WEBVTT - “I HAVE A FART FETISH”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hi.

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<v Speaker 2>How's it going?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very good? How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm good? Is this Hank?

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<v Speaker 1>It is?

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<v Speaker 3>It is?

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<v Speaker 1>How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>How am I? I'm doing well. I'm enjoying life. It's

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<v Speaker 2>another day at the office. How are you, Hank?

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<v Speaker 1>You know what it's going as well too. I wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>expecting your thoughts.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, Hank, what brings you to call in today?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I gat mailed you a month or two, a

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<v Speaker 1>few months ago. Actually, I thought you would be interested

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<v Speaker 1>about my curious interest?

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<v Speaker 2>What was your gat mail?

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<v Speaker 1>That? I have a fetish for suffering, and often that

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<v Speaker 1>manifests with girls parting on me.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember the femail? Yes, I remember the femail. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to see if I can pull it up. Actually,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll read it back for the chat here, or I'll

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<v Speaker 2>read it back for the for the for the podcast listeners.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's see, did you put your name in the cemail?

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<v Speaker 2>Here we go? Yes? Okay, Hey, gak, this is Hank.

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<v Speaker 2>Since being sixteen years old, I've had a fetish for suffering,

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<v Speaker 2>but without liking physical pain during sexual activities. So this

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<v Speaker 2>manifests to me being made to smell or taste unpleasant things,

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<v Speaker 2>usually foods. I hate being farted on by a beautiful

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<v Speaker 2>girl turns me on more than anything else. Interesting. Interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>So how did you? How did you? How did you

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<v Speaker 2>begin to do?

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<v Speaker 1>You go ahead and say the second off, what email

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<v Speaker 1>baffled you even more?

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<v Speaker 2>If I remember, well, well, you know, well listen, fuck

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<v Speaker 2>this email, let's just talk. Tell me, tell me more.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow. So what was your question? How did I first

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<v Speaker 1>discover this? Yeah, that is a great question. I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to try and make this relatable in a way and

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<v Speaker 1>see if you know what I mean. I would say

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't know much about my sexuality and even like

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<v Speaker 1>finding their attractive until I was like fifteen or sixteen.

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<v Speaker 1>But before then I would just have this like curiosity

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<v Speaker 1>about gross things like that, for example, And I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>find them gross. I found them like almost enjoyable. But

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<v Speaker 1>obviously this is in a complete non sexual way. So

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<v Speaker 1>I think there's people out there before they sort of

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<v Speaker 1>hit maybe puberty or pre pubescent and before they know

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<v Speaker 1>about weird type of shites. I always imagine foot guys

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<v Speaker 1>always if i'd thinking about feet, even when they're like

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<v Speaker 1>thirteen years old. But I don't know, I've never met

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<v Speaker 1>a foot flesh guy to ask them, Well, I probably

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<v Speaker 1>met them, just know that that's what they're into.

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<v Speaker 2>But you have such an idea. What's funny is you

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<v Speaker 2>have such a polite British candor that it's really hard

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<v Speaker 2>for me to imagine somebody farting on you.

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<v Speaker 1>And my last two girlfriends have both told me that

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<v Speaker 1>I come across as those vanilla like if you completely

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<v Speaker 1>ignore this, I'm a very normal guy. I'm I work,

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<v Speaker 1>I work in healthcare, I live, I live in a flat,

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<v Speaker 1>an apartment. Sorry, and I've just got a pretty normal

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<v Speaker 1>life then and then there's just this like weird quirk

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<v Speaker 1>which people don't know about.

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<v Speaker 2>So have you had a lot of different women fart

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<v Speaker 2>on you?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'd say about seven.

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<v Speaker 2>Eight all right, And how does that conversation usually go?

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<v Speaker 1>It depends I read the room and over the year,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm twenty seven now, fantastic age. Over the years, I've

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<v Speaker 1>become more and more comfortable with it. But it depends

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<v Speaker 1>on them, like if because I've been with people who

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<v Speaker 1>are themselves very explorative, very out there, very kinky, so

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<v Speaker 1>then you can kind of just come out with it

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<v Speaker 1>and they're called it the fine. If maybe their interests

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<v Speaker 1>aren't quite as uh, it's explorative. I kind of just

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<v Speaker 1>go in with a little bit of a sit on

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<v Speaker 1>my face thing and then just like a bit of

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<v Speaker 1>an ass play thing, and then yeah, build into it,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, build into it.

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<v Speaker 2>And of all of that, how many how many long

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<v Speaker 2>term relationships have you been in?

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<v Speaker 1>I've been in the one of them when I was

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<v Speaker 1>like fifteen years old until I was eighteen, So including

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<v Speaker 1>that one, three.

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<v Speaker 2>And what did all wear? All three of them down

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<v Speaker 2>to fart on you?

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<v Speaker 1>With my first ever relationship, like I said, a fifteen

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<v Speaker 1>year old one, we tried it once, wasn't really quite how,

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<v Speaker 1>it didn't really work out.

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<v Speaker 2>But this is when long term, this is when you

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<v Speaker 2>were fifteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Now we're about seventeen by this point. Yeah, the relationship

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<v Speaker 1>started and it was like a week before my sixteenth birthday,

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<v Speaker 1>on together till our date until we're eighteen. And that

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<v Speaker 1>one we didn't really we tried it once. That was it.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, the obviously long tired relationships, both of them

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<v Speaker 1>involved farting. Yeah mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>You has there ever been a situation where you approach

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<v Speaker 2>someone about farting on you and they were they were

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<v Speaker 2>disgusted by it, or they they reacted in a way

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<v Speaker 2>that felt viscerally negative.

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<v Speaker 1>Never in the comp never in like a relationship. We no,

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<v Speaker 1>I say they only like if I get the vibe

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<v Speaker 1>that they won't be into it. I won't ask with

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<v Speaker 1>like sexual partners because I've had like casual relationships and

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<v Speaker 1>my other relationships as well, which aren't long term. And

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<v Speaker 1>if I get the vibe that they're sort of vanilla

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<v Speaker 1>or like even just talking about like face sitting gets

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<v Speaker 1>them a bit upset, then I won't. I won't approach it.

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<v Speaker 1>You've got to know your audience. That's always a good

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<v Speaker 1>lesson in life. But no one's ever been like completely disgusted.

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<v Speaker 1>And the more I live, the more that surprises me.

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<v Speaker 1>And the more I just think, you know, people like

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<v Speaker 1>you and they want to people. You know, people want

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<v Speaker 1>to make people happy. You don't know at the end

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<v Speaker 1>of the day. And I'm very open and I'm very explorative,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'll pretty much do anything. Whoever I'm weird is

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<v Speaker 1>significant other. If they say to me, oh, I really

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<v Speaker 1>want to try this, then I'll always give it a go.

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<v Speaker 1>Part of that is because I can't say I want

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<v Speaker 1>you to set my face and want your fart of me,

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<v Speaker 1>but then you're one request. Oh absolutely not. That's kind

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<v Speaker 1>of a bit bit of a dish move.

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<v Speaker 2>What are some things that you've tried because of that

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<v Speaker 2>standard that you've set?

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<v Speaker 1>Piss play? Not saying I've ever been interested in but

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<v Speaker 1>her a girl wanted to piss on me, so I

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<v Speaker 1>let her?

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<v Speaker 2>And how is that? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>It's once once again I'm asking girl. I'm asking girls

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<v Speaker 1>to fart on me. So my threshold is probably higher

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<v Speaker 1>than others. But like if you if, if girls want

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<v Speaker 1>to do that, I was fine, It's not a deal

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<v Speaker 1>break for me. The only thing I've ever said no

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<v Speaker 1>to was knife play, and that's just a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>too risky for me.

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<v Speaker 2>Interesting, where do they want to put the knife?

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<v Speaker 1>Press it around their neck and body? They wanted need

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<v Speaker 1>to cress it around their neck and their body? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, okay, okay did they ever? Did they want to ever?

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<v Speaker 2>Pub Like, like, if a girl wanted to like put

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<v Speaker 2>a knife up your ass, would you let her do that?

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<v Speaker 1>I've never had more than a finger up and I

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<v Speaker 1>think probably keep it that way.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. How about pegging, I feel like that's the one

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<v Speaker 2>thing that people I feel pegging is heart Now. I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like pegging people are into pegging.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I've always I've always been very conflicted about that

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<v Speaker 1>because once, as I say, I've only ever had a

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<v Speaker 1>finger up there and that was quite painful. So I

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<v Speaker 1>think it would take a lot to get me to

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<v Speaker 1>be pegged. But I'm very submissive guy, so I love

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<v Speaker 1>the idea of it that in practice I found it

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<v Speaker 1>a lot more challenging to work.

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<v Speaker 2>And piss played. A girl wanted to pee on you?

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<v Speaker 2>And how did it? How did how did that feel

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<v Speaker 2>when she peed on you? Did you enjoy that?

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<v Speaker 1>This sounds really stupid, but it kind of like it

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<v Speaker 1>was maybe she was too dehydrated. It was just like

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<v Speaker 1>too much pea, if that makes sense. Like she if

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<v Speaker 1>she like too much, isn't too strong, too diluted or

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<v Speaker 1>not very luted enough. So it was like okay, but

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<v Speaker 1>it was just very didn't do anything for me.

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<v Speaker 2>If she had drank more water beforehand, you think it

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<v Speaker 2>would have done more for you?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I think I think. I don't know if

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<v Speaker 1>it would have done more for me, but it would

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<v Speaker 1>have just been a slightly more pleasant experience. Interesting because

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<v Speaker 1>I like, I like to be dominated, and that's a

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<v Speaker 1>very dominated that's the very dominating thing but like it's

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<v Speaker 1>very like you're very aware that someone's pissing on you

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<v Speaker 1>when they're pissing on you, is what I would.

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<v Speaker 2>Say, tell dive more into that's an interest. You're very

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<v Speaker 2>aware when someone's pissing on you. When they're pissing on you,

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<v Speaker 2>do you mean by that?

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<v Speaker 1>So if a girl's if I'm tied up and a

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<v Speaker 1>girl dominating me, I might not be thinking very specifically

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<v Speaker 1>about what they're doing. It's more like the whole general like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I'm being dominated, this girl's on top

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<v Speaker 1>of me. This is fantastic. Whereas if a girl's pissing

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<v Speaker 1>on you, I don't really think, oh my god, there's

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<v Speaker 1>this really hot girl dominating me. I just think, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>that's piss mmm, And it kind of takes me out

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<v Speaker 1>of kind of takes me out of the mood because

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<v Speaker 1>the whole, the whole part thing, the whole suffering thing

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<v Speaker 1>in general, and it's mainly a suffering thing. Fart. There's

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<v Speaker 1>just a very specific point of that which I can't

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<v Speaker 1>seem to shake, but it's the whole suffering thing in general.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that definitely comes from just like a primary submissive,

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<v Speaker 1>I just like dominant girls mmm, but that makes dating hard.

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<v Speaker 1>That makes dating hard?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you currently.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I am, but I'm dating. Yeah, I'm like talking

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<v Speaker 1>to people and meeting up with girls. It's I was

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<v Speaker 1>just going to say, it's difficult to know, like because

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<v Speaker 1>you don't want to get too in a relationship, too

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<v Speaker 1>far in deep with someone and I fall for them,

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<v Speaker 1>so then find out that, like you're completely sexually incompatible,

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<v Speaker 1>but like you don't want to be on the first

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<v Speaker 1>date in the restaurant going so, hey, have you ever

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<v Speaker 1>farted on a guy? There's like a line. And sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>because like I said, I'm twenty seven, that's like you've

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<v Speaker 1>got to start thinking about the long term. You've got

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<v Speaker 1>to start thinking of settling down and all of that

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<v Speaker 1>sort of thing. And I'd say I'm dating to settle down.

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<v Speaker 1>And sometimes if there's someone who I'm not like sexually

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<v Speaker 1>compassible with, every other way we're sexually compatib's sorry, in

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<v Speaker 1>every other way we're compatible. I kind of feel a

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<v Speaker 1>bit like a dick for calling that off, Like am

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<v Speaker 1>I being immature? That the wrong decision? But ultimately I

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<v Speaker 1>think sexual compatibility is quite important.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I agree, I agree, I agree. And also it's

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<v Speaker 2>you know, you've decided that it's important to you, that's

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<v Speaker 2>that's important.

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<v Speaker 1>But then I don't I don't need a dominate trix,

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<v Speaker 1>just someone who's got like quite an open mind. Because

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<v Speaker 1>I think you said pegging's very in, like like sitting

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<v Speaker 1>on the guy's face is also very in, which is

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<v Speaker 1>fantastic news for me. So and I think you can

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<v Speaker 1>you can need girls into it, and you can need

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<v Speaker 1>anyone into it. Really I was eased into it, so

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<v Speaker 1>like it's if you go on the first date saying

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<v Speaker 1>fart of me, Probably not you build up to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Then people are normally more perceptive.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, when is there a rule of thumb for you

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<v Speaker 2>how deep into a relationship until you bring this up?

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<v Speaker 1>Perhaps? So absolutely not. It depends on the other person.

