WEBVTT - I Just Wanna Feel Joy 0:00:00.400 --> 0:00:11.880 Forever. Hello, my dear friend movie. Hi. Hello, Hey guys. 0:00:12.000 --> 0:00:13.800 Wow, I'm in a great mood. 0:00:14.520 --> 0:00:17.960 I'm lying, I'm not great. 0:00:18.239 --> 0:00:20.120 I'm just like, if I say it out loud, will 0:00:20.160 --> 0:00:22.200 it be real? Will it be real? Sometimes? Yeah, you 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:23.880 gotta put it out into you. You gotta put it 0:00:23.880 --> 0:00:24.200 out there. 0:00:24.360 --> 0:00:24.560 Yeah. 0:00:25.640 --> 0:00:27.840 Why are you not in a good mood? How you feeling? 0:00:27.960 --> 0:00:28.120 No? 0:00:28.120 --> 0:00:30.480 No, no, it's not that I'm not in a good mood. 0:00:30.560 --> 0:00:34.880 It's just I mean, obviously this is I'm talking about 0:00:34.880 --> 0:00:35.400 what's going on. 0:00:35.440 --> 0:00:37.560 I'm not at work right now. I should be at work, 0:00:37.680 --> 0:00:38.640 right I'm not at work. 0:00:38.920 --> 0:00:41.440 So the people who are listening, who work with me, Yeah, 0:00:41.440 --> 0:00:42.479 I ain't go to work today. 0:00:42.560 --> 0:00:43.440 And yeah, but by. 0:00:43.360 --> 0:00:44.760 The time this episode comes out, it's gonna be too 0:00:44.800 --> 0:00:49.800 late for you to sit a trick. Holiday Season's greetings, 0:00:50.240 --> 0:00:51.159 Please don't snitch? 0:00:51.840 --> 0:00:52.560 Right, So I didn't. 0:00:52.600 --> 0:00:55.640 I didn't go to work today. I'm here snitching on myself. 0:00:55.680 --> 0:01:00.080 Whatever's And I'm just like, it's towards the end of 0:01:00.120 --> 0:01:01.760 the year, and it's just you're trying to wrap up 0:01:01.760 --> 0:01:03.520 stuff and you're trying to figure out what exactly are 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:05.760 you doing, and there's not much to do, and it's 0:01:05.760 --> 0:01:07.240 like am I getting auditions or not? 0:01:07.400 --> 0:01:09.440 Like do I have work or do I not have work? 0:01:09.600 --> 0:01:12.680 So I'm just like in this weird limbo situation where 0:01:12.680 --> 0:01:15.160 it's like, Okay, I can make something happen, but I 0:01:15.160 --> 0:01:18.000 can make myself have some work if I wanted to. 0:01:18.600 --> 0:01:20.800 And I feel like that's where I've been for the 0:01:20.840 --> 0:01:24.360 last couple of months. It's like I couldn't make myself 0:01:24.840 --> 0:01:26.880 get some work if I want to, but. 0:01:26.959 --> 0:01:27.440 It's like. 0:01:29.400 --> 0:01:33.000 It's hard, Like doing work is hard, getting started is hard. 0:01:33.040 --> 0:01:36.280 Motivating myself to do things is hard. You get up 0:01:36.280 --> 0:01:37.480 every day and you go to work because you've got 0:01:37.520 --> 0:01:37.720 to go. 0:01:37.640 --> 0:01:42.319 To work, right, And that is the great thing about 0:01:42.480 --> 0:01:43.360 having a job. 0:01:43.480 --> 0:01:45.160 It just gets you in the. 0:01:46.720 --> 0:01:48.960 Mood to be like, Okay, I have to be motivated, 0:01:48.960 --> 0:01:50.720 I have to get up, I have to go there. 0:01:51.200 --> 0:01:53.880 It's so real and that's why. 0:01:53.800 --> 0:01:56.480 I get people who have day jobs just be a 0:01:56.560 --> 0:02:00.000 little bit more motivated then sometimes like freelance people. 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:02.680 But there's people who work from home who are motivated. 0:02:02.720 --> 0:02:04.600 They do get work that we know some of those people. 