Speaker 1: Coming up. Keep it positive, sweetie.
Speaker 2: My question was like, yo, what is my real purpose?
Speaker 2: Same thing?
Speaker 3: Like, you know, with the talent and everything that I
Speaker 3: pour in to be the best that I could be,
Speaker 3: why are not you know, put up.
Speaker 1: Here in the light?
Speaker 2: And then you know, for me to clarity was.
Speaker 3: You know, sometimes you're not supposed to be in the
Speaker 3: light because you are the light.
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.
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Speaker 1: her bio on Instagram, that's how Rhapsody identifies, with a
Speaker 1: style of her own and afloat draped in the essence
Speaker 1: of true hip hop. Rhapsody has evolved into one of
Speaker 1: the genre's most important voices. With twenty years in the
Speaker 1: hip hop game and lyrics that Reese's soul rapsit has
Speaker 1: cemented her place at top hip hop's most elite. I'm
Speaker 1: so grateful to spend some time with her today and
Speaker 1: talk to her about where she's come from and where
Speaker 1: she's going rap. Thank you so much for coming. Happy
Speaker 1: to listen no, I'm seriously like, I just had you write.
Speaker 1: She was my ghostwriter for the ve Et Ciphers, So
Speaker 1: that was my first time getting to meet you. Been
Speaker 1: a huge fan, and then I got to come to
Speaker 1: one of your shows recently here in Atlanta.
Speaker 2: I was so happy to see girl.
Speaker 1: That was my first time seeing you live.
Speaker 3: I'm glad that was the first show because these other
Speaker 3: years I've been working my way up to that.
Speaker 1: So I was just I was literally blown away. I
Speaker 1: was just like this because you're so like till, your
Speaker 1: demeanor super chillul. When you hit that stage, the other
Speaker 1: personality comes out.
Speaker 2: I was like, like, who was that?
Speaker 1: Yeah, right right? Have you always been like so chill?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: I grew up shy, really busy, say have talent shows,
Speaker 3: and my mom will always try to get me in it.
Speaker 3: I was Paula Abdul one time you hearing the Cat, Yeah,
Speaker 3: I was the cat and I was supposed to I
Speaker 3: got on stage.
Speaker 2: I was like, absolutely not.
Speaker 3: But my mom like she's really into that. Like she's
Speaker 3: the youngest of thirteen kids, so she's the fun one.
Speaker 3: So every family union she was Tina Turner Wow, and
Speaker 3: I had to be her backup ground dancer. So we
Speaker 3: watch Tina Turner study the videos, the movements every year
Speaker 3: and that's where I learned to like really perform like she.
Speaker 2: She's the beginning of that for me. Wow, She'll have moms.
Speaker 1: I love it.
Speaker 3: But I mean I think like I was in La
Speaker 3: last night and the homies were like you, you are
Speaker 3: so confident. And I think because I've gone through this
Speaker 3: healing phase and I love myself more and I'm more
Speaker 3: secure in myself, I can be more free on stage
Speaker 3: to allow people to see all parts of me.
Speaker 1: Wow, I want to talk about that because I just
Speaker 1: recently went through a healing stage where I feel more
Speaker 1: comfort with my own skin. I know who I am.
Speaker 1: Nobody can tell me who I am anymore. You know
Speaker 1: a lot of times you're like, well, who do you
Speaker 1: say I am? Like, okay, okay, this is cool. No,
Speaker 1: Like I know what I like, what I don't like?
Speaker 1: What was that transition like through that healing phase?
Speaker 3: Yes, doing a healing phase, man, you really have to
Speaker 3: sit with yourself and be honest with yourself. Forgive yourself
Speaker 3: for some things, for not taking care of yourself and
Speaker 3: not speaking up for yourself. Because I think I had
Speaker 3: put myself in situations that you know, left me in
Speaker 3: a bad place, trying to be there for other people,
Speaker 3: trying to be that thing for other people, and you
Speaker 3: go home and mentally like it's so much.
Speaker 2: You're not happy, You're.
Speaker 3: Carrying a lot, and you have to learn, like I
Speaker 3: have to affirm myself, like I can't let this world
Speaker 3: do it. I can't, you know, look for the validation.
Speaker 3: I can't be sad if I don't get a certain
Speaker 3: you know, like let the ego part go. And I
Speaker 3: just had to learn to be happy with me. Whatever
Speaker 3: is for me is for me. Like I'm not trying
Speaker 3: to make y'all happy. I'm trying to make me happy.
Speaker 3: And I think once I understood that, it just fell
Speaker 3: into place. But it was a journey, like you know,
Speaker 3: it's not easier. It's not a lot of crying, a
Speaker 3: lot of solitude, like I ain't want to talk to nobody.
Speaker 3: It was during the pandemic, so that was a rough
Speaker 3: time for everybody. Yeah, I didn't turn the TV on.
Speaker 3: I hardly watch TV. Like my one of my best
Speaker 3: friends BYAKA loves.
Speaker 1: You Love Yeah, I love her Like you ain't seen.
Speaker 2: Sisters, I said, I haven't watched TV like that in
Speaker 2: four years.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I don't know what it is, but it's
Speaker 3: just like I just had everything felt like fantasy illusion
Speaker 3: and you in the music.
Speaker 1: Industry on top of that, Yeah, it's a lot.
Speaker 3: You know, they tell you these things are real, but
Speaker 3: you realize that's not the reality of the world. So
Speaker 3: I was just sitting with a lot and shitting with
Speaker 3: a lot and I had to learn my own truth
Speaker 3: and reality.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Wow, I love that because so many times, like
Speaker 1: we see I see you on stage, you wouldn't even
Speaker 1: know that you had to deal with something like that.
Speaker 1: And we all have our own journeys, things that we're
Speaker 1: trying to figure out. Shit we're trying to work through.
Speaker 1: Like me, like I know myself, Like people look like
Speaker 1: she's got it all together.
Speaker 2: No I don't.
Speaker 1: And my brother can tell you because he helped me
Speaker 1: hold it together, cause i'd be like, ah, you know,
Speaker 1: it's like those times, and there's times where they don't
Speaker 1: understand when you're in the light and you're pushed out
Speaker 1: there so much, you need those moments by yourself.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I want to ask you, like, as your stardom and
Speaker 1: your star continued to rise, like did that play a
Speaker 1: part in like, this is a lot. I need to
Speaker 1: figure this out. Did you feel that heaviness in that weight?
Speaker 2: Not so much.
Speaker 3: I'm talking about this earlier, like I'm I'm still I
Speaker 3: don't feel like I'm that famous where it's it's that
Speaker 3: much pressure for me.
Speaker 1: I put London, they know who you are.
Speaker 2: You were wide.
Speaker 1: What are you talking about?
Speaker 2: You were wide?
Speaker 1: Okay, they won world wide, but ID like they was like.
Speaker 2: You can't buy yourself.