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<v Speaker 1>I've done it like free dated with someone before, but

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<v Speaker 1>then I've also done it like a year and for

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<v Speaker 1>other people. Oddly enough, the person I did it in

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<v Speaker 1>was like three months was a co worker and we're

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<v Speaker 1>like no longer a thing. That's very strange when I

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<v Speaker 1>see her in a corridor and it's like I used

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<v Speaker 1>to part of me and now we just like make

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<v Speaker 1>small talk.

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<v Speaker 2>Were you just somebody that used to fart on.

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<v Speaker 1>Me exactly that. Do you know what, next time I

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<v Speaker 1>see who, I'm going to think of that exact song.

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<v Speaker 1>So thank you yet?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, of course that's that's it's the weird al Vic

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<v Speaker 2>parody of that song.

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't suppose a peach on that.

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<v Speaker 2>Mmmmm mmm. So what are you on the apps? Where

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<v Speaker 2>are you on?

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<v Speaker 1>Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you on? I feel like you do well on

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<v Speaker 2>like a field, like one of the like one kind

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<v Speaker 2>of like the alternative apps.

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<v Speaker 1>I'd considered that, but I'm very much in the English

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<v Speaker 1>cantry side. The dating pool here is far is quite

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<v Speaker 1>small compared to a city. So for example, when I

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<v Speaker 1>visit London, there's there's loads of options, but I don't

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<v Speaker 1>live there. I live many hours away, So unless you're

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<v Speaker 1>on the mainstream apps, there's really not much elsewhere.

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<v Speaker 2>M hm hmmm. So are you getting a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>matches on these apps?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you talking to people in person too or is

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<v Speaker 2>it mainly the apps?

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<v Speaker 1>So in my job in healthcare, it can be quite

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<v Speaker 1>difficult to speak to people in person because I'm normally

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<v Speaker 1>seeing them in a in a context in which it

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<v Speaker 1>would be inappropriate to then ask for their number.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>I know your family members dying, but hey, here's my numbers.

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<v Speaker 1>It in my face. Sometimes it kind of doesn't really

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<v Speaker 1>but otherwise, but it kind of em limits you to like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, people you meet in coffee shops and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>But despite what films have shown me over the years,

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<v Speaker 1>I've never been approached for my phone number and coffee

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<v Speaker 1>shops while disappointing. So yeah, it's it's mainly on the app.

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<v Speaker 1>So and I'd say I've got reasonable success. I've been

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I would say, except for the week I

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<v Speaker 1>was ill, I go on like two dates a week

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<v Speaker 1>for the last month.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's pretty that's pretty good. That's pretty good. How

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<v Speaker 2>do they usually go? Do you have a spot that

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<v Speaker 2>you take people to?

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<v Speaker 1>Not really, I go, we drive usually most people see

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<v Speaker 1>is like the closest city. It's still like a forty

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<v Speaker 1>five minutes drive for me. But we're just going, like

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<v Speaker 1>go grab coffee or grab grab lunch or something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Usually pretty laid back. I'm pretty good, chilled m hm.

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<v Speaker 1>And I struggle with like making connections with people. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit but I would describe myself as a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit autistic. But I'm also medicated for it, so

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<v Speaker 1>maybe I'm a little bit more than I would say,

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<v Speaker 1>but maybe it's the mets make me just a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>But I better in person, and I just usually get

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<v Speaker 1>a vibe pretty quickly from people.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you try to date women who are also autistic?

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<v Speaker 1>I think I described it. I don't know where I've

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<v Speaker 1>copied this from, but this isn't an original thought. But

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<v Speaker 1>then again, what is like an autism bluetooth? Like two

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<v Speaker 1>autistic people tend to like naturally connect to each other.

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<v Speaker 1>They kind of naturally want to connect to each other. Sure, yeah, autism, bluetooth, autism, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>alto them bluetooth. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I bet autism and Wi Fi would be awesome.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know what it would be.

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<v Speaker 1>I could get behind that. That would be quite helpful, that

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<v Speaker 1>that would be a dating app. I could get behind

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<v Speaker 1>that order than Wi Fi.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there a dating app just for artistic people? There's

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<v Speaker 2>got to be, right, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Mean, there's a dating app for everything, isn't there? So

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<v Speaker 1>there should be like Love on the Spectrum and those

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<v Speaker 1>sort of programs have made that very popular, so there's services.

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<v Speaker 1>Like in the UK, there used to be a show

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<v Speaker 1>before Love on a Spectrum called The Undatables. It's like

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<v Speaker 1>the UK version of love on the spectrum, and there's

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<v Speaker 1>dating agencies specifically set up for people with like physical

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<v Speaker 1>or like physical disabilities or mental disabilities or like more

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<v Speaker 1>severe autism. So yeah, I'm sure those services can exist.

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<v Speaker 1>But I also I've always wondered, and maybe you can

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<v Speaker 1>ponder this with me, because I know you love a

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<v Speaker 1>ponder whether and because another thing with autism, except for

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<v Speaker 1>like the social sort of interactions with people is like

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<v Speaker 1>is obviously sensation maybe like some people often get either

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<v Speaker 1>stimulated or things like that. And I wonder if my

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<v Speaker 1>sort of enjoying gross things things which I should have

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<v Speaker 1>a negative reaction instead I have a positive reaction. Whether

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<v Speaker 1>that's just like a fundamental ordersm thing of like just

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<v Speaker 1>just wired slightly differently.

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<v Speaker 4>And shouldn't enjoy I should enjoy interesting like that for example,

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<v Speaker 4>interesting do you know any have you spoken to anyone

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<v Speaker 4>else about who has this particular thing?

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<v Speaker 2>Like do you go on the do you go on

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<v Speaker 2>like the message boards to talk about this ship? Because

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<v Speaker 2>like I can't imagine that you just hold this on

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<v Speaker 2>your own, like you there's no way you haven't gone

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<v Speaker 2>out in search of like, hey, is anyone else feel

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<v Speaker 2>this way?

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<v Speaker 1>I'll be I have tried. I have gone to Reddit

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<v Speaker 1>as any as anyone would as the best place for

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<v Speaker 1>this sort of thing. But all the forums on Reddit,

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<v Speaker 1>if I caul forum, I don't know all the pages

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<v Speaker 1>of them Reddit are a kind of just like offering

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<v Speaker 1>videos and just say guys saying, Hi, I'm twenty three male,

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<v Speaker 1>meet up with me. I'm in Washington. Like there's no

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<v Speaker 1>like I wouldn't say there's like a board for like

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<v Speaker 1>general discussion and advice.

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<v Speaker 2>But you know what's you know, here's the thing is

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<v Speaker 2>And porn hub I think has comments for this very reason, right,

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<v Speaker 2>because it's bizarre that porn hub has comments at all,

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<v Speaker 2>Like who wants to comment on the porn? But I

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<v Speaker 2>like what you're this is what it's really for, is

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<v Speaker 2>like you gotta go on to like a fart video

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<v Speaker 2>on porn hub and make a comment and be like, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>how was everyone here's childhood? Like what are your guys

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<v Speaker 2>like blood work? You know, like you got to kind

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<v Speaker 2>of like try to make some connections that way.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, this might be a loaded question. I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>you ort to know the answer this, But have you

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<v Speaker 1>ever looked on the comments of part fetish videos.

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<v Speaker 2>I've never looked on them. You know, I'll do it

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<v Speaker 2>right now. I'm going to do it right now. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>go ahead.

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<v Speaker 1>I was gonna pay my experience, like after I can't

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<v Speaker 1>have look at and it's usually just I assume guys

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<v Speaker 1>you could be either saying, oh I wish that was

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<v Speaker 1>me or who's that girl and thinks like that like

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<v Speaker 1>that was so good. It's more just like constructive praise

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<v Speaker 1>as opposed to a more of a community.

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<v Speaker 2>Feel interesting okay, fart porn? Okay, all right, hold on,

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<v Speaker 2>let me look at this. There's not there's no comments. Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>I would so love to experience this as humiliation. Yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>you're right. It's mostly people being like that's that's awesome.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not as many people being like, hey, how's everyone

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<v Speaker 2>here doing?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, that's not much. Constructive criticism is normally

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<v Speaker 1>pretty positive as well, so you know they're don't that right? Mmm?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean someone had. But here's the thing is, like

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<v Speaker 2>someone has to start the conversation.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>I bet if you put yourself out there on Reddit

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<v Speaker 2>and you're like, hey, like I think it would be

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<v Speaker 2>brave of you to go into the far fetish porn

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<v Speaker 2>subreddit and make the first pop, make that first post

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<v Speaker 2>that goes, hey do any of do any of you

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<v Speaker 2>guys ever wonder why we are like this?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you do? You know? The I think I've been

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<v Speaker 1>a big fan of yours for years and I've got

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<v Speaker 1>and I've not come to a live show yet. If

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<v Speaker 1>you ever come back to England, they'll be there. But

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<v Speaker 1>an example you always use because when people call in

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<v Speaker 1>and are like, I'm feeling lonely, I'm really struggling to connect.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really I've got really niche interests, which I technically

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<v Speaker 1>do as well. But you know you always say go

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<v Speaker 1>on a discord and just make a discord and other

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<v Speaker 1>people who are sad and have your niche interest will

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<v Speaker 1>go on the discord as well. Maybe that's what I

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<v Speaker 1>need to do.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, I mean, you know, I think disc I

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<v Speaker 2>think I always think going in person and doing things

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<v Speaker 2>is best. But you know, if you don't have the

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<v Speaker 2>ability to do that, or if you're I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>where you would go in person? I bet where do

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<v Speaker 2>you live? You live in England? You live near London?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, the English countryside, many hours away from London. Oh okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so there's no life like a village hall and be

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<v Speaker 1>a bit strange.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, there's no like fart loving meetup in the They're

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<v Speaker 2>probably they're almost I would bet that there is a

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<v Speaker 2>fart lover's meet up somewhere in London, but I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know if you're going to find that. Yeah in the

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<v Speaker 2>English countryside, but yeah, you can join it. I'm sure

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<v Speaker 2>there's a discord. Do you care about that that? Do

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<v Speaker 2>you need? Like do you want to connect with other

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<v Speaker 2>fart loving people?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think it would be more of my own

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<v Speaker 1>personal interests as opposed to a need. I'd be curious

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<v Speaker 1>to know also how they got into it, because I've

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<v Speaker 1>looked into the psychology behind it and there's only really

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<v Speaker 1>one study and that was more of a case study

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<v Speaker 1>if they just interviewed one guy about it. So yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it would more just be of a curiosity standpoint. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel that I wouldn't personally develop as a I would

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<v Speaker 1>personally develop because of this, Like I've had this for years.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I know where I am, I know

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<v Speaker 1>what I enjoy, and part of me will never really

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<v Speaker 1>understand why. Because one thing you said when you did

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<v Speaker 1>read out the email is people don't choose this and

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<v Speaker 1>people don't choose their fetishes. I don't. I don't know what.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just glad my fetish is legal, like you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, and that's I mean, of course people I

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<v Speaker 2>think it. Yeah, I mean, of course people don't choose

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<v Speaker 2>the I don't think that if you bro I actually,

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<v Speaker 2>when I think about this a lot, I wonder about, like, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>how why we get attracted to certain things, and like

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<v Speaker 2>how much of it is, like because I know the

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<v Speaker 2>whole like nature verse nurture thing, Like I wonder how

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<v Speaker 2>much of like whatever, like my own shit is like uh,

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<v Speaker 2>just because like my like my fucking like dad being

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<v Speaker 2>like a horny guy, or how much of it is

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<v Speaker 2>like you know, like exposure to porn at like a

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<v Speaker 2>young age. You know, like how much of it is

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<v Speaker 2>is like genetics and random neuron It's like personality. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like you don't you don't. Well, it's kind of like

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<v Speaker 2>personality in the sense of like you don't choose your personality,

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<v Speaker 2>but you also, I guess, kind of do a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. You can feed into different areas if you can.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, It's like you have these wolves in your head

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<v Speaker 2>and you can choose to feed them or not it's

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<v Speaker 2>probably it's probably a little bit more how it is.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I don't you don't like start out with it.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I can't think of any sort so one here's

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<v Speaker 1>one interesting sort of As I said, I looked at

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of psychology of this. I'm definitely not a psychologist.

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<v Speaker 2>Not hit me, but no, neither am I. Neither am I.

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<v Speaker 1>The closest I've got is if you've gone for a

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<v Speaker 1>traumatic childhood where you have suffered a lot as a child.

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<v Speaker 1>As an adult, you'll say, used to suffering, you almost

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<v Speaker 1>want to harness that suffering and you want to be

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<v Speaker 1>able to control that suffering. That's the closest I've got.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's even just from a very general general sort

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<v Speaker 1>of b DSM just being tied up or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Like you've not been in control as a child, so

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<v Speaker 1>I'm an adult that's manifested and she wanted to control that,

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<v Speaker 1>control that. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I went to the AVN convention like three years ago,

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<v Speaker 2>the like the big porn convention, and I was talking

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<v Speaker 2>to Yeah, I was talking to some people there who

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<v Speaker 2>were like really who are like big BDSM people, And

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<v Speaker 2>they mentioned that they were like, oh, a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>this is like people who experienced some kind of like

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<v Speaker 2>trauma and they want to like uh uh yeah, harness

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<v Speaker 2>it in like a way of their own choosing. I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>is that you is that like? Did you? I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>if you want to talk about it, did you have

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<v Speaker 2>did you get like far along a lot as a child?

