WEBVTT - Insecurities

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<v Speaker 1>M d.

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<v Speaker 2>C.

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<v Speaker 3>I roun me to be on g.

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<v Speaker 4>Classic shit.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm looking for a nigga to give some baby's a

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<v Speaker 2>handful of louise. He sprinkle of day, best man. I

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<v Speaker 2>ain't got no type like Jimmy and Swaye Lee's. But

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<v Speaker 2>if he can't fuck three times a night, I tried

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<v Speaker 2>to fuck fifty for a powerful hour. But don't let

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<v Speaker 2>a nigga want to do is talk power for hours.

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<v Speaker 1>The pussy up.

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<v Speaker 4>Make sure it's the kyo.

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<v Speaker 2>Step your banks up like you're moving at ye yo.

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<v Speaker 2>Somebody going make sure cuchi oke though I heard she

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<v Speaker 2>think I'm trying to get a kouchi to Quavo. They

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<v Speaker 2>always want to beat it up, coon up the pussy man.

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<v Speaker 2>Maybe I should let him or to tune up the pussy.

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<v Speaker 4>All these baid.

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<v Speaker 2>Wild challenge niggas lying and shit. Many steady white niggas

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<v Speaker 2>say tying my shit drink with a hundred million Yoi's

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<v Speaker 2>fining me shit. But I don't know if the pussy

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<v Speaker 2>by door, if he crying and shit me still be

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<v Speaker 2>in my DMS, I'd be having the dubleum. I used

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<v Speaker 2>to pray for tomes like this man who's here is

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<v Speaker 2>my baby. He ain't taking the hel but he took it.

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<v Speaker 2>Linda Ridley when I said, go to hell, used to

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<v Speaker 2>fuck with young thug guy dressing the ship, going to

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<v Speaker 2>mind my dressing room still and dressing and ship. I

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<v Speaker 2>used to get this nigga with the list of tested

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<v Speaker 2>and ship. How you want the puffy can't say yours

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<v Speaker 2>and ship.

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<v Speaker 1>Baptists.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just like, welcome bye, good mom's bad choices. It's

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<v Speaker 4>Nila and Erica and we're back.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, we are looking rough as fun.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, we uploaded one video to our private that's not

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<v Speaker 3>even private, are you to the count that no one

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<v Speaker 3>knows about because we've only uploaded.

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<v Speaker 4>But I just want to give an update that we

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<v Speaker 4>do have one video live. We won't post it yet, but.

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<v Speaker 5>It's there. That's there, and it's gonna be. We're making progress.

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<v Speaker 5>There's gonna be a couple of some coming out there.

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<v Speaker 4>We're gonna go just do it slowly, but really we're

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<v Speaker 4>just gonna upload them and then they'll all be there eventually. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>there's like ten This one, however, that we're recording right now.

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<v Speaker 4>This is some real mom realness because we don't love

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<v Speaker 4>this so hot. I'm not gonnat like. We even had

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<v Speaker 4>the nerve to do it on selfie mooe so we

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<v Speaker 4>could see ourselves.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm just trying to make my hair look bigger so

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<v Speaker 3>it distracts from what's happening below the hair.

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<v Speaker 4>It's pretty tragic, but I had a rough day and

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<v Speaker 4>this is what I look like.

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<v Speaker 5>And it's it's nine and so fuck you.

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<v Speaker 3>I just kind of late and my kid at school tomorrow,

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<v Speaker 3>So let's get this happen.

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<v Speaker 4>How was your week? It has been good. I went

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<v Speaker 4>out this weekend. I told you guys last episode, I

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<v Speaker 4>believe I haven't been drinking.

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<v Speaker 5>So it was my friend's birthday. Did did they talk

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<v Speaker 5>about this already?

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<v Speaker 4>No? Yeah, it just happened. And usually I'm the wasted one.

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<v Speaker 4>But then like now I've been somber and they are

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<v Speaker 4>ways said. I'm like, your nipples are out at the

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<v Speaker 4>club again, get us together, And my friends are like, bitch,

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<v Speaker 4>your nipples are always out even when you're not drunk.

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<v Speaker 4>I know, I know I have. Yeah, So yeah, I

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<v Speaker 4>guess I was making a hypocrite, but I was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 4>this really makes me not want.

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<v Speaker 5>To drink so much.

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<v Speaker 4>These bitches are wasted.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, people become very annoying when they're drunk, yes, and

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<v Speaker 3>when you're not noticed, you're just like, oh my god.

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<v Speaker 4>Also, we went into Lila. We talked about this like

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<v Speaker 4>way before me and Erica went there. It's super bougie

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<v Speaker 4>for those of you who don't live in the LA area,

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<v Speaker 4>so bouge.

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<v Speaker 5>All the like celebrities go there.

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<v Speaker 4>They have like dancers that look like roaring twenties break

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<v Speaker 4>assy just like walking around stone Face. Basically all the

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<v Speaker 4>employees are stone Face because everybody Alian is a bitch,

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<v Speaker 4>even if they're in customer service and they're under twenty three,

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<v Speaker 4>and they basically try to make us move after like

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<v Speaker 4>they said, we didn't call them hint our reservation.

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<v Speaker 5>I was really fucking annoyed.

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<v Speaker 4>Dinner was six hundred fucking dollars.

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<v Speaker 6>And they're made us And then we were with one

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<v Speaker 6>cheek and she she has the nerve they're being mean

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<v Speaker 6>that are trying to make us move because we were

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<v Speaker 6>taking too long and they're like.

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<v Speaker 4>She was like, I am a yelp elite and I'm good,

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<v Speaker 4>And the manager, straight faced as fuck, said I could

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<v Speaker 4>give a rat ass about Yelp because if you guys

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<v Speaker 4>know La No, Yeah, that first of all, never have

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<v Speaker 4>I ever heard anyone go to a club and be

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<v Speaker 4>like a restaurant, loud, round bar. No one ever goes

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<v Speaker 4>to those type of spaces. And it's like, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 4>I'm a Yelp Elite member. You know what that means.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm here because I found it on Yelp.

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<v Speaker 3>And but you know what, I think people that are

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<v Speaker 3>Yelp Elite members, they get perks in certain places, so

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<v Speaker 3>they start filming themselves because they'll go to some restaurants

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<v Speaker 3>and check in and like a person with the restaurant

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<v Speaker 3>be like, we have an elite member here. I should

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<v Speaker 3>be a dessert. I love restaurants. So that was really funny.

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<v Speaker 4>And then okay, so then we went to another club,

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<v Speaker 4>and as soon as we walked from the club, like

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<v Speaker 4>literally within minutes, one contact started sucking up, and I

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<v Speaker 4>was like in the bathroom like people were walking into me.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm trying to put it back in, and then like

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<v Speaker 4>it fell and then immediately after the other one started

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<v Speaker 4>fucking it fell out.

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<v Speaker 5>So I was in the club like I feel like

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<v Speaker 5>I can't hear what I.

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<v Speaker 4>Can't see, So I feel like our rhythm was off

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<v Speaker 4>and I was sober and I still thought.

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<v Speaker 5>I remember was off, idn't see shit?

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<v Speaker 4>And then it was just when if you wear contacts

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<v Speaker 4>and your glasses, you know how it feels to not

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<v Speaker 4>be able to see and be out it feels fun.

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<v Speaker 5>Plus my friends titting yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>She was drunk.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, I am too bright, just so sober

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<v Speaker 5>for this shit.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, I was like, oh my god, what about here?

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<v Speaker 4>What did you do?

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<v Speaker 5>I had a weird week.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like all week I was just feeling really weird,

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<v Speaker 4>like I felt very needy. I feel better now. It's crazy,

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<v Speaker 4>like a few days does. Because I was going through

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<v Speaker 4>some shit. I was feeling really neat, I was feeling

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<v Speaker 4>really insecure. I was feeling fucking just kind of crazy.

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<v Speaker 3>And I mean, I know like where some of it

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<v Speaker 3>stems from, but I think I swear to God that

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<v Speaker 3>it's it's the planet's in retrograde.

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<v Speaker 4>I swear like there's like I don't know if they're.

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<v Speaker 3>All still there, but like six different planets were in retrograde,

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<v Speaker 3>and I could feel it, like, and so many people

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<v Speaker 3>I was talking to this week was talent were telling

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<v Speaker 3>me like I'm like, do you feel grasmy?

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<v Speaker 4>And yeah, do you feel crazy? Because I feel crazy.

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<v Speaker 3>It was just like an overwhelming I think I think

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<v Speaker 3>so many people just were feeling it, not just me.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's it's been an interesting week.

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<v Speaker 4>It' is't that weird? How like you can wake up

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<v Speaker 4>feeling one way and then ida feeling that the way,

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<v Speaker 4>and it's just like what.

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<v Speaker 5>The fuck consistency here?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean I definitely I gradually had to like make

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<v Speaker 3>some changes this week to like push through that.

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<v Speaker 4>I think we're definitely contributing to how I was feeling.

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<v Speaker 4>I was also feeling really tired.

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<v Speaker 3>But you can hear it. GM is recommending me touching

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<v Speaker 3>my necklace. She apparently she's a sound.

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<v Speaker 4>Sound mixer.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, we got the airplanes going by. The keys

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<v Speaker 5>in the bag were only just like next ship anyway, Chase.

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<v Speaker 3>I yeah, So I had to make some changes that

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<v Speaker 3>and that like that I that needed to be made,

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<v Speaker 3>and I started to feel better, but I know that

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<v Speaker 3>it was bad and there was some other just the

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<v Speaker 3>universe was just draining me.

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<v Speaker 7>Yes, man, Okay, be careful, be careful, okay, okay, thank you.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my god, my child is like someone's auntie auntie.

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<v Speaker 5>I said, you said be careful.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm saying no, she's not jumping on. So yeah, that

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<v Speaker 4>was bad and now you're feeling better. I do feel better.

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<v Speaker 3>But in that in the midst of all of that

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<v Speaker 3>like neediness bitch, I joined bumble, I joined riot. I

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<v Speaker 3>like reacted with my tender like I was like, I

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<v Speaker 3>was like.

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<v Speaker 4>I needed male attention, and I don't know what that

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<v Speaker 4>was like it was so weird and like.

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<v Speaker 5>Did you get it or you just speaking? Were you successful?

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<v Speaker 3>But like I guess I sort of was in one

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<v Speaker 3>situation the other situation. It wasn't that I wanted like

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<v Speaker 3>physical attention. I wanted like emotional attention, and both of

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<v Speaker 3>them were unfulfilling, you know, they didn't fulfill me. And

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<v Speaker 3>that's why I was like, what is happening? Well obviously,

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<v Speaker 3>I just it was just something deeper was happening, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>and now it's slowly becoming I'm slowly seeing through the light.

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<v Speaker 3>But you just ever have those like one of those

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<v Speaker 3>days where you just don't feel like working on any

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<v Speaker 3>shit that you said you're going to work on that

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<v Speaker 3>I don't mean like work, I just mean like I know,

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<v Speaker 3>but like when you're really like fuck fuck trying to

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<v Speaker 3>work on it. Ever, you know what I mean like,

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<v Speaker 3>I just felt defeated. Oh, You're not defeated. I know,

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<v Speaker 3>I just felt I did, though I was like, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know. I was like, I don't know what's wrong

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<v Speaker 3>with my life. I've ever am I ever gonna?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm so unhappy, and I'm like, I'm not I'm actually

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<v Speaker 5>very happy.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not unhappy. I just feel weird today. Yeah, sometimes

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<v Speaker 4>you can just be like I feel weird todays, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>having a weird day.

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<v Speaker 5>It was like five days.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, but a for a while, I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>is this feeling ever gonna go away? And then I did.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, that's my emo. Last week. I'm emotional, so

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<v Speaker 4>I know that's my emo. Last week.

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like something could happened, but I can't remember

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<v Speaker 3>because I'm emo.

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<v Speaker 4>I can't literally not think past Like yesterday, I'm like, Saturday,

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<v Speaker 4>what I do? I don't want to fuck I remember? Well, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know what yesterday.

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<v Speaker 5>Yestually were productive.

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<v Speaker 4>We were so productive gym. I got a smoothie, we

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<v Speaker 4>went to the office, we got notepads and ship we

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<v Speaker 4>got like five emails completed.

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<v Speaker 5>It was the most productive thing we've done.

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<v Speaker 3>Every uploaded video we uploaded the video, we edited it,

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<v Speaker 3>we edited, we had together. Oh man, okay, And they

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<v Speaker 3>were like that took a lot out of me, especially

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<v Speaker 3>with the week I had.

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<v Speaker 4>I felt like exhausted after that. I can hardly take

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<v Speaker 4>any calls. I was like, this up my phone call

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<v Speaker 4>saying we must have been working. We would to take

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<v Speaker 4>the kids in the park.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh my god, I had a client.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, I'm the ship. Did it made it

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<v Speaker 4>next to all the other in predicted in productivity of

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<v Speaker 4>the week?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, But oh, by the way, Rya is racist. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>that's exactly where I was getting. By the way, Riya

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<v Speaker 3>is racist. At that time, I said Ria is racist

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<v Speaker 3>because except me, I was right. For those of you

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<v Speaker 3>who don't know what Riot is is a dating app

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<v Speaker 3>that's like for like it used to be the La

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<v Speaker 3>of dating.

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<v Speaker 4>If you could put dating in an elite.

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<v Speaker 3>Club of like bouginess, it's it would be Ria.

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<v Speaker 5>Have men there.

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<v Speaker 4>You have to have references from Instagram. They have to

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<v Speaker 4>fellow you have to and you have to be white.

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<v Speaker 4>Make sure I must be white. They must you must

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<v Speaker 4>have passed.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, And I was like, well, she's lighter than me.

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<v Speaker 3>Did She's so happy to be like she said, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>lighter than her, much.

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<v Speaker 5>Wider than she, has more followers than you.

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<v Speaker 4>They did not dida. I'm Hebay said, the're putting your wedding.

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<v Speaker 4>I remember, but either right fucking appreciating.

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<v Speaker 3>All I know is that I have been on riah

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<v Speaker 3>for seven days and only matched with one person. And

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<v Speaker 3>now I'm not saying like I'm conceited, but even if

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<v Speaker 3>you are not cute on Tinder, you can match with

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<v Speaker 3>at least people seven days, Ryan like, no one is

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<v Speaker 3>matched with me, and mostly like literally every single slide,

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<v Speaker 3>which by the way, you only get like twenty slides,

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<v Speaker 3>like you can only click on twenty people, and then

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<v Speaker 3>it pauses your account because they feel like they're helping

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<v Speaker 3>you foster meaningful relationships by only letting you slide, by

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<v Speaker 3>giving you by giving you like a twenty twenty limit

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<v Speaker 3>like profile that has limited people. I'm like with Rota,

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<v Speaker 3>But anyway, every time I click, it's the same white

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<v Speaker 3>hipster or like the white real estate broker, or like

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<v Speaker 3>the creative director.

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<v Speaker 4>Like six pack mod, like what the fuck? And then

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<v Speaker 4>there's been a few black guys, but.

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<v Speaker 5>They're all like recognizable athletes. They's a comedian like There's but.

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<v Speaker 4>There's I was engaging fully in Horio because I felt

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<v Speaker 4>like it was for been fruit since they fucking didn't

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<v Speaker 4>accept me. So I was very excited to get my

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<v Speaker 4>hands on it. And I was greatly disappointed. We saw

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<v Speaker 4>like maybe four black guys. I feel like they only

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<v Speaker 4>let the black guys on that they think the white

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<v Speaker 4>girls want to not even yeah, people like t o

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<v Speaker 4>like white bitches want to. No black girl really wants to.

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<v Speaker 5>No, I wouldn't do it, and like, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>It was just I was disappointed. So the report is

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<v Speaker 4>My review two years ago was also bumble as well. Bumble.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't like having to reach out first.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean I didn't like that. I don't really don't

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<v Speaker 4>like Okay. So anyway back to this sweek's current events.

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<v Speaker 3>Nicki Minaj dropped her album Fire. I don't know about Fire,

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<v Speaker 3>okay whatever. I the two songs, but you know what,

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<v Speaker 3>the two songs I like. I do like it a lot,

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<v Speaker 3>though I.

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<v Speaker 4>Do like a huge like Niki maybe but from the nineties.

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<v Speaker 4>But I can't lie, Like I can't deny that the

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<v Speaker 4>bitch can rap. She really can't.

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<v Speaker 3>She's quite a character. She really can't I just think

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<v Speaker 3>sometimes I get bored with her music. Honestly, sometimes it's boring,

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<v Speaker 3>but it's not because she can't rap.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't like what. Yeah, I'm not a fan of

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<v Speaker 4>her singing. That Barbie dream.

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<v Speaker 3>Song was good, yeah, because she's like talking ship and

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<v Speaker 3>it just made me like, brought me back to the

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<v Speaker 3>old nineties. And it was that Biggie sample. Yeah, she

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<v Speaker 3>was talking shade and just.

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<v Speaker 4>Like being like that bitch, you know. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>And there's another one called rich Sex with Little Wayne,

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<v Speaker 3>which I like.

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<v Speaker 5>I like that one too. That's been the two I heard.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I think we heard hard White that was true,

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<v Speaker 4>but apparently she dissed.

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<v Speaker 5>Cardi b Oh, what was going up the pole?

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<v Speaker 4>Like I never had to climb the pole to be

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<v Speaker 4>the something? Oh okay you that weren't you a stripper?

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<v Speaker 4>And be's in the trap? Remember that music video. She

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<v Speaker 4>was pretending, but she was acting. She her whole ship

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<v Speaker 4>is like stripper culture.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah right, her.

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<v Speaker 4>Image is stripper. Yeah, you know, if you didn't if

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<v Speaker 4>we didn't know, you would think you're a stripper, Like

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<v Speaker 4>just looking at your image that you portrayed to the media.

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<v Speaker 4>If she's trying to if she's trying to divide the

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<v Speaker 4>strippers to make a choice between her and Cardi. Cardi

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<v Speaker 4>is gonna win Cardio's stripper, she proud. Yeah, true, but honestly,

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, obviously, I think Niki Manut is a way

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<v Speaker 4>better rapper than Cardi B. But I still just love Cardi.

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<v Speaker 4>Of course, she's a real art like actually artist. Herd

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<v Speaker 4>Be probably just did that because well, Cardi B is

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<v Speaker 4>a personality, and that's why I love her. There's are

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<v Speaker 4>two different reasons. I don't love Cardi B for her wraps,

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<v Speaker 4>even though some of them are catchy. I like you

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<v Speaker 4>like that, but she probably has the best writers.

