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Speaker 1: The nick A Gliser Podcast.

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Speaker 2: Glaser, Here's Nikki.

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Speaker 3: Hello here I am. It's a Nicki Glazer podcast. Welcome

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Speaker 3: to it. Good fair listener, It's I'm Nikki. Brian Frangie

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Speaker 3: is not here with us because he's driving picture and

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Speaker 3: like still driving mountain.

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Speaker 4: I see him like going around to turn, like trying

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Speaker 4: to avoid a mountain sleet.

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Speaker 1: Like a little tiny car.

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Speaker 3: Yes, with all of their stuff packed, like they're moving

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Speaker 3: across the country. But it's like they're just driving to

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Speaker 3: their wedding location, which I'm going to tomorrow. But why

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Speaker 3: did they get there? How many days do you have

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Speaker 3: to be there before wedding?

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Speaker 2: Didn't he just get there yesterday?

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Speaker 3: Okay maybe, but he's getting married Saturday. I would be like,

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Speaker 3: let's get in Friday.

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Speaker 4: God on my stomach just flipped because I'm getting married

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Speaker 4: on a Saturday. I'm getting married on a Sunday, and

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Speaker 4: I am just getting there on I think when am

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Speaker 4: I getting there on a Saturday?

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Speaker 2: We're having dinner on Saturday before.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I don't understand.

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Speaker 3: I think he's probably just going up there to hike

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Speaker 3: and stuff and they're having a bigger wedding than you are.

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Speaker 2: I think, Okay, good, that relieves me.

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Speaker 4: I just am having like a daytime springtime lunch that

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Speaker 4: I also happen to be getting married at with a

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Speaker 4: small coterie of friends.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, exactly.

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Speaker 3: So it's not as I don't understand going up early,

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Speaker 3: but I'm sure it makes sense. I'm sure they're doing

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Speaker 3: something that is necessary. I never understand getting early to anything.

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Speaker 5: It could also be that Ali's family and Brian's family

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Speaker 5: are not in the same location and it's just a

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Speaker 5: way for them to do activities together all hang out.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: I think he's setting up a huge tint just in

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Speaker 2: case it rains.

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Speaker 1: I just want to see him doing manual labor. Is

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Speaker 1: going to rain all weekend.

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Speaker 2: It's unfortunate and it's an outdoor.

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Speaker 3: Yes, I don't know what we're gonna do. I mean,

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Speaker 3: I'm fine with it, but it's not my wedding.

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Speaker 4: If Taylor Swift can do it, typhoon, I.

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Speaker 2: Think I get marry.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Didn't he say he doesn't care if it rains? Was

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Speaker 1: that him? Yeah?

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Speaker 4: What is it called in that New York Times thing?

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Speaker 4: When it rains on your wedding day, it's like the

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Speaker 4: devil the devil had sex with your grandma or something.

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Speaker 3: Oh oh, that was something Carlyle said the New York

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Speaker 3: The New York Times thing.

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Speaker 1: It sounds like it's an article.

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Speaker 3: It was a quiz to place you, uh geography, geographically

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Speaker 3: vigienal accents.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and it.

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Speaker 3: Said if it's rains, when it's sonny out, it's like

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Speaker 3: called the devil beats its wife.

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Speaker 5: And I think that's what Carlos, Yeah, that's what. That's

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Speaker 5: where I heard it.

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Speaker 3: It's so strange and like it's also we have like

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Speaker 3: wife the wife beaters.

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Speaker 1: The fact that we just call them like a tank

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Speaker 1: top is so funny. We don't even think about it. Oh,

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Speaker 1: I'm just gonna pair this with like a cute white bead.

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Speaker 2: What the fuck, man, it's really fucked up.

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, I'm gonna wear my infanticide shorts and

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Speaker 3: pair it with a cute like uh, you know, uh,

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Speaker 3: what's the.

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Speaker 1: What's the god?

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Speaker 3: I can't even think of other murders, my molestation moccasin

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Speaker 3: and my suicide and my suicide.

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Speaker 1: I mean a lot of belts could do that. Some have. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: a lot of people that they think commits suicide are

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Speaker 1: just trying to jerk off, you know what.

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Speaker 2: Yes, and a lot of her tried choking thing that.

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Speaker 3: I mean, have you I've never tied anything around my

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Speaker 3: neck to like choke myself, but yeah, I've been choked

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Speaker 3: in during sex.

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Speaker 2: Is it great?

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Speaker 1: I'm a millennial.

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Speaker 3: Someone had a joke online the other day that was

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Speaker 3: like she was like, I'm not from America.

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Speaker 1: She was like she choked and she was like, I

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Speaker 1: didn't know. I thought he was going to strangle me.

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Speaker 1: He was.

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Speaker 3: We were just making the on couch and he went

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Speaker 3: to grab my neck. I forget who it was. I'm

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Speaker 3: I'm not giving you credit.

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Speaker 4: Katy.

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Speaker 1: Oh, really good job.

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Speaker 2: I think I follow her too. She's a funny. It's

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Speaker 2: just a weird American surprise something.

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Speaker 3: She because you would think someone's going to kill you

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Speaker 3: if they start just throttling your neck. But that is

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Speaker 3: like a normal thing now you see all the time,

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Speaker 3: and it's You've never once had any pressure on your.

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Speaker 1: Neck during sex. Anya, I can't believe this.

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Speaker 2: I can't either. What I just tried it the other day.

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Speaker 3: It's like the only way so delicate, really, I can

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Speaker 3: see any into that.

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Speaker 2: Wait, so are you doing it? Do you ever do

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Speaker 2: it to yourself and yes, okay.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I think I probably I probably don't.

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Speaker 3: Even notice I'm doing it. Do it to myself while

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Speaker 3: I'm masturbating. I mean, I can think I know where

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Speaker 3: you're going with this.

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Speaker 4: So how do you do it when you're doing so

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Speaker 4: many other things with your hands?

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Speaker 3: I don't know the have done into myself, but I

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Speaker 3: guess I would, or it's not out of the question.

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Speaker 3: But yeah, And it's the trick is you don't actually squeeze,

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Speaker 3: you just squeeze, you just put you just place it

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Speaker 1: If I'm talking to men or women who you.

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Speaker 3: Know, are with people who want to be choked, also,

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Speaker 3: it's not like you actually choke them that can really

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Speaker 3: damage stuff. And it's the sides of the neck where

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Speaker 3: like the blood flow is you just kind of put

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Speaker 3: your little bit of pressure on there and if you

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Speaker 3: block the blood flow. There's just something so hot about.

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Speaker 1: Not being able to fucking read when you're trying to

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Speaker 1: come Yeah, do you understand this? Noah?

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Speaker 5: So I get choked all the time in jiu jitsu,

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Speaker 5: and you know, like you have to tap out of

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Speaker 5: it otherwise you'd pass out.

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Speaker 1: What meant? Yeah? Yeah, so right, you shot all over

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Speaker 1: to Mohanda the other day, I thought of you, Matto Mohanda. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: you have to.

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Speaker 5: So basically it's just like you like start seeing a

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Speaker 5: little bit of like white and like like stars, you.

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Speaker 3: See the light. Yeah, you start seeing. God starts to

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Speaker 3: be like come here, come to your grandmother. She's waiting

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Speaker 3: for you. And then you come and you go and

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Speaker 3: then you.

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Speaker 1: Live sixty more years. But you almost get there.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you see start to steal a twinkle or like, Yeah,

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Speaker 3: it just gets like like a little like fuzzy and

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Speaker 3: then you have to tap otherwise you will pass out.

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Speaker 1: You won't be dead, but you're cutting off oxygen your

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Speaker 1: brain mat. Yeah, on the mat. But do you in

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Speaker 1: in the in the sex do you ever? I like it?

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Speaker 1: I don't.

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Speaker 5: I wouldn't want to be choked like I am in

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Speaker 5: jiu jitsu during sex. But I like the forced woes

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Speaker 5: that it implies, just the hole.

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Speaker 3: There, like the whole like you're gonna, I'm gonna just

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Speaker 3: I want to be. I don't know what that setish is.

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Speaker 3: It's probably like projectifying myself. Literally, I don't know what

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Speaker 3: that is, but I, like most of my fantasies always

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Speaker 3: Like I'm not someone who deserves it or needs it.

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Speaker 1: I am just something that.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, successful people like they're so used to being fans.

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Speaker 1: I was like, probably there's something.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, No, I think people that are successful and revered

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Speaker 4: probably want to be treated like shit sometimes because they're

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Speaker 4: so sick of all the yes men around them and

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Speaker 4: you know, can I get you a water? Can?

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Speaker 3: I sure there's something to that, but I think that

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Speaker 3: most successful people secretly think they're pieces of shit, and

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Speaker 3: be their empire would topple, even though I and I

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Speaker 3: talk about it constantly that I don't like myself, but

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Speaker 3: where they truly feel who what their mom told them

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Speaker 1: They can let it out in there, because it's like.

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Speaker 3: When you say things when you're having sex, you don't

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Speaker 3: follow up and talk about them outside.

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Speaker 1: Like it's just a it's a safe space.

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Speaker 3: It's almost like a therapist office where you can kind

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Speaker 3: of let out things that if we both have this

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Speaker 3: tacit agreement during sex, not just I'm not talking about

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Speaker 3: me and my partner, but like we collectively where it's

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Speaker 3: like we say things and they're not going to get

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Speaker 3: brought up outside of this, you know, like you don't

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Speaker 3: and so I can kind of let out all of

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Speaker 3: like a dumbcum war but just needs dix and come

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Speaker 3: and that's all that I live off of.

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Speaker 1: That's so stupid. Like Connor, he just lives up.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, nothing, doesn't need love. He's just what does he live?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, the brother in succession, He's like, I'm like a

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Speaker 3: I'm like a tree that lives off the insects that

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Speaker 1: I don't need love. You guys are a little.

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Speaker 3: Love sponges and I have learned how to adapt to

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Speaker 3: not having love.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I like being that, But for Conne.

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Speaker 4: I'm learning to adapt to a life without succession. It's

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Speaker 4: been depressing.

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Speaker 2: I have to say, yeah it is.

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Speaker 3: I'm like searching every night to find a new thing.

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Speaker 3: I did watch Tar the other night based on your

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Speaker 3: recommendation on you and like everyone's recommendation it tar.

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Speaker 1: It's uh. Her name is Lydia Tar. I don't like that.

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Speaker 3: I wish they would have named it something different because

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Speaker 3: it just sounds like some I don't know, it just

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Speaker 3: didn't sound appealing to me. The tar with like a

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Speaker 3: weird oumlat that not even like an accent over the a.

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Speaker 3: But she is a composer. She's a maestra instead of maestro,

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Speaker 3: because I guess it's they change it if you're a

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Speaker 3: lady with a stick, and she is the most prolific

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Speaker 3: maestro or maestra that's like literally ever lived, like up

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Speaker 3: there with Gershwin in this world that we're living in,

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Speaker 3: and you know, she's she's done movie scores. She's e

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Speaker 3: like she's just the most renowned, most upheld and just

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Speaker 3: the smartest and she does speak like this. Immediately you

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Speaker 3: are struck by how she talks. It is like this

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Speaker 3: isn't it Anya.

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Speaker 3: I used to worship like Dawson's Creek and Katie Holmes

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Speaker 3: I'll let me hashtag it with something so everyone knows

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Speaker 3: I'm not trying to do this. I'm I'm literally trying

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Speaker 3: That's like when you do a you sign up for

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Speaker 3: you're not gonna find it.

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00:21:14,000 --> 00:21:16,840
Speaker 4: It would be eleven Thousandingham.

442
00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:20,880
Speaker 7: It is hilarious, burning sold it out.

443
00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:22,080
Speaker 1: I'm cheyser baby.

444
00:21:22,200 --> 00:21:23,720
Speaker 3: Okay, we'll take a bag and be back up to

445
00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:29,680
Speaker 3: the all right, we're back. I just sprayed some of

446
00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:34,320
Speaker 3: my daily throat spray immune support bee keepers natural.

447
00:21:34,440 --> 00:21:36,240
Speaker 1: I got all this ship from my throat. None of

448
00:21:36,280 --> 00:21:36,720
Speaker 1: it works.

449
00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:41,600
Speaker 3: It's just no, it's just always irritated. None of my

450
00:21:41,720 --> 00:21:44,520
Speaker 3: subliminal messaging to myself about being the best singer in

451
00:21:44,560 --> 00:21:46,880
Speaker 3: the world is happening because I cannot sing. I haven't

452
00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:48,400
Speaker 3: been able to sing for a week and a half,

453
00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:51,399
Speaker 3: two weeks at this point, I cancel my lesson today.

454
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:51,920
Speaker 1: It sucks.

455
00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:55,240
Speaker 5: You feel like there's something that needs to be said

456
00:21:55,240 --> 00:21:57,560
Speaker 5: that you aren't saying in your personal life.

457
00:21:58,160 --> 00:22:02,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, because yes, Noah, thank you for saying much. Strang

458
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:07,840
Speaker 3: Chris no more. I mean, yeah, that might be ima.

459
00:22:09,920 --> 00:22:12,120
Speaker 3: My dad's a singer and talks a lot. He never

460
00:22:12,240 --> 00:22:14,320
Speaker 3: has any issues with his voice. I won't I won't

461
00:22:14,320 --> 00:22:16,679
Speaker 3: say never, but it's I don't remember any time in

462
00:22:16,720 --> 00:22:19,600
Speaker 3: my childhood where my dad couldn't sing or had to

463
00:22:19,640 --> 00:22:22,400
Speaker 3: take any time off. And this happens to me constantly.

464
00:22:22,400 --> 00:22:24,520
Speaker 3: I'm gonna get choked up even talking about it because

465
00:22:24,720 --> 00:22:25,479
Speaker 3: it just sucks.

466
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:26,680
Speaker 1: Because it is.

467
00:22:27,440 --> 00:22:29,840
Speaker 3: It is a reflection of like you're not saying something

468
00:22:29,880 --> 00:22:32,679
Speaker 3: that's locked inside of you, like your throat chakra or whatever.

469
00:22:32,840 --> 00:22:35,880
Speaker 1: I'm fucked. I don't know how to fix it.

470
00:22:36,800 --> 00:22:39,520
Speaker 3: And and if you try to take time off, I'm sorry,

471
00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:40,320
Speaker 3: I'm getting emotional.

472
00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:41,840
Speaker 1: If you take time off.

473
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:45,160
Speaker 3: No one believed, no one believes you that you can't

474
00:22:45,200 --> 00:22:48,160
Speaker 3: really like hang out, so your social life gets diminished

475
00:22:48,160 --> 00:22:51,160
Speaker 3: because that's what has to go first. So you can't

476
00:22:51,160 --> 00:22:53,800
Speaker 3: talk anymore, people kind of even don't believe you. I

477
00:22:53,840 --> 00:22:55,879
Speaker 3: went to the concert last night. I was supposed to

478
00:22:55,920 --> 00:22:57,320
Speaker 3: go to dinner with Chris and his mom, and I

479
00:22:57,320 --> 00:22:59,040
Speaker 3: canceled on that because I was like, I can't talk,

480
00:22:59,080 --> 00:23:01,119
Speaker 3: and she's like, well, I was gonna get a tickets

481
00:23:01,160 --> 00:23:02,720
Speaker 3: to this musical and I was like, well, I can

482
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:04,280
Speaker 3: go to that because I can't talk. But it seems

483
00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,040
Speaker 3: like I was just like lying, like that sounds more

484
00:23:06,040 --> 00:23:08,440
Speaker 3: fun than a dinner, I'll go to that. And I'm

485
00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:10,520
Speaker 3: talking at the musical because people are talking to me.

486
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:14,040
Speaker 3: What do I say? I can't So it just sucks.

487
00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:16,280
Speaker 3: And all I want to do is sing. I don't

488
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:18,920
Speaker 3: want to talk, and I can't do that at all,

489
00:23:19,520 --> 00:23:21,480
Speaker 3: and it just blow. I can't even sing along to

490
00:23:21,560 --> 00:23:23,879
Speaker 3: music in the shower. It just blows. I'm just feeling

491
00:23:23,920 --> 00:23:25,920
Speaker 3: sorry for myself a little bit, just letting that out.

492
00:23:26,560 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 3: And then last night I had a drea like I

493
00:23:28,840 --> 00:23:33,359
Speaker 3: always have this recurring dream. Well, last night was really rough.

494
00:23:33,359 --> 00:23:34,760
Speaker 3: I had a dream I was raped and I was

495
00:23:34,880 --> 00:23:37,480
Speaker 3: watching it. Oh my gosh, I was watching my own

496
00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:41,120
Speaker 3: rape and then two and two people were doing it.

497
00:23:41,119 --> 00:23:44,879
Speaker 3: It was like him and another guy, and I was

498
00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:47,840
Speaker 3: gonna report it. I was watching myself. I don't know

499
00:23:47,880 --> 00:23:50,760
Speaker 3: who knows what this even means. Well I might, because

500
00:23:50,800 --> 00:23:53,600
Speaker 3: in the middle of the night I googled dream watching

501
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:55,840
Speaker 3: your own rape, and then I fell asleep as I

502
00:23:55,880 --> 00:23:58,520
Speaker 3: was reading the fucking bot description.

503
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:01,480
Speaker 1: All these dreams and are written by bots. None of

504
00:24:01,480 --> 00:24:02,480
Speaker 1: it makes any sense.

505
00:24:03,320 --> 00:24:06,800
Speaker 3: And so yeah, there's obviously something going on with me

506
00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:09,639
Speaker 3: psychologically that I am needing to process because I got

507
00:24:09,720 --> 00:24:11,800
Speaker 3: raped in my dream last night and it was really

508
00:24:11,880 --> 00:24:14,000
Speaker 3: ongoing and it was long, and it turned into this

509
00:24:14,040 --> 00:24:17,919
Speaker 3: whole episode where his girlfriend found out about it and

510
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:20,200
Speaker 3: she was going to cover it up to and I

511
00:24:20,280 --> 00:24:21,680
Speaker 3: knew I wasn't going to be believed.

512
00:24:21,800 --> 00:24:22,760
Speaker 1: There was no way.

513
00:24:23,480 --> 00:24:25,439
Speaker 3: For whatever reason, I woke up with this feeling of

514
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:28,680
Speaker 3: like and this person. I was like, if I ever

515
00:24:28,760 --> 00:24:31,639
Speaker 3: meet them again, I this will be so lasting with

516
00:24:31,720 --> 00:24:35,159
Speaker 3: me that they raped me, that even though this person

517
00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:37,159
Speaker 3: did not rape me in real life, not even close,

518
00:24:37,880 --> 00:24:40,720
Speaker 3: I will never I'll be disgusted with them if I

519
00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:42,800
Speaker 3: see them, like this is going to solidify it that

520
00:24:42,840 --> 00:24:44,240
Speaker 3: I will never want to have this person in my

521
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:44,879
Speaker 3: life again.

522
00:24:45,280 --> 00:24:46,960
Speaker 2: And it was just the person in the dream is

523
00:24:47,040 --> 00:24:48,000
Speaker 2: someone you actually know?

524
00:24:48,440 --> 00:24:50,159
Speaker 1: Yes, the person who raped me is someone I know?

525
00:24:50,720 --> 00:24:55,199
Speaker 4: And what do they mean to you? Obviously anonymous? But like,

526
00:24:55,640 --> 00:24:59,040
Speaker 4: what what are your true feelings about this betrayal daily life?

527
00:24:59,359 --> 00:25:06,119
Speaker 3: And like just yeah, I guess betrayal and just me

528
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:11,040
Speaker 3: being stupid and like all of those things unfinished, like anger,

529
00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:15,840
Speaker 3: repressed anger that I haven't gotten to express, and just

530
00:25:15,880 --> 00:25:18,520
Speaker 3: feeling like an idiot and feeling like I'm the one

531
00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:23,960
Speaker 3: who's like the joke and I always encounter him and

532
00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:27,960
Speaker 3: his little cohort that I feel like I'm the idiot.