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<v Speaker 1>Well? I think I when any suffering I've had as

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<v Speaker 1>a child is very normal. It's like parents split up,

0:24:48.720 --> 0:24:51.320
<v Speaker 1>abusive father never to me, but it's a family and

0:24:51.359 --> 0:24:54.639
<v Speaker 1>an alcoholic and a drug user, so sort of that

0:24:54.760 --> 0:24:56.960
<v Speaker 1>general sort of suffering of being in a bad environment.

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<v Speaker 1>But I can't think of any specific like unpleasant smells

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<v Speaker 1>or unpleasant tastes or anything like lap so kind of

0:25:07.080 --> 0:25:10.080
<v Speaker 1>hat kind of half half mark there, half marked. But

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's why I'm submissive, probably because that's probably

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm submissive.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>What else? What else do you do you need to?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you like to be farther on every time you

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<v Speaker 2>have sex? Or do you is it so? Is it

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<v Speaker 2>every time? Or are you able to just have regular

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<v Speaker 2>normal sex? And you're like this is.

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<v Speaker 1>Fine, Yeah, I couldn't just have regular normal sex. I

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<v Speaker 1>enjoy that as much like usually when it when if

0:25:41.359 --> 0:25:43.359
<v Speaker 1>you're doing the farting thing. That's not gonna then be

0:25:43.480 --> 0:25:47.000
<v Speaker 1>punished to sex because logistically that's a little bit challenging.

0:25:47.480 --> 0:25:50.720
<v Speaker 1>So then usually that's like sixty nine or something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I enjoy just penetrative, regular sex and doggie

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<v Speaker 1>and I canna say it's not it's just it's an ass.

0:25:58.880 --> 0:26:01.320
<v Speaker 1>I love that, so you know, ali ass and yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>boggie and all. That's absolutely great.

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<v Speaker 2>The way you, the way you say these things with

0:26:08.920 --> 0:26:10.920
<v Speaker 2>your British accent is really funny.

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<v Speaker 1>I've always been told I'm well spoken, even for like

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<v Speaker 1>my even for being in the English countryside. It probably

0:26:20.400 --> 0:26:24.960
<v Speaker 1>sounds disproportionately oosh and well spoken for you.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you do for a living, Hank? What's the

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<v Speaker 2>I'm curious, But briefly before we go, I want to

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<v Speaker 2>hear about your life outside of farts. I'm curious.

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<v Speaker 1>So I work for I work for healthcare, work and

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<v Speaker 1>the ambulance service.

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<v Speaker 2>Right, Okay, sorry you mentioned that a bunch of times.

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<v Speaker 1>M hm. So yeah, when I'm in Mandoon people's houses,

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<v Speaker 1>that's what I don't ask for girl's numbers.

0:26:47.760 --> 0:26:52.240
<v Speaker 2>That makes sense. What's your go ahead? Go ahead?

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<v Speaker 1>I was just gonna say I come. I also come

0:26:55.200 --> 0:26:58.879
<v Speaker 1>across that work from some gross or disgusting things. But

0:26:59.400 --> 0:27:01.760
<v Speaker 1>in the same way that the guy who's like into

0:27:01.760 --> 0:27:04.440
<v Speaker 1>feet doesn't find all feet attractive, and they can look

0:27:04.480 --> 0:27:07.040
<v Speaker 1>at feet in a platonic way. I'm very much in control.

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<v Speaker 1>I've never been turned on at work because of something gross.

0:27:10.640 --> 0:27:14.360
<v Speaker 1>Even just like if someone I'm with is like farts,

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<v Speaker 1>I won't be turned on by that. It's very specifically

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<v Speaker 1>the girls who I'm like attracted to, or it's very

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<v Speaker 1>much in the context.

0:27:22.840 --> 0:27:24.760
<v Speaker 2>You ever been in like an elevator and a lady

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<v Speaker 2>like farts in the elevator and that does something for you.

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't been in that situation, but if it was

0:27:31.800 --> 0:27:33.760
<v Speaker 1>a very hot girl, it would be interesting to know

0:27:33.800 --> 0:27:34.600
<v Speaker 1>what my brain would do.

0:27:37.960 --> 0:27:41.720
<v Speaker 2>Or I guess a lift, Yeah, a lift.

0:27:41.920 --> 0:27:42.879
<v Speaker 1>Well, that's true.

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<v Speaker 2>It's been nice talking to you, Hank. You're you're a

0:27:46.359 --> 0:27:49.000
<v Speaker 2>nice guy. You're a pleasant guy. What's your dream in life?

0:27:49.040 --> 0:27:51.720
<v Speaker 2>Before we go with see what do you want ultimately

0:27:52.320 --> 0:27:52.880
<v Speaker 2>in your life?

0:27:52.920 --> 0:27:58.960
<v Speaker 1>Hank? Well, a very sort of traditional sort of I

0:27:59.000 --> 0:28:00.480
<v Speaker 1>just want to live in a in a house in

0:28:00.520 --> 0:28:04.760
<v Speaker 1>the countryside, with a loving life, go to work, come home,

0:28:05.200 --> 0:28:07.240
<v Speaker 1>live on not like a farm. We call it a

0:28:07.280 --> 0:28:09.280
<v Speaker 1>small holding. Have you got small holdings in America?

0:28:10.320 --> 0:28:11.879
<v Speaker 2>What is it? What is there? What's a small holding?

0:28:12.920 --> 0:28:14.879
<v Speaker 1>So it's like a it's like a tiny farm or

0:28:14.880 --> 0:28:16.720
<v Speaker 1>like a hobby farm or things like that. So you're

0:28:16.760 --> 0:28:19.879
<v Speaker 1>not like keeping hundreds of cows for a profit, but

0:28:20.000 --> 0:28:21.640
<v Speaker 1>like you might have like a pet cow, a couple

0:28:21.640 --> 0:28:23.680
<v Speaker 1>of goats, or like a couple of ducks and geese.

0:28:24.880 --> 0:28:26.560
<v Speaker 1>So you know, a house in the countryside of a

0:28:26.640 --> 0:28:32.879
<v Speaker 1>bit of land and just yeah, just a pretty normal life,

0:28:32.960 --> 0:28:35.159
<v Speaker 1>if there is such a thing as a normal life,

0:28:35.200 --> 0:28:38.000
<v Speaker 1>a life where you would walk into it if you

0:28:38.040 --> 0:28:40.239
<v Speaker 1>were if you were the postman or the mailman, or

0:28:40.280 --> 0:28:41.960
<v Speaker 1>you know, you walk past his house, you would never

0:28:42.000 --> 0:28:44.640
<v Speaker 1>think that guy's probably going to get fired on later.

0:28:44.840 --> 0:28:48.040
<v Speaker 1>You'd never know. There'd be no signs.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you for calling, Hank. Is there anything else you

0:28:51.360 --> 0:28:52.720
<v Speaker 2>want to say to the people of the computer before

0:28:52.720 --> 0:28:52.920
<v Speaker 2>we go?

0:28:56.840 --> 0:29:00.760
<v Speaker 1>Just make sure that make sure that you're friends are okay.

0:29:01.520 --> 0:29:05.760
<v Speaker 1>Recently in my area of work, Lesbion an increase in

0:29:05.840 --> 0:29:08.640
<v Speaker 1>suicides this year, so just just checking on people, make

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<v Speaker 1>sure make sure they don't make.

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<v Speaker 2>Any Thank you, Hank. You have a good rest of

0:29:12.320 --> 0:29:13.160
<v Speaker 2>your entire life.

0:29:15.040 --> 0:29:17.320
<v Speaker 1>Stay awesome. Get see around the universe by Hank.

0:29:19.920 --> 0:29:22.880
<v Speaker 2>What a nice guy? What a what a what a

0:29:22.960 --> 0:29:29.960
<v Speaker 2>beautiful soul? See I believe, I love, I love. I

0:29:30.000 --> 0:29:34.120
<v Speaker 2>don't think you have to be all things at once.

0:29:34.280 --> 0:29:41.680
<v Speaker 2>I really don't. Look at Hank. Hank is a is

0:29:42.120 --> 0:29:49.640
<v Speaker 2>a supportive friend. He's a Hank is a supportive friend.

0:29:50.080 --> 0:29:55.320
<v Speaker 2>He's a good citizen. He works hard for people in need,

0:29:56.080 --> 0:30:02.640
<v Speaker 2>and he loves eating farts. And he can he can

0:30:02.720 --> 0:30:06.520
<v Speaker 2>be all those things at once. I remember this, folks.

0:30:06.560 --> 0:30:09.600
<v Speaker 2>This is important when you think, folks, when you think

0:30:10.280 --> 0:30:12.400
<v Speaker 2>people talking, this is a real thing. And I had

0:30:12.440 --> 0:30:14.960
<v Speaker 2>to deal with this in my own life, and I

0:30:14.960 --> 0:30:17.480
<v Speaker 2>think people deal with it. And there's you. Sometimes it's

0:30:17.520 --> 0:30:21.680
<v Speaker 2>easy to think that you have that every part of

0:30:21.880 --> 0:30:30.280
<v Speaker 2>your existence has to be perfectly, neatly aligned, But it doesn't.

0:30:31.640 --> 0:30:34.320
<v Speaker 2>You can be all you can be all kinds of

0:30:35.280 --> 0:30:44.760
<v Speaker 2>conflicting things. Shout out to Hank, Hobi Obiah finds his heart.

0:30:44.880 --> 0:30:52.480
<v Speaker 3>Queen, no way, I'm on with the cat.

0:30:53.000 --> 0:30:55.160
<v Speaker 2>What's up, buddy? How you doing good?

0:30:55.200 --> 0:30:55.840
<v Speaker 3>How are you?

0:30:58.120 --> 0:31:00.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm actually I'm pretty good. I'm sure. I don't I

0:31:00.800 --> 0:31:02.920
<v Speaker 2>can't really complain about anything. It's another day at the

0:31:03.640 --> 0:31:07.080
<v Speaker 2>at the motherfucking office. What's going on with you, buddy?

0:31:07.840 --> 0:31:12.160
<v Speaker 3>Currently having like, Oh my god, I can't believe I'm

0:31:12.200 --> 0:31:14.800
<v Speaker 3>on with you right now. Okay, give me one second, go.

0:31:14.800 --> 0:31:17.680
<v Speaker 2>Ahead, take a time, brother, What are you having?

0:31:18.480 --> 0:31:21.360
<v Speaker 3>Okay, I'm on with the geck, don't blow.

0:31:21.200 --> 0:31:24.560
<v Speaker 2>It to blow What do you? What? Are you having.

0:31:28.080 --> 0:31:31.640
<v Speaker 3>A little bit of anxiety because I'm just so happy

0:31:31.680 --> 0:31:34.000
<v Speaker 3>to talk to you? Hmm?

0:31:35.560 --> 0:31:38.840
<v Speaker 2>Do I do you normally get Do you normally get anxious? Uh?

0:31:39.280 --> 0:31:46.040
<v Speaker 3>Just like in life, And it depends on the situation,

0:31:46.480 --> 0:31:52.360
<v Speaker 3>certain social situations. For sure. I get a particular anxiety

0:31:52.400 --> 0:31:55.400
<v Speaker 3>about the phone. Yeah, because I think I found dumb

0:31:55.400 --> 0:31:58.560
<v Speaker 3>on the phone. But it's fine, dude.

0:31:58.600 --> 0:32:00.960
<v Speaker 2>It's interesting. I've talked to a lot of people over

0:32:01.000 --> 0:32:05.400
<v Speaker 2>the years who said they have specifically anxiety about phone calls,

0:32:05.560 --> 0:32:07.520
<v Speaker 2>like it would be almost more anxious for them to

0:32:07.560 --> 0:32:10.400
<v Speaker 2>make a phone call than it would to like talk

0:32:10.440 --> 0:32:13.120
<v Speaker 2>to someone in real life. I don't know if that's you,

0:32:13.240 --> 0:32:14.880
<v Speaker 2>but I've heard people say that is that is that you?

0:32:15.000 --> 0:32:17.800
<v Speaker 3>I have way easier of the time. I've been trying

0:32:17.800 --> 0:32:21.080
<v Speaker 3>to get over that because I kind of want to

0:32:21.120 --> 0:32:24.960
<v Speaker 3>do what you do a little bit, But I kind

0:32:25.000 --> 0:32:26.680
<v Speaker 3>of have a mix of things that I want to

0:32:26.720 --> 0:32:31.920
<v Speaker 3>do on the internet. It's my content is a lot

0:32:31.960 --> 0:32:37.400
<v Speaker 3>more ADHD. It's all over the place. But I don't

0:32:37.440 --> 0:32:41.840
<v Speaker 3>know shit, man, I want to do like story times

0:32:41.920 --> 0:32:46.959
<v Speaker 3>and stuff. I've had a lot of interesting jobs and

0:32:48.200 --> 0:32:51.320
<v Speaker 3>like a lot of interesting experiences that a lot of

0:32:51.320 --> 0:32:53.600
<v Speaker 3>people haven't had. So I feel like I've got a

0:32:53.600 --> 0:33:00.560
<v Speaker 3>lot of advice I could offer, But the anxieties crazy.