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<v Speaker 5>Well mechanics.

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<v Speaker 4>I like dance.

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<v Speaker 5>I like dude, I do like that, And so I

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<v Speaker 5>did like that she it was funny.

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<v Speaker 4>She talks about young thugs wearing dresses and dresses, which we.

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<v Speaker 5>All know to be true.

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<v Speaker 4>I do think I feel like everything she said was true. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>so unbelcome popular culture.

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<v Speaker 3>Basically, do you think she was alluding that he was

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<v Speaker 3>gay or just because he was dancing?

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<v Speaker 4>She was remember those remember those selfie should I talk

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<v Speaker 4>to you about last week? And the thing it's like

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<v Speaker 4>dancing in front of it is his selfie and says

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<v Speaker 4>it to you. That's very similar. I could see Odell

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<v Speaker 4>doing something like that. So that was you're soft, you're bisexual.

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<v Speaker 5>Which is you know, we don't bash bisexuals. We both are,

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<v Speaker 5>but we just know we'd.

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<v Speaker 4>Rather just be that. Yeah, Miko's and her dance Dan

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<v Speaker 4>and uh dj Khaled it doesn't eat pussy, but we

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<v Speaker 4>already knew that, and she's not down for that black

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<v Speaker 4>Oh and oh did anybody see that? Of course my

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<v Speaker 4>accurate shade group. Did you see that comedian overlooking Safaris.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like, you're a girl. That's what we do. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>very emotional. Gro you know, if he grows in Soto,

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<v Speaker 4>he could do whatever he wants to be. You know

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<v Speaker 4>what big penis and a renewed hairlines so that you know,

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<v Speaker 4>whatever whatever you need, you that Tiger, you can have

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<v Speaker 4>that package with that hairline. He wasn't going together and

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<v Speaker 4>she probably like, okay, babe, yeah, I don't want you

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<v Speaker 4>to go out here making me look.

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<v Speaker 5>So yeah, we knew Tiger but had that hairline.

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't know that he had a hairline implant. I did.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, if you look at old pictures, do I

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<v Speaker 4>ever see his head anymore? He was like, he always

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<v Speaker 4>wears a bandana, doesn't He in rested it on the

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<v Speaker 4>internet because I specifically saw that he didn't have air

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<v Speaker 4>that he did because I'm not a Taiga fan, so

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<v Speaker 4>I wasn't like keeping up with this hair.

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<v Speaker 5>I like that.

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<v Speaker 4>I like his new salt. No, I can't even lie.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh it takes and then he has another round with

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<v Speaker 4>that iggy alia. Yeah, I feel the same way about it.

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<v Speaker 4>But by Girl, But by Girl.

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<v Speaker 5>Takes that ass somewhere useful, like to ship back.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I just don't like her whole image whatever.

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<v Speaker 4>Maybe she's a nice person, but I heard she's not,

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<v Speaker 4>so I think her brand is I don't think she

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<v Speaker 4>can commit to it. She's not a good enough actress.

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<v Speaker 4>She doesn't even leave herself. Yeah, so it's not believable

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<v Speaker 4>that she was believable. I'd be always because she looks

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<v Speaker 4>like a little hotty, sticky like white girl shop her body.

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<v Speaker 4>I did like her. Dobry is pretty sometimes it's sometimes

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<v Speaker 4>it she doesn't when it's recorded, but I just she doesn't.

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<v Speaker 4>She doesn't.

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<v Speaker 5>She doesn't sell it enough to me.

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<v Speaker 4>When she came out with that first album, Trap Art,

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<v Speaker 4>I think it was something like that I liked her.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, oh, this is different, like you've been here,

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<v Speaker 5>were really talking she had been in the interviews.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Then then I saw her perform for the first time,

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<v Speaker 3>like maybe like a year after that came out, and

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<v Speaker 3>I'll never forget, like she had like this black hype

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<v Speaker 3>girl on stage with her who was like totally overshadowing her.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I was watching her and she looked like

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<v Speaker 4>she was scared and you know how, and then she

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<v Speaker 4>like she dies on the She cries every time on

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<v Speaker 4>the internet someone says something bad about her her Instagram.

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<v Speaker 4>It's like, yeah, you're not giving enough actors. She did

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<v Speaker 4>all this work, you did all this work in the studio,

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<v Speaker 4>all the good writers, and bitch, we don't even believe you.

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<v Speaker 4>And that is that gets that's a buzzkill for me. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>like you need to have the full package to be

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<v Speaker 4>an entertainer.

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<v Speaker 3>And then she has some people like she had said

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<v Speaker 3>some racist shit no way, yeah, and her tweets people

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<v Speaker 3>dig up tweets.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, damn, who's the tweet diggers? Like who's your

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<v Speaker 4>what's your job? And then she was talking about like

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<v Speaker 4>she's the slave master. No, yes, she called herself the

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<v Speaker 4>slave master. Yes, why would an't even even approve that?

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<v Speaker 4>Then she was talking about Mexicans and her tweets. It

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<v Speaker 4>was crazy, it was out of control. Oh well she's

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<v Speaker 4>ex Yeah, she's been ex by We already spent way

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<v Speaker 4>too much time on that.

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<v Speaker 3>Anyway, Aretha Franklin was in the hospital. Apparently she was

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<v Speaker 3>gravely ill, which scared the ship out of me, because like,

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like Aretha is one of those ones.

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<v Speaker 5>That lives forever, right, Like, what do you mean? What

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<v Speaker 5>do you mean like she's sick?

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<v Speaker 4>What?

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<v Speaker 5>No, don't don't touch Aretha even death.

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<v Speaker 4>Back the fuck up. Yeah, But apparently she's back home,

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<v Speaker 4>and I know she is. I gotta be in her

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<v Speaker 4>lazy that's she's. Yeah, music's in her nineties, she's gotta be.

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<v Speaker 4>I want to look it up.

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<v Speaker 3>She's gotta be like at least ninety Franklin age.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh. I was like, I'm no pop culture genius.

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<v Speaker 5>Seventy she's seventy six. Oh god, my bad, girl, My bad.

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<v Speaker 4>This bitch. Don't put fourteen years on her. Damn.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like, oh my gosh, it's old. Okay, you're right,

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<v Speaker 5>you're right, you're right, right, really.

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<v Speaker 4>Holliday, right, she's one hundred. Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 5>Also, oh uh, our.

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<v Speaker 4>Deer, not let me mark that our dear the dear

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<v Speaker 4>President of the United fucking State only know States is

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<v Speaker 4>a fucking asshole. This week again.

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<v Speaker 5>Breaking news Trump to an asshole.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, the forty ninth week in his entire pregnancy, which

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<v Speaker 4>has been everyone.

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<v Speaker 3>Basically called armrosa dog, which you know, people are trying

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<v Speaker 3>to treeble are saying that it's racial. Honestly, I don't

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<v Speaker 3>think it's rachel because he calls it many people dogs.

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<v Speaker 3>He's called it many different racist people of people dogs.

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<v Speaker 3>Do I think he's a racist? Absolutely?

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<v Speaker 4>Do I think everything he says is racist? I mean

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<v Speaker 4>I guess if you're a racist?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, right, Like this is what this is? Just him

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<v Speaker 5>being ample warming?

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<v Speaker 4>Is it real racist? I mean I was fucking I mean,

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<v Speaker 4>and then, uh, what the fuck is her name? Amerosa? Girl?

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<v Speaker 4>God girl, we ain't reclaimed?

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<v Speaker 5>We a You still can't come to the cookout?

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<v Speaker 4>No, you absolutely can't.

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<v Speaker 5>You and Kanye can go kick fucking rocks.

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<v Speaker 4>Did you see that? Did you see that? Someone was?

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<v Speaker 3>Like Kanye tweeted like in response to remember when he

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<v Speaker 3>was on jermy fan and he didn't know what to say. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>when people asked him like how after everything that Donald

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<v Speaker 3>Trump has done, like can you like support him or

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<v Speaker 3>like basically like you, oh the travel band, you have

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<v Speaker 3>children like.

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<v Speaker 4>You famously said the statement George Verus doesn't care about

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<v Speaker 4>black people. You obviously acknowledged, and we kind of expected

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<v Speaker 4>you to not take you know, fucking the you know,

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<v Speaker 4>not support Yeah, the Sunken Place roll, and he had

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<v Speaker 4>nothing to say.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, then in his tweet he said, you know this

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<v Speaker 3>is live TV, like you as you saw, Like I

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<v Speaker 3>was processing what I was going to think and what

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<v Speaker 3>I was going to say, and then they cut to

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<v Speaker 3>a commercial break, so I didn't even get to say

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<v Speaker 3>what I wanted to say. I shout out to the

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<v Speaker 3>Jimmy Fallon team, you guys are classy, blah blah blah nigga.

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<v Speaker 4>Then you're gonna answer a question, So so what do

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<v Speaker 4>you said that? Furthermore, Mom, you're talking about processing a question.

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<v Speaker 4>There's many questions I wish you had processed and that process.

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<v Speaker 4>If you can't answer that question that quickly, then why

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<v Speaker 4>aren't we even supporting this person?

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<v Speaker 5>Exactly?

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<v Speaker 4>You obviously didn't think about all this shit right before

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<v Speaker 4>you endorsed him, and he's literally taking fucking kids from

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<v Speaker 4>their parents because they're not American quote unquote. That is

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<v Speaker 4>racist as fun. And if you've got to think about that,

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<v Speaker 4>you think you don't need to think at all. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>did you watch Insecure?

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, yes, you know, I watched it.

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<v Speaker 4>I watched it.

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<v Speaker 7>Huh why did you spill water?

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<v Speaker 4>Did you sell water on the floor? Why? What? Oh

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<v Speaker 4>my god, we're gonna take a quick break because there's

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<v Speaker 4>water on the floor.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we're back.

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<v Speaker 4>Our kid is playing with an umbrella outside the house.

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<v Speaker 4>Probably dangerous, but this is like the forties. We don't

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<v Speaker 4>have three episodes, but the tenth episode, we're like, don't

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<v Speaker 4>work with the umbrella. I stop playing with umbrella. It's not safe.

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<v Speaker 4>Every week they play with the fucking up. Wish you

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<v Speaker 4>had it? Yeah, yeah, yeah, iriate.

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<v Speaker 3>She's running through the house with the umbrella like she's married, poppin'.

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<v Speaker 4>Wait, Iri, they're gonna do like a dcase and we're

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<v Speaker 4>gonna be mute, but you're married your kids.

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<v Speaker 8>Put that umbrella down. Put it, Put the umbrella down. No,

0:24:35.240 --> 0:24:38.520
<v Speaker 8>we're playing with the umbrella anyway.

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<v Speaker 4>I tell a point. You just give up.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh hell yeah, Insecure season premiere, Season three, Season three premiere.

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<v Speaker 3>Everybody a bunch of Insecure, right if you don't catch up.

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<v Speaker 4>It's so good. It's so good, it's funny as hell,

0:24:59.080 --> 0:25:02.399
<v Speaker 4>it's related. I just love it. It's just because it

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<v Speaker 4>just feels like, you know, real conversations that you have

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<v Speaker 4>with your friends.

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<v Speaker 5>So it's quality writing.

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<v Speaker 4>So it's a really good TV show. It's super.

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<v Speaker 5>Honest.

0:25:12.560 --> 0:25:16.080
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and there's definitely some zaddies on the show.

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<v Speaker 4>Zaddies with their asses fully.

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<v Speaker 5>Out and they're fully boiled.

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<v Speaker 4>Damn, Oh my gosh, there's worn. Oh no, it's just

0:25:25.359 --> 0:25:31.919
<v Speaker 4>sitch you. I don't know. I don't want to rut it,

0:25:31.960 --> 0:25:34.520
<v Speaker 4>Like what if people haven't seen it. You haven't seen it,

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<v Speaker 4>then you're late. You're late, so you have free days.

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<v Speaker 4>I hit the fifteen skip button real quick, wish mute now,

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I think it already happens. The production of

0:25:45.720 --> 0:25:48.960
<v Speaker 4>this this season looks very classy, very high quality, beautiful.

0:25:49.119 --> 0:25:51.640
<v Speaker 4>I love the fight and the O in the lift.

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<v Speaker 4>That was funny. Ship and the like ten niggas like

0:25:54.960 --> 0:26:01.320
<v Speaker 4>fat one to I know, that's so funny, he says

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<v Speaker 4>new love interresses.

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<v Speaker 5>Boy, do we know who's a love interest.

0:26:06.200 --> 0:26:11.160
<v Speaker 4>Yet you can tell, yeah, he didn't tip for fifty dollars.

0:26:11.680 --> 0:26:13.560
<v Speaker 4>I wouldn't write a show, so I can just write

0:26:13.560 --> 0:26:18.080
<v Speaker 4>and fine niggas like, no, babe, I haven't cheated, it's

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<v Speaker 4>the show. No, I just need to make out with him.

0:26:22.240 --> 0:26:24.119
<v Speaker 5>Because it was written in my show.

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<v Speaker 4>I just wrote that part, but it was just for

0:26:27.480 --> 0:26:30.359
<v Speaker 4>the show. Everybody said I should keep it and cast

0:26:30.400 --> 0:26:35.320
<v Speaker 4>this finance interest. Right the fuck. He might have put

0:26:35.320 --> 0:26:37.600
<v Speaker 4>the tip in, but it's for the show. We're paying

0:26:37.840 --> 0:26:44.120
<v Speaker 4>the bills. Not to self write a show. Seriously, Oh

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<v Speaker 4>my god, because yeah, yeah, lots of flying point men. Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>so Daniel's saying on Daniel's couch, could you say, like

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<v Speaker 4>a friend that he bons couch while he bons somebody

0:26:56.280 --> 0:26:59.199
<v Speaker 4>else in the next room. I don't that would be

0:26:59.280 --> 0:27:03.679
<v Speaker 4>hard ego. My ego would be like, ok, like makere

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<v Speaker 4>the fuck?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, if I had no other place to go,

0:27:06.640 --> 0:27:08.720
<v Speaker 3>which it's she knows she can go to Molly's house,

0:27:08.720 --> 0:27:09.399
<v Speaker 3>she just don't want to go.

0:27:09.760 --> 0:27:11.639
<v Speaker 4>She had like three friends, Like I would be you

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<v Speaker 4>know what I would.

0:27:12.600 --> 0:27:14.560
<v Speaker 3>I would be at Molly's house, low key, I would

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<v Speaker 3>in the bougie apartment at Molly's house.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but you see how they digger.

0:27:20.560 --> 0:27:23.760
<v Speaker 3>Still, I'll figure it out, but I don't have to

0:27:23.800 --> 0:27:25.399
<v Speaker 3>hear this dude other bits.

0:27:27.240 --> 0:27:34.920
<v Speaker 4>And it says he is fine Jesus, Jesus totally okay, Yes, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>I've been looking forward to the rest of this season.

0:27:37.880 --> 0:27:38.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, me too.

0:27:38.760 --> 0:27:40.639
<v Speaker 4>I'm looking forward to it because I don't know what

0:27:40.760 --> 0:27:43.919
<v Speaker 4>happens at all. I am I need him And I

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<v Speaker 4>really just called up on all the seasons like this

0:27:45.720 --> 0:27:48.360
<v Speaker 4>week because then it was coming on for other reasons.

0:27:48.359 --> 0:27:52.480
<v Speaker 3>But but I think watching that made us think, well,

0:27:52.960 --> 0:27:57.360
<v Speaker 3>partly watching that, paired with just things universes brought us

0:27:58.119 --> 0:28:01.199
<v Speaker 3>leaves us to our topic today, which was fired by

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<v Speaker 3>a d M that we got in our t MS.

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<v Speaker 1>In our.

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<v Speaker 4>But oh should I just read it?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

0:28:09.800 --> 0:28:10.800
<v Speaker 4>Okay, So we.

0:28:10.720 --> 0:28:13.360
<v Speaker 3>Got a d M from one of our listeners, and

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<v Speaker 3>it was so interesting because perspective is everything, and that's

0:28:18.480 --> 0:28:22.080
<v Speaker 3>what I realized, perspective that it's just so crazy when

0:28:22.160 --> 0:28:23.159
<v Speaker 3>you see that other.

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<v Speaker 5>It's just a bug, what the fun is?

0:28:41.920 --> 0:28:47.800
<v Speaker 4>Definitely mortified of all insects. I told you that bug

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<v Speaker 4>was gonna come for me later.

0:28:49.160 --> 0:28:51.080
<v Speaker 5>It was just like it wasn't even a spider.

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<v Speaker 4>This bitch got fully fully a close. I get a shirt.

0:29:00.040 --> 0:29:03.400
<v Speaker 4>Oh my god, this bitch is literally walking out of

0:29:03.400 --> 0:29:05.200
<v Speaker 4>her room to change your shirt because she had a

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know what kind of bug and I didentifiable

0:29:07.400 --> 0:29:11.360
<v Speaker 4>bug on her neck. It looked harmless. Oh my god,

0:29:13.800 --> 0:29:15.920
<v Speaker 4>I stressed me out. What was it? What kind of bug?

0:29:16.000 --> 0:29:17.840
<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I'm not the sucking.

0:29:18.920 --> 0:29:19.680
<v Speaker 3>It was a big it.

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<v Speaker 4>Was string to dry.

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<v Speaker 5>It looked like this.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, this is exactly Oh hell, no, wa

0:29:28.640 --> 0:29:29.760
<v Speaker 3>it's like a caterpillar.

0:29:31.040 --> 0:29:36.680
<v Speaker 4>Oh my god, that is like a cade. Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, Well, you guys have witnessed a phobia or

0:29:41.000 --> 0:29:43.600
<v Speaker 3>her phobia. I'm sorry that you had experienced that, but

0:29:43.840 --> 0:29:51.600
<v Speaker 3>I'm deathly afraid of bugs. All okay, Anyway, I was

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<v Speaker 3>just we're just saying. What I was saying was it's

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<v Speaker 3>crazy what you you think people seeing you when people

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<v Speaker 3>were in and they don't, And it becomes an insecurity

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<v Speaker 3>that no.

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<v Speaker 4>One even notices, like an invisible insecurity. So okay. So

0:30:07.360 --> 0:30:09.440
<v Speaker 4>she says, Okay, so today I want.

