WEBVTT - Amy Talks Post-Breakup & Morgan’s Skink Surprise 0:00:00.800 --> 0:00:03.920 The Best Bits of the Week with Morgan, Part one 0:00:04.080 --> 0:00:06.360 Behind a Thing with a member of the show. 0:00:08.520 --> 0:00:11.080 Welcome to the weekend to Amy, joins me. Thanks for 0:00:11.119 --> 0:00:14.040 coming on, Amy, glad to be back. We got some 0:00:14.160 --> 0:00:16.960 things to talk about this weekend. Now, you haven't been 0:00:17.000 --> 0:00:20.439 on Best Bits since you shared the big news, So 0:00:20.520 --> 0:00:21.320 how are you feeling? 0:00:21.800 --> 0:00:28.520 Yeah, I feel okay. I feel better than I I mean, 0:00:28.600 --> 0:00:31.240 time helps with everything, so it has been a little bit. 0:00:32.200 --> 0:00:33.200 So I'm feeling better. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:35.559 And in case anybody miss it, I don't want to 0:00:35.680 --> 0:00:38.440 just say big notes, but nothing but Amy and her 0:00:38.440 --> 0:00:41.040 boyfriend broke up. It's been a couple of weeks since 0:00:41.040 --> 0:00:42.640 you shared, but you haven't been on Best Bits. We 0:00:42.680 --> 0:00:45.360 haven't got to really like have a moment to talk 0:00:45.400 --> 0:00:47.600 about it. But I'm glad you're feeling good and time 0:00:47.840 --> 0:00:48.480 does heal. 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:52.560 Yes, I'm you know, after being with someone for a 0:00:52.680 --> 0:00:55.920 year and a half, it's it just feels different and 0:00:56.000 --> 0:01:00.880 I don't really know what will happen. I'm just trying 0:01:00.920 --> 0:01:06.319 to focus on myself and the kids and have seen 0:01:06.400 --> 0:01:10.200 him and gone to sporting events and we're cordial. Everything 0:01:10.280 --> 0:01:15.600 is good like it was very I don't know the word. 0:01:15.880 --> 0:01:17.280 I think I said on the show, like it was 0:01:17.319 --> 0:01:18.600 just a really healthy breakup. 0:01:19.240 --> 0:01:22.039 Are you feeling like what kind of things are you 0:01:22.440 --> 0:01:26.400 feeling now? Because obviously you had your divorce, you healed, 0:01:26.440 --> 0:01:29.120 you went through that whole process. Then you get in 0:01:29.120 --> 0:01:32.520 a relationship and now you're having this breakup, Like is there. 0:01:33.280 --> 0:01:35.399 I imagine that a lot of people can relate to 0:01:35.440 --> 0:01:37.480 those feelings. So that's why I want to see if 0:01:37.480 --> 0:01:38.480 you can kind of talk to him. 0:01:38.640 --> 0:01:44.000 Yeah, I mean it's very different than a for the 0:01:44.319 --> 0:01:46.720 the divorce feelings. 0:01:46.400 --> 0:01:49.520 And after putting yourself out there and you're going through that. 0:01:49.960 --> 0:01:53.920 I think thankfully because it was so like I said, 0:01:53.960 --> 0:02:00.720 a healthy breakup and felt peaceful and honest. The whole 0:02:00.920 --> 0:02:04.800 relationship was good for my nervous system. It showed me 0:02:05.000 --> 0:02:08.680 that I can be in relationship. So it gives me hope, 0:02:08.760 --> 0:02:11.720 whether it's with him or somebody else down the line. 0:02:11.760 --> 0:02:16.440 But I'm not I think I was eager for that 0:02:16.520 --> 0:02:19.079 relationship because yeah, I hadn't experienced it before, and now 0:02:19.120 --> 0:02:22.720 that I have, I'm like, Okay, I'm not someone right 0:02:22.760 --> 0:02:25.320 now that is. I can't wait to get in my 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:28.320 next relationship at all. I don't want to rush it. 0:02:28.360 --> 0:02:33.720 I think someone even commented on maybe the Instagram posts 0:02:33.760 --> 0:02:36.240 that went up about our breakup. They're like, how many 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:41.040 dads are these kids going to have? And I was like, okay, what, 0:02:41.639 --> 0:02:44.640 I had a boyfriend, he wasn't their