WEBVTT - Ep. 361: Butter Knife Play 0:00:02.600 --> 0:00:04.240 Guess what decision We're about to make. 0:00:04.760 --> 0:00:08.840 Horrible decision. All right, let me just do it and 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:11.200 then you talk about Okay, go ahead, how do everybody? 0:00:11.560 --> 0:00:13.480 We have the Horrible Decisions Podcast, and we are going 0:00:13.520 --> 0:00:15.760 to be in Dallas, Texas Memorial Day weekend, which is 0:00:15.800 --> 0:00:18.920 a Sunday. We're gonna be headlining the two Togetherland Festival. 0:00:19.000 --> 0:00:20.800 And you bitches better than I. How the motherfucker work 0:00:20.800 --> 0:00:22.160 on Sunday? Call out? Ho? 0:00:23.280 --> 0:00:25.319 I mean you could do that. But also it's a 0:00:25.320 --> 0:00:27.840 three day weekend. They have Monday off. We will see 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:30.880 you guys in Dallas, Texas at the together Land Festival. 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:33.159 Make sure you get your tickets now. We will be 0:00:33.800 --> 0:00:37.440 live on the podcast stage. That's May twenty six. Get 0:00:37.479 --> 0:00:42.360 your tickets now at togetherland dot com. Hey guys, welcome 0:00:42.400 --> 0:00:44.000 to another episode of Horrid Bled. 0:00:44.080 --> 0:00:49.640 This is young Man dv aka paid Sign aka dit Beach. 0:00:49.840 --> 0:00:52.519 I'm weasy. I may be dressed like a lesbian, but 0:00:52.520 --> 0:00:54.760 but you are I got a niggame, sure, I mean, 0:00:54.840 --> 0:00:58.920 and is no? I look really good, very gay, extremely gay. 0:00:58.960 --> 0:01:01.240 I mean I don't look much non gayer than you 0:01:01.440 --> 0:01:02.920 right now with the fucking cargoes. 0:01:03.000 --> 0:01:06.720 But you know the thing that's interesting about me dressing 0:01:06.800 --> 0:01:09.600 like this. Don't get me wrong, Like when I dress sexy, 0:01:10.520 --> 0:01:12.640 I think men are always like oh, because I don't 0:01:12.680 --> 0:01:14.760 like to do it up too much. Even drama fucking 0:01:14.800 --> 0:01:16.240 left for comment on my last thing, like all right, 0:01:16.319 --> 0:01:19.039 chill sis, my homeboys do not like me looking cute. 0:01:19.440 --> 0:01:22.560 But I get hit on way more when I'm dressed 0:01:22.560 --> 0:01:22.760 like this. 0:01:23.800 --> 0:01:26.080 I don't say I get hit on more when I 0:01:26.160 --> 0:01:28.600 dress like this, but like I just went to UH. 0:01:28.840 --> 0:01:32.039 I wore these exact pants on set with UH when 0:01:32.080 --> 0:01:34.640 I went on set first seven pm in Brooklyn, and 0:01:34.680 --> 0:01:37.959 it just made me feel good. You're handy, Melo mellow 0:01:38.040 --> 0:01:42.160 any super fire And I was like, not mellow complimenting 0:01:42.160 --> 0:01:43.480 my pants and then here go Merrow. 0:01:43.760 --> 0:01:45.039 Yeah, she'd be putting that shit on. 0:01:45.360 --> 0:01:48.000 And do and do, and so to me like to 0:01:48.040 --> 0:01:50.320 get complimented by men, I think. 0:01:51.600 --> 0:01:53.600 Even their shit costs a lot ours. 0:01:53.640 --> 0:01:55.640 You know, we could dress flot for like twenty two 0:01:55.680 --> 0:01:59.040 dollars and so like when men like can appreciate that 0:01:59.120 --> 0:02:02.080 a woman dresses or try to put that shit on 0:02:02.160 --> 0:02:05.440 without overlooking sexy, I kind of like the compliments for 0:02:05.520 --> 0:02:08.160 men and that I think girls like have a lot 0:02:08.160 --> 0:02:11.360 of opportunity to start dressing better instead of like that. 0:02:11.639 --> 0:02:13.160 You know, we do a lot of matching sets. I 0:02:13.160 --> 0:02:15.080 feel like that's been a thing for the last few years, 0:02:15.200 --> 0:02:16.600 and so when you get to like kind of play 0:02:16.600 --> 0:02:19.160 with color and patterns and shit like that, Like we're 0:02:19.280 --> 0:02:21.480 lucky to have Pinterest and Instagram to teach us, bitch, 0:02:21.639 --> 0:02:24.480 because on some real shit, Yeah, how was my mama 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:25.440 stylin on these holes? 