WEBVTT - Ep 95: Top Moments of 2018 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:04.240 Happy New Year. Hi guys, welcome to you another episode 0:00:04.320 --> 0:00:08.799 of Horrible Decisions. Weezie and I decided that we were 0:00:08.920 --> 0:00:16.400 going to give you guys the best moments of twenty eighteen. Now, 0:00:16.440 --> 0:00:19.840 this is based off some of our patrons, this is 0:00:19.880 --> 0:00:22.279 based all some of our Twitter followers, and this is 0:00:22.320 --> 0:00:26.200 also just based on Weezie and I personal opinion. So 0:00:26.720 --> 0:00:30.600 I'm excited to give you guys now the best moments 0:00:32.080 --> 0:00:38.360 of Horrible Decisions. Enjoy. So We're gonna begin with the 0:00:38.640 --> 0:00:42.120 very first thing that I think was kind of the 0:00:42.159 --> 0:00:46.040 turning points. So we ended up joining Loudspeaker, and as 0:00:46.120 --> 0:00:49.800 we were recording our episode, one of the Loudspeaker family members, 0:00:49.880 --> 0:00:54.640 Dallas Pen, walked into our studio session and decided to 0:00:54.680 --> 0:00:57.240 share one of his kinks with us on air, and 0:00:57.480 --> 0:01:01.040 Weezy and I had our mouths to the floor. So 0:01:01.520 --> 0:01:06.880 listening as dallas Pen tells everyone what his kink is 0:01:09.840 --> 0:01:12.600 masturbated or like touch yourself with something that someone had 0:01:12.640 --> 0:01:16.800 that you wanted to m No, I really don't do that. 0:01:19.000 --> 0:01:23.800 That's some WPS panties that white people. Wait, what that 0:01:23.920 --> 0:01:25.960 is the thing? What did you just say? Doing in socks? 0:01:26.840 --> 0:01:33.880 People always masturbate inside of shoes. I wish you would 0:01:33.920 --> 0:01:37.840 masturbate them some of my motherfucking heels. Oh wait, you 0:01:39.000 --> 0:01:41.479 the internet? Oh yes, yes, I did have an ex 0:01:41.520 --> 0:01:44.479 who took my who liked my shoes, and he would 0:01:44.800 --> 0:01:46.880 exx with my shoes and my clothes and he would 0:01:46.880 --> 0:01:48.280 do that. So I do know what you we gotta 0:01:48.280 --> 0:01:49.920 limit that is, Steve mad I don't know how to 0:01:49.920 --> 0:01:53.000 go income. You're not doing that with my red bottoms. 0:01:53.280 --> 0:01:54.800 Oh my god, look the first thing to pop up. 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:57.360 I secretly borrow shoes from my lady friends and masturbate 0:01:57.400 --> 0:02:00.560 into them. People tend to frown downpone this when they 0:02:00.600 --> 0:02:02.840 see you lick the inside of their shoe. Wait wait, 0:02:02.840 --> 0:02:09.200 they look their own what Okay, you know he's like, 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:13.320 I don't like but you have jerked off inside of shoe. Okay, 0:02:13.400 --> 0:02:18.840 that's not weird at all. What kind of shoe was it? 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:25.919 What kind of shoe? Okay, that's not too expensive? Can 0:02:25.960 --> 0:02:29.600 we hear him? Can we hear him? No? No, we can. 0:02:29.680 --> 0:02:30.880 We gotta get can we get you on the mic 0:02:30.919 --> 0:02:35.520 real quick? Oh? Hey, hey, Dallas pan, we I met 0:02:35.560 --> 0:02:39.080 you at the Hi. Wait, we gotta get that on 0:02:39.120 --> 0:02:40.639 the mic, though, come on, So we really need to 0:02:40.680 --> 0:02:45.320 get this crocodile Caviclin ship with this. Did you come in? Okay? 0:02:45.360 --> 0:02:47.920 So we have someone in the room who has all right, 0:02:48.040 --> 0:02:52.240 I'm talking about a pair of fire ask black Label 0:02:52.400 --> 0:02:55.680 Calvin Klein. Does it matter if they're like fire or 0:02:55.760 --> 0:02:59.040 like I mean, they just just the design was obviously 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:02.400 thought of where you turned on by her wearing them first, 0:03:02.520 --> 0:03:04.560 and then you wanted to masturbate in them. Well, I 0:03:04.560 --> 0:03:06.320 gotta be honest with you, no one had put the 0:03:06.320 --> 0:03:09.360 shoe on yet, but I imagine the person wearing the shoe, 0:03:09.919 --> 0:03:13.480 whoa how fire they were? They were just going to 0:03:13.560 --> 0:03:19.200 be so fucking incredible. And did you buy this? Well? 