533
00:25:28,280 --> 00:25:31,080
Speaker 3: I always encounter them in dreams and I never win.

534
00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:35,879
Speaker 3: They always win. I never This story never finishes the

535
00:25:35,880 --> 00:25:37,840
Speaker 3: way I used to want it to finish. This is

536
00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,560
Speaker 3: all based on something that happened that I wanted to

537
00:25:39,560 --> 00:25:41,359
Speaker 3: finish a certain way in my true life.

538
00:25:41,359 --> 00:25:42,000
Speaker 1: Now I do not.

539
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 3: Want that I'm so glad it didn't finish that way,

540
00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:48,720
Speaker 3: but it reoccurs, and then I always think in the dream,

541
00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,440
Speaker 3: like this is my dream, I get to finally have

542
00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:52,840
Speaker 3: this goal the way I wanted to.

543
00:25:53,240 --> 00:25:55,840
Speaker 1: It never ever goes that way.

544
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:58,080
Speaker 3: They always end up laughing at me and I get

545
00:25:58,080 --> 00:25:59,240
Speaker 3: physically hurt in some way.

546
00:25:59,240 --> 00:26:01,680
Speaker 1: And last night was raped. What the fuck?

547
00:26:01,840 --> 00:26:06,520
Speaker 3: Man? And I won't crying and like shaking and like

548
00:26:06,960 --> 00:26:09,359
Speaker 3: so distraught that I was like, oh my god, like

549
00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:12,159
Speaker 3: that really felt real, Like that was no, that was

550
00:26:12,359 --> 00:26:15,120
Speaker 3: no nonsense, man, Like that was a.

551
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:16,320
Speaker 1: Different kind of dream.

552
00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:19,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, that was like I mean, I'm not comparing it

553
00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:23,280
Speaker 3: to what actual victims feel, but man, I was in it.

554
00:26:23,280 --> 00:26:24,440
Speaker 1: It was and I was.

555
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:26,760
Speaker 3: Watching it, which I do believe is like a thing

556
00:26:26,800 --> 00:26:29,720
Speaker 3: that happens to people. Like I'm not talking like at

557
00:26:29,760 --> 00:26:32,360
Speaker 3: all like I was raped. Please don't misconstrue what I'm saying.

558
00:26:32,400 --> 00:26:34,760
Speaker 3: I had a dream that I was It's like that

559
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:36,760
Speaker 3: Uber driver that I met that said that he met

560
00:26:36,840 --> 00:26:39,760
Speaker 3: Jesus and he's like it was a dream. I'm like, yeah,

561
00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:43,080
Speaker 3: I don't think you met Jesus, but it just felt

562
00:26:44,200 --> 00:26:45,199
Speaker 3: it was it was wild.

563
00:26:45,280 --> 00:26:46,160
Speaker 1: And so you've been.

564
00:26:46,200 --> 00:26:49,840
Speaker 4: Violated in some way in your real life, and your

565
00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:53,720
Speaker 4: subconscious feels like you have these unexpressed feelings. It's like

566
00:26:53,760 --> 00:26:55,959
Speaker 4: what you were just saying about your throat chakra. You

567
00:26:56,000 --> 00:26:58,920
Speaker 4: cannot get the stuff out or you feel like you're

568
00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:02,080
Speaker 4: not allowed to express yourself, and even in a dream

569
00:27:02,119 --> 00:27:03,000
Speaker 4: and expressing.

570
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:05,800
Speaker 3: I fucking have a podcast where I say I want

571
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:08,040
Speaker 3: to kill myself sometimes, Like how what is?

572
00:27:08,119 --> 00:27:08,960
Speaker 1: It's probably.

573
00:27:10,280 --> 00:27:13,440
Speaker 5: It's something unresolved and in our dreams, Like the reason

574
00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:15,439
Speaker 5: we have dreams is because our brain is trying to

575
00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:19,200
Speaker 5: purge these thoughts. And it could just be like your

576
00:27:19,240 --> 00:27:21,639
Speaker 5: brain trying to get rid of this issue between you

577
00:27:21,720 --> 00:27:24,840
Speaker 5: and this person. But yeah, just keeps getting locked in

578
00:27:25,320 --> 00:27:26,320
Speaker 5: because it's unresolved.

579
00:27:26,480 --> 00:27:30,359
Speaker 3: Kind of, it's it's it's it's bizarre. And I do

580
00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:32,760
Speaker 3: believe in dream analysis to like let you know what's

581
00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:34,680
Speaker 3: going on in your life. So I'm not saying it's

582
00:27:34,720 --> 00:27:38,200
Speaker 3: not that, but I just don't know what's locked inside

583
00:27:38,240 --> 00:27:38,439
Speaker 3: of me.

584
00:27:39,520 --> 00:27:43,480
Speaker 4: I just my dad, who's a dream analyst. That was

585
00:27:43,560 --> 00:27:46,800
Speaker 4: what he taught in university was dream research. And he

586
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:48,680
Speaker 4: called me the other day and was like, I had

587
00:27:48,720 --> 00:27:51,760
Speaker 4: the most bizarre dream and I cannot figure it out

588
00:27:51,760 --> 00:27:53,080
Speaker 4: and then he told it to me. I'm like, this

589
00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:55,760
Speaker 4: is so easy. It's this, this, this and this, and

590
00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:58,480
Speaker 4: he was like, oh my god, you blew my mind.

591
00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:00,879
Speaker 4: Like he has all these unresolved. She's with his dad

592
00:28:00,920 --> 00:28:03,760
Speaker 4: and he dreamt that his dad came back to life

593
00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:06,399
Speaker 4: where they were talking and he's My dad is saying

594
00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:09,200
Speaker 4: to his dad like, I can't believe you've been alive

595
00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:12,000
Speaker 4: this whole time, and his dad's like, yeah, I've been

596
00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:14,200
Speaker 4: living in Romeo, Michigan this whole time.

597
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:14,960
Speaker 2: Where have you been.

598
00:28:15,560 --> 00:28:17,600
Speaker 4: You never come to visit me, You visited your mother,

599
00:28:17,680 --> 00:28:19,320
Speaker 4: you never come to visit me. And my dad's like,

600
00:28:19,560 --> 00:28:23,040
Speaker 4: I tried, I tried twenty times to find you. I've

601
00:28:23,080 --> 00:28:25,920
Speaker 4: never anyway. So I'm analyzing this dream and my dad

602
00:28:25,960 --> 00:28:29,240
Speaker 4: I go, your name is Jerome, you were called Romeo

603
00:28:29,840 --> 00:28:33,880
Speaker 4: growing up, Romeo, Michigan. Your dad's saying, I've been here

604
00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:34,440
Speaker 4: the whole time.

605
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:37,520
Speaker 2: He's saying, I've been inside. I'm in Romeo.

606
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:40,960
Speaker 4: He's inside you, he's always there. He's waiting to connect

607
00:28:41,000 --> 00:28:41,239
Speaker 4: with you.

608
00:28:42,480 --> 00:28:42,840
Speaker 2: And I go.

609
00:28:43,000 --> 00:28:45,920
Speaker 4: Also, your dad was emotionally unavailable, So you're saying in

610
00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:47,360
Speaker 4: your dream, I've tried that you're.

611
00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:50,560
Speaker 3: Doing dream analysis with your dad, and everything comes back

612
00:28:50,560 --> 00:28:52,000
Speaker 3: to your dad, Like when you bring a dream to

613
00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:54,320
Speaker 3: your dad, is he is he always just kind of

614
00:28:54,320 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 3: like trying to tiptoe around the fact that it's about him,

615
00:28:57,600 --> 00:28:59,000
Speaker 3: Like does he ever acknowledge?

616
00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:04,160
Speaker 1: Like does he know about dad issues? What do you mean?

617
00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:07,120
Speaker 1: Isn't most stuff? Like isn't most stuff about your dad?

618
00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:10,120
Speaker 2: Like stuff is about you and your dream?

619
00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:12,880
Speaker 4: Like you are the rapist, you are Nikki, you are

620
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:13,960
Speaker 4: Nikki watching.

621
00:29:14,120 --> 00:29:18,800
Speaker 1: I'm the rapist. You could be, I could be.

622
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 3: That's not the way I want it to go.

623
00:29:22,880 --> 00:29:26,840
Speaker 4: Usually your subconscious is trying to integrate stuff, so you're

624
00:29:27,320 --> 00:29:32,880
Speaker 4: healing something within yourself. It sounds like maybe you think

625
00:29:32,920 --> 00:29:34,960
Speaker 4: there's a part of it, is it? Does any part

626
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:38,840
Speaker 4: of you feel like you sold yourself out with this situation?

627
00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 3: Like not that situation, No, no, if anything, I felt

628
00:29:44,560 --> 00:29:46,440
Speaker 3: like I was very authentic and like did for the

629
00:29:46,440 --> 00:29:48,720
Speaker 3: first time like what I wanted and didn't give a

630
00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:52,480
Speaker 3: fuck and was like I felt probably more myself than

631
00:29:52,520 --> 00:29:56,920
Speaker 3: ever regarding that situation, or felt like a woman. You know.

632
00:29:57,560 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 2: So the Nikki in the.

633
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:03,160
Speaker 4: Dream who's watching Nikki get raped? God, what's she doing?

634
00:30:03,560 --> 00:30:05,280
Speaker 4: Are you actually in the room or are you just.

635
00:30:06,920 --> 00:30:08,000
Speaker 1: Mean skinny pop.

636
00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:13,960
Speaker 3: I'm like choker, choker a little bit. This will turn around,

637
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 3: She'll start liking it.

638
00:30:16,240 --> 00:30:17,160
Speaker 2: You got, you're heeled.

639
00:30:18,520 --> 00:30:20,000
Speaker 3: I don't know what I was doing. All I know

640
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,440
Speaker 3: is it was a night of like struggles to sleep,

641
00:30:22,520 --> 00:30:24,320
Speaker 3: and then I woke up and I was bleeding, you know,

642
00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:28,280
Speaker 3: like it's a period pre period. I mean, I don't

643
00:30:28,320 --> 00:30:30,680
Speaker 3: think that's all of it. Because my old you know,

644
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:34,880
Speaker 3: abusive therapist, my abusive doctor, abusive.

645
00:30:35,400 --> 00:30:38,120
Speaker 1: She used to say that when you say, like I'm

646
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,800
Speaker 1: on my period, like I'm really fucking upset right now.

647
00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:44,200
Speaker 3: It's like it's all your emotions are still what is

648
00:30:44,240 --> 00:30:48,360
Speaker 3: inside you, it's just being expressed. There's no more walls up.

649
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 3: The damn is broke because you're on your period. It's

650
00:30:51,160 --> 00:30:53,800
Speaker 3: not because your period's giving you these feelings. Those are

651
00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:56,880
Speaker 3: still inside you, regardless of if your periods, they're not.

652
00:30:57,400 --> 00:31:00,200
Speaker 3: So this whole excuse of like you're whacka do because

653
00:31:00,200 --> 00:31:02,080
Speaker 3: your period, Yes, it might be heightened and it might

654
00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:05,520
Speaker 3: come out like whosh, but that's it's not to don't

655
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:08,120
Speaker 3: invalidate your feelings because you're on your period.

656
00:31:08,640 --> 00:31:12,360
Speaker 1: Just know that they're heightened for an she had some

657
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:13,360
Speaker 1: really good points.

658
00:31:13,840 --> 00:31:15,840
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I think I got a lot out

659
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:18,080
Speaker 3: of this, lady. I'm not a beauty. I'll never be

660
00:31:18,120 --> 00:31:18,800
Speaker 3: a model, Thank god.

661
00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:19,400
Speaker 1: I'm not a model.

662
00:31:19,480 --> 00:31:23,280
Speaker 3: Models hate themselves. Models are the most miserable people in

663
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:25,360
Speaker 3: the world. I always come back to that. But you're

664
00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:28,040
Speaker 3: not a beauty and you never were. Your dad told

665
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 3: you were beautiful at a young age. You didn't trust him,

666
00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,600
Speaker 3: so that like you knew you weren't because no one

667
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:34,440
Speaker 3: else said it. So why would that be? Why would

668
00:31:34,440 --> 00:31:37,080
Speaker 3: your dad know this thing that wasn't true? So you'll

669
00:31:37,120 --> 00:31:37,960
Speaker 3: never trust your father?

670
00:31:39,440 --> 00:31:42,560
Speaker 1: Okay, I tell you what I said. That's a pretty

671
00:31:42,600 --> 00:31:43,280
Speaker 1: good one. Though.

672
00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:46,000
Speaker 3: I was a smart enough kid to be like I know,

673
00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:50,000
Speaker 3: I'm not a knockout like this is. I see girls

674
00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:53,360
Speaker 3: that are knockouts. I see what happens when they live

675
00:31:53,440 --> 00:31:56,160
Speaker 3: their life. I see the compliments they get. I'm constantly

676
00:31:56,320 --> 00:31:58,280
Speaker 3: observing what other people get and I don't.

677
00:31:58,360 --> 00:31:59,680
Speaker 1: It's like my superposer.

678
00:32:00,200 --> 00:32:04,200
Speaker 4: Your dad authentically believed you were beautiful, yes, because he

679
00:32:04,360 --> 00:32:05,400
Speaker 4: saw the beauty in you.

680
00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 3: Yes, But I couldn't trust him because he did not

681
00:32:10,280 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 3: line up with what everyone It'd be like saying like

682
00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:15,120
Speaker 3: the sky is green, and I'm like, I know he

683
00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:18,280
Speaker 3: believes that, but he's wrong, and so I'm not gonna

684
00:32:18,360 --> 00:32:21,440
Speaker 3: trust any exactly. I can't trust anything else he says

685
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:24,920
Speaker 3: good about me because he's so off about this thing,

686
00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:27,960
Speaker 3: and it's true. Like he I would bring home like

687
00:32:28,400 --> 00:32:31,320
Speaker 3: a painting or something from art class, and he'd frame

688
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:34,160
Speaker 3: it and be like, you're a genius. He would literally

689
00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:37,760
Speaker 3: say that, and I go, well, this can't be true

690
00:32:37,840 --> 00:32:40,400
Speaker 3: because no one in my art, no one at school

691
00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:42,760
Speaker 3: is putting this on a wall, you know, Like there's

692
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:46,680
Speaker 3: a lot of people that are coming to like are

693
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:49,200
Speaker 3: touching this art or seeing it. It's getting in front

694
00:32:49,240 --> 00:32:52,200
Speaker 3: of them, Principles aren't putting it up. No one's really

695
00:32:52,360 --> 00:32:55,280
Speaker 3: recognizing it. So you start to just go, well, this,

696
00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:58,160
Speaker 3: I can't really the one person who believes in me,

697
00:32:58,240 --> 00:33:01,240
Speaker 3: I can't trust him because and so I hate this

698
00:33:01,280 --> 00:33:03,720
Speaker 3: whole idea of like, if there's one person no believes

699
00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 3: in you, they're probably your dad, and they probably are

700
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:09,400
Speaker 3: delusional and they love you because they have to, and

701
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:11,760
Speaker 3: they see beauty in you because you kind of look

702
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:13,800
Speaker 3: like them, and they might be a little bit of

703
00:33:13,840 --> 00:33:17,600
Speaker 3: a narcissist, like we all are. Sorry, Dad, and he

704
00:33:17,640 --> 00:33:21,480
Speaker 3: loves me. Anything I do he loves So do you

705
00:33:21,520 --> 00:33:24,440
Speaker 3: relate to that, like when your parents are like you're amazing,

706
00:33:24,520 --> 00:33:25,640
Speaker 3: Like you couldn't really trust.

707
00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:26,360
Speaker 1: I was just like.

708
00:33:28,720 --> 00:33:30,800
Speaker 5: It was always like so, I don't know which is worse. Yeah,

709
00:33:30,840 --> 00:33:34,000
Speaker 5: it was like anything I did was not good enough.

710
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:38,120
Speaker 5: It's like unless you're a doctor. And I'm like, I'm eight, Okay,

711
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:43,200
Speaker 5: well that's so sad. I'm gonna be a podcast. I

712
00:33:43,240 --> 00:33:46,360
Speaker 5: can't imagine saying those things.

713
00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:49,200
Speaker 4: My mom is behind me and I would walk home

714
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:51,240
Speaker 4: from school. I remember being seven or eight and she

715
00:33:51,320 --> 00:33:58,760
Speaker 4: was going which means what a beauty. Look at that.

716
00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:00,880
Speaker 4: She would always be like, look at that posture. She

717
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:02,880
Speaker 4: has a neck like Audrey Hepburn.

718
00:34:03,280 --> 00:34:03,480
Speaker 1: Look.

719
00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:05,240
Speaker 7: But it was a little fucked up because it was

720
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:09,440
Speaker 7: like she's like you, I know, starts a creepy that

721
00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:11,520
Speaker 7: follows you and you're just like okay, thank you, and

722
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:14,200
Speaker 7: then they keep walking behind you and you're like, oh God.

723
00:34:14,360 --> 00:34:15,080
Speaker 2: Leave me alone.

724
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 1: Is this coincidence or does this guy live near me?

725
00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:17,560
Speaker 1: Is it?

726
00:34:17,680 --> 00:34:18,399
Speaker 3: Yeah?

727
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:21,759
Speaker 4: I did feel like, oh, I guess I have an amazing posture,

728
00:34:22,120 --> 00:34:22,920
Speaker 4: so you believe.

729
00:34:22,680 --> 00:34:23,279
Speaker 1: It for a girl.

730
00:34:23,640 --> 00:34:26,320
Speaker 4: But then I had my dad on the other side

731
00:34:26,360 --> 00:34:29,560
Speaker 4: being like, oh, you're gonna inherit. You know, our terrible

732
00:34:29,600 --> 00:34:33,960
Speaker 4: self esteem. You're gonna inherit. Your mother's Russian knows you're

733
00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:37,040
Speaker 4: gonna inherit. Like he was always putting these weird ideas

734
00:34:37,040 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 4: in my head of his own insecurities. So I had

735
00:34:40,040 --> 00:34:42,440
Speaker 4: a balance of someone who really believed in me and

736
00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:44,120
Speaker 4: loved me, and my dad it was like, Oh, you're

737
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:45,880
Speaker 4: probably gonna lose all your friends, and you don't have

738
00:34:45,880 --> 00:34:47,759
Speaker 4: a very strong voice, and you'll never sing at the

739
00:34:47,800 --> 00:34:48,720
Speaker 4: met Oh.

740
00:34:48,719 --> 00:34:50,600
Speaker 1: Wait, your dad didn't say that. That was your dentist.

741
00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 2: Okay, waiting, well, important men in my life.

742
00:34:55,080 --> 00:34:57,879
Speaker 1: It's like, I'm glad I can fact check that one.

743
00:34:58,160 --> 00:35:02,280
Speaker 1: Thanks for your dad. So I sent you this earlier today. Anya,

744
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:02,880
Speaker 1: you didn't see it.

745
00:35:02,920 --> 00:35:05,200
Speaker 3: You have like a million things I sent you in

746
00:35:05,239 --> 00:35:09,560
Speaker 3: your Instagram folder to look at you're I'm like jealous

747
00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:12,040
Speaker 3: of you. It's like a private Reddit feed I've made

748
00:35:12,120 --> 00:35:13,919
Speaker 3: for you interesting things.

749
00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:16,160
Speaker 1: No, I should have put you on all of it too.

750
00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:17,399
Speaker 3: I don't know why I did it, but this one

751
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:19,840
Speaker 3: is specific to like Anya because she knows this person.

