Speaker 1: Goes on the line, thinking of his own calls every night,
Speaker 1: goes to side.
Speaker 2: I'm teaching you your life.
Speaker 3: All from Rose.
Speaker 4: Rose. Hello Rose? Who are you with? You're at like
Speaker 4: a party? Who are you? Have so many friends?
Speaker 5: No, I'm not at a party with my I remember
Speaker 5: with my roommate.
Speaker 4: Tell me about your roommates. How many of them are there?
Speaker 4: The human beings or are the animals?
Speaker 5: They're human beings, but they can be pretty crazy.
Speaker 4: Okay are you Are you not from the US?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 5: No, I was born in the US, but my mom's
Speaker 5: from the U.
Speaker 4: K Oh okay, nice rock and roll? What so? How
Speaker 4: many people are you with? Total? Because I want all
Speaker 4: their favorite sounds?
Speaker 5: Oh okay, you want all their favorite sounds.
Speaker 4: Okay, well let's start with you. What's whereas? What's your
Speaker 4: favorite sound?
Speaker 5: I really like it's really weird. I like listening to
Speaker 5: different card chimes.
Speaker 4: Different car chimes, like what kind of car like? Like
Speaker 4: kind of car chimes?
Speaker 5: It can be any card chime. I just like you
Speaker 5: know when you open a door to the car and
Speaker 5: you know, maybe you left your keys in, or the
Speaker 5: light song and it goes singing thing like those they
Speaker 5: just hit different. They're funky and people design them though you.
Speaker 4: Know what, you know, what's funny you say that because
Speaker 4: some of them I like, like you know when I
Speaker 4: uh do you know when? Like a car? Do you
Speaker 4: have you ever had a car with like an automatic
Speaker 4: trunk or something like that.
Speaker 5: Uh? I have not had one, but I've seen some.
Speaker 4: Yeah, like like I was in a carpool and shinned,
Speaker 4: so I had like a car, but there's like an
Speaker 4: automatic trunk and like an automatic like the sound that
Speaker 4: an automatic trunk makes when it's closed. He goes boom
Speaker 4: boo blo. She slaps what's your favorite?
Speaker 6: Which?
Speaker 4: Which of your carchimes is your favorite?
Speaker 7: Which?
Speaker 4: Which? Which one?
Speaker 5: I gotta like my own car? Time?
Speaker 4: Can you do an impression of your own of your car?
Speaker 6: Time?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 4: That's your fucking slaps.
Speaker 5: It's so cute.
Speaker 4: It is cute, and you know what that must be. Uh,
Speaker 4: that's hard because like they want that. The sound is
Speaker 4: supposed to get you to want to leave, but you
Speaker 4: like it. So it encourages you to drive without a seatbelt,
Speaker 4: which is kind of dangerous.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's it's speaking to you. It's like, hey, I
Speaker 5: just want you to be safe.
Speaker 4: It's so sweet that is you know what You're right?
Speaker 4: That is very sweet. It's like a little it's like
Speaker 4: a little pixie in your car, like a little like
Speaker 4: Jimminy cricket.
Speaker 5: Ship in your little driving buddy.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's a little driving fairy beeping at you because
Speaker 4: it cares about you.
Speaker 5: Yeah. I mean when you have no one else in
Speaker 5: the car and you know, you just had a sad
Speaker 5: day at work and your little car engine goes, you know,
Speaker 5: just speaks to you. Yeah, it's his own little personal voice.
Speaker 5: You get too much to the car?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I love I love that. I love you think?
Speaker 4: Do you but do you think that there's a danger
Speaker 4: in that? Do you feel like if you grow too
Speaker 4: if you grow too much of a too much, if
Speaker 4: you developed too strong of feelings for your little car fairy,
Speaker 4: doesn't that open them up to hurt you? Rose?
Speaker 5: Yeah, but I don't get attached to many things. And
Speaker 5: it's just my car, because you know, not everything's forever,
Speaker 5: and so you got to say goodbye and you know
Speaker 5: in the moment it's just beautiful.
Speaker 4: Well, I wanted to hear your roommate's noises.
Speaker 5: Okay, because they want to hear your You need to
Speaker 5: say your favorite noise. I'm putting you on speakers.
Speaker 4: I'm sorry if this echo my eyes fucked up in
Speaker 4: the in the stream. Hello, what's up? Who are you?
Speaker 4: Tell me everything? Tell me nothing, I would say.
Speaker 6: My favorite noise is a really solid belly flop.
Speaker 4: Oh ooh, a belly flop, because to me, a belly
Speaker 4: flop elicits like like it's like a for me, it's
Speaker 4: like a screech of on a chalkboard kind of thing
Speaker 4: where its physical pain somehow. Oh no, do your best
Speaker 4: impression of a belly flop for me.
Speaker 6: My best impression. Uh here, I'll try my best on
Speaker 6: the floor.
Speaker 7: I'm putting you on.
Speaker 4: The floor now, got you cold and hard?
Speaker 6: Okay?
Speaker 3: Did you did you hear it?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 4: I was talking over you.
Speaker 6: Do it?
Speaker 4: Can you do it again?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Hold on, I was laying on the cold, hard floor.
Speaker 6: Okay, how about that time.
Speaker 4: I was talking over you again? Who's the last roommate?
Speaker 4: He hit me to the other roommate?
Speaker 7: Oh yeah, hold on, thank.
Speaker 4: You for thank you though, man, I appreciate that was
Speaker 4: a nice belly flop. Thank you for doing those belly flops?
Speaker 6: Yeah, of course.
Speaker 5: Okay, here's everyone else.
Speaker 4: God damn my eyes are fucked up, but it's fine.
Speaker 4: How many more people are there is that is that
Speaker 4: their favorite noise? Yes, no, don't look, don't apologize. I
Speaker 4: would have actually actually hold I want you to know
Speaker 4: something about you apologizing. I would have been more offended
Speaker 4: if you didn't scream, because if you didn't scream, that
Speaker 4: would mean that you were lying to me about your
Speaker 4: favorite uh noise, and you were telling me something different
Speaker 4: because you thought that. You know, I would judge you
Speaker 4: for having a loud scream as your favorite noise. And
Speaker 4: I want you to know that I'm happy that you
Speaker 4: don't peg that of me. I'm happy that you feel
Speaker 4: comfortable enough to tell me the truth or to scream
Speaker 4: me the truth. Thank you anytime, Rose, Kevin, uh uh, Jacqueline,
Speaker 4: You're all beautiful souls. You live in a in a
Speaker 4: in a beautiful haunted house, it seems like. And I'll
Speaker 4: talk to you guys soon. Thank you so much for
Speaker 4: calling into the therapy Gecko show, Love you too, Rose,
Speaker 4: Talk to you soon.
Speaker 2: All from em Emily.
Speaker 4: Emily, Oh my god, you were laughing in the thing.
Speaker 4: You're just you're your your call screener was just a laugh,
Speaker 4: and then you got An Emily at the end.
Speaker 3: So I had a mouthful of food because yeah, we
Speaker 3: just were sitting down to eat our dinner and watch
Speaker 3: and watch your stream. And I was just laughing at
Speaker 3: Yack because I actually talked to you last night. I
Speaker 3: was at the Wiki thing and I was like, now,
Speaker 3: I'll feel bad if I get in because I don't
Speaker 3: want to be your I mean, this is only my
Speaker 3: second time. So anyways, yak, last night was your first, right, yeah,
Speaker 3: last night was my first.
Speaker 4: Not that's a totally dad, I mean that's you know,
Speaker 4: who is that guy? Even it's a different guy, yeah,
Speaker 4: or is it? I don't even know at this point.
Speaker 4: It's a it's a it's a never ending identity crisis. Emily,
Speaker 4: what's for dinner? Real quick?
Speaker 3: Okay, So Ethan also got in last night. We both were.
Speaker 4: Remember you, I remember you guys, so I don't that
Speaker 4: was a different guy.
