WEBVTT - Augmented Reality 0:00:01.920 --> 0:00:07.080 Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heeart Radio podcast. Okay, 0:00:07.280 --> 0:00:14.400 so something's missing on the couch and it is our Catherine. 0:00:14.720 --> 0:00:20.360 She is live. When we do this on wind Down, 0:00:20.360 --> 0:00:22.160 when we take the podcast on the road, we call 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:25.400 this segment Cat in the Field. So Cat, you're live 0:00:25.480 --> 0:00:27.720 in the field, but you're only a few miles down 0:00:27.760 --> 0:00:30.640 the road. Tell us Kat because she is too afraid 0:00:31.160 --> 0:00:35.160 of the water that's on the roads. 0:00:35.560 --> 0:00:36.520 I see that now. 0:00:36.800 --> 0:00:40.280 Apparently there was one hour ago, but there is not anymore. 0:00:40.400 --> 0:00:43.320 Having said that, like, I'm from Nashville, guys, y'all are 0:00:43.479 --> 0:00:46.839 from Michigan. I don't like driving snow. 0:00:46.960 --> 0:00:48.960 I'm sorry, but I do. 0:00:49.120 --> 0:00:52.160 Nick literally just walked outside and he was like it's 0:00:52.200 --> 0:00:52.600 all on. 0:00:53.200 --> 0:00:54.120 It's like, oh good. 0:00:54.600 --> 0:00:57.440 Yeah. It was kind of no pun intended the perfect 0:00:57.440 --> 0:01:03.280 storm because so Roman has COVID, but he's has really 0:01:03.360 --> 0:01:05.880 bad he said, some really bad breathing the last few 0:01:05.959 --> 0:01:11.399 nights and it's kind of turning into that creepy, creepy cough, 0:01:11.480 --> 0:01:14.679 the breathing strider, all that stuff. So this morning, of course, 0:01:14.760 --> 0:01:19.480 you know Alan's in London. You know there's this snowstorm, 0:01:19.480 --> 0:01:22.560 and with Nashville, it's like one to three inches. But 0:01:22.640 --> 0:01:25.800 with one inch we really got I don't know, I'd say, 0:01:25.840 --> 0:01:27.760 like what inch and a half? Maybe I could see 0:01:27.760 --> 0:01:29.720 the grass still through the snow, So i don't know 0:01:29.760 --> 0:01:34.399 if it counts right. Well, school's off, but I'm like this, 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:37.520 this breathing is is not is not great. So I'm like, 0:01:37.560 --> 0:01:40.400 I just I've been down this road with the kids before. 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:42.840 I'm like, he needs a steroid and so, you know, 0:01:42.920 --> 0:01:45.400 lo and behold them. I'm like I'm thinking, I'm like, 0:01:45.400 --> 0:01:47.720 all right, I can't get into I'd rather take Alan's 0:01:47.720 --> 0:01:49.600 truck because that's got the four wheel and it's got 0:01:49.680 --> 0:01:53.800 the you know, all that stuff, the off terrain drive truck. 0:01:53.960 --> 0:01:58.040 So but I mean, it's covered in snow and I've 0:01:58.080 --> 0:02:00.440 just got you know, him, poor thing, just like struggling 0:02:00.440 --> 0:02:02.040 to breathe and putting you know, change in the car 0:02:02.080 --> 0:02:05.760 seat and putting it in there. And at first, I'm like, 0:02:05.800 --> 0:02:07.840 I don't know if this is a good idea at all, 0:02:08.160 --> 0:02:10.600 because you know how that the subs don't look great. 0:02:10.639 --> 0:02:11.800 But then all of a sudden we got back on 0:02:11.800 --> 0:02:15.120 the roads. I'm like, oh, I'm from Michigan, Like I forget. 0:02:15.160 --> 0:02:16.919 I'm like, I forget you know what I mean, Like 0:02:17.000 --> 0:02:18.480 I got this, like I know how to do this. 0:02:18.720 --> 0:02:19.960 And then when I got into the roads, I'm like, oh, 0:02:20.000 --> 0:02:22.880 it's totally fine. That's when I called you. I was like, girl, hey, 0:02:22.960 --> 0:02:24.800 you're a Michigan ass. Doesn't get over here. Yeah. And 0:02:24.840 --> 0:02:26.440 now I was like, okay, girl, I feel good about it. 0:02:26.440 --> 0:02:28.440 I'm just making sure all is ago and they pre 0:02:28.560 --> 0:02:30.360 salted for us. And so then when I got out there, 