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<v Speaker 3>To discuss how to get past this particular insecurity. And

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<v Speaker 3>this may or may not be worthy for the show,

0:30:14.640 --> 0:30:18.760
<v Speaker 3>but still very interested. It's worthy, I have an extremely

0:30:18.800 --> 0:30:23.280
<v Speaker 3>bad insecurity. I have an extremely bad insecurity or hang.

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<v Speaker 4>Up about my feet so to describe it.

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<v Speaker 3>If you've ever been passed out drunk, you understand the

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<v Speaker 3>magnitude of the insecurity.

0:30:29.040 --> 0:30:31.200
<v Speaker 4>I would not let someone I was sleeping with remove my.

0:30:31.200 --> 0:30:34.560
<v Speaker 3>Shoes and socks while while in an incoherence state.

0:30:34.920 --> 0:30:37.480
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I was pretty much passed out drunk after vomiting.

0:30:37.800 --> 0:30:40.400
<v Speaker 4>I don't remember this, but this is what he told me.

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<v Speaker 3>He was a fling at the time, non existent now,

0:30:43.960 --> 0:30:45.960
<v Speaker 3>but has never seen my feet as many of my

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<v Speaker 3>three partners, who I assume don't think anything of it.

0:30:48.400 --> 0:30:51.080
<v Speaker 4>But I intentionally, I intentionally leave socks on.

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<v Speaker 3>Your partners definitely know this right right, and I notice

0:30:56.080 --> 0:31:01.000
<v Speaker 3>what it does those socks manes. Yeah, but it now

0:31:01.080 --> 0:31:04.400
<v Speaker 3>has gotten to where I will avoid relationships, dating, cuddling,

0:31:04.440 --> 0:31:04.880
<v Speaker 3>et cetera.

0:31:04.960 --> 0:31:05.680
<v Speaker 4>If I think for a.

0:31:05.640 --> 0:31:07.920
<v Speaker 3>Second, I will have to take my socks and shoes off.

0:31:08.240 --> 0:31:10.640
<v Speaker 3>That said, how do I get past this? I know

0:31:10.800 --> 0:31:12.920
<v Speaker 3>some will care and some won't. I just can't find

0:31:12.920 --> 0:31:17.040
<v Speaker 3>the nerve to find to find out who is who?

0:31:17.920 --> 0:31:19.840
<v Speaker 4>So she sent us her feet.

0:31:19.880 --> 0:31:22.440
<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, so then she said, so this is the

0:31:22.480 --> 0:31:25.880
<v Speaker 3>next question do I do. I preface it with a

0:31:25.920 --> 0:31:29.120
<v Speaker 3>disclaimer I hate to do that and lead with insecurity

0:31:29.200 --> 0:31:30.400
<v Speaker 3>and a lack of confidence.

0:31:30.440 --> 0:31:33.280
<v Speaker 4>Though, please give me some insight. I have attached a

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<v Speaker 4>picture of them.

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<v Speaker 3>Lay So she sent us her feet, and girl, they're

0:31:39.040 --> 0:31:40.640
<v Speaker 3>not even bad, like they.

0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:45.280
<v Speaker 4>Are not actually so cute. Actually I was. I was

0:31:45.320 --> 0:31:48.720
<v Speaker 4>like trying to find what she was talking about, really

0:31:48.800 --> 0:31:51.160
<v Speaker 4>examining the thing. She's like, yeah, I'm taking there some bundion.

0:31:51.400 --> 0:31:54.160
<v Speaker 4>There are no budians. I have real bunions on my

0:31:54.400 --> 0:31:58.840
<v Speaker 4>little toes look like little buns. Literally, they're not cute.

0:31:58.840 --> 0:32:01.040
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, girl, I went tree those feet and that

0:32:01.240 --> 0:32:03.800
<v Speaker 4>gives your own fus about wearing a sock. I'm farefoot

0:32:03.800 --> 0:32:07.440
<v Speaker 4>all with her. How cute her feet are because she

0:32:07.480 --> 0:32:12.800
<v Speaker 4>has like little toes, tottle toes. They're tanned, they're well painted,

0:32:13.440 --> 0:32:16.720
<v Speaker 4>but they don't see even Yeah, I think it's just

0:32:17.280 --> 0:32:19.400
<v Speaker 4>so we when she sent us this, we were like,

0:32:19.480 --> 0:32:23.160
<v Speaker 4>we need to call her now. I can't even right

0:32:23.240 --> 0:32:25.120
<v Speaker 4>back to this because we let me just see my face.

0:32:25.280 --> 0:32:27.360
<v Speaker 4>You need to see my mouth move when I tell

0:32:27.440 --> 0:32:32.800
<v Speaker 4>you this, your tripping. But yeah, it was crazy. It's

0:32:32.840 --> 0:32:37.720
<v Speaker 4>crazy because you know she has like let she has

0:32:37.760 --> 0:32:40.480
<v Speaker 4>felt like she can't date, she can't get into relationships,

0:32:40.720 --> 0:32:43.440
<v Speaker 4>she avoids, she passed out drunk, she remember to not

0:32:43.600 --> 0:32:47.120
<v Speaker 4>let her feet come out. Yeah, it's like, yeah, that's serious.

0:32:47.120 --> 0:32:49.720
<v Speaker 4>That's a serious It's like have you ever been to

0:32:49.720 --> 0:32:52.080
<v Speaker 4>the club and like it's like you're supposed to nails

0:32:52.160 --> 0:32:53.600
<v Speaker 4>up two days ago, but she keeps sucking up and

0:32:53.600 --> 0:32:55.520
<v Speaker 4>their mu's broken in an own ship. So you're in

0:32:55.520 --> 0:32:59.720
<v Speaker 4>the club like, oh yeah, I'll take one drink. She's

0:32:59.840 --> 0:33:02.200
<v Speaker 4>like you like literally, I am literally like okay, I'm

0:33:02.200 --> 0:33:05.840
<v Speaker 4>gonna pull my clutch with this hand and none.

0:33:06.360 --> 0:33:08.240
<v Speaker 3>But you were fed up if it's like the fourth finger,

0:33:08.280 --> 0:33:10.440
<v Speaker 3>that's like right, You're like you can't really hide that one,

0:33:10.600 --> 0:33:12.200
<v Speaker 3>like I'm dancing the.

0:33:12.120 --> 0:33:16.720
<v Speaker 4>Club, So like that's a deep and security. So one

0:33:16.720 --> 0:33:19.120
<v Speaker 4>of my biggest questions was when we talked to her,

0:33:20.800 --> 0:33:23.680
<v Speaker 4>did someone say something to you like about your feet

0:33:23.720 --> 0:33:25.520
<v Speaker 4>one time and ever since then you've been like hung

0:33:25.600 --> 0:33:27.800
<v Speaker 4>up on it because it's like it just hits you

0:33:27.880 --> 0:33:30.200
<v Speaker 4>because a lot of times i'd be really I realized

0:33:30.240 --> 0:33:33.640
<v Speaker 4>that insecurities come from like small comments from significant people

0:33:33.760 --> 0:33:36.280
<v Speaker 4>we think are significant at the time, and then we

0:33:36.320 --> 0:33:39.200
<v Speaker 4>can't let it go because now it's pointed out to us.

0:33:40.640 --> 0:33:41.800
<v Speaker 4>So what you said?

0:33:41.840 --> 0:33:44.960
<v Speaker 3>She said, yeah, she said yeah, she said yeah, was

0:33:44.960 --> 0:33:46.160
<v Speaker 3>like when how old was she? She said she was

0:33:46.160 --> 0:33:47.120
<v Speaker 3>really young when it happened.

0:33:47.160 --> 0:33:52.160
<v Speaker 4>I think, I think, yeah, but I forgot when remember

0:33:52.240 --> 0:33:53.200
<v Speaker 4>like an X or something?

0:33:53.920 --> 0:33:57.080
<v Speaker 3>Okaybe And then Jamila proceeded to post a picture of

0:33:57.080 --> 0:33:59.600
<v Speaker 3>her feet, and her boyfriend message her and said gets.

0:33:59.480 --> 0:34:04.160
<v Speaker 4>A sadly as feed off the ground. That was like

0:34:04.200 --> 0:34:04.960
<v Speaker 4>the clothes.

0:34:06.320 --> 0:34:06.560
<v Speaker 1>Fuck.

0:34:08.680 --> 0:34:10.560
<v Speaker 3>But I mean I think the advice you gave her

0:34:10.719 --> 0:34:12.759
<v Speaker 3>was like I don't like, I don't like my feet,

0:34:12.760 --> 0:34:14.319
<v Speaker 3>and I just go out there and we encourage her

0:34:14.360 --> 0:34:16.600
<v Speaker 3>to encourage her to like at least try to wear

0:34:16.600 --> 0:34:17.760
<v Speaker 3>slides and.

0:34:18.080 --> 0:34:20.919
<v Speaker 5>Because I mean, mostly no one is going to care.

0:34:21.200 --> 0:34:24.520
<v Speaker 4>No one's gouna be looking. Niggas don't care about feet. Look,

0:34:24.520 --> 0:34:27.560
<v Speaker 4>they look at your rouse, your chitties. But and yeah,

0:34:27.560 --> 0:34:30.839
<v Speaker 4>thinking about your vagina, Yeah, that's what I think. And

0:34:30.960 --> 0:34:32.759
<v Speaker 4>like you might find like a one in ten foot

0:34:32.760 --> 0:34:34.799
<v Speaker 4>footage and even he's gonna be happy to have those

0:34:34.840 --> 0:34:37.840
<v Speaker 4>two feet, right, Like if you told me specifically, like

0:34:37.920 --> 0:34:41.440
<v Speaker 4>early on, I'm like, your feet are ugly, And I

0:34:41.520 --> 0:34:44.280
<v Speaker 4>was like, really you think so put him a little clothes,

0:34:44.480 --> 0:34:49.640
<v Speaker 4>but why but I painted them. Yeah, I said, you

0:34:49.719 --> 0:34:53.799
<v Speaker 4>look petty than glu glue. I just mean that, I'm

0:34:53.840 --> 0:34:57.279
<v Speaker 4>just saying. Really, I was like, oh, that's your to

0:34:58.160 --> 0:34:59.759
<v Speaker 4>I may have lots of toe, Like how paint cuts

0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:02.480
<v Speaker 4>my fee like Barbie Pink has to be like me, perfect,

0:35:03.360 --> 0:35:07.759
<v Speaker 4>not too fushion. The point is, I think at a

0:35:07.760 --> 0:35:11.719
<v Speaker 4>certain point I have or have there's a lot of

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<v Speaker 4>things that I like about myself. Physically, I've always been

0:35:15.360 --> 0:35:19.400
<v Speaker 4>really self conscious because I'm super skinny. Sometimes like in

0:35:19.440 --> 0:35:20.800
<v Speaker 4>my head I feel thick, but then I'll like a

0:35:20.840 --> 0:35:24.919
<v Speaker 4>pictures I'm like, oh my god, I look ridiculously then

0:35:24.960 --> 0:35:26.600
<v Speaker 4>and then when I was younger, I remember people saying,

0:35:26.760 --> 0:35:28.480
<v Speaker 4>like making comments and I'm trying to eat a lot,

0:35:28.640 --> 0:35:32.160
<v Speaker 4>but like it's not happening. My teeth at a gap.

0:35:33.400 --> 0:35:37.880
<v Speaker 4>I used to have braises, lost a retainer many moons ago.

0:35:38.440 --> 0:35:42.240
<v Speaker 4>Gap is back bitches, But I still smile bit because

0:35:42.239 --> 0:35:44.279
<v Speaker 4>I can't help it. I feel like it's like part

0:35:44.320 --> 0:35:46.919
<v Speaker 4>of who you are. Yeah, like now, no, we don't

0:35:47.200 --> 0:35:47.880
<v Speaker 4>make it smaller.

0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:49.960
<v Speaker 3>I think even though like you're skinny, but to me,

0:35:50.040 --> 0:35:53.240
<v Speaker 3>you're like, you're not like crazy skinny you're like model skinny.

0:35:53.280 --> 0:35:56.239
<v Speaker 4>I've seen photos. I'm like, oh fuck, look skinny and

0:35:56.280 --> 0:35:59.320
<v Speaker 4>I'm not tall, so I look taller because I'm skinny,

0:35:59.360 --> 0:36:01.239
<v Speaker 4>and I have really big feet for a small pert.

0:36:01.239 --> 0:36:05.360
<v Speaker 4>You've always sick too. I like rabbit feet, like the

0:36:05.400 --> 0:36:09.440
<v Speaker 4>back rabbit thumber feet. That's how I looked. But there

0:36:09.520 --> 0:36:11.520
<v Speaker 4>was a point in my life where I was and

0:36:11.560 --> 0:36:14.000
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, I don't like my back. I feel like

0:36:14.000 --> 0:36:17.800
<v Speaker 4>I have like your bad spots on its not like

0:36:18.040 --> 0:36:20.520
<v Speaker 4>spots in my face. Whatever the whole plant is. At

0:36:20.520 --> 0:36:22.359
<v Speaker 4>some point or another, I don't remember when I Each

0:36:22.400 --> 0:36:26.560
<v Speaker 4>summer my minto lake Tonies as like, oh the most

0:36:26.560 --> 0:36:30.880
<v Speaker 4>isshue I can't do nothing about. So I'm gonna go

0:36:30.960 --> 0:36:32.719
<v Speaker 4>with it, you know what i mean. Like at some

0:36:32.719 --> 0:36:34.320
<v Speaker 4>point you just like the ship falls off. You're not

0:36:34.480 --> 0:36:37.600
<v Speaker 4>into proviving thing anymore. Oh yeah, all those things still

0:36:38.480 --> 0:36:41.000
<v Speaker 4>because there's my angle. Sometimes I'm like, oh my god,

0:36:41.560 --> 0:36:43.759
<v Speaker 4>that's disgusting. Have I eaten? I know I ate five

0:36:43.760 --> 0:36:47.000
<v Speaker 4>minutes ago, But I look skinny. No, I mean I

0:36:47.040 --> 0:36:50.040
<v Speaker 4>definitely think like it's did someone tell you that? Or

0:36:50.080 --> 0:36:51.200
<v Speaker 4>you can't to those everybody?

0:36:51.400 --> 0:36:54.120
<v Speaker 3>I mean all the time, people probably gonna like your

0:36:54.120 --> 0:36:57.400
<v Speaker 3>insecurity is about like your skin or you know you cheeth,

0:36:57.600 --> 0:36:58.600
<v Speaker 3>or like were.

0:36:58.440 --> 0:37:01.560
<v Speaker 4>You teased and stuff. Yeah, like like when you're a

0:37:01.600 --> 0:37:04.360
<v Speaker 4>kid and cansa shit of course you remember is sash.

0:37:04.440 --> 0:37:06.839
<v Speaker 4>It's like the end of the world and bad skin,

0:37:07.120 --> 0:37:09.160
<v Speaker 4>all types of shit. So all those things were things

0:37:09.200 --> 0:37:11.200
<v Speaker 4>that was made for them and made aware of. And

0:37:11.239 --> 0:37:13.640
<v Speaker 4>because I was made aware of made aware of them,

0:37:13.760 --> 0:37:17.680
<v Speaker 4>I always like, you know, I'm judging myself. Yeah, but

0:37:17.840 --> 0:37:20.440
<v Speaker 4>what she was experiencing was like, no, I never want

0:37:20.520 --> 0:37:22.879
<v Speaker 4>anything extreme. I mean my obvious they can't hide roundhole body.

0:37:23.040 --> 0:37:25.200
<v Speaker 4>My thing is I don't want mine, Like I don't

0:37:25.200 --> 0:37:27.480
<v Speaker 4>have something extreme like that. I have a phobia like

0:37:27.520 --> 0:37:31.680
<v Speaker 4>that of feet. I don't know what the calcer. But no,

0:37:31.760 --> 0:37:35.080
<v Speaker 4>but I definitely have my insecurities, like especially after having

0:37:35.080 --> 0:37:36.360
<v Speaker 4>a kid, and even before that.

0:37:36.440 --> 0:37:38.920
<v Speaker 3>I look back on pictures like before having Iron, I'm like,

0:37:39.480 --> 0:37:41.000
<v Speaker 3>what the fuck was I tripping about?

0:37:41.040 --> 0:37:43.840
<v Speaker 4>Why was I obsessing and thinking? Like I was insecure

0:37:43.840 --> 0:37:45.680
<v Speaker 4>about my legs. I thought they were too thick. But

0:37:45.760 --> 0:37:47.560
<v Speaker 4>you know, I always went to school with like such

0:37:47.680 --> 0:37:49.839
<v Speaker 4>small petiitue white girls and like.

0:37:49.800 --> 0:37:53.200
<v Speaker 3>I was like a grown black woman, like in like

0:37:53.320 --> 0:37:57.839
<v Speaker 3>sixth grade like juicy thing ass I was like this height.

0:37:57.880 --> 0:38:00.640
<v Speaker 3>I was like five six when I was like eleven,

0:38:00.920 --> 0:38:03.160
<v Speaker 3>you know, so I just was towering over everybody.

0:38:03.840 --> 0:38:07.279
<v Speaker 4>And I remember my cousin used to always be like, oh,

0:38:07.320 --> 0:38:10.240
<v Speaker 4>you're so big, like or something like. I remember feeling

0:38:10.320 --> 0:38:14.240
<v Speaker 4>like I'm feeling really insecure about my like just feeling

0:38:14.320 --> 0:38:16.839
<v Speaker 4>giant and not like small. And I think that's kind

0:38:16.840 --> 0:38:17.160
<v Speaker 4>of like.

0:38:19.400 --> 0:38:22.520
<v Speaker 3>Because I definitely felt insecure about my weight for at

0:38:22.520 --> 0:38:24.480
<v Speaker 3>a very young age. I think because I started like

0:38:24.560 --> 0:38:27.720
<v Speaker 3>modeling and being aware of like that.

0:38:27.719 --> 0:38:30.120
<v Speaker 4>At associating age. And then I remember the defining moment

0:38:30.200 --> 0:38:32.759
<v Speaker 4>was my cousin one time she Oh my god, she

0:38:32.840 --> 0:38:36.719
<v Speaker 4>was listening to this Yes you fucked me up, it's

0:38:36.760 --> 0:38:41.120
<v Speaker 4>you bitch. She had like the skirt and I was like,

0:38:41.160 --> 0:38:43.040
<v Speaker 4>can I try it? Not She's like, I don't think

0:38:43.040 --> 0:38:44.799
<v Speaker 4>it's gonna fit. It's one size fits all.