752
00:35:20,280 --> 00:35:24,279
Speaker 3: I follow this like plastic surgeon and they I'll say

753
00:35:24,320 --> 00:35:27,479
Speaker 3: they to protect their identity. They posted all of these

754
00:35:27,520 --> 00:35:29,480
Speaker 3: photos of it before and after, and then at the

755
00:35:29,560 --> 00:35:32,319
Speaker 3: very end of this caption of like highlighting what the

756
00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:35,040
Speaker 3: girl wanted and then what he decided to they decided

757
00:35:35,080 --> 00:35:37,160
Speaker 3: to give her, and then what is the At the

758
00:35:37,280 --> 00:35:42,840
Speaker 3: very end, it says, isn't she the cutest?

759
00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:45,680
Speaker 1: Can ever go see this person? Ever?

760
00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:49,799
Speaker 3: I will never see a doctor that sums up an

761
00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:53,239
Speaker 3: entire surgical procedure and shows before and after pictures say

762
00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:56,160
Speaker 3: in the cutest.

763
00:35:58,160 --> 00:36:05,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's I mean, I gotta say the after is cute.

764
00:36:05,600 --> 00:36:08,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's a chasel, but she doesn't have on harsh

765
00:36:08,320 --> 00:36:13,040
Speaker 3: lipstick either, true, and yeah that lit. The lip lift

766
00:36:13,120 --> 00:36:16,000
Speaker 3: is the thing to do if you're looking to get

767
00:36:16,040 --> 00:36:19,279
Speaker 3: any surgery. The new thing is a lip lift. The

768
00:36:19,320 --> 00:36:24,200
Speaker 3: space between your nostril and your lip is too long, probably,

769
00:36:24,520 --> 00:36:26,879
Speaker 3: so you should fix it by getting the skin cut

770
00:36:26,920 --> 00:36:29,280
Speaker 3: out and lift it up. And then if your lift

771
00:36:29,360 --> 00:36:31,719
Speaker 3: is just lifted up a bit, that is what is

772
00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:36,160
Speaker 3: pretty much setting every celebrity apart from the way you look,

773
00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:37,799
Speaker 3: and you'll never be as good as them.

774
00:36:39,120 --> 00:36:40,120
Speaker 2: But don't worry about it.

775
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:42,480
Speaker 3: But don't worry about it. There's some other things I

776
00:36:42,520 --> 00:36:45,120
Speaker 3: sent you. I said, oh, this, this one made me laugh.

777
00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:46,400
Speaker 3: You know what the Bechdel test is?

778
00:36:47,239 --> 00:36:49,719
Speaker 2: Oh, I forgot what that is? A personality test.

779
00:36:50,120 --> 00:36:52,239
Speaker 3: No, it's what they run through movies to see if,

780
00:36:52,560 --> 00:36:54,600
Speaker 3: like a movie passes the Bechdel test. It has to

781
00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:58,239
Speaker 3: have one scene where one woman and another talks to

782
00:36:58,239 --> 00:36:59,879
Speaker 3: another woman and they don't talk about a man.

783
00:37:00,239 --> 00:37:04,520
Speaker 1: And it's like, no movies pass it, No movies have one.

784
00:37:04,560 --> 00:37:06,600
Speaker 3: All it needs is to pass the Bechdel test one

785
00:37:06,719 --> 00:37:09,040
Speaker 3: scene where two women talk to each other and they're

786
00:37:09,080 --> 00:37:10,160
Speaker 3: not talking about a man.

787
00:37:10,719 --> 00:37:12,439
Speaker 1: And what else maybe has pass it about?

788
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:12,600
Speaker 7: Though?

789
00:37:13,840 --> 00:37:14,720
Speaker 1: Well, this one says.

790
00:37:14,840 --> 00:37:16,800
Speaker 3: Someone pointed out to me that, oh my god, Becky,

791
00:37:16,920 --> 00:37:19,040
Speaker 3: look at her butt passes the Bechdel test.

792
00:37:19,120 --> 00:37:20,760
Speaker 1: And I haven't stopped laughing for a week.

793
00:37:20,920 --> 00:37:23,319
Speaker 3: And I loved that they can be talking about a

794
00:37:23,400 --> 00:37:28,759
Speaker 3: job themselves, other women anything, Yeah, exactly what else would

795
00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:31,840
Speaker 3: they be talking about? And then I sent you some

796
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:36,960
Speaker 3: mean stuff of a cute dog thing, a Joan Rivers clip,

797
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:38,719
Speaker 3: and then a succession meme.

798
00:37:39,280 --> 00:37:41,120
Speaker 1: So there's some really tasty treats.

799
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:41,279
Speaker 5: In there for you.

800
00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:41,719
Speaker 1: Thank you.

801
00:37:41,800 --> 00:37:44,160
Speaker 2: This is my own personal Reddit dump. I love these.

802
00:37:44,200 --> 00:37:46,400
Speaker 4: I look forward to these because I don't have notifications

803
00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:48,439
Speaker 4: on so at the end of the day, I'll be like, yes,

804
00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:49,920
Speaker 4: Nicky sent me a bunch of stuff.

805
00:37:50,239 --> 00:37:54,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're my newsfeed. It's fun to send stuff. But

806
00:37:54,400 --> 00:37:56,480
Speaker 3: they have this trick now on Instagram where it'll be

807
00:37:56,520 --> 00:37:59,040
Speaker 3: like it'll see like a vacation spot and like this

808
00:37:59,120 --> 00:38:02,120
Speaker 3: beautiful water and link. It's like the first person you

809
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:05,239
Speaker 3: send this to the if you you go to your

810
00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:07,600
Speaker 3: sends and you the first person that shows up to

811
00:38:07,600 --> 00:38:08,880
Speaker 3: send this to is who you should go on this

812
00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:10,520
Speaker 3: vacation with. But it's just a way to get people

813
00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 3: to send things to people. And it kind of works

814
00:38:12,040 --> 00:38:14,560
Speaker 3: on me because I'm like, that's you. But yeah, you're

815
00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:16,839
Speaker 3: my first one when I pull it up because I'm

816
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:18,960
Speaker 3: mostally sending things to you. Let me just see you're

817
00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:21,960
Speaker 3: always my first. Okay, so this one, I'm I'll just

818
00:38:21,960 --> 00:38:22,880
Speaker 3: do it on Instagram.

819
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:23,680
Speaker 1: So here we go.

820
00:38:24,360 --> 00:38:28,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, you're my first, then Chris, then my sister, then Noah,

821
00:38:28,440 --> 00:38:30,520
Speaker 3: then Noah and you, then my mom.

822
00:38:30,880 --> 00:38:31,880
Speaker 1: That's a pretty good list.

823
00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:33,040
Speaker 2: Okay, you're first.

824
00:38:33,760 --> 00:38:37,279
Speaker 4: You and Noah are a second, Matt is third, my

825
00:38:37,360 --> 00:38:39,360
Speaker 4: friend Jenny is fourth. They send her a lot of

826
00:38:39,400 --> 00:38:42,600
Speaker 4: stuff in China's fifth, and then the Nikki Geiser podcasts. Wait,

827
00:38:42,640 --> 00:38:45,279
Speaker 4: this can't be right, because Chris Convey's seventh I've only

828
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:46,560
Speaker 4: sent him something like once.

829
00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:49,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, that doesn't make any sense. Doesn't make any sense.

830
00:38:49,480 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 3: I went to go see a musical last night. Yeah,

831
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:52,880
Speaker 3: what did beautiful?

832
00:38:53,080 --> 00:38:53,600
Speaker 2: Beautiful?

833
00:38:54,280 --> 00:38:59,640
Speaker 1: I so is a music like music?

834
00:38:59,719 --> 00:39:02,160
Speaker 3: Is it like a play or is it just like

835
00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:04,000
Speaker 3: an orchestra play with songs?

836
00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:05,920
Speaker 1: Okay, musical?

837
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:10,080
Speaker 3: I think, well, I ask you rent, but I don't

838
00:39:10,160 --> 00:39:15,160
Speaker 3: like I Loved Into the Woods it's my favorite musical

839
00:39:15,160 --> 00:39:18,479
Speaker 3: and West Side Story, but music. I turned to Chris

840
00:39:18,480 --> 00:39:20,239
Speaker 3: at one point, like maybe five minutes in and go,

841
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:23,960
Speaker 3: I gotta write a musical because the jokes are terrible.

842
00:39:24,920 --> 00:39:27,320
Speaker 3: This is critically acclaimed. I mean, they're just so bad.

843
00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:32,040
Speaker 3: The dialogue is off of their jokes. There's no I mean,

844
00:39:32,160 --> 00:39:35,000
Speaker 3: there was one funny one where it was like, yeah,

845
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,360
Speaker 3: I've got like and she talks like Brooklyn. You know,

846
00:39:37,560 --> 00:39:40,239
Speaker 3: she's like playing Carol King and so she talks like

847
00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:42,839
Speaker 3: this the whole time. She really actually sounded a lot

848
00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:43,800
Speaker 3: like Scherio Terry.

849
00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:44,359
Speaker 1: I was like, this.

850
00:39:44,320 --> 00:39:46,880
Speaker 3: Seems like the Scherio Terry biopic because she was just

851
00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:48,719
Speaker 3: like moving like her and kind of just you know,

852
00:39:48,840 --> 00:39:51,280
Speaker 3: jazz hands about everything, because that's a musical.

853
00:39:51,360 --> 00:39:53,640
Speaker 1: They're just like that, and you know the like high

854
00:39:53,719 --> 00:39:55,560
Speaker 1: kicks and Scherio Tarry.

855
00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:58,040
Speaker 3: So anyway, she was like one joke that I liked

856
00:39:58,160 --> 00:40:00,680
Speaker 3: was like, oh, he'll never go for girl like me.

857
00:40:00,840 --> 00:40:02,680
Speaker 1: He likes girls like that. Look at her body.

858
00:40:03,360 --> 00:40:05,680
Speaker 3: I got all the places that I'm supposed to be

859
00:40:05,719 --> 00:40:08,000
Speaker 3: small I'm too big, and the places I'm too big

860
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:10,279
Speaker 3: that are supposed to be big or too small. It's

861
00:40:10,280 --> 00:40:12,040
Speaker 3: like I got the right amount of body, it's just

862
00:40:12,080 --> 00:40:13,160
Speaker 3: in the wrong places.

863
00:40:13,400 --> 00:40:14,560
Speaker 1: Like it's like stoppling.

864
00:40:15,719 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 2: It's like.

865
00:40:17,880 --> 00:40:21,600
Speaker 3: And the median age at this eleven thousand cedar at

866
00:40:21,600 --> 00:40:23,480
Speaker 3: the Muni, which I've never been to in Saint Louis,

867
00:40:23,480 --> 00:40:25,880
Speaker 3: it's like it's been around forever. We said the Pledge

868
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:29,240
Speaker 3: of Allegiance or know, we sing, we sang the spars.

869
00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:32,200
Speaker 3: We had to go face the flag and do the

870
00:40:32,239 --> 00:40:34,680
Speaker 3: Star spangled banner before and I go, Chris, what is happening?

871
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:38,279
Speaker 3: And he was like, this is like from back, this

872
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:41,400
Speaker 3: place has been around fifty years. I'm like, so, so

873
00:40:41,600 --> 00:40:44,160
Speaker 3: is like segregation, like we have to let some things go.

874
00:40:44,480 --> 00:40:46,080
Speaker 1: Like I don't like this argument.

875
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:49,359
Speaker 3: Of like it's tradition, but happy to be there, and

876
00:40:49,440 --> 00:40:54,120
Speaker 3: it was it was out no and and you know what,

877
00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,480
Speaker 3: I'm like, you know what, I can get into the

878
00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:58,520
Speaker 3: fucking star spangled banner. That's a sign not But then

879
00:40:58,520 --> 00:41:01,440
Speaker 3: I was just thinking Trump yesterday. I was kind of

880
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:03,239
Speaker 3: feeling proud, but I was also like, we elected him,

881
00:41:03,280 --> 00:41:04,560
Speaker 3: and I was just kind of going through all the

882
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:06,880
Speaker 3: emotions during the It wasn't pledge of allegiance.

883
00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:09,520
Speaker 1: That would be insane. Sorry, third grade class.

884
00:41:09,400 --> 00:41:10,759
Speaker 2: Oh that's what I thought you were doing. I'm like,

885
00:41:10,800 --> 00:41:11,799
Speaker 2: that is why it was.

886
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:14,160
Speaker 3: It was a star spangled banner, and they had to

887
00:41:14,160 --> 00:41:16,560
Speaker 3: make the announcement of like if you can stand, because

888
00:41:16,560 --> 00:41:18,360
Speaker 3: most of the audience couldn't. I said to Chris at

889
00:41:18,400 --> 00:41:20,440
Speaker 3: one point, I go in twenty years, if you just

890
00:41:20,480 --> 00:41:23,959
Speaker 3: did a click, like twenty years, everyone's dad here.

891
00:41:24,160 --> 00:41:27,040
Speaker 1: Literally, no, it's that old.

892
00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:29,000
Speaker 3: It's really sweet that these people go out and do

893
00:41:29,080 --> 00:41:30,560
Speaker 3: this at eight fifteen at night. We were all till

894
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:35,000
Speaker 3: eleven at night. But musicals are just it was fun.

895
00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:39,080
Speaker 3: The singing is amazing, like that's the hit, and she

896
00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:42,120
Speaker 3: has so many hits. But you saw that musical twice.

897
00:41:42,880 --> 00:41:45,799
Speaker 4: Yes, I went alone once and then I I know

898
00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:47,880
Speaker 4: Carol's daughter, Louise Goffin.

899
00:41:47,960 --> 00:41:50,920
Speaker 3: She's like, how did you get through it twice? Yeah,

900
00:41:51,080 --> 00:41:54,359
Speaker 3: well go into your daughter and that will make you. Oh,

901
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:57,680
Speaker 3: you can absorb because she's in the daughter's like a

902
00:41:57,680 --> 00:41:58,480
Speaker 3: big part of it.

903
00:41:58,719 --> 00:42:01,840
Speaker 4: Well, when I told Louise, I, go have you seen beautiful?

904
00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:04,279
Speaker 4: Initially she's like, no, I have no interest in seeing that.

905
00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:06,200
Speaker 4: I grew up with my mother. I get it. And

906
00:42:06,239 --> 00:42:08,320
Speaker 4: I was like, you got to see it. It's fucking

907
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:10,319
Speaker 4: wild and you're do you know that you're in it

908
00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:13,560
Speaker 4: as a baby, like you're in all the scenes, and

909
00:42:13,640 --> 00:42:16,080
Speaker 4: she just like I felt weird telling her about it.

910
00:42:16,080 --> 00:42:17,719
Speaker 4: And then a few months later she's like, I'm coming

911
00:42:17,760 --> 00:42:19,719
Speaker 4: to New York. I have an extra ticket. Would you

912
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:22,120
Speaker 4: come with me? I was like, I would be honored.

913
00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:22,640
Speaker 2: Are you kidding?

914
00:42:22,680 --> 00:42:25,160
Speaker 4: So we're I'm watching it with her and I'm like

915
00:42:25,280 --> 00:42:28,600
Speaker 4: sobbing through the entire thing because it's just so eerie

916
00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:32,200
Speaker 4: and like, I know her sort of her history with

917
00:42:32,280 --> 00:42:35,480
Speaker 4: her family, and you know, maybe wasn't all totally mo

918
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:39,600
Speaker 4: She's me. We met at a songwriting camp. Yeah, and

919
00:42:39,800 --> 00:42:41,920
Speaker 4: I was a fan of hers years ago. I loved

920
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:44,080
Speaker 4: her first record and was like, this is so good,

921
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:47,799
Speaker 4: and yeah, we wrote some songs together in Tuloom once with.

922
00:42:48,080 --> 00:42:50,399
Speaker 3: I literally looked her up afterwards because I go, if

923
00:42:50,440 --> 00:42:55,160
Speaker 3: she is the product of Jerry the lyricist and then

924
00:42:55,239 --> 00:42:58,960
Speaker 3: Carol King the composer, she's got to be musically.

925
00:42:58,560 --> 00:43:00,560
Speaker 1: Inclined, and she was. She has like a ton of

926
00:43:00,600 --> 00:43:01,200
Speaker 1: stuff out.

927
00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:04,120
Speaker 4: Oh she's amazing, and she's so nice and so funny

928
00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:07,399
Speaker 4: and she has like a songwriting uh what's her name

929
00:43:07,440 --> 00:43:11,400
Speaker 4: on a songwriting session, Louise Goffin. But yeah, it was

930
00:43:11,520 --> 00:43:13,759
Speaker 4: pretty wild watching it with her, and then she was like,

931
00:43:13,840 --> 00:43:15,000
Speaker 4: you're right, this was great.

932
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:16,120
Speaker 1: It is great.

933
00:43:16,200 --> 00:43:18,840
Speaker 3: The music is great, and it's just fun. It's just

934
00:43:18,880 --> 00:43:21,360
Speaker 3: fun to watch like the sets being moved around and

935
00:43:21,400 --> 00:43:23,400
Speaker 3: like all the stuff that goes into production and like

936
00:43:23,520 --> 00:43:25,200
Speaker 3: and also to hear their amazing voices.

937
00:43:25,239 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 1: And I have to say I was just.

938
00:43:26,320 --> 00:43:29,040
Speaker 3: Jealous the whole time of just like them not only

939
00:43:29,080 --> 00:43:31,400
Speaker 3: being able to sing and I can't fucking do anything.

940
00:43:31,520 --> 00:43:36,080
Speaker 1: My throat was burning that it started burning. Nothing was happening.

941
00:43:36,080 --> 00:43:38,920
Speaker 3: I was chewing on cough drops, and I started having

942
00:43:38,960 --> 00:43:41,799
Speaker 3: like a reaction to my jealousy and envy of like

943
00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 3: these young people just belting, and like, why didn't anyone

944
00:43:45,200 --> 00:43:46,560
Speaker 3: take me aside and teach me to do this?

945
00:43:46,600 --> 00:43:49,279
Speaker 1: I could literally be up there doing this. No one

946
00:43:49,360 --> 00:43:50,640
Speaker 1: would you want to care? Like?

947
00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was obsessed with musical theater in high school.

948
00:43:54,719 --> 00:43:55,879
Speaker 3: I mean, do I want to do it now?

949
00:43:56,280 --> 00:43:56,560
Speaker 1: Yes?

950
00:43:56,719 --> 00:43:58,480
Speaker 3: I mean I would like to do I'm now I

951
00:43:58,520 --> 00:44:01,080
Speaker 3: think hoping to get famous enough that someone will like

952
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:02,680
Speaker 3: cast me in something.

953
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:03,600
Speaker 1: Someday.

954
00:44:04,080 --> 00:44:05,360
Speaker 2: You should do Chicago.

955
00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:08,759
Speaker 1: I don't like that means at all. I went into

956
00:44:08,760 --> 00:44:09,240
Speaker 1: the woods.

957
00:44:09,680 --> 00:44:13,760
Speaker 3: Okay, you already know that the Baker's wife into the woods.

958
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:19,000
Speaker 3: It's an alto role. No, I can't sing right now.

959
00:44:19,320 --> 00:44:20,239
Speaker 3: I thought that was like a.

960
00:44:20,200 --> 00:44:22,480
Speaker 4: Wrapping part where you're like, and into the woods and

961
00:44:22,480 --> 00:44:23,279
Speaker 4: this is what they wit.

962
00:44:23,640 --> 00:44:25,480
Speaker 1: Oh, I would like to actually, that's the role I want.

963
00:44:25,520 --> 00:44:28,520
Speaker 1: I want the role of the witch. Greens, greens and

964
00:44:28,560 --> 00:44:29,600
Speaker 1: nothing but greens.