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:21.600 Actually I was. I was working at Marshall's at the time, 0:03:22.280 --> 0:03:26.120 and I'm in the back. I wasn't. I mean, yeah, 0:03:26.160 --> 0:03:31.080 I was younger. Marshalls didn't get in my car. I was, 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:34.360 I was. I was in my thirties now, I was. 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:36.000 I was just in the back stock room and I 0:03:36.000 --> 0:03:37.920 was like, Yo, the person that's gonna wear this shoe 0:03:37.960 --> 0:03:42.200 was gonna be so fucking fire, She's gonna be beautiful, 0:03:42.200 --> 0:03:44.640 and she's gonna let me fuck because I made her 0:03:44.720 --> 0:03:48.880 laugh and ship oh my god, like her calfs are 0:03:48.920 --> 0:03:54.040 so crazy and I just I gave it up. Aside 0:03:54.360 --> 0:03:56.960 aside from the shoes, you would say you're a man 0:03:57.040 --> 0:03:59.840 with a foot fetish, I would say that I like 0:04:00.120 --> 0:04:03.360 nice shoes. I would say that I like nice shoes. 0:04:03.440 --> 0:04:05.840 I don't. I don't consider that so much a foot fetish. 0:04:06.280 --> 0:04:08.720 But but I love the architecture of just a really 0:04:08.840 --> 0:04:12.440 nice heel and what it does to the person wearing it, 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:15.840 the confidence that it gives them, the tautness that it 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:20.920 gives their's just the way that it makes I mean, 0:04:21.279 --> 0:04:24.839 a superhelo makes you walk a certain way. And I 0:04:24.920 --> 0:04:27.480 love And this all goes through your mind, do you 0:04:27.600 --> 0:04:31.560 kidding me? You kidding me? The older you get, you 0:04:31.560 --> 0:04:33.720 start processing all this, you see somebody in heels and 0:04:33.760 --> 0:04:35.840 you can be like, oh, they just got those heels. 0:04:37.160 --> 0:04:39.160 They don't even know how to walk on yet, they 0:04:39.160 --> 0:04:41.680 don't know how walking them yet. Y'all can tell when 0:04:41.680 --> 0:04:44.400 we're just breaking in a shoe right right now, right now, 0:04:44.400 --> 0:04:45.800 I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna tell you when the 0:04:45.839 --> 0:04:52.840 last time you got your eyebrows thready, microblade? Thank you? Okay, okay, 0:04:52.839 --> 0:04:56.520 I M gonna have to come and expect that when 0:04:56.600 --> 0:04:58.520 he went on the premium show and he said that 0:04:58.520 --> 0:05:01.799 he sucked a mother and adult. This is better than that. 0:05:01.960 --> 0:05:04.479 Hold on for a second, God is in the details. 0:05:05.360 --> 0:05:08.920 That's crazy. Do you buy shoes for women? Like? Are 0:05:08.960 --> 0:05:11.240 you do you currently have a wife? I am married 0:05:11.279 --> 0:05:13.880 actually And and the crazy thing, the true story is 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:17.719 that my wife, um, her feet are actually two different sizes. 0:05:18.480 --> 0:05:21.880 So she has to go to Norshroom because Northhrom Norshroom 0:05:21.920 --> 0:05:24.680 is the only department store that will let you buy 0:05:25.120 --> 0:05:27.000 like you know, it's not like a half size off. 0:05:27.520 --> 0:05:30.920 There's more than a whole size difference between Yeah, so 0:05:31.040 --> 0:05:33.280 Norsham will let you actually have one shoe and one 0:05:33.360 --> 0:05:35.920 size one shoe another size. But she's the one who 0:05:36.000 --> 0:05:38.280 kind of got me out of She kind of show 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:40.720 what my story was. My issue was, which was what 0:05:40.880 --> 0:05:42.920 was your issue? We think are not an issue? I 0:05:42.960 --> 0:05:45.640 want to go ahead. And I