker 1: my daughter. She was like, well, I'm probably not gonna

886
00:46:39,719 --> 00:46:42,760
Speaker 1: ever get married anyway, probably maybe when I'm forty or fifty.

887
00:46:43,120 --> 00:46:45,480
Speaker 1: And she's just like she's just different. She was like,

888
00:46:45,520 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 1: I'm chasing my bag. I ain't going to turnt and

889
00:46:47,760 --> 00:46:51,879
Speaker 1: Cacos and Costa Rica. Like she's a total and I'm

890
00:46:51,920 --> 00:46:55,680
Speaker 1: just like, yes, I love the way she thinks, super

891
00:46:55,719 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: smart and she knows like she's not gonna make those mistakes. Now.

892
00:46:58,560 --> 00:47:02,040
Speaker 1: My six year old she told me one day we

893
00:47:02,160 --> 00:47:07,960
Speaker 1: watched something and she was like, about time she's pisces ah,

894
00:47:12,000 --> 00:47:15,800
Speaker 1: but she's she yeah, it's just like she was like

895
00:47:16,960 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 1: like the way she is, she like, oh, we were

896
00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:25,040
Speaker 1: just waiting on useless. Like they're so they're so strong,

897
00:47:25,200 --> 00:47:28,719
Speaker 1: and I'm glad that even though they can feel, your

898
00:47:28,800 --> 00:47:31,200
Speaker 1: kids know what you're going through. I didn't do a

899
00:47:31,280 --> 00:47:34,520
Speaker 1: lot of things around them, but I had enough sense

900
00:47:34,600 --> 00:47:37,239
Speaker 1: in me to know that even with the pills and

901
00:47:37,280 --> 00:47:40,080
Speaker 1: stuff like that. Don't do this around there, but you know,

902
00:47:40,320 --> 00:47:42,360
Speaker 1: don't do anything to the point where you're gonna embarrass

903
00:47:42,360 --> 00:47:44,080
Speaker 1: your kids, because you know what. I just started watching

904
00:47:44,200 --> 00:47:47,320
Speaker 1: Um Soft White Underbelly, and I was looking and I

905
00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:49,440
Speaker 1: looked at the girls that were thirteen years old that

906
00:47:49,480 --> 00:47:51,719
Speaker 1: were prostitutes, and I looked what happened to the girl

907
00:47:51,800 --> 00:47:54,440
Speaker 1: Amanda and people. I'm just like, damn like some of

908
00:47:54,520 --> 00:47:57,960
Speaker 1: them come from good homes. So you really have to

909
00:47:58,080 --> 00:48:00,239
Speaker 1: keep your children close because you can give them the

910
00:48:00,320 --> 00:48:03,040
Speaker 1: best life that you think is possible. But the way

911
00:48:03,239 --> 00:48:06,080
Speaker 1: that their chips may fall, the cars that they were dealt,

912
00:48:06,400 --> 00:48:08,839
Speaker 1: you never know what's gonna happen, so you can There

913
00:48:08,960 --> 00:48:10,600
Speaker 1: was what the girl man that her dad said, I

914
00:48:10,680 --> 00:48:12,680
Speaker 1: spoiled her. I gave her everything, But once she got

915
00:48:12,760 --> 00:48:15,080
Speaker 1: a rent in college around a certain group of friends,

916
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:18,240
Speaker 1: that's when she started to decline. She got on drugs,

917
00:48:18,239 --> 00:48:21,600
Speaker 1: smoking weed that led to crack that honestly led to

918
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:24,880
Speaker 1: her dying on Mother's Day. But she was clean, So

919
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:27,480
Speaker 1: you feel me. It's just there's certain things that I've

920
00:48:27,520 --> 00:48:30,279
Speaker 1: been attracted to and really been studying, maybe because my

921
00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:34,719
Speaker 1: daughter's study psychology in college I'm just like, really like,

922
00:48:34,840 --> 00:48:38,239
Speaker 1: I'm glad for their path and I'm staying stern with them,

923
00:48:38,520 --> 00:48:41,719
Speaker 1: but I'm I'm I'm being a mom. But I'm also like,

924
00:48:41,840 --> 00:48:44,359
Speaker 1: you know your friends your kids, it's not your friends. Yes,

925
00:48:44,760 --> 00:48:46,319
Speaker 1: you need to know what's going on in your kids,

926
00:48:46,400 --> 00:48:47,960
Speaker 1: like and your kids do have the right to know

927
00:48:48,080 --> 00:48:50,840
Speaker 1: what's going on in doing And I'm just glad for

928
00:48:50,920 --> 00:48:55,279
Speaker 1: that balance that in the stakes. Yes, because and I

929
00:48:55,360 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 1: told my Didlem last night because we was watching it together.