0:33:00.920 --> 0:33:05.880
<v Speaker 2>Wait, so you don't have to live, You don't have

0:33:05.920 --> 0:33:08.040
<v Speaker 2>to like you don't have to like pick the best

0:33:08.080 --> 0:33:10.640
<v Speaker 2>one or like psych yourself out about it. But like, what,

0:33:10.640 --> 0:33:12.960
<v Speaker 2>what's like an example of one of these experiences that

0:33:13.000 --> 0:33:14.480
<v Speaker 2>you feel like not a lot of people have had.

0:33:17.160 --> 0:33:20.360
<v Speaker 3>Shit, Where do I start? I was one of the

0:33:20.400 --> 0:33:24.840
<v Speaker 3>few kids who like, once you get into the foster system,

0:33:24.960 --> 0:33:27.880
<v Speaker 3>usually you like don't get back with your parents. But

0:33:27.960 --> 0:33:31.440
<v Speaker 3>my mom fought really hard and got me back. That's

0:33:31.480 --> 0:33:31.960
<v Speaker 3>one thing.

0:33:32.840 --> 0:33:37.160
<v Speaker 2>Wait, why I thought like she like she you were

0:33:37.200 --> 0:33:39.600
<v Speaker 2>taking it, like CPS took you away or something.

0:33:41.200 --> 0:33:45.560
<v Speaker 3>Essentially because it was hard for her to get on

0:33:45.640 --> 0:33:50.200
<v Speaker 3>her feet after escaping. My dad he is another type

0:33:50.200 --> 0:33:55.560
<v Speaker 3>of monster any of itself. But my mom's fucking awesome.

0:33:55.600 --> 0:33:58.120
<v Speaker 3>I call her on Father's Day. She gets both days,

0:33:59.040 --> 0:33:59.600
<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean?

0:34:01.160 --> 0:34:03.600
<v Speaker 2>Fuck, yeah, that's cool. That's awesome. Like, damn, you did

0:34:03.600 --> 0:34:05.160
<v Speaker 2>the work. I like that you did the work of

0:34:05.200 --> 0:34:09.840
<v Speaker 2>both parents. You get both days. Oh hell yeah, that's cool.

0:34:10.800 --> 0:34:13.160
<v Speaker 2>How long are you you foster care for?

0:34:16.160 --> 0:34:19.520
<v Speaker 3>Not long, maybe like two three months. But I was

0:34:19.560 --> 0:34:22.920
<v Speaker 3>really young and surprised. It's like one of my first memories.

0:34:22.920 --> 0:34:25.399
<v Speaker 3>They were those people were terrible. I'm glad my mom

0:34:25.440 --> 0:34:26.000
<v Speaker 3>got me back.

0:34:26.080 --> 0:34:27.719
<v Speaker 1>Let me say that really.

0:34:30.760 --> 0:34:34.120
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Like when I went to see her, like I

0:34:34.160 --> 0:34:36.719
<v Speaker 3>wanted to bring this dinosaur one time, and they were like,

0:34:37.320 --> 0:34:39.440
<v Speaker 3>you can't take anything with you when you go to

0:34:39.480 --> 0:34:42.640
<v Speaker 3>see her, And uh, you can't take anything from her

0:34:42.640 --> 0:34:44.520
<v Speaker 3>anymore either. I think she gave it to me in

0:34:44.560 --> 0:34:47.759
<v Speaker 3>the first place. But uh, how old are you do

0:34:47.880 --> 0:34:53.640
<v Speaker 3>a ship like that? Almost have been like, oh my god,

0:34:55.160 --> 0:34:57.840
<v Speaker 3>eight seven ish?

0:34:58.120 --> 0:35:01.360
<v Speaker 2>Dude, you know what's I'm sure you feel this way strongly,

0:35:01.520 --> 0:35:06.360
<v Speaker 2>but like, I don't know, I don't have the Maybe

0:35:06.400 --> 0:35:09.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm missing some kind of context because like I've never

0:35:10.400 --> 0:35:12.839
<v Speaker 2>really I've never like worked with kids. I've never been

0:35:12.880 --> 0:35:14.120
<v Speaker 2>like a I don't you know, I don't have kids

0:35:14.160 --> 0:35:16.960
<v Speaker 2>I've never been like a teacher or like a counsel

0:35:17.000 --> 0:35:19.200
<v Speaker 2>or any of that shit. But like, dude, growing like

0:35:19.239 --> 0:35:22.920
<v Speaker 2>once you like get older and then you like start

0:35:22.960 --> 0:35:27.480
<v Speaker 2>to think back about like teachers who were dicks or like,

0:35:27.680 --> 0:35:30.719
<v Speaker 2>you know, like caretakers who were dicks, you start to

0:35:30.880 --> 0:35:32.879
<v Speaker 2>start to be bro. You start to be you start

0:35:32.920 --> 0:35:37.320
<v Speaker 2>to be like, how the fuck could a grown ass

0:35:37.440 --> 0:35:42.320
<v Speaker 2>man or woman be such an asshole to like a kid?

0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:44.759
<v Speaker 2>You know, Like it's like when I think about like

0:35:44.760 --> 0:35:47.160
<v Speaker 2>shit like teachers said to me or yelled at me

0:35:47.200 --> 0:35:48.960
<v Speaker 2>about or anything like that, I'm like, how did you

0:35:49.000 --> 0:35:51.640
<v Speaker 2>have the capacity to be that way to a kid? Dude?

0:35:53.000 --> 0:35:57.239
<v Speaker 3>It's just low intelligence, man. They are just not emotionally

0:35:57.280 --> 0:36:02.120
<v Speaker 3>intelligent at all. The other thing that's pretty interesting is

0:36:02.360 --> 0:36:05.080
<v Speaker 3>I'll say my voice doesn't match what I look like.

0:36:06.560 --> 0:36:10.200
<v Speaker 3>I'm kind of a big dude. My main gig for

0:36:10.280 --> 0:36:13.960
<v Speaker 3>a long time is being a bouncer. But I barely

0:36:14.080 --> 0:36:17.680
<v Speaker 3>had any altercations because I can talk a dog off

0:36:17.719 --> 0:36:21.240
<v Speaker 3>a meat wagon. It's one of my skills.

0:36:21.920 --> 0:36:25.160
<v Speaker 2>What kind of club were you bouncer at?

0:36:25.400 --> 0:36:28.720
<v Speaker 3>Uh? You know the City World of Witches?

0:36:29.280 --> 0:36:32.000
<v Speaker 2>Guide City World of Witches.

0:36:33.719 --> 0:36:36.120
<v Speaker 3>You know the city where all the witches died.

0:36:36.440 --> 0:36:38.720
<v Speaker 2>Oh I thought you said, do you know the City

0:36:38.840 --> 0:36:43.520
<v Speaker 2>World of Witches guide? Now Salem, Salem?

0:36:44.880 --> 0:36:50.960
<v Speaker 3>So that was my stomping grounds. I did like on

0:36:51.120 --> 0:36:51.799
<v Speaker 3>the big.

0:36:53.680 --> 0:36:54.960
<v Speaker 2>H you're cutting out, You're cutting.

0:36:54.719 --> 0:37:03.640
<v Speaker 3>Out, Okay, so I'll try that again. I did three

0:37:03.680 --> 0:37:06.880
<v Speaker 3>different bars on the main street in that city that

0:37:07.719 --> 0:37:11.600
<v Speaker 3>like all the tourists, it's like the where everything goes on.

0:37:15.440 --> 0:37:16.640
<v Speaker 2>Can I can I get an idea?

0:37:16.680 --> 0:37:16.759
<v Speaker 5>How?

0:37:17.280 --> 0:37:17.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:37:17.440 --> 0:37:19.200
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, go ahead, go ahead, la finished.

0:37:19.640 --> 0:37:24.319
<v Speaker 3>The main one that did was called Coodo, and it

0:37:24.440 --> 0:37:29.720
<v Speaker 3>was basically like sushi restaurant during the day, metal club

0:37:29.760 --> 0:37:33.640
<v Speaker 3>at night, with like a bunch of different events that

0:37:33.760 --> 0:37:38.040
<v Speaker 3>happened every month. They got like gay night and dark

0:37:38.320 --> 0:37:39.759
<v Speaker 3>night and eighties night.

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<v Speaker 2>Can I get an idea of how?

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<v Speaker 5>Like?

0:37:46.440 --> 0:37:47.799
<v Speaker 2>What do you look like? How tall are you? How

0:37:47.840 --> 0:37:50.000
<v Speaker 2>much do you weigh?

0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:55.240
<v Speaker 3>I am six foot even and I'm currently two hundred

0:37:55.239 --> 0:37:58.440
<v Speaker 3>and seventy eight pounds, But I just started hitting the

0:37:58.440 --> 0:38:01.600
<v Speaker 3>gym again, so I'm gonna get really big.

0:38:02.040 --> 0:38:05.560
<v Speaker 2>Real big, really Oh shit? Okay, all right, yeah I know,

0:38:05.640 --> 0:38:07.919
<v Speaker 2>And now I gotta picture of you. Now I don't

0:38:07.920 --> 0:38:08.600
<v Speaker 2>want to fuck with you.

0:38:11.600 --> 0:38:12.920
<v Speaker 3>I got face tats too.

0:38:13.600 --> 0:38:16.000
<v Speaker 2>Really you have facetat. What kind of face tests do

0:38:16.040 --> 0:38:16.239
<v Speaker 2>you have?

0:38:18.239 --> 0:38:26.040
<v Speaker 3>It's just some uh generic spooky looking chaos magic tribal

0:38:26.040 --> 0:38:26.839
<v Speaker 3>shit I made up.

0:38:26.960 --> 0:38:29.279
<v Speaker 2>I don't know you made it up?

0:38:31.000 --> 0:38:31.759
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I drew it.

0:38:32.840 --> 0:38:34.279
<v Speaker 2>Are do you do? You do a lot of art?

0:38:36.600 --> 0:38:41.560
<v Speaker 3>Not really? That's the thing is like I spread myself

0:38:41.640 --> 0:38:43.920
<v Speaker 3>so thin. I do so many different things. So I

0:38:43.920 --> 0:38:48.839
<v Speaker 3>don't know if you're familiar with instructor Bense, that guy

0:38:48.880 --> 0:38:53.000
<v Speaker 3>that does rope d art and meteor hammer mm hmm,

0:38:54.719 --> 0:38:58.960
<v Speaker 3>well it's basically U Scorpion for Mortal Kombat. I do

0:38:59.040 --> 0:39:04.319
<v Speaker 3>that for fun. Lot a lot of self taught stuff too,

0:39:04.480 --> 0:39:06.839
<v Speaker 3>Like I feel like I've made up moves before because

0:39:06.880 --> 0:39:07.719
<v Speaker 3>I don't.

0:39:08.640 --> 0:39:11.160
<v Speaker 1>I do a lot of ship. I mainly want to

0:39:11.200 --> 0:39:14.320
<v Speaker 1>write one day, if I can find the right artist,

0:39:14.400 --> 0:39:17.040
<v Speaker 1>I'd love to make like a graphic novel or something.

0:39:22.040 --> 0:39:24.920
<v Speaker 2>Have you ever had to get into a physical altercation?

0:39:25.000 --> 0:39:26.799
<v Speaker 2>Have you ever had to like fight a guy or

0:39:26.880 --> 0:39:28.200
<v Speaker 2>drag a guy out?

0:39:30.600 --> 0:39:34.520
<v Speaker 3>Okay, I'll tell you a good story. So it's Halloween

0:39:34.920 --> 0:39:41.280
<v Speaker 3>and penny Wise is getting really shit faced and he's

0:39:41.320 --> 0:39:44.000
<v Speaker 3>like this beer sucks, fucking just.

0:39:46.880 --> 0:39:48.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, hilarious.

0:39:48.520 --> 0:39:53.319
<v Speaker 3>He's like reeling character fucking you just goes this beer

0:39:53.400 --> 0:39:57.080
<v Speaker 3>fucking sucks and spits on the floor, and I'm just like, dude,

0:39:57.080 --> 0:40:01.480
<v Speaker 3>what the fuck are you an animal raised in a barn? Like,

0:40:02.120 --> 0:40:05.080
<v Speaker 3>stop fuck out of here? And I just you know,

0:40:05.120 --> 0:40:07.560
<v Speaker 3>I grabbed him. I grabbed his arms and put him

0:40:07.600 --> 0:40:09.839
<v Speaker 3>behind his back and fucking walked him to the front.

0:40:09.880 --> 0:40:11.160
<v Speaker 1>It wasn't anything.

0:40:11.480 --> 0:40:15.600
<v Speaker 3>Too crazy, but I figured i'd answer your question with

0:40:15.640 --> 0:40:19.160
<v Speaker 3>a funny one. I made his ass walk to the front.

0:40:19.280 --> 0:40:21.080
<v Speaker 3>I didn't even throw him out the side door. I

0:40:21.120 --> 0:40:26.920
<v Speaker 3>could have been nice, but every he had to do.

0:40:26.880 --> 0:40:27.600
<v Speaker 1>The walk of shame.