had a small collection 0:05:46.480 --> 0:05:49.800 of heels. Um she bought just a jerk off in 0:05:49.920 --> 0:05:51.680 bro Is this real? This is real? This is some 0:05:51.800 --> 0:05:54.560 real ship I had. She came to my apartment, man 0:05:54.640 --> 0:05:56.520 and she got to just see all the ship that 0:05:56.600 --> 0:05:59.000 I collect and ship that I had fucking hoarded and 0:05:59.040 --> 0:06:02.719 stuff like that. I had, like I had baby clothes 0:06:03.240 --> 0:06:08.440 with matching adult clothes. Like I had adult Polo Bear sweater, 0:06:08.920 --> 0:06:12.760 four of them with the matching baby sweater. Why for 0:06:12.920 --> 0:06:15.720 when I had a child that we could twin up? Oh, 0:06:15.800 --> 0:06:17.320 I thought this was still geting sexual. I was starting 0:06:17.320 --> 0:06:19.520 to freak out, all right, No, no, no, no, no, 0:06:19.680 --> 0:06:21.400 no no no. And I had and I had, I 0:06:21.480 --> 0:06:24.560 had a collection. Again. I worked at Marshals and and 0:06:24.800 --> 0:06:26.839 every now and then they would get in these incredible 0:06:27.480 --> 0:06:33.200 designer uh like these calm con joints in the house. Yes. 0:06:33.600 --> 0:06:37.320 She was like, yo, whose shoes are these? Like? Whose 0:06:37.320 --> 0:06:39.400 shoes are you at? They're too small to fit your 0:06:40.760 --> 0:06:43.440 We did, guys, we did not playing this. These are 0:06:43.520 --> 0:06:49.680 just they were the first thing she was concerned about. 0:06:49.680 --> 0:06:52.000 The real talk. Was like she was like, yo, can 0:06:52.080 --> 0:06:54.920 these shoes fit you? And I was like, no, they open. 0:06:55.320 --> 0:06:56.880 She thought you were cross. She thought I might be 0:06:57.000 --> 0:06:58.760 you know, I might have might have that in my stevee. 0:06:58.760 --> 0:07:02.800 But I was like, you know, that's too far. No, 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:06.080 But I just I just I love the architecture, I 0:07:06.120 --> 0:07:08.720 love the design of them. I'm just imagining. And this 0:07:08.839 --> 0:07:10.080 is what I told him myself. I said, I just 0:07:10.160 --> 0:07:12.440 imagine the person that's gonna put these on, how they're 0:07:12.440 --> 0:07:14.680 gonna have to walk in them, the confidence that they're 0:07:14.680 --> 0:07:16.520 gonna have because people are gonna be looking at them. 0:07:16.680 --> 0:07:18.680 People are gonna be like, oh my god. This come 0:07:18.840 --> 0:07:23.440 stem from this is something else? No, it stems from 0:07:23.520 --> 0:07:28.200 me just loving being attracted to a confident woman. And 0:07:28.800 --> 0:07:30.720 and it doesn't have to be the heel she has on. 0:07:31.040 --> 0:07:34.280 She could have on skippies. But she could again have 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:39.800 her eyebrows micro blazard. But whatever, whatever this she got, 0:07:40.120 --> 0:07:42.560 whatever that she done, you could build a bit if 0:07:42.600 --> 0:07:46.360 you wanted to. First of all, First of all, all 0:07:46.400 --> 0:07:51.119 these all these robot chicks, that's from my brain. Sex dolls, 0:07:51.120 --> 0:07:54.679 they're from Dallas, pen guys, that's from That's from my brain, totally, 0:07:55.120 --> 0:07:56.880 all right. And and and the reason why we have 0:07:56.960 --> 0:07:59.920 anse sex dollars now anyway, is because sex dolls they 0:08:00.000 --> 0:08:06.520 have been programmed at the same me too. What a 0:08:06.640 --> 0:08:10.760 bittersweet clip. This next one is for me. This episode 0:08:11.280 --> 0:08:13.960 I didn't even want to post. I didn't want cameras therefore, 0:08:14.240 --> 0:08:18.600 I was so angry about And it's episode seventy seven, 0:08:18.800 --> 0:08:22.280 working out the kinks, the most talked about episode. People 0:08:22.320 --> 0:08:24.360 that don't even listen to our podcast to check this out, 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:31.040 and it was amazing that it happened. I think I 0:08:31.160 --> 0:08:33.760 really