dad. Their dad 0:02:44.720 --> 0:02:47.560 is their dad. I mean, well, technically if they're saying 0:02:47.560 --> 0:02:49.600 that been three because they have their biological dad who 0:02:49.639 --> 0:02:51.360 has never been in their life at all whatsoever. And 0:02:51.360 --> 0:02:53.400 then they have their adopted dad, which is my ex husband, 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:56.640 and he is very much their everyday dad. And then 0:02:56.680 --> 0:02:59.639 their dad has a girlfriend and she plays a role 0:02:59.639 --> 0:03:01.520 in their life. And then I had a boyfriend and 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:04.000 he played a role in their life. And he actually 0:03:04.040 --> 0:03:07.080 still communicates with them and they'll send text or if 0:03:07.080 --> 0:03:13.920 they've got questions. And he ran a lot of track 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:16.120 and has trained like he did track in college and 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:19.320 yes that was a long time ago, but he gets 0:03:19.400 --> 0:03:21.920 the gist of how to train and to run and 0:03:21.960 --> 0:03:23.720 to run fast, like I don't know how to train 0:03:23.800 --> 0:03:26.200 a runner. And yes, Stevenson has track coaches and I 0:03:26.240 --> 0:03:29.760 think someone said, let his dad do that. Okay, well 0:03:31.040 --> 0:03:33.000 his dad is helping him with that, But you have 0:03:33.120 --> 0:03:36.280 someone that track is literally took up a huge chunk 0:03:36.320 --> 0:03:39.440 of their life and they can help. So I love 0:03:39.480 --> 0:03:42.480 that Stevenson can go to him and say, you know, 0:03:42.480 --> 0:03:44.080 do you have any tips for this, or he can 0:03:44.120 --> 0:03:47.040 just take it upon himself to say, don't forget what 0:03:47.080 --> 0:03:49.680 I taught you about doing this when you're running and 0:03:49.720 --> 0:03:51.080 how you pace yourself. 0:03:51.160 --> 0:03:54.960 And I love that you guys are still communicating because 0:03:55.000 --> 0:03:58.160 I also imagine having kids in the mix just adds 0:03:58.200 --> 0:03:59.200 another rash to all of that. 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:00.640 You can't just totally clean. 0:04:00.440 --> 0:04:02.760 Break and say bye never no, And in some people's 0:04:02.760 --> 0:04:05.200 situations they might need to do that. In our situation, 0:04:05.240 --> 0:04:07.240 we didn't, and it was important to us that we 0:04:07.280 --> 0:04:10.760 didn't just disappear out of the kids' lives. And I 0:04:10.880 --> 0:04:13.000 understand that may not be the case for everybody, and 0:04:13.080 --> 0:04:17.760 of course that may have an expiration date if somebody 0:04:17.760 --> 0:04:19.880 else gets into a relationship. I get that, but neither 0:04:19.920 --> 0:04:24.359 one of us are quickly trying to move on. And 0:04:24.480 --> 0:04:25.839 that's just not at the top of my list of 0:04:25.880 --> 0:04:31.680 things to do. And oh, what I was also going 0:04:31.760 --> 0:04:34.560 to say, is we even though they were involved, he 0:04:34.600 --> 0:04:37.719 was involved in my kids' lives, it wasn't everyday stuff 0:04:37.839 --> 0:04:40.600 like nobody was living together. He wasn't taking on a 0:04:40.680 --> 0:04:43.320 dad role. Of course, he would be there for the 0:04:43.400 --> 0:04:46.480 kids if they needed anything, but same thing with his kids. 0:04:47.560 --> 0:04:51.200 I had a I had boundaries at times, like I 0:04:51.279 --> 0:04:55.479 wasn't their mom, and if we advanced in our relationship, 0:04:55.520 --> 0:04:58.880 I might take on more of a role, but I 0:04:58.960 --> 0:05:01.480 tried to respect the fact that I wasn't and at 0:05:01.720 --> 0:05:03.680 the same time, Alex would respect the fact that he's 0:05:03.720 --> 0:05:04.520 not their dad. 0:05:04.880 --> 0:05:06.800 So yeah, well, people. 