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Speaker 1: Warning, this episode contains references to extreme violence. Please use

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Speaker 1: discretion when listening. Nearing the end of my first week

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Speaker 1: in El Salvador, I was feeling completely exhausted. I'd traveled

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Speaker 1: all over from San Miguel to the capitol and back,

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Speaker 1: interviewing people who had lived through the war and listening

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Speaker 1: to the saddest stories. I had tried to mentally prepare myself,

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Speaker 1: it was a lot harder than I'd anticipated. So every night,

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Speaker 1: after a long day of interviews, I really looked forward

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Speaker 1: to going back to my hotel room, eating a quick dinner,

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Speaker 1: But on this particular evening, my dad interrupted dinner to

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Speaker 1: casually mention something. By the way, he said, I invited

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Speaker 1: my cousins over to the hotel so you can interview them.

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Speaker 1: They'll be here soon. I was totally caught off guard.

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Speaker 1: I didn't know anything about these cousins. What would I

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Speaker 1: ask them? Why would my dad just spring this on me?

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Speaker 1: To be honest, I was pretty annoyed. I didn't know

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Speaker 1: that these cousins were about to tell me about the

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Speaker 1: incident that sparked my family's journey north to the US,

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Speaker 1: the moment that brought the war to my family. I'm

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Speaker 1: Jasmine Romero and this is Sacred Scandal, Nation of Saints,

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Speaker 1: episode five, a death in the family.

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Speaker 2: We'll be right back, okay, thank you.

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Speaker 3: Is damn for power?

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Speaker 4: Margharita, are you stay Yiness and relation familiar?

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Speaker 5: Uh?

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Speaker 1: We settled into my hotel room, me, my parents, and

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Speaker 1: my dad's two cousins, Sola and Margharita. Soyla is the

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Speaker 1: shorter of the two, with a mullet of dark, curly hair.

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Speaker 1: She didn't really want to talk much, but Margharita slowly

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Speaker 2: See is it that one?

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Speaker 1: Margharita is in her mid sixties with straight black hair

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Speaker 1: and hooded eyes that gave her the nickname Lachina growing up.

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Speaker 1: For most of the interview, she held a plastic water

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Speaker 1: ambushed by this interview. I started out slowly asking questions

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Speaker 1: about what Margharita's childhood.

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Speaker 5: Was like.

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Speaker 1: My dad and his cousins grew up playing together in

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Speaker 1: San Miguel. Cousin Soula mentions a game called yanked onion. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: a kid would wrap their arms and legs around a tree,

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Speaker 1: in with the names of games that I've never heard of,

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Speaker 1: little broken pot, walking Pilgrim, since they all seem to

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Speaker 1: they were playing all these games barefoot. It's the thing

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Speaker 1: that I've heard my dad talk about from time to time,

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Speaker 1: how poor his family was growing up, the things that

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Speaker 1: they had to do to survive, But I've never actually

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Speaker 1: He talks about hunting for.

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Speaker 6: Food mala guando to o.

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Speaker 1: My dad and his brothers would go out looking for

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Speaker 1: My dad's childhood seems to be filled with these kinds

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Speaker 1: there were other events that shifted her childhood, something that

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Speaker 6: Porquer Ricardo Kei, Earlia ke and Elenin here at the home.

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Speaker 1: Elenim is the nickname for the local high school in

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Speaker 1: The same movements that had taken root in the capitol

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Speaker 1: The more the government squashed the protests, the more the

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Speaker 1: In the years to come, the psych would repeat. Of course,

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Speaker 1: the government's reasons for the killings were always the same,

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Speaker 1: rooting out those who were cooperating with the leftists. Even

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Speaker 1: for people like my parents, the assumption always was if

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Speaker 1: what my dad says to Margharita about someone named Maria

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Speaker 1: no Nadi. My dad had always assumed that Maria was

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Speaker 1: my dad's aunt cousin Margharita's mother.

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Speaker 4: El Partido and mah prom Pero or local.

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Speaker 3: Porce.

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Speaker 1: To this day, no one knows exactly why the Amara

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Speaker 1: was murdered. They all have theories, and it kind of

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Speaker 1: It's like this is the first time that they've ever

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Speaker 1: theory El Sindicato the union. She says, Maria was part

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Speaker 6: Cando.

