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Speaker 1: Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. I do not
Speaker 1: have a guest today. I'm gonna get back to the
Speaker 1: old format. Okay. A lot of y'all are requesting that
Speaker 1: I just do my podcast by myself. I wanted to
Speaker 1: have fun with my friends and my family a little bit,
Speaker 1: a little bit, But now I'm getting back to it.
Speaker 1: So grab your sea, grab your halls. It's story time
Speaker 1: and this ship is about me. Okay. So some time ago,
Speaker 1: like back in a long, long long time agose days,
Speaker 1: I was having sex with my current boyfriend. Right. It
Speaker 1: was getting steamy. Now, if you are an avid Carefully
Speaker 1: Reckless listener, y'all know I told you all there are
Speaker 1: only a few ways that I can come right, my
Speaker 1: favorite being being on top riding Dick. I love it. Okay. Now,
Speaker 1: it's not even all about me being in power writing.
Speaker 1: It's about me looking down at my partner, looking at
Speaker 1: his eyes, and him looking back up at me. He
Speaker 1: got one hand around my neck, the other one around
Speaker 1: my waist like slamming me down on that ship right now.
Speaker 1: I love that. I also love a guy to talk
Speaker 1: to me, oh, because I talk bad. Y'all know I
Speaker 1: talk all the time, so why wouldn't not talking a bit?
Speaker 1: But even more interesting enough, sex is very sensual for me,
Speaker 1: and it's very mental. So I'm riding him and riding
Speaker 1: him and writing him right, and I'm not looking down
Speaker 1: on him because I'm actually fantasizing about somebody else. And
Speaker 1: it's crazy. I know what y'll thinking. This person I
Speaker 1: never even had sex with, right, But I was being
Speaker 1: trained at that time. I was working out and I
Speaker 1: had a trainer. He was fine, chocolate, handsome, he's a
Speaker 1: boxer's talking only think about him, tang niggers up in
Speaker 1: the ring and ship, and that ship was just sexy
Speaker 1: to me. And resign it with my fucking pussy. It
Speaker 1: resignated with my hormones at that time. And my boyfriend
Speaker 1: then just wasn't doing it for me because I was
Speaker 1: fantasizing about another guy. Now. Like I said, I had
Speaker 1: never gotten intimate with the guy I was fantasizing about,
Speaker 1: but I ended up closing my eyes and imagining that
Speaker 1: I was fucking him now I'm becoming more wet, more moist,
Speaker 1: and I'm about to climax, right, I yell out other
Speaker 1: guy's name. Ain't that about a bit now? Listen. I
Speaker 1: don't know if this has never happened to any of
Speaker 1: you out there, but it happened to me. Needless to say,
Speaker 1: I was accused of cheating, and I literally just had
Speaker 1: to come clean because I didn't want to lie. In
Speaker 1: that moment, I knew I sucked up. I still got
Speaker 1: my nut. He stopped. He instantly got so off ship.
Speaker 1: That wasn't gonna stop me. I was already coming anyway,
Speaker 1: but it was like an immediate embarrassment. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh shit, with the funk that I just do. He goes,
Speaker 1: so you're sucking the train and nig that you'd be
Speaker 1: working out with. Because he knew who this guy was.
Speaker 1: He just didn't know that I was attracted to the guy, right,
Speaker 1: I said, No, I never had sex with him. I
Speaker 1: pleaded my case because I didn't. I didn't guy, for real,
Speaker 1: that's real ship. I did not ever lay down with
Speaker 1: this guy. I didn't even tell him that I liked him.
Speaker 1: Of course I was flirty with him, but I never
Speaker 1: even told him or even expressed to him, I want
Speaker 1: to have sex with you. I fantasized about you, blah
Speaker 1: blah blah. There are just some things that some people
Speaker 1: don't need to know. So with that being said, I'm
Speaker 1: like crying. I'm doing all of you know, because this
Speaker 1: is my boyfriend. This is my boyfriend, and although I'm
Speaker 1: not happy at the time, that's not how I want
Speaker 1: to break up with somebody like Oh, Ship, she said
Speaker 1: another nigga's names, so she's sucking another guy. No, I
Speaker 1: don't even want you to think I'm cheating on you.
