WEBVTT - Brotherly Love with Mike Rivera Part 1 0:00:06.720 --> 0:00:14.280 Hey, guys, welcome to another episode of Brother two Times. So, guys, 0:00:14.600 --> 0:00:16.480 if you don't know who my brother is, this is Mikey. 0:00:16.520 --> 0:00:18.720 This is my little big brother. Okay, thank you for 0:00:18.720 --> 0:00:23.400 coming to my podcast. Finally, Yes, but you make. 0:00:23.360 --> 0:00:25.040 It seem like I didn't want to be part of it. 0:00:25.079 --> 0:00:27.680 And then when I was on Jenica's you're like all jelly. 0:00:27.400 --> 0:00:32.120 Belly, jelly belly, but your requested subject is very important. Yes, 0:00:32.240 --> 0:00:34.840 but I wasn't. He wasn't. I'm still not ready. I guess. 0:00:34.840 --> 0:00:36.960 I think we'll talk about my reasoning behind all that 0:00:37.040 --> 0:00:40.360 stuff today. But because I don't, I know you love me. 0:00:40.600 --> 0:00:42.800 I know if we're, if we're, if we got pickles 0:00:42.800 --> 0:00:44.920 with each other, that's abone to pick with each other. 0:00:47.600 --> 0:00:48.159 A pickle with me? 0:00:48.280 --> 0:00:53.760 Yeah, what's the pickle? This sign? Oh okay, it's cute. Yeah, 0:00:53.960 --> 0:00:56.320 I'm sure they got to here quick. I'm Jenica. 0:00:56.640 --> 0:00:59.960 She waited a year, but yes, so talking about Jenica 0:01:00.200 --> 0:01:02.640 because okay, guys, Jenica has been on the podcast, Jackie 0:01:02.640 --> 0:01:05.319 has been on the podcast, and Mikey has it. John 0:01:05.360 --> 0:01:07.640 has been here a couple of times as well, and 0:01:08.000 --> 0:01:10.839 talking about Jenica. Look at his sweater, you guys, okay, 0:01:10.880 --> 0:01:11.800 it's over comfort. 0:01:11.880 --> 0:01:12.360 Look at him. 0:01:12.440 --> 0:01:15.360 He comes to my podcast wearing his favorite sisters because 0:01:15.400 --> 0:01:18.040 Jennica is his favorite sister. Yes or no, don't lie. 0:01:18.760 --> 0:01:20.839 I don't have a favorite. She's my only little sister. 0:01:21.000 --> 0:01:23.319 Okay, that's true. He has two big sisters. That makes sense. 0:01:23.360 --> 0:01:23.679 That's okay. 0:01:23.760 --> 0:01:24.839 Jennica is awesome, so. 0:01:25.160 --> 0:01:27.280 She's a best But yeah, and then this is also 0:01:27.440 --> 0:01:29.000 I wanted to come like decent, and. 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:30.319 I know it was very hand separately. 0:01:30.480 --> 0:01:32.240 Yeah, this is like everything else has paint on it 0:01:32.319 --> 0:01:32.759 right now. 0:01:32.640 --> 0:01:33.480 The color coordination. 0:01:33.600 --> 0:01:35.319 I like laundry every week now though. 0:01:35.440 --> 0:01:40.920 Oh no, I'm so proud. So are you separating the whites? Yeah, 0:01:40.959 --> 0:01:42.760 but I don't have very much white okay, okay, but 0:01:42.880 --> 0:01:43.760 please separate the whites. 0:01:44.319 --> 0:01:44.880 Yeah, no, I do. 0:01:44.959 --> 0:01:48.080 I separate and I even I even, I like, I've 0:01:48.080 --> 0:01:50.520 started to use the bleach. But like you know, I mean, 0:01:50.520 --> 0:01:51.600 I'm a black shirt kind of guy. 0:01:51.640 --> 0:01:52.040 Yeah you are. 0:01:52.080 --> 0:01:54.160 I don't for white shirts. 0:01:54.280 --> 0:01:56.520 Yeah, because I always have paint on everything. Talking about paint, 0:01:56.880 --> 0:01:59.160 because we got to let them know what you're all about. Okay. 0:01:59.200 --> 0:02:00.680 Mikey has his own own company. 0:02:00.760 --> 0:02:06.080 It's called Boss Graphics and my bigger LLC or is 0:02:06.120 --> 0:02:08.480 a moonlight sign code? And that's that was my first 0:02:08.480 --> 0:02:11.040 company and absorbed the company that I've been working at 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:14.160 for a while now, and it's going really well. It's 0:02:14.160 --> 0:02:16.400 been this past year has been a big challenge, and 0:02:17.200 --> 0:02:18.200 thank you for being there. 