WEBVTT - Let's Get Real with Selma Blair and Amanda Kloots

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<v Speaker 1>This is Let's be clear with Shannon Doherty.

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<v Speaker 2>Hello, let's be clear listeners. My name is Samuel Blair,

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<v Speaker 2>and you may recognize me maybe from Cruel Intentions or

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<v Speaker 2>Legally Blonde, Hellboy, or actually a TV series called Zoe Duncan,

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<v Speaker 2>Jack and Jane that I was on on the WB

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<v Speaker 2>with Shannon Doherty. Is my WB network mate who is

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<v Speaker 2>on Charmed at the time. But I am honored, honored,

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<v Speaker 2>honored to be hosting this episode of Shannon Doherty's podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>Not only did she leave us, of course, with an

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<v Speaker 2>incredible body of work and lifelong memories, she is an

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<v Speaker 2>integral part of my childhood and formation of vulnerability and

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<v Speaker 2>showing up. And I only knew Shannon peripherally and on

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<v Speaker 2>the edges of the inside and outside of a reef

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<v Speaker 2>and care, but she made a big impression on me.

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<v Speaker 3>And I can't believe that we are in a world

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<v Speaker 3>that Shannon Doherty is not physically here on She was

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<v Speaker 3>such a such a part of everything for the listeners

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<v Speaker 3>here of course, our fans, and and even for me.

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<v Speaker 3>So there is something that she really connected us all too.

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<v Speaker 3>And so I'm so honored also to have the wonderful

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<v Speaker 3>Amanda Clutes on today, whom I love very much and

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<v Speaker 3>and I want to welcome Ms Amanda, who is also

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<v Speaker 3>a hero and is nominated for an Emmy as co

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<v Speaker 3>host of The Talk on CBS, and also of course

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<v Speaker 3>a Broadway star and beauty in my in my knowledge

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<v Speaker 3>of everything about you, you are a star and a

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<v Speaker 3>beauty and a healthy living advocate with your online also

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<v Speaker 3>so of wellness products.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes yet called proper health at Target, which is so

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<v Speaker 2>exciting to me that you are so so such a

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<v Speaker 2>star in this space. Because of course, Miss Amanda, we

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<v Speaker 2>met you know when you were so front and center

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<v Speaker 2>as like the world's cheerleader in the beginning of COVID,

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<v Speaker 2>when you know, real tragedy struck your life. But and

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<v Speaker 2>that was so formative for me of how to behave

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<v Speaker 2>in a crisis as an option for how to be

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<v Speaker 2>your best self in kind of the most trying, challenging,

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<v Speaker 2>heartbreaking times in my opinion. But hello, and welcome to

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<v Speaker 2>the show. Let's be clear, miss Amanda, how are you

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<v Speaker 2>doing today? Good morning from California. We're both right here

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<v Speaker 2>in California, aren't we.

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<v Speaker 4>I know we're only like ten minutes away from each

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<v Speaker 4>You forgot to mention Dancing with.

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<v Speaker 1>The Stars kid.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, no, see there's too much thank you.

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<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, not for me, for you when you

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<v Speaker 4>were saying your introduction.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, right, well, I've been around like so many years.

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<v Speaker 2>I could either pad this resume or just make it short,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because I've kind of touched on you know

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<v Speaker 2>so much in this life. But yes, you know what's

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<v Speaker 2>so amazing is, of course you are an incredible dancer

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<v Speaker 2>and performer, and you are a huge reason why I

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<v Speaker 2>actually did something like Dancing with the Stars, and of

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<v Speaker 2>course Shannon, she also danced, and Shannon was you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I remember when Shannon was feeling so so ill when

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<v Speaker 2>she was going through treatment, and I'd still watch videos

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<v Speaker 2>of her on Instagram where she is, you know, heading

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<v Speaker 2>to dance class after a chemo and sweating it out

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<v Speaker 2>and wanting to really feel alive and in her body

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<v Speaker 2>and feel that joy. And I was like, whoa, I

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<v Speaker 2>can't even do jumping Jacks. I can't believe that she's

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<v Speaker 2>showing up for this, And that was really inspiring to me.

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<v Speaker 2>And then you, of course, just seeing you move and

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<v Speaker 2>the joy you had and talking to you, and you

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<v Speaker 2>were actually a huge reason, both of you why I

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<v Speaker 2>did something so out of my comfort zone of dancing

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<v Speaker 2>with the stars. And I was so grateful I did

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<v Speaker 2>because it was such a wonderful example of showing up,

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<v Speaker 2>like just showing up and having people help me and

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<v Speaker 2>just show up and put in the work. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 2>it really changed my perspective on how I relate to

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<v Speaker 2>other people, how I relate to fans, dancing fans, people

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<v Speaker 2>going through things like it was such an important part

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<v Speaker 2>of my you know, growing up.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my God, and Selma, what you did on that show.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean the dances you were able to do, and

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<v Speaker 4>your grace and everything that you showed the world. I mean,

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<v Speaker 4>it was just amazing. You were amazing on that show.

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<v Speaker 2>I learned it from watching you, Miss Amanda. That means

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<v Speaker 2>so much, because really, as anyone knows, when you do

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<v Speaker 2>something that's really kind of uncomfortable for you. Although I

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<v Speaker 2>always wanted to dance, I don't, you know, I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not a dancer, and so to even do ballroom

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<v Speaker 2>dances and you know, I was still just still recovering,

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<v Speaker 2>but god, it really moved the needle for me. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>it gave me a lot of stamina and showed me

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<v Speaker 2>that I could get through a day and I could

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<v Speaker 2>get through hard things again, because I think when you're

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<v Speaker 2>so traumatized or maybe not feeling well, you just don't

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<v Speaker 2>know how to expand, yeah, or.

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<v Speaker 1>Even get up and move.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, how to get up and move?

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<v Speaker 2>How to expand? I am someone that if I'm left

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<v Speaker 2>to my own devices in grief or staleness or you know,

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<v Speaker 2>when I'm when I'm in a rut, I do like

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<v Speaker 2>to be alone and ruminated on on it for a

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<v Speaker 2>bit and come up with like my plan for getting

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<v Speaker 2>through the day or week. But to do a show

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<v Speaker 2>like that, I found it actually was was amazing. I

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<v Speaker 2>hadn't been on a set for a long time period

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<v Speaker 2>because I had been you know, unwell and able to

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<v Speaker 2>work for so many years, and I forgot how much

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<v Speaker 2>that camaraderie, how much we need And of course we

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<v Speaker 2>were in you know, this really kind of a very

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<v Speaker 2>hard time with people being shut in years ago that

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<v Speaker 2>we all want to forget about of you know, COVID

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<v Speaker 2>times and get getting into a new you know, vibe

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<v Speaker 2>of life and doing a show is is what we do,

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<v Speaker 2>Like it is the best thing for me. It's like, yes,

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<v Speaker 2>I can do that. Someone can tell me to show

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<v Speaker 2>up time no matter what my grief level is, and

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<v Speaker 2>I will do that. You know, I will show up.

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<v Speaker 2>I will learn a dance, I will do something. And

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<v Speaker 2>when someone puts music on and cares for you and

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<v Speaker 2>holds you to learn dances, it is the most vulnerable

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<v Speaker 2>and inspiring and caring kind of camaraderie you can have.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think really therapeutic?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean it was.

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<v Speaker 4>That whole experience was so healing for me and so therapeutic,

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<v Speaker 4>and it was not what I expected that to be.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, I expected to love ballroom dancing. I expected

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<v Speaker 4>to learn how to ballroom dance.