Speaker 1: I'm happy for other reasons. But you know, Ship, now
Speaker 1: you're unhappy because you think I'm a cheater. Needless to say,
Speaker 1: we did break up not because of that, but shortly
Speaker 1: after that because there were so much other things going
Speaker 1: on in the relationship that I did not feel that
Speaker 1: it was worth staying and fighting through. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying or fighting for. So that's that story that
Speaker 1: brings me to my question the topic. Do you think
Speaker 1: it's common to fantasize about some and else while you
Speaker 1: with your partner? Is it common? Really? Now, Listen, that's
Speaker 1: not the only time that I've done that. That's the
Speaker 1: only time where a bitch was so into it that
Speaker 1: I said the guy's name. You know what I'm saying
Speaker 1: That that went too fucking far. I went too far,
Speaker 1: and I do regret that sexual an encounter. I do
Speaker 1: regret that because that was very disrespectful. He was so
Speaker 1: upset and he was like, damn, they're about to kill me.
Speaker 1: I was like, damn, why would you? Why would you? Bet?
Speaker 1: You ain't even sucking. At least you could have sucked
Speaker 1: them if it was worth all this and ship. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I'm not a cheater. I
Speaker 1: just was fantasizing. Is it common? I feel like it is.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's natural for men and women both
Speaker 1: to think about other people or like maybe a crush
Speaker 1: or a sexy celebrity that you could see yourself sleeping
Speaker 1: with or you imagine yourself being with while you're having
Speaker 1: sex with your partner. Now, that doesn't go to say
Speaker 1: it happens every time, or you're unhappy with your partner.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you just thank you getting your mind and you
Speaker 1: you know, why are you riding that dick or you
Speaker 1: getting hit from the back or whatever you think of something. Listen,
Speaker 1: it's just like watching porn. If you are one of
Speaker 1: those couples who have to spice it up, or you
Speaker 1: just like watching porn with your partner to get the
Speaker 1: ships going, that's fantasizing too, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: You're using something else to get it going with your
Speaker 1: partner anyway. You know what I'm saying. Now, if both
Speaker 1: parties agree, I don't see anything wrong with it. Like
Speaker 1: I said, I've done it before. That wasn't the first
Speaker 1: time that I did that. Um, do you think fantasizing
Speaker 1: is cheating? I don't think it's cheating unless it goes
Speaker 1: to fucking far. A fantasy is just supposed to stay
Speaker 1: a fantasy, you know what I'm saying. Like you can't
Speaker 1: make your fantasy come true, then you're sucking cheating. Then
Speaker 1: you you already feel a little guilty because you're already
Speaker 1: thinking about somebody else while you're with your partner. Anyway,
Speaker 1: But if that's how you need to get off and
Speaker 1: your partner just don't know it, I think it's fine.
Speaker 1: I think it's permissible. That's just me though. Is it
Speaker 1: okay to fantasize about another person if your partner don't know,
Speaker 1: if they don't know in this case, this is the
Speaker 1: only case I will say what they don't know will
Speaker 1: not hurt them because some people can't take that. You
Speaker 1: keeping that a secret from some people who can't handle
Speaker 1: it is preventing insecurity, It's preventing a lot of drama.
Speaker 1: It's preventing a lot of trust issues that you don't
Speaker 1: probably need to have. You know what I'm saying that
Speaker 1: you probably don't already have. If you do, okay, that's
Speaker 1: something else. But in my mind, I feel like it's
Speaker 1: better for them not to know, depending on the type
Speaker 1: of person they are, Like if you are very open
Speaker 1: with your sexuality and a relationship, then it can be
Speaker 1: agreed upon. Like if you are the type of couple
Speaker 1: who swing, or you'll open, or you'll fun girls together
Speaker 1: or your fun guys together or what have you, then
Speaker 1: I don't really think that that's a bad thing for
Speaker 1: you guys. But if you are straight, monogamous and if
Speaker 1: your partner does not believe in anything outside of me,
Speaker 1: you can't be fucking with it. I think it needs
Speaker 1: to remain a secret, and and it should because everything
Speaker 1: is not for everybody. That brings me to my next question,
Speaker 1: are you open enough to reveal this to your partner,
Speaker 1: that you've antasize about somebody else. Like I said, it
Speaker 1: goes for a certain type of person. It takes a
Speaker 1: strong fucking person, a very secure, solid person for you
Speaker 1: to bring that up to. None of my exes are
Speaker 1: are are? Which? None of them? None of them I
Speaker 1: I can. I can honestly say I've never been with
Speaker 1: somebody who I can. I feel like I can open
Speaker 1: up to and be like, look, I fantasize about this
Speaker 1: person or you know what I'm saying, not so much,
Speaker 1: let's bring this person into the bedroom. But this person
Speaker 1: is sexy to me, and sometimes when I'm having sex
Speaker 1: with you, I think about him. Fuck No, I don't
Speaker 1: know what something is. What you shot my head off
Speaker 1: of that ship? You know what I'm saying. Now, let's
Speaker 1: look at it from both perspectives. I've also never been
Speaker 1: with somebody who I want to hear that ship from either,
Speaker 1: Like you know what I'm saying, I've never I'm not
Speaker 1: the type of person if you're gonna fantasize about another bit,
Speaker 1: you don't need to be sucking me. And I know
Speaker 1: that's very contradicting and it's very one sided. It's very biased.
