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Speaker 1: You are listening to Stradio Lab, the podcast hosted by

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Speaker 1: two gay guys about straight culture but also not at

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Speaker 1: I really it's hard to hear my voice now. Um,

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Speaker 1: here's what it is. Here's what and just like that

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425
00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:09,080
Speaker 1: you know, like I guess, yep, that's uh, that's what

426
00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:12,639
Speaker 1: y'all are supposed to do, so how at it? And

427
00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:18,399
Speaker 1: then you know, go home. But I remember my best friend,

428
00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:22,080
Speaker 1: this is like, my best friend worked the door of

429
00:24:22,119 --> 00:24:24,400
Speaker 1: the club that we would go to a lot anyway,

430
00:24:24,480 --> 00:24:28,119
Speaker 1: And I remember her coming home from house night and

431
00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:31,560
Speaker 1: telling me that an older woman who in hindsight was

432
00:24:31,640 --> 00:24:36,199
Speaker 1: probably like mid to late fifties would come in every

433
00:24:36,240 --> 00:24:39,800
Speaker 1: every Saturday night dressed up in like church close, but

434
00:24:39,920 --> 00:24:45,720
Speaker 1: the glittery kind like Christmas Easter church close, and um

435
00:24:45,920 --> 00:24:49,160
Speaker 1: would come and dance just all night long. She came

436
00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:51,800
Speaker 1: kind of early in the night, which was like but

437
00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:54,439
Speaker 1: she'd stay until last call, which was four, and she

438
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:56,720
Speaker 1: just danced to the house because it was the closest

439
00:24:56,720 --> 00:24:58,639
Speaker 1: to disco, which I guess was the last time that

440
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:00,800
Speaker 1: she was out on the regular, and we kind of

441
00:25:00,920 --> 00:25:03,440
Speaker 1: chuckled and then I was like, you know that's us, right,

442
00:25:03,520 --> 00:25:07,119
Speaker 1: and she's like, yeah, I know. I'm like, you know

443
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:11,880
Speaker 1: that in twenty thirty years that will be us. And yeah,

444
00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:16,480
Speaker 1: So I'm just collecting glittery clothing until I turn that corner.

445
00:25:17,080 --> 00:25:19,600
Speaker 1: I have to say, I can't wait. I know, I

446
00:25:19,600 --> 00:25:21,159
Speaker 1: don't know what my version of I don't know what

447
00:25:21,240 --> 00:25:26,200
Speaker 1: my version of glittery clothing will be. It's tough because

448
00:25:26,240 --> 00:25:28,560
Speaker 1: I do want to be that person, like I think

449
00:25:28,600 --> 00:25:32,800
Speaker 1: that is the goal, but it's also like as you age,

450
00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:36,439
Speaker 1: your interests and goals change in a way where I'm like,

451
00:25:36,600 --> 00:25:39,280
Speaker 1: I don't know whether the instinct is to fight the

452
00:25:39,680 --> 00:25:44,240
Speaker 1: like it urge, to like be quieter and like settled

453
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:47,040
Speaker 1: down in a more real way and like still fight

454
00:25:47,080 --> 00:25:48,920
Speaker 1: to go to the clubs, or if it's to embrace

455
00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:50,800
Speaker 1: it and be like, well that was the thought of

456
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:54,600
Speaker 1: something now as or whatever something I should It's good

457
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:57,359
Speaker 1: that I don't want that, right, Yeah, I mean it's

458
00:25:57,800 --> 00:26:00,920
Speaker 1: you you will and I feel like in distinctively fight

459
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:05,680
Speaker 1: the urge or you'll try it, and some your surroundings

460
00:26:05,680 --> 00:26:08,280
Speaker 1: will be like, hey man, you you're not supposed to

461
00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:11,040
Speaker 1: be here, and you're like, you're right, let me, I

462
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,560
Speaker 1: am thoroughly embarrassed. But then what will happen is you

463
00:26:14,560 --> 00:26:16,399
Speaker 1: will get to a point where you're like, I don't

464
00:26:16,480 --> 00:26:20,040
Speaker 1: care totally, but you have to truly not care. You

465
00:26:20,080 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 1: can't say I don't care because you absolutely care, So

466
00:26:24,960 --> 00:26:28,080
Speaker 1: you have to not even realize that you don't care.

467
00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:29,919
Speaker 1: But you're just like, I'm gonna go in there, and

468
00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:32,800
Speaker 1: you go in and people are like are you sure,

469
00:26:32,960 --> 00:26:34,919
Speaker 1: And you just walk by the door girl and you

470
00:26:35,040 --> 00:26:37,120
Speaker 1: just go in and you have your night and then

471
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:39,160
Speaker 1: you leave like see you next week. And the door

472
00:26:39,160 --> 00:26:42,800
Speaker 1: girl goes home and it's like, Yo, this wild woman

473
00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:46,040
Speaker 1: was out here and glitter dancing, and I kind of

474
00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:48,160
Speaker 1: want to be her. And it's not that you want

475
00:26:48,160 --> 00:26:50,439
Speaker 1: to be a wild woman dancing and glitter. You just

476
00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:55,640
Speaker 1: want to not care. Yeah, yeah, I know, because when

477
00:26:55,640 --> 00:26:58,520
Speaker 1: you care, you can kind of see that desperation in people.

478
00:27:00,320 --> 00:27:03,640
Speaker 1: It's like and it's tough because it's not and and

479
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:07,479
Speaker 1: they don't know, like two people can look identical in

480
00:27:07,520 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 1: every other way, like it has nothing to do with

481
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:12,040
Speaker 1: like how you dress or how attractive you are. But

482
00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:14,400
Speaker 1: like it just has to do with like knowing you're

483
00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:17,360
Speaker 1: doing something on your own terms versus going there desperate

484
00:27:17,400 --> 00:27:19,439
Speaker 1: for something to happen to you so you can like

485
00:27:19,520 --> 00:27:25,000
Speaker 1: feel something. Yeah, yeah, for something to happen. Oh that's

486
00:27:25,040 --> 00:27:29,000
Speaker 1: the worst. Yeah, it's a constant little lesson I think

487
00:27:29,040 --> 00:27:32,480
Speaker 1: you're pointing out. I love the the truth of like

488
00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:37,960
Speaker 1: just saying you don't care is like not like you

489
00:27:38,040 --> 00:27:40,000
Speaker 1: really have to go through a journey to believe it,

490
00:27:40,520 --> 00:27:45,080
Speaker 1: um and it's impossible, and you can't like be like

491
00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:52,080
Speaker 1: you can't fast track that journey. Do you ever? Actually

492
00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:55,399
Speaker 1: I was like I was going through this yesterday, slightly

493
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,879
Speaker 1: small version of this, But do you ever like feel

494
00:27:57,880 --> 00:28:01,000
Speaker 1: yourself in a bad mood or whatever and you know

495
00:28:01,080 --> 00:28:03,000
Speaker 1: you have to do something and you try to get

496
00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:05,000
Speaker 1: yourself to just be in a different mood and you're

497
00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:09,080
Speaker 1: like just stop, just stop, just stop. It's impossible, but

498
00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,480
Speaker 1: like you just know that, like if you're in a

499
00:28:11,520 --> 00:28:13,240
Speaker 1: bad mood, you're going to enter a space and then

500
00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:16,399
Speaker 1: immediately like either be rude to someone or be quiet

501
00:28:16,440 --> 00:28:18,600
Speaker 1: and weird or be awkward, And it's like you just

502
00:28:18,680 --> 00:28:21,240
Speaker 1: want you know that if only this thing you have

503
00:28:21,359 --> 00:28:23,760
Speaker 1: to do could be twenty four hours from now you

504
00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:26,840
Speaker 1: would be normal. Yeah, that happens a lot, and I

505
00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:30,800
Speaker 1: try to uh, I may say something when I see

506
00:28:30,840 --> 00:28:33,760
Speaker 1: my roommate, since he's the one who would have to

507
00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:36,520
Speaker 1: deal with it the most. Often, I'll just go, hey,

508
00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 1: I'm there's a and he's like, okay, fine, yeah, but

509
00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:45,600
Speaker 1: um but yeah. I try to like literally roll up

510
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:47,600
Speaker 1: in a ball if I have to go out into

511
00:28:47,640 --> 00:28:49,600
Speaker 1: the world and I feel that way, like a like

512
00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:52,920
Speaker 1: a rolly poly and just try to roll through and

513
00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:57,320
Speaker 1: get through everything. And when someone says or does something,

514
00:28:57,360 --> 00:29:00,479
Speaker 1: I try to just go, look, I don't know if

515
00:29:00,520 --> 00:29:05,760
Speaker 1: today is the day for that. Um. And usually no

516
00:29:05,800 --> 00:29:08,160
Speaker 1: one pays attention to the warning. No one ever paid

517
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 1: what the warning? You're fine? And then I got a

518
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:15,680
Speaker 1: snap and my snap is so bad, it's so terrible,

519
00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:20,680
Speaker 1: and so I'm like, I'm all right, I tried to

520
00:29:20,680 --> 00:29:25,080
Speaker 1: really poly through it, and you guys me, so now

521
00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:27,479
Speaker 1: I gotta be mean. I kind of try to do

522
00:29:27,640 --> 00:29:31,120
Speaker 1: the like uh. So, have you guys seen the Katy

523
00:29:31,120 --> 00:29:35,600
Speaker 1: Perry documentary the famous scene where she is like crying, crying, crying,

524
00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:37,600
Speaker 1: and then she's about to get lifted up on stage,

525
00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:41,600
Speaker 1: and she just like stops crying and like smiles like

526
00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:43,800
Speaker 1: does like pop star face, and then just like gets

527
00:29:43,800 --> 00:29:46,120
Speaker 1: lifted up on stage. I kind of do that in

528
00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:48,400
Speaker 1: my mind where I'm like in a horrible, horrible mood,

529
00:29:48,520 --> 00:29:50,520
Speaker 1: and then like the falseness of pertaining to be in

530
00:29:50,520 --> 00:29:52,320
Speaker 1: a good mood kind of makes me be in a

531
00:29:52,320 --> 00:29:55,600
Speaker 1: good mood. Like like turning around and being like, let's

532
00:29:55,640 --> 00:29:58,120
Speaker 1: do this is like makes me laugh in a way

533
00:29:58,160 --> 00:30:00,800
Speaker 1: that does kind of get me out of that in

534
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:03,840
Speaker 1: a weird way. I'll have to try that, try it

535
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:10,360
Speaker 1: performance totally. I think that One time a yoga teacher said,

536
00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:13,840
Speaker 1: if you feel like this is difficult, just smile and

537
00:30:13,880 --> 00:30:16,560
Speaker 1: then that will make you think. Like it's like like

538
00:30:16,600 --> 00:30:18,960
Speaker 1: if you just like smile really widely, force yourself to

539
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:23,560
Speaker 1: smile wildly, then it will make it feel more easy,

540
00:30:23,840 --> 00:30:29,280
Speaker 1: did it? I mean, who knows? Well a yoga teacher

541
00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 1: said it, So it's true. Yeah, yeah, it's true. It's true.