0:02:04.600 --> 0:02:07.040 They're madd young and they booking things and they're right, 0:02:07.120 --> 0:02:10.240 they're on their seventh or eighth booked writing job, and 0:02:10.280 --> 0:02:16.239 I'd be like, how you twelve? How you booking? 0:02:16.400 --> 0:02:17.960 How you know? 0:02:18.080 --> 0:02:21.280 But because those people can get up and and motivate 0:02:21.320 --> 0:02:23.720 themselves and they don't necessarily have to be in an 0:02:23.720 --> 0:02:26.560 office to do it. Like, whoa, it's five thirty am. 0:02:26.639 --> 0:02:29.000 I feel like that's a morning person. Oh I'm writing 0:02:29.040 --> 0:02:31.760 something about this now, morning people verse. What's the opposite 0:02:31.760 --> 0:02:35.080 of a morning person a night owl? Yeah, morning people 0:02:35.120 --> 0:02:37.680 versus night owls because morning people are insane. 0:02:38.040 --> 0:02:40.720 Yeah, I want no parts of it. I feel like 0:02:40.760 --> 0:02:43.800 I've tried to force myself having this job, to be 0:02:43.840 --> 0:02:45.720 a morning person, and that's why I was drinking so 0:02:45.840 --> 0:02:48.400 much fucking coffee. I was having like three expressos a 0:02:48.480 --> 0:02:51.799 day to keep up. And it's just like, no, it's 0:02:51.840 --> 0:02:54.359 within people who like being up in the world. 0:02:54.400 --> 0:02:54.920 That's them. 0:02:55.320 --> 0:03:01.160 They're not for They're hello, neighbor, like those just flanders 0:03:01.160 --> 0:03:03.040 ass happy morning people. 0:03:04.919 --> 0:03:07.160 Those are the people that are not shoulder checking people 0:03:07.200 --> 0:03:08.480 on the on the fucking subway. 0:03:08.600 --> 0:03:10.400 They're just like they just get it. 0:03:10.440 --> 0:03:12.360 They're like, oh, well, everybody's in a bad mood. 0:03:12.200 --> 0:03:15.000 Okay, and then cut to my night. I will ass 0:03:15.000 --> 0:03:17.720 on the train at ten. That's too, that's too early 0:03:17.760 --> 0:03:20.160 for me to be on the Yeah, too many people. 0:03:20.240 --> 0:03:22.520 And it's like, why are you giving me direct eye contact? 0:03:22.520 --> 0:03:23.320 Are you a psycho? 0:03:23.440 --> 0:03:23.680 Are you? 0:03:23.919 --> 0:03:25.560 Are you a serial killer who is. 0:03:25.520 --> 0:03:31.080 Giving both day maybe whistling only morning people. Psychos whistle 0:03:31.120 --> 0:03:34.680 in the morning, whistle and skip skip in a hard bottom, 0:03:34.800 --> 0:03:38.800 just a briefcase, swinging in the breeze. 0:03:37.680 --> 0:03:41.000 Just randomly sparkling up conversation for no reason. 0:03:41.120 --> 0:03:41.480 Mm. 0:03:41.760 --> 0:03:46.160 You like that book What a Bagel Is That? It's 0:03:46.280 --> 0:03:49.080 great bagel place on what's the street? 0:03:49.160 --> 0:03:49.400 Dot? 0:03:51.040 --> 0:03:52.720 I see you're going through a breakup right now? 0:03:52.800 --> 0:03:53.160 Huh? 0:03:53.400 --> 0:03:55.400 Like they're reading your fucking text and then they want 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:56.200 to have a conversation. 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:58.360 You're like, what's you spelled Wednesday wrong? 0:03:58.480 --> 0:04:03.280 Shut your ass, Andrew? Are you're a running person? 0:04:03.480 --> 0:04:05.240 I used to be a morning person. I used to 0:04:05.320 --> 0:04:07.080 have like a really good schedule where I woke up 0:04:07.120 --> 0:04:09.920 every morning at six am to work out. 0:04:09.960 --> 0:04:13.000 A good schedule. Ah yes, yes, a good regiment. 0:04:12.880 --> 0:04:16.000 And then go to class at nine am or work 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:18.400 or whatever. It was so good, But now I fell 0:04:18.640 --> 0:04:21.440 so far from it that I'm like not even setting. 