0:02:18.840 --> 0:02:20.120 You're always I think. 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:23.760 There's no such thing as a dumb question, but there 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:26.239 is dumb questions. And I'm so glad that I can 0:02:26.280 --> 0:02:28.080 call you and I don't ever have to feel like 0:02:28.720 --> 0:02:31.440 bad about asking a stupid question because you've lived through 0:02:31.440 --> 0:02:33.519 most things, or at least have some level of experience, 0:02:33.600 --> 0:02:36.200 especially when it comes to business. So I have you 0:02:36.200 --> 0:02:38.839 as a lifeline, and I know, like we don't see 0:02:38.840 --> 0:02:41.600 each other as much as we'd like. Yeah, you're such 0:02:41.639 --> 0:02:43.799 a big part of you know, what I'm doing now, 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:45.160 and so thank. 0:02:44.960 --> 0:02:48.000 You for that. Oh you're welcome, brother. Oh my god, dude, 0:02:48.080 --> 0:02:49.600 we're about I think we're going to cry about it. 0:02:50.360 --> 0:02:50.840 We do. Yeah. 0:02:50.880 --> 0:02:54.200 So a mirror list and a sign painter and and 0:02:54.440 --> 0:02:56.560 just a guy just trying to get better at his art. 0:02:56.960 --> 0:02:58.840 Yeah, and you're doing great, because that's what he was saying. 0:02:58.880 --> 0:03:00.360 The pickle that he had to pick with me is 0:03:00.400 --> 0:03:02.399 the fact that he didn't make my sign. I didn't 0:03:02.400 --> 0:03:04.200 ask him to make my sign because he made Jennica 0:03:04.440 --> 0:03:07.480 sign for her podcast over Comfort, and that's why he's like, 0:03:07.520 --> 0:03:09.919 what the heck, But it's for METSI. I mean, I 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:11.000 didn't have anyone else do it. 0:03:11.080 --> 0:03:13.560 No, you're about this, and I would have lagged a 0:03:13.600 --> 0:03:15.600 little bit, but it's okay. I have ideas now, so 0:03:15.760 --> 0:03:17.360 next season that might look a little different. 0:03:17.440 --> 0:03:19.480 Oh I love that. Okay, you guys heard it here, 0:03:19.560 --> 0:03:22.520 so you guys he said it. Yes, he's a man 0:03:22.520 --> 0:03:25.640 of his word and going back to his business because 0:03:25.639 --> 0:03:28.280 I think Mom would be very proud, because Mom was 0:03:28.280 --> 0:03:32.399 all about, like, whatever you're passionate about, whatever that may be, 0:03:32.720 --> 0:03:34.720 you freaking do it and you do be the best 0:03:34.720 --> 0:03:37.160 at it, Mikey, And he said, Okay, if we talk 0:03:37.200 --> 0:03:38.960 about this about your love for graffiti and how you 0:03:38.960 --> 0:03:41.240 would do it illegally, whatever, you want to talk to me, okay, 0:03:41.280 --> 0:03:46.240 Because he would freaking stress me out. Because I was 0:03:46.600 --> 0:03:48.080 his supporter, I was like, Okay, if this is what 0:03:48.080 --> 0:03:50.160 he likes to do, I don't necessarily agree hundred percent 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:52.560 because it's like, you know, he's doing this illegally and 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:55.400 he would hang you guys off of bridges and shit 0:03:56.000 --> 0:03:57.840 doing graffiti and I'd be like, oh my, he said, 0:03:57.880 --> 0:03:58.760 Oh I was hanging off. 0:03:58.680 --> 0:04:02.560 That freaking BRIDGEI what But you would imagine it like 0:04:03.160 --> 0:04:04.640 me hanging off I'm not that strong. 0:04:04.920 --> 0:04:07.200 It's like there's a footing, there's it's a weird space. 