0:05:06.520 --> 0:05:09.120 On the internet always have a once kewed view of 0:05:09.160 --> 0:05:12.880 a situation versus the entire scope of our relationship. 0:05:12.400 --> 0:05:15.600 Right And I'm not taking my kids around just introducing 0:05:15.640 --> 0:05:17.520 them to random men, like. 0:05:17.680 --> 0:05:19.400 Here's my son. How do you feel about it? 0:05:19.480 --> 0:05:23.240 No? Like so, I mean that part when you have 0:05:23.320 --> 0:05:25.920 kids involved, it definitely is an extra layer that makes 0:05:25.960 --> 0:05:29.599 it challenging. And you know, you want to consider all 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:33.800 everyone's feelings and then as the adults, you have to 0:05:33.800 --> 0:05:35.799 make the one that's best for you, and in that moment, 0:05:35.880 --> 0:05:39.120 that's what was best for us. I don't know what 0:05:39.320 --> 0:05:43.880 time will tell, but uh, I'm being patient and I'm 0:05:45.160 --> 0:05:48.200 open to whatever may happen down the line, but nothing 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:51.279 is I know for certain that that's just not my 0:05:51.360 --> 0:05:53.719 main focus right now at all. And I'm feeling really 0:05:53.760 --> 0:05:54.400 great about that. 0:05:54.880 --> 0:05:56.560 It's a fun place to be in your life when 0:05:56.600 --> 0:05:58.919 it isn't your focus. Yeah, and you get to enjoy 0:05:59.000 --> 0:06:02.280 other parts to it, whether it's your career, whether it's 0:06:02.279 --> 0:06:07.120 being a mom, whether it's just living alone. Yeah, having friendships, 0:06:07.160 --> 0:06:11.000 finding new hobbies. There is a freedom that comes with 0:06:11.080 --> 0:06:13.400 that of just getting to enjoy your own company. 0:06:14.080 --> 0:06:15.400 So maybe you're in. 0:06:15.279 --> 0:06:19.159 That era right now where you're really starting to feel 0:06:19.600 --> 0:06:22.599 comfortable in that solitude. 0:06:22.200 --> 0:06:23.159 Yeah, which is fun. 0:06:23.560 --> 0:06:27.200 Yeah, I don't have a problem in my being alone 0:06:27.279 --> 0:06:30.040 right now. I don't feel lonely. That may not always 0:06:30.040 --> 0:06:33.880 be the case, but right now I'm feeling good. So 0:06:33.920 --> 0:06:38.040 that's where we are, And to anyone else that may 0:06:38.040 --> 0:06:43.400 be in a similar situation, it's not easy, especially after 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:46.040 you've gone through a divorce and then you find somebody 0:06:46.160 --> 0:06:48.520 and it's been a year and a half, so you think, oh, 0:06:48.600 --> 0:06:52.640 this is clearly lou one and we always knew all along. 0:06:53.880 --> 0:06:55.720 We're not going to keep dating if we don't think 0:06:55.760 --> 0:06:57.920 this is going to work because we have other variables. 0:06:58.200 --> 0:07:01.720 Yeah, you're intentionally dating, which also adds more to it. 0:07:01.760 --> 0:07:05.440 When you're fun dating, learning who you are, learning what 0:07:05.520 --> 0:07:08.719 you like there's a different layer of seriousness that comes. 0:07:08.720 --> 0:07:10.400 But at this point in your life with kids and 0:07:10.440 --> 0:07:14.720 there is involvement, and you're older, you understand that, oh, 0:07:14.800 --> 0:07:17.000 this date, I'm not dating you just to have fun, 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:20.280 Like this is not fundies. No, you're dating for an 0:07:20.320 --> 0:07:24.920 intentional reason. So that just makes things a little bit 0:07:24.920 --> 0:07:28.720 more complex than they would be a typical dating situation. 0:07:28.960 --> 0:07:30.760 So that's why I wanted you to speak on it, 0:07:30.760 --> 0:07:34.080 because you have a different perspective. Me talking about my 0:07:34.200 --> 0:07:35.320 dating was so different. 0:07:35.360 --> 0:07:36.360 I had never been married. 