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Speaker 1: By having to what.

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Speaker 2: You're confronting your busy travel schedule, by confronting your ability

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Speaker 2: to have sex in person, sex on the go, sex

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Speaker 2: on the go, sex on the go, sex on the phone.

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Speaker 1: Wow, Happy Friday, y'all. Welcome, Welcome to the edge. I

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Speaker 1: hope you guys had a great Memorial Day weekend. You know,

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Speaker 1: every time we have a Monday holiday, I am so

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Speaker 1: you know, like I keep thinking today is a different day.

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Speaker 1: I'm turning things in late because I'm confused on the day.

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Speaker 1: Does this happen for you?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, well yeah, because I don't. I keep thinking today's

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Speaker 2: actually Thursday, which is even weirder because it should feel

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Speaker 2: like Tuesday. Maybe it's just wishful thinking. I mean today

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Speaker 2: that when you're listening is Friday, but we're recording on Wednesday, right.

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Speaker 1: See. I try to like leave days out right because

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Speaker 1: it gains That's why you're that way. I'm literally looking

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Speaker 1: Sorry, we're just trying to mess with the listener's minds. Okay,

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Speaker 1: So anyway, I saw that.

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Speaker 2: For those of you who are losing your minds, like me.

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Speaker 2: Today is actually Friday.

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Speaker 1: This is Friday morning that you guys are listening to this.

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Speaker 1: But it has been one of those weeks where you

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Speaker 1: So did you do anything for Memorial Day?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I did a lot. So I got invited to

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Speaker 1: I'm unaware of what that means.

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Speaker 2: So Nax's Head is a little island. It's like an

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Speaker 2: So I thought I would be a really shitty son

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Speaker 1: Like he knows me to you never intentionally say anything

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Speaker 1: So confront you must do. I did. I was telling

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Speaker 1: I'm like, well, shit, I don't want to be so

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Speaker 1: out of touch with myself that if it would all

434
00:21:31,240 --> 00:21:35,119
Speaker 1: go away again today, I would be distraught again, you know.

435
00:21:35,280 --> 00:21:37,720
Speaker 1: And so it's just a really fine line. And I

436
00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:39,439
Speaker 1: know you struggle with similar things.

437
00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:44,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, I'm a bit of a workaholic, but

438
00:21:44,200 --> 00:21:45,680
Speaker 2: I you know, it's funny. I feel like I reach

439
00:21:45,760 --> 00:21:49,600
Speaker 2: a point and thankfully in our business, it's not just

440
00:21:49,640 --> 00:21:52,120
Speaker 2: a Monday to Friday. You get Saturday, Sunday off, Monday

441
00:21:52,119 --> 00:21:55,040
Speaker 2: to Friday Saturday. I'm always like, because I've always worked

442
00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:58,200
Speaker 2: in music, I really do take for granted, like our

443
00:21:58,320 --> 00:22:02,320
Speaker 2: Christmas break, you know, like we shut down like school almost,

444
00:22:02,400 --> 00:22:06,560
Speaker 2: you know, like probably the fifteenth of December until whatever

445
00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:10,360
Speaker 2: that first real Monday is in January. The industry closes

446
00:22:10,400 --> 00:22:14,439
Speaker 2: down and it kind of happens like around you know,

447
00:22:14,560 --> 00:22:18,600
Speaker 2: major holidays too, like Memorial Day and Labor Day and

448
00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:21,160
Speaker 2: for July, like you can feel it that whole week

449
00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:23,919
Speaker 2: leading in. People are just like I'm out, And granted,

450
00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:26,440
Speaker 2: there are often worked things that happen like big shows

451
00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:29,119
Speaker 2: or festivals and things like that around some of those dates,

452
00:22:29,119 --> 00:22:32,000
Speaker 2: but we get these like nice breaks and also like

453
00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:34,600
Speaker 2: if your artist that you're working with goes off cycle

454
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:38,240
Speaker 2: and or isn't touring at that moment, like you get

455
00:22:38,280 --> 00:22:41,200
Speaker 2: these breaks. And you know, I'm one of those people

456
00:22:41,240 --> 00:22:43,720
Speaker 2: that goes goes goes. I work best under pressure. I

457
00:22:43,760 --> 00:22:47,320
Speaker 2: love being busy, you know. I think I thrive on

458
00:22:47,359 --> 00:22:49,520
Speaker 2: some of that, which is not necessarily the best because