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:09.480 I shouldn't be okay there, but it's dangerous. Are you 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:11.120 going to tell everybody that used to take me? 0:04:11.400 --> 0:04:12.280 Oh? Yeah, I used to take them. 0:04:12.440 --> 0:04:13.440 Was a handful of times. 0:04:13.720 --> 0:04:16.839 Jackie was my was my ride or jack like she 0:04:16.920 --> 0:04:19.440 took me bombing a lot, like, yeah, my first era 0:04:19.560 --> 0:04:21.599 of being prolific had a lot to do with Jackie. 0:04:22.279 --> 0:04:24.120 But you take me to Jackie, so. 0:04:25.680 --> 0:04:28.560 Each other she is implicated in fifteen year old crime. 0:04:28.760 --> 0:04:31.479 Oh shit, more than that, dude, come up on. Wow, yeah, 0:04:31.520 --> 0:04:35.280 my brother, are you thirty you're gonna be thirty three? Jesus? 0:04:35.320 --> 0:04:39.400 Oh your Jesus here, I say, dan full for really. Yeah, 0:04:39.400 --> 0:04:40.839 you're going to resurrect in good way? 0:04:41.080 --> 0:04:42.920 Yeah yeah, being reborn. 0:04:42.600 --> 0:04:45.400 Yeah, reborn. But so I love the fact that you 0:04:45.440 --> 0:04:48.880 did exactly what I wanted, came and became and now 0:04:48.960 --> 0:04:51.160 a business and you're a CEO and a business owner. 0:04:51.160 --> 0:04:53.760 And I know that that's president. President I don't know why. 0:04:53.920 --> 0:04:57.040 I feel like he was like anytime somebody like starts 0:04:57.040 --> 0:04:59.400 their little like T shirt company or whatever, it's like 0:04:59.400 --> 0:05:01.680 they want to throw like president sounds better for me. 0:05:01.720 --> 0:05:02.160 I don't know why. 0:05:02.279 --> 0:05:05.320 Yeah, I like that anyway, Mike you for president? Well 0:05:05.320 --> 0:05:09.560 he is a president, okay, So I think. 0:05:09.440 --> 0:05:10.640 She would be proud. I think. 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:14.479 So that's kind of like my biggest like thing is 0:05:15.000 --> 0:05:17.400 she didn't really get to see a better version of me, 0:05:17.400 --> 0:05:20.960 because I'm still not like the best version of myself 0:05:20.960 --> 0:05:22.640 that I can be and that I'm striving to be. 0:05:22.760 --> 0:05:25.520 But she didn't get to see me like okay because 0:05:25.520 --> 0:05:27.400 it stressed her out a lot too, you know. And 0:05:27.400 --> 0:05:30.719 and she and like to her credit, she never once 0:05:30.760 --> 0:05:33.520 said like I remember the day that she like first 0:05:33.520 --> 0:05:36.080 confronted me about it, and like, you know, like she 0:05:36.240 --> 0:05:39.800 was never like don't do that, you know, like they 0:05:39.839 --> 0:05:41.919 were like, at least don't do it this way, do 0:05:41.960 --> 0:05:43.279 it the right way. Of course, I have to do 0:05:43.320 --> 0:05:45.479 it in my own way. But so she was stressed out, 0:05:45.880 --> 0:05:47.240 and I didn't believe I was going to turn it 0:05:47.279 --> 0:05:49.400 into anything for a long time because that wasn't really 0:05:49.480 --> 0:05:51.160 the point of it. Yeah, it was kind of more 0:05:51.200 --> 0:05:54.600 of a to develop a sense of identity, and yeah, 0:05:54.640 --> 0:05:58.200 that's kind of it's kind of it's it's led through 0:05:58.240 --> 0:06:00.159 a lot of things, for good or bad, like of 0:06:00.240 --> 0:06:02.839 who I am now, and it's been part of my journey. 