965
00:44:29,680 --> 00:44:33,120
Speaker 3: Parsley pep coach doesn't tell arriusparagus and watercress and fiddle

966
00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:34,960
Speaker 3: friends and let us. He said, all right, But it

967
00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:36,920
Speaker 3: wasn't quite because I caught him in the autumn in

968
00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:40,080
Speaker 3: the garden one night. He was robbing me, riping me,

969
00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:44,520
Speaker 3: rating marugela, ripping up the rampy in my Champion, my favorite.

970
00:44:44,520 --> 00:44:46,160
Speaker 3: I should have laid a spell on him right there,

971
00:44:46,480 --> 00:44:48,799
Speaker 3: could have turned him into a stone or a.

972
00:44:48,719 --> 00:44:51,880
Speaker 1: Dog or a chair. Ha. But I let him have

973
00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:53,879
Speaker 1: the rampy and not lots to smam. But in turn,

974
00:44:54,360 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 1: in return, however, I said, fair is fair.

975
00:44:56,120 --> 00:44:57,640
Speaker 3: You should let me have the baby that your wife

976
00:44:57,640 --> 00:45:00,359
Speaker 3: shall bear, and we'll call it square. So I had

977
00:45:00,360 --> 00:45:04,680
Speaker 3: a brother, no, but you had a sister, So I

978
00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:07,879
Speaker 3: let him out the uh.

979
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:11,880
Speaker 1: Anyway, That's that's all I remember it. But yeah, they

980
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:12,160
Speaker 1: did that.

981
00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:14,239
Speaker 3: They did that musical in high school, and I was

982
00:45:14,280 --> 00:45:16,640
Speaker 3: obsessed with it and I played snow White and I

983
00:45:16,640 --> 00:45:19,960
Speaker 3: had one line at the in the finale performance, you

984
00:45:20,080 --> 00:45:22,880
Speaker 3: just you are like a whore on the prince's shoulder

985
00:45:22,920 --> 00:45:25,400
Speaker 3: because he is now like let go of the princess

986
00:45:25,400 --> 00:45:27,480
Speaker 3: at the end and then he's just like, you know,

987
00:45:28,040 --> 00:45:32,200
Speaker 3: a bachelor, bachelor now in this wonderland, that this fairy

988
00:45:32,200 --> 00:45:34,120
Speaker 3: tale land, and I'm snow White and I just had

989
00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:36,120
Speaker 3: sex with him with my with the girl that's with

990
00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:38,080
Speaker 3: sleeping beauties on his other shoulder and.

991
00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:41,600
Speaker 1: We just go element me. No, this is high school.

992
00:45:42,120 --> 00:45:45,960
Speaker 3: I mean, that's the connotation that he's he's a Losario

993
00:45:46,120 --> 00:45:46,600
Speaker 3: now like.

994
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:47,680
Speaker 1: He's your professor.

995
00:45:48,320 --> 00:45:48,400
Speaker 3: MA.

996
00:45:48,480 --> 00:45:50,280
Speaker 4: Sure. At the time, was like, okay, so your motivation

997
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:52,000
Speaker 4: is you just fucked this guy.

998
00:45:52,719 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 3: I mean, do you know high school drama coaches, They're

999
00:45:56,040 --> 00:45:58,320
Speaker 3: all kind of like that. There's always like did you

1000
00:45:58,360 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 3: have to wear a black wig?

1001
00:46:01,239 --> 00:46:05,439
Speaker 1: Yes? Yeah, yeah, but yeah.

1002
00:46:05,440 --> 00:46:08,000
Speaker 3: I was just like, but it was a good I

1003
00:46:08,040 --> 00:46:10,760
Speaker 3: can't imagine seeing that twice though, because it's so long

1004
00:46:11,040 --> 00:46:15,920
Speaker 3: and intermissions have got to go. Just keep it moving, honey,

1005
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:20,080
Speaker 3: I don't. I want to just it's not that it's

1006
00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:22,640
Speaker 3: I just kept being like, we got an intermission, and

1007
00:46:22,920 --> 00:46:25,960
Speaker 3: I'm always figuring out how much more there is to something,

1008
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:29,759
Speaker 3: even if I'm enjoying it thoroughly, I'm always figuring out,

1009
00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:31,040
Speaker 3: when is this gonna end?

1010
00:46:32,160 --> 00:46:34,080
Speaker 1: Why do I do that? Do you guys do that?

1011
00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:35,920
Speaker 2: I'm also starring everything.

1012
00:46:36,120 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 3: I almost google Beautiful the Musical running time, and I'm like,

1013
00:46:39,239 --> 00:46:40,120
Speaker 3: I don't I think there.

1014
00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:41,600
Speaker 1: This is like an accordion.

1015
00:46:41,640 --> 00:46:44,480
Speaker 3: It's based on what's production, but I wanted I'm always

1016
00:46:44,719 --> 00:46:47,759
Speaker 3: run anytime I type in a movie, Google knows put

1017
00:46:47,760 --> 00:46:50,000
Speaker 3: in running time because Nikki Glazer's looking up how long

1018
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:50,840
Speaker 3: this fucking thing is?

1019
00:46:51,360 --> 00:46:54,400
Speaker 2: No, No, no, in Europe, we had to negotiate.

1020
00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:57,080
Speaker 4: Matt was advancing all the shows. He had to negotiate

1021
00:46:57,120 --> 00:46:59,399
Speaker 4: with every city in Europe that we did not want

1022
00:46:59,440 --> 00:47:02,719
Speaker 4: to do. And interval because in Europe they do intervals.

1023
00:47:02,800 --> 00:47:07,160
Speaker 4: A comedian will do forty minutes, walk off stage and

1024
00:47:07,239 --> 00:47:10,200
Speaker 4: come back and do another forty minutes and finish the show.

1025
00:47:10,280 --> 00:47:11,160
Speaker 4: And guess why.

1026
00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:16,360
Speaker 2: US people can go to the bathroom that But mostly

1027
00:47:16,360 --> 00:47:17,640
Speaker 2: they just want to sell booze.

1028
00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:22,000
Speaker 3: It's smart, everything's marketing that makes sense, but that's why

1029
00:47:22,040 --> 00:47:23,080
Speaker 3: they do it.

1030
00:47:23,200 --> 00:47:26,719
Speaker 4: Doors Doors is an hour long of booze purchasing and

1031
00:47:26,800 --> 00:47:27,560
Speaker 4: drinking time.

1032
00:47:27,480 --> 00:47:29,440
Speaker 3: Because durant, because then people are too scared to get

1033
00:47:29,520 --> 00:47:31,600
Speaker 3: up and get something once the show has started, and

1034
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:33,720
Speaker 3: then they lose out on and that is the only

1035
00:47:34,000 --> 00:47:37,120
Speaker 3: thing that keeps theaters alive. Really, it's like they get

1036
00:47:37,160 --> 00:47:39,760
Speaker 3: screwed on tickets, just like the artist does, like promoter,

1037
00:47:40,200 --> 00:47:41,320
Speaker 3: you know, like it's all fucked.

1038
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:44,760
Speaker 1: They gotta make those concessions. They gotta. It makes sense,

1039
00:47:44,800 --> 00:47:45,640
Speaker 1: but it is hard to do.

1040
00:47:45,640 --> 00:47:47,040
Speaker 2: It's gonna be a long night.

1041
00:47:47,640 --> 00:47:48,480
Speaker 1: It is a long night.

1042
00:47:48,760 --> 00:47:50,759
Speaker 2: I do a half hour interval at most of these.

1043
00:47:51,480 --> 00:47:53,759
Speaker 3: You know what I like about intermissions they let you,

1044
00:47:54,280 --> 00:47:55,520
Speaker 3: they give you a chance to go.

1045
00:47:55,640 --> 00:47:57,960
Speaker 1: Do I really give a fuck about the rest of this?

1046
00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:00,319
Speaker 1: It's like, you know, when you're watching a TV show,

1047
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:01,080
Speaker 1: then you could just.

1048
00:48:00,960 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 2: Go the musical.

1049
00:48:02,760 --> 00:48:07,480
Speaker 4: Evan Hansen, Yeah, I just I can't believe then went

1050
00:48:07,520 --> 00:48:08,200
Speaker 4: back and stay.

1051
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:09,240
Speaker 1: I went back and stayed.

1052
00:48:09,719 --> 00:48:13,800
Speaker 3: But I can't believe that people love musicals so much.

1053
00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:16,360
Speaker 3: Like it was really touching to me that everyone in

1054
00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:20,200
Speaker 3: this audience was like we we go to every single one,

1055
00:48:20,360 --> 00:48:24,840
Speaker 3: people love them and they're so corny, like they're really

1056
00:48:25,400 --> 00:48:27,560
Speaker 3: did you not think The Beautiful was corny? I thought

1057
00:48:27,560 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 3: it was going to be let but you know it

1058
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:31,919
Speaker 3: has to be because that's what musicals are.

1059
00:48:32,360 --> 00:48:35,399
Speaker 4: I'm honestly gonna say, of every musical I've ever seen

1060
00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:39,520
Speaker 4: in my life, I think Beautiful was my favorite because

1061
00:48:39,520 --> 00:48:41,960
Speaker 4: it was emotional. I cried a lot. That's what I'm

1062
00:48:41,960 --> 00:48:44,400
Speaker 4: looking for in a show. I want to cry.

1063
00:48:44,480 --> 00:48:46,600
Speaker 1: I want to imagine crying during that show.

1064
00:48:46,640 --> 00:48:49,239
Speaker 3: I don't care whose daughter was sitting next to I

1065
00:48:49,280 --> 00:48:51,359
Speaker 3: don't even know where you would have cried.

1066
00:48:51,480 --> 00:48:53,160
Speaker 2: And Waitress was so good.

1067
00:48:53,920 --> 00:48:56,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, there's some that, I mean, they can be great.

1068
00:48:56,840 --> 00:48:57,319
Speaker 4: It just.

1069
00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:02,480
Speaker 1: It was the dialogue, just like you know.

1070
00:49:02,440 --> 00:49:05,200
Speaker 3: It's just like everything feels like a middle school play.

1071
00:49:05,480 --> 00:49:08,759
Speaker 3: Everyone talks like this, and everyone walks like this, and

1072
00:49:08,840 --> 00:49:11,000
Speaker 3: mime's like this, and it just like But I know

1073
00:49:11,080 --> 00:49:13,640
Speaker 3: that's what theater is because it was based on before

1074
00:49:13,640 --> 00:49:15,719
Speaker 3: we had amplifications, so you had to be very big.

1075
00:49:15,760 --> 00:49:17,560
Speaker 3: You had to play the back of the room and

1076
00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:20,279
Speaker 3: make it so big. And it's weird to me though.

1077
00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 3: Carol King's music especially, I want to hear it done

1078
00:49:23,480 --> 00:49:26,719
Speaker 3: in the Carol King style, not like tons of vibrato,

1079
00:49:26,920 --> 00:49:30,080
Speaker 3: like ah like. It's like musical theaters done in a

1080
00:49:30,120 --> 00:49:33,560
Speaker 3: certain way of like, and they sing like.

1081
00:49:33,800 --> 00:49:37,280
Speaker 1: This and everything must.

1082
00:49:37,120 --> 00:49:41,399
Speaker 3: Be like so like, and Carol King doesn't sing like that.

1083
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:43,960
Speaker 3: So I found that to be a little jarring. Do

1084
00:49:44,000 --> 00:49:45,239
Speaker 3: you did you see that?

1085
00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:49,320
Speaker 4: Yes you're I wonder who played her, but I didn't

1086
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:50,560
Speaker 4: feel that this singer.

1087
00:49:50,640 --> 00:49:51,560
Speaker 2: I think I saw Jesse.

1088
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:53,000
Speaker 1: She was great, Jesse.

1089
00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:55,000
Speaker 2: I can't remember her last name anyway, she was also

1090
00:49:55,000 --> 00:49:55,520
Speaker 2: in waitress.

1091
00:49:55,560 --> 00:49:58,000
Speaker 4: I saw her sing the Carol King part, and she

1092
00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:01,440
Speaker 4: seemed understated. But I remember when I was hanging out

1093
00:50:01,440 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 4: in New York with some Broadway friends, they kept having

1094
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:07,520
Speaker 4: me play this place called fifty two below. I think

1095
00:50:07,560 --> 00:50:10,480
Speaker 4: it's called Yeah fifties, I forget it's anyway. It's a

1096
00:50:10,480 --> 00:50:13,799
Speaker 4: Broadway place and all the Broadway singers like go there

1097
00:50:13,840 --> 00:50:15,560
Speaker 4: and they have drinks and then they do like an

1098
00:50:15,560 --> 00:50:18,200
Speaker 4: open mic thing, and I was asked a few times

1099
00:50:18,239 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 4: to go, and I was like terrified.

1100
00:50:20,080 --> 00:50:21,839
Speaker 2: I'm like, please, no, I don't want to perform with

1101
00:50:21,880 --> 00:50:22,680
Speaker 2: Broadway singers.

1102
00:50:22,719 --> 00:50:26,280
Speaker 4: I don't have Yeah, it's excellent, and they my friends

1103
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:29,239
Speaker 4: who put it on, were like, you absolutely have.

1104
00:50:29,320 --> 00:50:30,000
Speaker 2: Do they love you?

1105
00:50:30,040 --> 00:50:33,359
Speaker 4: And I remember I was like so shocked that these

1106
00:50:33,400 --> 00:50:36,520
Speaker 4: people liked my voice because I have this soft, kind

1107
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:38,880
Speaker 4: of airy voice and I can't belt it out like

1108
00:50:38,960 --> 00:50:42,080
Speaker 4: they can. And my Broadway friends were like, no, no, no,

1109
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:44,160
Speaker 4: They're fascinated by voices like yours.

1110
00:50:44,200 --> 00:50:45,600
Speaker 2: I'm like, are you just being nice?

1111
00:50:45,640 --> 00:50:47,520
Speaker 4: And she's like, I swear to God because they have

1112
00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:50,600
Speaker 4: to sing this way, and they're like, I don't know,

1113
00:50:50,239 --> 00:50:51,600
Speaker 4: I don't She might have just been.

1114
00:50:52,480 --> 00:50:56,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it's a totally different It's it's completely different,

1115
00:50:56,400 --> 00:50:59,400
Speaker 3: and but we associate that kind of voice with like,

1116
00:50:59,440 --> 00:51:00,200
Speaker 3: that's good.

1117
00:51:00,800 --> 00:51:02,680
Speaker 2: If you I would love to be able to belt

1118
00:51:02,719 --> 00:51:03,399
Speaker 2: it out like that.

1119
00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:06,040
Speaker 1: You could with the right training. You just weren't trained

1120
00:51:06,040 --> 00:51:06,400
Speaker 1: to do that.

1121
00:51:06,480 --> 00:51:09,080
Speaker 5: I guess what comedy would you kind of equate it

1122
00:51:09,120 --> 00:51:12,640
Speaker 5: to improv actors who's like who don't even do stand

1123
00:51:12,680 --> 00:51:14,680
Speaker 5: up they just do like the improv theater.

1124
00:51:16,320 --> 00:51:20,480
Speaker 3: Like the difference between Broadway singers and rock singers.

1125
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:23,640
Speaker 5: Yeah, and like just like like a singer songwriter like Anya.

1126
00:51:24,719 --> 00:51:28,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, maybe of like that one doesn't respect the other.

1127
00:51:30,360 --> 00:51:34,600
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna say no. The only reason stand up

1128
00:51:34,640 --> 00:51:39,080
Speaker 3: comics don't respect improv comedians is because we don't.

1129
00:51:39,760 --> 00:51:40,720
Speaker 1: I'll speak for myself.

1130
00:51:41,000 --> 00:51:42,680
Speaker 3: I don't think I could do that, and so I

1131
00:51:42,760 --> 00:51:46,360
Speaker 3: have to make fun of it because I fear it's.

1132
00:51:45,600 --> 00:51:47,000
Speaker 2: Like that's comics?

1133
00:51:47,080 --> 00:51:47,360
Speaker 1: Is that what?

1134
00:51:47,360 --> 00:51:49,600
Speaker 3: That? Ya? A Broadway If I'm making fun of a

1135
00:51:49,600 --> 00:51:52,120
Speaker 3: Broadway voice because I can't belt like that, So I

1136
00:51:52,200 --> 00:51:54,680
Speaker 3: have to put it down because I'm scared of it,

1137
00:51:55,000 --> 00:51:57,319
Speaker 3: which is what we do with literally everything in life.

1138
00:51:57,440 --> 00:51:58,800
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take a break, I'm gonna go pee, and

1139
00:51:58,840 --> 00:52:02,640
Speaker 1: we're gonna come back and do some more. We're back.

1140
00:52:02,840 --> 00:52:04,759
Speaker 3: We used to get No, what you don't do you

1141
00:52:04,880 --> 00:52:10,359
Speaker 3: like musicals? I do not why.

1142
00:52:10,480 --> 00:52:13,120
Speaker 5: I think I just and it's no offense to the

1143
00:52:13,160 --> 00:52:15,640
Speaker 5: actors or anything like that. I do think there's a

1144
00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:20,479
Speaker 5: lot of professionalism behind it, but I find it too corny. Yes,

1145
00:52:20,640 --> 00:52:24,560
Speaker 5: like like what you're saying, like the overacting into the music,

1146
00:52:24,840 --> 00:52:27,600
Speaker 5: and it was just Yeah, have.

1147
00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:30,480
Speaker 1: You guys watched the Idol yet? The new HBO?

1148
00:52:31,840 --> 00:52:32,760
Speaker 2: Is it worth watching?

1149
00:52:33,360 --> 00:52:35,719
Speaker 3: I haven't watched it. I'm just curious if you've seen it.

1150
00:52:35,800 --> 00:52:38,879
Speaker 3: I don't think I ever will because I don't want

1151
00:52:38,880 --> 00:52:42,400
Speaker 3: to see an anorexic girl having hanetrastive sex.

1152
00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:45,600
Speaker 1: I mean, I watched that nothing my porn. I feel

1153
00:52:45,640 --> 00:52:48,040
Speaker 1: like I just don't.

1154
00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:50,719
Speaker 3: I don't need to see Lily Rose Depp being like

1155
00:52:51,360 --> 00:52:53,040
Speaker 3: fuck I hear there's a scene where she has to

1156
00:52:53,080 --> 00:52:55,880
Speaker 3: be fully nude in the Weekend is like literally.

1157
00:52:56,239 --> 00:52:59,640
Speaker 5: I tried a lot of things about that that were

1158
00:52:59,719 --> 00:53:03,600
Speaker 5: not cool, about how the female actors were treated on set.

1159
00:53:04,000 --> 00:53:04,600
Speaker 5: Oh yeo.

1160
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,680
Speaker 1: But then I saw post might be a bad guy.

1161
00:53:08,640 --> 00:53:11,439
Speaker 4: But then were posted something where she's like, I love

1162
00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:14,440
Speaker 4: these guys and my teammates and they were so incredible

1163
00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:15,760
Speaker 4: and I'm so lucky and they.

1164
00:53:15,680 --> 00:53:16,360
Speaker 2: Love you guys.

1165
00:53:16,800 --> 00:53:18,000
Speaker 1: There's not a gun to my head.

1166
00:53:18,239 --> 00:53:20,480
Speaker 3: I'm not terrified of not getting work anymore if I

1167
00:53:20,480 --> 00:53:22,200
Speaker 3: speak out about what really happens speaking.

1168
00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:25,400
Speaker 4: I saw that too, I watched the four part Douggers series.

1169
00:53:25,480 --> 00:53:28,719
Speaker 2: I can save you anytime you might want to.

