WEBVTT - Normal People (Part 2)

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, I'm Danish Sports and this is Popcorn Book Club

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<v Speaker 1>for my heart radio show, where four of my smartest

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<v Speaker 1>and funniest friends get together to talk about books that

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<v Speaker 1>are getting the Hollywood treatment. This episode, we continue our

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<v Speaker 1>conversation about Sally Rooney's Normal People, and things are really

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<v Speaker 1>heating up. I just wanted to know what you guys

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<v Speaker 1>thought about that for those of you who watched the

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<v Speaker 1>show and got to the nak parts. At the risk

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<v Speaker 1>of sounding like the creepiest pervert in the entire world,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so excited. Here we go. Yeah, thank you for listening.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's get into it. I think right now we're at college.

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<v Speaker 1>Connell has you know, come into their friends group. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>this is a place where Marian has more social capital

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<v Speaker 1>over him, and he is someone who is both worth

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<v Speaker 1>off financially and is having a little bit of a

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<v Speaker 1>tougher time fitting in. Jennifer, you want to sort of

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<v Speaker 1>take the next step. Um. Yeah, so she we've touched

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<v Speaker 1>on this a little bit, but she has an apartment

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<v Speaker 1>in the city. Um of where Connal is working at

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<v Speaker 1>a restaurant. I think the restaurant shuts down or he

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<v Speaker 1>gets fired. Um, and something happens. Um. If he's going

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<v Speaker 1>to spend the summer in the city, he needs to

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<v Speaker 1>find a place to stay without paying any rent, and

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<v Speaker 1>he wants to ask Marianne if he can stay at

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<v Speaker 1>her place, and he kind of has a conversation planned

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<v Speaker 1>out in his head, and then he never is able

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<v Speaker 1>to articulate that, I just want to move in with

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<v Speaker 1>you for the summer. I want us to be together

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<v Speaker 1>in the way that you know, it wouldn't be that

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<v Speaker 1>big a deal if you'd been dating someone for a

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<v Speaker 1>significant amount of time. And it seems like he had

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<v Speaker 1>been staying like most nights at her place. He was

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<v Speaker 1>already there most nights, and yeah, yeah, um, so that

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<v Speaker 1>does not happen, and that's kind of parting of the

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<v Speaker 1>ways for them again. I think that scene, which I

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<v Speaker 1>do want to talk about zoom in a little bit

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<v Speaker 1>in focus, was the most effective use of the book's device,

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<v Speaker 1>which is switching between their perspectives the book chapter my chapter.

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<v Speaker 1>We get a story from Maryann's side, and then we

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<v Speaker 1>you know, either jump forward in time or just flipped

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<v Speaker 1>to Connal's side. And I think that scene seeing it

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<v Speaker 1>from hearing it, I think first we hear mary Anne's

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<v Speaker 1>memory of it, playing out where he just sort of said, like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going back and I want to see other people,

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<v Speaker 1>and she's sort of is heartbroken about it, and he

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<v Speaker 1>sort of breaks his own heart accidentally because he doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>know how to say, Hey, I'm you know, don't have

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<v Speaker 1>enough a job right now? Can I live at your apartment?

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<v Speaker 1>Which is a you know, embarrassing thing to say, but

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<v Speaker 1>with a girlfriend, the type of intimacy that you hope

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<v Speaker 1>someone would have. Melissa, what do you What did you

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<v Speaker 1>make of that scene? I mean it broke my heart

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<v Speaker 1>because it felt like I felt like I've had those

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<v Speaker 1>conversations in my like college and post college is where

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<v Speaker 1>I like can't quite say the thing that I planned

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<v Speaker 1>to say. Like that was a moment where I did

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<v Speaker 1>feel like sympathetic and related to Connell, where there was

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<v Speaker 1>something embarrassing or like a little bit It's something that

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<v Speaker 1>I would feel and secure bringing up and then I

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<v Speaker 1>just don't, you know, like I like write it down

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<v Speaker 1>and like figure out the words, and then I just

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<v Speaker 1>don't say it. And I think that is so common,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's like that heartbreak of like if one of

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<v Speaker 1>them had just said what they wanted it would have

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<v Speaker 1>they would have not broken up. I mean it's embarrassing

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<v Speaker 1>for Connell. He I mean, I think Salarly Rooney establishes

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<v Speaker 1>really well, like the fact that his mom is a

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<v Speaker 1>what did we say, house house cleaner house? Yeah, um,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean that is you know, in in especially in

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<v Speaker 1>like young people. I think that is not humiliating a

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<v Speaker 1>nor more job, but as type of subservience that I

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<v Speaker 1>think for insecure people, uh does communicate this sort of

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<v Speaker 1>embarrassing position. And I think it what is something that

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<v Speaker 1>Kneal is embarrassed to say, like I can't afford the

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<v Speaker 1>situation right now? Do you think that's part of why

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<v Speaker 1>he relishes his power over Maryanne so much that now

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<v Speaker 1>he has complete power over a girl whose mother used

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<v Speaker 1>to be her housekeeper, and yet he didn't use his power,

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<v Speaker 1>Like if you have complete power over this person and

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<v Speaker 1>you need a place to stay, why why couldn't you

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<v Speaker 1>do that? What do you what? What do you guys

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<v Speaker 1>think was his big Maybe thought would have put him

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<v Speaker 1>in a position for he would have had to have

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<v Speaker 1>seen himself as powerless. Yeah, he's spending his power giving

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<v Speaker 1>her power over him. That definitely was a moment that

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<v Speaker 1>I felt most sympathetic to Konel as well, and then

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<v Speaker 1>remember that like he's like one. I would have felt

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<v Speaker 1>the same way to have just like being this person

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<v Speaker 1>who you're in college and you want to think that

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<v Speaker 1>you're an adult that can like live and work and

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<v Speaker 1>like provide for yourself, and to be in this relationship

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<v Speaker 1>that you haven't labeled or like is in a kind

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<v Speaker 1>of weird gray zone. I would have been the same

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<v Speaker 1>move just like not knowing what to say or feeling

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<v Speaker 1>too embarrassed to say, and like that that weird gap

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<v Speaker 1>of feeling immature and also that I should be a

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<v Speaker 1>full formed adult at felt it brought me back. Yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>And I went to a college that had a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of wealthy people, and I was friends with a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of wealthy people and I was not wealthy, and it

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<v Speaker 1>was it was the same in high school, but in

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<v Speaker 1>college it was different because you have you you stay

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<v Speaker 1>in place that you stay in different kinds of apartments.

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<v Speaker 1>You either you're working in college or you're not working.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think it's the first time where you really

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<v Speaker 1>see that divide between friends where it is you have

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<v Speaker 1>to make different choices and so one you're learning how

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<v Speaker 1>to be an adult, even if you're not fully an

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<v Speaker 1>adult yet, and I feel like you bungle that a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of the time. And at the same time, like

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<v Speaker 1>Maryanne doesn't recognize her privilege and realize that, like oh'connell

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't have a job, he might need something that I

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<v Speaker 1>have never thought to need, you know. And another thing

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<v Speaker 1>that the book establishes about Connell's central personality trait early

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<v Speaker 1>on in high school is like he is someone who

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<v Speaker 1>is terrified of rocking the boat in any way, of

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<v Speaker 1>like being a burden or a strain on the smooth

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<v Speaker 1>flowing system in any capacity where it's like as someone

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<v Speaker 1>who would rather stab myself than ask a human being

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<v Speaker 1>for anything. Ever. Um, that is something I'm working on,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's like something I relate to very very uh profoundly.

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<v Speaker 1>I do wonder if the option were instead of the

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<v Speaker 1>option in the book right now as it's stands, is

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<v Speaker 1>that he had to either stay in Dublin with her

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<v Speaker 1>or go back to Karrickly when he can't afford rent. Yeah, right,

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<v Speaker 1>so he can't afford rent, but he will have a

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<v Speaker 1>place to stay either way, if it were either homelessness,

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<v Speaker 1>like genuine homelessness, or staying with her, do you guys

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<v Speaker 1>think he would have opened his mouth and said something.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think because he had a safety net of

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<v Speaker 1>staying with his mother and karrically that he didn't say anything.

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<v Speaker 1>And it was just because when because when he was

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<v Speaker 1>mug when he was robbed. Yeah, yeah, yeah, he was

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<v Speaker 1>very comfortable when he was Melissa asking for well and

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<v Speaker 1>also like asking for money. He was ashamed of it,

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<v Speaker 1>but then like happily took the hundred dollars and did

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<v Speaker 1>it in it even then while he was breaking her heart,

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<v Speaker 1>which was so like, oh, by the way, I have

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<v Speaker 1>a girlfriend and I'm just mad you have a boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>That that was a bad look for Conall as she

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<v Speaker 1>literally told him get out, and he was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but couldn't have that money me first, But it was

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<v Speaker 1>needed to your point, it was the need. He did

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<v Speaker 1>need it. He needed to get to get a right

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<v Speaker 1>to get a cab home, so he did ask her

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<v Speaker 1>for the thing. Let's when it was dire. Let's talk

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<v Speaker 1>about that scene, Jennifer. You want to dive back in

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<v Speaker 1>and walk us through this really bad, really painful. I

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<v Speaker 1>actually do want to talk just a little bit in general,

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<v Speaker 1>if we can about Conal's relationship with money, because it's

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<v Speaker 1>kind of fascinating to me, especially if we're supposed to

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<v Speaker 1>have a Marxist reading on this book, that Conal's fantasy

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<v Speaker 1>of what he'll do with his life is he'll go

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<v Speaker 1>off and become a lawyer and he'll make like, he'll

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<v Speaker 1>make a really solid amount of money. And that's what

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<v Speaker 1>he initially thinks he's going to do and living. He's

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<v Speaker 1>going to make a comfortable living and people are going

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<v Speaker 1>to say he did well. Um. And the minute he

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<v Speaker 1>gets a scholarship and he has disposable income, he talks

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<v Speaker 1>about how dirty and sexy it feels. Um and um.

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<v Speaker 1>I I think that's an interest in money that we

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<v Speaker 1>never really see from Marianne because she never needs to

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<v Speaker 1>think about it in that way. And um. Yeah. The

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<v Speaker 1>scene that we're talking about where he gets mugged, Maryanne

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<v Speaker 1>is having a party, um, and he goes over to

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<v Speaker 1>her house. Her boyfriend is there at the time. He

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<v Speaker 1>goes over to her house, kind of stumbles in, very

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<v Speaker 1>drunk and just having been mugged, and tells her tells

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<v Speaker 1>her that he needs money and he needs help getting home,

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<v Speaker 1>and also he has a girlfriend. He's burning to mary Anne.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that it's worth, it's well. He says that

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<v Speaker 1>her number was the only number that you could remember

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<v Speaker 1>by that right, which I think also is emblematic of

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that this is a modern story and not

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<v Speaker 1>like a jay No novel. Dress stop. But I think

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<v Speaker 1>that it's important to say that he tells her that

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<v Speaker 1>he has a girlfriend after he says that he would

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<v Speaker 1>rather she date literally anyone other than Jamie, including the

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<v Speaker 1>guy who just nu him. Yes, that's true. YEA quick

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<v Speaker 1>A quick note on the only knowing her number by heart.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought that was a very sweet and nostalgic sort

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<v Speaker 1>of memory about high school and like you're the friends

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<v Speaker 1>you have growing up, because I don't know anyone's numbers,

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<v Speaker 1>but I still know like my elementary school's best friends

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<v Speaker 1>home number by heart and my brain where it's like

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<v Speaker 1>you have that sort of weird intimacy with people that

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<v Speaker 1>you're friends with and close with when you're young, that

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<v Speaker 1>you kind of never get with people that you meet

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<v Speaker 1>and are friends with when you're older, which is sort

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<v Speaker 1>of something that Connell and uh Marianne come to again

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<v Speaker 1>and again. So I found that detail, whether it was

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<v Speaker 1>on purpose or not, like very evocative. But about the

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<v Speaker 1>dropping of the break up with your boyfriend. He sucks.

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<v Speaker 1>Please date anyone else. Also, I have a girlfriend. Friend,

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<v Speaker 1>it's basically break up with your girlfriend because I'm bored

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<v Speaker 1>by Ariana Grande. Yeah, Melissa, did you have a response

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<v Speaker 1>to that scene? I mean, I think that was one

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<v Speaker 1>of the worst scenes I thought for Connal to me

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<v Speaker 1>of like, you know, he comes in in a sympathetic way.

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<v Speaker 1>Of course he got mugged, like he's very vulnerable. But

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<v Speaker 1>then I mean, Marianne just literally kicks everybody out and

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<v Speaker 1>including her boyfriend. I mean, her boyfriend sucked. But that's

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<v Speaker 1>beside the point to to tend to Connall and like

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<v Speaker 1>have her full attemps, full attention, and then he just

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<v Speaker 1>ships on the boyfriend. I mean again rightfully so, but

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<v Speaker 1>then just burying the lead of like, by the way,

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<v Speaker 1>I have a girlfriend, and like how hurtful that is?