459
00:22:49,560 --> 00:22:53,119
Speaker 2: it allows me to procrastinate in some ways, and you know,

460
00:22:53,200 --> 00:22:58,080
Speaker 2: I'm terrible about that. So you know, the last couple

461
00:22:58,160 --> 00:23:00,040
Speaker 2: of weeks I have been in a little bit of

462
00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:02,399
Speaker 2: a down period, you know, like my artists aren't on

463
00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:06,840
Speaker 2: the road, they're on vacations themselves, and it's I find

464
00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:09,040
Speaker 2: it really difficult. Something that I struggle with is turning

465
00:23:09,119 --> 00:23:10,800
Speaker 2: that back on. So I feel like I need to

466
00:23:10,800 --> 00:23:15,439
Speaker 2: confront how I balance all of that, And you know,

467
00:23:15,520 --> 00:23:18,280
Speaker 2: maybe it is that I never fully turn off, Like

468
00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:20,000
Speaker 2: maybe I need to figure out how to make it

469
00:23:20,040 --> 00:23:24,479
Speaker 2: feel more like a nine to five job versus just

470
00:23:24,520 --> 00:23:27,359
Speaker 2: allowing it to be a lifestyle all the time that

471
00:23:27,400 --> 00:23:29,200
Speaker 2: I then need to like step away from for two

472
00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:33,400
Speaker 2: weeks and just not even fucking worry about anything. Yeah,

473
00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:38,480
Speaker 2: because what I find is the stress of having to

474
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Speaker 2: turn it back on is worse than just powering through.

475
00:23:45,440 --> 00:23:47,800
Speaker 1: The stress of tournament, like proving.

476
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Speaker 2: Like taking a break, Like I feel worse to break, oh,

477
00:23:51,240 --> 00:23:53,760
Speaker 2: because I'll get to a point where I feel useless,

478
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:56,960
Speaker 2: like I haven't done anything that off like, oh my god,

479
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:58,680
Speaker 2: now there's so much I have to.

480
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Speaker 1: Do, And then you have that anxiety. Yes, I actually

481
00:24:01,680 --> 00:24:04,760
Speaker 1: had that on the flight back from London because I

482
00:24:04,800 --> 00:24:08,320
Speaker 1: had taken a week basically. Granted, I had worked my

483
00:24:08,520 --> 00:24:10,879
Speaker 1: ass off leading up to that week and was coming

484
00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:14,800
Speaker 1: back right back to the craziness, but for yeah, I

485
00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,760
Speaker 1: started getting the anxiety about coming back to the craziness,

486
00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:20,080
Speaker 1: and like you said, when you turn it off, you

487
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:21,959
Speaker 1: kind of it's like a different mode.

488
00:24:22,560 --> 00:24:22,800
Speaker 2: Right.

489
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Speaker 1: I don't know is that healthy? I can't.

490
00:24:25,800 --> 00:24:30,240
Speaker 2: I mean I don't. I don't know that it is. Yeah,

491
00:24:30,280 --> 00:24:32,640
Speaker 2: but I also know that it is healthy to turn

492
00:24:32,680 --> 00:24:35,840
Speaker 2: it off sometime, and absolutely I did. And what I

493
00:24:35,960 --> 00:24:38,080
Speaker 2: know for me, all I can really speak for is

494
00:24:38,119 --> 00:24:42,080
Speaker 2: my experience, Like if I do not do that and

495
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:45,240
Speaker 2: then I never turned off, and that is definitely not healthy,

496
00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:48,920
Speaker 2: you know, because this job is a lifestyle. I mean,

497
00:24:49,359 --> 00:24:53,520
Speaker 2: this industry is a lifestyle. It's like constantly something that

498
00:24:53,560 --> 00:24:57,840
Speaker 2: we can be doing, right, and whether it's that's what

499
00:24:57,840 --> 00:25:02,040
Speaker 2: I'm saying there entertainment or you truly work, but.

500
00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:04,880
Speaker 1: There is so much a bill, there's an easy ability,

501
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:06,840
Speaker 1: and I think this goes for every industry of just

502
00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:10,560
Speaker 1: like defining yourself by your success in that industry.

503
00:25:10,880 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 2: Right.

504
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:12,439
Speaker 1: I was talking with a friend the other day and

505
00:25:12,440 --> 00:25:14,440
Speaker 1: he was telling me, he was like, I just love

506
00:25:14,520 --> 00:25:19,400
Speaker 1: Italy so much because like here everyone goes to work

507
00:25:19,400 --> 00:25:22,800
Speaker 1: and like that is who they are, like what they do.

