WEBVTT - Seeking Control Through Clean Eating, Hitting Rock Bottom & More (Outweigh)

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<v Speaker 1>I won't let my body outly outwit everything that I'm made.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't won't spend my life trying to change. I'm learning

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<v Speaker 1>to love who I am. I get I'm strong, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel free, I know who every part of me it's

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful and then will always out with if you feel

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<v Speaker 1>it with your hands and there she'll love to the

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<v Speaker 1>food that. Let's say good day and did you and

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<v Speaker 1>die out Happy Saturday outweigh fam. My expert guest for

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<v Speaker 1>the next three weeks is Riley Laster, which Riley, you're

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<v Speaker 1>a dietitian, but I know you as the person that

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<v Speaker 1>makes me laugh on Instagram and gives me great anti

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<v Speaker 1>diet culture competence, really humorous, funny, awesome way. And your handle, well,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess I'll tell everybody else your handle in case

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<v Speaker 1>they're not already calling it was just your at Riley

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<v Speaker 1>Leicester R I L E Y l A s t

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<v Speaker 1>E R. Welcome to the shop. Hello. I mean, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just so excited to have you on. And when I

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<v Speaker 1>first started following you on Instagram, I think someone had

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<v Speaker 1>posted one of your funny videos and it resonated with

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<v Speaker 1>me and I thought, oh, this is this is a

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<v Speaker 1>great follow because I want that encouragement. I want that.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that there's humor mixed in with it though

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<v Speaker 1>it's not and when you're coming from someone that you

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<v Speaker 1>have your own disordered getting disorder, and so I thought

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<v Speaker 1>I was just following that, like you this, you were

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<v Speaker 1>sharing some of your experience and then you know, making

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<v Speaker 1>funny reels about it. Well then I go to your

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<v Speaker 1>page and I realized you're a dietitian, and so then

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<v Speaker 1>the light bulb went off. I said, Okay, I'm reaching

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<v Speaker 1>out to her because I want her to come on

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<v Speaker 1>and be a resident expert, a resident guest for three weeks.

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<v Speaker 1>And so here we are, and I feel like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just getting like a getty girl sitting awesome on Zoo

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<v Speaker 1>from this person that I only know from Instagram. But

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<v Speaker 1>you know, since I mentioned that, you do have a

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<v Speaker 1>personal story for week one, if you just be willing

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<v Speaker 1>to share some of that, what the journey looked like

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<v Speaker 1>for you and then how you got to the other

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<v Speaker 1>side and where you a dietitian during it before, like

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<v Speaker 1>give us some of those details and then you know

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<v Speaker 1>that that story of hope. Because I feel like some

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<v Speaker 1>people listening and you and I were talking before we recorded.

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<v Speaker 1>Is when your knee deep in it, you just feel like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>this is life, this is how we live, and my

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<v Speaker 1>brain is always going to be thinking these crazy thoughts

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<v Speaker 1>and there's the way and it's miserable, but oh well, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>what can I do about it? Yeah? Absolutely so. Um,

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<v Speaker 1>my story with dieting is heavy and clanating, Like I

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<v Speaker 1>was obsessed with it, you know, as most people did.

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<v Speaker 1>In the early two TAN scirled Pinterest, Oh my gosh,

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<v Speaker 1>every day, and I found a girl on there who

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<v Speaker 1>was my age, and she was a clean eating blogger.

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<v Speaker 1>She was on Tumbler. Actually I'm going to date myself

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit Tumbler. I don't know if that exists anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>But um, and she just she had a story that

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<v Speaker 1>really it touched me. She had been self conscious about

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<v Speaker 1>her white in high school. She was my age. She

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<v Speaker 1>had really made strides in her mental health with what

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<v Speaker 1>she ate, with how she worked out, and I thought

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<v Speaker 1>I want to be like her. So at the time,

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<v Speaker 1>it was kind of a perfect storm because I had

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<v Speaker 1>had a actually had a friend passed away a couple

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<v Speaker 1>of years before, and I dealt with some depression. I

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<v Speaker 1>was in a relationship that wasn't great. And I was

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<v Speaker 1>a little baby dietitian student. I had done a nutrition

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<v Speaker 1>one hundred class. I knew just enough about nutrition to

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<v Speaker 1>get myself up in trouble. I knew about calories and