0:04:21.120 --> 0:04:25.320 Alarms because you know, longer have to be up for class. 0:04:25.040 --> 0:04:27.400 Right Yeah, I know? And it's like the schedule, like 0:04:27.440 --> 0:04:32.320 the schedule here is just like so different every day. So, 0:04:32.360 --> 0:04:33.000 but how old are you? 0:04:33.080 --> 0:04:33.440 Andrew? 0:04:33.839 --> 0:04:36.000 I just turned twenty four. 0:04:36.480 --> 0:04:38.440 You're like, yeah, but I've been said, we know some 0:04:38.480 --> 0:04:40.920 twenty four year olds that are booking things and selling 0:04:40.960 --> 0:04:42.440 things and writing movies. 0:04:42.520 --> 0:04:44.000 So thank you two better friends. 0:04:44.520 --> 0:04:49.880 Reminder, you're not doing that great Andrew better friends exactly. 0:04:49.920 --> 0:04:52.120 Don't listen to Sydney, get up running and do them things. 0:04:52.960 --> 0:04:56.760 Waiting four is too old. I know you're you're practically 0:04:56.800 --> 0:04:59.760 dead deader yesh, my gosh, you're a quarter. 0:05:01.279 --> 0:05:03.279 Well I'm twenty three, so I don't know about y'all 0:05:03.360 --> 0:05:06.719 old people in here, but uh yeah, it's hard. 0:05:07.200 --> 0:05:07.400 You know. 0:05:07.839 --> 0:05:09.920 I'm trying to, like because I don't want to wait 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:11.760 until the beginning of the year to change. 0:05:11.839 --> 0:05:13.800 No, you gotta do it now now. You have to 0:05:13.839 --> 0:05:14.680 do it fucky right now. 0:05:14.720 --> 0:05:16.560 And I gotta do something for ten days in a 0:05:16.640 --> 0:05:18.640 row for it to become a habit or something like that, 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:21.679 Like yeah, whoo, I don't even get to rest on Sunday, 0:05:21.760 --> 0:05:23.120 not even on God's Day. 0:05:23.200 --> 0:05:25.800 You gotta do it every every day, every single day. 0:05:25.839 --> 0:05:29.560 But the thing is, my nights are not always the same. No, right, 0:05:30.240 --> 0:05:31.320 like some nights, I'll be home. 0:05:31.480 --> 0:05:34.280 Last night, whoa, what time did you go to bed? 0:05:34.640 --> 0:05:36.400 Well, I fell sleep on my couch while I was 0:05:36.440 --> 0:05:37.520 watching something. 0:05:37.240 --> 0:05:39.239 On gorgeous fucking couch. 0:05:39.360 --> 0:05:40.400 Oh, it's so sad. 0:05:40.480 --> 0:05:41.560 I love it. 0:05:42.200 --> 0:05:44.599 I looked online. I was like, Marie, I can't afford 0:05:44.600 --> 0:05:45.040 this couch. 0:05:45.120 --> 0:05:49.080 Well, you know this Patreon, you can't afford this couch 0:05:49.160 --> 0:05:51.400 that couch. I can. 0:05:51.600 --> 0:05:53.479 But then I'm like, what do I do for the 0:05:53.480 --> 0:05:56.400 rest of the month. I gotta I actually have several 0:05:56.440 --> 0:05:58.680 checks that I have not catch yet. But still it's 0:05:58.800 --> 0:06:03.280 just like wealthy. No, I'm just like, you know I live. 0:06:03.520 --> 0:06:06.720 I don't know if you guys know, ye, I live. Well, 0:06:06.800 --> 0:06:09.360 I live with Carolina. I live in her building. She's 0:06:09.400 --> 0:06:10.040 my landlord. 