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<v Speaker 1>And it again is a moment like Deb's where he

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<v Speaker 1>refuses to understand why it's so hurtful, you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>he doesn't he waits and he knows that he shouldn't wait,

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<v Speaker 1>and he just keeps repeating these same mistakes of like

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<v Speaker 1>waiting to tell her different gold information and then refusing

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<v Speaker 1>to take responsibility for the effect, even though he knows

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<v Speaker 1>it to be. It's almost like the power had to

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<v Speaker 1>shift because there was the imbalance of she had financial

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<v Speaker 1>power over him, because you know, she needed her to

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<v Speaker 1>pay for the cab and give her money and take

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<v Speaker 1>care of him. That almost like an unconscious thing like

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<v Speaker 1>like the uh you know how water when you pour

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<v Speaker 1>it like reaches a level like their power dynamic had

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<v Speaker 1>to go back to their level, which is Connall having

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<v Speaker 1>power and I have a girlfriend, okay, back to neutral

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<v Speaker 1>such another like again just him, I think, being emotionally manipulative,

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<v Speaker 1>like he knows he has that power over her, like

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<v Speaker 1>dominance of her emotions, like he knows that from the

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<v Speaker 1>jump from the beginning. So like that scene of him

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<v Speaker 1>telling Marianne about Helen, I think I was like, fuck you, Connall,

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<v Speaker 1>you piece of ship like that like you to me,

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<v Speaker 1>it just felt like he knowingly purposefully said it to

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<v Speaker 1>hurt her, Like I don't know if he did honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>don't credit I don't. I don't think he did it

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<v Speaker 1>on purpose. I think that you're right that he's emotionally manipulative,

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<v Speaker 1>but I think he's the worst kind of emotionally manipulative

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<v Speaker 1>where he doesn't even know he's doing it half the time.

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<v Speaker 1>He thinks he's a good guy. I don't think he

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<v Speaker 1>did it on purpose. I think he's just like, she

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<v Speaker 1>has a boyfriend. I should tell her this. He's like,

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<v Speaker 1>he's the baby wants it all. He just wants um.

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<v Speaker 1>I have the theory about Donald Okay, well my theory

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<v Speaker 1>my secret ending for this book is I think he's

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<v Speaker 1>going to go off to New York become an investment

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<v Speaker 1>manker Mary the first model he needs, send any long

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<v Speaker 1>rambling email to Marry Anne about it um and just

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<v Speaker 1>leave her devastated in Ireland and feel like he has

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<v Speaker 1>a ton of money now and a ton of power

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<v Speaker 1>over people. And he's gonna buy like a vulgar sports

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<v Speaker 1>car I do kind of thing in New York. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>she's a car in New Yard. It's not even going

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<v Speaker 1>to drive it. He's just like, in case he wants

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<v Speaker 1>to go up to the Hampton's for the weekend, in

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<v Speaker 1>case you're like any cool parties that he was going

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<v Speaker 1>to get an m f A in writing and then

0:14:18.200 --> 0:14:22.560
<v Speaker 1>write the book about them. And then she reads the

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<v Speaker 1>Great conn is Sally Rooney. Yes, oh no, it's I

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<v Speaker 1>don't necessarily think that it's like a prequel version. It's

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<v Speaker 1>the Carry Diaries version of the last five years. I

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<v Speaker 1>love the Carry Diaries. I love it so much. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so glad you mentioned that show. Not because I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna elaborate any further, just because people need to remember

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<v Speaker 1>that show. Lovely show, right he was such a sweet show.

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<v Speaker 1>I never saw it, and now I just I'm tuning

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<v Speaker 1>like so sweet. I'm a fake for right now, just

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<v Speaker 1>like really great. It's very lovely and very enjoyable to watch.

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<v Speaker 1>Much like this show, I really think that for now,

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<v Speaker 1>I think we should just like take a second breathe,

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<v Speaker 1>come back to it later. Yes, there's clearly more to say,

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<v Speaker 1>so much to discuss. You're listening to Popcorn Book Club

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<v Speaker 1>for my Heart Radio. We'll be right back after this

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<v Speaker 1>quick break, all right, so let's get back into it.

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<v Speaker 1>I actually wanted to talk about something I wrote it

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<v Speaker 1>down about the no no no. It is about normal people,

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<v Speaker 1>I promise, and it's about the show adaptation. And I

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<v Speaker 1>am tragically American and so nudity on screen is always

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<v Speaker 1>kind of a shock for me. And this show had

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<v Speaker 1>not like an like an extravagant amount of nudity, but

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<v Speaker 1>it had like full frontal male nudity in a way.

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<v Speaker 1>It was very shocking to me. I was like, oh, right,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes men are naked, and it was really interesting to

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<v Speaker 1>me to see this nudity because it felt like it

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<v Speaker 1>was about vulnerability and not about sexuality, and it wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>like this male gaze nudity. And I just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>know what you guys thought about that, for those of

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<v Speaker 1>you who watched the show and got to the naky parts.

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<v Speaker 1>At the risk of sounding like the creepiest pervert in

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<v Speaker 1>the entire world, I did. I thought that the nudity

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<v Speaker 1>was really well done and it didn't feel hyper sexualized.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought when she was nude, um, it felt you know,

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<v Speaker 1>very like vulnerable and I hope respectful. I mean, it

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<v Speaker 1>can't speak to how it was filmed and how she

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<v Speaker 1>feels like, I hope good. But I did like that

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<v Speaker 1>it It always wasn't like, oh boom, sexy hot, so

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<v Speaker 1>it was, well, she is notoriously flat chested, so I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think it was ever going to be you know,

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<v Speaker 1>what can be sexy hot Karama, Yeah, but I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>mean it that way. Nearly a cups rule who felt

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<v Speaker 1>like I disrespected that I just met. From a filmic

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<v Speaker 1>point of view, I don't think that they were going

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<v Speaker 1>to focus on the breast area as like I did.

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<v Speaker 1>I did notice that the first time they showed her nudity,

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<v Speaker 1>it was like it cut to a wide a two

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<v Speaker 1>shot of the two of them and it was not

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<v Speaker 1>a sexual not like they were about to have sex,

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<v Speaker 1>but it was one of her awkward early lines where

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<v Speaker 1>it's like, should we take all all our clothes off? Now?

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<v Speaker 1>Like it was just very unsexual, and that's I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like that was the presentation of it. It was like

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<v Speaker 1>setting the tone of how that would all transpire. It

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<v Speaker 1>was very now. It felt reminded me obviously very different

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<v Speaker 1>but of hustlers like that, Um it was Whstlers? Is

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<v Speaker 1>that the right the movie about? Yes? Um? I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh no, is that the Anne Hathaway movie where she

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<v Speaker 1>I think that movie is also called I Think the Hustle,

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<v Speaker 1>And then of course it's American Hustle with Jennifer Lawrence

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<v Speaker 1>all the hustling. But it was like it was intimate

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<v Speaker 1>and sexy without it being from the male gaze. It

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<v Speaker 1>felt very like romantic and open rather than like objectifying

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<v Speaker 1>a woman. I think they also probably had to be

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<v Speaker 1>conscious of the fact that even though these actors are

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<v Speaker 1>in their twenties, these are portraying high school students, and

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<v Speaker 1>so they don't want it to be like porny where

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<v Speaker 1>it's like these barely legal teens. In my head reading

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<v Speaker 1>the book, I was never thinking of them naked, which

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<v Speaker 1>might be my own stuff, but I was like their children. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, but they're still There's still teenage shows and

0:19:00.240 --> 0:19:04.040
<v Speaker 1>movies that don't show nudity that are way more objectifying

0:19:04.840 --> 0:19:11.040
<v Speaker 1>of teenage girls Riverdale, like gossip Girl, they were like stripping,

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<v Speaker 1>Like there's a lot of that involve high school students,

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<v Speaker 1>high school female students, like putting on stripped teases, which

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<v Speaker 1>is not something we did in our high school that

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<v Speaker 1>I was ever invited to. UM. It did throw me

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<v Speaker 1>off a little that they are so beautiful in UM

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<v Speaker 1>in the first scene, because I remember in the book

0:19:33.640 --> 0:19:37.920
<v Speaker 1>they're like such wonderful, vivid details, like her underarms being

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<v Speaker 1>all kind of white with deodoring because she smeared a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of chalky deodorant on and um, yeah, sure, we

0:19:45.320 --> 0:19:49.520
<v Speaker 1>we all have deodorant. It's not a secret, but yeah,

0:19:49.520 --> 0:19:52.000
<v Speaker 1>those are details, so you know, obviously when you see

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<v Speaker 1>it on the screen, there's not gonna be like a

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<v Speaker 1>camera shot of like, oh, there's an awkward amount of

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<v Speaker 1>deodorant showing. Now I did balk at her matching underwear set.

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<v Speaker 1>There's not. They say that it's kind of like old

0:20:08.320 --> 0:20:12.800
<v Speaker 1>not beautiful. Yeah, I will say, I the show is

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<v Speaker 1>so beautiful, Like it looks so visually beautiful, and like

0:20:16.280 --> 0:20:19.440
<v Speaker 1>the music is really like beautiful and pleasant. But it's

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<v Speaker 1>so beautiful that at some points, I if I zone out.

0:20:23.400 --> 0:20:25.680
<v Speaker 1>I am not sure whether or not Hulu has come

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<v Speaker 1>back from commercial break, because all the commercials right now

0:20:28.800 --> 0:20:31.399
<v Speaker 1>are like really beautiful and calm, and they're like to

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<v Speaker 1>do do do, and these uncertain times, the vibe of

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<v Speaker 1>the show of like these like soft close ups of

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful young people running on the beach. If you put

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<v Speaker 1>a voice over, it's like, in these uncertain times, connection

0:20:46.119 --> 0:20:51.119
<v Speaker 1>is all we had, Like like the vibe of the

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<v Speaker 1>show is very beautiful, pandemic commercial. Yeah, I also will

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<v Speaker 1>say I've been watching it. My boyfriend and I share

0:20:59.200 --> 0:21:02.560
<v Speaker 1>one bedroom apart ment, and so we have like headphones

0:21:02.720 --> 0:21:05.520
<v Speaker 1>that we can connect to our TV. And he didn't

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<v Speaker 1>watch the show, and it was just like, every time

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<v Speaker 1>I look over, there's just like naked teens on the screen,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, I'm so sorry. It's like, this is

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<v Speaker 1>the show that is in fact what this show is

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<v Speaker 1>sexy teen, sexy horn sexy horny team. You mentioned the music,

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<v Speaker 1>and I will say I was a little disappointed that

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<v Speaker 1>they didn't film the show as a period piece because

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<v Speaker 1>it does specifically take place between the years of like

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<v Speaker 1>two thousand eleven and two thousand and there was a

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<v Speaker 1>mention in the book. They mentioned specific songs and albums

0:21:41.040 --> 0:21:42.920
<v Speaker 1>and stuff in the book and they talked about Watch

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<v Speaker 1>the Throne by jay Z, and I was like, that's

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<v Speaker 1>what I wanted. I mean, I did love that there

0:21:49.560 --> 0:21:50.960
<v Speaker 1>was a scene where they were making out to Carly

0:21:51.080 --> 0:21:54.240
<v Speaker 1>Rae Jepson, because Carly is my girl. Carly, if you're listening,

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<v Speaker 1>I worship you. You're not listening, but you need to

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<v Speaker 1>know someone tell her. But um, I think that there's

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<v Speaker 1>something really humbling about recent period pieces because it's just

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<v Speaker 1>a reminder that like ten years ago, we all wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to wear Von Dutch Trucker hats. You know, we were

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<v Speaker 1>all so embarrassing. The most embarrassing thing about me is

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<v Speaker 1>that in high school we all were like gaucho pants

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<v Speaker 1>that ended at the widest part of your calve, and

0:22:21.320 --> 0:22:24.359
<v Speaker 1>then ugg boots that ended just an inch below the

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<v Speaker 1>gaucho pants. And then also a big thing that I

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<v Speaker 1>was like begging my mom to do because I saw

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<v Speaker 1>all the Disney Channel stars do it was We're like

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<v Speaker 1>a skirt or dress on top of jeans, which is

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I did that, and I feel like I

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<v Speaker 1>pulled it off. If you showed me a picture now

0:22:42.800 --> 0:22:47.000
<v Speaker 1>I'd burn it, but I feel like it was look

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<v Speaker 1>and that that for me. Also, I wanted that for

0:22:50.520 --> 0:22:53.639
<v Speaker 1>the show and I wanted them to live in that time.

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<v Speaker 1>There was that scene before Deb's the dance, the fundraiser dance,

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<v Speaker 1>where she goes to because she was they say on

0:23:01.000 --> 0:23:03.680
<v Speaker 1>the committee may be voted on as a joke, which

0:23:03.720 --> 0:23:06.680
<v Speaker 1>is sort of sweet and sad um, where she really

0:23:06.720 --> 0:23:11.639
<v Speaker 1>goes all out as they say, and they're playing very backwards,

0:23:11.840 --> 0:23:15.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, very retro music by our standards, and she

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<v Speaker 1>is sexually assaulted by one of the boys and Connell

0:23:19.400 --> 0:23:22.840
<v Speaker 1>defend that's the closest that moment is the closest he

0:23:22.960 --> 0:23:32.800
<v Speaker 1>comes to publicly, Yeah, showing than he's him for it, Yeah, mercilessly?

0:23:34.119 --> 0:23:36.240
<v Speaker 1>Did you ride her last night? And he's like, I

0:23:36.280 --> 0:23:40.719
<v Speaker 1>took her home? Yeah, He's like, I just said that

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<v Speaker 1>you shouldn't grab a woman's boob in public, and just

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<v Speaker 1>like I thought it was funny. Isn't Karen the only

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<v Speaker 1>one that's like kind of nice to Marian in them? Ye?