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<v Speaker 1>b M I and white stuff like that, and I thought,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I want to try this clean eating thing

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<v Speaker 1>because I want to look the part of being a dietitian.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, dieticians aren't size ten, size twelve, there size

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<v Speaker 1>zero two four, and they are, you know, cute, these

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<v Speaker 1>cute little girls that run around and if you do

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<v Speaker 1>trendy foods and stuff like that. And I didn't feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I fit that part because you know, my family

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<v Speaker 1>goes to eat fried catfish on the weekend, so we aren't,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, those super food kind of people. But I

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<v Speaker 1>really got into what she was selling. And I don't

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<v Speaker 1>hold any ill will towards her. She was, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>looking back, she was struggling like I was, and I

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<v Speaker 1>kind of just became obsessed with it. I have that

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<v Speaker 1>personality that I love to dig in, and I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's a big personality type when it comes to disorder eating.

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<v Speaker 1>When it comes to eating disporders, do you like to

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<v Speaker 1>dig in do the research. I love numbers. I love

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<v Speaker 1>to say this food has this many calories in it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know that I'm eating you know, half of it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm gonna lock it in a app that tells

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<v Speaker 1>me what I need. I love that. I loved the

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<v Speaker 1>whole structure. I love structure. And that's a big thing

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<v Speaker 1>with um disordered eating is the control of it all.

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<v Speaker 1>Your life can be totally falling apart outside of eating,

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<v Speaker 1>but you really reach for that control. And that's something

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<v Speaker 1>I do want to bring up. These diets are so

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<v Speaker 1>geared towards your lifestyle when it's kind of falling apart. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>my life was very messy, and clean eating was there

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<v Speaker 1>to pick it up. And your life has fallen apart, well,

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<v Speaker 1>here's twenty one day fix. You're a broken chill of

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<v Speaker 1>a human being, Well you've got the whole dirty diet

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<v Speaker 1>to help you. They really do kind of fill in

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<v Speaker 1>the gap and prey on people who need help in

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<v Speaker 1>other ways, probably mental health experts, but we seek control

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<v Speaker 1>through food instead. And I really didn't know that I

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<v Speaker 1>would be so obsessed with the clean eating hold the journey.

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<v Speaker 1>I loved it. I loved finding your recipe and trying

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<v Speaker 1>to make it help healthy. I loved um seven in

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<v Speaker 1>ingredients making it lower and fat, and you know, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>telling my family this and they're like, oh my gosh,

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<v Speaker 1>this is horrible. They hated it. Two things I want

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<v Speaker 1>to throw in based on you know what you just said,

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<v Speaker 1>like the you might need to work on something else.

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<v Speaker 1>So why not just throw yourself into a twenty one

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<v Speaker 1>day situation because for me, and I'm sure for others

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<v Speaker 1>maybe I don't want to speak for you, but it

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<v Speaker 1>numbs it out. It numbs out what you really to do,

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<v Speaker 1>and so then that's just suppressing and then a big cycle,

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<v Speaker 1>and so you might as well invest in getting help

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<v Speaker 1>in that other areas that rely on it by any means.

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<v Speaker 1>And then also the substituting to make things clean. Why

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<v Speaker 1>we if I could have all the hours back on

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<v Speaker 1>you know, Thanksgiving morning trying to make some gluten free,

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<v Speaker 1>dairy free beacon whatever stuffing for my nobody would end

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<v Speaker 1>up eating. Besides, like I would have a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>time back. I made clean new Teller once and my

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<v Speaker 1>boyfriend at the time was now my husband, who saw

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<v Speaker 1>me through all of this. Bless his heart, as we

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<v Speaker 1>say in the South, bless his heart. He was like,

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<v Speaker 1>what is that brown liquid on the counter, And I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>new teller, duh, and he's like, no, it was horrible.

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<v Speaker 1>It wouldn't even go down the garbage disposal. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know what it was. It was disgusting, but you could

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<v Speaker 1>not tell me that because that was my like gateway

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<v Speaker 1>of health. And I was losing weight. And as much

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<v Speaker 1>as I was saying, um, it's all about health, this

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<v Speaker 1>is just making me healthier, it was that I was

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<v Speaker 1>losing weight for the first time ever and people were noticing.