1170
00:53:28,719 --> 00:53:32,120
Speaker 3: Say, I watched two parts of it, and I think

1171
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:36,040
Speaker 3: I could probably finish it for you. Well, So Josh

1172
00:53:36,040 --> 00:53:38,759
Speaker 3: Dougger touched his sisters when they were young. We don't

1173
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:40,840
Speaker 3: have any details about it because they won't speak about it.

1174
00:53:40,880 --> 00:53:43,680
Speaker 3: So what's the point of the fucking doc. It's all

1175
00:53:43,760 --> 00:53:46,719
Speaker 3: the evangelical church. It's that one guy that started the church,

1176
00:53:46,760 --> 00:53:49,640
Speaker 3: and then he kind of trained Joe Bob Jugger to

1177
00:53:50,920 --> 00:53:54,359
Speaker 3: take this and actually be prostelytized to the whole world

1178
00:53:54,440 --> 00:53:55,200
Speaker 3: through TLC.

1179
00:53:55,600 --> 00:53:56,440
Speaker 1: He made the show.

1180
00:53:56,840 --> 00:54:00,320
Speaker 3: They knew about Josh the son, the oldest son the

1181
00:54:00,360 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 3: little girls, so they sent him away to a camp

1182
00:54:02,760 --> 00:54:04,920
Speaker 3: or to go build houses in Bolivia where he wasn't

1183
00:54:04,960 --> 00:54:06,759
Speaker 3: going to be around kids, except yes he was.

1184
00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 1: And then and then that's where I left off.

1185
00:54:09,360 --> 00:54:11,520
Speaker 4: And then they covered it up and they never gave

1186
00:54:11,560 --> 00:54:14,200
Speaker 4: their children any money. When they finally put their foot

1187
00:54:14,239 --> 00:54:16,720
Speaker 4: down and said, we're broke, we would like some money

1188
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:19,040
Speaker 4: for the show we've been working on forever, he paid

1189
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:21,880
Speaker 4: them ten dollars an hour, like barely.

1190
00:54:22,440 --> 00:54:25,480
Speaker 1: And they never organized the Doggers Union, a.

1191
00:54:25,400 --> 00:54:29,319
Speaker 4: Couple kids were like, you know, she was pregnant and

1192
00:54:29,960 --> 00:54:31,600
Speaker 4: one of the ones that had been abused.

1193
00:54:31,960 --> 00:54:35,320
Speaker 3: The interesting part I liked was like these kids talking

1194
00:54:35,360 --> 00:54:37,399
Speaker 3: about these other kids that grew up in the same

1195
00:54:37,520 --> 00:54:40,840
Speaker 3: kind of church system. I forget what it's called IBSL

1196
00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:42,520
Speaker 3: or something, it's called like ibs.

1197
00:54:44,400 --> 00:54:45,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, they grew up in the same cult.

1198
00:54:46,160 --> 00:54:48,600
Speaker 3: They said that when they watched the Duggers, they related

1199
00:54:48,640 --> 00:54:52,520
Speaker 3: to this family of like everyone's like placid and always happy,

1200
00:54:52,680 --> 00:54:56,320
Speaker 3: and there's no there's no kids screaming or no spikes

1201
00:54:56,360 --> 00:54:59,680
Speaker 3: of like enjoyment. There's no running around that, there's no playing.

1202
00:55:00,080 --> 00:55:03,719
Speaker 3: These kids are just docile. And I'm always watching it

1203
00:55:03,800 --> 00:55:06,719
Speaker 3: being like these are such good, well behaved kids, but

1204
00:55:06,719 --> 00:55:08,960
Speaker 3: they're they're robots.

1205
00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:12,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, you see all the time as babies, they teach

1206
00:55:12,360 --> 00:55:14,520
Speaker 2: them to not to be docile, so if they go.

1207
00:55:14,840 --> 00:55:19,759
Speaker 1: They take it. Wait, this is the this is interesting, Okay.

1208
00:55:20,080 --> 00:55:23,800
Speaker 4: Telling the blanket and the and the the mom Dugger.

1209
00:55:23,880 --> 00:55:26,359
Speaker 4: She says, you just put them on a blanket and

1210
00:55:26,400 --> 00:55:28,799
Speaker 4: then when the baby goes off the blanket, you just

1211
00:55:29,120 --> 00:55:31,560
Speaker 4: you beat them in the name of God until he

1212
00:55:32,239 --> 00:55:34,680
Speaker 4: understands that he's not allowed to go off the blanket.

1213
00:55:34,719 --> 00:55:38,400
Speaker 4: And he's not allowed to cry. So much fun.

1214
00:55:39,320 --> 00:55:41,360
Speaker 3: Wait, she says you beat them in the name of God?

1215
00:55:41,480 --> 00:55:43,000
Speaker 3: Or does she say you spank them? Or does she

1216
00:55:43,040 --> 00:55:46,160
Speaker 3: say something sweeter? She doesn't say beat right you.

1217
00:55:46,560 --> 00:55:49,760
Speaker 2: I don't know what they say, but basically like use.

1218
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:52,440
Speaker 4: The rod of God or what. I don't know, but

1219
00:55:52,520 --> 00:55:56,400
Speaker 4: they they sank them over and over and the baby

1220
00:55:56,480 --> 00:55:59,040
Speaker 4: keeps crying. And I did it once with my son

1221
00:55:59,120 --> 00:56:02,120
Speaker 4: for eight hours until you finally stopped grining.

1222
00:56:02,160 --> 00:56:05,720
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I can't even handle this. What the fuck?

1223
00:56:06,480 --> 00:56:08,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just always have to exercise, as they do

1224
00:56:08,880 --> 00:56:11,520
Speaker 4: for all the babies that are born in that religion.

1225
00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:14,239
Speaker 3: You know, whenever I think of a child suffering, I

1226
00:56:14,360 --> 00:56:16,719
Speaker 3: just age it really quickly and make it so that

1227
00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:19,800
Speaker 3: it's old enough to like try to understand what happened

1228
00:56:19,840 --> 00:56:21,200
Speaker 3: to it and maybe make peace with it.

1229
00:56:21,480 --> 00:56:22,160
Speaker 1: Do you ever do that?

1230
00:56:22,320 --> 00:56:25,440
Speaker 3: Like, I can't stand thinking about children being abused, so

1231
00:56:25,480 --> 00:56:27,719
Speaker 3: I just age them really quickly in my mind and go, Okay,

1232
00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:30,080
Speaker 3: cut to twenty years from now when they're fucking drug

1233
00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:34,400
Speaker 3: addicts and you know, on intervention nodding off in a

1234
00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:37,839
Speaker 3: shed after they fucked some guy in a Best Buy

1235
00:56:37,920 --> 00:56:41,080
Speaker 3: parking lot for enough money to buy heroin or whatever

1236
00:56:41,080 --> 00:56:43,040
Speaker 3: it was, like I just picked. Even though that's not

1237
00:56:43,120 --> 00:56:45,640
Speaker 3: a better reality. I feel like, Okay, this adult can

1238
00:56:45,680 --> 00:56:48,160
Speaker 3: maybe go to therapy and understand what happened to it.

1239
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:50,760
Speaker 3: And I do the same thing with like really fucked

1240
00:56:50,840 --> 00:56:53,080
Speaker 3: up adults, and I go just make them babies and

1241
00:56:53,120 --> 00:56:55,799
Speaker 3: then you'll like empathize with them, like I just do

1242
00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:58,080
Speaker 3: it both ways to like soothe myself.

1243
00:56:58,560 --> 00:57:00,839
Speaker 4: Yes, that makes sense. I got to stop watching all

1244
00:57:00,880 --> 00:57:03,440
Speaker 4: these documentaries. I think for a while, maybe maybe I

1245
00:57:03,480 --> 00:57:05,279
Speaker 4: should watch the Idol just I.

1246
00:57:05,360 --> 00:57:09,360
Speaker 5: Was thinking of, like because fiction, Like a lot of

1247
00:57:09,400 --> 00:57:12,080
Speaker 5: the girls like watching the documentaries, and I used to

1248
00:57:12,160 --> 00:57:12,920
Speaker 5: watch documentaries.

1249
00:57:13,000 --> 00:57:14,080
Speaker 1: I just can't do it anymore.

1250
00:57:14,120 --> 00:57:15,759
Speaker 5: And I think it kind of goes to the conversation

1251
00:57:15,840 --> 00:57:19,600
Speaker 5: we talked about yesterday with gossiping, because it is kind

1252
00:57:19,640 --> 00:57:22,320
Speaker 5: of like a gossip tale on this family. Not that

1253
00:57:22,360 --> 00:57:25,480
Speaker 5: I'm saying they did anything right or you know, anything

1254
00:57:25,520 --> 00:57:28,040
Speaker 5: like that, but it's like, do they have any of

1255
00:57:28,080 --> 00:57:30,880
Speaker 5: the children on there to talk about their experience or.

1256
00:57:30,840 --> 00:57:32,480
Speaker 1: Is it just from like another perspective.

1257
00:57:33,120 --> 00:57:36,800
Speaker 4: So I went on the douggers, Yeah, all the kids.

1258
00:57:36,600 --> 00:57:37,400
Speaker 2: It's all the kids.

1259
00:57:37,640 --> 00:57:41,560
Speaker 4: They definitely, you know, they talk about what happened, but yeah,

1260
00:57:41,640 --> 00:57:44,080
Speaker 4: not in explicit detail, but they do finely.

1261
00:57:44,160 --> 00:57:44,880
Speaker 1: That's the problem.

1262
00:57:44,920 --> 00:57:47,040
Speaker 3: I'm like, I want to know what he did to you,

1263
00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:49,200
Speaker 3: and I know I'm a little fucking sicko that I

1264
00:57:49,240 --> 00:57:50,880
Speaker 3: want to hear the details.

1265
00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:53,360
Speaker 2: Of They do say what they found on his computer.

1266
00:57:53,440 --> 00:57:56,640
Speaker 4: And there's audio of the police, you know, meeting up

1267
00:57:56,640 --> 00:57:58,880
Speaker 4: with Josh and being like, Hi, we're here because the

1268
00:57:59,120 --> 00:58:02,200
Speaker 4: on these devices there have been you know, we found

1269
00:58:02,200 --> 00:58:05,280
Speaker 4: this type of pornography and he's like, oh, is it

1270
00:58:05,320 --> 00:58:06,560
Speaker 4: from my devices?

1271
00:58:06,680 --> 00:58:09,600
Speaker 2: Is there some up with these devices? So it must

1272
00:58:09,600 --> 00:58:12,440
Speaker 2: be my employees. I don't know what's going on here.

1273
00:58:12,880 --> 00:58:20,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, one in twenty people, uh sorry, yeah, one

1274
00:58:20,280 --> 00:58:24,080
Speaker 3: in twenty people have watched child porn and that's a

1275
00:58:24,120 --> 00:58:24,920
Speaker 3: current statistic.

1276
00:58:25,160 --> 00:58:27,320
Speaker 1: So just know that that if you.

1277
00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 4: Are one person, it isn't your garden variety that means.

1278
00:58:34,200 --> 00:58:38,680
Speaker 4: But it was like incredibly disturbing and violent. So yeah,

1279
00:58:38,840 --> 00:58:42,440
Speaker 4: it's what was the word yesterday, I know, us soul slashing.

1280
00:58:42,280 --> 00:58:47,560
Speaker 7: Slaughtering, lottery, soul slattering, sluttery, well, soul slaughter.

1281
00:58:47,640 --> 00:58:50,320
Speaker 1: But these documentaries, they do make me so much.

1282
00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:52,360
Speaker 3: The and the Jared from Subway one is the other

1283
00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:54,840
Speaker 3: one that you like, paired with shiny happy people.

1284
00:58:54,880 --> 00:58:57,080
Speaker 1: That was a nice pairing, like a red line in

1285
00:58:57,120 --> 00:58:59,240
Speaker 1: a pasta.

1286
00:58:59,480 --> 00:59:02,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, and that one was fucking sick, But that one,

1287
00:59:02,280 --> 00:59:04,919
Speaker 3: I mean Chris also watched both of those back to back,

1288
00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:07,360
Speaker 3: and I did an impression of the woman in the

1289
00:59:07,520 --> 00:59:10,960
Speaker 3: in the the Jared from Subway one and was just like,

1290
00:59:11,800 --> 00:59:16,320
Speaker 3: what he said to me next, well stay with me forever.

1291
00:59:16,720 --> 00:59:18,680
Speaker 3: And it's like they don't tell us what he said next,

1292
00:59:18,720 --> 00:59:21,080
Speaker 3: Like they just she just keeps saying shit like that.

1293
00:59:21,560 --> 00:59:24,080
Speaker 3: By the end of it, I'm like, someone molests this one.

1294
00:59:24,280 --> 00:59:28,040
Speaker 3: I'm bored with her. I like, not that I want anything.

1295
00:59:28,520 --> 00:59:31,640
Speaker 3: I was just and she's a hero. She went undercover

1296
00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:35,160
Speaker 3: trying to pretend that she was like into kitty stuff

1297
00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:38,600
Speaker 3: so that she could get Jared from Subway to admit

1298
00:59:38,640 --> 00:59:40,400
Speaker 3: on tape that he likes his stuff, and she came

1299
00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:42,800
Speaker 3: up with a whole file she worked with the FBI.

1300
00:59:43,120 --> 00:59:46,240
Speaker 3: The FBI then like, we're not doing anything with all

1301
00:59:46,240 --> 00:59:47,280
Speaker 3: the evidence she was giving.

1302
00:59:48,800 --> 00:59:51,080
Speaker 1: What's surprised exactly.

1303
00:59:51,120 --> 00:59:52,840
Speaker 3: They just they were just had this case going with

1304
00:59:52,840 --> 00:59:54,360
Speaker 3: her where she would have to like wear a wire

1305
00:59:54,400 --> 00:59:56,160
Speaker 3: and pretend that she was into this fucking guy that

1306
00:59:56,200 --> 00:59:57,320
Speaker 3: she was disgusted by.

1307
00:59:57,360 --> 00:59:58,840
Speaker 1: She would get off the phone with him and just pew.

1308
00:59:59,000 --> 00:59:59,840
Speaker 2: They threatened her.

1309
01:00:00,440 --> 01:00:04,360
Speaker 4: They said what you did was illegal, so she rewarded

1310
01:00:04,480 --> 01:00:06,439
Speaker 4: him choice without to work with them.

1311
01:00:06,760 --> 01:00:09,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, at first she recorded Jared without his knowledge and

1312
01:00:09,680 --> 01:00:11,800
Speaker 3: without working with FBI. She just did it herself because

1313
01:00:11,800 --> 01:00:13,800
Speaker 3: she was a news reporter. She was doing an interview

1314
01:00:13,840 --> 01:00:17,240
Speaker 3: with him at a middle school, and she had no

1315
01:00:17,440 --> 01:00:19,240
Speaker 3: She was just like, Oh, this is an inspirational guy

1316
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:21,480
Speaker 3: that lost a bunch of weight eating Subways sandwiches, and

1317
01:00:21,520 --> 01:00:23,360
Speaker 3: he leans over and was like, says something about it.

1318
01:00:23,360 --> 01:00:25,200
Speaker 3: I'm really attracted. She didn't even say what he said

1319
01:00:25,240 --> 01:00:26,600
Speaker 3: to her, By the way, he never.

1320
01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:28,520
Speaker 2: Did he said that.

1321
01:00:28,600 --> 01:00:31,400
Speaker 4: He he goes, I'm really attracted on yellow school girls.

1322
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:33,720
Speaker 3: Why don't we have first of all, why don't we

1323
01:00:33,760 --> 01:00:36,440
Speaker 3: have clips from that interview where she then is interviewing

1324
01:00:36,480 --> 01:00:38,200
Speaker 3: him right after he said this to her, because they

1325
01:00:38,240 --> 01:00:39,600
Speaker 3: literally go three to two one.

1326
01:00:39,600 --> 01:00:41,920
Speaker 1: He's like, I'm really attracted to middle school kids action.

1327
01:00:41,800 --> 01:00:43,880
Speaker 3: And she's like, Hi, I'm here with Jared from Subway.

1328
01:00:43,880 --> 01:00:46,600
Speaker 3: Wouldn't that have been an interesting part of the documentary,

1329
01:00:46,920 --> 01:00:48,960
Speaker 3: And don't look like they did. They put it in

1330
01:00:49,120 --> 01:00:50,920
Speaker 3: it was not in there the interview that she did

1331
01:00:50,920 --> 01:00:53,080
Speaker 3: with him, no footage of that after right after he.

1332
01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:55,400
Speaker 4: Said that the interview, I thought that there were no

1333
01:00:55,520 --> 01:00:56,760
Speaker 4: more interviews after that.

1334
01:00:57,080 --> 01:01:00,000
Speaker 3: I know he said it to her right before they

1335
01:01:00,040 --> 01:01:02,000
Speaker 3: started the interview, and she said, I then had to

1336
01:01:02,000 --> 01:01:04,720
Speaker 3: interview him having just heard this, and had to put

1337
01:01:04,760 --> 01:01:08,160
Speaker 3: on a smiley face show that that would have been interesting.

1338
01:01:09,320 --> 01:01:12,360
Speaker 3: But maybe there was some legality behind it. But so

1339
01:01:12,440 --> 01:01:15,720
Speaker 3: then she so she knows she took it upon herself

1340
01:01:15,720 --> 01:01:17,520
Speaker 3: to be like, Okay, he just said that fucked up

1341
01:01:17,560 --> 01:01:19,120
Speaker 3: thing to me. I think this guy is up to

1342
01:01:19,240 --> 01:01:20,880
Speaker 3: no good and he is going on all of these

1343
01:01:20,880 --> 01:01:23,960
Speaker 3: middle school tours to try to get kids, you know,

1344
01:01:24,640 --> 01:01:28,280
Speaker 3: running and jerkin, and like he's trying, he's trying to

1345
01:01:28,320 --> 01:01:30,680
Speaker 3: get these kids active so he can fuck them. And

1346
01:01:30,760 --> 01:01:34,480
Speaker 3: so she decided to and he's kind of he's into

1347
01:01:34,480 --> 01:01:36,320
Speaker 3: adult women too, which a lot of people that are

1348
01:01:36,680 --> 01:01:39,520
Speaker 3: into child pornography, by the way, they like adult women too.

1349
01:01:39,680 --> 01:01:42,480
Speaker 3: It's not just like one or the other. It's actually

1350
01:01:42,560 --> 01:01:44,120
Speaker 3: very an interesting thing. You can hear about on the

1351
01:01:44,120 --> 01:01:45,760
Speaker 3: Sam Harris podcast that you could you do him me,

1352
01:01:45,760 --> 01:01:49,720
Speaker 3: I'll send it to you. But they so's he was

1353
01:01:49,760 --> 01:01:52,160
Speaker 3: like into her, this woman, and she could tell that

1354
01:01:52,200 --> 01:01:53,920
Speaker 3: he's flirty and that's why he even like kind of

1355
01:01:53,920 --> 01:01:56,720
Speaker 3: shared that with her, the middle school girls thing. And

1356
01:01:56,760 --> 01:01:58,480
Speaker 3: so then she was like, Okay, I'm gonna just pretend

1357
01:01:58,560 --> 01:01:59,320
Speaker 3: I want to date him.

1358
01:01:59,320 --> 01:02:00,360
Speaker 1: And so she follow up.

