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Speaker 3: I roun me to be on g.

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Speaker 4: Classic shit.

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Speaker 2: I'm looking for a nigga to give some baby's a

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Speaker 2: handful of louise. He sprinkle of day, best man. I

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Speaker 2: ain't got no type like Jimmy and Swaye Lee's. But

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Speaker 2: if he can't fuck three times a night, I tried

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Speaker 2: to fuck fifty for a powerful hour. But don't let

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Speaker 2: a nigga want to do is talk power for hours.

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Speaker 1: The pussy up.

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Speaker 4: Make sure it's the kyo.

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Speaker 2: Step your banks up like you're moving at ye yo.

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Speaker 2: Somebody going make sure cuchi oke though I heard she

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Speaker 2: think I'm trying to get a kouchi to Quavo. They

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Speaker 2: always want to beat it up, coon up the pussy man.

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Speaker 2: Maybe I should let him or to tune up the pussy.

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Speaker 4: All these baid.

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Speaker 2: Wild challenge niggas lying and shit. Many steady white niggas

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Speaker 2: say tying my shit drink with a hundred million Yoi's

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Speaker 2: fining me shit. But I don't know if the pussy

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Speaker 2: by door, if he crying and shit me still be

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Speaker 2: in my DMS, I'd be having the dubleum. I used

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Speaker 2: to pray for tomes like this man who's here is

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Speaker 2: my baby. He ain't taking the hel but he took it.

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Speaker 2: Linda Ridley when I said, go to hell, used to

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Speaker 2: fuck with young thug guy dressing the ship, going to

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Speaker 2: mind my dressing room still and dressing and ship. I

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Speaker 2: used to get this nigga with the list of tested

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Speaker 2: and ship. How you want the puffy can't say yours

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Speaker 2: and ship.

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Speaker 1: Baptists.

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Speaker 4: I'm just like, welcome bye, good mom's bad choices. It's

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Speaker 4: Nila and Erica and we're back.

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Speaker 5: Yes, we are looking rough as fun.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, we uploaded one video to our private that's not

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Speaker 3: even private, are you to the count that no one

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Speaker 3: knows about because we've only uploaded.

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Speaker 4: But I just want to give an update that we

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Speaker 4: do have one video live. We won't post it yet, but.

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Speaker 5: It's there. That's there, and it's gonna be. We're making progress.

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Speaker 5: There's gonna be a couple of some coming out there.

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Speaker 4: We're gonna go just do it slowly, but really we're

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Speaker 4: just gonna upload them and then they'll all be there eventually. Yeah,

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Speaker 4: there's like ten This one, however, that we're recording right now.

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Speaker 4: This is some real mom realness because we don't love

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Speaker 4: this so hot. I'm not gonnat like. We even had

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Speaker 4: the nerve to do it on selfie mooe so we

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Speaker 4: could see ourselves.

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Speaker 3: I'm just trying to make my hair look bigger so

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Speaker 3: it distracts from what's happening below the hair.

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Speaker 4: It's pretty tragic, but I had a rough day and

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Speaker 4: this is what I look like.

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Speaker 5: And it's it's nine and so fuck you.

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Speaker 3: I just kind of late and my kid at school tomorrow,

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Speaker 3: So let's get this happen.

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Speaker 4: How was your week? It has been good. I went

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Speaker 4: out this weekend. I told you guys last episode, I

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Speaker 5: So it was my friend's birthday. Did did they talk

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Speaker 4: No? Yeah, it just happened. And usually I'm the wasted one.

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Speaker 4: But then like now I've been somber and they are

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Speaker 4: club again, get us together, And my friends are like, bitch,

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Speaker 4: your nipples are always out even when you're not drunk.

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Speaker 4: I know, I know I have. Yeah, So yeah, I

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Speaker 4: guess I was making a hypocrite, but I was like, oh,

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Speaker 4: this really makes me not want.

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Speaker 5: To drink so much.

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Speaker 4: These bitches are wasted.

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Speaker 3: Well, people become very annoying when they're drunk, yes, and

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Speaker 3: when you're not noticed, you're just like, oh my god.

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Speaker 4: Also, we went into Lila. We talked about this like

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Speaker 4: way before me and Erica went there. It's super bougie

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Speaker 4: for those of you who don't live in the LA area,

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Speaker 4: so bouge.

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Speaker 5: All the like celebrities go there.

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Speaker 4: They have like dancers that look like roaring twenties break

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Speaker 4: assy just like walking around stone Face. Basically all the

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Speaker 4: employees are stone Face because everybody Alian is a bitch,

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Speaker 4: even if they're in customer service and they're under twenty three,

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Speaker 4: and they basically try to make us move after like

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Speaker 4: they said, we didn't call them hint our reservation.

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Speaker 5: I was really fucking annoyed.

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Speaker 4: Dinner was six hundred fucking dollars.

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Speaker 6: And they're made us And then we were with one

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Speaker 4: She was like, I am a yelp elite and I'm good,

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Speaker 4: And the manager, straight faced as fuck, said I could

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Speaker 4: give a rat ass about Yelp because if you guys

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Speaker 4: know La No, Yeah, that first of all, never have

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Speaker 4: I ever heard anyone go to a club and be

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Speaker 4: I'm a Yelp Elite member. You know what that means.

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Speaker 4: I'm here because I found it on Yelp.

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Speaker 3: And but you know what, I think people that are

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Speaker 3: Yelp Elite members, they get perks in certain places, so

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Speaker 3: they start filming themselves because they'll go to some restaurants

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Speaker 4: And then okay, so then we went to another club,

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Speaker 5: So I was in the club like I feel like

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Speaker 4: Can't see, So I feel like our rhythm was off

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Speaker 4: And then it was just when if you wear contacts

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Speaker 5: Plus my friends titting yourself.

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Speaker 4: She was drunk.

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Speaker 5: I was like, I am too bright, just so sober

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I was like, oh my god, what about here?

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Speaker 4: What did you do?

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Speaker 5: I had a weird week.

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Speaker 4: I feel like all week I was just feeling really weird,

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Speaker 4: like I felt very needy. I feel better now. It's crazy,

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Speaker 4: like a few days does. Because I was going through

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Speaker 4: some shit. I was feeling really neat, I was feeling

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Speaker 3: And I mean, I know like where some of it

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Speaker 4: I swear like there's like I don't know if they're.

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Speaker 3: All still there, but like six different planets were in retrograde,

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Speaker 3: I was talking to this week was talent were telling

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Speaker 3: me like I'm like, do you feel grasmy?

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Speaker 4: And yeah, do you feel crazy? Because I feel crazy.

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Speaker 3: It was just like an overwhelming I think I think

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Speaker 3: so many people just were feeling it, not just me.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it's it's been an interesting week.

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Speaker 4: It' is't that weird? How like you can wake up

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Speaker 4: and it's just like what.

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Speaker 5: The fuck consistency here?

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Speaker 3: I mean I definitely I gradually had to like make

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Speaker 4: I think we're definitely contributing to how I was feeling.

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Speaker 4: I was also feeling really tired.

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Speaker 3: But you can hear it. GM is recommending me touching

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Speaker 3: my necklace. She apparently she's a sound.

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Speaker 4: Sound mixer.

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Speaker 5: You know, we got the airplanes going by. The keys

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Speaker 5: in the bag were only just like next ship anyway, Chase.

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Speaker 3: I yeah, So I had to make some changes that

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Speaker 3: and I started to feel better, but I know that

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Speaker 3: universe was just draining me.

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Speaker 7: Yes, man, Okay, be careful, be careful, okay, okay, thank you.

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Speaker 4: Oh my god, my child is like someone's auntie auntie.

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Speaker 5: I said, you said be careful.

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Speaker 4: I'm saying no, she's not jumping on. So yeah, that

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Speaker 3: But in that in the midst of all of that

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Speaker 4: I needed male attention, and I don't know what that

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Speaker 5: Did you get it or you just speaking? Were you successful?

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Speaker 3: But like I guess I sort of was in one

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Speaker 3: But you just ever have those like one of those

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Speaker 3: I don't mean like work, I just mean like I know,

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Speaker 3: I just felt defeated. Oh, You're not defeated. I know,

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Speaker 3: with my life. I've ever am I ever gonna?

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Speaker 5: I'm so unhappy, and I'm like, I'm not I'm actually

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Speaker 4: I'm not unhappy. I just feel weird today. Yeah, sometimes

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Speaker 5: It was like five days.

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Speaker 4: But yeah, but a for a while, I was like,

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Speaker 4: But yeah, that's my emo. Last week. I'm emotional, so

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Speaker 4: I know that's my emo. Last week.

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Speaker 3: I feel like something could happened, but I can't remember

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Speaker 3: because I'm emo.

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Speaker 4: I can't literally not think past Like yesterday, I'm like, Saturday,

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Speaker 4: what I do? I don't want to fuck I remember? Well, Yeah,

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Speaker 4: I don't know what yesterday.

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Speaker 5: Yestually were productive.

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Speaker 4: We were so productive gym. I got a smoothie, we

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Speaker 4: went to the office, we got notepads and ship we

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Speaker 4: got like five emails completed.

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Speaker 5: It was the most productive thing we've done.

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Speaker 3: Every uploaded video we uploaded the video, we edited it,

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Speaker 3: we edited, we had together. Oh man, okay, And they

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Speaker 3: were like that took a lot out of me, especially

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Speaker 3: with the week I had.

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Speaker 4: I felt like exhausted after that. I can hardly take

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Speaker 4: saying we must have been working. We would to take

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Speaker 4: the kids in the park.

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Speaker 5: Oh my god, I had a client.

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Speaker 3: And there's another one called rich Sex with Little Wayne,

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Speaker 4: is like stripper culture.

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Speaker 4: I like his new salt. No, I can't even lie.

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Speaker 4: She doesn't even leave herself. Yeah, so it's not believable

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Speaker 4: Then she was talking about Mexicans and her tweets. It

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Speaker 4: What?

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Speaker 5: No, don't don't touch Aretha even death.

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Speaker 4: Oh. I was like, I'm no pop culture genius.

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Speaker 4: This bitch. Don't put fourteen years on her. Damn.

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Speaker 5: Breaking news Trump to an asshole.

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Speaker 4: Okay, the forty ninth week in his entire pregnancy, which

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Speaker 4: Do I think everything he says is racist? I mean

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Speaker 4: Is it real racist? I mean I was fucking I mean,

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Speaker 4: and then, uh, what the fuck is her name? Amerosa? Girl?

440
00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:47,040
Speaker 4: God girl, we ain't reclaimed?

441
00:21:47,160 --> 00:21:49,440
Speaker 5: We a You still can't come to the cookout?

442
00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:51,399
Speaker 4: No, you absolutely can't.

443
00:21:51,760 --> 00:21:54,320
Speaker 5: You and Kanye can go kick fucking rocks.

444
00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:57,000
Speaker 4: Did you see that? Did you see that? Someone was?

445
00:21:57,040 --> 00:21:59,439
Speaker 3: Like Kanye tweeted like in response to remember when he

446
00:21:59,440 --> 00:22:01,479
Speaker 3: was on jermy fan and he didn't know what to say. Yeah,

447
00:22:01,560 --> 00:22:04,280
Speaker 3: when people asked him like how after everything that Donald

448
00:22:04,320 --> 00:22:06,760
Speaker 3: Trump has done, like can you like support him or

449
00:22:06,800 --> 00:22:09,119
Speaker 3: like basically like you, oh the travel band, you have

450
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Speaker 3: children like.

451
00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:12,960
Speaker 4: You famously said the statement George Verus doesn't care about

452
00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:15,200
Speaker 4: black people. You obviously acknowledged, and we kind of expected

453
00:22:15,240 --> 00:22:18,639
Speaker 4: you to not take you know, fucking the you know,

454
00:22:20,480 --> 00:22:24,719
Speaker 4: not support Yeah, the Sunken Place roll, and he had

455
00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:25,240
Speaker 4: nothing to say.

456
00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:27,200
Speaker 3: Oh, then in his tweet he said, you know this

457
00:22:27,280 --> 00:22:29,919
Speaker 3: is live TV, like you as you saw, Like I

458
00:22:30,040 --> 00:22:32,560
Speaker 3: was processing what I was going to think and what

459
00:22:32,600 --> 00:22:34,760
Speaker 3: I was going to say, and then they cut to

460
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Speaker 3: a commercial break, so I didn't even get to say

461
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Speaker 3: what I wanted to say. I shout out to the

462
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Speaker 3: Jimmy Fallon team, you guys are classy, blah blah blah nigga.

463
00:22:42,359 --> 00:22:45,280
Speaker 4: Then you're gonna answer a question, So so what do

464
00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:48,560
Speaker 4: you said that? Furthermore, Mom, you're talking about processing a question.

465
00:22:48,560 --> 00:22:52,040
Speaker 4: There's many questions I wish you had processed and that process.

466
00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:54,360
Speaker 4: If you can't answer that question that quickly, then why

467
00:22:54,359 --> 00:22:55,920
Speaker 4: aren't we even supporting this person?

468
00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:56,560
Speaker 5: Exactly?

469
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Speaker 4: You obviously didn't think about all this shit right before

470
00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:02,760
Speaker 4: you endorsed him, and he's literally taking fucking kids from

471
00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,800
Speaker 4: their parents because they're not American quote unquote. That is

472
00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:09,120
Speaker 4: racist as fun. And if you've got to think about that,

473
00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:17,080
Speaker 4: you think you don't need to think at all. Yeah,

474
00:23:17,119 --> 00:23:18,040
Speaker 4: did you watch Insecure?

475
00:23:18,920 --> 00:23:21,760
Speaker 5: Yes, yes, you know, I watched it.

476
00:23:21,800 --> 00:23:22,960
Speaker 4: I watched it.

477
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Speaker 7: Huh why did you spill water?

478
00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:36,600
Speaker 4: Did you sell water on the floor? Why? What? Oh

479
00:23:36,640 --> 00:23:40,680
Speaker 4: my god, we're gonna take a quick break because there's

480
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Speaker 4: water on the floor.

481
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Speaker 1: Yeah, we're back.

482
00:24:00,119 --> 00:24:02,200
Speaker 4: Our kid is playing with an umbrella outside the house.

483
00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:05,760
Speaker 4: Probably dangerous, but this is like the forties. We don't

484
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:08,160
Speaker 4: have three episodes, but the tenth episode, we're like, don't

485
00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:10,400
Speaker 4: work with the umbrella. I stop playing with umbrella. It's not safe.

486
00:24:10,840 --> 00:24:13,320
Speaker 4: Every week they play with the fucking up. Wish you

487
00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:18,399
Speaker 4: had it? Yeah, yeah, yeah, iriate.

488
00:24:19,560 --> 00:24:23,000
Speaker 3: She's running through the house with the umbrella like she's married, poppin'.

489
00:24:23,760 --> 00:24:26,440
Speaker 4: Wait, Iri, they're gonna do like a dcase and we're

490
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:28,160
Speaker 4: gonna be mute, but you're married your kids.

491
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Speaker 8: Put that umbrella down. Put it, Put the umbrella down. No,

492
00:24:35,240 --> 00:24:38,520
Speaker 8: we're playing with the umbrella anyway.

493
00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:39,879
Speaker 4: I tell a point. You just give up.

494
00:24:42,560 --> 00:24:48,320
Speaker 3: Oh hell yeah, Insecure season premiere, Season three, Season three premiere.

495
00:24:49,440 --> 00:24:55,520
Speaker 3: Everybody a bunch of Insecure, right if you don't catch up.

496
00:24:56,560 --> 00:24:58,960
Speaker 4: It's so good. It's so good, it's funny as hell,

497
00:24:59,080 --> 00:25:02,399
Speaker 4: it's related. I just love it. It's just because it

498
00:25:02,480 --> 00:25:04,800
Speaker 4: just feels like, you know, real conversations that you have

499
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:05,520
Speaker 4: with your friends.

500
00:25:06,160 --> 00:25:07,280
Speaker 5: So it's quality writing.

501
00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:09,560
Speaker 4: So it's a really good TV show. It's super.

502
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:11,640
Speaker 5: Honest.

503
00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:16,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, and there's definitely some zaddies on the show.

504
00:25:16,320 --> 00:25:18,760
Speaker 4: Zaddies with their asses fully.

505
00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:20,040
Speaker 5: Out and they're fully boiled.

506
00:25:20,760 --> 00:25:25,359
Speaker 4: Damn, Oh my gosh, there's worn. Oh no, it's just

507
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:31,919
Speaker 4: sitch you. I don't know. I don't want to rut it,

508
00:25:31,960 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 4: Like what if people haven't seen it. You haven't seen it,

509
00:25:34,520 --> 00:25:38,119
Speaker 4: then you're late. You're late, so you have free days.

510
00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:42,240
Speaker 4: I hit the fifteen skip button real quick, wish mute now,

511
00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:45,679
Speaker 4: I mean, I think it already happens. The production of

512
00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:48,960
Speaker 4: this this season looks very classy, very high quality, beautiful.

513
00:25:49,119 --> 00:25:51,640
Speaker 4: I love the fight and the O in the lift.

514
00:25:51,880 --> 00:25:54,879
Speaker 4: That was funny. Ship and the like ten niggas like

515
00:25:54,960 --> 00:26:01,320
Speaker 4: fat one to I know, that's so funny, he says

516
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:02,200
Speaker 4: new love interresses.

517
00:26:02,359 --> 00:26:06,119
Speaker 5: Boy, do we know who's a love interest.

518
00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:11,160
Speaker 4: Yet you can tell, yeah, he didn't tip for fifty dollars.

519
00:26:11,680 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 4: I wouldn't write a show, so I can just write

520
00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:18,080
Speaker 4: and fine niggas like, no, babe, I haven't cheated, it's

521
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:22,399
Speaker 4: the show. No, I just need to make out with him.

522
00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:24,119
Speaker 5: Because it was written in my show.

523
00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:27,439
Speaker 4: I just wrote that part, but it was just for

524
00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:30,359
Speaker 4: the show. Everybody said I should keep it and cast

525
00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:35,320
Speaker 4: this finance interest. Right the fuck. He might have put

526
00:26:35,320 --> 00:26:37,600
Speaker 4: the tip in, but it's for the show. We're paying

527
00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:44,120
Speaker 4: the bills. Not to self write a show. Seriously, Oh

528
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Speaker 4: my god, because yeah, yeah, lots of flying point men. Okay,

529
00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:53,320
Speaker 4: so Daniel's saying on Daniel's couch, could you say, like

530
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Speaker 4: a friend that he bons couch while he bons somebody

531
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Speaker 4: else in the next room. I don't that would be

532
00:26:59,280 --> 00:27:03,679
Speaker 4: hard ego. My ego would be like, ok, like makere

533
00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:04,200
Speaker 4: the fuck?

534
00:27:04,840 --> 00:27:06,600
Speaker 3: I mean, if I had no other place to go,

535
00:27:06,640 --> 00:27:08,720
Speaker 3: which it's she knows she can go to Molly's house,

536
00:27:08,720 --> 00:27:09,399
Speaker 3: she just don't want to go.

537
00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:11,639
Speaker 4: She had like three friends, Like I would be you

538
00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:12,440
Speaker 4: know what I would.

539
00:27:12,600 --> 00:27:14,560
Speaker 3: I would be at Molly's house, low key, I would

540
00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:17,920
Speaker 3: in the bougie apartment at Molly's house.

541
00:27:18,240 --> 00:27:19,639
Speaker 4: Yeah, but you see how they digger.

542
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:23,760
Speaker 3: Still, I'll figure it out, but I don't have to

543
00:27:23,800 --> 00:27:25,399
Speaker 3: hear this dude other bits.