0:02:25.440 --> 0:02:25.720 I did? 0:02:25.800 --> 0:02:28.440 I don't know, but like it's very easy to like 0:02:28.480 --> 0:02:30.480 try to learn new color waves, shit like that. So 0:02:30.560 --> 0:02:32.880 I think dudes really appreciate it because for the most part, 0:02:33.000 --> 0:02:34.079 they keep seeing the same shit. 0:02:34.280 --> 0:02:37.440 Yeah. Anyways, guys, we ain't got a guest today. 0:02:38.240 --> 0:02:38.760 I know you all. 0:02:38.800 --> 0:02:43.240 Motherfucker's happy. God damn, I almost had to be. I said, bitch, 0:02:43.240 --> 0:02:45.919 we need some solo episodes. So I'm sitting here talking 0:02:45.960 --> 0:02:48.440 to the team and they're like, we really need some. 0:02:48.400 --> 0:02:50.520 Solo So we're not fighting, which is crazy. We just 0:02:50.520 --> 0:02:52.800 had really good opportunities for guests because bitch, you know, 0:02:52.800 --> 0:02:56.079 and we're like, it's the mic. 0:02:56.639 --> 0:02:59.680 I was a little annoying. This bitch had niggas fly in. 0:02:59.720 --> 0:03:01.600 I said, bro, we really don't need guests to fly 0:03:01.680 --> 0:03:03.640 in like, no, no, no, no, no, I didn't know he 0:03:03.680 --> 0:03:06.280 was flying in. Two of them flew in, did they not? Yeah, 0:03:06.320 --> 0:03:09.440 but she was already in town on her whole sex tour. 0:03:10.040 --> 0:03:12.200 Okay, and what and then I didn't know he was 0:03:12.240 --> 0:03:14.840 flying Funny, I could well I found out it was 0:03:14.840 --> 0:03:17.640 a sex tour. When you know, when the girls basically 0:03:17.680 --> 0:03:19.520 when the sex work of girls be like I had 0:03:19.520 --> 0:03:23.600 three clients Billy from March ten to fourteenth, you'd be like, 0:03:23.680 --> 0:03:27.320 oh uh huh, are you in a show booking them things? 0:03:27.520 --> 0:03:30.880 Booking them? I am in. Have you been fucking? 0:03:31.919 --> 0:03:32.239 Huh? 0:03:32.280 --> 0:03:33.079 I have even sucking. 0:03:34.120 --> 0:03:37.320 So if y'all are on the pat Rion, y'all know 0:03:37.360 --> 0:03:40.000 I got flew out just for a dick suck, but. 0:03:40.000 --> 0:03:42.680 I did no, No, Mandy, can I say something y 0:03:43.080 --> 0:03:46.720 that was really funny about that Patreon episode? What Mandy 0:03:46.880 --> 0:03:49.960 was crying? She was really having a tough day. She said, 0:03:50.000 --> 0:03:51.880 I haven't even been fucking This podcast hard to do. 0:03:52.080 --> 0:03:53.960 I did suck a dick, but I haven't even been 0:03:53.960 --> 0:03:56.080 faighting And I was like in the middle of the. 0:03:56.080 --> 0:04:00.840 Tiers, yo, So I I did just get some some 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:01.480 single lane. 0:04:01.520 --> 0:04:02.080 What are you fuck? 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:05.160 Don't worry about that. So it was like, this is like, 0:04:05.200 --> 0:04:08.200 I'm gonna call it a okay. I came up with 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:09.960 a name it with it on live. It's a three 0:04:10.040 --> 0:04:14.040 night stand. So this is a old nigga. But I 0:04:14.120 --> 0:04:15.200 fucked him maybe like a. 0:04:15.200 --> 0:04:18.279 Year ago and not when she was wiped up. 0:04:18.760 --> 0:04:21.400 No, it was not. It was during a breakup, so 0:04:21.560 --> 0:04:23.080 oh it was a year and a half ago. Then 0:04:23.320 --> 0:04:26.080 I him it's been a long time. So fucked him 0:04:26.080 --> 0:04:28.520 like a year and a half ago during one of 0:04:28.560 --> 0:04:33.120 my one of thirteen breakups, and literally was like at 0:04:33.120 --> 0:04:34.719 one point was like, oh, maybe this could be my 0:04:34.760 --> 0:04:35.599 sign nigga. 