542
00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:36,040
Speaker 1: Should we do our first segment? I think that would

543
00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:40,680
Speaker 1: be an excellent idea. Um, will you explain it please?

544
00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:44,560
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm like I was going to do

545
00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:46,480
Speaker 1: it because you did the last time, and I was like, no,

546
00:30:49,600 --> 00:30:55,960
Speaker 1: Sam becomes like a stereotype of needy girlfriend when it's

547
00:30:55,960 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 1: time to do the first it's for some reason, it's

548
00:30:58,120 --> 00:31:00,400
Speaker 1: like so jarring to me. I kind of actually have

549
00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:03,120
Speaker 1: no embrace that, and it makes me feel like kind

550
00:31:03,120 --> 00:31:05,480
Speaker 1: of like a dom like the top when when it's

551
00:31:05,480 --> 00:31:08,560
Speaker 1: time to do this, because I'm like, oh, he can't

552
00:31:08,560 --> 00:31:12,120
Speaker 1: do it, I have to step in. Um. Our first

553
00:31:12,200 --> 00:31:14,840
Speaker 1: segment is called straight Shooters, and in this segment, we

554
00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:18,680
Speaker 1: gauge your familiarity with and complicity and straight culture by

555
00:31:18,720 --> 00:31:22,200
Speaker 1: giving you a series of rapid fire questions where you

556
00:31:22,240 --> 00:31:25,640
Speaker 1: have to choose between one thing or another thing. And

557
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:27,680
Speaker 1: the one rule is you can't ask any follow up

558
00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:33,479
Speaker 1: questions or any clarifications about the world. Sam take it away.

559
00:31:33,760 --> 00:31:41,640
Speaker 1: Okay wow um oh um, that one's actually bad. Okay,

560
00:31:41,760 --> 00:31:47,280
Speaker 1: uh okay. Gender fluidity or liquid assets. I was supposed

561
00:31:47,320 --> 00:31:53,080
Speaker 1: to say which one is straight? You cannot a gender

562
00:31:53,200 --> 00:31:58,479
Speaker 1: fluidity or liquid assets? I mean I'm kind of tapped

563
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:06,200
Speaker 1: out on both. Um. I'll go with I've Been Born Broke,

564
00:32:06,800 --> 00:32:13,120
Speaker 1: Gender fluidity. Great? Um an eight hour documentary about the

565
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:18,840
Speaker 1: Beatles or making the band. Season three. That's the one

566
00:32:18,840 --> 00:32:23,080
Speaker 1: with Danny. Yeah, wow, and I am well versed in

567
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:30,680
Speaker 1: both sadly, um, but oh lord, oh that's hard because

568
00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:34,959
Speaker 1: I literally argued with various people about both things, standing

569
00:32:35,000 --> 00:32:38,520
Speaker 1: up for both of them. I'm gonna go that probably

570
00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:44,080
Speaker 1: the Beatles, Yeah, okay, using a wet wipe or having

571
00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:55,000
Speaker 1: a dry spell sadly a wet wipe. It's always nice

572
00:32:55,080 --> 00:32:57,600
Speaker 1: when the guest gets into the when you kind of

573
00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:04,360
Speaker 1: realize like, oh, this is literally about nothing. Choose okay,

574
00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:09,360
Speaker 1: Sea taking a relaxing bath or pulling a Sylvia Platin

575
00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:14,320
Speaker 1: man which feels better to me at the time. Usually

576
00:33:15,320 --> 00:33:23,880
Speaker 1: one begets the other. But um, I will go. I

577
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:31,480
Speaker 1: will go with the bath, yes, tasteful okay. Um Mambo

578
00:33:31,600 --> 00:33:35,360
Speaker 1: number five or Seal Team six. Oh, always Mambo number

579
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 1: five okay. Um, Samantha moving to London or Big Dying.

580
00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:50,240
Speaker 1: You know what? Look here, that was the Oh I mean, honestly,

581
00:33:50,320 --> 00:33:51,680
Speaker 1: the shade of it all is going to have to

582
00:33:51,680 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 1: go to Samantha moving to London. Yeah, okay, And then

583
00:33:58,240 --> 00:34:00,680
Speaker 1: I guess I'll do my bad one. That is my last,

584
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:04,280
Speaker 1: my first one that I was gonna skip. But um,

585
00:34:04,320 --> 00:34:07,720
Speaker 1: just because I feel like I've already even said it, um,

586
00:34:07,760 --> 00:34:12,920
Speaker 1: and just like that or nevertheless, she persisted, that's good

587
00:34:12,520 --> 00:34:17,680
Speaker 1: and that's a good one. Um, I'm gonna have I'm

588
00:34:17,719 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 1: gonna have to say and just like that. Yeah, and

589
00:34:21,680 --> 00:34:33,800
Speaker 1: finally feduccini alfredo or Stephanie Germonada. Um this I don't

590
00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:36,120
Speaker 1: I don't know where people how people feel about this,

591
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:41,279
Speaker 1: but I'm gonna have to go feducchini alfredo. Yeah. I know,

592
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:45,560
Speaker 1: definitely controversial, but controversial. Fred is one of those things

593
00:34:45,560 --> 00:34:47,960
Speaker 1: that I don't think I've had in decades. But but

594
00:34:48,160 --> 00:34:51,360
Speaker 1: but it sounds so it just sounds like such a

595
00:34:51,400 --> 00:34:55,880
Speaker 1: great comfort food. I wish someone would just bring me Fiotfredo.

596
00:34:55,920 --> 00:34:57,520
Speaker 1: I don't even know if I've ever had it. It's

597
00:34:57,520 --> 00:34:59,239
Speaker 1: one of those things where it's like, have I had

598
00:34:59,280 --> 00:35:01,960
Speaker 1: fetuccinio for Oh? It seems so common, and yet if

599
00:35:01,960 --> 00:35:05,200
Speaker 1: I'm having it's not that it's a great you know.

600
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:07,040
Speaker 1: The other thing that finching offerda is like, if I'm

601
00:35:07,040 --> 00:35:09,800
Speaker 1: going to have a white pasta, make it a carbonara.

602
00:35:11,640 --> 00:35:15,080
Speaker 1: And here's my thing is, I don't know any fucking pasta's.

603
00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:18,640
Speaker 1: I know, I know what a lasagna is, and I

604
00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:21,200
Speaker 1: know what spaghetti is. I do not know what a

605
00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:25,800
Speaker 1: carbonara is. And I don't know what it's just so, yeah,

606
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:29,520
Speaker 1: a carbonara is like it's it's a white sauce. So

607
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:32,239
Speaker 1: I kind of thought it would be a lot of like, uh,

608
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:36,279
Speaker 1: you know, heavy cream, but it's actually eggs. It's like

609
00:35:36,840 --> 00:35:43,040
Speaker 1: egg based and then there is bacon and what what

610
00:35:43,160 --> 00:35:48,640
Speaker 1: else is it? So yeah, yeah, it's yeah, it's like

611
00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:52,320
Speaker 1: a breakfast if you if you only think of eggs

612
00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:55,920
Speaker 1: in that way, Yeah, it's like a break Yes. And honestly,

613
00:35:55,960 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 1: one of the biggest game changers is realizing you can

614
00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:04,160
Speaker 1: have postive breaks. You can, absolutely you can. Interestingly, I

615
00:36:04,239 --> 00:36:07,120
Speaker 1: learned that in Boston because I went somewhere that there's

616
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:11,000
Speaker 1: any place that's definitely having for breakfast, it's going to

617
00:36:11,040 --> 00:36:15,480
Speaker 1: be Boston. I've been there twice. And I don't know

618
00:36:15,520 --> 00:36:17,680
Speaker 1: why I put that judgment on him, but here here

619
00:36:17,719 --> 00:36:21,719
Speaker 1: it is. No. It's the other thing with carbonara is

620
00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:24,000
Speaker 1: that there is a famous scene in Heartburn where Meryl

621
00:36:24,080 --> 00:36:27,279
Speaker 1: Streep and Jack Nicholson have carbonar in bed. She makes

622
00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 1: like a giant bowl of it and they eat it

623
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:32,239
Speaker 1: out of the same bowl in bed. M hmm. I

624
00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:36,440
Speaker 1: even feel the word carbonara kind of crosses me out

625
00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:40,160
Speaker 1: to say, I feel like I'm almost putting on an

626
00:36:40,239 --> 00:36:43,040
Speaker 1: accent in a way that feels bad. Oh, I was

627
00:36:43,120 --> 00:36:46,560
Speaker 1: going to say that, um, that the media has trained

628
00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 1: you to recoil at anything, including the word carb, so

629
00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:54,319
Speaker 1: that you are just like, no, it's bad news. It's not.

630
00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:58,880
Speaker 1: It's a hug. It's a hug from the inside. Yeah.

631
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:01,359
Speaker 1: I do think I think the media with the media

632
00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:06,359
Speaker 1: has done to our relationships with pasta is yes, yes,

633
00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:11,600
Speaker 1: even even after I have like d colonized life, mind,

634
00:37:12,920 --> 00:37:17,160
Speaker 1: I still whenever I have pasta, I'm like cheat day

635
00:37:18,000 --> 00:37:26,719
Speaker 1: justice for pasta. Um. Wow, let's let's try to get

636
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:29,560
Speaker 1: into our topic. Let's do it. You know what's great

637
00:37:29,560 --> 00:37:32,759
Speaker 1: about this topic and all I introduced it is like

638
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:36,000
Speaker 1: it is now. It's so the topic is New Year's even.