544
00:27:27,240 --> 00:27:34,920
Speaker 4: And it says he is fine Jesus, Jesus totally okay, Yes, yeah,

545
00:27:35,080 --> 00:27:36,879
Speaker 4: I've been looking forward to the rest of this season.

546
00:27:37,880 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, me too.

547
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:40,639
Speaker 4: I'm looking forward to it because I don't know what

548
00:27:40,760 --> 00:27:43,919
Speaker 4: happens at all. I am I need him And I

549
00:27:44,000 --> 00:27:45,680
Speaker 4: really just called up on all the seasons like this

550
00:27:45,720 --> 00:27:48,360
Speaker 4: week because then it was coming on for other reasons.

551
00:27:48,359 --> 00:27:52,480
Speaker 3: But but I think watching that made us think, well,

552
00:27:52,960 --> 00:27:57,360
Speaker 3: partly watching that, paired with just things universes brought us

553
00:27:58,119 --> 00:28:01,199
Speaker 3: leaves us to our topic today, which was fired by

554
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Speaker 3: a d M that we got in our t MS.

555
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:05,320
Speaker 1: In our.

556
00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:08,760
Speaker 4: But oh should I just read it?

557
00:28:08,920 --> 00:28:09,120
Speaker 1: Yeah?

558
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:10,800
Speaker 4: Okay, So we.

559
00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:13,360
Speaker 3: Got a d M from one of our listeners, and

560
00:28:14,520 --> 00:28:18,480
Speaker 3: it was so interesting because perspective is everything, and that's

561
00:28:18,480 --> 00:28:22,080
Speaker 3: what I realized, perspective that it's just so crazy when

562
00:28:22,160 --> 00:28:23,159
Speaker 3: you see that other.

563
00:28:34,200 --> 00:28:37,399
Speaker 5: It's just a bug, what the fun is?

564
00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:47,800
Speaker 4: Definitely mortified of all insects. I told you that bug

565
00:28:47,920 --> 00:28:49,040
Speaker 4: was gonna come for me later.

566
00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:51,080
Speaker 5: It was just like it wasn't even a spider.

567
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:58,640
Speaker 4: This bitch got fully fully a close. I get a shirt.

568
00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:03,400
Speaker 4: Oh my god, this bitch is literally walking out of

569
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:05,200
Speaker 4: her room to change your shirt because she had a

570
00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:07,360
Speaker 4: I don't know what kind of bug and I didentifiable

571
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:11,360
Speaker 4: bug on her neck. It looked harmless. Oh my god,

572
00:29:13,800 --> 00:29:15,920
Speaker 4: I stressed me out. What was it? What kind of bug?

573
00:29:16,000 --> 00:29:17,840
Speaker 4: I don't know. I'm not the sucking.

574
00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:19,680
Speaker 3: It was a big it.

575
00:29:19,760 --> 00:29:20,760
Speaker 4: Was string to dry.

576
00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 5: It looked like this.

577
00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:28,040
Speaker 3: Oh my god, this is exactly Oh hell, no, wa

578
00:29:28,640 --> 00:29:29,760
Speaker 3: it's like a caterpillar.

579
00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:36,680
Speaker 4: Oh my god, that is like a cade. Oh my god.

580
00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:40,920
Speaker 3: Oh okay, Well, you guys have witnessed a phobia or

581
00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:43,600
Speaker 3: her phobia. I'm sorry that you had experienced that, but

582
00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:51,600
Speaker 3: I'm deathly afraid of bugs. All okay, Anyway, I was

583
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:55,120
Speaker 3: just we're just saying. What I was saying was it's

584
00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 3: crazy what you you think people seeing you when people

585
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:02,440
Speaker 3: were in and they don't, And it becomes an insecurity

586
00:30:02,480 --> 00:30:02,760
Speaker 3: that no.

587
00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:07,280
Speaker 4: One even notices, like an invisible insecurity. So okay. So

588
00:30:07,360 --> 00:30:09,440
Speaker 4: she says, Okay, so today I want.

589
00:30:09,320 --> 00:30:12,360
Speaker 3: To discuss how to get past this particular insecurity. And

590
00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:14,600
Speaker 3: this may or may not be worthy for the show,

591
00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:18,760
Speaker 3: but still very interested. It's worthy, I have an extremely

592
00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 3: bad insecurity. I have an extremely bad insecurity or hang.

593
00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:25,560
Speaker 4: Up about my feet so to describe it.

594
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:27,800
Speaker 3: If you've ever been passed out drunk, you understand the

595
00:30:27,800 --> 00:30:29,000
Speaker 3: magnitude of the insecurity.

596
00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:31,200
Speaker 4: I would not let someone I was sleeping with remove my.

597
00:30:31,200 --> 00:30:34,560
Speaker 3: Shoes and socks while while in an incoherence state.

598
00:30:34,920 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 4: I mean, I was pretty much passed out drunk after vomiting.

599
00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:40,400
Speaker 4: I don't remember this, but this is what he told me.

600
00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:43,760
Speaker 3: He was a fling at the time, non existent now,

601
00:30:43,960 --> 00:30:45,960
Speaker 3: but has never seen my feet as many of my

602
00:30:46,000 --> 00:30:48,360
Speaker 3: three partners, who I assume don't think anything of it.

603
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:51,080
Speaker 4: But I intentionally, I intentionally leave socks on.

604
00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:56,080
Speaker 3: Your partners definitely know this right right, and I notice

605
00:30:56,080 --> 00:31:01,000
Speaker 3: what it does those socks manes. Yeah, but it now

606
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:04,400
Speaker 3: has gotten to where I will avoid relationships, dating, cuddling,

607
00:31:04,440 --> 00:31:04,880
Speaker 3: et cetera.

608
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:05,680
Speaker 4: If I think for a.

609
00:31:05,640 --> 00:31:07,920
Speaker 3: Second, I will have to take my socks and shoes off.

610
00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:10,640
Speaker 3: That said, how do I get past this? I know

611
00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:12,920
Speaker 3: some will care and some won't. I just can't find

612
00:31:12,920 --> 00:31:17,040
Speaker 3: the nerve to find to find out who is who?

613
00:31:17,920 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 4: So she sent us her feet.

614
00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:22,440
Speaker 3: Oh okay, so then she said, so this is the

615
00:31:22,480 --> 00:31:25,880
Speaker 3: next question do I do. I preface it with a

616
00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:29,120
Speaker 3: disclaimer I hate to do that and lead with insecurity

617
00:31:29,200 --> 00:31:30,400
Speaker 3: and a lack of confidence.

618
00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:33,280
Speaker 4: Though, please give me some insight. I have attached a

619
00:31:33,320 --> 00:31:34,200
Speaker 4: picture of them.

620
00:31:34,360 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 3: Lay So she sent us her feet, and girl, they're

621
00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:40,640
Speaker 3: not even bad, like they.

622
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:45,280
Speaker 4: Are not actually so cute. Actually I was. I was

623
00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:48,720
Speaker 4: like trying to find what she was talking about, really

624
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:51,160
Speaker 4: examining the thing. She's like, yeah, I'm taking there some bundion.

625
00:31:51,400 --> 00:31:54,160
Speaker 4: There are no budians. I have real bunions on my

626
00:31:54,400 --> 00:31:58,840
Speaker 4: little toes look like little buns. Literally, they're not cute.

627
00:31:58,840 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 4: I'm like, girl, I went tree those feet and that

628
00:32:01,240 --> 00:32:03,800
Speaker 4: gives your own fus about wearing a sock. I'm farefoot

629
00:32:03,800 --> 00:32:07,440
Speaker 4: all with her. How cute her feet are because she

630
00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 4: has like little toes, tottle toes. They're tanned, they're well painted,

631
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:16,720
Speaker 4: but they don't see even Yeah, I think it's just

632
00:32:17,280 --> 00:32:19,400
Speaker 4: so we when she sent us this, we were like,

633
00:32:19,480 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 4: we need to call her now. I can't even right

634
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:25,120
Speaker 4: back to this because we let me just see my face.

635
00:32:25,280 --> 00:32:27,360
Speaker 4: You need to see my mouth move when I tell

636
00:32:27,440 --> 00:32:32,800
Speaker 4: you this, your tripping. But yeah, it was crazy. It's

637
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:37,720
Speaker 4: crazy because you know she has like let she has

638
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:40,480
Speaker 4: felt like she can't date, she can't get into relationships,

639
00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:43,440
Speaker 4: she avoids, she passed out drunk, she remember to not

640
00:32:43,600 --> 00:32:47,120
Speaker 4: let her feet come out. Yeah, it's like, yeah, that's serious.

641
00:32:47,120 --> 00:32:49,720
Speaker 4: That's a serious It's like have you ever been to

642
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:52,080
Speaker 4: the club and like it's like you're supposed to nails

643
00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:53,600
Speaker 4: up two days ago, but she keeps sucking up and

644
00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:55,520
Speaker 4: their mu's broken in an own ship. So you're in

645
00:32:55,520 --> 00:32:59,720
Speaker 4: the club like, oh yeah, I'll take one drink. She's

646
00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:02,200
Speaker 4: like you like literally, I am literally like okay, I'm

647
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 4: gonna pull my clutch with this hand and none.

648
00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:08,240
Speaker 3: But you were fed up if it's like the fourth finger,

649
00:33:08,280 --> 00:33:10,440
Speaker 3: that's like right, You're like you can't really hide that one,

650
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:12,200
Speaker 3: like I'm dancing the.

651
00:33:12,120 --> 00:33:16,720
Speaker 4: Club, So like that's a deep and security. So one

652
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:19,120
Speaker 4: of my biggest questions was when we talked to her,

653
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:23,680
Speaker 4: did someone say something to you like about your feet

654
00:33:23,720 --> 00:33:25,520
Speaker 4: one time and ever since then you've been like hung

655
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 4: up on it because it's like it just hits you

656
00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:30,200
Speaker 4: because a lot of times i'd be really I realized

657
00:33:30,240 --> 00:33:33,640
Speaker 4: that insecurities come from like small comments from significant people

658
00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:36,280
Speaker 4: we think are significant at the time, and then we

659
00:33:36,320 --> 00:33:39,200
Speaker 4: can't let it go because now it's pointed out to us.

660
00:33:40,640 --> 00:33:41,800
Speaker 4: So what you said?

661
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:44,960
Speaker 3: She said, yeah, she said yeah, she said yeah, was

662
00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:46,160
Speaker 3: like when how old was she? She said she was

663
00:33:46,160 --> 00:33:47,120
Speaker 3: really young when it happened.

664
00:33:47,160 --> 00:33:52,160
Speaker 4: I think, I think, yeah, but I forgot when remember

665
00:33:52,240 --> 00:33:53,200
Speaker 4: like an X or something?

666
00:33:53,920 --> 00:33:57,080
Speaker 3: Okaybe And then Jamila proceeded to post a picture of

667
00:33:57,080 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 3: her feet, and her boyfriend message her and said gets.

668
00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:04,160
Speaker 4: A sadly as feed off the ground. That was like

669
00:34:04,200 --> 00:34:04,960
Speaker 4: the clothes.

670
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:06,560
Speaker 1: Fuck.

671
00:34:08,680 --> 00:34:10,560
Speaker 3: But I mean I think the advice you gave her

672
00:34:10,719 --> 00:34:12,759
Speaker 3: was like I don't like, I don't like my feet,

673
00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:14,319
Speaker 3: and I just go out there and we encourage her

674
00:34:14,360 --> 00:34:16,600
Speaker 3: to encourage her to like at least try to wear

675
00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:17,760
Speaker 3: slides and.

676
00:34:18,080 --> 00:34:20,919
Speaker 5: Because I mean, mostly no one is going to care.

677
00:34:21,200 --> 00:34:24,520
Speaker 4: No one's gouna be looking. Niggas don't care about feet. Look,

678
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:27,560
Speaker 4: they look at your rouse, your chitties. But and yeah,

679
00:34:27,560 --> 00:34:30,839
Speaker 4: thinking about your vagina, Yeah, that's what I think. And

680
00:34:30,960 --> 00:34:32,759
Speaker 4: like you might find like a one in ten foot

681
00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:34,799
Speaker 4: footage and even he's gonna be happy to have those

682
00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:37,840
Speaker 4: two feet, right, Like if you told me specifically, like

683
00:34:37,920 --> 00:34:41,440
Speaker 4: early on, I'm like, your feet are ugly, And I

684
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:44,280
Speaker 4: was like, really you think so put him a little clothes,

685
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:49,640
Speaker 4: but why but I painted them. Yeah, I said, you

686
00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:53,799
Speaker 4: look petty than glu glue. I just mean that, I'm

687
00:34:53,840 --> 00:34:57,279
Speaker 4: just saying. Really, I was like, oh, that's your to

688
00:34:58,160 --> 00:34:59,759
Speaker 4: I may have lots of toe, Like how paint cuts

689
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:02,480
Speaker 4: my fee like Barbie Pink has to be like me, perfect,

690
00:35:03,360 --> 00:35:07,759
Speaker 4: not too fushion. The point is, I think at a

691
00:35:07,760 --> 00:35:11,719
Speaker 4: certain point I have or have there's a lot of

692
00:35:11,719 --> 00:35:15,319
Speaker 4: things that I like about myself. Physically, I've always been

693
00:35:15,360 --> 00:35:19,400
Speaker 4: really self conscious because I'm super skinny. Sometimes like in

694
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:20,800
Speaker 4: my head I feel thick, but then I'll like a

695
00:35:20,840 --> 00:35:24,919
Speaker 4: pictures I'm like, oh my god, I look ridiculously then

696
00:35:24,960 --> 00:35:26,600
Speaker 4: and then when I was younger, I remember people saying,

697
00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:28,480
Speaker 4: like making comments and I'm trying to eat a lot,

698
00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:32,160
Speaker 4: but like it's not happening. My teeth at a gap.

699
00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:37,880
Speaker 4: I used to have braises, lost a retainer many moons ago.

700
00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:42,240
Speaker 4: Gap is back bitches, But I still smile bit because

701
00:35:42,239 --> 00:35:44,279
Speaker 4: I can't help it. I feel like it's like part

702
00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:46,919
Speaker 4: of who you are. Yeah, like now, no, we don't

703
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:47,880
Speaker 4: make it smaller.

704
00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:49,960
Speaker 3: I think even though like you're skinny, but to me,

705
00:35:50,040 --> 00:35:53,240
Speaker 3: you're like, you're not like crazy skinny you're like model skinny.

706
00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:56,239
Speaker 4: I've seen photos. I'm like, oh fuck, look skinny and

707
00:35:56,280 --> 00:35:59,320
Speaker 4: I'm not tall, so I look taller because I'm skinny,

708
00:35:59,360 --> 00:36:01,239
Speaker 4: and I have really big feet for a small pert.

709
00:36:01,239 --> 00:36:05,360
Speaker 4: You've always sick too. I like rabbit feet, like the

710
00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 4: back rabbit thumber feet. That's how I looked. But there

711
00:36:09,520 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 4: was a point in my life where I was and

712
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:14,000
Speaker 4: I'm like, I don't like my back. I feel like

713
00:36:14,000 --> 00:36:17,800
Speaker 4: I have like your bad spots on its not like

714
00:36:18,040 --> 00:36:20,520
Speaker 4: spots in my face. Whatever the whole plant is. At

715
00:36:20,520 --> 00:36:22,359
Speaker 4: some point or another, I don't remember when I Each

716
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:26,560
Speaker 4: summer my minto lake Tonies as like, oh the most

717
00:36:26,560 --> 00:36:30,880
Speaker 4: isshue I can't do nothing about. So I'm gonna go

718
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:32,719
Speaker 4: with it, you know what i mean. Like at some

719
00:36:32,719 --> 00:36:34,320
Speaker 4: point you just like the ship falls off. You're not

720
00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 4: into proviving thing anymore. Oh yeah, all those things still

721
00:36:38,480 --> 00:36:41,000
Speaker 4: because there's my angle. Sometimes I'm like, oh my god,

722
00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:43,759
Speaker 4: that's disgusting. Have I eaten? I know I ate five

723
00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 4: minutes ago, But I look skinny. No, I mean I

724
00:36:47,040 --> 00:36:50,040
Speaker 4: definitely think like it's did someone tell you that? Or

725
00:36:50,080 --> 00:36:51,200
Speaker 4: you can't to those everybody?

726
00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:54,120
Speaker 3: I mean all the time, people probably gonna like your

727
00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:57,400
Speaker 3: insecurity is about like your skin or you know you cheeth,

728
00:36:57,600 --> 00:36:58,600
Speaker 3: or like were.

729
00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:01,560
Speaker 4: You teased and stuff. Yeah, like like when you're a

730
00:37:01,600 --> 00:37:04,360
Speaker 4: kid and cansa shit of course you remember is sash.

731
00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:06,839
Speaker 4: It's like the end of the world and bad skin,

732
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:09,160
Speaker 4: all types of shit. So all those things were things

733
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:11,200
Speaker 4: that was made for them and made aware of. And

734
00:37:11,239 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 4: because I was made aware of made aware of them,

735
00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:17,680
Speaker 4: I always like, you know, I'm judging myself. Yeah, but

736
00:37:17,840 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 4: what she was experiencing was like, no, I never want

737
00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:22,879
Speaker 4: anything extreme. I mean my obvious they can't hide roundhole body.

738
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:25,200
Speaker 4: My thing is I don't want mine, Like I don't

739
00:37:25,200 --> 00:37:27,480
Speaker 4: have something extreme like that. I have a phobia like

740
00:37:27,520 --> 00:37:31,680
Speaker 4: that of feet. I don't know what the calcer. But no,

741
00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:35,080
Speaker 4: but I definitely have my insecurities, like especially after having

742
00:37:35,080 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 4: a kid, and even before that.

743
00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:38,920
Speaker 3: I look back on pictures like before having Iron, I'm like,

744
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:41,000
Speaker 3: what the fuck was I tripping about?

745
00:37:41,040 --> 00:37:43,840
Speaker 4: Why was I obsessing and thinking? Like I was insecure

746
00:37:43,840 --> 00:37:45,680
Speaker 4: about my legs. I thought they were too thick. But

747
00:37:45,760 --> 00:37:47,560
Speaker 4: you know, I always went to school with like such

748
00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:49,839
Speaker 4: small petiitue white girls and like.

749
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:53,200
Speaker 3: I was like a grown black woman, like in like

750
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:57,839
Speaker 3: sixth grade like juicy thing ass I was like this height.

751
00:37:57,880 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 3: I was like five six when I was like eleven,

752
00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:03,160
Speaker 3: you know, so I just was towering over everybody.

753
00:38:03,840 --> 00:38:07,279
Speaker 4: And I remember my cousin used to always be like, oh,

754
00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,240
Speaker 4: you're so big, like or something like. I remember feeling

755
00:38:10,320 --> 00:38:14,240
Speaker 4: like I'm feeling really insecure about my like just feeling

756
00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:16,839
Speaker 4: giant and not like small. And I think that's kind

757
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:17,160
Speaker 4: of like.

758
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:22,520
Speaker 3: Because I definitely felt insecure about my weight for at

759
00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:24,480
Speaker 3: a very young age. I think because I started like

760
00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:27,720
Speaker 3: modeling and being aware of like that.

761
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:30,120
Speaker 4: At associating age. And then I remember the defining moment

762
00:38:30,200 --> 00:38:32,759
Speaker 4: was my cousin one time she Oh my god, she

763
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:36,719
Speaker 4: was listening to this Yes you fucked me up, it's

764
00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:41,120
Speaker 4: you bitch. She had like the skirt and I was like,

765
00:38:41,160 --> 00:38:43,040
Speaker 4: can I try it? Not She's like, I don't think

766
00:38:43,040 --> 00:38:44,799
Speaker 4: it's gonna fit. It's one size fits all.