0:04:35.839 --> 0:04:37.520 Didn't end up because of course I was in love 0:04:37.600 --> 0:04:38.400 with fuck boy. 0:04:38.839 --> 0:04:42.120 So anyways, ended up going out and we were in 0:04:42.160 --> 0:04:46.640 the same room and I was like text him with 0:04:46.680 --> 0:04:49.480 the little eyes and was like, hope you're enjoying yourself. 0:04:49.480 --> 0:04:52.719 We're in the same room and uh. Then he texts 0:04:52.760 --> 0:04:54.960 me back. I was like, well, I'm with my friends. 0:04:54.960 --> 0:04:57.360 He was with his friends, and then I hit him 0:04:57.400 --> 0:04:59.479 back later and was like you enjoying yourself and he 0:04:59.520 --> 0:05:02.280 goes to face time me and bitch is pitch dark. 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:04.000 I'm like, where are you at? Because I'm still at 0:05:04.040 --> 0:05:07.360 the goddamn. At the at the spot, he's like, oh, 0:05:07.360 --> 0:05:07.839 I'm in bed. 0:05:09.320 --> 0:05:11.279 I said, okay, I'm leaving now, I'll meet you there 0:05:12.000 --> 0:05:13.840 and I literally leave the event. 0:05:13.920 --> 0:05:16.000 I let my friends know, bitch gotta go, got to 0:05:16.040 --> 0:05:18.520 go get some dick and hopped in an uber and 0:05:18.520 --> 0:05:21.480 went and got that dick and it was great. 0:05:21.680 --> 0:05:23.040 Three. 0:05:23.360 --> 0:05:25.640 I say three nights stand because I might fucking one 0:05:25.640 --> 0:05:28.400 more again and then that's about it. I don't think 0:05:28.440 --> 0:05:32.080 I want I don't want a situationship. I don't want 0:05:32.480 --> 0:05:34.960 a fuck buddy. I know that that's not what I want. 0:05:35.200 --> 0:05:36.960 So in the material, no dick. 0:05:36.880 --> 0:05:37.479 Just when you want it. 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:41.320 Literally in the meantime between time, I got one more 0:05:41.440 --> 0:05:44.120 dick session with him and then dad sis So he 0:05:44.200 --> 0:05:45.360 gonna be my three nights stand? 0:05:45.400 --> 0:05:47.160 Why can't you produce him? Let me produced. 0:05:48.080 --> 0:05:50.960 He is not someone that I'm going to pursue. I 0:05:51.000 --> 0:05:55.480 am very logical and who could and would be a 0:05:55.520 --> 0:05:57.040 partner in my life. 0:05:57.360 --> 0:05:59.880 He is not one. But the way I want to 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:04.920 fucking fuck that did uh huh? I knew it. It's 0:06:04.960 --> 0:06:06.800 a good one. And it's like they try to get 0:06:08.360 --> 0:06:10.800 he getting he getting one. Most when you wouldn't name 0:06:10.800 --> 0:06:14.159 where you were at I remember, I'm like, good for 0:06:14.279 --> 0:06:16.560 you man, he look at you with the deets. No, no, no, 0:06:16.640 --> 0:06:17.960 So it was it was really good. 0:06:18.240 --> 0:06:21.359 I do have like my one person right now that 0:06:21.680 --> 0:06:24.719 I'm kind of staying, but we just his schedule is busy, 0:06:24.760 --> 0:06:26.560 mine is busy, and we have to fly to see 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:29.760 each other. So it's just not really working out that great. 0:06:30.600 --> 0:06:32.480 But yeah, this one, I got one more fucked in 0:06:32.640 --> 0:06:35.599 me before I'm like, okay, no more fucking. 0:06:36.839 --> 0:06:40.839 This was fun. Maybe we could work together, you know, 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:45.880 look at you working with someone you fucks happens. Yeah, no, 0:06:45.960 --> 0:06:49.000 they still won't be on this podcast. Ship No, no, 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:49.400 let me. 0:06:50.880 --> 0:06:54.080 Not be on this podcast. But yeah, so it was cute. 0:06:54.240 --> 0:06:56.360 We went like three rounds. I just kept making them 0:06:56.360 --> 0:06:59.039 hard and it was good. I was shocked. 