Speaker 1: I do understand that. However, it's different strokes for different folks.
Speaker 1: I can't control how I feel, and what I don't
Speaker 1: know won't hurt me either. In that sense, you understand
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So if my man has to fantasize
Speaker 1: or he does fantasize when he's having sex with me,
Speaker 1: I don't need to know. I don't need to know.
Speaker 1: Sometimes you can tell. Sometimes you definitely can tell. And
Speaker 1: I think that my my ex boyfriend from story Time,
Speaker 1: I think he could tell because I wasn't looking down
Speaker 1: at him, I wasn't really talking to him. I had
Speaker 1: my eyes closed, head up to the ceiling. I was
Speaker 1: feeling on myself, like I used. I'm usually like very touchy,
Speaker 1: feelly during sex, you know, with the partner, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. And I think he could tell. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And then when I just said
Speaker 1: the name, that ship just sent rockets up in the air,
Speaker 1: like hold up, bitch. It was like a big bomb dropped,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So to answer my own question, no,
Speaker 1: I am not open enough to reveal to my partner
Speaker 1: that I fantasized. Now I haven't done it in a
Speaker 1: long time. I have not fantasized in a very long time,
Speaker 1: and needless to say, right now, I don't need to
Speaker 1: I don't need to hold up, hold up. I noticed
Speaker 1: ship getting good. But listen to just a couple of
Speaker 1: seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen.
Speaker 1: What is too far? What is going too far? Now?
Speaker 1: I gave an example in story time. I said the
Speaker 1: guy's name, what is going too far? Though, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: give you another example. Going too far would have been
Speaker 1: telling my trainer that I fantasized about him and I
Speaker 1: want him to fulfill the fantasy that's going to fucking far,
Speaker 1: or any type of communication with the person that you're
Speaker 1: fantasizing about. Because if you're fantasizing about someone, whether they
Speaker 1: are a business partner or somebody you you gotta see
Speaker 1: at your kids school or you know at the gym
Speaker 1: you see or whether you do or don't notice, motherfucker,
Speaker 1: you are not supposed to be openly communicating with them
Speaker 1: because you want to do some things with that person,
Speaker 1: especially if if you're in a relationship. I think that's
Speaker 1: where the boundary needs to be said. The line has
Speaker 1: been crossed, and now you are cheating, because it's the
Speaker 1: difference between fantasized and cheating, and no, I do not
Speaker 1: feel that they go hand in hand. They're very close,
Speaker 1: but there is a very thin line in between them. Now,
Speaker 1: this is the other question that I should have asked
Speaker 1: y'all because y'all know I'm doing just fix my mess,
Speaker 1: and y'all y'all sent me in some good ship. But
Speaker 1: think about this one. Have you ever fantasized about an
Speaker 1: ex somebody that you did fun before, even if it's
Speaker 1: not an ex, somebody that you had sex, but before
Speaker 1: that you didn't, you know, gave the goodies up to
Speaker 1: whole that tell me about that in my d M.
Speaker 1: We're gonna go over to just fix my mess now,
Speaker 1: I asked on Instagram, have you ever fantasized about someone
Speaker 1: else while with your partner? Be honest, Pacos please on
Speaker 1: Instagram says yes. Scared the funk out of me. I thought,
Speaker 1: my niggare in my mind now listen, Shane do as
Speaker 1: bad as me, but she's so It was that guilty
Speaker 1: conscience eating her up, like, oh my god, I know
Speaker 1: this is wrong. I know I'm not supposed to be
Speaker 1: thinking about this, nigga. This nigga, but damn you know,
Speaker 1: and and it gets to you like that, like I,
Speaker 1: like I said, I've done it before, and I have
Speaker 1: in my mind thought that my partner was reading my
Speaker 1: mind as well. So no, I definitely get a girl.