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<v Speaker 1>I couldn't wait for that.

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<v Speaker 4>But the whole healing and therapy for me and that

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<v Speaker 4>show was a whole different ballgame. So so grateful for that,

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<v Speaker 4>And I'm so glad you had that experience too, because

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<v Speaker 4>thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>I loved it so for our listeners at home. Obviously

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<v Speaker 2>you were going through huge grief and had you already

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<v Speaker 2>written your book at that time. No, it was still early.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yes, no, the book was out.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah not okay, So the book was out and you

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<v Speaker 2>were on Dancing with the Stars, and then right from

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<v Speaker 2>Dancing with the Stars, you went straight to working as

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<v Speaker 2>like a host, do you Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I was already doing that as well.

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<v Speaker 2>And oh you are already doing it?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, God, I know.

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<v Speaker 2>And you had your son Elvis, and you had so

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<v Speaker 2>much now as a single mom who was obviously and

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<v Speaker 2>you know a lot of huge life change and honoring

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<v Speaker 2>your love and marriage and moving on with your career.

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<v Speaker 2>And where are you now, like from that time and now?

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<v Speaker 2>Also for people who are going through huge grief of

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<v Speaker 2>life change or upset or you know, taking care of

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<v Speaker 2>beloved children, anything where you have to show up to

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<v Speaker 2>kind of be your best self when you might feel like,

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<v Speaker 2>how do I do this?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>You know in a couple however you go through it.

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<v Speaker 2>How what was the real catalyst of being able to go, Wow,

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<v Speaker 2>this grief, this grief is okay? Living in me, I

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<v Speaker 2>mean you always felt like that even from the start

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<v Speaker 2>for me almost you were very like into your body

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<v Speaker 2>about what was happening.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, every day.

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<v Speaker 2>But to be where you are now with so much

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<v Speaker 2>going on in the wellness space and so many people

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<v Speaker 2>looking up to you and being such a light for

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<v Speaker 2>so many people, and mom and an incredible mom and

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<v Speaker 2>a sister and all these things. How are you today?

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<v Speaker 4>Gosh, you know, it's so interesting, Selma, because it's like

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<v Speaker 4>I think in the beginning, I was keeping myself so

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<v Speaker 4>busy and not even on purpose. It's just like, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>how this goes, like opportunity comes and and were the

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<v Speaker 4>type of people that yes, yes, yes, and how much

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<v Speaker 4>more can I put on my plate? And I think

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<v Speaker 4>it was a good defense mechanism in the beginning of

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<v Speaker 4>not running away from my grief because I always confronted it.

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<v Speaker 5>You lived it, You lived your grief.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, I lived it. I was aware of it. I

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<v Speaker 4>you know, writing about it helped so much. Talking about

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<v Speaker 4>it so much helps me. But I really kind of feel,

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<v Speaker 4>honestly like it did take a good like two to

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<v Speaker 4>three years for it to sort of sink in. And

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not even going to joke around. I'm going on

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<v Speaker 4>July will be five years that Nick will be gone,

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<v Speaker 4>which is crazy to me. And this past January February

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<v Speaker 4>was some of my hardest grief months that I've ever experienced.

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<v Speaker 1>That's like four and a half years into grief.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you feel really alone then, like everything kind of

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<v Speaker 2>you know, stabilized in your life and you're like the grief,

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<v Speaker 2>Nick is not here.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know it was, it was.

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<v Speaker 2>It just hurt.

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<v Speaker 4>It hurt like the beginning of days. It hurts so

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<v Speaker 4>bad that I was on my kitchen floor screaming and

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<v Speaker 4>crying to Nick. One day. I was like, I couldn't.

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't get out of it. And I will say

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<v Speaker 4>one of the things I have become really good at

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<v Speaker 4>is that when I'm at a low like that, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>immediately like, Okay, what am I doing to help myself?

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<v Speaker 4>Get back into therapy? Let's do some reiki, Let's do

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<v Speaker 4>some energy work, Let's do some meditating.

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<v Speaker 6>Let's so hard when you don't want, like when you're

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<v Speaker 6>in grief, it's so hard to get out of the ball,

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<v Speaker 6>like it's I have. I only have a few good friends,

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<v Speaker 6>like in this life as seriously, so many of my friends.

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<v Speaker 6>I realized last night and had had some grief too,

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<v Speaker 6>because I realized all my closest friends have passed, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>like really every every one of my closest friends, including

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<v Speaker 6>you know, my childhood boyfriend or whatever, They've all.

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<v Speaker 2>Died, and and I actually felt bad for myself last night.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh my god, there's been some. No,

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<v Speaker 2>it has not been, thank God, the biggest grief that

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<v Speaker 2>I feel I couldn't endure, like you know, something God

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<v Speaker 2>forbid happening to my child. The things that I feel like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know what I would do if that happened.

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<v Speaker 2>You just don't. You just can't fathom that pain. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't like to touch that, but it is there is

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<v Speaker 2>as we go through life, even just the regular process

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<v Speaker 2>of life, not even huge tragedies. You know, if you're

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<v Speaker 2>lucky to have friends and go on in time, they

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<v Speaker 2>die before you do, you know, And I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>It was just and I just thought of you, and

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<v Speaker 2>I thought, oh my god, how you could show up

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<v Speaker 2>for your son and be able to be in the

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<v Speaker 2>ball on the ground or be able to you know,

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<v Speaker 2>just have those days where like this hurts. I'm uncomfortable.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable. And how to you know, do

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<v Speaker 2>you express that to your son? Because I think there's

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<v Speaker 2>like my son doesn't seem to be affected by my

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<v Speaker 2>moods yours. It seems so sensitive and so in touch

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<v Speaker 2>with you, you know. Of course he I.

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<v Speaker 4>Always said he was an old soul. I'll never forget friend.

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<v Speaker 4>The day that Nick passed away. I got home from

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<v Speaker 4>the hospital around like ten thirty in the morning and

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<v Speaker 4>my girlfriend was watching Elvis and I walked in the door.

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<v Speaker 4>She gave me a big hug. I grabbed Ovis and

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<v Speaker 4>I took him into the bedroom I was sleeping in

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<v Speaker 4>at the time, and I laid down with him. He

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<v Speaker 4>was one, and I looked at him and I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>it's you and me, kid, And I swear to God,

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<v Speaker 4>this little baby at one years old looked at me,

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<v Speaker 4>and the lookie gave me was like I got it.

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<v Speaker 1>I got it. It's you and me, and we.

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<v Speaker 2>Surely remember that, Like I really remember this whole time.

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<v Speaker 2>And I held you. We all held you, but I

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<v Speaker 2>held I personally love you, I just love you and

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<v Speaker 2>know you. But I I just it touched it touched.

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<v Speaker 2>It touched me so much and still does. How you

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<v Speaker 2>are such an incredible mom with your with your love

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<v Speaker 2>and your sharing of just.

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<v Speaker 5>The saved me.

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<v Speaker 1>Elvis saved me.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean that, you know, I was lucky in a

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<v Speaker 4>way that he was only one because I didn't have

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<v Speaker 4>to I got to grieve on my own time. I

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<v Speaker 4>didn't have to watch him grieve as well. You know,

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<v Speaker 4>and and I still really haven't.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. It's like I don't know when his grief

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<v Speaker 1>will kick in, because he.

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<v Speaker 2>Still is Daddy to bed on the pictures, like, does

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<v Speaker 2>that still is? It?

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<v Speaker 1>Still does? He does?