930
00:48:58,200 --> 00:49:02,719
Speaker 1: If nigga try it is a period to tell me

931
00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:04,959
Speaker 1: stuff because they was like, my, we know how you get.

932
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:07,600
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, I don't play about y'all. I

933
00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:11,000
Speaker 1: was molested. I'm glad my daughters have been molested. I

934
00:49:11,719 --> 00:49:14,320
Speaker 1: was running the streets, I was outside and that's not

935
00:49:14,400 --> 00:49:18,560
Speaker 1: not what was raised. So that rebellion, I'm so glad

936
00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:20,799
Speaker 1: they didn't have to deal with that. So even they

937
00:49:20,840 --> 00:49:23,160
Speaker 1: will go through things, but I want to make sure

938
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:24,640
Speaker 1: that I'm there for them like I was there for

939
00:49:24,680 --> 00:49:28,600
Speaker 1: everybody else. There you go, Well, we appreciate you so

940
00:49:28,840 --> 00:49:31,120
Speaker 1: much as always low And do we know when this

941
00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:34,000
Speaker 1: album's coming? It will be this year. I wanted to

942
00:49:34,040 --> 00:49:37,279
Speaker 1: come out on my birthday because I honestly, the single

943
00:49:37,400 --> 00:49:39,640
Speaker 1: is gonna drop. See how what if I'm allowed to

944
00:49:39,719 --> 00:49:44,600
Speaker 1: talk about? See you allowed? But I just believe, just

945
00:49:44,760 --> 00:49:46,480
Speaker 1: know that this thing is gonna be on the tissue

946
00:49:46,600 --> 00:49:48,920
Speaker 1: in a couple of weeks. So we're gonna drop them

947
00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:51,920
Speaker 1: next single. Then wait a minute, that you have another

948
00:49:52,040 --> 00:49:54,759
Speaker 1: reality show coming out? Oh no, no, no no, what

949
00:49:55,000 --> 00:49:57,000
Speaker 1: is there nothing the to say? You are? You have

950
00:49:57,120 --> 00:50:02,160
Speaker 1: a sitcom, you have a drama coming and it's a performance.

951
00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:05,040
Speaker 1: That's okay, I've been That's why I'm cleansing because I

952
00:50:05,120 --> 00:50:07,279
Speaker 1: want to be a certain size in ten days because

953
00:50:07,320 --> 00:50:09,399
Speaker 1: we feel you filming in advance and then they edit

954
00:50:09,480 --> 00:50:11,239
Speaker 1: it so it should be coming out. I think like,

955
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:15,960
Speaker 1: so my next single, Shining Star, will drop then and

956
00:50:16,320 --> 00:50:19,320
Speaker 1: every month I'm gonna drop a single then release the

957
00:50:19,360 --> 00:50:21,600
Speaker 1: album because this is my this is really my twenty

958
00:50:21,640 --> 00:50:26,080
Speaker 1: first year being a little more. Yes, it's like artists legal,

959
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:30,920
Speaker 1: so yeah, always legal. Now okay, you're here for it.

960
00:50:31,040 --> 00:50:34,560
Speaker 1: I cannot wait for I think you know about It's

961
00:50:34,560 --> 00:50:36,719
Speaker 1: always good. We're just be having a conversation. They kicking.

962
00:50:39,800 --> 00:50:42,439
Speaker 1: Let me know it's for the lash on. I had yeah,

963
00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:50,560
Speaker 1: push it back a little best alright, but let him out.

964
00:50:50,600 --> 00:50:52,000
Speaker 1: Thank you so much, and let's serve this