1359
01:02:00,320 --> 01:02:02,360
Speaker 3: With him and was like, hey, like I love to

1360
01:02:02,400 --> 01:02:04,480
Speaker 3: hang out. And so then she went to his hotel

1361
01:02:04,520 --> 01:02:07,080
Speaker 3: room and recorded him, recorded him, and she was so

1362
01:02:07,320 --> 01:02:08,880
Speaker 3: he tried to like kiss her and stuff, and she

1363
01:02:08,960 --> 01:02:10,960
Speaker 3: pushed him off and he was kind of persistent. So

1364
01:02:11,000 --> 01:02:14,200
Speaker 3: when he went to the bathroom, she ran out and

1365
01:02:14,200 --> 01:02:16,160
Speaker 3: and then just began a relationship with him where she

1366
01:02:16,160 --> 01:02:16,480
Speaker 3: would be.

1367
01:02:16,520 --> 01:02:17,440
Speaker 1: Like I can't see you.

1368
01:02:17,560 --> 01:02:20,479
Speaker 3: I hate this my phone, my face time, doesn't worry

1369
01:02:20,480 --> 01:02:22,600
Speaker 3: whatever it is, you know, the lies that women do

1370
01:02:22,760 --> 01:02:26,960
Speaker 3: to not have to actually see someone, and like I

1371
01:02:26,960 --> 01:02:28,880
Speaker 3: can't get away from work, the kids, it's so busy.

1372
01:02:29,160 --> 01:02:31,040
Speaker 3: So she would just be talking to him for hours

1373
01:02:31,040 --> 01:02:32,840
Speaker 3: a day on the phone. So she finally went to

1374
01:02:32,840 --> 01:02:34,480
Speaker 3: the FBI and was like, look at all this stuff

1375
01:02:34,520 --> 01:02:37,680
Speaker 3: I have, and they were like, you broke a federal

1376
01:02:37,760 --> 01:02:41,480
Speaker 3: law by recording someone without their permission. She's as, don't

1377
01:02:41,480 --> 01:02:44,880
Speaker 3: cooperate with us exactly, but it's still breaking federal law

1378
01:02:45,000 --> 01:02:47,800
Speaker 3: even to do your own little investigative news journalist thing

1379
01:02:47,880 --> 01:02:51,600
Speaker 3: for your little local Florida station. And so they said,

1380
01:02:51,640 --> 01:02:53,760
Speaker 3: if you don't cooperate with us to actually bring this

1381
01:02:53,760 --> 01:02:56,160
Speaker 3: guy to justice, we're going to charge you.

1382
01:02:56,600 --> 01:02:58,800
Speaker 1: And so she was like okay. So then they have her.

1383
01:02:59,240 --> 01:03:01,560
Speaker 3: Then they're they're telling her exactly what to say on

1384
01:03:01,640 --> 01:03:04,360
Speaker 3: these calls, and it's so traumatic for her because she

1385
01:03:04,360 --> 01:03:07,360
Speaker 3: has to talk about wanting to fuck kids with this

1386
01:03:07,400 --> 01:03:10,120
Speaker 3: guy and act like she's into it. And so she

1387
01:03:10,200 --> 01:03:12,760
Speaker 3: has him admitting that he wants to admitting that he's

1388
01:03:12,760 --> 01:03:14,840
Speaker 3: done it in Thailand, all these things, and they're not

1389
01:03:14,880 --> 01:03:17,400
Speaker 3: doing anything with it. They won't go in and arrest him.

1390
01:03:17,680 --> 01:03:19,480
Speaker 3: So she was like, I'm just gonna go public with

1391
01:03:19,520 --> 01:03:22,640
Speaker 3: all this fuck it, like that'll ruin him, that'll stop him.

1392
01:03:23,160 --> 01:03:24,760
Speaker 3: And then she tried to do that and I think

1393
01:03:24,760 --> 01:03:26,920
Speaker 3: they shut her up. It was just it was really

1394
01:03:27,120 --> 01:03:29,959
Speaker 3: it ruined her life. She has a chronic pain now,

1395
01:03:30,000 --> 01:03:31,600
Speaker 3: she developed like nervous disorder.

1396
01:03:31,960 --> 01:03:35,120
Speaker 4: Her children were really gravely affected by it because they

1397
01:03:35,200 --> 01:03:38,000
Speaker 4: knew something was up with their mom, and her daughter

1398
01:03:38,120 --> 01:03:41,000
Speaker 4: like went into her notebooks one day and found all

1399
01:03:41,040 --> 01:03:43,720
Speaker 4: these notes, because she would keep copious notes after each

1400
01:03:43,760 --> 01:03:47,320
Speaker 4: phone call just to and so then her daughter finds

1401
01:03:47,320 --> 01:03:49,320
Speaker 4: all this stuff and doesn't know what the fuck it's

1402
01:03:49,360 --> 01:03:52,160
Speaker 4: about and is like, oh my mom is like having

1403
01:03:52,160 --> 01:03:56,240
Speaker 4: a dis trusting yeah, relationship with a disgusting person.

1404
01:03:56,280 --> 01:03:58,640
Speaker 2: And anyway, it just tore her whole life apart. It's

1405
01:03:58,720 --> 01:03:59,120
Speaker 2: so sad.

1406
01:03:59,240 --> 01:04:02,120
Speaker 3: She couldn't tell her kids because it was an FBI investigation,

1407
01:04:02,240 --> 01:04:05,000
Speaker 3: so she couldn't tell anyone. It just like it reminded

1408
01:04:05,040 --> 01:04:06,960
Speaker 3: me of watching The Departed the other night, and Leonardo

1409
01:04:06,960 --> 01:04:09,160
Speaker 3: DiCaprio was like losing his mind because he's living this

1410
01:04:09,200 --> 01:04:12,080
Speaker 3: double life. He get caught at any second. There's this

1411
01:04:12,120 --> 01:04:14,280
Speaker 3: amazing scene where he goes and he's wired for the

1412
01:04:14,320 --> 01:04:16,720
Speaker 3: first time, and if Jack Nicholson finds a wire on him,

1413
01:04:16,920 --> 01:04:19,360
Speaker 3: he'll cut his head off, like and in a very

1414
01:04:19,360 --> 01:04:21,480
Speaker 3: slowly too like saw his head off. I mean, this

1415
01:04:21,480 --> 01:04:24,760
Speaker 3: guy's brutal and he's wearing a wire and he's just

1416
01:04:24,800 --> 01:04:26,800
Speaker 3: like sweating so much. He goes into the bathroom and

1417
01:04:26,840 --> 01:04:28,680
Speaker 3: they're listening in the car, like, and he goes into

1418
01:04:28,720 --> 01:04:30,720
Speaker 3: the bathroom and he just takes it off and he

1419
01:04:30,760 --> 01:04:32,680
Speaker 3: fucking throws it. I feel like he throws out the

1420
01:04:32,680 --> 01:04:34,560
Speaker 3: window or something like he gets it off of him

1421
01:04:34,600 --> 01:04:35,840
Speaker 3: so he can go back in the room and like

1422
01:04:35,960 --> 01:04:37,439
Speaker 3: chill out because if they catch him.

1423
01:04:37,680 --> 01:04:39,800
Speaker 1: It's so that's the movie is so fucking good.

1424
01:04:40,040 --> 01:04:42,120
Speaker 2: I can't see that you've never seen the Party?

1425
01:04:42,400 --> 01:04:46,760
Speaker 3: No, Oh, I'm so excited for you to see it.

1426
01:04:46,800 --> 01:04:47,880
Speaker 1: No, have you seen the Depot?

1427
01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:52,120
Speaker 3: But I why God, my mom hadn't seen it, And

1428
01:04:52,160 --> 01:04:53,800
Speaker 3: that's why I watched it the other night. My dad

1429
01:04:53,880 --> 01:04:56,880
Speaker 3: was at like music practice, and my mom and I

1430
01:04:56,920 --> 01:04:59,480
Speaker 3: were just like trying to find some reality show to watch,

1431
01:05:00,040 --> 01:05:02,760
Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden, The Departed shows up,

1432
01:05:02,800 --> 01:05:04,160
Speaker 3: and I'm like, you've seen this.

1433
01:05:04,200 --> 01:05:05,280
Speaker 1: Tay Pwice in Boston.

1434
01:05:05,560 --> 01:05:09,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, Oh, listen to this cast, Jack Nicholson, Leonardo DiCaprio,

1435
01:05:10,000 --> 01:05:15,240
Speaker 3: Mark Wahlberg, Alec Baldwin, Uh, what's his name? Martin Sheen,

1436
01:05:15,440 --> 01:05:17,400
Speaker 3: women and the list goes on and on. There's so

1437
01:05:17,680 --> 01:05:19,560
Speaker 3: Matt Damon, sorry, miss Matt Damon.

1438
01:05:19,680 --> 01:05:20,480
Speaker 1: It's insane.

1439
01:05:20,520 --> 01:05:23,520
Speaker 2: It is so love say, I can't believe I haven't

1440
01:05:23,520 --> 01:05:23,760
Speaker 2: seen it.

1441
01:05:23,840 --> 01:05:25,960
Speaker 3: And there's the song in the beginning of it that

1442
01:05:26,040 --> 01:05:28,200
Speaker 3: I asked you about and when we were in Europe

1443
01:05:28,240 --> 01:05:29,560
Speaker 3: and you were like I've never heard that before, and

1444
01:05:29,600 --> 01:05:31,640
Speaker 3: it's the Gimme Shelter the Rolling Stones.

1445
01:05:31,840 --> 01:05:35,880
Speaker 1: Oh right, do you know that song? Noah? Do you

1446
01:05:35,960 --> 01:05:39,840
Speaker 1: know that she says rape murder When she's like rape murder,

1447
01:05:40,280 --> 01:05:43,640
Speaker 1: it's just a shut away, it's just a shadow. She's

1448
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:44,640
Speaker 1: going rape.

1449
01:05:45,240 --> 01:05:45,400
Speaker 7: Mr.

1450
01:05:46,320 --> 01:05:46,760
Speaker 1: I had no.

1451
01:05:46,800 --> 01:05:50,480
Speaker 3: Idea to like watch Wah The Departed, and I saw

1452
01:05:50,520 --> 01:05:52,560
Speaker 3: the captains like this woman's screaming rape.

1453
01:05:52,600 --> 01:05:55,439
Speaker 1: I thought she was screaming, whoa Jimmy?

1454
01:05:55,960 --> 01:05:58,840
Speaker 3: She was saying WHOA Jimmy, But she was saying rape murder,

1455
01:05:59,280 --> 01:06:04,520
Speaker 3: that's what. But yes, one of the hottest sex scenes

1456
01:06:04,520 --> 01:06:07,040
Speaker 3: of all time is in that film. I literally have

1457
01:06:07,360 --> 01:06:08,520
Speaker 3: masturbated to that scene.

1458
01:06:08,520 --> 01:06:09,280
Speaker 1: And I only.

1459
01:06:09,920 --> 01:06:12,560
Speaker 3: Actually I have seen that part of the movie because

1460
01:06:12,680 --> 01:06:15,120
Speaker 3: you've brought this up before. Oh yeah, I used to

1461
01:06:15,160 --> 01:06:17,439
Speaker 3: bring it up on the serious show that we had.

1462
01:06:17,680 --> 01:06:23,480
Speaker 3: It is they play, what's uh Van Morrison is singing?

1463
01:06:23,600 --> 01:06:27,080
Speaker 3: I think it's Van Morrison is singing comfortably numb by

1464
01:06:27,240 --> 01:06:28,240
Speaker 3: who does comfortably?

1465
01:06:28,320 --> 01:06:28,840
Speaker 2: Nooyd?

1466
01:06:29,000 --> 01:06:29,480
Speaker 1: Think Floyd?

1467
01:06:29,560 --> 01:06:34,280
Speaker 3: Yes, And it's Van Morrison singing it? And this and

1468
01:06:34,720 --> 01:06:39,520
Speaker 3: Leonardo DiCaprio shows up in the rain and he's been

1469
01:06:39,560 --> 01:06:44,720
Speaker 3: seeing this therapist who's played by Via I always feel like, yeah,

1470
01:06:44,760 --> 01:06:50,440
Speaker 3: like very familiar. I think remember the sulk on Twitter.

1471
01:06:50,520 --> 01:06:54,720
Speaker 3: He made that distinction once that sounded like very familiar

1472
01:06:55,360 --> 01:06:56,360
Speaker 3: via fa Mega.

1473
01:06:56,760 --> 01:06:59,720
Speaker 1: She's the therapist that Leo has to go see.

1474
01:07:00,240 --> 01:07:04,600
Speaker 4: Oh I think I have seen this scene and because

1475
01:07:04,600 --> 01:07:06,600
Speaker 4: I talked about it NonStop when we lived together.

1476
01:07:06,840 --> 01:07:11,800
Speaker 3: So he's seeing her and she's like horny for it

1477
01:07:11,840 --> 01:07:14,040
Speaker 3: for sure, and then he is like, I am gonna

1478
01:07:14,120 --> 01:07:16,200
Speaker 3: fucking die if you don't give me pills. I am

1479
01:07:16,240 --> 01:07:18,720
Speaker 3: in panic constantly, Like he can't tell her really why

1480
01:07:18,720 --> 01:07:21,080
Speaker 3: because he's undercover and all these things, but he's like,

1481
01:07:21,120 --> 01:07:22,959
Speaker 3: I'm gonna kill myself and it's gonna be your fault

1482
01:07:22,960 --> 01:07:24,560
Speaker 3: because I need these fucking pills. And she gives him

1483
01:07:24,600 --> 01:07:26,520
Speaker 3: like some. She goes, here's some like two, and he's

1484
01:07:26,560 --> 01:07:28,760
Speaker 3: like fucking two. He was like fuck you, and then

1485
01:07:29,000 --> 01:07:31,240
Speaker 3: he walks out of her office and then she was

1486
01:07:31,320 --> 01:07:33,480
Speaker 3: like she walks up and then she chases him down

1487
01:07:33,480 --> 01:07:37,480
Speaker 3: and she's like she hands him, as you know, a prescription,

1488
01:07:38,120 --> 01:07:40,360
Speaker 3: and she was like we're not seeing each other anymore.

1489
01:07:40,640 --> 01:07:42,760
Speaker 3: She was like take this, but you're not my client anymore.

1490
01:07:42,880 --> 01:07:44,960
Speaker 3: She starts walking away and she's like just walking in

1491
01:07:44,960 --> 01:07:46,720
Speaker 3: the he goes, hey, since I'm not seeing anymore, you

1492
01:07:46,720 --> 01:07:49,240
Speaker 3: want to get some coffee sometime, and she's like okay,

1493
01:07:49,360 --> 01:07:51,080
Speaker 3: and then they go to and then it's like hot.

1494
01:07:51,280 --> 01:07:54,520
Speaker 3: Leo's the hottest, by the way. But then and she's

1495
01:07:54,640 --> 01:07:58,520
Speaker 3: dating the other guy. She's moving in with Matt Damon's character,

1496
01:07:58,560 --> 01:08:01,200
Speaker 3: who is his nemesis the whole thing, but they don't

1497
01:08:01,240 --> 01:08:03,720
Speaker 3: really know it. This is not too much spoilers, I

1498
01:08:03,800 --> 01:08:07,000
Speaker 3: promise you. So anyway, she's moving out of her apartment

1499
01:08:07,040 --> 01:08:09,400
Speaker 3: to go move in with Matt Damon who is his nemicence,

1500
01:08:09,440 --> 01:08:11,160
Speaker 3: but he doesn't even know it and she doesn't know it,

1501
01:08:11,520 --> 01:08:14,440
Speaker 3: and he and Leo shows up at her place and

1502
01:08:14,480 --> 01:08:16,840
Speaker 3: then it's just a very short scene, but I watched

1503
01:08:16,880 --> 01:08:18,960
Speaker 3: it a million times. It's the hottest thing ever. It's

1504
01:08:19,000 --> 01:08:23,280
Speaker 3: that tension before they decide that they both want to fuck.

1505
01:08:24,160 --> 01:08:27,320
Speaker 3: And if you could bottle that, I'd be on skid row, baby,

1506
01:08:27,479 --> 01:08:31,040
Speaker 3: if you could bottle if you could mainline the feeling

1507
01:08:31,240 --> 01:08:33,599
Speaker 3: right before two people who have never.

1508
01:08:33,920 --> 01:08:35,000
Speaker 2: It really is the best.

1509
01:08:35,200 --> 01:08:39,080
Speaker 3: That's the most depressing thing about monogamy, without question, is

1510
01:08:39,120 --> 01:08:42,120
Speaker 3: that no more that feeling the rest of your life.

1511
01:08:42,240 --> 01:08:45,439
Speaker 5: I think you can have it if you guys you

1512
01:08:45,520 --> 01:08:49,679
Speaker 5: break up No, well, yes, through that, but also makeup

1513
01:08:50,479 --> 01:08:53,280
Speaker 5: if one one of the partners goes out of town

1514
01:08:53,800 --> 01:08:57,680
Speaker 5: for an extended period of time then comes back, No,

1515
01:08:57,800 --> 01:08:58,519
Speaker 5: and then it's.

1516
01:08:58,479 --> 01:09:00,439
Speaker 3: Not the same as someone that you're like, I don't

1517
01:09:00,439 --> 01:09:02,160
Speaker 3: know if they want to fuck me, but I've been

1518
01:09:02,200 --> 01:09:05,800
Speaker 3: thinking about this for weeks and fantasizing about it, and

1519
01:09:05,840 --> 01:09:10,240
Speaker 3: this might happen, but I don't know. And like that

1520
01:09:10,240 --> 01:09:13,280
Speaker 3: that tension before it actually one person actually leans in

1521
01:09:13,840 --> 01:09:17,599
Speaker 3: you will never have that again ever if you're married,

1522
01:09:17,840 --> 01:09:20,000
Speaker 3: And that is why I think most people were jealous

1523
01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:22,479
Speaker 3: of Taylor Swiss relationship because she was having that kind

1524
01:09:22,479 --> 01:09:25,280
Speaker 3: of sex and most people are married and not and

1525
01:09:25,360 --> 01:09:26,679
Speaker 3: it's a bummer and.

1526
01:09:28,000 --> 01:09:30,240
Speaker 1: Add ely, yeah who she's not broken up with?

1527
01:09:30,320 --> 01:09:34,080
Speaker 3: But yeah, like that's Does that ever depress you guys

1528
01:09:35,200 --> 01:09:37,000
Speaker 3: that you won't have that anymore?

1529
01:09:37,840 --> 01:09:38,599
Speaker 2: Not until now?

1530
01:09:39,439 --> 01:09:41,479
Speaker 1: No, that's not true. I've talked about this before.

1531
01:09:41,720 --> 01:09:45,040
Speaker 5: No, because I remember very specifically when Aviy and I

1532
01:09:45,120 --> 01:09:47,160
Speaker 5: had that moment and.

1533
01:09:47,240 --> 01:09:49,080
Speaker 1: Yes we yeah, let's talk about that.

1534
01:09:49,760 --> 01:09:53,400
Speaker 5: Okay, So it was so okay, I'll just do a

1535
01:09:53,400 --> 01:09:54,080
Speaker 5: little recap.

1536
01:09:54,240 --> 01:09:56,519
Speaker 1: It's hot, right, Like, was it so hot? It was

1537
01:09:56,600 --> 01:09:57,000
Speaker 1: so hot.

1538
01:09:57,040 --> 01:09:59,559
Speaker 5: It was it was on like President's Street in Brooklyn

1539
01:09:59,640 --> 01:10:00,599
Speaker 5: and Cobble Hill.

1540
01:10:00,720 --> 01:10:02,400
Speaker 2: I thought she was going to say President's Day.

1541
01:10:02,640 --> 01:10:03,920
Speaker 1: I did too. I was like, oh, did you go

1542
01:10:04,040 --> 01:10:05,240
Speaker 1: to Mattress for Sale too?