0:06:59.600 --> 0:07:01.880 So it was crazy. It's not super big, but it 0:07:01.920 --> 0:07:02.840 did what it needed to do. 0:07:02.960 --> 0:07:05.440 And funny with big niggas don't have big dicks. It's like, bro, 0:07:05.800 --> 0:07:06.760 is God being fair? 0:07:07.920 --> 0:07:08.480 You're rich? 0:07:08.640 --> 0:07:13.280 He gotta make that dick a five inch fine, beautiful, like. 0:07:15.000 --> 0:07:17.160 And I ain't gonna hold the dick was in. I mean, 0:07:17.240 --> 0:07:19.520 what's wrong with all men? They're liars? Oh yeah, that's true. 0:07:19.560 --> 0:07:21.280 Dump and a public liar. 0:07:22.840 --> 0:07:26.160 So yeah, anyways, uh out said of that, what's been 0:07:26.160 --> 0:07:29.000 going on with you, bitch? 0:07:29.480 --> 0:07:32.080 Let me tell you how dick make you dumb? Girl? 0:07:32.120 --> 0:07:33.880 I got alady, you see I'm smart, I said, one 0:07:33.960 --> 0:07:36.320 more game. I got invited to that fucking gold party 0:07:36.320 --> 0:07:40.640 that Beyonce NJ throw and literally was like, I got 0:07:40.640 --> 0:07:42.240 plans down home view with my boot. I was on 0:07:42.280 --> 0:07:44.480 the plane like bitch anyway. 0:07:45.120 --> 0:07:45.240 Uh. 0:07:45.840 --> 0:07:48.600 I went to an Oscar pre party called The Night 0:07:48.640 --> 0:07:54.920 Before with Liz Goldwyn, and I realized how black Hollywood 0:07:54.960 --> 0:07:58.640 I am, to the point where like she was saying names, 0:07:58.680 --> 0:08:00.040 Oh have you ever seen this person? This person? And 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:02.600 I'm like, no, like even the black people that be 0:08:02.680 --> 0:08:03.160 in white shit. 0:08:03.240 --> 0:08:04.840 I didn't know, but I didn't know if I could 0:08:04.920 --> 0:08:07.160 say what I thought yesterday. So I had a meeting 0:08:07.400 --> 0:08:09.680 yesterday at new House, which is kind of like a 0:08:09.680 --> 0:08:11.840 Soho house, and I'm in there and I'm a new Way. 0:08:12.440 --> 0:08:14.320 Oh is that what it is? No way? I'm pretty 0:08:14.320 --> 0:08:16.880 sure I'm joking. It's spelt like house. I don't know. 0:08:17.200 --> 0:08:19.800 I usually say nwie bitch. I used to call Houston 0:08:19.840 --> 0:08:23.880 Street Houston bitch. It's spelt like Houston anyway. So I'm 0:08:24.080 --> 0:08:26.680 at this place and there's a guy sitting directly across 0:08:26.680 --> 0:08:29.880 from me, white man with the white people hair, and 0:08:29.920 --> 0:08:32.920 I realized. I was like, he looks like an actor. 0:08:32.960 --> 0:08:34.880 But also all white men that looks like look like this, 0:08:34.960 --> 0:08:37.360 I feel like they're actors. And I started realizing that 0:08:37.960 --> 0:08:39.520 a lot of white men looked like white actors. 0:08:39.520 --> 0:08:41.600 Wait, who was he? He was just a white man 0:08:41.640 --> 0:08:43.360 that looked like he could have been an actor. Bitch, 0:08:43.480 --> 0:08:46.080 hold on, did you anyone see my story about Robert 0:08:46.080 --> 0:08:49.480 de Niro? Oh, bitch, I'm with a keem. We didn't 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:51.760 try backer right. And I was like a real cute 0:08:51.760 --> 0:08:53.320 I had on this little tennis skirt and he's taking 0:08:53.320 --> 0:08:55.079 pictures of me in my little off but he's like, 0:08:55.080 --> 0:08:56.640 you're a cute girl. We have just up to gym. 0:08:56.960 --> 0:08:59.720 This white man's coming close to me. I was like, 0:09:00.160 --> 0:09:02.800 this one man, Robert de Niro, bitch, I said, are 