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<v Speaker 1>Goes on the line, thinking of his own calls every night,

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<v Speaker 1>goes to side.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm teaching you your life.

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<v Speaker 3>All from Rose.

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<v Speaker 4>Rose. Hello Rose? Who are you with? You're at like

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<v Speaker 4>a party? Who are you? Have so many friends?

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<v Speaker 5>No, I'm not at a party with my I remember

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<v Speaker 5>with my roommate.

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<v Speaker 4>Tell me about your roommates. How many of them are there?

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<v Speaker 4>The human beings or are the animals?

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<v Speaker 5>They're human beings, but they can be pretty crazy.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay are you Are you not from the US?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 5>No, I was born in the US, but my mom's

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<v Speaker 5>from the U.

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<v Speaker 4>K Oh okay, nice rock and roll? What so? How

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<v Speaker 4>many people are you with? Total? Because I want all

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<v Speaker 4>their favorite sounds?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh okay, you want all their favorite sounds.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, well let's start with you. What's whereas? What's your

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<v Speaker 4>favorite sound?

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<v Speaker 5>I really like it's really weird. I like listening to

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<v Speaker 5>different card chimes.

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<v Speaker 4>Different car chimes, like what kind of car like? Like

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<v Speaker 4>kind of car chimes?

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<v Speaker 5>It can be any card chime. I just like you

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<v Speaker 5>know when you open a door to the car and

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<v Speaker 5>you know, maybe you left your keys in, or the

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<v Speaker 5>light song and it goes singing thing like those they

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<v Speaker 5>just hit different. They're funky and people design them though you.

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<v Speaker 4>Know what, you know, what's funny you say that because

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<v Speaker 4>some of them I like, like you know when I

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<v Speaker 4>uh do you know when? Like a car? Do you

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<v Speaker 4>have you ever had a car with like an automatic

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<v Speaker 4>trunk or something like that.

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<v Speaker 5>Uh? I have not had one, but I've seen some.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, like like I was in a carpool and shinned,

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<v Speaker 4>so I had like a car, but there's like an

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<v Speaker 4>automatic trunk and like an automatic like the sound that

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<v Speaker 4>an automatic trunk makes when it's closed. He goes boom

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<v Speaker 4>boo blo. She slaps what's your favorite?

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<v Speaker 6>Which?

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<v Speaker 4>Which of your carchimes is your favorite?

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<v Speaker 7>Which?

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<v Speaker 4>Which? Which one?

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<v Speaker 5>I gotta like my own car? Time?

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<v Speaker 4>Can you do an impression of your own of your car?

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<v Speaker 6>Time?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>That's your fucking slaps.

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<v Speaker 5>It's so cute.

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<v Speaker 4>It is cute, and you know what that must be. Uh,

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<v Speaker 4>that's hard because like they want that. The sound is

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<v Speaker 4>supposed to get you to want to leave, but you

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<v Speaker 4>like it. So it encourages you to drive without a seatbelt,

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<v Speaker 4>which is kind of dangerous.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's it's speaking to you. It's like, hey, I

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<v Speaker 5>just want you to be safe.

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<v Speaker 4>It's so sweet that is you know what You're right?

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<v Speaker 4>That is very sweet. It's like a little it's like

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<v Speaker 4>a little pixie in your car, like a little like

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<v Speaker 4>Jimminy cricket.

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<v Speaker 5>Ship in your little driving buddy.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's a little driving fairy beeping at you because

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<v Speaker 4>it cares about you.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. I mean when you have no one else in

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<v Speaker 5>the car and you know, you just had a sad

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<v Speaker 5>day at work and your little car engine goes, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>just speaks to you. Yeah, it's his own little personal voice.

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<v Speaker 5>You get too much to the car?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I love I love that. I love you think?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you but do you think that there's a danger

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<v Speaker 4>in that? Do you feel like if you grow too

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<v Speaker 4>if you grow too much of a too much, if

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<v Speaker 4>you developed too strong of feelings for your little car fairy,

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't that open them up to hurt you? Rose?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, but I don't get attached to many things. And

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<v Speaker 5>it's just my car, because you know, not everything's forever,

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<v Speaker 5>and so you got to say goodbye and you know

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<v Speaker 5>in the moment it's just beautiful.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I wanted to hear your roommate's noises.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, because they want to hear your You need to

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<v Speaker 5>say your favorite noise. I'm putting you on speakers.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm sorry if this echo my eyes fucked up in

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<v Speaker 4>the in the stream. Hello, what's up? Who are you?

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<v Speaker 4>Tell me everything? Tell me nothing, I would say.

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<v Speaker 6>My favorite noise is a really solid belly flop.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh ooh, a belly flop, because to me, a belly

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<v Speaker 4>flop elicits like like it's like a for me, it's

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<v Speaker 4>like a screech of on a chalkboard kind of thing

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<v Speaker 4>where its physical pain somehow. Oh no, do your best

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<v Speaker 4>impression of a belly flop for me.

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<v Speaker 6>My best impression. Uh here, I'll try my best on

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<v Speaker 6>the floor.

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<v Speaker 7>I'm putting you on.

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<v Speaker 4>The floor now, got you cold and hard?

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<v Speaker 6>Okay?

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<v Speaker 3>Did you did you hear it?

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<v Speaker 5>No?

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<v Speaker 4>I was talking over you.

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<v Speaker 6>Do it?

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<v Speaker 4>Can you do it again?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>Hold on, I was laying on the cold, hard floor.

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<v Speaker 6>Okay, how about that time.

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<v Speaker 4>I was talking over you again? Who's the last roommate?

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<v Speaker 4>He hit me to the other roommate?

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<v Speaker 7>Oh yeah, hold on, thank.

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<v Speaker 4>You for thank you though, man, I appreciate that was

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<v Speaker 4>a nice belly flop. Thank you for doing those belly flops?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, of course.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, here's everyone else.

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<v Speaker 4>God damn my eyes are fucked up, but it's fine.

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<v Speaker 4>How many more people are there is that is that

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<v Speaker 4>their favorite noise? Yes, no, don't look, don't apologize. I

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<v Speaker 4>would have actually actually hold I want you to know

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<v Speaker 4>something about you apologizing. I would have been more offended

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<v Speaker 4>if you didn't scream, because if you didn't scream, that

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<v Speaker 4>would mean that you were lying to me about your

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<v Speaker 4>favorite uh noise, and you were telling me something different

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<v Speaker 4>because you thought that. You know, I would judge you

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<v Speaker 4>for having a loud scream as your favorite noise. And

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<v Speaker 4>I want you to know that I'm happy that you

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<v Speaker 4>don't peg that of me. I'm happy that you feel

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<v Speaker 4>comfortable enough to tell me the truth or to scream

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<v Speaker 4>me the truth. Thank you anytime, Rose, Kevin, uh uh, Jacqueline,

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<v Speaker 4>You're all beautiful souls. You live in a in a

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<v Speaker 4>in a beautiful haunted house, it seems like. And I'll

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<v Speaker 4>talk to you guys soon. Thank you so much for

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<v Speaker 4>calling into the therapy Gecko show, Love you too, Rose,

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<v Speaker 4>Talk to you soon.

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<v Speaker 2>All from em Emily.

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<v Speaker 4>Emily, Oh my god, you were laughing in the thing.

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<v Speaker 4>You're just you're your your call screener was just a laugh,

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<v Speaker 4>and then you got An Emily at the end.

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<v Speaker 3>So I had a mouthful of food because yeah, we

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<v Speaker 3>just were sitting down to eat our dinner and watch

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<v Speaker 3>and watch your stream. And I was just laughing at

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<v Speaker 3>Yack because I actually talked to you last night. I

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<v Speaker 3>was at the Wiki thing and I was like, now,

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<v Speaker 3>I'll feel bad if I get in because I don't

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<v Speaker 3>want to be your I mean, this is only my

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<v Speaker 3>second time. So anyways, yak, last night was your first, right, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>last night was my first.

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<v Speaker 4>Not that's a totally dad, I mean that's you know,

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<v Speaker 4>who is that guy? Even it's a different guy, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>or is it? I don't even know at this point.

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<v Speaker 4>It's a it's a it's a never ending identity crisis. Emily,

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<v Speaker 4>what's for dinner? Real quick?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, So Ethan also got in last night. We both were.

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<v Speaker 4>Remember you, I remember you guys, so I don't that

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<v Speaker 4>was a different guy.

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, oh yeah, sorry, Lyle. We talked to Lyle.

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<v Speaker 4>You talked to Lyle.

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<v Speaker 3>He was very comic, So right, I told him to

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<v Speaker 3>tell you hi, though, So I'm excited to speak to

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<v Speaker 3>you and say hi. Okay, so what we ate? We

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<v Speaker 3>ate chicken? No, okay, let's say fare fried chicken, red

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<v Speaker 3>beans and rice and carrots and chicken tendies. Oh my

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<v Speaker 3>gosh in the spirit.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, all right, all right, Emily, I have a question. Yes,

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<v Speaker 4>you have a lie.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yes. So when this question came up, I thought

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<v Speaker 3>immediately of my poor fourth grade self, and this is

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<v Speaker 3>a this is like a family story that my family

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<v Speaker 3>likes to make fun of me for. But guess when

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<v Speaker 3>I was in fourth grade, which I feel like I

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<v Speaker 3>blocked out of my memory, I do not remember that

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<v Speaker 3>I wrote a Basically, we were supposed to write about

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<v Speaker 3>one of our grandparents and do like a biography piece

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<v Speaker 3>on them. And my grandma was born in Yugoslavia and

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<v Speaker 3>she came over here and she had I think she

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<v Speaker 3>had one husband before my grandpa. She's missed up Grandma.

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<v Speaker 3>But basically I lied that her first husband beat her

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<v Speaker 3>and like was was like really mean to her, and

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<v Speaker 3>and I just like expanded on and that was just

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<v Speaker 3>not not the case. But I think I just thought

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<v Speaker 3>that her story was too boring. And keep in mind,

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<v Speaker 3>she like immigrated over here, but I, my fourth grade self,

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<v Speaker 3>deemed it too boring, and so I just liked to

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<v Speaker 3>fluff up the details and wrote that her husband beat

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<v Speaker 3>her and she was really mad at me. And then

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<v Speaker 3>my parents enrolled me in a creative writing class, and

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<v Speaker 3>here we are.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, look, you're not doing anything different than what

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<v Speaker 4>you know Hollywood does right in fiction stories. You're just

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<v Speaker 4>you know, creatively adding extra beats.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I just I don't think she's like forgiven me still,

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<v Speaker 3>because she brings it up a lot, like she'll she'll

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<v Speaker 3>be like, yeah, yeah, I mean.

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<v Speaker 4>A look, why does she care about, you know, an

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<v Speaker 4>alternate history. It's as far as I'm concerned, it's it's

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<v Speaker 4>it's you you. As far as I'm concerned, you wrote

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<v Speaker 4>a fan fiction about your grandmother.

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<v Speaker 3>Exactly exactly could turn into a you know, and that's

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<v Speaker 3>like the.

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<v Speaker 4>Original one day, exactly exactly the truth. I've what I

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<v Speaker 4>feel like, the truth doesn't matter in life. That's the

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<v Speaker 4>central theme of of my uh uh tits.

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<v Speaker 3>And yeah, yeah, I'm glad I found fiction, for sure.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think at that age I really understood the

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<v Speaker 3>difference between like what a report needs to be in

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<v Speaker 3>nonfiction and then it I think it. I think it

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<v Speaker 3>was the beginnings of some creed. I don't know, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know. I just like always think about that as

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<v Speaker 3>my like life because my parents like shamed me forever.