Speaker 3: I was like, here, I try to travel myself a lot,
Speaker 3: you know, and I think I put more pressure on
Speaker 3: myself than anything because I feel like I have to
Speaker 3: check all these boxes off to be successful. And it's
Speaker 3: really not that. It's like I wake up and I
Speaker 3: get to do what I love every day. I'm happy,
Speaker 3: I'm at peace, I could eat. I like food me too.
Speaker 3: The only one thing I need more money because I
Speaker 3: like expensive clothes.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 2: I want to try to go thrift to and all that,
Speaker 2: but I just have attraction too expensive clothes.
Speaker 5: No.
Speaker 1: Literally, when I'm online shopping, I was like, ooh, I
Speaker 1: love it. It's like five thousand dollars, but of course
Speaker 1: it's five thousand dollars. Why is my eye drawn.
Speaker 2: To that that is me.
Speaker 3: I'm just like you know, I don't need a big house,
Speaker 3: I don't need five cars.
Speaker 2: I just need a call of it full of fly
Speaker 2: cloth happy. So you know, I had to learn.
Speaker 3: Those things like you think, you know in my profession anyway,
Speaker 3: like you gotta get the Grammy, need my BT Awards,
Speaker 3: need the NAAC, you know, like and it's like, yo,
Speaker 3: you just gotta touch people at the end of the day,
Speaker 3: you know. And that's why this tour has been like
Speaker 3: I tell people it's my place of peace because in healings,
Speaker 3: it's not linear, right right, like I have my days,
Speaker 3: whereas there was some day on this tour, I did
Speaker 3: a lot of crime. Really yeah, like frustrated, like you know,
Speaker 3: just reverting back. And it was the shows Meet and Greece,
Speaker 3: like you know, people affirming you.
Speaker 2: Like the stories I heard.
Speaker 3: You know that can feel like it could be weight,
Speaker 3: but I don't make it. Wait, Like one of the
Speaker 3: girl told me, she was like, You're the reason I'm
Speaker 3: still here today. Like you know, you go, we go
Speaker 3: in and I write through lived experiences and I look
Speaker 3: at the but we make this music and you never
Speaker 3: know where it's gonna go. And how it's gonna affect
Speaker 3: people until you meet these people. Like that was just
Speaker 3: one story. Another lady was like, my baby was born
Speaker 3: with half a heart and the only way I was
Speaker 3: able to get through her surgeries was listening to your
Speaker 3: song Faith. It was just so many things. Another guy
Speaker 3: like my mom was murdered and you know, and it's
Speaker 3: just like, Okay, none of the other stuff matters. It's
Speaker 3: great to be acknowledged for your work, but it's it's
Speaker 3: always the people. So I'm thankful for this tour because
Speaker 3: it keeps me centered.
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, no, I know exactly what you mean, because
Speaker 1: I'm pretty new to this, you know, to starving celebrity.
Speaker 1: It's maybe about four years, but as a like one
Speaker 1: inspiring actor and wanting to like just be at the top,
Speaker 1: Like I got caught up in that, like dang, like
Speaker 1: why hasn't our show gotten any awards? And like we're
Speaker 1: number one? You see the numbers. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Like I got caught up in like wanting the accolades.
Speaker 1: And then I also always wonder why I are never
Speaker 1: worried about that because you look back and you see
Speaker 1: all the people that you've touched, What are you really
Speaker 1: here for what is the mission? And I was like,
Speaker 1: got it? You know, And I think for me, acting
Speaker 1: was a vessel to get the notoriety to do this
Speaker 1: because the amount of people that I reach on a
Speaker 1: more personal level, on a more level where it's like
Speaker 1: you saved my life or it's because of you that
Speaker 1: I'm still living like you.
Speaker 2: I don't look at it as a weight.
Speaker 1: It's a blessing and an honor to be able to
Speaker 1: tell my story and be honest and transparent that I
Speaker 1: can help people. So I told it, I get it
Speaker 1: because I was like that too. I was like, dang,
Speaker 1: why ain't got this? And like the industry would make
Speaker 1: you feel like, oh, you ain't doing nothing.
Speaker 3: They will and things have changed so much, like it's
Speaker 3: just different. You know, everything is about numbers and that
Speaker 3: can be the illusion of it. It's not so much
Speaker 3: about talent and the image of things. So you know,
Speaker 3: when that changes, we have to change with it, you
Speaker 3: know what we look at.
Speaker 2: But the people are all They're going to keep us
Speaker 2: here for us.
Speaker 6: That will.
Speaker 2: Like I was telling somebody, I took my mushroom.
Speaker 3: Like that was my that was my you know, they say,
Speaker 3: ask just there's a question that you want to have answer,
Speaker 3: you may have your answer when you have that type
Speaker 3: of clarity.
Speaker 6: Wow.
Speaker 2: And my question was like, yo, what is my real purpose?
Speaker 3: Same thing, like, you know, with the talent and everything
Speaker 3: that I pour into be the best that I could be?
Speaker 3: Why are not you know, put up here in the light?
Speaker 3: And then you know, for me, the clarity was, you know,
Speaker 3: sometimes you're not supposed to be in the light because
Speaker 3: you are the light.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Yes you are.
Speaker 3: And I was with my homeboy, Niko Brahm, who's my artist,
Speaker 3: and he's like, your rap, you gotta understand. He was like,
Speaker 3: you know, like you don't know like how much many
Speaker 3: people look at you. It's like it's like you want
Speaker 3: an unbeaten path.
Speaker 2: You just got a machete and you should shoo shoo
Speaker 2: shoow so.
Speaker 3: We can walk behind you. And I was like, damn,
Speaker 3: I appreciate that perspective. And I was, and I you know,
Speaker 3: I thought, I was like, but so many people have
Speaker 3: cleared the path for me, and I had to think, like,
Speaker 3: but it's been untended to yes, so yeah, the weeds
Speaker 3: have grown up yea, So now you have to go
Speaker 3: in and be that and you know that was that
Speaker 3: was my clarity.
Speaker 1: Wow, I love that. That is beautiful Navigate. I did
Speaker 1: music too. I'm working on some music now. But when
Speaker 1: I first moved to Atlanta, I was working on music,
Speaker 1: and as a woman in the industry, it was really
Speaker 1: hard for me because it's such a male dominated industry
Speaker 1: and when you're do anybody yourself. I was really like
Speaker 1: just working relationships, trying to figure it out. What has
Speaker 1: been your path working in this industry.
Speaker 2: I can say mine has been blessed. You know.
Speaker 3: I've heard some horse story, yeah, and you know, the
Speaker 3: industry getting a bad rap. I don't think everybody's experiences
Speaker 3: like that. I'm not saying mine was all good. You know,
Speaker 3: anything you want to have, it's gonna be challenged, absolutely.
Speaker 3: But I came up under ninth wondering young gul Wow,
Speaker 3: and I could say in the early stages of my career,
Speaker 3: the men really looked out for me.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 3: They were the first two that saw my talent, that
Speaker 3: poured into me, that told me I could do it.
Speaker 3: Because being from where I'm from, like a small town
Speaker 3: in snow Hill, North Carolina, for me, I never had
Speaker 3: exposure to that type of success to be able to
Speaker 3: think like I never had anybody I could look to
Speaker 3: touch same you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I was like, I want to do that. I have
Speaker 2: no idea how you know.