was angry for the first half of this episode 0:08:33.880 --> 0:08:36.480 that we went through a therapy session with someone that 0:08:36.600 --> 0:08:39.120 listened to an episode and had this bias of me 0:08:39.559 --> 0:08:43.319 because she's only heard one thing. And I was so 0:08:43.679 --> 0:08:46.040 mad to be there and to know that all these 0:08:46.080 --> 0:08:50.040 people would get to listen. But when Mandy got emotional, 0:08:50.480 --> 0:08:53.240 it really was a pivotal point for me in realizing 0:08:53.360 --> 0:08:56.559 some of my wrong doings and wanting to grow. And 0:08:56.720 --> 0:08:59.120 I know that many of you shared with us that 0:08:59.240 --> 0:09:02.319 you've cried in your are or your cubicle or just 0:09:02.520 --> 0:09:04.880 on the subway listening to this, and it was such 0:09:04.920 --> 0:09:08.240 an intense moment to hear Mandy get upset, and I'm 0:09:08.400 --> 0:09:13.200 very grateful that, um we had a breakthrough. So share 0:09:13.280 --> 0:09:16.880 this moment again with us. Don't cry, We're doing great, 0:09:17.280 --> 0:09:23.040 But enjoy episode seventy seven working out the Kings. You 0:09:23.120 --> 0:09:26.240 know what, even with all of this fluff and all 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:30.959 the she's you're a little runkin bumpkin. You both are. 0:09:31.480 --> 0:09:36.560 You're so sensitive. You think I want but I think 0:09:36.640 --> 0:09:39.920 that you you don't even believe me, So then why 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:42.800 do you even as in, yeah, can I say something? So? 0:09:43.080 --> 0:09:46.559 Why am I here? You're just wasting money? So you 0:09:46.640 --> 0:09:50.240 did it again. You did it again every time she 0:09:50.559 --> 0:09:55.320 makes an attempt. And I know past behavior informs present 0:09:55.440 --> 0:09:59.840 behavior perception, but you've got to give it a truy. 0:10:00.520 --> 0:10:04.240 If you want even emoticum of this to work out, 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:06.719 you've got to try. You just ask me to bag. 0:10:07.040 --> 0:10:11.719 You've got to have a sense of face. Yes, yes, 0:10:13.679 --> 0:10:18.599 How hard is it for you to be soft? I 0:10:19.000 --> 0:10:21.640 this is the problem. When I sit here and actually 0:10:22.280 --> 0:10:25.760 do hurt, or actually do show my emotions, then I 0:10:25.920 --> 0:10:28.360 get well, you're not even the imo ho. I didn't 0:10:28.360 --> 0:10:30.480 think he was gonna be mad. As a human being, 0:10:31.040 --> 0:10:34.640 I do hurt. I do get my emotions like bother. 0:10:35.160 --> 0:10:37.839 So it bothers me that because I don't sit here 0:10:37.880 --> 0:10:40.160 and show emotions or or talk about the men that 0:10:40.240 --> 0:10:43.040 I love, or I don't have these emotions for men, 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:46.160 that people just assume that she's gonna get over it. 0:10:46.320 --> 0:10:48.480 She's gonna laugh it off, she's not gonna be hurt. 0:10:48.720 --> 0:10:51.319 And I think that's bullshit because I do do I 0:10:51.400 --> 0:10:54.120 see here and show my emotions as much as others know. 0:10:55.040 --> 0:10:57.839 But when I see here and and receive something in 0:10:57.920 --> 0:11:00.040 private and then in front of other people, I'm in 0:11:00.120 --> 0:11:03.120 a different thing. Yes, I become frustrated. Yes, I can't 0:11:03.160 --> 0:11:05.719 take it in as genuine because behind closed doors and 0:11:05.800 --> 0:11:09.719 within our personal conversations, I'm over talked to or hung 0:11:09.800 --> 0:11:11.559 up on. We both hung up on each other. It 0:11:11.679 --> 0:11:14.280 goes to levels to where we're just trying to talk 0:11:14.360 --> 0:11:17.800 over each other and there is no resolution. So when 0:11:17.800 --> 0:11:20.120 I come into a place or I stay here and 0:11:20.320 --> 0:11:23.920 my feelings are actually hurt, for that to not be acknowledged, 0:11:24.120 --> 0:11:26.400 for for me to be told you're not getting an 0:11:26.400 --> 0:11:29.000 apology for me, and for me to get a long thread, 0:11:29.280 --> 0:11:32.160 Oh so now you want to be emotional, You're just overreacting. 