Speaker 1: M d.
Speaker 2: C.
Speaker 3: I roun me to be on g.
Speaker 4: Classic shit.
Speaker 2: I'm looking for a nigga to give some baby's a
Speaker 2: handful of louise. He sprinkle of day, best man. I
Speaker 2: ain't got no type like Jimmy and Swaye Lee's. But
Speaker 2: if he can't fuck three times a night, I tried
Speaker 2: to fuck fifty for a powerful hour. But don't let
Speaker 2: a nigga want to do is talk power for hours.
Speaker 1: The pussy up.
Speaker 4: Make sure it's the kyo.
Speaker 2: Step your banks up like you're moving at ye yo.
Speaker 2: Somebody going make sure cuchi oke though I heard she
Speaker 2: think I'm trying to get a kouchi to Quavo. They
Speaker 2: always want to beat it up, coon up the pussy man.
Speaker 2: Maybe I should let him or to tune up the pussy.
Speaker 4: All these baid.
Speaker 2: Wild challenge niggas lying and shit. Many steady white niggas
Speaker 2: say tying my shit drink with a hundred million Yoi's
Speaker 2: fining me shit. But I don't know if the pussy
Speaker 2: by door, if he crying and shit me still be
Speaker 2: in my DMS, I'd be having the dubleum. I used
Speaker 2: to pray for tomes like this man who's here is
Speaker 2: my baby. He ain't taking the hel but he took it.
Speaker 2: Linda Ridley when I said, go to hell, used to
Speaker 2: fuck with young thug guy dressing the ship, going to
Speaker 2: mind my dressing room still and dressing and ship. I
Speaker 2: used to get this nigga with the list of tested
Speaker 2: and ship. How you want the puffy can't say yours
Speaker 2: and ship.
Speaker 1: Baptists.
Speaker 4: I'm just like, welcome bye, good mom's bad choices. It's
Speaker 4: Nila and Erica and we're back.
Speaker 5: Yes, we are looking rough as fun.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we uploaded one video to our private that's not
Speaker 3: even private, are you to the count that no one
Speaker 3: knows about because we've only uploaded.
Speaker 4: But I just want to give an update that we
Speaker 4: do have one video live. We won't post it yet, but.
Speaker 5: It's there. That's there, and it's gonna be. We're making progress.
Speaker 5: There's gonna be a couple of some coming out there.
Speaker 4: We're gonna go just do it slowly, but really we're
Speaker 4: just gonna upload them and then they'll all be there eventually. Yeah,
Speaker 4: there's like ten This one, however, that we're recording right now.
Speaker 4: This is some real mom realness because we don't love
Speaker 4: this so hot. I'm not gonnat like. We even had
Speaker 4: the nerve to do it on selfie mooe so we
Speaker 4: could see ourselves.
Speaker 3: I'm just trying to make my hair look bigger so
Speaker 3: it distracts from what's happening below the hair.
Speaker 4: It's pretty tragic, but I had a rough day and
Speaker 4: this is what I look like.
Speaker 5: And it's it's nine and so fuck you.
Speaker 3: I just kind of late and my kid at school tomorrow,
Speaker 3: So let's get this happen.
Speaker 4: How was your week? It has been good. I went
Speaker 4: out this weekend. I told you guys last episode, I
Speaker 4: believe I haven't been drinking.
Speaker 5: So it was my friend's birthday. Did did they talk
Speaker 5: about this already?
Speaker 4: No? Yeah, it just happened. And usually I'm the wasted one.
Speaker 4: But then like now I've been somber and they are
Speaker 4: ways said. I'm like, your nipples are out at the
Speaker 4: club again, get us together, And my friends are like, bitch,
Speaker 4: your nipples are always out even when you're not drunk.
Speaker 4: I know, I know I have. Yeah, So yeah, I
Speaker 4: guess I was making a hypocrite, but I was like, oh,
Speaker 4: this really makes me not want.
Speaker 5: To drink so much.
Speaker 4: These bitches are wasted.
Speaker 3: Well, people become very annoying when they're drunk, yes, and
Speaker 3: when you're not noticed, you're just like, oh my god.
Speaker 4: Also, we went into Lila. We talked about this like
Speaker 4: way before me and Erica went there. It's super bougie
Speaker 4: for those of you who don't live in the LA area,
Speaker 4: so bouge.
Speaker 5: All the like celebrities go there.
Speaker 4: They have like dancers that look like roaring twenties break
Speaker 4: assy just like walking around stone Face. Basically all the
Speaker 4: employees are stone Face because everybody Alian is a bitch,
Speaker 4: even if they're in customer service and they're under twenty three,
Speaker 4: and they basically try to make us move after like
Speaker 4: they said, we didn't call them hint our reservation.
Speaker 5: I was really fucking annoyed.
Speaker 4: Dinner was six hundred fucking dollars.
Speaker 6: And they're made us And then we were with one
Speaker 6: cheek and she she has the nerve they're being mean
Speaker 6: that are trying to make us move because we were
Speaker 6: taking too long and they're like.
Speaker 4: She was like, I am a yelp elite and I'm good,
Speaker 4: And the manager, straight faced as fuck, said I could
Speaker 4: give a rat ass about Yelp because if you guys
Speaker 4: know La No, Yeah, that first of all, never have
Speaker 4: I ever heard anyone go to a club and be
Speaker 4: like a restaurant, loud, round bar. No one ever goes
Speaker 4: to those type of spaces. And it's like, I'm gonna
Speaker 4: I'm a Yelp Elite member. You know what that means.
Speaker 4: I'm here because I found it on Yelp.
Speaker 3: And but you know what, I think people that are
Speaker 3: Yelp Elite members, they get perks in certain places, so
Speaker 3: they start filming themselves because they'll go to some restaurants
Speaker 3: and check in and like a person with the restaurant
Speaker 3: be like, we have an elite member here. I should
Speaker 3: be a dessert. I love restaurants. So that was really funny.
Speaker 4: And then okay, so then we went to another club,
Speaker 4: and as soon as we walked from the club, like
Speaker 4: literally within minutes, one contact started sucking up, and I
Speaker 4: was like in the bathroom like people were walking into me.
Speaker 4: I'm trying to put it back in, and then like
Speaker 4: it fell and then immediately after the other one started
Speaker 4: fucking it fell out.
Speaker 5: So I was in the club like I feel like
Speaker 5: I can't hear what I.
Speaker 4: Can't see, So I feel like our rhythm was off
Speaker 4: and I was sober and I still thought.
Speaker 5: I remember was off, idn't see shit?
Speaker 4: And then it was just when if you wear contacts
Speaker 4: and your glasses, you know how it feels to not
Speaker 4: be able to see and be out it feels fun.
Speaker 5: Plus my friends titting yourself.
Speaker 4: She was drunk.
Speaker 5: I was like, I am too bright, just so sober
Speaker 5: for this shit.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I was like, oh my god, what about here?
Speaker 4: What did you do?
Speaker 5: I had a weird week.
Speaker 4: I feel like all week I was just feeling really weird,
Speaker 4: like I felt very needy. I feel better now. It's crazy,
Speaker 4: like a few days does. Because I was going through
Speaker 4: some shit. I was feeling really neat, I was feeling
Speaker 4: really insecure. I was feeling fucking just kind of crazy.
Speaker 3: And I mean, I know like where some of it
Speaker 3: stems from, but I think I swear to God that
Speaker 3: it's it's the planet's in retrograde.
Speaker 4: I swear like there's like I don't know if they're.
Speaker 3: All still there, but like six different planets were in retrograde,
Speaker 3: and I could feel it, like, and so many people
Speaker 3: I was talking to this week was talent were telling
Speaker 3: me like I'm like, do you feel grasmy?
Speaker 4: And yeah, do you feel crazy? Because I feel crazy.
Speaker 3: It was just like an overwhelming I think I think
Speaker 3: so many people just were feeling it, not just me.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's it's been an interesting week.
Speaker 4: It' is't that weird? How like you can wake up
Speaker 4: feeling one way and then ida feeling that the way,
Speaker 4: and it's just like what.
Speaker 5: The fuck consistency here?
Speaker 3: I mean I definitely I gradually had to like make
Speaker 3: some changes this week to like push through that.
Speaker 4: I think we're definitely contributing to how I was feeling.
Speaker 4: I was also feeling really tired.
Speaker 3: But you can hear it. GM is recommending me touching
Speaker 3: my necklace. She apparently she's a sound.
Speaker 4: Sound mixer.
Speaker 5: You know, we got the airplanes going by. The keys
Speaker 5: in the bag were only just like next ship anyway, Chase.
Speaker 3: I yeah, So I had to make some changes that
Speaker 3: and that like that I that needed to be made,
Speaker 3: and I started to feel better, but I know that
Speaker 3: it was bad and there was some other just the
Speaker 3: universe was just draining me.
Speaker 7: Yes, man, Okay, be careful, be careful, okay, okay, thank you.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, my child is like someone's auntie auntie.
Speaker 5: I said, you said be careful.
Speaker 4: I'm saying no, she's not jumping on. So yeah, that
Speaker 4: was bad and now you're feeling better. I do feel better.
Speaker 3: But in that in the midst of all of that
Speaker 3: like neediness bitch, I joined bumble, I joined riot. I
Speaker 3: like reacted with my tender like I was like, I
Speaker 3: was like.
Speaker 4: I needed male attention, and I don't know what that
Speaker 4: was like it was so weird and like.
Speaker 5: Did you get it or you just speaking? Were you successful?
Speaker 3: But like I guess I sort of was in one
Speaker 3: situation the other situation. It wasn't that I wanted like
Speaker 3: physical attention. I wanted like emotional attention, and both of
Speaker 3: them were unfulfilling, you know, they didn't fulfill me. And
Speaker 3: that's why I was like, what is happening? Well obviously,
Speaker 3: I just it was just something deeper was happening, you know,
Speaker 3: and now it's slowly becoming I'm slowly seeing through the light.
Speaker 3: But you just ever have those like one of those
Speaker 3: days where you just don't feel like working on any
Speaker 3: shit that you said you're going to work on that
Speaker 3: I don't mean like work, I just mean like I know,
Speaker 3: but like when you're really like fuck fuck trying to
Speaker 3: work on it. Ever, you know what I mean like,
Speaker 3: I just felt defeated. Oh, You're not defeated. I know,
Speaker 3: I just felt I did, though I was like, I
Speaker 3: don't know. I was like, I don't know what's wrong
Speaker 3: with my life. I've ever am I ever gonna?
Speaker 5: I'm so unhappy, and I'm like, I'm not I'm actually
Speaker 5: very happy.
Speaker 4: I'm not unhappy. I just feel weird today. Yeah, sometimes
Speaker 4: you can just be like I feel weird todays, I'm
Speaker 4: having a weird day.
Speaker 5: It was like five days.
Speaker 4: But yeah, but a for a while, I was like,
Speaker 4: is this feeling ever gonna go away? And then I did.
Speaker 4: But yeah, that's my emo. Last week. I'm emotional, so
Speaker 4: I know that's my emo. Last week.
Speaker 3: I feel like something could happened, but I can't remember
Speaker 3: because I'm emo.
Speaker 4: I can't literally not think past Like yesterday, I'm like, Saturday,
Speaker 4: what I do? I don't want to fuck I remember? Well, Yeah,
Speaker 4: I don't know what yesterday.
Speaker 5: Yestually were productive.
Speaker 4: We were so productive gym. I got a smoothie, we
Speaker 4: went to the office, we got notepads and ship we
Speaker 4: got like five emails completed.
Speaker 5: It was the most productive thing we've done.
Speaker 3: Every uploaded video we uploaded the video, we edited it,
Speaker 3: we edited, we had together. Oh man, okay, And they
Speaker 3: were like that took a lot out of me, especially
Speaker 3: with the week I had.
Speaker 4: I felt like exhausted after that. I can hardly take
Speaker 4: any calls. I was like, this up my phone call
Speaker 4: saying we must have been working. We would to take
Speaker 4: the kids in the park.
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I had a client.
Speaker 4: I was like, I'm the ship. Did it made it
Speaker 4: next to all the other in predicted in productivity of
Speaker 4: the week?
Speaker 3: Oh okay, But oh, by the way, Rya is racist. Yeah,
Speaker 3: that's exactly where I was getting. By the way, Riya
Speaker 3: is racist. At that time, I said Ria is racist
Speaker 3: because except me, I was right. For those of you
Speaker 3: who don't know what Riot is is a dating app
Speaker 3: that's like for like it used to be the La
Speaker 3: of dating.
Speaker 4: If you could put dating in an elite.
Speaker 3: Club of like bouginess, it's it would be Ria.
Speaker 5: Have men there.
Speaker 4: You have to have references from Instagram. They have to
Speaker 4: fellow you have to and you have to be white.
Speaker 4: Make sure I must be white. They must you must
Speaker 4: have passed.
Speaker 5: Yeah, And I was like, well, she's lighter than me.
Speaker 3: Did She's so happy to be like she said, I'm
Speaker 3: lighter than her, much.
Speaker 5: Wider than she, has more followers than you.