Speaker 3: So they were the first ones, but they protected me.
Speaker 3: Like the first thing they sat down and told me was,
Speaker 3: before you do anything in this industry, before you get
Speaker 3: in the booth and record a song, I want you
Speaker 3: to define your line. The line you will not cross,
Speaker 3: you will not lose yourself over. They made me do
Speaker 3: that before anything, since I had to sit and know
Speaker 3: who I was first, and a lot of artists asked
Speaker 3: me for advice. I said, before you do anything, you
Speaker 3: have to ask yourself, who am I? What do I
Speaker 3: want to do in this business? That'll answer all the
Speaker 3: questions of how you moved from now? And we just
Speaker 3: moved with intention like that organic, authentic everything that we
Speaker 3: had like it was off organic relationships, like just building
Speaker 3: with people. I got nothing easy. I had to learn
Speaker 3: every bit I had. I wouldn't want it any other. No,
Speaker 3: you know anything easy, you lose it easy? Yeah, I
Speaker 3: say that, And you know there are some challenges, like
Speaker 3: you know, as a woman, I had to work ten
Speaker 3: times harder coming up in the era that I did.
Speaker 3: You know, it was early two thousands, so it was like,
Speaker 3: you know, the late nineties, early two thousands, a woman
Speaker 3: image and hip hop change, you know, yep. And so
Speaker 3: it was like finding our way back into that. And
Speaker 3: I felt like I had such a hard fight with them,
Speaker 3: you know. And it wasn't about the sexual image to me,
Speaker 3: it was all about the talent. I didn't have a
Speaker 3: strong sisterhood village at that time, right, Like, I'm so
Speaker 3: excited to see so many women now and to see
Speaker 3: like their friends.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think that's so dope.
Speaker 3: I didn't get that experience, know, so the God Kendrick
Speaker 3: held me down, Big crit held me down, Yeah, held
Speaker 3: me down. Nipsey held me down. Like the guys really
Speaker 3: looked out for me. So you know that's but otherwise
Speaker 3: it was just it was just really hustle. I just
Speaker 3: put my head down.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 3: I wouldn't take no for an answer, you know, yep.
Speaker 3: And you know it was like I've been called everything ugly.
Speaker 3: I was chunky there, you fat, You'll never make it.
Speaker 3: Nobody wants to hear that you're boring, you know, it's
Speaker 3: too black, like it's just thing a thing, and a
Speaker 3: lot of it from the early beginnings was from black
Speaker 3: women and that, you know, I remember that that was
Speaker 3: probably the hardest way that I had to like but
Speaker 3: you know, you find your village. Yeah, yeah, And this
Speaker 3: season is so beautiful. I can see it on Your
Speaker 3: energy is just so like like.
Speaker 1: What you said, you're looking for the light, but you
Speaker 1: are the light and not see that in you And
Speaker 1: I love that you found that piece of happiness in
Speaker 1: this season. You said something about sister circles in the
Speaker 1: in the industry. Have you found like your sister circle
Speaker 1: in the industry?
Speaker 5: Now?
Speaker 1: Are you still with the boys? I mean, I'm old
Speaker 1: you with everybody? Yeah?
Speaker 3: Nah, it's I grew up with boys all my life.
Speaker 3: Like I'm from a big family. My mom is one
Speaker 3: of thirteen, but all my cousins around my age were boys,
Speaker 3: So that's what I was used to comfortable with. But
Speaker 3: it's you know, you grow up and you really experience
Speaker 3: life and you realize it's not till you find you
Speaker 3: like your sisterhood village. I have like four or five
Speaker 3: really really close best friends, and I was like, I
Speaker 3: understand the importance of having sisterhood now because the way
Speaker 3: we show up for each other and the way that
Speaker 3: we see each other and understand what we go through.
Speaker 3: I can't really have with guys, and they have been
Speaker 3: my rock. But in the industry, like I have a
Speaker 3: beautiful village, Ray Digga, Queen Latifah mc light, Erica by
Speaker 3: do like the last two or three years, we built
Speaker 3: a beautiful friendship. She's one of my best friends. I
Speaker 3: love her to death. So Nihilatan, you are now in
Speaker 3: my village of course. Yes, Beyonca, Sherry Bryant's and even
Speaker 3: like the girls Lady London.
Speaker 1: I love her.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Tierra Wack I talked to her, so yeah, I'm
Speaker 3: so happy.
Speaker 1: It's amazing. Do you guys talk to each other about
Speaker 1: like your struggles in the industry are like what you
Speaker 1: may be battling in this certain season, especially like the
Speaker 1: women like in the industry that you're cool with.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Light has.
Speaker 3: Given me advice sometimes Bia has hit me before asking
Speaker 3: for advice. I've given her advice.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love it. I love it.
Speaker 3: It's very important to me because I know how it
Speaker 3: feels to not have that, yeause, so I try to
Speaker 3: for me anyway. I extent myself to everybody but clean
Speaker 3: my teeth, hats taking me under her wing and giving
Speaker 3: me advice, Like, but I.
Speaker 2: Do is always giving me advice.
Speaker 3: You know, my sit I didn't sit down like this
Speaker 3: with her talk for maybe just twenty minutes, and she
Speaker 3: dropped so many jewels like it was past music.
Speaker 2: It was just life love relationships.
Speaker 1: Yeah. So yeah, do you ever just sit back and
Speaker 1: when you were like, think about the names you just name,
Speaker 1: like these are people that are sowing into me. They'll
Speaker 1: be like, wow, these are like icons that we grew
Speaker 1: up to. Now this is your life.
Speaker 6: Like that crazy.
Speaker 3: It's so crazy. It's like it's twofold, right. I definitely
Speaker 3: look at that. I'd be like, yo, me and be
Speaker 3: Be are really cool. But I'm like at the end
Speaker 3: of the day, they's just like me too, you know.
Speaker 3: And they'll have people hit me and they're like, yo,
Speaker 3: we got to meet and greet. I don't know what
Speaker 3: to say to you, and I'm just like just being something.
Speaker 3: I mean, I'm the homegirl, right, They like they want
Speaker 3: the same thing. But it is crazy because like I
Speaker 3: grew up being inspired by these women, right.
Speaker 1: Mama's gun Listen.
Speaker 3: Said when I started rapping up times are wasting was
Speaker 3: like my soundtrack. Yeah, don't waste your time every day
Speaker 3: like Lauren have. I don't have a deep relationship, but
Speaker 3: I'm able to email her.
Speaker 2: It's like those things.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but yeah, light like em light calls meeting the
Speaker 3: most rappity rap.
Speaker 2: I'm just checking on you where you at. Like it's
Speaker 2: just so dope.
Speaker 1: That's beautiful And it warns my heart to hear that
Speaker 1: because a lot of times I feel like in our culture,
Speaker 1: especially in our in our society, we don't see that
Speaker 1: in the black community. Yeah, just like you said, there
Speaker 1: was when you were sit hearing these comments. It was
Speaker 1: mainly from women that look like you and like, so
Speaker 1: it feels really good to know that, like we're checking
Speaker 1: on each other, doing those check ins because is important.