508
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:25,639
Speaker 1: And he's like, there, everyone has a job because you

509
00:25:25,640 --> 00:25:27,760
Speaker 1: have to pay your bills, but like you just go

510
00:25:27,880 --> 00:25:31,080
Speaker 1: to your job and then like you have your life,

511
00:25:31,240 --> 00:25:33,320
Speaker 1: you know, and that's who you are. Like what your

512
00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:36,600
Speaker 1: life is is who you are, right And I don't know,

513
00:25:36,680 --> 00:25:39,000
Speaker 1: I don't know exactly like how to do it yet

514
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:41,480
Speaker 1: in my life, but I do feel like COVID and

515
00:25:41,480 --> 00:25:44,600
Speaker 1: then like things going away and then coming back slowly

516
00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:47,359
Speaker 1: and all the things they're they're definitely putting it into

517
00:25:47,480 --> 00:25:51,480
Speaker 1: my like consciousness. Okay, there is a different way to

518
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:56,199
Speaker 1: live than just defining myself by who I'm dressing or

519
00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:58,480
Speaker 1: who I'm putting makeup on or you know, where I'm

520
00:25:58,480 --> 00:26:00,479
Speaker 1: getting to go and all these things. Those things are

521
00:26:00,480 --> 00:26:03,480
Speaker 1: exciting and fun and I love my job, but it's

522
00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:06,320
Speaker 1: not who I am and I know that now.

523
00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:09,199
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like you have to confront life, you know.

524
00:26:09,359 --> 00:26:12,399
Speaker 2: It's Yeah. I saw me the other day that said

525
00:26:13,040 --> 00:26:15,600
Speaker 2: people in Europe, hey, I'm going to take three months

526
00:26:15,640 --> 00:26:18,199
Speaker 2: off of the summer because I like Nita Tan And

527
00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,200
Speaker 2: then it was like people in America, I'm going to

528
00:26:20,320 --> 00:26:22,960
Speaker 2: use my three PTO days to get open heart surgery.

529
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Speaker 1: I was just like, it's so that man's so funny,

530
00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:30,240
Speaker 1: but it's not, like I mean we can laugh about it,

531
00:26:30,280 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 1: but it's actually really sad.

532
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:35,359
Speaker 2: But I mean really sad, Like you know what European

533
00:26:35,400 --> 00:26:39,080
Speaker 2: countries don't like companies and countries like they don't fold

534
00:26:39,119 --> 00:26:42,480
Speaker 2: in the summer because people actually take time off. They

535
00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:46,199
Speaker 2: have figured out how to maintain their businesses. And I

536
00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:49,200
Speaker 2: just don't understand why it has to be so different

537
00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:49,920
Speaker 2: for us.

538
00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:53,040
Speaker 1: I think we're getting a I don't know, you know,

539
00:26:53,040 --> 00:26:56,080
Speaker 1: there's a four day work week conversation happening, and right

540
00:26:56,160 --> 00:26:56,560
Speaker 1: I don't know.

541
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Speaker 2: The post COVID, Like, you know, it seems like every

542
00:27:01,760 --> 00:27:05,280
Speaker 2: company is like giving everyone now like unlimited time off.

543
00:27:05,320 --> 00:27:06,679
Speaker 2: But I feel like most of the people that I

544
00:27:06,720 --> 00:27:09,400
Speaker 2: know that have unlimited time off are too stressed out

545
00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 2: to take the time off.

546
00:27:10,400 --> 00:27:12,040
Speaker 1: Of course that's how it always works.

547
00:27:12,160 --> 00:27:16,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like this fake like thing that they dangle

548
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:16,600
Speaker 2: in front of you.

549
00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:20,160
Speaker 1: Yeah. Well, those things might be things that come up

550
00:27:20,720 --> 00:27:22,959
Speaker 1: when the universe is like, hey, y'all got to confront

551
00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:25,960
Speaker 1: this shit. I don't know that that'll be up next

552
00:27:26,080 --> 00:27:29,000
Speaker 1: week on the podcast with Marv, just talking about some

553
00:27:29,080 --> 00:27:31,159
Speaker 1: of the different things that are coming up that way.