0:38:46.840 --> 0:38:50.120
<v Speaker 5>I like your now or She's like she.

0:38:50.160 --> 0:38:51.799
<v Speaker 4>Was like, it's one size fits all, but I don't

0:38:51.800 --> 0:38:55.960
<v Speaker 4>think it's gonna fit. I was like, and then it

0:38:56.000 --> 0:39:00.920
<v Speaker 4>didn't fit. It was like one size it's all.

0:39:00.840 --> 0:39:03.960
<v Speaker 3>For like you know, I means, and I had the

0:39:04.000 --> 0:39:06.400
<v Speaker 3>body of a woman that's just so funny.

0:39:06.440 --> 0:39:08.279
<v Speaker 4>I thought you were so excited China, because I did.

0:39:08.440 --> 0:39:11.000
<v Speaker 4>My feelings are hurt, and I did try that on.

0:39:11.040 --> 0:39:13.000
<v Speaker 3>I was like, bitch, you know, I'm competitive even though

0:39:13.000 --> 0:39:13.839
<v Speaker 3>my feelings are hurt.

0:39:15.239 --> 0:39:18.000
<v Speaker 4>I'm getting my I'm gonna cry after this, but I'm

0:39:18.000 --> 0:39:22.600
<v Speaker 4>gonna try this ship on. Oh my god, how insensitive

0:39:22.640 --> 0:39:26.680
<v Speaker 4>we are? Is a young where the fox? Does that

0:39:26.760 --> 0:39:28.200
<v Speaker 4>come from? Mimicking?

0:39:28.239 --> 0:39:29.319
<v Speaker 5>I think mimicking out of.

0:39:29.440 --> 0:39:30.440
<v Speaker 4>People being evil?

0:39:30.760 --> 0:39:34.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's yeah, because she was being mean on purpose.

0:39:34.400 --> 0:39:36.480
<v Speaker 4>Like it wasn't like play at that point.

0:39:36.680 --> 0:39:40.320
<v Speaker 3>It wasn't like like when you're like fiving just sanction

0:39:40.640 --> 0:39:41.480
<v Speaker 3>r you know what I mean.

0:39:41.880 --> 0:39:49.920
<v Speaker 4>My kids say the darnest thing. Teenagers are asshole the end.

0:39:50.360 --> 0:39:51.319
<v Speaker 4>What else are we gonna talk?

0:39:51.480 --> 0:39:51.640
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:39:52.280 --> 0:39:55.359
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I don't know. I think insecurity has come

0:39:55.440 --> 0:39:56.520
<v Speaker 4>from so many different places.

0:39:56.520 --> 0:39:59.280
<v Speaker 3>They can come from, like what obviously with like social media,

0:39:59.360 --> 0:40:00.360
<v Speaker 3>watching other people.

0:40:00.520 --> 0:40:03.239
<v Speaker 4>They can come from like I mean, I know, for me,

0:40:03.480 --> 0:40:05.040
<v Speaker 4>like caring yourself. Yeah.

0:40:05.160 --> 0:40:07.600
<v Speaker 3>I think I took a break from social media this

0:40:07.640 --> 0:40:09.920
<v Speaker 3>weekend and it's started.

0:40:09.960 --> 0:40:11.360
<v Speaker 4>I took a break, I think, But I text you

0:40:11.440 --> 0:40:12.759
<v Speaker 4>on Friday, I was like, I need a break.

0:40:12.760 --> 0:40:15.319
<v Speaker 3>I'm taking the weekend off and I still haven't logged

0:40:15.360 --> 0:40:17.959
<v Speaker 3>into my personal one because that's the one that like.

0:40:18.280 --> 0:40:20.160
<v Speaker 4>Is like, don't get dumb. I don't know.

0:40:20.040 --> 0:40:23.360
<v Speaker 3>Why, but I think because I have to work on

0:40:23.520 --> 0:40:27.399
<v Speaker 3>like work social media every day and be on there

0:40:27.440 --> 0:40:31.080
<v Speaker 3>and just like consuming ours. That is just too much

0:40:31.080 --> 0:40:34.799
<v Speaker 3>for me. And I love I've been nice. Getting anxiety.

0:40:35.239 --> 0:40:36.279
<v Speaker 4>I'm getting anxiety.

0:40:36.680 --> 0:40:40.200
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, you just start it's not even comparing, it's

0:40:40.200 --> 0:40:43.200
<v Speaker 3>just starting judging yourself. Even that even like it is that,

0:40:43.560 --> 0:40:46.640
<v Speaker 3>but it's just like just the looking at shit just

0:40:46.640 --> 0:40:47.319
<v Speaker 3>gives me back.

0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:48.719
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, like why am I looking at it?

0:40:48.760 --> 0:40:50.839
<v Speaker 4>This is the third time I've seen this? Bullshit? Who

0:40:50.920 --> 0:40:51.239
<v Speaker 4>is this?

0:40:51.360 --> 0:40:52.560
<v Speaker 5>I don't know it's a person?

0:40:52.719 --> 0:40:52.919
<v Speaker 1>Right?

0:40:53.239 --> 0:40:55.839
<v Speaker 4>Do you even take English? What the fuck? Yeah, it's

0:40:55.880 --> 0:40:59.439
<v Speaker 4>it's ridiculous. I just find myself judging people, judging people too.

0:40:59.640 --> 0:41:02.839
<v Speaker 4>You know, it's true. It's just a lot. Hence Bay

0:41:02.880 --> 0:41:05.879
<v Speaker 4>we did this episode. Well you guys make them. It's

0:41:05.880 --> 0:41:09.080
<v Speaker 4>look cute, you look really cute. I have like megap

0:41:09.160 --> 0:41:10.640
<v Speaker 4>on from like thirty.

0:41:10.440 --> 0:41:13.759
<v Speaker 3>Fourteen hours ago, I look pretty rough, but you look

0:41:13.880 --> 0:41:15.680
<v Speaker 3>beautiful too.

0:41:17.560 --> 0:41:22.680
<v Speaker 4>What about okay from Yeah, so I was reading okay,

0:41:22.719 --> 0:41:24.840
<v Speaker 4>you know i's were reading the four agreements. Did you

0:41:24.880 --> 0:41:27.640
<v Speaker 4>remember the part where it says it was just that

0:41:27.760 --> 0:41:33.279
<v Speaker 4>book as a child, someone is her child, like a

0:41:33.360 --> 0:41:36.960
<v Speaker 4>mother's child is singing, and she's really irritated. She's irritable,

0:41:37.000 --> 0:41:39.120
<v Speaker 4>she's annoying. She's had a lot of shit going on

0:41:39.160 --> 0:41:42.120
<v Speaker 4>that day, and she like snaps out on the kid

0:41:42.120 --> 0:41:45.359
<v Speaker 4>and that's like, stop singing. You're singing is horrible, it's

0:41:45.440 --> 0:41:48.240
<v Speaker 4>driving me. That's it's annoying, it sounds bad. Go away,

0:41:48.920 --> 0:41:52.280
<v Speaker 4>And that child never sings anymore because she now feels

0:41:52.719 --> 0:41:56.719
<v Speaker 4>it's horrible, it sounds bad, and that that like that

0:41:56.880 --> 0:42:00.160
<v Speaker 4>scars are basically and it's obviously an example in the book,

0:42:00.280 --> 0:42:05.200
<v Speaker 4>but it's a reminder of how easily our feelings are

0:42:05.200 --> 0:42:09.280
<v Speaker 4>persuaded about ourselves. Quickly we make agreements with other people

0:42:09.400 --> 0:42:12.160
<v Speaker 4>subconsciously not realizing it, and then we let those agreements

0:42:12.160 --> 0:42:14.239
<v Speaker 4>go on to you know, and follow us into adulthood,

0:42:14.400 --> 0:42:17.359
<v Speaker 4>and then we do things and think things. And she'd

0:42:17.360 --> 0:42:20.200
<v Speaker 4>bed have been fucking the next Mariah, right, But if

0:42:20.200 --> 0:42:22.480
<v Speaker 4>her mom was irritated that day, so that made me,

0:42:22.480 --> 0:42:25.359
<v Speaker 4>really it made me a aware of things I've been

0:42:25.400 --> 0:42:27.719
<v Speaker 4>told from my parents or other adults, or things that

0:42:27.840 --> 0:42:30.319
<v Speaker 4>like scarving like you know, shit, Like we just talked

0:42:30.360 --> 0:42:32.879
<v Speaker 4>about physical things, and then it made me think how

0:42:32.920 --> 0:42:34.759
<v Speaker 4>conscious I need to be the things I say to

0:42:35.080 --> 0:42:39.000
<v Speaker 4>Lunin because honestly, like you're crazy or you're being a brat,

0:42:39.080 --> 0:42:42.319
<v Speaker 4>you know, like to change my dialogue because I don't

0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:44.600
<v Speaker 4>want her to believe those things or you know, like whatever.

0:42:45.280 --> 0:42:47.560
<v Speaker 4>So are there any things you've been told from parents

0:42:47.640 --> 0:42:50.840
<v Speaker 4>or significant people in your lives as a child that

0:42:50.880 --> 0:42:55.799
<v Speaker 4>you think cause insecurities other than physical and other? One

0:42:55.880 --> 0:42:59.759
<v Speaker 4>hundred percent one hundred percent. I think it's inevitable. Yeah,

0:43:00.200 --> 0:43:04.040
<v Speaker 4>Like even the best parent it's going to fuck up.

0:43:03.920 --> 0:43:07.400
<v Speaker 3>Sometimes, and you know it's gonna scar their child in

0:43:07.440 --> 0:43:10.400
<v Speaker 3>some way, some way, in some capacity.

0:43:10.560 --> 0:43:13.200
<v Speaker 9>I mean maybe because we're not impaccable enough with our words.

0:43:13.280 --> 0:43:17.319
<v Speaker 9>We're not impeccable with our words. And I know I'm

0:43:17.360 --> 0:43:21.000
<v Speaker 9>not shit, but yeah, like even me, like my mom.

0:43:21.440 --> 0:43:23.080
<v Speaker 3>One of the things that my mom said to me

0:43:23.239 --> 0:43:27.120
<v Speaker 3>as a kid, and you know, I because I started

0:43:27.239 --> 0:43:27.720
<v Speaker 3>like doing.

0:43:27.640 --> 0:43:29.520
<v Speaker 4>All like modeling as a kid at a young age.

0:43:29.560 --> 0:43:31.720
<v Speaker 3>I went to school with so many like white kids

0:43:32.120 --> 0:43:35.080
<v Speaker 3>and just became so conscious of my like size and stuff.

0:43:36.160 --> 0:43:41.319
<v Speaker 3>I remember, like I was around eleven and I like

0:43:41.520 --> 0:43:42.879
<v Speaker 3>was really like I.

0:43:42.840 --> 0:43:44.160
<v Speaker 4>Was looking in the mirror and I was looking at

0:43:44.160 --> 0:43:45.360
<v Speaker 4>my thighs and I was upset.

0:43:45.400 --> 0:43:48.680
<v Speaker 3>They were like running together and like I was chafing laughing,

0:43:48.719 --> 0:43:50.399
<v Speaker 3>but I'm serious, wait my tea.

0:43:50.560 --> 0:43:54.200
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and I crying to my mom and I was like, Mom,

0:43:54.239 --> 0:43:56.680
<v Speaker 4>I'm fat. I don't feel pretty. I had braces at

0:43:56.680 --> 0:43:59.080
<v Speaker 4>the time. I was like breaking out at acne. You know,

0:43:59.480 --> 0:44:02.040
<v Speaker 4>my hair's frizzy. My mom hasn't figured that out yet,

0:44:02.480 --> 0:44:03.279
<v Speaker 4>you know, like.

0:44:05.120 --> 0:44:09.360
<v Speaker 5>You were like awkward thing awkward at least, yeah, you know.

0:44:09.440 --> 0:44:12.080
<v Speaker 4>And I just like, you know, she and she was

0:44:12.120 --> 0:44:14.799
<v Speaker 4>like she as a mom, wanted to help me, and

0:44:14.840 --> 0:44:17.160
<v Speaker 4>so she was like she got me a meal plan,

0:44:17.520 --> 0:44:19.600
<v Speaker 4>which then made me even more conscious.

0:44:19.200 --> 0:44:19.719
<v Speaker 1>Of my weight.

0:44:19.760 --> 0:44:21.640
<v Speaker 3>And then if I ate bad, she'd be like, Oka,

0:44:21.760 --> 0:44:23.680
<v Speaker 3>you told me you didn't you want to lose weight,

0:44:23.760 --> 0:44:26.000
<v Speaker 3>and you're eating this, and like became I.

0:44:26.080 --> 0:44:29.160
<v Speaker 4>Became like always saying that. But it would hurt me.

0:44:29.520 --> 0:44:32.320
<v Speaker 8>Even though like she was just trying.

0:44:32.400 --> 0:44:35.480
<v Speaker 4>She was coming out face of what like trying to

0:44:35.520 --> 0:44:38.080
<v Speaker 4>help me, you know what I mean. But I took it.

0:44:38.280 --> 0:44:41.200
<v Speaker 3>Very personally, and I'm a sensitive being, like I might

0:44:41.239 --> 0:44:42.680
<v Speaker 3>act like I'm like rough.

0:44:42.480 --> 0:44:44.759
<v Speaker 4>And tough or hard and on the surface, but I'm soup.

0:44:44.840 --> 0:44:48.000
<v Speaker 3>I can get hurt deeply like and you'll never know,

0:44:48.280 --> 0:44:50.320
<v Speaker 3>you know.

0:44:49.400 --> 0:44:55.719
<v Speaker 4>It'll come out later. So like, oh my god, I

0:44:55.760 --> 0:44:58.759
<v Speaker 4>was like, I'm like it just felt I don't know,

0:44:58.840 --> 0:45:01.760
<v Speaker 4>it just it was my mom.

0:45:01.920 --> 0:45:05.279
<v Speaker 3>So you know, like you said, like when someone that

0:45:05.440 --> 0:45:08.640
<v Speaker 3>close to you or someone that you you know you

0:45:08.719 --> 0:45:13.080
<v Speaker 3>value their opinions, says something like that, maybe maybe you've

0:45:13.120 --> 0:45:16.120
<v Speaker 3>already like said you're insecure about it, and they're just

0:45:16.160 --> 0:45:19.680
<v Speaker 3>like acknowledged acknowledging it. For acknowledging it for the second time,

0:45:19.719 --> 0:45:21.760
<v Speaker 3>it makes you feel like, oh, well, what what slood

0:45:21.760 --> 0:45:22.239
<v Speaker 3>now like?

0:45:22.280 --> 0:45:24.239
<v Speaker 4>And then you never forget that. It's like just those

0:45:24.239 --> 0:45:25.200
<v Speaker 4>little defining moments.

0:45:25.200 --> 0:45:28.759
<v Speaker 3>And I as a parent, I often wonder like what

0:45:29.280 --> 0:45:30.799
<v Speaker 3>I mean, I have to be more mind I mean

0:45:30.880 --> 0:45:32.560
<v Speaker 3>I try to be, and I will be, and I'm

0:45:32.600 --> 0:45:34.040
<v Speaker 3>kind of going to continue to try to.

0:45:34.000 --> 0:45:37.239
<v Speaker 4>Be mindful of what I.

0:45:37.160 --> 0:45:40.440
<v Speaker 3>Say to my daughter and how I talk about her

0:45:40.480 --> 0:45:41.560
<v Speaker 3>insecurities with.

0:45:41.560 --> 0:45:43.719
<v Speaker 4>Her or being coming a ton of talk, how you

0:45:43.719 --> 0:45:45.839
<v Speaker 4>talk about her in general so that she.

0:45:45.800 --> 0:45:48.479
<v Speaker 3>Doesn't develop insecurity right, and or how I like walk

0:45:48.520 --> 0:45:52.200
<v Speaker 3>her through them, you know, and out of them.

0:45:52.320 --> 0:45:54.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean and even not just physical stuff. I

0:45:54.960 --> 0:45:58.399
<v Speaker 4>think like my parents were always like you didn't try

0:45:58.440 --> 0:46:01.000
<v Speaker 4>hard enough. You are trying hard if you're half asked

0:46:01.040 --> 0:46:03.080
<v Speaker 4>it like are you dumb?

0:46:03.120 --> 0:46:03.720
<v Speaker 5>Are you stupid?

0:46:03.800 --> 0:46:06.880
<v Speaker 4>You're not trying hard? And I'm like, I'm making good grades,

0:46:06.920 --> 0:46:09.000
<v Speaker 4>you stupid? But there was not I don't feel like

0:46:09.320 --> 0:46:11.759
<v Speaker 4>I'm like I'm also supposed to be a water sign thing.

0:46:11.760 --> 0:46:15.640
<v Speaker 5>I'm also highly sensitive, but I act very tough.

0:46:15.680 --> 0:46:18.480
<v Speaker 4>It's the cancer in me, like the hardshell and like

0:46:18.880 --> 0:46:21.240
<v Speaker 4>and I could say anything anybody, and I'm like, stop

0:46:21.239 --> 0:46:24.040
<v Speaker 4>being so sensitive. But me, I do take things and

0:46:24.080 --> 0:46:26.600
<v Speaker 4>I get really defensive. All my friends are like, you're

0:46:26.640 --> 0:46:29.840
<v Speaker 4>so defensive. I was like, no, I'm just right. But

0:46:29.920 --> 0:46:32.239
<v Speaker 4>I think that that defense is because I feel like

0:46:32.360 --> 0:46:35.160
<v Speaker 4>I feel like my parents. I was like often attacked

0:46:35.239 --> 0:46:38.439
<v Speaker 4>and not praised, like it was like an understood thing,

0:46:38.520 --> 0:46:40.680
<v Speaker 4>like you know, we love you, but you need to

0:46:40.719 --> 0:46:43.920
<v Speaker 4>be better. And I think that made me kind of

0:46:43.920 --> 0:46:46.440
<v Speaker 4>always defensive, like we're always getting on me, but you're

0:46:46.480 --> 0:46:50.719
<v Speaker 4>never seeing anything positive. So even that from me acknowledging

0:46:50.719 --> 0:46:53.160
<v Speaker 4>that made me realize as much as we talk shit,

0:46:53.880 --> 0:46:57.560
<v Speaker 4>we need to equally as much, you know, affirm because

0:46:57.640 --> 0:47:02.160
<v Speaker 4>you know even that that has affected me. I'm thirty

0:47:02.239 --> 0:47:06.800
<v Speaker 4>years old and I've been going through something and my

0:47:06.920 --> 0:47:09.560
<v Speaker 4>dad texted me today some shit that was very hurtful

0:47:09.640 --> 0:47:11.279
<v Speaker 4>and one of the things, where are you are you

0:47:11.360 --> 0:47:14.160
<v Speaker 4>insecure or something? And I was like, oh, whoa, And

0:47:14.200 --> 0:47:16.239
<v Speaker 4>I mean I had a right to be sensitive, but

0:47:16.360 --> 0:47:18.319
<v Speaker 4>he said was completely fucking out of pocket and he'll

0:47:18.360 --> 0:47:19.960
<v Speaker 4>be lucky to get a call out from me anytime soon.