639
00:37:36,040 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 1: We will get into it, but we are recording like

640
00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:41,720
Speaker 1: weeks before, and it's so nice to like get myself

641
00:37:41,719 --> 00:37:43,719
Speaker 1: in the mindset of like what if it was three

642
00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:46,520
Speaker 1: days before New Year's Eve? Oh, oh, you're going on

643
00:37:46,520 --> 00:37:50,120
Speaker 1: a little journey in your mind, right. I'm like, imagine

644
00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:53,600
Speaker 1: everyone listening to this like has already had Christmas. They

645
00:37:53,640 --> 00:37:58,000
Speaker 1: are fully in the like I mean, malls are drowning

646
00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:02,399
Speaker 1: and giant red ribbons like it is Christmas spirit a clock. Yeah,

647
00:38:02,560 --> 00:38:06,120
Speaker 1: and they are now planning, like for the first time

648
00:38:06,120 --> 00:38:11,279
Speaker 1: in two years, they're actually making New Year's Eve plans. Yeah.

649
00:38:11,280 --> 00:38:14,000
Speaker 1: Oh wow. I hadn't thought about that. I hadn't thought

650
00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:16,840
Speaker 1: about the pressure of New Year's is always full of pressure.

651
00:38:17,040 --> 00:38:20,040
Speaker 1: I want to say, we this we group came up

652
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:24,359
Speaker 1: with this topic. Yes, because it's timely, but also there's

653
00:38:24,360 --> 00:38:27,440
Speaker 1: some truth in it, and I feel the pressure of

654
00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:31,000
Speaker 1: New Year's is always huge, But the pressure of like

655
00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:34,000
Speaker 1: this New Year's I hadn't even considered that it's like

656
00:38:34,360 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 1: the first New Year's back in a way. Yeah, I don't,

657
00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:43,120
Speaker 1: I don't. I I've been trying to find someone to

658
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:48,000
Speaker 1: kiss on New Year's since I was like sixteen, because

659
00:38:48,040 --> 00:38:53,240
Speaker 1: that's apparently what you're supposed to do. And it only

660
00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:56,239
Speaker 1: was a couple of beers, like maybe three or four

661
00:38:56,320 --> 00:39:00,560
Speaker 1: years ago that I realized that the reason that I

662
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:04,800
Speaker 1: love on paper, I love New Year's right, new beginning.

663
00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:08,960
Speaker 1: You can put up your new breakfast club calendar, you

664
00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:13,319
Speaker 1: can do all of these things. Um. But so I

665
00:39:13,400 --> 00:39:16,799
Speaker 1: go in like yeah, yeah, yeah, and every time at

666
00:39:16,800 --> 00:39:19,319
Speaker 1: the end of it, I'm like, well, I mean that

667
00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:21,880
Speaker 1: was kind of anti climactic, and I realized it's because

668
00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:26,000
Speaker 1: I'm wanting to kiss someone on New Year's And about

669
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:27,919
Speaker 1: four years ago, I was like, that is the most

670
00:39:28,120 --> 00:39:31,440
Speaker 1: ridiculous thing to want to do. I can't believe that

671
00:39:31,520 --> 00:39:34,840
Speaker 1: it's that ingrained in me to want to do that. Um,

672
00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:38,879
Speaker 1: so I'm still trying to shake that loose. Uh. That said,

673
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:41,759
Speaker 1: the pressure of this New Year's there's no way in

674
00:39:41,800 --> 00:39:44,600
Speaker 1: hell I'm going to be out in the streets. Yes, No,

675
00:39:44,760 --> 00:39:47,000
Speaker 1: I need to be in a contain in like a

676
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:51,040
Speaker 1: in a privately held party like I can't be. I

677
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:54,640
Speaker 1: can't be going to some kind of like club or

678
00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:57,359
Speaker 1: event or concert like you know, it needs to be

679
00:39:57,640 --> 00:40:01,560
Speaker 1: a house party or a party hosted by a close friend.

680
00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:05,919
Speaker 1: And yeah, yeah, I can't. It's too much. You can

681
00:40:06,080 --> 00:40:10,840
Speaker 1: smell that. The New Year's Eve desperation is a different smell.

682
00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:14,799
Speaker 1: It is different than normal despertion. It's so oh, it's

683
00:40:14,840 --> 00:40:17,279
Speaker 1: so strong and biting and makes your eyes water and

684
00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:20,080
Speaker 1: it's just out there and I don't want that. Plus

685
00:40:20,440 --> 00:40:23,759
Speaker 1: you know, at toss a little COVID on top of that.

686
00:40:23,840 --> 00:40:29,359
Speaker 1: There's no way, that's just no way. Just everybody attempting

687
00:40:30,320 --> 00:40:38,879
Speaker 1: to connect. Yuck. Yeah, the straightness of New Year's Eve.

688
00:40:39,680 --> 00:40:43,600
Speaker 1: The kiss is very real. Gay people do. We do

689
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:46,560
Speaker 1: it too now, and it's like we would not celebrate

690
00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:48,520
Speaker 1: with like a little peck. I feel like if it

691
00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:50,879
Speaker 1: had been a gay holiday to begin with, there would

692
00:40:50,880 --> 00:40:53,080
Speaker 1: be something a little nastier going out. Well, gay people

693
00:40:53,120 --> 00:40:55,640
Speaker 1: should reclaim it by having to blow each other when

694
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:58,959
Speaker 1: the clock streaks. Well, that's how I know you mean

695
00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:03,439
Speaker 1: it exactly. It's like you're literally in a party that's

696
00:41:03,480 --> 00:41:06,759
Speaker 1: like mixed company, and then the gay men specifically get

697
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:11,160
Speaker 1: on their knees at weelve just blow whoever. I have

698
00:41:11,239 --> 00:41:14,360
Speaker 1: to say, there's something to me so sweet about the

699
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:18,319
Speaker 1: times I have been single and I decided, like with

700
00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:20,000
Speaker 1: a friend that we were going to kiss each other

701
00:41:20,040 --> 00:41:24,879
Speaker 1: at midnight's That is nice, I think. So. I mean

702
00:41:25,040 --> 00:41:28,040
Speaker 1: I've maybe kissed a friend on the cheek or no,

703
00:41:28,160 --> 00:41:30,520
Speaker 1: actually they've kissed me on the cheek, probably because I

704
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:35,680
Speaker 1: looked sad, meaning to you know, I'm like, this is great,

705
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:37,840
Speaker 1: and I'm just in a club watching everybody kiss and

706
00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:43,839
Speaker 1: I'm like, hey, with one noise maker, hooray it's two

707
00:41:43,880 --> 00:41:48,480
Speaker 1: thousand three or whatever. You know, just nightmares all around

708
00:41:48,760 --> 00:41:52,440
Speaker 1: so although bringing in two thousand was fun because you know,

709
00:41:52,600 --> 00:41:56,920
Speaker 1: I really thought the world would end kind of where.

710
00:41:57,440 --> 00:41:59,560
Speaker 1: That's as far as I planned out in my life.

711
00:41:59,680 --> 00:42:03,640
Speaker 1: I don't do like goals. So like when I was

712
00:42:03,680 --> 00:42:06,000
Speaker 1: a kid, one of my mom's friends asked me what

713
00:42:06,080 --> 00:42:07,920
Speaker 1: I wanted to be when I grew up, and I

714
00:42:07,960 --> 00:42:10,080
Speaker 1: just said, I want to live in a one bedroom apartment.

715
00:42:10,640 --> 00:42:13,880
Speaker 1: So honestly, that's it. So whatever I need to do

716
00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:17,239
Speaker 1: to get there, that's what I you know. So, and

717
00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:20,640
Speaker 1: I had done the math in like fifth grade. I

718
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:22,239
Speaker 1: had done the math, and I'm like, oh, I'll be

719
00:42:22,280 --> 00:42:24,319
Speaker 1: twenty eight when the year two thousand hits and then

720
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:25,920
Speaker 1: everything will be over. So let me just make it

721
00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:28,640
Speaker 1: the twenty eight and we're good. So I made and

722
00:42:28,719 --> 00:42:31,239
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm you know, I'm in a studio. That's

723
00:42:31,280 --> 00:42:36,400
Speaker 1: as close to my dream as I wanted, So let's

724
00:42:36,400 --> 00:42:39,960
Speaker 1: go end it fine. I don't need batteries or bottled water.

725
00:42:40,080 --> 00:42:43,560
Speaker 1: And then so I sat there and nothing happened, and

726
00:42:43,640 --> 00:42:45,879
Speaker 1: I went to the clubs I normally went to, which

727
00:42:45,880 --> 00:42:48,239
Speaker 1: happened to be across the street from where I live.

728
00:42:48,440 --> 00:42:51,920
Speaker 1: That's planning, and uh, I went over there about twelve

729
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:53,960
Speaker 1: thirty and they were like, yeah, no one's here, and

730
00:42:54,000 --> 00:42:57,439
Speaker 1: by one everyone was there because I realized they weren't

731
00:42:57,480 --> 00:43:02,759
Speaker 1: going to die, and so that was nice. I think.

732
00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:05,360
Speaker 1: I mean, you are right, and I mean we have

733
00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:08,279
Speaker 1: been chasing the drama of Y two K every New

734
00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:10,920
Speaker 1: Year since then, even down to the fact that we

735
00:43:10,960 --> 00:43:14,120
Speaker 1: still make New Year's glasses with zeros in them. It's like,

736
00:43:14,280 --> 00:43:19,440
Speaker 1: that was You're never gonna get back that excitement of

737
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:23,799
Speaker 1: wearing the glasses that have the three. Yeah, that was

738
00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:25,759
Speaker 1: that was a matter you should have cherished that. I

739
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:30,040
Speaker 1: hope you shaved those glasses everybody, like there's item. And

740
00:43:30,080 --> 00:43:32,560
Speaker 1: then there was a slight excitement in two thousand two

741
00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:39,279
Speaker 1: when you're like, oh, it's an anagram each side and

742
00:43:39,320 --> 00:43:41,839
Speaker 1: then but but that's it. Then people tried to do

743
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:44,400
Speaker 1: it in and it's like, no, it's off center, you

744
00:43:44,440 --> 00:43:47,480
Speaker 1: can't do it. Yeah, it's just not the same. I

745
00:43:47,560 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 1: was excited for in the sense that, like, finally, like

746
00:43:52,640 --> 00:43:55,720
Speaker 1: I wanted a decade that like you could explain easily,

747
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:57,759
Speaker 1: like I hate saying the odds, I hate saying like

748
00:43:57,800 --> 00:44:00,600
Speaker 1: the tens. So I was like, give me, finally we

749
00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:04,160
Speaker 1: can refer to the twenties in a real way. That

750
00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:06,960
Speaker 1: was helpful for me, as I don't know why I

751
00:44:07,040 --> 00:44:10,320
Speaker 1: get that the odds does feel weird, the odds feels clunky,

752
00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:12,920
Speaker 1: and I guess we've landed on it, We've committed to it.