Speaker 4: They did not dida. I'm Hebay said, the're putting your wedding.
Speaker 4: I remember, but either right fucking appreciating.
Speaker 3: All I know is that I have been on riah
Speaker 3: for seven days and only matched with one person. And
Speaker 3: now I'm not saying like I'm conceited, but even if
Speaker 3: you are not cute on Tinder, you can match with
Speaker 3: at least people seven days, Ryan like, no one is
Speaker 3: matched with me, and mostly like literally every single slide,
Speaker 3: which by the way, you only get like twenty slides,
Speaker 3: like you can only click on twenty people, and then
Speaker 3: it pauses your account because they feel like they're helping
Speaker 3: you foster meaningful relationships by only letting you slide, by
Speaker 3: giving you by giving you like a twenty twenty limit
Speaker 3: like profile that has limited people. I'm like with Rota,
Speaker 3: But anyway, every time I click, it's the same white
Speaker 3: hipster or like the white real estate broker, or like
Speaker 3: the creative director.
Speaker 4: Like six pack mod, like what the fuck? And then
Speaker 4: there's been a few black guys, but.
Speaker 5: They're all like recognizable athletes. They's a comedian like There's but.
Speaker 4: There's I was engaging fully in Horio because I felt
Speaker 4: like it was for been fruit since they fucking didn't
Speaker 4: accept me. So I was very excited to get my
Speaker 4: hands on it. And I was greatly disappointed. We saw
Speaker 4: like maybe four black guys. I feel like they only
Speaker 4: let the black guys on that they think the white
Speaker 4: girls want to not even yeah, people like t o
Speaker 4: like white bitches want to. No black girl really wants to.
Speaker 5: No, I wouldn't do it, and like, I don't know.
Speaker 4: It was just I was disappointed. So the report is
Speaker 4: My review two years ago was also bumble as well. Bumble.
Speaker 5: I don't like having to reach out first.
Speaker 4: I mean I didn't like that. I don't really don't
Speaker 4: like Okay. So anyway back to this sweek's current events.
Speaker 3: Nicki Minaj dropped her album Fire. I don't know about Fire,
Speaker 3: okay whatever. I the two songs, but you know what,
Speaker 3: the two songs I like. I do like it a lot,
Speaker 3: though I.
Speaker 4: Do like a huge like Niki maybe but from the nineties.
Speaker 4: But I can't lie, Like I can't deny that the
Speaker 4: bitch can rap. She really can't.
Speaker 3: She's quite a character. She really can't I just think
Speaker 3: sometimes I get bored with her music. Honestly, sometimes it's boring,
Speaker 3: but it's not because she can't rap.
Speaker 4: I don't like what. Yeah, I'm not a fan of
Speaker 4: her singing. That Barbie dream.
Speaker 3: Song was good, yeah, because she's like talking ship and
Speaker 3: it just made me like, brought me back to the
Speaker 3: old nineties. And it was that Biggie sample. Yeah, she
Speaker 3: was talking shade and just.
Speaker 4: Like being like that bitch, you know. Yeah.
Speaker 3: And there's another one called rich Sex with Little Wayne,
Speaker 3: which I like.
Speaker 5: I like that one too. That's been the two I heard.
Speaker 4: And then I think we heard hard White that was true,
Speaker 4: but apparently she dissed.
Speaker 5: Cardi b Oh, what was going up the pole?
Speaker 4: Like I never had to climb the pole to be
Speaker 4: the something? Oh okay you that weren't you a stripper?
Speaker 4: And be's in the trap? Remember that music video. She
Speaker 4: was pretending, but she was acting. She her whole ship
Speaker 4: is like stripper culture.
Speaker 1: Yeah right, her.
Speaker 4: Image is stripper. Yeah, you know, if you didn't if
Speaker 4: we didn't know, you would think you're a stripper, Like
Speaker 4: just looking at your image that you portrayed to the media.
Speaker 4: If she's trying to if she's trying to divide the
Speaker 4: strippers to make a choice between her and Cardi. Cardi
Speaker 4: is gonna win Cardio's stripper, she proud. Yeah, true, but honestly,
Speaker 4: I mean, obviously, I think Niki Manut is a way
Speaker 4: better rapper than Cardi B. But I still just love Cardi.
Speaker 4: Of course, she's a real art like actually artist. Herd
Speaker 4: Be probably just did that because well, Cardi B is
Speaker 4: a personality, and that's why I love her. There's are
Speaker 4: two different reasons. I don't love Cardi B for her wraps,
Speaker 4: even though some of them are catchy. I like you
Speaker 4: like that, but she probably has the best writers.
Speaker 5: Well mechanics.
Speaker 4: I like dance.
Speaker 5: I like dude, I do like that, And so I
Speaker 5: did like that she it was funny.
Speaker 4: She talks about young thugs wearing dresses and dresses, which we.
Speaker 5: All know to be true.
Speaker 4: I do think I feel like everything she said was true. Yeah,
Speaker 4: so unbelcome popular culture.
Speaker 3: Basically, do you think she was alluding that he was
Speaker 3: gay or just because he was dancing?
Speaker 4: She was remember those remember those selfie should I talk
Speaker 4: to you about last week? And the thing it's like
Speaker 4: dancing in front of it is his selfie and says
Speaker 4: it to you. That's very similar. I could see Odell
Speaker 4: doing something like that. So that was you're soft, you're bisexual.
Speaker 5: Which is you know, we don't bash bisexuals. We both are,
Speaker 5: but we just know we'd.
Speaker 4: Rather just be that. Yeah, Miko's and her dance Dan
Speaker 4: and uh dj Khaled it doesn't eat pussy, but we
Speaker 4: already knew that, and she's not down for that black
Speaker 4: Oh and oh did anybody see that? Of course my
Speaker 4: accurate shade group. Did you see that comedian overlooking Safaris.
Speaker 4: I'm like, you're a girl. That's what we do. I'm
Speaker 4: very emotional. Gro you know, if he grows in Soto,
Speaker 4: he could do whatever he wants to be. You know
Speaker 4: what big penis and a renewed hairlines so that you know,
Speaker 4: whatever whatever you need, you that Tiger, you can have
Speaker 4: that package with that hairline. He wasn't going together and
Speaker 4: she probably like, okay, babe, yeah, I don't want you
Speaker 4: to go out here making me look.
Speaker 5: So yeah, we knew Tiger but had that hairline.
Speaker 4: I didn't know that he had a hairline implant. I did.
Speaker 4: I mean, if you look at old pictures, do I
Speaker 4: ever see his head anymore? He was like, he always
Speaker 4: wears a bandana, doesn't He in rested it on the
Speaker 4: internet because I specifically saw that he didn't have air
Speaker 4: that he did because I'm not a Taiga fan, so
Speaker 4: I wasn't like keeping up with this hair.
Speaker 5: I like that.
Speaker 4: I like his new salt. No, I can't even lie.
Speaker 4: Oh it takes and then he has another round with
Speaker 4: that iggy alia. Yeah, I feel the same way about it.
Speaker 4: But by Girl, But by Girl.
Speaker 5: Takes that ass somewhere useful, like to ship back.
Speaker 4: I mean, I just don't like her whole image whatever.
Speaker 4: Maybe she's a nice person, but I heard she's not,
Speaker 4: so I think her brand is I don't think she
Speaker 4: can commit to it. She's not a good enough actress.
Speaker 4: She doesn't even leave herself. Yeah, so it's not believable
Speaker 4: that she was believable. I'd be always because she looks
Speaker 4: like a little hotty, sticky like white girl shop her body.
Speaker 4: I did like her. Dobry is pretty sometimes it's sometimes
Speaker 4: it she doesn't when it's recorded, but I just she doesn't.
Speaker 4: She doesn't.
Speaker 5: She doesn't sell it enough to me.
Speaker 4: When she came out with that first album, Trap Art,
Speaker 4: I think it was something like that I liked her.
Speaker 5: I was like, oh, this is different, like you've been here,
Speaker 5: were really talking she had been in the interviews.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Then then I saw her perform for the first time,
Speaker 3: like maybe like a year after that came out, and
Speaker 3: I'll never forget, like she had like this black hype
Speaker 3: girl on stage with her who was like totally overshadowing her.
Speaker 4: And then I was watching her and she looked like
Speaker 4: she was scared and you know how, and then she
Speaker 4: like she dies on the She cries every time on
Speaker 4: the internet someone says something bad about her her Instagram.
Speaker 4: It's like, yeah, you're not giving enough actors. She did
Speaker 4: all this work, you did all this work in the studio,
Speaker 4: all the good writers, and bitch, we don't even believe you.
Speaker 4: And that is that gets that's a buzzkill for me. Yeah,
Speaker 4: like you need to have the full package to be
Speaker 4: an entertainer.
Speaker 3: And then she has some people like she had said
Speaker 3: some racist shit no way, yeah, and her tweets people
Speaker 3: dig up tweets.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, damn, who's the tweet diggers? Like who's your
Speaker 4: what's your job? And then she was talking about like
Speaker 4: she's the slave master. No, yes, she called herself the
Speaker 4: slave master. Yes, why would an't even even approve that?
Speaker 4: Then she was talking about Mexicans and her tweets. It
Speaker 4: was crazy, it was out of control. Oh well she's
Speaker 4: ex Yeah, she's been ex by We already spent way
Speaker 4: too much time on that.
Speaker 3: Anyway, Aretha Franklin was in the hospital. Apparently she was
Speaker 3: gravely ill, which scared the ship out of me, because like,
Speaker 3: I feel like Aretha is one of those ones.
Speaker 5: That lives forever, right, Like, what do you mean? What
Speaker 5: do you mean like she's sick?
Speaker 4: What?
Speaker 5: No, don't don't touch Aretha even death.
Speaker 4: Back the fuck up. Yeah, But apparently she's back home,
Speaker 4: and I know she is. I gotta be in her
Speaker 4: lazy that's she's. Yeah, music's in her nineties, she's gotta be.
Speaker 4: I want to look it up.
Speaker 3: She's gotta be like at least ninety Franklin age.
Speaker 4: Oh. I was like, I'm no pop culture genius.
Speaker 5: Seventy she's seventy six. Oh god, my bad, girl, My bad.
Speaker 4: This bitch. Don't put fourteen years on her. Damn.
Speaker 5: I'm like, oh my gosh, it's old. Okay, you're right,
Speaker 5: you're right, you're right, right, really.
Speaker 4: Holliday, right, she's one hundred. Oh my god.
Speaker 5: Also, oh uh, our.
Speaker 4: Deer, not let me mark that our dear the dear
Speaker 4: President of the United fucking State only know States is
Speaker 4: a fucking asshole. This week again.
Speaker 5: Breaking news Trump to an asshole.
Speaker 4: Okay, the forty ninth week in his entire pregnancy, which
Speaker 4: has been everyone.
Speaker 3: Basically called armrosa dog, which you know, people are trying
Speaker 3: to treeble are saying that it's racial. Honestly, I don't
Speaker 3: think it's rachel because he calls it many people dogs.
Speaker 3: He's called it many different racist people of people dogs.
Speaker 3: Do I think he's a racist? Absolutely?
Speaker 4: Do I think everything he says is racist? I mean
Speaker 4: I guess if you're a racist?
Speaker 5: Yeah, right, Like this is what this is? Just him
Speaker 5: being ample warming?
Speaker 4: Is it real racist? I mean I was fucking I mean,
Speaker 4: and then, uh, what the fuck is her name? Amerosa? Girl?
Speaker 4: God girl, we ain't reclaimed?
Speaker 5: We a You still can't come to the cookout?
Speaker 4: No, you absolutely can't.
Speaker 5: You and Kanye can go kick fucking rocks.
Speaker 4: Did you see that? Did you see that? Someone was?
Speaker 3: Like Kanye tweeted like in response to remember when he
Speaker 3: was on jermy fan and he didn't know what to say. Yeah,
Speaker 3: when people asked him like how after everything that Donald
Speaker 3: Trump has done, like can you like support him or
Speaker 3: like basically like you, oh the travel band, you have
Speaker 3: children like.
Speaker 4: You famously said the statement George Verus doesn't care about
Speaker 4: black people. You obviously acknowledged, and we kind of expected
Speaker 4: you to not take you know, fucking the you know,
Speaker 4: not support Yeah, the Sunken Place roll, and he had
Speaker 4: nothing to say.
Speaker 3: Oh, then in his tweet he said, you know this
Speaker 3: is live TV, like you as you saw, Like I
Speaker 3: was processing what I was going to think and what
Speaker 3: I was going to say, and then they cut to
Speaker 3: a commercial break, so I didn't even get to say
Speaker 3: what I wanted to say. I shout out to the
Speaker 3: Jimmy Fallon team, you guys are classy, blah blah blah nigga.
Speaker 4: Then you're gonna answer a question, So so what do
Speaker 4: you said that? Furthermore, Mom, you're talking about processing a question.
Speaker 4: There's many questions I wish you had processed and that process.
Speaker 4: If you can't answer that question that quickly, then why
Speaker 4: aren't we even supporting this person?
Speaker 5: Exactly?