0:11:32.360 --> 0:11:34.319 And it's like, yes, I'm not the one that shows 0:11:34.360 --> 0:11:36.360 my emotions on this podcast. People bring it up all 0:11:36.400 --> 0:11:39.120 the time. I'm able to have sex without tying emotions 0:11:39.200 --> 0:11:43.320 to it, but I do still want a certain level 0:11:43.400 --> 0:11:45.680 of respect from people. And when my feelings are hurt, 0:11:46.000 --> 0:11:49.000 specifically from people that I do business with, specifically from 0:11:49.000 --> 0:11:51.160 people that I helped put money into their pockets, that 0:11:51.200 --> 0:11:53.880 we make money together, from someone that I'm building something 0:11:54.000 --> 0:11:57.079 strong with I absolutely want them to know that I 0:11:57.280 --> 0:11:59.880 am still human and if I'm gonna respond to way 0:12:00.040 --> 0:12:01.800 the way that you knew I would respond because you 0:12:01.840 --> 0:12:03.640 said you knew I would be upset? Did you know? 0:12:04.400 --> 0:12:06.599 Did you know I would be this upset? No? But 0:12:06.760 --> 0:12:09.240 the fact, but the fact that when I showed my 0:12:09.400 --> 0:12:15.240 emotions you came to me and was like, well, I think, okay, 0:12:15.400 --> 0:12:18.839 I did I get it. But but you attribute to 0:12:18.920 --> 0:12:21.400 the problem, sweetie, because I don't show my emotions. I 0:12:21.480 --> 0:12:23.240 am I'm very cold and I don't show my emotions 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:25.400 with a lot of people. My mom was that way. 0:12:25.559 --> 0:12:28.360 This is this is how I am. No, no, no, no, 0:12:29.160 --> 0:12:31.400 it is how you are. But it doesn't have to 0:12:31.440 --> 0:12:33.680 be the way. It doesn't have to You don't always 0:12:33.720 --> 0:12:35.960 have to be that way. And what you're doing, listen, 0:12:36.280 --> 0:12:39.600 is you do yourself a great disservice by presenting yourself 0:12:40.040 --> 0:12:44.160 as unbreakable. I'll agree to that, yes, okay, that with 0:12:44.240 --> 0:12:47.559 my mom. And so this one, this one, Reezy who 0:12:47.679 --> 0:12:51.800 has a heart, take time taking responsibility for being hurtful. 0:12:51.840 --> 0:12:55.880 She's going to hide behind that. Oh, Mandy's tough. So 0:12:56.040 --> 0:12:58.920 you need to share and be more open you're asking 0:12:58.960 --> 0:13:00.840 her to be more open, need to do the same. 0:13:02.880 --> 0:13:05.600 And I don't know, maybe this whole podcast you two 0:13:05.720 --> 0:13:11.800 be in these like brazenly open sexually whatever it's it, 0:13:12.480 --> 0:13:14.520 it does you a disservice because it doesn't allow you 0:13:14.600 --> 0:13:18.320 to be who you truly are. And maybe that's something 0:13:18.440 --> 0:13:20.880 you two need to build upon with the podcast, is 0:13:21.000 --> 0:13:24.480 you can be brazen, you can have this open sexual 0:13:24.920 --> 0:13:28.160 energy and connect with people and stop bullshitting yourselves and 0:13:28.200 --> 0:13:30.720 saying that there's no emotion behind it, because that's not true. 0:13:38.360 --> 0:13:42.520 So how do you feel about the fact that she's 0:13:42.559 --> 0:13:47.320 crying in front of you? Of course, I mean, honestly, 0:13:47.360 --> 0:13:49.319 I'm surprised. I thought I would be the one and 0:13:49.400 --> 0:13:54.760 I did to cry. I I'm crying. Look at it, 0:13:54.840 --> 0:13:58.959 you crying. I feel so bad, you know. I feel 0:13:59.040 --> 0:14:01.040 really bad that you feel like this, Okay, And no, no, 0:14:01.120 --> 0:14:05.280 I feel bad that you really think that. I feel 0:14:05.320 --> 0:14:09.040 badly that you think. Yes, I feel badly that you 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:10.640 think I hurt you, and I think I said I 0:14:10.920 --> 0:14:13.440 feel badly that I did hate you because you have done. 0:14:13.520 --> 0:14:15.559 Of