0:02:30.360 --> 0:02:32.040 I was like, well, this is like I do think 0:02:32.080 --> 0:02:34.280 it is precious. If you didn't grow up in this weather, 0:02:34.360 --> 0:02:37.560 it's probably really overwhelming. But for us, I mean, I 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:41.160 have a January third birthday right in Michigan. December second. Yeah, yeah, 0:02:41.200 --> 0:02:43.800 like we're never going anywhere. But it's funny because Catherine, 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:46.360 So it's what roles can be so reversed on this 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:51.560 couch because when it's a thunderstorm, I mean tornado vibe. 0:02:51.639 --> 0:02:54.640 Even if a little bit of thunder KB is like 0:02:54.800 --> 0:02:57.080 everyone locked out. Like she's the girl on the plane 0:02:58.680 --> 0:02:59.400 on Bridesmaids. 0:02:59.400 --> 0:03:01.200 She's like, it's going down. 0:03:01.280 --> 0:03:05.000 That's actually you get you on a plane. But that's 0:03:05.040 --> 0:03:08.160 one thousand percent me on a plane. And now even worse, okay, 0:03:08.400 --> 0:03:12.080 because of everything but you is just like it's because 0:03:12.120 --> 0:03:14.240 you're just like lockdown Creamer, and I'm like Christen, it's 0:03:14.280 --> 0:03:16.519 like five hours away, Like we're good. We ca'll put 0:03:16.520 --> 0:03:18.040 a helmet on you and I will put you in 0:03:18.080 --> 0:03:20.760 a safe room so fast. I have a bottle of distill. 0:03:20.880 --> 0:03:24.080 And you're not really bad at that, right, No tornado 0:03:24.160 --> 0:03:25.440 husband is like a tornado watch. 0:03:25.520 --> 0:03:28.000 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 0:03:28.080 --> 0:03:30.720 I think for me though, the issue with this snow 0:03:30.880 --> 0:03:32.840 is when I hear ice. Yeah, for sure, we have 0:03:32.880 --> 0:03:36.280 a lot of ice storms here versus snow, and that's 0:03:36.320 --> 0:03:38.600 where it's like you can't if you've got four wall drive, 0:03:38.600 --> 0:03:42.400 it doesn't matter. And also to note, some roads aka 0:03:42.680 --> 0:03:49.160 Brentwood and Franklin get pre salted and get plowed before 0:03:49.840 --> 0:03:54.320 said smaller towns do, so that's also part of the Yeah. 0:03:54.480 --> 0:03:56.840 The issue, well, we're happy to have you on Zoom 0:03:57.200 --> 0:03:59.920 via satellite from your remote location, and the. 0:04:00.240 --> 0:04:02.720 Really hiding out in my bedroom because all the kids 0:04:02.720 --> 0:04:06.440 are running around and but I'm glad I'm here, guys. Yay. 0:04:06.920 --> 0:04:09.520 I have to say I got to start with post chat, 0:04:10.840 --> 0:04:13.440 but I would like to kick it off stuff. I 0:04:13.480 --> 0:04:19.440 have to say, I after we posted the video, I 0:04:19.480 --> 0:04:21.479 got sick to my stomach because I'm like, oh no, 0:04:21.880 --> 0:04:25.440 I'm afraid to look at the comments because you know, 0:04:25.480 --> 0:04:27.560 it's a very polarizing topic, some of the things that 0:04:27.600 --> 0:04:31.520 we were talking about, i e. The vaccination stuff. But 0:04:32.480 --> 0:04:34.040 is that, I e. Is that how you would use it? 0:04:34.080 --> 0:04:38.760 I don't even know. We are really giant, so but 0:04:38.960 --> 0:04:42.320 I was a few things that I just to recap 0:04:42.360 --> 0:04:45.680 that episode a little bit that I found comforting and 0:04:45.720 --> 0:04:49.200 what actually helped me this morning too, in the midst 0:04:49.240 --> 0:04:51.240 of this perfect storm and him not being able to 0:04:51.240 --> 0:04:54.279 breathe and literally the last two nights being on a 0:04:54.320 --> 0:04:56.160 total of like two hours of sleep because I stare 0:04:56.200 --> 0:04:58.680 at the monitor just being like, Kenny breathe. Oh my gosh, 0:04:58.720 --> 0:05:02.120 you're going to him like and seeing is that in 0:05:02.160 --> 0:05:04.320 that moment, I probably would have gone to like, oh, 0:05:04.320 --> 0:05:06.719 I'm so alone because Alan's in London and you know, 0:05:06.760 --> 0:05:09.880 I'm dealing with sick you know, sick kids and whatever. 