0:07:36.400 --> 0:07:39.600 I was again learning who I was, learning what I wanted. 0:07:39.680 --> 0:07:42.520 It was a different type of dating. You're in a 0:07:42.560 --> 0:07:45.200 different part of your life dating and people can relate 0:07:45.240 --> 0:07:45.480 to that. 0:07:45.560 --> 0:07:49.120 Yeah, and I think you may be in a different situation, 0:07:49.840 --> 0:07:52.200 like you might be how I you might be where 0:07:52.240 --> 0:07:54.360 I'm feeling with it, But you might be like one 0:07:54.360 --> 0:07:56.520 of my friends who's also divorced, and she likes to 0:07:56.560 --> 0:07:58.680 go out all the time and she wants to meet guys, 0:07:59.240 --> 0:08:02.160 and she was trying to get me the other weekend 0:08:02.160 --> 0:08:03.760 to go out, and I was like, that's just not 0:08:03.800 --> 0:08:05.480 what I want to go do, and she's like, oh, 0:08:05.520 --> 0:08:07.360 come on, we need to go. I met these guys 0:08:07.400 --> 0:08:08.960 and we can go out with them, And I'm like, 0:08:09.800 --> 0:08:12.880 that's not what I want to do. Are you hearing me? 0:08:14.000 --> 0:08:14.680 This is not for me. 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:17.360 It's not for me. And she's in that season and 0:08:17.400 --> 0:08:20.120 I think that's great and that I may get there, 0:08:20.760 --> 0:08:23.320 but that's just not where I am. And so I 0:08:23.320 --> 0:08:24.080 think we're at. 0:08:23.920 --> 0:08:27.680 This page going out to go and meet people at bars. 0:08:27.880 --> 0:08:29.520 Well, I don't even I don't even know that. I 0:08:29.560 --> 0:08:33.440 would say she's going out to bars. More like there's 0:08:35.960 --> 0:08:38.520 like she's going out with groups of people to like, Oh, 0:08:38.559 --> 0:08:40.079 we're going to go to this dinner. We're going to 0:08:40.160 --> 0:08:41.360 go to the I don't have heard of, like the 0:08:41.360 --> 0:08:44.800 Tornado Room. It's like a small place in leapers Fork 0:08:44.880 --> 0:08:47.920 like it's but she's going with a group and she's like, oh, 0:08:48.000 --> 0:08:49.880 and these three guys they're going to be there. It's 0:08:49.880 --> 0:08:52.120 not like she's going out just to meet guys. But 0:08:52.160 --> 0:08:54.720 she has met people while she's going out, and she 0:08:54.760 --> 0:08:56.640 wants to go out to dinner all the time, and 0:08:56.679 --> 0:08:59.040 she just wants to be out because if you're out, 0:09:00.000 --> 0:09:02.840 it is more of a chance. But it's not like 0:09:02.880 --> 0:09:06.680 she's hitting the bars. I guess I should clarify what 0:09:06.800 --> 0:09:09.840 out in your forties means versus maybe out out younger. 0:09:09.920 --> 0:09:12.000 But oh, I could totally see you doing that then 0:09:12.080 --> 0:09:13.720 the dinners and yeah, but. 0:09:13.640 --> 0:09:17.760 That's not even what I want to do. And I'm 0:09:17.800 --> 0:09:22.160 having to really listen to that and then just understand that, Yeah, 0:09:22.360 --> 0:09:24.160 some of my single friends were going to be in 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:28.440 different phases of single. That's just I guess the best 0:09:28.440 --> 0:09:31.440 way to put it. Yeah, some singles are ready to 0:09:31.480 --> 0:09:35.120 go out and open to meeting. And I saw too 0:09:35.160 --> 0:09:36.959 if you are into that. There was this one. I 0:09:36.960 --> 0:09:38.600 don't know if it was a matchmaker or something, but 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:41.080 you have all these things are showing up on my 0:09:41.160 --> 0:09:44.520 feet because well, my friends have been sending me matchmakers 0:09:45.240 --> 0:09:47.240 in my dms and so it pops up on my 0:09:47.280 --> 0:09:49.920 algorithm now. And she was giving a tip of if 0:09:49.920 --> 0:09:52.520 you want to go out, you need to leave the 