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Speaker 1: They were rounding them up, he says, dumping them into

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Speaker 1: when people started disappearing in San Miuel, especially those aligned

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Speaker 1: with the unions. Police would come to your house and

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Speaker 6: No no yeki, no taqi.

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Speaker 1: Then a couple days later a body would pop up

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Speaker 1: This felt like just a crazy thing that was happening

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Speaker 1: This was the work of Loses Squadron, the death squads

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Speaker 1: I ask cousin Margherita, what exactly happened to your mother.

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Speaker 1: It was late afternoon. Margharita was out on the patio

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Speaker 1: The men in the trucks put on ski masks to

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Speaker 7: Agar Lo Pusil the Amara stepped out of the house

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Speaker 7: and told them, if you're looking for me, well here

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Speaker 7: I am.

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Speaker 1: Let go of my daughter Yasala. Inside, Margherita's two younger

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Speaker 1: brothers were hiding in the kitchena.

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Speaker 4: E co migoya lasak dentria de la casa isla Mala.

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Speaker 1: The men then grabbed the a Maria, forcing her out

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Speaker 4: I ye yasilvaro miselle and cordenot yes.

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Speaker 3: I am helpak.

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Speaker 1: They shot the Amaria there on the patio in front

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Speaker 1: she watched her mother.

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Speaker 3: Die and joto yamugia.

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Speaker 1: That night, my dad heard the news that his aunt

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Speaker 1: my mom walked over to the Amaria's house, expecting to

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Speaker 1: Margarita and her younger brothers all huddled around the Amaria's body.

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Speaker 1: They had sat there all night waiting for the corner

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Speaker 2: Take her away.

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Speaker 1: My dad says that the police came and took note

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Speaker 6: Guanto di Paro as if that mattered to anyone, He says,

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Speaker 6: as if anyone would do anything about it.

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Speaker 1: To this day, my family doesn't know exactly who did

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Speaker 1: it or why. It was August of nineteen eighty five,

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Speaker 1: it was the first time that the approaching war had

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Speaker 1: the break. After talking with my dad and his cousins,

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Speaker 1: I realized that it was time for me to finally

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Speaker 1: If I'm honest, I think I'd been avoiding it, dreading

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Speaker 1: what I might hear.

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Speaker 8: Testing testing one, two three, say something that was very cute.

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Speaker 1: Mom, that's my mom, Anna Viatrice.

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Speaker 9: Introduce yourself in English. Please, your accent is not bad. No, no,

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Speaker 9: you sound great. Speak English please.

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Speaker 3: Okay.

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Speaker 10: My name is Anna Veatrice Reyes and I'm the mom

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Speaker 10: of Jasmine Romero, who is my fourth daughter.

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Speaker 1: My mom's pretty shy. She's the kind of person who

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Speaker 1: covers her mouth when she smiles, so it was like

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Speaker 1: pulling teeth to get her to talk to me on Mike.

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Speaker 1: But with some coaxing, she finally came around. My parents

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Speaker 1: have been together since they were teenagers. Together is the

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Speaker 1: only life they've ever known, and El Salvador was the

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Speaker 1: only place they'd ever been. After Theamaria was killed, Cousin

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Speaker 1: Margharita left for the US. It was becoming more and

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Speaker 1: more common for people to immigrate north, especially with the

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Speaker 1: escalating violence.

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Speaker 6: That year.

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Speaker 1: Nineteen eighty began a flood of immigration that hasn't stopped

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Speaker 1: to this day. When Cousin Margharita left, around ninety five

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Speaker 1: thousand Salvadoran immigrants had already immigrated to the US, mostly illegally,

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Speaker 1: and even if they had wanted to go legally, that

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Speaker 1: wasn't really an option. Only two percent of all asylum

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Speaker 1: claims from El Salvador to the US were approved because

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Speaker 1: allowing those claims would have confirmed what the US continued

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Speaker 1: to deny that their funding was, making the situation in

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Speaker 1: El salvas Or worse. So illegal immigration was kind of

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Speaker 1: the only option, but it was really expensive. It required

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Speaker 1: buying a flight into Mexico and then paying a coyote

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Speaker 2: Across the border.

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Speaker 1: At the time, my mom was nineteen years old with

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Speaker 1: my great grandparents, seven people sharing a one room Shack.

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Speaker 1: The idea of getting enough money together to get to

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Speaker 1: Y three days later, just as my mom was arriving

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Speaker 1: one that went beyond the brutalities of war. That's next

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