0:47:20.440 --> 0:47:24.040
<v Speaker 5>But it just triggered, you know, it made me.

0:47:24.200 --> 0:47:28.040
<v Speaker 4>It made me start to realize, oh shit, oh wow,

0:47:28.160 --> 0:47:31.640
<v Speaker 4>you're talking to me fucking crazy, and how often, like

0:47:31.760 --> 0:47:34.520
<v Speaker 4>was this a regular thing? And you know, it made

0:47:34.560 --> 0:47:37.719
<v Speaker 4>me think how much did I accept in my previous relationship,

0:47:38.239 --> 0:47:41.640
<v Speaker 4>you know, disrespect because you know, you're low key disrespecting

0:47:41.640 --> 0:47:43.479
<v Speaker 4>the shoot out of me. And now I'm a grown

0:47:43.520 --> 0:47:45.960
<v Speaker 4>woman at night and I can say, hey, my feelings

0:47:45.960 --> 0:47:48.880
<v Speaker 4>are hurt or I can recognize it. But it did,

0:47:49.120 --> 0:47:50.879
<v Speaker 4>you know, it triggered something. I mean where it made

0:47:50.880 --> 0:47:53.240
<v Speaker 4>me realize, this is not the first time you've spoken

0:47:53.239 --> 0:47:56.800
<v Speaker 4>to me like this, and this is probably a lifetime

0:47:57.080 --> 0:48:01.400
<v Speaker 4>of like how you how you're resting me that's triggering

0:48:01.440 --> 0:48:03.759
<v Speaker 4>something and that you know, I probably may have or

0:48:03.840 --> 0:48:05.600
<v Speaker 4>may maybe not, I don't know, but I feel like

0:48:05.800 --> 0:48:10.040
<v Speaker 4>probably affected how I am in relationships and what I've

0:48:10.080 --> 0:48:15.200
<v Speaker 4>accepted prior to now. So it's so, you know, insecurities

0:48:15.239 --> 0:48:18.360
<v Speaker 4>manifest a lot of ways, and as parents, it's important

0:48:18.400 --> 0:48:22.080
<v Speaker 4>that we like be adult enough to a sure enough

0:48:22.120 --> 0:48:24.120
<v Speaker 4>to recognize it and to address it because I think,

0:48:24.160 --> 0:48:27.160
<v Speaker 4>like with our parents being older and from a different generation,

0:48:27.239 --> 0:48:31.560
<v Speaker 4>we're all in this like mindfulness and this this you know,

0:48:31.680 --> 0:48:34.960
<v Speaker 4>conscious place as human beings and as parents. There's a

0:48:35.000 --> 0:48:36.759
<v Speaker 4>lot of you can talk to other parents. There's a

0:48:36.840 --> 0:48:39.720
<v Speaker 4>social media I'll let to really you know, dissect yourself.

0:48:39.920 --> 0:48:41.759
<v Speaker 5>But maybe before, I mean obviously before.

0:48:41.560 --> 0:48:44.719
<v Speaker 4>There wasn't that, so they didn't have the same tools.

0:48:44.960 --> 0:48:47.520
<v Speaker 4>So maybe I'm just gonna chalk it up to that,

0:48:48.400 --> 0:48:51.200
<v Speaker 4>chalk it up to that since you didn't have them tools,

0:48:51.280 --> 0:48:54.520
<v Speaker 4>so I'm gonna give you a pass kind of Well,

0:48:54.560 --> 0:48:56.799
<v Speaker 4>I think, yeah, I think hard love also, like it's

0:48:56.840 --> 0:49:01.200
<v Speaker 4>just it's a definitely like a generation like that, that generation. Yeah,

0:49:01.280 --> 0:49:03.399
<v Speaker 4>And I'm kind of a hard lover because of it.

0:49:03.360 --> 0:49:05.920
<v Speaker 5>You know, Like you know, I feel like like child,

0:49:06.480 --> 0:49:07.799
<v Speaker 5>he tell you I love you all.

0:49:07.680 --> 0:49:11.000
<v Speaker 4>The time, and shit, and that's not healthy. That's not healthy.

0:49:11.000 --> 0:49:13.200
<v Speaker 4>And like I have to remind myself even with my kid,

0:49:13.320 --> 0:49:16.799
<v Speaker 4>like you're so beautiful, you're so smart, you're intelligent.

0:49:16.920 --> 0:49:18.160
<v Speaker 5>Wow, that's amazing.

0:49:19.680 --> 0:49:23.160
<v Speaker 4>Because I'm I am, it's easier for me to be like, well,

0:49:23.200 --> 0:49:26.799
<v Speaker 4>you're still a product of your parents, you know, a

0:49:26.960 --> 0:49:31.200
<v Speaker 4>parent saying I'm a product the way they the way

0:49:31.200 --> 0:49:34.880
<v Speaker 4>they brought you up, my childhood, my environment, parent rearing,

0:49:35.440 --> 0:49:41.320
<v Speaker 4>nurture first nature. But in your childhood, Yeah, your childhood

0:49:41.320 --> 0:49:43.279
<v Speaker 4>and your product of you know, the things that they

0:49:43.320 --> 0:49:47.080
<v Speaker 4>taught you, the things that they normalized. And that's with anybody.

0:49:47.120 --> 0:49:49.720
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, you know, like you have to check yourself

0:49:49.760 --> 0:49:52.239
<v Speaker 3>because you probably do do shit that they do. You're

0:49:52.239 --> 0:49:53.600
<v Speaker 3>not even aware of it, you know what I mean?

0:49:53.640 --> 0:49:56.000
<v Speaker 3>Because I know I do shit. Sometimes I'm like, oh damn,

0:49:56.000 --> 0:49:58.120
<v Speaker 3>that was like my mom. I do it in relationships,

0:49:58.520 --> 0:49:59.600
<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean. I do it a lot

0:49:59.640 --> 0:50:01.439
<v Speaker 3>with men, and I do things that my I've seen

0:50:01.480 --> 0:50:04.720
<v Speaker 3>my mom do and that she even acknowledges that maybe

0:50:04.760 --> 0:50:06.799
<v Speaker 3>aren't good for her and haven't worked for her, but

0:50:06.840 --> 0:50:09.080
<v Speaker 3>I've seen her do it and they become habit for you.

0:50:09.320 --> 0:50:12.600
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I definitely will see the same and

0:50:12.800 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 4>eyewitness a.

0:50:15.120 --> 0:50:17.520
<v Speaker 5>Very unhealthy relationship for.

0:50:17.560 --> 0:50:19.879
<v Speaker 4>Many years, Like my parents were together since my mom

0:50:19.920 --> 0:50:23.200
<v Speaker 4>was fourteen, my dad was like seventeen. So honestly, in

0:50:23.200 --> 0:50:26.840
<v Speaker 4>my eyes, they're like still mimic those age groups, Like

0:50:26.880 --> 0:50:29.520
<v Speaker 4>they never grew, they never evolved from those, like in

0:50:29.520 --> 0:50:33.359
<v Speaker 4>a relationship standpoint, they are like still very immature. And

0:50:33.440 --> 0:50:36.320
<v Speaker 4>so I had to realize that in order for me

0:50:36.400 --> 0:50:39.240
<v Speaker 4>not to repeat it. And it's it's actually like a work,

0:50:39.400 --> 0:50:43.120
<v Speaker 4>you know, it's work, and even like not catering, like

0:50:43.480 --> 0:50:45.680
<v Speaker 4>I don't think I found my mom was neither one

0:50:45.680 --> 0:50:48.879
<v Speaker 4>of my parents are really like oh okay, I never

0:50:48.960 --> 0:50:50.560
<v Speaker 4>saw that. I was just like and then so I

0:50:50.600 --> 0:50:53.359
<v Speaker 4>see in relationships some men need that, and I'm kind

0:50:53.360 --> 0:50:55.880
<v Speaker 4>of like, what the fuck? Get annoyed? I gets really annoyed,

0:50:56.000 --> 0:50:58.719
<v Speaker 4>Like why do you need to be so reassured? I mean,

0:50:58.880 --> 0:51:00.920
<v Speaker 4>and obviously as an a, I would like to be

0:51:00.920 --> 0:51:02.759
<v Speaker 4>reassured in some way. So we all do. We all

0:51:02.800 --> 0:51:04.839
<v Speaker 4>need reassurance. We all want to be like told we're

0:51:04.840 --> 0:51:07.640
<v Speaker 4>doing good or we're loved or whatever. So even that

0:51:07.800 --> 0:51:09.719
<v Speaker 4>I have to get out of that, like making that

0:51:10.280 --> 0:51:12.719
<v Speaker 4>that feels weak, make yeah weak or you're like you're

0:51:12.920 --> 0:51:15.560
<v Speaker 4>you or need you. It as like a negative. Yeah,

0:51:15.600 --> 0:51:19.800
<v Speaker 4>and all the time, all the time, all the time. Right, Okay,

0:51:19.880 --> 0:51:27.600
<v Speaker 4>so onto onto the insecurities. Okay, So I have a question.

0:51:27.719 --> 0:51:30.440
<v Speaker 3>Do you have any insecurities that you just developed, you

0:51:30.480 --> 0:51:36.800
<v Speaker 3>think from after having Luna, Like about anything in particular,

0:51:36.840 --> 0:51:40.880
<v Speaker 3>like my body, your body, anything like anything that that

0:51:41.040 --> 0:51:44.240
<v Speaker 3>you made up in your own mind that wasn't necessarily

0:51:44.239 --> 0:51:47.439
<v Speaker 3>brought on to you by an outside I mean yeah,

0:51:47.480 --> 0:51:48.760
<v Speaker 3>like by an outside.

0:51:48.320 --> 0:51:49.360
<v Speaker 4>Person like your.

0:51:49.239 --> 0:51:52.080
<v Speaker 3>Mom or your dad or your big daddy, or like

0:51:52.080 --> 0:51:53.160
<v Speaker 3>like like my parenting.

0:51:54.400 --> 0:51:56.560
<v Speaker 4>It could be could be parenting, it could be your body.

0:51:56.600 --> 0:51:59.000
<v Speaker 4>I mean for me, like I mean, of course sometimes

0:51:59.040 --> 0:52:01.399
<v Speaker 4>I question my parenting. Of course. Yeah, no one really

0:52:01.400 --> 0:52:03.759
<v Speaker 4>knows the right and so one person can say one

0:52:03.760 --> 0:52:05.799
<v Speaker 4>thing to you. But for me, I mean physically, yeah,

0:52:05.800 --> 0:52:08.160
<v Speaker 4>my stomach. Like I've said before, like I hate my stomach.

0:52:08.200 --> 0:52:08.759
<v Speaker 4>I don't hate it.

0:52:08.760 --> 0:52:10.799
<v Speaker 5>I'm learning to love it. But it's definitely different than

0:52:10.840 --> 0:52:11.560
<v Speaker 5>it was before.

0:52:11.800 --> 0:52:14.840
<v Speaker 4>And it's not tight like how it was. My stomach

0:52:14.880 --> 0:52:17.200
<v Speaker 4>has always been something that's always been flat my whole life.

0:52:17.200 --> 0:52:18.719
<v Speaker 4>I never had to worry about it. Now it's I

0:52:18.760 --> 0:52:20.960
<v Speaker 4>have loose skin, it's never going to be like tight

0:52:21.000 --> 0:52:24.400
<v Speaker 4>as tight as I want it. And it's something that

0:52:24.440 --> 0:52:28.040
<v Speaker 4>I've had to really get get used to. It's been

0:52:28.120 --> 0:52:31.680
<v Speaker 4>like I considered getting like the tummy tuck at one

0:52:31.719 --> 0:52:35.719
<v Speaker 4>point and then and then I was like, yeah, girl,

0:52:35.760 --> 0:52:38.480
<v Speaker 4>I even got I went, I went to get consultations,

0:52:38.520 --> 0:52:40.040
<v Speaker 4>and then they say, get the fun out of it. No,

0:52:40.680 --> 0:52:43.960
<v Speaker 4>that's that's a disgrace honestly, the fact that they can

0:52:44.000 --> 0:52:47.839
<v Speaker 4>say it's their girl, Erica, it's there. There's I've seen

0:52:47.880 --> 0:52:50.640
<v Speaker 4>tummy tuck cases that Okay, yeah it's light, it's slight.

0:52:50.680 --> 0:52:51.600
<v Speaker 4>It's not but it's but.

0:52:51.600 --> 0:52:54.080
<v Speaker 5>There's like that is enough to be toughed. You don't

0:52:54.120 --> 0:52:55.360
<v Speaker 5>have enough skin to be touched.

0:52:55.800 --> 0:52:56.040
<v Speaker 7>Girl.

0:52:56.120 --> 0:52:58.600
<v Speaker 4>No, see this little area that this the second it's

0:52:58.640 --> 0:53:01.920
<v Speaker 4>so since second pooch here it's tiny. Yeah is that

0:53:01.960 --> 0:53:05.560
<v Speaker 4>your see sections? No, it is down here. So this skin, well,

0:53:05.680 --> 0:53:08.480
<v Speaker 4>it's just I mean, I know I can probably fill

0:53:08.480 --> 0:53:10.920
<v Speaker 4>it in with muscles, like if I got really buff,

0:53:11.040 --> 0:53:12.040
<v Speaker 4>like stretch.

0:53:11.760 --> 0:53:15.120
<v Speaker 5>Out, but I think it's time to have no apech. Okay.

0:53:15.280 --> 0:53:17.920
<v Speaker 3>So I was being lancy and I went and you know,

0:53:18.000 --> 0:53:20.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm sure a lot of women can relate, but I

0:53:20.800 --> 0:53:21.680
<v Speaker 3>didn't go through with it.

0:53:21.719 --> 0:53:23.640
<v Speaker 4>I didn't go through with it because I was I

0:53:23.680 --> 0:53:25.760
<v Speaker 4>kept thinking, like I don't want to fucking major scar,

0:53:25.960 --> 0:53:29.319
<v Speaker 4>Like am I just what if something happens. No, it

0:53:29.360 --> 0:53:31.360
<v Speaker 4>wasn't like that type of ten. It was like a

0:53:31.360 --> 0:53:34.319
<v Speaker 4>little it was like a mini tech Okay, but it

0:53:34.360 --> 0:53:36.560
<v Speaker 4>was enough to make me feel like, oh my god,

0:53:36.760 --> 0:53:39.600
<v Speaker 4>like this is I'm so insecure about this, Like I

0:53:39.640 --> 0:53:42.080
<v Speaker 4>can't change this. Yeah, we become insecure about things we're

0:53:42.080 --> 0:53:43.840
<v Speaker 4>not used well, obviously something we're not used to it

0:53:43.840 --> 0:53:46.480
<v Speaker 4>and it's our body and we live in First of all,

0:53:46.520 --> 0:53:48.279
<v Speaker 4>we live in La which is the veiny of the

0:53:48.400 --> 0:53:52.840
<v Speaker 4>veinous of all places on earth. So yeah, it's a change.

0:53:52.880 --> 0:53:55.200
<v Speaker 4>So it's something, yeah, but naturally and as women, we're

0:53:55.239 --> 0:53:57.440
<v Speaker 4>not made to embrace those changes.

0:53:59.239 --> 0:54:02.279
<v Speaker 5>Start cutting it up as ramost amost go, start cleaning it.

0:54:02.320 --> 0:54:08.520
<v Speaker 7>Okay, thank thank you, take it pick it up, baby, Okay, okay,

0:54:08.600 --> 0:54:08.880
<v Speaker 7>thank you.

0:54:09.960 --> 0:54:14.400
<v Speaker 4>I think my breast right like as you guys all know,

0:54:14.440 --> 0:54:16.600
<v Speaker 4>my breast friends for two and a half years, and

0:54:16.640 --> 0:54:18.279
<v Speaker 4>I don't really hate my breast, but I do want

0:54:18.320 --> 0:54:21.839
<v Speaker 4>to get them done eventually. Yeah this Your boots are

0:54:21.880 --> 0:54:28.400
<v Speaker 4>like perfect perky. They are not Yeah, yeah, they're very slow.

0:54:28.480 --> 0:54:30.560
<v Speaker 4>There's like a flat, flat, flat, flat flat.

0:54:30.400 --> 0:54:33.040
<v Speaker 5>Boot at the bottom, but they're still small. I mean,

0:54:33.120 --> 0:54:33.560
<v Speaker 5>so yeah.

0:54:33.560 --> 0:54:35.840
<v Speaker 4>And then I also my boyfriend telling me I have

0:54:36.160 --> 0:54:41.080
<v Speaker 4>those big ass nipples, sucking nipples, like baby sucking nipples.

0:54:42.360 --> 0:54:44.680
<v Speaker 5>They looks like they've been sucked heavily.

0:54:44.960 --> 0:54:47.080
<v Speaker 4>I mean, that's what just some people's nipples look like.

0:54:47.160 --> 0:54:49.360
<v Speaker 5>I thought it was rather regular myself.

0:54:49.000 --> 0:54:55.200
<v Speaker 4>But whatever, everyone has different nipples. Uh yeah, that's really

0:54:55.920 --> 0:54:58.479
<v Speaker 4>I'm pretty lucky when it comes to like my body type.

0:54:58.560 --> 0:55:00.120
<v Speaker 5>I was hoping to have gained weight.

0:55:00.120 --> 0:55:03.400
<v Speaker 4>And I didn't, and I was pissed so like mostly

0:55:03.480 --> 0:55:05.520
<v Speaker 4>my my breasts that changed, you know what.