Speaker 3: But yeah, oh yeah, sorry, Lyle. We talked to Lyle.
Speaker 4: You talked to Lyle.
Speaker 3: He was very comic, So right, I told him to
Speaker 3: tell you hi, though, So I'm excited to speak to
Speaker 3: you and say hi. Okay, so what we ate? We
Speaker 3: ate chicken? No, okay, let's say fare fried chicken, red
Speaker 3: beans and rice and carrots and chicken tendies. Oh my
Speaker 3: gosh in the spirit.
Speaker 4: All right, all right, all right, Emily, I have a question. Yes,
Speaker 4: you have a lie.
Speaker 3: Oh yes. So when this question came up, I thought
Speaker 3: immediately of my poor fourth grade self, and this is
Speaker 3: a this is like a family story that my family
Speaker 3: likes to make fun of me for. But guess when
Speaker 3: I was in fourth grade, which I feel like I
Speaker 3: blocked out of my memory, I do not remember that
Speaker 3: I wrote a Basically, we were supposed to write about
Speaker 3: one of our grandparents and do like a biography piece
Speaker 3: on them. And my grandma was born in Yugoslavia and
Speaker 3: she came over here and she had I think she
Speaker 3: had one husband before my grandpa. She's missed up Grandma.
Speaker 3: But basically I lied that her first husband beat her
Speaker 3: and like was was like really mean to her, and
Speaker 3: and I just like expanded on and that was just
Speaker 3: not not the case. But I think I just thought
Speaker 3: that her story was too boring. And keep in mind,
Speaker 3: she like immigrated over here, but I, my fourth grade self,
Speaker 3: deemed it too boring, and so I just liked to
Speaker 3: fluff up the details and wrote that her husband beat
Speaker 3: her and she was really mad at me. And then
Speaker 3: my parents enrolled me in a creative writing class, and
Speaker 3: here we are.
Speaker 4: I mean, look, you're not doing anything different than what
Speaker 4: you know Hollywood does right in fiction stories. You're just
Speaker 4: you know, creatively adding extra beats.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I just I don't think she's like forgiven me still,
Speaker 3: because she brings it up a lot, like she'll she'll
Speaker 3: be like, yeah, yeah, I mean.
Speaker 4: A look, why does she care about, you know, an
Speaker 4: alternate history. It's as far as I'm concerned, it's it's
Speaker 4: it's you you. As far as I'm concerned, you wrote
Speaker 4: a fan fiction about your grandmother.
Speaker 3: Exactly exactly could turn into a you know, and that's
Speaker 3: like the.
Speaker 4: Original one day, exactly exactly the truth. I've what I
Speaker 4: feel like, the truth doesn't matter in life. That's the
Speaker 4: central theme of of my uh uh tits.
Speaker 3: And yeah, yeah, I'm glad I found fiction, for sure.
Speaker 3: I don't think at that age I really understood the
Speaker 3: difference between like what a report needs to be in
Speaker 3: nonfiction and then it I think it. I think it
Speaker 3: was the beginnings of some creed. I don't know, I
Speaker 3: don't know. I just like always think about that as
Speaker 3: my like life because my parents like shamed me forever.
Speaker 3: We're also like Catholic, So I feel like I was
Speaker 3: always you know, in the booth with the priests.
Speaker 4: What inspired now that you said fourth grade?
Speaker 3: I think it was fourth grade?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean you had a lust for sort of
Speaker 4: uh uh showmanship in a way at such a young age.
Speaker 4: I mean, that's that's pretty young to look at your
Speaker 4: grandma's story. I mean also fourth grade to look at
Speaker 4: your grandma's story and be like, let's add in some
Speaker 4: domestic abuse to spice it up. That's a that's pretty
Speaker 4: young to do that.
Speaker 3: I think I don't know where I got it really,
Speaker 3: even like I definitely didn't grow up in that situation.
Speaker 3: I think I just I know fucked up? Right? Is it?
Speaker 8: Is? It?
Speaker 4: Is it fucked up? I mean, look, I look obviously
Speaker 4: obviously you know. Look if you told me, if you
Speaker 4: told me how old are you now?
Speaker 3: I am twenty nine?
Speaker 4: If you told me as a twenty nine year old, yeah,
Speaker 4: sometimes when I go to parties, I'll just tell people
Speaker 4: that my grandma used to, you know, get beaten, just
Speaker 4: because I think it makes me sound cool. Then yes,
Speaker 4: you'd be a psychopath. But that's that's you know, not uh,
Speaker 4: that's that's not the vibe that I get from you.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't, I don't. I'm not proud of it.
Speaker 4: You know, you're proud.
Speaker 3: My grandma's a nice lady.
Speaker 4: She really sounds like it.
Speaker 3: She had a hard life, but like not that hard,
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 4: I I, uh, who do you think had a harder life?
Speaker 4: Between you and your grandma?
Speaker 3: Oh, my grandma. My grandpa actually just passed last year.
Speaker 4: So sorry to hear that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's okay. He yeah, he was a writer too, actually, yeah,
Speaker 3: but he wrote, yeah, he wrote, Yeah, he wrote like
Speaker 3: a biography of our family, and yeah, so maybe that's true.
Speaker 4: And he and I like the idea that your grandpa
Speaker 4: and was writing the biography of your family and then
Speaker 4: he got to the part about your grandma and then
Speaker 4: he just fucking did the same thing, which would be
Speaker 4: even like like her grandma, like like the idea that
Speaker 4: your grandma's life is so boring that he would make
Speaker 4: himself look like an asshole and put in the same
Speaker 4: stuff that you put in because it's just so boring
Speaker 4: that he's willing to do that.
Speaker 3: It was her first husband, so but yes, I see
Speaker 3: where you're going with it, and I yeah he would.
Speaker 7: Uh.
Speaker 3: I don't think he embellished that. He's more nonfiction. My
Speaker 3: dad is too, actually more nonfiction. I'm the one that
Speaker 3: just wants to make everything up.
Speaker 4: Did you tell what?
Speaker 6: What?
Speaker 4: Did you what? I? Yeah, hold on, sorry, I'm startying.
Speaker 4: What was your excuse to your grandma? I want to know,
Speaker 4: like when she found out and she was pissed off, like,
Speaker 4: did you come up? Did you? Did you explain to her?
Speaker 4: Why you that you thought that she was boring?
Speaker 3: I so I've been told this story back to me
Speaker 3: from my family so many times that I it's hard,
Speaker 3: you know how your memories kind of like shift into
Speaker 3: what your parents, like your parents tell back to you.
Speaker 3: I don't think I gave an explanation. I'm pretty sure
Speaker 3: I just burst into tears. Yeah, I don't think I
Speaker 3: gave her a good explanation.
Speaker 4: I think I just you know, because that's the thing,
Speaker 4: right in fourth in fourth grade, your your bold enough
Speaker 4: to make you know, risky creative decisions, but not bold
Speaker 4: enough to defend them.
Speaker 3: No. No, I I mean still to this day, if
Speaker 3: I think if somebody would challenge me on that, I'd
Speaker 3: probably burst into years to you. I don't know. Probably
Speaker 3: I'm sensitive.
Speaker 6: I'm sensitive.
Speaker 4: I think you know, look fourth grade, that was, you know,
Speaker 4: a long time ago. I think I think you're fine.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think I think I've moved past it, and
Speaker 3: I hope that she's forgiven me. Have She hasn't brought
Speaker 3: it up in a couple of years.
Speaker 4: So probably for a reason, though, you think.
Speaker 3: Maybe I should just like actually get her story now,
Speaker 3: like because I wish I could.
Speaker 4: That's that that could be. Maybe that's maybe that is
Speaker 4: what you do if you if you feel if part
Speaker 4: of you feels such a such a you know, if
Speaker 4: there's if this is an itch that you got to
Speaker 4: get rid of here, that's that's maybe how you scratch
Speaker 4: it as you go out. You tell the real story.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'll get her to do a tell all. It'll
Speaker 3: be great and I will not budge the details. Okay,
Speaker 3: that's a good plan.