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<v Speaker 4>And he talks very like because I've always been very

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<v Speaker 4>candid with him and honest. You know, he'll say to

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<v Speaker 4>his friends, my dad died. My dad had holds in

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<v Speaker 4>his lungs and he died. And he just says it

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<v Speaker 4>very like frankly and so like it hasn't hit him yet.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think, and I don't know when it will,

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<v Speaker 1>because grief is is love that we can't express any longer.

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<v Speaker 2>You and your family have given him so much love

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<v Speaker 2>and all the you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>Allergy is telling you my allergies are?

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<v Speaker 5>You know what?

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<v Speaker 2>I lie sometimes and tell people I have allergies. If

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like my eyes haven't like woken up for

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<v Speaker 2>the day, I don't have allergies. I don't allergies. Sometimes

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<v Speaker 2>if I'm too tired, I'm like, oh, my allergies. Does

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<v Speaker 2>anyone have a clarison, because I'm like, I got to

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<v Speaker 2>wake up. I don't think I've ever had allergies.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, are killing me right now.

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<v Speaker 2>Sorry, miss Amanda. That's a thing in your wellness products

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<v Speaker 2>to help with those allergies.

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<v Speaker 7>I wish they did.

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<v Speaker 1>No I have.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna take my greens though, in my immunity because

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<v Speaker 4>that's always helpful.

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<v Speaker 2>If there's one thing for someone that does not eat,

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<v Speaker 2>like eat correctly yet in the morning. I'm really learning

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<v Speaker 2>these things. What's one thing you'd tell me I should

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<v Speaker 2>absolutely have in the morning to start my day, because

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<v Speaker 2>I am that person that has black coffee and water

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<v Speaker 2>and you know, a Vitamin D a week.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I would say I do.

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<v Speaker 5>That's not true.

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<v Speaker 2>I do have my special things, but I want to

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<v Speaker 2>hear your special Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I do a couple of things.

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<v Speaker 4>But my first thing is is I blend lembon and

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<v Speaker 4>ginger and olive oil, and sometimes I put a cucumber

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<v Speaker 4>in there and I drink.

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<v Speaker 2>That before you go to the bathroom and throw up.

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<v Speaker 1>No, it tastes really good.

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<v Speaker 4>Then I have my immunity from Proper to get all

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<v Speaker 4>my guidamin seed. Then I have my coffee, and I

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<v Speaker 4>have my greens from Proper, and then I pee for

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<v Speaker 4>like five hours straight. And I'm so annoyed by all

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<v Speaker 4>the liquids I've drink because I just keep going to

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<v Speaker 4>the bathroom.

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<v Speaker 2>If I have your proper greens, if I have that

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<v Speaker 2>on an empty stomach, if I don't do this smoothie

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<v Speaker 2>with the olive oil, yeah, I like an eleven. Sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>then but I can still have those greens and they'd

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<v Speaker 2>still be good to me because I'm really looking for

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<v Speaker 2>a quick way to get in a little.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh no, they're really good and they don't taste greeny.

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<v Speaker 4>They taste like a bright green apple. It's really refreshing.

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<v Speaker 2>Actually, oh really, did you come up with flavor? Like

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<v Speaker 2>all you were like, I need I need this.

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<v Speaker 4>To taste We were very very adamant about it tasting

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<v Speaker 4>good and it not costing a million dollars because I

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<v Speaker 4>wanted it to be accessible, affordable and taste really good.

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<v Speaker 4>Because I really was like, I I look at this

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<v Speaker 4>as like a product that I want my mom and

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<v Speaker 4>dad to drink. My mom and dad are not the

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<v Speaker 4>healthiest eaters. My dad has orioles for breakfast. Yeah seriously,

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<v Speaker 4>And the fact that my dad drinks my greens powder.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like, I did it. I did right, I did it.

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<v Speaker 5>You did right?

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<v Speaker 2>I know, like you're like, if I've done anything right

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<v Speaker 2>in my life, I finally by doing this product, I've

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<v Speaker 2>gotten Dad to have.

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<v Speaker 4>He drinks it and he's like, this is actually good,

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<v Speaker 4>and I'm like, I know, Dad.

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<v Speaker 5>I am really proud of you.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, it so makes sense you it's You're the

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<v Speaker 2>perfect person for this. How many products do you have,

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<v Speaker 2>because I'm just starting doing collaborations now that I'm you know,

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<v Speaker 2>feeling so much better and I'm back in the workspace.

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<v Speaker 2>How many products do you have?

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<v Speaker 4>Improper We have five different super food powders, and then

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<v Speaker 4>now we have like the sticks of them so that

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<v Speaker 4>you could travel easily. Yeah, and then we have two

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<v Speaker 4>more coming out very soon, and then we've got It's

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<v Speaker 4>so exciting. It's so fun because you know, I love wellness.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank God, there's someone out there that does to help me.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, my thing is we have one body.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, you know this, Yeah, that's exactly I joke

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<v Speaker 2>because that's always kind of been my stick. But it

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<v Speaker 2>is the most important thing now, I mean, this is

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<v Speaker 2>this is this is all we have. And now even

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<v Speaker 2>from Dancing with the Stars, you know, and seeing how

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<v Speaker 2>Shannon would dance and you dance, and all these I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not dancing in I saw I saw Sasha the other

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<v Speaker 2>day and now that you know his girl's out of

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<v Speaker 2>town for a while, he's like, you want to learn

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<v Speaker 2>to dance, you know, and I watch them and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>like yeah, and I'm like, I'm going to get in

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<v Speaker 2>such good shape again. You know. It's like, why don't

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<v Speaker 2>I just do that on my own? Oh, because I

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<v Speaker 2>don't to dance. Well, like it's you got to get

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<v Speaker 2>someone getting the energy. And I'm one person in the

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<v Speaker 2>house with my kid who is now thirteen fourteen, so

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<v Speaker 2>he's wanting to be like off, you know, it's not

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<v Speaker 2>it's not so much mom time. And it's really kind

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<v Speaker 2>of hard to generate. I'm not a self generator, like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a reader. I'm a self I love being alone,

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<v Speaker 2>but I like to read or kind of goofy dance

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<v Speaker 2>by myself. Nothing i'd want to like share with the world.

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<v Speaker 2>And you know, make very simple recipes. You know. I

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<v Speaker 2>like food, cooking, like baking. Nothing that's like good for me.

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<v Speaker 2>Love baking because that's little recipes, but it is it

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<v Speaker 2>is a little you know, it's tough to like self

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<v Speaker 2>generate and get up on the morning and do these things,

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<v Speaker 2>and so I don't know this, This wellness space is

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<v Speaker 2>always inspiring because now I have to. I just like

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<v Speaker 2>even watching those videos on Instagram are like, Okay, in

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<v Speaker 2>the morning, do this for twenty you know, twenty times

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<v Speaker 2>and you will not feel sick. Do this and you

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<v Speaker 2>will have no inflammation. I'm like, okay, I can do those.

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<v Speaker 4>Isn't there like Descline or something where you're like, they're

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<v Speaker 4>all these singing.