Speaker 1: So yeah, because they can see you on stage and
Speaker 1: I know you're hurting when you go into the dressing room.
Speaker 3: Boy, you know, I'm trying to tell you. Some days
Speaker 3: I'll be like, yeah, they knew how it started my day.
Speaker 1: Baby.
Speaker 2: Oh.
Speaker 1: I had a moment like that one few seasons ago.
Speaker 1: It was an episode with even Marcel and I was
Speaker 1: in my closet just like trying to cry and trying
Speaker 1: to get it together and got on the sofa and
Speaker 1: I literally was like she said something and I just
Speaker 1: lost it and I was like, if you knew what
Speaker 1: I was going through before I wiped those series off,
Speaker 1: like hey, you would be like what you know? And
Speaker 1: they don't see that. They don't. So it's always good
Speaker 1: to have good people to check on you. Yep, check
Speaker 1: on your strong friends. I know people hear that and
Speaker 1: things cliche, but seriously, check on your strong friends.
Speaker 2: And it could be just as simple as just sitting
Speaker 2: a note yep, Like I just randomly check somebody like
Speaker 2: create a great day, breathe easy, Yeah, ooh I love that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, sent me one day at random, like I declare.
Speaker 3: She had like twelve things to declare that day and
Speaker 3: I was just like, my saving. So it's just things
Speaker 3: like that. But we got to get back to community.
Speaker 3: We've gotten so far away from community.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's what we were build on, you know, like
Speaker 3: looking out for each other and making sure you heard them.
Speaker 3: I'm about to go, I'm about to be random. Heard
Speaker 3: of this term called ekey guy.
Speaker 2: So it's based on this small island in Japan where
Speaker 2: the oldest people live, and it's like, why do they
Speaker 2: live so long, and they practice this thing called ekey
Speaker 2: guy and it's living within your purpose. And so the
Speaker 2: whole community they walk a lot every day, they eat
Speaker 2: like a lot of rice, they only eat to eight
Speaker 2: percent full. But I thought it was so dope that if.
Speaker 3: Someone in the village and everybody has to get a
Speaker 3: job in their purpose that makes them happy.
Speaker 2: You have to do things that make you enjoy.
Speaker 3: But if somebody loses their job, they're about having those
Speaker 3: stress in life. So the community take care take care
Speaker 3: of that person until they get back on their feet.
Speaker 2: Wow.
Speaker 3: And I just think about, like if it's all operated
Speaker 3: from that place.
Speaker 1: Like I don't know, I like that. Yeah, that is
Speaker 1: maybe you should like kind of create like a space
Speaker 1: for that, yeah, just to get people's minds in that space,
Speaker 1: like you know what. Yeah, we should like continue to
Speaker 1: support each other and help each other. Yeah, I love that.
Speaker 1: I recently went to Costa Rica won the five blue
Speaker 1: zones where people live the longest. Now I feel it's
Speaker 1: probably like one because there is one I feel like
Speaker 1: in Japan as well. It may be the place. Yeah,
Speaker 1: because where I went to the people they grew their
Speaker 1: own food, They hiked every morning and like they did
Speaker 1: the cold plunges in the natural river did the hot
Speaker 1: plunge in the natural like they had different spaces. But
Speaker 1: these people lived to be over one hundred years and
Speaker 1: even cooking for their families was a way to show
Speaker 1: love and to exercise.
Speaker 2: Same, yes, the same. Yeah we got the cold.
Speaker 1: Yeah right, we so far gone to America. It's like,
Speaker 1: but I won't chick fil a. Now. You told me
Speaker 1: earlier that you are now vegan, and I told you
Speaker 1: seeking on about longevity. I told you about my v journey.
Speaker 2: Don't do what I did.
Speaker 1: So when I was vigan, I was vegan for about
Speaker 1: two years. Shout out Luke James. He actually inspired me
Speaker 1: to go vegan a few years ago. This is probably
Speaker 1: like maybe was it five years ago?
Speaker 6: Geese?
Speaker 1: Around five years ago? I did for two years.
Speaker 2: What did he do with that? Inspired you?
Speaker 1: He was vegan. This's when he was filming Star and
Speaker 1: I did a Thanksgiving like a friend's giving, but he
Speaker 1: was like, I'm vegan. I was like great, So now
Speaker 1: I got to figure out vegan Thanksgiving as well as
Speaker 1: the normal southern thingsgiving. So I did it, and I tried,
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh, this isn't half bad. I
Speaker 1: was like, I can do this stuff. I can still
Speaker 1: have what tastes like what I want. So they had
Speaker 1: like vegan turkey, vegan mac and cheese, the sweet Tata
Speaker 1: cast a role all the things. I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: even the stuffing didn't have milk in it, so it worked.
Speaker 1: So I was like, I could do this. So I
Speaker 1: stuck with it. My cramps and everything went it way
Speaker 1: cause I had like really bad cramps for my minstrel
Speaker 1: and I was like I can do this until they
Speaker 1: ordered them JR cricket wings. That broke it baby loud.
Speaker 1: I mean, I was like, just give me one that
Speaker 1: was a red scratch like a little cracker. I was like
Speaker 1: giving one of the waing's, so I would chew the
Speaker 1: wing and spin it out just like it. I thought
Speaker 1: that you girl, they were makeing like you gotta fake began.
Speaker 1: I said, I'm a flancetarian. That's why I did not
Speaker 1: go in my body the juices.
Speaker 2: I got it.
Speaker 6: I got that fix.
Speaker 2: I made it my cravings.
Speaker 1: I'm telling you it was. They've made my like, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: I was vegans. Somebody who was around the time. They
Speaker 1: were like, she was not vegan. She was eating chicken
Speaker 1: and spitting out.
Speaker 2: I was like, it was technically eat it. I chow did?
Speaker 1: Did what actually like inspired you to go vegan? I'm
Speaker 1: always interested in.
Speaker 3: Chicken chest because I felt like, you know Grand Luck's
Speaker 3: cafe out here, Yes, they have this bourbon chicken. It's
Speaker 3: got like this sauce on it. With One day, I
Speaker 3: stared at her on door dash for thirty minutes.
Speaker 2: I was like, it's today gonna be to day, I
Speaker 2: believe cause I could just taste it about it what
Speaker 2: inspired me?
Speaker 3: I was in the studio session with Amanda Rifer and
Speaker 3: she and her manager were talking about a cleans that
Speaker 3: they did and they were like, yo rap, Like you know,
Speaker 3: we lost weight, but they were like we had the
Speaker 3: most energy we ever had, Like we felt this state
Speaker 3: of euphoria.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 3: And I was like I wanna feel like, yeah, I
Speaker 3: don't know what that feels like. And I had been
Speaker 3: like wanting to go bigger for him a while, but
Speaker 3: I was like I don't, Yeah, I don't know how
Speaker 3: to get this. So I was like, Okay, before tour,
Speaker 3: I'm gonna do this cleans, you know. So it was
Speaker 3: it was it's a pretty intense clean. It's twenty one days. Wow.