Speaker 1: We gotta stop doing this ship Okay. Hell Mel underscores three,
Speaker 1: says yeah, I do all the time about you, looks her. Listen,
Speaker 1: wait a minute, this is not what we're gonna do.
Speaker 1: I hope that you are single because if you're a
Speaker 1: girl here's this, she's gonna kill you and she's probably
Speaker 1: gonna come kill me too. I don't know you, hell Mel,
Speaker 1: stop it, but thank you though eighth of all Skills
Speaker 1: LLLC says yep. I think nothing is wrong with it
Speaker 1: as long as it doesn't go into action. Now listen,
Speaker 1: that's getting around til it being common again. It's very
Speaker 1: common for a woman to think about another man, or
Speaker 1: a man to think about another woman. You can't say
Speaker 1: when you're in a relationship, Oh, I want my man
Speaker 1: to only have eyes from me, or I want my
Speaker 1: woman to only think about me, not not not have
Speaker 1: eyes for me, but only think about me. I want
Speaker 1: my nigga to only think about me it's it's him
Speaker 1: and Lee. Unrealistic for that to happen, Guys, I mean seriously,
Speaker 1: especially with all this temptation today, all of these bodies
Speaker 1: that that are being done. It's a bunch of bitches
Speaker 1: that look a good bunch of guys that's all oiled
Speaker 1: up and ship on Instagram. They're putting a ship in
Speaker 1: our face. Their goddamn advertising. They're promoting sex. Sex is
Speaker 1: promoted everywhere on TV, online billboards, wherever, Sex is promoted everywhere.
Speaker 1: Sexy is promoted everywhere, not even only sex, of a
Speaker 1: sexy attractiveness everything. So it's kind of hard for you
Speaker 1: to be in a relationship and you expect for your
Speaker 1: man or your woman not to even think about somebody else.
Speaker 1: But as long as it doesn't go into action, I
Speaker 1: think that's where you crossed the line. Like I said,
Speaker 1: you don't gotta do nothing about it, and you damn
Speaker 1: su I don't gotta let your partner know because nine
Speaker 1: times out of tend he think about some ship too,
Speaker 1: or she think about some other nickea too, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, But not thinking in terms of acting
Speaker 1: on some ship. It's just this person is sexy to me.
Speaker 1: Should you know what I'm saying? Money underscore talks underscore
Speaker 1: less says all the time the only way I busting up? Damn.
Speaker 1: So see now that that's that's a little different. Joel,
Speaker 1: his name is Joel. The last quays I don't agree
Speaker 1: with that. I don't. I think that is super fucked up. Um,
Speaker 1: your girl just don't make you busting up like you
Speaker 1: gotta fantasize all the time. Or are you saying that
Speaker 1: you're single and you just be beating your dick? Now?
Speaker 1: If that's the case, all right, okay. If if your
Speaker 1: hand is pleasing you you have to fantasize that way,
Speaker 1: then okay. But if you're in a relationship, Joel, and
Speaker 1: you can only busting up by fantasizing about somebody else
Speaker 1: while having sex with your partner, you need some help.
Speaker 1: You need some help, and that girl she needs to
Speaker 1: to sex see it up a little bit. You'all need
Speaker 1: to figure out what y'all can do together, because that's
Speaker 1: a little disturbing, Joel. Get it together, honey, no judgment,
Speaker 1: Just get it together. Infamous on Instagram says, wonder who
Speaker 1: you fantasized about? I told you listen to story time
Speaker 1: that said, y'all don't need to know who ever, who
Speaker 1: else I've fantasized about in my life. No, y'all don't
Speaker 1: need to know. Although I'm gonna be very honest with y'all,
Speaker 1: let me just let you all in on one thing,
Speaker 1: and one thing only. I fantasized one time about Lakeith
Speaker 1: Standfield the first time I saw him in a movie.
Speaker 1: This was like, what maybe three years ago. Lakeith Stanfield.