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<v Speaker 2>Ones and they're all the ones you see of the

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<v Speaker 2>old people in the park doing and you're like, god,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess when you get old there and do this

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<v Speaker 2>if you're do this. But I'm old now I have

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<v Speaker 2>to start doing this now, so you know. And I

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<v Speaker 2>also I partnered, which I'm so excited about with a

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<v Speaker 2>skincare skincare line that I love because I had gone

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<v Speaker 2>through such a crisis with my skin and not taking

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<v Speaker 2>care of myself and being unwell and all these things

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<v Speaker 2>happening and not knowing what to do. And as soon

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<v Speaker 2>as that had even cleared up, like I felt so

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<v Speaker 2>much better, you know, like a lot this was years ago,

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<v Speaker 2>and so now that I'm doing better and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>kind of shouting out the things that have helped me

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<v Speaker 2>and working on my life, but you know, of sharing that,

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<v Speaker 2>but typically my whole life, I was very I didn't

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<v Speaker 2>pay attention to that, and I really was really comfortable

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<v Speaker 2>kind of being the negative kind of dark loving girl,

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<v Speaker 2>not like negative ooh, but that was just my comfort zone.

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<v Speaker 2>And now all I want to do is feel better

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<v Speaker 2>and look better. And I hope it's not too late.

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<v Speaker 2>Is it too late for me? No?

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<v Speaker 4>And I think, honestly, we are very lucky to live

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<v Speaker 4>in Los Angeles because I even noticed when I go

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<v Speaker 4>to New York. Los Angeles is I think way above

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<v Speaker 4>the trends for wellness and longevity, right.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, I've lived here so long that I think

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<v Speaker 2>the first ten years I lived here, I kind of

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<v Speaker 2>tried everything, and as I was also trying to feel

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<v Speaker 2>better so many years ago, like Santa Monica, it's like

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<v Speaker 2>all the healers went as far as you can west,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, get to Oh I get to Santa Monica.

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<v Speaker 2>They're like, we've gone as far as we can in

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<v Speaker 2>the world with our new teachings, searching for the best

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<v Speaker 2>ways to live our life. And I've done I did

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<v Speaker 2>so many great modalities and you know, yogas and ire

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<v Speaker 2>Veda and meeting so many great people, and then I've

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<v Speaker 2>kind of stepped back from all that and just now

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<v Speaker 2>seeing what people are up to again.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, there's so many things.

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<v Speaker 4>The hyperbaric chamber, Okay, okay, do you really do that

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<v Speaker 4>because you actually breathe all the time because you exercise.

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<v Speaker 2>I do.

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<v Speaker 4>But I think that oxygen, like that intense oxygen really

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<v Speaker 4>is amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>I love hyperberic chambers.

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<v Speaker 4>I love saunas I know Sasha is a big sauna person.

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<v Speaker 1>And cold plunge.

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<v Speaker 5>I like the cold.

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<v Speaker 2>I love the cold plunch. I won't do a technical

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<v Speaker 2>one because I haven't bought one, but I have a

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<v Speaker 2>pool that I don't eat. Yeah, just a couple of

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<v Speaker 2>ice cubes in there in the winter. You're like, it is, like.

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<v Speaker 5>I bet it's cold. It's cold.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know how lot cold A real cold plunch

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<v Speaker 2>as to be. I think my pool's like fifty that's good. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>that's not cold enough. Your cold plunge is probably like

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<v Speaker 2>thirty eight.

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<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, for women don't need it as cold

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<v Speaker 4>as men. Men can handle it. I've just learned this

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<v Speaker 4>and listening to a podcast that apparently women should stay

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<v Speaker 4>in like the forty five to fifty degree water, and

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<v Speaker 4>men can go down to like the thirty eight to

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<v Speaker 4>forty three, but it's not necessarily great.

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<v Speaker 1>For women apparently to go that cold.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, I remember I knew Carral Lagerfeld humble brag, but

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<v Speaker 2>he used to. Yeah, he lost this massive weight, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>but he was much heavier back in the day and

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<v Speaker 2>used as fan because he was fitzing because he wanted

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<v Speaker 2>to cover his double chin for pictures. So like you

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<v Speaker 2>learn all these things. You just see me now as

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<v Speaker 2>I'm getting older, like walking carrying a fan all the time,

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<v Speaker 2>so all the like unsightly parts that I feel are covered.

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<v Speaker 2>But anyhow, what he lost all this weight so he

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<v Speaker 2>could fit into a Eddie's lamine suit. You know, it

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<v Speaker 2>was like going fashion went really tiny, and as the

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<v Speaker 2>great car lager felt was so inspired by all things

0:23:27.600 --> 0:23:32.119
<v Speaker 2>vanity and style and fun, he lost a huge amount

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<v Speaker 2>of weight naturally to look amazing, and he did, but

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<v Speaker 2>he would only swim, you know, his pool. He kept

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<v Speaker 2>very warm because even if it was like a little

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<v Speaker 2>bit under, he felt that it built like an adipose

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<v Speaker 2>tissue that was unsightly. Oh interesting, So when I jump

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<v Speaker 2>in my cold pool. All I think is like, oh no,

0:23:50.680 --> 0:23:54.399
<v Speaker 2>am I like growing my like whale fat to protect me?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh like the you know what I mean? That's he

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<v Speaker 2>was so sensitive about it. When he was doing laps,

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<v Speaker 2>He's like, I can't be in a cold pool.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's so funny. I've never heard of it.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to developed like an adipose tissue.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, that is hilarious.

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<v Speaker 2>I think my mother would have been like my mother

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<v Speaker 2>was one of those people that was like, nothing looks

0:24:10.800 --> 0:24:13.399
<v Speaker 2>as good as being thin feels, you know, like nothing

0:24:13.440 --> 0:24:16.359
<v Speaker 2>tastes as good as being bad. The things you can't

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<v Speaker 2>say now because we're in two and twenty whatever we're

0:24:19.760 --> 0:24:21.679
<v Speaker 2>in and people don't talk like that. But when I

0:24:21.760 --> 0:24:24.840
<v Speaker 2>was growing up, yes, you were allowed to say things

0:24:24.920 --> 0:24:25.320
<v Speaker 2>like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I mean I was a dancer, professional dancer.

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<v Speaker 2>Right of course.

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<v Speaker 5>You heard her full life.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's so refreshed.

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<v Speaker 5>It's really comfortable for me for.

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<v Speaker 2>People to like be like, hey, hey, get yourself together.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah no, I mean my my whole sixteen years on

0:24:40.920 --> 0:24:44.560
<v Speaker 4>Broadway was about how you know, I mean, every diet

0:24:44.600 --> 0:24:46.720
<v Speaker 4>and every weird thing I try. I mean, I remember

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<v Speaker 4>for a while I was eating celery for dinner as

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<v Speaker 4>my dinner.

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<v Speaker 5>How'd that do?

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<v Speaker 2>How'd that go? Have energy for shows and stuff? Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Did it matter?

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<v Speaker 6>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>Ironically, Well it was celery and peanut butter. So maybe

0:24:58.600 --> 0:24:59.400
<v Speaker 1>it was the peanut butter.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's and that's like a healthy big meal day

0:25:02.280 --> 0:25:04.800
<v Speaker 2>if I'm accelerate peanut butter. Arthur's like, oh my god,

0:25:04.800 --> 0:25:06.080
<v Speaker 2>I can't believe you could.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, you just look back at these things. You're like,

0:25:11.720 --> 0:25:14.560
<v Speaker 4>what was I doing? But you know, when you're you

0:25:14.600 --> 0:25:19.000
<v Speaker 4>have that dancer mentality and and you know, like you said,

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<v Speaker 4>I guess we could do.