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:13.800 But knowing all the messages that I got about and 0:05:13.880 --> 0:05:15.880 even you guys too, I mean, I'm sure you guys 0:05:15.880 --> 0:05:18.120 got us some as well, but like just being like, 0:05:18.200 --> 0:05:21.040 you're not We're not alone in any of this, and 0:05:21.120 --> 0:05:22.880 the things that we and all the stuff that's on 0:05:22.920 --> 0:05:27.000 our plate. It was just so refreshing. And then in 0:05:27.080 --> 0:05:29.880 moments like today, I'm like, all right, like I don't 0:05:30.200 --> 0:05:33.360 I don't feel alone in this moment. You know, I'm 0:05:33.360 --> 0:05:35.480 like I got this. I'm like rockstar, mom, let's go, 0:05:35.640 --> 0:05:37.800 let's do this. Let's get there to the appointment and 0:05:37.839 --> 0:05:40.240 you know, make sure he's okay. And so I just 0:05:40.440 --> 0:05:43.560 there was a nice sense of like, yeah, we take 0:05:43.600 --> 0:05:46.240 on a lot of stuff, but we're not alone, and 0:05:46.440 --> 0:05:49.040 we're all in this together. And I think hearing from 0:05:49.080 --> 0:05:52.840 everybody this week felt really nice to know, even though 0:05:52.880 --> 0:05:54.800 I know we're all like with each other, but there's 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:57.479 a whole slew of moms out there that feel this 0:05:57.560 --> 0:06:00.760 exact same way. I remember when you were talking last week, 0:06:00.839 --> 0:06:02.880 thinking this is going to land in the hearts of 0:06:02.880 --> 0:06:05.800 so many people, because I talked to friends at home 0:06:05.839 --> 0:06:08.479 in Michigan and you know, girlfriends of mine in California, 0:06:08.520 --> 0:06:12.960 and like, literally everyone feels these things down to the vaccination, 0:06:13.160 --> 0:06:15.760 like all of it. I mean, it's there's no real 0:06:15.839 --> 0:06:20.360 safe place we feel. We've created this incredible society where 0:06:20.360 --> 0:06:23.000 we overshare and sometimes it works to our detriment, but 0:06:23.040 --> 0:06:25.640 I feel like it can. It's just been so great 0:06:25.680 --> 0:06:27.919 recently for to like kind of ground itself back to 0:06:28.000 --> 0:06:30.840 like letting us feel like there's actually a community we're 0:06:30.880 --> 0:06:33.000 all going through it. And it's interesting, is like, this 0:06:33.040 --> 0:06:35.520 is the stuff that I normally wouldn't share because exactly 0:06:35.560 --> 0:06:37.280 as a mom, like you just hold it all in. 0:06:37.440 --> 0:06:39.440 So they do where I felt scared to when I 0:06:39.839 --> 0:06:41.000 to share it. So I was like, oh, wait, no, 0:06:41.080 --> 0:06:43.280 this is stuff that we can talk about. We can 0:06:43.360 --> 0:06:46.040 share this. I can say I feel alone even in 0:06:46.080 --> 0:06:47.800 a marriage, even though I'm not saying I feel alone 0:06:47.839 --> 0:06:50.080 a within my marriage, you know, it's just the feeling 0:06:50.080 --> 0:06:52.120 of it. So and I got a you know, a 0:06:52.160 --> 0:06:55.479 listener DM she was like, you know, I can relate 0:06:55.480 --> 0:06:57.640 to the lonely feeling as a divorce and remarried mom, 0:06:57.760 --> 0:07:00.840 you know. So it's like there's I think that was 0:07:00.880 --> 0:07:03.520 really nice. And also I've gotten some great feedback. I'm 0:07:03.560 --> 0:07:07.960 following just the inserts on now Doctor Green Moom vaccine 0:07:08.000 --> 0:07:09.880 friendly plan. So there's just a lot of people too 0:07:09.920 --> 0:07:12.480 that have reached out with really good resources on both sides, 0:07:12.840 --> 0:07:15.400 and ninety nine point nine percent of them were really 0:07:15.440 --> 0:07:18.440 positive and very graceful. There was only like a one 0:07:18.480 --> 0:07:23.880 percent word that were like, you're so terrible for sharing misinformation. 