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Speaker 1: I didn't enjoy that, so lunar looney one says, trigger warning,

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Speaker 1: I also haven't seen my female nineteen boyfriend male twenty

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Speaker 1: feel awful if I got them sick. Yeah, that's fair.

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Speaker 1: If you have a fever, I definitely don't go around

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Speaker 1: He texts me multiple times a day asking to come over,

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Speaker 2: Like hospital interesting.

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Speaker 1: Yikes, Yeah, don't go over there. That's a yeah, that's

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Speaker 3: Well, like dang, I would be the type of boyfriend

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Speaker 3: that's like, leez, let me feed you soup and give

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Speaker 1: But also, you know, if your partner's like, don't please,

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Speaker 3: You leave the soup outside outside, But I'd still be like,

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Speaker 3: I would think as much as I would be, I

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Speaker 1: This is a boundary. Yesterday, both of my parents were

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Speaker 1: My boyfriend works Monday through Friday, so in no way

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Speaker 2: I'd be okay with it. I'd be like, how did

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I would be like, how did you

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Speaker 3: If my girlfriend just showed up, i'd have to like her, though,

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Speaker 2: I would mind it. I'd be like, that's kind of

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I would be weird at all. No, specifically,

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Speaker 2: That's weird.

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Speaker 1: He says he couldn't stand being apart and wanted to

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Speaker 4: Oh wait, actually, yeah, you're on his side.

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Speaker 1: This is weird.

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Speaker 1: He wanted to come see what's up.

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Speaker 2: We went back, what's going on? How's it going? My god?

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Speaker 1: He broke into their house to see what's up?

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Speaker 1: Guy's got on, he been sleeping ignoring me? Oh oh

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Speaker 1: Am I the a hole? No, No, your boyfriend is

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Speaker 1: then says, thank you for all the feedback. I'm trying

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Speaker 1: I just don't know how I want to approach this.

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Speaker 2: Yet.

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Speaker 1: A lot of you are worried about my fever. Yeah

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Speaker 1: I know, I was like one hundred and four. Sorry

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Speaker 2: Yeah that's weird. I don't know why. To him, I

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Speaker 4: Yikes, that is that's not cool, Red Big Red Lave.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, they're sick that you could get yourself sick, and

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Speaker 3: I know you miss her, but like, yeah, please.

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Speaker 1: Also, if I was feeling that bad, like I'm just

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Speaker 1: I'm sleeping all day. There are also situations where you

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, because he's twenty funny loki my partner. I

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't want them to be like needy.

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Speaker 2: Yeah super needy, which needy is cute. Yeah. Still yeah,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, they're like, oh my god, you never hang out

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Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like okay, all right, now.

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Speaker 1: The boyfriend's making the whole op being sick about them

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Speaker 1: he's not bringing in freaking soupter is just like I'm

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Speaker 3: Yeah, not cool, bro, not cool. Leave the soup outside,

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Speaker 3: but you know what we're gonna leave for you guys.

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Speaker 2: Another story, Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Today aft up by asking my boyfriend what his exes

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Speaker 1: looked like.

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Speaker 2: That's always a tricky.

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Speaker 1: Game, So Maloco Milk Maiden says, my boyfriend and I

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Speaker 1: have been dating for a while. We actually met in

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Speaker 2: Now wait what, Oh.

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Speaker 1: But they recently reconnected. I was like, oh, I see,

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Speaker 3: My coly, I do know a couple that has dated

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Speaker 3: six sixth grade. They have been together since twelve twelve twelve,

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Speaker 3: and they are now my age. I know, but I've

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Speaker 1: That is sad. I'm always worried about relationships from like

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because you grow, grow, you grow.

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Speaker 1: You've grown as a person. I am not the same

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Speaker 1: Why why did you ask that.

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Speaker 2: You want to see at Yeah? We go way back.

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Speaker 4: Look at this broad my god, and then that's nice

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Speaker 1: She's like, Okay, I didn't ask. He casually asked me

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Speaker 1: Not thinking much of it, I said sure. She is

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Speaker 2: She just called herself a five.

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Speaker 1: Unfortunately, I've let my insecurities take over and I'm really struggling.

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Speaker 1: I'm a loving person and a good partner. I'm a

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Speaker 2: Okay, I do want to talk about this, Okay.

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Speaker 3: Some of my friends that I have are very materialistic

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Speaker 2: I think she's really pretty, and they're like whatever, da

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Speaker 3: Da, And then the women they show me are like

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Speaker 1: Well that's the thing. If you prioritize like looks over personality,

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Speaker 3: Like to me, I don't really like rate women, but

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Speaker 3: in my head, if I were to do that, I

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Speaker 3: you know, Kim Kardashian that I'm not attracted to that.

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Speaker 3: I'd rather have like a woman that like as they

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Speaker 1: I mean everyone has their own type.

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Speaker 1: Like for me, there are like, you know, celebrities that

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Speaker 2: I'm like, I was Adam Driver. Where did that come from?

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Speaker 1: I don't think he's much.

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Speaker 2: I know, but like some people think Outam Drivers attractive.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, exactly. Okay. My point was more like there

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Speaker 3: It all depends, but it is sometimes like tricky, like

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Speaker 2: Yeah, they're having a look at her all night.