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<v Speaker 1>I was getting attention that I didn't even know I wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>Because right now I'm like, oh my gosh, nobody looked

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<v Speaker 1>at me ever. And that's how I feel like I

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<v Speaker 1>was back then. But when people start giving you attention

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<v Speaker 1>over something that you never thought I thought you would have,

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<v Speaker 1>it felt good and it fed into it. That's why

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<v Speaker 1>I never I never comment on anybody's white loss. And

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<v Speaker 1>I know sometimes that can come across this road because

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<v Speaker 1>it's not saying that you didn't work hard. It's saying

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<v Speaker 1>that you have a big percent a chance to gain

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<v Speaker 1>this back. You're most likely going to gain this way back.

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<v Speaker 1>And I don't want to be the one that really

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<v Speaker 1>praised you for it and has now given you anxiety

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<v Speaker 1>when you gain it back, because my thoughts weren't I'm

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<v Speaker 1>getting all this attention, but I know deep down I

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<v Speaker 1>can't keep doing this when I gained all the way back,

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<v Speaker 1>or people are gonna hate me, or people are not

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be my friends, They're gonna be disgusted to go

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<v Speaker 1>out with me because I didn't have self control to

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<v Speaker 1>keep the weight off. And oh, those thoughts keep you

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<v Speaker 1>so entrenched in diet culture, and it's just it's sad

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<v Speaker 1>and it's heartbreaking because most of the people in your

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<v Speaker 1>life don't care. They don't care how much you why,

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<v Speaker 1>they love you no matter what. And I wish I

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<v Speaker 1>could have really told myself back then, but you couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>tell me anything. What was the light bulb moment for you?

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<v Speaker 1>So you had that you were a baby dietitian and

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<v Speaker 1>the thing tumbler, and then that spiraled into this clean

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<v Speaker 1>eating obsession and clearly it was getting toxic and out

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<v Speaker 1>of control. So what what snapped you back? Like pow?

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<v Speaker 1>And it seems this though now your life is a

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<v Speaker 1>one eight? What snapped you back like how? And it

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<v Speaker 1>seems this though, Now your life is a one eight.

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<v Speaker 1>So what took you there? I did the clean eating

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<v Speaker 1>for three years, and most people, I'll say most dietitian

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<v Speaker 1>accounts that I followed the do teach into debating, which

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<v Speaker 1>is what I eventually got into. They tell about my

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<v Speaker 1>clients hit rock bottom. I'm so stubborn. I hit rock

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<v Speaker 1>bottom probably like seven times. I would you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>can't do this for one more day, but white, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to be and people I went to high school

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<v Speaker 1>within a month, I'm gonna lose the weight or um gosh,

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't able to wear those jeans anymore. Let me

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<v Speaker 1>just give it one more good try. And I had

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<v Speaker 1>so stubborn. I just kept hitting this rock bottom, but

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<v Speaker 1>it wouldn't be rock bottom enough. I just could not

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<v Speaker 1>get enough of I guess I just I have a

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<v Speaker 1>tough time learning my lesson. So finally, I'll say it

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't even from a sense of um desperation. It was

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<v Speaker 1>more so may just saying I can do better than this.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to have kids one day, and I want

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<v Speaker 1>to be able to be a good role model, and

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<v Speaker 1>this is not being a good role model. Also, I

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<v Speaker 1>had been married a couple of years at this point,

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<v Speaker 1>and I felt like I had never given my husband

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<v Speaker 1>my you know, undivided attention. I was always we were

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<v Speaker 1>out to eat, and I'm looking at the calories on

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<v Speaker 1>my phone of what's on the menive, and I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to see, how can my relationships, but not

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<v Speaker 1>just you know, my marriage, but my friendships, what can

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<v Speaker 1>they look like outside of diet culture. That's the best

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<v Speaker 1>decision I ever made, because even if you think it's

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<v Speaker 1>not taking up your attention, it is. It absolutely is.

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<v Speaker 1>Even if you think, oh, I've got a good handle

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<v Speaker 1>on this, I'm not obsessed with dieting. You probably are

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<v Speaker 1>more than you realize. And I didn't realize how much

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<v Speaker 1>time it took up in my day to day. It's

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<v Speaker 1>insane to think about now, but I really did put

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of effort, because that's the type of person

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<v Speaker 1>I am. I put a lot into what I'm working on,

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<v Speaker 1>and for good or bad, and that's that's a lesson.