0:09:02.840 --> 0:09:04.880 you John ham Who minded you? But John Hamm is 0:09:04.880 --> 0:09:06.640 fine as hell. If anyone doesn't know who that is, 0:09:06.679 --> 0:09:11.640 google him. He's on He's on mad Men. For some reason, 0:09:11.720 --> 0:09:13.720 I said, John ham I think it's because I had 0:09:13.800 --> 0:09:16.720 just seen him in a clip. And the guy stops 0:09:16.880 --> 0:09:18.880 smiles at me and was like, no, but people do 0:09:18.920 --> 0:09:21.160 tell me y'all look like de Niro. And he's like 0:09:21.200 --> 0:09:25.280 winking at me, turns back two or three times. I'm like, oh, 0:09:25.280 --> 0:09:28.840 he want to fuck me? So he not a whole up. 0:09:29.040 --> 0:09:31.679 That's Robert DeNiro. You thought Robert de Niro wanted to 0:09:31.720 --> 0:09:34.439 give you some white dick. First of all, google it. 0:09:34.679 --> 0:09:38.480 All black women, six black kids, every popping black woman. 0:09:38.640 --> 0:09:41.319 Naomi Campbell, all of them bitch called my mom and 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:43.520 she was like, I could have sucked them. Everybody else 0:09:43.559 --> 0:09:47.280 he wanted a second. Is this right? But he's eighty Yeah, 0:09:47.360 --> 0:09:49.760 he looked good, maybe because he's who can't wait till 0:09:49.800 --> 0:09:50.880 we talk about the age difference. 0:09:50.960 --> 0:09:53.079 That when I tell you I was thinking about throw 0:09:53.160 --> 0:09:55.760 that pussy to an eighty year old. I wasn't gonna 0:09:55.800 --> 0:09:58.880 throw it. She was gonna toss it. 0:09:59.080 --> 0:09:59.920 She's away de NIROO. 0:10:00.400 --> 0:10:02.040 She said, I was gonna sit this pussy down. I 0:10:02.040 --> 0:10:04.240 wasn't gonna throw it. I couldn't believe I let it go. 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:05.839 You know what made me so mad? So me and 0:10:05.960 --> 0:10:07.680 King were hanging out an hour later. Right, he was like, girl, 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:09.559 he looked back two or three times, and I was like, 0:10:09.800 --> 0:10:13.640 why didn't I do anything? I could have been saved. 0:10:14.240 --> 0:10:16.520 I could have laughed horrible and I would have done 0:10:16.600 --> 0:10:19.240 my fucking speech online online and been like I was 0:10:19.320 --> 0:10:22.199 doing all the work. I'm tired of man, this is 0:10:22.200 --> 0:10:23.400 what we're doing. I'm just playing. 0:10:23.640 --> 0:10:24.160 This is what we do. 0:10:24.800 --> 0:10:27.040 What we're doing. But you do this monologue. I didn't 0:10:27.040 --> 0:10:27.920 really do a monologue. 0:10:27.920 --> 0:10:31.920 I say, I'm not trying me messy. I'm let's be 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:34.880 very clear. Bitch was tired juggling that ship in Yos. 0:10:36.200 --> 0:10:37.240 This was a lot, and god. 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:38.839 Damn it, you should feel special. I chose you. I 0:10:38.840 --> 0:10:41.680 don't need to feel special. Do an outline home we oh, 0:10:42.640 --> 0:10:46.080 just go to the live shows. Oh okay, don't flight 0:10:46.120 --> 0:10:48.200 with me. Why are you being so patty right now? 0:10:48.640 --> 0:10:50.600 But I also don't know what I don't know what 0:10:50.640 --> 0:10:52.280 the tea is. I'm just saying, that's what you said. 0:10:52.320 --> 0:10:54.280 Oh huh, that's what I said. I really don't know. 0:10:54.320 --> 0:10:55.800 I don't know she might have been saying, and man, 0:10:55.840 --> 0:10:57.720 they could have been I've been been yelling at her 0:10:57.720 --> 0:10:58.360 and big controlling. 