Speaker 1: You're listening to Jojo Siwa Now with me Jojo Siwa
Speaker 1: and iHeart Radio Podcast. Welcome back to this lovely thing
Speaker 1: we like to call Jojo Siwa. Now. Now, I would
Speaker 1: say grabby box of tissues, But honestly, this is probably
Speaker 1: gonna be funny more than it is sad. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be talking about the five times in my life that
Speaker 1: I like, really couldn't stop crying. There's a lot more
Speaker 1: than five, but I've narrowed it down to some of
Speaker 1: my favorites. A lot of these actually are stories that
Speaker 1: I'm actually pretty sure. All of them are stories that
Speaker 1: I've never really shared before. Some of them have different meanings.
Speaker 1: Some of them are happy tears, some of them are
Speaker 1: sad tears. I'm not necessarily a crier, but if I
Speaker 1: get like emotionally frustrated, boom, it is waterworks every single time.
Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like that's normal, Like that's everybody
Speaker 1: in the world when you get emotionally frustrated. But nonetheless
Speaker 1: I am one of those people. Anyways, y'all, it has
Speaker 1: been such a good few fucking weeks before I get
Speaker 1: into this. Oh my god, it has literally been the
Speaker 1: best time of my life. Getting to do all these
Speaker 1: pride fests. It's been so fun getting to the set.
Speaker 1: Now Guilty Pleasure, Oh my gosh, the EP. I'm so
Speaker 1: excited for all this music to finally be out.
Speaker 2: It's been years in.
Speaker 1: The making, and uh, it's been a fight to get
Speaker 1: my vision exactly the way that I want it.
Speaker 2: But we are here.
Speaker 1: We are queer, and we are so fucking happy to
Speaker 1: be alive, and I am so soaked. Y'all, if you
Speaker 1: haven't already, go check out Guilty Pleasure, and Uh, without
Speaker 1: any further ado, let's dive in to the five times
Speaker 1: I couldn't stop crying now. First one, we're actually starting
Speaker 1: this off kind of sad. First one's probably about as
Speaker 1: sad as it gets. That lies personally for me. The
Speaker 1: third one, but for for y'all, you're gonna be like,
Speaker 1: oh that's dad, you were.
Speaker 2: A little baby.
Speaker 1: But yeah, So the first time first one, and I'm
Speaker 1: gonna talk about is actually when I was on my
Speaker 1: very first TV show, and this was my first experience
Speaker 1: with hate and online bullying and how foul this world is.
Speaker 1: It was after the first episode at aired, and if
Speaker 1: you don't know adc Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition is the
Speaker 1: first show that I was on. First TV show. Its
Speaker 1: reality show. It essentially was, you know, start with twelve dancers.
Speaker 2: One gets eliminated.
Speaker 1: Every single week, you dance, you to a challenge. It's fun,
Speaker 1: it's reality TV show, it's Abby Lee, It's a Dance
Speaker 1: Mom spinoff.
Speaker 2: It is what it is.
Speaker 1: Anyway, So I was on season two of the show.
Speaker 1: I was the youngest. I was nine years old during filming.
Speaker 1: I was ten years old when it came out. So
Speaker 1: I was just I mean, I was a baby. Anyways,
Speaker 1: the first episode airs and Abby posted something on her Instagram.
Speaker 1: Abby Lee had said, you know, who do you want
Speaker 1: to go home next week? And I read the comments
Speaker 1: as one does at ten years old, and it was
Speaker 1: every single one was jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo.
Speaker 1: Every single comment was jojo. And I broke down and
Speaker 1: like I was, I mean, I was a baby. I
Speaker 1: don't think i'd ever really like cried, cried like that.
Speaker 1: I'd never been sad, said like that, and I my
Speaker 1: mom says she'll never forget the visual like me walking
Speaker 1: down the stairs as she was sitting in the living
Speaker 1: room and our stairs kind of connected to our living room.