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<v Speaker 2>So are you still working as a bouncer right now?

0:40:33.880 --> 0:40:36.040
<v Speaker 3>No, I'm currently working in a memory unit.

0:40:37.120 --> 0:40:38.120
<v Speaker 2>What's a memory unit?

0:40:39.440 --> 0:40:43.799
<v Speaker 3>Uh? So, it's basically in an old folks home. I

0:40:43.880 --> 0:40:46.200
<v Speaker 3>work on the looney floor, like for when they are

0:40:46.280 --> 0:40:46.880
<v Speaker 3>really gone.

0:40:47.760 --> 0:40:51.080
<v Speaker 2>Oh I feel like you. I feel like you probably

0:40:51.200 --> 0:40:55.240
<v Speaker 2>gained some transferable skills as.

0:40:55.880 --> 0:41:01.720
<v Speaker 3>Yes, I've talked to who understands this. It's still people.

0:41:02.719 --> 0:41:03.800
<v Speaker 3>It's still people.

0:41:05.920 --> 0:41:07.080
<v Speaker 2>Tell me about this jump.

0:41:09.640 --> 0:41:12.719
<v Speaker 3>Uh, I'm I do activity. So I hang out with

0:41:12.760 --> 0:41:16.399
<v Speaker 3>them and like fucking make them rip your floats and

0:41:16.600 --> 0:41:20.600
<v Speaker 3>fucking put Pee Wee's Playhouse on the TV and well,

0:41:20.600 --> 0:41:21.360
<v Speaker 3>we have a blast.

0:41:23.160 --> 0:41:26.440
<v Speaker 2>That's awesome, that's really cool. Have you okay? So I

0:41:26.440 --> 0:41:29.160
<v Speaker 2>I let me ask you this more because if some

0:41:29.200 --> 0:41:30.880
<v Speaker 2>of the if some of these people are a little unstable,

0:41:30.960 --> 0:41:32.960
<v Speaker 2>have you had a lot of You've told me that

0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:34.719
<v Speaker 2>you can talk a dog off a meat wagon. Have

0:41:34.800 --> 0:41:39.799
<v Speaker 2>you had to diffuse any old folks home, like, have

0:41:39.880 --> 0:41:41.920
<v Speaker 2>you had to break up any fights or anything?

0:41:42.000 --> 0:41:42.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:41:42.200 --> 0:41:42.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, hit me, hit me.

0:41:44.280 --> 0:41:50.759
<v Speaker 3>So there's this guy. I can't say names, but he thing.

0:41:50.960 --> 0:41:53.560
<v Speaker 2>So he's just like, sorry, you cut out. Sorry, man,

0:41:53.560 --> 0:41:54.840
<v Speaker 2>you cut you cind of cut you cut out? You

0:41:54.920 --> 0:41:57.200
<v Speaker 2>cut out? Do you wanna say that again?

0:41:59.440 --> 0:42:03.799
<v Speaker 3>Uh? So there's this one guy and he used to

0:42:03.840 --> 0:42:09.080
<v Speaker 3>do accounting or something, but he got real worried about

0:42:09.200 --> 0:42:12.440
<v Speaker 3>not seeing his wife because she comes by really often.

0:42:13.160 --> 0:42:15.799
<v Speaker 3>And so he had this nurse just like in a

0:42:15.920 --> 0:42:19.360
<v Speaker 3>death rip. And I went up to him and I

0:42:19.440 --> 0:42:22.680
<v Speaker 3>was just like, man, it's okay, it's okay. She told

0:42:22.719 --> 0:42:25.399
<v Speaker 3>you she was going to see the boys, Like it's

0:42:25.480 --> 0:42:29.279
<v Speaker 3>all right, she went to her trip and whatever. I'm

0:42:29.320 --> 0:42:31.719
<v Speaker 3>trying to avoid details because I'm not supposed to do that,

0:42:31.800 --> 0:42:37.080
<v Speaker 3>but yeah, he was just looking me in the eye,

0:42:37.200 --> 0:42:39.839
<v Speaker 3>telling me like no one told me that you didn't

0:42:39.880 --> 0:42:42.719
<v Speaker 3>tell me that, and I'm like, dude, I said his

0:42:42.800 --> 0:42:46.040
<v Speaker 3>name to him, and I'm like, dude, I know you.

0:42:46.040 --> 0:42:48.640
<v Speaker 3>You know me. Have I ever lied to you? Have

0:42:48.760 --> 0:42:50.040
<v Speaker 3>I ever steered you wrong?

0:42:50.120 --> 0:42:50.279
<v Speaker 2>Man?

0:42:50.480 --> 0:42:54.640
<v Speaker 3>You know We're good, I promise you. And he ended

0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:57.360
<v Speaker 3>up letting her hand go. I didn't have to like

0:42:57.400 --> 0:43:00.920
<v Speaker 3>whip it off, thankfully.

0:43:01.960 --> 0:43:03.719
<v Speaker 2>Calling you know. Working in the Memory unit.

0:43:06.160 --> 0:43:11.120
<v Speaker 3>Almost a year now, I honestly it's good for the soul,

0:43:11.440 --> 0:43:14.279
<v Speaker 3>like the bouncer jobs were, because I always really like

0:43:14.400 --> 0:43:18.000
<v Speaker 3>that keeping people safe and stuff. That's always kind of

0:43:18.040 --> 0:43:22.240
<v Speaker 3>been a passion. I could actually tell you the story

0:43:22.280 --> 0:43:25.680
<v Speaker 3>of when I think I gained that, like where I

0:43:25.800 --> 0:43:30.160
<v Speaker 3>really knew I wanted to do something like that, like security.

0:43:32.280 --> 0:43:40.480
<v Speaker 3>But the memory unit is rough. It is rough because

0:43:40.560 --> 0:43:43.719
<v Speaker 3>like you lose people all the time that and I

0:43:43.840 --> 0:43:46.400
<v Speaker 3>do better in like a bar setting. I'd like to

0:43:46.440 --> 0:43:49.040
<v Speaker 3>get back into what I was doing, but I just

0:43:49.120 --> 0:43:51.680
<v Speaker 3>can't afford to live anywhere that has a scene. I'm

0:43:51.719 --> 0:43:56.479
<v Speaker 3>stuck somewhere kind of close by, but the last train

0:43:56.560 --> 0:44:00.240
<v Speaker 3>of the night leaves before i'd be able to get home,

0:44:00.400 --> 0:44:05.160
<v Speaker 3>so my old thought is just not doable from here.

0:44:07.520 --> 0:44:12.800
<v Speaker 2>What's your name? Again, Tom, Tom, It's interesting that you

0:44:12.840 --> 0:44:14.600
<v Speaker 2>say you have a lot of anxiety because you're in

0:44:14.640 --> 0:44:17.680
<v Speaker 2>a lot of kind of anxiety, because you seem to

0:44:17.880 --> 0:44:23.680
<v Speaker 2>be in all these seemingly anxiety producing situations that you're

0:44:24.200 --> 0:44:25.240
<v Speaker 2>you're able to keep calming.

0:44:26.480 --> 0:44:27.920
<v Speaker 3>I feel great now, thank you.

0:44:28.280 --> 0:44:29.839
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, But you're able to keep You're able to keep

0:44:29.840 --> 0:44:34.440
<v Speaker 2>calm in all these kind of crazy situations. It's like

0:44:34.719 --> 0:44:35.759
<v Speaker 2>that's what you're being paid for.

0:44:35.920 --> 0:44:40.680
<v Speaker 3>You know. The little things get me going. But like

0:44:41.080 --> 0:44:44.720
<v Speaker 3>when when it's true crisis, when like the building's on fire,

0:44:44.760 --> 0:44:46.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, all right, everyone, let's go.

0:44:50.040 --> 0:44:52.760
<v Speaker 1>M That is what I'm like, mm hmmm.

0:44:54.840 --> 0:44:56.879
<v Speaker 2>So what's your ultimate dream is you want to start

0:44:56.880 --> 0:44:59.239
<v Speaker 2>making videos?

0:44:59.800 --> 0:45:02.400
<v Speaker 1>I I mainly want to do that just so that

0:45:02.480 --> 0:45:05.799
<v Speaker 1>I can get enough income to get back to a

0:45:05.840 --> 0:45:08.560
<v Speaker 1>city with a real scene. I want to be a

0:45:08.600 --> 0:45:11.360
<v Speaker 1>bouncer again and still be able to afford rent. Is

0:45:11.440 --> 0:45:12.560
<v Speaker 1>essentially what I want to.

0:45:12.480 --> 0:45:13.080
<v Speaker 3>Be able to do.

0:45:13.840 --> 0:45:18.160
<v Speaker 1>I like just being around and keeping people safe because

0:45:18.520 --> 0:45:20.759
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I do a good job. But I'm

0:45:20.840 --> 0:45:23.160
<v Speaker 1>just not cut out to be a copy either, So

0:45:26.400 --> 0:45:30.480
<v Speaker 1>like I come up with no nonsense policies. The bars

0:45:30.600 --> 0:45:35.880
<v Speaker 1>still used to this day, like for example, if someone

0:45:35.920 --> 0:45:38.120
<v Speaker 1>goes in the bathroom with a drink I was always

0:45:38.120 --> 0:45:42.319
<v Speaker 1>a fan of, you know, instead of confiscating it in

0:45:42.440 --> 0:45:45.799
<v Speaker 1>case they spiked it, look them in the eye and

0:45:45.840 --> 0:45:48.880
<v Speaker 1>just be like, look, you can go through the whole

0:45:49.080 --> 0:45:53.000
<v Speaker 1>rigmarole of getting that replaced, or you can just take

0:45:53.040 --> 0:45:54.920
<v Speaker 1>a big swig of that in front of me, so

0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:57.160
<v Speaker 1>I know that if there's anything in there, you're getting

0:45:57.160 --> 0:45:57.640
<v Speaker 1>some too.

0:46:00.120 --> 0:46:00.839
<v Speaker 2>What did what?

0:46:00.840 --> 0:46:01.120
<v Speaker 1>What?

0:46:01.120 --> 0:46:03.160
<v Speaker 2>What would typically happen when you would uh?

0:46:03.920 --> 0:46:04.359
<v Speaker 5>Oh dude?

0:46:04.400 --> 0:46:07.280
<v Speaker 3>I used that in like a hundred times, and people

0:46:07.280 --> 0:46:11.359
<v Speaker 3>were always so much more excited and willing to do

0:46:11.440 --> 0:46:13.560
<v Speaker 3>that then have to go through all the bullshit.

0:46:14.000 --> 0:46:14.399
<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm.

0:46:15.719 --> 0:46:19.000
<v Speaker 3>What's the city I brought in the bathroom?

0:46:19.200 --> 0:46:22.319
<v Speaker 2>What's a city that you would most want to be

0:46:22.360 --> 0:46:23.400
<v Speaker 2>a part of their scene?

0:46:24.960 --> 0:46:28.040
<v Speaker 3>I want to get back to Salem. I love it. Mmm.

0:46:28.920 --> 0:46:30.080
<v Speaker 2>Where are you now? Can I ask?

0:46:31.880 --> 0:46:32.040
<v Speaker 5>Uh?

0:46:32.480 --> 0:46:33.600
<v Speaker 3>Currently in Gloucester?

0:46:34.000 --> 0:46:35.799
<v Speaker 1>Not as not as good as a fake?

0:46:37.320 --> 0:46:39.399
<v Speaker 2>And uh, do you got friends over there? At least?

0:46:39.440 --> 0:46:41.280
<v Speaker 2>Do you have like homies or family?

0:46:41.560 --> 0:46:44.520
<v Speaker 1>I got some pole who I hit up and like

0:46:44.640 --> 0:46:46.560
<v Speaker 1>we do d D and stuff.

0:46:46.239 --> 0:46:49.880
<v Speaker 2>Like I got my boyson very good.

0:46:52.280 --> 0:46:52.560
<v Speaker 3>Now that.

0:46:54.800 --> 0:47:03.680
<v Speaker 2>What hello, what the hell? Just happens.

0:47:04.920 --> 0:47:05.120
<v Speaker 1>Yet.

0:47:05.640 --> 0:47:06.560
<v Speaker 2>Oh hey, are you there?

0:47:07.760 --> 0:47:08.200
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:47:08.840 --> 0:47:09.040
<v Speaker 3>Oh?

0:47:09.080 --> 0:47:09.759
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, what was that?

0:47:11.120 --> 0:47:11.640
<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

0:47:12.760 --> 0:47:15.080
<v Speaker 2>Okay, we're keeping that in. That was like saying that

0:47:15.120 --> 0:47:19.200
<v Speaker 2>was psychedelic anyway, what happened never? I don't even I

0:47:19.239 --> 0:47:22.880
<v Speaker 2>don't know. I don't know, but we're keeping it in, okay,

0:47:23.760 --> 0:47:29.279
<v Speaker 2>Tom right, yeah, Tom Hollow, Tom Hollow, you can go. Yeah,

0:47:29.320 --> 0:47:30.920
<v Speaker 2>we can go first life if you want to, we

0:47:30.960 --> 0:47:33.359
<v Speaker 2>can go first last name. You want to be first

0:47:33.440 --> 0:47:33.879
<v Speaker 2>last name.