753
00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:18,560
Speaker 1: It's still not rights. I'm okay with twenties then is

754
00:44:18,600 --> 00:44:22,080
Speaker 1: confusing because you think of the nineteen twenties. Yeah, but

755
00:44:22,719 --> 00:44:25,080
Speaker 1: that's what that's end up for learning our history. I

756
00:44:25,120 --> 00:44:27,719
Speaker 1: know that's what we get for still being alive. How

757
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:32,480
Speaker 1: dare weight we should have been gone for one years? Yeah?

758
00:44:32,800 --> 00:44:34,279
Speaker 1: Do you know what I was thinking? This year is

759
00:44:34,360 --> 00:44:37,040
Speaker 1: like the first year in a while that I actually

760
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:40,120
Speaker 1: might do New Year's resolutions, which seems so childish and

761
00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:43,280
Speaker 1: I had completely given up on any idea of doing

762
00:44:43,360 --> 00:44:46,200
Speaker 1: something like that, But for some reason it feels like

763
00:44:46,280 --> 00:44:48,600
Speaker 1: this is I don't know if I feel a sense

764
00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:52,960
Speaker 1: of slight optimism. So are you going to do things

765
00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:56,160
Speaker 1: that you have to actually work towards or are you

766
00:44:56,239 --> 00:45:02,920
Speaker 1: going to do like real loose loosely where it's like no,

767
00:45:03,040 --> 00:45:05,480
Speaker 1: I think like things I'm going to work towards. I

768
00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:09,040
Speaker 1: haven't decided on them yet, but I think my reaction

769
00:45:09,120 --> 00:45:13,880
Speaker 1: against the kind of like hustle culture has been to

770
00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:17,920
Speaker 1: not test, meant to like not make any goals and plans,

771
00:45:18,080 --> 00:45:20,240
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, maybe I can meet in the middle,

772
00:45:20,760 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 1: like you know what I mean, Yeah, I get you.

773
00:45:23,840 --> 00:45:26,040
Speaker 1: I I have things that I want to work on

774
00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:28,919
Speaker 1: on post It's in my room. Yes see, I don't

775
00:45:28,920 --> 00:45:32,960
Speaker 1: even have that, like I I just don't. That's it.

776
00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:36,279
Speaker 1: I mean, I had to. It's been recently that I've

777
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:40,239
Speaker 1: made myself start doing that because before I was just like,

778
00:45:40,280 --> 00:45:43,080
Speaker 1: I'll do whatever comes at me. And then at some

779
00:45:43,160 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 1: point I'm like, I don't know if I like what's

780
00:45:45,160 --> 00:45:48,160
Speaker 1: coming at me. I feel like if maybe I made

781
00:45:48,160 --> 00:45:52,560
Speaker 1: some changes or really plan things out, better stuff would

782
00:45:52,560 --> 00:45:56,279
Speaker 1: come at me. So what what are those things? And

783
00:45:56,280 --> 00:45:58,200
Speaker 1: then I just wrote them on post it and just

784
00:45:58,239 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 1: stuck them on the back of my door are And

785
00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:05,120
Speaker 1: now that's what my guiding that's my beacon, I guess,

786
00:46:07,000 --> 00:46:11,800
Speaker 1: haphazard post it's. I love New Year's resolutions. I feel

787
00:46:11,840 --> 00:46:14,799
Speaker 1: like such a nerd. Um. I feel like, you know,

788
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:19,200
Speaker 1: normally George is the the nerd and I'm sort of

789
00:46:19,239 --> 00:46:23,400
Speaker 1: this carefree, um, just lovely person. You say that, but

790
00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:27,239
Speaker 1: I literally think you are more more, much more organized

791
00:46:27,440 --> 00:46:31,839
Speaker 1: in terms of like career stuff than I am. I

792
00:46:31,880 --> 00:46:36,160
Speaker 1: think I'm very much feeling right now like oh I

793
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:40,759
Speaker 1: I I am ah, I do do hustle culture a

794
00:46:40,840 --> 00:46:42,719
Speaker 1: little bit like not that I'm proud of it, and

795
00:46:42,760 --> 00:46:44,719
Speaker 1: I don't think of it like that. I think for me,

796
00:46:44,760 --> 00:46:48,640
Speaker 1: it's more self help culture. Like I kind of love that.

797
00:46:48,840 --> 00:46:52,000
Speaker 1: Like I feel like I read like some book when

798
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:54,320
Speaker 1: I was like in high school that was assigned to

799
00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:57,640
Speaker 1: me that was about like achieving goals, and it like

800
00:46:58,400 --> 00:47:02,040
Speaker 1: has been burned into my brain, like I love making lists.

801
00:47:02,080 --> 00:47:06,359
Speaker 1: I love like setting like routines that I have to

802
00:47:06,480 --> 00:47:10,719
Speaker 1: keep up with um and I feel I feel this

803
00:47:10,800 --> 00:47:14,320
Speaker 1: is unrelatable. I feel this is not fun to hear about,

804
00:47:14,440 --> 00:47:17,960
Speaker 1: and I feel it's revealing the dark side. No, no no, no,

805
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:20,120
Speaker 1: here's what I'll say. I like I used to be

806
00:47:20,280 --> 00:47:22,480
Speaker 1: like that, or I used to attempt to be like

807
00:47:22,560 --> 00:47:25,400
Speaker 1: that when I keep okay, I'm like now psychoanalyst myself.

808
00:47:25,440 --> 00:47:28,279
Speaker 1: I feel like the thing the thing is that like

809
00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:31,359
Speaker 1: every time I have attempted to make goals, make a list,

810
00:47:31,440 --> 00:47:33,279
Speaker 1: make it to do list, make a weekly plan, make

811
00:47:33,320 --> 00:47:38,120
Speaker 1: a five year plan, inevitably you don't actually accomplish everything

812
00:47:38,400 --> 00:47:41,360
Speaker 1: as you think you're going to and I think subconsciously

813
00:47:41,560 --> 00:47:44,280
Speaker 1: I kind of decided, like my way of avoiding failure

814
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:47,719
Speaker 1: is not setting those goals in the first place. Do

815
00:47:47,719 --> 00:47:50,440
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? So I'm just like, okay, well, I'll,

816
00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:53,560
Speaker 1: as literally was said, like the things that come to

817
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:57,600
Speaker 1: me I deal with. But if I'm not setting a

818
00:47:57,640 --> 00:47:59,880
Speaker 1: standard for myself and I can never fail to live up,

819
00:48:00,280 --> 00:48:02,600
Speaker 1: it's a lot of that. I actually admire that you're

820
00:48:02,640 --> 00:48:07,680
Speaker 1: able to uh make list, Sam and like think of things,

821
00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:11,040
Speaker 1: and uh, you know, you should feel very lucky that

822
00:48:11,040 --> 00:48:13,400
Speaker 1: that book fell into your lap at the right time,

823
00:48:13,800 --> 00:48:16,000
Speaker 1: because now it's like, if I were to try and

824
00:48:16,040 --> 00:48:18,359
Speaker 1: read a book about Here's how you, I would be like,

825
00:48:18,400 --> 00:48:21,879
Speaker 1: what is this bullshit? I'm not doing this, you know

826
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:25,520
Speaker 1: I'm too. It's two died in the wool for me,

827
00:48:25,920 --> 00:48:30,640
Speaker 1: and I wanna I'm trying to break out in ways

828
00:48:30,719 --> 00:48:34,239
Speaker 1: that to me feel unconventional because the whole idea of

829
00:48:34,239 --> 00:48:37,600
Speaker 1: it feels wild to me. But then when I go

830
00:48:37,880 --> 00:48:43,960
Speaker 1: and look at what the suggestions are, I'm like, oh,

831
00:48:44,239 --> 00:48:47,000
Speaker 1: I'm not this isn't wild. I'm not like breaking the

832
00:48:47,040 --> 00:48:50,000
Speaker 1: mold of how to get organized. This is literally what

833
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:53,080
Speaker 1: it says to do. I just never looked at it before.

834
00:48:53,560 --> 00:48:56,600
Speaker 1: And I'm out here thinking I'm a visionary and yeah, no,

835
00:48:56,760 --> 00:49:00,279
Speaker 1: getting a journal is not that's not visionary ship shill. Well,

836
00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:05,359
Speaker 1: that's like I one time. I mean I still I mean,

837
00:49:05,520 --> 00:49:07,520
Speaker 1: this was not that long ago, so of course I

838
00:49:07,560 --> 00:49:09,720
Speaker 1: still remembered. It was like a month ago. But once

839
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:12,040
Speaker 1: I was like in a really bad mood and I

840
00:49:12,080 --> 00:49:14,400
Speaker 1: was talking to Sam on air about it, and Sam

841
00:49:14,520 --> 00:49:16,960
Speaker 1: was like, very matter of fact, it was just like, okay,

842
00:49:17,000 --> 00:49:21,200
Speaker 1: what is your exercise and journaling regimen? And I was

843
00:49:21,239 --> 00:49:24,520
Speaker 1: like whoa. I was not ready to be called out

844
00:49:24,600 --> 00:49:30,799
Speaker 1: like this, like I'm just depressed because I'm sad, But

845
00:49:30,880 --> 00:49:33,359
Speaker 1: it really was like I was like, oh, yeah, like

846
00:49:33,960 --> 00:49:37,720
Speaker 1: there literally are things you can do. Yeah, there's little things,

847
00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:40,560
Speaker 1: and they've been the same things for generations, and we

848
00:49:40,680 --> 00:49:46,880
Speaker 1: never we I literally never listened. I after not exercising

849
00:49:46,920 --> 00:49:50,560
Speaker 1: for truly months, exercise twice last week, immediately felt better

850
00:49:51,200 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 1: and then have not exercise since Wednesday and now feel

851
00:49:54,120 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: bad again. And I'm like, I wonder what it is. Yeah,

852
00:49:57,200 --> 00:50:01,000
Speaker 1: I'll say that to my roommate who really bonds well

853
00:50:01,080 --> 00:50:03,080
Speaker 1: to exercise, and he won't for a little while and

854
00:50:03,120 --> 00:50:05,319
Speaker 1: I'm like, have you gone out and done your little thing?