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<v Speaker 1>Shout out to Karen. But you know, bare minimum whenevery

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<v Speaker 1>in high cool when everyone else is being a monster.

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<v Speaker 1>It takes a lot of bravery to stand up. It

0:24:04.880 --> 0:24:06.600
<v Speaker 1>takes bravery to stand up to your enemy is but

0:24:06.760 --> 0:24:08.480
<v Speaker 1>it takes a great deal more to stand up to

0:24:08.480 --> 0:24:14.879
<v Speaker 1>your friends. Invented off the top of my head for

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<v Speaker 1>this podcast, such a great writer, but no standing. I

0:24:21.240 --> 0:24:23.400
<v Speaker 1>think being a high schooler and saying like, hey man,

0:24:23.480 --> 0:24:26.320
<v Speaker 1>that's not cool is like an act of bravery, even

0:24:26.320 --> 0:24:29.520
<v Speaker 1>if it is the bare minimum. Yes, But I also

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I feel like it's worth talking about the

0:24:31.920 --> 0:24:33.439
<v Speaker 1>title of the book. And I know we have more

0:24:33.480 --> 0:24:35.680
<v Speaker 1>plot to go over, but I also think that it's

0:24:35.720 --> 0:24:37.840
<v Speaker 1>really important to talk about the title of the book.

0:24:37.840 --> 0:24:40.639
<v Speaker 1>It's called normal People. Do we think that these people

0:24:40.680 --> 0:24:43.200
<v Speaker 1>are normal? Or do we think that it's about their

0:24:43.200 --> 0:24:47.359
<v Speaker 1>aspirations to be normal. What is normalcy? What is normal? Like?

0:24:47.520 --> 0:24:50.239
<v Speaker 1>I found myself asking that a lot. I was like,

0:24:50.400 --> 0:24:52.560
<v Speaker 1>is this called normal people? Because we're supposed to think

0:24:52.560 --> 0:24:55.000
<v Speaker 1>that they are normal people? And I don't think that

0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:59.280
<v Speaker 1>normal necessarily means right or good, but it does mean typical.

0:24:59.400 --> 0:25:02.680
<v Speaker 1>I kept being back to that because Connal says pretty

0:25:02.720 --> 0:25:05.879
<v Speaker 1>repeatedly like he feels abnormal and like he wants to

0:25:05.920 --> 0:25:09.520
<v Speaker 1>feel normal, and not just like I'm objectively as a

0:25:09.560 --> 0:25:12.919
<v Speaker 1>reader at arm's length, you're like conall you are. You

0:25:12.920 --> 0:25:19.640
<v Speaker 1>are a handsome dude going to college, having a girl's

0:25:19.720 --> 0:25:23.760
<v Speaker 1>dating someone with a nice mom. Like if anything, they

0:25:23.800 --> 0:25:27.760
<v Speaker 1>seem unusually talented like UM. I I understand that they

0:25:27.760 --> 0:25:31.280
<v Speaker 1>have problems in their lives. Everybody has problems in their lives.

0:25:31.720 --> 0:25:36.199
<v Speaker 1>But they are too exceptionally bright um at least in

0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:41.720
<v Speaker 1>the TV show, exceptionally hot young people who UM are

0:25:41.880 --> 0:25:45.160
<v Speaker 1>clearly like good enough to be getting like scholarships in

0:25:45.240 --> 0:25:49.680
<v Speaker 1>the arts at UM at a very prestigious college and

0:25:49.960 --> 0:25:53.879
<v Speaker 1>living abroad for a time. They Okay, again, I know

0:25:53.920 --> 0:25:56.960
<v Speaker 1>they have problems. I recognize that Connel is depressed. Marianne

0:25:56.960 --> 0:26:02.000
<v Speaker 1>has a frighteningly abusive family. Other than that, like they

0:26:02.040 --> 0:26:05.560
<v Speaker 1>seem abnormally blessed in a lot of regards. I think

0:26:05.640 --> 0:26:08.040
<v Speaker 1>even the fact that they're dealing with that makes them

0:26:08.119 --> 0:26:12.800
<v Speaker 1>even more abnormally blast. Yes, And I think that having

0:26:12.880 --> 0:26:16.320
<v Speaker 1>a thing that you're dealing with is very normal. I mean,

0:26:16.520 --> 0:26:19.960
<v Speaker 1>if someone was a Kendall who literally was perfect, that

0:26:20.000 --> 0:26:23.560
<v Speaker 1>would be abnormal. I think that someone functioning in the

0:26:23.600 --> 0:26:27.359
<v Speaker 1>world is a smart, competent, competent person with friends and

0:26:27.440 --> 0:26:31.480
<v Speaker 1>dealing with you know, trauma or family hardship or depression,

0:26:31.600 --> 0:26:35.399
<v Speaker 1>like that is a normal situation. But I think that's

0:26:35.480 --> 0:26:39.879
<v Speaker 1>the point, Like it is that they both feel so abnormal,

0:26:40.119 --> 0:26:43.760
<v Speaker 1>and we see as the readers, we all are relating

0:26:43.840 --> 0:26:47.920
<v Speaker 1>to one or the other at certain points that they

0:26:47.960 --> 0:26:51.160
<v Speaker 1>are there, that they are as normal as any one

0:26:51.440 --> 0:26:56.000
<v Speaker 1>can be, and they are also exceptional in their own ways,

0:26:56.280 --> 0:27:00.800
<v Speaker 1>as everyone is, you know. I feel like I like

0:27:01.080 --> 0:27:04.719
<v Speaker 1>related to this striving to be normal in high school

0:27:04.760 --> 0:27:08.280
<v Speaker 1>and college and what the normal was in the culture

0:27:08.320 --> 0:27:11.040
<v Speaker 1>that I was living in, like buying the north Face

0:27:11.119 --> 0:27:14.399
<v Speaker 1>jacket like you did, Dana in like in Chicago, in

0:27:15.119 --> 0:27:19.520
<v Speaker 1>college like it, you know, and always feeling like I

0:27:19.560 --> 0:27:22.520
<v Speaker 1>didn't fit in and how to be more normal. And

0:27:22.560 --> 0:27:27.040
<v Speaker 1>I feel like growing up is embracing what is not

0:27:27.119 --> 0:27:29.600
<v Speaker 1>normal about Melissa. I don't want to blow up your spot,

0:27:29.640 --> 0:27:31.760
<v Speaker 1>but I do have to say, you've posted that picture

0:27:31.760 --> 0:27:39.240
<v Speaker 1>of you in a sorority and you oh my god.

0:27:38.920 --> 0:27:43.159
<v Speaker 1>I would just say, guys, you look very somal. I listen,

0:27:43.280 --> 0:27:45.439
<v Speaker 1>it was a lot of work to look that normal.

0:27:46.080 --> 0:27:49.560
<v Speaker 1>It was like everyone in at Northwestern, it was like

0:27:50.280 --> 0:27:52.600
<v Speaker 1>everyone was in a It was like half the school

0:27:52.640 --> 0:27:56.720
<v Speaker 1>was in a sorority. So I was too. And they're

0:27:56.760 --> 0:28:00.239
<v Speaker 1>like all got spray tans, so I did that. They

0:28:00.280 --> 0:28:02.560
<v Speaker 1>all had highlights, so I did that. They all had

0:28:02.600 --> 0:28:04.400
<v Speaker 1>a north face, so I did that. You know, like

0:28:04.920 --> 0:28:10.520
<v Speaker 1>it was just trying to fit in as desperately as possible. Um.

0:28:10.600 --> 0:28:14.600
<v Speaker 1>Gil Nol Coward has a great quote from Private Lives

0:28:14.680 --> 0:28:17.920
<v Speaker 1>that nobody is ever completely normal, really deep down in

0:28:17.960 --> 0:28:22.120
<v Speaker 1>their private lives, and um, you know, I think that

0:28:22.119 --> 0:28:25.879
<v Speaker 1>that fits in here, that um, everybody is normal and

0:28:25.880 --> 0:28:29.240
<v Speaker 1>everybody does have their own issues, and there's no such

0:28:29.320 --> 0:28:32.720
<v Speaker 1>thing as a completely normal person, even if they do

0:28:32.880 --> 0:28:35.679
<v Speaker 1>look incredibly hot from the outside. I think that that

0:28:35.880 --> 0:28:39.360
<v Speaker 1>is the self power of the title that uh, most

0:28:39.400 --> 0:28:42.080
<v Speaker 1>of that you're touching on so eloquently, the idea that

0:28:42.120 --> 0:28:46.280
<v Speaker 1>like the irony also for the characters and as a

0:28:46.360 --> 0:28:49.240
<v Speaker 1>relationship between them and the readers, as the readers were

0:28:49.240 --> 0:28:53.040
<v Speaker 1>all relating so profoundly and projecting our experiences onto them.

0:28:53.200 --> 0:28:56.040
<v Speaker 1>The normalcy of these characters is evidenced by the fact

0:28:56.080 --> 0:28:58.400
<v Speaker 1>that this book is so popular and being praised is

0:28:58.400 --> 0:29:01.560
<v Speaker 1>so relatable. But obviously these characters don't know that they're

0:29:01.560 --> 0:29:05.360
<v Speaker 1>in a very popular, widely related to book. That's their

0:29:05.440 --> 0:29:09.160
<v Speaker 1>their tragedy. Yeah, and to build of what Jennifer, what

0:29:09.200 --> 0:29:12.160
<v Speaker 1>you were saying too, it's that like, deep down normal

0:29:12.360 --> 0:29:16.760
<v Speaker 1>is all of us having our own abnormal intimate emotional

0:29:17.080 --> 0:29:20.680
<v Speaker 1>like up and downs all the time, which I was like, yeah,

0:29:20.960 --> 0:29:24.680
<v Speaker 1>this reminds me of people I know, people like myself,

0:29:24.720 --> 0:29:29.000
<v Speaker 1>like dear friends, family, Like we are all experiencing different

0:29:29.080 --> 0:29:33.240
<v Speaker 1>levels of like depression and hardship in our own lives,

0:29:33.720 --> 0:29:38.280
<v Speaker 1>whether like remarkable or not, you know. And the and

0:29:38.360 --> 0:29:42.200
<v Speaker 1>even the most aberrant behavior that the character's view as

0:29:42.320 --> 0:29:45.960
<v Speaker 1>the most abnormal, which is like they're like, uh slight

0:29:46.080 --> 0:29:48.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, B D S M. I will say, as

0:29:48.440 --> 0:29:54.520
<v Speaker 1>an adult feels very normal, like I normal experimentation with

0:29:54.640 --> 0:29:57.960
<v Speaker 1>bondage and d s M is like a very normal

0:29:58.040 --> 0:30:01.600
<v Speaker 1>thing that all most most of do, you know, whether

0:30:01.760 --> 0:30:04.440
<v Speaker 1>it's their jam or not, just a very normal thing.

0:30:04.520 --> 0:30:07.920
<v Speaker 1>They're not doing anything that aberrant. I thought it was

0:30:08.040 --> 0:30:11.719
<v Speaker 1>very peculiar that that became the thing that was Marianne's

0:30:11.760 --> 0:30:19.560
<v Speaker 1>undoing socially. Yeah, again, maybe it's Ireland Maybie. Irish people

0:30:19.600 --> 0:30:26.360
<v Speaker 1>don't misu teachers. I think they just love gossip, you

0:30:26.360 --> 0:30:28.920
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. And and their friend groups sucked,

0:30:29.160 --> 0:30:31.920
<v Speaker 1>like she just had a bad group of friends besides Joanna,

0:30:32.000 --> 0:30:36.120
<v Speaker 1>like Peggy and and Jamie was just a monster, you know.

0:30:36.160 --> 0:30:38.720
<v Speaker 1>I think that's it that it was like they hate gossip.

0:30:38.840 --> 0:30:42.200
<v Speaker 1>And to circle back to a thing that someone said earlier,

0:30:42.240 --> 0:30:45.080
<v Speaker 1>this idea that like you need one friend you can

0:30:45.120 --> 0:30:48.040
<v Speaker 1>tell you like your experience is valid and you're this

0:30:48.160 --> 0:30:50.320
<v Speaker 1>is how a person should or should not be treating

0:30:50.360 --> 0:30:54.880
<v Speaker 1>you like that is the most fundamentally important thing. Like

0:30:54.920 --> 0:30:57.440
<v Speaker 1>I remember, like if ever you have a person like

0:30:57.760 --> 0:31:00.520
<v Speaker 1>treat you badly or is rude to you, like the

0:31:00.560 --> 0:31:03.720
<v Speaker 1>most validating thing in the world is another human being being,

0:31:03.760 --> 0:31:06.959
<v Speaker 1>Like I noticed that it's not you, you know, like

0:31:06.960 --> 0:31:10.200
<v Speaker 1>like someone and like if Conna's treating Marianne badly, if

0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:13.240
<v Speaker 1>she had a friend who's like, hey, that is not

0:31:13.400 --> 0:31:16.000
<v Speaker 1>how you should be treated, I am also viewing that,

0:31:16.080 --> 0:31:20.080
<v Speaker 1>and your experience is valid. Like normalcy is something that

0:31:20.120 --> 0:31:24.080
<v Speaker 1>exists as a social contract between people. We decide what's normal,

0:31:24.360 --> 0:31:28.840
<v Speaker 1>and both characters so fundamentally need that person to be like,

0:31:29.200 --> 0:31:32.360
<v Speaker 1>this is normal, that's okay. The feelings that you're having

0:31:32.400 --> 0:31:36.560
<v Speaker 1>are fine, let's accept those things. Also, a therapist will

0:31:36.560 --> 0:31:42.440
<v Speaker 1>serve that. One of the most um one of my

0:31:42.560 --> 0:31:46.120
<v Speaker 1>favorite Marianne moments in the entire book is when her

0:31:46.160 --> 0:31:50.600
<v Speaker 1>brother spits on her and her mother is like, oh, Marianne,

0:31:50.760 --> 0:31:54.080
<v Speaker 1>if you can't handle a little sibling altercation, how will

0:31:54.160 --> 0:31:57.600
<v Speaker 1>you exist in the real world. And Marianne says, well, yeah,

0:31:57.720 --> 0:31:59.920
<v Speaker 1>when I'm at work, I don't think anybody's gonna spit

0:32:00.000 --> 0:32:03.760
<v Speaker 1>on me. I think they probably get fired for that. Yeah. Yeah.