course, I feel badly that I did hurt you. 0:14:16.200 --> 0:14:22.000 I feel badly that you know you said because I'm 0:14:22.040 --> 0:14:24.040 not emotional. You knew I would react that way, No, 0:14:24.160 --> 0:14:27.400 I didn't. I feel badly that I responded with you 0:14:27.520 --> 0:14:30.080 that way. Sometimes I do have to be softer too. 0:14:30.920 --> 0:14:34.880 But I think I've just felt maybe I don't know 0:14:34.920 --> 0:14:39.320 what the word is. Maybe I didn't feel remorse because 0:14:39.320 --> 0:14:42.480 I was already harboring feelings for things that I feel 0:14:42.480 --> 0:14:44.200 like I went through on the show. For the most part, 0:14:44.280 --> 0:14:46.320 on the show, I feel like I'm the one who's 0:14:46.320 --> 0:14:50.440 super emotional. So when you reacted that way and went crazy, yes, 0:14:51.280 --> 0:14:53.000 I was like, fuck you because I felt like you 0:14:53.080 --> 0:14:55.480 said fuck me. I just the one thing that I 0:14:55.520 --> 0:14:57.120 could ever say that I want from you is just 0:14:57.240 --> 0:15:00.120 to call me first. And I feel like the and 0:15:00.200 --> 0:15:03.400 I've been so upset with you is because when we talk, 0:15:03.640 --> 0:15:06.880 you bring up other people. A King said, my friends say, 0:15:07.160 --> 0:15:08.960 Van says, Mal says, I don't care. I want to 0:15:09.000 --> 0:15:13.000 know what you think. Are you taking in everything she's saying. 0:15:14.040 --> 0:15:20.560 I gotta say it appears quite genuine to me. Can 0:15:20.600 --> 0:15:28.160 you accept her apology? And I need for you to 0:15:28.320 --> 0:15:32.000 tap into the softer part of yourself, not the cold 0:15:33.040 --> 0:15:46.400 mother pushing people away. This is your opportunity. There's a 0:15:46.440 --> 0:15:49.800 lot going on in my head right now? Why would 0:15:49.840 --> 0:15:51.920 I want to come on here and cry in front 0:15:51.920 --> 0:15:53.560 of you and all these people on the ears. I 0:15:53.560 --> 0:15:58.200 didn't mean it. Okay, stop Mandy. It's hard. It's hard, 0:15:58.600 --> 0:16:01.560 but I need for you to embrace the fact that 0:16:02.040 --> 0:16:10.680 Wheezy is actually being genuine and Karen, I can acknowledge that. Okay, 0:16:16.800 --> 0:16:27.080 can you say it to her? Not to me? I don't. 0:16:29.000 --> 0:16:31.520 I can see here and say I'm acknowledging what you're saying, 0:16:32.280 --> 0:16:33.920 and I'm going to stop there because I know that 0:16:34.040 --> 0:16:38.040 I'm not able to say it, but right which is 0:16:38.560 --> 0:16:42.080 so I want. I want to say I do appreciate 0:16:42.200 --> 0:16:46.520 you acknowledging and us getting to where we are right now, 0:16:46.720 --> 0:16:49.320 because I feel like it's been a huge detriment to 0:16:49.960 --> 0:16:52.920 how we have been communicating over the last year and 0:16:52.960 --> 0:16:56.720 a half. We sat here at episode five ready to 0:16:56.760 --> 0:17:00.080 give in. We've sat here at episodes sixteen seventeen, need 0:17:00.160 --> 0:17:03.360 to give it. We've sat here at episode thirty and 0:17:03.480 --> 0:17:06.720 try and and almost given in. So you sitting here 0:17:06.920 --> 0:17:13.280 and acknowledging that I appreciate that and moving forward if 0:17:13.359 --> 0:17:15.320 this is something to where you can't sit here and 0:17:15.400 --> 0:17:17.879 look at me as a human being, even if it's 0:17:17.920 --> 0:17:20.280 someone that you don't like, look at me as that 0:17:20.440 --> 0:17:22.840 human being, knowing that I have feelings, knowing that I 0:17:22.880 --> 0:17:26.320 have emotions. And even if we're not friends, those three 0:17:26.400 --> 0:17:29.359 close friends to you, look at me and when you 0:17:29.480 --> 0:17:32.159 do things. I just want you to say, with my 0:17:32.920 --> 0:17:35.000 three best friends, like if I did this to them, 0:17:35.400 --> 0:17:38.600 because even though we're not friends, even though we're not friends, wheezy, 0:17:39.800 --> 0:17:42.680 this is this is a business and this is no. No. 0:17:42.840 --> 0:17:45.960 Not only that, I feel like our relationship and the 0:17:46.080 --> 0:17:49.040 things that we go through are much more than a marriage. 