855
00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:07,680
Speaker 1: And he's like, I don't know. Maybe I'll do it,

856
00:50:07,680 --> 00:50:09,120
Speaker 1: and I don't know if I feel like it. And

857
00:50:09,120 --> 00:50:12,960
Speaker 1: I really coaxed him into doing whatever. And then he

858
00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:14,840
Speaker 1: comes back and he's like I feel great, and I'm like,

859
00:50:14,880 --> 00:50:17,520
Speaker 1: that's great. I think I have diabetes, and it's like,

860
00:50:19,320 --> 00:50:20,960
Speaker 1: why do you think that? Because you just ate a

861
00:50:20,960 --> 00:50:24,799
Speaker 1: whole sleeve of cookies. Maybe, like I can see it

862
00:50:24,840 --> 00:50:27,160
Speaker 1: in him, but somehow in front of me, I'm like,

863
00:50:27,280 --> 00:50:31,319
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know completely. I am I

864
00:50:31,400 --> 00:50:35,080
Speaker 1: give great advice, such great advice, just not to myself,

865
00:50:35,120 --> 00:50:37,120
Speaker 1: like I'm yeah, I would say that as one of

866
00:50:37,120 --> 00:50:42,120
Speaker 1: my spas. Yeah, I think I'm the same way. I

867
00:50:42,239 --> 00:50:47,760
Speaker 1: definitely still I'll hit my little spiral. Why not. Sometimes

868
00:50:47,760 --> 00:50:49,600
Speaker 1: you've got to do it just to see like that

869
00:50:49,719 --> 00:50:53,319
Speaker 1: you still can enter such a low point. There's something

870
00:50:53,360 --> 00:50:55,759
Speaker 1: exciting about being like, yeah, I can be like an

871
00:50:55,760 --> 00:50:59,480
Speaker 1: angsty teen whenever I want. Yeah, this week I was

872
00:50:59,520 --> 00:51:01,600
Speaker 1: in it was like Wednesday, I was in like a

873
00:51:01,640 --> 00:51:05,120
Speaker 1: horrific mood and had to like finish something by like eleven,

874
00:51:05,520 --> 00:51:07,560
Speaker 1: and I was like, I'm just gonna be in a

875
00:51:07,600 --> 00:51:10,360
Speaker 1: bad mood for like three more hours and then I'll start,

876
00:51:10,760 --> 00:51:13,080
Speaker 1: and it like kind of helped, like just to be like, Okay,

877
00:51:13,080 --> 00:51:17,680
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna be horrible to myself and then I'll stop. Yeah,

878
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:19,439
Speaker 1: I will put on a song that I know will

879
00:51:19,480 --> 00:51:23,080
Speaker 1: make me cry because I need that cry in order

880
00:51:23,120 --> 00:51:25,680
Speaker 1: to get out whatever it is that is bothering me.

881
00:51:25,840 --> 00:51:27,880
Speaker 1: And then I literally could just be there weeping and

882
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:33,040
Speaker 1: then go and I'm done, turn off, and then let

883
00:51:33,120 --> 00:51:35,239
Speaker 1: me just do this thing, because now I'm starting to

884
00:51:35,520 --> 00:51:37,799
Speaker 1: If I were watching this on TV, I'd be like,

885
00:51:37,840 --> 00:51:39,719
Speaker 1: why didn't that bitch just stand up and do blah

886
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:42,719
Speaker 1: blah blah. Yeah, So I have to like be the

887
00:51:42,840 --> 00:51:50,000
Speaker 1: voice outside. That's like art directing whatever it is I'm doing. Yeah,

888
00:51:50,000 --> 00:51:53,040
Speaker 1: there's nothing like acting a certain way and then zooming

889
00:51:53,040 --> 00:51:56,040
Speaker 1: out and being like wow, if a character on television

890
00:51:56,080 --> 00:51:59,520
Speaker 1: was doing this, I would think it was like completely

891
00:52:01,760 --> 00:52:03,840
Speaker 1: you know, one of the one of the bad seasons

892
00:52:03,840 --> 00:52:06,840
Speaker 1: of Girls. Yeah, because I won't give up on a

893
00:52:06,880 --> 00:52:09,000
Speaker 1: show if I don't care what happens to the characters

894
00:52:09,000 --> 00:52:11,640
Speaker 1: and never go back to it. Yeah. Um, and so

895
00:52:11,719 --> 00:52:14,560
Speaker 1: I'm just trying to not give up on whatever show

896
00:52:14,600 --> 00:52:17,320
Speaker 1: it is. That I think I'm the make character. Wow,

897
00:52:17,360 --> 00:52:20,320
Speaker 1: that's honestly really profound. I mean, I think we're really

898
00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 1: tapping in. This is a Katie Perry thing. You have

899
00:52:23,200 --> 00:52:26,480
Speaker 1: to like imagine it's a performance. You have to remember

900
00:52:26,520 --> 00:52:29,920
Speaker 1: the performance of life. That's that is. That's honestly like

901
00:52:29,920 --> 00:52:34,960
Speaker 1: a good point. There is we put We really do,

902
00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:37,200
Speaker 1: but so much attention on like our internal lives and

903
00:52:37,200 --> 00:52:39,279
Speaker 1: you have to remember, like this is a performance and

904
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:41,560
Speaker 1: you have to hit your mark and you just need to.

905
00:52:41,840 --> 00:52:46,560
Speaker 1: If you hit your mark, like everything else will follow. Right. Wow,

906
00:52:46,960 --> 00:52:49,399
Speaker 1: we're all trying to be method actors, like we're trying

907
00:52:49,440 --> 00:52:51,480
Speaker 1: to be Jeremy Strong, but we actually need to just

908
00:52:51,520 --> 00:52:57,920
Speaker 1: be Yeah, that's it, that's all it takes. Wow. I

909
00:52:57,920 --> 00:53:00,480
Speaker 1: don't think we've gotten into so many sites in an

910
00:53:00,480 --> 00:53:02,920
Speaker 1: episode in this little time, and this is this is

911
00:53:02,960 --> 00:53:06,120
Speaker 1: like more emotional than we normally go and I kind

912
00:53:06,120 --> 00:53:08,560
Speaker 1: of like it. I know, you know, it's because we

913
00:53:08,640 --> 00:53:13,440
Speaker 1: put ourselves in the New Year's We're thinking of beginnings

914
00:53:13,800 --> 00:53:18,480
Speaker 1: and what has come before and we're just like what now. Also,

915
00:53:18,960 --> 00:53:22,400
Speaker 1: the week between Christmas and New Year's is such a

916
00:53:22,600 --> 00:53:27,520
Speaker 1: no man's like you don't know, everyone's just moving through pudding.

917
00:53:27,680 --> 00:53:31,240
Speaker 1: Nobody knows what they're doing. And I think that also

918
00:53:31,400 --> 00:53:34,520
Speaker 1: adds to the fraud nature of New Year's because you're

919
00:53:35,000 --> 00:53:38,600
Speaker 1: wrapping it all up and it and even no matter

920
00:53:38,640 --> 00:53:40,920
Speaker 1: how the year is, that final week is just like

921
00:53:41,040 --> 00:53:45,000
Speaker 1: I don't know anything anymore, So I better kiss someone

922
00:53:45,160 --> 00:53:50,680
Speaker 1: and it's a clarity kiss. It's what your look with

923
00:53:50,800 --> 00:53:54,880
Speaker 1: what New Year's is. Totally Yes, I that week is

924
00:53:54,920 --> 00:53:59,000
Speaker 1: my favorite. This this week we're currently in it. It's

925
00:53:59,040 --> 00:54:01,600
Speaker 1: my favorite time of the year by far, Like the

926
00:54:02,000 --> 00:54:05,640
Speaker 1: it's the only time when everyone is like jobs don't matter,

927
00:54:06,280 --> 00:54:10,520
Speaker 1: Like nothing matters, no, no appointments matter. Everything is like

928
00:54:10,719 --> 00:54:14,160
Speaker 1: optional in a way that is so fun. It's the

929
00:54:14,200 --> 00:54:19,240
Speaker 1: spring break of the years. Um, I really enjoy it,

930
00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:22,399
Speaker 1: Like it's the only time I'll actually like feel like

931
00:54:22,680 --> 00:54:24,839
Speaker 1: I can have a full day of recreation and not

932
00:54:24,840 --> 00:54:27,560
Speaker 1: feel bad about it. Yeah, it's yeah. It just makes

933
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:29,560
Speaker 1: you think, like why can't we just do this like

934
00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:32,520
Speaker 1: four times a year, Like we all need a break,

935
00:54:32,920 --> 00:54:36,200
Speaker 1: Like it's it's not going to like tank the economy

936
00:54:36,239 --> 00:54:41,239
Speaker 1: if we just allow ourselves some vacation. Yeah, and and

937
00:54:41,239 --> 00:54:44,920
Speaker 1: and and that's that's the thing, is that everyone is

938
00:54:45,000 --> 00:54:47,920
Speaker 1: on the same page, whereas like no matter what you else,

939
00:54:47,960 --> 00:54:49,440
Speaker 1: you do, like, yes, you can take a vacation, you

940
00:54:49,480 --> 00:54:51,160
Speaker 1: can take time off, you can go on a trip,

941
00:54:51,480 --> 00:54:53,279
Speaker 1: but like you are very aware of the fact that

942
00:54:53,320 --> 00:54:56,120
Speaker 1: you're the exception, Like everyone else is still going, going, going,

943
00:54:56,160 --> 00:55:00,719
Speaker 1: and you're like attempting to read on the beach. Yeah, oh,

944
00:55:00,840 --> 00:55:05,680
Speaker 1: attempting to read so many books. So many of books

945
00:55:05,680 --> 00:55:09,840
Speaker 1: have gone places with me, never to be cracked. It

946
00:55:11,160 --> 00:55:14,799
Speaker 1: really is like I've talked about like a lot, but

947
00:55:14,920 --> 00:55:18,560
Speaker 1: like I was truly being good about reading through the pandemic,

948
00:55:18,600 --> 00:55:20,799
Speaker 1: Like I was like, I'm so glad I always have

949
00:55:20,800 --> 00:55:22,560
Speaker 1: a book, like it's giving me sambo. But and then

950
00:55:22,600 --> 00:55:25,240
Speaker 1: a few months ago it just completely stopped and I