0:32:04.240 --> 0:32:06.520
<v Speaker 1>It was like, oh my god, Yes, you realize that

0:32:06.520 --> 0:32:10.800
<v Speaker 1>that's not normal. You figured it, Yeah, well it is

0:32:10.880 --> 0:32:14.280
<v Speaker 1>to that point. It's like with therapy or a good friend,

0:32:14.320 --> 0:32:17.920
<v Speaker 1>it's like they will say two things which are important

0:32:18.080 --> 0:32:20.880
<v Speaker 1>that like certain things that you're feeling or doing, or

0:32:21.000 --> 0:32:24.600
<v Speaker 1>the ways you behave are normal, but also that certain

0:32:24.880 --> 0:32:28.160
<v Speaker 1>ways that people treat you are not normal, and you

0:32:28.240 --> 0:32:31.360
<v Speaker 1>do not deserve to be treated like that. And you

0:32:31.400 --> 0:32:33.880
<v Speaker 1>will have a boyfriend who will touch you in public

0:32:34.480 --> 0:32:37.440
<v Speaker 1>and who will not like be ashamed of you, and

0:32:37.520 --> 0:32:39.760
<v Speaker 1>will want to like be with you like and and

0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:43.000
<v Speaker 1>we will abuse is not normal, and like that, all

0:32:43.040 --> 0:32:46.080
<v Speaker 1>the things, the things you don't have to accept. I

0:32:46.120 --> 0:32:51.880
<v Speaker 1>think as well, that's so important therapy, that's very I

0:32:51.880 --> 0:33:00.720
<v Speaker 1>think this is a big advertisement for therapy therapy. I

0:33:00.800 --> 0:33:03.680
<v Speaker 1>think in terms of plot, we talked a lot about,

0:33:04.680 --> 0:33:06.600
<v Speaker 1>you know, Mariann's time in Sweden, Like, I think we

0:33:06.640 --> 0:33:08.360
<v Speaker 1>did cover that, and I think a lot of what

0:33:08.400 --> 0:33:10.880
<v Speaker 1>well we didn't cover what led up to that, which

0:33:10.960 --> 0:33:13.760
<v Speaker 1>was her relationship with Jamie. Oh yes, I wonded. Well,

0:33:13.800 --> 0:33:15.640
<v Speaker 1>I was saying I forgot the order, but I wanted

0:33:15.680 --> 0:33:18.479
<v Speaker 1>to talk about the scene of the house in Italy,

0:33:18.520 --> 0:33:21.440
<v Speaker 1>in Italy, which I do think sums up her relationship

0:33:21.440 --> 0:33:24.000
<v Speaker 1>with Jamie really well, Karama, do you want to set

0:33:24.080 --> 0:33:27.960
<v Speaker 1>that scene? Oh yeah, I will set that scene. So

0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:31.920
<v Speaker 1>this is after the scholarship, So Marianne gets a scholarship,

0:33:31.960 --> 0:33:34.960
<v Speaker 1>she's studying. I guess what's the equivalent of political science

0:33:35.280 --> 0:33:38.320
<v Speaker 1>and Connal is studying English. They both get scholarships in

0:33:38.320 --> 0:33:42.600
<v Speaker 1>their respective programs. Conal then, after receiving his scholarship, goes

0:33:42.720 --> 0:33:44.920
<v Speaker 1>on like a euro trip where he goes with his

0:33:45.000 --> 0:33:49.120
<v Speaker 1>roommate Nil, who is a real one love Nile importive,

0:33:49.400 --> 0:33:52.080
<v Speaker 1>He's a good friend. He is the Joanna of Conic.

0:33:54.120 --> 0:33:57.240
<v Speaker 1>And he goes on this trip with Nile, and I

0:33:57.280 --> 0:34:00.600
<v Speaker 1>think they have like another friend that gets erased in

0:34:00.680 --> 0:34:04.680
<v Speaker 1>the show, Elaine I think her name is. And they

0:34:04.800 --> 0:34:07.640
<v Speaker 1>end their trip in Italy and they go to this

0:34:07.720 --> 0:34:11.239
<v Speaker 1>like tiny villa that mary Anne's family owns, and they

0:34:11.280 --> 0:34:16.759
<v Speaker 1>spend some time with mary Anne, Peggy, Jamie and uh

0:34:16.800 --> 0:34:21.200
<v Speaker 1>and then the three of them Elaine, Nile and Connal.

0:34:21.719 --> 0:34:25.440
<v Speaker 1>So at this event they're all having dinner together. There

0:34:25.520 --> 0:34:27.320
<v Speaker 1>is an issue, of course, with the fact that Connal

0:34:27.440 --> 0:34:31.000
<v Speaker 1>is there because Jamie is extremely jealous of Connall. In

0:34:31.440 --> 0:34:33.520
<v Speaker 1>mary Anne's words, he is the tall guy that used

0:34:33.520 --> 0:34:38.000
<v Speaker 1>to suck his girlfriend. And it's it ends up in

0:34:38.040 --> 0:34:43.920
<v Speaker 1>this altercation with Jamie and Maryanne where Jamie starts breaking

0:34:44.000 --> 0:34:48.440
<v Speaker 1>glasses so similar to what her brother does to actually

0:34:48.600 --> 0:34:51.560
<v Speaker 1>and I'm sure that's very emotional for her. And nobody

0:34:51.600 --> 0:34:54.799
<v Speaker 1>but Connal does anything about it. I will say, it's

0:34:54.840 --> 0:34:57.200
<v Speaker 1>not Nile's business to do anything about it. And Nile

0:34:57.239 --> 0:35:00.640
<v Speaker 1>actually calls Jamie out for being super racist when they

0:35:00.680 --> 0:35:02.920
<v Speaker 1>were talking about going to Venice, and he's like, oh,

0:35:02.960 --> 0:35:07.239
<v Speaker 1>it's just Asian people taking pictures, and and he was like,

0:35:08.000 --> 0:35:13.840
<v Speaker 1>God forbid you see an Asian person. Ni. Nile is

0:35:13.880 --> 0:35:18.360
<v Speaker 1>the best. Yeah, Nile is great. And uh. Then after

0:35:18.560 --> 0:35:21.040
<v Speaker 1>so after Conal goes runs after Marianne, she spends the

0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:24.640
<v Speaker 1>night in his room, and she then confesses to him

0:35:25.040 --> 0:35:28.640
<v Speaker 1>that she has this abusive relationship with her brother. She's

0:35:28.680 --> 0:35:30.880
<v Speaker 1>already confessed to him in high school. I think it

0:35:30.960 --> 0:35:33.480
<v Speaker 1>was that her dad would hit her mom. Her dad

0:35:33.560 --> 0:35:35.759
<v Speaker 1>is deceased. I don't think we've ever mentioned that before,

0:35:35.800 --> 0:35:38.960
<v Speaker 1>but she doesn't have a dad right now. And that's

0:35:39.000 --> 0:35:42.319
<v Speaker 1>when Conal then decides it's a great idea to try

0:35:42.320 --> 0:35:44.319
<v Speaker 1>and hook up with her again, even though he has

0:35:44.360 --> 0:35:47.200
<v Speaker 1>a girlfriend. Her boyfriend's in the same house as them,

0:35:47.840 --> 0:35:52.040
<v Speaker 1>and she is clearly traumatized by the situation with her

0:35:52.080 --> 0:35:55.879
<v Speaker 1>boyfriend and how it reminds her of her brother. So

0:35:56.160 --> 0:35:59.480
<v Speaker 1>that's and then she leaves and goes to Sweden and

0:35:59.640 --> 0:36:02.279
<v Speaker 1>doesn't come back for like a year. It is almost

0:36:02.440 --> 0:36:08.080
<v Speaker 1>the a again, like a bizarro flip on what happened.

0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:10.839
<v Speaker 1>I think in high school after Deb's where she just

0:36:10.920 --> 0:36:13.839
<v Speaker 1>retreated and didn't know respond his emails and dropped out

0:36:13.840 --> 0:36:17.080
<v Speaker 1>of school. It's this idea that she has handled the

0:36:17.120 --> 0:36:21.480
<v Speaker 1>situation and her response is to retreat. And oh and

0:36:21.560 --> 0:36:23.920
<v Speaker 1>also in this section is the only time they ever

0:36:23.960 --> 0:36:28.120
<v Speaker 1>really talk about their social class differences and their socioeconomic

0:36:28.200 --> 0:36:31.000
<v Speaker 1>class differences. Uh. And She's like, you know, I am

0:36:31.080 --> 0:36:33.359
<v Speaker 1>acutely aware of the fact that we met because your

0:36:33.400 --> 0:36:35.239
<v Speaker 1>mom was my housekeeper. And I was like, are you

0:36:35.320 --> 0:36:39.560
<v Speaker 1>because I feel like you've never made that clear to anyone. Um,

0:36:39.600 --> 0:36:42.840
<v Speaker 1>which it's fine, but just don't lie. There's that point

0:36:43.160 --> 0:36:46.040
<v Speaker 1>in the in the TV show I don't remember what

0:36:46.120 --> 0:36:49.480
<v Speaker 1>the line exactly was in the book where uh Condall's

0:36:49.480 --> 0:36:52.799
<v Speaker 1>girlfriend Helen is talking about the fact that he's like, yeah,

0:36:52.920 --> 0:36:56.560
<v Speaker 1>Marianne had a fucking villa in Italy. Of course that's Marianne.

0:36:56.880 --> 0:36:58.960
<v Speaker 1>And I was like, that is very funny to me

0:36:59.080 --> 0:37:03.040
<v Speaker 1>how someone else in this circumstance sees this situation, which

0:37:03.080 --> 0:37:06.600
<v Speaker 1>is that your boyfriend's like very pretty ex girlfriend who

0:37:06.600 --> 0:37:09.799
<v Speaker 1>he's obsessed with all the time in this weird relationship.

0:37:10.200 --> 0:37:16.640
<v Speaker 1>He's just she's off on her summer Italian villa. Yeah.

0:37:16.719 --> 0:37:22.200
<v Speaker 1>I felt really bad for Helen. Yeah, that's another reason

0:37:22.239 --> 0:37:25.800
<v Speaker 1>why I didn't like Condle, Like he was treating another

0:37:25.880 --> 0:37:32.360
<v Speaker 1>woman poorly and writing, I don't have email correspondences with

0:37:32.400 --> 0:37:35.879
<v Speaker 1>anyone that's not my girlfriend, so like pact that he's

0:37:35.920 --> 0:37:42.279
<v Speaker 1>writing these long email correspondences. It's like And the thing

0:37:42.320 --> 0:37:46.640
<v Speaker 1>that bummed me out about that too, was that was

0:37:46.719 --> 0:37:51.200
<v Speaker 1>that he it wasn't like he didn't like his girlfriend,

0:37:51.400 --> 0:37:52.960
<v Speaker 1>like it was still would have been bad, but it

0:37:53.040 --> 0:37:55.799
<v Speaker 1>wasn't like Helen, I don't know how to break up

0:37:55.800 --> 0:37:57.600
<v Speaker 1>with her. It was more he was like he looked

0:37:57.640 --> 0:38:02.319
<v Speaker 1>forward to the FaceTime or the Skype video with her

0:38:02.520 --> 0:38:05.400
<v Speaker 1>because he thought I loved how pretty she was and

0:38:05.440 --> 0:38:08.759
<v Speaker 1>how much heat she liked him. And it was this

0:38:08.880 --> 0:38:12.000
<v Speaker 1>like ego thing of like how he got off on

0:38:12.360 --> 0:38:16.319
<v Speaker 1>the feeling afterward of her looking at him with this

0:38:16.440 --> 0:38:19.879
<v Speaker 1>doting affection and it was like just using her for

0:38:19.920 --> 0:38:22.839
<v Speaker 1>this ego boost while while then still being in love

0:38:22.880 --> 0:38:25.960
<v Speaker 1>with his ex girlfriend. I found it very telling that

0:38:26.000 --> 0:38:29.000
<v Speaker 1>we never at any point learn how the two of

0:38:29.040 --> 0:38:33.960
<v Speaker 1>them met. Yeah, yeah, it's like not important to this

0:38:34.040 --> 0:38:37.360
<v Speaker 1>story because she's not important to him. And to jump

0:38:37.400 --> 0:38:41.560
<v Speaker 1>to jump ahead a little bit in the story when uh,

0:38:41.719 --> 0:38:45.360
<v Speaker 1>Connell has a high school friend who commits suicide and

