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Speaker 1: You're listening to Jojo Siwa Now with me Jojo Siwa

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Speaker 1: and iHeart Radio Podcast. Welcome back to this lovely thing

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Speaker 1: we like to call Jojo Siwa. Now. Now, I would

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Speaker 1: say grabby box of tissues, But honestly, this is probably

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Speaker 1: gonna be funny more than it is sad. I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: be talking about the five times in my life that

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Speaker 1: I like, really couldn't stop crying. There's a lot more

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Speaker 1: than five, but I've narrowed it down to some of

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Speaker 1: my favorites. A lot of these actually are stories that

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Speaker 1: I'm actually pretty sure. All of them are stories that

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Speaker 1: I've never really shared before. Some of them have different meanings.

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Speaker 1: Some of them are happy tears, some of them are

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Speaker 1: sad tears. I'm not necessarily a crier, but if I

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Speaker 1: get like emotionally frustrated, boom, it is waterworks every single time.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like that's normal, Like that's everybody

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Speaker 1: in the world when you get emotionally frustrated. But nonetheless

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Speaker 1: I am one of those people. Anyways, y'all, it has

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Speaker 1: been such a good few fucking weeks before I get

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Speaker 1: into this. Oh my god, it has literally been the

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Speaker 1: best time of my life. Getting to do all these

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Speaker 1: pride fests. It's been so fun getting to the set.

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Speaker 1: Now Guilty Pleasure, Oh my gosh, the EP. I'm so

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Speaker 1: excited for all this music to finally be out.

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Speaker 2: It's been years in.

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Speaker 1: The making, and uh, it's been a fight to get

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Speaker 1: my vision exactly the way that I want it.

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Speaker 2: But we are here.

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Speaker 1: We are queer, and we are so fucking happy to

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Speaker 1: be alive, and I am so soaked. Y'all, if you

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Speaker 1: haven't already, go check out Guilty Pleasure, and Uh, without

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Speaker 1: any further ado, let's dive in to the five times

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Speaker 1: I couldn't stop crying now. First one, we're actually starting

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Speaker 1: this off kind of sad. First one's probably about as

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Speaker 1: sad as it gets. That lies personally for me. The

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Speaker 1: third one, but for for y'all, you're gonna be like,

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Speaker 1: oh that's dad, you were.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, So the first time first one, and I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna talk about is actually when I was on my

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Speaker 1: very first TV show, and this was my first experience

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Speaker 1: with hate and online bullying and how foul this world is.

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Speaker 1: It was after the first episode at aired, and if

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Speaker 1: you don't know adc Abby's Ultimate Dance Competition is the

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Speaker 1: first show that I was on. First TV show. Its

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Speaker 1: reality show. It essentially was, you know, start with twelve dancers.

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Speaker 2: One gets eliminated.

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Speaker 1: Every single week, you dance, you to a challenge. It's fun,

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Speaker 1: it's reality TV show, it's Abby Lee, It's a Dance

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Speaker 1: Mom spinoff.

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Speaker 2: It is what it is.

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Speaker 1: Anyway, So I was on season two of the show.

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Speaker 1: I was the youngest. I was nine years old during filming.

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Speaker 1: I was ten years old when it came out. So

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Speaker 1: I was just I mean, I was a baby. Anyways,

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Speaker 1: the first episode airs and Abby posted something on her Instagram.

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Speaker 1: Abby Lee had said, you know, who do you want

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Speaker 1: to go home next week? And I read the comments

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Speaker 1: as one does at ten years old, and it was

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Speaker 1: every single one was jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo jojo.

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Speaker 1: Every single comment was jojo. And I broke down and

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Speaker 1: I'd never been sad, said like that, and I my

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Speaker 1: mom says she'll never forget the visual like me walking

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Speaker 1: I had little braids in my hair and I walked

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Speaker 1: down the stairs like red face, sobbing. Now think about

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Speaker 1: me is when I cry, I cry like cry, cry, cry, cry,

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Speaker 2: Like are you okay?

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Speaker 1: And I was like yeah, just look what everyone's saying.

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Speaker 1: She was like Jojo, let me ask you a question.

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Speaker 2: And I was like what is it. She was like,

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Speaker 1: And I was like, well no, and she was like okay,

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Speaker 1: She said they're saying your name and I said huh,

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Speaker 1: I'm just literally just thinking about this now. I'm just

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Speaker 1: That was the start of me being people's guilty pleasure.

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Speaker 1: No pun intended, Absolutely pun intended. But I uh yeah,

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Speaker 1: that because I didn't understand why everyone wanted me to

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Speaker 1: know what I mean? And uh, I didn't understand that

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Speaker 1: Fucking vander Pump, like Tom Sandival like is is like

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Speaker 1: it is. And it's like the villain of the story

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Speaker 1: and that's the good dance moms. People say Abby was

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Speaker 1: I was literally nine. Yeah, I was really upset that night,

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Speaker 1: and I will I'll never forget that. That kind of got

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Speaker 1: on which ry I wrote a song about it. Fun fact,

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Speaker 1: bitch I wrote guilty Pleasure suck It. I also wrote yesterday,

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Speaker 2: It doesn't matter. It absolutely doesn't matter anyway.

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Speaker 1: Second time is after my first Pride concert in Miami.

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Speaker 1: This was back April fourteenth. I know it's April fourteenth

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Speaker 1: because I actually have a hoodie that says Miami Pride,

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Speaker 1: and I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed after. I didn't

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Speaker 1: So I have a best friend and for the sake

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Speaker 2: How did I have a life before you? I don't know.

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Speaker 1: were very much so like that. We got very close,

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Speaker 2: Anyways. They have a.

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Speaker 1: Job where they work on a cruise ship, and so

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Speaker 1: and there, and then they're back on ship working and

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Speaker 1: so Seria hard dang out. It's very hard to see them.

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Speaker 1: But anyways, they actually came to La for a week

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Speaker 1: and we hung out for a week and it was amazing.

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Speaker 2: They stayed at the house. We had so much fun together.

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Speaker 1: She's literally the best fucking humor of my best friend,

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Speaker 1: Like just having the best time, so many laughs, so

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Speaker 1: many good times. Anyways, the morning came where I had

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Speaker 2: I really was, And I told her, I was like,

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Speaker 1: I was like the tears are coming, Like you got

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Speaker 1: So Special Forces got a lot of tears out of me,

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Speaker 1: Jenna was like, Jojo, you look like a sore, fucking

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