951
00:55:25,280 --> 00:55:29,000
Speaker 1: cannot read. And I don't think this hasn't happened to

952
00:55:29,000 --> 00:55:31,640
Speaker 1: me in years, Like I just cannot read more than

953
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:33,799
Speaker 1: three words on it. I get that. Yeah, I had

954
00:55:33,840 --> 00:55:36,360
Speaker 1: to force myself. I ordered a lot of books, so

955
00:55:36,400 --> 00:55:39,040
Speaker 1: I definitely was on top of that. Whenever I'm stressed out,

956
00:55:39,280 --> 00:55:41,560
Speaker 1: apparently I get a book. And so I had a

957
00:55:41,600 --> 00:55:44,319
Speaker 1: lot of books coming here to the house, and I

958
00:55:44,360 --> 00:55:47,359
Speaker 1: think I've finished two of them, and one of them

959
00:55:47,480 --> 00:55:51,040
Speaker 1: was a graphic novel so it counts. That counts, but

960
00:55:52,120 --> 00:55:55,680
Speaker 1: you know, the words are small, so it was harder

961
00:55:55,719 --> 00:55:57,960
Speaker 1: for me to read for my old glasses. So yeah,

962
00:55:58,040 --> 00:56:00,120
Speaker 1: I think it counts, but totally I was just I

963
00:56:00,160 --> 00:56:03,880
Speaker 1: don't understand. I am fully interested in all of these

964
00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:06,960
Speaker 1: I know that, you know, it'll take me a mitche

965
00:56:06,960 --> 00:56:10,120
Speaker 1: So I picked out things that I really want to

966
00:56:10,160 --> 00:56:13,879
Speaker 1: get into, and then i'd open it and I'm just like, oh,

967
00:56:13,920 --> 00:56:17,000
Speaker 1: this is all just wing dings. Just put it down.

968
00:56:17,480 --> 00:56:20,080
Speaker 1: But I'll take it somewhere. I'm going somewhere, I'll take

969
00:56:20,120 --> 00:56:24,200
Speaker 1: it with me. I'll certainly have time there. But I mean,

970
00:56:24,680 --> 00:56:26,719
Speaker 1: how how is it going to compete with you know,

971
00:56:26,880 --> 00:56:31,080
Speaker 1: toy blast on my phone? I can't. And the thing

972
00:56:31,160 --> 00:56:34,640
Speaker 1: is much like exercising and journaling. You do know that

973
00:56:34,680 --> 00:56:37,000
Speaker 1: once you get past that first page or two, it will,

974
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:40,719
Speaker 1: like it help. It makes your brain think slower. It

975
00:56:40,840 --> 00:56:42,440
Speaker 1: like makes you be in the you know, you're in

976
00:56:42,480 --> 00:56:45,319
Speaker 1: the moment where you're forced to think outside yourself, if

977
00:56:45,320 --> 00:56:47,880
Speaker 1: you're forced to use your imagination, like it is objectively

978
00:56:47,880 --> 00:56:52,960
Speaker 1: good for you. And yet and yet for me, it's

979
00:56:52,960 --> 00:56:55,520
Speaker 1: like the problem is starting a book. Once I start,

980
00:56:55,560 --> 00:56:58,520
Speaker 1: I'm going to finish. But like you get scared to

981
00:56:58,560 --> 00:57:00,759
Speaker 1: start because then I know i'll put shown myself and

982
00:57:00,800 --> 00:57:02,879
Speaker 1: never like I'll be like, oh, I have to finish now.

983
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:04,840
Speaker 1: And so every time I have a free moment, I'm like,

984
00:57:04,840 --> 00:57:07,359
Speaker 1: well I should be I should probably finish that, And

985
00:57:07,400 --> 00:57:10,520
Speaker 1: it's like I don't like that feeling. Yeah. I've had

986
00:57:10,560 --> 00:57:13,319
Speaker 1: a few false starts where I've read a chapter and

987
00:57:13,320 --> 00:57:15,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, I didn't retain any of that. I guess

988
00:57:15,680 --> 00:57:20,280
Speaker 1: I start again. Yes, I'm gonna put this down today.

989
00:57:20,320 --> 00:57:22,280
Speaker 1: I'll pick it up in two days and I'll read

990
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:25,640
Speaker 1: that chapter again and see if it makes sense then

991
00:57:26,120 --> 00:57:28,720
Speaker 1: and something and and sometimes it does. It'll click and

992
00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:31,240
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, I'm in it now, what's great, let's

993
00:57:31,240 --> 00:57:37,280
Speaker 1: go Yeah. Wow, I'm like, okay, this has been insane.

994
00:57:37,560 --> 00:57:45,680
Speaker 1: We we have like unpacked like our feelings towards Yeah.

995
00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:48,160
Speaker 1: I also think a big lesson from this episode is

996
00:57:48,200 --> 00:57:52,720
Speaker 1: like embrace the obvious. Yeah, like you know what you

997
00:57:52,840 --> 00:57:57,960
Speaker 1: need to just go ahead and do it. Put it. Yeah,

998
00:57:58,040 --> 00:58:00,320
Speaker 1: whatever it is that you need to do to your

999
00:58:00,320 --> 00:58:05,479
Speaker 1: brain into it, do that. Just know that. I mean, look,

1000
00:58:05,680 --> 00:58:10,560
Speaker 1: stereotypes are stereotypes for a reason. Not all cliches are bad.

1001
00:58:10,680 --> 00:58:13,240
Speaker 1: Whichever one. However, you want to write that in cursive

1002
00:58:13,920 --> 00:58:17,680
Speaker 1: on a piece of you know whatever type of a

1003
00:58:17,720 --> 00:58:20,640
Speaker 1: post it note, put on the back of an envelope,

1004
00:58:21,240 --> 00:58:24,120
Speaker 1: on a magnet on your fridge, however, it will really

1005
00:58:24,160 --> 00:58:27,920
Speaker 1: sink in catched on the wine glass and you kind

1006
00:58:27,960 --> 00:58:32,640
Speaker 1: of realize, like, you know, the people that know, like,

1007
00:58:32,680 --> 00:58:36,240
Speaker 1: the people that are happiest are the people. It's not

1008
00:58:36,280 --> 00:58:38,120
Speaker 1: that they have some secret sauce. It's the people that

1009
00:58:38,160 --> 00:58:40,600
Speaker 1: are doing all the basic things you have to do.

1010
00:58:40,800 --> 00:58:44,120
Speaker 1: Any anguish artists that you see is just trying not

1011
00:58:44,200 --> 00:58:47,240
Speaker 1: to do what they think is sellout ship. It's not

1012
00:58:47,320 --> 00:58:52,840
Speaker 1: sellout ship. It's what we all have to do to survive. God,

1013
00:58:52,880 --> 00:58:56,000
Speaker 1: here's to it. Imagine I'm holding a New Year's Eve

1014
00:58:56,040 --> 00:59:03,479
Speaker 1: SI and I am as well, New Year, New Us.

1015
00:59:04,440 --> 00:59:05,640
Speaker 1: You know what I'm going to do in the New Year?

1016
00:59:06,120 --> 00:59:10,760
Speaker 1: What I really want to find a gym with a

1017
00:59:10,800 --> 00:59:15,440
Speaker 1: pool and I want to swim. Okay, Okay, I love that.

1018
00:59:15,440 --> 00:59:20,960
Speaker 1: That's my goal. That's nice. What are you guys goals? Wow?

1019
00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:25,760
Speaker 1: Are we really doing well? I mean, by by the

1020
00:59:25,760 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 1: time this airs, I will have because part of my

1021
00:59:28,120 --> 00:59:30,640
Speaker 1: plan when I am going home for Christmas, I'm going

1022
00:59:30,640 --> 00:59:32,560
Speaker 1: home for two full weeks, and truly part of my

1023
00:59:32,600 --> 00:59:36,080
Speaker 1: plan was to like dedicate time to think about this

1024
00:59:37,240 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 1: for the first time in years. But I'm more than

1025
00:59:39,440 --> 00:59:44,120
Speaker 1: happy to come up with something on the fly. Um,

1026
00:59:44,640 --> 00:59:47,480
Speaker 1: what are your what are your goals? Oh? My goals

1027
00:59:47,480 --> 00:59:55,880
Speaker 1: are are broad getting into granular so good mental health? Right,

1028
00:59:55,960 --> 00:59:58,560
Speaker 1: it is very broad. But now what do I have

1029
00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:01,520
Speaker 1: to do for that? Well? I have I have an

1030
01:00:01,520 --> 01:00:04,200
Speaker 1: inkling that I may have the adult d h D.

1031
01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:07,360
Speaker 1: Let's see if that's true. I'm gonna see what I

1032
01:00:07,360 --> 01:00:10,120
Speaker 1: gotta do to check that out. I'm gonna try to

1033
01:00:10,360 --> 01:00:13,080
Speaker 1: good physical health. I'm gonna try to I'm not doing

1034
01:00:13,160 --> 01:00:17,600
Speaker 1: something like lose such and such number of pounds because

1035
01:00:17,680 --> 01:00:20,320
Speaker 1: that doesn't matter. I would like to see what's going

1036
01:00:20,360 --> 01:00:24,200
Speaker 1: on with my teeth though. I want to do that too.

1037
01:00:24,280 --> 01:00:26,240
Speaker 1: I haven't been to a dentist in like eight years.