0:06:11.240 --> 0:06:15.560 And I love that. I live like in. 0:06:15.560 --> 0:06:17.880 Close corners with my friend who checks on me, who 0:06:17.960 --> 0:06:20.800 cooks and like does all that's great, but I need 0:06:20.839 --> 0:06:25.160 to be closer. I need to be not in the city, 0:06:25.200 --> 0:06:28.760 but close, sir, to the city. And we live at 0:06:28.760 --> 0:06:31.800 the end of fucking Brooklyn, Dude, we pretty much live 0:06:31.839 --> 0:06:36.160 in the Bronx. It's so far and I don't want 0:06:36.160 --> 0:06:38.760 to complain because I'm so blessed, Thank you Carolina for 0:06:39.040 --> 0:06:42.120 the cheap ass rent that I'm paying. But it's just 0:06:42.120 --> 0:06:45.440 like I have a roommate. I'm too old. I don't 0:06:45.880 --> 0:06:49.240 I'm too grown. She's never there, right, I've never there. 0:06:49.320 --> 0:06:50.320 She's a nice girl. 0:06:50.440 --> 0:06:51.760 I feel like you're also never there. 0:06:52.240 --> 0:06:54.599 I'm never there either, But I just I would probably 0:06:54.600 --> 0:06:57.480 be there more if it was closer and if it 0:06:57.560 --> 0:07:00.880 was my own place, and if I wasn't going through 0:07:01.320 --> 0:07:02.800 whatever transitions I'm going through. 0:07:02.839 --> 0:07:04.440 It's it's just, you know. 0:07:05.400 --> 0:07:07.640 In New York, we get fucked up and think like, yeah, 0:07:07.720 --> 0:07:10.760 I should have roommates and I should be thirty five figure, 0:07:10.760 --> 0:07:11.280 and it's. 0:07:11.160 --> 0:07:14.720 Like, no, man figured that should out already because it's 0:07:14.760 --> 0:07:18.040 like it's gonna be your future. This could be your 0:07:18.720 --> 0:07:21.600 living far away at the edge of Brooklyn. 0:07:21.760 --> 0:07:24.040 I'm very comfortable living alone in Chelsea. 0:07:24.240 --> 0:07:27.920 No, no privileged white Gate privilege, that's what that is. 0:07:29.640 --> 0:07:30.480 Give me some of it. 0:07:31.280 --> 0:07:32.960 But I did get punched on my block. 0:07:32.800 --> 0:07:37.520 Though, No, yes, we do remember that. No, Sydney, you've 0:07:37.560 --> 0:07:39.320 never been punched this it's far but you. No one's 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:39.800 ever punched you. 0:07:39.960 --> 0:07:42.720 No, I've never because I go immediately into my uber. 0:07:42.920 --> 0:07:44.440 So sorry, just. 0:07:44.640 --> 0:07:46.360 Door to door, door to door. 0:07:46.720 --> 0:07:50.640 Yeah, so it's like, you know, you want to be 0:07:50.760 --> 0:07:55.800 ready before twenty twenty to have new goals, new habits, 0:07:55.880 --> 0:07:59.040 blah blah blah, and just be motivated and passionate about shit. 0:07:59.160 --> 0:08:01.040 It's just I mean, at the end of the year 0:08:01.160 --> 0:08:02.960 is like, what are you passionate about? What are y'all 0:08:02.960 --> 0:08:03.440 trying to do? 0:08:04.040 --> 0:08:04.240 Right? 0:08:04.360 --> 0:08:08.040 Like I watched Quincy Jones documentary like a year ago 0:08:08.200 --> 0:08:11.560 or whenever it came out, and he did so much 0:08:12.040 --> 0:08:14.040 in his lifetime, but he would do so much in 0:08:14.120 --> 0:08:16.200 a day that he never had time to actually sit 0:08:16.680 --> 0:08:19.559 and like watch a movie or something. I watched three 0:08:19.600 --> 0:08:22.600 movies this weekend. I just had all of the time. 0:08:22.720 --> 0:08:24.200 But you also have a couch. 0:08:25.160 --> 0:08:25.520 I know. 0:08:25.720 --> 0:08:28.760 I'm such a bum dude. Oh you like twenty twenty 0:08:28.800 --> 0:08:30.160 reasy can't be this bummy. 0:08:30.240 --> 0:08:33.200 No, you will not, you will not. But also I 0:08:33.240 --> 0:08:35.160 feel like this is just like a new thing. You 0:08:35.200 --> 0:08:39.280 got a new apartment. You're by yourself. It's a big deal. 0:08:39.440 --> 0:08:42.640 I know, by myself so I can procrastinate butt naked now. 0:08:42.760 --> 0:08:46.680 It's crazy the apartment is in your name, Like, oh 0:08:46.720 --> 0:08:47.840 it is right, because. 