0:47:34.680 --> 0:47:37.719
<v Speaker 3>I'm trying to get famous, right, so I gotta I

0:47:37.719 --> 0:47:38.400
<v Speaker 3>gotta plug.

0:47:38.760 --> 0:47:40.719
<v Speaker 2>Okay, here, let me look at your ship? What what

0:47:40.840 --> 0:47:42.000
<v Speaker 2>is Tom Hollow? What is that on?

0:47:43.680 --> 0:47:46.520
<v Speaker 3>Tom Hollow? Seven on TikTok? Right now, I'm trying.

0:47:46.200 --> 0:47:50.000
<v Speaker 2>To I'm so excited to I'm so excited to see

0:47:50.000 --> 0:47:52.239
<v Speaker 2>what you look like, because you probably I would be

0:47:52.280 --> 0:47:55.680
<v Speaker 2>willing to bet that you look very different from Yeah,

0:47:55.760 --> 0:47:57.560
<v Speaker 2>how you sound Tom Hollow? Sound?

0:47:57.640 --> 0:48:04.840
<v Speaker 3>I hate it? I hate Oh. My wife's cool this.

0:48:05.040 --> 0:48:07.200
<v Speaker 3>She thinks it's cute. She thinks I sound like the

0:48:07.239 --> 0:48:11.600
<v Speaker 3>guy from the Thieves Guild and Skyrim, the guy that

0:48:11.680 --> 0:48:12.319
<v Speaker 3>goes like this.

0:48:13.640 --> 0:48:19.360
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, Tom Hollow. How do you spell tom?

0:48:19.560 --> 0:48:19.719
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:48:19.840 --> 0:48:23.919
<v Speaker 2>Is it? Oh? There's two ends in what the fuck?

0:48:24.520 --> 0:48:28.600
<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, that's.

0:48:26.800 --> 0:48:34.920
<v Speaker 2>So grow What the hell? What is that? Tom? Are

0:48:34.920 --> 0:48:35.480
<v Speaker 2>you still there?

0:48:38.320 --> 0:48:38.520
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:48:38.640 --> 0:48:38.839
<v Speaker 3>No?

0:48:38.960 --> 0:48:39.720
<v Speaker 2>Tom is gone?

0:48:39.760 --> 0:48:39.960
<v Speaker 5>Man?

0:48:41.880 --> 0:48:42.760
<v Speaker 2>All right, Tom?

0:48:42.800 --> 0:48:43.040
<v Speaker 1>Tom?

0:48:43.120 --> 0:48:45.319
<v Speaker 2>All right? That was weird. What the hell was that is?

0:48:45.360 --> 0:48:49.200
<v Speaker 2>He like on? Is he's he on? Like a landline?

0:48:49.200 --> 0:48:51.120
<v Speaker 2>And his wife just picked up? I didn't I thought

0:48:51.120 --> 0:48:52.640
<v Speaker 2>it was like a loan. I don't know he his

0:48:52.640 --> 0:48:54.759
<v Speaker 2>wife was there, so maybe that was that's what that is?

0:48:58.680 --> 0:49:03.359
<v Speaker 2>Was that a SoundBite? Okay, I'm gonna have to end

0:49:03.360 --> 0:49:05.040
<v Speaker 2>the call if he doesn't get back to me and

0:49:06.280 --> 0:49:17.040
<v Speaker 2>just a sec. But okay, Tom, Wait is he still there? Hello? Tom?

0:49:17.080 --> 0:49:22.280
<v Speaker 2>All right? I think Tom's gone? All right, Tom's gone.

0:49:22.920 --> 0:49:24.920
<v Speaker 2>I don't know what this is. This is a psychedelic

0:49:24.960 --> 0:49:28.839
<v Speaker 2>we're keeping it all in, it's all staying there. Let

0:49:28.840 --> 0:49:30.200
<v Speaker 2>me see if I can't call him back or if

0:49:30.200 --> 0:49:33.080
<v Speaker 2>I have it? No, shit, I can't or can I

0:49:34.160 --> 0:49:34.520
<v Speaker 2>hold on?

0:49:37.680 --> 0:49:38.000
<v Speaker 1>All right?

0:49:38.080 --> 0:49:41.800
<v Speaker 2>Tom's gone? That sucks. I liked Tom. I could have

0:49:41.840 --> 0:49:43.239
<v Speaker 2>kept talking to Tom for a while. I'm trying to

0:49:43.280 --> 0:49:46.440
<v Speaker 2>find his fucking TikTok Wait, okay, maybe hold on. Let

0:49:46.440 --> 0:49:50.359
<v Speaker 2>me see if I and get him back, this might

0:49:50.400 --> 0:49:57.040
<v Speaker 2>be him. Hello, Okay, you're back? Wait, what's your what's

0:49:57.120 --> 0:49:59.120
<v Speaker 2>your what's the what's the name? What's the user name?

0:50:00.760 --> 0:50:03.759
<v Speaker 3>Hold on now, let me just put it in the chat.

0:50:04.080 --> 0:50:13.200
<v Speaker 2>Okay, Oh, Thomas Hollow, Tom Hollow ninety Oh, oh okay,

0:50:13.520 --> 0:50:15.000
<v Speaker 2>oh Tom Hollow in ninety seven.

0:50:19.000 --> 0:50:22.279
<v Speaker 3>Hold on, Jack, I'm I'm terrible with phones. I'm working on.

0:50:22.200 --> 0:50:24.080
<v Speaker 2>It, all right. I gotta know what you look like

0:50:24.160 --> 0:50:27.800
<v Speaker 2>before the end of this thing. Okay, Tom Hollow ninety

0:50:27.800 --> 0:50:32.480
<v Speaker 2>seven on TikTok No, Tom, just tell me what the

0:50:32.480 --> 0:50:36.080
<v Speaker 2>thing is. It's all right, Well, you can't hear me.

0:50:37.840 --> 0:50:43.799
<v Speaker 2>This is a cluster. Here we go, here we are. Oh,

0:50:43.840 --> 0:50:54.759
<v Speaker 2>I see you? Uh crazy. I don't think you look

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<v Speaker 2>that different from what I imagine from what I imagined you

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<v Speaker 2>to be.

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<v Speaker 3>Really, that's the first time I've ever heard that.

0:51:01.360 --> 0:51:01.520
<v Speaker 5>Yo.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm on the phone with a deck right now.

0:51:04.360 --> 0:51:07.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm on the phone with actually no you Okay, Actually,

0:51:07.520 --> 0:51:08.759
<v Speaker 2>maybe you look a little bit different. I mean I

0:51:08.800 --> 0:51:10.719
<v Speaker 2>think it's the big hair and the beard.

0:51:11.800 --> 0:51:12.840
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:51:13.040 --> 0:51:14.680
<v Speaker 2>I think I maybe imagined you as more of like

0:51:14.680 --> 0:51:17.360
<v Speaker 2>a little boy.

0:51:18.520 --> 0:51:18.600
<v Speaker 1>What.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know why.

0:51:22.600 --> 0:51:23.560
<v Speaker 3>I don't know about that.

0:51:24.920 --> 0:51:26.520
<v Speaker 2>Well, Tom, let me ask you. Let me ask you.

0:51:26.560 --> 0:51:31.920
<v Speaker 2>This is okay, everyone, everyone go follow fucking Thomas hollow seven,

0:51:32.880 --> 0:51:38.120
<v Speaker 2>he's got unlicensed therapy, roped art, hot takes, and D

0:51:38.200 --> 0:51:44.080
<v Speaker 2>and D means thanks.

0:51:44.160 --> 0:51:45.840
<v Speaker 3>I appreciate that, Thomas.

0:51:45.880 --> 0:51:48.160
<v Speaker 2>This was this was a this was a good conversation.

0:51:48.200 --> 0:51:50.040
<v Speaker 2>I enjoyed talking to you. I hope that. I hope

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<v Speaker 2>you keep doing your ship and you keep telling people

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<v Speaker 2>your stories.

0:51:52.760 --> 0:51:55.560
<v Speaker 3>On. Hold on, hold on. I would hate for this

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<v Speaker 3>whole call to be a plug. I could give you,

0:51:57.840 --> 0:51:58.840
<v Speaker 3>like a cool story.

0:51:59.640 --> 0:52:01.759
<v Speaker 2>Oh well, well, if you want you want to give us,

0:52:01.920 --> 0:52:03.399
<v Speaker 2>if you have a few more stories that you want

0:52:03.440 --> 0:52:04.520
<v Speaker 2>to give us, you can give it to us.

0:52:04.600 --> 0:52:07.040
<v Speaker 3>Dude, I could go on. This is what I'm trying

0:52:07.080 --> 0:52:09.799
<v Speaker 3>to do. Okay, Okay, I'm so sorry that that took

0:52:09.880 --> 0:52:14.399
<v Speaker 3>up any of this time. That's all right, Okay, uh

0:52:14.520 --> 0:52:16.440
<v Speaker 3>you you give me a tone, and I've got a

0:52:16.480 --> 0:52:18.440
<v Speaker 3>story for it. I could tell you a funny story.

0:52:18.520 --> 0:52:20.400
<v Speaker 3>I could tell you a scary ass story.

0:52:20.719 --> 0:52:23.399
<v Speaker 2>Let's hear how about this before we go, Let's hear

0:52:23.440 --> 0:52:24.480
<v Speaker 2>one funny story.

0:52:25.840 --> 0:52:27.840
<v Speaker 3>Okay, funny story again.

0:52:28.120 --> 0:52:30.880
<v Speaker 2>Okay, all right, you know what, fuck you, Tom? What

0:52:31.000 --> 0:52:35.680
<v Speaker 2>story do you want to tell us?

0:52:37.680 --> 0:52:38.200
<v Speaker 5>Oh?

0:52:38.280 --> 0:52:42.360
<v Speaker 3>Man, okay, I'll tell you about a story from this morning,

0:52:42.360 --> 0:52:46.480
<v Speaker 3>though was pretty funny. Okay, go ahead, So lee in

0:52:46.560 --> 0:52:49.640
<v Speaker 3>my roommate, who's going to the gym with me every day.

0:52:49.719 --> 0:52:54.600
<v Speaker 3>Five am. Where we just finished our workout and we

0:52:54.640 --> 0:53:00.239
<v Speaker 3>went to go into the locker room and my boy

0:53:00.320 --> 0:53:04.800
<v Speaker 3>over here holds the door open, like to let someone

0:53:04.840 --> 0:53:08.120
<v Speaker 3>out who like is holding a towel with this poor

0:53:08.160 --> 0:53:11.120
<v Speaker 3>old nash holding the fucking towel, and he almost did it.

0:53:11.280 --> 0:53:17.960
<v Speaker 3>He almost walked out into the fucking ship. Can you

0:53:18.000 --> 0:53:21.399
<v Speaker 3>believe that he held the door like And the old

0:53:21.440 --> 0:53:25.120
<v Speaker 3>van was laughing too because he was like, I almost

0:53:25.160 --> 0:53:27.800
<v Speaker 3>did it and just got banned from this gym for

0:53:28.200 --> 0:53:29.880
<v Speaker 3>the rest of my life from.

0:53:30.040 --> 0:53:32.240
<v Speaker 2>Oh because he was because he was just walking around naked.

0:53:34.440 --> 0:53:36.960
<v Speaker 3>No, he was in a towel and my boy here

0:53:37.320 --> 0:53:41.040
<v Speaker 3>held the door open. We were walking into the uh

0:53:42.440 --> 0:53:44.960
<v Speaker 3>the locker room, and my buddy held the door open

0:53:45.040 --> 0:53:47.719
<v Speaker 3>to like let the dude out even though he was

0:53:47.719 --> 0:53:52.600
<v Speaker 3>in a towel. Like my boy wasn't paying attention, like

0:53:52.680 --> 0:53:54.120
<v Speaker 3>trying to consider it.

0:53:54.480 --> 0:53:56.400
<v Speaker 2>I see, I see, I see.

0:53:56.040 --> 0:53:57.680
<v Speaker 3>Like ushering the dude out.

0:53:58.760 --> 0:54:02.920
<v Speaker 2>M I kind of want to hear a scary story

0:54:04.120 --> 0:54:04.560
<v Speaker 2>and then.

0:54:04.400 --> 0:54:10.640
<v Speaker 3>Well, okay, okay, this is the freakiest shit that I

0:54:10.680 --> 0:54:13.560
<v Speaker 3>will never be able to explain because it doesn't make

0:54:13.600 --> 0:54:17.640
<v Speaker 3>any sense and it haunts me to this day. So

0:54:18.040 --> 0:54:21.200
<v Speaker 3>me and my childhood friend Evans used to break into

0:54:21.280 --> 0:54:26.680
<v Speaker 3>this fucking old building all the time, and everyone had

0:54:26.680 --> 0:54:29.560
<v Speaker 3>a different explanation for what this building used to be.