1038
01:00:26,520 --> 01:00:29,360
Speaker 1: Me too. I actually just tald this is so humiliating,

1039
01:00:29,360 --> 01:00:31,640
Speaker 1: but I literally just told my mom to book me

1040
01:00:31,680 --> 01:00:33,960
Speaker 1: an appointment when I visit home. I mean that's great

1041
01:00:34,240 --> 01:00:39,960
Speaker 1: because I have not gotte in you. Yeah yeah, um,

1042
01:00:40,440 --> 01:00:46,000
Speaker 1: And then I just um, oh, this is wild. Um

1043
01:00:46,480 --> 01:00:51,840
Speaker 1: create a home And by that I mean Um, I

1044
01:00:51,920 --> 01:00:55,200
Speaker 1: don't feel fully at home in New York, even though

1045
01:00:55,240 --> 01:00:58,040
Speaker 1: I've been here eight something years, even though I was

1046
01:00:58,160 --> 01:01:03,600
Speaker 1: born here. Um, but I don't feel necessarily at home

1047
01:01:03,800 --> 01:01:08,040
Speaker 1: in Atlanta, which is where I grew up, because of

1048
01:01:08,600 --> 01:01:12,360
Speaker 1: my parents passed away and with them went the idea

1049
01:01:12,440 --> 01:01:15,600
Speaker 1: of home like you can always, you know, go to

1050
01:01:15,880 --> 01:01:19,720
Speaker 1: whatever that home is. So I am now at a

1051
01:01:19,720 --> 01:01:23,480
Speaker 1: point where I'm like, I need to decide what home

1052
01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:28,280
Speaker 1: is for me and make that happen. And uh, yeah,

1053
01:01:28,360 --> 01:01:34,040
Speaker 1: so that's what I'm that's the main goal of I

1054
01:01:34,080 --> 01:01:36,080
Speaker 1: love that. I love that too. I think making a

1055
01:01:36,120 --> 01:01:39,880
Speaker 1: home is I I feel that way so much because

1056
01:01:39,920 --> 01:01:43,200
Speaker 1: we like moved around when I was young and there's

1057
01:01:43,240 --> 01:01:45,640
Speaker 1: no one place I consider home. And then even as

1058
01:01:45,640 --> 01:01:48,280
Speaker 1: an adult, I've never lived in an apartment for longer

1059
01:01:48,320 --> 01:01:52,560
Speaker 1: than two years ever, And there's almost like a defensiveness

1060
01:01:52,600 --> 01:01:56,640
Speaker 1: where you're like, well, I'm a nomad, right, yeah, Like

1061
01:01:57,080 --> 01:02:05,360
Speaker 1: I of course I don't have you know, furniture. Um yeah,

1062
01:02:05,960 --> 01:02:08,240
Speaker 1: is it my turn? Yeah, George, you actually have to

1063
01:02:08,280 --> 01:02:13,040
Speaker 1: go Okay fine? Um. I would say a very large,

1064
01:02:13,520 --> 01:02:15,720
Speaker 1: big picture thing I would want is to kind of

1065
01:02:15,720 --> 01:02:20,400
Speaker 1: feel more in control of my day to day life,

1066
01:02:21,240 --> 01:02:24,000
Speaker 1: meaning like kind of what we were talking about before,

1067
01:02:24,000 --> 01:02:27,680
Speaker 1: about like setting the terms yourself rather than waiting to

1068
01:02:27,680 --> 01:02:30,200
Speaker 1: react to things that happened to you. Like I feel like,

1069
01:02:30,520 --> 01:02:32,320
Speaker 1: just on a micro level, I would like to have

1070
01:02:32,640 --> 01:02:34,520
Speaker 1: a good morning routine, and I would like to have

1071
01:02:34,560 --> 01:02:37,439
Speaker 1: a good post work routine. I would like to at

1072
01:02:37,480 --> 01:02:39,960
Speaker 1: work decide what I'm working on rather than kind of

1073
01:02:40,000 --> 01:02:42,040
Speaker 1: like base it on whatever email I'm getting in the

1074
01:02:42,080 --> 01:02:45,240
Speaker 1: moment whatever. So I think like being more in control.

1075
01:02:45,320 --> 01:02:48,680
Speaker 1: I think another thing that I would like is to

1076
01:02:49,920 --> 01:02:54,479
Speaker 1: kind of like reinvest to to be very mindful about

1077
01:02:54,480 --> 01:02:58,000
Speaker 1: my relationships with other people, and to like invest in

1078
01:02:58,280 --> 01:03:01,760
Speaker 1: maintaining correspondences with people that are not in my daily life,

1079
01:03:01,960 --> 01:03:06,439
Speaker 1: or calling my grandparents more like you know, I feel

1080
01:03:06,480 --> 01:03:10,800
Speaker 1: like I some I create this narrative where it's like, oh,

1081
01:03:10,840 --> 01:03:13,400
Speaker 1: it's classic me to not respond to a text because

1082
01:03:13,400 --> 01:03:15,640
Speaker 1: I'm busy. It's you know, like, yeah, I'm not I

1083
01:03:15,720 --> 01:03:19,640
Speaker 1: forgot to call someone on a holiday or something like

1084
01:03:19,720 --> 01:03:22,320
Speaker 1: oh god, And then I'll like email them a week

1085
01:03:22,400 --> 01:03:24,880
Speaker 1: later and be like, oh, I'm so stupid for forgetting.

1086
01:03:24,960 --> 01:03:27,640
Speaker 1: And it's like, well, maybe I'm old enough that I

1087
01:03:27,680 --> 01:03:30,440
Speaker 1: can be expected to remember to call everyone on their

1088
01:03:30,480 --> 01:03:34,760
Speaker 1: birthday and you know, maybe like send someone a congratulatory

1089
01:03:34,800 --> 01:03:36,920
Speaker 1: email when they have a baby, or getting your job

1090
01:03:37,320 --> 01:03:39,800
Speaker 1: or like, you know, do these things that feel like

1091
01:03:39,920 --> 01:03:42,160
Speaker 1: what how adults are supposed to communicate with one another

1092
01:03:42,320 --> 01:03:45,640
Speaker 1: rather than just like maintain a series of like on

1093
01:03:45,760 --> 01:03:51,880
Speaker 1: and off text thread relationships. Yeah, that's really like and

1094
01:03:51,960 --> 01:03:57,640
Speaker 1: that that'll take you a year. That'll be tough. But

1095
01:03:57,680 --> 01:04:01,480
Speaker 1: like this is so basic, truly, But like one thing

1096
01:04:01,600 --> 01:04:04,240
Speaker 1: is like I would like for the entire year, every

1097
01:04:04,280 --> 01:04:08,440
Speaker 1: day to log into Facebook that day, see whose birthday

1098
01:04:08,440 --> 01:04:10,480
Speaker 1: it is, and then put those birthdays in my calendar

1099
01:04:10,640 --> 01:04:11,960
Speaker 1: so that by the end of the year I have

1100
01:04:12,040 --> 01:04:15,040
Speaker 1: all important people's birthdays in my calendar and I don't

1101
01:04:15,040 --> 01:04:17,520
Speaker 1: have to depend on like happening on it on social

1102
01:04:17,560 --> 01:04:21,640
Speaker 1: media or forgetting it or whatever. You know, again, small things.

1103
01:04:21,680 --> 01:04:27,360
Speaker 1: That's actually a really good idea. That's very smart, that's great,

1104
01:04:27,840 --> 01:04:30,560
Speaker 1: what a what a wholesome goal? I know. Wow, well

1105
01:04:30,600 --> 01:04:35,320
Speaker 1: this was an unexpected earnest, this bonanza. Truly bring them

1106
01:04:35,320 --> 01:04:37,919
Speaker 1: with me. It's my it's my fault. No, I mean

1107
01:04:37,960 --> 01:04:42,640
Speaker 1: we love it and it's uh and it's important. Yeah, um,

1108
01:04:42,760 --> 01:04:45,640
Speaker 1: I guess we should do our final segment. George, Right, Yeah,

1109
01:04:45,720 --> 01:04:47,480
Speaker 1: let's do it. I'm ready. I mean, why Actually, I'm

1110
01:04:47,480 --> 01:04:49,080
Speaker 1: actually not ready because I don't know what I'm gonna say.

1111
01:04:49,160 --> 01:04:53,120
Speaker 1: But but but I do think it's time, okay. Um. Socially,

1112
01:04:53,120 --> 01:04:55,640
Speaker 1: our final segment, it's called shoutouts, and sort of in

1113
01:04:55,680 --> 01:04:58,880
Speaker 1: a classic homage to the straight tradition of the radio shoutout,

1114
01:04:58,920 --> 01:05:00,520
Speaker 1: we give a shout out to anything that we enjoy.

1115
01:05:00,680 --> 01:05:02,760
Speaker 1: Imagine you know, it's two thousand one, You're at t

1116
01:05:02,880 --> 01:05:04,440
Speaker 1: r L and you're shouting back to your squad back

1117
01:05:04,480 --> 01:05:11,280
Speaker 1: home just about anything you like. What will it be? Yeah,

1118
01:05:11,360 --> 01:05:15,200
Speaker 1: I don't know. Okay, Okay, Okay, I've got it. Okay, okay.

1119
01:05:15,920 --> 01:05:22,480
Speaker 1: Um Uh, what's up everybody who is out there? I

1120
01:05:22,560 --> 01:05:26,280
Speaker 1: want to give a huge shout out to um, the

1121
01:05:26,320 --> 01:05:31,400
Speaker 1: ocean and aquatic life. I um something about water. I'm

1122
01:05:31,400 --> 01:05:34,880
Speaker 1: starting to feel and not to be too um Dare

1123
01:05:34,880 --> 01:05:36,840
Speaker 1: I say, like religious? Is that the word I'm thinking of?

1124
01:05:37,200 --> 01:05:42,240
Speaker 1: But like I I'm feeling spiritual towards water recently in

1125
01:05:42,360 --> 01:05:45,280
Speaker 1: the way that I can't quite describe. Um. I think

1126
01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:50,280
Speaker 1: like I'm so calmed by the ocean. I'm so um

1127
01:05:50,360 --> 01:05:53,479
Speaker 1: drawn to water. I can like literally just like, look

1128
01:05:53,520 --> 01:05:56,960
Speaker 1: at like videos of whales, and that like will do

1129
01:05:57,040 --> 01:05:59,280
Speaker 1: so much for me. I don't know what is wrong

1130
01:05:59,360 --> 01:06:02,520
Speaker 1: with me, but it is working. And I think my

1131
01:06:02,840 --> 01:06:06,160
Speaker 1: like Instagram has figured this out and they keep showing

1132
01:06:06,160 --> 01:06:09,480
Speaker 1: me aquatic animals and I'm loving it. I cannot skip

1133
01:06:09,520 --> 01:06:14,080
Speaker 1: a single video. Um And yeah, the ocean is so

1134
01:06:14,160 --> 01:06:19,240
Speaker 1: full of wonder and water is the ground floor of life.

1135
01:06:19,520 --> 01:06:24,760
Speaker 1: Um so so Sam, Wow, I love that, you know, Sam,

1136
01:06:24,840 --> 01:06:28,720
Speaker 1: I also feel spiritual towards water, always have. Maybe I

1137
01:06:28,720 --> 01:06:32,840
Speaker 1: don't know what it is. It's, um well, it's we're

1138
01:06:32,880 --> 01:06:37,439
Speaker 1: made of it. Guy, Damn, let's start there. Let's start there.