Speaker 4: Beautiful, Well, Emily, you got a plan going. Uh. Thank
Speaker 4: you for calling in and you have a good rest
Speaker 4: of the night.
Speaker 3: I love you, gre Thank you.
Speaker 4: Take care bye.
Speaker 6: All from Scott.
Speaker 9: Scott gonna take me away, Scott, I gotta take me away,
Speaker 9: fever Scott.
Speaker 8: Hey, what the hell.
Speaker 4: Are we gonna do?
Speaker 8: I was hoping you tell me.
Speaker 4: Well, I have a couple of ideas.
Speaker 8: Hit me.
Speaker 4: We could run or we could fight.
Speaker 2: So you do you?
Speaker 4: Are you a fighter? Scott?
Speaker 8: Not really? No? No, nah nah.
Speaker 4: So if you're not a runner and you're not a fighter,
Speaker 4: what do you do when you encounter danger?
Speaker 8: Danger? Well, my bike, so it's kind of dangerous.
Speaker 4: What do you do if you encounter danger and you
Speaker 4: don't have a bike?
Speaker 8: Scott? I guess I would run, but another runner?
Speaker 4: So so then what are you gonna do? Scott? Fight?
Speaker 4: But you can't because you said you're not a fighter.
Speaker 8: I guess I'll find a corner and I'll cower in
Speaker 8: my corner.
Speaker 4: Scott, I think I figured it out.
Speaker 8: What what you find out?
Speaker 4: You're not a runner? Uh huh, you're not a fighter? Correct,
Speaker 4: You're a hider? Hide Scott.
Speaker 8: No, I guess you're not wrong with that.
Speaker 4: I have a question, Scott. Yes, what are you hiding from?
Speaker 8: I'm hiding from the real world. I'm scared of it.
Speaker 4: Do you see in the real world that are that
Speaker 4: you're hiding from?
Speaker 8: H in general uncertainty, I don't know what you.
Speaker 6: Like?
Speaker 8: My future, the future what's gonna happen? Where do I
Speaker 8: go from here?
Speaker 4: I don't know, Thomas Scott? Where is here? Where are
Speaker 4: we right now?
Speaker 8: Right now? We are finishing up college.
Speaker 6: M HM.
Speaker 8: With a degree in insurance.
Speaker 4: I might have a friend that you could talk to.
Speaker 8: Excellent.
Speaker 4: I'm just kidding. It was a guy code joke.
Speaker 8: Oh I give it. I give a good job. I
Speaker 8: like it.
Speaker 4: I liked the insurance. Why did you pick insurance?
Speaker 6: Scott?
Speaker 8: It was the quickest way for me to get out
Speaker 8: of college.
Speaker 4: The quickest way for you to get out of college
Speaker 4: is to not go.
Speaker 8: You got a point. But uh, I'm here five years.
Speaker 4: In HM, So why are you so uncertain? It seems
Speaker 4: like do you not want to go do insurance? Whatever
Speaker 4: that would mean?
Speaker 8: Yeah, yep, that's exactly it. I well, I'm also doing
Speaker 8: a certificate and music business because I like music. I
Speaker 8: make music, I know music related stuff. But my degree
Speaker 8: is insurance certificate. It's just kind of a thing. But
Speaker 8: like when I'm graduating in May, what's gonna happen? I
Speaker 8: don't know.
Speaker 4: How would you feel about getting a job at an
Speaker 4: insurance company?
Speaker 8: I mean, I'm sure it would pay well. Is not
Speaker 8: the worst thing? In the world, but waking up every
Speaker 8: morning telling myself, all right, let's go do insurance just
Speaker 8: doesn't sound like the plan.
Speaker 6: Mm hmm.
Speaker 4: Scott. If you could wave a magic Scott wand what
Speaker 4: would you do? What would you do?
Speaker 8: I would? I think I would try and find myself
Speaker 8: giving myself a career path in music, particularly music production engineering,
Speaker 8: because like, I'm more of a hands on kind of guy.
Speaker 8: I don't really like paperwork office work. I like, I've
Speaker 8: always been my hands I want to get hands on
Speaker 8: with stuff. And because of like music, Hey, why not
Speaker 8: music production?
Speaker 4: Scott? Do you make tiktoks?
Speaker 8: I do not make tiktoks.
Speaker 4: You gotta make tiktoks.
Speaker 8: I guess I should. It's pretty yeah, I thought about it.
Speaker 4: Don't think about Scott. You gotta go make some tiktoks.
Speaker 8: She I guess I will.
Speaker 4: That's That's the key. People are going to tell you
Speaker 4: to follow your treat. People are gonna tell you all
Speaker 4: kinds of things, but they won't tell you anything like
Speaker 4: actionable that you should do. I'm gonna tell you right
Speaker 4: now the actionable thing that you should do in this
Speaker 4: to make tiktoks.
Speaker 8: Me my roommates have thought about it. I mean we're
Speaker 8: decently entertaining. I guess we could figure something out.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, got TikTok. TikTok fucked me up, dude, TikTok
Speaker 4: changed my life. How I'm doing this now? Dude? Look stupid?
Speaker 8: Hey, I mean i'd see you're doing something. Would you say,
Speaker 8: are you following your dreams?
Speaker 7: Right now?
Speaker 8: I got a question for you. Yeah, you're following your dreams.
Speaker 8: You just what you want to do.
Speaker 4: So actually, to give an alced answer to this question,
Speaker 4: I I've I used to have dreams, and then I
Speaker 4: really and then I decided that I don't. I think
Speaker 4: that having dreams is not helpful. I think I have Uh,
Speaker 4: how do I put this?
Speaker 8: Like?
Speaker 4: What's the what's the word? I'm trying to explain what
Speaker 4: I want to say here. But I have a goal
Speaker 4: in life as of right now, as of where I
Speaker 4: am in life, and I'm achieving that goal in a
Speaker 4: I have a very general sense goal, and that goal
Speaker 4: is that I want to be doing something interesting with
Speaker 4: my life. It doesn't matter so that way, if I
Speaker 4: if I if I only go after that goal, If
Speaker 4: I go after that goal and aneral sense, I don't
Speaker 4: get too attached to any one thing I'm doing. I
Speaker 4: just go after that idea of I want to be
Speaker 4: doing something interesting, and in my eyes, I consider I
Speaker 4: consider what I'm doing to be interesting to me. So
Speaker 4: I would say I am following that idea. If I
Speaker 4: were to say, like, oh, I want to be a
Speaker 4: live streamer, or I want to be a musician, or
Speaker 4: I want to be this. I used to think things
Speaker 4: like that, but I stop thinking that way because I
Speaker 4: think that that makes you two outcome independent and to
Speaker 4: maybe perhaps narrow minded and then upset if you aren't
Speaker 4: the thing that you narrow minded yourself to be. But
Speaker 4: if I subscribe myself to a general idea of I
Speaker 4: just want to do something interesting, then you know I'm
Speaker 4: doing something interesting right now. But if my whole if
Speaker 4: this all poofed away, you know, I could still I
Speaker 4: feel like go out into the world and do something
Speaker 4: interesting because there's infinite interesting things out there to do.
Speaker 4: So I don't have to hold too hard to what
Speaker 4: I'm doing right now. I don't have to fucking every
Speaker 4: five seconds be like, ohh, when's all this going to
Speaker 4: be over? When you know I don't. I don't have
Speaker 4: to freak out about it because I'll just go and
Speaker 4: do something else that I find interesting. So that's my
Speaker 4: little idea, and a lot of people, I think, you know,
Speaker 4: there's a lot of other examples of that, Like a
Speaker 4: lot of people like their version of that is like
Speaker 4: I always want to help people, or the version of
Speaker 4: that is I always want to make money, or the
Speaker 4: version of that is I always want to fucking be
Speaker 4: with interesting people or something like that. You know. So
Speaker 4: I think that I think that following a general idea
Speaker 4: is much better than following a particular specific paths. But
Speaker 4: I mean following particular specific paths key into that. But yeah,
Speaker 4: that's how I view, you know, my life, and if
Speaker 4: and if I view it like that, then I and
Speaker 4: then I would consider myself to be following not so
Speaker 4: much my a dream, but my ideal.