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<v Speaker 3>We're also like Catholic, So I feel like I was

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<v Speaker 3>always you know, in the booth with the priests.

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<v Speaker 4>What inspired now that you said fourth grade?

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<v Speaker 3>I think it was fourth grade?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean you had a lust for sort of

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<v Speaker 4>uh uh showmanship in a way at such a young age.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, that's that's pretty young to look at your

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<v Speaker 4>grandma's story. I mean also fourth grade to look at

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<v Speaker 4>your grandma's story and be like, let's add in some

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<v Speaker 4>domestic abuse to spice it up. That's a that's pretty

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<v Speaker 4>young to do that.

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<v Speaker 3>I think I don't know where I got it really,

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<v Speaker 3>even like I definitely didn't grow up in that situation.

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<v Speaker 3>I think I just I know fucked up? Right? Is it?

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<v Speaker 8>Is? It?

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<v Speaker 4>Is it fucked up? I mean, look, I look obviously

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<v Speaker 4>obviously you know. Look if you told me, if you

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<v Speaker 4>told me how old are you now?

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<v Speaker 3>I am twenty nine?

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<v Speaker 4>If you told me as a twenty nine year old, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>sometimes when I go to parties, I'll just tell people

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<v Speaker 4>that my grandma used to, you know, get beaten, just

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<v Speaker 4>because I think it makes me sound cool. Then yes,

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<v Speaker 4>you'd be a psychopath. But that's that's you know, not uh,

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<v Speaker 4>that's that's not the vibe that I get from you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I don't, I don't. I'm not proud of it.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, you're proud.

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<v Speaker 3>My grandma's a nice lady.

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<v Speaker 4>She really sounds like it.

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<v Speaker 3>She had a hard life, but like not that hard,

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<v Speaker 3>you know.

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<v Speaker 4>I I, uh, who do you think had a harder life?

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<v Speaker 4>Between you and your grandma?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, my grandma. My grandpa actually just passed last year.

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<v Speaker 4>So sorry to hear that.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's okay. He yeah, he was a writer too, actually, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>but he wrote, yeah, he wrote, Yeah, he wrote like

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<v Speaker 3>a biography of our family, and yeah, so maybe that's true.

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<v Speaker 4>And he and I like the idea that your grandpa

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<v Speaker 4>and was writing the biography of your family and then

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<v Speaker 4>he got to the part about your grandma and then

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<v Speaker 4>he just fucking did the same thing, which would be

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<v Speaker 4>even like like her grandma, like like the idea that

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<v Speaker 4>your grandma's life is so boring that he would make

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<v Speaker 4>himself look like an asshole and put in the same

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<v Speaker 4>stuff that you put in because it's just so boring

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<v Speaker 4>that he's willing to do that.

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<v Speaker 3>It was her first husband, so but yes, I see

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<v Speaker 3>where you're going with it, and I yeah he would.

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<v Speaker 7>Uh.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think he embellished that. He's more nonfiction. My

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<v Speaker 3>dad is too, actually more nonfiction. I'm the one that

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<v Speaker 3>just wants to make everything up.

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<v Speaker 4>Did you tell what?

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<v Speaker 6>What?

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<v Speaker 4>Did you what? I? Yeah, hold on, sorry, I'm startying.

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<v Speaker 4>What was your excuse to your grandma? I want to know,

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<v Speaker 4>like when she found out and she was pissed off, like,

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<v Speaker 4>did you come up? Did you? Did you explain to her?

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<v Speaker 4>Why you that you thought that she was boring?

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<v Speaker 3>I so I've been told this story back to me

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<v Speaker 3>from my family so many times that I it's hard,

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<v Speaker 3>you know how your memories kind of like shift into

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<v Speaker 3>what your parents, like your parents tell back to you.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think I gave an explanation. I'm pretty sure

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<v Speaker 3>I just burst into tears. Yeah, I don't think I

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<v Speaker 3>gave her a good explanation.

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<v Speaker 4>I think I just you know, because that's the thing,

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<v Speaker 4>right in fourth in fourth grade, your your bold enough

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<v Speaker 4>to make you know, risky creative decisions, but not bold

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<v Speaker 4>enough to defend them.

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<v Speaker 3>No. No, I I mean still to this day, if

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<v Speaker 3>I think if somebody would challenge me on that, I'd

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<v Speaker 3>probably burst into years to you. I don't know. Probably

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sensitive.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm sensitive.

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<v Speaker 4>I think you know, look fourth grade, that was, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>a long time ago. I think I think you're fine.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I think I think I've moved past it, and

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<v Speaker 3>I hope that she's forgiven me. Have She hasn't brought

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<v Speaker 3>it up in a couple of years.

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<v Speaker 4>So probably for a reason, though, you think.

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe I should just like actually get her story now,

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<v Speaker 3>like because I wish I could.

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<v Speaker 4>That's that that could be. Maybe that's maybe that is

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<v Speaker 4>what you do if you if you feel if part

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<v Speaker 4>of you feels such a such a you know, if

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<v Speaker 4>there's if this is an itch that you got to

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<v Speaker 4>get rid of here, that's that's maybe how you scratch

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<v Speaker 4>it as you go out. You tell the real story.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'll get her to do a tell all. It'll

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<v Speaker 3>be great and I will not budge the details. Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>that's a good plan.

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<v Speaker 4>Beautiful, Well, Emily, you got a plan going. Uh. Thank

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<v Speaker 4>you for calling in and you have a good rest

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<v Speaker 4>of the night.

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<v Speaker 3>I love you, gre Thank you.

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<v Speaker 4>Take care bye.

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<v Speaker 6>All from Scott.

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<v Speaker 9>Scott gonna take me away, Scott, I gotta take me away,

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<v Speaker 9>fever Scott.

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<v Speaker 8>Hey, what the hell.

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<v Speaker 4>Are we gonna do?

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<v Speaker 8>I was hoping you tell me.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I have a couple of ideas.

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<v Speaker 8>Hit me.

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<v Speaker 4>We could run or we could fight.

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<v Speaker 2>So you do you?

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<v Speaker 4>Are you a fighter? Scott?

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<v Speaker 8>Not really? No? No, nah nah.

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<v Speaker 4>So if you're not a runner and you're not a fighter,

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<v Speaker 4>what do you do when you encounter danger?

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<v Speaker 8>Danger? Well, my bike, so it's kind of dangerous.

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<v Speaker 4>What do you do if you encounter danger and you

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<v Speaker 4>don't have a bike?

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<v Speaker 8>Scott? I guess I would run, but another runner?

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<v Speaker 4>So so then what are you gonna do? Scott? Fight?

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<v Speaker 4>But you can't because you said you're not a fighter.

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<v Speaker 8>I guess I'll find a corner and I'll cower in

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<v Speaker 8>my corner.

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<v Speaker 4>Scott, I think I figured it out.

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<v Speaker 8>What what you find out?

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<v Speaker 4>You're not a runner? Uh huh, you're not a fighter? Correct,

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<v Speaker 4>You're a hider? Hide Scott.

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<v Speaker 8>No, I guess you're not wrong with that.

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<v Speaker 4>I have a question, Scott. Yes, what are you hiding from?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm hiding from the real world. I'm scared of it.

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<v Speaker 4>Do you see in the real world that are that

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<v Speaker 4>you're hiding from?

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<v Speaker 8>H in general uncertainty, I don't know what you.

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<v Speaker 6>Like?

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<v Speaker 8>My future, the future what's gonna happen? Where do I

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<v Speaker 8>go from here?

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know, Thomas Scott? Where is here? Where are

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<v Speaker 4>we right now?

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<v Speaker 8>Right now? We are finishing up college.

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<v Speaker 6>M HM.

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<v Speaker 8>With a degree in insurance.

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<v Speaker 4>I might have a friend that you could talk to.

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<v Speaker 8>Excellent.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just kidding. It was a guy code joke.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh I give it. I give a good job. I

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<v Speaker 8>like it.

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<v Speaker 4>I liked the insurance. Why did you pick insurance?

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<v Speaker 6>Scott?

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<v Speaker 8>It was the quickest way for me to get out

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<v Speaker 8>of college.

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<v Speaker 4>The quickest way for you to get out of college

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<v Speaker 4>is to not go.

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<v Speaker 8>You got a point. But uh, I'm here five years.

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<v Speaker 4>In HM, So why are you so uncertain? It seems

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<v Speaker 4>like do you not want to go do insurance? Whatever

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<v Speaker 4>that would mean?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, yep, that's exactly it. I well, I'm also doing

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<v Speaker 8>a certificate and music business because I like music. I

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<v Speaker 8>make music, I know music related stuff. But my degree

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<v Speaker 8>is insurance certificate. It's just kind of a thing. But

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<v Speaker 8>like when I'm graduating in May, what's gonna happen? I

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<v Speaker 8>don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>How would you feel about getting a job at an

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<v Speaker 4>insurance company?

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<v Speaker 8>I mean, I'm sure it would pay well. Is not

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<v Speaker 8>the worst thing? In the world, but waking up every

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<v Speaker 8>morning telling myself, all right, let's go do insurance just

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<v Speaker 8>doesn't sound like the plan.

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<v Speaker 6>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 4>Scott. If you could wave a magic Scott wand what

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<v Speaker 4>would you do? What would you do?

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<v Speaker 8>I would? I think I would try and find myself

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<v Speaker 8>giving myself a career path in music, particularly music production engineering,

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<v Speaker 8>because like, I'm more of a hands on kind of guy.

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<v Speaker 8>I don't really like paperwork office work. I like, I've

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<v Speaker 8>always been my hands I want to get hands on

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<v Speaker 8>with stuff. And because of like music, Hey, why not

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<v Speaker 8>music production?

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<v Speaker 4>Scott? Do you make tiktoks?

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<v Speaker 8>I do not make tiktoks.

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<v Speaker 4>You gotta make tiktoks.

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<v Speaker 8>I guess I should. It's pretty yeah, I thought about it.

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<v Speaker 4>Don't think about Scott. You gotta go make some tiktoks.

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<v Speaker 8>She I guess I will.

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<v Speaker 4>That's That's the key. People are going to tell you

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<v Speaker 4>to follow your treat. People are gonna tell you all

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<v Speaker 4>kinds of things, but they won't tell you anything like

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<v Speaker 4>actionable that you should do. I'm gonna tell you right

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<v Speaker 4>now the actionable thing that you should do in this

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<v Speaker 4>to make tiktoks.

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<v Speaker 8>Me my roommates have thought about it. I mean we're

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<v Speaker 8>decently entertaining. I guess we could figure something out.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, got TikTok. TikTok fucked me up, dude, TikTok

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<v Speaker 4>changed my life. How I'm doing this now? Dude? Look stupid?

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<v Speaker 8>Hey, I mean i'd see you're doing something. Would you say,

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<v Speaker 8>are you following your dreams?

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<v Speaker 7>Right now?

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<v Speaker 8>I got a question for you. Yeah, you're following your dreams.

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<v Speaker 8>You just what you want to do.

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<v Speaker 4>So actually, to give an alced answer to this question,

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<v Speaker 4>I I've I used to have dreams, and then I

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<v Speaker 4>really and then I decided that I don't. I think

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<v Speaker 4>that having dreams is not helpful. I think I have Uh,

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<v Speaker 4>how do I put this?

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<v Speaker 8>Like?