Speaker 4: You obviously didn't think about all this shit right before
Speaker 4: you endorsed him, and he's literally taking fucking kids from
Speaker 4: their parents because they're not American quote unquote. That is
Speaker 4: racist as fun. And if you've got to think about that,
Speaker 4: you think you don't need to think at all. Yeah,
Speaker 4: did you watch Insecure?
Speaker 5: Yes, yes, you know, I watched it.
Speaker 4: I watched it.
Speaker 7: Huh why did you spill water?
Speaker 4: Did you sell water on the floor? Why? What? Oh
Speaker 4: my god, we're gonna take a quick break because there's
Speaker 4: water on the floor.
Speaker 1: Yeah, we're back.
Speaker 4: Our kid is playing with an umbrella outside the house.
Speaker 4: Probably dangerous, but this is like the forties. We don't
Speaker 4: have three episodes, but the tenth episode, we're like, don't
Speaker 4: work with the umbrella. I stop playing with umbrella. It's not safe.
Speaker 4: Every week they play with the fucking up. Wish you
Speaker 4: had it? Yeah, yeah, yeah, iriate.
Speaker 3: She's running through the house with the umbrella like she's married, poppin'.
Speaker 4: Wait, Iri, they're gonna do like a dcase and we're
Speaker 4: gonna be mute, but you're married your kids.
Speaker 8: Put that umbrella down. Put it, Put the umbrella down. No,
Speaker 8: we're playing with the umbrella anyway.
Speaker 4: I tell a point. You just give up.
Speaker 3: Oh hell yeah, Insecure season premiere, Season three, Season three premiere.
Speaker 3: Everybody a bunch of Insecure, right if you don't catch up.
Speaker 4: It's so good. It's so good, it's funny as hell,
Speaker 4: it's related. I just love it. It's just because it
Speaker 4: just feels like, you know, real conversations that you have
Speaker 4: with your friends.
Speaker 5: So it's quality writing.
Speaker 4: So it's a really good TV show. It's super.
Speaker 5: Honest.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and there's definitely some zaddies on the show.
Speaker 4: Zaddies with their asses fully.
Speaker 5: Out and they're fully boiled.
Speaker 4: Damn, Oh my gosh, there's worn. Oh no, it's just
Speaker 4: sitch you. I don't know. I don't want to rut it,
Speaker 4: Like what if people haven't seen it. You haven't seen it,
Speaker 4: then you're late. You're late, so you have free days.
Speaker 4: I hit the fifteen skip button real quick, wish mute now,
Speaker 4: I mean, I think it already happens. The production of
Speaker 4: this this season looks very classy, very high quality, beautiful.
Speaker 4: I love the fight and the O in the lift.
Speaker 4: That was funny. Ship and the like ten niggas like
Speaker 4: fat one to I know, that's so funny, he says
Speaker 4: new love interresses.
Speaker 5: Boy, do we know who's a love interest.
Speaker 4: Yet you can tell, yeah, he didn't tip for fifty dollars.
Speaker 4: I wouldn't write a show, so I can just write
Speaker 4: and fine niggas like, no, babe, I haven't cheated, it's
Speaker 4: the show. No, I just need to make out with him.
Speaker 5: Because it was written in my show.
Speaker 4: I just wrote that part, but it was just for
Speaker 4: the show. Everybody said I should keep it and cast
Speaker 4: this finance interest. Right the fuck. He might have put
Speaker 4: the tip in, but it's for the show. We're paying
Speaker 4: the bills. Not to self write a show. Seriously, Oh
Speaker 4: my god, because yeah, yeah, lots of flying point men. Okay,
Speaker 4: so Daniel's saying on Daniel's couch, could you say, like
Speaker 4: a friend that he bons couch while he bons somebody
Speaker 4: else in the next room. I don't that would be
Speaker 4: hard ego. My ego would be like, ok, like makere
Speaker 4: the fuck?
Speaker 3: I mean, if I had no other place to go,
Speaker 3: which it's she knows she can go to Molly's house,
Speaker 3: she just don't want to go.
Speaker 4: She had like three friends, Like I would be you
Speaker 4: know what I would.
Speaker 3: I would be at Molly's house, low key, I would
Speaker 3: in the bougie apartment at Molly's house.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but you see how they digger.
Speaker 3: Still, I'll figure it out, but I don't have to
Speaker 3: hear this dude other bits.
Speaker 4: And it says he is fine Jesus, Jesus totally okay, Yes, yeah,
Speaker 4: I've been looking forward to the rest of this season.
Speaker 3: Yeah, me too.
Speaker 4: I'm looking forward to it because I don't know what
Speaker 4: happens at all. I am I need him And I
Speaker 4: really just called up on all the seasons like this
Speaker 4: week because then it was coming on for other reasons.
Speaker 3: But but I think watching that made us think, well,
Speaker 3: partly watching that, paired with just things universes brought us
Speaker 3: leaves us to our topic today, which was fired by
Speaker 3: a d M that we got in our t MS.
Speaker 1: In our.
Speaker 4: But oh should I just read it?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 4: Okay, So we.
Speaker 3: Got a d M from one of our listeners, and
Speaker 3: it was so interesting because perspective is everything, and that's
Speaker 3: what I realized, perspective that it's just so crazy when
Speaker 3: you see that other.
Speaker 5: It's just a bug, what the fun is?
Speaker 4: Definitely mortified of all insects. I told you that bug
Speaker 4: was gonna come for me later.
Speaker 5: It was just like it wasn't even a spider.
Speaker 4: This bitch got fully fully a close. I get a shirt.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, this bitch is literally walking out of
Speaker 4: her room to change your shirt because she had a
Speaker 4: I don't know what kind of bug and I didentifiable
Speaker 4: bug on her neck. It looked harmless. Oh my god,
Speaker 4: I stressed me out. What was it? What kind of bug?
Speaker 4: I don't know. I'm not the sucking.
Speaker 3: It was a big it.
Speaker 4: Was string to dry.
Speaker 5: It looked like this.
Speaker 3: Oh my god, this is exactly Oh hell, no, wa
Speaker 3: it's like a caterpillar.
Speaker 4: Oh my god, that is like a cade. Oh my god.
Speaker 3: Oh okay, Well, you guys have witnessed a phobia or
Speaker 3: her phobia. I'm sorry that you had experienced that, but
Speaker 3: I'm deathly afraid of bugs. All okay, Anyway, I was
Speaker 3: just we're just saying. What I was saying was it's
Speaker 3: crazy what you you think people seeing you when people
Speaker 3: were in and they don't, And it becomes an insecurity
Speaker 3: that no.
Speaker 4: One even notices, like an invisible insecurity. So okay. So
Speaker 4: she says, Okay, so today I want.
Speaker 3: To discuss how to get past this particular insecurity. And
Speaker 3: this may or may not be worthy for the show,
Speaker 3: but still very interested. It's worthy, I have an extremely
Speaker 3: bad insecurity. I have an extremely bad insecurity or hang.
Speaker 4: Up about my feet so to describe it.
Speaker 3: If you've ever been passed out drunk, you understand the
Speaker 3: magnitude of the insecurity.
Speaker 4: I would not let someone I was sleeping with remove my.
Speaker 3: Shoes and socks while while in an incoherence state.
Speaker 4: I mean, I was pretty much passed out drunk after vomiting.
Speaker 4: I don't remember this, but this is what he told me.
Speaker 3: He was a fling at the time, non existent now,
Speaker 3: but has never seen my feet as many of my
Speaker 3: three partners, who I assume don't think anything of it.
Speaker 4: But I intentionally, I intentionally leave socks on.
Speaker 3: Your partners definitely know this right right, and I notice
Speaker 3: what it does those socks manes. Yeah, but it now
Speaker 3: has gotten to where I will avoid relationships, dating, cuddling,
Speaker 3: et cetera.
Speaker 4: If I think for a.
Speaker 3: Second, I will have to take my socks and shoes off.
Speaker 3: That said, how do I get past this? I know
Speaker 3: some will care and some won't. I just can't find
Speaker 3: the nerve to find to find out who is who?
Speaker 4: So she sent us her feet.
Speaker 3: Oh okay, so then she said, so this is the
Speaker 3: next question do I do. I preface it with a
Speaker 3: disclaimer I hate to do that and lead with insecurity
Speaker 3: and a lack of confidence.
Speaker 4: Though, please give me some insight. I have attached a
Speaker 4: picture of them.
Speaker 3: Lay So she sent us her feet, and girl, they're
Speaker 3: not even bad, like they.
Speaker 4: Are not actually so cute. Actually I was. I was
Speaker 4: like trying to find what she was talking about, really
Speaker 4: examining the thing. She's like, yeah, I'm taking there some bundion.
Speaker 4: There are no budians. I have real bunions on my
Speaker 4: little toes look like little buns. Literally, they're not cute.
Speaker 4: I'm like, girl, I went tree those feet and that
Speaker 4: gives your own fus about wearing a sock. I'm farefoot
Speaker 4: all with her. How cute her feet are because she
Speaker 4: has like little toes, tottle toes. They're tanned, they're well painted,
Speaker 4: but they don't see even Yeah, I think it's just
Speaker 4: so we when she sent us this, we were like,
Speaker 4: we need to call her now. I can't even right
Speaker 4: back to this because we let me just see my face.
Speaker 4: You need to see my mouth move when I tell
Speaker 4: you this, your tripping. But yeah, it was crazy. It's
Speaker 4: crazy because you know she has like let she has
Speaker 4: felt like she can't date, she can't get into relationships,
Speaker 4: she avoids, she passed out drunk, she remember to not
Speaker 4: let her feet come out. Yeah, it's like, yeah, that's serious.
Speaker 4: That's a serious It's like have you ever been to
Speaker 4: the club and like it's like you're supposed to nails
Speaker 4: up two days ago, but she keeps sucking up and
Speaker 4: their mu's broken in an own ship. So you're in
Speaker 4: the club like, oh yeah, I'll take one drink. She's
Speaker 4: like you like literally, I am literally like okay, I'm
Speaker 4: gonna pull my clutch with this hand and none.
Speaker 3: But you were fed up if it's like the fourth finger,
Speaker 3: that's like right, You're like you can't really hide that one,
Speaker 3: like I'm dancing the.
Speaker 4: Club, So like that's a deep and security. So one
Speaker 4: of my biggest questions was when we talked to her,
Speaker 4: did someone say something to you like about your feet
Speaker 4: one time and ever since then you've been like hung
Speaker 4: up on it because it's like it just hits you
Speaker 4: because a lot of times i'd be really I realized
Speaker 4: that insecurities come from like small comments from significant people
Speaker 4: we think are significant at the time, and then we
Speaker 4: can't let it go because now it's pointed out to us.
Speaker 4: So what you said?
Speaker 3: She said, yeah, she said yeah, she said yeah, was
Speaker 3: like when how old was she? She said she was
Speaker 3: really young when it happened.
Speaker 4: I think, I think, yeah, but I forgot when remember
Speaker 4: like an X or something?
Speaker 3: Okaybe And then Jamila proceeded to post a picture of
Speaker 3: her feet, and her boyfriend message her and said gets.
Speaker 4: A sadly as feed off the ground. That was like
Speaker 4: the clothes.
Speaker 1: Fuck.
Speaker 3: But I mean I think the advice you gave her
Speaker 3: was like I don't like, I don't like my feet,
Speaker 3: and I just go out there and we encourage her
Speaker 3: to encourage her to like at least try to wear
Speaker 3: slides and.
Speaker 5: Because I mean, mostly no one is going to care.
Speaker 4: No one's gouna be looking. Niggas don't care about feet. Look,
Speaker 4: they look at your rouse, your chitties. But and yeah,
Speaker 4: thinking about your vagina, Yeah, that's what I think. And
Speaker 4: like you might find like a one in ten foot
Speaker 4: footage and even he's gonna be happy to have those
Speaker 4: two feet, right, Like if you told me specifically, like
Speaker 4: early on, I'm like, your feet are ugly, And I
Speaker 4: was like, really you think so put him a little clothes,
Speaker 4: but why but I painted them. Yeah, I said, you
Speaker 4: look petty than glu glue. I just mean that, I'm
Speaker 4: just saying. Really, I was like, oh, that's your to
Speaker 4: I may have lots of toe, Like how paint cuts
Speaker 4: my fee like Barbie Pink has to be like me, perfect,
Speaker 4: not too fushion. The point is, I think at a
Speaker 4: certain point I have or have there's a lot of
Speaker 4: things that I like about myself. Physically, I've always been
Speaker 4: really self conscious because I'm super skinny. Sometimes like in
Speaker 4: my head I feel thick, but then I'll like a
Speaker 4: pictures I'm like, oh my god, I look ridiculously then
Speaker 4: and then when I was younger, I remember people saying,
Speaker 4: like making comments and I'm trying to eat a lot,
Speaker 4: but like it's not happening. My teeth at a gap.
Speaker 4: I used to have braises, lost a retainer many moons ago.
Speaker 4: Gap is back bitches, But I still smile bit because
Speaker 4: I can't help it. I feel like it's like part
Speaker 4: of who you are. Yeah, like now, no, we don't
Speaker 4: make it smaller.