0:55:05.520 --> 0:55:07.799
<v Speaker 3>I've like this week, I felt insecure about this has

0:55:07.840 --> 0:55:10.319
<v Speaker 3>nothing to do physical, and I had to just like

0:55:10.480 --> 0:55:12.719
<v Speaker 3>I think it was part of that whole like way

0:55:12.760 --> 0:55:15.640
<v Speaker 3>I was feeling earlier. I started to feel and this

0:55:15.719 --> 0:55:18.560
<v Speaker 3>sounds really terrible and I don't like I love my

0:55:18.680 --> 0:55:22.840
<v Speaker 3>child and everything. I started to feel insecure about having

0:55:22.880 --> 0:55:28.560
<v Speaker 3>a child and dating. Yeah, like I felt like, how

0:55:28.600 --> 0:55:30.400
<v Speaker 3>do I should be doing it? Like no, like I

0:55:30.480 --> 0:55:33.279
<v Speaker 3>just don't. I felt like I don't know how to

0:55:33.320 --> 0:55:37.279
<v Speaker 3>describe it, like almost like yeah, like I'm not gonna

0:55:37.360 --> 0:55:38.960
<v Speaker 3>like I'm going to miss out on a lot of

0:55:39.040 --> 0:55:41.360
<v Speaker 3>people because they don't want to date.

0:55:41.239 --> 0:55:43.640
<v Speaker 4>Someone with a child. And of course I know why

0:55:43.680 --> 0:55:46.719
<v Speaker 4>that thought came into mind, and I don't I think that,

0:55:46.800 --> 0:55:49.239
<v Speaker 4>but that's what I'm saying, Like, it's crazy how insecurity

0:55:49.440 --> 0:55:52.360
<v Speaker 4>there's insecurities that come in to go because yeah, it

0:55:52.400 --> 0:55:53.600
<v Speaker 4>wasn't like a strong.

0:55:53.320 --> 0:55:54.840
<v Speaker 3>One, but it was something that I thought about and

0:55:54.880 --> 0:55:57.360
<v Speaker 3>I felt weird about for a minute and I was like, wow,

0:55:58.200 --> 0:56:00.800
<v Speaker 3>my life, I like it put things. It was a

0:56:00.840 --> 0:56:02.680
<v Speaker 3>defining moment where I was like, Wow, dating with the

0:56:02.760 --> 0:56:04.200
<v Speaker 3>child is not the same.

0:56:04.440 --> 0:56:07.600
<v Speaker 4>It's different. It's not the same as dating with without one,

0:56:07.640 --> 0:56:08.440
<v Speaker 4>and you're noticipating.

0:56:08.560 --> 0:56:11.040
<v Speaker 3>It's something you have to adjust to, and like some

0:56:11.080 --> 0:56:13.120
<v Speaker 3>people adjust to it just totally normal, and I think

0:56:13.160 --> 0:56:15.360
<v Speaker 3>I did adjust to it quickly, but I like, I

0:56:15.440 --> 0:56:18.200
<v Speaker 3>think it's also normal to have insecurities about it too.

0:56:18.760 --> 0:56:20.480
<v Speaker 4>Fuck yeah, that was one of the first things that

0:56:20.600 --> 0:56:21.839
<v Speaker 4>I like, I don't have to date and I'm don't

0:56:21.880 --> 0:56:23.480
<v Speaker 4>have to tell people have the kids, which is not

0:56:23.560 --> 0:56:25.919
<v Speaker 4>a problem, Like obviously I'm not gonna I don't lead

0:56:25.960 --> 0:56:27.200
<v Speaker 4>with that though. When I date, when I go on

0:56:27.360 --> 0:56:29.120
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I usually like they know by the end

0:56:29.120 --> 0:56:29.680
<v Speaker 4>of the first date.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, but like not usually you do, like even though like.

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<v Speaker 4>Like on my on my dating profiles, like I don't

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<v Speaker 4>have to show my kid, you know, I don't you

0:56:37.440 --> 0:56:42.640
<v Speaker 4>know why I did it on my previous tender. I

0:56:42.680 --> 0:56:45.080
<v Speaker 4>someone pushed me about that too, but I thought, like

0:56:45.239 --> 0:56:48.520
<v Speaker 4>you should know now I am a mom. Let's let's

0:56:48.680 --> 0:56:50.160
<v Speaker 4>lead going into it. No what it is.

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<v Speaker 5>So if you can't handle it, keep on keep on going.

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<v Speaker 4>I understand. And also like someone because I was really

0:56:55.640 --> 0:56:58.880
<v Speaker 4>insecure about it too, because when you date single, you're like, I'm.

0:56:58.719 --> 0:56:59.840
<v Speaker 5>Single, I have no kids.

0:57:00.480 --> 0:57:03.480
<v Speaker 4>I'm a most valuable player, because that's that's what like

0:57:03.560 --> 0:57:03.879
<v Speaker 4>you think.

0:57:04.200 --> 0:57:05.560
<v Speaker 5>Even with men, we do it. He's saying, oh he

0:57:05.560 --> 0:57:07.000
<v Speaker 5>doesn't have the kids, he's never been married.

0:57:07.080 --> 0:57:09.080
<v Speaker 4>These are things that are like in our mind's perks

0:57:09.360 --> 0:57:12.000
<v Speaker 4>so naturally as women especially, we think it's like a

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<v Speaker 4>non perk when we do have kids. But you know,

0:57:14.800 --> 0:57:17.760
<v Speaker 4>my friend brought to my attention is like, girl, low key.

0:57:17.800 --> 0:57:20.480
<v Speaker 4>It's better because you will find men who are more

0:57:20.520 --> 0:57:22.320
<v Speaker 4>serious and they're gonna be less willing to waste your

0:57:22.320 --> 0:57:24.200
<v Speaker 4>time and they're like, oh, she has a kid, she's

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<v Speaker 4>a mom. Shame play, So I kind of feel like

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<v Speaker 4>what's meant for me is for me. So if you're

0:57:28.280 --> 0:57:31.440
<v Speaker 4>not about this life, no, and I totally feel like that.

0:57:31.640 --> 0:57:32.479
<v Speaker 5>Most of the time.

0:57:32.600 --> 0:57:34.000
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but but I did.

0:57:34.040 --> 0:57:36.360
<v Speaker 3>I feel I felt like, wow, like this is gonna

0:57:36.440 --> 0:57:38.280
<v Speaker 3>this is harder, This is gonna be harder.

0:57:38.400 --> 0:57:41.800
<v Speaker 4>And that's also send me from your last situation and

0:57:42.040 --> 0:57:45.600
<v Speaker 4>the word convenient. You aren't convenient or someone else is

0:57:45.600 --> 0:57:47.760
<v Speaker 4>more convenient than you, which is code for I'm needy,

0:57:47.760 --> 0:57:49.280
<v Speaker 4>and I don't understand that you're not going to always

0:57:49.320 --> 0:57:51.480
<v Speaker 4>be available because you have priorities what you're your kid,

0:57:51.720 --> 0:57:53.520
<v Speaker 4>which is not like I don't want that to be

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<v Speaker 4>a priority as it should, but I can't handle it,

0:57:55.880 --> 0:57:58.560
<v Speaker 4>which in my I mean, that's honest, but it's also unmature.

0:57:59.200 --> 0:58:01.840
<v Speaker 4>But it's also someone's choice. But I think that's the

0:58:01.880 --> 0:58:05.080
<v Speaker 4>only reason, like recently that ree came up in your

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<v Speaker 4>mind this week, because I think other than that, it

0:58:07.200 --> 0:58:10.919
<v Speaker 4>probably wouldn't happen. Yeah, I know. And because of that though,

0:58:10.960 --> 0:58:13.680
<v Speaker 4>I thought like, damn, like this is something that probably

0:58:13.760 --> 0:58:15.680
<v Speaker 4>might come up again, and I need to know how

0:58:15.680 --> 0:58:18.640
<v Speaker 4>to deal with this right or not. That's what I mean, like,

0:58:18.720 --> 0:58:21.160
<v Speaker 4>not let it make me feel this way because because

0:58:21.160 --> 0:58:23.000
<v Speaker 4>it did, and I was like, oh, I don't like that.

0:58:23.120 --> 0:58:25.240
<v Speaker 5>I don't like that I can even have those thoughts.

0:58:25.480 --> 0:58:29.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, And then I noticed as moms dating guys who

0:58:29.480 --> 0:58:34.480
<v Speaker 4>don't have kids, I get really defensive about men who

0:58:34.600 --> 0:58:39.439
<v Speaker 4>don't have kids, putting giving me input about like my mother,

0:58:39.920 --> 0:58:44.680
<v Speaker 4>like oh you smell or oh she's still up, you know.

0:58:44.880 --> 0:58:47.200
<v Speaker 4>After it was random guy on tender and he was like, hey,

0:58:47.280 --> 0:58:49.560
<v Speaker 4>called me one night. He's like an old school guy

0:58:49.920 --> 0:58:53.080
<v Speaker 4>and he's like, oh she's still up. It's ten o'clock.

0:58:53.080 --> 0:58:56.200
<v Speaker 5>And I'm like, yeah, shit happens. But like my other

0:58:56.240 --> 0:58:57.400
<v Speaker 5>thing is like, look.

0:58:58.560 --> 0:59:01.280
<v Speaker 4>Yo, if you don't have me fucking kids, you'd have

0:59:01.360 --> 0:59:03.439
<v Speaker 4>no clue how this shit is. Because she's a grown

0:59:03.480 --> 0:59:05.439
<v Speaker 4>woman that she doesn't listen to shit. I have to say,

0:59:06.880 --> 0:59:08.200
<v Speaker 4>I can't wait till you get a kid, give me

0:59:08.240 --> 0:59:10.960
<v Speaker 4>a call. And yeah, it's like you're judging me, and

0:59:11.080 --> 0:59:12.520
<v Speaker 4>you're probably like, oh, she doesn't.

0:59:12.280 --> 0:59:13.880
<v Speaker 5>Have her kid together, she's you know.

0:59:14.320 --> 0:59:17.520
<v Speaker 4>But there's there's all types of variations of insecurities and

0:59:17.640 --> 0:59:20.960
<v Speaker 4>that comes from you so much shit, including being a mom,

0:59:20.960 --> 0:59:24.360
<v Speaker 4>which I think is totally fucking sexist because I doubt

0:59:24.480 --> 0:59:28.160
<v Speaker 4>very seriously. You'll hear any single dads who feel any

0:59:28.240 --> 0:59:30.760
<v Speaker 4>less than the rankings because they have a kid. I mean,

0:59:30.800 --> 0:59:33.440
<v Speaker 4>and if they do, it's so slight. It's so slight.

0:59:33.520 --> 0:59:36.080
<v Speaker 4>I think they probably do, but it's it's definitely not

0:59:36.160 --> 0:59:39.360
<v Speaker 4>a deal breaker. It's definitely heavier on the deal breaker

0:59:39.400 --> 0:59:43.959
<v Speaker 4>side for THEE for women anything. I was gonna ask,

0:59:44.800 --> 0:59:48.440
<v Speaker 4>So we're talking about our insecurities about ourselves, but.

0:59:50.240 --> 0:59:52.520
<v Speaker 5>How do you have you ever dated an insecure guy?

0:59:52.960 --> 0:59:54.960
<v Speaker 5>And how did that work out for you?

0:59:55.120 --> 0:59:59.280
<v Speaker 4>Horrible? Yeah, insecure men are the words.

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<v Speaker 5>Let me repea this.

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<v Speaker 4>An insecure man is the fucking worst, the fucking worst

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<v Speaker 4>shit ever, the worst species of a man. It really is.

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<v Speaker 4>It's a fucking turn off because for all, first of all,

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<v Speaker 4>versus Burkio and cancer and we's wild. No, but I

1:00:22.720 --> 1:00:26.760
<v Speaker 4>have a lot of personality. I'm not even to man horn,

1:00:26.880 --> 1:00:30.200
<v Speaker 4>I'm the bomb. No, I'm a people person as fuck.

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<v Speaker 4>And I genuinely I say this so much. I genuinely

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<v Speaker 4>love people, like I really like to get to know

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<v Speaker 4>different people. I really like to like talk to people.

1:00:38.320 --> 1:00:40.760
<v Speaker 4>I like to work the room. You're so different, You're

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<v Speaker 4>so different, I know, but I like not a people

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<v Speaker 4>person sometimes I am. It depends.

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<v Speaker 5>I love people. I love how the different variations they

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<v Speaker 5>come in.

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<v Speaker 4>I like talking to people, like being inspired and just

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<v Speaker 4>getting anxiety thinking about it. So like, you know, some

1:00:56.520 --> 1:00:59.200
<v Speaker 4>guys don't want you to be so hella topic I've gotten,

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<v Speaker 4>Oh you're so friendly, which means you're kind of poochying

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<v Speaker 4>around the room. But if you don't know, I came

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<v Speaker 4>with you and you're not like exuding confidence and like

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<v Speaker 4>you're doing you well, I'm doing me.

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<v Speaker 5>It's very annoying.

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<v Speaker 4>And not even just that, Like Ani who calls you

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<v Speaker 4>constantly is the most fucking annoying shit I've ever experienced

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<v Speaker 4>in my life. My ex could call me I kid

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<v Speaker 4>you not. It's like seventy eight times in a row.

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<v Speaker 4>At night, I would have like one hundred and.

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<v Speaker 3>Forty text messages that would be like my ex too,

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<v Speaker 3>not my baby daddy, but the one before him, Oh

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<v Speaker 3>my god.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. Yeah. It was just it's just it becomes a

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<v Speaker 4>turn off, Like you don't at first, like at least

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<v Speaker 4>for me, at first, it like was like we felt

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<v Speaker 4>like it felt like an obsession between the both of us,

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<v Speaker 4>and then at some point, like I think I was

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<v Speaker 4>young too, and then.

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<v Speaker 5>You realized like this is this is not cure, It's not.

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<v Speaker 4>You just love me, Like this is fucking annoying. You're

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<v Speaker 4>trying to like fill some void that I can't fill.

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<v Speaker 4>My ex used to fuck me and asked me questions.

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<v Speaker 4>Remember fucking interrogations. He would literally gas.

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<v Speaker 5>So tell me where you were.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, I already told you you're really fucking

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<v Speaker 4>up the sex here because I can't focus when you're

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<v Speaker 4>asking me so many questions. But he was dead serious,

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<v Speaker 4>and I was like, I can't believe you would fuck

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<v Speaker 4>you and ask you question didn't he had already asked

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<v Speaker 4>me when he like, asked you sexy, Like, I guess

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<v Speaker 4>that was how after fifteen times.

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<v Speaker 5>Of it, have you fucked anybody else?

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<v Speaker 4>Are you?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like, shut the fucking looks.

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<v Speaker 4>Stop?

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe like maybe he thought. He was like like tell

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<v Speaker 3>me it's mine, tell me literally like just tell me

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<v Speaker 3>just just I'm like, no, just have you ever been

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<v Speaker 3>like actually I do to be like, yeah, no, I have,

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah I did?

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<v Speaker 4>Did you? I'm like I don't know. I thought you

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<v Speaker 4>want me to say yes because you, like I thought

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<v Speaker 4>maybe it would turn I didn't stop. Yeah, I thought

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<v Speaker 4>maybe it would turn you off. I thought there was

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<v Speaker 4>a creature behind you. I'm so paranoid, you're so parsed.

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<v Speaker 3>But no, I can't the for me in that relationship

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<v Speaker 3>that I was in where he was super jealous and I.

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<v Speaker 4>Just it just became obsessive.

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like when you're in a jealous relationship, it's

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<v Speaker 3>it's it's doomed to become physical at some point. Almost

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<v Speaker 3>if it's not like, if it's not emotionally abusive, that

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<v Speaker 3>it's going to become physically abusive, because it leads to that.

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<v Speaker 5>You're right, because there's a that is so true.

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<v Speaker 4>I never thought, but there's a fucking thin line between

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<v Speaker 4>you know, I'm just casually asking you some shit too,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm I'm haggling you like it's it's it's intense because

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<v Speaker 4>they build up this whole story in their mind of

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<v Speaker 4>what you're doing, and then they can't be convinced otherwise.

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<v Speaker 3>And then and don't get me wrong, I think I've

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<v Speaker 3>I've been insecure.

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<v Speaker 4>I think everyone has been insecure relationships before. I think

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<v Speaker 4>obviously they show up in different ways. Because even when

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<v Speaker 4>you were asking me earlier, like would you rather be

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<v Speaker 4>in like a super like would you rather be the

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<v Speaker 4>really super jealous guy who's insecure, or like someone who

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<v Speaker 4>just doesn't care at all, And like, obviously I would

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<v Speaker 4>rather be with someone who doesn't care at all because

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<v Speaker 4>the other side of it is too much, but like

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<v Speaker 4>obviously you want the healthy medium both. Like for example,

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<v Speaker 4>my ex was he after getting out of that extremely

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<v Speaker 4>like helicopter relationship dating my ex my baby daddy, like

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<v Speaker 4>he was so chill, like he just let me.

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<v Speaker 3>Do whatever I wanted, like no questions asked, Like, baby,

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<v Speaker 3>I trust you and I love that show. Three years

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<v Speaker 3>when me and Erica first started hanging out, like again,

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<v Speaker 3>we started hanging out mostly to make the kids hang out,

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<v Speaker 3>so we didn't have any friends with kids, and so

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<v Speaker 3>like we just start.

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<v Speaker 4>Talking because what the fuck else are we gonna do?

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<v Speaker 4>So I'm like, no, my Bavie's he's knowing as fuck.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh he just asked me one million questions, call me

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<v Speaker 4>one million fucking times.

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<v Speaker 5>She's like, really, I could leave the house naked.

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<v Speaker 4>And a naked could be picking me up and my

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<v Speaker 4>baby like peace, I'll catch you later. I was like what,

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<v Speaker 4>She's like, Yeah, it's fucking weird. Yeah, And I'm like

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<v Speaker 4>I hadn't I couldn't even imagine it. I'm like, you're lucky. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, at first it was cool, and then it.

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<v Speaker 3>Got to the point where like when I found out

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<v Speaker 3>he was doing them an shit he shouldn't be doing.

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<v Speaker 3>Then I was like, oh, that's why you don't ask me,

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<v Speaker 3>because because you don'tant me to ask you shit.

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<v Speaker 4>So then I even started to girl.

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<v Speaker 3>I tried to get him to like, I tried to

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<v Speaker 3>get him mad at like me and my friend devised

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<v Speaker 3>a whole plan witch like my friend's like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 3>my home, but yes she was. He was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>gonna call you three am. Like I'm gonna call you

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<v Speaker 3>like four times, make sure your ringers on. And I

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<v Speaker 3>was like okay. So he called me, and he called

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<v Speaker 3>me and Nia did not wake up. Then finally the

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<v Speaker 3>third time he woke up, I answered and then I

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<v Speaker 3>was like hey.