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<v Speaker 2>Anything when we're young, Like our body is like holding

0:25:23.080 --> 0:25:26.439
<v Speaker 2>all the reserves of our energy and vitamins and like

0:25:26.520 --> 0:25:28.560
<v Speaker 2>we have such a store to draw from. But I feel,

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<v Speaker 2>as I age and I'm quite a bit older than you,

0:25:31.000 --> 0:25:34.080
<v Speaker 2>I really do need the wellness and the advice and

0:25:34.119 --> 0:25:38.239
<v Speaker 2>that because for someone that didn't train themselves young, and

0:25:38.480 --> 0:25:42.520
<v Speaker 2>it wasn't on team sports and didn't have I did

0:25:42.520 --> 0:25:44.399
<v Speaker 2>do sports and things, but I really didn't have that

0:25:44.480 --> 0:25:49.080
<v Speaker 2>mindset of you know, keep going with a smile type

0:25:49.080 --> 0:25:51.320
<v Speaker 2>of vibe. I keep going, but I'm going to let

0:25:51.320 --> 0:25:54.439
<v Speaker 2>you know that I don't want to be here, you

0:25:54.480 --> 0:25:57.920
<v Speaker 2>know what I mean, Like I, as my friend says,

0:25:57.960 --> 0:25:59.960
<v Speaker 2>you know, like I've needed to like take a lap

0:26:00.480 --> 0:26:02.960
<v Speaker 2>and like adjust my attitude. And now I do feel

0:26:03.000 --> 0:26:05.080
<v Speaker 2>like in my life I've taken a few laps and

0:26:05.080 --> 0:26:08.199
<v Speaker 2>I'll take many more gladly. Like I'm not claiming to

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<v Speaker 2>be Susie's sunshine, but I've changed so vastly. Yeah, in

0:26:14.680 --> 0:26:18.480
<v Speaker 2>the past, like probably six years has been my growing

0:26:18.560 --> 0:26:21.399
<v Speaker 2>up years. And I'm so impressed by you. What an

0:26:21.480 --> 0:26:25.120
<v Speaker 2>early bloomer you are. You're such a young one and

0:26:25.160 --> 0:26:27.560
<v Speaker 2>I look at you and I'm like, yeah, I got

0:26:27.600 --> 0:26:29.400
<v Speaker 2>here now, you know, I have a whole different life.

0:26:29.440 --> 0:26:32.240
<v Speaker 2>I've lived in a whole different sphere of things in

0:26:32.280 --> 0:26:36.000
<v Speaker 2>school and Midwest and whatever. But it is pretty it

0:26:36.080 --> 0:26:38.359
<v Speaker 2>is pretty incredible to at least kind of feel a

0:26:38.400 --> 0:26:42.120
<v Speaker 2>little bit like I'm on the Amanda Clues vision of life.

0:26:42.440 --> 0:26:43.240
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like.

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<v Speaker 4>We kind of I feel like we keep evolving and changing,

0:26:46.760 --> 0:26:50.479
<v Speaker 4>and I think there's eras of life, and you know,

0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:54.720
<v Speaker 4>I mean I'm in a new not I'm not in

0:26:54.800 --> 0:26:59.160
<v Speaker 4>a new era, but I would say like since twenty twenty, yeah,

0:26:59.200 --> 0:27:02.359
<v Speaker 4>there's just been a lot of growth for me, especially

0:27:02.480 --> 0:27:05.359
<v Speaker 4>just you know, being in this world alone now raising

0:27:05.359 --> 0:27:06.480
<v Speaker 4>Elvis as a single mom.

0:27:07.000 --> 0:27:11.119
<v Speaker 1>You know, that's like a whole new growing era for me.

0:27:11.200 --> 0:27:16.920
<v Speaker 4>And it's been very very informative, hard, fun, awesome.

0:27:18.119 --> 0:27:20.479
<v Speaker 2>Do you have your work friends? Like, do you have

0:27:20.600 --> 0:27:23.080
<v Speaker 2>work friends? Do you make your la group of friends?

0:27:23.080 --> 0:27:25.200
<v Speaker 2>It's such a hard place here I find it. I'm happy,

0:27:25.280 --> 0:27:27.760
<v Speaker 2>but I am I'm an isolator because it's such a

0:27:27.760 --> 0:27:29.520
<v Speaker 2>commitment to get in a car and do something. We

0:27:29.560 --> 0:27:32.640
<v Speaker 2>live close. I couldn't adore you more. We haven't seen

0:27:32.680 --> 0:27:34.720
<v Speaker 2>each other in a while. I go to text you,

0:27:34.760 --> 0:27:37.200
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, oh my gosh, I didn't respond to this

0:27:37.280 --> 0:27:38.320
<v Speaker 2>from nine years ago.

0:27:40.600 --> 0:27:41.320
<v Speaker 4>I love you.

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<v Speaker 1>It's okay.

0:27:42.200 --> 0:27:45.280
<v Speaker 4>I know we do live like literally five minutes five

0:27:45.320 --> 0:27:46.639
<v Speaker 4>to ten minutes away from each other.

0:27:47.880 --> 0:27:48.520
<v Speaker 1>That's absurd.

0:27:49.000 --> 0:27:51.679
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, if you ever go hiking, will you please? Like

0:27:51.760 --> 0:27:53.720
<v Speaker 2>I have to have someone just knock on my door.

0:27:53.760 --> 0:27:55.400
<v Speaker 2>That's the good thing about being near Sasha.

0:27:55.920 --> 0:27:57.520
<v Speaker 5>Yes, Like, if he knows.

0:27:57.280 --> 0:27:59.920
<v Speaker 2>That I'm isolating too long, he'll knock on the doors.

0:28:00.080 --> 0:28:04.119
<v Speaker 2>Like sounds sounds like coffee. I don't. That's a terrible accent.

0:28:04.640 --> 0:28:06.120
<v Speaker 1>No, that was actually pretty good.

0:28:06.400 --> 0:28:16.879
<v Speaker 7>That was pretty good.

0:28:20.800 --> 0:28:22.960
<v Speaker 2>Okay, they'll know each other a happy thing, though I

0:28:23.640 --> 0:28:25.280
<v Speaker 2>jump all around just because I can't help it. I

0:28:25.280 --> 0:28:27.000
<v Speaker 2>haven't talked to you in so long that I'm like,

0:28:27.400 --> 0:28:29.240
<v Speaker 2>I don't know where to start today, ask anything real,

0:28:29.320 --> 0:28:33.479
<v Speaker 2>but you know that one of one of our favorite

0:28:33.480 --> 0:28:36.959
<v Speaker 2>things is going places that are gorgeous, like hotels. I

0:28:37.000 --> 0:28:39.080
<v Speaker 2>really love it so much. Do you still get out,

0:28:39.280 --> 0:28:41.760
<v Speaker 2>Like are you a hotel snob or just your good

0:28:41.800 --> 0:28:44.720
<v Speaker 2>attitude carry you through the worst of hotels?

0:28:45.560 --> 0:28:48.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh I'm gonna admit that I'm a hotel snob.

0:28:48.600 --> 0:28:51.360
<v Speaker 2>Oh good because you were off to sometimes like on

0:28:51.440 --> 0:28:54.360
<v Speaker 2>Broadway or traveling, if you did dance stuff, troops or

0:28:54.400 --> 0:28:56.800
<v Speaker 2>this or that, and we can go along for anything

0:28:56.880 --> 0:28:58.920
<v Speaker 2>paid like I've done horse shows and whatever. Like I

0:28:58.920 --> 0:29:01.640
<v Speaker 2>can go to a Best Western, no problem. I mean

0:29:01.680 --> 0:29:04.120
<v Speaker 2>like I have Motel six, no problem, Like thrilled find

0:29:04.240 --> 0:29:06.360
<v Speaker 2>you know what you're getting. But if you're going, you know,

0:29:06.480 --> 0:29:11.080
<v Speaker 2>like great, wonderful, clean, happy, but for a vacation, like

0:29:11.120 --> 0:29:12.560
<v Speaker 2>to really get away like no.