Speaker 3: I think even though like you're skinny, but to me,
Speaker 3: you're like, you're not like crazy skinny you're like model skinny.
Speaker 4: I've seen photos. I'm like, oh fuck, look skinny and
Speaker 4: I'm not tall, so I look taller because I'm skinny,
Speaker 4: and I have really big feet for a small pert.
Speaker 4: You've always sick too. I like rabbit feet, like the
Speaker 4: back rabbit thumber feet. That's how I looked. But there
Speaker 4: was a point in my life where I was and
Speaker 4: I'm like, I don't like my back. I feel like
Speaker 4: I have like your bad spots on its not like
Speaker 4: spots in my face. Whatever the whole plant is. At
Speaker 4: some point or another, I don't remember when I Each
Speaker 4: summer my minto lake Tonies as like, oh the most
Speaker 4: isshue I can't do nothing about. So I'm gonna go
Speaker 4: with it, you know what i mean. Like at some
Speaker 4: point you just like the ship falls off. You're not
Speaker 4: into proviving thing anymore. Oh yeah, all those things still
Speaker 4: because there's my angle. Sometimes I'm like, oh my god,
Speaker 4: that's disgusting. Have I eaten? I know I ate five
Speaker 4: minutes ago, But I look skinny. No, I mean I
Speaker 4: definitely think like it's did someone tell you that? Or
Speaker 4: you can't to those everybody?
Speaker 3: I mean all the time, people probably gonna like your
Speaker 3: insecurity is about like your skin or you know you cheeth,
Speaker 3: or like were.
Speaker 4: You teased and stuff. Yeah, like like when you're a
Speaker 4: kid and cansa shit of course you remember is sash.
Speaker 4: It's like the end of the world and bad skin,
Speaker 4: all types of shit. So all those things were things
Speaker 4: that was made for them and made aware of. And
Speaker 4: because I was made aware of made aware of them,
Speaker 4: I always like, you know, I'm judging myself. Yeah, but
Speaker 4: what she was experiencing was like, no, I never want
Speaker 4: anything extreme. I mean my obvious they can't hide roundhole body.
Speaker 4: My thing is I don't want mine, Like I don't
Speaker 4: have something extreme like that. I have a phobia like
Speaker 4: that of feet. I don't know what the calcer. But no,
Speaker 4: but I definitely have my insecurities, like especially after having
Speaker 4: a kid, and even before that.
Speaker 3: I look back on pictures like before having Iron, I'm like,
Speaker 3: what the fuck was I tripping about?
Speaker 4: Why was I obsessing and thinking? Like I was insecure
Speaker 4: about my legs. I thought they were too thick. But
Speaker 4: you know, I always went to school with like such
Speaker 4: small petiitue white girls and like.
Speaker 3: I was like a grown black woman, like in like
Speaker 3: sixth grade like juicy thing ass I was like this height.
Speaker 3: I was like five six when I was like eleven,
Speaker 3: you know, so I just was towering over everybody.
Speaker 4: And I remember my cousin used to always be like, oh,
Speaker 4: you're so big, like or something like. I remember feeling
Speaker 4: like I'm feeling really insecure about my like just feeling
Speaker 4: giant and not like small. And I think that's kind
Speaker 4: of like.
Speaker 3: Because I definitely felt insecure about my weight for at
Speaker 3: a very young age. I think because I started like
Speaker 3: modeling and being aware of like that.
Speaker 4: At associating age. And then I remember the defining moment
Speaker 4: was my cousin one time she Oh my god, she
Speaker 4: was listening to this Yes you fucked me up, it's
Speaker 4: you bitch. She had like the skirt and I was like,
Speaker 4: can I try it? Not She's like, I don't think
Speaker 4: it's gonna fit. It's one size fits all.
Speaker 5: I like your now or She's like she.
Speaker 4: Was like, it's one size fits all, but I don't
Speaker 4: think it's gonna fit. I was like, and then it
Speaker 4: didn't fit. It was like one size it's all.
Speaker 3: For like you know, I means, and I had the
Speaker 3: body of a woman that's just so funny.
Speaker 4: I thought you were so excited China, because I did.
Speaker 4: My feelings are hurt, and I did try that on.
Speaker 3: I was like, bitch, you know, I'm competitive even though
Speaker 3: my feelings are hurt.
Speaker 4: I'm getting my I'm gonna cry after this, but I'm
Speaker 4: gonna try this ship on. Oh my god, how insensitive
Speaker 4: we are? Is a young where the fox? Does that
Speaker 4: come from? Mimicking?
Speaker 5: I think mimicking out of.
Speaker 4: People being evil?
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's yeah, because she was being mean on purpose.
Speaker 4: Like it wasn't like play at that point.
Speaker 3: It wasn't like like when you're like fiving just sanction
Speaker 3: r you know what I mean.
Speaker 4: My kids say the darnest thing. Teenagers are asshole the end.
Speaker 4: What else are we gonna talk?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know. I think insecurity has come
Speaker 4: from so many different places.
Speaker 3: They can come from, like what obviously with like social media,
Speaker 3: watching other people.
Speaker 4: They can come from like I mean, I know, for me,
Speaker 4: like caring yourself. Yeah.
Speaker 3: I think I took a break from social media this
Speaker 3: weekend and it's started.
Speaker 4: I took a break, I think, But I text you
Speaker 4: on Friday, I was like, I need a break.
Speaker 3: I'm taking the weekend off and I still haven't logged
Speaker 3: into my personal one because that's the one that like.
Speaker 4: Is like, don't get dumb. I don't know.
Speaker 3: Why, but I think because I have to work on
Speaker 3: like work social media every day and be on there
Speaker 3: and just like consuming ours. That is just too much
Speaker 3: for me. And I love I've been nice. Getting anxiety.
Speaker 4: I'm getting anxiety.
Speaker 3: But yeah, you just start it's not even comparing, it's
Speaker 3: just starting judging yourself. Even that even like it is that,
Speaker 3: but it's just like just the looking at shit just
Speaker 3: gives me back.
Speaker 5: Yeah, like why am I looking at it?
Speaker 4: This is the third time I've seen this? Bullshit? Who
Speaker 4: is this?
Speaker 5: I don't know it's a person?
Speaker 1: Right?
Speaker 4: Do you even take English? What the fuck? Yeah, it's
Speaker 4: it's ridiculous. I just find myself judging people, judging people too.
Speaker 4: You know, it's true. It's just a lot. Hence Bay
Speaker 4: we did this episode. Well you guys make them. It's
Speaker 4: look cute, you look really cute. I have like megap
Speaker 4: on from like thirty.
Speaker 3: Fourteen hours ago, I look pretty rough, but you look
Speaker 3: beautiful too.
Speaker 4: What about okay from Yeah, so I was reading okay,
Speaker 4: you know i's were reading the four agreements. Did you
Speaker 4: remember the part where it says it was just that
Speaker 4: book as a child, someone is her child, like a
Speaker 4: mother's child is singing, and she's really irritated. She's irritable,
Speaker 4: she's annoying. She's had a lot of shit going on
Speaker 4: that day, and she like snaps out on the kid
Speaker 4: and that's like, stop singing. You're singing is horrible, it's
Speaker 4: driving me. That's it's annoying, it sounds bad. Go away,
Speaker 4: And that child never sings anymore because she now feels
Speaker 4: it's horrible, it sounds bad, and that that like that
Speaker 4: scars are basically and it's obviously an example in the book,
Speaker 4: but it's a reminder of how easily our feelings are
Speaker 4: persuaded about ourselves. Quickly we make agreements with other people
Speaker 4: subconsciously not realizing it, and then we let those agreements
Speaker 4: go on to you know, and follow us into adulthood,
Speaker 4: and then we do things and think things. And she'd
Speaker 4: bed have been fucking the next Mariah, right, But if
Speaker 4: her mom was irritated that day, so that made me,
Speaker 4: really it made me a aware of things I've been
Speaker 4: told from my parents or other adults, or things that
Speaker 4: like scarving like you know, shit, Like we just talked
Speaker 4: about physical things, and then it made me think how
Speaker 4: conscious I need to be the things I say to
Speaker 4: Lunin because honestly, like you're crazy or you're being a brat,
Speaker 4: you know, like to change my dialogue because I don't
Speaker 4: want her to believe those things or you know, like whatever.
Speaker 4: So are there any things you've been told from parents
Speaker 4: or significant people in your lives as a child that
Speaker 4: you think cause insecurities other than physical and other? One
Speaker 4: hundred percent one hundred percent. I think it's inevitable. Yeah,
Speaker 4: Like even the best parent it's going to fuck up.
Speaker 3: Sometimes, and you know it's gonna scar their child in
Speaker 3: some way, some way, in some capacity.
Speaker 9: I mean maybe because we're not impaccable enough with our words.
Speaker 9: We're not impeccable with our words. And I know I'm
Speaker 9: not shit, but yeah, like even me, like my mom.
Speaker 3: One of the things that my mom said to me
Speaker 3: as a kid, and you know, I because I started
Speaker 3: like doing.
Speaker 4: All like modeling as a kid at a young age.
Speaker 3: I went to school with so many like white kids
Speaker 3: and just became so conscious of my like size and stuff.
Speaker 3: I remember, like I was around eleven and I like
Speaker 3: was really like I.
Speaker 4: Was looking in the mirror and I was looking at
Speaker 4: my thighs and I was upset.
Speaker 3: They were like running together and like I was chafing laughing,
Speaker 3: but I'm serious, wait my tea.
Speaker 4: Yeah, and I crying to my mom and I was like, Mom,
Speaker 4: I'm fat. I don't feel pretty. I had braces at
Speaker 4: the time. I was like breaking out at acne. You know,
Speaker 4: my hair's frizzy. My mom hasn't figured that out yet,
Speaker 4: you know, like.
Speaker 5: You were like awkward thing awkward at least, yeah, you know.
Speaker 4: And I just like, you know, she and she was
Speaker 4: like she as a mom, wanted to help me, and
Speaker 4: so she was like she got me a meal plan,
Speaker 4: which then made me even more conscious.
Speaker 1: Of my weight.
Speaker 3: And then if I ate bad, she'd be like, Oka,
Speaker 3: you told me you didn't you want to lose weight,
Speaker 3: and you're eating this, and like became I.
Speaker 4: Became like always saying that. But it would hurt me.
Speaker 8: Even though like she was just trying.
Speaker 4: She was coming out face of what like trying to
Speaker 4: help me, you know what I mean. But I took it.
Speaker 3: Very personally, and I'm a sensitive being, like I might
Speaker 3: act like I'm like rough.
Speaker 4: And tough or hard and on the surface, but I'm soup.
Speaker 3: I can get hurt deeply like and you'll never know,
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 4: It'll come out later. So like, oh my god, I
Speaker 4: was like, I'm like it just felt I don't know,
Speaker 4: it just it was my mom.
Speaker 3: So you know, like you said, like when someone that
Speaker 3: close to you or someone that you you know you
Speaker 3: value their opinions, says something like that, maybe maybe you've
Speaker 3: already like said you're insecure about it, and they're just
Speaker 3: like acknowledged acknowledging it. For acknowledging it for the second time,
Speaker 3: it makes you feel like, oh, well, what what slood
Speaker 3: now like?
Speaker 4: And then you never forget that. It's like just those
Speaker 4: little defining moments.
Speaker 3: And I as a parent, I often wonder like what
Speaker 3: I mean, I have to be more mind I mean
Speaker 3: I try to be, and I will be, and I'm
Speaker 3: kind of going to continue to try to.
Speaker 4: Be mindful of what I.
Speaker 3: Say to my daughter and how I talk about her
Speaker 3: insecurities with.
Speaker 4: Her or being coming a ton of talk, how you
Speaker 4: talk about her in general so that she.
Speaker 3: Doesn't develop insecurity right, and or how I like walk
Speaker 3: her through them, you know, and out of them.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean and even not just physical stuff. I
Speaker 4: think like my parents were always like you didn't try
Speaker 4: hard enough. You are trying hard if you're half asked
Speaker 4: it like are you dumb?
Speaker 5: Are you stupid?
Speaker 4: You're not trying hard? And I'm like, I'm making good grades,
Speaker 4: you stupid? But there was not I don't feel like
Speaker 4: I'm like I'm also supposed to be a water sign thing.
Speaker 5: I'm also highly sensitive, but I act very tough.
Speaker 4: It's the cancer in me, like the hardshell and like
Speaker 4: and I could say anything anybody, and I'm like, stop
Speaker 4: being so sensitive. But me, I do take things and
Speaker 4: I get really defensive. All my friends are like, you're
Speaker 4: so defensive. I was like, no, I'm just right. But
Speaker 4: I think that that defense is because I feel like
Speaker 4: I feel like my parents. I was like often attacked
Speaker 4: and not praised, like it was like an understood thing,
Speaker 4: like you know, we love you, but you need to
Speaker 4: be better. And I think that made me kind of
Speaker 4: always defensive, like we're always getting on me, but you're
Speaker 4: never seeing anything positive. So even that from me acknowledging
Speaker 4: that made me realize as much as we talk shit,
Speaker 4: we need to equally as much, you know, affirm because
Speaker 4: you know even that that has affected me. I'm thirty
Speaker 4: years old and I've been going through something and my
Speaker 4: dad texted me today some shit that was very hurtful
Speaker 4: and one of the things, where are you are you
Speaker 4: insecure or something? And I was like, oh, whoa, And
Speaker 4: I mean I had a right to be sensitive, but
Speaker 4: he said was completely fucking out of pocket and he'll
Speaker 4: be lucky to get a call out from me anytime soon.