Speaker 1: So like at the last five stairs you could see
Speaker 1: into the living room and living roo. We could see
Speaker 1: to the stairs, and I mean, I can picture it too.
Speaker 1: I had little braids in my hair and I walked
Speaker 1: down the stairs like red face, sobbing. Now think about
Speaker 1: me is when I cry, I cry like cry, cry, cry, cry,
Speaker 1: and like you can tell that I have been crying.
Speaker 1: I get a web face. It is very dramatic and
Speaker 1: I can't pull it together when I'm crying. Anyways, So
Speaker 1: I come down their I was like who and she
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, what happened?
Speaker 2: Like are you okay?
Speaker 1: And I was like yeah, just look what everyone's saying.
Speaker 1: And she was like what do you mean? And I
Speaker 1: was like, look at Abby's post and she was reading it.
Speaker 1: She was like Jojo, let me ask you a question.
Speaker 2: And I was like what is it. She was like,
Speaker 2: do you go home?
Speaker 1: And I was like, well no, and she was like okay,
Speaker 1: So then why do you care what these people are saying?
Speaker 1: And I was like, because they're being so mean and she.
Speaker 2: Said no, they're not.
Speaker 1: She said they're saying your name and I said huh,
Speaker 1: And I like kind of like pause for a second,
Speaker 1: like they're saying your name. They're not saying anyone else's name.
Speaker 1: They know you and they know your name. And funny enough,
Speaker 1: I'm just literally just thinking about this now. I'm just
Speaker 1: realizing this.
Speaker 2: Now.
Speaker 1: That was the start of me being people's guilty pleasure.
Speaker 1: No pun intended, Absolutely pun intended. But I uh yeah,
Speaker 1: that was kind of my first experience with like true
Speaker 1: internet hate. And it was hard for me to understand
Speaker 1: that because I didn't understand why everyone wanted me to
Speaker 1: go home, you know, so obviously my mind goes, they
Speaker 1: want me to go home because they hate me, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? And uh, I didn't understand that
Speaker 1: it was just a reality TV show and that's how
Speaker 1: it's going to be in like the like least favorite
Speaker 1: is actually the favorite. That's like the weirdest thing about
Speaker 1: reality TV is the least favorite is actually the favorite.
Speaker 2: I mean, look at like at.
Speaker 1: Fucking vander Pump, like Tom Sandival like is is like
Speaker 1: he is vander Pump right now. He is the show
Speaker 1: right now. Without him, that show wouldn't be at what
Speaker 1: it is. And it's like the villain of the story
Speaker 1: arc of a reality show is normally the one that
Speaker 1: like is carrying it on their back, and of course
Speaker 1: vander Pump is very accessful cast. But think about it,
Speaker 1: and that's the good dance moms. People say Abby was
Speaker 1: the villain, and honestly like a villain or not to me,
Speaker 1: like she carried that fucking show.
Speaker 2: On her back.
Speaker 1: Would not have been possible without her, and that's that's that.
Speaker 1: So I guess ADC, I wasn't a villain, but I
Speaker 1: was the hater one. I mean it couldn't be the villain.
Speaker 1: I was literally nine. Yeah, I was really upset that night,
Speaker 1: and I will I'll never forget that. That kind of got
Speaker 1: my hate experience started, and then I just got fucking
Speaker 1: used to it. Here I am today still getting aided
Speaker 1: on which ry I wrote a song about it. Fun fact,
Speaker 1: bitch I wrote guilty Pleasure suck It. I also wrote yesterday,
Speaker 1: tomorrows today, just saying.
Speaker 2: It doesn't matter. It absolutely doesn't matter anyway.
Speaker 1: Second time is after my first Pride concert in Miami.