0:29:13.080 --> 0:29:15.959
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, because I always say, if I'm leaving my house

0:29:16.040 --> 0:29:18.160
<v Speaker 4>that I love so much, in my bed that I

0:29:18.200 --> 0:29:22.040
<v Speaker 4>love so much, and everything's so comfortable and comforting, I

0:29:22.120 --> 0:29:23.720
<v Speaker 4>need to like we have to we.

0:29:23.720 --> 0:29:26.280
<v Speaker 2>Have to exceed that. We have to exceed my house

0:29:27.280 --> 0:29:29.000
<v Speaker 2>is it beach, beach or mountain.

0:29:29.720 --> 0:29:32.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm a pisces. I have to love the water. I

0:29:32.440 --> 0:29:36.960
<v Speaker 1>love the beach. Yeah, it's healing for me. I love

0:29:37.000 --> 0:29:37.840
<v Speaker 1>the mountains too.

0:29:37.880 --> 0:29:40.160
<v Speaker 4>But like I if I can wake up and go

0:29:40.240 --> 0:29:43.480
<v Speaker 4>to sleep on the beach, I'm so happy, Like it

0:29:43.760 --> 0:29:45.960
<v Speaker 4>just is what I need in life.

0:29:46.120 --> 0:29:48.040
<v Speaker 1>It's my favorite thing in the entire world.

0:29:48.320 --> 0:29:49.920
<v Speaker 2>I feel the same way. We're gonna have to get

0:29:49.920 --> 0:29:50.760
<v Speaker 2>a house by the beach.

0:29:50.800 --> 0:29:52.560
<v Speaker 1>One yes, yes, you know.

0:29:52.680 --> 0:29:55.400
<v Speaker 4>I I luckily with my fitness brand, I get to

0:29:55.440 --> 0:29:56.760
<v Speaker 4>travel a lot and teach.

0:29:56.960 --> 0:29:58.760
<v Speaker 1>And I was just in.

0:29:58.720 --> 0:30:04.440
<v Speaker 4>Cabo teaching, Oh my gosh, and it was lovely. And

0:30:04.480 --> 0:30:08.000
<v Speaker 4>I was in Hawaii last month teaching. So it's really

0:30:08.080 --> 0:30:10.320
<v Speaker 4>a fun you know. I worked so hard to build

0:30:10.360 --> 0:30:13.880
<v Speaker 4>that company, and now it's the reward of being able

0:30:13.960 --> 0:30:16.080
<v Speaker 4>to travel and teach all over the world and stay

0:30:16.120 --> 0:30:19.160
<v Speaker 4>gorgeous hotels and meet people from all over the world

0:30:19.200 --> 0:30:22.440
<v Speaker 4>and inspire, you know, hopefully inspire and motivate them to

0:30:22.480 --> 0:30:23.880
<v Speaker 4>get move in and move their body.

0:30:24.080 --> 0:30:26.240
<v Speaker 2>Are there so many people? Do people come up to you,

0:30:26.360 --> 0:30:29.000
<v Speaker 2>do they look at you for the movement and dance

0:30:29.000 --> 0:30:31.160
<v Speaker 2>and wellness, or there's still so many people that come

0:30:31.200 --> 0:30:33.320
<v Speaker 2>up to you for you know, how you help them

0:30:33.360 --> 0:30:35.360
<v Speaker 2>get through their own hard times.

0:30:35.640 --> 0:30:39.280
<v Speaker 1>I think both a lot of people. I think both

0:30:39.320 --> 0:30:42.480
<v Speaker 1>a lot of people are very grateful to have the motivation.

0:30:42.680 --> 0:30:45.360
<v Speaker 4>And then a lot of people have come up to

0:30:45.440 --> 0:30:47.840
<v Speaker 4>me in the grief community, and I'll say, it's like,

0:30:48.240 --> 0:30:50.880
<v Speaker 4>that's something that's super unexpected. You know, when I lost Nick,

0:30:52.000 --> 0:30:54.400
<v Speaker 4>I didn't know anything about grief. I had lost a gram,

0:30:54.560 --> 0:30:55.600
<v Speaker 4>I had lost grandparents.

0:30:55.760 --> 0:30:58.120
<v Speaker 2>Right, I was going to ask, had you touched a

0:30:58.160 --> 0:31:01.240
<v Speaker 2>real tragedy before that? Although very Oh, if you think

0:31:01.400 --> 0:31:04.560
<v Speaker 2>touch losing your young husband when you're a young single mom,

0:31:05.080 --> 0:31:07.320
<v Speaker 2>it's just not when you're away from your family, you

0:31:07.560 --> 0:31:10.120
<v Speaker 2>moved to a new state, start a new life, and

0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:14.280
<v Speaker 2>everything you're blindsided on a you know, Sunday evening or

0:31:14.320 --> 0:31:16.920
<v Speaker 2>I can't remember what you know, but blindsided in your

0:31:16.920 --> 0:31:18.520
<v Speaker 2>life is irrevocably changed.

0:31:18.840 --> 0:31:21.320
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, No, it's a side, it's a it's a level

0:31:21.320 --> 0:31:24.520
<v Speaker 4>of grief that I'd never experienced. And so I will

0:31:24.560 --> 0:31:28.320
<v Speaker 4>say what has helped me so much is connecting with

0:31:28.400 --> 0:31:31.880
<v Speaker 4>other people in the grief community, especially other widows and widowers,

0:31:33.000 --> 0:31:35.280
<v Speaker 4>and I never would have thought that, but it is

0:31:35.360 --> 0:31:37.800
<v Speaker 4>so comforting. I was teaching a fitness class in New

0:31:37.880 --> 0:31:39.680
<v Speaker 4>York the last time I was there, and this woman

0:31:39.720 --> 0:31:42.280
<v Speaker 4>came up to me afterwards, and she said, I'm a

0:31:42.280 --> 0:31:45.000
<v Speaker 4>fellow widow and I just like my heart and I

0:31:45.080 --> 0:31:47.320
<v Speaker 4>just we gave you to the huge hug. And she's like,

0:31:47.360 --> 0:31:50.080
<v Speaker 4>I have three kids and I lost my husband three

0:31:50.200 --> 0:31:51.400
<v Speaker 4>years ago, and.

0:31:51.440 --> 0:31:54.400
<v Speaker 1>We just like I instantly did with her, you know.

0:31:54.640 --> 0:31:56.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because we don't. I don't always go through my

0:31:56.960 --> 0:31:59.800
<v Speaker 2>day with big connection, even though you know you might

0:32:00.400 --> 0:32:02.520
<v Speaker 2>want to or whatever. But it's when there is a

0:32:02.600 --> 0:32:05.120
<v Speaker 2>woman that comes up to me, well not just women,

0:32:05.160 --> 0:32:07.520
<v Speaker 2>but it usually is women. I think that I probably

0:32:07.960 --> 0:32:10.840
<v Speaker 2>had affected in my own life, but people come up

0:32:10.840 --> 0:32:15.320
<v Speaker 2>to me and have gone through something similar like lost

0:32:15.360 --> 0:32:18.200
<v Speaker 2>a parent from a chronic illness or you know, neural

0:32:18.440 --> 0:32:22.560
<v Speaker 2>you know, neural degenerative issues and some things you know

0:32:22.760 --> 0:32:26.280
<v Speaker 2>that you know in my own health experiences that might

0:32:26.280 --> 0:32:29.200
<v Speaker 2>have touched them, or my attitude or wanting to move forward.