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:54.319 house and get out of the car, of like, this 0:09:54.360 --> 0:09:56.240 is going to be the best night ever. I'm going 0:09:56.280 --> 0:09:58.560 to have the best time no matter what it is, 0:09:59.520 --> 0:10:03.720 and that will be more likely to result in you 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:06.040 having a good time in you potentially meeting somebody than 0:10:06.520 --> 0:10:08.320 sort of going out and being like, oh, I'm not 0:10:08.320 --> 0:10:11.720 feeling that great, I'm not that confident like this sucks. 0:10:11.760 --> 0:10:14.080 I hate having to go out to meet people. Like, 0:10:14.120 --> 0:10:18.839 if you enter the evening with that attitude, you're less 0:10:18.920 --> 0:10:21.679 likely to have the energy that's going to draw the 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:24.080 attention of somebody. But if you get out of the 0:10:24.120 --> 0:10:26.760 car and be like, I feel great, even if you're 0:10:26.800 --> 0:10:30.120 playing a little mind game with yourself, you may have 0:10:30.559 --> 0:10:31.480 more success. 0:10:31.920 --> 0:10:34.719 I had a matchmaker come on my podcast, and when 0:10:34.720 --> 0:10:37.080 I was talking to her, she said, date or just 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:40.080 live your life like you're on vacation, because everybody when 0:10:40.120 --> 0:10:41.439 they're on vacation is a different person. 0:10:41.520 --> 0:10:43.640 Right, Well, that's the thing. I just need to, like 0:10:44.240 --> 0:10:47.240 somehow bottle up how I feel on vacation. It comes 0:10:47.280 --> 0:10:50.680 more naturally because when you're on vacation, It's true, I 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:52.720 go out more, I want to go out to eat, 0:10:52.800 --> 0:10:54.000 I want to do all the things. I want to 0:10:54.000 --> 0:10:54.760 get dressed up. 0:10:55.920 --> 0:10:57.640 But when you're home, you don't feel that way. 0:10:57.920 --> 0:10:59.560 So that's why she was like, you have to start 0:10:59.600 --> 0:11:03.080 treating it like you're getting vacation mode back into you. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:05.520 So she described it as that, So maybe that's the 0:11:05.720 --> 0:11:06.720 way you have to It's a. 0:11:06.720 --> 0:11:08.520 Good way to put it, but that's not where I'm 0:11:08.559 --> 0:11:10.720 fine with not being in You're like, I don't want to. 0:11:10.679 --> 0:11:12.040 Be in vacation mode. I want to be on my 0:11:12.040 --> 0:11:14.480 couch enjoying solitude and having fun. 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:16.440 But that it will be a good reminder for me 0:11:16.480 --> 0:11:18.960 to have when I do get the urge to do that, 0:11:19.000 --> 0:11:21.079 because I'm sure that time will come. It's just not 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:23.319 where I am right now. It's not a priority. 0:11:23.360 --> 0:11:25.160 Well, and it's okay. You never get there either, though. 0:11:25.200 --> 0:11:28.040 It's okay. You might meet somebody in a totally. 0:11:27.760 --> 0:11:30.800 Unique way that isn't any of those. That's the coolest 0:11:30.800 --> 0:11:32.520 part about it is we never know how we're going 0:11:32.600 --> 0:11:35.880 to eventually meet that person. Life has a funny way 0:11:35.920 --> 0:11:38.120 of working things out, so you may never have to 0:11:38.200 --> 0:11:41.479 leave your couch. Some people have met people from deliveries 0:11:41.480 --> 0:11:44.200 on their porch or yeah, you never know what you 0:11:44.280 --> 0:11:47.280 might run into. So life happened in funny ways. But 0:11:47.600 --> 0:11:50.360 if you don't, that's okay. Yeah, but I enter it. Well, 0:11:50.360 --> 0:11:52.240 thank you for the update. I needed to know how 0:11:52.280 --> 0:11:54.439 you were