Speaker 3: And I just started it one day, and it was
Speaker 3: I had the most energy because I have Graves disease,
Speaker 3: so my metabolism is low and you know, s W
Speaker 3: when I travel a lot, I could miss pill some
Speaker 3: my you know. So I would go home and I
Speaker 3: could nap four or five times a day.
Speaker 2: It was like I could never get enough sleep.
Speaker 3: So I started this cleanse, and I had the most
Speaker 3: energy I've ever had in a long time.
Speaker 1: Like I didn't.
Speaker 2: I would lay down at least try to take one nap.
Speaker 2: I couldn't naps.
Speaker 1: I get back up.
Speaker 3: It was like I had restless leg I just always
Speaker 3: wanted to be moving. I would go to the gym
Speaker 3: and he'd be like, you're only doing juices. We He's
Speaker 3: like yeah, Like I was like, no, I'm good, Like
Speaker 3: you know I was. I was asking him to do
Speaker 3: more in the gym than normal. So I just felt
Speaker 3: really good. I reached the state of clarity in euphoria. My
Speaker 3: skin looked good. But I have been telling myself, like,
Speaker 3: I want to get to the point where I don't
Speaker 3: have to wear makeup if I don't want to, because
Speaker 3: my skin looks good enough. Yes, and yeah, I just
Speaker 3: felt good. So once I finished it, I was just like,
Speaker 3: I don't have an urge to go back, and I
Speaker 3: just I haven't gone back. Wow, I'm proud of you
Speaker 3: have been tasting good, Like now do you ever have
Speaker 3: like because for me, I was rob vegan for a
Speaker 3: while too, and I would tell my friends who come
Speaker 3: try this and it'd be like tacos, but it was
Speaker 3: like ground walnuts with some cumin and stuff, and I'm like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, it tastes just like tacos.
Speaker 1: Did not yourself. I was tricking myself and my friends
Speaker 1: like it's just.
Speaker 5: Not taste like a taco.
Speaker 1: I know the taco tastes like I'm like, girl, it
Speaker 1: tastes just like it like psyching myself out.
Speaker 2: It might have tasted because you don't us it be God, Yeah, dude.
Speaker 3: I tried to get my mom stopped drinking like certain
Speaker 3: types of water, like try this mountain valley.
Speaker 2: She'd be like, I don't like it. I was like,
Speaker 2: you see the toxic in your water? Little taste right,
Speaker 2: sound like that is funny?
Speaker 1: She went messing with the water to no, not at all,
Speaker 1: Like she makes like that's one of my friends who
Speaker 1: was around with I was eating chicken as a vegan.
Speaker 6: She was like, she's like then she.
Speaker 1: Would come in here and be like, oh, taste this,
Speaker 1: and she's like and did not tastes nothing like when
Speaker 1: it was supposed to taste like, oh my god, girl.
Speaker 1: I did though. It was good. It was right like you.
Speaker 1: I had so much energy. I felt really good. I
Speaker 1: was probably the best shape of my life. I go
Speaker 1: back and look at that twenty nineteen body. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: need Yeah. So right now I'm doing plant past plant
Speaker 1: based pescatarian, trying to like wean myself. I just couldn't
Speaker 1: quit everything. So I stopped the chicken. I stopped the
Speaker 1: steak because I love steak too. That's my problem. I
Speaker 1: love a good steak. So I cut that out and
Speaker 1: that like within probably like two weeks, I've already was
Speaker 1: I'd gotten them like two o five. I'm down to
Speaker 1: one ninety five. It's amazing, thank you, thank you, And
Speaker 1: I feel good. I'm like, okay, because I went to
Speaker 1: the doctor like two weeks ago to get every good
Speaker 1: blood taken, just check out everything. And she called me
Speaker 1: then and she's like, You're blood sugar level was pre diabetic.
Speaker 1: I said, wait, what how we get through and I
Speaker 1: don't even eat sweet. It's like, I'm not really a
Speaker 1: sweet person. I was like, She's like no, it's like
Speaker 1: she said, she said, I'm not gonna put you on
Speaker 1: anything because your lifestyle. You got a chef, you're eating better,
Speaker 1: ain't working out, but said we gotta monitor this. And
Speaker 1: my father he was diabetic and now he's like down
Speaker 1: the one pill. He gets up every morning like five
Speaker 1: am and works out. He doesn't eat as much. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Like he's like Dad is seventy two and like really
Speaker 1: like I'm so proud of him because I was like, Dad,
Speaker 1: I want you here. You know. I was like, we
Speaker 1: made it. You know what I'm saying that you got
Speaker 1: to experience all these amazing things, but you're not gonna
Speaker 1: do that if you if you keep eating and living
Speaker 1: the way you're living. And want to tell you he
Speaker 1: turned that thing around. He's like, now I'm down to
Speaker 1: just one pill a day, and I'm like he did so.
Speaker 3: Much just shaging our diet, you know, like how bad
Speaker 3: our food is. Like my dad is diabetic too, that
Speaker 3: runs on his side of the family. So it was
Speaker 3: something too. But like I remember, like before I went
Speaker 3: V and I would be in the gym working out,
Speaker 3: and I get down to like one forty five, I'm
Speaker 3: like yes, yes, And then you know, traveling two months,
Speaker 3: I'm back in one seventy and I'm just easy.
Speaker 2: Traveling is so hard, you know, because I don't know
Speaker 2: how to do hair.
Speaker 1: So okay, and I love Cybar. I love your like
Speaker 1: long bot. I've never even seen that. And at the
Speaker 1: show it's like it's.
Speaker 2: Her hair cut in the back.
Speaker 1: I thought it was just like pulled all to the front.
Speaker 1: She's like, no, it's a bother. I said, that's fire.
Speaker 1: I love your hair.
Speaker 2: Me Hill doing that, well, oh yeah, that's fire. But
Speaker 2: you know, on tour, them like these tracks are hanging
Speaker 2: on by a thread. That's why I keep my I
Speaker 2: keep something on my hair wrapped up because I've lost
Speaker 2: the track of the show before.
Speaker 1: You just got it. You gotta roll in the school days.
Speaker 1: Who's that's funny, you know.
Speaker 2: So it's just I forgot where I was.
Speaker 1: So you know, it's okay because I just had to
Speaker 1: tell you about your hair. So but yeah, like trying
Speaker 1: to keep up on the road, like you know, Like
Speaker 1: so I'm like I can't go to gym. I haven't
Speaker 1: swept my hair out. Food you know, you want something
Speaker 1: quick and it's late, like and especially I have Graves disease.
Speaker 1: My metabolism is already slow. Can you tell us exactly
Speaker 1: what Graves is easiest? Because I've heard of it, but
Speaker 1: I'm not really educated.
Speaker 2: On I haven't.
Speaker 3: Mister Elliott has it. It's an autoimmune disease, your thyroid.