0:10:58.400 --> 0:11:00.760 I don't know what I said was it was debilitating 0:11:00.800 --> 0:11:03.920 to do both. I toured twenty four motherfucking cities. Last year, 0:11:04.280 --> 0:11:06.840 I was dropping five podcasts a fucking week. 0:11:08.679 --> 0:11:09.840 I want to blaming you. 0:11:10.160 --> 0:11:12.800 When I stayed debilitating, I was doing a lot and 0:11:12.840 --> 0:11:15.720 I had to drop something to do the things creatively 0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:19.640 I wanted to do, like Cerioudsis, like my animated series, 0:11:19.720 --> 0:11:20.680 and so that was. 0:11:20.600 --> 0:11:22.880 Something that was no longer serving me. 0:11:23.120 --> 0:11:24.760 And I want you all to know, with y'all, Patty 0:11:24.800 --> 0:11:29.640 motherfucking asses, I suggested my ex co host to record 0:11:29.640 --> 0:11:31.320 out a WTF Media studios. 0:11:31.400 --> 0:11:33.960 So I just would like to say, that is how 0:11:34.040 --> 0:11:35.760 much guess what we're getting along you guys. 0:11:35.800 --> 0:11:37.840 And I talked to my motherfucking therapist today and I 0:11:37.880 --> 0:11:40.720 was mad because I was like, I hate these kinds 0:11:40.760 --> 0:11:43.640 making it seem like me and Wheezy are just awful 0:11:43.679 --> 0:11:46.240 and hate each other. I said, we've been good since July, 0:11:47.000 --> 0:11:51.600 that is like eight months. I was like, bro, we've 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:54.199 been good for like a good. 0:11:54.000 --> 0:11:57.080 Amount of time. My nigga was like, why did everybody 0:11:57.080 --> 0:12:00.120 be acting? Because sometimes he is a family friend and 0:12:00.160 --> 0:12:01.959 then like knows who we are and was like kind 0:12:01.960 --> 0:12:03.880 of asking questions about it. He's like, why does everybody 0:12:03.920 --> 0:12:06.559 ask like ellen good? Many seems I'm like since when I. 0:12:06.520 --> 0:12:08.760 Met you we got No, we don't hung out with 0:12:08.840 --> 0:12:13.360 each other's friends, business partners, lovers, partied at the club together, 0:12:13.600 --> 0:12:14.319 Like I. 0:12:14.280 --> 0:12:17.559 Mean, no, I think it's I don't want to say it, 0:12:17.559 --> 0:12:19.920 but I'm gonna say it. Oh, let me write this 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:21.640 min and mark down a case we gotta bleep it out. 0:12:21.640 --> 0:12:22.920 I don't think we need to bleep it out. I 0:12:22.960 --> 0:12:27.760 really believe this. I think that it was New York. 0:12:27.800 --> 0:12:31.240 Sounded like New York. I mean, fucking they coming to 0:12:31.280 --> 0:12:34.240 get me. They said, bitch shop talking shit. No, I 0:12:34.280 --> 0:12:38.600 think like, honestly, I think you and Bridget recorded too much. Yeah, 0:12:38.640 --> 0:12:41.240 it's really hard. I think it could have probably been 0:12:41.240 --> 0:12:42.960 easier if you didn't have to do so much and 0:12:42.960 --> 0:12:44.880 give up so much of your lives. I agree what 0:12:44.880 --> 0:12:47.360 I'm saying. I haven't had a Monday off in three years. 0:12:47.760 --> 0:12:50.320 We were on tour, and I was literally catching six 0:12:50.400 --> 0:12:55.280 am flights, landing in New York at nine thirty, ten thirty, 0:12:55.679 --> 0:12:57.880 rushing home to drop off luggage, to get dressed, to 0:12:57.920 --> 0:12:59.880 go record from twelve to five every Monday. 0:13:00.000 --> 0:13:02.679 Honestly, Bridget seems like whatever happened between you guys, she 0:13:02.679 --> 0:13:04.920 seems like a sweet girl. So to me, it doesn't 0:13:04.960 --> 0:13:08.040 really matter how that person is. It's still like this 0:13:08.080 --> 0:13:10.160 is a lot, and then you're almost resenting it because 0:13:10.160 --> 0:13:11.680 you're like, fuck, I can't even live my life. And 0:13:11.720 --> 0:13:13.640 it was true. Maybe I had to literally if we 0:13:13.640 --> 0:13:16.040 had a Sunday show beyond the five am flight to record. 