Speaker 5: But it just triggered, you know, it made me.
Speaker 4: It made me start to realize, oh shit, oh wow,
Speaker 4: you're talking to me fucking crazy, and how often, like
Speaker 4: was this a regular thing? And you know, it made
Speaker 4: me think how much did I accept in my previous relationship,
Speaker 4: you know, disrespect because you know, you're low key disrespecting
Speaker 4: the shoot out of me. And now I'm a grown
Speaker 4: woman at night and I can say, hey, my feelings
Speaker 4: are hurt or I can recognize it. But it did,
Speaker 4: you know, it triggered something. I mean where it made
Speaker 4: me realize, this is not the first time you've spoken
Speaker 4: to me like this, and this is probably a lifetime
Speaker 4: of like how you how you're resting me that's triggering
Speaker 4: something and that you know, I probably may have or
Speaker 4: may maybe not, I don't know, but I feel like
Speaker 4: probably affected how I am in relationships and what I've
Speaker 4: accepted prior to now. So it's so, you know, insecurities
Speaker 4: manifest a lot of ways, and as parents, it's important
Speaker 4: that we like be adult enough to a sure enough
Speaker 4: to recognize it and to address it because I think,
Speaker 4: like with our parents being older and from a different generation,
Speaker 4: we're all in this like mindfulness and this this you know,
Speaker 4: conscious place as human beings and as parents. There's a
Speaker 4: lot of you can talk to other parents. There's a
Speaker 4: social media I'll let to really you know, dissect yourself.
Speaker 5: But maybe before, I mean obviously before.
Speaker 4: There wasn't that, so they didn't have the same tools.
Speaker 4: So maybe I'm just gonna chalk it up to that,
Speaker 4: chalk it up to that since you didn't have them tools,
Speaker 4: so I'm gonna give you a pass kind of Well,
Speaker 4: I think, yeah, I think hard love also, like it's
Speaker 4: just it's a definitely like a generation like that, that generation. Yeah,
Speaker 4: And I'm kind of a hard lover because of it.
Speaker 5: You know, Like you know, I feel like like child,
Speaker 5: he tell you I love you all.
Speaker 4: The time, and shit, and that's not healthy. That's not healthy.
Speaker 4: And like I have to remind myself even with my kid,
Speaker 4: like you're so beautiful, you're so smart, you're intelligent.
Speaker 5: Wow, that's amazing.
Speaker 4: Because I'm I am, it's easier for me to be like, well,
Speaker 4: you're still a product of your parents, you know, a
Speaker 4: parent saying I'm a product the way they the way
Speaker 4: they brought you up, my childhood, my environment, parent rearing,
Speaker 4: nurture first nature. But in your childhood, Yeah, your childhood
Speaker 4: and your product of you know, the things that they
Speaker 4: taught you, the things that they normalized. And that's with anybody.
Speaker 3: But yeah, you know, like you have to check yourself
Speaker 3: because you probably do do shit that they do. You're
Speaker 3: not even aware of it, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Because I know I do shit. Sometimes I'm like, oh damn,
Speaker 3: that was like my mom. I do it in relationships,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. I do it a lot
Speaker 3: with men, and I do things that my I've seen
Speaker 3: my mom do and that she even acknowledges that maybe
Speaker 3: aren't good for her and haven't worked for her, but
Speaker 3: I've seen her do it and they become habit for you.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I definitely will see the same and
Speaker 4: eyewitness a.
Speaker 5: Very unhealthy relationship for.
Speaker 4: Many years, Like my parents were together since my mom
Speaker 4: was fourteen, my dad was like seventeen. So honestly, in
Speaker 4: my eyes, they're like still mimic those age groups, Like
Speaker 4: they never grew, they never evolved from those, like in
Speaker 4: a relationship standpoint, they are like still very immature. And
Speaker 4: so I had to realize that in order for me
Speaker 4: not to repeat it. And it's it's actually like a work,
Speaker 4: you know, it's work, and even like not catering, like
Speaker 4: I don't think I found my mom was neither one
Speaker 4: of my parents are really like oh okay, I never
Speaker 4: saw that. I was just like and then so I
Speaker 4: see in relationships some men need that, and I'm kind
Speaker 4: of like, what the fuck? Get annoyed? I gets really annoyed,
Speaker 4: Like why do you need to be so reassured? I mean,
Speaker 4: and obviously as an a, I would like to be
Speaker 4: reassured in some way. So we all do. We all
Speaker 4: need reassurance. We all want to be like told we're
Speaker 4: doing good or we're loved or whatever. So even that
Speaker 4: I have to get out of that, like making that
Speaker 4: that feels weak, make yeah weak or you're like you're
Speaker 4: you or need you. It as like a negative. Yeah,
Speaker 4: and all the time, all the time, all the time. Right, Okay,
Speaker 4: so onto onto the insecurities. Okay, So I have a question.
Speaker 3: Do you have any insecurities that you just developed, you
Speaker 3: think from after having Luna, Like about anything in particular,
Speaker 3: like my body, your body, anything like anything that that
Speaker 3: you made up in your own mind that wasn't necessarily
Speaker 3: brought on to you by an outside I mean yeah,
Speaker 3: like by an outside.
Speaker 4: Person like your.
Speaker 3: Mom or your dad or your big daddy, or like
Speaker 3: like like my parenting.
Speaker 4: It could be could be parenting, it could be your body.
Speaker 4: I mean for me, like I mean, of course sometimes
Speaker 4: I question my parenting. Of course. Yeah, no one really
Speaker 4: knows the right and so one person can say one
Speaker 4: thing to you. But for me, I mean physically, yeah,
Speaker 4: my stomach. Like I've said before, like I hate my stomach.
Speaker 4: I don't hate it.
Speaker 5: I'm learning to love it. But it's definitely different than
Speaker 5: it was before.
Speaker 4: And it's not tight like how it was. My stomach
Speaker 4: has always been something that's always been flat my whole life.
Speaker 4: I never had to worry about it. Now it's I
Speaker 4: have loose skin, it's never going to be like tight
Speaker 4: as tight as I want it. And it's something that
Speaker 4: I've had to really get get used to. It's been
Speaker 4: like I considered getting like the tummy tuck at one
Speaker 4: point and then and then I was like, yeah, girl,
Speaker 4: I even got I went, I went to get consultations,
Speaker 4: and then they say, get the fun out of it. No,
Speaker 4: that's that's a disgrace honestly, the fact that they can
Speaker 4: say it's their girl, Erica, it's there. There's I've seen
Speaker 4: tummy tuck cases that Okay, yeah it's light, it's slight.
Speaker 4: It's not but it's but.
Speaker 5: There's like that is enough to be toughed. You don't
Speaker 5: have enough skin to be touched.
Speaker 7: Girl.
Speaker 4: No, see this little area that this the second it's
Speaker 4: so since second pooch here it's tiny. Yeah is that
Speaker 4: your see sections? No, it is down here. So this skin, well,
Speaker 4: it's just I mean, I know I can probably fill
Speaker 4: it in with muscles, like if I got really buff,
Speaker 4: like stretch.
Speaker 5: Out, but I think it's time to have no apech. Okay.
Speaker 3: So I was being lancy and I went and you know,
Speaker 3: I'm sure a lot of women can relate, but I
Speaker 3: didn't go through with it.
Speaker 4: I didn't go through with it because I was I
Speaker 4: kept thinking, like I don't want to fucking major scar,
Speaker 4: Like am I just what if something happens. No, it
Speaker 4: wasn't like that type of ten. It was like a
Speaker 4: little it was like a mini tech Okay, but it
Speaker 4: was enough to make me feel like, oh my god,
Speaker 4: like this is I'm so insecure about this, Like I
Speaker 4: can't change this. Yeah, we become insecure about things we're
Speaker 4: not used well, obviously something we're not used to it
Speaker 4: and it's our body and we live in First of all,
Speaker 4: we live in La which is the veiny of the
Speaker 4: veinous of all places on earth. So yeah, it's a change.
Speaker 4: So it's something, yeah, but naturally and as women, we're
Speaker 4: not made to embrace those changes.
Speaker 5: Start cutting it up as ramost amost go, start cleaning it.
Speaker 7: Okay, thank thank you, take it pick it up, baby, Okay, okay,
Speaker 7: thank you.
Speaker 4: I think my breast right like as you guys all know,
Speaker 4: my breast friends for two and a half years, and
Speaker 4: I don't really hate my breast, but I do want
Speaker 4: to get them done eventually. Yeah this Your boots are
Speaker 4: like perfect perky. They are not Yeah, yeah, they're very slow.
Speaker 4: There's like a flat, flat, flat, flat flat.
Speaker 5: Boot at the bottom, but they're still small. I mean,
Speaker 5: so yeah.
Speaker 4: And then I also my boyfriend telling me I have
Speaker 4: those big ass nipples, sucking nipples, like baby sucking nipples.
Speaker 5: They looks like they've been sucked heavily.
Speaker 4: I mean, that's what just some people's nipples look like.
Speaker 5: I thought it was rather regular myself.
Speaker 4: But whatever, everyone has different nipples. Uh yeah, that's really
Speaker 4: I'm pretty lucky when it comes to like my body type.
Speaker 5: I was hoping to have gained weight.
Speaker 4: And I didn't, and I was pissed so like mostly
Speaker 4: my my breasts that changed, you know what.
Speaker 3: I've like this week, I felt insecure about this has
Speaker 3: nothing to do physical, and I had to just like
Speaker 3: I think it was part of that whole like way
Speaker 3: I was feeling earlier. I started to feel and this
Speaker 3: sounds really terrible and I don't like I love my
Speaker 3: child and everything. I started to feel insecure about having
Speaker 3: a child and dating. Yeah, like I felt like, how
Speaker 3: do I should be doing it? Like no, like I
Speaker 3: just don't. I felt like I don't know how to
Speaker 3: describe it, like almost like yeah, like I'm not gonna
Speaker 3: like I'm going to miss out on a lot of
Speaker 3: people because they don't want to date.
Speaker 4: Someone with a child. And of course I know why
Speaker 4: that thought came into mind, and I don't I think that,
Speaker 4: but that's what I'm saying, Like, it's crazy how insecurity
Speaker 4: there's insecurities that come in to go because yeah, it
Speaker 4: wasn't like a strong.
Speaker 3: One, but it was something that I thought about and
Speaker 3: I felt weird about for a minute and I was like, wow,
Speaker 3: my life, I like it put things. It was a
Speaker 3: defining moment where I was like, Wow, dating with the
Speaker 3: child is not the same.
Speaker 4: It's different. It's not the same as dating with without one,
Speaker 4: and you're noticipating.
Speaker 3: It's something you have to adjust to, and like some
Speaker 3: people adjust to it just totally normal, and I think
Speaker 3: I did adjust to it quickly, but I like, I
Speaker 3: think it's also normal to have insecurities about it too.
Speaker 4: Fuck yeah, that was one of the first things that
Speaker 4: I like, I don't have to date and I'm don't
Speaker 4: have to tell people have the kids, which is not
Speaker 4: a problem, Like obviously I'm not gonna I don't lead
Speaker 4: with that though. When I date, when I go on
Speaker 4: I mean, I usually like they know by the end
Speaker 4: of the first date.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but like not usually you do, like even though like.
Speaker 4: Like on my on my dating profiles, like I don't
Speaker 4: have to show my kid, you know, I don't you
Speaker 4: know why I did it on my previous tender. I
Speaker 4: someone pushed me about that too, but I thought, like
Speaker 4: you should know now I am a mom. Let's let's
Speaker 4: lead going into it. No what it is.
Speaker 5: So if you can't handle it, keep on keep on going.
Speaker 4: I understand. And also like someone because I was really
Speaker 4: insecure about it too, because when you date single, you're like, I'm.
Speaker 5: Single, I have no kids.
Speaker 4: I'm a most valuable player, because that's that's what like
Speaker 4: you think.
Speaker 5: Even with men, we do it. He's saying, oh he
Speaker 5: doesn't have the kids, he's never been married.
Speaker 4: These are things that are like in our mind's perks
Speaker 4: so naturally as women especially, we think it's like a
Speaker 4: non perk when we do have kids. But you know,
Speaker 4: my friend brought to my attention is like, girl, low key.
Speaker 4: It's better because you will find men who are more
Speaker 4: serious and they're gonna be less willing to waste your
Speaker 4: time and they're like, oh, she has a kid, she's
Speaker 4: a mom. Shame play, So I kind of feel like
Speaker 4: what's meant for me is for me. So if you're
Speaker 4: not about this life, no, and I totally feel like that.