0:07:23.960 --> 0:07:26.120 I'm like, actually, I'm trying to get information. Yeah. I 0:07:26.200 --> 0:07:28.160 think you said it was miss but I think it 0:07:28.200 --> 0:07:31.080 was just feel for information. Yeah. 0:07:31.200 --> 0:07:31.440 Yeah. 0:07:31.520 --> 0:07:34.760 I think I was reminded with this that, like people 0:07:34.840 --> 0:07:39.680 can still have an open dialogue about things, like even 0:07:39.720 --> 0:07:41.400 people that disagree. 0:07:41.480 --> 0:07:41.680 You know. 0:07:41.720 --> 0:07:43.680 It was kind of refreshing. I'm like, wow, and I 0:07:43.720 --> 0:07:45.400 texted you all last night. I was like, I'm loving 0:07:45.400 --> 0:07:49.559 these responses on both sides, you know. And I think 0:07:49.720 --> 0:07:51.679 I was reminded too that a lot of people don't 0:07:51.840 --> 0:07:54.680 know what they want, don't know what they want to do, 0:07:54.880 --> 0:07:57.160 just like I feel like we all kind of feel 0:07:57.200 --> 0:07:58.800 like that, you know, we're kind of stuck in this 0:07:58.920 --> 0:08:01.120 place of do we do it? Do we not? I 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:02.760 feel this way. I don't feel this way, you know. 0:08:02.800 --> 0:08:04.760 And I just think it was refreshing to see that. 0:08:05.360 --> 0:08:07.119 I mean, I had a text last night at twelve 0:08:07.160 --> 0:08:10.040 thirty from a friend I haven't heard from from in years, 0:08:10.480 --> 0:08:14.360 and she was like, tell Jana that I said, blah 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:17.160 blah blah blahlah, here's my story, you know, and it's 0:08:17.280 --> 0:08:19.720 just it's good to hear people's stories you know, on 0:08:19.840 --> 0:08:22.560 why they do vaccinate and why they may not or 0:08:22.560 --> 0:08:25.440 why they're scared. You know, it was refreshing. I was 0:08:25.480 --> 0:08:28.600 really happy to see the positive feedback from that, for sure. 0:08:29.560 --> 0:08:32.240 I love that. I also think it's most like when 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:34.920 we do the live show, we openly share so much. 0:08:35.000 --> 0:08:37.320 I think that's why we've enjoyed this format so much, 0:08:38.200 --> 0:08:41.000 and what we get from the road when we're out 0:08:41.000 --> 0:08:44.240 with people is that same feeling. And I think it's 0:08:44.280 --> 0:08:47.200 just been really like, I will be really honest with 0:08:47.200 --> 0:08:49.400 both of you. I was terrified to go to this format, 0:08:49.440 --> 0:08:51.760 not because I don't love you desperately, but in our 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:55.880 little triangle of friendship, we are so unafraid to give 0:08:55.920 --> 0:08:59.040 each other honest feedback or to like, you know, speak 0:08:59.120 --> 0:09:02.600 life or to truth or whatever. But I got nervous 0:09:02.600 --> 0:09:05.400 to open it up because I feel the anxiousness of 0:09:05.400 --> 0:09:07.720 like the world's just ready to attack and for And 0:09:08.000 --> 0:09:10.559 it's been really like I even said to you last night, Cat, 0:09:10.559 --> 0:09:11.800 I was like, I'm not reading the comments, like I 0:09:11.800 --> 0:09:13.520 don't want to see it because it really does hurt 0:09:13.520 --> 0:09:16.320 my feelings. People will hurt my feelings pretty easily, so 0:09:16.360 --> 0:09:20.680 I guard myself. But it's been so incredible. It feels 0:09:20.720 --> 0:09:22.840 so I don't know, it just feel so genuine, and 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:25.560 I think that's why we all get along. And I 0:09:25.559 --> 0:09:27.440 feel like we get to plug into our community better 0:09:27.480 --> 0:09:29.840 when we say the hard stuff because we're being honest. 