headspace, where you were at. We don't get 0:11:54.480 --> 0:11:56.960 to talk a lot of girl chat on the show sometimes, 0:11:56.960 --> 0:11:59.040 so I wanted to check in on you. Thank you, 0:11:59.080 --> 0:12:00.920 how you're doing all right? We're going to take a 0:12:00.960 --> 0:12:03.720 quick break. We'll be right back talk about some fun 0:12:03.760 --> 0:12:10.440 topics here speaking of just taking different life patterns things 0:12:10.480 --> 0:12:13.000 like that. So all of this Artemis Too stuff when 0:12:13.000 --> 0:12:14.840 they went up, they circled the moon, they came back 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:17.200 down had me in kind of a different headspace where 0:12:17.200 --> 0:12:20.760 I was thinking, Huh, I could have just like changed 0:12:20.760 --> 0:12:21.840 my whole trajectory. 0:12:21.920 --> 0:12:23.120 Go back to school's. 0:12:22.760 --> 0:12:24.920 Study science, learn to be a pilot, and I could 0:12:24.920 --> 0:12:27.320 go to space. Like I had this moment where I 0:12:27.360 --> 0:12:29.240 was like, maybe I just need to rewrite my entire 0:12:29.840 --> 0:12:31.880 plan for the next thirty years. Do you ever have 0:12:31.920 --> 0:12:34.320 those moments we just want to rewrite everything and try 0:12:34.360 --> 0:12:38.280 something different. No, you don't ever, You just stay on 0:12:38.280 --> 0:12:42.600 the one path. I like where I am well career wise. 0:12:42.920 --> 0:12:46.160 I don't it fills my cup. I like what I 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:46.640 get to do. 0:12:46.800 --> 0:12:49.160 I mean, I'm trying to add some different things to 0:12:49.240 --> 0:12:52.880 my plate and remove certain things that don't necessarily fill 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:55.320 my cup. So that sort of changes of like, uh, 0:12:55.360 --> 0:13:01.480 I'm not really getting joy from this, but I think 0:13:01.480 --> 0:13:04.600 the filling cup thing matches more because there's some stuff 0:13:04.600 --> 0:13:08.600 I can do that's part of my work. And I 0:13:08.640 --> 0:13:10.360 was explaining it to someone that I'm working with on 0:13:10.400 --> 0:13:12.360 a small project, and she put it to me that 0:13:12.400 --> 0:13:13.920 way of like, oh, it just sounds like that's not 0:13:13.960 --> 0:13:16.520 really filling your cup anymore, and this other thing might 0:13:16.640 --> 0:13:18.720 fill it more. And I was like, yes, that's exactly it, 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:22.040 Like I can do it and it's fine, but I'm not. 0:13:22.760 --> 0:13:25.720 I'm walking away more drained from it than I am full. 0:13:26.200 --> 0:13:31.160 So I would like to shift that because but I 0:13:31.200 --> 0:13:33.400 have to do it with intention, because I mean, it's 0:13:33.440 --> 0:13:35.440 a job, so I can't just like walk away or 0:13:35.440 --> 0:13:37.400 it's money. I can't just walk away. I mean some 0:13:37.400 --> 0:13:38.920 people might be able to. I'm not in a position 0:13:38.960 --> 0:13:41.000 where I can just walk away, So I have to 0:13:41.040 --> 0:13:43.120 shift some things around. So I guess that's what I'm doing, 0:13:43.679 --> 0:13:45.280 and I'll share more about it later when I have 0:13:45.320 --> 0:13:49.080 it figured out and done. But I am shifting some 0:13:49.200 --> 0:13:53.680 things in what I do and how I diversify my income. 0:13:54.040 --> 0:13:55.640 Like we have the Bobby Bone Show, but we have 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:57.520 a lot of other side projects that we do that 0:13:57.559 --> 0:14:01.280 bring in money, and I'm trying to shift some of 0:14:01.320 --> 0:14:04.480 those around because some are not bringing me joy and 0:14:05.080 --> 0:14:08.280 I think others will. So I'm trying to create more 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:11.520 opportunities for the other But I don't have them yet. 0:14:11.800 --> 0:14:14.040 Okay, so this is exciting. 