Speaker 5: Most of the time.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but but I did.
Speaker 3: I feel I felt like, wow, like this is gonna
Speaker 3: this is harder, This is gonna be harder.
Speaker 4: And that's also send me from your last situation and
Speaker 4: the word convenient. You aren't convenient or someone else is
Speaker 4: more convenient than you, which is code for I'm needy,
Speaker 4: and I don't understand that you're not going to always
Speaker 4: be available because you have priorities what you're your kid,
Speaker 4: which is not like I don't want that to be
Speaker 4: a priority as it should, but I can't handle it,
Speaker 4: which in my I mean, that's honest, but it's also unmature.
Speaker 4: But it's also someone's choice. But I think that's the
Speaker 4: only reason, like recently that ree came up in your
Speaker 4: mind this week, because I think other than that, it
Speaker 4: probably wouldn't happen. Yeah, I know. And because of that though,
Speaker 4: I thought like, damn, like this is something that probably
Speaker 4: might come up again, and I need to know how
Speaker 4: to deal with this right or not. That's what I mean, like,
Speaker 4: not let it make me feel this way because because
Speaker 4: it did, and I was like, oh, I don't like that.
Speaker 5: I don't like that I can even have those thoughts.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And then I noticed as moms dating guys who
Speaker 4: don't have kids, I get really defensive about men who
Speaker 4: don't have kids, putting giving me input about like my mother,
Speaker 4: like oh you smell or oh she's still up, you know.
Speaker 4: After it was random guy on tender and he was like, hey,
Speaker 4: called me one night. He's like an old school guy
Speaker 4: and he's like, oh she's still up. It's ten o'clock.
Speaker 5: And I'm like, yeah, shit happens. But like my other
Speaker 5: thing is like, look.
Speaker 4: Yo, if you don't have me fucking kids, you'd have
Speaker 4: no clue how this shit is. Because she's a grown
Speaker 4: woman that she doesn't listen to shit. I have to say,
Speaker 4: I can't wait till you get a kid, give me
Speaker 4: a call. And yeah, it's like you're judging me, and
Speaker 4: you're probably like, oh, she doesn't.
Speaker 5: Have her kid together, she's you know.
Speaker 4: But there's there's all types of variations of insecurities and
Speaker 4: that comes from you so much shit, including being a mom,
Speaker 4: which I think is totally fucking sexist because I doubt
Speaker 4: very seriously. You'll hear any single dads who feel any
Speaker 4: less than the rankings because they have a kid. I mean,
Speaker 4: and if they do, it's so slight. It's so slight.
Speaker 4: I think they probably do, but it's it's definitely not
Speaker 4: a deal breaker. It's definitely heavier on the deal breaker
Speaker 4: side for THEE for women anything. I was gonna ask,
Speaker 4: So we're talking about our insecurities about ourselves, but.
Speaker 5: How do you have you ever dated an insecure guy?
Speaker 5: And how did that work out for you?
Speaker 4: Horrible? Yeah, insecure men are the words.
Speaker 5: Let me repea this.
Speaker 4: An insecure man is the fucking worst, the fucking worst
Speaker 4: shit ever, the worst species of a man. It really is.
Speaker 4: It's a fucking turn off because for all, first of all,
Speaker 4: versus Burkio and cancer and we's wild. No, but I
Speaker 4: have a lot of personality. I'm not even to man horn,
Speaker 4: I'm the bomb. No, I'm a people person as fuck.
Speaker 4: And I genuinely I say this so much. I genuinely
Speaker 4: love people, like I really like to get to know
Speaker 4: different people. I really like to like talk to people.
Speaker 4: I like to work the room. You're so different, You're
Speaker 4: so different, I know, but I like not a people
Speaker 4: person sometimes I am. It depends.
Speaker 5: I love people. I love how the different variations they
Speaker 5: come in.
Speaker 4: I like talking to people, like being inspired and just
Speaker 4: getting anxiety thinking about it. So like, you know, some
Speaker 4: guys don't want you to be so hella topic I've gotten,
Speaker 4: Oh you're so friendly, which means you're kind of poochying
Speaker 4: around the room. But if you don't know, I came
Speaker 4: with you and you're not like exuding confidence and like
Speaker 4: you're doing you well, I'm doing me.
Speaker 5: It's very annoying.
Speaker 4: And not even just that, Like Ani who calls you
Speaker 4: constantly is the most fucking annoying shit I've ever experienced
Speaker 4: in my life. My ex could call me I kid
Speaker 4: you not. It's like seventy eight times in a row.
Speaker 4: At night, I would have like one hundred and.
Speaker 3: Forty text messages that would be like my ex too,
Speaker 3: not my baby daddy, but the one before him, Oh
Speaker 3: my god.
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah. It was just it's just it becomes a
Speaker 4: turn off, Like you don't at first, like at least
Speaker 4: for me, at first, it like was like we felt
Speaker 4: like it felt like an obsession between the both of us,
Speaker 4: and then at some point, like I think I was
Speaker 4: young too, and then.
Speaker 5: You realized like this is this is not cure, It's not.
Speaker 4: You just love me, Like this is fucking annoying. You're
Speaker 4: trying to like fill some void that I can't fill.
Speaker 4: My ex used to fuck me and asked me questions.
Speaker 4: Remember fucking interrogations. He would literally gas.
Speaker 5: So tell me where you were.
Speaker 4: I was like, I already told you you're really fucking
Speaker 4: up the sex here because I can't focus when you're
Speaker 4: asking me so many questions. But he was dead serious,
Speaker 4: and I was like, I can't believe you would fuck
Speaker 4: you and ask you question didn't he had already asked
Speaker 4: me when he like, asked you sexy, Like, I guess
Speaker 4: that was how after fifteen times.
Speaker 5: Of it, have you fucked anybody else?
Speaker 4: Are you?
Speaker 5: I'm like, shut the fucking looks.
Speaker 4: Stop?
Speaker 3: Maybe like maybe he thought. He was like like tell
Speaker 3: me it's mine, tell me literally like just tell me
Speaker 3: just just I'm like, no, just have you ever been
Speaker 3: like actually I do to be like, yeah, no, I have,
Speaker 3: Yeah I did?
Speaker 4: Did you? I'm like I don't know. I thought you
Speaker 4: want me to say yes because you, like I thought
Speaker 4: maybe it would turn I didn't stop. Yeah, I thought
Speaker 4: maybe it would turn you off. I thought there was
Speaker 4: a creature behind you. I'm so paranoid, you're so parsed.
Speaker 3: But no, I can't the for me in that relationship
Speaker 3: that I was in where he was super jealous and I.
Speaker 4: Just it just became obsessive.
Speaker 3: I feel like when you're in a jealous relationship, it's
Speaker 3: it's it's doomed to become physical at some point. Almost
Speaker 3: if it's not like, if it's not emotionally abusive, that
Speaker 3: it's going to become physically abusive, because it leads to that.
Speaker 5: You're right, because there's a that is so true.
Speaker 4: I never thought, but there's a fucking thin line between
Speaker 4: you know, I'm just casually asking you some shit too,
Speaker 4: I'm I'm haggling you like it's it's it's intense because
Speaker 4: they build up this whole story in their mind of
Speaker 4: what you're doing, and then they can't be convinced otherwise.
Speaker 3: And then and don't get me wrong, I think I've
Speaker 3: I've been insecure.
Speaker 4: I think everyone has been insecure relationships before. I think
Speaker 4: obviously they show up in different ways. Because even when
Speaker 4: you were asking me earlier, like would you rather be
Speaker 4: in like a super like would you rather be the
Speaker 4: really super jealous guy who's insecure, or like someone who
Speaker 4: just doesn't care at all, And like, obviously I would
Speaker 4: rather be with someone who doesn't care at all because
Speaker 4: the other side of it is too much, but like
Speaker 4: obviously you want the healthy medium both. Like for example,
Speaker 4: my ex was he after getting out of that extremely
Speaker 4: like helicopter relationship dating my ex my baby daddy, like
Speaker 4: he was so chill, like he just let me.
Speaker 3: Do whatever I wanted, like no questions asked, Like, baby,
Speaker 3: I trust you and I love that show. Three years
Speaker 3: when me and Erica first started hanging out, like again,
Speaker 3: we started hanging out mostly to make the kids hang out,
Speaker 3: so we didn't have any friends with kids, and so
Speaker 3: like we just start.
Speaker 4: Talking because what the fuck else are we gonna do?
Speaker 4: So I'm like, no, my Bavie's he's knowing as fuck.
Speaker 4: Oh he just asked me one million questions, call me
Speaker 4: one million fucking times.
Speaker 5: She's like, really, I could leave the house naked.
Speaker 4: And a naked could be picking me up and my
Speaker 4: baby like peace, I'll catch you later. I was like what,
Speaker 4: She's like, Yeah, it's fucking weird. Yeah, And I'm like
Speaker 4: I hadn't I couldn't even imagine it. I'm like, you're lucky. Yeah.
Speaker 4: I mean, at first it was cool, and then it.
Speaker 3: Got to the point where like when I found out
Speaker 3: he was doing them an shit he shouldn't be doing.
Speaker 3: Then I was like, oh, that's why you don't ask me,
Speaker 3: because because you don'tant me to ask you shit.
Speaker 4: So then I even started to girl.
Speaker 3: I tried to get him to like, I tried to
Speaker 3: get him mad at like me and my friend devised
Speaker 3: a whole plan witch like my friend's like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: my home, but yes she was. He was like, I'm
Speaker 3: gonna call you three am. Like I'm gonna call you
Speaker 3: like four times, make sure your ringers on. And I
Speaker 3: was like okay. So he called me, and he called
Speaker 3: me and Nia did not wake up. Then finally the
Speaker 3: third time he woke up, I answered and then I
Speaker 3: was like hey.
Speaker 4: And then like then I was like, I don't know.
Speaker 3: We had like I got really nervous too, I got scared,
Speaker 3: and then like we had a talk and then we
Speaker 3: hung up and then Freddy was like, you're good.
Speaker 4: Okay. I was like what the fuck. I was like,
Speaker 4: we're over.
Speaker 10: He doesn't care, so but but so his insecurity is
Speaker 10: that he obviously needs to seek attention, but he needs
Speaker 10: attention from everyone, which is why you know, he doesn't
Speaker 10: want me asking him what he's doing because he knows
Speaker 10: he's not doing anything.
Speaker 3: So it's just it's just interesting how insecurities show up
Speaker 3: in different ways.
Speaker 4: Because my baby's daddy would literally it was so bad.
Speaker 4: The trust issues was so bad, Like I went out
Speaker 4: not to go places because it was just so, it
Speaker 4: was just I'd rather not deal with it. But then
Speaker 4: I would like find screenshots from bumble from fucking tender.
Speaker 4: I'm like, Yo, you're a fucking idiot. I'm like, you
Speaker 4: treat me like a child. No, oh my god. He
Speaker 4: would say when I would go out, let's be good, okay,
Speaker 4: be good, which is a trigger.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I read that shit.
Speaker 4: I'm not a goddamn puppy okay, and I'm not your child.
Speaker 4: What the fuck? This? Be good? Me a read a
Speaker 4: relationship or the fuck.
Speaker 3: It's so it's like sets the tone before you walk
Speaker 3: out that door, like I'm yeah, I'm going to fuck
Speaker 3: up your night.
Speaker 4: Now, don't be this is another quote. Oh my god,
Speaker 4: I have so many text messages. Don't be out the door. No,
Speaker 4: hoho shit.
Speaker 5: Who oh, it's like fourteen million times. Don't get there,
Speaker 5: don't know ho shit. I'm like, what is th shit?
Speaker 4: I'm what qualified? No, But I'm like, you keep telling
Speaker 4: me that I'm going to do the hot shit exactly
Speaker 4: because it's not like you don't try. And that's exactly
Speaker 4: what happened in.
Speaker 3: My last relationship. He always thought I was cheating on him,
Speaker 3: that I fucking cheated on him. Yeah, they're like, you know,
Speaker 3: I ended up just cheating. I was like, I might
Speaker 3: as well be cheating because apparently I'm cheating already girl.
Speaker 4: And then like, first of all, I was so out
Speaker 4: of the relationship and in the relationship like it was
Speaker 4: she had.
Speaker 5: Been over a long time ago. Literally, I was probably
Speaker 5: like pregnant.
Speaker 4: Finding and they're gonna tender and she texting bitches. I
Speaker 4: was like, you're a fucking idiot that you would give
Speaker 4: me this much stress and this much bullshit, and how
Speaker 4: my friends were like, of course he's projecting, because that's
Speaker 4: what the fuck he's doing.
Speaker 5: So I was like, this doesn't make any sense. I'm
Speaker 5: so confused.
Speaker 4: I'm so over it.
Speaker 5: And it did develop.