0:08:47.600 --> 0:08:49.439 My last apartment it was not not in my name. 0:08:49.440 --> 0:08:51.200 It's just this is huge. 0:08:51.520 --> 0:08:51.760 I know. 0:08:51.840 --> 0:08:54.120 But like literally yesterday, instead of going to bed, I 0:08:54.160 --> 0:08:57.400 spent an hour rearranging the same three plants between three 0:08:57.440 --> 0:08:59.320 different rooms. I just was like, well, I feel like 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:02.599 this is some night I will be s No. 0:09:02.679 --> 0:09:05.200 Yeah, Like it is crazy living alone, like no one's 0:09:05.240 --> 0:09:07.839 keeping you accountable, like you're not seeing another person, like 0:09:08.040 --> 0:09:08.880 doing other things. 0:09:09.960 --> 0:09:11.839 But that's why I wanted to live by myself, because 0:09:11.960 --> 0:09:13.440 I don't want anybody to walk in and be like 0:09:13.480 --> 0:09:15.560 you just you just good on the couch for the 0:09:15.559 --> 0:09:18.200 rest of the weekend. Like that's what I wanted, and 0:09:18.240 --> 0:09:20.640 now I have it, and I'm like, ah, I gotta 0:09:20.679 --> 0:09:21.360 get outside. 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:23.080 Yeah. 0:09:23.120 --> 0:09:26.640 And it was, you know, it was Larry's birthday, and 0:09:26.760 --> 0:09:30.080 so he was at Carolina's and I was like, Carolina, 0:09:30.160 --> 0:09:32.240 this is the den, this is the cave, like this 0:09:32.320 --> 0:09:35.240 is the coffee shop. People could just like lay up 0:09:35.440 --> 0:09:36.200 central perk. 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:39.800 Yeah. They had like two bottles of champagne. They had drank. 0:09:39.880 --> 0:09:42.240 They had eight. I was like, I was like, you 0:09:42.280 --> 0:09:46.520 got to get out everybody. They had no no, yeah, 0:09:46.679 --> 0:09:49.840 drank they had eight. No, no, no, they had eight. 0:09:50.440 --> 0:09:52.760 But that's the cool thing about living with your friend, though, Sydney. 0:09:52.760 --> 0:09:55.440 You're basically living in a sipcon right now, pretty much, 0:09:55.440 --> 0:09:58.800 because I would go in, you're a cramer now I'm 0:09:58.880 --> 0:10:01.679 Max who living single? 0:10:01.720 --> 0:10:03.320 But then she used to just bust in and eat 0:10:03.320 --> 0:10:03.800 their food. 0:10:04.040 --> 0:10:06.960 Yes, all the time, Max, Yeah, that was her thing. 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:08.960 She come and going to her fridge. 0:10:09.120 --> 0:10:09.520 Everything. 0:10:09.640 --> 0:10:12.680 She'd be in her in her work clothes every time. 0:10:12.880 --> 0:10:14.640 Yes, with the accordion briefcase. 0:10:15.880 --> 0:10:19.440 And I have, I guess in my double bag and 0:10:19.480 --> 0:10:21.760 I'm double back with all my things. 0:10:21.920 --> 0:10:22.640 Your makeup bag. 0:10:22.840 --> 0:10:25.560 Yeah, so it's I mean, I love it, but I 0:10:25.559 --> 0:10:28.959 also I'm like, damn, I do would like. 0:10:29.440 --> 0:10:31.240 To live in the city, That would be you. 0:10:31.240 --> 0:10:32.760 Want to live in the city again? Where would you live? 0:10:32.960 --> 0:10:36.640 Will part? If money? Money ain't a thing though? 0:10:36.720 --> 0:10:39.480 Without like Rice, what if you had the same thing, like, 0:10:39.520 --> 0:10:40.959 what would you Where would you want to live? 0:10:41.040 --> 0:10:42.280 Maybe the Lower east Side. 0:10:42.400 --> 0:10:45.240 That's cute Lower east Side for sure, because that's that's 0:10:45.400 --> 0:10:49.720 near everything, right everywhere I need to be. But it's 0:10:49.880 --> 0:10:53.040 so much going on there now, it's so congested, it's. 0:10:52.880 --> 0:10:55.040 So dirty too. Lots of. 0:10:56.640 --> 0:10:58.920 Two years during college it was so nice. 0:10:59.080 --> 0:11:03.280 But if you like convenient, very convenient, you get to everything. 