0:17:49.240 --> 0:17:51.639 They're much more than a friendship, so much more than 0:17:51.720 --> 0:17:56.240 a lot of other types of relationships. Mandy, are you 0:17:56.440 --> 0:18:01.800 going to do the same, Yes, yes, yes, because you've 0:18:01.840 --> 0:18:05.280 told you moving, moving, moving. You said you're the only 0:18:05.359 --> 0:18:07.919 person we were in that meeting with Christmas. We were. 0:18:08.160 --> 0:18:10.679 You told me we were like, you're the only thing 0:18:11.320 --> 0:18:17.359 I absolutely stand by that I had Mandy, stop stop, stop, 0:18:17.480 --> 0:18:19.960 you see she's throwing me under the bus. I said, 0:18:19.960 --> 0:18:22.280 you told me you can't do this for me to 0:18:22.440 --> 0:18:26.280 my face, I literally have one minute. Just did it. 0:18:26.720 --> 0:18:29.240 You just did it. You had a break through and 0:18:29.320 --> 0:18:33.480 then you can't toatuate the feel good emotions. You can't 0:18:37.040 --> 0:18:39.600 what was said. I need for you to say that 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:43.119 going forward, you're going to extend to her the same 0:18:43.640 --> 0:18:47.399 respect that you deserve and want, and don't tell me 0:18:47.760 --> 0:18:52.239 you've always No. No, that's fine, but no, say can 0:18:52.320 --> 0:18:54.720 I sit here and say that there was a misunderstanding 0:18:54.800 --> 0:18:56.639 and I want that has to be clear before we 0:18:56.720 --> 0:18:59.280 move forward. I sat here and said that that is 0:18:59.359 --> 0:19:02.160 something that I'm in willing to do. What was misconstrued 0:19:02.240 --> 0:19:04.399 in what was said was that I don't have this 0:19:04.680 --> 0:19:08.480 energy or interaction or relationship with anyone the way that 0:19:08.560 --> 0:19:10.760 I do you in my life currently. That is what 0:19:10.960 --> 0:19:12.879 was said. That's why I treat you this way. I 0:19:12.960 --> 0:19:16.480 don't treat you away. We have no way of communication. 0:19:16.880 --> 0:19:20.639 But we've we've gotten past that. So that's what I'm 0:19:20.680 --> 0:19:22.960 telling you that I'm sitting here telling you to your 0:19:23.000 --> 0:19:25.639 face that I'm willing to do that and I have. 0:19:26.119 --> 0:19:28.960 But in terms of but stop, I'm willing to do 0:19:29.080 --> 0:19:31.320 that and I have. Are you willing to work with 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:39.000 her as well? Absolutely? Okay, So this guy's falling asleep. 0:19:39.280 --> 0:19:41.720 I have a headache. I've got to say. This is 0:19:41.760 --> 0:19:45.240 way past my bedtime mine too. Thank you for coming 0:19:48.000 --> 0:19:50.120 can I shake your hand now? I don't know why 0:19:50.160 --> 0:19:56.000 you didn't because we tend not to therapy. Therapy uncomfortable 0:19:56.000 --> 0:19:58.520 and I hugger after, so I get it. You go 0:19:58.640 --> 0:20:04.399 to therapy all this time? Holy cow. So one of 0:20:04.520 --> 0:20:08.560 my favorite episodes foren was when we had Cake on 0:20:09.359 --> 0:20:13.720 and she sat here and showed motherfucking love and confidence 0:20:13.760 --> 0:20:17.119 for all of the BBWs. So take a listen to 0:20:17.960 --> 0:20:22.480 this episode where Cake sat here and said, why these 0:20:22.560 --> 0:20:27.600 niggas be liking us? Big girls? Yes? Is BBW sluts 0:20:28.640 --> 0:20:32.600 so or BBW um big booty big? We're gonna pull 0:20:32.600 --> 0:20:34.239 it up? Well? Can I ask this question while you're 0:20:34.240 --> 0:20:37.440 from up? Um? What's the difference on each side? That's 0:20:37.480 --> 0:20:41.280 a good So I started out in the BBW um 0:20:41.480 --> 0:20:45.680 community or the BBW niche niche, and then I decided, like, 0:20:45.800 --> 0:20:48.920 you know, because my the guy that I was working with, um, 0:20:49.320 --> 0:20:52.439 he kept bringing me like, you know, small girls, smaller 0:20:52.480 --> 0:20:55.439 girls that were kind of thick, but they weren't BBW. 0:20:56.119 --> 0:20:58.800 He kept bringing me girls like Manzie, you know what 0:20:58.840 --> 0:21:02.680 I'm saying, Like she's maybe initial up right now, you're 0:21:02.720 --> 0:21:10.200 not really this is the best thing. Maybe thirty pounds ago, 0:21:10.280 --> 0:21:13.760 I was you ain't righting. Wait, so what's a bb 0:21:15.720 --> 0:21:23.080 saying that? I think anybody's walking fat dude? That's factual. 