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<v Speaker 4>What's the what's the word? I'm trying to explain what

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<v Speaker 4>I want to say here. But I have a goal

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<v Speaker 4>in life as of right now, as of where I

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<v Speaker 4>am in life, and I'm achieving that goal in a

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<v Speaker 4>I have a very general sense goal, and that goal

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<v Speaker 4>is that I want to be doing something interesting with

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<v Speaker 4>my life. It doesn't matter so that way, if I

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<v Speaker 4>if I if I only go after that goal, If

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<v Speaker 4>I go after that goal and aneral sense, I don't

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<v Speaker 4>get too attached to any one thing I'm doing. I

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<v Speaker 4>just go after that idea of I want to be

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<v Speaker 4>doing something interesting, and in my eyes, I consider I

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<v Speaker 4>consider what I'm doing to be interesting to me. So

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<v Speaker 4>I would say I am following that idea. If I

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<v Speaker 4>were to say, like, oh, I want to be a

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<v Speaker 4>live streamer, or I want to be a musician, or

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<v Speaker 4>I want to be this. I used to think things

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<v Speaker 4>like that, but I stop thinking that way because I

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<v Speaker 4>think that that makes you two outcome independent and to

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<v Speaker 4>maybe perhaps narrow minded and then upset if you aren't

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<v Speaker 4>the thing that you narrow minded yourself to be. But

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<v Speaker 4>if I subscribe myself to a general idea of I

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<v Speaker 4>just want to do something interesting, then you know I'm

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<v Speaker 4>doing something interesting right now. But if my whole if

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<v Speaker 4>this all poofed away, you know, I could still I

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<v Speaker 4>feel like go out into the world and do something

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<v Speaker 4>interesting because there's infinite interesting things out there to do.

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<v Speaker 4>So I don't have to hold too hard to what

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<v Speaker 4>I'm doing right now. I don't have to fucking every

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<v Speaker 4>five seconds be like, ohh, when's all this going to

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<v Speaker 4>be over? When you know I don't. I don't have

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<v Speaker 4>to freak out about it because I'll just go and

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<v Speaker 4>do something else that I find interesting. So that's my

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<v Speaker 4>little idea, and a lot of people, I think, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>there's a lot of other examples of that, Like a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of people like their version of that is like

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<v Speaker 4>I always want to help people, or the version of

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<v Speaker 4>that is I always want to make money, or the

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<v Speaker 4>version of that is I always want to fucking be

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<v Speaker 4>with interesting people or something like that. You know. So

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<v Speaker 4>I think that I think that following a general idea

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<v Speaker 4>is much better than following a particular specific paths. But

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<v Speaker 4>I mean following particular specific paths key into that. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>that's how I view, you know, my life, and if

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<v Speaker 4>and if I view it like that, then I and

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<v Speaker 4>then I would consider myself to be following not so

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<v Speaker 4>much my a dream, but my ideal.

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<v Speaker 8>Right, right, I like what you said, like interesting, Like

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<v Speaker 8>that's really what I want is I want to do

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<v Speaker 8>something interesting, Like I don't want to work at McDonald.

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<v Speaker 8>I want to work like I want to do something

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<v Speaker 8>kind of cool, Like I used to work out of

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<v Speaker 8>vinyl vinyl record pressing plant. That was pretty interesting, that

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<v Speaker 8>was pretty cool, Like I want to do something like that.

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<v Speaker 8>I just want to do something insurance is not interesting

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<v Speaker 8>to me at least, Like, I just want to do

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<v Speaker 8>something something I can get down behind.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, yeah, you know, I mean if I it's

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, if I m if I keep using my

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<v Speaker 4>my myself as an example, Like I think what I'm

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<v Speaker 4>doing right I think what I'm doing right now is

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<v Speaker 4>interesting to me. But you know, moving to freaking Thailand

0:26:11.080 --> 0:26:15.440
<v Speaker 4>would be interesting. You know, it's starting a bottled water

0:26:15.600 --> 0:26:21.000
<v Speaker 4>company could be interesting. You know, there's I think there's

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<v Speaker 4>infinite things in the realm of interesting. So I don't know,

0:26:25.840 --> 0:26:31.480
<v Speaker 4>it's good to have things that are totally unrelated to

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<v Speaker 4>each other, but the fall under the umbrella of whatever

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<v Speaker 4>your ideal is.

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<v Speaker 8>Right, Yeah, I just want to do something something I

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<v Speaker 8>can enjoy, which is a lot of things, but probably

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<v Speaker 8>not insurance for sure.

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<v Speaker 4>Where do your interests lie?

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<v Speaker 8>Anything that I can get my hands on, and at

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<v Speaker 8>the end of the day be like, hey, I'm happy

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<v Speaker 8>with what I did. Like I like, I like the

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<v Speaker 8>thing I've created. I like the thing I worked on.

0:27:09.920 --> 0:27:10.960
<v Speaker 8>That sort of thing.

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<v Speaker 4>Should make tiktoks.

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<v Speaker 8>You know, not the worst idea ever.

0:27:20.640 --> 0:27:23.119
<v Speaker 4>I serious, it gives you like a thing, right because like,

0:27:24.800 --> 0:27:27.320
<v Speaker 4>because I've been like making ship on the internet for

0:27:27.359 --> 0:27:31.000
<v Speaker 4>a long time, but I would start like, I hope

0:27:31.040 --> 0:27:32.680
<v Speaker 4>this is related to where we're talking, but I think

0:27:32.720 --> 0:27:34.080
<v Speaker 4>I think it is, like I would I was making

0:27:34.080 --> 0:27:37.200
<v Speaker 4>sure on the internet for a long time. But if

0:27:37.240 --> 0:27:39.879
<v Speaker 4>you don't. The thing about TikTok is it forces you

0:27:39.960 --> 0:27:42.920
<v Speaker 4>to be like, oh shit, I got to keep putting

0:27:43.000 --> 0:27:47.400
<v Speaker 4>energy into this thing or else it'll die. Right Whereas

0:27:47.440 --> 0:27:50.040
<v Speaker 4>like if you're just in this empty sea of like

0:27:50.160 --> 0:27:52.320
<v Speaker 4>I'll start a project here, and I'll start a project here,

0:27:52.359 --> 0:27:56.399
<v Speaker 4>and there's no like stakes or anything. Personally, I just

0:27:56.440 --> 0:27:58.600
<v Speaker 4>don't do it as fuck around funk off because there's

0:27:58.600 --> 0:28:01.960
<v Speaker 4>no there's no stay, there's no people like depending on

0:28:02.040 --> 0:28:04.080
<v Speaker 4>seeing anything that you've made or anything like that. But

0:28:04.119 --> 0:28:06.679
<v Speaker 4>TikTok is cool because you can build an audience on

0:28:06.760 --> 0:28:08.639
<v Speaker 4>there and there's a lot you can do with that,

0:28:09.400 --> 0:28:12.160
<v Speaker 4>I think, and then you can also translate and take

0:28:12.160 --> 0:28:16.400
<v Speaker 4>that into other places. So TikTok, especially especially with the music,

0:28:16.440 --> 0:28:19.440
<v Speaker 4>I see a lot of people who are music producers

0:28:19.480 --> 0:28:22.119
<v Speaker 4>and music engineer people do a lot with that. I

0:28:22.160 --> 0:28:23.600
<v Speaker 4>think that would be a good a good place for

0:28:23.640 --> 0:28:27.440
<v Speaker 4>you to for you to you know, bang it up.

0:28:28.880 --> 0:28:31.480
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, it's kind of a dream or the dream would

0:28:31.480 --> 0:28:34.640
<v Speaker 8>be like make a good song if it gets popular

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<v Speaker 8>on TikTok.

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<v Speaker 4>Hell yeah, I like, yes, I've made it.

0:28:37.920 --> 0:28:40.960
<v Speaker 8>But like even making tiktoks in general, Like I've tried

0:28:40.960 --> 0:28:43.000
<v Speaker 8>to make YouTube videos, it's.

0:28:42.840 --> 0:28:46.600
<v Speaker 4>Hard to fuck don't make YouTube videos. Necessariusly making a

0:28:46.640 --> 0:28:48.000
<v Speaker 4>uti videos, it's kind of a waste of time. You

0:28:48.000 --> 0:28:49.040
<v Speaker 4>should make tiktoks.

0:28:49.840 --> 0:28:54.760
<v Speaker 8>Yeah, much shorter, much less effort, I guess.

0:28:54.720 --> 0:28:59.320
<v Speaker 4>Not necessarily less effort, but liked make songs and put

0:28:59.360 --> 0:29:00.920
<v Speaker 4>them on TikTok. I think that's what you should do.

0:29:01.160 --> 0:29:03.400
<v Speaker 4>It's like just a thing to be like, hey, I'm

0:29:03.440 --> 0:29:05.040
<v Speaker 4>gonna get on my head for five seconds and like

0:29:05.080 --> 0:29:05.600
<v Speaker 4>do some shit.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I would like that. It was pretty nice.

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<v Speaker 4>What's your favorite insurance company?

0:29:14.080 --> 0:29:17.920
<v Speaker 8>Insurance company? Ooh, I mean my parents have been with

0:29:18.040 --> 0:29:22.720
<v Speaker 8>a State Farm for like twenty five years, so I

0:29:22.760 --> 0:29:23.920
<v Speaker 8>guess they're my favorite.

0:29:26.120 --> 0:29:29.160
<v Speaker 4>Shout out to State Farm, show US farm. And if

0:29:29.160 --> 0:29:30.600
<v Speaker 4>you work for State Farm and you can hear this,

0:29:30.640 --> 0:29:32.640
<v Speaker 4>send me an email so that you can get one

0:29:32.720 --> 0:29:36.520
<v Speaker 4>hundred dollars for saying that beautiful? Would you say your

0:29:36.560 --> 0:29:40.880
<v Speaker 4>name was Scott? Thanks for conn and Scott And I

0:29:40.920 --> 0:29:43.000
<v Speaker 4>was about to apologize for yelling at you at the

0:29:43.080 --> 0:29:46.680
<v Speaker 4>very beginning with my noises, But I'm not gonna apologize

0:29:46.680 --> 0:29:48.920
<v Speaker 4>for that. I think I like doing that.

0:29:49.520 --> 0:29:51.560
<v Speaker 8>At first, I didn't realize you were actually talking to me.

0:29:51.640 --> 0:29:53.400
<v Speaker 8>I thought it was someone else named Scott. But then

0:29:53.440 --> 0:29:56.239
<v Speaker 8>I realized, Oh, you're actually coming through my phone. So

0:29:57.080 --> 0:29:57.520
<v Speaker 8>here we are.

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<v Speaker 4>Hell yeah, thank you, Scott. I'll talk to you. Love

0:30:01.120 --> 0:30:03.240
<v Speaker 4>you too, man.

0:30:07.480 --> 0:30:11.440
<v Speaker 6>Call from Scotty.

0:30:12.160 --> 0:30:18.840
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, Scott, Yeah, there's another Skerno. You're the new Scott.

0:30:20.000 --> 0:30:20.880
<v Speaker 8>I'm the next guy.

0:30:20.920 --> 0:30:23.000
<v Speaker 2>I heard you had the last Scout. I didn't like that.

0:30:23.120 --> 0:30:27.400
<v Speaker 4>Well, no, why didn't you all come on, Scott? Why

0:30:27.400 --> 0:30:29.560
<v Speaker 4>didn't you like the last Scott? What the last got

0:30:29.560 --> 0:30:30.040
<v Speaker 4>do to you?

0:30:31.880 --> 0:30:34.120
<v Speaker 2>Why is he going to school for insurance? It's the

0:30:34.280 --> 0:30:36.520
<v Speaker 2>last thing he wants to do is insurance. I don't

0:30:36.640 --> 0:30:37.200
<v Speaker 2>understand that.