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<v Speaker 1>I had to learn to put it into the right things.

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<v Speaker 1>And So, what did your husband noticed or did he

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<v Speaker 1>enjoy most about you making that transition into recovery. About

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<v Speaker 1>a year after Hey looked at me, and I will

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<v Speaker 1>never forget this. He said, my life sucked when you

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<v Speaker 1>were eating right stakes I'm like, excuse me. He's like

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<v Speaker 1>it was horrible. I'm like, but I was so thin,

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<v Speaker 1>and he's like, I don't care about that. You were

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<v Speaker 1>not you. Your personality was gone. I mean just a

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<v Speaker 1>big quite honest. He's like, your butt was gone. I

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<v Speaker 1>mean it was. It was awful. I'm like, really, like

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<v Speaker 1>you noticed, because I mayn't come on, most men just

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<v Speaker 1>don't notice stuff. So I'm thinking he doesn't even notice

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<v Speaker 1>what's going on with me. This is not gonna make,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, a difference to him, and it really did.

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<v Speaker 1>Just date nights where we were actually talking versus me

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<v Speaker 1>scrolling on my phone looking at you know, what can

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<v Speaker 1>I eat at this restaurant? What do I need to

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<v Speaker 1>meal prep for next week where I can maybe lose

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<v Speaker 1>one pound? It just the mental energy I was putting

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<v Speaker 1>into this, and it was nice that he noticed. I

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<v Speaker 1>will say it was nice that he noticed a difference.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, it does free up so much space, because yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't realize when you're in it. But I'll just

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<v Speaker 1>speak for someone that's out of it. Oh, you get

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<v Speaker 1>so much brain space back and your world is no

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<v Speaker 1>longer small. You get to variance different things with your

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<v Speaker 1>loved ones, with your friends, you get to eat different food,

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<v Speaker 1>You get to enjoy a weekend get away like a vacation,

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<v Speaker 1>with having to find where you're going to go work

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<v Speaker 1>out and figure out all the different places you can

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<v Speaker 1>be more you know, breezy, You just go with the

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<v Speaker 1>flow and enjoy what's happening instead of freaking out. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not your fault. There's no shame or guilt. If you're

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<v Speaker 1>feeling that right now like you are in it's it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's a thing, and it's a it's a disorder, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a disease. You just your eyes sometimes are blind to it.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't even realize what it's happening. But then once

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<v Speaker 1>that's lifted, you will start to feel that weight come

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<v Speaker 1>off and you will it'll just and it doesn't happen overnight,

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<v Speaker 1>but suddenly you'll I know, for me, I took a

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<v Speaker 1>weekend to go visit a friend that I hadn't seen

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<v Speaker 1>in a few years, and I know the last time

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<v Speaker 1>I was with that friend it was very I had

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of anxiety about the trap and then when

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<v Speaker 1>I went in recovery. I went, had a great time,

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<v Speaker 1>came home like there was no drama there and it

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<v Speaker 1>was all in my head. And you know what's funny

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<v Speaker 1>about that trip, that specific person is my mom made

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<v Speaker 1>this dessert called cherry very on a cloud. Do you

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<v Speaker 1>know what's oh it is? It's so good. So my mom,

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<v Speaker 1>she was the only one that made it. She's she's

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<v Speaker 1>since passed away. And you know, my friend, I knew

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<v Speaker 1>that I love that recipe, and a few years ago

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<v Speaker 1>when I went to visit her, she made it and

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<v Speaker 1>I barely ate it because you didn't fit into my

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<v Speaker 1>you know, but I didn't want food. But obviously she

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<v Speaker 1>noticed I barely ate it. And I kid you not, Riley.

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<v Speaker 1>Whenever I was getting ready to go back to visit her,

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<v Speaker 1>I thought, oh, I wonder if she's gonna make a

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<v Speaker 1>cloud in recovery now? And that's ready, Oh let's go.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait. And I get there, she made me anything,

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<v Speaker 1>and I kind of like, uh, you know, just casually,

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<v Speaker 1>I kind of thought you were going to make a

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<v Speaker 1>chair burry on cloud and she said, oh, shoot, I

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<v Speaker 1>would have She goes, but I just never know what,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, diet or whatever you're on. I don't want to.