0:11:03.640 --> 0:11:06.520 Everything is quick, right, and it is loud, especially on 0:11:06.559 --> 0:11:07.000 the weekend. 0:11:07.320 --> 0:11:09.360 Yeah, and that's what I don't like. I don't have 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:10.000 patience for that. 0:11:10.320 --> 0:11:12.240 Crowds that are going out to the bars there are 0:11:12.600 --> 0:11:15.680 like fun either, it's like really boring. People too from 0:11:15.720 --> 0:11:17.480 like Hoboken yike. 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:22.520 Yeah, yeah their weekend wee weekends Bridge and hey, hey 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:23.400 I'm from Long Island. 0:11:23.440 --> 0:11:26.080 I'm walking barefoot on the sidewalk because my Steve Madden's 0:11:26.160 --> 0:11:26.880 hurt my feet. 0:11:27.000 --> 0:11:29.800 That's exactly the story. That's the narrative. 0:11:30.200 --> 0:11:34.359 My name is Connor, my name is Colin from Ronkonkomo. 0:11:34.640 --> 0:11:39.280 Yeah. It's you know, being an adult is it's exciting 0:11:39.320 --> 0:11:43.360 but also like it's heartful, it's hard, and so everybody 0:11:43.400 --> 0:11:45.679 has the hype where they're like I can't wait to 0:11:45.720 --> 0:11:49.440 get older, and it's like it's okay to be twenty one. 0:11:49.880 --> 0:11:52.480 Only children are hype, and then when you get old, 0:11:52.520 --> 0:11:54.800 you'd be like if I could turn back. 0:11:54.679 --> 0:11:59.480 The time, the fucking turned back time. I forgot. 0:11:59.520 --> 0:12:02.360 I forget to pay my bills regularly as an adult 0:12:02.679 --> 0:12:04.439 because I don't have auto pay on anything sent for 0:12:04.520 --> 0:12:08.000 my cell phone, right yeah right, because I need that, 0:12:09.400 --> 0:12:11.240 but but also because my phone is prepaid. That's why 0:12:11.240 --> 0:12:14.080 I paid before the month. Shout out to Verizon prepaid. 0:12:15.200 --> 0:12:19.679 But all of like my my electric, my internet, my gas, 0:12:19.840 --> 0:12:22.679 all that I have to remember to pay. They'll send 0:12:22.720 --> 0:12:24.240 me a bill or I do like paper. 0:12:24.040 --> 0:12:26.120 Lists for some of them. And I forgot to pay 0:12:26.200 --> 0:12:31.559 my heat for two months, messy boots, is that kind 0:12:31.600 --> 0:12:34.199 of or kind of might be electric? Whatever it is. 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:36.079 I forgot to pay one of my bills for two 0:12:36.120 --> 0:12:39.240 months and I got a final termination notice via email 0:12:39.280 --> 0:12:39.600 and I was. 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:43.120 Like gat damn. I was like, well, where were the 0:12:43.200 --> 0:12:43.920 other notices? 0:12:43.960 --> 0:12:46.520 And it was like, well, we've been messaging you your 0:12:46.600 --> 0:12:48.320 bill for the last two months and you just haven't 0:12:48.360 --> 0:12:48.839 been paying it. 0:12:49.480 --> 0:12:51.280 And I was like whoa. And I went on to 0:12:51.320 --> 0:12:52.720 pay it immediately forgot. 0:12:54.800 --> 0:12:56.640 But we were talking about you paying this bill the 0:12:56.679 --> 0:12:59.120 whole time we were together. You looked at me, You're like, 0:12:59.120 --> 0:13:01.760 look at it. I was like, look, I'm gonna have 0:13:02.160 --> 0:13:05.040 no I'm gonna have no lights, no nothing, no lights. 