0:09:30.280 --> 0:09:32.960 I felt the opposite. I was really really excited to 0:09:33.040 --> 0:09:35.240 do this and do it this way and get to 0:09:35.320 --> 0:09:39.000 talk about this stuff. Like comments hurt my feelings also, 0:09:39.679 --> 0:09:41.720 but I just feel so much. 0:09:43.040 --> 0:09:44.640 More true to myself. 0:09:44.240 --> 0:09:46.160 And fulfilled when we're able to get on here and 0:09:46.160 --> 0:09:49.240 we're able to just talk and just like, you know, 0:09:49.520 --> 0:09:52.200 just we don't know, we don't know what we're doing 0:09:52.400 --> 0:09:54.360 half the time as moms, and we can just talk 0:09:54.400 --> 0:09:57.000 and everybody can you know, give us feedback. I just 0:09:57.040 --> 0:09:58.600 I love this format. I think it's been great. 0:09:58.800 --> 0:10:00.320 Yeah, I mean so much so that I I'm calling 0:10:00.400 --> 0:10:02.080 Katherine'm like, I know you're not a nurse, but okay, 0:10:02.120 --> 0:10:04.200 so because he was having one hundred and five fevers, 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:06.280 I'm like calling her, I'm all right, so how many 0:10:06.320 --> 0:10:08.240 hours in between can I because it's like you can 0:10:08.280 --> 0:10:10.240 google it, but you know, it's like to go to 0:10:10.280 --> 0:10:13.080 the people and we're glad that you guys are our 0:10:13.120 --> 0:10:16.079 people listening. So it's right. We love you. We might 0:10:16.120 --> 0:10:19.280 not have all the answers clearly or know the things, 0:10:19.280 --> 0:10:23.520 but it is what. Thanks for listening, Thanks for being here, 0:10:23.520 --> 0:10:37.640 Thanks for being here, Thanks for being a homie. Let's 0:10:37.720 --> 0:10:41.720 unpin something. Oh, because it's been pinned a while. Catherine 0:10:41.720 --> 0:10:44.400 and I have kind of sabotaged the host chat topic 0:10:44.559 --> 0:10:49.800 the last few episodes, and you're just bursting out of 0:10:49.840 --> 0:10:52.520 the shirt to tell us about your boobs. Well, I'm 0:10:52.559 --> 0:10:56.280 barely bursting, So you guys, are you I might get 0:10:56.280 --> 0:10:59.439 emotional talking about this, Well, it'd be three weeks in 0:10:59.480 --> 0:11:03.679 a row of cry. Let's go for it, okay. So 0:11:04.679 --> 0:11:10.200 I can feel the tears coming, Okay, bring it, let 0:11:10.240 --> 0:11:16.240 it way. I feel so ridiculous, said it feel ridiculous. Okay, 0:11:16.320 --> 0:11:19.560 I need to get it together. So did you tell 0:11:19.559 --> 0:11:21.520 me to get it together last week when I was crying? No, 0:11:21.600 --> 0:11:25.480 you said I wanted to get on my lap. I did, okay, So, 0:11:25.640 --> 0:11:27.599 and ironically, my boobs are on my lap, so that 0:11:27.640 --> 0:11:30.800 would be a good segue. So I was a late bloomer. 0:11:30.840 --> 0:11:32.679 I'm going to take you back to a cold day 0:11:32.720 --> 0:11:37.480 in nineteen ninety six, the back brace. Yeah, you guys, 0:11:37.520 --> 0:11:39.400 like I want to, I do want a little framework care. 0:11:39.400 --> 0:11:41.640 I did have a back brace in seventh grade Eden Inhaler, 0:11:41.720 --> 0:11:43.719 life was not charming in middle school. I was a 0:11:43.800 --> 0:11:45.679 late bloomer. I think because of the surgery. It was 0:11:45.679 --> 0:11:47.959 a pretty massive surgery. It was a nine hour surgery. 0:11:48.160 --> 0:11:50.480 They corrected my scoliosis. They put rods in my back. 0:11:50.559 --> 0:11:52.959 Because of that, I think I menstruted later in life. 0:11:52.960 --> 0:11:56.600 We are over sharing today unapologetically. When did what age 0:11:56.600 --> 0:11:59.839 did you menstroy? Sixteen and a half? Okay, okay, So 0:12:00.600 --> 0:12:04.120 I remember that because I remember thinking I don't actually 0:12:04.400 --> 0:12:06.920 I'll say it. I remember being nervous that I wasn't. 0:12:08.000 --> 0:12:09.400 I had a serious boyfriend, and I was like, I 0:12:09.440 --> 0:12:11.040 don't even think I can have sex all have a period. 0:12:11.040 --> 0:12:14.320 Like I was so confused and scared, you know, which 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.760 is probably why no one should do that. Stay abstinate. 