0:14:14.200 --> 0:14:16.840 That's a I know it's not directly answering your question, 0:14:16.920 --> 0:14:19.400 but my big umbrella of what I do, I'm not 0:14:19.400 --> 0:14:23.680 trying to change. I don't think about swapping that out 0:14:23.720 --> 0:14:27.000 for some other life other than maybe not having to 0:14:27.040 --> 0:14:30.360 work at all. I'm just getting to stay home. But 0:14:30.400 --> 0:14:31.800 then I don't know that I would like that either. 0:14:31.840 --> 0:14:34.240 I don't know, but some days you're just over it. 0:14:35.560 --> 0:14:39.520 I think everybody feels that way. Maybe maybe not. But 0:14:39.600 --> 0:14:45.080 I am trying to move some things about and it's 0:14:45.120 --> 0:14:47.600 going to take time and I'm having to be patient. 0:14:48.800 --> 0:14:51.280 But I'm trying to do it well, like I'm the 0:14:51.320 --> 0:14:53.480 person I'm working with like a pirtor to help me 0:14:53.560 --> 0:14:56.520 do it well, and so I'm investing back into myself. 0:14:57.360 --> 0:14:59.320 But then I think it'll end up making me more 0:14:59.360 --> 0:15:01.200 money down the line. So I just have to believe 0:15:01.240 --> 0:15:03.280 that that's what's going to happen. But it may take 0:15:03.320 --> 0:15:04.480 a minute. 0:15:04.720 --> 0:15:06.160 So that is a you. 0:15:06.080 --> 0:15:08.600 Are changing some things, yeah, but you're doing it under 0:15:08.600 --> 0:15:09.480 the side big umbrella. 0:15:09.520 --> 0:15:11.560 I'm not like leaving what I do to go be 0:15:12.600 --> 0:15:14.200 change my major and go back to school and be 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:16.360 a scientist. And go to the moon. 0:15:16.640 --> 0:15:19.080 I know it is like it was like a random 0:15:19.320 --> 0:15:20.840 I think it's in the days that I have the 0:15:20.880 --> 0:15:24.040 most stress when I just am like, maybe if I 0:15:24.200 --> 0:15:27.160 just become an astronaut, I go to space and that'll 0:15:27.160 --> 0:15:28.680 be a cool experience of my life. 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:31.240 But then I started thinking about the logistics of all 0:15:31.240 --> 0:15:32.960 of that and it's probably not gonna happen. 0:15:33.120 --> 0:15:35.560 No, I get really overwhem boy that So it's hard 0:15:35.560 --> 0:15:37.920 because much like you said, I love what we do. 0:15:38.000 --> 0:15:41.400 I love the parts of it that you know get 0:15:41.480 --> 0:15:43.000 You get a lot of joy out of It's the 0:15:43.040 --> 0:15:45.560 mundane that makes it harder. But everything comes with the 0:15:46.480 --> 0:15:49.040 mundane side. You have that in everything that you do. 0:15:49.200 --> 0:15:52.320 So I think that's where I'm I just am trying 0:15:52.360 --> 0:15:55.000 to be more in the present moment. But watching them 0:15:55.200 --> 0:15:57.320 do the whole space thing, getting to like have our 0:15:57.400 --> 0:16:01.000 first female astronaut and that whole exp really was like, 0:16:01.040 --> 0:16:04.760 why didn't I further explore my love for space and trying. 0:16:04.600 --> 0:16:06.200 To be a female astronaut To the moon. 0:16:06.440 --> 0:16:07.560 Yeah, yeah, to the moon. 0:16:07.600 --> 0:16:10.440 Sorry, I'm not talking about the Katie Ferry one, the 0:16:11.080 --> 0:16:12.720 what is that group that went well? But there are 0:16:12.800 --> 0:16:17.560 other female yes, yeah, to the Moon that circled around 0:16:17.560 --> 0:16:17.800 the Moon. 0:16:17.840 --> 0:16:21.200 I've got to be on the on that specific mission. 0:16:21.320 --> 0:16:24.600 Yes, yes, we have some on the ISS, the International 0:16:24.600 --> 0:16:27.840 Space Station, but no, that like in the idea of 0:16:27.960 --> 0:16:30.800 if they continue that and we land on Mars and 0:16:30.840 --> 0:16:33.440 we do stuff on Mars and we explore other planets. 