767
00:38:46,840 --> 00:38:50,120
Speaker 5: I like your now or She's like she.

768
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:51,799
Speaker 4: Was like, it's one size fits all, but I don't

769
00:38:51,800 --> 00:38:55,960
Speaker 4: think it's gonna fit. I was like, and then it

770
00:38:56,000 --> 00:39:00,920
Speaker 4: didn't fit. It was like one size it's all.

771
00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,960
Speaker 3: For like you know, I means, and I had the

772
00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:06,400
Speaker 3: body of a woman that's just so funny.

773
00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:08,279
Speaker 4: I thought you were so excited China, because I did.

774
00:39:08,440 --> 00:39:11,000
Speaker 4: My feelings are hurt, and I did try that on.

775
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:13,000
Speaker 3: I was like, bitch, you know, I'm competitive even though

776
00:39:13,000 --> 00:39:13,839
Speaker 3: my feelings are hurt.

777
00:39:15,239 --> 00:39:18,000
Speaker 4: I'm getting my I'm gonna cry after this, but I'm

778
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:22,600
Speaker 4: gonna try this ship on. Oh my god, how insensitive

779
00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:26,680
Speaker 4: we are? Is a young where the fox? Does that

780
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:28,200
Speaker 4: come from? Mimicking?

781
00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:29,319
Speaker 5: I think mimicking out of.

782
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:30,440
Speaker 4: People being evil?

783
00:39:30,760 --> 00:39:34,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's yeah, because she was being mean on purpose.

784
00:39:34,400 --> 00:39:36,480
Speaker 4: Like it wasn't like play at that point.

785
00:39:36,680 --> 00:39:40,320
Speaker 3: It wasn't like like when you're like fiving just sanction

786
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:41,480
Speaker 3: r you know what I mean.

787
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:49,920
Speaker 4: My kids say the darnest thing. Teenagers are asshole the end.

788
00:39:50,360 --> 00:39:51,319
Speaker 4: What else are we gonna talk?

789
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:51,640
Speaker 1: Oh?

790
00:39:52,280 --> 00:39:55,359
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know. I think insecurity has come

791
00:39:55,440 --> 00:39:56,520
Speaker 4: from so many different places.

792
00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:59,280
Speaker 3: They can come from, like what obviously with like social media,

793
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:00,360
Speaker 3: watching other people.

794
00:40:00,520 --> 00:40:03,239
Speaker 4: They can come from like I mean, I know, for me,

795
00:40:03,480 --> 00:40:05,040
Speaker 4: like caring yourself. Yeah.

796
00:40:05,160 --> 00:40:07,600
Speaker 3: I think I took a break from social media this

797
00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:09,920
Speaker 3: weekend and it's started.

798
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:11,360
Speaker 4: I took a break, I think, But I text you

799
00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:12,759
Speaker 4: on Friday, I was like, I need a break.

800
00:40:12,760 --> 00:40:15,319
Speaker 3: I'm taking the weekend off and I still haven't logged

801
00:40:15,360 --> 00:40:17,959
Speaker 3: into my personal one because that's the one that like.

802
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:20,160
Speaker 4: Is like, don't get dumb. I don't know.

803
00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:23,360
Speaker 3: Why, but I think because I have to work on

804
00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:27,399
Speaker 3: like work social media every day and be on there

805
00:40:27,440 --> 00:40:31,080
Speaker 3: and just like consuming ours. That is just too much

806
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:34,799
Speaker 3: for me. And I love I've been nice. Getting anxiety.

807
00:40:35,239 --> 00:40:36,279
Speaker 4: I'm getting anxiety.

808
00:40:36,680 --> 00:40:40,200
Speaker 3: But yeah, you just start it's not even comparing, it's

809
00:40:40,200 --> 00:40:43,200
Speaker 3: just starting judging yourself. Even that even like it is that,

810
00:40:43,560 --> 00:40:46,640
Speaker 3: but it's just like just the looking at shit just

811
00:40:46,640 --> 00:40:47,319
Speaker 3: gives me back.

812
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:48,719
Speaker 5: Yeah, like why am I looking at it?

813
00:40:48,760 --> 00:40:50,839
Speaker 4: This is the third time I've seen this? Bullshit? Who

814
00:40:50,920 --> 00:40:51,239
Speaker 4: is this?

815
00:40:51,360 --> 00:40:52,560
Speaker 5: I don't know it's a person?

816
00:40:52,719 --> 00:40:52,919
Speaker 1: Right?

817
00:40:53,239 --> 00:40:55,839
Speaker 4: Do you even take English? What the fuck? Yeah, it's

818
00:40:55,880 --> 00:40:59,439
Speaker 4: it's ridiculous. I just find myself judging people, judging people too.

819
00:40:59,640 --> 00:41:02,839
Speaker 4: You know, it's true. It's just a lot. Hence Bay

820
00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:05,879
Speaker 4: we did this episode. Well you guys make them. It's

821
00:41:05,880 --> 00:41:09,080
Speaker 4: look cute, you look really cute. I have like megap

822
00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:10,640
Speaker 4: on from like thirty.

823
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:13,759
Speaker 3: Fourteen hours ago, I look pretty rough, but you look

824
00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:15,680
Speaker 3: beautiful too.

825
00:41:17,560 --> 00:41:22,680
Speaker 4: What about okay from Yeah, so I was reading okay,

826
00:41:22,719 --> 00:41:24,840
Speaker 4: you know i's were reading the four agreements. Did you

827
00:41:24,880 --> 00:41:27,640
Speaker 4: remember the part where it says it was just that

828
00:41:27,760 --> 00:41:33,279
Speaker 4: book as a child, someone is her child, like a

829
00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:36,960
Speaker 4: mother's child is singing, and she's really irritated. She's irritable,

830
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:39,120
Speaker 4: she's annoying. She's had a lot of shit going on

831
00:41:39,160 --> 00:41:42,120
Speaker 4: that day, and she like snaps out on the kid

832
00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:45,359
Speaker 4: and that's like, stop singing. You're singing is horrible, it's

833
00:41:45,440 --> 00:41:48,240
Speaker 4: driving me. That's it's annoying, it sounds bad. Go away,

834
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:52,280
Speaker 4: And that child never sings anymore because she now feels

835
00:41:52,719 --> 00:41:56,719
Speaker 4: it's horrible, it sounds bad, and that that like that

836
00:41:56,880 --> 00:42:00,160
Speaker 4: scars are basically and it's obviously an example in the book,

837
00:42:00,280 --> 00:42:05,200
Speaker 4: but it's a reminder of how easily our feelings are

838
00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:09,280
Speaker 4: persuaded about ourselves. Quickly we make agreements with other people

839
00:42:09,400 --> 00:42:12,160
Speaker 4: subconsciously not realizing it, and then we let those agreements

840
00:42:12,160 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 4: go on to you know, and follow us into adulthood,

841
00:42:14,400 --> 00:42:17,359
Speaker 4: and then we do things and think things. And she'd

842
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:20,200
Speaker 4: bed have been fucking the next Mariah, right, But if

843
00:42:20,200 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 4: her mom was irritated that day, so that made me,

844
00:42:22,480 --> 00:42:25,359
Speaker 4: really it made me a aware of things I've been

845
00:42:25,400 --> 00:42:27,719
Speaker 4: told from my parents or other adults, or things that

846
00:42:27,840 --> 00:42:30,319
Speaker 4: like scarving like you know, shit, Like we just talked

847
00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:32,879
Speaker 4: about physical things, and then it made me think how

848
00:42:32,920 --> 00:42:34,759
Speaker 4: conscious I need to be the things I say to

849
00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:39,000
Speaker 4: Lunin because honestly, like you're crazy or you're being a brat,

850
00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:42,319
Speaker 4: you know, like to change my dialogue because I don't

851
00:42:42,320 --> 00:42:44,600
Speaker 4: want her to believe those things or you know, like whatever.

852
00:42:45,280 --> 00:42:47,560
Speaker 4: So are there any things you've been told from parents

853
00:42:47,640 --> 00:42:50,840
Speaker 4: or significant people in your lives as a child that

854
00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:55,799
Speaker 4: you think cause insecurities other than physical and other? One

855
00:42:55,880 --> 00:42:59,759
Speaker 4: hundred percent one hundred percent. I think it's inevitable. Yeah,

856
00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:04,040
Speaker 4: Like even the best parent it's going to fuck up.

857
00:43:03,920 --> 00:43:07,400
Speaker 3: Sometimes, and you know it's gonna scar their child in

858
00:43:07,440 --> 00:43:10,400
Speaker 3: some way, some way, in some capacity.

859
00:43:10,560 --> 00:43:13,200
Speaker 9: I mean maybe because we're not impaccable enough with our words.

860
00:43:13,280 --> 00:43:17,319
Speaker 9: We're not impeccable with our words. And I know I'm

861
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 9: not shit, but yeah, like even me, like my mom.

862
00:43:21,440 --> 00:43:23,080
Speaker 3: One of the things that my mom said to me

863
00:43:23,239 --> 00:43:27,120
Speaker 3: as a kid, and you know, I because I started

864
00:43:27,239 --> 00:43:27,720
Speaker 3: like doing.

865
00:43:27,640 --> 00:43:29,520
Speaker 4: All like modeling as a kid at a young age.

866
00:43:29,560 --> 00:43:31,720
Speaker 3: I went to school with so many like white kids

867
00:43:32,120 --> 00:43:35,080
Speaker 3: and just became so conscious of my like size and stuff.

868
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:41,319
Speaker 3: I remember, like I was around eleven and I like

869
00:43:41,520 --> 00:43:42,879
Speaker 3: was really like I.

870
00:43:42,840 --> 00:43:44,160
Speaker 4: Was looking in the mirror and I was looking at

871
00:43:44,160 --> 00:43:45,360
Speaker 4: my thighs and I was upset.

872
00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:48,680
Speaker 3: They were like running together and like I was chafing laughing,

873
00:43:48,719 --> 00:43:50,399
Speaker 3: but I'm serious, wait my tea.

874
00:43:50,560 --> 00:43:54,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, and I crying to my mom and I was like, Mom,

875
00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:56,680
Speaker 4: I'm fat. I don't feel pretty. I had braces at

876
00:43:56,680 --> 00:43:59,080
Speaker 4: the time. I was like breaking out at acne. You know,

877
00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:02,040
Speaker 4: my hair's frizzy. My mom hasn't figured that out yet,

878
00:44:02,480 --> 00:44:03,279
Speaker 4: you know, like.

879
00:44:05,120 --> 00:44:09,360
Speaker 5: You were like awkward thing awkward at least, yeah, you know.

880
00:44:09,440 --> 00:44:12,080
Speaker 4: And I just like, you know, she and she was

881
00:44:12,120 --> 00:44:14,799
Speaker 4: like she as a mom, wanted to help me, and

882
00:44:14,840 --> 00:44:17,160
Speaker 4: so she was like she got me a meal plan,

883
00:44:17,520 --> 00:44:19,600
Speaker 4: which then made me even more conscious.

884
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:19,719
Speaker 1: Of my weight.

885
00:44:19,760 --> 00:44:21,640
Speaker 3: And then if I ate bad, she'd be like, Oka,

886
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:23,680
Speaker 3: you told me you didn't you want to lose weight,

887
00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:26,000
Speaker 3: and you're eating this, and like became I.

888
00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 4: Became like always saying that. But it would hurt me.

889
00:44:29,520 --> 00:44:32,320
Speaker 8: Even though like she was just trying.

890
00:44:32,400 --> 00:44:35,480
Speaker 4: She was coming out face of what like trying to

891
00:44:35,520 --> 00:44:38,080
Speaker 4: help me, you know what I mean. But I took it.

892
00:44:38,280 --> 00:44:41,200
Speaker 3: Very personally, and I'm a sensitive being, like I might

893
00:44:41,239 --> 00:44:42,680
Speaker 3: act like I'm like rough.

894
00:44:42,480 --> 00:44:44,759
Speaker 4: And tough or hard and on the surface, but I'm soup.

895
00:44:44,840 --> 00:44:48,000
Speaker 3: I can get hurt deeply like and you'll never know,

896
00:44:48,280 --> 00:44:50,320
Speaker 3: you know.

897
00:44:49,400 --> 00:44:55,719
Speaker 4: It'll come out later. So like, oh my god, I

898
00:44:55,760 --> 00:44:58,759
Speaker 4: was like, I'm like it just felt I don't know,

899
00:44:58,840 --> 00:45:01,760
Speaker 4: it just it was my mom.

900
00:45:01,920 --> 00:45:05,279
Speaker 3: So you know, like you said, like when someone that

901
00:45:05,440 --> 00:45:08,640
Speaker 3: close to you or someone that you you know you

902
00:45:08,719 --> 00:45:13,080
Speaker 3: value their opinions, says something like that, maybe maybe you've

903
00:45:13,120 --> 00:45:16,120
Speaker 3: already like said you're insecure about it, and they're just

904
00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:19,680
Speaker 3: like acknowledged acknowledging it. For acknowledging it for the second time,

905
00:45:19,719 --> 00:45:21,760
Speaker 3: it makes you feel like, oh, well, what what slood

906
00:45:21,760 --> 00:45:22,239
Speaker 3: now like?

907
00:45:22,280 --> 00:45:24,239
Speaker 4: And then you never forget that. It's like just those

908
00:45:24,239 --> 00:45:25,200
Speaker 4: little defining moments.

909
00:45:25,200 --> 00:45:28,759
Speaker 3: And I as a parent, I often wonder like what

910
00:45:29,280 --> 00:45:30,799
Speaker 3: I mean, I have to be more mind I mean

911
00:45:30,880 --> 00:45:32,560
Speaker 3: I try to be, and I will be, and I'm

912
00:45:32,600 --> 00:45:34,040
Speaker 3: kind of going to continue to try to.

913
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:37,239
Speaker 4: Be mindful of what I.

914
00:45:37,160 --> 00:45:40,440
Speaker 3: Say to my daughter and how I talk about her

915
00:45:40,480 --> 00:45:41,560
Speaker 3: insecurities with.

916
00:45:41,560 --> 00:45:43,719
Speaker 4: Her or being coming a ton of talk, how you

917
00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:45,839
Speaker 4: talk about her in general so that she.

918
00:45:45,800 --> 00:45:48,479
Speaker 3: Doesn't develop insecurity right, and or how I like walk

919
00:45:48,520 --> 00:45:52,200
Speaker 3: her through them, you know, and out of them.

920
00:45:52,320 --> 00:45:54,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean and even not just physical stuff. I

921
00:45:54,960 --> 00:45:58,399
Speaker 4: think like my parents were always like you didn't try

922
00:45:58,440 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 4: hard enough. You are trying hard if you're half asked

923
00:46:01,040 --> 00:46:03,080
Speaker 4: it like are you dumb?

924
00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:03,720
Speaker 5: Are you stupid?

925
00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:06,880
Speaker 4: You're not trying hard? And I'm like, I'm making good grades,

926
00:46:06,920 --> 00:46:09,000
Speaker 4: you stupid? But there was not I don't feel like

927
00:46:09,320 --> 00:46:11,759
Speaker 4: I'm like I'm also supposed to be a water sign thing.

928
00:46:11,760 --> 00:46:15,640
Speaker 5: I'm also highly sensitive, but I act very tough.

929
00:46:15,680 --> 00:46:18,480
Speaker 4: It's the cancer in me, like the hardshell and like

930
00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:21,240
Speaker 4: and I could say anything anybody, and I'm like, stop

931
00:46:21,239 --> 00:46:24,040
Speaker 4: being so sensitive. But me, I do take things and

932
00:46:24,080 --> 00:46:26,600
Speaker 4: I get really defensive. All my friends are like, you're

933
00:46:26,640 --> 00:46:29,840
Speaker 4: so defensive. I was like, no, I'm just right. But

934
00:46:29,920 --> 00:46:32,239
Speaker 4: I think that that defense is because I feel like

935
00:46:32,360 --> 00:46:35,160
Speaker 4: I feel like my parents. I was like often attacked

936
00:46:35,239 --> 00:46:38,439
Speaker 4: and not praised, like it was like an understood thing,

937
00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:40,680
Speaker 4: like you know, we love you, but you need to

938
00:46:40,719 --> 00:46:43,920
Speaker 4: be better. And I think that made me kind of

939
00:46:43,920 --> 00:46:46,440
Speaker 4: always defensive, like we're always getting on me, but you're

940
00:46:46,480 --> 00:46:50,719
Speaker 4: never seeing anything positive. So even that from me acknowledging

941
00:46:50,719 --> 00:46:53,160
Speaker 4: that made me realize as much as we talk shit,

942
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:57,560
Speaker 4: we need to equally as much, you know, affirm because

943
00:46:57,640 --> 00:47:02,160
Speaker 4: you know even that that has affected me. I'm thirty

944
00:47:02,239 --> 00:47:06,800
Speaker 4: years old and I've been going through something and my

945
00:47:06,920 --> 00:47:09,560
Speaker 4: dad texted me today some shit that was very hurtful

946
00:47:09,640 --> 00:47:11,279
Speaker 4: and one of the things, where are you are you

947
00:47:11,360 --> 00:47:14,160
Speaker 4: insecure or something? And I was like, oh, whoa, And

948
00:47:14,200 --> 00:47:16,239
Speaker 4: I mean I had a right to be sensitive, but

949
00:47:16,360 --> 00:47:18,319
Speaker 4: he said was completely fucking out of pocket and he'll

950
00:47:18,360 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 4: be lucky to get a call out from me anytime soon.

951
00:47:20,440 --> 00:47:24,040
Speaker 5: But it just triggered, you know, it made me.

952
00:47:24,200 --> 00:47:28,040
Speaker 4: It made me start to realize, oh shit, oh wow,

953
00:47:28,160 --> 00:47:31,640
Speaker 4: you're talking to me fucking crazy, and how often, like

954
00:47:31,760 --> 00:47:34,520
Speaker 4: was this a regular thing? And you know, it made

955
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:37,719
Speaker 4: me think how much did I accept in my previous relationship,

956
00:47:38,239 --> 00:47:41,640
Speaker 4: you know, disrespect because you know, you're low key disrespecting

957
00:47:41,640 --> 00:47:43,479
Speaker 4: the shoot out of me. And now I'm a grown

958
00:47:43,520 --> 00:47:45,960
Speaker 4: woman at night and I can say, hey, my feelings

959
00:47:45,960 --> 00:47:48,880
Speaker 4: are hurt or I can recognize it. But it did,

960
00:47:49,120 --> 00:47:50,879
Speaker 4: you know, it triggered something. I mean where it made

961
00:47:50,880 --> 00:47:53,240
Speaker 4: me realize, this is not the first time you've spoken

962
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:56,800
Speaker 4: to me like this, and this is probably a lifetime

963
00:47:57,080 --> 00:48:01,400
Speaker 4: of like how you how you're resting me that's triggering

964
00:48:01,440 --> 00:48:03,759
Speaker 4: something and that you know, I probably may have or

965
00:48:03,840 --> 00:48:05,600
Speaker 4: may maybe not, I don't know, but I feel like

966
00:48:05,800 --> 00:48:10,040
Speaker 4: probably affected how I am in relationships and what I've

967
00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:15,200
Speaker 4: accepted prior to now. So it's so, you know, insecurities

968
00:48:15,239 --> 00:48:18,360
Speaker 4: manifest a lot of ways, and as parents, it's important

969
00:48:18,400 --> 00:48:22,080
Speaker 4: that we like be adult enough to a sure enough

970
00:48:22,120 --> 00:48:24,120
Speaker 4: to recognize it and to address it because I think,

971
00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:27,160
Speaker 4: like with our parents being older and from a different generation,

972
00:48:27,239 --> 00:48:31,560
Speaker 4: we're all in this like mindfulness and this this you know,

973
00:48:31,680 --> 00:48:34,960
Speaker 4: conscious place as human beings and as parents. There's a

974
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:36,759
Speaker 4: lot of you can talk to other parents. There's a

975
00:48:36,840 --> 00:48:39,720
Speaker 4: social media I'll let to really you know, dissect yourself.