0:30:38.640 --> 0:30:40.880
<v Speaker 4>I don't know me, probably because it's the funk. What

0:30:40.880 --> 0:30:42.080
<v Speaker 4>did he say? Did he say his?

0:30:42.480 --> 0:30:42.760
<v Speaker 8>He was?

0:30:42.840 --> 0:30:43.120
<v Speaker 6>He was?

0:30:43.600 --> 0:30:47.600
<v Speaker 4>He probably? Look, he got he got, He got suckered

0:30:47.600 --> 0:30:53.479
<v Speaker 4>into the system. He got suckered into the system, and

0:30:53.560 --> 0:30:56.640
<v Speaker 4>he tried to find the best way out. I don't know.

0:30:56.680 --> 0:30:58.760
<v Speaker 4>I don't know, ship, dude, I I I I have

0:30:58.800 --> 0:31:01.000
<v Speaker 4>all these opinions about things, and then it's just and

0:31:01.040 --> 0:31:02.640
<v Speaker 4>then I just step back and I'm like, what the

0:31:02.640 --> 0:31:04.520
<v Speaker 4>fuck do I know about anything? What'd you go to

0:31:04.560 --> 0:31:05.440
<v Speaker 4>school for? Scott?

0:31:08.320 --> 0:31:09.840
<v Speaker 2>I went to architecture school?

0:31:11.040 --> 0:31:11.920
<v Speaker 4>Are you an architect?

0:31:13.480 --> 0:31:15.000
<v Speaker 2>I am currently an architect.

0:31:15.080 --> 0:31:19.760
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's beautiful. I love that for you. Nothing better

0:31:19.800 --> 0:31:22.600
<v Speaker 4>than a guy who made nothing better, honest to god,

0:31:22.680 --> 0:31:27.800
<v Speaker 4>nothing's creamier. You know those satisfying memes or like satisfying

0:31:27.880 --> 0:31:35.880
<v Speaker 4>videos of fucking things being crushed by hydraulic presses. Right,

0:31:36.440 --> 0:31:38.040
<v Speaker 4>that's how I feel about you telling me that you

0:31:38.120 --> 0:31:40.720
<v Speaker 4>went to school for architecture and now you're an architect.

0:31:41.840 --> 0:31:46.000
<v Speaker 2>You know what, it's creamier than that. I had like

0:31:46.080 --> 0:31:50.720
<v Speaker 2>a third grade I had a I got into an

0:31:50.800 --> 0:31:54.080
<v Speaker 2>art mentorship program because I used to like to paint

0:31:54.120 --> 0:31:58.360
<v Speaker 2>and draw, and I was paired up with an architect

0:31:58.720 --> 0:32:01.080
<v Speaker 2>because he likes to paint on So that's when I

0:32:01.160 --> 0:32:05.040
<v Speaker 2>thought I'm going to be an architect. So so I

0:32:05.080 --> 0:32:09.520
<v Speaker 2>carried that all the way through super creamy.

0:32:09.600 --> 0:32:13.400
<v Speaker 4>Right, do you like architect? Do you like what? Do

0:32:13.480 --> 0:32:14.560
<v Speaker 4>you like what you do? Now?

0:32:16.440 --> 0:32:17.280
<v Speaker 8>I like doing it?

0:32:17.400 --> 0:32:19.200
<v Speaker 7>Yeah?

0:32:19.280 --> 0:32:21.360
<v Speaker 4>Do you have a favorite building?

0:32:24.800 --> 0:32:27.320
<v Speaker 2>I would say no, and Honestly, I keep hearing you

0:32:27.440 --> 0:32:31.080
<v Speaker 2>say what thrills you to a lot of people, and

0:32:31.120 --> 0:32:34.920
<v Speaker 2>I keep thinking, I'm on Reddit a lot. There's always

0:32:34.960 --> 0:32:37.440
<v Speaker 2>a lot of things about what's your favorite, what's your

0:32:38.120 --> 0:32:40.320
<v Speaker 2>what do you always remember? And I just I never

0:32:40.360 --> 0:32:43.720
<v Speaker 2>have a favorite, And I gotta say, I can't remember

0:32:43.760 --> 0:32:47.160
<v Speaker 2>the last time I was super thrilled about something, So

0:32:48.080 --> 0:32:48.480
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:32:48.600 --> 0:32:52.480
<v Speaker 4>That's part of Oh okay, So so you're here trying

0:32:52.480 --> 0:32:54.600
<v Speaker 4>to figure out You're here trying to figure out what

0:32:54.680 --> 0:32:56.959
<v Speaker 4>thrills you.

0:32:57.120 --> 0:33:09.240
<v Speaker 2>Maybe yeah, hmm, reserve that for something pretty pretty up there,

0:33:09.240 --> 0:33:12.160
<v Speaker 2>pretty exciting, right, do you do you?

0:33:12.320 --> 0:33:15.480
<v Speaker 4>Well, let me ask you something, because you might not be.

0:33:16.160 --> 0:33:23.160
<v Speaker 4>Are you a thrill seeker? Because if you're not looking

0:33:23.160 --> 0:33:25.080
<v Speaker 4>for thrills, how the hell are you gonna find them

0:33:25.320 --> 0:33:27.080
<v Speaker 4>if you're not seeking them?

0:33:27.480 --> 0:33:31.240
<v Speaker 2>I guess, I guess I don't know if I could

0:33:31.240 --> 0:33:33.600
<v Speaker 2>call myself a thrilled seeker, right, I guess when I

0:33:33.680 --> 0:33:39.320
<v Speaker 2>think of a thrill seeker at somebody jumping off buildings doing,

0:33:39.440 --> 0:33:42.200
<v Speaker 2>you know, doing some pretty extreme things, I don't think I'm.

0:33:42.000 --> 0:33:47.480
<v Speaker 4>That, but no, but we've I think we've learned tonight

0:33:47.520 --> 0:33:49.520
<v Speaker 4>that that's not true, you know, We've had many people

0:33:49.600 --> 0:33:52.760
<v Speaker 4>call in who receive thrills of all different kinds of

0:33:52.960 --> 0:33:54.800
<v Speaker 4>I mean, this whole stream. I've not had anyone answer

0:33:54.880 --> 0:33:59.440
<v Speaker 4>the question with, you know, jumping out of a plane.

0:33:59.800 --> 0:34:03.400
<v Speaker 4>I've heard masturbating, I've heard video games, I've heard what else?

0:34:03.520 --> 0:34:10.280
<v Speaker 4>What have we heard here but relationships? No one's mentioned

0:34:10.360 --> 0:34:18.680
<v Speaker 4>anything about jumping out of a plane yet, right, So

0:34:18.719 --> 0:34:20.280
<v Speaker 4>what thrills you, mister architect?

0:34:21.280 --> 0:34:24.160
<v Speaker 2>And yeah, well so I enjoy life, right, but I

0:34:24.239 --> 0:34:28.160
<v Speaker 2>still can't bring myself to say that anything I'm doing

0:34:28.280 --> 0:34:32.480
<v Speaker 2>is thrilling me? Right, I do you know I've got

0:34:32.800 --> 0:34:38.000
<v Speaker 2>I've got some children. They bring me enjoyment. But what

0:34:38.520 --> 0:34:41.799
<v Speaker 2>thrills me is I think I've got a hard time

0:34:41.840 --> 0:34:42.080
<v Speaker 2>with that.

0:34:43.800 --> 0:34:46.640
<v Speaker 4>Do you desire thrills?

0:34:48.160 --> 0:34:48.440
<v Speaker 5>Hmm?

0:34:48.640 --> 0:34:51.080
<v Speaker 2>I think there's certainly a part of me that think,

0:34:51.200 --> 0:34:55.440
<v Speaker 2>you know that, that wonders if others are if others

0:34:55.440 --> 0:34:58.480
<v Speaker 2>are being thrilled out there, I think, sure, I want

0:34:58.480 --> 0:34:59.240
<v Speaker 2>to be thrilled.

0:35:01.160 --> 0:35:02.879
<v Speaker 4>Oh but I just got all right, but just now

0:35:02.920 --> 0:35:07.480
<v Speaker 4>you said if others are being thrilled, you want to

0:35:07.520 --> 0:35:14.560
<v Speaker 4>be thrilled? Yeah, yeah, okay, what do you think? What

0:35:14.880 --> 0:35:19.280
<v Speaker 4>do you see out in the world that is thrilling others.

0:35:21.040 --> 0:35:23.960
<v Speaker 2>Ah, I think there are people that seem to be

0:35:24.440 --> 0:35:30.319
<v Speaker 2>extremely passionate about well, even you know, even architects that

0:35:30.400 --> 0:35:34.160
<v Speaker 2>seem to be so focused on on that or so

0:35:34.360 --> 0:35:37.120
<v Speaker 2>passionate about that that that's all they do, right. They

0:35:37.120 --> 0:35:39.960
<v Speaker 2>don't have they don't have time for other things. They

0:35:40.000 --> 0:35:42.799
<v Speaker 2>spend all their time on that. And it's like, well,

0:35:42.840 --> 0:35:43.839
<v Speaker 2>I don't really want to do.

0:35:43.880 --> 0:35:47.279
<v Speaker 4>That, Okay, what do you do outside of architecture?

0:35:49.760 --> 0:35:54.400
<v Speaker 2>I like enjoying my time with my family, you know,

0:35:55.000 --> 0:35:58.319
<v Speaker 2>fixing things up at the house, just just kind of

0:35:58.400 --> 0:36:02.799
<v Speaker 2>enjoying people, that sort of thing. But it but it

0:36:02.800 --> 0:36:04.799
<v Speaker 2>would never be thrilling. I don't think.

0:36:07.760 --> 0:36:11.719
<v Speaker 4>I can't tell if you want thrills, you might be

0:36:11.880 --> 0:36:14.160
<v Speaker 4>you might be fine without thrills. You seem like you

0:36:14.200 --> 0:36:15.480
<v Speaker 4>got a good you seem to make you like what

0:36:15.520 --> 0:36:18.600
<v Speaker 4>you do, You got a good fan. You may you

0:36:18.640 --> 0:36:21.399
<v Speaker 4>probably make a lot of money. You're chilling. You don't

0:36:21.400 --> 0:36:23.960
<v Speaker 4>seem like you need anything thrilling. But but also at

0:36:24.000 --> 0:36:27.160
<v Speaker 4>the same time, I sort of hear in your voice

0:36:28.120 --> 0:36:30.880
<v Speaker 4>the opposite. I hear that nothing mad, I'm hearing in

0:36:30.880 --> 0:36:34.239
<v Speaker 4>your voice, and this is not me fucking going Uh,

0:36:34.280 --> 0:36:38.080
<v Speaker 4>what's what's that? What's what's? People tell me what's the fuck?

0:36:38.160 --> 0:36:40.480
<v Speaker 4>What's her name? What's her name? The person who like

0:36:40.520 --> 0:36:40.719
<v Speaker 4>does is?

0:36:41.239 --> 0:36:41.480
<v Speaker 6>Fuck it?

0:36:42.120 --> 0:36:45.480
<v Speaker 4>Whatever I was thinking of. But also I hear you

0:36:45.520 --> 0:36:52.320
<v Speaker 4>know something is dying inside of you, mister architect, something

0:36:52.960 --> 0:36:56.280
<v Speaker 4>you you wanna You want to build a fucking building

0:36:56.640 --> 0:37:01.759
<v Speaker 4>and then jump off of it with a parachute? H Yeah,

0:37:01.840 --> 0:37:03.160
<v Speaker 4>I hear that from you.