554
00:27:31,520 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 1: But I do think this is an interesting topic just

555
00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:36,360
Speaker 1: to think about and we'll cover a lot of different

556
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:40,000
Speaker 1: ways to look at this, even maybe what confrontation can

557
00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:43,120
Speaker 1: look like in relationships and things like that. We've talked

558
00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:45,280
Speaker 1: about it a little different, you know, a couple different

559
00:27:45,280 --> 00:27:48,639
Speaker 1: angles we can look at this word, but similar to

560
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:51,119
Speaker 1: what we just did, maybe like a fun thing at

561
00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:52,800
Speaker 1: the beginning of the month for everyone to be to

562
00:27:53,480 --> 00:27:56,040
Speaker 1: actually think, like, what are the things? Like you said, Chip,

563
00:27:56,080 --> 00:27:59,439
Speaker 1: I do think everyone knows, like we know, we just

564
00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:02,399
Speaker 1: don't want to face it most of the time, and

565
00:28:02,480 --> 00:28:05,080
Speaker 1: so maybe this is the month to kind of challenge

566
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:07,480
Speaker 1: yourself to be a little brave and even if you're

567
00:28:07,520 --> 00:28:09,639
Speaker 1: tired or don't want to, like, it's only going to

568
00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:12,360
Speaker 1: be better on the other side if you can look

569
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:13,919
Speaker 1: at it or even just start to look at it.

570
00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:16,120
Speaker 1: Sometimes when I'm like all right and I get open

571
00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:19,040
Speaker 1: to bring things into my awareness, it just happens. I

572
00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:21,840
Speaker 1: don't have to like force it. I don't have to

573
00:28:21,880 --> 00:28:24,200
Speaker 1: force myself to change or do all this hard work.

574
00:28:24,240 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 1: Like it just naturally is like I'm gonna do something different,

575
00:28:26,960 --> 00:28:28,639
Speaker 1: you know, you just make different decisions.

576
00:28:29,960 --> 00:28:32,720
Speaker 2: But you know it's like I think forcing ourselves to

577
00:28:32,800 --> 00:28:36,480
Speaker 2: change shouldn't be a bad word either, because sometimes we

578
00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:39,840
Speaker 2: just need to actively remind ourselves, like to continue to

579
00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:44,200
Speaker 2: grow or to do something different, like even even in choosing.

580
00:28:44,280 --> 00:28:46,320
Speaker 2: Like Mark and I, we go to the same fucking

581
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:50,040
Speaker 2: restaurants all the time, which we love, and when it's like, hey,

582
00:28:50,040 --> 00:28:51,640
Speaker 2: where do you want to get dinner tonight, it's like boom,

583
00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:53,680
Speaker 2: boom boom. We like list five the five things, and

584
00:28:53,720 --> 00:28:57,080
Speaker 2: I'm like, let's do something different tonight and get wild

585
00:28:57,480 --> 00:29:01,120
Speaker 2: or change what you order at those places. Yeah, I'm

586
00:29:01,160 --> 00:29:03,360
Speaker 2: getting crazy tonight. I'm ordering a burrito.

587
00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:11,880
Speaker 1: Okay, wow, oh wow.

588
00:29:12,320 --> 00:29:16,520
Speaker 2: Unfortunately, Wow, this turned.

589
00:29:18,480 --> 00:29:21,840
Speaker 1: All right. I was going to read the confront that

590
00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:25,400
Speaker 1: confront your gas issues. I'm going to read the definition

591
00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:29,160
Speaker 1: of confront. It says what does confront mean? This is

592
00:29:29,160 --> 00:29:32,960
Speaker 1: from Miriam Webster. To face, especially in a challenge to oppose,

593
00:29:33,040 --> 00:29:36,240
Speaker 1: to confront an enemy. The mayror was confronted by a

594
00:29:36,240 --> 00:29:38,960
Speaker 1: group of protesters. It can also meet, to cause to

595
00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:41,960
Speaker 1: It can also mean to cause to meet or bring

596
00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:46,040
Speaker 1: face to face. So mostly we're looking at it in

597
00:29:46,080 --> 00:29:49,440
Speaker 1: this conversation about confronting things in our own life, and

598
00:29:49,520 --> 00:29:51,880
Speaker 1: so to me, that's like a face to face with

599
00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:54,320
Speaker 1: you and you you know, like looking at the mirror

600
00:29:54,440 --> 00:29:57,640
Speaker 1: kind of shit. But I'll be interested. I know there's

601
00:29:57,680 --> 00:30:00,440
Speaker 1: a big full moon this weekend, this said to Terry's

602
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 1: full moon is coming up actually tomorrow, and that is

603
00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:08,680
Speaker 1: supposed to be this big reveal of like secrets or

604
00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:11,760
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh great, here we go, Like who knows.