976
00:48:39,920 --> 00:48:41,759
Speaker 5: But maybe before, I mean obviously before.

977
00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:44,719
Speaker 4: There wasn't that, so they didn't have the same tools.

978
00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:47,520
Speaker 4: So maybe I'm just gonna chalk it up to that,

979
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:51,200
Speaker 4: chalk it up to that since you didn't have them tools,

980
00:48:51,280 --> 00:48:54,520
Speaker 4: so I'm gonna give you a pass kind of Well,

981
00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:56,799
Speaker 4: I think, yeah, I think hard love also, like it's

982
00:48:56,840 --> 00:49:01,200
Speaker 4: just it's a definitely like a generation like that, that generation. Yeah,

983
00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:03,399
Speaker 4: And I'm kind of a hard lover because of it.

984
00:49:03,360 --> 00:49:05,920
Speaker 5: You know, Like you know, I feel like like child,

985
00:49:06,480 --> 00:49:07,799
Speaker 5: he tell you I love you all.

986
00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:11,000
Speaker 4: The time, and shit, and that's not healthy. That's not healthy.

987
00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:13,200
Speaker 4: And like I have to remind myself even with my kid,

988
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:16,799
Speaker 4: like you're so beautiful, you're so smart, you're intelligent.

989
00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:18,160
Speaker 5: Wow, that's amazing.

990
00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:23,160
Speaker 4: Because I'm I am, it's easier for me to be like, well,

991
00:49:23,200 --> 00:49:26,799
Speaker 4: you're still a product of your parents, you know, a

992
00:49:26,960 --> 00:49:31,200
Speaker 4: parent saying I'm a product the way they the way

993
00:49:31,200 --> 00:49:34,880
Speaker 4: they brought you up, my childhood, my environment, parent rearing,

994
00:49:35,440 --> 00:49:41,320
Speaker 4: nurture first nature. But in your childhood, Yeah, your childhood

995
00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:43,279
Speaker 4: and your product of you know, the things that they

996
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:47,080
Speaker 4: taught you, the things that they normalized. And that's with anybody.

997
00:49:47,120 --> 00:49:49,720
Speaker 3: But yeah, you know, like you have to check yourself

998
00:49:49,760 --> 00:49:52,239
Speaker 3: because you probably do do shit that they do. You're

999
00:49:52,239 --> 00:49:53,600
Speaker 3: not even aware of it, you know what I mean?

1000
00:49:53,640 --> 00:49:56,000
Speaker 3: Because I know I do shit. Sometimes I'm like, oh damn,

1001
00:49:56,000 --> 00:49:58,120
Speaker 3: that was like my mom. I do it in relationships,

1002
00:49:58,520 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. I do it a lot

1003
00:49:59,640 --> 00:50:01,439
Speaker 3: with men, and I do things that my I've seen

1004
00:50:01,480 --> 00:50:04,720
Speaker 3: my mom do and that she even acknowledges that maybe

1005
00:50:04,760 --> 00:50:06,799
Speaker 3: aren't good for her and haven't worked for her, but

1006
00:50:06,840 --> 00:50:09,080
Speaker 3: I've seen her do it and they become habit for you.

1007
00:50:09,320 --> 00:50:12,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I definitely will see the same and

1008
00:50:12,800 --> 00:50:13,600
Speaker 4: eyewitness a.

1009
00:50:15,120 --> 00:50:17,520
Speaker 5: Very unhealthy relationship for.

1010
00:50:17,560 --> 00:50:19,879
Speaker 4: Many years, Like my parents were together since my mom

1011
00:50:19,920 --> 00:50:23,200
Speaker 4: was fourteen, my dad was like seventeen. So honestly, in

1012
00:50:23,200 --> 00:50:26,840
Speaker 4: my eyes, they're like still mimic those age groups, Like

1013
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:29,520
Speaker 4: they never grew, they never evolved from those, like in

1014
00:50:29,520 --> 00:50:33,359
Speaker 4: a relationship standpoint, they are like still very immature. And

1015
00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:36,320
Speaker 4: so I had to realize that in order for me

1016
00:50:36,400 --> 00:50:39,240
Speaker 4: not to repeat it. And it's it's actually like a work,

1017
00:50:39,400 --> 00:50:43,120
Speaker 4: you know, it's work, and even like not catering, like

1018
00:50:43,480 --> 00:50:45,680
Speaker 4: I don't think I found my mom was neither one

1019
00:50:45,680 --> 00:50:48,879
Speaker 4: of my parents are really like oh okay, I never

1020
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:50,560
Speaker 4: saw that. I was just like and then so I

1021
00:50:50,600 --> 00:50:53,359
Speaker 4: see in relationships some men need that, and I'm kind

1022
00:50:53,360 --> 00:50:55,880
Speaker 4: of like, what the fuck? Get annoyed? I gets really annoyed,

1023
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:58,719
Speaker 4: Like why do you need to be so reassured? I mean,

1024
00:50:58,880 --> 00:51:00,920
Speaker 4: and obviously as an a, I would like to be

1025
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:02,759
Speaker 4: reassured in some way. So we all do. We all

1026
00:51:02,800 --> 00:51:04,839
Speaker 4: need reassurance. We all want to be like told we're

1027
00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:07,640
Speaker 4: doing good or we're loved or whatever. So even that

1028
00:51:07,800 --> 00:51:09,719
Speaker 4: I have to get out of that, like making that

1029
00:51:10,280 --> 00:51:12,719
Speaker 4: that feels weak, make yeah weak or you're like you're

1030
00:51:12,920 --> 00:51:15,560
Speaker 4: you or need you. It as like a negative. Yeah,

1031
00:51:15,600 --> 00:51:19,800
Speaker 4: and all the time, all the time, all the time. Right, Okay,

1032
00:51:19,880 --> 00:51:27,600
Speaker 4: so onto onto the insecurities. Okay, So I have a question.

1033
00:51:27,719 --> 00:51:30,440
Speaker 3: Do you have any insecurities that you just developed, you

1034
00:51:30,480 --> 00:51:36,800
Speaker 3: think from after having Luna, Like about anything in particular,

1035
00:51:36,840 --> 00:51:40,880
Speaker 3: like my body, your body, anything like anything that that

1036
00:51:41,040 --> 00:51:44,240
Speaker 3: you made up in your own mind that wasn't necessarily

1037
00:51:44,239 --> 00:51:47,439
Speaker 3: brought on to you by an outside I mean yeah,

1038
00:51:47,480 --> 00:51:48,760
Speaker 3: like by an outside.

1039
00:51:48,320 --> 00:51:49,360
Speaker 4: Person like your.

1040
00:51:49,239 --> 00:51:52,080
Speaker 3: Mom or your dad or your big daddy, or like

1041
00:51:52,080 --> 00:51:53,160
Speaker 3: like like my parenting.

1042
00:51:54,400 --> 00:51:56,560
Speaker 4: It could be could be parenting, it could be your body.

1043
00:51:56,600 --> 00:51:59,000
Speaker 4: I mean for me, like I mean, of course sometimes

1044
00:51:59,040 --> 00:52:01,399
Speaker 4: I question my parenting. Of course. Yeah, no one really

1045
00:52:01,400 --> 00:52:03,759
Speaker 4: knows the right and so one person can say one

1046
00:52:03,760 --> 00:52:05,799
Speaker 4: thing to you. But for me, I mean physically, yeah,

1047
00:52:05,800 --> 00:52:08,160
Speaker 4: my stomach. Like I've said before, like I hate my stomach.

1048
00:52:08,200 --> 00:52:08,759
Speaker 4: I don't hate it.

1049
00:52:08,760 --> 00:52:10,799
Speaker 5: I'm learning to love it. But it's definitely different than

1050
00:52:10,840 --> 00:52:11,560
Speaker 5: it was before.

1051
00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:14,840
Speaker 4: And it's not tight like how it was. My stomach

1052
00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:17,200
Speaker 4: has always been something that's always been flat my whole life.

1053
00:52:17,200 --> 00:52:18,719
Speaker 4: I never had to worry about it. Now it's I

1054
00:52:18,760 --> 00:52:20,960
Speaker 4: have loose skin, it's never going to be like tight

1055
00:52:21,000 --> 00:52:24,400
Speaker 4: as tight as I want it. And it's something that

1056
00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:28,040
Speaker 4: I've had to really get get used to. It's been

1057
00:52:28,120 --> 00:52:31,680
Speaker 4: like I considered getting like the tummy tuck at one

1058
00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:35,719
Speaker 4: point and then and then I was like, yeah, girl,

1059
00:52:35,760 --> 00:52:38,480
Speaker 4: I even got I went, I went to get consultations,

1060
00:52:38,520 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 4: and then they say, get the fun out of it. No,

1061
00:52:40,680 --> 00:52:43,960
Speaker 4: that's that's a disgrace honestly, the fact that they can

1062
00:52:44,000 --> 00:52:47,839
Speaker 4: say it's their girl, Erica, it's there. There's I've seen

1063
00:52:47,880 --> 00:52:50,640
Speaker 4: tummy tuck cases that Okay, yeah it's light, it's slight.

1064
00:52:50,680 --> 00:52:51,600
Speaker 4: It's not but it's but.

1065
00:52:51,600 --> 00:52:54,080
Speaker 5: There's like that is enough to be toughed. You don't

1066
00:52:54,120 --> 00:52:55,360
Speaker 5: have enough skin to be touched.

1067
00:52:55,800 --> 00:52:56,040
Speaker 7: Girl.

1068
00:52:56,120 --> 00:52:58,600
Speaker 4: No, see this little area that this the second it's

1069
00:52:58,640 --> 00:53:01,920
Speaker 4: so since second pooch here it's tiny. Yeah is that

1070
00:53:01,960 --> 00:53:05,560
Speaker 4: your see sections? No, it is down here. So this skin, well,

1071
00:53:05,680 --> 00:53:08,480
Speaker 4: it's just I mean, I know I can probably fill

1072
00:53:08,480 --> 00:53:10,920
Speaker 4: it in with muscles, like if I got really buff,

1073
00:53:11,040 --> 00:53:12,040
Speaker 4: like stretch.

1074
00:53:11,760 --> 00:53:15,120
Speaker 5: Out, but I think it's time to have no apech. Okay.

1075
00:53:15,280 --> 00:53:17,920
Speaker 3: So I was being lancy and I went and you know,

1076
00:53:18,000 --> 00:53:20,520
Speaker 3: I'm sure a lot of women can relate, but I

1077
00:53:20,800 --> 00:53:21,680
Speaker 3: didn't go through with it.

1078
00:53:21,719 --> 00:53:23,640
Speaker 4: I didn't go through with it because I was I

1079
00:53:23,680 --> 00:53:25,760
Speaker 4: kept thinking, like I don't want to fucking major scar,

1080
00:53:25,960 --> 00:53:29,319
Speaker 4: Like am I just what if something happens. No, it

1081
00:53:29,360 --> 00:53:31,360
Speaker 4: wasn't like that type of ten. It was like a

1082
00:53:31,360 --> 00:53:34,319
Speaker 4: little it was like a mini tech Okay, but it

1083
00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:36,560
Speaker 4: was enough to make me feel like, oh my god,

1084
00:53:36,760 --> 00:53:39,600
Speaker 4: like this is I'm so insecure about this, Like I

1085
00:53:39,640 --> 00:53:42,080
Speaker 4: can't change this. Yeah, we become insecure about things we're

1086
00:53:42,080 --> 00:53:43,840
Speaker 4: not used well, obviously something we're not used to it

1087
00:53:43,840 --> 00:53:46,480
Speaker 4: and it's our body and we live in First of all,

1088
00:53:46,520 --> 00:53:48,279
Speaker 4: we live in La which is the veiny of the

1089
00:53:48,400 --> 00:53:52,840
Speaker 4: veinous of all places on earth. So yeah, it's a change.

1090
00:53:52,880 --> 00:53:55,200
Speaker 4: So it's something, yeah, but naturally and as women, we're

1091
00:53:55,239 --> 00:53:57,440
Speaker 4: not made to embrace those changes.

1092
00:53:59,239 --> 00:54:02,279
Speaker 5: Start cutting it up as ramost amost go, start cleaning it.

1093
00:54:02,320 --> 00:54:08,520
Speaker 7: Okay, thank thank you, take it pick it up, baby, Okay, okay,

1094
00:54:08,600 --> 00:54:08,880
Speaker 7: thank you.

1095
00:54:09,960 --> 00:54:14,400
Speaker 4: I think my breast right like as you guys all know,

1096
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:16,600
Speaker 4: my breast friends for two and a half years, and

1097
00:54:16,640 --> 00:54:18,279
Speaker 4: I don't really hate my breast, but I do want

1098
00:54:18,320 --> 00:54:21,839
Speaker 4: to get them done eventually. Yeah this Your boots are

1099
00:54:21,880 --> 00:54:28,400
Speaker 4: like perfect perky. They are not Yeah, yeah, they're very slow.

1100
00:54:28,480 --> 00:54:30,560
Speaker 4: There's like a flat, flat, flat, flat flat.

1101
00:54:30,400 --> 00:54:33,040
Speaker 5: Boot at the bottom, but they're still small. I mean,

1102
00:54:33,120 --> 00:54:33,560
Speaker 5: so yeah.

1103
00:54:33,560 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 4: And then I also my boyfriend telling me I have

1104
00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:41,080
Speaker 4: those big ass nipples, sucking nipples, like baby sucking nipples.

1105
00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:44,680
Speaker 5: They looks like they've been sucked heavily.

1106
00:54:44,960 --> 00:54:47,080
Speaker 4: I mean, that's what just some people's nipples look like.

1107
00:54:47,160 --> 00:54:49,360
Speaker 5: I thought it was rather regular myself.

1108
00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:55,200
Speaker 4: But whatever, everyone has different nipples. Uh yeah, that's really

1109
00:54:55,920 --> 00:54:58,479
Speaker 4: I'm pretty lucky when it comes to like my body type.

1110
00:54:58,560 --> 00:55:00,120
Speaker 5: I was hoping to have gained weight.

1111
00:55:00,120 --> 00:55:03,400
Speaker 4: And I didn't, and I was pissed so like mostly

1112
00:55:03,480 --> 00:55:05,520
Speaker 4: my my breasts that changed, you know what.

1113
00:55:05,520 --> 00:55:07,799
Speaker 3: I've like this week, I felt insecure about this has

1114
00:55:07,840 --> 00:55:10,319
Speaker 3: nothing to do physical, and I had to just like

1115
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:12,719
Speaker 3: I think it was part of that whole like way

1116
00:55:12,760 --> 00:55:15,640
Speaker 3: I was feeling earlier. I started to feel and this

1117
00:55:15,719 --> 00:55:18,560
Speaker 3: sounds really terrible and I don't like I love my

1118
00:55:18,680 --> 00:55:22,840
Speaker 3: child and everything. I started to feel insecure about having

1119
00:55:22,880 --> 00:55:28,560
Speaker 3: a child and dating. Yeah, like I felt like, how

1120
00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:30,400
Speaker 3: do I should be doing it? Like no, like I

1121
00:55:30,480 --> 00:55:33,279
Speaker 3: just don't. I felt like I don't know how to

1122
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:37,279
Speaker 3: describe it, like almost like yeah, like I'm not gonna

1123
00:55:37,360 --> 00:55:38,960
Speaker 3: like I'm going to miss out on a lot of

1124
00:55:39,040 --> 00:55:41,360
Speaker 3: people because they don't want to date.

1125
00:55:41,239 --> 00:55:43,640
Speaker 4: Someone with a child. And of course I know why

1126
00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:46,719
Speaker 4: that thought came into mind, and I don't I think that,

1127
00:55:46,800 --> 00:55:49,239
Speaker 4: but that's what I'm saying, Like, it's crazy how insecurity

1128
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:52,360
Speaker 4: there's insecurities that come in to go because yeah, it

1129
00:55:52,400 --> 00:55:53,600
Speaker 4: wasn't like a strong.

1130
00:55:53,320 --> 00:55:54,840
Speaker 3: One, but it was something that I thought about and

1131
00:55:54,880 --> 00:55:57,360
Speaker 3: I felt weird about for a minute and I was like, wow,

1132
00:55:58,200 --> 00:56:00,800
Speaker 3: my life, I like it put things. It was a

1133
00:56:00,840 --> 00:56:02,680
Speaker 3: defining moment where I was like, Wow, dating with the

1134
00:56:02,760 --> 00:56:04,200
Speaker 3: child is not the same.

1135
00:56:04,440 --> 00:56:07,600
Speaker 4: It's different. It's not the same as dating with without one,

1136
00:56:07,640 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 4: and you're noticipating.

1137
00:56:08,560 --> 00:56:11,040
Speaker 3: It's something you have to adjust to, and like some

1138
00:56:11,080 --> 00:56:13,120
Speaker 3: people adjust to it just totally normal, and I think

1139
00:56:13,160 --> 00:56:15,360
Speaker 3: I did adjust to it quickly, but I like, I

1140
00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:18,200
Speaker 3: think it's also normal to have insecurities about it too.

1141
00:56:18,760 --> 00:56:20,480
Speaker 4: Fuck yeah, that was one of the first things that

1142
00:56:20,600 --> 00:56:21,839
Speaker 4: I like, I don't have to date and I'm don't

1143
00:56:21,880 --> 00:56:23,480
Speaker 4: have to tell people have the kids, which is not

1144
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:25,919
Speaker 4: a problem, Like obviously I'm not gonna I don't lead

1145
00:56:25,960 --> 00:56:27,200
Speaker 4: with that though. When I date, when I go on

1146
00:56:27,360 --> 00:56:29,120
Speaker 4: I mean, I usually like they know by the end

1147
00:56:29,120 --> 00:56:29,680
Speaker 4: of the first date.

1148
00:56:29,880 --> 00:56:32,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, but like not usually you do, like even though like.

1149
00:56:32,680 --> 00:56:35,040
Speaker 4: Like on my on my dating profiles, like I don't

1150
00:56:35,040 --> 00:56:37,400
Speaker 4: have to show my kid, you know, I don't you

1151
00:56:37,440 --> 00:56:42,640
Speaker 4: know why I did it on my previous tender. I

1152
00:56:42,680 --> 00:56:45,080
Speaker 4: someone pushed me about that too, but I thought, like

1153
00:56:45,239 --> 00:56:48,520
Speaker 4: you should know now I am a mom. Let's let's

1154
00:56:48,680 --> 00:56:50,160
Speaker 4: lead going into it. No what it is.

1155
00:56:50,200 --> 00:56:52,640
Speaker 5: So if you can't handle it, keep on keep on going.

1156
00:56:52,680 --> 00:56:55,600
Speaker 4: I understand. And also like someone because I was really

1157
00:56:55,640 --> 00:56:58,880
Speaker 4: insecure about it too, because when you date single, you're like, I'm.

1158
00:56:58,719 --> 00:56:59,840
Speaker 5: Single, I have no kids.

1159
00:57:00,480 --> 00:57:03,480
Speaker 4: I'm a most valuable player, because that's that's what like

1160
00:57:03,560 --> 00:57:03,879
Speaker 4: you think.