0:37:05.120 --> 0:37:09.239
<v Speaker 2>Maybe I think I'm sure, I'm I'm I'm fine, right,

0:37:09.320 --> 0:37:11.280
<v Speaker 2>But do I want to just be fine? I think

0:37:11.400 --> 0:37:18.920
<v Speaker 2>maybe maybe I want some thrilled. Yeah, I'm finding this

0:37:19.000 --> 0:37:19.400
<v Speaker 2>out with you.

0:37:19.520 --> 0:37:23.239
<v Speaker 4>I think, what are you gonna do when I'm gone?

0:37:25.040 --> 0:37:25.279
<v Speaker 7>What?

0:37:29.440 --> 0:37:31.680
<v Speaker 4>I'm sorry? What did you? What did you say beforehand?

0:37:33.200 --> 0:37:35.400
<v Speaker 2>I said, I'm finding this out with you. Maybe I

0:37:35.440 --> 0:37:39.080
<v Speaker 2>need to find some thrills for real, because sure, I'm fine,

0:37:39.280 --> 0:37:43.799
<v Speaker 2>But but you keep asking what thrills people? And I

0:37:43.800 --> 0:37:48.400
<v Speaker 2>think that there are people that are getting getting thrilled,

0:37:48.440 --> 0:37:50.520
<v Speaker 2>and I'm wondering, what the hell can I need to

0:37:50.520 --> 0:37:51.160
<v Speaker 2>get them thrilled?

0:37:51.760 --> 0:37:54.080
<v Speaker 4>Well, don't listen to me, don't listen to them, Listen

0:37:54.080 --> 0:37:56.040
<v Speaker 4>to yourself, all right, because you don't want to be

0:37:56.080 --> 0:37:58.120
<v Speaker 4>out here listening to Dom Green Gecko man on the

0:37:58.120 --> 0:38:04.879
<v Speaker 4>computer having him convince you that you need more. Right right,

0:38:05.960 --> 0:38:07.719
<v Speaker 4>I'm dumb as ship, dude. I don't know anything. All

0:38:07.760 --> 0:38:12.600
<v Speaker 4>these people calling in, no one knows anything, dude. That

0:38:12.640 --> 0:38:14.759
<v Speaker 4>would be sick by the Here's what I'll say, though,

0:38:14.800 --> 0:38:16.759
<v Speaker 4>I think I think what you should try doing is

0:38:16.760 --> 0:38:18.759
<v Speaker 4>is I don't know if you should try doing this

0:38:18.760 --> 0:38:20.400
<v Speaker 4>because it's dangerous, but that would be sick of you

0:38:20.440 --> 0:38:22.160
<v Speaker 4>to jump off of your own building, to like base

0:38:22.239 --> 0:38:25.560
<v Speaker 4>jump off of your own building, not like like a

0:38:25.560 --> 0:38:27.680
<v Speaker 4>base jump, a bunch of jump.

0:38:28.800 --> 0:38:32.040
<v Speaker 2>I think that I'm in the progress of my first

0:38:32.040 --> 0:38:33.840
<v Speaker 2>building that I could actually jump off of.

0:38:34.480 --> 0:38:34.919
<v Speaker 4>Mm hmm.

0:38:36.120 --> 0:38:38.360
<v Speaker 2>No other building that I've done is tell enough that

0:38:38.440 --> 0:38:41.280
<v Speaker 2>this one it could. It could be telling.

0:38:41.920 --> 0:38:44.400
<v Speaker 4>That's how you're going to test it is by a

0:38:44.400 --> 0:38:45.799
<v Speaker 4>bunch of jumping off of that ship.

0:38:47.560 --> 0:38:48.880
<v Speaker 8>Let's let's see the worst.

0:38:50.320 --> 0:38:52.600
<v Speaker 4>I hope it does call back. If it does, and

0:38:52.640 --> 0:38:57.400
<v Speaker 4>if it doesn't, then it was nice knowing you.

0:38:59.080 --> 0:38:59.560
<v Speaker 2>All right.

0:39:01.239 --> 0:39:02.200
<v Speaker 4>Would you say your name.

0:39:02.080 --> 0:39:06.200
<v Speaker 2>Was well, I'm Scott number two, Scott.

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<v Speaker 4>Number two, thank you for calling in. Man, you have

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<v Speaker 4>a good rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you too.

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<v Speaker 4>Holy shit, what's up, dude?

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<v Speaker 8>What's up?

0:39:26.800 --> 0:39:30.719
<v Speaker 4>Have we have we spoken before. Never What is your name?

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<v Speaker 7>Scott?

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<v Speaker 4>Get the fuck out are you? Are you one of

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<v Speaker 4>the other Scots.

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<v Speaker 7>I'm Scott number three.

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<v Speaker 4>Get the fuck out of here. You're Scott number three.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, Scott number that's not even.

0:39:47.080 --> 0:39:50.759
<v Speaker 4>That's not even three Scots tonight. That's three Scotts in

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<v Speaker 4>a row.

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<v Speaker 7>That's three Scotts in a row. And I bought a

0:39:55.320 --> 0:39:58.160
<v Speaker 7>lottery ticket. I bought a lottery ticket of three numbers.

0:39:58.160 --> 0:39:59.760
<v Speaker 7>And if I win, I'll give you half.

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<v Speaker 4>The tic tac Scott. Okay, yeah, what's what you gotta bake?

0:40:09.840 --> 0:40:13.839
<v Speaker 7>Let me let me okay, let me hear your lunch.

0:40:14.040 --> 0:40:15.120
<v Speaker 4>We'll wait, we'll wait.

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<v Speaker 8>Wait.

0:40:17.000 --> 0:40:18.759
<v Speaker 7>I don't want to jack myself off all night. I

0:40:18.760 --> 0:40:21.120
<v Speaker 7>don't want to jack myself off all night over here. Okay,

0:40:21.280 --> 0:40:24.000
<v Speaker 7>So butten, I'll just read the text that I sent

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<v Speaker 7>to you and then you can.

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<v Speaker 4>No, don't read anything. Don't read anything. Who are you? What?

0:40:28.920 --> 0:40:31.359
<v Speaker 4>What's up? Scott? You have a you have a baked

0:40:31.360 --> 0:40:32.320
<v Speaker 4>potato in the microwave?

0:40:32.440 --> 0:40:32.600
<v Speaker 5>Just now?

0:40:32.680 --> 0:40:34.120
<v Speaker 4>Did you get it out? It was beeping?

0:40:37.680 --> 0:40:37.839
<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

0:40:37.880 --> 0:40:38.840
<v Speaker 7>I got it, I got it.

0:40:39.520 --> 0:40:41.720
<v Speaker 4>What was it? Was it a Potatoes't a potato?

0:40:41.840 --> 0:40:42.080
<v Speaker 6>Was it?

0:40:42.880 --> 0:40:42.960
<v Speaker 8>No?

0:40:43.120 --> 0:40:43.840
<v Speaker 7>It wasn't.

0:40:44.600 --> 0:40:45.040
<v Speaker 4>What was it?

0:40:46.120 --> 0:40:46.560
<v Speaker 7>Pious?

0:40:49.280 --> 0:40:52.200
<v Speaker 4>Tell me everything, Scott, tell me nothing. Who are you?

0:40:52.320 --> 0:40:52.959
<v Speaker 4>What are you doing?

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<v Speaker 7>Well? The interesting thing is that, you know, the uh

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<v Speaker 7>that I texted you about was that my wife left

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<v Speaker 7>me for a fifty year old preacher, and uh what

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<v Speaker 7>thrills me?

0:41:13.400 --> 0:41:13.600
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 7>You know what had been thrilling me. I guess I'm

0:41:16.800 --> 0:41:19.319
<v Speaker 7>trying to step away from it. You know, I want

0:41:19.320 --> 0:41:22.440
<v Speaker 7>to preface this by saying I am talking to a

0:41:22.440 --> 0:41:24.640
<v Speaker 7>real therapist and all of that about all this. But

0:41:24.800 --> 0:41:27.040
<v Speaker 7>you know, my wife left me for this fifty year

0:41:27.040 --> 0:41:35.160
<v Speaker 7>old preacher, and what thrilled me was to kind of

0:41:35.200 --> 0:41:47.040
<v Speaker 7>exposed that to everybody, and right, yeah, okay, And so

0:41:47.360 --> 0:41:54.399
<v Speaker 7>here's how I did it. Okay. You know, I went

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<v Speaker 7>onto all of their you know, serious uh social media accounts,

0:42:03.160 --> 0:42:05.680
<v Speaker 7>and I put them all into one chat group, and

0:42:05.760 --> 0:42:08.680
<v Speaker 7>I put her in there too, and I put a

0:42:08.719 --> 0:42:12.239
<v Speaker 7>picture of his car parked outside of her house late

0:42:12.239 --> 0:42:16.680
<v Speaker 7>at night, and you know, just kind of put all

0:42:16.680 --> 0:42:18.080
<v Speaker 7>the cards on the table and left it at that.

0:42:20.000 --> 0:42:20.120
<v Speaker 5>MM.

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<v Speaker 4>So you put who was in the group chat, the

0:42:23.600 --> 0:42:26.759
<v Speaker 4>wife of the preacher, the kids of the pre who

0:42:26.800 --> 0:42:27.880
<v Speaker 4>was in the group chat.

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<v Speaker 7>All those that's fair, Yeah, and brother.

0:42:34.000 --> 0:42:34.280
<v Speaker 6>Wow.

0:42:35.200 --> 0:42:35.759
<v Speaker 7>His mother.

0:42:36.640 --> 0:42:37.359
<v Speaker 2>Wow.

0:42:38.400 --> 0:42:41.120
<v Speaker 4>So you put all you put this guy's wife and

0:42:41.320 --> 0:42:45.359
<v Speaker 4>all of his people in the group chat and you

0:42:45.400 --> 0:42:48.560
<v Speaker 4>posted you you let them all know that he was

0:42:48.640 --> 0:42:51.439
<v Speaker 4>cheating with your wife.

0:42:53.080 --> 0:42:55.080
<v Speaker 7>Yeah.

0:42:55.120 --> 0:42:58.920
<v Speaker 4>Wow. How how did they respond? What? What did they

0:42:59.000 --> 0:42:59.600
<v Speaker 4>say back?

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<v Speaker 7>Well, they were religious, so they you know, we're saying

0:43:07.880 --> 0:43:12.440
<v Speaker 7>that I was like, you know, satanic, and uh I

0:43:12.520 --> 0:43:15.680
<v Speaker 7>was a demon and stuff like that. But one of

0:43:15.719 --> 0:43:16.960
<v Speaker 7>them reached out to me.

0:43:19.040 --> 0:43:20.480
<v Speaker 4>What did they say when they reached out to you?

0:43:21.480 --> 0:43:29.480
<v Speaker 7>Uh, they just asked me about the situation.

0:43:30.920 --> 0:43:32.759
<v Speaker 4>Are you in many issues right now while you're talking

0:43:32.760 --> 0:43:32.920
<v Speaker 4>to me?

0:43:34.000 --> 0:43:35.360
<v Speaker 1>No, I'm sitting outside.

0:43:37.719 --> 0:43:38.279
<v Speaker 2>Can you hear me?

0:43:38.320 --> 0:43:47.920
<v Speaker 4>Okay, yeah, I can hear you. Okay, what are we saying? Scott?

0:43:47.920 --> 0:43:50.080
<v Speaker 8>You there? Yeah, I'm here, I say.

0:43:50.760 --> 0:43:52.000
<v Speaker 4>So one of these people reached out to you. What

0:43:52.000 --> 0:43:53.799
<v Speaker 4>did they say?