0:32:29.280 --> 0:32:32.120
<v Speaker 2>It is it's like an it's it does so much

0:32:32.200 --> 0:32:34.360
<v Speaker 2>for me, you know, it grounds me in that day

0:32:34.400 --> 0:32:37.040
<v Speaker 2>and gives me so much gratitude for being where I

0:32:37.080 --> 0:32:39.360
<v Speaker 2>am now, and I want so much now for other

0:32:39.360 --> 0:32:42.360
<v Speaker 2>people to know that they can that they can have hope,

0:32:42.360 --> 0:32:46.600
<v Speaker 2>because if my attitude can even change, and and that's

0:32:46.640 --> 0:32:49.880
<v Speaker 2>really what getting a diagnosis for me really helped me

0:32:50.680 --> 0:32:53.800
<v Speaker 2>love myself more because it gave me the affirmation that

0:32:53.880 --> 0:32:56.440
<v Speaker 2>I hadn't been feeling well for so long. And I

0:32:56.480 --> 0:33:00.200
<v Speaker 2>think someone when you when you don't feel well for

0:33:00.240 --> 0:33:02.920
<v Speaker 2>so long, other people, you know, when you're you just

0:33:02.960 --> 0:33:06.640
<v Speaker 2>think there's nothing you can do. It really affects people

0:33:06.880 --> 0:33:08.960
<v Speaker 2>obviously out in the world who are in that same boat,

0:33:09.000 --> 0:33:11.960
<v Speaker 2>and of course you with it, going through unparalleled grief,

0:33:12.000 --> 0:33:14.040
<v Speaker 2>and then they find themselves in a similar boat. You know,

0:33:14.520 --> 0:33:17.479
<v Speaker 2>there's real touchstones that people have in you and and

0:33:17.520 --> 0:33:20.600
<v Speaker 2>maybe even in my story, and I do find that

0:33:20.680 --> 0:33:24.640
<v Speaker 2>kind of such a gift. And like Shannon obviously back

0:33:24.680 --> 0:33:28.200
<v Speaker 2>to Shannon as we're on her podcast, but her vulnerability,

0:33:28.280 --> 0:33:30.400
<v Speaker 2>her strength, and you know, she was of course always

0:33:30.400 --> 0:33:32.719
<v Speaker 2>lovingly known as the bad girl, and I had met

0:33:32.760 --> 0:33:34.640
<v Speaker 2>her in the you know, after the bad girl era

0:33:34.720 --> 0:33:36.800
<v Speaker 2>that she joke about, you know, what does the bad

0:33:36.800 --> 0:33:39.160
<v Speaker 2>girl doing? And she turned out to be such a

0:33:39.720 --> 0:33:43.640
<v Speaker 2>good girl in her vulnerability and her strength in that

0:33:43.800 --> 0:33:46.640
<v Speaker 2>in sharing it with what was sometimes a really unkind

0:33:47.960 --> 0:33:50.160
<v Speaker 2>media world to her in some ways like early in

0:33:50.200 --> 0:33:52.400
<v Speaker 2>her life, you know, being in the spotlight for her

0:33:52.440 --> 0:33:54.720
<v Speaker 2>in your life since thetle House on the prairie or whatever.

0:33:55.160 --> 0:33:59.880
<v Speaker 2>And that was just an incredible impact that Shannon had

0:34:00.200 --> 0:34:03.600
<v Speaker 2>and that I found too, and that I'm that I

0:34:03.680 --> 0:34:06.920
<v Speaker 2>know that you find and now have like that, that

0:34:06.960 --> 0:34:09.600
<v Speaker 2>gratitude for that touchstone and knowing that you've affected people

0:34:09.640 --> 0:34:12.040
<v Speaker 2>and how that human connection means so much.

0:34:12.800 --> 0:34:16.200
<v Speaker 1>It means so much. It's everything. We don't go through

0:34:16.239 --> 0:34:20.120
<v Speaker 1>things better alone. We just don't. It's like, right, you

0:34:20.239 --> 0:34:21.480
<v Speaker 1>need people around.

0:34:21.280 --> 0:34:25.600
<v Speaker 2>You want to and I do. I want to crawl,

0:34:25.600 --> 0:34:28.680
<v Speaker 2>and I mean at the time you want to, like

0:34:28.800 --> 0:34:31.120
<v Speaker 2>how do you find the energy? But I did feel

0:34:31.239 --> 0:34:35.800
<v Speaker 2>very blessed that people knew who I was, so some people.

0:34:35.960 --> 0:34:39.440
<v Speaker 2>I got a lot of love to get through things,

0:34:39.760 --> 0:34:43.200
<v Speaker 2>you know, from strangers, the kindness of strangers, and more

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<v Speaker 2>so even earlier, even before my diagnosis, when I had

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<v Speaker 2>had my own issues with sobriety or gone through something

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<v Speaker 2>humiliating and you think the world is going to be

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<v Speaker 2>so unkind and how do I get through this? And

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<v Speaker 2>it really was strangers and you're looking to that don't

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<v Speaker 2>have judgment on you, that can hear your own for

0:35:00.520 --> 0:35:03.400
<v Speaker 2>going through things or going through an embarrassment or or

0:35:03.480 --> 0:35:07.520
<v Speaker 2>fear of that. And I don't know, there's just so

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<v Speaker 2>much to be said for being open and honest if

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<v Speaker 2>you can in your life. It's not for everyone to,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, to share things. But I did feel kind

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<v Speaker 2>of lucky. I don't know what I would have done. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I wouldn't have been in the spotlight if

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<v Speaker 2>I hadn't been known, and it wouldn't have happened that

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<v Speaker 2>you haven't been you know, public grieving or humiliation or

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<v Speaker 2>joy or care. So it's just it's a really it's

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<v Speaker 2>a really interesting, interesting life to be on. And I'm

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<v Speaker 2>so grateful there's people like you. I mean, really, I do.

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<v Speaker 2>I think. I think my angels and things for the

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<v Speaker 2>people who've given me messages and you have even your sister.

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<v Speaker 2>How's your sister doing? Is she's still in France?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, she's still great. She's in pair, she wrote that.

0:35:55.400 --> 0:35:58.080
<v Speaker 2>I mean, she you guys inspire me so much. She

0:35:58.120 --> 0:36:01.279
<v Speaker 2>went after a dream and found love. And so I'm

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<v Speaker 2>moving to Paris tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, she's doing so well.

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<v Speaker 4>And she was just here visiting me and yeah, she's

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<v Speaker 4>doing great. I mean, yeah, talk about somebody again who

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<v Speaker 4>like went through you know, tragedy at a divorce and

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<v Speaker 4>then just picked up and restarted her life and and

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<v Speaker 4>made something completely new for herself.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. I think it's like again, it's that reinvention and.

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<v Speaker 2>Reinvention of writing your story, and I like, really writing

0:36:32.480 --> 0:36:35.960
<v Speaker 2>the story you want. Yeah, but last night I was

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<v Speaker 2>listening to someone and someone said, no, you need to

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<v Speaker 2>write down three things you want to achieve. It has

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<v Speaker 2>to be at least three things, and if you can't

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<v Speaker 2>think it, you can't do it. And I was like, God,

0:36:48.280 --> 0:36:54.480
<v Speaker 2>I don't really ever think of anything, huh. I just

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<v Speaker 2>really do live in the present, you know, and sometimes

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<v Speaker 2>that definitely gets you in trouble. You have to have

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<v Speaker 2>a plan, But what are three? Like, I'm almost afraid

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<v Speaker 2>to think of three because I'm want to think of

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<v Speaker 2>great things, like I want to do, you know, I

0:37:07.560 --> 0:37:08.840
<v Speaker 2>want great things.