1161
00:57:04,200 --> 00:57:05,560
Speaker 5: Even with men, we do it. He's saying, oh he

1162
00:57:05,560 --> 00:57:07,000
Speaker 5: doesn't have the kids, he's never been married.

1163
00:57:07,080 --> 00:57:09,080
Speaker 4: These are things that are like in our mind's perks

1164
00:57:09,360 --> 00:57:12,000
Speaker 4: so naturally as women especially, we think it's like a

1165
00:57:12,040 --> 00:57:14,759
Speaker 4: non perk when we do have kids. But you know,

1166
00:57:14,800 --> 00:57:17,760
Speaker 4: my friend brought to my attention is like, girl, low key.

1167
00:57:17,800 --> 00:57:20,480
Speaker 4: It's better because you will find men who are more

1168
00:57:20,520 --> 00:57:22,320
Speaker 4: serious and they're gonna be less willing to waste your

1169
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:24,200
Speaker 4: time and they're like, oh, she has a kid, she's

1170
00:57:24,200 --> 00:57:26,560
Speaker 4: a mom. Shame play, So I kind of feel like

1171
00:57:26,600 --> 00:57:28,240
Speaker 4: what's meant for me is for me. So if you're

1172
00:57:28,280 --> 00:57:31,440
Speaker 4: not about this life, no, and I totally feel like that.

1173
00:57:31,640 --> 00:57:32,479
Speaker 5: Most of the time.

1174
00:57:32,600 --> 00:57:34,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, but but I did.

1175
00:57:34,040 --> 00:57:36,360
Speaker 3: I feel I felt like, wow, like this is gonna

1176
00:57:36,440 --> 00:57:38,280
Speaker 3: this is harder, This is gonna be harder.

1177
00:57:38,400 --> 00:57:41,800
Speaker 4: And that's also send me from your last situation and

1178
00:57:42,040 --> 00:57:45,600
Speaker 4: the word convenient. You aren't convenient or someone else is

1179
00:57:45,600 --> 00:57:47,760
Speaker 4: more convenient than you, which is code for I'm needy,

1180
00:57:47,760 --> 00:57:49,280
Speaker 4: and I don't understand that you're not going to always

1181
00:57:49,320 --> 00:57:51,480
Speaker 4: be available because you have priorities what you're your kid,

1182
00:57:51,720 --> 00:57:53,520
Speaker 4: which is not like I don't want that to be

1183
00:57:53,560 --> 00:57:55,560
Speaker 4: a priority as it should, but I can't handle it,

1184
00:57:55,880 --> 00:57:58,560
Speaker 4: which in my I mean, that's honest, but it's also unmature.

1185
00:57:59,200 --> 00:58:01,840
Speaker 4: But it's also someone's choice. But I think that's the

1186
00:58:01,880 --> 00:58:05,080
Speaker 4: only reason, like recently that ree came up in your

1187
00:58:05,080 --> 00:58:07,160
Speaker 4: mind this week, because I think other than that, it

1188
00:58:07,200 --> 00:58:10,919
Speaker 4: probably wouldn't happen. Yeah, I know. And because of that though,

1189
00:58:10,960 --> 00:58:13,680
Speaker 4: I thought like, damn, like this is something that probably

1190
00:58:13,760 --> 00:58:15,680
Speaker 4: might come up again, and I need to know how

1191
00:58:15,680 --> 00:58:18,640
Speaker 4: to deal with this right or not. That's what I mean, like,

1192
00:58:18,720 --> 00:58:21,160
Speaker 4: not let it make me feel this way because because

1193
00:58:21,160 --> 00:58:23,000
Speaker 4: it did, and I was like, oh, I don't like that.

1194
00:58:23,120 --> 00:58:25,240
Speaker 5: I don't like that I can even have those thoughts.

1195
00:58:25,480 --> 00:58:29,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, And then I noticed as moms dating guys who

1196
00:58:29,480 --> 00:58:34,480
Speaker 4: don't have kids, I get really defensive about men who

1197
00:58:34,600 --> 00:58:39,439
Speaker 4: don't have kids, putting giving me input about like my mother,

1198
00:58:39,920 --> 00:58:44,680
Speaker 4: like oh you smell or oh she's still up, you know.

1199
00:58:44,880 --> 00:58:47,200
Speaker 4: After it was random guy on tender and he was like, hey,

1200
00:58:47,280 --> 00:58:49,560
Speaker 4: called me one night. He's like an old school guy

1201
00:58:49,920 --> 00:58:53,080
Speaker 4: and he's like, oh she's still up. It's ten o'clock.

1202
00:58:53,080 --> 00:58:56,200
Speaker 5: And I'm like, yeah, shit happens. But like my other

1203
00:58:56,240 --> 00:58:57,400
Speaker 5: thing is like, look.

1204
00:58:58,560 --> 00:59:01,280
Speaker 4: Yo, if you don't have me fucking kids, you'd have

1205
00:59:01,360 --> 00:59:03,439
Speaker 4: no clue how this shit is. Because she's a grown

1206
00:59:03,480 --> 00:59:05,439
Speaker 4: woman that she doesn't listen to shit. I have to say,

1207
00:59:06,880 --> 00:59:08,200
Speaker 4: I can't wait till you get a kid, give me

1208
00:59:08,240 --> 00:59:10,960
Speaker 4: a call. And yeah, it's like you're judging me, and

1209
00:59:11,080 --> 00:59:12,520
Speaker 4: you're probably like, oh, she doesn't.

1210
00:59:12,280 --> 00:59:13,880
Speaker 5: Have her kid together, she's you know.

1211
00:59:14,320 --> 00:59:17,520
Speaker 4: But there's there's all types of variations of insecurities and

1212
00:59:17,640 --> 00:59:20,960
Speaker 4: that comes from you so much shit, including being a mom,

1213
00:59:20,960 --> 00:59:24,360
Speaker 4: which I think is totally fucking sexist because I doubt

1214
00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:28,160
Speaker 4: very seriously. You'll hear any single dads who feel any

1215
00:59:28,240 --> 00:59:30,760
Speaker 4: less than the rankings because they have a kid. I mean,

1216
00:59:30,800 --> 00:59:33,440
Speaker 4: and if they do, it's so slight. It's so slight.

1217
00:59:33,520 --> 00:59:36,080
Speaker 4: I think they probably do, but it's it's definitely not

1218
00:59:36,160 --> 00:59:39,360
Speaker 4: a deal breaker. It's definitely heavier on the deal breaker

1219
00:59:39,400 --> 00:59:43,959
Speaker 4: side for THEE for women anything. I was gonna ask,

1220
00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:48,440
Speaker 4: So we're talking about our insecurities about ourselves, but.

1221
00:59:50,240 --> 00:59:52,520
Speaker 5: How do you have you ever dated an insecure guy?

1222
00:59:52,960 --> 00:59:54,960
Speaker 5: And how did that work out for you?

1223
00:59:55,120 --> 00:59:59,280
Speaker 4: Horrible? Yeah, insecure men are the words.

1224
00:59:59,480 --> 01:00:00,360
Speaker 5: Let me repea this.

1225
01:00:01,040 --> 01:00:08,480
Speaker 4: An insecure man is the fucking worst, the fucking worst

1226
01:00:08,640 --> 01:00:11,640
Speaker 4: shit ever, the worst species of a man. It really is.

1227
01:00:11,680 --> 01:00:16,160
Speaker 4: It's a fucking turn off because for all, first of all,

1228
01:00:16,240 --> 01:00:22,680
Speaker 4: versus Burkio and cancer and we's wild. No, but I

1229
01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:26,760
Speaker 4: have a lot of personality. I'm not even to man horn,

1230
01:00:26,880 --> 01:00:30,200
Speaker 4: I'm the bomb. No, I'm a people person as fuck.

1231
01:00:30,400 --> 01:00:33,560
Speaker 4: And I genuinely I say this so much. I genuinely

1232
01:00:33,640 --> 01:00:36,000
Speaker 4: love people, like I really like to get to know

1233
01:00:36,000 --> 01:00:38,240
Speaker 4: different people. I really like to like talk to people.

1234
01:00:38,320 --> 01:00:40,760
Speaker 4: I like to work the room. You're so different, You're

1235
01:00:40,800 --> 01:00:43,360
Speaker 4: so different, I know, but I like not a people

1236
01:00:43,400 --> 01:00:45,080
Speaker 4: person sometimes I am. It depends.

1237
01:00:45,320 --> 01:00:48,680
Speaker 5: I love people. I love how the different variations they

1238
01:00:48,720 --> 01:00:48,960
Speaker 5: come in.

1239
01:00:49,000 --> 01:00:51,960
Speaker 4: I like talking to people, like being inspired and just

1240
01:00:52,600 --> 01:00:56,480
Speaker 4: getting anxiety thinking about it. So like, you know, some

1241
01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:59,200
Speaker 4: guys don't want you to be so hella topic I've gotten,

1242
01:00:59,200 --> 01:01:03,280
Speaker 4: Oh you're so friendly, which means you're kind of poochying

1243
01:01:03,320 --> 01:01:06,040
Speaker 4: around the room. But if you don't know, I came

1244
01:01:06,080 --> 01:01:10,680
Speaker 4: with you and you're not like exuding confidence and like

1245
01:01:11,800 --> 01:01:13,120
Speaker 4: you're doing you well, I'm doing me.

1246
01:01:13,240 --> 01:01:14,200
Speaker 5: It's very annoying.

1247
01:01:14,240 --> 01:01:16,720
Speaker 4: And not even just that, Like Ani who calls you

1248
01:01:16,840 --> 01:01:20,760
Speaker 4: constantly is the most fucking annoying shit I've ever experienced

1249
01:01:20,800 --> 01:01:23,840
Speaker 4: in my life. My ex could call me I kid

1250
01:01:23,880 --> 01:01:26,640
Speaker 4: you not. It's like seventy eight times in a row.

1251
01:01:26,680 --> 01:01:28,040
Speaker 4: At night, I would have like one hundred and.

1252
01:01:28,080 --> 01:01:30,320
Speaker 3: Forty text messages that would be like my ex too,

1253
01:01:30,400 --> 01:01:33,280
Speaker 3: not my baby daddy, but the one before him, Oh

1254
01:01:33,360 --> 01:01:33,800
Speaker 3: my god.

1255
01:01:33,960 --> 01:01:36,600
Speaker 4: Yeah. Yeah. It was just it's just it becomes a

1256
01:01:36,640 --> 01:01:39,320
Speaker 4: turn off, Like you don't at first, like at least

1257
01:01:39,320 --> 01:01:41,680
Speaker 4: for me, at first, it like was like we felt

1258
01:01:41,720 --> 01:01:44,200
Speaker 4: like it felt like an obsession between the both of us,

1259
01:01:44,680 --> 01:01:47,920
Speaker 4: and then at some point, like I think I was

1260
01:01:48,000 --> 01:01:48,959
Speaker 4: young too, and then.

1261
01:01:48,880 --> 01:01:51,200
Speaker 5: You realized like this is this is not cure, It's not.

1262
01:01:51,280 --> 01:01:54,080
Speaker 4: You just love me, Like this is fucking annoying. You're

1263
01:01:54,280 --> 01:01:56,560
Speaker 4: trying to like fill some void that I can't fill.

1264
01:01:57,880 --> 01:02:01,960
Speaker 4: My ex used to fuck me and asked me questions.

1265
01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:07,520
Speaker 4: Remember fucking interrogations. He would literally gas.

1266
01:02:07,360 --> 01:02:09,280
Speaker 5: So tell me where you were.

1267
01:02:09,360 --> 01:02:12,560
Speaker 4: I was like, I already told you you're really fucking

1268
01:02:12,640 --> 01:02:15,160
Speaker 4: up the sex here because I can't focus when you're

1269
01:02:15,160 --> 01:02:16,920
Speaker 4: asking me so many questions. But he was dead serious,

1270
01:02:16,960 --> 01:02:18,760
Speaker 4: and I was like, I can't believe you would fuck

1271
01:02:18,800 --> 01:02:21,800
Speaker 4: you and ask you question didn't he had already asked

1272
01:02:21,800 --> 01:02:24,320
Speaker 4: me when he like, asked you sexy, Like, I guess

1273
01:02:24,320 --> 01:02:28,080
Speaker 4: that was how after fifteen times.

1274
01:02:27,800 --> 01:02:30,320
Speaker 5: Of it, have you fucked anybody else?

1275
01:02:30,800 --> 01:02:31,040
Speaker 4: Are you?

1276
01:02:31,400 --> 01:02:32,800
Speaker 5: I'm like, shut the fucking looks.

1277
01:02:32,760 --> 01:02:33,040
Speaker 4: Stop?

1278
01:02:33,120 --> 01:02:35,760
Speaker 3: Maybe like maybe he thought. He was like like tell

1279
01:02:35,800 --> 01:02:38,080
Speaker 3: me it's mine, tell me literally like just tell me

1280
01:02:38,360 --> 01:02:40,920
Speaker 3: just just I'm like, no, just have you ever been

1281
01:02:40,960 --> 01:02:44,720
Speaker 3: like actually I do to be like, yeah, no, I have,

1282
01:02:45,000 --> 01:02:45,480
Speaker 3: Yeah I did?

1283
01:02:46,000 --> 01:02:47,320
Speaker 4: Did you? I'm like I don't know. I thought you

1284
01:02:47,360 --> 01:02:48,680
Speaker 4: want me to say yes because you, like I thought

1285
01:02:48,680 --> 01:02:51,840
Speaker 4: maybe it would turn I didn't stop. Yeah, I thought

1286
01:02:51,880 --> 01:02:53,800
Speaker 4: maybe it would turn you off. I thought there was

1287
01:02:53,840 --> 01:02:56,840
Speaker 4: a creature behind you. I'm so paranoid, you're so parsed.

1288
01:02:56,840 --> 01:03:02,800
Speaker 3: But no, I can't the for me in that relationship

1289
01:03:02,880 --> 01:03:04,640
Speaker 3: that I was in where he was super jealous and I.

1290
01:03:04,680 --> 01:03:08,040
Speaker 4: Just it just became obsessive.

1291
01:03:08,200 --> 01:03:10,240
Speaker 3: I feel like when you're in a jealous relationship, it's

1292
01:03:10,280 --> 01:03:14,360
Speaker 3: it's it's doomed to become physical at some point. Almost

1293
01:03:14,760 --> 01:03:19,400
Speaker 3: if it's not like, if it's not emotionally abusive, that

1294
01:03:19,480 --> 01:03:22,320
Speaker 3: it's going to become physically abusive, because it leads to that.

1295
01:03:22,480 --> 01:03:24,800
Speaker 5: You're right, because there's a that is so true.

1296
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Speaker 4: I never thought, but there's a fucking thin line between

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01:03:29,080 --> 01:03:31,240
Speaker 4: you know, I'm just casually asking you some shit too,

1298
01:03:31,800 --> 01:03:36,400
Speaker 4: I'm I'm haggling you like it's it's it's intense because

1299
01:03:36,400 --> 01:03:38,880
Speaker 4: they build up this whole story in their mind of

1300
01:03:38,920 --> 01:03:41,200
Speaker 4: what you're doing, and then they can't be convinced otherwise.

1301
01:03:41,320 --> 01:03:43,920
Speaker 3: And then and don't get me wrong, I think I've

1302
01:03:44,040 --> 01:03:45,440
Speaker 3: I've been insecure.

1303
01:03:45,560 --> 01:03:48,520
Speaker 4: I think everyone has been insecure relationships before. I think

1304
01:03:48,600 --> 01:03:50,919
Speaker 4: obviously they show up in different ways. Because even when

1305
01:03:51,360 --> 01:03:53,480
Speaker 4: you were asking me earlier, like would you rather be

1306
01:03:53,560 --> 01:03:55,120
Speaker 4: in like a super like would you rather be the

1307
01:03:55,160 --> 01:03:58,760
Speaker 4: really super jealous guy who's insecure, or like someone who

1308
01:03:58,960 --> 01:04:01,640
Speaker 4: just doesn't care at all, And like, obviously I would

1309
01:04:01,720 --> 01:04:03,840
Speaker 4: rather be with someone who doesn't care at all because

1310
01:04:03,880 --> 01:04:05,720
Speaker 4: the other side of it is too much, but like

1311
01:04:05,840 --> 01:04:08,280
Speaker 4: obviously you want the healthy medium both. Like for example,

1312
01:04:08,360 --> 01:04:12,560
Speaker 4: my ex was he after getting out of that extremely

1313
01:04:12,720 --> 01:04:18,360
Speaker 4: like helicopter relationship dating my ex my baby daddy, like

1314
01:04:18,560 --> 01:04:20,360
Speaker 4: he was so chill, like he just let me.

1315
01:04:20,280 --> 01:04:23,520
Speaker 3: Do whatever I wanted, like no questions asked, Like, baby,

1316
01:04:23,520 --> 01:04:27,760
Speaker 3: I trust you and I love that show. Three years

1317
01:04:27,800 --> 01:04:30,280
Speaker 3: when me and Erica first started hanging out, like again,

1318
01:04:30,360 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 3: we started hanging out mostly to make the kids hang out,

1319
01:04:32,440 --> 01:04:34,400
Speaker 3: so we didn't have any friends with kids, and so

1320
01:04:34,600 --> 01:04:35,480
Speaker 3: like we just start.

1321
01:04:35,320 --> 01:04:37,160
Speaker 4: Talking because what the fuck else are we gonna do?

1322
01:04:37,440 --> 01:04:39,680
Speaker 4: So I'm like, no, my Bavie's he's knowing as fuck.

1323
01:04:40,000 --> 01:04:42,000
Speaker 4: Oh he just asked me one million questions, call me

1324
01:04:42,000 --> 01:04:43,040
Speaker 4: one million fucking times.

1325
01:04:43,080 --> 01:04:46,080
Speaker 5: She's like, really, I could leave the house naked.

1326
01:04:46,080 --> 01:04:47,720
Speaker 4: And a naked could be picking me up and my

1327
01:04:47,800 --> 01:04:50,080
Speaker 4: baby like peace, I'll catch you later. I was like what,

1328
01:04:50,240 --> 01:04:52,800
Speaker 4: She's like, Yeah, it's fucking weird. Yeah, And I'm like

1329
01:04:52,840 --> 01:04:55,600
Speaker 4: I hadn't I couldn't even imagine it. I'm like, you're lucky. Yeah.

1330
01:04:55,880 --> 01:04:57,640
Speaker 4: I mean, at first it was cool, and then it.

1331
01:04:57,600 --> 01:04:59,200
Speaker 3: Got to the point where like when I found out

1332
01:04:59,240 --> 01:05:01,280
Speaker 3: he was doing them an shit he shouldn't be doing.

1333
01:05:01,560 --> 01:05:03,640
Speaker 3: Then I was like, oh, that's why you don't ask me,

1334
01:05:03,840 --> 01:05:05,800
Speaker 3: because because you don'tant me to ask you shit.

1335
01:05:06,160 --> 01:05:07,520
Speaker 4: So then I even started to girl.

1336
01:05:07,800 --> 01:05:10,160
Speaker 3: I tried to get him to like, I tried to

1337
01:05:10,160 --> 01:05:11,880
Speaker 3: get him mad at like me and my friend devised

1338
01:05:11,880 --> 01:05:15,720
Speaker 3: a whole plan witch like my friend's like, oh my god,

1339
01:05:15,720 --> 01:05:18,720
Speaker 3: my home, but yes she was. He was like, I'm

1340
01:05:18,720 --> 01:05:21,080
Speaker 3: gonna call you three am. Like I'm gonna call you

1341
01:05:21,160 --> 01:05:24,080
Speaker 3: like four times, make sure your ringers on. And I

1342
01:05:24,120 --> 01:05:26,040
Speaker 3: was like okay. So he called me, and he called

1343
01:05:26,080 --> 01:05:29,320
Speaker 3: me and Nia did not wake up. Then finally the

1344
01:05:29,360 --> 01:05:31,840
Speaker 3: third time he woke up, I answered and then I

1345
01:05:31,920 --> 01:05:33,560
Speaker 3: was like hey.