605
00:30:12,000 --> 00:30:14,200
Speaker 1: I just feel like it's like buckle up. Is the

606
00:30:14,240 --> 00:30:18,520
Speaker 1: mentality always right now and kind of just get along

607
00:30:18,600 --> 00:30:22,320
Speaker 1: for the ride, get on board for the ride, and not.

608
00:30:22,760 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just really have realized over the

609
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 1: last couple of years how out of control we actually are,

610
00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,040
Speaker 1: and so let go and let god man.

611
00:30:30,400 --> 00:30:32,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, isn't that the beauty in life is

612
00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:36,520
Speaker 2: sometimes when you do try to have less control that

613
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:37,960
Speaker 2: I'll come is so much better.

614
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:39,960
Speaker 1: Well, it's always better.

615
00:30:40,240 --> 00:30:41,400
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah.

616
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Speaker 1: The only times my life has truly've fallen apart is

617
00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:48,280
Speaker 1: when I just could not detach from trying, like trying

618
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:52,160
Speaker 1: one more thing, trying one more angle, having one more

619
00:30:52,200 --> 00:30:56,800
Speaker 1: conversation instead of just like accepting where things were, accepting

620
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:59,080
Speaker 1: people as they were. You know, it's just all of

621
00:30:59,120 --> 00:31:03,560
Speaker 1: those things. Trying to be in control. Driving the bus

622
00:31:03,600 --> 00:31:05,360
Speaker 1: never works for me personally.

623
00:31:05,760 --> 00:31:07,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, but what do you think that comes from is

624
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:11,840
Speaker 2: that from a position of like thinking that if you

625
00:31:11,920 --> 00:31:14,880
Speaker 2: don't try, that you have failed or you have lost course.

626
00:31:15,160 --> 00:31:18,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I mean there's so much. Wow, you just

627
00:31:18,440 --> 00:31:20,520
Speaker 1: really are psychoanalysis.

628
00:31:21,080 --> 00:31:23,360
Speaker 2: Sorry, we're now we're on the velvet.

629
00:31:23,680 --> 00:31:25,680
Speaker 1: We're on the velvet tyde of things, and this is

630
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:30,160
Speaker 1: my therapy session. You guys are answering into. No. I

631
00:31:30,280 --> 00:31:33,200
Speaker 1: definitely think that I talked about this a couple of

632
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:35,080
Speaker 1: weeks ago on a podcast. Like, I'm a very driven

633
00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:38,080
Speaker 1: person and I always have been. And the way that

634
00:31:38,120 --> 00:31:41,120
Speaker 1: my life worked until I was an adult was that

635
00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:43,440
Speaker 1: I would just be able to work hard enough to

636
00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:47,360
Speaker 1: achieve the things that I wanted and then that was

637
00:31:47,480 --> 00:31:51,320
Speaker 1: a great survival skill as a child and you know,

638
00:31:51,480 --> 00:31:54,280
Speaker 1: in my teen years and whatever. But as an adult,

639
00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:57,200
Speaker 1: it really has wreaked havoc in some of my relationships.

640
00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:01,240
Speaker 1: And it wasn't until the last couple of years, when

641
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 1: like I was going through those fertility issues, the pandemic happened.

642
00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:10,480
Speaker 1: Things that I just genuinely could not control or change

643
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:14,360
Speaker 1: or work hard enough to like make a difference than

644
00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:16,600
Speaker 1: they were. It just like all hit like a ton

645
00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:19,600
Speaker 1: of bricks all at the same time, and I was

646
00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:21,920
Speaker 1: just reminded over and over in so many different areas

647
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:25,440
Speaker 1: in my life, like can't change people, You can't control people,

648
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:28,360
Speaker 1: you can't change the way things happen. Like it's already

649
00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:31,880
Speaker 1: mapped out, you know, but now I feel like I'm

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Speaker 1: in this place of like and the universe has such

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Speaker 1: a better map than I ever do. So it's just

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Speaker 1: like showing up every day and enjoying the good while

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Speaker 1: it's here, and then knowing that life is going to

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Speaker 1: happen on life's terms, and so having tools for the

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Speaker 1: hard times too. Yeah, and that concludes my ted talk.