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<v Speaker 4>And then like then I was like, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>We had like I got really nervous too, I got scared,

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<v Speaker 3>and then like we had a talk and then we

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<v Speaker 3>hung up and then Freddy was like, you're good.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay. I was like what the fuck. I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>we're over.

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<v Speaker 10>He doesn't care, so but but so his insecurity is

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<v Speaker 10>that he obviously needs to seek attention, but he needs

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<v Speaker 10>attention from everyone, which is why you know, he doesn't

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<v Speaker 10>want me asking him what he's doing because he knows

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<v Speaker 10>he's not doing anything.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's just it's just interesting how insecurities show up

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<v Speaker 3>in different ways.

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<v Speaker 4>Because my baby's daddy would literally it was so bad.

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<v Speaker 4>The trust issues was so bad, Like I went out

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<v Speaker 4>not to go places because it was just so, it

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<v Speaker 4>was just I'd rather not deal with it. But then

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<v Speaker 4>I would like find screenshots from bumble from fucking tender.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like, Yo, you're a fucking idiot. I'm like, you

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<v Speaker 4>treat me like a child. No, oh my god. He

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<v Speaker 4>would say when I would go out, let's be good, okay,

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<v Speaker 4>be good, which is a trigger.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I read that shit.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not a goddamn puppy okay, and I'm not your child.

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<v Speaker 4>What the fuck? This? Be good? Me a read a

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<v Speaker 4>relationship or the fuck.

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<v Speaker 3>It's so it's like sets the tone before you walk

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<v Speaker 3>out that door, like I'm yeah, I'm going to fuck

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<v Speaker 3>up your night.

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<v Speaker 4>Now, don't be this is another quote. Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 4>I have so many text messages. Don't be out the door. No,

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<v Speaker 4>hoho shit.

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<v Speaker 5>Who oh, it's like fourteen million times. Don't get there,

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<v Speaker 5>don't know ho shit. I'm like, what is th shit?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm what qualified? No, But I'm like, you keep telling

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<v Speaker 4>me that I'm going to do the hot shit exactly

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<v Speaker 4>because it's not like you don't try. And that's exactly

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<v Speaker 4>what happened in.

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<v Speaker 3>My last relationship. He always thought I was cheating on him,

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<v Speaker 3>that I fucking cheated on him. Yeah, they're like, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I ended up just cheating. I was like, I might

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<v Speaker 3>as well be cheating because apparently I'm cheating already girl.

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<v Speaker 4>And then like, first of all, I was so out

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<v Speaker 4>of the relationship and in the relationship like it was

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<v Speaker 4>she had.

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<v Speaker 5>Been over a long time ago. Literally, I was probably

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<v Speaker 5>like pregnant.

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<v Speaker 4>Finding and they're gonna tender and she texting bitches. I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, you're a fucking idiot that you would give

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<v Speaker 4>me this much stress and this much bullshit, and how

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<v Speaker 4>my friends were like, of course he's projecting, because that's

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<v Speaker 4>what the fuck he's doing.

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<v Speaker 5>So I was like, this doesn't make any sense. I'm

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<v Speaker 5>so confused.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm so over it.

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<v Speaker 5>And it did develop.

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<v Speaker 4>My relationship became very hostile, very abusive and and even

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<v Speaker 4>to the point like before it got physical, is fucking

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<v Speaker 4>emotionally abusive, like hoh shit, you'll be like, you know

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<v Speaker 4>what everybody's how everybody thinks that you want. It was

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<v Speaker 4>just like trying to just strip me and luck, I

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<v Speaker 4>mean lucky for him eventually I did. I was like

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<v Speaker 4>numb to it, and I wouldn't like see it because

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<v Speaker 4>I saw him as a child and like.

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<v Speaker 5>As my baby.

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<v Speaker 4>But I was just like it was over it now

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<v Speaker 4>to this day, honestly, like it's a trigger any kind

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<v Speaker 4>of fucking rules, any kind of fucking any insecurities, and

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<v Speaker 4>of course we all have in securities and relationships. It's

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<v Speaker 4>a part of like being the part to be sure

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<v Speaker 4>that shit, I'm like, ooh, run, bitch, run, I don't

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<v Speaker 4>have no time for this.

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<v Speaker 5>That's probably the point where I'm like, maybe I do,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, open relationship because I have zero time for

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<v Speaker 5>anyone to feel like they own me.

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<v Speaker 4>And I feel like I people get in relationships with

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<v Speaker 4>people for like the same reasons they love them, They

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<v Speaker 4>find reasons to hate.

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<v Speaker 5>They find reasons to hate them for.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh cool this, Like they may love you because you

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<v Speaker 4>can work a room like you can debate people because

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<v Speaker 4>you're charming, because people love you, and then for that

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<v Speaker 4>same reason, they'll they'll fucking start meeting you and not

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<v Speaker 4>be able to handle that and become deeply insecure, and uh,

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<v Speaker 4>that's I will never date like that ever again.

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<v Speaker 3>I think it's like you have to be able to

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<v Speaker 3>find or you you hope.

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<v Speaker 4>To find a balance, you know what I mean. And

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<v Speaker 4>you know it's just everyone was going to have a

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<v Speaker 4>little insecurity.

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<v Speaker 3>I know, I realized in my last dating situation that

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<v Speaker 3>I still am not over a lot of my insecurities

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<v Speaker 3>for my last relationship.

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, my.

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<v Speaker 3>Insecurity is in my relationship where that I just constantly

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<v Speaker 3>felt like I had to keep my partner's attention that

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<v Speaker 3>like I you know, then my physic then physical insecurity

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<v Speaker 3>started to come into play because I saw the women

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<v Speaker 3>that he was looking at on Instagram that that maybe

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<v Speaker 3>I didn't look like at that time because I just

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<v Speaker 3>had a baby, or even before the baby, like my

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<v Speaker 3>like I didn't have like a like my booty.

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<v Speaker 4>Wasn't big enough and all these shit.

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<v Speaker 3>That shit that like didn't really bother me at first,

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<v Speaker 3>but the more and more it's just the longer the

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<v Speaker 3>relationship happened, the more in scare I got, oh for sure,

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<v Speaker 3>And you know, I guess those are my insecurities.

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<v Speaker 4>I never was.

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<v Speaker 3>I've never been the type of girl to look through

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<v Speaker 3>your phone. I think maybe I've done it like maybe

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<v Speaker 3>two or three times in my life. I think also

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<v Speaker 3>because I know I'm going to find something. You look

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<v Speaker 3>you're gonna find. But also and I know I don't

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<v Speaker 3>want people going through my shit because you look, you're

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<v Speaker 3>gonna find something that might be a little inappropriate.

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<v Speaker 4>Doesn't mean I cheated, but or you'll you'll make it,

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<v Speaker 4>you'll translate, you translate it that way. But I also

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<v Speaker 4>learned dating an insecure man or being an instacure relationship

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<v Speaker 4>period makes my pussy dry.

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<v Speaker 5>It makes me very drum.

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<v Speaker 4>But it will also start making things that are not

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<v Speaker 4>have not been normal to you previously.

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<v Speaker 5>It will be tied for tat.

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<v Speaker 4>So I am not a look here through the phone,

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<v Speaker 4>because I'm guaranteed I'm going to find some shit, So

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<v Speaker 4>I look when I need the proof, not already know.

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<v Speaker 4>But I start to be this person that I wasn't

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<v Speaker 4>calling and then questioning because I'm trying to be spiteful

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<v Speaker 4>and get you back, because I want you to know

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<v Speaker 4>how fucking annoying it write that or like, see you're

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<v Speaker 4>doing that too, so fuck you. But low key the

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<v Speaker 4>crazy ist thing is nick like nigga's like that like

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<v Speaker 4>it they're like, oh you love me, Oh I ain't

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<v Speaker 4>doing nothing, baby like crazy and I just like I

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<v Speaker 4>don't even want to begin that healthy that unhealthy like relate,

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<v Speaker 4>Like it's literally a tip for tat and then you

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<v Speaker 4>get attached and then you just it's this fucking horrible

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<v Speaker 4>cycle of unhealthy bullshit.

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<v Speaker 5>So no insecure niggas.

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<v Speaker 3>Sure, yeah, it's it's a very big turn off.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean I can't say no insecure niggas.

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<v Speaker 3>Every person, like I say, it has insecurity, but just

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<v Speaker 3>don't lead with it. Yeah, Like like she said, like

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<v Speaker 3>should I like it? Going back to the person who said,

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<v Speaker 3>who uh wrote to us and our DM, she said.

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<v Speaker 4>Should I lead with this insecurity when dating? Absolutely not.

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<v Speaker 3>Nobody wants to know your insecurities up front, Like because

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<v Speaker 3>of course.

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<v Speaker 4>Everyone has their insecurities.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not to say to hide them, but like that's

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<v Speaker 3>not nobody wants to hear this shit on the first day.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, by the way, like cause it does come it

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<v Speaker 4>comes off very insecure and unsure of yourself, and it

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't come off cute, it doesn't come off like comfortable. Okay, girl,

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<v Speaker 4>let me, oh, let me make you feel secure, at

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<v Speaker 4>least not for me.

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<v Speaker 3>And maybe some man likes that. And those are the

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<v Speaker 3>type of men that are gonna pray on you. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>she has a weakness. Oh she's not.

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<v Speaker 4>She's not. They're already gonna pray on you. Yeah, Vagina,

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<v Speaker 4>they're already gonna pray.

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<v Speaker 5>As soon as a man finds your weakness, they.

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<v Speaker 3>Will like exploit it like no other thing you've ever

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<v Speaker 3>seen before.

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<v Speaker 5>My ex used to date like some old school Insta video.

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<v Speaker 2>Ho.

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<v Speaker 5>I wish I could say her name, but I'm not

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<v Speaker 5>gonna give her that much of it.

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<v Speaker 4>Do I know? She is probably not?

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<v Speaker 5>How many instas are there?

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<v Speaker 4>Sounds familiar, sounds like thats like an Instase name whatever.

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<v Speaker 4>But she had like a real big fake body like

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<v Speaker 4>she's Latina. She had like long like hair. She's reminded

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<v Speaker 4>me that you can't dress that well, you know, think

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<v Speaker 4>boobs like her face was a very cute, but obviously,

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<v Speaker 4>again my body is nothing like that. So I'm like,

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<v Speaker 4>how do you like this?

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<v Speaker 10>Both?

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<v Speaker 4>Like I had found a video of him fucking and

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<v Speaker 4>I could not get the image out of my head.

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't have been Oh god. And that's another thing.

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<v Speaker 4>If I would leave, I was so this is on

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<v Speaker 4>the other side. I was so paranoid about this nigga

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<v Speaker 4>and we moved in together. Like any notebooks from the

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<v Speaker 4>twelfth grade, any any anything on my computer, I was

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<v Speaker 4>mortified to leave them because I know the nigga would

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<v Speaker 4>just be like go through everything. Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 3>That's how I was like. I'd be like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 3>I look my computer over, but he's gonna go through

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<v Speaker 3>my email like that was I was.

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<v Speaker 4>I remember being stressed out about leaving shit so many things.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, you didn't do anything, and I'm like, did

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<v Speaker 4>I do something? Did I list? So I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>this is making so much anxiety, so much anxiety. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>surprised I don't have a full fucking head of gray

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<v Speaker 4>hair because I was. It was so anxiety, dragon girl.

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't like everything. I was like, if someone mentioned

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<v Speaker 4>the wrong name from the twelfth grade bitch, I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>don't talk about my twelfth grade boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 5>You know he's It was ridiculous. It was ridiculous.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 3>I think like the biggest part of like all of

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<v Speaker 3>that is trying not to, like you said, like you

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<v Speaker 3>get like you're triggered by that, so like sometimes you

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<v Speaker 3>probably could be triggered by some ship that really isn't that,

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<v Speaker 3>you know what I mean, It just reminds you of

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<v Speaker 3>that and right, and then being able to separate those things.

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<v Speaker 4>And I have to be able to differentiate, like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 4>now it's the time to be like, look, babe, due

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<v Speaker 4>to the levels, like okay, so he gets passed levelfore

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<v Speaker 4>it's okay to just bring it down and not acknowledge

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<v Speaker 4>it and keep a movement. But I'm so that sounds

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<v Speaker 4>super insecure. I'm like wanting to hit attack, attack and

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<v Speaker 4>hit the road running because I'm a good runner. This

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<v Speaker 4>feels a lot like Roles. I'm out of here, so yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>now I'm in this place like okay, this is healthy,

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<v Speaker 4>as is not healthy, and yeah, I'm fucking a battered

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<v Speaker 4>insecure woman. It is. That's exactly what it is. Insecure

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<v Speaker 4>man PGSD. I just coin that term should be therapist

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<v Speaker 4>should pick that ship up. I am PTSD of an

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<v Speaker 4>insecure man. Specifically, I am oh I am insecure man.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, I.

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<v Speaker 4>Was like, I can steel. I was like, I can't

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<v Speaker 4>make any questions. Am I smart?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? No?

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<v Speaker 4>That shit is not cute and it gets old. It's

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<v Speaker 4>really bad.

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<v Speaker 5>And like you know what what what?

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<v Speaker 4>What term I like most like, it's the it's the

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<v Speaker 4>the puppy syndrome. Like you can like if you get

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<v Speaker 4>a puppy and you try and squeeze it to death,

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<v Speaker 4>as soon as it gets way from me, it's gonna

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<v Speaker 4>fucking jet. If you get a puppy and it's nice

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<v Speaker 4>to it, it will always come be back for food

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<v Speaker 4>and ship. Just like a bird, you cage it as

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<v Speaker 4>soon as you open that gate, it's gonna hit. But

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<v Speaker 4>if you like, let a bird roam freely, it will

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<v Speaker 4>fly back to you every time. Because there's less there's

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<v Speaker 4>less caging. I am not an animal. I do not

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<v Speaker 4>wish to be caged. You're squeezed to death. Let me

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<v Speaker 4>be willing to come back. This is an optional relationship

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<v Speaker 4>and that I'm choosing you. So let me remind you

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<v Speaker 4>that of every day when I come back to the

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<v Speaker 4>house without you questioning me.

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<v Speaker 5>So I just got like a flashback.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel you. I feel like I feel you. What

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<v Speaker 4>anything else about I mean, I think, so, what are you,

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<v Speaker 4>how do you how do you deal with yours? How

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<v Speaker 4>have you dealt with your insecurities? Or how are you

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<v Speaker 4>dealing with your insecurities? Because obviously it's always like a

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<v Speaker 4>kind of a work in progress. I think, I mean

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<v Speaker 4>physically physical, like I've literally come like this is it,

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<v Speaker 4>this is it? This is what I look like. There's

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<v Speaker 4>I mean like I could exercise, i could eat more.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not likely going to gain a lot of weight,

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<v Speaker 4>shit ton. I could get like prices, I can get

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<v Speaker 4>like a vampire facial member. I've been talking about it.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm talk about a vat talking about vampire a year,

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<v Speaker 3>and then yesterday she brought it up again.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, bitch, when are you getting it?

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<v Speaker 5>It's like eight hundred dollars, so no time soon.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, do you give me to buy your

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<v Speaker 4>face because I until the ships on group on bitch,

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<v Speaker 4>I ain't getting enough to over bitch or no, is

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<v Speaker 4>it like Booker?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh yeah, because you told me it was another one

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<v Speaker 5>and that's the lot Okay.

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<v Speaker 4>But mostly the other insecurities that I'm trying to work

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<v Speaker 4>on are having flashbacks, like of comparing myself to other

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<v Speaker 4>women because you ain't shit and and because that's.

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<v Speaker 5>Unnecessary and it's it's it's mental.

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<v Speaker 4>And even just like being defensive getting flashbacks, I'm trying

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<v Speaker 4>to run every time someone like remotely reprimands me getting jealous,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, just like I just have to like think

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<v Speaker 4>to myself, like is it really that serious?

1:17:44.320 --> 1:17:46.800
<v Speaker 5>And bitch, you need to stop myself.

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<v Speaker 4>Bitch relax And you're not gonna have big sick size

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<v Speaker 4>and a fake ass or big tips.

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<v Speaker 5>That's not your body type. Get over it. Who because

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<v Speaker 5>who's into skinny women? It's going to be into me,

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<v Speaker 5>you know. But if they ain't they and men can

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<v Speaker 5>have many types.

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<v Speaker 4>You know. You can like Erica and you can like me,

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<v Speaker 4>and you can like Betty for next door, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>So I mean it's just mostly like self love, I think,

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<v Speaker 4>and like constantly reminding myself like I'm good as I

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<v Speaker 4>am and things that I'm you know, and not being

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<v Speaker 4>defensive and taking oh again, the four agreements, not taking

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<v Speaker 4>things personal.

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<v Speaker 1>That's you.

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<v Speaker 4>It's another part of the book specifically, it says, even

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<v Speaker 4>if somebody calls you fat, it's not you. They're projecting

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<v Speaker 4>on you. They're trying to make you feel bad. And

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<v Speaker 4>if you let them make you feel bad, you're agreeing

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<v Speaker 4>to those terms, and I'm just like, I'm not going

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<v Speaker 4>to agree to that. You want to see what everyone

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<v Speaker 4>about me cool, I'm not agreeing to it. I'm not

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<v Speaker 4>taking it personal. That's you the fact that you feel

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<v Speaker 4>like they need to point it out to me. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>still not taking it personally, because that's some short ideal

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<v Speaker 4>within yourself.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, how about you, that's a big one.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, because I do take things personally all the time.

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<v Speaker 3>I think I'm still figuring that that out. I think

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<v Speaker 3>some things I've been able to work through and just

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<v Speaker 3>talk myself through. Some things I've just cut out. Like

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<v Speaker 3>if you start making me feel this way like m

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<v Speaker 3>I'm just gonna cut you. And maybe that's not the

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<v Speaker 3>best Maybe that's not the best practice because maybe I'm

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<v Speaker 3>not fully facing it and dealing with it.

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<v Speaker 4>But sometimes I'm just like, you don't want to date

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<v Speaker 4>anybody who's bringing out like negative things or making you

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<v Speaker 4>second guess yourself. That's not a relation.

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<v Speaker 5>Why it just feels like this is not serving me.

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<v Speaker 3>And I don't mean that in a selfish way, but

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<v Speaker 3>I do in a selfish way.