1346
01:05:33,840 --> 01:05:37,480
Speaker 4: And then like then I was like, I don't know.

1347
01:05:37,520 --> 01:05:39,760
Speaker 3: We had like I got really nervous too, I got scared,

1348
01:05:40,240 --> 01:05:42,080
Speaker 3: and then like we had a talk and then we

1349
01:05:42,440 --> 01:05:44,720
Speaker 3: hung up and then Freddy was like, you're good.

1350
01:05:45,120 --> 01:05:50,040
Speaker 4: Okay. I was like what the fuck. I was like,

1351
01:05:50,080 --> 01:05:50,600
Speaker 4: we're over.

1352
01:05:51,040 --> 01:05:55,880
Speaker 10: He doesn't care, so but but so his insecurity is

1353
01:05:55,920 --> 01:05:59,040
Speaker 10: that he obviously needs to seek attention, but he needs

1354
01:05:59,040 --> 01:06:01,760
Speaker 10: attention from everyone, which is why you know, he doesn't

1355
01:06:01,800 --> 01:06:03,680
Speaker 10: want me asking him what he's doing because he knows

1356
01:06:03,720 --> 01:06:04,640
Speaker 10: he's not doing anything.

1357
01:06:04,720 --> 01:06:08,280
Speaker 3: So it's just it's just interesting how insecurities show up

1358
01:06:08,280 --> 01:06:08,919
Speaker 3: in different ways.

1359
01:06:08,960 --> 01:06:13,280
Speaker 4: Because my baby's daddy would literally it was so bad.

1360
01:06:13,320 --> 01:06:15,360
Speaker 4: The trust issues was so bad, Like I went out

1361
01:06:15,520 --> 01:06:18,280
Speaker 4: not to go places because it was just so, it

1362
01:06:18,320 --> 01:06:21,240
Speaker 4: was just I'd rather not deal with it. But then

1363
01:06:21,280 --> 01:06:25,600
Speaker 4: I would like find screenshots from bumble from fucking tender.

1364
01:06:25,760 --> 01:06:29,520
Speaker 4: I'm like, Yo, you're a fucking idiot. I'm like, you

1365
01:06:29,560 --> 01:06:32,960
Speaker 4: treat me like a child. No, oh my god. He

1366
01:06:33,000 --> 01:06:36,440
Speaker 4: would say when I would go out, let's be good, okay,

1367
01:06:36,520 --> 01:06:37,680
Speaker 4: be good, which is a trigger.

1368
01:06:38,080 --> 01:06:39,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, I read that shit.

1369
01:06:39,880 --> 01:06:43,480
Speaker 4: I'm not a goddamn puppy okay, and I'm not your child.

1370
01:06:43,760 --> 01:06:45,400
Speaker 4: What the fuck? This? Be good? Me a read a

1371
01:06:45,400 --> 01:06:46,360
Speaker 4: relationship or the fuck.

1372
01:06:47,720 --> 01:06:50,360
Speaker 3: It's so it's like sets the tone before you walk

1373
01:06:50,360 --> 01:06:53,240
Speaker 3: out that door, like I'm yeah, I'm going to fuck

1374
01:06:53,320 --> 01:06:53,720
Speaker 3: up your night.

1375
01:06:53,800 --> 01:06:56,400
Speaker 4: Now, don't be this is another quote. Oh my god,

1376
01:06:56,400 --> 01:06:58,760
Speaker 4: I have so many text messages. Don't be out the door. No,

1377
01:06:58,880 --> 01:06:59,320
Speaker 4: hoho shit.

1378
01:07:00,040 --> 01:07:04,400
Speaker 5: Who oh, it's like fourteen million times. Don't get there,

1379
01:07:04,400 --> 01:07:06,280
Speaker 5: don't know ho shit. I'm like, what is th shit?

1380
01:07:07,640 --> 01:07:11,080
Speaker 4: I'm what qualified? No, But I'm like, you keep telling

1381
01:07:11,120 --> 01:07:13,000
Speaker 4: me that I'm going to do the hot shit exactly

1382
01:07:13,040 --> 01:07:15,080
Speaker 4: because it's not like you don't try. And that's exactly

1383
01:07:15,160 --> 01:07:15,720
Speaker 4: what happened in.

1384
01:07:15,640 --> 01:07:18,120
Speaker 3: My last relationship. He always thought I was cheating on him,

1385
01:07:18,160 --> 01:07:20,400
Speaker 3: that I fucking cheated on him. Yeah, they're like, you know,

1386
01:07:20,520 --> 01:07:21,840
Speaker 3: I ended up just cheating. I was like, I might

1387
01:07:21,840 --> 01:07:25,440
Speaker 3: as well be cheating because apparently I'm cheating already girl.

1388
01:07:26,200 --> 01:07:29,080
Speaker 4: And then like, first of all, I was so out

1389
01:07:29,080 --> 01:07:31,080
Speaker 4: of the relationship and in the relationship like it was

1390
01:07:31,160 --> 01:07:31,520
Speaker 4: she had.

1391
01:07:31,480 --> 01:07:33,160
Speaker 5: Been over a long time ago. Literally, I was probably

1392
01:07:33,200 --> 01:07:34,200
Speaker 5: like pregnant.

1393
01:07:34,160 --> 01:07:37,200
Speaker 4: Finding and they're gonna tender and she texting bitches. I

1394
01:07:37,360 --> 01:07:41,120
Speaker 4: was like, you're a fucking idiot that you would give

1395
01:07:41,160 --> 01:07:43,520
Speaker 4: me this much stress and this much bullshit, and how

1396
01:07:43,560 --> 01:07:45,919
Speaker 4: my friends were like, of course he's projecting, because that's

1397
01:07:45,920 --> 01:07:47,040
Speaker 4: what the fuck he's doing.

1398
01:07:47,400 --> 01:07:49,800
Speaker 5: So I was like, this doesn't make any sense. I'm

1399
01:07:49,840 --> 01:07:50,440
Speaker 5: so confused.

1400
01:07:50,480 --> 01:07:51,280
Speaker 4: I'm so over it.

1401
01:07:51,560 --> 01:07:52,600
Speaker 5: And it did develop.

1402
01:07:52,640 --> 01:07:57,280
Speaker 4: My relationship became very hostile, very abusive and and even

1403
01:07:57,360 --> 01:08:00,560
Speaker 4: to the point like before it got physical, is fucking

1404
01:08:01,120 --> 01:08:04,120
Speaker 4: emotionally abusive, like hoh shit, you'll be like, you know

1405
01:08:04,160 --> 01:08:06,560
Speaker 4: what everybody's how everybody thinks that you want. It was

1406
01:08:06,640 --> 01:08:10,480
Speaker 4: just like trying to just strip me and luck, I

1407
01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:12,880
Speaker 4: mean lucky for him eventually I did. I was like

1408
01:08:13,000 --> 01:08:15,280
Speaker 4: numb to it, and I wouldn't like see it because

1409
01:08:15,320 --> 01:08:17,200
Speaker 4: I saw him as a child and like.

1410
01:08:17,600 --> 01:08:18,280
Speaker 5: As my baby.

1411
01:08:18,479 --> 01:08:20,840
Speaker 4: But I was just like it was over it now

1412
01:08:20,920 --> 01:08:25,479
Speaker 4: to this day, honestly, like it's a trigger any kind

1413
01:08:25,479 --> 01:08:29,320
Speaker 4: of fucking rules, any kind of fucking any insecurities, and

1414
01:08:29,320 --> 01:08:31,040
Speaker 4: of course we all have in securities and relationships. It's

1415
01:08:31,040 --> 01:08:32,519
Speaker 4: a part of like being the part to be sure

1416
01:08:32,960 --> 01:08:36,720
Speaker 4: that shit, I'm like, ooh, run, bitch, run, I don't

1417
01:08:36,800 --> 01:08:37,880
Speaker 4: have no time for this.

1418
01:08:38,400 --> 01:08:40,120
Speaker 5: That's probably the point where I'm like, maybe I do,

1419
01:08:40,360 --> 01:08:44,400
Speaker 5: you know, open relationship because I have zero time for

1420
01:08:44,400 --> 01:08:45,680
Speaker 5: anyone to feel like they own me.

1421
01:08:46,120 --> 01:08:49,200
Speaker 4: And I feel like I people get in relationships with

1422
01:08:49,240 --> 01:08:52,000
Speaker 4: people for like the same reasons they love them, They

1423
01:08:52,040 --> 01:08:53,120
Speaker 4: find reasons to hate.

1424
01:08:53,200 --> 01:08:54,599
Speaker 5: They find reasons to hate them for.

1425
01:08:56,200 --> 01:08:59,000
Speaker 4: Oh cool this, Like they may love you because you

1426
01:08:59,000 --> 01:09:00,920
Speaker 4: can work a room like you can debate people because

1427
01:09:00,920 --> 01:09:03,120
Speaker 4: you're charming, because people love you, and then for that

1428
01:09:03,200 --> 01:09:05,880
Speaker 4: same reason, they'll they'll fucking start meeting you and not

1429
01:09:05,880 --> 01:09:10,840
Speaker 4: be able to handle that and become deeply insecure, and uh,

1430
01:09:11,360 --> 01:09:14,960
Speaker 4: that's I will never date like that ever again.

1431
01:09:16,080 --> 01:09:18,880
Speaker 3: I think it's like you have to be able to

1432
01:09:18,920 --> 01:09:20,840
Speaker 3: find or you you hope.

1433
01:09:20,600 --> 01:09:23,400
Speaker 4: To find a balance, you know what I mean. And

1434
01:09:23,880 --> 01:09:28,120
Speaker 4: you know it's just everyone was going to have a

1435
01:09:28,160 --> 01:09:29,080
Speaker 4: little insecurity.

1436
01:09:29,160 --> 01:09:32,920
Speaker 3: I know, I realized in my last dating situation that

1437
01:09:33,000 --> 01:09:35,320
Speaker 3: I still am not over a lot of my insecurities

1438
01:09:35,320 --> 01:09:36,480
Speaker 3: for my last relationship.

1439
01:09:36,640 --> 01:09:39,439
Speaker 4: And you know, my.

1440
01:09:39,520 --> 01:09:42,919
Speaker 3: Insecurity is in my relationship where that I just constantly

1441
01:09:42,920 --> 01:09:45,479
Speaker 3: felt like I had to keep my partner's attention that

1442
01:09:45,640 --> 01:09:49,560
Speaker 3: like I you know, then my physic then physical insecurity

1443
01:09:49,600 --> 01:09:51,599
Speaker 3: started to come into play because I saw the women

1444
01:09:51,640 --> 01:09:54,120
Speaker 3: that he was looking at on Instagram that that maybe

1445
01:09:54,120 --> 01:09:55,760
Speaker 3: I didn't look like at that time because I just

1446
01:09:55,800 --> 01:09:58,280
Speaker 3: had a baby, or even before the baby, like my

1447
01:09:58,720 --> 01:10:01,200
Speaker 3: like I didn't have like a like my booty.

1448
01:10:00,880 --> 01:10:02,040
Speaker 4: Wasn't big enough and all these shit.

1449
01:10:02,080 --> 01:10:04,160
Speaker 3: That shit that like didn't really bother me at first,

1450
01:10:04,240 --> 01:10:06,880
Speaker 3: but the more and more it's just the longer the

1451
01:10:06,920 --> 01:10:09,599
Speaker 3: relationship happened, the more in scare I got, oh for sure,

1452
01:10:09,680 --> 01:10:12,360
Speaker 3: And you know, I guess those are my insecurities.

1453
01:10:12,360 --> 01:10:12,800
Speaker 4: I never was.

1454
01:10:12,800 --> 01:10:14,840
Speaker 3: I've never been the type of girl to look through

1455
01:10:14,840 --> 01:10:17,920
Speaker 3: your phone. I think maybe I've done it like maybe

1456
01:10:17,920 --> 01:10:19,960
Speaker 3: two or three times in my life. I think also

1457
01:10:20,000 --> 01:10:21,920
Speaker 3: because I know I'm going to find something. You look

1458
01:10:21,960 --> 01:10:24,360
Speaker 3: you're gonna find. But also and I know I don't

1459
01:10:24,360 --> 01:10:26,240
Speaker 3: want people going through my shit because you look, you're

1460
01:10:26,240 --> 01:10:28,160
Speaker 3: gonna find something that might be a little inappropriate.

1461
01:10:28,160 --> 01:10:30,599
Speaker 4: Doesn't mean I cheated, but or you'll you'll make it,

1462
01:10:30,600 --> 01:10:32,920
Speaker 4: you'll translate, you translate it that way. But I also

1463
01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:35,840
Speaker 4: learned dating an insecure man or being an instacure relationship

1464
01:10:35,880 --> 01:10:37,320
Speaker 4: period makes my pussy dry.

1465
01:10:37,400 --> 01:10:38,519
Speaker 5: It makes me very drum.

1466
01:10:39,000 --> 01:10:41,800
Speaker 4: But it will also start making things that are not

1467
01:10:42,000 --> 01:10:43,800
Speaker 4: have not been normal to you previously.

1468
01:10:44,160 --> 01:10:45,240
Speaker 5: It will be tied for tat.

1469
01:10:45,400 --> 01:10:46,880
Speaker 4: So I am not a look here through the phone,

1470
01:10:46,920 --> 01:10:48,960
Speaker 4: because I'm guaranteed I'm going to find some shit, So

1471
01:10:49,040 --> 01:10:51,280
Speaker 4: I look when I need the proof, not already know.

1472
01:10:51,840 --> 01:10:54,160
Speaker 4: But I start to be this person that I wasn't

1473
01:10:54,479 --> 01:10:57,599
Speaker 4: calling and then questioning because I'm trying to be spiteful

1474
01:10:57,640 --> 01:10:59,000
Speaker 4: and get you back, because I want you to know

1475
01:10:59,040 --> 01:11:01,320
Speaker 4: how fucking annoying it write that or like, see you're

1476
01:11:01,320 --> 01:11:03,320
Speaker 4: doing that too, so fuck you. But low key the

1477
01:11:03,400 --> 01:11:06,439
Speaker 4: crazy ist thing is nick like nigga's like that like

1478
01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:09,240
Speaker 4: it they're like, oh you love me, Oh I ain't

1479
01:11:09,280 --> 01:11:13,240
Speaker 4: doing nothing, baby like crazy and I just like I

1480
01:11:13,439 --> 01:11:17,799
Speaker 4: don't even want to begin that healthy that unhealthy like relate,

1481
01:11:17,960 --> 01:11:19,479
Speaker 4: Like it's literally a tip for tat and then you

1482
01:11:19,479 --> 01:11:22,000
Speaker 4: get attached and then you just it's this fucking horrible

1483
01:11:22,040 --> 01:11:23,759
Speaker 4: cycle of unhealthy bullshit.

1484
01:11:24,520 --> 01:11:27,200
Speaker 5: So no insecure niggas.

1485
01:11:27,280 --> 01:11:31,800
Speaker 3: Sure, yeah, it's it's a very big turn off.

1486
01:11:32,240 --> 01:11:34,920
Speaker 4: I mean I can't say no insecure niggas.

1487
01:11:34,960 --> 01:11:37,160
Speaker 3: Every person, like I say, it has insecurity, but just

1488
01:11:37,200 --> 01:11:39,559
Speaker 3: don't lead with it. Yeah, Like like she said, like

1489
01:11:39,600 --> 01:11:42,639
Speaker 3: should I like it? Going back to the person who said,

1490
01:11:42,840 --> 01:11:45,519
Speaker 3: who uh wrote to us and our DM, she said.

1491
01:11:45,280 --> 01:11:49,680
Speaker 4: Should I lead with this insecurity when dating? Absolutely not.

1492
01:11:49,880 --> 01:11:53,719
Speaker 3: Nobody wants to know your insecurities up front, Like because

1493
01:11:53,800 --> 01:11:54,280
Speaker 3: of course.

1494
01:11:54,200 --> 01:11:55,320
Speaker 4: Everyone has their insecurities.

1495
01:11:55,320 --> 01:11:58,360
Speaker 3: It's not to say to hide them, but like that's

1496
01:11:58,400 --> 01:12:00,000
Speaker 3: not nobody wants to hear this shit on the first day.

1497
01:12:00,040 --> 01:12:01,680
Speaker 4: Oh, by the way, like cause it does come it

1498
01:12:01,720 --> 01:12:05,200
Speaker 4: comes off very insecure and unsure of yourself, and it

1499
01:12:05,200 --> 01:12:08,400
Speaker 4: doesn't come off cute, it doesn't come off like comfortable. Okay, girl,

1500
01:12:08,479 --> 01:12:10,640
Speaker 4: let me, oh, let me make you feel secure, at

1501
01:12:10,720 --> 01:12:11,240
Speaker 4: least not for me.

1502
01:12:11,280 --> 01:12:12,960
Speaker 3: And maybe some man likes that. And those are the

1503
01:12:12,960 --> 01:12:16,040
Speaker 3: type of men that are gonna pray on you. Yeah,

1504
01:12:16,120 --> 01:12:18,200
Speaker 3: she has a weakness. Oh she's not.

1505
01:12:18,520 --> 01:12:21,559
Speaker 4: She's not. They're already gonna pray on you. Yeah, Vagina,

1506
01:12:22,000 --> 01:12:23,080
Speaker 4: they're already gonna pray.

1507
01:12:23,160 --> 01:12:25,599
Speaker 5: As soon as a man finds your weakness, they.

1508
01:12:25,479 --> 01:12:29,280
Speaker 3: Will like exploit it like no other thing you've ever

1509
01:12:29,320 --> 01:12:29,840
Speaker 3: seen before.

1510
01:12:30,240 --> 01:12:34,639
Speaker 5: My ex used to date like some old school Insta video.

1511
01:12:34,720 --> 01:12:34,760
Speaker 2: Ho.

1512
01:12:35,800 --> 01:12:37,080
Speaker 5: I wish I could say her name, but I'm not

1513
01:12:37,120 --> 01:12:38,040
Speaker 5: gonna give her that much of it.

1514
01:12:38,200 --> 01:12:39,920
Speaker 4: Do I know? She is probably not?

1515
01:12:39,960 --> 01:12:41,040
Speaker 5: How many instas are there?

1516
01:12:43,320 --> 01:12:47,360
Speaker 4: Sounds familiar, sounds like thats like an Instase name whatever.

1517
01:12:47,800 --> 01:12:49,800
Speaker 4: But she had like a real big fake body like

1518
01:12:49,920 --> 01:12:53,679
Speaker 4: she's Latina. She had like long like hair. She's reminded

1519
01:12:53,680 --> 01:12:55,280
Speaker 4: me that you can't dress that well, you know, think

1520
01:12:55,360 --> 01:12:58,000
Speaker 4: boobs like her face was a very cute, but obviously,

1521
01:12:58,040 --> 01:13:01,120
Speaker 4: again my body is nothing like that. So I'm like,

1522
01:13:01,160 --> 01:13:01,680
Speaker 4: how do you like this?

1523
01:13:01,800 --> 01:13:02,000
Speaker 10: Both?

1524
01:13:02,120 --> 01:13:04,280
Speaker 4: Like I had found a video of him fucking and

1525
01:13:04,280 --> 01:13:06,000
Speaker 4: I could not get the image out of my head.