0:12:16.840 --> 0:12:20.320 So I say all that because I didn't. Nothing really 0:12:20.320 --> 0:12:22.280 came in for me until I was like nineteen. My 0:12:22.320 --> 0:12:25.880 boobs didn't come in until I was nineteen, and they 0:12:26.120 --> 0:12:28.680 came in like a dream. They were stunning. We have 0:12:28.760 --> 0:12:31.719 lived such I mean, there's nobody more grateful for a 0:12:31.800 --> 0:12:34.040 natural boob on this planet than me. They were like 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:37.280 solid C D cup held their own I mean we 0:12:37.280 --> 0:12:40.240 were in backless shirts. We have lived strapless life together. 0:12:41.480 --> 0:12:43.120 And then there was a baby, and then there was 0:12:43.160 --> 0:12:45.920 another baby, and then the third baby at forty one 0:12:46.120 --> 0:12:49.760 has really done a number on the girls. And so 0:12:50.040 --> 0:12:52.400 when they are collected like they are today in the 0:12:52.480 --> 0:12:56.160 right bra, they still hold their own abby use my code. 0:12:56.200 --> 0:12:58.559 They're great bras. I actually wanted to know for real 0:12:58.600 --> 0:13:03.319 if they were a fantastic Okay, but swimsuits have been hard. 0:13:03.559 --> 0:13:06.760 You guys know, I love to style and I love 0:13:06.840 --> 0:13:09.360 to create wardrobe, and I feel like I'm styling and 0:13:09.400 --> 0:13:12.920 picking things around them now because I can't wear certain 0:13:13.000 --> 0:13:15.440 kinds of tops. Finding a strappo sprawl has been a struggle. 0:13:17.200 --> 0:13:20.600 And then can I ask where the tears? Like where Okay, 0:13:20.640 --> 0:13:24.959 they're coming? So I have I have a hard time 0:13:25.000 --> 0:13:28.360 electing for surgery. I think because of the surgeries that 0:13:28.400 --> 0:13:30.760 I've had to have, Like one was a DNC the back, 0:13:31.080 --> 0:13:33.200 you know, the spinal surgery, Like it just doesn't feel 0:13:33.280 --> 0:13:37.440 great for me to choose to do surgery. But I 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:40.520 have really felt like I've stood in the mirror and 0:13:40.559 --> 0:13:42.400 done what probably a lot of us do, which is 0:13:42.440 --> 0:13:44.240 like pick them up and put them back in their place. 0:13:44.320 --> 0:13:46.080 I don't have much of a torso, so they're now 0:13:46.080 --> 0:13:47.920 eating away at another solid inch and a half of 0:13:47.960 --> 0:13:51.640 that SpongeBob squarepant figure, you know, And I'm like, come on, ladies. 0:13:52.120 --> 0:13:55.040 So I had this, like I have wanted to try 0:13:55.080 --> 0:13:58.920 on the idea of perhaps getting a reduction and a lift. 0:14:00.080 --> 0:14:02.960 Husband is wildly obsessed with my breasts, and so I 0:14:03.000 --> 0:14:04.720 do think that's what we're saying, because this isn't coming 0:14:04.720 --> 0:14:11.480 from anywhere other than me. Here's the tears. This is 0:14:11.559 --> 0:14:15.840 so I feel like so silly. I feel like I'm 0:14:15.920 --> 0:14:19.040 being ungrateful or something for this like beautiful, healthy body, 0:14:19.080 --> 0:14:23.360 like they're healthy boobs. But like I'm so we were guys. 0:14:23.400 --> 0:14:26.400 I feel like an idiot. We did this video. We 0:14:26.440 --> 0:14:29.160 were on in the Bahamas, and the guys were like, 0:14:29.200 --> 0:14:30.760 I'm gonna do this video walking on the beach. They 0:14:30.800 --> 0:14:34.280 have this new song. It's beautiful, it's so special. And 0:14:35.440 --> 0:14:37.760 you know, I have another wife and my duo, and 0:14:37.800 --> 0:14:39.960 she's a quite a bit younger than me, seven or 0:14:39.960 --> 0:14:42.800 eight years younger than me. She had our babies early. 