0:38:45.400 --> 0:38:49.080
<v Speaker 1>they returned back for the funeral um and how he

0:38:49.120 --> 0:38:51.840
<v Speaker 1>asked Helen to come with him, which is a really

0:38:51.920 --> 0:38:55.040
<v Speaker 1>intimate thing to do, like you know, to to bring

0:38:55.280 --> 0:38:59.200
<v Speaker 1>your significant other to your hometown for an emotional funeral,

0:38:59.400 --> 0:39:03.040
<v Speaker 1>and he spent the whole time not introducing Helen to anyone,

0:39:03.280 --> 0:39:05.680
<v Speaker 1>which is a repeat of the sort of behavior he

0:39:05.719 --> 0:39:08.080
<v Speaker 1>did with mary Anne, even though Helen is you know,

0:39:08.160 --> 0:39:11.200
<v Speaker 1>beautiful and is not weird and there's no social stigma

0:39:11.280 --> 0:39:16.240
<v Speaker 1>into dating Helen, and and also is staring at Maryanne

0:39:16.280 --> 0:39:17.840
<v Speaker 1>the whole time. So I feel like there could have

0:39:17.880 --> 0:39:23.040
<v Speaker 1>been an entire short story from Helen's perspective, your longtime

0:39:23.080 --> 0:39:26.000
<v Speaker 1>boyfriend just being a maniac, and which is sort of

0:39:26.080 --> 0:39:28.640
<v Speaker 1>like how when you go back have you noticed that

0:39:28.640 --> 0:39:30.759
<v Speaker 1>when you go back to your hometown or like if

0:39:30.760 --> 0:39:33.000
<v Speaker 1>you spend a lot of time with your parents and

0:39:33.080 --> 0:39:36.040
<v Speaker 1>like your child at home, you like revert back to

0:39:36.440 --> 0:39:41.880
<v Speaker 1>your teenage self. Yeah, Like I thought that scene was

0:39:41.960 --> 0:39:45.520
<v Speaker 1>Connell becoming the worst version of himself. He was a

0:39:45.600 --> 0:39:48.400
<v Speaker 1>repeat of how you know, the how he treated Marianne

0:39:48.400 --> 0:39:52.200
<v Speaker 1>in high school. Yea, And that little fight they have

0:39:52.400 --> 0:39:57.120
<v Speaker 1>to where Helen is like, You're kind of like, oh,

0:39:57.239 --> 0:40:00.520
<v Speaker 1>she's being like wild to try to pick a fight

0:40:00.600 --> 0:40:03.319
<v Speaker 1>at his friend's funeral, But in my mind, I'm like, no,

0:40:03.640 --> 0:40:07.839
<v Speaker 1>he's being a total asshole. Yeah, I got it. I mean,

0:40:08.200 --> 0:40:12.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, it was awful, but I mean it felt

0:40:12.280 --> 0:40:15.000
<v Speaker 1>like a woman who just had had it and she

0:40:15.040 --> 0:40:17.319
<v Speaker 1>didn't know how to keep it in anymore. That's what

0:40:17.400 --> 0:40:19.560
<v Speaker 1>it felt like it was. I felt I felt so

0:40:19.600 --> 0:40:23.680
<v Speaker 1>bad for her breaking. I was looking for that section

0:40:23.719 --> 0:40:26.840
<v Speaker 1>after the funeral in my book, and which was difficult

0:40:26.880 --> 0:40:31.160
<v Speaker 1>to find because there are no quotation marks. I just

0:40:31.280 --> 0:40:36.080
<v Speaker 1>want to just remind you all that. But she says, well,

0:40:36.080 --> 0:40:37.640
<v Speaker 1>if you didn't want me to come, you shouldn't have

0:40:37.680 --> 0:40:41.000
<v Speaker 1>asked me. And then, instead of doing the normal thing

0:40:41.200 --> 0:40:44.440
<v Speaker 1>of saying I'm sorry, I clearly didn't handle this well,

0:40:44.520 --> 0:40:47.120
<v Speaker 1>which may be a good friend or a therapist might

0:40:47.239 --> 0:40:52.680
<v Speaker 1>encourage you to, he says, Okay, I'm sorry I asked you.

0:40:52.719 --> 0:40:59.440
<v Speaker 1>That brutal just blew my mind with my justice for Helen.

0:41:00.880 --> 0:41:06.440
<v Speaker 1>He does not know how to apologize. No, he doesn't

0:41:06.480 --> 0:41:09.840
<v Speaker 1>know how to do very many things. I just I

0:41:09.920 --> 0:41:13.799
<v Speaker 1>don't understand. Like I think we were when we were

0:41:13.800 --> 0:41:16.680
<v Speaker 1>talking about Marxism and how it relates to the book.

0:41:17.000 --> 0:41:19.560
<v Speaker 1>I think it was Tienne who mentioned something about emotional

0:41:20.080 --> 0:41:22.560
<v Speaker 1>intelligence and I was like, who has it? Which one

0:41:22.600 --> 0:41:25.520
<v Speaker 1>of them brings that to the table? No one, Joanna

0:41:25.640 --> 0:41:29.840
<v Speaker 1>is the only one, and Lorraine, let's talk about it.

0:41:30.040 --> 0:41:36.040
<v Speaker 1>Ran for emotional intelligence, we should have Nila and Joanne

0:41:36.080 --> 0:41:41.880
<v Speaker 1>get together. Joanna's definitely stig Helen. Nila and Nil and Helen.

0:41:42.440 --> 0:41:44.520
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I think Nila and Joanna would be great

0:41:44.520 --> 0:41:46.840
<v Speaker 1>friends and go on adventures together. I would leave the

0:41:46.920 --> 0:41:51.040
<v Speaker 1>hell out of that bar Um. Wait, one more incredibly

0:41:51.080 --> 0:41:53.799
<v Speaker 1>disturbing scene that we have not touched on at all,

0:41:53.960 --> 0:41:56.279
<v Speaker 1>and I'm almost very sorry to bring this up. We

0:41:56.280 --> 0:41:58.000
<v Speaker 1>have been talking so long, but we have not talked

0:41:58.040 --> 0:42:05.000
<v Speaker 1>about this the teacher, and that feels like a really

0:42:05.040 --> 0:42:09.000
<v Speaker 1>important moment to me because it's a moment where she, Marianne,

0:42:09.040 --> 0:42:11.400
<v Speaker 1>really stands up for him and so said, if that

0:42:11.440 --> 0:42:14.160
<v Speaker 1>teacher does that to him again, she will kill her.

0:42:14.400 --> 0:42:16.120
<v Speaker 1>So who want who wants to be the one who

0:42:16.160 --> 0:42:21.839
<v Speaker 1>describes the scene, I'll do it volunteer is But I

0:42:21.880 --> 0:42:23.960
<v Speaker 1>do want to say that I felt like the way

0:42:24.000 --> 0:42:26.399
<v Speaker 1>it was handled in the book did more for their

0:42:26.440 --> 0:42:30.120
<v Speaker 1>relationship than the way it was handled on the show. Um.

0:42:30.160 --> 0:42:32.080
<v Speaker 1>But the way that it was handled in the book,

0:42:32.160 --> 0:42:34.880
<v Speaker 1>because this is the podcast where we talked smart about books,

0:42:36.000 --> 0:42:38.320
<v Speaker 1>is that there is this teacher. I think she was

0:42:38.360 --> 0:42:40.919
<v Speaker 1>an economics teacher. I cannot remember her name. I don't

0:42:40.960 --> 0:42:42.759
<v Speaker 1>want to say her name even if I do remember it,

0:42:42.800 --> 0:42:45.600
<v Speaker 1>because she is the worst. Uh So, early on in

0:42:45.640 --> 0:42:49.720
<v Speaker 1>the book, it's established that she like giggles with Connell

0:42:49.880 --> 0:42:52.560
<v Speaker 1>a lot, and he's very uncomfortable with it, and everybody

0:42:52.600 --> 0:42:54.239
<v Speaker 1>thinks that he has a crush on They make fun

0:42:54.280 --> 0:42:56.880
<v Speaker 1>of him. Yeah, they make fun of him for the

0:42:56.920 --> 0:42:59.040
<v Speaker 1>fact that he has a crush on her, and he's like,

0:42:59.080 --> 0:43:02.640
<v Speaker 1>I literally don't and Marianne's like, maybe it's because you

0:43:02.680 --> 0:43:04.560
<v Speaker 1>blush when she talks to you, but you just kind

0:43:04.560 --> 0:43:09.080
<v Speaker 1>of have that face and uh So. Then later on,

0:43:09.680 --> 0:43:12.440
<v Speaker 1>when Connal is back home, he's on an off again

0:43:12.520 --> 0:43:15.080
<v Speaker 1>situation with Marianne. At this point, I think she might

0:43:15.080 --> 0:43:19.400
<v Speaker 1>be in Sweden. Um. Yeah, he goes out, it's Chris,

0:43:20.360 --> 0:43:22.759
<v Speaker 1>it is Christmas. Yeah, she does. She specifically doesn't come

0:43:22.800 --> 0:43:26.680
<v Speaker 1>home for Christmas, and he's like, well, I I don't

0:43:26.680 --> 0:43:28.680
<v Speaker 1>think I've ever gone a year in my life without

0:43:28.719 --> 0:43:30.640
<v Speaker 1>seeing you. I think that might have been added in

0:43:30.680 --> 0:43:32.759
<v Speaker 1>the show, but I think that it is important to

0:43:32.760 --> 0:43:35.480
<v Speaker 1>speak to their relationship where even when they weren't close,

0:43:35.520 --> 0:43:38.000
<v Speaker 1>even before they started sleeping together, she was a presence

0:43:38.040 --> 0:43:41.120
<v Speaker 1>in his life and now she's not, so he's kind

0:43:41.120 --> 0:43:45.080
<v Speaker 1>of unmoored and sad, and he goes out to the

0:43:45.120 --> 0:43:47.920
<v Speaker 1>pub and he runs into this economics teacher that he

0:43:47.960 --> 0:43:51.640
<v Speaker 1>had in high school, and they dance and they drink,

0:43:51.760 --> 0:43:54.080
<v Speaker 1>and then she goes. She takes him back to her place,

0:43:54.640 --> 0:43:57.600
<v Speaker 1>and uh. He is very drunk and does not want

0:43:57.640 --> 0:43:59.680
<v Speaker 1>to engage in any sort of activity and kind of

0:43:59.719 --> 0:44:03.399
<v Speaker 1>tries to brush it off and does not say no,

0:44:03.960 --> 0:44:07.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't want this, please go away explicitly, but is

0:44:07.200 --> 0:44:11.480
<v Speaker 1>very very clear in his actions, I'm not interested in this,

0:44:11.560 --> 0:44:14.840
<v Speaker 1>which should be enough. Gives every sing and also talks

0:44:14.880 --> 0:44:18.120
<v Speaker 1>about how drunk he is. Does men he is the

0:44:18.160 --> 0:44:22.480
<v Speaker 1>adult in this situation. I don't care that he's ship

0:44:22.520 --> 0:44:26.120
<v Speaker 1>is such that she's the adult and she should be like, oh, right, Jimmy.

0:44:26.200 --> 0:44:28.280
<v Speaker 1>She never should have done anything in the first place,

0:44:28.560 --> 0:44:31.000
<v Speaker 1>and it was clear that she was just waiting to pounce.

0:44:31.120 --> 0:44:37.440
<v Speaker 1>She's garbage, she's a predator. But then she she starts

0:44:37.440 --> 0:44:42.600
<v Speaker 1>to touch him in his nether regions and he then

0:44:43.320 --> 0:44:45.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't remember if he leaves or if he vomits,

0:44:46.040 --> 0:44:48.160
<v Speaker 1>or if he says he's going to vomit and then leaves,

0:44:48.239 --> 0:44:51.080
<v Speaker 1>but there says he's going to vomit, he says he's

0:44:51.080 --> 0:44:52.400
<v Speaker 1>going to be sick, and then he leaves and he

0:44:52.440 --> 0:44:54.480
<v Speaker 1>has no idea how he gets home. So he's clearly

0:44:54.520 --> 0:44:59.160
<v Speaker 1>like exceedingly intoxicated, and he feels gross about the situation,

0:45:00.040 --> 0:45:02.480
<v Speaker 1>and which just taken advantage of, as you say, to

0:45:02.520 --> 0:45:06.040
<v Speaker 1>be clear that teacher is a predator. Oh yeah, I

0:45:06.080 --> 0:45:08.160
<v Speaker 1>think that there is. I'm really glad that she wasn't

0:45:08.160 --> 0:45:09.880
<v Speaker 1>an English teacher because I feel like the trope is

0:45:09.960 --> 0:45:12.160
<v Speaker 1>usually the English teacher is the one that's the predator,

0:45:12.520 --> 0:45:16.360
<v Speaker 1>like pretty little liars Ezra is like with Aria, but

0:45:16.440 --> 0:45:22.800
<v Speaker 1>also with that's what you're saying, Yeah, no, predator. English

0:45:22.800 --> 0:45:25.479
<v Speaker 1>teachers are a thing in media which I think needs

0:45:25.520 --> 0:45:28.120
<v Speaker 1>to star. I think it's because because it's easy to

0:45:28.239 --> 0:45:31.400
<v Speaker 1>write if you're like, let's talk about Romeo and Juliet,

0:45:31.560 --> 0:45:34.600
<v Speaker 1>and like they get closer and closer, and and they're

0:45:34.640 --> 0:45:37.919
<v Speaker 1>going to quote different sonnet as they like smell your hair.