1526
01:13:06,040 --> 01:13:08,240
Speaker 4: I couldn't have been Oh god. And that's another thing.

1527
01:13:08,280 --> 01:13:10,800
Speaker 4: If I would leave, I was so this is on

1528
01:13:10,840 --> 01:13:13,240
Speaker 4: the other side. I was so paranoid about this nigga

1529
01:13:13,320 --> 01:13:15,880
Speaker 4: and we moved in together. Like any notebooks from the

1530
01:13:16,479 --> 01:13:20,600
Speaker 4: twelfth grade, any any anything on my computer, I was

1531
01:13:20,760 --> 01:13:22,920
Speaker 4: mortified to leave them because I know the nigga would

1532
01:13:22,920 --> 01:13:26,240
Speaker 4: just be like go through everything. Oh my god.

1533
01:13:26,280 --> 01:13:27,760
Speaker 3: That's how I was like. I'd be like, oh my god,

1534
01:13:27,800 --> 01:13:29,120
Speaker 3: I look my computer over, but he's gonna go through

1535
01:13:29,120 --> 01:13:30,640
Speaker 3: my email like that was I was.

1536
01:13:30,840 --> 01:13:33,880
Speaker 4: I remember being stressed out about leaving shit so many things.

1537
01:13:33,920 --> 01:13:36,920
Speaker 4: You know, you didn't do anything, and I'm like, did

1538
01:13:36,920 --> 01:13:42,120
Speaker 4: I do something? Did I list? So I was like,

1539
01:13:42,280 --> 01:13:45,760
Speaker 4: this is making so much anxiety, so much anxiety. I'm

1540
01:13:45,800 --> 01:13:47,960
Speaker 4: surprised I don't have a full fucking head of gray

1541
01:13:48,000 --> 01:13:51,920
Speaker 4: hair because I was. It was so anxiety, dragon girl.

1542
01:13:52,439 --> 01:13:56,160
Speaker 4: I couldn't like everything. I was like, if someone mentioned

1543
01:13:56,160 --> 01:13:58,000
Speaker 4: the wrong name from the twelfth grade bitch, I was like,

1544
01:13:59,560 --> 01:14:01,720
Speaker 4: don't talk about my twelfth grade boyfriend.

1545
01:14:02,080 --> 01:14:06,440
Speaker 5: You know he's It was ridiculous. It was ridiculous.

1546
01:14:06,520 --> 01:14:08,040
Speaker 4: Oh my god.

1547
01:14:08,720 --> 01:14:10,880
Speaker 3: I think like the biggest part of like all of

1548
01:14:10,920 --> 01:14:14,240
Speaker 3: that is trying not to, like you said, like you

1549
01:14:14,280 --> 01:14:17,080
Speaker 3: get like you're triggered by that, so like sometimes you

1550
01:14:17,120 --> 01:14:19,479
Speaker 3: probably could be triggered by some ship that really isn't that,

1551
01:14:19,720 --> 01:14:21,400
Speaker 3: you know what I mean, It just reminds you of

1552
01:14:21,439 --> 01:14:24,719
Speaker 3: that and right, and then being able to separate those things.

1553
01:14:24,479 --> 01:14:25,960
Speaker 4: And I have to be able to differentiate, like, Okay,

1554
01:14:26,000 --> 01:14:28,120
Speaker 4: now it's the time to be like, look, babe, due

1555
01:14:28,160 --> 01:14:30,479
Speaker 4: to the levels, like okay, so he gets passed levelfore

1556
01:14:30,479 --> 01:14:33,040
Speaker 4: it's okay to just bring it down and not acknowledge

1557
01:14:33,040 --> 01:14:36,639
Speaker 4: it and keep a movement. But I'm so that sounds

1558
01:14:36,680 --> 01:14:40,479
Speaker 4: super insecure. I'm like wanting to hit attack, attack and

1559
01:14:40,560 --> 01:14:43,120
Speaker 4: hit the road running because I'm a good runner. This

1560
01:14:43,240 --> 01:14:47,439
Speaker 4: feels a lot like Roles. I'm out of here, so yeah,

1561
01:14:47,920 --> 01:14:50,759
Speaker 4: now I'm in this place like okay, this is healthy,

1562
01:14:50,760 --> 01:14:55,040
Speaker 4: as is not healthy, and yeah, I'm fucking a battered

1563
01:14:55,439 --> 01:15:00,920
Speaker 4: insecure woman. It is. That's exactly what it is. Insecure

1564
01:15:00,960 --> 01:15:06,240
Speaker 4: man PGSD. I just coin that term should be therapist

1565
01:15:06,280 --> 01:15:09,360
Speaker 4: should pick that ship up. I am PTSD of an

1566
01:15:09,439 --> 01:15:16,000
Speaker 4: insecure man. Specifically, I am oh I am insecure man.

1567
01:15:16,000 --> 01:15:16,600
Speaker 5: Okay, I.

1568
01:15:18,880 --> 01:15:21,000
Speaker 4: Was like, I can steel. I was like, I can't

1569
01:15:21,320 --> 01:15:23,479
Speaker 4: make any questions. Am I smart?

1570
01:15:26,160 --> 01:15:26,479
Speaker 1: Yeah? No?

1571
01:15:26,640 --> 01:15:30,840
Speaker 4: That shit is not cute and it gets old. It's

1572
01:15:30,920 --> 01:15:31,599
Speaker 4: really bad.

1573
01:15:32,240 --> 01:15:33,760
Speaker 5: And like you know what what what?

1574
01:15:33,760 --> 01:15:38,120
Speaker 4: What term I like most like, it's the it's the

1575
01:15:38,680 --> 01:15:42,519
Speaker 4: the puppy syndrome. Like you can like if you get

1576
01:15:42,520 --> 01:15:44,679
Speaker 4: a puppy and you try and squeeze it to death,

1577
01:15:44,720 --> 01:15:46,200
Speaker 4: as soon as it gets way from me, it's gonna

1578
01:15:46,240 --> 01:15:48,439
Speaker 4: fucking jet. If you get a puppy and it's nice

1579
01:15:48,439 --> 01:15:50,320
Speaker 4: to it, it will always come be back for food

1580
01:15:50,320 --> 01:15:52,400
Speaker 4: and ship. Just like a bird, you cage it as

1581
01:15:52,439 --> 01:15:54,320
Speaker 4: soon as you open that gate, it's gonna hit. But

1582
01:15:54,360 --> 01:15:57,240
Speaker 4: if you like, let a bird roam freely, it will

1583
01:15:57,280 --> 01:15:59,639
Speaker 4: fly back to you every time. Because there's less there's

1584
01:15:59,720 --> 01:16:01,920
Speaker 4: less caging. I am not an animal. I do not

1585
01:16:01,960 --> 01:16:04,760
Speaker 4: wish to be caged. You're squeezed to death. Let me

1586
01:16:04,880 --> 01:16:07,480
Speaker 4: be willing to come back. This is an optional relationship

1587
01:16:07,479 --> 01:16:09,519
Speaker 4: and that I'm choosing you. So let me remind you

1588
01:16:09,600 --> 01:16:10,880
Speaker 4: that of every day when I come back to the

1589
01:16:10,880 --> 01:16:12,200
Speaker 4: house without you questioning me.

1590
01:16:14,920 --> 01:16:16,200
Speaker 5: So I just got like a flashback.

1591
01:16:17,800 --> 01:16:21,400
Speaker 4: I feel you. I feel like I feel you. What

1592
01:16:21,439 --> 01:16:24,759
Speaker 4: anything else about I mean, I think, so, what are you,

1593
01:16:24,840 --> 01:16:27,800
Speaker 4: how do you how do you deal with yours? How

1594
01:16:27,840 --> 01:16:29,439
Speaker 4: have you dealt with your insecurities? Or how are you

1595
01:16:29,479 --> 01:16:32,240
Speaker 4: dealing with your insecurities? Because obviously it's always like a

1596
01:16:32,360 --> 01:16:34,840
Speaker 4: kind of a work in progress. I think, I mean

1597
01:16:35,880 --> 01:16:39,760
Speaker 4: physically physical, like I've literally come like this is it,

1598
01:16:39,880 --> 01:16:42,200
Speaker 4: this is it? This is what I look like. There's

1599
01:16:42,280 --> 01:16:44,120
Speaker 4: I mean like I could exercise, i could eat more.

1600
01:16:44,200 --> 01:16:45,720
Speaker 4: I'm not likely going to gain a lot of weight,

1601
01:16:46,000 --> 01:16:49,439
Speaker 4: shit ton. I could get like prices, I can get

1602
01:16:49,439 --> 01:16:51,360
Speaker 4: like a vampire facial member. I've been talking about it.

1603
01:16:51,600 --> 01:16:55,360
Speaker 3: I'm talk about a vat talking about vampire a year,

1604
01:16:55,400 --> 01:16:56,960
Speaker 3: and then yesterday she brought it up again.

1605
01:16:57,040 --> 01:16:58,280
Speaker 4: I was like, bitch, when are you getting it?

1606
01:16:58,280 --> 01:17:00,720
Speaker 5: It's like eight hundred dollars, so no time soon.

1607
01:17:03,520 --> 01:17:04,720
Speaker 4: I was like, do you give me to buy your

1608
01:17:04,720 --> 01:17:08,760
Speaker 4: face because I until the ships on group on bitch,

1609
01:17:08,800 --> 01:17:11,840
Speaker 4: I ain't getting enough to over bitch or no, is

1610
01:17:11,880 --> 01:17:12,519
Speaker 4: it like Booker?

1611
01:17:13,360 --> 01:17:14,720
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, because you told me it was another one

1612
01:17:14,720 --> 01:17:16,000
Speaker 5: and that's the lot Okay.

1613
01:17:16,080 --> 01:17:20,719
Speaker 4: But mostly the other insecurities that I'm trying to work

1614
01:17:20,760 --> 01:17:24,360
Speaker 4: on are having flashbacks, like of comparing myself to other

1615
01:17:24,439 --> 01:17:28,599
Speaker 4: women because you ain't shit and and because that's.

1616
01:17:28,439 --> 01:17:30,519
Speaker 5: Unnecessary and it's it's it's mental.

1617
01:17:30,800 --> 01:17:34,360
Speaker 4: And even just like being defensive getting flashbacks, I'm trying

1618
01:17:34,360 --> 01:17:39,080
Speaker 4: to run every time someone like remotely reprimands me getting jealous,

1619
01:17:39,160 --> 01:17:42,040
Speaker 4: you know, just like I just have to like think

1620
01:17:42,080 --> 01:17:44,040
Speaker 4: to myself, like is it really that serious?

1621
01:17:44,320 --> 01:17:46,800
Speaker 5: And bitch, you need to stop myself.

1622
01:17:46,960 --> 01:17:52,000
Speaker 4: Bitch relax And you're not gonna have big sick size

1623
01:17:52,040 --> 01:17:53,400
Speaker 4: and a fake ass or big tips.

1624
01:17:53,400 --> 01:17:56,439
Speaker 5: That's not your body type. Get over it. Who because

1625
01:17:56,520 --> 01:17:58,280
Speaker 5: who's into skinny women? It's going to be into me,

1626
01:17:58,400 --> 01:18:00,840
Speaker 5: you know. But if they ain't they and men can

1627
01:18:00,920 --> 01:18:01,799
Speaker 5: have many types.

1628
01:18:01,920 --> 01:18:05,280
Speaker 4: You know. You can like Erica and you can like me,

1629
01:18:05,560 --> 01:18:07,640
Speaker 4: and you can like Betty for next door, you know.

1630
01:18:08,320 --> 01:18:11,400
Speaker 4: So I mean it's just mostly like self love, I think,

1631
01:18:11,520 --> 01:18:15,000
Speaker 4: and like constantly reminding myself like I'm good as I

1632
01:18:15,040 --> 01:18:17,639
Speaker 4: am and things that I'm you know, and not being

1633
01:18:17,680 --> 01:18:22,320
Speaker 4: defensive and taking oh again, the four agreements, not taking

1634
01:18:22,400 --> 01:18:23,360
Speaker 4: things personal.

1635
01:18:24,400 --> 01:18:24,760
Speaker 1: That's you.

1636
01:18:25,320 --> 01:18:27,120
Speaker 4: It's another part of the book specifically, it says, even

1637
01:18:27,160 --> 01:18:30,479
Speaker 4: if somebody calls you fat, it's not you. They're projecting

1638
01:18:30,520 --> 01:18:32,680
Speaker 4: on you. They're trying to make you feel bad. And

1639
01:18:32,760 --> 01:18:35,400
Speaker 4: if you let them make you feel bad, you're agreeing

1640
01:18:35,520 --> 01:18:37,519
Speaker 4: to those terms, and I'm just like, I'm not going

1641
01:18:37,600 --> 01:18:39,679
Speaker 4: to agree to that. You want to see what everyone

1642
01:18:39,760 --> 01:18:41,720
Speaker 4: about me cool, I'm not agreeing to it. I'm not

1643
01:18:41,720 --> 01:18:43,960
Speaker 4: taking it personal. That's you the fact that you feel

1644
01:18:43,960 --> 01:18:46,120
Speaker 4: like they need to point it out to me. I'm

1645
01:18:46,160 --> 01:18:48,639
Speaker 4: still not taking it personally, because that's some short ideal

1646
01:18:48,680 --> 01:18:49,400
Speaker 4: within yourself.

1647
01:18:50,400 --> 01:18:52,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, how about you, that's a big one.

1648
01:18:52,040 --> 01:18:54,160
Speaker 3: I mean, because I do take things personally all the time.

1649
01:18:54,960 --> 01:18:57,120
Speaker 3: I think I'm still figuring that that out. I think

1650
01:18:57,160 --> 01:18:59,000
Speaker 3: some things I've been able to work through and just

1651
01:18:59,040 --> 01:19:04,479
Speaker 3: talk myself through. Some things I've just cut out. Like

1652
01:19:04,520 --> 01:19:07,840
Speaker 3: if you start making me feel this way like m

1653
01:19:07,960 --> 01:19:10,120
Speaker 3: I'm just gonna cut you. And maybe that's not the

1654
01:19:10,160 --> 01:19:14,920
Speaker 3: best Maybe that's not the best practice because maybe I'm

1655
01:19:14,920 --> 01:19:16,760
Speaker 3: not fully facing it and dealing with it.

1656
01:19:17,080 --> 01:19:19,679
Speaker 4: But sometimes I'm just like, you don't want to date

1657
01:19:19,680 --> 01:19:23,840
Speaker 4: anybody who's bringing out like negative things or making you

1658
01:19:23,960 --> 01:19:25,679
Speaker 4: second guess yourself. That's not a relation.

1659
01:19:25,720 --> 01:19:29,160
Speaker 5: Why it just feels like this is not serving me.

1660
01:19:29,240 --> 01:19:30,840
Speaker 3: And I don't mean that in a selfish way, but

1661
01:19:30,880 --> 01:19:32,680
Speaker 3: I do in a selfish way.

1662
01:19:31,880 --> 01:19:32,280
Speaker 4: And she'd be.

1663
01:19:35,000 --> 01:19:37,920
Speaker 3: I think I think physically that my physical things. It's

1664
01:19:37,960 --> 01:19:41,120
Speaker 3: a work in progress, you know. I mean I went

1665
01:19:41,160 --> 01:19:44,080
Speaker 3: to therapy not just for physical insecurity, it's just for

1666
01:19:44,200 --> 01:19:47,120
Speaker 3: like life shit. But it's something we've talked about, and

1667
01:19:47,240 --> 01:19:49,960
Speaker 3: you know, she's at first she would tell me like, okay,

1668
01:19:50,040 --> 01:19:52,080
Speaker 3: touch your body and look in the mirror and talk

1669
01:19:52,160 --> 01:19:52,839
Speaker 3: to your body.

1670
01:19:52,920 --> 01:19:54,120
Speaker 4: And she made me do it in front of her,

1671
01:19:54,160 --> 01:19:58,720
Speaker 4: and I was like, this is so funny, weird. No, no,

1672
01:19:58,920 --> 01:20:01,200
Speaker 4: I'm just gonna first because imagine you're looking yourself in

1673
01:20:01,240 --> 01:20:03,720
Speaker 4: the mirror and talk to your talk to yourself, And

1674
01:20:03,880 --> 01:20:06,400
Speaker 4: isn't it hard. It's so weird. It's so weird being

1675
01:20:06,439 --> 01:20:08,320
Speaker 4: with her doing it. And then it was even almost

1676
01:20:08,360 --> 01:20:10,720
Speaker 4: weirder by myself because what's making you do it?

1677
01:20:10,880 --> 01:20:13,920
Speaker 5: Yeah, and are things that like to praise yourself aloud?

1678
01:20:14,160 --> 01:20:14,880
Speaker 4: So is weird.

1679
01:20:14,920 --> 01:20:16,840
Speaker 3: And she's like, you fucking talk shit to yourself all

1680
01:20:16,920 --> 01:20:19,679
Speaker 3: mother fucking day your head, So like what's the different.

1681
01:20:20,240 --> 01:20:22,920
Speaker 3: Just humor yourself and talk some good ship and maybe

1682
01:20:22,960 --> 01:20:24,960
Speaker 3: you'll believe it because you believe all those shit that

1683
01:20:25,080 --> 01:20:28,040
Speaker 3: isn't true, you know, And like I know that that's true.

1684
01:20:28,479 --> 01:20:31,599
Speaker 3: And I have seen a change of course, there's still

1685
01:20:31,600 --> 01:20:35,080
Speaker 3: times where I'm like, no, bitch, that stomach just is weack,

1686
01:20:35,960 --> 01:20:37,960
Speaker 3: Like I don't care how many times you rub over

1687
01:20:38,040 --> 01:20:40,439
Speaker 3: it and say it's precious and flat and hard, bitch,

1688
01:20:40,520 --> 01:20:41,439
Speaker 3: it's not a baby.

1689
01:20:43,240 --> 01:20:44,880
Speaker 5: But then but then I think that too.

1690
01:20:44,920 --> 01:20:47,960
Speaker 4: I try to and I have, I mean, I try.

1691
01:20:47,840 --> 01:20:50,160
Speaker 3: To have to figure out different angles to embrace it more.

1692
01:20:50,160 --> 01:20:51,720
Speaker 3: And that's one of the ones that I feel like

1693
01:20:51,760 --> 01:20:55,320
Speaker 3: has been the strongest. Made me feel the strongest, is

1694
01:20:55,360 --> 01:20:58,400
Speaker 3: that like, no, this is like the house of life

1695
01:20:58,600 --> 01:21:00,040
Speaker 3: and there ain't no comparing.

1696
01:20:59,800 --> 01:21:03,320
Speaker 4: You know, you know so, and you know also like

1697
01:21:03,960 --> 01:21:04,840
Speaker 4: and I stop in my.

1698
01:21:04,800 --> 01:21:08,640
Speaker 5: Whole game, so I never stopped. I never stopped it.

1699
01:21:08,760 --> 01:21:09,920
Speaker 5: So I'm gonna try that.

1700
01:21:10,240 --> 01:21:11,960
Speaker 4: But I'm gonna try looking at myself and make in

1701
01:21:12,000 --> 01:21:14,920
Speaker 4: the mirror and like talking positively. Yeah, like she was

1702
01:21:14,960 --> 01:21:17,120
Speaker 4: like you tout your thighs and be like, I love

1703
01:21:17,200 --> 01:21:20,720
Speaker 4: my thighs. They're soft, they're strong, they walk like they

1704
01:21:20,800 --> 01:21:26,160
Speaker 4: get me places like but you know, yeah, like one's

1705
01:21:26,240 --> 01:21:32,080
Speaker 4: legs walk. Yeah, you be grateful. Yeah, just like I'm sexy,

1706
01:21:32,160 --> 01:21:34,639
Speaker 4: like and just keep saying I'm sexy. I love this body.