1543
01:10:07,080 --> 01:10:10,439
Speaker 5: And it was after we met for our first date,

1544
01:10:10,840 --> 01:10:13,800
Speaker 5: after I did the book Getting Two I do in

1545
01:10:13,960 --> 01:10:17,200
Speaker 5: our DMS. And we met at a bar and he's like, oh,

1546
01:10:17,320 --> 01:10:19,200
Speaker 5: what do you want to drink? And I'm like, uh, water,

1547
01:10:19,280 --> 01:10:22,280
Speaker 5: I don't really drink. So we ended up going to

1548
01:10:22,400 --> 01:10:25,439
Speaker 5: like a little restaurant and instead we just ate and

1549
01:10:25,520 --> 01:10:29,000
Speaker 5: had a good time, good conversation, and then he like

1550
01:10:29,240 --> 01:10:31,360
Speaker 5: walked me to my car and I was like, oh,

1551
01:10:31,400 --> 01:10:32,360
Speaker 5: you don't have to walk me all the way to

1552
01:10:32,439 --> 01:10:34,679
Speaker 5: the car, just walked me to the corner and then

1553
01:10:35,240 --> 01:10:36,559
Speaker 5: we just kind of like looked at each other and

1554
01:10:36,560 --> 01:10:39,840
Speaker 5: it was so romantic, like it was nighttime and the

1555
01:10:39,880 --> 01:10:42,719
Speaker 5: street light was on us and it was on the corner.

1556
01:10:43,400 --> 01:10:45,880
Speaker 5: I can't remember the it might have been like Court

1557
01:10:45,960 --> 01:10:48,240
Speaker 5: Street and President's Street or something like that. And then

1558
01:10:48,520 --> 01:10:50,400
Speaker 5: she just kind of like leaned in and we kissed

1559
01:10:50,439 --> 01:10:53,000
Speaker 5: each other and then I just like ran away.

1560
01:10:53,680 --> 01:10:55,200
Speaker 3: I was like, okay, we did to the first time

1561
01:10:55,280 --> 01:10:57,120
Speaker 3: Chris and I kissed. I ran away because I was like,

1562
01:10:57,160 --> 01:10:59,160
Speaker 3: I got it. I don't want to, like, I don't.

1563
01:10:58,960 --> 01:11:00,840
Speaker 1: Want to fuck this up by doing anything else. This

1564
01:11:00,920 --> 01:11:02,760
Speaker 1: is just what I wanted. I have no plan out here,

1565
01:11:02,800 --> 01:11:05,360
Speaker 1: and it's like, where are you going? Yeah? He literally

1566
01:11:05,400 --> 01:11:07,600
Speaker 1: was like he said he'd never seen anyone call a

1567
01:11:07,600 --> 01:11:10,160
Speaker 1: cap like so quickly. But you kiss and then you

1568
01:11:10,280 --> 01:11:10,920
Speaker 1: ran away, and.

1569
01:11:10,840 --> 01:11:12,280
Speaker 3: Then I like called a cap And then he was like,

1570
01:11:12,280 --> 01:11:14,160
Speaker 3: do you want to come over? And I go, oh, yeah, right,

1571
01:11:14,240 --> 01:11:15,519
Speaker 3: And then I got in the car and I was like,

1572
01:11:15,560 --> 01:11:16,679
Speaker 3: I'll see what worked tomorrow.

1573
01:11:17,080 --> 01:11:18,000
Speaker 1: What about you and Mad?

1574
01:11:19,040 --> 01:11:25,639
Speaker 4: Yeah, it didn't end the way your stories ended. I'll

1575
01:11:25,640 --> 01:11:27,479
Speaker 4: tell you about the moment that I love that I

1576
01:11:27,520 --> 01:11:30,439
Speaker 4: think about all the time. It was a hot summer day.

1577
01:11:30,560 --> 01:11:33,519
Speaker 4: I had just done a silent retreat for like three

1578
01:11:33,640 --> 01:11:36,679
Speaker 4: or five days or something. He picked me up from

1579
01:11:36,720 --> 01:11:38,960
Speaker 4: this place. We were not boyfriend and girlfriend, but I

1580
01:11:39,080 --> 01:11:42,360
Speaker 4: was probably meditating about him the entire time. All warned up.

1581
01:11:42,600 --> 01:11:45,880
Speaker 4: It was summer, I was hot as hell. I was

1582
01:11:45,920 --> 01:11:49,000
Speaker 4: like so horny for him. He and I remember we

1583
01:11:49,040 --> 01:11:50,760
Speaker 4: went to lunch or something, and then we came back

1584
01:11:50,800 --> 01:11:52,800
Speaker 4: to his place and he's like, do you want to

1585
01:11:52,840 --> 01:11:56,000
Speaker 4: watch Stop Making Sense about the talking heads, like the

1586
01:11:56,080 --> 01:11:57,600
Speaker 4: Jonathan Demi documentary.

1587
01:11:57,640 --> 01:11:59,639
Speaker 2: Have you seen that? I was like, whatever, put anything

1588
01:11:59,640 --> 01:11:59,840
Speaker 2: on it?

1589
01:12:00,120 --> 01:12:03,240
Speaker 4: Care And we're lying on his bed watching Stop Making

1590
01:12:03,280 --> 01:12:06,680
Speaker 4: Sense and the window was kissed before. Yes, we had

1591
01:12:06,760 --> 01:12:08,800
Speaker 4: kissed before, but it had been like a year, and

1592
01:12:08,880 --> 01:12:10,160
Speaker 4: I was like dying to see.

1593
01:12:10,439 --> 01:12:12,920
Speaker 3: Oh, yeah, that's that, You're right a year. And also

1594
01:12:13,040 --> 01:12:14,639
Speaker 3: you guys work together, so this.

1595
01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:17,240
Speaker 4: We had all got to be had sex before. But

1596
01:12:17,400 --> 01:12:21,439
Speaker 4: I was wearing this blue silk dress that was really thin,

1597
01:12:22,160 --> 01:12:25,000
Speaker 4: and I remember when he picked me up, he goes,

1598
01:12:25,120 --> 01:12:28,439
Speaker 4: I like your Quaker dress, like he nagged me like

1599
01:12:28,600 --> 01:12:31,519
Speaker 4: it was something like he goes, I like your Mennonite dress.

1600
01:12:31,520 --> 01:12:33,000
Speaker 2: And I was like, wna night, what do you mean?

1601
01:12:33,520 --> 01:12:35,559
Speaker 4: And and then we're lying there on his bed and

1602
01:12:35,560 --> 01:12:37,320
Speaker 4: I just remember there was a breeze from the window.

1603
01:12:37,320 --> 01:12:39,680
Speaker 4: I'll never forget it. And my dress was fluttering up.

1604
01:12:39,800 --> 01:12:42,840
Speaker 4: It kept like fluttering up, and I'm just like, when

1605
01:12:43,160 --> 01:12:45,120
Speaker 4: the fuck are we gonna kiss?

1606
01:12:45,200 --> 01:12:45,800
Speaker 2: I'm dying.

1607
01:12:45,840 --> 01:12:47,960
Speaker 4: I'm just like, when is this movie gonna be over?

1608
01:12:48,040 --> 01:12:50,720
Speaker 4: I'm thirty minutes into this movie and I'm just like,

1609
01:12:50,840 --> 01:12:52,519
Speaker 4: this guy is not making a move. This guy's not

1610
01:12:52,560 --> 01:12:54,519
Speaker 4: making move and the breeze is fluttering and I'm just

1611
01:12:54,520 --> 01:12:57,759
Speaker 4: staring at my dress and I'm like, I am dying.

1612
01:12:58,600 --> 01:13:02,240
Speaker 4: And then I just remember, like my arm moved a

1613
01:13:02,360 --> 01:13:06,160
Speaker 4: millimeter and touched the hair on his arm on his forum,

1614
01:13:06,400 --> 01:13:09,840
Speaker 4: and like I barely pressed into his forum, and then

1615
01:13:09,880 --> 01:13:13,800
Speaker 4: he rolled over, and that was the beginning. Yes, And

1616
01:13:13,840 --> 01:13:15,880
Speaker 4: I was just like the hottest moment of my life

1617
01:13:16,000 --> 01:13:18,400
Speaker 4: because I was dying for it for so long.

1618
01:13:18,600 --> 01:13:20,800
Speaker 3: Yes, I mean that's what I'm talking about, like the

1619
01:13:20,960 --> 01:13:24,439
Speaker 3: dying for it, like I'm never gonna I do yearn

1620
01:13:24,560 --> 01:13:27,560
Speaker 3: for my my lover, and I like missed him. And

1621
01:13:27,600 --> 01:13:30,320
Speaker 3: there are times where it's like, oh thank god, it's

1622
01:13:30,360 --> 01:13:31,920
Speaker 3: never as good as the first time.

1623
01:13:32,000 --> 01:13:33,320
Speaker 1: It's like the first bite of food.

1624
01:13:33,800 --> 01:13:36,240
Speaker 3: It's never it's nothing's ever going to beat the first

1625
01:13:36,280 --> 01:13:39,920
Speaker 3: bite or like the first it's just and that kind

1626
01:13:39,960 --> 01:13:46,320
Speaker 3: of sucks. Final thought that I don't know that you

1627
01:13:46,360 --> 01:13:48,120
Speaker 3: have to say goodbye to that the rest of your

1628
01:13:48,120 --> 01:13:52,160
Speaker 3: life and have no more of those. No, I don't think,

1629
01:13:52,240 --> 01:13:54,360
Speaker 3: so that was not my first. One has to act

1630
01:13:54,360 --> 01:13:56,280
Speaker 3: like they're fine with it, and I don't think anyone is.

1631
01:13:56,320 --> 01:14:00,120
Speaker 3: I think my first time, I just cherish it, and

1632
01:14:00,160 --> 01:14:02,040
Speaker 3: it's not the first time. You're I'm just talking about

1633
01:14:02,080 --> 01:14:03,840
Speaker 3: You're never gonna have that with Matt again.

1634
01:14:04,960 --> 01:14:08,040
Speaker 4: I mean, you never know. I could be have to

1635
01:14:08,640 --> 01:14:10,439
Speaker 4: my client and giving him pills.

1636
01:14:10,560 --> 01:14:12,760
Speaker 3: You'll have to be there have to be some breakup

1637
01:14:13,160 --> 01:14:15,240
Speaker 3: for that to happen again, is what I'm saying. So

1638
01:14:15,320 --> 01:14:17,920
Speaker 3: I guess you do never know. But if things go

1639
01:14:18,000 --> 01:14:20,400
Speaker 3: the way that we all plan in marital bliss, you

1640
01:14:20,479 --> 01:14:21,360
Speaker 3: don't have that feeling.

1641
01:14:21,520 --> 01:14:23,559
Speaker 2: Yeah, there's not as much fear danger.

1642
01:14:26,760 --> 01:14:31,839
Speaker 4: What does Esther farrellsa Euroticism needs danger desire?

1643
01:14:32,000 --> 01:14:37,679
Speaker 3: Yes, yes, Like even yesterday when we went to the Muni,

1644
01:14:38,479 --> 01:14:41,160
Speaker 3: there were some like girls that I either Chris like

1645
01:14:41,240 --> 01:14:44,040
Speaker 3: knew like he kept saying like there was certain people

1646
01:14:44,040 --> 01:14:46,439
Speaker 3: being like Chris and they would go walk over these girls.

1647
01:14:46,560 --> 01:14:47,880
Speaker 3: And it turns out they were just like girls he

1648
01:14:47,920 --> 01:14:50,479
Speaker 3: works with that I've met before and are not threats

1649
01:14:50,479 --> 01:14:54,200
Speaker 3: at all. But they were like cute girls and and yeah,

1650
01:14:54,400 --> 01:14:57,000
Speaker 3: I was like so excited about it, like that it

1651
01:14:57,080 --> 01:15:00,439
Speaker 3: made me so much more into him to feel the

1652
01:15:00,479 --> 01:15:03,960
Speaker 3: threat of like so and not even the threat of like.

1653
01:15:03,920 --> 01:15:06,800
Speaker 1: This girl doesn't No one stands a chance. I know that.

1654
01:15:07,200 --> 01:15:11,599
Speaker 3: But also it just that really that made me feel

1655
01:15:11,640 --> 01:15:14,759
Speaker 3: like alive again, not again, but like for a little

1656
01:15:14,880 --> 01:15:17,760
Speaker 3: second of like this could slip away, or like I

1657
01:15:17,840 --> 01:15:19,599
Speaker 3: could I have this threatened.

1658
01:15:19,760 --> 01:15:22,120
Speaker 1: I need that, I really need You get other.

1659
01:15:22,080 --> 01:15:26,320
Speaker 5: Kinds of feelings that you wouldn't normally get with someone

1660
01:15:26,360 --> 01:15:28,320
Speaker 5: that you're not with you know what I mean.

1661
01:15:28,960 --> 01:15:30,120
Speaker 1: Could be off.

1662
01:15:30,000 --> 01:15:33,800
Speaker 2: Fun, it's a fun but exiding you.

1663
01:15:33,680 --> 01:15:36,920
Speaker 3: Feel those feelings too, like this unconditional love. Like everyone

1664
01:15:36,920 --> 01:15:39,120
Speaker 3: talks about these, No I understand that, and I do

1665
01:15:39,280 --> 01:15:43,160
Speaker 3: like the things that the intimacy I have with Chris

1666
01:15:43,400 --> 01:15:47,920
Speaker 3: is nothing can ever touch that. But it doesn't spike

1667
01:15:48,040 --> 01:15:49,560
Speaker 3: my dopamine levels.

1668
01:15:49,960 --> 01:15:50,639
Speaker 1: It just doesn't.

1669
01:15:51,160 --> 01:15:54,519
Speaker 3: Like the solid ground of like having a partner who

1670
01:15:54,560 --> 01:15:58,080
Speaker 3: will always have your back, it doesn't make my brain itch.

1671
01:15:58,320 --> 01:16:01,240
Speaker 1: It just it will never do that. And that's just science.

1672
01:16:01,439 --> 01:16:02,040
Speaker 1: You know, likes a.

1673
01:16:02,120 --> 01:16:05,800
Speaker 4: Drag that those dopamine hits, that the ones that I

1674
01:16:05,840 --> 01:16:09,280
Speaker 4: remember from my life all happened when I didn't have

1675
01:16:09,320 --> 01:16:12,160
Speaker 4: anyone having my back. So the stuff I was craving

1676
01:16:12,320 --> 01:16:15,840
Speaker 4: was like a guy I could count on too. But

1677
01:16:15,880 --> 01:16:18,040
Speaker 4: you know, I would have these dopamine hits once every

1678
01:16:18,120 --> 01:16:20,240
Speaker 4: I don't know, eight months or something.

1679
01:16:20,320 --> 01:16:21,160
Speaker 1: Until the other night.

1680
01:16:21,520 --> 01:16:23,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, we were talking about like just wanting a man

1681
01:16:24,040 --> 01:16:26,439
Speaker 3: to like like stare at us and just be like

1682
01:16:26,479 --> 01:16:28,559
Speaker 3: marvel at us, like I can't believe she's my girl,

1683
01:16:28,560 --> 01:16:31,559
Speaker 3: and like always protect us and like have a gentle arm.

1684
01:16:31,640 --> 01:16:33,839
Speaker 1: Like I send pictures to Rachel all the time talking.

1685
01:16:33,640 --> 01:16:37,000
Speaker 3: About this before of just men's like nurturing hands on

1686
01:16:37,080 --> 01:16:38,599
Speaker 3: the back of their women, like and.

1687
01:16:38,600 --> 01:16:41,400
Speaker 1: Chris does that to me. It just feels so fucking good.

1688
01:16:41,920 --> 01:16:44,400
Speaker 3: Of just like, uh, like last night he has had

1689
01:16:44,400 --> 01:16:46,559
Speaker 3: his hand on my leg and like I didn't want

1690
01:16:46,600 --> 01:16:48,479
Speaker 3: to move because I didn't want to like stir it.

1691
01:16:48,600 --> 01:16:50,360
Speaker 3: You know when your dog like rests its head on

1692
01:16:50,400 --> 01:16:52,280
Speaker 3: your and you just don't want to move at all

1693
01:16:52,320 --> 01:16:53,640
Speaker 3: because you know your dog will be like, well I

1694
01:16:53,720 --> 01:16:56,760
Speaker 3: don't care anymore. And like I was just like I

1695
01:16:56,760 --> 01:16:58,640
Speaker 3: want to move. My leg was like cramping, but I

1696
01:16:58,680 --> 01:17:01,559
Speaker 3: was like I can't get in this whole.

1697
01:17:01,760 --> 01:17:05,479
Speaker 1: I like want it so bad, But I do believe.

1698
01:17:05,920 --> 01:17:10,040
Speaker 3: What I think I just realized is that yes, you

1699
01:17:10,080 --> 01:17:13,040
Speaker 3: can argue all day long that no marriage provides and

1700
01:17:13,360 --> 01:17:17,200
Speaker 3: the monogamy provides these stable feelings and all this good stuff.

1701
01:17:17,439 --> 01:17:19,720
Speaker 3: It's true. It's good for you. It's like good for

1702
01:17:19,800 --> 01:17:22,120
Speaker 3: your soul. People live longer who are like paired up.

1703
01:17:22,160 --> 01:17:24,880
Speaker 3: It's like what we're meant to do, But you do

1704
01:17:25,439 --> 01:17:29,120
Speaker 3: say goodbye to awesome feelings. It's the same as quitting

1705
01:17:29,240 --> 01:17:34,000
Speaker 3: alcohol or quitting drugs. Like you, anyone who's listening to

1706
01:17:34,000 --> 01:17:36,479
Speaker 3: this who has given up a substance knows that, yes,

1707
01:17:36,560 --> 01:17:39,760
Speaker 3: your life does improve. And these really boring ways and

1708
01:17:39,800 --> 01:17:44,320
Speaker 3: these ways that just make that. But there's no more spikes.

1709
01:17:44,320 --> 01:17:48,000
Speaker 3: There's no more like whoo, the girls are here, Like

1710
01:17:48,120 --> 01:17:51,200
Speaker 3: there's you're not saying the girls are here anymore to anyone.

1711
01:17:51,240 --> 01:17:54,680
Speaker 1: If you don't drink. No one's ever proclaimed the girls.

1712
01:17:54,400 --> 01:17:58,280
Speaker 3: Are in the house unronically if you don't have booze

1713
01:17:58,280 --> 01:17:59,840
Speaker 3: in you, So you'll never do that again.

1714
01:18:00,120 --> 01:18:03,600
Speaker 1: I will never be like, what's up, y'all? Whoa like?

1715
01:18:03,720 --> 01:18:07,479
Speaker 3: I'll never be that excited about anything I liked. I

1716
01:18:08,240 --> 01:18:11,200
Speaker 3: like a base beat and be like, oh oh oh

1717
01:18:11,800 --> 01:18:15,759
Speaker 3: what like I'll never It'll never happen because I don't

1718
01:18:15,800 --> 01:18:18,040
Speaker 3: have alcohol courses in my brains to behave that.

1719
01:18:21,000 --> 01:18:24,120
Speaker 1: In the shower. No. I mean, like, you quit drinking

1720
01:18:24,160 --> 01:18:26,080
Speaker 1: for a reason. But there are great things.

1721
01:18:26,120 --> 01:18:28,759
Speaker 3: There are things about it that made me feel amazing

1722
01:18:28,880 --> 01:18:30,880
Speaker 3: and there are things about it that I miss so

1723
01:18:31,080 --> 01:18:33,760
Speaker 3: fucking much. And there are things about if I did

1724
01:18:33,920 --> 01:18:35,720
Speaker 3: I have ever done cocaine, I think I would have

1725
01:18:35,720 --> 01:18:39,080
Speaker 3: missed those feelings too, Like you're giving up something when

1726
01:18:39,120 --> 01:18:43,200
Speaker 3: you say goodbye to these things and to I don't know,

1727
01:18:43,600 --> 01:18:46,479
Speaker 3: Like I just can't get on board with monogamy, being

1728
01:18:46,520 --> 01:18:49,280
Speaker 3: like it's all good and there's no downsides the fact

1729
01:18:49,280 --> 01:18:51,439
Speaker 3: that you'll never have a crush on someone again, you'll

1730
01:18:51,479 --> 01:18:52,440
Speaker 3: never wonder.