Speaker 4: My relationship became very hostile, very abusive and and even
Speaker 4: to the point like before it got physical, is fucking
Speaker 4: emotionally abusive, like hoh shit, you'll be like, you know
Speaker 4: what everybody's how everybody thinks that you want. It was
Speaker 4: just like trying to just strip me and luck, I
Speaker 4: mean lucky for him eventually I did. I was like
Speaker 4: numb to it, and I wouldn't like see it because
Speaker 4: I saw him as a child and like.
Speaker 5: As my baby.
Speaker 4: But I was just like it was over it now
Speaker 4: to this day, honestly, like it's a trigger any kind
Speaker 4: of fucking rules, any kind of fucking any insecurities, and
Speaker 4: of course we all have in securities and relationships. It's
Speaker 4: a part of like being the part to be sure
Speaker 4: that shit, I'm like, ooh, run, bitch, run, I don't
Speaker 4: have no time for this.
Speaker 5: That's probably the point where I'm like, maybe I do,
Speaker 5: you know, open relationship because I have zero time for
Speaker 5: anyone to feel like they own me.
Speaker 4: And I feel like I people get in relationships with
Speaker 4: people for like the same reasons they love them, They
Speaker 4: find reasons to hate.
Speaker 5: They find reasons to hate them for.
Speaker 4: Oh cool this, Like they may love you because you
Speaker 4: can work a room like you can debate people because
Speaker 4: you're charming, because people love you, and then for that
Speaker 4: same reason, they'll they'll fucking start meeting you and not
Speaker 4: be able to handle that and become deeply insecure, and uh,
Speaker 4: that's I will never date like that ever again.
Speaker 3: I think it's like you have to be able to
Speaker 3: find or you you hope.
Speaker 4: To find a balance, you know what I mean. And
Speaker 4: you know it's just everyone was going to have a
Speaker 4: little insecurity.
Speaker 3: I know, I realized in my last dating situation that
Speaker 3: I still am not over a lot of my insecurities
Speaker 3: for my last relationship.
Speaker 4: And you know, my.
Speaker 3: Insecurity is in my relationship where that I just constantly
Speaker 3: felt like I had to keep my partner's attention that
Speaker 3: like I you know, then my physic then physical insecurity
Speaker 3: started to come into play because I saw the women
Speaker 3: that he was looking at on Instagram that that maybe
Speaker 3: I didn't look like at that time because I just
Speaker 3: had a baby, or even before the baby, like my
Speaker 3: like I didn't have like a like my booty.
Speaker 4: Wasn't big enough and all these shit.
Speaker 3: That shit that like didn't really bother me at first,
Speaker 3: but the more and more it's just the longer the
Speaker 3: relationship happened, the more in scare I got, oh for sure,
Speaker 3: And you know, I guess those are my insecurities.
Speaker 4: I never was.
Speaker 3: I've never been the type of girl to look through
Speaker 3: your phone. I think maybe I've done it like maybe
Speaker 3: two or three times in my life. I think also
Speaker 3: because I know I'm going to find something. You look
Speaker 3: you're gonna find. But also and I know I don't
Speaker 3: want people going through my shit because you look, you're
Speaker 3: gonna find something that might be a little inappropriate.
Speaker 4: Doesn't mean I cheated, but or you'll you'll make it,
Speaker 4: you'll translate, you translate it that way. But I also
Speaker 4: learned dating an insecure man or being an instacure relationship
Speaker 4: period makes my pussy dry.
Speaker 5: It makes me very drum.
Speaker 4: But it will also start making things that are not
Speaker 4: have not been normal to you previously.
Speaker 5: It will be tied for tat.
Speaker 4: So I am not a look here through the phone,
Speaker 4: because I'm guaranteed I'm going to find some shit, So
Speaker 4: I look when I need the proof, not already know.
Speaker 4: But I start to be this person that I wasn't
Speaker 4: calling and then questioning because I'm trying to be spiteful
Speaker 4: and get you back, because I want you to know
Speaker 4: how fucking annoying it write that or like, see you're
Speaker 4: doing that too, so fuck you. But low key the
Speaker 4: crazy ist thing is nick like nigga's like that like
Speaker 4: it they're like, oh you love me, Oh I ain't
Speaker 4: doing nothing, baby like crazy and I just like I
Speaker 4: don't even want to begin that healthy that unhealthy like relate,
Speaker 4: Like it's literally a tip for tat and then you
Speaker 4: get attached and then you just it's this fucking horrible
Speaker 4: cycle of unhealthy bullshit.
Speaker 5: So no insecure niggas.
Speaker 3: Sure, yeah, it's it's a very big turn off.
Speaker 4: I mean I can't say no insecure niggas.
Speaker 3: Every person, like I say, it has insecurity, but just
Speaker 3: don't lead with it. Yeah, Like like she said, like
Speaker 3: should I like it? Going back to the person who said,
Speaker 3: who uh wrote to us and our DM, she said.
Speaker 4: Should I lead with this insecurity when dating? Absolutely not.
Speaker 3: Nobody wants to know your insecurities up front, Like because
Speaker 3: of course.
Speaker 4: Everyone has their insecurities.
Speaker 3: It's not to say to hide them, but like that's
Speaker 3: not nobody wants to hear this shit on the first day.
Speaker 4: Oh, by the way, like cause it does come it
Speaker 4: comes off very insecure and unsure of yourself, and it
Speaker 4: doesn't come off cute, it doesn't come off like comfortable. Okay, girl,
Speaker 4: let me, oh, let me make you feel secure, at
Speaker 4: least not for me.
Speaker 3: And maybe some man likes that. And those are the
Speaker 3: type of men that are gonna pray on you. Yeah,
Speaker 3: she has a weakness. Oh she's not.
Speaker 4: She's not. They're already gonna pray on you. Yeah, Vagina,
Speaker 4: they're already gonna pray.
Speaker 5: As soon as a man finds your weakness, they.
Speaker 3: Will like exploit it like no other thing you've ever
Speaker 3: seen before.
Speaker 5: My ex used to date like some old school Insta video.
Speaker 2: Ho.
Speaker 5: I wish I could say her name, but I'm not
Speaker 5: gonna give her that much of it.
Speaker 4: Do I know? She is probably not?
Speaker 5: How many instas are there?
Speaker 4: Sounds familiar, sounds like thats like an Instase name whatever.
Speaker 4: But she had like a real big fake body like
Speaker 4: she's Latina. She had like long like hair. She's reminded
Speaker 4: me that you can't dress that well, you know, think
Speaker 4: boobs like her face was a very cute, but obviously,
Speaker 4: again my body is nothing like that. So I'm like,
Speaker 4: how do you like this?
Speaker 10: Both?
Speaker 4: Like I had found a video of him fucking and
Speaker 4: I could not get the image out of my head.
Speaker 4: I couldn't have been Oh god. And that's another thing.
Speaker 4: If I would leave, I was so this is on
Speaker 4: the other side. I was so paranoid about this nigga
Speaker 4: and we moved in together. Like any notebooks from the
Speaker 4: twelfth grade, any any anything on my computer, I was
Speaker 4: mortified to leave them because I know the nigga would
Speaker 4: just be like go through everything. Oh my god.
Speaker 3: That's how I was like. I'd be like, oh my god,
Speaker 3: I look my computer over, but he's gonna go through
Speaker 3: my email like that was I was.
Speaker 4: I remember being stressed out about leaving shit so many things.
Speaker 4: You know, you didn't do anything, and I'm like, did
Speaker 4: I do something? Did I list? So I was like,
Speaker 4: this is making so much anxiety, so much anxiety. I'm
Speaker 4: surprised I don't have a full fucking head of gray
Speaker 4: hair because I was. It was so anxiety, dragon girl.
Speaker 4: I couldn't like everything. I was like, if someone mentioned
Speaker 4: the wrong name from the twelfth grade bitch, I was like,
Speaker 4: don't talk about my twelfth grade boyfriend.
Speaker 5: You know he's It was ridiculous. It was ridiculous.
Speaker 4: Oh my god.
Speaker 3: I think like the biggest part of like all of
Speaker 3: that is trying not to, like you said, like you
Speaker 3: get like you're triggered by that, so like sometimes you
Speaker 3: probably could be triggered by some ship that really isn't that,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean, It just reminds you of
Speaker 3: that and right, and then being able to separate those things.
Speaker 4: And I have to be able to differentiate, like, Okay,
Speaker 4: now it's the time to be like, look, babe, due
Speaker 4: to the levels, like okay, so he gets passed levelfore
Speaker 4: it's okay to just bring it down and not acknowledge
Speaker 4: it and keep a movement. But I'm so that sounds
Speaker 4: super insecure. I'm like wanting to hit attack, attack and
Speaker 4: hit the road running because I'm a good runner. This
Speaker 4: feels a lot like Roles. I'm out of here, so yeah,
Speaker 4: now I'm in this place like okay, this is healthy,
Speaker 4: as is not healthy, and yeah, I'm fucking a battered
Speaker 4: insecure woman. It is. That's exactly what it is. Insecure
Speaker 4: man PGSD. I just coin that term should be therapist
Speaker 4: should pick that ship up. I am PTSD of an
Speaker 4: insecure man. Specifically, I am oh I am insecure man.
Speaker 5: Okay, I.
Speaker 4: Was like, I can steel. I was like, I can't
Speaker 4: make any questions. Am I smart?
Speaker 1: Yeah? No?
Speaker 4: That shit is not cute and it gets old. It's
Speaker 4: really bad.
Speaker 5: And like you know what what what?
Speaker 4: What term I like most like, it's the it's the
Speaker 4: the puppy syndrome. Like you can like if you get
Speaker 4: a puppy and you try and squeeze it to death,
Speaker 4: as soon as it gets way from me, it's gonna
Speaker 4: fucking jet. If you get a puppy and it's nice
Speaker 4: to it, it will always come be back for food
Speaker 4: and ship. Just like a bird, you cage it as
Speaker 4: soon as you open that gate, it's gonna hit. But
Speaker 4: if you like, let a bird roam freely, it will
Speaker 4: fly back to you every time. Because there's less there's
Speaker 4: less caging. I am not an animal. I do not
Speaker 4: wish to be caged. You're squeezed to death. Let me
Speaker 4: be willing to come back. This is an optional relationship
Speaker 4: and that I'm choosing you. So let me remind you
Speaker 4: that of every day when I come back to the
Speaker 4: house without you questioning me.
Speaker 5: So I just got like a flashback.
Speaker 4: I feel you. I feel like I feel you. What
Speaker 4: anything else about I mean, I think, so, what are you,
Speaker 4: how do you how do you deal with yours? How
Speaker 4: have you dealt with your insecurities? Or how are you
Speaker 4: dealing with your insecurities? Because obviously it's always like a
Speaker 4: kind of a work in progress. I think, I mean
Speaker 4: physically physical, like I've literally come like this is it,
Speaker 4: this is it? This is what I look like. There's
Speaker 4: I mean like I could exercise, i could eat more.
Speaker 4: I'm not likely going to gain a lot of weight,
Speaker 4: shit ton. I could get like prices, I can get
Speaker 4: like a vampire facial member. I've been talking about it.
Speaker 3: I'm talk about a vat talking about vampire a year,
Speaker 3: and then yesterday she brought it up again.
Speaker 4: I was like, bitch, when are you getting it?
Speaker 5: It's like eight hundred dollars, so no time soon.
Speaker 4: I was like, do you give me to buy your
Speaker 4: face because I until the ships on group on bitch,
Speaker 4: I ain't getting enough to over bitch or no, is
Speaker 4: it like Booker?
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, because you told me it was another one
Speaker 5: and that's the lot Okay.
Speaker 4: But mostly the other insecurities that I'm trying to work
Speaker 4: on are having flashbacks, like of comparing myself to other
Speaker 4: women because you ain't shit and and because that's.
Speaker 5: Unnecessary and it's it's it's mental.
Speaker 4: And even just like being defensive getting flashbacks, I'm trying
Speaker 4: to run every time someone like remotely reprimands me getting jealous,
Speaker 4: you know, just like I just have to like think
Speaker 4: to myself, like is it really that serious?
Speaker 5: And bitch, you need to stop myself.
Speaker 4: Bitch relax And you're not gonna have big sick size
Speaker 4: and a fake ass or big tips.
Speaker 5: That's not your body type. Get over it. Who because
Speaker 5: who's into skinny women? It's going to be into me,
Speaker 5: you know. But if they ain't they and men can
Speaker 5: have many types.
Speaker 4: You know. You can like Erica and you can like me,
Speaker 4: and you can like Betty for next door, you know.
Speaker 4: So I mean it's just mostly like self love, I think,
Speaker 4: and like constantly reminding myself like I'm good as I
Speaker 4: am and things that I'm you know, and not being
Speaker 4: defensive and taking oh again, the four agreements, not taking
Speaker 4: things personal.
Speaker 1: That's you.
Speaker 4: It's another part of the book specifically, it says, even
Speaker 4: if somebody calls you fat, it's not you. They're projecting
Speaker 4: on you. They're trying to make you feel bad. And
Speaker 4: if you let them make you feel bad, you're agreeing
Speaker 4: to those terms, and I'm just like, I'm not going
Speaker 4: to agree to that. You want to see what everyone
Speaker 4: about me cool, I'm not agreeing to it. I'm not
Speaker 4: taking it personal. That's you the fact that you feel
Speaker 4: like they need to point it out to me. I'm
Speaker 4: still not taking it personally, because that's some short ideal
Speaker 4: within yourself.