1707
01:21:34,680 --> 01:21:36,920
Speaker 4: It's sexy and sexy and it feels weird as fuck,

1708
01:21:37,520 --> 01:21:40,120
Speaker 4: but until it doesn't feel weird doing but who cares?

1709
01:21:40,280 --> 01:21:42,799
Speaker 4: Still keep doing it, you know exactly, So like, that's

1710
01:21:42,840 --> 01:21:44,760
Speaker 4: that's something that I that I do from time to time,

1711
01:21:44,960 --> 01:21:47,720
Speaker 4: to be programming yourself exactly, that's exactly what it is,

1712
01:21:47,760 --> 01:21:52,479
Speaker 4: and that's it's important. And then I don't know, girl, Yeah,

1713
01:21:52,560 --> 01:21:54,400
Speaker 4: I mean just shit, I don't know.

1714
01:21:54,520 --> 01:21:56,760
Speaker 3: Sometimes I feel like I'm failing it most of the time,

1715
01:21:56,800 --> 01:21:57,839
Speaker 3: but I'm trying.

1716
01:21:58,200 --> 01:22:01,120
Speaker 4: I'm trying. There's a there'd be ship you have never

1717
01:22:01,200 --> 01:22:03,519
Speaker 4: noticed your whole thirty or however many years of life

1718
01:22:03,520 --> 01:22:04,479
Speaker 4: and someone else will brings some.

1719
01:22:04,479 --> 01:22:06,680
Speaker 5: Shady be like are you fucked? No, I don't think

1720
01:22:06,720 --> 01:22:07,040
Speaker 5: about that.

1721
01:22:07,080 --> 01:22:15,080
Speaker 4: She too weird my shoulder? I have you got a beard?

1722
01:22:15,120 --> 01:22:15,400
Speaker 1: Bitch?

1723
01:22:16,000 --> 01:22:22,160
Speaker 4: Like oh number seventy to So I was gonna be

1724
01:22:22,200 --> 01:22:24,920
Speaker 4: something that somebody doesn't like. So love your whole self period.

1725
01:22:26,439 --> 01:22:30,040
Speaker 4: So we have a hory and is a continuation of

1726
01:22:30,080 --> 01:22:35,000
Speaker 4: our guest of our our mur DM listener because after

1727
01:22:35,200 --> 01:22:40,200
Speaker 4: we spoke to her on Instagram DM FaceTime, she apparently

1728
01:22:40,200 --> 01:22:41,880
Speaker 4: she was on the way to see her a guy. Yeah,

1729
01:22:41,880 --> 01:22:44,439
Speaker 4: because we encourage her, We're like, girl today, try to

1730
01:22:44,439 --> 01:22:45,960
Speaker 4: go worse. Just try to wear sandals.

1731
01:22:46,000 --> 01:22:47,960
Speaker 5: Just try to wear something where your toes are shown,

1732
01:22:48,000 --> 01:22:48,840
Speaker 5: and just like go.

1733
01:22:48,760 --> 01:22:49,400
Speaker 4: Out the house.

1734
01:22:49,520 --> 01:22:52,640
Speaker 3: So she messaged us and she said, and it's a

1735
01:22:52,680 --> 01:22:55,439
Speaker 3: horri because it's kind of a horror story, like not

1736
01:22:55,680 --> 01:22:58,719
Speaker 3: like not good like scary, like scary hole horror, horror,

1737
01:22:58,840 --> 01:23:00,800
Speaker 3: not horror, it's horror horror.

1738
01:23:00,840 --> 01:23:04,120
Speaker 4: More, this is very scarien like h O R R

1739
01:23:04,640 --> 01:23:05,040
Speaker 4: O R.

1740
01:23:06,439 --> 01:23:10,360
Speaker 5: To clarify, Okay, okay, good day girls.

1741
01:23:10,400 --> 01:23:13,759
Speaker 3: I went over there in my slides, I had on socks,

1742
01:23:13,880 --> 01:23:16,840
Speaker 3: but I didn't let the feet bother me. And when

1743
01:23:16,920 --> 01:23:19,120
Speaker 3: he's and when he went in for the oral sex,

1744
01:23:19,400 --> 01:23:22,320
Speaker 3: I let him slide my likings right off along with

1745
01:23:22,360 --> 01:23:24,880
Speaker 3: my socks. Now that's progress.

1746
01:23:25,080 --> 01:23:28,040
Speaker 5: Sucks all calves. Exclamation mark, exclamation.

1747
01:23:27,680 --> 01:23:29,400
Speaker 4: Mark, Thank you so much.

1748
01:23:29,880 --> 01:23:32,880
Speaker 3: Now, had I known his oral and dick gang was

1749
01:23:32,920 --> 01:23:35,000
Speaker 3: so whack, I wouldn't have spent a second on that

1750
01:23:35,040 --> 01:23:36,559
Speaker 3: mental strain about my feet.

1751
01:23:37,600 --> 01:23:40,280
Speaker 4: How does the six three foot man have a little dick?

1752
01:23:40,800 --> 01:23:43,160
Speaker 3: And how do you get to be forty one and

1753
01:23:43,320 --> 01:23:44,479
Speaker 3: don't know how to eat the cooch?

1754
01:23:46,040 --> 01:23:48,280
Speaker 4: Girl? That is a horror story.

1755
01:23:48,560 --> 01:23:52,320
Speaker 5: That's I've been in. That horror story I've been in.

1756
01:23:52,360 --> 01:23:54,880
Speaker 4: That is that a two I've been in that one, okay,

1757
01:23:55,000 --> 01:23:58,400
Speaker 4: and it's what the fucking fuck? I remember the discovery

1758
01:23:58,400 --> 01:24:02,880
Speaker 4: of why are you sixty? This little ass stick? So

1759
01:24:03,640 --> 01:24:07,320
Speaker 4: to say, the least stereotypes are like fake and you

1760
01:24:07,360 --> 01:24:10,439
Speaker 4: know that's probably insecurity of his and if it was,

1761
01:24:10,520 --> 01:24:12,000
Speaker 4: then nigga, you better know how to eat the Cohi,

1762
01:24:12,120 --> 01:24:18,439
Speaker 4: you better love, you better love be prime time top

1763
01:24:18,680 --> 01:24:20,040
Speaker 4: notnch cushy. Ear.

1764
01:24:21,040 --> 01:24:21,360
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1765
01:24:21,439 --> 01:24:24,200
Speaker 4: So if you're a guy listening and you know we

1766
01:24:24,280 --> 01:24:26,000
Speaker 4: can't all help, but begin, like I said, this is

1767
01:24:26,000 --> 01:24:28,799
Speaker 4: the body I got. Let's not you know, some guys,

1768
01:24:28,840 --> 01:24:31,040
Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. It's the emotion of the ocean, not

1769
01:24:31,160 --> 01:24:33,120
Speaker 4: the size that matters. And it's true, and it's also

1770
01:24:33,160 --> 01:24:37,000
Speaker 4: the works of your mouth more specifically, it does. There

1771
01:24:37,040 --> 01:24:40,799
Speaker 4: is a whole species, let me just be clear, a big, tall,

1772
01:24:41,120 --> 01:24:43,799
Speaker 4: burly men with little dicks.

1773
01:24:44,040 --> 01:24:46,479
Speaker 5: Okay, shack, oh shack.

1774
01:24:46,800 --> 01:24:50,720
Speaker 4: I mean I don't know that personally. Everybody everybody she

1775
01:24:51,240 --> 01:24:52,360
Speaker 4: carean Stefan.

1776
01:24:55,320 --> 01:24:56,040
Speaker 5: Anyway knows her.

1777
01:24:56,120 --> 01:24:56,640
Speaker 4: Can you call us?

1778
01:24:56,640 --> 01:25:00,639
Speaker 5: I would really like to talk to you. But but yeah,

1779
01:25:00,640 --> 01:25:02,200
Speaker 5: it's a whole species, this epidemic.

1780
01:25:02,320 --> 01:25:04,880
Speaker 4: And I'm a lot of black men too, So don't

1781
01:25:04,920 --> 01:25:07,080
Speaker 4: get a twists black guys have small dicks too, sure,

1782
01:25:07,720 --> 01:25:09,680
Speaker 4: and white guys have big dicks, and you know it

1783
01:25:09,680 --> 01:25:10,960
Speaker 4: goes a lot of whites. I don't have a lot

1784
01:25:10,960 --> 01:25:14,479
Speaker 4: of experience in any other ones outside and oh there's

1785
01:25:14,520 --> 01:25:17,080
Speaker 4: also species of short man with big penis with safe

1786
01:25:17,080 --> 01:25:18,800
Speaker 4: piances and that is more like a win.

1787
01:25:19,000 --> 01:25:20,880
Speaker 5: Like you open up a small treasure, you're like, ah,

1788
01:25:20,880 --> 01:25:22,320
Speaker 5: it's a million dollars.

1789
01:25:22,800 --> 01:25:27,800
Speaker 4: I did not there was a corner. That's a nice one,

1790
01:25:28,160 --> 01:25:30,679
Speaker 4: but forty one and not knowing how to give head

1791
01:25:30,920 --> 01:25:35,599
Speaker 4: concerns me. That is no bueno, sir, What the fuck

1792
01:25:35,760 --> 01:25:39,040
Speaker 4: that is? And if you're like a girl man, if

1793
01:25:39,040 --> 01:25:42,160
Speaker 4: you're like over twenty five and you're like not one

1794
01:25:42,200 --> 01:25:46,120
Speaker 4: thousand percent sure about your head game, you need to practice.

1795
01:25:46,200 --> 01:25:49,639
Speaker 4: You absolutely need to watch some videos or like take

1796
01:25:49,640 --> 01:25:53,559
Speaker 4: a grapefruit and practice on orange, whatever you need to do.

1797
01:25:53,840 --> 01:25:55,880
Speaker 4: And you need to listen into next week's episode or

1798
01:25:55,920 --> 01:25:58,000
Speaker 4: just eat somekoucie and you get the real practice in

1799
01:25:58,280 --> 01:25:59,360
Speaker 4: because we know a guy.

1800
01:25:59,560 --> 01:26:02,320
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, and listen to next week's episode. You definitely

1801
01:26:02,400 --> 01:26:07,160
Speaker 3: don't want to miss next week's episode. We have a specially.

1802
01:26:07,240 --> 01:26:12,599
Speaker 4: Two amazing guests on who are going to educate us

1803
01:26:13,000 --> 01:26:19,200
Speaker 4: on everything sex. Yeah, and so much fact, so much more.

1804
01:26:19,240 --> 01:26:22,280
Speaker 3: You can get some tips. Oh yeah, you will benefit.

1805
01:26:22,360 --> 01:26:25,040
Speaker 3: You will be tipped out, tipped.

1806
01:26:24,680 --> 01:26:28,120
Speaker 4: Out, and you might want to tune in. I'm just

1807
01:26:28,120 --> 01:26:31,120
Speaker 4: gonna leave it there. I wanna leave it there because

1808
01:26:31,240 --> 01:26:33,760
Speaker 4: can you. Yeah, I mean, I'm at thirty. I know

1809
01:26:33,880 --> 01:26:37,360
Speaker 4: my oral all my sex skills are strong. I don't

1810
01:26:37,400 --> 01:26:40,599
Speaker 4: even guess. I mean, I can always grow, but yeah,

1811
01:26:41,240 --> 01:26:42,840
Speaker 4: but I'm confident. I'm confident too.

1812
01:26:42,960 --> 01:26:45,160
Speaker 5: I'm very confident, almost too confident.

1813
01:26:45,760 --> 01:26:47,439
Speaker 4: It's like, oh, what's you? What are you good at?

1814
01:26:47,520 --> 01:26:47,720
Speaker 1: Well?

1815
01:26:50,960 --> 01:26:58,400
Speaker 4: Have you heard as a backworld's cowgirl? I'm I'm just

1816
01:26:58,760 --> 01:27:01,160
Speaker 4: tony kind of, but mostly I'm telling the truth.

1817
01:27:02,520 --> 01:27:05,080
Speaker 1: No, Oh my god.

1818
01:27:05,160 --> 01:27:10,680
Speaker 3: Well, anyway, thanks for tuning in to our Insecure episode.

1819
01:27:10,840 --> 01:27:15,280
Speaker 4: Thank you for your your submission. You're asking for advice

1820
01:27:15,400 --> 01:27:19,280
Speaker 4: and following through with it. It's step one. You're making progress, girl,

1821
01:27:19,479 --> 01:27:22,040
Speaker 4: And let's everybody talk to ourselves in the mirror tonight,

1822
01:27:22,520 --> 01:27:25,200
Speaker 4: and you know, tell our body how healthy and beautiful

1823
01:27:25,200 --> 01:27:27,280
Speaker 4: and sexy it is. It is, because it is, and

1824
01:27:27,320 --> 01:27:29,360
Speaker 4: maybe even masturbate do it.

1825
01:27:29,439 --> 01:27:32,439
Speaker 3: I've been trying to encourage Jamila to masturbate more, and

1826
01:27:32,760 --> 01:27:35,360
Speaker 3: I try, but then I feel like I like I've

1827
01:27:35,400 --> 01:27:37,880
Speaker 3: come prematurely, like I'm embarrassed, I feel like I have

1828
01:27:37,920 --> 01:27:41,000
Speaker 3: some issues. Well, you just gotta keep doing it. It

1829
01:27:41,040 --> 01:27:43,360
Speaker 3: means you're feeling yourself. You come and prematurely, shit, you

1830
01:27:43,400 --> 01:27:45,880
Speaker 3: turn yourself all the way on real, real quick. It's

1831
01:27:46,320 --> 01:27:48,840
Speaker 3: it's not like that kind of premature. It's like I'm

1832
01:27:48,840 --> 01:27:51,920
Speaker 3: like almost gonna come, but then you have to relax.

1833
01:27:52,040 --> 01:27:53,439
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just have to give in.

1834
01:27:53,560 --> 01:27:56,200
Speaker 3: And actually, honestly, I've had some of the best orgasms

1835
01:27:56,240 --> 01:27:56,799
Speaker 3: by myself.

1836
01:27:56,960 --> 01:27:59,400
Speaker 4: I can't believe I'm thirty, the biggest ones. But really,

1837
01:28:00,439 --> 01:28:02,960
Speaker 4: are you like, because I'm sorry, are you inserting? Are

1838
01:28:02,960 --> 01:28:04,880
Speaker 4: you just clatural stimulation?

1839
01:28:05,040 --> 01:28:05,280
Speaker 10: Both?

1840
01:28:05,560 --> 01:28:08,000
Speaker 3: Really, it could be either one. Mostly it has to be.

1841
01:28:08,240 --> 01:28:12,799
Speaker 3: It either has to be clatural and internal or just clatural.

1842
01:28:13,040 --> 01:28:16,600
Speaker 3: It's usually nice. Just only just internal is when I

1843
01:28:16,760 --> 01:28:19,040
Speaker 3: actually have a real penis inside of me, right, and

1844
01:28:19,080 --> 01:28:22,719
Speaker 3: it's like, you know, the warmth and it's the whole deal.

1845
01:28:22,920 --> 01:28:24,280
Speaker 4: Okay, well I need to work on it.

1846
01:28:24,360 --> 01:28:26,559
Speaker 3: Yeah, but if you don't feel like masturbating, just touch

1847
01:28:26,560 --> 01:28:29,479
Speaker 3: your body and tell it nice things, embrace it and

1848
01:28:29,560 --> 01:28:32,920
Speaker 3: love it, and it's gonna feel weird, but fuck it.

1849
01:28:33,040 --> 01:28:36,479
Speaker 4: Who cares even tell your face nice things too. So

1850
01:28:36,600 --> 01:28:39,080
Speaker 4: everything you're so, you're so your spirit.

1851
01:28:39,200 --> 01:28:40,519
Speaker 5: Yeah, because that's that's difficult too.

1852
01:28:40,560 --> 01:28:42,280
Speaker 4: Sometimes sometimes I'm like in the mirror, I'm trying to

1853
01:28:42,280 --> 01:28:43,760
Speaker 4: tell informations because I know I'm supposed to.

1854
01:28:44,640 --> 01:28:46,200
Speaker 5: I don't believe them. Then I don't know what to say.

1855
01:28:46,360 --> 01:28:51,920
Speaker 5: I'm like, what else? You're smart, you're nice, You're bound.

1856
01:28:52,240 --> 01:28:53,400
Speaker 4: I should have wrote this down.

1857
01:28:55,439 --> 01:28:58,320
Speaker 5: Okay, well like you said.

1858
01:28:57,840 --> 01:29:11,280
Speaker 4: It next week, we love you, all right, I'm just playing.

1859
01:29:12,640 --> 01:29:14,680
Speaker 2: I remember when I used to have a crush you

1860
01:29:14,800 --> 01:29:17,320
Speaker 2: on special led shout out designer, because you made it

1861
01:29:17,400 --> 01:29:19,519
Speaker 2: down a special lead. You want to fuck me and

1862
01:29:19,600 --> 01:29:22,280
Speaker 2: you gotta get some special headed because this pussy had

1863
01:29:22,320 --> 01:29:23,840
Speaker 2: these niggas on some special.

1864
01:29:23,560 --> 01:29:24,839
Speaker 4: Meds, like Mike Tyson.

1865
01:29:24,920 --> 01:29:27,200
Speaker 2: He was biking my ship talking about Yo, why you

1866
01:29:27,280 --> 01:29:29,840
Speaker 2: got these niggas biking this ship on the rail. Lets

1867
01:29:29,880 --> 01:29:32,240
Speaker 2: you make these niggas scrap for the pussy young and man,

1868
01:29:32,400 --> 01:29:36,080
Speaker 2: lady luck get the strap of this pussy. And now

1869
01:29:36,080 --> 01:29:38,639
Speaker 2: what the hell of Bell Beckel bringing the cake till

1870
01:29:38,720 --> 01:29:41,000
Speaker 2: I saw him hopping out of cars dancing the drake.

1871
01:29:41,120 --> 01:29:43,839
Speaker 2: I've been a five star bitch man. Word to Gotti

1872
01:29:43,920 --> 01:29:46,559
Speaker 2: I'm gonna do that nigga future dirty work to Scotti

1873
01:29:46,720 --> 01:29:47,360
Speaker 2: had to cancel.

1874
01:29:47,400 --> 01:29:49,280
Speaker 4: DJ called, boy, we ain't speaking.

1875
01:29:49,400 --> 01:29:51,920
Speaker 2: Ain't no fat nigga telling me what he ain't eating.

1876
01:29:52,160 --> 01:29:53,680
Speaker 4: White g in the game with.

1877
01:29:53,720 --> 01:29:56,240
Speaker 2: The hem of yelling gang gang the same what I

1878
01:29:56,320 --> 01:29:58,920
Speaker 2: meant when I said a gang bang takashi want to

1879
01:29:59,000 --> 01:30:02,599
Speaker 2: Menaja said, Grayway cursed him and went to kimm KHN

1880
01:30:02,720 --> 01:30:05,679
Speaker 2: Gateway and Captain Bobby dream House. Then you can play

1881
01:30:05,680 --> 01:30:08,000
Speaker 2: the park. I ain't trying to bust it open in

1882
01:30:08,040 --> 01:30:15,400
Speaker 2: the trailer park. I'm just playing.

1883
01:30:17,240 --> 01:30:18,080
Speaker 4: I'm just playing