Speaker 3: It's a butterfly shaped organ that sits right over.
Speaker 1: I just learned about that. The shape of it.
Speaker 3: Doctor, She's like, it's like, yeah, butterfly got like a
Speaker 3: bowtie kind of yeah. It's like a bull time and
Speaker 3: it creates a hormone. It's like the thermostat for your body.
Speaker 3: Creatures your body temperature, me and metabolism, you know, your
Speaker 3: mind sometimes Like it's it's a lot of part of
Speaker 3: the human body that it affects. So I got diagnosed
Speaker 3: in two thousand and nine. I was hyper so I
Speaker 3: was creating too much of a certain horn. My metabolism
Speaker 3: shot up. I could eat anything, and I was still
Speaker 3: like one ten. What Yeah, I got down to one.
Speaker 3: I hadn't been one ten since I was fourteen years old. Like,
Speaker 3: you know, my eyes bulged yep, Like at one point
Speaker 3: I thought I wanted surgery just to get them back
Speaker 3: to normal, but you know, they've gone down. And so
Speaker 3: I had to have radioactive iodine treatments and one didn't
Speaker 3: work for me.
Speaker 2: I had to have three, which is super rare.
Speaker 3: And so now I'm hypo, which means I don't create
Speaker 3: enough for the home, right. I have very slow metabolism,
Speaker 3: which tired brain fall. It can affect your memory, your joints.
Speaker 3: Like I was cold all the time and neemic, so
Speaker 3: all these things. But once I did that clean and
Speaker 3: started eating vegan, I was just like, I haven't felt.
Speaker 2: This good in a long time.
Speaker 1: Health as well, it is, yeah, and I'm glad that
Speaker 1: you were smart enough to be like, hey, let me
Speaker 1: go get this checked out because something's not right. Because
Speaker 1: a lot of times we let things just fly because
Speaker 1: we can still move around. I'm good, I'm good, but
Speaker 1: you know something isn't right. You have to trust listen
Speaker 1: and listen to your body. Yes.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and it's crazy, like I knew I knew someone
Speaker 3: to write just from the weight loss.
Speaker 2: I threw up one day. I never get sick, yeah,
Speaker 2: but I went to three or four doctors and they
Speaker 2: all were like nothing's wrong with you.
Speaker 3: Nothing's wrong with you. I woke up one day and
Speaker 3: my eyes had were bulging. Or my brother looked at me.
Speaker 3: He was like, why your throat so big?
Speaker 1: Right?
Speaker 3: And I had to develop on a small quarterer And
Speaker 3: my brother was the one that was like, wow, you
Speaker 3: got a quarter and that's how they figured out what
Speaker 3: was wrong.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I'm glad. Your brother was like, hey, sis, yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean he was looking at reading a joke for sure, right.
Speaker 3: So yeah, but you you know, like our healthcare system,
Speaker 3: especially with black people, and.
Speaker 1: That's why you said they sent four people. It was like, oh,
Speaker 1: you're fine, you're.
Speaker 3: Finding wrong with you, Like you know, I guess we
Speaker 3: superhuman out of this face, Like that's what that thing
Speaker 3: bothers us. So yeah, we have to listen to our
Speaker 3: body and demand and go back and go back. Like
Speaker 3: I watched my mom deal with that for almost twenty years.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 3: And I look back and I tell her all the time,
Speaker 3: I wish that we were more supportive, you know, of
Speaker 3: how you were feeling and what you were going through.
Speaker 2: Doctor, doctor, doctor.
Speaker 3: Doctor would be like, yo, the doctor said, nothing's wrong,
Speaker 3: and she's like, no, something something's wrong, Yes, right, so yeah,
Speaker 3: it was.
Speaker 2: It was a good reminder.
Speaker 1: I love that. I love that the police don't cry
Speaker 1: to her. I got to see this live, and what
Speaker 1: I'm seeing is like, this is one of your most
Speaker 1: trans your most transparent albums. What inspired this? And like,
Speaker 1: what made you say? You know what, I'm really going
Speaker 1: to just put it out there.
Speaker 3: I wanted to grow in that way. I wanted to
Speaker 3: have a better connection with my fans. You know, we
Speaker 3: sometimes in our process of like, yo, why aren't I
Speaker 3: more well received?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 3: And it's always a self I try to be self
Speaker 3: reflective with it and not projected out on other people.
Speaker 3: And it was like, Okay, maybe you make it too
Speaker 3: hard for people to break down your lyrics. It's you're
Speaker 3: so lyrical. That's why in the beginning it was heavy
Speaker 3: men fan based, when women like we operate sometimes for
Speaker 3: more emotionals. Yeah, and you know, I don't people don't
Speaker 3: want to think like they think all day at work,
Speaker 3: so I don't want to think too hard to break
Speaker 3: down all these lyrics. So it's just like, you know,
Speaker 3: I'm already in this healing phase and for me, when
Speaker 3: you do music, it should be a snapshot of your life.
Speaker 3: So you're already in this space, like just documented. But
Speaker 3: it was scary to put out, like I'm a private person.
Speaker 1: Very girl don't know except for your music. I was like,
Speaker 1: this girl is like under the radar.
Speaker 3: Like and when I thought like I was sharing things
Speaker 3: with my music, I realized, like, no, you were hiding
Speaker 3: the thing so deep in your lyrics, and it was
Speaker 3: because you were afraid for people to see you like
Speaker 3: I was. You know, I tell people like, I'm at
Speaker 3: the space now. I even want to go by my
Speaker 3: real name because I don't need rhaps City anymore. She
Speaker 3: was a protection from Marlana.
Speaker 2: Wow what I'm saying, Like.
Speaker 3: I understand where I was, you know, like I talk
Speaker 3: about a lot of things on the album, talk about abortion,
Speaker 3: I talk about, you know, having a relationship with a
Speaker 3: married man, my first experience, my one time experience with
Speaker 3: a woman, like it's you know, Alzheimer's, you know, family,
Speaker 3: you know the hard times that I go through personally
Speaker 3: with the music industry. You know, I'm gonna show up always,
Speaker 3: and you know you talk like loving let anybody see
Speaker 3: your car, see your weakness, so you.
Speaker 2: Know, but at home, like you say, like we're going
Speaker 2: through things.
Speaker 3: So it was like, the only way you can have
Speaker 3: a better connection with people is they have to see
Speaker 3: that you're human, you know.
Speaker 2: And it took my friends circle to get me there.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like two two three. Really, Misa Hilton was one
Speaker 3: of my friend Rayna Biddy, who's a poet that's annihilate
Speaker 3: than you know. During that phase, they were like my guys.
Speaker 3: They taught me so much about self reflection, about manipulation,
Speaker 3: about fear, and I had a lot of unlearning to
Speaker 3: do and relearning. But you know, it was a pandemic.
Speaker 3: I was just in the house just pouring out poorn out,
Speaker 3: like I had two album ideas before. I just you know,
Speaker 3: the pandemic you sit still and again TV was off
Speaker 3: and it was just like all these things that I
Speaker 3: was hoarding and holding, it just came in researchace and
Speaker 3: I just put it out in the music and I
Speaker 3: was just.