Speaker 5: Yeah, how about you, that's a big one.
Speaker 3: I mean, because I do take things personally all the time.
Speaker 3: I think I'm still figuring that that out. I think
Speaker 3: some things I've been able to work through and just
Speaker 3: talk myself through. Some things I've just cut out. Like
Speaker 3: if you start making me feel this way like m
Speaker 3: I'm just gonna cut you. And maybe that's not the
Speaker 3: best Maybe that's not the best practice because maybe I'm
Speaker 3: not fully facing it and dealing with it.
Speaker 4: But sometimes I'm just like, you don't want to date
Speaker 4: anybody who's bringing out like negative things or making you
Speaker 4: second guess yourself. That's not a relation.
Speaker 5: Why it just feels like this is not serving me.
Speaker 3: And I don't mean that in a selfish way, but
Speaker 3: I do in a selfish way.
Speaker 4: And she'd be.
Speaker 3: I think I think physically that my physical things. It's
Speaker 3: a work in progress, you know. I mean I went
Speaker 3: to therapy not just for physical insecurity, it's just for
Speaker 3: like life shit. But it's something we've talked about, and
Speaker 3: you know, she's at first she would tell me like, okay,
Speaker 3: touch your body and look in the mirror and talk
Speaker 3: to your body.
Speaker 4: And she made me do it in front of her,
Speaker 4: and I was like, this is so funny, weird. No, no,
Speaker 4: I'm just gonna first because imagine you're looking yourself in
Speaker 4: the mirror and talk to your talk to yourself, And
Speaker 4: isn't it hard. It's so weird. It's so weird being
Speaker 4: with her doing it. And then it was even almost
Speaker 4: weirder by myself because what's making you do it?
Speaker 5: Yeah, and are things that like to praise yourself aloud?
Speaker 4: So is weird.
Speaker 3: And she's like, you fucking talk shit to yourself all
Speaker 3: mother fucking day your head, So like what's the different.
Speaker 3: Just humor yourself and talk some good ship and maybe
Speaker 3: you'll believe it because you believe all those shit that
Speaker 3: isn't true, you know, And like I know that that's true.
Speaker 3: And I have seen a change of course, there's still
Speaker 3: times where I'm like, no, bitch, that stomach just is weack,
Speaker 3: Like I don't care how many times you rub over
Speaker 3: it and say it's precious and flat and hard, bitch,
Speaker 3: it's not a baby.
Speaker 5: But then but then I think that too.
Speaker 4: I try to and I have, I mean, I try.
Speaker 3: To have to figure out different angles to embrace it more.
Speaker 3: And that's one of the ones that I feel like
Speaker 3: has been the strongest. Made me feel the strongest, is
Speaker 3: that like, no, this is like the house of life
Speaker 3: and there ain't no comparing.
Speaker 4: You know, you know so, and you know also like
Speaker 4: and I stop in my.
Speaker 5: Whole game, so I never stopped. I never stopped it.
Speaker 5: So I'm gonna try that.
Speaker 4: But I'm gonna try looking at myself and make in
Speaker 4: the mirror and like talking positively. Yeah, like she was
Speaker 4: like you tout your thighs and be like, I love
Speaker 4: my thighs. They're soft, they're strong, they walk like they
Speaker 4: get me places like but you know, yeah, like one's
Speaker 4: legs walk. Yeah, you be grateful. Yeah, just like I'm sexy,
Speaker 4: like and just keep saying I'm sexy. I love this body.
Speaker 4: It's sexy and sexy and it feels weird as fuck,
Speaker 4: but until it doesn't feel weird doing but who cares?
Speaker 4: Still keep doing it, you know exactly, So like, that's
Speaker 4: that's something that I that I do from time to time,
Speaker 4: to be programming yourself exactly, that's exactly what it is,
Speaker 4: and that's it's important. And then I don't know, girl, Yeah,
Speaker 4: I mean just shit, I don't know.
Speaker 3: Sometimes I feel like I'm failing it most of the time,
Speaker 3: but I'm trying.
Speaker 4: I'm trying. There's a there'd be ship you have never
Speaker 4: noticed your whole thirty or however many years of life
Speaker 4: and someone else will brings some.
Speaker 5: Shady be like are you fucked? No, I don't think
Speaker 5: about that.
Speaker 4: She too weird my shoulder? I have you got a beard?
Speaker 1: Bitch?
Speaker 4: Like oh number seventy to So I was gonna be
Speaker 4: something that somebody doesn't like. So love your whole self period.
Speaker 4: So we have a hory and is a continuation of
Speaker 4: our guest of our our mur DM listener because after
Speaker 4: we spoke to her on Instagram DM FaceTime, she apparently
Speaker 4: she was on the way to see her a guy. Yeah,
Speaker 4: because we encourage her, We're like, girl today, try to
Speaker 4: go worse. Just try to wear sandals.
Speaker 5: Just try to wear something where your toes are shown,
Speaker 5: and just like go.
Speaker 4: Out the house.
Speaker 3: So she messaged us and she said, and it's a
Speaker 3: horri because it's kind of a horror story, like not
Speaker 3: like not good like scary, like scary hole horror, horror,
Speaker 3: not horror, it's horror horror.
Speaker 4: More, this is very scarien like h O R R
Speaker 4: O R.
Speaker 5: To clarify, Okay, okay, good day girls.
Speaker 3: I went over there in my slides, I had on socks,
Speaker 3: but I didn't let the feet bother me. And when
Speaker 3: he's and when he went in for the oral sex,
Speaker 3: I let him slide my likings right off along with
Speaker 3: my socks. Now that's progress.
Speaker 5: Sucks all calves. Exclamation mark, exclamation.
Speaker 4: Mark, Thank you so much.
Speaker 3: Now, had I known his oral and dick gang was
Speaker 3: so whack, I wouldn't have spent a second on that
Speaker 3: mental strain about my feet.
Speaker 4: How does the six three foot man have a little dick?
Speaker 3: And how do you get to be forty one and
Speaker 3: don't know how to eat the cooch?
Speaker 4: Girl? That is a horror story.
Speaker 5: That's I've been in. That horror story I've been in.
Speaker 4: That is that a two I've been in that one, okay,
Speaker 4: and it's what the fucking fuck? I remember the discovery
Speaker 4: of why are you sixty? This little ass stick? So
Speaker 4: to say, the least stereotypes are like fake and you
Speaker 4: know that's probably insecurity of his and if it was,
Speaker 4: then nigga, you better know how to eat the Cohi,
Speaker 4: you better love, you better love be prime time top
Speaker 4: notnch cushy. Ear.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: So if you're a guy listening and you know we
Speaker 4: can't all help, but begin, like I said, this is
Speaker 4: the body I got. Let's not you know, some guys,
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. It's the emotion of the ocean, not
Speaker 4: the size that matters. And it's true, and it's also
Speaker 4: the works of your mouth more specifically, it does. There
Speaker 4: is a whole species, let me just be clear, a big, tall,
Speaker 4: burly men with little dicks.
Speaker 5: Okay, shack, oh shack.
Speaker 4: I mean I don't know that personally. Everybody everybody she
Speaker 4: carean Stefan.
Speaker 5: Anyway knows her.
Speaker 4: Can you call us?
Speaker 5: I would really like to talk to you. But but yeah,
Speaker 5: it's a whole species, this epidemic.
Speaker 4: And I'm a lot of black men too, So don't
Speaker 4: get a twists black guys have small dicks too, sure,
Speaker 4: and white guys have big dicks, and you know it
Speaker 4: goes a lot of whites. I don't have a lot
Speaker 4: of experience in any other ones outside and oh there's
Speaker 4: also species of short man with big penis with safe
Speaker 4: piances and that is more like a win.
Speaker 5: Like you open up a small treasure, you're like, ah,
Speaker 5: it's a million dollars.
Speaker 4: I did not there was a corner. That's a nice one,
Speaker 4: but forty one and not knowing how to give head
Speaker 4: concerns me. That is no bueno, sir, What the fuck
Speaker 4: that is? And if you're like a girl man, if
Speaker 4: you're like over twenty five and you're like not one
Speaker 4: thousand percent sure about your head game, you need to practice.
Speaker 4: You absolutely need to watch some videos or like take
Speaker 4: a grapefruit and practice on orange, whatever you need to do.
Speaker 4: And you need to listen into next week's episode or
Speaker 4: just eat somekoucie and you get the real practice in
Speaker 4: because we know a guy.
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, and listen to next week's episode. You definitely
Speaker 3: don't want to miss next week's episode. We have a specially.
Speaker 4: Two amazing guests on who are going to educate us
Speaker 4: on everything sex. Yeah, and so much fact, so much more.
Speaker 3: You can get some tips. Oh yeah, you will benefit.
Speaker 3: You will be tipped out, tipped.
Speaker 4: Out, and you might want to tune in. I'm just
Speaker 4: gonna leave it there. I wanna leave it there because
Speaker 4: can you. Yeah, I mean, I'm at thirty. I know
Speaker 4: my oral all my sex skills are strong. I don't
Speaker 4: even guess. I mean, I can always grow, but yeah,
Speaker 4: but I'm confident. I'm confident too.
Speaker 5: I'm very confident, almost too confident.
Speaker 4: It's like, oh, what's you? What are you good at?
Speaker 1: Well?
Speaker 4: Have you heard as a backworld's cowgirl? I'm I'm just
Speaker 4: tony kind of, but mostly I'm telling the truth.
Speaker 1: No, Oh my god.
Speaker 3: Well, anyway, thanks for tuning in to our Insecure episode.
Speaker 4: Thank you for your your submission. You're asking for advice
Speaker 4: and following through with it. It's step one. You're making progress, girl,
Speaker 4: And let's everybody talk to ourselves in the mirror tonight,
Speaker 4: and you know, tell our body how healthy and beautiful
Speaker 4: and sexy it is. It is, because it is, and
Speaker 4: maybe even masturbate do it.
Speaker 3: I've been trying to encourage Jamila to masturbate more, and
Speaker 3: I try, but then I feel like I like I've
Speaker 3: come prematurely, like I'm embarrassed, I feel like I have
Speaker 3: some issues. Well, you just gotta keep doing it. It
Speaker 3: means you're feeling yourself. You come and prematurely, shit, you
Speaker 3: turn yourself all the way on real, real quick. It's
Speaker 3: it's not like that kind of premature. It's like I'm
Speaker 3: like almost gonna come, but then you have to relax.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just have to give in.
Speaker 3: And actually, honestly, I've had some of the best orgasms
Speaker 3: by myself.
Speaker 4: I can't believe I'm thirty, the biggest ones. But really,
Speaker 4: are you like, because I'm sorry, are you inserting? Are
Speaker 4: you just clatural stimulation?
Speaker 10: Both?
Speaker 3: Really, it could be either one. Mostly it has to be.
Speaker 3: It either has to be clatural and internal or just clatural.
Speaker 3: It's usually nice. Just only just internal is when I
Speaker 3: actually have a real penis inside of me, right, and
Speaker 3: it's like, you know, the warmth and it's the whole deal.
Speaker 4: Okay, well I need to work on it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but if you don't feel like masturbating, just touch
Speaker 3: your body and tell it nice things, embrace it and
Speaker 3: love it, and it's gonna feel weird, but fuck it.
Speaker 4: Who cares even tell your face nice things too. So
Speaker 4: everything you're so, you're so your spirit.
Speaker 5: Yeah, because that's that's difficult too.
Speaker 4: Sometimes sometimes I'm like in the mirror, I'm trying to
Speaker 4: tell informations because I know I'm supposed to.
Speaker 5: I don't believe them. Then I don't know what to say.
Speaker 5: I'm like, what else? You're smart, you're nice, You're bound.
Speaker 4: I should have wrote this down.
Speaker 5: Okay, well like you said.
Speaker 4: It next week, we love you, all right, I'm just playing.
Speaker 2: I remember when I used to have a crush you
Speaker 2: on special led shout out designer, because you made it
Speaker 2: down a special lead. You want to fuck me and
Speaker 2: you gotta get some special headed because this pussy had
Speaker 2: these niggas on some special.
Speaker 4: Meds, like Mike Tyson.
Speaker 2: He was biking my ship talking about Yo, why you
Speaker 2: got these niggas biking this ship on the rail. Lets
Speaker 2: you make these niggas scrap for the pussy young and man,
Speaker 2: lady luck get the strap of this pussy. And now
Speaker 2: what the hell of Bell Beckel bringing the cake till
Speaker 2: I saw him hopping out of cars dancing the drake.
Speaker 2: I've been a five star bitch man. Word to Gotti
Speaker 2: I'm gonna do that nigga future dirty work to Scotti
Speaker 2: had to cancel.
Speaker 4: DJ called, boy, we ain't speaking.
Speaker 2: Ain't no fat nigga telling me what he ain't eating.
Speaker 4: White g in the game with.
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