0:43:54.560 --> 0:43:55.000
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:43:55.920 --> 0:43:58.080
<v Speaker 1>I just asked me about the situations, and I told

0:43:58.160 --> 0:44:04.440
<v Speaker 1>them about it, and then they found and they they

0:44:04.520 --> 0:44:08.960
<v Speaker 1>confronted like they it was it was one of the people.

0:44:09.840 --> 0:44:12.920
<v Speaker 1>They confronted him about it, and they caught him at

0:44:13.040 --> 0:44:16.400
<v Speaker 1>her house and like they knocked on the door and

0:44:16.400 --> 0:44:21.279
<v Speaker 1>then come joint and then they didn't answer, Like this

0:44:21.320 --> 0:44:24.440
<v Speaker 1>person saw him walk into her house and said and

0:44:24.440 --> 0:44:28.240
<v Speaker 1>and it was like someone in his him and they

0:44:30.239 --> 0:44:33.480
<v Speaker 1>knocked on her door after them walked into her house,

0:44:33.520 --> 0:44:35.680
<v Speaker 1>and he didn't He didn't the door.

0:44:36.880 --> 0:44:37.880
<v Speaker 2>That's what the persons.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, h but here's the kicker.

0:44:46.160 --> 0:44:47.120
<v Speaker 2>Okay, here's the kick.

0:44:48.280 --> 0:44:53.000
<v Speaker 7>Everybody, like everybody knows that they don't care.

0:44:54.040 --> 0:44:58.719
<v Speaker 4>They don't care. They don't care, like they don't care.

0:44:59.080 --> 0:45:01.279
<v Speaker 4>You were telling me at the very beginning of this

0:45:01.440 --> 0:45:04.279
<v Speaker 4>that that it's been thrilling you so much to make

0:45:04.320 --> 0:45:08.000
<v Speaker 4>this Facebook ship and to you know, create this chaos.

0:45:08.160 --> 0:45:10.640
<v Speaker 4>But how thrilling can it really be? Scott? If they

0:45:10.680 --> 0:45:11.200
<v Speaker 4>don't care?

0:45:12.520 --> 0:45:12.759
<v Speaker 2>I know?

0:45:12.880 --> 0:45:13.080
<v Speaker 1>Right?

0:45:14.360 --> 0:45:16.000
<v Speaker 4>Does that piss you off? Do you wish that they

0:45:16.000 --> 0:45:20.319
<v Speaker 4>were fear? They were furious?

0:45:20.320 --> 0:45:21.000
<v Speaker 7>Not anymore?

0:45:23.480 --> 0:45:25.920
<v Speaker 4>What are you gonna do? Now? What's next for you?

0:45:25.920 --> 0:45:26.280
<v Speaker 7>Scott?

0:45:27.560 --> 0:45:29.560
<v Speaker 4>Did you divorce her?

0:45:30.160 --> 0:45:30.560
<v Speaker 7>Wow?

0:45:32.040 --> 0:45:35.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, of course. Uh, I'm gonna take the l man,

0:45:35.960 --> 0:45:36.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna take the l.

0:45:40.560 --> 0:45:41.000
<v Speaker 7>Respect.

0:45:41.160 --> 0:45:41.520
<v Speaker 8>I've heard.

0:45:42.360 --> 0:45:44.040
<v Speaker 7>I've heard a lot of people call in and talk

0:45:44.080 --> 0:45:44.279
<v Speaker 7>to you.

0:45:44.360 --> 0:45:46.719
<v Speaker 1>And you know, I thought the stream I love the

0:45:46.760 --> 0:45:49.879
<v Speaker 1>stream on on Uh, I love the stream on Tuesday too,

0:45:50.640 --> 0:45:53.319
<v Speaker 1>thank you? And uh, you know, shut you know, tell

0:45:53.360 --> 0:45:58.920
<v Speaker 1>that guy he said, what that and uh, yeah. I mean,

0:45:58.960 --> 0:46:01.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna take the l and like I was saying,

0:46:01.480 --> 0:46:03.080
<v Speaker 1>I heard a lot of people on here talking about

0:46:03.120 --> 0:46:07.799
<v Speaker 1>you know, there's stuff, and I like, I like hearing

0:46:07.800 --> 0:46:08.120
<v Speaker 1>about that.

0:46:08.480 --> 0:46:16.600
<v Speaker 4>Just mm hmm do you think.

0:46:18.239 --> 0:46:18.720
<v Speaker 8>Mm hmmm?

0:46:18.960 --> 0:46:22.040
<v Speaker 4>What was I gonna say? Are you gonna go out

0:46:22.040 --> 0:46:25.640
<v Speaker 4>there and uh date again? Or are you going to

0:46:25.680 --> 0:46:29.240
<v Speaker 4>take some time for yourself? What are you leaning towards

0:46:31.280 --> 0:46:32.040
<v Speaker 4>how you're feeling?

0:46:33.800 --> 0:46:39.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm feeling great, man, Uh no, I'm not. You know

0:46:39.640 --> 0:46:42.520
<v Speaker 1>what I'm gonna do is I'm gonna get into like archery.

0:46:44.200 --> 0:46:47.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna get into like wit making, and I'm just

0:46:47.680 --> 0:46:52.759
<v Speaker 1>gonna become a badass and uh you know, I don't

0:46:52.800 --> 0:46:53.960
<v Speaker 1>be dramming.

0:46:56.040 --> 0:47:00.920
<v Speaker 4>I love it, man. Well, best of luck you Scott's

0:47:01.000 --> 0:47:07.160
<v Speaker 4>Number three, Wacky number three, You too, man, talk to

0:47:07.239 --> 0:47:07.600
<v Speaker 4>you soon.

0:47:08.719 --> 0:47:09.680
<v Speaker 8>I love you.

0:47:12.640 --> 0:47:12.799
<v Speaker 3>All.

0:47:12.880 --> 0:47:15.120
<v Speaker 6>From Ezra.

0:47:17.440 --> 0:47:25.480
<v Speaker 4>Ezra Ezra, Hello is this Ezra?

0:47:26.880 --> 0:47:27.640
<v Speaker 6>Uh? Yeah?

0:47:27.760 --> 0:47:27.960
<v Speaker 7>Hi?

0:47:29.120 --> 0:47:30.160
<v Speaker 4>What's so funny? Ezra?

0:47:32.160 --> 0:47:35.640
<v Speaker 6>I didn't think I was gonna actually get through and

0:47:35.719 --> 0:47:37.319
<v Speaker 6>now I'm kind of like freaked out.

0:47:37.400 --> 0:47:41.160
<v Speaker 4>You know, why would you call a phone number if

0:47:41.160 --> 0:47:43.560
<v Speaker 4>you weren't expecting someone to pick up the phone.

0:47:44.840 --> 0:47:45.839
<v Speaker 8>Why I call that?

0:47:46.480 --> 0:47:50.120
<v Speaker 6>I called like a lot of times. I guess I

0:47:50.160 --> 0:47:53.360
<v Speaker 6>don't know. I kept thinking of why I was calling,

0:47:53.400 --> 0:47:56.840
<v Speaker 6>and I thought of so many different reasons. Also, sorry,

0:47:56.880 --> 0:47:59.040
<v Speaker 6>I don't know if like the mic quality is okay,

0:47:59.120 --> 0:48:02.880
<v Speaker 6>but I just kept changing my mind on why I

0:48:02.960 --> 0:48:03.520
<v Speaker 6>was calling.

0:48:03.640 --> 0:48:06.640
<v Speaker 4>You know, Well, first of all, is you never have

0:48:06.680 --> 0:48:09.000
<v Speaker 4>to apologize to me for anything ever. But second of all,

0:48:10.800 --> 0:48:12.520
<v Speaker 4>all right, so you said that you flipped hold on

0:48:12.640 --> 0:48:18.040
<v Speaker 4>me once I have to charge my marapods. Ezra, stay there,

0:48:18.680 --> 0:48:19.719
<v Speaker 4>stay on the line.

0:48:19.520 --> 0:48:25.399
<v Speaker 6>Ezra, I'm staying. I'm I'm sweating, man, I'm yeah, you're

0:48:25.400 --> 0:48:27.120
<v Speaker 6>asking what real? Yeah?

0:48:27.920 --> 0:48:29.960
<v Speaker 4>Okay, Ezra, s all right, right, bear with me. Ezra.

0:48:30.040 --> 0:48:33.360
<v Speaker 4>First of all, I don't know if you're just remember

0:48:33.600 --> 0:48:35.080
<v Speaker 4>I'm not even I'm not. First of all, I'm not

0:48:35.080 --> 0:48:37.439
<v Speaker 4>even live right now. I ended the stream twenty minutes ago,

0:48:39.239 --> 0:48:42.040
<v Speaker 4>so it's just you and me just on the phone.

0:48:42.680 --> 0:48:46.960
<v Speaker 4>But Ezra, you said that you you said that multiple

0:48:47.040 --> 0:48:50.680
<v Speaker 4>different things went into your mind.

0:48:51.239 --> 0:48:53.200
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, is this is this volume?

0:48:53.200 --> 0:48:54.680
<v Speaker 8>Okay?

0:48:54.840 --> 0:48:57.880
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you're fine, You're fine, Ezra. What tell me the

0:48:57.920 --> 0:48:59.759
<v Speaker 4>things that were going through your mind is reasons why

0:48:59.760 --> 0:49:00.680
<v Speaker 4>you might be calling it?

0:49:02.840 --> 0:49:08.080
<v Speaker 6>Well, uh, I've seen your stream pop up before, but

0:49:08.120 --> 0:49:11.439
<v Speaker 6>I've never really stayed around that long, and I was like, oh,

0:49:11.600 --> 0:49:14.600
<v Speaker 6>it'd be cool. Like when I was laying down and

0:49:14.640 --> 0:49:17.440
<v Speaker 6>I decided to like smoke. I got nothing to be

0:49:17.520 --> 0:49:21.440
<v Speaker 6>at to Friday night. I'm home alone, so I was like,

0:49:21.800 --> 0:49:24.600
<v Speaker 6>be cool to like just chat. And then I was

0:49:24.640 --> 0:49:28.640
<v Speaker 6>thinking about stuff going on in my life, thinking about

0:49:28.680 --> 0:49:31.839
<v Speaker 6>that and also thinking about things that thrill me, you know,

0:49:32.640 --> 0:49:34.920
<v Speaker 6>And I was like, it's kind of thrilling the idea

0:49:34.920 --> 0:49:38.480
<v Speaker 6>of trying to call, because I get like I get

0:49:39.080 --> 0:49:42.319
<v Speaker 6>fright when I I have a lot of anxieties, you

0:49:42.360 --> 0:49:44.920
<v Speaker 6>know what I mean. So like my hearts are really pumping.

0:49:45.040 --> 0:49:46.600
<v Speaker 6>My heart's really pumping right now.

0:49:46.960 --> 0:49:48.480
<v Speaker 4>Are you? Are you nervous right now?

0:49:49.600 --> 0:49:54.520
<v Speaker 6>I don't know. I don't know. Like when I when

0:49:54.560 --> 0:49:57.360
<v Speaker 6>I try to perform, or I try to tell people

0:49:57.520 --> 0:50:01.279
<v Speaker 6>jokes or show people music I like or anything like that,

0:50:01.360 --> 0:50:04.520
<v Speaker 6>I just I just start sweating in my heart.

0:50:04.560 --> 0:50:08.000
<v Speaker 4>Just you know, right, But do you would you consider

0:50:08.280 --> 0:50:11.400
<v Speaker 4>I wouldn't consider what you're doing. Do you consider what

0:50:11.400 --> 0:50:13.239
<v Speaker 4>you're doing right now to be a performance?