0:06:02.839 --> 0:06:05.040 So I'm like super grateful for it, but I think 0:06:05.120 --> 0:06:09.480 I I might be past it, yeah, like mentally, yeah, 0:06:09.680 --> 0:06:11.839 I mean right now anyways, just like I don't like 0:06:12.320 --> 0:06:14.080 I don't have the same love for it. And I'm like, 0:06:14.160 --> 0:06:16.560 I'm okay, I'm going through a part of my life 0:06:16.560 --> 0:06:21.039 where things are you know, it's okay to accept the 0:06:21.080 --> 0:06:22.800 things come to an end and things don't have to 0:06:22.800 --> 0:06:25.359 be the same way forever. And even if it's something 0:06:25.360 --> 0:06:27.880 that you feel like, well, this is all I've ever known, 0:06:28.000 --> 0:06:30.119 like and that shit, it's really hard, Like I almost 0:06:30.160 --> 0:06:31.800 want to cry right now, just because it's all I've 0:06:31.839 --> 0:06:33.600 known and like for so many years. 0:06:33.440 --> 0:06:35.200 I've part of your life. 0:06:35.279 --> 0:06:38.840 Yeah, I've only associated with certain type of people, and 0:06:38.880 --> 0:06:40.800 now that I'm trying to live my life on the 0:06:40.880 --> 0:06:43.600 right path, I realized they haven't always been the best people. 0:06:43.680 --> 0:06:45.000 A lot of you know, a lot of my friends 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:48.040 are guys looking with good and there's a few gems 0:06:48.040 --> 0:06:50.400 in there. That are really guys that are really pushing 0:06:50.400 --> 0:06:53.440 themselves forward. But for the most part, it's like holding 0:06:53.480 --> 0:06:55.279 me back. And now I'm at a point where it's 0:06:55.279 --> 0:06:57.760 like it's it's it's it's doue or die time right 0:06:57.800 --> 0:07:01.160 now with you know, with the company and like really better. 0:07:00.960 --> 0:07:02.919 In myself, super focused and if. 0:07:02.920 --> 0:07:05.160 Yeah, and it is just not serving me anymore, and 0:07:05.200 --> 0:07:08.200 it's it's hard to say, you know, because I don't 0:07:08.200 --> 0:07:13.440 you know me, I'm like, uh, I like the artistic 0:07:13.480 --> 0:07:15.800 part of graffiti, like, oh, it's an awesome mural, look 0:07:15.800 --> 0:07:17.280 at all the colors and all that. But I like 0:07:17.640 --> 0:07:20.320 the illegal aspect of it in the Russia and the 0:07:20.560 --> 0:07:23.520 fucking being scared shitless, like I shouldn't be doing this. 0:07:23.600 --> 0:07:25.600 I shouldn't be fucking over here off of the side 0:07:25.600 --> 0:07:27.360 of the freeway. And then I get home and I'm 0:07:27.360 --> 0:07:29.360 looking at my pictures and that's the best sleep in 0:07:29.360 --> 0:07:30.840 my whole life, where it's. 0:07:30.480 --> 0:07:33.280 Crazy like that rushful. Yeah. And it's not just because 0:07:33.320 --> 0:07:33.600 of that. 0:07:33.720 --> 0:07:35.520 There's just like I don't know if there's something to 0:07:35.600 --> 0:07:37.960 take in public space back, Like I feel like we're 0:07:38.120 --> 0:07:41.440 kind of bombarded with like buy this by this billboards 0:07:41.440 --> 0:07:44.600 and signage and all this shit every everywhere. It's like, okay, 0:07:44.880 --> 0:07:47.240 and because of you. I would never write on businesses 0:07:48.040 --> 0:07:51.240 like small businesses or like people's property or anything like that. 0:07:51.280 --> 0:07:51.880 But if it's. 0:07:51.680 --> 0:07:53.520 Corporate, if it's on the side of the freeway, it's 0:07:53.560 --> 0:07:55.880 it's like a little power box or something, whatever the 0:07:55.920 --> 0:07:58.920 hell it is. It's like that's visually that's mine too, 0:07:59.040 --> 0:08:00.840 you know, Like that's how I used to feel. I 0:08:00.840 --> 0:08:02.840 don't necessarily I've grown up a little bit and it's 0:08:02.880 --> 0:08:04.400 like that's not really how the world works. 