Speaker 1: This was back April fourteenth. I know it's April fourteenth
Speaker 1: because I actually have a hoodie that says Miami Pride,
Speaker 1: and I put the wrong data on the hoodie that
Speaker 1: was my fault I put April fifteenth. Anyways, it was
Speaker 1: April fourteenth. It was my first live performance as an adult,
Speaker 1: and I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed after. I didn't
Speaker 1: really know how to feel right after. I was very numb.
Speaker 1: Like I came out station, I was like, what the
Speaker 1: just happened? Because I didn't expect it to be a success,
Speaker 1: Like I thought there was gonna be like a couple
Speaker 1: hundred people there, like I don't know, and it was crazy.
Speaker 1: There was fifty five thousand people. The singing of Karma
Speaker 1: was actually insane and I've never heard anything like it
Speaker 1: while performing before. And so I came out stations. I
Speaker 1: was just kind of in shocked, and I was like,
Speaker 1: did I do good? Like I kept asking my mom
Speaker 1: like was I okay?
Speaker 2: Did I do good?
Speaker 1: Like did I fuck up? Like I don't know what
Speaker 1: to think right now? Did I go full out? And
Speaker 1: like it was really questioning everything. And then all of
Speaker 1: a sudden, the president of Miami probably came up to
Speaker 1: it was like, hey, we want you to know that
Speaker 1: you set the record for the most people in attendance.
Speaker 1: There was fifty five thousand people watching. We have never
Speaker 1: seen anything like that, like, I hope you're really proud
Speaker 1: of yourself. And when he said that, I looked at
Speaker 1: him and I actually, I do this thing with my
Speaker 1: best friend Malia where we take a lap and we
Speaker 1: just run away. And I took a lap. I literally
Speaker 1: ran away and squatted down. I started sobbing, stood up,
Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't know what I'm feeling
Speaker 1: right now. I'm just so happy, so sad, like I'm sobbing,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm not sad, like I'm happy, and I couldn't
Speaker 1: pull it together, but I was just I was so
Speaker 1: overwhelmed with like a confused feeling of like how am
Speaker 1: I supposed to feel right now? And then it was
Speaker 1: just like the most happy feeling, like we fucking did it,
Speaker 1: and that that made me really happy.
Speaker 2: That made me really proud.
Speaker 1: Ah see this one, this third one is the like
Speaker 1: heart wrencher for me.
Speaker 2: This one's very hard.
Speaker 1: So I have a best friend and for the sake
Speaker 1: of this podcast, we're gonna call this best friend who
Speaker 1: what's a fun name? All right, I'm gonna use the
Speaker 1: code name that they call me, So they call me Julian.
Speaker 1: So whenever we're in public, they're like what's up, Julian,
Speaker 1: And uh, that's kind of like our running joke. Anyways,
Speaker 1: So their name is not Julian, but for right now,
Speaker 1: for this story, I'm gonna call it Julian. It it
Speaker 1: is crazy, I'm gonna call her Julian. So me and
Speaker 1: this friend, we are best best best friends. We recently
Speaker 1: became friends last year, right on my twentieth birthday, so
Speaker 1: we've been friends for a little over a year. Doing
Speaker 1: meet those people that you just like click with and
Speaker 1: you just bond with immediately and you're like, you're my people.
Speaker 2: How did I have a life before you? I don't know.
Speaker 1: Anyways, So this is Julian. I kind of like calling
Speaker 1: her that. Now I'm gonna steal it. Julian and I
Speaker 1: were very much so like that. We got very close,
Speaker 1: very fast, and it was a lot of fun. We
Speaker 1: have a very common interest and we just we bonded.
Speaker 2: Anyways. They have a.
Speaker 1: Job where they work on a cruise ship, and so
Speaker 1: they are always always busy, always working, always on a
Speaker 1: cruise and then they have a couple months off here
Speaker 1: and there, and then they're back on ship working and
Speaker 1: so Seria hard dang out. It's very hard to see them.
Speaker 1: But anyways, they actually came to La for a week
Speaker 1: and we hung out for a week and it was amazing.