Speaker 8: Right, right, I like what you said, like interesting, Like
Speaker 8: that's really what I want is I want to do
Speaker 8: something interesting, Like I don't want to work at McDonald.
Speaker 8: I want to work like I want to do something
Speaker 8: kind of cool, Like I used to work out of
Speaker 8: vinyl vinyl record pressing plant. That was pretty interesting, that
Speaker 8: was pretty cool, Like I want to do something like that.
Speaker 8: I just want to do something insurance is not interesting
Speaker 8: to me at least, Like, I just want to do
Speaker 8: something something I can get down behind.
Speaker 4: You know, yeah, you know, I mean if I it's
Speaker 4: I mean, if I m if I keep using my
Speaker 4: my myself as an example, Like I think what I'm
Speaker 4: doing right I think what I'm doing right now is
Speaker 4: interesting to me. But you know, moving to freaking Thailand
Speaker 4: would be interesting. You know, it's starting a bottled water
Speaker 4: company could be interesting. You know, there's I think there's
Speaker 4: infinite things in the realm of interesting. So I don't know,
Speaker 4: it's good to have things that are totally unrelated to
Speaker 4: each other, but the fall under the umbrella of whatever
Speaker 4: your ideal is.
Speaker 8: Right, Yeah, I just want to do something something I
Speaker 8: can enjoy, which is a lot of things, but probably
Speaker 8: not insurance for sure.
Speaker 4: Where do your interests lie?
Speaker 8: Anything that I can get my hands on, and at
Speaker 8: the end of the day be like, hey, I'm happy
Speaker 8: with what I did. Like I like, I like the
Speaker 8: thing I've created. I like the thing I worked on.
Speaker 8: That sort of thing.
Speaker 4: Should make tiktoks.
Speaker 8: You know, not the worst idea ever.
Speaker 4: I serious, it gives you like a thing, right because like,
Speaker 4: because I've been like making ship on the internet for
Speaker 4: a long time, but I would start like, I hope
Speaker 4: this is related to where we're talking, but I think
Speaker 4: I think it is, like I would I was making
Speaker 4: sure on the internet for a long time. But if
Speaker 4: you don't. The thing about TikTok is it forces you
Speaker 4: to be like, oh shit, I got to keep putting
Speaker 4: energy into this thing or else it'll die. Right Whereas
Speaker 4: like if you're just in this empty sea of like
Speaker 4: I'll start a project here, and I'll start a project here,
Speaker 4: and there's no like stakes or anything. Personally, I just
Speaker 4: don't do it as fuck around funk off because there's
Speaker 4: no there's no stay, there's no people like depending on
Speaker 4: seeing anything that you've made or anything like that. But
Speaker 4: TikTok is cool because you can build an audience on
Speaker 4: there and there's a lot you can do with that,
Speaker 4: I think, and then you can also translate and take
Speaker 4: that into other places. So TikTok, especially especially with the music,
Speaker 4: I see a lot of people who are music producers
Speaker 4: and music engineer people do a lot with that. I
Speaker 4: think that would be a good a good place for
Speaker 4: you to for you to you know, bang it up.
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's kind of a dream or the dream would
Speaker 8: be like make a good song if it gets popular
Speaker 8: on TikTok.
Speaker 4: Hell yeah, I like, yes, I've made it.
Speaker 8: But like even making tiktoks in general, Like I've tried
Speaker 8: to make YouTube videos, it's.
Speaker 4: Hard to fuck don't make YouTube videos. Necessariusly making a
Speaker 4: uti videos, it's kind of a waste of time. You
Speaker 4: should make tiktoks.
Speaker 8: Yeah, much shorter, much less effort, I guess.
Speaker 4: Not necessarily less effort, but liked make songs and put
Speaker 4: them on TikTok. I think that's what you should do.
Speaker 4: It's like just a thing to be like, hey, I'm
Speaker 4: gonna get on my head for five seconds and like
Speaker 4: do some shit.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I would like that. It was pretty nice.
Speaker 4: What's your favorite insurance company?
Speaker 8: Insurance company? Ooh, I mean my parents have been with
Speaker 8: a State Farm for like twenty five years, so I
Speaker 8: guess they're my favorite.
Speaker 4: Shout out to State Farm, show US farm. And if
Speaker 4: you work for State Farm and you can hear this,
Speaker 4: send me an email so that you can get one
Speaker 4: hundred dollars for saying that beautiful? Would you say your
Speaker 4: name was Scott? Thanks for conn and Scott And I
Speaker 4: was about to apologize for yelling at you at the
Speaker 4: very beginning with my noises, But I'm not gonna apologize
Speaker 4: for that. I think I like doing that.
Speaker 8: At first, I didn't realize you were actually talking to me.
Speaker 8: I thought it was someone else named Scott. But then
Speaker 8: I realized, Oh, you're actually coming through my phone. So
Speaker 8: here we are.
Speaker 4: Hell yeah, thank you, Scott. I'll talk to you. Love
Speaker 4: you too, man.
Speaker 6: Call from Scotty.
Speaker 4: Yeah, Scott, Yeah, there's another Skerno. You're the new Scott.
Speaker 8: I'm the next guy.
Speaker 2: I heard you had the last Scout. I didn't like that.
Speaker 4: Well, no, why didn't you all come on, Scott? Why
Speaker 4: didn't you like the last Scott? What the last got
Speaker 4: do to you?
Speaker 2: Why is he going to school for insurance? It's the
Speaker 2: last thing he wants to do is insurance. I don't
Speaker 2: understand that.
Speaker 4: I don't know me, probably because it's the funk. What
Speaker 4: did he say? Did he say his?
Speaker 8: He was?
Speaker 6: He was?
Speaker 4: He probably? Look, he got he got, He got suckered
Speaker 4: into the system. He got suckered into the system, and
Speaker 4: he tried to find the best way out. I don't know.
Speaker 4: I don't know, ship, dude, I I I I have
Speaker 4: all these opinions about things, and then it's just and
Speaker 4: then I just step back and I'm like, what the
Speaker 4: fuck do I know about anything? What'd you go to
Speaker 4: school for? Scott?
Speaker 2: I went to architecture school?
Speaker 4: Are you an architect?
Speaker 2: I am currently an architect.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's beautiful. I love that for you. Nothing better
Speaker 4: than a guy who made nothing better, honest to god,
Speaker 4: nothing's creamier. You know those satisfying memes or like satisfying
Speaker 4: videos of fucking things being crushed by hydraulic presses. Right,
Speaker 4: that's how I feel about you telling me that you
Speaker 4: went to school for architecture and now you're an architect.
Speaker 2: You know what, it's creamier than that. I had like
Speaker 2: a third grade I had a I got into an
Speaker 2: art mentorship program because I used to like to paint
Speaker 2: and draw, and I was paired up with an architect
Speaker 2: because he likes to paint on So that's when I
Speaker 2: thought I'm going to be an architect. So so I
Speaker 2: carried that all the way through super creamy.
Speaker 4: Right, do you like architect? Do you like what? Do
Speaker 4: you like what you do? Now?
Speaker 8: I like doing it?
Speaker 7: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Do you have a favorite building?
Speaker 2: I would say no, and Honestly, I keep hearing you
Speaker 2: say what thrills you to a lot of people, and
Speaker 2: I keep thinking, I'm on Reddit a lot. There's always
Speaker 2: a lot of things about what's your favorite, what's your
Speaker 2: what do you always remember? And I just I never
Speaker 2: have a favorite, And I gotta say, I can't remember
Speaker 2: the last time I was super thrilled about something, So
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 4: That's part of Oh okay, So so you're here trying
Speaker 4: to figure out You're here trying to figure out what
Speaker 4: thrills you.