0:16:33.480 --> 0:16:34.960 Like, oh, that's so fascinating to me. 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:37.560 But I like watching some of this stuff, but I 0:16:37.560 --> 0:16:39.360 don't have I have zero desire to go myself. That 0:16:39.400 --> 0:16:40.000 seems scary. 0:16:40.200 --> 0:16:42.640 Really. Yeah, if you got a chance today to go 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:43.120 to space, you. 0:16:43.120 --> 0:16:48.440 Went nope, nope, see, And that's where I'm so curious 0:16:48.440 --> 0:16:49.320 about what that'll look. 0:16:49.400 --> 0:16:52.200 That's what they're like the I don't know the odds 0:16:52.240 --> 0:16:56.360 of dying on that, but it would terrify me to 0:16:56.800 --> 0:16:59.920 go up in a rocket. I just would feel like 0:17:00.040 --> 0:17:03.480 I was going to explode or something. And then, speaking 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:07.680 of stress, being in space is very stressful on the body. Yeah, 0:17:07.720 --> 0:17:10.919 so I'm good, I know if we give me a 0:17:10.960 --> 0:17:14.520 wonderful perspective and probably so school, so cool, But the 0:17:14.600 --> 0:17:17.280 fear I have inside of me is larger than the 0:17:17.359 --> 0:17:20.439 desire I have to do that, which that's like, I 0:17:20.480 --> 0:17:23.040 just don't I don't like roller coasters. I don't like heights, 0:17:23.400 --> 0:17:25.840 so space is very scary to me. 0:17:26.520 --> 0:17:30.200 So you're not a very adventurous person. I would say, 0:17:30.960 --> 0:17:34.479 adrenaline junkie is not part of you. No, No, that 0:17:34.640 --> 0:17:37.520 is where we differing. Yeah, I have those sides, not fully, 0:17:37.880 --> 0:17:39.720 but I do have some. And I think if somebody 0:17:39.760 --> 0:17:41.159 offered me a chance to go to space today, I 0:17:41.200 --> 0:17:41.800 think I would. 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:44.040 Go, yeah, and just good for you, that's awesome. 0:17:44.080 --> 0:17:47.119 All bets are off. Yeah, but that's why where I 0:17:47.119 --> 0:17:48.160 think that desire comes from. 0:17:48.160 --> 0:17:51.760 But I also think there's so much normalcy in experiencing 0:17:51.800 --> 0:17:53.639 the world that we are right now, and you just 0:17:53.720 --> 0:17:57.800 have moments where you just lie frustrates you and you 0:17:57.840 --> 0:18:00.840 want to just rewrite everything because it just is frustrating. 0:18:01.080 --> 0:18:03.200 I think that's where I get moments of right now. 0:18:03.320 --> 0:18:06.720 Yeah. Maybe that's because I'm really into my thirties. Now. 0:18:06.960 --> 0:18:09.200 Am I having a midlife crisis? Does that really happen 0:18:09.240 --> 0:18:09.680 at thirty? 0:18:09.880 --> 0:18:11.800 No? I don't think you're having a midlife crisis. I 0:18:11.800 --> 0:18:14.880 think you're having like occasional thoughts or sometimes you're like, okay, 0:18:15.000 --> 0:18:18.119 just make this all change a little bit to make 0:18:18.160 --> 0:18:22.720 it more interesting or you know, different, But life, Yeah, No, 0:18:22.960 --> 0:18:25.840 you're about you're embarking on new adventures, you're about to 0:18:25.840 --> 0:18:28.680 get married, and you're not having a mid life crisis. 0:18:29.200 --> 0:18:29.479 I know. 0:18:29.640 --> 0:18:31.159 But do you, I mean, do you have a midlife 0:18:31.200 --> 0:18:31.880 crisis that real? 0:18:32.040 --> 0:18:34.160 Some people do, I think they call I think that's 0:18:34.200 --> 0:18:37.439 a generalization for what happens with some people. 0:18:37.480 --> 0:18:38.520 Like you. 0:18:38.560 --> 0:18:42.560 Picture a middle aged man leaving his wife or a 0:18:42.600 --> 0:18:44.399 younger woman and buying a sports car, and it's like 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:46.560