Speaker 2: Like, this is this is the album. Yeah, you know.
Speaker 6: So good.
Speaker 3: You want to grow, you have to do the hard things,
Speaker 3: And it's the best decision that I made that I
Speaker 3: had to make.
Speaker 2: It scared, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, because you.
Speaker 3: Know, it was like I'm afraid of the world to
Speaker 3: judge me. But I learned that nobody is perfect, you know.
Speaker 3: And what I learned and putting out these albums, a
Speaker 3: lot of people have been through a lot of things.
Speaker 1: That you've been through.
Speaker 3: You can say I'll never do that and never do
Speaker 3: that until you're in a situation and you're like, I
Speaker 3: don't know how I got here. I'm not happy about
Speaker 3: this decision I made, but I got to learn from
Speaker 3: the experience and I got to share it and hopefully
Speaker 3: you know it's a guy for somebody else, you know,
Speaker 3: or healing from somebody else, So you know.
Speaker 1: I love it. I love And I could tell by
Speaker 1: just the crowd participation and how everybody was singing a
Speaker 1: lyric for a lyric right there with you, how they
Speaker 1: resonate with it. That was proof that you opening up
Speaker 1: and they've been resonating with you. But that the passion
Speaker 1: that the people were rapping. I was like, oh, I
Speaker 1: could feel it, like you could literally like feel it
Speaker 1: in the room.
Speaker 2: It was so dope. I'll have my internet is I
Speaker 2: can't hear it?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know when I put my literally can't hear anything.
Speaker 1: I'm like, but you can feel it though, you can
Speaker 1: like feel the vibrations of the energy they were It
Speaker 1: was crazy. Actually, I'm going to show you when we wrapped,
Speaker 1: I had some I'm sure you've seen the footage, but
Speaker 1: when you went into the crowd and all the cameras
Speaker 1: were on you, it was so dope. I was like,
Speaker 1: this is when she went into the crowd.
Speaker 5: I was like, this is a rock star right here.
Speaker 2: We started that in Chicago.
Speaker 3: Like I was on stage and they were so crazy
Speaker 3: and jopped my playback engineer.
Speaker 2: He was in my ear. He was like, you gotta
Speaker 2: go in the crowd. I was like, what go in
Speaker 2: the crowd?
Speaker 1: It was They loved that, Yeah, it was. I was like, wait,
Speaker 1: where is she? I was like, she's in the.
Speaker 6: Crowd right now.
Speaker 2: They laughed at me because security came at one point.
Speaker 2: They were like, and I told him, I mushed myself
Speaker 2: move with the people.
Speaker 1: Yeah right, we don't even track that kind of all exactly.
Speaker 1: They're not going to do exactly.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 3: No, this album has been It's the most important and
Speaker 3: my favorite album of my career.
Speaker 1: I love it. I love that. Speaking of your album,
Speaker 1: and then you talked about so many things on your
Speaker 1: album and you are such a mystery is there? Like
Speaker 1: how do I need to know? Maybe give me some
Speaker 1: tips on do you have like are you in a
Speaker 1: relationship or is there like any love that is going on?
Speaker 2: How do you keep it private? Because like I kept
Speaker 2: that one I shouldn't have been in private for nine years.
Speaker 2: It was horrible.
Speaker 1: Yeah, like.
Speaker 2: I've been single now almost five years.
Speaker 1: Wow.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but like retro going back that one relationship I
Speaker 3: was in nine.
Speaker 2: Years shouldn't have been in. Yeah. I ain't gonna get
Speaker 2: too deep in yeah, you know, but you know how
Speaker 2: it goes like I was. I never do that.
Speaker 3: You know, somebody tells you like, oh, that's not really
Speaker 3: what my situation is they you know, like and you
Speaker 3: find yourself stuck, right, especially because I was a people
Speaker 3: person and because I put other people's feelings in emotion
Speaker 3: before my own. It was like I have to be
Speaker 3: there for you, I can't be there for myself. I
Speaker 3: be in a shower sometimes crime because I felt so
Speaker 3: bad about what I was doing.
Speaker 2: But you know, it was.
Speaker 3: Only hotels, you know, you know, movies looking like yeah,
Speaker 3: but I ain't in a relationship, so it's not I
Speaker 3: don't I don't have Are you open to one?
Speaker 1: So what would be your because I would like to
Speaker 1: ask you what the what's their love language? Out of
Speaker 1: the five, like, what's rats love language?
Speaker 2: I think words of affirmation? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I love
Speaker 2: that one.
Speaker 1: Mine is all of them.
Speaker 2: I wanted to say that give me everything.
Speaker 1: I want to touch. I want to as a reformation,
Speaker 1: I want that. What's the what's that love? Guess? Yes,
Speaker 1: somebody said guess twice, but guess. I really liked that one.
Speaker 1: Like that one in touch I love and I'm a
Speaker 1: very touching person, so I love touch. So yeah, all
Speaker 1: of them.
Speaker 2: I'm learning to be more affectionate in that way. Yeah,
Speaker 2: Like I grew up with my mom and dad.
Speaker 1: And not affectionate a lot of people, like a lot
Speaker 1: of us, Like my parents definitely showed affection in front
Speaker 1: of me, so like I'm very much like yeah, but
Speaker 1: like guys that I've dated before were not, and it
Speaker 1: was kind of like why are you touching me? And
Speaker 1: I'm like like like stop, And then they realized, Oh,
Speaker 1: when you start to do the work and realize where
Speaker 1: these certain like triggers come from, it's like, oh, now
Speaker 1: I get it.
Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah, my mom and dad they show different. My
Speaker 3: mom likes to do things, she's acting service.
Speaker 1: That's the other one that.
Speaker 3: Was clean, make sure clothes, like you know, I'm anna
Speaker 3: pay for somebody to come cut the grass, things like that,
Speaker 3: I would say my dad it's the same way in
Speaker 3: his older age, he's a lot more words of affirmation,
Speaker 3: like that's cute. But I had to learn, Like it
Speaker 3: took me a while to say I love you. I
Speaker 3: remember the first time my mom told me, like said it.
Speaker 3: I felt so uncomfortable. Like me and my sisters talk
Speaker 3: about it all the time, and we always knew that
Speaker 3: we would love and we have great parents, but like
Speaker 3: for them to be like I love y'all, yeah, that's weird.
Speaker 2: But I've come to.
Speaker 3: I say it a lot to my friends now, like
Speaker 3: they've helped made me comfortable. My relationship in the past
Speaker 3: have made me comfortable that. But yeah, no, I'm I'm
Speaker 3: open to dating. I asked me, like, how do you
Speaker 3: date like me and you? I'm like, it's a new
Speaker 3: it's so hard, Like no one the dating pool us girl, we.
Speaker 6: Just I just had tragedy.
Speaker 3: A conversation with that is so bad tragedy. I was like,
Speaker 3: I don't I don't really go out like that. I'm
Speaker 3: not a club girl. I don't even know where to
Speaker 3: go I don't, you know, you're.