0:54:30.160 --> 0:54:33.759
<v Speaker 3>I've heard totally conflicting things, like someone said they used

0:54:33.800 --> 0:54:38.240
<v Speaker 3>to make like certain parts for missiles that were used

0:54:38.280 --> 0:54:43.000
<v Speaker 3>in a war or something. I called bullshit because there

0:54:43.120 --> 0:54:50.040
<v Speaker 3>was like posters with little kids can Quinton kink, like

0:54:50.360 --> 0:54:53.440
<v Speaker 3>it had to have been a preschool or something, but

0:54:54.680 --> 0:54:57.000
<v Speaker 3>there was freaky shit in there. There was a desk

0:54:57.480 --> 0:55:00.959
<v Speaker 3>that was chained to the wall. In the middle of

0:55:01.000 --> 0:55:03.920
<v Speaker 3>the building. There was like a big metal room or

0:55:04.000 --> 0:55:08.640
<v Speaker 3>elevator or something with like around green window. It made

0:55:08.680 --> 0:55:11.280
<v Speaker 3>it look like it was like a fucking glowing reactor

0:55:11.360 --> 0:55:14.080
<v Speaker 3>or something. I know, it was just like green window

0:55:14.160 --> 0:55:17.960
<v Speaker 3>with light going through. But it was just an ominous

0:55:18.000 --> 0:55:23.560
<v Speaker 3>ass fucking place and we just set that scene. We

0:55:23.760 --> 0:55:30.880
<v Speaker 3>found this pile of books. They were like premium red leather,

0:55:31.960 --> 0:55:35.799
<v Speaker 3>gold fucking numbers on the side. They were all part

0:55:35.840 --> 0:55:41.360
<v Speaker 3>of like a set. Clearly, now we were like kid kids.

0:55:41.480 --> 0:55:44.320
<v Speaker 3>They didn't know shit, and we used to like thatch

0:55:44.400 --> 0:55:46.759
<v Speaker 3>Bell because so we needed a book.

0:55:46.480 --> 0:55:47.080
<v Speaker 1>For a prop.

0:55:48.000 --> 0:55:51.320
<v Speaker 3>We took it and I remember looking through that shit

0:55:51.760 --> 0:55:56.000
<v Speaker 3>and on one side it would have names and then

0:55:56.480 --> 0:55:59.480
<v Speaker 3>dusts all the way across the page, and on the

0:55:59.520 --> 0:56:04.600
<v Speaker 3>others of that page it would say alive or deceased.

0:56:05.719 --> 0:56:08.799
<v Speaker 3>I have no fucking idea what those books were, what

0:56:08.840 --> 0:56:11.360
<v Speaker 3>they were records of, because they didn't have anything else

0:56:11.440 --> 0:56:16.280
<v Speaker 3>going on. It was just names and alive were deceased,

0:56:16.320 --> 0:56:20.400
<v Speaker 3>and uh. We ended up wrecking that book and we

0:56:20.440 --> 0:56:23.880
<v Speaker 3>went back to get another one, and the Giant Pilot

0:56:23.920 --> 0:56:24.640
<v Speaker 3>was fucking.

0:56:24.360 --> 0:56:31.960
<v Speaker 2>Gone, very spooky, very Halloween.

0:56:31.680 --> 0:56:35.239
<v Speaker 3>Very spooky, very like I just don't know no one.

0:56:35.560 --> 0:56:37.759
<v Speaker 3>It's gonna harm me forever because I'm never gonna know

0:56:37.800 --> 0:56:40.080
<v Speaker 3>what the fuck that was about.

0:56:41.239 --> 0:56:45.120
<v Speaker 2>Maybe the books died and they're and disintegrated.

0:56:47.320 --> 0:56:49.160
<v Speaker 3>No way, because we went back like a couple of

0:56:49.200 --> 0:56:52.680
<v Speaker 3>days later. The one that we had did disintegrate because

0:56:53.080 --> 0:56:55.480
<v Speaker 3>we left it under the porch like idiots, and it rained.

0:56:56.680 --> 0:56:58.880
<v Speaker 3>That's why we went back to get another one, like

0:56:59.120 --> 0:57:01.640
<v Speaker 3>just a couple of days later, and they were all gone.

0:57:02.640 --> 0:57:05.880
<v Speaker 3>Maybe like a homeless person used them to like start

0:57:05.920 --> 0:57:09.000
<v Speaker 3>a fire, like you were a cold like I've thought

0:57:09.040 --> 0:57:12.600
<v Speaker 3>about this a lot and things that could have happened,

0:57:12.680 --> 0:57:13.640
<v Speaker 3>but it's just weird.

0:57:14.719 --> 0:57:17.480
<v Speaker 2>Well, Tom, thanks for sharing, Thanks for sharing your stories.

0:57:18.200 --> 0:57:20.040
<v Speaker 2>We had the we had the haunted, we had the

0:57:20.080 --> 0:57:22.640
<v Speaker 2>Haunted book. You're not You're You're a cool guy, man.

0:57:22.640 --> 0:57:27.000
<v Speaker 2>I hope that you uh uh continue your journey through life.

0:57:27.200 --> 0:57:30.080
<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm glad that you found a found found

0:57:30.080 --> 0:57:33.120
<v Speaker 2>a found like a good lane to be in being,

0:57:33.360 --> 0:57:36.200
<v Speaker 2>you know, a keeper of the piece. Thank you, brother.

0:57:36.320 --> 0:57:37.800
<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:57:37.800 --> 0:57:39.080
<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go?

0:57:42.120 --> 0:57:45.400
<v Speaker 3>No matter what you do, someone is gonna think that

0:57:45.480 --> 0:57:47.880
<v Speaker 3>it's their full time job to make you feel like

0:57:47.920 --> 0:57:51.000
<v Speaker 3>you're not doing ship. But as long as you know

0:57:51.040 --> 0:57:54.000
<v Speaker 3>you're giving in you all, that's all that really matters.

0:57:54.360 --> 0:57:55.120
<v Speaker 2>Hey, thanks for calling.

0:57:55.160 --> 0:57:55.320
<v Speaker 1>Tom.

0:57:55.360 --> 0:58:01.160
<v Speaker 2>Appreciate you have a go on guest. Okay, I am

0:58:01.240 --> 0:58:04.560
<v Speaker 2>going to do a thing I've been doing on this

0:58:04.640 --> 0:58:11.040
<v Speaker 2>podcast again, which is that I'm going to end the

0:58:11.160 --> 0:58:15.880
<v Speaker 2>session by reading a few emails. I feel like that's

0:58:15.920 --> 0:58:17.720
<v Speaker 2>a nice way to do it. We have a couple calls,

0:58:17.760 --> 0:58:19.120
<v Speaker 2>we have a couple of emails. I don't know if

0:58:19.120 --> 0:58:21.080
<v Speaker 2>I'm going to do it every podcast. I'm probably still

0:58:21.120 --> 0:58:25.600
<v Speaker 2>going to do email only and call only episodes, but

0:58:25.640 --> 0:58:28.080
<v Speaker 2>I kind of like, I'm kind of enjoying this thing

0:58:28.160 --> 0:58:32.240
<v Speaker 2>of doing email only or doing like a little hybrid ones.

0:58:32.280 --> 0:58:34.120
<v Speaker 2>So I'm just gonna read a couple of emails, not

0:58:34.120 --> 0:58:37.200
<v Speaker 2>nothing crazy. If you want to be in one of

0:58:37.200 --> 0:58:39.400
<v Speaker 2>these emails, you can send me an email at therapy

0:58:39.480 --> 0:58:45.640
<v Speaker 2>geckomail at gmail dot com. It's therapy geckomail at gmail

0:58:45.680 --> 0:58:53.760
<v Speaker 2>dot com. Okay, this is from Ania, Hey gek, longtime listener,

0:58:53.880 --> 0:58:56.880
<v Speaker 2>first time emailer. Every now and then I call in

0:58:57.040 --> 0:59:00.160
<v Speaker 2>hoping you'll answer, only to be met with the automated record.

0:59:00.680 --> 0:59:03.200
<v Speaker 2>Hopefully one day we'll get a chance to talk. Anyway,

0:59:03.200 --> 0:59:05.800
<v Speaker 2>I wanted to offer a recommendation for people trying to

0:59:05.800 --> 0:59:10.040
<v Speaker 2>get out of the house volunteering. I started volunteering at

0:59:10.040 --> 0:59:12.520
<v Speaker 2>an animal shelter a couple months ago, and it truly

0:59:12.560 --> 0:59:15.480
<v Speaker 2>brings me joy. I work with the dogs, help out

0:59:15.480 --> 0:59:18.400
<v Speaker 2>at the front desk, wash dishes, do laundry, I clean

0:59:18.800 --> 0:59:20.400
<v Speaker 2>and it brings me joy and gets me out of

0:59:20.400 --> 0:59:23.520
<v Speaker 2>the house. I've been working from home part time since

0:59:23.560 --> 0:59:26.120
<v Speaker 2>COVID and I go to school part time. I live

0:59:26.160 --> 0:59:30.280
<v Speaker 2>in North Philly in an apartment building with seven other units.

0:59:31.840 --> 0:59:34.560
<v Speaker 2>You mentioned you went to Temple University. That's yeah, shout

0:59:34.560 --> 0:59:39.840
<v Speaker 2>out to where you are living in my old stopping grounds.

0:59:40.840 --> 0:59:43.400
<v Speaker 2>I enjoy being alone, which is cool because for a

0:59:43.400 --> 0:59:46.200
<v Speaker 2>long time I was alone and lonely. Now I'm just

0:59:46.240 --> 0:59:49.200
<v Speaker 2>by myself, which is a big difference. But I found

0:59:49.240 --> 0:59:51.520
<v Speaker 2>that I was spending too much time alone and wanted

0:59:51.560 --> 0:59:54.960
<v Speaker 2>to socialize, so I started volunteering and it brings me

0:59:55.120 --> 0:59:58.040
<v Speaker 2>a lot of joy. I will also start volunteering at

0:59:58.080 --> 1:00:01.040
<v Speaker 2>a bookstore that has an after school pro where I'll

1:00:01.080 --> 1:00:03.680
<v Speaker 2>be helping out with the kids in my neighborhood. I'm

1:00:03.680 --> 1:00:06.680
<v Speaker 2>nervous but excited for that as well. I haven't made

1:00:06.720 --> 1:00:09.720
<v Speaker 2>any friends yet, but I've had great interactions and conversations

1:00:09.760 --> 1:00:11.640
<v Speaker 2>with the people I volunteer with, and that has been

1:00:11.680 --> 1:00:15.240
<v Speaker 2>fulfilling to me at this moment. So if anyone is interested,

1:00:15.280 --> 1:00:23.720
<v Speaker 2>look into volunteering opportunities that pique your interest. Also, if

1:00:23.760 --> 1:00:27.080
<v Speaker 2>you want to, also, can you share my emails so

1:00:27.120 --> 1:00:34.240
<v Speaker 2>people can reach out to me. Sure this is spiritual

1:00:34.560 --> 1:00:37.640
<v Speaker 2>black Girl. Okay, hold on, it's you gotta get a

1:00:37.720 --> 1:00:43.080
<v Speaker 2>new spiritual black Girl at yahoo dot com. But black

1:00:43.160 --> 1:00:47.880
<v Speaker 2>is spelled BLK and girl is no. Oh, there's no

1:00:47.960 --> 1:00:52.880
<v Speaker 2>I in girl, so it's just g r L. Let's

1:00:53.320 --> 1:00:56.480
<v Speaker 2>send an email to spiritual black Girl. Don't send her

1:00:56.520 --> 1:01:06.200
<v Speaker 2>anything weird, just say hi, Hello, be cool. Okay. This

1:01:06.360 --> 1:01:13.960
<v Speaker 2>is from Let's See Okay, actually I don't have any more. Okay,

1:01:14.080 --> 1:01:21.160
<v Speaker 2>let's try Let's try this one. This is from Ripley,

1:01:22.600 --> 1:01:27.720
<v Speaker 2>subject line third shift, dear Lyle. I work nights at

1:01:27.720 --> 1:01:30.880
<v Speaker 2>a dog daycare and boarding facility, so I am alone

1:01:31.040 --> 1:01:33.880
<v Speaker 2>a lot. There are people here for an hour at

1:01:33.880 --> 1:01:36.320
<v Speaker 2>the start of my shift, and then after they leave,

1:01:36.960 --> 1:01:39.000
<v Speaker 2>I have the building to myself for the rest of

1:01:39.000 --> 1:01:41.760
<v Speaker 2>the night. This job is great because there is usually

1:01:41.800 --> 1:01:45.640
<v Speaker 2>about two or three hours of actual work followed by

1:01:45.680 --> 1:01:49.800
<v Speaker 2>whatever the hell I want. Most nights, after I'm done

1:01:49.800 --> 1:01:52.720
<v Speaker 2>with work, I smoke a joint and watch movies or YouTube.

1:01:52.760 --> 1:01:54.960
<v Speaker 2>And it feels amazing because I'm getting paid more than

1:01:55.000 --> 1:01:57.600
<v Speaker 2>any other job I've had, and i have more freedom

1:01:57.640 --> 1:02:00.440
<v Speaker 2>than I ever thought possible. But after six months of

1:02:00.520 --> 1:02:02.360
<v Speaker 2>doing this job, I'm starting to feel like I've run

1:02:02.360 --> 1:02:04.480
<v Speaker 2>out of things to do at night, and I'm getting lonely.