Speaker 2: Maybe yeah, hmm, reserve that for something pretty pretty up there,
Speaker 2: pretty exciting, right, do you do you?
Speaker 4: Well, let me ask you something, because you might not be.
Speaker 4: Are you a thrill seeker? Because if you're not looking
Speaker 4: for thrills, how the hell are you gonna find them
Speaker 4: if you're not seeking them?
Speaker 2: I guess, I guess I don't know if I could
Speaker 2: call myself a thrilled seeker, right, I guess when I
Speaker 2: think of a thrill seeker at somebody jumping off buildings doing,
Speaker 2: you know, doing some pretty extreme things, I don't think I'm.
Speaker 4: That, but no, but we've I think we've learned tonight
Speaker 4: that that's not true, you know, We've had many people
Speaker 4: call in who receive thrills of all different kinds of
Speaker 4: I mean, this whole stream. I've not had anyone answer
Speaker 4: the question with, you know, jumping out of a plane.
Speaker 4: I've heard masturbating, I've heard video games, I've heard what else?
Speaker 4: What have we heard here but relationships? No one's mentioned
Speaker 4: anything about jumping out of a plane yet, right, So
Speaker 4: what thrills you, mister architect?
Speaker 2: And yeah, well so I enjoy life, right, but I
Speaker 2: still can't bring myself to say that anything I'm doing
Speaker 2: is thrilling me? Right, I do you know I've got
Speaker 2: I've got some children. They bring me enjoyment. But what
Speaker 2: thrills me is I think I've got a hard time
Speaker 2: with that.
Speaker 4: Do you desire thrills?
Speaker 5: Hmm?
Speaker 2: I think there's certainly a part of me that think,
Speaker 2: you know that, that wonders if others are if others
Speaker 2: are being thrilled out there, I think, sure, I want
Speaker 2: to be thrilled.
Speaker 4: Oh but I just got all right, but just now
Speaker 4: you said if others are being thrilled, you want to
Speaker 4: be thrilled? Yeah, yeah, okay, what do you think? What
Speaker 4: do you see out in the world that is thrilling others.
Speaker 2: Ah, I think there are people that seem to be
Speaker 2: extremely passionate about well, even you know, even architects that
Speaker 2: seem to be so focused on on that or so
Speaker 2: passionate about that that that's all they do, right. They
Speaker 2: don't have they don't have time for other things. They
Speaker 2: spend all their time on that. And it's like, well,
Speaker 2: I don't really want to do.
Speaker 4: That, Okay, what do you do outside of architecture?
Speaker 2: I like enjoying my time with my family, you know,
Speaker 2: fixing things up at the house, just just kind of
Speaker 2: enjoying people, that sort of thing. But it but it
Speaker 2: would never be thrilling. I don't think.
Speaker 4: I can't tell if you want thrills, you might be
Speaker 4: you might be fine without thrills. You seem like you
Speaker 4: got a good you seem to make you like what
Speaker 4: you do, You got a good fan. You may you
Speaker 4: probably make a lot of money. You're chilling. You don't
Speaker 4: seem like you need anything thrilling. But but also at
Speaker 4: the same time, I sort of hear in your voice
Speaker 4: the opposite. I hear that nothing mad, I'm hearing in
Speaker 4: your voice, and this is not me fucking going Uh,
Speaker 4: what's what's that? What's what's? People tell me what's the fuck?
Speaker 4: What's her name? What's her name? The person who like
Speaker 4: does is?
Speaker 6: Fuck it?
Speaker 4: Whatever I was thinking of. But also I hear you
Speaker 4: know something is dying inside of you, mister architect, something
Speaker 4: you you wanna You want to build a fucking building
Speaker 4: and then jump off of it with a parachute? H Yeah,
Speaker 4: I hear that from you.
Speaker 2: Maybe I think I'm sure, I'm I'm I'm fine, right,
Speaker 2: But do I want to just be fine? I think
Speaker 2: maybe maybe I want some thrilled. Yeah, I'm finding this
Speaker 2: out with you.
Speaker 4: I think, what are you gonna do when I'm gone?
Speaker 7: What?
Speaker 4: I'm sorry? What did you? What did you say beforehand?
Speaker 2: I said, I'm finding this out with you. Maybe I
Speaker 2: need to find some thrills for real, because sure, I'm fine,
Speaker 2: But but you keep asking what thrills people? And I
Speaker 2: think that there are people that are getting getting thrilled,
Speaker 2: and I'm wondering, what the hell can I need to
Speaker 2: get them thrilled?
Speaker 4: Well, don't listen to me, don't listen to them, Listen
Speaker 4: to yourself, all right, because you don't want to be
Speaker 4: out here listening to Dom Green Gecko man on the
Speaker 4: computer having him convince you that you need more. Right right,
Speaker 4: I'm dumb as ship, dude. I don't know anything. All
Speaker 4: these people calling in, no one knows anything, dude. That
Speaker 4: would be sick by the Here's what I'll say, though,
Speaker 4: I think I think what you should try doing is
Speaker 4: is I don't know if you should try doing this
Speaker 4: because it's dangerous, but that would be sick of you
Speaker 4: to jump off of your own building, to like base
Speaker 4: jump off of your own building, not like like a
Speaker 4: base jump, a bunch of jump.
Speaker 2: I think that I'm in the progress of my first
Speaker 2: building that I could actually jump off of.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: No other building that I've done is tell enough that
Speaker 2: this one it could. It could be telling.
Speaker 4: That's how you're going to test it is by a
Speaker 4: bunch of jumping off of that ship.
Speaker 8: Let's let's see the worst.
Speaker 4: I hope it does call back. If it does, and
Speaker 4: if it doesn't, then it was nice knowing you.
Speaker 2: All right.
Speaker 4: Would you say your name.
Speaker 2: Was well, I'm Scott number two, Scott.
Speaker 4: Number two, thank you for calling in. Man, you have
Speaker 4: a good rest of the night.
Speaker 2: Thank you too.
Speaker 4: Holy shit, what's up, dude?
Speaker 8: What's up?
Speaker 4: Have we have we spoken before. Never What is your name?
Speaker 7: Scott?
Speaker 4: Get the fuck out are you? Are you one of
Speaker 4: the other Scots.
Speaker 7: I'm Scott number three.
Speaker 4: Get the fuck out of here. You're Scott number three.
Speaker 7: Yeah, Scott number that's not even.
Speaker 4: That's not even three Scots tonight. That's three Scotts in
Speaker 4: a row.
Speaker 7: That's three Scotts in a row. And I bought a
Speaker 7: lottery ticket. I bought a lottery ticket of three numbers.
Speaker 7: And if I win, I'll give you half.
Speaker 4: The tic tac Scott. Okay, yeah, what's what you gotta bake?
Speaker 7: Let me let me okay, let me hear your lunch.
Speaker 4: We'll wait, we'll wait.
Speaker 8: Wait.
Speaker 7: I don't want to jack myself off all night. I
Speaker 7: don't want to jack myself off all night over here. Okay,
Speaker 7: So butten, I'll just read the text that I sent
Speaker 7: to you and then you can.
Speaker 4: No, don't read anything. Don't read anything. Who are you? What?
Speaker 4: What's up? Scott? You have a you have a baked
Speaker 4: potato in the microwave?
Speaker 5: Just now?
Speaker 4: Did you get it out? It was beeping?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 7: I got it, I got it.
Speaker 4: What was it? Was it a Potatoes't a potato?
Speaker 6: Was it?
Speaker 8: No?
Speaker 7: It wasn't.
Speaker 4: What was it?
Speaker 7: Pious?
Speaker 4: Tell me everything, Scott, tell me nothing. Who are you?
Speaker 4: What are you doing?