0:45:38.520 --> 0:45:41.160
<v Speaker 1>I feel like trigonometry is real sexy. I had a

0:45:41.200 --> 0:45:44.520
<v Speaker 1>crush on my priulist teacher in high school, and it's

0:45:44.600 --> 0:45:47.359
<v Speaker 1>because it's a good challenge. And it's because I feel

0:45:47.360 --> 0:45:50.200
<v Speaker 1>like teaching English, as opposed to, like Matt teaching math,

0:45:50.280 --> 0:45:52.719
<v Speaker 1>is very like prescriptive, Like there are certain stuff where

0:45:52.719 --> 0:45:55.040
<v Speaker 1>it's like it is easy to both write and portray.

0:45:55.120 --> 0:45:57.920
<v Speaker 1>As most was saying, like you can come at a

0:45:58.000 --> 0:46:00.680
<v Speaker 1>text from a way that feels like fresh an intimate.

0:46:02.200 --> 0:46:06.040
<v Speaker 1>You know, you know, it wasn't Shakespeare the first rapper,

0:46:06.920 --> 0:46:12.919
<v Speaker 1>I was going to say, but it's like that that's

0:46:12.960 --> 0:46:16.719
<v Speaker 1>so yeah, so you know. Um, one of the things

0:46:16.840 --> 0:46:19.440
<v Speaker 1>that was so interesting to me is that they established

0:46:19.640 --> 0:46:21.759
<v Speaker 1>really early on the first of all, this is not

0:46:21.880 --> 0:46:25.080
<v Speaker 1>every man's fantasy. I think a lot of the time

0:46:25.200 --> 0:46:29.319
<v Speaker 1>of when we hear stories about girls having sex with

0:46:29.320 --> 0:46:33.200
<v Speaker 1>their high school teachers, it's rightly painted us a predatory relationship.

0:46:33.480 --> 0:46:37.280
<v Speaker 1>Um that yeah, that is that is bad. And everybody

0:46:37.320 --> 0:46:40.040
<v Speaker 1>seems pretty much on the same page about that. But

0:46:40.120 --> 0:46:42.080
<v Speaker 1>when we hear about like a fifteen year old boy

0:46:42.239 --> 0:46:45.279
<v Speaker 1>having sex with his English teachers, everybody's like, Oh, he's

0:46:45.320 --> 0:46:49.880
<v Speaker 1>pretty lucky. Huh wish that had been my teacher, and um,

0:46:49.920 --> 0:46:53.120
<v Speaker 1>and that's weird and it's uncomfortable and we shouldn't keep

0:46:53.200 --> 0:46:55.800
<v Speaker 1>doing that. And I think that's why it's so important

0:46:55.840 --> 0:46:57.960
<v Speaker 1>that at the beginning, it's not like, oh, yeah, Connal

0:46:58.040 --> 0:47:01.239
<v Speaker 1>has this mutual crush on his team tour and they'd

0:47:01.280 --> 0:47:04.439
<v Speaker 1>love to funck but they can't because he's under Now

0:47:04.480 --> 0:47:07.880
<v Speaker 1>it gets to happen, and that is so clearly what's

0:47:07.920 --> 0:47:11.560
<v Speaker 1>not happening there. It's so clear that this is absolutely

0:47:11.600 --> 0:47:15.200
<v Speaker 1>predatory on her part um. It is not like another

0:47:15.239 --> 0:47:18.120
<v Speaker 1>girl his own age who is also drunk and really

0:47:18.120 --> 0:47:20.400
<v Speaker 1>wants to talk up with this hot guy. It is

0:47:20.440 --> 0:47:24.879
<v Speaker 1>an adult preying upon someone who is a child as

0:47:24.880 --> 0:47:28.120
<v Speaker 1>far as they are concerned. Yeah, okay, I think this

0:47:28.200 --> 0:47:32.480
<v Speaker 1>is a good emotional stopping point. We need to take

0:47:32.480 --> 0:47:34.359
<v Speaker 1>a step away from it for a moment and then

0:47:34.440 --> 0:47:39.120
<v Speaker 1>come back. I feel overwhelmed by the two of Yeah,

0:47:39.480 --> 0:47:44.439
<v Speaker 1>all right, thanks guys, I'm going to take a quick

0:47:44.480 --> 0:47:46.760
<v Speaker 1>break and we'll be back with more Popcorn book Club

0:47:46.800 --> 0:47:56.600
<v Speaker 1>from My Heart Radio. Okay, we're back with Popcorn book Club.

0:47:58.440 --> 0:48:01.680
<v Speaker 1>I feel like now we are stre of circling the

0:48:01.840 --> 0:48:04.880
<v Speaker 1>ending of the book. I think between it's raw, is

0:48:04.920 --> 0:48:10.360
<v Speaker 1>it Rob's suicide? Yeah, Rob, Rob's suicide? Um, and then

0:48:11.040 --> 0:48:15.759
<v Speaker 1>the final sort of and I'm like gesturing with my

0:48:15.800 --> 0:48:19.399
<v Speaker 1>hands the way that Marianne and connall come together again

0:48:19.400 --> 0:48:22.960
<v Speaker 1>only to come apart with what I think marian hopes

0:48:23.040 --> 0:48:27.920
<v Speaker 1>is a newfound understanding and uh of themselves and each other.

0:48:28.600 --> 0:48:31.920
<v Speaker 1>Whether that works successfully for you or not, Melissa, do

0:48:31.920 --> 0:48:35.520
<v Speaker 1>you want to describe sort of the plot thrust from

0:48:35.840 --> 0:48:40.240
<v Speaker 1>Rob's funeral to the ending? Sure? Yeah, so we've covered

0:48:40.320 --> 0:48:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Rob's funeral, He and Helen. He doesn't treat Helen well. Uh.

0:48:46.200 --> 0:48:48.399
<v Speaker 1>He sees Marianne for the first time in a long time.

0:48:48.480 --> 0:48:55.200
<v Speaker 1>She's looking incredibly thin, um and frail, and uh they

0:48:55.640 --> 0:49:00.799
<v Speaker 1>she Connad breaks up with Helen, and Donald goes through

0:49:00.840 --> 0:49:03.920
<v Speaker 1>a very deep depression. That's kind of the next phase

0:49:03.960 --> 0:49:07.319
<v Speaker 1>of it where he a very very serious depression where

0:49:07.320 --> 0:49:10.839
<v Speaker 1>he's having suicidal thoughts and he can't he can't like

0:49:11.239 --> 0:49:14.239
<v Speaker 1>bring himself from the floor to the bed. Like it's

0:49:14.239 --> 0:49:19.440
<v Speaker 1>a really dark depression, and he goes and for Nile

0:49:19.719 --> 0:49:23.839
<v Speaker 1>pushes him because now's a bud uh to go seek counseling,

0:49:24.120 --> 0:49:35.080
<v Speaker 1>and finally yes, and so he goes, and he gets

0:49:35.080 --> 0:49:39.080
<v Speaker 1>on medication in spite of himself, like he doesn't want

0:49:39.120 --> 0:49:44.480
<v Speaker 1>to reveal things to his therapist how bad it really is. Um.

0:49:44.560 --> 0:49:50.040
<v Speaker 1>And then Marianne drops out of school again for a

0:49:50.040 --> 0:49:53.839
<v Speaker 1>little while, goes home. I'm kind of the ending kind

0:49:53.880 --> 0:49:58.200
<v Speaker 1>of all blends together because it's less like incidents, there's

0:49:58.320 --> 0:50:00.600
<v Speaker 1>less there's there's no some piece is this it were

0:50:01.280 --> 0:50:04.000
<v Speaker 1>My understanding wasn't that she dropped out of school again.

0:50:04.040 --> 0:50:06.880
<v Speaker 1>It was that it was summertime. But the I can't

0:50:06.920 --> 0:50:10.399
<v Speaker 1>remember because it gives a date at the beginning of

0:50:10.440 --> 0:50:13.840
<v Speaker 1>every chapter, but it then goes it's like a period.

0:50:13.920 --> 0:50:16.080
<v Speaker 1>It's like the beginning date of a period of time,

0:50:16.080 --> 0:50:19.319
<v Speaker 1>and they'll move forward and move back. Yeah. Yeah, I

0:50:19.360 --> 0:50:22.239
<v Speaker 1>think that's why it made it seem like she wasn't

0:50:22.280 --> 0:50:23.960
<v Speaker 1>sure if she was going to return to school, like

0:50:24.000 --> 0:50:27.919
<v Speaker 1>she was in a bad place as well. Um. And

0:50:27.960 --> 0:50:30.600
<v Speaker 1>then it does it jump to the New Year's and Christmas?

0:50:30.880 --> 0:50:33.239
<v Speaker 1>Is that the next period where he goes where she

0:50:33.320 --> 0:50:36.200
<v Speaker 1>goes home with him at least that's the big event

0:50:36.239 --> 0:50:37.879
<v Speaker 1>that I think we should focus on. When she does

0:50:38.000 --> 0:50:41.360
<v Speaker 1>go home with which yes, which was like the final

0:50:41.520 --> 0:50:45.720
<v Speaker 1>sort of moment where they're together in the book, and

0:50:46.040 --> 0:50:49.840
<v Speaker 1>she reluctantly goes home because Lorraine, again one of the

0:50:49.840 --> 0:50:52.919
<v Speaker 1>best characters in the book, says you must come home

0:50:52.960 --> 0:50:55.359
<v Speaker 1>with me, or to come be with our family, and

0:50:55.400 --> 0:50:57.920
<v Speaker 1>so she does, and it's very warm and cozy, and

0:50:57.960 --> 0:51:02.480
<v Speaker 1>it's like this real glimmer of happiness of like what

0:51:02.560 --> 0:51:06.719
<v Speaker 1>their relationship could be if Conald just gave into it

0:51:07.520 --> 0:51:10.960
<v Speaker 1>um And but in this moment he does like they had.

0:51:11.040 --> 0:51:13.640
<v Speaker 1>They're like, oh, Conall has a girlfriend, and all the

0:51:13.640 --> 0:51:16.759
<v Speaker 1>little cousins see her. And then they go to New

0:51:16.840 --> 0:51:20.240
<v Speaker 1>Year's and all the old characters are there, even shitty

0:51:20.360 --> 0:51:26.400
<v Speaker 1>Rachel and sweetish Karen, and they and it New Year's.

0:51:26.480 --> 0:51:30.160
<v Speaker 1>They kiss, they kiss on the mouth. Conall kisses her

0:51:30.280 --> 0:51:33.680
<v Speaker 1>and people are watching, which they should just do. It's

0:51:33.880 --> 0:51:37.040
<v Speaker 1>New Year's everyone kisses something at someone at midnight. And

0:51:37.080 --> 0:51:41.719
<v Speaker 1>then he says I love you to her in public um,

0:51:42.120 --> 0:51:46.200
<v Speaker 1>And that's the last you'll get of them being sweet

0:51:46.239 --> 0:51:51.520
<v Speaker 1>to each other and being together. You're like, you're so close,

0:51:51.680 --> 0:51:53.680
<v Speaker 1>you're so close, it's like they reached it and they

0:51:53.680 --> 0:51:58.960
<v Speaker 1>don't them up. Yeah, and he says, I love you

0:51:59.000 --> 0:52:01.279
<v Speaker 1>like one other time. I'm when they're driving back from

0:52:01.280 --> 0:52:03.560
<v Speaker 1>our protest, and it kind of cuts back and forth

0:52:03.600 --> 0:52:09.879
<v Speaker 1>between those pieces, and then the final chapters are like

0:52:10.160 --> 0:52:12.680
<v Speaker 1>they're kind of to get there in that kind of

0:52:12.719 --> 0:52:16.120
<v Speaker 1>weird in between at the end of school and Connal

0:52:16.200 --> 0:52:18.399
<v Speaker 1>gets into this m f A program in New York

0:52:18.440 --> 0:52:21.919
<v Speaker 1>that he did not tell Marian about. Of course, God

0:52:21.960 --> 0:52:27.480
<v Speaker 1>forbid to the most intimate relationship, but his whole thing

0:52:27.560 --> 0:52:30.399
<v Speaker 1>is worried and he doesn't use them. It felt very

0:52:30.520 --> 0:52:33.840
<v Speaker 1>Jim and Pam to me, I don't like. It felt

0:52:33.920 --> 0:52:38.799
<v Speaker 1>very like Jim get like secreative gestures of starting athletic

0:52:38.880 --> 0:52:43.440
<v Speaker 1>marketing company. Yeah yeah. He bought a house without telling

0:52:43.440 --> 0:52:47.319
<v Speaker 1>her he invested a company. Yeah yeah. And she was like,

0:52:47.320 --> 0:52:49.239
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, this house. They love it. And I'm like,

0:52:49.320 --> 0:52:54.719
<v Speaker 1>bitch his parents house also, which is a whole thing

0:52:54.800 --> 0:52:57.800
<v Speaker 1>that we need to pack. Yeah, Jim is a child,

0:52:58.880 --> 0:53:02.279
<v Speaker 1>said And there's this girl, Sadie who's she's been Oh

0:53:02.320 --> 0:53:04.920
<v Speaker 1>he's now the editor of the paper, and Sadie has

0:53:04.960 --> 0:53:08.320
<v Speaker 1>a big crush on Connall and she doesn't he doesn't

0:53:08.360 --> 0:53:10.879
<v Speaker 1>really like her in that way. Blah blah blah. But

0:53:11.000 --> 0:53:13.799
<v Speaker 1>he did tell her that he was applying to this

0:53:13.960 --> 0:53:18.520
<v Speaker 1>m f A program she convinced him to and then uh,

0:53:18.880 --> 0:53:22.320
<v Speaker 1>Marianne decides to tell him to go to New York.