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<v Speaker 5>And yeah, you're like.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want anyone to like, I don't want anyone

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<v Speaker 2>to know. Like it's kind of like that tradition of like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, don't have your shine so big, you know,

0:37:19.960 --> 0:37:22.680
<v Speaker 2>because my mother is always like that, like don't ever

0:37:22.840 --> 0:37:25.239
<v Speaker 2>any let anyone see you coming, and someone's always willing

0:37:25.280 --> 0:37:27.239
<v Speaker 2>to take you down a peg and no, you know,

0:37:27.320 --> 0:37:29.520
<v Speaker 2>moth to a flame. If you're too light, the moth comes.

0:37:29.560 --> 0:37:33.200
<v Speaker 2>And I've had all these like brain programming of you know,

0:37:33.280 --> 0:37:35.960
<v Speaker 2>stay small, stay small, you know, and over there and

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<v Speaker 2>safe and and you and Shannon, also you're a testament

0:37:41.560 --> 0:37:43.680
<v Speaker 2>that you do not have to stay small, like you

0:37:43.760 --> 0:37:47.680
<v Speaker 2>can shine big and less is not always more. And

0:37:47.760 --> 0:37:49.960
<v Speaker 2>I want to take that every day with me to

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<v Speaker 2>create my own wellness and my own light like you

0:37:53.880 --> 0:37:59.080
<v Speaker 2>and I love you, and you know we say that

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<v Speaker 2>a lot in this town. But I've loved you since,

0:38:01.600 --> 0:38:03.520
<v Speaker 2>you know, I first laid eyes on you. It was

0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:05.440
<v Speaker 2>love at first sight. And I'm so happy that you're

0:38:05.440 --> 0:38:07.399
<v Speaker 2>in my life. And maybe one day I'll actually see

0:38:07.440 --> 0:38:14.959
<v Speaker 2>you like I love you. I know, number.

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<v Speaker 1>I do. I'm gonna come knocking new dorm. We're gonna

0:38:19.840 --> 0:38:20.439
<v Speaker 1>go on a hike.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe I could teach us a sexy dance because I

0:38:24.760 --> 0:38:27.799
<v Speaker 2>was watching you like really like it's it's you have

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of mobility, and I'm really proud of you

0:38:30.719 --> 0:38:33.000
<v Speaker 2>like watch on your like move.

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<v Speaker 1>I just I love it. It's healing for me.

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<v Speaker 4>Moving is movement dance, and it has always been such

0:38:40.120 --> 0:38:41.680
<v Speaker 4>a mental health thing for me, Like.

0:38:41.640 --> 0:38:44.440
<v Speaker 1>It just makes me feel better. So it's it's a

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<v Speaker 1>part of my day. You know.

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<v Speaker 4>We gotta you got to recognize those things. If there's

0:38:49.280 --> 0:38:52.200
<v Speaker 4>something you know that makes you feel better, then that's

0:38:52.600 --> 0:38:53.160
<v Speaker 4>your go to.

0:38:53.360 --> 0:38:55.320
<v Speaker 1>You know, that's my go to movement.

0:38:55.880 --> 0:38:59.759
<v Speaker 2>Yep, movement and do it now and keeping Oh my,

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<v Speaker 2>I love you.

0:39:01.920 --> 0:39:02.759
<v Speaker 5>I love you too.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you so much, Amanda for being on here on

0:39:07.320 --> 0:39:12.480
<v Speaker 2>Shannon A. Doherty. Let's be clear, and let's be clear.

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<v Speaker 2>I am so happy to have been here today and

0:39:15.280 --> 0:39:17.480
<v Speaker 2>just to connect with you and for everyone out there

0:39:17.520 --> 0:39:23.000
<v Speaker 2>who loves Shannon. Hey, you never met Shannon, did you, Amanda?

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<v Speaker 1>No? I mean I grew up watching Illo two.

0:39:25.640 --> 0:39:28.440
<v Speaker 4>I know though, so I mean like I grew up

0:39:28.480 --> 0:39:30.719
<v Speaker 4>with her, But no, I never got to meet her.

0:39:31.160 --> 0:39:33.560
<v Speaker 2>I wish you could have met we were we I

0:39:33.760 --> 0:39:36.600
<v Speaker 2>just know like that you I mean not look, I'm

0:39:36.640 --> 0:39:38.719
<v Speaker 2>like you just would have loved No. But she I

0:39:38.800 --> 0:39:41.480
<v Speaker 2>just I can see you know, not not that I

0:39:41.520 --> 0:39:44.840
<v Speaker 2>knew her so much, but I really I want to

0:39:44.880 --> 0:39:47.640
<v Speaker 2>thank you, and I'm so excited for your line. And

0:39:47.920 --> 0:39:50.720
<v Speaker 2>while I'm on here, I'm so excited for the line

0:39:50.960 --> 0:39:55.719
<v Speaker 2>that I've also joined ESK evidence based skincare, which I

0:39:55.760 --> 0:39:59.919
<v Speaker 2>love so excited about as that was a huge way

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<v Speaker 2>feeling better in my world, to heal a lot of

0:40:03.000 --> 0:40:05.280
<v Speaker 2>a lot of things in my skin and keep finding

0:40:05.600 --> 0:40:07.840
<v Speaker 2>the best of me. And and also I have a

0:40:07.840 --> 0:40:10.239
<v Speaker 2>club with a with A. There's so many things that

0:40:10.280 --> 0:40:12.000
<v Speaker 2>you inspire me, like you can have your hands and

0:40:12.040 --> 0:40:14.239
<v Speaker 2>a lot of things that you love. That's what I'm

0:40:14.280 --> 0:40:18.480
<v Speaker 2>trying to do. So I also am you know, involved

0:40:18.480 --> 0:40:21.320
<v Speaker 2>in also a kind of lifestyle luxury brand called Mercy

0:40:21.360 --> 0:40:24.160
<v Speaker 2>that I'm going to do a collab with, So I'm

0:40:24.320 --> 0:40:28.400
<v Speaker 2>so excited about that. And so you inspired me a

0:40:28.440 --> 0:40:31.719
<v Speaker 2>lot for for getting out and actually doing things that

0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:32.200
<v Speaker 2>i'd love.

0:40:32.520 --> 0:40:34.520
<v Speaker 1>You inspire me. You inspire so many.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you so much.

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<v Speaker 1>It's so good to see your face.

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<v Speaker 2>Yay, it's so good to see your face too. Thank

0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:44.600
<v Speaker 2>you so much, miss Amanda. I can't wait to see you.

0:40:44.640 --> 0:40:49.640
<v Speaker 2>And beautiful Elvis. Can we please get him together with Arthur? Yes, Arthur,

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<v Speaker 2>how to be a sweet sweet boy and Arthur.

0:40:52.840 --> 0:40:55.000
<v Speaker 1>You'll be obsessed with he loves that age.

0:40:56.200 --> 0:40:59.880
<v Speaker 2>Arthur is super fun and punky and awesome and a teenager.

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<v Speaker 2>I love him so much.

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<v Speaker 1>Love you.

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<v Speaker 2>This has been a wonderful conversation with you. Thank you

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<v Speaker 2>Amanda for being on this episode of Let's Be Clear,

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<v Speaker 2>and thank you to everyone listening. Stay well, stay positive,

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<v Speaker 2>and until next time, nah bye bye