Speaker 7: Well? The interesting thing is that, you know, the uh
Speaker 7: that I texted you about was that my wife left
Speaker 7: me for a fifty year old preacher, and uh what
Speaker 7: thrills me?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 7: You know what had been thrilling me. I guess I'm
Speaker 7: trying to step away from it. You know, I want
Speaker 7: to preface this by saying I am talking to a
Speaker 7: real therapist and all of that about all this. But
Speaker 7: you know, my wife left me for this fifty year
Speaker 7: old preacher, and what thrilled me was to kind of
Speaker 7: exposed that to everybody, and right, yeah, okay, And so
Speaker 7: here's how I did it. Okay. You know, I went
Speaker 7: onto all of their you know, serious uh social media accounts,
Speaker 7: and I put them all into one chat group, and
Speaker 7: I put her in there too, and I put a
Speaker 7: picture of his car parked outside of her house late
Speaker 7: at night, and you know, just kind of put all
Speaker 7: the cards on the table and left it at that.
Speaker 5: MM.
Speaker 4: So you put who was in the group chat, the
Speaker 4: wife of the preacher, the kids of the pre who
Speaker 4: was in the group chat.
Speaker 7: All those that's fair, Yeah, and brother.
Speaker 6: Wow.
Speaker 7: His mother.
Speaker 2: Wow.
Speaker 4: So you put all you put this guy's wife and
Speaker 4: all of his people in the group chat and you
Speaker 4: posted you you let them all know that he was
Speaker 4: cheating with your wife.
Speaker 7: Yeah.
Speaker 4: Wow. How how did they respond? What? What did they
Speaker 4: say back?
Speaker 7: Well, they were religious, so they you know, we're saying
Speaker 7: that I was like, you know, satanic, and uh I
Speaker 7: was a demon and stuff like that. But one of
Speaker 7: them reached out to me.
Speaker 4: What did they say when they reached out to you?
Speaker 7: Uh, they just asked me about the situation.
Speaker 4: Are you in many issues right now while you're talking
Speaker 4: to me?
Speaker 1: No, I'm sitting outside.
Speaker 2: Can you hear me?
Speaker 4: Okay, yeah, I can hear you. Okay, what are we saying? Scott?
Speaker 8: You there? Yeah, I'm here, I say.
Speaker 4: So one of these people reached out to you. What
Speaker 4: did they say?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 1: I just asked me about the situations, and I told
Speaker 1: them about it, and then they found and they they
Speaker 1: confronted like they it was it was one of the people.
Speaker 1: They confronted him about it, and they caught him at
Speaker 1: her house and like they knocked on the door and
Speaker 1: then come joint and then they didn't answer, Like this
Speaker 1: person saw him walk into her house and said and
Speaker 1: and it was like someone in his him and they
Speaker 1: knocked on her door after them walked into her house,
Speaker 1: and he didn't He didn't the door.
Speaker 2: That's what the persons.
Speaker 7: Yeah, h but here's the kicker.
Speaker 2: Okay, here's the kick.
Speaker 7: Everybody, like everybody knows that they don't care.
Speaker 4: They don't care. They don't care, like they don't care.
Speaker 4: You were telling me at the very beginning of this
Speaker 4: that that it's been thrilling you so much to make
Speaker 4: this Facebook ship and to you know, create this chaos.
Speaker 4: But how thrilling can it really be? Scott? If they
Speaker 4: don't care?
Speaker 2: I know?
Speaker 1: Right?
Speaker 4: Does that piss you off? Do you wish that they
Speaker 4: were fear? They were furious?
Speaker 7: Not anymore?
Speaker 4: What are you gonna do? Now? What's next for you?
Speaker 7: Scott?
Speaker 4: Did you divorce her?
Speaker 7: Wow?
Speaker 1: Yeah, of course. Uh, I'm gonna take the l man,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take the l.
Speaker 7: Respect.
Speaker 8: I've heard.
Speaker 7: I've heard a lot of people call in and talk
Speaker 7: to you.
Speaker 1: And you know, I thought the stream I love the
Speaker 1: stream on on Uh, I love the stream on Tuesday too,
Speaker 1: thank you? And uh, you know, shut you know, tell
Speaker 1: that guy he said, what that and uh, yeah. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take the l and like I was saying,
Speaker 1: I heard a lot of people on here talking about
Speaker 1: you know, there's stuff, and I like, I like hearing
Speaker 1: about that.
Speaker 4: Just mm hmm do you think.
Speaker 8: Mm hmmm?
Speaker 4: What was I gonna say? Are you gonna go out
Speaker 4: there and uh date again? Or are you going to
Speaker 4: take some time for yourself? What are you leaning towards
Speaker 4: how you're feeling?
Speaker 1: I'm feeling great, man, Uh no, I'm not. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna get into like archery.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get into like wit making, and I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna become a badass and uh you know, I don't
Speaker 1: be dramming.
Speaker 4: I love it, man. Well, best of luck you Scott's
Speaker 4: Number three, Wacky number three, You too, man, talk to
Speaker 4: you soon.
Speaker 8: I love you.
Speaker 3: All.
Speaker 6: From Ezra.
Speaker 4: Ezra Ezra, Hello is this Ezra?
Speaker 6: Uh? Yeah?
Speaker 7: Hi?
Speaker 4: What's so funny? Ezra?
Speaker 6: I didn't think I was gonna actually get through and
Speaker 6: now I'm kind of like freaked out.
Speaker 4: You know, why would you call a phone number if
Speaker 4: you weren't expecting someone to pick up the phone.
Speaker 8: Why I call that?
Speaker 6: I called like a lot of times. I guess I
Speaker 6: don't know. I kept thinking of why I was calling,
Speaker 6: and I thought of so many different reasons. Also, sorry,
Speaker 6: I don't know if like the mic quality is okay,
Speaker 6: but I just kept changing my mind on why I
Speaker 6: was calling.
Speaker 4: You know, Well, first of all, is you never have
Speaker 4: to apologize to me for anything ever. But second of all,
Speaker 4: all right, so you said that you flipped hold on
Speaker 4: me once I have to charge my marapods. Ezra, stay there,
Speaker 4: stay on the line.
Speaker 6: Ezra, I'm staying. I'm I'm sweating, man, I'm yeah, you're
Speaker 6: asking what real? Yeah?
Speaker 4: Okay, Ezra, s all right, right, bear with me. Ezra.
Speaker 4: First of all, I don't know if you're just remember
Speaker 4: I'm not even I'm not. First of all, I'm not
Speaker 4: even live right now. I ended the stream twenty minutes ago,
Speaker 4: so it's just you and me just on the phone.
Speaker 4: But Ezra, you said that you you said that multiple
Speaker 4: different things went into your mind.
Speaker 6: Yeah, is this is this volume?
Speaker 8: Okay?
Speaker 4: Yeah, you're fine, You're fine, Ezra. What tell me the
Speaker 4: things that were going through your mind is reasons why
Speaker 4: you might be calling it?
Speaker 6: Well, uh, I've seen your stream pop up before, but
Speaker 6: I've never really stayed around that long, and I was like, oh,
Speaker 6: it'd be cool. Like when I was laying down and
Speaker 6: I decided to like smoke. I got nothing to be
Speaker 6: at to Friday night. I'm home alone, so I was like,
Speaker 6: be cool to like just chat. And then I was
Speaker 6: thinking about stuff going on in my life, thinking about
Speaker 6: that and also thinking about things that thrill me, you know,
Speaker 6: And I was like, it's kind of thrilling the idea
Speaker 6: of trying to call, because I get like I get
Speaker 6: fright when I I have a lot of anxieties, you
Speaker 6: know what I mean. So like my hearts are really pumping.
Speaker 6: My heart's really pumping right now.
Speaker 4: Are you? Are you nervous right now?
Speaker 6: I don't know. I don't know. Like when I when
Speaker 6: I try to perform, or I try to tell people
Speaker 6: jokes or show people music I like or anything like that,
Speaker 6: I just I just start sweating in my heart.
Speaker 4: Just you know, right, But do you would you consider
Speaker 4: I wouldn't consider what you're doing. Do you consider what
Speaker 4: you're doing right now to be a performance?