0:08:04.520 --> 0:08:06.200 But that's what I was tell them. If you're going 0:08:06.280 --> 0:08:07.800 to do it, just do it like where it's like 0:08:07.840 --> 0:08:10.720 it's not going to like disturb anybody or upset anyone. Well, 0:08:10.760 --> 0:08:13.120 it have upset certain people, but whatever, I mean, I 0:08:13.120 --> 0:08:16.160 definitely I supported you and it made you happy. I 0:08:16.200 --> 0:08:17.480 would pray for you all the time. I'm like, God, 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.280 please take care of them. And I get that rush 0:08:19.320 --> 0:08:20.920 thing because when I used to sneak out to go 0:08:20.920 --> 0:08:23.520 to the races over there in Compton, it was just like, dude, 0:08:23.560 --> 0:08:25.120 I'm not supposed to do this, but this is so fun. 0:08:25.160 --> 0:08:27.960 It's more brazen about sneaking out of me. Dude. I 0:08:27.960 --> 0:08:31.960 would never like hop out of the taking mom's car. Dude, 0:08:31.960 --> 0:08:32.680 I was crazy. 0:08:32.880 --> 0:08:36.000 We got to talk about that one day. I did. 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:41.040 And then did you try to drive backwards to reverse 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:41.640 the mileage? 0:08:41.800 --> 0:08:47.040 Yes, stupid dude. 0:08:46.440 --> 0:08:53.240 Yeah, all yes I did. Sure, it's all good. It's 0:08:53.240 --> 0:08:55.679 all good because I must have been like sixteen years old. 0:08:55.679 --> 0:08:58.680 I didn't have my license yet. Fifteen, Yeah, I was younger. No, 0:08:58.760 --> 0:09:00.000 for sure, I did not have my license. 0:09:00.080 --> 0:09:02.920 Yeah, I was very risk take her to the fullest, 0:09:02.960 --> 0:09:05.040 d especially with the type of mom we had. I'm like, dude, 0:09:05.160 --> 0:09:06.320 what the hell was I thinking? 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:07.760 No, for real, and like. 0:09:07.720 --> 0:09:11.960 We I don't even think she knew later until yeah, 0:09:12.000 --> 0:09:12.360 I think she. 0:09:12.480 --> 0:09:15.360 I think you did say it, and I'm pretty sure 0:09:15.640 --> 0:09:17.480 we had the conversation at some point and at that 0:09:17.480 --> 0:09:18.160 point she's just. 0:09:18.080 --> 0:09:21.320 Like like, well, yeah, okay, yeah, you know, yeah it's 0:09:21.520 --> 0:09:22.240 crazy dude. 0:09:22.920 --> 0:09:23.400 Yeah. 0:09:23.600 --> 0:09:30.920 Anyways, Well, I'm I think what's happening in your life, 0:09:30.920 --> 0:09:34.000 and I see it clearly is that, like, I don't know, 0:09:34.040 --> 0:09:36.000 you're being very and I love using this word you 0:09:36.040 --> 0:09:38.120 on the podcast, but you're very intentional right now. It's 0:09:38.160 --> 0:09:40.400 like you know, it's like I want to be the 0:09:40.440 --> 0:09:42.959 best I want to be the best person. I want 0:09:43.440 --> 0:09:45.959 like you're doing things with intent and I see it. 0:09:46.240 --> 0:09:48.200 And I've always you know, me and my whole life, 0:09:48.200 --> 0:09:51.520 I've been very nonchalant. Yeah, and it's kind of worked 0:09:51.520 --> 0:09:54.280 for me. Like yeah, it's like, I mean, I've never 0:09:54.360 --> 0:09:57.000 been a guy with the plan, and I've never been 0:09:57.120 --> 0:10:00.120 like I need this to happen in the world for 0:10:00.160 --> 0:10:02.160 me to be Okay. I think I've always been a journey, 0:10:02.200 --> 0:10:05.200 not the destination. Yes, And I'm still very much enjoying 0:10:05.240 --> 0:10:07.360 my journey, even on days when it's not fun, even 0:10:07.400 --> 0:10:09.960 on days when I'm really stressed out and you know, 0:10:10.080 --> 0:10:12.920 like I'm responsible for people's lives, like you know, like 0:10:13.120 --> 0:10:15.760 and their family and they're they're and feeding their kids 0:10:15.840 --> 0:10:18.040 and stuff and that, so that all rays on me. 0:10:18.120 --> 0:10:22.800 So but even on those days, I'm like, I appreciate it, 0:10:22.840 --> 0:10:24.480 like you know what, because it's like I get to 0:10:24.600 --> 0:10:27.199 when I do make payroll, you know, and we do, 0:10:27.400 --> 0:10:29.360 you know what I'm saying, But when we do make payroll, that. 0:10:29.360 --> 0:10:30.760 Shit feels good when it goes through. 