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<v Speaker 1>She's like, honestly, I didn't want to attempt you or

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<v Speaker 1>do like she was being respected. She was, she didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want to. It seemed like last time she messed with

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<v Speaker 1>what I had going on, and that broke my heart

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<v Speaker 1>as a friend. And so I apologized to her and

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<v Speaker 1>asked for forgiveness, and you know, she looked at me

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<v Speaker 1>and I won't forget this because I don't know that

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of friends would respond this way. Some might

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<v Speaker 1>be like, yeah, I mean that's that was sucking me

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<v Speaker 1>like that, and that's okay if you My sister and

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<v Speaker 1>other friends have said up like your like your husband,

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<v Speaker 1>my life stuck eating rice cakes. But she looked at

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<v Speaker 1>me and she said, Amy, for years, you were always

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<v Speaker 1>trying different things, And yeah, that's something that I knew

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<v Speaker 1>about you, but I also liked a lot of other

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<v Speaker 1>things about you too, So I just would ignore that.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, oh, thank you past that because

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<v Speaker 1>it was a because it is it's your whole life

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<v Speaker 1>at some point. And yeah, it's so great when people

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<v Speaker 1>can say past that, because a lot of times we

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<v Speaker 1>can't say past that. We see the diet or we

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<v Speaker 1>are on a diet, this is me. I post on

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<v Speaker 1>Instagram a lot. Obviously. One thing I really try to

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<v Speaker 1>convey is you are not your diet. You may be

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<v Speaker 1>doing the keto, but you have so many more things

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<v Speaker 1>about you that are you know, interesting. Stop just hiding

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<v Speaker 1>your identity in your diet. Be you and remember those

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<v Speaker 1>things about yourself. Because this diet is gonna come and go.

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<v Speaker 1>You're gonna be on to another one. But the personality

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<v Speaker 1>and the person you are, let that shine because diet

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<v Speaker 1>culture will straight up dim you when it gets the chance.

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<v Speaker 1>It will turn out your light. And uh, it's tough.

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<v Speaker 1>It's tough when you say, a frien going through that too.

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<v Speaker 1>For sure. I love the light that you are on Instagram,

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<v Speaker 1>which will it'll lead us into you know, what we're

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<v Speaker 1>going to talk about next week, So I encourage people

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<v Speaker 1>to make sure to listen next Saturday because that's what

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<v Speaker 1>we're going to break down, your social media present and

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<v Speaker 1>your funny videos and just what that's been like for you.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so curious to talk about that. But in the meantime,

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<v Speaker 1>people can go check you out on Instagram again. Your

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<v Speaker 1>handle is that Riley Laster, and I love your bio

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<v Speaker 1>Dietitian and big fan of intuitive eating. So thank you

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<v Speaker 1>Riley for for joining us the next three weeks and

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<v Speaker 1>for sharing a little bit of your story. And you know, honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>just to your husband real quick, you can tell him

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<v Speaker 1>rice cakes do suck like but also I'm still kind

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<v Speaker 1>of enjoyed them. I don't eat them the same way

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<v Speaker 1>I used to, but I still know if I have

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<v Speaker 1>like a love hate relationship with them, because I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes you slather some nut butter and on there and

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<v Speaker 1>it's real good, or you'd use it to dipping hummus,

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<v Speaker 1>and like, I'm a big fan of that. Would love

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<v Speaker 1>to get the thin rice cakes, the really thin ones,

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<v Speaker 1>and I put nanny. It's like a sandwich. You're cheating,

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<v Speaker 1>like if you're in a herb. I just put manannaise

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<v Speaker 1>on both sides and sea salt and then I get

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<v Speaker 1>a slice of cheese, and I like, that's what I make. Really,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm running out the door. So rice cakes are not evil,

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely not. Unfortunately likely back in the day what he's

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<v Speaker 1>speaking when we were probably literally eating a plain, dry,

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<v Speaker 1>boring rice cake. Yes, food is so intentional. It's about

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<v Speaker 1>how you use it, it really is. You can take

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<v Speaker 1>the best things that tastes the best and make them terrible.

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<v Speaker 1>I just want, you know, the rice cakes Yea of

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<v Speaker 1>America coming after this. It's like, I don't know, because yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I love a crunch, so that's why it appealed to me.

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<v Speaker 1>And then I took it down a dark road. All right. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you Riley, and we'll see you all next Saturday.

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