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<v Speaker 4>And she'd be.

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<v Speaker 3>I think I think physically that my physical things. It's

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<v Speaker 3>a work in progress, you know. I mean I went

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<v Speaker 3>to therapy not just for physical insecurity, it's just for

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<v Speaker 3>like life shit. But it's something we've talked about, and

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<v Speaker 3>you know, she's at first she would tell me like, okay,

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<v Speaker 3>touch your body and look in the mirror and talk

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<v Speaker 3>to your body.

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<v Speaker 4>And she made me do it in front of her,

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<v Speaker 4>and I was like, this is so funny, weird. No, no,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just gonna first because imagine you're looking yourself in

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<v Speaker 4>the mirror and talk to your talk to yourself, And

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<v Speaker 4>isn't it hard. It's so weird. It's so weird being

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<v Speaker 4>with her doing it. And then it was even almost

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<v Speaker 4>weirder by myself because what's making you do it?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, and are things that like to praise yourself aloud?

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<v Speaker 4>So is weird.

1:20:14.920 --> 1:20:16.840
<v Speaker 3>And she's like, you fucking talk shit to yourself all

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<v Speaker 3>mother fucking day your head, So like what's the different.

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<v Speaker 3>Just humor yourself and talk some good ship and maybe

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<v Speaker 3>you'll believe it because you believe all those shit that

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<v Speaker 3>isn't true, you know, And like I know that that's true.

1:20:28.479 --> 1:20:31.599
<v Speaker 3>And I have seen a change of course, there's still

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<v Speaker 3>times where I'm like, no, bitch, that stomach just is weack,

1:20:35.960 --> 1:20:37.960
<v Speaker 3>Like I don't care how many times you rub over

1:20:38.040 --> 1:20:40.439
<v Speaker 3>it and say it's precious and flat and hard, bitch,

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<v Speaker 3>it's not a baby.

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<v Speaker 5>But then but then I think that too.

1:20:44.920 --> 1:20:47.960
<v Speaker 4>I try to and I have, I mean, I try.

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<v Speaker 3>To have to figure out different angles to embrace it more.

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<v Speaker 3>And that's one of the ones that I feel like

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<v Speaker 3>has been the strongest. Made me feel the strongest, is

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<v Speaker 3>that like, no, this is like the house of life

1:20:58.600 --> 1:21:00.040
<v Speaker 3>and there ain't no comparing.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, you know so, and you know also like

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<v Speaker 4>and I stop in my.

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<v Speaker 5>Whole game, so I never stopped. I never stopped it.

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<v Speaker 5>So I'm gonna try that.

1:21:10.240 --> 1:21:11.960
<v Speaker 4>But I'm gonna try looking at myself and make in

1:21:12.000 --> 1:21:14.920
<v Speaker 4>the mirror and like talking positively. Yeah, like she was

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<v Speaker 4>like you tout your thighs and be like, I love

1:21:17.200 --> 1:21:20.720
<v Speaker 4>my thighs. They're soft, they're strong, they walk like they

1:21:20.800 --> 1:21:26.160
<v Speaker 4>get me places like but you know, yeah, like one's

1:21:26.240 --> 1:21:32.080
<v Speaker 4>legs walk. Yeah, you be grateful. Yeah, just like I'm sexy,

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<v Speaker 4>like and just keep saying I'm sexy. I love this body.

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<v Speaker 4>It's sexy and sexy and it feels weird as fuck,

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<v Speaker 4>but until it doesn't feel weird doing but who cares?

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<v Speaker 4>Still keep doing it, you know exactly, So like, that's

1:21:42.840 --> 1:21:44.760
<v Speaker 4>that's something that I that I do from time to time,

1:21:44.960 --> 1:21:47.720
<v Speaker 4>to be programming yourself exactly, that's exactly what it is,

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<v Speaker 4>and that's it's important. And then I don't know, girl, Yeah,

1:21:52.560 --> 1:21:54.400
<v Speaker 4>I mean just shit, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>Sometimes I feel like I'm failing it most of the time,

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<v Speaker 3>but I'm trying.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm trying. There's a there'd be ship you have never

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<v Speaker 4>noticed your whole thirty or however many years of life

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<v Speaker 4>and someone else will brings some.

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<v Speaker 5>Shady be like are you fucked? No, I don't think

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<v Speaker 5>about that.

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<v Speaker 4>She too weird my shoulder? I have you got a beard?

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<v Speaker 1>Bitch?

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<v Speaker 4>Like oh number seventy to So I was gonna be

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<v Speaker 4>something that somebody doesn't like. So love your whole self period.

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<v Speaker 4>So we have a hory and is a continuation of

1:22:30.080 --> 1:22:35.000
<v Speaker 4>our guest of our our mur DM listener because after

1:22:35.200 --> 1:22:40.200
<v Speaker 4>we spoke to her on Instagram DM FaceTime, she apparently

1:22:40.200 --> 1:22:41.880
<v Speaker 4>she was on the way to see her a guy. Yeah,

1:22:41.880 --> 1:22:44.439
<v Speaker 4>because we encourage her, We're like, girl today, try to

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<v Speaker 4>go worse. Just try to wear sandals.

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<v Speaker 5>Just try to wear something where your toes are shown,

1:22:48.000 --> 1:22:48.840
<v Speaker 5>and just like go.

1:22:48.760 --> 1:22:49.400
<v Speaker 4>Out the house.

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<v Speaker 3>So she messaged us and she said, and it's a

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<v Speaker 3>horri because it's kind of a horror story, like not

1:22:55.680 --> 1:22:58.719
<v Speaker 3>like not good like scary, like scary hole horror, horror,

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<v Speaker 3>not horror, it's horror horror.

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<v Speaker 4>More, this is very scarien like h O R R

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<v Speaker 4>O R.

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<v Speaker 5>To clarify, Okay, okay, good day girls.

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<v Speaker 3>I went over there in my slides, I had on socks,

1:23:13.880 --> 1:23:16.840
<v Speaker 3>but I didn't let the feet bother me. And when

1:23:16.920 --> 1:23:19.120
<v Speaker 3>he's and when he went in for the oral sex,

1:23:19.400 --> 1:23:22.320
<v Speaker 3>I let him slide my likings right off along with

1:23:22.360 --> 1:23:24.880
<v Speaker 3>my socks. Now that's progress.

1:23:25.080 --> 1:23:28.040
<v Speaker 5>Sucks all calves. Exclamation mark, exclamation.

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<v Speaker 4>Mark, Thank you so much.

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<v Speaker 3>Now, had I known his oral and dick gang was

1:23:32.920 --> 1:23:35.000
<v Speaker 3>so whack, I wouldn't have spent a second on that

1:23:35.040 --> 1:23:36.559
<v Speaker 3>mental strain about my feet.

1:23:37.600 --> 1:23:40.280
<v Speaker 4>How does the six three foot man have a little dick?

1:23:40.800 --> 1:23:43.160
<v Speaker 3>And how do you get to be forty one and

1:23:43.320 --> 1:23:44.479
<v Speaker 3>don't know how to eat the cooch?

1:23:46.040 --> 1:23:48.280
<v Speaker 4>Girl? That is a horror story.

1:23:48.560 --> 1:23:52.320
<v Speaker 5>That's I've been in. That horror story I've been in.

1:23:52.360 --> 1:23:54.880
<v Speaker 4>That is that a two I've been in that one, okay,

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<v Speaker 4>and it's what the fucking fuck? I remember the discovery

1:23:58.400 --> 1:24:02.880
<v Speaker 4>of why are you sixty? This little ass stick? So

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<v Speaker 4>to say, the least stereotypes are like fake and you

1:24:07.360 --> 1:24:10.439
<v Speaker 4>know that's probably insecurity of his and if it was,

1:24:10.520 --> 1:24:12.000
<v Speaker 4>then nigga, you better know how to eat the Cohi,

1:24:12.120 --> 1:24:18.439
<v Speaker 4>you better love, you better love be prime time top

1:24:18.680 --> 1:24:20.040
<v Speaker 4>notnch cushy. Ear.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So if you're a guy listening and you know we

1:24:24.280 --> 1:24:26.000
<v Speaker 4>can't all help, but begin, like I said, this is

1:24:26.000 --> 1:24:28.799
<v Speaker 4>the body I got. Let's not you know, some guys,

1:24:28.840 --> 1:24:31.040
<v Speaker 4>it doesn't matter. It's the emotion of the ocean, not

1:24:31.160 --> 1:24:33.120
<v Speaker 4>the size that matters. And it's true, and it's also

1:24:33.160 --> 1:24:37.000
<v Speaker 4>the works of your mouth more specifically, it does. There

1:24:37.040 --> 1:24:40.799
<v Speaker 4>is a whole species, let me just be clear, a big, tall,

1:24:41.120 --> 1:24:43.799
<v Speaker 4>burly men with little dicks.

1:24:44.040 --> 1:24:46.479
<v Speaker 5>Okay, shack, oh shack.

1:24:46.800 --> 1:24:50.720
<v Speaker 4>I mean I don't know that personally. Everybody everybody she

1:24:51.240 --> 1:24:52.360
<v Speaker 4>carean Stefan.

1:24:55.320 --> 1:24:56.040
<v Speaker 5>Anyway knows her.

1:24:56.120 --> 1:24:56.640
<v Speaker 4>Can you call us?

1:24:56.640 --> 1:25:00.639
<v Speaker 5>I would really like to talk to you. But but yeah,

1:25:00.640 --> 1:25:02.200
<v Speaker 5>it's a whole species, this epidemic.

1:25:02.320 --> 1:25:04.880
<v Speaker 4>And I'm a lot of black men too, So don't

1:25:04.920 --> 1:25:07.080
<v Speaker 4>get a twists black guys have small dicks too, sure,

1:25:07.720 --> 1:25:09.680
<v Speaker 4>and white guys have big dicks, and you know it

1:25:09.680 --> 1:25:10.960
<v Speaker 4>goes a lot of whites. I don't have a lot

1:25:10.960 --> 1:25:14.479
<v Speaker 4>of experience in any other ones outside and oh there's

1:25:14.520 --> 1:25:17.080
<v Speaker 4>also species of short man with big penis with safe

1:25:17.080 --> 1:25:18.800
<v Speaker 4>piances and that is more like a win.

1:25:19.000 --> 1:25:20.880
<v Speaker 5>Like you open up a small treasure, you're like, ah,

1:25:20.880 --> 1:25:22.320
<v Speaker 5>it's a million dollars.

1:25:22.800 --> 1:25:27.800
<v Speaker 4>I did not there was a corner. That's a nice one,

1:25:28.160 --> 1:25:30.679
<v Speaker 4>but forty one and not knowing how to give head

1:25:30.920 --> 1:25:35.599
<v Speaker 4>concerns me. That is no bueno, sir, What the fuck

1:25:35.760 --> 1:25:39.040
<v Speaker 4>that is? And if you're like a girl man, if

1:25:39.040 --> 1:25:42.160
<v Speaker 4>you're like over twenty five and you're like not one

1:25:42.200 --> 1:25:46.120
<v Speaker 4>thousand percent sure about your head game, you need to practice.

1:25:46.200 --> 1:25:49.639
<v Speaker 4>You absolutely need to watch some videos or like take

1:25:49.640 --> 1:25:53.559
<v Speaker 4>a grapefruit and practice on orange, whatever you need to do.

1:25:53.840 --> 1:25:55.880
<v Speaker 4>And you need to listen into next week's episode or

1:25:55.920 --> 1:25:58.000
<v Speaker 4>just eat somekoucie and you get the real practice in

1:25:58.280 --> 1:25:59.360
<v Speaker 4>because we know a guy.

1:25:59.560 --> 1:26:02.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah yeah, and listen to next week's episode. You definitely

1:26:02.400 --> 1:26:07.160
<v Speaker 3>don't want to miss next week's episode. We have a specially.

1:26:07.240 --> 1:26:12.599
<v Speaker 4>Two amazing guests on who are going to educate us

1:26:13.000 --> 1:26:19.200
<v Speaker 4>on everything sex. Yeah, and so much fact, so much more.

1:26:19.240 --> 1:26:22.280
<v Speaker 3>You can get some tips. Oh yeah, you will benefit.

1:26:22.360 --> 1:26:25.040
<v Speaker 3>You will be tipped out, tipped.

1:26:24.680 --> 1:26:28.120
<v Speaker 4>Out, and you might want to tune in. I'm just

1:26:28.120 --> 1:26:31.120
<v Speaker 4>gonna leave it there. I wanna leave it there because

1:26:31.240 --> 1:26:33.760
<v Speaker 4>can you. Yeah, I mean, I'm at thirty. I know

1:26:33.880 --> 1:26:37.360
<v Speaker 4>my oral all my sex skills are strong. I don't

1:26:37.400 --> 1:26:40.599
<v Speaker 4>even guess. I mean, I can always grow, but yeah,

1:26:41.240 --> 1:26:42.840
<v Speaker 4>but I'm confident. I'm confident too.

1:26:42.960 --> 1:26:45.160
<v Speaker 5>I'm very confident, almost too confident.

1:26:45.760 --> 1:26:47.439
<v Speaker 4>It's like, oh, what's you? What are you good at?

1:26:47.520 --> 1:26:47.720
<v Speaker 1>Well?

1:26:50.960 --> 1:26:58.400
<v Speaker 4>Have you heard as a backworld's cowgirl? I'm I'm just

1:26:58.760 --> 1:27:01.160
<v Speaker 4>tony kind of, but mostly I'm telling the truth.

1:27:02.520 --> 1:27:05.080
<v Speaker 1>No, Oh my god.

1:27:05.160 --> 1:27:10.680
<v Speaker 3>Well, anyway, thanks for tuning in to our Insecure episode.

1:27:10.840 --> 1:27:15.280
<v Speaker 4>Thank you for your your submission. You're asking for advice

1:27:15.400 --> 1:27:19.280
<v Speaker 4>and following through with it. It's step one. You're making progress, girl,

1:27:19.479 --> 1:27:22.040
<v Speaker 4>And let's everybody talk to ourselves in the mirror tonight,

1:27:22.520 --> 1:27:25.200
<v Speaker 4>and you know, tell our body how healthy and beautiful

1:27:25.200 --> 1:27:27.280
<v Speaker 4>and sexy it is. It is, because it is, and

1:27:27.320 --> 1:27:29.360
<v Speaker 4>maybe even masturbate do it.

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<v Speaker 3>I've been trying to encourage Jamila to masturbate more, and

1:27:32.760 --> 1:27:35.360
<v Speaker 3>I try, but then I feel like I like I've

1:27:35.400 --> 1:27:37.880
<v Speaker 3>come prematurely, like I'm embarrassed, I feel like I have

1:27:37.920 --> 1:27:41.000
<v Speaker 3>some issues. Well, you just gotta keep doing it. It

1:27:41.040 --> 1:27:43.360
<v Speaker 3>means you're feeling yourself. You come and prematurely, shit, you

1:27:43.400 --> 1:27:45.880
<v Speaker 3>turn yourself all the way on real, real quick. It's

1:27:46.320 --> 1:27:48.840
<v Speaker 3>it's not like that kind of premature. It's like I'm

1:27:48.840 --> 1:27:51.920
<v Speaker 3>like almost gonna come, but then you have to relax.

1:27:52.040 --> 1:27:53.439
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I just have to give in.

1:27:53.560 --> 1:27:56.200
<v Speaker 3>And actually, honestly, I've had some of the best orgasms

1:27:56.240 --> 1:27:56.799
<v Speaker 3>by myself.

1:27:56.960 --> 1:27:59.400
<v Speaker 4>I can't believe I'm thirty, the biggest ones. But really,

1:28:00.439 --> 1:28:02.960
<v Speaker 4>are you like, because I'm sorry, are you inserting? Are

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<v Speaker 4>you just clatural stimulation?

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<v Speaker 10>Both?

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<v Speaker 3>Really, it could be either one. Mostly it has to be.

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<v Speaker 3>It either has to be clatural and internal or just clatural.

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<v Speaker 3>It's usually nice. Just only just internal is when I

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<v Speaker 3>actually have a real penis inside of me, right, and

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<v Speaker 3>it's like, you know, the warmth and it's the whole deal.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, well I need to work on it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, but if you don't feel like masturbating, just touch

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<v Speaker 3>your body and tell it nice things, embrace it and

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<v Speaker 3>love it, and it's gonna feel weird, but fuck it.

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<v Speaker 4>Who cares even tell your face nice things too. So

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<v Speaker 4>everything you're so, you're so your spirit.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, because that's that's difficult too.

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<v Speaker 4>Sometimes sometimes I'm like in the mirror, I'm trying to

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<v Speaker 4>tell informations because I know I'm supposed to.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't believe them. Then I don't know what to say.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like, what else? You're smart, you're nice, You're bound.

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<v Speaker 4>I should have wrote this down.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, well like you said.

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<v Speaker 4>It next week, we love you, all right, I'm just playing.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember when I used to have a crush you

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<v Speaker 2>on special led shout out designer, because you made it

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<v Speaker 2>down a special lead. You want to fuck me and

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<v Speaker 2>you gotta get some special headed because this pussy had

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<v Speaker 2>these niggas on some special.

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<v Speaker 4>Meds, like Mike Tyson.

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<v Speaker 2>He was biking my ship talking about Yo, why you

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<v Speaker 2>got these niggas biking this ship on the rail. Lets

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<v Speaker 2>you make these niggas scrap for the pussy young and man,

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<v Speaker 2>lady luck get the strap of this pussy. And now

1:29:36.080 --> 1:29:38.639
<v Speaker 2>what the hell of Bell Beckel bringing the cake till

1:29:38.720 --> 1:29:41.000
<v Speaker 2>I saw him hopping out of cars dancing the drake.

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<v Speaker 2>I've been a five star bitch man. Word to Gotti

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna do that nigga future dirty work to Scotti

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<v Speaker 2>had to cancel.

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<v Speaker 4>DJ called, boy, we ain't speaking.

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<v Speaker 2>Ain't no fat nigga telling me what he ain't eating.

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<v Speaker 4>White g in the game with.

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<v Speaker 2>The hem of yelling gang gang the same what I

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<v Speaker 2>meant when I said a gang bang takashi want to

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<v Speaker 2>Menaja said, Grayway cursed him and went to kimm KHN

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<v Speaker 2>Gateway and Captain Bobby dream House. Then you can play

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<v Speaker 2>the park. I ain't trying to bust it open in

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<v Speaker 2>the trailer park. I'm just playing.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm just playing