0:10:30.800 --> 0:10:33.640 And like when I know I have work plan like planned, 0:10:33.640 --> 0:10:35.319 it's like I'm putting my people on. 0:10:36.800 --> 0:10:39.640 And so I'm so proud of you, dude. I forgot 0:10:39.679 --> 0:10:41.480 what the no. But I'm so proud of you. 0:10:41.520 --> 0:10:43.280 I'm proud of you because I'm listening to I hear 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:45.319 you speak and I'm just like, I've always You've always 0:10:45.320 --> 0:10:48.559 been such an intelligent boy having to fight. 0:10:48.400 --> 0:10:50.800 It properly, and it's like, just imagine what I could 0:10:50.800 --> 0:10:52.720 do that. That was the point where it's just like 0:10:53.200 --> 0:10:54.920 I haven't ever really had a plan. It's like the 0:10:55.000 --> 0:10:57.040 Joker says in the Batman movie, and just like a 0:10:57.240 --> 0:10:59.760 dog chasing cars and like if I ever caught a car, 0:10:59.760 --> 0:11:02.160 I not know what to do with it. But like 0:11:02.280 --> 0:11:05.240 now it's just like and it's worked out well, But 0:11:05.280 --> 0:11:07.000 I can't keep testing my luck because I have a 0:11:07.000 --> 0:11:08.760 lot of it has to do with them and it's 0:11:08.800 --> 0:11:10.520 twenty because I'm not I'm. 0:11:10.400 --> 0:11:11.800 The least like that of all you guys. 0:11:11.920 --> 0:11:15.400 Yeah, I believe in that heavy that mom in one 0:11:15.400 --> 0:11:17.840 way or another, is it looks out for me and 0:11:17.840 --> 0:11:21.439 she's you know, pushing positions to succeed or she's saved 0:11:21.480 --> 0:11:23.800 my ass and when I put myself in dumb situations 0:11:23.840 --> 0:11:24.440 and I'm like. 0:11:24.720 --> 0:11:26.400 I really believe that. I feel like she has saved 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:27.240 your ass a lot. 0:11:27.120 --> 0:11:28.840 And that luck is only going to run out for 0:11:28.880 --> 0:11:30.560 so long, and it's like, Okay, it's time to have 0:11:30.600 --> 0:11:33.520 a plan now, and it's time to want more and 0:11:33.720 --> 0:11:35.440 like see what you can do then, Like you know, 0:11:35.960 --> 0:11:38.840 it's like I feel like, despite myself, I've been able 0:11:38.840 --> 0:11:41.040 to make something in myself and now it's like, what 0:11:41.120 --> 0:11:42.520 can happen if I stop getting in. 0:11:42.480 --> 0:11:46.480 My own way? You know, like nice's due because no. 0:11:46.600 --> 0:11:49.800 Can't nobody hold you back, but you yeah, absolutely absolutely, 0:11:49.840 --> 0:11:53.000 Oh my god, I'm telling you, I freaking love my siblings. 0:11:53.040 --> 0:11:55.520 I always learn from them, and I'm just like I 0:11:55.559 --> 0:11:57.800 love listening to them. I love to listen to you 0:11:57.800 --> 0:11:59.800 guys speak because you guys are fucking like we dropping 0:11:59.840 --> 0:12:02.480 like little like nuggets, which is those little gems like 0:12:02.480 --> 0:12:04.480 today what you're saying about, Prince. I was listening Prince 0:12:04.480 --> 0:12:06.520 all morningful because you know me too this morn in 0:12:06.559 --> 0:12:06.920 the group. 