0:50:15.040 --> 0:50:20.520
<v Speaker 6>I struggle with trying to not perform, and it's gotten

0:50:20.560 --> 0:50:28.359
<v Speaker 6>worse throughout my life trying. I'm getting more anxious over

0:50:28.400 --> 0:50:31.480
<v Speaker 6>the years. It caused me to like want to be

0:50:32.400 --> 0:50:38.000
<v Speaker 6>likable and kind of more uh, put on a performance

0:50:38.160 --> 0:50:40.960
<v Speaker 6>throughout life to try to be more pleasing to other people.

0:50:42.239 --> 0:50:50.319
<v Speaker 4>Mmm, what kind of like? What do you think? How

0:50:50.400 --> 0:50:53.520
<v Speaker 4>how could you articulate the difference between just who you

0:50:53.560 --> 0:50:56.560
<v Speaker 4>are natural and who you are when you're performing? How

0:50:56.560 --> 0:50:58.000
<v Speaker 4>would you describe that difference?

0:50:59.640 --> 0:51:09.920
<v Speaker 6>I've I've I'm trying not to read the chat. I'm

0:51:10.120 --> 0:51:13.240
<v Speaker 6>really struggling with that. Actually, I feel like I've lost

0:51:13.280 --> 0:51:17.319
<v Speaker 6>it somewhere. I don't really know. I feel like I'm

0:51:17.360 --> 0:51:21.960
<v Speaker 6>probably always myself, but I don't really know who that is.

0:51:22.360 --> 0:51:26.560
<v Speaker 6>And with dissociating and stuff like that, it makes it

0:51:26.600 --> 0:51:31.120
<v Speaker 6>even harder to really firmly grasp who I am, like

0:51:31.239 --> 0:51:35.680
<v Speaker 6>really anymore. And also like as you, as you age

0:51:35.960 --> 0:51:39.359
<v Speaker 6>and shit changes, and I've had so much change in

0:51:39.400 --> 0:51:43.080
<v Speaker 6>my life and I just I feel so different, but

0:51:43.160 --> 0:51:44.319
<v Speaker 6>I maybe I'm the same.

0:51:45.360 --> 0:51:46.080
<v Speaker 4>How old are you?

0:51:47.600 --> 0:51:50.280
<v Speaker 6>I'm about to turn twenty.

0:51:54.920 --> 0:51:58.280
<v Speaker 4>When you earlier were talking to me about the different

0:51:58.320 --> 0:52:00.279
<v Speaker 4>reasons you were thinking about calling and you so you

0:52:00.280 --> 0:52:03.040
<v Speaker 4>were thinking about the stuff going on in your life? Right?

0:52:03.920 --> 0:52:04.680
<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

0:52:04.840 --> 0:52:06.799
<v Speaker 4>What is the stuff going on in your life that

0:52:06.840 --> 0:52:07.759
<v Speaker 4>you were thinking.

0:52:07.440 --> 0:52:13.279
<v Speaker 6>About well, I was thinking about a few different things,

0:52:13.320 --> 0:52:20.200
<v Speaker 6>but to summarize my situation right now, before COVID and

0:52:20.239 --> 0:52:23.120
<v Speaker 6>stuff like that, I've always had a lot of family struggles,

0:52:23.160 --> 0:52:27.400
<v Speaker 6>and I planned on leaving one day, and I decided

0:52:27.440 --> 0:52:29.279
<v Speaker 6>to stay with my boyfriend for a while, but I

0:52:29.320 --> 0:52:33.360
<v Speaker 6>had to go back because of COVID, And then during quarantine,

0:52:33.480 --> 0:52:37.160
<v Speaker 6>my mom kicked me out, so I was homeless, and

0:52:37.560 --> 0:52:41.560
<v Speaker 6>I went back to live with my boyfriend, but I

0:52:41.600 --> 0:52:43.680
<v Speaker 6>couldn't really live there. I didn't have money. I was

0:52:43.719 --> 0:52:46.920
<v Speaker 6>just staying there and I spent the whole summer just

0:52:47.000 --> 0:52:53.239
<v Speaker 6>kind of fucking around, you know. And now I got

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<v Speaker 6>a temporary job and I moved into a place with

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<v Speaker 6>one of my best friends, and it's just been it's

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<v Speaker 6>been a really crazy year.

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<v Speaker 5>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>That's awesome. Do you feel better having sort of gotten

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<v Speaker 4>your footing a bit?

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<v Speaker 6>Some Sometimes it's like a lot of times it's like

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<v Speaker 6>hard to tell if things are better or worse, or

0:53:19.960 --> 0:53:22.920
<v Speaker 6>if things are just different. If that makes sense.

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<v Speaker 4>Why did your mom kick you out?

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<v Speaker 6>There's a lot of My mom has a lot of issues,

0:53:34.000 --> 0:53:39.480
<v Speaker 6>and I wanted to leave myself because it was always

0:53:39.600 --> 0:53:42.240
<v Speaker 6>very toxic and stuff, and it was kind of crazy

0:53:42.600 --> 0:53:48.399
<v Speaker 6>that she ended up kicking me out, and she said

0:53:48.440 --> 0:53:50.520
<v Speaker 6>she was she'd always just say she's tired of my

0:53:50.560 --> 0:53:55.040
<v Speaker 6>attitude and things like that, you know, but she put

0:53:55.080 --> 0:53:58.799
<v Speaker 6>me through a crazy year the year before and it

0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:01.680
<v Speaker 6>was just kind of really out of left field, and

0:54:01.719 --> 0:54:04.359
<v Speaker 6>she just told me like to look for shelters and

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know, Sorry if I'm kind of all over

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<v Speaker 6>the place.

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<v Speaker 4>No, you're fine, man, m all right. So you said

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<v Speaker 4>a few different things and you said, of you, Oh,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm sorry, I'm I'm on backtracking. I'm thinking of what

0:54:20.760 --> 0:54:24.440
<v Speaker 4>you said. You said, I'm thinking of a few different things. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Is there anything else that you were thinking of that

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<v Speaker 4>you hadn't said already?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah. Uh, I'm a little distracted because my roommates cat's

0:54:35.040 --> 0:54:36.840
<v Speaker 6>attacking my cat off to the side.

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<v Speaker 5>Uh.

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<v Speaker 6>I was also oneed, is there anything that you're not

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<v Speaker 6>allowed to talk about on here? Like? Is there anything sus?

0:54:45.760 --> 0:54:51.000
<v Speaker 4>Uh? Let's see. Uh don't say any slurs. But I

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<v Speaker 4>didn't peg that of you. I think a first, do

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<v Speaker 4>you you have a real therapist?

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<v Speaker 6>I had one once and I had a counselor before. Uh,

0:55:07.960 --> 0:55:11.880
<v Speaker 6>I'm on a wait list, but things are tough, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>and a lot of my cat's trying to eat weed.

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<v Speaker 3>Stop.

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<v Speaker 4>I think my thing is, you know, I'm not I've

0:55:21.840 --> 0:55:24.279
<v Speaker 4>obviously not a real therapist. I'm not even a real

0:55:24.320 --> 0:55:26.280
<v Speaker 4>person computer.

0:55:27.400 --> 0:55:29.880
<v Speaker 6>You can literally steer me anywhere. I can talk about

0:55:29.920 --> 0:55:32.120
<v Speaker 6>anything forever. I'll talk I.

0:55:32.080 --> 0:55:35.000
<v Speaker 4>Mean you, but other but look other than that with you,

0:55:35.000 --> 0:55:37.839
<v Speaker 4>you look you don't seem like you're gonna come at

0:55:37.880 --> 0:55:41.399
<v Speaker 4>me with anything that fucking you know that. I'd be like, yeah,

0:55:41.400 --> 0:55:44.040
<v Speaker 4>we can't. We can't talk about that. On here. You

0:55:44.280 --> 0:55:46.080
<v Speaker 4>can talk about pretty much whatever you want and hit me,

0:55:46.120 --> 0:55:47.839
<v Speaker 4>what's up? What's what? What do you what do you think?

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<v Speaker 4>I'll think it's sus.

0:55:49.480 --> 0:55:52.000
<v Speaker 6>I can I can try to be like more.

0:55:53.000 --> 0:55:53.520
<v Speaker 5>You don't have to.

0:55:53.520 --> 0:55:55.040
<v Speaker 4>Try to be you don't have to try to be anything.

0:55:55.080 --> 0:55:55.360
<v Speaker 6>What were you?

0:55:55.440 --> 0:55:56.319
<v Speaker 4>What were you going to tell me?

0:55:57.560 --> 0:56:03.400
<v Speaker 6>I was just thinking about the whole thrills thing, and Okay,

0:56:04.960 --> 0:56:08.480
<v Speaker 6>how I'm feeling very blasse? I guess you'd say, is

0:56:08.760 --> 0:56:11.440
<v Speaker 6>I think that's the term with like life, and a

0:56:11.440 --> 0:56:14.640
<v Speaker 6>lot of people around me and people my age are

0:56:14.640 --> 0:56:17.080
<v Speaker 6>feeling the same way. And I don't know if it's

0:56:17.080 --> 0:56:19.640
<v Speaker 6>an everywhere thing or because I'm in a small city,

0:56:19.840 --> 0:56:25.520
<v Speaker 6>but thrilling, thrilling experiences is such a huge thing for everyone.

0:56:25.760 --> 0:56:29.759
<v Speaker 6>Everyone just wants to feel something all the time. And

0:56:30.680 --> 0:56:34.879
<v Speaker 6>it's created this like drug culture, you know, and it's

0:56:34.920 --> 0:56:41.200
<v Speaker 6>really scary to me and concerning to me that that's

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<v Speaker 6>what so many people around me see as they're through

0:56:46.920 --> 0:56:47.239
<v Speaker 6>you know.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, absolutely, are you? Is that again? I'm not a

0:56:54.320 --> 0:56:57.680
<v Speaker 4>real therapist, you know, but I mean, is that something

0:56:57.719 --> 0:57:00.000
<v Speaker 4>that you're worried about happening with you?

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<v Speaker 6>I know I wouldn't be able to do it, just

0:57:03.200 --> 0:57:05.560
<v Speaker 6>because of the way that my mind is. I know

0:57:05.960 --> 0:57:11.960
<v Speaker 6>it wouldn't benefit me in any positive way. And it's

0:57:12.920 --> 0:57:17.000
<v Speaker 6>it's just kind of crazy how abundant it is. And

0:57:17.080 --> 0:57:20.959
<v Speaker 6>like my the people around me range all all over

0:57:21.040 --> 0:57:25.440
<v Speaker 6>in their twenties and it's just so it's everywhere. It's

0:57:25.480 --> 0:57:28.160
<v Speaker 6>just everyone all the time. And I didn't expect that,

0:57:28.400 --> 0:57:32.000
<v Speaker 6>and I feel like I'm going to lose people. But

0:57:32.040 --> 0:57:35.160
<v Speaker 6>I don't want to lose people. And that's not where

0:57:35.200 --> 0:57:39.480
<v Speaker 6>I I don't draw happiness from that.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, what do you why do you feel like?

0:57:42.920 --> 0:57:45.560
<v Speaker 4>And you sort of mentioned you sort of talked about

0:57:45.560 --> 0:57:47.480
<v Speaker 4>this a little bit, but you know, if you wanted

0:57:47.480 --> 0:57:49.680
<v Speaker 4>to elaborate why why do you feel like so many

0:57:49.760 --> 0:57:55.160
<v Speaker 4>people are being drawn towards drugs where you.