Speaker 2: Just always in the industry.
Speaker 3: Somebody was like, I know you got some money in
Speaker 3: d MS. I was like, ain't nobody in my dam
Speaker 3: there's like I said, the only the only people in
Speaker 3: my d M or married men people.
Speaker 2: I'm not. I don't want to say that, but yes,
Speaker 2: I said.
Speaker 1: I'm like, now look at you, look at me, and
Speaker 1: then look at you again. It asked yourself, why are
Speaker 1: you here?
Speaker 2: And one of my homeboys that was like, tell you
Speaker 2: what your problem is? I was like, what is my problem?
Speaker 2: He was like people men, men know that they have
Speaker 2: to come correct. Yes, and a lot of them know
Speaker 2: that they ain't coming correct, so they're not gonna step
Speaker 2: to you.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that's like probably ninety percent of them. Yes,
Speaker 1: I can't play with this one.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 6: Yeah.
Speaker 2: And then you know, like.
Speaker 3: In the last one and a half year, I've probably
Speaker 3: been taking on maybe two or three dates.
Speaker 2: But they y' all be the young boy and girl I.
Speaker 3: Can't do nothing with you, be like, but age ain't nothing.
Speaker 3: But I'd be like, you're an actor.
Speaker 2: And you young, no.
Speaker 1: Baby, no. Not In that season, I like I went
Speaker 1: through that phase where it's like everybody that's coming. He
Speaker 1: was like, twenty eight thirty one. I'm like, yo, twenty six,
Speaker 1: what am I? What am I gonna do with you?
Speaker 1: You're young? And my little brother like, I can't.
Speaker 2: I was talking to this guy.
Speaker 3: And he probably see this because I never said, but
Speaker 3: I'm giving you attention, so you should know, like I
Speaker 3: think you're.
Speaker 2: Cool, right, And he was like, Yo, what shows you watching?
Speaker 3: I was like, I ain't watching a lot, but in
Speaker 3: the last years he's been my favorite.
Speaker 2: He sent me a listening. He had the Jamie Fox
Speaker 2: showing it and I was just looking at it. Then
Speaker 2: Jamie Fox, how was he Jamie Fox? Does he still
Speaker 2: come on through that?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 1: Like season one to whatever it was? Yeah, what to
Speaker 1: do with that? Sir? The Jamie Fox Show? Shout out,
Speaker 1: Jamie love that show? But what now?
Speaker 4: In the year by Lord twenty twenty four, the fact
Speaker 4: he was like, I was looking like.
Speaker 1: Like now, I'm not gonna say that because they play
Speaker 1: like all day and that's.
Speaker 2: Girls like just just be heard it.
Speaker 1: Give it a chance, Like he was like, that is
Speaker 1: so funny. I love it. I love it. Oh my goodness,
Speaker 1: a rap. I want to play a little game with you.
Speaker 1: I don't know how good. I'm gonna be at this,
Speaker 1: but I want to give you a word and we're
Speaker 1: gonna rap. Oh boy, we want.
Speaker 2: The freestyling game. I'm gonna wrap. Let me tell.
Speaker 3: You there's a difference in being a writer and a freestyler.
Speaker 1: Best.
Speaker 2: I'm a great writer.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna leap with the writing. Yes, give me a.
Speaker 2: Little shaky on the freestyle, but let's have fun. Let's
Speaker 2: have fun so you still kick it off me?
Speaker 1: Yeah, give us a word, surely? Okay, all right, she
Speaker 1: got to beat okay.
Speaker 2: H m yo.
Speaker 3: Two sisters talking love like the earrings my Simon and married.
Speaker 3: I got these freestyles and the words gonna carry. We
Speaker 3: can't through feeling like very white. I want to say
Speaker 3: a song he sings, but I don't know, like I
Speaker 3: don't know any boy. I ain't got no mike for
Speaker 3: more word. I can keep this tight.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 6: Nothing bad. Give me word.
Speaker 1: Oh god, I can't believe I'm about to do this.
Speaker 1: Oh this is the negro of me? What is this? Fitness?
Speaker 1: That's a weird word to wrap about.
Speaker 7: Okay, okay, I'm in my fitness bag, a witness. Yeah,
Speaker 7: never snitching, never had a yeah, never brass up.
Speaker 6: Music.
Speaker 2: Music.
Speaker 1: Okay, what is this?
Speaker 6: What is?
Speaker 2: And that's your joint right there?
Speaker 1: That's how music. Yeah, music is the way I sing.
Speaker 1: Music is the melody to my heart from the start.
Speaker 1: I hope you with me and never part apart. The music,
Speaker 1: the one that David danced make me want to wave
Speaker 1: my hands, my hand, Hey, praise.
Speaker 2: Of high, Yeah, most high, put.
Speaker 1: My hands to the sky for the Lord. Yeah. When
Speaker 1: I sing, then I rapped. Yeah, I got my girl
Speaker 1: wrapped right here on the what Yeah, we're rapping music.
Speaker 1: I'm not even rhyming. That's what I.
Speaker 5: Do here, Yo, what's your again?
Speaker 1: Murder?
Speaker 2: You know you heard heard us somebody on the floor.
Speaker 8: That's what she did to the versus connected like sisters
Speaker 8: in cursive and if you want to see it, we're
Speaker 8: bringing the worsted.
Speaker 1: It'll be like rap.
Speaker 2: You suck never girl ever, I don't even aren't going together.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, Sis, thank you so much.
Speaker 6: That was fun.
Speaker 1: I appreciate you. I learned so much more about you.
Speaker 1: I know you guys, did I appreciate you so much
Speaker 1: and keep going. Yes, there's more to know about bees.
Speaker 1: So I gotta come back, Yes, please please come back.
Speaker 1: I love your energy and you were always welcome.
Speaker 2: Seriously, we're gonna be the kitchen dick Son yep.
Speaker 1: Make the walnut tacos, yep, the plant based BigGAN dishes,
Speaker 1: all the things. I got my grinder and some water
Speaker 1: for the walnuts. I got some cumin and little girlic.
Speaker 1: You were happy about that, you know, all right? You
Speaker 1: like girt to tastes just like some ground turkey. Yeah, because.
Speaker 6: I ain't gonna do it.
Speaker 1: That is that be so cruel like Okay.
Speaker 6: It's the latest on oh Man, thank you seriously.
Speaker 2: I appreciate.
Speaker 1: My conversation today with RAPSI really got me thinking. And
Speaker 1: something that really stuck out to me was when she
Speaker 1: said something about boundaries. Boundaries is so important to me,
Speaker 1: and she said, where do you cross your line? What
Speaker 1: is the line that you are not willing to cross?
Speaker 1: And that's something that I want to challenge you all.
Speaker 1: Whatever it is that you're trying to do, make sure
Speaker 1: that you have a line that you are not willing
Speaker 1: to cross, because if you don't stand for something, you'll
Speaker 1: fall for anything. Rhapsody came through with all the positive vibes,
Speaker 1: and I hope you failt them because I sure did
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