Speaker 6: I struggle with trying to not perform, and it's gotten
Speaker 6: worse throughout my life trying. I'm getting more anxious over
Speaker 6: the years. It caused me to like want to be
Speaker 6: likable and kind of more uh, put on a performance
Speaker 6: throughout life to try to be more pleasing to other people.
Speaker 4: Mmm, what kind of like? What do you think? How
Speaker 4: how could you articulate the difference between just who you
Speaker 4: are natural and who you are when you're performing? How
Speaker 4: would you describe that difference?
Speaker 6: I've I've I'm trying not to read the chat. I'm
Speaker 6: really struggling with that. Actually, I feel like I've lost
Speaker 6: it somewhere. I don't really know. I feel like I'm
Speaker 6: probably always myself, but I don't really know who that is.
Speaker 6: And with dissociating and stuff like that, it makes it
Speaker 6: even harder to really firmly grasp who I am, like
Speaker 6: really anymore. And also like as you, as you age
Speaker 6: and shit changes, and I've had so much change in
Speaker 6: my life and I just I feel so different, but
Speaker 6: I maybe I'm the same.
Speaker 4: How old are you?
Speaker 6: I'm about to turn twenty.
Speaker 4: When you earlier were talking to me about the different
Speaker 4: reasons you were thinking about calling and you so you
Speaker 4: were thinking about the stuff going on in your life? Right?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 4: What is the stuff going on in your life that
Speaker 4: you were thinking.
Speaker 6: About well, I was thinking about a few different things,
Speaker 6: but to summarize my situation right now, before COVID and
Speaker 6: stuff like that, I've always had a lot of family struggles,
Speaker 6: and I planned on leaving one day, and I decided
Speaker 6: to stay with my boyfriend for a while, but I
Speaker 6: had to go back because of COVID, And then during quarantine,
Speaker 6: my mom kicked me out, so I was homeless, and
Speaker 6: I went back to live with my boyfriend, but I
Speaker 6: couldn't really live there. I didn't have money. I was
Speaker 6: just staying there and I spent the whole summer just
Speaker 6: kind of fucking around, you know. And now I got
Speaker 6: a temporary job and I moved into a place with
Speaker 6: one of my best friends, and it's just been it's
Speaker 6: been a really crazy year.
Speaker 5: You know.
Speaker 4: That's awesome. Do you feel better having sort of gotten
Speaker 4: your footing a bit?
Speaker 6: Some Sometimes it's like a lot of times it's like
Speaker 6: hard to tell if things are better or worse, or
Speaker 6: if things are just different. If that makes sense.
Speaker 4: Why did your mom kick you out?
Speaker 6: There's a lot of My mom has a lot of issues,
Speaker 6: and I wanted to leave myself because it was always
Speaker 6: very toxic and stuff, and it was kind of crazy
Speaker 6: that she ended up kicking me out, and she said
Speaker 6: she was she'd always just say she's tired of my
Speaker 6: attitude and things like that, you know, but she put
Speaker 6: me through a crazy year the year before and it
Speaker 6: was just kind of really out of left field, and
Speaker 6: she just told me like to look for shelters and
Speaker 6: I don't know, Sorry if I'm kind of all over
Speaker 6: the place.
Speaker 4: No, you're fine, man, m all right. So you said
Speaker 4: a few different things and you said, of you, Oh,
Speaker 4: I'm sorry, I'm I'm on backtracking. I'm thinking of what
Speaker 4: you said. You said, I'm thinking of a few different things. Yeah.
Speaker 4: Is there anything else that you were thinking of that
Speaker 4: you hadn't said already?
Speaker 6: Yeah. Uh, I'm a little distracted because my roommates cat's
Speaker 6: attacking my cat off to the side.
Speaker 5: Uh.
Speaker 6: I was also oneed, is there anything that you're not
Speaker 6: allowed to talk about on here? Like? Is there anything sus?
Speaker 4: Uh? Let's see. Uh don't say any slurs. But I
Speaker 4: didn't peg that of you. I think a first, do
Speaker 4: you you have a real therapist?
Speaker 6: I had one once and I had a counselor before. Uh,
Speaker 6: I'm on a wait list, but things are tough, you know,
Speaker 6: and a lot of my cat's trying to eat weed.
Speaker 3: Stop.
Speaker 4: I think my thing is, you know, I'm not I've
Speaker 4: obviously not a real therapist. I'm not even a real
Speaker 4: person computer.
Speaker 6: You can literally steer me anywhere. I can talk about
Speaker 6: anything forever. I'll talk I.
Speaker 4: Mean you, but other but look other than that with you,
Speaker 4: you look you don't seem like you're gonna come at
Speaker 4: me with anything that fucking you know that. I'd be like, yeah,
Speaker 4: we can't. We can't talk about that. On here. You
Speaker 4: can talk about pretty much whatever you want and hit me,
Speaker 4: what's up? What's what? What do you what do you think?
Speaker 4: I'll think it's sus.
Speaker 6: I can I can try to be like more.
Speaker 5: You don't have to.
Speaker 4: Try to be you don't have to try to be anything.
Speaker 6: What were you?
Speaker 4: What were you going to tell me?
Speaker 6: I was just thinking about the whole thrills thing, and Okay,
Speaker 6: how I'm feeling very blasse? I guess you'd say, is
Speaker 6: I think that's the term with like life, and a
Speaker 6: lot of people around me and people my age are
Speaker 6: feeling the same way. And I don't know if it's
Speaker 6: an everywhere thing or because I'm in a small city,
Speaker 6: but thrilling, thrilling experiences is such a huge thing for everyone.
Speaker 6: Everyone just wants to feel something all the time. And
Speaker 6: it's created this like drug culture, you know, and it's
Speaker 6: really scary to me and concerning to me that that's
Speaker 6: what so many people around me see as they're through
Speaker 6: you know.
Speaker 4: Yeah, absolutely, are you? Is that again? I'm not a
Speaker 4: real therapist, you know, but I mean, is that something
Speaker 4: that you're worried about happening with you?
Speaker 6: I know I wouldn't be able to do it, just
Speaker 6: because of the way that my mind is. I know
Speaker 6: it wouldn't benefit me in any positive way. And it's
Speaker 6: it's just kind of crazy how abundant it is. And
Speaker 6: like my the people around me range all all over
Speaker 6: in their twenties and it's just so it's everywhere. It's
Speaker 6: just everyone all the time. And I didn't expect that,
Speaker 6: and I feel like I'm going to lose people. But
Speaker 6: I don't want to lose people. And that's not where
Speaker 6: I I don't draw happiness from that.
Speaker 4: You know, what do you why do you feel like?
Speaker 4: And you sort of mentioned you sort of talked about
Speaker 4: this a little bit, but you know, if you wanted
Speaker 4: to elaborate why why do you feel like so many
Speaker 4: people are being drawn towards drugs where you.
Speaker 6: Are, it's there's I try talking people out of it
Speaker 6: and things like that, and it's I guess it's a
Speaker 6: part of a part of it is because it's such
Speaker 6: a thing, like it's so normalized. Everyone's just like, what
Speaker 6: are we doing on the weekend? Oh, we're gonna get
Speaker 6: fucked up? Like it's what people do for fun, you know,
Speaker 6: like they're like, what do we want to do that'll
Speaker 6: make us feel something? Oh, let's all do drugs?
Speaker 4: Are you talking like, you know, I'm curious, are you
Speaker 4: talking like smoking pot? Or are you talking about like
Speaker 4: popping pills? Stuff that's like a little bit harder than that.
Speaker 6: Everyone smokes. Everyone smokes weed. That's not what I mean.
Speaker 6: Like that's a whole different kind of like thing. I mean,
Speaker 6: like Mollie is like super big, like that kind of
Speaker 6: molly shrooms all that stuff, you know, nothing like not
Speaker 6: like no one's like shooting up, you know, I hopefully.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think, well, I mean a lot of this
Speaker 4: is a very basic thing. And again I'm not a
Speaker 4: real person at all, but uh, you know, I feel
Speaker 4: like a lot of that happens, and you probably you
Speaker 4: were kind of saying, this is like if you have
Speaker 4: nothing else to do, yeah, that's what you do.