Speaker 1: He's so fucking fine to me, and that's just what
Speaker 1: it is. I don't fantasize about him anymore, but I did,
Speaker 1: like once or twice drink cold water. Devin the Dude
Speaker 1: on Instagram says, not at all. You bitches are weird
Speaker 1: these days. All rights great, Okay, everything ain't for everybody,
Speaker 1: and I do get it. I appreciate your dad to do.
Speaker 1: D three A d Girls says. When I was with
Speaker 1: my ex of six years, we hated each other. Our
Speaker 1: entire relationship and intimacy was non existent. I stayed with
Speaker 1: him because I was codependent and he had a big
Speaker 1: old thing. I definitely thought about other people when we
Speaker 1: were together. That's what doggies for. Damn. How do accused
Speaker 1: staying in a relationship with somebody that you hate for
Speaker 1: six years. I get it, codependent. His thing was big,
Speaker 1: but damn, it takes more than just sex for me
Speaker 1: to stay with you. I don't give a funk about
Speaker 1: a big dick because the nigga's be having big dicks
Speaker 1: and not know what to do with them. You know,
Speaker 1: I can't do it for my mental sanity. I can't
Speaker 1: do it for my energy if my aura is off
Speaker 1: around you, if I that reminds me of that fucking
Speaker 1: avant song. Remember Separated the nigga came on a goddamn song.
Speaker 1: He started the verse said, every time I see you,
Speaker 1: I get a bad fun like wow. Every every time
Speaker 1: you see a bit, you get a bad vibe like please.
Speaker 1: But damn, I'm so sorry. I hope that you are
Speaker 1: not with him And oh yeah, well you say it's
Speaker 1: X so damn girl, y'all be in some funded up positions.
Speaker 1: Rakida's Skita Boo says, I hope I got that right,
Speaker 1: bo yes, And can't do nothing Bemoan because you don't
Speaker 1: want to accidentally say the wrong name like Jess dumbass.
Speaker 1: And this is the last one I'm gonna read. Drago says, yes,
Speaker 1: unfortunately be that way. Sometimes we're not perfect, and sometimes
Speaker 1: we do it to ourselves from a lustful standpoint. Social
Speaker 1: media paints pictures in our minds for us. I just
Speaker 1: got finished saying that, yes they do everything is put
Speaker 1: out their sex cells, sexy cells everything. When you got
Speaker 1: bodies and the half naked asses everywhere online and Nigga's
Speaker 1: posting pictures and their briefs and videos and ticktocks with
Speaker 1: the prints hanging all out and ship and all that
Speaker 1: type of stuff, it's kind of hard not to fantasize,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I guess just keep
Speaker 1: your eyes on your prize while we kick it over
Speaker 1: as the current news. Now listen, I recently just had
Speaker 1: to go to l A to shoot something with Iman
Speaker 1: shumperd and uh, the legendary Be Scott. I love B
Speaker 1: who is a beautiful person, by the way, in person.
Speaker 1: I'm not saying that B is not beautiful online, but
Speaker 1: when you see somebody in person, you'd be like, goddamn,
Speaker 1: but you're beautiful. But yes, I sat down and um,
Speaker 1: I did Be Scott Show and we covered the show Twenties,
Speaker 1: the B e C Show, Lena Wave Show. I off
Speaker 1: that show. You'll need to get into it. Season two
Speaker 1: will be airing this fall, I believe. But I sat
Speaker 1: on that couch with Iman Schampert and Be Scott and
Speaker 1: we talked about the fantasizing, you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: and being sought after and and and and is it
Speaker 1: okay to fantasize about somebody else while you're with your partner,
Speaker 1: and the boundaries and everything. And that gave me a
Speaker 1: wonderful fucking topic. And that's how I perfectly executed today's show.
Speaker 1: So listen again for the people in the back. It
Speaker 1: is common for you to fantasize, but should you be
Speaker 1: so open to tell your partner about it, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: give you the advice of saying no. Unless your partner
Speaker 1: is very comfortable in solid and need and ne okay
Speaker 1: with all honesty from you, they're secure. But if it's
Speaker 1: a person who ain't and who don't play that ship,
Speaker 1: keep that ship to yourself, and do not be stupid
Speaker 1: like me and fantasize about somebody so hard and get
Speaker 1: so into it that you say they fucking name, because
Speaker 1: you're nigga gonna wring your neck or your bitch gonna
Speaker 1: cut you up in your sleep, and just like that,
Speaker 1: we come to the end of another Carefully Reckless episode.
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