1139
01:06:38,080 --> 01:06:40,160
Speaker 1: Um So, maybe it's actually a narcissist. It's it's a

1140
01:06:40,280 --> 01:06:46,240
Speaker 1: narcissist impulse. Maybe all people are, and we just think

1141
01:06:46,400 --> 01:06:48,959
Speaker 1: I'm not. I don't know how to swim. I'm trying

1142
01:06:48,960 --> 01:06:52,160
Speaker 1: to stay. You don't like, I mean, it seems fine.

1143
01:06:52,840 --> 01:06:55,200
Speaker 1: I guess maybe because you grew you grew up in

1144
01:06:55,240 --> 01:07:00,000
Speaker 1: a very way. But I just like, I I didn't

1145
01:07:01,000 --> 01:07:02,800
Speaker 1: learn how to swim, and I was just like, I

1146
01:07:02,840 --> 01:07:05,320
Speaker 1: guess I'll just arrange my life so that I'm not

1147
01:07:05,400 --> 01:07:08,800
Speaker 1: around water. So it's hilarious that I am in New

1148
01:07:08,880 --> 01:07:12,680
Speaker 1: York and I just ride in tubes underwater all the time,

1149
01:07:12,720 --> 01:07:14,520
Speaker 1: and I'm just like, I just don't think about it.

1150
01:07:14,600 --> 01:07:19,880
Speaker 1: But um, it seems like it's nice. Yeah, I can't

1151
01:07:19,880 --> 01:07:25,720
Speaker 1: get enough of the stuff. Um, I'll go, I'll go. Um,

1152
01:07:25,760 --> 01:07:27,600
Speaker 1: what's up, creaks and losers? I want to give a

1153
01:07:27,680 --> 01:07:30,080
Speaker 1: quick shout out to the private Instagram I have for

1154
01:07:30,160 --> 01:07:33,880
Speaker 1: only following vintage furniture accounts. Let me tell you something.

1155
01:07:34,800 --> 01:07:37,480
Speaker 1: It is such a nice scrolling experience to not see

1156
01:07:37,520 --> 01:07:41,240
Speaker 1: any familiar faces, any unfamiliar faces anyway, is at all

1157
01:07:41,280 --> 01:07:46,720
Speaker 1: really no humans to be seen whatsoever? Um, just slightly

1158
01:07:46,800 --> 01:07:50,760
Speaker 1: dirty furniture that I still somehow can't afford, and yet

1159
01:07:50,920 --> 01:07:53,680
Speaker 1: gives me the opportunity to imagine different lives for myself,

1160
01:07:53,760 --> 01:07:57,800
Speaker 1: to to almost develop taste by kind of deciding what

1161
01:07:57,840 --> 01:08:00,800
Speaker 1: I like and what I don't like in real time. Um,

1162
01:08:00,840 --> 01:08:03,480
Speaker 1: and it's nice to use an app that normally I

1163
01:08:03,520 --> 01:08:09,080
Speaker 1: associate with rolling my eyes aggressively and being angry at

1164
01:08:09,120 --> 01:08:12,800
Speaker 1: everyone involved to kind of reformulate it into something positive.

1165
01:08:12,920 --> 01:08:16,720
Speaker 1: So shout out to the vintage furniture sellers across this

1166
01:08:16,800 --> 01:08:20,000
Speaker 1: great nation that I follow on my private Instagram account.

1167
01:08:20,240 --> 01:08:23,960
Speaker 1: And I hope you're having a great holiday season. That

1168
01:08:24,160 --> 01:08:28,080
Speaker 1: was nice. I gotta I dabble in some of those

1169
01:08:28,240 --> 01:08:34,120
Speaker 1: as well. So yeah, I merged my my. I just

1170
01:08:34,200 --> 01:08:36,840
Speaker 1: followed him on my main Yeah yeah I should. I

1171
01:08:36,880 --> 01:08:39,920
Speaker 1: should probably set up a separate one, but I'll just

1172
01:08:39,960 --> 01:08:45,120
Speaker 1: forget that password. I'll have it linked to completely forget. Okay,

1173
01:08:45,160 --> 01:08:46,760
Speaker 1: So I have to come up with a shout out, right,

1174
01:08:46,840 --> 01:08:50,320
Speaker 1: that's right, Yeah, whenever you're ready? Okay, all right, here

1175
01:08:50,360 --> 01:08:54,400
Speaker 1: we go, Here we go. Uh Hey, what's up y'all?

1176
01:08:54,720 --> 01:09:00,599
Speaker 1: This is k a silky jumbo. Um. I just want

1177
01:09:00,600 --> 01:09:02,639
Speaker 1: to send a shout out to a homie that's been

1178
01:09:02,680 --> 01:09:08,599
Speaker 1: by my side since day one, crayons, because you supply

1179
01:09:08,760 --> 01:09:10,439
Speaker 1: me with the thing I really love, and I want

1180
01:09:10,479 --> 01:09:14,559
Speaker 1: to send the shout out to this colors. I love colors.

1181
01:09:15,160 --> 01:09:20,040
Speaker 1: I love um how being particular about the shades. I

1182
01:09:20,040 --> 01:09:24,200
Speaker 1: I follow Twitter accounts that have nothing but color blocks,

1183
01:09:24,240 --> 01:09:27,200
Speaker 1: like bots that put together color blocks, and I yell

1184
01:09:27,280 --> 01:09:30,880
Speaker 1: at them when they get turquoise wrong. But now I'm thinking,

1185
01:09:31,080 --> 01:09:33,240
Speaker 1: have I've been looking at turquoise wrong? Is there more

1186
01:09:33,320 --> 01:09:35,400
Speaker 1: green in it than blue? I don't think so. I

1187
01:09:35,439 --> 01:09:37,439
Speaker 1: think it's more blue based than green based. When you

1188
01:09:37,479 --> 01:09:40,719
Speaker 1: move more green, it's teals. I'm not big on teal,

1189
01:09:41,000 --> 01:09:43,720
Speaker 1: but everybody keeps calling teal turquoise. You don't even want

1190
01:09:43,720 --> 01:09:47,000
Speaker 1: to know what they're doing with puce. It's wild. It's

1191
01:09:47,040 --> 01:09:49,519
Speaker 1: wild out there, and I love getting worked up about it.

1192
01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:52,840
Speaker 1: And um once my dad showed me a pair of

1193
01:09:53,080 --> 01:09:54,960
Speaker 1: new shoes that he got and he was like, oh,

1194
01:09:54,960 --> 01:09:57,040
Speaker 1: I got these new brown shoes and I'm like, oh,

1195
01:09:57,120 --> 01:09:59,479
Speaker 1: those are like a cordoba and he's like, you are

1196
01:09:59,479 --> 01:10:02,960
Speaker 1: always good with colors, and he's right, so shout out

1197
01:10:03,080 --> 01:10:07,800
Speaker 1: to shut out the colors, shut out the crayons, and

1198
01:10:08,600 --> 01:10:11,479
Speaker 1: we're just spending much more time with you as Coloring

1199
01:10:11,600 --> 01:10:16,160
Speaker 1: is a big stress reliever for me. I can't draw.

1200
01:10:16,320 --> 01:10:19,519
Speaker 1: Let me clarify. I cannot draw, but you can color.

1201
01:10:19,720 --> 01:10:24,559
Speaker 1: I can color, So that's what I do. Wow, beautiful, Wow.

1202
01:10:24,920 --> 01:10:27,240
Speaker 1: I love that I do agree about turquoise and teel.

1203
01:10:27,280 --> 01:10:30,200
Speaker 1: It's weirdly one of those things that like it feels

1204
01:10:30,240 --> 01:10:35,040
Speaker 1: so kind of like silly to write about, and I'm like, no,

1205
01:10:35,080 --> 01:10:38,240
Speaker 1: it's like this is we have words have to mean things,

1206
01:10:38,439 --> 01:10:40,960
Speaker 1: like we can't just decide that this is now turquoise

1207
01:10:40,960 --> 01:10:43,479
Speaker 1: when it's not been turquoise. I know what it was.

1208
01:10:43,840 --> 01:10:45,960
Speaker 1: I know what turquoise is supposed to be. And they're

1209
01:10:45,960 --> 01:10:49,080
Speaker 1: trying to slip teal bias. I'm not buying it. I

1210
01:10:49,160 --> 01:10:52,000
Speaker 1: have a mixed relationship with colors because I'm red green

1211
01:10:52,000 --> 01:10:55,880
Speaker 1: color deficient. So yeah, so it's always been a like

1212
01:10:56,800 --> 01:10:58,720
Speaker 1: it's a place where I can't speak on it. I

1213
01:10:58,760 --> 01:11:01,880
Speaker 1: can never put my input. I had no idea. Yeah,

1214
01:11:01,960 --> 01:11:04,360
Speaker 1: it's like kind of it's mostly subtle. It's just like

1215
01:11:04,600 --> 01:11:08,439
Speaker 1: certain shades look like they round up, if you will.

1216
01:11:08,920 --> 01:11:12,960
Speaker 1: But but it's like, you know, I've always you know,

1217
01:11:13,080 --> 01:11:15,639
Speaker 1: purples have been blue in my mind, and blah blah

1218
01:11:15,680 --> 01:11:20,679
Speaker 1: blah blah blah. Man. Yeah, well, I'll light a candle

1219
01:11:20,760 --> 01:11:25,920
Speaker 1: for you. Same, thank you, thank you. Well. This has

1220
01:11:25,960 --> 01:11:34,400
Speaker 1: been very heartwarming, very wholesome, and honestly a blast from beginning. Dad,

1221
01:11:34,600 --> 01:11:38,799
Speaker 1: thank you. I've had a good time. I'm so pleased.

1222
01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:41,120
Speaker 1: It was really kind of it's this is the last

1223
01:11:41,160 --> 01:11:45,559
Speaker 1: episode of recording this year, and what a way to go.

1224
01:11:46,000 --> 01:11:49,240
Speaker 1: I'm so glad to close out the year with you too. Yeah.

1225
01:11:49,600 --> 01:11:52,599
Speaker 1: It's an honor, it's an honor and a privilege. Well,

1226
01:11:52,680 --> 01:12:01,160
Speaker 1: folks will see you in Happy happy year. The pund

1227
01:12:01,600 --> 01:12:04,960
Speaker 1: in the PopEd, the in the band, the pad of

1228
01:12:05,040 --> 01:12:05,920
Speaker 1: the ink all