0:14:42.880 --> 0:14:45.760 She has these really great boobs, and I do a 0:14:45.800 --> 0:14:48.200 really good job of not comparing myself. I mean, you're 0:14:48.240 --> 0:14:50.160 my best friend and you're stunning, and I don't ever 0:14:50.200 --> 0:14:53.320 compare me to you. I'm really good about this, but 0:14:53.360 --> 0:14:57.280 for some reason that video and Preston would be just 0:14:57.480 --> 0:15:02.120 absolutely embarrassed if he knew this, because I almost wanted 0:15:02.160 --> 0:15:04.520 to be like, don't post it, because I just felt 0:15:04.560 --> 0:15:07.280 so insecure in that video and that is not like me. 0:15:08.680 --> 0:15:11.200 But I don't usually have boobs out either, as you know, 0:15:12.200 --> 0:15:15.520 and it was the first time where I was like, oh, 0:15:15.560 --> 0:15:20.200 I don't like I feel so silly. I just don't 0:15:20.240 --> 0:15:22.160 like how I look, and it made me feel like 0:15:22.200 --> 0:15:23.800 I didn't want him to post it. And then I 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:26.640 was like, well, that's not fair because probably my boobs 0:15:26.640 --> 0:15:30.760 are more relatable to ninety percent of the world. And again, 0:15:30.800 --> 0:15:33.600 this is like feels like superficial or something to even 0:15:34.920 --> 0:15:38.040 be upset about it. But for some reason, I'm really 0:15:38.080 --> 0:15:40.760 struggling with even like going to get a consultation because 0:15:40.760 --> 0:15:45.400 I feel like I'm being ridiculous or like, I don't know, 0:15:45.680 --> 0:15:50.160 I guess it is just like superficial is the word 0:15:50.200 --> 0:15:52.320 I just keep coming back to. It feels like dumb 0:15:52.400 --> 0:15:56.120 or something that it would even I think I feel 0:15:56.240 --> 0:15:59.400 ungrateful to even consider doing something like that, so I 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:01.800 won't even go to a doctor. Why am I crying? 0:16:03.280 --> 0:16:05.320 I think it's like mourning the loss of a body, 0:16:05.480 --> 0:16:07.520 you know, like as moms, we've gotten to know our 0:16:07.520 --> 0:16:10.840 bodies probably three or four times over, you know, like 0:16:11.560 --> 0:16:13.840 every woman can pretty much agree with that, whether you're 0:16:13.840 --> 0:16:16.360 a mom or not. Like the body that you know 0:16:17.040 --> 0:16:20.480 in your hottest bar dancing days, you still don't have that. 0:16:20.600 --> 0:16:23.800 And so I've really felt like I work my tail off, 0:16:23.880 --> 0:16:28.080 I work out, I eat clean, and it's just like 0:16:28.120 --> 0:16:31.200 the one thing that doesn't I don't know. I hope 0:16:31.240 --> 0:16:33.040 people don't rip me apart for crying about this. 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:37.880 Well, first of all, your emotions are your emotions, So 0:16:37.920 --> 0:16:39.880 no one can rip you apart for having emotions about 0:16:39.920 --> 0:16:43.640 anything that makes you feel insecure or uncomfortable or anything. 0:16:44.160 --> 0:16:49.520 So don't let that be a deterrent. But I mean 0:16:49.600 --> 0:16:53.320 not to like interrupt you, but to say, you know, so, 0:16:54.040 --> 0:16:56.240 why what is it that's holding like do you want 0:16:56.280 --> 0:16:57.120 to have surgery? 0:16:57.240 --> 0:16:57.960 Do you want to? 0:16:59.280 --> 0:17:01.840 Or you're you're saying you're held back because you feel 0:17:01.880 --> 0:17:02.760 like it's superficial. 0:17:03.160 --> 0:17:05.520 I don't know. I mean, I do think I'm superficial 0:17:05.560 --> 0:17:09.160 for having fake thiss. No, I really don't. That's why 0:17:09.200 --> 0:17:11.000 I'm like, and why is it so hard for me 0:17:11.040 --> 0:17:13.480 to make this? I here's the other place I go to. 0:17:13.520 --> 0:17:16.200 I'm forty three now, and if they feel like this now, 0:17:16.320 --> 0:17:18.560 it's not like gravity is in my favor. As time 0:17:18.600 --> 0:17:20.720 goes on. We've all seen our grandma's boobs when we 0:17:20.760 --> 0:17:24.160 didn't want to when we were we did bless or seven. 