1:02:04.920 --> 1:02:08.560
<v Speaker 2>I've never been an extrovert. I'm extremely shy, anxious, and

1:02:08.760 --> 1:02:11.360
<v Speaker 2>bad at communicating, so I thought this job would be

1:02:11.400 --> 1:02:15.800
<v Speaker 2>perfect for me. I basically isolated myself from all social interaction.

1:02:16.400 --> 1:02:18.640
<v Speaker 2>At first, I liked it and I was really starting

1:02:18.640 --> 1:02:22.120
<v Speaker 2>to learn more about myself. But now I'm craving friendship.

1:02:22.400 --> 1:02:24.680
<v Speaker 2>I've tried putting myself out there by making friends with

1:02:24.720 --> 1:02:26.640
<v Speaker 2>some of the people that work during the daytime, but

1:02:26.640 --> 1:02:28.680
<v Speaker 2>they don't text me as much anymore and don't invite

1:02:28.720 --> 1:02:31.320
<v Speaker 2>me when they do things together, so I convinced myself

1:02:31.320 --> 1:02:34.280
<v Speaker 2>that I'm annoying them. Now I found a discord server

1:02:34.440 --> 1:02:38.080
<v Speaker 2>full of voice chats with random people to practice having conversations,

1:02:38.400 --> 1:02:40.280
<v Speaker 2>but I'm starting to learn that they aren't filled with

1:02:40.320 --> 1:02:43.959
<v Speaker 2>the best kinds of people. I'm pretty sure this job

1:02:44.040 --> 1:02:46.040
<v Speaker 2>is a safety net that turned into a hammock, and

1:02:46.040 --> 1:02:48.880
<v Speaker 2>I'm not sure what to do. That was a saying

1:02:48.920 --> 1:02:50.800
<v Speaker 2>I got from your show that really stuck with me.

1:02:51.160 --> 1:02:54.160
<v Speaker 2>I was wondering where I heard that before. I guess, yeah,

1:02:54.200 --> 1:02:56.960
<v Speaker 2>somebody said it. Listening to your show, while always helps

1:02:57.000 --> 1:02:58.680
<v Speaker 2>me get out of my own thoughts. The way you

1:02:58.720 --> 1:03:05.320
<v Speaker 2>talk to everyone is hold on, boy, I think about

1:03:05.320 --> 1:03:08.480
<v Speaker 2>this piece of advice. Thank you for your show, Thank

1:03:08.480 --> 1:03:10.560
<v Speaker 2>you Ripley. Sorry I don't like to. I feel weird

1:03:10.680 --> 1:03:14.320
<v Speaker 2>reading emails of people glazing me. I don't know if

1:03:14.320 --> 1:03:17.280
<v Speaker 2>that makes me a dick, but I feel but I

1:03:17.320 --> 1:03:22.280
<v Speaker 2>appreciate you. Appreciate you, Ripley. Thank you. Also, I love

1:03:22.280 --> 1:03:25.200
<v Speaker 2>when you take your shirt off. He didn't phrase it

1:03:25.240 --> 1:03:33.560
<v Speaker 2>like that. He said, I love the shirtless Gack episodes. Anyway, Ripley, Well,

1:03:33.600 --> 1:03:35.200
<v Speaker 2>I don't. I mean, I could say the same thing you.

1:03:35.600 --> 1:03:37.040
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I've I've been talking about this over and

1:03:37.080 --> 1:03:42.320
<v Speaker 2>over again. But yeah, I don't know. I mean, I

1:03:42.320 --> 1:03:48.000
<v Speaker 2>think the discord chat is a good one. You could

1:03:48.000 --> 1:03:56.200
<v Speaker 2>find more discords. Hmm, what else could you do? I

1:03:56.200 --> 1:03:58.360
<v Speaker 2>don't know. I don't, I'm I'm I don't. I I

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<v Speaker 2>uh hmm. Sorry, I'm having a brain fart right now.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, I I hope Ripley finds something to do.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, I can't. I'm not. I can't give advice

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<v Speaker 2>in this very moment. I don't, I don't, I but

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<v Speaker 2>I hope Ripley finds something good to do with his life.

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<v Speaker 2>This was is it? Is it bad to have an

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<v Speaker 2>advice podcast and then just not give advice? I don't

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<v Speaker 2>know if I wouldn't consider this an advice podcast. What

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<v Speaker 2>else can I say about things? I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>I have anything else to say. I'm gonna rant for

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<v Speaker 2>a bit. I'm just gonna rant. Someone in the chat

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<v Speaker 2>said finding friends in adulthood is hard. It is, but

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<v Speaker 2>I believe that, you know, if you put yourself out there,

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<v Speaker 2>you'll find things to do. You know, someone asked people

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<v Speaker 2>still use Yahoo? They do. I don't know why, man,

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<v Speaker 2>smoking weed and watching YouTube is fun. I get why

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<v Speaker 2>you're in I get why you're having a good time

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<v Speaker 2>smoking weed and watching YouTube. I'm not gonna say that

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<v Speaker 2>I think you're crazy for smoking weed and watching YouTube.

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<v Speaker 2>I really, uh, I really do get you. Okay, let's

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<v Speaker 2>do one more. This is from Cameron, subject line I

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<v Speaker 2>want to cross dress, but I'm afraid. Hey, Gek, you

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<v Speaker 2>can call me Cameron. I am a twenty one year

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<v Speaker 2>old male and I want to start cross dressing, but

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<v Speaker 2>I am afraid. I've always loved the more feminine side

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<v Speaker 2>of life, and I want to start dressing and acting

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<v Speaker 2>more feminine. But I feel afraid all of my coworkers

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<v Speaker 2>and family are either super religious or homophobic. I have

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<v Speaker 2>told my friends about this, and they understand and are

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<v Speaker 2>perfectly fine with how I act and dress, which is

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<v Speaker 2>a big help. I live a few blocks down for

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<v Speaker 2>my parents, so I dress up at home sometimes, but

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<v Speaker 2>I want to dress up in public as well. I

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<v Speaker 2>guess I'm just afraid of what everyone's expectations of me

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<v Speaker 2>are and how people feel about me. I would also

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<v Speaker 2>like to have a boyfriend, but my family has said

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<v Speaker 2>they would disown me if I ever dated a man.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like I'm trapped from I'm trapped of be

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<v Speaker 2>away from being my true self. Thanks for listening to me, Rant.

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<v Speaker 2>I hope you have an amazing day and thanks for

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<v Speaker 2>all you do. Sincerely, Cameron, thank you for sending this email. Cameron,

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<v Speaker 2>beautiful time time for a straight white man to give

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<v Speaker 2>advice on a podcast about being yourself, and I will

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<v Speaker 2>do that gladly, Cameron. Cameron, Cameron well Man, well Ka, honestly, Camera,

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<v Speaker 2>if you're listening to me right now, I'm gonna assume

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<v Speaker 2>you you you're you're twenty one. I'm assuming you're still

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<v Speaker 2>living in the town that you grew up in, and

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<v Speaker 2>I understand it's a difficult economy, but when I read

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<v Speaker 2>this email, I'm like, fuck, man, this guy's got to

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<v Speaker 2>go find a place to be, you know, because I think, wait,

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<v Speaker 2>hold on, well, I'm I'm you live, you don't live

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<v Speaker 2>with your parents. You live down the block from your parents.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm but I feel for you. I feel for you, man,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm really sorry. It's it's a it's a fucking damn

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<v Speaker 2>shame that your parents said that to you. I really

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry to hear that they said that to you.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a fucking damn shame. But you can't let your

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<v Speaker 2>parents uh stop you from living your life. You know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean. You don't. You don't need I assume

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<v Speaker 2>that you're not financially reliant upon them because you don't

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<v Speaker 2>live in the same place as they do. And look,

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<v Speaker 2>the way I see it, brother, is is if your

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<v Speaker 2>rent is paid, do whatever you want. You know, I

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<v Speaker 2>I think, I think, Cameron, listen to me. If you

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<v Speaker 2>want to have a boyfriend, if you want to date guys,

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<v Speaker 2>please please please please please do not let you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, you're an adult man, like, don't let your

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<v Speaker 2>family stop you from doing that shit. Don't let your

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<v Speaker 2>family stop you from like living your life. You know.

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<v Speaker 2>It's it was nice of them to birth you into existence,

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<v Speaker 2>but beyond that, you can't you can't let them dictate

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<v Speaker 2>your shit. You know, it sounds like you live in

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<v Speaker 2>a b It sounds like you live in a bad place,

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<v Speaker 2>or not a bad bad place is a strong thing. Sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>my brain is running out of energy. But you gotta

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<v Speaker 2>get out. You gotta go see the world somehow, because

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<v Speaker 2>it seems like it sounds like you're in like a

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<v Speaker 2>like a red state small town where everyone is like

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<v Speaker 2>super religious and homophobic, and it's like, Bro, Cameron, come

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<v Speaker 2>to Bushwick, Brooklyn, brother, come to Bushwick, Brooklyn, go to

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<v Speaker 2>fucking Portland, go to like like, oh my god, Like

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, man, you're twenty one. I get it.

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<v Speaker 2>You got good friends, you got family. Economy is hard,

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<v Speaker 2>but like, fucking get your ass out there in the world,

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<v Speaker 2>my friend, because he's the thing. He seems like if

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<v Speaker 2>you grew up in a place where like everyone's like

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<v Speaker 2>religious and homophobic and crazy. I don't know much about you, Cameron.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know where you've traveled or where you've been

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<v Speaker 2>or anything like that, but like you're gonna, dude, like

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<v Speaker 2>if you go to Bushwick, your head's gonna fucking explode.

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<v Speaker 2>You're gonna be like, holy shit, I didn't realize that

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<v Speaker 2>there was a all these sanctuaries all over the world

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<v Speaker 2>of people just doing whatever the fuck they want, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and it hurts it hurts my heart to hear that you, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>your family said that they would disown you. That's that's

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<v Speaker 2>that that really fucking success. I feel for you on that,

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<v Speaker 2>But you can't let that dictate what you're gonna do

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<v Speaker 2>with your life. Try you, I don't know, try your

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<v Speaker 2>best to figure out how you can get the fuck

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<v Speaker 2>out somewhere else. If you've been living, if you've been

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<v Speaker 2>living in the religious, homophobic, like small ass town for

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<v Speaker 2>all twenty one years of your life, like, listen, you do,

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<v Speaker 2>you man, but like you should try to you should

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<v Speaker 2>try to give a little shot at seeing what life

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<v Speaker 2>might be like, seeing if you if you can find

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<v Speaker 2>a job in some other you know, even just like

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know what state you live in, but I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sure there's a large city in whatever state you're in

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<v Speaker 2>where you'll find other people and you'll find interesting uh

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<v Speaker 2>communities and scenarios where like where you're like, oh shit,

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<v Speaker 2>these people think I'm weird for not being dressed up

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<v Speaker 2>as a lady. You know, So I'll help you I'll

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<v Speaker 2>help you, uh find, find find or create some opportunity

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<v Speaker 2>for yourself to expand beyond those horizons and like live

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<v Speaker 2>your fucking live your life, dude. That's the That's the

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<v Speaker 2>main takeaway I'm getting from the email is like you're

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<v Speaker 2>scared to live your life because you were just It's

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<v Speaker 2>like you're scared to live your life because your parents

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<v Speaker 2>are assholes and they didn't encourage you to live your life.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think you should live your life. Man. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if that was I don't know if that

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<v Speaker 2>motivational speech was anything, but but we did it. We

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<v Speaker 2>did a motivational speech, and we did a podcast, and

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<v Speaker 2>we talked to people. We talked to Thomas, and we

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<v Speaker 2>talked to Hank the fart Man, and we had a

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<v Speaker 2>good time. I think we had a good time. This

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<v Speaker 2>was good. I had a good time. I'm gonna go

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<v Speaker 2>send an email and do a push up and drink

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<v Speaker 2>a cup of water. Bless you all, Thank you for listening.

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<v Speaker 2>See you again on Sunday. Bobbye. Hello, folks, it's Lyle here.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, I can't stop masturbating.

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<v Speaker 2>You can't stop masturbating, Nope.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, for example, one day, this girl came into

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<v Speaker 5>work and she was just straight up like butt naked,

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<v Speaker 5>and I was like, well, it's just like God toying

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<v Speaker 5>with me. At this point, I was the only cash

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<v Speaker 5>here and I had to make everyone wait so I

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<v Speaker 5>could go in the bathroom and jerk off.

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<v Speaker 2>Isn't that stressful though? Like having to come while you

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<v Speaker 2>know that there's a bunch of people waiting for you

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<v Speaker 2>that cause that's like double It's like when you take

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<v Speaker 2>a shit in a single stall bathroom and you know

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<v Speaker 2>that there's a line outside of it or did that

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<v Speaker 2>like stress not even occur to you because you just

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<v Speaker 2>were so checked out.

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<v Speaker 5>The stress of needing to jerk off is much greater

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<v Speaker 5>than the stress of the social political environment of my job.

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<v Speaker 2>I have nothing else to say.

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<v Speaker 5>Those on the line.

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<v Speaker 2>Taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 5>Never big Get goes to his hide.

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<v Speaker 4>He's teaching you to a housing over your life, but

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<v Speaker 4>he's

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<v Speaker 2>Not really an expert.