1731
01:18:52,200 --> 01:18:55,880
Speaker 5: Like you will. You're still going to feel attraction to people.

1732
01:18:56,120 --> 01:18:57,880
Speaker 5: I mean, I know when obviously he's a hot girl.

1733
01:18:58,280 --> 01:19:01,439
Speaker 5: That's like smelling food without eating it. It's boring you'll

1734
01:19:01,479 --> 01:19:05,640
Speaker 5: never get to eat it. Yeah, But I guess, like

1735
01:19:05,840 --> 01:19:08,240
Speaker 5: the way I think about it is I could have

1736
01:19:08,280 --> 01:19:11,519
Speaker 5: attraction to someone and like flirt with them, but I

1737
01:19:11,560 --> 01:19:14,360
Speaker 5: get to be saved from that extra step that I like,

1738
01:19:14,439 --> 01:19:16,200
Speaker 5: I don't like when they finally hit on me and

1739
01:19:16,240 --> 01:19:18,599
Speaker 5: then I have to say no. It just it could

1740
01:19:18,640 --> 01:19:21,000
Speaker 5: just kind of linger in that like purgatory.

1741
01:19:21,080 --> 01:19:24,920
Speaker 3: Yeah that's kind of fun actually, and yeah too, And

1742
01:19:25,200 --> 01:19:28,360
Speaker 3: I I wouldn't be in a relationship if I valued

1743
01:19:29,240 --> 01:19:31,880
Speaker 3: all of these things more than a relationship, Like why

1744
01:19:31,920 --> 01:19:34,080
Speaker 3: would I choose that that's not what I'm saying, right

1745
01:19:34,479 --> 01:19:36,200
Speaker 3: in case Chris sees this and is like, then why

1746
01:19:36,240 --> 01:19:38,000
Speaker 3: are you with me? Because I would probably feel the

1747
01:19:38,000 --> 01:19:39,840
Speaker 3: same way if you were saying these things. I'm just

1748
01:19:39,920 --> 01:19:45,160
Speaker 3: saying there are even for I'm constantly like, really me forever,

1749
01:19:45,640 --> 01:19:49,320
Speaker 3: no one else ever again, till you die. You don't

1750
01:19:49,400 --> 01:19:52,200
Speaker 3: get to live again. You know that, right, Like this

1751
01:19:52,400 --> 01:19:55,280
Speaker 3: is it. You don't get any more pussy the rest

1752
01:19:55,400 --> 01:19:56,160
Speaker 3: of your life.

1753
01:19:56,400 --> 01:19:58,080
Speaker 1: This, How could you?

1754
01:19:58,360 --> 01:20:00,280
Speaker 5: I mean, because the only way I I ever be

1755
01:20:00,320 --> 01:20:02,080
Speaker 5: able to get well, he loves your pussy.

1756
01:20:02,200 --> 01:20:03,200
Speaker 1: That's all he needs.

1757
01:20:04,640 --> 01:20:07,800
Speaker 3: It's I just I know that I'll never have any dick,

1758
01:20:07,880 --> 01:20:10,040
Speaker 3: probably the rest of my life, any different dick.

1759
01:20:10,840 --> 01:20:12,080
Speaker 1: I don't. I will not.

1760
01:20:12,840 --> 01:20:15,240
Speaker 3: I would not sign a contract that says like I

1761
01:20:15,280 --> 01:20:19,400
Speaker 3: still want like anything could happen. That's what I want

1762
01:20:19,439 --> 01:20:21,400
Speaker 3: for the rest of my life. And I won't admit

1763
01:20:21,439 --> 01:20:23,559
Speaker 3: that my parents are gonna die someday. I won't admit

1764
01:20:23,640 --> 01:20:26,840
Speaker 3: like admitting that I will never have a crush on someone,

1765
01:20:26,880 --> 01:20:29,439
Speaker 3: and maybe like a first date with someone again is

1766
01:20:29,479 --> 01:20:31,519
Speaker 3: a tiny death to me that I'm not willing to

1767
01:20:32,760 --> 01:20:35,559
Speaker 3: give in fully too. Even if I do get married

1768
01:20:35,600 --> 01:20:38,840
Speaker 3: I will still be like there's always divorce, like and

1769
01:20:38,840 --> 01:20:40,800
Speaker 3: not that I want that. I don't even want it.

1770
01:20:40,880 --> 01:20:43,920
Speaker 3: I just need a trapdoor. Is that relatable at all?

1771
01:20:44,200 --> 01:20:44,479
Speaker 4: Totally?

1772
01:20:45,120 --> 01:20:46,920
Speaker 3: Just the way that I won't think about my parents dying.

1773
01:20:47,000 --> 01:20:49,519
Speaker 3: I know they're going to die. I know that I'm

1774
01:20:49,520 --> 01:20:52,479
Speaker 3: probably gonna be with Chris for the rest of my life.

1775
01:20:52,840 --> 01:20:55,479
Speaker 3: But if I marry him, I certainly will know that,

1776
01:20:55,880 --> 01:20:58,880
Speaker 3: but I still won't. I don't want to think about

1777
01:20:58,920 --> 01:21:01,479
Speaker 3: the fact that it actually and it's all fear of death.

1778
01:21:01,760 --> 01:21:04,040
Speaker 3: It's really essentially like I'm not going to get a

1779
01:21:04,080 --> 01:21:06,280
Speaker 3: second time to do any of this shit again. The

1780
01:21:06,320 --> 01:21:08,320
Speaker 3: fact that I'll never be seventeen again, the fact that

1781
01:21:08,360 --> 01:21:10,599
Speaker 3: I'll never be twenty seven, Like all of these things

1782
01:21:10,640 --> 01:21:11,479
Speaker 3: really depress me.

1783
01:21:11,960 --> 01:21:14,120
Speaker 1: I hate like I'll never.

1784
01:21:14,080 --> 01:21:18,479
Speaker 3: Have this day again, like the second like I'm I'm

1785
01:21:18,720 --> 01:21:21,400
Speaker 3: one second closer death now. It's all just fear of death,

1786
01:21:21,439 --> 01:21:23,439
Speaker 3: I think, is ultimately what this is. I used to

1787
01:21:23,439 --> 01:21:25,640
Speaker 3: have a joke that was like men don't want to,

1788
01:21:26,400 --> 01:21:30,400
Speaker 3: you know, become your boyfriend because they think like if

1789
01:21:30,439 --> 01:21:32,320
Speaker 3: I go from being like casual with this girl to

1790
01:21:32,360 --> 01:21:36,000
Speaker 3: a boyfriend, then boyfriend equals like the next step is engaged,

1791
01:21:36,120 --> 01:21:38,719
Speaker 3: and then the next step is marriage, and then marriage

1792
01:21:38,760 --> 01:21:41,320
Speaker 3: is forever, and then I'm dead, and then it's like

1793
01:21:41,360 --> 01:21:43,280
Speaker 3: makes you think of death. It's a very close way,

1794
01:21:43,920 --> 01:21:46,200
Speaker 3: you know, commitment is a close, close way to remind

1795
01:21:46,240 --> 01:21:48,120
Speaker 3: you that you're gonna die someday, because it's like till

1796
01:21:48,520 --> 01:21:49,599
Speaker 3: the word death is.

1797
01:21:49,560 --> 01:21:51,240
Speaker 1: In a vows.

1798
01:21:51,400 --> 01:21:55,200
Speaker 3: It's crazy, but I realized that joke was my fear

1799
01:21:55,320 --> 01:21:55,839
Speaker 3: all along.

1800
01:21:56,560 --> 01:21:57,720
Speaker 1: That's what I'm scared of.

1801
01:21:57,800 --> 01:21:58,640
Speaker 2: It's relatable.

1802
01:21:59,160 --> 01:22:01,479
Speaker 3: I was projected it onto men who didn't want to

1803
01:22:01,560 --> 01:22:03,439
Speaker 3: date me, but the truth is I was choosing men

1804
01:22:03,439 --> 01:22:05,320
Speaker 3: who did. I didn't want to date me because I'm

1805
01:22:05,479 --> 01:22:08,080
Speaker 3: terrified to find someone that I'm forever with and it

1806
01:22:08,240 --> 01:22:10,240
Speaker 3: fucking freaks me out. And that's probably why I'm having

1807
01:22:10,280 --> 01:22:11,760
Speaker 3: dream where I'm getting raped every night.

1808
01:22:13,800 --> 01:22:17,559
Speaker 4: On that note, I tried to get some dopamine out

1809
01:22:17,560 --> 01:22:21,720
Speaker 4: of Matt last night. We were having dinner. I lit candles.

1810
01:22:22,160 --> 01:22:24,360
Speaker 4: Then I was I looked at him. I was like, so,

1811
01:22:25,200 --> 01:22:27,559
Speaker 4: when did you know I was the one? And he's like,

1812
01:22:28,360 --> 01:22:32,840
Speaker 4: I don't really believe in the one. I'm like, all right, well,

1813
01:22:32,880 --> 01:22:34,720
Speaker 4: when did you know, like you wanted to marry me?

1814
01:22:34,800 --> 01:22:37,479
Speaker 4: He's like, I don't know, babe, it doesn't matter.

1815
01:22:37,640 --> 01:22:40,880
Speaker 2: This like, this is not going how I wanted. I

1816
01:22:40,920 --> 01:22:43,240
Speaker 2: was like, I'm trying to get something romantic out of you.

1817
01:22:43,320 --> 01:22:46,599
Speaker 3: He's like, they don't remember, they don't remember these they

1818
01:22:46,640 --> 01:22:49,679
Speaker 3: don't I bet Avi was probably like, oh yeah, that night,

1819
01:22:49,840 --> 01:22:51,800
Speaker 3: I don't know, were we in Manhattan, Like he probably

1820
01:22:51,800 --> 01:22:53,720
Speaker 3: wouldn't be able to place the cross waits or does

1821
01:22:53,760 --> 01:22:56,040
Speaker 3: he we relish?

1822
01:22:56,120 --> 01:22:58,840
Speaker 1: She said that night? Yeah, no, he he's very good

1823
01:22:58,840 --> 01:23:01,400
Speaker 1: about it. But I don't know.

1824
01:23:01,439 --> 01:23:03,880
Speaker 3: I just feel like there's nothing and even if someone

1825
01:23:03,960 --> 01:23:05,960
Speaker 3: put you in that position on you where it's like

1826
01:23:06,040 --> 01:23:09,120
Speaker 3: do you remember like that and how we fell and all,

1827
01:23:09,200 --> 01:23:12,480
Speaker 3: it's like maybe it's just uncomfortable to talk about.

1828
01:23:12,240 --> 01:23:15,559
Speaker 4: It and finally come up with a good answer. First

1829
01:23:15,640 --> 01:23:17,000
Speaker 4: he said, well.

1830
01:23:16,880 --> 01:23:20,120
Speaker 1: He goes, I guess like the way we fight is

1831
01:23:20,160 --> 01:23:20,639
Speaker 1: like good.

1832
01:23:21,200 --> 01:23:23,120
Speaker 2: I'm like, the way we fight.

1833
01:23:23,160 --> 01:23:26,839
Speaker 4: Your impression of him is hilarious. That's how you decide

1834
01:23:26,840 --> 01:23:30,240
Speaker 4: you want to marry me. He's like, I mean we

1835
01:23:30,320 --> 01:23:32,839
Speaker 4: do fight pretty. I feel like we resolve our conflicts.

1836
01:23:32,880 --> 01:23:35,120
Speaker 4: I'm like, I wanted something romantic. He goes, okay, okay,

1837
01:23:35,200 --> 01:23:38,360
Speaker 4: hold on, I like that.

1838
01:23:38,520 --> 01:23:39,160
Speaker 2: You're funny.

1839
01:23:39,720 --> 01:23:42,000
Speaker 4: You made me laugh, and I laughed a lot with you,

1840
01:23:42,439 --> 01:23:46,280
Speaker 4: and I think I just knew. You know, she's weird,

1841
01:23:46,920 --> 01:23:49,559
Speaker 4: she's funny. I like that we laugh so much. So

1842
01:23:49,640 --> 01:23:51,920
Speaker 4: I guess that was when it kind of nice. Yeah.

1843
01:23:52,080 --> 01:23:54,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'll try to ask. Maybe i'll call it Chris

1844
01:23:54,479 --> 01:23:55,720
Speaker 1: right now and ask him when he knew.

1845
01:23:56,479 --> 01:23:57,120
Speaker 2: Well, don't speak.

1846
01:23:57,680 --> 01:23:59,599
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think he's probably napping, but let me.

1847
01:23:59,600 --> 01:24:03,080
Speaker 1: Just loy Koe resolved. Yeah, that's like.

1848
01:24:03,120 --> 01:24:04,920
Speaker 3: I like that you don't cuss me out and say

1849
01:24:04,960 --> 01:24:07,559
Speaker 3: fuck you, dick and leave the room whatever you're doing.

1850
01:24:08,080 --> 01:24:13,320
Speaker 1: It's not that, it's actually pretty cool. He's gonna be like,

1851
01:24:13,320 --> 01:24:14,320
Speaker 1: why is she calling me?

1852
01:24:15,880 --> 01:24:21,000
Speaker 3: You're in trouble I know, or he's in trouble, babe,

1853
01:24:21,200 --> 01:24:25,679
Speaker 3: I just found come on, Oh he's a secret.

1854
01:24:26,240 --> 01:24:33,479
Speaker 1: Oh tell me why you love me? When did you know?

1855
01:24:33,760 --> 01:24:35,680
Speaker 1: He just probably say the same thing of like you're

1856
01:24:35,720 --> 01:24:36,719
Speaker 1: funny and you're weird.

1857
01:24:36,920 --> 01:24:38,760
Speaker 5: Maybe he can text it to you and we'll post

1858
01:24:38,760 --> 01:24:40,800
Speaker 5: it on Instagram, so bestie's have.

1859
01:24:41,280 --> 01:24:44,200
Speaker 1: He won't allow that. He won't because I'll go.

1860
01:24:44,360 --> 01:24:46,240
Speaker 3: If I say it's gonna go on Instagram, he'll be like,

1861
01:24:46,320 --> 01:24:48,439
Speaker 3: I can't, I don't. It will be too much pressure

1862
01:24:48,439 --> 01:24:50,880
Speaker 3: for him. To write something perfect. It just won't there's

1863
01:24:50,920 --> 01:24:53,280
Speaker 3: no way. I'm glad he didn't even pick up, because

1864
01:24:53,280 --> 01:24:54,400
Speaker 3: I doubt he would have. He would have been like,

1865
01:24:54,479 --> 01:24:58,680
Speaker 3: I'm not doing this like he has toed. Yes, No,

1866
01:24:58,680 --> 01:25:00,519
Speaker 3: I would have told him I'm not like that bitch

1867
01:25:00,520 --> 01:25:02,439
Speaker 3: in that jaredfogel dot I'm just kidding.

1868
01:25:02,439 --> 01:25:04,040
Speaker 1: I love her so much. Thank you for your work,

1869
01:25:05,320 --> 01:25:05,599
Speaker 1: all right?

1870
01:25:05,600 --> 01:25:08,760
Speaker 4: He would say, how can I say Glaze, She's like

1871
01:25:09,080 --> 01:25:11,200
Speaker 4: no other you know, I just knew when I saw

1872
01:25:12,160 --> 01:25:12,639
Speaker 4: this lady.

1873
01:25:12,720 --> 01:25:14,000
Speaker 1: No, he did not know when he saw me.

1874
01:25:14,560 --> 01:25:17,400
Speaker 3: No, he was just like, yeah, like I guess this

1875
01:25:17,600 --> 01:25:19,720
Speaker 3: or I think she's into me. Oh, I know, like

1876
01:25:19,760 --> 01:25:21,080
Speaker 3: he was confused by it. Yeah.

1877
01:25:21,120 --> 01:25:23,639
Speaker 1: No, he did not know right away at all at all.

1878
01:25:23,880 --> 01:25:26,840
Speaker 1: I've hunted this man down. I know I'm a man.

1879
01:25:27,120 --> 01:25:27,880
Speaker 1: Told me that too.

1880
01:25:27,920 --> 01:25:31,240
Speaker 2: He goes, When did I know when you told.

1881
01:25:31,000 --> 01:25:33,080
Speaker 1: Me you were the one? Yeah.

1882
01:25:33,320 --> 01:25:35,600
Speaker 3: Listen to the song Mastermind by Taylor Swift, and that

1883
01:25:35,720 --> 01:25:37,800
Speaker 3: is how I feel about my relationship, and so do

1884
01:25:37,960 --> 01:25:40,880
Speaker 3: all of us because that is it's like we we

1885
01:25:41,080 --> 01:25:43,600
Speaker 3: read a book, bitch to get this lockdown?

1886
01:25:44,479 --> 01:25:45,519
Speaker 1: All right?

1887
01:25:45,560 --> 01:25:47,920
Speaker 3: Thank you for listening to the show this week. We'll

1888
01:25:47,960 --> 01:25:49,960
Speaker 3: be here next week. Don't you even think we won't

1889
01:25:50,360 --> 01:25:52,080
Speaker 3: have a great weekend. I'm gonna be in Vegas with

1890
01:25:52,160 --> 01:25:54,680
Speaker 3: David Spade July thirtieth and thirty first. I'm gonna be

1891
01:25:54,720 --> 01:25:58,360
Speaker 3: in Highlands, California the twenty fourth, and I have a

1892
01:25:58,400 --> 01:25:59,639
Speaker 3: bunch of tour dates.

1893
01:25:59,720 --> 01:26:01,360
Speaker 1: Let me look them up, really, wig, what's it?

1894
01:26:01,400 --> 01:26:07,080
Speaker 3: September it's Chicago eleven, Yes, I'm sure, September fifteenth, Chicago,

1895
01:26:07,200 --> 01:26:12,879
Speaker 3: September sixteenth, Peoria, Englewood, New Jersey, Calgary, Napa, Wheatland, California,

1896
01:26:13,120 --> 01:26:15,519
Speaker 3: San Francisco. I can't even it's controlling past too fast.

1897
01:26:15,560 --> 01:26:17,479
Speaker 3: This is the worst graphic I've ever seen. Who did

1898
01:26:17,520 --> 01:26:17,840
Speaker 3: my own?

1899
01:26:17,840 --> 01:26:18,040
Speaker 4: There?

1900
01:26:18,080 --> 01:26:20,840
Speaker 1: Then there's like no one can find their date.

1901
01:26:21,120 --> 01:26:33,320
Speaker 3: Detroit, Pennsylvania, Ontario, Portland, Atlantic City, Rehoboth Beach, Delaware, Baltimore, Boston, Lawrence, Kansas, Riverside, Iowa,

1902
01:26:33,479 --> 01:26:36,840
Speaker 3: San Diego, California. And yeah, and that is not even

1903
01:26:36,880 --> 01:26:39,160
Speaker 3: all of them. We're still adding more. So thank you

1904
01:26:39,160 --> 01:26:40,600
Speaker 3: guys for coming to see me live, Thank you for

1905
01:26:40,640 --> 01:26:41,360
Speaker 3: listening to the podcast.

1906
01:26:41,360 --> 01:26:45,759
Speaker 1: We'll see you next time. Don't be and just don't

1907
01:26:46,600 --> 01:26:47,840
Speaker 1: dring what I dreamed last night