0:13:06.120 --> 0:13:09.360 And then it's two days later I remember to pay it. 0:13:11.240 --> 0:13:14.880 I mean somethings it should just be included. Why the 0:13:14.920 --> 0:13:15.600 fuck are we right? 0:13:16.559 --> 0:13:20.400 Everybody deserves lights, Everybody that you're outside. 0:13:20.160 --> 0:13:23.640 Everybody deserves lights and therapy. To be honest, Okay, let's 0:13:23.640 --> 0:13:24.120 talk about it. 0:13:24.320 --> 0:13:26.439 Therapy should be something that it should be in the 0:13:26.480 --> 0:13:30.640 constitution life, liberty. The pursuit of therapy, that's the pursuit 0:13:30.640 --> 0:13:33.000 of happiness is therapy. I mean the movie He was 0:13:33.040 --> 0:13:35.439 a Homeless man with a with a cute son, that 0:13:36.040 --> 0:13:36.520 is Batman. 0:13:36.640 --> 0:13:38.959 Now, I don't know if it's just like why I 0:13:39.040 --> 0:13:41.640 gotta figure this shit out on my own, have health 0:13:41.679 --> 0:13:45.360 insurance and get somebody who properly wearing like sturdy shoes 0:13:45.440 --> 0:13:47.560 to talk to me and unpack my childhood. 0:13:48.720 --> 0:13:51.320 When you want to therapy, my voice cracks. Sorry, I'm 0:13:51.320 --> 0:13:53.480 gonna repeat what I just said. When you go to therapy, 0:13:54.320 --> 0:13:55.959 you don't have to start at your childhood. You just 0:13:56.000 --> 0:13:58.360 start wherever you want, right, you start at the beginning, 0:13:58.440 --> 0:13:59.080 You start, you. 0:13:59.200 --> 0:14:01.040 Start whatever you want, like you talk to them. 0:14:01.200 --> 0:14:03.800 But then it eventually it leads to like, Okay, we 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:07.440 need to figure out why you're having these issues, and. 0:14:07.520 --> 0:14:10.640 That's why you have to go TBT. It's like a 0:14:10.720 --> 0:14:12.559 TBT when you edited therap. 0:14:12.440 --> 0:14:16.480 TBT t E a TBT Tbtah, I said TVT Yeah, 0:14:16.520 --> 0:14:19.280 what I'm saying like like t you're spilling your t Okay. 0:14:19.080 --> 0:14:21.280 Okay, oh tvt's work. 0:14:21.600 --> 0:14:22.520 You're such a comedian. 0:14:22.840 --> 0:14:23.040 Wow. 0:14:25.400 --> 0:14:27.560 Yeah, But it's it's just like you don't know this person. 0:14:28.040 --> 0:14:31.400 It feels like you're forever on a first date with 0:14:31.560 --> 0:14:34.480 your therapist until y'all are fucking cool, and then you 0:14:34.560 --> 0:14:36.840 feel mad comfortable and then it's nothing. Then it's like 0:14:37.080 --> 0:14:39.280 when I talk to you, it's no big deal. But 0:14:39.440 --> 0:14:42.360 for a minute, you're like, I don't know you. 0:14:42.960 --> 0:14:45.160 How do I How can I trust that you're gonna 0:14:45.160 --> 0:14:46.240 help me get to where I need? 0:14:46.440 --> 0:14:46.480 So? 0:14:46.560 --> 0:14:48.200 How can I trust that you're not gonna go home 0:14:48.280 --> 0:14:51.000 and talk to your boyfriend about this? I don't know, 0:14:51.240 --> 0:14:51.880 you know what I mean. 0:14:52.320 --> 0:14:55.760 My therapist like recently it was like, oh, well, at 0:14:55.840 --> 0:14:57.400 least like you know that I'm here for you, and 0:14:57.440 --> 0:14:59.280 I'm like, well, because I'm paying you. 0:15:00.240 --> 0:15:02.400 It was a good nerve and I told that to her. 0:15:02.400 --> 0:15:06.880 And she was like, oh, yeah, what's her name, Joyce Linda, Linda. 0:15:07.040 --> 0:15:10.040 That's a good therapist name, Linda. She is it has 0:15:10.120 --> 0:15:13.400 to be like very bland. I don't want anything. 