0:17:24.480 --> 0:17:26.400 So I think I'm like, Okay, I'm gonna I think 0:17:26.480 --> 0:17:28.200 I'll get to a place where I'm going to go, gosh, 0:17:28.200 --> 0:17:30.680 I wish I would have done that, you know, ten 0:17:30.760 --> 0:17:33.920 years ago. And I also know we're done having babies, 0:17:34.160 --> 0:17:36.960 and so like, this is the body I'm working with now, 0:17:37.119 --> 0:17:39.960 and I don't. I do not want an implant. That's 0:17:40.160 --> 0:17:42.520 nothing against anyone. I just I think because I already 0:17:42.600 --> 0:17:44.639 have so many foreign things in my body, like the 0:17:44.720 --> 0:17:46.640 rods and the wires and the like, I don't need 0:17:46.680 --> 0:17:50.159 any of that. I just, for some reason, I just 0:17:50.320 --> 0:17:55.760 feel this like immense amount of guilt for even wanting it. Why. 0:17:56.680 --> 0:18:00.200 I don't know. I think because I have a healthy body. Sure, 0:18:00.600 --> 0:18:04.080 but you also if there's something that you would want 0:18:04.119 --> 0:18:06.719 to do to. So I think it's I think this 0:18:06.800 --> 0:18:10.200 is like twofold. The first thing is, as we're getting older, 0:18:10.600 --> 0:18:13.119 like you said, our bodies are changing. I mean, I've 0:18:14.600 --> 0:18:16.800 I haven't done botox in a year now. I've seen that. 0:18:16.920 --> 0:18:20.520 I'm I can see my face is changing, ring goals, 0:18:20.760 --> 0:18:24.640 I don't look the same like I did some of it. 0:18:24.800 --> 0:18:28.960 I feel like I look better now that I'm thinking prettier, 0:18:29.600 --> 0:18:31.600 but also there's other pieces of me that I'm like, 0:18:31.600 --> 0:18:33.000 oh gosh, And the other day I'm like, god, I 0:18:33.200 --> 0:18:35.479 think I I think I need to make the decision 0:18:35.480 --> 0:18:39.520 to do botox again because I just I just look old. 0:18:39.600 --> 0:18:43.000 And so I've noticed I've started to talk down a 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:45.560 bit more to myself. But I'm also realizing we're just 0:18:45.600 --> 0:18:48.760 getting older too, and yeah, we're just we're changing. And 0:18:48.800 --> 0:18:51.320 I don't think there's necessarily and I'm not trying to 0:18:51.359 --> 0:18:53.200 go like I don't want to be twenty again, right, 0:18:53.320 --> 0:18:56.439 you know, I truly don't. I actually really love this 0:18:56.480 --> 0:18:58.600 forty three year old body. I feel like it's stronger 0:18:58.640 --> 0:19:02.720 than it's ever been. So that's why. But I thought 0:19:02.760 --> 0:19:06.600 it was a good topic. I'm hoping there's some solidarity 0:19:07.480 --> 0:19:09.720 and some of the women out there. But I also 0:19:09.760 --> 0:19:12.520 I'm like, you have elected to get the surgery, and 0:19:12.560 --> 0:19:15.400 it was like not, I felt like I never saw 0:19:15.440 --> 0:19:17.840 you struggle. And I'm like, ashhn't. Why can't I see 0:19:17.880 --> 0:19:21.720 high as a kite on Easter post it Eastern Jana. 0:19:21.760 --> 0:19:23.600 I wish we had a video of Eastern Janna. And 0:19:23.640 --> 0:19:25.800 I'm really not trying to be over dramatic. That's like 0:19:25.920 --> 0:19:28.359 I just I think because I have had friends that 0:19:28.400 --> 0:19:30.960 have breast cancer and they've had to have these big surgeries, 0:19:31.000 --> 0:19:32.880 and I'm going, the girls are so healthy, and then 0:19:33.359 --> 0:19:35.399 is it this weird thing that society has put on 0:19:35.520 --> 0:19:36.800 us that we have to look a certain way. But 0:19:36.880 --> 0:19:39.320 I don't necessarily need them to be a certain cup 0:19:39.359 --> 0:19:41.439 size or anything. I would just love for them to, 0:19:42.320 --> 0:19:44.360 you know, take a few steps up. I would love 0:19:44.400 --> 0:19:46.560 to be able to get dressed and not you know. 0:19:47.000 --> 0:19:49.639 And I think there's I think that's an you know, 0:19:50.080 --> 0:19:52.800 oh cat comment on this too. But I think it's 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:56.000