Speaker 2: They stayed at the house. We had so much fun together.
Speaker 1: She's literally the best fucking humor of my best friend,
Speaker 1: Like just having the best time, so many laughs, so
Speaker 1: many good times. Anyways, the morning came where I had
Speaker 1: to take her to the airport and say goodbye, and
Speaker 1: that I mean I was like half strong while we
Speaker 1: were at the airport.
Speaker 2: I really was, And I told her, I was like,
Speaker 2: you gotta go.
Speaker 1: I was like the tears are coming, Like you got
Speaker 1: to go now, and like we have a very like
Speaker 1: fun relationship where it's like very like dickheady, like very buntery,
Speaker 1: like we are not nice for.
Speaker 2: Each other, but like we love each other with all
Speaker 2: of our hearts. And I was like, dude, you got
Speaker 2: to get the fuck out of here right now, Like
Speaker 2: you cannot see me cry because I'm going to.
Speaker 1: Miss you you And it was just it was hard
Speaker 1: because we got to spend a week together, and then
Speaker 1: I was like, we are like not going to see
Speaker 1: each other for so long.
Speaker 2: This is sick, twisted, devious, sinister.
Speaker 1: Evil, and so I yeah, I just started melting down
Speaker 1: and got in the car and when I tell you,
Speaker 1: the forty five minute car ride home from.
Speaker 2: The airport, that's the hardest I've ever cried in my life.
Speaker 1: And then I came home and I was like, you
Speaker 1: know what, clearly, I just need to be sad right now.
Speaker 1: Came in, came in my bedroom and just kept crying.
Speaker 1: And I cried for probably another hour, and I got
Speaker 1: up and worked out, cried while I worked out, Like
Speaker 1: it was like days worth of crying. It was a lot.
Speaker 1: It was very hard. I don't know why it hit
Speaker 1: me very so hard. But I am a lover and
Speaker 1: like when it comes to my friends and my people,
Speaker 1: like I just love to give, give, give attention, and
Speaker 1: so I got really used to being able to give
Speaker 1: her that attention in that week and it was so
Speaker 1: fun and like just like the literal best times. And
Speaker 1: then all of a sudden she had to go and
Speaker 1: go back to work and I was like, what is
Speaker 1: this bullshit? Absolutely not, so I stopped. But nonetheless, we
Speaker 1: got to see each other couple months later. We're gonna
Speaker 1: get see each other in a couple months. It's great.
Speaker 1: Our friendship works, and we have a lot of fun. Anyways,
Speaker 1: that's that one that was my like sad one. This
Speaker 1: one's cute, not gonna lie. When I was like five
Speaker 1: years old, we went on to Disney Cruise. Didn't understand
Speaker 1: the concept of the safety like drill thought we were
Speaker 1: going down in flames, like thought the boat was sinking
Speaker 1: for sure. So started stobbing then couldn't stop. My parents
Speaker 1: were like, you need a can it? And I didn't
Speaker 1: can it. And the second time it was also on
Speaker 1: the same trip, same Disney cruise. When it was over,
Speaker 1: I had the best time. It was five Like a
Speaker 1: Disney cruisal. Five yearld is the coolest thing ever. Disney
Speaker 1: cruise to anybody's coolest thing ever. But five year old,
Speaker 1: you like really think you're on the ship would Mackey
Speaker 1: fucking mouse, Like it's the best time ever. And like
Speaker 1: saying goodbye they make it so sad. They sing the songs, No,
Speaker 1: it's time to say goodbye, doll family, m I see
Speaker 1: k U y m o us and like that's sick
Speaker 1: twisted dbs to a five year old.
Speaker 2: It's like, how how are you gonna do that to
Speaker 2: a five year old? That is mean cruel?