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<v Speaker 6>Are, it's there's I try talking people out of it

0:58:01.400 --> 0:58:05.160
<v Speaker 6>and things like that, and it's I guess it's a

0:58:05.160 --> 0:58:07.480
<v Speaker 6>part of a part of it is because it's such

0:58:07.720 --> 0:58:11.280
<v Speaker 6>a thing, like it's so normalized. Everyone's just like, what

0:58:11.320 --> 0:58:13.240
<v Speaker 6>are we doing on the weekend? Oh, we're gonna get

0:58:13.280 --> 0:58:17.240
<v Speaker 6>fucked up? Like it's what people do for fun, you know,

0:58:17.480 --> 0:58:20.720
<v Speaker 6>like they're like, what do we want to do that'll

0:58:20.760 --> 0:58:23.920
<v Speaker 6>make us feel something? Oh, let's all do drugs?

0:58:25.920 --> 0:58:28.840
<v Speaker 4>Are you talking like, you know, I'm curious, are you

0:58:28.920 --> 0:58:32.280
<v Speaker 4>talking like smoking pot? Or are you talking about like

0:58:32.680 --> 0:58:35.440
<v Speaker 4>popping pills? Stuff that's like a little bit harder than that.

0:58:37.760 --> 0:58:42.320
<v Speaker 6>Everyone smokes. Everyone smokes weed. That's not what I mean.

0:58:42.400 --> 0:58:45.480
<v Speaker 6>Like that's a whole different kind of like thing. I mean,

0:58:45.600 --> 0:58:50.240
<v Speaker 6>like Mollie is like super big, like that kind of

0:58:50.400 --> 0:58:55.360
<v Speaker 6>molly shrooms all that stuff, you know, nothing like not

0:58:55.480 --> 0:59:01.720
<v Speaker 6>like no one's like shooting up, you know, I hopefully.

0:59:00.480 --> 0:59:02.840
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I think, well, I mean a lot of this

0:59:02.960 --> 0:59:05.200
<v Speaker 4>is a very basic thing. And again I'm not a

0:59:05.240 --> 0:59:09.840
<v Speaker 4>real person at all, but uh, you know, I feel

0:59:09.880 --> 0:59:13.560
<v Speaker 4>like a lot of that happens, and you probably you

0:59:13.600 --> 0:59:15.440
<v Speaker 4>were kind of saying, this is like if you have

0:59:15.480 --> 0:59:24.480
<v Speaker 4>nothing else to do, yeah, that's what you do.

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<v Speaker 6>Do you have any opinion on it? Do you think

0:59:26.240 --> 0:59:28.000
<v Speaker 6>it's like do you think it's chill?

0:59:28.160 --> 0:59:31.280
<v Speaker 4>Or do I think what's chill? Doing a bunch of

0:59:31.320 --> 0:59:32.920
<v Speaker 4>molly and shrooms all the time?

0:59:33.720 --> 0:59:33.959
<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

0:59:35.640 --> 0:59:38.400
<v Speaker 4>Uh, it depends. It depends how you define chill.

0:59:40.160 --> 0:59:40.560
<v Speaker 6>Mm hmm.

0:59:44.320 --> 0:59:44.560
<v Speaker 7>Nah.

0:59:45.040 --> 0:59:51.000
<v Speaker 4>Uh, Well, well, well what do I mean. It's probably

0:59:51.040 --> 0:59:54.160
<v Speaker 4>gotten way worse than COVID. It's you know, it's probably

0:59:54.200 --> 0:59:56.720
<v Speaker 4>gotten way worse with COVID because people aren't allowed to

0:59:56.800 --> 1:00:00.720
<v Speaker 4>fucking go outside, but even before I I think the

1:00:00.760 --> 1:00:02.720
<v Speaker 4>tendency now is to blame everything on COVID, But I

1:00:02.720 --> 1:00:06.440
<v Speaker 4>think even before, like you know, people were doing drugs

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<v Speaker 4>because they're bored, long before COVID. I don't know. I

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<v Speaker 4>don't have like an answer of any kind. But it's hard.

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<v Speaker 4>It's hard to find. It's I think in general, it's

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<v Speaker 4>fucking hard to find shit to do, especially.

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<v Speaker 6>When you're in a small city and you run out

1:00:29.480 --> 1:00:31.880
<v Speaker 6>of things to do in your first few years of life,

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<v Speaker 6>and then you turn like nineteen and you get some

1:00:35.320 --> 1:00:39.720
<v Speaker 6>new things to do. You know, and it gets very

1:00:39.760 --> 1:00:40.680
<v Speaker 6>old quickly.

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<v Speaker 4>I've thought about this in general, like in life, how

1:00:44.680 --> 1:00:48.600
<v Speaker 4>much is there? How much? It's it's so funny because

1:00:48.640 --> 1:00:52.000
<v Speaker 4>I'm a strong believer in the op both sides of

1:00:52.040 --> 1:00:55.919
<v Speaker 4>this is like, hey, you know, how much is there

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<v Speaker 4>really to fucking do in in life? Like like when

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<v Speaker 4>you think about like what, you go to a restaurant,

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<v Speaker 4>you go to see it, you go out to a movie, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>you see your friends.

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<v Speaker 6>I wish it didn't stress me out. I really wish

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<v Speaker 6>that I was fine with everything and that I could

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<v Speaker 6>do that and that it didn't freak me out. Like

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<v Speaker 6>I feel like partially it's because of things I grew

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<v Speaker 6>up around, like suss shit with like my mom and stuff,

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<v Speaker 6>and it freaks me out. But I have struggled for

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<v Speaker 6>so many.

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<v Speaker 4>What freaks you out? I was talking about a bunch

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<v Speaker 4>of shit. What specifically from what I just said freaks

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<v Speaker 4>you out?

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<v Speaker 6>Uh, like just the the I don't know IF's specifically

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<v Speaker 6>what you're saying, but just thinking about like the normalization

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<v Speaker 6>of everything and like seeing it all around me. It's

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<v Speaker 6>just like it's not that I think it's bad, it's

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<v Speaker 6>just you know, I don't even know Uh, I don't

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<v Speaker 6>even know if this was what I'm meant to talk about.

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<v Speaker 6>I guess there's nothing you're supposed to talk about. I

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<v Speaker 6>just start to hate myself the more I talk.

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<v Speaker 4>Why. I don't know why. I don't hate yourself.

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<v Speaker 6>I can't really help it, you know. I would like

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<v Speaker 6>to see sure, But I my dilemma. I'm a I'm

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<v Speaker 6>a huge fucking extrovert. I love talking. I love people,

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<v Speaker 6>and but the older and older I get, the worse

1:02:25.160 --> 1:02:29.480
<v Speaker 6>my like anxiety gets and stuff like that. I I

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<v Speaker 6>love to talk, though, So if you have anything you'd

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<v Speaker 6>like to talk about, let me let.

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<v Speaker 4>Me ask you. Let me ask you one final thing.

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<v Speaker 4>What you said you've been to therapy. Yeah, when you

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<v Speaker 4>tell you, and I'm assuming you've you've talked about these

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<v Speaker 4>similarish things that we've talked about tonight with your therapist. No,

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<v Speaker 4>you haven't. No, I uh, that's because that's that's what

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<v Speaker 4>I'm That's what I tell you. Anytime anyone comes on

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<v Speaker 4>and and sort of talks about things where we're where,

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<v Speaker 4>it's like they should talk about that with a real therapist.

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<v Speaker 4>That's what I always say, is you should tell you

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<v Speaker 4>should go talk about this with a real therapist and

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<v Speaker 4>see what they have to say.

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<v Speaker 6>I know, and now I I feel like I've wasted something.

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<v Speaker 4>I want to I want to No, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 4>that's just all fake. This isn't real. This is a no, no,

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<v Speaker 4>no wrong. People are look for the past how long?

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<v Speaker 4>For the past sixteen minutes? Everyone else, they're on this

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<v Speaker 4>website watching people play fucking call of duty. That's not

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<v Speaker 4>that's not any worse than what we're doing here. You

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<v Speaker 4>didn't waste anything, so don't.

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<v Speaker 6>I just you're a new person, and i'd like to.

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<v Speaker 6>I'd like to learn something of your thoughts. I'd like to.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know if gained something from the interaction is

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<v Speaker 6>the right word. I've definitely gained something, I guess in

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<v Speaker 6>not being a coward and actually calling in even though

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<v Speaker 6>I'm terrified. You know, well, I'm.

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<v Speaker 4>Glad you did. Man. You know what's final? I was

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<v Speaker 4>don't hate, don't hate? You know what's funny? I uh,

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<v Speaker 4>I've been listening to Sometimes. What I'll do actually is

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<v Speaker 4>I'll call in to other Reddit other something. A lot

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<v Speaker 4>of other people will host call in shows on Reddit.

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<v Speaker 4>Sometimes I'll call into their shows and yeah, and I've

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<v Speaker 4>never it's there was some sort of fucking brain thing

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<v Speaker 4>going on, because doing this stream does not make me nervous,

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<v Speaker 4>even when there's like five it's it's like nervous, isn't

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<v Speaker 4>the right word something. It's like stressful, but not like

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<v Speaker 4>I don't get.

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<v Speaker 6>Nervous because you're Is it because you're the gag?

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<v Speaker 4>I guess? But when I call in to other people's

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<v Speaker 4>shows for some reason, I get nervous. I'm like, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>what the fuck is that? That makes no sense. It's fine,

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<v Speaker 4>it's giving me more of a more of a idea

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<v Speaker 4>of what it's like to be on the other side.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I think about, like, you know what I'm

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<v Speaker 4>talking I'm not nervous doing this by other people on

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<v Speaker 4>the other side are nervous, and I know what that

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<v Speaker 4>feels like now because I've been calling into other people's

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<v Speaker 4>streams and I'm like, well, that's a weird dynamic. I

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<v Speaker 4>hope I haven't said anything to anyone that makes them

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<v Speaker 4>fucking go crazy or anything.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I uh, I don't. I don't even know, man.

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<v Speaker 6>I also wanted to say, since it's your uh, I

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<v Speaker 6>don't know if you change questions every night, like is

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<v Speaker 6>that something you do or.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm crazy, man, I don't even exist. Man, you're we're

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<v Speaker 4>both in a dream right now. What's up?

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<v Speaker 6>I just want to say, COVID. One of the things

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<v Speaker 6>that pisses me off so much is uh that shows

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<v Speaker 6>are canceled and then you can't pet people's dogs, because

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<v Speaker 6>those two things that that gives me a thrill meeting

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<v Speaker 6>people's dogs and falling in a mosh pit and getting

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<v Speaker 6>fucking picked up.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, man, look you can. You can pet me anytime

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<v Speaker 4>you want.

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<v Speaker 6>Thank you, mister gecko, of course.

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<v Speaker 4>Now what you say your name was doctor?

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<v Speaker 6>Are you a doctor? Gecko?

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<v Speaker 4>I have no idea what the hell I am? But

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<v Speaker 4>who are you? What's your name? My name is Ezra,

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<v Speaker 4>Ezra Well, Ezra man, thank you for calling in, dude,

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<v Speaker 4>and uh well, best of luck to you. Go try

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<v Speaker 4>to see a real therapist if you can about this stuff.

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<v Speaker 4>But I appreciate your calling in. No, I think everyone

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<v Speaker 4>should probably at least try therapy.

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<v Speaker 9>Iat.

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<v Speaker 6>Sorry, people have said something nice.

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<v Speaker 4>I'll talk to you soon, Ezra. Do take care, man,

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<v Speaker 4>I thought people would be mean.

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<v Speaker 6>Thank you. Have a good night. Man.

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<v Speaker 4>Let her only goes on the line.

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<v Speaker 6>Taking his own calls every night.

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<v Speaker 4>He was teaching you