0:12:06.840 --> 0:12:09.480 Child, I was just like, hell, yeah, I'm glad we 0:12:09.559 --> 0:12:11.679 have that like too, because there was like a lot 0:12:11.720 --> 0:12:14.840 of people that I find it so weird when people 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:16.600 are like, oh, I don't talk to my sister or 0:12:16.600 --> 0:12:18.719 like you know, or we don't really have a relationship 0:12:18.800 --> 0:12:20.600 or we didn't really grow up close, and that's so 0:12:21.280 --> 0:12:22.480 now that I'm older, I try. 0:12:22.360 --> 0:12:25.880 Not to judge because everybody's raised differently, and everybody goes 0:12:25.880 --> 0:12:29.440 through their own journeys, and people perceive other people's actions differently, 0:12:29.480 --> 0:12:31.840 so I can't be like, always forgive your siblings. But 0:12:32.400 --> 0:12:34.480 I'm so glad that I'm like I'm over here on 0:12:34.559 --> 0:12:35.080 my well, I. 0:12:35.040 --> 0:12:36.320 Think it was before my bike ride. 0:12:36.320 --> 0:12:38.120 I was getting ready and I was like, I was, 0:12:38.200 --> 0:12:39.880 you know, just flipping through YouTube and I'm like, oh, 0:12:39.880 --> 0:12:42.600 that sounds interesting and like there was like some really 0:12:42.640 --> 0:12:45.360 good stuff in them. And I was like, and I'm 0:12:45.400 --> 0:12:47.640 glad I can, like I have someone to send that to. 0:12:47.720 --> 0:12:49.920 And then we all had a conversation about it was great. 0:12:49.960 --> 0:12:53.000 We even we're good at that. We talked about Purple 0:12:53.080 --> 0:12:56.320 Rain and you know that's your prince. 0:12:56.160 --> 0:12:58.920 Is my father, you know, because I don't know if 0:12:58.960 --> 0:13:00.800 I've shared this before, I'm pretty sure I have. But 0:13:01.320 --> 0:13:04.720 I was conceived in a Monta Carlo at the drive in, 0:13:04.840 --> 0:13:07.760 like the movie drive in Thinkies or whatever. Listened to 0:13:07.760 --> 0:13:09.280 my mom. I guess you always told me this that 0:13:09.360 --> 0:13:11.400 she was They were listening to Purple Rain, so I 0:13:11.559 --> 0:13:14.360 was called Prince mat Patherno. So we were talking about that. 0:13:14.360 --> 0:13:16.320 We were having all this dialogue. It was really awesome. 0:13:16.559 --> 0:13:19.160 And I've shared with you guys that are that. 0:13:19.160 --> 0:13:21.040 You were born from pre come, so pre come. 0:13:21.600 --> 0:13:24.599 According to my mother, I knew that wait till the 0:13:24.640 --> 0:13:26.000 city never finished. 0:13:25.679 --> 0:13:27.040 At way too young of an age. 0:13:27.120 --> 0:13:31.640 Yeah, so I'm you know, powerful, Hey, but wait, I 0:13:31.640 --> 0:13:34.520 don't know, because then I know Dad is my dad 0:13:34.559 --> 0:13:36.719 and my biological father father because what we have the 0:13:36.760 --> 0:13:39.920 same father obviously, but anyways, because I look just like him, right, 0:13:40.240 --> 0:13:40.880 But I. 0:13:40.800 --> 0:13:41.840 Don't know where I heard this. 0:13:42.000 --> 0:13:42.880 I do look like Dad. 0:13:43.000 --> 0:13:46.479 Yeah, I'm barely coming to grips that we look like 0:13:46.000 --> 0:13:49.520 like that we look and now I'm like, oh, I 0:13:49.520 --> 0:13:52.040 see mom now in my face, I'm like, shit, that's weird, 0:13:52.160 --> 0:13:53.319 or even see like some of. 0:13:53.440 --> 0:13:56.319 My uncles, you for sure more these days, like. 0:13:56.520 --> 0:13:58.280 Ones that we don't one that we don't speak to. 0:13:59.080 --> 0:14:00.920 So it's like I'm like, I see it like you 0:14:00.960 --> 0:14:03.560 do in like the rear view mirror. I this in 0:14:03.600 --> 0:14:05.520 the bridge in my nose. I'm like, oh shit, that's weird. 0:14:05.559 --> 0:14:09.479 But yeah, honestly it's handsome father. 0:14:09.400 --> 0:14:11.760 My father, your father. I'm weirried about that word. 0:14:12.000 --> 0:14:14.440 Yeah, I know, I know, I know, But how do 0:14:14.440 --> 0:14:16.800 you feel about dad now talking about that, are you 0:14:16.960 --> 0:14:18.880 like more open to talking to him or you're like. 0:14:18.880 --> 0:14:19.920 Nah, I'm good. 0:14:20.520 --> 0:14:22.640 Actually, this is something that I did do when we 0:14:22.640 --> 0:14:24.640 were talking about, oh well, what should we talk about? 