0:13:16.360 --> 0:13:18.800 And I understand that dedication because I've had to do 0:13:18.840 --> 0:13:21.240 it too with Horrible and I've been so like, oh 0:13:21.280 --> 0:13:22.720 my god, I've got too much going on in life, 0:13:22.720 --> 0:13:28.600 like it sucks. But I think our relationship improved because 0:13:29.320 --> 0:13:32.080 you were probably like, Okay, this is becoming the easier show. 0:13:32.679 --> 0:13:35.240 It's not that I feel like that, whether that's the 0:13:35.240 --> 0:13:37.480 truth or not, it's I believe that it's because a 0:13:37.520 --> 0:13:38.880 little bit of two things. 0:13:39.080 --> 0:13:43.200 I think that for as much work that yes, that 0:13:43.240 --> 0:13:46.800 podcast took, I think being on tour and you know, 0:13:46.920 --> 0:13:49.520 we ended our tour because of the pandemic, and I 0:13:49.559 --> 0:13:53.160 think being back in front of the whore Hive and 0:13:53.200 --> 0:13:58.120 seeing how this show has truly impacted people's lives, that 0:13:59.559 --> 0:14:02.320 knowing that I still don't want children, knowing that I 0:14:02.360 --> 0:14:04.480 want to put forth something that I do feel like 0:14:04.600 --> 0:14:08.760 is my legacy, I started also feeling like I fucking 0:14:08.800 --> 0:14:10.199 hate that I have to be on the shade room 0:14:10.200 --> 0:14:12.400 every day and have an opinion about things I really 0:14:12.400 --> 0:14:15.520 didn't give a I didn't even talk about We talked 0:14:15.600 --> 0:14:19.320 current events, and we talked music, and I started also 0:14:19.440 --> 0:14:21.480 just resenting that I had to be so involved with 0:14:21.600 --> 0:14:24.920 everyone else's lives and going to festivals and dealing with 0:14:24.960 --> 0:14:27.280 the labels and being in rooms with all of these 0:14:27.280 --> 0:14:29.400 celebrities that I may or may not have had an 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:33.400 opinion about, Like I remember even fucking being a Dreamville. 0:14:33.600 --> 0:14:35.960 Literally Drake's right next to me, and I'm like, oh, 0:14:36.040 --> 0:14:38.480 I hope he ain't hear me talk about his nail polish. 0:14:38.480 --> 0:14:42.000 And I'm literally just like realizing I don't like that. 0:14:42.000 --> 0:14:44.880 That's like I'm now having all of these opinions about people, 0:14:44.960 --> 0:14:47.480 and that I'm having to share space with these people and. 0:14:47.400 --> 0:14:50.400 Maybe they view me. And it was just there. There 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:51.120 was a. 0:14:51.160 --> 0:14:53.920 Lot about this show A I don't feel like we 0:14:53.920 --> 0:14:56.160 were building a core audience. And to be very clear, 0:14:56.960 --> 0:15:01.000 I made the decision to leave back in October November. 0:15:01.200 --> 0:15:05.240 I had the conversation with you, So this was almost 0:15:05.280 --> 0:15:09.040 a six six seven months ago decision for me, and 0:15:09.080 --> 0:15:12.480 it was because and this is this is the part 0:15:12.520 --> 0:15:15.800 where I am so like, this is where I feel 0:15:15.800 --> 0:15:20.920 the most happy. Our UTA agents, six months before our 0:15:20.960 --> 0:15:25.080 deal ended, started having conversations with other people and we're 0:15:25.120 --> 0:15:27.200 taking calls all to see all the people that got 0:15:27.280 --> 0:15:29.560 damned bankrupt now, so we're having all these calls for 0:15:29.600 --> 0:15:32.360 a new deal, We're having all these other options and 0:15:32.400 --> 0:15:33.160 seeing what it is. 0:15:33.480 --> 0:15:34.960 Wasn't as much money, not as much. 0:15:35.000 --> 0:15:39.920 But I ended up literally taking a phone call and 0:15:39.960 --> 0:15:44.000 I'm like, I wouldn't do this for another million dollars. 