Speaker 6: Do you have any opinion on it? Do you think
Speaker 6: it's like do you think it's chill?
Speaker 4: Or do I think what's chill? Doing a bunch of
Speaker 4: molly and shrooms all the time?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Uh, it depends. It depends how you define chill.
Speaker 6: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: Nah.
Speaker 4: Uh, Well, well, well what do I mean. It's probably
Speaker 4: gotten way worse than COVID. It's you know, it's probably
Speaker 4: gotten way worse with COVID because people aren't allowed to
Speaker 4: fucking go outside, but even before I I think the
Speaker 4: tendency now is to blame everything on COVID, But I
Speaker 4: think even before, like you know, people were doing drugs
Speaker 4: because they're bored, long before COVID. I don't know. I
Speaker 4: don't have like an answer of any kind. But it's hard.
Speaker 4: It's hard to find. It's I think in general, it's
Speaker 4: fucking hard to find shit to do, especially.
Speaker 6: When you're in a small city and you run out
Speaker 6: of things to do in your first few years of life,
Speaker 6: and then you turn like nineteen and you get some
Speaker 6: new things to do. You know, and it gets very
Speaker 6: old quickly.
Speaker 4: I've thought about this in general, like in life, how
Speaker 4: much is there? How much? It's it's so funny because
Speaker 4: I'm a strong believer in the op both sides of
Speaker 4: this is like, hey, you know, how much is there
Speaker 4: really to fucking do in in life? Like like when
Speaker 4: you think about like what, you go to a restaurant,
Speaker 4: you go to see it, you go out to a movie, Yeah,
Speaker 4: you see your friends.
Speaker 6: I wish it didn't stress me out. I really wish
Speaker 6: that I was fine with everything and that I could
Speaker 6: do that and that it didn't freak me out. Like
Speaker 6: I feel like partially it's because of things I grew
Speaker 6: up around, like suss shit with like my mom and stuff,
Speaker 6: and it freaks me out. But I have struggled for
Speaker 6: so many.
Speaker 4: What freaks you out? I was talking about a bunch
Speaker 4: of shit. What specifically from what I just said freaks
Speaker 4: you out?
Speaker 6: Uh, like just the the I don't know IF's specifically
Speaker 6: what you're saying, but just thinking about like the normalization
Speaker 6: of everything and like seeing it all around me. It's
Speaker 6: just like it's not that I think it's bad, it's
Speaker 6: just you know, I don't even know Uh, I don't
Speaker 6: even know if this was what I'm meant to talk about.
Speaker 6: I guess there's nothing you're supposed to talk about. I
Speaker 6: just start to hate myself the more I talk.
Speaker 4: Why. I don't know why. I don't hate yourself.
Speaker 6: I can't really help it, you know. I would like
Speaker 6: to see sure, But I my dilemma. I'm a I'm
Speaker 6: a huge fucking extrovert. I love talking. I love people,
Speaker 6: and but the older and older I get, the worse
Speaker 6: my like anxiety gets and stuff like that. I I
Speaker 6: love to talk, though, So if you have anything you'd
Speaker 6: like to talk about, let me let.
Speaker 4: Me ask you. Let me ask you one final thing.
Speaker 4: What you said you've been to therapy. Yeah, when you
Speaker 4: tell you, and I'm assuming you've you've talked about these
Speaker 4: similarish things that we've talked about tonight with your therapist. No,
Speaker 4: you haven't. No, I uh, that's because that's that's what
Speaker 4: I'm That's what I tell you. Anytime anyone comes on
Speaker 4: and and sort of talks about things where we're where,
Speaker 4: it's like they should talk about that with a real therapist.
Speaker 4: That's what I always say, is you should tell you
Speaker 4: should go talk about this with a real therapist and
Speaker 4: see what they have to say.
Speaker 6: I know, and now I I feel like I've wasted something.
Speaker 4: I want to I want to No, no, no, no,
Speaker 4: that's just all fake. This isn't real. This is a no, no,
Speaker 4: no wrong. People are look for the past how long?
Speaker 4: For the past sixteen minutes? Everyone else, they're on this
Speaker 4: website watching people play fucking call of duty. That's not
Speaker 4: that's not any worse than what we're doing here. You
Speaker 4: didn't waste anything, so don't.
Speaker 6: I just you're a new person, and i'd like to.
Speaker 6: I'd like to learn something of your thoughts. I'd like to.
Speaker 6: I don't know if gained something from the interaction is
Speaker 6: the right word. I've definitely gained something, I guess in
Speaker 6: not being a coward and actually calling in even though
Speaker 6: I'm terrified. You know, well, I'm.
Speaker 4: Glad you did. Man. You know what's final? I was
Speaker 4: don't hate, don't hate? You know what's funny? I uh,
Speaker 4: I've been listening to Sometimes. What I'll do actually is
Speaker 4: I'll call in to other Reddit other something. A lot
Speaker 4: of other people will host call in shows on Reddit.
Speaker 4: Sometimes I'll call into their shows and yeah, and I've
Speaker 4: never it's there was some sort of fucking brain thing
Speaker 4: going on, because doing this stream does not make me nervous,
Speaker 4: even when there's like five it's it's like nervous, isn't
Speaker 4: the right word something. It's like stressful, but not like
Speaker 4: I don't get.
Speaker 6: Nervous because you're Is it because you're the gag?
Speaker 4: I guess? But when I call in to other people's
Speaker 4: shows for some reason, I get nervous. I'm like, I'm like,
Speaker 4: what the fuck is that? That makes no sense. It's fine,
Speaker 4: it's giving me more of a more of a idea
Speaker 4: of what it's like to be on the other side.
Speaker 4: And then I think about, like, you know what I'm
Speaker 4: talking I'm not nervous doing this by other people on
Speaker 4: the other side are nervous, and I know what that
Speaker 4: feels like now because I've been calling into other people's
Speaker 4: streams and I'm like, well, that's a weird dynamic. I
Speaker 4: hope I haven't said anything to anyone that makes them
Speaker 4: fucking go crazy or anything.
Speaker 6: Yeah, I uh, I don't. I don't even know, man.
Speaker 6: I also wanted to say, since it's your uh, I
Speaker 6: don't know if you change questions every night, like is
Speaker 6: that something you do or.
Speaker 4: I'm crazy, man, I don't even exist. Man, you're we're
Speaker 4: both in a dream right now. What's up?
Speaker 6: I just want to say, COVID. One of the things
Speaker 6: that pisses me off so much is uh that shows
Speaker 6: are canceled and then you can't pet people's dogs, because
Speaker 6: those two things that that gives me a thrill meeting
Speaker 6: people's dogs and falling in a mosh pit and getting
Speaker 6: fucking picked up.
Speaker 4: Well, man, look you can. You can pet me anytime
Speaker 4: you want.
Speaker 6: Thank you, mister gecko, of course.
Speaker 4: Now what you say your name was doctor?
Speaker 6: Are you a doctor? Gecko?
Speaker 4: I have no idea what the hell I am? But
Speaker 4: who are you? What's your name? My name is Ezra,
Speaker 4: Ezra Well, Ezra man, thank you for calling in, dude,
Speaker 4: and uh well, best of luck to you. Go try
Speaker 4: to see a real therapist if you can about this stuff.
Speaker 4: But I appreciate your calling in. No, I think everyone
Speaker 4: should probably at least try therapy.
Speaker 9: Iat.
Speaker 6: Sorry, people have said something nice.
Speaker 4: I'll talk to you soon, Ezra. Do take care, man,
Speaker 4: I thought people would be mean.
Speaker 6: Thank you. Have a good night. Man.
Speaker 4: Let her only goes on the line.
Speaker 6: Taking his own calls every night.
Speaker 4: He was teaching you