Speaker 1: So I was sobbing Deva say, this is a really
Speaker 1: good picture of me where I'm red in the face,
Speaker 1: just sobbing. Last one, I'm actually I'm gonna give you
Speaker 1: a little bit of a bonus one after this last one,
Speaker 1: but quick. Last one is Dream the Tour. Honestly, like
Speaker 1: every beginning leg of Dream the Tour, first show and
Speaker 1: every last show on Dream the Tour, I would always
Speaker 1: sob I'd stop because I was so grateful and I
Speaker 1: saw because I was so.
Speaker 2: Sad it was over.
Speaker 1: It was just non stop tears. The worst was the
Speaker 1: last last show ever on Dream the Tour. I was
Speaker 1: sobbing on stage the old night because I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, the last time I'm gonna sing word party,
Speaker 1: oh my god, the last time I'm gonna sing time
Speaker 1: to celebrate.
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, last time.
Speaker 1: Like every single song you got water works, every single one, okay,
Speaker 1: and the last last little bonus and then I'm gonna
Speaker 1: give you is on Special Forces. Honestly, I cried every
Speaker 1: day on Special Forces come day one, like so the
Speaker 1: way Special Force was edited, and I never really like
Speaker 1: to give like insider scoop to how TV shows are edited.
Speaker 2: But I'm gonna go into for a second for this one.
Speaker 1: So if you watch Special Forces episode one, they use
Speaker 1: an interview with me where I'm crying to the DS
Speaker 1: saying that I missed my family.
Speaker 2: That was actually on day six.
Speaker 1: But to make Special Forces makes sense, you know, they
Speaker 1: do have to edit in, they have to play certain
Speaker 1: storylines earlier and later, and so it's a Teve.
Speaker 2: Show, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, that was at
Speaker 1: day six and day one, I'm not gonna lie have stoked,
Speaker 1: Like I was like, fuck, yeah, I'm alone for the
Speaker 1: first time. Whoo whoop, like newly twenty year old, let's
Speaker 1: party it up. And come day three, I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm so sad. I was like, this is the sadest
Speaker 1: day of my life. Like every day, every day I
Speaker 1: gave you waterworks, I gave you tears. I would go
Speaker 1: out and I uh, I one way I would comfort
Speaker 1: myself as I would talk to the Moon. And I
Speaker 1: grew up very close relationship with the Moon, because as
Speaker 1: I grew close to my other fellow recruits, I would
Speaker 1: are especially.
Speaker 2: Nick and Tyler.
Speaker 1: You didn't really have anyone that you already knew, And
Speaker 1: so I talked to the moon and it sounds cheesy,
Speaker 1: but you get delusional. And so I was like, hey, Moon,
Speaker 1: I need you to deliver these messages for me. And
Speaker 1: I would talk to my best friends, and I would
Speaker 1: talk to my family, and I'd talk to my parents,
Speaker 1: and I would trust that the moon delivered those messages safely.
Speaker 1: And the reason why it brought me comfort is because
Speaker 1: I was like, no matter where my people are, they
Speaker 1: are going to see this same moon. And for some reason,
Speaker 1: like I love doing that. If like one of my
Speaker 1: friends is having a bad dan and I'm not there
Speaker 1: to comfort them, I'll be like, hey, go outside real quick,
Speaker 1: look at the moon. No that I can't see you
Speaker 1: and I can't hugue, but we are looking at the
Speaker 1: same thing right now. And that to me like brought
Speaker 1: me so much comfort on Special Forces, and honestly it's
Speaker 1: something that I still use to the day. But yeah, no,
Speaker 1: Special Forces gave you waterworks. I could not stop crying
Speaker 1: all the time on Special Forces. Like those times I
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, you gotta pull it together, like this
Speaker 1: is getting psycho like five. I end fine to find it,
Speaker 1: but you just, I mean, you could. I never cried
Speaker 1: like during a task, but I always cried after the task,
Speaker 1: The one that got me the most is the shooting task,
Speaker 1: because I was I don't know, I always feel like
Speaker 1: I told this story and I'm always like, I've never
Speaker 1: told this story publicly before, but I've definitely had to
Speaker 1: say that before. And so I have told this story publicly,
Speaker 1: but I don't tell it often. I was in a
Speaker 1: shooting when I was a kid. I was five years
Speaker 1: old in the Vonmar shooting in Omaha, Nebraska, and it
Speaker 1: was me and my mom and it was very scary.