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:45.920 Then they were like, well, how much do you want 0:15:45.920 --> 0:15:48.760 to do it for? And nothing in me was like 0:15:50.080 --> 0:15:52.360 there wasn't a dollar amount. Nothing moved me to want 0:15:52.360 --> 0:15:55.120 to do this anymore. And I was like, Wow, I'm 0:15:55.160 --> 0:15:58.760 not doing something for money, and I'm dealing with I've 0:15:58.760 --> 0:15:59.760 been dealing with that with my. 0:15:59.720 --> 0:16:01.800 Therapy, because that tells you it's not bridgal. Not only 0:16:01.800 --> 0:16:04.680 that I just talked to my therapist today. There's not 0:16:04.720 --> 0:16:07.720 a price on my pussy right now. I literally I 0:16:07.720 --> 0:16:09.360 s would have got none. 0:16:10.000 --> 0:16:14.320 I literally was like, wow, I can't imagine even laying 0:16:14.360 --> 0:16:17.120 down for a certain dollar amount, like and clearly that 0:16:17.240 --> 0:16:19.680 was a lot of my twenties, my late teens, and 0:16:19.720 --> 0:16:23.920 so to be able to walk away from the idea 0:16:23.960 --> 0:16:27.680 of money or a price tag at all, like felt 0:16:27.680 --> 0:16:29.800 really good for me because I've done a lot of 0:16:29.840 --> 0:16:32.960 things that I didn't want to do for money. And 0:16:33.040 --> 0:16:36.240 so as I'm sitting here talking to my agents and 0:16:37.000 --> 0:16:42.080 literally can't give them a number as to for one 0:16:42.080 --> 0:16:45.040 episode a week. Oh, there wasn't gonna be two episodes 0:16:45.080 --> 0:16:47.440 a week. Ever, there wasn't a dollar amount for me 0:16:47.480 --> 0:16:48.400 to do one episode a week. 0:16:48.680 --> 0:16:50.200 But that's what I'm saying. Though, I think it's good 0:16:50.200 --> 0:16:54.160 to know that, like the content itself was stressful because 0:16:54.800 --> 0:16:56.720 you know, like with the whole call Her Daddy breakup, 0:16:56.720 --> 0:16:59.480 the thing that I really couldn't stand about Alex Cooper 0:16:59.560 --> 0:17:03.560 was not on Sofia, and I think it's tough when 0:17:03.560 --> 0:17:05.760 you watch what do you mean honoring just being like yo, 0:17:05.960 --> 0:17:08.800 I'm I've had this new accolade in life, Like I've 0:17:08.840 --> 0:17:11.359 done these things. I had a partner, and I think, like, 0:17:11.600 --> 0:17:13.520 even if it gets dicey in the end, like it's 0:17:13.520 --> 0:17:15.560 good to be like yo, I experienced this with this person, 0:17:15.640 --> 0:17:17.600 Like you know, to have a show for only three 0:17:17.680 --> 0:17:19.479 years and be able to tour it and do all 0:17:19.480 --> 0:17:21.639 the things you did, Like no, right now I'll live 0:17:21.680 --> 0:17:22.320 with that forever. 0:17:22.440 --> 0:17:25.960 I already know now that I can create use your pho, 0:17:26.359 --> 0:17:29.160 I can do another successful thing I have. I had 0:17:29.160 --> 0:17:32.840 the opportunity my show with MTV, the opportunities I've had 0:17:32.840 --> 0:17:36.200 with Revolt, the the things that I'm doing now. I 0:17:36.200 --> 0:17:38.879 don't think those opportunities come to me without see the 0:17:38.920 --> 0:17:39.840 thing that's good. 0:17:40.160 --> 0:17:43.640 So Bridget and you definitely were able to like come 0:17:43.640 --> 0:17:46.440 into each other's lives to have good ventures later pray. 0:17:46.280 --> 0:17:48.360 And I hope that she's able to use the platform 0:17:48.400 --> 0:17:50.760 that we both built to catapult her intil whatever's next 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:51.000 for her. 0:17:51.560 --> 0:17:54.960 Same like I think that it's it's like each other right, 0:17:55.040 --> 0:17:58.240 Like I say all the time that I'll never forget 0:17:58.240 --> 0:17:59.800 the day I walked into that house and can you 0:17:59.840 --> 0:18:01.080