0:15:14.080 --> 0:15:17.120 It's just you doing too much with the name. It's like, ah, 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:17.960 you can't. 0:15:18.680 --> 0:15:21.880 I can't have a Rhann in. Yeah, Rhannon is too colorful, 0:15:22.640 --> 0:15:27.520 Carol Anne, those are like perfect, Mary, those are great. 0:15:28.080 --> 0:15:32.720 Clarissa, No, no, too much personality. Yeah, Larissa explains too much. 0:15:32.800 --> 0:15:36.600 Yeah, okay, Clarissa feels like, oh, oh you're doing something 0:15:36.640 --> 0:15:38.440 after this, right, you don't want to answer. 0:15:38.480 --> 0:15:38.640 Yeah. 0:15:38.640 --> 0:15:41.280 I want a therapist that hangs out only at therapy 0:15:41.360 --> 0:15:42.600 and then goes home and that's it. 0:15:42.760 --> 0:15:45.720 In the dark. Yeah, no lights. Kned has no friends. 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:49.240 My last therapist told me that she was like over 0:15:49.280 --> 0:15:51.000 the weekend, she was like, oh, I played basketball at 0:15:51.000 --> 0:15:53.520 the park with my boyfriend. I'm like, I don't like 0:15:53.640 --> 0:15:54.160 that you did that. 0:15:54.520 --> 0:15:56.600 Yeah that I don't need any of that information. Yeah, 0:15:57.000 --> 0:15:59.360 it was too cold for basketball one and you got. 0:15:59.280 --> 0:16:01.000 A man and well here. 0:16:03.120 --> 0:16:03.720 Not having one. 0:16:03.840 --> 0:16:06.680 Actually, I felt like that was a flex that was flexing. 0:16:07.040 --> 0:16:07.240 Yeah. 0:16:07.520 --> 0:16:09.080 She was liken, use your money to go to the 0:16:09.240 --> 0:16:11.480 YMCA some ball with my boyfriend. 0:16:11.480 --> 0:16:12.960 And You're like, I could see your knees. There's no 0:16:13.040 --> 0:16:14.840 way that you're playing ball properly. 0:16:15.800 --> 0:16:20.200 Yeah, right, I mean she's like, square up. That's aggressive, Andrew, 0:16:20.240 --> 0:16:21.400 And I feel like you maybe need to. 0:16:21.400 --> 0:16:22.440 Speak to somebody else about that. 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:24.120 Yeah. 0:16:25.320 --> 0:16:27.760 From Rachel to Linda, Rachel well. 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:28.880 I don't like Rachel. 0:16:29.200 --> 0:16:30.080 It's not a good therapist. 0:16:30.240 --> 0:16:33.800 Rachel feels uh one, it's it's very like common, but 0:16:33.960 --> 0:16:37.320 also like young common, like I want an older woman. 0:16:37.560 --> 0:16:40.440 Rachel feels like she should be Linda's assistant. Yeah, for sure, 0:16:40.560 --> 0:16:43.920 but Rachel shouldn't be the therapist, not the main Rachel's 0:16:43.920 --> 0:16:47.120 not the Rachel. Yeah, Rachel got to be Michelle. 0:16:47.360 --> 0:16:52.320 Yeah, I'll even take a Melinda. I'll take a Melinda. 0:16:52.760 --> 0:16:55.680 Melinda sounds like like a mom named to me. Yeah, 0:16:55.960 --> 0:16:58.040 I'll take Melinda. Yea Melinda. 0:16:58.640 --> 0:17:01.760 And I don't This might be rude, but I'm not 0:17:01.840 --> 0:17:04.600 really into men as therapists. 0:17:04.680 --> 0:17:05.960 Ah, let's talk about it. I don't. 0:17:05.960 --> 0:17:08.240 I don't want it because first of all, they're not 0:17:08.320 --> 0:17:11.320 really good with their facial expressions, so it's it's a 0:17:11.440 --> 0:17:14.080 lot of dead face that I'm looking at, dead face, 0:17:14.200 --> 0:17:18.000 dead face, dead face because there for them, I think 0:17:18.200 --> 0:17:21.600 showing emotion is like, oh I'm too I'm too in 0:17:21.720 --> 0:17:23.840