0:53:22.840 --> 0:53:26.680
<v Speaker 1>And then he also doesn't offer to kill her brother. Um,

0:53:26.880 --> 0:53:33.680
<v Speaker 1>the only I like, Oh god, I forgot about the

0:53:33.760 --> 0:53:39.279
<v Speaker 1>horrible sex and then the the abusive worst chap. I

0:53:39.320 --> 0:53:42.919
<v Speaker 1>think I like block those two scenes had because they're

0:53:42.960 --> 0:53:49.560
<v Speaker 1>so awful. Jen do it. So this is pretty bad guys. Um.

0:53:49.719 --> 0:53:53.799
<v Speaker 1>So they're having sex and Marianne asked Connall to hit

0:53:53.840 --> 0:53:56.759
<v Speaker 1>her and he says, no, that would be weird. Um

0:53:56.800 --> 0:54:02.640
<v Speaker 1>because because it would be weird. Um. And mary Anne says,

0:54:02.640 --> 0:54:05.120
<v Speaker 1>you think I'm weird and that was the way she

0:54:05.200 --> 0:54:07.399
<v Speaker 1>was referred to in school. Like. She's back to being

0:54:07.400 --> 0:54:12.160
<v Speaker 1>in her hometown again, um, surrounded maybe by people including Connall,

0:54:12.200 --> 0:54:15.319
<v Speaker 1>who thinks she's a weird girl. So she leaves. It's

0:54:15.320 --> 0:54:20.600
<v Speaker 1>a bad situation. She goes home. Her brother doesn't want

0:54:20.640 --> 0:54:25.600
<v Speaker 1>her associating with Connall because Connall is on antidepressant UM,

0:54:25.680 --> 0:54:28.520
<v Speaker 1>which is I would not be able to associate with

0:54:28.520 --> 0:54:31.120
<v Speaker 1>anybody in New York if that was a rule we

0:54:31.120 --> 0:54:36.839
<v Speaker 1>were going by. Um. But um, yeah, they get into

0:54:36.880 --> 0:54:41.000
<v Speaker 1>a fight. Um. Her brother keeps saying that he's not

0:54:41.040 --> 0:54:43.120
<v Speaker 1>going to hit her, but he throws a beer bottle

0:54:43.120 --> 0:54:47.759
<v Speaker 1>at her. She runs upstairs. In the process of this, Um,

0:54:48.160 --> 0:54:51.160
<v Speaker 1>she gets her nose broken. Um. I think it's because

0:54:51.160 --> 0:54:53.880
<v Speaker 1>she's trying to close the door so he won't get

0:54:53.920 --> 0:54:56.640
<v Speaker 1>into her room and she swams it in on her. Um.

0:54:56.680 --> 0:54:59.359
<v Speaker 1>So her nose gets broken. So she calls Connal and

0:54:59.400 --> 0:55:03.319
<v Speaker 1>she appollo gizes profusely and says, you know, it's just

0:55:03.600 --> 0:55:06.239
<v Speaker 1>it's not really his fault, but my brother. My nose

0:55:06.360 --> 0:55:09.520
<v Speaker 1>is broken. And Connal goes over to the house and

0:55:09.640 --> 0:55:12.600
<v Speaker 1>tells her horrible abuse of brother, who is nothing if

0:55:12.600 --> 0:55:16.160
<v Speaker 1>not consistently abusive, that if he does that to Marianne again,

0:55:16.280 --> 0:55:19.720
<v Speaker 1>he will kill him. And um, he does not punch

0:55:19.800 --> 0:55:23.640
<v Speaker 1>him in the face, which made me sad because, um,

0:55:23.680 --> 0:55:26.920
<v Speaker 1>because I would have liked that. So apparently I do

0:55:26.960 --> 0:55:29.640
<v Speaker 1>not believe that violence is never the answer. I believe

0:55:29.719 --> 0:55:33.080
<v Speaker 1>in this specific case it would have been cool. Sometimes

0:55:33.120 --> 0:55:35.319
<v Speaker 1>bad people getting punched in the face is incredibly sad.

0:55:36.000 --> 0:55:41.719
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes it's yeah, yeah, yeah, violence is never the answer.

0:55:41.800 --> 0:55:46.160
<v Speaker 1>If you ignore all of human history, um, all start crying.

0:55:46.160 --> 0:55:49.960
<v Speaker 1>Though Alan wept, he didn't even that was very sad.

0:55:50.320 --> 0:55:53.960
<v Speaker 1>I thought that the relationship, the power relationship between Alan

0:55:54.000 --> 0:55:57.560
<v Speaker 1>and Connal was fascinating because early on, when she's having

0:55:57.600 --> 0:56:01.040
<v Speaker 1>the secret relationship with con Alan sees Conna less so

0:56:01.120 --> 0:56:06.280
<v Speaker 1>much cooler than her. He wants to suck up to that. Yeah,

0:56:06.480 --> 0:56:09.560
<v Speaker 1>I mean I think Ellen represents everything the worst of

0:56:09.600 --> 0:56:17.839
<v Speaker 1>everything in this book, which is like the status aware, uh, desperate, clawing, abusive,

0:56:19.360 --> 0:56:22.560
<v Speaker 1>manipulated like he rubbed. He is the the black hole

0:56:22.800 --> 0:56:27.839
<v Speaker 1>of this book's worst themes. Yes, yeah, I think it's

0:56:27.840 --> 0:56:31.160
<v Speaker 1>really interesting also in this time period that um, when

0:56:31.200 --> 0:56:33.880
<v Speaker 1>Marianne goes home and stays with Connel for Christmas, they

0:56:33.920 --> 0:56:39.440
<v Speaker 1>do run into her mother, and this is after the

0:56:39.520 --> 0:56:43.640
<v Speaker 1>whole nosebreaking situation. And I will say in the show,

0:56:43.960 --> 0:56:47.200
<v Speaker 1>I felt like her mother was less actively involved in

0:56:47.440 --> 0:56:51.399
<v Speaker 1>the abuse and more of a passive just non participant

0:56:51.400 --> 0:56:54.760
<v Speaker 1>and she didn't really do anything to it, which arguably

0:56:54.840 --> 0:56:57.200
<v Speaker 1>is its own form of abuse. But I think the

0:56:57.360 --> 0:56:59.080
<v Speaker 1>a lot of the statements about like oh, if you

0:56:59.080 --> 0:57:00.799
<v Speaker 1>can't handle it, then don't know what you're going to do.

0:57:00.800 --> 0:57:02.640
<v Speaker 1>In the real world. We're in the book and not

0:57:02.719 --> 0:57:07.040
<v Speaker 1>in the show, but they run into her mom and

0:57:07.120 --> 0:57:10.279
<v Speaker 1>Marianne sort of first has the realization that maybe her

0:57:10.320 --> 0:57:12.239
<v Speaker 1>mom is not a normal person and that maybe people

0:57:12.280 --> 0:57:14.439
<v Speaker 1>don't see her mom in the same way that she does.

0:57:14.520 --> 0:57:17.480
<v Speaker 1>And she asks and she's like, how do people in

0:57:17.560 --> 0:57:20.080
<v Speaker 1>town see her? And Lorraine is like, I could say

0:57:20.080 --> 0:57:24.280
<v Speaker 1>she's a bit odd. And I think that's a real

0:57:24.320 --> 0:57:28.400
<v Speaker 1>turning point for Marianne as well, because she has made

0:57:28.400 --> 0:57:30.640
<v Speaker 1>these people her whole world and she just wants to

0:57:30.640 --> 0:57:33.080
<v Speaker 1>fit in with them and not realizing that maybe they

0:57:33.080 --> 0:57:36.480
<v Speaker 1>don't fit in with other people. Do you think that's

0:57:36.480 --> 0:57:39.560
<v Speaker 1>a moment too, where like because we learned that Marianne's

0:57:39.640 --> 0:57:44.760
<v Speaker 1>father was abusive to Denise, that it's like a kind

0:57:44.800 --> 0:57:46.880
<v Speaker 1>of a switch in Mary not meeting, not a switch,

0:57:46.920 --> 0:57:49.960
<v Speaker 1>but like a moment where Marian's like, okay, like, although

0:57:50.000 --> 0:57:52.760
<v Speaker 1>my mom has lent abuse to happen, like to from

0:57:52.800 --> 0:57:56.440
<v Speaker 1>my brother's to me, like that she's seeing that her

0:57:56.480 --> 0:57:59.400
<v Speaker 1>mother is maybe also like a damaged person that is

0:57:59.440 --> 0:58:02.960
<v Speaker 1>experienced and seeing like her own trauma that she needs

0:58:02.960 --> 0:58:06.760
<v Speaker 1>to go see a therapist about as well. Yeah, I

0:58:06.800 --> 0:58:12.280
<v Speaker 1>think that I will recommend therapy for almost every To

0:58:12.360 --> 0:58:16.160
<v Speaker 1>me that scene, I think Niles, oh yeah, Nile, Joanna

0:58:18.360 --> 0:58:23.680
<v Speaker 1>probably therapy, but not in this everyone therapy. Basically, some

0:58:23.760 --> 0:58:27.400
<v Speaker 1>of these people need to be in weekly therapy. I

0:58:27.440 --> 0:58:30.880
<v Speaker 1>think that scene of that realization with the mom reminded

0:58:30.920 --> 0:58:33.720
<v Speaker 1>me of an echo of the scene at Deb's where

0:58:34.040 --> 0:58:36.520
<v Speaker 1>Connor came to the realization like that if he had

0:58:36.600 --> 0:58:39.400
<v Speaker 1>just been open about being with Marianne like things would

0:58:39.400 --> 0:58:43.960
<v Speaker 1>have been okay. It's this, um, this this scene where

0:58:44.000 --> 0:58:46.720
<v Speaker 1>like the idea of normalcy and like checking in with

0:58:46.800 --> 0:58:53.000
<v Speaker 1>society is a very grounding force in like, oh, the

0:58:53.120 --> 0:58:57.560
<v Speaker 1>narratives that you make in isolation aren't necessarily true or valid,

0:58:57.920 --> 0:59:01.800
<v Speaker 1>and that checking in with other people and and he

0:59:01.920 --> 0:59:05.560
<v Speaker 1>is a helpful and important tools sometimes into feeling like

0:59:05.600 --> 0:59:08.720
<v Speaker 1>a normal person yourself. Um. And I think that that

0:59:08.800 --> 0:59:12.800
<v Speaker 1>was a lesson that both characters needed deeply. Well. You

0:59:12.920 --> 0:59:15.920
<v Speaker 1>also have to check in with people who care about

0:59:15.920 --> 0:59:20.000
<v Speaker 1>your well being and who love you. Think marian consistently

0:59:20.000 --> 0:59:22.120
<v Speaker 1>tries to check in with people who are not good

0:59:22.160 --> 0:59:24.800
<v Speaker 1>friends to her or good romantic partners and to gain

0:59:24.880 --> 0:59:28.400
<v Speaker 1>validation from them, and that is that that is done.

0:59:28.480 --> 0:59:30.439
<v Speaker 1>Don't like check in with Twitter and be like, hey,

0:59:30.480 --> 0:59:33.200
<v Speaker 1>Twitter point out my flaws. Yes, that's not going to

0:59:33.320 --> 0:59:36.840
<v Speaker 1>be healthy for you. Yes, checking in with someone loving

0:59:37.040 --> 0:59:40.600
<v Speaker 1>and yeah, someone loving who cares about you being happy

0:59:40.680 --> 0:59:44.400
<v Speaker 1>and having a good life. How do we feel about

0:59:44.400 --> 0:59:46.920
<v Speaker 1>the ending of the book? Oh? I was very upset.

0:59:47.040 --> 0:59:50.760
<v Speaker 1>It's super upset about well, like very ending. Like I

0:59:50.960 --> 0:59:53.720
<v Speaker 1>finished the book and I was like, well, what the fuck?

0:59:55.920 --> 0:59:58.160
<v Speaker 1>I think that one of the things. So she says

0:59:58.240 --> 1:00:01.040
<v Speaker 1>that Connal should go to New York. But what we

1:00:01.080 --> 1:00:03.560
<v Speaker 1>haven't talked about is the exact way she says it.

1:00:03.920 --> 1:00:06.000
<v Speaker 1>She said, you know what I'm gonna I'm gonna pull

1:00:06.040 --> 1:00:08.439
<v Speaker 1>out my trusty book for this one because I want

1:00:08.480 --> 1:00:12.600
<v Speaker 1>to want you all to hear it verbatim. Um. She says,

1:00:13.560 --> 1:00:16.120
<v Speaker 1>you should go, I'll always be here, you know that.

1:00:19.600 --> 1:00:23.120
<v Speaker 1>Definitely going to marry a model in New York. Don't

1:00:23.160 --> 1:00:27.040
<v Speaker 1>always be there. Oh, Marianne, did you learn nothing? I

1:00:27.080 --> 1:00:29.560
<v Speaker 1>didn't like that the book sort of presented it. It

1:00:29.840 --> 1:00:34.320
<v Speaker 1>was romantic, which I thought that, yeah, not a romance

1:00:34.400 --> 1:00:41.360
<v Speaker 1>to to no no people, bad romance. Oh my god,

1:00:41.760 --> 1:00:45.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm the stop demanding nothing out of this relationship, Maryanne.