0:21:23.160 --> 0:21:25.440 Now they definitely do, and I think I mean, I 0:21:25.560 --> 0:21:31.080 get comments on Instagram to say big beautiful that's what. Okay, 0:21:31.160 --> 0:21:35.720 So so BBW for our listeners then, because I think 0:21:35.800 --> 0:21:38.560 Drake maybe made it acceptable for just think bitches to 0:21:38.600 --> 0:21:41.760 be like, you know, BBW because Drake like BBW, he 0:21:42.160 --> 0:21:47.159 BBWs and they're not BBWs. Okay, BBW is can you 0:21:47.240 --> 0:21:49.680 give a weight variance or what does it be, Donna, 0:21:49.760 --> 0:21:52.480 I'm gonna okay. So like it's just like a girl 0:21:52.600 --> 0:21:56.159 that's you know, you got some good, you got some, 0:21:56.280 --> 0:21:59.000 but got some titties. So can I say this? I'm 0:21:59.080 --> 0:22:00.600 like really scared to say because don't want to be 0:22:00.640 --> 0:22:05.280 at it. I've always when I've seen BBW porn, it's 0:22:05.280 --> 0:22:08.080 always like they're really big, well like a lot of 0:22:08.200 --> 0:22:10.320 like you've got like you could grab something, like you've 0:22:10.320 --> 0:22:12.560 got some rolls, some stuff, so like a lot of 0:22:12.680 --> 0:22:16.159 fucking me, yeah, you gotta met And it's to me 0:22:16.480 --> 0:22:19.960 not really thick, like I think different when I think thick, 0:22:20.520 --> 0:22:22.440 like to me, I think like black China type of 0:22:22.480 --> 0:22:27.080 thick or okay, you know, guys, not looking at her, 0:22:27.119 --> 0:22:30.399 you do BBW. What about Chocolate Booty goddess because she 0:22:30.480 --> 0:22:33.280 looks thick to me, but she actually lost some weight, 0:22:33.400 --> 0:22:35.920 but she's b W. She she got a big old 0:22:36.119 --> 0:22:43.320 assay she she has like okay, Queen Spit does that 0:22:43.359 --> 0:22:47.000 girl right on all the time. She's BBW. So it's like, 0:22:47.600 --> 0:22:49.600 you know, um, I want to say, like if you're 0:22:49.680 --> 0:22:54.680 like two fifty to I don't know how much you weigh, 0:22:55.280 --> 0:22:59.080 but like neither of those two fifty and that's like 0:22:59.760 --> 0:23:02.800 that's b b W. But people like in the early 0:23:02.880 --> 0:23:07.280 two hundreds, you just just that's the thing with BBW. 0:23:07.400 --> 0:23:09.639 I think people men want to see more meat in 0:23:09.760 --> 0:23:12.280 your like in your stomach too, Like that's what they're looking. 0:23:12.720 --> 0:23:15.520 Let me just say something first of all, this is 0:23:15.560 --> 0:23:18.160 I wouldn't we even talking about this earlier. It's propaganda. 0:23:18.440 --> 0:23:21.560 These niggas we out here like feeding propaganda to females. 0:23:21.920 --> 0:23:24.640 Like niggas are still lifting up bitches muffintop and eating 0:23:24.720 --> 0:23:27.879 that pussy. Talk about it, Yeah, just lifting up the 0:23:27.960 --> 0:23:31.800 muffintop and eating that bab W pussy. Niggas is eating 0:23:31.800 --> 0:23:34.120 it from the back like a big Mac. He's doing 0:23:34.200 --> 0:23:41.159 all of that okay, like a good bag doing it 0:23:41.240 --> 0:23:45.240 from the bag like a big mag Let's tap are 0:23:45.240 --> 0:23:47.600 you're doing it? Like? Let's not friend Like, let me 0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:50.520 just say this. I when I was in my whole face, 0:23:50.680 --> 0:23:53.320 I was getting flown out. I was a little tricking 0:23:53.359 --> 0:23:55.280 on me. You know what I'm saying, Like, what is 0:23:55.280 --> 0:23:58.520