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Speaker 1: I don't think I'm out of anyone's league.

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Speaker 3: I could show you three people and be like, hey,

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Speaker 1: Interesting? Yeah see I don't have that thought process.

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Speaker 2: Shame you said that said personality?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I said personality. Personality. I literally think I'd have.

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Speaker 2: A nice person well saying she just got big tits.

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Speaker 1: And I'm not saying that in like a metaphor. I'm

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Speaker 3: Talk about your personality because that's disrespectful. I think your

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Speaker 2: On Dude's Did you see what she just did? She

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Speaker 1: And you're speaking metaphors. I'm talking about my literal personality.

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Speaker 3: I feel like someone's gonna clip me. I'm not gonna

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Speaker 2: I did it. I'm out of it. You did I'm

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Speaker 1: Thank you everyone who took your time to offer different

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Speaker 1: you that asked, no, I did not directly ask my

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Speaker 3: If I was with a person and they showed me

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Speaker 1: I'm like dude, I'm I'm like no, Like that's such

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Speaker 1: a compliment. I'm like, Jesus, that person was hot.

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Speaker 2: And you're with me because I'm hilarious.

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Speaker 1: Because I'm like I'm a great personality.

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Speaker 3: Like like the harder they are, like, the more my

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Speaker 1: Literally, no, that's what I'm saying, Like, I honestly don't.

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Speaker 1: I think like half of the reason that I'm able

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Speaker 2: My My Bibes, a comedy podcast.

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Speaker 1: I'm breaking out because I'm riot. I'm a riot, So

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Speaker 1: I don't think I'm ever going to be like the

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Speaker 1: I got in the bag.

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Speaker 2: I'm in the bag. They just got to break the eyes.

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Speaker 3: I went there and all the guys there were like

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Speaker 3: But I would go up to women and I'd be like, Yo,

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Speaker 2: And it worked. Numbers that nice.

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Speaker 1: No, that's what I'm saying. Personalities are so much more interesting,

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Speaker 1: like you, Yeah, vibes whatever, vibes are so much more interesting.

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Speaker 1: Saving you here, You're welcome whatever, okay, really saving me? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: but that's the whole story, to be.

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Speaker 2: The whole story.

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Speaker 3: We got a live stream doing our live streaming our

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Speaker 2: We love you and sooner.

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Speaker 6: This is an episode from Deep within the Archives.

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Speaker 2: Time for okop re lam.

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Speaker 6: You won't let me extend my fifteen minute break, fine,

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Speaker 6: I'll follow all the rules and this.

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Speaker 2: Place will wow. Fifteen minutes.

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Speaker 6: Fifteen minutes so I mean that's like one hundred and

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Speaker 6: For twenty years I worked at a local government agency

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Speaker 6: It was do your job. If you have an idea,

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Speaker 2: Officer. Let's back down, baby, put.

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Speaker 5: Them five stars somewhere where you can use them.

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Speaker 6: Five stars as general oh, reporting for duty? Yeah? You

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Speaker 2: Booty, that's right. Nice.

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Speaker 6: Suddenly, multi degreed professionals who were used to a significant

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Speaker 6: Yeah, rotary club?

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Speaker 6: I don't understand. Why don't they just you know, this

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Speaker 2: This is too much.

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Speaker 6: As might be imagined, these administrative changes did not go

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Speaker 6: Meetings that were ongoing at four fifty nine were abruptly

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Speaker 6: We're leaving, We're leaving. Get the hell out of.

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Speaker 6: It was, however, exactly what was mandated by the new program.

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Speaker 6: was no more innovative product proposed. He had effectively put

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Speaker 6: out the spark of our doll dull lives and that

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Speaker 6: was the heart of the group. Though within the year

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Speaker 6: there was sixty percent turnover, the department was never the same.

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Speaker 5: Wow, that one sentence he put out the spark of

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Speaker 5: our do old whole lives Like they're like we had

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Speaker 5: like basically half of the thing to live for. Yeah,

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Speaker 5: and you just stamped it out, extinguished it.

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Speaker 6: Colonel, what are you doing?

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Speaker 5: You know, don't get a handle on them. Get a

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Speaker 5: handle on yourself. Oh where those hands at? That's right, yo, Colonel.

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Speaker 5: Where you gonna put that big missile of yours?

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Speaker 2: That's right, I can.

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Speaker 5: I can tell you somewhere you can plant your base.

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Speaker 6: Oh yeah, baby, put that explosively.

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Speaker 2: That's where.

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Speaker 5: Just to be clear, just to effectively communicate with you, colonel,

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Speaker 5: because I know you appreciate that.

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Speaker 6: I always love the delay like John's John always like

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Speaker 6: he's like he's like referencing something, like we all know

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Speaker 6: what he's referencing.

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Speaker 2: Communicat every time.

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Speaker 5: It's called radical candor, Samuel, I have to be radically

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Speaker 5: candid about what I'm talking about.

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Speaker 6: Hey, well I'm going to be radically candid about the

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Speaker 6: next store. You guys should listen to