1:00:45.280 --> 1:00:48.960
<v Speaker 1>It's not healthy, it's not helpful. I could have found

1:00:48.960 --> 1:00:51.080
<v Speaker 1>a million other men who would beat up your abusive

1:00:51.120 --> 1:00:54.240
<v Speaker 1>brother just really just like a million on any other

1:00:54.360 --> 1:00:56.600
<v Speaker 1>given day, and it's the only great thing he does

1:00:56.680 --> 1:01:01.720
<v Speaker 1>for To me, what the ending imply I was that

1:01:01.880 --> 1:01:07.160
<v Speaker 1>this dynamic will continue for ages two to ten years,

1:01:07.280 --> 1:01:09.920
<v Speaker 1>like that they will be the one they returned to

1:01:10.120 --> 1:01:13.800
<v Speaker 1>in between relationships, and they're going to continue to suffer

1:01:13.840 --> 1:01:17.240
<v Speaker 1>through this, particularly marry. I really feel like Marianne is

1:01:17.240 --> 1:01:18.800
<v Speaker 1>going to get the short end off they stick here,

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<v Speaker 1>that one day Colin will come home and he will

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<v Speaker 1>just be married and mary Anne still will have been

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<v Speaker 1>waiting and demanding the end when yeah, oh, we'll still

1:01:28.280 --> 1:01:32.000
<v Speaker 1>on his work with Mary Anne, Yes you are the

1:01:32.200 --> 1:01:36.000
<v Speaker 1>One day Mary that Conna will be dating, slash engaged

1:01:36.040 --> 1:01:38.760
<v Speaker 1>to slash marry someone else in New York and still

1:01:38.840 --> 1:01:43.120
<v Speaker 1>writing emotional intimate emails to Mary Anne, and she will

1:01:44.400 --> 1:01:48.040
<v Speaker 1>be fundamentally unhappy waiting for him to love her in

1:01:48.120 --> 1:01:51.400
<v Speaker 1>a version of events that will never happen. She will

1:01:51.440 --> 1:01:54.960
<v Speaker 1>waste her entire life on this man who is at

1:01:55.040 --> 1:01:58.880
<v Speaker 1>least emotionally unavailable to her, if not emotionally unavailable to everyone.

1:01:59.000 --> 1:02:02.040
<v Speaker 1>Should we we be friends with Marianne? I feel like

1:02:02.080 --> 1:02:07.040
<v Speaker 1>we've fallen at the five talk to her. I think

1:02:07.080 --> 1:02:09.400
<v Speaker 1>she just needs to listen to Joanna more like she

1:02:09.440 --> 1:02:12.600
<v Speaker 1>doesn't even Nina. She has Joanna and it's just like

1:02:13.080 --> 1:02:17.400
<v Speaker 1>get it together. Um, heartbreaking. But look, I think we

1:02:17.480 --> 1:02:20.960
<v Speaker 1>also know women like that in real life, at least

1:02:21.080 --> 1:02:23.840
<v Speaker 1>I do, who have like been carrying a torch for

1:02:23.880 --> 1:02:28.200
<v Speaker 1>a man for like a decade and he'll always show

1:02:28.320 --> 1:02:32.280
<v Speaker 1>up just enough to give them just enough hope to

1:02:32.480 --> 1:02:36.120
<v Speaker 1>hang in there and think that maybe like when he

1:02:36.440 --> 1:02:39.480
<v Speaker 1>gets when he finally breaks up with his girlfriend, it's

1:02:39.480 --> 1:02:42.080
<v Speaker 1>not a good time right now, but like when that happens,

1:02:42.800 --> 1:02:45.360
<v Speaker 1>then we'll probably be together and we'll be happy and

1:02:45.400 --> 1:02:48.680
<v Speaker 1>it'll be like oh, white pick fence kind of fantasy

1:02:48.680 --> 1:02:50.560
<v Speaker 1>and it will be great. No, if people want to

1:02:50.560 --> 1:02:52.640
<v Speaker 1>be with you, they'll be with you. It's like it's

1:02:52.640 --> 1:02:56.280
<v Speaker 1>like in Crazy Extra Friend. It's like the Love Colonels. Yes,

1:02:56.480 --> 1:02:59.000
<v Speaker 1>I thought that earlier when you were talking about storing

1:02:59.040 --> 1:03:01.920
<v Speaker 1>away love and child and like squirreling it away for

1:03:02.000 --> 1:03:06.800
<v Speaker 1>the winter. Yeah. No, definitely Love Colonel's for sure. So

1:03:07.200 --> 1:03:10.320
<v Speaker 1>does the Here's my question though, does the book realize

1:03:10.360 --> 1:03:14.480
<v Speaker 1>that it's a tragic ending? No? Yes, I think a

1:03:14.520 --> 1:03:16.520
<v Speaker 1>lot of people read it and don't realize it's a

1:03:16.520 --> 1:03:20.240
<v Speaker 1>tragic ending, and that in itself it's very upsetting to me.

1:03:20.440 --> 1:03:22.919
<v Speaker 1>And I want to send out a million tweets saying,

1:03:22.960 --> 1:03:25.200
<v Speaker 1>you realize that this is not a romance. This is

1:03:25.240 --> 1:03:27.919
<v Speaker 1>a tragedy, right. I think a lot of people read

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<v Speaker 1>it as a as a as a hopeful ending in

1:03:30.720 --> 1:03:33.360
<v Speaker 1>a way that makes or like a bitter sweet ending,

1:03:33.400 --> 1:03:35.760
<v Speaker 1>which I don't think it is at all. It's no,

1:03:36.160 --> 1:03:38.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't think it's bitter sweet. I think it's it

1:03:38.280 --> 1:03:40.520
<v Speaker 1>is tragic and it feels like, you know, that was

1:03:40.600 --> 1:03:45.360
<v Speaker 1>the choice she made, and there I wanted a Catharsis,

1:03:45.440 --> 1:03:49.919
<v Speaker 1>Like I wanted Marianne to say something like you'll never

1:03:50.200 --> 1:03:52.480
<v Speaker 1>really love me, will you? And he says no, and

1:03:52.480 --> 1:03:55.960
<v Speaker 1>then she says goodbye and that's the end, just for

1:03:56.040 --> 1:03:59.440
<v Speaker 1>them to like say to each other the things that

1:03:59.520 --> 1:04:02.120
<v Speaker 1>the true is behind the reason why it doesn't work.

1:04:02.920 --> 1:04:06.520
<v Speaker 1>But I know that's not what the book wasn't intending

1:04:06.560 --> 1:04:08.840
<v Speaker 1>to do, but that's what I wanted in my head.

1:04:08.960 --> 1:04:12.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna pretend that happened, Melissa. You just wrote my my,

1:04:12.760 --> 1:04:16.120
<v Speaker 1>my head, Cannon, and I know in my heart of hearts.

1:04:16.160 --> 1:04:18.240
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I really I want her to. I

1:04:18.320 --> 1:04:20.040
<v Speaker 1>know it's not the intention of the book, but I

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<v Speaker 1>want Marianne to find self worth and that is enough

1:04:24.360 --> 1:04:26.560
<v Speaker 1>for her, and that it doesn't need to come from

1:04:26.640 --> 1:04:29.880
<v Speaker 1>Connal who is just dangling it in front of her

1:04:30.320 --> 1:04:32.880
<v Speaker 1>and taking it away and putting it back whenever he

1:04:32.960 --> 1:04:37.840
<v Speaker 1>wants to. And here's the thing about Conna is I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think he's doing it selfishly or maliciously. I think

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<v Speaker 1>he's doing it obliviously, which which it doesn't matter. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a thing like the end results for mary and is

1:04:48.680 --> 1:04:51.080
<v Speaker 1>going to be the same. The happy ending would have

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<v Speaker 1>been mary Anne going to me, yes, Marianne applying to

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<v Speaker 1>an m f A program and getting in and not

1:04:57.840 --> 1:05:01.919
<v Speaker 1>telling Conall and her and being like goodbye. That would

1:05:01.920 --> 1:05:05.560
<v Speaker 1>have been happy ending. That would have been nice. I

1:05:05.600 --> 1:05:09.000
<v Speaker 1>feel so complicated about the the obliviousness of it, though,

1:05:09.000 --> 1:05:11.080
<v Speaker 1>because I feel like that is such an excuse that

1:05:11.120 --> 1:05:14.360
<v Speaker 1>we give men. But I think we get it's not

1:05:14.480 --> 1:05:17.000
<v Speaker 1>an excuse, Like we get his perspective, you know, we

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<v Speaker 1>get his his side of the book. I think in

1:05:20.720 --> 1:05:24.880
<v Speaker 1>Conal's mind, he is a he knows he's doing something

1:05:24.920 --> 1:05:27.400
<v Speaker 1>a little off, but he's not doing it on purposed

1:05:27.480 --> 1:05:30.840
<v Speaker 1>hurt Marianne. I think he's just weak and like he

1:05:30.880 --> 1:05:35.000
<v Speaker 1>has failings, which sucks. And then Marianne also has failings,

1:05:35.000 --> 1:05:39.040
<v Speaker 1>which sucks, and I think, whether it's malicious or oblivious,

1:05:39.080 --> 1:05:41.960
<v Speaker 1>it's not healthy for her and she needs to get out.

1:05:42.520 --> 1:05:46.520
<v Speaker 1>I think, okay, but they've also I okay, I have

1:05:46.640 --> 1:05:49.800
<v Speaker 1>had relationships that I did not think of as being

1:05:49.880 --> 1:05:52.400
<v Speaker 1>terribly serious, where like suddenly, out of the blue, I

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<v Speaker 1>got like a three page email from a man being like,

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<v Speaker 1>you are not emotionally risk apt of why are you

1:05:58.160 --> 1:06:00.880
<v Speaker 1>so closed off? Why won't you hang out with me

1:06:00.960 --> 1:06:03.720
<v Speaker 1>when we're out with your friends? And um the the

1:06:03.760 --> 1:06:05.560
<v Speaker 1>honest answers like, I don't know. We went out for

1:06:05.560 --> 1:06:09.280
<v Speaker 1>like two months. I wasn't paying that much attention. I

1:06:09.320 --> 1:06:12.680
<v Speaker 1>guess I wasn't that into you. I'm sorry, um but

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<v Speaker 1>um well, those are short relationships. This relationship has been

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<v Speaker 1>going on for five years. At some point, you can't

1:06:20.160 --> 1:06:24.440
<v Speaker 1>just be oblivious. Yeah he's not. He's not treating her

1:06:24.640 --> 1:06:28.640
<v Speaker 1>with respect. Yes, fair, I feel like and none of

1:06:28.720 --> 1:06:30.880
<v Speaker 1>you are going to believe that this just occurred to me.

1:06:30.920 --> 1:06:32.920
<v Speaker 1>You're all gonna think I've been planning this since the beginning.

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<v Speaker 1>But I feel like the relationship to me is a

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<v Speaker 1>lot like Logan and Veronica relationship Veronica Mars, where it's

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<v Speaker 1>tumultuous in ways that it doesn't need to be. And

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<v Speaker 1>I think that just based on who they are fundamentally

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<v Speaker 1>as people, it's never not going to be that way

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<v Speaker 1>unless they start to really examine who they are as

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<v Speaker 1>people and how that affects their relationships. And I think

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<v Speaker 1>that at his core, Conal does want to love Marianne.

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<v Speaker 1>But I think that you're right, Like I think it

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<v Speaker 1>was Melissa who said like, I'm never gonna love you

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<v Speaker 1>and walk away like he's never going to be able

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<v Speaker 1>to fully love her. Yeah, no, never, And I think

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<v Speaker 1>that is true to a lot of these kinds of

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<v Speaker 1>relationships that either I've experienced or witnessed my friends being

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<v Speaker 1>is that like a dynamic is set up in the

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<v Speaker 1>beginning and it just continues to repeat itself. And I

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<v Speaker 1>think that's true of most relationships I've ever been in.

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<v Speaker 1>And if you set up a relationship like they did

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<v Speaker 1>at the beginning of the book, it just keeps. It

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<v Speaker 1>felt felt like it was in chapters, but the emotional

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<v Speaker 1>arc of it was on a loop, um because it's

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<v Speaker 1>so hard to break that and the truth is, it

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<v Speaker 1>just doesn't get like I've never heard a story where

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<v Speaker 1>this Connell Maryan dynamic. They get married, you know, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>or stay married more importantly, or stayed I'm that incredibly

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<v Speaker 1>depressing note. Thank you so much to Jenner for right

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<v Speaker 1>karamadon Quatian Tran and Melissa Hunter Um, and thank you

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<v Speaker 1>for for listening. If you've joined us on this book club,

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<v Speaker 1>these beautiful people and all of their problems. Speaking of problems,

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<v Speaker 1>next week we dive into I Know This Much as

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<v Speaker 1>True by Wally Lamb, now in HBO series starring Mark

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<v Speaker 1>Ruffalo and also Mark Ruffalo as a pair of identical twins,

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<v Speaker 1>the Ruffali. Before we go into the rest of the book,

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<v Speaker 1>can we just I'll say our favorite Ruffalo's. My Ruffalo

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<v Speaker 1>of preference is from Eternal Sunshine of the Spot the Glasses. Yes, yeah,

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