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Speaker 2: So this will be up on YouTube too.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Anyway, is there anything else, Chip that you really

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Speaker 1: feel like you want to focus on confronting in your

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Speaker 1: own life this month? And we'll circle back to you

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Speaker 1: at the end of the month, so the listeners and

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Speaker 1: now I will be holding you accountable.

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Speaker 2: Oh gosh, well, I mean, if we're being honest, Oh boy,

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Speaker 2: I do feel like I've sort of like let my

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Speaker 2: diet and fitness journey go. Okay, since you know, getting

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Speaker 2: into a relationship, it does it takes up a lot

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Speaker 2: of time, yeah, to because you're devoting time to another person,

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Speaker 2: and you know, it's a lot easier to be distracted by,

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Speaker 2: like hey, let's go get dinner instead of doing other things.

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Speaker 2: And these are all excuses. I can certainly find time

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Speaker 2: for myself and I can find time to refocus what

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Speaker 2: I'm putting into my body. So that's something that I

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Speaker 2: need to confront, you know, summer bod. You know, I

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Speaker 2: don't think I'm going to get there by you know,

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Speaker 2: the end of the month, but I can start. And

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Speaker 2: that's that is my goal to confronting.

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Speaker 1: The good is now, is you actually know how to

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Speaker 1: do it? Because when you went on that really intense

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Speaker 1: diet or whatever it was called a couple Was that

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Speaker 1: a year ago?

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Speaker 2: It was a little over a year ago. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: I Mean.

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Speaker 2: That's the thing that I beat myself up about is that,

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Speaker 2: like I know how to do it, I know how

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Speaker 2: to avoid gaining weight. I just get lazy. And so

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Speaker 2: that's really what I need to confront is like why

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Speaker 2: why do I let myself down in that way? Like

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Speaker 2: you know, when you read, like when people all these

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Speaker 2: inspirational people that you see on fucking Instagram, it's like

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Speaker 2: you you view.

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Speaker 1: It's like all these fucking inspiration people, but.

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Speaker 2: It's like true, like you only get one body. You know,

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Speaker 2: it's literally the thing that we should probably care the

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Speaker 2: most about our minds and our bodies, because you only

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Speaker 2: get one of those, and and I need to start

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Speaker 2: respecting it more, especially because I ain't getting any younger.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I think it's like what I hear

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Speaker 1: so much of is it is something I see on

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Speaker 1: a lot of discipline. I mean a lot of Instagram

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Speaker 1: like inspirational things that they talk about discipline being kind. Actually,

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Speaker 1: like we get so flighty and like kind of out

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Speaker 1: of touch with ourselves and I have to really like

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Speaker 1: focus on this one for meditation and things like that,

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Speaker 1: Like having the discipline to do certain routines makes me

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Speaker 1: better every time. But I get so like I'll do

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Speaker 1: it so for so long and I'm so great, and

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Speaker 1: then when life gets good is when I want to

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Speaker 1: be like, Okay, yes, but it's like the reason life

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Speaker 1: got good is because you were doing that, So like

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Speaker 1: why would you stop the things that make it good.

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Speaker 1: I don't know why we do what we do, but

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Speaker 1: I think that's a very human thing, So there you go.

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Speaker 1: It's just it's also like ebbs and flows, Like you said,

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Speaker 1: I don't there's no point in shaming ourselves, you know,

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Speaker 1: gets a snowhere.

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Speaker 2: No, I think it's about recognizing and confronting issue and yeah.

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Speaker 1: What you need to do. Well, there you go. Okay,

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Speaker 1: Well I'm happy for you on that journey. All right, Well,

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Speaker 1: you guys can always hit us up on the edge

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Speaker 1: at Velvet sedge dot com on Insta. I am at Velvet.

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Speaker 2: Edge Chip, I'm at doorsh's c H. I P d

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Speaker 2: O R S c H.

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Speaker 1: And as you guys go into the weekend, since this

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Speaker 1: is Friday, I hope that you mess this up. I

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Speaker 1: hope that you're living on the edge, and I hope

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Speaker 1: that you always remember too A casual Do you even

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Speaker 1: think that people even know what that means anymore?

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Speaker 2: And for those who are new listeners, we used to

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Speaker 2: be called that casual, but.

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Speaker 1: We changed, we confronted that and we changed front it. Anyway,

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Speaker 1: Bye bye,