0:14:24.680 --> 0:14:27.360 And I luckily Mom sent me to that school when 0:14:27.400 --> 0:14:32.040 I was seventeen or sixteen, to the boarding school, and 0:14:32.080 --> 0:14:34.400 that was we thought I was going away so I 0:14:34.440 --> 0:14:36.600 can catch up in school. And that was the last 0:14:36.640 --> 0:14:38.720 of their words, like we did everything on the computer 0:14:39.080 --> 0:14:42.040 homeschooling program on the computer, but we did do seminars 0:14:42.080 --> 0:14:45.920 and we did daily therapy and so eight months. 0:14:45.960 --> 0:14:47.080 It was pretty much eight months. 0:14:48.120 --> 0:14:51.200 Yeah, yeah, And in that school I had to deal 0:14:51.240 --> 0:14:52.840 with And that's when when I came back, I started 0:14:52.880 --> 0:14:55.800 going by the name because I was like I hated 0:14:55.880 --> 0:14:57.640 Do you remember how angry I used to walk around 0:14:57.640 --> 0:15:00.000 for that guy, Like how mad I was all the time. 0:15:00.400 --> 0:15:03.440 Well, we were going through court for the whole trial thing. 0:15:04.000 --> 0:15:06.240 Mikey actually got a little physical with my dad. 0:15:06.400 --> 0:15:07.040 Yeah a lot. 0:15:07.080 --> 0:15:08.720 I think that's one of the things people bring up 0:15:08.720 --> 0:15:10.320 from the show a lot there, like did you really 0:15:10.480 --> 0:15:11.040 beat him up? 0:15:11.040 --> 0:15:12.920 I beat him up. I punched him once and they 0:15:12.920 --> 0:15:14.520 got socked up by my other uncles. 0:15:14.680 --> 0:15:15.960 Oh, yeah, by his family. 0:15:16.240 --> 0:15:18.840 Yeah, but and it was a whole rumble, but it. 0:15:18.880 --> 0:15:19.840 Was pretty crazy, I. 0:15:19.800 --> 0:15:22.320 Don't know, And that was genuine like anger. That was 0:15:22.360 --> 0:15:24.160 like my only chance that I ever and I don't 0:15:24.200 --> 0:15:26.600 regret that at all. Actually, Like it was like Mom 0:15:26.680 --> 0:15:28.400 was mad because she was like, you need to be 0:15:28.440 --> 0:15:31.320 representing me better and show that I raised a man 0:15:31.400 --> 0:15:33.920 with self control. Yeah, and I didn't have it in 0:15:33.920 --> 0:15:36.320 that moment, but I were young, but yeah, I mean, 0:15:36.440 --> 0:15:38.440 and I just needed to get that out. But you 0:15:38.520 --> 0:15:40.600 have anyways that because even you would tell me where 0:15:40.600 --> 0:15:43.400 it's like, you know, I would I would speak badly 0:15:43.440 --> 0:15:45.760 about him because of the anger that I internalized my 0:15:45.760 --> 0:15:47.800 whole childhood. And you would be like, and I would 0:15:47.800 --> 0:15:49.240 think there was something wrong with you. You're like, you 0:15:49.240 --> 0:15:51.040 don't need to speak like that about him, and I'm like, 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:53.160 and I thought that they're you know, I was like, yeah, 0:15:53.240 --> 0:15:55.240 I was like, whatever, that's just Cheeky's being Cheeky's. But 0:15:55.240 --> 0:15:57.320 then when I went to that school in Mexico we had, 0:15:57.480 --> 0:16:00.680 I was forced to deal with it, and it's just 0:16:00.720 --> 0:16:04.360 like really like genuinely like be like, all right, I 0:16:04.360 --> 0:16:06.760 don't have to walk around with this forever, like he's 0:16:06.800 --> 0:16:10.160 a human. He fucking made mistakes and he still needs 0:16:10.200 --> 0:16:14.640 to out, you know, to to he's he still needs 0:16:14.640 --> 0:16:16.720 to accept it or not or whatever. But whatever that is, 0:16:16.720 --> 0:16:19.360 that's on his own time for me, for my sake, 0:16:19.400 --> 0:16:21.040 for the sake because the people around me, for the 0:16:21.080 --> 0:16:22.400 sake of my children, I need. 0:16:22.280 --> 0:16:23.320