Speaker 1: We were on our way to the register where the
Speaker 1: armed gunman went and we my mom actually ended up
Speaker 1: as we were going to that register, she looked at
Speaker 1: the skirt again that she was gonna buy, and she
Speaker 1: realized it didn't have sequence on the back, and so
Speaker 1: she was like, you know what, it's an expensive skirt,
Speaker 1: Like it doesn't even have a sequence on the back,
Speaker 1: Like let's just go. And as we were like like
Speaker 1: putting it back to go, that's when he went to
Speaker 1: that register. And so it was very very scary, and
Speaker 1: like I obviously, like I mean, I was five years old,
Speaker 1: and so I don't like I don't.
Speaker 2: Remember the like I don't remember it.
Speaker 1: But for some reason while driving through the gunfire on
Speaker 1: Special Forces, like my brain and body like went into
Speaker 1: like whoa, like full body trauma response, Like it was
Speaker 1: something that I'd never experienced before, which was crazy anyway, So.
Speaker 2: I ended Special Forces. This was the bonus that I
Speaker 2: was trying to get to.
Speaker 1: After the show ended, you turn in your armband, right,
Speaker 1: and so ds Billy kept He keeps everybody's arm bands
Speaker 1: from all of his seasons. And he messaged me and
Speaker 1: he was like, hey, I want to send you something,
Speaker 1: like what's your address?
Speaker 2: Opened it up.
Speaker 1: It was a purse that his wife had made, and
Speaker 1: then it also was my arm band and he was like,
Speaker 1: I really He was like normally I keep these, but
Speaker 1: I thought you would really like it, and like we
Speaker 1: loved having you.
Speaker 2: You were a joy to us.
Speaker 1: And when I touched it, my like, I like just
Speaker 1: like broke, like it took me right back there.
Speaker 2: It was very scary. It was very weird, very weird
Speaker 2: feeling for my body.
Speaker 1: So Special Forces got a lot of tears out of me,
Speaker 1: but a lot of good tears. Can't complain very grateful
Speaker 1: I happened. Very grateful I did it. I cry when
Speaker 1: things are over, and so that's a that's a good
Speaker 1: thing for me. And once my voice is over, I sobbed.
Speaker 2: James Jr. Soab Mas Sanger sobbed Dance while I'm sobbed.
Speaker 1: Dancing with the Stars, Oh my god, saw me at
Speaker 1: the end of Dance with the Stars was so bad.
Speaker 1: Jenna was like, Jojo, you look like a sore, fucking
Speaker 1: loser right now. Pull it together. And I was like,
Speaker 1: I am not crying because we got second. I am
Speaker 1: crying because it's done. And she was like, I know
Speaker 1: that everyone knows that, but anyone who doesn't know you
Speaker 1: was thinking you're crying because you got a second.
Speaker 2: I was like, I could care less. I'm just sad
Speaker 2: it's over. Anyways, that's enough.
Speaker 1: I kind of gave you like seven or eight things
Speaker 1: that made me cry and made me keep crying. I
Speaker 1: hope you enjoyed this episode of Jojo Zema Now. I
Speaker 1: love you all so much. Thank you so much for listening.
Speaker 1: Be sure to check out Guilty Pleasure everywhere you listen
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Speaker 2: My new EP. I'm so happy with it.
Speaker 1: You can get my sick ass Karma merch if you
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Speaker 2: I love y'all.
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Speaker 1: And if you don't know what that means, really think
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